Speaker 1: You feeling. This is our production of I Heart Ladio
Speaker 1: and Overtones Media.
Speaker 2: Okay, so something's going on with Carla and I want
Speaker 2: to tell you, but you can't get weird about it.
Speaker 3: Now, what makes you think i'd get weird. I'm not
Speaker 3: gonna be jealous or anything or past that.
Speaker 2: Seriously, Claire, I don't think you're gonna be jealous. I
Speaker 2: just think you're gonna be what judgmental grace?
Speaker 4: Are you saying?
Speaker 3: You're not judgmental? Maybe, but it comes from a place
Speaker 3: of caring.
Speaker 2: Well, I can't remember if I told you this, but
Speaker 2: I'm Carla's first girlfriend.
Speaker 3: You definitely did not tell me that.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 4: See, that's exactly what I'm talking about.
Speaker 2: And I thought I felt fine about it until this
Speaker 2: thing happened the other day.
Speaker 4: The other morning, we're like both getting ready for.
Speaker 5: Work and.
Speaker 6: Fuck Jesus, I'm sorry, but I'm so late. I'm just
Speaker 6: gonna is it okay?
Speaker 5: If I just go?
Speaker 7: Sure?
Speaker 8: Sure, that's fine.
Speaker 6: Shit, there's glass everywhere too. I'm sorry, I'll grab the broom.
Speaker 8: Sorry, no, you go, you go, I'll clean this up.
Speaker 9: Don't worry, Okay, thanks, babe, I'm sorry. I just I
Speaker 9: really gotta go, is it you.
Speaker 7: So Carl thinks her dead ex boyfriend broke your flower jar?
Speaker 4: Yeah? Basically?
Speaker 7: Okay, Wow, you told me that she had a dead ex.
Speaker 3: You didn't tell me that it was a guy. Why
Speaker 3: does it matter?
Speaker 4: Come on, Okay, maybe it matters a little, But.
Speaker 2: I think the other thing that matters more, maybe is
Speaker 2: he only died three months before we met.
Speaker 3: What Why would you not tell me that?
Speaker 4: Because I really liked.
Speaker 5: Her and I knew you'd think it was weird.
Speaker 7: Everything makes so much sense now, Like what like the
Speaker 7: time she left the party crying, I thought she was
Speaker 7: having like a bad trip or something. Oh yeah, and
Speaker 7: how she never wants to talk to me. I thought
Speaker 7: she was just intimidated because I'm so sexy and we
Speaker 7: used to be together. Okay, be serious, but.
Speaker 2: Yeah, she really doesn't talk to people much these days.
Speaker 3: How do you deal with that?
Speaker 7: Weren't you scared that she wouldn't be ready to take
Speaker 7: a jump into something new?
Speaker 3: I mean, y'all lived together.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I don't know.
Speaker 5: I mean I.
Speaker 4: Didn't think about it like that. She just needed someone
Speaker 4: and I wanted to be that someone.
Speaker 2: And now I feel like I'm in way too deep
Speaker 2: with someone who is stuck in the past, thinking about
Speaker 2: this guy that she was supposed to get married to
Speaker 2: and like have babies with.
Speaker 3: That's a lot, but she seems like she's worth it
Speaker 3: to you.
Speaker 2: She is, But now things are getting weird, like she
Speaker 2: wants to try and contact his ghost or something, and
Speaker 2: I feel like I have to go along with it.
Speaker 3: But like a full on seance.
Speaker 4: Yeah, Luigi board and everything.
Speaker 3: It's creepy, But like, how do I say?
Speaker 6: No, Hey, babe, you all set up in there?
Speaker 10: Yeah?
Speaker 8: Does this look right to you?
Speaker 5: Uh?
Speaker 3: Yeah, it looks like the movies.
Speaker 4: The other one who knows how Ouiji boards work?
Speaker 8: It's pretty simple.
Speaker 10: Sit down here, okay, and then we both place our
Speaker 10: hands on the plan chet the planchette, Yes, that's what
Speaker 10: it's called.
Speaker 3: And then we say hello. Wait do I say hello?
Speaker 8: I don't know. Maybe he wants to talk to you too.
Speaker 1: Uh.
Speaker 4: I think you have to introduce us at least.
Speaker 8: Then all right, Kareem are you there?
Speaker 5: Are you moving it?
Speaker 10: No, that just means it's working. Now put your hands back.
Speaker 10: You need two people for it to work. Okay, all right,
Speaker 10: Kareem are you there?
Speaker 9: Yes?
Speaker 10: Oh my god, he says, yes, what are you okay, Kareem, Yes, yes,
Speaker 10: have you been watching me? He's hesitating. Are you comfortable
Speaker 10: with Grace being here?
Speaker 8: What he says?
Speaker 10: Yes, Look, Kareem, I know I've kept things from you.
Speaker 10: Are you angry with me? It's not moving? Why are
Speaker 10: you looking at me like that? I just I don't
Speaker 10: know if this was the right thing to do.
Speaker 5: Listen.
Speaker 2: I really want to help you and be supportive, but
Speaker 2: some of this is a little hard to hear.
Speaker 10: It's just my one chance to talk to him again,
Speaker 10: and I don't even know if it's real.
Speaker 2: When you asked if he's mad at you, do you
Speaker 2: mean like because you're with me, because you're queer?
Speaker 8: No? No, I just meant that you're not looking at me.
Speaker 11: No.
Speaker 8: I just met being with someone else. This soon, right,
Speaker 8: But I mean, I.
Speaker 4: Can't believe I'm letting all this get me worked up.
Speaker 3: What do you mean all this?
Speaker 4: You know what I mean?
Speaker 11: No?
Speaker 8: Please tell me.
Speaker 2: For gray sake, Carlos, we're having a seance with Luigi
Speaker 2: board in our living room so that we.
Speaker 4: Can what talk to your ex boyfriend and see if
Speaker 4: we have his a pro or not. I thought you
Speaker 4: were sure about me.
Speaker 8: This isn't about you.
Speaker 2: It is when you're literally asking him questions about me.
Speaker 8: You know what, Fuck this, it was a bad idea.
Speaker 5: What I should have known.
Speaker 8: You couldn't handle it.
Speaker 4: Okay, that's not fair.
Speaker 8: I can't talk about this right now.
Speaker 10: I love you, but I'm going to my mom's Carla, Carla.
Speaker 8: I'll talk to you tomorrow.
Speaker 12: Okay, babe, check it out.
Speaker 8: Check what a.
Speaker 4: We've got a night vision camera.
Speaker 2: An electronic voice phenomena reader, and an EMF reader, which
Speaker 2: is it reads election tromagnetic fields or like disturbances in them,
Speaker 2: which means a paranormal presence.
Speaker 10: Look, I can't tell if you're being real with me,
Speaker 10: and I just think we should stop talking about this stuff.
Speaker 2: No, No, I'm not making fun, I swear. I mean,
Speaker 2: I'm sorry. I did a bunch of research and this
Speaker 2: stuff is actually pretty interesting.
Speaker 8: Seriously, okay, I.
Speaker 4: Mean, I don't know what happens after we die.
Speaker 2: You know, who's to say that our consciousness doesn't hang
Speaker 2: around on Earth for a little while, or like become
Speaker 2: a tree or a bird.
Speaker 10: I feel like you're talking about a serious subject. Like
Speaker 10: it's not serious.
Speaker 4: No, No, I.
Speaker 10: Think people stay on Earth as ghosts if they have
Speaker 10: something they need to resolve, maybe because they died too young.
Speaker 4: Okay, that sounds like something you got from a movie.
Speaker 5: Well, it just makes sense, like the movie Ghost.
Speaker 8: Okay.
Speaker 10: I can tell you're actually uncomfortable with this, and art
Speaker 10: is based on life.
Speaker 8: By the way, all.
Speaker 4: Right, maybe I am uncomfortable, but this stuff is heavy.
Speaker 8: You're right, it is.
Speaker 3: But you knew I was going through this and you
Speaker 3: chose to be with.
Speaker 11: Me, babe, of course I did.
Speaker 10: This is all very real to me, and I'm afraid
Speaker 10: you're just trying to turn it into.
Speaker 11: A joke with all this stuff.
Speaker 2: Honestly, No, you're right. I don't always say the right thing,
Speaker 2: but this matters to you. So we are going to
Speaker 2: see what Kareem has.
Speaker 4: To say to us.
Speaker 10: Okay, Okay, let's give it a try.
Speaker 6: So we're just gonna leave it all running. Yeah, that's
Speaker 6: the idea.
Speaker 3: We just let it go all night.
Speaker 4: And then there's this app that sinks up with all
Speaker 4: my phone.
Speaker 2: So if there are weird noises or electromagnetic disturbances, well no,
Speaker 2: it's probably just gonna be you talking in your sleep or.
Speaker 8: Are you farting?
Speaker 5: What the fuck?
Speaker 8: Carla?
Speaker 3: Are you up?
Speaker 4: Come out here?
Speaker 1: Good?
Speaker 8: Morning.
Speaker 4: You're up early, Carla.
Speaker 5: Listen to this.
Speaker 8: What am I supposed to be hearing?
Speaker 2: Okay, this is just the living room, nothing going on
Speaker 2: at three twenty three am.
Speaker 8: And then oh my god.
Speaker 4: Wait no, I think that's just the picture on my desk.
Speaker 2: It's always falling over and look, that's how it was
Speaker 2: when I got up this morning.
Speaker 5: But keep listening.
Speaker 8: What the fuck?
Speaker 4: Something or someone said my name.
Speaker 8: I'm sorry, this is I need to be alone. I
Speaker 8: think this is a lot for me too.
Speaker 10: You know, I don't think you want to hear what's
Speaker 10: happening in my head right now.
Speaker 8: I do, I really do talk to me.
Speaker 10: After he died, I thought the person I was was
Speaker 10: gone forever and that I would only feel lost. And
Speaker 10: then I met you, and you cut through all of that.
Speaker 10: You brought me back, and it made me feel so guilty.
Speaker 10: I wasn't supposed to love anyone else, but the way
Speaker 10: I felt at the moment he left, I think it's
Speaker 10: always going to be there.
Speaker 8: It's not like we.
Speaker 10: Both get to live and evolve and heal. And I
Speaker 10: was hoping I could find a way to get that
Speaker 10: permision from him.
Speaker 3: To move on.
Speaker 5: All right.
Speaker 3: Listen, Okay, I'm listening.
Speaker 4: And it's from the ghost recording thing.
Speaker 13: Okay, you heard it right, something saying my name.
Speaker 3: I'm sorry, it's not sounding like much to me.
Speaker 4: I think maybe the file compressed an extented to my phone.
Speaker 4: I'm gonna get my laptop out.
Speaker 3: Hey, uh, Grace, can we take a second?
Speaker 7: Are you all right?
Speaker 8: I'm fine.
Speaker 4: It's Carl what I'm worried about.
Speaker 7: You're just not seeming like yourself right now, and I'm
Speaker 7: worried about you. Are you sure recording ghosts is gonna
Speaker 7: fix whatever's going on.
Speaker 5: Between you two? I don't know.
Speaker 4: She just feels like she's missing something.
Speaker 2: And it was there when I met her, this void,
Speaker 2: and I was drawn to it. I wasn't even thinking
Speaker 2: except if I could just make this girl smile, it
Speaker 2: would be everything. And I took a long time. I
Speaker 2: was patient, and somehow I just knew it would be
Speaker 2: worth it.
Speaker 4: But now she's saying that.
Speaker 2: She thinks her feelings for him won't ever change because
Speaker 2: he won't have the chance to evolve away from her,
Speaker 2: and so she won't have that chance either.
Speaker 4: Something like that.
Speaker 3: That kind of makes sense.
Speaker 4: Yeah, but it's a lot to deal with.
Speaker 3: She deals with me still being around all the time.
Speaker 3: I mean, you post no threat.
Speaker 2: Okay, wow, I mean I just we were together so
Speaker 2: long ago, we were different people then.
Speaker 3: But you still love me, don't you. I mean, of course,
Speaker 3: so she can still love him.
Speaker 7: Too, but not the same way she loves you anymore.
Speaker 3: Like obviously she just can't.
Speaker 8: Are you there?
Speaker 10: Kareem, Kareem, Kareem, it's me. I know you think this
Speaker 10: is tacky. Actually, I have no idea what you think
Speaker 10: about death. Why didn't we ever talk about that?
Speaker 11: We should have.
Speaker 8: I should have told you that I had liked women too.
Speaker 8: I felt so guilty about it. I was always trying
Speaker 8: to read your mind, wondering what you met when you.
Speaker 10: Left at certain parts of movies, but I was just
Speaker 10: too afraid to ask.
Speaker 8: Sometimes I would almost say something.
Speaker 10: Sometimes i'd almost come out to you, but then I
Speaker 10: think we'll get to that another day.
Speaker 8: We have so much time.
Speaker 10: I feel like you're trying to reach out to me,
Speaker 10: And if that's true, I'm really.
Speaker 11: Trying to hear you.
Speaker 8: I really miss you.
Speaker 1: You know.
Speaker 3: It's not.
Speaker 10: Everyone knows I miss you, and they're so concerned about
Speaker 10: me all the time, but they think it's mentioning you,
Speaker 10: or like talking about the funeral.
Speaker 5: That makes me.
Speaker 10: Sad, but that stuff doesn't bother me. You were already gone.
Speaker 10: Then It's just that sometimes I forget cream, Like I'll
Speaker 10: be watching TV and I'll just turn to you to
Speaker 10: say something because I think I can.
Speaker 8: And sometimes I swear to God, I.
Speaker 10: Walk in the front door and I expect to see
Speaker 10: you sitting right here on the couch.
Speaker 8: I should move, I really fucking should.
Speaker 2: I know.
Speaker 10: Grace is right about that. She's right about most things.
Speaker 10: You know, kind of like you. Actually it's annoying, but
Speaker 10: she makes me feel safe. You'd like her, Kareem, I
Speaker 10: really think you would.
Speaker 4: Oh my god, Jesus, Hi, you scared this shit out
Speaker 4: of me.
Speaker 2: Why because it's bayarly nine pm and you're in bed and.
Speaker 8: You said you had to work late.
Speaker 10: I did, but I kind of figured happy hour wouldn't
Speaker 10: go that long.
Speaker 4: Well, you're right. Claire still refuses to pay a full
Speaker 4: price for drinks at Chippito.
Speaker 8: And yet she owns a two bedroom house in Silver Lake.
Speaker 4: I know it's so obnoxious, but none of this explains
Speaker 4: why you are in bed before midnight.
Speaker 8: I was just feeling kind of wiped.
Speaker 4: Wait, what's going on?
Speaker 8: Have you been crying? I mean yes, but it was
Speaker 8: a good cry? Really? Are you sure positive?
Speaker 11: Here?
Speaker 8: Spoon me?
Speaker 2: Okay, I will, but hold that thought because I'm not
Speaker 2: actually ready for bed yet.
Speaker 10: Grandma, Okay, leave the light on. I'm just gonna read
Speaker 10: until you're back.
Speaker 13: Okay, Grace, you really don't have to do that.
Speaker 8: Let's just forget it. Okay, I don't.
Speaker 6: Mind at all. It takes like two seconds.
Speaker 10: No, but.
Speaker 8: I'm not just saying it for you. I don't care anymore.
Speaker 3: Okay, what happened?
Speaker 4: Something happened while I was out.
Speaker 10: No, seriously, I've just had some time to think and
Speaker 10: it was probably all in my head.
Speaker 2: Okay, but we both heard what was on the recording, Carla,
Speaker 2: are you saying that wasn't real?
Speaker 10: I think we heard something real and we wanted to
Speaker 10: explain what was going on, and that's how we explained it.
Speaker 5: I heard what I heard.
Speaker 11: I know.
Speaker 2: Okay, let's just listen again and no, okay, fine, I'm sorry.
Speaker 10: We can listen in the morning if you want. You
Speaker 10: can run all the ghost hunting stuff. I don't care,
Speaker 10: but can we just go to bed.
Speaker 8: I don't want to think about this stuff.
Speaker 11: Right now.
Speaker 4: Okay, Yes, I'm sorry.
Speaker 6: Let's just go to bed.
Speaker 3: Thank you, baby, You'll be so well rested, you'll thank me.
Speaker 8: Grace, wake up.
Speaker 10: Carla, Chrace, get up, come on, let's go.
Speaker 6: Is it him? Is it him?
Speaker 8: Grace?
Speaker 7: What?
Speaker 11: No?
Speaker 5: Get up, get under the table, Come on, can't.
Speaker 6: Tell me your grace?
Speaker 4: Is it him?
Speaker 5: Is it Kareem?
Speaker 7: What? No?
Speaker 6: Grace?
Speaker 3: Please please be in reality right now. It's a fucking earthquake.
Speaker 8: Hey. I was really scared last day.
Speaker 5: Me too.
Speaker 2: For a minute there, I really did think it was Kareem.
Speaker 2: But then I was worried you'd think he was sending
Speaker 2: you a message to stay away from me.
Speaker 10: I never thought that even for a second, Grace. I
Speaker 10: was thinking, this is the big one and we're all
Speaker 10: gonna die.
Speaker 2: Well, you have more experience than I do in that department.
Speaker 2: The ground doesn't like randomly just move under your feet
Speaker 2: in Wisconsin.
Speaker 10: Honestly, though, all I was thinking was I can't lose
Speaker 10: you too.
Speaker 11: You were Yeah, that's kind of nice to hear.
Speaker 8: You don't think I worry about that.
Speaker 10: You don't think I worry about the way we met
Speaker 10: that you'll want someone without all this baggage.
Speaker 4: Goud I never thought about it like that.
Speaker 8: We're such a caring person. You can be really self absorbed.
Speaker 8: But I feel like everything I'm worried about it didn't
Speaker 8: come from him. It came from me. What do you
Speaker 8: mean if he's watching us?
Speaker 11: Yes, he can only be happy.
Speaker 14: The One You Really Love was written and directed by
Speaker 14: Me Melissa Dudley and me Hannah Harris Green, featuring Christina Lopezz,
Speaker 14: Carla Kyla mccrack and Is Grace and a Kemi Akanams Claire.
Speaker 3: The editor and producer is Cameron Kel. On set sound
Speaker 3: mixer is Daniel Martinez.
Speaker 14: Sound designer and head of post production is Diego Perez.
Speaker 14: Creator and showrunner is James Kim. On set photographer is
Speaker 14: Julian Park. Score by Robert Garova and Ryobaum You Feeling.
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