Speaker 1: Guess what decision we're about to make. Horrible decision.
Speaker 2: Hey guys, welcome to another episode of horrible decisions.
Speaker 1: I'm your girl, Mady B and I'm race Face.
Speaker 2: Oh okay, come on AKA Mandy.
Speaker 1: The second they put them on, I was like, take
Speaker 1: it off. You can't do that would have been what.
Speaker 1: The third time, I was like I don't like it
Speaker 1: and she was like, you just gotta get used to it. Whatever.
Speaker 3: So the first two the first day I cried. I
Speaker 3: was like, this is I'm ugly, Like, this is not
Speaker 3: I'm not cute at all. Then this is so fucked up.
Speaker 3: I hope he doesn't see this because for some reason,
Speaker 3: my man is starting to click on horrible.
Speaker 1: I don't know why, but get him out of you.
Speaker 1: Block you is the whole ip.
Speaker 3: But if I couldn't, okay, So this is really why
Speaker 3: I don't want to say nothing.
Speaker 1: He was like, baby, you look amazing. This is so cute.
Speaker 3: I told you this better than this line's gonna perfect you.
Speaker 3: You're gonna be so happy, like it's such a vibe.
Speaker 3: Blah blah blah. Don't care. Still crying. Go in the
Speaker 3: morning to the charging station. This dude is staring at me.
Speaker 3: He said something, oh, who did your who did your paint?
Speaker 3: I answered him. He's like, the racist look good as
Speaker 3: fuck on.
Speaker 1: You, girl. That's all I need? Oh god, why is
Speaker 1: it a random nigga can't do that? What is it
Speaker 1: about random man and give you a comment? And random
Speaker 1: people who.
Speaker 2: I'm telling you you don't want no compliment from your nigga,
Speaker 2: but you try to do.
Speaker 1: But he had to tell me that.
Speaker 3: For example, I put on an outfit, I feel fat, right,
Speaker 3: I you a good baby?
Speaker 1: Okay boom. I go on the train and girls like yo,
Speaker 1: that shit look fire on you.
Speaker 2: Ooh very I should curry of you, y'all y'all, no, no, no, no, no,
Speaker 2: not you start.
Speaker 1: Like aleisken bitch.
Speaker 2: So Aisha Curry got drug a couple of years ago
Speaker 2: because she talked about like kind of feeling undesirable or
Speaker 2: less desirable with Steph but kind of just wants the
Speaker 2: attention from outsider sometimes to feel beautiful. Oh yeah, bitch, moyther,
Speaker 2: fuck you want attention from other niggas over your husband.
Speaker 1: You know.
Speaker 3: I don't really think it's that you don't want the
Speaker 3: attention from the person you love. I think when a
Speaker 3: person owes you nothing. It feels oh my god, shit,
Speaker 3: this must be real. For example, all of the love
Speaker 3: I have I received from a few main sources my parents,
Speaker 3: my boyfriend, and my friends. Then Nina, if someone random
Speaker 3: pays me a compliment, it does kind of do something
Speaker 3: for my egos slightly.
Speaker 1: I also women.
Speaker 2: I also think that a compliment given depends on where
Speaker 2: you're at in your mood, because I feel like, if
Speaker 2: you're feeling ugly and you get that compliment at the
Speaker 2: right moment at the right time, cool, if you are
Speaker 2: like in maybe whatever other space, like, it goes to
Speaker 2: where we where we say, what is it? It's a
Speaker 2: it's either a compliment, it's it's flirting or harassment, like
Speaker 2: I think it Also, I'm not talking about flirt I'm
Speaker 2: talking about I think it depends who gives it to you.
Speaker 2: Sometimes just say women then, because like you like you
Speaker 2: like a compliment from a woman over a man, I would,
Speaker 2: But I'm just saying, like, I really don't that to me,
Speaker 2: I don't want to confuse complimenting with flirting only because
Speaker 2: to me, flirting can annoy somebody. But a compliment when
Speaker 2: it's real and sincere, okay, Like I think it's something
Speaker 2: that we need more of. So I hate saying, well,
Speaker 2: the parliament was on your Well I guess that means
Speaker 2: and here's how we can decipher that. Right, he complimented
Speaker 2: your braces, which is not saying, like to me, someone
Speaker 2: saying you're beautiful or damn that dress, it's fitting your
Speaker 2: body night. Like that to me is when it gets
Speaker 2: to flirting, when they're talking about your beauty or your physique.
Speaker 1: Right when that's fair.
Speaker 2: To me and a compliment if they talk about, yeah,
Speaker 2: you'll fit your hair, like bitch that hair, Oh my god,
Speaker 2: I love that. Like I'll take a compliment on a
Speaker 2: part of me, but not holisthetically.
Speaker 1: Honestly though, and not literally.
Speaker 3: I remember one of my friends told me I always
Speaker 3: compliment a girl on her fit because it's the way
Speaker 3: to break them down out. So maybe that's why he
Speaker 3: did it. Who cares, But it did kind of just
Speaker 3: feel like he had no idea. I just got these
Speaker 3: braces yesterday.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. So I will say a
Speaker 1: few things they.
Speaker 3: Made me realize, like to appreciate my beauty, Like there
Speaker 3: was a moment where I caught myself putting on like
Speaker 3: actually my man called me out. He was like, don't
Speaker 3: be putting on more makeup because you hate your races.
Speaker 3: Oh and I actually caught myself doing well already. He
Speaker 3: already told you he don't like make a period. He
Speaker 3: said you in a mirror too long, That's what it was.
Speaker 3: But he was like, don't do too much just because
Speaker 3: you feel and to hear all these braces like don't
Speaker 3: like they look good on you. And it took me
Speaker 3: a minute to think to myself, like, yo, it's like
Speaker 3: a girl that cuts her hair, like to know that
Speaker 3: you're beautiful without hair. It's a very freeing thing. And
Speaker 3: I'm not talking about to anybody. You a bitch that
Speaker 3: cut her head. That's the girl. That's thing that I'm
Speaker 3: making many very extreme thing for women that have to
Speaker 3: cut their hair, that make the choice to like have
Speaker 3: a style that's not necessarily a representation of femininity, right
Speaker 3: because we always hear like longer hair.
Speaker 1: This and that.
Speaker 3: So yeah, it just took me time to realize. I
Speaker 3: got appreciate myself. And I really think a lot of
Speaker 3: us don't take steps for improvement because we're worried about
Speaker 3: the ugly phase. So I would say the braces is
Speaker 3: one of them for me. Like even when it comes
Speaker 3: to hair, right like a lot of my homegirls are
Speaker 3: constantly wearing wigs or styles that are damaging their hair
Speaker 3: instead of getting through that ugly growth phase, you know
Speaker 3: what I'm saying, like instead of protective styles or just
Speaker 3: something else that's more natural. Like literally, my homegirl doesn't
Speaker 3: want to go through an ugly phase of growing out
Speaker 3: color on her hair, so she keeps bleaching it.
Speaker 1: I'm like, babe, but when are you gonna fucking em?
Speaker 2: And then if she want to cut it off, she
Speaker 2: cut it off and put a wig on while.
Speaker 1: They grow out.
Speaker 3: Not everybody feels comfortable to cut their hair. So that's
Speaker 3: what I mean by the in between. So I think
Speaker 3: for right now, the braces are eight for me. Were
Speaker 3: the in between? The only thing they did that I
Speaker 3: want to fight out about. I didn't know she was
Speaker 3: gonna shave down my teeth like there was in ears, bitch,
Speaker 3: Oh what the fuck is that? To make room for
Speaker 3: them to move? Oh I only let it get three?
Speaker 3: I said, Oh, yeah, I guess that.
Speaker 2: Yeah, that does make sense well because also they yeah,
Speaker 2: they're literally going to be moving.
Speaker 1: They need kind of room to move.
Speaker 3: They need room to move, so they have to like
Speaker 3: shave them down like when ears and I was like, oh,
Speaker 3: you have to.
Speaker 1: Stop, sorry, baby shark, you know.
Speaker 3: And then when I was on live, people were asking
Speaker 3: me about it, right, and this ship made me like,
Speaker 3: oh my god, I can't believe they're looking at it.
Speaker 3: So I was talking about the steps they made and
Speaker 3: mad people were like, oh yeah, I don't remember them
Speaker 3: gaps before.
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, so you see it. That's crazy people.
Speaker 1: They play way too much. They just be wanting to
Speaker 1: say any goddamn thing. But you know, I.
Speaker 3: Will say I am happy about it, like because in
Speaker 3: this line was not working for me and the pain
Speaker 3: that I've been experiencing.
Speaker 2: Small Dry got a whole four thousand dollars for me
Speaker 2: that I've never used.
Speaker 1: I got the trade two and that was it. Get
Speaker 1: your money back I went bankrupt. Oh on your I
Speaker 1: think I did. Girl, I have my money back. Let
Speaker 1: me tell y'all how to get y'all bob.
Speaker 2: First off, don't be out here like the people that
Speaker 2: was yelling Chase's name, And now Chase is like, no, lie,
Speaker 2: I'm gonna put your.
Speaker 3: Time as a protection plan on certain cards, right, which
Speaker 3: me and you have the same one.
Speaker 1: I think you're good.
Speaker 3: Smile direct at a lifetime warranty and now they don't exist.
Speaker 3: So if I want to come there at any point
Speaker 3: in my lifetime to get my smile corrected.
Speaker 2: I paid this four thousand. They give me all my
Speaker 2: money back. Oh I'll be giving them a call. Oh yeah, expeditiously.
Speaker 2: I think, yeah, No, you won't at all. No.
Speaker 1: Uh uh trade for the left too? Well?
Speaker 2: Okay, all right, all right, all right, uh I guess
Speaker 2: an update with me?
Speaker 1: Uh, I don't know. I've been in a funk.
Speaker 2: I think the move is like brought the most anxiety
Speaker 2: I've felt in a very long time. You should be excited,
Speaker 2: I'm not. It's it's anxiety ridden. Like I've been in
Speaker 2: New York for thirteen years, it's moving to a whole
Speaker 2: new state.
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know. The anxiety that I
Speaker 1: have right now and leaving.
Speaker 2: Is fucking insane. I just got the email like, will
Speaker 2: you be renewing the lease? I'm about to say, no, bitch,
Speaker 2: I've been in this apartment for four years now. I
Speaker 2: did two two year leases, So just the anxiety with
Speaker 2: that is out of this fucking.
Speaker 3: World doesn't make you feel like you don't want to
Speaker 3: do it? Where what is your anxiety stepping in?
Speaker 2: I don't know even when people are like, so are
Speaker 2: you really moving? And I'm like ninety three percent like
Speaker 2: cause I don't know why. I don't know what could
Speaker 2: happen to make me stay. Actually I do know if
Speaker 2: a nigga wanted to pay my rent for a year
Speaker 2: in a two bedroom here in New York, I'd stay.
Speaker 1: I think you should.
Speaker 3: I mean the second you told me you were moving
Speaker 3: in my brain and I know I have a bicostal
Speaker 3: brain right now because I've been doing it for three years,
Speaker 3: but I did think, oh, she must be getting a
Speaker 3: two bedroom with somebody here in New York.
Speaker 1: Like you must be having like a space like no,
Speaker 1: I don't want a roommate. No, but you wouldn't live here.
Speaker 3: So in my brain I was thinking, like, you must
Speaker 3: be having like a place here, No for what because
Speaker 3: you have.
Speaker 2: I have a discount, I have a discount on Marriott,
Speaker 2: and I got a lot of friends here the way,
Speaker 2: I wouldn't have a spot here like to me, I'm
Speaker 2: literally looking to buy a home, so just financially, that
Speaker 2: doesn't make sense. For me to be spending one hundred
Speaker 2: thousand dollars on rent when I'm trying to buy a house.
Speaker 1: I didn't think you'd be spending one hundred thousand dollars.
Speaker 2: I mean, if I even spend two thousand dollars a
Speaker 2: month here, that's twenty grand plus maybe another Like okay,
Speaker 2: so maybe not a one hundred thousand, but sixty thousand
Speaker 2: doll rent in a year doesn't make sense when I'm
Speaker 2: looking to buy, when I'm investing, when I'm thinking of, okay,
Speaker 2: in the next three years, what i want to do,
Speaker 2: Like I'm really thinking long term on just a lot
Speaker 2: of things in my life right now, and I'm just like, yeah,
Speaker 2: that doesn't make sense for me.
Speaker 1: I want to come back. I don't know.
Speaker 2: Dating right now just doesn't make sense. I mean nothing
Speaker 2: makes sense to me right now in life. Like I'm
Speaker 2: in just a very weird funk, Like I hate people I'm.
Speaker 1: Dealing with, Like I accept you guys at pay on
Speaker 1: the Patriot No.
Speaker 2: Like I literally like want sex and then immediately after
Speaker 2: I want it, I'll go to text Nigga and then
Speaker 2: if he don't respond in four minutes, I'm like, I
Speaker 2: really don't even want this nigga, like I don't want nobody.
Speaker 2: It's so crazy. I thought of the one nigga that
Speaker 2: I talk to every day. I'm like, well, I'm excited
Speaker 2: to see you, and he'll be here this weekend. But
Speaker 2: I'm like I hate everybody. I literally hate everybody. And
Speaker 2: then dealing with this emotion while dealing with grief, like
Speaker 2: I lost someone recently and I was just with them
Speaker 2: like a couple weeks before, so like going on and
Speaker 2: off spiraling with grief and I don't want to cry,
Speaker 2: like it's just been like a part of me feels
Speaker 2: guilty for not spending more time with him, but right now,
Speaker 2: I just want to be alone. But then I'm feeling
Speaker 2: guilty like I want to spend as much time as
Speaker 2: I can with people I love because I just lost
Speaker 2: somebody and so like all of it's just conflicting, like
Speaker 2: and I hate it because I'm just like what is life?
Speaker 1: Like I don't fucking up, Like I hate it about
Speaker 1: your friend.
Speaker 2: Yeah, like so, and he invited me to Doubtless, He
Speaker 2: invited me to Tokyo, like and I'm just like, I
Speaker 2: was just with you, monigga, like so to know, like
Speaker 2: I'm not going or spending time with people because I'm
Speaker 2: in this funk right now. I'm like, I don't want
Speaker 2: to miss out spending more time with people because of
Speaker 2: this mood, and I don't know how to get out
Speaker 2: of it. The anxiety of moving is fucking me up.
Speaker 2: There's just a lot. There's a lot. There's a lot
Speaker 2: right now just with my mental and working and I'm
Speaker 2: still like extremely angry about just the treatment of my
Speaker 2: last business and how that ended, and then even worse
Speaker 2: and y'all gonna hate me right now, Bitch, I'm beating
Speaker 2: myself up because I'm missing this fuck fuck ass nigga.
Speaker 2: Like I've found myself thinking about my ex but literally
Speaker 2: in my mind just thinking of the.
Speaker 1: Laughs, all the good moments.
Speaker 2: And then immediately I'm like, bitch, get the fuck out
Speaker 2: of it, like because he, like I know the psychology
Speaker 2: of what that relationship really was. And I'm like, bitch,
Speaker 2: are you are you fucking stupid?
Speaker 1: I don't think what you're doing is like something that we.
Speaker 2: I'm upset, ye, but I'm upset that I'm even thinking
Speaker 2: about him, But I'm thinking about specifically all the good moments,
Speaker 2: all the good moments that I questioned if we're even
Speaker 2: real because he was such a fucked up.
Speaker 1: Like individual overall.
Speaker 2: Then I'm just like, bro, bitch, you out here depressed,
Speaker 2: anxious about to make this move, like really shaking a move,
Speaker 2: and we got some dope shit coming for you, and
Speaker 2: you think about this, nigga.
Speaker 3: So I'm literally do you know this episode? I actually
Speaker 3: feel like nobody is.
Speaker 1: Oh, we'll get we'll get to that. We'll get to that, you.
Speaker 3: Know, when you were crying, always thinking of something that
Speaker 3: Vinnie said to me. So, one of Vinnie's friends mom
Speaker 3: just got sick, and I was like, damn, dude, can
Speaker 3: you even be there for her right now? Because of
Speaker 3: what actually it's one of his family members, because of
Speaker 3: what you've been going through. He was like, Yeah, what's
Speaker 3: happening to her right now? In her pain is at
Speaker 3: this age, it's the first time of her seeing the
Speaker 3: fragility of life. And I thought it was such a
Speaker 3: powerful thing to say, because when you were crying, like
Speaker 3: I have to spend time with all my friends, that's it.
Speaker 3: You're just seeing that, like, oh my god, this is
Speaker 3: so dicey, Like, yeah, we know that people can leave
Speaker 3: and transition, but like, ooh, now, I have to like
Speaker 3: hold on to you because what if you don't.
Speaker 1: And it's such a weird thing.
Speaker 3: And I just walked in the studio and told you
Speaker 3: Brionda lost someone today and I was like, oh my god,
Speaker 3: Like it's so heavy, it's such a it's such a
Speaker 3: horrible thing to think about. But what we have to
Speaker 3: be rightful for and honestly pushing through and keeping busy
Speaker 3: is a great way I think to deal with grief.
Speaker 1: Like for me, you have to sit through the feelings.
Speaker 3: But sometimes I found myself finding ways to blame myself
Speaker 3: in a selfish way, for example, like I don't do
Speaker 3: this enough, and I don't do this. I'm like, why
Speaker 3: am I not doing this xyz? And I was like
Speaker 3: really pushing myself down because someone else died, when in reality,
Speaker 3: I know that person's life and how they were and
Speaker 3: they wouldn't have valued that in me. So I think
Speaker 3: a lot of times when we're grieving, we've got to
Speaker 3: remember the person that we love and how they would
Speaker 3: have wanted our attitude to be. So yes, grieving that person,
Speaker 3: but also pushing forward. You worked with this person too, Yeah.
Speaker 1: I think it's also.
Speaker 2: I don't think I had lost up until this point,
Speaker 2: someone that I was just with and someone who literally
Speaker 2: passed on a trip I was supposed.
Speaker 1: To be on. So it's like, I think it's I
Speaker 1: think it's that.
Speaker 2: I think it's just another life experience, honestly, and I'm
Speaker 2: just like, oh shit, like this is something I've never
Speaker 2: experienced before.
Speaker 1: It's weir to a virus. Go thing. Yeah, you know
Speaker 1: my cousin you met, Sureif. I hate that. I'm crying too,
Speaker 1: because I have some jokes for this fucking episode.
Speaker 2: I'm like, so like, fuck, bitch, stopped crying like you've
Speaker 2: been crying for the last week.
Speaker 3: Sureif was supposed to start work on The Twin Towers
Speaker 3: on nine thirteen.
Speaker 1: So it's funny. Did you see the story virus?
Speaker 2: Because not that it's funny, but in Mariah Carey's book,
Speaker 2: this is why I gotta get off the internet.
Speaker 1: I just be reading random shit.
Speaker 2: Apparently Mariah Carey's glitter dropped the same day of The
Speaker 2: Twin Towers, and this bitch was gonna get to work
Speaker 2: late because she wanted to go get Mariah Carey's thing
Speaker 2: and the Twin and she worked at the Twin hours
Speaker 2: and literally she was like Mariah Carey saved my life.
Speaker 2: The blueprints dropped that day. Apparently, wait it, what's crazy
Speaker 2: is it was a Tuesday. And I only know that
Speaker 2: because my mama came and pick me up.
Speaker 1: She was man. She she left with too.
Speaker 2: Why you because I up from Oline, But I'm gonna
Speaker 2: hold you. And apparently it wasn't like Michael Jackson and Prince.
Speaker 2: There was a huge Michael Jackson concert the night before
Speaker 2: at the Garden that no one ever talked about because
Speaker 2: of nine to eleven or it was supposed to be
Speaker 2: all nine to eleven. Bitch, I don't know these fucking
Speaker 2: rabbit holes on the internet. It's only what makes me happy.
Speaker 2: I've gotten away from watching puppies and kitten videos and
Speaker 2: now I just be reading these weird ass but did
Speaker 2: you know? And I'm just like, God, damn, the world.
Speaker 1: Is really fucking weird.
Speaker 2: You need you need a good When I say distraction,
Speaker 2: no girl, My distraction is about to be I'm about
Speaker 2: to get I'm about to become a streamer, so y'all
Speaker 2: couldjoin me. I'm about to become a streamer. Hold on
Speaker 2: and guess what video game I'm about to play for
Speaker 2: the people?
Speaker 1: Silms and so I'm about to hold on.
Speaker 2: I'm about to make a little a sex club, strip club.
Speaker 2: Gotta have a clinic because the niggas got to get tested.
Speaker 2: I heard that's how they. My friend told me, girl,
Speaker 2: make sure you have a medical center, because she said,
Speaker 2: my friend got on it and it was free at first.
Speaker 2: Then the niggas already get sick and he had to
Speaker 2: put his card down to build a hospital. I said, bitch,
Speaker 2: a clinic gonna get up, built up.
Speaker 1: But then I was like, let me just say this, then,
Speaker 1: don't don't do this. Don't do this. Mandy is about
Speaker 1: to play videos hold on, but only because that's why
Speaker 1: it come for me.
Speaker 2: No, no, no, But the way I'm gonna do it is
Speaker 2: I'm gonna voice the people. Look, I'm gonna have a
Speaker 2: whole family, and guess what, I'm gonna make it the
Speaker 2: reality that's real. I'm gonna make sure this nigga, the
Speaker 2: husband got a whole family at the end of the
Speaker 2: block too.
Speaker 1: So i'ma voice them niggas and talk.
Speaker 2: About and show you all how these niggas be living
Speaker 2: two lives at once.
Speaker 1: It's gonna be if you started dating a nigga.
Speaker 2: Played sims No no, no, no, no, no, no no. I'm not
Speaker 2: gonna date a video gamer. This is gonna be a
Speaker 2: job for money and storytelling. It's gonna work on my
Speaker 2: storytelling skills.
Speaker 3: Now, what if someone needed that job to help as
Speaker 3: their hobby with.
Speaker 2: Okay, one moment, I don't want to if there's a
Speaker 2: video gamer that's making like, I ain't gonna hold you.
Speaker 1: I'll take a little.
Speaker 2: Yeah, that nigga be stream, that nigga. Duke Dennis look good, bitch, bitch.
Speaker 2: I just followed him and I was like, let me
Speaker 2: make sure he of aged first, because he little stream
Speaker 2: is young.
Speaker 1: You looked up his age too.
Speaker 2: I was just like, nah, I'm him. But it's crazy.
Speaker 2: I've been like, oh, it's Duke.
Speaker 1: Kind of.
Speaker 2: Maybe Duke seals with me? What games Duke Dennis bee playing?
Speaker 2: And you know what, we hold on, hold on because
Speaker 2: he might see this clip. Let me wipe these tears.
Speaker 3: Well, you've never had a streamer on. I think we
Speaker 3: should diversify our guests have no.
Speaker 2: No, no, no no no no no no.
Speaker 1: No no no no.
Speaker 2: We already we done talked about other people to come
Speaker 2: on the pot. As soon as I know, I'll give
Speaker 2: a nigga some pussy, he can't come on the pot,
Speaker 2: so he got to turn me out right now, Duke
Speaker 2: Dennis could get some pussy, so he's not welcome on
Speaker 2: the show.
Speaker 1: I don't mix business and pleasure.
Speaker 2: Now, if he gets a girlfriend, then you can have
Speaker 2: them all, because I ain't. I ain't sitting here having
Speaker 2: niggas cheat no more.
Speaker 1: He plays video games. You don't like that he get.
Speaker 2: Paid though, maybe he get paid Okay, yeah, no, no, no,
Speaker 2: I'm cool with that.
Speaker 3: I'm what do you think about the new era of
Speaker 3: like I don't know, like the whole Elliott Wilson coment.
Speaker 3: You know, we love Elliott like people not fucking with
Speaker 3: kay Sanat Like I feel like a lot of older
Speaker 3: journalists like don't like that shit. And I kind of
Speaker 3: be honest, like I kind of love I don't watch
Speaker 3: any kind of streaming, but I kind of love seeing
Speaker 3: kids this young.
Speaker 2: So all I know is I was setting up my
Speaker 2: little Twitch account the other day. Kai is the only
Speaker 2: person I follow right now. Then that nigga went live,
Speaker 2: I said, okay, let me see what I'm about to
Speaker 2: get myself into.
Speaker 1: So I joined his.
Speaker 2: Live bitch four minutes in He's like, I'm giving a
Speaker 2: hundred thousand dollars away this stream. I said, oh yeah,
Speaker 2: let me get my ass up in here, cause niggas
Speaker 2: just given a hundred thousand dollars away.
Speaker 1: Okay.
Speaker 2: I mean in terms of that, I think I've gotten
Speaker 2: to the say, like, I think it's a as old
Speaker 2: as time, Like the same way our parents didn't like
Speaker 2: our music growing up, and now we don't like kind
Speaker 2: of the music dropping. To me an older journalist who
Speaker 2: maybe had to go to school and had to get
Speaker 2: a degree and had to work their way up and
Speaker 2: climb their way to a certain galaries, you know what
Speaker 2: I mean, it's the same thing. So I think the
Speaker 2: journalists right now are like, this isn't real journalism happening.
Speaker 3: But these people may think that they're trying to do
Speaker 3: real journalism.
Speaker 2: I mean, but I think that's why the journalists are mad,
Speaker 2: because they're getting the interviews that the journalists want, Like Nigga,
Speaker 2: how the fuck you sitting with Nicki Minaj.
Speaker 3: And Harris to go up there. I don't believe that
Speaker 3: she and her team contacted.
Speaker 1: I don't think so either, But I'm not gonna hold you.
Speaker 1: I do not care at all.
Speaker 2: To see a Kamala Harris sit with Aka Sanat, because
Speaker 2: I thought it was completely awkward that redacted Minaj seemed
Speaker 2: really out of place because she's late into her thirties
Speaker 2: sitting with a twenty one year old Like it.
Speaker 1: Was just strange. It was strange to me.
Speaker 2: Kevin Hart ken Herd made sense. But they're they're boys,
Speaker 2: They're they're comedians. They were doing like a grown ass
Speaker 2: woman sitting with a twenty one year old boy just
Speaker 2: doesn't make sense to me.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but Speedy Iss would have said, And then that's
Speaker 1: the thing.
Speaker 2: Kyle Sanat also said, like I don't give a fuck
Speaker 2: about politics. What the fuck they sitting together for?
Speaker 3: To be honest with you, though, I kind of think
Speaker 3: he doesn't need to give a fuck about politics, Like
Speaker 3: I think that's the point, like humanizing these politicians. Like
Speaker 3: Charlotine's been talking about Kamala a lot, and I think
Speaker 3: everybody's like, oh, he's getting paid, but he doesn't really
Speaker 3: Like they don't realize, Like she been talking about Charletne.
Speaker 1: Every when she came on to the Breakfast club, ye.
Speaker 3: Know, but like there's no and she went to South
Speaker 3: Carolina and like that whole thing about the greens and
Speaker 3: the airport, like she told that story two or three
Speaker 3: years ago. So of course he gonna pipe up somebody
Speaker 3: that's his girl because he knows.
Speaker 1: How she is. Yeah.
Speaker 3: I literally said to charlat Mane, I feel like because
Speaker 3: so many black men are out here like supporting Trump,
Speaker 3: I was like, I don't know why they can't connect
Speaker 3: with Kamala. I think they really It shows how much
Speaker 3: men like Charleston White like just don't respect They don't
Speaker 3: respect women. I was like, if Kamala ever said the
Speaker 3: word nigga in front of you, just slip and tell
Speaker 3: the story.
Speaker 1: Oh, I ain't gonna hold you. I ain't going to
Speaker 1: hold these niggas. I think people need to know.
Speaker 2: No, listen the other the ship. A couple of weeks ago,
Speaker 2: the internet was an uproar. Mind you, they didn't catch
Speaker 2: the whole fucking conversation, but the whole internet when it
Speaker 2: gets me because I had an opinion about Meek Mill
Speaker 2: not being top three anything, and I was like, whoa,
Speaker 2: like roaches, who the fuck new Meek Mile had this
Speaker 2: many supporters.
Speaker 1: The niggas came out to goddamn whyn't nigga said they
Speaker 1: were a supporters, bro I said name but the oh yeah,
Speaker 1: he invited me to his concert. He said that. He said, uh,
Speaker 1: we're gonna make sure you come to my next concert.
Speaker 1: Maybe I was really surprised you made that. But again,
Speaker 1: you're going three No, no, you're going off of a clip.
Speaker 1: But that's my point, y'all. Nigga's upset. No, you were
Speaker 1: saying the thing about five songs.
Speaker 2: No, but the whole conversation was there's a big three,
Speaker 2: there is Drake Kendrick Cole. The conversation, since these motherfuckers
Speaker 2: don't want to look at a goddamn full context of anything,
Speaker 2: was outside of this big three.
Speaker 1: If there was a big three of the blog era,
Speaker 1: who would it be?
Speaker 2: They the previous week decided it would be Walle, Big Sean,
Speaker 2: Meek Mill I said, I'm here for Big Sean being
Speaker 2: on it, said I hate what Kanye did with the
Speaker 2: Good Musical. I'm so fucking lutely. Then I said, walla
Speaker 2: makes sense, wailea. This is blog era, so eight, it's
Speaker 2: about twenty fourteen. We're talking about a specific time. So
Speaker 2: then they said wall a Walle. At one point was
Speaker 2: bar for bar damn near with Cole like Wailea is
Speaker 2: fucking phenomenal. Meek, I said no for a few reasons.
Speaker 2: I said, A, how do you have another Big three
Speaker 2: without representing the West Coast or Atlanta. Secondly, I was
Speaker 2: in the clubs, working in the clubs and in height
Speaker 2: like during that time. I said Big Three, not Meek,
Speaker 2: especially because I think he's a regional personally outside of
Speaker 2: the Nightmares and some of his other music.
Speaker 1: But I'm like, two Chains are whiz wiz turned niggas.
Speaker 2: Like not only we smoking weeds, from smoking he's from Pittsburgh,
Speaker 2: but smoking well smoking weed.
Speaker 3: Well they just said, not representing the western East coast.
Speaker 3: Well he's well Pittsburgh.
Speaker 2: But no, wait wait wait, So I said, wait, wait,
Speaker 2: wait one moment, one moment, and then I put two
Speaker 2: Chains Atlanta.
Speaker 1: I said, two Chains had a way bigger run at
Speaker 1: this time.
Speaker 2: His features Two Chains to me is so I just
Speaker 2: named two other people like, but I think that those
Speaker 2: two people had a bigger run during that time.
Speaker 1: I mean, I only think your comment about five meet
Speaker 1: Meal songs with you, So that's where?
Speaker 2: So that was you a potter, And I'll be honest
Speaker 2: with you, No, me and my friends are not naming
Speaker 2: fucking five meet Meal songs, Dreaming, Nightmares and Amen, going Bad,
Speaker 2: sharing locations, Rico fucking tupax back.
Speaker 1: I just listened to on the fucking train.
Speaker 2: Okay, Bro, No, we said besides dreams and Nightmares, said
Speaker 2: Amen and Drake.
Speaker 1: Theaters hold on. So that's what I said too, but
Speaker 1: in the full context, in the in the full context,
Speaker 1: I said.
Speaker 2: That, like, if you even look on the streaming platforms,
Speaker 2: of his five top songs, three of them are features,
Speaker 2: two of them are Drake features.
Speaker 1: Bro Drake on any on any song over the last
Speaker 1: fifteen years is you're gonna know it. So anyways, that
Speaker 1: was this is not a music pod, but.
Speaker 3: I'm just saying because then I think people probably didn't
Speaker 3: fuck with that take because you comment on hip hop.
Speaker 2: No, but no, people didn't like to take because it
Speaker 2: was clipped up into a sixty second way to get
Speaker 2: you to respond, And the full context was listen, I
Speaker 2: don't hate the guy, but he's not top three, big
Speaker 2: three nothing especially no, maybe top three of Nicki Minaja's
Speaker 2: fucking boyfriends, which that's not to say much she dates,
Speaker 2: Like honestly, I don't even think I don't even know
Speaker 2: she's three she's top three one of Nicky's nick I
Speaker 2: really like me. That's crazy. But that's the thing me
Speaker 2: saying I like pancakes. Isn't me saying I absolutely no,
Speaker 2: I would actually say this, you know what I mean?
Speaker 2: Like I would rather go see Meek Mill performed than
Speaker 2: Big Sewan.
Speaker 1: Nah. So no, this is the analogy.
Speaker 3: I know what you're saying, because you're saying like, just
Speaker 3: because I said one better than.
Speaker 1: The other people should have been top three. It wasn't
Speaker 1: even a better thing.
Speaker 2: We're talking top three within the blog era. Like this
Speaker 2: is why I say context me ship. My argument isn't
Speaker 2: that Meek Mill sucks, isn't none of that. It's that
Speaker 2: within that those six seven years, I would put Wiz
Speaker 2: and two Chains over Meek and that I don't think
Speaker 2: Meat makes a top three or Big three anything.
Speaker 1: He doesn't. Y'all can still like him, y'all, Caul name
Speaker 1: ten songs.
Speaker 2: I still don't think within the hip hop realm that
Speaker 2: Meek is him and what I found crazy and all
Speaker 2: of that can be.
Speaker 1: True to.
Speaker 2: Meat got them yeah on one song that you know
Speaker 2: he yell okay, whiz bro Wiz turned niggas into fucking
Speaker 2: Steelers fans. You feel me, he say, we made we
Speaker 2: cool before that shit started becoming legal.
Speaker 1: You feel me.
Speaker 2: Anyways, I want to get into our vanilla shit because
Speaker 2: y'all know that I was swiping on that dating app
Speaker 2: that got Weezya foursome and me and threesome.
Speaker 1: But I wanted to get into all of these other
Speaker 1: sexualities that.
Speaker 2: I saw in there, because where we talk about the
Speaker 2: alphabet community and the lgbt Q, I a plus plus plus.
Speaker 2: These are I guess some of the other pluses. And
Speaker 2: I ran into this one specifically, and I was like, well,
Speaker 2: what the fuck is that? So then I ended up
Speaker 2: googling so gynosexual is Oh my.
Speaker 1: God, were you watching ninety Fiance?
Speaker 2: No?
Speaker 1: I wasn't. I just told you this is from the
Speaker 1: day to app. Bro. I just learned this word yesterday.
Speaker 1: I know, I just learned it last week. It was
Speaker 1: on ninety day Fiance.
Speaker 2: Oh they got a dude on there before the ninety
Speaker 2: day who basically is like, yo, I'm not gay, but
Speaker 2: I'm so That's that's why this word. I was like, well,
Speaker 2: let me look this up because what the fuck do
Speaker 2: this mean?
Speaker 1: So I said, because g in the LGBTQ was gay,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, I heard of a kind of.
Speaker 2: Sexual Wait, let me tell you what he said to
Speaker 2: see the matches, Okay, I mean I literally watched this
Speaker 2: last night. So what he said he said, He's He's like,
Speaker 2: I'm not gay, but but attracted to femininity. So that's
Speaker 2: what they say. And I like women with penises, wow,
Speaker 2: but if the penis has a manbody all on. So,
Speaker 2: gynosexual are individuals who experience sexual attraction towards.
Speaker 1: Women, females, and or femininity.
Speaker 2: Regardless of what they were, regardless whether they were assigned
Speaker 2: female at birth. So this is why so many of
Speaker 2: the men that I know that are into trans women
Speaker 2: still identify as straight.
Speaker 1: But this is actually what they are.
Speaker 2: They're gind of sexual gynologist niggas. Maybe you a motherfucking
Speaker 2: ghando sexual and.
Speaker 1: You over here talking about you heteroid? What did they
Speaker 1: say on ADAM twenty two? Hom homosexual axally a gynocologist listen.
Speaker 2: So then it made me get into other sexualities because
Speaker 2: I don't know if I really got into it on here,
Speaker 2: but I when I went and got tested for everything,
Speaker 2: I'm like, I know, y'all be dealing with niggas who'll
Speaker 2: be lying but these niggas be honest with me, and
Speaker 2: I was like, let me get on prep because niggas
Speaker 2: out here slaying that thing. So anyways, I wanted to
Speaker 2: get into more of the sexualities that we have not
Speaker 2: even really discussed, and maybe we can dig deeper in
Speaker 2: on another topic.
Speaker 1: So on another episode. So phrase.
Speaker 2: Sexuality, also known as ig not a sexuality, is a
Speaker 2: sexual identity in which people experience a strong attraction to
Speaker 2: strangers and less attraction to people they know well. Which
Speaker 2: makes me think of even what you just said about
Speaker 2: the compliment, like they'll be in relationships, but their attraction
Speaker 2: comes to the idea or.
Speaker 1: I'm so fright.
Speaker 2: Sexuality is yeah, people experiencing just stronger attractions to strangers
Speaker 2: than the people that they actually know. Qpio sexual refers
Speaker 2: to an individual who does not experience sexual design but
Speaker 2: still wants a sexual relationship.
Speaker 1: I feel like this explains all my friends.
Speaker 2: All my friends recently have been talking about how they
Speaker 2: want relationships but they don't really care for sex. They
Speaker 2: know that sex has to happen, but they feel like
Speaker 2: sex is a chore, which is why they feel like
Speaker 2: something right with me up here, because they're like, bitch.
Speaker 1: How the fuck you enjoy sex so much? Oh, I've
Speaker 1: been experiencing the same.
Speaker 2: Like yeah, so then and then the last one is
Speaker 2: a bro sexuality. Uh ab abro he bro a bro sexuality,
Speaker 2: sexual people of all identities who are romantically or sexually
Speaker 2: attracted to more than one gender, people who are sexual,
Speaker 2: people who are abro sex No, because you can there's
Speaker 2: more than just everything bias to pan So this is
Speaker 2: where I was like, how is this different than pan sexual?
Speaker 1: So I looked it up.
Speaker 2: People who are abro sexual freely choose different romantic and
Speaker 2: sexual partners or no partners at all. So you a,
Speaker 2: I think I'm abro bitch.
Speaker 1: I was looking into this. I might be a bro
Speaker 1: like I I like, from hey, bro, bro, I'm a hole.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna say something real right now, and I mean
Speaker 1: it don't be problematic. I'm gonna say, oh well, I'm
Speaker 1: gonna get more problems exactly why the Republicans hats, why
Speaker 1: it's too much? No, it's not. I think this is
Speaker 1: m not stop it.
Speaker 2: This is why I went down the rabbit hole because
Speaker 2: I've been wondering what bucket I fall into, because.
Speaker 1: Sometimes you should have thought bucket could just be like, oh,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna hold you. I was with, are you're richer,
Speaker 1: you broke? I'm somewhere between.
Speaker 3: We don't need a title for it, like elis kidnight
Speaker 3: name Like this is too much now, but.
Speaker 2: It's how other people want to also identify you, because
Speaker 2: I feel like I'm deeper than By. So I've been
Speaker 2: I've been like, ooh, I'm queer. So I went out
Speaker 2: with At and Crystal and they say, bitch if you
Speaker 2: say queer one more time, and I was like, but
Speaker 2: I'm queer because I'm not just by, I'm queer and
Speaker 2: Crystal was like, bitch too much.
Speaker 1: But me, I heard we're talking about.
Speaker 2: Heart dynamic A sane with his gay ass. We just
Speaker 2: he was gonna come, So we talk about this shit.
Speaker 2: So I might do a deeper episode with a sante.
Speaker 2: So speaking of queer, I've been getting into the queer
Speaker 2: terminology and I just want to educate the audience.
Speaker 1: This is not it's just like a family tree.
Speaker 2: Well this is no, no, no, this is me updating
Speaker 2: for safety reasons and for for shifts and gigs. So
Speaker 2: updated queer terminology. This one is for safety. So they
Speaker 2: there is a word now being referred to as Tina,
Speaker 2: which is math. Apparently it is heavily being distributed and
Speaker 2: used within the gay community right now, and it just well,
Speaker 2: I wanted to update people that on the dating apps,
Speaker 2: specifically Grinder or Field or any of those apps, if
Speaker 2: there's if they're d ming you or it says in
Speaker 2: their bio that they're looking to party with a capital T.
Speaker 1: The capital T is tina.
Speaker 2: And so if someone's asking you a party with a
Speaker 2: capital T and your DMS, nine times out of ten.
Speaker 1: They are looking to do meth with your ass. And
Speaker 1: Vinnie found that out the hard way, and that's what
Speaker 1: I'm saying.
Speaker 3: So this is I think it was like I think
Speaker 3: I've heard of this like when I say, maybe more
Speaker 3: than five years ago, but a lot of Grinder terms
Speaker 3: like there's a.
Speaker 1: Whole glass, I want to go through the glassory, Yeah,
Speaker 1: but the Tina is like a big one. Well, and
Speaker 1: it's funny because it was big for the whites, for
Speaker 1: if you were dealing with the whites, but now it's
Speaker 1: getting into the with the black gays or just being.
Speaker 3: All black people do as many drugs as white people.
Speaker 3: They just throwing it in your face. But the thing
Speaker 3: that's interesting about Tina. When I heard it the first time,
Speaker 3: I thought, because I think it was Rick Ross setting
Speaker 3: this on something about moving Christina and he was talking
Speaker 3: about cocaine.
Speaker 1: I thought any white girl name was cocaine.
Speaker 2: Oh, I thought Christina, Crystal mess Oh, well, Christine, Chris,
Speaker 2: it should be Christy.
Speaker 1: It's too much. It's all I know is Molly, and
Speaker 1: that's why I'm trying to be around.
Speaker 2: Well, I want to bring up another thing that's happening
Speaker 2: in the queer community, and this is gonna lead to
Speaker 2: our hoar dirt.
Speaker 1: Okay, So you familiar with the term Mona Lisa? No, oh, bitch.
Speaker 1: That's why I put it in the outline because I
Speaker 1: wanted to surprise you. If y'all had to guess.
Speaker 2: Damn, y'all ain't miked up. If you had to guess
Speaker 2: what Mona Lisa meant? What would you think it means?
Speaker 1: Is it kenemine that you're saying on the drugs?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 1: I thought that's the point. It's a little different than that.
Speaker 1: So hilarious. Y'all know. I follow all the guys, the
Speaker 1: gays on Twitter. It will forever be Twitter. Fuck elon.
Speaker 1: So Mona Lisa is the art of painting and shit, bitch.
Speaker 2: So let me tell y'all how I went down a
Speaker 2: whole thread. And this is where y'all can't cancel me
Speaker 2: because this is what they be talking about. So this
Speaker 2: guy talked about fucking a Mexican bottom, and apparently there
Speaker 2: is a stereotype about Mexican bottoms, and it makes sense.
Speaker 1: The tacos, the rice and beans, the hot sauce.
Speaker 2: Apparently they are known to ship on dicks because they
Speaker 2: just are Mexican.
Speaker 3: This is my favorite clip of all time on Twitter
Speaker 3: or not Twitter, Instagram, anything. I want to interview this
Speaker 3: dude one day. What do you say you've seen this?
Speaker 3: It was the first time where I'd really heard someone
Speaker 3: talking about painting and shitting, but they were. Now they
Speaker 3: call the person he's interviewing right away. The first you're
Speaker 3: gonna hear talking his white man.
Speaker 4: Out in prison as a BO T C O M.
Speaker 4: How do you clean out in prison? You don't in prison,
Speaker 4: you don't really clean out, so you would what you
Speaker 4: would have to do is star of yourself for two
Speaker 4: or three days. So everybody knows Tuesday is what you
Speaker 4: call chicken to be mad, I mean for real, But
Speaker 4: you know what they were freaking in there, freaky bab
Speaker 4: like they.
Speaker 1: Wouldn't they wanted the paint on them.
Speaker 4: Mm hmm.
Speaker 1: Just that that a man. I want to interview them
Speaker 1: so bad.
Speaker 2: The conversation right now about painting the whole thing. So
Speaker 2: I wanted to talk to you all about not painting.
Speaker 4: Uh.
Speaker 1: We is gonna keep it clean over here.
Speaker 2: So the wardrve uh for this week is about antal training.
Speaker 2: I do want to just give you the quick four
Speaker 2: steps of antal training. Of course, the first one is
Speaker 2: cleaning it up so you can douche also uh and
Speaker 2: a lot of antal training kits.
Speaker 1: There is like a douche thing.
Speaker 2: What is it like? You know the little things that
Speaker 2: they be using to get the little boogers out the
Speaker 2: kids noses. It looked just like that, but you fill
Speaker 2: it up with water and you're supposed to just splash
Speaker 2: it up into your boota hole.
Speaker 1: It looks like like a turkey baster, just like that.
Speaker 2: So you kind of put the tip in your ass
Speaker 2: and just put some water and let that ship fall
Speaker 2: out into the toilet.
Speaker 1: Then you want to lub it up. This is for
Speaker 1: anal training.
Speaker 2: So this is if Yeah, this is so that you
Speaker 2: could get the boot hole ready then you lub it up.
Speaker 2: There is also in anal training kits which I just
Speaker 2: got one. That's why I know all the little tools. Uh,
Speaker 2: there are lube injectors. So if you feel like maybe
Speaker 2: you're not getting deep enough into the rectum, there are
Speaker 2: now lube injectors that.
Speaker 1: You just kind of it's like a syringe.
Speaker 2: You put it in your little boodhole and then you
Speaker 2: push the lube up into the bootohole. Then you choose
Speaker 2: your butt your your butt plug size. This is what
Speaker 2: you want to do to widen up your boodhole, to
Speaker 2: get it ready to take some dick.
Speaker 1: Now.
Speaker 2: I did look this up because it was a question
Speaker 2: I had because it's something where I be thinking I'm
Speaker 2: getting ready. They do say that you should not have
Speaker 2: a butt plug in your ass for longer than thirty minutes.
Speaker 2: Not sure why this is what the internet said. This
Speaker 2: is from love plugs dot co UK because I was
Speaker 2: looking up like can you sleep.
Speaker 1: With a butt plug? Can I go to dinner with
Speaker 1: a butt plug? How long can his butt plug stay in?
Speaker 2: And they say thirty minutes max for the butt plug
Speaker 2: in yo ass. Now, the hoardurv that I have for
Speaker 2: y'all if you're into using a butt plug. I did
Speaker 2: this a couple months ago and it was really sexy,
Speaker 2: and so I just wanted to.
Speaker 1: Share what to do. So you then bubbles in a
Speaker 1: three yo shut.
Speaker 2: The fuck up, So I ended up doing I love
Speaker 2: the jewels, like the bedazzled butt plugs where it looks
Speaker 2: like my little bootle hole is a diamond.
Speaker 1: So I had that in because it looks good Darren backshots.
Speaker 1: And so my tip is, after you.
Speaker 2: Give him the visual of the butt plug in your
Speaker 2: ass and he does it, turn to the side, make
Speaker 2: sure his dick stays inside of you. And this is
Speaker 2: where you also talk to him like did you like
Speaker 2: fucking me from the bank you side? So while he's
Speaker 2: doing that, say you want to feel something, and literally,
Speaker 2: while he's in y'all, pussy, y'all, why then, yo, pussy,
Speaker 2: grab the butt plug and slowly pull it out. He
Speaker 2: can feel it because your rectum in your vagina is
Speaker 2: right there. So literally pull it out and be like,
Speaker 2: oh you feel that, you feel that?
Speaker 1: You feel that?
Speaker 2: No, no, no, no, this ain't no ship, because you
Speaker 2: done did the other steps to clean your baint all
Speaker 2: out ship.
Speaker 3: But you know as well as I know. Whenever you
Speaker 3: pull something out finger, No, it's a little bit of
Speaker 3: shitty feeling.
Speaker 1: No, no, you're telling me. Whenever somebody exit you action,
Speaker 1: don't think about shit. Well, so this is so, this
Speaker 1: is what you do after you slowly pull it out.
Speaker 2: First off, you're not supposed to think about that ship
Speaker 2: because then you're gonna ruin the moment.
Speaker 1: So what I did do hold on so you ready?
Speaker 2: So what I did do is after you pull it out,
Speaker 2: Oh you feel that, you feel like you Philip coming
Speaker 2: out on your deck, the bitch, I throw it across
Speaker 2: the room.
Speaker 1: Ain't nobody see what was on it? So if anything
Speaker 1: was on it, I'm gonna deal with that later. Smart
Speaker 1: pulled it, bitch through that ship. Heisma war bitch across
Speaker 1: the room.
Speaker 2: Nobody saw it. So if you got shipp on it,
Speaker 2: I'm gonna wipe that shit off later.
Speaker 1: But not in the not in the mix.
Speaker 2: And you don't want to keep it on the bad
Speaker 2: because if there is shit on it, then there's gonna
Speaker 2: be shit on the sh chocolate me.
Speaker 1: So that's my HORDERR. That's my tip. Uh getting to
Speaker 1: the horrible decision.
Speaker 2: I love that you have a different outtake on this,
Speaker 2: so I wanted to choose this specific by choice.
Speaker 1: Well, can I introduce the goddamn Typing Girl? It's a
Speaker 1: title little episode. Well, I wanted to bring.
Speaker 2: It up specifically because the internet right now has been
Speaker 2: talking about not only the doctor who sat with Kim
Speaker 2: and Nick Cannon. They've recently destroyed Tracy Ellis Ross and
Speaker 2: I think maybe once a quarter they come after her,
Speaker 2: questioning if she's really happy being single. But also I
Speaker 2: came across a recent article and it's actually old. I
Speaker 2: didn't know this happened so long ago. But Maya, who
Speaker 2: has been performing and being seen on many festival stages
Speaker 2: lately looking fucking amazing, married herself.
Speaker 1: So you ain't knowing. I don't even know what you're
Speaker 1: talking about. Maya the singer My love is Li whoa mine?
Speaker 1: She married? She married? Oh, in a whole bitch. She
Speaker 1: has wedding pictures. Let me bitch in a whole ceremony
Speaker 1: on a beach. This how did we miss it?
Speaker 2: This is why I said, wait a second, Maya married herself.
Speaker 2: I want you to see the wedding pictures. Maybe we
Speaker 2: can have them pull up bitch and she's She explained
Speaker 2: the reef.
Speaker 1: Don't do this. Don't do this, goddamn faith.
Speaker 2: I know we talk about the women that get on
Speaker 2: their knee to propose to a nigga. This bitch said,
Speaker 2: I'm gonna put the ring on my own finger, be
Speaker 2: on the beach. Glham was glamoring, and she married herself.
Speaker 1: So I really like Maya and like the feelings that
Speaker 1: I have about this.
Speaker 2: So she married herself in say show uh two months,
Speaker 2: Oh well this is this was in twenty twenty actually,
Speaker 2: so four years ago.
Speaker 1: You been too much going on. That's why we missed no,
Speaker 1: That's what period the world was ending. That's why we ain't. No.
Speaker 2: So she married herself and pretty much expresses that this
Speaker 2: is what makes her happy. She was like, she figured
Speaker 2: she had made let me see where the fuck I
Speaker 2: want to get her exact explanation to marrying herself. But anyways,
Speaker 2: I see all that to say, she has talked about
Speaker 2: being celibate. She has you know, been by herself, and
Speaker 2: I want to talk about if being single by choice
Speaker 2: is really as liberating or as much of a choice
Speaker 2: as we are currently talking about it being. I also
Speaker 2: want to say shout out to our patrons. If you're
Speaker 2: not a patron, by the way, please join us on
Speaker 2: Patreon as patreon dot com back slash horrible decisions before
Speaker 2: we get started this lady, and I want to make
Speaker 2: sure I give her her credit, because that bitch went
Speaker 2: to the dictionary, she said.
Speaker 1: Shout out to j T.
Speaker 2: She said, as someone who is not single by choice,
Speaker 2: I have a perspective to add to this conversation. When
Speaker 2: looking at the definition of choice, it is, in fact,
Speaker 2: and that's why I love. I wanted to bring up
Speaker 2: the definition. It is, in fact, an act of selecting
Speaker 2: or making a decision when faced with two or more possibilities.
Speaker 2: So if you are not faced with two or more possibilities,
Speaker 2: are you really making a choice?
Speaker 1: She said.
Speaker 2: I'm twenty eight from Kentucky in nursing school. All of
Speaker 2: my white or other race colleagues were married by twenty
Speaker 2: three to twenty five. As a black woman who desired
Speaker 2: a black man, my options were very slim. A lot
Speaker 2: of them were either interested in other races exclusively, jailed, murdered, gay, etc.
Speaker 2: So that leaves for every one black man, ten black
Speaker 2: women looking for love. And I wanted to read this
Speaker 2: option the difference she said. When I started travel nursing,
Speaker 2: I went to bigger cities LA New York City, DC.
Speaker 2: I didn't really have that much better of an experience
Speaker 2: in those cities. The most attention that I get is
Speaker 2: when I have been out of the country Africa, London, Portugal.
Speaker 2: At this point in my life, I do think that
Speaker 2: I have become more jaded on the topic and have
Speaker 2: stopped trying. I would love to have love, but I
Speaker 2: do not think it is as simple as just desiring
Speaker 2: it or wanting.
Speaker 1: To choose it. It does have to recip choose. You
Speaker 1: completely agree. That's why.
Speaker 2: That's why I wanted to read this one too. Single
Speaker 2: by choice is not real explain that we can stop.
Speaker 3: So when I've been single by choice, and I'm putting
Speaker 3: that in quotation marks for people that aren't watching, it's
Speaker 3: because I wanted to stop dating for that moment. Okay,
Speaker 3: As somebody that has seeked out partners before and one
Speaker 3: of those relationships to work, I am clearly not single
Speaker 3: by choice. If my relationships would have worked out and
Speaker 3: we're prosperous and we're great, I would not be single
Speaker 3: by choice. Like I didn't want to be single. That's
Speaker 3: why I've pursued relationships. The reason I had moments of
Speaker 3: being single is because I knew I had to focus
Speaker 3: on myself to heal from whatever fuck shit happened the
Speaker 3: last time. Okay, that's the choice, but it's only the
Speaker 3: choice because it didn't work out. If I had a
Speaker 3: good nigga around.
Speaker 1: I would not be single by choice. And this is
Speaker 1: why I say that.
Speaker 3: I've always thought it was bullshit when people say that,
Speaker 3: and I've had so many times throughout the term of
Speaker 3: this podcast. A lot of people tell me that I'm
Speaker 3: a pick mey right like Twitter, YouTube, whatever, even in
Speaker 3: my Instagram comments. And I think it's because I have
Speaker 3: a lot of relationship girl energy. I always have, but
Speaker 3: it's because I'm very open and comfortable with saying I
Speaker 3: love companionship now. I was single the last two years
Speaker 3: because I wasn't finding people that were a match for me.
Speaker 3: But I've been actively trying to find myself. I think
Speaker 3: I did find my partner because I wasn't pressed. I
Speaker 3: wasn't necessarily single by choice when I met him. I
Speaker 3: think I was just single and enjoying being single. But
Speaker 3: if someone comes around, that's great. Maya would not have
Speaker 3: married herself if Maya met the perfect nigga, she would
Speaker 3: not have married herself. If you could list out the
Speaker 3: qualities you want in a person and that person showed
Speaker 3: up at your door, why would you still be single?
Speaker 1: No, you wouldn't.
Speaker 3: You're not gonna turn the person that's great for you away.
Speaker 3: You are single because of your options now, there's nothing
Speaker 3: wrong with that. I'm not even saying that to be shady.
Speaker 3: Just because I got a nigga right now.
Speaker 1: Don't mean anything by that. I don't want to like
Speaker 1: I'm on a high horse. I mean, especially because that
Speaker 1: we have talked about it.
Speaker 3: I think on Patreon where you met, if your ex
Speaker 3: boyfriend wasn't a piece of shit, you being with that
Speaker 3: nigga right now?
Speaker 2: Yeah he wasn't shit though, Yes you know, but so.
Speaker 2: But I think that that's the problem, even you using
Speaker 2: the word perfect. I think that what I'm seeing for
Speaker 2: even my friends that are in relationships and not single.
Speaker 2: I don't know if I necessarily have the capacity, Like
Speaker 2: right now, I do feel like i'm single by choice
Speaker 2: a because I am figuring out.
Speaker 1: Still what a relationship to me would look like. But
Speaker 1: I think it also.
Speaker 2: I just also don't think I have the capacity to
Speaker 2: deal with an eight shit person. And I've said this
Speaker 2: on Patreon, and maybe this is my jaded as talking.
Speaker 2: Maybe I get better ten years from now.
Speaker 1: I don't know.
Speaker 2: I genuinely find people to be shitty, and I find
Speaker 2: it to be very difficult to coexist with someone who
Speaker 2: is living their life and trying to navigate and figure
Speaker 2: it out the same way that I am, to where
Speaker 2: it almost seems like another job.
Speaker 3: But if you met someone, Mandy that had a lot
Speaker 3: better qualities than these last people, like you've been annoyed
Speaker 3: by a lot of the men you've dated, if somebody was.
Speaker 1: Not annoyed by all the friends my friends are dating, Like,
Speaker 1: what do your friends have to do with you? Well?
Speaker 2: Because when we're talking about how people are showing up
Speaker 2: right now, just overall, and this fucking podcast could be
Speaker 2: one of the things y'all blame too, even seeing the
Speaker 2: iterations of what's happening online and listening to what my
Speaker 2: friends are dealing with and going through.
Speaker 1: I don't know.
Speaker 2: I think I'm I'm emotionally and mentally exhausted, but I
Speaker 2: have very also little faith with.
Speaker 1: Thinking someone can't show up.
Speaker 3: First of all, whatever your friends are going through cut
Speaker 3: that out. People stay in situations they shouldn't be in.
Speaker 3: You've mentioned your friends have cheated, Like all of our
Speaker 3: friends are not perfect either. They all make mistakes. You
Speaker 3: don't know what your friends are doing in their relationship.
Speaker 1: My point, people are shitty. I think they're doing shitty too.
Speaker 1: Don't let their situations stop you from faith in people.
Speaker 1: Oh bitch, the nigga's on my phone right now. I'm good,
Speaker 1: but I don't like anybody.
Speaker 3: If they I So this is why I think the
Speaker 3: single by choice thing is a really thing, is a
Speaker 3: thing that sucks. I think by choice you can stop
Speaker 3: dating for a period. That's what I think you do
Speaker 3: when you say single by choice. Yeah, to me, there's
Speaker 3: no one that will choose.
Speaker 1: Maybe, I don't know.
Speaker 3: I think the bulk of people, if they could say
Speaker 3: I would be in a healthy, happy relationship with someone
Speaker 3: I'm comfortable with or like or attracted to whatever.
Speaker 1: They would take it. I think you stop dating by choice, And.
Speaker 3: I actually think that only comes from when you know
Speaker 3: you need a break, when dating has either become something
Speaker 3: toxic to you, something that hasn't worked out, when you
Speaker 3: need a reevaluation, or even when you need some fun. Hey,
Speaker 3: I was in a long term relationship it didn't work out.
Speaker 3: I need some whole years. That to me is a choice,
Speaker 3: but it's because you're actively not dating. The scary thing
Speaker 3: about whole years is when someone comes up in your
Speaker 3: life that's dope and you're like, damn, I don't really
Speaker 3: want to be single anymore because I don't want to
Speaker 3: let this person go.
Speaker 2: I do not believe this is even even the happy
Speaker 2: and healthy I think the same way you're single for
Speaker 2: a moment, A happy and healthy relationship is only for
Speaker 2: a moment. And I guess absolutely, I think that relationships.
Speaker 2: Have you really not met a married couple that's happy
Speaker 2: absolutely there Again, they're happy for a moment that it's
Speaker 2: healthy for a moment, and then life happens, Like I
Speaker 2: don't think a relationship this is why relationships don't last forever.
Speaker 2: I think that there are happy and healthy even moments
Speaker 2: in a relationship. So to me, it's the part of
Speaker 2: knowing that people.
Speaker 1: Most people in.
Speaker 2: Relationships We've talked about this a couple episodes ago, will
Speaker 2: stay miserable for a long time in a relationship because
Speaker 2: they want to be in a relationship more than they
Speaker 2: feel like being single because of a what I think
Speaker 2: society like looks onto you as as a pressure specifically
Speaker 2: as a woman to bear children, get married, the same
Speaker 2: way I believe that having kids is a choice.
Speaker 1: I absolutely believe being single as a choice.
Speaker 2: But even the way that you umbrella certain relationships being
Speaker 2: happy and healthy, the same way you're single for a moment,
Speaker 2: I think relationships realistically are only happy and healthy at
Speaker 2: a moment, or for you.
Speaker 1: Think people are not for a moment happy and healthy
Speaker 1: while single. I have a lot of.
Speaker 3: Complain but I didn't, but I didn't say that, So no,
Speaker 3: but I'm saying that's my point. But but you could
Speaker 3: say that about relationships. But that's where we're comparing the choice.
Speaker 3: Being single has a lot of.
Speaker 1: Dark moments too that we aren't talking about.
Speaker 3: When it comes to holidays, when it comes to feeling
Speaker 3: feeling like you're being left out, when it comes to intimacy.
Speaker 1: Nobody's going to convince.
Speaker 3: Me that they're not equitable, Like I hate the I
Speaker 3: used to make the comment a lot of times, like yeah,
Speaker 3: I'm single, but and like I heard doctor Bryan doing
Speaker 3: that Cam marton Cam Newton thing. But at least Sian
Speaker 3: getting cheated on at least I got I only lived
Speaker 3: in a house and crying and dah da da da.
Speaker 1: We always compare being single.
Speaker 3: To not being miserable, and that's because we are so
Speaker 3: focused on thinking relationships are always going to be bad. Bro,
Speaker 3: it's not true. We've got to stop doing that. There
Speaker 3: are healthy relationships, and I think if we don't change
Speaker 3: that framework, we're always going to be ready for it
Speaker 3: to be painful.
Speaker 2: Like I mean, I think because again I think getting in,
Speaker 2: removing ourself from Delulu, getting into reality. Relationships end work relationships, friendships,
Speaker 2: platonic friendships, romance like romance relationships, they all end, and
Speaker 2: so in order to end, it's because something went bad.
Speaker 1: So this idea of a healthy and happy relationship, to me, yes,
Speaker 1: it is only at a moment. I think.
Speaker 2: Then I'm speaking to maybe again the trauma. We talked
Speaker 2: about this on Patreon. I think, the constant desire to
Speaker 2: be in a relationship without working those things out. I
Speaker 2: don't know if I realistically want to ever feel the
Speaker 2: heartbreak that I just felt giving myself to someone that
Speaker 2: I gave to and I don't know how long.
Speaker 1: That's going to take.
Speaker 2: I know that I was in my relationship with this
Speaker 2: fucking narcissist for three years. But I have my mom
Speaker 2: and two other friends that also just got out of
Speaker 2: those relationships, and it's like, bro, the psychological damage as
Speaker 2: well as the heartbreak, you know, setting yourself up to
Speaker 2: be in another relationship, you're setting yourself up to feel
Speaker 2: that way again, like because not everything is gonna last.
Speaker 1: But married, I'm sorry that you really haven't. I'll say this.
Speaker 3: I can eaven three friends right now, and one of
Speaker 3: them is newly married. But Serena and Alan, my friend's
Speaker 3: been married I think maybe more than fifteen years. My
Speaker 3: friends for Nia and Eddie, I think they're at about
Speaker 3: twenty years, and she's my age even together.
Speaker 1: This is high school.
Speaker 3: And my homegirl Geila and Nick they just got married.
Speaker 3: And I only want to make this point. All of
Speaker 3: these women know shade to their husbands if they listen.
Speaker 3: Of course, have called me with an issue, right he's
Speaker 3: doing XYZ. My homegirl and Nia and I talk often.
Speaker 3: She's one of my closest friends. She literally complained about
Speaker 3: some of her husband the other day, right, she goes, girl,
Speaker 3: I would not trade him in. I'm just saying this,
Speaker 3: and I even am trying to hold myself back from
Speaker 3: venting because I know how lucky I am. Like he's
Speaker 3: my best friend, he's my soulmate. This nigga just getting
Speaker 3: on my nerves right now. Everything is always gonna have
Speaker 3: a moment. Charlotte and Sex and the City Don't Laugh
Speaker 3: said something that as a kid.
Speaker 1: I remember.
Speaker 3: I don't I remember who asked her the question, but
Speaker 3: she was like, you can't tell me you're happy every day.
Speaker 3: She's like, maybe not all day every day, but like, yeah,
Speaker 3: I'm happy every day. I do think there can be
Speaker 3: some happy relationships. I think we're on overload of hearing
Speaker 3: about bad stuff. And also I don't call my friends
Speaker 3: when my man does something amazing for me, mainly because
Speaker 3: sometimes I feel like I'm showing off. I think I
Speaker 3: said that a few weeks ago, like I don't want
Speaker 3: to say how happy I am.
Speaker 2: He even tells me the Internet, y'all niggas not even
Speaker 2: the Internet like our own listeners. When I was in
Speaker 2: a puppy phase for the first year of my last relationship,
Speaker 2: niggas was like, ain't no way, ain't no way, And
Speaker 2: then I almost felt like there was happiness or some
Speaker 2: sort of way in which people felt like, oh, told you, bitch.
Speaker 2: Once the shit started going like this, it was like, yeah,
Speaker 2: this is what a real relationship was, but she was
Speaker 2: too happy. Like the fact that they felt like I
Speaker 2: was happy for too long because it starts, it should start,
Speaker 2: y'all should start arguing within two or three months is
Speaker 2: also crazy.
Speaker 1: I mean, here's the thing, Like, I don't want to
Speaker 1: be with someone of our it you're not supposed to
Speaker 1: be arguing. I don't argue with my friends.
Speaker 2: I didn't agree with this will happen, right, And like,
Speaker 2: I think I know the difference between an argument and a.
Speaker 3: Disagreement very and I think women don't have arguments to
Speaker 3: that level. Like I have disagreements, sure, but like I'm
Speaker 3: not like fuck you nigga, Like you know that's something
Speaker 3: that that's when we know it's toxic to.
Speaker 2: Be honest with you.
Speaker 3: Even though my relationship with ol Bay wasn't great at
Speaker 3: the end, I may have only had three real arguments
Speaker 3: and almost three years with him, everything was a disagreement.
Speaker 3: He didn't scream, we didn't yell when I found out.
Speaker 3: Even he cheated and excuse me lied the first time,
Speaker 3: it was still a disagreement. Like it was levelheaded talking
Speaker 3: you and I I really believe this. I can't speak
Speaker 3: for other women. The way that we run business in
Speaker 3: our lives and the way that we are. We can't
Speaker 3: deal with a nigga that guy energy like that.
Speaker 1: No, I don't have it. I can't.
Speaker 3: And so I think meeting your match will come to
Speaker 3: you and you'll realize and you start having healthier conversations
Speaker 3: with men. It's so tough right now because it doesn't
Speaker 3: matter if it was a year ago that nigga made
Speaker 3: that imprint for a long time, and like, even when
Speaker 3: you're healed, even when you date someone else, you're gonna
Speaker 3: always remember that that was your first love. Yeah, it sucks,
Speaker 3: but there are happy people and just because relationships have
Speaker 3: arguments or disagreements doesn't mean they're unhealthy going through those weeds.
Speaker 3: It sucks, But like I got into an I was
Speaker 3: about to say argument disagreement with my boyfriend in London,
Speaker 3: and it was the first day of our trip. And
Speaker 3: when we got over the disagreement, it was same day
Speaker 3: and he literally came to me and was like, I
Speaker 3: know that shit sucks, And then know you're like complaining
Speaker 3: because it happened on vacation. But I really feel like
Speaker 3: I got over this hump with you, and like I
Speaker 3: know you deeper in this weird way, like every disagreement
Speaker 3: we've ever had its growth, and like I feel closer
Speaker 3: to you, and I do think that's how it's supposed
Speaker 3: to happen. You and I have had really healthy disagreements
Speaker 3: and ways to overcome them in the last few years
Speaker 3: where we didn't before.
Speaker 1: Like damn, this felt good.
Speaker 3: Thank you if you're texting me in this with the way,
Speaker 3: thank you for letting me know you will have that
Speaker 3: same respect from a partner when you meet them. It's
Speaker 3: just we can't pretend that it's all bad.
Speaker 1: Trust me. I know bitches where ansia niggas too, but
Speaker 1: it ain't all bad.
Speaker 2: I think then we're gonna simply agree to disagree with this.
Speaker 2: I don't think being single is all good or all
Speaker 2: bad either. I think in both places you can be
Speaker 2: fulfilled in technically or essentially the same way. You can
Speaker 2: be just as fulfilled, happy, or unhappy in a relationship,
Speaker 2: and you can be just as happy, fulfilled or unhappy
Speaker 2: in being single. No, but I think the way that
Speaker 2: the society applies these pressures in these antidotes and these
Speaker 2: negative stereotypes on women who do choose to be by
Speaker 2: themselves has to be let go because a woman who's
Speaker 2: single can absolutely the same way.
Speaker 1: You said a happy, healthy relationship.
Speaker 2: There could be a woman who's happy, being healthy and
Speaker 2: being single without the addition to a man or woman
Speaker 2: being their romantic partner.
Speaker 3: I agree with you only if that person isn't dating.
Speaker 3: So to me, that is the happy, healthy single by choice.
Speaker 3: When you start involving other people, I think that's when
Speaker 3: the threat of your single and is being happy happens,
Speaker 3: because then you're dating for what purpose?
Speaker 1: If it's just sex, it's just sex. Cool.
Speaker 3: We know not a lot of women can handle that.
Speaker 3: We start wanting more. So when you're starting to be
Speaker 3: single and dating, I then don't know if it's a
Speaker 3: choice anymore. I think complete being alone and being single
Speaker 3: is a real thing, with like spurts of little things
Speaker 3: here and there that you're having for fun. I don't
Speaker 3: know if you can be single and dating and it
Speaker 3: be a choice that. I don't believe what y'all think
Speaker 3: because we've been sitting here talking.
Speaker 2: Damn we said, we said we'll fuck with the mike
Speaker 2: next next episode, will fobawly all the next.
Speaker 3: Act because I really I feel bad to have this
Speaker 3: conversation right now because now my relationship is new. Right,
Speaker 3: it's been a year. We met last July. You know,
Speaker 3: I'm ann counted from when the Hinge.
Speaker 1: Message on Yeah, now you're wrong, he claimed, yo yo
Speaker 1: days be all off. It's okay. We talked about it now.
Speaker 3: I started from the her first hint message Hinge message
Speaker 3: July twenty seven, that Nigga's like, bitch, I really need
Speaker 3: a phone number.
Speaker 1: Right, nothing. Yeah, that's not where I started. That's not
Speaker 1: when I started. That's not what it started.
Speaker 3: But I don't well anyway, woman man, I said, girl man,
Speaker 3: that is girl math. I say that to say like
Speaker 3: it's hard because I don't like sometimes talking about single
Speaker 3: shit because I feel like it's very difficult because there's
Speaker 3: so many people in relationships that I see online that
Speaker 3: kind of punch down when they're talking.
Speaker 2: They do.
Speaker 3: And I was single because I wanted to be. But
Speaker 3: when I say that by choice, I only mean because
Speaker 3: I knew I was still healing. I think if I
Speaker 3: could have gotten over old Bay and his shit, I
Speaker 3: would have been super excited to meet someone great. Yeah,
Speaker 3: but it is a tough answer because eventually I knew
Speaker 3: I wanted a partner.
Speaker 1: Eventually I know what my goals look like. That's why
Speaker 1: I don't know, I think, But that's I think.
Speaker 2: That's where I'm in right now, this shit storm of
Speaker 2: knowing that I do not want marriage, knowing that I
Speaker 2: do not want kids, what I think identifying what a
Speaker 2: partner looks like for me?
Speaker 1: Then?
Speaker 2: Like and how as a woman in my thirties dating
Speaker 2: probably a man in his thirties or forties, how I
Speaker 2: find someone that aligns with those things?
Speaker 1: Like?
Speaker 2: So do I sit here and and have the Internet say,
Speaker 2: bitch you dumb as hell because you dating a nigga
Speaker 2: with eight kids, three baby mamas? Because that might be
Speaker 2: someone that works for me, because because hopefully he doesn't
Speaker 2: want anymore. Like so the things that I'm also seeing
Speaker 2: punched down on online is like, well, damn that might
Speaker 2: make sense for me? Does will it make sense for
Speaker 2: me too? I want to be a step mom, like
Speaker 2: I don't want to be married. Like there's just all
Speaker 2: these things that, again societal pressures has me just feeling
Speaker 2: like maybe I'm just gonna I'm just gonna stick to myself, right, now,
Speaker 2: and I think that I am like the fact that
Speaker 2: in this moment of grief and anxiety, my ex who
Speaker 2: fucking terrorized me as popping back in my mind. I
Speaker 2: just I know right now, I'm not sure how long
Speaker 2: I am one hundred percent single by choice. Yeah, like
Speaker 2: I think, I think even going after the failed throuttle,
Speaker 2: which I have not got back on, I have not
Speaker 2: got back on dating apps, even feeling like well even
Speaker 2: even me you know, toying with that dating app finding
Speaker 2: a couple and really like in my mind seeing like oh.
Speaker 1: Maybe this could work and them not being on this ship.
Speaker 1: I don't want to deal with it. Let me tell you.
Speaker 3: That's why I wanted my man to listen to that episode,
Speaker 3: because I was really like, I want you to hear this,
Speaker 3: because there are so many things, like I could tell
Speaker 3: you wanted to have a nice relationship with them, which
Speaker 3: is why I didn't go hard during the episode, because
Speaker 3: I had nothing to do with you. It's just, you know,
Speaker 3: at the same time, trying to be respectful to people
Speaker 3: you liked. But it really showed me like, oh, I
Speaker 3: don't want this. It showed me so many things about
Speaker 3: like domination that I don't appreciate. It showed me so
Speaker 3: many things about pleasing someone that I don't appreciate it.
Speaker 3: And it's funny because I feel like listening to that
Speaker 3: story made me think, this must be when my homegirls
Speaker 3: think I'm in I almost think because I'm the sub,
Speaker 3: like I'm that girl that's just like, oh, okay, we're
Speaker 3: meeting someone today, or like I don't know. And then
Speaker 3: I saw a comment about someone saying you had more
Speaker 3: of a connection with the dude, or.
Speaker 1: Like, oh, bitch, I wanted to respond to it. You know,
Speaker 1: I don't think that bothered.
Speaker 2: Me because bitch, me and her were talking, we were
Speaker 2: we were on like I was so much more involved
Speaker 2: with her.
Speaker 1: I was showing I was only even allowed to show
Speaker 1: affection of her.
Speaker 2: Fumblic you had more of a connection with her. I
Speaker 2: felt like I was surprised at how much I really
Speaker 2: enjoyed her.
Speaker 1: That's why I was so upset to talking about No,
Speaker 1: I think I did.
Speaker 2: But let's be very clear, I've also sat on this
Speaker 2: pod and said sexually, I want to be with a woman, romantically,
Speaker 2: I want to be with a man, which is what
Speaker 2: I felt like in that dynamic, I was going to
Speaker 2: be able to get both without crossing the boundaries for
Speaker 2: whatever they had going. Oh bitch, you said something right now,
Speaker 2: that's probably the reason she fucked with She she didn't
Speaker 2: know that, but no, but I think that would may
Speaker 2: have come to fruition.
Speaker 1: But reading that comment.
Speaker 2: Also funnuse you jump? Well it frustrated me. Well no,
Speaker 2: because that's what I'm saying. We then were bitch cheers thing.
Speaker 2: I had to do a pickleback shop for the first time.
Speaker 2: We went and got oysters. You had fun on friendship, right,
Speaker 2: So on a friendship level. Romantic no, but on a
Speaker 2: friendship level that was still there. I can still the
Speaker 2: way I show up for my friends. Let's be very clear,
Speaker 2: I'm not talking about your friends. No. What I'm saying
Speaker 2: is how I show up for my friends goes way
Speaker 2: deeper than how I showed up for to some niggas.
Speaker 2: So to me, how I know again how to show
Speaker 2: up and what I was willing to give her would
Speaker 2: have been stronger than what how the fun I would
Speaker 2: have showed up with him? Right?
Speaker 3: But what I'm saying is, like you said, I wanted
Speaker 3: something sexual with a woman, romantic with him.
Speaker 1: But that's all I was looking to date them as
Speaker 1: a couple, right, But I'm.
Speaker 3: Saying they romantically, that maybe maybe there was more of
Speaker 3: a connection that you couldn't even see.
Speaker 2: She didn't even want to be romantic or be called
Speaker 2: a girlfriend. She didn't want any to see at all.
Speaker 2: She wanted a unicorn, which is so to me. She
Speaker 2: wasn't looking for someone to love her show up as a.
Speaker 1: Girlfriend actually talking about anything you did. By the way, No, no,
Speaker 1: And I get that. I'm not taking them saying this.
Speaker 3: I find that there was a connection with you and
Speaker 3: him that you probably couldn't see. I'm saying that which
Speaker 3: she saw outside of the dog he's not dating. Well,
Speaker 3: there was a dom dynamic, but that's what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: There's a connection. What you're saying right now is why
Speaker 2: I hate people took them. They all got their own
Speaker 2: little fucking tick.
Speaker 1: But do you see what I'm saying now? They have
Speaker 1: their tics and traumas. But this is the thing.
Speaker 2: This is in any relationship that you get into with
Speaker 2: anybody new, whether it's a couple, whether it's h E,
Speaker 2: M M, whether it's monogamous relationships, niggas are coming in
Speaker 2: with their own thoughts, traumas and don't know how to
Speaker 2: effectively communicate it.
Speaker 1: I don't have the patience to deal with these nigs.
Speaker 1: I'm just saying.
Speaker 3: When I read that comment, I took it like you did, like, oh,
Speaker 3: why would they say that? But then I was like, oh,
Speaker 3: the connection wasn't on Mandy. It was actually just what existed.
Speaker 3: For example, when Well almost said his name. When Old
Speaker 3: Bay and I would engage in threesomes, they were very
Speaker 3: just kind of like whatever. There was one woman we
Speaker 3: engaged with that was in her forties and he was
Speaker 3: in his forties, and it was the first time I
Speaker 3: felt so like disconnected them. Niggas had jokes, them, niggas
Speaker 3: knew songs. They just had this thing that I couldn't
Speaker 3: match with. Now, it doesn't mean he doesn't fucking love
Speaker 3: me whatever, it just is what it is, right. Oh yeah,
Speaker 3: and this nigga was into production. We had a lot,
Speaker 3: We had a lot of That's what I'm saying. Fuck
Speaker 3: the fact, bro, it's black. Okay, girlfriend can't say nigga.
Speaker 1: Do you know how fucking deep that shit gets for
Speaker 1: black men in interracial relationships like Mandy? I know.
Speaker 3: And listening that shit right, there is a layer that
Speaker 3: people probably don't even realize, but you.
Speaker 2: Did have a deeper connection with him now, so again,
Speaker 2: fuck people, but Dayton, fuck these dumb ass relationships. I
Speaker 2: ain't got time to sit here and go to layers
Speaker 2: with niggas, in they trauma or in they bullshit?
Speaker 1: Is y'all saying nigga around her? I say, bitch, I'm
Speaker 1: trying to limit not you. That's how we talk. And
Speaker 1: my point is, you know, when he were heart you
Speaker 1: probably gonna be like, oh people, well no.
Speaker 2: Because I mean, there was a joke that she's the
Speaker 2: nigga of Asia. She's Filipino.
Speaker 1: I'm so tired, that's you know what I mean. No,
Speaker 1: but no, no, no, I get it.
Speaker 2: I'm not giving I'm not giving anybody a pass to
Speaker 2: say nigga.
Speaker 1: No but no, when Latinos love to do that, they do.
Speaker 1: It's too much going on in the bay. I'm gonna
Speaker 1: say it again.
Speaker 2: No, we had the conversation having sex with Filipinos and
Speaker 2: there's blazons, because there's blazing the regular Filipino cousins.
Speaker 1: I get it. Yeah.
Speaker 2: No, at the end of the day, again they got
Speaker 2: the black I'm not gonna sit here and dissect even
Speaker 2: the disparities between ethnicities and cultural backgrounds when dating somebody like,
Speaker 2: I'm just I give up girl, Like right now.
Speaker 1: I'm good. You wanted to top was good and you did.
Speaker 1: I'm not.
Speaker 2: I'm good, and that be very clear. I let both
Speaker 2: of them know if they got on the same page,
Speaker 2: I would love to revisit. I have fun with them,
Speaker 2: but they need to they need to figure they shit out.
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Speaker 3: I'll tell you what's about to happen real quick. You
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Speaker 2: I only give you a COVID tests after that.
Speaker 1: Gross. My mom hos COVID right now? Oh y.
Speaker 3: If anyone has a friend that has COVID, they just
Speaker 3: don't know what to do with themselves. My mom was like,
Speaker 3: do you think I could walk around the block if
Speaker 3: I don't touch anybody?
Speaker 2: That's what I'm saying, Like, bro, that's why, that's why
Speaker 2: I was spreading the way it was, Mitch. I think
Speaker 2: my mama waited till the exact hour that they said
Speaker 2: it was good. As she went to the club, I said,
Speaker 2: Mama not, I said, she went downtown it was drinking,
Speaker 2: and she stayed home for the five days.
Speaker 1: And it was like, I've reached the fifth day, bitch,
Speaker 1: I'm going out. I've been in the house. I said,
Speaker 1: you don't know if it's gone yet. What are you
Speaker 1: talking about? Do you know when from two weeks to
Speaker 1: wait till you get a negative results?
Speaker 2: And now it's only five days? But everybody five days differently,
Speaker 2: And I was like, you know what, I hate everybody
Speaker 2: girl speaking of downtown Orlando.
Speaker 1: I have to go to a wedding. Do you remember James.
Speaker 1: He came on like one of my first episodes.
Speaker 2: My friend James, who was in a call who met
Speaker 2: Vinnie yes because they went on a date, is now
Speaker 2: getting married to a woman that he's been dating for
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Speaker 1: Who was an only fan who her name? Oh should
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Speaker 3: we're on Patreon, so I'm just gonna go ahead and
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Speaker 2: So, yes, I've been actively speaking to just multiple sex
Speaker 2: workers at this point because I would assume that sex
Speaker 2: workers just have a different mindset of liberation, acceptance of things.
Speaker 1: And one of my sex workers recently just had to
Speaker 1: block him on everything.
Speaker 2: Because this dumb ass fuck nigga uh huh felt the way.
Speaker 2: By the way, seek this is not the clip because
Speaker 2: I don't need niggas thinking guessing at and I don't
Speaker 2: need to go deeper into this episode. Do not make
Speaker 2: this the goddamn clip on YouTube or clip anyways.
Speaker 1: I I was so offended.
Speaker 2: This nigga literally felt away and did not want to
Speaker 2: see me because I posted the couple the throttle. They
Speaker 2: lasted for only two and a half weeks, so because
Speaker 2: I posted them on Twitter and he saw that I
Speaker 2: was dealing with a couple, I reached out to him
Speaker 2: a little while after, clearly once I knew it was
Speaker 2: dead in the grass to see him, like, bitch, he
Speaker 2: lives in New York. He lives in another state, but
Speaker 2: would like to see you, bitch. I got miles, You
Speaker 2: got miles. We could fly, we could meet, we could
Speaker 2: you know. So hit him up to link.
Speaker 1: And he goes down this rabbit hole. I guess with
Speaker 1: me on how he was completely turned off.
Speaker 2: By me having that couple or me having a couple,
Speaker 2: and he literally I told him he shamed me. He
Speaker 2: just me, he said, I'm not judging you, but it's
Speaker 2: what he did. He said, I was so turned off
Speaker 2: to see that she was out here with a couple
Speaker 2: like a man and a woman. Wow, I don't get it.
Speaker 1: Hold on, let me keep finishing beating a bit ch.
Speaker 1: I'all don't get it either. Doesn't he know you date
Speaker 1: other people? Do you know? He said? In his mind
Speaker 1: had I hit him up and said, I need no bitch,
Speaker 1: let me. This is delusion. This is the delusion of men,
Speaker 1: he said.
Speaker 2: Had I hit him up and said, I've been so
Speaker 2: deprived from dick that the only dick I want is his,
Speaker 2: that would have been fine, But the fact that he
Speaker 2: knew I could have and fuck whoever I want, both
Speaker 2: men and women, he said, whoa, you'd be outside fucking
Speaker 2: he and I was like, even though I don't just
Speaker 2: fuck anybody, he said, he was turned off and seeing
Speaker 2: that I was even I had.
Speaker 1: The ability to date a couple and fuck a couple.
Speaker 2: And he said, if I fuck anybody at this point
Speaker 2: in my life, I want my dick to be the
Speaker 2: only dick they want.
Speaker 1: Huh, hold on the only dick that they crave, because
Speaker 1: that's what would make me feel good.
Speaker 2: And I said, my nigga, right after I fucked you
Speaker 2: the last time, a week later, I had to see
Speaker 2: you fuck a bitch online because because so.
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