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Speaker 1: Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio

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Speaker 1: and the Black Effects, And just like that, we're back

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Speaker 1: on the air. Happy Wednesday, y'all, welcome back to get

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Speaker 1: another Carefully Reckless episode with your girl just hilarious. I'm

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Speaker 1: gonna up straight and we got more voice notes. I

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Speaker 1: love it, y'all, I love this ship. I still got

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Speaker 1: a lot of stories to read. What I'll revisit that

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Speaker 1: next week. We're gonna start with the voice notes. Make

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Speaker 1: those priority this week. How I'm gonna do it is

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Speaker 1: I'll do for the first two weeks out of the month,

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Speaker 1: I'll do voice notes, and in the last two weeks

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Speaker 1: out of the month, I'll do the red stories because

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Speaker 1: I still want you guys to send in paragraphs or whatever.

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Speaker 1: I joke and play. When I say, you guys, don't punctuate.

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Speaker 1: I can read through it and I can make sense

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Speaker 1: of it unless you just playing damn slow. All right,

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Speaker 1: get your ship together. We're gonna start off, jump straight

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Speaker 1: into it. Here we go. Hey, Jess, I just want

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Speaker 1: to say I've been listening to since episode one of

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Speaker 1: this podcast, and girl, I love you. I love you, Rails.

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Speaker 1: I missed just with the mess, but I know why

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Speaker 1: you stopped doing it with your son and Chadwick, and

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Speaker 1: I respect that. But anyways, my mass is family related,

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Speaker 1: and I'm gonna try to keep it shorter than it

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Speaker 1: really could get. So I have a cousin, and me

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Speaker 1: and that cousin grew up kind of like sister brother cousins,

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Speaker 1: similar age, and we got to be older, you know,

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Speaker 1: groups mingo, I have a date his friends, he would

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Speaker 1: did a few of my friends. Always was you know.

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Speaker 1: That's how it went. As we got a little older,

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Speaker 1: it started to seem like he wanted to kind of

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Speaker 1: shut me out but still dat my friends. So I

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Speaker 1: had a friend and at the time, he had a

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Speaker 1: child on the way, and I invited my friend to

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Speaker 1: a family event. She met my cousin, unknowing to me.

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Speaker 1: They exchange numbers. Fast forward a few weeks later, him

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Speaker 1: his phone and found messages of him and my friend.

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Speaker 1: When I approached my friend about it, she kind of

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Speaker 1: told me, basically, it's none of your business. I didn't

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Speaker 1: at that. Um From there, she kind of just distanced

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Speaker 1: didn't want to be my friend no more. Basically, she

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Speaker 1: end of our friendship. My cousin and I never really

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Speaker 1: mended things back to where we were, but you know,

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Speaker 1: and there. He meets another friend of mine, the same

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Speaker 1: thing things go left with them. She's actually a closer

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Speaker 1: says about me when he's with her, the things he

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Speaker 1: time he dates one of my friends they stopped being

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Speaker 1: that you hear from my cousin, don't believe it. Just

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Speaker 1: completely assassinated my character, just attacking me and making me

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Speaker 1: of ship, to say the least way, cheating, running around

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Speaker 1: So now after I'm aware of this is what he

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Speaker 1: girl that I was originally friends with that stop being

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Speaker 1: battling should I reach out to her After everything I've done,

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Speaker 1: I've lost two good friends behind my cousin, but essentially

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Speaker 1: this is your karma from five years ago, because I

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Speaker 1: help me girl. Girl. First of all, I just want

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Speaker 1: to say, you sound just like Gabrielle Union girls. Where

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Speaker 1: sound like somebody else, but that is not why you're

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Speaker 1: writing me today, all right, So anyway, let's get into it.

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Speaker 1: I love your voice, by the way, girl, the raspiness, Girl,

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Speaker 1: I listen. I ain't weird and nothing like that. I

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Speaker 1: So you can go about this two different ways now,

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Speaker 1: and you would be totally within your right, well within

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Speaker 1: your right to pick either one. Now. The fact that

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Speaker 1: to get that karma one way or another. This is

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Speaker 1: still your blood. So I can tell that you're a

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Speaker 1: family person, you know, like you said, you and your

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Speaker 1: cousin were raised as siblings, you know, and you see

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Speaker 1: my cousin London was raised as my sister. You know

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Speaker 1: So I do understand that. Now, although you and your

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Speaker 1: It's just been tampered with a little bit, but it's

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Speaker 1: I can just tell. I can hear it in your voice.

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Speaker 1: because I'm not gonna be biased at all. But Karma

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Speaker 1: was definitely knocking at her door. She answered it, she

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Speaker 1: with you, because females like that, they don't tend to change.

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Speaker 1: And she was already grown when she made this big,

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Speaker 1: gass grown decision at her big age. And then your

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Speaker 1: that he was just fucking And you were forewarning these

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Speaker 1: like all whatever, whatever, because I bet he find it's hell,

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Speaker 1: ain't he? I bet he fucking fine? Child? Please, But

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Speaker 1: what's significant about your story is his family. I get

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Speaker 1: a lot of relationships, stories and questions and and things

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Speaker 1: that I would advise people on, but this is family,

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Speaker 1: and so this is a little bit more delicate, you know,

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Speaker 1: because y'all are always going to be blood. I want

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Speaker 1: will be raising the baby on her own for a while,

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Speaker 1: and then he has another baby as well, because he

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Speaker 1: But um, have you talked to him? Has he written you?

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Speaker 1: him a little bit. Like, look, man, we were raised

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Speaker 1: it's my fault that I put him around my friends. Now,

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Speaker 1: You're not his supervisor. You don't have to supervise his

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Speaker 1: Definitely have a conversation with him and just be real

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Speaker 1: You know one of my former friends, and I want

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Speaker 1: maybe lie and we know what type of friend the

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Speaker 1: I wouldn't. I wouldn't reach out at all. I wouldn't.

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Speaker 1: You're gonna get to know the baby, you're gonna grow up.

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Speaker 1: And then that friend may even have animosity towards you,

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Speaker 1: because nobody likes to meet the person that told them

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Speaker 1: Nobody likes that I told you so. And even though

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Speaker 1: Thank you so much. I love you and your comedy.

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Speaker 1: If you love me, you'll listen to this commercial and

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Speaker 1: this is what I'm doing this? Why are you acting

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Speaker 1: and then now they go seek counseling together. Na, No, no no, no,

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Speaker 1: because y'all just learning how to be together. You're not

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