WEBVTT - BONUS: Even MORE Vanderpump Rules Moments 0:00:06.000 --> 0:00:09.119 Hey babe, welcome back to another bonus episode of the 0:00:09.160 --> 0:00:13.400 Give Them a La Podcast. We are sticking to VPR, 0:00:13.640 --> 0:00:17.880 which is wild because we did an entire regular episode 0:00:18.880 --> 0:00:24.320 with VPR questions. I forgot the exact Yeah, what was 0:00:24.360 --> 0:00:27.120 the exact wording VPR moments that you want me to 0:00:27.120 --> 0:00:28.360 break down or something. 0:00:28.160 --> 0:00:29.440 And rape dive and all that. 0:00:29.600 --> 0:00:32.720 Yeah, okay, So I wanted to continue the theme because 0:00:32.760 --> 0:00:33.840 I'm in good spirits. 0:00:34.120 --> 0:00:34.400 Yay. 0:00:35.159 --> 0:00:35.400 You know. 0:00:35.720 --> 0:00:37.559 I love talking about this, by the way, like you're 0:00:37.600 --> 0:00:40.800 hearing about it, yes, because like we've seen the show. 0:00:40.920 --> 0:00:44.320 We've seen the moments, yeah, or at least. 0:00:44.120 --> 0:00:48.680 I have, and now we get to hear your side 0:00:48.680 --> 0:00:49.199 of it. 0:00:49.200 --> 0:00:51.559 It's like, yeah, I usually just end I pick her 0:00:51.640 --> 0:00:53.080 up from all of it, and then I just get 0:00:53.080 --> 0:00:55.400 to hear about it, and then I'm like, yeah, do 0:00:55.400 --> 0:00:56.200 I need to watch it? 0:00:56.440 --> 0:00:59.720 Well, I'm a I'm an obsessor. So what happens is 0:00:59.840 --> 0:01:03.400 I I have to And that's why it Usually I 0:01:03.440 --> 0:01:05.039 do it to my mom or Easton because I know 0:01:05.120 --> 0:01:08.399 that they won't want to backhand me. But I have 0:01:08.480 --> 0:01:12.160 to obsess and go in circles and in circles until 0:01:12.160 --> 0:01:14.240 I tire myself out and I'm like whatever, I'm fucking 0:01:14.280 --> 0:01:15.679 over it. And it's like I look at the clock 0:01:15.720 --> 0:01:17.240 and it's like, well, I'm glad you could be over it. 0:01:17.280 --> 0:01:20.040 After two hours of not time, I'm like no, I'm stop. 0:01:21.680 --> 0:01:23.720 No, she just goes all right, I want to get 0:01:23.760 --> 0:01:24.080 off of it. 0:01:24.200 --> 0:01:26.080 It's like, okay, but can I tell you? 0:01:26.120 --> 0:01:27.800 Because I know that's how I am. When I have 0:01:27.959 --> 0:01:32.120 friends who who are talking about something and then the 0:01:32.160 --> 0:01:34.319 subject is changed and they come back to it, I 0:01:34.400 --> 0:01:37.399 ask them do you need to obsess over it? And 0:01:37.440 --> 0:01:39.160 if they're like I need to obsess, I'm like, go 0:01:39.280 --> 0:01:41.200 for it. Obsess. What are we talking about? Do you 0:01:41.200 --> 0:01:42.600 want me to shut the fuck up? Do you want 0:01:42.640 --> 0:01:45.200 me to participate in the conversation? Do you want me 0:01:45.240 --> 0:01:47.280 to like really go in on this hoe or do 0:01:47.319 --> 0:01:48.680 you want me to like calm you down? And they're 0:01:49.000 --> 0:01:51.400 go in on this hole and then we obsess. 0:01:51.760 --> 0:01:54.360 That is such a good thing to do, because yeah, 0:01:54.480 --> 0:01:57.400 same thing. It's like not about vander Pump, but same thing. 0:01:57.440 --> 0:01:59.520 I'm like, do you want to vent right now? Because 0:01:59.680 --> 0:02:02.480 so much many times with my friends they'd be going 0:02:02.480 --> 0:02:04.560 in on someone or venting. I'd be like, well, hold 0:02:04.600 --> 0:02:06.400 on a second, and they'd get so pissed and I 0:02:06.480 --> 0:02:08.320 was like oh, and then I learned like, oh, they 0:02:08.400 --> 0:02:10.760 just want to like vent. They don't want a solution. 0:02:11.560 --> 0:02:13.400 They don't want me to calm them down. They want 0:02:13.480 --> 0:02:14.000 me to like. 0:02:15.680 --> 0:02:18.800 Them up. Yeah, they need an ear and a hype man. Yeah, okay, 0:02:18.960 --> 0:02:19.519 I dig it. 0:02:19.639 --> 0:02:21.960 Did you watch the first season Law was on? 0:02:22.639 --> 0:02:23.760 Oh God, I have not know. 0:02:24.080 --> 0:02:26.280 No, you watch none of it, even like your sister's 0:02:26.320 --> 0:02:26.720 on TV. 0:02:26.760 --> 0:02:28.560 Okay, I didn't even watch anything. 0:02:28.600 --> 0:02:32.360 I was in interesting okay, because I could. 0:02:32.160 --> 0:02:34.880 See you at all. 0:02:35.320 --> 0:02:37.280 Yeah, just like having her on TV. 0:02:37.360 --> 0:02:38.839 I didn't know if it was like a you guys 0:02:38.919 --> 0:02:40.880 started and then we're like maybe we shouldn't watch this. 0:02:41.840 --> 0:02:43.800 No started and never watched it. 0:02:44.000 --> 0:02:44.919 The thing is is like. 0:02:46.720 --> 0:02:47.520 Not to as well. 0:02:47.840 --> 0:02:50.000 Well, I would prefer they not watch it just because 0:02:50.040 --> 0:02:52.800 I feel like it's and it's not because of my behavior. 0:02:52.880 --> 0:02:56.160 My family has seen me for exactly who I am. 0:02:56.200 --> 0:02:58.400 Like my mom always says, I don't need to watch 0:02:58.440 --> 0:03:00.359 the show because I get the real life version. I 0:03:00.919 --> 0:03:04.000 know my daughter takes their top off waterfalls. I know 0:03:04.160 --> 0:03:07.000 my daughter pretends like she could kick your ass when 0:03:07.040 --> 0:03:08.040 she's never been in a fight. 0:03:08.760 --> 0:03:11.400 I know my kid right. My dad knows me. 0:03:11.560 --> 0:03:15.120 Easton knows me. They didn't watch because they would get 0:03:15.160 --> 0:03:17.400 overly protective and they didn't want to see people be mean. 0:03:17.440 --> 0:03:20.160 And still to this day, when my mom says, well, 0:03:20.200 --> 0:03:22.360 they were really mean to you, not they in any 0:03:22.440 --> 0:03:27.040 particular person, or you know, setup could be we're talking 0:03:27.040 --> 0:03:30.080 about high school, right, that person was mean to you. 0:03:30.400 --> 0:03:32.320 Those people were mean to you on VPR. And I'm like, 0:03:32.360 --> 0:03:34.520 but I wasn't innocent. She goes, I don't care you're 0:03:34.560 --> 0:03:35.080 my baby. 0:03:35.440 --> 0:03:37.400 Yeah, I don't care you're my baby. 0:03:37.440 --> 0:03:39.640 That's a good point, and it's just yeah, and it's 0:03:39.680 --> 0:03:42.800 just better maybe for them not to see. Yeah, that's 0:03:42.840 --> 0:03:45.480 how my parents at first were with the podcast. They 0:03:45.480 --> 0:03:46.839 were like, oh my gosh, this is so fun. 0:03:46.920 --> 0:03:47.200 Listen. 0:03:47.280 --> 0:03:49.560 And then when I started talking about like sex and stuff, 0:03:49.600 --> 0:03:50.800 my mom and dad were like. 0:03:51.000 --> 0:03:52.200 We're just not gonna listen. 0:03:52.280 --> 0:03:53.840 I mean, that's totally I love. 0:03:54.320 --> 0:03:58.760 I love it feels safe, the space feels safer. Okay, 0:03:59.320 --> 0:04:03.760 So we are going to start with So, I know 0:04:03.800 --> 0:04:07.320 you talked about this relationship a couple weeks ago, but 0:04:07.400 --> 0:04:10.240 I am curious about the arc, and many people asked 0:04:10.280 --> 0:04:13.800 about this the relationship arc of you and James the 0:04:13.840 --> 0:04:14.920 most iconic duo. 0:04:15.640 --> 0:04:16.520 More so, I'm. 0:04:16.440 --> 0:04:19.279 Curious where did you mey, When did you meet and 0:04:19.400 --> 0:04:22.920 was it like immediately like oh, this is the guy 0:04:23.440 --> 0:04:24.680 and like he's fun. 0:04:24.880 --> 0:04:27.000 Or did you guys ever not get along at first. 0:04:27.520 --> 0:04:30.880 I'd have to go back and watch the very first 0:04:30.960 --> 0:04:34.800 interaction I had with James because I cannot remember meaning 0:04:34.839 --> 0:04:38.760 on camera because I can't remember if I met him beforehand. 0:04:40.360 --> 0:04:46.479 But I do remember him kind of being the young 0:04:47.040 --> 0:04:50.839 DJ who was kind of to the group that like 0:04:51.040 --> 0:04:54.160 annoying fly, and not because he was an annoying fly, 0:04:54.279 --> 0:04:56.680 but because he was like young and excited about life 0:04:56.680 --> 0:04:59.039 and he's a DJ and he's on the accent and 0:04:59.080 --> 0:05:02.239 he's just like he was really excited to just be alive. 0:05:02.480 --> 0:05:06.360 Yeah you know. Yeah, So he felt like a safe 0:05:06.360 --> 0:05:10.040 space when I first entered vander pump Roles because I 0:05:10.200 --> 0:05:15.320 was not brought in with open arms, which was fine, 0:05:15.480 --> 0:05:17.880 Like I knew it would be that way. Tom and 0:05:17.920 --> 0:05:22.520 Ariana were very kind to me right from the very beginning. 0:05:23.480 --> 0:05:25.840 They seem to be the ones that like gave me 0:05:25.880 --> 0:05:30.120 a chance, right. But I do remember season four like 0:05:30.360 --> 0:05:34.920 someone having a party at Sheena's mom's house and like 0:05:35.279 --> 0:05:38.360 Faith and I were the new kids, and Faith was invited, 0:05:38.360 --> 0:05:40.920 but I wasn't invited. There was something about me that 0:05:41.400 --> 0:05:43.680 they weren't quite sure of. And I get it. I 0:05:43.880 --> 0:05:48.120 was the girl who like posted pictures of me with 0:05:48.279 --> 0:05:52.440 just my ass out, you know, and it was iconic. 0:05:52.920 --> 0:05:54.720 It was and back in the day when I mean, 0:05:54.760 --> 0:05:57.640 ass is out everywhere now, but it was less out then. 0:05:57.839 --> 0:06:01.839 It was completely different. Yeah, I feel yeah, you might 0:06:01.960 --> 0:06:06.720 clothes acceptance. Yeah, like, now I see these bitches. I'm like, oh, 0:06:07.720 --> 0:06:10.360 say ambular to go through my closet again. 0:06:10.400 --> 0:06:10.920 You know how. 0:06:12.320 --> 0:06:15.640 Clueless? You know, it's clueless how she walks up camber 0:06:15.680 --> 0:06:18.800 and she's like, say ambular because she's wearing the exact 0:06:18.839 --> 0:06:22.359 same outfit that she had on like two days ago. Yeah, yes, 0:06:22.680 --> 0:06:25.039 but it's just very funny. Yeah, I'm like, oh, the 0:06:25.080 --> 0:06:27.600 sea through skirt with the ass out. Oh, I remember 0:06:27.640 --> 0:06:31.080 I wore that to the season five premiere party. Right. 0:06:31.680 --> 0:06:34.880 You guys joined the same official cast members the same season, 0:06:34.960 --> 0:06:38.360 right you and James because I know he was Kristen's boyfriend. 0:06:38.960 --> 0:06:43.039 Yes, his first season was the time before the season before. 0:06:43.080 --> 0:06:45.200 I think he came in three and then we were 0:06:45.240 --> 0:06:48.560 more like I would say we were fixture season four. 0:06:48.839 --> 0:06:51.640 Okay, we may not have had like title cards right. 0:06:51.800 --> 0:06:54.480 Where they introduced us with the theme song at the 0:06:54.839 --> 0:06:58.839 very beginning, but I would say that we had stories 0:06:58.880 --> 0:07:02.080 to tell. They were interested in following us around, right, 0:07:02.800 --> 0:07:06.080 So I think when you're two people who are kind 0:07:06.120 --> 0:07:09.560 of on the fringe or the odd people out, it 0:07:09.680 --> 0:07:12.480 becomes and we were into like taunting them. 0:07:12.680 --> 0:07:16.520 Yeah, you know, it's like we're young and hot. 0:07:17.120 --> 0:07:20.320 You're not, even though they were all so young and hot. 0:07:20.360 --> 0:07:23.080 But I know when you are in an environment like that, 0:07:23.120 --> 0:07:24.200 you buy into your own fiction. 0:07:24.520 --> 0:07:26.960 Then you add alcohol, and now you're really in the 0:07:26.960 --> 0:07:27.720 fiction section. 0:07:28.160 --> 0:07:28.480 Right. 0:07:28.800 --> 0:07:29.400 It was fun. 0:07:29.960 --> 0:07:30.800 You two were fun. 0:07:31.200 --> 0:07:33.480 This is a great segue into this next question because 0:07:33.480 --> 0:07:36.640 it's the only regret I think I've ever heard you say. 0:07:36.680 --> 0:07:39.960 But they're saying any regrets, either things you've done or 0:07:40.000 --> 0:07:42.400 shared on the show, I've only heard you ever say one, 0:07:42.400 --> 0:07:43.360 and it was something you said. 0:07:43.720 --> 0:07:46.080 And I'm going to take in season eleven as well, 0:07:46.120 --> 0:07:49.480 which was my season where I've said I think I 0:07:49.520 --> 0:07:50.480 said this on two teas. 0:07:52.360 --> 0:07:54.080 It may not have been like. 0:07:55.880 --> 0:07:59.480 A high as far as the audience goes, but season 0:07:59.520 --> 0:08:02.160 eleven for me was a personal high. I felt a 0:08:02.160 --> 0:08:04.520 tremendous amount of growth. I felt a tremendous amount of 0:08:04.600 --> 0:08:06.200 peace within myself, which has. 0:08:06.640 --> 0:08:10.520 Never really happened. Right loved myself. 0:08:10.560 --> 0:08:13.040 Season ten, I was like living my best life, but 0:08:13.080 --> 0:08:15.440 I was still in turmoil and like fight mode, I 0:08:15.480 --> 0:08:18.280 was living off of adrenaline. Each season I can go 0:08:18.320 --> 0:08:21.440 through and pinpoint exactly where I was mentally. Season eleven 0:08:21.520 --> 0:08:24.680 was the first season where I'm like, I'm I am 0:08:24.760 --> 0:08:28.320 who I am right now, Like I got questions, but 0:08:28.360 --> 0:08:30.560 I feel at peace. It was a great So I'm 0:08:30.560 --> 0:08:34.720 gonna take that one into account as well. My only 0:08:34.800 --> 0:08:38.040 regret that I have filming this show. What season five? 0:08:38.640 --> 0:08:44.400 Walking up to that table talking about summer bodies? I 0:08:44.440 --> 0:08:47.840 did not That was not me. I could tell in 0:08:47.880 --> 0:08:50.240 that moment. Number one, We've been drinking, but we're also 0:08:50.280 --> 0:08:54.400 feeling very insecure. I knew the rumblings. I knew what 0:08:54.440 --> 0:08:59.360 the season was gonna be about, because we have a 0:08:59.400 --> 0:09:03.000 meeting with producer before we start filming every single year. 0:09:03.760 --> 0:09:06.880 Every single year we walk in and we talk about it. 0:09:08.520 --> 0:09:12.440 This meeting, they called me out for the tattoo I 0:09:12.480 --> 0:09:15.280 had that is now covered by a lion. What did 0:09:15.320 --> 0:09:18.400 those initials stand for. He said, I'm gonna call it 0:09:18.600 --> 0:09:21.319 exactly what it is. We've been told you're dating a 0:09:21.360 --> 0:09:24.840 married man. And it was like taking a fucking bullet 0:09:25.520 --> 0:09:31.240 because I was like, that's my that's what is being said. 0:09:32.760 --> 0:09:35.880 And I didn't even know how to like comprehend it, 0:09:37.600 --> 0:09:40.319 you know, because I was like, this is being said 0:09:40.360 --> 0:09:42.880 in one part of my life, but then this is 0:09:42.920 --> 0:09:45.520 being told to me on the other side, and like, 0:09:45.559 --> 0:09:49.640 who do I trust this group of reality TV personalities 0:09:49.679 --> 0:09:52.680 who I just met, or like this person who's like 0:09:52.760 --> 0:09:56.160 telling me that we're gonna be together forever and like 0:09:57.240 --> 0:10:00.520 we're boyfriend and girlfriend. You know who says like that 0:10:00.559 --> 0:10:02.640 if they're like a married person. I'm trying to talk 0:10:02.679 --> 0:10:07.920 to a producer like that and he just keeps coming 0:10:07.960 --> 0:10:09.920 back at me with things that I'm like, you're right, 0:10:09.960 --> 0:10:13.760 that doesn't make much sense. Then I go back to 0:10:13.800 --> 0:10:16.160 the other side and say what the producer said and 0:10:16.160 --> 0:10:19.920 what the cast is saying, and it was just fucking torture. 0:10:20.200 --> 0:10:21.960 I ran away that season back to Utah. 0:10:22.080 --> 0:10:24.120 Yeah, but yeah. 0:10:23.840 --> 0:10:26.720 Going into the night when of filming where I dropped 0:10:26.720 --> 0:10:29.480 the Summer Bodies, that was me going in and feeling 0:10:29.520 --> 0:10:34.280 like I've got to demolish and goes so fucking low, 0:10:34.679 --> 0:10:39.360 go so like bottom feeeder, bottom of the barrel, gutter, 0:10:39.920 --> 0:10:43.880 like you don't even, you don't even. I didn't even 0:10:43.880 --> 0:10:46.600 recognize myself. I'm like, we don't. We don't talk like 0:10:46.640 --> 0:10:49.199 this what you're doing? But I was feeling that insecure 0:10:49.280 --> 0:10:51.319 just about what was gonna be said. 0:10:51.600 --> 0:10:53.960 Yeah, that makes sense, and it does segue into this 0:10:54.040 --> 0:10:57.679 next question. Do you regret having your X on the show? 0:10:59.120 --> 0:10:59.320 No? 0:10:59.440 --> 0:11:02.280 Yeah, because it reminds people that I like, went. 0:11:02.120 --> 0:11:09.160 There, okay, right right, A little embarrassed, a little lot. 0:11:09.120 --> 0:11:10.040 We're a lot embarrassed. 0:11:10.120 --> 0:11:16.320 Yeah, I'm like, how did this happen? It's okay, and 0:11:16.400 --> 0:11:19.920 it really doesn't feel good. When my mom goes, oh, 0:11:19.960 --> 0:11:25.200 what were you thinking? And and the touching, I was like, 0:11:25.760 --> 0:11:27.640 stop stop, I can't even think about it. 0:11:28.240 --> 0:11:31.360 Okay, I'm gonna ask this. I'm gonna say, for any. 0:11:31.400 --> 0:11:36.600 X you've ever had, Okay, yeah, have. 0:11:36.679 --> 0:11:40.920 You ever been like I'm so like, I'm into this 0:11:40.960 --> 0:11:43.920 person because I've had this once years ago. 0:11:44.320 --> 0:11:45.760 I'm into this person so much. 0:11:45.840 --> 0:11:48.880 But I'm very embarrassed to tell my mom or my 0:11:48.960 --> 0:11:51.880 friends or whoever like I'm because they're gonna they're gonna 0:11:51.880 --> 0:11:55.120 see a photo. Have you ever been I can think 0:11:55.160 --> 0:11:58.679 of one, Yeah, okay, and been like and you really 0:11:58.720 --> 0:12:01.120 have to preface it because I read I was literally 0:12:01.160 --> 0:12:03.440 in seventh grade and I was like it was my 0:12:03.520 --> 0:12:04.199 first boyfriend. 0:12:04.240 --> 0:12:06.719 And I was like I remember being like, just. 0:12:06.800 --> 0:12:12.200 No, he's so nice, Like he's so funny, he's got. 0:12:12.040 --> 0:12:13.199 A great personality. 0:12:13.320 --> 0:12:14.240 He like loves me. 0:12:14.600 --> 0:12:16.920 And my girls girls have done that before too, They 0:12:17.000 --> 0:12:19.280 like hold the Instagram and they're like just no, and 0:12:19.280 --> 0:12:20.440 I'm like, oh god, like he. 0:12:20.440 --> 0:12:24.720 Doesn't really look like he doesn't photograph. 0:12:24.840 --> 0:12:26.760 That I or when you try to find a photo 0:12:26.800 --> 0:12:30.360 of him and you're like you're scrolling too long. 0:12:31.280 --> 0:12:37.240 Oh god, Okay, I'll ask this, Well, there's a couple 0:12:37.240 --> 0:12:39.600 of these. What was it like when that group of 0:12:39.720 --> 0:12:41.920 OG's left at once. 0:12:42.920 --> 0:12:43.640 Left it once? 0:12:43.840 --> 0:12:44.760 They all left it once? 0:12:44.960 --> 0:12:45.440 Terrifying? 0:12:45.679 --> 0:12:46.239 Yeah? 0:12:46.440 --> 0:12:47.760 Why terrifying? 0:12:48.679 --> 0:12:51.160 From a show standpoint, That's the only thing I'm going 0:12:51.240 --> 0:12:54.480 to address. It's from a show standpoint. We get the 0:12:54.520 --> 0:12:56.880 green light that we're going back into season nine and 0:12:56.960 --> 0:13:00.360 we've lost It's not I'm not going to name names. 0:13:00.400 --> 0:13:04.520 It's not like we've lost a couple of people that 0:13:04.559 --> 0:13:11.800 I think We lost like heavy fucking hitters. We lost 0:13:11.840 --> 0:13:15.160 our Lebron James Are Kobe Bryant? 0:13:15.400 --> 0:13:17.560 You know people who who. 0:13:17.360 --> 0:13:21.760 I ri ip. Yes, he was my first crush. I 0:13:21.840 --> 0:13:24.080 was devastated when I found out he was married and 0:13:24.120 --> 0:13:26.840 I was young. Oh, it was like an elementary school. 0:13:27.040 --> 0:13:29.400 I had like nine of his jerseys just because she'd 0:13:29.440 --> 0:13:32.360 be like, I love it, so then i'd it was. 0:13:32.520 --> 0:13:33.800 It was an unhealthy obsession. 0:13:34.280 --> 0:13:34.960 It wasn't good. 0:13:35.120 --> 0:13:38.360 It wasn't good. When the nine year old's depressed that 0:13:38.440 --> 0:13:41.600 Kobe Bryant has a wife. Someone needs to start it right. 0:13:41.679 --> 0:13:43.720 Okay, I couldn't get out of bed in the morning. 0:13:44.440 --> 0:13:47.360 He's a really fucking godfather. And then I understand why 0:13:47.400 --> 0:13:49.120 he's croaked at sixty four. 0:13:50.280 --> 0:13:54.560 We killed him with Oh my god, Easton. 0:13:55.480 --> 0:13:58.160 Yeah, it's just our please don't clip. 0:13:58.240 --> 0:14:04.120 We're just question. We put a lot of stress on them. 0:14:05.400 --> 0:14:09.559 We lost our heavy are our biggest, our biggest players. 0:14:09.800 --> 0:14:11.880 Did you think the show was over that there was 0:14:11.920 --> 0:14:13.840 a possibility or did you know? I don't know how 0:14:13.880 --> 0:14:15.839 it went down, and they maybe they prefaced you and 0:14:15.880 --> 0:14:17.439 being like, don't freak out, the show's not over. 0:14:17.559 --> 0:14:19.760 But when that happened, did they put a lot of 0:14:19.760 --> 0:14:22.280 pressure on like the You Guys, on like The Next 0:14:22.320 --> 0:14:25.080 People to Be season nine, there. 0:14:24.960 --> 0:14:27.720 Was there was a lot of pressure. There was a 0:14:27.720 --> 0:14:30.560 lot of pressure, and I don't know if we put it. 0:14:30.600 --> 0:14:33.880 I don't think we necessarily put it on ourselves. I 0:14:33.920 --> 0:14:38.840 think we had a completely different production team because we 0:14:38.920 --> 0:14:41.120 still hadn't picked up cameras and there were a lot 0:14:41.120 --> 0:14:43.960 of other shows that had so people who were with 0:14:44.040 --> 0:14:48.440 us from day one were suddenly working on other shows. 0:14:48.440 --> 0:14:50.680 They had to take other shows our our show is 0:14:50.720 --> 0:14:53.360 based on a restaurant. How do you film a show 0:14:53.400 --> 0:14:57.840 based on a restaurant during COVID in Los Angeles when 0:14:57.840 --> 0:15:01.040 they're not allowing you to open your restaurant. Yeah, it was. 0:15:02.440 --> 0:15:03.200 It was intense. 0:15:03.320 --> 0:15:03.920 It was intense. 0:15:04.000 --> 0:15:09.360 Yeah, But also I cannot remember if I was stressed. 0:15:09.480 --> 0:15:13.800 You have to remember I was pregnant. I was about 0:15:13.800 --> 0:15:17.640 to give birth. I think that I was less concerned 0:15:17.760 --> 0:15:21.280 than most people because my mind was elsewhere. 0:15:21.720 --> 0:15:25.960 Yeah, Okay, onto the next one. What parts of your 0:15:26.000 --> 0:15:28.480 life do you wish vandr Pump Rules caught more of 0:15:28.640 --> 0:15:32.080 Aside from oh as we know, you can't, I'm assuming 0:15:32.120 --> 0:15:35.600 they mean like, couldn't show her nothing, nothing, really. 0:15:35.440 --> 0:15:37.440 No, I can't think of anything that I wish that 0:15:37.480 --> 0:15:40.640 they would show more. I think they I feel like 0:15:40.720 --> 0:15:46.120 I'm showing my life and it's very much real because 0:15:46.160 --> 0:15:51.320 the parts of my life that are more private are 0:15:51.360 --> 0:15:55.480 not shown. And I think that, you know, I've shown 0:15:56.640 --> 0:16:01.720 pretty much everything. You know. I've had had to confront 0:16:02.120 --> 0:16:06.760 my demons and say, like, wow, I actually did lie 0:16:07.000 --> 0:16:11.040 a lot about my life season five, I actually have 0:16:11.280 --> 0:16:14.760 been lying about a lot of things that I didn't 0:16:14.800 --> 0:16:17.720 really know that I was lying about that other people 0:16:17.760 --> 0:16:20.000 saw clear as day. It was like, I've had to 0:16:20.000 --> 0:16:21.680 go into the show. I've gotten sober on the show. 0:16:21.680 --> 0:16:25.480 I've lost my dad on the show. I've had to 0:16:25.520 --> 0:16:29.760 sit there and basically defend how I could talk about 0:16:29.760 --> 0:16:31.800 being such a smart bitch while also being such a 0:16:31.840 --> 0:16:35.040 dumb bitch at the same time. No, I can't think 0:16:35.040 --> 0:16:37.240 of anything that I wish that they would cover more of. 0:16:37.520 --> 0:16:39.600 Okay, I'm gonna come in and say this. I don't 0:16:40.280 --> 0:16:42.320 know if I wish that they were there for this 0:16:42.440 --> 0:16:44.440 or not. Probably not. In the end, this probably would 0:16:44.480 --> 0:16:48.440 have been bad. That being said, from the moment we 0:16:48.440 --> 0:16:51.040 were at the Americana Mall filming b Roll. 0:16:50.960 --> 0:16:52.000 I wish they called this too. 0:16:53.160 --> 0:16:55.000 I wish cameras we were just filming. 0:16:55.080 --> 0:16:56.920 I was just filming la less shopping, like on my 0:16:56.960 --> 0:17:02.080 cell phone. I wish that they caught you getting the 0:17:02.080 --> 0:17:03.040 photo from Katie. 0:17:03.040 --> 0:17:03.880 I think mm hm. 0:17:04.880 --> 0:17:09.400 And from that moment too, I think you moving into 0:17:09.400 --> 0:17:13.399 palazzo because that was wild and like being someone to 0:17:13.520 --> 0:17:17.639 see you snap into like survival mode is what I'm 0:17:17.680 --> 0:17:20.880 gonna call it, and just like this is what we're 0:17:20.920 --> 0:17:24.399 gonna do. We're literally that night, meet me back at 0:17:24.400 --> 0:17:29.120 the house, calling people, and then just like every day 0:17:29.200 --> 0:17:31.240 finding out more and more and more and more, and 0:17:31.320 --> 0:17:34.719 literally you keeping it together because you had to getting 0:17:34.720 --> 0:17:37.480 out of that house. Like I think about it and 0:17:37.520 --> 0:17:40.400 I'm like, holy shit, Like that is wild. I kind 0:17:40.440 --> 0:17:43.640 of it wouldn't be in my personal opinion, I feel 0:17:43.640 --> 0:17:45.240 like I could say this, it wouldn't be the right 0:17:45.320 --> 0:17:47.760 tone for the show. There's a lot of darkness there 0:17:47.800 --> 0:17:50.440 and a lot of but maybe like documentary, I don't 0:17:50.480 --> 0:17:54.080 know something. Obviously it wasn't meant to be captured because 0:17:54.600 --> 0:17:57.800 the universe, you know, it wasn't. But there was so much. 0:17:58.000 --> 0:17:59.760 Yeah, there was a lot and we are still doing 0:17:59.760 --> 0:18:06.280 in reviews season nine for the show and there was 0:18:06.720 --> 0:18:12.440 a part of Wow, no, you're right, and I think 0:18:12.480 --> 0:18:15.159 that's one thing that I want to that time in 0:18:15.200 --> 0:18:18.600 my life. Although it was only two weeks of me 0:18:18.760 --> 0:18:24.360 being stuck right changed me as a person. There's very 0:18:24.400 --> 0:18:27.760 few things in my life that have changed me in 0:18:27.880 --> 0:18:32.640 that way. And it's kind of made me harsh where 0:18:32.680 --> 0:18:37.640 when I hear certain people go through things, I want 0:18:37.640 --> 0:18:40.800 to be softer and I feel like I have worked 0:18:40.840 --> 0:18:44.119 on it. I want to be softer where I my 0:18:44.600 --> 0:18:46.919 initial reaction is not tough in the fuck up like 0:18:48.040 --> 0:18:53.400 fucking child's play, you know, because that's just my trauma. 0:18:53.440 --> 0:18:57.040 That's not how I feel. It's that and I'm not comparing. 0:18:57.080 --> 0:18:58.280 It's just it's made me. 0:18:59.080 --> 0:18:59.800 It made me a. 0:18:59.720 --> 0:19:04.600 Hard person for a long time, even though it's only 0:19:04.640 --> 0:19:10.040 been two years and some change. But I remember going 0:19:10.080 --> 0:19:14.800 into an interview and I was just so defeated but 0:19:14.920 --> 0:19:21.119 had to be like a soldier, and the producer asked 0:19:21.200 --> 0:19:24.760 me they knew what was going on. I will forever 0:19:25.000 --> 0:19:29.560 love production for this because production says, do you remember 0:19:29.600 --> 0:19:34.760 the scene of you and that guy at James and 0:19:34.800 --> 0:19:38.119 Raquel's engagement party, You guys have a moment. You and 0:19:38.640 --> 0:19:41.480 that guy have a moment about your wedding being canceled 0:19:41.520 --> 0:19:44.840 and take what we know now out of it? Can 0:19:44.920 --> 0:19:48.920 you relive that and talk about that like in real 0:19:48.960 --> 0:19:51.840 time like we sometimes have to do? And I broke down. 0:19:52.440 --> 0:19:55.719 I said, I physically cannot get myself to talk about that. 0:19:56.480 --> 0:20:01.439 I cannot take myself to a place of feeling how 0:20:01.560 --> 0:20:04.520 I thought I felt about him. And they didn't make 0:20:04.560 --> 0:20:06.600 me do it. They cut out the whole scene. 0:20:06.800 --> 0:20:07.359 Wow. 0:20:07.520 --> 0:20:10.879 Yeah, I was sobbing. I was like, I know that 0:20:11.040 --> 0:20:14.280 you what you want me to do, and normally I 0:20:14.280 --> 0:20:17.080 could do it, I can't do it. 0:20:17.320 --> 0:20:17.879 Yeah. 0:20:17.960 --> 0:20:23.000 I was just broken and I will forever be thankful 0:20:23.000 --> 0:20:25.240 that they were like, great, let's not fucking do it. 0:20:25.280 --> 0:20:25.440 Then. 0:20:26.600 --> 0:20:27.800 Wow, goosebumps everywhere. 0:20:27.840 --> 0:20:30.359 I feel like I'm gonna cry, Okay, moving on, moving 0:20:30.400 --> 0:20:34.919