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Speaker 1: Scrubbing In with Becca Tilly and Tanya Red and I

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Speaker 1: Heart Radio podcast. Hello everybody, We're scrubbing in Antonia. Lied,

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Speaker 1: we're doing the full Thursday episode last Friday. Yeah, and

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Speaker 1: you know, well Mark was gone again. Actually, I'm not

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Speaker 1: gonna lie. We really, um, we felt abandoned by you.

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Speaker 1: I felt really triggered by abandonment. Where it was because

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Speaker 1: you just want to wait and excuse yourself or tell

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Speaker 1: us you were going. It was just like I was

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Speaker 1: trying to be smooth. Yeah, it's fine, I can just

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Speaker 1: kind of sneak out the back door. So we did

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Speaker 1: a Mark impersonation email, which was really tickled me, and

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Speaker 1: then um, and then we kind of let the curtain

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Speaker 1: fall a little bit. We told them how the sausage

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Speaker 1: was made, and we said that we were recording this

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Speaker 1: on Friday because Monday was a holiday. And then I said,

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Speaker 1: sometimes we do interviews different days of the week and

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Speaker 1: then do a top or and a you know, just

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Speaker 1: like bts. Yeah, some bts, but some riveting about like

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Speaker 1: anybody cares whether record that onto the podcast I was

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Speaker 1: speaking of. I was listening to a podcast the other

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Speaker 1: day and it was the first time I listened to

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Speaker 1: this podcast. I can't remember what it was because I

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Speaker 1: stopped listening because the first I swear five minutes, we're

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Speaker 1: telling me where to go to the website to buy tickets,

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Speaker 1: to buy this, to get this, and I was like,

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Speaker 1: are we ever gonna talk hear the actual podcast? So

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Speaker 1: I appreciate that we just jump right into it. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: you know, we just jump right in. It's it's it's

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Speaker 1: not a mooze boush. You're getting here, You get the pool,

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Speaker 1: get the fools. Thank you so much. Um No, that's bush.

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Speaker 1: Bush is like a palette starter or like it's like

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Speaker 1: what the chef gives you before your meal to cleanse

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Speaker 1: your palette. Oh, it's a palett cleanser. A bush. Yeah. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Uh So this is theme Thursday, and the theme today

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Speaker 1: is Love is Blind because I feel really good that

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Speaker 1: I actually did my homework that you gave me like

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Speaker 1: two weeks ago. Because I always will be like, Tanya,

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Speaker 1: will you watch this so we can talk about it?

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Speaker 1: And She's like, most of the shows you watch, I

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Speaker 1: don't have any interest in this one. I did, so

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Speaker 1: I said, okay, which I watched Gray's Anatomy just like that.

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Speaker 1: Love is Blind an amazing race. That's the only one

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Speaker 1: that you're not into the Monica Lewinsky show you're watching.

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Speaker 1: I was like, um, the Millionaire the true crime shows. Man. Okay, Anyways,

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Speaker 1: Tanya finally watched Love is Blind season two and our

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Speaker 1: guest today is Giannina from season one, and I'm so

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Speaker 1: excited to talk to her because I am a Love

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Speaker 1: is Blind stand and I have a lot of questions,

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Speaker 1: like I always feel like people get really excited to

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Speaker 1: ask me, like bts of the Bachelor, and I'm always like,

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Speaker 1: people are still really excited to ask them. I'm like

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Speaker 1: that with Love is Blind. I want to know, like,

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Speaker 1: how did you picture the person that the people that

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Speaker 1: you were talking to, Like, did you actually feel chemistry

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Speaker 1: when you saw them or did you feel like you

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Speaker 1: have to fake it? I put myself in this situation

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Speaker 1: many a time. Please, if God willing, it never happens.

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Speaker 1: But if you're ever single a game, can we please? No?

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Speaker 1: So I thought I was like, I would be so

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Speaker 1: I would love this show if I were single, because

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Speaker 1: I liked the idea and the concept of meeting somebody

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Speaker 1: not seeing what they look like and really falling for

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Speaker 1: their soul. But then I really put myself in the

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Speaker 1: situation and I was like, imagine, you know, think about

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Speaker 1: think about if he didn't have good hands, the hands,

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Speaker 1: red stars hands do things to my insides. I didn't

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Speaker 1: know where possible. So if I was someone's hands and

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Speaker 1: I could do. That's a good concept that because, yeah,

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Speaker 1: that I could do. Because the feet even maybe you

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Speaker 1: would need. I have feet or just beat don't don't

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Speaker 1: make a decision. Yeah, men are a little different and

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Speaker 1: don't need to see the feet. I actually prefer not

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Speaker 1: that's fine. Um, And I did this whole pole and

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Speaker 1: this grosses me out, but like all these things are

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Speaker 1: absolutely not like like guys get away with so many

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Speaker 1: I think that's true if you let it be true.

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Speaker 1: I think that what you need to establish boundaries early

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Speaker 1: be doing that under the covers and holding my head

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Speaker 1: on there. No, no, you're not nos on the bedroom

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Speaker 1: some guidelines at the beginning If I get too clippings

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Speaker 1: got that established. Anyways, if anyone's listening from Love is Blind,

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Speaker 1: how about we cut holes in the wall. People can

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Speaker 1: hold hands and see if they feel chemistry through the hands.

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Speaker 1: Love is blind except through his hands hands, Okay? Um,

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Speaker 1: or something that's true. That's possible. Those are still common,

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Speaker 1: you know what's funny is I was watching the movie

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Speaker 1: because you mentioned Dog. Yeah. Dog. It's up for Best Picture.

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Speaker 1: It's called Coda. It's an Apple TV Plus Child of

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Speaker 1: Deaf Adults, Coda. It is phenomenal. I loved it. It's wonderful.

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Speaker 1: That's all I've just sh No, it's actually really not

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Speaker 1: privacy because I'm in a private relationship as well. So like,

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00:24:13,200 --> 00:24:15,000
Speaker 1: I don't know if you're talking about this or if

425
00:24:15,000 --> 00:24:18,159
Speaker 1: it's something you're talking about. There's been some sight seeing

426
00:24:18,160 --> 00:24:23,080
Speaker 1: of you and Blake Hartsman from the Bachelor franchise, and

427
00:24:26,240 --> 00:24:29,560
Speaker 1: I don't know if you've heard anything about that. Um,

428
00:24:30,000 --> 00:24:32,920
Speaker 1: but are you in general? Are you dating anybody? Are

429
00:24:32,960 --> 00:24:37,800
Speaker 1: you single? What's your status right now? Um? So my

430
00:24:37,880 --> 00:24:43,200
Speaker 1: status is m still I'm very happy. I'm just gonna

431
00:24:43,200 --> 00:24:48,080
Speaker 1: say that, Yes, I'm very happy. Um. I think that

432
00:24:48,640 --> 00:24:52,000
Speaker 1: whatever is coming this year, I'm super super excited about

433
00:24:52,200 --> 00:24:57,359
Speaker 1: and honestly like the happiest I've ever been in my life. Wait,

434
00:24:57,400 --> 00:24:59,320
Speaker 1: we love Blake. I didn't realize that was the Blake

435
00:24:59,400 --> 00:25:07,639
Speaker 1: that she wrote the text? What text we love? Like

436
00:25:07,800 --> 00:25:11,760
Speaker 1: on this podcast? She didn't Blake or just they know

437
00:25:11,840 --> 00:25:21,240
Speaker 1: each other. She's really happy along. I'm a little slow

438
00:25:22,280 --> 00:25:25,960
Speaker 1: at these things, um, because I can't keep anything secret.

439
00:25:26,119 --> 00:25:30,040
Speaker 1: So yeah, I I totally get it. And happiness is

440
00:25:30,080 --> 00:25:34,280
Speaker 1: the goal. So I think that's I'm really happy for

441
00:25:34,320 --> 00:25:36,600
Speaker 1: you that you're happy. Do you feel like, like going

442
00:25:36,640 --> 00:25:39,679
Speaker 1: into a relationship now you feel because you said it

443
00:25:39,680 --> 00:25:42,119
Speaker 1: was really hard going through that publicly, do you feel

444
00:25:42,880 --> 00:25:45,600
Speaker 1: like more guarded than ever in protective of like just

445
00:25:45,680 --> 00:25:54,720
Speaker 1: your dating life in general? Now? Um, no, No, I don't.

446
00:25:54,760 --> 00:25:57,400
Speaker 1: I really don't feel like I have this philosophy where

447
00:25:57,440 --> 00:26:01,040
Speaker 1: I just I don't become bitter. I like, Okay, I

448
00:26:01,080 --> 00:26:03,520
Speaker 1: went through I had a wedding, but I didn't get

449
00:26:03,520 --> 00:26:06,359
Speaker 1: married like I Since then I was like, don't be better,

450
00:26:06,480 --> 00:26:10,080
Speaker 1: don't be better, Like, don't pull your past in here.

451
00:26:10,280 --> 00:26:16,240
Speaker 1: And I feel like I'm I'm so comfortable with like

452
00:26:17,000 --> 00:26:21,440
Speaker 1: I don't know, being confident in who I am, and

453
00:26:21,480 --> 00:26:24,400
Speaker 1: also like the relationship that I want to be in

454
00:26:24,600 --> 00:26:28,480
Speaker 1: that if something were to happen, that's what's meant to be,

455
00:26:28,920 --> 00:26:31,240
Speaker 1: you know, And I don't There's so many things that

456
00:26:31,280 --> 00:26:33,240
Speaker 1: I can control, and if you try to control too

457
00:26:33,280 --> 00:26:34,960
Speaker 1: many things, you kind of go down the spiral. So

458
00:26:35,080 --> 00:26:37,760
Speaker 1: I just like to like let things go, let things be.

459
00:26:38,400 --> 00:26:40,600
Speaker 1: Um and the only people that know what's going on

460
00:26:40,600 --> 00:26:42,639
Speaker 1: a relationship is you and your partner and that's it.

461
00:26:42,800 --> 00:26:45,520
Speaker 1: So if I try to, like I don't know, control

462
00:26:45,560 --> 00:26:48,080
Speaker 1: things around me, then I just I go neurotic. So

463
00:26:48,160 --> 00:26:51,880
Speaker 1: I can't do that. Then. So if you were, if

464
00:26:51,920 --> 00:26:54,400
Speaker 1: you were in a relationship, so then why are you

465
00:26:54,560 --> 00:26:59,320
Speaker 1: keeping it a secret? Well, there's difference between secret and

466
00:26:59,640 --> 00:27:06,720
Speaker 1: priv it. Yeah, okay, there's that too. But also, um,

467
00:27:06,760 --> 00:27:10,000
Speaker 1: there's like a big thing around it that I can't

468
00:27:10,080 --> 00:27:12,880
Speaker 1: talk about. Okay, okay, okay, I got I gotta got

469
00:27:12,880 --> 00:27:16,679
Speaker 1: it because for I, I was, um, and I'm not

470
00:27:16,760 --> 00:27:19,800
Speaker 1: trying to like be weird about it. But when I

471
00:27:19,840 --> 00:27:23,160
Speaker 1: when I started when no, that makes sense because when

472
00:27:23,160 --> 00:27:25,840
Speaker 1: I was eating my boyfriend, Um, when we started dating,

473
00:27:26,520 --> 00:27:28,560
Speaker 1: he's just total normal dude, and I had like I

474
00:27:28,600 --> 00:27:30,439
Speaker 1: was putting emojis over his face and stuff because he

475
00:27:30,480 --> 00:27:33,520
Speaker 1: was going through a divorce. And so that's why I

476
00:27:33,560 --> 00:27:36,040
Speaker 1: was keeping it private until all the papers were signed

477
00:27:36,040 --> 00:27:38,720
Speaker 1: and everything, and then it was like I felt, you know,

478
00:27:39,119 --> 00:27:40,720
Speaker 1: fine to do it. So I was wondering if it

479
00:27:40,800 --> 00:27:44,879
Speaker 1: was there was a reason like that. Yeah. Um, but

480
00:27:45,000 --> 00:27:53,120
Speaker 1: it's great being in a in a bubble. Okay, Um,

481
00:27:53,160 --> 00:27:55,600
Speaker 1: what are you working on right now? What's like I mean,

482
00:27:55,920 --> 00:27:58,520
Speaker 1: I think Going Love Is Blind wasn't just like a

483
00:27:59,280 --> 00:28:01,880
Speaker 1: few people watched it, like it kind of became one

484
00:28:01,920 --> 00:28:03,920
Speaker 1: of those things where it's like, I feel like we're

485
00:28:03,920 --> 00:28:05,720
Speaker 1: gonna be watching this show for a long time. And

486
00:28:06,000 --> 00:28:09,760
Speaker 1: y'all were the original cast and had this like I

487
00:28:09,800 --> 00:28:14,240
Speaker 1: would imagine an unexpected blow up on social media. Did

488
00:28:14,760 --> 00:28:18,679
Speaker 1: Like I'm assuming that changed your life in many positive ways,

489
00:28:18,760 --> 00:28:20,800
Speaker 1: like are you what are you working on right now?

490
00:28:20,840 --> 00:28:23,199
Speaker 1: Like what are you doing in your career outside of

491
00:28:23,240 --> 00:28:29,119
Speaker 1: your dating life? Yeah? So, um, it completely took me

492
00:28:29,280 --> 00:28:32,159
Speaker 1: by storm. We had no idea that it was going

493
00:28:32,200 --> 00:28:35,520
Speaker 1: to be this big, and now they're working on so

494
00:28:35,560 --> 00:28:37,560
Speaker 1: many new things for it, which is great to have,

495
00:28:37,760 --> 00:28:43,400
Speaker 1: like like a legacy. Um. But from then, I've just

496
00:28:43,520 --> 00:28:46,160
Speaker 1: worked up with so many big brands and I just

497
00:28:46,240 --> 00:28:50,520
Speaker 1: recently launched my own like collection where I really want

498
00:28:50,560 --> 00:28:53,080
Speaker 1: to build that out and have my own like fashion

499
00:28:53,160 --> 00:28:59,640
Speaker 1: line um coming out. I'm super super excited about a book,

500
00:29:00,000 --> 00:29:04,520
Speaker 1: what I'm working on and podcasting and this show that

501
00:29:04,600 --> 00:29:08,760
Speaker 1: I just did so hopefully more TV uh wanted to

502
00:29:08,800 --> 00:29:13,160
Speaker 1: really dip into like creating my own fashion line UM

503
00:29:13,240 --> 00:29:19,840
Speaker 1: and just like literally metaphorically giving birth and like having

504
00:29:19,880 --> 00:29:23,080
Speaker 1: my own baby. You know, it is funny because I

505
00:29:23,080 --> 00:29:26,320
Speaker 1: felt like I liked The Love Is Blind season one

506
00:29:26,440 --> 00:29:28,160
Speaker 1: people because I like the purest you know. I mean, like,

507
00:29:28,200 --> 00:29:30,360
Speaker 1: you guys did the show you could didn't you know,

508
00:29:30,400 --> 00:29:31,520
Speaker 1: you didn't know it was going to end up the

509
00:29:31,520 --> 00:29:33,640
Speaker 1: way that it did. You were like in it because

510
00:29:33,640 --> 00:29:36,520
Speaker 1: you really just wanted to be in it. And I

511
00:29:36,560 --> 00:29:38,400
Speaker 1: was like as a little skeptical going into season two,

512
00:29:38,520 --> 00:29:40,360
Speaker 1: like these people are just like you know, just like

513
00:29:40,400 --> 00:29:41,920
Speaker 1: I felt like it lost its charm and here I

514
00:29:41,960 --> 00:29:46,240
Speaker 1: am back against sucked in, Like, oh my gosh, they

515
00:29:46,320 --> 00:29:49,240
Speaker 1: got me. They totally got me. Do you live in

516
00:29:49,360 --> 00:29:52,960
Speaker 1: l A. No, So right now I'm in Miami kay,

517
00:29:53,000 --> 00:29:56,760
Speaker 1: m hmm. But I've been globetrotting for a little over

518
00:29:56,800 --> 00:29:59,160
Speaker 1: a year and now like consistently, So I'm in Miami

519
00:29:59,240 --> 00:30:04,480
Speaker 1: like maybe a week out of every month. That's home

520
00:30:04,480 --> 00:30:07,200
Speaker 1: for you, that's home for me. Yeah. So I lived

521
00:30:07,200 --> 00:30:10,520
Speaker 1: in Atlanta for six years. Um, that's where I got

522
00:30:10,520 --> 00:30:16,280
Speaker 1: the show as well. And then after uh like right before, no,

523
00:30:16,560 --> 00:30:18,400
Speaker 1: right after after the Altar came out, which was the

524
00:30:18,440 --> 00:30:21,320
Speaker 1: second special for it was like that three percent special.

525
00:30:21,360 --> 00:30:23,160
Speaker 1: I just packed up all my stuff, put it in

526
00:30:23,200 --> 00:30:24,880
Speaker 1: a storage in it in Miami and like just started

527
00:30:24,920 --> 00:30:29,560
Speaker 1: traveling the world. That's amazing. I love traveling. Um, I'm

528
00:30:29,560 --> 00:30:31,720
Speaker 1: a little I've got it at three I am last night.

529
00:30:31,720 --> 00:30:34,640
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I'm okay. Well you look like you've

530
00:30:34,640 --> 00:30:40,720
Speaker 1: been well rested. Bless you, because I like that. Thinking

531
00:30:40,760 --> 00:30:43,280
Speaker 1: about that makes me so I'm a creature of habit.

532
00:30:43,320 --> 00:30:46,040
Speaker 1: I love like I love my routine. I need like

533
00:30:46,080 --> 00:30:47,920
Speaker 1: my routine, and I'm very out of my routine right now.

534
00:30:47,920 --> 00:30:51,040
Speaker 1: So I've just been in a funk because so I

535
00:30:51,040 --> 00:30:55,320
Speaker 1: could not imagine like globe trotting. Nothing sounds worse to me.

536
00:30:56,000 --> 00:30:58,880
Speaker 1: Is that That's all I want to do. I know,

537
00:30:59,160 --> 00:31:01,440
Speaker 1: like that's your happy place, and that makes me so

538
00:31:01,480 --> 00:31:05,080
Speaker 1: anxious thinking about like living in a suitcase. Some people,

539
00:31:05,600 --> 00:31:07,480
Speaker 1: some people got it and some people that's true. I

540
00:31:07,520 --> 00:31:11,200
Speaker 1: don't get it. Guys. I have like seven suitcases literally

541
00:31:11,360 --> 00:31:15,280
Speaker 1: lined up right here. Yeah it can be. It's like

542
00:31:15,360 --> 00:31:18,760
Speaker 1: it can take its toll. But I feel like I

543
00:31:18,840 --> 00:31:22,840
Speaker 1: feel comfortable in chaos. So this is like my comfort zone.

544
00:31:22,880 --> 00:31:25,520
Speaker 1: So when I'm stuck in one place, I feel crazy. Yeah,

545
00:31:25,720 --> 00:31:30,840
Speaker 1: you like the like you kind of enjoy the chaos. Yeah,

546
00:31:30,920 --> 00:31:35,040
Speaker 1: can I do this? How much longer can I do this? Yeah?

547
00:31:35,880 --> 00:31:38,360
Speaker 1: I remember there was a time where I was literally traveling.

548
00:31:38,400 --> 00:31:41,440
Speaker 1: I would get home, unpack, and pack again to go

549
00:31:41,520 --> 00:31:44,600
Speaker 1: on another trip. And I finally was like, I just

550
00:31:44,680 --> 00:31:46,920
Speaker 1: need to be home for a second, Like I finally

551
00:31:46,960 --> 00:31:49,800
Speaker 1: got that like burnout feelings. So you might hit that

552
00:31:50,120 --> 00:31:52,160
Speaker 1: and then you'll be like, where do I want to

553
00:31:52,160 --> 00:31:54,840
Speaker 1: sit down for a second? Where are you guys right now?

554
00:31:55,000 --> 00:31:58,920
Speaker 1: La um? But I live in a suitcase and I

555
00:31:58,960 --> 00:32:02,080
Speaker 1: can't back and from her boyfriend's like every day yeah,

556
00:32:02,560 --> 00:32:05,600
Speaker 1: and I can don't like it. I'm like, uh, she's

557
00:32:05,640 --> 00:32:10,200
Speaker 1: like a place all right? Why? Why give the why

558
00:32:10,200 --> 00:32:15,480
Speaker 1: by the milk? If you for free? That's why I

559
00:32:15,480 --> 00:32:16,720
Speaker 1: don't want to move in. That's why I don't want

560
00:32:16,720 --> 00:32:17,920
Speaker 1: to move you know, I man, That's why I'm like,

561
00:32:18,000 --> 00:32:20,440
Speaker 1: I don't want to move in until you know the

562
00:32:20,560 --> 00:32:22,880
Speaker 1: next steps are happening. But at this point, I'm like,

563
00:32:25,680 --> 00:32:29,680
Speaker 1: it's like, who's gonna give in first? I have one

564
00:32:29,680 --> 00:32:32,360
Speaker 1: more question before we let you go. Would you ever

565
00:32:32,400 --> 00:32:37,000
Speaker 1: go on another reality show? After absolutely absolutely that was

566
00:32:37,720 --> 00:32:44,480
Speaker 1: zero hesitation? Are you gonna have a bachelorette? I don't

567
00:32:44,480 --> 00:32:51,400
Speaker 1: think I can cross over like that really sad, exciting fun.

568
00:32:51,800 --> 00:32:54,400
Speaker 1: I don't know if I have it in me. I can't.

569
00:32:56,440 --> 00:32:59,400
Speaker 1: I can't do that. I'm very like I want my penguin,

570
00:32:59,440 --> 00:33:02,080
Speaker 1: I want my law certainly like that one person, you know,

571
00:33:02,120 --> 00:33:05,320
Speaker 1: I would be the like the worst bachelorette. I actually

572
00:33:05,440 --> 00:33:08,480
Speaker 1: feel like maybe going from Love is Blind to bachelorette

573
00:33:08,600 --> 00:33:11,240
Speaker 1: right now might not be like on the whole. No,

574
00:33:11,480 --> 00:33:14,160
Speaker 1: the bacheloret It's not where it's at right now. Let

575
00:33:14,160 --> 00:33:16,400
Speaker 1: me tell you. I can't get through like two episodes

576
00:33:16,400 --> 00:33:20,200
Speaker 1: of the Bachelor of this season, so like, so I'm

577
00:33:20,240 --> 00:33:25,080
Speaker 1: watching it for the first time ever, and yeah, and

578
00:33:25,120 --> 00:33:27,600
Speaker 1: I'm watching it and I'm just like, what kind of

579
00:33:27,680 --> 00:33:30,040
Speaker 1: and you know, not so on the show, Like what

580
00:33:30,200 --> 00:33:36,880
Speaker 1: kind of sexist it's happening right now? Like why are

581
00:33:36,880 --> 00:33:42,040
Speaker 1: we objectifying so many women? I think going after this? Yeah, No,

582
00:33:42,280 --> 00:33:45,760
Speaker 1: I'm like so often, I'm so often it's like I

583
00:33:45,760 --> 00:33:49,160
Speaker 1: couldn't be. I'm like in the Antarctica, it's so embarrassing

584
00:33:49,200 --> 00:33:52,600
Speaker 1: whoever goes on that show. It's like no, I mean

585
00:33:52,640 --> 00:33:58,479
Speaker 1: now I'm now, No. I wish I could do it,

586
00:33:58,560 --> 00:34:01,840
Speaker 1: but I just can't. It would be like I would

587
00:34:01,840 --> 00:34:04,600
Speaker 1: be like, no, I wouldn't be like she is really rough.

588
00:34:04,640 --> 00:34:07,480
Speaker 1: Have you have you heard about I'm watching this season,

589
00:34:07,560 --> 00:34:11,480
Speaker 1: so yeah, I don't know all about her. I'm almost

590
00:34:12,360 --> 00:34:14,680
Speaker 1: shocked that she's not a hired actress, like I know

591
00:34:14,719 --> 00:34:16,960
Speaker 1: how the show goes, I think for the most part,

592
00:34:16,960 --> 00:34:22,360
Speaker 1: and I'm shocked because I'm like, this is insane to me. Yeah,

593
00:34:22,400 --> 00:34:27,080
Speaker 1: she's She was very, very very honest, like like these

594
00:34:27,120 --> 00:34:30,080
Speaker 1: are the things that like you think maybe, but you

595
00:34:30,120 --> 00:34:33,600
Speaker 1: know you kind of filter. She's like, I don't care

596
00:34:33,640 --> 00:34:36,080
Speaker 1: that I'm miked up with fourteen cameras, only right now,

597
00:34:37,440 --> 00:34:42,600
Speaker 1: perspect it. Okay, thank you so much. Also, I dm

598
00:34:42,680 --> 00:34:44,640
Speaker 1: D like a long time ago about a pair of boots,

599
00:34:44,640 --> 00:34:46,040
Speaker 1: so if you could get back to me on those,

600
00:34:46,120 --> 00:34:53,040
Speaker 1: I can't exactly remember. So I was like, I'm just

601
00:34:53,080 --> 00:34:58,319
Speaker 1: gonna shoot my shot here. Okay, I'm gonna let me.

602
00:34:59,400 --> 00:35:01,799
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for joining us. So happy that

603
00:35:01,880 --> 00:35:03,640
Speaker 1: you're happy, and I can't wait to see what you

604
00:35:03,680 --> 00:35:08,120
Speaker 1: do next. We are one percent supporting you. If people

605
00:35:08,320 --> 00:35:10,719
Speaker 1: are searching for you on Instagram or a website, where

606
00:35:10,719 --> 00:35:13,759
Speaker 1: can they find you? You guys are awesome. If you

607
00:35:13,760 --> 00:35:15,839
Speaker 1: guys want to follow along and see where I'm at

608
00:35:15,880 --> 00:35:18,799
Speaker 1: now in life, go to Giannina Chi Belli on Instagram

609
00:35:18,800 --> 00:35:21,600
Speaker 1: and TikTok. It's my first name g I A and

610
00:35:21,960 --> 00:35:24,360
Speaker 1: I M A and my last name BELLI G I

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00:35:24,440 --> 00:35:29,959
Speaker 1: B E L L. I can't get more Italian. Thank

612
00:35:30,000 --> 00:35:32,040
Speaker 1: you so much for taking the time. Really appreciate you.

613
00:35:32,080 --> 00:35:35,880
Speaker 1: Don't get some sleep now, you just am might awake

614
00:35:35,880 --> 00:35:53,120
Speaker 1: now you guys look me up. Thank you. You're the best. Bye.

615
00:35:55,000 --> 00:35:57,319
Speaker 1: I love her, and I do need to know about

616
00:35:57,360 --> 00:35:59,520
Speaker 1: those boots. So so I hope she messages me. I hope.

617
00:35:59,600 --> 00:36:01,560
Speaker 1: I hope for your sake she doesn't too. And you know,

618
00:36:01,680 --> 00:36:04,279
Speaker 1: I really appreciated her response about her relationship because I

619
00:36:04,719 --> 00:36:06,479
Speaker 1: don't I think it made it. She made it seem

620
00:36:06,520 --> 00:36:08,480
Speaker 1: like she wasn't supposed to talk about it yet. But

621
00:36:09,160 --> 00:36:10,600
Speaker 1: I wonder if they're, like I feel like they're doing

622
00:36:10,600 --> 00:36:12,880
Speaker 1: something together, like a show or something. Every time people

623
00:36:12,920 --> 00:36:14,920
Speaker 1: try to ask me about my relationship, I always go,

624
00:36:15,000 --> 00:36:17,799
Speaker 1: I'm really happy, That's how I answer. So I really

625
00:36:17,800 --> 00:36:22,640
Speaker 1: appreciated it, um and I wish her all the best,

626
00:36:22,840 --> 00:36:26,239
Speaker 1: love her, and we had a long interview. So the

627
00:36:26,280 --> 00:36:29,640
Speaker 1: episode is now over. Yeah, so your homework for this

628
00:36:29,760 --> 00:36:32,520
Speaker 1: night is to ponder our next theme for next week,

629
00:36:32,560 --> 00:36:40,280
Speaker 1: which is TV vagina. I'm gonna keep going until it happens.

630
00:36:40,320 --> 00:36:47,239
Speaker 1: So like just like habits, like yeah, I love the

631
00:36:47,280 --> 00:36:50,600
Speaker 1: gross habits because some people don't find things gross. Like

632
00:36:50,640 --> 00:36:53,640
Speaker 1: I remember one time I said, what's something weird? You know?

633
00:36:53,760 --> 00:36:55,680
Speaker 1: I said, what's something weird that you do that? And

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Speaker 1: they're doing. Okay, Sure, So next week's theme is sickos.

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Speaker 1: perfect for March, for Women's history months. Thank you got it?

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Speaker 1: gonna trust you. Um all right, on that note, we

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Speaker 1: are out of here. Have a great weekend, and we

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