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Speaker 1: Hi, everybody, This is Wheezy. Unfortunately Mandy couldn't make it in.

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Speaker 1: We've had conflicting schedules, but the next two episodes you

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Speaker 1: here a solo. I wanted to tell you guys about

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Speaker 1: Zozo Talk in Miami eleven seventeen, I will be there

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Speaker 1: and on December eighth, I will be in Atlanta. This

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Speaker 1: is an amazing show. It is a live dating game

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Speaker 1: show that I do with Jessie. We had a great

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Speaker 1: time in New York. It was so much fun. Someone's

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Speaker 1: grandma came. Um, don't ask, but anyway, I'm super excited

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Speaker 1: to bring you guys this episode, so check it out

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Speaker 1: and enjoy it. Hey everyone, So I'm here and I'm

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Speaker 1: with two lovely ladies, one that I've never met before

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Speaker 1: and one that I went down on. So I want

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Speaker 1: both of you. Um, I'm gonna start from the right.

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Speaker 1: Can you tell us your name, why you're horrible, and

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Speaker 1: your sexual orientation. I'm trying some new ship. Okay, okay, okay,

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Speaker 1: So my name is Aisha, Why I'm horrible? Why are

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Speaker 1: you here? A bitch? I love sex? I don't know.

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Speaker 1: There's really no other way to put that. Don't you

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Speaker 1: like all? I know, is you have a new business

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Speaker 1: going surrounding sex? What is that? Uh? So I am

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Speaker 1: opening a sex positive community hub that will house a

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Speaker 1: porn cinema in Brooklyn. Basically I want people to get

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Speaker 1: freaky in my porn cinema. Like is that legal? I

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Speaker 1: don't really know. I don't think there's like, you know,

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Speaker 1: it's kind of like the same way as like, are

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Speaker 1: you you're like really not supposed to have more than

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Speaker 1: fifteen people dancing and drinking alcohol anywhere? So like our

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Speaker 1: club's legal that kind of thing, and like but unless

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Speaker 1: like anybody's at my door knocking it down. I mean

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Speaker 1: you were very Brooklyn bitch. I'll say that I should.

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Speaker 1: I met on Tinder because we were supposed to have

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Speaker 1: a threesome that never happened, but we had sex, and

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Speaker 1: that was fucking Why do we only have sex one time?

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Speaker 1: Is you busy? I know? Actually? You know what's crazy?

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Speaker 1: I came to see you. You're dating someone? Are you

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Speaker 1: still dating him? That guy when we went ice skating together? No?

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Speaker 1: Not no, Well I was so fucking jealous and I

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Speaker 1: I see you, I get super like, oh wait, yes,

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Speaker 1: not ice skating. I am. I am still dating him

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Speaker 1: him anyway, so we have another if you are I am.

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Speaker 1: I had posted on Horrible Decisions and on my personal

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Speaker 1: Instagram looking for new people that are horrible and just interesting,

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Speaker 1: and Ashley reached out to me and, um, yeah, I'm

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Speaker 1: super excited to have you on. Ashley wanted to come

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Speaker 1: on to talk about having sex wild disabled, So yeah,

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Speaker 1: tell us, like how old you are, where you live

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Speaker 1: with your sexual orientation. So I am from Jacksonville, Florida.

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Speaker 1: I'm twenty nine. I'll be thirty in December. Uma ohay'

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Speaker 1: so sash Well, well yeah, I um well, while I'm

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Speaker 1: my horrible huh well okay. So I always got this

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Speaker 1: like taboo conversation going on around um sex, particularly from

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Speaker 1: So the fact that I kept getting that question, I'm like,

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Speaker 1: I consider myself from the queer spectrum, So I have

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Speaker 1: always been attracted to women I have had experiences with women,

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Speaker 1: but I haven't dated a women relationship wise, you identified

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Speaker 1: square by pan sexual. Okay, okay. By the way, I

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Speaker 1: think my second time me and you were hanging out,

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Speaker 1: you were like fleeing to leave because the Muslim ban happened.

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Speaker 1: You're like, I'm about to go fucking protests and the

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Speaker 1: guy you were dating was over the ship. I love

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Speaker 1: you for that. So I'm really excited to have these

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Speaker 1: kink of the week. Um, if you've never heard horrible

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Speaker 1: decisions are kink of the week is always a word

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Speaker 1: of paraphilia and we teach you something new. Normally it's

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Speaker 1: hard to say, but not this week. This week's kink

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Speaker 1: is abrasions. And I picked this kink because on a

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Speaker 1: Patreon episode, my friend James told a story where he

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Speaker 1: could see that. So don't have anything else to masturbate

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Speaker 1: I want to funk that lives in Brooklyn looks like Jesus.

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Speaker 1: I mean, you're staying in Brooklyn right now. And by

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Speaker 1: the way, I'm so happy actually actually flew up here

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Speaker 1: for this. I'm so grateful because I feel like, just

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Speaker 1: to have this conversation with someone that's in a wheelchair

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Speaker 1: and talking about sex, you want to know what they

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Speaker 1: Actually whispered when you were walking. I was like, she's

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Speaker 1: feel bad to say that, but like that's how it comes.

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Speaker 1: I think we all in our minds feel so sorry

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Speaker 1: when we hear about that. But it's just like you

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Speaker 1: So for Vanilla Ship, I feel like it was very

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Speaker 1: Give disabled People Orgasms for a living, and it was

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Speaker 1: about sex surrogates. Have you heard of this? So I

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Speaker 1: did a little recap. Okay, it's a company called Sensual

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Speaker 1: Solutions and they're basically intimacy coaches that help people with disabilities,

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Speaker 1: not like escorting or anything. It's more like kissing and touching.

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Speaker 1: And because people with disabilities get horny and thousands of people,

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Speaker 1: And then there was another company I've that basically volunteered

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Speaker 1: don't know if I I think it was the question

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Speaker 1: but like I but like I could, I could. Sex

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Speaker 1: not everybody's thing is everybody's thing. I respect that I

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Speaker 1: The only thing that I remember them actually doing for

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Speaker 1: did before, Like I wanted to shave my legs on

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Speaker 1: Where do you start feeling sensation? It's weird. So I

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Speaker 1: my breast line down, I'm split directly down the middle,

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Speaker 1: I do my right side. Wow. Yeah, And I mean

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Speaker 1: actually not how the brain works, like how everything's wired. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: they like ask you why, Like they get off on that.

425
00:24:36,400 --> 00:24:40,119
Speaker 1: They like the fact that, um, okay, it's it's a

426
00:24:40,200 --> 00:24:44,520
Speaker 1: whole range of different types of the time. It's a

427
00:24:44,560 --> 00:24:51,000
Speaker 1: whole different range cars like damn, yeah, yeah, tell us

428
00:24:51,200 --> 00:24:54,399
Speaker 1: it's it's a whole different range of people. So you have, um,

429
00:24:54,640 --> 00:24:58,160
Speaker 1: devotees that are attracted to the devices. So it could

430
00:24:58,240 --> 00:25:01,480
Speaker 1: be like your assistant devices. So it could be the wheelchair,

431
00:25:01,560 --> 00:25:07,160
Speaker 1: it could be the crutches, it could be prosthetic. I know,

432
00:25:07,359 --> 00:25:09,760
Speaker 1: I know. So it does a human even need to

433
00:25:09,800 --> 00:25:12,160
Speaker 1: be attached to those things? Are those people who are

434
00:25:12,280 --> 00:25:16,159
Speaker 1: just good? Question? In order for them to actually have

435
00:25:16,200 --> 00:25:20,119
Speaker 1: a sexual relationship, then yes, they need to be like

436
00:25:20,160 --> 00:25:23,960
Speaker 1: a human needs to be a chat to the object.

437
00:25:24,440 --> 00:25:29,480
Speaker 1: Like you're saying, yeah, they want to like I don't

438
00:25:29,480 --> 00:25:31,360
Speaker 1: want to say it. I want to say it. Let's

439
00:25:31,359 --> 00:25:32,720
Speaker 1: say it like they want to come on it and

440
00:25:33,160 --> 00:25:37,840
Speaker 1: they probably do. Now. I I purposely when I I

441
00:25:38,119 --> 00:25:41,159
Speaker 1: when I first realized what was happening. So there is

442
00:25:41,960 --> 00:25:44,720
Speaker 1: a couple of people that would hit me up and okay, Cupid.

443
00:25:45,200 --> 00:25:48,080
Speaker 1: I don't know how they found me or whatever, but

444
00:25:48,200 --> 00:25:51,120
Speaker 1: I'm in Florida. They're all the way in like California.

445
00:25:51,200 --> 00:25:54,200
Speaker 1: There is nothing that you can search in reference to

446
00:25:54,320 --> 00:25:57,720
Speaker 1: someone having a disability, So I don't know what they're

447
00:25:57,880 --> 00:26:01,240
Speaker 1: really going through. They were going picture. Yeah, I don't

448
00:26:01,240 --> 00:26:04,000
Speaker 1: know what they were doing, but they were they were

449
00:26:04,040 --> 00:26:09,720
Speaker 1: finding me. So I would get messages like, um, your

450
00:26:09,840 --> 00:26:14,119
Speaker 1: your wheelchairs like really sexy? Or how are how is you?

451
00:26:15,040 --> 00:26:18,399
Speaker 1: How is how are your legs? Like so full? Because

452
00:26:18,600 --> 00:26:24,000
Speaker 1: some of them are attracted to extra free like the slimness. Yeah,

453
00:26:24,080 --> 00:26:28,479
Speaker 1: so it's when your your muscles aren't um developed, so

454
00:26:28,640 --> 00:26:31,000
Speaker 1: your legs tend to be thinner. I wanted to ask

455
00:26:31,040 --> 00:26:33,960
Speaker 1: you after that is one of my questions, like your body,

456
00:26:34,680 --> 00:26:39,520
Speaker 1: how are you saying shape? But I don't do anything

457
00:26:39,560 --> 00:26:43,080
Speaker 1: I eat, Like you know what that that right titty

458
00:26:43,160 --> 00:26:48,880
Speaker 1: might not feel my No, I am you know what

459
00:26:48,960 --> 00:26:51,280
Speaker 1: it's that you say that? Because when I was younger,

460
00:26:51,359 --> 00:26:55,240
Speaker 1: I was really skinny. So if if a guy at

461
00:26:55,280 --> 00:26:57,080
Speaker 1: that time, I would say around the ages of like

462
00:26:57,200 --> 00:27:00,880
Speaker 1: sixteen to eighteen nineteen years old. I was very thin,

463
00:27:01,080 --> 00:27:03,760
Speaker 1: Like I think I weighed the most was a hundred pounds.

464
00:27:04,160 --> 00:27:08,639
Speaker 1: So at that yeah, at that time, if a devotee

465
00:27:08,760 --> 00:27:11,680
Speaker 1: saw me, they would have loved that ship because I

466
00:27:11,920 --> 00:27:17,440
Speaker 1: looked disabled. Oh I hear you. So did you have

467
00:27:17,640 --> 00:27:20,960
Speaker 1: to learn about all of these things very early to

468
00:27:21,000 --> 00:27:24,040
Speaker 1: kind of protect yourself from these people? Or like is

469
00:27:24,040 --> 00:27:28,440
Speaker 1: it something that you've been collecting whatever came along the way,

470
00:27:28,680 --> 00:27:32,000
Speaker 1: like with the whole the boatie thing, like it was

471
00:27:32,040 --> 00:27:36,040
Speaker 1: people like finding me. And then I think I saw

472
00:27:36,640 --> 00:27:40,320
Speaker 1: a vice article like a vice or broadly um that

473
00:27:40,400 --> 00:27:45,399
Speaker 1: actually went more into detail about devotees. There's wannabes and

474
00:27:45,400 --> 00:27:51,159
Speaker 1: then there's pretenders. So yeah, so you got your wannabes.

475
00:27:51,200 --> 00:27:54,520
Speaker 1: One of these are people that are psychologically want to

476
00:27:54,640 --> 00:27:57,600
Speaker 1: be disabled. Get the fuck out of here for me,

477
00:27:58,800 --> 00:28:02,439
Speaker 1: they wanted me to say. So they attracted to the

478
00:28:02,480 --> 00:28:06,000
Speaker 1: immobility of it. I think it's a little bit of

479
00:28:06,760 --> 00:28:09,320
Speaker 1: it's something that has happened to them when they were younger.

480
00:28:09,400 --> 00:28:11,639
Speaker 1: They were exposed to something that it just kind of

481
00:28:11,680 --> 00:28:15,280
Speaker 1: like clicked in their mind, like, oh my gosh, I

482
00:28:15,320 --> 00:28:17,880
Speaker 1: like the way this looks so like when you think

483
00:28:17,880 --> 00:28:19,879
Speaker 1: about a kid and like you know, maybe they just

484
00:28:19,920 --> 00:28:24,800
Speaker 1: want to be helpless. I feel like it's not wanted episode.

485
00:28:24,800 --> 00:28:26,200
Speaker 1: I don't know if you'll ever saw this, but it

486
00:28:26,280 --> 00:28:28,800
Speaker 1: was this guy that he was kept feeding this woman

487
00:28:28,840 --> 00:28:31,520
Speaker 1: he was with, short, black eyed, fat white girl, and

488
00:28:31,600 --> 00:28:33,720
Speaker 1: he was like, I want her to be so big

489
00:28:33,760 --> 00:28:36,320
Speaker 1: that she can't move. Remember that. He's like, I have

490
00:28:36,440 --> 00:28:37,840
Speaker 1: to watch her. I want to be able to do

491
00:28:37,880 --> 00:28:40,000
Speaker 1: everything for her. That's how like big I want her

492
00:28:40,000 --> 00:28:42,280
Speaker 1: to get. And he got turned onto the fact that

493
00:28:42,280 --> 00:28:47,280
Speaker 1: that ship that is that gives me that isn't a

494
00:28:47,400 --> 00:28:52,600
Speaker 1: level of devoteism like when you people are when yeah,

495
00:28:52,600 --> 00:28:56,480
Speaker 1: when you are actually in um. Some of them liked

496
00:28:56,520 --> 00:28:59,840
Speaker 1: the idea of someone being helpless and they want to

497
00:29:00,000 --> 00:29:02,280
Speaker 1: help them. So when when men find out that you

498
00:29:02,320 --> 00:29:05,680
Speaker 1: can like your body, yeah, that you can move around

499
00:29:05,720 --> 00:29:08,520
Speaker 1: a little bit, are they like surprised? Like how does

500
00:29:08,520 --> 00:29:10,840
Speaker 1: that happen? You go home with a guy one night stand?

501
00:29:10,880 --> 00:29:14,440
Speaker 1: Bone Like let's walk through that, yeah, yeah, because do

502
00:29:14,520 --> 00:29:17,320
Speaker 1: they not know what to do? Are they don't? They

503
00:29:17,320 --> 00:29:20,520
Speaker 1: don't really they don't know in in the moment what

504
00:29:20,640 --> 00:29:23,040
Speaker 1: to do. But when they see like how I am

505
00:29:23,080 --> 00:29:26,200
Speaker 1: able to move, then they kind of like go with

506
00:29:26,400 --> 00:29:30,800
Speaker 1: my flow. Do you ask them if they've been with anyone? Nah,

507
00:29:31,040 --> 00:29:34,880
Speaker 1: because they not. They haven't. They haven't, they haven't. You're

508
00:29:34,920 --> 00:29:40,040
Speaker 1: not like Latina, No they haven't. You know three had attention,

509
00:29:42,000 --> 00:29:45,720
Speaker 1: No they haven't, and they haven't. No, they have it,

510
00:29:46,080 --> 00:29:51,120
Speaker 1: And I think that they assume that I'm like, okay.

511
00:29:51,240 --> 00:29:54,640
Speaker 1: So there's this idea too that when you are in

512
00:29:54,680 --> 00:29:57,320
Speaker 1: a wheelchair that your vagina doesn't work, so in the

513
00:29:57,400 --> 00:30:02,000
Speaker 1: sense of that that you can't get what that you um,

514
00:30:02,040 --> 00:30:05,560
Speaker 1: you're there's no like muscle like you know, contractions at all.

515
00:30:06,440 --> 00:30:09,440
Speaker 1: But I had to like kind of explore my own

516
00:30:09,480 --> 00:30:12,960
Speaker 1: body to figure out like what actually works for me.

517
00:30:13,480 --> 00:30:17,800
Speaker 1: So clatoral simulation is definitely like a huge thing for me,

518
00:30:17,880 --> 00:30:20,400
Speaker 1: like it I feel like what most women it is

519
00:30:20,680 --> 00:30:23,960
Speaker 1: like you have to have like clatoral simulation. So then

520
00:30:24,240 --> 00:30:29,120
Speaker 1: I I okay, So from eleven, I'm masturbated a lot

521
00:30:29,760 --> 00:30:34,440
Speaker 1: before eleven. From eleven, so I'll say about sixteen, I

522
00:30:34,440 --> 00:30:37,959
Speaker 1: didn't masturbate at all because I thought that my I

523
00:30:37,960 --> 00:30:40,400
Speaker 1: wouldn't be able to fill it and I didn't want

524
00:30:40,440 --> 00:30:43,760
Speaker 1: to try to do it and and then be disappointed.

525
00:30:44,680 --> 00:30:48,719
Speaker 1: So I think, no, no, no, don't, don't. But like

526
00:30:48,760 --> 00:30:52,440
Speaker 1: when I got to sixteen, Oh, look, you know what

527
00:30:52,800 --> 00:30:56,760
Speaker 1: this ship like, it's my name and vagina like if

528
00:30:56,800 --> 00:30:59,480
Speaker 1: if it if, it doesn't happen, and it doesn't happen.

529
00:31:00,000 --> 00:31:02,720
Speaker 1: So I started trying to like, you know, masturbate more

530
00:31:03,080 --> 00:31:04,800
Speaker 1: and kind of like figure out what works to me.

531
00:31:05,040 --> 00:31:09,800
Speaker 1: I was ordering toys, um, which is kind of embarrassing

532
00:31:09,840 --> 00:31:12,800
Speaker 1: because I was hoping my parents didn't opened my package.

533
00:31:13,120 --> 00:31:16,120
Speaker 1: But but like, I was ordering toys because I knew,

534
00:31:16,200 --> 00:31:21,400
Speaker 1: like even before the surgery, that tooral stimulation was my thing.

535
00:31:22,560 --> 00:31:27,240
Speaker 1: So I, um, I ordered toys and then I realized, Okay,

536
00:31:27,400 --> 00:31:30,600
Speaker 1: I like the clip thing, but now let me try

537
00:31:31,120 --> 00:31:35,160
Speaker 1: not let me try something with like insertion. So I

538
00:31:35,160 --> 00:31:39,000
Speaker 1: started getting vibrators for insertion. And once I did that,

539
00:31:39,240 --> 00:31:44,400
Speaker 1: and then I made myself orgasm. There's no excuse as

540
00:31:44,440 --> 00:31:48,160
Speaker 1: of why another person that I'm having sex with cannot

541
00:31:48,480 --> 00:31:55,360
Speaker 1: make me. What about your ass? So because it looks

542
00:31:55,560 --> 00:31:57,320
Speaker 1: because you know, when I got a big booty, you

543
00:31:57,360 --> 00:32:00,040
Speaker 1: can tell even when they're sitting down, I can see it.

544
00:32:00,760 --> 00:32:04,520
Speaker 1: You just I can see it. And so I'm interested

545
00:32:04,520 --> 00:32:06,320
Speaker 1: in knowing because I'm sure somebody's wanted to suck you

546
00:32:06,400 --> 00:32:09,320
Speaker 1: the ass. How do you feel like, how does it feel?

547
00:32:09,360 --> 00:32:10,880
Speaker 1: It is it still left and right side? How does

548
00:32:10,920 --> 00:32:14,960
Speaker 1: that feel? Have you ever fingers? There's more nerve endings

549
00:32:15,120 --> 00:32:18,600
Speaker 1: in in your asshole, in like your clear areas. So

550
00:32:19,240 --> 00:32:22,080
Speaker 1: I definitely I've done an noble for so I have

551
00:32:23,600 --> 00:32:26,040
Speaker 1: in like the same process, like you need to have lube,

552
00:32:26,080 --> 00:32:27,720
Speaker 1: like you need to take it easy, like you don't

553
00:32:27,720 --> 00:32:31,360
Speaker 1: want to go on full throttle. Um, I don't know.

554
00:32:31,760 --> 00:32:34,120
Speaker 1: I can't really see that it's the same because I

555
00:32:34,120 --> 00:32:37,640
Speaker 1: feel like that area is more than I have more nerves. Yeah,

556
00:32:37,800 --> 00:32:41,040
Speaker 1: so I don't know if it's the same as my

557
00:32:41,280 --> 00:32:44,400
Speaker 1: vagina and like my my feeling being left and right,

558
00:32:44,840 --> 00:32:48,480
Speaker 1: I'm not sure, but this is this is bullshit. Yeah

559
00:32:48,880 --> 00:32:51,400
Speaker 1: telling me you're disabled. I'm able bodied and I'm not

560
00:32:51,440 --> 00:32:53,520
Speaker 1: sucking in the ass on the regular, bro, why not?

561
00:32:54,160 --> 00:32:57,440
Speaker 1: Like still okay? So like I sucked in the ass once,

562
00:32:57,440 --> 00:32:59,920
Speaker 1: but I keep every time it happens, I don't try

563
00:33:00,080 --> 00:33:02,840
Speaker 1: it because it's not a whole dick, it's like a tip.

564
00:33:03,560 --> 00:33:06,520
Speaker 1: So I feel like I'm not getting sucked me. I mean.

565
00:33:06,520 --> 00:33:09,200
Speaker 1: The thing is you've never you have never been approached

566
00:33:09,240 --> 00:33:11,680
Speaker 1: by someone or someone has never approached it in a

567
00:33:11,680 --> 00:33:13,680
Speaker 1: way that you're comfortable, because once you do it, you're

568
00:33:13,680 --> 00:33:18,080
Speaker 1: gonna want to say yeah, yeah, that might be it. Actually,

569
00:33:18,200 --> 00:33:23,400
Speaker 1: had I thought you picked me, I'll do it right. Hey,

570
00:33:25,960 --> 00:33:28,120
Speaker 1: I've never had a girl tell me she would pick me.

571
00:33:28,240 --> 00:33:31,000
Speaker 1: I feel like you were just talking to this drama.

572
00:33:32,400 --> 00:33:35,360
Speaker 1: We never talked about the traffic ones. No, actually they

573
00:33:35,400 --> 00:33:38,240
Speaker 1: weren't necessary. Also, we did have sex for three hours.

574
00:33:38,680 --> 00:33:40,760
Speaker 1: I was exhausted. I thought my wrist was going to

575
00:33:40,840 --> 00:33:44,520
Speaker 1: break out. Something that might help too, is a warming lube,

576
00:33:45,120 --> 00:33:48,720
Speaker 1: something that's like stimulative, so you when you're like, first

577
00:33:48,720 --> 00:33:50,800
Speaker 1: of all, I asked him, this is my show. I'm

578
00:33:50,840 --> 00:33:55,800
Speaker 1: just saying. I just say I would to say because

579
00:33:55,880 --> 00:34:00,080
Speaker 1: that's like for for me, like with simulation and a

580
00:34:00,200 --> 00:34:03,040
Speaker 1: thing I realized like a warming loube definitely does help

581
00:34:03,120 --> 00:34:06,360
Speaker 1: me more. Um, is there any kind of products that

582
00:34:06,400 --> 00:34:10,960
Speaker 1: you do use UM to help entice the feeling, Like

583
00:34:11,040 --> 00:34:15,640
Speaker 1: do you use like theatoral Joel? I know, not not

584
00:34:15,680 --> 00:34:19,720
Speaker 1: necessarily the gel, but I've gotten toys that I feel

585
00:34:19,760 --> 00:34:24,239
Speaker 1: like definitely works best for me. So there's this one

586
00:34:24,320 --> 00:34:26,880
Speaker 1: I got UM. I can't remember the name of it,

587
00:34:27,000 --> 00:34:32,480
Speaker 1: but it's supposed to be a like flickering tongue, but

588
00:34:32,520 --> 00:34:35,200
Speaker 1: it looks like a little tulip. So it's about the

589
00:34:35,200 --> 00:34:37,800
Speaker 1: fun factory. That's um, I forget the name of it,

590
00:34:37,840 --> 00:34:40,680
Speaker 1: but it's about the fun factory. And it's split down

591
00:34:40,960 --> 00:34:44,560
Speaker 1: the middle and the two flaps are like flickering back

592
00:34:44,560 --> 00:34:48,880
Speaker 1: and forth with a vibration. So what I personally like

593
00:34:49,040 --> 00:34:53,160
Speaker 1: to do is use it as um an insurgent because

594
00:34:53,160 --> 00:34:56,160
Speaker 1: the way it curves, it can sit like on my

595
00:34:56,239 --> 00:34:59,319
Speaker 1: clip and also be inserted as well too. It's kind

596
00:34:59,360 --> 00:35:02,239
Speaker 1: of like my we've I feel yeah yeah, so it's

597
00:35:02,360 --> 00:35:05,719
Speaker 1: I feel like that. That definitely was like I love

598
00:35:05,800 --> 00:35:09,480
Speaker 1: that thing. Speaking of heightening things, what positions are best

599
00:35:09,520 --> 00:35:13,880
Speaker 1: for you and which are very difficult for you? Um,

600
00:35:14,120 --> 00:35:20,360
Speaker 1: Missionary of Horse, Um, doggy, that's good that those are good. Um,

601
00:35:20,520 --> 00:35:23,680
Speaker 1: doggy is good for you. Doggie is good. Um, and

602
00:35:23,719 --> 00:35:26,040
Speaker 1: it's and it's doggy good because you can hold yourself

603
00:35:26,040 --> 00:35:28,080
Speaker 1: with your arms and it feels more secure, Like why

604
00:35:28,160 --> 00:35:32,200
Speaker 1: is doggie good? Kind of but I feel like my

605
00:35:32,200 --> 00:35:37,520
Speaker 1: my pelvic floor drops more too, so I can feel more,

606
00:35:37,560 --> 00:35:40,000
Speaker 1: but I can I can also take more to in

607
00:35:40,080 --> 00:35:45,520
Speaker 1: doggy positions. Yeah yeah yeah, so yeah, now what what

608
00:35:45,760 --> 00:35:50,000
Speaker 1: is difficult? So on top I haven't really like figured

609
00:35:50,480 --> 00:35:53,360
Speaker 1: that out as much yet as far as like me

610
00:35:53,520 --> 00:35:56,320
Speaker 1: having control on top, because I feel like that's typically

611
00:35:56,600 --> 00:35:59,120
Speaker 1: what that position is for, is you having that control.

612
00:35:59,680 --> 00:36:03,520
Speaker 1: So usually if I am on top, the guy is

613
00:36:04,000 --> 00:36:08,160
Speaker 1: doing the work. Yeah, he's doing Like now, do you

614
00:36:08,560 --> 00:36:13,320
Speaker 1: use toys? Um, I've used toys, but for whatever reason,

615
00:36:13,400 --> 00:36:15,680
Speaker 1: it's still doesn't work. They end up coming to you,

616
00:36:15,760 --> 00:36:20,240
Speaker 1: guys because they get they they're feeling the vibration from

617
00:36:20,320 --> 00:36:22,719
Speaker 1: the toy too. I thought she was like using this

618
00:36:22,760 --> 00:36:25,960
Speaker 1: time to have a humble flex like, I mean, I

619
00:36:26,000 --> 00:36:31,239
Speaker 1: couldn't do this, so like one second, dick, right, Like, Okay,

620
00:36:31,280 --> 00:36:34,480
Speaker 1: what's most comfortable for you? Because for me, I get

621
00:36:34,480 --> 00:36:37,000
Speaker 1: on my knees when I'm giving a blowjob. Okay, but

622
00:36:37,040 --> 00:36:40,600
Speaker 1: I'm very curious to know that when you give blow jobs,

623
00:36:40,640 --> 00:36:43,719
Speaker 1: are you are they lying down? Are you? Like? How

624
00:36:43,719 --> 00:36:45,120
Speaker 1: does that work out for you? Because you said that

625
00:36:45,160 --> 00:36:47,480
Speaker 1: you're able to move while you're holding onto things. Yes,

626
00:36:47,880 --> 00:36:51,800
Speaker 1: so for me, I will either be on my side

627
00:36:51,920 --> 00:36:55,839
Speaker 1: and basically kind of like over their waist. So wait wait,

628
00:36:55,880 --> 00:36:58,799
Speaker 1: wait wait wait, So if they're laying this way, let's

629
00:36:58,800 --> 00:37:03,319
Speaker 1: pretend Yeah, I'm gonna be the guy. So they're laying

630
00:37:03,360 --> 00:37:06,160
Speaker 1: this way. Yes, you're laying on the side. Yes, but

631
00:37:06,280 --> 00:37:09,080
Speaker 1: I put my arm over to the other side, and

632
00:37:09,920 --> 00:37:15,720
Speaker 1: so put your arm. You're gonna rest your arm there. Yeah,

633
00:37:16,239 --> 00:37:18,759
Speaker 1: So that way I'm able to support myself. So if

634
00:37:18,880 --> 00:37:22,320
Speaker 1: I get like, you know, tired or whatever, I'm resting

635
00:37:22,520 --> 00:37:27,359
Speaker 1: my head and my my arm, like yeah, because I've

636
00:37:27,360 --> 00:37:32,600
Speaker 1: been getting tired. And these bitches out here, yeah, their knees.

637
00:37:32,640 --> 00:37:35,359
Speaker 1: You were doing it wrong. What I mean too much?

638
00:37:35,440 --> 00:37:38,840
Speaker 1: That's a lot of words. So like I'll be wanting

639
00:37:38,840 --> 00:37:41,080
Speaker 1: to like, you know, rest And have you ever gotten

640
00:37:41,120 --> 00:37:43,560
Speaker 1: annoyed with how a guy was like trying to be

641
00:37:43,640 --> 00:37:45,640
Speaker 1: too careful when they were sucking you and you're like,

642
00:37:45,640 --> 00:37:50,080
Speaker 1: god damn. Yeah. Yeah, it's annoying because they think they're

643
00:37:50,080 --> 00:37:53,360
Speaker 1: gonna hurt me. That's that's another thing too, is like

644
00:37:53,440 --> 00:37:56,440
Speaker 1: they don't want to hurt me, so they're like, is

645
00:37:56,440 --> 00:37:59,719
Speaker 1: it am I doing? It's like is this okay? There

646
00:37:59,719 --> 00:38:02,600
Speaker 1: has been and guys that don't think about that. And

647
00:38:02,719 --> 00:38:05,320
Speaker 1: I have one guy that just like just yank my

648
00:38:05,400 --> 00:38:08,680
Speaker 1: damn legs. I'm not Oh no, like like no, you

649
00:38:08,719 --> 00:38:11,360
Speaker 1: can't do that. My I have pins and rons in

650
00:38:11,440 --> 00:38:14,640
Speaker 1: my spinal cords, so my back doesn't bend, so you

651
00:38:14,719 --> 00:38:17,440
Speaker 1: try to bend my legs back like I'm literally about

652
00:38:17,440 --> 00:38:19,640
Speaker 1: to be folded up like a lawn chair, like you can't,

653
00:38:19,640 --> 00:38:23,279
Speaker 1: like you know, like so like when you're moving, you

654
00:38:23,320 --> 00:38:25,200
Speaker 1: said your favorite position is from behind, So when you're

655
00:38:25,239 --> 00:38:27,080
Speaker 1: turning around, right, you just said your back doesn't been

656
00:38:27,080 --> 00:38:29,319
Speaker 1: too well, Like are you even communicating to let them

657
00:38:29,360 --> 00:38:32,000
Speaker 1: know how sensitive you are with certain things? Yeah, like

658
00:38:32,040 --> 00:38:34,680
Speaker 1: I'll let them know like if that's not if it

659
00:38:34,719 --> 00:38:37,600
Speaker 1: doesn't feel right or they're doing too much, Like yeah,

660
00:38:37,880 --> 00:38:41,839
Speaker 1: I'm very very about that. But like the pre like talk,

661
00:38:42,440 --> 00:38:45,480
Speaker 1: if they don't initiate it, I'm gonna see how well

662
00:38:45,520 --> 00:38:48,440
Speaker 1: they listen to my body and what I say to

663
00:38:48,520 --> 00:38:53,040
Speaker 1: them during sex um to that basically tells me whether

664
00:38:53,080 --> 00:38:55,480
Speaker 1: or not I'm gonna suck you again. Like if you

665
00:38:55,600 --> 00:38:58,640
Speaker 1: if you're not that attentive enough to actually like make

666
00:38:58,680 --> 00:39:02,319
Speaker 1: sure that you're you're not hurt, you're not hurting me,

667
00:39:02,480 --> 00:39:07,400
Speaker 1: you're not um making me uncomfortable, then I'm kind of like, okay,

668
00:39:07,440 --> 00:39:10,560
Speaker 1: I'll this is I want the sex, but also I'm

669
00:39:10,560 --> 00:39:13,640
Speaker 1: probably not gonna suck you again now, So I think

670
00:39:13,680 --> 00:39:15,960
Speaker 1: we went I don't know if we got sidetracked, but

671
00:39:16,000 --> 00:39:18,000
Speaker 1: we talked about one night stand. So I'm curious to

672
00:39:18,000 --> 00:39:19,879
Speaker 1: know with Florida. By the way, there's some drinks over

673
00:39:19,920 --> 00:39:23,720
Speaker 1: there and those cups if you want to be hospitable anybody,

674
00:39:24,840 --> 00:39:28,280
Speaker 1: Um okay in Florida. I used to live in Florida

675
00:39:28,320 --> 00:39:29,880
Speaker 1: and I lived there for eighteen years. We're like, oh,

676
00:39:29,920 --> 00:39:33,040
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, twenty three years of my life, maybe more,

677
00:39:33,120 --> 00:39:36,200
Speaker 1: I don't know. I can't add right now. So I've

678
00:39:36,239 --> 00:39:38,960
Speaker 1: lived in a lot of exterior apartments. How many times

679
00:39:39,280 --> 00:39:41,319
Speaker 1: have you wanted to go home with someone and they

680
00:39:41,360 --> 00:39:43,560
Speaker 1: had a second floor apartment and no elevator? And then

681
00:39:43,560 --> 00:39:48,200
Speaker 1: when you gonna carry my own subd like if if

682
00:39:48,280 --> 00:39:50,719
Speaker 1: you want this pussy, you're going to carry me up

683
00:39:50,880 --> 00:39:54,560
Speaker 1: them downstairs, Like it's like like a dude like picking

684
00:39:54,600 --> 00:39:59,719
Speaker 1: me up. Yeah, they do that, and then it'll be

685
00:39:59,800 --> 00:40:02,759
Speaker 1: like that, and that that lets me know like how

686
00:40:02,880 --> 00:40:09,320
Speaker 1: far man will go just to give fun low literally

687
00:40:09,480 --> 00:40:15,320
Speaker 1: like they are literally physically exerting themselves to get pussy.

688
00:40:17,080 --> 00:40:20,080
Speaker 1: I mean, I haven't funked up people had to carry

689
00:40:20,160 --> 00:40:24,120
Speaker 1: me up this Listen, that's a there's definitely a different

690
00:40:24,160 --> 00:40:26,600
Speaker 1: level of fun up if you carry me up to

691
00:40:26,760 --> 00:40:29,400
Speaker 1: flights the stairs. Now do you do you live with anyone?

692
00:40:29,600 --> 00:40:33,160
Speaker 1: Do you do you live alone? Um? Is there certain

693
00:40:33,160 --> 00:40:35,280
Speaker 1: things in your house that you need to be comfortable?

694
00:40:35,320 --> 00:40:36,600
Speaker 1: Like what like what do you look for in front

695
00:40:36,600 --> 00:40:38,839
Speaker 1: of frontment? Or like am I thinking too much? Are

696
00:40:38,880 --> 00:40:41,719
Speaker 1: we all thinking too much? For me, I don't need

697
00:40:41,760 --> 00:40:45,479
Speaker 1: that much so but for other people, I can't say

698
00:40:45,719 --> 00:40:48,680
Speaker 1: you know that My experience is you know the same

699
00:40:48,680 --> 00:40:51,600
Speaker 1: as theirs. So for me, all I need is wide doorways,

700
00:40:52,640 --> 00:40:56,920
Speaker 1: a light, low countertaps for me to reach stuff. Um.

701
00:40:56,960 --> 00:40:59,880
Speaker 1: But then that as long as my bathroom is it sussed,

702
00:41:00,600 --> 00:41:04,880
Speaker 1: my room is accessible, I'm good. It's literally just doorway

703
00:41:04,920 --> 00:41:07,960
Speaker 1: space and no steps at all. So in the dating profile,

704
00:41:08,080 --> 00:41:11,279
Speaker 1: and I want you to be honest, I feel like

705
00:41:11,320 --> 00:41:15,120
Speaker 1: a lot of women kind of bullshit with their bodies.

706
00:41:15,160 --> 00:41:19,360
Speaker 1: For example, they use pictures of like their face and

707
00:41:19,400 --> 00:41:20,680
Speaker 1: maybe not the rest of it to let you know

708
00:41:20,719 --> 00:41:23,040
Speaker 1: they look. Have you ever had a time because you

709
00:41:23,080 --> 00:41:24,920
Speaker 1: seem very confident right now to me in this moment,

710
00:41:24,920 --> 00:41:27,279
Speaker 1: but also almost thirty, have never been a time where

711
00:41:27,320 --> 00:41:29,520
Speaker 1: you've only used your face and not told people you

712
00:41:29,560 --> 00:41:32,279
Speaker 1: had a chair in fear that they I've done it all,

713
00:41:32,719 --> 00:41:35,759
Speaker 1: so I had to It was to the point where

714
00:41:35,760 --> 00:41:38,960
Speaker 1: I had to do my research if other people were

715
00:41:39,000 --> 00:41:42,400
Speaker 1: experiencing the same thing that I was experiencing. So I

716
00:41:42,440 --> 00:41:50,040
Speaker 1: went through the first stage of posting the wheelchair first

717
00:41:50,080 --> 00:41:53,359
Speaker 1: like a photo of me and the wheelchair, um, and

718
00:41:53,400 --> 00:41:56,840
Speaker 1: then face pictures and then maybe another wheelchair pick. I

719
00:41:56,920 --> 00:42:00,319
Speaker 1: won't say anything in the profile, but you can see

720
00:42:00,440 --> 00:42:05,239
Speaker 1: the damn chair in the pictures, so they'll swipe right

721
00:42:06,280 --> 00:42:09,960
Speaker 1: and then they'll message me or whatever, and I'm you

722
00:42:10,040 --> 00:42:12,239
Speaker 1: get to the point where like, okay, do you want

723
00:42:12,239 --> 00:42:14,120
Speaker 1: to hang out? Like what are you about to do?

724
00:42:15,120 --> 00:42:18,160
Speaker 1: And I had to make a like I had to

725
00:42:18,320 --> 00:42:21,680
Speaker 1: double check to make sure that they saw that I

726
00:42:21,840 --> 00:42:30,880
Speaker 1: use a chair. Don't tell me somebody I can, yes, yes, yes, yes.

727
00:42:32,120 --> 00:42:33,920
Speaker 1: They will literally be like you can see when you

728
00:42:34,000 --> 00:42:38,959
Speaker 1: got a cock sucking wheelchair. I'm literally sitting in ship.

729
00:42:39,200 --> 00:42:43,040
Speaker 1: Let me show you just up and down that profile.

730
00:42:44,040 --> 00:42:48,280
Speaker 1: How tall they am? Yeah, I'm like, are you serious?

731
00:42:48,360 --> 00:42:52,279
Speaker 1: Like I'm literally sitting in my my wheelchair and this

732
00:42:52,360 --> 00:42:55,000
Speaker 1: is like one of the pictures that I use on

733
00:42:55,160 --> 00:43:00,920
Speaker 1: my profile in general, Like yeah, you see see the wheels,

734
00:43:01,000 --> 00:43:02,919
Speaker 1: And I'm like, why would I be sitting in front

735
00:43:02,960 --> 00:43:06,840
Speaker 1: of the fucking mirror. So then they got to the

736
00:43:06,880 --> 00:43:10,120
Speaker 1: point where I was like, okay, they're not paying attention.

737
00:43:11,040 --> 00:43:14,120
Speaker 1: Let me yeah, y yeah, I'm looking at your ask

738
00:43:14,200 --> 00:43:18,759
Speaker 1: so much. I don't know where. He says, Okay, you're

739
00:43:18,880 --> 00:43:21,000
Speaker 1: out in the party, like we see the full visual,

740
00:43:21,080 --> 00:43:24,759
Speaker 1: like we see the rim, but see there. I don't

741
00:43:24,760 --> 00:43:27,359
Speaker 1: see no spit vinnors. I'm looking at it, and I'm

742
00:43:27,400 --> 00:43:31,040
Speaker 1: just like okay. So then then I thought, okay, maybe

743
00:43:31,120 --> 00:43:35,360
Speaker 1: maybe maybe the chair is not, you know, as prominent

744
00:43:35,360 --> 00:43:37,520
Speaker 1: in the pictures as they need to be. So then

745
00:43:37,520 --> 00:43:40,560
Speaker 1: I started putting in my profile, um, if you have

746
00:43:40,640 --> 00:43:43,840
Speaker 1: an issue with me using a chair, don't even bother

747
00:43:43,920 --> 00:43:46,759
Speaker 1: swiping right. But yes I use a wheelchair, do not

748
00:43:46,800 --> 00:43:51,080
Speaker 1: swipe right if that bothers you, exactly, So they don't read.

749
00:43:52,920 --> 00:43:55,360
Speaker 1: So I'm like, I can't win for losing, like y'all,

750
00:43:56,080 --> 00:43:59,600
Speaker 1: it's just so I hear you in the profile. I

751
00:43:59,719 --> 00:44:01,360
Speaker 1: used to something else trump, I took that off, and

752
00:44:01,400 --> 00:44:03,640
Speaker 1: I then I put if you're on that all Lives

753
00:44:03,640 --> 00:44:07,960
Speaker 1: Matter ship, And I was talking to a guy for

754
00:44:08,000 --> 00:44:11,160
Speaker 1: weeks that later said, oh, I went to look on

755
00:44:11,239 --> 00:44:13,480
Speaker 1: your Tinder profile to show my friends a picture you

756
00:44:13,600 --> 00:44:17,319
Speaker 1: and why do you have this? And I'm like, you've

757
00:44:17,400 --> 00:44:20,960
Speaker 1: been in my house with Malcolm X pinchers on the wall,

758
00:44:21,480 --> 00:44:24,279
Speaker 1: and now you want to go, yeah, that was too

759
00:44:24,360 --> 00:44:31,200
Speaker 1: niggerish for you today. Stop dating guys. I should. That's

760
00:44:31,239 --> 00:44:34,359
Speaker 1: how me and you matched on Tinder. And by the way,

761
00:44:34,400 --> 00:44:37,640
Speaker 1: I haven't a white guy the last two dicks. Wait,

762
00:44:38,680 --> 00:44:45,239
Speaker 1: the last dick, so it's like last half. No, I'm

763
00:44:45,239 --> 00:44:47,160
Speaker 1: gonna tell you. I don't know what it is that's

764
00:44:47,160 --> 00:44:48,719
Speaker 1: clicking to me that like I just can't do it

765
00:44:48,760 --> 00:44:52,120
Speaker 1: anymore anywhere forever. But I'm not right now. My white

766
00:44:52,120 --> 00:44:54,239
Speaker 1: friends are like that, you gotta stop now. I feel

767
00:44:54,280 --> 00:44:56,600
Speaker 1: like it's just like I had to stop too. I'd

768
00:44:56,600 --> 00:44:59,200
Speaker 1: like right there with you. I'm just really sensitive in

769
00:44:59,280 --> 00:45:02,480
Speaker 1: this climate. Why don't you say that when like you

770
00:45:02,880 --> 00:45:05,200
Speaker 1: what we do. I'm curious because I know the last

771
00:45:05,200 --> 00:45:08,799
Speaker 1: guy you dated you felt like he wasn't I hate

772
00:45:08,800 --> 00:45:11,000
Speaker 1: the word woke out socially conscious enough for you. You

773
00:45:11,000 --> 00:45:12,719
Speaker 1: said that that really bothers you when you guys watched

774
00:45:12,760 --> 00:45:15,200
Speaker 1: your white people. Now, now, how do you feel about

775
00:45:15,200 --> 00:45:18,680
Speaker 1: it now, about him specifically, or about like dating white guys?

776
00:45:18,680 --> 00:45:20,840
Speaker 1: When do you find that just that there are way

777
00:45:21,000 --> 00:45:23,880
Speaker 1: better ones out there than other ones. I don't know

778
00:45:23,920 --> 00:45:26,120
Speaker 1: how else to say that. Like right now, my partner

779
00:45:26,200 --> 00:45:29,919
Speaker 1: is wonderful and he is extremely socially conscious and even

780
00:45:29,960 --> 00:45:32,040
Speaker 1: if you know you grow up with certain things, and

781
00:45:32,080 --> 00:45:33,640
Speaker 1: he still will say some ship and I'll just check

782
00:45:33,719 --> 00:45:36,480
Speaker 1: him real hard and he's like, cool, got it? Have

783
00:45:36,640 --> 00:45:40,560
Speaker 1: you had? I've always wanted to ask you. I remember

784
00:45:40,560 --> 00:45:45,240
Speaker 1: telling someone about you and your party, right, and he's like,

785
00:45:45,239 --> 00:45:50,040
Speaker 1: like Indian she is, and I'm like, well, half, but

786
00:45:50,400 --> 00:45:54,719
Speaker 1: I mean I'm so confused. She looks, and I like, yeah,

787
00:45:55,000 --> 00:45:58,600
Speaker 1: I don't know about it. I feel like like it

788
00:45:58,880 --> 00:46:01,000
Speaker 1: to me like you look in maybe I'm confused with

789
00:46:01,080 --> 00:46:03,440
Speaker 1: in me in the East West, but like, yeah, what happens?

790
00:46:03,440 --> 00:46:05,040
Speaker 1: Do you ever have like guys who are like, oh

791
00:46:05,040 --> 00:46:09,080
Speaker 1: my god, my first need? Oh no? If that ever

792
00:46:09,160 --> 00:46:12,879
Speaker 1: fucking happened to me, I don't know what I would

793
00:46:12,880 --> 00:46:15,680
Speaker 1: do because I have found that a lot of times

794
00:46:15,719 --> 00:46:18,600
Speaker 1: people will tell me I'm there first something not. But

795
00:46:18,719 --> 00:46:22,319
Speaker 1: it's bothered me so much now. And I think men

796
00:46:22,360 --> 00:46:25,440
Speaker 1: that typically like me typically have dated other women who

797
00:46:25,440 --> 00:46:27,480
Speaker 1: are like me. What's the good point? Like they like

798
00:46:27,920 --> 00:46:29,759
Speaker 1: you look at their past history and they're all like

799
00:46:30,440 --> 00:46:34,120
Speaker 1: some something of something. Yeah. So I'm trying to think

800
00:46:34,160 --> 00:46:36,200
Speaker 1: of some final thoughts because I know, I feel like

801
00:46:36,560 --> 00:46:39,040
Speaker 1: this is such an important episode and I don't want

802
00:46:39,080 --> 00:46:42,200
Speaker 1: to let the hour go by and someone's like, how

803
00:46:42,200 --> 00:46:44,759
Speaker 1: the fund? Could you have not asked her? That does

804
00:46:44,800 --> 00:46:46,520
Speaker 1: anyone in the room. We have a few people in

805
00:46:46,560 --> 00:46:48,200
Speaker 1: the room have a question that you think I missed

806
00:46:48,440 --> 00:46:50,840
Speaker 1: or that you're wondering right now. You guys are a

807
00:46:50,880 --> 00:46:54,279
Speaker 1: little like you weren't here the whole time, but well,

808
00:46:54,360 --> 00:47:03,680
Speaker 1: would yeah tell it sounds like the ground rate I

809
00:47:03,760 --> 00:47:06,200
Speaker 1: walked in late. I'm sorry, it's okay here. Your episode

810
00:47:06,239 --> 00:47:15,640
Speaker 1: isn't coming yet. Do they how do they eat your ass? No? No,

811
00:47:16,200 --> 00:47:19,960
Speaker 1: we answered the basic question, what do you no? No, no,

812
00:47:21,480 --> 00:47:25,399
Speaker 1: whole thing. That's a good question with me, like being

813
00:47:25,440 --> 00:47:29,600
Speaker 1: able to do doggie, like I can get on all fours?

814
00:47:29,600 --> 00:47:34,399
Speaker 1: Oh oh, so so Loki asked how do they eat

815
00:47:34,560 --> 00:47:38,640
Speaker 1: Ashley's ass? And it's funny because I wanted to talk

816
00:47:38,680 --> 00:47:40,880
Speaker 1: about oral sex, but I was kind of thinking, like

817
00:47:40,960 --> 00:47:43,600
Speaker 1: you on your back? Yeah, yeah, but like are you

818
00:47:43,640 --> 00:47:45,799
Speaker 1: feeling so you get on all fours? That is that

819
00:47:45,840 --> 00:47:47,640
Speaker 1: what you prefer when someone's going down to you not

820
00:47:47,760 --> 00:47:50,760
Speaker 1: necessarily that, but if someone wanted to eat my ass,

821
00:47:50,800 --> 00:47:53,600
Speaker 1: that that will be the position because when you were

822
00:47:53,600 --> 00:47:57,040
Speaker 1: saying your legs, yeah, I have to put them to yeah,

823
00:47:57,080 --> 00:48:03,840
Speaker 1: exactly exactly by masks eaten all for too. So yeah,

824
00:48:04,200 --> 00:48:07,560
Speaker 1: I just feel like you have like access to both

825
00:48:07,680 --> 00:48:12,160
Speaker 1: easily so you can go back and for b. So, yeah,

826
00:48:12,520 --> 00:48:14,480
Speaker 1: have you ever had sex with someone that was disabled?

827
00:48:14,480 --> 00:48:18,640
Speaker 1: To know, I wanted to ask that question. Yeah, I'm

828
00:48:19,000 --> 00:48:22,279
Speaker 1: I think that that would not was harder, I want

829
00:48:22,280 --> 00:48:26,799
Speaker 1: to say necessarily harder, but you that definitely will have

830
00:48:26,960 --> 00:48:30,839
Speaker 1: more of a dialogue prior to having sex because we

831
00:48:30,920 --> 00:48:33,040
Speaker 1: need to know what each person is able to do

832
00:48:33,840 --> 00:48:36,120
Speaker 1: and what works for them versus what works for me.

833
00:48:36,760 --> 00:48:40,120
Speaker 1: So I think with with having sex with another person

834
00:48:40,200 --> 00:48:43,279
Speaker 1: that is they say disabled, definitely there would be more

835
00:48:43,840 --> 00:48:47,520
Speaker 1: a dialogue before sex. Have you ever been attracted to

836
00:48:47,600 --> 00:48:52,279
Speaker 1: someone who's there for me? There? Because I was wondering that,

837
00:48:52,360 --> 00:48:54,600
Speaker 1: like I feel like there might be a community or

838
00:48:54,640 --> 00:48:57,319
Speaker 1: like some kind of Facebook or anything, right, And so

839
00:48:57,360 --> 00:48:59,080
Speaker 1: that's what made me wonder if you've ever met someone

840
00:48:59,120 --> 00:49:02,040
Speaker 1: that you've been into and it's never it's never been

841
00:49:02,080 --> 00:49:04,960
Speaker 1: like on a community type thing. It'll just be like

842
00:49:05,040 --> 00:49:09,680
Speaker 1: out in public because okay, being that I am from Jacksonville,

843
00:49:09,840 --> 00:49:13,120
Speaker 1: like I'm usually like I still got like a sore thumb,

844
00:49:13,200 --> 00:49:16,759
Speaker 1: so I'm usually the only person in that area that

845
00:49:17,120 --> 00:49:20,440
Speaker 1: had that uses a wheelchair. So when I when you

846
00:49:20,480 --> 00:49:22,360
Speaker 1: say that area, but do you I do want to

847
00:49:22,400 --> 00:49:24,480
Speaker 1: ask do you get to black club? Specifically? Do you

848
00:49:24,480 --> 00:49:26,120
Speaker 1: get to a certain like are you in a certain group?

849
00:49:26,160 --> 00:49:29,439
Speaker 1: I've been too, so I feel like people like see

850
00:49:29,440 --> 00:49:31,440
Speaker 1: you when they know that you're Yeah, I don't want

851
00:49:31,440 --> 00:49:34,960
Speaker 1: to say it the pretty girl in the chair? Yeah,

852
00:49:35,320 --> 00:49:38,719
Speaker 1: yeah that I've gotten that since high school, Like I went,

853
00:49:38,880 --> 00:49:42,200
Speaker 1: I went to a predominantly black high school. It's a

854
00:49:42,280 --> 00:49:44,480
Speaker 1: huge high school, but I was the only person in

855
00:49:44,520 --> 00:49:48,320
Speaker 1: the wheelchair, so I was known as the pretty girl

856
00:49:48,400 --> 00:49:51,080
Speaker 1: in the wheelchair. I hate that ship And the only

857
00:49:51,080 --> 00:49:53,319
Speaker 1: reason why I hated at that time is because that

858
00:49:53,760 --> 00:49:57,560
Speaker 1: the fact that um other girls shooting me like ship

859
00:49:57,920 --> 00:50:03,439
Speaker 1: because of that. Yeah is yeah, because listen, not only

860
00:50:03,480 --> 00:50:05,400
Speaker 1: did I have to deal with colorism, I had to

861
00:50:05,440 --> 00:50:08,239
Speaker 1: deal with able is m as well. So you're not

862
00:50:08,320 --> 00:50:13,080
Speaker 1: only light skinned, you are what I guess traditionally pretty.

863
00:50:13,440 --> 00:50:16,040
Speaker 1: Why you use a wheelchair like that, bitch ain't better

864
00:50:16,080 --> 00:50:19,760
Speaker 1: than me, like she in a wheelchair like what like, Yeah,

865
00:50:20,120 --> 00:50:22,359
Speaker 1: it was that that mentality that I kind of had

866
00:50:22,400 --> 00:50:25,319
Speaker 1: to deal with throughout high school. Sitting here in my

867
00:50:25,320 --> 00:50:30,000
Speaker 1: mouth because people blow my fond yea, even even as

868
00:50:30,040 --> 00:50:33,239
Speaker 1: a kid, I feel like I had empathy. I don't

869
00:50:33,280 --> 00:50:36,719
Speaker 1: feel like that took me time to learn at all.

870
00:50:36,920 --> 00:50:39,520
Speaker 1: So it just really fucking blows my mind. I'm sure

871
00:50:39,600 --> 00:50:42,200
Speaker 1: someone told you, like fuck you, like, yeah, you think

872
00:50:42,239 --> 00:50:46,160
Speaker 1: you're pretty like you because you're in this. I had

873
00:50:46,200 --> 00:50:49,719
Speaker 1: a dude recently. He's a local repriangle say no names

874
00:50:49,880 --> 00:50:53,600
Speaker 1: in Jacksonville. Do I know what it is? You might?

875
00:50:53,960 --> 00:50:58,359
Speaker 1: I don't know. He's a Jacksonville rapper though. Anyways, he

876
00:50:58,520 --> 00:51:01,920
Speaker 1: had been hitting me up for longest on Facebook like

877
00:51:02,040 --> 00:51:05,640
Speaker 1: he but it'll be like that, it's not poking anymore.

878
00:51:05,719 --> 00:51:09,239
Speaker 1: They wave at your ass. So he'd be waving one

879
00:51:09,280 --> 00:51:15,600
Speaker 1: of things yeah, just like yeah, yeah right. So I

880
00:51:15,600 --> 00:51:17,640
Speaker 1: got to the point where I'm like, yo, like stop

881
00:51:17,680 --> 00:51:20,240
Speaker 1: waving at me. If you want to speak speak, stop

882
00:51:20,280 --> 00:51:22,720
Speaker 1: doing that ship. So it was like a little small

883
00:51:22,760 --> 00:51:24,560
Speaker 1: talk of what I'm like, why you hit me up?

884
00:51:24,640 --> 00:51:28,160
Speaker 1: You fine? I'm like, okay, what else? Like is that? It?

885
00:51:28,239 --> 00:51:30,120
Speaker 1: Like is that all you gotta say. So we got

886
00:51:30,160 --> 00:51:32,200
Speaker 1: to the point where he kept doing that, and then

887
00:51:32,320 --> 00:51:35,680
Speaker 1: he actually asked me to come over, and I was like,

888
00:51:36,600 --> 00:51:38,839
Speaker 1: I know what you're trying to do. Like you're used

889
00:51:38,840 --> 00:51:41,919
Speaker 1: to getting bitches, you know, dropping a dime on you.

890
00:51:42,000 --> 00:51:44,799
Speaker 1: Whenever you say come through, they come through. I'm not

891
00:51:44,840 --> 00:51:49,680
Speaker 1: that bitch. So, yes, you're attractive. All I know about

892
00:51:49,680 --> 00:51:53,399
Speaker 1: you is that you do music. That's it. I need

893
00:51:53,480 --> 00:51:58,160
Speaker 1: some type of like it, like dialogue, like stimulate my

894
00:51:58,239 --> 00:52:02,160
Speaker 1: damn mind first song. I mean, has has anyone ever

895
00:52:02,200 --> 00:52:04,720
Speaker 1: said to you that, like you're lucky because you're pretty,

896
00:52:04,719 --> 00:52:06,040
Speaker 1: Like it would be a lot harder for you to date.

897
00:52:08,520 --> 00:52:10,040
Speaker 1: It's still been. I mean, I feel like it's I

898
00:52:10,080 --> 00:52:12,719
Speaker 1: don't pretty. I feel like it's would be difficult. Yeah,

899
00:52:12,760 --> 00:52:15,560
Speaker 1: it is because they are single right now? Are Yeah,

900
00:52:15,600 --> 00:52:20,160
Speaker 1: I'm single. I'm I'm dating, but I'm definitely single. Um.

901
00:52:20,239 --> 00:52:23,840
Speaker 1: I think a lot of what has happened is they,

902
00:52:23,960 --> 00:52:26,200
Speaker 1: like I said before, they liked the idea of me,

903
00:52:26,320 --> 00:52:29,359
Speaker 1: so they'll get into it and don't realize his word.

904
00:52:29,520 --> 00:52:32,200
Speaker 1: Then now it ain't even work. They ain't gotta do ship.

905
00:52:32,640 --> 00:52:35,120
Speaker 1: You don't gotta do ship for me. They don't have

906
00:52:35,200 --> 00:52:39,200
Speaker 1: to do a damn thing. It's all about image. It's

907
00:52:39,360 --> 00:52:42,960
Speaker 1: literally all about image. I was dating a guy i'll

908
00:52:43,000 --> 00:52:46,440
Speaker 1: say about three or four years ago, and I realized

909
00:52:46,640 --> 00:52:50,839
Speaker 1: after the fact, like he posted his previous girlfriends on

910
00:52:50,920 --> 00:52:55,520
Speaker 1: social media, he posted girls after me on social media

911
00:52:55,480 --> 00:52:59,000
Speaker 1: and never posted me. Yeah, so it's like me kind

912
00:52:59,000 --> 00:53:02,239
Speaker 1: of like taking into count Like, Okay, some guys are

913
00:53:02,320 --> 00:53:05,560
Speaker 1: going to feel shame. Well what is What it is

914
00:53:05,560 --> 00:53:09,280
Speaker 1: is that it's not necessarily them. They're they're probably okay

915
00:53:09,320 --> 00:53:11,799
Speaker 1: with you know, me being in a chair. It's what

916
00:53:11,840 --> 00:53:15,359
Speaker 1: they think society would think about them by dating someone

917
00:53:15,400 --> 00:53:19,360
Speaker 1: in the share Society will say like, oh, you're a pervert,

918
00:53:19,560 --> 00:53:24,640
Speaker 1: like you're taking advantage um all these Yeah, you can't

919
00:53:24,640 --> 00:53:27,840
Speaker 1: give un Yeah yeah, because people would think like the

920
00:53:28,000 --> 00:53:29,719
Speaker 1: pretty men in this room, I'll tell you right now,

921
00:53:29,760 --> 00:53:36,200
Speaker 1: they've all checked you. They how Um I guess my

922
00:53:36,239 --> 00:53:40,280
Speaker 1: last question before we get into homemail. Um, how is it?

923
00:53:41,239 --> 00:53:43,480
Speaker 1: I don't know right now, like currently dating, Like you've

924
00:53:43,560 --> 00:53:45,440
Speaker 1: learned that this has happened. Is there anything that you

925
00:53:45,719 --> 00:53:47,800
Speaker 1: won't take? Are there things that you're willing to work through?

926
00:53:47,840 --> 00:53:49,799
Speaker 1: Like what are the things that are like absolute knows

927
00:53:49,880 --> 00:53:53,000
Speaker 1: for you? When it comes to like men, and I

928
00:53:53,080 --> 00:53:58,759
Speaker 1: think at this point, um, I really don't. It's not

929
00:53:58,800 --> 00:54:02,279
Speaker 1: even with the me in a chair. It's men that

930
00:54:03,000 --> 00:54:05,719
Speaker 1: will say to me that they've never been with the

931
00:54:05,880 --> 00:54:11,360
Speaker 1: black girl before. So as soon as I get that,

932
00:54:11,440 --> 00:54:14,120
Speaker 1: I'm like, like, I don't want to hear that ship.

933
00:54:14,360 --> 00:54:18,400
Speaker 1: I don't want Yeah, it is gross, but what's crazy

934
00:54:18,400 --> 00:54:22,320
Speaker 1: with black men they seem to enjoy that. I feel

935
00:54:22,360 --> 00:54:24,600
Speaker 1: like there's a white woman who comes to them and says,

936
00:54:24,600 --> 00:54:27,520
Speaker 1: I've never been Obviously, I'm not speaking for all, but

937
00:54:27,719 --> 00:54:30,480
Speaker 1: I can only speak for my experiences with asking that

938
00:54:30,560 --> 00:54:33,600
Speaker 1: question of fetishizing. I feel like black women constantly have

939
00:54:33,680 --> 00:54:36,480
Speaker 1: that question to ask and they feel so disrespected by

940
00:54:36,520 --> 00:54:38,640
Speaker 1: And I can completely understand why I've been offended by

941
00:54:38,719 --> 00:54:43,760
Speaker 1: questions things like that. But with men, they're like conquer

942
00:54:43,840 --> 00:54:47,080
Speaker 1: the white girl type of thing. It's fucking porn. I'm

943
00:54:47,080 --> 00:54:49,879
Speaker 1: telling you, it's like all the way that porn has

944
00:54:49,880 --> 00:54:54,280
Speaker 1: rewired our brains because that's that is such a fucking

945
00:54:54,320 --> 00:54:57,439
Speaker 1: storyline in porn and things that you see played out

946
00:54:57,480 --> 00:55:02,239
Speaker 1: all the time, and it sucks, but that kind of

947
00:55:02,280 --> 00:55:05,160
Speaker 1: porn is marketed towards young men, and then they're seeing

948
00:55:05,239 --> 00:55:07,800
Speaker 1: it and then they're wanting to act that out. You

949
00:55:07,840 --> 00:55:09,759
Speaker 1: can't come to something a bunch of times and then

950
00:55:09,800 --> 00:55:13,840
Speaker 1: not like, you know, I have any kind of like

951
00:55:13,920 --> 00:55:17,479
Speaker 1: mental affiliation. I don't know if I but I think

952
00:55:17,520 --> 00:55:20,200
Speaker 1: I hear you because it's you don't want anybody to

953
00:55:20,200 --> 00:55:22,600
Speaker 1: come on your face. Yeah, but not like twenty people.

954
00:55:23,400 --> 00:55:25,440
Speaker 1: It doesn't have to be twenty people. Oh I definitely

955
00:55:25,480 --> 00:55:27,520
Speaker 1: want someone to come on my face. Yeah, So where

956
00:55:27,560 --> 00:55:29,200
Speaker 1: you think you learned that from? You came out the

957
00:55:29,200 --> 00:55:31,120
Speaker 1: wound being like, yeah, I want everybody come on my face.

958
00:55:31,280 --> 00:55:35,560
Speaker 1: So you're saying blue Cockey made me want facials. The

959
00:55:35,719 --> 00:55:39,799
Speaker 1: porn you watch has absolutely relatism too, the things that

960
00:55:39,840 --> 00:55:41,480
Speaker 1: you like. I don't need you to read me right now.

961
00:55:43,600 --> 00:55:46,560
Speaker 1: I have my own therapist. It doesn't even have to

962
00:55:46,600 --> 00:55:49,560
Speaker 1: be that that extreme though. I think a lot of

963
00:55:49,600 --> 00:55:52,640
Speaker 1: men learn how to fun from porn. I don't know

964
00:55:52,600 --> 00:56:01,160
Speaker 1: how from porn, but come on, but I feel like

965
00:56:01,160 --> 00:56:04,279
Speaker 1: it's it's different when you are actually like having like

966
00:56:04,520 --> 00:56:09,560
Speaker 1: sex with someone. The mannerisms, the things that they say,

967
00:56:09,880 --> 00:56:13,279
Speaker 1: like there's no telling if I'm actually gonna like you

968
00:56:13,840 --> 00:56:17,520
Speaker 1: talking to me, calling me a bit or splut or whatever, like,

969
00:56:18,200 --> 00:56:20,839
Speaker 1: but because they washed us have a porn they think

970
00:56:20,880 --> 00:56:22,920
Speaker 1: that that that's what bites why like that. I'm going

971
00:56:22,960 --> 00:56:25,560
Speaker 1: to say this actually in my next episode, I want

972
00:56:25,560 --> 00:56:28,160
Speaker 1: to discuss a little bit like women feeling guilty for

973
00:56:28,360 --> 00:56:32,520
Speaker 1: enjoying those things as well. So for whole mail, I

974
00:56:32,560 --> 00:56:34,160
Speaker 1: have one that I did pick for you and one

975
00:56:34,200 --> 00:56:40,080
Speaker 1: for you. So the one I picked for you. Um, yes,

976
00:56:40,680 --> 00:56:43,360
Speaker 1: So I've always known you to be Polly. You've always

977
00:56:43,400 --> 00:56:47,960
Speaker 1: told me that, um, and I remember being very confused

978
00:56:48,040 --> 00:56:50,880
Speaker 1: because when you and I first met and like so

979
00:56:50,960 --> 00:56:54,520
Speaker 1: to speak, dating right and going out, you invited me

980
00:56:54,600 --> 00:56:57,760
Speaker 1: out with your boyfriend at the time, and I remember

981
00:56:57,920 --> 00:57:00,600
Speaker 1: being jealous. Remember we went on to them because in restaurant,

982
00:57:00,920 --> 00:57:02,600
Speaker 1: because I wanted to be with you alone. But I

983
00:57:02,640 --> 00:57:04,600
Speaker 1: also had to understand, like if I want to date you,

984
00:57:04,640 --> 00:57:05,960
Speaker 1: he's got to be okay with this, and I was

985
00:57:06,120 --> 00:57:11,160
Speaker 1: very confused with how it would work. So I want

986
00:57:11,200 --> 00:57:13,240
Speaker 1: you to kind of just maybe just run us through Polly.

987
00:57:13,280 --> 00:57:15,160
Speaker 1: But this is a question about it. Um, Hey, ladies,

988
00:57:15,200 --> 00:57:17,320
Speaker 1: how are you doing. I'm writing to say thank you

989
00:57:17,320 --> 00:57:19,560
Speaker 1: and asked for more details. I've recently realized that I'm

990
00:57:19,600 --> 00:57:22,000
Speaker 1: one maybe by I've only had one woman partner and

991
00:57:22,040 --> 00:57:25,920
Speaker 1: I don't mind having a relationship with her. Two that

992
00:57:26,040 --> 00:57:28,440
Speaker 1: I can be happy only in a Polly relationship. The

993
00:57:28,480 --> 00:57:30,320
Speaker 1: woman I'm with is still married and her husband doesn't

994
00:57:30,320 --> 00:57:33,040
Speaker 1: know about us, and at least not yet according to her.

995
00:57:33,400 --> 00:57:36,120
Speaker 1: I'm currently dating men, but if things don't work between

996
00:57:36,120 --> 00:57:37,720
Speaker 1: the woman and I, I feel like I'd be open

997
00:57:37,720 --> 00:57:40,200
Speaker 1: to having relationship with another woman. I know it's not

998
00:57:40,240 --> 00:57:42,400
Speaker 1: just sex, it's more of the connection with someone. When

999
00:57:42,440 --> 00:57:44,240
Speaker 1: I came to the realization that I'm okay with being

1000
00:57:44,240 --> 00:57:46,360
Speaker 1: in the Polly lifestyle, I quickly went to the episode

1001
00:57:46,360 --> 00:57:49,320
Speaker 1: that I first heard with details about on episode thirty

1002
00:57:49,320 --> 00:57:51,920
Speaker 1: four with King Noir. I was my favorite when I

1003
00:57:51,920 --> 00:57:53,400
Speaker 1: first heard it last year, and now I have a

1004
00:57:53,440 --> 00:57:56,080
Speaker 1: clear vision. Well anymore? Will you have any more Polly

1005
00:57:56,120 --> 00:57:58,280
Speaker 1: Lifestyle couples or guests in the show? What are some

1006
00:57:58,320 --> 00:58:00,680
Speaker 1: advice to newbies in the Polly world I'm dating, I

1007
00:58:00,680 --> 00:58:02,520
Speaker 1: would love some advice. When's a good time to bring

1008
00:58:02,640 --> 00:58:05,000
Speaker 1: up on Polly um and how do I deal with

1009
00:58:05,080 --> 00:58:07,040
Speaker 1: the girl and her husband? A lot of questions there,

1010
00:58:07,040 --> 00:58:10,160
Speaker 1: but first of all, what is probably and what are

1011
00:58:10,600 --> 00:58:12,840
Speaker 1: what's the advice you have for Nubi in the Polly World?

1012
00:58:13,480 --> 00:58:18,640
Speaker 1: So polly um. Polyamorous is kind of an all encompassing word,

1013
00:58:18,680 --> 00:58:21,760
Speaker 1: and then you bring into words like open relationships and

1014
00:58:21,800 --> 00:58:24,400
Speaker 1: non monogamy, and they all mean kind of the same

1015
00:58:24,440 --> 00:58:26,040
Speaker 1: thing because I can I tell you what I think

1016
00:58:26,040 --> 00:58:28,400
Speaker 1: and I want you to correct me. I don't tell

1017
00:58:28,440 --> 00:58:30,360
Speaker 1: people I'm Polly because I don't really care to have

1018
00:58:30,360 --> 00:58:32,640
Speaker 1: a relationship between all of us. I say I'm more

1019
00:58:32,680 --> 00:58:35,440
Speaker 1: non monogamous because I'm okay with you having sex with

1020
00:58:35,480 --> 00:58:38,200
Speaker 1: someone else, but I don't necessarily want all of us

1021
00:58:38,240 --> 00:58:42,640
Speaker 1: to connect. Is that right? So there's aspects of that,

1022
00:58:42,880 --> 00:58:44,760
Speaker 1: and like the thing is, like none of them have

1023
00:58:44,920 --> 00:58:50,040
Speaker 1: a very defined like terminology. Polly just means that you

1024
00:58:50,080 --> 00:58:52,840
Speaker 1: are open to being in love with more than one

1025
00:58:52,880 --> 00:58:56,280
Speaker 1: person or having love feelings for more than one person.

1026
00:58:56,560 --> 00:59:00,840
Speaker 1: Love is the main thing then, so amorous, right that

1027
00:59:00,840 --> 00:59:06,960
Speaker 1: that's like okay, yeah, but that's kind of like that

1028
00:59:07,600 --> 00:59:10,280
Speaker 1: has like the you know that word love in it,

1029
00:59:10,800 --> 00:59:12,800
Speaker 1: But that doesn't mean that everybody involved has to be

1030
00:59:12,840 --> 00:59:15,320
Speaker 1: in love with each other. Wan they call it polygamy,

1031
00:59:15,440 --> 00:59:20,280
Speaker 1: and it's not like, yeah, I got a sister, but

1032
00:59:20,280 --> 00:59:21,520
Speaker 1: we don't love each other. I don't know. Let me

1033
00:59:21,560 --> 00:59:24,560
Speaker 1: pull out my Latin you right now and go through

1034
00:59:24,560 --> 00:59:27,000
Speaker 1: all of these terms. But it just means that like

1035
00:59:27,120 --> 00:59:30,520
Speaker 1: you are you yourself are open to having to being

1036
00:59:30,720 --> 00:59:33,560
Speaker 1: having love with more than one person. Doesn't mean that

1037
00:59:33,600 --> 00:59:36,200
Speaker 1: everybody involved has to be in love. It has like

1038
00:59:36,480 --> 00:59:39,400
Speaker 1: it doesn't matter like a triad, quadruple, you know, anything

1039
00:59:39,440 --> 00:59:42,520
Speaker 1: like that. It just means like you could potentially fall

1040
00:59:42,560 --> 00:59:44,160
Speaker 1: in love with more than one person. It doesn't even

1041
00:59:44,200 --> 00:59:46,240
Speaker 1: mean that you are. You could be in love with

1042
00:59:46,280 --> 00:59:48,480
Speaker 1: one person and having sex with five other people and

1043
00:59:48,520 --> 00:59:50,240
Speaker 1: not be in love with them and still say, but

1044
00:59:50,360 --> 00:59:53,320
Speaker 1: I would be open to falling in love with another person.

1045
00:59:54,240 --> 00:59:56,360
Speaker 1: So it just means that, like the love is more

1046
00:59:56,400 --> 01:00:00,720
Speaker 1: apart open relationships. There's all kinds of different aragements in that.

1047
01:00:00,960 --> 01:00:04,919
Speaker 1: What about the her saying what is she saying there

1048
01:00:04,920 --> 01:00:08,480
Speaker 1: that I'm getting stuck? Oh? How do I tell people? So?

1049
01:00:09,480 --> 01:00:12,080
Speaker 1: I mean, for me, honestly is the best policy? And

1050
01:00:12,240 --> 01:00:13,920
Speaker 1: you don't want to start going down a road with

1051
01:00:13,960 --> 01:00:17,240
Speaker 1: someone who doesn't want that whatsoever? Are you talking about

1052
01:00:17,240 --> 01:00:19,200
Speaker 1: it on the first date? Yeah? Are you putting it

1053
01:00:19,240 --> 01:00:21,000
Speaker 1: in the dating profile? I was, It was in my

1054
01:00:21,160 --> 01:00:24,680
Speaker 1: dating profile. Um. I think that the more open you

1055
01:00:24,680 --> 01:00:27,160
Speaker 1: are with those things about yourself, the more, you're going

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Speaker 1: to attract in people who are going to fulfill that

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Speaker 1: part of you, and you shouldn't be trying to bring

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01:00:32,080 --> 01:00:34,440
Speaker 1: in people and then convince them of this other thing.

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Speaker 1: Believe me, I've tried. It doesn't work. And like you

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Speaker 1: may think that it's something that everybody is really interested in,

1061
01:00:42,600 --> 01:00:45,959
Speaker 1: but it's not, and it really can freak people out

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01:00:46,080 --> 01:00:49,080
Speaker 1: and it can do all types of things to relationships.

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Speaker 1: And so being forthright with that in the very beginning,

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Speaker 1: I think it's very important because someone saying you're an

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Speaker 1: attracting the energy that you're putting out, so you're Polly,

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Speaker 1: how many people are you dating right now? One? Okay?

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Speaker 1: Asking you never text me anymore? We are going out

1068
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Speaker 1: on Wednesday together? But are you going out on wedn

1069
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Speaker 1: to talk about porn? So? Yeah, we got invited to

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Speaker 1: an event by Erica Lust. I don't know if you've

1071
01:01:14,400 --> 01:01:16,920
Speaker 1: heard of her. She's a porn director, but she only

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Speaker 1: does um covinist porn and like user submitted porn. So

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Speaker 1: I'm really excited. I want you to come because obviously

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Speaker 1: you're a sucking porn theater ou um okay, So I

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Speaker 1: know we don't have too much time for the next question.

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Speaker 1: But I want to thank you Ashley, And how would

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Speaker 1: you would you be open to people sending in questions? Yeah, so,

1078
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Speaker 1: like I don't want to just put out her email

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Speaker 1: or something like that. Are we cool with giving out

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Speaker 1: your grahams because I know y'all want to know what

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Speaker 1: she looks like. And they're gonna take a picture together

1082
01:01:46,320 --> 01:01:52,640
Speaker 1: so you'll see it. But I know they're sucking. One

1083
01:01:52,720 --> 01:01:57,360
Speaker 1: question somebody asked you in his room was on the down,

1084
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Speaker 1: what's your graham? So my m is at SILSA so

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Speaker 1: s I h L s A. So it's basically a

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Speaker 1: s H O I S spelled backwards. What it is?

1087
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Speaker 1: That's Ashley with an elaspace? Yeah, got it? Yeah? So yeah,

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01:02:18,160 --> 01:02:20,960
Speaker 1: definitely go if you're in Jacksonville and maybe you know

1089
01:02:21,000 --> 01:02:22,400
Speaker 1: you want to take her on on a lovely day

1090
01:02:22,560 --> 01:02:25,480
Speaker 1: or from somewhere else. And she says she travels a lot,

1091
01:02:25,520 --> 01:02:27,680
Speaker 1: so and I should, Like, I want you guys to

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01:02:27,840 --> 01:02:30,520
Speaker 1: keep posted with I mean, keep updated with her page.

1093
01:02:30,600 --> 01:02:32,880
Speaker 1: I know I'll definitely become into her grand opening of

1094
01:02:32,920 --> 01:02:34,920
Speaker 1: the Portant Cinema. Maybe we can make it a horrible night.

1095
01:02:34,960 --> 01:02:37,200
Speaker 1: Told them where to find you, even though you're very

1096
01:02:37,200 --> 01:02:39,520
Speaker 1: bad at Instagram. I am very bad at Instagram, and

1097
01:02:39,640 --> 01:02:42,040
Speaker 1: I keep getting shut down because I'm posting filthy as

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01:02:42,200 --> 01:02:44,960
Speaker 1: pictures on my ship and they don't want anyone who's

1099
01:02:45,040 --> 01:02:48,440
Speaker 1: like talking about female sexuality posting their stuff. But if

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Speaker 1: you all want to see some dirty pictures, you can

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Speaker 1: find me at UM the Violet Underscore b K. Okay,

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01:02:54,840 --> 01:02:56,960
Speaker 1: I'm gonna post both of those. Two guys can check

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01:02:57,000 --> 01:03:00,480
Speaker 1: them out. UM, when do you think you're cinema be open?

1104
01:03:00,880 --> 01:03:04,440
Speaker 1: So that's definitely coming late, but I have all kinds

1105
01:03:04,440 --> 01:03:08,720
Speaker 1: of pop ups and coming going. Okay, I'm excited, so

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01:03:08,880 --> 01:03:10,720
Speaker 1: we can definitely all go to one together. You guys,

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01:03:10,760 --> 01:03:14,800
Speaker 1: if you enjoyed this episode, UM, please leave some comments

1108
01:03:14,920 --> 01:03:17,960
Speaker 1: on iTunes that you're happy with it instead of how

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Speaker 1: much we sucked it. Come check out me and Jesse

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Speaker 1: Winds also talk eleven seventeen in Miami and twelve uh

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Speaker 1: eight in Atlanta. And I'm hoping by the time this

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Speaker 1: airs that Andrew Gillen is governor of Florida, because that's

1113
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Speaker 1: what I say, That's what I said needs to happen

1114
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Speaker 1: in order for us to come to Orlando. So crossing

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Speaker 1: my fingers, UM, Yeah by Hi