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Speaker 1: Where are you in my living room?

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Speaker 2: What's going on?

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Speaker 3: I'm just hanging out, kind of looking at the lights.

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Speaker 3: Been a hope for a little bit, watching the show.

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Speaker 3: Girlfriend just went to sleep, so I've just been chilling.

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Speaker 2: How can I get you today? Is there anything in

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Speaker 4: Man?

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Speaker 3: Well, I got bit today, and honestly, like stuff like

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Speaker 3: this is a normal occurrence. I just don't really know

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Speaker 3: how to deal with it anymore. Kind of over it,

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Speaker 3: and I kind of feel bad because I think it's

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Speaker 3: my responsibility not to be over it. So I'm just conflicted.

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Speaker 2: So it says here that you are a bit today

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Speaker 2: by a human child, and that you work with children

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Speaker 2: that have behavioral issues. Is that accurate?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, that's very accurate.

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Speaker 2: It tough job, tough it is, So tell me this.

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Speaker 2: I'm sure you knew before you got into it that

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Speaker 2: it would be a tough job, and yet you chose

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Speaker 2: to get into it anyway. Why did you make that decision?

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Speaker 3: Well, I you know, I love the community I grew

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Speaker 3: up in. I've loved sports in general, and so I

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Speaker 3: started coaching, you know, local basketball teams as a side hobby,

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Speaker 3: and I realized there's something I really love to do.

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Speaker 3: So I tried to get back into my you know,

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Speaker 3: just being a part of something again. And it's just

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Speaker 3: school systems just hard in general. So I kind of

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Speaker 3: have to get in where I can fit in. And

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Speaker 3: being in one of these roles as like a helper

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Speaker 3: for you know, these kids with special needs, you know,

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Speaker 3: is a great way to get into these districts, but

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Speaker 3: it just kind of sucks in general, just because you're

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Speaker 3: more or less just viewed as not you know, super

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Speaker 2: Really you feel as though this job working with special

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Speaker 2: needs kids, you feel as though it is it is

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Speaker 3: Well yeah, like and it's not something I guess I

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Speaker 3: necessarily knew what before I got the job. After getting

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Speaker 3: the job, and just like through social media and stuff,

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Speaker 3: I see like, yeah, this is definitely something where other

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Speaker 3: people have these same issues where they you know, are

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Speaker 3: too much at work for you know, to be honest,

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Speaker 3: not enough pay. It's just it's just tough. So I

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Speaker 3: feel like I'm in this box where I did actually

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Speaker 3: end up being getting into a situation where I'm able

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Speaker 3: to coach. So I am coaching now and I'm loving it.

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Speaker 3: But my day to day is just so awful, and

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Speaker 3: you know, getting bit and punched and slapped and kicked

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Speaker 3: you know can't necessarily control it, so it's not their fault.

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Speaker 1: I just need it.

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Speaker 3: It's just a weird anger. Not anger, but it's just

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Speaker 2: So I wanted just the thing you said at the

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Speaker 2: you said, but you said something where that that indicated

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Speaker 3: Yeah, because honestly, like you build these relationships with these kids,

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Speaker 3: get out and get something better. That way I can

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Speaker 3: same time, I know they're not going to hire somebody

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Speaker 1: But I don't know.

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Speaker 3: It's one of those tough things where it's like, Okay,

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Speaker 2: That's a lot. That's a lot. That's a lot.

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Speaker 3: I just don't want to be bit Yeah, I mean that's.

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Speaker 2: A reasonable desire to have. Let's can we start there,

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Speaker 2: just that that's a reasonable desire to not want to

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Speaker 2: get a bit. You know, you're I think you're demanding

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Speaker 2: this like superman like energy out of yourself. That it

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Speaker 1: Yeah.

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Speaker 2: But also I get it, I understand what you're saying.

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Speaker 2: You feel as though you feel this responsibility which is

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Speaker 2: noble of you. It's noble of you, And there's many

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Speaker 2: I don't know, man, it's it's this is tough thing,

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Speaker 2: and I don't know either way, because there's a lot

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Speaker 2: of different schools of thought about it. There's a school

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Speaker 2: of thought to nobility, which is that you you kind

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Speaker 2: of take on pain and discomforts and unruliness of these

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Speaker 2: kids and you do it for the noble higher purpose

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Speaker 2: that if you give up on them, do everyone else will.

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Speaker 2: And there's something to that school of thoughts. But there's

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Speaker 2: a lot of other schools of thought that could say, well,

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Speaker 2: you're a human being too, and you need to recognize

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Speaker 2: your own fallibility that yeah, getting kicked and hit sucks,

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Speaker 2: and if you can't do it anymore and you don't

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Speaker 2: have the energy, then it's a disservice. To yourself and

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Speaker 2: possibly even to the kids, for you to be involved

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Speaker 2: in something that you know is just fucking weighing down

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Speaker 2: say that any of those are the right choice, but

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Speaker 2: maybe that is the point here, Maybe that neither of

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Speaker 2: the kind of cognitive dissonance of it, you know, as

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Speaker 2: warrior mode, then all right, we can lean into that,

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Speaker 2: my own life and not get fucking, you know, stuff

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Speaker 2: not the wrong choice either. Yeah, what do you think

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Speaker 2: about all of that?

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Speaker 3: No, it's it's you bring up you know, a lot

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Speaker 3: of other points, even just the stuff weighing down on me.

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Speaker 3: I felt that today, Let's say I coached basketball, so, uh,

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Speaker 3: a little bit more heavy on, you know, the the

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Speaker 3: other kids that I work with, and at the end

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Speaker 3: and so it's just like, Okay, now I'm you know,

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Speaker 3: it's like, okay, you know, now you're not you're not

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Speaker 3: more thoughts of like, uh, I only do get one life,

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Speaker 3: so yeah, I have to kind of choose how I

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Speaker 1: Yeah, the next step.

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Speaker 3: It's pretty crucial. I love what I do, Like I

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Speaker 3: wish I could do what I do forever. Honestly, if

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Speaker 3: I was getting paid enough to live on, I could

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Speaker 3: get you know, punched and slapped and kicked by a

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Speaker 3: But yeah, you know, whenever you have to go home

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Speaker 2: So what state do you live in?

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Speaker 1: Can?

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Speaker 2: I ask, uh, Kansas, Kansas and they don't. And your

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Speaker 3: Uh, so I work in the elementary school and.

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Speaker 2: I yeah, I think you said they were high school kids.

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Speaker 3: So I coach at the high school level.

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Speaker 2: You coach at the high school, Okay, And you don't

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Speaker 2: really get paid to coach that much? You met. Your

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Speaker 1: Yeah.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, essentially I get a stipend for coaching, but with

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Speaker 3: the hours I have to miss because I'm hourly, and

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Speaker 3: you know, driving back and forth and taking hours out

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Speaker 2: Hey, you bring up a good point when you say

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Speaker 2: that you only have one life, and is this how

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Speaker 2: I really want to live it? I mean, I always

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Speaker 2: That's a prime framing device upon which to to think

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Speaker 2: and you should you know. Yeah, it's tough man, Yeah.

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Speaker 3: Tough honestly though, like you know, I've been reading some

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Speaker 3: books that have been you know, interested in Again, I

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Speaker 3: been kind of just rethinking myself and you know, listening

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Speaker 3: to podcasts. Me and my girlfriend discovered you about a

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Speaker 3: year ago, and it's I mean, stuff you say, man,

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Speaker 3: it changes some of my perspectives. So I got to

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Speaker 3: thank you there and it's helped me to the last

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Speaker 2: Cool. I'm glad to hear that. I think. Fuck, man,

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Speaker 2: I don't know. You're doing the best you can out here.

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Speaker 2: I feel like that's all you can do, right, I mean,

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Speaker 2: whatever you choose, listen, listen. First of all, so many people,

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Speaker 2: more people than not, have been like fuck those kids.

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Speaker 2: Why would I ever want to do that? That's like

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Speaker 2: most that's me, by the way, I would never do this.

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Speaker 2: I'd never do this. So for you, well, okay, and

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Speaker 2: I don't say that. I say that. I say that

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Speaker 2: to me. For you to do it is a lot

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Speaker 2: did it. For you to do it, you literally like

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Speaker 2: to do it until you cannot any longer. Is so much.

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Speaker 2: So whatever you decide to take, you know, pride in that.

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Speaker 3: Thank you and I will.

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Speaker 1: Thank you.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, just thank you for talking to me about this.

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Speaker 3: And there's been a lot on my chest. And honestly,

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Speaker 3: it's not something I can talk to my coworkers about

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Speaker 5: This is Chloe?

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Speaker 2: Hi? Chloe has gone going good?

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Speaker 5: How about you?

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Speaker 2: I am, I'm feeling pretty good. Actually, I'm I'm I'm

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Speaker 5: You know those are good goals. It sounds like you're

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Speaker 2: I'm trying. I mean, I get up on this fucking

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Speaker 2: What's going on with you, Chloe?

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Speaker 5: Oh not much. I'm chilling in bed right now talking

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Speaker 2: Why what did what did you do? Today?

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Speaker 6: Let's see, I went to the gym, had a crazy

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Speaker 5: I day and I had a therapy session and I

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Speaker 2: Now, how do you feel right now? Do you feel therapized?

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Speaker 5: I feel relaxed, but that's probably because I am good.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, she kind of wished that ever since I was

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Speaker 2: What your what your mom? Ever since? Ever since she

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Speaker 5: No, no, ever since I was in high school. Basically,

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Speaker 2: Man. Your poor mother.

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Speaker 5: I mean, I think her part is in the right place.

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Speaker 5: and interesting. Sometimes I'm like, should.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean, I'm bye h. But I've never really

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Speaker 2: Wait your your your bye. Yeah, that's a really good compromise.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, you know, well, I think her argument is that

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Speaker 2: Okay, your your mom's your her mom said to you

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Speaker 5: It means that? Okay, So when it started in high school,

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Speaker 2: Yeah.

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Speaker 5: But in adulthood it's been more like, you know, you

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Speaker 5: I just know what she's dying at. I know what

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Speaker 2: Here's what I think. Here's what I think. Obviously, we

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Speaker 5: You know it could be, but she's married to a man.

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Speaker 2: She's been through I think she's had terrible experiences with men.

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Speaker 5: I mean, it's so strange though, because I have a

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Speaker 2: Wait, so your brother is trans and I guess before

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Speaker 7: Yes.

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Speaker 2: And your poor fucking mother she almost had.

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Speaker 5: Her dream almost almost.

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Speaker 2: Wow.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, it's a it's a strange family. My mom's students,

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Speaker 5: My brother is Wickan, and my sister is Jewish.

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Speaker 2: Mm hmmm hmm. I So let me ask you this

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Speaker 5: Yeah? I definitely do. I went to go with her

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Speaker 2: Mm hmmm mm hm.

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Speaker 5: Call her pretty much every time you get out of

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Speaker 2: Mm hmm hm, Well that's good. M Uh, Like, how

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Speaker 2: often is she she is she still like she's she's

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Speaker 5: You know, she's definitely backed off in the past six

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Speaker 5: always she does something to ask you know if I

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Speaker 5: just I know I am thinking about it really too

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Speaker 3: Uh.

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Speaker 2: Have you told your mom? Uh that it's that it's

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Speaker 5: I I guess it felt normal because she been doing

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Speaker 2: Okay, I mean, does it bother you?

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Speaker 5: No, it just makes a question. Thanks, It makes a

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Speaker 5: choice or not?

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Speaker 2: Okay, Well, what's your name? Club? You seem like a

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Speaker 2: you care about. I have no idea what your mom's

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Speaker 2: I don't know warm into your head about whether or

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Speaker 2: Because are you happy right now?

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Speaker 5: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: Okay, Well you got there based on following your decisions,

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Speaker 2: so I assume that following your own decisions will lead

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Speaker 7: Thank you.

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Speaker 5: I think you're right, but.

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Speaker 2: I don't know. I don't Maybe your mom knows more

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00:29:16,760 --> 00:29:17,000
Speaker 2: than me.

442
00:29:19,640 --> 00:29:21,600
Speaker 5: Maybe maybe she has a crystal ball.

443
00:29:23,160 --> 00:29:25,240
Speaker 2: Uh Chloe, is there anything else that you want to

444
00:29:25,240 --> 00:29:27,640
Speaker 2: say to me or the people of the computer before

445
00:29:27,640 --> 00:29:27,880
Speaker 2: we go?

446
00:29:30,160 --> 00:29:33,680
Speaker 5: Uh? No, No, it was nice chatting with you.

447
00:29:34,240 --> 00:29:36,040
Speaker 2: It's nice chatting with you too, Chloe. Thank you very

448
00:29:36,120 --> 00:29:36,640
Speaker 2: much for calling.

449
00:29:37,240 --> 00:29:37,600
Speaker 5: Good night.

450
00:29:38,360 --> 00:29:38,880
Speaker 2: Hello.

451
00:29:39,000 --> 00:29:39,760
Speaker 7: Hi is this Loyle?

452
00:29:40,760 --> 00:29:41,800
Speaker 2: Yes? Who is this?

453
00:29:42,600 --> 00:29:42,800
Speaker 6: Hey?

454
00:29:43,640 --> 00:29:46,400
Speaker 2: What's your What's what's what's your life like?

455
00:29:49,280 --> 00:29:49,800
Speaker 3: It's good.

456
00:29:50,800 --> 00:29:53,560
Speaker 7: I live in San Francisco. Been working a lot fucking

457
00:29:53,640 --> 00:29:56,959
Speaker 7: expensive fuck to live here, but still doing it as

458
00:29:56,960 --> 00:29:59,760
Speaker 7: best I can. I'm gonna see you with my friend

459
00:29:59,800 --> 00:30:02,200
Speaker 7: Chris see who I turned onto your stream. We just

460
00:30:02,240 --> 00:30:05,480
Speaker 7: got tickets in San Francisco.

461
00:30:06,160 --> 00:30:08,600
Speaker 2: Fuck yeah, man at the Swedish American Hall. I've heard

462
00:30:08,600 --> 00:30:10,440
Speaker 2: it's a great venue. I'm very excited.

463
00:30:11,840 --> 00:30:13,600
Speaker 7: Yeah, it's awesome. I've seen a lot of good shows there.

464
00:30:15,840 --> 00:30:17,760
Speaker 2: So listen, Evan. Is there anything in particular you wanted

465
00:30:17,760 --> 00:30:19,760
Speaker 2: to talk about today?

466
00:30:21,600 --> 00:30:21,840
Speaker 1: Yeah?

467
00:30:22,000 --> 00:30:27,080
Speaker 7: Actually, uh, I wanted to thank you for being part

468
00:30:27,120 --> 00:30:31,320
Speaker 7: of connecting me with my current partner. I dressed as

469
00:30:31,400 --> 00:30:35,480
Speaker 7: the Therapy Echo for Halloween this past year and met

470
00:30:35,520 --> 00:30:40,960
Speaker 7: them at the Goth Night, which is fucking hilarious and awesome.

471
00:30:41,360 --> 00:30:45,080
Speaker 7: They're listening right now, I think too really, but yeah,

472
00:30:45,120 --> 00:30:48,560
Speaker 7: we're in like separate houses, but yeah, I wanted to

473
00:30:48,600 --> 00:30:49,560
Speaker 7: shouts them out high.

474
00:30:49,440 --> 00:30:55,600
Speaker 2: Nas, Hello Nas. So your partner, like what do they

475
00:30:55,640 --> 00:30:56,240
Speaker 2: say to you?

476
00:30:59,200 --> 00:31:02,080
Speaker 7: We had like I think we had matched on like

477
00:31:02,200 --> 00:31:04,320
Speaker 7: bumble or hinge or something like maybe a week or

478
00:31:04,360 --> 00:31:07,240
Speaker 7: two before and then like the day of Halloween, we're like,

479
00:31:07,240 --> 00:31:08,720
Speaker 7: oh yeah, like kind of like what are you doing

480
00:31:08,760 --> 00:31:10,680
Speaker 7: for Halloween? And it turned out we were both going

481
00:31:10,720 --> 00:31:15,120
Speaker 7: to the same like party at DNA Lounge. They do

482
00:31:15,280 --> 00:31:17,120
Speaker 7: like a goth night that like a couple of my

483
00:31:17,160 --> 00:31:19,480
Speaker 7: friends go to regularly, and they had invited me to

484
00:31:19,520 --> 00:31:23,120
Speaker 7: go to, and I was nervous about like having a

485
00:31:23,160 --> 00:31:25,240
Speaker 7: costume or whatever because I haven't dressed up in a

486
00:31:25,320 --> 00:31:28,400
Speaker 7: long time. But I was just like, well, fuck, if

487
00:31:28,400 --> 00:31:31,720
Speaker 7: I'm gonna go like and I'm gonna be at a

488
00:31:31,760 --> 00:31:34,280
Speaker 7: goth night, like, what would be a fun se to couss.

489
00:31:34,440 --> 00:31:38,080
Speaker 7: So instantly Therapy Get Go was was the jam.

490
00:31:39,480 --> 00:31:41,960
Speaker 2: How much was your costume? Because I bought two today

491
00:31:42,000 --> 00:31:44,200
Speaker 2: and they were both ninety dollars.

492
00:31:45,240 --> 00:31:47,520
Speaker 7: Yeah, it was around that I'm gonna rel.

493
00:31:48,080 --> 00:31:51,320
Speaker 2: You spent ninety for me. I'm like, I'm never gonna

494
00:31:51,720 --> 00:31:54,520
Speaker 2: for me. I'm like, I'm never gonna regret buying a

495
00:31:54,560 --> 00:31:56,840
Speaker 2: gecko costume because I need them all the time. But

496
00:31:57,640 --> 00:32:00,600
Speaker 2: you bought you spent ninety dollars on this fucking costume

497
00:32:00,640 --> 00:32:01,440
Speaker 2: to wear it one day?

498
00:32:03,200 --> 00:32:03,400
Speaker 1: Fuck?

499
00:32:03,480 --> 00:32:05,360
Speaker 7: Yeah, dude, Well I got to wear it to two

500
00:32:05,400 --> 00:32:06,840
Speaker 7: parties like over that weekend.

501
00:32:07,760 --> 00:32:08,840
Speaker 2: Yeah it's worth it.

502
00:32:09,920 --> 00:32:11,440
Speaker 1: But uh yeah, I had.

503
00:32:11,360 --> 00:32:14,760
Speaker 7: A question for you actually about uh, like you have

504
00:32:14,800 --> 00:32:16,280
Speaker 7: a couple of them? You bought two today?

505
00:32:16,320 --> 00:32:18,440
Speaker 2: You said, right, I did, I bought to today?

506
00:32:21,320 --> 00:32:25,120
Speaker 7: What like in terms of maintenance, I had to throw

507
00:32:25,120 --> 00:32:27,960
Speaker 7: away the feet after like one night out because they

508
00:32:27,960 --> 00:32:29,640
Speaker 7: were fucking horrifying.

509
00:32:29,880 --> 00:32:34,000
Speaker 2: So so on tour. No, no, I finish your question.

510
00:32:34,040 --> 00:32:35,960
Speaker 2: Now you finish your question that all hop in.

511
00:32:37,080 --> 00:32:39,320
Speaker 7: Is there any way to like treat them because I

512
00:32:39,440 --> 00:32:43,480
Speaker 7: kept the hands in the head because I think they're

513
00:32:43,520 --> 00:32:48,640
Speaker 7: funny and they're like hanging up in my room. But uh, yeah,

514
00:32:48,960 --> 00:32:51,760
Speaker 7: the feet were destroyed after like one night out like

515
00:32:51,800 --> 00:32:54,160
Speaker 7: walking around in San Francisco. They're fucking disgusting.

516
00:32:54,560 --> 00:32:57,160
Speaker 2: The feet get totally fucked The reason I have to

517
00:32:57,160 --> 00:32:59,600
Speaker 2: buy I have. So here's the thing I have. I have.

518
00:32:59,840 --> 00:33:03,160
Speaker 2: I have infinite amount of heads. I have so many heads,

519
00:33:03,200 --> 00:33:07,400
Speaker 2: so many torsos, and so many pants, but I'm always

520
00:33:07,600 --> 00:33:13,000
Speaker 2: low on feet and hands because the feet they get

521
00:33:13,040 --> 00:33:14,760
Speaker 2: fucked up all the time. So I'll typically I'll have

522
00:33:14,760 --> 00:33:17,959
Speaker 2: to spend ninety bucks to buy a whole costume just

523
00:33:18,040 --> 00:33:21,120
Speaker 2: for the feet because I'm I'm always running the long

524
00:33:21,120 --> 00:33:23,000
Speaker 2: feet because they get fucked up so easily. And I'm

525
00:33:23,000 --> 00:33:25,440
Speaker 2: about to go on this you know, crazy tour, and

526
00:33:25,560 --> 00:33:27,840
Speaker 2: so I'm gonna need and you're yes, you're correct. The

527
00:33:27,840 --> 00:33:33,000
Speaker 2: feet get fucked up anytime you wear them out, So yeah,

528
00:33:33,320 --> 00:33:34,000
Speaker 2: you gotta.

529
00:33:33,960 --> 00:33:35,840
Speaker 7: Like, honestly, you should reach out to the company that

530
00:33:35,880 --> 00:33:37,200
Speaker 7: makes them and see if they could do like a

531
00:33:37,200 --> 00:33:39,400
Speaker 7: bespoke deal for you and be like, hey, like I

532
00:33:39,440 --> 00:33:42,280
Speaker 7: need x amount of feet, like give me like four hundred.

533
00:33:41,960 --> 00:33:45,200
Speaker 1: Of these bad boys.

534
00:33:43,880 --> 00:33:46,520
Speaker 7: And like a good a good chunk of hands because

535
00:33:46,760 --> 00:33:50,959
Speaker 7: I feel like, yeah, everything else is pretty durable. Like

536
00:33:51,040 --> 00:33:54,640
Speaker 7: the suit itself is fine, like even just from like

537
00:33:54,680 --> 00:33:57,400
Speaker 7: two nights out, and like, honestly, the the club that

538
00:33:57,440 --> 00:33:59,560
Speaker 7: I was at was like really packed and like I

539
00:33:59,600 --> 00:34:02,880
Speaker 7: got trampled a bit though, Like that definitely put more

540
00:34:02,920 --> 00:34:05,400
Speaker 7: wear and tear on it than like either sitting on

541
00:34:05,440 --> 00:34:07,840
Speaker 7: stage or like talking to somebody like out in the world.

542
00:34:07,880 --> 00:34:11,560
Speaker 2: But who See, here's the thing is, I might I've

543
00:34:11,600 --> 00:34:13,720
Speaker 2: thought about reaching out to the company that makes them,

544
00:34:13,760 --> 00:34:16,479
Speaker 2: but I'm scared to negotiate with them because and look,

545
00:34:16,800 --> 00:34:19,080
Speaker 2: maybe it's not a good idea to say this publicly,

546
00:34:19,160 --> 00:34:22,680
Speaker 2: but here's the thing that I need them so much

547
00:34:22,680 --> 00:34:23,520
Speaker 2: more than they need me.

548
00:34:23,600 --> 00:34:27,200
Speaker 7: You have no idea that this is the feel like

549
00:34:27,360 --> 00:34:29,640
Speaker 7: you're getting to a point that the tables could turn though.

550
00:34:30,040 --> 00:34:34,440
Speaker 2: No, no, Evan, Evan and Evan. If they stop making

551
00:34:34,480 --> 00:34:38,600
Speaker 2: this Gecko costume, my career is over them. Fucked.

552
00:34:41,480 --> 00:34:43,960
Speaker 7: There's gotta be some There's gotta be some listeners. That

553
00:34:44,080 --> 00:34:46,840
Speaker 7: have like crazy etsy businesses that would make you some

554
00:34:46,960 --> 00:34:49,239
Speaker 7: bespoke suits, like I don't know why that isn't a

555
00:34:49,239 --> 00:34:49,880
Speaker 7: thing already.

556
00:34:50,280 --> 00:34:52,279
Speaker 4: Well, look, i'll tell you what I had to go

557
00:34:52,360 --> 00:34:53,000
Speaker 4: to the same plate.

558
00:34:53,960 --> 00:34:56,400
Speaker 2: If you ever want to make your ninety dollars, if

559
00:34:56,440 --> 00:34:58,799
Speaker 2: you ever want to you know, if you ever want

560
00:34:58,800 --> 00:35:00,960
Speaker 2: to make your ninety dollars back, you know, hang on

561
00:35:01,080 --> 00:35:03,080
Speaker 2: to that suit and maybe one day I'll buy it

562
00:35:03,160 --> 00:35:03,560
Speaker 2: off of you.

563
00:35:06,560 --> 00:35:09,360
Speaker 7: It'll be missing feet, which is like the most important part.

564
00:35:11,120 --> 00:35:15,400
Speaker 1: Twenty dollars, it's yours.

565
00:35:15,680 --> 00:35:17,359
Speaker 7: I'll say, I'll bring you. You said you got too

566
00:35:17,360 --> 00:35:19,600
Speaker 7: many heads, but I'll bring you an extra pair of

567
00:35:19,600 --> 00:35:21,200
Speaker 7: hands that are only lightly used.

568
00:35:21,239 --> 00:35:23,879
Speaker 1: When I come see you in San Francisco. There might gift.

569
00:35:23,960 --> 00:35:26,640
Speaker 2: Pciate that. I appreciate that. By the way, I want

570
00:35:26,640 --> 00:35:30,279
Speaker 2: to say something. I appreciate that you said that I

571
00:35:30,360 --> 00:35:32,839
Speaker 2: helped you meet your partner, But in the story you

572
00:35:32,920 --> 00:35:34,960
Speaker 2: told I had nothing to do with it. You guys

573
00:35:35,000 --> 00:35:35,960
Speaker 2: just matched on bumble.

574
00:35:38,200 --> 00:35:39,759
Speaker 7: Well yeah, I mean, but it was their first time,

575
00:35:39,800 --> 00:35:41,879
Speaker 7: like meeting in person, like the first time we saw

576
00:35:41,920 --> 00:35:45,319
Speaker 7: each other in real life. Like I was full, like

577
00:35:45,360 --> 00:35:47,640
Speaker 7: I did the green face paint, I did everything like

578
00:35:47,680 --> 00:35:49,600
Speaker 7: I tried to go screen accurate. I bought, I brought

579
00:35:49,600 --> 00:35:50,919
Speaker 7: a microphone.

580
00:35:52,239 --> 00:35:54,680
Speaker 2: So I just made you look a little bit insane.

581
00:35:54,920 --> 00:35:57,520
Speaker 2: I actually detracted from.

582
00:35:57,280 --> 00:35:59,719
Speaker 1: This not at all.

583
00:35:59,800 --> 00:36:02,000
Speaker 7: I I had a couple of people actually come up,

584
00:36:02,080 --> 00:36:03,560
Speaker 7: Like I got a lot of people asking if I

585
00:36:03,640 --> 00:36:06,160
Speaker 7: was like Yoshi or like a frog. But I had

586
00:36:06,360 --> 00:36:10,279
Speaker 7: quite a few people that recognized me as Therapy get

587
00:36:10,320 --> 00:36:12,040
Speaker 7: Go and some people that actually thought.

588
00:36:11,800 --> 00:36:12,200
Speaker 1: I was you.

589
00:36:13,239 --> 00:36:14,600
Speaker 2: That's fucking sick. That's amazing.

590
00:36:16,080 --> 00:36:18,640
Speaker 7: Yeah, they were all really stoked, Like everyone that knew

591
00:36:18,640 --> 00:36:21,000
Speaker 7: what it was were like really fucking hyped, Like you

592
00:36:21,040 --> 00:36:22,680
Speaker 7: got a lot of love in San Francisco.

593
00:36:23,320 --> 00:36:26,640
Speaker 2: Damn, that's fucking sick. That's awesome. I'm sure that way

594
00:36:26,640 --> 00:36:28,600
Speaker 2: more people just thought you were frog, though.

595
00:36:30,440 --> 00:36:33,239
Speaker 7: I did get a couple of frogs, but I think

596
00:36:33,239 --> 00:36:36,560
Speaker 7: it was also I don't know what the full crossover is,

597
00:36:36,640 --> 00:36:40,560
Speaker 7: but gos knight is definitely has like a higher capita

598
00:36:40,719 --> 00:36:43,120
Speaker 7: I think of just out in the world like than

599
00:36:43,160 --> 00:36:45,800
Speaker 7: out in the world. People who recognized me as Therapy Gecko,

600
00:36:45,880 --> 00:36:48,920
Speaker 7: which is kind of fun.

601
00:36:49,360 --> 00:36:51,839
Speaker 2: What did your what did your partner address.

602
00:36:51,520 --> 00:36:57,319
Speaker 7: As they were in like latex like bondage gear.

603
00:37:00,719 --> 00:37:02,759
Speaker 2: Well, it sounds like you two had a we got

604
00:37:02,800 --> 00:37:03,520
Speaker 2: one night.

605
00:37:05,160 --> 00:37:07,520
Speaker 7: We did we like right after we met, like five

606
00:37:07,520 --> 00:37:10,920
Speaker 7: minutes after a meeting in person, we took like photo

607
00:37:10,920 --> 00:37:15,239
Speaker 7: booth pictures that are fucking hilarious. I can I can

608
00:37:15,280 --> 00:37:18,359
Speaker 7: send you on the on Instagram if you want. But yeah,

609
00:37:18,360 --> 00:37:20,719
Speaker 7: it was I actually tagged you, like.

610
00:37:20,719 --> 00:37:24,080
Speaker 2: When I was walking around you tagged me in them.

611
00:37:25,920 --> 00:37:28,719
Speaker 7: Yeah, I I not in that one. But when I

612
00:37:28,760 --> 00:37:31,880
Speaker 7: was like walking around like in SF and like getting

613
00:37:32,080 --> 00:37:36,320
Speaker 7: gacked out by like my friends, they like, I tagged

614
00:37:36,360 --> 00:37:38,200
Speaker 7: you in a couple of photos of me as there

615
00:37:38,200 --> 00:37:39,879
Speaker 7: if you get go on Halloween, and you liked them,

616
00:37:39,880 --> 00:37:40,920
Speaker 7: and I said, thank you.

617
00:37:41,960 --> 00:37:43,759
Speaker 2: Ah, yes I did. I saw a lot of people

618
00:37:43,760 --> 00:37:46,799
Speaker 2: who are I I like to that night. I went

619
00:37:46,840 --> 00:37:49,600
Speaker 2: through my like mentions and liked all the photos of

620
00:37:49,640 --> 00:37:52,920
Speaker 2: people dressed as me. But I didn't see any versions

621
00:37:52,960 --> 00:37:59,640
Speaker 2: of me that were being uh masochistically choked by someone

622
00:37:59,719 --> 00:38:05,120
Speaker 2: in other I'll have to go back and look though.

623
00:38:06,560 --> 00:38:09,520
Speaker 2: We're out there, Evan, is there anything else you want

624
00:38:09,560 --> 00:38:11,240
Speaker 2: to say to the people of the computer. I appreciate

625
00:38:11,280 --> 00:38:12,000
Speaker 2: your homage.

626
00:38:14,280 --> 00:38:16,360
Speaker 7: No, man, honestly, I'm just really so talk to you.

627
00:38:16,400 --> 00:38:18,040
Speaker 7: It's called in a couple of times I've gotten through

628
00:38:18,040 --> 00:38:19,880
Speaker 7: to your call screeners who were super nice, like it

629
00:38:19,920 --> 00:38:23,279
Speaker 7: was great to hear them on the stream. This has

630
00:38:23,320 --> 00:38:25,920
Speaker 7: been a great stream tonight, Like I caught most of it.

631
00:38:25,960 --> 00:38:28,279
Speaker 7: I started listening when I was at work and it

632
00:38:28,440 --> 00:38:32,319
Speaker 7: got me through to getting home. I'll say that the

633
00:38:32,400 --> 00:38:33,800
Speaker 7: survivor of the Weeni War.

634
00:38:34,320 --> 00:38:40,560
Speaker 2: I'll say this. I want to say this, fucking oh,

635
00:38:40,680 --> 00:38:43,000
Speaker 2: if you have one more usage of the gecko costume,

636
00:38:43,040 --> 00:38:44,000
Speaker 2: wear it to the show?

637
00:38:46,160 --> 00:38:46,440
Speaker 4: Really?

638
00:38:46,480 --> 00:38:46,800
Speaker 1: Okay?

639
00:38:46,880 --> 00:38:49,000
Speaker 7: My friends who got us the tickets was asking and

640
00:38:49,000 --> 00:38:50,920
Speaker 7: they were just like, should we should we go all

641
00:38:50,960 --> 00:38:52,880
Speaker 7: as geckos? And I was like, that's kind of crazy,

642
00:38:52,960 --> 00:38:54,400
Speaker 7: but like people.

643
00:38:54,239 --> 00:38:56,400
Speaker 2: Have people people have done that before. Where if you

644
00:38:56,600 --> 00:38:58,279
Speaker 2: and no one listening to this, if you're coming to

645
00:38:58,280 --> 00:39:00,480
Speaker 2: the live show and you have a gecko guys, wear

646
00:39:00,520 --> 00:39:04,399
Speaker 2: it to the show, please show your dedications. So I'm

647
00:39:04,400 --> 00:39:07,640
Speaker 2: going to start my cults. Thank you for calling, Evan.

648
00:39:07,680 --> 00:39:11,000
Speaker 2: I appreciate it, man, of course, I have a great night.

649
00:39:11,040 --> 00:39:16,440
Speaker 1: Gek you doo? Hello? Oh Geka?

650
00:39:18,120 --> 00:39:18,600
Speaker 2: Who is this?

651
00:39:19,360 --> 00:39:22,880
Speaker 1: Hey? Hi, this is Alexander. You Mike you might know

652
00:39:23,000 --> 00:39:24,400
Speaker 1: be as lex though. What's going on?

653
00:39:24,440 --> 00:39:26,480
Speaker 4: Alexander?

654
00:39:27,120 --> 00:39:27,800
Speaker 2: Oh? Ship?

655
00:39:28,600 --> 00:39:28,839
Speaker 1: Yes?

656
00:39:28,920 --> 00:39:34,400
Speaker 2: It says here that it says here, Alex from Chicago

657
00:39:34,480 --> 00:39:37,160
Speaker 2: went to high school with you. We didn't go to

658
00:39:37,239 --> 00:39:38,640
Speaker 2: high school together, but we we.

659
00:39:39,160 --> 00:39:42,160
Speaker 1: No no, no, no, no no. Your call screener got that incorrect.

660
00:39:42,200 --> 00:39:44,880
Speaker 4: Let me, well, I know what, I went high school

661
00:39:44,880 --> 00:39:50,160
Speaker 4: with met you through hence we almost made that Watermelon

662
00:39:50,280 --> 00:39:51,440
Speaker 4: time travel movie together.

663
00:39:51,480 --> 00:39:52,600
Speaker 1: But that's a whole other thing.

664
00:39:53,280 --> 00:39:55,160
Speaker 2: Yes, one of my one of my best friends of

665
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Speaker 2: all time went to a high school in Baltimore where

666
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Speaker 2: and you went to that high school?

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Speaker 1: And we yes, very good man.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, how are you doing?

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Speaker 1: Man?

670
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Speaker 2: Has it been?

671
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Speaker 1: Yeah? It's kind of fucking a roller coaster.

672
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Speaker 2: Man.

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Speaker 4: I'm actually doing pretty decent right now. I'm actually life updates.

674
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Speaker 4: I do kind of want to get to the story

675
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Speaker 4: I gotta tell you about Life Updates is I'm currently

676
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Speaker 4: in an outpatient rehab program. I'm currently working for my

677
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Speaker 4: best entrants on sobriety's sake, which I've been I don't know,

678
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Speaker 4: off a couple of times over the years, but this

679
00:40:26,880 --> 00:40:28,440
Speaker 4: is kind of the most serious I've taken it in

680
00:40:28,520 --> 00:40:30,600
Speaker 4: the darker news of things going on in my life.

681
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Speaker 4: But mentally I'm doing pretty great and kind of like

682
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Speaker 4: a upswing, but not as bad as it could be.

683
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Speaker 4: I'm just people don't know too. I'm talking to you, like,

684
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Speaker 4: do you know me. I'm a bipolar one diagnosed.

685
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Speaker 1: I do do real therapy and all that.

686
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Speaker 4: Not to undermine you get but I do do all

687
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Speaker 4: the me.

688
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Speaker 2: I am not a real therapist, dude.

689
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Speaker 4: I've been getting like as much help from you at

690
00:40:53,520 --> 00:40:55,600
Speaker 4: this point as my real therapist I used to have.

691
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Speaker 1: I've filmed your.

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Speaker 4: Show, not for like I've seen you put us some

693
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Speaker 4: clips like back in the day.

694
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Speaker 1: If you're doing this, uh, get up.

695
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Speaker 4: But I was working at Concierge Downtown at a place

696
00:41:06,120 --> 00:41:08,799
Speaker 4: called Block thirty seven in Chicago, and I was just

697
00:41:08,880 --> 00:41:10,759
Speaker 4: bored as shit, like on this computer for like eight

698
00:41:10,800 --> 00:41:13,120
Speaker 4: hour shifts and I just fuck around like on Reddit

699
00:41:13,160 --> 00:41:15,839
Speaker 4: sometimes and I open read it one day and You're

700
00:41:15,880 --> 00:41:17,680
Speaker 4: just like the top of the fucking page and I'm like,

701
00:41:17,719 --> 00:41:18,239
Speaker 4: I know that.

702
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Speaker 1: Get go. That's fucking lyle no way.

703
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Speaker 4: Yeah, I've been watching longtime watchers since like COVID times

704
00:41:24,480 --> 00:41:27,520
Speaker 4: or beginning of COVID times, and yeah, like third time

705
00:41:27,560 --> 00:41:28,600
Speaker 4: caller finally getting through.

706
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Speaker 2: That's fucking awesome, man, that's cool. I remember I remember

707
00:41:32,960 --> 00:41:35,400
Speaker 2: when we were in high school. I was really excited

708
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Speaker 2: to meet you because you were another guy who I was.

709
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Speaker 2: I you know, I made movies in high school, and

710
00:41:44,440 --> 00:41:47,600
Speaker 2: I made movies with my friends. But I think my

711
00:41:47,800 --> 00:41:52,720
Speaker 2: friends at the time, like they they they loved helping

712
00:41:52,760 --> 00:41:54,279
Speaker 2: out with the movies, but I don't think any of

713
00:41:54,320 --> 00:41:57,600
Speaker 2: them like wanted to like like on their own, like

714
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Speaker 2: pursue being a a filmmaker or anything.

715
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Speaker 4: Yeah, on the fucking money with your like as far

716
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Speaker 4: as sketch comedy goes next to like whitest Kids and

717
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Speaker 4: like what a couple of my face, like you know,

718
00:42:09,800 --> 00:42:12,200
Speaker 4: Jordan Peele and fucking like Chappelle show and shit, as

719
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Speaker 4: far as like independent stuff that I was coming from,

720
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Speaker 4: like my hometown, Like the gifts that you all were

721
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Speaker 4: doing were like my favorite things, especially.

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Speaker 1: Like the end of high school.

723
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Speaker 2: Man, well thanks, man, I was gonna say I was.

724
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Speaker 2: I was excited to meet you at the time because

725
00:42:24,040 --> 00:42:27,000
Speaker 2: you were another guy who wanted to make who wanted

726
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Speaker 2: to make films, and I feel like I had a

727
00:42:30,080 --> 00:42:30,960
Speaker 2: lot of dudes like that.

728
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Speaker 4: Yeah, man, no, totally, I was pursuing it semi seriously

729
00:42:35,200 --> 00:42:37,360
Speaker 4: at the time. I've done a bunch of like weird

730
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Speaker 4: kind of crazy.

731
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Speaker 1: Shit in middle school. It's a movie called like None

732
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Speaker 1: with a Gun and.

733
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Speaker 4: Some horror movie called Silent but Deadly, and a whole

734
00:42:43,520 --> 00:42:45,160
Speaker 4: bunch of like goofy shit that.

735
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Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know. People were like pretty.

736
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Speaker 4: Impressed that a fucking kid could do, even though I

737
00:42:50,080 --> 00:42:51,840
Speaker 4: felt like I was just fucking around. So I decided

738
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Speaker 4: to go to that magnet Art high school for it.

739
00:42:54,400 --> 00:42:56,719
Speaker 4: And that's when I became pretentious and thought like, oh,

740
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Speaker 4: I could consume at cooperg and like all this shit,

741
00:42:59,200 --> 00:43:02,000
Speaker 4: but you know, Garden some like decent work. But I

742
00:43:02,000 --> 00:43:03,520
Speaker 4: don't know, I look back at who I was in

743
00:43:03,560 --> 00:43:04,839
Speaker 4: like high school, and even though I.

744
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Speaker 1: Did a bunch of fun ship, I definitely looked back

745
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Speaker 1: at like who I wasn't an artist back then.

746
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Speaker 4: Is just like damn, I can't believe I was so

747
00:43:11,840 --> 00:43:15,200
Speaker 4: high on myself because you know, I was just a kid, like.

748
00:43:15,160 --> 00:43:17,319
Speaker 1: I was doing cool things. But if you had asked me,

749
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Speaker 1: I would have been like, I'm the greatest.

750
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Speaker 4: But I don't know, that's a bipolars mentality whatever.

751
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Speaker 2: Well, yeah, I mean I I was too in high school.

752
00:43:24,320 --> 00:43:26,880
Speaker 2: I went my I think you know, my friends and

753
00:43:26,920 --> 00:43:30,919
Speaker 2: I we thought we were like the funniest guys, and

754
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Speaker 2: you know.

755
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Speaker 4: That I would confirm that too, though not to kiss

756
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Speaker 4: your ass, but I appreciate it.

757
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Speaker 2: Or but it's not well, it's funny because the whole

758
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Speaker 2: idea of, like I guess, with art and making things

759
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Speaker 2: in general, there's a there's a there's a line you

760
00:43:45,880 --> 00:43:48,600
Speaker 2: have to walk, right, because I think to make good

761
00:43:48,719 --> 00:43:50,759
Speaker 2: stuff you have to you have to really believe in

762
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Speaker 2: yourself and really believe that what you're doing is good

763
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Speaker 2: enough to exist for like just to propel you to

764
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Speaker 2: make it. But then also not line of like you know,

765
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Speaker 2: being you know, getting getting too high on yourself.

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Speaker 4: Yes, absolutely true, But that was the thing, like I

767
00:44:10,080 --> 00:44:13,680
Speaker 4: had bought into all the you know, there's every celebrity

768
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Speaker 4: in their mother has a video out there that's like

769
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Speaker 4: believe in you and the.

770
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Speaker 1: Rest will follow type shit. And I saw all of

771
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Speaker 1: those when I was like a kid. So by the

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Speaker 1: time that I did.

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Speaker 4: Get to, like, you know, the point where I was

774
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Speaker 4: making work where I was like recognized at least by

775
00:44:26,280 --> 00:44:28,239
Speaker 4: the state for it, I was like, oh, fuck it,

776
00:44:28,280 --> 00:44:30,359
Speaker 4: the world is my oyster. I gotta believe that I'm

777
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Speaker 4: the best there is.

778
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Speaker 1: Or ytta YadA.

779
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Speaker 4: Yeah, but I don't know, I came out to Chicago,

780
00:44:33,840 --> 00:44:37,040
Speaker 4: and then I realized a lot more like leaving hometown,

781
00:44:37,239 --> 00:44:39,880
Speaker 4: that it's really not all about you, which is like

782
00:44:39,920 --> 00:44:42,799
Speaker 4: obviously a big thing for life, but I mean it's not.

783
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Speaker 1: And you go out to a place that you're.

784
00:44:44,800 --> 00:44:46,960
Speaker 4: Unfamiliar with, you kind of like accept the fact that

785
00:44:46,960 --> 00:44:49,040
Speaker 4: you are a tourist in another place. You're not like

786
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Speaker 4: settled with this hometown that you fuck around with for

787
00:44:51,800 --> 00:44:54,200
Speaker 4: eighteen years, like I was in Baltimore, and you kind

788
00:44:54,200 --> 00:44:56,160
Speaker 4: of realize the things are a lot bigger than you.

789
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Speaker 4: And I've been like very i think selflessly pursuing that

790
00:44:59,320 --> 00:45:01,520
Speaker 4: for the last step in years. But to kind of

791
00:45:01,560 --> 00:45:04,320
Speaker 4: seguey to my story, and then I'm like at a crossroads.

792
00:45:04,320 --> 00:45:07,200
Speaker 4: I'm probably in June, gonna head back to Baltimore at

793
00:45:07,280 --> 00:45:09,960
Speaker 4: least temporarily, and then continue on with the next place.

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Speaker 1: I think Chicago's wraps, So why why.

795
00:45:12,719 --> 00:45:13,640
Speaker 2: Are you at a crossroads?

796
00:45:13,760 --> 00:45:13,840
Speaker 4: Are?

797
00:45:13,920 --> 00:45:15,640
Speaker 2: What are the two roads? I want is coming back

798
00:45:15,680 --> 00:45:16,959
Speaker 2: to Baltimore and what's the other one?

799
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Speaker 4: The other one is just kind of like I don't know.

800
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Speaker 4: I've been a part of this band for like seven years,

801
00:45:23,520 --> 00:45:26,960
Speaker 4: and I'm like, I don't know, it's someone else's band,

802
00:45:26,960 --> 00:45:29,000
Speaker 4: but I definitely am like as far as like you

803
00:45:29,080 --> 00:45:31,719
Speaker 4: ever seen Social Network, you know that movie, the Facebook movie?

804
00:45:31,800 --> 00:45:32,360
Speaker 2: Yeah, of course.

805
00:45:33,280 --> 00:45:34,440
Speaker 1: If there's an Edward.

806
00:45:34,360 --> 00:45:37,600
Speaker 4: Saverign like character in this is this band, then I'm

807
00:45:37,600 --> 00:45:39,720
Speaker 4: definitely the one that's like, sorry, my fuck you flip

808
00:45:39,719 --> 00:45:42,439
Speaker 4: flopster at the what's it called? Like, I got some

809
00:45:42,440 --> 00:45:44,360
Speaker 4: sort of like to being here because I've been around

810
00:45:44,360 --> 00:45:45,959
Speaker 4: so long, but I don't care. It's those other kids

811
00:45:46,000 --> 00:45:47,959
Speaker 4: fucking bad. I've just been a part of it since.

812
00:45:48,239 --> 00:45:50,839
Speaker 2: Oh okay, so you're you're getting you're getting sucked out

813
00:45:50,840 --> 00:45:51,200
Speaker 2: of your.

814
00:45:51,120 --> 00:45:55,080
Speaker 1: Band a sort of I'm sucking myself in a way.

815
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Speaker 4: That's why I can't sucking myself, but I get sucked

816
00:45:58,480 --> 00:45:59,000
Speaker 4: a little bit.

817
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Speaker 1: It's more dramatic than the fucking I don't know that

818
00:46:02,400 --> 00:46:04,440
Speaker 1: that the Zuckerberg guy though, I don't think he ever

819
00:46:04,440 --> 00:46:06,839
Speaker 1: got shot at And that's kind of the thing.

820
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Speaker 7: Man.

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Speaker 1: Chicago is a very violent place. I don't know, it's

822
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Speaker 1: been dealing with it for a while, but it just

823
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Speaker 1: kind of.

824
00:46:13,040 --> 00:46:17,440
Speaker 2: So, your your bandmate tried to shoot you.

825
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Speaker 1: Let me clarify for the record's sake, because one we're

826
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Speaker 1: keeping gro anonymous. We can look back.

827
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Speaker 4: At this later as a haha ha, very funny. But

828
00:46:26,320 --> 00:46:28,560
Speaker 4: this is a thing that happened kind of an ongoing

829
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Speaker 4: thing that I'm still going to be like, all right,

830
00:46:30,680 --> 00:46:32,480
Speaker 4: I'll describe in detail, but only vaguely.

831
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Speaker 1: All So, let's just do the day.

832
00:46:34,760 --> 00:46:37,920
Speaker 4: Of this thing happening, because I will say yes, but

833
00:46:38,040 --> 00:46:42,560
Speaker 4: let me explain the day that this happened. I was

834
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Speaker 4: about a couple of weeks deep into coming off my

835
00:46:45,719 --> 00:46:47,680
Speaker 4: last job, so I was kind of in this place

836
00:46:47,680 --> 00:46:49,719
Speaker 4: where it's like, you know, what's the bullshit that I need?

837
00:46:49,760 --> 00:46:51,239
Speaker 1: What do I don't need? What can I sell? What

838
00:46:51,400 --> 00:46:52,160
Speaker 1: I make money off of?

839
00:46:52,200 --> 00:46:53,799
Speaker 4: Just so I got some groundwork that I can move

840
00:46:53,840 --> 00:46:56,160
Speaker 4: on top of. Besides that, just trying to make money

841
00:46:56,360 --> 00:46:59,040
Speaker 4: independently for a second. So one of the things that

842
00:46:59,080 --> 00:47:02,200
Speaker 4: I had was this weed pen that it was like

843
00:47:02,280 --> 00:47:03,719
Speaker 4: one hundred twenty dollars. I used to work with head

844
00:47:03,760 --> 00:47:05,279
Speaker 4: shop called the Other Side in the House, and I

845
00:47:05,280 --> 00:47:06,920
Speaker 4: gotta look like one hundred twenty dollars there. It's a

846
00:47:07,000 --> 00:47:10,160
Speaker 4: nice little like pen battery, and somebody offered to buy

847
00:47:10,160 --> 00:47:11,719
Speaker 4: it for me for like sixty dollars, So I'm like,

848
00:47:11,719 --> 00:47:12,200
Speaker 4: fucking cool.

849
00:47:12,239 --> 00:47:13,560
Speaker 1: I could totally use six dollars right now.

850
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Speaker 4: I don't even smoke weed like that, so well, I

851
00:47:15,760 --> 00:47:19,040
Speaker 4: don't smoke pens like that, so I can totally sell

852
00:47:19,080 --> 00:47:19,359
Speaker 4: this thing.

853
00:47:19,400 --> 00:47:20,000
Speaker 1: It's fine.

854
00:47:20,200 --> 00:47:22,120
Speaker 4: But the problem was my roommate was using it at

855
00:47:22,160 --> 00:47:24,239
Speaker 4: the time, and it was like eight o'clock and I

856
00:47:24,360 --> 00:47:26,160
Speaker 4: like eight in the morning, and I had to leave

857
00:47:26,200 --> 00:47:27,759
Speaker 4: and he was asleep, and I was just like, oh,

858
00:47:27,800 --> 00:47:30,319
Speaker 4: fuck it. Oh two very important point of the story too.

859
00:47:30,600 --> 00:47:32,919
Speaker 4: It's not just one roommate. It's well, we're talking about

860
00:47:32,920 --> 00:47:33,839
Speaker 4: the one guy, but he.

861
00:47:33,800 --> 00:47:35,960
Speaker 1: Is a girlfriend too, who's also another roomate. So it's

862
00:47:35,960 --> 00:47:37,120
Speaker 1: a whole cup of situation.

863
00:47:37,440 --> 00:47:38,960
Speaker 4: So I go and I knock in this couple's door

864
00:47:39,000 --> 00:47:41,279
Speaker 4: and I'm like, yo, I'm sorry, but I got to

865
00:47:41,320 --> 00:47:42,640
Speaker 4: get that pen back because I got to sell it.

866
00:47:42,680 --> 00:47:45,399
Speaker 4: And I just hear like oh, And so I'm doing

867
00:47:45,440 --> 00:47:48,040
Speaker 4: my thing, get my things together for like twenty minutes

868
00:47:48,200 --> 00:47:50,200
Speaker 4: or so. I go back and nobody's there at the door,

869
00:47:50,239 --> 00:47:51,839
Speaker 4: so knock again. I'm like, yo, I got to head out,

870
00:47:52,000 --> 00:47:53,839
Speaker 4: and they're like, just let us sleep, and I'm like, yo,

871
00:47:54,120 --> 00:47:55,880
Speaker 4: fucking I didn't say, like why, but I'm like I

872
00:47:55,960 --> 00:47:58,880
Speaker 4: really need this now, please let me go and they didn't.

873
00:47:59,120 --> 00:48:00,680
Speaker 4: They didn't open the door, and they didn't give me

874
00:48:00,760 --> 00:48:02,080
Speaker 4: the thing, and I was like, fuck it, I gotta go.

875
00:48:02,440 --> 00:48:02,919
Speaker 1: So I did.

876
00:48:03,120 --> 00:48:05,279
Speaker 4: I left, and I didn't make the sixty dollars. I

877
00:48:05,280 --> 00:48:06,960
Speaker 4: made a little bit more money, but I didn't make

878
00:48:07,000 --> 00:48:08,680
Speaker 4: as much as I could have. So I go back

879
00:48:08,680 --> 00:48:10,600
Speaker 4: home and I'm fucking pissed, and no kids are up

880
00:48:10,640 --> 00:48:12,480
Speaker 4: at this point, and I'm just like, basically just like,

881
00:48:12,520 --> 00:48:14,680
Speaker 4: don't talk to me, like you all kind of ruined

882
00:48:14,680 --> 00:48:16,920
Speaker 4: that for the day. You've lost me money today, and y'all.

883
00:48:16,960 --> 00:48:18,920
Speaker 4: I'm already kind of on bullshit with y'all because Rent

884
00:48:18,920 --> 00:48:20,600
Speaker 4: and a whole bunch of other dumb ships who just

885
00:48:20,640 --> 00:48:22,120
Speaker 4: don't talk to me today.

886
00:48:22,680 --> 00:48:23,279
Speaker 1: Just give it a day.

887
00:48:23,280 --> 00:48:25,439
Speaker 4: Maybe we can talk about it later, but today, just don't.

888
00:48:26,840 --> 00:48:28,840
Speaker 4: Like thirty minutes go by and I hear motherfuckers like

889
00:48:29,040 --> 00:48:31,080
Speaker 4: Snake saying something in their room, like.

890
00:48:31,000 --> 00:48:33,200
Speaker 1: Thoughting each other. This is what they do too. There's

891
00:48:33,239 --> 00:48:36,360
Speaker 1: a couple things like they definitely group together when they're like,

892
00:48:36,360 --> 00:48:37,240
Speaker 1: all right, we're in trouble.

893
00:48:38,719 --> 00:48:41,120
Speaker 2: You're you're living in that. I'm I'm sorry if I'm

894
00:48:41,120 --> 00:48:43,319
Speaker 2: a bad listener for this, but so you're you're living

895
00:48:43,360 --> 00:48:47,279
Speaker 2: in the house with with with this this guy and

896
00:48:47,320 --> 00:48:49,160
Speaker 2: his girlfriends.

897
00:48:49,360 --> 00:48:51,680
Speaker 4: Mm hmm yeah, and enough kids in there too, but

898
00:48:51,840 --> 00:48:53,880
Speaker 4: he wasn't a home and.

899
00:48:53,920 --> 00:48:56,239
Speaker 2: Then and then so there's some tensions going on with

900
00:48:56,320 --> 00:48:58,799
Speaker 2: this this this vate pen that they didn't give you,

901
00:48:58,880 --> 00:49:01,680
Speaker 2: and now they're kind of conniving in one corner and

902
00:49:01,760 --> 00:49:04,279
Speaker 2: things are boiling up. And how did this escalate to

903
00:49:04,360 --> 00:49:08,799
Speaker 2: the point where you know, by the way, just I

904
00:49:08,880 --> 00:49:10,879
Speaker 2: just wanted to let you know, man, if you if

905
00:49:10,960 --> 00:49:14,160
Speaker 2: you feel like you shouldn't tell this story for whatever

906
00:49:14,239 --> 00:49:15,239
Speaker 2: legal reasons, it's you.

907
00:49:15,400 --> 00:49:17,520
Speaker 4: If there's a platform that I can tell it on,

908
00:49:17,600 --> 00:49:19,040
Speaker 4: it's definitely the Get Show.

909
00:49:19,400 --> 00:49:21,400
Speaker 1: I just feel like this is definitely gonna be all right.

910
00:49:21,440 --> 00:49:23,480
Speaker 2: I just wanted to give you that a second to

911
00:49:23,520 --> 00:49:24,800
Speaker 2: think about it, but go ahead.

912
00:49:25,480 --> 00:49:27,840
Speaker 4: No, definitely, I think that I can't tell the story.

913
00:49:28,040 --> 00:49:30,120
Speaker 4: This has happened like two weeks or two or three

914
00:49:30,120 --> 00:49:30,520
Speaker 4: weeks ago.

915
00:49:30,600 --> 00:49:32,399
Speaker 1: Now I definitely thought about it clear enough to.

916
00:49:32,440 --> 00:49:34,920
Speaker 2: Think just okay, So so just so, so tell me

917
00:49:34,960 --> 00:49:36,879
Speaker 2: if we could like go to the because I want

918
00:49:36,880 --> 00:49:38,600
Speaker 2: to hear more about about you and I want to

919
00:49:38,600 --> 00:49:42,440
Speaker 2: make sure we have enough time to you know, get

920
00:49:42,680 --> 00:49:45,280
Speaker 2: what can you can we where how did it escalate?

921
00:49:46,719 --> 00:49:47,040
Speaker 7: All right?

922
00:49:47,080 --> 00:49:51,239
Speaker 4: So basically, like after they group together, the girlfriend comes

923
00:49:51,239 --> 00:49:55,279
Speaker 4: out to me and she has this like wheetend it's

924
00:49:55,280 --> 00:49:56,120
Speaker 4: like an ozone pen.

925
00:49:56,200 --> 00:49:59,640
Speaker 1: Anybody smokes wheet tens know this like little gray disposable pen.

926
00:50:00,040 --> 00:50:02,719
Speaker 4: And she's like, I found this is mine and I

927
00:50:02,800 --> 00:50:05,800
Speaker 4: found it the other day in your room completely empty.

928
00:50:06,200 --> 00:50:08,440
Speaker 4: What do you have to say on some shit like that?

929
00:50:08,800 --> 00:50:10,520
Speaker 4: And just like a million things went through my mom

930
00:50:10,600 --> 00:50:12,160
Speaker 4: but the very first thing that went through my mind was,

931
00:50:12,200 --> 00:50:15,160
Speaker 4: holy shit, you went my fucking room. Like I keep

932
00:50:15,200 --> 00:50:17,520
Speaker 4: my door lock. You went inside of my room like

933
00:50:17,560 --> 00:50:20,279
Speaker 4: I understood, Like I understood too, Like okay, you're finding

934
00:50:20,320 --> 00:50:22,840
Speaker 4: a thing that is like you think it's yours. I

935
00:50:22,840 --> 00:50:24,399
Speaker 4: get in my moavies, but you went in my room.

936
00:50:24,800 --> 00:50:26,400
Speaker 4: That's like just where I drew the line. And I

937
00:50:26,440 --> 00:50:27,600
Speaker 4: was like, you went my fucking room.

938
00:50:27,719 --> 00:50:30,399
Speaker 1: No way. So basically, long story short, me and her

939
00:50:30,560 --> 00:50:32,040
Speaker 1: are well. First of all, let me explain.

940
00:50:32,239 --> 00:50:34,080
Speaker 4: I also told her too, before she even came to

941
00:50:34,120 --> 00:50:36,080
Speaker 4: me about this, I was like, I fucking told you.

942
00:50:36,920 --> 00:50:39,040
Speaker 4: I can't don't feel like I can talk about this

943
00:50:39,080 --> 00:50:40,800
Speaker 4: to day. I really late that as Bessa could. I'm like,

944
00:50:40,840 --> 00:50:42,160
Speaker 4: are you sure you want to talk about this, and

945
00:50:42,239 --> 00:50:44,239
Speaker 4: she still did. So we're arguing about this fucking pen

946
00:50:44,360 --> 00:50:46,799
Speaker 4: for no reason, and I don't know she's going down

947
00:50:46,800 --> 00:50:48,719
Speaker 4: the hall She goes down the hallway. I'm on the

948
00:50:48,719 --> 00:50:50,360
Speaker 4: my side of the hallway, so kind of a distance

949
00:50:50,400 --> 00:50:52,360
Speaker 4: between each other. But at the end of the argument,

950
00:50:52,360 --> 00:50:53,880
Speaker 4: I realized that she was just talking in circles.

951
00:50:53,880 --> 00:50:55,680
Speaker 1: I was just like, whatever, So I fucking tossed the

952
00:50:55,719 --> 00:50:56,520
Speaker 1: pen at her feet.

953
00:50:56,560 --> 00:50:59,440
Speaker 4: I basically tossed it back down the hallway and tossed

954
00:50:59,440 --> 00:51:02,000
Speaker 4: it at her feet, basically in my head, being like

955
00:51:02,080 --> 00:51:04,120
Speaker 4: the same way that I throw a fucking dog a bone,

956
00:51:04,120 --> 00:51:05,799
Speaker 4: because the fucking word went through my head. There's a

957
00:51:05,800 --> 00:51:07,480
Speaker 4: fucking appropriate to it that I don't like. Can't be

958
00:51:07,480 --> 00:51:09,520
Speaker 4: one of my fucking room. Oh my god, But yeah,

959
00:51:09,560 --> 00:51:10,239
Speaker 4: I fucking threw this.

960
00:51:11,160 --> 00:51:15,400
Speaker 2: And then she goes, so, how did how did how

961
00:51:15,400 --> 00:51:17,279
Speaker 2: did a gun get involved?

962
00:51:17,680 --> 00:51:19,719
Speaker 4: That's what we're getting to the good, juicy stuff in

963
00:51:19,760 --> 00:51:21,040
Speaker 4: the next five seconds.

964
00:51:21,120 --> 00:51:22,640
Speaker 1: So I throw the fan at her feet.

965
00:51:22,920 --> 00:51:25,440
Speaker 4: She goes, did you just throw a fucking pen at me?

966
00:51:25,760 --> 00:51:28,400
Speaker 4: Her boyfriend's not in the room, but that's enough for

967
00:51:28,520 --> 00:51:30,280
Speaker 4: him to hear that and then come out.

968
00:51:30,239 --> 00:51:32,000
Speaker 1: Ah way did you just throw a pen of me?

969
00:51:32,239 --> 00:51:34,160
Speaker 1: So he comes out, he's running walking towards me.

970
00:51:34,600 --> 00:51:36,640
Speaker 4: No one keeps seven years, but I just see this

971
00:51:36,640 --> 00:51:37,439
Speaker 4: looking at other I'm.

972
00:51:37,360 --> 00:51:38,960
Speaker 1: Like, oh, this guy's gonna beat the ship out of me.

973
00:51:39,080 --> 00:51:41,200
Speaker 4: And I'm just like, well, you know what, he's talking

974
00:51:41,200 --> 00:51:43,000
Speaker 4: about it so much for seven years, I'm just gonna

975
00:51:43,000 --> 00:51:45,080
Speaker 4: win him have it, because honestly I'm interested.

976
00:51:45,120 --> 00:51:46,600
Speaker 1: I want to see how hard this he can hit.

977
00:51:46,880 --> 00:51:48,440
Speaker 4: So he comes up to me, He doesn't exactly what

978
00:51:48,440 --> 00:51:49,359
Speaker 4: I think, well a little bit more.

979
00:51:49,520 --> 00:51:52,200
Speaker 1: He picks me up. He slams me on his.

980
00:51:52,880 --> 00:51:55,120
Speaker 4: Music setup, which I'm too just like my pianos in

981
00:51:55,160 --> 00:51:56,719
Speaker 4: the corner. You could have broken my piano, but you

982
00:51:56,760 --> 00:51:58,120
Speaker 4: slam me on your music setup.

983
00:51:58,120 --> 00:51:58,600
Speaker 1: What the fuck?

984
00:51:58,800 --> 00:52:01,920
Speaker 4: And then I'm on his music setup just blow blow, blow,

985
00:52:02,080 --> 00:52:04,160
Speaker 4: like in the face, over and over and over again.

986
00:52:04,239 --> 00:52:05,920
Speaker 4: And he kind of stops, and I'm just like again

987
00:52:05,960 --> 00:52:08,080
Speaker 4: because I'm like still talking, I really still talking, like

988
00:52:08,160 --> 00:52:12,160
Speaker 4: again wow wow again bow, And I'm just trying to

989
00:52:12,239 --> 00:52:14,080
Speaker 4: lean into it, but he's not fucking leaning into the

990
00:52:14,080 --> 00:52:15,759
Speaker 4: point where I'm like, dude, who can beat up like

991
00:52:15,840 --> 00:52:18,120
Speaker 4: so much worse than this, Like it's so so boring

992
00:52:18,200 --> 00:52:19,799
Speaker 4: if this is really what you've been threatening me with

993
00:52:19,920 --> 00:52:22,640
Speaker 4: the whole time. And so this happens, and it gets

994
00:52:22,640 --> 00:52:24,880
Speaker 4: to the point too where he's like finally refuses to

995
00:52:24,960 --> 00:52:26,239
Speaker 4: like beat the shit out of me because I just

996
00:52:26,320 --> 00:52:29,600
Speaker 4: keep saying again like a fucking crazy person, like I

997
00:52:29,600 --> 00:52:31,560
Speaker 4: don't know someone wh's saying fight club too many times,

998
00:52:31,800 --> 00:52:35,200
Speaker 4: but fucking man, I just he finally stops. He's like,

999
00:52:35,200 --> 00:52:37,000
Speaker 4: this dude must be crazy. He just keeps wanting me

1000
00:52:37,040 --> 00:52:38,520
Speaker 4: to punch him, and then he starts, and then I

1001
00:52:38,560 --> 00:52:39,600
Speaker 4: go start going off like.

1002
00:52:39,560 --> 00:52:43,239
Speaker 1: Oh you hit Michael, bitch, you got no just.

1003
00:52:43,160 --> 00:52:45,480
Speaker 4: Going off in this fucking kid for like no reason.

1004
00:52:45,560 --> 00:52:47,560
Speaker 4: I won't shut the fuck up because, like I said

1005
00:52:47,600 --> 00:52:51,560
Speaker 4: to Bipolar, when provoked, man I will fucking like go off,

1006
00:52:51,719 --> 00:52:54,040
Speaker 4: especially person to say, but I just wouldn't.

1007
00:52:53,680 --> 00:52:54,399
Speaker 1: Shut the fuck up.

1008
00:52:54,480 --> 00:52:56,520
Speaker 4: And the other point he was like he shut his

1009
00:52:56,560 --> 00:52:58,480
Speaker 4: door behind him in his room, door was shut. I

1010
00:52:58,520 --> 00:53:02,200
Speaker 4: was still talking shit and he comes out one off

1011
00:53:02,200 --> 00:53:05,319
Speaker 4: on the floor and that just shut everybody up. And

1012
00:53:05,400 --> 00:53:09,360
Speaker 4: then it was just like I don't know, I didn't

1013
00:53:09,400 --> 00:53:12,760
Speaker 4: flinch nothing, like I just had experience in Baltimore.

1014
00:53:13,680 --> 00:53:15,640
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna go XIX.

1015
00:53:15,800 --> 00:53:18,000
Speaker 2: Let me let me, let me, let me cut off,

1016
00:53:18,560 --> 00:53:22,160
Speaker 2: let me, let me let me Okay, so you had

1017
00:53:22,200 --> 00:53:27,040
Speaker 2: this this pretty wild roommate encounter that you know, I did.

1018
00:53:27,239 --> 00:53:29,160
Speaker 2: You were you were egging on a little bit, and

1019
00:53:29,200 --> 00:53:31,720
Speaker 2: you were also dealing with your own mental health problems

1020
00:53:31,760 --> 00:53:34,120
Speaker 2: at the same time, and it just sounds like a

1021
00:53:34,160 --> 00:53:41,040
Speaker 2: crazy fucking mess. So just like I guess kind of,

1022
00:53:42,760 --> 00:53:44,840
Speaker 2: you know, I want to make sure we get to

1023
00:53:44,880 --> 00:53:50,040
Speaker 2: this before we go like you're so you're doing better now.

1024
00:53:50,320 --> 00:53:54,760
Speaker 2: I want to know the arc because you getting beaten

1025
00:53:54,840 --> 00:53:58,920
Speaker 2: up on your roommate's music studio and asking him to

1026
00:53:59,040 --> 00:54:03,879
Speaker 2: keep hitting you does sound like a low points and

1027
00:54:03,920 --> 00:54:08,360
Speaker 2: so I'm happy to hear that. As we're talking in

1028
00:54:08,640 --> 00:54:13,399
Speaker 2: current day, you you you're feeling better, and you're you're

1029
00:54:13,480 --> 00:54:17,000
Speaker 2: feeling at a at a higher point than then, and

1030
00:54:17,040 --> 00:54:17,920
Speaker 2: I don't want to know.

1031
00:54:17,840 --> 00:54:20,200
Speaker 1: And also checked out and you know, not to undermine

1032
00:54:20,239 --> 00:54:23,560
Speaker 1: you again, but actual like therapists and psychiatrists and like

1033
00:54:24,000 --> 00:54:26,279
Speaker 1: doctors and stuff, they're like, you're getting and I had

1034
00:54:26,280 --> 00:54:28,200
Speaker 1: to check too. I was like, man, how crazy am I?

1035
00:54:28,280 --> 00:54:30,960
Speaker 1: Everybody's I took a couple of weeks. Everybody says that

1036
00:54:31,000 --> 00:54:33,400
Speaker 1: I'm chilling. So I'm here talking to gek.

1037
00:54:33,120 --> 00:54:37,560
Speaker 2: Now, Okay, so how do you how do you feel

1038
00:54:37,560 --> 00:54:38,279
Speaker 2: like you got there?

1039
00:54:40,400 --> 00:54:43,080
Speaker 4: Well, to the point in the well, it's back up

1040
00:54:43,120 --> 00:54:46,680
Speaker 4: a month. This motherfucker gets a gun in general, and

1041
00:54:46,719 --> 00:54:48,480
Speaker 4: I guess it's a couple of months ago, but it

1042
00:54:48,600 --> 00:54:50,760
Speaker 4: was to one point where you know, we lived together,

1043
00:54:50,800 --> 00:54:52,480
Speaker 4: we've lived to get me and this person lived together

1044
00:54:52,520 --> 00:54:54,880
Speaker 4: for basically like seven years. It's to the point with

1045
00:54:55,000 --> 00:54:56,920
Speaker 4: this place where it's just like the rent is just

1046
00:54:56,960 --> 00:54:58,120
Speaker 4: so like on time.

1047
00:54:58,160 --> 00:55:00,319
Speaker 2: All hold on, I guess let me stop going quick.

1048
00:55:00,840 --> 00:55:04,600
Speaker 2: I'm talking about you and your personal journey because again,

1049
00:55:04,640 --> 00:55:06,440
Speaker 2: it felt it seems as though when you were in

1050
00:55:06,480 --> 00:55:08,840
Speaker 2: that encounter, you were yelling and you were you feel

1051
00:55:08,840 --> 00:55:11,080
Speaker 2: like you sounds like you were not in a good place.

1052
00:55:11,080 --> 00:55:12,560
Speaker 2: And as we're talking now, you feel like you are

1053
00:55:12,600 --> 00:55:13,920
Speaker 2: in a good place. And I just want to know,

1054
00:55:15,040 --> 00:55:17,120
Speaker 2: you know, from then to now what you feel like

1055
00:55:17,239 --> 00:55:19,520
Speaker 2: is improved and how you feel like you got there?

1056
00:55:21,160 --> 00:55:23,719
Speaker 1: Oh? Yes, absolutely, man, Sorry that I was going right

1057
00:55:23,719 --> 00:55:24,280
Speaker 1: in the darkest.

1058
00:55:24,400 --> 00:55:26,680
Speaker 4: No literally, I think that the best thing that I

1059
00:55:26,680 --> 00:55:29,160
Speaker 4: could have done for myself, and the thing was too

1060
00:55:29,200 --> 00:55:31,000
Speaker 4: I gave myself like twenty four hours on it, so

1061
00:55:31,080 --> 00:55:33,200
Speaker 4: I know how to at least in a roommate situation,

1062
00:55:33,400 --> 00:55:35,319
Speaker 4: like I can stay in my room for the most

1063
00:55:35,320 --> 00:55:37,960
Speaker 4: where I can avoid people. We can probably just even

1064
00:55:37,960 --> 00:55:40,719
Speaker 4: if a dramatic situation has I was basically way too

1065
00:55:40,800 --> 00:55:43,279
Speaker 4: dramatic for some people, but at least for me, when

1066
00:55:43,360 --> 00:55:45,600
Speaker 4: dramatic situations happen, for the most part, you can take

1067
00:55:45,640 --> 00:55:47,319
Speaker 4: a back seat. The problem was I took a back

1068
00:55:47,360 --> 00:55:49,200
Speaker 4: seat for twenty four hours and was still pissed off

1069
00:55:49,200 --> 00:55:51,480
Speaker 4: to the point where I'm like, I need someone to

1070
00:55:51,600 --> 00:55:53,919
Speaker 4: like check me for sure and make sure I'm good.

1071
00:55:54,040 --> 00:55:57,600
Speaker 4: So I didn't responsibly do when I'm in crisis, and

1072
00:55:57,719 --> 00:56:01,160
Speaker 4: I went to an inpatient that I knew they had

1073
00:56:01,160 --> 00:56:02,040
Speaker 4: all my information, and.

1074
00:56:02,160 --> 00:56:04,400
Speaker 1: I did a nice little seventy two hour stay just

1075
00:56:04,400 --> 00:56:04,799
Speaker 1: to talk to.

1076
00:56:04,800 --> 00:56:07,680
Speaker 4: Some professionals make sure that they could check off that

1077
00:56:07,760 --> 00:56:10,280
Speaker 4: I was okay like I thought I was. They did,

1078
00:56:10,800 --> 00:56:12,960
Speaker 4: and then through them too, I decided to start doing

1079
00:56:13,000 --> 00:56:17,239
Speaker 4: this outpatient rehabilitation center too, where I could focus more

1080
00:56:17,280 --> 00:56:18,640
Speaker 4: on myself and my surprise.

1081
00:56:18,400 --> 00:56:22,640
Speaker 2: Good, good, good, Are you are you sober right now?

1082
00:56:24,360 --> 00:56:24,880
Speaker 1: Am I?

1083
00:56:25,000 --> 00:56:28,799
Speaker 4: Literally just I just an hour before us getting on

1084
00:56:28,840 --> 00:56:31,319
Speaker 4: the phone, man smoked my last joint, or officially my

1085
00:56:32,000 --> 00:56:33,960
Speaker 4: last week that I have on me. This next week

1086
00:56:34,040 --> 00:56:35,279
Speaker 4: is going to kind of be a test to be like,

1087
00:56:35,360 --> 00:56:37,360
Speaker 4: can I just survive off the cigarette?

1088
00:56:37,719 --> 00:56:40,040
Speaker 2: What's the what's the big what's the big one? What's

1089
00:56:40,040 --> 00:56:42,360
Speaker 2: the big one for you? Is it pod? Is it alcohol?

1090
00:56:42,640 --> 00:56:42,800
Speaker 1: Is it?

1091
00:56:43,080 --> 00:56:43,279
Speaker 2: Oh?

1092
00:56:43,880 --> 00:56:44,120
Speaker 1: Word?

1093
00:56:44,200 --> 00:56:46,640
Speaker 4: The worst thing for me is just And this is

1094
00:56:46,640 --> 00:56:50,200
Speaker 4: where I totally like New Year's. I mean, I'm just

1095
00:56:50,360 --> 00:56:52,319
Speaker 4: at a decent point here in Chicago where I can

1096
00:56:52,360 --> 00:56:54,120
Speaker 4: just hang in and hanging out with these rich kids

1097
00:56:54,120 --> 00:56:56,080
Speaker 4: at like New Year's parties, and there's just molly and

1098
00:56:56,120 --> 00:56:59,040
Speaker 4: cocaine and all the other like upper shit that's regularly

1099
00:56:59,040 --> 00:57:01,600
Speaker 4: available and for free, and it's all like the yeah,

1100
00:57:01,719 --> 00:57:05,160
Speaker 4: just upper like bandmate press bullshit, and and.

1101
00:57:05,040 --> 00:57:08,840
Speaker 2: How how how how sober are you from from that stuff?

1102
00:57:10,320 --> 00:57:10,640
Speaker 1: Oh?

1103
00:57:10,719 --> 00:57:13,799
Speaker 4: Man? Yeah, I would say a couple of months now, well,

1104
00:57:13,800 --> 00:57:14,920
Speaker 4: actually not months.

1105
00:57:14,920 --> 00:57:17,040
Speaker 1: I'm over jumping myself. It is February.

1106
00:57:17,080 --> 00:57:19,560
Speaker 4: But since a couple of days after New Years, I

1107
00:57:19,600 --> 00:57:21,959
Speaker 4: got to a point independently where I was like, these

1108
00:57:21,960 --> 00:57:24,560
Speaker 4: things are definitely like I don't know, I was talking

1109
00:57:24,560 --> 00:57:26,240
Speaker 4: around with them when I was a teenager. I started

1110
00:57:26,240 --> 00:57:27,920
Speaker 4: sucking around with them again when I was twenty five,

1111
00:57:27,960 --> 00:57:29,160
Speaker 4: and I'm like, there's the reason I to stop when

1112
00:57:29,160 --> 00:57:30,200
Speaker 4: I was a teenager.

1113
00:57:30,000 --> 00:57:36,400
Speaker 2: So so so so lex Man, I suppose like, oh,

1114
00:57:36,480 --> 00:57:38,440
Speaker 2: I want to know from you before we go. Uh,

1115
00:57:39,120 --> 00:57:41,600
Speaker 2: I'm glad to hear that you're doing better. I'm glad

1116
00:57:41,600 --> 00:57:45,760
Speaker 2: to hear that I'm your you're beginning to it sounds

1117
00:57:45,760 --> 00:57:48,560
Speaker 2: like walk down a good path and you know you're

1118
00:57:48,560 --> 00:57:50,800
Speaker 2: going to a real therapist and getting off the you know,

1119
00:57:50,840 --> 00:57:56,160
Speaker 2: the hard stuff. Actually, what what do you hope for

1120
00:57:56,160 --> 00:57:56,600
Speaker 2: the future?

1121
00:57:56,600 --> 00:57:59,000
Speaker 1: Man? Man?

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00:57:59,160 --> 00:58:01,960
Speaker 4: I gotta man And this is the thing too, And

1123
00:58:03,200 --> 00:58:05,600
Speaker 4: I've really done some fucking cool things here in the

1124
00:58:05,640 --> 00:58:06,320
Speaker 4: last seven years.

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00:58:06,360 --> 00:58:08,920
Speaker 1: I hope to show you personally some time at.

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00:58:08,680 --> 00:58:12,240
Speaker 4: Yeah, but I'm starting to release, at least the music side.

1127
00:58:12,240 --> 00:58:14,040
Speaker 4: I've been doing all types of art, but the music

1128
00:58:14,080 --> 00:58:17,680
Speaker 4: side of this stuff is coming throughout twenty twenty three

1129
00:58:17,760 --> 00:58:20,320
Speaker 4: in a pretty expansive form. But also I haven't dropped

1130
00:58:20,360 --> 00:58:23,680
Speaker 4: really anything since before COVID, so tons of music rolling out.

1131
00:58:23,800 --> 00:58:26,760
Speaker 8: I got a June or yeah, I remember or film

1132
00:58:28,200 --> 00:58:32,840
Speaker 8: interrupting you, but I remember I think either I saw you,

1133
00:58:33,000 --> 00:58:38,120
Speaker 8: or maybe our mutual friend saw you and.

1134
00:58:38,240 --> 00:58:42,840
Speaker 2: Or or maybe he shared with me some music and

1135
00:58:42,920 --> 00:58:45,320
Speaker 2: I remember I heard it. It must have been high school

1136
00:58:45,320 --> 00:58:47,920
Speaker 2: of college of being like this, shit's fucking hard as hell.

1137
00:58:48,000 --> 00:58:48,600
Speaker 2: This is great.

1138
00:58:49,200 --> 00:58:50,640
Speaker 1: Yeah, thank you.

1139
00:58:50,720 --> 00:58:52,960
Speaker 4: If I can really quick plug myself on your show,

1140
00:58:53,040 --> 00:58:53,880
Speaker 4: my account.

1141
00:58:53,640 --> 00:58:58,840
Speaker 1: Is on all platforms.

1142
00:58:58,960 --> 00:59:00,960
Speaker 2: Well listen when you're in When next time you're back

1143
00:59:01,000 --> 00:59:05,360
Speaker 2: in Baltimore and I'm back in Baltimore, I'm coming to

1144
00:59:05,360 --> 00:59:06,440
Speaker 2: the Auto Let me know if you want to come

1145
00:59:06,480 --> 00:59:09,360
Speaker 2: and coming to the Auto bar. Uh fucking later this

1146
00:59:09,480 --> 00:59:10,600
Speaker 2: year to do my GETO thing.

1147
00:59:11,960 --> 00:59:15,400
Speaker 1: Yes, sir, isn't that in That's in April? Right? I thought.

1148
00:59:16,800 --> 00:59:17,560
Speaker 2: It in September.

1149
00:59:17,680 --> 00:59:20,080
Speaker 1: Oh no, no wait wait Baltimore is in good You've

1150
00:59:20,080 --> 00:59:22,840
Speaker 1: got an April show in Chicago though, right.

1151
00:59:23,000 --> 00:59:24,720
Speaker 2: Yeah, I see I'm doing one in Chicago.

1152
00:59:26,000 --> 00:59:26,280
Speaker 5: Yeah.

1153
00:59:26,400 --> 00:59:28,800
Speaker 1: Also, I should say, unless things getting super dramatic, I

1154
00:59:28,800 --> 00:59:29,720
Speaker 1: should still be here.

1155
00:59:29,760 --> 00:59:32,680
Speaker 2: Don't stay in Chicago for the sole purpose of coming

1156
00:59:32,680 --> 00:59:33,439
Speaker 2: to my live show.

1157
00:59:33,480 --> 00:59:36,280
Speaker 1: I'll say that I am not lyle trust me, it's not.

1158
00:59:36,400 --> 00:59:39,040
Speaker 1: I love you man, but it's definitely not just go

1159
00:59:39,080 --> 00:59:40,440
Speaker 1: to the GEK show. But I hope that I can

1160
00:59:40,480 --> 00:59:41,160
Speaker 1: go to the GET show.

1161
00:59:41,200 --> 00:59:41,680
Speaker 5: It'll be great.

1162
00:59:42,120 --> 00:59:44,200
Speaker 1: I will definitely be like Chicago Get Show or the

1163
00:59:44,280 --> 00:59:45,920
Speaker 1: Baltimore Get Show. At least you.

1164
00:59:45,840 --> 00:59:50,560
Speaker 2: Want to good. Good of the show. Good good catching

1165
00:59:50,640 --> 00:59:52,760
Speaker 2: up with you man, hit me up on we follow

1166
00:59:52,800 --> 00:59:54,800
Speaker 2: each other on the computer. Man, hit me up. I'd

1167
00:59:54,800 --> 00:59:58,720
Speaker 2: love to talk again. All right, that's you want to say.

1168
00:59:58,600 --> 01:00:03,200
Speaker 4: To the I shouldn't have plugged my Instagram account because

1169
01:00:03,200 --> 01:00:04,920
Speaker 4: now people can put this story together if they want

1170
01:00:04,960 --> 01:00:07,640
Speaker 4: to figure out. Oh whatever, fuck them, dude, Lyle. It

1171
01:00:07,640 --> 01:00:08,880
Speaker 4: was very catching up with YouTube man.

1172
01:00:09,120 --> 01:00:12,880
Speaker 2: Hey, YouTube man, you take care, I take care, buddy

1173
01:00:13,240 --> 01:00:13,640
Speaker 2: letter Man.

1174
01:00:16,280 --> 01:00:16,520
Speaker 8: Good.

1175
01:00:16,560 --> 01:00:20,960
Speaker 2: This good. It's always good catching up with old friends.

1176
01:00:21,720 --> 01:00:22,960
Speaker 2: I'm glad he's doing well.

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01:00:24,120 --> 01:00:24,320
Speaker 1: Yeah.

1178
01:00:24,400 --> 01:00:28,720
Speaker 2: Lex was a friend of mine in in high school

1179
01:00:28,760 --> 01:00:32,160
Speaker 2: and he was always doing cool creative stuff. It's cool that. Yeah,

1180
01:00:32,240 --> 01:00:40,120
Speaker 2: he's watching the stream the shows. You know, it's tweirt.

1181
01:00:40,160 --> 01:00:43,040
Speaker 2: I feel a weird uh kind of connection to a

1182
01:00:43,080 --> 01:00:49,480
Speaker 2: lot of folks from from from my past through this

1183
01:00:49,600 --> 01:00:52,800
Speaker 2: thing because I get like d ms and comments or

1184
01:00:52,840 --> 01:00:55,360
Speaker 2: whatever from from folks I went to high school with,

1185
01:00:55,480 --> 01:00:58,640
Speaker 2: or you know, anything like that. And it's good. It's

1186
01:00:58,640 --> 01:01:03,919
Speaker 2: good to keep connections to all phases of your life.

1187
01:01:04,480 --> 01:01:07,960
Speaker 3: There Ben goes on the line, taking your phone calls

1188
01:01:08,040 --> 01:01:08,600
Speaker 3: every night.

1189
01:01:09,000 --> 01:01:11,640
Speaker 2: There, Repin goes through on his eight who's teaching you

1190
01:01:11,800 --> 01:01:14,080
Speaker 2: cud in the mind of your life, but he's not

1191
01:01:14,320 --> 01:01:15,680
Speaker 2: really an expert