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Speaker 1: I'm not entirely sure what this media. I know. I'm like,

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Speaker 1: it's podcasting radio. I don't know. Anyway, Welcome to our podcast,

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Speaker 1: whatever the hell it is, Welcome to it. I'm really

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Speaker 1: excited for today. Seven days at least, at least it's

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Speaker 1: been only seven days, because before that, well maybe before

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Speaker 1: was like months. Yes, we took a lot, a little

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Speaker 1: hiatus man, A lot happen in seven days. Yes, especially

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Speaker 1: um good news for the person that we're going to

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Speaker 1: talk to today. I'm so excited. I love her and

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Speaker 1: have always rooted for I feel like a lot of

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Speaker 1: people have. Um, it's the one and only Claire Crawley,

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Speaker 1: it today. Yes, I'm excited. I think we should bring

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Speaker 1: her on. I mean, my goodness, this is the biggest

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Speaker 1: it's pretty spectacular. Yeah, I love it. Okay, let's bring

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Speaker 1: her in there. She is, well, Hi, how are you?

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Speaker 1: We're good. I mean, you've got to be on cloud nine. Congratulations,

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Speaker 1: Thank you so much. It was literally the most unexpected thing.

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Speaker 1: We were just living our lives, doing our thing, and

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Speaker 1: here we are, So it was unexpected. You didn't know, No,

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Speaker 1: absolutely not. I had no clue. As a matter of fact,

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Speaker 1: we always we always talked about getting engaged, um and

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Speaker 1: to me, it was just we were going on a trip.

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Speaker 1: We were going to the Rise festival, and then we

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Speaker 1: always joked about We're like, I'm like, when are you

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Speaker 1: about that, I was like, why did you not at

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Speaker 1: He just was so patient and he was like I

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Speaker 1: can use it for everything, like you can you can

424
00:22:50,280 --> 00:22:53,080
Speaker 1: do use be venom therapy for everything. And maybe I

425
00:22:53,119 --> 00:22:55,600
Speaker 1: was just feeling bad. I think I was just feeling yucky.

426
00:22:56,160 --> 00:22:57,840
Speaker 1: He's like, well, why don't you do a couple of stings.

427
00:22:57,880 --> 00:23:02,200
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh no, not happening a couple of Yeah,

428
00:23:02,720 --> 00:23:07,520
Speaker 1: I just can't. It's a little house. It's a little house,

429
00:23:08,000 --> 00:23:11,080
Speaker 1: um that that lives in our pantry and we just

430
00:23:11,240 --> 00:23:16,520
Speaker 1: ordered more. They came via FedEx y from from an aviary.

431
00:23:16,960 --> 00:23:21,040
Speaker 1: It's crazy, um because here in Colorado, they you can't

432
00:23:21,080 --> 00:23:23,480
Speaker 1: get them anymore. They're in their hives for the like

433
00:23:23,560 --> 00:23:28,480
Speaker 1: the cold season. But um yeah, he is still stinging

434
00:23:28,520 --> 00:23:31,000
Speaker 1: and he has his ups and downs. But thank you

435
00:23:31,160 --> 00:23:33,600
Speaker 1: for asking. He's good. I mean, the thing is, I

436
00:23:33,680 --> 00:23:38,120
Speaker 1: know that triathlon life, that triathlete life, and I feel

437
00:23:38,119 --> 00:23:41,439
Speaker 1: like it's funny because I was never interested. Like never,

438
00:23:41,600 --> 00:23:43,960
Speaker 1: I was like, okay, you do you. I'll do a

439
00:23:44,000 --> 00:23:47,240
Speaker 1: five k with you every so often, maybe, but I'm

440
00:23:47,400 --> 00:23:50,879
Speaker 1: not even close to like even thinking about marathons. But

441
00:23:51,000 --> 00:23:53,680
Speaker 1: You've done a bunch of races, haven't you. I have.

442
00:23:53,880 --> 00:23:57,520
Speaker 1: I Actually, that's one thing that's changed in my life.

443
00:23:57,560 --> 00:23:59,240
Speaker 1: Is that. A couple of years ago, when I was

444
00:23:59,320 --> 00:24:04,040
Speaker 1: super sick with my breast implants, when I had them in, um,

445
00:24:04,160 --> 00:24:07,080
Speaker 1: I could barely walk. I could barely walk. I was

446
00:24:07,119 --> 00:24:08,800
Speaker 1: so sick. I was doing my best, but it would

447
00:24:08,800 --> 00:24:13,040
Speaker 1: take all of my energy just to function normally. So

448
00:24:13,200 --> 00:24:16,159
Speaker 1: working out above that, doing anything above that, it was

449
00:24:16,400 --> 00:24:20,879
Speaker 1: extremely hard. I was more yoga, light plodies. Those were

450
00:24:21,000 --> 00:24:25,520
Speaker 1: my workouts. And now with Ryan, he actually, um, he

451
00:24:25,720 --> 00:24:29,800
Speaker 1: just I believe, bought a marathon and so he his

452
00:24:29,920 --> 00:24:32,840
Speaker 1: job is no, wait, how do you do that? I

453
00:24:32,840 --> 00:24:37,240
Speaker 1: don't know people own marathons, but it's a thing. So

454
00:24:37,760 --> 00:24:41,480
Speaker 1: he but he literally puts on races and that's his

455
00:24:41,600 --> 00:24:44,040
Speaker 1: job is too. Yeah, he's worked for the Giants, He's

456
00:24:44,040 --> 00:24:47,320
Speaker 1: done a bunch of that stuff. So he is very

457
00:24:47,400 --> 00:24:50,520
Speaker 1: much into running. And I want to be with him

458
00:24:50,560 --> 00:24:53,159
Speaker 1: a lot. I love being with him, and so when

459
00:24:53,200 --> 00:24:55,520
Speaker 1: he goes and does these things, it's in like this weekend,

460
00:24:55,560 --> 00:24:57,600
Speaker 1: we have one in Dallas, and I'm like, I want

461
00:24:57,600 --> 00:24:59,680
Speaker 1: to come to Dallas with you, and so I'm gonna

462
00:24:59,680 --> 00:25:02,320
Speaker 1: go the running running run the one in Dallas. So

463
00:25:02,400 --> 00:25:04,080
Speaker 1: he works it, I run it, and then I just

464
00:25:04,119 --> 00:25:08,919
Speaker 1: meet him at the end. That's awesome. But he love it.

465
00:25:09,000 --> 00:25:10,920
Speaker 1: I think that to me is a sign of one

466
00:25:10,920 --> 00:25:12,600
Speaker 1: of the signs of a good partner is that if

467
00:25:12,640 --> 00:25:17,600
Speaker 1: you make each other's lives better. And he's always encouraging me,

468
00:25:17,720 --> 00:25:20,399
Speaker 1: always like, let's do this. I want to do it.

469
00:25:20,600 --> 00:25:22,600
Speaker 1: I want to, you know, run with him, and so

470
00:25:22,720 --> 00:25:26,399
Speaker 1: it's it's really made my life better and improved my life.

471
00:25:27,200 --> 00:25:30,760
Speaker 1: That's awesome. Yeah, well you look great. You look so happy.

472
00:25:30,800 --> 00:25:35,159
Speaker 1: You're just radiating happiness. I love it. You're that person.

473
00:25:35,200 --> 00:25:36,800
Speaker 1: I mean, we all adore you, and it's just like

474
00:25:36,880 --> 00:25:39,679
Speaker 1: so great to see you just find the right person

475
00:25:39,760 --> 00:25:44,040
Speaker 1: and just hit that next level, you know. Seriously, especially

476
00:25:44,080 --> 00:25:49,040
Speaker 1: after one Pablo, you know what, I feel like that

477
00:25:49,200 --> 00:25:51,960
Speaker 1: was it was all for a purpose. It was all

478
00:25:51,960 --> 00:25:55,280
Speaker 1: for a purpose. Even going that with one Pablo. It

479
00:25:55,480 --> 00:25:58,840
Speaker 1: was a pivotal moment in my life for standing up

480
00:25:58,840 --> 00:26:00,840
Speaker 1: for myself to a on That was the first time

481
00:26:00,880 --> 00:26:02,960
Speaker 1: I had ever done that. It was right after an

482
00:26:02,960 --> 00:26:05,360
Speaker 1: a piece of relationship. If I've shared that before, but

483
00:26:05,680 --> 00:26:07,680
Speaker 1: it was a moment that I had that I needed

484
00:26:07,720 --> 00:26:09,639
Speaker 1: to be able to stand up for myself. So I

485
00:26:09,640 --> 00:26:13,119
Speaker 1: am thankful for that moment as well. Yeah, that's crazy

486
00:26:13,200 --> 00:26:15,800
Speaker 1: that I remember meeting you right after that, and I

487
00:26:15,840 --> 00:26:18,600
Speaker 1: was just like I loved first of all, I loved

488
00:26:18,680 --> 00:26:24,679
Speaker 1: that season because I made me feel so good about myself, like,

489
00:26:24,720 --> 00:26:27,879
Speaker 1: oh wait, this guy is way worse than me. No,

490
00:26:28,040 --> 00:26:29,600
Speaker 1: but it was like one of those things where I

491
00:26:29,800 --> 00:26:31,920
Speaker 1: loved you standing up to him. I loved everything you said,

492
00:26:32,080 --> 00:26:34,199
Speaker 1: and it was like, you know, then we I just

493
00:26:35,280 --> 00:26:36,879
Speaker 1: along the way. You know. It was just like you

494
00:26:37,000 --> 00:26:39,359
Speaker 1: just built such a bigger and bigger following of people

495
00:26:39,400 --> 00:26:41,600
Speaker 1: that and then you impacted him so much by being

496
00:26:41,640 --> 00:26:44,080
Speaker 1: so open and honest, you know. And I think it's

497
00:26:44,119 --> 00:26:46,679
Speaker 1: just I just love. I love the whole full circle.

498
00:26:46,680 --> 00:26:48,080
Speaker 1: And I agree you've got to go through those bumps

499
00:26:48,080 --> 00:26:50,040
Speaker 1: in the road and that's all part of your story

500
00:26:50,080 --> 00:26:52,040
Speaker 1: before you arrive where you need to be, you know.

501
00:26:52,160 --> 00:26:55,639
Speaker 1: And and I'll tell you to thank you for a thing.

502
00:26:55,680 --> 00:26:57,879
Speaker 1: I'll tell you too. And I feel like this is

503
00:26:57,880 --> 00:27:02,000
Speaker 1: an important thing is that I am extremely extremely happy

504
00:27:02,080 --> 00:27:04,400
Speaker 1: now and everybody, even in my comments, people are like, oh,

505
00:27:04,440 --> 00:27:08,119
Speaker 1: you're going You're happier this year that I I was

506
00:27:08,160 --> 00:27:12,760
Speaker 1: happy not being in a relationship with Ryan. This happiness

507
00:27:12,880 --> 00:27:16,600
Speaker 1: came from me. This happiness came from healing. This happiness

508
00:27:16,720 --> 00:27:20,280
Speaker 1: came through doing the hard work of kind of trudging

509
00:27:20,280 --> 00:27:22,639
Speaker 1: through the emotional crap that I needed to get rid

510
00:27:22,680 --> 00:27:24,760
Speaker 1: of and the heaviness and the forgiveness that I needed

511
00:27:24,760 --> 00:27:28,320
Speaker 1: to experience in my own life. That's where this happiness

512
00:27:28,320 --> 00:27:31,160
Speaker 1: has come from. And Ryan adds to it, and I'm

513
00:27:31,160 --> 00:27:35,000
Speaker 1: grateful for him for but this happiness was a long

514
00:27:35,080 --> 00:27:37,000
Speaker 1: time coming and a lot of therapy and a lot

515
00:27:37,000 --> 00:27:40,320
Speaker 1: of work within myself and a self work. So that's

516
00:27:40,320 --> 00:27:42,320
Speaker 1: where this is where eaten from. And that's how I'm

517
00:27:42,359 --> 00:27:46,280
Speaker 1: able to have a healthy relationship now, is because I've

518
00:27:46,480 --> 00:27:48,840
Speaker 1: done the work. That's that's where I get the happiness.

519
00:27:48,880 --> 00:27:51,480
Speaker 1: That's where I sources. So even if Ryan left, God forbid,

520
00:27:51,720 --> 00:27:58,520
Speaker 1: if he left tomorrow, I would still have this happiness. Yeah,

521
00:27:59,040 --> 00:28:02,680
Speaker 1: you laid happiness foundation and now you both can build

522
00:28:02,680 --> 00:28:11,720
Speaker 1: a house on it. So I think it's beautiful. I mean,

523
00:28:13,200 --> 00:28:18,080
Speaker 1: I'm here for you, Bob. No, I don't let any

524
00:28:18,119 --> 00:28:22,280
Speaker 1: man ever again break me. So with that strengthen that

525
00:28:22,320 --> 00:28:25,480
Speaker 1: foundation for myself. Do not let a man bring me

526
00:28:26,000 --> 00:28:29,639
Speaker 1: that level ever. Again. Okay, so I have to ask.

527
00:28:29,840 --> 00:28:32,280
Speaker 1: I mean, if you want to shut me down, shut

528
00:28:32,280 --> 00:28:34,560
Speaker 1: me down, But I just want to know if any

529
00:28:34,600 --> 00:28:37,600
Speaker 1: of your ex is have reached out since hearing the news.

530
00:28:38,000 --> 00:28:41,280
Speaker 1: Totally totally I have. They have. Yeah, I've dated some

531
00:28:41,320 --> 00:28:45,200
Speaker 1: really amazing guys. I will tell you there are absolutely

532
00:28:46,200 --> 00:28:51,000
Speaker 1: ones that have not and one and we could probably

533
00:28:51,040 --> 00:28:53,880
Speaker 1: guess which one. I will see one if you'd like.

534
00:28:54,120 --> 00:28:59,440
Speaker 1: But UM, to me, it's very telling of I care.

535
00:29:01,080 --> 00:29:02,760
Speaker 1: I feel like there's a meme about this, or like

536
00:29:02,800 --> 00:29:07,320
Speaker 1: some quote about this, but how how I treat you

537
00:29:07,360 --> 00:29:09,640
Speaker 1: as a reflection of how you treated me. So if

538
00:29:09,680 --> 00:29:13,040
Speaker 1: you think that I'm awful, what did it take for

539
00:29:13,080 --> 00:29:16,440
Speaker 1: me to get there? You know, like I'm not. I'm

540
00:29:16,440 --> 00:29:19,600
Speaker 1: not brat for no reason. I don't have an attitude

541
00:29:19,640 --> 00:29:22,040
Speaker 1: for no reason. I'm not difficult for no reason. You're

542
00:29:22,040 --> 00:29:26,040
Speaker 1: good to me, I'm good to you and my expending

543
00:29:26,760 --> 00:29:30,080
Speaker 1: such a good friend, the sweetest got out. Yeah, and

544
00:29:30,080 --> 00:29:32,960
Speaker 1: even guys prior to ben Well that I've dated um

545
00:29:33,240 --> 00:29:36,160
Speaker 1: have totally reached out and are just the sweetest things

546
00:29:36,280 --> 00:29:39,480
Speaker 1: in the entire world in our congratulations and just really kind,

547
00:29:39,720 --> 00:29:42,440
Speaker 1: really kind of Yeah, you get you get what you

548
00:29:42,520 --> 00:29:48,880
Speaker 1: give right, yeah, yeah, the golden rule. Yeah, how you

549
00:29:48,920 --> 00:29:53,080
Speaker 1: want to be treated right? Yep? Um okay, So two

550
00:29:53,080 --> 00:29:54,960
Speaker 1: more questions that I have and then Bob you can

551
00:29:55,160 --> 00:29:57,760
Speaker 1: you can take over if you want. But are you

552
00:29:57,880 --> 00:29:59,840
Speaker 1: I'm sure it just I know it just happened. But

553
00:30:00,120 --> 00:30:03,160
Speaker 1: do you have visions of a of a a wedding

554
00:30:03,480 --> 00:30:05,640
Speaker 1: in mind? Like, do you know kind of what you

555
00:30:05,680 --> 00:30:09,160
Speaker 1: want to do? I've we've definitely thought about it. I

556
00:30:09,240 --> 00:30:14,000
Speaker 1: want a very simple wedding. I've always wanted that. For

557
00:30:14,080 --> 00:30:16,000
Speaker 1: my years of being a hair stylist, I did way

558
00:30:16,000 --> 00:30:20,160
Speaker 1: too many bride's hair. Oh I said, oh my gosh,

559
00:30:20,960 --> 00:30:24,160
Speaker 1: the sweetest bride I rolled you will. I always were like,

560
00:30:24,720 --> 00:30:27,080
Speaker 1: they're gonna be an easy bride. They're super calm, they're

561
00:30:27,120 --> 00:30:31,239
Speaker 1: super laid back. They were bridezillas. I just feel like

562
00:30:31,320 --> 00:30:34,120
Speaker 1: I don't want to put the energy and the stress

563
00:30:34,640 --> 00:30:36,880
Speaker 1: to worry about other people on my special day or

564
00:30:36,920 --> 00:30:40,720
Speaker 1: are a special day. So I want really simple I

565
00:30:40,800 --> 00:30:44,320
Speaker 1: actually I will tell you this. We want two weddings.

566
00:30:45,920 --> 00:30:51,880
Speaker 1: I love. So you're gonna have destination wedding. Yes, I

567
00:30:52,000 --> 00:30:55,000
Speaker 1: want one because my mom is not able to travel

568
00:30:55,120 --> 00:30:58,000
Speaker 1: or do anything like that. Um, and to be around

569
00:30:58,040 --> 00:31:00,600
Speaker 1: a lot of people. It's kind of over it's overwhelming

570
00:31:00,640 --> 00:31:04,200
Speaker 1: for her, and I just want a special moment with

571
00:31:04,240 --> 00:31:09,320
Speaker 1: her as to have us really just a small intimate ceremony. Um,

572
00:31:09,360 --> 00:31:11,320
Speaker 1: we had that, Ryan, we had I don't know if

573
00:31:11,320 --> 00:31:13,840
Speaker 1: you could actually nobody knows this, but Ryan proposed twice

574
00:31:13,840 --> 00:31:17,240
Speaker 1: to me once he did Yeah for the actually we

575
00:31:17,280 --> 00:31:21,480
Speaker 1: have here's this funny story. We have actually there proposals.

576
00:31:22,000 --> 00:31:27,520
Speaker 1: So he proposed to meet the Rise festival. Then we

577
00:31:27,560 --> 00:31:32,200
Speaker 1: came back to Sacramento and he oh, it's amice want

578
00:31:32,200 --> 00:31:33,960
Speaker 1: to cry every time. But he asked my mom for

579
00:31:34,000 --> 00:31:38,120
Speaker 1: her blessing again, and um, when he did that, he

580
00:31:38,320 --> 00:31:40,400
Speaker 1: got down on a knee again and in front of

581
00:31:40,400 --> 00:31:48,000
Speaker 1: my mom proposed to it, which is yeah and then yeah,

582
00:31:48,080 --> 00:31:51,080
Speaker 1: and then we are very progressive people. And so I

583
00:31:51,160 --> 00:31:53,640
Speaker 1: actually I didn't get down on a knee, but I

584
00:31:53,680 --> 00:31:56,360
Speaker 1: proposed to him as well. So if people see him

585
00:31:56,360 --> 00:31:59,320
Speaker 1: his finger, it's because I proposed to him as well.

586
00:31:59,440 --> 00:32:02,120
Speaker 1: So we he thought, if you get to wear a ring,

587
00:32:02,160 --> 00:32:08,280
Speaker 1: why don't I get to wear a ring. Here's a

588
00:32:08,280 --> 00:32:11,320
Speaker 1: almost famous O. G. First, we're all crying, so that's good,

589
00:32:13,720 --> 00:32:16,760
Speaker 1: really special moments. So he he knows how much my

590
00:32:16,800 --> 00:32:19,640
Speaker 1: mom means to me, how important she is in our lives,

591
00:32:19,720 --> 00:32:22,400
Speaker 1: and so yeah, he proposed twice, so I want her to.

592
00:32:22,480 --> 00:32:24,720
Speaker 1: He also was like, wants her to be there for

593
00:32:24,920 --> 00:32:27,920
Speaker 1: the wedding, and we don't know. Time is precious and

594
00:32:27,960 --> 00:32:30,760
Speaker 1: time is limited, so we want one with her to

595
00:32:30,960 --> 00:32:33,920
Speaker 1: a small intimate thing, and then one I want another

596
00:32:33,960 --> 00:32:36,120
Speaker 1: small one, but just something more of like with his

597
00:32:36,200 --> 00:32:41,320
Speaker 1: girls and us and something something and maybe a destination

598
00:32:42,760 --> 00:32:46,800
Speaker 1: that Yeah, I love it. I don't even want to

599
00:32:46,840 --> 00:32:49,239
Speaker 1: ask my next question because that was just like the

600
00:32:49,360 --> 00:32:53,920
Speaker 1: perfect like I just love that conversation. I am just

601
00:32:54,000 --> 00:32:57,360
Speaker 1: so happy for you. Thank you so much, happy, seriously,

602
00:32:57,400 --> 00:33:00,800
Speaker 1: thank you. I appreciate that so much. And you can

603
00:33:00,840 --> 00:33:02,840
Speaker 1: literally ask anything, like I'm an open book with it

604
00:33:02,880 --> 00:33:06,920
Speaker 1: all if oh, I know, I just want to thank

605
00:33:06,920 --> 00:33:08,720
Speaker 1: you for coming on our little show to share it

606
00:33:08,800 --> 00:33:12,680
Speaker 1: when it's so nice. Of course, seriously, I have to

607
00:33:12,720 --> 00:33:15,760
Speaker 1: say this time, I love sharing the story, but I

608
00:33:15,800 --> 00:33:19,280
Speaker 1: love sharing my love and the story righting us and

609
00:33:20,080 --> 00:33:22,719
Speaker 1: details of us because it really is a special relationship

610
00:33:22,760 --> 00:33:25,080
Speaker 1: to me and I'm proud of this one and happy

611
00:33:25,120 --> 00:33:27,400
Speaker 1: about this one. And he really does light me up.

612
00:33:27,800 --> 00:33:30,600
Speaker 1: So you can see it's all over your face. I

613
00:33:30,680 --> 00:33:43,800
Speaker 1: love it. Okay, I am going to ask the question

614
00:33:43,840 --> 00:33:45,680
Speaker 1: because I do kind of just want to know. I

615
00:33:45,720 --> 00:33:48,480
Speaker 1: was watching your stories, I think yesterday or maybe the

616
00:33:48,560 --> 00:33:50,920
Speaker 1: day before, and you had like a little Q and

617
00:33:50,960 --> 00:33:54,640
Speaker 1: A with him, which was so cute, by the way,

618
00:33:54,680 --> 00:33:58,520
Speaker 1: And one of the questions that came up was has

619
00:33:58,560 --> 00:34:02,400
Speaker 1: he watched the show? Do you plan on? Does he

620
00:34:02,520 --> 00:34:04,320
Speaker 1: plan on watching the show? Because I know he kind

621
00:34:04,320 --> 00:34:06,560
Speaker 1: of joked about it in the story like, well, now

622
00:34:06,600 --> 00:34:08,880
Speaker 1: I want to see it, But is that true or

623
00:34:09,000 --> 00:34:11,320
Speaker 1: was he just joking like will you guys watch it together?

624
00:34:11,440 --> 00:34:14,640
Speaker 1: Bachelor in Paradise? Are you watching all the things? I

625
00:34:14,680 --> 00:34:19,560
Speaker 1: don't know. He's he's very which I told him in

626
00:34:19,600 --> 00:34:21,440
Speaker 1: the beginning. I need a very stable guy who was

627
00:34:21,520 --> 00:34:25,160
Speaker 1: comfortable with my past and who was comfortable with everything

628
00:34:25,160 --> 00:34:27,840
Speaker 1: about me, because that's what makes me me, is everything

629
00:34:27,880 --> 00:34:31,719
Speaker 1: I've been so whether it's relationships, whether it's like we

630
00:34:31,760 --> 00:34:33,560
Speaker 1: talked about stuff all the time, we talked about guys

631
00:34:33,560 --> 00:34:36,160
Speaker 1: I've dated, he's been on the phone or I've been

632
00:34:36,160 --> 00:34:38,719
Speaker 1: on the phone with an X, Like he's amazing. So

633
00:34:38,840 --> 00:34:40,759
Speaker 1: he's he just kind of laughs it at all and

634
00:34:40,760 --> 00:34:42,920
Speaker 1: it's kind of like whatever and find it funny. But

635
00:34:42,960 --> 00:34:48,040
Speaker 1: I don't know, right, let's ask him, you guys can

636
00:34:48,120 --> 00:34:51,640
Speaker 1: ask him. Let's ask him. Yes, I love it, Do

637
00:34:51,800 --> 00:34:58,640
Speaker 1: you do you want to watch the show? So I

638
00:34:58,719 --> 00:35:01,640
Speaker 1: asked her, I was watching the stories, um, yesterday or

639
00:35:01,680 --> 00:35:03,480
Speaker 1: the day before when she did that little cute Q

640
00:35:03,640 --> 00:35:06,520
Speaker 1: and A when you guys were cooking together, and uh

641
00:35:06,840 --> 00:35:09,520
Speaker 1: and and I know that you joked and said, oh,

642
00:35:09,560 --> 00:35:12,080
Speaker 1: well i'll watch now. Um. But I was like, was

643
00:35:12,080 --> 00:35:16,279
Speaker 1: he joking or or was that true? Do you have

644
00:35:16,320 --> 00:35:19,640
Speaker 1: any interest in watching? I definitely would and maybe if

645
00:35:19,680 --> 00:35:23,200
Speaker 1: we watched it, well, probably watched together, laugh together and

646
00:35:23,200 --> 00:35:27,040
Speaker 1: be like yes. See. That's that's the only problem. I

647
00:35:27,239 --> 00:35:29,239
Speaker 1: will tell you. We tried to watch my season my

648
00:35:29,239 --> 00:35:32,280
Speaker 1: my wife and I and they don't have VHS tapes anymore,

649
00:35:32,320 --> 00:35:36,960
Speaker 1: so it was really difficult. So needless to say, I've

650
00:35:36,960 --> 00:35:39,240
Speaker 1: got to bounce that stuff over to a DVD format

651
00:35:39,239 --> 00:35:41,120
Speaker 1: at some point because that will be outdated soon. Anyway,

652
00:35:42,760 --> 00:35:45,040
Speaker 1: I have to convert that. Yeah, I love it, Yeah,

653
00:35:45,120 --> 00:35:48,480
Speaker 1: but we I think we could probably laugh watch it laugh.

654
00:35:48,560 --> 00:35:50,160
Speaker 1: I think that's the best way to watch it. But

655
00:35:50,800 --> 00:35:53,440
Speaker 1: I mean, honestly, I feel like, what you need to

656
00:35:53,480 --> 00:35:57,080
Speaker 1: show him is is maybe the moment where you told

657
00:35:57,200 --> 00:36:00,520
Speaker 1: one Pablo off because that's kind of like a big

658
00:36:00,560 --> 00:36:02,640
Speaker 1: part of who you are, you know, like how you

659
00:36:02,719 --> 00:36:06,040
Speaker 1: shared it was a pivotal moment for you. Um, I

660
00:36:06,360 --> 00:36:09,520
Speaker 1: think you need to watch that. Ryan. I think we've

661
00:36:09,560 --> 00:36:12,480
Speaker 1: had We've had times, we've had like he probably knows,

662
00:36:12,480 --> 00:36:14,200
Speaker 1: not probably he knows about it all. I've told him

663
00:36:14,200 --> 00:36:17,040
Speaker 1: all the even the behind the scenes of everything with

664
00:36:17,080 --> 00:36:20,239
Speaker 1: a lot of it. So like he's then he'll put

665
00:36:20,360 --> 00:36:23,520
Speaker 1: an actual video to with the stories that I've told. Yeah,

666
00:36:25,360 --> 00:36:26,960
Speaker 1: I did that with my life too. I was so

667
00:36:27,160 --> 00:36:29,440
Speaker 1: like up front, I'm like, I just never want you

668
00:36:29,440 --> 00:36:31,360
Speaker 1: to be surprised by anything. So here you go, you know,

669
00:36:31,560 --> 00:36:34,400
Speaker 1: here is everything, this is what really happened, this is

670
00:36:34,440 --> 00:36:36,799
Speaker 1: what you saw on TV, that kind of stuff. And

671
00:36:36,840 --> 00:36:39,560
Speaker 1: it's easy. It's easy. And it's like, if you have

672
00:36:39,680 --> 00:36:42,920
Speaker 1: a problem with anything that I've done, that's not accepting

673
00:36:42,960 --> 00:36:46,920
Speaker 1: me completely. Holy. So when you come into this race relationship,

674
00:36:46,960 --> 00:36:49,239
Speaker 1: you gotta know you gotta love me for my good,

675
00:36:49,320 --> 00:36:51,160
Speaker 1: for my bad, for everything that I've been through, because

676
00:36:51,160 --> 00:36:56,040
Speaker 1: that's what makes me me. He knows, I mean, all

677
00:36:56,080 --> 00:36:58,719
Speaker 1: of his stuff, that's what makes me I'd love and

678
00:36:58,760 --> 00:37:01,600
Speaker 1: accept him for who he as well. Everybody's got a

679
00:37:01,600 --> 00:37:03,880
Speaker 1: pass and that's what gets you get to your present,

680
00:37:03,920 --> 00:37:06,239
Speaker 1: you know. So it's like without it, you wouldn't be

681
00:37:06,239 --> 00:37:08,879
Speaker 1: who you are. I love that. I think it's awesome. Yeah,

682
00:37:08,880 --> 00:37:11,800
Speaker 1: I'm excited for you. I have I have one question

683
00:37:11,840 --> 00:37:15,200
Speaker 1: for Ryan. Um, well, before you go, were you at

684
00:37:15,239 --> 00:37:26,239
Speaker 1: iron Man Hawaii in two thousand four Hawaii? Are? Oh?

685
00:37:27,360 --> 00:37:30,760
Speaker 1: It is so? My husband has done um some iron

686
00:37:30,760 --> 00:37:34,480
Speaker 1: Man races as well and expas and stuff. Yes, it

687
00:37:34,640 --> 00:37:38,440
Speaker 1: was so incredible, such an amazing experience. Um, but I

688
00:37:38,480 --> 00:37:42,359
Speaker 1: have no interest in doing it myself on like unlike Claire, Well,

689
00:37:42,400 --> 00:37:47,959
Speaker 1: at least the race part. Yeah, definitely. I mean that's

690
00:37:47,960 --> 00:37:53,239
Speaker 1: pretty intenselated right now. I feel like if, right if

691
00:37:53,320 --> 00:37:55,279
Speaker 1: Ryan Sutter walked in and was on the camera, I'd

692
00:37:55,280 --> 00:37:58,920
Speaker 1: just be like, really, guys, really on bookended two Super

693
00:37:59,000 --> 00:38:05,600
Speaker 1: Ryan's and then there's stuff anyway, you have yourself, Thank you, right,

694
00:38:05,600 --> 00:38:11,040
Speaker 1: thank you for talking? Um, Okay, before I keep saying this,

695
00:38:11,080 --> 00:38:13,960
Speaker 1: one last question. You haven't produced sweatshirt on? Where is

696
00:38:14,000 --> 00:38:17,279
Speaker 1: that yours? Or? Right? Girl? Are you kidding me? This

697
00:38:17,360 --> 00:38:19,839
Speaker 1: is neither one of us. I have such a fascination,

698
00:38:19,920 --> 00:38:26,040
Speaker 1: lazy with getting vintage sweatshirts, and oh my god, that

699
00:38:26,040 --> 00:38:29,840
Speaker 1: that is my jamp so no perdue for me. I went, okay,

700
00:38:29,880 --> 00:38:36,280
Speaker 1: got it community college for my cosmetology degree. Not that's okay,

701
00:38:36,320 --> 00:38:40,319
Speaker 1: But I'm telling you, vint sweatshirts are my things fall,

702
00:38:40,440 --> 00:38:43,720
Speaker 1: so okay, share them with me because I'm all about

703
00:38:43,719 --> 00:38:47,600
Speaker 1: it too, all about the cozy, all about leggings. Look

704
00:38:47,719 --> 00:38:54,759
Speaker 1: very comfortable. We are cozy, were cozy. Thank what's your say?

705
00:38:55,000 --> 00:38:59,040
Speaker 1: Oh veil, oh Veril, gotcha, gotcha? You gotta represent the

706
00:38:59,080 --> 00:39:03,279
Speaker 1: hood in the hoodie fancy. You're just fancy right now.

707
00:39:03,880 --> 00:39:06,759
Speaker 1: You know, we were going to do some family photos today,

708
00:39:06,840 --> 00:39:08,680
Speaker 1: so I'm trying to go. I'm trying to find my luck.

709
00:39:09,440 --> 00:39:14,600
Speaker 1: Are you for Christmas cards? Not yet, now, I says.

710
00:39:14,640 --> 00:39:16,520
Speaker 1: You know, I'm in Michigan and the fall colors are

711
00:39:16,560 --> 00:39:18,680
Speaker 1: so beautiful, so I wanted to try and take advantage.

712
00:39:19,080 --> 00:39:24,279
Speaker 1: And I got all gussied up and then it started raining. Okay, yeah, yeah,

713
00:39:25,120 --> 00:39:29,480
Speaker 1: not today, not today. I'm sorry. Well that's okay. You

714
00:39:29,520 --> 00:39:32,840
Speaker 1: look nice for the pod, you look at it. I

715
00:39:32,960 --> 00:39:36,960
Speaker 1: wore this little digit sweatshirt tied. You guys both look

716
00:39:36,960 --> 00:39:40,800
Speaker 1: adorable come on, come on, so good. I love I

717
00:39:41,080 --> 00:39:44,239
Speaker 1: love this chat. We are you as you know, we're

718
00:39:44,280 --> 00:39:47,480
Speaker 1: the o G s and because you are your your

719
00:39:47,960 --> 00:39:50,239
Speaker 1: you are an OG especially because we're kind of in

720
00:39:50,280 --> 00:39:54,760
Speaker 1: Bachelor in Paradise season, so you're legit o G guy's

721
00:39:54,800 --> 00:39:59,000
Speaker 1: for sure. Yeah yeah and obviously a huge fan favorite.

722
00:39:59,040 --> 00:40:01,960
Speaker 1: I mean unbelievable. Yeah, yeah. Do you regret bash My

723
00:40:02,000 --> 00:40:05,160
Speaker 1: Paradise said, oh, did you youret going on there? I

724
00:40:05,200 --> 00:40:07,239
Speaker 1: don't regret anything in my life, but I do. It

725
00:40:07,440 --> 00:40:09,440
Speaker 1: was it was one of the more challenging things for

726
00:40:09,520 --> 00:40:12,880
Speaker 1: me because in the o G seasons there was not

727
00:40:13,239 --> 00:40:18,480
Speaker 1: an alcohol limit for people, and right that's the only

728
00:40:18,560 --> 00:40:20,520
Speaker 1: thing there was to do on the beach was just

729
00:40:20,760 --> 00:40:23,680
Speaker 1: get hammered. And I don't drink, and so for me,

730
00:40:24,640 --> 00:40:29,359
Speaker 1: I'm sure I just too cool because but I wasn't.

731
00:40:29,440 --> 00:40:31,640
Speaker 1: It was just like I don't drink, so I'm bored,

732
00:40:31,719 --> 00:40:34,120
Speaker 1: and I just kind of isolated myself and which just

733
00:40:34,280 --> 00:40:37,040
Speaker 1: wasn't my vibe. It wasn't my thing. I thought going

734
00:40:37,120 --> 00:40:40,919
Speaker 1: on there it would be like zip lines and adventures

735
00:40:41,080 --> 00:40:44,719
Speaker 1: and horsebock kings and boat rides and whatever, like a

736
00:40:44,800 --> 00:40:46,920
Speaker 1: lot of just swimming in the ocean. But it was

737
00:40:47,040 --> 00:40:50,120
Speaker 1: just too dang hot. There was nothing. You couldn't even

738
00:40:50,160 --> 00:40:52,640
Speaker 1: get on the beach without heat stroking. So it was

739
00:40:52,719 --> 00:40:56,560
Speaker 1: just really yeah, a lot of sitting around and just

740
00:40:56,840 --> 00:40:58,840
Speaker 1: drinking for people. And I was just sitting around and

741
00:40:58,880 --> 00:41:06,800
Speaker 1: being like boring. And then the whole raccoon conversations happened.

742
00:41:07,400 --> 00:41:13,120
Speaker 1: You come on the amount of people who were like,

743
00:41:15,520 --> 00:41:18,040
Speaker 1: why would you talk to a raccoon? How stupid? I mean,

744
00:41:18,960 --> 00:41:23,560
Speaker 1: come on, well, now we know you and the raccoon

745
00:41:23,600 --> 00:41:26,239
Speaker 1: were the only two that weren't hammered, so it makes sense. Yeah,

746
00:41:27,719 --> 00:41:29,640
Speaker 1: I know there's points where I wish I drank but

747
00:41:29,840 --> 00:41:33,680
Speaker 1: did not. You know what, though, you can thank you

748
00:41:33,800 --> 00:41:36,080
Speaker 1: lucky stars for that. Once you see like the edits

749
00:41:36,080 --> 00:41:37,719
Speaker 1: back and you're like the only one that doesn't say

750
00:41:37,719 --> 00:41:40,640
Speaker 1: anything dumb. You're like, conversation with raccoon, I'll take that,

751
00:41:40,800 --> 00:41:44,239
Speaker 1: I take I'll take that over. I probably did dump

752
00:41:44,239 --> 00:41:46,840
Speaker 1: things too, but like I couldn't blame it on the alcohol.

753
00:41:46,920 --> 00:41:51,320
Speaker 1: You know, maybe yes I wasn't Okay, Yeah, I was drunk,

754
00:41:55,040 --> 00:41:57,560
Speaker 1: all right. Well, cheers to you even though you don't drink.

755
00:41:57,600 --> 00:42:01,359
Speaker 1: Cheers to you and Ryan and huge gratulations. We are

756
00:42:02,200 --> 00:42:04,880
Speaker 1: just so happy for you. Thank you, thank you. I

757
00:42:05,080 --> 00:42:07,799
Speaker 1: just love your love. I love your love, I love

758
00:42:07,880 --> 00:42:11,160
Speaker 1: your happiness. I love the light that shines from within you.

759
00:42:11,360 --> 00:42:14,320
Speaker 1: So well, thank you, Thank you guys so much for

760
00:42:14,360 --> 00:42:16,480
Speaker 1: having me on. I know when they when they told

761
00:42:16,520 --> 00:42:18,600
Speaker 1: me I could come on with you guys, I was like, yes,

762
00:42:18,920 --> 00:42:22,920
Speaker 1: I want to talk to you guys so much more.

763
00:42:22,960 --> 00:42:25,600
Speaker 1: I feel like the new the new generation of people

764
00:42:25,680 --> 00:42:28,000
Speaker 1: on the show. I'm like, I could be their moms.

765
00:42:28,040 --> 00:42:30,600
Speaker 1: We could be their moms, and the same I am

766
00:42:30,719 --> 00:42:39,320
Speaker 1: turning fifty. I'm turning fifty, so uh do not look fifty.

767
00:42:40,480 --> 00:42:45,279
Speaker 1: Thank you at all. Thank you, But but I say

768
00:42:45,320 --> 00:42:48,160
Speaker 1: that I feel that because these kids are like twenty whatever,

769
00:42:48,320 --> 00:42:50,960
Speaker 1: and if I had kids in my late twenties, they

770
00:42:51,000 --> 00:42:53,200
Speaker 1: could totally be my children. And I do. I have

771
00:42:53,320 --> 00:42:55,799
Speaker 1: said that in the past, they feel. I feel very

772
00:42:55,880 --> 00:42:59,960
Speaker 1: maternal towards everyone, even even Bob, even though Bob's older

773
00:43:00,080 --> 00:43:03,719
Speaker 1: than me. I'm just incredibly mature. I make it easy

774
00:43:04,200 --> 00:43:11,200
Speaker 1: a child. I feel the same way most the same way.

775
00:43:11,400 --> 00:43:17,239
Speaker 1: So you can come on any time, and before you go,

776
00:43:17,560 --> 00:43:21,800
Speaker 1: I have to see the ring. You flashed it flashed it.

777
00:43:22,040 --> 00:43:28,440
Speaker 1: Oh wow, that is beautiful. Thank you so much amazing.

778
00:43:29,719 --> 00:43:31,440
Speaker 1: Yes he did. I always told him. I was like,

779
00:43:31,800 --> 00:43:33,520
Speaker 1: just so you know, there's a lot to live up

780
00:43:33,520 --> 00:43:36,200
Speaker 1: to in the bachelor world as far as like proposals

781
00:43:36,600 --> 00:43:41,120
Speaker 1: or rings, Like just so you know, I'm happy to

782
00:43:41,200 --> 00:43:44,200
Speaker 1: even just have a happy relationship. That's what that's for.

783
00:43:44,920 --> 00:43:47,480
Speaker 1: The ring doesn't matter, the proposal doesn't matter. You can

784
00:43:47,520 --> 00:43:52,120
Speaker 1: do it in bed watching a movie. I don't care. Totally. Yeah, yeah,

785
00:43:52,360 --> 00:43:55,479
Speaker 1: he went above and beyond and it was the most

786
00:43:55,560 --> 00:44:00,120
Speaker 1: speckful thing and the most beautiful ring. That's gorgeous. And

787
00:44:00,200 --> 00:44:04,200
Speaker 1: your nails look on points. You were ready. I had to.

788
00:44:04,320 --> 00:44:06,759
Speaker 1: I've done afterwards because they were not done when I

789
00:44:12,200 --> 00:44:18,319
Speaker 1: love the glazed, the glaze, the dips, got the dip.

790
00:44:18,760 --> 00:44:24,920
Speaker 1: Bob knows more than me. Love it. Thank you, Claire.

791
00:44:25,120 --> 00:44:28,839
Speaker 1: We love you, Claire. Congratulations. So happy for you. Thank

792
00:44:28,880 --> 00:44:30,839
Speaker 1: you so much you guys. I love you guys too,

793
00:44:30,920 --> 00:44:33,640
Speaker 1: and I appreciate you guys just thinking about me, having

794
00:44:33,680 --> 00:44:36,239
Speaker 1: me on, it means a lot, of course, it means

795
00:44:36,280 --> 00:44:38,120
Speaker 1: a lot for you to come on. So thank you

796
00:44:38,480 --> 00:44:40,520
Speaker 1: and give Ryan a big hug for us for coming

797
00:44:40,560 --> 00:44:43,440
Speaker 1: and popping in because I know he was probably like,

798
00:44:44,200 --> 00:44:47,960
Speaker 1: why do I have to do this, but guy, he's

799
00:44:47,960 --> 00:44:51,120
Speaker 1: a tech guy. We need his help, ye to help.

800
00:44:51,920 --> 00:44:54,480
Speaker 1: He's not he doesn't want to hug the camera and

801
00:44:54,600 --> 00:45:02,319
Speaker 1: you know what, bonus bonus right don't? Yeah? Awesome, Thank

802
00:45:02,400 --> 00:45:05,239
Speaker 1: you Claire, so much love, so much love, and I

803
00:45:05,239 --> 00:45:07,919
Speaker 1: appreciate your having me on take care of Claire. Thanks

804
00:45:07,960 --> 00:45:17,240
Speaker 1: for coming by Claire. You had such great question her. Well, honestly,

805
00:45:17,480 --> 00:45:19,680
Speaker 1: it's like having a conversation with a girlfriend because she

806
00:45:19,800 --> 00:45:22,960
Speaker 1: is one of my girlfriends, you know, like we Actually

807
00:45:23,120 --> 00:45:25,400
Speaker 1: it's funny because I'm thinking about it now. I'm going

808
00:45:25,440 --> 00:45:28,279
Speaker 1: to go do this right now. On our bachelorette um

809
00:45:29,160 --> 00:45:33,000
Speaker 1: group chat, we usually say happy birthday to everybody, and

810
00:45:33,400 --> 00:45:37,479
Speaker 1: no one has come on and said congratulations on her

811
00:45:38,960 --> 00:45:41,320
Speaker 1: on her engagement. So I'm gonna go do that before

812
00:45:41,480 --> 00:45:46,160
Speaker 1: I actually forget. Definitely do that. But yeah, I just

813
00:45:46,640 --> 00:45:51,279
Speaker 1: love her and her attitude. I feel like, you know,

814
00:45:51,560 --> 00:45:54,920
Speaker 1: she said it, it's easy to get down about stuff,

815
00:45:55,040 --> 00:45:57,520
Speaker 1: especially when you've been through all the things and are

816
00:45:57,600 --> 00:46:00,759
Speaker 1: still going through, like especially with her mom that she's

817
00:46:00,800 --> 00:46:03,520
Speaker 1: been through, that she's going through, and to have that

818
00:46:03,920 --> 00:46:07,680
Speaker 1: positive attitude, I feel like it's just so mature and

819
00:46:07,800 --> 00:46:12,000
Speaker 1: so important, and you know, she's raving about Ryan. But

820
00:46:12,239 --> 00:46:15,360
Speaker 1: I have to say, Ryan, if you're listening to this Dawkins,

821
00:46:16,000 --> 00:46:18,720
Speaker 1: you have found a keeper to Oh no doubt beautiful.

822
00:46:18,960 --> 00:46:20,759
Speaker 1: I've always thought that about her since the first time

823
00:46:20,760 --> 00:46:22,759
Speaker 1: I met her. We just got along so well. She

824
00:46:22,920 --> 00:46:25,160
Speaker 1: was super cool. We had a great time together, and

825
00:46:25,280 --> 00:46:27,600
Speaker 1: she's obviously very beautiful and and you know, has done

826
00:46:27,600 --> 00:46:29,440
Speaker 1: a lot of her life as well. But I just

827
00:46:29,560 --> 00:46:33,320
Speaker 1: always really liked her spunkiness, like her attitude about stuff

828
00:46:33,880 --> 00:46:36,160
Speaker 1: and m and man, I mean from the second she

829
00:46:36,239 --> 00:46:38,799
Speaker 1: came on you, I mean, you see you just see

830
00:46:38,840 --> 00:46:41,560
Speaker 1: that that glow and and like she said, though, that

831
00:46:41,680 --> 00:46:43,600
Speaker 1: all comes from within. She got that before she even

832
00:46:43,640 --> 00:46:46,799
Speaker 1: met you know, Ryan again. And so that's just great

833
00:46:46,840 --> 00:46:49,399
Speaker 1: to see someone who you know is in the rights place.

834
00:46:49,600 --> 00:46:51,520
Speaker 1: You know, it's just so confident I could say that

835
00:46:51,640 --> 00:46:57,080
Speaker 1: confidently about her, you know. Agreed, agreed. So thank you.

836
00:46:57,760 --> 00:47:00,239
Speaker 1: So this has been another edition to almost famous the

837
00:47:00,320 --> 00:47:04,560
Speaker 1: O G S. Yeah, thanks for listening. Thanks for listening.

838
00:47:11,920 --> 00:47:11,960
Speaker 1: H