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Speaker 1: magic juiciness because you're feeling the ship that you've kind

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Speaker 1: of too much. Do y'all know, do y'all? Let me

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Speaker 1: tell y'all. Do y'all know? Ten years into intentional journey

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Speaker 2: Welcome back to Good MoMA's Bad Choices. I'm Erica. Happy

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Speaker 2: Wednesday Tribe. How you're doing? Happy Wednesday Day? I'm feeling good. Yeah,

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Speaker 2: you look cute. We got the green boots on.

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Speaker 3: You know, I really love these boots. I only want

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Speaker 3: on a handful of times. I'm always trying to find

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Speaker 2: Don't think you need a reason. I think it's I

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Speaker 2: think they just they're they're in all the time type

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Speaker 1: I don't know.

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Speaker 3: If you guys notice, I'm a boot bitch. I love

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Speaker 3: a good boot, a cowboy boot, any boot.

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Speaker 4: I love it.

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Speaker 2: And if you haven't subscribed to our YouTube channel, you

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Speaker 2: should definitely do that. We sometimes we do what is it?

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Speaker 2: What does the drip check, the drip check? We do

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Speaker 2: the drip check today? Should we do a drip check?

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Speaker 2: The drip check? So we have Jamila here in a

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Speaker 2: satin short set. If you're watching YouTube, she just gave

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Speaker 2: us a little sexy little dance. Oh yes, she's tiny,

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Speaker 2: but she's thick as fuck. Okay. And then she has

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Speaker 2: on the green cowprint boots, slight lime neon green color.

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Speaker 2: And oh look at that fat Wow wow wow. I

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Speaker 2: don't know what any of these designers are so like

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Speaker 2: they are They are unknown, but very very expensive.

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Speaker 4: They are probably China.

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Speaker 5: They are Italian leather, Italian from the from the factories

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Speaker 5: of China, silks, maybe Paliesta, slightly leopard print.

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Speaker 3: And these are from my favorite Steve Madden, the Fashions

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Speaker 3: of the high End of Stephen.

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Speaker 4: What's it like that?

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Speaker 2: Stephen mad Stephen Madden mad Madame? It's this.

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Speaker 4: It's a French Stephen Stephen ma.

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Speaker 2: Name is Stepte.

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Speaker 3: Oh these oh, these are from Steffan Modern. Who Stefan Modern?

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Speaker 3: Oh you know, you wouldn't know. It's very exclusive, very

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Speaker 3: very foreign, very exclusive. You wouldn't know anything.

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Speaker 4: These are from These are from a unicorn.

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Speaker 3: Actually, this is this is a unicorn cow of green.

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Speaker 3: You wouldn't know anything about it because it's Italian. It's

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Speaker 3: Dear wife here she is wearing are those spice shiny spanex.

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Speaker 3: It's a shiny spandex and she's going shiny spanex with

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Speaker 4: She's being like modern but retro.

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Speaker 3: And she's of course with Doc Martin's. Doc Martin would

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Speaker 3: Like a badass, but because jam So if you have

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Speaker 2: to introduce our guest today. We have been uh stalking

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Speaker 2: excited to invite to the show Tony Jones. She is

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Speaker 1: Yes, it's an honor to be here, seeing you guys

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Speaker 1: It's just really beautiful to be here. So thank you

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Speaker 1: Yes, And that made me feel like, Okay, how much

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Speaker 1: Let's see what kind of magic happens when I unplan it.

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Speaker 4: Like it's not.

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Speaker 3: like avoid it. I'm an avoid so there's ways like

435
00:23:26,119 --> 00:23:27,840
Speaker 3: I will just like shut off that part of me.

436
00:23:27,880 --> 00:23:29,439
Speaker 3: And it's like, no, bitch, you gotta go down the

437
00:23:29,440 --> 00:23:31,879
Speaker 3: hall and figure it out, like why are you avoiding

438
00:23:31,920 --> 00:23:35,040
Speaker 3: and why? But it's like the power of speaking. It

439
00:23:35,080 --> 00:23:37,000
Speaker 3: is like where the power comes out because it's like

440
00:23:37,040 --> 00:23:39,840
Speaker 3: releasing it. And right now we have a we have

441
00:23:39,880 --> 00:23:44,800
Speaker 3: a merch drop. It's a beautiful sweatsuit from the Manifest University.

442
00:23:44,840 --> 00:23:48,439
Speaker 3: But the back says words are spells, yes, And I

443
00:23:48,480 --> 00:23:50,800
Speaker 3: know for some people you know that can be off

444
00:23:50,800 --> 00:23:53,719
Speaker 3: putting spells whatever, But it's the truth, you know, just

445
00:23:53,760 --> 00:23:56,240
Speaker 3: like in the Bible there's prayers, you know, like there

446
00:23:56,320 --> 00:23:59,280
Speaker 3: like there is so much power in speaking, and like

447
00:23:59,640 --> 00:24:03,000
Speaker 3: even when you said like it resonated with me about

448
00:24:03,520 --> 00:24:04,960
Speaker 3: you know, you were dealing with things that you don't

449
00:24:04,960 --> 00:24:07,480
Speaker 3: even think we're your own. And that's another thing, like

450
00:24:07,520 --> 00:24:10,920
Speaker 3: I don't even think we recognize that, you know, until

451
00:24:10,960 --> 00:24:13,080
Speaker 3: we're ready or until we were like take the time

452
00:24:13,119 --> 00:24:16,399
Speaker 3: to actually tap into the feelings. It's like sometimes the

453
00:24:16,400 --> 00:24:18,520
Speaker 3: feelings that we're harboring truly.

454
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Speaker 4: Aren't our own. There are we inherit things from from

455
00:24:22,000 --> 00:24:24,199
Speaker 4: the women before us, from the men before us, and

456
00:24:24,240 --> 00:24:26,159
Speaker 4: we are so we're trying to battle with things not

457
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Speaker 4: even realizing.

458
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Speaker 3: Like I don't even fucking understand why I'm jealous. I

459
00:24:30,200 --> 00:24:33,640
Speaker 3: don't understand why I'm angry. I don't understand like I've inherited,

460
00:24:34,080 --> 00:24:36,480
Speaker 3: you know, like intense suspicion, like what I.

461
00:24:36,359 --> 00:24:38,040
Speaker 2: Can trush you like it doesn't feel like it even

462
00:24:38,080 --> 00:24:39,960
Speaker 2: resonates with you, but you're holding it for some reason.

463
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Speaker 4: Yeah, Like I don't believe in that, but I've seen

464
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Speaker 4: my mom believe in it, and I've seen like I've

465
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Speaker 4: seen her be like almost held prisoner to it.

466
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Speaker 1: And listen to music that talked about it. I watched

467
00:24:49,880 --> 00:24:50,640
Speaker 1: entertainment that.

468
00:24:51,160 --> 00:24:53,960
Speaker 2: All all the things we intake that we don't even

469
00:24:54,000 --> 00:24:58,439
Speaker 2: realize just like plant into our into our into our

470
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Speaker 2: hearts and our minds and our body.

471
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Speaker 4: I was listening.

472
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Speaker 3: I was reading George's book All All Boys Aren't Blue,

473
00:25:05,359 --> 00:25:07,560
Speaker 3: and I haven't gotten very far, but it's really good.

474
00:25:08,640 --> 00:25:11,320
Speaker 3: And he has a he has like a part where

475
00:25:11,320 --> 00:25:14,760
Speaker 3: he says, I realized it was happy for me to

476
00:25:15,080 --> 00:25:17,600
Speaker 3: identify with like it was hard for me to identify

477
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Speaker 3: with happiness.

478
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Speaker 4: And he was like, and I feel like that's a

479
00:25:20,280 --> 00:25:21,440
Speaker 4: lot for our culture.

480
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Speaker 3: It's like, you know, you always hear people say, like,

481
00:25:24,720 --> 00:25:26,879
Speaker 3: where's that old Mary, where's the hurt Mary?

482
00:25:26,960 --> 00:25:28,399
Speaker 4: And you know, we all love hurt Mary.

483
00:25:29,160 --> 00:25:29,800
Speaker 2: Did he's out.

484
00:25:31,280 --> 00:25:33,480
Speaker 4: We all love hurt Mary.

485
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Speaker 3: And it feels oddly good to like relate to her pain,

486
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Speaker 3: you know, Like it feels good just to like to

487
00:25:40,640 --> 00:25:42,960
Speaker 3: go to that place of heartbreak because you've been there,

488
00:25:43,000 --> 00:25:45,160
Speaker 3: you know. But it's like sometimes when you're like really

489
00:25:45,160 --> 00:25:47,480
Speaker 3: happy and at peace, it's harder to kind of like

490
00:25:48,000 --> 00:25:50,320
Speaker 3: feel safe in that. You're like, why do I feel

491
00:25:50,560 --> 00:25:53,240
Speaker 3: like I'm happy? Like I'm in love? Like things seem

492
00:25:53,240 --> 00:25:57,119
Speaker 3: pretty good, but it feels uneasy because it's easier for

493
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Speaker 3: us to like identifying it and feel comfortable in the pain.

494
00:26:02,400 --> 00:26:04,960
Speaker 3: And when he said that, I was like, damn, that's deep,

495
00:26:05,119 --> 00:26:07,440
Speaker 3: you know, because we've all heard that comment, and it's

496
00:26:07,480 --> 00:26:11,920
Speaker 3: like we've all experienced struggle, even on a like cellular level,

497
00:26:12,200 --> 00:26:15,440
Speaker 3: like on an ancestral level, there's been deep you know,

498
00:26:15,680 --> 00:26:18,959
Speaker 3: like deep heartbreaks and family being pulled away from us

499
00:26:18,960 --> 00:26:22,119
Speaker 3: in relationships, and like you know, and it lives in

500
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Speaker 3: our spirit.

501
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Speaker 1: It does. It's it's like a it's a genetic archive

502
00:26:26,320 --> 00:26:29,520
Speaker 1: in our bodies of the trauma, of the memories and

503
00:26:29,560 --> 00:26:33,200
Speaker 1: things like that. So we have to understand, like especially

504
00:26:33,240 --> 00:26:37,000
Speaker 1: as women in the central. Yes, the central nervous system

505
00:26:37,359 --> 00:26:42,440
Speaker 1: is literally the kingdom. That the kingdom, and so when

506
00:26:42,480 --> 00:26:46,159
Speaker 1: you understand that it has been it's it's a whole

507
00:26:46,280 --> 00:26:49,720
Speaker 1: system that has been used to pain. It's used to

508
00:26:49,800 --> 00:26:53,680
Speaker 1: a certain rhythm and cycle, and when you interrupt that

509
00:26:53,960 --> 00:26:57,560
Speaker 1: cycle with peace with these it's like wait a minute,

510
00:26:57,600 --> 00:27:00,320
Speaker 1: we're not you were used the casts, you know. So

511
00:27:00,400 --> 00:27:02,840
Speaker 1: it's just like it's all you know, for me, it's

512
00:27:02,880 --> 00:27:06,199
Speaker 1: been a journey, like I'm sure for a lot of

513
00:27:06,280 --> 00:27:09,320
Speaker 1: us of like self soothing the nervous system as you

514
00:27:09,400 --> 00:27:17,120
Speaker 1: go into a space of normalizing you know, generosity, integrity, trust, goodness,

515
00:27:17,160 --> 00:27:21,800
Speaker 1: you know, security, safetiness when you're experiencing other people because

516
00:27:21,800 --> 00:27:27,040
Speaker 1: we're so used to experiencing humans the bullshit, you know.

517
00:27:27,640 --> 00:27:28,320
Speaker 4: We expect it.

518
00:27:29,080 --> 00:27:31,040
Speaker 1: When's where is it coming?

519
00:27:31,080 --> 00:27:32,040
Speaker 4: When's the bullshit coming?

520
00:27:32,080 --> 00:27:34,320
Speaker 3: And then it made me, you know that that really

521
00:27:34,320 --> 00:27:37,320
Speaker 3: made me have to realize that, like you have to

522
00:27:37,359 --> 00:27:40,439
Speaker 3: trust your growth, you have to trust your evolution, you

523
00:27:40,520 --> 00:27:41,240
Speaker 3: have to trust that.

524
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Speaker 4: Like I mean, then obviously.

525
00:27:42,280 --> 00:27:45,199
Speaker 3: We've all back pedaled, We've all, you know, been with

526
00:27:45,240 --> 00:27:47,760
Speaker 3: that fuck guy, and we're like, bitch, you're we're past this, bitch,

527
00:27:47,760 --> 00:27:48,679
Speaker 3: are we still doing this?

528
00:27:48,840 --> 00:27:51,760
Speaker 4: Are we still doing this? You'll still have sick diking me, bitch.

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00:27:53,720 --> 00:27:57,359
Speaker 4: We didn't that whole.

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Speaker 2: Details for what you know.

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Speaker 4: But but it's just like that's that's a part of

532
00:28:05,880 --> 00:28:06,240
Speaker 4: it too.

533
00:28:06,400 --> 00:28:10,000
Speaker 3: It's like it takes time, and it takes like it's

534
00:28:10,040 --> 00:28:12,760
Speaker 3: a practice. It really is a practice, and and to

535
00:28:12,800 --> 00:28:15,399
Speaker 3: the point where it's almost difficult to talk about And

536
00:28:15,440 --> 00:28:16,760
Speaker 3: I think we should talk about this more.

537
00:28:17,000 --> 00:28:19,119
Speaker 4: That like there are no healed people.

538
00:28:19,200 --> 00:28:21,280
Speaker 3: And you can be an affirmation singer, and you can

539
00:28:21,320 --> 00:28:23,640
Speaker 3: have a podcast and a microphone and you can give advice.

540
00:28:23,960 --> 00:28:25,440
Speaker 3: And I can come up here and pretend like I've

541
00:28:25,440 --> 00:28:27,920
Speaker 3: got all of my shit together, and I know all

542
00:28:27,920 --> 00:28:30,960
Speaker 3: the answers because I've been podcasting for five years, but

543
00:28:31,320 --> 00:28:33,000
Speaker 3: like the truth of the matter is, like, let's be real,

544
00:28:33,080 --> 00:28:36,400
Speaker 3: Like it's gonna in our journeys, it's gonna continuously come up.

545
00:28:36,480 --> 00:28:37,600
Speaker 3: They're going to continuously be.

546
00:28:37,720 --> 00:28:41,160
Speaker 4: Obstacles where we'll retract and we'll be like, bitch, you're

547
00:28:41,200 --> 00:28:42,160
Speaker 4: better than this, and.

548
00:28:42,080 --> 00:28:45,560
Speaker 3: Like so it's just like a like you can know

549
00:28:45,640 --> 00:28:48,520
Speaker 3: something and then to implement it an action, it takes

550
00:28:48,600 --> 00:28:52,160
Speaker 3: time to get reprogrammed to that and then start to

551
00:28:52,200 --> 00:28:54,480
Speaker 3: like like trust that I've grown enough that I'm going

552
00:28:54,480 --> 00:28:56,960
Speaker 3: to attract the people that are for me, and that

553
00:28:57,040 --> 00:28:59,920
Speaker 3: I can trust and trust myself that I'm choosing wise,

554
00:29:00,760 --> 00:29:02,480
Speaker 3: so then I can let my guard downs, Like, bitch,

555
00:29:02,480 --> 00:29:04,320
Speaker 3: you're not the person you were five years ago when

556
00:29:04,320 --> 00:29:07,040
Speaker 3: you were comfortable on that fun shit, so be so

557
00:29:07,200 --> 00:29:09,360
Speaker 3: be accepting of the people that are in your place,

558
00:29:09,560 --> 00:29:11,800
Speaker 3: in this place right now that you've attracted because you've

559
00:29:11,800 --> 00:29:15,040
Speaker 3: done the work to attract the right circle.

560
00:29:15,280 --> 00:29:18,280
Speaker 1: That is that titty is definitely out.

561
00:29:18,600 --> 00:29:21,280
Speaker 2: Titties. Her titties fight, they fight the shirts.

562
00:29:22,360 --> 00:29:23,360
Speaker 1: Do you name your titties?

563
00:29:23,840 --> 00:29:23,920
Speaker 2: No?

564
00:29:24,080 --> 00:29:24,320
Speaker 1: I don't.

565
00:29:24,400 --> 00:29:26,240
Speaker 4: I haven't like the right titty, left titty but.

566
00:29:28,080 --> 00:29:30,160
Speaker 2: Do you name your titties? What are their names?

567
00:29:30,320 --> 00:29:36,800
Speaker 1: Veronica in Elaine, Elaine, Veronica is the bigger one.

568
00:29:37,200 --> 00:29:39,360
Speaker 3: Maybe if I name him, name them and identify them,

569
00:29:39,360 --> 00:29:41,160
Speaker 3: they'll stop trying to come out like see me.

570
00:29:41,640 --> 00:29:42,040
Speaker 4: See me.

571
00:29:42,120 --> 00:29:47,720
Speaker 1: Like Veronica get In talked about this space.

572
00:29:48,360 --> 00:29:50,280
Speaker 4: She acknowledged us, and now we can have a seat.

573
00:29:50,320 --> 00:29:51,880
Speaker 2: You need to communicate with your titties, just like you

574
00:29:51,880 --> 00:29:55,920
Speaker 2: need to communicate with everybody. Hi, you guys speak of communication,

575
00:29:56,000 --> 00:29:56,800
Speaker 2: you also must.

576
00:29:58,240 --> 00:30:00,480
Speaker 4: We're going into a podcast. I can't have you about

577
00:30:00,520 --> 00:30:05,360
Speaker 4: on the algorithm.

578
00:30:05,600 --> 00:30:07,640
Speaker 2: We were talking earlier before we hit record and were

579
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Speaker 2: you were telling me that, you know, communication is uh

580
00:30:10,920 --> 00:30:14,080
Speaker 2: is the ultimate self love is you know the basically

581
00:30:14,280 --> 00:30:14,800
Speaker 2: is that what you said.

582
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Speaker 1: That's no, it's fine, You're close. Communication is no affirmations

583
00:30:21,360 --> 00:30:22,800
Speaker 1: is the language of self love.

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00:30:22,920 --> 00:30:26,880
Speaker 2: Is the language of self love. And that resonated with

585
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Speaker 2: me because you know, we talk a lot of We

586
00:30:29,520 --> 00:30:32,880
Speaker 2: always share an affirmation on the show. And you know,

587
00:30:32,960 --> 00:30:36,680
Speaker 2: me and Smila have talked about just affirmations in friendships,

588
00:30:36,720 --> 00:30:40,560
Speaker 2: affirmations with our children and just and and just also

589
00:30:40,600 --> 00:30:43,640
Speaker 2: just come straight communication and just the power of using

590
00:30:43,680 --> 00:30:46,760
Speaker 2: your voice out loud. And I mean obviously we know

591
00:30:46,800 --> 00:30:48,400
Speaker 2: the power of that just because of you know, what

592
00:30:48,440 --> 00:30:51,400
Speaker 2: we do here. But I've realized, you know, in sitting

593
00:30:51,400 --> 00:30:54,479
Speaker 2: down and talking every week so much, so much has

594
00:30:54,680 --> 00:30:56,560
Speaker 2: come up for me where I'm like, oh shit, like

595
00:30:57,000 --> 00:31:00,320
Speaker 2: I'm not over that, or like and and things even

596
00:31:00,320 --> 00:31:02,240
Speaker 2: come up and you talk about this. I talk about

597
00:31:02,280 --> 00:31:04,600
Speaker 2: this in the book that we have coming at you, guys.

598
00:31:05,360 --> 00:31:07,080
Speaker 2: Make sure you check out A Good Mom's Guide to

599
00:31:07,120 --> 00:31:09,160
Speaker 2: Making Bad Choices, which is on pre sale right now.

600
00:31:09,280 --> 00:31:12,920
Speaker 2: Hit the link in this episode description humble Uh you.

601
00:31:13,000 --> 00:31:16,040
Speaker 4: Got some for gifts with it too, so shameless.

602
00:31:15,600 --> 00:31:16,600
Speaker 1: Plug plug plug plug.

603
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Speaker 2: But I talk about my relationship with my father and

604
00:31:21,080 --> 00:31:23,600
Speaker 2: how it's been a very long journey of forgiveness and

605
00:31:23,640 --> 00:31:25,800
Speaker 2: for him, and even at points where I thought I'd

606
00:31:25,800 --> 00:31:28,239
Speaker 2: already forgiven him and then it's come up that I

607
00:31:28,320 --> 00:31:32,440
Speaker 2: hadn't and how speaking out loud and not even to

608
00:31:32,520 --> 00:31:36,640
Speaker 2: him has been extremely transformational for me. And just like

609
00:31:36,840 --> 00:31:39,000
Speaker 2: you know, talking out loud, like I do this, we

610
00:31:39,040 --> 00:31:40,840
Speaker 2: have I have this exercise in the book and that

611
00:31:40,960 --> 00:31:42,880
Speaker 2: and I've shared on the show too, where I, you know,

612
00:31:43,000 --> 00:31:45,120
Speaker 2: walking around there's a school in front of my house,

613
00:31:45,160 --> 00:31:48,480
Speaker 2: and I was walking around the school vocally out loud

614
00:31:48,480 --> 00:31:51,360
Speaker 2: forgiving him, like, in a way, my dad is here,

615
00:31:51,400 --> 00:31:53,480
Speaker 2: I can do this with him right now. But the

616
00:31:53,560 --> 00:31:56,040
Speaker 2: amount of times in which I need to release and

617
00:31:56,080 --> 00:31:57,880
Speaker 2: say this would be crazy for me to call him

618
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Speaker 2: up and be like, Daddy, I need to tell you again,

619
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Speaker 2: and how you piss me off on my sixteenth birthday

620
00:32:02,040 --> 00:32:05,680
Speaker 2: and you know, like, but just the power of saying

621
00:32:05,880 --> 00:32:12,760
Speaker 2: things out loud, repetitively is so important to the healing.

622
00:32:12,920 --> 00:32:15,000
Speaker 2: Especially I feel like when you when you can't get

623
00:32:15,000 --> 00:32:17,520
Speaker 2: the healing from that person too, because some people are like, well,

624
00:32:17,520 --> 00:32:19,400
Speaker 2: I can't forget my daddy. My daddy ain't here or

625
00:32:19,440 --> 00:32:22,840
Speaker 2: he's not sorry, you know, and like using the tool

626
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Speaker 2: of your own voice in releasing and and even recording

627
00:32:27,520 --> 00:32:31,320
Speaker 2: your own voice and listen listening to it back, because

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00:32:31,480 --> 00:32:34,720
Speaker 2: you know, it's one thing to listen to someone's someone

629
00:32:34,840 --> 00:32:36,960
Speaker 2: someone talk to you, but it's another thing. It's even

630
00:32:37,000 --> 00:32:40,280
Speaker 2: more powerful in your own voice, hearing that from your

631
00:32:40,560 --> 00:32:42,880
Speaker 2: hearing that from yourself, and I can only imagine how

632
00:32:42,880 --> 00:32:45,520
Speaker 2: powerful that has been for you. You have albums of yourself

633
00:32:45,560 --> 00:32:46,600
Speaker 2: talking to yourself.

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Speaker 1: It's wild. I listened to myself. I'm like Dan, not

635
00:32:49,920 --> 00:32:51,720
Speaker 1: that girl. We talk about. I'm like, oh, that's me.

636
00:32:52,760 --> 00:32:55,520
Speaker 1: I'm like I said that, I wrote that. I was like,

637
00:32:55,520 --> 00:32:56,960
Speaker 1: I'd just be like, whoa.

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00:32:57,720 --> 00:32:59,840
Speaker 4: I'm like, where does she get we're in the source?

639
00:33:00,040 --> 00:33:00,880
Speaker 4: Did she come up with this?

640
00:33:00,960 --> 00:33:03,000
Speaker 1: But I'm telling you I've been writing since I was

641
00:33:03,040 --> 00:33:05,200
Speaker 1: a kid. I just didn't know it was of something

642
00:33:05,880 --> 00:33:10,520
Speaker 1: valuable to share. But to your point about repetition, I

643
00:33:10,600 --> 00:33:14,920
Speaker 1: want to make a statement about knowing thyself, knowing what

644
00:33:15,000 --> 00:33:18,400
Speaker 1: you are, like, the power repetition is so important for

645
00:33:18,440 --> 00:33:22,200
Speaker 1: you to translate what you know into your embodiment because

646
00:33:22,320 --> 00:33:27,320
Speaker 1: it's like, think about billionaire, billion dollar companies and brands

647
00:33:27,360 --> 00:33:31,080
Speaker 1: and icons and leaders in the world. You made it.

648
00:33:32,040 --> 00:33:35,160
Speaker 1: Why are you still hustling for our attention? You got

649
00:33:35,160 --> 00:33:40,200
Speaker 1: your message in the magazine, social media, ads, on the bus,

650
00:33:40,680 --> 00:33:44,840
Speaker 1: you know, billboards, commercials everywhere. Why you hustling for little

651
00:33:44,840 --> 00:33:48,240
Speaker 1: old me? Why you want my attention and you constantly

652
00:33:48,240 --> 00:33:50,760
Speaker 1: put it in front of my face to buy your food?

653
00:33:51,120 --> 00:33:55,160
Speaker 1: You know it's because the power of repetition. It impacts

654
00:33:55,160 --> 00:33:59,400
Speaker 1: the subconscious mind to influence your habits and behaviors. So

655
00:33:59,440 --> 00:34:02,760
Speaker 1: when it comes to yourself again, you have to advertise,

656
00:34:02,760 --> 00:34:06,200
Speaker 1: you have to campaign, you have to market. You have

657
00:34:06,280 --> 00:34:10,640
Speaker 1: to march period, so that repetition even if you like, man,

658
00:34:12,160 --> 00:34:13,560
Speaker 1: I don't know if I want to be about that

659
00:34:13,640 --> 00:34:17,160
Speaker 1: forgiveness game by my parents. The truest information and to

660
00:34:17,239 --> 00:34:20,799
Speaker 1: say is I'm open and I'm willing where I'm resistant

661
00:34:21,400 --> 00:34:24,960
Speaker 1: to be more forgiving of my parents. I look, I

662
00:34:26,080 --> 00:34:30,799
Speaker 1: attract thought, partners, heart allies to help support me in

663
00:34:30,880 --> 00:34:33,320
Speaker 1: that forget. You know what I'm saying, Get real, honest

664
00:34:33,360 --> 00:34:36,200
Speaker 1: with yourself and where you're at. You know, I keep

665
00:34:36,239 --> 00:34:43,200
Speaker 1: saying it more and more and more. You know, yeah, yeah,

666
00:34:43,320 --> 00:34:46,000
Speaker 1: it gotta be real. It got it. Like I mean,

667
00:34:46,080 --> 00:34:50,080
Speaker 1: think about the guys who talk weird game like man,

668
00:34:50,320 --> 00:34:53,359
Speaker 1: you're so beautiful, Like it's like fake, like come on, bru,

669
00:34:53,880 --> 00:34:56,800
Speaker 1: shut up. But if somebody's like, hey, how you doing,

670
00:34:57,000 --> 00:34:59,400
Speaker 1: like you know, just talk to you, like, hey, how

671
00:34:59,480 --> 00:35:02,000
Speaker 1: you been doing since post pandemic? You know, just real

672
00:35:02,080 --> 00:35:04,560
Speaker 1: human and human talk. It's more real. So when you

673
00:35:04,600 --> 00:35:08,040
Speaker 1: talk to yourself, keep it real. Don't be fancy and awe,

674
00:35:08,560 --> 00:35:11,000
Speaker 1: you know, doing the most. Sometimes you gotta just be

675
00:35:11,080 --> 00:35:12,600
Speaker 1: real with yourself with where you're at.

676
00:35:12,760 --> 00:35:14,799
Speaker 4: You know, that's the thing.

677
00:35:14,960 --> 00:35:17,520
Speaker 3: Like it's it is easy to talk to others it's

678
00:35:17,560 --> 00:35:20,239
Speaker 3: easy to give advice. It's a whole different ballgame when

679
00:35:20,239 --> 00:35:22,879
Speaker 3: it has to be applied to you. You know, it's

680
00:35:22,920 --> 00:35:26,440
Speaker 3: a whole different like experience. You know, like I did

681
00:35:26,480 --> 00:35:32,240
Speaker 3: a family constellation recently, and at the end of it,

682
00:35:32,400 --> 00:35:35,280
Speaker 3: she is basically like telling me to repeat what she says,

683
00:35:35,360 --> 00:35:38,040
Speaker 3: and she's like, mom, Like I'm talking to my mom,

684
00:35:38,080 --> 00:35:39,880
Speaker 3: I'm talking to my dad, I'm talking to little Mila,

685
00:35:39,920 --> 00:35:41,840
Speaker 3: and like, I've never met this lady in my fucking life.

686
00:35:41,960 --> 00:35:44,279
Speaker 2: We explained the people with consolation because people are like,

687
00:35:44,280 --> 00:35:44,920
Speaker 2: what the fuck is that?

688
00:35:45,120 --> 00:35:49,439
Speaker 3: Yeah, okay, so family constellation is I honestly, I've only

689
00:35:49,440 --> 00:35:51,560
Speaker 3: seen it once on like Love Sex and Gup on

690
00:35:51,600 --> 00:35:55,360
Speaker 3: Netflix with fucking uh, who's the girl that does that?

691
00:35:56,480 --> 00:35:57,640
Speaker 2: I don't remember her name when.

692
00:35:59,440 --> 00:36:04,160
Speaker 3: So it's just really interesting thing where basically the person

693
00:36:04,200 --> 00:36:08,520
Speaker 3: the practitioner, it has a person I go and they

694
00:36:09,320 --> 00:36:12,480
Speaker 3: they create a field and you don't know who the

695
00:36:12,520 --> 00:36:15,000
Speaker 3: people are in the field are going to be, and

696
00:36:15,040 --> 00:36:16,839
Speaker 3: you just tell them some background about who you are,

697
00:36:16,880 --> 00:36:19,360
Speaker 3: your family history. She asked me, like my immigration story,

698
00:36:19,760 --> 00:36:22,799
Speaker 3: she asked me about my mom, my dad, diseases like

699
00:36:22,800 --> 00:36:25,080
Speaker 3: that I run in my family deaths, that have happened,

700
00:36:25,080 --> 00:36:28,080
Speaker 3: how people have died, just like general family history that

701
00:36:28,120 --> 00:36:30,560
Speaker 3: I mean some I knew, some I didn't now. My

702
00:36:30,600 --> 00:36:33,200
Speaker 3: relationship with my parents have wonership with each other. So

703
00:36:33,320 --> 00:36:36,920
Speaker 3: then she tells me to place these papers on the floor.

704
00:36:36,920 --> 00:36:38,960
Speaker 3: She put full numbers on each paper. Place them on

705
00:36:39,000 --> 00:36:42,080
Speaker 3: the floor, and then she's like, play somewhere every want

706
00:36:42,080 --> 00:36:44,160
Speaker 3: and then show me. I was like, what the fuck

707
00:36:44,840 --> 00:36:47,160
Speaker 3: She's like, now you know, go to the first go

708
00:36:47,560 --> 00:36:50,239
Speaker 3: to which everyone calls you first, and stand on it

709
00:36:51,080 --> 00:36:53,000
Speaker 3: and so and the other, and like if you don't

710
00:36:53,000 --> 00:36:53,560
Speaker 3: do it online.

711
00:36:53,600 --> 00:36:56,319
Speaker 4: The other version of it is there are volunteers.

712
00:36:56,600 --> 00:36:58,600
Speaker 2: Yeah, I was looking at can I read this definition

713
00:36:58,640 --> 00:37:01,160
Speaker 2: because I feel like it really okay? This is from

714
00:37:01,200 --> 00:37:01,759
Speaker 2: actually goop.

715
00:37:02,360 --> 00:37:02,720
Speaker 4: Okay.

716
00:37:02,920 --> 00:37:05,840
Speaker 2: You meet with a group of strangers and each person

717
00:37:05,880 --> 00:37:08,000
Speaker 2: has a chance to be the main point of focus

718
00:37:08,200 --> 00:37:12,279
Speaker 2: of their own family constellation. A facilitator selects others from

719
00:37:12,320 --> 00:37:15,719
Speaker 2: the group to represent significant family members, and you all

720
00:37:15,760 --> 00:37:18,880
Speaker 2: work together by role playing characters and acting out familiar

721
00:37:18,880 --> 00:37:19,799
Speaker 2: family dynamics.

722
00:37:19,800 --> 00:37:21,759
Speaker 3: Well here's the thing, is like say it for me,

723
00:37:21,840 --> 00:37:24,239
Speaker 3: I was getting the family family constellation and maybe I

724
00:37:24,280 --> 00:37:27,560
Speaker 3: don't know you guys, and they choose you to play

725
00:37:27,560 --> 00:37:28,480
Speaker 3: in my field like.

726
00:37:28,480 --> 00:37:29,920
Speaker 4: I'm grandma, but I don't know that.

727
00:37:30,000 --> 00:37:31,160
Speaker 2: But you don't know. I don't know that.

728
00:37:31,160 --> 00:37:33,080
Speaker 3: They'll just put you in different places and then maybe

729
00:37:33,080 --> 00:37:35,279
Speaker 3: I'll go stand next to you, or I'll stand next

730
00:37:35,280 --> 00:37:37,520
Speaker 3: to you, and then you guys will channel someone who

731
00:37:37,520 --> 00:37:38,920
Speaker 3: doesn't know me at all, and you'll be like, well,

732
00:37:38,960 --> 00:37:43,200
Speaker 3: I feel sad, I feel angry. I don't and then like, well,

733
00:37:43,239 --> 00:37:44,960
Speaker 3: look at number look at number two. How do you

734
00:37:45,000 --> 00:37:46,440
Speaker 3: feel now? Like I don't want to look over there.

735
00:37:47,160 --> 00:37:49,160
Speaker 3: It's really strange, and it's like or people just like.

736
00:37:49,080 --> 00:37:50,920
Speaker 4: I feel like a little girl.

737
00:37:50,719 --> 00:37:53,080
Speaker 3: Like you have to be really willing to be like

738
00:37:53,160 --> 00:37:56,359
Speaker 3: captured by whatever energy captures you. But at the time

739
00:37:56,600 --> 00:37:59,080
Speaker 3: I don't know. So for me it was these papers.

740
00:37:59,200 --> 00:38:02,120
Speaker 3: I stood on the papers and she's like, well, how

741
00:38:02,160 --> 00:38:03,759
Speaker 3: do you feel? And I was like, what the fuck

742
00:38:03,800 --> 00:38:05,080
Speaker 3: are you doing? She's like, I know this is weird.

743
00:38:05,120 --> 00:38:05,680
Speaker 3: I'm like, bitch.

744
00:38:06,600 --> 00:38:08,480
Speaker 4: So I'm like, I mean, my room's standing on a

745
00:38:08,560 --> 00:38:09,160
Speaker 4: number one.

746
00:38:10,520 --> 00:38:12,520
Speaker 3: And I was like, well I feel, you know, whatever

747
00:38:12,560 --> 00:38:15,120
Speaker 3: I feel, And then the second one, you know, I moved.

748
00:38:15,160 --> 00:38:17,000
Speaker 3: She's like, go to show whatever number you feel called

749
00:38:17,040 --> 00:38:18,520
Speaker 3: to go on next, and then the second one I

750
00:38:18,560 --> 00:38:22,680
Speaker 3: went and I sat and I like felt like kind of.

751
00:38:22,640 --> 00:38:26,120
Speaker 4: Like like happy, like childlike. I don't know why I

752
00:38:26,120 --> 00:38:28,120
Speaker 4: didn't think of it. And then I sat there for

753
00:38:28,160 --> 00:38:28,399
Speaker 4: the lawn.

754
00:38:28,400 --> 00:38:29,799
Speaker 3: She's like, just just sit and see how you feel,

755
00:38:29,840 --> 00:38:32,160
Speaker 3: see how your body moves. She's like taking notes. And

756
00:38:32,160 --> 00:38:35,200
Speaker 3: then I was like, oh my god, I feel like

757
00:38:35,239 --> 00:38:37,800
Speaker 3: I need to cry cry. I'm like, this is really weird.

758
00:38:37,920 --> 00:38:40,040
Speaker 3: What the fuck are you doing to me from a distance?

759
00:38:40,520 --> 00:38:43,040
Speaker 4: What are you doing to me on zoom? So I

760
00:38:43,080 --> 00:38:45,920
Speaker 4: start crying, like She's like it's okay, I know this

761
00:38:45,960 --> 00:38:48,440
Speaker 4: stuff is weird. I'm like, what the fuck.

762
00:38:48,280 --> 00:38:48,879
Speaker 1: Is going on?

763
00:38:49,760 --> 00:38:51,920
Speaker 3: And then I moved through all the numbers, feeling and

764
00:38:52,000 --> 00:38:53,600
Speaker 3: like just kind of giving her how I feel and

765
00:38:53,600 --> 00:38:56,200
Speaker 3: somethings I felt nothing, sometimes I felt more of other things.

766
00:38:57,000 --> 00:38:58,799
Speaker 3: Then we sat down and then she tells me who

767
00:38:58,800 --> 00:39:00,960
Speaker 3: each number was one that I cried on.

768
00:39:01,120 --> 00:39:04,080
Speaker 4: It was my childhood's.

769
00:39:03,480 --> 00:39:06,440
Speaker 3: Self, so like, you know, you know, there's all these

770
00:39:06,440 --> 00:39:08,759
Speaker 3: different and even the placements are significant, you know, like

771
00:39:08,800 --> 00:39:12,359
Speaker 3: my mom was in between me and my dad, and like.

772
00:39:12,320 --> 00:39:13,000
Speaker 4: Do you feel like that?

773
00:39:13,040 --> 00:39:13,239
Speaker 1: You know?

774
00:39:13,600 --> 00:39:15,799
Speaker 3: It was just all these different dynamics, and then at

775
00:39:15,800 --> 00:39:18,480
Speaker 3: the end we like move, we moved the papers to

776
00:39:18,520 --> 00:39:21,480
Speaker 3: be in a more like I don't know, like flowing

777
00:39:21,760 --> 00:39:25,759
Speaker 3: like place or way, and then I stand on one

778
00:39:25,800 --> 00:39:27,839
Speaker 3: of the papers and then she tells me to look

779
00:39:27,880 --> 00:39:30,080
Speaker 3: at the paper and she's like, Mom, I know, I

780
00:39:30,120 --> 00:39:32,279
Speaker 3: know you did the best with what you can, but

781
00:39:32,640 --> 00:39:35,719
Speaker 3: I am and I accept. Like it was like a

782
00:39:36,120 --> 00:39:38,680
Speaker 3: like a like a speech to my mom, I speech

783
00:39:38,719 --> 00:39:40,600
Speaker 3: to my dad, I speech to my younger self. And

784
00:39:40,640 --> 00:39:43,359
Speaker 3: I was just like bawling, and I'm like, this is

785
00:39:43,440 --> 00:39:46,239
Speaker 3: crazy that this lady that I've never met in my

786
00:39:46,280 --> 00:39:48,920
Speaker 3: life's telling me what to say and it's triggering me

787
00:39:48,960 --> 00:39:51,360
Speaker 3: in these ways because it's things that I didn't realize

788
00:39:51,480 --> 00:39:53,560
Speaker 3: I've needed to say, and I don't have the I

789
00:39:53,600 --> 00:39:54,160
Speaker 3: didn't have the.

790
00:39:54,280 --> 00:39:57,239
Speaker 4: Strength to say, hey, Dad, you hurt me.

791
00:39:57,280 --> 00:39:59,000
Speaker 3: And I and I and I asked, I'm asking you

792
00:39:59,040 --> 00:40:02,520
Speaker 3: for permission to surpass you, like if that's what she's

793
00:40:02,520 --> 00:40:04,440
Speaker 3: telling me, I'm asking your permission that I like to

794
00:40:04,440 --> 00:40:07,640
Speaker 3: surpass you in all the ways emotionally like, and it

795
00:40:07,680 --> 00:40:11,120
Speaker 3: was just like this crazy experience and it made me realize, like, damn,

796
00:40:11,239 --> 00:40:14,800
Speaker 3: I'm fragile and there are things that I need to

797
00:40:14,840 --> 00:40:18,040
Speaker 3: say that I'm scared of saying and like how powerful,

798
00:40:18,080 --> 00:40:20,799
Speaker 3: like even knowing the power and healing that words have

799
00:40:20,920 --> 00:40:23,840
Speaker 3: given me even in this space, and feeling free in

800
00:40:23,880 --> 00:40:26,200
Speaker 3: ways to say all types of shit on the internet,

801
00:40:26,280 --> 00:40:29,640
Speaker 3: you know, talk about sex, talk about like things I've experienced.

802
00:40:29,680 --> 00:40:31,440
Speaker 3: But then when it comes to like the people closest

803
00:40:31,440 --> 00:40:34,080
Speaker 3: to me and these intimate things and this pain that

804
00:40:34,120 --> 00:40:36,360
Speaker 3: I've harbored or like anger that I haven't really like

805
00:40:36,440 --> 00:40:39,279
Speaker 3: really addressed. Because now this like random white ladies telling

806
00:40:39,320 --> 00:40:40,600
Speaker 3: me what to say to my mom and dad, I'm

807
00:40:40,600 --> 00:40:45,160
Speaker 3: fucking bawling. It was an interesting like practice to be like, Okay,

808
00:40:45,200 --> 00:40:47,600
Speaker 3: there's obviously some like more there that needs to like

809
00:40:47,719 --> 00:40:50,480
Speaker 3: be uncovered, but all that to say is just like

810
00:40:50,960 --> 00:40:54,919
Speaker 3: even me in this space so comfortable speaking and then

811
00:40:55,000 --> 00:40:56,960
Speaker 3: you you know, put in this environment where I have

812
00:40:57,000 --> 00:40:59,160
Speaker 3: to speak to you know, the things that are like

813
00:40:59,280 --> 00:41:01,960
Speaker 3: close I've so close to my heart, that are like

814
00:41:02,120 --> 00:41:04,279
Speaker 3: I've been hurt over or held onto and not even

815
00:41:04,320 --> 00:41:07,440
Speaker 3: realizing I'm holding onto, are much more or much more

816
00:41:07,480 --> 00:41:10,200
Speaker 3: difficult to release, like with words.

817
00:41:10,840 --> 00:41:13,120
Speaker 4: You know, it's like that throat chakra needs to be like.

818
00:41:15,520 --> 00:41:16,640
Speaker 2: Yeah cleared out.

819
00:41:16,760 --> 00:41:20,680
Speaker 1: M m m hmm. Wow, that's beautiful, you know, any

820
00:41:20,719 --> 00:41:25,480
Speaker 1: woman who goes back, goes back to the past as

821
00:41:25,520 --> 00:41:29,520
Speaker 1: like as though as the museum and become an observer

822
00:41:29,719 --> 00:41:33,360
Speaker 1: and like kind of like a three D virtual world

823
00:41:33,400 --> 00:41:37,279
Speaker 1: of like going back to feel the feelings. It's not

824
00:41:37,440 --> 00:41:40,520
Speaker 1: real because it's not in the now, but you virtually,

825
00:41:40,600 --> 00:41:43,080
Speaker 1: through your spirit, through your emotions, through your mind, you

826
00:41:43,160 --> 00:41:46,080
Speaker 1: go back and you feel the stuff that you really

827
00:41:46,080 --> 00:41:48,840
Speaker 1: didn't have the skill sets to feel. You had to

828
00:41:48,880 --> 00:41:53,600
Speaker 1: survive those things. And when a woman does that game changing,

829
00:41:53,920 --> 00:41:56,360
Speaker 1: because all you do is you open up yourself to

830
00:41:56,480 --> 00:42:00,560
Speaker 1: deeply feel the joy from just being alive, the joy

831
00:42:00,600 --> 00:42:02,400
Speaker 1: of being able to put makeup on, the joy of

832
00:42:02,440 --> 00:42:06,279
Speaker 1: eating banana. You're like, why am I feeling gratitude for

833
00:42:06,520 --> 00:42:10,160
Speaker 1: just these little things. It's because you opened up your

834
00:42:10,160 --> 00:42:14,120
Speaker 1: emotional intelligence to feel the pain first deeper, and when

835
00:42:14,120 --> 00:42:16,600
Speaker 1: you're able to feel that, you just expand your skill sets,

836
00:42:16,640 --> 00:42:19,680
Speaker 1: your emotional skill sets, to feel all the goodness that's

837
00:42:19,760 --> 00:42:24,160
Speaker 1: actually here for us. You know, So congratulations for going deep.

838
00:42:24,520 --> 00:42:28,400
Speaker 1: Thanks going into the museum of your childhood. That's not easy.

839
00:42:29,239 --> 00:42:31,359
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean I've done it in ways, but not

840
00:42:31,400 --> 00:42:32,480
Speaker 3: obviously in that setting.

841
00:42:32,600 --> 00:42:34,520
Speaker 4: And even erica like the fact.

842
00:42:34,360 --> 00:42:36,480
Speaker 3: That you need to do, Like it's like we know,

843
00:42:36,680 --> 00:42:38,640
Speaker 3: but we have to remember, and then we have to

844
00:42:38,719 --> 00:42:40,279
Speaker 3: honor the space where it's like, am I gonna walk

845
00:42:40,280 --> 00:42:42,040
Speaker 3: around the block and talk out loud to someone who's

846
00:42:42,040 --> 00:42:42,319
Speaker 3: not here?

847
00:42:42,800 --> 00:42:43,000
Speaker 1: You know?

848
00:42:43,360 --> 00:42:45,600
Speaker 3: You know, like am I gonna go to my childhood

849
00:42:45,600 --> 00:42:47,920
Speaker 3: house and like go find me? Like it takes a

850
00:42:47,920 --> 00:42:49,959
Speaker 3: certain mindset to be like even open to that, because,

851
00:42:50,000 --> 00:42:51,239
Speaker 3: like you said in the beginning, and we've said this

852
00:42:51,280 --> 00:42:53,120
Speaker 3: a lot of times, it's like, you know, if I

853
00:42:53,120 --> 00:42:55,960
Speaker 3: tell people, like you know, people that they're like, that's

854
00:42:55,960 --> 00:42:57,919
Speaker 3: some white people shit or some hippie shit, like bitch

855
00:42:57,960 --> 00:42:59,400
Speaker 3: you did why you want to hear room and steptons

856
00:42:59,400 --> 00:43:03,920
Speaker 3: on numbers? Like okay, girl, you know, like it sounds wild,

857
00:43:04,120 --> 00:43:08,440
Speaker 3: but like when we're open enough to access and then

858
00:43:08,520 --> 00:43:10,480
Speaker 3: be like, you know, this is weird, but fucking let

859
00:43:10,520 --> 00:43:13,120
Speaker 3: me see like how beneficial it could be, you know,

860
00:43:13,320 --> 00:43:15,719
Speaker 3: and then feeling the shift and then having and then

861
00:43:15,880 --> 00:43:18,359
Speaker 3: being in safe spaces enough, being in sister circles where

862
00:43:18,360 --> 00:43:18,680
Speaker 3: you could be.

863
00:43:18,680 --> 00:43:21,000
Speaker 4: Like, hey, girl, so let me tell you what I did.

864
00:43:21,120 --> 00:43:23,759
Speaker 3: You should try it too, you know, and feeling safe

865
00:43:23,840 --> 00:43:27,000
Speaker 3: enough to do that because a lot of times people like.

866
00:43:27,480 --> 00:43:28,640
Speaker 4: It's just that devil work.

867
00:43:29,120 --> 00:43:32,840
Speaker 3: You know, like people feel scared of those intuitive moments

868
00:43:32,880 --> 00:43:36,200
Speaker 3: where you're like, damn, like something's telling making me go

869
00:43:36,320 --> 00:43:36,680
Speaker 3: this way.

870
00:43:36,880 --> 00:43:38,320
Speaker 4: Just honoring that inner voice.

871
00:43:38,480 --> 00:43:41,560
Speaker 2: Yep, yeah, I know for sure, honoring I mean I think,

872
00:43:41,719 --> 00:43:43,560
Speaker 2: I mean something told you that that was something that

873
00:43:44,040 --> 00:43:46,279
Speaker 2: you needed, you were called to do and im and

874
00:43:46,320 --> 00:43:49,040
Speaker 2: then now look at what you've been able to, you know,

875
00:43:49,080 --> 00:43:55,440
Speaker 2: cultivate because of just following intuition, following just like something

876
00:43:55,719 --> 00:43:58,839
Speaker 2: deeply deep within you that needed needed that.

877
00:43:59,000 --> 00:44:03,320
Speaker 1: The medicine, Yeah, medison. I needed it. Like I didn't

878
00:44:03,360 --> 00:44:06,440
Speaker 1: know what I was doing. Never been in a studio.

879
00:44:06,440 --> 00:44:09,480
Speaker 2: I went to LA like I told you music before

880
00:44:09,600 --> 00:44:14,400
Speaker 2: or no so music nothing. I came back and I

881
00:44:14,400 --> 00:44:16,600
Speaker 2: applied for a loan, got the loan, and I got

882
00:44:16,600 --> 00:44:19,600
Speaker 2: in the studio and I took what you know, I'm

883
00:44:19,719 --> 00:44:23,839
Speaker 2: my background in psychology and I'm a neuroscience nerd, and

884
00:44:23,960 --> 00:44:27,799
Speaker 2: so I took all that information to say, I'm gonna

885
00:44:27,800 --> 00:44:30,640
Speaker 2: create my own process how I create music.

886
00:44:30,800 --> 00:44:34,240
Speaker 1: So I became like a mad scientist. Like every song

887
00:44:34,320 --> 00:44:35,920
Speaker 1: had a whole life. You know how when you were

888
00:44:36,000 --> 00:44:38,480
Speaker 1: kids and you played barbies and they had a whole

889
00:44:38,560 --> 00:44:42,680
Speaker 1: name life. Kids drama situations like each song, like I

890
00:44:42,719 --> 00:44:46,759
Speaker 1: gave each song that type of lifestyle, and I was like,

891
00:44:46,920 --> 00:44:50,520
Speaker 1: this is my process, like and this is fun like it.

892
00:44:51,000 --> 00:44:52,680
Speaker 1: So I was just like, let me just do this

893
00:44:53,400 --> 00:44:56,960
Speaker 1: and see what happens. It wasn't about becoming a musician.

894
00:44:57,120 --> 00:44:59,800
Speaker 1: It was just a wellness tool. And then like a

895
00:45:00,120 --> 00:45:03,080
Speaker 1: year later, you know, I became a full artist and

896
00:45:03,120 --> 00:45:06,479
Speaker 1: in twenty twenty one was my first year performance ever

897
00:45:06,760 --> 00:45:09,799
Speaker 1: in life, you know. So, I mean I came from

898
00:45:09,840 --> 00:45:12,120
Speaker 1: the church, so it's like when you you know, I

899
00:45:12,160 --> 00:45:14,560
Speaker 1: went to the wine Ins Church, so it's very music

900
00:45:14,719 --> 00:45:18,360
Speaker 1: bas so it was like that a little bit helped

901
00:45:18,400 --> 00:45:21,000
Speaker 1: a little bit, But I'm in vocal lessons. I'm learning

902
00:45:21,040 --> 00:45:23,560
Speaker 1: this whole thing, you know. But it's fun because it

903
00:45:23,560 --> 00:45:26,319
Speaker 1: feels like a quest to see how much more can

904
00:45:26,400 --> 00:45:29,680
Speaker 1: Tony Jones play this version of herself as an artist

905
00:45:30,200 --> 00:45:32,600
Speaker 1: and see what else is here? Because it feels better.

906
00:45:33,200 --> 00:45:33,400
Speaker 1: You know.

907
00:45:33,760 --> 00:45:36,120
Speaker 2: It's also a testament that you can switch it an

908
00:45:36,200 --> 00:45:39,839
Speaker 2: you can switch your just switch your where you think

909
00:45:39,880 --> 00:45:42,720
Speaker 2: your life's purpose is at any point, at any moment,

910
00:45:42,800 --> 00:45:46,000
Speaker 2: your journey can change your profession, can change the way

911
00:45:46,160 --> 00:45:50,000
Speaker 2: you look at you know, how you think you're going

912
00:45:50,040 --> 00:45:50,400
Speaker 2: to get to.

913
00:45:50,440 --> 00:45:51,600
Speaker 1: The goal can.

914
00:45:51,560 --> 00:45:55,160
Speaker 2: Change, you know, and sometimes it's not through nine to five.

915
00:45:55,239 --> 00:46:01,200
Speaker 2: Sometimes it is Sometimes it's affirmation, musical affirmation. Sometimes it's podcasting,

916
00:46:01,640 --> 00:46:05,640
Speaker 2: sometimes it's whatever it is, Like it's okay, but when

917
00:46:05,480 --> 00:46:09,920
Speaker 2: when you step into what you're supposed to be doing,

918
00:46:10,840 --> 00:46:11,160
Speaker 2: you know.

919
00:46:12,120 --> 00:46:14,880
Speaker 3: And it may not make sense. It doesn't necessarily have

920
00:46:14,960 --> 00:46:17,160
Speaker 3: to make sense. Like you probably put so much money

921
00:46:17,200 --> 00:46:20,359
Speaker 3: into schools and like formal training and like we are

922
00:46:20,440 --> 00:46:21,920
Speaker 3: so attached to that.

923
00:46:22,080 --> 00:46:24,640
Speaker 2: But it's but it's worked. But you've able you're able

924
00:46:24,680 --> 00:46:27,480
Speaker 2: to still use use it, right, you know, I still

925
00:46:27,480 --> 00:46:28,359
Speaker 2: able to use it.

926
00:46:28,520 --> 00:46:32,759
Speaker 1: Yeah, Because I started out as my big dream was

927
00:46:33,239 --> 00:46:35,880
Speaker 1: to be a model when I was a kid, and

928
00:46:35,920 --> 00:46:38,560
Speaker 1: then it evolved into like, well I missed out with

929
00:46:38,680 --> 00:46:42,319
Speaker 1: my modeling years, so let me become a stylist. So

930
00:46:42,400 --> 00:46:44,440
Speaker 1: I lived out in New York for a minute, you know,

931
00:46:44,480 --> 00:46:47,319
Speaker 1: a hot minute, and was working you know for John

932
00:46:47,360 --> 00:46:50,880
Speaker 1: Barbados and all these other design houses through sacks and

933
00:46:50,920 --> 00:46:53,200
Speaker 1: things like that. So I saw like the fashion world.

934
00:46:53,560 --> 00:46:55,680
Speaker 1: But then I was like, wait a minute, this is

935
00:46:55,719 --> 00:46:59,600
Speaker 1: fulfilling a talent but not purpose. And so but even

936
00:46:59,719 --> 00:47:05,000
Speaker 1: come back full circle, I'm like I'm an artist.

937
00:47:05,560 --> 00:47:09,200
Speaker 2: It wait, hold on, I get to put the clothes on. Yeah,

938
00:47:09,239 --> 00:47:12,359
Speaker 2: I get to perform, like, I get to be by,

939
00:47:12,800 --> 00:47:14,160
Speaker 2: like I get to talk my shit.

940
00:47:14,280 --> 00:47:16,839
Speaker 1: Yes, I get to be fly. I get to share

941
00:47:16,920 --> 00:47:19,920
Speaker 1: my mind. And I'm a thinking woman, you know. I

942
00:47:19,920 --> 00:47:24,400
Speaker 1: get to share my depth and it be reflected backed

943
00:47:24,400 --> 00:47:27,000
Speaker 1: at me by the millions of people that are like, yo,

944
00:47:27,040 --> 00:47:30,799
Speaker 1: we deep too, we wretch it too, we think too.

945
00:47:31,400 --> 00:47:34,000
Speaker 1: You know. What I'm saying is like, oh, because when

946
00:47:34,040 --> 00:47:36,719
Speaker 1: you follow your purpose, God or whatever it is you

947
00:47:36,840 --> 00:47:39,320
Speaker 1: believe in, will then bless you with all the seeds

948
00:47:39,320 --> 00:47:41,319
Speaker 1: that you've planted along the way, and they'll start to moom,

949
00:47:41,320 --> 00:47:43,080
Speaker 1: and they'll start to take form and they'll make sense.

950
00:47:43,600 --> 00:47:45,560
Speaker 2: I think about even you know, my journey here. And

951
00:47:45,880 --> 00:47:47,440
Speaker 2: I wanted to be an actress my whole life. I

952
00:47:47,440 --> 00:47:49,200
Speaker 2: wanted to be a singer my whole life. So I'm

953
00:47:49,200 --> 00:47:52,480
Speaker 2: a writer and so I you know, I learned how

954
00:47:52,480 --> 00:47:55,320
Speaker 2: to use garage band, I learned how to record myself,

955
00:47:55,440 --> 00:47:57,480
Speaker 2: I learned how to talk in front of the camera.

956
00:47:58,040 --> 00:48:00,399
Speaker 2: I took vocal lessons. You know. I did all these things,

957
00:48:00,400 --> 00:48:04,080
Speaker 2: and you know, some of those some of those dreams,

958
00:48:04,160 --> 00:48:06,680
Speaker 2: you know, passed for me, or i've you know, I

959
00:48:07,040 --> 00:48:09,719
Speaker 2: lost they lost their shininess and in ways, or I

960
00:48:09,760 --> 00:48:12,680
Speaker 2: got discouraged in ways, And then I think about coming

961
00:48:12,719 --> 00:48:14,839
Speaker 2: full circle and hit podcasting. When we started our show,

962
00:48:14,880 --> 00:48:17,280
Speaker 2: I was like, oh, I know how to record audio. Yeah,

963
00:48:17,360 --> 00:48:19,160
Speaker 2: not because I was trying to be a podcaster, but

964
00:48:19,160 --> 00:48:20,960
Speaker 2: because I, you know, I was writing music. Oh I

965
00:48:21,000 --> 00:48:23,440
Speaker 2: know how to edit video. Oh I know how to

966
00:48:23,480 --> 00:48:25,319
Speaker 2: be in front of a camera. Oh I know how

967
00:48:25,360 --> 00:48:27,080
Speaker 2: to write some shit. I don't know if it's professional,

968
00:48:27,120 --> 00:48:29,239
Speaker 2: but I did some writing once upon a time, you know.

969
00:48:29,360 --> 00:48:31,839
Speaker 2: And how all these little talents kind of come up

970
00:48:32,040 --> 00:48:34,200
Speaker 2: and they finally make sense and you're.

971
00:48:34,040 --> 00:48:37,440
Speaker 1: Like, oh, I got it, I got it. It's like

972
00:48:37,880 --> 00:48:42,040
Speaker 1: nothing ever experience in your life is not ever used.

973
00:48:42,560 --> 00:48:45,640
Speaker 3: Every experience it's such like an important tool to like

974
00:48:45,680 --> 00:48:47,400
Speaker 3: where you end up. And it's like that's why like

975
00:48:47,760 --> 00:48:49,960
Speaker 3: people who have like bad experiences and it leaves a

976
00:48:49,960 --> 00:48:51,880
Speaker 3: bad taste in your mouth. It's like it's always a lesson.

977
00:48:51,920 --> 00:48:52,840
Speaker 3: There's always a reason.

978
00:48:53,320 --> 00:48:54,960
Speaker 4: And I also think like we're so.

979
00:48:55,200 --> 00:48:59,680
Speaker 3: Also programmed to think that our purpose in like in

980
00:49:00,320 --> 00:49:03,080
Speaker 3: has to be like our profession has to be like

981
00:49:03,120 --> 00:49:05,879
Speaker 3: with this like very strict training like it has to

982
00:49:05,920 --> 00:49:09,520
Speaker 3: fit into this box, you know, and then it doesn't

983
00:49:09,560 --> 00:49:12,399
Speaker 3: allow us, it doesn't really give us space to tap

984
00:49:12,440 --> 00:49:15,520
Speaker 3: into our own gifts, like our natural gifts. And like

985
00:49:15,560 --> 00:49:17,440
Speaker 3: I love to talk and I love people and I

986
00:49:17,520 --> 00:49:20,680
Speaker 3: love to talk to people, but I didn't think that

987
00:49:20,680 --> 00:49:22,839
Speaker 3: that was enough, you know, Like I can't just show

988
00:49:22,920 --> 00:49:25,000
Speaker 3: up as myself and talk. And I'm like, you know

989
00:49:25,040 --> 00:49:27,800
Speaker 3: what I mean, Like that's not enough to like sustain

990
00:49:27,960 --> 00:49:30,239
Speaker 3: a lifestyle, the lifestyle that I think I need to be,

991
00:49:30,360 --> 00:49:31,960
Speaker 3: Like I want to have this, so I should. I

992
00:49:32,000 --> 00:49:33,759
Speaker 3: need to go to school, and I need to have

993
00:49:33,800 --> 00:49:35,799
Speaker 3: this many clients and I need to sell this many

994
00:49:35,800 --> 00:49:37,960
Speaker 3: packages and then I'm going to be successful, you know

995
00:49:38,000 --> 00:49:40,000
Speaker 3: what I mean. It's like all the things that I'm good,

996
00:49:40,080 --> 00:49:42,360
Speaker 3: naturally good at that I didn't think really had value

997
00:49:42,920 --> 00:49:45,520
Speaker 3: are actually the things that are valuable and are bringing

998
00:49:45,560 --> 00:49:48,960
Speaker 3: me monetary value and also like spiritual value.

999
00:49:48,960 --> 00:49:50,040
Speaker 4: Because I feel like.

1000
00:49:49,960 --> 00:49:53,240
Speaker 3: I'm empowering, like there's a there's a strong cycle that's happening.

1001
00:49:53,280 --> 00:49:56,960
Speaker 3: Like I feel like I'm constantly in spaces with amazing

1002
00:49:56,960 --> 00:49:59,239
Speaker 3: women who have messages to offer me and lessons to

1003
00:49:59,280 --> 00:49:59,640
Speaker 3: offer me.

1004
00:49:59,719 --> 00:50:05,080
Speaker 4: Because it's just the it's just the the cycle of the.

1005
00:50:04,160 --> 00:50:07,759
Speaker 3: The giving and the receiving, the eCos ecosystem and like

1006
00:50:07,800 --> 00:50:10,400
Speaker 3: putting it out and being open to receiving it. And

1007
00:50:10,400 --> 00:50:13,919
Speaker 3: it's like I don't I don't know everything, but I've

1008
00:50:13,960 --> 00:50:17,840
Speaker 3: been I've shifted my idea of what like how success

1009
00:50:17,880 --> 00:50:20,719
Speaker 3: can look and really been like, oh, bitch, being a

1010
00:50:20,760 --> 00:50:23,719
Speaker 3: people person is a true skill and that's why you

1011
00:50:23,719 --> 00:50:25,960
Speaker 3: could be in Costa Rica and like, and I'm like

1012
00:50:26,000 --> 00:50:27,640
Speaker 3: when I say people person, like I want to sit

1013
00:50:27,680 --> 00:50:29,320
Speaker 3: deep and connect with you and learn about you.

1014
00:50:30,120 --> 00:50:32,239
Speaker 4: I'm like, oh wow, that's so intriguing to me.

1015
00:50:32,280 --> 00:50:34,000
Speaker 3: I had no idea that's who you were and that's

1016
00:50:34,040 --> 00:50:35,920
Speaker 3: what you were going through and it brings me so

1017
00:50:36,040 --> 00:50:38,359
Speaker 3: much like oh like that I went through that, and

1018
00:50:38,400 --> 00:50:40,200
Speaker 3: oh this is how you dealt with it, and that makes.

1019
00:50:40,040 --> 00:50:40,760
Speaker 4: So much sense.

1020
00:50:40,880 --> 00:50:43,640
Speaker 3: You know, Like this like information that I get to

1021
00:50:43,680 --> 00:50:47,600
Speaker 3: receive and give just from other women's journeys, and it's

1022
00:50:47,600 --> 00:50:50,640
Speaker 3: so valuable. And I didn't realize how valuable it was

1023
00:50:50,800 --> 00:50:53,120
Speaker 3: until I got into this space and like kind of

1024
00:50:53,239 --> 00:50:56,600
Speaker 3: blindly followed this, like it's just it's.

1025
00:50:56,600 --> 00:50:57,480
Speaker 4: Like this hobby.

1026
00:50:58,000 --> 00:51:00,239
Speaker 3: But it's like, you know, it's like we underest me

1027
00:51:00,520 --> 00:51:03,239
Speaker 3: that are natural gifts and abilities because we're so.

1028
00:51:05,960 --> 00:51:08,399
Speaker 4: Yeah, programmed to think that it.

1029
00:51:08,320 --> 00:51:09,960
Speaker 3: Has to come with a degree and we have to

1030
00:51:10,000 --> 00:51:11,920
Speaker 3: go to law school and you know what I mean.

1031
00:51:11,960 --> 00:51:13,319
Speaker 4: And like back in the.

1032
00:51:13,360 --> 00:51:16,400
Speaker 3: Day, people are like you, this child, she will be

1033
00:51:16,440 --> 00:51:20,040
Speaker 3: the midwife, This child is gifted. This child this is

1034
00:51:20,360 --> 00:51:22,239
Speaker 3: you don't mean like as a child, like oh, she's

1035
00:51:22,239 --> 00:51:23,520
Speaker 3: the artist or whatever.

1036
00:51:23,280 --> 00:51:24,640
Speaker 1: The athlete, the doctor.

1037
00:51:24,800 --> 00:51:26,880
Speaker 4: And you're not like contained, you can have more than

1038
00:51:26,920 --> 00:51:27,759
Speaker 4: one talent.

1039
00:51:27,920 --> 00:51:30,040
Speaker 3: Yes, you know, and it's like no, actually, I do

1040
00:51:30,080 --> 00:51:31,960
Speaker 3: do this and this and this and this, and you know,

1041
00:51:32,080 --> 00:51:33,239
Speaker 3: and I'm good at it.

1042
00:51:34,719 --> 00:51:38,120
Speaker 1: That's the that's the that's the thing. I'm actually good

1043
00:51:38,160 --> 00:51:41,960
Speaker 1: at it. I'm good at what I do. You know.

1044
00:51:42,400 --> 00:51:45,279
Speaker 1: That's the undeniable piece and feeling.

1045
00:51:45,000 --> 00:51:46,800
Speaker 4: Worthy, feeling like, yeah, I am good at it.

1046
00:51:46,840 --> 00:51:47,560
Speaker 2: And I don't have to.

1047
00:51:47,520 --> 00:51:49,759
Speaker 3: Have a fucking law of fucking piece of paper from

1048
00:51:49,760 --> 00:51:51,480
Speaker 3: Harvard that said I'm good at it. Bitch, I'm telling you,

1049
00:51:51,560 --> 00:51:53,279
Speaker 3: and I've seen the results because my friends told me.

1050
00:51:53,360 --> 00:51:57,400
Speaker 2: But I feel that your work is an affirmation, So

1051
00:51:58,200 --> 00:52:02,120
Speaker 2: you're constantly affirming what you do in your work. So

1052
00:52:02,320 --> 00:52:05,640
Speaker 2: like that's also like what a blessing for that to

1053
00:52:05,719 --> 00:52:09,640
Speaker 2: be the work, you know, and it's extraordinary.

1054
00:52:10,320 --> 00:52:16,600
Speaker 1: I'm in awe that this has happened. Yeah, I'm in awe.

1055
00:52:16,680 --> 00:52:17,640
Speaker 1: I didn't mean to cut you.

1056
00:52:17,680 --> 00:52:19,680
Speaker 2: No, I didn't have anything I would to say. I

1057
00:52:19,719 --> 00:52:22,759
Speaker 2: was just thinking like wow. Imagine I think for us

1058
00:52:22,800 --> 00:52:24,680
Speaker 2: like we think like wow. My work is really just

1059
00:52:24,760 --> 00:52:28,000
Speaker 2: really analyzing everything that I've done in my past that

1060
00:52:28,040 --> 00:52:31,280
Speaker 2: has gotten to me, that's gotten me here and and again,

1061
00:52:31,360 --> 00:52:33,960
Speaker 2: like connecting with other women and talking about what they've done.

1062
00:52:34,239 --> 00:52:38,440
Speaker 2: Your work is literally like affirming yourself all the time,

1063
00:52:38,800 --> 00:52:41,600
Speaker 2: walking in whatever the choices are that you've made, and

1064
00:52:41,920 --> 00:52:45,680
Speaker 2: affirming yourself again, even after you fuck up, affirming yourself

1065
00:52:45,719 --> 00:52:48,880
Speaker 2: that's okay, they're gonna make a better choice and that.

1066
00:52:48,960 --> 00:52:50,080
Speaker 2: But that is also your job.

1067
00:52:50,440 --> 00:52:54,759
Speaker 1: Yeah, And it's incredible because it's legit medicine because it

1068
00:52:54,960 --> 00:52:57,920
Speaker 1: has one of the most potent medicines in the universe,

1069
00:52:57,960 --> 00:53:01,960
Speaker 1: which is sound, which is music. Music has a medicinal legacy.

1070
00:53:02,280 --> 00:53:07,000
Speaker 1: It eventually became known just as entertainment. But music really

1071
00:53:07,040 --> 00:53:12,880
Speaker 1: goes into the psyche, into the places maybe your therapy

1072
00:53:12,960 --> 00:53:14,080
Speaker 1: sessions can get into.

1073
00:53:14,040 --> 00:53:18,439
Speaker 2: That basic language that we've been limited to cannot We've

1074
00:53:18,440 --> 00:53:20,600
Speaker 2: been given this language as it means to be able

1075
00:53:20,640 --> 00:53:23,919
Speaker 2: to communicate, which is it's very important, right, But there's

1076
00:53:23,920 --> 00:53:27,960
Speaker 2: something other like otherworldly and spiritual about sound and the

1077
00:53:28,040 --> 00:53:31,000
Speaker 2: creation that that takes place with sound.

1078
00:53:31,239 --> 00:53:36,000
Speaker 1: It's amazing. It's amazing that the testimonies of what this

1079
00:53:36,160 --> 00:53:41,040
Speaker 1: music has done to people is so extraordinarily overwhelming to

1080
00:53:41,120 --> 00:53:44,600
Speaker 1: me because it's my self talk and I'm sharing it

1081
00:53:44,640 --> 00:53:47,719
Speaker 1: with other people. But I also think it's just it's

1082
00:53:47,800 --> 00:53:51,000
Speaker 1: just having an open heart whatever you do, whatever you do,

1083
00:53:51,120 --> 00:53:54,319
Speaker 1: I don't care if it's like you just write. Just

1084
00:53:54,520 --> 00:53:57,560
Speaker 1: having an open heart component to whatever you create makes

1085
00:53:57,600 --> 00:54:00,680
Speaker 1: it more potent to actually touch the hearts and minds

1086
00:54:00,680 --> 00:54:04,319
Speaker 1: of people. Because people fucking hurting.

1087
00:54:04,040 --> 00:54:07,080
Speaker 2: Right now, and a lot, like a lot.

1088
00:54:07,680 --> 00:54:10,479
Speaker 1: I've been in spaces with people I haven't seen in years,

1089
00:54:10,480 --> 00:54:16,640
Speaker 1: and it's been around them whatever, and the obvious bleeding

1090
00:54:16,680 --> 00:54:20,360
Speaker 1: out that's happening, the anxiety, the mental like it's so

1091
00:54:20,560 --> 00:54:24,000
Speaker 1: obvious is like, oh my gosh, and I'm supposed to

1092
00:54:24,040 --> 00:54:25,160
Speaker 1: act like nothing's wrong.

1093
00:54:25,560 --> 00:54:26,719
Speaker 4: I can hear you screaming.

1094
00:54:27,280 --> 00:54:30,480
Speaker 3: I can hear you screaming, but you know, and we're

1095
00:54:30,640 --> 00:54:36,759
Speaker 3: like really really blessed to I don't be walking in

1096
00:54:36,840 --> 00:54:43,080
Speaker 3: spaces that we're like are questioning and our wellness and

1097
00:54:43,320 --> 00:54:45,520
Speaker 3: the love is always at the forefront, you know what

1098
00:54:45,600 --> 00:54:45,879
Speaker 3: I mean.

1099
00:54:45,920 --> 00:54:47,840
Speaker 4: Like we're not like lawyers like scheaming, you know what

1100
00:54:47,840 --> 00:54:48,120
Speaker 4: I mean.

1101
00:54:48,120 --> 00:54:50,799
Speaker 3: Like sometimes when you're in like a psychle job where

1102
00:54:50,840 --> 00:54:53,920
Speaker 3: it's not really like heart centered, you're not really aware

1103
00:54:54,000 --> 00:54:56,240
Speaker 3: that you're that you're bleeding out, that you're not speaking,

1104
00:54:56,320 --> 00:54:58,320
Speaker 3: that you're not telling your emotions, that you're not tapping

1105
00:54:58,320 --> 00:54:59,160
Speaker 3: into pleasure.

1106
00:54:58,880 --> 00:55:01,359
Speaker 4: Because you don't get to talk about it all fucking day, all.

1107
00:55:01,280 --> 00:55:03,960
Speaker 3: Day, were thinking about like my inner child, like I

1108
00:55:04,000 --> 00:55:07,640
Speaker 3: was triggered my trauma. If we could count the amount

1109
00:55:07,640 --> 00:55:10,839
Speaker 3: of times say triggered trauma and healing and fucking a week,

1110
00:55:10,920 --> 00:55:13,000
Speaker 3: it's crazy.

1111
00:55:13,680 --> 00:55:16,880
Speaker 4: Shadow. We got the language now, right, but these are

1112
00:55:16,920 --> 00:55:19,520
Speaker 4: words that like maybe our mom my mom didn't like

1113
00:55:19,560 --> 00:55:22,480
Speaker 4: I'm having conversations with my mom right now and I'm like, whoa,

1114
00:55:23,239 --> 00:55:26,000
Speaker 4: you know that word. She's like, yeah, my vibration is

1115
00:55:26,080 --> 00:55:28,200
Speaker 4: high right now. I'm vibrating very high.

1116
00:55:28,360 --> 00:55:31,000
Speaker 2: I was like, okay, well, I just also see and

1117
00:55:31,040 --> 00:55:33,839
Speaker 2: I don't know, maybe Tony, you can attest to this too.

1118
00:55:33,880 --> 00:55:36,160
Speaker 2: It's like, once you start really doing the work and

1119
00:55:37,400 --> 00:55:39,880
Speaker 2: allowing the affirmations to do what they're supposed to do.

1120
00:55:40,640 --> 00:55:44,040
Speaker 2: You ultimately even start healing people that you didn't even

1121
00:55:44,080 --> 00:55:48,359
Speaker 2: expect to heal, like your parents, in ways, like your elders,

1122
00:55:48,600 --> 00:55:52,560
Speaker 2: I didn't have the blessing of this, this this magic

1123
00:55:52,560 --> 00:55:55,799
Speaker 2: that you make, or even just the communities and the

1124
00:55:55,800 --> 00:55:58,920
Speaker 2: circles that are being created now, Like granted, circles have

1125
00:55:59,000 --> 00:56:01,600
Speaker 2: been around with this is not the invention of so

1126
00:56:01,760 --> 00:56:06,120
Speaker 2: sister circles, but there's been a huge break and decline

1127
00:56:06,160 --> 00:56:08,680
Speaker 2: in it, and there is a resurrection happening and awakening.

1128
00:56:09,280 --> 00:56:13,200
Speaker 2: And I just even know, like even with my relationship

1129
00:56:13,200 --> 00:56:17,760
Speaker 2: with my own mom, her coming to me for advice

1130
00:56:17,800 --> 00:56:19,799
Speaker 2: and ways without coming to me for advice, But this

1131
00:56:19,840 --> 00:56:23,880
Speaker 2: is a different conversation, and I'm like, Okay. The other

1132
00:56:24,000 --> 00:56:26,839
Speaker 2: day she said to me, she said, honey, you're so God,

1133
00:56:26,880 --> 00:56:29,600
Speaker 2: You're so smart. And we were talking about relationships. It

1134
00:56:29,640 --> 00:56:32,160
Speaker 2: wasn't about work, it wasn't about business. It was about

1135
00:56:32,200 --> 00:56:36,319
Speaker 2: like her, her choices versus the choices that I'm making

1136
00:56:36,320 --> 00:56:40,000
Speaker 2: for myself right now, and how she sees that there

1137
00:56:40,160 --> 00:56:42,400
Speaker 2: is I'm making a different choice in ways that she

1138
00:56:42,480 --> 00:56:44,680
Speaker 2: wishes that she would have made or that she wants

1139
00:56:44,719 --> 00:56:50,080
Speaker 2: to make. Now, you know, and that's that's such a

1140
00:56:50,320 --> 00:56:53,399
Speaker 2: you're the contrast, such an interesting place to be when

1141
00:56:53,560 --> 00:56:56,080
Speaker 2: I don't know, like I haven't, I haven't always felt

1142
00:56:56,080 --> 00:56:58,080
Speaker 2: like the like I've been given the space to be

1143
00:57:00,000 --> 00:57:01,319
Speaker 2: I don't want to be. Yeah, I guess like the

1144
00:57:01,360 --> 00:57:04,960
Speaker 2: teacher and that kind of dynamic and not to say

1145
00:57:05,080 --> 00:57:11,040
Speaker 2: like I'm like now I'm Buddha and my mom.

1146
00:57:10,320 --> 00:57:12,360
Speaker 4: But you are you are.

1147
00:57:12,440 --> 00:57:16,880
Speaker 2: There are aspects that I'm like, huh oh. My freedom

1148
00:57:17,280 --> 00:57:19,160
Speaker 2: was like I feel like a bit triggering for her

1149
00:57:19,200 --> 00:57:22,320
Speaker 2: at first, and then it's yes that we have and

1150
00:57:22,320 --> 00:57:25,200
Speaker 2: and now she's really seeing like the fruits.

1151
00:57:26,080 --> 00:57:28,200
Speaker 1: The fruits see that when you get into that place

1152
00:57:28,240 --> 00:57:31,960
Speaker 1: of overflow, anybody connected to you, they have no choice

1153
00:57:32,000 --> 00:57:35,160
Speaker 1: at this point because you're connected to them. They're close

1154
00:57:35,240 --> 00:57:38,720
Speaker 1: to you, so they're there. You're basically like them that

1155
00:57:38,760 --> 00:57:42,600
Speaker 1: she's rug each other. Yes, you're signaling, so you're signaling

1156
00:57:42,760 --> 00:57:46,919
Speaker 1: to her killing because you're in your overflow. Now you're

1157
00:57:46,960 --> 00:57:50,840
Speaker 1: not trying to heal her from a place of I

1158
00:57:50,880 --> 00:57:53,200
Speaker 1: have to save you. I have to do these things

1159
00:57:53,240 --> 00:57:55,720
Speaker 1: for you. I know you're you're coming from a place

1160
00:57:55,760 --> 00:57:58,360
Speaker 1: of abundance because now you're you're bloomy, you know what

1161
00:57:58,360 --> 00:58:00,840
Speaker 1: I'm saying. The tree is bloomy and it's bearing fruit,

1162
00:58:00,960 --> 00:58:04,840
Speaker 1: and now they see and like whoa, you know, and

1163
00:58:04,960 --> 00:58:08,920
Speaker 1: now you're causing thought, You're causing questions, you know. And

1164
00:58:08,960 --> 00:58:12,200
Speaker 1: that's that's where the awakening just starts to happen. And

1165
00:58:12,240 --> 00:58:15,480
Speaker 1: the beautiful part is she doesn't have to watch on

1166
00:58:15,600 --> 00:58:18,680
Speaker 1: TV and find somebody to inspire her. She could look

1167
00:58:18,720 --> 00:58:20,960
Speaker 1: at her daughter. So it resonates in the brain a

1168
00:58:21,000 --> 00:58:24,280
Speaker 1: lot more because it's close to home, you know, it's

1169
00:58:24,320 --> 00:58:26,560
Speaker 1: more believable because I'm like, I'm seeing her do it,

1170
00:58:26,640 --> 00:58:31,480
Speaker 1: Like what if I could too? That's my daughter, you know, And.

1171
00:58:31,440 --> 00:58:34,320
Speaker 2: I feel blessed to have a mother that's open to that,

1172
00:58:34,600 --> 00:58:38,040
Speaker 2: you know, open to those feelings to come through, you know.

1173
00:58:38,720 --> 00:58:40,520
Speaker 2: And I hope that I can be that mother to

1174
00:58:40,560 --> 00:58:42,560
Speaker 2: my daughter. And I hope that that's the that's the

1175
00:58:42,640 --> 00:58:46,240
Speaker 2: standard and how mothers and daughters relate to one another

1176
00:58:46,480 --> 00:58:49,480
Speaker 2: as we continue, because I think that, like there's so

1177
00:58:49,640 --> 00:58:53,840
Speaker 2: many like lessons to be learned amongst elders and you know,

1178
00:58:54,640 --> 00:58:59,000
Speaker 2: and and and every and everybody else, not everybody else,

1179
00:58:59,000 --> 00:59:01,600
Speaker 2: but you know, yeah, get the village or like what's

1180
00:59:01,640 --> 00:59:02,640
Speaker 2: the opposite of elders.

1181
00:59:03,400 --> 00:59:05,880
Speaker 1: Do you do you do you do? You have the

1182
00:59:05,960 --> 00:59:13,920
Speaker 1: children the youngest future. Yeah, yeah, it's this is what

1183
00:59:14,000 --> 00:59:16,920
Speaker 1: I believe. I believe the next five years things are

1184
00:59:17,000 --> 00:59:20,360
Speaker 1: gonna be so good it's gonna blow our minds. I

1185
00:59:20,400 --> 00:59:23,440
Speaker 1: can't speak. I really try not to speak for the

1186
00:59:23,480 --> 00:59:26,720
Speaker 1: world as long I'm a prophet. I have a message,

1187
00:59:27,320 --> 00:59:31,480
Speaker 1: but I feel in my womb, I know in a place.

1188
00:59:31,560 --> 00:59:34,840
Speaker 1: I don't know how I know, but I know good

1189
00:59:35,440 --> 00:59:40,240
Speaker 1: is more good here. I agree it's too many bitches healing.

1190
00:59:40,920 --> 00:59:45,320
Speaker 4: There's too many, so many many house.

1191
00:59:45,080 --> 00:59:51,080
Speaker 3: Healing, like like it's happening.

1192
00:59:51,160 --> 00:59:53,520
Speaker 4: I feel that. I was, like, I don't know, like

1193
00:59:53,760 --> 00:59:56,400
Speaker 4: the fucked up. It is fucked up the world.

1194
00:59:57,120 --> 01:00:00,600
Speaker 2: The world is a womb, and we are the majority.

1195
01:00:00,720 --> 01:00:04,560
Speaker 4: We're remembering who the fuck we are and that ship

1196
01:00:04,640 --> 01:00:08,080
Speaker 4: right there. No nothing can penetrate that.

1197
01:00:08,960 --> 01:00:12,000
Speaker 3: Nothing can penetrate that, because like the universe in which

1198
01:00:12,040 --> 01:00:14,760
Speaker 3: we birth is on our side. And if you go

1199
01:00:14,840 --> 01:00:17,360
Speaker 3: against us, and you go against this movement, it's not

1200
01:00:17,400 --> 01:00:19,800
Speaker 3: the universe is not gonna conspire in your face.

1201
01:00:19,840 --> 01:00:21,280
Speaker 1: You won't see any abundance.

1202
01:00:21,360 --> 01:00:25,400
Speaker 4: We've seen it. We've seen we've seen how the people

1203
01:00:25,440 --> 01:00:28,600
Speaker 4: against the against the cause we're out of here.

1204
01:00:28,880 --> 01:00:31,720
Speaker 2: It's like what we need, we need, we do need

1205
01:00:32,120 --> 01:00:35,080
Speaker 2: the masculine period. You know. We were talking to Supernova

1206
01:00:35,200 --> 01:00:35,600
Speaker 2: about this.

1207
01:00:35,920 --> 01:00:39,080
Speaker 1: That's the homie. That's the homie.

1208
01:00:40,000 --> 01:00:43,800
Speaker 2: Yes, Yeah, And we were talking about this dynamic and

1209
01:00:43,840 --> 01:00:46,400
Speaker 2: the masculine and the feminine and just like how we

1210
01:00:46,440 --> 01:00:48,760
Speaker 2: can support one another and how we how much we

1211
01:00:48,840 --> 01:00:51,880
Speaker 2: need each other's support, and how women how women need

1212
01:00:51,880 --> 01:00:54,800
Speaker 2: to support the man's rebranding, and how men need to

1213
01:00:54,800 --> 01:00:58,680
Speaker 2: stop calling pussy's weak and just like just the coming

1214
01:00:58,720 --> 01:01:02,640
Speaker 2: together of of it and understanding though, like the power

1215
01:01:02,960 --> 01:01:05,080
Speaker 2: and respecting the power of the woman. And I think

1216
01:01:05,120 --> 01:01:07,080
Speaker 2: there's been such a disconnect because there is an awakening

1217
01:01:07,200 --> 01:01:10,080
Speaker 2: of women that there's also like a hate campaign against men.

1218
01:01:10,600 --> 01:01:12,600
Speaker 2: And don't get me, don't get it wrong, I've been

1219
01:01:12,600 --> 01:01:15,800
Speaker 2: on the bandwagon at some one point or another, you know,

1220
01:01:15,880 --> 01:01:21,080
Speaker 2: but ultimately that that that that doesn't do anything to

1221
01:01:21,120 --> 01:01:23,880
Speaker 2: really help the collective. But I do believe, and he

1222
01:01:23,920 --> 01:01:26,080
Speaker 2: even said himself, like we are in a state of

1223
01:01:26,120 --> 01:01:30,880
Speaker 2: emergency for men. It is like we have like we need,

1224
01:01:30,880 --> 01:01:34,120
Speaker 2: we need this because they're gonna start dropping, especially because

1225
01:01:34,160 --> 01:01:38,000
Speaker 2: there are more women. Yeah, you know, like absolutely, you know,

1226
01:01:38,160 --> 01:01:40,880
Speaker 2: and and not and not because but we don't want

1227
01:01:40,880 --> 01:01:42,600
Speaker 2: to be out on the world just women. I don't

1228
01:01:42,640 --> 01:01:45,000
Speaker 2: want to be on it is.

1229
01:01:44,960 --> 01:01:46,560
Speaker 1: Important, it's important.

1230
01:01:47,640 --> 01:01:51,320
Speaker 3: I feel like the world super super it will be

1231
01:01:51,560 --> 01:01:52,280
Speaker 3: if it's just women.

1232
01:01:52,800 --> 01:01:56,280
Speaker 1: Here's here's this is, this is my this is my perspective.

1233
01:01:56,360 --> 01:02:02,400
Speaker 1: When there has been an extraordinary imbalance, extraordinary, So anytime

1234
01:02:02,440 --> 01:02:06,200
Speaker 1: there's been in balance, if there's extraordinary inflammation area, what

1235
01:02:06,280 --> 01:02:10,400
Speaker 1: you do is you start to do drastic changes and

1236
01:02:10,520 --> 01:02:14,920
Speaker 1: shifts and habits to bring it back to a you know,

1237
01:02:15,040 --> 01:02:19,680
Speaker 1: equilibrium state. So I feel like, yeah, there are some

1238
01:02:19,760 --> 01:02:25,000
Speaker 1: hate campaigns going on there, but a lot of people

1239
01:02:25,040 --> 01:02:31,600
Speaker 1: have interpreted high aggressive, glorious bad bitch talk as though

1240
01:02:32,280 --> 01:02:35,000
Speaker 1: we're going against men, and that's not the case. It's like, no,

1241
01:02:35,120 --> 01:02:38,480
Speaker 1: we have to talk big dick energy. We have been

1242
01:02:38,520 --> 01:02:41,640
Speaker 1: in such a low state in our power and thrones

1243
01:02:42,080 --> 01:02:45,280
Speaker 1: that we have to say I am a goddess, I

1244
01:02:45,440 --> 01:02:49,440
Speaker 1: deserve this, I require this, this is It's not about

1245
01:02:49,600 --> 01:02:51,360
Speaker 1: we're trying to get you to come to us or

1246
01:02:51,360 --> 01:02:55,000
Speaker 1: we're trying to manifest y'all. No, we're building ourselves up

1247
01:02:55,280 --> 01:02:58,720
Speaker 1: for being part of a society that has oppressed us

1248
01:02:58,520 --> 01:03:01,960
Speaker 1: on a global level for so long and have robbed

1249
01:03:02,040 --> 01:03:05,400
Speaker 1: us of our divine identity, our connection to the great

1250
01:03:05,480 --> 01:03:07,960
Speaker 1: mother that runs this whole thing.

1251
01:03:08,480 --> 01:03:08,720
Speaker 2: You know.

1252
01:03:08,880 --> 01:03:11,080
Speaker 1: Like my one of my closest friends said, if I

1253
01:03:11,120 --> 01:03:14,400
Speaker 1: was she said, if I was an evil genius that

1254
01:03:14,560 --> 01:03:17,680
Speaker 1: wanted to destroy the whole entire world, the one thing

1255
01:03:17,720 --> 01:03:19,680
Speaker 1: I will do is just make the women feel like

1256
01:03:19,720 --> 01:03:22,800
Speaker 1: they're less sand make them feel like they have to

1257
01:03:22,840 --> 01:03:25,560
Speaker 1: be the last one on the list by the boom,

1258
01:03:25,560 --> 01:03:30,680
Speaker 1: by the bank, recipe completed, cooked, baked. We ate it's over,

1259
01:03:31,280 --> 01:03:34,000
Speaker 1: you know, and we're living in that time. But now

1260
01:03:34,120 --> 01:03:38,640
Speaker 1: women are as you say, the resurrection. We haven't risen.

1261
01:03:37,960 --> 01:03:40,800
Speaker 4: We have risen and we're learning.

1262
01:03:42,840 --> 01:03:45,080
Speaker 2: I just had just heard rail Rapture. I just had

1263
01:03:45,080 --> 01:03:45,240
Speaker 2: the like.

1264
01:03:50,120 --> 01:03:52,280
Speaker 1: But why do I why do I see y'all being

1265
01:03:52,320 --> 01:03:52,840
Speaker 1: lifted up?

1266
01:03:58,840 --> 01:04:02,480
Speaker 2: Cue the Lime King of emoji right now here? Uh?

1267
01:04:02,560 --> 01:04:04,360
Speaker 2: You know, it's that's for sure true, I don't.

1268
01:04:04,440 --> 01:04:07,800
Speaker 1: I just feel like people think that we're hating, and

1269
01:04:08,000 --> 01:04:10,240
Speaker 1: it's like, no, it's just not about y'all. Right Now,

1270
01:04:11,080 --> 01:04:14,520
Speaker 1: I'm what I'm doing with men and also book, I'm like,

1271
01:04:14,560 --> 01:04:18,200
Speaker 1: I'm pointing them the supernova. I'm pointing them to sacred sons,

1272
01:04:18,200 --> 01:04:20,640
Speaker 1: because I'm like, I've labored for you long enough.

1273
01:04:20,760 --> 01:04:21,600
Speaker 4: I can't labor for us.

1274
01:04:21,920 --> 01:04:26,400
Speaker 1: I can't. I can't be the rehabilitation center for your awakening.

1275
01:04:26,520 --> 01:04:26,680
Speaker 2: Like.

1276
01:04:28,520 --> 01:04:31,560
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, and you and I feel like men deserve her.

1277
01:04:36,680 --> 01:04:41,160
Speaker 2: Energy, the rehabilitation center of your healing, Like I can't

1278
01:04:41,200 --> 01:04:42,440
Speaker 2: be that for you anymore.

1279
01:04:42,600 --> 01:04:46,880
Speaker 1: Like we got Google dot com. We got resources, like

1280
01:04:46,960 --> 01:04:49,400
Speaker 1: whatever issue you got, you can google it.

1281
01:04:49,360 --> 01:04:52,120
Speaker 2: To like see yourself. You have to admit you have

1282
01:04:52,160 --> 01:04:54,880
Speaker 2: an issue. You have to want to seek, you have

1283
01:04:54,960 --> 01:04:57,400
Speaker 2: to want to And that's why I think men need

1284
01:04:57,440 --> 01:05:01,080
Speaker 2: other men. You know they have they have at this point.

1285
01:05:01,160 --> 01:05:03,120
Speaker 2: And that's what we talked about too. Women, we cannot

1286
01:05:03,120 --> 01:05:03,640
Speaker 2: heal the men.

1287
01:05:03,680 --> 01:05:07,360
Speaker 4: You can't as promises that all they needed us and

1288
01:05:07,400 --> 01:05:10,200
Speaker 4: we've allowed that, and you can't. You can't like go

1289
01:05:10,280 --> 01:05:15,720
Speaker 4: for it. We can support we're going, but you can't

1290
01:05:15,760 --> 01:05:17,680
Speaker 4: go to the place that you like, just like you

1291
01:05:17,720 --> 01:05:19,400
Speaker 4: can't heal us, you can't.

1292
01:05:19,880 --> 01:05:22,080
Speaker 1: The men deserve us to be in it for this

1293
01:05:22,120 --> 01:05:24,200
Speaker 1: to be our posture. They deserve us to be in

1294
01:05:24,240 --> 01:05:25,320
Speaker 1: this position to say.

1295
01:05:25,160 --> 01:05:27,520
Speaker 2: It's gonna benefit that I love you so much, I.

1296
01:05:27,480 --> 01:05:30,320
Speaker 1: Have to let you go to yourself and be with

1297
01:05:30,400 --> 01:05:32,840
Speaker 1: yourself so you can get a real opportunity to see

1298
01:05:32,880 --> 01:05:35,240
Speaker 1: you because you're not receiving the reflection that I am.

1299
01:05:35,840 --> 01:05:37,960
Speaker 3: Well, this is the time like as a structure is

1300
01:05:38,360 --> 01:05:41,680
Speaker 3: as a structure is like collapsing because it is, Yes,

1301
01:05:42,520 --> 01:05:44,400
Speaker 3: it's deeply uncomfortable for that it is.

1302
01:05:44,400 --> 01:05:46,080
Speaker 4: It's deeply uncomfortable for some women.

1303
01:05:46,240 --> 01:05:48,720
Speaker 3: You see the girls on the internet talking shit like you,

1304
01:05:49,000 --> 01:05:52,080
Speaker 3: this is about you don't have a man exactly, you know,

1305
01:05:52,120 --> 01:05:53,760
Speaker 3: because we're also we're all.

1306
01:05:53,680 --> 01:05:55,200
Speaker 2: And I think about Sorry, I don't mean to interrupt you,

1307
01:05:55,200 --> 01:05:57,800
Speaker 2: but I can't help but think about the soft woman

1308
01:05:58,400 --> 01:06:02,080
Speaker 2: and how important I think there's both right, But then

1309
01:06:02,080 --> 01:06:04,600
Speaker 2: I'm like, yo, like there's also like a very strong

1310
01:06:04,640 --> 01:06:08,560
Speaker 2: campaign for very soft women, which obviously I resonate with

1311
01:06:08,600 --> 01:06:10,760
Speaker 2: this idea of being a soft woman, But I also

1312
01:06:10,920 --> 01:06:15,880
Speaker 2: like wonder, like is that also like going against also

1313
01:06:16,000 --> 01:06:18,240
Speaker 2: like not being too loud, not being too boisterous, not

1314
01:06:18,280 --> 01:06:20,680
Speaker 2: being and you are walking in your divine feminism.

1315
01:06:20,720 --> 01:06:24,520
Speaker 4: It depends how you how you like, how you perceive that,

1316
01:06:24,600 --> 01:06:26,400
Speaker 4: because I feel like it comes both ways. Because I

1317
01:06:26,400 --> 01:06:29,080
Speaker 4: think a soft woman is I am a soft sensual

1318
01:06:29,280 --> 01:06:32,240
Speaker 4: sexy I don't have to say munch, I agree.

1319
01:06:31,920 --> 01:06:35,040
Speaker 2: But I wonder if some people misconstrue that concept.

1320
01:06:35,160 --> 01:06:37,400
Speaker 1: I don't think. I don't think people really know what

1321
01:06:37,440 --> 01:06:42,360
Speaker 1: the softening process is. They don't know like everyone has

1322
01:06:42,400 --> 01:06:43,560
Speaker 1: thought this, everybody has.

1323
01:06:43,800 --> 01:06:46,400
Speaker 2: We saw that on trap yoga based episode.

1324
01:06:46,480 --> 01:06:51,360
Speaker 1: Everybody has a different perspective in every and in different definitions.

1325
01:06:51,600 --> 01:06:54,080
Speaker 1: And what I've come to found is what I've come

1326
01:06:54,120 --> 01:06:57,880
Speaker 1: to find in my journey from elders and you know

1327
01:06:58,040 --> 01:07:01,880
Speaker 1: sagers that I've met that are in the nineties. At

1328
01:07:01,880 --> 01:07:05,800
Speaker 1: the end of the day, you got to feel your pain.

1329
01:07:07,360 --> 01:07:11,240
Speaker 1: You have to see pain as an invitation. You know,

1330
01:07:11,600 --> 01:07:16,760
Speaker 1: from white supremacy and justice, from fuck boys to childhood trauma.

1331
01:07:17,200 --> 01:07:20,680
Speaker 1: You have to feel that shit because when you feel

1332
01:07:20,720 --> 01:07:25,240
Speaker 1: that pain, it softens the heart parts that have been

1333
01:07:25,280 --> 01:07:28,160
Speaker 1: hardening for so long. If you feel it, only if

1334
01:07:28,160 --> 01:07:30,160
Speaker 1: you feel it, you gotta feel it because then you

1335
01:07:30,200 --> 01:07:32,000
Speaker 1: feel you can feel the resistance, you can feel the

1336
01:07:32,040 --> 01:07:34,880
Speaker 1: stiffness and the firmness. And then when you allow yourself

1337
01:07:34,880 --> 01:07:38,280
Speaker 1: to really break and open yourself up, there's a softness

1338
01:07:38,280 --> 01:07:42,200
Speaker 1: that happens. Even a soft gaze to your past. You

1339
01:07:42,240 --> 01:07:46,640
Speaker 1: can look at and be like, oh, baby girl, glad

1340
01:07:46,680 --> 01:07:50,520
Speaker 1: we learned that lesson so grateful for him, so grateful

1341
01:07:50,560 --> 01:07:55,200
Speaker 1: for my parents imperfections and weaknesses. It gave me exactly

1342
01:07:55,280 --> 01:07:57,840
Speaker 1: the lessons that I needed to be the woman under

1343
01:07:57,880 --> 01:08:00,440
Speaker 1: that you were able to get soft with all the

1344
01:08:00,480 --> 01:08:04,200
Speaker 1: things that have made you harden. And that's what I've

1345
01:08:04,440 --> 01:08:07,120
Speaker 1: learned from Elders and that's what I've learned from my journey.

1346
01:08:07,440 --> 01:08:11,680
Speaker 1: It's not just about the aesthetics of softness. It's about

1347
01:08:11,760 --> 01:08:15,600
Speaker 1: feeling your heart again, feeling that fleshliness that you had

1348
01:08:15,640 --> 01:08:18,759
Speaker 1: as a little girl before you knew trauma, before people

1349
01:08:18,840 --> 01:08:22,040
Speaker 1: told you anything about yourself. You know what I'm saying.

1350
01:08:22,080 --> 01:08:24,840
Speaker 1: So that's how I kind of interpret it, and just

1351
01:08:24,880 --> 01:08:28,640
Speaker 1: from what I've learned, And when people who can testify

1352
01:08:29,120 --> 01:08:33,120
Speaker 1: that softening process, they can be like, bitch, yes, I'm

1353
01:08:33,120 --> 01:08:35,599
Speaker 1: in the middle of it, of it, or I've gone

1354
01:08:35,640 --> 01:08:38,479
Speaker 1: through it, or I'm on my third round, and be

1355
01:08:38,680 --> 01:08:41,520
Speaker 1: like that's it. That's where you get the magic juiciness

1356
01:08:41,840 --> 01:08:48,840
Speaker 1: because you're feeling the shit that you've kind of much

1357
01:08:50,080 --> 01:08:53,240
Speaker 1: too much. Do y'all know, do y'all Let me tell y'all,

1358
01:08:53,240 --> 01:08:56,880
Speaker 1: do y'all know that last year, after ten years, I'm

1359
01:08:56,920 --> 01:09:01,759
Speaker 1: ten years into intentional journey and healing trauma. Last year,

1360
01:09:02,120 --> 01:09:05,880
Speaker 1: I just found out that I had a mother womb.

1361
01:09:07,160 --> 01:09:09,439
Speaker 1: Like I thought it was daddy issues that I saw

1362
01:09:09,520 --> 01:09:12,519
Speaker 1: the mother room and I broke. Y'all know Cleo Song,

1363
01:09:13,040 --> 01:09:16,280
Speaker 1: I love her music. That album. Mother had me in

1364
01:09:16,520 --> 01:09:24,519
Speaker 1: a motherfucking shambos. I said, how does this woman know

1365
01:09:24,680 --> 01:09:30,240
Speaker 1: my my life? You know? And I was like, damn,

1366
01:09:30,320 --> 01:09:33,320
Speaker 1: I've been so I wrote down the men that have

1367
01:09:33,479 --> 01:09:38,280
Speaker 1: had me in like like you know, attachment, bondtchment, you know, whatever,

1368
01:09:38,280 --> 01:09:42,920
Speaker 1: if that's the word. And I started to see the parallel.

1369
01:09:43,400 --> 01:09:45,439
Speaker 1: I was like, oh my god, I've been singing my

1370
01:09:45,479 --> 01:09:48,880
Speaker 1: mother's love through men. And I don't know how long

1371
01:09:48,920 --> 01:09:52,200
Speaker 1: I'll be testifying about this, but it's so fresh to

1372
01:09:52,320 --> 01:09:56,840
Speaker 1: my consciousness. I'm like, y'all, guess what I found out?

1373
01:09:57,040 --> 01:10:00,320
Speaker 1: Like I got to the root of the bullshit behind

1374
01:10:00,360 --> 01:10:03,000
Speaker 1: my patterns of the type of men I've chosen. So

1375
01:10:03,120 --> 01:10:05,240
Speaker 1: now I'm more equipped. You feel what I'm saying.

1376
01:10:05,280 --> 01:10:07,000
Speaker 2: It's almost like I can't help but think. But now

1377
01:10:07,040 --> 01:10:08,800
Speaker 2: it's now you got to keep talking about it. I

1378
01:10:08,800 --> 01:10:11,160
Speaker 2: gotta keep to keep talking about it in order to

1379
01:10:11,200 --> 01:10:13,640
Speaker 2: heal the wound. That to heal the wound, that's the

1380
01:10:13,680 --> 01:10:15,400
Speaker 2: thing is that you don't discover the wound and then

1381
01:10:15,400 --> 01:10:18,880
Speaker 2: shut the fuck up. Yeah, Like that's where people fuck up. Yeah,

1382
01:10:19,160 --> 01:10:21,040
Speaker 2: is when you when you finally find the trigger and

1383
01:10:21,080 --> 01:10:22,800
Speaker 2: then you're like, oh no, no, no, no, don't you're not

1384
01:10:22,800 --> 01:10:24,360
Speaker 2: talking about this shit. It's like, Okay, well, it's gonna

1385
01:10:24,400 --> 01:10:25,519
Speaker 2: just live in fester there forever.

1386
01:10:25,680 --> 01:10:30,360
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm a woman on a horse in

1387
01:10:30,400 --> 01:10:32,439
Speaker 1: the middle of town, like the queen is dead.

1388
01:10:32,520 --> 01:10:35,160
Speaker 4: The queen is that, Like that's how I feel like.

1389
01:10:35,200 --> 01:10:39,080
Speaker 1: I'm like, I found that bitch. I found the roots

1390
01:10:39,560 --> 01:10:43,840
Speaker 1: that ruts there you are, come here, and then after

1391
01:10:43,960 --> 01:10:47,519
Speaker 1: it's like the rest so tusso it's like now they're there.

1392
01:10:48,200 --> 01:10:51,160
Speaker 1: I know. Now I gotta be soft with a part

1393
01:10:51,200 --> 01:10:56,280
Speaker 1: of me that has been self sabotaging, intimacy, romance, finances,

1394
01:10:56,320 --> 01:11:01,920
Speaker 1: you know, security, safetiness, worthy, you die, all of it,

1395
01:11:02,479 --> 01:11:06,080
Speaker 1: you know, And that's helped me be soft with my

1396
01:11:06,160 --> 01:11:10,920
Speaker 1: life and the complexities of being multi dimensional. The duality

1397
01:11:10,960 --> 01:11:16,840
Speaker 1: of ego demons, darkness, shadow, sexy, wretched, contradicting, you know,

1398
01:11:16,960 --> 01:11:19,800
Speaker 1: it's I'm like, yeah, I'm all of it. Yeah, just

1399
01:11:19,840 --> 01:11:20,880
Speaker 1: wild on this bitch.

1400
01:11:21,120 --> 01:11:23,400
Speaker 3: You're finding like the temple like housing it all and

1401
01:11:23,479 --> 01:11:28,000
Speaker 3: accepting it all and the pain and yeah, I feel that,

1402
01:11:28,160 --> 01:11:30,720
Speaker 3: I really really feel that, and like even I know

1403
01:11:30,760 --> 01:11:33,679
Speaker 3: I've talked about it lately a little bit like feeling

1404
01:11:33,720 --> 01:11:36,320
Speaker 3: really happy and then like still feeling like like a

1405
01:11:36,400 --> 01:11:38,479
Speaker 3: defense and I'm like yeah, and then like having to

1406
01:11:38,520 --> 01:11:42,160
Speaker 3: literally like physically disarm like yeah, like relax my jaw

1407
01:11:42,720 --> 01:11:45,200
Speaker 3: like that, like really feel myself like what like what

1408
01:11:45,240 --> 01:11:46,000
Speaker 3: are you holding on to?

1409
01:11:46,320 --> 01:11:46,759
Speaker 1: Wow?

1410
01:11:47,080 --> 01:11:48,920
Speaker 2: Like I just got chills, yeah.

1411
01:11:48,640 --> 01:11:52,320
Speaker 4: You know, like where are you what are you defending?

1412
01:11:52,479 --> 01:11:53,320
Speaker 4: Or what is hurting?

1413
01:11:53,439 --> 01:11:55,720
Speaker 3: Like what is it that you're like for no read

1414
01:11:55,840 --> 01:11:58,479
Speaker 3: like yeah, that's your first like your first response, you know,

1415
01:11:58,920 --> 01:12:01,200
Speaker 3: like think like negative, you know, or like the one

1416
01:12:01,280 --> 01:12:02,240
Speaker 3: really is like you're safe.

1417
01:12:02,640 --> 01:12:04,599
Speaker 4: Even my boyfriend will be like you're good. We're good,

1418
01:12:04,760 --> 01:12:05,559
Speaker 4: Like you're safe.

1419
01:12:05,680 --> 01:12:07,479
Speaker 3: You don't have to think about like you're not alone anymore.

1420
01:12:07,520 --> 01:12:09,280
Speaker 3: And I have to like in my body, I feel

1421
01:12:09,280 --> 01:12:09,960
Speaker 3: my body like.

1422
01:12:14,520 --> 01:12:16,479
Speaker 1: I am embodied. I'm just.

1423
01:12:19,600 --> 01:12:23,960
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's crazy, it's crazy, like why is this take

1424
01:12:24,040 --> 01:12:24,719
Speaker 4: so much work?

1425
01:12:25,000 --> 01:12:28,479
Speaker 1: And I love that it's not I'm not the Holy one, And.

1426
01:12:28,400 --> 01:12:31,080
Speaker 3: I'm even like continuously thinking and it's like with ego,

1427
01:12:31,280 --> 01:12:34,320
Speaker 3: with defense, with trust, like like you know in our

1428
01:12:34,360 --> 01:12:37,120
Speaker 3: Tanter practice where it's like there's a meditation and it's

1429
01:12:37,200 --> 01:12:43,960
Speaker 3: like positive positive thought, positive positive words, no positive thought,

1430
01:12:43,960 --> 01:12:47,000
Speaker 3: positive words, positive action, and it's simple, right, But it's

1431
01:12:47,080 --> 01:12:49,479
Speaker 3: like that's a whole cycle that has like that we're

1432
01:12:49,479 --> 01:12:51,960
Speaker 3: breathing out back into the universe. But I'm like, am

1433
01:12:52,200 --> 01:12:54,680
Speaker 3: I constantly thinking positively?

1434
01:12:54,800 --> 01:12:55,639
Speaker 4: Or am I thinking?

1435
01:12:56,080 --> 01:12:56,280
Speaker 1: You know?

1436
01:12:56,360 --> 01:12:59,200
Speaker 3: It's like the change the shift of like like your

1437
01:12:59,280 --> 01:13:03,680
Speaker 3: mind and like I don't know, It's like it's like

1438
01:13:03,720 --> 01:13:07,519
Speaker 3: a circuitry. Yeah, it's a circuitry. Am I nourish in

1439
01:13:07,560 --> 01:13:11,360
Speaker 3: the frequency that I have done the work to arrive

1440
01:13:11,520 --> 01:13:15,280
Speaker 3: to to embody what I've been studying and learning and

1441
01:13:15,360 --> 01:13:18,920
Speaker 3: practicing and guessing it? Like is it coming home? Is

1442
01:13:18,960 --> 01:13:22,720
Speaker 3: it translating? I'm safe to believe that I've said to

1443
01:13:22,760 --> 01:13:24,800
Speaker 3: believe it? But am I safe to live in it?

1444
01:13:24,920 --> 01:13:27,320
Speaker 3: Am I living to act in it? Am I safe

1445
01:13:27,320 --> 01:13:29,240
Speaker 3: to exist in it? Without thinking about it?

1446
01:13:29,680 --> 01:13:29,920
Speaker 2: You know?

1447
01:13:30,080 --> 01:13:34,400
Speaker 3: It's like like the belief is one thing, the embodiment

1448
01:13:34,520 --> 01:13:38,360
Speaker 3: is something else, and that requires you can know, like

1449
01:13:38,439 --> 01:13:39,960
Speaker 3: I can know that that is bad for me, and

1450
01:13:40,000 --> 01:13:42,280
Speaker 3: I might still do it, but it's like I can

1451
01:13:42,280 --> 01:13:44,479
Speaker 3: know that's good for me? But like and then for me,

1452
01:13:44,560 --> 01:13:47,200
Speaker 3: it's like what is that self sabotage is? What is

1453
01:13:47,880 --> 01:13:51,080
Speaker 3: what is the obstacle that's keeping you from like implementing

1454
01:13:51,320 --> 01:13:51,720
Speaker 3: what you.

1455
01:13:51,800 --> 01:13:52,800
Speaker 4: Know to be true?

1456
01:13:52,960 --> 01:13:55,439
Speaker 2: I remember, well, I think it's disciplined. Yeah, And I

1457
01:13:55,479 --> 01:13:57,960
Speaker 2: think about like affirmations and the discipline that they really

1458
01:13:58,000 --> 01:14:00,880
Speaker 2: take to actually work, like do it still, yeah, Like

1459
01:14:00,920 --> 01:14:02,680
Speaker 2: you can't just do it one time and bitch your

1460
01:14:02,720 --> 01:14:05,640
Speaker 2: new bitch like, no, girl, like you really have to

1461
01:14:05,640 --> 01:14:09,160
Speaker 2: commit to to the to the work in any in

1462
01:14:09,200 --> 01:14:11,880
Speaker 2: any space, in any healing space and any and anything

1463
01:14:11,880 --> 01:14:15,920
Speaker 2: that you do, you know, And I think like that's

1464
01:14:16,080 --> 01:14:19,200
Speaker 2: where the work gets challenging.

1465
01:14:19,600 --> 01:14:20,000
Speaker 1: Mm hmm.

1466
01:14:20,479 --> 01:14:21,400
Speaker 4: The work gets fun.

1467
01:14:22,000 --> 01:14:23,880
Speaker 2: It gets fun, gets challenged.

1468
01:14:23,560 --> 01:14:25,759
Speaker 4: Because it can't be frustrating if you're like.

1469
01:14:25,960 --> 01:14:28,080
Speaker 2: You know, it's kind of like it's like meditating. It's

1470
01:14:28,120 --> 01:14:34,200
Speaker 2: like the first maybe hundred times you're like this is

1471
01:14:35,240 --> 01:14:37,760
Speaker 2: oh God, Like you're anxious. You're like, oh i'll try later.

1472
01:14:38,200 --> 01:14:40,600
Speaker 2: That didn't do ship, that didn't work, or like I

1473
01:14:40,640 --> 01:14:42,400
Speaker 2: can't do this. I'm not good at this. Maybe I

1474
01:14:42,479 --> 01:14:46,120
Speaker 2: just can't do this. Maybe this isn't my thing, you know,

1475
01:14:46,280 --> 01:14:48,280
Speaker 2: maybe I made it all up, Like bitch, no, I

1476
01:14:48,280 --> 01:14:51,760
Speaker 2: think it's everyone's things for your brain to chill out,

1477
01:14:51,840 --> 01:14:53,880
Speaker 2: like it's everyone's thing for your brain to chill out

1478
01:14:53,920 --> 01:14:58,840
Speaker 2: like you know. So it's it's a practice. It is,

1479
01:14:58,920 --> 01:15:01,360
Speaker 2: it's a practice. And so I'm just I'm just so

1480
01:15:01,439 --> 01:15:03,840
Speaker 2: grateful for the work that you do and that you've

1481
01:15:03,840 --> 01:15:07,680
Speaker 2: blessed honor and you've blessed our our community. I want

1482
01:15:07,680 --> 01:15:10,080
Speaker 2: to say it's for everyone, but I know how much

1483
01:15:10,120 --> 01:15:13,680
Speaker 2: it's it resonates with women of color and hopefully even

1484
01:15:13,760 --> 01:15:17,960
Speaker 2: men of color too. A cipher with another life with

1485
01:15:18,000 --> 01:15:19,439
Speaker 2: a man or some shit I want to do.

1486
01:15:19,560 --> 01:15:23,000
Speaker 1: I want to do something with Super because I know Super,

1487
01:15:23,160 --> 01:15:26,160
Speaker 1: I know some of his friends, his allies I've worked with,

1488
01:15:27,040 --> 01:15:31,800
Speaker 1: so I trust his embodiment of what he believes and

1489
01:15:31,880 --> 01:15:34,680
Speaker 1: so and that's the only space I have for when

1490
01:15:34,680 --> 01:15:38,160
Speaker 1: it comes to masculine, Are you in integrity with your

1491
01:15:38,200 --> 01:15:41,400
Speaker 1: embodiment of what you know where it translates how you

1492
01:15:41,960 --> 01:15:47,960
Speaker 1: interact with people and women people you know you know specifically,

1493
01:15:48,520 --> 01:15:52,000
Speaker 1: So I would love to do something with a guy

1494
01:15:52,320 --> 01:15:55,800
Speaker 1: you know, it's it's it would be lovely because I

1495
01:15:55,800 --> 01:15:59,280
Speaker 1: think people need to see more of that divine masculine,

1496
01:15:59,360 --> 01:16:04,719
Speaker 1: divine feml and playing around, you know, and not fighting. Yes,

1497
01:16:04,960 --> 01:16:08,760
Speaker 1: you know, we're done fighting. I have a song called

1498
01:16:08,760 --> 01:16:12,679
Speaker 1: deer Man where it talks about that. I don't listen

1499
01:16:12,680 --> 01:16:15,440
Speaker 1: to it right now because I'm still I'm still integrating

1500
01:16:15,920 --> 01:16:19,599
Speaker 1: some of these new found revelations about the men. I'm

1501
01:16:19,640 --> 01:16:23,680
Speaker 1: still digesting some things and processing some things. But at

1502
01:16:23,680 --> 01:16:25,160
Speaker 1: the time I was very zealous, like.

1503
01:16:25,200 --> 01:16:28,519
Speaker 4: Men include men in the yelling and message, you know.

1504
01:16:29,280 --> 01:16:31,839
Speaker 1: And so I wrote that song and I haven't listened

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Speaker 1: to it and quite some time. I might have to

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Speaker 1: listen to it and get back to see what comes up.

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Speaker 1: If I resisted, like fuse, or if it's gonna be like, yeah,

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Speaker 1: this is true, this is you know, we see you,

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Speaker 1: we see you myself. Yes, do it all, you know.

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Speaker 3: Speaking of affirmations, we always do an affirmation on the show.

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01:16:56,840 --> 01:17:00,120
Speaker 3: So what a perfect person to do the affirmations for

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Speaker 3: us to speak?

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Speaker 1: So is it? I just say it out loud? Okay,

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Speaker 1: you repeat it. I deserve, I deserve my sovereign will,

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Speaker 1: my sovereign will to choose to choose my abundance, my abundance,

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Speaker 1: my emotional abundance, my emotional abundance, my mental abundance, my

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01:17:21,160 --> 01:17:25,800
Speaker 1: mental abundance, sexual abundance, sexual my financial.

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Speaker 2: Abundance, financial abundance.

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Speaker 1: This is my existence, this is my existence. I own it.

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Speaker 2: I own it.

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Speaker 1: I'm willing to do the work. I'm willing to do

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Speaker 1: the work for it to resonate, for it to resonate

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Speaker 1: and translate and translate into my embodiment, into my body.

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01:17:40,920 --> 01:17:42,920
Speaker 1: This is how it has to be. This is how

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01:17:42,920 --> 01:17:46,839
Speaker 1: it has to be for me, for me on period period,

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Speaker 1: just because just because that on that that forever facts,

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01:17:51,080 --> 01:17:54,040
Speaker 1: forever facts, So be it, so be it.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, I love it.

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01:18:00,920 --> 01:18:09,240
Speaker 2: I love it even how it like sound just like

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01:18:09,320 --> 01:18:12,760
Speaker 2: I felt like trickling through my body and like the clothes.

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Speaker 1: Just start following.

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01:18:16,400 --> 01:18:18,800
Speaker 2: How saying it and just really going forward and not

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01:18:19,160 --> 01:18:22,799
Speaker 2: Sometimes affirmations can be short, but like at that that length,

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01:18:23,080 --> 01:18:23,799
Speaker 2: it's special.

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01:18:24,240 --> 01:18:28,960
Speaker 1: It's really special. This was so lovely. This is so lovely,

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01:18:29,080 --> 01:18:29,559
Speaker 1: so lovely.

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01:18:29,640 --> 01:18:32,679
Speaker 2: Ever were doing hotels you want to hear Tony's horror,

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01:18:32,720 --> 01:18:35,360
Speaker 2: make sure you check out our Patreon. We're gonna switch

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01:18:35,400 --> 01:18:38,760
Speaker 2: over to the Tribe channel aka Patreon, So go to

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01:18:38,800 --> 01:18:41,960
Speaker 2: patreon dot com backslash Good Mom's Bad Choices. We have

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01:18:42,000 --> 01:18:43,800
Speaker 2: a lot of other content over there, so go check

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Speaker 2: us out.

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01:18:44,280 --> 01:18:45,240
Speaker 4: It's for the top secret.

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01:18:45,280 --> 01:18:46,439
Speaker 1: Ship goes top secret.

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01:18:46,640 --> 01:18:50,120
Speaker 2: Good Mom's after dark. Well, first we're gonna do I

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01:18:50,120 --> 01:18:50,720
Speaker 2: think we should do?

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01:18:51,160 --> 01:18:52,120
Speaker 4: Uh saro.

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Speaker 1: Okay, it's terot time. Y'all should have a jingle.

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01:18:57,320 --> 01:19:01,400
Speaker 4: It is okay, yes, you just can't he Maybe we

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01:19:01,400 --> 01:19:03,320
Speaker 4: should sing it time.

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01:19:04,960 --> 01:19:08,160
Speaker 1: It's territime. It's time music.

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01:19:08,840 --> 01:19:09,040
Speaker 4: I know.

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01:19:11,320 --> 01:19:14,760
Speaker 2: Yeah, we're sucking up the whole mystical music that play.

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01:19:14,920 --> 01:19:15,639
Speaker 1: But that was fun.

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01:19:18,200 --> 01:19:19,800
Speaker 3: So you know what when I was when I was

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01:19:19,840 --> 01:19:22,120
Speaker 3: shuffling for her, she chose this one. But there's another

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01:19:22,160 --> 01:19:24,720
Speaker 3: one that looks that jumped out, so I'll read both.

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01:19:25,840 --> 01:19:29,040
Speaker 3: The moon represents your fears and illusions are and often

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01:19:29,120 --> 01:19:32,200
Speaker 3: comes out when you're projecting fear into your present and

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01:19:31,960 --> 01:19:35,640
Speaker 3: you and your future based on your past experiences. You

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01:19:35,680 --> 01:19:38,760
Speaker 3: may have a painful memory that caused emotional distress, and

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01:19:38,880 --> 01:19:41,040
Speaker 3: rather than dealing with the emotions, you push them down

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01:19:41,080 --> 01:19:44,920
Speaker 3: deep into your subconscious. Now these emotions are making a reappearance,

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01:19:45,000 --> 01:19:48,200
Speaker 3: and you may find yourself under the influence on a

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01:19:48,280 --> 01:19:51,200
Speaker 3: conscious or subconscious level. For example, if you had a

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01:19:51,240 --> 01:19:53,200
Speaker 3: car accident when you were young but didn't deal with

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01:19:53,240 --> 01:19:56,760
Speaker 3: the emotions, you may get sad or anxious every time

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01:19:56,800 --> 01:19:59,519
Speaker 3: you get into the backseat of a car. To remedy this,

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01:19:59,640 --> 01:20:02,519
Speaker 3: connect with your subconscious mind and release any fears or

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01:20:02,520 --> 01:20:06,360
Speaker 3: anxieties holding you back. Hypnosis, therapy, and shamanic healing can

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01:20:06,400 --> 01:20:10,360
Speaker 3: support this process. The moon can indicate time of uncertainty

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01:20:10,400 --> 01:20:12,960
Speaker 3: and illusion, when nothing is what it seems. Be careful

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01:20:13,000 --> 01:20:16,000
Speaker 3: of making fast decisions when the moon appears, because you

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01:20:16,000 --> 01:20:18,880
Speaker 3: may later realize you only had half the information you needed.

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01:20:19,439 --> 01:20:21,800
Speaker 3: You need to listen to and trust your intuition so

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01:20:21,880 --> 01:20:23,599
Speaker 3: you can see beyond what is in front of you.

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01:20:25,040 --> 01:20:25,200
Speaker 5: Hmm.

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01:20:28,200 --> 01:20:32,360
Speaker 3: Wait, feel into your situations rather than thinking what they mean.

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01:20:32,520 --> 01:20:35,439
Speaker 3: Let go of your conscious mental blocks or negative self talk,

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01:20:35,479 --> 01:20:37,120
Speaker 3: and allow your intuition to guide you.

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01:20:38,360 --> 01:20:39,479
Speaker 4: So wow, this makes sense.

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01:20:39,520 --> 01:20:42,840
Speaker 3: We talked a lot about going back to that young

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01:20:42,880 --> 01:20:45,240
Speaker 3: person inside and going back to feel the.

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01:20:45,160 --> 01:20:50,040
Speaker 2: Things limiting belief systems and negative self talk, reprogramming yourself.

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01:20:51,280 --> 01:20:54,320
Speaker 3: And then this fell out as I was shuffling. Let's

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01:20:54,320 --> 01:20:57,880
Speaker 3: see what this means. You know those moments when you

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01:20:57,920 --> 01:21:00,559
Speaker 3: glance around and feel your heart overflowing with love and

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01:21:00,600 --> 01:21:04,120
Speaker 3: appreciation for everything you have created in your life. That's

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01:21:04,120 --> 01:21:07,880
Speaker 3: what the Nine of Cups is about. Emotional fulfillment, happiness,

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01:21:07,920 --> 01:21:11,160
Speaker 3: and contentment. When this card appeals and appears in a

1591
01:21:11,160 --> 01:21:15,720
Speaker 3: tarot reading, you're content in all aspects of your life relationships, work, lifestyle,

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01:21:15,760 --> 01:21:18,879
Speaker 3: well being, and more. You're basking in the abundance of life.

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01:21:20,360 --> 01:21:21,040
Speaker 4: Way where to go.

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01:21:22,080 --> 01:21:24,760
Speaker 3: You're basking in the abundance of life and experiencing your

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01:21:24,800 --> 01:21:28,519
Speaker 3: emotions which such intensity and pleasure. This is why the

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01:21:28,640 --> 01:21:30,800
Speaker 3: nine of Cups is often called the wish card. It

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01:21:30,840 --> 01:21:33,200
Speaker 3: comes as a sign that the planets aligned and you

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01:21:33,240 --> 01:21:34,519
Speaker 3: have everything.

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01:21:34,040 --> 01:21:36,400
Speaker 4: You wished for. You could not be happier.

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01:21:36,479 --> 01:21:39,040
Speaker 3: If you made your wish and are patiently waiting for

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01:21:39,080 --> 01:21:40,880
Speaker 3: it to come to fruition, then this card is an

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01:21:40,920 --> 01:21:45,120
Speaker 3: excellent omen that they will soon be granted. Wow, deal

1603
01:21:45,160 --> 01:21:49,040
Speaker 3: with the shadow side and all your wish will be gifted.

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01:21:49,120 --> 01:21:53,040
Speaker 2: Stop the negative self toxis and go check out Tony

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01:21:53,680 --> 01:21:54,600
Speaker 2: Tony Jones.

1606
01:21:55,240 --> 01:21:57,040
Speaker 1: I am Tony Jones dot com.

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01:21:57,240 --> 01:21:59,960
Speaker 2: Yes, Yes, that is that where all our people can find.

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01:22:00,120 --> 01:22:01,559
Speaker 1: Is that the best place for me? I am Tony

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01:22:01,640 --> 01:22:05,160
Speaker 1: Jones dot com. I am Tony Jones on Instagram. I

1610
01:22:05,160 --> 01:22:07,960
Speaker 1: also have a membership community called the living Room where

1611
01:22:07,960 --> 01:22:11,479
Speaker 1: we do self talk together. It's all for women who

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01:22:12,320 --> 01:22:13,960
Speaker 1: I don't know. I just wanted to create a space

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01:22:13,960 --> 01:22:16,559
Speaker 1: where women didn't have to do something else, you know,

1614
01:22:16,680 --> 01:22:20,960
Speaker 1: so we really learn how to do being this and

1615
01:22:21,040 --> 01:22:25,920
Speaker 1: living not all for productivity and performance, but really communicating

1616
01:22:25,960 --> 01:22:30,519
Speaker 1: and kicking it, you know. So that's that chilling chilling

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01:22:30,600 --> 01:22:32,080
Speaker 1: in the living room. Living room.

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Speaker 2: Well, thank you so much for coming on the show.

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01:22:35,160 --> 01:22:38,400
Speaker 1: Thank you for having me. This is so fun. I

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01:22:38,400 --> 01:22:39,920
Speaker 1: felt like I was in a living room.

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01:22:41,000 --> 01:22:42,040
Speaker 4: What we were going for, like.

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01:22:43,600 --> 01:22:46,599
Speaker 2: The girl, then the woman, then I love all those

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01:22:47,000 --> 01:22:50,800
Speaker 2: goddess Then yes, they felt like that, Like.

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01:22:54,640 --> 01:22:57,439
Speaker 1: The vibe here isn't connected to that the vibe here

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01:22:57,600 --> 01:23:02,280
Speaker 1: translates into the Instagram for sure. I feel you guys.

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01:23:02,720 --> 01:23:05,559
Speaker 1: I'm like, well they really feel this. I'm like, I

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01:23:05,640 --> 01:23:10,080
Speaker 1: love their family forever because y'all are really about that

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01:23:10,160 --> 01:23:11,160
Speaker 1: embodied ye.

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01:23:11,560 --> 01:23:13,479
Speaker 3: You know it's so crazy like that you said you

1630
01:23:13,520 --> 01:23:16,040
Speaker 3: knw Supa because we were just talking to him about

1631
01:23:16,160 --> 01:23:18,760
Speaker 3: frequency and when you're amitting your frequency, you find your

1632
01:23:18,800 --> 01:23:19,600
Speaker 3: people and you do.

1633
01:23:19,920 --> 01:23:21,760
Speaker 4: He came, then you came, and then here we are.

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01:23:21,960 --> 01:23:25,479
Speaker 1: Yes, yeah, it's all we're all part of the circuitry.

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01:23:26,240 --> 01:23:29,519
Speaker 3: Well, you know where to find us Good Momsbad Choices,

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Speaker 2: you guys, And you know, I hope that our stories

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Speaker 2: resonate with you, and I hope that you know you

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Speaker 2: share the message. And I want to hear your feedback.

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Speaker 2: It's our first book, you know, I want to know

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Speaker 3: And also check out our Patreon because we'll be telling

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Speaker 3: a lot about how this book came to be, diving

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Speaker 3: deeper into chapters, sharing a lot of the two year

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Speaker 3: journey behind the scenes. And I think it's pretty it's

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Speaker 3: pretty cool. So come check us out. Come here the

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Speaker 3: uncensored version of every episode, and thank you.

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Speaker 2: We'll see you guys next week.

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Speaker 1: Bye bye,