WEBVTT - Chapter 8: Club Jenna 0:00:03.240 --> 0:00:05.320 I try my hardest to push the point that I 0:00:05.360 --> 0:00:09.080 am a feminist. I really think it's important that people 0:00:09.200 --> 0:00:13.080 know that the women in this industry are empowered. They 0:00:13.160 --> 0:00:16.880 run it. Man, It's awesome. It's only a matter of 0:00:16.920 --> 0:00:19.239 time before women take over the industry altogether. 0:00:20.840 --> 0:00:37.920 Jenna Jamison, Welcome to jenal World. Welcome back to Jenna World. 0:00:38.360 --> 0:00:48.760 I'm your host, Mollie Lambert. This is episode eight Club Jenna. 0:00:50.320 --> 0:00:53.480 When I first met Jenna, I thought she was very cute, 0:00:53.600 --> 0:00:56.200 but I thought she was young and a little Braddy 0:00:56.880 --> 0:00:58.560 Jay Gardina director. 0:01:01.120 --> 0:01:05.360 He struck me as the most arrogant, irritating man I 0:01:05.400 --> 0:01:08.200 had ever met. 0:01:09.280 --> 0:01:12.920 Jenna is back in Las Vegas for another convention. This 0:01:13.080 --> 0:01:17.959 time it's the Video Software Dealers Association trade Show. She's 0:01:18.000 --> 0:01:20.679 at a water park on Vicodin with Nikki Tyler and 0:01:20.760 --> 0:01:24.640 Jill Kelly for a bikini party called Wet and Wild. 0:01:25.319 --> 0:01:28.520 The party at the water park is the Vegas equivalent 0:01:28.680 --> 0:01:32.080 of a can yacht party, a place for adult biz 0:01:32.120 --> 0:01:38.800 folks to mingle with fans and potential film investors. After 0:01:38.880 --> 0:01:43.399 her Jordan's Crazy Girl era in Miami, Jenna has sworn 0:01:43.560 --> 0:01:48.240 off falling in love, but then from across the water park, 0:01:48.600 --> 0:01:52.080 she's bewitched by a six foot one hunk she recognizes 0:01:52.160 --> 0:01:57.400 as Jay Gardina, a libra. Jay Gardina is a porn 0:01:57.480 --> 0:02:01.600 screenwriter and director who works on under the name Justin Sterling. 0:02:02.280 --> 0:02:07.400 His parents immigrated from Carlovak Croatia to Wooster, Ohio, where 0:02:07.400 --> 0:02:11.639 he was born into a cattle ranching dynasty. He attends 0:02:11.680 --> 0:02:15.760 Catholic prep school Gilmour Academy in Ohio and then matriculates 0:02:15.800 --> 0:02:18.920 at the University of San Diego, where he double majors 0:02:18.919 --> 0:02:23.239 in psychology and business. After college, he moves to Los 0:02:23.280 --> 0:02:26.160 Angeles to try to get work as a male model. 0:02:27.440 --> 0:02:31.200 Jay Gardina then meets porn director Michael Nin and starts 0:02:31.240 --> 0:02:35.760 producing Nin's adult films. Michael Nin is a music video 0:02:35.840 --> 0:02:40.320 director for Capitol Records who moves into porn, directing glossy, 0:02:40.560 --> 0:02:45.800 high end music videoe adult films with fetishware elements. He 0:02:45.919 --> 0:02:49.080 directs movies like Latex, which comes with a CD ROM 0:02:49.120 --> 0:02:52.040 game where you can point and click to see various 0:02:52.080 --> 0:02:57.000 sex scenes. Jay Gardina also starts directing titles like nineteen 0:02:57.120 --> 0:03:01.200 ninety six's Ksex one oh six point nine one and 0:03:01.360 --> 0:03:04.680 the nineteen ninety seven sequel Ksex one oh six point 0:03:04.760 --> 0:03:09.240 nine two under the stage name Michael Santangelo for a 0:03:09.280 --> 0:03:10.919 studio called Ultimate Video. 0:03:12.919 --> 0:03:15.280 I actually thought about being a priest when I was 0:03:15.280 --> 0:03:18.520 a kid, but when I was thirteen or fourteen, something 0:03:18.560 --> 0:03:21.799 went wrong. I came into the industry in nineteen eighty 0:03:21.800 --> 0:03:24.240 two as an investor because a friend was shooting a 0:03:24.240 --> 0:03:27.240 porn movie. I wanted to learn about filmmaking, so I 0:03:27.280 --> 0:03:29.440 started working for him on the crew as a video tech. 0:03:31.880 --> 0:03:35.400 In nineteen ninety eight, Jake Ardina leaves La and takes 0:03:35.400 --> 0:03:38.880 a break from working in film, citing burnout from porn's 0:03:38.880 --> 0:03:42.960 one hundred hour work weeks. He moves to Arizona, where 0:03:43.000 --> 0:03:48.280 his wealthy Croatian family now resides. He's dating Chasey Lane, 0:03:48.720 --> 0:03:52.080 Jenna's contract girl predecessor at Wicked Pictures. 0:03:53.320 --> 0:03:55.480 He owned a film studio that we show a lot 0:03:55.480 --> 0:03:57.800 of my movies at, and I would always see him 0:03:57.880 --> 0:03:59.480 running around like a maniac. 0:04:01.360 --> 0:04:03.520 She'd come on set and she would control the crew. 0:04:03.560 --> 0:04:06.400 You know, I'm seeing this like, no one's gonna come 0:04:06.440 --> 0:04:09.160 on my set and tell me what to do, especially 0:04:09.200 --> 0:04:12.960 the talent. This is my show. And she was powerful. 0:04:13.480 --> 0:04:15.600 So it was always that butting heads. 0:04:17.640 --> 0:04:21.159 In their handful of interactions. Jenna has found Jay to 0:04:21.240 --> 0:04:25.760 be cocky and entitled, like rich boys are. She's also 0:04:25.839 --> 0:04:30.880 heard he's into very rough sex. She's wary, but when 0:04:30.880 --> 0:04:33.599 she sees Jay at the water park hanging with Tet 0:04:33.800 --> 0:04:38.000 Boy and some other vivid performers, he catches her eye again. 0:04:39.160 --> 0:04:42.320 Jill Kelly is there with Jenna, and on Jenna's request, 0:04:42.760 --> 0:04:46.920 she tells Jay that Jenna thinks he's cute. 0:04:47.080 --> 0:04:49.440 When I spotted him at the Wet and Wild party, 0:04:50.279 --> 0:04:52.800 it was like seeing him for the first time. 0:04:55.000 --> 0:04:56.800 We didn't hit it up very well. 0:04:59.560 --> 0:05:05.000 Despite her reservations about pursuing romance again, Jenna slips back 0:05:05.040 --> 0:05:09.720 down the rushing water slide of desire. Jenna and Jay 0:05:09.760 --> 0:05:13.240 tell slightly differing stories about a botched attempt at a 0:05:13.279 --> 0:05:16.680 late night hookup that left both of them feelings stood up, 0:05:17.240 --> 0:05:20.960 followed by a morning reconciliation in the warm glow of 0:05:21.000 --> 0:05:25.560 the slot machines on the casino floor of the Venetian Resort. 0:05:26.360 --> 0:05:31.320 Talking to her was different than I expected. She was cool, intelligent, articulate, 0:05:31.720 --> 0:05:34.400 and funny. 0:05:34.480 --> 0:05:36.520 I think that he was surprised by a lot of 0:05:36.520 --> 0:05:39.919 the things I had to say. I remember thinking, what 0:05:40.000 --> 0:05:42.880 am I doing? I'm gonna fall in love with this guy? 0:05:44.480 --> 0:05:47.720 And I was like, Okay, we'll see what happens. So 0:05:48.040 --> 0:05:49.200 we started talking. 0:05:51.320 --> 0:05:56.880 They eventually take the conversation upstairs. Jenna does not like 0:05:56.960 --> 0:05:59.880 to be bossed around in bed or anywhere else for 0:06:00.160 --> 0:06:03.560 that matter, but she makes an exception for Jay Gardina 0:06:03.960 --> 0:06:06.640 because he seems like he's really listening to her and 0:06:06.720 --> 0:06:11.000 paying close attention to what actually gets her off. Then 0:06:11.440 --> 0:06:15.240 Jay goes back home to Phoenix and ghosts Jenna, who 0:06:15.279 --> 0:06:20.880 is super fucking annoyed. To get her stagnating career back 0:06:20.920 --> 0:06:24.039 out of the mud. Jenna is doing feature dances again 0:06:24.480 --> 0:06:28.080 at a Vegas strip club called Crazy Girls. Her roommate 0:06:28.279 --> 0:06:32.159 and alleged BFF, Nicki Tyler, has fallen off the grid. 0:06:32.920 --> 0:06:36.000 Jenna has become very self conscious about some weight that 0:06:36.040 --> 0:06:40.800 she gained in Miami. She begins starving herself, eating nothing 0:06:40.839 --> 0:06:45.279 but energy bars, lettuce, and increasingly vicodins. 0:06:47.080 --> 0:06:50.320 Nicky and I call them three fifty seven magnums because 0:06:50.360 --> 0:06:52.680 they had a three fifty seven printed on them and 0:06:52.800 --> 0:06:55.440 felt like a gunshot to the stomach. 0:06:57.440 --> 0:07:01.440 Jenna's tolerance for Vicodin keeps right the more often she 0:07:01.520 --> 0:07:06.320 takes them and she's popping the pills like candy. Tommy 0:07:06.360 --> 0:07:09.480 Lee from Motley Crue is a customer at Crazy Girls 0:07:09.480 --> 0:07:12.320 one night and invites Jenna to come see him play. 0:07:13.680 --> 0:07:17.040 By the late nineties, hair metal like Motley's is dead, 0:07:17.640 --> 0:07:20.840 buried deep, and trod over by the Doc Martins of 0:07:20.920 --> 0:07:24.040 millions of grunge and alternative rock bands. 0:07:26.640 --> 0:07:30.320 On a hopeless fucking romantic That's a part of me 0:07:30.440 --> 0:07:33.520 that a lot of people don't know about. They know 0:07:33.680 --> 0:07:36.480 everything there is to know about another part of me, 0:07:37.320 --> 0:07:42.680 but not a thing about my heart. Tommy Lee Musician. 0:07:44.880 --> 0:07:48.320 Tommy Lee is coming off his marriage to Pamela Anderson, 0:07:48.920 --> 0:07:53.720 which ended in divorce after accusations of Tommy's domestic violence. 0:07:54.600 --> 0:07:57.640 He is still touring with Motley Crue, who are out 0:07:57.640 --> 0:08:00.400 of the zeitgeist but becoming a nostalgia act for their 0:08:00.400 --> 0:08:04.280 aging eighties fans. He's on the verge of quitting his 0:08:04.320 --> 0:08:07.600 gig drumming for Motley Crue to start a rap rock 0:08:07.640 --> 0:08:11.800 group called Methods of Mayhem. While Tommy Lee is one 0:08:11.800 --> 0:08:16.160 of Jenna's longest running rockstar fantasy crushes from MTV. When 0:08:16.160 --> 0:08:18.640 she gets the chance to hook up with him, she's 0:08:18.680 --> 0:08:20.640 barely cognizant. 0:08:22.080 --> 0:08:25.160 After the show, I took three more pills on the 0:08:25.200 --> 0:08:28.240 elevator up to the after party. My head began to 0:08:28.280 --> 0:08:30.920 spin and I felt like I could walk through doors 0:08:31.040 --> 0:08:31.920 and windows. 0:08:34.040 --> 0:08:37.160 Jenna is way too fucked up to enjoy her night 0:08:37.240 --> 0:08:41.000 with Tommy Lee. In fact, she's not conscious for most 0:08:41.040 --> 0:08:44.520 of it. She keeps blacking in and out, which is 0:08:44.679 --> 0:08:49.079 obviously horrifying. She also has a newish piercing on her clit, 0:08:49.520 --> 0:08:52.720 and it's still so sensitive that it's painful to have 0:08:52.840 --> 0:08:57.080 sex with famously well endowed stick man Tommy Lee. But 0:08:57.160 --> 0:08:59.800 what really freaks Jenna out isn't the pain in her 0:09:00.559 --> 0:09:04.080 or that she barely remembers last night. It's waking up 0:09:04.120 --> 0:09:08.000 in the hotel with Tommy Lee's spooning her. She's still 0:09:08.080 --> 0:09:12.200 repulsed by any kind of sensitivity or emotional neediness from men, 0:09:12.960 --> 0:09:19.319 especially cuddling. She hates cuddling. Her own internalized misogyny runs 0:09:19.320 --> 0:09:22.840 so deep that she judges men harshly for showing any 0:09:22.920 --> 0:09:27.240 soft feelings or wanting to be vulnerable. With her ew 0:09:28.880 --> 0:09:32.040 coming down from the drugs and her horrific night that 0:09:32.120 --> 0:09:37.640 she doesn't really remember, Jenna bursts into tears after she's 0:09:37.679 --> 0:09:41.439 photographed in close proximity to Tommy Lee at Crazy Girls. 0:09:41.880 --> 0:09:44.800 She goes back on the Howard Stern Show and totally 0:09:44.840 --> 0:09:49.560 denies having had sex with Tommy. 0:09:49.640 --> 0:09:52.079 Have you ever fucked Tommy Lee, let's get to it. No, 0:09:53.160 --> 0:09:54.760 you've never had sex with them. 0:09:54.840 --> 0:09:57.400 No, but you go out and rub each other down 0:09:57.440 --> 0:09:57.959 in public? 0:09:58.960 --> 0:10:03.280 I he Have you performed oral sex on Tommy Lee? 0:10:04.000 --> 0:10:04.080 No? 0:10:05.040 --> 0:10:07.400 Have you performed lesbian ax in front of Tommy Lee? 0:10:08.080 --> 0:10:08.160 No? 0:10:09.160 --> 0:10:12.000 Well kind of, because he came to one of my shows. 0:10:12.280 --> 0:10:14.959 Okay, but have you ever had an affair with Tommy Lee? 0:10:15.400 --> 0:10:15.679 No? 0:10:16.360 --> 0:10:18.080 You're not sleeping with Tommy Lee. 0:10:18.400 --> 0:10:18.480 No. 0:10:19.160 --> 0:10:20.920 Why would you not sleep with Tommy Lee as he 0:10:20.960 --> 0:10:21.920 asked you to sleep with him? 0:10:22.679 --> 0:10:26.400 Well, I'm sure he wants to. I mean he's been 0:10:26.480 --> 0:10:27.280 pursuing me. 0:10:27.840 --> 0:10:31.040 Oh yeah, sure, all right, he has been. Have you 0:10:31.120 --> 0:10:31.600 kissed him? 0:10:32.240 --> 0:10:32.320 No. 0:10:35.840 --> 0:10:39.120 They question her further about whether she and Tommy Lee 0:10:39.200 --> 0:10:43.600 have a romantic relationship, and she denies it. Jenna tells 0:10:43.640 --> 0:10:47.079 them Tommy Lee merely came by her show at Crazy Girls, 0:10:47.480 --> 0:10:51.600 came backstage to meet her, flirted, and left. She says 0:10:51.679 --> 0:10:53.800 he did not get to touch her body at all. 0:10:56.440 --> 0:10:59.080 Nothing Wow, fascinating, You're so good looking. 0:10:59.679 --> 0:11:03.320 He's such a great guy. He's really a great guy. 0:11:04.920 --> 0:11:06.040 Ask Pam. 0:11:06.559 --> 0:11:09.800 He's uh, did he talk to you about Pam? What 0:11:09.920 --> 0:11:11.600 happened with him and Pam? Did he push her down 0:11:11.600 --> 0:11:13.360 those steps or something? Or puncher or something. 0:11:14.120 --> 0:11:15.520 He doesn't really bring her up. 0:11:15.960 --> 0:11:17.480 You don't bring it up. You don't say to him, hey, 0:11:17.600 --> 0:11:19.559 let's have a fight. 0:11:20.960 --> 0:11:24.480 Jenna laughs off some really awful riffing about whether she 0:11:24.520 --> 0:11:28.080 can take a punch, and then Howard asks her seriously 0:11:28.600 --> 0:11:32.160 if she's lying about this whole Tommy Lee thing. She 0:11:32.440 --> 0:11:35.960 swears she's telling the truth, but her voice does get 0:11:35.960 --> 0:11:39.440 a little high and strange when she says it. 0:11:40.520 --> 0:11:42.400 Are you lying to me? Let me square in the eye. 0:11:42.880 --> 0:11:45.360 I'm not lying, Howard. 0:11:45.320 --> 0:11:47.200 You're not. You wouldn't lie to me right after what 0:11:47.200 --> 0:11:49.160 we've been through together and what we've meant to each other. 0:11:49.200 --> 0:11:49.880 Would you lie to me? 0:11:50.400 --> 0:11:52.000 Of course I wouldn't lie to you. 0:11:52.559 --> 0:11:54.199 Well, then, okay, there you have it, because I don't 0:11:54.240 --> 0:11:57.520 want you fucking him. 0:11:57.679 --> 0:12:01.600 Jenna's refusal to claim Tommy Lee in public means he 0:12:01.640 --> 0:12:05.400 cannot embarrass her on the record. Jenna knows rock stars 0:12:05.520 --> 0:12:08.840 are not good boyfriend material because she knows they're obsessed 0:12:08.840 --> 0:12:13.920 with conquests and collecting sexual trophies. Plus they're always being 0:12:13.960 --> 0:12:18.520 propositioned by groupies. But Tommy Lee isn't like most male 0:12:18.640 --> 0:12:22.880 rock stars. He loves to be in love, so he 0:12:23.000 --> 0:12:26.760 persists inviting Jena to parties just in case she changes 0:12:26.800 --> 0:12:29.640 her mind. Then she does. 0:12:31.480 --> 0:12:36.040 Sober I found him to be incredibly cool and sexy, 0:12:36.920 --> 0:12:43.000 happy go lucky maniac who also happened to be irritatingly affectionate. 0:12:44.559 --> 0:12:47.400 While she's supposed to be getting her career going again. 0:12:48.120 --> 0:12:51.280 Jenna decides to toss that plan aside and get on 0:12:51.320 --> 0:12:54.600 the tour bus with Tommy Lee and Motley, crue fulfilling 0:12:54.679 --> 0:12:58.840 her teenage fantasy of being a concubine for hair metal gods, 0:12:59.480 --> 0:13:02.640 even if they're well past their glory days by now. 0:13:04.320 --> 0:13:06.720 Only a few years before, I was sitting on my 0:13:06.760 --> 0:13:09.920 brother's shoulder at the Girl's Girls Girls concert in Vegas, 0:13:10.440 --> 0:13:15.319 hoping to be noticed and taken backstage. 0:13:15.559 --> 0:13:18.440 On the tour bus, she talks to Motley's bassist, Nikki 0:13:18.520 --> 0:13:22.800 six six is married to playboy playmate turned Baywatch star 0:13:22.960 --> 0:13:27.280 Donna de Rico, who years later fulfilled a lifelong dream 0:13:27.480 --> 0:13:31.120 of climbing Turkey's Mount Ara Rat to search for the 0:13:31.120 --> 0:13:37.760 frozen remains of Noah's Arc. She did not find it. Meanwhile, 0:13:37.840 --> 0:13:41.520 back in California, one of Jenna's business ventures has gone 0:13:41.559 --> 0:13:45.400 off track. Scamps, the strip club in Anaheim that her 0:13:45.440 --> 0:13:48.080 father and uncle were running using her name and brand 0:13:48.080 --> 0:13:53.199 to promote, shuts down. Suddenly, Scamps is either closed by 0:13:53.240 --> 0:13:57.520 the city of Anaheim, where right wingers, conservative Christians, and 0:13:57.600 --> 0:14:01.400 Disney adult freaks try to enforce a family friendly climate, 0:14:02.320 --> 0:14:06.320 or possibly by Jenna's sketchball uncle taking the club's money 0:14:06.320 --> 0:14:10.840 and running off. While Jenna didn't love having her dad 0:14:10.920 --> 0:14:14.040 Larry working at Scamps because he got into doing hard 0:14:14.120 --> 0:14:17.200 drugs there himself after a lifetime of being a clean 0:14:17.240 --> 0:14:21.920 living cop, the end of Scamps leaves Jenna's whole remaining family, 0:14:22.480 --> 0:14:26.920 her father, brother, and sister in law without any income. 0:14:27.920 --> 0:14:31.520 Jenna has become the sole breadwinner for the entire Massoli 0:14:31.640 --> 0:14:36.440 clan since she manically built herself a mansion in Miami. 0:14:36.520 --> 0:14:39.760 When she thought she'd be Jay's crazy girl forever. She 0:14:39.920 --> 0:14:43.120 offers to put them all up there. Then she gets 0:14:43.160 --> 0:14:47.160 a call from Jay Gardina unghosting her a month later. 0:14:48.880 --> 0:14:52.840 While she knows Jay Gardina disappearing after their first rendezvous 0:14:52.920 --> 0:14:56.800 is not a great sign, Jenna's also had enough of 0:14:56.880 --> 0:15:00.800 road dogging it with cuddly ass Tommy Lee. She is 0:15:00.840 --> 0:15:04.160 admittedly curious if the intense chemistry she felt with Jay 0:15:04.280 --> 0:15:08.880 the first time will also reappear. Will Jenna give Jay 0:15:09.000 --> 0:15:13.960 another chance? After considering her options, she agrees to meet 0:15:14.040 --> 0:15:19.880 up with him. It's not just Jenna bringing porn to 0:15:19.920 --> 0:15:25.000 the mainstream. Other porn stars are making appearances in mainstream media. 0:15:25.400 --> 0:15:28.000 There is a lot of crossover between porn and the 0:15:28.120 --> 0:15:31.920 music business. A lot of the recording studios are even 0:15:32.000 --> 0:15:35.360 located in the San Fernando Valley, in the same jungle 0:15:35.480 --> 0:15:38.440 of industrial zones and strip malls as the porn industry, 0:15:39.040 --> 0:15:46.600 and for the same reason it's cheaper. When we return 0:15:47.760 --> 0:16:01.720 the Tale of Jeanine Linda Moulder, Oh go to Gena World. 0:16:07.280 --> 0:16:10.480 In nineteen ninety nine, a porn star named Janine Linda 0:16:10.520 --> 0:16:13.440 Molder appears in the music video for What's My Age 0:16:13.480 --> 0:16:15.960 Again by the San Diego pop punk band Blink one 0:16:16.000 --> 0:16:19.560 eighty two. After appearing in a nurse outfit putting on 0:16:19.640 --> 0:16:22.080 a medical rubber glove on the cover of their album 0:16:22.280 --> 0:16:25.840 Enema of the State. The music video for What's My 0:16:25.920 --> 0:16:30.320 Age Again plays constantly on MTV, and thus Janine is 0:16:30.360 --> 0:16:33.960 seen on the channel's teen focused video countdown show Total 0:16:34.000 --> 0:16:37.600 Request Live, where punk pop and new metal videos are 0:16:37.640 --> 0:16:42.520 shown alongside bubblegum pop videos by pop stars like Britney Spears. 0:16:44.560 --> 0:16:46.760 We wanted to have a sexy nurse on the cover, 0:16:47.080 --> 0:16:51.000 and we were looking at models and playboy girls, and 0:16:51.080 --> 0:16:53.720 we were like, well, if we're gonna get a sexy 0:16:53.760 --> 0:16:57.960 girl for the cover, let's get a vivid girl. Mark Hoppus, 0:16:58.440 --> 0:16:59.440 Blink one eighty two. 0:17:01.440 --> 0:17:05.280 I wasn't thrilled with legitimate movies. I didn't care for 0:17:05.320 --> 0:17:09.760 the people. They were shallow and didn't care about people's feelings. 0:17:10.400 --> 0:17:13.199 Janine Linda Moulder performer. 0:17:14.880 --> 0:17:17.960 Janine Marie Linda Moulder is a vivid girl who has 0:17:18.040 --> 0:17:20.760 a lot in common with Jenna, and whose porn career 0:17:20.800 --> 0:17:24.440 predates Jenna's by a few years. Jenna has been called 0:17:24.560 --> 0:17:29.760 Janine's disciple. Like Jenna, Janine also appeared on The Howard 0:17:29.800 --> 0:17:32.040 Stern Show and had a bit role in his movie 0:17:32.040 --> 0:17:36.960 Private Parts. Janine is also a tattooed blonde rocker chick 0:17:37.280 --> 0:17:42.399 who started stripping after high school. Unlike Jenna, Janine is tall, 0:17:42.960 --> 0:17:47.359 a five foot eight scorpio from Lamarada, California, and also 0:17:47.480 --> 0:17:51.560 unlike Jenna, Janine says she had an idyllic, suburban southern 0:17:51.560 --> 0:17:52.840 California childhood. 0:17:54.840 --> 0:17:57.080 I'd tell the normal things you do. While growing up, 0:17:57.560 --> 0:18:00.480 I was always on a softball team. My dad was coach, 0:18:00.640 --> 0:18:03.640 my mom is the manager, and I won four scholarships 0:18:03.640 --> 0:18:08.040 for softball. Of course, there were some problems. Every family 0:18:08.119 --> 0:18:11.480 is dysfunctional, but I only have happy memories. 0:18:13.840 --> 0:18:17.560 Janine moves to La to become an actress. She lands 0:18:17.600 --> 0:18:20.960 a few screaming bimbo roles in b movies like Porky's 0:18:21.000 --> 0:18:26.480 Ripoff Lauderdale and Ernest borgnine mob movie Moving Target. She 0:18:26.640 --> 0:18:29.200 is featured in Penthouse as Pet of the Month in 0:18:29.320 --> 0:18:34.320 nineteen eighty seven and parlays it into adult films. At first, 0:18:34.480 --> 0:18:38.600 she works with male performers, but after getting pregnant allegedly 0:18:38.640 --> 0:18:42.439 from unprotected sex on screen, she decides to do only 0:18:42.560 --> 0:18:47.159 lesbian scenes. In the early nineties, she becomes legendary for 0:18:47.240 --> 0:18:50.080 her girl on girl scenes in Where the Boys Aren't 0:18:50.320 --> 0:18:54.760 and dates Vince Neil from Motley crue. 0:18:54.840 --> 0:18:57.200 I went in a Vivid in ninety three known exactly 0:18:57.280 --> 0:18:59.480 what I was willing to do, and I never faltered 0:18:59.480 --> 0:18:59.760 from that. 0:19:00.520 --> 0:19:02.960 I said, this is it, Take it or leave it. 0:19:03.680 --> 0:19:05.960 They would joke around from time to time, but it 0:19:06.000 --> 0:19:08.919 was never up for negotiation. I wasn't trying to be 0:19:08.920 --> 0:19:11.120 a hard ass, but I was clear that I didn't 0:19:11.119 --> 0:19:13.720 want people trying to persuade me into something I wasn't 0:19:13.760 --> 0:19:17.080 ready to do. They always knew that when I was ready, 0:19:17.160 --> 0:19:19.280 I would come to them, and that is exactly what 0:19:19.320 --> 0:19:20.120 I did. 0:19:22.280 --> 0:19:27.119 Janine and her stripping partner Julia Anne make Vivid feature Blondage, 0:19:27.320 --> 0:19:30.640 which is like Purple Reen about their strip club act Blondage, 0:19:32.040 --> 0:19:36.520 Janine finds that she doesn't like being famous. People feel 0:19:36.680 --> 0:19:39.440 entitled to her time because they've seen her on screen. 0:19:40.160 --> 0:19:43.000 They act like they know her personally, and like that 0:19:43.119 --> 0:19:46.959 means she owes them something too. She just wants to 0:19:46.960 --> 0:19:48.000 do a job. 0:19:49.640 --> 0:19:53.280 I could recognize at malls, grocery stores, at red lights, 0:19:53.480 --> 0:19:55.439 any place where there is a line and people have 0:19:55.480 --> 0:19:59.520 time to recognize me. I don't want that. I just 0:19:59.560 --> 0:20:01.560 want to have sex on film. 0:20:03.400 --> 0:20:07.400 In nineteen ninety nine, Janine announces she is retiring from 0:20:07.480 --> 0:20:09.880 porn to become a kindergarten teacher. 0:20:12.800 --> 0:20:16.159 I could be not just a porn star, but a 0:20:16.280 --> 0:20:18.760 porn CEO. 0:20:20.800 --> 0:20:24.600 In May of nineteen ninety nine, Jenna receives a career 0:20:24.720 --> 0:20:28.240 Achievement award at the Hot Doors, Returning to the site 0:20:28.320 --> 0:20:32.439 of her earliest triumphs in Can, Jenna holds a black 0:20:32.480 --> 0:20:35.720 and white vinyl bowling bag purse and wears a shimmery 0:20:35.760 --> 0:20:39.320 white halterneck catsuit with white heels to the red carpet 0:20:39.359 --> 0:20:42.679 for the Hot Doors at Can. This time she is 0:20:42.760 --> 0:20:47.639 hoisted up holding her two Golden Hot Door awards. The 0:20:47.640 --> 0:20:50.720 Hot Doors event is covered in a story by The 0:20:50.720 --> 0:20:55.760 Hollywood Reporter titled Porn But Not Forlorn, where the writer 0:20:55.920 --> 0:20:59.000 admits that the world of porn might just be a 0:20:59.040 --> 0:21:01.919 fringe film in disy, with its own cast of characters 0:21:01.920 --> 0:21:06.080 and award circuit, rather than the unsalvageable hellhole it was 0:21:06.160 --> 0:21:10.280 generally portrayed as in mainstream media for decades. Following the 0:21:10.320 --> 0:21:15.520 brief seventies flare of porn. Cheek Jay Gardina comes to 0:21:15.720 --> 0:21:18.760 La to scoop Jenna and drives them back to Phoenix. 0:21:19.400 --> 0:21:22.960 He takes Jenna to his parents for Thanksgiving. Sure, it 0:21:23.000 --> 0:21:25.320 seems a little crazy to introduce a girl to your 0:21:25.480 --> 0:21:27.879 entire family a month after you had sex for the 0:21:27.880 --> 0:21:31.199 first time and then ghosted her for another month, But 0:21:31.480 --> 0:21:35.840 to Jenna, it feels like a grand, romantic gesture and 0:21:35.920 --> 0:21:40.440 she wants to see if he can follow through. Something 0:21:40.640 --> 0:21:46.840 besides cuddling that makes Jenna uncomfortable is people who have close, openly, loving, 0:21:46.920 --> 0:21:51.680 and supportive relationships with their families. Jay is super tight 0:21:51.720 --> 0:21:56.439 with his parents, who have been married forever, and unlike Jenna, 0:21:56.920 --> 0:21:59.760 Jay grew up rich and was provided with a stable 0:21:59.800 --> 0:22:03.800 home life like Jenna never got to have. Jenna has 0:22:03.840 --> 0:22:07.320 never had a traditional Thanksgiving family dinner in her life, 0:22:07.640 --> 0:22:10.520 and it makes her feel weird being around other people 0:22:10.600 --> 0:22:15.600 who do. Jay and Jenna split off from the Gardina 0:22:15.680 --> 0:22:18.879 family Thanksgiving and go to the place Jay shares with 0:22:18.920 --> 0:22:24.840 his brother in Phoenix, and then their romance really begins. 0:22:25.520 --> 0:22:29.120 We went to his brother's bachelor pad, shut ourselves into 0:22:29.200 --> 0:22:32.480 a leopard print bedroom, and put on a Joe CD. 0:22:34.880 --> 0:22:38.400 This would most likely be the Joe album My Name 0:22:38.480 --> 0:22:43.520 Is Joe, the one with hit single Stutter. Incredible choice. 0:22:43.720 --> 0:22:46.200 Jenna and Jay hole up in a bedroom to get 0:22:46.240 --> 0:22:50.040 familiar again. She says, they listen to the Joe album 0:22:50.200 --> 0:22:54.800 ten times in a row because I'm a great investigative journalist. 0:22:54.920 --> 0:22:57.520 I did the legwork here and the Joe album is 0:22:57.640 --> 0:23:01.400 like an hour long, so they sex for ten hours. 0:23:03.000 --> 0:23:06.640 For Jenna, having sex with Jay Gardina is very different 0:23:06.640 --> 0:23:09.159 from the sex she has on camera at work and 0:23:09.280 --> 0:23:12.800 most of the sex she's had in prior relationships. It's 0:23:12.840 --> 0:23:16.399 because she really likes him. It's not just a physical 0:23:16.480 --> 0:23:19.960 attraction or someone who conveniently wants to do stuff for her. 0:23:20.920 --> 0:23:25.760 Jenna feels like she's finally met her match, and then, 0:23:26.080 --> 0:23:29.639 for the first time in her life, Jenna enjoys cuddling 0:23:29.720 --> 0:23:33.679 with a man. She lets herself be truly vulnerable and 0:23:33.720 --> 0:23:35.520 surprises herself by liking it. 0:23:37.440 --> 0:23:40.680 When we embraced it was as if a bubble formed 0:23:40.720 --> 0:23:45.560 around us and the rest of the world disappeared. I've 0:23:45.600 --> 0:23:48.080 been missing out on this my whole life. 0:23:49.920 --> 0:23:52.560 The most important thing about Jenna is that she's a 0:23:52.600 --> 0:23:56.119 real person, and she's by far the sexiest woman to 0:23:56.160 --> 0:23:57.520 ever step foot on this planet. 0:24:00.000 --> 0:24:02.359 If they spend the rest of the Thanksgiving trip having 0:24:02.359 --> 0:24:06.720 anal sex and water skiing in that order, While Jenna 0:24:06.800 --> 0:24:09.080 doesn't do anal sex in her movies, she does it 0:24:09.119 --> 0:24:12.920 with Jay as a sign of intimacy and trust. Jay 0:24:13.160 --> 0:24:16.800 asks Jenna to come live with him in Phoenix, but 0:24:16.920 --> 0:24:21.640 Jenna still feels too emotionally raw. Every time she lets 0:24:21.640 --> 0:24:24.679 herself really open up to a man, he starts trying 0:24:24.720 --> 0:24:28.760 to control her. She's afraid of being fully exposed the 0:24:28.760 --> 0:24:32.680 way real love requires, and her own internalized misogyny makes 0:24:32.680 --> 0:24:35.439 her feel like it's weak of her to have emotions 0:24:35.440 --> 0:24:41.480 besides anger lust and stoic repression. So then it's Jenna's 0:24:41.480 --> 0:24:45.880 turn to shut down emotionally and bail. She runs away 0:24:45.880 --> 0:24:50.040 from Phoenix and Jay, Gerdina and her big, uncontrollable emotions, 0:24:50.480 --> 0:24:53.000 and gets back on the tor bus with Motley Crue 0:24:54.160 --> 0:24:57.480 to put more fuck distance between herself and her feelings 0:24:57.480 --> 0:24:59.919 for Jay. She goes back to having sex with Ti 0:25:00.400 --> 0:25:03.439 Lee and starts fucking a famous female rock star on 0:25:03.480 --> 0:25:04.119 the side too. 0:25:06.520 --> 0:25:09.280 How could he do this to me? How could he 0:25:09.400 --> 0:25:11.879 sign those girls without talking to me? 0:25:14.640 --> 0:25:17.959 Then Jenna sees in the porn trade papers that Wicked 0:25:18.000 --> 0:25:22.359 Pictures has signed three new Wicked contract girls without getting 0:25:22.400 --> 0:25:27.399 permission from Jenna, as stipulated in her contract. Jenna curses 0:25:27.400 --> 0:25:31.280 Steve Ornstein out to Joy King, who's still her publicist, 0:25:31.920 --> 0:25:34.920 but even Jenna knows how hard she's become to work with. 0:25:35.720 --> 0:25:39.720 She's turned into a difficult, unreliable diva who might show 0:25:39.800 --> 0:25:42.439 up late to set or not at all, just like 0:25:42.480 --> 0:25:48.919 her hero Savannah, who burned out hard and fast. Jenna 0:25:49.000 --> 0:25:52.200 returns home to La where she still shares a place 0:25:52.240 --> 0:25:56.520 with Nikki Tyler, whose toxic druggy boyfriend is always around. 0:25:57.359 --> 0:26:02.160 Jenna is furious about Wicked hiring the new contract girls. 0:26:03.000 --> 0:26:05.800 I had believed that it was all about me, that 0:26:06.119 --> 0:26:11.000 I was Wicked Pictures, but Steve was Wicked Pictures and 0:26:11.240 --> 0:26:12.040