Speaker 1: Guess what decision we're about to make. Horrible decision, hey,
Speaker 1: or have We are hitting the stage baby one night
Speaker 1: oh in New York City.
Speaker 2: We haven't done any other shows this year, but Mandy's
Speaker 2: leaving for Atlanta, so we decided we need one night
Speaker 2: all together in New York City.
Speaker 1: That's right, So Tuesday, December third, at Sony Hall, we
Speaker 1: are bringing you a very very special show that you
Speaker 1: do not want to miss. You've never seen this show before.
Speaker 1: It's only gonna happen for one night, that's it, so
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Speaker 3: We cannot wait to see you again.
Speaker 1: That is Tuesday, December third at Sony Hall here in
Speaker 1: New York City. Get your tickets now, see you there.
Speaker 1: Hey guys, Well, welcome to another episode up. Horrible decision.
Speaker 3: I want to wave like this, but why I didn't
Speaker 3: know our guest was miss Team.
Speaker 1: That's so that's crazy. My name's Weezy oh yeah, and
Speaker 1: I'm Mandy aka full Corporun's aka dead bitch.
Speaker 2: And we got our girl, Cammy Crawford on. We met
Speaker 2: at a going away party. Yes, wait, yes, somebody Okay,
Speaker 2: someone's going away party at Kayla Nicole House. Who's everybody's
Speaker 2: fitness goals? Yes, and just left on each other. So
Speaker 2: I'm really glad this is our second time even seeing
Speaker 2: each other. Yeah, but yeah, did a little bit of googles.
Speaker 3: Just show me the wave?
Speaker 4: Real girl, I never wave if you see me wave,
Speaker 4: I've never waved like that before in my life.
Speaker 3: So how the fuck you got missed to us all?
Speaker 4: Exactly?
Speaker 3: That was my first she said. I got to tell
Speaker 3: them that I wanted world peace.
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's that's all. You win, by the way, bitch,
Speaker 1: you win by your anthelutes and how you wear dress. Answer.
Speaker 3: No, you remember.
Speaker 4: My I'm a scorpio. Destruction is always the no. I
Speaker 4: My question was, I feel like I got the hardest
Speaker 4: question out of all the girls, I'll be honestly, because
Speaker 4: you blake always. And it was a black judge that
Speaker 4: asked it.
Speaker 1: So I was like, what didn naacp stan far.
Speaker 4: No, she asked me what. By the way, I was
Speaker 4: seventeen years old. She asked me, what has been your
Speaker 4: greatest contribution to society this far?
Speaker 3: Whoa god damn at seventeen.
Speaker 4: That's what I said.
Speaker 3: I was like, I go to school, I had a
Speaker 3: perfect attendance.
Speaker 4: I got not even that.
Speaker 1: What was your answer at seventeen? Your contribution to the
Speaker 1: fucking society?
Speaker 4: Well, thankfully, I had been contributing to society at that point,
Speaker 4: because when you win your state titled like, you do
Speaker 4: a bunch of appearances and stuff like that. So I
Speaker 4: was already building a platform off of like talking to
Speaker 4: young girls about women's empowerment, being yourself, and so I
Speaker 4: was able to talk about that. But I was like, bitch,
Speaker 4: you just put me in the trick bag.
Speaker 1: Wait, what state wasn't Maryland, Waitzy, What was.
Speaker 3: Your contribution at seventeen to society?
Speaker 1: Bitch? Taxes?
Speaker 3: Because I was going to jail, stopp You went to
Speaker 3: jail at seventeen.
Speaker 2: I went to jail at fourteen years old for taking
Speaker 2: the car out.
Speaker 1: I got arrested. Oh, that's not fair.
Speaker 3: Then I went to jail fifteen for stealing and sixteen
Speaker 3: for a fake ID.
Speaker 1: That's not fair either.
Speaker 2: Then I arrested at seventeen in handcuffs, but they didn't
Speaker 2: book me and I was.
Speaker 3: Fighting, and then twenty one again with the DUI.
Speaker 2: I never had ever. Yeah, my license taken away because
Speaker 2: my license was suspended.
Speaker 3: I've never driven.
Speaker 2: I don't agree with what you're going to drive, okay,
Speaker 2: but anyway that would be my platform stand Yeah.
Speaker 1: Taxes okay, axis no. No.
Speaker 2: I was gonna say, do you like no dead? I
Speaker 2: like I for me because I just love to go crazy.
Speaker 2: I feel like it's really simple and people will take
Speaker 2: care of you.
Speaker 1: Like I've driven people. I don't know if I see
Speaker 1: they're fucked up or like there's just it's easy.
Speaker 4: Well, now there's no excuse, there's uber Like when I
Speaker 4: was going out in my heyday and it was hard,
Speaker 4: but you had to call a cab company.
Speaker 1: I all the time. I hate when I go back
Speaker 1: down South and there's like bragging rights on how great
Speaker 1: people drive when they're drunk, and I was like, that
Speaker 1: would me. I'm precious cargo BI people do talk like
Speaker 1: a hour yeah, and I hate it. I absolutely hate
Speaker 1: that conversation. Y'all. If you have friends that are out
Speaker 1: here bragging about how great they can drive while they're drunk,
Speaker 1: please correct them and make sure that they take ubers.
Speaker 3: Yes, I got suspended.
Speaker 2: It ain't wear No, my license got taken because I
Speaker 2: kept driving on it suspended because I had so many tickets.
Speaker 1: And honestly, the system really.
Speaker 3: Sets you up though.
Speaker 2: So at first you get one ticket, you can't afford
Speaker 2: to pay it, so obviously you got to drive so
Speaker 2: you can afford to pay it off, right, And I
Speaker 2: think what kind of happens when you're in those early
Speaker 2: years is like you're almost defaulting on one bill out
Speaker 2: of time.
Speaker 4: Yeah, my rents paid.
Speaker 2: I didn't pay those tickets, but sorry, because my rent's paid,
Speaker 2: right right. If hate the tickets, my phone might cut off.
Speaker 2: But it's always kind of like going through that shit.
Speaker 4: But everything is a racket.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 4: I think if I were to compete in a pageant today,
Speaker 4: first of all, they wouldn't allow me because I'm too vocal,
Speaker 4: But like, I think that my platforms would be a
Speaker 4: little bit different. I still obviously love to empower women
Speaker 4: and make women feel great about themselves. Everything I do
Speaker 4: is for the bitch as always, but there's a lot
Speaker 4: more ship out there in this universe.
Speaker 1: I think at seventeen, I'm trying to think. I think
Speaker 1: for me, it would just be more so like my mom,
Speaker 1: we used to do uh we used to volunteer for
Speaker 1: the special Olympics. Yeah that at.
Speaker 3: The time that we did it. Yeah, and it would
Speaker 3: be like a full day. It was fun.
Speaker 1: Me and my sisters would go with my mom. She
Speaker 1: really liked us to do that. And then I was
Speaker 1: in all the like clubs in school. So I was
Speaker 1: in the Fellowship of Christian Athletes and.
Speaker 3: I listen, don't do that. I was just in all
Speaker 3: of the.
Speaker 1: School clubs and tutoring and ship because I was smart. Yeah,
Speaker 1: so I would just be like that, I'm trying to
Speaker 1: help these niggas graduate.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I love that.
Speaker 1: You know, so many people I got into a pageant today,
Speaker 1: I would use it as this little trick to tell
Speaker 1: everybody about Palace. Well, that's probably why we're such in
Speaker 1: a political landscape right now. I can't imagine what the
Speaker 1: hell because we can't keep saying world peace. That shit
Speaker 1: ain't gonna happen.
Speaker 4: Let's be reallyting is soldier dine war bitch? Nobody ever
Speaker 4: has to say world peace. But there is a certain
Speaker 4: level of political correctness that you have to have. We're
Speaker 4: taught First of all, it has taught me so much
Speaker 4: about interviewing and like being concise, but it has also
Speaker 4: taught me about at the time that you had to
Speaker 4: see both sides of every issue, so whether or not,
Speaker 4: you know, if it was anything political, you had to
Speaker 4: appeal to everyone because you're supposed to be everybody's princess.
Speaker 4: You're not just one person's princess, and you have to
Speaker 4: get an entire group of judges to vote. You should
Speaker 4: be their prince.
Speaker 1: So you got to be.
Speaker 4: So you have to be a little bit.
Speaker 3: It's trash. You can't even yourself.
Speaker 4: You have to you know.
Speaker 3: I recently became cool with el who was Miss Usa?
Speaker 1: Uh huh? Who was she? The first black Miss Usa? No?
Speaker 4: Okay, I know, yeah, yeah, But anyway.
Speaker 2: When I met her, uh went out had jacs. You
Speaker 2: went to black Coffee the DJ. I don't I know
Speaker 2: if he I think that was a cafe. Yeah, but
Speaker 2: we are, And every time I'm around her, I'm like, damn,
Speaker 2: she seems so nice, so easy going. Even while having
Speaker 2: a drink, attitude didn't change. And I really do think
Speaker 2: people that do pageants kind of just have to have that.
Speaker 2: Even kill you have to you can see how everybody
Speaker 2: likes you.
Speaker 4: You have to have a mask. You have to have
Speaker 4: a mask.
Speaker 1: That sounds miserable.
Speaker 4: It took me a long time and a lot of therapy,
Speaker 4: even though it was my first pageant to unlearn and
Speaker 4: undo that because it was hindering my work as a TV.
Speaker 3: Yes, wow, it sounds miserable.
Speaker 2: Well, that's how I got to find your page again
Speaker 2: was through your TV show being on Catfish. Literally I
Speaker 2: think it had just been I don't know if it
Speaker 2: was modeling shit, But how else.
Speaker 3: Do people know you besides Catfish?
Speaker 4: A lot of people have been following me since my
Speaker 4: missed ten USA day, So since I was seventeen, I'm
Speaker 4: thirty two. I was like, I'm grown out, okay, and
Speaker 4: then Catfish was like that was my big break. So
Speaker 4: people definitely started knowing me then that.
Speaker 1: Grow off Catfish. Bitch, listen, I wrong over do that.
Speaker 3: They needed it, right, They needed it because the two
Speaker 3: white men and one white man left and it was
Speaker 3: only one white man.
Speaker 4: We need some There needed to be any female energy period.
Speaker 4: Actually that's a good point, like it just needed to
Speaker 4: There's a certain level of understanding and things that we
Speaker 4: can sense that they admitted like as guys, they just
Speaker 4: didn't get.
Speaker 2: When I was on Twitter at the time, I was
Speaker 2: suspended now, but I remember when.
Speaker 4: You got to know you have a lot of suspensions.
Speaker 3: I get it.
Speaker 1: I'm from Florida.
Speaker 3: That clears it up.
Speaker 2: Yes, But my one tweet about you was people started
Speaker 2: to be like, oh, I'm clicking on her video. I
Speaker 2: don't know if she's gonna be this or that, And
Speaker 2: I remember reposting it. But I'll give a fucking that
Speaker 2: bitch boring. That's what I want to say.
Speaker 1: Oh, I love about it.
Speaker 3: When you get to see a win, it doesn't matter
Speaker 3: if you know that person or not.
Speaker 2: To show we all grew up with so it's like,
Speaker 2: oh wow, I'm just so happy you were part of
Speaker 2: that journey.
Speaker 3: So we're gonna do some little icebreakers with you. And
Speaker 3: this is what I came up with.
Speaker 2: This is would you rather but catfish? So I'd like
Speaker 2: to know celebrity crash know you got a man, but
Speaker 2: if he can't exist, who would be I don't like anything.
Speaker 1: We don't want to hear that ship.
Speaker 4: Here's the thing. I think that after I got into
Speaker 4: certain spaces and you actually see these people in real life,
Speaker 4: you're like.
Speaker 3: Nope, I didn't do that with methad Man.
Speaker 4: Okay, nope, actually not relate.
Speaker 3: I did not.
Speaker 4: I cannot relate.
Speaker 1: That's crazy.
Speaker 2: I SKEPTI come in a house. DJ made it worse.
Speaker 2: Skepta is fine, boom, here we go. St it is
Speaker 2: shorter than me, that's all.
Speaker 4: So like that.
Speaker 1: He is not shorter than No, no, no, kept it all.
Speaker 1: Now you must be you want to show there ain't
Speaker 1: no way any man almost says that there's six feet okay, no,
Speaker 1: no subtraction says six foot. He's not six feet tall.
Speaker 1: I say this all the time. It's not okay, No,
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna lie. They say, doesn't sent me.
Speaker 4: They say that one he is not listen.
Speaker 1: Alanson does not even hit side for the plot. I
Speaker 1: didn't know. Fine, so it was small.
Speaker 4: I've never seen the man face to face, I think,
Speaker 4: because I know he's not tall enough.
Speaker 2: Fine six two on his profile. And y'all were about
Speaker 2: to meet instead, you know you're about to get catfished.
Speaker 2: What would be your best catfish scenario? A A really
Speaker 2: hot woman or B a five foot one version of skeptic.
Speaker 1: That's hilarious to her.
Speaker 4: That might be already well I mean yeah, I mean yeah,
Speaker 4: I don't you know. I'm not into girls, so even
Speaker 4: if you are a hot woman, I might want to
Speaker 4: put my hands on you. So I think that it
Speaker 4: would be better if he was five one.
Speaker 1: Wow.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm not gonna lie.
Speaker 1: You really want.
Speaker 4: Oh my god? You know it's unfortunate.
Speaker 1: On Wikipedia.
Speaker 4: It's so unfortunate because I love it for everybody else.
Speaker 4: Like one of my best friends who's a lesbian, when
Speaker 4: she first like broke up with her husband, got with
Speaker 4: her first bitch.
Speaker 1: I was like, bitch, tell me everything. She started telling
Speaker 1: me everything. I was like, that doesn't sound like fun.
Speaker 1: I also really appreciate straight girls that you know, how
Speaker 1: people are so fluid or maybe just in the ethos
Speaker 1: where in But I had a conversation with a girl
Speaker 1: who told me she was bisexual. And this is also
Speaker 1: something that is not as PC to say, right, she's
Speaker 1: never had sex with a woman, she's thirty, okay, but
Speaker 1: she said she's bisexual. I was like, see, right, curious,
Speaker 1: She's like, no, I'm bisexual. I'm not going to debate
Speaker 1: her sexuality because I have definitely been gay men that
Speaker 1: never had.
Speaker 3: Sex with a man.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but I do think sometimes women can get attraction
Speaker 2: to women and just boom on bisexual now and or
Speaker 2: get this label. Or it's really easy to have this
Speaker 2: fluidity in a time where it's so welcome. So sometimes
Speaker 2: I do kind of like hearing a girl being like
Speaker 2: I don't want to but.
Speaker 4: I know I don't. I just know. I just know
Speaker 4: I wouldn't be very good at it. I think I
Speaker 4: would be great at it if I wanted to do it,
Speaker 4: but I don't want to do it, So.
Speaker 3: You don't have to do anything.
Speaker 5: I'll just show up so anyway, like, I'll just be
Speaker 5: air and I'll be like, girl, I just you know
Speaker 5: I love my puss, okay, And that's the only one
Speaker 5: you could say.
Speaker 1: That's it for me. I'm good And unfortunately, yes I'm
Speaker 1: not gonna lie.
Speaker 3: I be mad at myself that I'm by How do
Speaker 3: I like these niggas?
Speaker 1: I don't upset. I don't wanted to on my motherfucker.
Speaker 3: This is I myself, Like, damn, why is my monm
Speaker 3: like this?
Speaker 1: I don't even want you.
Speaker 4: I'm waiting for the aliens to come, is why I
Speaker 4: say all the time, waiting. Being queer is not a choice.
Speaker 4: It's not because being straight is not a choice because
Speaker 4: if I had a choice, you think.
Speaker 1: That I would choose you. Man? Well, sorry, sorry, in
Speaker 1: a room full of men, realize we hate that we love.
Speaker 4: I say this to my man all the time. I'm
Speaker 4: too you.
Speaker 1: See.
Speaker 2: The thing that's interesting is, uh so, Mandy and I
Speaker 2: are writing this book and our co writer is helping,
Speaker 2: and she talked about how I talk about my ex
Speaker 2: girlfriend and every chapter and she's like, it's actually your
Speaker 2: nicest chapter about someone, and I was like, because that
Speaker 2: was the healthiest relationship, and that bit drove with me
Speaker 2: writings nown but like, women really treat each other better.
Speaker 2: Moments where we would get angry and maybe say things
Speaker 2: we didn't mean. Immediate accountability, Like it's so much easier
Speaker 2: because you're not trying to break down and having someone
Speaker 2: understand your feelings that I would say is the baseline
Speaker 2: for a lesbian relationship.
Speaker 1: That helps.
Speaker 2: There can be miscommunication, but understanding the emotions really helps.
Speaker 2: That's what gets women hurt a lot. Yeah, I feel
Speaker 2: like someone's mistreating you women know when.
Speaker 4: Or like purposefully misunderstanding whatever you're trying to say.
Speaker 1: I do just because we have so many male listeners
Speaker 1: and I'm recently experiencing something new with actor Bay. It's
Speaker 1: been a breath of fresh air to have met someone
Speaker 1: so emotionally intelligent. Like we haven't had sex and we
Speaker 1: haven't met yet, but nigga, we don't both cry to
Speaker 1: each other on the phone.
Speaker 3: Wow, we don't talked about our traumas.
Speaker 1: We didn't talk like, we didn't debate it pop cultry
Speaker 1: and it's just like whoa Like even yesterday, I had
Speaker 1: a long day because I had to be on set
Speaker 1: and he hit me and he's on West Coast time,
Speaker 1: but he hit me and he said, listen, I don't
Speaker 1: want you to think I'm ignoring you today.
Speaker 3: It's a really bad day for me.
Speaker 1: And so just before I could even feel like, he
Speaker 1: just goes to me because we be talking for two
Speaker 1: three hours on the phone every day.
Speaker 3: He oh wow, I done got drunk and called him
Speaker 3: cry like we've done hoard our hearts and our trauma.
Speaker 1: So I'm gonna be knowing birthdays. I don't do the
Speaker 1: sign talk, so I haven't done that he has what
Speaker 1: is his birthday? Let me?
Speaker 4: I love female?
Speaker 3: Because I could I can actually google?
Speaker 1: Are you No? I think I could not.
Speaker 3: I think it's I think it's been interesting.
Speaker 1: Like, I know, we have this idea that men a
Speaker 1: lot of men aren't, let's be very, but the ones
Speaker 1: that are that emotionally in tune or find safety in
Speaker 1: opening up to us as women, it becomes a different
Speaker 1: level of attachment in chemistry that to me, I'm just like,
Speaker 1: I'm a little scared to fuck him because then what
Speaker 1: what if the dick's bad? I've already like I'm right now,
Speaker 1: I'm a little I'm not gonna lie. Man. You need
Speaker 1: to meet him quick. Oh, I'm gonna meet him next month,
Speaker 1: So one, two, okay, six one or two? He actually
Speaker 1: we'll see.
Speaker 3: I'm gonna meet him with flats.
Speaker 1: Just to be safe. You are five, don't do this.
Speaker 1: I am when I put on heels, I am, I am,
Speaker 1: thank you. I am six four with hills flat.
Speaker 3: You are the flat this we're okay. So I'm gonna
Speaker 3: get into our Vanella show.
Speaker 1: Wait when is when is?
Speaker 3: Let me see you don't say it that low? What
Speaker 3: sign is that?
Speaker 1: Oh he's a taurust Oh you're going oh.
Speaker 2: Yes, okay, don't get it an argument. My ex girlfriend's tourists.
Speaker 2: My current boyfriend's a taurists. Tis because my ex girlfriend
Speaker 2: of the same tourists are great.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, that's too much.
Speaker 3: I beleeve that far.
Speaker 1: I'm already like, okay, there's too much there. The bitch
Speaker 1: just narrow to day.
Speaker 3: Nobody got time for that. Don't be We're just gonna
Speaker 3: keep saying the thing we're bleeping out.
Speaker 1: Oh sorry, this is anyway I got it.
Speaker 2: Does anyone remember the Joe Biden thing with the sister
Speaker 2: and the brother.
Speaker 1: In law something, Yes, one of the niggas died and
Speaker 1: then he started sucking on the wife.
Speaker 3: Yes, yes, for like Joe Biden's brother.
Speaker 1: I think died or no, one of some died and
Speaker 1: then the brother took over the.
Speaker 3: Band it started taking fucking the wife.
Speaker 1: So okay, let me explain this to the audience, like
Speaker 1: we are real podcasters here, well in our vanilla shit
Speaker 1: this week, that's actually not what we're talking about.
Speaker 3: But we are talking.
Speaker 2: About a widow, a grieving widow who was praised for
Speaker 2: sleeping with her brother in law in a total mess.
Speaker 3: So she went on a website called Mom's Net. Oh
Speaker 3: asked his sons, by the way, So it was the
Speaker 3: sons of Joe Biden.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yes, because the widow the widow ended up
Speaker 1: dating the brother hunter or the one who passed one.
Speaker 1: So the one who passed was married. Oh that wife
Speaker 1: started dating the brother so yes. That came up while
Speaker 1: I was on vacation in Mexico. So where are just I.
Speaker 2: Think me and my man were drinking chilling and we
Speaker 2: were talking about the Joe Biden thing and I was like, Yo.
Speaker 1: Serious question, Oh here we go.
Speaker 3: We have two children. Something happens to you. He has
Speaker 3: two brothers.
Speaker 2: I'm like, maybe it's not your brothers, but maybe there's
Speaker 2: a cousin or someone.
Speaker 3: Would you rather me? No, of course it's a no.
Speaker 1: But the thing.
Speaker 3: That we ended up talking about was cultural.
Speaker 2: So he's Nigerian, so basically he was like, I said, Yo,
Speaker 2: I can either meet a new dude or your children
Speaker 2: can literally have their father be the uncle they've known
Speaker 2: for years. What would be more comfortable our money tied
Speaker 2: up assets home? Who would you trust more to take
Speaker 2: over your family unit that you've built? He said no,
Speaker 2: but in Nigeria it's very common for the husband's brother
Speaker 2: to take over. He's like, so that Joe Biden shit
Speaker 2: in Africa is something that like, Yo, it's literally like
Speaker 2: a guy dies.
Speaker 1: You take in the family.
Speaker 4: But how do you do you have to take in Yeah, right,
Speaker 4: I think it just happened naturally.
Speaker 1: You can anyway.
Speaker 2: Okay, So the woman gets on this website and says
Speaker 2: how her husband of twenty three years suddenly died fourteen months.
Speaker 2: She was left with three kids twelve thirteen, fifteen. She said,
Speaker 2: it was so devastating sudden death, and so basically she
Speaker 2: started to try to get the kids close to his
Speaker 2: brother for a father figure. He'd been separated for six
Speaker 2: years and not in contact, not in a relationship. She
Speaker 2: goes on to explain that three grilled children recently started
Speaker 2: spending more time with their grandparents, so they all became
Speaker 2: a family.
Speaker 1: Like a trauma bond though, Like he's grieving his brother,
Speaker 1: you're grieving your husband or father of your children.
Speaker 3: And now and now it's just.
Speaker 1: A trauma bond because you share this same You know
Speaker 1: that this person understands your pain and grieving at the
Speaker 1: same time.
Speaker 3: This is a healthy though, she said. After a few drinks,
Speaker 3: we got emotional, me and one thing left to another.
Speaker 3: We slept together and he.
Speaker 4: Probably looks like his brother too.
Speaker 1: And then a drunken stupor it could have been it
Speaker 1: could have been a husband, you know what I mean?
Speaker 2: You So basically, she was writing on the site moms
Speaker 2: Dot saying they were both confused. She feels like a
Speaker 2: horrible person for what she's done. Eighty six percent of
Speaker 2: the comments were telling her that what she did was
Speaker 2: complicated and painful, but encouraged her to pursue it if
Speaker 2: it felt right, accepting that loneliness is normal in grief,
Speaker 2: but dealing with grief is weird. It doesn't necessarily mean
Speaker 2: he may not be the person for you.
Speaker 1: Here's the thing, though, those shit those kids are what
Speaker 1: twelve thirteen fifteen, where they're bonding You know, they do
Speaker 1: need no, they need no no, let me finish.
Speaker 3: They need a father figure.
Speaker 1: Sure, but they're old enough to also know that this
Speaker 1: is my dad's brother. Yeah. So I think that part
Speaker 1: of where you as a mom could cause a lot
Speaker 1: of damage to these children now being in a romantic relationship,
Speaker 1: which one is worth twelve thirteen fifteen. They got to
Speaker 1: have some memories they can remember with you, dad.
Speaker 2: Yeah, you're trying to replace their dad with the way
Speaker 2: more words get you a little boyfriend that they don't
Speaker 2: hate for a little bit until they.
Speaker 4: Like him, the uncles, the daddy's giving, grandma's the baby.
Speaker 4: It's not cute. There's king way. And by the way,
Speaker 4: if this was on the other foot and it was
Speaker 4: the wife that had died and the husband now is
Speaker 4: dating the fucking sister, if that was my fucking sister, yeah,
Speaker 4: it doesn't matter. First of all, Fly, you're not related
Speaker 4: to me at all. I've already said to my man,
Speaker 4: God forbid something happens to me. Anybody tells you that
Speaker 4: I would have wanted you to be happy is a
Speaker 4: fucking liar. I will come back from the grave and
Speaker 4: every time you try to get it up, I'm gonna
Speaker 4: be like, well.
Speaker 2: Okay, absolutely not. Here's the flip side. I don't have siblings.
Speaker 2: So my man said to me, if you had a sister,
Speaker 2: would you do that? Like you you're not gonna want
Speaker 2: to be one of your homegirls. I'm like, actually, if
Speaker 2: my kids got used to an auntie, I would say,
Speaker 2: I don't know Brianda or so.
Speaker 3: But I don't want to goddamn kids.
Speaker 1: I still don't want kids open to change. I don't
Speaker 1: want kid on Like I'll tell you now, I'm not
Speaker 1: taking over nobody else's kids. So anyway. My point is
Speaker 1: someone I'm close to.
Speaker 3: That I don't want nobody else kids.
Speaker 2: I was like, yo, because Brianda is just my most Like,
Speaker 2: where are the two that talk about kids all the
Speaker 2: time together? She's like, I was like, I actually feel
Speaker 2: like I would want her over any other woman, and
Speaker 2: I think I would be.
Speaker 1: Like, yeah, okay, no, I have five sisters. You see,
Speaker 1: I have two sisters. All of you die early, I will,
Speaker 1: I want make sure, I mean, and luckily one of
Speaker 1: my sisters is lesbian, so I ain't really got to
Speaker 1: worry about that. But I would not want my sister
Speaker 1: or any of my relatives dating my former partner in
Speaker 1: any capacity. No. No, every morning you will wake up
Speaker 1: with a nose yet, No, I don't want that at all.
Speaker 4: And a toothache.
Speaker 2: Well, finally, we need to get you in your sexy mode.
Speaker 4: The ghost of me is a vicious bitch. Everything I
Speaker 4: couldn't do on Earth I'm doing with Scorpy lady.
Speaker 2: Right, that's where at our sex tip. Now, okay, our
Speaker 2: horridor this week is yours, and we need to know.
Speaker 2: I don't even want a dating tip. Bitch, you like
Speaker 2: dig so much, tell us what to.
Speaker 1: Do with it? Oh what is doing in her thirties?
Speaker 3: Now?
Speaker 1: Tell us your best sax tip ooh, best sex tip?
Speaker 4: Have it, have a lot of it.
Speaker 1: I like that, what got you to what got you
Speaker 1: to the movie? What would you do? Oh?
Speaker 4: I mean, well, listen, I'm just very very upfront, and
Speaker 4: I've realized being in my early thirties like that is
Speaker 4: such a powerful stage of life to be in. You
Speaker 4: know exactly what the fuck you want. I honestly can't
Speaker 4: wait to be forty because I feel like the bitches
Speaker 4: who are forty really exactly I feel that you want,
Speaker 4: like there's no fear in getting older to me. But
Speaker 4: when I turned thirty, I was like, oh no, this
Speaker 4: is what I'm gonna accept, this is what I want.
Speaker 4: I told my man when I first started dating him, like,
Speaker 4: I'm not dating you to be your girlfriend. Now? Are
Speaker 4: we boyfriend and girlfriend? Technically? Yes? But my mom prides
Speaker 4: herself on the fact that she raised wives. I have
Speaker 4: five sisters. She's like, all y'all are wifey material, So
Speaker 4: don't have any of these fucking scraggly ass men whoever
Speaker 4: treating you like anything other than what you are. So
Speaker 4: I was very very clear. I was like, yes, I
Speaker 4: fuck with you, but if you're not dating me with
Speaker 4: intention to marry, I'm not interested.
Speaker 1: Oh hold on, because we all want to build on this.
Speaker 1: Give me a sex tip and then we gotta go.
Speaker 1: What's the sexy sex tip is? I think I've just
Speaker 1: stopped being afraid to be myself. Like I'm a fucking
Speaker 1: scorpio bitch. I want to say the things, I want
Speaker 1: to make the noises, I want to do my shit.
Speaker 1: I'm going to be myself. I like that.
Speaker 4: I'm not going to like be a afraid to say
Speaker 4: the thing. But sometimes you have partners that make you suppress,
Speaker 4: like the primal instincts that you have, you know, or
Speaker 4: even just like as a woman who dates men, like
Speaker 4: smells or like being out and like you know, being
Speaker 4: like oh I need to go back and like shower
Speaker 4: and like.
Speaker 1: No, that was me.
Speaker 3: I was just like that.
Speaker 4: It's so annoying.
Speaker 1: It's like that man go take you as you are
Speaker 1: anyway I know, and if he does him, I do listen,
Speaker 1: they will take I don't listen.
Speaker 4: That's why, my man.
Speaker 2: So I'm glad you brought this up because you made
Speaker 2: a comment to me that you were a serial girlfriend.
Speaker 1: Yes, and I really want to know what.
Speaker 2: The secret to that is for people that feel like
Speaker 2: they can't get to that point. I've had so many
Speaker 2: situationships and I'm like, buh hm. I feel like it's
Speaker 2: because I'm a serial girlfriend. So to elaborate, I'm the
Speaker 2: girl that's like if I like a nigga, I just
Speaker 2: fall into it. Yeah, and it becomes more difficult for
Speaker 2: me to kind of snap out of it. And we've
Speaker 2: had episodes where we've talked about that and like, you know,
Speaker 2: I could be someone that's doing too much, but it's
Speaker 2: because I'm so used to this role. So tell me
Speaker 2: how someone can maybe get over the line to getting
Speaker 2: into committed relationship since you have been a serial girlfriend
Speaker 2: and Soma raised wise.
Speaker 1: She did Meanwhile, I'm trying to graduate to the wife part.
Speaker 1: But it's it's coming.
Speaker 3: I've never watched this four show.
Speaker 4: It's coming. I I feel like, So when I say
Speaker 4: serial girlfriend, I've been in relationships for most of my life.
Speaker 4: Once I once I became a girlfriend at thirteen. Well, yeah,
Speaker 4: I've had my first boyfriend in the eighth grade. He
Speaker 4: was white, his name was Noah. He did like motocross
Speaker 4: in life, like the Jacketary yeah, maybe I didn't know
Speaker 4: shit about it. But I started listening to some forty
Speaker 4: one and just like that came I was like, this
Speaker 4: is my lifestyle blank one eighty two, and then after
Speaker 4: that it was like boyfriend after boyfriend after boyfriend after boyfriend.
Speaker 4: I can't necessarily say that I always did it in
Speaker 4: the most healthy way because I think a lot of
Speaker 4: people in general, but women especially like we mentally check
Speaker 4: out before we actually like break up. I've never been
Speaker 4: broken up with. I've always done the breaking up ever ever?
Speaker 3: Ever? Car what what? What?
Speaker 1: What?
Speaker 3: What were the reasons that you broke up with these partners?
Speaker 1: And did they see it coming?
Speaker 3: I saw it, saw it.
Speaker 4: I always saw it way in advance. But I just
Speaker 4: like had a fear of being alone, to be honest,
Speaker 4: like had a fear of like what else is even
Speaker 4: out there?
Speaker 2: Hey, but maybe you didn't if you did the breaking up.
Speaker 2: I think that's what can be from breaking up and
Speaker 2: staying in relationships.
Speaker 1: I shouldn't have. I think I had a fear of
Speaker 1: being alone without saying it out loud.
Speaker 4: Oh yeah, it wasn't something. I mean, I didn't say
Speaker 4: it out loud. I definitely didn't know.
Speaker 1: I mean like even in my head, but did you
Speaker 1: break up with those boyfriends then with someone immediately ready
Speaker 1: to replace? Oh? Girl, you were cheating.
Speaker 3: That's how you knew it was over because you were
Speaker 3: emotionally cheating one.
Speaker 4: And I didn't recognize that until I got older, until
Speaker 4: I got out of my last relationship and didn't have
Speaker 4: anybody lined up, and I was like, wait, where's the bench.
Speaker 1: Where's the roster?
Speaker 2: What's your time frame for like when you're or are
Speaker 2: you bringing this up on first second date? Being like
Speaker 2: I'm looking for a relationship, Like are you letting things
Speaker 2: kind of just vibe out?
Speaker 1: Like how do you think you're especially with this last
Speaker 1: relationship you said.
Speaker 4: You w this was very intentional. This was totally this
Speaker 4: was anything else I've ever done. Okay, well, even when
Speaker 4: I met my ex, it was like I was out,
Speaker 4: like I was single, but I was like I had
Speaker 4: decided that I was going to have my whole face
Speaker 4: for the first time in my life, and then I
Speaker 4: got in a relationship, so it just you know. But
Speaker 4: I will say also to preface this that I felt
Speaker 4: like even when I was single, when I was dating,
Speaker 4: when I was meeting guys, I never and this is
Speaker 4: going to sound like a flex but there's another side
Speaker 4: to it. I've never really had men who have approached
Speaker 4: me and been like, I would love to take you out.
Speaker 4: It's always been you're my future wife, I want to
Speaker 4: marry you. Like guys have gotten down on one knee
Speaker 4: in the street, which is weird, Okay, very weird, very strange,
Speaker 4: love bombing one thousand percent. They're probably all pisces men.
Speaker 4: But but I will say that even with that, guys
Speaker 4: can say whatever the fuck they want, but it doesn't
Speaker 4: necessarily mean that they're ready for that person. Like, just
Speaker 4: because you are a wife in their eyes doesn't mean
Speaker 4: that they're actually ready for that. And there are a
Speaker 4: lot of guys who not to say that I wanted
Speaker 4: or didn't want, but like guys that I was interested
Speaker 4: in where it's like, oh, you're actually not even ready
Speaker 4: for me, So you're gonna keep doing what the fuck
Speaker 4: is that you want to do in front of my
Speaker 4: face or behind my back. You're not actually ready for
Speaker 4: a wife, So like, stay where you are, So what.
Speaker 3: Does that look like? What is a man not ready
Speaker 3: for a wife?
Speaker 4: You're just want to be out here and that's fine,
Speaker 4: Like that's totally fine, but guys will people will tell
Speaker 4: you that they are ready for one thing, but then
Speaker 4: do another. So you have to be able to decipher
Speaker 4: between the time.
Speaker 1: I don't want to be vague here because I really
Speaker 1: want to. Like if you said a man just wants
Speaker 1: to be out here, right, I know a lot of
Speaker 1: times maybe a woman who likes to go out isn't
Speaker 1: seemed as wifey material. So are you saying that a
Speaker 1: man is not ready to be a husband if he
Speaker 1: enjoys being out in the clubs or like not.
Speaker 4: The bars be out?
Speaker 3: What does be out me?
Speaker 4: I want you to be outside. I want you to
Speaker 4: I want you to get it all out. But if
Speaker 4: you are fucking twenty bitches and telling me that I'm
Speaker 4: your future wife, maybe you're not actually ready.
Speaker 1: Okay, you're out here? You No, I'm just thinking outside invisible.
Speaker 1: So I had like i've been loving. I realized, I
Speaker 1: don't know what this means. I think outside is on time.
Speaker 1: I got insulted once when someone said I was out
Speaker 1: here because I thought it meant like, oh, bit, you've
Speaker 1: been fucking.
Speaker 3: A lot of time.
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's that's why I don't what is.
Speaker 1: Like you're outside? Like I walk in the rooms and
Speaker 1: I loved it. I ain't got bodies in them in
Speaker 1: like that shit feel good. Niggas don't really know who
Speaker 1: I'm fucking right, Like that's like, so no, I don't
Speaker 1: like to me, mix it to me, and that's what
Speaker 1: I'm thinking of, Like I know when I'm When I
Speaker 1: was my best friend, there was a guy that she
Speaker 1: was dating, and he had to be at brunch every
Speaker 1: Sunday with his boys, and he liked clubbing, and so
Speaker 1: she felt like he wasn't ready for a relationship because
Speaker 1: he was outside in those spaces. Even if he wasn't
Speaker 1: fucking on bitches, he liked being outside. So that's why
Speaker 1: I wanted to ask, because no, I don't I like
Speaker 1: being outside. But I'd be like, I'm networking. Actually this
Speaker 1: is worse.
Speaker 2: I think I think we put a lot of judgment
Speaker 2: on the volume of how often someone goes out. I've
Speaker 2: made a lot of like comments on Instagram that a
Speaker 2: lot of girls don't like, maybe because I'm more aggressive
Speaker 2: with it, but I'm just like, bitch, nobody gives a
Speaker 2: fuck if you're proving to us you're.
Speaker 3: Home on Saturday. Yeah, Like, stop posting the.
Speaker 2: Book and thinking someone's gonna be excited by that.
Speaker 3: No one gives a fuck.
Speaker 4: It's fine to have fun when I'm single. I'm outside
Speaker 4: having fun. I'm out all the time.
Speaker 2: I just think it's silly to think you should be
Speaker 2: wasting your time at home. Yeah, yeah, I think it's
Speaker 2: just I don't care how you are in your forties
Speaker 2: or whatever.
Speaker 1: I really do think we should be social.
Speaker 2: I think it's healthy for us start making community, beating
Speaker 2: out with your friends, trying to prove to men or
Speaker 2: a partner that doesn't exist that you're this homebody. Like,
Speaker 2: if you are a homebody, cool, But I find that
Speaker 2: a lot of it is performative.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I think if women got the invites to go out.
Speaker 2: I think if women had things on the social calendar,
Speaker 2: they would be doing them. But you trying to tell
Speaker 2: me you home on a Saturday night in New York
Speaker 2: Fashion Week. I know you wouldn't invited a nothing.
Speaker 4: Well, here's the thing. Your person is not going to
Speaker 4: find you on your couch at home. But your person
Speaker 4: you might not also find.
Speaker 1: Them in the club unless you're open to dating your
Speaker 1: Uber eats driver, right, which some people are. Some people
Speaker 1: might be forget. But yeah, I think the problem.
Speaker 2: With data and apps who don't have this conversation with
Speaker 2: We were talking about how awkward it can be to
Speaker 2: have conversations with men sometimes after the data apps, and
Speaker 2: we were all attributing it to the age of the
Speaker 2: Internet and a lot of my friends and relationships even
Speaker 2: and if they met their partner online, talked about how
Speaker 2: they were out kind of exercising that flirting and doing
Speaker 2: things like that. That homebody shit really can be weird.
Speaker 4: My boyfriend and I met on We met on Riyah
Speaker 4: and we went on our first date the next day
Speaker 4: after wematched I think too think I think that's important
Speaker 4: to do it quick, do it quick, not to just
Speaker 4: around with me, not to be wasting It was like,
Speaker 4: what are we doing, Let's go on a date.
Speaker 1: I mean, and it still can end in failure, Like
Speaker 1: I went on with a couple literally I was in
Speaker 1: dr while we really matched and then as soon as
Speaker 1: I got back we set a date. I when it
Speaker 1: got tested like it happened fast. But I loved how
Speaker 1: fast it happened too, because we're not wasting.
Speaker 2: No, I think that's really intense, especially on a dating app.
Speaker 1: What are we here for it? Not for penal my
Speaker 1: man asked to call me on the app.
Speaker 2: Within maybe four or five messages, Yes, same hold on FaceTime,
Speaker 2: and I was like, I got my bott on. He
Speaker 2: was like, dude, because he got dreads. See, but I
Speaker 2: did think it was strange. She wanted to talk so quick.
Speaker 2: Obviously over time now disgusted and he's like, Yo, I'm
Speaker 2: on the phone with a girl on the straw. I'm
Speaker 2: off it you Like, I don't want to do it,
Speaker 2: Like even if I just want to fuck.
Speaker 3: Yeah, there's a lot.
Speaker 2: Of this awkwardness in person that may not be attractive
Speaker 2: to me.
Speaker 1: We can't even vibe on the phone.
Speaker 3: There's no way it's just going to get that much better.
Speaker 2: So I can totally understand that, and I also implore
Speaker 2: anybody listening who's using the apps just try that out.
Speaker 2: Even voice messages if you're not ready for a phone call,
Speaker 2: can be helpful because you can't. The voice props on
Speaker 2: Hinge have made me swipe blood.
Speaker 4: Oh some of them are so cringe what my sisters
Speaker 4: have showed me, and I'm like, what the fuck even
Speaker 4: is this? I don't know that would be my pageant platform,
Speaker 4: actually talking to men about their fucking profiles because this
Speaker 4: shit is disgusting. But I will say that when it
Speaker 4: comes to like intention and like I'm not, I think
Speaker 4: that obviously we're talking amongst each other, so I'm telling
Speaker 4: you what my mindset is. But I don't feel that
Speaker 4: to have this like wife title or to be wiped
Speaker 4: up or to be in a relationship, you don't need
Speaker 4: to sit up on a first date and be like,
Speaker 4: I'm a wife, I'm at this, I'm a that. Okay, Well,
Speaker 4: if you are, then why are you not in a relationship?
Speaker 4: Why are you on this date? You know, it's an
Speaker 4: energy that you have to bring and a certain level
Speaker 4: of self respect and boundaries. I think I just feel like,
Speaker 4: you know, even when you're going on dates like that's great,
Speaker 4: but don't cut yourself off to every other option. You
Speaker 4: are a hot fucking commodity. You are the prize and
Speaker 4: you should always remember that.
Speaker 2: Build on this, CAMMI, because people in relationships sometimes then
Speaker 2: get that confidence and we can all be humbled very quickly. Yeah,
Speaker 2: being happy in a relationship today, that motherfucker can be
Speaker 2: a monster tomorrow.
Speaker 1: Yep.
Speaker 2: And to me, that confidence and that humility you have
Speaker 2: to have and that value you suddenly feel when getting
Speaker 2: wiped up quote unquote, if it goes away, you still
Speaker 2: have to.
Speaker 4: You have to still have it. I had it, but
Speaker 4: when I was single, I'm gonna have it now. I
Speaker 4: got out of my last relationship feeling very confused and
Speaker 4: like like I had been blindsided basically, and I did
Speaker 4: a lot of self work and that is what made
Speaker 4: me ready and prepared for my next relationship. It wasn't
Speaker 4: just because like, oh, I was raised this way and
Speaker 4: I was I'm fucking the sports illustrated on Sue model, Like,
Speaker 4: of course you should want to fucking wipe me up.
Speaker 1: No, I've done fucking therapy, deep fucking therapy.
Speaker 2: Besides therapy, just one quick thing that's to make it long.
Speaker 2: What self work has looked like for you, besides therapy,
Speaker 2: because I think therapy is an easy answer that some
Speaker 2: people really don't take or apply.
Speaker 4: Yeah, accountability for my actions, being able to say, okay, yes,
Speaker 4: I was emotionally cheating in my last relationships. I was
Speaker 4: preparing myself for the next relationship, even if I wasn't
Speaker 4: flirting mentally checking out, but still being in a relationship
Speaker 4: with somebody while allowing somebody else to say sweet things
Speaker 4: to me is fucked up. I wouldn't like it if
Speaker 4: it was the other way around. Knowing that my daddy
Speaker 4: issues were a big part of my problem, feeling like
Speaker 4: everybody's replaceable and okay, you want to go fine, bye,
Speaker 4: that's not a way to treat people, you know. So
Speaker 4: I had to take a certain level of accountability and
Speaker 4: look at myself and be like, Okay, these are the
Speaker 4: things that I need to change. I don't need to
Speaker 4: be dismissive of my man's feelings. I need to do
Speaker 4: self work. I need to figure some shit out. Because therapy,
Speaker 4: your therapist can talk to you for a hour every
Speaker 4: single week, it doesn't mean that you're actually applying.
Speaker 2: Yeah I was gonna. I don't know if you're done
Speaker 2: and talk about accountability, but I know. One of the
Speaker 2: things that I first recognized within myself was I've dated
Speaker 2: habitual cheaters to the point where I then didn't want
Speaker 2: to see anything I did wrong because I was hurt. Well,
Speaker 2: if I did X, y Z, it doesn't matter because
Speaker 2: they did this to me first. That was my constant
Speaker 2: trope of if you lied and cheated, what I did
Speaker 2: next didn't matter. Yeah, it took me a lot of
Speaker 2: time to kind of realize, like, that's toxic because I
Speaker 2: even leave.
Speaker 1: When you did it.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I recognizing your own toxicity, Like, yeah, the other
Speaker 4: person could have fucked up five million more times more
Speaker 4: than you, but you still have a certain level of kind.
Speaker 4: Nobody's perfect. Nobody's perfect. Even the bitch had looks perfect
Speaker 4: on the ground.
Speaker 3: That'shit.
Speaker 4: I fucking issues.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean, I'm talking about this in the book now.
Speaker 1: I mean, for me, a lot of my me not
Speaker 1: getting in a relationship was because I had niggas with
Speaker 1: money that I had to depend on. I was fucking
Speaker 1: with niggas to make sure my bills were paid, and
Speaker 1: so I couldn't have a boyfriend because I wasn't gonna
Speaker 1: cheat on them with the men that were helping me
Speaker 1: either get through school or pay my bills, and that.
Speaker 3: Was just an easier way.
Speaker 1: I think that there was a lot of lack of
Speaker 1: self worth in my twenties, with the lack of confidence
Speaker 1: with my weight, with the lack of confidence financially and
Speaker 1: where I was in terms of financial stability, and so
Speaker 1: it was just easier to be number two or the
Speaker 1: side chick and get everything I thought I wanted because
Speaker 1: I didn't have to show up and be I didn't
Speaker 1: have to cook meals, I didn't have to sit here
Speaker 1: and tell you the truth. I didn't know to do
Speaker 1: any of that because I could just kind of move
Speaker 1: how I needed to move. But it wasn't It was
Speaker 1: me just lacking the self worth in knowing that I
Speaker 1: deserved to have my person where he valued me and
Speaker 1: where he was honest with me and where we could
Speaker 1: have open communication. I think it's even harder now navigating
Speaker 1: what a relationship looks like knowing that I do want
Speaker 1: to be in a ethically non monogamous one. So the
Speaker 1: idea that, damn, am I leaning into the hierarchy of
Speaker 1: then just being the primary? And what does that really do?
Speaker 3: Like?
Speaker 1: Am I still going to technically be number two? If
Speaker 1: I'm allowing my partner to see other people? I'm battling
Speaker 1: that now, but I know that that's maybe why it
Speaker 1: took so long for me to have my first relationship.
Speaker 4: Yeah, but that's also it comes with wisdom, Like having
Speaker 4: that level of wisdom. We didn't have that shit when
Speaker 4: we were in an early twenties fucking around and finding
Speaker 4: out like nobody.
Speaker 1: All just said and me too included.
Speaker 2: It's funny because I feel like I've had so many
Speaker 2: moments in my early twenties where it's like people just
Speaker 2: start trying to prove how much they love themselves. I'm like,
Speaker 2: bitterly all hate yeah, And I really appreciate that now
Speaker 2: I'm in this age of vulnerability because one of my
Speaker 2: favorite things a friend ever said to me.
Speaker 3: His name is Brandon Allen. We started sex sells together
Speaker 3: and we were on the phone.
Speaker 2: I was like, I fucking hate this shit. I'm like,
Speaker 2: He's like, what's wrong. I was like, I'm just fat today, Bro.
Speaker 2: I really like being able to talk to someone like this.
Speaker 2: Fuck the fat phobic shit. Put just let me talk
Speaker 2: in here. I feel like this, I feel like that
Speaker 2: I hate my hair. He's like, yo, I love saying
Speaker 2: I hate myself. He's like, sometimes it feels almost like
Speaker 2: it's empowering to just like say I hate my fucking job.
Speaker 2: Like whatever it is, because there's a little bit of
Speaker 2: overdosing of positivity that sometimes you really want to know
Speaker 2: what you want to improve. And maybe it's that New
Speaker 2: Yorker like cynicism sometimes, but it can be a little
Speaker 2: bit freeing. And I don't think I got to understand
Speaker 2: that self worth thing because I had such blinders on
Speaker 2: of trying to prove that I loved who I was.
Speaker 1: I really needed to figure out what it was that
Speaker 1: I did. Yes, that that is what I worked on.
Speaker 4: That's what I worked on that no therapist could fucking
Speaker 4: way that mirror, girl, you have to sit in that
Speaker 4: shit and guess what else taught me that being with
Speaker 4: a good fucking man, being in a good relationship with
Speaker 4: a solid man who's honest with you and doesn't fucking
Speaker 4: play games and is intentional with your feelings was the
Speaker 4: scariest thing that I've ever done, Scarier than getting out
Speaker 4: of any relationship, because I really had to be like, fuck,
Speaker 4: like I thought I did the work. I thought I
Speaker 4: was doing self work. I thought that I knew where
Speaker 4: I was going. But I still have so much more
Speaker 4: to do, Because why am I about to crash the
Speaker 4: fuck out off of the smallest thing that this man
Speaker 4: has said to me that isn't even negative, Like you
Speaker 4: have to, you have to because we love someone figure
Speaker 4: it out. Feedback yes, and you're like, oh, okay, the
Speaker 4: things that are bubbling up inside of me have nothing
Speaker 4: to do with you, right, It has everything to do
Speaker 4: with me, so I still have things that I need
Speaker 4: to worry.
Speaker 2: What you're experiencing is interesting because that saying it's a
Speaker 2: health relationship. The ways in which men would try to
Speaker 2: tell me about myself always came when they.
Speaker 3: Were angry with me, not to be helpful.
Speaker 2: And I recently had this experience where I was crashing
Speaker 2: out in a work and like family moment, and it
Speaker 2: was this long conversation of like, you feel fulfilled from
Speaker 2: busyness because all the busyness does is put a mask
Speaker 2: over your real issues. So then you get to have
Speaker 2: another accolade that makes you feel like you're better at
Speaker 2: what you're doing when you still have this that's unfinished,
Speaker 2: whether it be an organizational thing or whatever it is.
Speaker 2: A new accomplishment doesn't fix the problem right here.
Speaker 1: I a lot, do you? I like, don't even telling
Speaker 1: me that?
Speaker 4: Yeah, of course. Oh let's go.
Speaker 2: On a different on a different wavelength with this. How
Speaker 2: has public or private kind of helped your relationship? And
Speaker 2: I want to talk generally because everyone listening may not
Speaker 2: be a public figure, but privacy with relationships, whether it
Speaker 2: be the things you share it to your friends or
Speaker 2: the things you share to social media, tell me how public.
Speaker 2: Everybody always doys making your relationship public, runs it, but
Speaker 2: maybe some of the ways that it may have been healthy,
Speaker 2: or just share a little bit about that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, because I know you be high in the.
Speaker 4: Hig I do. I wizard killing my man all the time.
Speaker 4: Chop it off like I just And this is why,
Speaker 4: because a lot of people will look at it and
Speaker 4: be like, oh, she's afraid that if she posts her
Speaker 4: man's face, the bitches are going to be in his
Speaker 4: DMS or whatever. People have fucking said that to me. Right,
Speaker 4: I have no concerns about that. Do not give a
Speaker 4: fuck it. When you can take my man, then you
Speaker 4: can take my man.
Speaker 1: Bye.
Speaker 4: Oh I don't give a shit, right, see you later.
Speaker 4: That's the confidence before, in the middle and after a relationship.
Speaker 4: I'm still gonna have it.
Speaker 1: Does he post you? No, he doesn't disagree. He does.
Speaker 4: He posts workshit. I told him from the beginning that
Speaker 4: I wasn't going to post him. Okay, that was my conversation.
Speaker 4: He completely respected it. And here's why I think that,
Speaker 4: whether you're a public facing person or not, you can
Speaker 4: really late to having taken a photo with or posted
Speaker 4: a photo with your partner when you know y'all weren't
Speaker 4: in a good fucking place or even not even just
Speaker 4: a partner of yourself taking a smiling selfie when you
Speaker 4: were just bawling your eyes out five.
Speaker 1: Seconds, I'll be hot in my body.
Speaker 4: And we all do it. We all. This is why
Speaker 4: I say life as a catfish. We all do it.
Speaker 4: We only want to put out the best versions of
Speaker 4: ourselves all the time. We do, like that's just how
Speaker 4: we are. And I was looking back at how many
Speaker 4: times I had posted pictures in my previous relationships, knowing
Speaker 4: damn well that we were either beefing at the moment,
Speaker 4: immediately beefing before, or immediately beefing after.
Speaker 2: I've had an immediately beef after. I never posted someone
Speaker 2: while we were beefing, but I've definitely like posted stories
Speaker 2: when I was my ex and I lived into Loom
Speaker 2: together during the pandemic, like you would have fun, and
Speaker 2: then maybe ten minutes later, I was like, damn yeah.
Speaker 4: But you kind of like are in and out of that,
Speaker 4: and you're like, well, we're gonna get out of it,
Speaker 4: so like it's still true, like I still love.
Speaker 1: Did you look back at those photos that you posted
Speaker 1: and then questioned yourself like, why the fuck did I
Speaker 1: post this?
Speaker 3: Then?
Speaker 1: Am I in this relationship for society's perception of me
Speaker 1: being happy in a relationship and me being a girlfriend
Speaker 1: or what is my reason for sharing this with.
Speaker 2: Sat part right, because I haven't posted anything. I posted
Speaker 2: a video of him rubbing my feet like in a
Speaker 2: little carousel, and it was just because it was kind
Speaker 2: of fun and sexy, and yeah, but I did have
Speaker 2: a little insecurity of I wonder.
Speaker 3: If people think this brings me value.
Speaker 2: But also that's an insecurity itself, because it's like Nigga,
Speaker 2: I've posted myself in a bathing suit and people probably
Speaker 2: think I want the validation I do.
Speaker 4: Duah, I look good, So yeah, I'm gonna post that.
Speaker 4: The comments are on and but that is very very real,
Speaker 4: like I And it's not that I don't post my
Speaker 4: boyfriend because all of our moments are bad. All of
Speaker 4: our moments are actually fucking amazing. We don't fight. We've
Speaker 4: been together for two years. We have conversations, we don't argue.
Speaker 4: We've had I can count on one hand how many
Speaker 4: times we've actually argued.
Speaker 3: That's healthy, but I call it disagreements.
Speaker 4: Disagreements. We don't fight.
Speaker 1: We disagree.
Speaker 2: I mean, you got a hear on me, but I'm
Speaker 2: gonna hold you. I've definitely fought with men within the year.
Speaker 6: Yeah, oh for four months, and by four months, I'm like,
Speaker 6: it's surprised, but that's the time, that's the reality, and
Speaker 6: you're still posting and you're still it's fake.
Speaker 4: I feel like everybody, everybody's doing it. I'm gonna keep
Speaker 4: And I also know people who are posting family photos
Speaker 4: and all this ship when they I know, what the
Speaker 4: fuck is going on in your relationship?
Speaker 1: What do you What are some of the arguments that
Speaker 1: in four months, like, oh, I'm.
Speaker 4: Curious insecurities Okay, not even I mean I've had a
Speaker 4: man argue with me about the fact that I wanted
Speaker 4: to wear leggings one time, Like these are the things
Speaker 4: that these are precursors that we should be paying attention
Speaker 4: to and red flag that we missed. But I have
Speaker 4: chosen to protect what is sacred to me because I
Speaker 4: don't have to prove anything to anybody.
Speaker 3: You think, I mean thinking, what.
Speaker 2: Were my earliest arguments about men, my male friendships, their insecurities,
Speaker 2: possibly horrible decisions I've.
Speaker 4: Really because of the conversation.
Speaker 3: Being shared the yeah a guy that I.
Speaker 4: Was as if they didn't know that you did that before, Like.
Speaker 1: Dating a stripper and being like, I don't want you
Speaker 1: to be in the strip club no more, you know what,
Speaker 1: the like I'd be like, man, this is the taraground.
Speaker 1: It's not even me, but no, I mean, it's this thing.
Speaker 3: I would catch myself trying to I don't I never
Speaker 3: said that.
Speaker 1: I'm just joking here, but I mean I would try to,
Speaker 1: but I was trying to deflect, like not, well, the
Speaker 1: whole stories are old.
Speaker 3: Oh well we interview people now.
Speaker 2: I would find myself saying these things to try to
Speaker 2: cover up something that is ridiculous because the women that
Speaker 2: are here listening and the men that are here listening
Speaker 2: in the dems, M okay, they're appreciating my vulnerability and
Speaker 2: how out and loud and proud I am.
Speaker 3: That's the premise of the show. But I would find
Speaker 3: myself progressing.
Speaker 2: And it's easier in my thirties and comparatively speaking from
Speaker 2: the twenties on this show, because it's never like I
Speaker 2: wasn't proud about it.
Speaker 1: I was, yeah, I just became victim to the patriarchy.
Speaker 2: In those conversations when my self worth was being questioned
Speaker 2: by someone else based on me doing what I think
Speaker 2: is liberating. It was tough, and I now have really
Speaker 2: letting that go. I've had some great relationships now with
Speaker 2: men and dating experiences where I see how proud they
Speaker 2: aren't excited by what I do.
Speaker 3: Hate to admit it.
Speaker 2: My man's a real estate investor, But the best ones
Speaker 2: for me have been men entertainment. They've completely respected. They'd
Speaker 2: be like, oh yeah, because they get it. They can
Speaker 2: look at a clip of me talking about another dick
Speaker 2: and be like yoa sha it was hilarious, whereas another
Speaker 2: dude who maybe isn't in the space of performance, thinks
Speaker 2: I'm missing.
Speaker 1: The day and I can't explain not to you.
Speaker 3: You're never gonna be not sometimes I'm missing it.
Speaker 1: Fuck you mean. I'd be like, bitch, I'm reminiscent. Don't camera.
Speaker 2: Thought it was like a drum, But also that's that's
Speaker 2: real too.
Speaker 1: It's so crazy because one of our clips, uh, from
Speaker 1: one of our old episodes just went around and it
Speaker 1: was like, have you ever thought of another dick while
Speaker 1: you were fucking someone else? Yes, we are human beings
Speaker 1: that have compared though, like if I'm having. If I
Speaker 1: had a really good sexual experience anally, I would hope
Speaker 1: I can recreate this with someone else if I'm no
Speaker 1: longer dealing with that person. The art of comparison isn't
Speaker 1: always a people joy.
Speaker 3: To be honest, I actually don't think recreating an experience.
Speaker 1: Not even recreating but the feeling it made you feel.
Speaker 1: You're telling me you had you haven't had such great
Speaker 1: successful threesomes that you're hoping that you could have another
Speaker 1: success like and so you're thinking of how successful it
Speaker 1: was with these people. I hope that I can have
Speaker 1: another one of these. Like there's a way to compare
Speaker 1: where you don't have to be emotionally attached to that
Speaker 1: person to want to recreate or experience an experience.
Speaker 4: Negative experience that you had where you're like, oh my god,
Speaker 4: I hope this doesn't happening.
Speaker 1: I hope this isn't happening again, and it's not a
Speaker 1: bad thing. Like I think we lead with the idea
Speaker 1: of insecurity, and that's when it's really like we are
Speaker 1: human beings.
Speaker 2: That's what keeps me from anal I hope experience and
Speaker 2: like it makes me think every time I'm getting close.
Speaker 1: But but but remembering good experiences with someone shouldn't draw
Speaker 1: out or pull out an insecurity and someone else either.
Speaker 1: Like when I was reading, like when I heard myself speak,
Speaker 1: I'm like, I can't believe people are mad that I've
Speaker 1: thought about something that was great in the moment of
Speaker 1: experiencing kind of the same thing to me. It could
Speaker 1: you could dumb it down to like your first time
Speaker 1: going to a theme park and getting on a roller
Speaker 1: coaster and the thrill.
Speaker 3: That it gave you when you go back on the
Speaker 3: roller coaster again.
Speaker 1: Don't you want to feel that you're.
Speaker 3: Painting what you said?
Speaker 4: Now we're at six flights?
Speaker 1: What this bitch saying? What I do? If I'm getting
Speaker 1: some dick and it ain't good, I'm gonna think about
Speaker 1: the other dick? Is that not what they guy you
Speaker 1: said you were highlight it?
Speaker 4: Listen, what I don't want to think that if I'm
Speaker 4: fucking my man, he's thinking about other experiences.
Speaker 1: Okay, fine, just so just to me, you want to
Speaker 1: be in d Lulu? Fine? Okay? I mean everyone should
Speaker 1: actually just admit that they they don't want the truth
Speaker 1: if they can't handle it, that they want to be
Speaker 1: delusional without even recognizing the fact that you have the
Speaker 1: ability to do the same thing. Like, we are human
Speaker 1: beings and for whatever reason, when we get into fucking relationships,
Speaker 1: we want to act like all of our human traits
Speaker 1: go out of the window. We have the discipline and
Speaker 1: the ability to shut off ship that we don't have companion.
Speaker 1: If you still think about that, dick, then just say
Speaker 1: damn but no, because that's what I'm saying. You don't
Speaker 1: want to be You don't want it to be told.
Speaker 3: Like even even in in in clo.
Speaker 4: I like to pretend like my man has never had
Speaker 4: sex with anybody and he has a daughter and I
Speaker 4: still but he'll tell me. I'll like, you're my first
Speaker 4: sexual experience.
Speaker 1: I'm like, you have a kid, yo, that is crazy.
Speaker 4: Yeah, he's never seen any other woman for me, because I.
Speaker 2: Don't know what placement my nigga got in scorpio. But
Speaker 2: there's a lot of times where we'll talk about high
Speaker 2: school in my virginity and he'd be like, I can't
Speaker 2: believe you.
Speaker 1: See yeah, because it's a territory thing. We're like, no,
Speaker 1: nobody's had. It's kind of hot though, Okay, nobody's had.
Speaker 1: I do want to know because you've got all this
Speaker 1: catfish experience.
Speaker 3: We need to know. Have you ever been got fished?
Speaker 4: Yes?
Speaker 1: How was it? What?
Speaker 4: It was? Not a romantic relationship. It was a friend
Speaker 4: that I knew in real life. This is why I
Speaker 4: say you can be catfished by people that you know.
Speaker 4: It doesn't have to be strangers.
Speaker 1: Tell me this tea. Did I about the bridle? About
Speaker 1: the engagement? Mary?
Speaker 4: Yes? So what she got engaged?
Speaker 1: Can you tell the story? Where's my drink? I need
Speaker 1: a cocktail? No, I'm like, I need a cigarette.
Speaker 4: Ive never smoked cigarette in my life, but I feel
Speaker 4: like in my thirties, I'm going to pick up cigarettes
Speaker 4: because this.
Speaker 3: Is my hot take.
Speaker 2: I'm sorry, I know they'll kill you sometimes cigarettes be
Speaker 2: looking taxi, you.
Speaker 1: See that, and especially if it's a swaggy buther.
Speaker 4: I really want one of those long pipe divorce cigarette. Yeah,
Speaker 4: that's what I want.
Speaker 1: You know why, I know it's not sexy because I've
Speaker 1: dated a smoker before, and kissing someone who smokes it's
Speaker 1: the worst. So to me, now, as soon as as
Speaker 1: soon as I see someone smoking a cigarette, you got
Speaker 1: yung mouth now and now you're not not The tape
Speaker 1: disgusting it's not it just yup.
Speaker 3: I'm not gonna lie, like, yeah, there is a I.
Speaker 1: Think it's not a cigarette.
Speaker 3: It's just sometimes smoked.
Speaker 1: You should see now when I like hukah, when it's
Speaker 1: say smoker, When it's say smoker on a on a
Speaker 1: dating profile, wheedle cigarettes, Like there is a difference between
Speaker 1: a cigarette smoker and a week I would assume it's
Speaker 1: weed always. If it's well, go back to the tea
Speaker 1: on his hup.
Speaker 4: Oh god, okay, so see we got off topic.
Speaker 5: That's right.
Speaker 1: She won't.
Speaker 4: I tried my best. She don't see because she sees
Speaker 4: everything she Okay, Without saying exactly who this person was
Speaker 4: to me, this was a very close person to me,
Speaker 4: a very very close friend of mine, and we actually
Speaker 4: lived together at one point. She had fabricated a million stories,
Speaker 4: but one of them, in particular, was that she was
Speaker 4: engaged to this very rich guy who was flying her
Speaker 4: all over the world, who was buying her all of
Speaker 4: these bags and shit that I never saw. Because she
Speaker 4: said that she didn't trust them being in our apartment.
Speaker 4: She needed to send them somewhere else and undisclosed location.
Speaker 4: Because I was just like, okay, like I was my
Speaker 4: friend de loopad and developed yet on anybody. So I
Speaker 4: was really just like okay, like, and I also like
Speaker 4: your friends if y'all told each other a situation like
Speaker 4: oh my god, I met this man. You're not assuming
Speaker 4: that the person's lying.
Speaker 3: Because you've got to be proven.
Speaker 4: Yeah, well I'm you're my bitch, Like why would you
Speaker 4: lie to me? We've been friends for eleven years, Like you're.
Speaker 1: Not like eleven years.
Speaker 4: Listen, She's telling me intricate stories about this man is family, names,
Speaker 4: best friends, places, people, things, nouns. Bitch. Now, all of
Speaker 4: it was fake. All of it was All of it
Speaker 4: was made up. She created emails. She had an engagement
Speaker 4: party that she knew that I wasn't going to be
Speaker 4: able to make because I had a shoot. She created
Speaker 4: an email to like tell me about it, to like
Speaker 4: invite me to it, to say that this man was
Speaker 4: going to have private jets like chartered from a bunch
Speaker 4: of different cities, which like, in my mind, that's not
Speaker 4: like a non that's not like a crazy idea. I'm like, oh, yeah,
Speaker 4: private jet coming because he's rich. Yeah, but also like
Speaker 4: I'm from Potomac, Maryland, Like private jets are not new
Speaker 4: to me, so I'm like, oh, I am the realist,
Speaker 4: non high school housewife's but it's not like crazy to
Speaker 4: me that this could be a possibility. She was very detailed,
Speaker 4: like calling me, texting me being like, oh, bitch, I
Speaker 4: just landed in fucking Paris, it's so cold here, Like
Speaker 4: I should have brought my other jacket. Tomorrow we're going
Speaker 4: to Oh, we just got into a friend. She was
Speaker 4: at her parents house.
Speaker 3: That is a serial killer. You know what's crazy?
Speaker 1: I don't know. I think you can pick up on liars.
Speaker 1: That is one of the traits that after a while
Speaker 1: I will keep you at an arm links distance.
Speaker 4: We never spoke. I don't like people when I found
Speaker 4: out we never I don't.
Speaker 1: Like people who their own reality, I think because I
Speaker 1: think those are the most scary people.
Speaker 3: How she feels about you. A lot of people have
Speaker 3: told me that, so like, here's what they want to
Speaker 3: compete with you. Friend is like, but I don't people.
Speaker 4: I don't think about my friends like that, meaning I
Speaker 4: don't think I don't know you.
Speaker 5: You.
Speaker 1: To me, a person is not your friend, and you
Speaker 1: cannot be friends with someone who is of you in
Speaker 1: any capacity, whether it's your looks or your career, or
Speaker 1: your financial stability, or your relationship, which is why for
Speaker 1: y'all they keep asking if I'm ever gonna be a
Speaker 1: friend with somebody.
Speaker 3: She admitted on air that she was jealous of me.
Speaker 3: We can never be friends again.
Speaker 1: So to me, I don't want anyone that the audience knows,
Speaker 1: I don't want in any capacity anyone that's that way.
Speaker 1: So not only jealous of that. I should have saw
Speaker 1: the science, because my ex saw the science. If you
Speaker 1: are friends with somebody and they call you their rich friend,
Speaker 1: that is not.
Speaker 5: Your friend, your Holly, your Hollywood friend, that that is
Speaker 5: one of the most Hollywood.
Speaker 1: But I'm gonna lie your rich friend they are. They
Speaker 1: are envious of however your finances are. They are they
Speaker 1: want it, and in whatever capacity, it does not make
Speaker 1: them feel good to know that they are putting you
Speaker 1: on this pedestal where it's going to wreak envy. That
Speaker 1: is not a friend.
Speaker 2: That is not the only one that I do with
Speaker 2: genuinely like teasing intention because oh like you're rich.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I mean I think something cute.
Speaker 4: I think there's a difference with how you say something
Speaker 4: and also where you are in.
Speaker 3: Life and how you where you are in life.
Speaker 4: Yes, because there are billionaires who call each other yeah,
Speaker 4: oh that's my rich friend. He has more money than me.
Speaker 4: But it's not like you're both billionaires so you're happy.
Speaker 1: You know.
Speaker 3: I find that which is from being at mama house.
Speaker 2: When there's something that the person wants that's a passion.
Speaker 2: This doesn't really happen to me where I have friends
Speaker 2: that have values that are different, which is why, actually
Speaker 2: I think a lot of my friendships are different. I
Speaker 2: don't really have too many friends in the exact same lane.
Speaker 2: I thought, that's I mean close friends, right, Yeah, but
Speaker 2: I wonder if there's something in particular that was going
Speaker 2: on in your life at that time that was hard
Speaker 2: for her to maybe see. And sometimes with conventionally beautiful people,
Speaker 2: most the most attractive women I know have been been
Speaker 2: burnt the most from other women.
Speaker 4: And I've been burned a lot. I've had a lot
Speaker 4: of friends, But guess what, I feel like all my
Speaker 4: friends are bad bitches, no matter what they look like,
Speaker 4: who they date. What's saying I'm talking. Can you can
Speaker 4: work all the time bank? You can work at fucking
Speaker 4: safe way? That's different thought.
Speaker 1: This is a real thing that we got to pretend,
Speaker 1: not pretend.
Speaker 3: It's in the world.
Speaker 2: Conventionally, pretty people a lot, no matter how much money
Speaker 2: someone's got, no matter if their body skinnier, hair, this,
Speaker 2: or that. Sometimes the world treats you different, and it's
Speaker 2: something that they may never receive. I have learned to love.
Speaker 2: There's something about me that I feel like, no bitch
Speaker 2: can never view me on. I think it's my personality.
Speaker 2: I know I'm warm. I know that's a real genuine thing.
Speaker 2: And I love being a light in a room and
Speaker 2: energy to say. I just know that, like even if
Speaker 2: I'm in a room with the fucking hottest models.
Speaker 3: Still funny, bitch.
Speaker 1: Yeah, hello, and I believe and I still believe I'm beautiful.
Speaker 2: But I really personality is shined through my whole life. Yes,
Speaker 2: my ugly duckling phases and now I got I gotta
Speaker 2: really be funny.
Speaker 1: Wait.
Speaker 4: I love braces. I was gonna tell you how cute
Speaker 4: they are. I love them.
Speaker 3: I think everybody.
Speaker 4: No, I had braces for two years, and I thought
Speaker 4: I was cute as fuck. I had all my little.
Speaker 1: Colors because you convincionally. But I really do think there's
Speaker 1: a lot of people that think I'm fucking ugly. You
Speaker 1: should see under my fucking posts because you want to
Speaker 1: carry it on my comments and people invisible. Anytime I
Speaker 1: think that the world, hey, I just go under a
Speaker 1: comment where people try to act like Cardi b ain't
Speaker 1: hert and I'd be like, y'all just mad.
Speaker 4: You can't convince me that I don't. You can't convince
Speaker 4: me that I'm not fine. You're never gonna be. You're
Speaker 4: never gonna convince me.
Speaker 1: Do you know?
Speaker 4: One thing that my mom always taught me is that
Speaker 4: there's nothing worse than a pretty bitch. So she would
Speaker 4: be like, don't be a fucking asshole. She would always
Speaker 4: tell me that from a young.
Speaker 3: Age, I got hot girls that are bitches are the
Speaker 3: but like not.
Speaker 4: No, you're disgusting to me. You're disgusting to me. I
Speaker 4: will never think that you're beautiful. I don't give a fuck.
Speaker 4: You could They could do it one of those symmetrical
Speaker 4: face analysis things and be like this is the most
Speaker 4: that I.
Speaker 2: Felt like, that's somebody I'll tell you that. Oh you know,
Speaker 2: it's so crazy, Kimmy. I swear to god, I texted
Speaker 2: about you when I got in a car, so I
Speaker 2: didn't want to go to this party that Kayla had
Speaker 2: at her in l A. I was like, yo, I
Speaker 2: met this really dope girl. And even if we don't
Speaker 2: hang out again, I just needed that one moment in LA.
Speaker 1: That was a moment we were like, we were like
Speaker 1: in our own world, you gave me that marriage.
Speaker 3: Te Yeah, she talked about her for five minutes.
Speaker 1: She was like, I'll post. I'm just like, oh, I'll
Speaker 1: show anybody I used to do that. I'll show everybody
Speaker 1: in person.
Speaker 4: I'll show everybody.
Speaker 2: But like that thing of like feeling someone's good and funness,
Speaker 2: I sometimes feel that when I'm in the room of
Speaker 2: hot girls or the instant girls like it's it gets
Speaker 2: really weird. Yes, And I don't think my personality necessarily matches.
Speaker 2: Maybe these women have been burned too, because there's a
Speaker 2: lot of people want to take from me. You got
Speaker 2: millions of followers, you got clop maybe people want more
Speaker 2: from you. But there's been moments where in LA it's
Speaker 2: been like ooh, this.
Speaker 1: Doesn't really Oh the energy would be weird. And me
Speaker 1: and my best friend went to uh a dinner at
Speaker 1: twe and it was like ten other bitches at the
Speaker 1: table and I looked at my homegirl Stacy, and I
Speaker 1: was like, bitch, don't you ever invite me to know
Speaker 1: ship like this again. I will pay for my own
Speaker 1: food before I have to sit at a table full
Speaker 1: of bitches that are just like why why I don't
Speaker 1: like the handschicks like this, and then and then hold
Speaker 1: on and then it's the hands.
Speaker 3: Want to be at a table with all these.
Speaker 1: God I I said, I will feed myself or starve.
Speaker 3: Yes, do not invite me to y because like hated it.
Speaker 2: When you're in that moment, it's like fuck. And I
Speaker 2: know one of these girls too.
Speaker 4: I mean, my first reaction is too and it's gonna
Speaker 4: sound bad, but my first reaction is to put my
Speaker 4: dick on the table. Every time, I'm going to go
Speaker 4: around and shake everybody's hands, like corporately, I can introduce
Speaker 4: myself so that you know, like, this is not a
Speaker 4: breakfast up. We're not yeah, I'm not you, you're not me.
Speaker 4: We don't have an issue, we don't have a problem.
Speaker 4: This man might be paying for this meal. I could
Speaker 4: also put my card in period.
Speaker 2: So first and last time that I really put my
Speaker 2: dick on the table was that a child dinner.
Speaker 4: Let's talk about the last time you put your dick
Speaker 4: on the tab.
Speaker 3: Because I I when I say put my dick on
Speaker 3: the table a handshake. I'm joking.
Speaker 2: There was a girl across from me. There were two
Speaker 2: men that invited me to this town dinner. One was
Speaker 2: an athlete. One was maybe he's.
Speaker 3: A director or writer. Hollywood shit, but all these holes
Speaker 3: wants some right.
Speaker 2: This was in New York, and one of the girls
Speaker 2: said to me after they were doing their rich holl.
Speaker 1: Okay studios, let's see you girl.
Speaker 2: You know, men love to do that with when nat
Speaker 2: you feel like sometimes they're more upfront about it. Maybe
Speaker 2: thirty minutes into the dinner, after I'm talking to another
Speaker 2: woman next to her about podcast studios. I thought, you
Speaker 2: have like a podcast about like porn stars and stuff.
Speaker 4: Oh okay, here we go. That shit as a scorpio.
Speaker 4: That's when I'm like, oh, with these sides killing me,
Speaker 4: I'm tuned the full in crazy, I'm tuned the fuck. Okay,
Speaker 4: let's go. So how'd you respond?
Speaker 1: I said, who you thought? Right?
Speaker 2: And it's crazy because I thought that you were that
Speaker 2: girl from Twitter. Uh oh, I actually can't say it,
Speaker 2: but I'm gonna say this.
Speaker 1: I can't believe you haven't hit me up because of
Speaker 1: you're only fans. That's crazy.
Speaker 4: Gasps at the table, like everyone dropped the one.
Speaker 1: Everyone chopped time. I was like, but was every wrong?
Speaker 2: And she was like, I don't have an only fans.
Speaker 2: I used to have a page with my ex partner.
Speaker 4: Oh so it wasn't successful.
Speaker 1: So you know, couple page. We don't do it no more.
Speaker 4: We'll keep trying.
Speaker 3: Can you just talking about bitch?
Speaker 1: I don't give a fuck. If she was a.
Speaker 2: Lawyer, Cammy, I'm gonna tell you. People have tried to
Speaker 2: make me feel small for talking about sex for.
Speaker 1: So long, so long, so long, And I would have.
Speaker 2: Led with my podcast if those dudes didn't bring up
Speaker 2: the studio. The only reason the girl next to her ask,
Speaker 2: because she's building one in her home for only fans.
Speaker 2: Where all she came with, how can I do interviews?
Speaker 2: Like plug talk is a show where they have sex
Speaker 2: on camera. I can't go to a studio on opsex,
Speaker 2: so how can I do this? So it wasn't like
Speaker 2: I didn't want to be forward about it. And I
Speaker 2: know that she must have felt like, oh, this girl
Speaker 2: thinks she's better because she does this now, No I
Speaker 2: don't care.
Speaker 3: He's better than you.
Speaker 4: Bitch is like that, I anyway hate that, you know.
Speaker 2: I really was kind of like hating our Ruby Rose
Speaker 2: a little bit for the ship she said about Drewski,
Speaker 2: because I was like, bro, like you're talking about pr
Speaker 2: and all this stuff to gain popularity to a guy
Speaker 2: that's super mainstream. He's on Super Bowl commercials, Like, I'm
Speaker 2: not saying you aren't hot and the only fan Shion
Speaker 2: ain't lit or you're not lit?
Speaker 3: Like why she felt the way because some nigga said,
Speaker 3: but I ain't fucking you.
Speaker 1: You fuck Drew Sky.
Speaker 3: That's what it was. She probably felt that he like
Speaker 3: she felt.
Speaker 1: She probably there are a lot of bitches that want to.
Speaker 3: But that's why she came out and said, I didn't
Speaker 3: fuck him.
Speaker 2: Bro, I'm gonna be honest. Jewsky is fun as hell.
Speaker 2: He's so funny.
Speaker 3: I bet you he could take that pussy in a person.
Speaker 3: It's so good.
Speaker 4: He's great. Like, I don't know him as a person.
Speaker 4: I mean, if comes out about him everything that I said.
Speaker 2: Agree, But I'm telling you right now, single on the table,
Speaker 2: you're at a bar. Fine, if Juy's not your type, fie,
Speaker 2: you're telling me that Nigga can't fucking laugh draws off you.
Speaker 2: I don't believe that, and I don't think Juky is
Speaker 2: ugly at all.
Speaker 4: He's funny.
Speaker 3: I don't like this fat dude ship being ugly.
Speaker 4: I think I've never been guys with apps have never
Speaker 4: been like my I've never been like, oh he doesn't have.
Speaker 1: A now when he posts them boxers out and do
Speaker 1: her little country boys and I see the crack that.
Speaker 1: I love that she said laughing at Draws, but I'm
Speaker 1: not going to see her in though he can maybe
Speaker 1: laugh though I did not my drawers. I don't know
Speaker 1: fat shaming, but know that Nigga.
Speaker 4: Couln't like like that, but it is.
Speaker 2: I don't think energy is saying that bitches really forget
Speaker 2: about And I don't even fuck well hot Nigga's ruby
Speaker 2: dated before or whatever.
Speaker 1: I just feel like you really probably took the like
Speaker 1: I don't know.
Speaker 2: I think the way that the Internet has made beautiful
Speaker 2: women feel sometimes an inflated sense of self. Yeah yeah,
Speaker 2: I have tens of in the comments talking about how
Speaker 2: sexy are But how many people really like you?
Speaker 4: Yeah yeah? How many friends do you actually have? I
Speaker 4: think that that's that's very real. And I cannot stand
Speaker 4: a bitch that tries to I don't even know what
Speaker 4: the word is, but it's such whack bitch energy to
Speaker 4: try to, you know, when you're like out with girls
Speaker 4: and there's a guy, and like clearly they want the guy,
Speaker 4: and so then they do some shit like that to
Speaker 4: like try to let everybody know that you shouldn't be
Speaker 4: desired or that like you're unavailable like that, you're in
Speaker 4: a relationship, okay, like you don't. You don't have to
Speaker 4: you don't have to do that. I'm happy to talk
Speaker 4: about my man. You don't have to be like, oh,
Speaker 4: like so you and you're a man, right, like because
Speaker 4: you have a man, right, yes, I talk about him
Speaker 4: all the time. You know, you don't have to lead
Speaker 4: with it, right You see yours too? Why are you
Speaker 4: so excited to talk about him? They're like this, this
Speaker 4: is what this happens all the time. And I love
Speaker 4: to And it happens a lot when it comes to
Speaker 4: career accolades too, because I've had it so many times
Speaker 4: where a girl will come up to me with her
Speaker 4: friends and she'll be so excited to meet me.
Speaker 1: She's like I listen to your podcast. I Love You
Speaker 1: on Catfish, I love you and are you the one?
Speaker 4: I love you? On Next on the Beach, I love everything.
Speaker 1: I never watched it. It's so good. I know, I
Speaker 1: know it's good.
Speaker 4: And I'll be so excited to meet them too. And
Speaker 4: then she'll turn to her friend and be like, do
Speaker 4: you know Cammy like she said, and they'll be like, no,
Speaker 4: I've experienced that so much. I don't know you.
Speaker 1: I'm sorry. I have no idea who you are. I've
Speaker 1: never seen you before. I've never watched anything. If my friends,
Speaker 1: I would always be hype for my friends. And you
Speaker 1: know what my response is, that's okay, baby, It's not
Speaker 1: a requirement. Can you take this picture of us? Though?
Speaker 3: Thank you?
Speaker 1: The fuck is your problem?
Speaker 2: I know how crazy this sounds, considering I'm a ninety
Speaker 2: day fiance buff. I'm walking on the street with my
Speaker 2: homegirarl the other day. I think it was the black
Speaker 2: girl from Love Island. This bitch stops in her tracks,
Speaker 2: my homegirl.
Speaker 1: She goes folks, and I was like, what's going on?
Speaker 1: So the girl walking towards us knows what's going on? Yeah,
Speaker 1: I don't know what's going was it Janee or Serena.
Speaker 1: Oh no, brol Oh god, it was the one who
Speaker 1: came who was a WTF in La the one who
Speaker 1: did Sofia is the new one, the black coup of
Speaker 1: the one, the Serena Odell's brothers, Serena and Cordell Cordelle.
Speaker 2: So she was super chill and I'm like, yo, hold on,
Speaker 2: let me get my phone out. And I was like,
Speaker 2: do you have a podcast too? So she's laughing because
Speaker 2: my friend having a breakdown. And I was like, oh
Speaker 2: my god, I'm not trying to be a bit because
Speaker 2: I'm sure you do something great.
Speaker 1: Yes, yeah, and that's nice.
Speaker 3: And while we're taking the photo.
Speaker 1: Literally, she goes, you really ain't watching Love Island. Everybody
Speaker 1: watching Love I don't watch Love Island.
Speaker 2: And I swear to god, I'm like, girl, I'm guys
Speaker 2: because you're embarrassing me. And I know why, because I should.
Speaker 2: It's like not it's like a white girl not knowing
Speaker 2: who the new bachelorette is.
Speaker 1: I know the black girl.
Speaker 4: That's true. I didn't even watch this season, but I
Speaker 4: know for a factor one, I know who the top
Speaker 4: three girls were. I know the whole thing. I know
Speaker 4: the quotes. No, I don't know.
Speaker 3: I need to watch the show anyway.
Speaker 1: I know, I gotta get it. I don't watch the
Speaker 1: I don't watch many of the dating shows. You don't
Speaker 1: watch Love's well my problem is, well.
Speaker 3: First off, I love is never blinded me. I'm shallow.
Speaker 1: So the magas, I'm like, why I got a whole
Speaker 1: bunch of ugly people falling for each other over the phone.
Speaker 1: So it just don't make sense to me.
Speaker 3: What is this now, y'all making ugly people like each other?
Speaker 3: So to me, okay, yeah, like no, I.
Speaker 1: Like Housewives, and I like I like competition shows, feel
Speaker 1: like ink Master The Voice where people got to get eliminated.
Speaker 3: Even the circle I was watching the.
Speaker 4: People get eliminated too.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but I don't like people already lie they have
Speaker 1: to manipulate each other. And so to me, in a
Speaker 1: space and for real, for real, watching a whole bunch
Speaker 1: of twenties twenty year olds, oh my god, it's like,
Speaker 1: y'all don't know you know what it's really like.
Speaker 3: You can't even those that more thirty five plus year old?
Speaker 1: Yeah, because watching twenty year olds with the ultimatums or
Speaker 1: acting like they know what the book they want what.
Speaker 2: That was my funnest And I'm a fan of a
Speaker 2: is it too out to handle im?
Speaker 1: One?
Speaker 3: We went on a date?
Speaker 1: Okay, I love me stuff girl?
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, car Jack, there's a whole story. Wait what
Speaker 3: la story? Girl?
Speaker 1: But like, yeah, no, I don't want to watch a
Speaker 1: whole bunch of twenty two year olds looking for love. Yeah, bitch,
Speaker 1: this person is gonna be one of many that's.
Speaker 2: Make said funny because they're so Let me tell you
Speaker 2: why it's not fun in your thirties, then, bitch, just
Speaker 2: want to be out.
Speaker 1: When there's a girl that's twenty two and she's.
Speaker 4: Like yeah, and you're like, oh.
Speaker 3: Eighty, that's why I don't want to watch the Lulu bitches.
Speaker 4: But then if it was us, like this bitch is done.
Speaker 3: I'd be crying.
Speaker 4: I want.
Speaker 1: I want someone in their thirties who like wait, like
Speaker 1: I didn't have to pay for a sitter in my
Speaker 1: my mama watching my kids back home. I'm really looking
Speaker 1: for love because I need a nigger to come in
Speaker 1: and be a father figure to my children.
Speaker 4: Have you watched a Golden Bachelor? No?
Speaker 2: I heard, that's fine, it's the Golden Bachelor. They're older yeah,
Speaker 2: what's older.
Speaker 4: So, yeah, there's there's lots of drama. There's so The
Speaker 4: Golden Bachelorette is on right now and one of the contestants,
Speaker 4: one of the guys that came on to date the
Speaker 4: girl who was on The Golden Bachelor, he has a
Speaker 4: like a restraining order filed against him from his like
Speaker 4: ex girlfriend or wife or whatever. And it's like a
Speaker 4: bad situation.
Speaker 1: I want people dealing with real life. These motherfuckers on
Speaker 1: these little shows don't even pay rent. They got a
Speaker 1: phone bill to pay, and they just care about how
Speaker 1: many followers I love when they come on there.
Speaker 2: I'm a content creator. I'm about to handle because I'm
Speaker 2: always firing inside.
Speaker 1: At the TV.
Speaker 3: What is we doing?
Speaker 1: Me and Nina?
Speaker 3: That's my dog right back?
Speaker 2: God bro, when I tell you my nigga looked at
Speaker 2: me like I was watching Game of Thrones.
Speaker 3: I was at the edge of my seat.
Speaker 4: Yeah, hello, you know what it is. It's an escape,
Speaker 4: it is it is.
Speaker 1: And it's great.
Speaker 4: It's great.
Speaker 1: Tell me my Capus industry on HBO before we get
Speaker 1: out of here.
Speaker 2: I gotta know a show or an episode of Catfish
Speaker 2: that really blew your mind. On the Lulu because people
Speaker 2: think these shows are fake and people can't understand how
Speaker 2: these shows exist twenty twenty.
Speaker 3: I can't understand in twenty twenty four how you're getting
Speaker 3: cat fished.
Speaker 4: Still, well, we were just so obviously this is coming
Speaker 4: out after I've quit the show, but we were just
Speaker 4: getting into the relationships that people were in in COVID,
Speaker 4: So like pandemic relationships where they're now like, hey, it's
Speaker 4: been four years, what about FaceTime?
Speaker 3: These people still don't care.
Speaker 4: Don't care sometimes, But we can say the same thing
Speaker 4: about in person relationships. I like to give as much
Speaker 4: grace as humanly possible, just because we get in relationships
Speaker 4: all the time in real life that we know aren't
Speaker 4: right for us, but we ignore shit every day. Now,
Speaker 4: if I'm in a relationship with somebody and I'm calling
Speaker 4: this person my boyfriend and my girlfriend and it's been
Speaker 4: five years and we've never been on FaceTime, that might
Speaker 4: be something else.
Speaker 1: What about a male on a spectrum?
Speaker 2: What is the way that you're finding what's the easiest
Speaker 2: way to find out if someone's lying about their identity?
Speaker 4: The easiest way to find out? Do you ever know
Speaker 4: somebody's true identity? This is right that's against do you
Speaker 4: ever know? No, you never really fucking.
Speaker 3: Someone can show up differently, like people.
Speaker 4: Send their representative all the time. So you just have
Speaker 4: to you have to decipher. And I'm not saying you
Speaker 4: got to look for clues because like nobody wants to
Speaker 4: be in a relationship where they're constantly like double back,
Speaker 4: I can't keep track of what's in your phone. I'm
Speaker 4: not doing I'm not doing all that extra legwork.
Speaker 3: This is my first relationship where I haven't snuck him up.
Speaker 1: Don't I'm not looking.
Speaker 3: I'm not gonna do why I'm not doing it.
Speaker 2: I think I did it in the past because it
Speaker 2: was a habit. I had done it in the happiest moment,
Speaker 2: trying to ruin my mood. I have not done it.
Speaker 2: Don't care, bitch. A pussy could come up and I'm
Speaker 2: be like.
Speaker 1: Who's this? Let me see, let me see. But it's crazy.
Speaker 2: Because when you have a habit from how you normally
Speaker 2: get information, whatever is in the dark comes light mm hmmm,
Speaker 2: and you will find out as it's.
Speaker 3: Supposed to do.
Speaker 2: So if that's really the truth, is really the truth.
Speaker 2: But that is grown digging for that shit. Yeah, it's crazy. No, No,
Speaker 2: I think I was obsessed. I think there's a chapter
Speaker 2: where I read about like, oh, if you go to see.
Speaker 1: I crawl on the floor, b sh, I'll be light,
Speaker 1: not on the floor. I'm not looking to not yo.
Speaker 1: You could say that I thought I was that person too.
Speaker 1: There's a lot of things we all say we'd never do. Yeah,
Speaker 1: there is a lot of crazy things that you're ranking doing.
Speaker 1: I know somebody listening has been to this. You don't
Speaker 1: even want to look. I wouldn't even see anything, just
Speaker 1: second nature.
Speaker 4: It's like being on your phone and like going to
Speaker 4: Instagram when you know you don't even have any or
Speaker 4: like checking I checked like ten apps before I put
Speaker 4: my phone down, like a phone Twitter at this. Yeah,
Speaker 4: yeah you heard it. It's like opening up the fridge.
Speaker 4: You know what's in the fridge. You haven't put shit
Speaker 4: in there. Uh but okay. So an episode of Catfish
Speaker 4: where somebody was on a different level of de Lulu.
Speaker 4: There's been a lot of them, but I think one
Speaker 4: of my first episodes was we were working with a
Speaker 4: girl who believed that she was in a relationship.
Speaker 1: With Chris Brown for three years.
Speaker 3: I saw that one.
Speaker 4: What they cut out was that She also believed that
Speaker 4: she was best friends with Drake for five years, so
Speaker 4: in her mind, this was like normal because she met
Speaker 4: these she met them on Facebook is a whole thing.
Speaker 4: But one of the conversations that she brought up that
Speaker 4: they also cut out was that she basically on her birthday,
Speaker 4: went out with a friend on Hollywood Boulevard. They went
Speaker 4: to a bar and she calls him because she just
Speaker 4: wanted to talk to him, and she said that a
Speaker 4: black prius had pulled up in front of the bar
Speaker 4: and it was a guy who looked like Chris Brown
Speaker 4: with a hat on, and she's on the phone with
Speaker 4: him and she's like, wait, is that you outside of
Speaker 4: the bar and he was like, yeah, it's me, and
Speaker 4: then he sped off and she was like, well, you know,
Speaker 4: he just wanted to stop by they like wish me
Speaker 4: happy birthday, but like he couldn't get out of the
Speaker 4: car because of like who he is, and like you know,
Speaker 4: celebrities they have like their cars, but then they have
Speaker 4: like their you know, low key cars. And I was like, girl,
Speaker 4: I said, I can promise you that Chris Brown's low
Speaker 4: key car.
Speaker 1: Is not a black.
Speaker 2: Is a regular bands Maybe it may be maybe it's not.
Speaker 4: A black I promise you know what.
Speaker 1: The low key cars for celebrities are in l A.
Speaker 1: I've noticed.
Speaker 4: I knew you were going to say, but that that's
Speaker 4: the low key car, like that's that's not a low
Speaker 4: which is the fucking most disgusting car I've ever seen.
Speaker 1: Also, Chris Brown be outside. Chris Brown be outside all
Speaker 1: the time. He's be outside.
Speaker 4: And by the way, I ended up seeing him after
Speaker 4: that episode air pasted it. I was this is a
Speaker 4: funny story. I was with my ex at the time
Speaker 4: and we're at Highlight Room.
Speaker 3: That's where I saw him last the highlight room.
Speaker 4: If you want to find Brown to highlight highlight room,
Speaker 4: Chris Brown is there.
Speaker 1: Because right now it's the winter time, so highlight room
Speaker 1: right now ain't probably gonna be open. She's inside, they do,
Speaker 1: it's just not open on the outside. He'll be there.
Speaker 1: He'll be there.
Speaker 2: And Sadek is now share recording this during fashion Week,
Speaker 2: Sean literally has Hakissan in Vegas.
Speaker 4: Yes, oh, he's fucking killing it.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 2: I was gonna say, uh, I saw him out in
Speaker 2: about in l A. But Sadik is Chris Brown. That's
Speaker 2: the only thing you go see that you go see
Speaker 2: you see Wait, didn't I thought that that? He wrote
Speaker 2: the girl a message like it's not me or something.
Speaker 4: He posted it. He posted it on his story afterradd
Speaker 4: Air and was like, it wasn't me, but this is hilarious.
Speaker 4: So I'm like standing with my ex at the time
Speaker 4: and Chris Brown comes over to me and gives me
Speaker 4: a hug. And the way he gave me a hug
Speaker 4: was like he like, we knew each other. We've met
Speaker 4: when I was Miss teen USA, but that was years ago.
Speaker 4: So my ex is looking at me like I'm looking
Speaker 4: at it. Chris like, uh hi, I'm like we met
Speaker 4: a long time ago with like and he was like
Speaker 4: I watched the show and I was like oh. He
Speaker 4: was like, yo, I can't fucking tell you. How many
Speaker 4: women are at my front gate on.
Speaker 1: A weekly basis crazy because they think that they're talking
Speaker 1: to me on Facebook. It happens all the time.
Speaker 2: And you know what it is, somebody, Yeah, sorry, yes
Speaker 2: it is.
Speaker 1: It is crazy.
Speaker 4: It is. I'm sorry to say, but this time it
Speaker 4: actually wasn't. It was. It was a young lady. I
Speaker 4: don't remember where she lived. But even because she said
Speaker 4: that Chris Brown, I left her a voicemail. I was like,
Speaker 4: play the voicemail. That's the clip that went viral, the
Speaker 4: fucking voicemail found to Noah on my Chris Brown, I said,
Speaker 4: that is either a twenty four year old man or
Speaker 4: a eighteen year old woman.
Speaker 1: Like a eighteen year old woman.
Speaker 2: I wonder what the woman is then asking men to do.
Speaker 2: Just make this voice message for her.
Speaker 1: No, it was her, by the way, it was her,
Speaker 1: and she was just like, hey, bro, I was like, listen,
Speaker 1: I've been listening to Chris Brown since I was I.
Speaker 4: Know that is not Chris Brown's.
Speaker 1: That's hilarious. I do have to rap.
Speaker 2: I know we gotta go, But just one question, what
Speaker 2: is the purpose of cat fishing if it isn't money.
Speaker 1: Oh there's so many reasons why people a catfe.
Speaker 3: Revenge, whatever, but like, why does someone want.
Speaker 4: To do revenge? Money? Those are parts of it. But
Speaker 4: I think that and again this is be given grace Liebermoon. Hey,
Speaker 4: I'm gonna get you all into astrology by the of
Speaker 4: the day.
Speaker 1: Never you know, you will, you will, never will.
Speaker 4: I think that people want to be loved and accepted,
Speaker 4: and I don't think that we are as gracious to
Speaker 4: how evil, mean, rude. The Internet is like, we meet
Speaker 4: so many people who are like I tried to get
Speaker 4: on the dating apps as myself. I have posted my
Speaker 4: own pictures. I have been on the dating apps for years.
Speaker 4: Nobody ever swiped on me. So I thought, what if
Speaker 4: I just posted this picture of Denzel Washington? What kind
Speaker 4: of response what I get? And I got so many replies.
Speaker 4: Some people who use celebrity pictures are like, Okay, I
Speaker 4: think in my mind that they have to know that
Speaker 4: it's not me, but they're into it anyway. I want
Speaker 4: to have the conversation, so like, let's keep this up.
Speaker 4: But for the people who use like other people's pictures,
Speaker 4: sometimes they're like, I have tried to use my pictures,
Speaker 4: it didn't work out. I was tired of feeling like
Speaker 4: I wasn't desirable. I wanted people to get to know
Speaker 4: me for me. I wanted to just get to that
Speaker 4: next level, and this helped me to do that. So
Speaker 4: a lot of times it's that, bro.
Speaker 2: You know, not really think right now, Like I have
Speaker 2: definitely been at the place where I never catfish anything,
Speaker 2: but I just talked to someone because I was bored
Speaker 2: with the other options.
Speaker 4: Like bitch you've never been in an aim trap room.
Speaker 4: Would they say age sex location and you, yeah, but
Speaker 4: you never send pictures because we didn't have to send pictures.
Speaker 3: It was even the curvy girl.
Speaker 4: I would say age twenty one.
Speaker 1: The chat line location, Hollywood catfishing.
Speaker 3: We all you lied about your goddamn age.
Speaker 1: If you had dial up at any point in time,
Speaker 1: you have got you catfish. You have absolutely.
Speaker 2: I guess I never catfish with like the intent to
Speaker 2: meet or something and so on brain, it's not real because.
Speaker 3: The way I won't get on the hinge again.
Speaker 1: When I got on there, everyone thought I was a
Speaker 1: catfish because they know the podcast. Yeah yeah, yeah, bitch,
Speaker 1: if you know the podcast, I don't want to talk
Speaker 1: to you, but now I don't want to be on
Speaker 1: Let me get the up off this ship, let me this.
Speaker 4: I get it. That's why I like Riyah. But then
Speaker 4: I hear everybody say, right.
Speaker 2: Can I be honest, it's so crazy you found love
Speaker 2: on there because the men that I met on Ryan
Speaker 2: would sometimes even try to like knock me down and
Speaker 2: like oh yeah, like.
Speaker 3: Everybody thought they were important.
Speaker 2: I don't know if it works for me for women too,
Speaker 2: like people just it's like real good looking people.
Speaker 1: That's what I found better than the other apps. But
Speaker 1: Riya has really hot girls though.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I think all of the good girls are on.
Speaker 2: Like on Riya, you can land hits on women because
Speaker 2: you can basically look on a location map.
Speaker 4: Right, Yeah, I like these the bitches in Yeah, let
Speaker 4: me go outside, let me take it off.
Speaker 1: I tell people to listen to your.
Speaker 4: Podcast Relationship Airs every single Friday, and she can name,
Speaker 4: thank you, and I record. I had what the Bug
Speaker 4: studios a lot, so you'll see me, so yeah, every Friday,
Speaker 4: and then you can find me on all of my
Speaker 4: socials at Cammy Crawford, k A M I E. A
Speaker 4: lot of people like to leave off Kelly your man
Speaker 4: bring him on an everybody said that, like to just
Speaker 4: do it like his voice.
Speaker 1: I did one so doesn't want to Like, he doesn't
Speaker 1: just do it. He's just like, what do I even
Speaker 1: talk about? Funny?
Speaker 4: He's not.
Speaker 1: He's like behind the scenes.
Speaker 3: I know he's only fans like that.
Speaker 4: Oh my god, who was.
Speaker 3: I don't even think y'all would recognize her.
Speaker 2: But when I was on Twitter, she just was super
Speaker 2: popping with her boyfriend at the time. So when she
Speaker 2: made that comment to me, I'm like, you were literally
Speaker 2: my demographic for a guest like Gus, I.
Speaker 1: Don't want this.
Speaker 4: Hello, she run her opportunity and that's why I had
Speaker 4: to fill in.
Speaker 1: Anyway.
Speaker 2: Go check us out on patreon dot com, Backslash Horrible Decisions.
Speaker 2: We give you all the tea on there. Our town
Speaker 2: halls are there, our bonus contents there, nudes everything.
Speaker 1: Dude, Absolutely, I'm not somebody's racist, fucking sprain their ankle
Speaker 1: log on hurrye because they could be gone.
Speaker 3: Oh my god, this has been yet another episode of
Speaker 3: what I don't want the TV behind me.
Speaker 1: But I have a mailbox with my name that I
Speaker 1: got from HBO, so like, okay, that kind of looks
Speaker 1: kind of cool. We're just going to do this and
Speaker 1: switch it up today. I also want to thank you guys,
Speaker 1: uh the last on the hotline.
Speaker 3: I started with.
Speaker 1: Breaking down kind of where I was mentally, and so
Speaker 1: many of you reassured me that I'm not a bad person,
Speaker 1: which I appreciate, but I I didn't realize, which I
Speaker 1: guess I don't realize until I see the comments and
Speaker 1: meet you guys in person how much we all kind
Speaker 1: of live the same life, just a little bit, maybe
Speaker 1: at different moments in our lives, but we all are
Speaker 1: going through the same fucking shit trying to navigate life
Speaker 1: and life be life, and sometimes I'm not in that
Speaker 1: place particularly anymore. By the time you guys hear this,
Speaker 1: y'all probably would have seen me cry on a regular episode.
Speaker 1: I've been dealing with grief lately. I lost a friend
Speaker 1: and former manager recently, and in dealing with grief, there
Speaker 1: was a lot of this idea of closure or regret
Speaker 1: for not you know, taking my trip to Tokyo or
Speaker 1: Dallas and spending more time with him. Because of course,
Speaker 1: if you know something is coming to an end or
Speaker 1: a person is leaving, you want to fill that up
Speaker 1: with great amazing memory praise right, So boom story time, y'all.
Speaker 1: This this is really interesting because, in speaking of closure,
Speaker 1: I did not know what closure would look like with
Speaker 1: a heartbreak. Yes, if you are sick of hearing about
Speaker 1: my ex, you could turn it off now.
Speaker 3: However, this is.
Speaker 1: Almost like the universe was like, bitch, let me do
Speaker 1: this for you in this grieving moment, XYZ element O
Speaker 1: p so boom so I go to the funeral. Rest
Speaker 1: in peace, Jason Hoodie but so I go to the
Speaker 1: funeral and it's in Harlem. So I'm at the funeral
Speaker 1: over on one sixteenth, I think it was and funeral,
Speaker 1: and you know, after the funeral, you gotta go to
Speaker 1: the repass. So asking around, asking around, I'm starving. I
Speaker 1: did not eat that morning funeral. They had the viewing
Speaker 1: it ten, the funeral service from eleven to one, and
Speaker 1: then the repast was one to five. A bitch was hungry,
Speaker 1: a bitch was dehydrated. Because I had no more tears
Speaker 1: to cry. I just sat there and bawled my eyes
Speaker 1: out for literally about two hours. And so when it
Speaker 1: came time to eat, couldn't nobody tell me who cooked
Speaker 1: the food and the repast?
Speaker 3: And I was like, well, I just ain't go e
Speaker 3: just anybody food.
Speaker 1: So went across the street to amy Rus had smothered
Speaker 1: turkey wings, because.
Speaker 3: That's my shit if I go to a motherfucking sold
Speaker 3: food restaurants.
Speaker 1: So I had smothered turkey wings with salte okram and
Speaker 1: making cheese. And then I was with a friend of mine,
Speaker 1: Ayana and Ishmael, and we were like, you know what,
Speaker 1: I want to go grab a drink. This has been
Speaker 1: a heavy last two weeks with the realization that we
Speaker 1: lost our friend. The service was beautiful, but very heavily
Speaker 1: emotional and bitch, y'all know i'd be liking a drain.
Speaker 3: So we go on over to Harlem Tavern. We have
Speaker 3: a drink.
Speaker 1: About four more of our friends join us and end
Speaker 1: up heading back to the repass. So as we're leaving
Speaker 1: the bar, though y'all ready for this.
Speaker 3: As we're leaving the bar.
Speaker 1: I see my ex's truck.
Speaker 3: Now, bitch, let me tell y'all how my heart.
Speaker 1: Against sake, But not really because I didn't know what
Speaker 1: emotions to have, because y'all know, I had already ran
Speaker 1: into the motherfucker at the park so where I had
Speaker 1: a whole panic attack. So I see his car, and
Speaker 1: I'm like, I don't know if this is really his truck,
Speaker 1: but it makes sense because we retired firefighter. That nigga
Speaker 1: gonna double park wherever. He don't believe in rules, he
Speaker 1: don't believe in tickets, he gonna park that car. So
Speaker 1: I look and see the car, and I go to
Speaker 1: the front to see in the dashboard or you know,
Speaker 1: see any stickers to identify the vehicle, and it's his
Speaker 1: and I'm like, oh, this nigga gotta be at Bixi.
Speaker 1: Bixi is the bar right in front of where his
Speaker 1: car was, So I tell my homegirl. I was like, bitch,
Speaker 1: is a nigga that broke my heart? This is car,
Speaker 1: this is my ex car. Bitch, let's just go into
Speaker 1: the bar, get a shot, and I'm gonna be loud
Speaker 1: with it and I'm an her. Make sure he see me.
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