WEBVTT - “Launch, B*tch! Launch!” | Mornings 0:00:00.840 --> 0:00:03.440 So you have to just launch yourself. You just have 0:00:03.520 --> 0:00:05.440 to physically launch yourself out of the bed. 0:00:06.080 --> 0:00:09.159 Yes, yes, it was, and I literally think of that. 0:00:09.360 --> 0:00:10.440 I did it this morning. 0:00:10.600 --> 0:00:12.440 I was like, I was like fighting, I was like, 0:00:12.480 --> 0:00:14.360 I'm so tired, I don't feel like getting up, and 0:00:14.400 --> 0:00:17.079 I was like, launch, bitch, launch launch. 0:00:17.079 --> 0:00:19.160 And I just launched myself out of the bed. 0:00:19.360 --> 0:00:20.439 That is so funny. 0:00:20.840 --> 0:00:24.759 We're doing it now, but it works more and. 0:00:24.800 --> 0:00:35.639 More and more better, better, a little bit more better more. 0:00:40.360 --> 0:00:44.040 Welcome to More Beta, a podcast where we stop pretending 0:00:44.040 --> 0:00:46.279 to have it all together and embrace the journey of 0:00:46.320 --> 0:00:47.519 becoming a little more. 0:00:47.360 --> 0:00:50.760 Better every day, or at least trying. So that's Melissa 0:00:50.760 --> 0:00:57.000 for Marrow, and that's Stevanie Beatrice. We're doing our best Marissa, 0:00:57.040 --> 0:00:59.600 Tomay and my cousin Vinny right now, how do you 0:00:59.600 --> 0:01:01.520 guys like, we're not going to do the whole podcast 0:01:01.560 --> 0:01:03.080 like that, and we just we're not going to. 0:01:03.120 --> 0:01:07.880 Do that to you. Yeah, we're just just how are you. 0:01:11.640 --> 0:01:11.880 Okay? 0:01:11.880 --> 0:01:14.560 Okay, I'm okay. How are you doing? Yeah? I mean same. 0:01:14.760 --> 0:01:16.520 I sprayed a bunch of hairspray in my hair this 0:01:16.560 --> 0:01:18.000 morning thinking it was dry shampoo. 0:01:18.760 --> 0:01:20.520 That's that's a fun moment. 0:01:20.800 --> 0:01:22.959 That was a that was a fun time, and it 0:01:23.080 --> 0:01:24.560 really I think I'm had. 0:01:24.640 --> 0:01:27.440 You know, do you ever have like like foggy days 0:01:27.440 --> 0:01:29.360 where you just feel like kind of slow. I don't 0:01:29.360 --> 0:01:31.479 know if it's sleep or I got to I don't know, girl, 0:01:31.600 --> 0:01:35.720 You're just like I feel like I'm like fucking an airhead. 0:01:36.000 --> 0:01:38.480 Like I sprayed that hairspray on and I was like, 0:01:38.520 --> 0:01:39.840 why the fuck is it so wet? 0:01:40.319 --> 0:01:42.960 Like it took me so long to realize. And then 0:01:43.000 --> 0:01:45.759 I sprayed more and I was like, why. 0:01:45.760 --> 0:01:46.480 Is it wet? 0:01:47.040 --> 0:01:50.320 Wait? Why is my wet? And I was like brushing 0:01:50.360 --> 0:01:52.000 it and I was like, why is it sticky? 0:01:52.760 --> 0:01:55.720 And then when I saw that three years of my 0:01:55.760 --> 0:02:00.520 life probably four, Yeah. 0:01:59.440 --> 0:02:01.400 And then when I saw the bottle, I was like, 0:02:01.480 --> 0:02:03.720 oh my god, you fucking idiot, Like why didn't you 0:02:03.760 --> 0:02:07.000 realize right away that it was Because you didn't it's fine. 0:02:07.000 --> 0:02:07.640 I thought there was. 0:02:07.600 --> 0:02:10.919 Something wrong with the dry shampoo. There was something wrong 0:02:10.960 --> 0:02:13.760 with me. Dry shampoo is not very good for your hair, 0:02:13.800 --> 0:02:16.640 you know that, right? Why tell me more? 0:02:17.680 --> 0:02:20.800 Because it can clog the pores in your I mean 0:02:20.840 --> 0:02:22.400 it's fine for like once in a while, but like 0:02:22.440 --> 0:02:25.880 it can clog the pores on your scalp and kind 0:02:25.880 --> 0:02:29.200 of like over time they can create like an unhealthy 0:02:29.240 --> 0:02:32.000 scalp that's like not breathing properly, and it can make 0:02:32.080 --> 0:02:36.000 you like not have as much hair growth and just 0:02:36.040 --> 0:02:40.440 not as healthy of a head of hair. Oh yeah, 0:02:40.800 --> 0:02:41.399 I don't. 0:02:41.240 --> 0:02:44.160 Use it that much. I just was lazy about washing 0:02:44.160 --> 0:02:45.480 my hair this week. 0:02:45.280 --> 0:02:49.560 And so I sometimes it's it is a necessary evil. Yeah, 0:02:49.600 --> 0:02:52.079 sometimes it's okay. I use it when it's necessary. You 0:02:52.080 --> 0:02:53.680 don't want to be using it, like I didn't wash 0:02:53.720 --> 0:02:57.960 my hair, yeah, no, do every other Yeah no. But 0:02:58.000 --> 0:03:01.000 I feel like when dry shampoo first made the scene, 0:03:01.160 --> 0:03:03.200 people were like, oh, I use it every day, like 0:03:03.240 --> 0:03:05.200 I don't really need to shampoo my hair anymore. And 0:03:05.200 --> 0:03:06.360 I was like, ah, I don't. 0:03:06.200 --> 0:03:09.359 Think that's what I don't Oh no, no, I don't 0:03:09.360 --> 0:03:11.480 think so I have noticed. 0:03:11.520 --> 0:03:14.400 I don't love Yeah, like I can't do dry shampoo 0:03:14.440 --> 0:03:16.600 two days in a row because actually, now that I 0:03:16.639 --> 0:03:19.160 think of it, what you were just saying, I don't 0:03:19.200 --> 0:03:21.640 like it does make your scalp feel a little nasty, 0:03:21.720 --> 0:03:22.160 doesn't it. 0:03:22.240 --> 0:03:22.520 Yeah? 0:03:22.600 --> 0:03:25.720 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I just do it like to 0:03:25.800 --> 0:03:28.560 extend one extra day or something and then like like 0:03:28.600 --> 0:03:30.400 I'm going to wash my hair tonight because it's gross 0:03:30.400 --> 0:03:33.920 because now it's got all this here spray in it. Now, yeah, 0:03:34.040 --> 0:03:36.320 obviously it's rumtinen to. Now I do it sometimes a 0:03:36.440 --> 0:03:38.560 piltts like they've got like the nice ones. So I'll 0:03:38.600 --> 0:03:41.600 do it like a little bit because I'm allowetty, what 0:03:41.680 --> 0:03:45.880 have you been doing? It's more better. I'll go first first, 0:03:46.040 --> 0:03:46.680 I'll go first. 0:03:46.800 --> 0:03:48.320 Oh yeah, you go, you go, you go. 0:03:48.920 --> 0:03:54.200 I'm cleaning my office. I'm like rearranging my office or 0:03:54.320 --> 0:03:57.160 not rearranging, but like you know, it's just like organ 0:03:57.840 --> 0:04:00.440 piles up, piles up, piles up, you know. Yep, there 0:04:00.480 --> 0:04:03.160 were so many. There was like a stack I'm not 0:04:03.240 --> 0:04:06.080 even kidding of journals like this big, and like I 0:04:06.120 --> 0:04:09.840 don't really journal, so what ends like journaling? We know, 0:04:12.400 --> 0:04:15.360 jo I love a little notebook. I drop pictures, I 0:04:15.520 --> 0:04:19.359 write myself little notes, and they fill up, like they'll 0:04:19.360 --> 0:04:23.320 fill up. So I had a huge stack of little 0:04:23.400 --> 0:04:25.599 journals that were just like filled with crap like notes 0:04:25.600 --> 0:04:27.880 I'd taken on calls or meetings or like drawings that 0:04:27.920 --> 0:04:31.279 I've done of like our kitchen like renovation from three 0:04:31.320 --> 0:04:34.479 years ago or whatever. So I threw those out. I 0:04:34.520 --> 0:04:37.679 went through a bunch of paper stuff. I like gathered 0:04:37.680 --> 0:04:40.000 a bunch of Roses drawings to put in her box. 0:04:40.120 --> 0:04:43.080 Like now I'm just like now it's just the detritus 0:04:43.120 --> 0:04:45.039 of the the end of it, you know what I mean. 0:04:45.080 --> 0:04:48.480 But like I'm doing. I moved my printer over because 0:04:48.480 --> 0:04:50.200 it was on my desk and I hated how it looked, 0:04:50.200 --> 0:04:54.680 and I moved it and doing it nice. I reorganized 0:04:54.800 --> 0:04:59.880 my shelves, my like cabinets, and I got a corkboard. Finally, 0:05:00.080 --> 0:05:03.960 I really am doing it, yes, And I didn't put 0:05:03.960 --> 0:05:06.719 pressure on myself to get it all done in one 0:05:06.800 --> 0:05:12.840 day because I saw a Tikie talkie where she was like, 0:05:13.520 --> 0:05:17.839 you say the Thinkyki said that your perfectionism is part 0:05:17.880 --> 0:05:21.520 of the reason that you're paralyzed, and like your desire 0:05:21.640 --> 0:05:25.320 that's rue, your desire to have it be like well, 0:05:25.480 --> 0:05:27.159 like if I do this and I need like bins, 0:05:27.200 --> 0:05:28.560 and like what kind of bins do I need? And 0:05:28.600 --> 0:05:31.120 then like I can't I'm gonna and then you can't 0:05:31.160 --> 0:05:34.839 start right, So like in this in this tiky talkie, 0:05:34.880 --> 0:05:37.480 she was like, just start. It doesn't have to be perfect. 0:05:37.560 --> 0:05:39.520 You just just start, and you might not get it 0:05:39.520 --> 0:05:42.960 all done and that's okay, just like just start. And 0:05:43.000 --> 0:05:44.719 I was like, yeah, I could just start. I could 0:05:44.760 --> 0:05:47.479 just start doing stuff. And so I'm I'm doing it 0:05:48.000 --> 0:05:52.800 and it's going really great. Yay. I've been doing a 0:05:52.800 --> 0:05:55.680 bunch of little organizing too, like little by little, like 0:05:55.880 --> 0:06:00.719 just yeah, just start, that's good stuff in the house 0:06:00.800 --> 0:06:04.920 and just h no, I like stuff, but yeah I 0:06:04.960 --> 0:06:06.359 don't like trash. 0:06:07.240 --> 0:06:10.200 Well just yeah, yeah, But like you said, things pile up. 0:06:10.440 --> 0:06:15.479 Like I have these two folders in the kitchen that 0:06:15.560 --> 0:06:18.479 I use for during the school year to just throw 0:06:18.600 --> 0:06:20.640 stuff of the boys that I might want to keep 0:06:20.720 --> 0:06:22.760 or save at the end of the year, you know 0:06:22.760 --> 0:06:25.760 what I mean, Like yeah, an extra special little cute 0:06:25.839 --> 0:06:28.600 drawing or like end so this really cute like all 0:06:28.640 --> 0:06:30.240 about me. And I was like, oh, I kind of 0:06:30.240 --> 0:06:31.600 want to He does them every year, and I was like, 0:06:31.600 --> 0:06:32.279 I kind of want. 0:06:32.120 --> 0:06:32.560 To save these. 0:06:32.600 --> 0:06:34.720 It might be fun, like to read it as high 0:06:34.720 --> 0:06:39.840 school graduation or something that's And so I just keep 0:06:39.839 --> 0:06:41.839 these folders where I can just throw shit there like 0:06:41.960 --> 0:06:43.479 really fast, and then at the end of the year, 0:06:43.640 --> 0:06:46.320 I like go through it and organize it, which I 0:06:46.360 --> 0:06:46.800 never did. 0:06:46.839 --> 0:06:49.120 At the end of last school year. So there was 0:06:49.160 --> 0:06:51.400 the two folders then also just like a bunch of 0:06:51.400 --> 0:06:54.480 other fucking papers, and I finally went through it today 0:06:54.720 --> 0:06:59.880 or yesterday, and literally everything else was garbage. It was 0:07:00.120 --> 0:07:00.719 just garbage. 0:07:00.760 --> 0:07:04.800 It was just sapors and bullshit that we didn't need 0:07:04.839 --> 0:07:07.000 anymore that you could see. Oh, I was saving this 0:07:07.040 --> 0:07:08.800 for this number that I wrote down here, But then 0:07:08.839 --> 0:07:11.320 I took care of that and I forgotten, like whatever 0:07:11.480 --> 0:07:14.320 got this paper was here. I forgot this was even here. Yeah. 0:07:14.440 --> 0:07:19.920 Yeah, literally threw everything away and then took out the 0:07:19.920 --> 0:07:22.760 stuff from the folders of last year, which didn't have 0:07:22.760 --> 0:07:24.280 that much, which I was also kind of proud of 0:07:24.280 --> 0:07:28.200 myself that I didn't oversave things that I was like selective. 0:07:30.040 --> 0:07:34.080 And so now it's just just the two folders there 0:07:34.080 --> 0:07:36.240 by themselves, and it looks so nice. It looks so 0:07:36.320 --> 0:07:37.640 much cleaner, and. 0:07:37.600 --> 0:07:39.760 All your problems are solved once you finish those two 0:07:41.400 --> 0:07:44.920 whole house was clean. That is how it feels. Sometimes 0:07:44.960 --> 0:07:46.640 it's like it does feel like. 0:07:47.400 --> 0:07:50.920 You attack one little corner and you're like, I did it. 0:07:51.120 --> 0:07:55.160 I am a becking superhero. Had everyone noticed this corner? 0:07:55.600 --> 0:07:57.880 I hope everybody notices next time they come in my 0:07:57.960 --> 0:07:59.960 office that the printer is over on the other corn 0:08:00.280 --> 0:08:07.080 because my desk feels ten times bigger. I also found oh, 0:08:07.120 --> 0:08:09.440 look at that sweet picture of being Joe. 0:08:10.720 --> 0:08:12.760 It's like a pencil or charcoal draw. 0:08:13.040 --> 0:08:13.360 Yeah. 0:08:13.400 --> 0:08:17.000 Someone on I think on Twitter or something was like, hey, 0:08:17.080 --> 0:08:20.200 I drew your dog and I was like, that's incredible, 0:08:20.440 --> 0:08:23.000 and then they sent it to me like I can't remember, like, 0:08:23.920 --> 0:08:27.960 but yeah, Steve Buchmi is sister or someone. Maybe we'll 0:08:28.000 --> 0:08:29.560 take a picture of this and put it on the 0:08:29.760 --> 0:08:32.839 Instagram so you guys can see my dog. He really 0:08:32.920 --> 0:08:38.160 looks just like you. I met Steve Buchemi because he 0:08:38.200 --> 0:08:40.960 and I worked on the same movie together, and he 0:08:41.080 --> 0:08:42.760 came up and was like, Hi, we didn't have any 0:08:42.800 --> 0:08:44.760 scenes together, but I just wanted to introduce myself and 0:08:44.800 --> 0:08:46.199 it's so nice to meet you. And I was like, 0:08:46.400 --> 0:08:47.600 it was on the tip of my dog. 0:08:48.600 --> 0:08:51.160 I was like, I can't. I was about to say, 0:08:51.240 --> 0:08:53.280 I can't tell someone that they look like your dog. 0:08:54.080 --> 0:08:54.760 You can't do that. 0:08:55.600 --> 0:08:56.320 So I didn't do it. 0:08:57.360 --> 0:09:00.000 But I know it's not an insult. It is an 0:09:00.559 --> 0:09:01.320 It's part. 0:09:01.120 --> 0:09:07.439 Of why I wanted to get the dog. Anyway, Yeah, 0:09:08.080 --> 0:09:14.040 more better. So today we're talking about mornings. I think 0:09:14.080 --> 0:09:17.200 I said this one because I've been having trouble with this. 0:09:17.400 --> 0:09:20.760 Sometimes I'm really good at this. Sometimes I'm really good 0:09:20.800 --> 0:09:23.560 at having mornings like get me off to a great start, 0:09:23.600 --> 0:09:29.720 and other times I'm horrific at it. So what's your like, 0:09:30.200 --> 0:09:31.600 do you think you're a morning person or no? 0:09:32.800 --> 0:09:33.559 One hundred percent. 0:09:33.640 --> 0:09:33.720 No. 0:09:34.360 --> 0:09:38.120 I have become a more of a morning person by force, 0:09:38.840 --> 0:09:45.640 by sheer life. Yeah, I'm grateful to Brooklyn nine nine 0:09:46.160 --> 0:09:48.440 and having those six thirty am call. 0:09:48.240 --> 0:09:52.560 Times and those weren't even that early. Those weren't even 0:09:52.600 --> 0:09:53.120 that early. 0:09:53.280 --> 0:09:56.800 No. I on the on Gross Point Garden Society, the 0:09:56.840 --> 0:09:59.840 show I just did on Mondays, I had a. 0:10:01.320 --> 0:10:04.559 Like five thirty am call time. I had to wake 0:10:04.640 --> 0:10:04.960 up at. 0:10:04.880 --> 0:10:08.200 Like four in the morning, yes to four four thirty 0:10:08.240 --> 0:10:10.120 in the morning to get there on time. And that 0:10:10.280 --> 0:10:13.160 was just like wake up, have some coffee, and like 0:10:13.200 --> 0:10:16.200 get in the car, like not even a thing like 0:10:16.280 --> 0:10:19.080 a hang morning, like I because it was so far 0:10:19.240 --> 0:10:21.160 from where you were living. Because they were like it 0:10:21.200 --> 0:10:23.680 was like a twenty minute drive. No, it was just 0:10:23.679 --> 0:10:26.400 like a twenty minute drive. But yeah, that's still it 0:10:26.440 --> 0:10:31.080 wasn't close. But Brooklyn prepared me for motherhood because my 0:10:32.400 --> 0:10:36.319 oldest and so my first, the ultimate early morning, the 0:10:36.440 --> 0:10:40.600 ultimate early ultimate. He his little baby ass woke up 0:10:40.640 --> 0:10:46.440 at five am, so he was like four, like he now, 0:10:46.600 --> 0:10:49.920 thank god he's nine now nine and a half. I 0:10:49.960 --> 0:10:53.920 think today it's the weekend. Everybody woke up around seven ish, 0:10:54.080 --> 0:10:57.080 which is very new in our house and feels like 0:10:57.120 --> 0:11:02.440 sleeping in locking crazy. That's crazy to me. 0:11:02.520 --> 0:11:04.120 I know, you have a child that sleeps. 0:11:04.520 --> 0:11:06.640 She did sleep. So I woke up this morning at 0:11:06.679 --> 0:11:09.679 six seven thirty and it was like, oh my god. 0:11:09.960 --> 0:11:12.440 We were like, what is happening because she's well rested 0:11:12.480 --> 0:11:15.760 now yesterday, Well she's well rested because we put her 0:11:15.760 --> 0:11:18.280 on a schedule. It's a whole thing. It's a sidebar, 0:11:18.800 --> 0:11:21.040 but like she's on a more of a schedule now. 0:11:21.120 --> 0:11:22.880 And she woke up with seven thirty and she was 0:11:22.880 --> 0:11:23.920 like singing in a room. 0:11:24.520 --> 0:11:24.720 Eh. 0:11:27.600 --> 0:11:30.320 Honestly, seven thirty is so luxurious. 0:11:30.440 --> 0:11:34.200 I know, for an offer for f a Bratto, it's 0:11:34.240 --> 0:11:41.079 not Brad, Brad, it's not are you yes, one hundred percent? 0:11:41.520 --> 0:11:44.880 I would prefer That's what's so hard for me when 0:11:44.920 --> 0:11:47.839 I do a theater job, because I love doing theater 0:11:47.960 --> 0:11:51.280 I absolutely love it. But by the time you wind 0:11:51.320 --> 0:11:53.920 yourself down at the end of the night, you're just 0:11:53.960 --> 0:11:57.079 like goog gog gogiga until two am, and then your 0:11:57.120 --> 0:12:00.000 morning is shot, and then the rest of the day 0:12:00.320 --> 0:12:02.320 is just like you're just gearing up to do the 0:12:02.360 --> 0:12:05.559 show that's seven pm at night, you know. So like 0:12:05.800 --> 0:12:07.000 I just it's a weird. 0:12:07.120 --> 0:12:08.960 I love working at night so much. 0:12:09.360 --> 0:12:13.760 I would rather have two days in my day. I 0:12:13.800 --> 0:12:15.280 want to have two days in my day. I want 0:12:15.280 --> 0:12:18.200 to have my morning time and that's my day, and 0:12:18.240 --> 0:12:20.440 then I want to have the the other day, which 0:12:20.480 --> 0:12:22.880 is like the rest of the working time. So like 0:12:24.040 --> 0:12:26.920 I would get up and this is not a brag, 0:12:27.000 --> 0:12:29.400 this is just because it's for my mental health. 0:12:29.480 --> 0:12:30.800 I would get up it works for you. 0:12:30.920 --> 0:12:35.440 Yeah, during not during Brooklyn as much, but like during 0:12:36.080 --> 0:12:38.960 Twisted Metal, I would get up at like four because 0:12:38.960 --> 0:12:41.920 I wanted to get in a workout and I was like, oh, 0:12:42.280 --> 0:12:43.839 the only way I'm going to get to work out, 0:12:43.880 --> 0:12:45.679 it's the only way I'm going to have coffee by myself. 0:12:46.200 --> 0:12:47.520 So the only way I'm going to have time to 0:12:47.520 --> 0:12:50.400 look at my lines. That's that's the time, Like that 0:12:50.600 --> 0:12:52.600 is the time. That's the only time. 0:12:54.280 --> 0:12:56.640 That's incredible. 0:12:57.320 --> 0:12:59.480 It's a little It's also like I go to bed 0:12:59.480 --> 0:13:03.400 at nine thirty, you know what I mean. Like still, 0:13:03.480 --> 0:13:07.720 I don't know. I don't watch TV now, right, I mean, yeah, 0:13:07.760 --> 0:13:10.200 that's the thing. That's why I don't watch TV. I 0:13:10.280 --> 0:13:13.320 love TV so much. But yeah, it's like I with 0:13:13.400 --> 0:13:18.160 the kids early morning schedule. I'm so tired, I'm falling asleep. 0:13:18.880 --> 0:13:20.360 You know. I try to watch a show and I 0:13:20.400 --> 0:13:21.360 freaking fall asleep. 0:13:21.880 --> 0:13:24.520 Okay, let's pretend for a second we don't have kids. 0:13:24.600 --> 0:13:28.280 What would be like your perfect morning, Like what would 0:13:28.320 --> 0:13:31.200 be the perfect Just pretend you're like in an alternate 0:13:31.280 --> 0:13:33.680 universe where like Melissa doesn't show a kid and there's 0:13:33.920 --> 0:13:37.560 maybe no David. You're just like whatever, Well, it's hard. 0:13:37.600 --> 0:13:38.320 I don't know how it. 0:13:38.440 --> 0:13:40.959 Feels because I'm like a little bit older. I do 0:13:41.120 --> 0:13:43.360 like working out in the morning, but I can't work 0:13:43.360 --> 0:13:45.320 out it four in the morning, Like I can't wake 0:13:45.400 --> 0:13:47.880 up and like work out right away. I work out 0:13:48.040 --> 0:13:51.000 right after I drop off the kids at school, which 0:13:51.040 --> 0:13:53.600 is like seven forty five, So I work out around 0:13:53.840 --> 0:13:56.880 like eight fifteen, eight thirty. Pretend you don't have kids. 0:13:56.880 --> 0:13:58.439 Pretend you don't have kids, pretend you to have kids. 0:13:58.480 --> 0:14:03.360 But if I don't have kids, well, so I before 0:14:03.400 --> 0:14:07.440 I had kids, I was a workout at night person. Okay, 0:14:07.600 --> 0:14:10.600 I was a workout either in the late afternoon or 0:14:10.640 --> 0:14:13.320 even like I remember when I lived in New York 0:14:13.400 --> 0:14:20.520 going to like six pm big room yoga classes. Yeah, 0:14:20.640 --> 0:14:24.920 and I did that, eating dinner and like you know, 0:14:25.160 --> 0:14:27.840 watching a show and going to bed. God, that was 0:14:27.880 --> 0:14:32.880 the fucking best, Like I was. That's like the mornings 0:14:32.920 --> 0:14:37.280 were just kind of like waking up like whatever, having coffee, 0:14:37.280 --> 0:14:42.880 having breakfast, going to work, and then after work working 0:14:42.920 --> 0:14:48.600 out and then having dinner and like watching TV until 0:14:48.600 --> 0:14:50.360 it was time to go to bed like that. 0:14:51.640 --> 0:14:52.440 Oh. I know. 0:14:52.600 --> 0:14:55.120 Especially I think if you have like a job, like 0:14:55.240 --> 0:14:57.320 your New York job was very like you're here from 0:14:57.320 --> 0:15:01.040 this time to this time kind of right, well it 0:15:01.160 --> 0:15:03.920 was at that point I'm thinking like soap opera years, 0:15:04.160 --> 0:15:10.280 which I wasn't always there late, I feel like it 0:15:10.320 --> 0:15:14.200 was like go in for Yeah, it was like almost 0:15:15.000 --> 0:15:17.080 kind of close to like a regular job. 0:15:17.080 --> 0:15:18.520 I also didn't work every day. 0:15:19.080 --> 0:15:23.080 Right, They've got some storylines and stuff, because they've got 0:15:23.120 --> 0:15:27.080 so many storylines. But I just remember, I don't feel 0:15:27.080 --> 0:15:30.200 like that show shot super late. I feel like they rapped. 0:15:30.880 --> 0:15:34.320 I mean sometimes they did, but I. 0:15:34.240 --> 0:15:37.920 Feel like they always wrapped around like seven six or 0:15:37.960 --> 0:15:41.720 seven pm. It was like just like a twelve hour 0:15:41.840 --> 0:15:43.080 day or ten hour day. 0:15:43.080 --> 0:15:46.280 I don't remember, but I just I remember like going 0:15:46.320 --> 0:15:50.240 to shoot and then like going home, going to the gym, 0:15:51.280 --> 0:15:55.400 and yeah, I could just do that workout at the 0:15:55.480 --> 0:15:58.080 end of the day, and then I felt like it 0:15:58.080 --> 0:16:01.840 would help me like relax too into like nighttime. 0:16:02.160 --> 0:16:05.200 Now, Oh my god, it's. 0:16:05.080 --> 0:16:07.400 Like whatever I have like a weird day where like 0:16:07.440 --> 0:16:09.680 I don't get a workout in early, and I'm like, oh, 0:16:09.720 --> 0:16:11.360 I could do it at like two o'clock. 0:16:11.560 --> 0:16:15.240 I have to have like the strongest espresso and like 0:16:15.360 --> 0:16:16.360 psych myself up. 0:16:16.440 --> 0:16:20.320 It's very I'm very lucky. It's like, oh, yeah, I'm 0:16:20.440 --> 0:16:22.520 very very lucky if I have Well, I found out 0:16:22.520 --> 0:16:26.400 that I was really really like my iron was really low, 0:16:26.480 --> 0:16:29.360 like super low, which is why I've been so tired 0:16:29.440 --> 0:16:32.360 for the last couple of years. I just didn't think 0:16:32.560 --> 0:16:35.960 about it, and I hadn't had my blood tested. So 0:16:36.040 --> 0:16:39.440 if you're super tired and you feel like you're just 0:16:39.920 --> 0:16:42.240 I think I was beating myself up too, because I 0:16:42.280 --> 0:16:43.840 was like, God, I was wrong with you, Like you're 0:16:43.840 --> 0:16:47.200 so lazy, Like you're like, get it together, get it together. 0:16:47.360 --> 0:16:48.920 You have to have a nap every day, like when 0:16:48.920 --> 0:16:50.760 you're not you know, like what are you doing? 0:16:51.400 --> 0:16:53.840 And I know smolar one too, but for me it 0:16:53.880 --> 0:16:54.840 was vitamin. 0:16:54.520 --> 0:16:58.000 D uh huh. Sometimes you just don't know, so like 0:16:58.000 --> 0:17:02.120 if you can get your stuff if tested like, but anyway, 0:17:03.080 --> 0:17:10.720 I think the mornings are my favorite time of day 0:17:11.040 --> 0:17:17.199 because I feel like nobody this is gonna be a 0:17:17.200 --> 0:17:20.840 weird thing. But like, no nobody wants anything from me yet. 0:17:20.960 --> 0:17:25.600 You know, my responsibilities begin later. My responsibilities begin, yeah 0:17:25.640 --> 0:17:27.880 when And if I didn't have a kid, that would 0:17:27.920 --> 0:17:31.160 be true too. My responsibilities would be later. It would 0:17:31.200 --> 0:17:33.240 be when I'm supposed to be at work, you know. 0:17:33.720 --> 0:17:36.760 And so the morning time for me is my own 0:17:36.920 --> 0:17:40.760 time that I get to set myself up for like 0:17:41.000 --> 0:17:44.360 whatever I want that day, you know, which is when 0:17:44.400 --> 0:17:48.360 I really screw myself up. Is that that Jerry Seinfeld joke. 0:17:48.400 --> 0:17:53.040 That's like nighttime me doesn't care about morning time me. 0:17:53.280 --> 0:17:55.480 Nighttime Me is like let's watch another show, let's do 0:17:55.520 --> 0:17:58.119 another let's have a let's have ann you know, like 0:17:58.240 --> 0:18:02.399 nighttime me is like whoa, that's warning guys problem, you know, 0:18:02.520 --> 0:18:04.960 And like that is when I get into trouble because 0:18:05.000 --> 0:18:10.080 like morning guy has to deal with nighttime guys stuff choice, 0:18:10.119 --> 0:18:12.800 nighttime guy doesn't have to deal with it. Right, nighttime 0:18:12.800 --> 0:18:16.000 guys like, OK, let's stay up and watch British bakeup. Yeah, 0:18:16.160 --> 0:18:19.960 but like yeahing me cannot should have a second glass 0:18:20.000 --> 0:18:26.360 of wine? Why not be fine? My most I would say, 0:18:26.359 --> 0:18:31.440 like my perfect morning would be I get up before 0:18:31.440 --> 0:18:36.840 the sun rises. I have an iced delicious coffee already 0:18:36.840 --> 0:18:39.399 made for me in my fridge. I go on my 0:18:39.480 --> 0:18:44.399 back patio. The neighbors chickens are not awake. They are 0:18:44.440 --> 0:18:48.320 awake every day. The chickens and roosters are awake every day. 0:18:48.359 --> 0:18:50.359 So this morning they're not awake, and they're quiet, and 0:18:50.400 --> 0:18:53.680 it's just like the sound of the birds, a little 0:18:53.680 --> 0:18:56.040 bit of the birds in the trees. It's cool. I 0:18:56.160 --> 0:19:03.800 read one of my library books and maybe, like I 0:19:03.880 --> 0:19:07.520 then I have maybe a second cup of coffee or 0:19:07.520 --> 0:19:10.280 like a shot of espresso, go downstairs and do my workout, 0:19:10.400 --> 0:19:13.000 or like walk to a pilates class, do my workout, 0:19:13.080 --> 0:19:17.560 get it done, come back shower. Everyone's still sleep and 0:19:17.600 --> 0:19:22.879 then wow, you know, eat breakfast that's already made for me, 0:19:23.000 --> 0:19:25.720 and it's just magically appears. I don't like to cook, yeah, 0:19:25.880 --> 0:19:30.560 so it just magically appears. It's like, you know, two 0:19:30.640 --> 0:19:35.640 delicious eggs and like waffles and jam, and I can 0:19:35.680 --> 0:19:38.199 make a little sandwich with my waffles. And that's my 0:19:38.200 --> 0:19:42.320 favorite breakfast is two waffles, like gluten free waffles with 0:19:42.359 --> 0:19:47.720 blueberries in them, butter, two eggs and a chicken sausage 0:19:47.760 --> 0:19:49.280 in the middle, and I eat it like a sandwich. 0:19:49.480 --> 0:19:54.840 It's so delicious. That sounds yammy delicious girl. And that 0:19:54.880 --> 0:19:56.960 would be my perfect morning. Like at home, that would 0:19:56.960 --> 0:19:59.159 be my perfect morning. And if I was away, it 0:19:59.160 --> 0:20:01.879 would be like the same thing, except no book. And 0:20:01.920 --> 0:20:04.840 it would be a hike, Like I would start the 0:20:04.880 --> 0:20:07.080 hike before the sun rose, and I would be like 0:20:07.200 --> 0:20:11.440 at like midway point up the hike when the sun 0:20:11.480 --> 0:20:13.600 was rising with my ice coffee. 0:20:15.920 --> 0:20:23.440 Wow, it was so different, everybody. 0:20:23.480 --> 0:20:26.680 I felt some judgment. I felt a little judgment in that. 0:20:26.880 --> 0:20:30.639 Wow. Oh no, it wasn't. It wasn't judgment. No, it 0:20:30.760 --> 0:20:34.000 was envy. It was envy. It wasn't judgment. It was like, 0:20:34.680 --> 0:20:36.560 I this all sounds lovely. 0:20:36.720 --> 0:20:39.160 You too can have that morning, girl, You too can 0:20:39.200 --> 0:20:42.840 have that morning. You just have to. I tried to 0:20:42.920 --> 0:20:43.920 have that morning. 0:20:44.880 --> 0:20:47.240 I would be reading the book, going. 0:20:47.040 --> 0:20:52.439 I don't know what I'm fucking reading, and then I 0:20:52.440 --> 0:20:54.119 would be on the hike and I'd be like, why 0:20:54.160 --> 0:20:54.920 am I doing this? 0:20:55.200 --> 0:20:57.920