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Speaker 1: Hey, everybody. My name is Lindsay Young, and I'm a

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Speaker 1: staff writer and assistant editor here with the Minnesota Vikings.

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Speaker 1: I'm super excited that you are here for another segment

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Speaker 1: of our Getting Open series, which focuses on all things

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Speaker 1: mental health. I'm going to make the assumption that most

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Speaker 1: people are pretty familiar with today's guest Paul Allen, voice

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Speaker 1: of the Vikings. He also has a radio show on

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Speaker 1: k FAN nine to noon Monday through Fridays, and so

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Speaker 1: he's typically the one asking the questions. But we decided

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Speaker 1: to flip the script a little bit and I got

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Speaker 1: to interview him. I really appreciate the conversation with Paul

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Speaker 1: because he was willing to get really vulnerable and open

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Speaker 1: and talk about a variety of topics, including how the

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Speaker 1: COVID nineteen pandemic has affected his life personally. Well, Paul,

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Speaker 1: I feel a little bit strange doing this and being

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Speaker 1: thank you so much for joining us today. I appreciate it. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: it's my honor. The series is great. From Jail and

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Speaker 1: Holmes through Kendricks and then coming on my radio show

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Speaker 1: at KAPAN, A couple of times. Thank you very much.

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Speaker 1: Absolutely well. We are going to get into a few

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Speaker 1: different topics here today, but I wanted to start out

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Speaker 1: a little bit more generally because we've been doing this

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Speaker 1: series now for several weeks. I know you and I

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Speaker 1: have talked about it. Like you just mentioned, there have

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Speaker 1: been several players involved. I love the wide spectrum of

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Speaker 1: And you had told me early on that you wanted

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Speaker 1: to be a part of this from your perspective. Why

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Speaker 1: was this an important series to be a part of

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Speaker 1: for you? Well, for me, you know, being a man,

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Speaker 1: and I mean whether you want to take it from

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Speaker 1: I guess that would be pacified as an emotional man

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Speaker 1: where I'm open, you know, I don't. I don't. I've

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Speaker 1: know through the people I've met, specifically men that you know,

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Speaker 1: And you know, certainly in no way to put my

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Speaker 1: professional a lot in life in comparison to members of

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Speaker 1: at a lot of things I do with cafe and radio,

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Speaker 1: So you mentioned that it's been all of your life,

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Speaker 1: what's going on. That's just been something that's been natural

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Speaker 1: which always has been there, you know, but I really

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Speaker 1: And I'd say over the last couple of years, I

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Speaker 1: you know everything that goes into it, and you know

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Speaker 1: there I'm a pretty black and white individual. There's not

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Speaker 1: What part does faith play in that for you? Well,

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Speaker 1: the Gospel, the prophecy, the Bible. God first and foremost

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Speaker 1: So you know, now that I've really taken time to

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Speaker 1: and it helps me put in perspective a wounding you

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Speaker 1: everything that goes into heavy things that are hitting us.

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Speaker 1: This faith is not by convenience. You know, when you

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Speaker 1: But if you go back two thousand years, it was worse,

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Speaker 1: and that's a two thousand year prophecy. So it helps

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Speaker 1: me stay at peace, not by convenience, but by faith.

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Speaker 1: in perspective. I really appreciate you sharing that. I know

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Speaker 1: you also have the nail on the head that life

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Speaker 1: talk about your career. Obviously a long time voice of

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Speaker 1: We understand the health protocols, We understood why that was

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Speaker 1: important and health and safety is number one, but it

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Speaker 1: did impact your job. What kind of impact did that

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Speaker 1: work through that? Well. The first road game that I

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Speaker 1: I'm very prideful with pronunciation, preparation and just laying things

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Speaker 1: Now the double edged sword with that, Lindsay is I

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Speaker 1: enjoyed it too much. And what I am enjoyed too

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Speaker 1: That's great, Okay for me, that's great. That's not how

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Speaker 1: And you know, I think I just became a little too.

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Speaker 1: But you know, despite personal life sacrifice with the leaving

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Speaker 1: Drive home for you even more kind of the importance

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Speaker 1: haven't even met Justin Jefferson in person. I mean, that's ridiculous. Okay,

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Speaker 1: I just missed that. You know, I've done this coming

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