WEBVTT - Thinking Sideways: The Death of Kurt Cobain

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think you never know stories of things. We

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<v Speaker 1>simply don't know the answer too. Hey, guys, welcome to

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<v Speaker 1>another episode of Thinking Sideways the podcast. I'm Devin, joined

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<v Speaker 1>as always by Joe and Steve Um. We're gonna not

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<v Speaker 1>even close to solve a mry We're just gonna talk

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<v Speaker 1>about a mystery tonight. It's probably right. No, we're not

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<v Speaker 1>going to solve it. We're going to talk about it.

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<v Speaker 1>The topic tonight is the death of Kurt Cobain. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not gonna go any further than the before. I stop

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<v Speaker 1>and say, if you suggested this as a listener, you're

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<v Speaker 1>not going to hear your name red because there are

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<v Speaker 1>too dang many of you. Yeah, this one's a pretty

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<v Speaker 1>popular request, like a lot of people all the time,

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<v Speaker 1>Like literally since we started the podcast. Actually, we've been

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<v Speaker 1>getting suggestions for this, so finally we decided to tackle it.

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<v Speaker 1>And actually it was because I recently took a trip

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<v Speaker 1>to Seattle. We went to the Experienced Music Project Museum,

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<v Speaker 1>which is up in Seattle. What is that again. It's

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<v Speaker 1>a museum that's dedicated to music and pop culture. I

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<v Speaker 1>hadn't heard of it before, so that's why it's freaking awesome.

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<v Speaker 1>We used to go there when I was a kid,

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<v Speaker 1>and like you can like play on instruments and all

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<v Speaker 1>that stuff, and um, along with the Hello Kitty exhibit

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<v Speaker 1>that I tweeted some pictures while we were there, Um

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<v Speaker 1>yeah there was one. Yeah, um there was also I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't know that, but there was also an exhibit not exhibition,

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<v Speaker 1>exhibit um about Nirvana and they had all of the

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<v Speaker 1>hit a bunch of Cobain's clothes and some memorabilia and

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<v Speaker 1>like letters that he wrote and polaroids and all that stuff. Replica,

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<v Speaker 1>no wax rep clause. No, it was very tastely done. Um.

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<v Speaker 1>And I guess I just started to think about that

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<v Speaker 1>whole You know, you don't think about people as people

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<v Speaker 1>a lot, right, Celebrities You don't really think about that

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<v Speaker 1>so much. But I started thinking about it, and then

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<v Speaker 1>I started to think about his death, and then I

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<v Speaker 1>just decided we should do an episode on it. So

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<v Speaker 1>that's a long preamble. You know. One thing that when

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<v Speaker 1>in doing a little research on this is I'm amazed

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<v Speaker 1>at how long it's been since he died. It doesn't

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<v Speaker 1>seem Yeah, it seems like a long time because I

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<v Speaker 1>remember it. Yeah, I remember it too, but it just

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<v Speaker 1>didn't seem like it was that long ago. Yeah, because

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<v Speaker 1>it wasn't. I mean, I mean, I don't remember it

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<v Speaker 1>because I was too young to remember it, but I

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<v Speaker 1>was alive at least. So there's that. Um. And then,

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<v Speaker 1>as an additional preamble to this, this is a huge,

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<v Speaker 1>huge case, like huge, lots of research has been done

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<v Speaker 1>on it. And that's not to say that the rest

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<v Speaker 1>of the cases we do are not huge, but this

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<v Speaker 1>one is extra huge. And I just want to remind

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<v Speaker 1>anybody or let people know if they don't know. UM.

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<v Speaker 1>Our podcast is intended as a primary course or an

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<v Speaker 1>overview of cases. So there are going to be things

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<v Speaker 1>that we're gonna gloss over or we're gonna omit, or

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<v Speaker 1>that we won't include in the episode. And that's just

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<v Speaker 1>how it is. I'm sorry. Look at the important stuff

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<v Speaker 1>we I mean, I think we do usually get the

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<v Speaker 1>important stuff, but if your only point of context for

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<v Speaker 1>this is like the Soaked in Bleach documentary on Netflix,

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<v Speaker 1>or it's only Curtain Courtney also on Netflix, or it's

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<v Speaker 1>only or you've never heard of it. I encourage you

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<v Speaker 1>to do more research because this is not This isn't everything.

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<v Speaker 1>It's the ton out there and it's it's a celebrity.

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<v Speaker 1>So therefore the sory is on the scale of reflective

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<v Speaker 1>of the scale of that celebrity, and so that's that's

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<v Speaker 1>why there's so much out there. So I just wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to remind people before we get into it there we're

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<v Speaker 1>gonna miss things. Sorry, but we're going to miss things.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think we must do any important things. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't think so either, but I'm sure that. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, everybody has their favorite detail, so we might

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<v Speaker 1>miss it, and I'm sorry if we do, but we

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<v Speaker 1>probably know that we did. Okay, okay, cool labored that

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<v Speaker 1>point long enough. We did, all right. So first off,

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<v Speaker 1>like we did with Bob Marley, I'd like to assume

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<v Speaker 1>that everybody knows who Kurt Cobaine is, but I guess

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<v Speaker 1>I probably can't. Do you get you guys remember the nineties.

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<v Speaker 1>I remember some of the nineties and there was especially

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<v Speaker 1>especially in the Pacific Northwest. The nineties grunge era was

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<v Speaker 1>taking effect, and a large part of that was in

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<v Speaker 1>thanks to a band called Nirvana. You are I'm impressed.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not actually impressed. You plaid frequently, but thanks. Yeah. Uh.

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<v Speaker 1>But you guys know Nirvana. You know Vana. You just

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<v Speaker 1>do if you if you think you don't know who

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<v Speaker 1>Nirvana is, just pause this episode and go look up

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<v Speaker 1>Nirvana and like, just listen to any song that comes up,

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<v Speaker 1>and you will recognize Nirvana. I was really surprised when

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<v Speaker 1>I was doing the research. I didn't realize they only

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<v Speaker 1>put out three albums as big as they were. For

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<v Speaker 1>some reason in my mind it was I figured it

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<v Speaker 1>was a half dozen. Well that's the interesting part, right.

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<v Speaker 1>They became so ubiquitous so fast. It was just really

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<v Speaker 1>it was insane. I mean, as soon as the radio

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<v Speaker 1>picked up smells like teen Spirit that they just became

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<v Speaker 1>And almost every song off of their albums were hits.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. It wasn't like one of those albums you

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<v Speaker 1>pick up now where you recognize one song. It was

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<v Speaker 1>just all of them are popular songs. So Kurt Cobain

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<v Speaker 1>was the frontman for Nirvana, and there's a ton of

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<v Speaker 1>history in the band, and I won't go into it,

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<v Speaker 1>but you should probably get up because bands and music

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<v Speaker 1>are interesting and awesome. Cobain was I'm not making this up.

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<v Speaker 1>This is an actual quote. Um. He was called, quote,

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<v Speaker 1>the spokesman of a generation, next generation. Thank you. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>He and Nirvana rose quickly in popularity as we were mentioning,

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<v Speaker 1>and Nirvana to this day is regarded as one of

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<v Speaker 1>the most influential and important rock bands of the modern era.

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<v Speaker 1>That's I mean, I know that sounds like a bold statement,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's true. Yeah, it's possible. You also know of

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<v Speaker 1>Dave Grohl or very least the Food Fighters again, yeah

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<v Speaker 1>you do, go look it up. Um Groll was the

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<v Speaker 1>drummer for Nirvana. I totally had spaced that out when

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<v Speaker 1>I was doing the reading. Why is his name all

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<v Speaker 1>over the stuff? Oh yeah yeah yeah, so yeah, Cobain

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<v Speaker 1>huge influence on music, pretty much everything that is modern rock.

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<v Speaker 1>I said it, deal with it. We're gonna get a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of emails. Yeah, yeah, we're getting regardless regardless. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and actually I guess so before we go too far

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<v Speaker 1>into the mystery. The mystery is that Kurt Cobain committed

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<v Speaker 1>suicide on April, the age of arguably at the height

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<v Speaker 1>of his career. I mean, you know he could have yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>he could have putting him into club. Yeah he was

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<v Speaker 1>part of the Seven Club um. But a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>people think that, uh he was not. Actually he was

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<v Speaker 1>actually murdered. He was didn't actually kill himself. So that's

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<v Speaker 1>our mystery. Did Kurt Cobain commits suicide or not? And

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<v Speaker 1>if I really have to say it, it's a suicide story.

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<v Speaker 1>So if that's the thing that bothers you, stop now. Yeah, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>suicide bothers me. So I'm gonna go. Okay, bye, Steve.

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<v Speaker 1>You ready? Yeah? Great, Let's go back to important characters.

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<v Speaker 1>Let's start with that right In Um January of nineteen ninety,

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<v Speaker 1>Kurt met Portland local and frontwoman for the band that

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<v Speaker 1>I think it's safe to say most people haven't actually

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<v Speaker 1>heard of, called Whole Um and her name was Courtney Love.

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<v Speaker 1>The Whole really form in ninety I thought they formed later. No, No, no,

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<v Speaker 1>whole was I'm sorry, I'm just saying whole like that's

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<v Speaker 1>where you would know Courtney Love. Okay, not that the

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<v Speaker 1>band formed in ninety I think they were. I think

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<v Speaker 1>you know, they I think it was later on that

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<v Speaker 1>they were starting to get bigger, had been around Okay, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>maybe even earlier than that. Also, it's unfair to say

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<v Speaker 1>that nobody's heard of Whole. You've probably heard Whole songs.

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<v Speaker 1>You just don't know it. It was a joke. I'm sorry.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm Also it's also not a percent sure that that's

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<v Speaker 1>where they met, but it doesn't really matter. They probably

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<v Speaker 1>met in Portland. I know he played a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>gigs in Portland. Yeah, well they were from Seattle. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Courtney Love is probably, uh like, one of the most

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<v Speaker 1>ridiculed celebrities of all times. Ever, I would say she

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<v Speaker 1>has habitually abused drugs and alcohol. She has had lots

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<v Speaker 1>of legal trouble as well. A few months after Cobain's death,

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<v Speaker 1>Love actually punched someone at Lollapalooza, which started a string

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<v Speaker 1>of arrests, um and she was banned from a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of places, including Virgin Airlines. Like the entire airline, she

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<v Speaker 1>was no longer allowed to fly with them. She assaulted

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<v Speaker 1>a stewardess. Typical. Yeah. Yeah, I will say this that

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<v Speaker 1>despite her substance abuse problems prior to Cobain's death. It

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<v Speaker 1>seems that her problems were her legal problems at least,

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<v Speaker 1>were really spurred by his death. She didn't really have

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<v Speaker 1>many legal problems before he died. Yeat, and you know,

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<v Speaker 1>she wasn't arrested or anything like that. They seemed like

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<v Speaker 1>a pretty normal couple, you know, as normal as you

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<v Speaker 1>can be in the famous nineties grunge era. They got

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<v Speaker 1>married in February of ninety two. Love wore a lace

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<v Speaker 1>and satin wedding dress and Cobain wore green pajamas. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and um, Love was pregnant at the time when they

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<v Speaker 1>were married, and she gave birth to their only child,

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<v Speaker 1>whose name is Frances Bean in August. Did he of

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<v Speaker 1>you guys look at pictures of Frances. I think she's beautiful.

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<v Speaker 1>She I was really surprised at how much she looks

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<v Speaker 1>like her mom. Yeah, for some reason, this is dumb,

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<v Speaker 1>but I expected her to look more like her father,

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<v Speaker 1>and it was shocking to see a sober version or

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<v Speaker 1>clean version. Of course she has. She has Kurt's eyes,

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<v Speaker 1>I would say, really really piercing blue eyes. Frances up

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<v Speaker 1>to these days anyway, she's an artist. She's getting a

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<v Speaker 1>divorce she's getting divorced. Tom Grant is another important player

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<v Speaker 1>and this whole thing most of the time you'll here

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<v Speaker 1>Grant referred to as an exemplary man, at least definitely

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<v Speaker 1>in his own documentaries. Uh, he was a detective in

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<v Speaker 1>l A. And then he retired and became a private detective.

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<v Speaker 1>Definitely been the loudest proponent of the Cobain murder theory.

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<v Speaker 1>He was hired by Love on April th after Cobaine

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<v Speaker 1>escaped from a rehab facility in l A. On marcht one.

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<v Speaker 1>And we're going to talk about the whole series of

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<v Speaker 1>events in a minute. So this is really just pretty much, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>the important people, so that when we're going through I

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<v Speaker 1>don't have to pause to say all that stuff. Grant

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<v Speaker 1>almost immediately started recording almost literally every conversation and event

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<v Speaker 1>that happened around this case. He's I mean, he's thousands

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<v Speaker 1>of hours of recordings. And while many of the conversations

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<v Speaker 1>that he taped were with a woman by the name

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<v Speaker 1>of Rosemary Carroll, who is slash was the entertainment lawyer

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<v Speaker 1>for Courtney and Kurt both. The interesting thing about Rosemary

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<v Speaker 1>Carroll is that in recordings she very clearly agrees with

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<v Speaker 1>Grant about most of his theories, but refuses to go

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<v Speaker 1>on the record of any kind to say those things.

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<v Speaker 1>In fact, in one of the recordings, you can hear

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<v Speaker 1>her agreeing with Grant and then uh, she goes, wait

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<v Speaker 1>are you recording? And he says, I record everything, and

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<v Speaker 1>she goes, you can't do that. Stop and he stops

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<v Speaker 1>the recording. She says a couple other words that I

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<v Speaker 1>that we don't say on our podcast. Oh. When she

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<v Speaker 1>discovers it's she does say a few things. Yeah. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>this might confuse people her refusal to go on the record,

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<v Speaker 1>but it doesn't really confuse me that much. Courtney Love

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<v Speaker 1>is still her client. She's a lawyer. She's a lawyer,

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<v Speaker 1>and her firm represents people like Jay Z for instance.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a big firm of big talent, and you you

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<v Speaker 1>can't go around accusing your clients of murder in the

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<v Speaker 1>public if you want to retain any of your clients. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>so it makes sense to me. Who knows, maybe you

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<v Speaker 1>can even be disbarred for saying stuff like that. Seems

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<v Speaker 1>like you probably could. I don't really know anyway. So

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<v Speaker 1>you'll hear that tossed around a lot, but I just

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<v Speaker 1>want to go on the record of saying it doesn't

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<v Speaker 1>really bother me that much that she won't go on

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<v Speaker 1>the record. Okay, those are the big ones, big three

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<v Speaker 1>with a couple. Yeah, talk about those when we get there. Timeline.

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<v Speaker 1>Let's talk about timeline. Alright. We're just gonna do a

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<v Speaker 1>series of events here, and we're actually going to start

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<v Speaker 1>a little earlier than April. We're gonna start in early

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<v Speaker 1>March in Germany. Um, sorry, Nirvana was on tour in Europe,

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<v Speaker 1>I should say, and in Germany, Cobain was diagnosed with

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<v Speaker 1>bronchitis and severe laryngitis. It does. Yeah, so when you know,

0:13:38.840 --> 0:13:41.400
<v Speaker 1>sometimes his singing was more screaming. But it's still tough

0:13:41.440 --> 0:13:43.280
<v Speaker 1>to do still, like you just can't do it. I mean,

0:13:43.360 --> 0:13:45.440
<v Speaker 1>you have to be able to produce noise. Yes, that

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<v Speaker 1>doesn't really work if you've got laryngitis or bronchitis. Where

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<v Speaker 1>on thing it does. I don't think it's really Nirvana style,

0:13:53.240 --> 0:13:56.880
<v Speaker 1>but maybe yeah, that it was more the guitars smashing

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<v Speaker 1>than anything. Yeah, as you can imagine. Um, Kurt decided

0:14:02.280 --> 0:14:06.560
<v Speaker 1>to get treatment for the said bronchitis and laryngitis, so

0:14:06.640 --> 0:14:10.360
<v Speaker 1>he flew to Rome for treatment, because why not if

0:14:10.360 --> 0:14:11.720
<v Speaker 1>you have a lot of money, may as we'll go

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<v Speaker 1>to Rome for treatment instead of staying in Germany. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know. Probably, well it actually it turns out that

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<v Speaker 1>Courtney Love. I'm gonna try to refer to people by

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<v Speaker 1>the last names, but I might forget. But Love really

0:14:23.600 --> 0:14:26.920
<v Speaker 1>really likes Roman history, So I suspect there might have

0:14:26.960 --> 0:14:29.360
<v Speaker 1>been something there that he thought, oh, well, maybe she'll

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<v Speaker 1>come with me if I go hang out in Rome

0:14:31.640 --> 0:14:33.320
<v Speaker 1>or something like that. You know what I heard about

0:14:33.360 --> 0:14:35.560
<v Speaker 1>that heard that about her, that that's that's kind of

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<v Speaker 1>surprised me. It really surprising. I did not imagine that

0:14:41.720 --> 0:14:45.080
<v Speaker 1>there Courtney Love that we didn't know about. Well, um,

0:14:45.120 --> 0:14:47.720
<v Speaker 1>Courtney Love did join him in Rome, in fact, and

0:14:47.920 --> 0:14:52.080
<v Speaker 1>on March three, Cobain had, according to Love, gone all out.

0:14:52.320 --> 0:14:56.800
<v Speaker 1>He'd gotten her flowers, he had Champagne ready. He was

0:14:56.840 --> 0:15:00.600
<v Speaker 1>basically like super cute, excited and romantic. He even apparently

0:15:00.640 --> 0:15:03.760
<v Speaker 1>got her a piece of the Colosseum because apparently, you know,

0:15:03.800 --> 0:15:06.000
<v Speaker 1>she loves Roman history, so she went down to the

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<v Speaker 1>Colisseum with his hammer. Yeah, and it probably isn't actually

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<v Speaker 1>from the Colosseum. Okay, when she arrived, Love says, they

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<v Speaker 1>opened the champagne and she popped a valium because stress,

0:15:21.880 --> 0:15:24.400
<v Speaker 1>I guess, and they made out a little bit and

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<v Speaker 1>then she fell asleep. Yeah, and I think you know

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<v Speaker 1>that that would upset me. Well, it would. But didn't

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<v Speaker 1>she fly in from the States? Yeah, wouldn't she have

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<v Speaker 1>like horrible jet leg And in addition to it depends

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<v Speaker 1>on when she Oh you mean that, So she would

0:15:42.920 --> 0:15:44.640
<v Speaker 1>have fallen asleep anyway because she would have been really,

0:15:44.680 --> 0:15:47.920
<v Speaker 1>really tired. Yeah, it depends on when she flew. But yeah,

0:15:47.960 --> 0:15:50.800
<v Speaker 1>I mean, valium will knock you out. And so I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know what why she did that. I would be

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<v Speaker 1>annoyed if my wife husband showed up in Rome and

0:15:56.800 --> 0:15:59.600
<v Speaker 1>I hadn't seen him for a long time and you know,

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<v Speaker 1>was being really romantic and then he was just like okay,

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<v Speaker 1>but sleep. Yeah I didn't know. I can see that. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>So around four am, she woke up from her value

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<v Speaker 1>and induced coma apparently to find Cobaine passed out on

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<v Speaker 1>the floor and he was rushed to the hospital. He

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<v Speaker 1>had apparently overdosed on real hypnol, which you probably know

0:16:21.280 --> 0:16:25.480
<v Speaker 1>as Rufie's, which there aren't actually intended for like date

0:16:25.520 --> 0:16:28.280
<v Speaker 1>rape stuff. They're actually just sleep aids um and it

0:16:28.360 --> 0:16:31.360
<v Speaker 1>was it was Love's prescription that he had. He had

0:16:31.400 --> 0:16:35.680
<v Speaker 1>taken some of her pills, and she very famously says

0:16:36.200 --> 0:16:38.240
<v Speaker 1>that there were like fifth that he had taken, like

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<v Speaker 1>fifty pills. I want to know why the heck she

0:16:41.480 --> 0:16:44.880
<v Speaker 1>had fifty of them, Honor Well, I mean why not?

0:16:45.000 --> 0:16:46.840
<v Speaker 1>I mean, what what do you usually get as a

0:16:46.920 --> 0:16:55.160
<v Speaker 1>prescription of something? Yeah, I think that is an excessive number. Also,

0:16:55.240 --> 0:17:02.600
<v Speaker 1>she was drug addict. She did have every Yeah, but

0:17:03.080 --> 0:17:05.600
<v Speaker 1>the overdose was so bad that Cobain was actually in

0:17:05.680 --> 0:17:09.840
<v Speaker 1>a coma. And I can't tell from the reporting on

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<v Speaker 1>this if he was in a coma for five days

0:17:12.359 --> 0:17:15.240
<v Speaker 1>or he was just actually in the hospital for five days.

0:17:15.840 --> 0:17:17.840
<v Speaker 1>I also can't tell if he was actually in a

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<v Speaker 1>coma or he was just unconscious. But that's he was

0:17:24.560 --> 0:17:27.840
<v Speaker 1>definitely in the hospital for five days. No matter what

0:17:27.880 --> 0:17:30.120
<v Speaker 1>was happening in the hospital, he was there. You'll hear

0:17:30.160 --> 0:17:34.720
<v Speaker 1>this referred to as Cobain's first suicide attempt. But it's

0:17:34.800 --> 0:17:39.439
<v Speaker 1>really important to delineate here that no one at the time,

0:17:39.960 --> 0:17:44.520
<v Speaker 1>doctors included, thought that it was a suicide attempt. Everybody

0:17:44.560 --> 0:17:50.040
<v Speaker 1>classified it as a totally accidental overdose, and nobody thought

0:17:50.200 --> 0:17:53.640
<v Speaker 1>it was a suicide attempt. That wasn't until it wasn't

0:17:53.800 --> 0:17:58.040
<v Speaker 1>until Cobain died that it started being referred to as

0:17:58.040 --> 0:18:03.720
<v Speaker 1>a suicide attempt. That's important. Yeah. There's also some speculation

0:18:04.240 --> 0:18:08.840
<v Speaker 1>that the reason that Cobain had so many Rufe's in

0:18:08.840 --> 0:18:13.520
<v Speaker 1>a system is that Love put a bunch of pills

0:18:13.560 --> 0:18:16.680
<v Speaker 1>in his champagne and so he was unknowingly drinking Rufe's

0:18:16.680 --> 0:18:19.600
<v Speaker 1>as well as taking Rufie's. I don't know if I

0:18:19.640 --> 0:18:21.840
<v Speaker 1>believe that or not, especially since I don't know how

0:18:21.960 --> 0:18:23.800
<v Speaker 1>much he had in his body. I was going to

0:18:23.880 --> 0:18:29.399
<v Speaker 1>say she wanted to kill him, then why would she

0:18:29.600 --> 0:18:34.080
<v Speaker 1>Why would she rush him to the hospital? Exactly? Exactly. Yeah,

0:18:34.119 --> 0:18:37.560
<v Speaker 1>that's my big my other big thing with saying, oh,

0:18:37.600 --> 0:18:39.800
<v Speaker 1>she was trying to kill him, that was her first try.

0:18:39.920 --> 0:18:42.159
<v Speaker 1>It was like no, because she would not have called

0:18:42.200 --> 0:18:46.640
<v Speaker 1>an ambulance. She would have to she would have waited, Yeah,

0:18:46.640 --> 0:18:48.080
<v Speaker 1>and then she could have come to and been like,

0:18:48.119 --> 0:18:50.200
<v Speaker 1>oh my god, I woke up at nine o'clock this

0:18:50.240 --> 0:18:55.479
<v Speaker 1>morning and he was dead. Exactly. Anyway, I don't believe

0:18:55.560 --> 0:18:57.960
<v Speaker 1>that this was a murder or suicide attempt. I believe

0:18:58.000 --> 0:19:02.080
<v Speaker 1>it was totally just an accidental overs but um, that's

0:19:02.160 --> 0:19:06.800
<v Speaker 1>just my opinion. Man. Comain and Love returned to Seattle

0:19:06.840 --> 0:19:08.640
<v Speaker 1>after he spent five days in the hospital in Rome,

0:19:09.080 --> 0:19:12.320
<v Speaker 1>which I'm just now realizing I never said, is where

0:19:12.359 --> 0:19:15.920
<v Speaker 1>they lived. They lived in Seattle, Washington. It was a

0:19:16.000 --> 0:19:19.439
<v Speaker 1>nice little house. Yeah, it wasn't little, No, I'm sorry,

0:19:19.720 --> 0:19:23.480
<v Speaker 1>you know, I mean actually little that was actually for

0:19:23.520 --> 0:19:25.040
<v Speaker 1>as wealthy as it were, though, you know, it was

0:19:25.040 --> 0:19:27.440
<v Speaker 1>actually more modest than a lot of rock stars would

0:19:27.480 --> 0:19:30.280
<v Speaker 1>live in, and you know, but still a pretty big house.

0:19:30.480 --> 0:19:34.080
<v Speaker 1>Seattle is not known for, unlike places like l A,

0:19:34.320 --> 0:19:38.920
<v Speaker 1>for having that many huge, lavish homes at that time.

0:19:39.040 --> 0:19:41.399
<v Speaker 1>Now that's stuff, says case now. But at that time

0:19:42.000 --> 0:19:47.720
<v Speaker 1>they weren't as many giants sprawling gold encrusted homes. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>On March eighth, Love called the police, claiming that Cobain

0:19:51.760 --> 0:19:54.119
<v Speaker 1>was suicidal and had locked himself in a room with

0:19:54.160 --> 0:19:58.160
<v Speaker 1>a gun. The police came, They confiscated the guns and

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<v Speaker 1>some pills um. But when they asked Cobain why he

0:20:01.600 --> 0:20:04.280
<v Speaker 1>was behaving that way, he said he wasn't suicidal at all,

0:20:04.680 --> 0:20:08.760
<v Speaker 1>but he was hiding from um Courtney. I guess it's

0:20:08.800 --> 0:20:10.679
<v Speaker 1>actually in the literal police report. I don't know if

0:20:10.720 --> 0:20:13.879
<v Speaker 1>you guys saw that posted, but it literally says that

0:20:13.960 --> 0:20:16.199
<v Speaker 1>in the police report that he was scared of Courtney

0:20:16.240 --> 0:20:17.879
<v Speaker 1>and he was hiding from her with a gun in

0:20:17.920 --> 0:20:21.440
<v Speaker 1>the room. I have heard the stuff that has come

0:20:21.440 --> 0:20:23.879
<v Speaker 1>out of that woman's mouth before, and I would have

0:20:23.960 --> 0:20:27.920
<v Speaker 1>hid in the bathroom too, because she's a little cuckoo

0:20:28.000 --> 0:20:30.199
<v Speaker 1>for cocoa puffs. At time, it was a little cuckoo

0:20:30.200 --> 0:20:33.000
<v Speaker 1>for cocoa puffs two. And sometimes there are some recordings

0:20:33.000 --> 0:20:35.439
<v Speaker 1>of him threatening Oh yeah, no, no, no, I'm not

0:20:35.520 --> 0:20:38.359
<v Speaker 1>saying that he was stable. Yeah, I'm saying she is

0:20:38.560 --> 0:20:44.120
<v Speaker 1>definitely unindely unstable. Yeah. So again you'll hear that also

0:20:44.160 --> 0:20:47.440
<v Speaker 1>referred to as a suicide attempt. Obviously it was not

0:20:47.640 --> 0:20:50.000
<v Speaker 1>given that the police report proves that it was not,

0:20:50.840 --> 0:20:52.760
<v Speaker 1>or I mean, at the very least that he was

0:20:52.800 --> 0:20:56.159
<v Speaker 1>aware enough to say, no, it's not. I don't really know. Again,

0:20:56.640 --> 0:20:58.119
<v Speaker 1>I don't think he was trying to kill himself at

0:20:58.119 --> 0:21:02.080
<v Speaker 1>that moment either. But there you go on March Love

0:21:02.240 --> 0:21:05.959
<v Speaker 1>stage and intervention with ten of Cobain's friends and some

0:21:06.000 --> 0:21:09.680
<v Speaker 1>record executives, which I think is pretty funny. We did

0:21:09.720 --> 0:21:12.840
<v Speaker 1>and mentioned that he was a heroin addict, right, Probably not,

0:21:13.240 --> 0:21:16.440
<v Speaker 1>I haven't actually mentioned right. Thank you for pointing that out.

0:21:16.480 --> 0:21:18.400
<v Speaker 1>This is one of those instances where you get so

0:21:18.480 --> 0:21:20.320
<v Speaker 1>caught up in the case you forget to say things

0:21:20.440 --> 0:21:27.000
<v Speaker 1>that seem really obvious to you, totally important. Both Courtney

0:21:27.040 --> 0:21:32.399
<v Speaker 1>and Kurt were really really heavy heroin users throughout the

0:21:32.520 --> 0:21:38.520
<v Speaker 1>entire duration of their relationship and prior to I think

0:21:38.520 --> 0:21:40.600
<v Speaker 1>it was Courtney said it was drugs that brought them together.

0:21:40.720 --> 0:21:44.840
<v Speaker 1>I think major shared in. Yeah. So yeah, he was

0:21:44.880 --> 0:21:48.879
<v Speaker 1>a heavy, heavy, heavy, heavy, heavy heroin users. So was she.

0:21:49.280 --> 0:21:52.840
<v Speaker 1>They both used a lot of drives. They and in fact,

0:21:52.960 --> 0:21:55.440
<v Speaker 1>there's a lot of stuff out there talking about how

0:21:55.480 --> 0:21:59.879
<v Speaker 1>Cobain embraced his identity as a drug addict. That was

0:22:00.119 --> 0:22:04.680
<v Speaker 1>attractive to him that he was doing drugs, So take

0:22:04.720 --> 0:22:08.000
<v Speaker 1>that as you will. For those of you familiar with

0:22:08.040 --> 0:22:13.600
<v Speaker 1>the case, Dylan Carlson was at the intervention. I am

0:22:13.640 --> 0:22:17.119
<v Speaker 1>consciously omitting a lot of stuff that you will see

0:22:17.480 --> 0:22:23.000
<v Speaker 1>about Dylan around on the internet about this case because

0:22:23.440 --> 0:22:26.240
<v Speaker 1>I just think that they're not even a little suspicious

0:22:26.240 --> 0:22:28.679
<v Speaker 1>the way he was acting and I think that it

0:22:28.800 --> 0:22:32.920
<v Speaker 1>adds a lot of fluff to the case to discuss

0:22:33.600 --> 0:22:39.080
<v Speaker 1>Dylan as some nefarious character. I don't think that nefarious.

0:22:39.119 --> 0:22:40.600
<v Speaker 1>And by the way, just for those of you who

0:22:41.040 --> 0:22:43.360
<v Speaker 1>aren't aware of the case, Dylan Carlson was a childhood

0:22:43.400 --> 0:22:45.679
<v Speaker 1>friend of Kurt Cobain's. They were they were best friends,

0:22:46.480 --> 0:22:51.320
<v Speaker 1>and also they did drudge together. I and I was

0:22:51.320 --> 0:22:54.160
<v Speaker 1>going to say that's that is the only reason I'm

0:22:54.200 --> 0:22:57.080
<v Speaker 1>not opposed to not bringing him up every ten seconds

0:22:57.119 --> 0:22:59.600
<v Speaker 1>like some of the places that you'll read about this

0:22:59.640 --> 0:23:04.439
<v Speaker 1>story does, is because he was also a junkie and

0:23:04.680 --> 0:23:10.760
<v Speaker 1>his behavior is very very um typical, the things that

0:23:10.840 --> 0:23:12.600
<v Speaker 1>he says in the way that he acts. So it's

0:23:12.960 --> 0:23:16.080
<v Speaker 1>there's I can't see putting a lot of faith into

0:23:16.080 --> 0:23:18.720
<v Speaker 1>the guy. Yeah, I don't think it's suspicious. If you

0:23:18.840 --> 0:23:21.159
<v Speaker 1>want to know what we're kind of talking about again,

0:23:21.480 --> 0:23:24.119
<v Speaker 1>we're kind of talking about Soaked in Bleach and the

0:23:24.160 --> 0:23:27.880
<v Speaker 1>way that they portray Dylan Carlson as well as Tom

0:23:27.920 --> 0:23:31.359
<v Speaker 1>grant Um, the way he portrays Dylan as kind of

0:23:31.400 --> 0:23:37.640
<v Speaker 1>a seat nefarious guy in this whole thing. So I'm

0:23:37.640 --> 0:23:39.439
<v Speaker 1>not going to bring him up every ten seconds like

0:23:39.480 --> 0:23:41.320
<v Speaker 1>a lot of people do when they talk about this case,

0:23:41.320 --> 0:23:43.320
<v Speaker 1>and I just wanted to bring that up. Now. I'll

0:23:43.359 --> 0:23:45.760
<v Speaker 1>bring him up when it's important, like again in a

0:23:45.800 --> 0:23:50.720
<v Speaker 1>couple of minutes, but it's not important. Okay. So after

0:23:50.760 --> 0:23:54.840
<v Speaker 1>a rough start, likely Cobain laughing in Courtney's face, right,

0:23:55.640 --> 0:23:57.879
<v Speaker 1>because I can't imagine that she was sober during this

0:23:57.920 --> 0:24:01.000
<v Speaker 1>whole thing, saying you need to go to rehab, and

0:24:01.000 --> 0:24:02.480
<v Speaker 1>I'm going to go with you, but I'm not going

0:24:02.520 --> 0:24:04.359
<v Speaker 1>to do the impatient thing. I'm going to stay in

0:24:04.440 --> 0:24:09.200
<v Speaker 1>a hotel and you go being that other Obviously she wasn't. Yeah, yeah,

0:24:09.720 --> 0:24:11.680
<v Speaker 1>that it was her idea, right, it was her idea

0:24:11.760 --> 0:24:15.560
<v Speaker 1>for the intervention. Um And after a rough start, as

0:24:15.600 --> 0:24:20.520
<v Speaker 1>I said, they eventually did convince Cobain that he should

0:24:20.560 --> 0:24:26.720
<v Speaker 1>go to rehab. Yeah, and you know responsibilities, Yeah, yeah, yeah, exactly.

0:24:27.000 --> 0:24:28.280
<v Speaker 1>But what I want to know is why did they

0:24:28.280 --> 0:24:30.000
<v Speaker 1>have to go all the way to l A for rehab.

0:24:30.400 --> 0:24:32.760
<v Speaker 1>I think it's probably one of the best. It's probably

0:24:32.800 --> 0:24:36.920
<v Speaker 1>also caters to celebrities. I was gonna say, it's their status.

0:24:37.000 --> 0:24:41.399
<v Speaker 1>Is most likely you don't go to the methodone clinic

0:24:41.440 --> 0:24:45.200
<v Speaker 1>down the street, yeah, or Method one as the case maybe,

0:24:45.840 --> 0:24:51.080
<v Speaker 1>Uh sorry, joking. Okay, So Love and Cobain agreed to

0:24:51.119 --> 0:24:53.040
<v Speaker 1>go to this one in l A right, And as

0:24:53.040 --> 0:24:56.040
<v Speaker 1>I vaguely mentioned, Cobain was going to stay. It was

0:24:56.080 --> 0:24:58.080
<v Speaker 1>a facility you were supposed to stay in. It was

0:24:58.080 --> 0:25:01.239
<v Speaker 1>supposed to be an impatient detox, which makes sense for

0:25:01.320 --> 0:25:05.879
<v Speaker 1>heavy drug users, you would want to monitor literally everything. Yeah,

0:25:06.280 --> 0:25:09.160
<v Speaker 1>but apparently um Courtney was staying in a hotel, maybe

0:25:09.240 --> 0:25:12.600
<v Speaker 1>even with her drug dealer at the for her treat

0:25:12.720 --> 0:25:16.719
<v Speaker 1>quote unquote treatment any she never seemed to take She

0:25:16.720 --> 0:25:21.159
<v Speaker 1>didn't seem cleaning seriously. I mean, she did eventually clean up,

0:25:21.200 --> 0:25:24.000
<v Speaker 1>and she's fallen off the wagon quite a few times,

0:25:24.040 --> 0:25:26.560
<v Speaker 1>some of them very famously, But this is one of

0:25:26.600 --> 0:25:29.080
<v Speaker 1>those times where I don't think she was taking it seriously.

0:25:29.640 --> 0:25:31.720
<v Speaker 1>I would agree with that these days that you know,

0:25:31.880 --> 0:25:34.240
<v Speaker 1>you guys are probably noticed that she's really trying to

0:25:34.240 --> 0:25:37.240
<v Speaker 1>clean up her image. Also, her whole style is she's

0:25:37.320 --> 0:25:40.920
<v Speaker 1>trying very hard. Yeah, but unfortunately she's not always gone

0:25:40.960 --> 0:25:42.720
<v Speaker 1>about it so well. Did you see that roast she

0:25:42.840 --> 0:25:45.600
<v Speaker 1>was on a couple of years ago. Oh, she was

0:25:45.640 --> 0:25:50.040
<v Speaker 1>on some celebrity roast and she's like, I am so

0:25:50.119 --> 0:25:52.320
<v Speaker 1>clean and I haven't done anything it's so look and

0:25:52.359 --> 0:25:57.280
<v Speaker 1>it is so obvious that she is blasted. And like

0:25:57.600 --> 0:25:59.639
<v Speaker 1>a week and a half later she went into another

0:25:59.680 --> 0:26:04.840
<v Speaker 1>program because the entire internet was like, you're yeah, yeah, So,

0:26:04.920 --> 0:26:08.719
<v Speaker 1>I mean she's trying, she's not always succeeding well. And

0:26:08.800 --> 0:26:11.240
<v Speaker 1>here's what I'll say. When I was doing research from this,

0:26:11.320 --> 0:26:13.520
<v Speaker 1>and we'll talk about some of the experts or people

0:26:13.560 --> 0:26:16.120
<v Speaker 1>I talked to um when we start talking about theories.

0:26:16.160 --> 0:26:19.960
<v Speaker 1>But I did talk to some people who are ex

0:26:20.080 --> 0:26:23.520
<v Speaker 1>addicts who are listeners of our show, and they said,

0:26:23.760 --> 0:26:26.639
<v Speaker 1>you know, by and large, opiate addiction, heroin addiction is

0:26:26.680 --> 0:26:29.640
<v Speaker 1>the hardest thing to kick. It's the thing you missed

0:26:29.680 --> 0:26:33.000
<v Speaker 1>the most. That high is just like it's almost impossible

0:26:33.040 --> 0:26:35.200
<v Speaker 1>to kick for your entire life. And if you're around

0:26:35.200 --> 0:26:37.160
<v Speaker 1>people who are doing it, you're probably going to start

0:26:37.160 --> 0:26:41.679
<v Speaker 1>doing anything. I said, She's surrounded by the wrong people, right, Yeah,

0:26:41.800 --> 0:26:45.800
<v Speaker 1>whether that's intentional or not. Yeah, So she didn't really

0:26:45.840 --> 0:26:50.119
<v Speaker 1>take this whole detox thing seriously. It sounds like us

0:26:50.160 --> 0:26:53.520
<v Speaker 1>neither did Kurt Yeah. Uh. And reports say that the

0:26:53.560 --> 0:26:57.040
<v Speaker 1>facility in l A had quote no knowledge of his

0:26:57.040 --> 0:26:59.919
<v Speaker 1>history of depression or previous suicide attempts. Unquote, which is

0:27:00.000 --> 0:27:03.800
<v Speaker 1>money again because as far as I can tell, uh,

0:27:03.840 --> 0:27:07.920
<v Speaker 1>he didn't have any suicide attempts um, but maybe he did.

0:27:08.000 --> 0:27:10.840
<v Speaker 1>I don't know. You did have some history of depression, yeah,

0:27:10.920 --> 0:27:14.040
<v Speaker 1>but I mean we had some medical is that that

0:27:14.119 --> 0:27:16.160
<v Speaker 1>kind of drug him down and gave me an excuse

0:27:16.200 --> 0:27:20.360
<v Speaker 1>for a lot of things. Yeah, although there's some some discussion, Yeah,

0:27:20.440 --> 0:27:23.120
<v Speaker 1>there's some speculation there, but I mean, like, really, who

0:27:23.160 --> 0:27:26.800
<v Speaker 1>doesn't have us history of depression? You know, who doesn't

0:27:26.840 --> 0:27:29.879
<v Speaker 1>have who doesn't feel depressed when they're a teenager? You know?

0:27:29.960 --> 0:27:32.080
<v Speaker 1>And it's not as though Kurt was that much. I mean,

0:27:32.119 --> 0:27:34.359
<v Speaker 1>he was twenty seven. But if you're living in a

0:27:34.359 --> 0:27:37.960
<v Speaker 1>world where you're making music about feeling angry and mad

0:27:38.000 --> 0:27:41.240
<v Speaker 1>and sad and doing a lot of drugs, that's probably

0:27:41.240 --> 0:27:45.640
<v Speaker 1>just going to continue. On March this is five days

0:27:45.680 --> 0:27:49.760
<v Speaker 1>after the intervention. Yes, Cobain goes with Dylan Carlson to

0:27:49.920 --> 0:27:52.919
<v Speaker 1>buy a shotgun before leaving for rehab. You'll remember that

0:27:52.960 --> 0:27:56.320
<v Speaker 1>the police confiscated all of his guns, all Cobain's guns.

0:27:56.920 --> 0:27:59.159
<v Speaker 1>There's some sort of restraining order because I get the

0:27:59.160 --> 0:28:01.800
<v Speaker 1>impression that dyl and Carlson bought the gun for him.

0:28:01.880 --> 0:28:04.160
<v Speaker 1>He did he wasn't under a straining order. He told

0:28:04.200 --> 0:28:06.840
<v Speaker 1>Dylan that he didn't want to buy a gun because

0:28:06.880 --> 0:28:09.240
<v Speaker 1>he thought the police would find out and confiscate that

0:28:09.280 --> 0:28:11.880
<v Speaker 1>one too, given that it was registered under his name,

0:28:12.080 --> 0:28:15.720
<v Speaker 1>after they just seized all of his weapons. Yeah, so

0:28:15.920 --> 0:28:19.080
<v Speaker 1>he asked Dylan to buy it for him because he

0:28:19.119 --> 0:28:23.439
<v Speaker 1>actually he thought that's It's unclear. Reports are either that

0:28:23.520 --> 0:28:26.920
<v Speaker 1>he thought somebody was like breaking into his house or

0:28:27.040 --> 0:28:29.880
<v Speaker 1>that um a decision that he was about to make,

0:28:29.960 --> 0:28:32.240
<v Speaker 1>which I'll tell you about a second. He thought that

0:28:32.280 --> 0:28:35.080
<v Speaker 1>people would be really angry and come attack him because

0:28:35.080 --> 0:28:37.840
<v Speaker 1>he was going to cost people a lot of money retaliation, retaliation.

0:28:38.720 --> 0:28:42.120
<v Speaker 1>And I understand this is a twenty gage shotgun. Twenty

0:28:42.120 --> 0:28:47.640
<v Speaker 1>gets shotgun with a barrel break at the end, semato,

0:28:48.520 --> 0:28:51.400
<v Speaker 1>but semiauto is important. That was a funny thing too,

0:28:51.800 --> 0:28:54.240
<v Speaker 1>he apparently I heard it. He said that he bought

0:28:54.240 --> 0:28:56.320
<v Speaker 1>a twenty gauge because he thought he could shoot somebody

0:28:56.360 --> 0:28:58.600
<v Speaker 1>with a twenty gage that wouldn't kill them, you know,

0:28:58.920 --> 0:29:04.680
<v Speaker 1>as opposed to a twelve games. Well, and that's dude,

0:29:04.920 --> 0:29:07.800
<v Speaker 1>but isn't I thought I read somewhere that and you

0:29:07.800 --> 0:29:09.720
<v Speaker 1>can correct me if I'm wrong, because I maybe that

0:29:10.000 --> 0:29:13.280
<v Speaker 1>twenty gauges are popular for home protection because they won't

0:29:13.320 --> 0:29:16.480
<v Speaker 1>go through a wall. Well, you can shoot somebody and

0:29:16.520 --> 0:29:18.400
<v Speaker 1>it won't go through a wall and hit somebody through

0:29:18.400 --> 0:29:21.880
<v Speaker 1>a wall. Well, it depends on what kind of load

0:29:21.960 --> 0:29:24.040
<v Speaker 1>you got, anything slug in and it might punch its

0:29:24.040 --> 0:29:29.080
<v Speaker 1>way through a wall. Chat Now, yeah, that's why people,

0:29:29.120 --> 0:29:31.560
<v Speaker 1>you know, for home defense use smaller pellets that won't

0:29:31.560 --> 0:29:33.480
<v Speaker 1>go to a wall. Right, So that was my understanding

0:29:33.520 --> 0:29:35.360
<v Speaker 1>was that it was optimal. You know, likely they went

0:29:35.400 --> 0:29:36.640
<v Speaker 1>into the gun store and they said, what are you

0:29:36.680 --> 0:29:38.480
<v Speaker 1>looking for? He said, well, I'm looking to defend my home,

0:29:38.720 --> 0:29:42.160
<v Speaker 1>and they said, oh, this is an excellent option for that. Definitely,

0:29:42.200 --> 0:29:45.440
<v Speaker 1>you know, it's even better than than bird pellet. Just

0:29:45.600 --> 0:29:49.400
<v Speaker 1>use rock salt that doesn't kill anybody and it's hurts

0:29:49.520 --> 0:29:53.080
<v Speaker 1>like hell. Yeah, that's but they don't. You got to

0:29:53.080 --> 0:29:56.440
<v Speaker 1>make your own. Yeah, that's the one problem with it. Yeah.

0:29:56.480 --> 0:29:57.800
<v Speaker 1>I wonder it would be like to be shot with.

0:29:58.640 --> 0:30:00.800
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to know. I have I have been

0:30:00.880 --> 0:30:04.960
<v Speaker 1>told that it is extremely painful. I don't want to

0:30:05.000 --> 0:30:10.200
<v Speaker 1>ever find out. So Dylan bought him, bought Cobain this gun.

0:30:11.280 --> 0:30:13.520
<v Speaker 1>I mentioned briefly that he thought maybe there would be

0:30:13.600 --> 0:30:18.120
<v Speaker 1>some retaliation. It's because apparently Cobain had decided that Nirvana

0:30:18.240 --> 0:30:22.560
<v Speaker 1>was not going to play Lollapaluza. Lollapaluza, which we'll talk

0:30:22.600 --> 0:30:26.640
<v Speaker 1>about in a little bit. Lollapaluza is a huge music, yeah,

0:30:26.680 --> 0:30:28.880
<v Speaker 1>and it was happening in Washington that year, and they

0:30:30.080 --> 0:30:34.280
<v Speaker 1>were going to make nine point two million dollars four

0:30:35.560 --> 0:30:39.760
<v Speaker 1>that it sounds like he not only didn't want to

0:30:40.320 --> 0:30:44.760
<v Speaker 1>play Lollapaluza, but in fact wanted to disband Nirvana and

0:30:44.960 --> 0:30:47.520
<v Speaker 1>quit the music business entirely. So he seemed to be

0:30:47.680 --> 0:30:50.000
<v Speaker 1>a bit nervous about that. He was scared of retaliation.

0:30:50.200 --> 0:30:53.080
<v Speaker 1>And so those are the two reasons that are given

0:30:53.120 --> 0:30:54.840
<v Speaker 1>as to why he felt like he needed a gun.

0:30:55.160 --> 0:30:58.000
<v Speaker 1>But either way, he took the gun back to his

0:30:58.120 --> 0:31:01.720
<v Speaker 1>house in Seattle. He left it there, and then he

0:31:01.800 --> 0:31:04.680
<v Speaker 1>got on a plane to l A and checked into

0:31:04.760 --> 0:31:08.840
<v Speaker 1>the Detox facility down in l A. Exodus, Yeah, Exodus

0:31:08.920 --> 0:31:12.680
<v Speaker 1>Dtox facility. Uh. He spent the day apparently talking to

0:31:12.800 --> 0:31:16.520
<v Speaker 1>counselors about his drug use, his life in general. He

0:31:17.000 --> 0:31:22.040
<v Speaker 1>played with Francis, his daughter. She was not now um.

0:31:22.720 --> 0:31:24.680
<v Speaker 1>She came to visit him and I think with the nanny,

0:31:24.760 --> 0:31:27.680
<v Speaker 1>and I believe that then they had a new nanny

0:31:27.800 --> 0:31:29.720
<v Speaker 1>down in l A. Because they did have this one

0:31:29.800 --> 0:31:35.160
<v Speaker 1>living nanny named Callie. He was still in Seattle. Yeah,

0:31:35.480 --> 0:31:39.040
<v Speaker 1>and they had apparently just they had had a nanny

0:31:39.120 --> 0:31:43.200
<v Speaker 1>leave them like a month before they really did. But

0:31:43.320 --> 0:31:46.160
<v Speaker 1>I think that this nanny's name was Elizabeth. That's my

0:31:46.360 --> 0:31:49.560
<v Speaker 1>guests given some other stuff. But I can't actually corroborate that,

0:31:49.640 --> 0:31:52.920
<v Speaker 1>So sorry guys if I'm wrong. Also, of note, none

0:31:52.960 --> 0:31:55.840
<v Speaker 1>of the counselors seemed concerned that he was a risk

0:31:55.960 --> 0:31:58.360
<v Speaker 1>for self harm or anything like that, which seems like

0:31:58.400 --> 0:32:01.120
<v Speaker 1>the sort of thing you might be to tell if

0:32:01.200 --> 0:32:07.200
<v Speaker 1>somebody was really suicidal. Uh, would at picking that up

0:32:07.200 --> 0:32:09.560
<v Speaker 1>pretty quick? Yeah, its like it. But maybe I'm just ignorant.

0:32:09.560 --> 0:32:11.480
<v Speaker 1>But you're not getting their fix a heroine and then

0:32:11.520 --> 0:32:15.320
<v Speaker 1>all that and then their their their life probably sucks. Yeah,

0:32:15.440 --> 0:32:18.120
<v Speaker 1>so he might have seemed depressed. He didn't. Probably most

0:32:18.120 --> 0:32:20.120
<v Speaker 1>of the guys that bring in there and we're kind

0:32:20.160 --> 0:32:21.720
<v Speaker 1>of down, well it didn't meet him on one of

0:32:21.760 --> 0:32:25.560
<v Speaker 1>their worst days. Yeah, I didn't actually seem like it

0:32:25.680 --> 0:32:28.840
<v Speaker 1>seemed like he was Okay, I mean, obviously he was

0:32:28.960 --> 0:32:31.600
<v Speaker 1>suffering from heroin withdrawal because you know, and that it

0:32:31.720 --> 0:32:34.640
<v Speaker 1>was since he was a huge addict, that was that

0:32:34.760 --> 0:32:36.720
<v Speaker 1>was a big deal. Obviously it wasn't going to be

0:32:36.800 --> 0:32:39.760
<v Speaker 1>bid for him. But it sounds like the counselors thought

0:32:39.800 --> 0:32:42.800
<v Speaker 1>he was dealing with it pretty well all things considered.

0:32:43.040 --> 0:32:44.680
<v Speaker 1>I mean, he was playing with his daughter and stuff.

0:32:44.720 --> 0:32:47.240
<v Speaker 1>He wasn't like he hadn't self confined himself to his

0:32:47.360 --> 0:32:49.760
<v Speaker 1>room or anything like that. It's he seemed to be

0:32:49.880 --> 0:32:54.000
<v Speaker 1>out kind of doing this whole stuff. Here's a question. Yeah,

0:32:54.320 --> 0:32:55.840
<v Speaker 1>I don't know the answer to this, and I don't

0:32:55.920 --> 0:32:59.000
<v Speaker 1>know that I've ever read it anywhere. So five days

0:32:59.080 --> 0:33:03.160
<v Speaker 1>prior to this, the intervention takes place, five or six days, Uh,

0:33:03.360 --> 0:33:08.280
<v Speaker 1>do we know? Was he still using prior to arriving

0:33:08.360 --> 0:33:10.520
<v Speaker 1>at the facility? I would, you know, I would guess

0:33:10.600 --> 0:33:12.600
<v Speaker 1>that he probably shot up like right before he got

0:33:12.640 --> 0:33:18.240
<v Speaker 1>on the Okay, I'm in the same boat here thinking

0:33:18.320 --> 0:33:22.240
<v Speaker 1>that's probably the situation. But I've never seen anything, so

0:33:22.320 --> 0:33:24.200
<v Speaker 1>I guess that's possible. I think I see where you're

0:33:24.200 --> 0:33:25.800
<v Speaker 1>going with this. I guess it's possible that he was

0:33:25.880 --> 0:33:28.320
<v Speaker 1>still high. I mean that he wasn't actually suffering from

0:33:28.400 --> 0:33:31.960
<v Speaker 1>withdrawal yet, right, Yeah, so yes, that's possible. Yeah, but

0:33:32.400 --> 0:33:34.840
<v Speaker 1>I mean he's still you. You would think that people

0:33:34.880 --> 0:33:38.080
<v Speaker 1>who are trained professionals in talking to people like counselors

0:33:38.360 --> 0:33:40.600
<v Speaker 1>would at least have an inkling like, oh, yeah, he

0:33:40.720 --> 0:33:46.040
<v Speaker 1>did seem a little upset. Yeah, I don't know, call

0:33:46.120 --> 0:33:52.080
<v Speaker 1>me crazy. I have I know constantly. April one, UM

0:33:52.600 --> 0:33:55.680
<v Speaker 1>reports are that thirteen calls are made from Love's hotel

0:33:55.800 --> 0:33:58.760
<v Speaker 1>room to the facility that Cobain was in. It's my

0:33:58.840 --> 0:34:00.680
<v Speaker 1>understanding that he didn't actually speak to her. It was

0:34:01.280 --> 0:34:04.480
<v Speaker 1>to the like public phone basically, yeah, the pay phone

0:34:05.200 --> 0:34:07.520
<v Speaker 1>that was available for all of the patients. They didn't

0:34:07.560 --> 0:34:11.440
<v Speaker 1>actually speak. He may have spoke to her once, but

0:34:11.719 --> 0:34:14.040
<v Speaker 1>that would be it. Um. And I'm unclear if he

0:34:14.080 --> 0:34:16.080
<v Speaker 1>actually spoke to her once or if they're referring to

0:34:16.440 --> 0:34:18.040
<v Speaker 1>the fact that he called the hotel and left a

0:34:18.080 --> 0:34:22.239
<v Speaker 1>message for her. The message he left was, um, he

0:34:22.400 --> 0:34:24.799
<v Speaker 1>left it with the front counter, the front counter. Yeah,

0:34:24.880 --> 0:34:27.400
<v Speaker 1>the front counter, front desk, thank you. I don't know

0:34:27.520 --> 0:34:30.000
<v Speaker 1>why it was the counter. She was staying at a

0:34:30.040 --> 0:34:34.400
<v Speaker 1>convenience story. Yeah, so at the front desk, and he said, um,

0:34:34.680 --> 0:34:37.560
<v Speaker 1>Elizabeth's phone number is this is sorry, there would be

0:34:37.560 --> 0:34:42.080
<v Speaker 1>a phone number there where this was. He gave her

0:34:42.120 --> 0:34:44.080
<v Speaker 1>the phone number. Yeah, and he said it was Elizabeth's

0:34:44.120 --> 0:34:46.480
<v Speaker 1>phone number, so that I think it's the nanny, but

0:34:46.640 --> 0:34:50.239
<v Speaker 1>I I don't. I don't know. Nobody ever says who

0:34:50.320 --> 0:34:53.919
<v Speaker 1>Elizabeth happens to be. I'm just assuming it's the nanny. Yeah, yeah,

0:34:54.120 --> 0:34:58.120
<v Speaker 1>we don't care. Yeah. Sometime during the first Kurt jokes

0:34:58.160 --> 0:35:00.800
<v Speaker 1>that it would be a really really dumb thing to

0:35:00.920 --> 0:35:03.360
<v Speaker 1>try to jump that six ft wall back in the

0:35:03.440 --> 0:35:07.200
<v Speaker 1>back of the facility, and then he does that jump

0:35:07.280 --> 0:35:10.279
<v Speaker 1>the ball in the back. Uh, he was out for

0:35:10.320 --> 0:35:12.960
<v Speaker 1>a cigarette break and just jumped the wall. He caught

0:35:13.000 --> 0:35:15.920
<v Speaker 1>a cab, went to l a X and gets on

0:35:15.960 --> 0:35:18.640
<v Speaker 1>a flight to Seattle back home. That's funny. They didn't

0:35:18.640 --> 0:35:21.560
<v Speaker 1>confiscate his credit cards or anything. Huh, yeah they didn't.

0:35:22.239 --> 0:35:26.920
<v Speaker 1>But this was not a forced facility. Was a self volunteer,

0:35:26.960 --> 0:35:29.360
<v Speaker 1>which is why I find it's so weird that he

0:35:29.680 --> 0:35:32.719
<v Speaker 1>took the time to jump the wall. If they're letting

0:35:32.719 --> 0:35:36.560
<v Speaker 1>me hang onto your wallet and your smokes and all

0:35:36.640 --> 0:35:40.640
<v Speaker 1>of that, then why wouldn't you just say I'm gonna go.

0:35:41.920 --> 0:35:46.520
<v Speaker 1>I got my My guests would be that he was

0:35:46.719 --> 0:35:50.160
<v Speaker 1>trying to hide it from people. I presume that if

0:35:50.200 --> 0:35:52.520
<v Speaker 1>you check yourself out of rehab, they're probably going to

0:35:52.640 --> 0:35:55.319
<v Speaker 1>call some people and say, hey, just you know, Kurt

0:35:55.400 --> 0:35:57.200
<v Speaker 1>checked himself out, and then those people are going to

0:35:57.280 --> 0:35:59.560
<v Speaker 1>call the airport and maybe like run over the airport

0:35:59.600 --> 0:36:02.120
<v Speaker 1>and steps before you can get on that plane. And

0:36:02.200 --> 0:36:04.719
<v Speaker 1>so it's more hassle free if you slip off of

0:36:04.800 --> 0:36:08.759
<v Speaker 1>the back wall instead of telling everybody about and telling

0:36:08.840 --> 0:36:10.480
<v Speaker 1>I don't know. It's a theory. It's not a very

0:36:10.520 --> 0:36:12.880
<v Speaker 1>good theory, but it's theory. I've only been rehab a

0:36:12.920 --> 0:36:17.719
<v Speaker 1>few times since. It just so happens that Kurt is

0:36:17.880 --> 0:36:22.040
<v Speaker 1>sitting next to Duff mccagan, who you may know as

0:36:22.120 --> 0:36:26.080
<v Speaker 1>the basis for Guns and Roses. Cobain and Axl Rose

0:36:26.440 --> 0:36:29.080
<v Speaker 1>of Guns and Roses apparently had like a pretty big

0:36:29.200 --> 0:36:33.040
<v Speaker 1>beef involving Courtney Love. Surprising no one didn't actually have

0:36:33.120 --> 0:36:36.400
<v Speaker 1>a beef with everybody kind of yeah, there's like twelve

0:36:36.480 --> 0:36:40.560
<v Speaker 1>of them or something, Yeah, okay, yeah. Mccagan apparently reported

0:36:40.640 --> 0:36:43.600
<v Speaker 1>that Cobain seemed really happy to see him. He later

0:36:43.680 --> 0:36:47.600
<v Speaker 1>remarked that from quote all my instincts that something was

0:36:47.640 --> 0:36:51.520
<v Speaker 1>wrong unquote, one of the things. I How did you

0:36:51.600 --> 0:36:56.279
<v Speaker 1>know they didn't really know each other that well? Um,

0:36:56.719 --> 0:36:59.920
<v Speaker 1>I mean, you know, their bands weren't they didn't interact

0:37:00.120 --> 0:37:02.000
<v Speaker 1>that much. And you know, the other thing I really

0:37:02.000 --> 0:37:06.600
<v Speaker 1>struggle with on this one is McKay mccagan was interviewed

0:37:06.920 --> 0:37:10.560
<v Speaker 1>for a book in two thousand one. So that's one

0:37:10.600 --> 0:37:14.880
<v Speaker 1>of those things later, really many years later, and you

0:37:14.960 --> 0:37:17.640
<v Speaker 1>look back and you see one thing tiny a little

0:37:17.680 --> 0:37:19.520
<v Speaker 1>bit wrong and you think, oh, I should have known.

0:37:20.040 --> 0:37:22.239
<v Speaker 1>I don't know. It's it's hard to tell if he

0:37:22.320 --> 0:37:24.400
<v Speaker 1>actually felt that way at that time. And I'm not

0:37:24.480 --> 0:37:27.040
<v Speaker 1>saying that he was like intentionally lying about that. I

0:37:27.160 --> 0:37:30.080
<v Speaker 1>just mean that you do that, like every human does that.

0:37:30.239 --> 0:37:34.800
<v Speaker 1>You go back and here reinterpret things their memories unintentionally

0:37:34.880 --> 0:37:39.200
<v Speaker 1>all the time. April twod and third, Cobain is quote

0:37:39.400 --> 0:37:43.000
<v Speaker 1>spotted unquote around Seattle a number of times. I don't

0:37:43.040 --> 0:37:46.040
<v Speaker 1>know what that means. It's literally never elaborated on. It's

0:37:46.120 --> 0:37:50.120
<v Speaker 1>just like when spotted, somebody saw him and they got

0:37:50.280 --> 0:37:54.640
<v Speaker 1>blurry footage. Yeah, and that's it. Yeah. On April three,

0:37:54.960 --> 0:37:59.200
<v Speaker 1>Love hired Tom Grant to quote unquote find Cobain. Who knows.

0:37:59.840 --> 0:38:01.440
<v Speaker 1>I don't know if she knew where he was or

0:38:01.440 --> 0:38:03.200
<v Speaker 1>anything like that. That's a big question mark in this

0:38:03.320 --> 0:38:07.040
<v Speaker 1>whole case, but she hired him anyway. On April four,

0:38:07.239 --> 0:38:10.560
<v Speaker 1>a police report is filed with Seattle Police by Air

0:38:10.680 --> 0:38:14.320
<v Speaker 1>quotes Cobain's mother, unquote, stating that he was missing in

0:38:14.400 --> 0:38:18.480
<v Speaker 1>suicidal in actuality. Um Tom Grant does have recordings of

0:38:18.600 --> 0:38:21.799
<v Speaker 1>Love admitting that she actually filed the report and said

0:38:21.840 --> 0:38:24.640
<v Speaker 1>it was that she was Cobain's mom because I don't know,

0:38:24.800 --> 0:38:27.120
<v Speaker 1>she thought that people would pay more attention to it.

0:38:27.960 --> 0:38:31.480
<v Speaker 1>I don't really know, question mark why she did that,

0:38:31.600 --> 0:38:35.680
<v Speaker 1>but she did. On April seven, Nirvana officially pulls out

0:38:35.719 --> 0:38:38.440
<v Speaker 1>of Wallapalooza. As I said, they were slated to make

0:38:38.800 --> 0:38:42.319
<v Speaker 1>a bullload of money. I'm sorry I had the wrong number.

0:38:42.360 --> 0:38:44.960
<v Speaker 1>It's nine point five not nine point two million dollars.

0:38:45.440 --> 0:38:48.080
<v Speaker 1>It's a lot of money. I'll take the change. Yeah,

0:38:48.160 --> 0:38:52.120
<v Speaker 1>me too. Um Love claims that Whole had actually originally

0:38:52.200 --> 0:38:54.360
<v Speaker 1>been offered that spot, but turned it down so that

0:38:54.440 --> 0:38:58.560
<v Speaker 1>Cobain could perform. It sounds like bunked to me. Um.

0:38:58.760 --> 0:39:00.680
<v Speaker 1>I'm sure that there would be a way to look

0:39:00.760 --> 0:39:03.399
<v Speaker 1>that up to corroborate it, but frankly, I don't care enough.

0:39:03.680 --> 0:39:06.400
<v Speaker 1>I don't think it matters enough to this case. Um,

0:39:06.480 --> 0:39:08.320
<v Speaker 1>so I didn't really waste any time on doing that.

0:39:08.560 --> 0:39:10.080
<v Speaker 1>If you happen to know off the top of your head,

0:39:10.080 --> 0:39:12.320
<v Speaker 1>please send us an email and I will re record

0:39:12.400 --> 0:39:16.000
<v Speaker 1>this entire episode for exactly probably not sorry for the change,

0:39:16.040 --> 0:39:18.839
<v Speaker 1>we will. Yeah, the point three millions, for the point

0:39:18.880 --> 0:39:21.520
<v Speaker 1>three million. Yeah, for the third of a million dollars. Yeah. Absolutely.

0:39:22.120 --> 0:39:26.440
<v Speaker 1>On April eight, an electrician named Gary Smith maybe that

0:39:26.560 --> 0:39:29.360
<v Speaker 1>might not actually be his real name, was dispatched to

0:39:29.440 --> 0:39:32.400
<v Speaker 1>the house to install so that to sorry, to Cobain

0:39:32.520 --> 0:39:36.280
<v Speaker 1>and Love's house in Seattle, to install a security system.

0:39:36.960 --> 0:39:40.040
<v Speaker 1>And here's the question I never see asked is why

0:39:41.280 --> 0:39:46.719
<v Speaker 1>I had the very same question. Why, yeah, you know,

0:39:46.800 --> 0:39:49.560
<v Speaker 1>did somebody call in the order for installation a couple

0:39:49.560 --> 0:39:52.360
<v Speaker 1>of weeks prior, like did Cobain call before he left

0:39:52.719 --> 0:39:55.439
<v Speaker 1>for rehab, expecting it to be done when he came back,

0:39:56.320 --> 0:39:59.240
<v Speaker 1>Or did somebody call them on April eight or April

0:39:59.280 --> 0:40:01.279
<v Speaker 1>seventh and say, hey, I need a thing installed, can

0:40:01.320 --> 0:40:05.160
<v Speaker 1>you come do that? Actually, you know what I have.

0:40:05.400 --> 0:40:07.800
<v Speaker 1>I'll bet you somebody did this well in advance. I

0:40:07.920 --> 0:40:10.120
<v Speaker 1>was just thinking about the fact that you two know this.

0:40:10.200 --> 0:40:12.479
<v Speaker 1>I recently had some electrical work done at my house

0:40:13.360 --> 0:40:17.279
<v Speaker 1>and it was several weeks out, and this is in

0:40:17.640 --> 0:40:21.680
<v Speaker 1>the tiny section of town, and my my local electricians

0:40:21.760 --> 0:40:25.359
<v Speaker 1>still was weeks away. So I'm certainly, as you're talking about, like, oh,

0:40:25.680 --> 0:40:28.719
<v Speaker 1>you know what, it's certainly since they're like, okay, we'll

0:40:28.760 --> 0:40:32.800
<v Speaker 1>be there on the eighth, it's definitely possible that you know,

0:40:32.960 --> 0:40:37.600
<v Speaker 1>he that Cobaine, you know, apparently reportedly he was worried

0:40:37.760 --> 0:40:40.160
<v Speaker 1>about his safety and his home that he called as

0:40:40.200 --> 0:40:42.080
<v Speaker 1>soon as he started being worried about safety and his

0:40:42.200 --> 0:40:44.480
<v Speaker 1>home and said, actually, yes, I would like a security

0:40:44.520 --> 0:40:47.960
<v Speaker 1>system installed. The actually right about when the police confiscated

0:40:47.960 --> 0:40:50.479
<v Speaker 1>all of those guns, could have been Calie that called

0:40:50.520 --> 0:40:52.399
<v Speaker 1>to It could have been anybody that made the call

0:40:52.640 --> 0:40:55.680
<v Speaker 1>requesting the service. But again it's kind of one of

0:40:55.719 --> 0:40:58.800
<v Speaker 1>those like why aren't people asking that question? Well, the

0:40:58.920 --> 0:41:02.200
<v Speaker 1>question in my mind and is, um, why this guy

0:41:02.280 --> 0:41:04.680
<v Speaker 1>shows up without calling a head first to make sure

0:41:04.719 --> 0:41:06.520
<v Speaker 1>there's gonna be somebody there with keys to let him

0:41:06.520 --> 0:41:09.160
<v Speaker 1>into places and stuff like that. He just shows up. Yeah,

0:41:09.280 --> 0:41:11.879
<v Speaker 1>you know that was a little strange. Yeah, of course,

0:41:12.280 --> 0:41:14.200
<v Speaker 1>maybe maybe the appointment he assume there was going to

0:41:14.239 --> 0:41:16.239
<v Speaker 1>be somebody there. He gets there, there's nobody there, but

0:41:16.320 --> 0:41:20.120
<v Speaker 1>he starts, you know, nosing around. Maybe he was well,

0:41:20.160 --> 0:41:21.440
<v Speaker 1>I mean, maybe he was knocking on the door or

0:41:21.480 --> 0:41:23.720
<v Speaker 1>to see if there's somebody home. The worst case scenario,

0:41:23.840 --> 0:41:26.399
<v Speaker 1>you show up, nobody's there, you spend five minutes there,

0:41:26.480 --> 0:41:29.400
<v Speaker 1>and electricians buill by the hour. So I just build

0:41:29.400 --> 0:41:32.000
<v Speaker 1>an hour where it's work. It's hard. I mean again,

0:41:32.040 --> 0:41:34.160
<v Speaker 1>it's the other question I guess is like, why was

0:41:34.239 --> 0:41:37.080
<v Speaker 1>he poking around this greenhouse area? They might have gone

0:41:37.080 --> 0:41:40.000
<v Speaker 1>to the house first and got no response, and then

0:41:40.360 --> 0:41:42.399
<v Speaker 1>and then he goes the spots what looks it looks

0:41:42.400 --> 0:41:45.080
<v Speaker 1>like a mother in law apartment over the garage, and thanks,

0:41:45.160 --> 0:41:46.839
<v Speaker 1>I'll go up there and have a look sae, Yeah

0:41:47.120 --> 0:41:51.320
<v Speaker 1>we should probably Yeah. So anyway, uh, Smith walks around

0:41:51.520 --> 0:41:53.719
<v Speaker 1>what they called the greenhouse, which is it does look

0:41:53.800 --> 0:41:55.920
<v Speaker 1>kind of like a mother in law apartment above the garage,

0:41:56.080 --> 0:42:00.440
<v Speaker 1>which is separate from the house. Yeah, there's a wall. No,

0:42:00.520 --> 0:42:02.600
<v Speaker 1>I think there's a door from the house into the

0:42:02.640 --> 0:42:05.800
<v Speaker 1>greenhouse from a defunct room. I don't know that it

0:42:05.880 --> 0:42:09.680
<v Speaker 1>matters very much, but it's a separate building from the house. Basically,

0:42:10.320 --> 0:42:14.200
<v Speaker 1>he looks through a window because it is a greenhouse,

0:42:14.239 --> 0:42:18.719
<v Speaker 1>so it's all windows, looks through a window, doors because no,

0:42:18.760 --> 0:42:21.439
<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry, it looks like a greenhouse because it's painted green.

0:42:21.880 --> 0:42:26.600
<v Speaker 1>On the outside. There's windows, there's lots of skylights. But

0:42:26.719 --> 0:42:29.719
<v Speaker 1>don't call it a greenhouse because it's not actually a greenhouse.

0:42:29.800 --> 0:42:32.120
<v Speaker 1>It's it's part of the garage that happens to have

0:42:32.400 --> 0:42:35.959
<v Speaker 1>a ton of windows in it. Okay, that's fair. Yeah,

0:42:36.320 --> 0:42:38.320
<v Speaker 1>I mean it's an apartment for for lack of a

0:42:38.400 --> 0:42:41.680
<v Speaker 1>better turn, kind of yeah, it's just one big room though,

0:42:41.800 --> 0:42:44.680
<v Speaker 1>So anyway, it doesn't really matter either way. It's this.

0:42:44.960 --> 0:42:46.839
<v Speaker 1>They call it the greenhouse, so I'm going to keep

0:42:46.840 --> 0:42:48.759
<v Speaker 1>calling it a green which is fine. I just want

0:42:48.800 --> 0:42:50.800
<v Speaker 1>to make sure that we understand it's not an actual

0:42:50.880 --> 0:42:55.040
<v Speaker 1>greenhouse sitting on top of their garage. So he sees

0:42:55.080 --> 0:42:59.080
<v Speaker 1>a body lying in the greenhouse with a small amount

0:42:59.120 --> 0:43:01.600
<v Speaker 1>of blood near him. This is how he describes it.

0:43:01.960 --> 0:43:05.520
<v Speaker 1>He apparently initially thought that Cobain was asleep. Um, but

0:43:05.719 --> 0:43:07.960
<v Speaker 1>he saw the gun shot and like a little bit

0:43:08.000 --> 0:43:11.560
<v Speaker 1>of blood or not the gun shot, the shotgun, um,

0:43:11.640 --> 0:43:14.960
<v Speaker 1>and a little bit of blood. So he called his boss, understandable,

0:43:15.160 --> 0:43:19.960
<v Speaker 1>and his boss called the radio station. I don't know

0:43:20.000 --> 0:43:23.480
<v Speaker 1>if that's true either. Either way, the cops did get

0:43:23.560 --> 0:43:27.440
<v Speaker 1>called and they came out. The police, they came out. Um,

0:43:27.600 --> 0:43:29.680
<v Speaker 1>they arrived, they found that the door was locked. The

0:43:29.760 --> 0:43:33.160
<v Speaker 1>door to the greenhouse was locked. So they broke one

0:43:33.239 --> 0:43:35.640
<v Speaker 1>of the It was you know, like French doors because

0:43:35.719 --> 0:43:38.640
<v Speaker 1>all paneled class. So they broke one of the windows

0:43:38.719 --> 0:43:40.960
<v Speaker 1>next to the knob and unlocked it. It was one

0:43:41.000 --> 0:43:44.160
<v Speaker 1>of those knob locks that you just twist the little

0:43:44.200 --> 0:43:46.320
<v Speaker 1>lock on the knob. There was no bolt or anything.

0:43:46.560 --> 0:43:51.960
<v Speaker 1>So if you commit murder, you yeah, And that is

0:43:52.040 --> 0:43:55.920
<v Speaker 1>another important, another important key to this whole thing is

0:43:56.360 --> 0:43:59.080
<v Speaker 1>in fact, the door was that way and there you

0:43:59.120 --> 0:44:01.960
<v Speaker 1>will also see that there was a stool, you know,

0:44:02.080 --> 0:44:04.279
<v Speaker 1>wedged up against the door. But that's also not true.

0:44:04.320 --> 0:44:06.560
<v Speaker 1>There's a stool sitting kind of in front of a door,

0:44:07.000 --> 0:44:10.520
<v Speaker 1>a door, not this door, a different door into the room.

0:44:10.840 --> 0:44:16.200
<v Speaker 1>So again important little details. The officer that responded also

0:44:16.239 --> 0:44:18.600
<v Speaker 1>showed up with a paramedic, because of course you would,

0:44:20.160 --> 0:44:25.279
<v Speaker 1>and they reported a relatively small amount of blood. But

0:44:25.480 --> 0:44:27.960
<v Speaker 1>the paramedic did say that it was clear that Cobain

0:44:28.080 --> 0:44:29.839
<v Speaker 1>was dead, so they didn't try to do any kind

0:44:29.880 --> 0:44:32.640
<v Speaker 1>of resuscitation or anything like that. Well, the guys shot

0:44:32.719 --> 0:44:34.440
<v Speaker 1>half of his face off of the show. It sounds like,

0:44:35.000 --> 0:44:37.719
<v Speaker 1>although I don't know that is true. I mean, I've

0:44:37.760 --> 0:44:40.120
<v Speaker 1>never seen a Corners report and I've never seen any pictures,

0:44:40.160 --> 0:44:43.160
<v Speaker 1>so I don't know for that half of his face

0:44:43.280 --> 0:44:45.320
<v Speaker 1>was missing, but yeah, it sounds like he was missing.

0:44:45.600 --> 0:44:48.160
<v Speaker 1>Probably didn't look so good because I know the Seattle

0:44:48.239 --> 0:44:51.520
<v Speaker 1>PD still won't release any of those photographs, specifically because

0:44:51.719 --> 0:44:55.400
<v Speaker 1>they don't think that anybody should see it. Um Cobain's

0:44:55.440 --> 0:44:59.120
<v Speaker 1>wallet was sitting next to him, and the officer pulled

0:44:59.239 --> 0:45:02.960
<v Speaker 1>his ID out to identify him and they took a picture.

0:45:03.000 --> 0:45:06.680
<v Speaker 1>So that's another clue is they said they couldn't identify

0:45:06.840 --> 0:45:10.040
<v Speaker 1>him they had to use his fingerprints to officially identify him,

0:45:10.480 --> 0:45:12.080
<v Speaker 1>but they used his I D when they took a

0:45:12.120 --> 0:45:15.160
<v Speaker 1>picture of the body to identify who the body was.

0:45:15.760 --> 0:45:18.880
<v Speaker 1>His coat was on his left side, a brown paper

0:45:18.920 --> 0:45:22.600
<v Speaker 1>bag with shotgun shells was by his left foot, a

0:45:22.719 --> 0:45:26.120
<v Speaker 1>cigar box with all of his hair, heroin paraphernalia, and

0:45:26.360 --> 0:45:28.400
<v Speaker 1>his wallet were on his right side, kind of a

0:45:28.480 --> 0:45:30.839
<v Speaker 1>little further away from him, not just like right next

0:45:30.840 --> 0:45:33.040
<v Speaker 1>to the body, and there were cigarette butts on the

0:45:33.239 --> 0:45:36.200
<v Speaker 1>right side kind of above his head, a root beer

0:45:36.320 --> 0:45:38.839
<v Speaker 1>can on his left side by his head, and then

0:45:38.960 --> 0:45:41.000
<v Speaker 1>in the dirt on his left side was a note

0:45:41.239 --> 0:45:43.680
<v Speaker 1>stuck in the dirt with the red pin that the

0:45:44.480 --> 0:45:46.320
<v Speaker 1>dirt and the flower in the dirt in a flower.

0:45:46.360 --> 0:45:49.120
<v Speaker 1>It's a flower bed, little flower bed, next little box. Yeah,

0:45:49.320 --> 0:45:51.200
<v Speaker 1>so presumably with the pen that he had written the

0:45:51.280 --> 0:45:54.920
<v Speaker 1>note in was stuck in the dirt through the paper

0:45:55.080 --> 0:45:57.439
<v Speaker 1>in the dirt. We're gonna talk about details in a minute,

0:45:57.480 --> 0:46:00.520
<v Speaker 1>but I want to finish the timeline in five hours.

0:46:02.600 --> 0:46:05.400
<v Speaker 1>For some reason, despite all odds, the police declared his

0:46:05.480 --> 0:46:08.520
<v Speaker 1>death and undeniable suicide at the scene and released Cobain's

0:46:08.560 --> 0:46:11.319
<v Speaker 1>body to Love like within a couple of days. Um

0:46:11.800 --> 0:46:15.719
<v Speaker 1>she had him cremated shortly afterwards. On April tenth, there

0:46:15.800 --> 0:46:18.719
<v Speaker 1>was a public memorial that was held for Cobain, which

0:46:18.880 --> 0:46:23.560
<v Speaker 1>featured Courtney Love reading Cobain's suicide note. So she read

0:46:23.600 --> 0:46:27.360
<v Speaker 1>the entire thing. Apparently she arrived later and gave away

0:46:27.600 --> 0:46:30.800
<v Speaker 1>some of Cobain's clothes. So there's a really quick overview

0:46:31.280 --> 0:46:34.000
<v Speaker 1>of the timeline of this whole thing. And I guess

0:46:34.040 --> 0:46:36.640
<v Speaker 1>we have a few more things to talk about before

0:46:36.719 --> 0:46:39.200
<v Speaker 1>we talk about theories. I'm so sorry. You guys say

0:46:39.239 --> 0:46:42.359
<v Speaker 1>you like long episodes, so you know, if you don't

0:46:42.400 --> 0:46:44.239
<v Speaker 1>like the long episode, just put us on pause and

0:46:44.280 --> 0:46:48.239
<v Speaker 1>come back tomorrow. Did you pause it? Welcome back. We're serialized,

0:46:49.440 --> 0:46:54.120
<v Speaker 1>so bullet points. While people close to Cobain differ greatly

0:46:54.200 --> 0:46:56.080
<v Speaker 1>in opinion on whether it was a suicide or not,

0:46:56.400 --> 0:47:00.200
<v Speaker 1>I do think they agree. He was unhappy with his life.

0:47:00.600 --> 0:47:02.799
<v Speaker 1>You can tell. You can tell that from a suicide note,

0:47:03.120 --> 0:47:05.880
<v Speaker 1>that he's there's a lot of self loathing in there. Yeah,

0:47:06.120 --> 0:47:08.200
<v Speaker 1>and we'll talk about the suicide note in a minute.

0:47:08.280 --> 0:47:12.400
<v Speaker 1>But he was happier once he had some health issues resolved,

0:47:12.480 --> 0:47:14.360
<v Speaker 1>and with the birth of his daughter, he seemed to

0:47:14.400 --> 0:47:16.719
<v Speaker 1>really really love her. But in general, let's agreed that

0:47:16.800 --> 0:47:20.080
<v Speaker 1>Cobain was not happy with being part of a huge

0:47:20.120 --> 0:47:24.360
<v Speaker 1>band like Nirvana, did not want fame. He wanted to

0:47:24.440 --> 0:47:26.560
<v Speaker 1>just kind of be able to create. There's actually a

0:47:26.760 --> 0:47:31.040
<v Speaker 1>quote from Courtney. After they got married, he canceled a

0:47:31.120 --> 0:47:33.279
<v Speaker 1>couple of tours and she said all he wanted to

0:47:33.360 --> 0:47:36.160
<v Speaker 1>do was do drugs and like paint, Like that's all

0:47:36.200 --> 0:47:39.480
<v Speaker 1>he wanted to do. And that sounds very true. To me,

0:47:39.560 --> 0:47:42.800
<v Speaker 1>in the interviews I've seen with Cobain, he just seemed

0:47:42.840 --> 0:47:44.600
<v Speaker 1>like he was a guy who just wanted to create,

0:47:44.840 --> 0:47:50.600
<v Speaker 1>and he like hated, for instance, hated smells like teen Spirit,

0:47:51.440 --> 0:47:53.759
<v Speaker 1>hated it. Weved it. Yeah, but of course he had

0:47:53.760 --> 0:47:55.080
<v Speaker 1>to do it, and they had to do it every

0:47:55.200 --> 0:47:57.160
<v Speaker 1>single performance because it was one of the biggest hits.

0:47:57.880 --> 0:48:00.320
<v Speaker 1>And it sounds to me like there could be worst

0:48:00.360 --> 0:48:03.160
<v Speaker 1>problems to have. He could have had to sing Freebird

0:48:03.239 --> 0:48:05.880
<v Speaker 1>at every concert. That's true, he could have. Luckily he

0:48:05.960 --> 0:48:09.840
<v Speaker 1>didn't write free Bird, so luckily. Yeah. In that the

0:48:10.239 --> 0:48:13.680
<v Speaker 1>other documentary, one of the other many documentaries, but the

0:48:13.760 --> 0:48:17.520
<v Speaker 1>other big one, um Curt and Courtney, Kurt's aunt, who

0:48:17.680 --> 0:48:19.920
<v Speaker 1>I frankly find to be one of the most credible

0:48:20.000 --> 0:48:24.760
<v Speaker 1>character witnesses of this whole entire thing. Yeah, she says

0:48:24.960 --> 0:48:27.560
<v Speaker 1>that she has no doubt that he just hated the

0:48:27.600 --> 0:48:29.600
<v Speaker 1>world that he was living in. She thought that, um,

0:48:29.680 --> 0:48:31.440
<v Speaker 1>he felt it was really fake and he hated it.

0:48:31.960 --> 0:48:37.080
<v Speaker 1>I actually I attribute her his his aunt's statements to its.

0:48:37.320 --> 0:48:42.200
<v Speaker 1>Nicholas Brufield is at the documentary that guy I recognized

0:48:42.239 --> 0:48:44.880
<v Speaker 1>as soon as I started watching it, recognized the style.

0:48:45.000 --> 0:48:47.920
<v Speaker 1>He's got a very distinct style, and I watched his

0:48:48.000 --> 0:48:50.399
<v Speaker 1>other stuff before. Yeah, you have actually for this show

0:48:50.480 --> 0:48:54.719
<v Speaker 1>even Yeah, but he has a really good way of

0:48:54.920 --> 0:48:58.680
<v Speaker 1>interviewing people, and he tends to draw out a lot

0:48:58.840 --> 0:49:03.040
<v Speaker 1>of little bits of information that nobody else does. I mean,

0:49:03.080 --> 0:49:05.719
<v Speaker 1>everybody's after the big, glamorous interview, and he's like, I'll

0:49:05.760 --> 0:49:09.640
<v Speaker 1>talk to anybody, and it usually is for the better

0:49:09.840 --> 0:49:13.400
<v Speaker 1>for him because he gets information that most people wouldn't.

0:49:13.440 --> 0:49:17.080
<v Speaker 1>So I personally I attribute all of her information to

0:49:17.640 --> 0:49:20.800
<v Speaker 1>his absolutely, Yeah, because you never hear about her anywhere,

0:49:20.840 --> 0:49:23.040
<v Speaker 1>so you don't and I think, I mean, you hear

0:49:23.080 --> 0:49:26.319
<v Speaker 1>about his cousin, who I think is full of crap um,

0:49:26.440 --> 0:49:28.320
<v Speaker 1>and you hear about his parents a little bit but

0:49:28.440 --> 0:49:31.279
<v Speaker 1>not very much. But his aunt they seem to be

0:49:31.440 --> 0:49:35.440
<v Speaker 1>very close, and um, I really think that she has

0:49:35.520 --> 0:49:38.759
<v Speaker 1>the most insight to what Cobain was really like. So

0:49:38.840 --> 0:49:41.760
<v Speaker 1>there's that Nirvana was probably breaking up either way, because

0:49:41.800 --> 0:49:44.759
<v Speaker 1>it sounded like court really Kurt, Kurt really didn't want

0:49:44.880 --> 0:49:49.960
<v Speaker 1>to do stay anymore. He was done too. Yeah. Almost

0:49:50.000 --> 0:49:52.640
<v Speaker 1>everyone close to this case says that they are scared

0:49:52.719 --> 0:49:57.640
<v Speaker 1>of Courtney Love, which is fair. She's scary. Uh. It

0:49:57.800 --> 0:50:01.239
<v Speaker 1>sounds like Kurt Cobain and Courtney of we're probably getting

0:50:01.280 --> 0:50:04.719
<v Speaker 1>a divorce and love was probably being written out of

0:50:04.840 --> 0:50:08.320
<v Speaker 1>Cobaine's will. I obviously there's no way to corroborate that,

0:50:08.560 --> 0:50:14.399
<v Speaker 1>but it sounds like statements from Rosemary Carroll who's who again.

0:50:14.480 --> 0:50:16.319
<v Speaker 1>She won't go on record to say this, but Tom

0:50:16.360 --> 0:50:18.800
<v Speaker 1>Grant does have recordings of her saying this, So it

0:50:18.880 --> 0:50:22.640
<v Speaker 1>sounds like love was being written out of Cobaine's will.

0:50:23.200 --> 0:50:25.839
<v Speaker 1>I've seen reports that Cobaine's credit card was being used

0:50:25.880 --> 0:50:29.360
<v Speaker 1>after his death or they were missing, and I don't

0:50:29.640 --> 0:50:32.160
<v Speaker 1>I haven't been able to find this information from anywhere

0:50:32.280 --> 0:50:35.280
<v Speaker 1>but Tom Grant, so take it with a grain of salt.

0:50:35.440 --> 0:50:40.520
<v Speaker 1>It also appears that Courtney canceled all of Cobaine's cards,

0:50:40.920 --> 0:50:43.120
<v Speaker 1>believing that it would cut him off and cause him

0:50:43.160 --> 0:50:45.800
<v Speaker 1>to contact her again. That's all from Tom Grant. I

0:50:45.880 --> 0:50:49.840
<v Speaker 1>don't know. There's no other way to corroborate it as that.

0:50:50.040 --> 0:50:53.399
<v Speaker 1>That's not necessarily from Tom Grant as much as that's

0:50:53.440 --> 0:50:56.120
<v Speaker 1>from Courtney Love. Yeah, she's the one who said that

0:50:56.239 --> 0:50:59.080
<v Speaker 1>she did it. Yeah, she said that she canceled them.

0:50:59.600 --> 0:51:01.800
<v Speaker 1>I don't whether she did or didn't. Yeah, So I

0:51:01.880 --> 0:51:04.719
<v Speaker 1>don't know again there's I can't corroborate it, but I

0:51:04.800 --> 0:51:07.960
<v Speaker 1>thought i'd mention it. And then um, we talked about

0:51:08.000 --> 0:51:09.880
<v Speaker 1>Callie a little bit. He was the only person that

0:51:10.000 --> 0:51:12.120
<v Speaker 1>I was gonna he was apparently actually living in the

0:51:12.160 --> 0:51:16.360
<v Speaker 1>house in Washington in Seattle, uh, the entire time, basically

0:51:16.400 --> 0:51:20.440
<v Speaker 1>as a caretaker, living roommates. Yeah, but like Kurt was

0:51:20.760 --> 0:51:24.120
<v Speaker 1>dead in the house for like three days, four days

0:51:24.160 --> 0:51:27.800
<v Speaker 1>before his body was discovered. So no, not in the

0:51:27.840 --> 0:51:30.200
<v Speaker 1>main house, that's true, But he had to have been

0:51:30.320 --> 0:51:33.640
<v Speaker 1>at the house at some point. Well, and Kelly's got

0:51:33.719 --> 0:51:36.640
<v Speaker 1>on record of saying that he saw Yeah, but he

0:51:36.719 --> 0:51:40.840
<v Speaker 1>showed up one so I think yeah, he said he

0:51:40.960 --> 0:51:44.200
<v Speaker 1>came to visit um Callie and his girlfriend in bed.

0:51:44.920 --> 0:51:48.600
<v Speaker 1>So there you go. Okay, awkward, We're you know, an

0:51:48.640 --> 0:51:53.240
<v Speaker 1>hour in and done with the overview. You're welcome, Thanks,

0:51:53.760 --> 0:51:59.320
<v Speaker 1>You're welcome. So theories were there finally after ten hours.

0:51:59.560 --> 0:52:02.839
<v Speaker 1>It's gonna keep getting longer, and I will just think,

0:52:02.880 --> 0:52:06.040
<v Speaker 1>once again, remind people that we're doing ever of the

0:52:06.080 --> 0:52:09.799
<v Speaker 1>case because there's so much, there's so many theories, there's

0:52:09.800 --> 0:52:12.640
<v Speaker 1>so much information here. I like, literally can't I don't

0:52:12.640 --> 0:52:16.000
<v Speaker 1>have the physical capability my voice is already starting to go. Okay.

0:52:16.239 --> 0:52:19.360
<v Speaker 1>So let's basically there's two theories, right, because this is

0:52:19.400 --> 0:52:22.520
<v Speaker 1>a Devin episode. Um, the two theories are he was

0:52:22.680 --> 0:52:25.920
<v Speaker 1>murdered or it was suicide. Well, actually, it could have

0:52:25.920 --> 0:52:28.480
<v Speaker 1>been an accident to maybe he just bought a shotgun

0:52:28.520 --> 0:52:31.480
<v Speaker 1>and he was and he tripped and fell backwards with it.

0:52:31.719 --> 0:52:33.879
<v Speaker 1>Now he was actually I think he was standing there

0:52:33.960 --> 0:52:35.799
<v Speaker 1>like like looking down the barrel just to see if

0:52:35.800 --> 0:52:37.759
<v Speaker 1>there are any obstructions in or anything like. I don't

0:52:37.760 --> 0:52:41.919
<v Speaker 1>think that happens. Alright, So let's talk about murder first.

0:52:43.160 --> 0:52:45.600
<v Speaker 1>We can do that. Um, we're just gonna bullet point

0:52:45.680 --> 0:52:47.880
<v Speaker 1>real quick here. Some of the things that people bring up,

0:52:48.160 --> 0:52:50.800
<v Speaker 1>why do people think it's murder? Uh? One of the

0:52:50.880 --> 0:52:53.640
<v Speaker 1>questions people ask is why would a rich man kill himself? Well,

0:52:53.719 --> 0:52:58.000
<v Speaker 1>that's a dumb question. Yeah, it happens, happens a lot often. Yeah. Um,

0:52:58.400 --> 0:53:02.080
<v Speaker 1>the divorce that he would rather kill himself than divorced.

0:53:02.160 --> 0:53:06.239
<v Speaker 1>He actually said that in a note somewhere at some

0:53:06.400 --> 0:53:09.680
<v Speaker 1>point was an interview he said, actually I think he

0:53:09.800 --> 0:53:14.960
<v Speaker 1>said it in a note to Courtney. Nirvana was breaking up, so, um,

0:53:15.840 --> 0:53:18.840
<v Speaker 1>he was keeping people from money. He was scared for

0:53:19.000 --> 0:53:22.120
<v Speaker 1>a retaliation, right, So like somebody could have killed him

0:53:22.160 --> 0:53:25.960
<v Speaker 1>because they were okay, because if you're going to kill him,

0:53:26.480 --> 0:53:30.440
<v Speaker 1>then you're he's gonna that's fine whatever. Um, there were

0:53:30.520 --> 0:53:33.800
<v Speaker 1>no fingerprints on the shells, slash guns, slash pen, slash

0:53:34.560 --> 0:53:38.080
<v Speaker 1>insert thing here. We're going to talk about that. Yeah,

0:53:38.080 --> 0:53:43.360
<v Speaker 1>we're going to talk about people say he wasn't quote unquote,

0:53:43.400 --> 0:53:46.759
<v Speaker 1>he wasn't suicidal. There was a lot of heroin in

0:53:46.920 --> 0:53:50.160
<v Speaker 1>his body, along with some other stuff. And people also

0:53:50.239 --> 0:53:52.160
<v Speaker 1>say that the note wasn't a suicide note or it

0:53:52.239 --> 0:53:54.880
<v Speaker 1>was faked. Um. And there's like a handwriting sample thing

0:53:54.920 --> 0:53:57.120
<v Speaker 1>that we're going to talk about in a minute. So

0:53:57.239 --> 0:53:58.839
<v Speaker 1>those are all the reasons people say it was murder.

0:53:59.280 --> 0:54:03.400
<v Speaker 1>Next theory, just kidding. We're going to talk about some

0:54:03.440 --> 0:54:05.160
<v Speaker 1>of these things in detail, but not all of them.

0:54:05.280 --> 0:54:07.759
<v Speaker 1>So here we go. The gun. We talked about this

0:54:07.800 --> 0:54:09.320
<v Speaker 1>a little bit, alright, a little bit. Yeah it is.

0:54:09.360 --> 0:54:12.600
<v Speaker 1>It's the twenty gage shotgun which Dylan bought for Kurt.

0:54:13.440 --> 0:54:16.399
<v Speaker 1>The gun was a long barrel gun, but I don't

0:54:16.440 --> 0:54:19.320
<v Speaker 1>think the barrel was so long that Cobain could have

0:54:20.120 --> 0:54:22.400
<v Speaker 1>um not reasonably pulled the trigger himself. I think it

0:54:22.400 --> 0:54:24.160
<v Speaker 1>would have he would have been able to totally do that.

0:54:24.880 --> 0:54:26.920
<v Speaker 1>It's got to be a really big gun to not

0:54:27.120 --> 0:54:29.440
<v Speaker 1>be able to pull the trigger yourself. Yeah, that doesn't

0:54:29.440 --> 0:54:32.720
<v Speaker 1>concern me. The issue people they have a few issues

0:54:32.800 --> 0:54:35.600
<v Speaker 1>with the gun, and some of them might. Yeah, Okay.

0:54:35.880 --> 0:54:39.680
<v Speaker 1>First of all, the shell casing, the Spence shell casing

0:54:40.239 --> 0:54:43.439
<v Speaker 1>was on the opposite side of Cobain's body from where

0:54:43.480 --> 0:54:45.840
<v Speaker 1>it would have ejected from the gun. It was a

0:54:45.920 --> 0:54:51.680
<v Speaker 1>semi auto, so it is reasonably automatically. Yeah, and he

0:54:51.800 --> 0:54:55.440
<v Speaker 1>was holding the gun upside down down, so the ejection

0:54:55.480 --> 0:54:58.560
<v Speaker 1>port would have been on his right, but the casing

0:54:58.719 --> 0:55:02.360
<v Speaker 1>was on his left. Yes, that makes people suspicious. It

0:55:02.360 --> 0:55:07.319
<v Speaker 1>makes people suspicious, I guess I agree. I think it's

0:55:07.360 --> 0:55:09.560
<v Speaker 1>reasonable to say that it could have bounced off his

0:55:09.719 --> 0:55:11.920
<v Speaker 1>arm um, it could have bounced up his arm. It

0:55:11.960 --> 0:55:14.880
<v Speaker 1>could have if you'd been holding it like even a

0:55:14.960 --> 0:55:18.160
<v Speaker 1>little bit of an angle. It could have ejected somewhat upwards,

0:55:18.200 --> 0:55:21.040
<v Speaker 1>bounced off. Because that was a fairly skinny little room

0:55:21.080 --> 0:55:23.760
<v Speaker 1>that he was in. I don't think it was that skinny.

0:55:24.280 --> 0:55:26.560
<v Speaker 1>According to this the diagram I saw, it didn't look

0:55:26.640 --> 0:55:29.480
<v Speaker 1>that big. It's huge, but it's not. I don't think

0:55:29.520 --> 0:55:32.240
<v Speaker 1>it's big. Couldn't have hit the wall on the opposite

0:55:32.280 --> 0:55:34.759
<v Speaker 1>side and bounced back? Joe that I don't think. I

0:55:34.840 --> 0:55:38.160
<v Speaker 1>think that's too far. Well, most things get flung out

0:55:38.200 --> 0:55:40.080
<v Speaker 1>with a lot of forests. They do, but they're also

0:55:40.200 --> 0:55:43.920
<v Speaker 1>super light, and so they burn up their inertia quite quickly.

0:55:44.400 --> 0:55:48.120
<v Speaker 1>I mean, chuck on shells don't fly more than four

0:55:48.239 --> 0:55:51.320
<v Speaker 1>or five feet at best on their own without a

0:55:51.360 --> 0:55:54.879
<v Speaker 1>wind fly further than that. Well, but I'm I'm making

0:55:54.920 --> 0:55:57.040
<v Speaker 1>a generality here. What I'm saying is that there's no

0:55:57.080 --> 0:55:59.799
<v Speaker 1>way it could have hit the wall and bounced all

0:56:00.160 --> 0:56:03.160
<v Speaker 1>traveled all the way back from where to where it originated,

0:56:03.480 --> 0:56:06.200
<v Speaker 1>and then continued on. The room is too big for

0:56:06.280 --> 0:56:09.560
<v Speaker 1>that to have happened. I feel the same way. But

0:56:09.719 --> 0:56:12.080
<v Speaker 1>there's other things too that he could have. Maybe he

0:56:12.120 --> 0:56:14.040
<v Speaker 1>wasn't holding the gun upside down when he actually pulled

0:56:14.040 --> 0:56:16.200
<v Speaker 1>the trigger, and maybe he was. Maybe he was holding

0:56:16.239 --> 0:56:17.920
<v Speaker 1>it sort of flat against his body and I went

0:56:18.000 --> 0:56:20.520
<v Speaker 1>up in the air. Maybe he was standing up when

0:56:20.560 --> 0:56:23.200
<v Speaker 1>he shot himself. He well, I will, I will agree

0:56:23.239 --> 0:56:25.040
<v Speaker 1>with Joe. So I know that you're going to talk

0:56:25.080 --> 0:56:27.080
<v Speaker 1>about a little bit of how we know that the

0:56:27.160 --> 0:56:30.040
<v Speaker 1>gun was upside down. But Joe makes a very good

0:56:30.080 --> 0:56:34.080
<v Speaker 1>point of if he was standing upright and the gun

0:56:34.360 --> 0:56:36.680
<v Speaker 1>was not upside down. By upside down, I think we

0:56:36.719 --> 0:56:39.480
<v Speaker 1>should explain this to folks. That means the trigger is

0:56:39.600 --> 0:56:42.640
<v Speaker 1>pointing up in the air instead of down at the

0:56:42.800 --> 0:56:46.440
<v Speaker 1>floor like you would normally hold a gun. But if

0:56:46.480 --> 0:56:48.920
<v Speaker 1>he did have it so it wasn't at a hundred

0:56:49.000 --> 0:56:51.480
<v Speaker 1>eighty degrees away from where it traditionally would be held,

0:56:51.560 --> 0:56:55.080
<v Speaker 1>but say only ninety degrees, then the casing would go

0:56:55.239 --> 0:56:59.040
<v Speaker 1>down to the floor and could ricochet anywhere. Or if

0:56:59.080 --> 0:57:01.680
<v Speaker 1>he is sitting, if he had done that, it could

0:57:01.719 --> 0:57:04.279
<v Speaker 1>have bounced off. Well, yeah, that's if he's standing, or

0:57:04.400 --> 0:57:07.320
<v Speaker 1>if he's sitting when he uses it, it can ricochet

0:57:07.400 --> 0:57:09.880
<v Speaker 1>off his arm or his leg to end up on

0:57:09.920 --> 0:57:12.960
<v Speaker 1>the opposite side. So it's completely plausible, is the only

0:57:13.000 --> 0:57:15.960
<v Speaker 1>thing I'm getting at. But there's a whole bunch of

0:57:16.080 --> 0:57:18.640
<v Speaker 1>vectors that it could have taken. Yeah, if he had

0:57:18.680 --> 0:57:21.800
<v Speaker 1>been reaching down, then his arm definitely would have been

0:57:21.880 --> 0:57:24.000
<v Speaker 1>right in the way of the injection. Yes, yeah, And

0:57:24.080 --> 0:57:25.960
<v Speaker 1>I guess you know, for me, it's just a question

0:57:26.080 --> 0:57:29.160
<v Speaker 1>of how fast does that happen? And you know, the

0:57:29.480 --> 0:57:31.160
<v Speaker 1>gun would have had to have been a slight angle,

0:57:31.240 --> 0:57:33.080
<v Speaker 1>because if for it to bounce off and then bounce

0:57:33.160 --> 0:57:35.760
<v Speaker 1>over instead of bounced just right like back at the gun,

0:57:36.440 --> 0:57:38.560
<v Speaker 1>you know, it wouldn't have ejected exactly right to bounce

0:57:38.600 --> 0:57:41.280
<v Speaker 1>off his arm then. But I guess I don't. I

0:57:41.440 --> 0:57:44.840
<v Speaker 1>don't really have a problem with that. It's interesting because

0:57:45.840 --> 0:57:47.920
<v Speaker 1>people say that this is proof that there was someone

0:57:48.000 --> 0:57:50.520
<v Speaker 1>else in the room because it had to have bounced

0:57:50.520 --> 0:57:54.120
<v Speaker 1>off someone else, But I don't think that's true, particularly

0:57:54.200 --> 0:57:57.800
<v Speaker 1>because it means that Cobain he had what's called a

0:57:57.880 --> 0:58:02.120
<v Speaker 1>death grip on the barrel in layman's terms. In Layman's terms, yeah,

0:58:02.440 --> 0:58:08.560
<v Speaker 1>and that happens surprisingly just moments after death. Your hand

0:58:08.680 --> 0:58:13.320
<v Speaker 1>just like freezes up and yeah, basically right at death.

0:58:13.440 --> 0:58:15.400
<v Speaker 1>So there would have been no time for somebody to

0:58:15.640 --> 0:58:18.560
<v Speaker 1>stage that. So he was holding the gun and his

0:58:18.640 --> 0:58:21.400
<v Speaker 1>hand was tight enough on the barrel that it They

0:58:21.640 --> 0:58:25.480
<v Speaker 1>think that it didn't spin around, that it was the

0:58:25.560 --> 0:58:27.960
<v Speaker 1>position the gun was found in, was where the position

0:58:28.080 --> 0:58:32.840
<v Speaker 1>was when Uh probably, Yeah. So I guess the thing

0:58:32.920 --> 0:58:34.600
<v Speaker 1>that I always have problem with is people say, well,

0:58:34.640 --> 0:58:36.560
<v Speaker 1>it means somebody else was in the room, but well, no,

0:58:36.680 --> 0:58:38.600
<v Speaker 1>it doesn't. I mean he was holding the barrel in

0:58:38.680 --> 0:58:41.360
<v Speaker 1>his mouth either way. Okay, no, I can play Devil's

0:58:41.360 --> 0:58:45.280
<v Speaker 1>advocate on that entirely. If somebody else is in the

0:58:45.440 --> 0:58:49.120
<v Speaker 1>room and they are trying to get him in, there's

0:58:49.160 --> 0:58:52.320
<v Speaker 1>some kind of struggle and he grabs the gun and

0:58:52.680 --> 0:58:56.640
<v Speaker 1>other said person somehow accidentally pulls the trigger and it

0:58:56.760 --> 0:58:59.520
<v Speaker 1>goes off, that just means that his his hand was

0:58:59.600 --> 0:59:02.480
<v Speaker 1>on the barrel, it's all it means. It doesn't mean

0:59:02.560 --> 0:59:04.959
<v Speaker 1>that there's no way somebody else couldn't have been there.

0:59:06.280 --> 0:59:08.080
<v Speaker 1>Somebody could have been there. I don't think that. I

0:59:08.120 --> 0:59:11.080
<v Speaker 1>don't think. I don't think based on everything I've read.

0:59:11.160 --> 0:59:14.280
<v Speaker 1>But I'm just saying it's entirely possible that there could

0:59:14.320 --> 0:59:16.920
<v Speaker 1>have been a quote unquote struggle for the weapon and

0:59:17.200 --> 0:59:20.240
<v Speaker 1>it went off while he happened to be holding the barrel,

0:59:20.520 --> 0:59:23.960
<v Speaker 1>and therefore, as this murder theory loves to point out,

0:59:24.240 --> 0:59:28.240
<v Speaker 1>everything was then stage. Yeah, okay, that's a good point.

0:59:28.240 --> 0:59:30.040
<v Speaker 1>I guess I hadn't really thought of that, so I

0:59:30.080 --> 0:59:31.600
<v Speaker 1>guess we're gonna get into that. But if they were

0:59:31.680 --> 0:59:34.640
<v Speaker 1>trying to murder him, then are people also saying that

0:59:35.240 --> 0:59:37.760
<v Speaker 1>somebody else forced him to take three times as much hair?

0:59:37.800 --> 0:59:40.920
<v Speaker 1>I want as he should have taken Yes, But we

0:59:41.040 --> 0:59:42.920
<v Speaker 1>will get into that in just a second. I want

0:59:42.920 --> 0:59:44.440
<v Speaker 1>to there is a couple more things about the gun

0:59:44.520 --> 0:59:46.120
<v Speaker 1>that I want to talk about first, and then we're

0:59:46.160 --> 0:59:49.040
<v Speaker 1>going to talk about drugs, because this is one episode.

0:59:49.120 --> 0:59:51.600
<v Speaker 1>Drugs and guns and stuff like that makes for the

0:59:51.640 --> 0:59:55.160
<v Speaker 1>best parties, it really does. The gun is, I will mention,

0:59:55.320 --> 0:59:57.720
<v Speaker 1>still in police custody. If you follow this case at all,

0:59:57.840 --> 1:00:00.720
<v Speaker 1>you will know that just very recently, in fact, the

1:00:00.800 --> 1:00:04.360
<v Speaker 1>Seattle Police Department released pictures of one of their officers

1:00:04.760 --> 1:00:08.960
<v Speaker 1>holding the gun that Kurt Cobain died from a gunshot

1:00:09.040 --> 1:00:12.560
<v Speaker 1>wound from, and they still have it there. You will

1:00:12.640 --> 1:00:15.800
<v Speaker 1>hear people say, oh yeah, they released it into the

1:00:15.880 --> 1:00:19.000
<v Speaker 1>custody of Courtney Love and she melted it down to

1:00:19.120 --> 1:00:21.480
<v Speaker 1>the hide evidence. That didn't happen. The police still have it.

1:00:21.520 --> 1:00:26.320
<v Speaker 1>It's still in evidence. Okay, I'm melting it down. Yeah,

1:00:26.440 --> 1:00:30.000
<v Speaker 1>me too. Yeah. Another issue with the gun is reportedly

1:00:30.080 --> 1:00:34.760
<v Speaker 1>they didn't find fingerprints on the gun or shells, which

1:00:34.840 --> 1:00:38.640
<v Speaker 1>is it happens, but also it's inaccurate information. What really

1:00:38.680 --> 1:00:41.360
<v Speaker 1>happened is um the report states. Again, I looked at

1:00:41.400 --> 1:00:44.040
<v Speaker 1>the actual police report and it says that there are

1:00:44.080 --> 1:00:47.640
<v Speaker 1>no prints of quote comparative value, which just means that

1:00:47.720 --> 1:00:52.040
<v Speaker 1>they were all smudge, which makes sense because they would

1:00:52.080 --> 1:00:55.960
<v Speaker 1>be probably absolutely And the real issue here, though, is

1:00:56.040 --> 1:00:59.480
<v Speaker 1>that the gun wasn't even inspected for Prince until like

1:00:59.680 --> 1:01:03.640
<v Speaker 1>three years after like literally, they didn't submit these fingerprint

1:01:03.720 --> 1:01:09.800
<v Speaker 1>results for analyzation analyzation analysis, thank you, until which is

1:01:09.880 --> 1:01:12.720
<v Speaker 1>three years after Kirk. That's a failing on the part

1:01:12.760 --> 1:01:16.840
<v Speaker 1>of the place based on their reasoning of the cause

1:01:16.920 --> 1:01:20.400
<v Speaker 1>of death. Yea, they had this thing about not processing

1:01:21.000 --> 1:01:28.479
<v Speaker 1>anything on suicide. They didn't even develop the film. Yeah, weird, bad,

1:01:28.760 --> 1:01:31.640
<v Speaker 1>bad practices all around. So and we'll talk a little

1:01:31.640 --> 1:01:34.960
<v Speaker 1>bit more about that minute. But that's my issue with fingerprints,

1:01:35.040 --> 1:01:37.280
<v Speaker 1>not that they couldn't find anything, because like of course,

1:01:37.560 --> 1:01:40.439
<v Speaker 1>like fingerprints are mostly smudgy. It's rare that you find

1:01:40.480 --> 1:01:42.120
<v Speaker 1>a good one. Okay, now we can talk about drug

1:01:42.160 --> 1:01:46.400
<v Speaker 1>you're talking about rugs. So Cobain, it was reported had

1:01:46.640 --> 1:01:49.320
<v Speaker 1>three times the lethal dose of heroin in his body

1:01:49.400 --> 1:01:53.160
<v Speaker 1>when he died, and there's some debate only around this

1:01:53.240 --> 1:01:55.680
<v Speaker 1>case is the only time I've ever seen this debate ever,

1:01:56.320 --> 1:01:59.800
<v Speaker 1>But what the lethal doses? What the well, if there's

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<v Speaker 1>this ceiling or not for heroin. In this case, it's

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<v Speaker 1>the only time I've ever seen anybody say, oh yeah, no, no, no,

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<v Speaker 1>the lethal dose is a lethal dose for heroin. People

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<v Speaker 1>can take only a certain amount before they become incapacitated.

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<v Speaker 1>Literally every other case I've ever heard with heroin, and

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<v Speaker 1>when we corroborated this with some experts, there is no

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<v Speaker 1>ceiling for heroin. You can pretty much keep taking it.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean increasing dose, take increasing doses over time. Obviously, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you build up a tolerance, and once you have a

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<v Speaker 1>high enough tolerance, I mean you actually need more to

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<v Speaker 1>feel the same high. And you do develop that tolerance,

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<v Speaker 1>and you will still be totally capable of moving around

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<v Speaker 1>and doing things. Whereof somebody like if I injected that

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<v Speaker 1>amount of heroine it would definitely kill me. But if

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<v Speaker 1>I had been doing heroin for ten years in an

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<v Speaker 1>increasing in incrementally increasing amount, I would probably you just

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<v Speaker 1>don't ceiling, not any drug. It's specifically that is the case.

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<v Speaker 1>And actually their interviews where Cobain says that he at

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<v Speaker 1>one point in his life he was doing four dollars

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<v Speaker 1>worth of heroin a day, which is a lot of heroine.

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<v Speaker 1>Holy crap, that's from the ahead. I'm sorry, UM, no,

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<v Speaker 1>as gonna say. Tom Grant, the private investigator, he continually

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<v Speaker 1>has made the point that he would have been totally

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<v Speaker 1>incapacitated immediately. He would have Yeah, he would have had

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<v Speaker 1>you know, like no time to you know, check out

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<v Speaker 1>the shotgun. Oh sorry, sorry, sorry, Tom Grant would have

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<v Speaker 1>been stated Cobain. I don't think he would have. He

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<v Speaker 1>he had one point five millgrams per leader of heroin

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<v Speaker 1>was reported to be in his body. Um and I

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<v Speaker 1>actually asked, it's important, though, for everybody to understand he's injecting. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>he's injecting its intervited intervenous use, intronous invened. I still

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<v Speaker 1>can't say that word. Um and I actually checked. I

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<v Speaker 1>checked with a fair a couple of our experts, and

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<v Speaker 1>they all agreed. They are all in medical professions, they

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<v Speaker 1>all have seen cases of heavy heroin use, and they

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<v Speaker 1>all agreed that it's totally reasonable to expect that somebody

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<v Speaker 1>with a high tolerance would be totally capable of moving

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<v Speaker 1>around and doing things with that amount of to heroin

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<v Speaker 1>in their body. And I should also mention that it's

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<v Speaker 1>not like we're saying, oh and then Cobain got up

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<v Speaker 1>and ran a marathon. We're talking about could he have

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<v Speaker 1>rolled down his sleeve, put his paraphernale away and pull

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<v Speaker 1>the trigger right, absolutely, like, yeah, you can crawl while

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<v Speaker 1>you're doing that, right, it's small movements. Well, and that

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<v Speaker 1>that would indicate the weirdo writing that is on the

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<v Speaker 1>note that everybody, it would it would also help explain that. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>But you'll see in Soaked and Bleached, the team maintains

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<v Speaker 1>that there was a study that was done, quote unquote

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<v Speaker 1>study that was done where there's a picture of a

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<v Speaker 1>guy who's standing on one leg and you know, doctors say, well,

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<v Speaker 1>he took um you know, the equivalent of methodone tabs

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<v Speaker 1>that Cobain had in his body, and look at he's

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<v Speaker 1>standing on one foot. He's totally fine. And the Soaked

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<v Speaker 1>and Bleached team says, but no, he it's methodone, so

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<v Speaker 1>it's less and tags. He took it as a pill.

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<v Speaker 1>He didn't inject it, so that's not admissible. But I

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<v Speaker 1>think anecdotal evidence from the health people that we talked

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<v Speaker 1>to UM who are all named Stephanie, Corey and Lisa Um,

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<v Speaker 1>they all agreed absolutely, yeah, no question. Somebody with that

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<v Speaker 1>amount of heroin and them body could totally. And that's

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<v Speaker 1>that's the reason that I was asking earlier though about

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<v Speaker 1>his um if we knew if he had used during

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<v Speaker 1>that week after the intervention, and then if he had

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<v Speaker 1>used just before he got to the rehab clinic. And

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<v Speaker 1>we also don't know if he was using while he

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<v Speaker 1>was in Seattle before he did that confident that you

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<v Speaker 1>know after April one he was on a bender. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not disagreeing with that at all, but it does make

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<v Speaker 1>you wonder because it's we've all seen those cases of

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<v Speaker 1>where somebody who did something to access took a certain

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<v Speaker 1>amount of time off, their tolerance dropped a little bit,

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<v Speaker 1>and then they went right back to their old ways,

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<v Speaker 1>and that's what put him in the ground. But I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know that. Yeah, I know what you're talking about,

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<v Speaker 1>but I don't know how long you had to be

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<v Speaker 1>off with where the taller goes away, I don't don't.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think two days off. Well, that's why I

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<v Speaker 1>was wondering about that. If he had stopped after the

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<v Speaker 1>intervention forward and so then that would be a week

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<v Speaker 1>week and a half issue, which again I don't think

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<v Speaker 1>it's a whole lot, but your body does slowly heal

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<v Speaker 1>itself from the damage that you intentionally do to it. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>He and he also had valley um in his bloodstream. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and I don't know where he got that Courtney loves prescription.

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<v Speaker 1>Probably well, I don't remember. Well, but I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>if he got that from the plant, or if he

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<v Speaker 1>got it from his drug dealer or where he got it. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know either, but I think he probably got

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<v Speaker 1>it from the medicine cabinet in the bathroom. Probably probably, yeah, probably. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. The other fun fact I guess. But the

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<v Speaker 1>other interesting fact about him is that if you've noticed,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know if either of you notice this in

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<v Speaker 1>the photos, he's wearing a Tom Peterson watch. And I

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<v Speaker 1>mean the death Saying photos. Yeah, yeah, it's Tom. You

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<v Speaker 1>know Tom Interloria too. Yeah, he's wearing a Tom Peterson watch.

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<v Speaker 1>For anybody who doesn't know, Tom Peterson had a chain

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<v Speaker 1>of stores in the Pacific Northwest and yeah they well,

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<v Speaker 1>and he tried to get an electronics But it's it's

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<v Speaker 1>his head. He's always showed at these gigantic proportions. It's

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<v Speaker 1>this weird black and white photos style really recognize. But

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<v Speaker 1>it was he had. When you see him one of

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<v Speaker 1>the photos that they released, he's wearing a Tom Peterson.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna go back and look if you want to

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<v Speaker 1>see Tom Peterson rent drug Store, Cowboy, a couple of movement.

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<v Speaker 1>And he also was in My Own Private at Oh

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<v Speaker 1>he has got a bit part is I think the

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<v Speaker 1>chief of police. And I don't think he even says

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<v Speaker 1>any words. But have you seen My Own Private It's

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<v Speaker 1>been a million years. Yeah yeah, so's just like the

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<v Speaker 1>length of this episode exactly. But if you watch but

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<v Speaker 1>if you watch My Own Private at home, he plays

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<v Speaker 1>the chief of police. Okay, there you go, all right,

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<v Speaker 1>that's Tom Peterson and Gloria too. The other thing I

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<v Speaker 1>want to talk about is the note, and I really

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<v Speaker 1>don't want to talk about it for very long, but um,

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<v Speaker 1>this suicide note was addressed to Cobain's imaginary friend Bata.

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<v Speaker 1>Did you guys watch Kurt and Courtney? Oh yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>like legitimately cried when his aunt played the recordings of

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<v Speaker 1>him as like a two year old like talking to

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<v Speaker 1>Bata because that's so sad, Like I can't imagine going

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<v Speaker 1>through something like I was. I didn't cry, but it

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<v Speaker 1>does make you feel just a twinch of set says

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<v Speaker 1>here this guy that's dead, so just a little kid

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<v Speaker 1>with this whole life, and that I'm talking about Bota,

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<v Speaker 1>his imaginary friend Bota. We're not going to read the letter.

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<v Speaker 1>It's long and it's very easy to find. I just

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to say that I do agree that the note

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<v Speaker 1>looks odd, but I think there are a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>ways to explain that. I will agree also that the

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<v Speaker 1>bulk of the note sounds like Cobain was just writing

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<v Speaker 1>to his fans. He used to do that. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know if either of you guys have ever seen this,

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<v Speaker 1>but he used to write letters to the fan club,

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<v Speaker 1>like literally write handwritten notes and then photocopy them and

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<v Speaker 1>send them to all of the fans of Nirvana. Um.

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<v Speaker 1>And he would do like newsletters. He was running, I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>he was basically running his own fans, yeah, kind of

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<v Speaker 1>and were not really a zine. It was literally just

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<v Speaker 1>like notes. But he called him newsletters, and so that

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<v Speaker 1>was the sort of thing he would do in the beginning,

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<v Speaker 1>and I think he probably didn't do it as much.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, um frankly, if he did it in

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<v Speaker 1>the in the Middle Times, but to me, the bulk

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<v Speaker 1>of the note, the main body of it, does sound

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<v Speaker 1>like it reads exactly like the way he wrote to

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<v Speaker 1>his fans. It sounds like he is writing to his

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<v Speaker 1>fans saying like listen, Nirvana is no more basically, or

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not going to be in music anymore. Um. And

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<v Speaker 1>then it's true that it's not really until the last

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<v Speaker 1>couple of lines that it sounds like to me a

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<v Speaker 1>suicide note suddenly changes in tone a little bit, definitely does. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>it's just like this letter that sounds like he's writing

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<v Speaker 1>to his fans, and then suddenly it's like, I love you,

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<v Speaker 1>keep going, and it's different, slightly different looking handwriting, although

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<v Speaker 1>it still looks like it's his handwriting. But you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I've seen other things that that Cobain wrote and it's

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<v Speaker 1>very similar. You know, see other ones where he's he's

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<v Speaker 1>it's kind of tiny and at the bottom it gets

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<v Speaker 1>real big and that's not enough. That's the heroine kicking in.

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<v Speaker 1>Or you have no idea, or if it's just larger

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<v Speaker 1>letters for emphasis, Yeah, I don't know. Rosemary Carroll, who

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<v Speaker 1>remembers a lawyer, claims to have found a handwriting Sam

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<v Speaker 1>Ball in a bag that Courtney Love left at her house.

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<v Speaker 1>What's she doing? Written around the bag. She left it

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<v Speaker 1>there for weeks apparently, so she like went through it.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know. Again, it's hard to tell, um, but

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<v Speaker 1>it looked like they could have traced it's a practice sheet.

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<v Speaker 1>It looks like a practice sheet for anybody who doesn't

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<v Speaker 1>know what that is. It's where you copy somebody else's

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<v Speaker 1>letters and then practice writing them to look like it's

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<v Speaker 1>in their hand. Right. But that's a sheet. Is whether

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<v Speaker 1>this is or is not, that's what it's called. So

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<v Speaker 1>that is what he practiced, is Yeah, And I don't

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<v Speaker 1>I've never seen a picture of this alleged practice sheet,

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<v Speaker 1>so I don't know. That's not a picture of it

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<v Speaker 1>somewhere there's okay, I don't know. I can't find it

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<v Speaker 1>online anywhere. It seems like that's the sort of thing

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<v Speaker 1>that you would like post everywhere. Has it though? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>But he I don't know if he does actually Okay, Well,

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<v Speaker 1>I was under the impression that Tom Grant had it,

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<v Speaker 1>And if Tom Grant has is it, there is no way,

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<v Speaker 1>under God's greener he's going to let that thing out

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<v Speaker 1>on the internet, because then he can't be you know,

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<v Speaker 1>that's this is his cash. Yeah, that's yeah, that's true.

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<v Speaker 1>But as far as if Courtney was learning to imitate

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<v Speaker 1>his writing, that could have been for other reasons other

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<v Speaker 1>than forging a suicide. Now, but she forged some stuff

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<v Speaker 1>in his name before. Yeah, exactly, So yeah, that'sn't necessary. No,

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<v Speaker 1>I agree with um. And then I do want to

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<v Speaker 1>point out that when Grant tells people that quote unquote,

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<v Speaker 1>handwriting experts have said that the last bit looks different. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>what he really means is that the quality of the

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<v Speaker 1>scan that he, in his own words, tricked Love out

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<v Speaker 1>of having is too low quality for anybody to be

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<v Speaker 1>able to actually accurately analyze it. He was the fact

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<v Speaker 1>he did. He told Courtney that he was gonna just

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<v Speaker 1>look at it with his glasses on and then stole

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<v Speaker 1>it from her, which is kind of shady in its

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<v Speaker 1>own right. I agree both of them were not, but

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<v Speaker 1>I don't blame him. I would have. I'm sorry, but

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<v Speaker 1>if you know, I don't. I don't call fowl on

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<v Speaker 1>that at all. No, I don't really call foul either.

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<v Speaker 1>I just like a little shady. But like I said,

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<v Speaker 1>both of them acting not the best, but the copy

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<v Speaker 1>that he has which is the only copy that you

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<v Speaker 1>know really exists right now. Courtney obviously isn't about to

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<v Speaker 1>release the original. Anybody who looks at it can't actually

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<v Speaker 1>analyze it, so worth mentioning. Okay, Courtney does have the

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<v Speaker 1>original run she reportedly, Yeah, the police didn't take it.

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<v Speaker 1>She got it best it because I mean that's how

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<v Speaker 1>great got a copy of it. Yeah, okay. So, um,

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<v Speaker 1>if he was murdered, who did it? Well, obviously like

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<v Speaker 1>Courtney would have ordered it, right, I think she would

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<v Speaker 1>have overpowered him. That's the well, I mean, the theory

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<v Speaker 1>is is like Corney paid somebody to kill Kurt rather

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<v Speaker 1>than doing it as a through the sheer force of

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<v Speaker 1>her own will. Yeah yeah, well, plus Courtney was still

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<v Speaker 1>in l A right Yeah. So um, here are some

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<v Speaker 1>answers to who might have killed Kurt Cobain. Uh. One

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<v Speaker 1>is a guy by the name of Alan Wrench Um

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<v Speaker 1>this theory you will probably know um more by a

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<v Speaker 1>guy named El Deucee Douche or Ell Douce. It's Luche,

1:14:25.080 --> 1:14:28.479
<v Speaker 1>which is a total gag. I mean it's not his

1:14:28.600 --> 1:14:33.519
<v Speaker 1>real name. His name made up play on another word

1:14:33.720 --> 1:14:37.479
<v Speaker 1>that is a hygiene product. I mean it's it's this

1:14:37.640 --> 1:14:40.160
<v Speaker 1>guy's band did some really weird stuff and I know

1:14:40.360 --> 1:14:42.120
<v Speaker 1>that that's where that. Yeah, we're going to talk about

1:14:42.200 --> 1:14:46.040
<v Speaker 1>his Yeah. The way that we know about this guy,

1:14:46.120 --> 1:14:49.960
<v Speaker 1>whose real name is Elden Hope, was because this filmmaker

1:14:50.040 --> 1:14:52.720
<v Speaker 1>we were talking about earlier, Nick Broomfield, who did the

1:14:52.800 --> 1:14:58.000
<v Speaker 1>documentary Kurta and Courtney, he found this guy through like

1:14:58.120 --> 1:15:02.400
<v Speaker 1>a really shady weird He was like talking to two dudes,

1:15:02.520 --> 1:15:05.200
<v Speaker 1>one of whom refused to show his face on camera,

1:15:06.800 --> 1:15:09.599
<v Speaker 1>and they were like gonna help him break into where

1:15:09.680 --> 1:15:12.320
<v Speaker 1>Courtney was recording so they could get an interview, and

1:15:12.479 --> 1:15:17.800
<v Speaker 1>like it was really really kind of like weird stuff. Yeah,

1:15:17.920 --> 1:15:20.360
<v Speaker 1>and then they said, oh, actually we know this guy

1:15:21.120 --> 1:15:25.360
<v Speaker 1>who says that um Courtney offered to pay money, So

1:15:25.520 --> 1:15:28.360
<v Speaker 1>like let's go down there and just see to kill

1:15:28.640 --> 1:15:33.559
<v Speaker 1>to kill Cobain. Yeah. Uh. And his name was l Duce,

1:15:33.640 --> 1:15:37.320
<v Speaker 1>again not his real name. He was the lead singer

1:15:37.400 --> 1:15:42.080
<v Speaker 1>of a band called the Mentors, and he was also, uh,

1:15:42.400 --> 1:15:46.799
<v Speaker 1>totally a drunk when Broomfield interviewed him at his property

1:15:46.840 --> 1:15:51.000
<v Speaker 1>in California. He was super drunk. Oh, he was so loaded.

1:15:51.160 --> 1:15:53.280
<v Speaker 1>He was so loaded in fact, that he offered to

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<v Speaker 1>provide more information if they got him some more beer.

1:15:57.040 --> 1:16:03.320
<v Speaker 1>That's how drunk he was. But he like nonchalantly mentions

1:16:03.560 --> 1:16:07.840
<v Speaker 1>that Love offered him fifty dollars to kill Colbain. Uh.

1:16:07.960 --> 1:16:09.920
<v Speaker 1>He said he turned it down, but that his friend,

1:16:10.080 --> 1:16:13.160
<v Speaker 1>quote Alan, had done it. I've done some digging, and

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<v Speaker 1>the guy that he's talking about is apparently a guy

1:16:15.680 --> 1:16:18.840
<v Speaker 1>called Alan Wrench, which probably is not this guy's real name,

1:16:19.640 --> 1:16:22.400
<v Speaker 1>who used to play for a band called Road Horror,

1:16:22.520 --> 1:16:26.000
<v Speaker 1>which basically didn't exist, or at least I literally can't

1:16:26.000 --> 1:16:29.800
<v Speaker 1>find any bit of it online either way. I've read

1:16:30.040 --> 1:16:32.519
<v Speaker 1>a few things about this, mostly on Reddit, so take

1:16:32.560 --> 1:16:35.560
<v Speaker 1>it with a grain of salt, please, where somebody on

1:16:35.640 --> 1:16:38.920
<v Speaker 1>Reddit claims to have been friends with both El Duce

1:16:39.439 --> 1:16:43.519
<v Speaker 1>and Alan, and this user claims that l d would

1:16:43.560 --> 1:16:45.439
<v Speaker 1>never hurt anybody for money, but that Alan was a

1:16:45.520 --> 1:16:47.960
<v Speaker 1>jerk and would totally kill somebody. Well, there we go,

1:16:48.120 --> 1:16:53.960
<v Speaker 1>concrete evidence. Who was sent by Ikea because he was

1:16:54.080 --> 1:16:57.000
<v Speaker 1>the wrong size for the piece of furniture that somebody bought. Well,

1:16:57.040 --> 1:16:59.679
<v Speaker 1>so was the thing nobody would give this guy, even

1:16:59.800 --> 1:17:03.000
<v Speaker 1>like moments thought, except for that two days after l

1:17:03.080 --> 1:17:06.640
<v Speaker 1>Ducha gave his interview interview to Broomfield. He ended up

1:17:06.720 --> 1:17:12.519
<v Speaker 1>dead by getting hit by a train. Um, so, I

1:17:12.560 --> 1:17:15.920
<v Speaker 1>mean that's kind of the big question mark. His death

1:17:16.080 --> 1:17:19.960
<v Speaker 1>was ruled accidental by police. And apparently l Ducha did

1:17:20.040 --> 1:17:22.760
<v Speaker 1>have a track record of people needing to babysit him

1:17:22.960 --> 1:17:25.519
<v Speaker 1>when he was dumb, because when he was drunk, because

1:17:25.560 --> 1:17:28.360
<v Speaker 1>he would do stupid things. But the train he was

1:17:28.439 --> 1:17:30.000
<v Speaker 1>hit by was kind of near his house, so that

1:17:30.439 --> 1:17:33.080
<v Speaker 1>makes sense. But in this read a threat again, take

1:17:33.080 --> 1:17:35.479
<v Speaker 1>it with a grain of salt. This guy says that

1:17:35.880 --> 1:17:38.560
<v Speaker 1>l Duch was hanging out with a friend, Um and

1:17:38.800 --> 1:17:42.160
<v Speaker 1>other member of the Mentors, which, by the way, their band. Yeah,

1:17:42.240 --> 1:17:48.240
<v Speaker 1>the band called Sicky wife Beater, which really great names

1:17:48.600 --> 1:17:53.559
<v Speaker 1>white trash actually white trash. That's not fair to white trash.

1:17:53.880 --> 1:17:56.160
<v Speaker 1>Actually do you did you ever read any of the

1:17:56.360 --> 1:17:59.000
<v Speaker 1>lyrics to some of the I did not because I

1:17:59.040 --> 1:18:01.120
<v Speaker 1>didn't want to subject to my up to it. Holy

1:18:01.479 --> 1:18:07.400
<v Speaker 1>how it's Yeah. So apparently Alan shows up, um when

1:18:07.680 --> 1:18:10.760
<v Speaker 1>l Duch is hanging out with Sicky wife Beater, and um,

1:18:10.920 --> 1:18:13.920
<v Speaker 1>he was angry that al Douche had said some stuff

1:18:13.960 --> 1:18:17.439
<v Speaker 1>on the movie. How he two days after he gave

1:18:17.479 --> 1:18:19.599
<v Speaker 1>an interview, how he found out that l do had

1:18:19.640 --> 1:18:23.400
<v Speaker 1>like said those things. Who knows, that's easy. That's the

1:18:23.479 --> 1:18:27.320
<v Speaker 1>grape vine have you have you. I have spent enough

1:18:27.439 --> 1:18:32.880
<v Speaker 1>time with drunks and folks of that ilk that the

1:18:33.000 --> 1:18:36.000
<v Speaker 1>grape vibe people just sit around and they love to

1:18:36.160 --> 1:18:39.360
<v Speaker 1>tell what the what other people did. And I can

1:18:39.479 --> 1:18:42.479
<v Speaker 1>just see that getting back to if this really happened.

1:18:42.840 --> 1:18:44.720
<v Speaker 1>I'm not saying this is really happening, but I can

1:18:44.760 --> 1:18:48.240
<v Speaker 1>see it very easily, getting back to the guy lightning

1:18:48.439 --> 1:18:52.519
<v Speaker 1>fast and he coming over the next day and confronting him. Yeah,

1:18:52.880 --> 1:18:56.240
<v Speaker 1>so that's I mean, the story goes that Alan shows up,

1:18:56.600 --> 1:19:00.240
<v Speaker 1>he's annoyed, they leave together, and then they could be

1:19:00.360 --> 1:19:03.320
<v Speaker 1>morning to continue the interview. Yeah, and the next morning

1:19:03.360 --> 1:19:06.240
<v Speaker 1>I'll do winds up hit by a train. You know,

1:19:06.280 --> 1:19:08.439
<v Speaker 1>I gotta tell you, I uh, I was gonna murder

1:19:08.560 --> 1:19:10.640
<v Speaker 1>somebody getting a run over by a train with that

1:19:10.880 --> 1:19:13.040
<v Speaker 1>myself getting run over to it just seems like a

1:19:13.120 --> 1:19:15.040
<v Speaker 1>tough way to do it. It seems like there's easier ways,

1:19:16.080 --> 1:19:18.360
<v Speaker 1>not if they're drunk. I was, yeah, I was gonna say,

1:19:18.400 --> 1:19:21.639
<v Speaker 1>now you know the train track, let's walk this way. Hey,

1:19:21.760 --> 1:19:26.120
<v Speaker 1>come on, drunkie McGhee. Um, look, there's training mctrain face

1:19:26.280 --> 1:19:30.519
<v Speaker 1>going by right now and shove. Oh you're getting sleepy.

1:19:30.680 --> 1:19:35.000
<v Speaker 1>This is a great place from you. I mean, it's

1:19:35.040 --> 1:19:38.040
<v Speaker 1>not nice. Um, I don't really believe it, although I

1:19:38.120 --> 1:19:39.720
<v Speaker 1>will say it is. I get like, you know, it's

1:19:40.040 --> 1:19:41.479
<v Speaker 1>one of those things where it's like, it is a

1:19:41.600 --> 1:19:45.120
<v Speaker 1>little weird that two days after he said he totally

1:19:45.200 --> 1:19:47.880
<v Speaker 1>knew who killed Kurt Cobain and made it look like

1:19:47.960 --> 1:19:51.280
<v Speaker 1>an accident or or a suicide. Uh, he shows up

1:19:51.400 --> 1:19:55.200
<v Speaker 1>dead by a mysterious getting hit by train accident and

1:19:55.280 --> 1:19:58.439
<v Speaker 1>then the internet's favorite kind of coincidence it is. Yeah,

1:19:58.560 --> 1:20:01.479
<v Speaker 1>and it's one of mine too. Actually, actually pretty cool that,

1:20:01.960 --> 1:20:04.040
<v Speaker 1>you know, you would think that Alan Ranch would have

1:20:04.080 --> 1:20:06.559
<v Speaker 1>gone and baited visit to Nick Broomfield. It's cameraman too.

1:20:06.680 --> 1:20:08.880
<v Speaker 1>You would think he did know how to get a

1:20:08.920 --> 1:20:13.719
<v Speaker 1>hold of him. Broomfield was up and down the West Coast. Yeah,

1:20:14.040 --> 1:20:16.519
<v Speaker 1>I don't know so. Um. One of the other people

1:20:16.560 --> 1:20:18.280
<v Speaker 1>that could have done it, I guess is the nanny Calli.

1:20:18.560 --> 1:20:21.439
<v Speaker 1>So we're under our next suspect. Yeah, I don't think

1:20:21.520 --> 1:20:23.840
<v Speaker 1>Calli probably did it, but I guess there's something to

1:20:23.920 --> 1:20:26.040
<v Speaker 1>be said of like maybe they were getting high together.

1:20:27.040 --> 1:20:30.400
<v Speaker 1>I don't really Okay, Yeah, I was gonna say this again.

1:20:30.520 --> 1:20:33.360
<v Speaker 1>I was actually surprised that he is not as much

1:20:33.520 --> 1:20:37.160
<v Speaker 1>of a suspect as he is. I really expected people

1:20:37.160 --> 1:20:40.200
<v Speaker 1>to be like I could totally see those two in

1:20:40.400 --> 1:20:46.320
<v Speaker 1>the Greenhouse using and then something happening and CALLI being like,

1:20:47.320 --> 1:20:52.639
<v Speaker 1>I gotta go, oh crap. I mean, I can see

1:20:52.720 --> 1:20:55.880
<v Speaker 1>this very easily being the case. Yeah, but I just

1:20:56.160 --> 1:21:00.320
<v Speaker 1>don't know. Yeah, yeah, I can't see it myself. I

1:21:00.479 --> 1:21:02.680
<v Speaker 1>can't either. But I don't know anything about Callie's well,

1:21:02.720 --> 1:21:04.800
<v Speaker 1>I don't know anything about Callie either, But I mean

1:21:04.840 --> 1:21:08.519
<v Speaker 1>I just know that I think Callie and what was

1:21:08.600 --> 1:21:10.960
<v Speaker 1>he the guy who bought the Dylan, both of them,

1:21:11.080 --> 1:21:15.479
<v Speaker 1>I think they lived off of the Cobain money for

1:21:15.600 --> 1:21:19.200
<v Speaker 1>a long time after Kurt was gone through Courtney, she

1:21:19.320 --> 1:21:22.720
<v Speaker 1>supported them. So I'm sure that if something happened and

1:21:22.800 --> 1:21:26.000
<v Speaker 1>it was an accident, I could see him going, oh god,

1:21:26.479 --> 1:21:30.400
<v Speaker 1>I just did this. Oh God, I am so screwed

1:21:30.400 --> 1:21:33.280
<v Speaker 1>because I can't afford this much heroin and I had

1:21:33.360 --> 1:21:37.439
<v Speaker 1>this great gig going on and I'm just gonna walk

1:21:37.439 --> 1:21:39.680
<v Speaker 1>out of the room and I wasn't here, yea, So

1:21:39.840 --> 1:21:41.280
<v Speaker 1>it was yeah, well, yeah, I saw he was playing

1:21:41.320 --> 1:21:44.040
<v Speaker 1>with the shock Enny blue Kurt's head off, or they

1:21:44.080 --> 1:21:46.559
<v Speaker 1>were screwed or arguing or whatever. I mean, because there

1:21:46.720 --> 1:21:49.360
<v Speaker 1>is the letter that was left on the stairs that

1:21:50.280 --> 1:21:53.519
<v Speaker 1>Grant Tom Grant, Yeah, from Cali. The Tom Grant says

1:21:53.800 --> 1:21:57.400
<v Speaker 1>was a forgery of some kind. There's all kinds of

1:21:58.520 --> 1:22:00.960
<v Speaker 1>machinations about it. But the point is he wrote a

1:22:01.080 --> 1:22:04.439
<v Speaker 1>letter and it wasn't all that positive to Kurt, and

1:22:04.560 --> 1:22:08.240
<v Speaker 1>he could have done that after the fact, going I

1:22:09.120 --> 1:22:12.320
<v Speaker 1>was there, let's do this thing to direct suspicion weight

1:22:12.360 --> 1:22:15.799
<v Speaker 1>for me. I guess the only again, I'm playing Devil's

1:22:17.400 --> 1:22:19.760
<v Speaker 1>here totally absolutely, But I think like the problem I

1:22:19.840 --> 1:22:22.599
<v Speaker 1>have with that is that it was It's totally reasonable

1:22:22.680 --> 1:22:25.200
<v Speaker 1>for Callie to have found the body. You know, like

1:22:25.320 --> 1:22:29.160
<v Speaker 1>if you if that happened, you like wait a day, right,

1:22:29.479 --> 1:22:31.200
<v Speaker 1>and then you call the cops and you say, oh

1:22:31.240 --> 1:22:35.480
<v Speaker 1>my god, I just found my employer's body. That implies

1:22:36.360 --> 1:22:42.160
<v Speaker 1>logical raps sober sober thinking. You're right, that's true when

1:22:42.280 --> 1:22:46.360
<v Speaker 1>you are do use. We don't know that CALLI was

1:22:46.439 --> 1:22:51.920
<v Speaker 1>using at all. Yeah, Keli was totally in in the

1:22:52.160 --> 1:22:54.719
<v Speaker 1>on the team. How how is it to you hire

1:22:54.800 --> 1:22:58.720
<v Speaker 1>a nanny for your daughter because it's your friend. You

1:22:58.800 --> 1:23:02.120
<v Speaker 1>want to help her love. Yeah, if you want to

1:23:02.200 --> 1:23:04.880
<v Speaker 1>help your friends, so you help your friend out. And

1:23:04.920 --> 1:23:07.320
<v Speaker 1>you just know usual while you're watching the kid, your

1:23:07.360 --> 1:23:10.120
<v Speaker 1>girlfriend can get high. But you, I mean, people do

1:23:10.240 --> 1:23:13.200
<v Speaker 1>this kind of weird stuff all the time. So that's

1:23:13.200 --> 1:23:18.439
<v Speaker 1>why I say that it's completely plausible. Okay, here's just

1:23:18.560 --> 1:23:21.160
<v Speaker 1>one more interesting thing before we start talking about maybe

1:23:21.240 --> 1:23:25.800
<v Speaker 1>it was suicide. Courtney Love alleged that Kurt Cobain was

1:23:25.880 --> 1:23:29.160
<v Speaker 1>having an affair, specifically that he was having an affair

1:23:29.240 --> 1:23:33.719
<v Speaker 1>with Um, the bassis of Love's band Hole Um, whose

1:23:33.800 --> 1:23:36.719
<v Speaker 1>name was Kristen Faff, and at the very least, Faff

1:23:36.760 --> 1:23:39.120
<v Speaker 1>and Cobain were very good friends. I don't know if

1:23:39.160 --> 1:23:41.720
<v Speaker 1>they were having an affair or not, but um, I

1:23:41.760 --> 1:23:45.839
<v Speaker 1>don't think we'll ever know. Uh. She, like almost everybody

1:23:45.880 --> 1:23:48.879
<v Speaker 1>else in this entire story, had a pretty strong heroin addiction.

1:23:49.720 --> 1:23:53.000
<v Speaker 1>She had gone to detox in February of um and

1:23:53.080 --> 1:23:56.720
<v Speaker 1>she was reportedly clean, but took Cobain's death really, really hard,

1:23:56.840 --> 1:23:59.760
<v Speaker 1>as you can imagine a close friend or potentially lover

1:24:00.240 --> 1:24:04.360
<v Speaker 1>who knows dies in kind of a brutal, violent way. Um,

1:24:04.760 --> 1:24:08.080
<v Speaker 1>she quit whole and decided to move back to Minneapolis,

1:24:08.120 --> 1:24:10.280
<v Speaker 1>where she was originally from. She was living in Seattle

1:24:10.320 --> 1:24:12.719
<v Speaker 1>at the time. Well that's where the scene was. Yeah,

1:24:13.120 --> 1:24:15.920
<v Speaker 1>that's that's where well, that's where hole was whole all

1:24:15.960 --> 1:24:22.880
<v Speaker 1>live together, that's where Seattle. Yeah. On June sixteenth night, however,

1:24:23.080 --> 1:24:25.680
<v Speaker 1>she was found dead of a heroin overdose in her

1:24:25.680 --> 1:24:31.200
<v Speaker 1>apartment in Seattle. Well, I mean that a lot of

1:24:31.240 --> 1:24:34.240
<v Speaker 1>people do think this death was pretty suspicious. Even fast

1:24:34.400 --> 1:24:37.400
<v Speaker 1>family feels that her death wasn't a suicide or an

1:24:37.439 --> 1:24:40.080
<v Speaker 1>accidental overdose. They think there was some foul play involved.

1:24:40.479 --> 1:24:43.599
<v Speaker 1>And yeah, every time I hear about some junkie turning

1:24:43.680 --> 1:24:46.400
<v Speaker 1>up dead of an overdose. Yeah, yeah. She had reportedly

1:24:46.479 --> 1:24:49.160
<v Speaker 1>been like successfully clean for those months. And again, you know,

1:24:49.240 --> 1:24:50.880
<v Speaker 1>it's like she was in Seattle, she was with her friends.

1:24:51.360 --> 1:24:54.760
<v Speaker 1>She's probably using again. Um, but that's the same thing

1:24:54.840 --> 1:24:56.800
<v Speaker 1>that I talked about before, those that if you're off

1:24:56.840 --> 1:24:59.280
<v Speaker 1>of it for a while and you're like, hey, I

1:24:59.400 --> 1:25:03.840
<v Speaker 1>can take three CC's no problem, I don't know, and

1:25:03.920 --> 1:25:06.240
<v Speaker 1>it doesn't work, and then that's what puts you in

1:25:06.320 --> 1:25:09.000
<v Speaker 1>the ground. I thought one website very eloquently put it

1:25:09.200 --> 1:25:11.920
<v Speaker 1>that both fat and Cobain were in the process of

1:25:12.040 --> 1:25:18.320
<v Speaker 1>leaving Love. It's I mean, it's true. Yeah, that's very true.

1:25:18.400 --> 1:25:20.920
<v Speaker 1>They were both leaving her and standing in her way

1:25:21.000 --> 1:25:24.639
<v Speaker 1>of a lot of success and money. Basically, Um, but that's,

1:25:24.920 --> 1:25:28.880
<v Speaker 1>you know, just one one person theory. Next up, let's

1:25:28.880 --> 1:25:32.200
<v Speaker 1>talk a little bit about the number two, number two

1:25:32.240 --> 1:25:35.200
<v Speaker 1>super number two. He had a number two suicide in

1:25:35.280 --> 1:25:40.879
<v Speaker 1>this eighteen hour episode. In an interview one of Cobain's friends,

1:25:41.240 --> 1:25:43.120
<v Speaker 1>I got to be honest, I do not recall which

1:25:43.200 --> 1:25:47.880
<v Speaker 1>one said that if Courtney Love didn't kill or have

1:25:48.800 --> 1:25:52.360
<v Speaker 1>Cobain killed, that she drove him to it. And I

1:25:52.479 --> 1:25:55.800
<v Speaker 1>think I don't really like Courtney Love very much. It

1:25:55.920 --> 1:25:59.200
<v Speaker 1>may may not be coming across, but I don't really

1:25:59.439 --> 1:26:01.840
<v Speaker 1>like her very much. I think that she wanted a

1:26:01.920 --> 1:26:04.880
<v Speaker 1>lot of things that Colbain did not want. I think

1:26:05.120 --> 1:26:08.960
<v Speaker 1>she was really worried about the money in the relationship,

1:26:09.080 --> 1:26:11.960
<v Speaker 1>the fame and the relationship. I think she wanted a

1:26:12.040 --> 1:26:14.000
<v Speaker 1>lot of things and was trying to push him to

1:26:14.160 --> 1:26:16.360
<v Speaker 1>do a lot of things that he didn't necessarily want

1:26:16.400 --> 1:26:18.720
<v Speaker 1>to do. I mean, you know, case in points, she

1:26:18.840 --> 1:26:22.080
<v Speaker 1>really did not approve of him, like canceling, lollapalooza, Yah,

1:26:22.560 --> 1:26:25.400
<v Speaker 1>she really did not a lot of money. She really

1:26:25.439 --> 1:26:28.439
<v Speaker 1>did not approve of him, like not having Nirvana be

1:26:28.520 --> 1:26:32.520
<v Speaker 1>a thing anymore. Yeah, I think that she was very controlling.

1:26:32.600 --> 1:26:35.639
<v Speaker 1>I mean of her referred to as a harpie before,

1:26:36.400 --> 1:26:40.080
<v Speaker 1>which I will not disagree to a point. Seems to

1:26:40.160 --> 1:26:43.000
<v Speaker 1>be an accurate description of her behavior at the time.

1:26:43.760 --> 1:26:46.040
<v Speaker 1>And I'm not I'm not saying that's her or the

1:26:46.160 --> 1:26:50.320
<v Speaker 1>drugs or what, but you know what I mean, it's

1:26:50.360 --> 1:26:53.000
<v Speaker 1>easy to to point the finger after the fact. It's

1:26:53.040 --> 1:26:57.400
<v Speaker 1>the same thing as as the he was suicidal in Rome. Yeah,

1:26:57.600 --> 1:27:02.160
<v Speaker 1>it's easy to say after fact, look at how controlling

1:27:02.360 --> 1:27:05.439
<v Speaker 1>she Wasn't all these things she did that drove him

1:27:05.479 --> 1:27:08.840
<v Speaker 1>to do. Yeah, I mean it's it's it's turned the

1:27:08.920 --> 1:27:11.280
<v Speaker 1>coin which way you want. Well, I guess you know.

1:27:11.400 --> 1:27:13.680
<v Speaker 1>One of the things I'll point out is that she

1:27:13.840 --> 1:27:17.320
<v Speaker 1>hired a private detective to find Kurt and then play games,

1:27:17.680 --> 1:27:21.280
<v Speaker 1>and well, she stayed in l A. She knew Cobain

1:27:21.439 --> 1:27:23.960
<v Speaker 1>was in Seattle, but she stayed in l A because

1:27:24.000 --> 1:27:26.400
<v Speaker 1>she said she had business to take care of down there.

1:27:26.840 --> 1:27:29.960
<v Speaker 1>If you really thought that your husband was like suicidal

1:27:30.200 --> 1:27:32.960
<v Speaker 1>and like on a bender, if you knew in what

1:27:33.120 --> 1:27:35.000
<v Speaker 1>city he was in. Would you just be like, you

1:27:35.040 --> 1:27:36.600
<v Speaker 1>know what, I'm just gonna stay here though, I'm not

1:27:36.640 --> 1:27:38.559
<v Speaker 1>going to go up there. And yeah, I can find

1:27:38.640 --> 1:27:42.519
<v Speaker 1>again rational sober thinking. But also, you know, she did

1:27:42.600 --> 1:27:45.920
<v Speaker 1>hire a private detective. I mean, it's certain amount of

1:27:45.920 --> 1:27:47.840
<v Speaker 1>expense to go to to try to track down your

1:27:48.160 --> 1:27:52.679
<v Speaker 1>potentially suicidal husband. She did. Yeah, so I mean, you know, again,

1:27:52.760 --> 1:27:55.120
<v Speaker 1>it's flipped of a coin either way. I I think

1:27:55.160 --> 1:27:57.200
<v Speaker 1>it's likely that she wanted a lot from her life

1:27:57.240 --> 1:27:59.519
<v Speaker 1>that Cobain didn't. And it does sound like they were

1:27:59.560 --> 1:28:01.920
<v Speaker 1>in the process us of they're at least in a

1:28:02.000 --> 1:28:06.519
<v Speaker 1>rough patch. She tried to get into movies after she wasn't.

1:28:08.200 --> 1:28:10.439
<v Speaker 1>She did at least one vie. I thought she did

1:28:10.520 --> 1:28:12.840
<v Speaker 1>one or two movies after she cleaned up. I mean,

1:28:12.960 --> 1:28:19.200
<v Speaker 1>she really was striving for that music Hollywood fame model.

1:28:19.320 --> 1:28:22.800
<v Speaker 1>And it sounds like and it sounds like Cobain really

1:28:22.880 --> 1:28:25.240
<v Speaker 1>did not like that. He wanted to live a totally

1:28:25.280 --> 1:28:29.000
<v Speaker 1>different life. And so, you know, who can say what

1:28:29.240 --> 1:28:32.680
<v Speaker 1>causes somebody to kill themselves. But I'm not saying that

1:28:32.800 --> 1:28:36.400
<v Speaker 1>she helped the situation at all. But I'm also not

1:28:36.520 --> 1:28:39.920
<v Speaker 1>saying he's she's responsible either. Yeah, Cobain. So here's some

1:28:40.240 --> 1:28:42.719
<v Speaker 1>like we're just kind of listing off, sorry, like reasons

1:28:42.800 --> 1:28:45.879
<v Speaker 1>that he might have killed himself. Cobain had been apparently

1:28:45.960 --> 1:28:48.560
<v Speaker 1>trying to get clean for a while. He'd gone to

1:28:48.720 --> 1:28:51.200
<v Speaker 1>rehab and detox a number of times and it had

1:28:51.240 --> 1:28:53.640
<v Speaker 1>never stuck. So it's possible that he just hit a

1:28:53.680 --> 1:28:55.920
<v Speaker 1>point where he was like, this is never gonna work.

1:28:55.960 --> 1:28:57.479
<v Speaker 1>I'm going to live my life as an addict and

1:28:57.560 --> 1:28:59.120
<v Speaker 1>that's just dumb and I don't want to do it.

1:28:59.439 --> 1:29:01.519
<v Speaker 1>And I'm noting that as like that's what I think

1:29:01.720 --> 1:29:04.800
<v Speaker 1>people should be feeling. I'm saying that as that's something

1:29:04.880 --> 1:29:08.840
<v Speaker 1>that I've read from people talking about interpretation. No, no, no,

1:29:08.960 --> 1:29:12.880
<v Speaker 1>I mean like people who are actual in recovery saying

1:29:13.080 --> 1:29:14.960
<v Speaker 1>I hit a point in my life where I thought

1:29:15.080 --> 1:29:17.960
<v Speaker 1>this isn't worth living. I can't do this, I can't

1:29:18.000 --> 1:29:20.040
<v Speaker 1>ever get clean, and it's not worth living if I

1:29:20.120 --> 1:29:22.400
<v Speaker 1>can't get clean, and then trying to kill themselves and

1:29:22.439 --> 1:29:26.760
<v Speaker 1>obviously being unsuccessful and eventually being successful in recovering. But

1:29:27.800 --> 1:29:30.680
<v Speaker 1>that's a that's a fairly common thought with like very

1:29:30.720 --> 1:29:33.720
<v Speaker 1>heavy addicts of certain things. I can see that, you know,

1:29:34.120 --> 1:29:36.479
<v Speaker 1>you realize the necessity to get clean, but you realize

1:29:36.479 --> 1:29:38.640
<v Speaker 1>at the same time it's like your life as a

1:29:38.760 --> 1:29:42.880
<v Speaker 1>non high person is like just kind of like hell, well,

1:29:42.920 --> 1:29:45.439
<v Speaker 1>if that or I mean if that or that, you

1:29:45.560 --> 1:29:47.360
<v Speaker 1>will never like, if you've tried to get clean a

1:29:47.439 --> 1:29:49.360
<v Speaker 1>number of times and it keeps not working, you may

1:29:49.439 --> 1:29:52.280
<v Speaker 1>just think it's never gonna happen. I'm always going to

1:29:52.360 --> 1:29:55.400
<v Speaker 1>be addicted to heroin. I may as well just kill myself.

1:29:56.160 --> 1:29:59.600
<v Speaker 1>You know, Yeah, there's a well, there's a is not

1:29:59.640 --> 1:30:05.080
<v Speaker 1>the only addiction. I mean, addictions in general causes that

1:30:05.920 --> 1:30:09.599
<v Speaker 1>reaction or the thought process, and then I guess another

1:30:10.280 --> 1:30:12.360
<v Speaker 1>thing to bring up. Um, I know, I you know,

1:30:12.439 --> 1:30:15.519
<v Speaker 1>I've been harping on the He wasn't suicidal. He wasn't suicidal.

1:30:15.520 --> 1:30:18.240
<v Speaker 1>They weren't suicide attempts. But you know what, maybe he was.

1:30:18.840 --> 1:30:21.000
<v Speaker 1>Maybe he actually did try to kill himself in Rome.

1:30:21.040 --> 1:30:22.960
<v Speaker 1>Maybe he actually did try to kill himself in his

1:30:23.040 --> 1:30:25.519
<v Speaker 1>house in Seattle and March eighteenth, but they were trying

1:30:25.560 --> 1:30:30.679
<v Speaker 1>to cover it up because I mean, it's totally possible

1:30:30.800 --> 1:30:34.559
<v Speaker 1>that he was suicidal and that at every turn, every attempt,

1:30:34.840 --> 1:30:38.720
<v Speaker 1>there was just a pr push to say no, no, no, no, no,

1:30:39.080 --> 1:30:42.400
<v Speaker 1>he's not suicidal. These are all accidents because you don't

1:30:42.439 --> 1:30:44.880
<v Speaker 1>like who what publicist in this world is like, yeah,

1:30:44.920 --> 1:30:47.440
<v Speaker 1>it's totally fine to tell everybody that my client is suicidal,

1:30:47.600 --> 1:30:51.519
<v Speaker 1>and you know, like that's not that's not good. So

1:30:51.640 --> 1:30:54.840
<v Speaker 1>it's it's certainly possible. The police report did say he

1:30:54.920 --> 1:30:57.560
<v Speaker 1>said he wasn't suicidal, but like maybe he realized that

1:30:57.640 --> 1:31:00.000
<v Speaker 1>it Like you don't tell a police officer I'm suicide.

1:31:00.560 --> 1:31:03.000
<v Speaker 1>Yeah yeah, they all will take you to jail, they'll

1:31:03.040 --> 1:31:07.160
<v Speaker 1>lock you up, they'll put health Yeah yeah. Well here's why.

1:31:07.360 --> 1:31:10.080
<v Speaker 1>I'm sure Courtney Love did not murder him or have

1:31:10.160 --> 1:31:13.519
<v Speaker 1>him murdered, and she didn't have to hit the hand strength.

1:31:13.880 --> 1:31:17.720
<v Speaker 1>Well yeah, I don't. I don't believe el Duch who

1:31:17.920 --> 1:31:21.240
<v Speaker 1>you know about the offer or anything like that. And

1:31:21.640 --> 1:31:24.360
<v Speaker 1>the thing about it is is Courtney Um is the

1:31:24.400 --> 1:31:27.200
<v Speaker 1>one who initiated the intervention to try to get him

1:31:27.200 --> 1:31:31.080
<v Speaker 1>cleaned up. And I gotta tell you, if you're planning

1:31:31.120 --> 1:31:34.519
<v Speaker 1>on murdering your husband, if you want him dead, why

1:31:34.560 --> 1:31:36.560
<v Speaker 1>would you want to get him off heroin I'd be

1:31:36.600 --> 1:31:38.800
<v Speaker 1>the last thing in the world you would do. Yeah, absolutely, yeah.

1:31:39.120 --> 1:31:41.240
<v Speaker 1>I mean if I had been and she's obviously was,

1:31:41.360 --> 1:31:44.519
<v Speaker 1>she was a drug. She had good connections street hair

1:31:44.640 --> 1:31:47.479
<v Speaker 1>when it was like what maybe at the most, and

1:31:47.680 --> 1:31:49.880
<v Speaker 1>she probably had the connections to get some really super

1:31:49.920 --> 1:31:52.720
<v Speaker 1>pure stuff she could just Maybe that's why he had

1:31:52.760 --> 1:31:54.200
<v Speaker 1>so much of his names. Maybe she did try to

1:31:54.240 --> 1:31:58.000
<v Speaker 1>kill him. Maybe she got some super pure stuff swapped

1:31:58.040 --> 1:31:59.800
<v Speaker 1>it in with his and that's how we wanted was

1:31:59.840 --> 1:32:01.880
<v Speaker 1>so much. Heroin is his system. But I think more

1:32:01.960 --> 1:32:03.920
<v Speaker 1>likely he was planning on killing himself and he thought

1:32:03.920 --> 1:32:05.639
<v Speaker 1>he'd just go out on the floating on the greatest

1:32:05.720 --> 1:32:08.120
<v Speaker 1>high ever is what I think he did. Yeah, but

1:32:08.240 --> 1:32:12.920
<v Speaker 1>to see that, my problem is if he intended to

1:32:13.160 --> 1:32:16.439
<v Speaker 1>do himself in and he was gonna get high ahead

1:32:16.520 --> 1:32:19.880
<v Speaker 1>of time, and it is very common knowledge that people

1:32:20.040 --> 1:32:24.240
<v Speaker 1>can easily o d on heroin, then why bring the

1:32:24.320 --> 1:32:27.040
<v Speaker 1>gun in? Why not just go? You know what, I'm

1:32:27.120 --> 1:32:31.599
<v Speaker 1>just gonna keep pushing the plunger down until I don't

1:32:31.640 --> 1:32:33.960
<v Speaker 1>wake up again and I can I still move my hand,

1:32:34.000 --> 1:32:37.599
<v Speaker 1>and then I'm gonna keep going. I mean, that's certain,

1:32:37.920 --> 1:32:40.200
<v Speaker 1>and it's it's not It's also not dramatic. I mean,

1:32:40.280 --> 1:32:41.920
<v Speaker 1>do you you know he probably asked that to hself

1:32:41.960 --> 1:32:43.479
<v Speaker 1>that I want to be do I want to be

1:32:43.560 --> 1:32:47.519
<v Speaker 1>known as his tormentitor artist who killed himself, or as

1:32:47.600 --> 1:32:51.479
<v Speaker 1>a junkie who's screwed up and ode what do I

1:32:51.520 --> 1:32:54.280
<v Speaker 1>want to be known as? Yeah, And actually it's interesting.

1:32:54.320 --> 1:32:57.240
<v Speaker 1>I don't think that there's any better. I don't think

1:32:57.320 --> 1:32:59.160
<v Speaker 1>one is any better than the other. But that's my

1:32:59.320 --> 1:33:02.080
<v Speaker 1>personal pain. Well, there's a there's a quote from one

1:33:02.120 --> 1:33:03.800
<v Speaker 1>of his friends that says, you know, it was really

1:33:03.920 --> 1:33:06.439
<v Speaker 1>violent death, Like it's that, which is true. I mean,

1:33:06.520 --> 1:33:10.960
<v Speaker 1>you shoot yourself in the face with a shotgun. But

1:33:11.040 --> 1:33:13.439
<v Speaker 1>it was interesting because then this quote that you know,

1:33:13.560 --> 1:33:17.040
<v Speaker 1>his friend was saying, um, that wasn't hurt. It's weird.

1:33:17.160 --> 1:33:19.240
<v Speaker 1>There was no violence in Curt and it's weird that

1:33:19.360 --> 1:33:21.559
<v Speaker 1>he chose to go out that way, which I think

1:33:21.680 --> 1:33:24.880
<v Speaker 1>is a fair thing to say. But I also, I mean,

1:33:25.920 --> 1:33:28.559
<v Speaker 1>you pass out before you die from heroin, I mean,

1:33:28.640 --> 1:33:30.680
<v Speaker 1>you just do right. And so if you're trying to

1:33:30.760 --> 1:33:34.280
<v Speaker 1>kill yourself like by Odee, there's it's not certain that

1:33:34.360 --> 1:33:36.560
<v Speaker 1>you're going to die. You might just wake up and

1:33:37.080 --> 1:33:39.960
<v Speaker 1>be living in hell, right, as opposed to if you

1:33:40.479 --> 1:33:42.439
<v Speaker 1>stick a shotgun in your mouth and pull the trigger,

1:33:42.640 --> 1:33:46.080
<v Speaker 1>you're probably gonna die, especially if you've taken a bunch

1:33:46.120 --> 1:33:49.680
<v Speaker 1>of heroin. I mean, it's just it's certainty, you know,

1:33:49.920 --> 1:33:54.400
<v Speaker 1>it's that backup plan. But I hear it again. I again,

1:33:54.720 --> 1:33:57.840
<v Speaker 1>if if I don't want to belabor this, it's just

1:33:57.960 --> 1:33:59.840
<v Speaker 1>that I think if the guy wanted to get hot

1:34:00.479 --> 1:34:03.880
<v Speaker 1>before he did it, then why not just get so

1:34:04.240 --> 1:34:08.280
<v Speaker 1>high that you go out and you don't have to

1:34:08.520 --> 1:34:13.000
<v Speaker 1>lift a finger. He could have been close, Frankly, I mean,

1:34:13.080 --> 1:34:14.640
<v Speaker 1>you know, we don't know what his tolerance was, so

1:34:14.720 --> 1:34:16.760
<v Speaker 1>he could have been really close to being that high.

1:34:17.960 --> 1:34:21.439
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, but I do think that it's pretty

1:34:21.479 --> 1:34:24.200
<v Speaker 1>definitive that he was not murdered. Well, I think I

1:34:24.320 --> 1:34:27.160
<v Speaker 1>think either way, I can see the arguments of a side.

1:34:27.240 --> 1:34:29.479
<v Speaker 1>That's that's my problem with this case. That's why I

1:34:29.560 --> 1:34:31.320
<v Speaker 1>didn't throw up the red flag of why are we

1:34:31.400 --> 1:34:34.320
<v Speaker 1>doing this? Is because I can see the arguments whether

1:34:34.439 --> 1:34:38.040
<v Speaker 1>I behind him or not. And I thought it was.

1:34:38.760 --> 1:34:40.439
<v Speaker 1>But the only person who had a motive to murder

1:34:40.520 --> 1:34:44.720
<v Speaker 1>him was Courtney Love as far as I know, Yeah, yeah,

1:34:44.720 --> 1:34:47.880
<v Speaker 1>there you go, Courtney and Courtney again, Courtney would not

1:34:47.920 --> 1:34:49.679
<v Speaker 1>have sent him to rehab if she wanted him dead.

1:34:49.960 --> 1:34:51.360
<v Speaker 1>She I mean, she would have what she would have

1:34:51.400 --> 1:34:52.960
<v Speaker 1>done if she would have waited until he was off

1:34:53.040 --> 1:34:55.800
<v Speaker 1>somewhere in the greenhouse getting you know, shooting up. She

1:34:55.840 --> 1:34:57.320
<v Speaker 1>would have waited until he was kind of like just

1:34:57.520 --> 1:34:59.840
<v Speaker 1>laid back and just sat like oh, and then she

1:35:00.080 --> 1:35:02.320
<v Speaker 1>just would have stepped into the room with the hypodermic

1:35:02.640 --> 1:35:05.200
<v Speaker 1>and shot a whole bunch more haroin into his arm

1:35:05.760 --> 1:35:07.240
<v Speaker 1>and killed him that way. There's no need to use

1:35:07.280 --> 1:35:10.320
<v Speaker 1>a shotgun. She would have let him die in Rome. Yeah,

1:35:10.400 --> 1:35:11.960
<v Speaker 1>she would have let him dye in Rome for that matter.

1:35:12.040 --> 1:35:14.479
<v Speaker 1>I mean, it's just it simply makes no sense that

1:35:14.560 --> 1:35:18.080
<v Speaker 1>Courtney was a murderer. Absolutely not. I've said it before

1:35:18.160 --> 1:35:21.160
<v Speaker 1>and I'll say it again that that implies rational thinking.

1:35:22.200 --> 1:35:25.840
<v Speaker 1>Known enough people who were so irrational that I just

1:35:26.560 --> 1:35:29.240
<v Speaker 1>they're hot and cold. I think for me, the biggest

1:35:29.240 --> 1:35:31.400
<v Speaker 1>thing about this case is that it was such a

1:35:31.800 --> 1:35:36.320
<v Speaker 1>huge failure on the part of the Seattle police. They

1:35:37.040 --> 1:35:42.320
<v Speaker 1>found the body, declared the instantly it was Suicially it

1:35:42.400 --> 1:35:45.800
<v Speaker 1>was a suicide, and they claimed that because the beat

1:35:45.880 --> 1:35:48.720
<v Speaker 1>cop that responded to the call said it kind of

1:35:48.800 --> 1:35:52.360
<v Speaker 1>looked like a suicide, and not like from the mouth

1:35:52.439 --> 1:35:54.360
<v Speaker 1>of the guy who was the police chief at the time.

1:35:54.720 --> 1:35:57.880
<v Speaker 1>He said, well, if the if the guy who responds says,

1:35:57.920 --> 1:36:00.639
<v Speaker 1>it looks like a suicide, and the paramedics, yeah, okay,

1:36:01.240 --> 1:36:03.920
<v Speaker 1>then it's a suicide. They didn't get a talk screen back,

1:36:04.160 --> 1:36:10.519
<v Speaker 1>they didn't get fingerprints back, they didn't process, They did nothing,

1:36:10.920 --> 1:36:14.800
<v Speaker 1>And that I think is probably why this is even

1:36:15.000 --> 1:36:17.960
<v Speaker 1>a case right now. They didn't know who he was.

1:36:18.479 --> 1:36:21.200
<v Speaker 1>He didn't know who he I don't know. I think

1:36:21.240 --> 1:36:23.040
<v Speaker 1>that when they made their decision of what it was,

1:36:23.200 --> 1:36:25.880
<v Speaker 1>they didn't know who he was. To realize that they

1:36:25.960 --> 1:36:28.200
<v Speaker 1>had to do their due diligence before they got their

1:36:28.280 --> 1:36:30.719
<v Speaker 1>ass is handed to. I guess the thing that annoys

1:36:30.800 --> 1:36:34.280
<v Speaker 1>me about that statement is that, like, it shouldn't matter

1:36:34.439 --> 1:36:39.040
<v Speaker 1>who he was. That was they found heroin paraphernalia like

1:36:39.200 --> 1:36:41.400
<v Speaker 1>two feet away from him, he obviously would have had

1:36:41.439 --> 1:36:44.240
<v Speaker 1>track marks. He yes, okay, so there was a shotgun,

1:36:44.720 --> 1:36:46.840
<v Speaker 1>you know, on him, and it looked like a suicide.

1:36:47.080 --> 1:36:49.479
<v Speaker 1>But you at least wait for a talk screen if

1:36:49.520 --> 1:36:51.760
<v Speaker 1>you found drugs in the room, you gotta wait for

1:36:51.840 --> 1:36:54.800
<v Speaker 1>a talk screen before you You just can't declare at

1:36:54.800 --> 1:36:57.439
<v Speaker 1>the scene. And I think for me that's the biggest

1:36:57.479 --> 1:37:01.360
<v Speaker 1>frustration with this case. Whether know, I don't think Courtney

1:37:01.400 --> 1:37:04.400
<v Speaker 1>Love is a particularly good human being, whether I think

1:37:04.520 --> 1:37:07.240
<v Speaker 1>you know anything, the fact that the Seattle Police did

1:37:07.320 --> 1:37:10.720
<v Speaker 1>such a crap job on this is just frustrating as hell.

1:37:12.080 --> 1:37:13.800
<v Speaker 1>I think the other reason that this has gone on

1:37:13.960 --> 1:37:16.880
<v Speaker 1>so long is that there's been so many There's been

1:37:16.960 --> 1:37:19.360
<v Speaker 1>so many things that were thrown into the mix that

1:37:19.600 --> 1:37:24.479
<v Speaker 1>really they're weird, and it's because it's I'm famous slash

1:37:24.720 --> 1:37:28.320
<v Speaker 1>Hollywood slash big rocker guy weird, Like the whole he

1:37:28.479 --> 1:37:32.960
<v Speaker 1>had stomach issues thing that which we're no. Well, you

1:37:33.000 --> 1:37:35.599
<v Speaker 1>know what's funny is that I remember I remember when

1:37:35.680 --> 1:37:39.600
<v Speaker 1>the news came out on MTV news because I was

1:37:39.720 --> 1:37:42.960
<v Speaker 1>at some trip high school trip with a bunch of

1:37:43.040 --> 1:37:46.320
<v Speaker 1>friends and it came out, and I remember one body turning, going,

1:37:46.800 --> 1:37:49.679
<v Speaker 1>you know that he's totally had stomach issues for years

1:37:49.800 --> 1:37:51.800
<v Speaker 1>and like he could barely eat and move, and I'm

1:37:51.840 --> 1:37:54.559
<v Speaker 1>sure that that's totally what did it? Like, those are

1:37:54.600 --> 1:37:56.920
<v Speaker 1>the kind of things that you hear and that's stuck

1:37:57.000 --> 1:37:59.840
<v Speaker 1>with me for decades. You know what, Stomach pains are

1:38:00.000 --> 1:38:05.560
<v Speaker 1>really good sign of withdraw That's a good point, But

1:38:05.640 --> 1:38:07.120
<v Speaker 1>I think we're going on too long. I think I

1:38:07.160 --> 1:38:10.960
<v Speaker 1>think we've already solved the mystery he wasn't murdered, he

1:38:11.040 --> 1:38:15.840
<v Speaker 1>committed suicide. Yeah, I mean I think that's probably true too. Yeah,

1:38:16.320 --> 1:38:18.679
<v Speaker 1>it was suicide. I think there's a lot of stuff

1:38:18.720 --> 1:38:21.599
<v Speaker 1>going on with the case. But the Seattle, the Seattle see,

1:38:21.800 --> 1:38:25.439
<v Speaker 1>the Seattle p D did not do their due diligence.

1:38:25.680 --> 1:38:28.960
<v Speaker 1>They really should have, you know, been a little more.

1:38:30.600 --> 1:38:32.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm sure they looked into it a bit, and then

1:38:32.040 --> 1:38:33.800
<v Speaker 1>they went back to that police report. They know he

1:38:33.880 --> 1:38:37.040
<v Speaker 1>was locked in the bedroom and suicidal, and then Courtney says, oh, yeah,

1:38:37.040 --> 1:38:39.400
<v Speaker 1>he tried to give it suicide in Italy, you know,

1:38:39.680 --> 1:38:41.639
<v Speaker 1>and so that was probably for them all they needed.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think they even did that much, to be honest.

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<v Speaker 1>It might not be, but you know, that's that's just

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<v Speaker 1>the way it is, you know, with you know those

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<v Speaker 1>guys have you know, I mean we all cut corners, right, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>it happens except with the podcast. Yeah, but everybody cats corners.

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<v Speaker 1>So they were just like you. And then there's always

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<v Speaker 1>this group think and you just sort of get into

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<v Speaker 1>that whole, like, you know, everybody thinks it's suicide. I

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<v Speaker 1>guess it's suicide. So yeah, but in this case, I

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<v Speaker 1>think it was. Yeah, I agree, everything seems to point

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<v Speaker 1>that way. Yeah, it's just you know, frustrating. Yeah yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>so yeah, anyway, I've got more theories, but I need

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<v Speaker 1>to go to the bathroom. So should we wrap this up? Yeah? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>let's wrap this up because probably have to go to

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<v Speaker 1>the bathroom too. Probably they're like circling the block waiting

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