WEBVTT - You Ask, JoJo Answers 0:00:01.400 --> 0:00:05.240 You're listening to Jojosuwan now with me Jojo Siua and 0:00:05.400 --> 0:00:10.240 iHeartRadio podcast. Oh, this is gonna be a fun one. 0:00:10.360 --> 0:00:13.760 I'm actually I'm really excited for this. So we've welcome back, 0:00:13.760 --> 0:00:15.760 first of all, to Jojo Sua. Now I am Jojo 0:00:15.840 --> 0:00:18.000 Siwa and this is me. Now. I feel like I 0:00:18.040 --> 0:00:20.119 need some sort of official intro. You know, when I 0:00:20.160 --> 0:00:21.680 was a kid and I did YouTube, I head, hey, 0:00:21.680 --> 0:00:25.240 everyone is joy on, welcome, But I feel like Jojosuwan 0:00:25.320 --> 0:00:27.639 now I need like a like solid I say this 0:00:27.720 --> 0:00:30.480 every time, or maybe I don't because you know, I'm 0:00:30.480 --> 0:00:32.720 different now, so maybe that's the whole point of not 0:00:32.800 --> 0:00:35.479 having Ninja. I don't know. Anyways, not the point of today. 0:00:35.760 --> 0:00:38.320 Point of today is I am doing a Q and 0:00:38.360 --> 0:00:41.839 A for the first time since I stopped doing JoJo's 0:00:41.920 --> 0:00:44.479 Juice years ago. I just have this thing on my 0:00:44.520 --> 0:00:48.080 YouTube channel called JoJo's Juice where every Wednesday and answer 0:00:48.240 --> 0:00:50.280 questions off of Twitter and then I would pour a 0:00:50.280 --> 0:00:52.600 different juice on my head. So you gotta juice on 0:00:52.640 --> 0:00:54.800 my life and then juice over my head. Today you 0:00:54.800 --> 0:00:56.319 are getting the juice on my life, but you are 0:00:56.360 --> 0:00:58.320 not getting the juice over my head, and mainly because 0:00:58.360 --> 0:01:01.040 this is audio. But uh, even if it was video, 0:01:01.280 --> 0:01:03.279 believe it or not, I wouldn't do that anymore. That's 0:01:03.320 --> 0:01:05.600 such a lie. I so would. I love Jo Justice. 0:01:05.640 --> 0:01:09.000 That was so fun. Anyways, Hi, welcome back to Jon 0:01:09.000 --> 0:01:11.360 just one Now today, I am so stoked. You know, 0:01:11.400 --> 0:01:13.200 We've had a lot of podcasts now where I've had 0:01:13.240 --> 0:01:16.240 my friends on, We've gotten to talk about our shared experiences. 0:01:16.240 --> 0:01:20.880 Sother that'd be TV shows, life experiences, learning curves, all 0:01:20.920 --> 0:01:24.479 the things. But today we are taking it right back 0:01:24.520 --> 0:01:26.679 to the roots. Now we are gonna do a straight 0:01:26.800 --> 0:01:29.680 up Q and A. I asked you guys for questions 0:01:29.760 --> 0:01:33.040 on my Instagram at it's Jojasiwa. You sent them in 0:01:33.120 --> 0:01:35.720 and I got lots of good questions to answer, and 0:01:35.760 --> 0:01:38.720 I tried my best to pick a variety of questions, 0:01:38.720 --> 0:01:42.720 you know, throughout career things to personal things, to advise 0:01:42.800 --> 0:01:47.039 things to also things that just were things that I 0:01:47.080 --> 0:01:50.960 haven't talked about necessarily, or answers that are much deeper 0:01:51.000 --> 0:01:54.800 than just a quick, little one sentence. So buckle up, 0:01:54.840 --> 0:01:58.440 because we're gonna we're gonna get real deep. We're gonna 0:01:58.440 --> 0:02:00.880 get really deep right now. And I I don't even 0:02:00.920 --> 0:02:03.040 know if I'm coy ready for this, but here we go. 0:02:03.680 --> 0:02:08.160 We're starting off so strong. At JoJo's Underscore, paparazzi asked 0:02:08.200 --> 0:02:10.200 if you had kids, what would you name them? And 0:02:10.320 --> 0:02:13.240 I when I saw this question, I specifically flagged it 0:02:13.320 --> 0:02:16.480 because I am so in love with my idea for 0:02:16.560 --> 0:02:18.799 kids right now. For their names. All three of my 0:02:18.880 --> 0:02:21.360 kids will have the same middle name, and their middle 0:02:21.400 --> 0:02:24.920 name will just be E, just the letter E and 0:02:25.080 --> 0:02:26.800 all of their names. So I would love to have triplets, 0:02:26.840 --> 0:02:30.280 two boys, one girl. That's like my ideal right now. 0:02:30.320 --> 0:02:32.280 Of course, all I want is healthy babies, but right 0:02:32.280 --> 0:02:34.239 now I'm in a phase where I want triplets, two boys, 0:02:34.320 --> 0:02:38.360 one girl. The girl's name is fred E because Freddie 0:02:38.480 --> 0:02:41.000 with the E initial. Then the two boys are ted 0:02:41.120 --> 0:02:44.280 and Ed. So I'll have Freddy, Eddie and Teddy. I 0:02:44.320 --> 0:02:46.880 am obsessed with there right now. I just the idea 0:02:46.960 --> 0:02:50.079 of being like fred ed ted Come here, Freddie, Eddie Teddy, 0:02:50.200 --> 0:02:52.280 Like where am I? Where's Freddy Eddie and Teddy? Like 0:02:52.400 --> 0:02:54.720 I just uh, I think decorating the room and like 0:02:54.720 --> 0:02:56.720 putting their little names Freddy, Eddie Teddy, like, I just 0:02:56.760 --> 0:03:00.799 think it's so cute but fred E ted E ed E, 0:03:01.280 --> 0:03:04.280 I don't know. I just think it's cute anyways. Oh gosh, 0:03:04.480 --> 0:03:06.840 my poor kids. Oh I'm so excited to have babies 0:03:06.880 --> 0:03:09.640 one day. It's gonna be the best. But Kansei se 0:03:09.720 --> 0:03:11.840 Whenater asked what moment in time would you like to 0:03:11.960 --> 0:03:15.079 relive slash do again, this is a question that I 0:03:15.160 --> 0:03:17.639 think about actually all the time, because there's been so 0:03:17.760 --> 0:03:20.080 many amazing faces in my life. I mean, of course, 0:03:20.200 --> 0:03:23.840 Dance Moms, Abby's Ultimate dance Competition, Dancing with the Stars, 0:03:24.080 --> 0:03:27.120 Special Forces, as hard and torturess as it was, I 0:03:27.160 --> 0:03:29.679 would love to live it again. Think if I could 0:03:29.880 --> 0:03:31.520 pick a time of my life that I would only 0:03:31.600 --> 0:03:35.240 relive again, it would actually be Special Forces only because 0:03:35.280 --> 0:03:38.360 it was so short. You know. Special Forces was about 0:03:38.360 --> 0:03:40.120 a week long, little over a week long, and so 0:03:40.640 --> 0:03:42.680 the fact that it was so quick, you know, Dancing 0:03:42.680 --> 0:03:44.480 with the Stars is seventy five days, Dance Ang was 0:03:44.560 --> 0:03:47.400 two years. I got to really soak it up. But 0:03:47.520 --> 0:03:51.160 I feel like those projects for me would be would 0:03:51.200 --> 0:03:54.320 be my like winner. I think special Forces also, though 0:03:54.400 --> 0:03:57.280 Dream the Tour era, I loved being on tour. My 0:03:57.400 --> 0:03:59.720 concert tour was my favorite thing ever. I think if 0:03:59.720 --> 0:04:02.520 I could time travel, I'd go to like Top of 0:04:02.680 --> 0:04:05.360 twenty nineteen, because then I would relive Dream the Tour again, 0:04:05.880 --> 0:04:08.600 real live Dancing to the Stars, relive mess Singer, relive 0:04:08.640 --> 0:04:11.640 Special Forces, relive coming out, relive falling in love for 0:04:11.680 --> 0:04:13.240 the first time. Like I'd get to relive all of 0:04:13.320 --> 0:04:15.520 my best moments. So I feel like I feel like 0:04:15.520 --> 0:04:19.120 that would be my vibe. Top of twenty nineteen. Ooh, 0:04:20.160 --> 0:04:24.960 Kaylee Kaylee's sixty four Kaylee sixty four Underscore, There we go, 0:04:25.000 --> 0:04:27.479 There so he us name. Kaylee sixty four Underscore asked 0:04:27.480 --> 0:04:32.400 would you ever have any x's on the podcast? This question? 0:04:32.760 --> 0:04:37.480 I actually was so interested by my own inner thoughts 0:04:37.720 --> 0:04:41.400 because instantly my thought was like, yes, I totally would. 0:04:41.520 --> 0:04:44.360 But then I was like, but wait, who, which one 0:04:44.560 --> 0:04:47.719 and and and why? And what would you talk about? 0:04:47.839 --> 0:04:51.440 And I don't, I don't, I don't know. I my 0:04:51.560 --> 0:04:54.159 initial answer is yes, because I would. I would welcome 0:04:54.200 --> 0:04:56.160 anybody to come on jojyesy and now that would be 0:04:56.240 --> 0:04:58.800 willing to talk about their life experiences and things they've 0:04:58.839 --> 0:05:02.120 gone through. And I think something about me, is I 0:05:02.440 --> 0:05:04.600 really choose to look at my past and be grateful 0:05:04.720 --> 0:05:07.960 for it and so even though you know, obviously, because 0:05:07.960 --> 0:05:09.520 I'm not with any of them anymore and they're all 0:05:09.560 --> 0:05:12.640 my exes, even though things didn't work out between us, truly, 0:05:12.720 --> 0:05:14.200 I am so grateful for each and every one of 0:05:14.240 --> 0:05:16.840 them because they I mean, I'm speaking like I have 0:05:16.960 --> 0:05:21.360 fifty I have really two real ones. I have like 0:05:21.960 --> 0:05:25.960 three fake ones, but like two real ones. And the 0:05:26.040 --> 0:05:28.720 thing is is like they both came into my life 0:05:28.760 --> 0:05:31.280 for a reason, and I'm very very grateful for that. 0:05:31.720 --> 0:05:34.160 They both taught me a lot of lessons, and they 0:05:34.240 --> 0:05:37.200 both taught me a lot of experience, and I'm very 0:05:37.240 --> 0:05:40.120 grateful for everyone that's come on to my bus and 0:05:40.240 --> 0:05:42.000 hopped on and hopped off. But the reality of it 0:05:42.120 --> 0:05:45.160 is is I'm so young, only twenty years old, and 0:05:45.560 --> 0:05:47.680 you know, my first relationship start when I was seventeen, 0:05:47.760 --> 0:05:51.200 my second when I was nineteen, And so the thought 0:05:51.360 --> 0:05:55.040 of like it's it's okay where young, like life moves 0:05:55.120 --> 0:05:58.360 on and like odds are a teenage couple isn't gonna 0:05:58.400 --> 0:06:00.440 work out. And so I think I have a really 0:06:00.480 --> 0:06:03.640 clear perspective on like it's okay, there doesn't need to 0:06:03.680 --> 0:06:06.920 be bad blood. Obviously, a lot more went on that 0:06:07.520 --> 0:06:09.200 than the world sees on the internet, and that can 0:06:09.240 --> 0:06:10.640 get kind of hard to see because you kind of 0:06:10.640 --> 0:06:13.680 get wrapped up in what the internet thinks. But yeah, no, 0:06:13.760 --> 0:06:16.760 I'm not not opposed to having my ex's on the podcast. 0:06:17.880 --> 0:06:20.000 I don't think I think I'd be really stressed the 0:06:20.080 --> 0:06:22.720 day that they're here, But yeah, I think it'd be 0:06:22.839 --> 0:06:26.800 kind of interesting. Maybe not anytime soon. I feel like 0:06:26.839 --> 0:06:37.000 I need like a year to prep for that. Levia 0:06:37.000 --> 0:06:40.120 Elizabeth asked, have you gone to therapy like that wasn't 0:06:40.200 --> 0:06:43.760 required by Special Forces? This question I thought was super 0:06:43.800 --> 0:06:47.880 important to answer. I haven't. I never have. I've been 0:06:47.920 --> 0:06:50.320 on a lot of dramatic TV shows, Dance Moms, we 0:06:50.400 --> 0:06:52.520 had a set psychiatrist who was there for us if 0:06:52.560 --> 0:06:54.640 we ever needed her. Never needed her, but she was 0:06:54.680 --> 0:06:58.559 always there. And then Special Forces we have required therapy. 0:06:58.600 --> 0:07:00.520 I'm pretty sure I'm done with all the therapy. I 0:07:00.640 --> 0:07:04.480 might have to do more towards the end anyways, But 0:07:05.000 --> 0:07:08.600 you for Forces the therapy. I actually didn't think I 0:07:08.680 --> 0:07:10.520 was gonna need it. I was like, ah, I'm chilling, 0:07:10.560 --> 0:07:12.920 I'm good. Then once trailers and stuff started to come 0:07:12.960 --> 0:07:16.760 out and I started to see things again, I was like, ooh, hey, buddy, 0:07:17.000 --> 0:07:19.120 can we do a chat? Like I did really need 0:07:19.200 --> 0:07:21.400 it and it was the first time in my life 0:07:21.440 --> 0:07:23.840 that I ever felt like I needed to talk to somebody. 0:07:24.920 --> 0:07:26.520 I don't know. I feel like I have a really 0:07:26.640 --> 0:07:31.280 really good support system around me, and I think that 0:07:31.600 --> 0:07:35.160 if you are comfortable enough to be able to chat 0:07:35.280 --> 0:07:37.960 with your your friends and family about your life, then 0:07:38.000 --> 0:07:42.080 that's a blessing. But also sometimes it's the right step 0:07:42.320 --> 0:07:46.880 is to get professional and professional help and a professional therapist. 0:07:47.840 --> 0:07:50.280 But for me personally, I don't know. I've just kind 0:07:50.280 --> 0:07:53.040 of found my right dynamic in my own skin with 0:07:53.200 --> 0:07:56.680 my friends, with my family, and I've never gone to therapy. 0:07:56.960 --> 0:07:59.720 I think I need it. I think I should go. 0:08:00.040 --> 0:08:01.520 I think I have a lot that I don't even 0:08:01.640 --> 0:08:05.360 realize that I just keep inside me. But I don't know. 0:08:05.480 --> 0:08:07.720 I just it's never been something that It's never been 0:08:07.760 --> 0:08:11.200 a can of worms that I've opened, and I I 0:08:11.200 --> 0:08:12.840 don't know if it ever will be, But if it 0:08:12.960 --> 0:08:15.200 ever is, then hey it is, there's nothing wrong with it. 0:08:16.800 --> 0:08:18.920 What was your favorite dance that you did in Dancing 0:08:19.000 --> 0:08:21.080 with the Stars. That is from Lily Beth twenty five 0:08:21.200 --> 0:08:24.320 oh one. Hey, Lily Beth favorite dancing with the Stars Dance, 0:08:24.400 --> 0:08:27.400 I mean gosh, I watched the Dancing with the Stars 0:08:27.480 --> 0:08:29.920 dances all the time, So we got are You Gonna 0:08:29.920 --> 0:08:31.760 Be My Girl? Which was our quick step. We had 0:08:31.840 --> 0:08:34.480 our rain on me Cha Cha, Argentine tango, Hit Me 0:08:34.520 --> 0:08:38.400 Baby One More Time, Viennie's waltz to Dreams with Your 0:08:38.400 --> 0:08:42.960 Heartmakes Pas do Blay to Disney's Descendants Ways to Be Wicked, 0:08:43.400 --> 0:08:45.120 What do we do? After that? After that was Sandy 0:08:45.200 --> 0:08:49.480 and Frenchy, which was a foxtrot for Greece, and then 0:08:49.600 --> 0:08:53.240 we did Next. The next week was Pennywise, which was 0:08:53.360 --> 0:08:56.720 our jazz anything Goes. The next week was Queen Weeks, 0:08:56.720 --> 0:08:59.800 so we did tango to Body Language and then another 0:09:00.040 --> 0:09:03.439 foxtrot and the relay to under Pressure. So that was 0:09:03.480 --> 0:09:05.840 Janet Jackson week, where we did a salset of feedback 0:09:06.360 --> 0:09:07.800 and we did That's the Way I Love Goes. We 0:09:07.840 --> 0:09:11.400 had a rumbach dance I Love and then it was 0:09:11.800 --> 0:09:14.559 uh Semi Finals weeks. We had an Argentine tango to 0:09:14.640 --> 0:09:18.520 a song called Santa Maria, and we had our contemporary 0:09:18.760 --> 0:09:21.760 to anything Not Anything Goes Before You Goes what that 0:09:21.840 --> 0:09:24.480 one was called? And then the finale we had our 0:09:24.520 --> 0:09:27.280 freestyle of Born This Way and Our Cha Shat Tango 0:09:27.480 --> 0:09:31.599 fusion too. I don't care, I love it, gosh. My 0:09:31.920 --> 0:09:36.080 favorite is probably between Sandy and Frenchy Foxtrot. I really 0:09:36.200 --> 0:09:39.360 loved the feeling of that dance. Wasn't necessarily my favorite 0:09:39.520 --> 0:09:41.880 Steps to Do, Steps to Do. I love Pennywise and 0:09:41.920 --> 0:09:44.840 I love Our Contemporary because those dances just they felt 0:09:44.880 --> 0:09:46.880 so comfortable for me because I'd done them before. You know, 0:09:46.960 --> 0:09:49.319 I grew up being a competitive dancer and so, but 0:09:49.480 --> 0:09:52.800 not anything ballroom, so any ballroom styles, Latin styles that 0:09:53.280 --> 0:09:55.480 that was out of my comfort zone. But when it 0:09:55.600 --> 0:09:58.120 came time to do contemporary and jazz, you know, I 0:09:58.520 --> 0:10:02.400 I had done that before, never partnering, but I knew 0:10:02.400 --> 0:10:05.000 what I was getting myself into. So probably those two 0:10:05.040 --> 0:10:09.000 in Sanmium Frenchy, those were those are my favorites. What 0:10:09.160 --> 0:10:13.480 did Special Forces make you realize so much? Special Forces? 0:10:13.520 --> 0:10:17.920 This question comes from Ambar Underscore Basketball special Forces. I mean, 0:10:17.960 --> 0:10:19.800 it really did make me realize so much. It made 0:10:19.880 --> 0:10:22.439 me realize the things that I cared about, the people 0:10:22.480 --> 0:10:25.600 that I cared about, what mattered to me, what didn't 0:10:25.640 --> 0:10:28.800 matter to me? Uh, I don't know. I think I 0:10:30.160 --> 0:10:32.200 had I had a very I've always had a pretty 0:10:32.240 --> 0:10:34.240 clear perspective on life, and I've always kind of been 0:10:34.280 --> 0:10:36.920 able to see bigger picture and things. But I think 0:10:36.960 --> 0:10:38.760 maybe in Special Forces I was actually able to see 0:10:38.800 --> 0:10:42.079 the smaller picture of like, hey, look, maybe the future 0:10:42.120 --> 0:10:44.880 doesn't matter so much. Maybe the present actually matters the 0:10:44.960 --> 0:10:47.599 most more than the future does. And so I was 0:10:47.600 --> 0:10:50.680 able to kind of find a clear balance. I actually 0:10:50.760 --> 0:10:53.280 recently just got upset at myself because I told myself, 0:10:53.440 --> 0:10:56.400 after Special Forces, I wasn't going to put my career 0:10:56.440 --> 0:10:58.640 first anymore. I was gonna put my fun first, my 0:10:59.400 --> 0:11:03.439 friendships first, my life first. But it's a fine line 0:11:03.480 --> 0:11:06.400 because my life is my career. And I recently was 0:11:06.480 --> 0:11:10.240 just in Florida with Tyler Cameron, who I did Special 0:11:10.280 --> 0:11:12.360 Forces with. He's like, I mean, he's more than a 0:11:12.400 --> 0:11:16.240 brother to me. Now. I love that boy. And then 0:11:16.320 --> 0:11:18.040 my brother is also in Florida now, so I got 0:11:18.040 --> 0:11:20.959 to see my biological brother Jayden, and I got to 0:11:20.960 --> 0:11:23.120 see his girlfriend Abby, and I got to see my 0:11:23.559 --> 0:11:26.800 Special Forces brother Tyler, and I was having a really 0:11:26.840 --> 0:11:29.280 good time and I got asked to come home to 0:11:29.400 --> 0:11:32.480 do a concert with a new friend. Their name is 0:11:32.559 --> 0:11:36.199 g Flip and G asked me to come perform with them, 0:11:36.440 --> 0:11:39.959 and initially my answer was actually no because I was like, 0:11:40.040 --> 0:11:41.679 I'm in Florida. I can't make it work. And then 0:11:41.679 --> 0:11:43.520 I was like, no, Jojo, you do not say no 0:11:43.600 --> 0:11:45.280 to g Flip. Get your ass on a plane and 0:11:45.320 --> 0:11:48.079 get home. So I rearranged my travel schedule and I 0:11:48.160 --> 0:11:50.160 was like, I'm gonna go home. I'm gonna do it fine. 0:11:50.200 --> 0:11:51.520 So I was supposed to be in Florida for a week. 0:11:51.520 --> 0:11:52.920 I had to cut my trip short. I was only 0:11:52.960 --> 0:11:55.120 there for like a day, day and a half and 0:11:55.200 --> 0:11:58.400 it was super last minute. It was very hectic, but 0:11:58.480 --> 0:12:00.319 I was like, you know, what's what we do. And 0:12:00.400 --> 0:12:03.160 as I was on the plane ride home, I remember 0:12:03.400 --> 0:12:05.840 like I actually started like cry when I was telling 0:12:05.880 --> 0:12:07.920 my mom about this because I was having a lot 0:12:08.000 --> 0:12:10.000 of fun in Florida, and I told my mom, I 0:12:10.120 --> 0:12:12.440 was like, I did exactly what I said. I wasn't 0:12:12.480 --> 0:12:15.679 gonna do. I'm coming home to perform when I was 0:12:15.840 --> 0:12:18.240 having fun with my friends and it wasn't work. We 0:12:18.320 --> 0:12:19.839 were supposed to go on a boat the next day. 0:12:19.840 --> 0:12:21.640 Then I was gonna go back up and indoor skydide 0:12:21.679 --> 0:12:24.320 with my brother, like supposed to be like pure fun 0:12:24.400 --> 0:12:26.400 for the weekend, and I was gonna be a little break, 0:12:27.000 --> 0:12:28.800 and I told myself. I was like, I'm doing exactly 0:12:28.880 --> 0:12:30.800 what I said I was gonna do, Like I came 0:12:30.880 --> 0:12:33.679 home to perform, like I came home to work, Like, Yeah, 0:12:33.720 --> 0:12:35.120 it's gonna be fun and I'm excited to do with G. 0:12:35.320 --> 0:12:38.400 But like I'm just I was sad. I was mad 0:12:38.480 --> 0:12:41.160 at myself. But then I was like okay, Jojo, like 0:12:41.200 --> 0:12:42.719 you gotta get over it. You're doing it like you 0:12:42.880 --> 0:12:44.880 did it. You're here, You're not taking another six hours, 0:12:45.000 --> 0:12:46.959 like back to Florida, Like what are you gonna do? 0:12:47.720 --> 0:12:50.240 So I was like all right, found some fire. Went 0:12:50.320 --> 0:12:53.559 to sound check, and immediately when I walked in and 0:12:53.640 --> 0:12:56.199 it was my first time actually meeting G in person, 0:12:57.040 --> 0:12:59.079 I knew that I had made the right choice. And 0:12:59.360 --> 0:13:02.000 it was hard because I was mad at myself for 0:13:02.080 --> 0:13:04.719 a second. But then once I walked into that sound check, 0:13:04.760 --> 0:13:06.800 I was like, oh, this is the best place I 0:13:06.840 --> 0:13:09.640 could be right now. And I had so much fun 0:13:09.840 --> 0:13:13.600 at soundcheck with G and with Lauren. They're both amazing. 0:13:14.440 --> 0:13:16.559 And then when it came time for the concert, like 0:13:16.720 --> 0:13:20.280 I literally was like this was the best choice I 0:13:20.600 --> 0:13:24.559 ever made, and it it kind of made me realize, like, look, 0:13:24.800 --> 0:13:27.120 it's not about putting your life first, it's not about 0:13:27.120 --> 0:13:30.079 putting your career first. It's all about balance. This was 0:13:30.160 --> 0:13:34.480 a moment that I had a choice of priority or fun, 0:13:34.679 --> 0:13:37.199 and I chose priority when I told myself I was 0:13:37.240 --> 0:13:39.880 going to choose fun from now on, but I picked priority, 0:13:39.920 --> 0:13:42.000 and then I feel like the universe rewarded me by 0:13:42.080 --> 0:13:45.439 picking the right choice, by making the right choice so 0:13:46.000 --> 0:13:48.000 much fun. I mean, it literally was the best night ever. 0:13:48.400 --> 0:13:50.160 I have a photo from that night now as my 0:13:50.240 --> 0:13:52.559 lock screen because I always set my lock screen to 0:13:52.640 --> 0:13:55.360 something that can make me instantly happy, and that photo 0:13:55.520 --> 0:13:57.160 is what can make me instantly happy right now is 0:13:57.200 --> 0:14:01.440 remembering that night, remembering performing with G and Laura and god, 0:14:01.480 --> 0:14:02.960 it was just I mean, it was the best night 0:14:03.000 --> 0:14:04.880 in g. G text me it was like, thank you 0:14:05.000 --> 0:14:07.719 so much again for changing your travel and like doing this, 0:14:07.880 --> 0:14:10.000 like I can't I can't even thank you enough for 0:14:10.080 --> 0:14:12.920 coming tonight. And I told them I was like, it 0:14:13.040 --> 0:14:15.080 was the best choice I've made in a really long time. 0:14:15.240 --> 0:14:17.920 It was tough, but like I do not regret it 0:14:17.960 --> 0:14:20.880 at all anyway. Sorry that that got into I told 0:14:20.880 --> 0:14:24.480 you we were getting deep today. All right, If you 0:14:24.640 --> 0:14:27.000 had to choose, would you rather do Dance Moms or 0:14:27.120 --> 0:14:32.640 Forces again? Oh? Okay, honestly special Forces. I would give 0:14:32.920 --> 0:14:34.880 anything to go back to Forces. While we were there, 0:14:35.320 --> 0:14:37.720 DSQ told us he was like, you, you're gonna miss it, 0:14:37.800 --> 0:14:40.120 and I remember all of us were like, yeah, freaking right, 0:14:40.240 --> 0:14:43.080 we never gonna miss this. I miss it, like I 0:14:43.720 --> 0:14:45.360 remember the day I told DSQ, I was like, I 0:14:45.440 --> 0:14:47.760 miss you. I never thought I would say those words, 0:14:47.800 --> 0:14:51.920 but like, I miss you bad so Forces. I love 0:14:52.040 --> 0:14:56.000 dance Moms. Sorry I didn't say who these last ones 0:14:56.040 --> 0:15:00.200 were from. That one was from JoJo's Softy So it 0:15:00.320 --> 0:15:05.000 was from Cat Cat Real Cat Real George. Sorry, sorry, 0:15:05.040 --> 0:15:06.280 home me. I don't know how to say your name. 0:15:06.800 --> 0:15:08.760 They said, not a question. But let's talk about Lauren 0:15:08.800 --> 0:15:12.080 and g Flip. What ah, That night was so much fun. 0:15:12.320 --> 0:15:14.040 It was so much fun. Since we were just talking 0:15:14.080 --> 0:15:15.840 about it, this is a great time to talk about 0:15:15.840 --> 0:15:18.000 it a little more. I get to perform g Flip's 0:15:18.000 --> 0:15:21.440 song Gay for Me, which is such an iconic song, 0:15:21.440 --> 0:15:23.160 and I got to do it with them and with Lauren, 0:15:23.240 --> 0:15:25.800 and it was just oh, it was so much fun. 0:15:26.000 --> 0:15:29.000 Uh Now I after the concert, I mean I watched 0:15:29.120 --> 0:15:31.200 G perform and I was watching them play the drums, 0:15:31.240 --> 0:15:34.160 and I was just like, I G is an incredible drummer. 0:15:34.720 --> 0:15:37.800 But I was watching them play and I was just like, 0:15:38.000 --> 0:15:39.760 I want to do that. I want to I want 0:15:39.800 --> 0:15:42.200 to learn that. And I tried the drum signs a 0:15:42.240 --> 0:15:45.720 little but never never never kept them around. Uh. Literally 0:15:45.760 --> 0:15:46.880 had him for like a day and then it was 0:15:46.880 --> 0:15:49.520 like now the same for me. Anyways, after I was like, 0:15:49.560 --> 0:15:51.000 I want to drum again. I want to drum, like 0:15:51.000 --> 0:15:52.200 I want to get a drum kit, Like this is 0:15:52.240 --> 0:15:54.720 what I'm gonna be into now. And that next day 0:15:54.800 --> 0:15:56.440 Gee texted and was like, dude, if you ever want 0:15:56.440 --> 0:15:58.480 to learn the drums, like I would love to teach you. 0:15:58.600 --> 0:16:00.800 And I was like, you have no idea. Been contemplating 0:16:00.840 --> 0:16:04.400 this all freaking night, sick. So Gee, I'm actually having 0:16:04.480 --> 0:16:06.880 my first lesson with them tomorrow and they're gonna come 0:16:06.960 --> 0:16:09.120 up to my studio and teach me drums, which I'm 0:16:09.360 --> 0:16:12.880 so excited about. Uh that concert, I told you, I 0:16:12.960 --> 0:16:14.880 was like, you have no idea, Like this was a 0:16:14.920 --> 0:16:17.440 fun night, but this was an inspiring night for me, 0:16:17.560 --> 0:16:20.600 Like I best Night and g and Lauren are the 0:16:20.840 --> 0:16:25.800 coolest freaking people in the world. Helliker aldc asked me, 0:16:26.000 --> 0:16:30.200 how did I come out to my mother? My mom 0:16:30.480 --> 0:16:34.600 actually made my coming out to her super easy. Uh, 0:16:35.480 --> 0:16:42.560 I I was. I can't. I was not scared to 0:16:42.640 --> 0:16:45.160 come out, but afraid to come out. I know those 0:16:45.240 --> 0:16:50.920 have very similar meanings. But I wasn't scared like, Ooh, 0:16:51.000 --> 0:16:54.080 my family's gonna hate me. I was scared, like, what's 0:16:54.120 --> 0:16:56.480 my family gonna think that? I don't know? You know 0:16:56.480 --> 0:16:58.000 what I mean? I was kind of afraid of I 0:16:58.120 --> 0:17:02.360 was afraid of the unknown. And everyone kind of caught 0:17:02.360 --> 0:17:04.280 a vibe between me and the very first girl that 0:17:04.320 --> 0:17:06.320 I liked, and everyone kind of knew that, Like, oh, 0:17:06.440 --> 0:17:09.760 I was like very open to the LGBTQ community. I 0:17:09.800 --> 0:17:13.640 was very accepting, very celebrating. It was celebratory more than 0:17:14.520 --> 0:17:17.239 the average person, more than somebody who isn't a part 0:17:17.280 --> 0:17:19.840 of the LGBTQ community, you know what I mean? Like 0:17:20.200 --> 0:17:22.360 I feel like there's I mean, I can speak as 0:17:22.400 --> 0:17:25.919 my family. Everybody else in my family besides me is straight. 0:17:26.040 --> 0:17:28.080 Sexuality is fluid, so that could change out any point 0:17:28.119 --> 0:17:31.000 in time, but everyone in my family is straight, and 0:17:31.200 --> 0:17:35.639 for a time I was. I guess I was never straight, 0:17:35.680 --> 0:17:38.840 but we'll say I was. I'm pretty sure there's a 0:17:38.920 --> 0:17:42.520 question about that coming up anyways, But I just I 0:17:42.560 --> 0:17:46.479 don't know. I was always just a little more everyone 0:17:46.600 --> 0:17:49.119 was accepting, but I was a little more excited about 0:17:49.240 --> 0:17:54.240 the gays than everybody else. And so everyone kind of 0:17:54.280 --> 0:17:56.520 caught a vibe between me and this girl who ended 0:17:56.600 --> 0:17:59.159 up becoming my first girlfriend, and my mom kind of 0:17:59.200 --> 0:18:01.480 asked me about it, and I was like, no, no, nothing, nothing, nothing, 0:18:01.600 --> 0:18:03.520 but in my head I knew what I was feeling. 0:18:04.400 --> 0:18:06.920 And then after, I mean art, we were on a 0:18:07.000 --> 0:18:09.960 vacation together and our vacation ended, and my mom was like, 0:18:10.040 --> 0:18:11.920 you really like her, don't you, And we weren't with 0:18:11.960 --> 0:18:14.240 her anymore. I just say goodbye, and I was in 0:18:14.280 --> 0:18:15.760 the car and I was crying. I was like yeah, 0:18:16.640 --> 0:18:18.520 and my mom was like, do you like her as 0:18:18.560 --> 0:18:20.480 a friend or is more than a friend? And I 0:18:20.560 --> 0:18:24.240 was like more than a friend and my mom was 0:18:24.320 --> 0:18:28.639 like I figured, and I was like, yeah, Like is 0:18:28.800 --> 0:18:31.359 she I don't know. I always told myself. I was like, 0:18:31.440 --> 0:18:33.880 I will only ever this is what I always said. 0:18:33.880 --> 0:18:35.159 I said, I will only ever come out if I 0:18:35.240 --> 0:18:37.800 have a reason to or if I met Lady Gaga. 0:18:38.040 --> 0:18:39.840 I don't know why, but I always had this plan 0:18:39.960 --> 0:18:42.200 that if I ever saw Lady Gaga, I was gonna 0:18:42.240 --> 0:18:44.680 tell her. Look, I've never told anyone this, but I 0:18:44.760 --> 0:18:48.520 think I like girls. That was like always, like literally 0:18:48.640 --> 0:18:50.960 twelve year old me's game plan was like, Lady Gaga, 0:18:51.240 --> 0:18:53.359 I can tell Lady Gaga because I I don't know. 0:18:53.400 --> 0:18:55.000 I just felt like Aga would have been like that 0:18:55.200 --> 0:18:57.040 safe space for me to be able to be the 0:18:57.119 --> 0:19:00.160 first person to come out to. So one day, if 0:19:00.160 --> 0:19:02.000 I have a megg, I will I will tell her that. 0:19:02.119 --> 0:19:04.280 Still I'll be like, look, the whole world now now knows, 0:19:04.720 --> 0:19:06.200 but you were going to be the first person that 0:19:06.240 --> 0:19:08.280 I told because I just I don't know. Something in 0:19:08.320 --> 0:19:09.880 my head was like, you can tell Gaga and she'll 0:19:09.880 --> 0:19:12.800 be all right with it. But now, I mean my 0:19:13.160 --> 0:19:20.879 coming out was was was simple because my people around 0:19:20.920 --> 0:19:23.720 me made it simple. My people around me were very open. 0:19:24.119 --> 0:19:28.800 My people around me asked, and I now had a 0:19:28.920 --> 0:19:31.879 reason to say, yes, you know, if I didn't like 0:19:31.960 --> 0:19:34.000 a girl, or I wasn't with a girl, or say 0:19:34.040 --> 0:19:36.200