1 00:00:00,160 --> 00:00:03,120 Speaker 1: Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio 2 00:00:03,240 --> 00:00:08,560 Speaker 1: and the Black Effect. Nice as nice, little aspect, I 3 00:00:08,640 --> 00:00:21,360 Speaker 1: still aspect, nice still as still still, And just like that, 4 00:00:21,520 --> 00:00:24,079 Speaker 1: we're back on the air. Welcome back to another carefully 5 00:00:24,120 --> 00:00:27,160 Speaker 1: Reckless episode with your girl just hilarious. And I got 6 00:00:27,240 --> 00:00:30,760 Speaker 1: little baby father with me today. This is his first 7 00:00:30,760 --> 00:00:33,120 Speaker 1: time doing yeoh, this is your first time doing the 8 00:00:33,200 --> 00:00:37,320 Speaker 1: actual podcast, ain't it. Yeah, you've never been on audio. 9 00:00:38,000 --> 00:00:43,519 Speaker 1: Your son made its call reckless before years. No, Yo, 10 00:00:43,600 --> 00:00:45,760 Speaker 1: it's low as to be trying to really really boss 11 00:00:45,840 --> 00:00:47,519 Speaker 1: up on me. He'd be trying to crack on me 12 00:00:47,560 --> 00:00:49,319 Speaker 1: and everything. You think, your little comedian when you get 13 00:00:49,360 --> 00:00:52,519 Speaker 1: in here. Um, the topic that I wanted to discuss 14 00:00:52,600 --> 00:00:55,320 Speaker 1: um A lot of people always asks. They always ask 15 00:00:56,520 --> 00:01:00,000 Speaker 1: about like how you and I got to this point, 16 00:01:00,160 --> 00:01:03,600 Speaker 1: you know, where we can co parent healthy and like 17 00:01:03,680 --> 00:01:07,640 Speaker 1: in a healthy way, and how we have made this um, 18 00:01:07,800 --> 00:01:11,360 Speaker 1: this this great environment for ourselves and our child. Like 19 00:01:11,480 --> 00:01:15,319 Speaker 1: we were like, we're definitely like a happy family, but 20 00:01:15,400 --> 00:01:18,040 Speaker 1: like we it's like, man, you are siblings and people 21 00:01:18,280 --> 00:01:20,720 Speaker 1: don't even they don't get it. They love it, but 22 00:01:20,760 --> 00:01:23,000 Speaker 1: they don't get it. So I want to talk about 23 00:01:23,040 --> 00:01:25,560 Speaker 1: that like because it took a long time for us 24 00:01:25,600 --> 00:01:28,320 Speaker 1: to get here, but we did. We did get it, 25 00:01:28,680 --> 00:01:32,680 Speaker 1: And I don't think it took a long time. I 26 00:01:32,760 --> 00:01:35,679 Speaker 1: just think it took some time. It's took a lot 27 00:01:35,680 --> 00:01:38,440 Speaker 1: of work too, it took a lot. I wouldn't even 28 00:01:38,440 --> 00:01:41,240 Speaker 1: say it work. It just it was pride. I think 29 00:01:41,240 --> 00:01:42,399 Speaker 1: it was a lot of pride in the way like 30 00:01:42,440 --> 00:01:44,559 Speaker 1: you know, we was, we was young, We was coming 31 00:01:44,560 --> 00:01:47,600 Speaker 1: from two different backgrounds, and for the longest I really 32 00:01:47,600 --> 00:01:49,800 Speaker 1: couldn't understand you, like why you did the things you 33 00:01:49,840 --> 00:01:53,240 Speaker 1: did when you came from a two prime household, and 34 00:01:53,840 --> 00:01:55,880 Speaker 1: you know, as as I grew and you know, learn 35 00:01:55,920 --> 00:01:58,080 Speaker 1: to get out my feelings with dealing with you, I 36 00:01:58,160 --> 00:01:59,720 Speaker 1: took a step back and I said, well, damn, let 37 00:01:59,720 --> 00:02:01,680 Speaker 1: me try to understand it. Which I can't get you 38 00:02:01,720 --> 00:02:04,480 Speaker 1: personally into that or far as me at Ashton, it 39 00:02:04,600 --> 00:02:08,560 Speaker 1: was like it was easy for us to just separate 40 00:02:08,639 --> 00:02:12,080 Speaker 1: and go out ways because we had your number one 41 00:02:12,160 --> 00:02:15,960 Speaker 1: lady in the middle, your mom, My mom. She took 42 00:02:16,520 --> 00:02:18,760 Speaker 1: it was so much easy. Ways though you'd be like, all, well, 43 00:02:18,800 --> 00:02:20,560 Speaker 1: fuck you, bitch, or whatever the case. Maybe I never 44 00:02:20,639 --> 00:02:23,320 Speaker 1: was really that disrespectful then, so I wouldn't really say that, 45 00:02:23,360 --> 00:02:26,079 Speaker 1: but you never you never really did. You didn't talk 46 00:02:26,120 --> 00:02:28,640 Speaker 1: to me like I talked to you the correct and 47 00:02:28,880 --> 00:02:31,079 Speaker 1: you know, like I said even then, like I'm like, damn, 48 00:02:31,120 --> 00:02:33,079 Speaker 1: why is she talking to me like that? Like he's like, 49 00:02:33,120 --> 00:02:34,959 Speaker 1: you know, like I was a little I don't even timid, 50 00:02:35,000 --> 00:02:39,519 Speaker 1: but just like still really emotional. But definitely I think, mom, 51 00:02:39,639 --> 00:02:41,400 Speaker 1: your mom, Mom arrived and you know, shout out to her. 52 00:02:41,480 --> 00:02:44,480 Speaker 1: Always give her flowers. Why I always give up flowers, 53 00:02:44,520 --> 00:02:47,959 Speaker 1: But I believe that her being your mom and a 54 00:02:48,040 --> 00:02:52,760 Speaker 1: daycare provider really helped us a lot as well. So 55 00:02:52,960 --> 00:02:55,000 Speaker 1: of course I didn't have to see you. I would 56 00:02:55,040 --> 00:02:58,160 Speaker 1: pick him up on a Friday, drop him off Monday 57 00:02:58,200 --> 00:03:00,679 Speaker 1: to daycare, go to school, and you will get a 58 00:03:00,720 --> 00:03:05,320 Speaker 1: Monday through Thursday, which in the normal world for moms 59 00:03:05,360 --> 00:03:08,880 Speaker 1: that have, you know, custody of their children, that is 60 00:03:08,919 --> 00:03:11,520 Speaker 1: normal for the dad to do. Yeah, it is not 61 00:03:11,600 --> 00:03:14,640 Speaker 1: a problem. You're not a dad beat dad because you 62 00:03:14,680 --> 00:03:19,600 Speaker 1: get your child through Monday. I mean primarily a kid. 63 00:03:19,680 --> 00:03:23,200 Speaker 1: You know, a kid lives with their moms, so you know, 64 00:03:23,320 --> 00:03:26,200 Speaker 1: primarily in some cases, you know, because nowadays, you know, 65 00:03:26,320 --> 00:03:29,960 Speaker 1: there are a lot of single dads too, and you know, 66 00:03:30,160 --> 00:03:33,440 Speaker 1: and and they get like they had their children from 67 00:03:33,440 --> 00:03:35,520 Speaker 1: sun up the sunday. You know, they have to they 68 00:03:35,520 --> 00:03:37,800 Speaker 1: have to be basically the mother and the dad, you know. 69 00:03:37,880 --> 00:03:41,400 Speaker 1: And I give those dads their flowers as well, you 70 00:03:41,440 --> 00:03:44,680 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. So I'm not gonna always um 71 00:03:44,880 --> 00:03:48,160 Speaker 1: only give the moms a single mom life. You know, 72 00:03:48,640 --> 00:03:51,680 Speaker 1: some light, No, definitely, but that's WHI always take the 73 00:03:51,720 --> 00:03:54,440 Speaker 1: credit for, granted with me and you And wait, what 74 00:03:54,520 --> 00:03:58,200 Speaker 1: was you saying? Because you said you couldn't understand why 75 00:03:58,200 --> 00:03:59,840 Speaker 1: I would do the things I did? What the hell 76 00:03:59,920 --> 00:04:02,800 Speaker 1: was not doing that was so necessarily you was doing 77 00:04:02,920 --> 00:04:04,920 Speaker 1: bad thing? It was the way you like just like 78 00:04:05,160 --> 00:04:08,560 Speaker 1: nobody really seen that side of you, like the party side, 79 00:04:08,640 --> 00:04:11,560 Speaker 1: the wild side, like for a long time. We're gonna 80 00:04:11,560 --> 00:04:14,880 Speaker 1: put it on here. For a long time. It was, 81 00:04:14,920 --> 00:04:18,200 Speaker 1: oh that's wrong, baby mother. I know I've said that, 82 00:04:18,720 --> 00:04:22,360 Speaker 1: but a lot of doing before I was, before Jessillaris 83 00:04:22,440 --> 00:04:25,800 Speaker 1: was even thought of. I was just wrong, baby mother. Nobody. Yeah, 84 00:04:25,920 --> 00:04:27,640 Speaker 1: we will take it because of you. We're gonna take 85 00:04:27,640 --> 00:04:29,720 Speaker 1: it back before Ashton. We're gonna play it like that. 86 00:04:29,760 --> 00:04:31,440 Speaker 1: We're gonna take it back before Ashton before that, you know, 87 00:04:31,480 --> 00:04:33,360 Speaker 1: it was that was wrong, baby mother. Everybody was trying 88 00:04:33,360 --> 00:04:36,239 Speaker 1: to figure out who Jess was. You know, Facebook was popping, 89 00:04:36,240 --> 00:04:38,680 Speaker 1: and then she had the ball blonde head head we 90 00:04:38,920 --> 00:04:41,440 Speaker 1: played the kan Yeah yeah, Ama Rose things. So you know, 91 00:04:41,480 --> 00:04:43,400 Speaker 1: like then I started going parties. Well, um, a couple 92 00:04:43,440 --> 00:04:46,320 Speaker 1: of friends of mine from school and um, a couple 93 00:04:46,360 --> 00:04:49,400 Speaker 1: of parties. I'm gonna put you on the flying you 94 00:04:49,440 --> 00:04:51,440 Speaker 1: know now people seeing you. Now you're going out more 95 00:04:51,480 --> 00:04:52,719 Speaker 1: because for a long time, like I said, you in 96 00:04:52,720 --> 00:04:54,760 Speaker 1: school white people, so like you've really never really I 97 00:04:54,880 --> 00:04:59,000 Speaker 1: never really seen a party side until after that, like 98 00:04:59,120 --> 00:05:01,080 Speaker 1: after that fact, so right after that part, but it 99 00:05:01,200 --> 00:05:04,279 Speaker 1: was like why the fund this girl always got a party, 100 00:05:04,320 --> 00:05:06,000 Speaker 1: Like why is she not family going to like your 101 00:05:06,040 --> 00:05:08,440 Speaker 1: mom my dad still together? You know, they got two houses, 102 00:05:08,560 --> 00:05:11,440 Speaker 1: like that's the life. Like I was like that. I 103 00:05:11,480 --> 00:05:13,200 Speaker 1: was like, that's all right. So when you grow up 104 00:05:13,200 --> 00:05:15,320 Speaker 1: like that, you know what I'm saying, Like my mom 105 00:05:15,440 --> 00:05:17,640 Speaker 1: didn't let me go off. My mom didn't like it was. 106 00:05:17,760 --> 00:05:20,320 Speaker 1: I was just doing everything that I wasn't allowed to 107 00:05:20,320 --> 00:05:22,359 Speaker 1: do when I was younger. My mom didn't like me 108 00:05:22,400 --> 00:05:25,720 Speaker 1: hanging with fast tail girls like fast ass girls, and 109 00:05:25,720 --> 00:05:29,520 Speaker 1: and she did Yeah you know, I was definitely sheltered, 110 00:05:29,600 --> 00:05:31,880 Speaker 1: you know, And it wasn't like I thank her for 111 00:05:31,960 --> 00:05:34,640 Speaker 1: that now, you know. But that's why I always I 112 00:05:34,640 --> 00:05:37,200 Speaker 1: started sneaking out and I started stealing our car coming 113 00:05:37,240 --> 00:05:39,600 Speaker 1: to Baltomore because you know, I went, like I sent 114 00:05:39,680 --> 00:05:42,679 Speaker 1: to an all white high school in Pennsylvania. So I started. 115 00:05:42,880 --> 00:05:45,160 Speaker 1: I got into two drugs and Ship, I got into 116 00:05:45,279 --> 00:05:47,600 Speaker 1: all that. When I started drinking up there with them 117 00:05:47,640 --> 00:05:50,280 Speaker 1: goddamn white kids. I'm like, oh, Ship, all right, you 118 00:05:50,360 --> 00:05:52,320 Speaker 1: working all the way in Baltomore, Mom, Ship, I'm about 119 00:05:52,360 --> 00:05:56,440 Speaker 1: to start sucking up out here, you know. And when 120 00:05:56,480 --> 00:05:58,719 Speaker 1: I got back to Baltomore, that's when I met you 121 00:05:58,960 --> 00:06:01,240 Speaker 1: after my high school year is and I'm like, okay, 122 00:06:01,680 --> 00:06:04,480 Speaker 1: all right, so now I can party in Baltimore, like now, 123 00:06:04,560 --> 00:06:06,279 Speaker 1: you know. So that's what it was. I was just 124 00:06:06,320 --> 00:06:08,760 Speaker 1: trying to I guess, you know, get my years back 125 00:06:08,880 --> 00:06:12,599 Speaker 1: that I spent bench you know, not able to do that, Ship, okay. 126 00:06:12,680 --> 00:06:15,240 Speaker 1: And then yeah, like I think that that was that time. 127 00:06:15,279 --> 00:06:20,960 Speaker 1: And then it was a situation. You got into this 128 00:06:21,040 --> 00:06:24,479 Speaker 1: when I really liked, knew that I was in love 129 00:06:24,560 --> 00:06:27,320 Speaker 1: with you, because when you came to me, I really 130 00:06:27,320 --> 00:06:31,120 Speaker 1: could I really wasn't you know, what's the way do you? 131 00:06:31,240 --> 00:06:34,240 Speaker 1: I can use not emotional. I really wasn't sympathy sympathetic. 132 00:06:34,800 --> 00:06:36,560 Speaker 1: I really wasn't like, oh, well she coming to me 133 00:06:36,600 --> 00:06:40,360 Speaker 1: like whatever, I don't believe I really believe you. But 134 00:06:40,480 --> 00:06:44,880 Speaker 1: about you know with the John concil block, the model. Yeah, 135 00:06:44,880 --> 00:06:46,599 Speaker 1: so you know, like when you know, we sat in 136 00:06:46,640 --> 00:06:48,720 Speaker 1: the court room and you know you at this point, 137 00:06:48,720 --> 00:06:51,080 Speaker 1: at this time, you're pregnant, so like you know, you're 138 00:06:51,080 --> 00:06:52,800 Speaker 1: showing a little bit. So when you were set in 139 00:06:52,839 --> 00:06:56,080 Speaker 1: the court room and um, all I heard was Tom, 140 00:06:56,200 --> 00:06:58,520 Speaker 1: I ain't hid is a suspension the weekend ship and 141 00:06:58,560 --> 00:07:00,120 Speaker 1: none of that ship. So like you know, at the 142 00:07:00,200 --> 00:07:01,600 Speaker 1: sentence was over, I was all right, well she got 143 00:07:01,640 --> 00:07:03,600 Speaker 1: go on weekends. So this one, you know, it got 144 00:07:03,640 --> 00:07:05,160 Speaker 1: a little good for me because I'm like, oh, she 145 00:07:05,520 --> 00:07:09,080 Speaker 1: going to jail on the weekends. I had a call, 146 00:07:09,120 --> 00:07:14,200 Speaker 1: so I was going to jail, and all you was 147 00:07:14,280 --> 00:07:17,960 Speaker 1: worried about was the bitches you was going to see 148 00:07:18,000 --> 00:07:20,520 Speaker 1: while I was jail on the weekend, because she was 149 00:07:20,520 --> 00:07:22,880 Speaker 1: gonna hand in my car. No, it wasn't necessary that 150 00:07:23,240 --> 00:07:25,600 Speaker 1: it was because I was always scared to drive outside 151 00:07:25,600 --> 00:07:29,280 Speaker 1: of the neighborhood. I adn't really get that until you know, man, 152 00:07:29,320 --> 00:07:31,120 Speaker 1: you started driving back and forth the p A. You 153 00:07:31,120 --> 00:07:32,960 Speaker 1: don't let me drive. Mind, I still only had a college. 154 00:07:33,000 --> 00:07:34,440 Speaker 1: I didn't have a birth to you at that time, 155 00:07:35,000 --> 00:07:40,760 Speaker 1: but I was yeah, didn't so until late. But remember 156 00:07:40,760 --> 00:07:42,200 Speaker 1: I used to work with the car washing the part 157 00:07:42,200 --> 00:07:45,600 Speaker 1: of car and current cleaning. Real good for the gentleman ties. Stay. 158 00:07:46,040 --> 00:07:49,640 Speaker 1: But I think that man, you gained such a great 159 00:07:49,680 --> 00:07:52,120 Speaker 1: bomb because you was dead when I got all of 160 00:07:52,160 --> 00:07:58,120 Speaker 1: those things, birth certificate, my my permit, my license, and 161 00:07:58,280 --> 00:08:01,120 Speaker 1: we found out the real spelling US spelling to my name. 162 00:08:01,600 --> 00:08:03,720 Speaker 1: And I had to go do so much things and 163 00:08:03,760 --> 00:08:05,640 Speaker 1: it is getting me changed. And this is me by 164 00:08:05,680 --> 00:08:08,520 Speaker 1: myself doing it. Like like I said, Man, you know, 165 00:08:08,560 --> 00:08:10,360 Speaker 1: I love my dad to death, but my dad didn't 166 00:08:10,360 --> 00:08:12,560 Speaker 1: really do he was supposed to do. And my my mom, 167 00:08:12,680 --> 00:08:15,640 Speaker 1: my stepmom, my stepmo was really just a provider. My 168 00:08:15,680 --> 00:08:18,200 Speaker 1: stepmom really wasn't a lover. Like she didn't know how 169 00:08:18,240 --> 00:08:21,360 Speaker 1: to kiss you. Yeah, yeah, it was never I love you. 170 00:08:21,440 --> 00:08:23,720 Speaker 1: It was never man, let me hold you. It wasn't. 171 00:08:23,720 --> 00:08:25,120 Speaker 1: But she made you know, she cooked the lot she 172 00:08:25,680 --> 00:08:27,800 Speaker 1: supposed to do. And you know me, I wanted that 173 00:08:27,840 --> 00:08:30,280 Speaker 1: because I had lost my mom. So now so now 174 00:08:30,320 --> 00:08:33,080 Speaker 1: I'm an adult in the dating world, obvious, really don't 175 00:08:33,120 --> 00:08:35,840 Speaker 1: know how to date a woman, right, okay, but you 176 00:08:35,840 --> 00:08:38,880 Speaker 1: know what takes up. It takes like a lot of 177 00:08:39,200 --> 00:08:42,440 Speaker 1: balls to even say that that's really good that you 178 00:08:42,440 --> 00:08:44,959 Speaker 1: know that. Yeah, my dad made it cool, like yo, 179 00:08:45,160 --> 00:08:47,280 Speaker 1: all right, even my right mind. You know, like I said, 180 00:08:47,280 --> 00:08:49,560 Speaker 1: he a shame this game. We had this conversation a lot. Now. 181 00:08:50,120 --> 00:08:52,559 Speaker 1: My dad made it cool that it was cool to 182 00:08:52,760 --> 00:08:56,360 Speaker 1: just fun different women. It wasn't cool too, I know, 183 00:08:56,440 --> 00:08:59,200 Speaker 1: I didn't want to disrespect a woman like there, but 184 00:08:59,200 --> 00:09:00,720 Speaker 1: he my dad made it like it was just cool 185 00:09:00,720 --> 00:09:03,320 Speaker 1: to date the multiple women. It was like, you know, 186 00:09:03,360 --> 00:09:06,400 Speaker 1: at eighteen nineteen, my dad like, oh boy, I'm shortly marvel, 187 00:09:06,480 --> 00:09:08,120 Speaker 1: like I need you had a niece or a sister. 188 00:09:08,720 --> 00:09:11,160 Speaker 1: Oh oh, I got you, especially when I got a 189 00:09:11,200 --> 00:09:14,520 Speaker 1: little older. You know, let's go back to you know me, 190 00:09:14,559 --> 00:09:16,800 Speaker 1: and you're like, we're gonna fast forward a little bit 191 00:09:16,840 --> 00:09:20,679 Speaker 1: till now acton like one or two for a long time. 192 00:09:20,720 --> 00:09:22,600 Speaker 1: I'm gonna say, like seven months, we ain't. We didn't. 193 00:09:22,679 --> 00:09:26,440 Speaker 1: We don't communicate. We didn't. Yeah, we didn't communicate at all. 194 00:09:26,520 --> 00:09:29,240 Speaker 1: It was very rare. It was always arguing, like you know, 195 00:09:29,400 --> 00:09:30,760 Speaker 1: and that that was around the time where you know, 196 00:09:30,840 --> 00:09:33,079 Speaker 1: you bust my window out the car, you know that 197 00:09:33,200 --> 00:09:35,280 Speaker 1: jazz and selling and ship Yeah, yeah, you know, that 198 00:09:35,360 --> 00:09:37,480 Speaker 1: was around that time. But um, after think that was 199 00:09:37,520 --> 00:09:41,400 Speaker 1: the only problem. After that, you know, I ain't talked 200 00:09:41,400 --> 00:09:43,000 Speaker 1: to you again. I just your mom let me know 201 00:09:43,040 --> 00:09:46,440 Speaker 1: that you was home. Uh we went on, man, I 202 00:09:46,480 --> 00:09:49,200 Speaker 1: created my schedule then't I think the comedian stuff started 203 00:09:49,200 --> 00:09:50,760 Speaker 1: probably like a year or two after that. I want 204 00:09:50,760 --> 00:09:53,480 Speaker 1: to say it started around when Ashton started. Two years 205 00:09:53,520 --> 00:09:56,280 Speaker 1: after that day, so acting three now it's two, it's 206 00:09:56,320 --> 00:10:00,079 Speaker 1: two thousand. You know, I catched me, I catched allege that. 207 00:10:00,840 --> 00:10:02,760 Speaker 1: Um but by then, you know, I had just brought 208 00:10:02,760 --> 00:10:05,280 Speaker 1: a cough for my twenty second birthday with working money, 209 00:10:05,840 --> 00:10:08,760 Speaker 1: you know, I catched the check. I'm still going to school, 210 00:10:09,120 --> 00:10:12,200 Speaker 1: so everything is opening up for me. But you know you, 211 00:10:12,280 --> 00:10:14,240 Speaker 1: on the other hand, you're still trying to make it. 212 00:10:15,200 --> 00:10:16,880 Speaker 1: And one thing I can say, we never could be 213 00:10:17,160 --> 00:10:19,800 Speaker 1: struggling like a motherfucker's we never could be up at 214 00:10:19,840 --> 00:10:22,080 Speaker 1: the same time. So like here, I catched the check, 215 00:10:22,200 --> 00:10:25,280 Speaker 1: you know me, you know me, I'm just so happy 216 00:10:25,320 --> 00:10:28,760 Speaker 1: I'm younger. Even all this money, I can finally do 217 00:10:28,800 --> 00:10:31,760 Speaker 1: what I want to do. Now Ship, I could date 218 00:10:31,760 --> 00:10:33,880 Speaker 1: the chicks that I wanted to date now, like a 219 00:10:33,920 --> 00:10:36,000 Speaker 1: whole lot. When when I say that, I'd be like, 220 00:10:36,000 --> 00:10:38,360 Speaker 1: you know how, you know why, I wasn't enough? No body, 221 00:10:38,480 --> 00:10:42,600 Speaker 1: you're gone, but no ship. No, by then I'm two 222 00:10:43,400 --> 00:10:46,760 Speaker 1: when he was broken. No, that's not you're gone already. 223 00:10:46,800 --> 00:10:50,160 Speaker 1: You know already. Basically you're already gone for me, like 224 00:10:50,480 --> 00:10:52,920 Speaker 1: you probably had like three or four boyfriends. Matter of fact, 225 00:10:52,920 --> 00:10:55,760 Speaker 1: remember the first birthday you had a boyfriend as your 226 00:10:55,760 --> 00:10:57,320 Speaker 1: first birthday, when he first known how to walk, he 227 00:10:57,320 --> 00:10:59,760 Speaker 1: had a little push of turtle, you know. Yeah, so 228 00:11:00,080 --> 00:11:02,599 Speaker 1: by then, like even then we was we wasn't and 229 00:11:03,920 --> 00:11:06,439 Speaker 1: yeah we weren't buddy buddy then, but we was cool. 230 00:11:06,760 --> 00:11:09,040 Speaker 1: Yeah we were we were Okay, it wasn't too the 231 00:11:09,120 --> 00:11:11,000 Speaker 1: second year when I'm like, all right, you know what, 232 00:11:11,400 --> 00:11:13,000 Speaker 1: I ain't wonder about what she's doing no more. I'm 233 00:11:13,040 --> 00:11:15,400 Speaker 1: not about to let her keep getting me upset, and 234 00:11:15,559 --> 00:11:18,400 Speaker 1: you know, whatever the case may be. Then act in 235 00:11:18,480 --> 00:11:21,680 Speaker 1: turn three. All that ship happened. Now I'm doing good 236 00:11:21,679 --> 00:11:24,079 Speaker 1: for myself. By then, you're doing what you're doing You 237 00:11:24,160 --> 00:11:27,040 Speaker 1: got a boyfriend though, So even when the money and 238 00:11:27,080 --> 00:11:30,439 Speaker 1: ship really started, when it started really really coming, when 239 00:11:30,480 --> 00:11:32,440 Speaker 1: it really came, you know the most thing you asked. 240 00:11:32,520 --> 00:11:34,200 Speaker 1: So I always loved you doing like and I never 241 00:11:34,200 --> 00:11:36,480 Speaker 1: shared this story, but I'm a share today. When the 242 00:11:36,520 --> 00:11:39,920 Speaker 1: money came, you never asked me for ship. You said, wrong, 243 00:11:40,440 --> 00:11:42,520 Speaker 1: I don't want being mommy house no more. Now mind you, 244 00:11:42,559 --> 00:11:44,480 Speaker 1: we haven't coming. We're communicating a little bit more. Way 245 00:11:44,480 --> 00:11:45,840 Speaker 1: before it came, you don't even know it was coming 246 00:11:45,840 --> 00:11:48,240 Speaker 1: fresh on. But I wanted that. I wanted telling you that, 247 00:11:48,280 --> 00:11:49,840 Speaker 1: you know, I was get catching the cabs and shipped 248 00:11:49,840 --> 00:11:53,120 Speaker 1: to the appointments. So then the only thing you said 249 00:11:53,120 --> 00:11:55,880 Speaker 1: it was wrong. I just want you to help me move. 250 00:11:56,640 --> 00:11:59,600 Speaker 1: I said, all right, good, findal apartment and I will 251 00:11:59,640 --> 00:12:02,559 Speaker 1: pay for you. Never found the apartment. You went and 252 00:12:02,679 --> 00:12:04,480 Speaker 1: got the house man. You got the house, and there 253 00:12:04,520 --> 00:12:07,480 Speaker 1: was you and um, what's that guy named? You're on 254 00:12:07,559 --> 00:12:10,400 Speaker 1: a J. And I'm like, I know this bitch ain't 255 00:12:10,440 --> 00:12:12,120 Speaker 1: just telling me she wanted to move and move with 256 00:12:12,240 --> 00:12:16,079 Speaker 1: the motherfucking nigga. But by then me and A J 257 00:12:16,280 --> 00:12:19,240 Speaker 1: was click tight, like yeah, I like a J. That 258 00:12:19,360 --> 00:12:21,680 Speaker 1: was my favorite man out of everybody you had, that 259 00:12:21,720 --> 00:12:23,959 Speaker 1: was my favorite boyfriend you had. Man, we didn't had 260 00:12:23,960 --> 00:12:26,480 Speaker 1: some of the best talks like that always. Man, we 261 00:12:26,480 --> 00:12:28,520 Speaker 1: had we had a one on one talk you ain't 262 00:12:28,520 --> 00:12:30,600 Speaker 1: even know about, and that's what we said about how different. 263 00:12:31,080 --> 00:12:32,880 Speaker 1: And it wasn't necessarily did something to me. It was 264 00:12:32,880 --> 00:12:35,240 Speaker 1: more so me being you know, the cocky person that 265 00:12:35,280 --> 00:12:38,160 Speaker 1: I was, and I don't want you run my mother. Yeah, yeah, 266 00:12:38,160 --> 00:12:39,880 Speaker 1: you know so man Ajia had a great talk. Man 267 00:12:39,920 --> 00:12:41,679 Speaker 1: one shout up to you boy make man, that's one 268 00:12:41,720 --> 00:12:43,120 Speaker 1: that was one of my like my dogs. I don't 269 00:12:43,120 --> 00:12:45,600 Speaker 1: know what happened to in whatever case may beat throughout 270 00:12:45,880 --> 00:12:48,559 Speaker 1: he got locked up. Okay, you got locked Okay to 271 00:12:48,640 --> 00:12:51,439 Speaker 1: see even after that, then when y'all get done, you 272 00:12:51,600 --> 00:12:54,200 Speaker 1: know you got Chris that coming you are. I don't 273 00:12:54,200 --> 00:12:55,800 Speaker 1: know what was up with you, but your ain't like 274 00:12:55,920 --> 00:12:58,200 Speaker 1: me for some reason. So like by then, I'm still 275 00:12:58,320 --> 00:13:00,320 Speaker 1: you know, I still got money, I'm still working my ass, 276 00:13:00,320 --> 00:13:02,800 Speaker 1: so I'm still doing damn. But Chris didn't like me 277 00:13:02,880 --> 00:13:05,520 Speaker 1: because we were really close, Me and you were close 278 00:13:05,600 --> 00:13:07,960 Speaker 1: like that. So I'm trying to figure it out. So 279 00:13:08,080 --> 00:13:11,000 Speaker 1: like it's times where I'd be shocking, I'd be like 280 00:13:11,440 --> 00:13:14,520 Speaker 1: I know my being like this, and I'm like, no, 281 00:13:14,559 --> 00:13:16,360 Speaker 1: I ain't get because I don't want cars, friction in 282 00:13:16,440 --> 00:13:21,079 Speaker 1: the household anything because that you never have an But 283 00:13:21,080 --> 00:13:22,880 Speaker 1: but it wasn't necessary. You never you know what you 284 00:13:23,000 --> 00:13:24,880 Speaker 1: wasn't that type of woman. Yeah you didn't come from 285 00:13:24,920 --> 00:13:27,400 Speaker 1: the household, but you would never even know because you're 286 00:13:27,400 --> 00:13:31,760 Speaker 1: never trying to know. And I never tried because you 287 00:13:31,760 --> 00:13:33,680 Speaker 1: had a boyfriend. I didn't want to overstep my boundaries. 288 00:13:34,200 --> 00:13:36,360 Speaker 1: I didn't want to cause problems, and honestly I didn't 289 00:13:36,360 --> 00:13:39,120 Speaker 1: because I used to ask actually like yo, like you 290 00:13:39,160 --> 00:13:41,079 Speaker 1: think I should She like no, because that's phone cause 291 00:13:41,559 --> 00:13:44,079 Speaker 1: you know, friction, I like whatever. So it was a 292 00:13:44,080 --> 00:13:45,559 Speaker 1: little bit of times one time I told you no, 293 00:13:45,720 --> 00:13:47,280 Speaker 1: but it was times before that You're actually like pay 294 00:13:47,280 --> 00:13:49,920 Speaker 1: a little bill or something, and I do that like 295 00:13:50,000 --> 00:13:52,800 Speaker 1: that was all you actually and literally and and if 296 00:13:52,840 --> 00:13:55,800 Speaker 1: I was asking you that ship I need literally did 297 00:13:56,480 --> 00:14:00,400 Speaker 1: like you know, I never asked exactly exactly I said, 298 00:14:00,600 --> 00:14:03,520 Speaker 1: and like even even even to the point where you know, 299 00:14:03,960 --> 00:14:05,680 Speaker 1: like I said, man, you know I got family used 300 00:14:05,720 --> 00:14:06,959 Speaker 1: me and all that ship I used me, And I said, 301 00:14:07,000 --> 00:14:08,719 Speaker 1: you're like my baby mother never tried to use me. 302 00:14:08,840 --> 00:14:11,760 Speaker 1: Never never like, never tried to use me. And I 303 00:14:11,800 --> 00:14:13,800 Speaker 1: really feel like even then, you was the only the 304 00:14:13,840 --> 00:14:17,720 Speaker 1: only genuine, genuine baby child mom I had. You was 305 00:14:17,760 --> 00:14:22,760 Speaker 1: the only probably true friend that I had where it 306 00:14:22,840 --> 00:14:25,240 Speaker 1: was like, yo, this female never asked me for and 307 00:14:25,320 --> 00:14:28,080 Speaker 1: honestly she was really entitled to it. I'm gonna saying 308 00:14:28,080 --> 00:14:30,640 Speaker 1: titled because you was my child mom. So it was like, YO, 309 00:14:31,000 --> 00:14:33,160 Speaker 1: you could have always called, oh, actually need this, actually 310 00:14:33,160 --> 00:14:36,200 Speaker 1: need that, need this, but you never did that. You 311 00:14:36,280 --> 00:14:39,040 Speaker 1: never did that, And um so I boomed fast forward 312 00:14:39,360 --> 00:14:43,520 Speaker 1: by now ship got fucked up, running out one and 313 00:14:43,600 --> 00:14:46,880 Speaker 1: low you on your peak. You know, you know you 314 00:14:47,040 --> 00:14:51,160 Speaker 1: ride money running out you know. I got fired, and 315 00:14:51,160 --> 00:14:53,800 Speaker 1: that's what really happened. I got fired. So now you 316 00:14:53,800 --> 00:14:56,920 Speaker 1: know I stopped spending people like, oh he went broke. 317 00:14:56,960 --> 00:15:00,200 Speaker 1: I ain't go broke. There, I humbled myself at little 318 00:15:00,200 --> 00:15:03,200 Speaker 1: bit I did, I said, Joe, like the savings, I 319 00:15:03,200 --> 00:15:05,360 Speaker 1: ain't you know, I don't think it was hopen. I 320 00:15:05,360 --> 00:15:06,840 Speaker 1: ain don't know if. I ain't know how I scammed 321 00:15:06,840 --> 00:15:07,880 Speaker 1: and I don't know how to do none of that. 322 00:15:08,080 --> 00:15:12,000 Speaker 1: He was not security, that's all. I not security. I was. 323 00:15:12,600 --> 00:15:17,960 Speaker 1: Now I'm a nursing support. So he fired me, and 324 00:15:18,640 --> 00:15:20,680 Speaker 1: I'm like, damn, they will find me right right right 325 00:15:20,760 --> 00:15:23,120 Speaker 1: right now. So I'm like, damn you. I can't spend 326 00:15:23,120 --> 00:15:24,920 Speaker 1: no more because I don't know when the next time 327 00:15:24,960 --> 00:15:26,960 Speaker 1: I'm gonna get a jaw. I went a whole six 328 00:15:27,000 --> 00:15:29,080 Speaker 1: months without a jaw. It wasn't to my aunt, shearid. 329 00:15:29,080 --> 00:15:31,400 Speaker 1: It was like go to such and such. You know 330 00:15:31,480 --> 00:15:33,200 Speaker 1: that you know the manager and you know that the 331 00:15:33,360 --> 00:15:35,640 Speaker 1: hr I'm like, real, I got my ship. I went 332 00:15:35,720 --> 00:15:38,680 Speaker 1: up there and just six months later, so you know, 333 00:15:38,720 --> 00:15:42,000 Speaker 1: I'm on my last and you know, I ain't gonna 334 00:15:42,040 --> 00:15:43,840 Speaker 1: say who I went back to you at the moment, 335 00:15:44,120 --> 00:15:46,720 Speaker 1: but you know, I wind up going back to my 336 00:15:46,800 --> 00:15:50,480 Speaker 1: second child mom. And I did say it. No, I 337 00:15:50,480 --> 00:15:54,320 Speaker 1: was gonna say no, I ain't gonna say I wind 338 00:15:54,440 --> 00:15:56,360 Speaker 1: up going back. Yeah, I wind up going back to 339 00:15:56,440 --> 00:15:58,160 Speaker 1: hub when things you know, but I didn't want to 340 00:15:58,160 --> 00:16:00,320 Speaker 1: be with the when things right. It was just knowing. 341 00:16:00,360 --> 00:16:04,640 Speaker 1: It was just at the moment, I can't say that, um, 342 00:16:04,680 --> 00:16:07,160 Speaker 1: but by then you know you're reaching your peak and 343 00:16:07,200 --> 00:16:12,120 Speaker 1: even doing that stage like now you're traveling. Now you're traveling. 344 00:16:12,400 --> 00:16:16,160 Speaker 1: Don't want to answer my calls, you know, with Chris 345 00:16:16,200 --> 00:16:18,560 Speaker 1: Chris Witch you endemic that created a jealous spot with 346 00:16:18,600 --> 00:16:20,800 Speaker 1: me because I'm like, damg, she really don't answer my calls. 347 00:16:21,240 --> 00:16:23,560 Speaker 1: She really ain't sucking with me. I say, way, we 348 00:16:23,560 --> 00:16:25,560 Speaker 1: weren't even in a bad spot for it to be 349 00:16:25,720 --> 00:16:30,040 Speaker 1: like this, so I'm not confused, but I'm already funk. 350 00:16:30,080 --> 00:16:33,000 Speaker 1: I know you don't like me. You're in thelocal trust girl. Now, okay, cool, 351 00:16:33,560 --> 00:16:36,280 Speaker 1: that went on like a year some change. It wasn't 352 00:16:36,320 --> 00:16:40,400 Speaker 1: until you really up and just left your alone you 353 00:16:40,440 --> 00:16:44,320 Speaker 1: got a relationship. I got everybody back like again, Like honestly, 354 00:16:44,360 --> 00:16:45,880 Speaker 1: I don't know what the funk it was. It was 355 00:16:45,920 --> 00:16:48,600 Speaker 1: just like he just had me isolated. It's fun from 356 00:16:48,640 --> 00:16:51,440 Speaker 1: like I wasn't I wasn't even close with London when 357 00:16:51,440 --> 00:16:53,720 Speaker 1: I was with him, Like I wasn't talking to Shana 358 00:16:53,840 --> 00:16:55,920 Speaker 1: as much when I was with him. Like it was 359 00:16:56,000 --> 00:16:58,160 Speaker 1: just like like I don't know why, Like it was 360 00:16:58,200 --> 00:17:00,440 Speaker 1: like he had turned me against other. Well, and then 361 00:17:00,480 --> 00:17:02,960 Speaker 1: this is the you know my closest people. And the 362 00:17:03,000 --> 00:17:05,399 Speaker 1: thing is, you're not ever supposed to give somebody some 363 00:17:05,400 --> 00:17:08,320 Speaker 1: power over that. I mean, give somebody some power like 364 00:17:08,440 --> 00:17:10,880 Speaker 1: that over you, like you never post you. I don't 365 00:17:10,920 --> 00:17:12,879 Speaker 1: know what it was what the hell it was. But 366 00:17:13,400 --> 00:17:16,520 Speaker 1: Chris had a motherfucking hold on me, you know what 367 00:17:16,600 --> 00:17:19,840 Speaker 1: I mean. Like, the only person that I was even 368 00:17:20,359 --> 00:17:23,440 Speaker 1: close to, like around with other than him was my son, 369 00:17:24,000 --> 00:17:26,520 Speaker 1: Like that was it. Me and my mom, Like we 370 00:17:26,520 --> 00:17:29,600 Speaker 1: we talked. I would never go around my family though, 371 00:17:29,720 --> 00:17:33,440 Speaker 1: Like it was crazy. So I felt lonely, as fun 372 00:17:33,560 --> 00:17:35,680 Speaker 1: to you, while I was with him. I'm like, damn, 373 00:17:35,760 --> 00:17:37,680 Speaker 1: and I felt lonely because I had caught everybody off, 374 00:17:38,119 --> 00:17:40,840 Speaker 1: you know, indirectly, and that ship like really fucked me 375 00:17:40,920 --> 00:17:42,359 Speaker 1: up something like, y'all, I need to get away from 376 00:17:42,359 --> 00:17:45,159 Speaker 1: this nigga for different reasons. Not only is he stealing 377 00:17:45,400 --> 00:17:47,199 Speaker 1: stealing from me, Not only is he cheating on me. 378 00:17:47,440 --> 00:17:49,480 Speaker 1: Not only is you know, is he not even good 379 00:17:49,520 --> 00:17:54,200 Speaker 1: for my son? You know, he's also fucking just not 380 00:17:54,320 --> 00:17:58,119 Speaker 1: good for me. Period. He's not a good person, you know. 381 00:17:58,240 --> 00:18:00,600 Speaker 1: And so I I realized that. And it's like, you're 382 00:18:00,600 --> 00:18:03,480 Speaker 1: never supposed to stay with somebody so long to where 383 00:18:03,520 --> 00:18:05,440 Speaker 1: you start hating them. You gotta break that shut off, 384 00:18:05,480 --> 00:18:09,720 Speaker 1: because um, you know, it's not good to hate someone. 385 00:18:09,800 --> 00:18:13,119 Speaker 1: And then the thing is, I think we're both doing great, 386 00:18:13,200 --> 00:18:16,040 Speaker 1: fucking great. I don't know exactly how he's gonna He 387 00:18:16,080 --> 00:18:19,440 Speaker 1: has a beautiful baby. Um, I hear you know. Um, 388 00:18:19,880 --> 00:18:22,640 Speaker 1: I think he's been blocked so long I can't even 389 00:18:22,680 --> 00:18:25,119 Speaker 1: go to his page. So and I doubt that he 390 00:18:25,200 --> 00:18:26,919 Speaker 1: comes to mind. I mean, I don't know, you know 391 00:18:27,119 --> 00:18:29,720 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, Like he has a beautiful child, and um, 392 00:18:29,720 --> 00:18:32,399 Speaker 1: I've seen the baby. You know, other people screenshots people 393 00:18:32,440 --> 00:18:33,879 Speaker 1: like oh, she had a baby, and they send it 394 00:18:33,920 --> 00:18:36,479 Speaker 1: to me. Um, baby look just like him. I know 395 00:18:36,520 --> 00:18:40,440 Speaker 1: he's in a relationship. Um he is top tier uber driver, 396 00:18:40,600 --> 00:18:44,960 Speaker 1: Like he's like yeah, like he's doing exceptionally well, like okay, 397 00:18:45,000 --> 00:18:48,000 Speaker 1: and I still wish him all the best, but they 398 00:18:48,000 --> 00:18:51,040 Speaker 1: say even doing this, Bard is great, like everything is great. 399 00:18:51,040 --> 00:18:53,040 Speaker 1: So I'm like, maybe that was the best thing for 400 00:18:53,119 --> 00:18:57,960 Speaker 1: both of us. Like you gotta understand, there's no disrespect 401 00:18:58,000 --> 00:19:01,880 Speaker 1: to anybody, but you blew overnight. It wasn't that long. 402 00:19:02,480 --> 00:19:06,919 Speaker 1: And then so to take a young man from not 403 00:19:07,160 --> 00:19:09,480 Speaker 1: saying nothing, but to take a young man on a 404 00:19:09,480 --> 00:19:13,680 Speaker 1: fame fame part like from nobody know me to dang, 405 00:19:14,440 --> 00:19:17,320 Speaker 1: I'm all over the world. You know I'm doing this, 406 00:19:17,400 --> 00:19:18,639 Speaker 1: I'm doing that. And I was like, you know, it's 407 00:19:18,640 --> 00:19:20,680 Speaker 1: crazy because for a long time, like and I can 408 00:19:20,720 --> 00:19:22,960 Speaker 1: only imagine how you felt in my predicament. But I 409 00:19:23,040 --> 00:19:26,600 Speaker 1: used to sit back like, damn you. I knew we 410 00:19:26,600 --> 00:19:28,840 Speaker 1: probably wouldn't a relationship. But that supposed to have been 411 00:19:28,840 --> 00:19:31,399 Speaker 1: me with her. Why because I felt as though I 412 00:19:31,680 --> 00:19:34,320 Speaker 1: needed to be by you to protect you from certain ship. 413 00:19:34,520 --> 00:19:37,680 Speaker 1: So you have said that UF felt as never ever 414 00:19:37,760 --> 00:19:39,720 Speaker 1: told me I've always I felt like that, and I 415 00:19:39,800 --> 00:19:42,160 Speaker 1: always I was dealing with it like I was dealing 416 00:19:42,160 --> 00:19:43,919 Speaker 1: with it. Was though she used to dream me like 417 00:19:44,400 --> 00:19:46,240 Speaker 1: during that stage I was going through other ship. Now 418 00:19:46,280 --> 00:19:48,240 Speaker 1: that's when I started drinking a lot, because like now 419 00:19:48,680 --> 00:19:50,399 Speaker 1: people know who you are, but people know that you 420 00:19:50,480 --> 00:19:52,119 Speaker 1: was my Now if you really didn't know, you didn't know, 421 00:19:52,359 --> 00:19:54,080 Speaker 1: but people knew that she was my child mom. And 422 00:19:54,119 --> 00:19:56,959 Speaker 1: I used to always grot fake pages used even in public, 423 00:19:57,000 --> 00:19:59,360 Speaker 1: like damn she made it and she left you or 424 00:19:59,560 --> 00:20:01,720 Speaker 1: she made then she don't do ship full you high 425 00:20:01,760 --> 00:20:04,359 Speaker 1: fielding and nothing. It should be so much. And I 426 00:20:04,480 --> 00:20:06,560 Speaker 1: used to have a cane to you why because first 427 00:20:06,560 --> 00:20:09,240 Speaker 1: and foremost I know how that is. Like when you're 428 00:20:09,240 --> 00:20:11,160 Speaker 1: in a certain predicament, you have a certain type of money, 429 00:20:11,240 --> 00:20:13,600 Speaker 1: like you have a certain type of stature like it's 430 00:20:13,640 --> 00:20:18,359 Speaker 1: hard and it's stressful because there was more money comes, 431 00:20:18,480 --> 00:20:22,200 Speaker 1: more bills and more problems and more expensive by entitled 432 00:20:22,480 --> 00:20:25,120 Speaker 1: yeah what I said, you know what, yo, I think 433 00:20:25,160 --> 00:20:27,040 Speaker 1: the bar we created right now to this day and 434 00:20:27,160 --> 00:20:32,520 Speaker 1: today is January twelve, and I just sat back. I 435 00:20:32,560 --> 00:20:34,720 Speaker 1: sat back and I said, you know why, in due time, 436 00:20:35,400 --> 00:20:37,800 Speaker 1: I honestly believe that me and How will have the 437 00:20:37,880 --> 00:20:42,600 Speaker 1: calderness co parenting. You're always making up some band words 438 00:20:43,040 --> 00:20:46,680 Speaker 1: cos I like it, man, how it will be calls 439 00:20:46,720 --> 00:20:50,560 Speaker 1: you for our sons soon. It wasn't about nothing. It 440 00:20:50,600 --> 00:20:52,879 Speaker 1: wasn't out just the MESSI was. It wasn't about none 441 00:20:52,920 --> 00:20:55,960 Speaker 1: of that like it was. People always like, oh, she 442 00:20:56,000 --> 00:20:58,760 Speaker 1: fund said, well, that's just our natural personalities. I've never 443 00:20:58,760 --> 00:21:01,800 Speaker 1: even said you. I just said our because when we're 444 00:21:01,800 --> 00:21:04,600 Speaker 1: in the we're in the same setting like it's nothing. 445 00:21:04,640 --> 00:21:08,000 Speaker 1: But always after the emotions and ship went away from 446 00:21:08,040 --> 00:21:11,720 Speaker 1: the baby mama baby father drama, it was always a vibe. 447 00:21:11,720 --> 00:21:15,000 Speaker 1: It was always catchy. We always have fun. So I 448 00:21:15,119 --> 00:21:18,639 Speaker 1: just together and how much like yo, like, all right, okay, 449 00:21:19,560 --> 00:21:22,200 Speaker 1: it had come a time where me and Hug can 450 00:21:22,240 --> 00:21:26,359 Speaker 1: be you know close. I always wanted that though because 451 00:21:26,359 --> 00:21:28,080 Speaker 1: I was like yo, like I used to see people cooked, 452 00:21:28,160 --> 00:21:30,040 Speaker 1: like older guys close with their children, mom and stuff 453 00:21:30,040 --> 00:21:31,399 Speaker 1: with them, Like damn, I wish we can do that 454 00:21:31,520 --> 00:21:33,640 Speaker 1: and don't have to be together. So I was never 455 00:21:33,680 --> 00:21:36,399 Speaker 1: the ones who oh my baby, man that bitch. No, 456 00:21:37,119 --> 00:21:40,040 Speaker 1: I wanted to coordinates while because I've seen from other 457 00:21:40,160 --> 00:21:47,239 Speaker 1: situations that it was healthy for the child. Hold up, 458 00:21:47,240 --> 00:21:49,200 Speaker 1: hold up, I know the ship getting good. But listen 459 00:21:49,240 --> 00:21:51,280 Speaker 1: to just a couple of seconds of a commercial. If 460 00:21:51,280 --> 00:22:02,280 Speaker 1: you love me, you'll listen. I've never, honestly, I've never 461 00:22:02,280 --> 00:22:05,960 Speaker 1: seen uh bond like ours. Like I've never seen a 462 00:22:05,960 --> 00:22:10,000 Speaker 1: co parenting team like us. I don't know one couple well, 463 00:22:10,080 --> 00:22:13,439 Speaker 1: one x couple two parents that are not together and 464 00:22:13,560 --> 00:22:16,879 Speaker 1: gel well and it can actually work together and not 465 00:22:17,040 --> 00:22:19,919 Speaker 1: have to like force it like in front of their child, 466 00:22:20,080 --> 00:22:22,359 Speaker 1: you know, but they really hate each other. I've never 467 00:22:23,359 --> 00:22:26,000 Speaker 1: I've seen that this function. I've never seen like how 468 00:22:26,040 --> 00:22:29,000 Speaker 1: we are. And a lot of people love that ship, 469 00:22:29,600 --> 00:22:31,440 Speaker 1: you know, yeah, a lot of people a lot of 470 00:22:31,480 --> 00:22:33,480 Speaker 1: people about us. A lot of people love it. But us, 471 00:22:33,600 --> 00:22:38,080 Speaker 1: granted we ain't perfect, you know, like we be. If 472 00:22:38,080 --> 00:22:41,080 Speaker 1: we argue, we may not speak. We talked about each other. 473 00:22:41,160 --> 00:22:43,280 Speaker 1: We do all of that for the for the net sayers, 474 00:22:43,280 --> 00:22:44,920 Speaker 1: and for the haters who won'ta say oh they phony. 475 00:22:44,960 --> 00:22:47,480 Speaker 1: They just say that it ain't nothing other, it ain't nothing, 476 00:22:47,520 --> 00:22:49,680 Speaker 1: never phony. It's just we at the end of the 477 00:22:49,760 --> 00:22:52,600 Speaker 1: day heard being missing Llarius and me being a regular person. 478 00:22:52,640 --> 00:22:56,280 Speaker 1: I am. We still are Ashton's parents. We're still going 479 00:22:56,359 --> 00:22:58,719 Speaker 1: to go through that. You know, you're gonna you'ren You're 480 00:22:58,760 --> 00:23:00,480 Speaker 1: gonna hear everything. Man, You're gonna it's gonna be a 481 00:23:00,480 --> 00:23:02,400 Speaker 1: lot of haters and say, oh, I don't like they. 482 00:23:02,440 --> 00:23:04,399 Speaker 1: I swear you're gonna head after this come out. You're 483 00:23:04,400 --> 00:23:08,800 Speaker 1: gonna head. But fuck them. It's gonna be people around me. 484 00:23:09,040 --> 00:23:10,879 Speaker 1: It's gonna be it's gonna be close and media people 485 00:23:10,880 --> 00:23:12,920 Speaker 1: that said fuck them. You know for a long time, 486 00:23:12,960 --> 00:23:15,359 Speaker 1: and I said, man, I appreciate that we can have 487 00:23:15,520 --> 00:23:20,280 Speaker 1: this bond. Also more appreciate you know the position that 488 00:23:20,440 --> 00:23:22,520 Speaker 1: you know, you allow me to be put in, even 489 00:23:22,640 --> 00:23:25,760 Speaker 1: you know, being beside beside you of it than your 490 00:23:25,840 --> 00:23:29,760 Speaker 1: child's that you know, your business partner, even for your 491 00:23:29,800 --> 00:23:32,240 Speaker 1: moral support and ship like that. You know, it's so 492 00:23:32,440 --> 00:23:34,800 Speaker 1: much stuff like sometimes you get on my fucking nerves 493 00:23:34,800 --> 00:23:37,000 Speaker 1: because I'll be the old day like the funk, like 494 00:23:37,000 --> 00:23:38,600 Speaker 1: why would she say this? Why would she say that? 495 00:23:39,160 --> 00:23:41,800 Speaker 1: But I'm like, you know what, that's her right, Like 496 00:23:41,840 --> 00:23:45,280 Speaker 1: even with carefully reckless live discussion. Yo, I'm going through 497 00:23:45,359 --> 00:23:47,320 Speaker 1: you know, the comments of course on YouTube, and we 498 00:23:47,440 --> 00:23:50,040 Speaker 1: got so many fucking dudes. I'm so excited, like you know, 499 00:23:50,080 --> 00:23:53,439 Speaker 1: and one actually drops tonight seven pm. So make sure 500 00:23:53,480 --> 00:23:55,920 Speaker 1: you're doing to that. That's the episode two. And this 501 00:23:55,960 --> 00:23:58,960 Speaker 1: one is it's even steamier than the first one. Um, 502 00:23:59,160 --> 00:24:02,080 Speaker 1: and my mic ain't for cannot no, no, you know 503 00:24:02,240 --> 00:24:04,199 Speaker 1: you your Mike ain't gonna suck up this one on 504 00:24:04,280 --> 00:24:07,359 Speaker 1: this one. But I noticed, like in the comments, people 505 00:24:07,359 --> 00:24:10,760 Speaker 1: will say, oh, just still want him more, he know, 506 00:24:10,920 --> 00:24:13,760 Speaker 1: he's still in love with her, or he want her 507 00:24:13,800 --> 00:24:16,880 Speaker 1: back boy and she want him back. Clear that shut up. 508 00:24:17,760 --> 00:24:21,600 Speaker 1: I mean, it's self explanatory. Man. You don't have to 509 00:24:21,640 --> 00:24:24,119 Speaker 1: want somebody back, Like I had a conversation with my 510 00:24:24,160 --> 00:24:30,280 Speaker 1: homeboy the other day and I don't want to. But 511 00:24:30,359 --> 00:24:33,200 Speaker 1: they never hear you say it. I'm speaking to the audience, 512 00:24:33,240 --> 00:24:35,800 Speaker 1: I'm speaking to everybody who said but I'm speaking to her. 513 00:24:36,119 --> 00:24:38,160 Speaker 1: I'm speaking to the artist and speaking to everybody who said, 514 00:24:38,200 --> 00:24:43,040 Speaker 1: but I'm also speaking to my motherfucking bro. Mr Kara, 515 00:24:44,320 --> 00:24:46,399 Speaker 1: this is the cleared up to you. This is to 516 00:24:46,440 --> 00:24:49,120 Speaker 1: clear up to a Yeah, that's my that's my brother 517 00:24:49,200 --> 00:24:52,880 Speaker 1: and his wedding. I do not want my child mama. 518 00:24:53,880 --> 00:24:57,359 Speaker 1: It's no attraction there. She's a beautiful woman, yes she is. 519 00:24:57,480 --> 00:24:59,000 Speaker 1: Do I love her? Yes? I do. I love as 520 00:24:59,080 --> 00:25:02,240 Speaker 1: my child mom, my friend. You know things that my 521 00:25:02,280 --> 00:25:04,199 Speaker 1: brother and my sister, however you want to put it 522 00:25:04,440 --> 00:25:07,159 Speaker 1: things in that nature, Like like I was telling my 523 00:25:07,160 --> 00:25:10,400 Speaker 1: my bro, I said, Bro, my child mom can walk 524 00:25:10,440 --> 00:25:12,320 Speaker 1: in front of me naked, and I don't give a 525 00:25:12,320 --> 00:25:15,439 Speaker 1: fuck literally, like yo, go put some fucking clothes on, 526 00:25:15,560 --> 00:25:17,400 Speaker 1: Like what are you doing? Like it's been times where 527 00:25:17,440 --> 00:25:19,320 Speaker 1: I didn't walk in the garage, through the garage coming 528 00:25:19,359 --> 00:25:20,960 Speaker 1: to the house and you know, just to pick my 529 00:25:21,000 --> 00:25:23,280 Speaker 1: son up. But like people will be like, oh yo, 530 00:25:23,480 --> 00:25:25,639 Speaker 1: lie yo, brono, I don't have to fucking lie, bro, 531 00:25:25,960 --> 00:25:29,840 Speaker 1: Like I ain't never had a a problem and getting 532 00:25:29,840 --> 00:25:32,920 Speaker 1: a woman or you know, getting asked like that moment. 533 00:25:33,440 --> 00:25:35,840 Speaker 1: I didn't that. It ain't too many I haven't touched. 534 00:25:35,880 --> 00:25:39,200 Speaker 1: But it's like niggas think that you gotta be sucking 535 00:25:39,200 --> 00:25:41,080 Speaker 1: your baby mother because she and I asked them whole 536 00:25:41,080 --> 00:25:42,840 Speaker 1: I'm gonna take that back, I asked him. I said, 537 00:25:43,240 --> 00:25:45,080 Speaker 1: is it because she's just the largest? Why I should 538 00:25:45,080 --> 00:25:47,200 Speaker 1: try to get back with her? Nobody wants to give 539 00:25:47,200 --> 00:25:49,200 Speaker 1: me a real answer, though, but I know that's what 540 00:25:49,320 --> 00:25:51,120 Speaker 1: it is, because if you wasn't they with me saying 541 00:25:51,119 --> 00:25:52,560 Speaker 1: I would bro go back to your first billy mother, 542 00:25:52,640 --> 00:25:55,000 Speaker 1: because you ain't staying go back to your second? Yeah, 543 00:25:55,560 --> 00:25:58,959 Speaker 1: y ain't saying go back to your third was never existed. 544 00:25:59,760 --> 00:26:01,680 Speaker 1: But so why does it go back to my first one? 545 00:26:01,680 --> 00:26:04,000 Speaker 1: I'm already on my fourth one? Why why is it? 546 00:26:04,119 --> 00:26:05,640 Speaker 1: You know? So I'll be trying to I'll be really 547 00:26:05,680 --> 00:26:07,639 Speaker 1: wanting to know the answer, like yo, like come on, 548 00:26:07,720 --> 00:26:09,000 Speaker 1: Like is it because you had a couple of dollars 549 00:26:09,080 --> 00:26:11,919 Speaker 1: that ain't never move me? So you know, no, to 550 00:26:11,960 --> 00:26:14,280 Speaker 1: the world man, to the public, to my peers, to 551 00:26:14,359 --> 00:26:16,320 Speaker 1: my brothers, to my family, I do not want my 552 00:26:16,400 --> 00:26:19,080 Speaker 1: child mom. It is nothing we're able to be in 553 00:26:19,080 --> 00:26:22,479 Speaker 1: a room or setting an environment involved, like to know 554 00:26:22,520 --> 00:26:24,640 Speaker 1: what's just to love us together? If you have a 555 00:26:24,640 --> 00:26:27,480 Speaker 1: around us, you'd be like, damn, wow, I'm pretty sure 556 00:26:27,520 --> 00:26:30,280 Speaker 1: something of her boyfriends can have a boyfriend. Now, I'm 557 00:26:30,280 --> 00:26:33,159 Speaker 1: pretty sure you'll still be feeling a weird like, damn, no, 558 00:26:33,280 --> 00:26:37,880 Speaker 1: this ship really really yeah, honestly, he has like no 559 00:26:38,040 --> 00:26:41,600 Speaker 1: issue and you know, man got histories like literally, so 560 00:26:41,920 --> 00:26:43,840 Speaker 1: I wouldn't think it would be Yeah, and then he 561 00:26:43,920 --> 00:26:47,920 Speaker 1: and his son's mom are like, dangn like us. Ain't 562 00:26:47,920 --> 00:26:51,840 Speaker 1: nobody like us, but they're definitely on the level where 563 00:26:51,920 --> 00:26:54,560 Speaker 1: they can talk about their son and they you know, 564 00:26:54,680 --> 00:26:57,840 Speaker 1: and probably even laugh and joke together. And like he's 565 00:26:57,880 --> 00:27:01,240 Speaker 1: been around you know, our boy friends and ship and 566 00:27:01,359 --> 00:27:05,400 Speaker 1: you know, and well he hasn't had a girlfriend since her, 567 00:27:06,240 --> 00:27:10,080 Speaker 1: you know me, you know, yeah, like my boyfriend was 568 00:27:10,320 --> 00:27:12,840 Speaker 1: single for eleven years. You know that was his last 569 00:27:12,960 --> 00:27:16,200 Speaker 1: relationship and when he was in with his his son's mom. 570 00:27:16,560 --> 00:27:20,679 Speaker 1: But you know that even that, like he just was 571 00:27:20,720 --> 00:27:23,719 Speaker 1: like y'all loved the dynamic that you're on wrong man, 572 00:27:23,880 --> 00:27:26,720 Speaker 1: Like I love that. I ain't nobody you. He did 573 00:27:26,760 --> 00:27:30,119 Speaker 1: not love you on our first date, ruf Chris, but 574 00:27:30,320 --> 00:27:32,800 Speaker 1: I was invited. I didn't say, come on us go 575 00:27:32,960 --> 00:27:38,480 Speaker 1: you said, honestly, you tell him that, Oh well, I 576 00:27:38,520 --> 00:27:41,119 Speaker 1: didn't know that I showed I was never gonna say 577 00:27:41,160 --> 00:27:42,600 Speaker 1: I showed up. But even if you would have, but 578 00:27:42,600 --> 00:27:45,919 Speaker 1: I still would have came because you are that person. 579 00:27:46,040 --> 00:27:47,760 Speaker 1: But he would have known that because he listened to 580 00:27:49,440 --> 00:27:51,840 Speaker 1: I did not know. I really thought. I really thought 581 00:27:51,920 --> 00:27:54,600 Speaker 1: it was a huge planned it for us. I ain't 582 00:27:54,600 --> 00:27:56,760 Speaker 1: even acting. We was talking and when y'all walking to 583 00:27:56,800 --> 00:27:58,639 Speaker 1: it to the bathroom, I don't know if it was 584 00:27:58,680 --> 00:28:01,400 Speaker 1: the Father's day thing. Yeah, so what I'm thinking, I'm like, oh, 585 00:28:01,720 --> 00:28:03,320 Speaker 1: you know me hard, I don't really do it. And 586 00:28:03,320 --> 00:28:05,159 Speaker 1: I didn't think he was gonna come. That's why I 587 00:28:05,200 --> 00:28:07,760 Speaker 1: was like, I don't think you were going to come 588 00:28:07,960 --> 00:28:12,120 Speaker 1: because dad, I took my dad off for the first time. Yeah, 589 00:28:12,320 --> 00:28:14,000 Speaker 1: so I didn't and you had told me he was 590 00:28:14,040 --> 00:28:15,960 Speaker 1: gonna spend, but my dad wanted to do he wanted 591 00:28:15,960 --> 00:28:19,480 Speaker 1: to do, so if you didn't, you want to do that, right? 592 00:28:19,600 --> 00:28:22,479 Speaker 1: Sounds like a yeah, you know. So I ain't able 593 00:28:22,520 --> 00:28:24,320 Speaker 1: to eat too much because I knew what I had, 594 00:28:24,400 --> 00:28:27,639 Speaker 1: what I wanted. But yeah, man, I think once the 595 00:28:27,680 --> 00:28:32,120 Speaker 1: emotions and the feelings is gone, Yeah, and the pride 596 00:28:32,600 --> 00:28:35,040 Speaker 1: and ship is a way I think that people can 597 00:28:35,080 --> 00:28:37,959 Speaker 1: really find the good and that when you're not together, 598 00:28:38,120 --> 00:28:40,920 Speaker 1: corning is great. Yeah. And then when you can actually 599 00:28:42,360 --> 00:28:46,040 Speaker 1: put everything on the table and actually like tell me 600 00:28:46,160 --> 00:28:48,920 Speaker 1: like why did you hurt me? Or Okay, this is 601 00:28:48,960 --> 00:28:52,360 Speaker 1: what I did and it's no secrets. That's the thing. 602 00:28:54,320 --> 00:28:56,040 Speaker 1: I'm sorry. Like even to this day, like you know, 603 00:28:56,080 --> 00:28:58,239 Speaker 1: I go through hell and hot water, and it'd be 604 00:28:58,280 --> 00:29:02,360 Speaker 1: like even with my second child, Mom, it's like I 605 00:29:02,400 --> 00:29:04,120 Speaker 1: can't get on the same page right because she's worried 606 00:29:04,120 --> 00:29:08,200 Speaker 1: about what I do too much, like it never you never, 607 00:29:08,360 --> 00:29:10,760 Speaker 1: you never, but she says she is. You never call 608 00:29:10,880 --> 00:29:12,760 Speaker 1: me and just make it about to live. It's always 609 00:29:13,280 --> 00:29:15,600 Speaker 1: I'm about a bit you laid You want to be 610 00:29:15,640 --> 00:29:17,960 Speaker 1: leave pressed to be laid up with a bit, but 611 00:29:18,000 --> 00:29:20,720 Speaker 1: check you laid up how you laid up? But you 612 00:29:20,760 --> 00:29:23,320 Speaker 1: gotta what I'm doing, yo, because I have I have 613 00:29:23,400 --> 00:29:26,680 Speaker 1: a I have a two year old baby boy. She's 614 00:29:26,760 --> 00:29:28,760 Speaker 1: still like yo, like come on, man, I got a 615 00:29:28,760 --> 00:29:32,880 Speaker 1: five year old daughter. It's still and bound you granted 616 00:29:32,960 --> 00:29:35,640 Speaker 1: even on the time of man Bryson Mom, like you know, yeah, 617 00:29:35,680 --> 00:29:38,640 Speaker 1: I went back, you know, not really thinking Bryson Mom 618 00:29:38,680 --> 00:29:40,400 Speaker 1: was gonna take me back. I went back. I did. 619 00:29:40,680 --> 00:29:43,240 Speaker 1: I fucked up. But like for a person to say 620 00:29:43,280 --> 00:29:44,880 Speaker 1: that they don't want a person and they moved on. 621 00:29:45,280 --> 00:29:46,840 Speaker 1: I should not be going through what the funk I'm 622 00:29:46,840 --> 00:29:50,320 Speaker 1: going through? I shouldn't you laid up? But check you're 623 00:29:50,360 --> 00:29:53,080 Speaker 1: telling me, Oh, I'm pressed to lay up with a bit. 624 00:29:54,280 --> 00:29:57,120 Speaker 1: You know everything I do? You worried about I switched 625 00:29:57,120 --> 00:30:00,360 Speaker 1: my car as a problem. I moved out of the house. Oh, 626 00:30:00,400 --> 00:30:02,400 Speaker 1: it's a problem. And this is we still talking about 627 00:30:02,400 --> 00:30:04,000 Speaker 1: the second baby here I move out of the house. 628 00:30:04,040 --> 00:30:06,440 Speaker 1: It's a problem. Oh why are you this? Why? Why 629 00:30:06,440 --> 00:30:08,920 Speaker 1: are you worrying about me so much? Well? Why is 630 00:30:08,960 --> 00:30:10,800 Speaker 1: that even a question? When you know why she write 631 00:30:10,800 --> 00:30:13,080 Speaker 1: about it because it's a question, because why Then it 632 00:30:13,120 --> 00:30:16,640 Speaker 1: becomes a power struggle where she want to control things. 633 00:30:16,840 --> 00:30:18,600 Speaker 1: You want to go, what's my daughter? She want to 634 00:30:18,600 --> 00:30:21,280 Speaker 1: go to the media and bash me about shaking things 635 00:30:21,280 --> 00:30:23,360 Speaker 1: when yo, come on, yo, how long ago was that 636 00:30:24,560 --> 00:30:27,400 Speaker 1: we still making things? Rather year like, come on man? 637 00:30:27,600 --> 00:30:30,760 Speaker 1: Then everything everything? Every time I'm dealing with someone new 638 00:30:30,880 --> 00:30:32,760 Speaker 1: player is always oh, you're just mad because I ain't 639 00:30:32,760 --> 00:30:34,920 Speaker 1: want to funk with you. Yo, I've been accepted that. 640 00:30:36,600 --> 00:30:39,840 Speaker 1: So now list six. Why can't you just be cause 641 00:30:39,880 --> 00:30:42,160 Speaker 1: you yeah, you know, and it's not the download of 642 00:30:42,200 --> 00:30:44,880 Speaker 1: death a character or to degrade, but yo, like at 643 00:30:44,920 --> 00:30:48,120 Speaker 1: some point women gotta let that hurt go. But it's 644 00:30:48,120 --> 00:30:50,800 Speaker 1: gonna take Yeah, it's gonna take a long long time 645 00:30:50,880 --> 00:30:54,520 Speaker 1: because honestly, I'm gonna tell you why before we get 646 00:30:54,560 --> 00:30:58,760 Speaker 1: up out of here. You you just admitted it and 647 00:30:58,800 --> 00:31:02,080 Speaker 1: you didn't even know. Um you know, you you used her. 648 00:31:02,120 --> 00:31:04,240 Speaker 1: You went back to a lot of times when it 649 00:31:04,280 --> 00:31:07,120 Speaker 1: was convened from you. But that was pulling on her 650 00:31:07,160 --> 00:31:10,040 Speaker 1: heart strings the whole time, you know what I'm saying, Like, 651 00:31:10,120 --> 00:31:13,000 Speaker 1: so you made her feel like that. You gave her 652 00:31:13,000 --> 00:31:15,880 Speaker 1: a lot of hope a lot of times like oh 653 00:31:15,920 --> 00:31:17,680 Speaker 1: he might come back for good, to the point where 654 00:31:18,160 --> 00:31:21,080 Speaker 1: even when she know you didn't mean it, she tricked 655 00:31:21,080 --> 00:31:25,760 Speaker 1: herself into still like just holding onto that time, like believing. 656 00:31:25,840 --> 00:31:27,760 Speaker 1: She tricked us out into believing you. You know what 657 00:31:27,800 --> 00:31:29,680 Speaker 1: I mean. She just got used to being let down, 658 00:31:29,760 --> 00:31:32,360 Speaker 1: so she heard out taken white here, you know. And 659 00:31:32,400 --> 00:31:35,000 Speaker 1: then that's when she would say little things to to 660 00:31:35,560 --> 00:31:38,480 Speaker 1: the latest baby mother like oh yeah this that neither. 661 00:31:38,520 --> 00:31:40,160 Speaker 1: That's why she made it a point of running back 662 00:31:40,760 --> 00:31:42,920 Speaker 1: every time, telling her oh, you know, yeah, Rome just 663 00:31:43,000 --> 00:31:44,920 Speaker 1: left here, or Rome just asked me can he come 664 00:31:44,960 --> 00:31:46,600 Speaker 1: to my house? Or he just wanted to do this, 665 00:31:46,640 --> 00:31:49,160 Speaker 1: and one of and what it it wasn't working out 666 00:31:49,200 --> 00:31:53,240 Speaker 1: with her. I'm really changing and really trying to be 667 00:31:53,320 --> 00:31:56,240 Speaker 1: a better man, better that better everything, to be honest. 668 00:31:56,240 --> 00:31:58,640 Speaker 1: But because you can't keep doing what you did in 669 00:31:58,640 --> 00:32:00,959 Speaker 1: the passion, don't get nowhere. People never get nowhere. We're 670 00:32:00,960 --> 00:32:03,120 Speaker 1: trying to go, but it's like it hurts so bad 671 00:32:03,160 --> 00:32:05,520 Speaker 1: that I never can get through tour. Yeah, now you 672 00:32:05,560 --> 00:32:08,000 Speaker 1: will be never could get through tour. Like it's always 673 00:32:08,040 --> 00:32:10,400 Speaker 1: about what I'm doing. Yeah, when the last time we 674 00:32:10,480 --> 00:32:16,320 Speaker 1: touched the Bryson to Brihanna was pregnant. Okay, so yes, 675 00:32:16,480 --> 00:32:20,360 Speaker 1: so that was like that was still almost three. But 676 00:32:20,800 --> 00:32:24,000 Speaker 1: that's different you're doing. That's different times because she ain't 677 00:32:24,000 --> 00:32:25,680 Speaker 1: got you all the time. She ain't gonna be lonely 678 00:32:25,720 --> 00:32:27,600 Speaker 1: while you ain't knowing you to come back. You're doing 679 00:32:27,680 --> 00:32:29,640 Speaker 1: what you're doing. You got you having your fun, You're 680 00:32:29,640 --> 00:32:31,480 Speaker 1: going on dates, you get and dressed, you going and 681 00:32:31,520 --> 00:32:34,840 Speaker 1: then't look like fun. I don't you look like fun 682 00:32:35,240 --> 00:32:38,680 Speaker 1: the time she worried about you, I don't. That's her 683 00:32:38,800 --> 00:32:41,440 Speaker 1: problem now. But that's why. Actually the last time you 684 00:32:41,520 --> 00:32:45,360 Speaker 1: touch it, because that's still recent to this, it's always 685 00:32:45,440 --> 00:32:47,560 Speaker 1: or you broke this or you broke that. Oh you 686 00:32:47,560 --> 00:32:49,680 Speaker 1: ain't got this or you ain't got that? How you this? 687 00:32:49,840 --> 00:32:52,800 Speaker 1: How you that? That ship? Don't bother me? Man? What 688 00:32:52,960 --> 00:32:56,080 Speaker 1: can we do to move forward on being better parents 689 00:32:56,080 --> 00:32:58,960 Speaker 1: for my daughter? And it's and it will happened just 690 00:32:59,000 --> 00:33:01,880 Speaker 1: as long as you stay stay out of her bed, 691 00:33:02,160 --> 00:33:04,640 Speaker 1: you stay out of the house, you stay out of 692 00:33:04,640 --> 00:33:08,120 Speaker 1: her face, and you and so that that she will 693 00:33:08,160 --> 00:33:12,280 Speaker 1: have no other choice but to respect that ship. You literally, 694 00:33:12,320 --> 00:33:13,640 Speaker 1: you know before we get out, you know that. I 695 00:33:13,680 --> 00:33:15,920 Speaker 1: just have to clear it up because it's gonna be 696 00:33:16,720 --> 00:33:19,880 Speaker 1: alive or a post or whatever the case, not even 697 00:33:19,920 --> 00:33:22,280 Speaker 1: alive because she don't really do live. It's gonna be 698 00:33:22,320 --> 00:33:25,480 Speaker 1: a post where trying to at me, manipulate me, deafromize 699 00:33:25,520 --> 00:33:28,240 Speaker 1: my character and all of that when it ain't and 700 00:33:28,280 --> 00:33:30,320 Speaker 1: I'm not responding to that. I'm not responding to it 701 00:33:30,440 --> 00:33:34,400 Speaker 1: no more. Too mature, I've grown, I'm not. That's why 702 00:33:34,400 --> 00:33:36,040 Speaker 1: I said, that's what I'm in big, like you're too 703 00:33:36,040 --> 00:33:39,240 Speaker 1: big now for that ship, not even like status wise, 704 00:33:39,320 --> 00:33:41,239 Speaker 1: I mean just like your mind is, you're on a 705 00:33:41,240 --> 00:33:44,280 Speaker 1: different plateau like mentally, I can't be back and forth 706 00:33:44,280 --> 00:33:46,320 Speaker 1: with no more man. But like I said, little all 707 00:33:46,360 --> 00:33:49,120 Speaker 1: the people out there. That's how I mean jest, be 708 00:33:49,360 --> 00:33:53,080 Speaker 1: you know, gain the relationship we have. We're not perfect, No, 709 00:33:53,200 --> 00:33:55,719 Speaker 1: we definitely jailed a lot. I haven't seen a coprunching 710 00:33:55,840 --> 00:34:01,520 Speaker 1: like us. Um to all you fellas, continue doing what 711 00:34:01,560 --> 00:34:06,040 Speaker 1: you doing. Be great, you know, be consistent, Um, Always 712 00:34:06,040 --> 00:34:09,520 Speaker 1: get your point across. You know, always try to be civilized. 713 00:34:09,560 --> 00:34:11,600 Speaker 1: You know, you ain't gotta be right ry all the 714 00:34:11,640 --> 00:34:15,480 Speaker 1: time to you women, same as you. You know, take 715 00:34:15,560 --> 00:34:18,239 Speaker 1: your time, Try to let them emotions go. If you 716 00:34:18,280 --> 00:34:20,919 Speaker 1: still have emotions there, don't be afraid to explain that. 717 00:34:21,160 --> 00:34:25,080 Speaker 1: Maybe y'all can do better with him knowing you know, 718 00:34:25,200 --> 00:34:28,080 Speaker 1: But don't try to make that man life miserable. Don't 719 00:34:28,080 --> 00:34:29,960 Speaker 1: try to take from that man, especially when you know 720 00:34:30,040 --> 00:34:32,640 Speaker 1: he may have other children or another family or trying 721 00:34:32,640 --> 00:34:34,880 Speaker 1: to move for or even may want to be with you. 722 00:34:35,440 --> 00:34:38,839 Speaker 1: Allow that man to grow. Help that man grow. You're 723 00:34:38,840 --> 00:34:42,719 Speaker 1: losing too many fathers out here, Black fathers. That But 724 00:34:43,000 --> 00:34:46,319 Speaker 1: it's me as a little baby father out of head, 725 00:34:46,880 --> 00:34:50,799 Speaker 1: and I know for a fact it's gonna get there. 726 00:34:50,920 --> 00:34:53,600 Speaker 1: It's gonna get there with your your other baby mothers 727 00:34:53,640 --> 00:34:57,120 Speaker 1: and ship. But they ain't gonna never be like Justin Roman. 728 00:34:57,239 --> 00:35:00,200 Speaker 1: On that note, I'm out of head carefully right. Lets 729 00:35:00,320 --> 00:35:03,120 Speaker 1: make sure you you tune in each and every Wednesday 730 00:35:03,280 --> 00:35:06,319 Speaker 1: hump Day, and now make sure you tune in at 731 00:35:06,400 --> 00:35:09,840 Speaker 1: seven pm every Wednesday for the live discussion. Love y'all. 732 00:35:10,120 --> 00:35:19,480 Speaker 1: Peace Carefully Reckless is a production of I Heart Radio 733 00:35:19,719 --> 00:35:22,800 Speaker 1: and The Black Effect. For more podcasts from My heart Radio, 734 00:35:23,000 --> 00:35:26,400 Speaker 1: visit the I heart Radio app, Apple podcast, or wherever 735 00:35:26,520 --> 00:35:27,840 Speaker 1: you listen to your favorite shows.