Speaker 1: To Teas in a Pod with Teddy Mellencamp and Camra Judge.
Speaker 2: Hi, guys, welcome to another episode of Two Teas and
Speaker 2: a Pod with Teddy Mellencamp and Tamra Judge. You know what,
Speaker 2: I didn't even change it. Even all this time, I
Speaker 2: still said what you didn't want me to say? What? Hi,
Speaker 2: another episode of Two Teas in a Pod and Teddy
Speaker 2: Mellencamp and Tamra Judge.
Speaker 3: You could say it all you want. I miss hearing
Speaker 3: you say it.
Speaker 2: Well, I'm going to say something before we get into
Speaker 2: all my shit? What are you doing? Tamera? I go,
Speaker 2: I get some brain tumors, and then you decide to
Speaker 2: quit the show. So Inburson, listen, listen, listen.
Speaker 3: I'm doing the best I can do. I'm just at
Speaker 3: a situation.
Speaker 2: I'm just having a quitter I know.
Speaker 3: And it's hard for me to say this to you
Speaker 3: because you're going through something extremely hard and you're giving
Speaker 3: me such motivation. But right now, all the things I'm
Speaker 3: going through, and then on top of you, I'm just struggling. Wow,
Speaker 3: I'm struggling.
Speaker 2: We're going to unstruggle pretty soon because I can't be
Speaker 2: you know, I can't be the one fighting here all
Speaker 2: the time, doing all the things, and then not be
Speaker 2: able to make fun of you when I recap o
Speaker 2: see you next season, Like this is not fair, This
Speaker 2: is rude of all the times to quit. Like, so
Speaker 2: if me and Erica are going to recap the show
Speaker 2: without you on it, and I'm gonna have to say
Speaker 2: she's a quitter.
Speaker 3: Well, I don't ever want to be a quitter. But
Speaker 3: sometimes your mental health is a little bit more important
Speaker 3: than the daala.
Speaker 2: Well weird because I'm here right now.
Speaker 3: But you push through things and you continue to act
Speaker 3: like everything's okay on when you do your stories, and
Speaker 3: you tend to poke fun in joke of your situation
Speaker 3: and act like I'm okay, And that's good because I
Speaker 3: think that's the drive and desire you need moving forward
Speaker 3: for sure.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean I think I can say I've had
Speaker 2: some of my darkest, saddest days since the twelfth when
Speaker 2: this happened. But leading up to it, it's so wild
Speaker 2: what kind of transpired to kind of get us here,
Speaker 2: Because I mean I was at a horse show. I
Speaker 2: remember going to my friend of Cole. I'm like, I
Speaker 2: have the worst migraine I've ever had in my entire life.
Speaker 3: This is before we went to New Orleans.
Speaker 2: Yeah, this is before we went to Newrth. We had
Speaker 2: just done a pod where I was kind of like
Speaker 2: all over the place, and I remember not being able
Speaker 2: to remember how to say certain words, and I was like,
Speaker 2: that's weird, you know, like I just kind of got
Speaker 2: to that place. And then I went to my friend
Speaker 2: of Cole, I'm like, I must have a micro I've
Speaker 2: never had one, and she was like, oh, sometimes that
Speaker 2: happens to people when they're going through menopause. And I
Speaker 2: was like, how dare her? I was like, well, you
Speaker 2: might be right. I'm like, but either way, do you
Speaker 2: have any Because she always has migraines, I'm like, do
Speaker 2: you have any migraine medication? And she's like yes. So
Speaker 2: then I took it and then I started like shaking
Speaker 2: really bad at the horse show. And then when I
Speaker 2: was at the show, I was riding and I didn't
Speaker 2: know where. I was like I would like when you're
Speaker 2: going to like part of riding is finding the distance
Speaker 2: and like picking exactly where you want your horse to leave.
Speaker 3: By the way, it's very dangerous that you were riding
Speaker 3: and weren't stable.
Speaker 2: Well, I didn't know. I wasn't stable. And now it's
Speaker 2: not dangerous because I'm in a good place, but I
Speaker 2: just felt this weird way. I mean, I still I
Speaker 2: remember being so pissed that I was second and third,
Speaker 2: I was like, eh, I rode like crap, like what
Speaker 2: is wrong with me? And so that was kind of
Speaker 2: the start of it. And the next day I felt
Speaker 2: the same. And then I came and met you and
Speaker 2: we went to New Orleans. Yes we got in a fight.
Speaker 3: Yes, yes we got a little argument. I've noticed a
Speaker 3: change in you in the past six months. I feel
Speaker 3: you have pulled away a little bit. I thought you
Speaker 3: were mad at me.
Speaker 4: I noticed when we were doing.
Speaker 3: Podcasts together you were very short. You wanted to get
Speaker 3: through the rundown really quick. You didn't really want to
Speaker 3: chat about it. And I called you and I asked you,
Speaker 3: and you literally weren't even aware.
Speaker 2: You're like what, Yeah, No, I wasn't.
Speaker 1: No.
Speaker 2: I remember it's always very like patchy my memory at
Speaker 2: this point. And then I was in such extreme I
Speaker 2: remember being such extreme pain when we left for New Orleans.
Speaker 3: I don't know how you pushed through that.
Speaker 2: Like I could barely walk. I couldn't see every second
Speaker 2: that we weren't, you know, filming, I was. I would
Speaker 2: have to lay in the bed. I remember you were like,
Speaker 2: why don't you want to go out? Why don't you
Speaker 2: want to do this? I didn't want to do anything,
Speaker 2: Like I was an extreme, excruciating pain in my head
Speaker 2: and you were.
Speaker 4: Taking advilt, yeah, and was working.
Speaker 3: We you know, after we we had a tight schedule,
Speaker 3: like we landed, we got there, we started podcasting, we
Speaker 3: had guests, then we got glammed, and during glam you
Speaker 3: hit a wall and You're like, I don't want to
Speaker 3: do this. I want to do it, And I'm like what.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm like I don't want to get anything party,
Speaker 2: I don't want to do this.
Speaker 4: I want to do this.
Speaker 3: And I said, yeah, come on, you're going to do that? Yeah,
Speaker 3: And I was like, something's not right.
Speaker 2: I was so I would say, I was so edgy.
Speaker 2: And what ended up coming out was we got through
Speaker 2: the weekend. We got through. We got through the weekend.
Speaker 2: We had fun, and then I got home and I
Speaker 2: went and like had plans with a friend. And that
Speaker 2: night I was like, I feel terrible. I don't know
Speaker 2: what to do. And then the next day I came
Speaker 2: did we did the podcast together. And then the next day,
Speaker 2: as we're starting the podcast, like I start crying to
Speaker 2: you guys, and I'm like, I can't do it today.
Speaker 2: I'm sorry.
Speaker 3: I told you I go you need to go to
Speaker 3: the hospital. You need to go to the hospital. Yeah,
Speaker 3: And then Edwin took you to the hospital.
Speaker 2: Yeah. So then I honestly didn't know what to do
Speaker 2: because clearly, you know, everything in my life is upside down.
Speaker 2: And so I called my friend val actually and I
Speaker 2: started like sobbing to her and I'm like, I need
Speaker 2: you to take me to the hospital right now. I
Speaker 2: think I'm dying. I can't see, I can't walk, I
Speaker 2: can't even get out of bed Gary and she was like,
Speaker 2: I'm with another friend at a doctor's appointment. So then
Speaker 2: I called Edwin, and Edwin took me to the hospital.
Speaker 2: At this point, I still thought they were going to
Speaker 2: tell me you have migraines, like you have severe migraines.
Speaker 2: Edwin had thought because one of his best friends had
Speaker 2: had a brain hemorrhage, he thought that might have been
Speaker 2: what it is. Because the part that's confusing to everybody
Speaker 2: is I didn't complain about a headache to anybody but
Speaker 2: my friend to call.
Speaker 4: You in New Orleans.
Speaker 3: You're telling me your ho is hurting. But prior to that,
Speaker 3: I never heard a word about your head green.
Speaker 2: But my head had been hurting for like six months.
Speaker 2: But I was like, why.
Speaker 3: Did you ignore it?
Speaker 2: I think because so much, so much bad stuff was
Speaker 2: going on right then that I didn't want to face
Speaker 2: any of it. And I was like, I just need
Speaker 2: to keep moving forward. And if I keep moving forward,
Speaker 2: then everything's going to be fine.
Speaker 3: Anywhere in you did you think that something was really
Speaker 3: like the cancer had come back or.
Speaker 2: No, Because I had just gone from my checkup, and
Speaker 2: so I had gone for my checkup already and and
Speaker 2: I was cleared and it was the first time in
Speaker 2: three years that I didn't have any melanoma skin melanoma. Yeah, right,
Speaker 2: So my skin check went well. Then I Edwin takes
Speaker 2: me to the emergency room. He thinks it's a brain hemorrhage.
Speaker 3: We wait, that makes sense because you kept telling me
Speaker 3: why you're in the hospital, that.
Speaker 4: Your brain was bleeding.
Speaker 2: Yeah, Like I'm like, where is she getting this from? Yeah?
Speaker 2: And then I think Edwin pushed for me to have
Speaker 2: a CT scan. Right away, and that's when they realized
Speaker 2: I have over seven tumors. There was four or that
Speaker 2: were removed, but they weren't removed there, so there was
Speaker 2: four really large tumors that essentially they said, it's been
Speaker 2: happening for at least six months, and I didn't really
Speaker 2: understand what it meant. So we left. They took out
Speaker 2: my I V's. We left, We went to Cedars and
Speaker 2: then and Beverly Hills and then it was all really
Speaker 2: a blur, like I, well.
Speaker 3: It happened so fast.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it really did.
Speaker 3: Like the way you told me in the group, I
Speaker 3: think it was. Yeah, it was just I don't know
Speaker 3: if it's just me or I was in the group
Speaker 3: text but you you said to me you all thought
Speaker 3: I was mental, but actually I'm on my deathbed.
Speaker 2: Yeah, Like I remember feeling like this is actually it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, And I remember texting you back and said, no,
Speaker 3: you're not, because if you're on yours, then I'm on
Speaker 3: mine because I can't live without you.
Speaker 2: I mean, it was really really hard. And I got
Speaker 2: there and the doctors immediately were able. I mean, this
Speaker 2: is incredible, but there was a doctor immediately able to
Speaker 2: give me. I had a craniotomy with tumor resection, which
Speaker 2: is where they removed for tumors from my brain.
Speaker 5: But what the hardest part is that nobody wanted to
Speaker 5: tell me what was really happening because they were scared,
Speaker 5: and so I didn't know what was happening.
Speaker 6: Like I thought I was fine, Like I thought I
Speaker 6: could go home the next day, and like once the
Speaker 6: tumors are out, I.
Speaker 2: Thought I would be done.
Speaker 6: I can't even tell you, guys, like I really didn't
Speaker 6: understand anything, and it was such a bummer. And then honestly,
Speaker 6: it was like Gangbusters.
Speaker 2: Every friend that I've had over the last twenty.
Speaker 3: Years, I don't even high school friends, my high school friends.
Speaker 3: I'm like, hey, I never heard about that.
Speaker 2: My dad, my sister, my brother.
Speaker 4: I got to meet your dad.
Speaker 2: Oh gosh, he was. He was a real jam you
Speaker 2: looking at me, He's like, who are you? He wouldn't
Speaker 2: he pretended he didn't know anybody's name. But he was
Speaker 2: really a godsend during us because I was wretched in
Speaker 2: the hospital, wretched.
Speaker 3: I think some of my favorite lines were when your
Speaker 3: sister said, can you see me, Teddy, can you see me?
Speaker 3: This is after your surgery.
Speaker 4: I wasn't there.
Speaker 3: She just told me about it, and you said, you
Speaker 3: opened your eyes and you go Unfortunately, well.
Speaker 2: Guy, there was one day where I went deep down.
Speaker 2: I think I might have been with my friend Kelly,
Speaker 2: where I went deep down the rabbit hole where Ice
Speaker 2: was telling everybody Heath Ledger is stocking me. He's here,
Speaker 2: and he is after me. I'm seeing him every single night,
Speaker 2: and it's just getting to be too much.
Speaker 3: By the way, we was scaring the shit out of
Speaker 3: all of us.
Speaker 2: Okay, so I got transferred into the Neurow ICU after
Speaker 2: so I guess your train was Yeah. So after I
Speaker 2: had my brain surgery, I guess, and they took out
Speaker 2: the tumors. What they wanted to happen didn't happen, So
Speaker 2: then they had to transfer me into the ICU.
Speaker 3: They took out some of the tumors.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but then I was put on all this medication
Speaker 2: and it honestly, I couldn't freaking tell you who came,
Speaker 2: who I spoke to, what happened.
Speaker 3: I think it's also the trauma of you know, digging
Speaker 3: around in your brain, like mess around in there, and
Speaker 3: you get done with brain surgery, it takes a while
Speaker 3: for your brain to heal, and you were having swelling
Speaker 3: problems and they and fluid problems. So they went in
Speaker 3: and they were going they put a drain in. And
Speaker 3: then in ICU, your last day in ice, you we
Speaker 3: all got the call, which was really hard that we
Speaker 3: were all in a group text must I should say,
Speaker 3: and it was they were going to put I think
Speaker 3: a shunt or something in because of the swelling in
Speaker 3: your brain and so it you kept seem like you're
Speaker 3: going backwards and not forward. And so we were all
Speaker 3: like four o'clock in the morning, we all knew you
Speaker 3: were going to get a scan, seven o'clock, you're going
Speaker 3: to go into surgery. And I woke up to the
Speaker 3: best news of my life that day when they said
Speaker 3: she's turned a corner, like she's not having the surgery,
Speaker 3: she's not having a shunt, the swelling's starting to go down,
Speaker 3: and I'm like, thank you Jesus, Like we're finally because
Speaker 3: for I don't know, a week and a half, it
Speaker 3: was just all so scary and touchy, and sometimes we'd
Speaker 3: you know, I'd see you and you would be completely
Speaker 3: out in you. Every once in a while you'd hear
Speaker 3: conversations going around and you'd jump into the conversation or
Speaker 3: you were funny, or you're like, you know, Kyle was
Speaker 3: there one day and you say, Kyle goes. You hated
Speaker 3: the question what year is it?
Speaker 2: Oh? My gosh, guys hated it every single I swear
Speaker 2: this was like torture. Every single day. She'd come in
Speaker 2: and she'd go, Hi, Teddy, what's the date today? And
Speaker 2: I'd be like, ask me things I know.
Speaker 3: Yes, ask me Angelina Jolie's kids' names. I said, ask
Speaker 3: me Angelina's kids' names, and then anything culture or housewives.
Speaker 3: I'm on it. I was like, I don't know how
Speaker 3: old I am. I may not know how old I
Speaker 3: am or what year.
Speaker 2: And then I kept thinking it was nineteen ninety five.
Speaker 2: And then I started cheating and I would write down
Speaker 2: the date on the wall.
Speaker 3: They wrote it down advantage me, and they wouldn't update it,
Speaker 3: so then I couldn't get the date again.
Speaker 2: So then I was like and in my mind, even
Speaker 2: though I was wrong, because nobody was telling me, I
Speaker 2: thought that I could get out once I knew the date,
Speaker 2: and I would tell Kelly. I'd be like, once I
Speaker 2: get the date, they're going to let me out. And
Speaker 2: the only day that I got the date right was
Speaker 2: Dove's birthday. And then this one day I looked at whoever.
Speaker 2: I mean, every day there was a friend with me.
Speaker 2: I didn't spend one second alone.
Speaker 4: You have a great group of girls, you really do.
Speaker 2: But one day I was like, hey, I don't know
Speaker 2: why it feels so important, but I need to call
Speaker 2: my friend Brooke from third grade. I think it's her
Speaker 2: birthday today.
Speaker 3: What And.
Speaker 2: At this point, I couldn't even die on my phone. Remember,
Speaker 2: I couldn't pick up, I couldn't call people.
Speaker 3: They purposely try to keep your phone away from me.
Speaker 2: They tried to keep my phone away from life. I
Speaker 2: will tell you this.
Speaker 4: You don't know what day it was.
Speaker 2: You know what date it was.
Speaker 3: You were kind of in and out, but you wanted
Speaker 3: so badly to post on social media.
Speaker 2: But I did. The weird part was is I knew that.
Speaker 2: I was like, I got a call Brookes. So I
Speaker 2: called Brooke and I'm like, hey, I don't know if
Speaker 2: I'm right because I haven't been right in fifteen days,
Speaker 2: but I think today's your birthday. And she started crying
Speaker 2: and she was like it is wow. She's like, you
Speaker 2: are the one person that has always remembered it.
Speaker 4: That is crazy.
Speaker 2: Yeah, that is just crazy. And then what happened I'm
Speaker 2: trying to think. Then a bunch of other shit went down,
Speaker 2: and then there was also which I still have. There's
Speaker 2: like I had I spray painted today, but like there's
Speaker 2: a big hole right here from your train from one
Speaker 2: of the surgeries, and like the back of my head
Speaker 2: right here there's a big, huge, long scar, two of them. Yeah,
Speaker 2: and I kept wanting to touch them. So then they
Speaker 2: put me in freakin' restraints, hand restraints, And I got
Speaker 2: to tell you, me and hand restraints, we're not friends.
Speaker 2: I didn't take the hand restraints well. I would try
Speaker 2: to rip my hands out of them, and then I
Speaker 2: would I mean, there were guys. I know that I
Speaker 2: make everything seem pretty good and peachy, but it was
Speaker 2: a bad seventeen days for everyone in my life. And
Speaker 2: the fact that my my dad helped me and that
Speaker 2: he's still helping me, yeah, has really been a game changer.
Speaker 2: And then.
Speaker 3: I graduated from restraints though, yeah, then boxing gloves think yeah.
Speaker 2: Then after I got the restraints off, then I got
Speaker 2: little boxing gloves which were a little like white things,
Speaker 2: so that I could just kept like little mittens. They
Speaker 2: weren't little. They were big. They were big.
Speaker 3: They were big, looked like big old boxing gloves.
Speaker 2: But they were white.
Speaker 3: I mean, they could have come into color.
Speaker 2: At least they could have like tie died them, I know.
Speaker 2: I mean then then they told me I was getting out.
Speaker 2: So according to one of my nurses, what I was
Speaker 2: being told and what I thought was going to happen
Speaker 2: wasn't the same thing. So then I got really upset.
Speaker 2: I kept thinking I was going to be able to leave.
Speaker 2: I was really upset that I wasn't going to be
Speaker 2: home for Dev's birthday. I was really sick of being
Speaker 2: in the hospital. And this isn't a complaint. It's just
Speaker 2: like there's things you don't even think about that are
Speaker 2: happening in the hospital. Like there was a guy next
Speaker 2: to me, and every night he would scream help me,
Speaker 2: and I'd be like, I can't even help myself. I
Speaker 2: can't even help myself.
Speaker 3: That's why maybe I see, you wasn't that bad because
Speaker 3: you had your own room, your own nurse, and you
Speaker 3: had the you know, twenty four hour eyes on you.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but I was still had raged in the ICU
Speaker 2: because I couldn't figure out how to use the TV
Speaker 2: or the phone, so I just laid there. And then
Speaker 2: every day I'd be like, do I get to go?
Speaker 2: And I would harass the doctor because I had a
Speaker 2: cell number. Every day I'd be like can I go?
Speaker 2: And people would say, if you pass this test, then
Speaker 2: you can go. But I never passed the test. I
Speaker 2: was on a sodium trip. They made me take these
Speaker 2: disgusting sodium pills that I threw up every day when
Speaker 2: I chok.
Speaker 3: Then it got to the point where the nurse says,
Speaker 3: we'd like to get you up to go to the bathroom.
Speaker 3: No thank you scared, No thank you scared? And I
Speaker 3: went okay. So then four hours go by, I'm still there.
Speaker 3: Then you go, you start ripping things off, and I go,
Speaker 3: what are you doing? You go? The nurse said I
Speaker 3: have to get up, and I'm like, okay, but wait
Speaker 3: for her. You can't just get up. I have to
Speaker 3: go to the bathroom. And I'm like, okay, hold on,
Speaker 3: hold on. So everybody leaves, shut the door and use
Speaker 3: you yell and you start yelling that and I'm like, great,
Speaker 3: but you go, but I can't pee.
Speaker 2: I couldn't pee guys, I do not know why I
Speaker 2: could not peece. So finally I just had to look
Speaker 2: at them and I'm like, just put a catheter in.
Speaker 2: I'm fine with it.
Speaker 3: And they were worried about doing that constantly because of
Speaker 3: UTI and infection.
Speaker 2: I was like, I don't care about a UTI. I can't.
Speaker 3: Oh, yes, nothing you'd want on top of everything, listen.
Speaker 2: At least I would have readily ready medication to clear
Speaker 2: it up. But then we finally get out. Well, so
Speaker 2: then I get so upset that I started saying dramatic
Speaker 2: things about why I needed to get out, and it
Speaker 2: started concerning everybody. But nobody told me that they were
Speaker 2: concerned because everybody was scared of me. I wonder what
Speaker 2: everyone was scared of me? And then one day, I
Speaker 2: remember I had just thrown up like eighty five times
Speaker 2: from the stupid salt pills that I hate that I
Speaker 2: still had to take for two weeks after I got
Speaker 2: out of the ICU. But essentially what happened was I
Speaker 2: begged my dad. I'm like, Dad, can you please let
Speaker 2: me go into like a postcare center, like where they
Speaker 2: go when like people get plastic surgery, Like I'm not
Speaker 2: doing an Yeah, like I'm not doing well in here,
Speaker 2: I'm coming unhinged, I'm losing sense of.
Speaker 4: And you were in there.
Speaker 3: It was over two weeks, right, yeah, over two weeks
Speaker 3: you were in there, and I think in the ICU
Speaker 3: and between the two, yeah, between the two is over
Speaker 3: two weeks.
Speaker 2: Yeah. And then once I got out of Cedars, then
Speaker 2: I got to be with a nurse and like a
Speaker 2: little hotel and things were a lot better. But I
Speaker 2: got really really sad.
Speaker 3: I think at that moment because I've talked to you
Speaker 3: to that and you know, and saw you in the hospital.
Speaker 3: But after you got to the hotel, we were able
Speaker 3: to talk on the phone. It was like really the
Speaker 3: first time. And I think it was then when your
Speaker 3: your memory is coming back a little bit better, you're
Speaker 3: really acknowledging what's going on. And that was the moment
Speaker 3: that I was dreading because then you knew what was
Speaker 3: going on with you, and.
Speaker 2: That once I understood, then I got really sad. And
Speaker 2: then God bless all my friends, but everybody wanted to
Speaker 2: come visit me, and like, I'm not somebody that likes
Speaker 2: people to visit me, like I want to just h
Speaker 2: So it was like every day I don't want to
Speaker 2: be like I booked so and so to come and
Speaker 2: I was like, I will honestly get out of this
Speaker 2: bed somehow and kill you if you invite one more person.
Speaker 4: I think everybody was afraid of you being alone.
Speaker 2: Yeah. So then when I was in the hotel, I
Speaker 2: found out that I have two more tumors and my lungs,
Speaker 2: one in each line, and then I had more in
Speaker 2: my three more I think in my brain, but they
Speaker 2: were too risky to remove. So then I was told
Speaker 2: that I was going to have immunotherapy, and then so
Speaker 2: I went and had my immune therapy yesterday, which I
Speaker 2: feel absolutely terrible today, like I have the worst headache
Speaker 2: and I'm like, I feel back to how I felt
Speaker 2: at the beginning. But what I learned, which I'm so
Speaker 2: grateful for. One of my nurses she told me, the
Speaker 2: fact that you are in pain right now is huge.
Speaker 2: It's great because it means that it's attacking the cancer.
Speaker 3: Yeah. I wanted you to cancel today. I didn't want
Speaker 3: you to do this, and you insisted on you were
Speaker 3: going to be okay because I knew that last night
Speaker 3: was tough on you. You didn't feel well at all
Speaker 3: and I'm so worried because you don't know, you don't
Speaker 3: know how to say no, and you just keep going.
Speaker 3: You're the only person that I know that had brain surgery.
Speaker 3: And three weeks later I was doing hot yoga and
Speaker 3: walking on the treadmill. I had a damn forehead lift.
Speaker 2: I couldn't do anything for two weeks.
Speaker 4: I'm like, you.
Speaker 3: Scare me because I want you to slow down, and
Speaker 3: you so badly want to get back to normal life.
Speaker 2: And I get that.
Speaker 3: I get that completely, but we don't want you to
Speaker 3: feel like you have to do this. Like your family
Speaker 3: is here, your iHeart family is here, and they are
Speaker 3: here for you. I am here for you as your friend,
Speaker 3: like you don't have to push through. It's all right.
Speaker 2: I think what you guys don't understand about me in
Speaker 2: general is what gives me life is doing things that
Speaker 2: I love. Like I love riding horses, I love doing
Speaker 2: the podcast. I love being able to be with you.
Speaker 3: You almost broke the damn internet riding the horse.
Speaker 2: Yeah, Like I love working out, and I every single
Speaker 2: thing that I've done, I've asked my doctor permission. I
Speaker 2: know you know, but guess what I'm not allowed to do?
Speaker 2: Not bummed about this. Not allowed to drive.
Speaker 3: Oh, by the way, pre brain tumors, you shouldn't drive.
Speaker 3: Let's be honest, nobody wants to drive with you.
Speaker 2: Something a lot of people have been confused by when
Speaker 2: they hear like brain tumors or lung tumors or anything
Speaker 2: like that, is they're thinking it's something other than melanoma.
Speaker 2: But what can actually happen is melanoma can metastasize and
Speaker 2: the organs to your other organs, and that's what happened
Speaker 2: to me. So all of my tumors and whatnot are melanoma.
Speaker 2: But yesterday is when I went and got my immunotherapy.
Speaker 2: And as I'm sitting there, the doctor comes in and
Speaker 2: I'm like, you know whatever, trying to be nice, and
Speaker 2: you know, I hate having small talk with people about
Speaker 2: my illness because I just want to feel better and
Speaker 2: be back to normal. And he's like, so radiation starts
Speaker 2: on Monday. And I was like, come again, I thought
Speaker 2: I was just doing I think.
Speaker 3: You've been told about the radiation many times. I think
Speaker 3: you just don't remember, because I knew way back when
Speaker 3: that your treatment plan was going to be some kind
Speaker 3: of immune therapy and radiation. So you also, like, in
Speaker 3: the conversations I've had with you in the past week,
Speaker 3: you've never once mentioned anything with your lungs. And I'm like,
Speaker 3: I don't know if she remember. I'm not gonna be
Speaker 3: the wane to ask her about it, but I don't know.
Speaker 2: I think my memory about anything other than the surgery
Speaker 2: is completely on point. So where the tumors and everything
Speaker 2: were in my brain, it temporarily can you know, lack
Speaker 2: of memory and those types of things. But where I'm
Speaker 2: completely blessed and very very excited is that, like sometimes
Speaker 2: this happens to people and they have to relearn to walk,
Speaker 2: they have to relearn to talk, none of that is
Speaker 2: the case with me. I'm back to working out, I'm
Speaker 2: back to being with the kids. I'm allowed to do
Speaker 2: everything but drive. So for me, that's huge and I'm
Speaker 2: I need for me, I need to be doing these things,
Speaker 2: Like going into the horse show with Slate was one
Speaker 2: of the first times I felt happy in a long time. Yeah,
Speaker 2: and being able to do this makes me happy. I
Speaker 2: don't like not being able to like do my job,
Speaker 2: but something that we've really been on top of because
Speaker 2: we talk to the doctors every single day and believe me.
Speaker 2: My dad is freaking on it like no other. Is
Speaker 2: that we're going to listen to the doctors on what's
Speaker 2: too much, what's.
Speaker 3: Enough, And you're gonna listen to your body, and I'm
Speaker 3: gonna listen to my body.
Speaker 2: I mean, I think the fact that like I can
Speaker 2: sit and have this conversation shows massive improvement.
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, and you're getting better every day, like all
Speaker 3: that is temporary from surgery, Like you're getting better. I'm like,
Speaker 3: you are loads better right now than you were a
Speaker 3: couple days ago. You know, we can sit on the
Speaker 3: phone and have normal conversations on the phone.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I want to talk on the phone to people.
Speaker 2: My dad did not want to talk on the phone
Speaker 2: to people. But yeah, that's where we are, guys. I'm
Speaker 2: feeling really positive. I have radiation starting Monday for a week,
Speaker 2: and then immune therapy is every three weeks. That's just
Speaker 2: one day. They have to spread it out because immunotherapy.
Speaker 2: I didn't realize this, but immune therapy can you a
Speaker 2: little harder than radiation. But I mean, I know this
Speaker 2: has been a long podcast and it's been heavy topics,
Speaker 2: but the main point of this is I wish the
Speaker 2: second that I felt those headaches. I wish the second
Speaker 2: that I started not feeling like myself, I would have
Speaker 2: gone to the doctor and gotten checked.
Speaker 3: That's why you have to listen to your body.
Speaker 2: You have to. But I think it's you know, when
Speaker 2: you're going through a lot of different changes, you make
Speaker 2: a lot of justifications. Well, life gets.
Speaker 3: Busy and you know you don't want to take the
Speaker 3: time to go into the doctor, or you know, it's
Speaker 3: just it's just life in general, and going through divorce
Speaker 3: and moving from house to house and doing all those things.
Speaker 4: You didn't think about it. You thought you were just
Speaker 4: going to push through.
Speaker 2: It and it was going to be okay. I mean,
Speaker 2: I think it's pretty cool though that I figured it out,
Speaker 2: Like I if I would have waited any longer, god
Speaker 2: knows what would have happened. You know, Like I knew
Speaker 2: that day I needed to go, and then I had
Speaker 2: surgery a day later, you know, like they Yeah, that
Speaker 2: was when I got to the point where I couldn't
Speaker 2: go anymore. I knew it, And so I'm really grateful,
Speaker 2: and I think that moving forward, you know, I've I've
Speaker 2: changed a lot of things and in my life.
Speaker 3: I think that's a really big thing for you, yeah,
Speaker 3: is that you have to take time for yourself and
Speaker 3: you don't have to do everything. I know your schedule
Speaker 3: is the most important thing in your life and you
Speaker 3: want to be able to I'm doing this, this is
Speaker 3: this is this, like right now, going through treatment, Like
Speaker 3: it's okay to lay event, it's okay not to feel good.
Speaker 3: I know you want to get back to normal life
Speaker 3: and that your drive right there. You'll be fine, girl.
Speaker 3: I have no doubt you are going to be fine
Speaker 3: because you just keep going and you are probably the
Speaker 3: strongest person I've ever met in my life. In my life,
Speaker 3: I have not even been to the gym in four weeks,
Speaker 3: and I can't eat, you know, and you're the one
Speaker 3: going through it. So I just admire you, thank so
Speaker 3: many levels, and I love you so much.
Speaker 2: I love you too, and I've really really missed you.
Speaker 2: And I I never freaking thought that I would be
Speaker 2: sad not to talk about Shep's jacked up relationship with
Speaker 2: the chick from Sienna. I cannot even from the hospital.
Speaker 2: I had to text Shep. I was like, what are
Speaker 2: you doing? This is embursing, This is embarrassing, and He's like,
Speaker 2: you don't know the full story, and I go, I
Speaker 2: don't need to know the full story because what I saw, No,
Speaker 2: but I need to get back into recapping. I'm excited.
Speaker 2: I still don't know the date today, do you know, Tam,
Speaker 2: what's the eleventh? Maybe the twelfth? I'm not sure.
Speaker 3: Well, yeah, yeah, I know, and in all in due time,
Speaker 3: you know, you just you don't know how you know?
Speaker 3: Tomorrow is so we are here for you. I am
Speaker 3: here for you. You can get on the pod. I'll
Speaker 3: be more than happy you get on the pod with you.
Speaker 3: I can't wait to your back full time. But just
Speaker 3: know that you don't have to push it.
Speaker 2: You don't well you have to push it, oh God,
Speaker 2: because I.
Speaker 3: Why are you gonna come film with me?
Speaker 2: I am not saying that. I say that I personally
Speaker 2: I already get shipped for being biased. I don't want
Speaker 2: to have to go through a whole season of justifying
Speaker 2: why term mcqui because of fricking lunatics like no, no, no,
Speaker 2: You're gonna have to get that together and I'll.
Speaker 4: Figure it out.
Speaker 3: I'm just it's not about me right now. What I'm
Speaker 3: going through is what I'm going through.
Speaker 2: It's about you. Huh uh oh jeez, no, no, here
Speaker 2: we go. Listen, this is too teas in a pod
Speaker 2: and we've talked a lot about me today, so I'm
Speaker 2: going to mention.
Speaker 3: I mean, definitely you haven't helped my situation out a
Speaker 3: little bit.
Speaker 2: But it's not all you.
Speaker 3: It's it's a multitude of things that are going on
Speaker 3: in my life right now that are making it really
Speaker 3: hard for me to.
Speaker 2: I'd like to a housewife, Well, I'd like to see
Speaker 2: those things play out on camera, because that's the housewives
Speaker 2: are about, is seeing things play out on camera when
Speaker 2: times are tough. So Tam, yes, yes, you guys don't.
Speaker 2: I don't know what's going to end up happening. But
Speaker 2: if Tam goes back, everybody can send me flowers. You
Speaker 2: also need to get back on the horse.
Speaker 3: Yes, well, hey, wait a minute, how is this turning
Speaker 3: on me?
Speaker 2: Geez? Well, I told you I was feeling better.
Speaker 3: I know, I know, I know, I know. Can I
Speaker 3: ask you a serious question that we haven't really talked
Speaker 3: about too much? Maybe, how are you really feeling? Like? Mentally?
Speaker 4: Like are you? I know you're so strong on the exterior.
Speaker 2: I know you are.
Speaker 3: I know that's who you are. I'm somebody that acts
Speaker 3: like that all the time, and I'm just in the past.
Speaker 2: You know, I don't know.
Speaker 3: A few weeks I'm crumbling inside.
Speaker 2: I would say that I'm doing significantly better. It was
Speaker 2: so I can't when I didn't have like my wits
Speaker 2: about me, and I felt lost. I felt so alone
Speaker 2: and so sad, and like I had moments of being like,
Speaker 2: I don't know that anyone's like given me like a
Speaker 2: real hug, you know, like there's you know, I'm I
Speaker 2: was really really sad. But I feel like right now
Speaker 2: I'm starting to see the light and I'm starting to
Speaker 2: think about the future, and I feel like for the
Speaker 2: first time, I'm able to like set goals and for me,
Speaker 2: a lot of shitty things have happened in my life
Speaker 2: that I haven't talked about. You know, I'm not one
Speaker 2: to like stew and like the past, but this definitely
Speaker 2: was a wake up call. And you know, there's certain
Speaker 2: things that I'm really grateful about, like you know, me
Speaker 2: and Edwin being friends, being able to laugh, being able
Speaker 2: to have him there. But also I would say, just
Speaker 2: living in general, Yeah.
Speaker 4: You're a fighter, You're gonna get through this.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I think so too. Oh, I need my hair
Speaker 2: to grow out.
Speaker 4: I think you're rocking the ball.
Speaker 3: You're saying that as you And by the way, I'm
Speaker 3: not gonna be that friend that's gonna shave my head
Speaker 3: just because you did.
Speaker 5: It.
Speaker 2: Ain't even doing some crazy shit recently. You're my Britney's fears.
Speaker 3: Trust me, That's how I felt lately. No, I got
Speaker 3: I have a square head. I have a square head,
Speaker 3: and I have a lot.
Speaker 4: Of lumps and bumps, and oh.
Speaker 2: You have a lot of lumps and bumps. I have
Speaker 2: like nine million stitches. I can't even feel this part
Speaker 2: of my head. But I'm so sorry about your lumps
Speaker 2: and bumps.
Speaker 3: And I think I have like horns that are trying
Speaker 3: to come out at the top of my head, but
Speaker 3: they won't. A devil, I have facelift scar like I know, no, well,
Speaker 3: I don't have that.
Speaker 2: Face you have. Well, I definitely don't feel like I
Speaker 2: have that face right now. That's the other thing that
Speaker 2: we don't really talk about is like when your body
Speaker 2: and all those things change, like trying to give yourself
Speaker 2: grace and being like it's okay that these things change
Speaker 2: and you're you're gonna You're gonna go back to normal.
Speaker 3: But you're on steroids right now, so the naturally you're complaining.
Speaker 4: Okay, but you but you were complaining.
Speaker 3: I'm gaining weight.
Speaker 2: I'm gaining weight.
Speaker 3: I'm like, it's good. You need some weight on you, Okay,
Speaker 3: But you told me. One of the things you said
Speaker 3: to me was what is going on? I'm hearing all
Speaker 3: these things on the internet. And I had a conversation
Speaker 3: with Alex. You are gonna go back and you're gonna
Speaker 3: do your job. If I have to gain weight and
Speaker 3: be bald, you have to go and fight with bitches.
Speaker 3: And I have never laughed so hard in my life.
Speaker 3: Like Eddie's like, we were actually at the dinner. I
Speaker 3: told him me and Teddy paying phone tag if she
Speaker 3: calls an answer and deal with it because he hates
Speaker 3: for me being on the phone. He's like, cool, yeah,
Speaker 3: I get it.
Speaker 2: So we're at dinner and.
Speaker 3: I'm laughing so hard at the things you're saying to me,
Speaker 3: and he looked at me and goes, I haven't seen
Speaker 3: you laugh like that in so long.
Speaker 2: Well, because someone needed to be honest with you. But no, no,
Speaker 2: I m M, I'm gonna I can't even tell you
Speaker 2: if I'm gonna make you do the pod with if
Speaker 2: you don't go back the list of people that I
Speaker 2: have with you know what, I'm not ready anymore, guys.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna need a little bit more of a break torture.
Speaker 2: TAM's gonna pod with blah blah blah. I also, I
Speaker 2: can't not say this how grateful I am for the
Speaker 2: care team that I had at Cedars. They put up
Speaker 2: a lot with me. I also had such an incredible
Speaker 2: oncologist and neurologist, and my surgeon was absolutely unbelievable and
Speaker 2: worked miracles. So I'm forever grateful. Oh and you know
Speaker 2: my nurses and my friends that put up with me
Speaker 2: through all of this. Yeah, thanks guys for listening to
Speaker 2: another episode of to Teas and a Pod. It was
Speaker 2: very uplifting. I'm sure.
Speaker 3: Sorry about you drive home from work today, So if.
Speaker 2: You want to get depressed, ask your friends to tune
Speaker 2: in as well and give us five stars. And also
Speaker 2: slide into Tamor's DMS and ask why when she quits,
Speaker 2: she decided to do it with a pink background, even
Speaker 2: more embarrassing than all the other stuff she's done for
Speaker 2: Peter's sake, Even tumored up, I was like, pink background.
Speaker 2: It's the default one. God all right, thanks guys, we'll
Speaker 2: talk to you next week.