WEBVTT - HAVE YOU EVER LIED? 0:00:00.280 --> 0:00:04.800 Call from Nourick. 0:00:06.240 --> 0:00:09.640 Oh hi, hey, oh wow you actually answered? 0:00:09.720 --> 0:00:13.399 Wow I did? Why wouldn't I? 0:00:13.400 --> 0:00:15.000 I don't know. Hold on, let me go tell my 0:00:15.040 --> 0:00:16.760 wife really quick. I'm actually I'll. 0:00:16.640 --> 0:00:18.439 Tell you how far away is she? 0:00:18.920 --> 0:00:20.520 Not like grip? 0:00:20.760 --> 0:00:23.479 Hey, hey, you need to get on therapy. 0:00:23.560 --> 0:00:27.800 That go I'm on there. Oh yeah, well, sorry about you. 0:00:27.840 --> 0:00:29.800 Can't just give her your call because she has to 0:00:29.840 --> 0:00:30.840 call in on her own. 0:00:32.720 --> 0:00:34.559 She has to call in on her You can't get 0:00:34.560 --> 0:00:35.120 out my call. 0:00:35.159 --> 0:00:36.960 Apparently, you have to call in on your own. 0:00:37.360 --> 0:00:38.000 What's your name? 0:00:39.280 --> 0:00:40.040 My name is Nurick. 0:00:40.600 --> 0:00:44.080 How did your wife? How did you and your wife meet? Uh? 0:00:44.360 --> 0:00:44.839 Threesome? 0:00:45.960 --> 0:00:47.199 You met in a threesome? 0:00:47.960 --> 0:00:51.800 Yeah, I was engaged to a really toxic person and 0:00:51.880 --> 0:00:55.320 we were trying to do polyamory and me and her met. 0:00:56.440 --> 0:00:58.200 But that's not what I want to talk to you about. 0:00:58.200 --> 0:01:00.000 I'm here talking about. 0:00:59.520 --> 0:01:02.040 Absolutely what I want to talk to you about now. 0:01:03.720 --> 0:01:12.400 The so your ex wife, ex fiance, your ex fiance, 0:01:12.440 --> 0:01:16.280 You were engaged to a woman, and whose suggestion was it? 0:01:16.360 --> 0:01:17.399 The try out polyamory? 0:01:17.880 --> 0:01:22.279 It was a mutual thing at the time. We were 0:01:22.319 --> 0:01:26.759 both young and stupid, sure, and we were trying the 0:01:26.880 --> 0:01:30.880 whole like you know, spicing up the marriage thing. We 0:01:30.920 --> 0:01:36.800 did the tico not tiktoku, tender and shit and didn't 0:01:36.800 --> 0:01:37.319 work out. 0:01:37.640 --> 0:01:39.160 But go on, ask your questions. 0:01:39.560 --> 0:01:41.039 So you were trying, I mean you were trying to 0:01:41.080 --> 0:01:43.400 spice up the marriage before the marriage even happened. 0:01:44.800 --> 0:01:48.960 Yeah, I was. I was dating her because I was 0:01:49.720 --> 0:01:52.200 She was not the kind of person that was right 0:01:52.280 --> 0:01:55.360 for me. She was more for Uh you ever like 0:01:55.960 --> 0:01:58.400 live for live your life for other people. You ever 0:01:58.440 --> 0:01:59.400 seen people do that? 0:02:00.120 --> 0:02:02.080 Sure? Sure you felt some sort of pressure to be 0:02:02.120 --> 0:02:03.640 in a relationship. 0:02:04.000 --> 0:02:07.680 Pressure to be in a certain type of relationship, to 0:02:08.000 --> 0:02:12.640 feel like the image of what a relationship should be 0:02:12.840 --> 0:02:14.239 in some people's eyes. 0:02:14.800 --> 0:02:17.640 Interesting, And what was it about this person that you 0:02:17.680 --> 0:02:19.200 felt fulfilled that image? 0:02:20.880 --> 0:02:24.120 Uh? 0:02:24.200 --> 0:02:27.920 My father once told me, if you're going to get 0:02:27.960 --> 0:02:32.560 with anyone, get with it's more complicated than that, but 0:02:32.880 --> 0:02:35.560 it's more or less like get with someone with blonde 0:02:35.600 --> 0:02:36.680 hair and big tips. 0:02:37.560 --> 0:02:40.640 So yeah, so like that's what. 0:02:40.520 --> 0:02:43.520 I thought was supposed to do, but I didn't want to. 0:02:43.680 --> 0:02:44.600 I didn't want to do that. 0:02:45.760 --> 0:02:51.040 So who knew? So your current wife who met her first? 0:02:51.080 --> 0:02:53.280 Between you and your ex fiance? 0:02:54.120 --> 0:02:59.160 So I met her and we because we both shared 0:02:59.160 --> 0:03:02.240 a mutual friend. At the time, we were walking or 0:03:02.320 --> 0:03:08.240 I was walking down the road to hang my way 0:03:08.240 --> 0:03:11.440 to college because I lived off campus on the time. Yeah, 0:03:12.280 --> 0:03:16.320 so I'm walking and as we're going, I all of 0:03:16.360 --> 0:03:19.520 a sudden I hear one I hear someone shout out 0:03:19.520 --> 0:03:23.840 what I thought was calling me the f slur because 0:03:23.880 --> 0:03:25.760 I live in that kind of area where that thing 0:03:26.160 --> 0:03:30.320 is normal. But it turned out that was just my friend. 0:03:31.160 --> 0:03:34.360 So I go over hop in the car and she 0:03:35.080 --> 0:03:39.440 my is driving at the time. Me and her end 0:03:39.520 --> 0:03:43.560 up getting the talking and at the time, she's like 0:03:44.000 --> 0:03:48.440 in a relationship of her own, long distance wise, so 0:03:49.000 --> 0:03:53.280 she was off like you know, it started out platonically, 0:03:53.360 --> 0:03:58.240 I swear to God, GEK, Now, how. 0:03:58.160 --> 0:04:06.800 Did your ex fiance react when you eventually left her 0:04:07.000 --> 0:04:09.800 to be with this current? 0:04:10.920 --> 0:04:11.960 Well, what happened. 0:04:12.240 --> 0:04:15.880 What happened is I I almost I try to kill 0:04:15.960 --> 0:04:19.839 myself one night, I try to drown myself in the bathtub. 0:04:22.680 --> 0:04:28.520 And mainly because like the marriage or the engagement was 0:04:28.560 --> 0:04:33.600 going south and I was realizing I was. I just 0:04:33.640 --> 0:04:37.599 got on like this new prescription I forget what was 0:04:37.680 --> 0:04:43.480 at the time was for depression and whenever, like I 0:04:43.520 --> 0:04:47.160 got on that and I started therapy, like my eyes 0:04:47.200 --> 0:04:51.720 were just wide open, and it's just like I I 0:04:51.839 --> 0:04:56.040 need to something's wrong in my life and something doesn't 0:04:56.040 --> 0:04:59.120 make sense, and I try to communicate that to my 0:04:59.240 --> 0:05:06.880 life my fiance at the time, and she didn't understand that. 0:05:07.240 --> 0:05:09.640 Like she first of all, she was against me, like 0:05:09.720 --> 0:05:13.080 getting the medication the first place, because she didn't want 0:05:13.160 --> 0:05:18.600 things to change. And then over time I've kind of 0:05:18.640 --> 0:05:24.400 like noticed that as I'm realizing that I have not 0:05:24.680 --> 0:05:32.200 a connection with my fiance, I have this strong relationship 0:05:32.839 --> 0:05:37.799 with this person who was again we at the time, 0:05:37.880 --> 0:05:41.960 we were platonic and then sex sex gone involved, like 0:05:42.720 --> 0:05:45.839 wife and fiance and me. At the time, we were 0:05:45.920 --> 0:05:49.920 like yeah, sure because that was on you know, all 0:05:50.000 --> 0:05:53.800 of our bucket lists, was you know, three someome. I mean, 0:05:53.880 --> 0:05:57.159 who who is it who doesn't have a threeesome on 0:05:57.200 --> 0:05:57.920 their bucket list? 0:05:58.000 --> 0:05:58.200 Right? 0:05:58.279 --> 0:06:02.680 So, now in your car, in relationship with your current 0:06:02.720 --> 0:06:04.240 and she's your wife, you're married to her? 0:06:04.320 --> 0:06:04.520 Now? 0:06:04.800 --> 0:06:05.320 Yeah, we are. 0:06:05.600 --> 0:06:07.719 We are very much married and very. 0:06:07.600 --> 0:06:10.360 Much fully Is it fully closed or would you ever 0:06:10.400 --> 0:06:11.960 consider trying polyamory again? 0:06:12.680 --> 0:06:15.839 Oh, we actually in a PolyAm as a relationship. My 0:06:15.920 --> 0:06:21.719 wife and I live, we live with her boyfriend interesting. 0:06:21.920 --> 0:06:22.760 Do you like him? 0:06:23.640 --> 0:06:24.200 I love him. 0:06:24.200 --> 0:06:26.240 He's really cool. He's a really good guy. 0:06:27.080 --> 0:06:32.480 They met a while ago, about a year ago, when 0:06:32.520 --> 0:06:37.719 she was doing like her only fans and stuff, and 0:06:38.680 --> 0:06:42.360 you know, they got to talking and the relationship bloomed. 0:06:42.400 --> 0:06:45.400 And I'm the kind of person My whole belief is, like, 0:06:46.200 --> 0:06:51.279 I think it's selfish for me as an individual to 0:06:51.320 --> 0:06:54.479 think that I can satisfy the needs of another individual, 0:06:54.800 --> 0:06:58.800 like another ego being. So I kind of like and like, look, 0:06:58.880 --> 0:07:02.080 if if you want more out of like, don't let 0:07:02.080 --> 0:07:07.640 me hold you back, right, So, Like, but you know, 0:07:07.760 --> 0:07:11.680 I I feel like she kind of like, uh, she 0:07:11.720 --> 0:07:14.040 wants she wants to keep me around for some reason. 0:07:14.120 --> 0:07:15.880 So I guess I'm doing something right. 0:07:16.760 --> 0:07:21.280 I mean that to me, screams. I mean that that's 0:07:21.360 --> 0:07:25.200 a true sort of love for someone when you want 0:07:25.280 --> 0:07:28.360 them to be happy, even if it means that you're 0:07:28.400 --> 0:07:30.920 not involved in every aspect of the happiness. 0:07:31.960 --> 0:07:36.280 Yeah. Like, I learned from an early age that like, 0:07:36.600 --> 0:07:41.520 love doesn't have to be what a mainstream idea is. 0:07:42.320 --> 0:07:43.200 Does that make sense? 0:07:43.960 --> 0:07:45.680 M Are you dating anyone else? 0:07:46.920 --> 0:07:51.040 I'm currently single. I'm not really looking for a relationship 0:07:51.120 --> 0:07:53.280 right now. I'm kind of happy where I'm at. I 0:07:53.640 --> 0:07:58.320 talk to people, but I have really really bad social 0:07:58.360 --> 0:08:02.720 anxiety sociophobia, so getting out on the scene like this 0:08:02.880 --> 0:08:04.960 is actually new to me. I'm only doing this because 0:08:04.960 --> 0:08:06.440 I'm stowing his balls right now? 0:08:07.160 --> 0:08:13.560 Fair enough? Yeah, I remember, are you? You came and 0:08:13.560 --> 0:08:15.560 you said you didn't want to talk about this? Is 0:08:15.560 --> 0:08:17.520 there anything real quick you wanted to talk about? 0:08:18.120 --> 0:08:20.080 I really wanted to talk to you about the time 0:08:20.120 --> 0:08:23.680 I ate garbage because you that's like when I first 0:08:23.720 --> 0:08:24.640 started to call it. 0:08:26.360 --> 0:08:28.400 He was talking about like I think last week or 0:08:28.440 --> 0:08:28.920 a few weeks. 0:08:29.720 --> 0:08:34.320 I okay, okay, So long story short. I was trapped 0:08:34.600 --> 0:08:38.400 because I have really shitty terence in my college town 0:08:38.840 --> 0:08:41.719 because they were arguing with my sister and it was 0:08:41.800 --> 0:08:45.440 during winter break and I couldn't go home, right I 0:08:45.520 --> 0:08:48.480 had no money. It was my freshman year, so I'm 0:08:48.559 --> 0:08:52.360 stuck in this town. I haven't had anything to eat 0:08:52.480 --> 0:08:55.559 for like four days because it's win or break. The 0:08:56.000 --> 0:08:59.760 cafeteria's closed, I have no money. I see a Jimmy 0:08:59.800 --> 0:09:04.200 Joe on sandwich in the garbage, and to this day, 0:09:04.320 --> 0:09:06.839 bootleggers are my favorite because of that. 0:09:07.920 --> 0:09:08.400 M hmm. 0:09:09.480 --> 0:09:12.920 Yeah, well, you know, I respect that you're living your 0:09:12.960 --> 0:09:14.920 life exactly the way you want to live it. 0:09:15.880 --> 0:09:18.079 Thank you, Gek, I appreciate that. 0:09:19.400 --> 0:09:19.720 Norik. 0:09:20.360 --> 0:09:22.120 Take it for sharing. Rick, You have a good rest. 0:09:21.920 --> 0:09:24.480 Of the night, you too, Gek take it easy. 0:09:26.200 --> 0:09:26.839 Ten out of ten. 0:09:26.920 --> 0:09:32.199 Call never goes on the line, taking your calls every night, 0:09:32.600 --> 0:09:36.480 never goes. He's teaching you your. 0:09:36.440 --> 0:09:48.000 Life all from Ashley Ashley. 0:09:48.120 --> 0:09:52.439 Hello, Ashley, Hi, Greg. 0:09:52.920 --> 0:09:54.560 Mary Kate and Ashley. 0:09:55.080 --> 0:09:55.719 Yeah that's me. 0:09:56.360 --> 0:09:59.120 I always thought Mary, Kate and Ashley were three different people. 0:10:00.440 --> 0:10:05.080 Well, I mean Mary, multiple personal I guess. 0:10:04.800 --> 0:10:09.600 And Ashley, how many different people are you? 0:10:10.960 --> 0:10:13.760 How many different people? I guess it depends on the day. 0:10:14.640 --> 0:10:15.960 How many different people are you today? 0:10:16.960 --> 0:10:20.000 How many different people? Let's see, Well, I'm the nice 0:10:20.040 --> 0:10:21.720 person at work and they want to get home. I'm 0:10:21.720 --> 0:10:23.719 the introvert and I don't like talk anybody. So I 0:10:23.720 --> 0:10:26.439 guess that's a different thing from two different people. 0:10:26.800 --> 0:10:29.200 So you like talking to people at work, but not 0:10:29.240 --> 0:10:31.280 when you get at home, not when you get back home. 0:10:31.360 --> 0:10:38.520 Yeah, yeah, called ambivert you No, I've never heard that. 0:10:39.040 --> 0:10:40.600 It's a great to. When I found out about it, 0:10:40.640 --> 0:10:44.040 I was like, that is a beautiful term. I mean, 0:10:44.040 --> 0:10:45.880 I hate labels in general. But if I had to pick, 0:10:45.880 --> 0:10:48.000 when I choose that and ambivert. You're familiar with the 0:10:48.000 --> 0:10:49.080 phrase ambi dextrous. 0:10:50.280 --> 0:10:51.480 Yeah, so like left and right. 0:10:52.160 --> 0:10:55.480 Yeah, left and right. Ambiverts someone who embodies the qualities 0:10:55.520 --> 0:11:01.320 of both an extrovert and an introvert. And you know, situationally, 0:11:01.880 --> 0:11:06.640 I never liked the binary system of extroverts and introverts anyway. 0:11:07.120 --> 0:11:10.480 I feel like it's it's it's it's too it's too binary. 0:11:10.640 --> 0:11:12.960 It's it's I mean, it's a whole spectrum here. 0:11:14.720 --> 0:11:17.120 Yeah, I've never heard that. That's actually pretty pretty cool. 0:11:18.360 --> 0:11:21.920 Listen, Ashley, I have a question for you. Yes, how 0:11:23.280 --> 0:11:24.160 have you ever lied? 0:11:25.920 --> 0:11:27.880 Unfortunately? Too many times? 0:11:27.960 --> 0:11:31.160 Yes, too many times? Tell me what was what was 0:11:31.200 --> 0:11:32.240 the too many a time? 0:11:34.600 --> 0:11:37.160 I think I lie like a lot more at work. 0:11:38.200 --> 0:11:40.840 Uh and for some reason, like I keep getting away 0:11:40.880 --> 0:11:44.360 with it, probably because I. 0:11:47.040 --> 0:11:49.160 Well, like, well, I was. 0:11:49.080 --> 0:11:50.760 Talking actually about this the other day. Like I used 0:11:50.760 --> 0:11:56.080 to work at a seafood restaurant, and the restaurants if 0:11:56.120 --> 0:11:58.840 any food that was left over at night, they would 0:11:59.280 --> 0:12:02.439 uh let the employees take it home. So I would 0:12:02.480 --> 0:12:05.199 like put in fake orders just so I could take 0:12:05.240 --> 0:12:07.520 food home to my parents. 0:12:08.559 --> 0:12:09.120 That's smart. 0:12:10.520 --> 0:12:12.880 Yeah, so, and they never questioned it. I just would 0:12:12.880 --> 0:12:14.720 always no, I never got caught. I would just always 0:12:14.720 --> 0:12:15.360 bring food home. 0:12:17.240 --> 0:12:20.880 Wasn't that suspicious when consistently the same person would keep 0:12:21.000 --> 0:12:22.480 ordering food and not picking it up. 0:12:23.400 --> 0:12:25.320 Well, I always put different names on it and like 0:12:25.360 --> 0:12:26.240 different kinds of food. 0:12:26.920 --> 0:12:29.080 Ooh, that is interesting. 0:12:29.480 --> 0:12:31.800 And sometimes like you order like an lit extra more 0:12:31.840 --> 0:12:37.280 so then you don't take everything the minute. And I 0:12:37.360 --> 0:12:39.320 started to feel a little bad, but then I got 0:12:39.920 --> 0:12:42.360 held up at gun point there, so then I didn't 0:12:42.360 --> 0:12:45.560 feel bad because like the owner didn't feel bad about 0:12:45.559 --> 0:12:47.959 me getting held up and told me to go back 0:12:47.960 --> 0:12:50.240 to work, so I didn't really feel bad about it anymore. 0:12:50.360 --> 0:12:51.840 You got a held up at gun point? 0:12:53.080 --> 0:12:53.280 Yes? 0:12:54.480 --> 0:12:54.600 Uh? 0:12:54.720 --> 0:12:55.600 And what was that like? 0:12:57.120 --> 0:12:59.080 I mean, it was scary, but at the same time, 0:12:59.120 --> 0:13:02.040 it was like, this isn't really my money. So I 0:13:02.120 --> 0:13:05.920 kind of just opened the register and backed up and 0:13:05.960 --> 0:13:08.040 he grabbed it. And then he was like, I just 0:13:08.080 --> 0:13:09.400 want you to know that I love you, and I 0:13:09.440 --> 0:13:10.040 was like, I don't. 0:13:09.880 --> 0:13:12.480 Know who you are, but okay. 0:13:11.880 --> 0:13:12.920 He told you if he loved you. 0:13:13.920 --> 0:13:14.160 Yeah. 0:13:14.240 --> 0:13:17.040 He was like like I hope He's like, do you 0:13:17.080 --> 0:13:19.000 love your family? I was like yeah, and He's like, well, 0:13:19.000 --> 0:13:21.920 I love you, and then he like left with the 0:13:21.960 --> 0:13:22.920 money from the register. 0:13:23.600 --> 0:13:26.520 Really yeah, which he had. 0:13:26.400 --> 0:13:28.079 Been smarter, he would have gotten no money from the 0:13:28.120 --> 0:13:29.480 drawer because there was a lot more in there. 0:13:30.200 --> 0:13:31.439 How did he how did he say it? Did he 0:13:31.480 --> 0:13:32.360 look you in the eyes? 0:13:33.160 --> 0:13:33.400 Yeah? 0:13:33.440 --> 0:13:36.319 He like turned around as he was leaving, like right 0:13:36.360 --> 0:13:38.600 at the door, and like I was terrified because I 0:13:38.600 --> 0:13:41.880 was like seventeen at the time, and he's just like 0:13:42.280 --> 0:13:43.840 he said that about my family. He's like, I want 0:13:43.840 --> 0:13:46.440 you to know that I love you, and then left. 0:13:48.160 --> 0:13:49.839 Do you believe him? Do you think he really loved it? 0:13:50.160 --> 0:13:50.959 Do you think he meant it was? 0:13:51.080 --> 0:13:51.800 I don't think he did. 0:13:52.480 --> 0:13:55.800 I mean, maybe he just felt guilty because he. 0:13:55.800 --> 0:14:01.480 Was like robbing a teenager. So I don't know. But 0:14:01.559 --> 0:14:02.360 he's in jail now. 0:14:02.440 --> 0:14:05.840 So, Hm, why do you think he told you he 0:14:05.880 --> 0:14:07.520 loved you? He felt guilty? 0:14:08.640 --> 0:14:08.880 Yeah? 0:14:09.040 --> 0:14:11.280 I think that he probably felt guilty, But also he 0:14:11.320 --> 0:14:12.920 may have been like on a love and drugs because 0:14:12.920 --> 0:14:13.640 he kind of looked like that. 0:14:14.679 --> 0:14:17.440 M So maybe he did love me. 0:14:17.520 --> 0:14:19.320 Maybe maybe he saw me and fell him on the 0:14:19.360 --> 0:14:20.120 first sight or something. 0:14:20.160 --> 0:14:21.600 I don't know he did, do you, I mean, do 0:14:21.640 --> 0:14:22.760 you believe in love and first sight. 0:14:24.360 --> 0:14:26.760 I think I used to, but then, like I was 0:14:26.800 --> 0:14:29.200 listening earlier, like how some uh you asked somebody a 0:14:29.280 --> 0:14:31.960 question or it was like either were talking about like 0:14:32.000 --> 0:14:33.640 if you love somebody for four months and then you 0:14:33.640 --> 0:14:38.280 don't love them anymore. And I believe that's like in 0:14:38.400 --> 0:14:42.000 the moment thing. But as like I'm getting older, you know, 0:14:42.080 --> 0:14:44.800 like it's like you you honestly like put all your 0:14:44.840 --> 0:14:47.520 faith into love, you know, and then but I understand 0:14:47.520 --> 0:14:49.080 the same time where it's coming from. 0:14:49.400 --> 0:14:52.680 See, that's the thing is love. It's very emotionally driven, 0:14:52.880 --> 0:14:58.560 and emotions are are so volatile. They're up and they're down, 0:14:58.600 --> 0:15:00.280 and they're left and they're right. It's the it's not 0:15:00.320 --> 0:15:06.280 a very uh sound place to put all your eggs. 0:15:06.760 --> 0:15:10.440 So you know exactly, you can love someone in the 0:15:10.480 --> 0:15:12.160 heat of the moment and then after that moment is 0:15:12.160 --> 0:15:13.240 over and not love them anymore. 0:15:14.400 --> 0:15:17.880 Yeah, which is unfortunate, but I mean it's just life. 0:15:18.640 --> 0:15:22.920 Do you think that if he saw you again, that 0:15:23.000 --> 0:15:25.600 guy would still say that he loves you. 0:15:26.640 --> 0:15:30.680 Actually, his lawyer like reached out like a year ago because. 0:15:30.400 --> 0:15:31.160 He's in prison. 0:15:32.360 --> 0:15:34.800 No, but he did want like to write me a 0:15:34.880 --> 0:15:37.640 letter to apologize. 0:15:38.440 --> 0:15:40.360 Oh wow, really he wanted to write you a letter 0:15:40.360 --> 0:15:44.480 to apologize. Yeah, like he'd get your permission to get 0:15:44.520 --> 0:15:44.920 the letter. 0:15:46.160 --> 0:15:49.120 Yeah, I mean I didn't. I didn't respond to it 0:15:49.160 --> 0:15:51.600 because that was like ten years ago at this point. 0:15:51.840 --> 0:15:56.560 So interesting that ten years later he still wanted to apologize, 0:15:56.560 --> 0:15:59.360 So he probably he probably did love you. I mean 0:15:59.400 --> 0:16:04.840 he was probably thinking about you all ten of those years. 0:16:05.360 --> 0:16:10.760 I'm definitely, definitely extremely weird. I would actually say, but 0:16:12.520 --> 0:16:15.520 you know, well, listen, thank you so much for sharing. 0:16:16.560 --> 0:16:18.760 Yeah, I think you were answering my call. I was 0:16:18.800 --> 0:16:21.520 like I called like eighty nine times. 0:16:23.800 --> 0:16:25.600 Eighty ninth the charm baby. 0:16:26.520 --> 0:16:27.480 Yep, it's the charm. 0:16:27.480 --> 0:16:28.120 I remember that. 0:16:28.760 --> 0:16:29.600 I hope you have a good night. 0:16:29.640 --> 0:16:31.480 Gek you too, Ashley, have a good night. 0:16:33.240 --> 0:16:34.760 Call from Alex. 0:16:36.920 --> 0:16:41.520 Alex, Hey, do my fucking god, what's up? 0:16:42.160 --> 0:16:43.040 How? What's up? 0:16:43.880 --> 0:16:44.160 Dude? 0:16:44.280 --> 0:16:47.000 I have been trying to call you for ages? 0:16:48.240 --> 0:16:48.400 How? 0:16:48.520 --> 0:16:49.760 How how many ages? 0:16:50.520 --> 0:16:50.920 Oh? 0:16:51.680 --> 0:16:53.040 Probably like four months? 0:16:53.240 --> 0:16:53.400 Well? 0:16:53.760 --> 0:16:57.040 What technologies have evolved? 0:16:58.080 --> 0:17:01.680 Oh man, I was I would using the facts machine 0:17:01.720 --> 0:17:02.440 when I started. 0:17:03.080 --> 0:17:07.040 Oh man, I got a cell phone now? And how 0:17:07.040 --> 0:17:11.440 do you feel about this technological transition? Are you prepared 0:17:11.560 --> 0:17:13.040 or do you feel as though the world is moving 0:17:13.040 --> 0:17:14.280 too fast for you to keep up. 0:17:15.000 --> 0:17:17.160 I mean, isn't it always? 0:17:17.680 --> 0:17:21.639 I mean, I'm just I'm just sitting here calling hundreds 0:17:21.680 --> 0:17:25.840 of times, and then I was expecting a hello, and 0:17:25.880 --> 0:17:27.760 then you just yelled out, Alex, and it was just 0:17:27.800 --> 0:17:31.719 the craziest thing. So you know, you're never really ready, 0:17:32.040 --> 0:17:34.880 but it's definitely definitely there. 0:17:35.440 --> 0:17:36.280 Do you feel ready? 0:17:36.760 --> 0:17:37.840 I guess I do. 0:17:37.760 --> 0:17:39.240 Feel feel ready for this. 0:17:40.119 --> 0:17:44.280 I feel ready to be on on the call. 0:17:45.040 --> 0:17:47.320 That was the wrong answer. There's the wrong answer, Alex. 0:17:47.520 --> 0:17:50.439 You should Actually the fact that you're ready implies to 0:17:50.440 --> 0:17:52.560 me that you're prepared in some way, and for you 0:17:52.600 --> 0:17:54.960 to prepare implies that you had some sort of expectation 0:17:55.040 --> 0:17:56.399 of what this experience would be like. And for you 0:17:56.440 --> 0:17:58.159 to have some sort of expectation of what this experience 0:17:58.160 --> 0:18:01.080 would be like only sets you up for failure in 0:18:01.119 --> 0:18:04.879 the event that your expectations are not matched by reality. 0:18:04.960 --> 0:18:06.359 You know, that's that's a great point. 0:18:06.720 --> 0:18:09.960 But I think I'll have to humbly disagree with you. 0:18:10.200 --> 0:18:13.760 I think, just for the sheer amount of times that 0:18:13.800 --> 0:18:17.000 I've called, I think would be irresponsible for me not 0:18:17.040 --> 0:18:18.200 to have been ready. 0:18:18.960 --> 0:18:20.760 You know what, I think that's reasonable, alex clusive, I 0:18:20.760 --> 0:18:24.000 have a question for you, alex Yes, have you ever lied? 0:18:24.880 --> 0:18:25.640 Oh? 0:18:25.760 --> 0:18:27.040 Fucking I just did? 0:18:28.800 --> 0:18:31.439 So many just did? How did you just lie? In 0:18:31.480 --> 0:18:34.639 what I was ready and you're not ready? 0:18:35.800 --> 0:18:38.320 I mean, like I said before, that are we ever 0:18:38.359 --> 0:18:40.320 really ready? I also said that I was using a 0:18:40.320 --> 0:18:42.000 fax machine. That's obviously not true. 0:18:42.960 --> 0:18:45.720 But yeah, I guess that wasn't true. Well, I mean 0:18:45.760 --> 0:18:47.920 there's a difference between. I think there's a difference between 0:18:47.960 --> 0:19:01.520 an intentional lie, right, and a confident exclamation prediction. Maybe that, 0:19:02.359 --> 0:19:09.000 when put through the test, yeah, proves false. So yes, 0:19:09.080 --> 0:19:11.520 if you say I'm ready, you may in that moment 0:19:11.600 --> 0:19:14.159 feel as though you are ready and then fail and 0:19:14.200 --> 0:19:16.840 then it turns out that you're not ready. Did you lie? 0:19:17.080 --> 0:19:18.879 I mean you believed that you were ready. When you 0:19:18.920 --> 0:19:21.360 say that you're ready, I mean I interpret it as 0:19:21.359 --> 0:19:23.679 you saying I believe that I'm ready, and it is 0:19:23.720 --> 0:19:26.320 true that you believed it, and that's the stand that 0:19:26.359 --> 0:19:26.840 you were making. 0:19:27.440 --> 0:19:28.240 That's a great point. 0:19:28.240 --> 0:19:29.440 But if I tell a girl. 0:19:29.280 --> 0:19:32.360 I love her, and then four months later I don't 0:19:32.400 --> 0:19:34.879 love her anymore, I think she would say to me, 0:19:35.240 --> 0:19:36.600 you bastard, you lied to me. 0:19:37.480 --> 0:19:38.720 No, I don't think of that. I don't know if 0:19:38.760 --> 0:19:41.160 I don't think of that's a lie because well, in 0:19:41.200 --> 0:19:44.880 the moment that you told that girl that you loved her, 0:19:45.040 --> 0:19:48.280 did you mean it when you said it? 0:19:50.040 --> 0:19:50.280 Yes? 0:19:50.800 --> 0:19:53.080 Yes, okay, So if you meant it when you said it, 0:19:53.080 --> 0:19:56.040 it was true in the moment, but then four months 0:19:56.119 --> 0:19:58.320 later if it no, something can be true at one 0:19:58.359 --> 0:20:03.520 point and then not be true later. Yeah, Like, how 0:20:03.560 --> 0:20:04.000 old are you? 0:20:04.840 --> 0:20:05.439 I'm eighteen? 0:20:05.680 --> 0:20:06.000 Nineteen? 0:20:06.000 --> 0:20:09.359 In a month, you're eighteen? Okay, I honestly thought you 0:20:09.359 --> 0:20:11.160 were in your thirties. You sound very old. 0:20:11.760 --> 0:20:14.640 Oh my, everyone says I look older too. I'm taul 0:20:14.720 --> 0:20:17.520 and I don't know. I don't get it though. 0:20:19.760 --> 0:20:24.280 But look a year from now, when you're nineteen, is 0:20:24.440 --> 0:20:27.760 are did you lie? You said you were eighteen? Okay, 0:20:27.760 --> 0:20:29.159 you're nineteen a month. In a month, you but you 0:20:29.200 --> 0:20:30.520 told me that you're eighteen. So in a month, will 0:20:30.560 --> 0:20:31.000 you have lied? 0:20:31.320 --> 0:20:31.399 No? 0:20:31.480 --> 0:20:32.919 Because things change. 0:20:33.240 --> 0:20:35.160 Yeah, that's a great point and I didn't really think 0:20:35.160 --> 0:20:35.520 about that. 0:20:36.240 --> 0:20:37.879 Well, how do you feel about this conversation? 0:20:39.040 --> 0:20:40.959 I think this is a good conversation. I think that 0:20:41.240 --> 0:20:41.600 you know. 0:20:42.680 --> 0:20:47.320 I'm sure there's more to be had, but from what 0:20:47.440 --> 0:20:51.000 has happened new it was definitely a good conversation. 0:20:52.280 --> 0:20:54.520 Beautiful. Well, listen, thank you so much for calling, Alex. 0:20:54.560 --> 0:20:56.520 I hope that this lives up to your expectations. 0:20:56.920 --> 0:21:00.439 Of course, well nothing ever does. So you have a 0:21:00.440 --> 0:21:02.600 good one you too. 0:21:03.680 --> 0:21:06.400 Aw from Lucas. 0:21:08.119 --> 0:21:12.200 Lucas, Yo, Geck, what's up man? 0:21:12.760 --> 0:21:14.080 How are you doing? Lucas? 0:21:15.040 --> 0:21:16.280 You know I'm doing all right? Thank you? 0:21:16.520 --> 0:21:18.560 Give me one secon stream for you. 0:21:21.400 --> 0:21:22.480 Got anything else going on? 0:21:23.800 --> 0:21:24.080 You know what? 0:21:24.160 --> 0:21:26.320 You have a luck going on? Geck, you are about 0:21:26.320 --> 0:21:34.040 to travel across an art you have a luckhsh jeeze Lucas. 0:21:34.760 --> 0:21:36.960 Yes, sir, what are you doing? 0:21:38.720 --> 0:21:41.520 I'm chilling my apartment just watching a guy in a 0:21:41.520 --> 0:21:44.800 lizard suit talk to other human beings and. 0:21:45.040 --> 0:21:47.000 Is nice work. 0:21:47.480 --> 0:21:51.040 Yeah, So I'm currently I'm kind of third wheeling it. Essentially, 0:21:51.040 --> 0:21:53.600 what I'm doing is I lived with my best friend 0:21:53.720 --> 0:21:59.520 since middle school and his longtime girlfriend. I went to 0:21:59.520 --> 0:22:03.000 college to with him, and I I know he's grow 0:22:03.040 --> 0:22:05.000 uping very well as well. So they have like a house, 0:22:05.000 --> 0:22:05.880 they own a house. 0:22:05.640 --> 0:22:08.960 And they have like this upstairs apartment area and I 0:22:09.000 --> 0:22:10.360 basically have it all myself. 0:22:10.480 --> 0:22:13.280 So I'm thriving. I moved in like a month ago. 0:22:13.680 --> 0:22:14.680 How are you paying the rent? 0:22:15.920 --> 0:22:18.359 Yeah, so basically played them a flat. I'm not a 0:22:18.359 --> 0:22:20.159 rent each month, no least or anything. 0:22:21.480 --> 0:22:25.080 Oh you know your boy exactly. 0:22:25.200 --> 0:22:28.720 Yeah, I just a boy. And uh I literally put 0:22:28.760 --> 0:22:32.200 like rent in the Venmo description. Here you go, pal, and. 0:22:32.160 --> 0:22:34.000 That's how how much is for rent? 0:22:35.200 --> 0:22:38.720 Seven and fifty a months, which in so I'm in Massachusetts, 0:22:39.240 --> 0:22:43.600 so it's not too bad. And oh hell yeah, it's 0:22:43.600 --> 0:22:45.600 like a yeah, it's like I get a whole area 0:22:45.600 --> 0:22:48.480 to myself and like, you know, I'm thriving essentially. 0:22:48.560 --> 0:22:51.920 So I mean, now is it what is the dynamic? 0:22:52.119 --> 0:22:57.560 Like is it odd living with because it's like, I mean, 0:22:57.560 --> 0:23:01.000 this is almost like a sitcom in a way, like 0:23:01.119 --> 0:23:04.240 they have their their picturesque life, they're in love, they 0:23:04.240 --> 0:23:06.800 have a house, and then they've but they've also got 0:23:06.800 --> 0:23:07.679 you living in their attic. 0:23:08.720 --> 0:23:10.520 Oh yeah, I can see it already, like a sitcom 0:23:10.520 --> 0:23:14.520 and CBS like and then like this happy loving couple, 0:23:14.560 --> 0:23:17.920 then this weird roommate moved in. But no, and also 0:23:18.400 --> 0:23:19.400 do you. 0:23:18.760 --> 0:23:21.119 Do be honest, do you consider yourself to be like 0:23:21.160 --> 0:23:23.080 a weird guy? Are you a strange person? 0:23:23.359 --> 0:23:23.560 Oh? 0:23:23.640 --> 0:23:27.000 God no, I'm very comfortable with who I am I'm 0:23:27.040 --> 0:23:29.600 twenty four years old. I'm happy where I am. I mean, 0:23:30.560 --> 0:23:34.160 I'm really ever since you know, I graduated college and stuff, 0:23:34.160 --> 0:23:37.600 I really like learned to be myself. So I'm really 0:23:37.640 --> 0:23:40.160 not I don't consider myself a weird guy. I mean, 0:23:40.200 --> 0:23:44.000 I have that social anxiety of oh man, I considered 0:23:44.000 --> 0:23:47.040 a weird guy to these people, but especially like those 0:23:46.920 --> 0:23:50.199 the situations at work or in like uh bars or 0:23:50.200 --> 0:23:50.920 stuff like that. 0:23:51.680 --> 0:23:53.840 But I'm really focused on this. 0:23:53.880 --> 0:23:55.840 Being myself and just I'm going with the flow. 0:23:56.520 --> 0:23:59.480 But you know, does it ever get weird living with 0:23:59.520 --> 0:24:01.200 the couple. They're trying to do a couple of things 0:24:01.280 --> 0:24:02.320 and you're just there. 0:24:03.320 --> 0:24:04.280 No, no, no, no, no, no. 0:24:04.359 --> 0:24:06.520 We have you know, that's a good question. 0:24:06.520 --> 0:24:08.440 You know, we just we just you know. 0:24:08.600 --> 0:24:11.040 I've known them for the longest time now, so we 0:24:11.119 --> 0:24:12.240 have the dynamic where. 0:24:12.119 --> 0:24:12.879 We're all friends. 0:24:12.960 --> 0:24:15.880 Essentially, we all just shoot the ship. We all work 0:24:16.080 --> 0:24:19.479 nine to five jobs during the week, so we when 0:24:19.520 --> 0:24:21.399 we all get home, we just shoot the ship, you know, 0:24:22.640 --> 0:24:24.040 and then we do our own things. We have our 0:24:24.080 --> 0:24:28.120 own areas. They have their private there their private areas, 0:24:28.160 --> 0:24:31.200 and I have my own space. It's a great dynamics. 0:24:31.720 --> 0:24:34.160 I'm really fortunate in that way. You know a lot 0:24:34.160 --> 0:24:36.399 of folks, you know, they have the you know, they 0:24:36.440 --> 0:24:39.960 hate their landlords, they have shitty living situations. But I 0:24:40.080 --> 0:24:41.080 really looked out so. 0:24:42.760 --> 0:24:45.280 Well, that's awesome. I know Alex was the last guy 0:24:45.600 --> 0:24:49.119 to Lucas. That's awesome, Lucas, Lucas real QUI tell me, 0:24:49.240 --> 0:24:50.800 I got a question for you, Lucas, just real quick. 0:24:50.960 --> 0:24:51.960 Have you ever lied? 0:24:53.840 --> 0:24:54.399 Oh? 0:24:55.119 --> 0:24:55.760 Good question? 0:24:59.160 --> 0:24:59.440 You know. 0:25:00.880 --> 0:25:06.240 You'll I feel like everyone does to some extent. I 0:25:06.320 --> 0:25:09.040 know that's the question of the evening because but I'm 0:25:09.359 --> 0:25:11.159 really I'm really unprepared. 0:25:11.680 --> 0:25:14.240 Oh man, just make something up. 0:25:14.280 --> 0:25:14.439 You know. 0:25:14.560 --> 0:25:17.280 I lie about little things that work. So I lie 0:25:17.320 --> 0:25:20.119 at work, like I'll say I'll send this email or 0:25:20.160 --> 0:25:23.000 I'll do it today, but I really don't. I always 0:25:23.040 --> 0:25:25.240 push off till the next day. I've probably done that 0:25:25.280 --> 0:25:28.640 like five million times at this point, and I feel 0:25:28.680 --> 0:25:30.879 I'm not looking at Chat. I'm a good boy, But 0:25:31.400 --> 0:25:33.480 I feel like Chat will relate to that where like 0:25:33.960 --> 0:25:36.800 oh yeah, like it's like three thirty and the answer me, 0:25:36.960 --> 0:25:38.760 oh yeah, I'll do that today and then they'll just 0:25:39.800 --> 0:25:41.840 I just flow it off to like Monday or the 0:25:41.840 --> 0:25:44.200 next day because I'm just so fucking tired. At that point, 0:25:44.320 --> 0:25:44.720 it's like. 0:25:46.359 --> 0:25:48.680 Yeah, well listen, Lucas, I'll let you get back to 0:25:48.720 --> 0:25:51.200 your unanswered emails. You are indeed a very good boy, 0:25:51.200 --> 0:25:52.840 and I appreciate you sharing with us. 0:25:54.200 --> 0:25:56.920 Yeah, honestly a lot of people waiting to call in. 0:25:57.000 --> 0:26:01.439 I'll let you go to geck, subscribe to get Patreon chat. 0:26:02.720 --> 0:26:06.080 It's awesome. I'm kind of promoting you here, gets kind 0:26:06.080 --> 0:26:09.920 of weird, but but other than that, you know, I'll 0:26:10.000 --> 0:26:11.879 let you go get best of luck with get across America. 0:26:11.880 --> 0:26:12.639 I'm looking forward to that. 0:26:12.680 --> 0:26:12.840 Man. 0:26:13.040 --> 0:26:14.520 Thank you so much, Lucas. I love you. I'll talk 0:26:14.520 --> 0:26:14.920 to you soon. 0:26:15.840 --> 0:26:16.439 Love you too, man. 0:26:16.480 --> 0:26:16.840 Take care. 0:26:18.880 --> 0:26:21.000 All from Katie. 0:26:22.240 --> 0:26:23.960 Katie, Katy, I'm here. 0:26:25.440 --> 0:26:25.919 What's up? 0:26:27.640 --> 0:26:28.159 You called me? 0:26:31.359 --> 0:26:31.600 Yeah? 0:26:31.720 --> 0:26:32.160 That's right? 0:26:33.400 --> 0:26:34.000 Is your stream on? 0:26:36.400 --> 0:26:38.720 I muted it? 0:26:38.800 --> 0:26:39.399 So I'm tired. 0:26:41.119 --> 0:26:43.840 Oh, just some laying around all day. But I have 0:26:44.080 --> 0:26:45.879 a prompt. Your your question? 0:26:47.359 --> 0:26:49.119 Oh you have a you have an answer to my question? 0:26:50.600 --> 0:26:50.919 Yes? 0:26:51.680 --> 0:26:54.520 A good question is I haven't asked any questions yet? 0:26:54.920 --> 0:26:56.480 Okay, then go have that? 0:26:57.840 --> 0:27:02.080 Would you say your name was Katie? I have a question? 0:27:03.920 --> 0:27:04.720 What is your question? 0:27:08.080 --> 0:27:09.040 Have you ever lied? 0:27:11.840 --> 0:27:12.040 Yes? 0:27:12.400 --> 0:27:14.520 Not very successfully though. 0:27:15.920 --> 0:27:16.600 Successfully. 0:27:17.520 --> 0:27:20.280 Yeah, I have a bad habit of smiling when I 0:27:20.320 --> 0:27:21.960 lie or laughing. 0:27:22.840 --> 0:27:32.280 Tell me about this time in which you lied unsuccessfully. 0:27:32.720 --> 0:27:36.480 You know the classic Uh, it's not you, it's not me, 0:27:36.600 --> 0:27:36.919 it's you. 0:27:37.840 --> 0:27:40.320 Of course, it's not you, it's me. M. 0:27:40.640 --> 0:27:45.560 So you were trying to lie about the way you felt. 0:27:47.200 --> 0:27:48.080 Yeah, haven't you. 0:27:49.040 --> 0:27:51.440 Well, there's lots of different categories of lying. There's lying 0:27:51.480 --> 0:27:55.159 about events, whether or not they happened. There's lying about feelings, 0:27:55.160 --> 0:27:59.160 whether or not they are true. And I feel like feelings. 0:28:01.080 --> 0:28:05.480 It's harder to get caught lying about your feelings. 0:28:05.840 --> 0:28:06.480 Yeah, it is. 0:28:06.720 --> 0:28:08.600 Well, I don't like other people feeling like shit. 0:28:08.680 --> 0:28:11.760 So I'm like, you know what, it's all me, it's me, 0:28:11.960 --> 0:28:12.600 it's not you. 0:28:13.080 --> 0:28:15.280 Now, who did you tell this to? Who did you 0:28:15.320 --> 0:28:17.000 tell that it was them and not you when in 0:28:17.040 --> 0:28:18.280 reality it was indeed them? 0:28:19.320 --> 0:28:20.600 Oh? Real people have dated? 0:28:22.200 --> 0:28:24.840 Now the last person you dated? What was it about 0:28:24.840 --> 0:28:29.840 them that made you break up with them? 0:28:29.880 --> 0:28:30.080 Oh? 0:28:30.119 --> 0:28:31.119 They were just like there were? 0:28:31.720 --> 0:28:33.399 Did it treat me how I wanted to be treated? 0:28:33.440 --> 0:28:35.200 Did it make me feel how I wanted to be felt, 0:28:35.240 --> 0:28:36.600 How how I wanted to feel? 0:28:37.600 --> 0:28:38.560 How do you want to be treated? 0:28:40.880 --> 0:28:42.480 I don't know, like you want to be the apple 0:28:42.480 --> 0:28:45.040 if someone dying, Right, so you. 0:28:44.960 --> 0:28:46.600 Don't want to like looking at other people? 0:28:46.880 --> 0:28:49.400 Or well, how can how can someone? How can someone 0:28:50.000 --> 0:28:51.600 treat you the way you want to be treated? If 0:28:51.600 --> 0:28:52.840 you don't even know how you want to be treated? 0:28:54.880 --> 0:28:55.200 Damn? 0:28:56.560 --> 0:28:57.240 Okay, then. 0:28:58.760 --> 0:29:02.560 You're right, you know. 0:29:04.000 --> 0:29:06.400 I mean? Look, I mean it sounds like you have 0:29:06.400 --> 0:29:07.960 an idea of how you do not want to be treated, 0:29:08.240 --> 0:29:10.920 which is similar Uh. 0:29:10.880 --> 0:29:17.960 Huh the silence. 0:29:22.160 --> 0:29:24.000 You want to be apple of someone's eye? 0:29:25.680 --> 0:29:26.640 Yeah, don't you? 0:29:26.960 --> 0:29:27.680 Doesn't everyone? 0:29:28.480 --> 0:29:28.560 Not? 0:29:28.720 --> 0:29:31.040 Really? I don't like the idea of being like revered 0:29:31.720 --> 0:29:34.120 by like one person. It seems like a lot. 0:29:36.480 --> 0:29:38.200 So would you want to be like I heard the 0:29:38.240 --> 0:29:39.600 call earlier? Would you want to be like in a 0:29:39.600 --> 0:29:43.880 Poli relationship so you can get all the all different people? 0:29:47.000 --> 0:29:50.560 I'm not sure to be honest, Well, I don't know. 0:29:50.600 --> 0:29:54.520 Like I have a friend who like uh. I remember 0:29:54.520 --> 0:29:56.760 one time I saw one of my friends like his 0:29:56.840 --> 0:30:00.360 girlfriend made an Instagram post about him and and she 0:30:00.560 --> 0:30:03.560 was like, and she was like, David is the most 0:30:03.720 --> 0:30:06.280 My friend's name is David, who was like David, I'm 0:30:06.360 --> 0:30:11.760 madly in love with him. He is my entire life, 0:30:11.960 --> 0:30:14.280 the best human being I've ever met in my entire life, 0:30:14.680 --> 0:30:18.360 and I remember saying to him like that, that's a 0:30:18.360 --> 0:30:20.560 lot of pressure right there, to be that for someone. 0:30:20.680 --> 0:30:23.520 I don't know if I want to be that for someone, 0:30:24.200 --> 0:30:26.680 that's a lot. That's a lot of pressure there. I 0:30:26.720 --> 0:30:27.840 don't I don't know. If I want to be the 0:30:27.880 --> 0:30:31.920 apple of someone's eye. I will gladly be. I will 0:30:32.000 --> 0:30:48.680 gladly be a welcome, respected, appreciated part of an entire life. 0:30:49.200 --> 0:30:51.440 But I don't know if I want to be an 0:30:51.680 --> 0:30:52.440 entire life. 0:30:54.960 --> 0:30:56.600 I got you, you just want to be a part 0:30:57.040 --> 0:31:00.920 of it, not an entire not an entirety. 0:31:01.320 --> 0:31:02.800 I mean, is that not how you feel? How do 0:31:02.840 --> 0:31:04.960 you feel you want to be someone's every you want 0:31:04.960 --> 0:31:05.080 to be? 0:31:06.800 --> 0:31:09.480 Well, I'm not trying to like you know, obsessed or 0:31:09.520 --> 0:31:14.800 so you know what I mean, who knows, you know, 0:31:14.840 --> 0:31:18.040 there's you would that's like the far far extreme. You know, 0:31:18.120 --> 0:31:20.840 you just want someone to not you know, look at 0:31:20.840 --> 0:31:23.440 other people, or will not necessarily look at other people, 0:31:23.520 --> 0:31:27.400 but talk about other people, like you know, cheating. I 0:31:27.400 --> 0:31:29.680 guess it's so prevalent with like social media. 0:31:30.720 --> 0:31:35.280 You want so you want someone who won't cheat on you? 0:31:37.520 --> 0:31:40.480 Well, yeah, well I think everyone wants that unless you're like, 0:31:40.680 --> 0:31:41.600 because that's. 0:31:41.320 --> 0:31:44.040 That's the bare minimum. 0:31:44.120 --> 0:31:46.720 Yeah, that is the bare minimum. 0:31:46.800 --> 0:31:49.000 Okay, Well, I mean I'm glad that you've defined that. 0:31:49.200 --> 0:31:51.360 That's a good thing to know that you want. 0:31:53.360 --> 0:31:55.040 Yeah, very true. 0:31:55.400 --> 0:31:56.640 I hope you find that. 0:31:57.240 --> 0:31:59.720 Yeah, I mean that's a very like low requirement. 0:32:01.080 --> 0:32:03.800 You know, you're in luck. No, you said that's shitty 0:32:03.840 --> 0:32:04.000 of you. 0:32:05.040 --> 0:32:08.640 Well, if you can't meet that requirement, it's just like, yeah, 0:32:08.680 --> 0:32:09.160 that's shitty. 0:32:10.480 --> 0:32:12.360 No, I was gonna say. I mean, I think what's 0:32:12.400 --> 0:32:17.640 your name again, Katie? Katie? You're actually in luck because 0:32:19.320 --> 0:32:22.560 you seem to have low standards, which is great. Don't 0:32:22.560 --> 0:32:24.080 take that as a bad it's a good I swear 0:32:24.120 --> 0:32:25.520 to God being you know, I'll meet that serious. It's 0:32:25.560 --> 0:32:27.840 a good thing. It's a good thing to have low standards. 0:32:28.160 --> 0:32:31.480 Because it's not it's becomes easier to make you happy. 0:32:34.800 --> 0:32:36.760 I guess we can agree to disagree. I mean, that 0:32:36.800 --> 0:32:38.000 makes you sound so terrible. 0:32:38.480 --> 0:32:39.680 Why does that make you that? Why what do you 0:32:39.720 --> 0:32:41.000 mean why does that make you sound terrible? 0:32:43.440 --> 0:32:46.480 Because I'm like, loast it like any anyone can make me. 0:32:48.160 --> 0:32:52.080 Isn't that a good thing that anyone can make you happy? 0:32:52.200 --> 0:32:54.440 You know what I'd be worried for Katie. I'd be 0:32:54.480 --> 0:32:56.440 worried for you if you had high standards. 0:32:57.920 --> 0:32:58.360 Very true. 0:32:58.400 --> 0:33:00.160 That makes it way harder to meet someone. 0:33:00.080 --> 0:33:01.960 Makes it way harder to meet. So I haven't look 0:33:02.000 --> 0:33:03.080 low standards a good thing. 0:33:05.880 --> 0:33:07.400 But well, oh I have something. 0:33:07.440 --> 0:33:10.120 I have met someone, but I'm gonna go and beat them. 0:33:10.040 --> 0:33:11.000 In two days. 0:33:11.400 --> 0:33:14.760 I'm fantastic. Hope they don't cheat on. 0:33:14.720 --> 0:33:16.280 You, that's what not. 0:33:18.080 --> 0:33:22.400 Thank Katie, I appreciate you sharing with us this evening, 0:33:22.840 --> 0:33:24.280 and do you have a one for us to the night. 0:33:25.280 --> 0:33:31.120 Thanks for dropping that knowledge of course. 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You also 0:34:12.000 --> 0:34:16.600 get access to the exclusive gek Legends, Discord, Patreon, dot com, 0:34:16.640 --> 0:34:19.520 slash Lyle forever. All right, back to the. 0:34:19.440 --> 0:34:24.360 Calls from Mackenzie mckenn. 0:34:24.600 --> 0:34:27.799 Mackenzie, Hi, how's it going? 0:34:28.520 --> 0:34:33.000 You know? Honestly, McKenzie, I'm doing pretty okay. I'm trying 0:34:33.040 --> 0:34:33.800 to live life. 0:34:33.880 --> 0:34:34.080 You know. 0:34:34.160 --> 0:34:37.200 Look, life is it's an intense experience, McKenzie, and I 0:34:37.200 --> 0:34:40.320 feel like it's created with an appropriate reaction of intensity. 0:34:42.000 --> 0:34:43.880 That's that's a good point. I agree there. 0:34:44.320 --> 0:34:48.200 I mean all the emotions, Mackenzie. I mean life inspires joy, 0:34:48.239 --> 0:34:53.719 it inspires grief, it inspires uh, excitement, nervousness, and I 0:34:54.080 --> 0:34:59.440 just want to reciprocate all of these incitements with the 0:34:59.480 --> 0:35:02.399 purest It's the most intense version of all those feelings. 0:35:04.719 --> 0:35:08.239 I really no idea how to respond to that, but I. 0:35:08.520 --> 0:35:11.799 Support you, Thank you, McKenzie. Look, Mackenzie, what are you 0:35:11.800 --> 0:35:12.439 doing right now? 0:35:13.640 --> 0:35:13.839 Oh? 0:35:13.920 --> 0:35:16.200 I'm just chilling trying to get my phone call through 0:35:16.200 --> 0:35:16.400 to you. 0:35:16.719 --> 0:35:20.399 I think I think it was please please? 0:35:20.440 --> 0:35:20.839 Do you think? 0:35:21.920 --> 0:35:23.799 I think it was like one hundred and sixty nine, 0:35:23.840 --> 0:35:27.000 So it's it's kind of a good number sixty. 0:35:26.719 --> 0:35:31.239 Nine, baby, Kenzie, What are you doing right now? I 0:35:31.239 --> 0:35:32.319 already asked you that. I didn't. 0:35:32.360 --> 0:35:33.800 I you did. 0:35:34.080 --> 0:35:35.719 I asked you that just now. 0:35:37.719 --> 0:35:40.040 I'm chilling with my cat watching your stream. 0:35:40.440 --> 0:35:42.560 Oh my god, I asked you know what, Mackenzie. I 0:35:42.640 --> 0:35:44.839 like that. I asked you that question twice and you 0:35:44.920 --> 0:35:46.960 went ahead and you answered it twice. And that's how 0:35:47.000 --> 0:35:48.560 I know I can trust you. McKenzie. 0:35:49.400 --> 0:35:52.120 That's a good point. Yeah, I'm a go getter. I'm 0:35:52.160 --> 0:35:52.880 a yes man. 0:35:53.120 --> 0:35:55.799 You're a go getter, yes man. How do you feel 0:35:55.800 --> 0:35:58.200 about that? Do you enjoy being a well a go 0:35:58.200 --> 0:35:59.960 get a ready yes man or two different things of it? 0:36:01.160 --> 0:36:01.359 Right? 0:36:01.640 --> 0:36:01.839 Yeah? 0:36:01.880 --> 0:36:03.640 I think I lied a little bit about the go gether. 0:36:04.200 --> 0:36:06.239 Okay, now that we have a little bit of time 0:36:06.719 --> 0:36:09.399 to sort of think, I know that they started off 0:36:09.440 --> 0:36:13.080 a little intense and that's one hundred percent of my fault. Okay, 0:36:13.320 --> 0:36:14.719 now that we have the time to think, do you 0:36:14.800 --> 0:36:17.879 truly believe that you are a yes ma'am? 0:36:21.239 --> 0:36:25.400 I no, because I just said no, so I suppose not. 0:36:27.000 --> 0:36:28.959 I'm pretty close though. I think I do a pretty 0:36:29.000 --> 0:36:31.320 good job about it. Though it's a spectrum. 0:36:31.520 --> 0:36:34.520 I'll say it's a spectrum. 0:36:34.760 --> 0:36:35.160 Mm hmm. 0:36:35.920 --> 0:36:40.959 So you're a maybe man man, Yeah, Mac The baby man. 0:36:41.120 --> 0:36:43.719 Yeah, are you a go gether? 0:36:46.200 --> 0:36:46.480 No? 0:36:46.719 --> 0:36:49.840 Absolutely not. I'm not, which is which you know is 0:36:49.840 --> 0:36:50.520 why I called? 0:36:50.719 --> 0:36:50.759 So? 0:36:52.280 --> 0:36:54.480 Oh okay, so you called because you're not a gogeter 0:36:54.640 --> 0:36:56.360 and plea. I would love to hear more about what 0:36:56.400 --> 0:36:57.040 you why you called? 0:36:58.080 --> 0:37:02.799 Okay, okay. So my most recent issue, I have no 0:37:02.840 --> 0:37:05.200 idea what to do with my life. I'm twenty four, 0:37:05.239 --> 0:37:09.160 I just turned twenty four. I've got an associates in English, 0:37:09.200 --> 0:37:12.480 which does fuck all? So I'm trying to figure out 0:37:12.760 --> 0:37:15.480 what to do. 0:37:14.360 --> 0:37:17.640 Give an associates in English? Such fuck all? Well, I mean, okay, 0:37:18.480 --> 0:37:20.640 when you set out to get this associates in English, 0:37:20.640 --> 0:37:23.080 you must have done it for some reason. 0:37:24.560 --> 0:37:27.919 Well, the funny part is it's about one class away 0:37:27.960 --> 0:37:32.799 from being an associates in biology. So it doesn't say 0:37:32.800 --> 0:37:36.240 a lot that I am an associates in English. 0:37:36.320 --> 0:37:37.560 Well what does it say for you to have an 0:37:37.560 --> 0:37:41.240 associate biology associates in biology? 0:37:42.320 --> 0:37:45.960 Well, I really wanted to work in being a wildlife 0:37:46.000 --> 0:37:50.200 rehab but they make no money. You can't help the 0:37:50.200 --> 0:37:51.240 get gos for a living. 0:37:52.120 --> 0:37:58.840 So because your Biology degree wasn't going to make you 0:37:58.880 --> 0:38:02.000 a lot of money, you and instead switched to an 0:38:02.000 --> 0:38:03.240 English degree. 0:38:04.719 --> 0:38:06.960 Yeah, Hey, there's a reason I'm calling you. 0:38:07.000 --> 0:38:13.320 Okay, well again, you you picked these things for a reason, 0:38:13.480 --> 0:38:16.080 and I've gotta I gotta believe that there's more than 0:38:16.080 --> 0:38:19.799 money at stake here. I mean, you must enjoy the 0:38:19.920 --> 0:38:22.360 idea of being in wildlife rehab. 0:38:23.760 --> 0:38:23.960 Right. 0:38:24.200 --> 0:38:27.440 Well, it seems like every job that I pick out, 0:38:28.040 --> 0:38:31.200 somebody advises me against it, or I look up and 0:38:31.360 --> 0:38:34.840 they just do not make money. I think my career 0:38:34.880 --> 0:38:38.320 goals are a little bit too empathetic, if that makes sense. 0:38:38.719 --> 0:38:41.000 Okay, well, these people advising you against it? For what 0:38:41.040 --> 0:38:42.880 reason are they advising you against it? Is it just 0:38:42.920 --> 0:38:43.480 the money thing. 0:38:45.040 --> 0:38:47.080 I've talked to a lot of teachers, and a lot 0:38:47.120 --> 0:38:49.359 of teachers say absolutely not, do. 0:38:49.400 --> 0:38:50.040 Not do it. 0:38:50.239 --> 0:38:52.880 So, and they have a lot of different reasons. A 0:38:52.920 --> 0:38:57.600 lot of it's to do with administration. Administrators. They really 0:38:57.640 --> 0:38:59.759 don't like who they work under, which I suppose means 0:38:59.800 --> 0:39:03.520 you know, to find the right school, but uh, money, 0:39:03.560 --> 0:39:07.680 administration kind of the way that the job works, stuff 0:39:07.719 --> 0:39:08.000 like that. 0:39:09.120 --> 0:39:10.560 I mean, how much money do you think you need 0:39:10.600 --> 0:39:10.919 to live? 0:39:12.239 --> 0:39:12.680 Not a lot. 0:39:12.800 --> 0:39:16.120 I'm I'm pretty uh, I'm pretty low maintenance, honestly. 0:39:17.040 --> 0:39:18.799 Okay, Well, then I guess in that case, it should 0:39:18.880 --> 0:39:20.719 matter with you if you don't make as much money 0:39:20.760 --> 0:39:22.800 as someone else, as long as you're doing something you enjoy. 0:39:22.600 --> 0:39:27.759 Doing, right, I want some sort of disposable income to 0:39:27.800 --> 0:39:29.879 do it, and I also want to be sure that, 0:39:30.000 --> 0:39:32.680 like I feel like I'm doing something I really want 0:39:32.680 --> 0:39:35.200 to like my job. I'm somebody that refuses to hate 0:39:35.200 --> 0:39:37.319 a third of their life. So I think that's why 0:39:37.320 --> 0:39:38.600 I'm so obsessive over it. 0:39:39.040 --> 0:39:41.839 I mean, yeah, it's extremely important. I agree with you 0:39:42.320 --> 0:39:43.920 on the obsession. I think it's a good thing to 0:39:43.920 --> 0:39:46.359 be obsessed about. But why do you want I mean 0:39:46.400 --> 0:39:48.200 you said you want disposable income? I mean how much? 0:39:48.520 --> 0:39:51.200 I mean when they say no money, Like, what does 0:39:51.200 --> 0:39:51.839 that really mean? 0:39:52.920 --> 0:39:53.000 Like? 0:39:53.239 --> 0:39:56.759 How much? How much money? How much money? Like is 0:39:56.760 --> 0:39:58.520 there is there is there a number that you could give, 0:39:58.560 --> 0:40:00.000 like how much money you could you make? And why 0:40:00.120 --> 0:40:00.920 life rehab. 0:40:02.760 --> 0:40:07.160 I think wildlife rehabits in the twenty grands, Like it's low. 0:40:08.520 --> 0:40:11.440 That is actually but yeah, where you live. 0:40:12.800 --> 0:40:14.560 Illinois, Southern Illinois. 0:40:14.840 --> 0:40:17.439 Could you theoretically eat food and live in a house 0:40:17.480 --> 0:40:19.360 for that amount of money? 0:40:19.440 --> 0:40:21.879 Yeah, but I don't know if it's worth it, you. 0:40:21.800 --> 0:40:25.399 Know, Okay, So what are you what do you think 0:40:25.440 --> 0:40:26.080 you suppose I. 0:40:26.000 --> 0:40:29.880 Could go really primal and just to live amongst them 0:40:30.480 --> 0:40:31.480 and then take care of them. 0:40:32.239 --> 0:40:34.320 I mean that's I mean, that's barely a living wage. 0:40:34.400 --> 0:40:36.080 I don't even think there's no way it's even legal 0:40:36.080 --> 0:40:36.719 to pay like that. 0:40:37.680 --> 0:40:40.960 Yeah, well it's because you know, people, it's all based 0:40:41.080 --> 0:40:44.480 mostly based off of charity. They run like a lot 0:40:44.560 --> 0:40:47.200 of them, I know, run them out of their homes basically, 0:40:47.960 --> 0:40:51.399 and just try to fundraise because unless you go into 0:40:51.440 --> 0:40:54.040 like a government job, which was also an option of biology, 0:40:54.200 --> 0:40:55.520 you don't get paid well. 0:40:57.160 --> 0:41:01.640 So being a wildlife rehability is that off the table? 0:41:01.800 --> 0:41:03.919 Have you decided that I'm not doing that, I gotta 0:41:03.920 --> 0:41:05.480 find a new thing, or is that is that what 0:41:05.520 --> 0:41:06.200 you really want to do? 0:41:07.560 --> 0:41:07.880 Well? 0:41:08.280 --> 0:41:10.279 I came up with this plan that I would be 0:41:10.280 --> 0:41:13.960 an English teacher and then work my summers as a 0:41:14.840 --> 0:41:18.080 hobbyist wildlife rehab, which I don't think is the worst 0:41:18.080 --> 0:41:22.719 plan every Yeah, I think I let my anxiety get 0:41:22.719 --> 0:41:23.839 to me a little bit too much. 0:41:24.239 --> 0:41:25.560 What are you anxious about? 0:41:27.800 --> 0:41:30.680 Genuinely just making the wrong decision, which everybody says. You know, 0:41:30.719 --> 0:41:32.560 you can always go back to school or always make 0:41:32.640 --> 0:41:35.520 up a different decision. But you know, I care about 0:41:35.560 --> 0:41:36.799 debt and everything, so. 0:41:38.200 --> 0:41:40.920 No debt is a big one. I mean, you're not 0:41:40.920 --> 0:41:43.680 thinking about incurring more debt, are you? 0:41:43.840 --> 0:41:46.520 No? So far I've got my associations with no debt. 0:41:46.600 --> 0:41:48.399 So oh, so you don't have any debt? 0:41:49.200 --> 0:41:49.600 Not yet? 0:41:49.680 --> 0:41:49.759 No? 0:41:50.160 --> 0:41:52.279 Oh you don't wait so okay, but you just said 0:41:52.320 --> 0:41:53.759 not yet. But then when I ask you if you're 0:41:53.760 --> 0:41:55.040 thinking about a caring more that, you said no. 0:41:56.600 --> 0:41:58.960 What's that going to try not to? But I guess yes, 0:41:59.040 --> 0:41:59.720 I guess yes. 0:42:00.080 --> 0:42:05.000 Sorry, no, I'll be sorry. Well you have okay, Well, 0:42:05.040 --> 0:42:07.680 you want to be an English teacher or wildlife associates 0:42:07.760 --> 0:42:11.680 I mean a wildlife rehabilitationist person. It sounds like you 0:42:13.640 --> 0:42:16.239 have the qualifications required to be I don't know. I 0:42:16.280 --> 0:42:18.839 don't have a real job, so I don't know what 0:42:18.920 --> 0:42:22.239 it requires to do that. But it sounds like you 0:42:22.280 --> 0:42:29.400 have what it takes requirementally wise to be an English teacher. 0:42:29.600 --> 0:42:34.080 Right right, Yeah, I definitely could. I definitely say. 0:42:35.120 --> 0:42:36.960 I mean, well, what's stopping you from this plan of 0:42:37.200 --> 0:42:40.200 the English teacher during the year in the during the summer. 0:42:41.960 --> 0:42:44.160 It's definitely the amount of teachers I've talked to that 0:42:44.200 --> 0:42:46.800 have advised me against it, because I don't want to 0:42:46.840 --> 0:42:49.839 be the guy that's like, you know, screw you all. 0:42:49.880 --> 0:42:51.920 I'm not going to trust your advice, and I'm just 0:42:51.960 --> 0:42:53.400 gonna do it anyway. 0:42:53.960 --> 0:42:54.160 Yeah. 0:42:54.200 --> 0:42:55.640 But I mean, let's say you do it anyway. I mean, 0:42:55.719 --> 0:42:59.680 let's say you do one summer as a rehab person 0:42:59.800 --> 0:43:04.000 and it sucks. You don't have to go into debt, 0:43:06.520 --> 0:43:07.759 like like, what do you what do you? What do 0:43:07.800 --> 0:43:09.400 you lose from trying it? That's what I'm trying to 0:43:09.400 --> 0:43:09.839 figure out. 0:43:10.640 --> 0:43:13.880 I guess there's not a lot to lose with the rehabit. 0:43:14.040 --> 0:43:16.799 I'm doing it occasionally, but there's more to lose with 0:43:16.920 --> 0:43:18.160 like a bachelor's degree. 0:43:19.239 --> 0:43:21.239 Yeah, there's definitely something to lose if you go back 0:43:21.280 --> 0:43:23.839 to get more school. But that's what do you need? 0:43:23.880 --> 0:43:26.480 Do you need more school to do this plan? 0:43:28.080 --> 0:43:30.040 Yes, I need to finish my bachelors, so I only 0:43:30.080 --> 0:43:34.560 have the associates. M h. 0:43:35.239 --> 0:43:37.560 Yeah, that does make it tough. 0:43:38.440 --> 0:43:40.520 Yeah, it's a dilemmaker. 0:43:40.680 --> 0:43:42.959 Let me ask you one one kind of less thing 0:43:43.080 --> 0:43:45.080 that I like to think about when I think about 0:43:45.080 --> 0:43:51.080 these sort of situations. Okay, uh, all right, you wanting 0:43:51.120 --> 0:43:57.640 to be in the jobs themselves are like very tangible 0:43:58.560 --> 0:44:03.160 specific things. Yes, but what's at the root of your 0:44:03.239 --> 0:44:05.640 desire to do them? Does that make sense? 0:44:06.000 --> 0:44:08.760 Like yeah, yeah, yeah, I would say it's just helping, 0:44:09.200 --> 0:44:13.279 like I really enjoy helping animals and people kids specifically. 0:44:13.520 --> 0:44:16.480 So that's when I said they're kind of empathy based. 0:44:17.080 --> 0:44:19.280 Okay, great, And the reason I asked that is because 0:44:21.440 --> 0:44:25.880 that like worst case scenario and I I've told this 0:44:25.880 --> 0:44:30.839 to someone before with this exact camel background on another stream, 0:44:31.040 --> 0:44:33.360 which is that I would really think about the I 0:44:33.400 --> 0:44:36.680 would think less about the specifics and more about the 0:44:36.719 --> 0:44:39.719 generalities of I want to help people, I want to 0:44:39.719 --> 0:44:41.759 help kids, I want to help animals, because there's I 0:44:41.800 --> 0:44:45.319 mean infinite ways to help people that don't require you 0:44:45.400 --> 0:44:50.480 going into debt absolutely, So I would focus on chasing 0:44:50.520 --> 0:44:54.880 those very general things because I think people a lot 0:44:54.920 --> 0:44:57.040 of times like they go after this very specific thing 0:44:57.080 --> 0:44:59.680 like I want to be like they get like television on, 0:44:59.760 --> 0:45:03.560 like I want to be this thing, only this thing, 0:45:03.600 --> 0:45:05.640 and if someone says no to me and I can't 0:45:05.680 --> 0:45:08.200 be this thing, I'm fucked. But when reality, what you're 0:45:08.239 --> 0:45:12.120 chasing is is the fulfillment of the general thing of 0:45:12.160 --> 0:45:14.920 I want to help people. So I do you have 0:45:15.320 --> 0:45:20.400 that in mind as opposed to any specific career in mind? 0:45:20.440 --> 0:45:24.359 If that means yeah, absolutely, that's a that's a really 0:45:24.360 --> 0:45:25.960 great point. That's gonna help me out a lot. 0:45:26.520 --> 0:45:26.759 Good. 0:45:28.040 --> 0:45:29.879 I appreciate that, mackenzie. 0:45:30.320 --> 0:45:32.960 Well, thank you for for sure, McKenzie, and good luck 0:45:33.239 --> 0:45:35.600 you too. Have a good night. 0:45:37.520 --> 0:45:39.200 All from Beatrice. 0:45:40.520 --> 0:45:44.560 Beatrice, you picked I picked up? 0:45:47.040 --> 0:45:49.600 Yeah, Hi, what's up dude? 0:45:49.680 --> 0:45:51.400 Hey Beatrice, can you turn your stream off for me? 0:45:52.280 --> 0:45:52.440 Oh? 0:45:52.520 --> 0:45:54.400 Yeah, sorry, yeah, it's off. 0:45:58.040 --> 0:45:58.600 So what's up? 0:46:00.640 --> 0:46:03.680 Nothing much. It's been a rough day and I saw 0:46:03.760 --> 0:46:05.799 your streaming, so that cheered me up a little bit. 0:46:07.680 --> 0:46:08.440 I'm happy to hear that. 0:46:10.600 --> 0:46:11.160 How about you? 0:46:12.000 --> 0:46:13.200 Why has it been a rough day? 0:46:14.280 --> 0:46:14.400 Uh? 0:46:15.120 --> 0:46:19.080 Just long. I couldn't get any sleep last night and 0:46:19.120 --> 0:46:21.799 I was running around to finish chores, so. 0:46:23.160 --> 0:46:27.560 Finish tours chor chores. 0:46:28.400 --> 0:46:28.640 Yeah. 0:46:28.640 --> 0:46:30.359 I didn't get to sleep on last night either. Did 0:46:30.719 --> 0:46:33.680 sleep is uh for the week? 0:46:34.840 --> 0:46:36.600 Yeah, I'm sorry. 0:46:36.440 --> 0:46:38.279 They say that. I mean, here's the thing, here's what 0:46:38.960 --> 0:46:42.080 I think I'm gonna look. I'm no doctor, but I'm 0:46:42.120 --> 0:46:45.520 a little skeptical, right because they say that sleep is healthy. 0:46:45.640 --> 0:46:48.080 M They said that sleep is healthy, but they also 0:46:48.080 --> 0:46:52.799 say that exercise is healthy, and to me, that's a contradiction. 0:46:52.920 --> 0:46:54.960 I'm like, what is it? Should I be laying around 0:46:54.960 --> 0:46:56.840 all day doing nothing or should I be moving my 0:46:56.880 --> 0:47:01.680 body twenty four to seven. That's why I don't trust doctors, 0:47:02.200 --> 0:47:06.719 because they've been giving out too much contradicting information. How 0:47:06.719 --> 0:47:09.680 can sleep and exercise both be healthy? 0:47:11.400 --> 0:47:14.279 I'm an athlete, so I don't really know. 0:47:16.880 --> 0:47:19.360 All right, so you picked one, which I think is reasonable. 0:47:20.440 --> 0:47:21.719 Yeah, but it wasn't worth it. 0:47:23.160 --> 0:47:25.840 Why was it not worth it? How old are you? Beatrice? 0:47:26.640 --> 0:47:27.680 I am twenty five. 0:47:28.520 --> 0:47:32.439 You're an athlete? Are you? I mean, okay, so you're 0:47:33.760 --> 0:47:35.480 I mean at the age of twenty five, you're probably 0:47:35.680 --> 0:47:39.520 like a real athlete. You're not like in school or 0:47:40.320 --> 0:47:41.160 anything like that. 0:47:41.040 --> 0:47:41.319 Are you? 0:47:41.800 --> 0:47:42.040 Yeah? 0:47:42.200 --> 0:47:44.080 No, I didn't go to college. 0:47:44.800 --> 0:47:45.920 What kind of athlete are you? 0:47:46.840 --> 0:47:47.920 I'm a swimmer. 0:47:49.280 --> 0:47:51.160 Say you're like a professional competitive swimmer. 0:47:51.960 --> 0:47:59.440 I guess, so, I guess so well. I go to 0:47:59.520 --> 0:48:03.160 bitcomp petitions, but where I live it's not really that hard. 0:48:03.280 --> 0:48:07.120 There's not many people on our team, so it's easy 0:48:07.160 --> 0:48:08.520 to get picked to go to. 0:48:08.480 --> 0:48:09.560 These big ends. 0:48:10.000 --> 0:48:10.320 Beature. 0:48:10.360 --> 0:48:11.600 Some my own the speakerphone right now. 0:48:12.520 --> 0:48:15.080 No, I'm sorry, Are you like echoing. 0:48:15.560 --> 0:48:17.200 No, no, it's just a little it's a little bit 0:48:17.200 --> 0:48:17.960 tricky to hear you. 0:48:18.719 --> 0:48:22.160 I'm sorry, Oh, no problem. 0:48:23.840 --> 0:48:26.879 So you are right. So you said where you live, 0:48:26.920 --> 0:48:28.239 there's not a lot of people, so it's easy to 0:48:28.239 --> 0:48:31.120 get picked. So you're the best. So you're among the 0:48:31.200 --> 0:48:31.920 kareem of the crown. 0:48:33.880 --> 0:48:36.080 I guess because. 0:48:35.800 --> 0:48:37.680 You never sleep because you're too busy swimming. 0:48:40.440 --> 0:48:42.760 I wish, I wish I could grow a pair of gills. 0:48:43.960 --> 0:48:46.319 Well, you're on your way. It sounds like, okay, so 0:48:46.520 --> 0:48:50.600 you all right? So you're a professional swim. 0:48:50.400 --> 0:48:53.600 Person, yeah, professional fish. 0:48:54.160 --> 0:48:57.560 Do you enjoy being a professional fish? 0:48:59.200 --> 0:48:59.839 I don't. 0:49:00.160 --> 0:49:00.360 I know. 0:49:00.560 --> 0:49:04.680 I joined when I was in I think third grade. 0:49:05.560 --> 0:49:07.960 It's when I started to learn how to swim. And 0:49:08.120 --> 0:49:11.839 it was fun until like middle school, high school, and 0:49:11.880 --> 0:49:16.240 then it just started to get stressful and not too great. 0:49:17.440 --> 0:49:22.040 Wow. So it's been stressful since middle school? Yeah, which 0:49:22.200 --> 0:49:28.440 was ten years ago. Uh. And yet you've you've you 0:49:28.719 --> 0:49:29.440 have persisted. 0:49:30.600 --> 0:49:30.960 Yeah? 0:49:32.120 --> 0:49:33.000 What keeps you going? 0:49:35.239 --> 0:49:39.560 I like the experiences that I get to have, and 0:49:39.840 --> 0:49:42.319 I know if I quit, I probably wouldn't see half 0:49:42.360 --> 0:49:46.799 of the people that I swim with anymore. Because we 0:49:46.920 --> 0:49:48.440 devote our lives to the sport. 0:49:51.360 --> 0:49:54.239 Yeah, it sounds like an all encompassing thing. M. 0:49:57.040 --> 0:49:59.359 What about you? Did you do any sports growing up? 0:50:03.120 --> 0:50:04.759 So do you think that you're gonna keep with it? 0:50:07.520 --> 0:50:10.799 I don't know. I've been thinking about that recently. There's 0:50:10.840 --> 0:50:14.600 a big meat coming up. It's gonna be in Puerto Rico. 0:50:14.840 --> 0:50:18.240 And I just haven't been doing that right. I haven't 0:50:18.280 --> 0:50:23.400 been improving. I developed a chronic bronchitis, I think, and 0:50:23.520 --> 0:50:26.320 it's just been getting hard and I haven't gotten a 0:50:26.440 --> 0:50:28.240 chance to get myself checked out yet. 0:50:28.320 --> 0:50:33.600 So have you talked to a real therapist about this stuff? 0:50:33.640 --> 0:50:35.719 It sounds like it's very genuinely stressing you. 0:50:35.719 --> 0:50:41.680 As No, it's too expensive, but I'm sorry, Oh no, 0:50:41.680 --> 0:50:41.920 I don't. 0:50:41.920 --> 0:50:46.160 You don't have to be sorry it's too expensive. 0:50:47.440 --> 0:50:48.440 Yeah. 0:50:48.640 --> 0:50:51.719 They don't have like a look for a sport that's stressful. 0:50:52.160 --> 0:50:55.040 They should have like a sponsored thing. 0:50:56.080 --> 0:51:00.080 Well, I mean normally in bigger places like up the 0:51:00.080 --> 0:51:05.920 the States, they have like some teams have the souses 0:51:06.080 --> 0:51:08.279 and people that you can go to. But are some 0:51:08.480 --> 0:51:11.840 team is so small that they just they're kind of 0:51:11.840 --> 0:51:15.560 happy that you're coming. And if she heard or something 0:51:15.680 --> 0:51:19.400 going on in your life, that's your problem. 0:51:19.480 --> 0:51:26.040 Mmmm. Well, look, I don't know. I feel like there's 0:51:26.080 --> 0:51:28.239 got to be a thing that you can though I 0:51:28.280 --> 0:51:31.640 don't know, I haven't really researched this. I gotta I 0:51:31.680 --> 0:51:36.160 gotta get a better help code that I can give 0:51:36.360 --> 0:51:41.839 Michael Michael Phelps uses that ship? Which? Uh? Which? Which? 0:51:41.880 --> 0:51:44.240 Which is it that Michael Phelps uses that everyone hates? 0:51:45.719 --> 0:51:48.279 Oh, I couldn't tell you. 0:51:52.960 --> 0:51:55.399 Look if Michael, if Michael Phelps uses it, I feel 0:51:55.400 --> 0:51:59.480 like it could be good for you, I guess. 0:52:00.480 --> 0:52:03.240 I mean, look at him, it's a gold medalist. 0:52:04.440 --> 0:52:06.560 How do you How do you feel about this conversation? 0:52:08.120 --> 0:52:11.480 I feel like it's nice. I don't really like opening 0:52:11.600 --> 0:52:14.640 up to friends or family because I don't want to 0:52:14.719 --> 0:52:17.719 dump my problems or worries into them because I know 0:52:17.760 --> 0:52:20.080 they're already stressed out with all the things happening in 0:52:20.080 --> 0:52:21.760 their lives. 0:52:22.600 --> 0:52:27.880 Your life is funny. Well, look, Beatrice, I hope that 0:52:27.960 --> 0:52:30.080 you do find a you know, a real therapist to 0:52:30.120 --> 0:52:33.080 talk to. Maybe uh, I don't know. Maybe you'll be 0:52:33.080 --> 0:52:38.000 swimming one day and you'll, like, you know, it would 0:52:38.000 --> 0:52:41.520 be interesting. I'm imagining you, like I don't know, you 0:52:42.320 --> 0:52:45.239 you fall into this like fantasy, but like you become 0:52:45.280 --> 0:52:48.080 a mermaid and you go into the sea and you 0:52:48.160 --> 0:52:50.440 start like telling all your problems to all the fish 0:52:50.440 --> 0:52:53.120 and stuff, and they give you any good advice, like 0:52:53.160 --> 0:52:56.239 better advice than I could give you, and you sing 0:52:56.239 --> 0:53:00.000 a song that could happen to you. 0:53:01.719 --> 0:53:03.160 I'd love for that to happen to me. 0:53:04.080 --> 0:53:08.520 I believe in it. Thank you well, you have a 0:53:08.560 --> 0:53:10.239 good night, Beatrice. Thank you so much for. 0:53:10.200 --> 0:53:12.719 Calling you too. I appreciate the talk. 0:53:14.640 --> 0:53:15.320 Can I Beatrice? 0:53:16.160 --> 0:53:18.359 Bye? 0:53:19.560 --> 0:53:20.520 How from. 0:53:21.840 --> 0:53:22.640 Doctor Johnson? 0:53:23.680 --> 0:53:32.080 Doctor Johnson? How you doing? Doc john. 0:53:33.120 --> 0:53:35.360 Look, I'm well, how are you? 0:53:39.080 --> 0:53:40.239 What kind of doctor are you? 0:53:42.640 --> 0:53:43.040 Uh? 0:53:44.040 --> 0:53:46.600 A fully qualified real one? 0:53:47.640 --> 0:53:49.560 A fully qualified real one? 0:53:51.239 --> 0:53:51.479 Yes? 0:53:52.440 --> 0:53:55.200 And what type of medicine are you fully qualified to 0:53:55.360 --> 0:53:55.799 really do? 0:53:57.800 --> 0:53:58.120 Uh? 0:53:58.200 --> 0:53:59.960 No, No, a doctor felicid? 0:54:01.040 --> 0:54:01.200 Oh? 0:54:01.280 --> 0:54:08.560 Doctor philosophy? Yes, I'm curious about this. You say you're 0:54:08.640 --> 0:54:11.279 qualified to be a doctor. 0:54:12.920 --> 0:54:14.239 In some sense of the word. 0:54:15.239 --> 0:54:21.680 What exactly qualify? What makes someone objectively more qualified to 0:54:21.960 --> 0:54:24.160 philosophize than someone else? 0:54:29.280 --> 0:54:33.440 Is it objective? I guess some sort of paper. 0:54:34.400 --> 0:54:36.560 It's on paper, it's I I you know, I mean, 0:54:36.560 --> 0:54:37.920 I don't know. I don't know if it's objective. I 0:54:37.920 --> 0:54:39.800 guess that's why I'm kind of what I'm asking. 0:54:44.360 --> 0:54:48.200 Well, I didn't really expect to get in some of 0:54:48.280 --> 0:54:49.000 its right off. 0:54:49.719 --> 0:54:50.360 Oh, no worries. 0:54:50.400 --> 0:54:54.719 Take a time, Doc John, Sure, sure, can I come 0:54:54.760 --> 0:54:56.000 claim with you? 0:54:56.040 --> 0:54:56.360 Please? 0:54:58.920 --> 0:54:59.720 I'm not a doctor. 0:55:01.719 --> 0:55:04.480 No, you're John back from the dead. 0:55:06.400 --> 0:55:09.560 Could be if that's what you like. 0:55:11.200 --> 0:55:12.880 I don't want what i'd like. I want the truth. 0:55:15.360 --> 0:55:21.000 I understand. Well, I'm not a doctor. 0:55:21.719 --> 0:55:22.040 Okay. 0:55:23.440 --> 0:55:28.840 Now I've come to uh have a charvity today, not 0:55:29.160 --> 0:55:32.920 not specifically related to the topic. I've just liked some 0:55:33.000 --> 0:55:35.960 advice and I thought this would be a lot easier 0:55:36.000 --> 0:55:38.920 than talking to a real you know, Gecker. 0:55:39.640 --> 0:55:44.400 Sure, sure, Look, I I I can promise you no satisfaction. 0:55:44.560 --> 0:55:46.920 I do not have a satisfaction guarantee, as a lot 0:55:46.920 --> 0:55:49.919 of products and services do, but I will promise you 0:55:50.640 --> 0:55:53.799 an effort guarantee. I will try my best to give 0:55:53.840 --> 0:55:55.000 you advice. 0:55:55.920 --> 0:55:56.040 Uh. 0:55:56.280 --> 0:55:59.319 So please please? Uh? What is it? What do you 0:55:59.320 --> 0:55:59.960 tell me? Everything? 0:56:02.719 --> 0:56:10.400 Okay, So here's the story. Tell me, I've just reconnected 0:56:10.440 --> 0:56:15.880 with a young lady, not young, but you know right, 0:56:16.520 --> 0:56:22.080 got it? And you know we'd had a bit of history, 0:56:23.120 --> 0:56:24.959 high school crush kind of deal. 0:56:25.520 --> 0:56:25.919 Mm hmm. 0:56:28.640 --> 0:56:33.120 And yeah, yeah, it's now been five or six years 0:56:33.200 --> 0:56:36.920 or so, and to complete the story, I liked it 0:56:36.960 --> 0:56:42.520 for a long time. I got into a relationship. She 0:56:42.880 --> 0:56:45.800 tried to make something happen, but I'm a you know, 0:56:45.920 --> 0:56:47.600 moral person, so I didn't go for that. 0:56:49.040 --> 0:56:51.160 And I'm sorry, Well I'm real quick, you said she 0:56:51.560 --> 0:56:55.920 first of all, Doc, John, I'm not quite getting the 0:56:55.920 --> 0:56:57.880 details of the story. Here's my current understanding of what 0:56:57.920 --> 0:56:59.880 you're trying to tell me is that you were seeing 0:56:59.880 --> 0:57:02.960 a girl and you too, is that you dated a 0:57:03.000 --> 0:57:05.239 girl for five years and then you told me she 0:57:05.320 --> 0:57:08.959 tried to make something happen, but you're against but because 0:57:09.000 --> 0:57:10.680 of your moraley, I mean, what is this something? 0:57:11.040 --> 0:57:14.239 My apologies, my my apologies. I was dating a girl, 0:57:14.400 --> 0:57:18.120 a different girl, and then this girl which I had 0:57:18.600 --> 0:57:21.800 you know, I had a thing for for many years previously. 0:57:22.600 --> 0:57:25.000 Okay, you've been dating a girl and then a girl 0:57:25.000 --> 0:57:28.280 who you previously had a crush on wanted to make 0:57:28.400 --> 0:57:31.680 something happen with you, but you did not want to 0:57:31.720 --> 0:57:34.600 do that because you are currently in a relationship I 0:57:35.120 --> 0:57:37.480 was at the time. Yes, okay, so now you're not 0:57:37.480 --> 0:57:38.800 in a relationship. 0:57:39.480 --> 0:57:41.520 No, and it's been many years. But this is just 0:57:41.800 --> 0:57:46.600 this is just some background you know of the complexity 0:57:46.640 --> 0:57:48.160 of what's going on. 0:57:48.400 --> 0:57:49.680 So hit me with the four anyway. 0:57:51.840 --> 0:57:54.880 Uh, we just she's just got to touch again and 0:57:54.920 --> 0:57:57.160 we've we've seen each other once and it was it 0:57:57.200 --> 0:57:57.760 was very good. 0:57:58.600 --> 0:58:00.520 You don't sound like you have a problem, Like you've 0:58:00.520 --> 0:58:02.400 got a good thing going on. You are no longer 0:58:02.400 --> 0:58:05.600 in a relationship for whatever reason, and now this girl 0:58:05.640 --> 0:58:08.080 who you liked, who wanted to be with you when 0:58:08.080 --> 0:58:10.440 you were in a relationship, and you, you know, I 0:58:10.480 --> 0:58:14.000 think appropriately decided not to do that, but now you're 0:58:14.040 --> 0:58:16.000 not in a relationship and are not free to free 0:58:16.000 --> 0:58:16.560 to pursue that. 0:58:18.400 --> 0:58:22.280 Yeah, the only problem is now, like you know what 0:58:22.600 --> 0:58:25.840 and I I know nothing nothing about her. 0:58:26.720 --> 0:58:31.160 Really, you don't know anything about her. 0:58:30.920 --> 0:58:31.080 Not. 0:58:32.880 --> 0:58:34.200 The person she is now. 0:58:35.560 --> 0:58:42.400 Well, Doc John, Doc John, it's get to know her, 0:58:42.680 --> 0:58:45.520 go on some dates for Christ's sake, Doc John. 0:58:46.800 --> 0:58:51.280 Yeah, that's that's the plan. However, I feel now like 0:58:51.680 --> 0:58:55.520 how I felt in high school, and like I want 0:58:55.560 --> 0:58:59.040 to know, like if I'm chasing something in the past. 0:58:59.360 --> 0:59:03.960 That's beautiful, John, Look, dot John, this person's giving you butterflies. 0:59:03.960 --> 0:59:06.160 If you're nervous to be with this person, you're nervous 0:59:06.200 --> 0:59:07.640 to take her on a date and I mean that's good. 0:59:08.200 --> 0:59:11.840 That means that you have something here. Follow the nerves, John. 0:59:13.280 --> 0:59:15.200 If you weren't nervous to be with her, then I 0:59:15.200 --> 0:59:17.240 mean that would be boring, that would not be a 0:59:17.280 --> 0:59:21.080 relationship worth pursuing. I don't even think so. I think 0:59:21.120 --> 0:59:22.840 you follow the nerves. It means that you're getting out 0:59:22.840 --> 0:59:24.920 of your comfort zone. It means that you're attempting something 0:59:24.920 --> 0:59:25.640 that matters to you. 0:59:25.720 --> 0:59:26.000 John. 0:59:29.480 --> 0:59:36.680 Let's see, where are you gonna take her? Take her 0:59:36.720 --> 0:59:37.120 to the bowling? 0:59:37.320 --> 0:59:37.760 What do they do? 0:59:37.840 --> 0:59:44.080 And let's see. It sounds like you're from Taiwan. What 0:59:44.120 --> 0:59:45.040 do they do in Taiwan? 0:59:48.920 --> 0:59:49.640 Chinese food? 0:59:51.280 --> 0:59:53.600 I don't know if that's correct, but listen, doc John, 0:59:53.920 --> 0:59:56.480 good luck in your romantic pursuits. I'm giving you all 0:59:56.520 --> 0:59:59.480 of my gecko energy and I appreciate you calling in you. 1:00:00.600 --> 1:00:01.640 Thank you, Thank you. 1:00:02.160 --> 1:00:03.200 Australia by the way. 1:00:03.640 --> 1:00:05.720 Represent how come man? 1:00:07.360 --> 1:00:07.800 All right? 1:00:08.240 --> 1:00:10.640 This is actually is Australia back here. I love you too, 1:00:10.680 --> 1:00:12.240 Dot John, you have one for us then, I thank 1:00:12.240 --> 1:00:13.160 you so much for sharing. 1:00:14.200 --> 1:00:15.160 Any Thank you. 1:00:18.840 --> 1:00:20.760 All from Anthony. 1:00:22.040 --> 1:00:22.800 Anthony. 1:00:23.040 --> 1:00:30.439 Oh yeah, come I own yeah yeah indeed. Uh well, 1:00:30.640 --> 1:00:32.840 I'm just listening and I don't hate your stream that's 1:00:32.840 --> 1:00:38.760 what you're wondering. So how are you doing. 1:00:38.640 --> 1:00:47.480 Tonight, Anthony? Yes, yeah, have you ever lied? 1:00:49.760 --> 1:00:50.240 I have? 1:00:50.440 --> 1:00:50.640 Yeah? 1:00:51.480 --> 1:00:53.560 Tell me about you having lied? 1:00:55.200 --> 1:00:57.520 H I have been thinking about that. I've been watching 1:00:57.560 --> 1:01:00.520 the entire stream and I just completely got. 1:01:02.440 --> 1:01:03.080 Free to remember. 1:01:06.240 --> 1:01:10.400 Oh here's an easy one. I guess. Like the beginning 1:01:10.400 --> 1:01:12.560 of high school, freshman year, I started smoking weed. 1:01:13.400 --> 1:01:14.040 I liked my. 1:01:14.120 --> 1:01:16.920 Mom about it like about a year and a half 1:01:18.120 --> 1:01:20.400 until like I caught, like sophomore year. 1:01:22.680 --> 1:01:24.600 And what was her reaction when you got caught? 1:01:26.120 --> 1:01:26.880 She was okay with that. 1:01:26.960 --> 1:01:27.400 She just. 1:01:29.440 --> 1:01:32.040 Yeah. She asked me why I didn't tell her anything, 1:01:32.080 --> 1:01:37.240 and I was like, smarter is something to tell I 1:01:37.240 --> 1:01:37.600 would like. 1:01:37.600 --> 1:01:39.840 With smoking weed. If you're like a kid or whatever, 1:01:40.000 --> 1:01:43.800 is like I mean, if you're like if I were 1:01:43.840 --> 1:01:45.240 like a parent and like I had a kid of 1:01:45.240 --> 1:01:47.680 suk a weed. I'm like, if you if everything else 1:01:47.760 --> 1:01:51.720 is like going good, I kind of don't care. Like, 1:01:51.800 --> 1:01:54.760 if you're like if you like get your grades are 1:01:54.800 --> 1:01:59.200 good and you're chilling and you have a life, you 1:01:59.240 --> 1:02:02.960 seem like a preductive human being, I kind of don't care. 1:02:03.480 --> 1:02:05.560 Where where people get sucked up is when they get 1:02:05.600 --> 1:02:08.320 like addicted to it. And it like fucks them up 1:02:08.320 --> 1:02:10.600 and like they don't do other things. 1:02:11.400 --> 1:02:13.479 That's that was basically the situation. I don't really smoke 1:02:13.520 --> 1:02:17.680 weed anymore, but well I haven't like smoking since like, 1:02:16.880 --> 1:02:21.600 uh like six months ago down there. Uh yeah, I 1:02:21.680 --> 1:02:22.640 just do it kind of casually. 1:02:24.240 --> 1:02:27.360 Yeah, breaking weed. Was that an intentional decision or did 1:02:27.400 --> 1:02:29.680 it just kind of fade out into something you didn't 1:02:29.720 --> 1:02:30.280 do as often? 1:02:31.440 --> 1:02:31.600 Uh? 1:02:31.800 --> 1:02:35.200 Kind of both. I usually took like tolerance breaks every 1:02:35.240 --> 1:02:37.320 few months. I started getting a little two into it. 1:02:37.320 --> 1:02:39.400 I would just kind of take a break, you know, 1:02:39.640 --> 1:02:42.400 but just break kind of lasted longer. I don't really 1:02:43.280 --> 1:02:45.520 want to go back to it right now. I guess 1:02:46.360 --> 1:02:46.600 I know. 1:02:46.920 --> 1:02:51.040 It's good life. It's good to take some time off. 1:02:53.040 --> 1:02:55.160 Sometimes you can smoke weed every day and just not 1:02:55.520 --> 1:02:57.919 like not even to realize that you're smoking weed every day. 1:02:59.080 --> 1:03:01.400 Yeah, I've had this time well like part parts of 1:03:01.400 --> 1:03:04.880 the day, I guess, like past midnight. You know, it 1:03:05.000 --> 1:03:06.600 kind of just gets like that. I think, you know, 1:03:07.440 --> 1:03:11.680 it's all kind of just a blur sometimes. 1:03:11.800 --> 1:03:15.800 Mm hmm. What's your relationship like with your mother? 1:03:17.600 --> 1:03:20.480 Uh, I'm not really too close, you know, a lot 1:03:20.480 --> 1:03:21.400 in common or anything. 1:03:22.680 --> 1:03:25.920 Really, How would you describe her. 1:03:25.920 --> 1:03:29.760 Uh, I don't know. She's kind of lazy, but also 1:03:30.240 --> 1:03:32.560 not she doesn't she just watches TV most of the day, 1:03:32.760 --> 1:03:37.760 kind of drives around and you know sort of thing. 1:03:39.560 --> 1:03:42.120 She's kind of watches TV all day. And how would 1:03:42.120 --> 1:03:43.760 you describe yourself in contrast? 1:03:45.600 --> 1:03:48.560 Uh, Well, because of the pandemic, I haven't really been 1:03:48.600 --> 1:03:50.600 able to go see my friends, but I would do that. 1:03:50.640 --> 1:03:54.760 Most of the time. We hang out, like, uh, go 1:03:55.800 --> 1:03:58.439 get food and walk around, hang out of the park 1:03:58.480 --> 1:04:02.760 and stuff, watch TV as well. Uh, I play frisbee 1:04:02.760 --> 1:04:03.240 and stuff. 1:04:03.880 --> 1:04:05.400 So what you and your mom do not have in 1:04:05.440 --> 1:04:07.320 common is that you have friends and your mom does 1:04:07.400 --> 1:04:10.120 not have friends. 1:04:10.160 --> 1:04:11.320 Sort of, I've spend more. 1:04:11.160 --> 1:04:14.040 Time with my friends, I guess, I kind of said. 1:04:16.280 --> 1:04:18.840 And well, when you get older, I guess what it's 1:04:18.840 --> 1:04:19.600 life for some people. 1:04:21.000 --> 1:04:23.080 Well listen, thank you so much for calling. You said. 1:04:23.080 --> 1:04:27.080 Your name is Anthony. Yeah, fuck yeah, dude, I actually 1:04:27.160 --> 1:04:29.560 I'm I should remember that name. 1:04:31.320 --> 1:04:33.320 Well, I have three questions for you, gek or like 1:04:33.400 --> 1:04:37.600 three things questions. Yeah, they're they're really short, all right, 1:04:37.640 --> 1:04:41.000 tell me, Okay, the first one, has anyone ever told 1:04:41.040 --> 1:04:44.120 you that you look like the actor Charlie Day? I 1:04:44.160 --> 1:04:46.200 was watching your stream like the other night WICKI to 1:04:46.240 --> 1:04:48.600 wiki or whatever. Yeah, I saw you, like without all 1:04:48.640 --> 1:04:52.000 the GEK makeup on, you look exactly like that guy, 1:04:52.160 --> 1:04:53.560 just like with lighter hair. 1:04:54.160 --> 1:04:56.480 I have that I look like that before. I have 1:04:56.560 --> 1:05:00.240 seen some TikTok comments, some some some twitch kind it's 1:05:00.240 --> 1:05:01.320 about that. I have seen that before. 1:05:02.280 --> 1:05:07.720 Yeah, it's really freaky. Another one. I've listened to like 1:05:07.760 --> 1:05:10.960 a lot of the podcasts recently, and I got to 1:05:11.040 --> 1:05:13.040 like the older ones because I've cleared out all the 1:05:13.080 --> 1:05:16.560 newer ones. And I noticed that you have like music 1:05:17.120 --> 1:05:19.760 that played like in between every call. I love that 1:05:19.840 --> 1:05:22.640 music so much. Why did you remove it? 1:05:24.160 --> 1:05:25.080 When did I remove it? 1:05:27.560 --> 1:05:31.280 I don't know, like the exact one, but probably like 1:05:32.120 --> 1:05:34.600 after at least the tenth call, our tenth episode. 1:05:34.640 --> 1:05:36.880 Maybe I would not be surprised if there was at 1:05:36.960 --> 1:05:40.480 least one podcast that I have put out that erroneously 1:05:40.520 --> 1:05:43.280 does not have music, but there should be. 1:05:43.280 --> 1:05:45.520 All was like the specific music though, it was just 1:05:45.600 --> 1:05:49.000 like it was great. I vibe with it every in 1:05:49.040 --> 1:05:49.760 between calls. 1:05:50.320 --> 1:05:53.800 The most recently, the most recent podcast have all used 1:05:53.840 --> 1:05:55.760 the same music, but in the past I tried to 1:05:55.800 --> 1:05:57.120 switch it up a little bit more but now I 1:05:57.400 --> 1:05:59.920 kind of use the same music for everyone. 1:06:00.080 --> 1:06:03.280 Yeah, and the last one was like a shout out 1:06:03.320 --> 1:06:06.080 to like someone that had called before. It was like 1:06:06.120 --> 1:06:09.000 the first guy that I like, I saw on your stream, 1:06:09.400 --> 1:06:11.600 like on TikTok. I just want to shout this guy 1:06:11.600 --> 1:06:14.000 out because like he changed my life almost. You know, 1:06:15.560 --> 1:06:18.000 it's the guy that he's only in the shower. 1:06:20.000 --> 1:06:21.720 If he's here, Yeah, I wonder if he's watching. 1:06:22.680 --> 1:06:25.600 Yeah. I think about this guy every day, like totally 1:06:25.680 --> 1:06:28.120 change my worldview like how everything works. 1:06:28.120 --> 1:06:30.360 You know, I don't do it. 1:06:30.640 --> 1:06:33.920 I seriously consider it though, every time I go to 1:06:34.000 --> 1:06:34.920 the bathroom. 1:06:35.200 --> 1:06:38.240 You know, you know, it's inspiring to listen to someone 1:06:38.960 --> 1:06:40.280 you really going out of the way to live their 1:06:40.320 --> 1:06:43.480 life their own way intentionally. 1:06:44.560 --> 1:06:46.200 He was really it seemed like he was on a 1:06:46.240 --> 1:06:46.880 new way of life. 1:06:47.520 --> 1:06:51.560 Okay, I hope he's I hope he's I hope he's 1:06:51.600 --> 1:06:53.400 doing Okay. I hope he's not dead. He could be dead. 1:06:53.400 --> 1:06:55.520 I haven't heard from while. I hope he's not though. 1:06:56.240 --> 1:06:59.360 Yeah, if he's listening calling, I'll be listening to the stream. 1:06:59.440 --> 1:07:00.520 And I love you. 1:07:01.440 --> 1:07:05.240 Thank you so much, Anceeny, thank you ye have a 1:07:05.240 --> 1:07:06.720 good night, all right. 1:07:06.720 --> 1:07:08.040 I love you gre love you. 1:07:08.040 --> 1:07:08.480 Too, baby. 1:07:09.400 --> 1:07:12.880 All from Aiden Aiden? 1:07:13.240 --> 1:07:24.000 Hello, Hey, Hey, how you doing? Hello? 1:07:27.000 --> 1:07:29.000 I'm doing good. How are you? 1:07:30.720 --> 1:07:34.760 I'm I'm doing all right, just all right. 1:07:35.800 --> 1:07:37.880 I think that's actually reasonable to be doing just all right. 1:07:37.880 --> 1:07:44.880 I'll be concerned if you were doing fantastically. I mean 1:07:44.920 --> 1:07:47.880 I can be doing amazing, you can be. Are you 1:07:47.920 --> 1:07:50.200 in a car right now? Hi? 1:07:50.400 --> 1:07:50.600 Sure? 1:07:50.680 --> 1:07:51.960 Am am? 1:07:51.960 --> 1:07:54.120 I on speakerphone? What's happening? Where am I? Right now? 1:07:55.400 --> 1:07:56.320 You're on speaker? 1:07:56.840 --> 1:07:58.560 Could I have a second to put my ears in? 1:07:58.640 --> 1:07:59.160 Is that okay? 1:07:59.240 --> 1:08:01.560 Oh yeah, let's let's do it. Let's get illegal in here. 1:08:04.760 --> 1:08:08.800 I'll wait, I've got anything else going on. This is 1:08:08.800 --> 1:08:10.480 what I played. This is when I woke up this morning. 1:08:10.520 --> 1:08:14.920 I fully planned on being a gay. I fully planned 1:08:15.640 --> 1:08:21.360 that at eleven twenty six pm this evening, I would 1:08:21.400 --> 1:08:24.439 be exactly where I am right now, in this chair 1:08:25.240 --> 1:08:27.280 as a get go, talking to people on the phone. 1:08:27.320 --> 1:08:29.920 So this is actually according to plan fully, So don't 1:08:29.920 --> 1:08:31.240 don't worry about it. Don't worry about me. 1:08:32.479 --> 1:08:36.720 I solid imad Are they in ie? 1:08:37.040 --> 1:08:37.200 Oh? 1:08:37.400 --> 1:08:37.679 Go ahead? 1:08:39.760 --> 1:08:42.479 Where are we? Where in the where in the car 1:08:42.520 --> 1:08:43.639 are we? What state? 1:08:45.040 --> 1:08:46.200 I am in? California? 1:08:46.920 --> 1:08:50.280 And where are we on our way to or. 1:08:50.160 --> 1:08:52.280 From home from work? 1:08:53.479 --> 1:08:57.320 Home from work? And where do you work? 1:08:59.400 --> 1:09:00.800 I'm work at game Stop? 1:09:01.800 --> 1:09:04.160 Ed where game Stop? 1:09:04.600 --> 1:09:05.960 Did they pay you in stock? 1:09:07.920 --> 1:09:08.040 No? 1:09:11.840 --> 1:09:13.160 Did you invest in game Stop? 1:09:14.840 --> 1:09:17.240 I got it or I wanted to, but it was 1:09:17.280 --> 1:09:19.320 a little too late for me to get in m. 1:09:21.080 --> 1:09:23.519 Apparently it's not. Apparently it just squows a little bit more. 1:09:23.560 --> 1:09:24.800 But I don't know how that shit works. 1:09:26.000 --> 1:09:28.880 Yeah, I mean, I'm not I'm not very smart, so 1:09:28.920 --> 1:09:29.559 I don't really know. 1:09:31.560 --> 1:09:32.519 You're not very smart. 1:09:34.920 --> 1:09:38.240 I'd say I more street smart than financially or book smart. 1:09:38.720 --> 1:09:41.040 What makes you say that you're streets What makes you 1:09:41.040 --> 1:09:44.600 say that you're street smart? 1:09:45.200 --> 1:09:46.479 I don't know. I just have had a lot of 1:09:46.520 --> 1:09:49.800 life experiences and kind of taught me a lot. And 1:09:50.479 --> 1:09:52.519 I feel like I think a little bit more rationally 1:09:52.600 --> 1:09:55.479 than most people that I've met, So I feel like 1:09:55.520 --> 1:09:58.360 I can make logical decisions a lot easier than most people. 1:09:59.320 --> 1:10:04.560 Interesting, tell me, tell me of these life's decisions that 1:10:04.600 --> 1:10:07.760 you feel as though have inspired your street smartness, Which 1:10:07.760 --> 1:10:10.760 would you say is the most vital, the one that 1:10:10.760 --> 1:10:12.479 has inspired your street smartness the most? 1:10:13.200 --> 1:10:19.960 If you can pick, probably the day I decided to 1:10:20.280 --> 1:10:22.400 move out of my dad's time at the age. 1:10:22.240 --> 1:10:27.640 Of seventeen, at the age of what did they teach you? 1:10:29.479 --> 1:10:32.680 It taught me that life is more than just go 1:10:32.720 --> 1:10:34.880 to school and come home, or go to work and 1:10:34.920 --> 1:10:39.360 come home. It's a lot more about relationships than dealing 1:10:39.439 --> 1:10:43.599 with a bunch of shit you don't want to Hm, that's. 1:10:43.479 --> 1:10:45.160 A rather pessimistic viewpoint. 1:10:47.160 --> 1:10:49.439 I'd say it's a little bit more of a realistic viewpoint. 1:10:49.560 --> 1:10:51.920 I mean, it makes they always that's what they always say. 1:10:53.240 --> 1:10:56.679 I guess, yeah, But then again, I mean, look, perception 1:10:56.760 --> 1:10:58.040 is I mean, I'm about to sound like a new 1:10:58.120 --> 1:11:03.760 share but all right, perception is reality. Yeah, so if 1:11:03.800 --> 1:11:10.240 you perceive things optimistically, then you're a realist. But if 1:11:10.280 --> 1:11:15.639 you perceive things pessimistically, you're also a realist. So matter 1:11:15.680 --> 1:11:17.400 what thing you are, you're a realist. 1:11:18.960 --> 1:11:21.000 Yeah, that's that's a very good point. I don't really 1:11:21.000 --> 1:11:21.640 think about it like that. 1:11:26.040 --> 1:11:28.200 What get do people have a prank? Call you gay? 1:11:28.439 --> 1:11:30.080 When I was in when I was fourteen, I prank 1:11:30.120 --> 1:11:32.080 called game Stop all the time because it was the 1:11:32.120 --> 1:11:35.120 one place that a human being always picked up, like 1:11:35.160 --> 1:11:36.479 if I wanted to call, like if I tried to 1:11:36.479 --> 1:11:38.599 call Target or some shit it was always the robot 1:11:39.080 --> 1:11:41.160 or you had to like go to a bunch of 1:11:41.200 --> 1:11:44.200 shit to get to a human. But GameStop it was 1:11:44.320 --> 1:11:46.840 immediately always a human. So they were the easiest people 1:11:46.840 --> 1:11:48.439 to prank call. So I'd print call them a lot. 1:11:49.800 --> 1:11:51.479 Yeah, I know, we we used to get a lot 1:11:51.479 --> 1:11:54.080 of print calls a couple uh years ago, but the 1:11:54.080 --> 1:11:56.160 print calls nowadays, they're kind of weak, to be honest, like, 1:11:56.320 --> 1:11:59.200 people don't really I don't really try. It's always like, oh, 1:11:59.240 --> 1:12:02.000 you have g Like, I mean, that's not really a 1:12:02.000 --> 1:12:02.360 print call. 1:12:02.439 --> 1:12:04.559 Dude, do you have what six? 1:12:06.960 --> 1:12:09.880 Do you have GTA six? And I'm like, that's not 1:12:09.920 --> 1:12:11.800 really a print call, you know, Like that's that's what 1:12:11.840 --> 1:12:12.639 you being done. 1:12:13.160 --> 1:12:14.840 No, I would prank call game stoff and I would 1:12:14.840 --> 1:12:18.680 just go ah and I would hang up. 1:12:20.960 --> 1:12:22.519 That's a prank call. I would love to take that. 1:12:22.920 --> 1:12:24.599 That's pretty good. All right, Where where do you work? 1:12:24.720 --> 1:12:25.240 I'll call you? 1:12:26.920 --> 1:12:31.439 Uh should I display that they area? I'll just say, 1:12:31.680 --> 1:12:37.800 I'll say Bay area, all. 1:12:37.840 --> 1:12:41.479 Right, I'll come in. I don't really play video games anymore. 1:12:42.240 --> 1:12:43.880 I only play I only played one video game, but 1:12:43.880 --> 1:12:49.160 it's like twenty years old, Green Skid, No Melee. 1:12:50.400 --> 1:12:53.240 Oh, Okay, okay, yeah, that's a good one. 1:12:53.479 --> 1:12:54.200 Do you guys have that. 1:12:54.200 --> 1:12:57.160 Probably one of the best. No, we don't. 1:12:58.400 --> 1:12:58.840 Would you say? 1:12:58.920 --> 1:12:59.360 Name was. 1:13:01.040 --> 1:13:01.839 Aiden? Aiden? 1:13:03.439 --> 1:13:03.759 Aiden? 1:13:03.760 --> 1:13:03.920 How? 1:13:03.960 --> 1:13:04.160 Fuck? 1:13:04.200 --> 1:13:04.360 How? 1:13:04.600 --> 1:13:06.439 How long have we been on the phone for? There's 1:13:06.439 --> 1:13:07.880 no way you aren't There's no way you haven't got 1:13:07.880 --> 1:13:08.639 gotten home yet. 1:13:10.680 --> 1:13:12.920 My commute is an hour and a half both way. 1:13:13.080 --> 1:13:15.400 You commute an hour and a half to work at 1:13:15.479 --> 1:13:16.519 game stop? Why? 1:13:18.320 --> 1:13:20.439 That's the question. That's kind of why I'm calling. 1:13:23.800 --> 1:13:25.760 Is there not a game stop closer to you? 1:13:27.240 --> 1:13:30.679 There is, but I'm not working under the leader who 1:13:30.760 --> 1:13:31.679 leads that district? 1:13:33.080 --> 1:13:34.680 Okay, well why do you? Why do you work it? 1:13:34.680 --> 1:13:34.880 Again? 1:13:34.920 --> 1:13:36.479 Why do you? Why do you commute so far? 1:13:38.400 --> 1:13:41.320 Because it's kind of the whole I dug myself into 1:13:41.479 --> 1:13:44.439 and I can't find a way out right now, so 1:13:44.560 --> 1:13:45.680 I just kind of deal with it. 1:13:46.120 --> 1:13:48.519 Let's go. What's your lease looking like? How much more 1:13:48.560 --> 1:13:49.200 you got on there? 1:13:50.479 --> 1:13:52.519 I it's actually a month to month, like I can 1:13:52.520 --> 1:13:54.560 move whenever I want, But you know, the bunny and 1:13:54.600 --> 1:13:55.639 the timing has got to be right. 1:13:56.880 --> 1:13:57.200 What U? 1:13:58.160 --> 1:13:59.040 It's month to month? 1:14:02.200 --> 1:14:02.840 What used to do? 1:14:03.360 --> 1:14:04.760 How many? How many months in a row have you 1:14:04.760 --> 1:14:06.559 commuted an hour and a half to game stop. 1:14:08.120 --> 1:14:10.840 Uh, probably a year and a half. 1:14:10.880 --> 1:14:13.920 Now what why. 1:14:14.960 --> 1:14:21.920 Okay, I can't get out man, No, nobody wants to. Well, 1:14:21.960 --> 1:14:24.840 I can't move out today area you know out here 1:14:24.840 --> 1:14:28.200 in California, man, like not too much? Doesn't pay me 1:14:28.280 --> 1:14:29.000 enough to live out there? 1:14:29.080 --> 1:14:31.240 Hell, but you can't. But you can't find the place 1:14:32.080 --> 1:14:34.600 that's but the cheap. You can't find a place for 1:14:34.640 --> 1:14:38.599 a similar price that's less than by the way, I mean, 1:14:38.680 --> 1:14:43.400 have you got like on gas on time? Uh? I 1:14:43.439 --> 1:14:47.080 feel like you can move a little bit closer. You 1:14:47.120 --> 1:14:50.040 really couldn't find the place closer than an hour and 1:14:50.040 --> 1:14:50.439 a half. 1:14:51.800 --> 1:14:54.559 I really wish I could say yes. But the most 1:14:54.840 --> 1:14:57.360 the cheapest one that I've been able to find is 1:14:58.040 --> 1:15:00.280 reach to four hundred dollars more than what I'm paying 1:15:00.320 --> 1:15:03.200 for now, and that does not fit my budget. 1:15:04.160 --> 1:15:06.040 I almost feel like, I mean, I don't know what 1:15:06.040 --> 1:15:08.000 gas prices around in LA, but I almost feel like 1:15:08.040 --> 1:15:10.679 you might even be spending more on gas, like enough 1:15:10.680 --> 1:15:13.720 on gas to justify it. Have you have you done that? 1:15:13.760 --> 1:15:14.360 Many? 1:15:15.800 --> 1:15:15.840 Have? 1:15:16.200 --> 1:15:16.360 Yeah? 1:15:16.760 --> 1:15:19.559 Three hours a day is a lot. 1:15:19.920 --> 1:15:22.400 It is a lot. No, you're you're absolutely ready. I 1:15:22.439 --> 1:15:24.960 mean the thing is, though, like I got to spend 1:15:25.000 --> 1:15:26.880 that money to get out here, to make money, to 1:15:26.960 --> 1:15:29.400 save money, to not have to spend so much money 1:15:29.439 --> 1:15:32.960 on gas. So it's it's almost like a double edged sword. 1:15:33.000 --> 1:15:34.439 I got to spend the money to get out there, 1:15:34.479 --> 1:15:36.280 and I don't really have the opportunity to save the 1:15:36.280 --> 1:15:37.800 money to not go out there. 1:15:39.760 --> 1:15:42.760 Dude, I don't know. I mean, look, obviously you've done 1:15:42.840 --> 1:15:45.320 the craigslisting and the googling and I haven't. But there's 1:15:45.360 --> 1:15:47.400 no I feel like you can find a place for 1:15:47.720 --> 1:15:48.599 a decent price. 1:15:50.400 --> 1:15:52.879 Maybe I also looked a little bit harder. It's possible, 1:15:53.040 --> 1:15:55.320 but I mean when I when I initially took the 1:15:55.320 --> 1:15:58.639 position and looked, it wasn't there. Just wasn't in the cards, 1:15:58.720 --> 1:15:59.240 so I. 1:15:59.200 --> 1:15:59.880 Just didn't do it. 1:16:00.520 --> 1:16:01.360 Are you a manager? 1:16:02.840 --> 1:16:03.160 I am. 1:16:03.240 --> 1:16:06.679 Yeah, that's pretty sweet. Do you play video games? 1:16:08.160 --> 1:16:08.400 I do. 1:16:08.760 --> 1:16:12.120 Yeah. 1:16:12.680 --> 1:16:15.200 Well, listen, good luck, Adrian Aiden. 1:16:17.160 --> 1:16:19.120 Yeah, sure, I. 1:16:19.080 --> 1:16:22.320 Feel bad leaving you. You probably still have an hour 1:16:22.479 --> 1:16:23.080 left to go. 1:16:25.040 --> 1:16:27.759 Forty five minutes. Not bad, but I'm watching your streams 1:16:27.760 --> 1:16:30.800 so it gives me something to do. Well. 1:16:30.920 --> 1:16:34.519 Well, good luck, Thank you, sir. Have a good night, 1:16:34.560 --> 1:16:37.080 of course, you have a good night. 1:16:39.400 --> 1:16:43.519 Never goes on the line taking your phone calls every night, 1:16:43.880 --> 1:16:47.240 never goes to any times, teaching you Cloud in the 1:16:47.479 --> 1:16:50.479 of your Life's not really an expert.