WEBVTT - Ep 289: Seeking a Doppleganger 0:00:02.480 --> 0:00:09.720 Guess what decision we're about to make a horrible decision. Yo, Yo, Yo, 0:00:09.880 --> 0:00:15.200 Yo yo, Welcome to another episode of horrid Blair. This 0:00:15.280 --> 0:00:18.880 is yo. I'm sorry, y'all. It's your girl Mandy b 0:00:19.079 --> 0:00:21.400 a k A dad bitch a k A pitt Stein 0:00:21.560 --> 0:00:23.960 a k A I fucking mama and your daddy a 0:00:24.120 --> 0:00:27.600 k A. Genuinee is fine, and y'all better stop playing 0:00:27.640 --> 0:00:31.960 with that man. He's fun if he doesn't dance. I 0:00:32.000 --> 0:00:36.400 don't like the dancing. It's giving less dance badly together. Well, 0:00:36.440 --> 0:00:38.919 my name is wheezy. What the fun is Genuine doing 0:00:38.960 --> 0:00:43.600 on stage? He's doing everything that clearly made it sowere. 0:00:43.680 --> 0:00:45.680 This motherfucker got a hell a lot of kids, with 0:00:45.800 --> 0:00:47.440 a hell of a lot of baby mama's. They probably 0:00:47.479 --> 0:00:49.600 got a good dick, honestly, like big dick. Niggas always 0:00:49.640 --> 0:00:52.040 like they always have like a little corny because God 0:00:52.120 --> 0:00:54.920 is fair, so there's always something kind of wrong with them. 0:00:55.080 --> 0:00:59.680 And in Genuine's case, it's like that's probably what you know, 0:00:59.720 --> 0:01:01.960 what's easy. And I'll tell you everybody, Hey, listen, baby 0:01:01.960 --> 0:01:05.119 a bitch can't dance, but I can't botus ads back 0:01:05.160 --> 0:01:08.200 on some dick that's all that matter. I can fuck like. 0:01:08.600 --> 0:01:11.880 I can't dance, I can't really grind, can't really vibrate, 0:01:12.240 --> 0:01:15.399 but when the dick is inside me, I can see. 0:01:15.600 --> 0:01:17.960 It was crazy to was Trina actually said that I 0:01:18.000 --> 0:01:20.319 could like or No, it wasn't even treating that. She 0:01:20.400 --> 0:01:22.440 said she has been around with the dick still aside. 0:01:23.160 --> 0:01:26.920 But there's like someone else that says that she can't 0:01:26.959 --> 0:01:29.800 do it on a dick. Uh, right, what about it? 0:01:30.160 --> 0:01:32.280 I can do a lot on a dick. I just 0:01:32.319 --> 0:01:34.839 can't do a lot. We know you can't ride one. 0:01:35.040 --> 0:01:37.520 I mean, I just choose bendy if you basically are 0:01:37.560 --> 0:01:39.320 now telling us all you can do is throw it back, 0:01:40.319 --> 0:01:42.440 and that's what the niggas like. I got some ads, 0:01:42.480 --> 0:01:44.600 I got some man's back there. Uh, speaking of I 0:01:44.600 --> 0:01:46.000 guess I wanted to start off with a little bit 0:01:46.000 --> 0:01:48.480 of catch up because we have a lot of a 0:01:48.560 --> 0:01:51.640 lot a lot of guests coming up. And so while 0:01:51.720 --> 0:01:53.520 you guys have been loving the solos, we have some 0:01:53.600 --> 0:01:57.440 really really dope guests. We're in a fight, I mean, 0:01:57.760 --> 0:02:00.280 or it just means we both really don't have a 0:02:00.440 --> 0:02:04.040 sexual life right now or dating life or niggas is. 0:02:04.080 --> 0:02:07.160 So let's talk about someone else. Honestly, the guests that 0:02:07.160 --> 0:02:09.560 we're having lately though, everyone's just kind of coming in 0:02:09.639 --> 0:02:11.359 town right now. It's just like a time when I'm 0:02:11.400 --> 0:02:13.880 here for it. Sometimes there's weeks where it's like the 0:02:13.919 --> 0:02:15.880 guests are kind of whack, and then there's other times 0:02:15.880 --> 0:02:19.000 where I would never call a guest whack. Guys. Ever, 0:02:19.680 --> 0:02:23.160 we've got a week guest. That's why I just looked 0:02:23.200 --> 0:02:26.040 at them like week. Fine. I mean, we weren't given 0:02:26.080 --> 0:02:28.080 we're supposed to be gay, that we could do that, 0:02:28.280 --> 0:02:30.680 we could do that. It's so crazy now because ever 0:02:31.120 --> 0:02:33.639 that I want Rolling Ray in this bitch, I will 0:02:33.720 --> 0:02:38.640 roll good. Do you watch her? Okay? So okay? Is 0:02:38.639 --> 0:02:40.160 this king of a wheel chair? So I'm not even 0:02:40.200 --> 0:02:43.000 gonna lie to you. This may be a really toxic 0:02:43.080 --> 0:02:46.440 question to ask. Do you think Rolling Ray is the 0:02:46.480 --> 0:02:50.480 top or bottom? What? What could he be? I mean, 0:02:50.720 --> 0:02:53.440 I don't know if he has I guess bottoming, but 0:02:53.480 --> 0:02:56.040 I don't know how what functionality is. Also, I just 0:02:56.080 --> 0:02:59.720 want to make a note. We are not ablest homes. 0:03:00.120 --> 0:03:03.080 You know, we had not. I was about to roll 0:03:03.120 --> 0:03:04.639 that hell out of here when she started talking about 0:03:04.639 --> 0:03:07.000 how I couldn't suck date and We had a comment 0:03:07.040 --> 0:03:09.440 recently where someone said, I loved your blind guy episode 0:03:09.840 --> 0:03:13.000 and uh, you know both women that we had two 0:03:13.000 --> 0:03:15.360 women in a wheelchair not really a man, you know. 0:03:15.440 --> 0:03:18.680 But we've also had um shorty that everyone loved. The 0:03:18.680 --> 0:03:22.600 white chick who was missing an arm, Dia die. It 0:03:22.639 --> 0:03:25.400 was I don't thinking her name was something else, d 0:03:25.520 --> 0:03:29.440 a y a no name. You know, we grew white 0:03:29.440 --> 0:03:32.639 women in together, but anyway was spicy. She was a 0:03:32.680 --> 0:03:36.720 top many getting all the disabled people. Where are you at, bitch? 0:03:38.120 --> 0:03:40.960 You said you weren't enables. I said, no, we are. 0:03:41.080 --> 0:03:42.640 I'm saying you need to fig you need to bring 0:03:43.080 --> 0:03:45.520 sex bit, you need to go outside in the sex 0:03:45.600 --> 0:03:48.400 club people. I bring in some sex workers. I bring 0:03:48.400 --> 0:03:51.040 in the niggas that want to be pegged. I leaned 0:03:51.120 --> 0:03:56.200 more towards the black sex Slane. You bringing the others. 0:03:58.120 --> 0:04:00.920 You're bringing the other Mandyaga like I'm in the parking lot, 0:04:00.960 --> 0:04:02.800 just waiting on the handicapped spot, Like you want to 0:04:02.840 --> 0:04:06.120 be on the show. It's it's given. I remember you 0:04:06.200 --> 0:04:08.880 brought a cross dresser on that you came across on 0:04:09.000 --> 0:04:12.920 fucking one of them dating apps. You're like, yo, swipe 0:04:12.960 --> 0:04:14.640 this thing and said let me swipe right and see 0:04:14.680 --> 0:04:16.679 if he wants to come on the pod. You literally 0:04:17.000 --> 0:04:21.000 and white man, white you, you look for everyone. I'd 0:04:21.000 --> 0:04:23.720 just be like, what nig I mean, I guess that's true. 0:04:23.720 --> 0:04:25.680 I do like, I don't know. I just want some 0:04:25.760 --> 0:04:28.599 weird ass guests. I um, I was just thinking of something. 0:04:28.640 --> 0:04:30.800 Oh if, by the way, if you're listening to this, 0:04:30.839 --> 0:04:33.160 and yes, I am joking about disabilities, and I want 0:04:33.160 --> 0:04:35.679 to joke in your face. I would love to interview 0:04:35.760 --> 0:04:39.440 someone that maybe has three with a policy or just 0:04:39.520 --> 0:04:43.360 something that maybe is a hinder insturing sex. And I'd 0:04:43.360 --> 0:04:45.560 love for you to bring awareness talk about on the 0:04:45.720 --> 0:04:48.520 on the pod. Maybe someone with autism. I think I 0:04:48.680 --> 0:04:51.800 want to bring on to somebody that got that thing 0:04:51.839 --> 0:04:55.279 from like Douce Biggelow male Gigglo. No, not the tourette, 0:04:55.640 --> 0:05:00.360 the bitch that just she just fell asleep to where 0:05:00.480 --> 0:05:03.800 she had to have her hair tied to the thing. 0:05:02.920 --> 0:05:06.240 She would I want to know if like, what what 0:05:06.279 --> 0:05:08.479 do you do to a male ego? If he busting 0:05:08.520 --> 0:05:11.040 that ask and you just I want somebody who just 0:05:11.120 --> 0:05:14.000 be falling asleep out of nowhere. That's what I won't do. Yeah, 0:05:14.160 --> 0:05:16.680 anyone with an Arcilepsi is listening or has made it 0:05:16.760 --> 0:05:20.480 through this part of the podcast, but but I really 0:05:20.520 --> 0:05:24.080 do want um what was I gonna say? Uh? What 0:05:24.200 --> 0:05:27.000 did you say before that? And Arcilepsi tourette Sophia with 0:05:27.080 --> 0:05:29.080 an ass Yall should check out her episode. She had 0:05:29.080 --> 0:05:31.400 a girl with tress on the show and it was 0:05:31.440 --> 0:05:33.880 recording at my studio and one of the girls, Yomie, 0:05:33.920 --> 0:05:36.080 wrote me and was like, Bro, this ship is real, 0:05:36.360 --> 0:05:38.359 Like this is not a joke. This girl can't stop 0:05:38.360 --> 0:05:40.640 saying big black, Like you can't say and stop saying 0:05:40.920 --> 0:05:43.599 what did she say? It wasn't big black. I was 0:05:43.600 --> 0:05:45.440 thinking about the girl from the dentist. Remember he was like, 0:05:45.480 --> 0:05:50.240 I want to baby say on anesthesia. People whenever they 0:05:50.240 --> 0:05:54.000 have outbursts on medication, love talking about big black cocks 0:05:54.040 --> 0:05:56.240 because it's it's good and we all think about it 0:05:56.279 --> 0:05:58.840 often we do. But yeah, if you got tarette, hit 0:05:58.880 --> 0:06:02.120 me up, um unless we're gonna speaking a big black dick? 0:06:02.360 --> 0:06:06.479 Have you like that? Guy? I know the last time 0:06:06.520 --> 0:06:09.800 I came in here, I was without, but now I'm 0:06:09.839 --> 0:06:12.800 within and I actually sucked the nigga that kissed a 0:06:12.800 --> 0:06:15.960 bitch um at the box. So I did talk about 0:06:16.000 --> 0:06:18.479 it on Patreon. It was amazing. It was really good. 0:06:18.520 --> 0:06:19.960 We sucked for two and a half hours. I was 0:06:19.960 --> 0:06:22.440 in pain. Um, he and I are going to be 0:06:22.480 --> 0:06:25.160 having sex after envisioned test. I think I'm taking him 0:06:25.160 --> 0:06:31.320 to company x X whatever. That okay, so fancy excited 0:06:31.400 --> 0:06:33.599 on sucking him again. Y'all know I love a little 0:06:33.680 --> 0:06:37.200 artist niked Um And then so a few weeks ago, 0:06:37.279 --> 0:06:38.920 I was in New York for a Netflix from me 0:06:38.920 --> 0:06:40.760 here y'all. I'm sure everybody's seen it now you probably 0:06:40.760 --> 0:06:43.920 haven't seen to Get Intergalactic by kid Cutty. Holy shit, 0:06:45.080 --> 0:06:47.159 that was one of the best things I've seen. It's 0:06:47.160 --> 0:06:50.320 an animation. Kenya produced it, which was why I came here. 0:06:50.920 --> 0:06:53.479 Oh my god, it's so good. Mandy You if no 0:06:53.480 --> 0:06:55.359 one's ever done mushrooms, watch it and you'll know what 0:06:55.400 --> 0:06:57.640 it feels like. It was phenomenal. So at the party, 0:06:59.680 --> 0:07:03.240 I I didn't have mixed business with pleasure. Oh I mean, 0:07:03.279 --> 0:07:05.040 I guess it wasn't business. I don't work with him. 0:07:05.040 --> 0:07:07.760 He was just there. But um, there was a guy 0:07:07.839 --> 0:07:10.520 that I've seen on some Zoom calls for work, and 0:07:10.560 --> 0:07:14.360 he was very cute in the flesh and you know, 0:07:14.520 --> 0:07:16.720 It was one of those moments where I was like, oh, 0:07:16.880 --> 0:07:18.760 you were out of the same city, but we're in 0:07:18.880 --> 0:07:22.280 l a Whene, We're in New York. And then who 0:07:22.320 --> 0:07:25.679 knows a night at last, Lap turned into me basically 0:07:25.720 --> 0:07:27.960 telling him I haven't had sex in a while, and 0:07:28.040 --> 0:07:30.800 he said, uh, well, damn, how long has it been. 0:07:30.800 --> 0:07:32.680 I was like, seventy days probably, I don't know, Like 0:07:32.720 --> 0:07:34.560 I was just naming some ship off and he was like, well, 0:07:34.840 --> 0:07:36.520 do you want to talk about day seventy one and 0:07:36.520 --> 0:07:38.600 spoon at my hotel? And I was like, no, I'm good. 0:07:39.280 --> 0:07:42.840 So I was out again with my home girl. I'm 0:07:42.840 --> 0:07:45.360 looking at Gabby and I'm like, I think I'm gonna 0:07:45.560 --> 0:07:47.640 go spoon with him. Like I think I'm gonna do it. 0:07:48.160 --> 0:07:50.040 She's like, but it's like four o'clock in the morning. Bro, 0:07:50.200 --> 0:07:52.040 I'm like, I think that's just what I want to do. 0:07:52.080 --> 0:07:55.800 That be loving utensils. Not you spoony, you'd be scissory, 0:07:55.840 --> 0:07:59.480 you'd be doing little. I go to his hotel, m 0:08:00.480 --> 0:08:01.920 I literally showed up and I was like, I'm gonna 0:08:01.920 --> 0:08:03.480 be honest with Shoo. I'm just showing up here for 0:08:03.480 --> 0:08:06.320 the bath products. Because this particular hotel has a great 0:08:06.360 --> 0:08:08.400 line of ship and he was like, that's cool. I'm 0:08:08.440 --> 0:08:11.239 gon nigga too, so whatever. He had a road waiting 0:08:11.240 --> 0:08:13.000 for me and I was like, I'm really, like actually 0:08:13.040 --> 0:08:14.480 not ready for sex. And he was like, oh, if 0:08:14.520 --> 0:08:16.200 I wanted to have sex tonight, I wouldn't have told 0:08:16.240 --> 0:08:18.760 you that. I would have got some pussy. I was like, okay, 0:08:18.800 --> 0:08:20.760 which is facts, like he could sun wherever he wants. 0:08:21.040 --> 0:08:24.080 So we were in the bed talking for like three hours, cuddling. 0:08:24.520 --> 0:08:26.560 I really wanted to feel if it was big, but 0:08:26.600 --> 0:08:28.400 I thought if I felt it, then I was gonna 0:08:28.440 --> 0:08:31.160 fuck it. So I held on. I met some many 0:08:31.320 --> 0:08:33.040 like I wasn't gonna suck him. I told him he 0:08:33.120 --> 0:08:35.720 wasn't working, And then it was big. I said, damn 0:08:36.040 --> 0:08:41.880 damn that that would like Jesus too. Once you have 0:08:42.040 --> 0:08:46.840 to like ladies p s A if you don't want 0:08:46.840 --> 0:08:49.480 to fuck a guy. And this is the first time 0:08:49.520 --> 0:08:52.360 of you guys meeting, this is the first time y'all 0:08:52.400 --> 0:08:56.080 hanging out. Don't even don't even play pockets, don't rub 0:08:56.080 --> 0:08:58.200 the dick, don't try to see if it's big or not. 0:08:58.559 --> 0:09:01.800 Just save that for another time, because once you see, God, 0:09:01.920 --> 0:09:05.480 damn it that thing throbbing. I'm telling you you can't, 0:09:05.520 --> 0:09:08.320 so I made sure to like not go around it. 0:09:08.640 --> 0:09:10.880 So then we're in the bed for another like three 0:09:10.920 --> 0:09:13.679 hours in the morning, just talking ship and you know 0:09:13.720 --> 0:09:16.120 how he got put onto work and same and we're like, 0:09:16.160 --> 0:09:19.200 you didn't even try to feel for the morning, would know, however, 0:09:19.559 --> 0:09:21.080 And we were in the bed the whole time. He 0:09:21.080 --> 0:09:23.120 didn't even stand up. I was like, fuck, I was 0:09:23.160 --> 0:09:24.920 in panties, he was in his boxers, and he kept 0:09:24.960 --> 0:09:26.440 telling me I was soft and I wanted to just 0:09:26.480 --> 0:09:27.960 grab it, but if I grabbed it, I knew I 0:09:27.960 --> 0:09:30.320 was gonna put it in my mouth, so I didn't. 0:09:30.360 --> 0:09:33.880 But literally, I'm leaving and I'm like, I'm leaving at 0:09:33.920 --> 0:09:36.719 one o'clock in the afternoon, bro, And I'm like, I've 0:09:36.760 --> 0:09:39.400 never cuddled with someone and not kissed them. And he 0:09:39.520 --> 0:09:41.839 was like yeah. And then he's looking at me and 0:09:41.880 --> 0:09:44.360 I'm like, wait, y'all didn't kiss all night, no, or 0:09:44.440 --> 0:09:46.360 something like, so we just do it now, so y'all spoon. 0:09:46.520 --> 0:09:49.240 But there was no intimate like now, we were just 0:09:49.280 --> 0:09:50.840 talking too long. So then he looked at me and 0:09:50.840 --> 0:09:53.559 he's like okay, and I'm like, should we do it now, 0:09:53.640 --> 0:09:55.200 and then he started coming close to me. I'm like, no, 0:09:55.320 --> 0:09:57.240 that was not that was awkward. So then we like 0:09:57.320 --> 0:09:59.000 tried to do it again, and he was a really 0:09:59.080 --> 0:10:02.280 good kisser, and I realized it was God, because bitch, 0:10:02.280 --> 0:10:03.960 if I would have kiss that nickea last, what you 0:10:04.040 --> 0:10:06.360 mean it was God? Can you not bring God into this? 0:10:06.559 --> 0:10:08.480 I really didn't want to have sex with someone that 0:10:08.600 --> 0:10:11.280 was kind of work adjacent. And again I don't work 0:10:11.320 --> 0:10:14.760 with him right, like, it's just like it is kind 0:10:14.800 --> 0:10:18.720 of the same world, like for real. So I was like, 0:10:18.760 --> 0:10:20.160 this might be too close to home. But once I 0:10:20.200 --> 0:10:21.920 kiss that nigga, I'm gonna l I've been thinking about 0:10:22.080 --> 0:10:24.760 the whole time. And he's rich, but not like rich 0:10:24.880 --> 0:10:26.560 enough to be in the public eye rich, just low 0:10:26.600 --> 0:10:29.160 key rich, which is even better because now bitches might 0:10:29.200 --> 0:10:30.559 look at you and be like, oh, he has not 0:10:30.640 --> 0:10:33.160 a nice watching clothes, but like maybe he's nobody, and 0:10:33.200 --> 0:10:36.760 then all the money is for me, so you so 0:10:37.000 --> 0:10:39.960 he's now an option, and then you still have the 0:10:40.000 --> 0:10:43.079 box guy. So now you have two guys that you're 0:10:43.200 --> 0:10:46.400 kind of I do and a girl and a girl 0:10:46.760 --> 0:10:49.480 remember the girl that grabbed me up at that party 0:10:49.880 --> 0:10:53.600 and factually, Oh okay, okay, godly I didn't say that, 0:10:53.640 --> 0:10:59.080 okay and her Yeah, So I am. I'm doing well 0:10:59.520 --> 0:11:02.800 And speaking of parties, as I go home this weekend 0:11:02.880 --> 0:11:05.839 to l A, there is a party that is super 0:11:05.840 --> 0:11:08.320 popping that I really want to go to, and I 0:11:08.320 --> 0:11:12.160 found out old they will be there. How do wait, wait, wait, 0:11:12.679 --> 0:11:14.400 how to funk? You know this nigga gonna be there? 0:11:14.440 --> 0:11:16.240 If you blocked him, you don't talk to him? You 0:11:16.480 --> 0:11:18.760 he dead? Do you? You don't want nothing to do 0:11:18.840 --> 0:11:20.319 with him? How do you know he's going to be 0:11:20.320 --> 0:11:22.400 at a party next week because one of his boys 0:11:22.440 --> 0:11:25.280 told me, Hey, sending you this link to RSVP, would 0:11:25.280 --> 0:11:26.920 love to see you there. I just want you to know, 0:11:27.360 --> 0:11:30.240 boom booming, I'll be there, And I said I won't 0:11:30.240 --> 0:11:31.880 be r s v P. I said, well, I probably 0:11:31.920 --> 0:11:34.240 won't be an attending. But then I got on the 0:11:34.280 --> 0:11:36.440 scale this morning and I saw it was six pounds 0:11:36.480 --> 0:11:40.680 down and my face is to giving que again. And 0:11:40.720 --> 0:11:42.160 I got a new little PIERCD thing, and now I 0:11:42.200 --> 0:11:43.800 got I had sex with someone else. I'm kind of 0:11:43.800 --> 0:11:46.480 feeling better. So now you're gonna go. Do you not 0:11:46.520 --> 0:11:48.520 think that that's gonna bring you into any type of 0:11:48.559 --> 0:11:50.520 like depression or anything. Well, I told him that I 0:11:50.960 --> 0:11:52.560 didn't think I was gonna go, and he goes, don't worry. 0:11:52.600 --> 0:11:54.400 The party's two floors, I said, Nick, I live in 0:11:54.400 --> 0:11:56.280 the city with nine million people, not be running and 0:11:56.559 --> 0:11:59.320 running into people. So I don't know. I haven't decided yet, 0:11:59.360 --> 0:12:01.360 but I really I've been feeling great, and so I'm 0:12:01.360 --> 0:12:03.480 worried that if I see him, what if I'm drunk, 0:12:03.520 --> 0:12:05.960 What if I spit on him? What if I throw 0:12:06.000 --> 0:12:08.400 a water bottle like I wanted to? Who knows what 0:12:08.400 --> 0:12:12.120 will happen? Right? I mean, well, I'm in a place 0:12:12.160 --> 0:12:14.360 where I realized I've been looking for a doubleganger of 0:12:14.440 --> 0:12:18.040 my ex. Black Jesus and I are just friends. Why 0:12:18.200 --> 0:12:20.760 because he got a lot going on and we just 0:12:21.600 --> 0:12:25.640 know we're just Also like we don't have the sexual compatibility, 0:12:25.920 --> 0:12:28.520 Like he doesn't have the sex drive as I do. 0:12:28.679 --> 0:12:30.320 But you want to hang out And I'd be like, Nick, 0:12:30.480 --> 0:12:33.240 do you think I just want to watch TV with you? What? No, 0:12:33.559 --> 0:12:36.600 I don't I want to do more so like but 0:12:37.080 --> 0:12:41.360 from a like creative standpoint, conversation us hanging he's dope, 0:12:41.400 --> 0:12:49.880 a ship girl pass him on. Eventually, eventually eventually he 0:12:50.800 --> 0:12:53.320 met the whole goddamn savvy be pulling up like, so 0:12:53.400 --> 0:12:57.720 that's you'd have friends with him? We are friends, but 0:12:58.360 --> 0:12:59.960 he's one of those words, I'll be honest with you, 0:13:00.360 --> 0:13:03.319 he's one of those friends that on the right night, yeah, 0:13:03.360 --> 0:13:06.240 well fuck. And so he's one of those friends that 0:13:06.640 --> 0:13:09.360 if I get into a relationship I would probably have 0:13:09.440 --> 0:13:12.360 to remove myself from him because even like, uh, we 0:13:12.480 --> 0:13:15.280 literally went out to dinner the other night and it 0:13:15.360 --> 0:13:17.760 was because he brought like a client to the studio. 0:13:18.120 --> 0:13:20.840 So he's even like love what you have, Like I 0:13:20.880 --> 0:13:23.280 have this person that wants to do something, so brought 0:13:23.320 --> 0:13:25.680 his friend by the studio. We all want to eat 0:13:25.720 --> 0:13:28.440 after and literally in front, I was like, Yo, what's 0:13:28.440 --> 0:13:30.719 crazy is Like, y'all know, I don't be into the 0:13:30.720 --> 0:13:33.679 stars and moons, but in terms of like manifesting and 0:13:33.720 --> 0:13:36.160 talking about what I want, Um, yeah, we have the 0:13:36.160 --> 0:13:38.760 door o pig oh sorry it's flying going around. But 0:13:39.720 --> 0:13:42.440 literally told him to his face in front of his homeboy, 0:13:42.520 --> 0:13:45.520 I said, Yo, what's crazy is they got manifested you? 0:13:45.800 --> 0:13:47.800 And I told him that to his face. I said, 0:13:47.800 --> 0:13:49.720 you the exact nigga I said I wanted, I said, 0:13:49.720 --> 0:13:52.160 I wanted a good looking, big old dick, a lot 0:13:52.160 --> 0:13:56.680 of money, cool, creative, but you got ship going on. 0:13:56.760 --> 0:13:58.840 You come with baggage and your sex drive isn't what 0:13:58.840 --> 0:14:00.640 I needed to be. Didn't say the extra part in 0:14:00.640 --> 0:14:03.040 front of his friend, but I said, you're emotionally just 0:14:03.080 --> 0:14:06.480 not available right now. And so I was just like, Damn. 0:14:06.960 --> 0:14:10.920 I realized how I have to be so much more 0:14:10.960 --> 0:14:14.040 precise with the things I want, because literally, I said, Nigga, 0:14:14.080 --> 0:14:17.400 you were exactly what I said. I won't know you. 0:14:17.400 --> 0:14:20.000 You mentioned doppelganger for your ex. And it's interesting because 0:14:20.240 --> 0:14:22.400 there's someone I dated in the past that I was 0:14:22.520 --> 0:14:25.440 talking to, like that racky healer lady about and let's 0:14:25.440 --> 0:14:27.360 just say his name is Mark. I don't know. She 0:14:27.520 --> 0:14:29.800 was like, you need to stop thinking so much about 0:14:30.440 --> 0:14:34.240 having a man like Mark and start saying things like 0:14:34.360 --> 0:14:37.320 Mark or better, right, Like maybe he'll come back and 0:14:37.320 --> 0:14:39.440 I'll be him, are better. She's like, he's not the 0:14:39.480 --> 0:14:42.360 best person you've ever dated, Like you will find someone 0:14:42.400 --> 0:14:44.920 that's better than that, and the world is just showing 0:14:44.960 --> 0:14:47.640 you that you're that much closer. Right, Your ex had 0:14:47.640 --> 0:14:50.240 many flaws. You've talked about them, right, and so do 0:14:50.320 --> 0:14:53.040 I though but but I realized that, and that's like 0:14:53.160 --> 0:14:55.440 over over the latter we're not talking about your flaws, 0:14:56.000 --> 0:14:58.560 we're not talking about with you, but I should acknowledge 0:14:58.560 --> 0:15:00.600 that we're not acknowledged. I'm not perfect, He's not perfect. 0:15:00.680 --> 0:15:02.760 We're not talking He's exactly what I wanted. You don't 0:15:02.760 --> 0:15:05.800 need to say somebody, he's exactly what I wanted. Still 0:15:05.840 --> 0:15:07.800 to this day, I think that's a really actually shitty 0:15:07.800 --> 0:15:10.080 thing to do when someone's talking about things that you 0:15:10.120 --> 0:15:12.440 deserve better, Like you shouldn't be like, yeah, he did 0:15:12.440 --> 0:15:15.800 this to me, But I'm also no bro I and 0:15:15.920 --> 0:15:18.000 maybe that's something that I have to bring up in therapy. 0:15:18.080 --> 0:15:21.080 But to me, well, the fact that I'm looking for 0:15:21.120 --> 0:15:24.480 a doppel ganger, to me, I'm allowed to have something better. 0:15:24.560 --> 0:15:27.520 But I'm realistic and knowing that not anyone is perfect. 0:15:27.560 --> 0:15:30.280 And in the ways that he wasn't perfect, it was 0:15:30.320 --> 0:15:33.800 something I was willing to I had patience with. And 0:15:34.120 --> 0:15:35.680 I mean I recently just talked about this on my 0:15:35.760 --> 0:15:39.080 other podcast too, but like I made a post on 0:15:39.120 --> 0:15:41.680 my Instagram talking about, like, what's the difference from dating 0:15:41.680 --> 0:15:44.360 in your twenties to dating in your thirties? And it 0:15:44.480 --> 0:15:47.720 was the conversation regarding the difference in patience and tolerance. 0:15:48.040 --> 0:15:50.720 There's still things I won't tolerate, but I was patient 0:15:51.240 --> 0:15:54.680 in him understanding me because I'm different than than who 0:15:54.720 --> 0:15:57.440 he's dated in his past. And I also know him 0:15:57.440 --> 0:15:59.800 a lot. I travel a lot, I'm the life of 0:15:59.800 --> 0:16:04.160 the party. I'm loud, like when we've hung out. He 0:16:04.240 --> 0:16:06.360 knows I have a lot of male friends, so I'm 0:16:06.360 --> 0:16:09.400 introducing him to male friends men like Like, even when 0:16:09.400 --> 0:16:12.520 I was on on you know, Joe Bada Network and 0:16:13.320 --> 0:16:16.680 Charlemagne's calling me, Joe was face timing me. I'm friends 0:16:16.680 --> 0:16:18.960 with NBA niggas just friends, and you know the ones 0:16:19.000 --> 0:16:22.680 I'm just friends with, Like for for anybody, there's a 0:16:22.720 --> 0:16:25.160 lot that I understand that a man has to kind 0:16:25.160 --> 0:16:28.320 of deal with and be okay with checking his ego. 0:16:28.400 --> 0:16:30.640 And I think that that's the problem. I realized how 0:16:30.720 --> 0:16:33.960 much like I have to deal with being coddling to 0:16:34.040 --> 0:16:38.520 almost men being jealous or insecurity, and it has more 0:16:38.560 --> 0:16:41.080 to do with them than me. But I'm I understand 0:16:41.120 --> 0:16:43.120 that no man is gonna come perfect for me. But 0:16:43.200 --> 0:16:46.040 in the ways that he made me happy. When I 0:16:46.080 --> 0:16:49.240 say I want a doppelganger, that man made me so 0:16:49.440 --> 0:16:53.640 fucking happy, and I seek that again, and so maybe 0:16:53.640 --> 0:16:55.560 I do need to take a longer break, which is 0:16:55.600 --> 0:16:58.000 why I'm cool with Black Jesus not being what I 0:16:58.040 --> 0:17:00.360 need right now, and I'm just cool with taking more 0:17:00.360 --> 0:17:02.640 of a break, taking more of a break from that. 0:17:02.680 --> 0:17:05.280 But also I think, and we'll get into it for 0:17:05.280 --> 0:17:08.240 the horrible decision and where I used to be able 0:17:08.280 --> 0:17:12.159 to come and be like, oh I gotta roster that 0:17:12.280 --> 0:17:15.760 ship is like not at all something I'm able to 0:17:15.840 --> 0:17:18.240 juggle right now that I'm able to balance. And I 0:17:18.240 --> 0:17:21.000 don't want multiple dicks right now. I do like one, 0:17:21.040 --> 0:17:23.760 but I don't also want a relationship. So it's like, 0:17:24.840 --> 0:17:27.520 I don't know, I understand, and I appreciate what you 0:17:27.640 --> 0:17:32.320 just said in me deserving more, but also he's so 0:17:32.760 --> 0:17:35.359 he's leaps and bounds beyond what I have gotten before. 0:17:35.440 --> 0:17:38.600 I think it's more so just saying things like if 0:17:38.600 --> 0:17:42.920 you're talking about something you want, you don't need to say, well, yeah, 0:17:42.960 --> 0:17:44.679 I can have better, But I'm also I don't know, 0:17:44.960 --> 0:17:47.879 I you don't. You would never do that when talking 0:17:47.880 --> 0:17:50.639 about things you want in success, So why do you 0:17:50.680 --> 0:17:53.119 do it when it comes to you know what I mean? 0:17:53.280 --> 0:17:55.920 Because it's it's to me, it's actually the same as success. 0:17:55.960 --> 0:17:58.600 I can say that I want something and in terms 0:17:58.680 --> 0:18:01.240 of no, even manny, that's like saying you just opened 0:18:01.240 --> 0:18:03.760 a podcast studio. Did you say I'm gonna open a 0:18:03.840 --> 0:18:06.560 podcast studio? But it's not like my podcast is that 0:18:06.600 --> 0:18:09.240 big or this this that, So maybe I shouldn't expect 0:18:09.240 --> 0:18:11.119 my studio to be that radio. Well know, but I 0:18:11.119 --> 0:18:12.840 don't look at it in terms of greatness, but I 0:18:12.880 --> 0:18:17.040 look at it in terms of Okay, say I want 0:18:17.040 --> 0:18:19.240 to start a new business. I know what I want 0:18:19.240 --> 0:18:21.600 out of it, but I also am not going into 0:18:21.640 --> 0:18:24.520 it thinking that there won't be leaps and hurdles, that 0:18:24.680 --> 0:18:27.600 everything will happen how I wanted to be. Like, I 0:18:27.640 --> 0:18:30.760 have a team that's still growing. Some people aren't learning 0:18:31.040 --> 0:18:33.000 as quickly as I would want them to learn. Now, 0:18:33.040 --> 0:18:34.800 I could sit here and say I wanted this to 0:18:34.840 --> 0:18:38.120 be perfect. The idea of it going into being perfect 0:18:38.440 --> 0:18:41.520 isn't the case. I have a whole another podcast now 0:18:41.760 --> 0:18:44.040 based off of our podcast for the last six years. 0:18:44.160 --> 0:18:46.840 Did I go in wanting it to be a certain way? Absolutely? 0:18:47.480 --> 0:18:50.720 Is it everything I imagine? Not necessarily? And so to 0:18:50.800 --> 0:18:54.000 me knowing yes, I may want better than another partner. 0:18:54.440 --> 0:18:58.639 I also am very very um sure of the things 0:18:58.680 --> 0:19:01.640 that he did bring to me, and also understanding even 0:19:01.680 --> 0:19:05.320 if someone else brings me those exact things, that person 0:19:05.400 --> 0:19:07.840 may not still be perfect in other ways. It's going 0:19:07.880 --> 0:19:10.639 to be perfect exactly. But there why I want. There 0:19:10.680 --> 0:19:12.760 maybe people in the world that you could date that 0:19:12.800 --> 0:19:14.479