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Speaker 1: get into the episode. Hello, Hello, how are you?
Speaker 2: Is this to get?
Speaker 1: Yes? Is this? Who is this?
Speaker 3: This is Dan?
Speaker 1: What's up Dan? I've been waiting for you. How's it going.
Speaker 3: I've been doing well? Been doing well? How's your day
Speaker 3: been so far?
Speaker 1: My day? Has my day's been? Okay? I'm actually feeling bad.
Speaker 1: This is probably the best my I felt emotionally today.
Speaker 1: So I'm happy to this moment here in this moment, yeah,
Speaker 1: this moment right now. Actually, no, probably like fifteen minutes,
Speaker 1: probably fifteen minutes ago. But oh no, that's valid, Dan.
Speaker 1: How can I get you today? Is there anything particularly
Speaker 1: called in to talk about?
Speaker 3: Yeah, I wanted to. I mean, I'd love to talk about,
Speaker 3: but yeah, one of the things I wanted to talk
Speaker 3: about was, so I do do want to ask sometimes
Speaker 3: for some extra cash. And I've stolen a couple of
Speaker 3: orders a couple of times, different situations. But I stole
Speaker 3: an order recently, and I've been trying to think if
Speaker 3: I'm morally in the right, you know, and stealing some
Speaker 3: of these orders. So this case, I had a lady
Speaker 3: who at least I picked up an order, drove to
Speaker 3: the address. She didn't give me any info on how
Speaker 3: to deliver the order, you know, anything like that, and
Speaker 3: then she was just and then I think there was
Speaker 3: just something that said she would like meet me. And
Speaker 3: then I waited for like five minutes, called her no response,
Speaker 3: and then I just took it, and I felt kind
Speaker 3: of bad after, But I don't know, what do you think?
Speaker 1: Do you think I was in the right, you waited
Speaker 1: how long?
Speaker 3: Like five minutes, five, ten minutes? I called her like
Speaker 3: three or four times? Send her messages? Oh now.
Speaker 1: Eat that ship? Are you kidding me?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Right, she knew she had. Well, you called her four times,
Speaker 1: you waited five minutes, you waited five minutes. You're now
Speaker 1: on the clock, correct.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, so so.
Speaker 1: So she's kind of wasted your time from all the
Speaker 1: other artists you could be getting. You know, I think
Speaker 1: you're fine. Did she did she like angrily call you
Speaker 1: or text you?
Speaker 5: Uh?
Speaker 1: Saying that text me?
Speaker 3: She did text me after she was like, uh, probably
Speaker 3: like ten Actually how long? How much longer? It's like
Speaker 3: like probably like twenty thirty minutes later, I was with
Speaker 3: my girlfriend and yeah, she just uh, she just told
Speaker 3: me what did she text me? Did you?
Speaker 2: She was like, hey, where did you leave it? Where
Speaker 2: did Yeah?
Speaker 3: She was asking me where I left it? Because I
Speaker 3: took like a fake This is where I was kind
Speaker 3: of malicious. I took a fake picture of it because
Speaker 3: door dash makes you take a picture of the order,
Speaker 3: like in front of the building, So I kind of
Speaker 3: set it in front of the building. I took a
Speaker 3: picture of it, and then I kind of swooped it,
Speaker 3: so that maybe that's where I felt the guilt. What
Speaker 3: do you think about that?
Speaker 1: Yeah, you didn't mention that whole part. That's a whole different.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Yeah, maybe maybe I should have mentioned that that's true. Yeah,
Speaker 3: well what context does that at?
Speaker 5: Mm hmmm?
Speaker 1: Well I here. Here's the thing is why you you
Speaker 1: you absolutely gasolate this poor woman woman into thinking that.
Speaker 1: I mean, she must have been looking around for at
Speaker 1: for like a good half hour of where the fuck
Speaker 1: this food was? No, that's true.
Speaker 3: It's a little fucked up. It's a little fucked up
Speaker 3: that she left me like waiting there.
Speaker 1: Well, yeah, but you didn't know. Well, but you could
Speaker 1: have just you could have just left the fucking food
Speaker 1: and left.
Speaker 3: My horny as is hunger, dude.
Speaker 1: Your horny ass is hungry, dude.
Speaker 3: It's no good.
Speaker 1: What does you being a horny have to do with this.
Speaker 3: Horny for the pizza?
Speaker 1: Okay?
Speaker 3: Something about it?
Speaker 1: I don't know, but I told them to ask you,
Speaker 1: what's your girlfriend's whole she's like codashing with you, Yeah
Speaker 1: she was.
Speaker 3: She was just with me. We're making we needed some
Speaker 3: extra money, so we were door dashing.
Speaker 1: Do you guys split the money or is it just
Speaker 1: what's the deal there? Yeah?
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, right now we're like building out of van,
Speaker 3: so we needed we're like full time doing that. I'm
Speaker 3: a flight attendant full time, but I've been like I
Speaker 3: basically haven't been doing that for the past couple of months.
Speaker 1: I mean if it's a great way to it's very
Speaker 1: funny because like stealing food as a door dasher is
Speaker 1: way cheaper than actually going buying food.
Speaker 3: Correct, it's a great It's kind of a life hack.
Speaker 1: You know. Wait, that's the stupid that's the stupidest thing
Speaker 1: I think I've ever said on this show. Stealing anything
Speaker 1: is always cheaper than buying it.
Speaker 2: Yeah, there we go.
Speaker 3: I mean it's a great life Like, stealing is great.
Speaker 1: What else have you stolen? What else do you steal?
Speaker 3: What have what have we stolen before? What have we
Speaker 3: just like screw some stuff from home depot?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 3: What have we stolen from? Like targets?
Speaker 6: I don't know.
Speaker 3: Atle liquor off planes and stuff.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I feel like that could get you into some ship.
Speaker 5: Is that not?
Speaker 1: Is that not a ground? Is that not grounds for
Speaker 1: like losing your job?
Speaker 3: Definite grounds for firing. They like it's like a whole
Speaker 3: thing when you like drink on your overnight, like when
Speaker 3: you when you're at the hotel, you gotta like hide
Speaker 3: the where you like throw away the liquor you got
Speaker 3: because they like did coordinate with the housekeeping staff, so
Speaker 3: you have to, like there's like trash cans by the elevators,
Speaker 3: you gonna throw them away. By what compelled you?
Speaker 1: What compelled you to steal this woman's food?
Speaker 3: I told I was hungry. It smelled really good. It
Speaker 3: was really really good. It was like I think it
Speaker 3: was like a hot honey pizza. It was like this
Speaker 3: honey that had like this I don't know, I've had
Speaker 3: it before, and it was tasty.
Speaker 2: It was really fucking good.
Speaker 1: Do you regret it.
Speaker 5: Now?
Speaker 3: Well, now I'm talking through it with you, like remembering
Speaker 3: how good the pizza was. I it was just so
Speaker 3: good and there wasn't that much backlash for it. I
Speaker 3: don't think I got like a bad review or anything.
Speaker 1: So I don't know.
Speaker 3: I think in the end, I don't regret it.
Speaker 1: It does sound I don't know how you putting honey
Speaker 1: on the pizza.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it was like it was you gotta try Have
Speaker 3: you tried it? Oh?
Speaker 1: Yeah, I actually have. I have this guy, professor Pizza
Speaker 1: who makes pizzas professor the pizza professor, the professor Pizza.
Speaker 3: Yeah, you go to college for that.
Speaker 1: Well listen, Daniel, if you don't regret it, then it
Speaker 1: sounds like you're absolved.
Speaker 3: Okay, that's fair.
Speaker 5: So I'm good.
Speaker 1: With who.
Speaker 3: I guess myself.
Speaker 1: I can't. I can't. I cannot. I cannot answer the
Speaker 1: question of whether or not you're good with yourself.
Speaker 3: Okay, that's fair, that's fair.
Speaker 1: Where do I get? Where can I get? Where can
Speaker 1: I get this honey pizza? This sounds really good? Uh?
Speaker 5: It was.
Speaker 3: It was like a place called like fly By.
Speaker 1: But well, you know what I think, you know what
Speaker 1: I think I'm gonna do.
Speaker 3: What are you gonna do?
Speaker 1: If I do ever go to fly By to get
Speaker 1: the pizza, I know for sure that I'm going to
Speaker 1: pick it up myself.
Speaker 3: Yeah, don't or I mean at least like be there
Speaker 3: when the door dasher comes.
Speaker 1: You know, I have some respects, you know, Daniel's anything
Speaker 1: else you want to say to the people of the
Speaker 1: computer before we go.
Speaker 3: No, not really.
Speaker 1: Ghak bless you, sir, Thank you, gak bless you.
Speaker 3: I have a great night.
Speaker 1: Fuck. That actually sounds really good. Hi there, Hi?
Speaker 5: Who is this is ar? What's up?
Speaker 1: Arrow? Like a bow and arrow?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Ah, what's your life like? Arrow? It's pretty chill, honestly, Okay,
Speaker 1: what's chill about? I?
Speaker 5: I work where I live. I guess.
Speaker 6: It's like I'm like, yeah, yeah, so like I'm like
Speaker 6: the maintenance guy at this apartment complex and I also
Speaker 6: live there.
Speaker 1: Oh wow, are you do all of the members of
Speaker 1: the apartment complex know you by name and wave to
Speaker 1: you friendly as they pass.
Speaker 6: Oh yeah, like all the old ladies and stuff. And
Speaker 6: we have like some people that have lived here for
Speaker 6: a while and they know me, but like we have
Speaker 6: a lot of new residents too.
Speaker 1: Tell me these old ladies, Do you have a favorite one?
Speaker 1: Do you have a favorite old one?
Speaker 6: I turn not to have favorites, but I do have
Speaker 6: a disfavorite one.
Speaker 5: So I don't know. Maybe that's backwards, but I do
Speaker 5: hate one of them fussy.
Speaker 6: She's like very fussy, you know, And like, I don't know,
Speaker 6: maybe maybe I shouldn't be complaining about old ladies.
Speaker 1: But let's dive into I'm very curious about all the
Speaker 1: and you don't be afraid. Let's explore this. Why initially
Speaker 1: do you feel as though you hate? Tell tell me,
Speaker 1: tell me about this old lady that you that you
Speaker 1: imagined when you imagine the old lady that.
Speaker 5: You hate, she's just like, uh like, uh, I don't know.
Speaker 6: Maybe she's like she's really religious, you know, and I
Speaker 6: don't like we don't like agree with that, you know,
Speaker 6: like I don't like really like religious.
Speaker 5: People in general.
Speaker 6: And uh, she but she's cool, you know, she's like
Speaker 6: she's really nice to your face and stuff. But then
Speaker 6: she's like she she complains about things that aren't there,
Speaker 6: you know, like she's all like, my, my events need
Speaker 6: to be cleaned out. And then we go there and
Speaker 6: we clean out our events and she was like you
Speaker 6: didn't do it like the right job or whatever, you know.
Speaker 6: And then we have this one window guy come in
Speaker 6: and he replaced the windows and he was like, oh,
Speaker 6: that one lady, I like, she has like a reputation
Speaker 6: around for like being a difficult lady.
Speaker 5: I guess, okay with this window guy.
Speaker 1: You know, so what is she Buddhist?
Speaker 5: No, she's just like super Christian.
Speaker 1: It's never right. I don't know why, but it's that
Speaker 1: it's always always the old lady the religious old lady
Speaker 1: is always is always Christian Jewish or maybe sometimes but never,
Speaker 1: I feel like usually Catholic Christian.
Speaker 5: Exactly.
Speaker 6: I think I feel like old Jewish ladies are cool.
Speaker 1: Old Jewish ladies, Jewish ladies in my life who have
Speaker 1: been very cool. My mother is years old, but she's
Speaker 1: a Jewish lady and she's cool. And one day that
Speaker 1: is how I will end up as an old Jewish lady.
Speaker 5: You're going to be a Jewish old lady. I thought
Speaker 5: you'd be a Jewish gad.
Speaker 1: A'll be some bastard combination of the two. Okay, what
Speaker 1: now you this old lady, Okay, this old lady has
Speaker 1: a reputation. A lot of people have problems with this
Speaker 1: old lady, yourself included.
Speaker 5: M hm.
Speaker 1: But as yet, when I gave you the opportunity to
Speaker 1: talk about this old lady, you you you said, you
Speaker 1: know what I shouldn't I shouldn't talk bad about this
Speaker 1: old lady. What made you feel like you should not
Speaker 1: talk bad about this old lady?
Speaker 6: Like she like she's like she's good, you know, like
Speaker 6: if I think about it, for for like introspectively, I'm like,
Speaker 6: she's really just wanting like a good place to live,
Speaker 6: you know, and she's like disabled, Well she's not disabled,
Speaker 6: she like walks around and all that, but she's like
Speaker 6: on all that disabled stuff. So she like gets her
Speaker 6: like mules delivered and somebody drives her around.
Speaker 1: So like, I don't know what you mean by she's
Speaker 1: on all that disabled stuff.
Speaker 5: I don't know, Like uh, like.
Speaker 6: She gets meals delivered to her, and somebody who bully
Speaker 6: picks her up from church and like brings her back
Speaker 6: and forth from church, and she gets like a like
Speaker 6: a rental discount and stuff like that, and she gets
Speaker 6: like money from the state and stuff like that.
Speaker 1: Okay, and these are all reasons why you don't like her.
Speaker 6: No, No, it's just that's just what she's got going on.
Speaker 1: Okay, I like this, So this is this is tell
Speaker 1: me why I don't like her. Go ahead.
Speaker 5: She's just fussy.
Speaker 6: And I'm like, like when I ever have to go
Speaker 6: and do something like work on something in her apartment,
Speaker 6: it's always like can you do it like this?
Speaker 5: Can you do it like that?
Speaker 6: And like this one for example, this one time I
Speaker 6: had to install an outlet and she was like can
Speaker 6: Like I'm pretty young too, so she was like, do
Speaker 6: you think we need to get electrician out here, And
Speaker 6: I was like, we don't need to get electrician out here.
Speaker 6: I can install this outlet.
Speaker 5: Like it was kind of.
Speaker 6: Insulting a little bit, like she was questioning my my
Speaker 6: professional capabilities.
Speaker 1: Sure, well I wouldn't be insulted because you can do
Speaker 1: it better than her.
Speaker 5: Yeah, well that's fair.
Speaker 6: Might maybe I was having the trouble trouble with that
Speaker 6: outlet too. You know, you didn't say that for no reason.
Speaker 1: But I was like, right right, she she, she was
Speaker 1: probably right. You probably couldn't do it. I probably needed
Speaker 1: to clean electrician, But that doesn't make you, uh, you know,
Speaker 1: a piece of ship. It just means you couldn't install
Speaker 1: this outlets. And that was what needed that. That was
Speaker 1: what needed to be done. The ego had to be sacrificed,
Speaker 1: uh to achieve the common goal of having the outlet fixed.
Speaker 5: I do have an ego problem. So you know you're
Speaker 5: good at this get job.
Speaker 1: I gotta tell you, tell me, tell me more about
Speaker 1: this this ego problem if you desire to.
Speaker 6: Just uh, like, I think I'm the best, you know, like,
Speaker 6: uh like I got like uh, I tell people all
Speaker 6: the time, I only have one set of wisdom teeth
Speaker 6: that makes me like the next like evolved thing, you know,
Speaker 6: but it's really it's really just like b Yes, I
Speaker 6: also tell everybody like I could probably fight a bear
Speaker 6: if I wanted to and like come out on the top.
Speaker 5: But like I know that that's yeah too.
Speaker 1: Do you really believe that?
Speaker 6: Oh no, probably not, but I would like to try,
Speaker 6: just just because that you can go, you know, just
Speaker 6: like I'm just like talking ship.
Speaker 1: Does your ego ever get you into trouble?
Speaker 6: Yeah, dude, but you got You have a lot of
Speaker 6: people on your on your show talking about relationships stuff, so.
Speaker 1: We can I feel like, well, listen, we talked about
Speaker 1: a lot of stuff, and I'm curious about you as
Speaker 1: a person. So if if the answer to this question
Speaker 1: involves something with a relationship, you can feel free to
Speaker 1: talk about it.
Speaker 6: Uh yeah, no, I'll talk about it. I just like
Speaker 6: I thought, like, uh, that I could do better than
Speaker 6: this one chick that I that I was dating, and
Speaker 6: that turns out like I really liked her, you know,
Speaker 6: and she was awesome, and I should have just like
Speaker 6: then checked the ego, you know, and then like it's
Speaker 6: not about doing better, it's about just being happy where
Speaker 6: you are, you know, like that kind of philosophy stuff
Speaker 6: like of just like like just being comfortable with where
Speaker 6: you're at, not being like, oh I can do better,
Speaker 6: And I'm not not that wanting better is wrong, but
Speaker 6: like thinking that of other people is.
Speaker 5: Wrong, you know.
Speaker 1: M hm uh? How when did you break up with
Speaker 1: this girl?
Speaker 5: A couple of years ago?
Speaker 6: And I'm still hung up about it just because yesterday
Speaker 6: was Valentine's Day two?
Speaker 1: You know, how long did it take for you to
Speaker 1: come to the realization that you've just told me?
Speaker 5: Like probably a million years?
Speaker 1: You said it took a million years.
Speaker 6: Yeah, okay, it took a way longer than I should
Speaker 6: have you know, be okay.
Speaker 5: With it, But you know that's whatever.
Speaker 1: Well. I have a few thoughts about this. One is
Speaker 1: your You're probably the reason I don't talk about you met.
Speaker 1: You kind of brought up this relationship thing sparingly with this,
Speaker 1: maybe this idea that I didn't want to talk about it.
Speaker 1: I think the reason why I don't talk about relationship
Speaker 1: stuff that often is because it's so complicated and I
Speaker 1: don't have my own wits about it either. But this
Speaker 1: as an overall philosophical concept, this idea that you thought
Speaker 1: you could do better, so you you gave up what
Speaker 1: was directly in front of you to search for something else,
Speaker 1: and then realized that you might have been better off
Speaker 1: actually fully investing yourself into what was in front of
Speaker 1: you instead of searching for the the greener grass. That's
Speaker 1: kind of the that's kind of what we're talking about.
Speaker 6: Right, Yeah, like that one quote from the Office, I
Speaker 6: wish you would know you were in the in like
Speaker 6: the greet the good times, when you're in the good
Speaker 6: times or whatever something like that.
Speaker 1: I was, I literally was just talking to somebody about
Speaker 1: about the ending of the office. Yeah, because it's about this. Well,
Speaker 1: here's what I'll say. You seem like a self aware guy.
Speaker 1: I hope you're not beating yourself up about this because
Speaker 1: this is as valuable information to have. You said, you're
Speaker 1: a young guy. You are, you know, this is a
Speaker 1: valuable information to have and apply to your life because
Speaker 1: I agree with it so much. It's the only thing.
Speaker 1: There's no there's you. There's never there's never anything better
Speaker 1: than what is. You know, I'm not going to say
Speaker 1: this never any better, but you there's a lot that's
Speaker 1: in front of you to be appreciated and valued, and
Speaker 1: you can lose sight of that when you, you know,
Speaker 1: quote think you can do better. Yeah, so look moving forward,
Speaker 1: but go ahead moving forward? For you, Well, how do
Speaker 1: you feel like you want to apply this epiphany to
Speaker 1: your life?
Speaker 5: Maybe?
Speaker 6: Like I find myself whenever I'm in conversation talking about
Speaker 6: myself a lot, you know, and I have to like
Speaker 6: kind of like like check that and trying to like,
Speaker 6: uh be interested in other people, you know, and uh
Speaker 6: like what with like like I find it hard to
Speaker 6: ask them, like to be interested and ask questions about them,
Speaker 6: you know, like I be like, oh bye, I just
Speaker 6: kind of find myself dozing off, you know, like I
Speaker 6: don't really care. It's not about me, So I don't
Speaker 6: really care, you know.
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, hm hmm. Have you always been like this?
Speaker 5: Yeah? I think so.
Speaker 1: Why do you think you're like this? Uh?
Speaker 5: I don't know.
Speaker 6: I'm just like I've always been in my own head,
Speaker 6: you know, just like when I was a kid, I
Speaker 6: would like just kind of like just like play about myself.
Speaker 6: You know, I had friends and stuff, like I would
Speaker 6: hang out with people, but I would always like kind
Speaker 6: of like a loaner. And I'm a loaner today too.
Speaker 6: So I'm just I'm like, I'm like very self aware.
Speaker 6: I'm very constantly like like yeah, like there's like this
Speaker 6: one philosophy thing where it's like if you're a machine
Speaker 6: and you spend too much energy like looking at yourself,
Speaker 6: then you're you're spending too much. You're not spending enough
Speaker 6: energy doing things or being productive. You know, you're spending
Speaker 6: all that energy like constantly checking yourself like am I
Speaker 6: doing this right? Am I doing that right?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Yes, Well you don't matter cosmically, which is great news,
Speaker 1: because wouldn't that be stressful if you did?
Speaker 6: It would be Honestly, I'm not I'm not not the
Speaker 6: best at thinks, so we would all be doing.
Speaker 3: Hm hm.
Speaker 5: Hmm.
Speaker 1: What's your name? Aero?
Speaker 6: Yeah, and that's my real name too, And that's not
Speaker 6: like a fake. I don't know, maybe I shouldn't give
Speaker 6: that out, but like so it's okay, like.
Speaker 2: Like shout out, shout out all the arrows out there.
Speaker 1: You know, they appreciate the shout out. Uh er, I'm
Speaker 1: gonna say a couple of things before we go. You're
Speaker 1: clearly very self aware, and I think it's a powerful tool,
Speaker 1: and I I think I don't know, I feel like
Speaker 1: anything I would say to you you already know, but
Speaker 1: I think that you're potentially closing yourself off to a
Speaker 1: lot of life. That's kind of what ego does. Is
Speaker 1: it is it is it narrows because right now you're
Speaker 1: the because the scope of life is everyone and everything,
Speaker 1: and and then your ego is limiting that infinite scope
Speaker 1: to just you. And that's, you know, a narrow scope
Speaker 1: to live in. And so I think you understand that
Speaker 1: you'd be happier if you widened that scope a little bit.
Speaker 1: Look the old lady in the eye and really think
Speaker 1: about how much you love her.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 6: I even kind of goes back to that old lady.
Speaker 6: You were saying something earlier like yeah, I don't know,
Speaker 6: I forgotten.
Speaker 1: Next time an old Next time an old lady is
Speaker 1: really pissing you off, Just look at her in the
Speaker 1: eye and think about how much you love her arrow.
Speaker 5: Ah, well love her?
Speaker 1: How Just think about how much you love this sweet
Speaker 1: old lady. She's a cosmic miracle of the universe, and
Speaker 1: you have the honor of helping her fix this fucking outlet.
Speaker 5: Hey, cat.
Speaker 1: Er, is anything else you want to say? The computer
Speaker 1: before we go.
Speaker 5: I'm going to the Hawaii show.
Speaker 6: So I'll see you there.
Speaker 1: You're going to the Hawaii show. It says here you
Speaker 1: live in fucking Arizona.
Speaker 6: What do the songs this guy's popular I'm talking to Yeah.
Speaker 6: The Tucson show was like like sold out, and I
Speaker 6: wanted that exclusive merch, so I was like, screw it,
Speaker 6: I'm going Hawaii. I need a vacation from all these
Speaker 6: old ladies.
Speaker 1: Okay, man, well, i'll see you there. We'll please, we'll
Speaker 1: come up, come up on stage. We'll talk more about this.
Speaker 5: Heck, yes, I good man.
Speaker 1: All right, man, I'll talk to you. Thanks for calling Arrow.
Speaker 5: Hello.
Speaker 4: Hi, Okay, Lyle.
Speaker 1: What's up hanging in there? How are you doing?
Speaker 4: I'm doing all right?
Speaker 1: Uh, what's up, Caleb? What do you want to talk
Speaker 1: about tonight?
Speaker 4: So this might sound kind of trivial or dumb, but
Speaker 4: pretty much what's going on is I've got a discord
Speaker 4: group that I play games with about three or four
Speaker 4: times a week after work. And we've been doing this
Speaker 4: for the past I would say three years, and I
Speaker 4: would say we're all pretty good, pretty good friends with
Speaker 4: each other. One of these friends decided to try out
Speaker 4: youtubeing on Twitch maybe three or four months ago, and
Speaker 4: we've all been very supportive of her, and she's been
Speaker 4: doing pretty well, I would say, with them. The past month,
Speaker 4: she's gotten to around one hundred and fifty followers on Twitch,
Speaker 4: and this weekend she did a bunch of back to
Speaker 4: back collapse with a bunch of other YouTubers and she's
Speaker 4: met working and she's made I would say, like six
Speaker 4: or seven other YouTubers that she's now friends with. And
Speaker 4: it's the most recent stream, which is actually just a
Speaker 4: few moments ago. She put in the chat the discord
Speaker 4: link for the YouTuber these discord and I joined, but
Speaker 4: then she cut the stream short, says she had a
Speaker 4: stomach ache, and then pretty much sent me a message saying, hey,
Speaker 4: you know, my YouTuber friends get kind of unhinged, is
Speaker 4: what she put it. And I don't. And you know,
Speaker 4: she's like, I don't necessarily want people I know to
Speaker 4: see the things they say and stuff like that. And
Speaker 4: I told her I respect that, and I told her
Speaker 4: I felt left out, but you know, I'm an adult
Speaker 4: and whatever. So I left the discord. But I don't know,
Speaker 4: I feel jealous if I feel like a friend I've
Speaker 4: known for three years. Is I don't know, it's maybe
Speaker 4: it's the whole weekend of back to back CoABS, so
Speaker 4: it's normally that during the weekends we always get together
Speaker 4: as a group of play games. Ah, but yeah, it's
Speaker 4: I felt kind of insulted and like like I couldn't
Speaker 4: handle you know, strangers on the internet making that I
Speaker 4: guess dirty jokes or whatever, and I kind of cut
Speaker 4: off from that, and uh, it kind of stuck a
Speaker 4: little because you know, we were all supportive and I
Speaker 4: was supportive, but I don't know. So that's that's why
Speaker 4: I'm here to ventive out.
Speaker 1: And you know, a discord of YouTubers has got to
Speaker 1: be the easiest community to sneak into anonymously because you
Speaker 1: can just you know, it wouldn't you could You can
Speaker 1: just like pretend that you're you can just pretend like
Speaker 1: you're a dog and like make your voice a little
Speaker 1: bit higher and then you're a different guy.
Speaker 4: I you know, I did think about that, I'll be honest,
Speaker 4: but I feel like that would end up being that's
Speaker 4: not really honoring their Oh.
Speaker 1: No, you totally should not do that. Uh okay, So
Speaker 1: so all right, you were friends with this person for
Speaker 1: three years, they got into this v tuber lifestyle and
Speaker 1: you feel as though you have been left out now.
Speaker 4: Yeah, and uh I guess I'm yeah.
Speaker 1: Okay, So does your do you and your friends still
Speaker 1: play games together or has she totally left that group
Speaker 1: as well?
Speaker 4: Uh, well, that's what we're going to find out. I'm
Speaker 4: sure we will, and I don't see any reason why
Speaker 4: we won't. It's just this.
Speaker 5: Uh.
Speaker 4: I think it's just the way things were scheduled. But
Speaker 4: the collab she did it just it made it feel
Speaker 4: very much in the face of like, it's just okay.
Speaker 4: Time would normally you know, hey, you know, let's see
Speaker 4: some gaming, and now she's streaming with other people and
Speaker 4: it's probably not as bad as it is. It just
Speaker 4: it feels very in my face and like, well, I
Speaker 4: don't know, it feels like can I who knows?
Speaker 3: Can?
Speaker 1: I want to flow. I want to float a few
Speaker 1: ideas by you and you can tell me how you
Speaker 1: feel about them.
Speaker 3: Uh.
Speaker 4: Sure.
Speaker 1: Look, your friend has this whole other group of friends
Speaker 1: now with her in her v tuber club, and she
Speaker 1: wants to explore that, and uh, you know, maybe have
Speaker 1: that separate from other groups of friends that she has
Speaker 1: and if that's what she desires, you gotta you gotta
Speaker 1: let her do that. You know, I think to to
Speaker 1: to be upset or get jealous is you know, becomes
Speaker 1: possessive and uh, you that's the that's just that's just
Speaker 1: toxic poison for relationships, possessiveness and jealousy. And so I
Speaker 1: think you should let her go do her YouTuber thing.
Speaker 1: And if she decides that she wants to come back
Speaker 1: to the group open and play video games with you guys,
Speaker 1: and that's awesome. And if she does decides that she doesn't,
Speaker 1: then you know, then okay, you you you have to
Speaker 1: just let her do whatever she's gonna do.
Speaker 4: Yeah, and who knows she may come back. But you're right,
Speaker 4: You're right. It is a possessive It is toxic, and
Speaker 4: uh but I just I do feel that way, and
Speaker 4: it's I'm not really sure how to to help counter
Speaker 4: that emotion.
Speaker 1: Or you could make a super hot anime guy avatar,
Speaker 1: buy a voice changer to make your voice sound like uh,
Speaker 1: gravelly and sexy, and you know, become the most popular
Speaker 1: guy in the YouTuber group and you know, get her
Speaker 1: back there.
Speaker 4: Uh that's something all of advice now he isn't a relationship.
Speaker 4: It was also in the front group, so it's it
Speaker 4: would never be anything like that. But but yeah, maybe
Speaker 4: if I become a YouTuber.
Speaker 1: I do I do I count as av tuber because
Speaker 1: I'm I'm I'm like, I'm somewhat halfway in between because
Speaker 1: I'm not myself when I am a creature thing. So
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm I'm zero point five of av tuber.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'll be honest, I have not looked up the
Speaker 4: the official definition of a v tuber?
Speaker 1: Uh, Caleb, is there anything else you want to say
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer before we go?
Speaker 5: No?
Speaker 4: I mean, I guess, uh. You know, if people want
Speaker 4: separate space, you know you gotta respect it, and you know,
Speaker 4: don't be toxic and instead just spent your emotions too
Speaker 4: listens on the internet.
Speaker 1: Thank you for calling, Caleb. You have a good rest
Speaker 1: of the night. Yeah, I understand. I understand the morning
Speaker 1: because he feels like he's losing his friend to this
Speaker 1: other group, but you have no idea. It also sounds
Speaker 1: like this feedtober thing is a very recent thing for her,
Speaker 1: so who knows how to'll play out. But in the meantime,
Speaker 1: you know, just hang out and play games with whoever's
Speaker 1: still in the discord. You know, don't don't forget about
Speaker 1: those foo, don't. We're we're so busy focusing on those
Speaker 1: who leave that we forget about those who stayed. Caleb,
Speaker 1: focus on those who stayed.
Speaker 2: Hello, Hello, Hi, how's it going?
Speaker 1: You tell me? How's it going with you?
Speaker 2: It's it's going good, it's going good.
Speaker 1: Uh, what do you want to talk about today?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 2: So I'm actually getting circumcised.
Speaker 5: In a couple of weeks.
Speaker 1: You're getting circumcised.
Speaker 6: Yeah.
Speaker 1: I thought that usually happens when you're a child.
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, no, not for me though, not for me.
Speaker 1: Why have you decided to get circumcised so late in
Speaker 1: your life?
Speaker 2: Because it's just, uh, it doesn't make sense very comfortable
Speaker 2: at least for me personally.
Speaker 1: Having a foreskin.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it usually does apparently, but for me it's not
Speaker 2: like that.
Speaker 1: Okay, how does one go about getting circumcised as an adult?
Speaker 2: Like, like, what's like the process?
Speaker 1: Yes?
Speaker 2: Well, uh, you just go like you're like your local
Speaker 2: urology place and they usually check you out.
Speaker 4: And I didn't have to.
Speaker 5: It wasn't like mandatory.
Speaker 2: It's more like a personal choice. But yeah, they just uh,
Speaker 2: they check out your penis and they let you know
Speaker 2: what's going on, and then you just get ready for
Speaker 2: a surgery.
Speaker 1: I would be concerned for you if this was mandatory.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I know that.
Speaker 2: That is the thing though, and I was worried that
Speaker 2: I had that. It's it's called semosis. It's where like
Speaker 2: your your foreskin can get trapped behind the head and
Speaker 2: kind of like cut circulation.
Speaker 1: Really, so like your foreskin works like a rubber band
Speaker 1: on your penis and you have to cut it off. Yeah.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, and so I kind of had that and
Speaker 2: it felt kind of uncomfortable and I was like, oh, fuck,
Speaker 2: Like it's just like it's just like because it can
Speaker 2: get like stuck back. Luckily it didn't get stuck for me,
Speaker 2: but it was just it was a little freaky.
Speaker 5: You know.
Speaker 1: Okay, so this is that factor into the reason why
Speaker 1: you decide to get circumcised.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's just it's kind of a hassle and I
Speaker 2: just I'd rather just be cut, you know.
Speaker 1: Okay, So how does this work? Did they put you
Speaker 1: under anesthesia?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Yeah, no, I'll be I'll be knocked out, thank god.
Speaker 1: Okay, are you looking forward to it.
Speaker 2: Oh man, I mean okay, So so the way I'm
Speaker 2: kind of processing this is like it's kind of just
Speaker 2: gonna be like hell for a month and then it'll
Speaker 2: be like and then I'll be like worry free and
Speaker 2: I'll be fine.
Speaker 1: Why will it help?
Speaker 2: They because you have like stitches in your dick and
Speaker 2: you can't get erections.
Speaker 1: You can't get directions, So like, wait a minute, So
Speaker 1: is it like if you get stitches? So is it
Speaker 1: like if you do get an erection, the stitches will break?
Speaker 2: I think so, I think it's something like that. I
Speaker 2: just well, so I've done some research though and getting
Speaker 2: getting voters like it doesn't.
Speaker 5: It doesn't.
Speaker 2: It's not like it'll fuck up your dick.
Speaker 3: Like.
Speaker 2: It actually like helps the healing process apparently, but it's
Speaker 2: just like really painful.
Speaker 1: So getting erections helps the healing process.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean that's what I ran online. I can't
Speaker 2: even totally remember how that's possible.
Speaker 1: But yeah, are you planning to stay clear of any
Speaker 1: sort of sexual things that might give you an erection
Speaker 1: so that you don't pop your stitches?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 2: I think I'm gonna have to just probably like delete
Speaker 2: social media for a bit to just avoid any like
Speaker 2: any of that, okay, like first traps or anything, and
Speaker 2: I'm just gonna I'm gonna do my best, but we'll
Speaker 2: we'll see how that goes. Yeah, because I usually just
Speaker 2: like I'll just wake up with an interaction, you know,
Speaker 2: So I'm worried that's gonna happen.
Speaker 5: Mm hmmm.
Speaker 1: What are you most looking forward to in your new
Speaker 1: life as a circumcised man?
Speaker 2: Probably like not being like because like it made me
Speaker 2: like nervous to have sex because it was just uncomfortable,
Speaker 2: you know, And to be free of that is gonna
Speaker 2: be It's gonna be amazing.
Speaker 1: Are you Jewish?
Speaker 5: No?
Speaker 3: No, I'm not Jewish.
Speaker 1: I wish interesting you can pass for Jewish now for
Speaker 1: I don't know how that is if there's a situation there.
Speaker 1: Usually throughout history there have not been many situations where
Speaker 1: passing as Jewish has been beneficial. But who knows about
Speaker 1: the future. Now you have that option.
Speaker 2: Yeah's true, true. Yeah, I was thinking about it. I
Speaker 2: was thinking so before I even like considered getting circumcised,
Speaker 2: I was like, damn, like I just I'm just I
Speaker 2: can't be Jewish. But now now it will be an option.
Speaker 1: You were thinking about the fact that you can't be Jewish.
Speaker 2: Yeah, well, do you have to get circumcised to be Jewish?
Speaker 1: Clue? Is there anything else you want to say to
Speaker 1: the people of the computer before we go? No, No,
Speaker 1: thank you, Hey, take care.
Speaker 5: You too.
Speaker 1: I'm uncertain. I am circumcised. I am circumcised. I was
Speaker 1: circumcised when I was a child. And I remember the
Speaker 1: first time that I saw an uncircumcised penis while watching pornography,
Speaker 1: and it scared the shit out of me because I
Speaker 1: was like, I didn't know that that went up that far.
Speaker 1: It looked like the Alaskan bullworm from SpongeBob. I thought
Speaker 1: there was something wrong with that guy's penis. But it
Speaker 1: turns out there was something wrong with mine.
Speaker 5: Uh.
Speaker 1: But now I'm happily, happily circumcised. Uh does it make
Speaker 1: sex better?
Speaker 4: I don't know.
Speaker 1: I don't have a I don't have a a reference
Speaker 1: to compare it to. Now, that would be an interesting thing,
Speaker 1: if you could uncircumcise yourself. If they could somehow graph
Speaker 1: on the foreskin of another guy onto my penis. Someone
Speaker 1: look at into this for me. It'sell me if it's possible. Hello, Hello,
Speaker 1: how are you?
Speaker 5: I'm good.
Speaker 1: What's going on.
Speaker 5: I'm just you know, I'm just chilling. I'm having a
Speaker 5: drink in the vibing. How about yourself, I'm chilling.
Speaker 1: I'm talking to people on the computer as a get go.
Speaker 5: Dude, you sound very different. I know, like everybody says this,
Speaker 5: but you sound very different and than you do on
Speaker 5: the streams.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I've heard everyone says it.
Speaker 5: Uh yeah.
Speaker 1: So Elijah, what's going on with you today? How can
Speaker 1: I get you? What's going on? How's life?
Speaker 5: Uh? Yeah, Like I said, I'm just kind of over
Speaker 5: here vibing and uh kind of wanted to talk about
Speaker 5: my experience being and openly uh weird person while in
Speaker 5: the Armed Forces.
Speaker 1: Oh sure, what how how long have you been in
Speaker 1: the Armed Forces for?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 5: I mean I I just got out three and a
Speaker 5: half years. It was my time.
Speaker 1: It's funny. Uh, I've told I talked to people in
Speaker 1: the military and some of them are like, oh, this
Speaker 1: was this was like the best thing I've ever done.
Speaker 1: And then other people are like, oh this is.
Speaker 5: You know, uh.
Speaker 1: It was a terrible decision. So it always feel like it,
Speaker 1: uh get I get kind of varied opinions on it.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean the thing about the military is it's
Speaker 5: basically like a capitalist cult. It's hard to describe it.
Speaker 5: But uh, but yeah, I don't regret joining. I'm glad
Speaker 5: that I did it. But it's very much you're you're
Speaker 5: selling your body to the government.
Speaker 1: So yeah, So what you said you wanted to talk
Speaker 1: about being openly gay in the military.
Speaker 5: Well, I'm bisexual to be specific. But yeah, it's a
Speaker 5: very weird thing being around.
Speaker 4: Uh.
Speaker 5: Sorry, I'm a little nervous. I just.
Speaker 1: Okay, man, Well listen to me. Are you're not looking
Speaker 1: at the chat, are you?
Speaker 5: No?
Speaker 1: No, okay, Well, don't look at the chat. Don't be nervous.
Speaker 1: It's just you and me talking about about about Yeah
Speaker 1: you want to talk about we can. We can. We
Speaker 1: don't even have to talk for long. If you don't
Speaker 1: want to talk for long, we don't have to even
Speaker 1: talk about it, you know, whatever. Whatever you're feeling, man,
Speaker 1: it's all right. We're just we're just chilling out on
Speaker 1: the phone. Listen, So tell me that. So, so, you
Speaker 1: obviously felt like this affected you enough you you were
Speaker 1: compelled enough to haul in about it, you know, tell
Speaker 1: me about kind of the ways that that that this
Speaker 1: you know, impacted you, your your experience.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean it's I feel like it's just more
Speaker 5: of like a it's the dissonance between I feel queer
Speaker 5: culture and the culture of the military, or or the
Speaker 5: kind of because I feel like the military attracts a
Speaker 5: very specific type of person, and I feel it's like
Speaker 5: I feel like it's a lot of conservative men and
Speaker 5: a lot of yeah, a lot of a lot of
Speaker 5: aggressively I kind of use the term of the call screener,
Speaker 5: a lot of aggressively straight men, just like the kind
Speaker 5: of like if you would insinuate that they might have
Speaker 5: some form of queer meaning, then they almost get insulted, uh,
Speaker 5: in a weird way. I don't know if you're interacted
Speaker 5: with that kind of person, but uh, it's a strange experience.
Speaker 5: I'll say that. I'll say that, so or was.
Speaker 1: Anyone ever like directly hostile toward you?
Speaker 5: No, not directly, Okay, I think a lot of it
Speaker 5: just just I mean, I mean, there's like one instance
Speaker 5: where somebody outright that used the f splay towards me. Uh,
Speaker 5: I mean, but that was in a very specific circumstance
Speaker 5: that I that I don't feel always accurate to say
Speaker 5: is described it. It was an exception to the rule moreover.
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, so they used it.
Speaker 4: There's been a lot of reform.
Speaker 5: There's been a lot of reform in the military to
Speaker 5: do a lot to you know, equal opportunity programs have
Speaker 5: been implemented. There's been a lot of progress made.
Speaker 1: Okay, So they used it, but in a in a
Speaker 1: way that you personally would not have described as hostile.
Speaker 5: No, it was like it was definitely hostile, but that
Speaker 5: it was a person that is not indicative of the
Speaker 5: majority of members of the art service.
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, So you you you do feel like, I
Speaker 1: mean overall that do you do you feel that overall
Speaker 1: the the system itself, you know, is has as you said,
Speaker 1: cleaned up its act to be uh, you know, less
Speaker 1: hostile toward toward uh queer people.
Speaker 5: Yeah, the system itself has. It's just there's a lot
Speaker 5: of cultural problems that still need that are still it's
Speaker 5: it's a big machine, so it takes a long time
Speaker 5: to fix it.
Speaker 1: What made you want to take.
Speaker 5: To be quite honest, it's weird because I still kind
Speaker 5: of don't know. I kind of like dropped out of
Speaker 5: college and didn't know what else to do, and so
Speaker 5: I just kind of went with that.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and you're twenty two. Yes, all right, So how
Speaker 1: much more service do you have to do?
Speaker 5: I actually I recently separated. I left to the military
Speaker 5: the June of this year or this last year.
Speaker 1: So what do you want to do now?
Speaker 5: Yeah, well, I'm looking to eventually go into the music industry.
Speaker 5: Kind of fancy myself a bit of a songwriter. I haven't,
Speaker 5: you know, released anything yet. I'm kind of just struggling
Speaker 5: with a finding my way in finding my own personal
Speaker 5: method of artistic expression.
Speaker 1: M mm hmm hmm. So I I do want to ask, uh,
Speaker 1: were there any positives that you gained from the military
Speaker 1: or anything that you're taking with you that was good
Speaker 1: for your life, for a good experience or anything like that.
Speaker 5: I'd say it's the ability to see, the ability to
Speaker 5: see the kind of like to to exist in a
Speaker 5: environ an environment that is adverse to you, I would say, huh.
Speaker 1: And by okay, so you mentioned like people you use
Speaker 1: the term aggressively straight and you felt as though that
Speaker 1: was the environment.
Speaker 5: Yes, to a large part. The thing about the military
Speaker 5: currently is specifically with the Army, is there's this weird
Speaker 5: disease going on between what is called old Army and
Speaker 5: New Army. Old army being the kind of people that
Speaker 5: are like, uh, old, are we just being like the
Speaker 5: kind of people that like that served in dig it storms.
Speaker 5: Shut the shut the fuck up, private, do what you're told,
Speaker 5: you know, and you know there there's a lot of
Speaker 5: hazing that happened in the old army straight up, and
Speaker 5: those people don't really believe that that was too far
Speaker 5: from what ought to be happening. And uh, the the
Speaker 5: the environment that's that the leadership and in the army
Speaker 5: currently is trying to foster the new Army. You know
Speaker 5: that it's it's a little bit it's it's it's more progressive,
Speaker 5: and it's trying to root out a lot of the
Speaker 5: problems that the old army had, you know. Yeah, so
Speaker 5: it's a weird thing going on right now.
Speaker 1: So you were like, these these guys that you were
Speaker 1: talking about, would you would you consider them, I guess
Speaker 1: part of old army.
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, a lot of those old Army guys. And
Speaker 5: unfortunately old Army they've been they've been in for a while,
Speaker 5: so they've gotten rank and they're they're in the leadership now.
Speaker 5: So it's it's a weird thing where you're trying to
Speaker 5: plush those guys out of the leadership, and that that
Speaker 5: by nature unlets you take a lot of direct action
Speaker 5: is going to happen gradually.
Speaker 1: Okay, So you felt as though the environment was adverse
Speaker 1: for you, I mean, were there did you make how
Speaker 1: tell me again how long you were in the army
Speaker 1: for I'm sorry, I forgot.
Speaker 5: Three and a half years contract.
Speaker 1: I mean in those three and a half years, did
Speaker 1: you meet anyone at all though you did connect with
Speaker 1: or even who you felt very different from but could
Speaker 1: connect with any way, or or have any experiences like
Speaker 1: that were Yeah, for sure.
Speaker 5: Like I said, the military has done a lot of
Speaker 5: work to try to uh, to try to foster an
Speaker 5: environment of a more inclusive environment recently granted said to
Speaker 5: but yeah, I knew several people that were I've met
Speaker 5: some of my best friends in the world. And while
Speaker 5: I served, one of my best homies ever, Like I
Speaker 5: won't say his name, but I met him in the
Speaker 5: military and we're tight to this day. We still talk.
Speaker 5: And Yeah, a lot of a lot of good friends
Speaker 5: and a lot of it's with the shared adversity that
Speaker 5: comes with military.
Speaker 1: Experience, right, you know, yes, yeah, no, getting. I think
Speaker 1: suffering together definitely brings people closer. Yeah, well, you know,
Speaker 1: I guess the reason I'm asking you these kinds of
Speaker 1: questions is because, you know, I mean, look, you you
Speaker 1: gave you know, three and a half years of your
Speaker 1: life to this thing. I assume that even though it
Speaker 1: was difficult, that there's got to be some you know,
Speaker 1: just for your own personal sake, positive things to take
Speaker 1: away from it as you move forward.
Speaker 5: I mean, yeah, for sure. I was actually telling him
Speaker 5: buddy about I'm not about this recently. One of my
Speaker 5: favorite memories in my life came from when I was
Speaker 5: at so like every like a few years, they make
Speaker 5: us go to Fort Irwin and do our training for deployment.
Speaker 5: And my particular job requires me to be up on
Speaker 5: like a hill some form of elevation.
Speaker 3: Where I can observe where the.
Speaker 5: Enemy is at and provide targeting data. So I remember,
Speaker 5: it's like I want to say, like midnight or something
Speaker 5: near at Ark thirty and my leadership knocks on the
Speaker 5: where the strikers are like, hey, fos, that's my job.
Speaker 3: I'm an fo or.
Speaker 5: I was an NFL. I was a fister, but not
Speaker 5: an fo that is it's a k fisteries. You're going
Speaker 5: out to the op Wa. It's how at night and
Speaker 5: in the desert in California, it gets pretty cold, Like
Speaker 5: it is not a fun experience, and I did not
Speaker 5: bring enough sleeping gear with me. But I remember having
Speaker 5: that experience, like sleeping on this rocky mountain, this rocky
Speaker 5: ass mountain in the cold, and then I look up
Speaker 5: and there's like zero light pollution out there, and I
Speaker 5: just remember seeing the stars and just being like I've
Speaker 5: never I've never I've never felt as lucky to be
Speaker 5: alive as I have in that moment. Like just it's
Speaker 5: something about seeing the stars, reality, acknowledging the reality and
Speaker 5: the absurdness of the world around me, and the and
Speaker 5: the I don't know something about that experience. It was
Speaker 5: just so surreal and I just felt like so lucky
Speaker 5: in the experience.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I guess that's that's you know, it gets
Speaker 1: you outside. See, that's one of the great things about
Speaker 1: being in the military is it gets you out of
Speaker 1: the house.
Speaker 5: Mm hmmm, yeah, yeah, it'll definitely do that.
Speaker 1: Huh. Well, I'm glad that you got something out of
Speaker 1: out of the experience and I'm sorry if you felt
Speaker 1: like it was hostile for you, but you know, okay,
Speaker 1: So I will say this before we go. When I
Speaker 1: asked you what the most positive thing you got out
Speaker 1: of it was, and you said that that the the
Speaker 1: adversity was the positive thing you got out of it
Speaker 1: because you learned how to be in a place with
Speaker 1: people who are different from you or you know, who
Speaker 1: might have been not great to you. And there's a
Speaker 1: lot of value in that. You know, it's probably not
Speaker 1: an environment you want to spend your whole life in,
Speaker 1: but it's a good to have that skill of knowing
Speaker 1: how to maneuver through that kind of a thing, you know,
Speaker 1: if it ever visits upon you again, or you can.
Speaker 5: One more time freez I.
Speaker 1: Elijah. Is there anything else you want to say to
Speaker 1: the people of the computer before we go? Uh?
Speaker 5: Yeah, just appreciate appreciate you Lyle for running this. Yeah.
Speaker 5: I really enjoyed the funk out of your streams. Uh,
Speaker 5: make work in the nine to five a little bit
Speaker 5: more bearable, and all of you people out there, you're
Speaker 5: beautiful and keep keep living your best life. Man, don't
Speaker 5: let anybody tell you to be different than who you are.
Speaker 1: Thank you Elijah, you take care of Jack.
Speaker 5: Bless you, Bud.
Speaker 1: I've thought about joining the military before, but then I didn't.
Speaker 1: On the line, an expert