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Speaker 1: Hi, Amber, Hilelah, Welcome to an unlikely affair. Hi, everybody,

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Speaker 1: welcome back to an unlikely affair.

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Speaker 2: Hello Amber Childers, Hi, I am on a hundred. I

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Speaker 2: don't think you need any more coffee. Oh I'm having

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Speaker 2: more coffee because I'm on a freaking high. I love

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Speaker 2: the synergy though, you do it. Huh. So I'm freshly

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Speaker 2: back from Mexico. I'm so happy to be here with Amber.

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Speaker 2: She was the one who greeted me at the front

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Speaker 2: door when I got back to La. The house was chaotic,

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Speaker 2: my mother was crying. He was a mess. All good things.

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Speaker 2: But the reason why this morning or day is so

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Speaker 2: exciting is because I have one of my most favorite

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Speaker 2: people on the planet, Chris Medina. You guys know him

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Speaker 2: as the person who literally warned me about my life

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Speaker 2: but has been a rock for me for the past

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Speaker 2: what five years? Chris. Yeah, anytime I'm in a spiral,

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Speaker 2: I text him and say I'm an a spiral. So welcome.

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Speaker 2: We're so excited to have you.

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Speaker 3: Thank you for having me. I missed you so much

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Speaker 3: and I can't believe you're here after your Mexico trip.

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Speaker 2: Oh honey, this is sobriety, baby, good for you. We

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Speaker 2: land and we hit the ground running.

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Speaker 3: Yes, yes, don't wait, yeah we do.

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Speaker 2: So Amber found out that you and I were close,

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Speaker 2: and she was like, I would die to have him

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Speaker 2: on the podcast. I was like, let's freaking do it.

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Speaker 2: So can you talk us through like the way that

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Speaker 2: you do things? And then I'm sure Amber has questions.

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Speaker 2: I always have questions, but like, what how do you

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Speaker 2: tap in and do your thing when you meet with people?

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Speaker 3: I guess I mean, you see how I do it.

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Speaker 3: I just go right in. There's no tarot cards, there's

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Speaker 3: no crystals, It's just pure psychic energy. So the way

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Speaker 3: that I like to work is being able to I

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Speaker 3: love nothing more than to predict a fruitful feature or somebody.

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Speaker 3: But let's be realistic here. I mean, in order to

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Speaker 3: get there, we have to remove those roadblocks that are

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Speaker 3: in your way. So that's where I like to start.

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Speaker 3: What's in your way from preventing you from the life

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Speaker 3: that you want to have. Let's tackle that. Get that

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Speaker 3: I mean, what good does it do? I can tell

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Speaker 3: you you're going to have all this great stuff come

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Speaker 3: mental's not there, How are you going to get there?

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Speaker 2: You know? True?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, and I don't. I'm probably gonna get a lot

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Speaker 3: of shit for this, but I don't like to use

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Speaker 3: the word. Manifesto is another word for like wishful thinking. Okay,

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Speaker 3: I'm all about action and making things happen. Why wish

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Speaker 3: for things to come into play? When the accountability and

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Speaker 3: responsibility is in your hands, you go after it, don't

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Speaker 3: sit there and wait for it to fall in your lap. Wow.

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Speaker 2: And I feel like I'm such a manifestor So.

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Speaker 3: It's one thing. No, it's one thing. It's one thing

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Speaker 3: to manifest and really go after it, like like you,

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Speaker 3: I'm not just saying that's to kiss your ass. But

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Speaker 3: if you're sitting there too, yeah for sure. But to

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Speaker 3: sit there, you know, with the vision boards and I

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Speaker 3: and make it happen. That's the difference.

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Speaker 2: Nothing is just going to fall in your lap. And

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Speaker 2: Amber and I both went into this new year, I

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Speaker 2: think in a very different headspace. Usually I have a

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Speaker 2: tremendous amount of anxiety going into a new year because

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Speaker 2: I panic about all of the things that I need

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Speaker 2: of the year. This is the first year that I

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Speaker 2: that I for so long, and I think people who

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Speaker 2: watch me on TV would think that what I'm about

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Speaker 2: to say is not true because I do face confrontation.

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Speaker 2: And it's the one thing I actually love about doing

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Speaker 2: reality TV is you pick every battle, right, Yeah, because

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Speaker 2: we're making a television show. In real life, I pick

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Speaker 2: my battles, but it comes at the cost of me

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Speaker 2: I'm not doing that. Like we can have productive conversations,

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Speaker 2: move the roadblocks, like you were saying, and we're just

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Speaker 2: very hopeful for the year. So I would like, Amber,

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Speaker 4: There's a lot that is unsure. Yeah, there's a lot

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Speaker 2: Like I could either fight it right or you could

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Speaker 4: On the path that for me, my higher power has

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Speaker 3: Book, you guys, And every psychic's going to say this

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Speaker 3: I like to keep it real. And I'm finally glad

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Speaker 3: that you're saying what you're saying now because you're getting

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Speaker 3: sick and tired of the bullshit what I'm saying, like,

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Speaker 3: I think your problem with what it's always been is

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Speaker 3: of realizing your fucking lalla, chill the fuck out, take

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Speaker 3: because you know you're excited or whatever the case may be. Here, Chill, Okay,

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Speaker 3: I've got this, Okay, So I think for you, it's

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Speaker 3: anybody says. The nice guy always finishes last, you know

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Speaker 3: what I'm saying, Like, it's great that we want to

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Speaker 3: But you can't help anybody if you can't help yourself

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Speaker 3: and your back is fucking tired from carrying all the

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Speaker 3: extra weight. Yeah, so I'm glad to hear you say that. Yeah,

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Speaker 3: to put myself first, these strong, hardcore boundaries between you

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Speaker 3: we've talked about that Virgo energy to people.

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Speaker 2: Pleaser, Yeah, what is your what is your sign again? Cancer? Cancer?

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Speaker 3: Oh? I love cancer?

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Speaker 3: They got to be careful when around other people, especially.

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Speaker 4: I pick energy up like it's it's I'm such an

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Speaker 3: Yeahh I think that it's a good combination with you

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Speaker 3: think you you are coming into a different identity this year,

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Speaker 3: so you're being forced out of your comfort zone, out

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Speaker 3: But it's wrong for me to say this, but I

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Speaker 3: feel like you're ready. Does that make sense? Yeah, you're ready.

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Speaker 3: an adult. You don't have to fear anything. Anymore. You know,

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Speaker 3: Does that make sense? That's what I feel. I feel

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Speaker 3: But that's what makes you real though, Is that vulnerability,

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Speaker 3: But I'm also very vulnerable and I feel too much.

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Speaker 3: That's fine, that's fine that you can admit that and

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Speaker 3: So again, moving forward, I think again one more time.

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Speaker 3: up here. It's been a shit show since August first

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Speaker 3: for me, like between August first and now as far

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Speaker 3: like I'm not saying that you're weak, but somebody like

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Speaker 2: Right, right, that makes sense.

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Speaker 4: I think like one of the things I've been really

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Speaker 2: I don't want to be safe anymore.

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Speaker 4: Safety being safe in a relationship, being safe in my career,

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Speaker 3: You're not prepared for You don't You're not looking for

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Speaker 3: I would use that time wisely to disinfect everything that

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Speaker 2: I don't know if I'm going to.

434
00:19:31,920 --> 00:19:34,600
Speaker 4: Be there, you know, for the rest of the year.

435
00:19:34,640 --> 00:19:35,920
Speaker 4: I don't know if I'm moving back to La. I

436
00:19:35,960 --> 00:19:38,280
Speaker 4: don't know where my life is, but for right now

437
00:19:38,680 --> 00:19:41,280
Speaker 4: being in Montana. I had never been to Montana before.

438
00:19:41,600 --> 00:19:43,439
Speaker 4: I went there in June to visit my sister, and

439
00:19:43,520 --> 00:19:46,359
Speaker 4: when I got there, I was like, I.

440
00:19:46,280 --> 00:19:48,080
Speaker 2: Don't know why I need to be here.

441
00:19:48,240 --> 00:19:51,360
Speaker 4: I literally packed my shit and I moved to Montana.

442
00:19:51,359 --> 00:19:53,240
Speaker 4: I picked up Riley from sleep away Camp and I'm like,

443
00:19:53,280 --> 00:19:54,560
Speaker 4: guess what, We're moving to Montana.

444
00:19:54,720 --> 00:19:56,760
Speaker 3: You know, I don't need to cut you off, and

445
00:19:56,800 --> 00:19:59,960
Speaker 3: you know what's there the mountains. Yes, you know what mountains, repper,

446
00:20:00,200 --> 00:20:04,240
Speaker 3: I'm Native American. It's strength, Oh, it's strength, and it's

447
00:20:04,320 --> 00:20:07,080
Speaker 3: making sure that you're standing still, you're not letting anything

448
00:20:07,119 --> 00:20:09,359
Speaker 3: push you or move you, and you're surrounded by all

449
00:20:09,400 --> 00:20:12,760
Speaker 3: that great energy. That's why you're trying. You're a fucking cancer.

450
00:20:13,440 --> 00:20:15,720
Speaker 3: Don't question that. If it feels good and I feel

451
00:20:15,760 --> 00:20:18,000
Speaker 3: at peace here, I know that's all you need to know.

452
00:20:18,280 --> 00:20:21,480
Speaker 4: Yeah, when I went to Montana, I was just like,

453
00:20:21,520 --> 00:20:23,119
Speaker 4: and I always thought I was a beach girl. I

454
00:20:23,160 --> 00:20:24,480
Speaker 4: was like, I want to be naked on the beach

455
00:20:24,520 --> 00:20:26,239
Speaker 4: and hanging out and running in the water. And then

456
00:20:26,280 --> 00:20:29,080
Speaker 4: I got to you know, Montana or was freezing. People

457
00:20:29,119 --> 00:20:31,520
Speaker 4: thought it was fucking crazy. They're like, you're not going

458
00:20:31,600 --> 00:20:34,960
Speaker 4: to survive. And I'm like, whether I survive a year

459
00:20:35,200 --> 00:20:38,200
Speaker 4: or eight, whatever it is my soul.

460
00:20:38,560 --> 00:20:41,280
Speaker 3: Do it. Yeah, let me do it. Let me experience

461
00:20:41,320 --> 00:20:43,159
Speaker 3: without putting all this negativity on it.

462
00:20:43,359 --> 00:20:45,520
Speaker 2: And I find that you have so much drive since

463
00:20:45,520 --> 00:20:47,959
Speaker 2: you've been there, because, like you said, LA can make

464
00:20:48,040 --> 00:20:50,959
Speaker 2: you feel like hands are around your neck because you

465
00:20:51,040 --> 00:20:53,720
Speaker 2: do take on the energy of this city, which is

466
00:20:53,760 --> 00:20:56,520
Speaker 2: a lot of desperation. But then you also have the

467
00:20:56,560 --> 00:20:59,240
Speaker 2: other people who are thriving in this city. So then

468
00:20:59,280 --> 00:21:01,800
Speaker 2: that makes you be yourself up like you're a lazy fuck,

469
00:21:02,400 --> 00:21:07,399
Speaker 2: and it's it's a lot to take on. And once

470
00:21:07,480 --> 00:21:11,879
Speaker 2: you moved to Montana, I loved the shift because you

471
00:21:12,080 --> 00:21:16,040
Speaker 2: felt grounded, like you could take a moment to breathe.

472
00:21:16,359 --> 00:21:18,920
Speaker 2: And then you and now she travels here all the time,

473
00:21:19,480 --> 00:21:22,640
Speaker 2: but it's like she flies out and she's she's here

474
00:21:22,680 --> 00:21:24,880
Speaker 2: with a purpose. We do what we need to do,

475
00:21:25,200 --> 00:21:27,879
Speaker 2: and then you go back and you get regrounded, and

476
00:21:27,920 --> 00:21:31,080
Speaker 2: who knows where your path is going? Do I see

477
00:21:31,119 --> 00:21:33,880
Speaker 2: you being there forever? No? But the timing is right

478
00:21:34,119 --> 00:21:37,280
Speaker 2: mmm mm hmmm hmm, don't you think one hundred percent?

479
00:21:37,480 --> 00:21:41,280
Speaker 4: Because before I moved to Montana, we we hadn't decided

480
00:21:41,280 --> 00:21:42,880
Speaker 4: that we were even going to do the podcast yet,

481
00:21:42,960 --> 00:21:45,160
Speaker 4: so I had no intentions, and I was like, oh

482
00:21:45,200 --> 00:21:48,200
Speaker 4: my gosh, Okay, we're gonna We're gonna just do this.

483
00:21:48,720 --> 00:21:50,879
Speaker 2: I'm not gonna question it. I'm just gonna fucking do it.

484
00:21:50,960 --> 00:21:52,760
Speaker 3: You want to still do the acting too and everything?

485
00:21:52,960 --> 00:21:55,200
Speaker 2: Yeah, Well that I that's my lives in her bones.

486
00:21:55,320 --> 00:21:57,159
Speaker 3: Well, let me tell you, I don't know how you

487
00:21:57,160 --> 00:21:58,800
Speaker 3: feel about this. And I don't know what your plans are.

488
00:21:58,800 --> 00:22:00,320
Speaker 3: I'm just like it. You tell me how it's into

489
00:22:00,359 --> 00:22:02,240
Speaker 3: your life here. But by the end of March going

490
00:22:02,280 --> 00:22:04,679
Speaker 3: into April, I would start. I would that that is

491
00:22:04,720 --> 00:22:09,040
Speaker 3: a time where you're getting calls or your networking with people,

492
00:22:09,119 --> 00:22:11,119
Speaker 3: things are things are starting to come into fruition to

493
00:22:11,160 --> 00:22:12,960
Speaker 3: have you ready by summer of this year. So I

494
00:22:12,960 --> 00:22:14,760
Speaker 3: don't know what type of meetings you've been having, or

495
00:22:14,800 --> 00:22:17,119
Speaker 3: if you've had agents or your managers coming in talking

496
00:22:17,160 --> 00:22:19,359
Speaker 3: about what's next year, But as we get into March

497
00:22:19,400 --> 00:22:21,359
Speaker 3: going to April, that is a really good time to

498
00:22:21,840 --> 00:22:26,000
Speaker 3: showcase yourself. Does that makes sense? So you're coming into

499
00:22:26,040 --> 00:22:29,320
Speaker 3: a different identity and we'll talk about your power and

500
00:22:29,359 --> 00:22:31,119
Speaker 3: how you want to and how you want to flex it.

501
00:22:31,359 --> 00:22:32,879
Speaker 3: You're never going to be someone that's going to be

502
00:22:32,920 --> 00:22:35,679
Speaker 3: overly aggressive, so don't worry about that. Don't think for

503
00:22:35,760 --> 00:22:38,920
Speaker 3: other people, think for yourself. It's a good it's it's

504
00:22:38,920 --> 00:22:40,120
Speaker 3: going to be a good look for you. I'm telling

505
00:22:40,160 --> 00:22:41,760
Speaker 3: you right now, if you play your cards right and

506
00:22:41,760 --> 00:22:44,000
Speaker 3: you really accept this new identity and what the universe

507
00:22:44,080 --> 00:22:46,040
Speaker 3: is offering you, I'm telling you right now, the next

508
00:22:46,040 --> 00:22:47,560
Speaker 3: two years will be good for you as far as

509
00:22:47,600 --> 00:22:51,440
Speaker 3: like you know, re re revitalizing your the material side

510
00:22:51,440 --> 00:22:53,840
Speaker 3: of life, like your money, your your home life. Maybe

511
00:22:53,840 --> 00:22:55,879
Speaker 3: maybe you start feeling more at peace with the kids

512
00:22:55,880 --> 00:22:57,760
Speaker 3: and what you're doing at home. Here this is really

513
00:22:57,800 --> 00:23:00,720
Speaker 3: meant to evolve you from within our along with the

514
00:23:00,720 --> 00:23:03,840
Speaker 3: beautiful opportunities that are coming into play. I'm not sugarcoating anything.

515
00:23:03,880 --> 00:23:05,360
Speaker 3: I'm not telling you what you want to hear. It's

516
00:23:05,400 --> 00:23:07,240
Speaker 3: written all over your face. But first and foremost, get

517
00:23:07,280 --> 00:23:09,679
Speaker 3: rid of that insecurity and fear and go get it.

518
00:23:09,800 --> 00:23:11,760
Speaker 3: If you have to amp yourself up by pretending to

519
00:23:11,800 --> 00:23:14,400
Speaker 3: be a character you are an actress. I would use

520
00:23:14,400 --> 00:23:18,520
Speaker 3: that for a little bit, just till you can take

521
00:23:18,520 --> 00:23:20,880
Speaker 3: the training wheels off and go forward. I love that,

522
00:23:20,920 --> 00:23:22,879
Speaker 3: But you got I'm telling you right now, don't let

523
00:23:22,920 --> 00:23:24,879
Speaker 3: anybody come in here and tell you, oh, it's going

524
00:23:24,960 --> 00:23:27,200
Speaker 3: to take two years until this thing comes into fruition,

525
00:23:27,480 --> 00:23:29,320
Speaker 3: or you need to wait for this. No.

526
00:23:29,320 --> 00:23:32,000
Speaker 4: No, I was just saying that to her yesterday. I

527
00:23:32,040 --> 00:23:34,359
Speaker 4: was like, I'm not I'm not.

528
00:23:34,760 --> 00:23:38,680
Speaker 3: No, go get it wild And you got a virgo

529
00:23:38,720 --> 00:23:42,639
Speaker 3: too right next to you that she can Their energy

530
00:23:42,680 --> 00:23:44,520
Speaker 3: could be a little bit too much at times because

531
00:23:44,560 --> 00:23:47,560
Speaker 3: you can pick up on the not scatteredness, but the thinking.

532
00:23:48,000 --> 00:23:50,720
Speaker 3: Their mind never shuts off. But they're great motivators to

533
00:23:51,040 --> 00:23:54,080
Speaker 3: be like Chris, Chris Amber, get off your fucking emotional

534
00:23:54,080 --> 00:23:56,960
Speaker 3: asses and go do something. Get up and do something.

535
00:23:57,200 --> 00:24:02,320
Speaker 2: Ah, that's you, Hi, it's funny. So I had scorpio rising.

536
00:24:02,920 --> 00:24:04,200
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, that's a lot.

537
00:24:04,280 --> 00:24:04,440
Speaker 3: Oh.

538
00:24:04,520 --> 00:24:06,680
Speaker 2: The two are in constant conflict with each other.

539
00:24:06,800 --> 00:24:11,040
Speaker 4: I met I had someone tell me that my significant

540
00:24:11,040 --> 00:24:12,880
Speaker 4: other that I need to go. This is like before

541
00:24:12,920 --> 00:24:17,359
Speaker 4: we did the podcast that my partner was going to

542
00:24:17,359 --> 00:24:21,159
Speaker 4: be a virgo. Maybe they met you. Oh my gosh,

543
00:24:21,359 --> 00:24:23,439
Speaker 4: I love It wasn't going to be a man, it

544
00:24:23,480 --> 00:24:24,200
Speaker 4: was going to be you.

545
00:24:25,280 --> 00:24:28,399
Speaker 2: Is that crazy? Yeah? I feel like that is. We

546
00:24:28,720 --> 00:24:33,640
Speaker 2: are partners, You're Soulmatemates come in so many different forms.

547
00:24:33,800 --> 00:24:45,680
Speaker 3: Yeah, now to jump to you, You've got some really

548
00:24:45,680 --> 00:24:47,000
Speaker 3: good stuff coming into play this year.

549
00:24:47,040 --> 00:24:49,080
Speaker 2: As far as tell me more, Chris, I needed to

550
00:24:49,119 --> 00:24:54,200
Speaker 2: hear this. I think when.

551
00:24:52,840 --> 00:24:55,639
Speaker 3: We talk about your identity, I think that with all

552
00:24:55,640 --> 00:24:57,840
Speaker 3: these new opportunities that are coming into play here, you

553
00:24:57,920 --> 00:24:59,600
Speaker 3: got to watch for the pitfall. I said this a

554
00:24:59,600 --> 00:25:02,800
Speaker 3: little bit with her not falling back and repeating old patterns.

555
00:25:02,960 --> 00:25:05,800
Speaker 3: Does that make sense? We went to a Grand fille.

556
00:25:05,880 --> 00:25:08,480
Speaker 3: We had a three hour dinner by ourselves, and I

557
00:25:08,760 --> 00:25:09,720
Speaker 3: fucking loved it.

558
00:25:09,840 --> 00:25:10,879
Speaker 2: I did too. You.

559
00:25:11,080 --> 00:25:13,080
Speaker 3: I told you a lot of things about your career

560
00:25:13,240 --> 00:25:15,320
Speaker 3: and what not to settle for and what to look

561
00:25:15,359 --> 00:25:16,640
Speaker 3: out for and things like that.

562
00:25:16,840 --> 00:25:17,080
Speaker 2: Yep.

563
00:25:17,200 --> 00:25:19,360
Speaker 3: I'm not saying that you're back peddling in any way,

564
00:25:19,359 --> 00:25:22,000
Speaker 3: shape or form. But I think sometimes that you don't.

565
00:25:22,119 --> 00:25:24,960
Speaker 3: Sometimes you don't realize. You realize your beauty and you

566
00:25:25,000 --> 00:25:26,720
Speaker 3: realize the effect that you have on people by what

567
00:25:26,760 --> 00:25:28,720
Speaker 3: you do. But I don't think sometimes you realize your

568
00:25:28,720 --> 00:25:31,000
Speaker 3: own power. And that's also wrong for me to say,

569
00:25:31,000 --> 00:25:33,440
Speaker 3: because I'm not you as powerful as you come across,

570
00:25:33,520 --> 00:25:35,480
Speaker 3: there's still that there's a little bit of that fear

571
00:25:35,480 --> 00:25:37,240
Speaker 3: in there. I need to be everybody. I need to

572
00:25:37,280 --> 00:25:40,560
Speaker 3: be everything to everybody right now. You need to be

573
00:25:40,600 --> 00:25:43,040
Speaker 3: that to yourself and really step into that power. This

574
00:25:43,119 --> 00:25:45,480
Speaker 3: is when we talk about that. We're talking about balance

575
00:25:45,680 --> 00:25:49,200
Speaker 3: in the form of obviously more material success, but also

576
00:25:49,560 --> 00:25:52,840
Speaker 3: in the form of relationships. You need balance. You are

577
00:25:52,880 --> 00:25:55,240
Speaker 3: somebody that when you get involved in a relationship kind

578
00:25:55,240 --> 00:25:57,240
Speaker 3: of like you too that, Yes, it's great to have

579
00:25:57,320 --> 00:25:58,879
Speaker 3: this guy that you're with and you know we're fucking

580
00:25:58,880 --> 00:26:01,000
Speaker 3: we're having a good time here, but you're looking for

581
00:26:01,040 --> 00:26:03,360
Speaker 3: that balance to kind of balance you out as far

582
00:26:03,400 --> 00:26:05,080
Speaker 3: as like, I want to come home to somebody that's

583
00:26:05,119 --> 00:26:07,960
Speaker 3: waiting for me to provide that emotional security, that peace

584
00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:08,280
Speaker 3: of mind.

585
00:26:08,280 --> 00:26:08,440
Speaker 2: There?

586
00:26:08,440 --> 00:26:10,000
Speaker 3: Does that make it somebody that I can also have

587
00:26:10,040 --> 00:26:11,919
Speaker 3: fun with too? But I think it's difficult for you

588
00:26:12,000 --> 00:26:14,440
Speaker 3: sometimes because when you're in that moment and you're with them,

589
00:26:14,720 --> 00:26:16,840
Speaker 3: there's too much going on inside your head that's keeping

590
00:26:16,880 --> 00:26:20,480
Speaker 3: you from being present. Do you think tru bullshit? Don't

591
00:26:20,520 --> 00:26:21,480
Speaker 3: let me say it if it's not true.

592
00:26:21,520 --> 00:26:22,280
Speaker 2: No, it is true.

593
00:26:22,400 --> 00:26:22,639
Speaker 4: I go.

594
00:26:22,760 --> 00:26:24,719
Speaker 2: And that's one of the things this year that I

595
00:26:24,760 --> 00:26:26,800
Speaker 2: was talking to Amber about. I was like, I will

596
00:26:26,840 --> 00:26:30,439
Speaker 2: meet somebody and there I will play this montage in

597
00:26:30,440 --> 00:26:31,960
Speaker 2: my head of like, but I have two kids, and

598
00:26:31,960 --> 00:26:34,200
Speaker 2: when will I have time for them? And oh my god,

599
00:26:34,240 --> 00:26:35,639
Speaker 2: he's so much younger than me, and what if he

600
00:26:35,680 --> 00:26:37,520
Speaker 2: wants kids. I can't give him kids? And oh my gosh,

601
00:26:37,560 --> 00:26:39,200
Speaker 2: I have to work, and if I'm with him then

602
00:26:39,240 --> 00:26:41,959
Speaker 2: I can't work. I'll lose my independent I start suffocating

603
00:26:41,960 --> 00:26:45,439
Speaker 2: myself and drowning. And I'm trying now to be like,

604
00:26:45,760 --> 00:26:49,560
Speaker 2: none of that matters, just have fun and see where

605
00:26:49,600 --> 00:26:50,080
Speaker 2: it goes.

606
00:26:50,280 --> 00:26:52,120
Speaker 3: I'm going to ask you what I asked jat Grandville.

607
00:26:52,200 --> 00:26:53,360
Speaker 3: Do you think you're stupid?

608
00:26:54,000 --> 00:26:57,480
Speaker 2: No? I actually think I'm intelligence. I guess I would's

609
00:26:57,680 --> 00:26:58,160
Speaker 2: who you ask.

610
00:26:58,480 --> 00:27:01,040
Speaker 3: I would never insult your intelligence by calling you stupid.

611
00:27:01,040 --> 00:27:04,320
Speaker 3: I think that you overthink because you think of every scenario,

612
00:27:04,680 --> 00:27:06,639
Speaker 3: not just the one that you're getting yourself involved, but

613
00:27:06,680 --> 00:27:10,560
Speaker 3: you're also thinking for that person you're not thinking about you.

614
00:27:11,240 --> 00:27:14,800
Speaker 3: I've known you for years now, and when we don't

615
00:27:14,840 --> 00:27:16,280
Speaker 3: talk every day on the phone, and we don't hang

616
00:27:16,320 --> 00:27:18,800
Speaker 3: out every day, but when we link up, we fall

617
00:27:18,880 --> 00:27:22,800
Speaker 3: right back to you at all and again with you,

618
00:27:22,880 --> 00:27:24,320
Speaker 3: the way that you come across and the way that

619
00:27:24,359 --> 00:27:26,240
Speaker 3: you are. You need to start realizing that and stop

620
00:27:26,320 --> 00:27:28,880
Speaker 3: thinking for other people. I'm not saying I'm not saying

621
00:27:28,880 --> 00:27:31,080
Speaker 3: you're making decisions for everybody else, but you're playing out

622
00:27:31,080 --> 00:27:32,840
Speaker 3: that montage and that scenario in your head of the

623
00:27:32,840 --> 00:27:34,560
Speaker 3: could as should have been, what if, and not giving

624
00:27:34,560 --> 00:27:36,880
Speaker 3: the relationship or that person the benefit of the doubt,

625
00:27:37,720 --> 00:27:39,840
Speaker 3: because when they see that vulnerable side of you, you

626
00:27:39,920 --> 00:27:42,520
Speaker 3: have to understand something. I'm going to get a lot

627
00:27:42,560 --> 00:27:43,760
Speaker 3: of shit for this, but I have to say this.

628
00:27:44,080 --> 00:27:47,680
Speaker 3: You are a woman, You're a beautiful woman. Stay in

629
00:27:47,720 --> 00:27:49,800
Speaker 3: your lane when it comes to that. I'm not saying

630
00:27:49,880 --> 00:27:51,760
Speaker 3: let this sit in the back seat while he drives.

631
00:27:51,920 --> 00:27:54,280
Speaker 3: I'm saying, let him be the man in the security

632
00:27:54,320 --> 00:27:56,399
Speaker 3: that you need. Don't think for him. And also, you

633
00:27:56,400 --> 00:27:58,199
Speaker 3: don't know if this person wants to have kids or not.

634
00:27:58,480 --> 00:27:59,520
Speaker 3: Your kids might be enough.

635
00:28:00,160 --> 00:28:03,399
Speaker 2: I love everything you're saying, and you're validating a lot

636
00:28:03,520 --> 00:28:07,879
Speaker 2: and I for many years now, I have had to

637
00:28:07,920 --> 00:28:13,960
Speaker 2: be so alpha. I have to go into filming with

638
00:28:14,480 --> 00:28:21,480
Speaker 2: toxic men. I am in rooms trying to further my

639
00:28:21,480 --> 00:28:26,040
Speaker 2: my line, my brand with men, and I have to

640
00:28:26,119 --> 00:28:29,520
Speaker 2: rise to the occasion and the moment I tap into

641
00:28:29,560 --> 00:28:33,919
Speaker 2: my feminine self. Everybody men who I don't give a

642
00:28:33,920 --> 00:28:37,399
Speaker 2: fuck about, love that. Like if I'm quiet and submissive

643
00:28:37,400 --> 00:28:39,960
Speaker 2: and girly. Right, there's no there's no balance, and we

644
00:28:39,960 --> 00:28:44,040
Speaker 2: can all say there we've come so far as women. Truthfully,

645
00:28:44,040 --> 00:28:46,520
Speaker 2: we have not. I think we want to.

646
00:28:46,640 --> 00:28:47,160
Speaker 3: Oh we have not.

647
00:28:48,080 --> 00:28:51,080
Speaker 2: We haven't, and we have no safe space. We're not

648
00:28:51,120 --> 00:28:54,440
Speaker 2: safe amongst each other. We're not safe with men. And

649
00:28:54,440 --> 00:28:56,680
Speaker 2: that's such a blanketed statement because I am safe with

650
00:28:56,720 --> 00:28:58,280
Speaker 2: a lot of my girlfriends, and I have been safe

651
00:28:58,280 --> 00:29:01,520
Speaker 2: with men, but in the old overall, I have to

652
00:29:01,640 --> 00:29:05,160
Speaker 2: rise to the occasion and I have to be a provider.

653
00:29:05,520 --> 00:29:08,479
Speaker 2: I have to play mom and dad, a disciplinarian. I

654
00:29:08,560 --> 00:29:11,760
Speaker 2: am begging And you actually said this to me. You're like,

655
00:29:11,840 --> 00:29:13,720
Speaker 2: you talk about not You're the one that called me

656
00:29:13,760 --> 00:29:15,280
Speaker 2: out on this shit. I was like, I don't want

657
00:29:15,320 --> 00:29:17,840
Speaker 2: a man. I'm good, I have peace, and he's like,

658
00:29:17,960 --> 00:29:23,240
Speaker 2: you're afraid. You're afraid of all of these things. And I,

659
00:29:23,280 --> 00:29:24,880
Speaker 2: for the first time after you said that, I was like,

660
00:29:24,920 --> 00:29:28,240
Speaker 2: I have to stop. I have to admit that I

661
00:29:28,280 --> 00:29:32,080
Speaker 2: have abandonment issues. I'm afraid of rejection. I'm afraid of

662
00:29:32,200 --> 00:29:36,240
Speaker 2: my heart being hurt again. And if I can't allow

663
00:29:36,280 --> 00:29:40,240
Speaker 2: those things, then I will never open myself up to

664
00:29:40,320 --> 00:29:42,400
Speaker 2: actually what I truly want. And even though I don't

665
00:29:42,400 --> 00:29:44,520
Speaker 2: want to get married with a piece of paper, I

666
00:29:44,560 --> 00:29:48,960
Speaker 2: want companionship. I thrive with a partner, and I am

667
00:29:49,040 --> 00:29:52,560
Speaker 2: dying to tap into my female energy. Well. I want

668
00:29:52,560 --> 00:29:55,520
Speaker 2: to come home and fucking melt into someone.

669
00:29:55,720 --> 00:29:58,800
Speaker 3: Yes, it's not your looks holding you back or your

670
00:29:58,840 --> 00:30:02,000
Speaker 3: attitude in that way, it's how you present yourself from

671
00:30:02,040 --> 00:30:03,920
Speaker 3: within out I have.

672
00:30:04,000 --> 00:30:08,320
Speaker 2: I've had to Chris. It's like it's it. I go

673
00:30:08,400 --> 00:30:11,680
Speaker 2: into the world and am unapproachable and have to give

674
00:30:11,800 --> 00:30:15,920
Speaker 2: big dick energy everywhere I go, and that is exhausting.

675
00:30:16,080 --> 00:30:18,560
Speaker 3: That is a mindset that you can get rid of.

676
00:30:18,920 --> 00:30:20,840
Speaker 3: And I will back you up when we talk about

677
00:30:20,880 --> 00:30:22,360
Speaker 3: females not backing females up.

678
00:30:22,360 --> 00:30:22,520
Speaker 4: I was.

679
00:30:22,560 --> 00:30:24,400
Speaker 3: If you look at the early stages of my career,

680
00:30:24,560 --> 00:30:27,600
Speaker 3: I was all about the community, you know, female empowerment.

681
00:30:27,920 --> 00:30:30,720
Speaker 3: Latino writes this and this and that or whatever. What

682
00:30:30,800 --> 00:30:32,680
Speaker 3: I come to learn in those type of environments is

683
00:30:32,680 --> 00:30:35,280
Speaker 3: at the minute that somebody starts thinking ahead or gets

684
00:30:35,320 --> 00:30:38,640
Speaker 3: an opportunity, that's where all the backbiting starts. We're no

685
00:30:38,720 --> 00:30:41,160
Speaker 3: longer friends. Lalla is a bitch because she got this here.

686
00:30:41,200 --> 00:30:42,640
Speaker 3: Now she's turning her back on us and all this

687
00:30:42,760 --> 00:30:45,800
Speaker 3: other stuff. There's no And then when it comes to relationships,

688
00:30:45,800 --> 00:30:47,240
Speaker 3: I just was at a party not too long ago

689
00:30:47,320 --> 00:30:49,400
Speaker 3: where I was reading somebody and I was saying, you're

690
00:30:49,520 --> 00:30:52,760
Speaker 3: not like so and so. You want to you want

691
00:30:52,760 --> 00:30:55,360
Speaker 3: to be taken care of in a relationship. I'm not

692
00:30:55,440 --> 00:30:58,400
Speaker 3: saying like a baby or like a like a somebody

693
00:30:58,400 --> 00:31:00,240
Speaker 3: that doesn't doesn't want to do anything. You want to

694
00:31:00,240 --> 00:31:01,719
Speaker 3: be a stay at home mom and a stay at

695
00:31:01,720 --> 00:31:06,280
Speaker 3: home life. What's wrong with that? Nothing exactly, but society

696
00:31:06,400 --> 00:31:09,560
Speaker 3: paints it as well. You set women back a hundred years.

697
00:31:10,080 --> 00:31:11,840
Speaker 3: Shut the fuck up, and don't look at what I'm doing.

698
00:31:11,880 --> 00:31:15,160
Speaker 3: If it's if it doesn't, if it doesn't please you.

699
00:31:15,160 --> 00:31:17,400
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying now, That's why I'm not

700
00:31:17,400 --> 00:31:19,440
Speaker 3: just saying this about woman. I'm saying about everybody in general.

701
00:31:19,680 --> 00:31:23,080
Speaker 3: Gaze everybody. It's all. It's all fine until someone starts

702
00:31:23,080 --> 00:31:25,080
Speaker 3: thinking outside the box and wants to do wants to

703
00:31:25,080 --> 00:31:27,960
Speaker 3: go in their own direction. So with you again, I

704
00:31:27,960 --> 00:31:31,200
Speaker 3: don't think that you should tone down your sense of humor.

705
00:31:31,240 --> 00:31:32,600
Speaker 3: I think that's a big part of who you are,

706
00:31:32,600 --> 00:31:34,680
Speaker 3: and I think that's where you will thrive in a

707
00:31:34,720 --> 00:31:37,120
Speaker 3: relationship because you need somebody that's going to give it

708
00:31:37,160 --> 00:31:38,920
Speaker 3: to you just as good as you give it, and

709
00:31:38,960 --> 00:31:41,520
Speaker 3: not point their finger in your face and make you

710
00:31:41,560 --> 00:31:43,800
Speaker 3: feel some type of way. Because you're spiraling with that

711
00:31:43,880 --> 00:31:47,320
Speaker 3: virgo energy. You need someone that's gonna say, sit down

712
00:31:47,360 --> 00:31:50,200
Speaker 3: for a second, just right next to me, Not sit

713
00:31:50,280 --> 00:31:52,800
Speaker 3: the fuck down and calm down here, but sit down,

714
00:31:53,800 --> 00:31:56,680
Speaker 3: I can feel you and you once you start, once

715
00:31:57,040 --> 00:32:00,800
Speaker 3: you once they start gaining your trust, not you gaining

716
00:32:00,880 --> 00:32:03,320
Speaker 3: their trust, but them gaining your trust, and you start

717
00:32:03,360 --> 00:32:05,440
Speaker 3: to realize they're not going to use this shit against me.

718
00:32:05,600 --> 00:32:07,080
Speaker 3: They're not going to make me feel some type of

719
00:32:07,080 --> 00:32:09,080
Speaker 3: way or just say these certain things speak just for

720
00:32:09,120 --> 00:32:11,160
Speaker 3: the sake of saying it. Here, They're saying it because

721
00:32:11,160 --> 00:32:14,160
Speaker 3: they mean it. You have to learn that. Yeah, that's

722
00:32:14,200 --> 00:32:16,040
Speaker 3: what's going to save you in a relationship. That's where

723
00:32:16,040 --> 00:32:16,920
Speaker 3: you lose yourself.

724
00:32:17,120 --> 00:32:23,200
Speaker 2: Yeah, you still see more children in my future? Yes, solo.

725
00:32:24,160 --> 00:32:26,800
Speaker 3: I knew. I knew you were going to ask that,

726
00:32:26,880 --> 00:32:28,760
Speaker 3: And I want to say as much as I want

727
00:32:28,800 --> 00:32:30,920
Speaker 3: to say not solo here, that's totally up to you

728
00:32:31,200 --> 00:32:33,200
Speaker 3: because I think that again, it's wrong for me to

729
00:32:33,200 --> 00:32:34,479
Speaker 3: say this. I don't have to live your life here,

730
00:32:34,520 --> 00:32:37,080
Speaker 3: but I think that you should have a child with

731
00:32:37,120 --> 00:32:38,360
Speaker 3: a man that you're in love with. And if you

732
00:32:38,360 --> 00:32:41,240
Speaker 3: don't want to get married, you don't have to get married. Yeah,

733
00:32:41,320 --> 00:32:44,680
Speaker 3: no one's saying that shit. Your excuse is we've already

734
00:32:44,720 --> 00:32:46,240
Speaker 3: been there, done that. We don't want to rock the boat.

735
00:32:46,320 --> 00:32:51,040
Speaker 3: Leave us the fuck alone, stop asking us. Simple Yeah,

736
00:32:51,080 --> 00:32:52,880
Speaker 3: but I'd love to see you in a relationship with

737
00:32:52,920 --> 00:32:56,880
Speaker 3: somebody that makes you, that changes your identity in a

738
00:32:56,880 --> 00:33:00,160
Speaker 3: better way, not because they're changing it for themselves, but

739
00:33:00,200 --> 00:33:03,440
Speaker 3: because my girl's happy. One lessing for her to worry about.

740
00:33:03,440 --> 00:33:05,320
Speaker 3: There's no bullshit when she comes home. She she knows

741
00:33:05,360 --> 00:33:07,840
Speaker 3: that there's somebody there to have her back. Same thing

742
00:33:07,840 --> 00:33:10,080
Speaker 3: with you and I. You always know you can come

743
00:33:10,080 --> 00:33:12,520
Speaker 3: to me. I'll never fucking I'll never turn my back

744
00:33:12,520 --> 00:33:14,239
Speaker 3: on you or tell your secrets or sell you out

745
00:33:14,240 --> 00:33:15,680
Speaker 3: in any way, shape or form. You can come to

746
00:33:15,720 --> 00:33:17,640
Speaker 3: me with anything, and I'll back you up. I'm going

747
00:33:17,720 --> 00:33:19,240
Speaker 3: to tell you the truth. And I think again this

748
00:33:19,320 --> 00:33:21,320
Speaker 3: year for you as far as like, if we're going

749
00:33:21,360 --> 00:33:23,840
Speaker 3: to use astrology, you've got that moon and Aquarius right.

750
00:33:24,560 --> 00:33:27,280
Speaker 3: The nodes start shifting this year in July out of

751
00:33:27,400 --> 00:33:29,240
Speaker 3: Pisces and Virgo, which has been a pain in the

752
00:33:29,240 --> 00:33:32,480
Speaker 3: ass for you and I and going into an air

753
00:33:32,640 --> 00:33:36,000
Speaker 3: and going into fire and air. So this is detaching

754
00:33:36,080 --> 00:33:39,160
Speaker 3: that this is a good time to start working on

755
00:33:39,200 --> 00:33:42,520
Speaker 3: some of that Aquaring energy where you're not where you're

756
00:33:42,560 --> 00:33:44,360
Speaker 3: leaning into it. I think, you know, letting some of

757
00:33:44,400 --> 00:33:47,280
Speaker 3: that Virgo energy dissipate just a little bit, stop being

758
00:33:47,280 --> 00:33:50,040
Speaker 3: so neurotic an OCD and overthinking and letting some of

759
00:33:50,040 --> 00:33:52,880
Speaker 3: this aquarian air come in here and opening the windows

760
00:33:52,880 --> 00:33:55,480
Speaker 3: of your mind and letting the dust out and really

761
00:33:55,560 --> 00:33:58,240
Speaker 3: starting to fill yourself. Okay, that's a good look for you.

762
00:33:58,280 --> 00:33:59,960
Speaker 3: And then you got that if you've got that scorpio

763
00:34:00,120 --> 00:34:02,680
Speaker 3: rising too. I mean, it hasn't been it hasn't been

764
00:34:02,680 --> 00:34:03,960
Speaker 3: good for you over the last couple of years as

765
00:34:04,000 --> 00:34:06,680
Speaker 3: far as like, emotionally and physically, as much as you're

766
00:34:06,680 --> 00:34:08,400
Speaker 3: trying to, you know, evolve and do all this stuff,

767
00:34:08,440 --> 00:34:10,960
Speaker 3: the energy has been too heavy for you. Right, So

768
00:34:11,040 --> 00:34:12,920
Speaker 3: look forward to some We're coming in here and loosening

769
00:34:13,000 --> 00:34:13,560
Speaker 3: some shit up.

770
00:34:14,000 --> 00:34:17,000
Speaker 2: You think I'll find love this year? Not my ear?

771
00:34:17,440 --> 00:34:20,399
Speaker 3: Yeah? No, are you.

772
00:34:20,360 --> 00:34:22,839
Speaker 2: Saying that because I'm looking at his face?

773
00:34:22,920 --> 00:34:25,760
Speaker 3: No, it's not, because because I'm thinking of the potential

774
00:34:25,760 --> 00:34:28,879
Speaker 3: people that will come in here. Okay this year as

775
00:34:28,880 --> 00:34:31,720
Speaker 3: far as like, uh, when we talk about her lessons

776
00:34:31,719 --> 00:34:33,920
Speaker 3: and her coming into her power, we're talking about guys

777
00:34:33,920 --> 00:34:36,240
Speaker 3: coming in here stepping it up. And if they're younger,

778
00:34:36,880 --> 00:34:38,319
Speaker 3: I'm going to get a lot of ship for this too.

779
00:34:38,560 --> 00:34:40,440
Speaker 3: They're moldible, oh.

780
00:34:40,400 --> 00:34:42,719
Speaker 2: Aims, So honey, give me.

781
00:34:44,000 --> 00:34:47,080
Speaker 3: We're not manipulating them. They're just not as seasoned as

782
00:34:47,120 --> 00:34:51,719
Speaker 3: some of the older people would get baggage exactly exactly,

783
00:34:51,800 --> 00:34:55,200
Speaker 3: and you can use that energy to to brighten yourself up.

784
00:34:55,760 --> 00:34:57,680
Speaker 2: There was a guy the other day, not to take

785
00:34:57,719 --> 00:35:02,000
Speaker 2: this to a I love place, but we were talking

786
00:35:02,040 --> 00:35:04,920
Speaker 2: about sex and I talked about toys and he goes, wait, there,

787
00:35:05,080 --> 00:35:07,960
Speaker 2: you can use toys on guys. And I was like, oh, honey,

788
00:35:08,920 --> 00:35:10,480
Speaker 2: oot to fucking rock your world.

789
00:35:10,520 --> 00:35:13,880
Speaker 3: Bro, where's Chris Medina?

790
00:35:14,000 --> 00:35:15,840
Speaker 2: Oh my god, is this a real question? Like No,

791
00:35:15,920 --> 00:35:19,359
Speaker 2: I feel like I'm like maybe tainting a bit. Wait

792
00:35:19,400 --> 00:35:23,279
Speaker 2: were you texting? No, we were on FaceTime. Oh I know.

793
00:35:23,400 --> 00:35:27,400
Speaker 2: It was very cute. Last thing, finances. Should I be

794
00:35:27,440 --> 00:35:31,560
Speaker 2: pulling back? Should I be? Do you see me? I

795
00:35:31,560 --> 00:35:34,200
Speaker 2: mean not that I'm out here blowing cash obviously, but

796
00:35:34,239 --> 00:35:36,560
Speaker 2: I'm just you know, a new year.

797
00:35:37,600 --> 00:35:40,040
Speaker 3: I'd like to see where you're at with your financial

798
00:35:40,080 --> 00:35:43,280
Speaker 3: situation by April of this year. Completely separate from hers.

799
00:35:43,560 --> 00:35:45,040
Speaker 3: This is not if you guys do a joint and

800
00:35:45,080 --> 00:35:47,840
Speaker 3: that's great or whatever, but always separate. Yeah, I'm talking.

801
00:35:47,840 --> 00:35:51,440
Speaker 2: We've both been we know how, we know how to

802
00:35:51,480 --> 00:35:51,920
Speaker 2: do things.

803
00:35:52,080 --> 00:35:55,759
Speaker 3: Yeah, remember those what we talked about at Granville when

804
00:35:55,760 --> 00:35:57,880
Speaker 3: we were talking about your career and not going backwards,

805
00:35:57,880 --> 00:36:00,000
Speaker 3: and you know, you know, you know, I'm going Yeah,

806
00:36:00,320 --> 00:36:01,799
Speaker 3: I just want to make sure that again that when

807
00:36:01,840 --> 00:36:04,399
Speaker 3: we talk about moving forward here, that you're actually being

808
00:36:04,440 --> 00:36:06,839
Speaker 3: selective and you're evolving what it is that you want

809
00:36:06,880 --> 00:36:08,959
Speaker 3: to put out there. Does that make sense?

810
00:36:09,080 --> 00:36:11,040
Speaker 2: Yeah, it makes a lot of sense. You.

811
00:36:12,120 --> 00:36:13,560
Speaker 3: I'm gonna say this and it's going to sound like

812
00:36:13,560 --> 00:36:16,240
Speaker 3: a backhanded compliment and I don't mean it to be here,

813
00:36:16,520 --> 00:36:20,960
Speaker 3: but you have so much fucking potential, like you're from

814
00:36:21,040 --> 00:36:24,000
Speaker 3: your attitude to your looks, the way that you carry yourself.

815
00:36:24,239 --> 00:36:25,759
Speaker 3: If you can just let go of some of that

816
00:36:25,840 --> 00:36:29,160
Speaker 3: Virgo energy and not overthink and just be remember, let

817
00:36:29,200 --> 00:36:33,000
Speaker 3: the aquarium moon take over. You've got a hardcore sun

818
00:36:33,120 --> 00:36:35,920
Speaker 3: in Virgo and then you got your rising and Scorpio,

819
00:36:35,960 --> 00:36:38,200
Speaker 3: which is I'm very secretive. I don't want people seeing

820
00:36:38,200 --> 00:36:39,759
Speaker 3: all the cards that I have under here. I have

821
00:36:39,800 --> 00:36:43,120
Speaker 3: to carry myself a certain way. That aquarium moon gets

822
00:36:43,160 --> 00:36:45,920
Speaker 3: lost in there, and that's what you need to detach

823
00:36:45,920 --> 00:36:48,200
Speaker 3: yourself from and start having fun and think outside the

824
00:36:48,200 --> 00:36:51,880
Speaker 3: box and not just put yourself into what La La

825
00:36:51,960 --> 00:36:54,279
Speaker 3: has been over the last five years, where do I

826
00:36:54,320 --> 00:36:56,560
Speaker 3: want to go? How do I want to evolve? Because

827
00:36:56,560 --> 00:36:59,960
Speaker 3: with you again, if you look at your career, you've

828
00:37:00,120 --> 00:37:04,919
Speaker 3: never backslid. No, you've never come tumbling down at all.

829
00:37:05,160 --> 00:37:07,040
Speaker 3: You've kind of been steady, kind of going up. It

830
00:37:07,080 --> 00:37:08,719
Speaker 3: may not be where you want it to be, but

831
00:37:08,800 --> 00:37:13,560
Speaker 3: you've never backslid. You keep going up. Yeah, all that shit, Okay,

832
00:37:14,600 --> 00:37:17,200
Speaker 3: and stop getting inside your fucking head. And also one

833
00:37:17,200 --> 00:37:20,560
Speaker 3: more thing, and that I'm done with that, be somebody

834
00:37:20,560 --> 00:37:23,400
Speaker 3: to yourself rather than wanting to be every everything to

835
00:37:23,480 --> 00:37:27,320
Speaker 3: everybody else, let them fend for themselves. Okay, you know

836
00:37:27,360 --> 00:37:29,480
Speaker 3: what I'm talking about. Yeah, we can talk.

837
00:37:29,560 --> 00:37:31,120
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, Chris.

838
00:37:31,120 --> 00:37:33,000
Speaker 4: I have one more question because I didn't ask about

839
00:37:33,040 --> 00:37:34,839
Speaker 4: the baby thing, and that is.

840
00:37:34,800 --> 00:37:36,759
Speaker 2: Like, I know, I was so shocked that you didn't

841
00:37:36,760 --> 00:37:37,120
Speaker 2: ask that.

842
00:37:37,400 --> 00:37:38,880
Speaker 3: I know you want more kids.

843
00:37:40,040 --> 00:37:44,720
Speaker 2: Do I want more kids? I don't know. I'm like torn.

844
00:37:45,160 --> 00:37:46,280
Speaker 2: I always say It's so funny.

845
00:37:46,320 --> 00:37:49,640
Speaker 4: I always say, like, it depends on my partner and

846
00:37:49,680 --> 00:37:52,640
Speaker 4: if they have kids, right, if I'm dating someone younger

847
00:37:52,640 --> 00:37:55,600
Speaker 4: that hasn't had kids and they want and like sure,

848
00:37:56,320 --> 00:37:58,919
Speaker 4: But then if I think about it, I'm like, well,

849
00:37:59,040 --> 00:38:02,120
Speaker 4: do I want kids? Or am I just giving myself

850
00:38:02,239 --> 00:38:03,080
Speaker 4: again to someone?

851
00:38:03,480 --> 00:38:05,160
Speaker 3: So you're not in a relationship right now?

852
00:38:05,239 --> 00:38:07,520
Speaker 2: No, do you see me in a relationship? When am

853
00:38:07,560 --> 00:38:09,200
Speaker 2: I getting married before me?

854
00:38:10,480 --> 00:38:12,200
Speaker 3: Well, she's like twelve.

855
00:38:13,760 --> 00:38:15,879
Speaker 2: In twelve relationships, but I have dated a lot.

856
00:38:16,200 --> 00:38:21,080
Speaker 3: Yeah, she's coming into a different cycle of her life

857
00:38:21,080 --> 00:38:23,799
Speaker 3: when it comes to power and from within out. Does

858
00:38:23,840 --> 00:38:26,440
Speaker 3: that make sense, Like she's I'm not saying that you've

859
00:38:26,480 --> 00:38:28,600
Speaker 3: hidden yourself, but I think that you've done a lot

860
00:38:28,600 --> 00:38:36,200
Speaker 3: of uh self defense mechanisms to keep yourself. Yeah, to

861
00:38:36,280 --> 00:38:38,040
Speaker 3: keep yourself in the middle so much, you know what

862
00:38:38,080 --> 00:38:41,680
Speaker 3: I'm saying. But for you, when it comes to relationships,

863
00:38:42,200 --> 00:38:44,240
Speaker 3: you need to learn what it's like to allow yourself

864
00:38:44,239 --> 00:38:48,080
Speaker 3: to receive. Does that make sense? When I talk about receive,

865
00:38:48,200 --> 00:38:51,160
Speaker 3: I'm talking about making sure that you're not becoming the

866
00:38:51,400 --> 00:38:53,600
Speaker 3: man and the woman in the relationship, that you're allowing

867
00:38:53,640 --> 00:38:55,480
Speaker 3: yourself to let this person show you what they can

868
00:38:55,560 --> 00:38:57,160
Speaker 3: do and how they can take care of you in

869
00:38:57,200 --> 00:38:58,200
Speaker 3: a stable way.

870
00:38:58,560 --> 00:39:00,600
Speaker 2: Yeah. You know what, All the guys you bring in

871
00:39:00,640 --> 00:39:06,560
Speaker 2: are fucking weird, really, Yeah, yeah, weird. I just feel

872
00:39:06,600 --> 00:39:08,360
Speaker 2: like they come into your life and they kind of

873
00:39:08,400 --> 00:39:10,719
Speaker 2: like put down the rules of how it's gonna be

874
00:39:10,880 --> 00:39:13,440
Speaker 2: and then you kind of have to you have to,

875
00:39:13,680 --> 00:39:19,160
Speaker 2: you know, steer the ship. And they're just weird. They're like,

876
00:39:19,280 --> 00:39:23,000
Speaker 2: I like, I'm in my routine. You know, this is

877
00:39:23,040 --> 00:39:25,640
Speaker 2: like very specific, but like I'm in my routine. So

878
00:39:25,680 --> 00:39:27,800
Speaker 2: I can see you after seven because I have dinner

879
00:39:27,840 --> 00:39:29,839
Speaker 2: at this time, and so that's when you can come over.

880
00:39:30,239 --> 00:39:34,040
Speaker 2: And so you kind of you fall into which is

881
00:39:34,080 --> 00:39:37,279
Speaker 2: weird because I don't see you. I see you as

882
00:39:37,400 --> 00:39:40,640
Speaker 2: very feminine and amazing and beautiful and sexy, but you

883
00:39:40,760 --> 00:39:43,320
Speaker 2: take on this like big dick energy of like steering

884
00:39:43,360 --> 00:39:45,400
Speaker 2: the ship where they're they're like little bitch boys.

885
00:39:45,560 --> 00:39:49,520
Speaker 3: Yeah they're men, They're they're boys dressed in men's clothes. Yeah.

886
00:39:50,480 --> 00:39:53,320
Speaker 2: Yeah, I guess because I tend to day older. But

887
00:39:53,560 --> 00:39:56,720
Speaker 2: they're like little boys. But they look like they're dying.

888
00:39:56,880 --> 00:40:00,800
Speaker 2: But they just but you know what, lately, it's not lately.

889
00:40:01,880 --> 00:40:04,520
Speaker 4: And I said this in the last podcast, I'm like

890
00:40:04,920 --> 00:40:08,719
Speaker 4: now going out on dates with men my age, yeah

891
00:40:08,760 --> 00:40:10,040
Speaker 4: and younger and younger.

892
00:40:10,400 --> 00:40:14,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, you need to have actually pick her up to fuck.

893
00:40:14,280 --> 00:40:17,080
Speaker 3: Oh good yeah, and not fall over and break up. Head.

894
00:40:17,320 --> 00:40:21,480
Speaker 2: That's like you just said, but it's.

895
00:40:21,360 --> 00:40:24,799
Speaker 3: Good for you because it teaches you to stay in

896
00:40:24,840 --> 00:40:26,560
Speaker 3: your lane. And I'm gonna get shipped for this, but

897
00:40:26,600 --> 00:40:27,880
Speaker 3: I have to say this in people. I hope you

898
00:40:27,920 --> 00:40:31,000
Speaker 3: know where I'm coming from as a woman. But your

899
00:40:31,120 --> 00:40:34,840
Speaker 3: thing is that when you meet somebody, because you're instantly

900
00:40:34,880 --> 00:40:37,360
Speaker 3: trying to read them and you're picking up on their energy,

901
00:40:37,560 --> 00:40:40,800
Speaker 3: it takes over the way that that you represent yourself,

902
00:40:40,880 --> 00:40:44,000
Speaker 3: So you're misrepresenting yourself as somebody that you're not based

903
00:40:44,000 --> 00:40:46,080
Speaker 3: off what you're getting from it. It's not you being fake,

904
00:40:46,640 --> 00:40:48,959
Speaker 3: totally different. And I know where you're coming from because

905
00:40:49,000 --> 00:40:51,400
Speaker 3: I do the same thing. So can you imagine me

906
00:40:51,440 --> 00:40:54,319
Speaker 3: going on a date and my guide saying, don't use

907
00:40:54,320 --> 00:40:57,080
Speaker 3: your psychic energy to read this person, and I have

908
00:40:57,120 --> 00:40:59,200
Speaker 3: to distract myself with other shit while I'm having a

909
00:40:59,200 --> 00:41:01,239
Speaker 3: conversation with him, so I don't pick up on it.

910
00:41:01,520 --> 00:41:03,239
Speaker 3: You got to learn that as well, So do not

911
00:41:03,480 --> 00:41:06,720
Speaker 3: merge into their lanes, stay in yours, and allow yourself

912
00:41:06,760 --> 00:41:09,319
Speaker 3: the opportunity to receive what you need to receive, which

913
00:41:09,360 --> 00:41:12,920
Speaker 3: is a real man coming in here, providing security, comfort

914
00:41:12,960 --> 00:41:15,399
Speaker 3: and peace of mind in the relationship. Like I told her,

915
00:41:15,680 --> 00:41:18,080
Speaker 3: gaining your trust so you know they're not fucking dumb.

916
00:41:18,200 --> 00:41:20,400
Speaker 3: You know that you're not going to be raising a

917
00:41:20,440 --> 00:41:22,800
Speaker 3: boy into a man. You already have enough kids. You

918
00:41:22,800 --> 00:41:25,719
Speaker 3: don't need another one in your fucking house. No, yeah,

919
00:41:25,800 --> 00:41:28,279
Speaker 3: so don't. So again, don't misrepresent yourself in that way,

920
00:41:28,320 --> 00:41:30,040
Speaker 3: because at the end of the day, I'm not saying

921
00:41:30,040 --> 00:41:32,040
Speaker 3: that you want to be whisked away like Julia Roberts,

922
00:41:32,080 --> 00:41:34,080
Speaker 3: but you do want somebody to put you on a pedestal,

923
00:41:34,160 --> 00:41:35,640
Speaker 3: and you do want to be baby, and you do

924
00:41:35,680 --> 00:41:37,040
Speaker 3: want to be cared for in that way.

925
00:41:37,600 --> 00:41:41,440
Speaker 2: Yeah I do, Yes, yes, you do exactly.

926
00:41:41,600 --> 00:41:43,719
Speaker 3: You deserve it because what you will do back in

927
00:41:43,800 --> 00:41:46,279
Speaker 3: return is go one hundred times above and beyond for

928
00:41:46,320 --> 00:41:49,600
Speaker 3: that person when you are in a relationship that you

929
00:41:49,680 --> 00:41:52,600
Speaker 3: are loyal. Kidsters are loyal to a fault.

930
00:41:52,280 --> 00:41:54,239
Speaker 2: Sometimes, Oh we all know that.

931
00:41:54,719 --> 00:41:59,279
Speaker 3: Yeah, so again, represent yourself in the right light this year,

932
00:41:59,280 --> 00:42:01,200
Speaker 3: and go after what it is that you truly want.

933
00:42:01,280 --> 00:42:03,160
Speaker 3: You've been putting yourself on the back burner for way

934
00:42:03,200 --> 00:42:07,239
Speaker 3: too fucking long life, and especially with opportunities that are

935
00:42:07,280 --> 00:42:09,799
Speaker 3: coming in Okay you have. You have a really good

936
00:42:09,800 --> 00:42:12,279
Speaker 3: opportunity over the next year and a half to reinvent

937
00:42:12,320 --> 00:42:14,520
Speaker 3: yourself into somebody completely different. Here's where I'm going to

938
00:42:14,560 --> 00:42:16,680
Speaker 3: give it to you. You caught kids that look up

939
00:42:16,719 --> 00:42:21,279
Speaker 3: to you, set that example for them. You're beautiful, you're young,

940
00:42:21,480 --> 00:42:22,840
Speaker 3: You've got a lot, a lot of great things to

941
00:42:22,880 --> 00:42:24,560
Speaker 3: look forward to. Take advantage of it.

942
00:42:25,080 --> 00:42:27,440
Speaker 2: Thank you. Amen. Amen.

943
00:42:36,600 --> 00:42:39,279
Speaker 3: I love the way that she looks too. She's she's even,

944
00:42:39,400 --> 00:42:42,440
Speaker 3: she's you're still reading what you're still reading?

945
00:42:42,719 --> 00:42:46,799
Speaker 2: Yeah? Yeah, I'm reading the energy everything you're saying. As

946
00:42:46,840 --> 00:42:49,560
Speaker 2: he's talking, I'm playing a montage of every single thing

947
00:42:49,640 --> 00:42:52,040
Speaker 2: that we've talked about. And I'm like, oh, yes, right.

948
00:42:51,960 --> 00:42:54,160
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm gonna say this to you because this is

949
00:42:54,200 --> 00:42:56,400
Speaker 3: what this is what they're telling me to tell you.

950
00:42:56,440 --> 00:43:01,000
Speaker 3: Look for power moves this year for yourself. When I

951
00:43:01,080 --> 00:43:05,040
Speaker 3: talk about power moves, I'm talking about bigger moves in

952
00:43:05,120 --> 00:43:08,279
Speaker 3: the form of business opportunities. Does that make sense?

953
00:43:08,719 --> 00:43:09,759
Speaker 2: Fucking dead right now?

954
00:43:09,800 --> 00:43:12,080
Speaker 3: But hold on a second. But this is this is

955
00:43:12,440 --> 00:43:15,799
Speaker 3: you need to upgrade your mindset in your business. Does

956
00:43:15,840 --> 00:43:18,880
Speaker 3: that make sense? I don't know why. And I have

957
00:43:18,880 --> 00:43:20,479
Speaker 3: a huge problem with this shit here because I would

958
00:43:20,480 --> 00:43:23,239
Speaker 3: be an excellent agent or a manager. I don't know

959
00:43:23,280 --> 00:43:26,840
Speaker 3: why they haven't come in here and fucking switched things up.

960
00:43:26,880 --> 00:43:29,120
Speaker 3: For you, because I think that you're more ready than

961
00:43:29,160 --> 00:43:30,879
Speaker 3: you realize. And one of the things I like about

962
00:43:30,920 --> 00:43:32,480
Speaker 3: you is that as much as you can bitch and

963
00:43:32,520 --> 00:43:35,759
Speaker 3: complain about all these juggling all these things here, if

964
00:43:35,800 --> 00:43:37,319
Speaker 3: you didn't have that much to juggle and you had

965
00:43:37,360 --> 00:43:38,840
Speaker 3: more time on your hands, you wouldn't know what to

966
00:43:38,880 --> 00:43:39,360
Speaker 3: do with yourself.

967
00:43:39,600 --> 00:43:40,720
Speaker 2: You're so right, Chris.

968
00:43:40,760 --> 00:43:42,840
Speaker 3: So you are somebody. As much as you want to

969
00:43:42,880 --> 00:43:46,120
Speaker 3: talk shit, you can handle shit under pressure. I can

970
00:43:46,120 --> 00:43:48,040
Speaker 3: throw two more things that you You're gonna give me

971
00:43:48,080 --> 00:43:50,439
Speaker 3: that fucking side. I like you, dumb bitch, but let's

972
00:43:50,440 --> 00:43:52,120
Speaker 3: be truthful. Are you going to drop that stuff?

973
00:43:52,200 --> 00:43:54,440
Speaker 2: No? No, we're just talking about this like scheduling.

974
00:43:54,600 --> 00:43:58,240
Speaker 3: Get ready. I'm telling you get ready for major moves.

975
00:43:57,920 --> 00:44:02,520
Speaker 2: I'm ready and I have. I've been having many conversations

976
00:44:02,600 --> 00:44:05,840
Speaker 2: and I have said I'm done being a fucking sellout.

977
00:44:06,160 --> 00:44:08,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, I know, I wouldn't say something.

978
00:44:08,480 --> 00:44:10,399
Speaker 2: This is what my head is, you know my mind.

979
00:44:10,920 --> 00:44:13,680
Speaker 2: This is how my mind works. Even though people may

980
00:44:13,719 --> 00:44:17,000
Speaker 2: not think that these are things I tell myself. Yes,

981
00:44:17,280 --> 00:44:19,840
Speaker 2: that may be good money, but let's look at the

982
00:44:19,880 --> 00:44:23,160
Speaker 2: bigger picture. Where will it get me? I am looking

983
00:44:23,239 --> 00:44:25,399
Speaker 2: for a setup that we start now, that is going

984
00:44:25,440 --> 00:44:27,399
Speaker 2: to carry me on throughout my life that I can

985
00:44:27,440 --> 00:44:31,360
Speaker 2: pass down to my children, my children's children and beyond.

986
00:44:31,440 --> 00:44:34,520
Speaker 2: It's not a very quick no. This is the year

987
00:44:34,520 --> 00:44:36,680
Speaker 2: where I'm like, it's gonna take a lot of hard

988
00:44:36,719 --> 00:44:39,640
Speaker 2: work and it's gonna take time. If we don't start now,

989
00:44:39,880 --> 00:44:40,600
Speaker 2: we are fucked.

990
00:44:40,719 --> 00:44:43,200
Speaker 3: But here's where you go wrong and slap the fuck

991
00:44:43,200 --> 00:44:44,319
Speaker 3: out of me for this one. Are you ready?

992
00:44:44,400 --> 00:44:44,960
Speaker 2: Yeah? I'm ready.

993
00:44:45,000 --> 00:44:48,640
Speaker 3: You tone yourself down after you read the room? Does

994
00:44:48,640 --> 00:44:50,640
Speaker 3: that make sense? You you need to want?

995
00:44:50,760 --> 00:44:52,680
Speaker 2: You think I explode and then I read the room

996
00:44:52,719 --> 00:44:55,160
Speaker 2: of everybody and go, But but everything's fine.

997
00:44:55,160 --> 00:44:57,360
Speaker 3: You think that you're amped up and you know what

998
00:44:57,480 --> 00:44:59,319
Speaker 3: needs to be done. Yeah, back me up if I'm wrong.

999
00:44:59,560 --> 00:45:02,560
Speaker 3: If I'm wrong, talk shit. You're amped up and you're

1000
00:45:02,560 --> 00:45:04,080
Speaker 3: ready to fucking go. But when you get in the

1001
00:45:04,160 --> 00:45:06,520
Speaker 3: room and you get there, you start to see everybody

1002
00:45:06,600 --> 00:45:09,040
Speaker 3: and you don't turn pussy. I'm not saying that. I'm

1003
00:45:09,080 --> 00:45:12,080
Speaker 3: just saying that you tone down the attitude there and

1004
00:45:12,120 --> 00:45:14,080
Speaker 3: you take some of that heat and that fiery that

1005
00:45:14,120 --> 00:45:15,439
Speaker 3: needs to be it.

1006
00:45:15,840 --> 00:45:19,000
Speaker 2: And that's what I'm saying, Chris, is I compromise my

1007
00:45:19,160 --> 00:45:22,320
Speaker 2: own fucking boundaries for the sake of making other people

1008
00:45:22,320 --> 00:45:24,720
Speaker 2: feel good. So I will say exactly how I'm feeling,

1009
00:45:24,960 --> 00:45:27,759
Speaker 2: and if they feel like, oh my gosh, then I

1010
00:45:27,800 --> 00:45:30,319
Speaker 2: really not responded. I'm sorry I responded that way. I'm

1011
00:45:30,360 --> 00:45:32,360
Speaker 2: just saying this, and then I try to make it

1012
00:45:32,400 --> 00:45:34,400
Speaker 2: all okay, and it's like, no, I meant what I said.

1013
00:45:34,440 --> 00:45:37,400
Speaker 2: If you feel uncomfortable, not a me issue, that's.

1014
00:45:37,200 --> 00:45:40,680
Speaker 3: A you issue exactly, and own that shit, because anybody

1015
00:45:40,680 --> 00:45:43,000
Speaker 3: that truly knows who the fuck you are know you're

1016
00:45:43,040 --> 00:45:44,520
Speaker 3: not gonna go out there and just make shit up

1017
00:45:44,560 --> 00:45:46,200
Speaker 3: for the sake of making shit up. We're trying to

1018
00:45:46,239 --> 00:45:49,040
Speaker 3: hurt somebody's fucking feelings. But you, because of your integrity

1019
00:45:49,080 --> 00:45:50,799
Speaker 3: and the way that you think for everybody else, it

1020
00:45:50,880 --> 00:45:53,000
Speaker 3: falls on your shoulders in the form of guilt or

1021
00:45:53,239 --> 00:45:55,319
Speaker 3: I need to hold back. Stop that shit. That's what

1022
00:45:55,360 --> 00:45:57,320
Speaker 3: people can count on. And that's why I'm telling you.

1023
00:45:57,400 --> 00:45:58,200
Speaker 3: I don't know why I'm.

1024
00:45:58,080 --> 00:45:58,680
Speaker 2: Yet like but.

1025
00:46:00,880 --> 00:46:05,080
Speaker 3: You but you uh you uh you don't. You don't

1026
00:46:05,120 --> 00:46:07,959
Speaker 3: realize the way that you come across and you're gonna

1027
00:46:08,000 --> 00:46:10,360
Speaker 3: You're gonna die. When I say this, I always tell people,

1028
00:46:10,560 --> 00:46:13,399
Speaker 3: if I was straight, I would totally hook up a lalla.

1029
00:46:14,120 --> 00:46:16,080
Speaker 2: She is nice because there's.

1030
00:46:15,920 --> 00:46:18,880
Speaker 3: The way that you come in. She came, she came

1031
00:46:18,920 --> 00:46:22,319
Speaker 3: to Grandville, and this bitch was in sweats, cut as fuck,

1032
00:46:22,840 --> 00:46:25,400
Speaker 3: came in sweats but no makeup on.

1033
00:46:26,760 --> 00:46:29,400
Speaker 2: Looked absolutely beautiful, gorgeous, gorgeous.

1034
00:46:29,440 --> 00:46:30,480
Speaker 3: And you need to stop.

1035
00:46:31,719 --> 00:46:33,840
Speaker 2: Forever, stop toning yourself down.

1036
00:46:33,760 --> 00:46:36,000
Speaker 3: Stop toning yourself down. And when you go and when

1037
00:46:36,000 --> 00:46:38,200
Speaker 3: you go in that room, remember something. Your la la

1038
00:46:38,360 --> 00:46:42,640
Speaker 3: kent bitch, bitch power moves. You need to own that

1039
00:46:42,880 --> 00:46:47,960
Speaker 3: energy and stop going back to things that you're comfortable

1040
00:46:48,080 --> 00:46:51,040
Speaker 3: or you're used to, and start making bigger moves because

1041
00:46:51,120 --> 00:46:53,600
Speaker 3: you are. You're gonna make yourself sick if you have

1042
00:46:53,640 --> 00:46:56,479
Speaker 3: to constantly reinvent your career every three to five years.

1043
00:46:56,640 --> 00:46:59,840
Speaker 2: I can't. I will lose my goddamn mind.

1044
00:47:00,400 --> 00:47:03,399
Speaker 3: So get it so again. You we live right down

1045
00:47:03,400 --> 00:47:05,600
Speaker 3: the street from each other. You live so close to me.

1046
00:47:06,520 --> 00:47:09,040
Speaker 3: Hit me up anytime that you need an ass kicking,

1047
00:47:09,520 --> 00:47:11,600
Speaker 3: because I'm telling you right now, go get of course

1048
00:47:11,600 --> 00:47:15,160
Speaker 3: you can. You play your cards right girl, I'm telling

1049
00:47:15,160 --> 00:47:17,000
Speaker 3: you right now now it's time to start amping it

1050
00:47:17,120 --> 00:47:20,080
Speaker 3: up and really taking control of the business side of things.

1051
00:47:20,400 --> 00:47:23,200
Speaker 3: You can go into acting. I mean, I don't know

1052
00:47:23,200 --> 00:47:24,640
Speaker 3: if that's what you want to do there, but you can.

1053
00:47:24,680 --> 00:47:28,759
Speaker 2: You can go into that acting hat. You can. No, no, no, don't, no,

1054
00:47:28,760 --> 00:47:29,279
Speaker 2: no no, don't.

1055
00:47:29,360 --> 00:47:31,040
Speaker 3: What's stopping you from producing shows?

1056
00:47:32,480 --> 00:47:37,319
Speaker 2: Nothing is stopping me from doing anything exactly. It's game day, baby, yes,

1057
00:47:37,440 --> 00:47:41,920
Speaker 2: game day. No. Nothing is overly saturated in this world.

1058
00:47:41,960 --> 00:47:45,239
Speaker 2: There is always room for one more. I just want

1059
00:47:45,239 --> 00:47:47,879
Speaker 2: to fucking take the world by the ball.

1060
00:47:48,400 --> 00:47:51,480
Speaker 3: Here's here's another manipulation tactic. The difference between you and

1061
00:47:51,520 --> 00:47:54,000
Speaker 3: everybody else is you have this in you or some

1062
00:47:54,160 --> 00:47:58,240
Speaker 3: people manifest in a hope to have this career. Don't

1063
00:47:58,239 --> 00:48:00,560
Speaker 3: come to me unless you truly want to evolve, because

1064
00:48:00,560 --> 00:48:03,479
Speaker 3: you're gonna waste both of our times. And I'm also

1065
00:48:03,520 --> 00:48:06,560
Speaker 3: not a friend of yours either. I'm talking about when

1066
00:48:06,600 --> 00:48:08,439
Speaker 3: I read people here, and that's why I tell people,

1067
00:48:08,440 --> 00:48:09,640
Speaker 3: if you're going to be a friend or a family

1068
00:48:09,719 --> 00:48:12,160
Speaker 3: member to people, tell them the truth before I have to,

1069
00:48:12,480 --> 00:48:13,680
Speaker 3: because they're not gonna like it.

1070
00:48:13,960 --> 00:48:14,240
Speaker 2: Right.

1071
00:48:14,440 --> 00:48:17,279
Speaker 3: Yeah, So again, I know how difficult it is. I'm

1072
00:48:17,320 --> 00:48:19,719
Speaker 3: a Taurus with a pisc's moon and a Capricorn rising.

1073
00:48:19,760 --> 00:48:22,279
Speaker 3: I know your placements as well. We worry way too

1074
00:48:22,320 --> 00:48:24,359
Speaker 3: fucking much. But at the end of the day, would

1075
00:48:24,400 --> 00:48:27,319
Speaker 3: we ever trust our lives our livelihood in the hands

1076
00:48:27,320 --> 00:48:27,919
Speaker 3: of somebody else.

1077
00:48:28,040 --> 00:48:28,120
Speaker 2: No.

1078
00:48:28,320 --> 00:48:32,160
Speaker 3: Never, So you need to prove that to yourself, especially you,

1079
00:48:32,200 --> 00:48:34,040
Speaker 3: because I'm telling you right now you're going to slap

1080
00:48:34,080 --> 00:48:35,680
Speaker 3: me for this one. And I'll own that you are

1081
00:48:35,719 --> 00:48:38,760
Speaker 3: wasting time by not taking full control of your power.

1082
00:48:38,760 --> 00:48:40,959
Speaker 3: And that means being happy in the in the skin

1083
00:48:41,000 --> 00:48:43,799
Speaker 3: that you were in, in owning who you are. If

1084
00:48:43,800 --> 00:48:46,000
Speaker 3: you have to watch yourself on TV again to get

1085
00:48:46,000 --> 00:48:48,839
Speaker 3: yourself amped up or get inspiration, go and do that,

1086
00:48:49,480 --> 00:48:52,359
Speaker 3: but make sure you're paying attention to yourself. Okay, so

1087
00:48:52,440 --> 00:48:55,520
Speaker 3: good both of you, guys, very very good energy. This

1088
00:48:55,600 --> 00:48:58,080
Speaker 3: year is far and there's no there's no surprise why

1089
00:48:58,120 --> 00:49:00,000
Speaker 3: you guys aligned with each other. Do I see that

1090
00:49:00,160 --> 00:49:01,319
Speaker 3: being a forever thing? No?

1091
00:49:01,719 --> 00:49:02,359
Speaker 2: But that's her.

1092
00:49:02,880 --> 00:49:04,480
Speaker 3: No, as far you guys can be friends forevery But

1093
00:49:04,600 --> 00:49:06,040
Speaker 3: I'm talking about like you know, you guys are going

1094
00:49:06,080 --> 00:49:08,560
Speaker 3: to go your separate ways. You're you're gonna venture off

1095
00:49:08,560 --> 00:49:11,160
Speaker 3: on your own route and she's gonna venture off in hers. Wow,

1096
00:49:11,400 --> 00:49:13,239
Speaker 3: I think this is I'm not saying you guys do

1097
00:49:13,320 --> 00:49:15,040
Speaker 3: this as long as you want. I'm not taking away

1098
00:49:15,040 --> 00:49:17,920
Speaker 3: from it. I'm just saying opportunity is coming here. The

1099
00:49:18,000 --> 00:49:20,400
Speaker 3: reason why you guys probably are are connecting here is

1100
00:49:20,440 --> 00:49:22,880
Speaker 3: because you guys have similar backgrounds to with certain things

1101
00:49:23,840 --> 00:49:25,320
Speaker 3: that you guys are. You guys are working through. You

1102
00:49:25,360 --> 00:49:29,680
Speaker 3: guys are comparing notes. Harm will resolve itself and you

1103
00:49:29,719 --> 00:49:33,440
Speaker 3: go on your way. Wow, in a positive way, in

1104
00:49:33,480 --> 00:49:34,359
Speaker 3: a positive way.

1105
00:49:36,920 --> 00:49:40,080
Speaker 2: I don't know why. That just made me emotional, really,

1106
00:49:41,480 --> 00:49:42,520
Speaker 2: and not in a bad way.

1107
00:49:42,680 --> 00:49:46,200
Speaker 3: Because when she loves, she loves hard. She she doesn't want,

1108
00:49:46,280 --> 00:49:48,719
Speaker 3: she doesn't when she accumulates, she doesn't. She's had so

1109
00:49:48,800 --> 00:49:51,040
Speaker 3: much loss and so much bullshit coming here that when

1110
00:49:51,040 --> 00:49:55,520
Speaker 3: she finds solid people like a cancer, yeah, she doesn't

1111
00:49:55,520 --> 00:49:56,120
Speaker 3: want to let go.

1112
00:49:56,800 --> 00:49:56,920
Speaker 2: No.

1113
00:49:57,000 --> 00:49:59,080
Speaker 5: But I feel like with what you just said was

1114
00:49:59,120 --> 00:50:04,759
Speaker 5: like the the karma and just timing like this, this

1115
00:50:04,840 --> 00:50:08,000
Speaker 5: came to be and a lot of healing has been

1116
00:50:08,080 --> 00:50:12,799
Speaker 5: happening and it's going to continue to happen. And I

1117
00:50:12,880 --> 00:50:15,640
Speaker 5: just have this feeling in my soul that this is

1118
00:50:15,719 --> 00:50:18,560
Speaker 5: going to turn out a certain way where Amber and

1119
00:50:18,600 --> 00:50:24,319
Speaker 5: I he after almost a decade plus me the last

1120
00:50:24,400 --> 00:50:27,760
Speaker 5: few years, it will find we will finally reach peace.

1121
00:50:28,000 --> 00:50:32,400
Speaker 5: And I think that that's maybe when it'll happen and

1122
00:50:32,440 --> 00:50:34,320
Speaker 5: you're going to be doing everything that you want to

1123
00:50:34,360 --> 00:50:36,200
Speaker 5: be doing, that you're passionate about.

1124
00:50:36,400 --> 00:50:40,200
Speaker 2: And I'm it's just beautiful. It's all very beautiful.

1125
00:50:40,280 --> 00:50:43,200
Speaker 3: It is, and it's good for both of you, considering

1126
00:50:43,200 --> 00:50:45,280
Speaker 3: you're I don't want to throw any bit under the bus,

1127
00:50:45,280 --> 00:50:49,520
Speaker 3: but it's good for the for the public and the

1128
00:50:49,520 --> 00:50:52,239
Speaker 3: people behind the scenes to see that. Yeah, this was

1129
00:50:52,280 --> 00:50:54,160
Speaker 3: a chapter of my life here, but it wasn't the

1130
00:50:54,200 --> 00:50:57,560
Speaker 3: final chapter. Yeah, and I'm doing we're doing something different.

1131
00:50:57,560 --> 00:51:00,440
Speaker 3: We can come together and you guys, you guys have

1132
00:51:00,440 --> 00:51:03,560
Speaker 3: a lot of things in common. Yeah, and go after

1133
00:51:03,600 --> 00:51:06,160
Speaker 3: what it is that you want without having the past

1134
00:51:06,200 --> 00:51:08,240
Speaker 3: taint your future. Yeah, that's all that I'm saying.

1135
00:51:09,120 --> 00:51:13,600
Speaker 2: Oh, I cry more than anyone should cry. He's like,

1136
00:51:13,760 --> 00:51:15,719
Speaker 2: you don't need to cry every day. I'm like, but

1137
00:51:15,840 --> 00:51:21,520
Speaker 2: you do, No, you need to do. Oh it's healthy.

1138
00:51:21,640 --> 00:51:26,360
Speaker 2: How do you feel, Amber, I feel great, hopeful, excited.

1139
00:51:26,600 --> 00:51:29,399
Speaker 2: Yeah I do too. I also love peace, I think

1140
00:51:29,400 --> 00:51:31,920
Speaker 2: more than anything. I don't think I feel like excitement.

1141
00:51:33,000 --> 00:51:35,960
Speaker 2: I feel yeah, like everything's working.

1142
00:51:35,719 --> 00:51:37,719
Speaker 4: Out the way it's supposed to and it's going to

1143
00:51:37,880 --> 00:51:41,080
Speaker 4: and I just have to trust the universe. And not

1144
00:51:41,280 --> 00:51:45,560
Speaker 4: try to control everything and just yeah, at some point,

1145
00:51:45,640 --> 00:51:47,400
Speaker 4: you do have to hand it over, right.

1146
00:51:47,320 --> 00:51:51,000
Speaker 3: You have to. Yeah, again, that lesson from August till now.

1147
00:51:51,080 --> 00:51:53,840
Speaker 3: I finally it started off with them telling me you

1148
00:51:53,880 --> 00:51:55,319
Speaker 3: need to take a couple of months off, don't do

1149
00:51:55,360 --> 00:51:57,640
Speaker 3: any readings. We're going to give you information, but if

1150
00:51:57,680 --> 00:51:59,480
Speaker 3: you want to call it downloads, we'll call it downloads.

1151
00:51:59,760 --> 00:52:01,680
Speaker 3: And I said, but I have one session that I've

1152
00:52:01,719 --> 00:52:03,839
Speaker 3: already booked there, and I know that if I if

1153
00:52:03,880 --> 00:52:05,960
Speaker 3: I go to reschedule, the person's going to be upset.

1154
00:52:06,040 --> 00:52:07,640
Speaker 3: But I also know they're not going to get anything

1155
00:52:07,680 --> 00:52:11,520
Speaker 3: out of this reading. I read the person They hated

1156
00:52:11,560 --> 00:52:14,120
Speaker 3: it because I didn't tell them what they wanted to hear.

1157
00:52:14,560 --> 00:52:17,399
Speaker 3: I was depressed for about three days. My guides came

1158
00:52:17,440 --> 00:52:19,840
Speaker 3: in with the wrath of God and said, how the

1159
00:52:20,320 --> 00:52:22,399
Speaker 3: I'm gonna say exactly what they said, How the fuck

1160
00:52:22,440 --> 00:52:24,480
Speaker 3: are you going to sit here and be depressed over

1161
00:52:24,560 --> 00:52:28,120
Speaker 3: something you already knew you were getting your ass involved in. Yeah,

1162
00:52:28,360 --> 00:52:30,640
Speaker 3: get up and fix it. And I said okay, and

1163
00:52:30,680 --> 00:52:33,360
Speaker 3: they said, and also, you're not going anywhere. Two weeks

1164
00:52:33,400 --> 00:52:35,600
Speaker 3: passed by. I'm feeling good. I'm like I'm going to

1165
00:52:35,680 --> 00:52:38,520
Speaker 3: go to the gym, work it out. I'm feeling good.

1166
00:52:39,000 --> 00:52:41,560
Speaker 3: There's two steps that lead down from my front door

1167
00:52:41,640 --> 00:52:44,840
Speaker 3: into my yard. I missed the first step and fell

1168
00:52:44,920 --> 00:52:47,239
Speaker 3: all the way down on my hands and knees like

1169
00:52:47,239 --> 00:52:49,760
Speaker 3: a fucking idiot. Scraped up both of my knees, my ankles.

1170
00:52:49,760 --> 00:52:51,040
Speaker 3: I don't know how I did in the pumps of

1171
00:52:51,080 --> 00:52:53,160
Speaker 3: my hands to why I couldn't put pants on, And

1172
00:52:53,200 --> 00:52:55,520
Speaker 3: they said, what part of keep your ass in the

1173
00:52:55,600 --> 00:52:58,560
Speaker 3: house don't you understand? So I finally said, that's it.

1174
00:52:58,760 --> 00:53:01,960
Speaker 3: I surrender. Yeah, I'm not I get it now, I'm

1175
00:53:01,960 --> 00:53:03,800
Speaker 3: not going to do it. The best two months that

1176
00:53:03,800 --> 00:53:05,440
Speaker 3: I've ever had in my life was just sitting there

1177
00:53:05,480 --> 00:53:07,440
Speaker 3: and being still and listening to everything. Yeah, I was

1178
00:53:07,480 --> 00:53:08,800
Speaker 3: worried about my money. How am I going to do

1179
00:53:08,840 --> 00:53:12,759
Speaker 3: without these readings or whatever opportunity came and found me. You,

1180
00:53:13,800 --> 00:53:16,359
Speaker 3: I'm not going to say because it hasn't but you

1181
00:53:16,520 --> 00:53:20,160
Speaker 3: came in right like a fucking angel during that time,

1182
00:53:20,200 --> 00:53:23,440
Speaker 3: and I said, this is it, this is this is

1183
00:53:25,200 --> 00:53:28,000
Speaker 3: so again. We come from a real background, all three

1184
00:53:28,000 --> 00:53:29,799
Speaker 3: of us. We've had heartache, pain, We've had a lot

1185
00:53:29,800 --> 00:53:32,120
Speaker 3: of bullshit happened to us. That's been our identity for

1186
00:53:32,160 --> 00:53:34,759
Speaker 3: so long that we it's hard to separate ourselves because

1187
00:53:34,760 --> 00:53:36,719
Speaker 3: we see that so often. We feel so much here.

1188
00:53:36,960 --> 00:53:39,319
Speaker 3: But what's wrong with looking actually looking forward to something?

1189
00:53:39,320 --> 00:53:42,160
Speaker 3: And like I said, knowing the difference between excitement and anxiety,

1190
00:53:42,239 --> 00:53:44,560
Speaker 3: I'm getting excited because the tides are getting ready to change.

1191
00:53:44,600 --> 00:53:46,560
Speaker 3: I have something to look forward to rather than fear.

1192
00:53:46,600 --> 00:53:48,280
Speaker 3: Oh my god, what if this happens. What if this happened?

1193
00:53:48,400 --> 00:53:51,400
Speaker 3: Especially you, You're too fucking smart to be stupid.

1194
00:53:51,880 --> 00:53:58,359
Speaker 2: Yeah, thank you. Oh I love that about it. Oh

1195
00:53:58,440 --> 00:54:01,200
Speaker 2: my gosh, this was so amazing. I feel so great.

1196
00:54:01,920 --> 00:54:05,000
Speaker 4: Thank you Chris so so much, Lala, I love you.

1197
00:54:05,160 --> 00:54:08,279
Speaker 4: I love you so much, Chris, I adore you. Thank

1198
00:54:08,320 --> 00:54:10,319
Speaker 4: you so much for making time for us today and

1199
00:54:10,480 --> 00:54:13,560
Speaker 4: my loves I appreciate you. Listening to another episode of

1200
00:54:13,640 --> 00:54:14,800
Speaker 4: an Unlikely Affair.

1201
00:54:15,200 --> 00:54:17,920
Speaker 2: We are going to catch you guys again next week.

1202
00:54:18,120 --> 00:54:20,799
Speaker 4: Bye bye bye