WEBVTT - Jess & Rome Get Real 0:00:00.160 --> 0:00:03.120 Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio 0:00:03.240 --> 0:00:08.560 and the Black Effect. Nice as nice, little aspect, I 0:00:08.640 --> 0:00:21.360 still aspect, nice still as still still, And just like that, 0:00:21.520 --> 0:00:24.079 we're back on the air. Welcome back to another carefully 0:00:24.120 --> 0:00:27.160 Reckless episode with your girl just hilarious. And I got 0:00:27.240 --> 0:00:30.760 little baby father with me today. This is his first 0:00:30.760 --> 0:00:33.120 time doing yeoh, this is your first time doing the 0:00:33.200 --> 0:00:37.320 actual podcast, ain't it. Yeah, you've never been on audio. 0:00:38.000 --> 0:00:43.519 Your son made its call reckless before years. No, Yo, 0:00:43.600 --> 0:00:45.760 it's low as to be trying to really really boss 0:00:45.840 --> 0:00:47.519 up on me. He'd be trying to crack on me 0:00:47.560 --> 0:00:49.319 and everything. You think, your little comedian when you get 0:00:49.360 --> 0:00:52.519 in here. Um, the topic that I wanted to discuss 0:00:52.600 --> 0:00:55.320 um A lot of people always asks. They always ask 0:00:56.520 --> 0:01:00.000 about like how you and I got to this point, 0:01:00.160 --> 0:01:03.600 you know, where we can co parent healthy and like 0:01:03.680 --> 0:01:07.640 in a healthy way, and how we have made this um, 0:01:07.800 --> 0:01:11.360 this this great environment for ourselves and our child. Like 0:01:11.480 --> 0:01:15.319 we were like, we're definitely like a happy family, but 0:01:15.400 --> 0:01:18.040 like we it's like, man, you are siblings and people 0:01:18.280 --> 0:01:20.720 don't even they don't get it. They love it, but 0:01:20.760 --> 0:01:23.000 they don't get it. So I want to talk about 0:01:23.040 --> 0:01:25.560 that like because it took a long time for us 0:01:25.600 --> 0:01:28.320 to get here, but we did. We did get it, 0:01:28.680 --> 0:01:32.680 And I don't think it took a long time. I 0:01:32.760 --> 0:01:35.679 just think it took some time. It's took a lot 0:01:35.680 --> 0:01:38.440 of work too, it took a lot. I wouldn't even 0:01:38.440 --> 0:01:41.240 say it work. It just it was pride. I think 0:01:41.240 --> 0:01:42.399 it was a lot of pride in the way like 0:01:42.440 --> 0:01:44.559 you know, we was, we was young, We was coming 0:01:44.560 --> 0:01:47.600 from two different backgrounds, and for the longest I really 0:01:47.600 --> 0:01:49.800 couldn't understand you, like why you did the things you 0:01:49.840 --> 0:01:53.240 did when you came from a two prime household, and 0:01:53.840 --> 0:01:55.880 you know, as as I grew and you know, learn 0:01:55.920 --> 0:01:58.080 to get out my feelings with dealing with you, I 0:01:58.160 --> 0:01:59.720 took a step back and I said, well, damn, let 0:01:59.720 --> 0:02:01.680 me try to understand it. Which I can't get you 0:02:01.720 --> 0:02:04.480 personally into that or far as me at Ashton, it 0:02:04.600 --> 0:02:08.560 was like it was easy for us to just separate 0:02:08.639 --> 0:02:12.080 and go out ways because we had your number one 0:02:12.160 --> 0:02:15.960 lady in the middle, your mom, My mom. She took 0:02:16.520 --> 0:02:18.760 it was so much easy. Ways though you'd be like, all, well, 0:02:18.800 --> 0:02:20.560 fuck you, bitch, or whatever the case. Maybe I never 0:02:20.639 --> 0:02:23.320 was really that disrespectful then, so I wouldn't really say that, 0:02:23.360 --> 0:02:26.079 but you never you never really did. You didn't talk 0:02:26.120 --> 0:02:28.640 to me like I talked to you the correct and 0:02:28.880 --> 0:02:31.079 you know, like I said even then, like I'm like, damn, 0:02:31.120 --> 0:02:33.079 why is she talking to me like that? Like he's like, 0:02:33.120 --> 0:02:34.959 you know, like I was a little I don't even timid, 0:02:35.000 --> 0:02:39.519 but just like still really emotional. But definitely I think, mom, 0:02:39.639 --> 0:02:41.400 your mom, Mom arrived and you know, shout out to her. 0:02:41.480 --> 0:02:44.480 Always give her flowers. Why I always give up flowers, 0:02:44.520 --> 0:02:47.959 But I believe that her being your mom and a 0:02:48.040 --> 0:02:52.760 daycare provider really helped us a lot as well. So 0:02:52.960 --> 0:02:55.000 of course I didn't have to see you. I would 0:02:55.040 --> 0:02:58.160 pick him up on a Friday, drop him off Monday 0:02:58.200 --> 0:03:00.679 to daycare, go to school, and you will get a 0:03:00.720 --> 0:03:05.320 Monday through Thursday, which in the normal world for moms 0:03:05.360 --> 0:03:08.880 that have, you know, custody of their children, that is 0:03:08.919 --> 0:03:11.520 normal for the dad to do. Yeah, it is not 0:03:11.600 --> 0:03:14.640 a problem. You're not a dad beat dad because you 0:03:14.680 --> 0:03:19.600 get your child through Monday. I mean primarily a kid. 0:03:19.680 --> 0:03:23.200 You know, a kid lives with their moms, so you know, 0:03:23.320 --> 0:03:26.200 primarily in some cases, you know, because nowadays, you know, 0:03:26.320 --> 0:03:29.960 there are a lot of single dads too, and you know, 0:03:30.160 --> 0:03:33.440 and and they get like they had their children from 0:03:33.440 --> 0:03:35.520 sun up the sunday. You know, they have to they 0:03:35.520 --> 0:03:37.800 have to be basically the mother and the dad, you know. 0:03:37.880 --> 0:03:41.400 And I give those dads their flowers as well, you 0:03:41.440 --> 0:03:44.680 know what I'm saying. So I'm not gonna always um 0:03:44.880 --> 0:03:48.160 only give the moms a single mom life. You know, 0:03:48.640 --> 0:03:51.680 some light, No, definitely, but that's WHI always take the 0:03:51.720 --> 0:03:54.440 credit for, granted with me and you And wait, what 0:03:54.520 --> 0:03:58.200 was you saying? Because you said you couldn't understand why 0:03:58.200 --> 0:03:59.840 I would do the things I did? What the hell 0:03:59.920 --> 0:04:02.800 was not doing that was so necessarily you was doing 0:04:02.920 --> 0:04:04.920 bad thing? It was the way you like just like 0:04:05.160 --> 0:04:08.560 nobody really seen that side of you, like the party side, 0:04:08.640 --> 0:04:11.560 the wild side, like for a long time. We're gonna 0:04:11.560 --> 0:04:14.880 put it on here. For a long time. It was, 0:04:14.920 --> 0:04:18.200 oh that's wrong, baby mother. I know I've said that, 0:04:18.720 --> 0:04:22.360 but a lot of doing before I was, before Jessillaris 0:04:22.440 --> 0:04:25.800 was even thought of. I was just wrong, baby mother. Nobody. Yeah, 0:04:25.920 --> 0:04:27.640 we will take it because of you. We're gonna take 0:04:27.640 --> 0:04:29.720 it back before Ashton. We're gonna play it like that. 0:04:29.760 --> 0:04:31.440 We're gonna take it back before Ashton before that, you know, 0:04:31.480 --> 0:04:33.360 it was that was wrong, baby mother. Everybody was trying 0:04:33.360 --> 0:04:36.239 to figure out who Jess was. You know, Facebook was popping, 0:04:36.240 --> 0:04:38.680 and then she had the ball blonde head head we 0:04:38.920 --> 0:04:41.440 played the kan Yeah yeah, Ama Rose things. So you know, 0:04:41.480 --> 0:04:43.400 like then I started going parties. Well, um, a couple 0:04:43.440 --> 0:04:46.320 of friends of mine from school and um, a couple 0:04:46.360 --> 0:04:49.400 of parties. I'm gonna put you on the flying you 0:04:49.440 --> 0:04:51.440 know now people seeing you. Now you're going out more 0:04:51.480 --> 0:04:52.719 because for a long time, like I said, you in 0:04:52.720 --> 0:04:54.760 school white people, so like you've really never really I 0:04:54.880 --> 0:04:59.000 never really seen a party side until after that, like 0:04:59.120 --> 0:05:01.080 after that fact, so right after that part, but it 0:05:01.200 --> 0:05:04.279 was like why the fund this girl always got a party, 0:05:04.320 --> 0:05:06.000 Like why is she not family going to like your 0:05:06.040 --> 0:05:08.440 mom my dad still together? You know, they got two houses, 0:05:08.560 --> 0:05:11.440 like that's the life. Like I was like that. I 0:05:11.480 --> 0:05:13.200 was like, that's all right. So when you grow up 0:05:13.200 --> 0:05:15.320 like that, you know what I'm saying, Like my mom 0:05:15.440 --> 0:05:17.640 didn't let me go off. My mom didn't like it was. 0:05:17.760 --> 0:05:20.320 I was just doing everything that I wasn't allowed to 0:05:20.320 --> 0:05:22.359 do when I was younger. My mom didn't like me 0:05:22.400 --> 0:05:25.720 hanging with fast tail girls like fast ass girls, and 0:05:25.720 --> 0:05:29.520 and she did Yeah you know, I was definitely sheltered, 0:05:29.600 --> 0:05:31.880 you know, And it wasn't like I thank her for 0:05:31.960 --> 0:05:34.640 that now, you know. But that's why I always I 0:05:34.640 --> 0:05:37.200 started sneaking out and I started stealing our car coming 0:05:37.240 --> 0:05:39.600 to Baltomore because you know, I went, like I sent 0:05:39.680 --> 0:05:42.679 to an all white high school in Pennsylvania. So I started. 0:05:42.880 --> 0:05:45.160 I got into two drugs and Ship, I got into 0:05:45.279 --> 0:05:47.600 all that. When I started drinking up there with them 0:05:47.640 --> 0:05:50.280 goddamn white kids. I'm like, oh, Ship, all right, you 0:05:50.360 --> 0:05:52.320 working all the way in Baltomore, Mom, Ship, I'm about 0:05:52.360 --> 0:05:56.440 to start sucking up out here, you know. And when 0:05:56.480 --> 0:05:58.719 I got back to Baltomore, that's when I met you 0:05:58.960 --> 0:06:01.240 after my high school year is and I'm like, okay, 0:06:01.680 --> 0:06:04.480 all right, so now I can party in Baltimore, like now, 0:06:04.560 --> 0:06:06.279 you know. So that's what it was. I was just 0:06:06.320 --> 0:06:08.760 trying to I guess, you know, get my years back 0:06:08.880 --> 0:06:12.599 that I spent bench you know, not able to do that, Ship, okay. 0:06:12.680 --> 0:06:15.240 And then yeah, like I think that that was that time. 0:06:15.279 --> 0:06:20.960 And then it was a situation. You got into this 0:06:21.040 --> 0:06:24.479 when I really liked, knew that I was in love 0:06:24.560 --> 0:06:27.320 with you, because when you came to me, I really 0:06:27.320 --> 0:06:31.120 could I really wasn't you know, what's the way do you? 0:06:31.240 --> 0:06:34.240 I can use not emotional. I really wasn't sympathy sympathetic. 0:06:34.800 --> 0:06:36.560 I really wasn't like, oh, well she coming to me 0:06:36.600 --> 0:06:40.360 like whatever, I don't believe I really believe you. But 0:06:40.480 --> 0:06:44.880 about you know with the John concil block, the model. Yeah, 0:06:44.880 --> 0:06:46.599 so you know, like when you know, we sat in 0:06:46.640 --> 0:06:48.720 the court room and you know you at this point, 0:06:48.720 --> 0:06:51.080 at this time, you're pregnant, so like you know, you're 0:06:51.080 --> 0:06:52.800 showing a little bit. So when you were set in 0:06:52.839 --> 0:06:56.080 the court room and um, all I heard was Tom, 0:06:56.200 --> 0:06:58.520 I ain't hid is a suspension the weekend ship and 0:06:58.560 --> 0:07:00.120 none of that ship. So like you know, at the 0:07:00.200 --> 0:07:01.600 sentence was over, I was all right, well she got 0:07:01.640 --> 0:07:03.600 go on weekends. So this one, you know, it got 0:07:03.640 --> 0:07:05.160 a little good for me because I'm like, oh, she 0:07:05.520 --> 0:07:09.080 going to jail on the weekends. I had a call, 0:07:09.120 --> 0:07:14.200 so I was going to jail, and all you was 0:07:14.280 --> 0:07:17.960 worried about was the bitches you was going to see 0:07:18.000 --> 0:07:20.520 while I was jail on the weekend, because she was 0:07:20.520 --> 0:07:22.880 gonna hand in my car. No, it wasn't necessary that 0:07:23.240 --> 0:07:25.600 it was because I was always scared to drive outside 0:07:25.600 --> 0:07:29.280 of the neighborhood. I adn't really get that until you know, man, 0:07:29.320 --> 0:07:31.120 you started driving back and forth the p A. You 0:07:31.120 --> 0:07:32.960 don't let me drive. Mind, I still only had a college. 0:07:33.000 --> 0:07:34.440 I didn't have a birth to you at that time, 0:07:35.000 --> 0:07:40.760 but I was yeah, didn't so until late. But remember 0:07:40.760 --> 0:07:42.200 I used to work with the car washing the part 0:07:42.200 --> 0:07:45.600 of car and current cleaning. Real good for the gentleman ties. Stay. 0:07:46.040 --> 0:07:49.640 But I think that man, you gained such a great 0:07:49.680 --> 0:07:52.120 bomb because you was dead when I got all of 0:07:52.160 --> 0:07:58.120 those things, birth certificate, my my permit, my license, and 0:07:58.280 --> 0:08:01.120 we found out the real spelling US spelling to my name. 0:08:01.600 --> 0:08:03.720 And I had to go do so much things and 0:08:03.760 --> 0:08:05.640 it is getting me changed. And this is me by 0:08:05.680 --> 0:08:08.520 myself doing it. Like like I said, Man, you know, 0:08:08.560 --> 0:08:10.360 I love my dad to death, but my dad didn't 0:08:10.360 --> 0:08:12.560 really do he was supposed to do. And my my mom, 0:08:12.680 --> 0:08:15.640 my stepmom, my stepmo was really just a provider. My 0:08:15.680 --> 0:08:18.200 stepmom really wasn't a lover. Like she didn't know how 0:08:18.240 --> 0:08:21.360 to kiss you. Yeah, yeah, it was never I love you. 0:08:21.440 --> 0:08:23.720 It was never man, let me hold you. It wasn't. 0:08:23.720 --> 0:08:25.120 But she made you know, she cooked the lot she 0:08:25.680 --> 0:08:27.800 supposed to do. And you know me, I wanted that 0:08:27.840 --> 0:08:30.280 because I had lost my mom. So now so now 0:08:30.320 --> 0:08:33.080 I'm an adult in the dating world, obvious, really don't 0:08:33.120 --> 0:08:35.840 know how to date a woman, right, okay, but you 0:08:35.840 --> 0:08:38.880 know what takes up. It takes like a lot of 0:08:39.200 --> 0:08:42.440 balls to even say that that's really good that you 0:08:42.440 --> 0:08:44.959 know that. Yeah, my dad made it cool, like yo, 0:08:45.160 --> 0:08:47.280 all right, even my right mind. You know, like I said, 0:08:47.280 --> 0:08:49.560 he a shame this game. We had this conversation a lot. Now. 0:08:50.120 --> 0:08:52.559 My dad made it cool that it was cool to 0:08:52.760 --> 0:08:56.360 just fun different women. It wasn't cool too, I know, 0:08:56.440 --> 0:08:59.200 I didn't want to disrespect a woman like there, but 0:08:59.200 --> 0:09:00.720 he my dad made it like it was just cool 0:09:00.720 --> 0:09:03.320 to date the multiple women. It was like, you know, 0:09:03.360 --> 0:09:06.400 at eighteen nineteen, my dad like, oh boy, I'm shortly marvel, 0:09:06.480 --> 0:09:08.120 like I need you had a niece or a sister. 0:09:08.720 --> 0:09:11.160 Oh oh, I got you, especially when I got a 0:09:11.200 --> 0:09:14.520 little older. You know, let's go back to you know me, 0:09:14.559 --> 0:09:16.800 and you're like, we're gonna fast forward a little bit 0:09:16.840 --> 0:09:20.679 till now acton like one or two for a long time. 0:09:20.720 --> 0:09:22.600 I'm gonna say, like seven months, we ain't. We didn't. 0:09:22.679 --> 0:09:26.440 We don't communicate. We didn't. Yeah, we didn't communicate at all. 0:09:26.520 --> 0:09:29.240 It was very rare. It was always arguing, like you know, 0:09:29.400 --> 0:09:30.760 and that that was around the time where you know, 0:09:30.840 --> 0:09:33.079 you bust my window out the car, you know that 0:09:33.200 --> 0:09:35.280 jazz and selling and ship Yeah, yeah, you know, that 0:09:35.360 --> 0:09:37.480 was around that time. But um, after think that was 0:09:37.520 --> 0:09:41.400 the only problem. After that, you know, I ain't talked 0:09:41.400 --> 0:09:43.000 to you again. I just your mom let me know 0:09:43.040 --> 0:09:46.440 that you was home. Uh we went on, man, I 0:09:46.480 --> 0:09:49.200 created my schedule then't I think the comedian stuff started 0:09:49.200 --> 0:09:50.760 probably like a year or two after that. I want 0:09:50.760 --> 0:09:53.480 to say it started around when Ashton started. Two years 0:09:53.520 --> 0:09:56.280 after that day, so acting three now it's two, it's 0:09:56.320 --> 0:10:00.079 two thousand. You know, I catched me, I catched allege that. 0:10:00.840 --> 0:10:02.760 Um but by then, you know, I had just brought 0:10:02.760 --> 0:10:05.280 a cough for my twenty second birthday with working money, 0:10:05.840 --> 0:10:08.760 you know, I catched the check. I'm still going to school, 0:10:09.120 --> 0:10:12.200 so everything is opening up for me. But you know you, 0:10:12.280 --> 0:10:14.240 on the other hand, you're still trying to make it. 0:10:15.200 --> 0:10:16.880 And one thing I can say, we never could be 0:10:17.160 --> 0:10:19.800 struggling like a motherfucker's we never could be up at 0:10:19.840 --> 0:10:22.080 the same time. So like here, I catched the check, 0:10:22.200 --> 0:10:25.280 you know me, you know me, I'm just so happy 0:10:25.320 --> 0:10:28.760 I'm younger. Even all this money, I can finally do 0:10:28.800 --> 0:10:31.760 what I want to do. Now Ship, I could date 0:10:31.760 --> 0:10:33.880 the chicks that I wanted to date now, like a 0:10:33.920 --> 0:10:36.000 whole lot. When when I say that, I'd be like, 0:10:36.000 --> 0:10:38.360 you know how, you know why, I wasn't enough? No body, 0:10:38.480 --> 0:10:42.600 you're gone, but no ship. No, by then I'm two 0:10:43.400 --> 0:10:46.760 when he was broken. No, that's not you're gone already. 0:10:46.800 --> 0:10:50.160 You know already. Basically you're already gone for me, like 0:10:50.480 --> 0:10:52.920 you probably had like three or four boyfriends. Matter of fact, 0:10:52.920 --> 0:10:55.760 remember the first birthday you had a boyfriend as your 0:10:55.760 --> 0:10:57.320 first birthday, when he first known how to walk, he 0:10:57.320 --> 0:10:59.760 had a little push of turtle, you know. Yeah, so 0:11:00.080 --> 0:11:02.599 by then, like even then we was we wasn't and 0:11:03.920 --> 0:11:06.439 yeah we weren't buddy buddy then, but we was cool. 0:11:06.760 --> 0:11:09.040 Yeah we were we were Okay, it wasn't too the 0:11:09.120 --> 0:11:11.000 second year when I'm like, all right, you know what, 0:11:11.400 --> 0:11:13.000 I ain't wonder about what she's doing no more. I'm 0:11:13.040 --> 0:11:15.400 not about to let her keep getting me upset, and 0:11:15.559 --> 0:11:18.400 you know, whatever the case may be. Then act in 0:11:18.480 --> 0:11:21.680 turn three. All that ship happened. Now I'm doing good 0:11:21.679 --> 0:11:24.079 for myself. By then, you're doing what you're doing You 0:11:24.160 --> 0:11:27.040 got a boyfriend though, So even when the money and 0:11:27.080 --> 0:11:30.439 ship really started, when it started really really coming, when 0:11:30.480 --> 0:11:32.440 it really came, you know the most thing you asked. 0:11:32.520 --> 0:11:34.200 So I always loved you doing like and I never 0:11:34.200 --> 0:11:36.480 shared this story, but I'm a share today. When the 0:11:36.520 --> 0:11:39.920 money came, you never asked me for ship. You said, wrong, 0:11:40.440 --> 0:11:42.520 I don't want being mommy house no more. Now mind you, 0:11:42.559 --> 0:11:44.480 we haven't coming. We're communicating a little bit more. Way 0:11:44.480 --> 0:11:45.840 before it came, you don't even know it was coming 0:11:45.840 --> 0:11:48.240 fresh on. But I wanted that. I wanted telling you that, 0:11:48.280 --> 0:11:49.840 you know, I was get catching the cabs and shipped 0:11:49.840 --> 0:11:53.120 to the appointments. So then the only thing you said 0:11:53.120 --> 0:11:55.880 it was wrong. I just want you to help me move. 0:11:56.640 --> 0:11:59.600 I said, all right, good, findal apartment and I will 0:11:59.640 --> 0:12:02.559 pay for you. Never found the apartment. You went and 0:12:02.679 --> 0:12:04.480 got the house man. You got the house, and there 0:12:04.520 --> 0:12:07.480 was you and um, what's that guy named? You're on 0:12:07.559 --> 0:12:10.400 a J. And I'm like, I know this bitch ain't 0:12:10.440 --> 0:12:12.120 just telling me she wanted to move and move with 0:12:12.240 --> 0:12:16.079 the motherfucking nigga. But by then me and A J 0:12:16.280 --> 0:12:19.240 was click tight, like yeah, I like a J. That 0:12:19.360 --> 0:12:21.680 was my favorite man out of everybody you had, that 0:12:21.720 --> 0:12:23.959 was my favorite boyfriend you had. Man, we didn't had 0:12:23.960 --> 0:12:26.480 some of the best talks like that always. Man, we 0:12:26.480 --> 0:12:28.520 had we had a one on one talk you ain't 0:12:28.520 --> 0:12:30.600 even know about, and that's what we said about how different. 0:12:31.080 --> 0:12:32.880 And it wasn't necessarily did something to me. It was 0:12:32.880 --> 0:12:35.240 more so me being you know, the cocky person that 0:12:35.280 --> 0:12:38.160 I was, and I don't want you run my mother. Yeah, yeah, 0:12:38.160 --> 0:12:39.880 you know so man Ajia had a great talk. Man 0:12:39.920 --> 0:12:41.679 one shout up to you boy make man, that's one 0:12:41.720 --> 0:12:43.120 that was one of my like my dogs. I don't 0:12:43.120 --> 0:12:45.600 know what happened to in whatever case may beat throughout 0:12:45.880 --> 0:12:48.559 he got locked up. Okay, you got locked Okay to 0:12:48.640 --> 0:12:51.439 see even after that, then when y'all get done, you 0:12:51.600 --> 0:12:54.200 know you got Chris that coming you are. I don't 0:12:54.200 --> 0:12:55.800 know what was up with you, but your ain't like 0:12:55.920 --> 0:12:58.200 me for some reason. So like by then, I'm still 0:12:58.320 --> 0:13:00.320 you know, I still got money, I'm still working my ass, 0:13:00.320 --> 0:13:02.800 so I'm still doing damn. But Chris didn't like me 0:13:02.880 --> 0:13:05.520 because we were really close, Me and you were close 0:13:05.600 --> 0:13:07.960 like that. So I'm trying to figure it out. So 0:13:08.080 --> 0:13:11.000 like it's times where I'd be shocking, I'd be like 0:13:11.440 --> 0:13:14.520 I know my being like this, and I'm like, no, 0:13:14.559 --> 0:13:16.360 I ain't get because I don't want cars, friction in 0:13:16.440 --> 0:13:21.079 the household anything because that you never have an But 0:13:21.080 --> 0:13:22.880 but it wasn't necessary. You never you know what you 0:13:23.000 --> 0:13:24.880 wasn't that type of woman. Yeah you didn't come from 0:13:24.920 --> 0:13:27.400 the household, but you would never even know because you're 0:13:27.400 --> 0:13:31.760 never trying to know. And I never tried because you 0:13:31.760 --> 0:13:33.680 had a boyfriend. I didn't want to overstep my boundaries. 0:13:34.200 --> 0:13:36.360 I didn't want to cause problems, and honestly I didn't 0:13:36.360 --> 0:13:39.120 because I used to ask actually like yo, like you 0:13:39.160 --> 0:13:41.079 think I should She like no, because that's phone cause 0:13:41.559 --> 0:13:44.079 you know, friction, I like whatever. So it was a 0:13:44.080 --> 0:13:45.559 little bit of times one time I told you no, 0:13:45.720 --> 0:13:47.280 but it was times before that You're actually like pay 0:13:47.280 --> 0:13:49.920 a little bill or something, and I do that like 0:13:50.000 --> 0:13:52.800 that was all you actually and literally and and if 0:13:52.840 --> 0:13:55.800 I was asking you that ship I need literally did 0:13:56.480 --> 0:14:00.400 like you know, I never asked exactly exactly I said, 0:14:00.600 --> 0:14:03.520 and like even even even to the point where you know, 0:14:03.960 --> 0:14:05.680 like I said, man, you know I got family used 0:14:05.720 --> 0:14:06.959 me and all that ship I used me, And I said, 0:14:07.000 --> 0:14:08.719 you're like my baby mother never tried to use me. 0:14:08.840 --> 0:14:11.760 Never never like, never tried to use me. And I 0:14:11.800 --> 0:14:13.800 really feel like even then, you was the only the 0:14:13.840 --> 0:14:17.720 only genuine, genuine baby child mom I had. You was 0:14:17.760 --> 0:14:22.760 the only probably true friend that I had where it 0:14:22.840 --> 0:14:25.240 was like, yo, this female never asked me for and 0:14:25.320 --> 0:14:28.080 honestly she was really entitled to it. I'm gonna saying 0:14:28.080 --> 0:14:30.640 titled because you was my child mom. So it was like, YO, 0:14:31.000 --> 0:14:33.160 you could have always called, oh, actually need this, actually 0:14:33.160 --> 0:14:36.200 need that, need this, but you never did that. You 0:14:36.280 --> 0:14:39.040 never did that, And um so I boomed fast forward 0:14:39.360 --> 0:14:43.520 by now ship got fucked up, running out one and 0:14:43.600 --> 0:14:46.880 low you on your peak. You know, you know you 0:14:47.040 --> 0:14:51.160 ride money running out you know. I got fired, and 0:14:51.160 --> 0:14:53.800 that's what really happened. I got fired. So now you 0:14:53.800 --> 0:14:56.920 know I stopped spending people like, oh he went broke. 0:14:56.960 --> 0:15:00.200 I ain't go broke. There, I humbled myself at little 0:15:00.200 --> 0:15:03.200 bit I did, I said, Joe, like the savings, I 0:15:03.200 --> 0:15:05.360 ain't you know, I don't think it was hopen. I 0:15:05.360 --> 0:15:06.840 ain don't know if. I ain't know how I scammed 0:15:06.840 --> 0:15:07.880 and I don't know how to do none of that. 0:15:08.080 --> 0:15:12.000 He was not security, that's all. I not security. I was. 0:15:12.600 --> 0:15:17.960 Now I'm a nursing support. So he fired me, and 0:15:18.640 --> 0:15:20.680 I'm like, damn, they will find me right right right 0:15:20.760 --> 0:15:23.120 right now. So I'm like, damn you. I can't spend 0:15:23.120 --> 0:15:24.920 no more because I don't know when the next time 0:15:24.960 --> 0:15:26.960 I'm gonna get a jaw. I went a whole six 0:15:27.000 --> 0:15:29.080 months without a jaw. It wasn't to my aunt, shearid. 0:15:29.080 --> 0:15:31.400 It was like go to such and such. You know 0:15:31.480 --> 0:15:33.200 that you know the manager and you know that the 0:15:33.360 --> 0:15:35.640 hr I'm like, real, I got my ship. I went 0:15:35.720 --> 0:15:38.680 up there and just six months later, so you know, 0:15:38.720 --> 0:15:42.000 I'm on my last and you know, I ain't gonna 0:15:42.040 --> 0:15:43.840 say who I went back to you at the moment, 0:15:44.120 --> 0:15:46.720 but you know, I wind up going back to my 0:15:46.800 --> 0:15:50.480 second child mom. And I did say it. No, I 0:15:50.480 --> 0:15:54.320 was gonna say no, I ain't gonna say I wind 0:15:54.440 --> 0:15:56.360 up going back. Yeah, I wind up going back to 0:15:56.440 --> 0:15:58.160 hub when things you know, but I didn't want to 0:15:58.160 --> 0:16:00.320 be with the when things right. It was just knowing. 0:16:00.360 --> 0:16:04.640 It was just at the moment, I can't say that, um, 0:16:04.680 --> 0:16:07.160 but by then you know you're reaching your peak and 0:16:07.200 --> 0:16:12.120 even doing that stage like now you're traveling. Now you're traveling. 0:16:12.400 --> 0:16:16.160 Don't want to answer my calls, you know, with Chris 0:16:16.200 --> 0:16:18.560 Chris Witch you endemic that created a jealous spot with 0:16:18.600 --> 0:16:20.800 me because I'm like, damg, she really don't answer my calls. 0:16:21.240 --> 0:16:23.560 She really ain't sucking with me. I say, way, we 0:16:23.560 --> 0:16:25.560 weren't even in a bad spot for it to be 0:16:25.720 --> 0:16:30.040 like this, so I'm not confused, but I'm already funk. 0:16:30.080 --> 0:16:33.000 I know you don't like me. You're in thelocal trust girl. Now, okay, cool, 0:16:33.560 --> 0:16:36.280 that went on like a year some change. It wasn't 0:16:36.320 --> 0:16:40.400 until you really up and just left your alone you 0:16:40.440 --> 0:16:44.320 got a relationship. I got everybody back like again, Like honestly, 0:16:44.360 --> 0:16:45.880 I don't know what the funk it was. It was 0:16:45.920 --> 0:16:48.600 just like he just had me isolated. It's fun from 0:16:48.640 --> 0:16:51.440 like I wasn't I wasn't even close with London when 0:16:51.440 --> 0:16:53.720 I was with him, Like I wasn't talking to Shana 0:16:53.840 --> 0:16:55.920 as much when I was with him. Like it was 0:16:56.000 --> 0:16:58.160 just like like I don't know why, Like it was 0:16:58.200 --> 0:17:00.440 like he had turned me against other. Well, and then 0:17:00.480 --> 0:17:02.960 this is the you know my closest people. And the 0:17:03.000 --> 0:17:05.399 thing is, you're not ever supposed to give somebody some 0:17:05.400 --> 0:17:08.320 power over that. I mean, give somebody some power like 0:17:08.440 --> 0:17:10.880 that over you, like you never post you. I don't 0:17:10.920 --> 0:17:12.879 know what it was what the hell it was. But 0:17:13.400 --> 0:17:16.520 Chris had a motherfucking hold on me, you know what 0:17:16.600 --> 0:17:19.840 I mean. Like, the only person that I was even 0:17:20.359 --> 0:17:23.440 close to, like around with other than him was my son, 0:17:24.000 --> 0:17:26.520 Like that was it. Me and my mom, Like we 0:17:26.520 --> 0:17:29.600 we talked. I would never go around my family though, 0:17:29.720 --> 0:17:33.440 Like it was crazy. So I felt lonely, as fun 0:17:33.560 --> 0:17:35.680 to you, while I was with him. I'm like, damn, 0:17:35.760 --> 0:17:37.680 and I felt lonely because I had caught everybody off, 0:17:38.119 --> 0:17:40.840 you know, indirectly, and that ship like really fucked me 0:17:40.920 --> 0:17:42.359 up something like, y'all, I need to get away from 0:17:42.359 --> 0:17:45.159 this nigga for different reasons. Not only is he stealing 0:17:45.400 --> 0:17:47.199 stealing from me, Not only is he cheating on me. 0:17:47.440 --> 0:17:49.480 Not only is you know, is he not even good 0:17:49.520 --> 0:17:54.200 for my son? You know, he's also fucking just not 0:17:54.320 --> 0:17:58.119 good for me. Period. He's not a good person, you know. 0:17:58.240 --> 0:18:00.600 And so I I realized that. And it's like, you're 0:18:00.600 --> 0:18:03.480 never supposed to stay with somebody so long to where 0:18:03.520 --> 0:18:05.440 you start hating them. You gotta break that shut off, 0:18:05.480 --> 0:18:09.720 because um, you know, it's not good to hate someone. 0:18:09.800 --> 0:18:13.119 And then the thing is, I think we're both doing great, 0:18:13.200 --> 0:18:16.040 fucking great. I don't know exactly how he's gonna He 0:18:16.080 --> 0:18:19.440 has a beautiful baby. Um, I hear you know. Um, 0:18:19.880 --> 0:18:22.640 I think he's been blocked so long I can't even 0:18:22.680 --> 0:18:25.119 go to his page. So and I doubt that he 0:18:25.200 --> 0:18:26.919 comes to mind. I mean, I don't know, you know 0:18:27.119 --> 0:18:29.720 what I'm saying, Like he has a beautiful child, and um, 0:18:29.720 --> 0:18:32.399 I've seen the baby. You know, other people screenshots people 0:18:32.440 --> 0:18:33.879 like oh, she had a baby, and they send it 0:18:33.920 --> 0:18:36.479 to me. Um, baby look just like him. I know 0:18:36.520 --> 0:18:40.440 he's in a relationship. Um he is top tier uber driver, 0:18:40.600 --> 0:18:44.960 Like he's like yeah, like he's doing exceptionally well, like okay, 0:18:45.000 --> 0:18:48.000 and I still wish him all the best, but they 0:18:48.000 --> 0:18:51.040 say even doing this, Bard is great, like everything is great. 0:18:51.040 --> 0:18:53.040 So I'm like, maybe that was the best thing for 0:18:53.119 --> 0:18:57.960 both of us. Like you gotta understand, there's no disrespect 0:18:58.000 --> 0:19:01.880