WEBVTT - Steve and G Break It Down II 0:00:00.360 --> 0:00:02.600 This is cut to It with Steve Smith Senior at 0:00:02.640 --> 0:00:08.879 production of The Black Effect and I heart Radio. I'm 0:00:08.920 --> 0:00:12.200 Steve Smith Senior and I'm John And this is cut 0:00:12.240 --> 0:00:16.600 to it. Good do it, Good do it. They's getting 0:00:16.640 --> 0:00:19.919 down to do it. Good do it. We asked the 0:00:20.040 --> 0:00:23.880 questions you always want to know, but no one ever asked, 0:00:24.000 --> 0:00:29.600 let's cut to it. You ain't heard them about it? 0:00:29.640 --> 0:00:39.559 Then we're about to let you know. It's all yeah, 0:00:39.600 --> 0:00:41.960 we're on. We're on the skeleton crew right now. All right, 0:00:42.440 --> 0:00:48.480 watch how more efficient when we are? Sorry, hey, hey, hey, 0:00:48.560 --> 0:00:53.000 here you Harry. This is like your new tagline all 0:00:53.040 --> 0:00:56.520 of us. Where did you even come up with this? So? 0:00:57.600 --> 0:01:01.280 I love medieval shows like I love I love food. 0:01:01.600 --> 0:01:05.399 I am a fat guy sucking little guy's body. Um, 0:01:05.520 --> 0:01:11.720 I exercise to eat and so um I used to 0:01:11.760 --> 0:01:15.160 love why I love soured old French baggats is I 0:01:15.200 --> 0:01:18.520 love the like grab it, you know, just eat the 0:01:18.720 --> 0:01:21.800 eat the bread and right, and then they'll drink out 0:01:21.880 --> 0:01:23.640 how you explaining this? And we on the audio plan 0:01:24.760 --> 0:01:26.400 but I'm all into it. And then they have the 0:01:26.520 --> 0:01:29.160 like they have the glass and they drink the wine 0:01:29.160 --> 0:01:32.399 and then they use their farm to wipe off, and 0:01:32.400 --> 0:01:35.000 then they grab grapes and eat them. And then they're 0:01:35.000 --> 0:01:36.720 at the head of the table and he got his 0:01:36.840 --> 0:01:40.039 king on his kids queen on the right, and his 0:01:40.040 --> 0:01:42.920 his princess and his son. Did you ever watch Game 0:01:42.920 --> 0:01:45.559 of Thrones? Nope? So you like all that medieval stuff, 0:01:45.600 --> 0:01:48.960 and the biggest medieval show that I think is ever 0:01:49.080 --> 0:01:52.880 you never watched. I know what you're gonna say, Okay, 0:01:53.200 --> 0:01:55.880 they don't. I know, that's all I'm waiting. I'm allowing 0:01:55.920 --> 0:02:00.760 you to st your point. You kind so for letting 0:02:00.800 --> 0:02:04.560 me go after you. R and D not a cart 0:02:04.680 --> 0:02:13.560 jester um Bro. The Game of Thrones, like some other shows, 0:02:13.800 --> 0:02:18.480 the first couple of episodes off the charts with sexuality. 0:02:19.160 --> 0:02:22.880 I'm talking about especially. I'm talking about like I was 0:02:22.880 --> 0:02:25.600 watching it. I mean, first few episodes. First, the first 0:02:25.639 --> 0:02:32.040 thirty minutes of the of it's boob's laughing cheeks right, 0:02:32.240 --> 0:02:35.720 and I'm like, whoa, and I can't watch that show, 0:02:35.840 --> 0:02:38.880 Like that's the kind of show you're watching. The wife walks, 0:02:38.960 --> 0:02:41.760 you know, she walks into watching. Yeah, and you're like, 0:02:42.880 --> 0:02:47.919 luckily my wife was into it. But yeah, those first 0:02:48.040 --> 0:02:50.240 like three or four episodes a Game of Thrones it 0:02:50.280 --> 0:02:53.400 was extreme, and there's like some other points throughout having 0:02:53.440 --> 0:02:56.240 many season seven and eight seasons, it was some other ones. 0:02:56.320 --> 0:02:59.160 But oh yeah, the first three or four it was like, 0:02:59.240 --> 0:03:02.560 wait a minute, hbox, Not that I know it's a 0:03:02.600 --> 0:03:07.880 guy that looked like me, that it was little. It 0:03:08.000 --> 0:03:12.200 was a few times. And that's why funny. It's a 0:03:12.200 --> 0:03:16.040 safe place, man. Funniest thing. That's why I got basic cable. 0:03:16.200 --> 0:03:22.000 I have no Cinemax, no HBO, none, I have none 0:03:22.000 --> 0:03:27.119 that I got only only yes, only cable we have 0:03:27.400 --> 0:03:29.880 and channels we have is obviously I got the ticket 0:03:30.040 --> 0:03:32.720 to watch all the games on Sunday, but I don't 0:03:32.760 --> 0:03:36.520 have any I got basic cable. Here's why. First of all, 0:03:36.760 --> 0:03:39.080 I don't want to have to explain if you up 0:03:39.080 --> 0:03:41.840 in a liver room or in your man cave and 0:03:41.880 --> 0:03:44.040 he's just by yourself, you turn it on and all 0:03:44.040 --> 0:03:48.400 of a sudden the Thursday night when you as a kid, 0:03:48.520 --> 0:03:54.760 or Saturday night about twelve am, and you're like, I 0:03:54.760 --> 0:03:56.560 don't know what you're talking about. What I came on 0:03:56.600 --> 0:03:59.280 Thursday nights, I don't know what you're talking about. Starts 0:03:59.320 --> 0:04:05.400 with the all are e X I was he I 0:04:05.480 --> 0:04:08.680 was a young man and we had that blueleg cable 0:04:09.360 --> 0:04:12.320 or whatever real thing, and I am talking about real 0:04:12.360 --> 0:04:20.039 sports sneither right, man, yes, exactly right. And so I like, man, 0:04:20.120 --> 0:04:23.120 that's a hell of explanation. What you want flip it 0:04:23.120 --> 0:04:26.600 through that shuffle and trying to get to the remote. 0:04:27.120 --> 0:04:29.680 Gotta make sure you gut on that back, but make 0:04:29.680 --> 0:04:33.920 sure Nickelodeons on that last channel. So I just didn't 0:04:33.960 --> 0:04:35.200 want to. I didn't want to deal with that. And 0:04:35.240 --> 0:04:41.080 also too as adult man, I got three boys. Man, 0:04:42.080 --> 0:04:45.040 I also don't want to get up and them boys 0:04:45.080 --> 0:04:48.839 out there watching you do you don't want you want 0:04:48.880 --> 0:04:52.120 the apple to fall further from that tree? Yes, I don't. 0:04:52.160 --> 0:04:54.400 I don't want no fruit on that tree. Right. So 0:04:54.440 --> 0:04:59.159 that that's why. Um, but that's why I didn't watch 0:04:59.200 --> 0:05:02.359 Game of Thrones and I here's a great show, but 0:05:02.520 --> 0:05:06.159 just for my mental makeup, for my immentry, just to 0:05:06.200 --> 0:05:09.320 that stuff, I'm like, yeah, I can't do this, this, 0:05:09.320 --> 0:05:14.320 this ain't for me. I can't. But you gotta watch 0:05:14.320 --> 0:05:16.839 the first season and to get the concept of it. 0:05:17.000 --> 0:05:19.680 Oh yeah, I don't miss those first ones. You can 0:05:19.680 --> 0:05:22.240 forget about it. You trying to catch up. You ain't 0:05:22.240 --> 0:05:24.520 gonna make it. Yeah, I'm not gonna make it. So 0:05:24.520 --> 0:05:28.160 so here we are guestless episode. It's just me and you. Yeah, 0:05:28.240 --> 0:05:31.200 my no, we might know. Okay, let's go, let's get stuff. 0:05:31.200 --> 0:05:33.799 Be ready for that. So we are. We are unprepared, 0:05:33.800 --> 0:05:36.400 but we're just gonna win it. Okay, So get I stuff. 0:05:36.480 --> 0:05:39.120 This is a section where Steve you you're gonna do 0:05:39.160 --> 0:05:44.839 the intro. It's Steve ask you questions. He may or 0:05:44.920 --> 0:05:48.919 may not have a follow up question, but here it is. 0:05:48.960 --> 0:05:52.240 These are randomly selected questions. You, Gerard, do you know 0:05:52.279 --> 0:05:54.839 what these questions? Do not know what? The alright? You 0:05:54.920 --> 0:06:01.000 know the tagline? Folks, buckle up, butter cup click all right, Gerard, 0:06:01.560 --> 0:06:05.520 Now this paper is clear, but yet my mind it's 0:06:05.560 --> 0:06:16.080 going all right. Susa guacam Why? Um just preference. I 0:06:16.120 --> 0:06:18.800 don't really have a better. I don't have a better. No, 0:06:18.960 --> 0:06:21.680 I do like guacamole. I like it when it's fresh, 0:06:22.160 --> 0:06:25.080 and everyone doesn't make it the same. So the safe bet, 0:06:25.520 --> 0:06:29.920 I'm gonna say sauce. So would you say suca guaca bag? 0:06:29.920 --> 0:06:35.960 Guacamole is the same as bad potato salad? Uh? That 0:06:35.960 --> 0:06:39.520 would require me to eat everybody's potato salad. And I'm 0:06:39.600 --> 0:06:42.320 raised better than that. My home training doesn't allow me 0:06:42.400 --> 0:06:45.120 to eat everybody's potato salad. You catch my weight. So 0:06:45.440 --> 0:06:50.360 that means your home train also or your adult training. Now, 0:06:50.520 --> 0:06:54.680 lets you know that everybody you don't try everybody's you 0:06:54.720 --> 0:06:57.120 don't try to hawk. Yeah, you know what the kind 0:06:57.120 --> 0:06:59.440 of guacamole I hate when you think it's fresh, but 0:06:59.480 --> 0:07:02.600 it squeeze. He's not the pre mad. Yeah, there's a 0:07:02.640 --> 0:07:04.159 couple where you can catch like some of your local 0:07:04.160 --> 0:07:05.920 grocery stores that we're not going to mention because you 0:07:05.920 --> 0:07:08.960 know they don't they don't sponsor us. But but there's 0:07:09.000 --> 0:07:10.640 there's a few that's out there that's fresh that you 0:07:10.680 --> 0:07:12.680 can that you can buy this package. But now we're 0:07:12.720 --> 0:07:15.440 gonna go with saucer. That's the safe. Okay. So let's 0:07:15.480 --> 0:07:19.840 ask you if you can only eat one thing for 0:07:19.880 --> 0:07:23.560 the rest of your life, what would that be? One 0:07:23.600 --> 0:07:25.280 thing for the rest of my life, one thing for 0:07:25.320 --> 0:07:28.720 the rest of my life. I'd say, I'm gonna sound 0:07:28.720 --> 0:07:30.920 like a sound like a fat kid, like to your 0:07:31.040 --> 0:07:33.560 to your point, fat kids stuck in the skinny skinny 0:07:33.560 --> 0:07:38.280 guy's body, Uh, pizza like pizza, So that that'd that'd 0:07:38.320 --> 0:07:40.560 be good. It's a little, a little good family meal. 0:07:40.640 --> 0:07:42.120 We try to get that every now and then. So 0:07:42.160 --> 0:07:44.280 I'll wrote with pizza. Now. I'm gonna be on carbo 0:07:44.280 --> 0:07:47.720 over though, but we're gonna roll with pizza. Nice safe 0:07:47.720 --> 0:07:51.560 bed like pizza too. Yeah, we love some pizza. Oh yeah, 0:07:51.600 --> 0:07:53.480 you got a whole you got a whole oven over there. 0:07:54.000 --> 0:07:59.440 Hif Boyard thieves super Mario over there. Yeah, we do 0:07:59.520 --> 0:08:01.920 wings that you could do flat bread. You can do 0:08:01.960 --> 0:08:04.800 a lot of stuff in there at you so like, um, 0:08:04.880 --> 0:08:08.640 let's see, let's see, um, how many of these are doing? 0:08:08.640 --> 0:08:11.760 We're doing five? Just one more, just one more. And 0:08:11.880 --> 0:08:19.640 then you start talking about pizza and threw me off easy. Yeah, um, 0:08:19.680 --> 0:08:24.200 I'll go a pizza too. Let's see. All right, you 0:08:24.240 --> 0:08:28.320 only can have five items. You're going on a deserted island, 0:08:28.920 --> 0:08:34.920 five items for your survival. What do you pick? All right? Firestarter? Okay, 0:08:35.160 --> 0:08:42.680 we're gonna do um. We'll do machete, We'll do um, 0:08:42.840 --> 0:08:46.480 we'll do can I say, tent, it's whatever I want 0:08:46.480 --> 0:08:48.360 to bring it, right, it's your fire right tent that 0:08:48.400 --> 0:08:50.360 gives me shelter. So I got shelter, I got I 0:08:50.400 --> 0:08:53.720 got a weapon, I got firestarter. I gotta have a 0:08:53.760 --> 0:08:56.240 pot so you can boarder water because you can. I 0:08:56.320 --> 0:08:58.800 watch enough naked and afraid. If you don't boarder water, 0:08:59.160 --> 0:09:03.520 you're gon be sick. Uh. And then fifth one will 0:09:03.640 --> 0:09:06.640 do um cell phones so I can get the hell 0:09:06.720 --> 0:09:13.240 out of here, calls someone for help. You did so 0:09:13.480 --> 0:09:18.760 my minus minus firestarter machete as well I have. You 0:09:18.800 --> 0:09:20.640 can cut down everything with that machete and you can 0:09:20.679 --> 0:09:23.520 hunt with it. Yeah, you can't block I got. I 0:09:23.520 --> 0:09:26.480 would say, I would say pot as well, but I'm 0:09:26.520 --> 0:09:29.960 gonna throw I'm gonna throw one in there airplane so 0:09:29.960 --> 0:09:35.200 I can get the hell out. You already gassed up 0:09:35.280 --> 0:09:39.080 with a pilot. If you got the airplane, that means 0:09:39.120 --> 0:09:45.160 you don't even make it there right back, you're gonna 0:09:45.160 --> 0:09:47.760 be calling me. Wait you left me? I got my 0:09:47.800 --> 0:09:53.920 cell phone right all right? Cool? So man, you know, um, 0:09:53.960 --> 0:09:56.160 I thought this would be a good episode, you know, 0:09:56.559 --> 0:09:59.160 kind of talking about just more of the you know, 0:09:59.240 --> 0:10:02.560 everybody knows I played ball. Uh if you don't know, 0:10:02.679 --> 0:10:06.160 that's even perfect. I played uh sixteen years professionally for 0:10:06.160 --> 0:10:12.000 the Carolina Panthers and uh, the Baltimore Ravens and um, 0:10:12.080 --> 0:10:17.040 so it's keep pounding and ravens, ravens flock. Uh you know, 0:10:17.320 --> 0:10:21.000 once a raven, always a raven um and then um, 0:10:21.040 --> 0:10:23.840 you know, so we'll always talk about football, and football 0:10:23.920 --> 0:10:28.480 is obviously very heavy in my family. Sports is very 0:10:28.520 --> 0:10:31.160 heavy in my family. Dad plays in my pro. Mom 0:10:31.280 --> 0:10:37.600 ran track, Um, uncle rand track. It's in blood blood man, 0:10:37.640 --> 0:10:40.959 so you know, grandparents it was. It was really cool. However, 0:10:41.040 --> 0:10:43.679 there are let me ask this first. Is this a 0:10:43.679 --> 0:10:46.480 safe place? This is absolutely a safe place. I think 0:10:46.559 --> 0:10:48.840 I think we referenced that in the in the get 0:10:48.960 --> 0:10:51.040 iced up just now, But yes, this is a safe place. Brother. 0:10:51.120 --> 0:10:54.200 All right. So you know, I get people all the 0:10:54.280 --> 0:10:58.800 time saying, oh, I know you miss it, mhm miss 0:10:58.800 --> 0:11:01.920 what and what in reference and you're saying in reference 0:11:01.960 --> 0:11:05.360 to football, Yeah, yeah, yeah they I know you miss it. 0:11:06.360 --> 0:11:09.760 And now, just being retired and sitting back, there are 0:11:09.800 --> 0:11:13.640 some aspects of football that I miss and there's a 0:11:13.679 --> 0:11:17.480 lot more football I don't miss. What's what's the percentage 0:11:17.559 --> 0:11:19.920 of the what you're missing and what you don't know? 0:11:20.000 --> 0:11:25.000 I would what I miss? You missed? You miss the game? Yes? 0:11:25.520 --> 0:11:30.959 I missed the friendships. Um, sometimes I missed the the 0:11:30.960 --> 0:11:37.680 physicality of competition. Right, nothing can ever nothing can ever 0:11:37.800 --> 0:11:40.719 substitute like going against a guy he elbows you, you 0:11:40.800 --> 0:11:42.600 ever with him, and just kind of that that back 0:11:42.640 --> 0:11:45.400 and forth, that that that horsing around like you know 0:11:45.440 --> 0:11:49.079 guys horse around and you can you can you can 0:11:49.080 --> 0:11:52.559 get things out of you can you can legally, uh 0:11:52.800 --> 0:11:55.960 be be physical with someone and and and get that. 0:11:56.080 --> 0:11:58.600 So I relate. We had that conversation that part, but 0:11:58.720 --> 0:12:01.800 just more of the comp titition, like if you've competed 0:12:01.840 --> 0:12:06.840 in any level, you're always looking for that next competition, next, 0:12:08.400 --> 0:12:10.920 something that that that that drives you, that pushes you, 0:12:11.080 --> 0:12:14.720 something also that makes you extremely uncomfortable, something that you 0:12:14.800 --> 0:12:19.199 can you can look at the progress and go, I 0:12:19.920 --> 0:12:24.000 did that an achiever, Yes, something that you you know, 0:12:24.760 --> 0:12:31.280 athletes are always marked, thought about, measured by what they 0:12:31.360 --> 0:12:36.600 have done and also held take it, held back from 0:12:36.679 --> 0:12:41.679 things of what they were able not to do. Right, Oh, 0:12:41.760 --> 0:12:44.120 he would have been this or she would have been 0:12:44.160 --> 0:12:48.199 this only if she or he made that shot, or 0:12:48.520 --> 0:12:50.560 if they would have made he or she would have 0:12:50.640 --> 0:12:58.040 made that pass or took that extra step right. And 0:12:59.280 --> 0:13:02.680 one of the things that's really made me think about 0:13:02.720 --> 0:13:08.439 that is, um, I've had the opportunity football wise two 0:13:08.520 --> 0:13:12.040 in the last week or show, talked to probably about 0:13:12.080 --> 0:13:15.360 three or four, about four or five. Four or five 0:13:15.520 --> 0:13:19.360 players have either text me and called me pertaining to 0:13:19.720 --> 0:13:23.600 their careers. Current guys, four or five guys that have 0:13:23.760 --> 0:13:29.520 called me pertaining to their career. Not gonna go into 0:13:29.559 --> 0:13:32.920 detail of what, but then it got me starting to thinking. 0:13:33.320 --> 0:13:37.360 Every time I got off the phone five times. One 0:13:37.400 --> 0:13:41.200 of them was after a game this Sunday, I got 0:13:41.200 --> 0:13:44.840 off the phone and said, I am glad I don't 0:13:44.920 --> 0:13:49.199 have to deal with that anymore. Actually, I said, because 0:13:49.240 --> 0:13:50.800 we can say that, I'm glad I had to deal 0:13:50.840 --> 0:13:56.040 with that ship wow and the one that turned my 0:13:56.120 --> 0:14:01.360 stomach though, And I could have cried Nick Boyle this 0:14:01.480 --> 0:14:07.760 past Sunday. Um he toward his knee and I saw 0:14:07.840 --> 0:14:11.600 and it was ugly. I turned the TV off and 0:14:11.640 --> 0:14:14.280 I went to bed. It didn't pat you that much. 0:14:14.320 --> 0:14:23.480 It impacted me that much. One you one, somehow, some 0:14:23.600 --> 0:14:27.360 way you you bring it back to you, but not 0:14:27.720 --> 0:14:32.400 you as in like selfish you. But just like I 0:14:32.480 --> 0:14:35.760 know that feeling, I know that pit in his heart 0:14:35.800 --> 0:14:39.280 and his stomach. He's going through all of those questions, 0:14:40.280 --> 0:14:44.080 how bad is it having a major injury, Like is 0:14:44.080 --> 0:14:46.960 it as bad as they is, it as bad as 0:14:47.000 --> 0:14:52.680 it feels, because right now it hurts, but now you 0:14:52.920 --> 0:14:57.240 think also ahead, right, yes, and so I so I 0:14:57.280 --> 0:15:02.600 woke up on Monday and I kind of was like, oh, 0:15:03.840 --> 0:15:07.040 and he was on my mind again. And and I 0:15:07.040 --> 0:15:10.440 remember when I told my Achilles. I remember when I 0:15:10.440 --> 0:15:13.600 told my Achilles. And when I broke my my ankle, 0:15:13.720 --> 0:15:16.080 and I broke my ankle, I tore the ligaments and 0:15:16.120 --> 0:15:20.440 the inside and outside of my ankle and fractured it. Yes, 0:15:20.680 --> 0:15:25.640 you had combo and every and both times when I 0:15:25.640 --> 0:15:29.640 got injured, I woke up the next day and was like, damn, 0:15:29.680 --> 0:15:33.960 that was a horrible dream. But it was reality. And 0:15:34.000 --> 0:15:36.320 you know how it was reality is I had my 0:15:36.360 --> 0:15:39.360 foot look back down. No, no, I had my foot up, 0:15:40.320 --> 0:15:43.160 and I got up. And when you get up, when 0:15:43.160 --> 0:15:47.520 you break a break a lower extremity, you elevate it. 0:15:48.440 --> 0:15:51.600 Why because so you get all of you allowed of 0:15:51.680 --> 0:15:54.920 the blood to not the bad blood that's in that 0:15:55.000 --> 0:15:58.400 break not to sit there. So its circulating because it's 0:15:58.440 --> 0:16:00.560 the furthest thing from your heart. So that's why they 0:16:00.560 --> 0:16:04.440 have elevated. It requires your body has to work so 0:16:04.560 --> 0:16:07.280 much harder to get the blood in and out of there. 0:16:08.880 --> 0:16:12.119 But when you elevate a foot for seven eight hours 0:16:12.120 --> 0:16:17.120 in sleeping, guess what happens, What must go up, what 0:16:17.520 --> 0:16:20.680 it comes out? So when you when I got up 0:16:20.720 --> 0:16:27.160 to use the bathroom, bro it burned all of that 0:16:27.760 --> 0:16:32.160 blood rushing there because it was its injured, stung to 0:16:32.240 --> 0:16:33.720 the point of where when I was going, I was like, 0:16:34.040 --> 0:16:37.000 it hurts because you hip hop hop and you're still 0:16:37.080 --> 0:16:40.560 kind of half sleep. Then I go to pee and 0:16:40.600 --> 0:16:42.640 that blood rushing out and pissed all on the wall, 0:16:43.160 --> 0:16:54.520 missed the toilet smith and the drink. The bad dream 0:16:54.640 --> 0:16:58.040 now becomes a living nightmare. I mean you you walk 0:16:58.160 --> 0:17:02.920 through the physical pain of an injury. But as a 0:17:02.960 --> 0:17:05.040 guy who I had a high ankle sprand I had 0:17:05.080 --> 0:17:08.800 I had a bone spur, I never had an impactful 0:17:08.840 --> 0:17:13.560 injury like breaking my ankles, tearing my achilles. Physical wise, 0:17:14.359 --> 0:17:17.600 got that part. Mental wise, where are you? You just 0:17:17.640 --> 0:17:20.960 talked about right after it happens, But I'd love to 0:17:20.960 --> 0:17:23.439 hear from you. What's the morning when you wake up? 0:17:23.640 --> 0:17:25.840 Where is your where is your mental state of mind? 0:17:26.560 --> 0:17:28.080 I'm sitting on the edge of the bed and I'm 0:17:28.119 --> 0:17:31.440 asking myself, will I get through this? Because of my 0:17:31.440 --> 0:17:35.959 my will to get through it no longer counts. And 0:17:36.040 --> 0:17:38.280 this is for clarity. Was this both times? Did you 0:17:38.280 --> 0:17:41.680 have that conversation with yourself both times? Okay, I'm an overthinker, 0:17:41.720 --> 0:17:44.200 over process, so I have a lot of conversations with myself. 0:17:44.359 --> 0:17:46.560 I'm also asking because you broke that when you broke 0:17:46.560 --> 0:17:50.760 the ankle, you're my fifth, fifth, or sixth years. Yeah. 0:17:50.800 --> 0:17:53.080 And then then then when you told your acatelles you're 0:17:53.119 --> 0:17:56.280 you were you're removed from retiring anyway. You can retire 0:17:56.359 --> 0:17:58.600 that year. Yeah. Yeah, So I just didn't know if 0:17:58.600 --> 0:18:05.159 there's a difference. And oh, I really just felt you 0:18:05.240 --> 0:18:06.960 just sitting at the end of the bed and you're 0:18:07.000 --> 0:18:09.679 figuring out how I just gonna work out for me 0:18:11.000 --> 0:18:14.360 because you don't have any control over And that's one 0:18:14.359 --> 0:18:18.320 thing about athletes. You know you can You know that 0:18:18.480 --> 0:18:24.520 David and Goliath, you know he gets his stones, he 0:18:24.359 --> 0:18:30.359 is he takes a slingshot and he's ain't no sling 0:18:30.400 --> 0:18:33.399 shot in this one player. You are David and you 0:18:33.440 --> 0:18:38.760 are Goliath, except goliathe is broken. And there's a question 0:18:38.800 --> 0:18:44.119 of your your higher power. There's a disconnection of your 0:18:44.200 --> 0:18:47.679 higher power. You are searching. There is no scripture to 0:18:47.760 --> 0:18:50.400 help you through this. There's a scripture you can read, 0:18:50.640 --> 0:18:53.600 but it doesn't stop the playing. Let's be realistic, right, 0:18:54.760 --> 0:18:57.000 you know. And and so it was really difficult in 0:18:57.080 --> 0:19:00.200 both times. And so in my mind I was going through, 0:19:00.240 --> 0:19:02.280 what is he feeling right now? What is Nick Boyle? 0:19:02.359 --> 0:19:07.359 What is Odell Beckham Jr? What is Dak Prescott? What 0:19:07.600 --> 0:19:12.159 is Ronnie Stanley? What is uh Nick Bossa? What is 0:19:12.800 --> 0:19:17.280 Jimmy Garoppolo? I mean, that's guy after guy after guy 0:19:17.440 --> 0:19:20.520 after god that's been injured and they're all thinking the 0:19:20.560 --> 0:19:24.280 same thing. They're all thinking the same thing, which is, 0:19:25.560 --> 0:19:30.440 you know, the the social media and the Instagram post 0:19:30.600 --> 0:19:33.800 is loo get through it? Oh God has our back. 0:19:34.960 --> 0:19:39.960 But the reality is you're reliant on is this surgeon 0:19:41.040 --> 0:19:43.760 gonna find something? And why do I say that? Is 0:19:43.960 --> 0:19:48.440 I told my achilles when I tear it normal achilles, 0:19:49.200 --> 0:19:53.639 Dr Bob Anderson does it? Yeah, Dr Anderson did it. 0:19:54.240 --> 0:19:56.600 They opened up my achilles where I toured near where 0:19:56.640 --> 0:19:59.480 your calf and your ankle is your the bottom of 0:19:59.520 --> 0:20:02.480 your heel um ankle and then in between your calf, 0:20:02.560 --> 0:20:06.159 So I toured he opens me up. My top is 0:20:06.160 --> 0:20:09.040 at the bottom of my bottom is at the tops 0:20:09.240 --> 0:20:11.359 like that. Oh no, And he said it was fresh 0:20:11.400 --> 0:20:15.560 car tissue. I tore my achilles slightly toward back in 0:20:15.720 --> 0:20:18.919 May that year, so I was playing May June, I 0:20:18.960 --> 0:20:22.159 was playing O T a S training camp and the 0:20:22.240 --> 0:20:24.320 rest of it and throughout the season until I toured 0:20:24.760 --> 0:20:29.800 already on strings threads of achilles. So when I tore 0:20:29.920 --> 0:20:36.600 my achilles when officially completely tour, it was a double rupture. 0:20:37.080 --> 0:20:40.280 Sort tore in the middle where it tears. It also 0:20:40.600 --> 0:20:45.159 tore off the bone. So they had to take my achilles, 0:20:45.920 --> 0:20:50.480 drill it with a screw, and I think it was 0:20:50.680 --> 0:20:53.240 I'm hoping it well, I'm thankful it was fully charged 0:20:53.320 --> 0:20:56.720 up to drill that they used, right, and they drilled 0:20:56.760 --> 0:21:00.720 it with a screw my achilles. They attached it back 0:21:00.760 --> 0:21:04.480 to the heel and then sold it back up to 0:21:04.560 --> 0:21:10.000 the other achilles because it had basically exploded. And so 0:21:10.160 --> 0:21:12.960 my I I was a double rupture to achilles. That 0:21:12.960 --> 0:21:16.240 that was the first double rupture he's ever seen, especially 0:21:16.240 --> 0:21:18.240 on the older guy. I was saying, think about how 0:21:18.480 --> 0:21:22.520 damaging that could be. And we've seen other athletes. Remember 0:21:22.600 --> 0:21:25.440 Kobe tore his achilles. I ain't, but I'm just trying 0:21:25.480 --> 0:21:28.680 to run through. I'm just making sure you can pay 0:21:28.680 --> 0:21:32.600 yourself to Kobe said that, not you. I ain't Kobe, 0:21:32.880 --> 0:21:35.320 but but I'm just saying in terms of athletes who 0:21:35.359 --> 0:21:39.720 are older and that injury happens and stuff. So when 0:21:39.760 --> 0:21:44.320 you saw look at Cousins, look at book at Cousins. Yeah, 0:21:44.640 --> 0:21:49.640 so when you saw Nick's injury, all this came back, well, 0:21:49.880 --> 0:21:52.080 not all of that came back up. I'm just giving 0:21:52.200 --> 0:22:00.640 reference and clarity and in context too. You go under 0:22:00.640 --> 0:22:06.000 the knife, you don't know, and that doc doesn't know completely. 0:22:06.040 --> 0:22:07.800 The m R I would say, yes, it's torn, But 0:22:07.840 --> 0:22:11.320 the m R I doesn't say yeah, it's torn because 0:22:11.359 --> 0:22:15.639 they scanned my leg, but they didn't scan they scanned 0:22:15.640 --> 0:22:20.320 my achilles area. They didn't scan my whole lower extremity 0:22:20.359 --> 0:22:27.280 to know how significant the impact of that injury, how 0:22:28.840 --> 0:22:32.239 what was the full severity and what other areas did 0:22:32.280 --> 0:22:34.520 it effect because you don't think, oh, he's thirty, he's 0:22:34.600 --> 0:22:37.600 thirty seven, thirty eight. Of course he double ruption that. 0:22:37.680 --> 0:22:39.880 Let's let's get that, let's get over there. Body's heel 0:22:40.320 --> 0:22:43.200 as well, because you know it goes down there now, right, 0:22:44.359 --> 0:22:46.400 So that's what happened. So with Nick, and I saw 0:22:46.440 --> 0:22:50.200 it how bad it was. He's also he's a great guy, right, 0:22:50.200 --> 0:22:58.000 he knows ball, but Ball is also all he knows, husband, son, 0:22:58.359 --> 0:23:00.880 and a child on the way. What do you think 0:23:00.880 --> 0:23:05.199 he's thinking all negative? And I'm not saying he's a 0:23:05.200 --> 0:23:08.200 negative person, but he's thinking like every other father, every 0:23:08.240 --> 0:23:10.840 other You mentioned your responsibilities with which you don't have 0:23:10.920 --> 0:23:14.199 right now, Yes, you don't have ball. Believe he's in 0:23:14.240 --> 0:23:19.480 his contract year. Think about it. He's sitting there going 0:23:21.960 --> 0:23:24.960 what am I gonna do? His wife is being supportive. 0:23:25.040 --> 0:23:29.359 You ever saw did you see this? Uh? He's sixty 0:23:29.520 --> 0:23:33.600 or the sixty on Alex Smith? Think about that His 0:23:33.640 --> 0:23:36.840 wife had made it had to make a decision. Do 0:23:37.000 --> 0:23:42.280 I amputate my husband's leg? But here's the problem. If 0:23:42.320 --> 0:23:48.120 she amputates his leg and he comes out, she this 0:23:48.160 --> 0:23:51.679 is my This is Steve Smith. I haven't spoken to 0:23:51.720 --> 0:23:57.080 Alex alumni, but I have not spoken to him. But 0:23:57.160 --> 0:24:00.440 this is what I do know. Don't say me short 0:24:01.000 --> 0:24:05.600 m hm. The doctors are telling me, they're telling you, 0:24:05.760 --> 0:24:08.320 the nurses telling you, we gotta take his leg off. 0:24:09.359 --> 0:24:11.960 But she knows her man. She better know her man, 0:24:12.240 --> 0:24:15.080 and she knows that what guy put in him is 0:24:15.119 --> 0:24:18.679 greater than what these doctors have studied. These doctors have 0:24:18.760 --> 0:24:23.000 studied books, but those books can't measure man's heart. Those 0:24:23.040 --> 0:24:26.679 books cannot measure what is in a woman, what's in 0:24:26.760 --> 0:24:30.800 a man that allows them to play this sport that 0:24:31.240 --> 0:24:38.160 very very many will try, but very few will accomplish. 0:24:38.760 --> 0:24:41.399 And so I just it just made me think about that, 0:24:41.520 --> 0:24:44.879 and I start seeing all these guys get injured, and 0:24:44.920 --> 0:24:47.639 then the question marks that I know I've had. So 0:24:47.720 --> 0:24:51.200 I'm giving y'all a peek into the conversations, the inner 0:24:51.240 --> 0:24:55.360 dialogue that these men have in their lonely places when 0:24:55.400 --> 0:24:58.360 they when the you know, COVID is going on right now. 0:24:58.480 --> 0:25:00.679 So you you don't have people in the fan, in 0:25:00.760 --> 0:25:03.959 the stands, but what you do have is you still lonely. 0:25:04.000 --> 0:25:07.119 You still have to now you're still in your bedroom 0:25:07.400 --> 0:25:11.719 asking God, what did I do? Room? Well? Did I 0:25:11.760 --> 0:25:18.320 do something in training that could have prevented this? We 0:25:18.600 --> 0:25:21.359 have to take a break, and do you want anything? 0:25:21.440 --> 0:25:28.719 We gotta pay some bills. I love cut to it, 0:25:28.880 --> 0:25:32.200 and I love it even more when you download us 0:25:32.240 --> 0:25:36.320 and subscribe, and you can follow us on social media too. 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