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Speaker 1: I'm Emmy and this is Crumbs, a podcast about the

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Speaker 1: things we settle for and the bits of ourselves that

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Speaker 1: make us who we are. I've taken you from my

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Speaker 1: love life deep into my childhood traumas. I've tried to

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Speaker 1: piece together all the things that I've learned from the

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Speaker 1: people in my life, like my grandmother, Mamiricha, who taught

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Speaker 1: me strength, ambition, and drive. But that's not the full story.

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Speaker 1: I started to live a devile life when I was

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Speaker 1: a teenager, responsible and driven and wild and out of control.

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Speaker 1: My head is pounding. I'm confused. I don't know why

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Speaker 1: I'm in jail. The odds were against me. My family

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Speaker 1: tree was full of addicts. I wanted to take the

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Speaker 1: lessons that I learned from the women in my life

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Speaker 1: and use them to break free. But no matter how

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Speaker 1: badly I wanted, that addiction never left me. It took

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Speaker 1: me to the most sortid places, terrifying situations. When I

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Speaker 1: came to I had an AK forty seven plan out

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Speaker 1: my head ended up in hospital rooms and psych wards.

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Speaker 1: Here I went restrained some bad but one psych word,

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Speaker 1: one doctor, one night seemed to change everything, and I

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Speaker 1: made it into the rooms of recovery. The path from

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Speaker 1: that first room to where I am today is not

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Speaker 1: a straight happy one. I had roadblocks and detours, stalls

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Speaker 1: and relapses. I served myself a little bit in a cup,

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Speaker 1: makes it with some die of coke. Took a first

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Speaker 1: sip sip, and I was like a light went out

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Speaker 1: inside of me. With my upbringing, I fell doomed to

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Speaker 1: be a statistic. But when I was feeling the most lost,

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Speaker 1: I found hope with community and I made my way back.

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Speaker 1: This season, join me on my journey through addiction and recovery,

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Speaker 1: a story told in twelve steps. Listened to Crumbs starting

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Speaker 1: j on You're fourteenth. That's part of my Chogua podcast

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