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Speaker 1: The Nick Griser podcast. Niser, here's Nicking. Hello here I am,

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Speaker 1: It's Nick Leser podcast. Welcome to the show. It's Wednesday.

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Speaker 1: I am one seven days a wait wait, wait period

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Speaker 1: in seven days. I just check my flow out because

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Speaker 1: I'm just feeling just so gross today and I'm like,

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Speaker 1: what day of my cycle is this where my vagina

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Speaker 1: feels like an armpit, just like kind of like an

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Speaker 1: undodorized arm Dearn saying where it just like is weeping,

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Speaker 1: not in a yeast infection way, but it's just like

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Speaker 1: sweating and like feels gross and and I feel heavy.

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Speaker 1: My boobs feel heavy, my like skin feels heavy, My

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Speaker 1: arms feel like old librarian's arms, my like my Lulu

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Speaker 1: Lemon leggings. I am now avoiding certain Lulu Lemon leggings

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Speaker 1: because they're too tight. That is when you know things

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Speaker 1: are not as they should be. When don't even I

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Speaker 1: don't even bother looking at the jeans anymore. I I

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Speaker 1: have borne the same size jeans for four fall, winter season,

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Speaker 1: spring seasons in a row, for five maybe six years,

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Speaker 1: maintained it. It's time to retire them. They're not It's

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Speaker 1: not going to happen all of my jeans are my

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Speaker 1: skinny jeans now and there I am at the stage

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Speaker 1: of a woman where the your body starts to change

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Speaker 1: and you're just gonna get bigger from now on. And

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Speaker 1: that's okay, it just happens. It's like I have to

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Speaker 1: just say goodbye to those pants, but to avoid certain

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Speaker 1: Lululemon leggings, like I have my ones that are like

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Speaker 1: those are my skinny leggings. They're leggings. They stretched to

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Speaker 1: any size practically, I mean I know that there. I'm

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Speaker 1: just like feeling so look, but it's seven days away.

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Speaker 1: That's it. And you know what, I paid eight dollars

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Speaker 1: for this fucking app to tell me that, And that

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Speaker 1: is this is the you know, the count tax I

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Speaker 1: guess what they call it. If you have a vagina

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Speaker 1: and you have to pay for things that men don't

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Speaker 1: have to pay for, do you pay for any apps

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Speaker 1: that tell you when I need Yeah, six days away.

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Speaker 1: My balls feel like a wet like locker room towel

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Speaker 1: and just heavy. I don't need to make this sexist thing,

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Speaker 1: but all my apps And do you ever look at

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Speaker 1: the apps that you've subscribed to and you're like, oh,

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Speaker 1: I've been paying for this like learn how to play

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Speaker 1: piano app for fourteen years month or whatever. I think

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Speaker 1: I'm paying to learn how to download an app. I'm

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Speaker 1: paying for that. I'm paying twenty a month. Do you

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Speaker 1: ever look at your subscriptions to see I bought video

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Speaker 1: game a video game app where you can't you can't

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Speaker 1: upload these video games without having insane amount of memory

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Speaker 1: or you have to be locked into a WiFi. So

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Speaker 1: I bought like an arcade thing that was like on

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Speaker 1: the airplane, I had whatever anxiety and I was like, oh,

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Speaker 1: I'll just play NBA Jam to feel normal again. And

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Speaker 1: I couldn't download it so on pain, and I haven't

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Speaker 1: canceled it yet. Where do I go for that? Where

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Speaker 1: are subscriptions? So I always just Google cancel subscription and

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Speaker 1: then um, and then it's probably like the third thing down.

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Speaker 1: It shows you are you guys doing it right now?

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Speaker 1: Because it's like you're Apple, and you know if you

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Speaker 1: want to cancel subscription from Apple, and then you go

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Speaker 1: to that and you click on the cancel a subscription

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Speaker 1: blue button and then you see all your They make

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Speaker 1: it so hard to have to pay for that now. Everything.

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Speaker 1: Let's see, um I have so I'm paying for Apple

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Speaker 1: TV for ninety nine. I'm paying for Discovery plus six.

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Speaker 1: I'm paying for Flow Period, Trucker app, Hbo Max, instas size,

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Speaker 1: which is a thing that really bothers me with Instagram

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Speaker 1: photos where people will post them and it'll I'm a

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Speaker 1: big proponent of like photos should be there are a

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Speaker 1: certain size for a reason, Like they look good when

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Speaker 1: you edit them because they're the whole size, and I

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Speaker 1: need that whole thing to fit in the tiny little

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Speaker 1: box and it'll crop it weird. So instasize crops it

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Speaker 1: so you can keep your whole photo in that. Well,

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Speaker 1: that's four nine a month just to have pleasant looking photos,

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Speaker 1: have a crossword puzzle six a month. New York Times

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Speaker 1: digital subscription, what's a year? Waking up? Um Meditation app

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Speaker 1: a hundred dollars a year, but that also gives me

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Speaker 1: access to Sam Harris's extended podcast and all that stuff.

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Speaker 1: YouTube premium a month. I am somehow not showing certain

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Speaker 1: things that I think I paid for, but maybe I

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Speaker 1: paid for it in different ways, so it's not showing

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Speaker 1: on my phone like Spotify, I pay for it because

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Speaker 1: I don't have YO had a trick you by hiding it.

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Speaker 1: You probably have to go huh oh, yeah, you probably

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Speaker 1: have to go up into the app. Do you have

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Speaker 1: any apps there that I just have Repost, which is

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Speaker 1: so you can repost like a photo or a video

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Speaker 1: from either someone else or from your screen record or

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Speaker 1: text that person to send it to you. That'll save

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Speaker 1: you so much. And when you do repost, they put

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Speaker 1: that little stamp on the bottom. I guess if you pay,

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Speaker 1: they remove this dollar a week. Oh no, and get

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Speaker 1: that off their cancel it right now. Okay, this is

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Speaker 1: we're cleaning up show. Then I got um anal leakage.

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Speaker 1: I don't know why I'm paying for that. Yeah, I

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Speaker 1: mean that's like something you'd want to subscribe from, but

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Speaker 1: maybe for free good you would think, Noah, I'm not

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Speaker 1: subscribing from Discovery. Plus what am I? What am I

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Speaker 1: doing that for? Because you watch one show? One showed

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Speaker 1: one show called sex life, and you know what fun

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Speaker 1: that show? By? No I watched it. But YouTube I

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Speaker 1: pay for premium Apple TV and Apple Arcade. Apple Arcade

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Speaker 1: is gone. I gotta get rid of this bit. Okay.

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Speaker 1: I just bought Headspace for a year, but unwittingly I

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Speaker 1: download like I I subscribe to the two week trial,

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Speaker 1: and I was like, Okay, I'm going to delete it

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Speaker 1: unless I really want to keep it. Remember when I

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Speaker 1: texted you like two weeks ago and I'm like, will

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Speaker 1: you be my meditation accountability partner? Yes? Yes, So I

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Speaker 1: was on a streak. Yeah, I was on a streak

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Speaker 1: and then I stopped and I'm like, I don't know

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Speaker 1: if I really like this app too much. And then

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Speaker 1: I forgot to um to subscribe. But it was kind

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Speaker 1: of like on purpose so that I would keep it

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Speaker 1: so that I feel like I'm forced to use it

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Speaker 1: at that. Yeah, so you gotta use it because now

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Speaker 1: you bought it, so it's like you got to use it.

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Speaker 1: You won't, but I mean it's not gonna have it

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Speaker 1: if you will or won't. Yeah, it's so hard. I

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Speaker 1: bought a productivity app called Fabulous Daily Habit Tracker. You

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Speaker 1: know how on Instagram they get you, They'll be like, yes,

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Speaker 1: they'll they just get you. All My Instagram ads are

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Speaker 1: always about productivity, meditation, breathwork. That's why instag using your ace,

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Speaker 1: fertility updates, um, losing weight, like it's all they like,

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Speaker 1: know what I want, even though I don't even ask

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Speaker 1: for that. It's free it was the first period. Tracker

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Speaker 1: tells them everything your blood and they're like, this girl

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Speaker 1: needs some vitamin D. Know what I want? They know,

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Speaker 1: I need stretch your leggings right about now, and like

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Speaker 1: you're guaranteed you're gonna get it. Dumpling service pants to

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Speaker 1: side advertising is for dumplings. For I just like looking

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Speaker 1: at them. I don't even want to eat them, but

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Speaker 1: I do. Like I'm almost like you with Halsey, like

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Speaker 1: licking my phone, but I'm not. I shall not have that.

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Speaker 1: I can't. I can't. I can't get new pants. I

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Speaker 1: just don't want to do it. It's not about like

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Speaker 1: I know I feel better new pants. I just don't

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Speaker 1: want to. I like those genes I've had. I like

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Speaker 1: the breaking they start getting holes around the the belt loops,

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Speaker 1: you know, because that's where you're hiking them up and

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Speaker 1: like trying to pull them. And then they start getting

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Speaker 1: the scenes get loose there and the belt loops start

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Speaker 1: giving out. I've been through this before. You know how

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Speaker 1: they hang jerseys on the wall of like retired players,

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Speaker 1: like your jeans a jeans wall just be like yeared

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Speaker 1: two th I bought some like really fun like oversized baggy,

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Speaker 1: like good American Kardashian um oversized like boyfriend jeans, because

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Speaker 1: they had all these supermodels wearing them where they you know,

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Speaker 1: Emily Radishowski with that fucking luge um div it down

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Speaker 1: her stomachs like an ice lose that I went through

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Speaker 1: at a frat party down her stomach. So I see

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Speaker 1: all those girls where they're just like wearing them around

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Speaker 1: their heads, and they had these tiny stomachs, and they

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Speaker 1: just look like so cozy and tiny. The problem is

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Speaker 1: really really thin women, like model esque. Thin women look amazing,

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Speaker 1: and oversize is closed. They look tinier. But if you're

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Speaker 1: just anything other than that, you're gonna look bigger when

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Speaker 1: you put on oversized clothes. I bought these. I went

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Speaker 1: with these instead of a slim I just make my

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Speaker 1: legs just look shorter. Wait, I can't tell the wait,

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Speaker 1: I don't know those black I don't know what you're

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Speaker 1: telling me right now. These are at five nine, so

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Speaker 1: I just look like four eleven because they're baggy. A

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Speaker 1: tall guy could get away with baggy clothes, right right right,

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Speaker 1: short guy can't. So I'm like just agreeing with you

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Speaker 1: like that. These make my legs look just shorter, like

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Speaker 1: I can't get away with it like this, this big

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Speaker 1: T shirt look that girls do I love where you'll

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Speaker 1: cycling shorts. Yeah, bite shorts. You could pull that off.

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Speaker 1: I but I've seen pictures where I'm like, oh that

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Speaker 1: you just look bigger. You don't look like a little

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Speaker 1: tiny girl swimming in something. It just it just doesn't work.

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Speaker 1: And so the these pants that I bought, I bought

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Speaker 1: four pairs just on a fucking whim, being like, I

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Speaker 1: sexy jeans that I walk out and you know, my

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Speaker 1: my fucking hip bones are jutting out of the top

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Speaker 1: just so tiny and these little jeans I don't even

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Speaker 1: know how to keep them up, and I need a

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Speaker 1: big old boyfriend's belt and they are tight on me.

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Speaker 1: They don't they don't fit. They are they are also

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Speaker 1: jeans that are They actually fit me perfectly, And it's

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Speaker 1: insulting that these genes that are supposed to be me,

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Speaker 1: like you just buying jeans like these are too big.

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Speaker 1: I can't I wanted to that's what I wanted in

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Speaker 1: your closet. You're wearing mom jeans. Do you ever eat

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Speaker 1: because you think it might make you thinner? Like, do

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Speaker 1: you ever I mean, do you ever eat because you

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Speaker 1: are so sad about not like how much you've eaten,

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Speaker 1: or like you just you are so sad about like

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Speaker 1: these pants don't fit, and you kind of convince yourself

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Speaker 1: it might be something proactive to do. Like for me,

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Speaker 1: I just don't know what to do besides eat or sleep.

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Speaker 1: So if you're feeling overweight, you're not good in my body,

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Speaker 1: whether it's like just itchy, skin dry, my face feels

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Speaker 1: craggy and old, but you don't feel like you're doubling down,

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Speaker 1: like you're like, well, fuck it, I'm already feeling big. No,

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Speaker 1: it's not fuck it. It's like, actually this will help

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Speaker 1: me in some way. It's so healthy things, So maybe

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Speaker 1: that's it. I feel like eating healthy things is better

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Speaker 1: than eating no things. Well, there's a thing to eating

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Speaker 1: five small meals that apparently in an afternoon. It's just

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Speaker 1: I'm just also, you know, whenever this stuff happens, it's

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Speaker 1: just depression. And I just saw a meme yesterday that

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Speaker 1: was like when my regular depression meets seasonal depression and

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Speaker 1: it's just like a thing on top of a thing.

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Speaker 1: And then like the weather outside is just like the

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Speaker 1: sun is going away, Vitamin D is sucked out of

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Speaker 1: that miss I don't even science and just feeling bedraggled.

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Speaker 1: I can't get out of bed until eleven o'clock every

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Speaker 1: and type um things. But it's like I am realizing, oh,

426
00:23:29,520 --> 00:23:33,080
Speaker 1: my thoughts, there's nothing wrong with them there. I mean

427
00:23:33,119 --> 00:23:36,520
Speaker 1: there is if I act on them, But thoughts themselves,

428
00:23:36,640 --> 00:23:41,000
Speaker 1: I can think anything I want, especially you know how

429
00:23:41,000 --> 00:23:43,000
Speaker 1: many times I wanted to throw a baby in a

430
00:23:43,040 --> 00:23:45,840
Speaker 1: stroller on the track on the track. But why because

431
00:23:45,880 --> 00:23:48,160
Speaker 1: the baby is crying or because you're just like angry,

432
00:23:48,760 --> 00:23:53,520
Speaker 1: Probably because um I had to get your coffee. No,

433
00:23:53,720 --> 00:23:57,200
Speaker 1: I don't know. I think it was just like get

434
00:23:57,200 --> 00:24:00,359
Speaker 1: my coffee, by the way, because I just don't trust

435
00:24:00,359 --> 00:24:02,199
Speaker 1: you grabbing the right one. That is one thing I

436
00:24:02,600 --> 00:24:05,119
Speaker 1: always get myself. I used to get it when we

437
00:24:05,119 --> 00:24:07,960
Speaker 1: were whatever. But yeah, so anyway, you know, and also

438
00:24:08,000 --> 00:24:09,679
Speaker 1: because I never wanted to be left alone in the

439
00:24:09,760 --> 00:24:12,800
Speaker 1: uber with the uber driver. Can you go, I'll get it?

440
00:24:13,680 --> 00:24:16,239
Speaker 1: Why you got it? All? I ever wanted to be

441
00:24:16,280 --> 00:24:18,439
Speaker 1: alone with the uber driver. You would always leave me

442
00:24:18,480 --> 00:24:20,159
Speaker 1: a little. You'd be like, I'll get it, acting like

443
00:24:20,200 --> 00:24:21,960
Speaker 1: a hero. I'm like, you're not a hero right now,

444
00:24:22,040 --> 00:24:25,720
Speaker 1: you're talking about you nice, You're leaving me with the

445
00:24:26,080 --> 00:24:29,040
Speaker 1: weird conversation. I mean, you could have come with me,

446
00:24:29,119 --> 00:24:30,679
Speaker 1: but I did not want to be in there alone,

447
00:24:31,240 --> 00:24:34,439
Speaker 1: no way. So yeah, no, I mean, I don't know

448
00:24:34,480 --> 00:24:36,040
Speaker 1: why I would want to do that. I just like,

449
00:24:36,080 --> 00:24:37,720
Speaker 1: it's just the thought that I think I was just

450
00:24:37,760 --> 00:24:41,200
Speaker 1: frustrated with my day picking up nineteen things a dogshit,

451
00:24:41,880 --> 00:24:45,400
Speaker 1: you know, smelling like dogshit, feeling like dogs or were

452
00:24:45,440 --> 00:24:48,640
Speaker 1: you just joking? I don't know if I was joking there.

453
00:24:48,720 --> 00:24:51,800
Speaker 1: I mean, I'm trying to get it. What do you mean,

454
00:24:51,840 --> 00:24:56,399
Speaker 1: Like I didn't notice baby, I didn't know the baby.

455
00:24:56,520 --> 00:25:00,320
Speaker 1: I don't know the baby's man. Towards just like Rando's. Yeah,

456
00:25:00,600 --> 00:25:04,080
Speaker 1: but unless they are doing something in that moment, maybe

457
00:25:04,240 --> 00:25:06,880
Speaker 1: throwing someone down the stairs in front of me at

458
00:25:06,880 --> 00:25:09,360
Speaker 1: some point that's walking too slow and I'm like, let's

459
00:25:09,359 --> 00:25:12,000
Speaker 1: see them fall down mine flights, you know, I was like,

460
00:25:12,040 --> 00:25:14,800
Speaker 1: I wish there's more flights for the fall. The mine

461
00:25:14,840 --> 00:25:18,119
Speaker 1: gets mine or more specific is interesting because that's like

462
00:25:18,160 --> 00:25:21,760
Speaker 1: a different that's like, is that more or less premeditate?

463
00:25:21,840 --> 00:25:23,680
Speaker 1: I mean, I think that would be like, because I

464
00:25:24,800 --> 00:25:29,399
Speaker 1: had mine are never violent, I'll say that mine are

465
00:25:29,440 --> 00:25:34,000
Speaker 1: always Like I hope she falls. That's violent? Is it's

466
00:25:34,040 --> 00:25:36,439
Speaker 1: not me pushing her, not me strangling or not me

467
00:25:36,560 --> 00:25:39,240
Speaker 1: doing it? Like I don't want to see the fall

468
00:25:39,280 --> 00:25:42,760
Speaker 1: I hear about it. I actually I don't wish that.

469
00:25:43,119 --> 00:25:46,600
Speaker 1: I wish on like, um, I hope that she gets

470
00:25:46,640 --> 00:25:49,640
Speaker 1: broken up with and has to have heartbreak. I hope

471
00:25:49,640 --> 00:25:53,439
Speaker 1: that she I hope she develops. I hope she like

472
00:25:54,240 --> 00:25:56,639
Speaker 1: I hope she gets a thyroid condition that makes her

473
00:25:56,640 --> 00:25:58,480
Speaker 1: gain weight for a few months, just so she can

474
00:25:58,520 --> 00:26:00,920
Speaker 1: see what it's like to not be the skinny bitch

475
00:26:00,960 --> 00:26:02,880
Speaker 1: that guess whatever she wants. And by the way, these

476
00:26:02,880 --> 00:26:05,000
Speaker 1: are dark thoughts that are like I really don't wish

477
00:26:05,000 --> 00:26:08,280
Speaker 1: that on someone. I don't. I really don't at the

478
00:26:08,359 --> 00:26:09,840
Speaker 1: end of the day, if I really think about it,

479
00:26:09,880 --> 00:26:14,240
Speaker 1: I don't want anyone to feel sad or bad. But

480
00:26:14,320 --> 00:26:18,080
Speaker 1: I think that when I get jealous, my jealousy just

481
00:26:18,160 --> 00:26:22,520
Speaker 1: knows no bounds, Like I get so jealous of people, Like,

482
00:26:22,640 --> 00:26:24,200
Speaker 1: but it's it's been this way in my whole life.

483
00:26:24,240 --> 00:26:26,920
Speaker 1: I mean, I'll get to it. Um well, I guess

484
00:26:26,960 --> 00:26:29,359
Speaker 1: it won't get to something. But yesterday I was writing

485
00:26:29,359 --> 00:26:32,000
Speaker 1: about it, and I'm like, it started when I was

486
00:26:32,359 --> 00:26:34,560
Speaker 1: so young. I may have said this on the podcast before.

487
00:26:34,640 --> 00:26:37,359
Speaker 1: I remember, because you remember things from your childhood early

488
00:26:37,560 --> 00:26:40,520
Speaker 1: by the way your parents react, or by the way

489
00:26:40,560 --> 00:26:43,240
Speaker 1: someone reacts. If someone goes, oh my god, you know,

490
00:26:43,280 --> 00:26:45,040
Speaker 1: like you just say dumb things, but if someone really

491
00:26:45,119 --> 00:26:47,639
Speaker 1: laughs at something you say, or someone who's really horrified,

492
00:26:48,119 --> 00:26:50,800
Speaker 1: it kind of sticks in your head. And I remember

493
00:26:50,800 --> 00:26:52,439
Speaker 1: one time which this would not have stuck in my

494
00:26:52,440 --> 00:26:55,800
Speaker 1: head except my mom's reaction was I was probably seven

495
00:26:55,920 --> 00:26:59,080
Speaker 1: or eight, and I was like, Mom, I'm never gonna

496
00:26:59,119 --> 00:27:02,000
Speaker 1: have kids. She was like, okay, Nikki, and I was like,

497
00:27:02,080 --> 00:27:03,919
Speaker 1: I just don't want them, because what if I have

498
00:27:04,000 --> 00:27:07,200
Speaker 1: a daughter and she's that means she's younger than me,

499
00:27:07,440 --> 00:27:11,160
Speaker 1: and I'll be jealous and I don't. And I didn't

500
00:27:11,160 --> 00:27:14,640
Speaker 1: even like men at that obviously, I didn't like mentalas yesterday.

501
00:27:14,680 --> 00:27:17,320
Speaker 1: Where did you hear the younger thing? You just I

502
00:27:17,359 --> 00:27:18,959
Speaker 1: just picked it up, That's what I'm saying. I just

503
00:27:19,000 --> 00:27:22,560
Speaker 1: had to come from somewhere, from watching TV, from being

504
00:27:22,600 --> 00:27:24,720
Speaker 1: a woman in the world. You just realize, like youth

505
00:27:24,880 --> 00:27:29,080
Speaker 1: equals an eight year old looking at a four year

506
00:27:29,200 --> 00:27:31,880
Speaker 1: And I remember my mom's four year old bitch. You think,

507
00:27:31,920 --> 00:27:35,000
Speaker 1: you know, it was just about me realizing how good

508
00:27:35,040 --> 00:27:36,600
Speaker 1: I had it, because I remember being like, Mom, are

509
00:27:36,600 --> 00:27:39,480
Speaker 1: you jealous of me because I'm younger than you? Like

510
00:27:39,720 --> 00:27:43,040
Speaker 1: you must be, because that's the way women feels like

511
00:27:43,200 --> 00:27:46,040
Speaker 1: you're jealous of whoever's younger. So I remember she I

512
00:27:46,080 --> 00:27:48,920
Speaker 1: remember her head slowly turning. We were like reading a book.

513
00:27:48,960 --> 00:27:51,359
Speaker 1: I remember it was like Barnyard Animals or you know.

514
00:27:51,720 --> 00:27:53,959
Speaker 1: I remember being very close to her, and I remember

515
00:27:54,000 --> 00:27:57,480
Speaker 1: her head turning in and goes, what did you just say?

516
00:27:58,040 --> 00:28:00,680
Speaker 1: And I was like, but you're jealous of use. I'm young.

517
00:28:00,720 --> 00:28:02,240
Speaker 1: I'm never going to have a because what if I

518
00:28:02,280 --> 00:28:04,000
Speaker 1: have a daughter, If I have a boy who cares.

519
00:28:04,200 --> 00:28:06,640
Speaker 1: But if a daughter, she'll definitely be younger than me,

520
00:28:06,880 --> 00:28:09,200
Speaker 1: and what she's prettier than me, I won't be able

521
00:28:09,240 --> 00:28:11,600
Speaker 1: to handle it. And I still I don't feel that

522
00:28:11,640 --> 00:28:15,399
Speaker 1: way about a daughter. But um and even Poppy, my niece.

523
00:28:15,600 --> 00:28:17,919
Speaker 1: I thought there was a part of me that was like,

524
00:28:17,960 --> 00:28:19,600
Speaker 1: if my sister is a niece, I know she's going

525
00:28:19,640 --> 00:28:22,399
Speaker 1: to be prettier than me, and I hope she is.

526
00:28:22,440 --> 00:28:25,119
Speaker 1: Like that's That's truly how I feel. But I've always

527
00:28:25,160 --> 00:28:27,840
Speaker 1: felt this way, and it's hard to This is when

528
00:28:27,880 --> 00:28:30,399
Speaker 1: you started killing young girls. It's like the nucleus of

529
00:28:30,440 --> 00:28:35,800
Speaker 1: who I am hating younger women? I feel just envious

530
00:28:35,800 --> 00:28:40,480
Speaker 1: of them, not hating. I mean, how does that go away?

531
00:28:40,560 --> 00:28:44,080
Speaker 1: I think as a mother, you live. Vicar said, she

532
00:28:44,160 --> 00:28:46,120
Speaker 1: was like, that doesn't happen with mothers, and I'm like,

533
00:28:46,560 --> 00:28:49,480
Speaker 1: then I then I saw. You know, you see movies

534
00:28:49,520 --> 00:28:53,480
Speaker 1: like um mean girls, and you see like the Amy

535
00:28:53,520 --> 00:28:56,200
Speaker 1: Poehler character, you see like Housewives, and all these women

536
00:28:56,240 --> 00:28:58,120
Speaker 1: are trying to be as young as their daughters and

537
00:28:58,160 --> 00:29:00,360
Speaker 1: like dating the men that their daughters, and You're like,

538
00:29:00,440 --> 00:29:03,320
Speaker 1: it is a thing. It is a thing. I mean,

539
00:29:03,400 --> 00:29:05,840
Speaker 1: I think, Yeah, I think you just just if you're

540
00:29:05,840 --> 00:29:07,440
Speaker 1: going to have a daughter, you just have an abortion.

541
00:29:07,480 --> 00:29:10,920
Speaker 1: Even it's maybe do you believe that your mom feels

542
00:29:10,960 --> 00:29:12,800
Speaker 1: that way? Do you still believe that? No, I didn't

543
00:29:12,800 --> 00:29:14,520
Speaker 1: think that she did even at the time, But I

544
00:29:14,560 --> 00:29:17,400
Speaker 1: think I just kind of did the math of like women,

545
00:29:18,120 --> 00:29:21,840
Speaker 1: older women are jealous of younger women. Therefore, why how

546
00:29:21,880 --> 00:29:24,000
Speaker 1: are moms not jealous of their daughters? Because they're like

547
00:29:24,040 --> 00:29:27,160
Speaker 1: younger versions of them, and there they are examples of

548
00:29:27,200 --> 00:29:30,320
Speaker 1: all the things that they could there, Like, it is

549
00:29:30,360 --> 00:29:34,160
Speaker 1: sad to think that you will never you're dying. We're dying,

550
00:29:34,240 --> 00:29:37,080
Speaker 1: Like we have less life ahead of us than younger people.

551
00:29:37,160 --> 00:29:40,440
Speaker 1: That's like a sad thing to accept that you have

552
00:29:40,600 --> 00:29:43,480
Speaker 1: less than someone else, Like you know the way you

553
00:29:43,480 --> 00:29:45,440
Speaker 1: feel about money when people have more money than you.

554
00:29:45,520 --> 00:29:50,760
Speaker 1: It's like, you know, we have less years than so

555
00:29:50,880 --> 00:29:53,200
Speaker 1: many people. I had thought go through my head yesterday

556
00:29:53,200 --> 00:29:57,880
Speaker 1: about like there'll be a cure for a disease that

557
00:29:57,960 --> 00:30:01,000
Speaker 1: I will die from three days, three years after I died,

558
00:30:01,520 --> 00:30:04,360
Speaker 1: something like that. There's always talks about the Native Americans,

559
00:30:04,360 --> 00:30:06,800
Speaker 1: like there was one Native American who died the day

560
00:30:06,840 --> 00:30:10,600
Speaker 1: before white men settled, Like he was like this is

561
00:30:10,640 --> 00:30:13,880
Speaker 1: the greatest left, Like you know, it's like my life

562
00:30:13,960 --> 00:30:16,680
Speaker 1: was amazing, and that's actually a great story of like

563
00:30:16,720 --> 00:30:19,520
Speaker 1: he didn't have to face that, but like he would

564
00:30:19,560 --> 00:30:23,320
Speaker 1: have never known. But there's always the right before. Yeah,

565
00:30:23,440 --> 00:30:26,360
Speaker 1: I guess you live enough life where you go I'm good. Well,

566
00:30:26,400 --> 00:30:29,640
Speaker 1: I'm reading this book about the AIDS epidemic. Note but

567
00:30:29,720 --> 00:30:34,040
Speaker 1: like when AIDS was like there was no really planned,

568
00:30:34,120 --> 00:30:36,080
Speaker 1: no one was talking about in the eighties. It's called

569
00:30:36,120 --> 00:30:39,080
Speaker 1: The Great Believers. It's really good book. But they all

570
00:30:39,840 --> 00:30:42,400
Speaker 1: are not wanting to get tested because there's no cure,

571
00:30:42,560 --> 00:30:45,840
Speaker 1: so what's the point. And they also feel like the

572
00:30:45,840 --> 00:30:48,560
Speaker 1: government's going to track them once they're tested. Um, no

573
00:30:48,560 --> 00:30:51,200
Speaker 1: one's talking about it. There's like thousands and thousands of

574
00:30:51,240 --> 00:30:53,920
Speaker 1: men dying every day, but because it's like this gay thing,

575
00:30:54,400 --> 00:30:56,320
Speaker 1: no one really wants to talk about it. Reagan won't

576
00:30:56,360 --> 00:30:58,760
Speaker 1: address it. The Challenger explosion just happened in the book,

577
00:30:58,800 --> 00:31:01,760
Speaker 1: and they're like, oh, he's gonna make a speech about

578
00:31:01,840 --> 00:31:04,560
Speaker 1: you know, fourteen people dying, but he won't talk about

579
00:31:04,720 --> 00:31:08,320
Speaker 1: thirty thousand people in a year. And reminds me a

580
00:31:08,360 --> 00:31:10,680
Speaker 1: little of COVID because the people that died of covid

581
00:31:10,720 --> 00:31:13,920
Speaker 1: are were overweight, they were old, and it's like no

582
00:31:13,920 --> 00:31:17,560
Speaker 1: one cares because it's and so with gay people thinking whatever,

583
00:31:17,640 --> 00:31:19,480
Speaker 1: it's just the gay people, and then it starts leaning

584
00:31:19,520 --> 00:31:21,800
Speaker 1: into oh, well, these people are starting to get sick

585
00:31:21,840 --> 00:31:25,640
Speaker 1: that you Tom hankson Rita Wilson, we should shut down.

586
00:31:26,600 --> 00:31:29,400
Speaker 1: It was such a good movie, we shut it down. Well,

587
00:31:29,840 --> 00:31:35,640
Speaker 1: there's also the thing of the gay thing of um

588
00:31:35,880 --> 00:31:40,560
Speaker 1: even like you're watching Dahmer and you realize it's such

589
00:31:40,600 --> 00:31:43,520
Speaker 1: a story about civil rights and about gay rights because

590
00:31:44,080 --> 00:31:46,959
Speaker 1: Dat got to keep doing what he's doing because he

591
00:31:47,000 --> 00:31:50,160
Speaker 1: was he got gay people had to operate in the shadows,

592
00:31:50,160 --> 00:31:52,400
Speaker 1: and so cops were just like he would literally the

593
00:31:52,440 --> 00:31:54,640
Speaker 1: cops will come over and they'd be like, what can

594
00:31:54,680 --> 00:31:56,160
Speaker 1: we see in your bedroom? And he'd be like, oh,

595
00:31:56,160 --> 00:31:58,200
Speaker 1: there's just a bunch of gay ship in there, and

596
00:31:58,200 --> 00:31:59,840
Speaker 1: they'd be like, okay, well we don't want to go

597
00:31:59,840 --> 00:32:02,440
Speaker 1: in there. Like he could just say he could excuse

598
00:32:02,480 --> 00:32:05,040
Speaker 1: anything weird in his apartment as gay and they're like,

599
00:32:05,080 --> 00:32:07,480
Speaker 1: there's bones in your bedside table. He's like, well, it's

600
00:32:07,520 --> 00:32:09,600
Speaker 1: just some gay stuff and they'd be like, oh, well,

601
00:32:09,800 --> 00:32:12,400
Speaker 1: go by your business, have a good night. Sir, and

602
00:32:12,400 --> 00:32:14,240
Speaker 1: then they here's this little boy who's bleeding out of

603
00:32:14,240 --> 00:32:16,480
Speaker 1: his head that we're not going to ask about. He's fourteen.

604
00:32:16,960 --> 00:32:20,120
Speaker 1: I mean, the Dahmer thing is fucking insane. You guys

605
00:32:20,160 --> 00:32:22,440
Speaker 1: have to I can't believe you guys haven't seen it.

606
00:32:22,560 --> 00:32:24,880
Speaker 1: I saw the first episode. In the last episode, what

607
00:32:25,640 --> 00:32:29,000
Speaker 1: I Branda watched it, I'm gonna watch Did she say

608
00:32:29,000 --> 00:32:30,920
Speaker 1: it was good? She loves it. She started watching the

609
00:32:30,960 --> 00:32:33,920
Speaker 1: tapes after. Yeah, that's what Netflix was like, we gotta

610
00:32:33,920 --> 00:32:37,840
Speaker 1: get these tapes together because this show is so watchable.

611
00:32:38,040 --> 00:32:44,040
Speaker 1: Let's get to the news first. First, your first, folks,

612
00:32:44,080 --> 00:32:47,080
Speaker 1: It's Wednesday. You know what that means. It's Wednesday. We're

613
00:32:47,120 --> 00:32:50,280
Speaker 1: having all the swells over here. Nikki is not depressed.

614
00:32:50,320 --> 00:32:57,600
Speaker 1: She's swelled per one week. Get ready, here we come,

615
00:32:58,120 --> 00:33:01,520
Speaker 1: explosion and then in other week a blood. It's great,

616
00:33:01,600 --> 00:33:07,200
Speaker 1: what a life. It'll end soon. That's a menopause joke,

617
00:33:07,240 --> 00:33:25,160
Speaker 1: not a don't say nuclear George, do not I al right,

618
00:33:27,320 --> 00:33:33,280
Speaker 1: okay um. A woman was excited. I was excited about

619
00:33:33,280 --> 00:33:36,680
Speaker 1: her birthday trip to Costa Rica with her boyfriend when

620
00:33:36,760 --> 00:33:39,960
Speaker 1: she received a message on Facebook from someone who told

621
00:33:39,960 --> 00:33:43,280
Speaker 1: her that her boyfriend was in fact, also in a

622
00:33:43,320 --> 00:33:47,120
Speaker 1: long distance in a long term relationship with her friend.

623
00:33:48,960 --> 00:33:51,160
Speaker 1: Her friends. Oh, I feel like they weren't friends. Oh

624
00:33:51,520 --> 00:33:55,960
Speaker 1: the girl's friends. The mess yes a message from a girl,

625
00:33:56,160 --> 00:33:57,760
Speaker 1: and the girl that message her was like, hey, my

626
00:33:57,840 --> 00:34:02,480
Speaker 1: friend is dating your boyfriend at it. Yes. Soon the

627
00:34:02,600 --> 00:34:07,000
Speaker 1: two girlfriends started texting each other and um, since the

628
00:34:07,000 --> 00:34:10,080
Speaker 1: trip was already paid for, they ended up going together.

629
00:34:10,440 --> 00:34:14,000
Speaker 1: They became close friends. Both of them said, I was

630
00:34:14,080 --> 00:34:16,200
Speaker 1: thinking it would probably help us both to go on

631
00:34:16,239 --> 00:34:18,520
Speaker 1: a trip like this. We deserve this after what we've

632
00:34:18,560 --> 00:34:22,239
Speaker 1: gone through. Yeah, didn't he like do shifty stuff where

633
00:34:22,239 --> 00:34:25,120
Speaker 1: he would like change out their toothbrush and like change

634
00:34:25,160 --> 00:34:27,839
Speaker 1: all of their things each time they came over. They

635
00:34:27,840 --> 00:34:31,200
Speaker 1: were like so in disbelief about it that they like

636
00:34:31,320 --> 00:34:34,160
Speaker 1: shared photos to make sure it was exactly him. They

637
00:34:34,200 --> 00:34:36,840
Speaker 1: talked about like the gray robe he would wear and

638
00:34:36,880 --> 00:34:39,279
Speaker 1: stuff like that, because it was like over a year,

639
00:34:39,360 --> 00:34:42,719
Speaker 1: for over a year for each So wait, he gave

640
00:34:42,800 --> 00:34:45,400
Speaker 1: up his seat to one of the girls say birthday eight,

641
00:34:45,560 --> 00:34:47,520
Speaker 1: things like I'm tired of this whole thing of like,

642
00:34:47,840 --> 00:34:52,600
Speaker 1: but it's my birthday. You can't like that? Details added

643
00:34:52,600 --> 00:34:55,440
Speaker 1: to a story, And it always if it's a woman's

644
00:34:55,480 --> 00:34:58,640
Speaker 1: but it's and it had to top it off, it

645
00:34:58,760 --> 00:35:03,719
Speaker 1: was on my birth today is I'm sorry, women, we

646
00:35:03,880 --> 00:35:06,279
Speaker 1: gotta stop with this birthday think you are entitled to

647
00:35:06,320 --> 00:35:09,200
Speaker 1: your pain no matter what time of year it is.

648
00:35:09,719 --> 00:35:12,440
Speaker 1: It being your birthday means nothing to me. It doesn't

649
00:35:12,440 --> 00:35:15,000
Speaker 1: make me feel more sorry for you. I understand the

650
00:35:15,040 --> 00:35:16,919
Speaker 1: birthday is a very important time to people that don't

651
00:35:16,960 --> 00:35:19,440
Speaker 1: have other things going on in their lives. But on

652
00:35:19,520 --> 00:35:23,640
Speaker 1: the Bachelor, Bachelor in Paradise, there's so many there's been

653
00:35:23,680 --> 00:35:27,640
Speaker 1: three incidents now of like, but you he's gonna bring

654
00:35:27,719 --> 00:35:30,319
Speaker 1: up with me on my birthday. I can't leave the

655
00:35:30,360 --> 00:35:34,879
Speaker 1: show on my birthday. It's just like my birthday month. Yeah,

656
00:35:34,880 --> 00:35:37,880
Speaker 1: it's well, it's so stupid. It makes me think, like

657
00:35:37,920 --> 00:35:39,440
Speaker 1: the girl was like, you know what, I'm mad, but

658
00:35:39,480 --> 00:35:41,920
Speaker 1: I'm going to go to Costa Rica still because I'm

659
00:35:41,960 --> 00:35:44,560
Speaker 1: and I'll take care of it five days later. And

660
00:35:44,560 --> 00:35:46,399
Speaker 1: then you keep putting off. You're like, well the next

661
00:35:46,400 --> 00:35:48,399
Speaker 1: month we have you know, we're going on the ski trip,

662
00:35:48,440 --> 00:35:50,880
Speaker 1: so I can't say anything. Then like you keep put anything.

663
00:35:51,080 --> 00:35:53,040
Speaker 1: It reminds me of like when my parents pretended to

664
00:35:53,040 --> 00:35:56,600
Speaker 1: be together during my bar mitzvah instead of to like

665
00:35:57,040 --> 00:36:00,000
Speaker 1: just show face. Yeah, it's like when people try to

666
00:36:00,040 --> 00:36:02,440
Speaker 1: quit drinking. I don't get the analogy to this thing

667
00:36:03,120 --> 00:36:07,719
Speaker 1: because so just like the idea of like not not

668
00:36:08,000 --> 00:36:13,120
Speaker 1: ending it because like my birthday, let's deal with it

669
00:36:13,239 --> 00:36:15,920
Speaker 1: a week from now, because it's my birthday. And I

670
00:36:15,920 --> 00:36:18,160
Speaker 1: feel like a lot of people people push things because

671
00:36:18,200 --> 00:36:21,040
Speaker 1: it's their birthday and that certain things that well, it's

672
00:36:21,080 --> 00:36:23,320
Speaker 1: like when people it's it's just a way to avoid

673
00:36:24,280 --> 00:36:26,799
Speaker 1: being accountable for the things going on in your life.

674
00:36:26,840 --> 00:36:29,719
Speaker 1: Like these girls, Like like I said, like it makes

675
00:36:29,760 --> 00:36:31,840
Speaker 1: the story a bit better to be like and it

676
00:36:31,920 --> 00:36:34,600
Speaker 1: was my birthday trip when really it could just be

677
00:36:34,680 --> 00:36:36,360
Speaker 1: a trip that you were going to take. It doesn't

678
00:36:36,400 --> 00:36:38,920
Speaker 1: matter to me because I just don't care about birthdays.

679
00:36:38,920 --> 00:36:41,840
Speaker 1: I love birthdays. I love celebrating people, but girls that

680
00:36:41,920 --> 00:36:44,360
Speaker 1: identify with their birthdays in this way unless it's a

681
00:36:44,440 --> 00:36:47,400
Speaker 1: forty birthday or like a like one of the big ones.

682
00:36:47,640 --> 00:36:49,960
Speaker 1: The forty is pretty much the only big one, um,

683
00:36:50,000 --> 00:36:52,600
Speaker 1: because it marks the time where men stop caring about

684
00:36:52,640 --> 00:37:00,120
Speaker 1: you existing. But um, I just feel like you do

685
00:37:00,160 --> 00:37:04,080
Speaker 1: that with another girl that would That's another thing with

686
00:37:04,120 --> 00:37:06,960
Speaker 1: the story. Sorry, I don't think these girls have friends,

687
00:37:07,440 --> 00:37:10,279
Speaker 1: because if I I would never I don't want to

688
00:37:10,280 --> 00:37:14,960
Speaker 1: be the uber driver or you have a global order.

689
00:37:15,200 --> 00:37:16,799
Speaker 1: I would want to go on this trip with someone

690
00:37:16,840 --> 00:37:19,920
Speaker 1: who I actually was friends with. This However, if I

691
00:37:19,960 --> 00:37:22,520
Speaker 1: was thinking to make the news, I would have this

692
00:37:22,560 --> 00:37:24,879
Speaker 1: girl make the guy jealous, like make the guy feel

693
00:37:24,920 --> 00:37:26,480
Speaker 1: like shit, it's like looking at us, we're going to

694
00:37:26,560 --> 00:37:29,640
Speaker 1: still live it up. Bit this just told me this

695
00:37:29,719 --> 00:37:34,759
Speaker 1: girl didn't have And maybe maybe I'm totally wrong, maybe

696
00:37:34,800 --> 00:37:37,359
Speaker 1: I'm wrong about this, but no, what would you ever

697
00:37:37,440 --> 00:37:42,080
Speaker 1: invite the girl? No? But okay. The surprising thing to

698
00:37:42,120 --> 00:37:44,919
Speaker 1: me was that the Washington Post, like I just kept

699
00:37:44,920 --> 00:37:47,840
Speaker 1: reading through with this article, would not end. The reporter

700
00:37:47,960 --> 00:37:50,040
Speaker 1: even tried to get the boyfriend to comment on it,

701
00:37:50,080 --> 00:37:53,160
Speaker 1: but they couldn't. I just couldn't believe that they like

702
00:37:54,120 --> 00:37:55,960
Speaker 1: and they're like, you have you guys heard about Yemen?

703
00:37:57,080 --> 00:38:01,120
Speaker 1: What's going on over there? Exactly? Someone there's so many

704
00:38:01,120 --> 00:38:03,120
Speaker 1: people that have birthdays over there and they're starving to

705
00:38:03,200 --> 00:38:06,640
Speaker 1: death on their birthday birthday, would love to go to

706
00:38:06,640 --> 00:38:10,200
Speaker 1: Closta Rica they got bombed on their birthday. Yeah, I

707
00:38:10,360 --> 00:38:13,880
Speaker 1: just I don't you know. I'm actually sad for the

708
00:38:13,880 --> 00:38:17,600
Speaker 1: guy in this because what a like the girls obviously

709
00:38:17,640 --> 00:38:20,680
Speaker 1: that is so heartbreaking to be like lied to, and

710
00:38:20,719 --> 00:38:22,920
Speaker 1: it's gonna funk with their sense of trust. What a

711
00:38:23,040 --> 00:38:27,960
Speaker 1: sad person to have two separate relationships going on like

712
00:38:28,280 --> 00:38:31,200
Speaker 1: that is untreatable. These girls can learn how to trust again.

713
00:38:31,640 --> 00:38:35,800
Speaker 1: That kind of sociopathy is untreatable. He is as doomed

714
00:38:35,840 --> 00:38:38,920
Speaker 1: as dahm Er. He will never ever have a normal

715
00:38:39,000 --> 00:38:44,600
Speaker 1: relationship ever. Can you say that about Adam Levine? Um,

716
00:38:44,640 --> 00:38:48,200
Speaker 1: Adam Levine, I cannot believe we've already just moved on

717
00:38:48,239 --> 00:38:50,560
Speaker 1: from that and then come out that he did he

718
00:38:50,600 --> 00:38:53,480
Speaker 1: actually did. Did he ever get caught physically cheating? Of

719
00:38:53,520 --> 00:38:57,359
Speaker 1: course he cheated, but of course he of course, of

720
00:38:57,400 --> 00:39:03,400
Speaker 1: course he did. Look at him look like you know,

721
00:39:03,440 --> 00:39:06,520
Speaker 1: it's so funny when when you've when you're like because

722
00:39:06,640 --> 00:39:09,160
Speaker 1: before that story, people can look at your tattoos and

723
00:39:09,160 --> 00:39:11,600
Speaker 1: be like those you're cool. It's kind of reminds me

724
00:39:11,640 --> 00:39:13,520
Speaker 1: of yesterday when we were talking about you could finger

725
00:39:13,600 --> 00:39:16,560
Speaker 1: someone and then it could become in it like an examination.

726
00:39:16,920 --> 00:39:20,480
Speaker 1: His tattoos go from like cool to creepy in just

727
00:39:20,600 --> 00:39:23,640
Speaker 1: one story, you know what I mean? Like his tattoos

728
00:39:24,040 --> 00:39:26,279
Speaker 1: no one was like talking so much shit about how

729
00:39:26,400 --> 00:39:29,000
Speaker 1: ridiculous he looked until that story came out, and then

730
00:39:29,000 --> 00:39:30,880
Speaker 1: it goes, oh, it adds up. Now, Yeah, that is

731
00:39:31,239 --> 00:39:35,520
Speaker 1: I knew it would happen that that came out, that

732
00:39:35,600 --> 00:39:38,160
Speaker 1: it would just get that we would go back to

733
00:39:38,640 --> 00:39:42,040
Speaker 1: liking him again. It's already he's already performing again. I

734
00:39:42,080 --> 00:39:44,279
Speaker 1: don't want him to be canceled. Who cares, But let's

735
00:39:44,280 --> 00:39:48,920
Speaker 1: just make fun of him a bit longer. Please those texts,

736
00:39:48,920 --> 00:39:51,319
Speaker 1: I mean that was the problem is those memes went

737
00:39:51,560 --> 00:39:55,200
Speaker 1: nuts of like, oh my god, joke and everyone, but

738
00:39:55,239 --> 00:39:59,360
Speaker 1: they were so funny, but then it just became oversaturated

739
00:39:59,360 --> 00:40:01,759
Speaker 1: with every re one doing those memes that we got

740
00:40:01,760 --> 00:40:04,040
Speaker 1: tired of it. And then we flushed that story down

741
00:40:04,080 --> 00:40:05,880
Speaker 1: the train and it's onto the next thing, and it's like,

742
00:40:06,120 --> 00:40:08,279
Speaker 1: let's spend a little bit more time on the fact

743
00:40:08,280 --> 00:40:12,560
Speaker 1: that he almost he was going to name his baby

744
00:40:13,239 --> 00:40:17,000
Speaker 1: after his mistress. What a what a piece of ship?

745
00:40:18,080 --> 00:40:22,759
Speaker 1: I mean, that is that is sociopathic? Is so um?

746
00:40:22,800 --> 00:40:28,000
Speaker 1: I just there are I think I think if the

747
00:40:28,080 --> 00:40:31,200
Speaker 1: wife left him, the story would keep going. I think

748
00:40:31,239 --> 00:40:33,120
Speaker 1: when someone goes well, I forgave him, So who are

749
00:40:33,120 --> 00:40:35,360
Speaker 1: we to not forgiven. Can we skip ahead to the

750
00:40:35,440 --> 00:40:39,799
Speaker 1: Giselle story, Noah? Can we go to Why do I Care? Yes?

751
00:40:40,120 --> 00:40:46,120
Speaker 1: Why do I care? Oh? Giselle Brady? Yeah, I'm and

752
00:40:46,120 --> 00:40:47,879
Speaker 1: I have an actual update on this that I don't

753
00:40:47,880 --> 00:40:49,839
Speaker 1: think Noah had seen yet. But this is a good

754
00:40:49,880 --> 00:40:52,719
Speaker 1: We'll get to it. I saw something came out today. Um,

755
00:40:52,920 --> 00:40:58,000
Speaker 1: Giselle sack Tom Brady over sexless marriage. The Brazilian beauty

756
00:40:58,080 --> 00:41:01,200
Speaker 1: needed more. Okay, first of all, I don't know if

757
00:41:01,200 --> 00:41:06,879
Speaker 1: I was this article. What is this article from? What

758
00:41:07,320 --> 00:41:15,400
Speaker 1: is that the Daily Mail? No, it's Radar Online. Okay, Um, yeah,

759
00:41:17,480 --> 00:41:21,120
Speaker 1: this is this is nominated for this? This actually I

760
00:41:21,160 --> 00:41:23,960
Speaker 1: took from a different news report because they didn't include this,

761
00:41:24,000 --> 00:41:26,360
Speaker 1: but it made sense. The forty five year old quarterback

762
00:41:26,400 --> 00:41:29,080
Speaker 1: does not deviate from his strict diet or lifestyle, which

763
00:41:29,080 --> 00:41:31,960
Speaker 1: he considers the reason he's still able to play, and

764
00:41:32,000 --> 00:41:35,000
Speaker 1: that includes not having sex up to seventy two hours

765
00:41:35,040 --> 00:41:39,080
Speaker 1: before a game. And here's from Radar. An insider says

766
00:41:39,120 --> 00:41:42,280
Speaker 1: that that Giselle is a Brazilian supermodel with a super

767
00:41:42,320 --> 00:41:44,759
Speaker 1: sex drive and she's told her friends she needs more

768
00:41:45,080 --> 00:41:50,680
Speaker 1: from her all American husband. I mean, I definitely think

769
00:41:50,680 --> 00:41:53,960
Speaker 1: he doesn't have sex before. But I don't think she

770
00:41:54,200 --> 00:41:55,960
Speaker 1: would care about that. I think this has to do

771
00:41:56,000 --> 00:41:59,800
Speaker 1: with him being more obsessed with football than his family.

772
00:42:00,160 --> 00:42:03,160
Speaker 1: Seventeen times three, that's how many times he doesn't That's

773
00:42:03,200 --> 00:42:04,719
Speaker 1: how many days a year he doesn't fuck. But he

774
00:42:04,719 --> 00:42:08,239
Speaker 1: goes into a playoffs twenty times. Sixty days a year.

775
00:42:08,280 --> 00:42:10,680
Speaker 1: He's not a fucking I think women could deal with. Wait,

776
00:42:10,760 --> 00:42:13,160
Speaker 1: seventeen games, he s well, he goes to the playoffs

777
00:42:13,160 --> 00:42:18,120
Speaker 1: every year. So how many games is that four? Because

778
00:42:18,120 --> 00:42:21,520
Speaker 1: it's three days before doubt if anybody's too tired on

779
00:42:21,560 --> 00:42:24,040
Speaker 1: the game, So four times, so a hundred days a

780
00:42:24,080 --> 00:42:30,000
Speaker 1: year he doesn't her With this map half that's a third.

781
00:42:31,200 --> 00:42:33,000
Speaker 1: It's almost a third of the year. Based on the

782
00:42:33,000 --> 00:42:35,919
Speaker 1: things that we know about a year having it's got

783
00:42:35,920 --> 00:42:38,319
Speaker 1: to be so annoying that dates he's probably cuts up

784
00:42:38,320 --> 00:42:41,319
Speaker 1: his blueberries and force. But they used to blame her

785
00:42:41,640 --> 00:42:44,279
Speaker 1: for that. They used to blame her for him being

786
00:42:44,320 --> 00:42:48,080
Speaker 1: like all crazy about his vegan diet and not eating

787
00:42:48,120 --> 00:42:52,080
Speaker 1: tomatoes and not eating like anything fizzy or whatever. They

788
00:42:52,160 --> 00:42:54,239
Speaker 1: used to blame her and be like, she's making him

789
00:42:54,280 --> 00:42:58,640
Speaker 1: a little pussy. And now it's like it's the opposite

790
00:42:58,640 --> 00:43:01,680
Speaker 1: story one of did you hear about? Well? This is interesting.

791
00:43:01,719 --> 00:43:06,120
Speaker 1: So you know that guy J Shetty who has like

792
00:43:06,160 --> 00:43:09,880
Speaker 1: those piercing blue eyes that everyone just is convincing themselves

793
00:43:09,920 --> 00:43:12,440
Speaker 1: that he is probably smart and has a lot of

794
00:43:12,680 --> 00:43:16,480
Speaker 1: I've heard he's not a good person, but you can

795
00:43:16,520 --> 00:43:20,719
Speaker 1: hear that about anyone no phones. But every time you

796
00:43:20,760 --> 00:43:23,680
Speaker 1: watch the video of his there's that music behind it.

797
00:43:23,120 --> 00:43:28,799
Speaker 1: If you want to get back your life. The thing

798
00:43:28,880 --> 00:43:34,120
Speaker 1: is I used to it. He's thirty five. Did you

799
00:43:34,160 --> 00:43:39,440
Speaker 1: know that these these self help people? I've been watching

800
00:43:39,480 --> 00:43:42,000
Speaker 1: so many videos recently of this. I some one to

801
00:43:42,040 --> 00:43:46,839
Speaker 1: Andrew this morning of this guy of um, yeah, because

802
00:43:46,880 --> 00:43:53,279
Speaker 1: you love Mike Posner. This story was had zero information

803
00:43:53,280 --> 00:43:55,320
Speaker 1: in it that made me feel inspired. But the music

804
00:43:55,400 --> 00:43:59,040
Speaker 1: behind it? Can I play it? Ye want us to

805
00:43:59,080 --> 00:44:01,320
Speaker 1: do our own? I want to here an inspiring story.

806
00:44:01,360 --> 00:44:03,839
Speaker 1: Can we play the music behind it? It could be? Um,

807
00:44:03,920 --> 00:44:06,719
Speaker 1: let me find the one I sent you, Okay, I

808
00:44:06,719 --> 00:44:08,400
Speaker 1: could tell you exactly what it was because I had

809
00:44:08,400 --> 00:44:12,120
Speaker 1: the same conversation with my coach. It's just I really

810
00:44:12,120 --> 00:44:15,799
Speaker 1: did with my basketball coach in high school. I mean,

811
00:44:15,880 --> 00:44:17,920
Speaker 1: I feel like a lot of people had this conversation

812
00:44:18,000 --> 00:44:20,200
Speaker 1: and you you are waiting. These are the things of

813
00:44:20,239 --> 00:44:23,000
Speaker 1: these videos. They and I will say that this is

814
00:44:23,160 --> 00:44:26,920
Speaker 1: stand ups out there putting out clips, have something funny

815
00:44:26,920 --> 00:44:30,439
Speaker 1: in the clip just because you clip it out. I wait,

816
00:44:30,520 --> 00:44:32,760
Speaker 1: and I watched, and I go, when's the punchline coming?

817
00:44:33,080 --> 00:44:39,759
Speaker 1: When the No, there's so many videos out there that

818
00:44:39,800 --> 00:44:42,279
Speaker 1: don't give you any kind of sustenance, but they give

819
00:44:42,320 --> 00:44:46,040
Speaker 1: you the soundtrack in the background, or they just convince

820
00:44:46,080 --> 00:44:48,279
Speaker 1: you that something's funny is going to happen. I'm so

821
00:44:48,400 --> 00:44:53,200
Speaker 1: tired of it all. Just story with these things, that's what. Well,

822
00:44:53,239 --> 00:44:57,279
Speaker 1: when you hear Mike Posner's things, it's just there's a

823
00:44:57,280 --> 00:45:01,000
Speaker 1: difference in your story about what. I was on the

824
00:45:01,040 --> 00:45:04,160
Speaker 1: basketball team in high school. Oh, this will be good.

825
00:45:04,520 --> 00:45:08,760
Speaker 1: I didn't play on the basketball teams of the way

826
00:45:08,840 --> 00:45:12,399
Speaker 1: through the season. I built up all this courage at

827
00:45:12,440 --> 00:45:16,520
Speaker 1: a meeting with the coach in his office and I said, coach,

828
00:45:16,960 --> 00:45:20,600
Speaker 1: why don't you ever play me? Wow? He looked at me.

829
00:45:20,960 --> 00:45:24,279
Speaker 1: Something BIG's gonna happen here. Don't play you because you're

830
00:45:24,280 --> 00:45:28,520
Speaker 1: not good enough. Okay, okay, well maybe more's coming. I

831
00:45:28,600 --> 00:45:34,120
Speaker 1: tried really not to cry. We started crying. Something's about

832
00:45:34,120 --> 00:45:36,839
Speaker 1: to happen. He said, he doesn't know a specialize him,

833
00:45:36,960 --> 00:45:39,319
Speaker 1: and I'll show him. So he's gonna show him. He's

834
00:45:39,320 --> 00:45:42,359
Speaker 1: gonna which was true. I wasn't good enough to play

835
00:45:42,440 --> 00:45:45,000
Speaker 1: us why I didn't play right right, But he's gonna

836
00:45:45,000 --> 00:45:49,239
Speaker 1: show him. I think that's how he doesn't understand me.

837
00:45:49,840 --> 00:45:53,360
Speaker 1: He doesn't see how good I am, and I'll show him.

838
00:45:53,440 --> 00:45:57,839
Speaker 1: And not only that, no one understands me. That's how

839
00:45:57,840 --> 00:46:00,560
Speaker 1: it's living in my my life. There's a difference between similar

840
00:46:00,600 --> 00:46:04,160
Speaker 1: to what happened your story about what happened. I was

841
00:46:04,200 --> 00:46:06,759
Speaker 1: at basketball. Wait wait, wait, so it just started over

842
00:46:06,760 --> 00:46:08,879
Speaker 1: a wait do we didn't get to a point. There

843
00:46:08,920 --> 00:46:13,160
Speaker 1: was no point at the end. I was waiting, there's nothing.

844
00:46:13,239 --> 00:46:14,920
Speaker 1: I was waiting for something to happen. He was either

845
00:46:14,960 --> 00:46:16,560
Speaker 1: going to show the coach or the coach was going

846
00:46:16,640 --> 00:46:19,920
Speaker 1: to say something very you know. It seems like what

847
00:46:20,000 --> 00:46:23,480
Speaker 1: he thought happened inspirational. That's what he thought happened. I

848
00:46:23,480 --> 00:46:27,680
Speaker 1: thought happened happened. So the point of his thing was

849
00:46:27,719 --> 00:46:29,520
Speaker 1: that not the story you tell yourself is different than

850
00:46:29,520 --> 00:46:31,800
Speaker 1: the one that happened. But the story he told himself

851
00:46:31,880 --> 00:46:35,080
Speaker 1: was the one that happened. And nothing happened. I guess

852
00:46:35,160 --> 00:46:37,239
Speaker 1: the only thing that didn't have it is like he

853
00:46:37,320 --> 00:46:41,240
Speaker 1: might have told himself then I've not wasted a minute

854
00:46:41,280 --> 00:46:43,920
Speaker 1: in fifteen seconds of my life watching that twice. I

855
00:46:44,040 --> 00:46:46,600
Speaker 1: held onto every word that because I heard that music

856
00:46:46,640 --> 00:46:48,880
Speaker 1: and I'm like, this is gonna be big. And I

857
00:46:48,920 --> 00:46:50,440
Speaker 1: know you like posing or you got bit by a

858
00:46:50,480 --> 00:46:52,560
Speaker 1: snake while he was walking across the country or some ship,

859
00:46:52,640 --> 00:46:55,000
Speaker 1: and I was like, this guy, I need some inspiration today.

860
00:46:55,080 --> 00:46:59,040
Speaker 1: I'm feeling bloated, I'm feeling soggy. And that's what I

861
00:46:59,080 --> 00:47:01,760
Speaker 1: got was a story about him being bad at basketball,

862
00:47:01,800 --> 00:47:04,040
Speaker 1: being told he's bad at basketball and it being the truth.

863
00:47:04,880 --> 00:47:07,279
Speaker 1: What does that mean? That also makes it sound like

864
00:47:07,360 --> 00:47:10,239
Speaker 1: that he the music was already playing at the podcast,

865
00:47:10,719 --> 00:47:14,640
Speaker 1: like we should do a podcast to full time. Well,

866
00:47:14,680 --> 00:47:17,800
Speaker 1: that's how he talks. Everything is like this when people

867
00:47:17,840 --> 00:47:22,320
Speaker 1: tell rational stories. I was a young boy. I didn't

868
00:47:22,360 --> 00:47:25,640
Speaker 1: have much. It's all like a rhythm to it of

869
00:47:25,760 --> 00:47:28,520
Speaker 1: making you feel sad and like I saw a thing.

870
00:47:28,760 --> 00:47:32,120
Speaker 1: This guy he interviews like random like people and be like,

871
00:47:32,120 --> 00:47:33,880
Speaker 1: how did you become successful? In This guy was the

872
00:47:34,000 --> 00:47:37,600
Speaker 1: Nike CEO and their whole thing. He goes tell emotional stories,

873
00:47:38,080 --> 00:47:40,719
Speaker 1: and you do learn that, like even if you're stand up,

874
00:47:40,920 --> 00:47:46,560
Speaker 1: even if you're an actor like Rock the Rock for

875
00:47:46,640 --> 00:47:49,719
Speaker 1: when you hear an emotional story, generally, if it's from

876
00:47:49,760 --> 00:47:54,680
Speaker 1: someone who's striking le good looking, it's such bullshit. If

877
00:47:54,719 --> 00:47:58,799
Speaker 1: it's from someone who is there are four year old,

878
00:47:59,080 --> 00:48:01,759
Speaker 1: I'm not kidding you, it's from someone who's too hot

879
00:48:01,800 --> 00:48:03,920
Speaker 1: looking and also who has propped their camera up in

880
00:48:03,960 --> 00:48:07,239
Speaker 1: a way that like, I don't believe any of it

881
00:48:07,320 --> 00:48:10,040
Speaker 1: and I see it happening. Rock is so full of ship.

882
00:48:10,160 --> 00:48:12,080
Speaker 1: Have you heard him talk about not wanting to be president.

883
00:48:12,120 --> 00:48:14,880
Speaker 1: He's like, I just He's like he pretty much is like,

884
00:48:15,160 --> 00:48:19,480
Speaker 1: I mean, I could be well, listen, it's something that

885
00:48:19,520 --> 00:48:21,680
Speaker 1: I would love to do, and it's something that I

886
00:48:21,719 --> 00:48:24,000
Speaker 1: know I would be great at. But you know what,

887
00:48:24,040 --> 00:48:26,759
Speaker 1: my job, the most important job I have, is being

888
00:48:26,800 --> 00:48:32,279
Speaker 1: a daddy. He used the word daddy. Yes, Chris's show

889
00:48:32,320 --> 00:48:33,920
Speaker 1: made fun of it the other day, and Chris was like,

890
00:48:33,960 --> 00:48:35,600
Speaker 1: and he had to say, daddy. That guy is so

891
00:48:35,719 --> 00:48:38,040
Speaker 1: full of ship and full of himself and and by

892
00:48:38,040 --> 00:48:39,759
Speaker 1: the way, most people would go, I don't want to

893
00:48:39,760 --> 00:48:41,879
Speaker 1: be president. I don't know what I would do. I'm

894
00:48:41,880 --> 00:48:45,800
Speaker 1: not qualified to be president. He's he assumes, yeah, i'dwin.

895
00:48:45,880 --> 00:48:47,279
Speaker 1: I would be qualified, but I don't want to do

896
00:48:47,320 --> 00:48:50,200
Speaker 1: it because I'm a daddy. Stops calling yourself a daddy.

897
00:48:50,400 --> 00:48:53,680
Speaker 1: That's disgusting. I am. I am on a high alert

898
00:48:53,719 --> 00:48:56,520
Speaker 1: if you call yourself daddy, because up, I want to

899
00:48:56,560 --> 00:48:59,080
Speaker 1: do a test. We should both think of the most

900
00:48:59,120 --> 00:49:02,160
Speaker 1: inspirational story that we could think of, put it on

901
00:49:02,200 --> 00:49:05,919
Speaker 1: Instagram and watch that. You would get two thousand likes

902
00:49:05,960 --> 00:49:12,200
Speaker 1: if you go. That's the thing. Is like, even with

903
00:49:12,280 --> 00:49:14,480
Speaker 1: people's stand up clips I've been watching recently, I'm like,

904
00:49:14,960 --> 00:49:17,200
Speaker 1: I know this trick. Oh, I could do this, and

905
00:49:17,239 --> 00:49:19,759
Speaker 1: I'm so. I think that's what sending into the depression is.

906
00:49:19,760 --> 00:49:21,879
Speaker 1: I saw stand up clips yesterday that I was just like,

907
00:49:22,360 --> 00:49:24,319
Speaker 1: I could do this if I wanted to. I know

908
00:49:24,520 --> 00:49:27,279
Speaker 1: every trick. I have this level of confidence, I have

909
00:49:27,440 --> 00:49:31,480
Speaker 1: this level of writing style. These people are being sold

910
00:49:32,600 --> 00:49:37,359
Speaker 1: like processed, fake goop. It's like you're all eating at

911
00:49:37,400 --> 00:49:41,240
Speaker 1: Del Taco every day for your entertainment. I just watched Damer.

912
00:49:41,440 --> 00:49:46,480
Speaker 1: That is an excellent show. I'm not kidding you. Respect

913
00:49:47,160 --> 00:49:49,520
Speaker 1: I first started watching being like, oh is the number?

914
00:49:49,680 --> 00:49:52,040
Speaker 1: It gave me hope? That people like that show because

915
00:49:52,440 --> 00:49:54,160
Speaker 1: but the thing is it could be crap and they'd

916
00:49:54,160 --> 00:49:58,200
Speaker 1: still watch it because people like crap. It's like, but

917
00:49:58,239 --> 00:50:01,000
Speaker 1: this is what people do to be really isn't successful?

918
00:50:01,520 --> 00:50:05,120
Speaker 1: Just make make stuff that it's just low bar and

919
00:50:05,120 --> 00:50:10,480
Speaker 1: and fake, fake, fake sincerity, fake um anger about things.

920
00:50:10,520 --> 00:50:12,759
Speaker 1: Everything's fake. And that's the problem. As a stand up

921
00:50:12,800 --> 00:50:14,520
Speaker 1: you want to be real about things. And that's where

922
00:50:14,520 --> 00:50:17,879
Speaker 1: I struggle, as seen him sometimes, because I'm like, I'm

923
00:50:17,920 --> 00:50:20,040
Speaker 1: not really that passionate about anything right now, and I'm

924
00:50:20,080 --> 00:50:22,560
Speaker 1: not gonna fake like I am, but I could. That's

925
00:50:22,600 --> 00:50:26,200
Speaker 1: the problem, you know, when we do this thing that's

926
00:50:26,239 --> 00:50:29,560
Speaker 1: like it's like, yeah, I could. I could totally write

927
00:50:30,280 --> 00:50:34,480
Speaker 1: a whole act that just playcates to women's you know,

928
00:50:35,520 --> 00:50:39,160
Speaker 1: like Bachelor at Night out like that, the two Dumb Girls.

929
00:50:39,280 --> 00:50:42,919
Speaker 1: I think of it. I think I have trouble being

930
00:50:42,960 --> 00:50:48,000
Speaker 1: sincere without feeling fake or like, without feeling like I'm

931
00:50:48,040 --> 00:50:51,120
Speaker 1: trying to get something out of it, even though look,

932
00:50:51,200 --> 00:50:54,719
Speaker 1: I like sincerity when it's pure, it's fucking beautiful, like

933
00:50:54,760 --> 00:50:57,040
Speaker 1: when I can really performative. That's why I hate One

934
00:50:57,040 --> 00:51:00,759
Speaker 1: Man shows. They are trying to access sincerity every night.

935
00:51:00,800 --> 00:51:03,319
Speaker 1: That's like vulnerable thing that they went through. They have

936
00:51:03,400 --> 00:51:06,359
Speaker 1: to like get to that point where they're like choked up.

937
00:51:06,400 --> 00:51:09,480
Speaker 1: And I will not fake a choking up thing unless

938
00:51:09,520 --> 00:51:11,960
Speaker 1: it is so serving a joke where everyone knows she's

939
00:51:12,040 --> 00:51:15,040
Speaker 1: choking up to be funny later on. I will never

940
00:51:15,160 --> 00:51:18,279
Speaker 1: take you to a place emotionally on stage that I

941
00:51:18,320 --> 00:51:22,080
Speaker 1: am not currently in. It's just so gross to me. Well,

942
00:51:21,880 --> 00:51:24,000
Speaker 1: I took a one man show the guy that this

943
00:51:24,040 --> 00:51:28,640
Speaker 1: guy Seth Bears who was Barbigli as director, and this

944
00:51:28,680 --> 00:51:31,160
Speaker 1: woman got up there and she literally took us to

945
00:51:31,320 --> 00:51:36,239
Speaker 1: the moment through acting, which was amazing accent. But I'm

946
00:51:36,239 --> 00:51:38,480
Speaker 1: not saying it was good because it took you to

947
00:51:39,360 --> 00:51:43,239
Speaker 1: her place of abuse, to a point where the audience

948
00:51:43,480 --> 00:51:47,319
Speaker 1: it took you to that so much that it wasn't good,

949
00:51:47,400 --> 00:51:49,880
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, Like you can go, I

950
00:51:49,920 --> 00:51:53,920
Speaker 1: don't like it was so emotional. Respect that more than

951
00:51:54,000 --> 00:51:58,080
Speaker 1: people and every time, and if you are a stand

952
00:51:58,120 --> 00:52:02,400
Speaker 1: up that gets sincere in your act, you take a

953
00:52:02,440 --> 00:52:05,480
Speaker 1: good cold look in the mirror about yourself. Like I

954
00:52:05,480 --> 00:52:08,360
Speaker 1: could get sincere about something sometimes, but I don't waste

955
00:52:08,440 --> 00:52:10,919
Speaker 1: more than ten seconds on it. And the only reason

956
00:52:10,960 --> 00:52:13,200
Speaker 1: I waste ten seconds because I actually feel that way.

957
00:52:13,280 --> 00:52:16,640
Speaker 1: I'm so sick of this performative sincerity. So I just

958
00:52:16,640 --> 00:52:19,280
Speaker 1: want to say, Um, I'll reveal what the gizl tweet

959
00:52:19,360 --> 00:52:21,000
Speaker 1: is when I get back to that by J Shetty,

960
00:52:21,040 --> 00:52:22,880
Speaker 1: because it is good and we should get to it

961
00:52:23,360 --> 00:52:28,040
Speaker 1: right after this. Okay, we're back and we are on

962
00:52:28,120 --> 00:52:33,520
Speaker 1: a fucking roll today. Um, it's been a coast. Yeah,

963
00:52:33,560 --> 00:52:39,239
Speaker 1: the fire inside me is burning bright. Yes, countdowns, So

964
00:52:39,440 --> 00:52:41,520
Speaker 1: now I know a week before my period is when

965
00:52:41,560 --> 00:52:44,440
Speaker 1: I am at peak anger. But also like I do

966
00:52:44,560 --> 00:52:48,160
Speaker 1: have an enthusiasm right now, I don't know. That's the thing.

967
00:52:48,160 --> 00:52:50,440
Speaker 1: When I was writing down dark thoughts yesterday and I

968
00:52:50,440 --> 00:52:51,960
Speaker 1: was like, my next special is just going to air

969
00:52:52,000 --> 00:52:55,120
Speaker 1: out every dark thought I've ever had because I'm tired

970
00:52:55,160 --> 00:52:57,399
Speaker 1: of holding it back. When I watched like, I saw

971
00:52:57,440 --> 00:53:00,520
Speaker 1: Bill Burr do a joke about how women are always

972
00:53:01,000 --> 00:53:04,959
Speaker 1: like uplifting, like you know, Lizzo, like we love you,

973
00:53:05,040 --> 00:53:08,000
Speaker 1: and he just he said, of course you are, because

974
00:53:08,000 --> 00:53:10,160
Speaker 1: you're not threatened by her, and it just like cut

975
00:53:10,280 --> 00:53:12,839
Speaker 1: right through. You can't be mad at him, even though

976
00:53:12,840 --> 00:53:15,080
Speaker 1: he does stuff sometimes that you're like, that's body shaming.

977
00:53:15,120 --> 00:53:16,840
Speaker 1: I'm not a big fan of that. It seems like

978
00:53:16,880 --> 00:53:19,520
Speaker 1: a little misogynoust stick. I'm not a fan of that.

979
00:53:19,520 --> 00:53:21,920
Speaker 1: That to me, I was like, he's right, well it

980
00:53:21,960 --> 00:53:23,839
Speaker 1: goes back to you when when he was like, yeah,

981
00:53:23,840 --> 00:53:26,560
Speaker 1: shave your head so then you're not threatened, Like I

982
00:53:26,600 --> 00:53:32,200
Speaker 1: know you like my joke about yes it's but there

983
00:53:32,280 --> 00:53:36,200
Speaker 1: was something about no context. But it just made me think, yeah,

984
00:53:36,200 --> 00:53:40,319
Speaker 1: I know it's the same thing, but the tweeh, I

985
00:53:40,400 --> 00:53:42,400
Speaker 1: just yeah. To close it up, I just want to

986
00:53:42,400 --> 00:53:45,080
Speaker 1: say that I am worried though that my dark thoughts

987
00:53:45,080 --> 00:53:47,080
Speaker 1: that I wrote yesterday that I'm like, oh, this is

988
00:53:47,120 --> 00:53:49,560
Speaker 1: gonna be like the crux of my new special. I'm

989
00:53:49,600 --> 00:53:51,759
Speaker 1: not going to be able to recreate those dark thoughts

990
00:53:51,800 --> 00:53:54,640
Speaker 1: every night because I'm I'm in a dark zone right now,

991
00:53:54,880 --> 00:53:56,840
Speaker 1: and I feel like I don't want to be insincere

992
00:53:56,840 --> 00:53:59,400
Speaker 1: by bringing writing these jokes and having to recreate them

993
00:53:59,400 --> 00:54:01,560
Speaker 1: every night on stage when I'm not feeling it. But

994
00:54:01,600 --> 00:54:03,719
Speaker 1: maybe some people want that in a performer where they're like,

995
00:54:03,760 --> 00:54:06,440
Speaker 1: it's a show, bitch, put it on getting to costume.

996
00:54:06,719 --> 00:54:08,840
Speaker 1: But I'm someone I can't go to see Broadway shows

997
00:54:08,880 --> 00:54:11,320
Speaker 1: because I don't want to see people have to perform

998
00:54:11,400 --> 00:54:14,040
Speaker 1: when they might not want to. It's very hard when

999
00:54:14,040 --> 00:54:17,000
Speaker 1: you're in a depression state too. You don't you don't

1000
00:54:17,000 --> 00:54:20,759
Speaker 1: want that to last. Yeah, you don't want to. And

1001
00:54:20,800 --> 00:54:23,520
Speaker 1: I write jokes and depressions that I cannot support in

1002
00:54:23,560 --> 00:54:27,000
Speaker 1: my normal rice or whatever. The singer he always talks

1003
00:54:27,000 --> 00:54:30,759
Speaker 1: a little bit of your tiste. Yeah, yeah, from closer

1004
00:54:31,080 --> 00:54:36,640
Speaker 1: or closer closer. Yeah, so he writes from a very

1005
00:54:36,680 --> 00:54:39,400
Speaker 1: sad place. And he said, right on the floor in

1006
00:54:39,400 --> 00:54:41,920
Speaker 1: the closet, yeah yeah, yeah, with big jeans on with

1007
00:54:42,000 --> 00:54:46,000
Speaker 1: the gun was not Yeah, okay. So J Shetty, the

1008
00:54:46,040 --> 00:54:50,040
Speaker 1: guy with piercing blue eyes, he wrote, uh, you know.

1009
00:54:50,160 --> 00:54:52,880
Speaker 1: On Instagram, he posted like a tweet that said, you

1010
00:54:52,920 --> 00:54:55,120
Speaker 1: can't be in a committed relationship with someone who is

1011
00:54:55,160 --> 00:54:59,240
Speaker 1: inconsistent with you. Read that again. I hate Read that again,

1012
00:54:59,280 --> 00:55:05,480
Speaker 1: by the way, and be consistent with read that again

1013
00:55:05,800 --> 00:55:09,200
Speaker 1: you it's so it's so crazy and pointing what I

1014
00:55:09,280 --> 00:55:12,160
Speaker 1: just said, you might need to read it again. You

1015
00:55:12,200 --> 00:55:15,120
Speaker 1: can't be in a committed relationship with someone who is

1016
00:55:15,239 --> 00:55:18,600
Speaker 1: inconsistent with you. Read that again. You can't be even

1017
00:55:18,640 --> 00:55:22,520
Speaker 1: a committed relationship with someone who's read it again. I am,

1018
00:55:22,600 --> 00:55:30,360
Speaker 1: and I'm stuck into bullshit. Loup um. And then underneath

1019
00:55:30,360 --> 00:55:33,000
Speaker 1: that Giselle and this was on comments by celebs. They

1020
00:55:33,000 --> 00:55:39,640
Speaker 1: caught this. Giselle commented a prayer hands emoji. So that

1021
00:55:39,920 --> 00:55:43,240
Speaker 1: is our biggest clue yet because she has been mum.

1022
00:55:43,280 --> 00:55:45,359
Speaker 1: I mean you can't really trust these like friends of

1023
00:55:45,360 --> 00:55:51,160
Speaker 1: hers that he was not consistent and retiring from football.

1024
00:55:51,200 --> 00:55:53,600
Speaker 1: Maybe that's what she's talking about there with you. It

1025
00:55:53,680 --> 00:55:56,399
Speaker 1: says in consistent with you. I think it's um and yeah,

1026
00:55:56,400 --> 00:55:58,799
Speaker 1: that it wasn't consistency of being like I think he

1027
00:55:58,920 --> 00:56:04,520
Speaker 1: got back into life and was just and and he's

1028
00:56:04,600 --> 00:56:07,920
Speaker 1: so obsessed with football. There's nothing there's no room probably

1029
00:56:07,920 --> 00:56:10,640
Speaker 1: for anything else because it requires that level of obsession.

1030
00:56:10,760 --> 00:56:14,120
Speaker 1: And as someone who has dated someone in TV production

1031
00:56:14,160 --> 00:56:18,000
Speaker 1: and I told him, like, I can't. It's TV productions

1032
00:56:18,040 --> 00:56:23,000
Speaker 1: like that, like people work twenty hour days and then

1033
00:56:23,000 --> 00:56:25,200
Speaker 1: they sleep for two hours and then they start again,

1034
00:56:25,200 --> 00:56:27,600
Speaker 1: and you're like, I can't be with someone who works

1035
00:56:27,600 --> 00:56:32,040
Speaker 1: in this level of like obsessive work that it's like

1036
00:56:32,080 --> 00:56:35,040
Speaker 1: these and then there's time off, but it's still like

1037
00:56:35,200 --> 00:56:37,200
Speaker 1: I I don't think I could do it if I

1038
00:56:37,239 --> 00:56:40,359
Speaker 1: were Giselle date someone who was that obsessed with their work.

1039
00:56:40,560 --> 00:56:44,799
Speaker 1: I think like Also she's in a job where like,

1040
00:56:45,160 --> 00:56:47,480
Speaker 1: look she makes she makes more money than him. I've

1041
00:56:47,560 --> 00:56:49,919
Speaker 1: learned like twice as money, like crazy amount of money.

1042
00:56:49,960 --> 00:56:52,200
Speaker 1: But like she was a model of her life. She

1043
00:56:52,280 --> 00:56:56,120
Speaker 1: gets celebrated by being young and gorgeous and whatever. Like

1044
00:56:56,200 --> 00:56:59,640
Speaker 1: that profession, that's what that is. And I feel like

1045
00:57:00,120 --> 00:57:02,759
Speaker 1: it's like, okay, well you had your football thing, now

1046
00:57:02,760 --> 00:57:05,040
Speaker 1: it's time to pay attention to me. Like I feel

1047
00:57:05,040 --> 00:57:08,640
Speaker 1: like like her profession is done in a sense of

1048
00:57:08,680 --> 00:57:11,040
Speaker 1: like what that is right? And like football, you only

1049
00:57:11,080 --> 00:57:13,360
Speaker 1: have a finite amount of years. I mean it's like modeling.

1050
00:57:13,440 --> 00:57:16,000
Speaker 1: Athletes and models are very similar. You tap out around

1051
00:57:16,080 --> 00:57:20,280
Speaker 1: like seven. So I'm sure she's I'm done. It's time

1052
00:57:20,320 --> 00:57:22,200
Speaker 1: for you to be done. Let's enjoy each other. We

1053
00:57:22,200 --> 00:57:24,560
Speaker 1: don't have to keep pushing for this. What's he going

1054
00:57:24,600 --> 00:57:26,320
Speaker 1: to do when he actually has to stop? Like what

1055
00:57:26,400 --> 00:57:30,760
Speaker 1: is he deal to do to know? But he doesn't

1056
00:57:30,760 --> 00:57:34,240
Speaker 1: want a broadcast? That guy wants to play football, And

1057
00:57:34,280 --> 00:57:38,800
Speaker 1: that's the problem. Like when models and there is or

1058
00:57:39,080 --> 00:57:42,480
Speaker 1: or an athletes, there's there's a end to this and

1059
00:57:42,480 --> 00:57:45,480
Speaker 1: that's shorter than any other career. And it sucks because

1060
00:57:45,480 --> 00:57:48,320
Speaker 1: those people are sometimes the most dedicated to the profession

1061
00:57:48,800 --> 00:57:53,720
Speaker 1: of anyone when you're done. If comedians had to quit

1062
00:57:53,880 --> 00:57:56,760
Speaker 1: around twenty or if I was like an old comedian

1063
00:57:56,880 --> 00:57:59,080
Speaker 1: right now, because if if I was modeling, i'd be

1064
00:57:59,120 --> 00:58:04,040
Speaker 1: an old model what kind? It would be devastating, Like

1065
00:58:04,160 --> 00:58:06,240
Speaker 1: I would you have to go. I don't care how

1066
00:58:06,320 --> 00:58:07,880
Speaker 1: much they're paying me to do anything else. It would

1067
00:58:07,880 --> 00:58:10,800
Speaker 1: be like hard to you know, I could do other things.

1068
00:58:12,560 --> 00:58:16,480
Speaker 1: Have it taken from you? Is told the world that

1069
00:58:16,600 --> 00:58:20,600
Speaker 1: you're the most gorgeous person, which she is. She's gorgeous,

1070
00:58:20,920 --> 00:58:23,240
Speaker 1: But the guy you're sleeping next he is looking at

1071
00:58:23,240 --> 00:58:25,760
Speaker 1: a playbook instead of looking at your tips. And it's

1072
00:58:25,800 --> 00:58:29,200
Speaker 1: like that happens to every woman, no matter how gorgeous

1073
00:58:29,200 --> 00:58:32,040
Speaker 1: she is. You will eventually that has keeps me, that

1074
00:58:32,120 --> 00:58:34,040
Speaker 1: helps me sleep at it too. No matter how gorgeous

1075
00:58:34,080 --> 00:58:37,040
Speaker 1: you are, you will have your man will to get

1076
00:58:37,080 --> 00:58:39,120
Speaker 1: tired of sucking you at some point because it's like,

1077
00:58:39,360 --> 00:58:42,160
Speaker 1: at least Tom Brady has a pretty good excuse. He's

1078
00:58:42,200 --> 00:58:45,240
Speaker 1: like a quarterback. For here's a guy not looking at

1079
00:58:45,280 --> 00:58:50,560
Speaker 1: your tips. He's like making four dollars. Yes, people talked

1080
00:58:50,600 --> 00:58:53,720
Speaker 1: about the Adam Levine thing, like, but he's with Bahati

1081
00:58:53,840 --> 00:58:56,320
Speaker 1: how could he ever go after the Instagram models that

1082
00:58:56,360 --> 00:58:57,960
Speaker 1: aren't as cute as her? And it was just like,

1083
00:58:58,400 --> 00:59:01,120
Speaker 1: you think that's what this is about? Are you that's

1084
00:59:01,160 --> 00:59:04,720
Speaker 1: stupid that you think models can't get cheated on? What

1085
00:59:05,040 --> 00:59:07,600
Speaker 1: I mean? Maybe I thought that when I was fourteen

1086
00:59:07,720 --> 00:59:11,560
Speaker 1: years old, But how do adults think that if you

1087
00:59:11,560 --> 00:59:14,080
Speaker 1: are a certain level of hotness that you won't get hurt?

1088
00:59:14,120 --> 00:59:15,960
Speaker 1: And by the way, there's a secret part of me

1089
00:59:16,040 --> 00:59:18,120
Speaker 1: that thinks that too, because I am so jealous of

1090
00:59:18,120 --> 00:59:20,480
Speaker 1: hot girls that I think their lives are perfect. So

1091
00:59:20,560 --> 00:59:22,320
Speaker 1: I mean I kind of am a snake eating its

1092
00:59:22,360 --> 00:59:26,560
Speaker 1: own tail right now. Like it is funny to think that,

1093
00:59:26,640 --> 00:59:29,760
Speaker 1: like just to think of a guy like I won't

1094
00:59:29,800 --> 00:59:31,320
Speaker 1: be like how did they do it? And then they

1095
00:59:31,320 --> 00:59:34,480
Speaker 1: look over and their husbands playing fantasy football instead of

1096
00:59:34,520 --> 00:59:37,439
Speaker 1: sucking them like or just looking at photos of Tom

1097
00:59:37,480 --> 00:59:43,280
Speaker 1: Brady instead of like every yeah, dude, I mean it's

1098
00:59:43,440 --> 00:59:46,520
Speaker 1: you know, you gotta keep spicing it up. And and

1099
00:59:47,000 --> 00:59:50,040
Speaker 1: you know, I think Tom Brady probably he's not tired

1100
00:59:50,040 --> 00:59:51,920
Speaker 1: of probably sleeping with her. He's probably just tired of

1101
00:59:51,920 --> 00:59:56,840
Speaker 1: sleeping with anyone except for a football final thought. Last

1102
00:59:56,880 --> 00:59:59,040
Speaker 1: night we were watching watching Bachelor in Paradise and there

1103
00:59:59,120 --> 01:00:02,080
Speaker 1: is excite eating stuff that's about to happen. So usually

1104
01:00:02,080 --> 01:00:04,520
Speaker 1: on the show Bachelor in Paradise, it's like a bunch

1105
01:00:04,560 --> 01:00:06,840
Speaker 1: of singles that you know from the Bachelor franchise go

1106
01:00:06,920 --> 01:00:09,680
Speaker 1: to this island and they all every week, you know,

1107
01:00:09,720 --> 01:00:11,920
Speaker 1: the guys will have the roses and then um, you know,

1108
01:00:12,000 --> 01:00:13,840
Speaker 1: and there's an uneven number of guys and girls, so

1109
01:00:13,920 --> 01:00:15,400
Speaker 1: like some girls will go home because they don't get

1110
01:00:15,400 --> 01:00:17,720
Speaker 1: a rose. Then the next week the power dynamical shift.

1111
01:00:17,720 --> 01:00:19,760
Speaker 1: The girls have the roses and they bring on new

1112
01:00:19,760 --> 01:00:22,880
Speaker 1: people to spice things up. Well this season, based on

1113
01:00:22,960 --> 01:00:27,960
Speaker 1: like the UM preview last night, everyone's already coupled up

1114
01:00:28,040 --> 01:00:31,560
Speaker 1: kind of and like everything's kind of like where it

1115
01:00:31,640 --> 01:00:34,600
Speaker 1: is and safe and like steady, and next week they're

1116
01:00:34,960 --> 01:00:37,800
Speaker 1: they the host goes girls pack your things up and

1117
01:00:37,800 --> 01:00:39,400
Speaker 1: the girls have to go stay at a hotel. When

1118
01:00:39,440 --> 01:00:42,439
Speaker 1: they bring in a new batch of girls that are

1119
01:00:43,040 --> 01:00:45,200
Speaker 1: and Chris and I've been watching and being like the

1120
01:00:45,280 --> 01:00:49,160
Speaker 1: caliber of hotness of these girls is not what we

1121
01:00:49,360 --> 01:00:52,960
Speaker 1: generally expect from the Bachelor, And you know, and if

1122
01:00:53,000 --> 01:00:55,120
Speaker 1: I walked on the island, they would be like, who

1123
01:00:55,200 --> 01:00:58,160
Speaker 1: is this sand Goblin, like, these girls are way hotter

1124
01:00:58,160 --> 01:01:00,240
Speaker 1: than me, So I'm judging. I'm saying these girls aren't

1125
01:01:00,240 --> 01:01:02,400
Speaker 1: hot enough, but they are hotter than me, no judgment,

1126
01:01:02,480 --> 01:01:04,960
Speaker 1: but you expect a level from Bachelor and you're just

1127
01:01:05,000 --> 01:01:07,400
Speaker 1: like And I also think, as an older person watching

1128
01:01:07,400 --> 01:01:10,640
Speaker 1: this show, beauty standards are changing so much that what

1129
01:01:10,720 --> 01:01:14,160
Speaker 1: I think is attractive for a man is no longer

1130
01:01:14,200 --> 01:01:16,800
Speaker 1: what is attractive to younger girls for a man. Does

1131
01:01:16,840 --> 01:01:20,400
Speaker 1: that make sense? Yeah, or we're attracted to a younger guy, yeah, yeah,

1132
01:01:20,440 --> 01:01:23,200
Speaker 1: and women with filler and different things like that. I

1133
01:01:23,240 --> 01:01:25,080
Speaker 1: think the women are beautiful, but Chris is kind of like,

1134
01:01:25,120 --> 01:01:27,360
Speaker 1: I'm a little disappointed in them, and I'm disappointed to

1135
01:01:27,440 --> 01:01:30,440
Speaker 1: the men. But I think beauty standards are changing and

1136
01:01:30,480 --> 01:01:33,240
Speaker 1: this is just a young and it's yeah, so anyway,

1137
01:01:33,480 --> 01:01:35,600
Speaker 1: but the girls that are coming in next are fucking

1138
01:01:35,800 --> 01:01:39,480
Speaker 1: smoking hot. Like they've they up there, They've saved a batch,

1139
01:01:40,080 --> 01:01:43,560
Speaker 1: so they're coming in the organ. It's amazing. I'm so

1140
01:01:43,680 --> 01:01:46,320
Speaker 1: jealous of this. They I think they took a page

1141
01:01:46,320 --> 01:01:48,160
Speaker 1: out of f Boy Island and we're like, we need

1142
01:01:48,200 --> 01:01:50,720
Speaker 1: to up the auntie and make this a little bit

1143
01:01:50,760 --> 01:01:55,320
Speaker 1: more vicious, because if if you know Bachelor in Paradise,

1144
01:01:55,360 --> 01:01:57,880
Speaker 1: I've ever watched that. This has never happened before. I mean,

1145
01:01:57,920 --> 01:02:00,280
Speaker 1: one or two people will come in and be a

1146
01:02:00,320 --> 01:02:02,640
Speaker 1: hot girl, but they've never sent the girls away and

1147
01:02:02,680 --> 01:02:04,400
Speaker 1: been like, sorry, you just have to. And this girl's like,

1148
01:02:04,800 --> 01:02:12,400
Speaker 1: so I did have to sit on my birthday two

1149
01:02:12,440 --> 01:02:16,240
Speaker 1: weeks ago? What's going? God? She's like, I mean if

1150
01:02:16,320 --> 01:02:19,160
Speaker 1: my mom like, was it labor a little a long time.

1151
01:02:19,360 --> 01:02:20,880
Speaker 1: It was interesting when we would do it on f

1152
01:02:21,040 --> 01:02:26,320
Speaker 1: Boy because sometimes well if they were even or a

1153
01:02:26,360 --> 01:02:28,960
Speaker 1: little bit lower, there was no way they were There

1154
01:02:29,000 --> 01:02:32,160
Speaker 1: was no jealousy. But if Casey walks in, everyone loses

1155
01:02:32,160 --> 01:02:36,080
Speaker 1: their goddamn shit. Yeah, I mean that was all about attractiveness,

1156
01:02:36,080 --> 01:02:41,240
Speaker 1: and that's these girls like yeah, and it doesn't matter

1157
01:02:41,280 --> 01:02:43,439
Speaker 1: if they're hot or not. Like new guys like new,

1158
01:02:44,040 --> 01:02:46,840
Speaker 1: and women are not that into new. I don't know

1159
01:02:46,920 --> 01:02:50,840
Speaker 1: if Tom Brady, like a month after divorcing Giselle, will

1160
01:02:50,880 --> 01:02:53,760
Speaker 1: be like I gotta fill in another woman. I would

1161
01:02:53,800 --> 01:02:55,840
Speaker 1: be interesting. It would be interesting to see who see

1162
01:02:55,880 --> 01:02:58,200
Speaker 1: him with people, But I think it'll be like Tiger Woods,

1163
01:02:58,560 --> 01:03:03,360
Speaker 1: you know, like we'll see him day eight. But it

1164
01:03:03,480 --> 01:03:05,439
Speaker 1: is weird to me that those two I always thought

1165
01:03:05,440 --> 01:03:10,280
Speaker 1: were just such an exemplary couple, but you yeah, but

1166
01:03:10,360 --> 01:03:12,520
Speaker 1: I just go because he met this woman that is

1167
01:03:12,600 --> 01:03:14,320
Speaker 1: so perfect for him and they are meant to be

1168
01:03:14,400 --> 01:03:17,760
Speaker 1: and they have this like blended family, and everything just

1169
01:03:17,800 --> 01:03:20,800
Speaker 1: seems so perfect. She's so supportive of him and he

1170
01:03:20,840 --> 01:03:24,360
Speaker 1: seems supportive. It just I know that everything is not perfect,

1171
01:03:24,480 --> 01:03:27,400
Speaker 1: but it looked perfect. And it's kind of interesting to

1172
01:03:27,440 --> 01:03:29,680
Speaker 1: me that they both get to go fund new people

1173
01:03:29,720 --> 01:03:31,640
Speaker 1: now and like fall in love again with a whole

1174
01:03:31,640 --> 01:03:34,320
Speaker 1: different person. We're gonna watch Giselle get married. It's going

1175
01:03:34,360 --> 01:03:36,760
Speaker 1: to be on People magazine. There's a guy out there

1176
01:03:36,800 --> 01:03:38,919
Speaker 1: that Gisele is going to be married to the rest

1177
01:03:38,960 --> 01:03:42,640
Speaker 1: of her Probably that would be awesome. Or what if

1178
01:03:42,680 --> 01:03:48,360
Speaker 1: Tom Brady dated Oh my god, I like the new

1179
01:03:48,360 --> 01:03:52,680
Speaker 1: Pete David Sintago Bell commercials. He's adorable. I love him too,

1180
01:03:52,800 --> 01:03:56,040
Speaker 1: Yeah he was, Yeah, it would be It's gonna be

1181
01:03:56,080 --> 01:03:58,680
Speaker 1: interesting to see who they date, if she date someone younger,

1182
01:03:58,760 --> 01:04:01,800
Speaker 1: he date someone younger, and how they get how it gets.

1183
01:04:01,880 --> 01:04:04,840
Speaker 1: Can you imagine getting married and being married for they've

1184
01:04:04,880 --> 01:04:09,040
Speaker 1: been married what twelve fifteen years, and thinking this is

1185
01:04:09,080 --> 01:04:12,520
Speaker 1: it forever? And then now being like I get to go.

1186
01:04:13,280 --> 01:04:16,000
Speaker 1: I mean, I know it's like tragic, but I just

1187
01:04:16,080 --> 01:04:18,880
Speaker 1: there's I don't know why I romanticize it so much,

1188
01:04:18,880 --> 01:04:21,360
Speaker 1: but I love older couples breaking up and being like

1189
01:04:21,600 --> 01:04:23,360
Speaker 1: this is fun for now, but now I'm gonna go

1190
01:04:23,400 --> 01:04:24,920
Speaker 1: fall in love with someone else, like I love on

1191
01:04:25,080 --> 01:04:29,360
Speaker 1: Dahmer His I think it's so cute how Dahmer's dad

1192
01:04:29,480 --> 01:04:33,560
Speaker 1: and the step mom, Molly Ringwald had this like youthful

1193
01:04:33,640 --> 01:04:36,480
Speaker 1: relationship of like love and compassion and they're like old

1194
01:04:36,480 --> 01:04:38,600
Speaker 1: as fuck. There's something so sweet about that because you

1195
01:04:38,640 --> 01:04:41,400
Speaker 1: never see that because by that age, it's just like

1196
01:04:41,440 --> 01:04:44,880
Speaker 1: they're not cute anymore. Sometimes you see all my grandma

1197
01:04:44,880 --> 01:04:48,200
Speaker 1: and grandpa still on TikTok, and it'll be like, look

1198
01:04:48,240 --> 01:04:51,480
Speaker 1: at my grandma and grandpa. They still love each other

1199
01:04:51,880 --> 01:04:54,400
Speaker 1: after all these years, and it's like them sitting on

1200
01:04:54,400 --> 01:04:56,800
Speaker 1: each other's lap, and you're like, oh, that's so sweet,

1201
01:04:56,840 --> 01:05:00,240
Speaker 1: and it's one in a million that that is still

1202
01:05:00,600 --> 01:05:02,560
Speaker 1: as cute as it was the day they got married.

1203
01:05:02,680 --> 01:05:06,400
Speaker 1: But isn't them. It's a step mom, right, So it's

1204
01:05:06,400 --> 01:05:08,240
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I like that. I like the idea

1205
01:05:08,320 --> 01:05:11,480
Speaker 1: that like old people, I don't think of relationships of failure.

1206
01:05:11,520 --> 01:05:14,640
Speaker 1: If you go, we did fifteen years that for this

1207
01:05:14,680 --> 01:05:16,840
Speaker 1: time in our life, it was good. But now I'm

1208
01:05:16,880 --> 01:05:19,480
Speaker 1: going to go meet someone new and have a new, whole,

1209
01:05:19,520 --> 01:05:21,960
Speaker 1: new life that I thought I would never have. I

1210
01:05:22,000 --> 01:05:24,560
Speaker 1: think there's something very exciting about that. I wonder if,

1211
01:05:24,640 --> 01:05:28,440
Speaker 1: like they're at the age two five, how old Jael

1212
01:05:28,600 --> 01:05:32,040
Speaker 1: similar age? Probably so. I mean they're young enough where

1213
01:05:32,040 --> 01:05:34,120
Speaker 1: they got a lot of fun. They are going to

1214
01:05:34,160 --> 01:05:37,520
Speaker 1: have great I can't wait to watch what happens with

1215
01:05:37,560 --> 01:05:40,840
Speaker 1: their relationships. He's gonna be dating Katie Holmes. She's gonna

1216
01:05:40,880 --> 01:05:45,800
Speaker 1: be dating the weekend. I mean, I guarantee you she

1217
01:05:45,920 --> 01:05:48,360
Speaker 1: will be dating the weekend. He dates everyone. If he

1218
01:05:48,440 --> 01:05:52,000
Speaker 1: becomes single, he might play until fifty five. He might

1219
01:05:52,040 --> 01:05:54,040
Speaker 1: just keep That might be the only thing that was

1220
01:05:54,120 --> 01:05:56,640
Speaker 1: keeping him from not playing, you know what I mean.

1221
01:05:56,800 --> 01:05:59,360
Speaker 1: I mean, he's having an okay year. It's so embarrassing

1222
01:05:59,640 --> 01:06:02,400
Speaker 1: to oh, really, so, how's it going to mean this year?

1223
01:06:02,840 --> 01:06:05,840
Speaker 1: It's not the things aren't lining up well. Like like

1224
01:06:06,000 --> 01:06:08,080
Speaker 1: if he was playing grade, he'd be like, yeah, you're

1225
01:06:08,120 --> 01:06:10,919
Speaker 1: it's good, leave Gisel. But he's playing just good enough

1226
01:06:10,960 --> 01:06:13,840
Speaker 1: where it's like maybe of quit, you know, that's the thing.

1227
01:06:14,160 --> 01:06:18,160
Speaker 1: I would you rather retire on top like Seinfeld style,

1228
01:06:18,400 --> 01:06:20,280
Speaker 1: or go out and play as long as you could

1229
01:06:20,320 --> 01:06:22,320
Speaker 1: and just always be remembered as a greade but kind

1230
01:06:22,320 --> 01:06:25,360
Speaker 1: of like fade out because I just watched Poole's last

1231
01:06:25,400 --> 01:06:28,200
Speaker 1: Game the other night, and I was just so intriguing

1232
01:06:28,240 --> 01:06:30,840
Speaker 1: to me that everyone was like, HiT's his last game,

1233
01:06:30,880 --> 01:06:33,000
Speaker 1: and I'm like, every single one of these players is

1234
01:06:33,000 --> 01:06:34,680
Speaker 1: going to have a last game, Like there's something so

1235
01:06:34,720 --> 01:06:36,720
Speaker 1: sad about that. It just reminds you of death. Kind

1236
01:06:36,760 --> 01:06:39,480
Speaker 1: of like there's gonna be a last for everything you do.

1237
01:06:39,520 --> 01:06:41,280
Speaker 1: There's gonna be a last podcast that we do. There's

1238
01:06:41,280 --> 01:06:43,360
Speaker 1: gonna be a last time that I go Hi Noah,

1239
01:06:43,480 --> 01:06:45,440
Speaker 1: There's gonna be a last time that I'm like by

1240
01:06:45,520 --> 01:06:48,440
Speaker 1: Andrew Sya tomorrow. There'll be a last time for everything

1241
01:06:48,480 --> 01:06:50,360
Speaker 1: in your life. It's a little sam herrisey that I'm

1242
01:06:50,360 --> 01:06:53,600
Speaker 1: getting into this, but that I think that I had

1243
01:06:53,600 --> 01:06:58,080
Speaker 1: a friend when I was depressed. Send me a uh

1244
01:06:58,200 --> 01:07:01,400
Speaker 1: ellenor Baker. She does. She's a producer on This American Life,

1245
01:07:01,400 --> 01:07:02,880
Speaker 1: and she sent me this piece that she had been

1246
01:07:02,880 --> 01:07:06,840
Speaker 1: working on that never aired about depression, and man, I

1247
01:07:06,840 --> 01:07:08,920
Speaker 1: wish it would have aired so badly, I'm like dying

1248
01:07:08,920 --> 01:07:10,360
Speaker 1: for her to put it out in some other way

1249
01:07:10,360 --> 01:07:12,720
Speaker 1: because it was so helpful. I was kind of like,

1250
01:07:13,320 --> 01:07:15,120
Speaker 1: I don't need this, right and I'm depressed. I don't

1251
01:07:15,120 --> 01:07:17,040
Speaker 1: want something that's going to help me. That's like the

1252
01:07:17,120 --> 01:07:19,680
Speaker 1: last thing I need. And it was during my quiet time,

1253
01:07:22,480 --> 01:07:24,560
Speaker 1: the last last thing that's going to help me when

1254
01:07:24,600 --> 01:07:29,240
Speaker 1: I'm depressed. Well, if he's depression, no, I get it.

1255
01:07:29,280 --> 01:07:34,480
Speaker 1: I get that you don't want the block does not

1256
01:07:34,720 --> 01:07:36,560
Speaker 1: seem like it's going to do anything. Making your bed

1257
01:07:36,600 --> 01:07:38,920
Speaker 1: doesn't seem like taking a shower, adult seems like just

1258
01:07:38,960 --> 01:07:40,800
Speaker 1: shut up and let me just die in here. But

1259
01:07:42,480 --> 01:07:47,480
Speaker 1: it was about how we are constantly suffering grief in

1260
01:07:47,520 --> 01:07:49,560
Speaker 1: our lives, whether it's the end of a relationship, whether

1261
01:07:49,640 --> 01:07:51,520
Speaker 1: it's a job that you thought you were going to

1262
01:07:51,640 --> 01:07:54,040
Speaker 1: get and even imagined having that job and you didn't

1263
01:07:54,080 --> 01:07:56,480
Speaker 1: get that job, a job that ended that you did have,

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Speaker 1: Like we're constantly having these many deaths and we don't

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Speaker 1: don't have any kind of mourning period, and in fact,

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Speaker 1: we don't really even have a morning period for actual deaths,

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Speaker 1: Like we have a funeral and we have awake and

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Speaker 1: then it's done. And a lot of times it's like

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Speaker 1: back to work, back to normal, and you know, they

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Speaker 1: a psychiatrist and her piece says that the in Judaism,

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Speaker 1: it's like the only culture that actually, you know, the

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Speaker 1: only modern culture that we actually talk about. And you know,

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Speaker 1: there's there's probably other tribes that do longer mourning processes,

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Speaker 1: process cross seas processes. I don't know, but that you

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Speaker 1: guys do Shiva and and I didn't know this. There

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Speaker 1: is like a song that is played maybe on Friday

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Speaker 1: in church whatever it is that is so um joyous

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Speaker 1: that people that are in mourning are kept outside of

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Speaker 1: the temple so that because it seems it's too happy

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Speaker 1: for them because they're still in mourning. So for a

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Speaker 1: month after their loved one past says, they wait outside

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Speaker 1: stumble and then people come out to go get them

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01:09:03,680 --> 01:09:07,120
Speaker 1: because they're being respectable, like we don't expect you to

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Speaker 1: get on board, and we like and I love that.

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Speaker 1: I love that, like you're able to time to and

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01:09:14,720 --> 01:09:17,080
Speaker 1: no one's forcing you, like come on sing happy birthday.

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Speaker 1: It's like, no, I don't want to because that's actually

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Speaker 1: not honoring my sadness. Like like and I think that, yeah,

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Speaker 1: I listened to Sam Harrits where he was talking about

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Speaker 1: like how long should you mourn? Like you could mourn

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Speaker 1: too long, right, like you could allow it to completely

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Speaker 1: take over you. Is that the one you were a

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Speaker 1: month ago? But it was just about how we don't

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Speaker 1: acknowledge like when we're all sometimes, you know, even me,

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Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm away a week away from my periods,

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Speaker 1: like or maybe I'm mourning the loss of a life

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Speaker 1: that I just had where I had some time off

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Speaker 1: and now I'm getting back to work and I'm literally

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Speaker 1: as dumb as that sounds, suffering a little mini death

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Speaker 1: of like this life that was pretty fucking good and

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Speaker 1: allowed me to breathe for once in my life, and

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Speaker 1: I'm mourning that. Maybe I'm mourning the like I'm moving

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Speaker 1: to l A for a little bit. So I'm like,

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Speaker 1: I'm mourning leaving St. Louis. I'm you know, my dog

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01:10:10,280 --> 01:10:12,320
Speaker 1: doesn't really like being around me anymore. I tried to

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Speaker 1: take him home the other day and he like looked

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Speaker 1: at my parents house like I want to go back,

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Speaker 1: and I was just like, go back then, and I

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Speaker 1: just opened the car door and he went sprinting back,

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Speaker 1: like the all these little things that I think, you know,

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Speaker 1: maybe that's it. So it's just I think it's interesting

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Speaker 1: to pay attention to things in your life. Is like,

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Speaker 1: I think it's hard when you go when someone goes, well,

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Speaker 1: you know, with every with every end, there's a new beginning.

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Speaker 1: But that new beginning it's not going to compete with

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Speaker 1: being an NFL quarterback. I don't care what you say,

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Speaker 1: you know what I mean, like, I think maybe it

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Speaker 1: maybe it will. And people say, you but die peacefully

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01:10:46,800 --> 01:10:49,160
Speaker 1: in your sleep like people that have a witnessed death.

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Speaker 1: It's like you're like gagging on blood and you don't

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Speaker 1: like it's not fun. Well do you think if you

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Speaker 1: ask Seinfeld, you go this comedian cars getting coffee's full

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Speaker 1: as Seinfeld, does it fill you as much? Maybe? I

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Speaker 1: bet it does, but he does curb. Yeah, no, that's

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Speaker 1: what I'm saying, Like he was able to fill it

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Speaker 1: with that. I mean, you know, who knows? You know

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Speaker 1: all they all exist in another podcast because we gotta

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Speaker 1: go on this one. Thank you guys so much for listening.

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Speaker 1: But it's my birthday and six months isn't really sick? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: it's probably six months exactly. No one's counting except you're

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Speaker 1: forty two and a half today, is that right? Just

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Speaker 1: a number that's big. I'm going to particular thank you

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Speaker 1: for listening. Don't be ed Jack, Jason um Jackson, Andrew Brown,