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Speaker 1: My wait, my six favorite songs to start your own

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Speaker 1: know they go buy numbers and not names in jail

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00:21:45,720 --> 00:21:48,240
Speaker 1: because I watch all these jail shots. So I was like,

425
00:21:48,640 --> 00:21:50,600
Speaker 1: can you find out where he is? He was like,

426
00:21:50,760 --> 00:21:53,280
Speaker 1: write on at girl Free found it for me, like

427
00:21:53,520 --> 00:21:56,200
Speaker 1: in seconds. It was like, oh, he's been transferred to Rikers.

428
00:21:56,840 --> 00:21:59,639
Speaker 1: So he's now at Rikers and so I don't know

429
00:21:59,720 --> 00:22:02,000
Speaker 1: how long he's going to be there. But I mean,

430
00:22:02,040 --> 00:22:04,920
Speaker 1: you're willing to write him visit him? No? Not while

431
00:22:08,400 --> 00:22:12,119
Speaker 1: that's interesting? Um, what was he He violated probation? Right?

432
00:22:12,720 --> 00:22:14,600
Speaker 1: And let me just say, like this is when it

433
00:22:14,760 --> 00:22:18,719
Speaker 1: doesn't get funny anymore, because I really fucking believe they

434
00:22:19,160 --> 00:22:21,040
Speaker 1: just let Niets go and just try to keep him

435
00:22:21,040 --> 00:22:23,080
Speaker 1: down Like this is total systematic no, and so I

436
00:22:23,440 --> 00:22:25,399
Speaker 1: want to ask him. I mean, I would love you

437
00:22:25,520 --> 00:22:28,399
Speaker 1: guys as comments, because I've never written a letter to

438
00:22:28,520 --> 00:22:31,440
Speaker 1: someone in jail, So I don't know if it's wrong

439
00:22:31,560 --> 00:22:33,359
Speaker 1: for me to ask him, Nigga, why the funk are

440
00:22:33,359 --> 00:22:36,280
Speaker 1: you in there? Like what happened? Because it was literally

441
00:22:36,359 --> 00:22:38,280
Speaker 1: he was supposed to come over after his meeting with

442
00:22:38,359 --> 00:22:41,720
Speaker 1: his parole officer and which he just went ghosts. Like

443
00:22:41,960 --> 00:22:44,040
Speaker 1: you have to use a lot of like I think

444
00:22:44,119 --> 00:22:47,840
Speaker 1: something that um, we forget about writing letters is like

445
00:22:47,960 --> 00:22:50,800
Speaker 1: we're used to like instant gratification, text back, fourth, back forth,

446
00:22:50,840 --> 00:22:52,720
Speaker 1: back forth when you write a letter to someone. Actually

447
00:22:52,720 --> 00:22:54,680
Speaker 1: wrote an email to love her boy the other day

448
00:22:54,680 --> 00:22:55,959
Speaker 1: because my phone went out and I was like, God,

449
00:22:55,960 --> 00:22:57,960
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm writing a love note, but it

450
00:22:58,040 --> 00:23:01,080
Speaker 1: has to be longer. You have to say everything you're

451
00:23:01,080 --> 00:23:02,800
Speaker 1: going to anticipate that letter back. It's kind of a

452
00:23:02,920 --> 00:23:04,840
Speaker 1: nice feeling. I mean, I've done letters with friends in

453
00:23:04,960 --> 00:23:07,600
Speaker 1: jail and lovers or whatever ex lovers, but I think

454
00:23:07,720 --> 00:23:09,320
Speaker 1: one thing you should talk about is like, how do

455
00:23:09,320 --> 00:23:11,399
Speaker 1: you feel about him? And you're sorry and I'm so

456
00:23:11,600 --> 00:23:13,159
Speaker 1: mad that he has me feeling this way. We was

457
00:23:13,200 --> 00:23:17,399
Speaker 1: only for like five weeks. It was the cuddling and

458
00:23:17,440 --> 00:23:19,840
Speaker 1: the kiss on the forehead. I am, isn't that why

459
00:23:19,880 --> 00:23:22,359
Speaker 1: I started crying? He kissed me on the forehead and

460
00:23:22,800 --> 00:23:25,240
Speaker 1: I just felt like shower in tears. If you wonder

461
00:23:25,280 --> 00:23:27,240
Speaker 1: why where he got his name from? The episode four

462
00:23:27,640 --> 00:23:30,159
Speaker 1: then Nigga started touching my face while I was sleeping,

463
00:23:30,200 --> 00:23:32,600
Speaker 1: and I was yeah. And so the kiss on the

464
00:23:32,680 --> 00:23:37,040
Speaker 1: forehead and me actually enjoying his company, UM, it was

465
00:23:37,200 --> 00:23:43,040
Speaker 1: something for me. So yeah, So the horrible decision guys

466
00:23:43,359 --> 00:23:46,560
Speaker 1: for this week, UM, I actually wanted to talk about

467
00:23:47,200 --> 00:23:49,399
Speaker 1: dating multiple partners, and I wanted to talk about in

468
00:23:49,480 --> 00:23:52,160
Speaker 1: reference to She's Got to Have It UM. For those

469
00:23:52,200 --> 00:23:54,480
Speaker 1: of you who may have seen her may have not

470
00:23:54,560 --> 00:23:58,920
Speaker 1: seen it, There is a Spike Lee UM remake on Netflix,

471
00:23:58,960 --> 00:24:00,879
Speaker 1: which is a remake of the original movie She's Got

472
00:24:00,960 --> 00:24:03,879
Speaker 1: to Have At that featured Spike Lee. And in this

473
00:24:05,040 --> 00:24:08,920
Speaker 1: show on Netflix, you're seeing Nola Darling, who is a

474
00:24:10,119 --> 00:24:13,760
Speaker 1: black kind of artists from Brooklyn, very New York, very beautiful,

475
00:24:14,240 --> 00:24:17,080
Speaker 1: and in the show, she's super fun. And in the

476
00:24:17,160 --> 00:24:20,159
Speaker 1: show you see her with these multiple partners and how

477
00:24:20,280 --> 00:24:22,159
Speaker 1: each of them bring out a different side to her,

478
00:24:22,520 --> 00:24:25,400
Speaker 1: and I feel like, Um, I feel like the show

479
00:24:25,480 --> 00:24:28,200
Speaker 1: is about me. I ain't hold you because she has

480
00:24:28,760 --> 00:24:31,760
Speaker 1: one lover who Um is a young guy who she

481
00:24:32,240 --> 00:24:35,080
Speaker 1: just has fun with. He's fun, he's funny, he brings

482
00:24:35,160 --> 00:24:37,720
Speaker 1: her her spirits up. I haven't on like on Apiasterday,

483
00:24:37,760 --> 00:24:39,520
Speaker 1: but I always thought like if if at the end

484
00:24:39,960 --> 00:24:41,600
Speaker 1: it's one person, I felt like it would be him.

485
00:24:41,680 --> 00:24:43,240
Speaker 1: I felt like it would be him as well, like

486
00:24:43,520 --> 00:24:46,399
Speaker 1: and he was just so down for her. Then you

487
00:24:46,520 --> 00:24:49,080
Speaker 1: have you know what that is. I'm sorry, but you're

488
00:24:49,160 --> 00:24:53,280
Speaker 1: so down because he has nothing else going on, you

489
00:24:53,400 --> 00:24:58,639
Speaker 1: think so you think it's a give me the best attention, bro.

490
00:24:59,040 --> 00:25:01,960
Speaker 1: You're right, You're right. Well. And then the second guy

491
00:25:02,040 --> 00:25:05,879
Speaker 1: that she was dealing with UM was Greer. Greer is

492
00:25:06,000 --> 00:25:08,680
Speaker 1: this model who is apparently supposed to be really good

493
00:25:08,760 --> 00:25:13,440
Speaker 1: looking and hung to me. To me was understand like

494
00:25:13,560 --> 00:25:16,240
Speaker 1: how he has like the perfect look to me when

495
00:25:17,680 --> 00:25:19,880
Speaker 1: that means like you type of black dude. White girls

496
00:25:19,920 --> 00:25:21,920
Speaker 1: be like, oh my god, for sure. And it's so

497
00:25:22,040 --> 00:25:25,000
Speaker 1: funny because while I was watching the show, I don't

498
00:25:25,000 --> 00:25:27,440
Speaker 1: know if you guys noticed, I feel like maybe he's

499
00:25:27,480 --> 00:25:30,560
Speaker 1: so flamboyantly gay in real life that he couldn't act

500
00:25:30,560 --> 00:25:33,440
Speaker 1: like a straight man because she has to be, because

501
00:25:33,480 --> 00:25:36,040
Speaker 1: there was no way he was straight. I wasn't convinced

502
00:25:36,680 --> 00:25:39,280
Speaker 1: the entire season. I was in the French restaurant and

503
00:25:39,359 --> 00:25:43,520
Speaker 1: I was like, this is this He was played the

504
00:25:43,560 --> 00:25:45,840
Speaker 1: game your Opina gay a lot. He definitely did. And

505
00:25:45,920 --> 00:25:49,359
Speaker 1: then of course you had Jamie, and Jamie was the

506
00:25:49,440 --> 00:25:53,080
Speaker 1: guy who's still married, who was financially secure and broke

507
00:25:53,119 --> 00:25:56,800
Speaker 1: her off some bread. Absolutely, and then of course you

508
00:25:56,920 --> 00:26:00,280
Speaker 1: had Opalin bro I started following her. I mess reading

509
00:26:00,960 --> 00:26:03,879
Speaker 1: super beautiful. And to me this was also because when

510
00:26:03,880 --> 00:26:05,240
Speaker 1: I get fed up with all my niggas, I go

511
00:26:05,359 --> 00:26:07,320
Speaker 1: back to dealing with women, and I feel like that's

512
00:26:07,359 --> 00:26:10,800
Speaker 1: what Opel was to Nola. I had a conversation today

513
00:26:11,040 --> 00:26:13,520
Speaker 1: um over lunch and we did not even realizing that

514
00:26:13,640 --> 00:26:15,639
Speaker 1: this was our episode today, but I was having left

515
00:26:15,680 --> 00:26:18,080
Speaker 1: with a guard do I work with, and he's like,

516
00:26:18,600 --> 00:26:20,920
Speaker 1: I'm so fucking tired of people acting like this, Nola

517
00:26:20,960 --> 00:26:23,320
Speaker 1: Darland ship is cool, Like it's cool to be a hoe.

518
00:26:23,800 --> 00:26:26,040
Speaker 1: What yo. I'm sitting there with my girl Maya and

519
00:26:26,200 --> 00:26:28,280
Speaker 1: him and I'm like what, And I said, let me

520
00:26:28,320 --> 00:26:30,480
Speaker 1: tell you something, but he's like, girls like like, she's

521
00:26:30,480 --> 00:26:32,520
Speaker 1: so dope. He's like, even the way she starts the episode,

522
00:26:32,520 --> 00:26:34,080
Speaker 1: it's like, I'm not a hoe. I don't like labels,

523
00:26:34,080 --> 00:26:37,000
Speaker 1: blah blah blah. And I said, I feel like it's

524
00:26:37,040 --> 00:26:39,240
Speaker 1: almost a joke because there's been so many shows out

525
00:26:39,240 --> 00:26:41,040
Speaker 1: there with men doing this, and I've never heard you

526
00:26:41,119 --> 00:26:43,520
Speaker 1: get this upset. And I said to him, if I

527
00:26:43,640 --> 00:26:47,480
Speaker 1: started dating another guy that wasn't lover boy, what would

528
00:26:47,520 --> 00:26:49,720
Speaker 1: you do? Would you call me a home to my face? Dude?

529
00:26:49,840 --> 00:26:50,879
Speaker 1: I was like, I know you care about me. You

530
00:26:50,920 --> 00:26:52,440
Speaker 1: wouldn't do it, would you? And he was like, well no,

531
00:26:52,680 --> 00:26:54,880
Speaker 1: I said, He's like, I mean unless you started sucking him,

532
00:26:55,359 --> 00:26:58,040
Speaker 1: then your home. I said, what, you even told me

533
00:26:58,119 --> 00:27:00,280
Speaker 1: to start sucking with other niggas when he made me mad,

534
00:27:00,640 --> 00:27:03,320
Speaker 1: And you want to sit here and tell me that, bro.

535
00:27:03,720 --> 00:27:05,920
Speaker 1: I was so frustrated because I think it's just like,

536
00:27:06,440 --> 00:27:08,159
Speaker 1: you're not a home if I know you, Because I

537
00:27:08,240 --> 00:27:09,720
Speaker 1: know he wouldn't call me a hope if I did that,

538
00:27:10,160 --> 00:27:12,159
Speaker 1: but if I mean, he may think it but not

539
00:27:12,400 --> 00:27:17,040
Speaker 1: say it. So they the second we see them, just like,

540
00:27:17,520 --> 00:27:19,800
Speaker 1: what's crazy is even her lovers were doing it to

541
00:27:19,880 --> 00:27:22,520
Speaker 1: her when she wore the little black dress, so she

542
00:27:22,600 --> 00:27:24,920
Speaker 1: wore a little black dress, and she wore with each

543
00:27:25,000 --> 00:27:27,480
Speaker 1: lover and they all responded in a different way, Like

544
00:27:27,720 --> 00:27:30,639
Speaker 1: basically the guy this guy was trying to rub up

545
00:27:30,720 --> 00:27:34,240
Speaker 1: on her and the way she reacted to Mars about it,

546
00:27:34,359 --> 00:27:36,760
Speaker 1: like oh, well, like you have this black dress on,

547
00:27:36,880 --> 00:27:39,080
Speaker 1: but that's kind of a part of the meeting conversation.

548
00:27:39,400 --> 00:27:41,080
Speaker 1: Well yeah, he was like, we'll look at that dress,

549
00:27:41,280 --> 00:27:43,920
Speaker 1: rub up on you too, And that's kind of what

550
00:27:44,119 --> 00:27:47,040
Speaker 1: we deal with. It's what we deal with um with

551
00:27:47,160 --> 00:27:49,200
Speaker 1: the society as far as right now with the ripe culture,

552
00:27:49,400 --> 00:27:51,159
Speaker 1: it's like, just because I dressed sexy doesn't mean I

553
00:27:51,280 --> 00:27:53,720
Speaker 1: know at just the photo thing that kind of annoyed me,

554
00:27:53,760 --> 00:27:56,440
Speaker 1: which oh with Greer when he was like, oh you're

555
00:27:56,480 --> 00:27:59,200
Speaker 1: so sexy, blah blah blah, but like you painted him too,

556
00:27:59,680 --> 00:28:02,920
Speaker 1: just she did sexy. It's okay for him to bark

557
00:28:02,960 --> 00:28:04,440
Speaker 1: at you when he's fucking you and do all this

558
00:28:04,520 --> 00:28:07,080
Speaker 1: weird animalistic ship. That part I didn't like. There's a

559
00:28:07,080 --> 00:28:08,520
Speaker 1: few things I'm gonna tell you the same. I'm starting

560
00:28:08,520 --> 00:28:10,639
Speaker 1: to like the show. First episode, didn't like. Watched it

561
00:28:10,680 --> 00:28:13,159
Speaker 1: with enough James and Christopher and we were like, I

562
00:28:13,280 --> 00:28:16,240
Speaker 1: feel like I don't like shows where people are like

563
00:28:16,320 --> 00:28:19,199
Speaker 1: talking to the camera a lot. How good Cards did

564
00:28:19,240 --> 00:28:20,879
Speaker 1: that very well? Well, I do how some Cards did it,

565
00:28:20,920 --> 00:28:22,600
Speaker 1: and so did the Bernie mac Show like you Have,

566
00:28:23,119 --> 00:28:24,480
Speaker 1: and there's not a lot of shows that can do

567
00:28:24,520 --> 00:28:28,639
Speaker 1: it well. I didn't like it with the men talking

568
00:28:28,720 --> 00:28:30,800
Speaker 1: to the camera, um, and so that threw me off.

569
00:28:30,840 --> 00:28:36,480
Speaker 1: It got way better towards me, but um, I don't know.

570
00:28:36,560 --> 00:28:37,800
Speaker 1: I like the show a lot. I'm trying not to

571
00:28:37,800 --> 00:28:39,440
Speaker 1: give a lot of things away, but just talking in

572
00:28:39,560 --> 00:28:42,320
Speaker 1: terms of personalities. But there's a few things that I

573
00:28:43,160 --> 00:28:47,680
Speaker 1: kind of got annoyed with with this show. Um. I

574
00:28:47,800 --> 00:28:50,440
Speaker 1: like the assault piece and how she had to get

575
00:28:50,480 --> 00:28:51,960
Speaker 1: over it and went to a therapist for it and

576
00:28:51,960 --> 00:28:59,200
Speaker 1: blah blah blah. But I didn't like how she needed

577
00:28:59,200 --> 00:29:01,000
Speaker 1: to show the pete the in in her life treating

578
00:29:01,040 --> 00:29:03,840
Speaker 1: her this way. Like I don't know if it made

579
00:29:03,880 --> 00:29:06,720
Speaker 1: me feel like if you're polyamorous, then at some point

580
00:29:06,880 --> 00:29:09,080
Speaker 1: like men are going to view you in this way

581
00:29:09,160 --> 00:29:10,640
Speaker 1: or they're going to say these comments to you and

582
00:29:10,680 --> 00:29:13,120
Speaker 1: stuff like that because you funk with a bunch of niggas.

583
00:29:13,280 --> 00:29:15,760
Speaker 1: I don't like that, because the truth is and polyamorous

584
00:29:15,800 --> 00:29:18,960
Speaker 1: relationships that I've known about, whether black or white. Generally,

585
00:29:19,040 --> 00:29:22,960
Speaker 1: these partners are very open with their other. Um Like,

586
00:29:23,040 --> 00:29:25,320
Speaker 1: the person is very open with the other right there,

587
00:29:25,320 --> 00:29:27,240
Speaker 1: like I'm dealing with this amount of people blah blah blah,

588
00:29:27,240 --> 00:29:29,280
Speaker 1: and there's not so much judgment on the other side

589
00:29:29,320 --> 00:29:33,120
Speaker 1: because they're in this relationship to other people outside judge you.

590
00:29:33,200 --> 00:29:35,200
Speaker 1: But I think it didn't shine a good light for

591
00:29:35,320 --> 00:29:38,640
Speaker 1: women to be polyamorous because in her mind that's the thing.

592
00:29:38,760 --> 00:29:41,440
Speaker 1: So and I think that man treated her that way. Well, no,

593
00:29:41,680 --> 00:29:44,360
Speaker 1: but in her mind she was polyamorous because she was

594
00:29:44,440 --> 00:29:46,600
Speaker 1: dating these three people. I think she is probably right.

595
00:29:46,920 --> 00:29:50,160
Speaker 1: But the three men involved did not agreed to be

596
00:29:50,200 --> 00:29:53,000
Speaker 1: in the polyamorous relationship. So it wasn't a polyamorous relationship

597
00:29:53,400 --> 00:29:56,160
Speaker 1: because they couldn't have read or not because we're doing

598
00:29:56,160 --> 00:29:59,040
Speaker 1: it and accepted. Well, no, they knew that she wasn't

599
00:29:59,600 --> 00:30:04,800
Speaker 1: she isn't um what's the word exclusive to them. They

600
00:30:04,840 --> 00:30:07,120
Speaker 1: all wanted her to be exclusive to them. They definitely

601
00:30:07,160 --> 00:30:10,960
Speaker 1: each try I want commitment, I want this, I want that,

602
00:30:11,080 --> 00:30:13,360
Speaker 1: and she wasn't giving it to them. So it's not

603
00:30:13,520 --> 00:30:16,480
Speaker 1: like they agreed to just sit here and okay, where

604
00:30:16,640 --> 00:30:18,800
Speaker 1: you're Polly, I'm gonna be Polly to and let you date.

605
00:30:18,920 --> 00:30:20,760
Speaker 1: They all wanted to be exclusive with her and take

606
00:30:20,800 --> 00:30:23,680
Speaker 1: her further in a relationship, but she was content with

607
00:30:23,760 --> 00:30:25,840
Speaker 1: where she was. And it's so funny because I just

608
00:30:25,960 --> 00:30:30,320
Speaker 1: had a conversation similar to to her dealings with a king.

609
00:30:30,480 --> 00:30:33,200
Speaker 1: Shout out if you guys listened to the Combat Jack show. UM.

610
00:30:33,520 --> 00:30:36,440
Speaker 1: So we talked about this and he asked kind of

611
00:30:36,480 --> 00:30:38,920
Speaker 1: why I'm single? And I think that this was kind

612
00:30:39,000 --> 00:30:43,480
Speaker 1: of where Nola was in her life as well. She

613
00:30:43,680 --> 00:30:46,480
Speaker 1: was in a space where she was getting her ship together.

614
00:30:46,600 --> 00:30:49,240
Speaker 1: All her ship wasn't together where she wanted to be. UM.

615
00:30:49,640 --> 00:30:53,160
Speaker 1: But these specific people made her happy in different ways,

616
00:30:53,480 --> 00:30:57,040
Speaker 1: but not one of them fulfilled everything. And so that's why.

617
00:30:57,160 --> 00:30:59,120
Speaker 1: And I actually, UM, when I was talking about that

618
00:30:59,160 --> 00:31:00,600
Speaker 1: with a guard today, I'm in to the King NOI

619
00:31:00,680 --> 00:31:03,920
Speaker 1: episode when he made the pretty Ricky Um connotation, he

620
00:31:04,040 --> 00:31:06,400
Speaker 1: said something like, you know you like pretty Ricky. I don't.

621
00:31:06,400 --> 00:31:08,000
Speaker 1: It's okay for you to go out and find someone

622
00:31:08,080 --> 00:31:10,760
Speaker 1: that does. UM. I wanted to bring up something, how

623
00:31:10,800 --> 00:31:12,600
Speaker 1: many how long have you been recording? Can you tell

624
00:31:12,640 --> 00:31:18,040
Speaker 1: me forty minutes? Should we go in? Well, let me

625
00:31:18,080 --> 00:31:21,280
Speaker 1: tell you all this. So I have been seeing a therapist.

626
00:31:22,520 --> 00:31:25,920
Speaker 1: Oh wait, are we talking about a lot of the

627
00:31:26,000 --> 00:31:28,480
Speaker 1: reason that I changed. So, guys, I ain't even gonna

628
00:31:28,520 --> 00:31:30,960
Speaker 1: hold you. I literally sat here and I'm going to

629
00:31:31,040 --> 00:31:33,520
Speaker 1: tell them because I liked them to know behind the scenes.

630
00:31:33,760 --> 00:31:37,160
Speaker 1: So so we didn't really get deep. Man, I am

631
00:31:37,200 --> 00:31:40,200
Speaker 1: gonna get a little deep because I sat here and um,

632
00:31:40,480 --> 00:31:43,160
Speaker 1: so all I meant so Wheezy, Me and Wheezy were

633
00:31:43,240 --> 00:31:47,320
Speaker 1: going through hell for um quite some time, um, and

634
00:31:47,360 --> 00:31:49,320
Speaker 1: I was talking all my friends about it, and I

635
00:31:49,400 --> 00:31:52,520
Speaker 1: didn't understand why every time we talked like it just

636
00:31:52,600 --> 00:31:54,640
Speaker 1: got worse and worse. And for those of you who

637
00:31:54,720 --> 00:31:57,560
Speaker 1: don't know, I stopped talking to Lawyer Bay because I

638
00:31:57,680 --> 00:32:02,000
Speaker 1: just felt the energy was so negative and it I

639
00:32:02,160 --> 00:32:05,320
Speaker 1: was proud of you for doing this. So I guess

640
00:32:05,360 --> 00:32:08,120
Speaker 1: Weezy kind of felt the tension. In one of one

641
00:32:08,200 --> 00:32:10,320
Speaker 1: of the sessions, she came to me and was like,

642
00:32:10,840 --> 00:32:12,360
Speaker 1: I guess it's time for me to tell you I've

643
00:32:12,360 --> 00:32:16,080
Speaker 1: been seeing a therapist. Um, and I guess I'll let

644
00:32:16,120 --> 00:32:19,000
Speaker 1: you get into two more in depth. What you've been

645
00:32:19,320 --> 00:32:21,600
Speaker 1: speaking with them about and how this has affected you

646
00:32:22,160 --> 00:32:25,120
Speaker 1: on not only a relationship level of professional level. We

647
00:32:25,280 --> 00:32:28,560
Speaker 1: have this business together. Um, and it kind of made

648
00:32:28,600 --> 00:32:30,200
Speaker 1: me take a step back because I was just like,

649
00:32:30,640 --> 00:32:34,520
Speaker 1: why the funk is everything bring? Every little thing was

650
00:32:34,600 --> 00:32:37,400
Speaker 1: starting an argument. If you guys are members of Patreon,

651
00:32:37,480 --> 00:32:40,080
Speaker 1: you guys heard the episode where were just people were

652
00:32:40,120 --> 00:32:44,040
Speaker 1: saying it wasn't that bad and I'm like, um, and

653
00:32:45,040 --> 00:32:46,560
Speaker 1: was like, I didn't think it was that bad. I'm

654
00:32:46,560 --> 00:32:48,200
Speaker 1: like you just being nice. It was bad. Yeah. And

655
00:32:48,360 --> 00:32:52,440
Speaker 1: so this was also before because people were like, Mandy,

656
00:32:52,480 --> 00:32:55,280
Speaker 1: you were tripping. No, bitch, I was not tripping. But

657
00:32:55,800 --> 00:32:58,160
Speaker 1: this is the thing too, and this is what what

658
00:32:58,400 --> 00:33:01,840
Speaker 1: what my friends said. Listening to it, you could have

659
00:33:01,960 --> 00:33:03,960
Speaker 1: seen how I could have took taken what you said

660
00:33:03,960 --> 00:33:06,640
Speaker 1: out of context. But to me, there was just a

661
00:33:06,720 --> 00:33:10,440
Speaker 1: lot of other conversations we've had previously to what had

662
00:33:10,600 --> 00:33:12,160
Speaker 1: led me to take it a certain way that people

663
00:33:12,160 --> 00:33:14,160
Speaker 1: don't hear on the show. So the reason I thought

664
00:33:14,200 --> 00:33:16,320
Speaker 1: about bringing it up just now is because Nola Darling

665
00:33:16,440 --> 00:33:20,400
Speaker 1: is the reason I needed a black one. So I, UM,

666
00:33:20,800 --> 00:33:23,360
Speaker 1: I don't know what like really in the stresses in

667
00:33:23,400 --> 00:33:25,800
Speaker 1: my life that have caused it, But um, I used

668
00:33:25,800 --> 00:33:29,000
Speaker 1: to think at first when it was happening, and feelings

669
00:33:29,040 --> 00:33:33,240
Speaker 1: of just like um emptiness or like loneliness were just

670
00:33:33,360 --> 00:33:35,920
Speaker 1: because lover boy wasn't here. So I thought, Okay, he's

671
00:33:35,920 --> 00:33:39,200
Speaker 1: at me home, and it's fine. He's home. He is

672
00:33:39,240 --> 00:33:41,320
Speaker 1: doing everything I could have asked for, and I still

673
00:33:41,480 --> 00:33:44,840
Speaker 1: feel terrible and I could not understand what it was.

674
00:33:44,960 --> 00:33:46,440
Speaker 1: I was like, you know what, I need to start

675
00:33:46,520 --> 00:33:48,120
Speaker 1: seeing a therapist. And it was a little bit before

676
00:33:48,160 --> 00:33:49,760
Speaker 1: he got home that I knew I needed to do it.

677
00:33:49,880 --> 00:33:53,120
Speaker 1: But um, I started seeing a therapist and like realizing

678
00:33:53,200 --> 00:33:56,040
Speaker 1: some things about whether it just be my professional life

679
00:33:56,200 --> 00:33:58,280
Speaker 1: or things that I don't have in New York that

680
00:33:58,360 --> 00:34:00,040
Speaker 1: I have at home. So I'm always feeling like I

681
00:34:00,120 --> 00:34:02,360
Speaker 1: need to leave to get back to myself where I'm

682
00:34:02,400 --> 00:34:06,000
Speaker 1: not making this landmark for myself in New York. Started

683
00:34:06,000 --> 00:34:10,719
Speaker 1: watching Nola Darling and I'm sorry I keep saying that.

684
00:34:10,960 --> 00:34:12,520
Speaker 1: I started to watch that She's Gonna have it, and

685
00:34:12,800 --> 00:34:14,799
Speaker 1: her friend is like, I got you. I'm gonna get too,

686
00:34:14,800 --> 00:34:16,480
Speaker 1: Black therap his whatever, it is gonna be great. And

687
00:34:16,520 --> 00:34:18,560
Speaker 1: I was like watching the connection she had with this

688
00:34:18,640 --> 00:34:21,080
Speaker 1: woman and I was like, yeah, oh my god, dude.

689
00:34:21,440 --> 00:34:23,720
Speaker 1: So a few days ago this I've only had one conversation.

690
00:34:23,800 --> 00:34:25,600
Speaker 1: Why I think did I say it on horrible decisions

691
00:34:25,760 --> 00:34:29,320
Speaker 1: you started on the Instagram. I'm talking to my therapist, Judy,

692
00:34:29,360 --> 00:34:32,359
Speaker 1: who I was chosen for me through my insurance, and um,

693
00:34:32,840 --> 00:34:34,960
Speaker 1: she's been all right, you know, like she'd like let

694
00:34:35,040 --> 00:34:37,600
Speaker 1: me know, like okay, your experience feelings. The depression is

695
00:34:37,680 --> 00:34:41,160
Speaker 1: kind of common for something called SAD seasonal effective disorder

696
00:34:41,280 --> 00:34:43,239
Speaker 1: or something I watched Broad City. You can get a

697
00:34:43,320 --> 00:34:45,959
Speaker 1: SAD lamp, which is a lamp that you can plug

698
00:34:46,040 --> 00:34:48,560
Speaker 1: into like shoot all this vitamin d out at you,

699
00:34:48,640 --> 00:34:51,320
Speaker 1: basically like the sun. It's like forty bucks on Amazon,

700
00:34:51,400 --> 00:34:52,960
Speaker 1: and you can just stare into it or leave it

701
00:34:53,040 --> 00:34:55,080
Speaker 1: on and people say they feel better and they feel

702
00:34:55,080 --> 00:34:57,920
Speaker 1: inerget because you wake up it's dark. You go back

703
00:34:58,000 --> 00:35:00,480
Speaker 1: from work, it's dark, like you don't really see any anymore,

704
00:35:00,640 --> 00:35:04,520
Speaker 1: you know what I mean? Some ship I don't know

705
00:35:04,560 --> 00:35:06,680
Speaker 1: the middle of a word. So anyway, I told her

706
00:35:06,800 --> 00:35:09,799
Speaker 1: yesterday I was getting really comfortable, not yesterday, whatever day

707
00:35:09,840 --> 00:35:12,359
Speaker 1: that was, I was getting really comfortable. I'm in her

708
00:35:12,440 --> 00:35:16,480
Speaker 1: office and I'm discussing a conversation I had with a colleague,

709
00:35:16,520 --> 00:35:17,560
Speaker 1: and I'm like, you know what I'm saying and this

710
00:35:17,719 --> 00:35:20,920
Speaker 1: nigga just always blah blah blah, and she said this

711
00:35:21,120 --> 00:35:23,640
Speaker 1: what Wait she had a problem with you saying ni.

712
00:35:23,960 --> 00:35:26,120
Speaker 1: She said, no, wait, who are we talking about? Because

713
00:35:26,120 --> 00:35:31,320
Speaker 1: I got confused, and I was like, I got confused.

714
00:35:31,840 --> 00:35:34,120
Speaker 1: And then I'm like, hold on, are you about to

715
00:35:34,120 --> 00:35:36,719
Speaker 1: ask me he's black? Because I said that, because you

716
00:35:36,760 --> 00:35:39,319
Speaker 1: know you'd be mad like this, motherfuckers you think you're

717
00:35:39,320 --> 00:35:42,719
Speaker 1: talking about someone in general. She looked so uncomfortable and

718
00:35:42,800 --> 00:35:46,200
Speaker 1: I said, you know what, I can't do this anymore, Judy,

719
00:35:46,320 --> 00:35:48,640
Speaker 1: this isn't going to work, I said, And she says,

720
00:35:48,840 --> 00:35:50,320
Speaker 1: what do you feel like? Therapy isn't working for you?

721
00:35:50,440 --> 00:35:52,160
Speaker 1: I was like, I feel like I need a black

722
00:35:52,760 --> 00:35:56,000
Speaker 1: woman or a black man, and I'm sorry, maybe even Latino,

723
00:35:56,160 --> 00:35:58,480
Speaker 1: but this is there's a disconnect with me and you,

724
00:35:58,840 --> 00:36:02,560
Speaker 1: and it's because you're white. Everybody told me I was

725
00:36:02,640 --> 00:36:06,520
Speaker 1: so fucking wrong for doing that. I said, well, let

726
00:36:06,600 --> 00:36:07,839
Speaker 1: me tell you what I found out. I was right.

727
00:36:08,480 --> 00:36:10,680
Speaker 1: I found a therapist online, literally typed in black New

728
00:36:10,760 --> 00:36:13,040
Speaker 1: York therapist found one chick spokes on the phone. She

729
00:36:13,120 --> 00:36:14,759
Speaker 1: was super cool. She's so booked up. She's like, yo,

730
00:36:14,840 --> 00:36:17,319
Speaker 1: I know we're unicorns. I'm sorry, girl, hit me up.

731
00:36:17,360 --> 00:36:19,600
Speaker 1: In a month, I found his black black in Dominican.

732
00:36:20,160 --> 00:36:22,360
Speaker 1: I get on the phone with him for about twenty minutes.

733
00:36:22,960 --> 00:36:24,680
Speaker 1: We start talking and I already knew I liked him

734
00:36:24,719 --> 00:36:26,640
Speaker 1: because I said something and like, He's like, why did

735
00:36:26,640 --> 00:36:28,239
Speaker 1: you think you need someone black? I was like, I

736
00:36:28,280 --> 00:36:31,040
Speaker 1: don't know, man, there's just this underlying thing of me

737
00:36:31,160 --> 00:36:33,080
Speaker 1: feeling like the person i'm talking to voted for Trump.

738
00:36:33,120 --> 00:36:37,720
Speaker 1: He's like, I fucking no, exactly what you're saying. Tomorrow,

739
00:36:38,239 --> 00:36:40,399
Speaker 1: sat with this dude, started talking about a few things,

740
00:36:40,600 --> 00:36:44,280
Speaker 1: and um, my life, my relationship, my family, my friends.

741
00:36:44,400 --> 00:36:46,080
Speaker 1: And one of the things that he said, which is

742
00:36:46,080 --> 00:36:47,400
Speaker 1: why I wanted to talk about it, was that he

743
00:36:47,560 --> 00:36:52,040
Speaker 1: thinks my podcast has an influence on He said. Yes,

744
00:36:52,400 --> 00:36:54,759
Speaker 1: he says, you even talking to you right now, you're laughing,

745
00:36:54,800 --> 00:36:57,200
Speaker 1: you're telling jokes with me, but there's this private side

746
00:36:57,239 --> 00:36:59,359
Speaker 1: to you where you seem to get totally upset when

747
00:36:59,360 --> 00:37:01,480
Speaker 1: you're alone, and I can't figure out what it is.

748
00:37:01,520 --> 00:37:03,760
Speaker 1: And the only new thing in your life life besides

749
00:37:03,800 --> 00:37:06,400
Speaker 1: the relationship, is your podcast. He says that a lot

750
00:37:06,480 --> 00:37:09,120
Speaker 1: of people that have newfound fame, not saying we're famous,

751
00:37:09,200 --> 00:37:10,520
Speaker 1: but he says, you know, he's in New York with

752
00:37:10,640 --> 00:37:14,360
Speaker 1: young people. He says, your fame could be a thousand people,

753
00:37:14,480 --> 00:37:16,080
Speaker 1: but it's all your world. And he was like, and

754
00:37:16,200 --> 00:37:20,440
Speaker 1: now you're telling everything to have tens of thousands of

755
00:37:20,480 --> 00:37:23,080
Speaker 1: people online and they have the space to judge you.

756
00:37:23,200 --> 00:37:25,239
Speaker 1: Whether we go on lipstick ALLI, whether it's in my

757
00:37:25,320 --> 00:37:28,360
Speaker 1: Instagram box, whether anybody hears it, whether it's a fake page,

758
00:37:28,680 --> 00:37:30,239
Speaker 1: You're going to hear it. He's like, so if you

759
00:37:30,400 --> 00:37:32,399
Speaker 1: decide to do something like, let's say, sleep with someone

760
00:37:32,440 --> 00:37:35,080
Speaker 1: else that's not lover boy, what if you get his

761
00:37:35,200 --> 00:37:37,920
Speaker 1: name right, you might think that someone's going to hear

762
00:37:37,960 --> 00:37:40,360
Speaker 1: this and judge you. Either cheering for you, rooting for you.

763
00:37:40,480 --> 00:37:42,080
Speaker 1: Someone may not like it. Someone's gonna call you a ho.

764
00:37:42,320 --> 00:37:44,319
Speaker 1: He might hear it. He's like, everything is aired out

765
00:37:44,360 --> 00:37:46,879
Speaker 1: and there's nothing that you have this private. And it's

766
00:37:47,000 --> 00:37:49,520
Speaker 1: very hard. Now I can ask you a question about

767
00:37:49,560 --> 00:37:52,640
Speaker 1: that because I found it on UM and I don't

768
00:37:52,680 --> 00:37:54,360
Speaker 1: know exactly where you were in the state of my

769
00:37:54,440 --> 00:37:55,800
Speaker 1: not and if you're drunk, so when you were in

770
00:37:55,920 --> 00:37:59,520
Speaker 1: Orlando you got on Instagram live or the i G

771
00:37:59,640 --> 00:38:02,640
Speaker 1: story was like, yeah, so I'm missing an airing and

772
00:38:02,719 --> 00:38:04,560
Speaker 1: it must have been in the guy's house that ate

773
00:38:04,600 --> 00:38:07,160
Speaker 1: my pussy last night. I didn't say that, bitch, Yes

774
00:38:07,239 --> 00:38:09,560
Speaker 1: you did. Okay, first of all, I didn't say my

775
00:38:09,560 --> 00:38:11,400
Speaker 1: pussy last night. I said it might be had somebody's

776
00:38:11,440 --> 00:38:14,640
Speaker 1: house because you got crazy head last night. You did.

777
00:38:14,760 --> 00:38:20,000
Speaker 1: You were telling that story that well, you came out

778
00:38:20,040 --> 00:38:23,200
Speaker 1: and told it to open just like literally got back

779
00:38:23,320 --> 00:38:27,760
Speaker 1: to myself when I got to Orlando, so I haven't

780
00:38:27,880 --> 00:38:32,799
Speaker 1: been seeing was resurrected. She was like, yeah, I lost

781
00:38:32,840 --> 00:38:35,320
Speaker 1: my airring cell today. I was a clip in that

782
00:38:35,480 --> 00:38:38,000
Speaker 1: dude came to Orlando. He's so dope. A friend of mine,

783
00:38:38,200 --> 00:38:45,000
Speaker 1: um came to Orlando, and I mean to Orlando and

784
00:38:45,520 --> 00:38:48,120
Speaker 1: came to New York. And the second lover voice saw

785
00:38:48,160 --> 00:38:50,440
Speaker 1: me posting. He's like, I stocked. I know you fucking did.

786
00:38:50,520 --> 00:38:52,680
Speaker 1: And I really didn't do anything with him. When I

787
00:38:52,719 --> 00:38:55,560
Speaker 1: got to Orlando, I was like, nah, fuck it me

788
00:38:55,680 --> 00:38:59,239
Speaker 1: and were good good night baby. Nothing was wrong. He

789
00:38:59,280 --> 00:39:01,880
Speaker 1: wasn't out of spite. Was just like I felt like myself.

790
00:39:02,000 --> 00:39:04,080
Speaker 1: And so the therapist said a few things to me.

791
00:39:04,640 --> 00:39:06,680
Speaker 1: He said that even though I have a lot of

792
00:39:06,760 --> 00:39:08,960
Speaker 1: friends in New York, the only person I care about

793
00:39:09,280 --> 00:39:12,880
Speaker 1: is him, Loverboy. All of this pressure is on this

794
00:39:12,960 --> 00:39:15,200
Speaker 1: one person for things to work, for everything to be perfect,

795
00:39:15,239 --> 00:39:17,600
Speaker 1: for him to come home, because I don't care that

796
00:39:17,760 --> 00:39:20,360
Speaker 1: deeply about anyone else in New York. The emotions he

797
00:39:20,440 --> 00:39:23,279
Speaker 1: was speaking about, we're not necessarily from a romantic level,

798
00:39:23,320 --> 00:39:25,160
Speaker 1: but from what I have with friends. And he said,

799
00:39:25,560 --> 00:39:26,960
Speaker 1: you moved to New York and where a lot of

800
00:39:27,000 --> 00:39:29,320
Speaker 1: people think when you first move you're gonna feel upset.

801
00:39:29,560 --> 00:39:32,520
Speaker 1: You don't. You're so excited everything is new. You're too busy,

802
00:39:33,360 --> 00:39:35,120
Speaker 1: which is how you were the whole first year you

803
00:39:35,160 --> 00:39:37,279
Speaker 1: were here. Like now you're settled and things are real,

804
00:39:37,440 --> 00:39:38,959
Speaker 1: which is why you had to get a last minute

805
00:39:39,000 --> 00:39:41,440
Speaker 1: thanks I wasn't going home for Thanksgiving. It's like, fuck it.

806
00:39:41,480 --> 00:39:43,560
Speaker 1: I got that flight maybe forty eight hours before. He's like,

807
00:39:43,600 --> 00:39:46,040
Speaker 1: because you're making these irrational decisions. You don't know what's

808
00:39:46,040 --> 00:39:48,920
Speaker 1: going on, because you feel completely alone, he said, Because

809
00:39:48,920 --> 00:39:50,880
Speaker 1: he said, I said, sometimes I'll cry out of nowhere

810
00:39:50,920 --> 00:39:53,560
Speaker 1: and everything is fine. Actually it was lover Boy's house.

811
00:39:53,640 --> 00:39:56,200
Speaker 1: Went to the bathroom and he had just got done

812
00:39:56,200 --> 00:39:57,560
Speaker 1: having sex, and I went to the bathroom to cry

813
00:39:57,600 --> 00:39:59,000
Speaker 1: for a minute because I didn't know where it was

814
00:39:59,080 --> 00:40:01,760
Speaker 1: coming from and I just I think I just felt

815
00:40:01,800 --> 00:40:03,279
Speaker 1: like such a high and everything was good. And then like,

816
00:40:03,320 --> 00:40:04,719
Speaker 1: oh my god, now what the sex is over? Now

817
00:40:04,760 --> 00:40:09,120
Speaker 1: what's gonna happen. It's stuff that's absolutely ridiculous. Like my

818
00:40:09,239 --> 00:40:10,799
Speaker 1: mom said, do you think he's sleeping with someone else?

819
00:40:10,800 --> 00:40:12,600
Speaker 1: I said, man, my Mark is all over that apartment.

820
00:40:12,840 --> 00:40:16,960
Speaker 1: There's no way even if he was, I don't even know, dude,

821
00:40:17,000 --> 00:40:19,040
Speaker 1: this is not about him. It's something that's so internal.

822
00:40:19,480 --> 00:40:22,239
Speaker 1: But when I got home to Orlando, it just felt

823
00:40:22,320 --> 00:40:26,760
Speaker 1: like me, people that loved me were there. I felt

824
00:40:26,800 --> 00:40:30,359
Speaker 1: at home. I felt more comfortable. I was waking up

825
00:40:30,480 --> 00:40:33,759
Speaker 1: just like knowing my purpose. It was so weird. And

826
00:40:33,880 --> 00:40:35,680
Speaker 1: so then when I saw oh boy, we was out

827
00:40:35,719 --> 00:40:38,000
Speaker 1: and like, yo you MATTQ. We was in New York.

828
00:40:38,040 --> 00:40:39,279
Speaker 1: He never kissed me. I was waiting for you to

829
00:40:39,320 --> 00:40:41,680
Speaker 1: kiss me all night? Was that and we were fu any.

830
00:40:42,040 --> 00:40:44,320
Speaker 1: I don't know why I happened. You know what happened.

831
00:40:44,360 --> 00:40:47,360
Speaker 1: It was dope. Um. But yeah, it's crazy because the therapist,

832
00:40:47,480 --> 00:40:50,239
Speaker 1: like I've always thought therapy was bullshit, and I guess which,

833
00:40:50,280 --> 00:40:51,879
Speaker 1: like a lot of black people feel like mental health

834
00:40:51,960 --> 00:40:54,360
Speaker 1: is like a fucking b S thing. But bro, I

835
00:40:54,840 --> 00:40:56,880
Speaker 1: talked to him last night before our day and like

836
00:40:57,120 --> 00:40:59,440
Speaker 1: felt like I was on a cloud. Just airing it

837
00:40:59,480 --> 00:41:03,600
Speaker 1: out to some one that's completely unbiased is great, And yeah,

838
00:41:04,160 --> 00:41:06,239
Speaker 1: I wish that we could do ads for therapy. So

839
00:41:06,400 --> 00:41:11,240
Speaker 1: if you guys wanna know that that, um, it's crazy

840
00:41:11,280 --> 00:41:15,239
Speaker 1: because I haven't um thought to see a therapist. I

841
00:41:15,280 --> 00:41:18,160
Speaker 1: don't really I really feel like I have a strong

842
00:41:18,760 --> 00:41:21,080
Speaker 1: um idea of who I am, and I guess I'll

843
00:41:21,080 --> 00:41:25,120
Speaker 1: go back to the conversation that I was having even

844
00:41:25,200 --> 00:41:27,520
Speaker 1: just my understanding of what I want and what I

845
00:41:27,600 --> 00:41:29,920
Speaker 1: don't want, so um, back to the conversations that I

846
00:41:30,000 --> 00:41:33,680
Speaker 1: was having with a king. I literally and I kind

847
00:41:33,760 --> 00:41:38,319
Speaker 1: of compartmentalized this to the relationships that Nolo Dotty had

848
00:41:38,719 --> 00:41:41,600
Speaker 1: in the sense that when when I think of three

849
00:41:41,719 --> 00:41:44,600
Speaker 1: things that I really want from a guy, I know

850
00:41:44,760 --> 00:41:47,279
Speaker 1: that I want the sexual connection, I know that I

851
00:41:47,400 --> 00:41:49,960
Speaker 1: want to want to be around you, and I want

852
00:41:50,000 --> 00:41:54,680
Speaker 1: to know that you're financially secure. And for those three things,

853
00:41:55,120 --> 00:41:58,000
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna settle with a person who I feel

854
00:41:58,120 --> 00:42:01,480
Speaker 1: lax in any of those three particular departments, because then

855
00:42:01,520 --> 00:42:04,719
Speaker 1: I feel like I will seek one of those three

856
00:42:04,800 --> 00:42:07,360
Speaker 1: things from someone else. So in the space that I

857
00:42:07,440 --> 00:42:10,520
Speaker 1: am right now, being a full time student, working doing

858
00:42:10,600 --> 00:42:13,120
Speaker 1: everything that I'm doing, my time is very limited. So

859
00:42:13,239 --> 00:42:15,480
Speaker 1: I clearly want to want to be around you. If

860
00:42:15,480 --> 00:42:17,160
Speaker 1: I don't want to be around you, I'm not going

861
00:42:17,200 --> 00:42:19,360
Speaker 1: to one of the other thing. I just had to

862
00:42:19,400 --> 00:42:21,399
Speaker 1: be very honest, and I did not like about Nola,

863
00:42:21,719 --> 00:42:25,560
Speaker 1: like the sorry, she's gonna have it. They all three

864
00:42:25,600 --> 00:42:28,560
Speaker 1: of them. I'm sorry, but the fact that she didn't

865
00:42:28,560 --> 00:42:30,200
Speaker 1: want to wife any of them, it's because a lot

866
00:42:30,280 --> 00:42:32,600
Speaker 1: of them were lacking ship she wanted just like you said.

867
00:42:32,800 --> 00:42:34,480
Speaker 1: But no, but that But that's what I'm saying. I'm sorry,

868
00:42:34,520 --> 00:42:36,200
Speaker 1: but you're not really going to meet a man that

869
00:42:36,280 --> 00:42:38,080
Speaker 1: gives you the total package and you not want to

870
00:42:38,120 --> 00:42:40,680
Speaker 1: fucking lock him down. But bullshit, because this is but

871
00:42:40,800 --> 00:42:43,759
Speaker 1: this was my issue even with um. The one is

872
00:42:43,760 --> 00:42:47,240
Speaker 1: emotionally unavailable. One is too full of himself. She couldn't

873
00:42:47,320 --> 00:42:49,359
Speaker 1: laugh with him, she couldn't take him serious. Then one

874
00:42:49,480 --> 00:42:51,879
Speaker 1: is living with his sister. Like I'm sorry, but each

875
00:42:52,000 --> 00:42:54,799
Speaker 1: three of these bring the things that I want. One

876
00:42:54,920 --> 00:42:58,840
Speaker 1: is financially secure in what you have with Jamie. Is

877
00:42:58,920 --> 00:43:03,360
Speaker 1: that the girl? Sorry, guys, guess Jesus um, and so

878
00:43:03,719 --> 00:43:10,040
Speaker 1: one is one is financially secure, the other is in

879
00:43:10,160 --> 00:43:13,480
Speaker 1: a space where he doesn't have his ships together, but

880
00:43:13,600 --> 00:43:15,960
Speaker 1: he's fun to be around. And then you have the

881
00:43:16,080 --> 00:43:20,360
Speaker 1: third one who sexually but that's the thing. And so

882
00:43:20,480 --> 00:43:21,960
Speaker 1: to me, none of them, she didn't want to wife

883
00:43:22,000 --> 00:43:23,319
Speaker 1: any of them. And so we're sitting here like, oh,

884
00:43:23,360 --> 00:43:25,560
Speaker 1: this girl is so dope and she can fucking just

885
00:43:25,680 --> 00:43:27,880
Speaker 1: play the game and blah blah blah. But none of

886
00:43:27,920 --> 00:43:30,839
Speaker 1: them were really that nick But for her, I'm saying,

887
00:43:31,080 --> 00:43:34,600
Speaker 1: I have that same thing, bitch, felam bay are fine

888
00:43:35,440 --> 00:43:37,480
Speaker 1: in me compared you don't want a wife guys a lot.

889
00:43:37,520 --> 00:43:39,880
Speaker 1: You're like, way less emotional than me. That's true. No,

890
00:43:40,000 --> 00:43:43,840
Speaker 1: but I do become immationally attached to guys. Fucking you

891
00:43:43,920 --> 00:43:46,960
Speaker 1: don't know my last five years because we haven't friends

892
00:43:47,440 --> 00:43:51,000
Speaker 1: so on for the last forty shows we've done, bro, Bro,

893
00:43:51,520 --> 00:43:54,719
Speaker 1: I really would have. I would have whited, I would

894
00:43:54,719 --> 00:43:57,520
Speaker 1: have cut everybody off. I'm saying you can be more

895
00:43:57,600 --> 00:43:59,360
Speaker 1: of a nola darling than I can. Do You not

896
00:43:59,440 --> 00:44:02,160
Speaker 1: agree with that? No, absolutely so, which is what I

897
00:44:02,280 --> 00:44:04,279
Speaker 1: just said before you cut me out. No, I hear you.

898
00:44:04,400 --> 00:44:06,440
Speaker 1: But what I'm saying is do you not agree that

899
00:44:06,600 --> 00:44:08,880
Speaker 1: you find that some of the show is bullshit? Because

900
00:44:09,120 --> 00:44:11,560
Speaker 1: what are the odds that a girl can really be

901
00:44:11,719 --> 00:44:14,520
Speaker 1: with these three men and fucking feel like I'm sorry,

902
00:44:14,560 --> 00:44:17,520
Speaker 1: I just don't. I that's why, and that's why I said,

903
00:44:17,680 --> 00:44:20,279
Speaker 1: maybe you didn't like the show as much because you

904
00:44:21,160 --> 00:44:25,280
Speaker 1: really seek these emotional connections. And with me, I relate

905
00:44:25,320 --> 00:44:27,760
Speaker 1: to her in the sense that I do have partners.

906
00:44:27,840 --> 00:44:31,279
Speaker 1: I have different guys on my phone seven I love

907
00:44:31,400 --> 00:44:34,400
Speaker 1: being around He's funny, we talk, we catch up on

908
00:44:34,440 --> 00:44:38,000
Speaker 1: each other's lives. His personality is bonb We talk, and

909
00:44:38,080 --> 00:44:40,600
Speaker 1: then he Fox the dog shit on me. Fellam Bay

910
00:44:41,600 --> 00:44:44,560
Speaker 1: wasn't as great in bed, but I truly enjoyed being

911
00:44:44,600 --> 00:44:48,600
Speaker 1: around him. And then we have Lawyer Bay, who I

912
00:44:48,800 --> 00:44:50,960
Speaker 1: enjoyed everything about him, but his mental was not there

913
00:44:51,000 --> 00:44:53,640
Speaker 1: to where I stopped enjoying even talking to him. And

914
00:44:53,800 --> 00:44:56,439
Speaker 1: so I do have these three things from each guys,

915
00:44:56,520 --> 00:44:59,000
Speaker 1: but all three guys aren't everything that I would want

916
00:44:59,040 --> 00:45:01,800
Speaker 1: in a in a guy to me um, and so

917
00:45:02,239 --> 00:45:06,200
Speaker 1: I can't genuinely enjoy all these guys, enjoy what I

918
00:45:06,280 --> 00:45:10,440
Speaker 1: get from each of these guys, and not like dislike them,

919
00:45:10,640 --> 00:45:12,279
Speaker 1: not not have feelings for them, because I do have

920
00:45:12,360 --> 00:45:14,680
Speaker 1: feelings for all of them, but I can still not

921
00:45:14,840 --> 00:45:16,640
Speaker 1: want to be with them, if that makes sense. And

922
00:45:16,719 --> 00:45:19,359
Speaker 1: that's because if I sit here and I decide, hey,

923
00:45:19,520 --> 00:45:22,480
Speaker 1: I want to commit to you, I'm telling you I'm

924
00:45:22,560 --> 00:45:24,680
Speaker 1: ready to cut all my hoes off. And if you

925
00:45:24,800 --> 00:45:26,640
Speaker 1: don't make me feel like I can cut all my

926
00:45:26,719 --> 00:45:29,160
Speaker 1: hoes off, I'm not going to commit to you because

927
00:45:29,200 --> 00:45:31,520
Speaker 1: I don't want to get into a relationship where I

928
00:45:31,640 --> 00:45:35,440
Speaker 1: still feel like I need something from another man. And again,

929
00:45:35,880 --> 00:45:37,920
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna be with a broke nigga who I

930
00:45:38,000 --> 00:45:40,160
Speaker 1: super like, because if I feel like I gotta ask

931
00:45:40,239 --> 00:45:43,480
Speaker 1: the next nigga for tuition or listen, I want these shoes,

932
00:45:43,719 --> 00:45:45,640
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna be with a man. And I talked

933
00:45:45,680 --> 00:45:47,319
Speaker 1: to and I say this a lot with my home

934
00:45:47,360 --> 00:45:50,080
Speaker 1: girls because they've had boyfriends and have and have had

935
00:45:50,120 --> 00:45:52,440
Speaker 1: sugar daddies, and I'm like, why the funk would you

936
00:45:52,520 --> 00:45:54,719
Speaker 1: commit to a man or you feel like you still

937
00:45:54,800 --> 00:45:56,920
Speaker 1: need to be financially dependent on another man for it.

938
00:45:57,560 --> 00:46:01,439
Speaker 1: And so what Nola did was she enjoyed little things

939
00:46:01,560 --> 00:46:03,120
Speaker 1: of all of these men, even though she didn't see

940
00:46:03,160 --> 00:46:05,640
Speaker 1: herself being with them long term. There was a piece

941
00:46:05,680 --> 00:46:07,200
Speaker 1: of them that made her happy. And I think that

942
00:46:07,320 --> 00:46:13,360
Speaker 1: that's the impression that, um, I don't know that so

943
00:46:13,480 --> 00:46:18,520
Speaker 1: generalely with polyamorous relationships, you have a um I don't

944
00:46:18,560 --> 00:46:21,279
Speaker 1: want to use the word main, there's another word primary. Sorry,

945
00:46:21,640 --> 00:46:26,640
Speaker 1: you're a primary and that person fulfills most of the things.

946
00:46:26,680 --> 00:46:28,960
Speaker 1: And she didn't have that right, which is why it

947
00:46:29,080 --> 00:46:30,800
Speaker 1: was I think a little bit harder for me to

948
00:46:30,840 --> 00:46:33,600
Speaker 1: be like, oh, is this a good representation? Well, you

949
00:46:33,840 --> 00:46:36,279
Speaker 1: know what Polly means, and so yeah, if you want

950
00:46:36,320 --> 00:46:38,839
Speaker 1: to literally dissect the showing that they have to share

951
00:46:38,880 --> 00:46:41,839
Speaker 1: and be the Kumbaya like Brooklyn williamsburg Bush with gas

952
00:46:41,960 --> 00:46:43,840
Speaker 1: niggas that be doing, you know what I'm saying. To me,

953
00:46:44,000 --> 00:46:46,719
Speaker 1: what it was, it was honestly not Polly at all.

954
00:46:47,040 --> 00:46:50,640
Speaker 1: To me, it was a single woman enjoying her sexual

955
00:46:50,719 --> 00:46:54,680
Speaker 1: partners and enjoying the relationships that she had was prime amorous,

956
00:46:54,800 --> 00:46:59,880
Speaker 1: because polyamorous means you actually have relationships with and she did.

957
00:47:00,400 --> 00:47:04,320
Speaker 1: I do. But girl said, I'm sucking you like this

958
00:47:05,200 --> 00:47:06,920
Speaker 1: so that you know that you're not getting sucked right

959
00:47:06,960 --> 00:47:09,240
Speaker 1: by your other niggas. When I cussed out the nigga

960
00:47:09,239 --> 00:47:12,239
Speaker 1: who was paying my bills. He said, did everybody get

961
00:47:12,280 --> 00:47:15,800
Speaker 1: custed out today or just me? They're all very aware

962
00:47:15,880 --> 00:47:18,520
Speaker 1: that I have other relationships with other guys and so,

963
00:47:19,120 --> 00:47:21,800
Speaker 1: but they're not signing up to being a polyamorous relationship

964
00:47:21,960 --> 00:47:24,640
Speaker 1: where they know my specific relationship with each of these

965
00:47:24,960 --> 00:47:27,279
Speaker 1: Also a lot of these men that you're in these

966
00:47:27,320 --> 00:47:31,560
Speaker 1: relationships are unavailable. No, they're except for the ones who pay.

967
00:47:31,800 --> 00:47:37,600
Speaker 1: The married ones are unavailable. Is not unavailable, No, absolutely,

968
00:47:37,600 --> 00:47:40,160
Speaker 1: We've talked about this, Fellam Bay. Is not unavailable. Was

969
00:47:40,200 --> 00:47:43,319
Speaker 1: not unavailable Lawyer Bay up until when we start talking people,

970
00:47:43,360 --> 00:47:46,560
Speaker 1: was not unavailable married. But I'm talking if I want,

971
00:47:46,640 --> 00:47:49,600
Speaker 1: if I wanted to sit here and make the relationship

972
00:47:49,640 --> 00:47:53,359
Speaker 1: anything different than what it was, I've seen. He's been

973
00:47:53,360 --> 00:47:57,040
Speaker 1: on my phone every single day for someone actively right now?

974
00:47:57,200 --> 00:48:01,239
Speaker 1: Are you like right now? Because of where I am

975
00:48:01,320 --> 00:48:03,279
Speaker 1: in my life and because I'm focused on my career,

976
00:48:03,320 --> 00:48:05,480
Speaker 1: and because I don't have the time to give that

977
00:48:05,560 --> 00:48:07,799
Speaker 1: I would want to give to a relationship right now,

978
00:48:08,000 --> 00:48:11,600
Speaker 1: I'm not looking. Did what I have settled down with

979
00:48:11,760 --> 00:48:15,439
Speaker 1: Lawyer Bay when that situation was at a place where

980
00:48:15,520 --> 00:48:18,200
Speaker 1: we could have Absolutely, because I was at a place

981
00:48:18,239 --> 00:48:21,240
Speaker 1: where bank account was lit, school, I was about to graduate.

982
00:48:21,280 --> 00:48:23,759
Speaker 1: I'm about to start my career. He's a lawyer. He

983
00:48:23,920 --> 00:48:27,200
Speaker 1: just got his place. I was ready right now. Now

984
00:48:27,280 --> 00:48:29,239
Speaker 1: that I didn't added another semester, I have to deal

985
00:48:29,320 --> 00:48:31,640
Speaker 1: with c p A. If someone falls into my life,

986
00:48:31,760 --> 00:48:34,520
Speaker 1: absolutely I would be in a relationship, but he would

987
00:48:34,560 --> 00:48:36,120
Speaker 1: have to make me want to cut all these niggs off.

988
00:48:36,880 --> 00:48:40,439
Speaker 1: That's that's just what it is like. So I would

989
00:48:40,480 --> 00:48:42,640
Speaker 1: be in a relationship and I'm very emotional, like I

990
00:48:42,800 --> 00:48:46,439
Speaker 1: was just even talking to got pissed on and he's

991
00:48:46,520 --> 00:48:48,880
Speaker 1: just like, oh my god, and that I've been talking to.

992
00:48:49,680 --> 00:48:51,680
Speaker 1: Thing I hate about going back to like old dudes

993
00:48:51,680 --> 00:48:54,120
Speaker 1: is because whenever likes me, I'm like, damn, I cut

994
00:48:54,120 --> 00:48:55,880
Speaker 1: off my holes off. And then it's like not even

995
00:48:55,960 --> 00:48:59,279
Speaker 1: nis that I really want to funk with. It's just like, yeah,

996
00:48:59,480 --> 00:49:04,240
Speaker 1: well I have a problem cutting guys off. But anyways, guys, Jesus,

997
00:49:04,360 --> 00:49:07,160
Speaker 1: that was quite I guess the talk. We'll sit here

998
00:49:07,200 --> 00:49:09,200
Speaker 1: and I guess we got about ten minutes to wrap

999
00:49:09,360 --> 00:49:12,640
Speaker 1: up the show. Yeah, so but we'll go ahead, um

1000
00:49:13,160 --> 00:49:16,160
Speaker 1: before we sign out for this show. And I hope

1001
00:49:16,160 --> 00:49:17,719
Speaker 1: you guys really enjoyed it, because I think we kind

1002
00:49:17,719 --> 00:49:20,000
Speaker 1: of got into some some deep talking. Y'all heard a

1003
00:49:20,040 --> 00:49:21,560
Speaker 1: little bit of finish it, but not really but it

1004
00:49:21,640 --> 00:49:25,360
Speaker 1: was cool. UM. I want to go ahead and update

1005
00:49:25,440 --> 00:49:29,200
Speaker 1: you guys on our Patreon account. UM. And for those

1006
00:49:29,239 --> 00:49:32,080
Speaker 1: of you who don't know and questions that we've been

1007
00:49:32,120 --> 00:49:34,160
Speaker 1: getting that I want to clear up. We have the

1008
00:49:34,200 --> 00:49:38,440
Speaker 1: Patreon account and which will be posting bonus um episodes,

1009
00:49:38,480 --> 00:49:42,120
Speaker 1: bonus footage, live footage, different things, depending on how much

1010
00:49:42,160 --> 00:49:44,719
Speaker 1: we're able to raise enough. Course, bringing more live shows

1011
00:49:44,760 --> 00:49:48,080
Speaker 1: to you guys UM later in the future. But these

1012
00:49:48,120 --> 00:49:50,279
Speaker 1: shows that you guys are listening to on wherever you

1013
00:49:50,400 --> 00:49:52,960
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1014
00:49:53,080 --> 00:49:56,440
Speaker 1: dropping an episode every week for you guys, whether you

1015
00:49:56,520 --> 00:49:59,200
Speaker 1: listen to us on SoundCloud, iTunes, at heart Radio, We're

1016
00:49:59,200 --> 00:50:02,000
Speaker 1: still gonna be here. UM. What the Patreon does is

1017
00:50:02,400 --> 00:50:04,640
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1018
00:50:04,680 --> 00:50:06,920
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1019
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1020
00:50:11,320 --> 00:50:12,640
Speaker 1: And what we want to be able to do is

1021
00:50:13,080 --> 00:50:14,960
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1022
00:50:15,000 --> 00:50:18,000
Speaker 1: able to provide you guys longer episodes, their bonus episodes,

1023
00:50:18,280 --> 00:50:20,759
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1024
00:50:21,520 --> 00:50:25,239
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1025
00:50:25,320 --> 00:50:29,719
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1026
00:50:30,040 --> 00:50:32,720
Speaker 1: I've had some people write me UM specifically in Orlando,

1027
00:50:32,760 --> 00:50:34,839
Speaker 1: I guess because we're from there, but I'm also someone

1028
00:50:34,880 --> 00:50:38,080
Speaker 1: in Atlanta as well, discussing doing live shows there. UM.

1029
00:50:38,200 --> 00:50:41,560
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1030
00:50:41,600 --> 00:50:44,359
Speaker 1: we posted should we do it in Atlanta and mad

1031
00:50:45,800 --> 00:50:48,480
Speaker 1: So if any of you, UM, I would like to

1032
00:50:48,520 --> 00:50:50,640
Speaker 1: finance our own shows so we can make this money, yeah,

1033
00:50:50,640 --> 00:50:53,040
Speaker 1: feel me. But if any of you guys know promoters

1034
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1035
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1036
00:50:57,400 --> 00:51:00,600
Speaker 1: with your promoter, hit us up UM with stuff about that,

1037
00:51:00,680 --> 00:51:02,919
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1038
00:51:02,960 --> 00:51:04,680
Speaker 1: been talking to a friend of ours, d Strong shout

1039
00:51:04,719 --> 00:51:06,359
Speaker 1: out to one or four point five in Orlando. It's

1040
00:51:06,360 --> 00:51:09,480
Speaker 1: a radio station. He wants to host our Orlando show,

1041
00:51:09,719 --> 00:51:11,359
Speaker 1: So he's trying to bring us out there. It ain't

1042
00:51:11,400 --> 00:51:13,560
Speaker 1: gonna be no time soon. Why do you even say

1043
00:51:13,600 --> 00:51:16,040
Speaker 1: that we ain't had this conversation. It ain't gonna be

1044
00:51:16,040 --> 00:51:20,520
Speaker 1: no time soon. Why I have seven classes next semester.

1045
00:51:21,000 --> 00:51:22,960
Speaker 1: On top of for those of you don't know, I

1046
00:51:23,040 --> 00:51:25,279
Speaker 1: work at an investment bank and which I work in

1047
00:51:25,320 --> 00:51:28,279
Speaker 1: the tax department, so we have a busy season coming up.

1048
00:51:28,280 --> 00:51:30,840
Speaker 1: But bit you were cool with Atlanta. Oh no, I

1049
00:51:30,920 --> 00:51:32,920
Speaker 1: was gonna tell you, We're not doing it till after

1050
00:51:33,040 --> 00:51:35,759
Speaker 1: tax seasons as well. Maybe May, maybe, maybe summertime. I'm

1051
00:51:35,800 --> 00:51:37,960
Speaker 1: not jo could do one if you can fly out

1052
00:51:38,000 --> 00:51:39,719
Speaker 1: for some dictor and taxis you fly out for some

1053
00:51:39,800 --> 00:51:42,319
Speaker 1: money and I didn't fly out for last tax season? Okay,

1054
00:51:42,360 --> 00:51:47,840
Speaker 1: well bet you Mike. No No anyways, guys, Yeah, so

1055
00:51:48,920 --> 00:51:51,440
Speaker 1: another one ain't coming out time A bitch with stress

1056
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Speaker 1: and what were you gonna say? Thanks for Patreon. Not

1057
00:51:56,520 --> 00:51:58,919
Speaker 1: only thanks for Patreon, I want to thank you guys

1058
00:51:59,040 --> 00:52:02,600
Speaker 1: so much for leaving UM comments on our iTunes reviews.

1059
00:52:02,960 --> 00:52:06,440
Speaker 1: Me and Wheezy actually read them and they like fucking

1060
00:52:06,520 --> 00:52:08,719
Speaker 1: touch our hearts um and real quick, I want to

1061
00:52:08,760 --> 00:52:12,720
Speaker 1: give a shout out UM. Today I got a tweet

1062
00:52:13,000 --> 00:52:18,919
Speaker 1: from Jesse. Jesse is abelt five six, she said, she said,

1063
00:52:19,120 --> 00:52:22,719
Speaker 1: attending a sexual empowerment session at n S e C

1064
00:52:23,160 --> 00:52:26,719
Speaker 1: seventeen and was able to share how I felt empowered

1065
00:52:26,800 --> 00:52:30,800
Speaker 1: listening to horrible decisions with full court, pumps Um and Wheezy.

1066
00:52:31,160 --> 00:52:33,480
Speaker 1: She also said, I love how you to keep it

1067
00:52:33,560 --> 00:52:36,560
Speaker 1: real and talk about topics that many don't feel comfortable doing,

1068
00:52:37,040 --> 00:52:40,040
Speaker 1: and that you also advocate for safe sex as well

1069
00:52:40,080 --> 00:52:42,759
Speaker 1: as being comfortable with your own sexuality and your needs

1070
00:52:42,840 --> 00:52:45,759
Speaker 1: as a sexual being. UM so shout out, Jesse. I

1071
00:52:45,840 --> 00:52:49,440
Speaker 1: appreciate that, um a lot. Thank you so very much.

1072
00:52:49,760 --> 00:52:52,160
Speaker 1: Not until the show did I realize, like people, nobody

1073
00:52:52,239 --> 00:52:56,759
Speaker 1: came up to us, as some said, thanks for bringing

1074
00:52:56,760 --> 00:52:59,840
Speaker 1: to hose out, but well, no one came up to us,

1075
00:52:59,880 --> 00:53:02,120
Speaker 1: and like fu blah blah blah. They were just like

1076
00:53:02,280 --> 00:53:04,480
Speaker 1: you touched me in this way and blah blah blah.

1077
00:53:04,480 --> 00:53:07,800
Speaker 1: And I was like, what, Like that ship really touched

1078
00:53:08,040 --> 00:53:10,279
Speaker 1: my heart. And it's funny because I'm just sitting here

1079
00:53:10,320 --> 00:53:13,480
Speaker 1: looking across from the bananas by our mouth, and I

1080
00:53:13,640 --> 00:53:15,839
Speaker 1: just could not believe so many women spoke just that way.

1081
00:53:15,920 --> 00:53:19,640
Speaker 1: Everybody was just so eloquent and beautiful and fucking I

1082
00:53:19,760 --> 00:53:21,560
Speaker 1: just really thought there's gonna be some ratchet holes because

1083
00:53:21,600 --> 00:53:26,400
Speaker 1: we are classy, ratchy. And it's so crazy because my

1084
00:53:26,560 --> 00:53:30,319
Speaker 1: my coworkers even came to me and said, um, I'm

1085
00:53:30,400 --> 00:53:33,799
Speaker 1: not gonna lie. The men that came out to your

1086
00:53:33,840 --> 00:53:36,239
Speaker 1: live show. We're dressed so well. Hold on, let me

1087
00:53:36,320 --> 00:53:38,359
Speaker 1: say one other thing that people shocked me up before

1088
00:53:38,360 --> 00:53:40,680
Speaker 1: we go get our next guest for next week's episode.

1089
00:53:40,960 --> 00:53:43,880
Speaker 1: There was a swinger couple that's been writing us and

1090
00:53:44,560 --> 00:53:47,800
Speaker 1: we you asked her husband, her boyfriend, how are you

1091
00:53:47,880 --> 00:53:49,360
Speaker 1: okay with her sleeping with other men? How does it

1092
00:53:49,400 --> 00:53:51,200
Speaker 1: make you feel? Blah blah, And I was waiting for

1093
00:53:51,239 --> 00:53:54,480
Speaker 1: a nick to say something and they listened some in

1094
00:53:54,520 --> 00:53:56,759
Speaker 1: the corner his head the whole guy. Everybody was like,

1095
00:53:56,800 --> 00:53:59,800
Speaker 1: who was that guy who was like you? But it

1096
00:53:59,880 --> 00:54:01,960
Speaker 1: was hot hope, But no one said anything. No one

1097
00:54:02,000 --> 00:54:03,839
Speaker 1: judged him. And I thought some niggas was gonna be funny.

1098
00:54:03,880 --> 00:54:06,080
Speaker 1: And I feel like everybody is just on the same

1099
00:54:06,200 --> 00:54:09,320
Speaker 1: level and respects different kinks. And that's one thing that

1100
00:54:09,400 --> 00:54:11,960
Speaker 1: I learned from this. And some girls were like, oh

1101
00:54:12,000 --> 00:54:13,719
Speaker 1: my god. I felt like everybody knew each other because

1102
00:54:13,800 --> 00:54:17,399
Speaker 1: y'all was a nasty y'all was making friends with each other. Ship.

1103
00:54:17,480 --> 00:54:19,560
Speaker 1: I loved it. It was it was definitely it was

1104
00:54:19,560 --> 00:54:23,400
Speaker 1: super dope. Are you looking for something homemail? No? No, no, no,

1105
00:54:23,560 --> 00:54:25,800
Speaker 1: we'll go ahead, and we don't have time for homemail.

1106
00:54:25,880 --> 00:54:28,160
Speaker 1: We actually send some questions and y'all, yeah, if you

1107
00:54:28,239 --> 00:54:30,960
Speaker 1: guys can go ahead and too many of back, Yeah,

1108
00:54:31,080 --> 00:54:33,520
Speaker 1: can you go ahead and send us, um your homemail.

1109
00:54:33,719 --> 00:54:35,359
Speaker 1: We're not gonna do it this episode, but we're gonna

1110
00:54:35,360 --> 00:54:38,200
Speaker 1: do it an next episode, y'all. Um. I think we

1111
00:54:38,280 --> 00:54:40,440
Speaker 1: did good with catching them up on everything, but um,

1112
00:54:40,520 --> 00:54:44,280
Speaker 1: you guys can send us your homemail at Horrible Decisions

1113
00:54:44,440 --> 00:54:47,359
Speaker 1: at gmail dot com. Um, what's happening is a lot

1114
00:54:47,440 --> 00:54:50,000
Speaker 1: of you guys are sending us homemail to our d

1115
00:54:50,239 --> 00:54:53,000
Speaker 1: M s. But because we post so much and you

1116
00:54:53,080 --> 00:54:55,480
Speaker 1: guys love us, y'all are also sending us memes and

1117
00:54:55,640 --> 00:54:58,080
Speaker 1: commenting on our I G stories and we're not being

1118
00:54:58,120 --> 00:55:00,160
Speaker 1: able to find the homemail. So if you guys can

1119
00:55:00,200 --> 00:55:05,960
Speaker 1: please send homemail to our Gmail, it would be great. Um,

1120
00:55:06,719 --> 00:55:09,040
Speaker 1: but this has been you know, this has been awesome,

1121
00:55:09,080 --> 00:55:10,560
Speaker 1: and I'm so glad that we were able to catch

1122
00:55:10,640 --> 00:55:12,960
Speaker 1: up with you guys. And um, yeah, this has been

1123
00:55:13,080 --> 00:55:21,040
Speaker 1: yet another episode of Horrible Decisions. Right by and you

1124
00:55:21,760 --> 00:55:26,719
Speaker 1: eat and she my money. I want your money. I

1125
00:55:26,840 --> 00:55:30,320
Speaker 1: want my money, I want your money, my money, I

1126
00:55:30,440 --> 00:55:33,680
Speaker 1: want your money. I want my money. I want your money.

1127
00:55:33,760 --> 00:55:36,080
Speaker 1: Once upon a time, not long ago, I was a

1128
00:55:36,200 --> 00:55:38,880
Speaker 1: hop and I'm a meeting that I won't take you

1129
00:55:39,040 --> 00:55:41,200
Speaker 1: back because I did this ship. I was a hop

1130
00:55:41,680 --> 00:55:44,040
Speaker 1: and I'm a meeting that I won't take it back

1131
00:55:44,120 --> 00:55:46,880
Speaker 1: because I did this ship. I was a hot my money,

1132
00:55:47,080 --> 00:55:49,839
Speaker 1: I want your money. I want my money. I want

1133
00:55:49,920 --> 00:55:53,480
Speaker 1: your money, my money, I want your money. I want

1134
00:55:53,560 --> 00:55:56,279
Speaker 1: my money. I want your money. If I want, I'm

1135
00:55:56,280 --> 00:55:58,520
Speaker 1: gonna fuck him. But if he ain't got a buck,

1136
00:55:58,560 --> 00:56:00,920
Speaker 1: I won't cover. It's been the honeyed on me. It

1137
00:56:01,080 --> 00:56:04,160
Speaker 1: ain't nothing I wanted double D. So he stuck him

1138
00:56:04,320 --> 00:56:07,000
Speaker 1: back to the point, is it some cash in this place?

1139
00:56:07,080 --> 00:56:09,359
Speaker 1: If it is, I probably stick the SATs in your face.

1140
00:56:09,440 --> 00:56:12,600
Speaker 1: Turned around. Then he asked about the taste he fell

1141
00:56:12,680 --> 00:56:15,879
Speaker 1: in love like the passion and drag. But I fuck

1142
00:56:15,960 --> 00:56:18,520
Speaker 1: him though, and I don't even care if his mother know.

1143
00:56:19,040 --> 00:56:21,959
Speaker 1: It's about that paper. On another note, and not fake

1144
00:56:22,040 --> 00:56:25,000
Speaker 1: a baby like the rubber broke. And once upon a time,

1145
00:56:25,080 --> 00:56:27,640
Speaker 1: not long ago, I was a home and I'm a

1146
00:56:27,760 --> 00:56:30,279
Speaker 1: meeting that I won't take you back because I did

1147
00:56:30,360 --> 00:56:32,799
Speaker 1: this ship. I was a hop and I'm a meeting

1148
00:56:32,880 --> 00:56:35,439
Speaker 1: that I won't take it back because I did this ship.

1149
00:56:35,719 --> 00:56:38,520
Speaker 1: I was a hot, mo money. I want your money.

1150
00:56:38,680 --> 00:56:42,120
Speaker 1: I want my money. I want your money, my money,

1151
00:56:42,280 --> 00:56:44,800
Speaker 1: I want your money. I want more money. This is

1152
00:56:44,880 --> 00:56:49,560
Speaker 1: for all my house, all my goal, digging house money,

1153
00:56:49,600 --> 00:56:52,719
Speaker 1: get in love my house, about the riches. All my

1154
00:56:52,920 --> 00:56:56,440
Speaker 1: house broke me. This don't do though, And I'm a

1155
00:56:56,560 --> 00:56:59,479
Speaker 1: meeting that I beat. Then it was been the best

1156
00:56:59,680 --> 00:57:02,680
Speaker 1: send a plick tenor strip, independent check, turn a bit

1157
00:57:02,840 --> 00:57:06,440
Speaker 1: in the Allen the generate, Yeah contrary, I'm the blonde

1158
00:57:06,440 --> 00:57:09,000
Speaker 1: bomb scare. I'm wearing on top, got a lot on

1159
00:57:09,120 --> 00:57:12,480
Speaker 1: near true diarmulin where I found my hair. If you

1160
00:57:12,480 --> 00:57:16,000
Speaker 1: ain't buying it from down around hair, the old double

1161
00:57:16,240 --> 00:57:20,400
Speaker 1: L A R S y'all, motherfucker's gonna pack the old

1162
00:57:20,480 --> 00:57:24,560
Speaker 1: double L A R s'all motherfucker's don't pay. Once upon

1163
00:57:24,640 --> 00:57:27,320
Speaker 1: a time, not long ago, I was a hop and

1164
00:57:27,440 --> 00:57:30,000
Speaker 1: I'm a meeting that I won't take you back because

1165
00:57:30,040 --> 00:57:32,400
Speaker 1: I did this ship. I was a hot and I'm

1166
00:57:32,400 --> 00:57:34,880
Speaker 1: a meeting that I won't take it back because I

1167
00:57:34,960 --> 00:57:37,520
Speaker 1: did this ship. I was a hot My money, I

1168
00:57:37,640 --> 00:57:40,920
Speaker 1: want your money. I want my money. I want your money,

1169
00:57:41,560 --> 00:57:44,520
Speaker 1: my money. I want your money. I want my money.