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Speaker 1: The Nikki Podcast. Here's Nikki. Hello here I am. Happy

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Speaker 1: New Year everyone. Um, it's been a while. It's been

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Speaker 1: so long. I forgot I had a podcast. Wow, since

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Speaker 1: I have recorded a podcast with my friends, It's been

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Speaker 1: a while since I've talked to Andrew. I mean, honestly,

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Speaker 1: Noah and I usually text and Um, that's how we

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Speaker 1: stay in touch when we're not doing the podcast, and

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Speaker 1: sometimes we talk, but mostly it's text. And Andrew, I,

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Speaker 1: you know, when we're not doing the podcast, I live

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Speaker 1: with you, and I'm traveling with you, and we're constantly

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Speaker 1: in communication. I have not talked to you at all

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Speaker 1: at silence, pretty much radio silence. Yeah. I mean maybe

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Speaker 1: we've sent each other there one text every five days

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Speaker 1: or something. Um, and I haven't seen you since before Christmas.

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Speaker 1: I saw you in between me seeing Brennan's parents and

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Speaker 1: then me going to Florida. We had a little bit

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Speaker 1: of a yeah, like an hour of a hang. So, um,

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Speaker 1: it's it's been a while. Um, I'm in Los Angeles,

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Speaker 1: Andrew is in St. Louis. Yeah, it's been a while.

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Speaker 1: Uh malaho, mahllo, fuck mahallow is, thank you. Bill Maher

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Speaker 1: had a joke I was with Bill maher in Bill

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Speaker 1: Mahallow maharow uh in Hawaii, and he had a good

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Speaker 1: joke that was like, Aloha in Hawaii is hello or goodbye,

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Speaker 1: and mahallow in Hawaii is thank you or fuck you? Like,

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Speaker 1: all right, let's get into Hawaii, shall we? Why why

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Speaker 1: don't we do like each get to ask burning desire

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Speaker 1: questions for each other about each other's I have so

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Speaker 1: much ship that happened, it's like wild, like I don't

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Speaker 1: even know where to start. But okay, wait, why don't

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Speaker 1: we just why don't we do instead of questions? Why

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Speaker 1: don't we do the top three things of note each

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Speaker 1: of us? And that includes you know, uh, because I'm

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Speaker 1: not just you you out you were living life too, Okay,

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Speaker 1: so let's go round robin the top three. No bottom three? No, uh,

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Speaker 1: we we gotta do. Let's do the top one bottom

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Speaker 1: one vacation. That'll get us into it. No, no, no,

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Speaker 1: top one, bottom one vacation. And we're doing this just

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Speaker 1: on the fly. Let's start we always start with bottom. Um.

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Speaker 1: I hate to start on a negative note for the

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Speaker 1: new year, but it feels like, you know we're gonna

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Speaker 1: end on a positive. So we're starting We're really starting

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Speaker 1: off on on a good one. It is. I'm feeling

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Speaker 1: twenty two and a half feeling. I've been listening a

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Speaker 1: lot of Taylor. I can't escape Taylor, by the way,

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Speaker 1: because Brenna's a fucking tailor head. But that's not my

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Speaker 1: bottom Okay, well hold on know that before we get

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Speaker 1: to the top one bottom one. Now I'm getting distracted

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Speaker 1: because you brend Taylor and I can't. I can't just

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Speaker 1: let that slide. What song is now in your head? Mostly?

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Speaker 1: What's one? Are you really feeling right now? Because like

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Speaker 1: most Taylor swift heads, And by the way, I've done

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Speaker 1: a lot of Swifty concerts over the break with my dad,

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Speaker 1: and then I took a hiatus, and then yesterday I

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Speaker 1: went live on our Instagram and had a little fun

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Speaker 1: and a lot of comments saying like I wasn't a

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Speaker 1: Swifty until you, Nikki, thank you for getting me into her. Um.

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Speaker 1: I want to just warn you if you're breaking into Swifty,

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Speaker 1: if you're becoming a new Swifty, you're going to have

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Speaker 1: romances with different songs that you hear upon first listening,

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Speaker 1: you go, I'm never even gonna care about the song,

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Speaker 1: and then all of a sudden one day it hits

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Speaker 1: my favorite song. So uh. The other day, Chris my

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Speaker 1: lover was like, um, he put so nice puts on

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Speaker 1: Like if I'm in a bad mood, I'll just put

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Speaker 1: it on. You do that to to Andrew. Every one

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Speaker 1: do that. And he was like, he has some favorite

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Speaker 1: kind of a it's a fucking great album and he's

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Speaker 1: really into a couple of songs. I'm like, oh my god,

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Speaker 1: So um, not being said, Andrew, what is your new

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Speaker 1: The one that I've heard a lot is Dorothea Dorothy? Yes,

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Speaker 1: hey Dorothy, do you ever stop and think about me?

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Speaker 1: Do you know what's about Selena Gomez? Allegedly it's weird

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Speaker 1: because Brennan says when she hears that song, she thinks

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Speaker 1: of me, so maybe my kidneys are failing. Dorothy. Uh,

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Speaker 1: like it's not really it's like, sorry, Dorothea. Is Dorothea

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Speaker 1: sorry forgot about that name. Doth? Oh my god, he's

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Speaker 1: so cute. Noah. A million people died in nine eleven. Um,

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Speaker 1: I just thought Drew Dorothea, I don't know you're not.

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Speaker 1: You're not wrong, and sometimes it is like that weird

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Speaker 1: a great song. It's on uh for Nicky is Dave right?

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Speaker 1: You're right? That is the original um. It's the Gaelic

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Speaker 1: uh version of of nicole Um Andrew. So do Okay,

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Speaker 1: you're listening to Dorothya a lot. Okay, tell me your

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Speaker 1: trip that you know you can you can? Oh, okay,

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Speaker 1: we can start. No, are you ready to carry this

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Speaker 1: heavy heaviness? I think so? I'm pretty sure. Okay, Brennan,

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Speaker 1: I saw a man die on New Year's and it

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Speaker 1: wasn't even dark yet. Okay. So, well, I do know

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Speaker 1: that you on Instagram had said that you I read

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Speaker 1: it like you know one PM my time, Hawaii, that

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Speaker 1: So we were in West Palm Beach to Taylor Swift.

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Speaker 1: I'm just kidding. I'm sorry, Okay. So we're listening to

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Speaker 1: just it's New Year's Eve. We were just gonna like

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Speaker 1: oh to lose him, Yeah, we just lost him. While

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Speaker 1: What do you think they saw? How do you think

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Speaker 1: saw someone get shot in the face. I hope not.

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Speaker 1: traumasized me. Oh wait, when you really want the story, Yeah,

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Speaker 1: a story for another time. Twice. Actually, I've hit a

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Speaker 1: so funny. That's so funny, and it reminds me of

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Speaker 1: your friend Diamond Diamond. It's the same joke. I thought

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Speaker 1: and he said, if you hit a man with your car,

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Speaker 1: bills his whole life. Yes, you might as well. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: probably on this podcast. But okay, Andrew, we took guesses

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Speaker 1: as to what. Um, I'm sorry, not what happened to you.

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Speaker 1: We're guessing how the man died. Uh. Noah said a

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Speaker 1: heart attack. I said, Branda probably wouldn't have thrown up

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Speaker 1: from single heart attack. I think shot in the face

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Speaker 1: because you had made a joke about listening to Taylor

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Speaker 1: I'm guessing you just went with the thing that actually happened.

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Speaker 1: So uh Am, I correct because I believe Noah, just

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Speaker 1: there's no way that that that one is. I love

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Speaker 1: my creativity knows, uh Am, I right, No, damn it. Okay, No,

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Speaker 1: I actually don't think you're creative. Shot in the face twice?

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Speaker 1: Oh God, diamond, diamond, um a million people, I love. Okay,

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Speaker 1: when what happened, Dorothea? Um, So this is what happened.

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Speaker 1: So I went to I took Brendan to the bar

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Speaker 1: um talking about what's wrong because if you talk about

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00:25:43,320 --> 00:25:46,080
Speaker 1: what's wrong, you get closer to someone. And avoidance biggest

423
00:25:46,119 --> 00:25:49,719
Speaker 1: fear is intimacy, and so they avoid addressing the issue

424
00:25:50,320 --> 00:25:52,680
Speaker 1: and I do not do that. And so I was like, okay, good,

425
00:25:52,720 --> 00:25:54,720
Speaker 1: I don't have that avoided quality. Does any of this

426
00:25:54,880 --> 00:25:59,440
Speaker 1: make sense? Is the avoidant person doing it to protect

427
00:25:59,760 --> 00:26:05,879
Speaker 1: themselves or the other person themselves? Yeah, because they're scared

428
00:26:05,960 --> 00:26:09,880
Speaker 1: avoidance are scared of intimacy and they want any kind

429
00:26:09,920 --> 00:26:14,040
Speaker 1: of and and being and losing their independence and feeling

430
00:26:14,080 --> 00:26:17,679
Speaker 1: like they gonna they're gonna be beholden to someone and

431
00:26:17,920 --> 00:26:19,960
Speaker 1: they're not going to get alone time and all these things,

432
00:26:19,960 --> 00:26:21,959
Speaker 1: like they think that a relationship is going to just

433
00:26:22,320 --> 00:26:25,760
Speaker 1: strip them of their independence and their autonomy. And they

434
00:26:25,800 --> 00:26:28,600
Speaker 1: also have a think thing where they think that there's

435
00:26:29,040 --> 00:26:31,160
Speaker 1: better people out there, they just haven't met them yet,

436
00:26:31,560 --> 00:26:34,960
Speaker 1: and they glamorize everyone they haven't met, and they also

437
00:26:35,480 --> 00:26:37,320
Speaker 1: focus on the next Like when they're in a negative

438
00:26:37,320 --> 00:26:39,359
Speaker 1: place with their partner, they can't remember any of the good.

439
00:26:40,160 --> 00:26:44,280
Speaker 1: It's like they just rearrange their mind so that the

440
00:26:44,320 --> 00:26:46,840
Speaker 1: person there with that is needing them too much. The

441
00:26:46,840 --> 00:26:49,440
Speaker 1: anxious person who is it is coming on too strong

442
00:26:49,480 --> 00:26:52,960
Speaker 1: because they're anxious attached. And the only way anxious attach

443
00:26:53,080 --> 00:26:56,160
Speaker 1: people feel better is if the avoidant person makes them

444
00:26:56,240 --> 00:27:00,679
Speaker 1: feel better by like being is if someone secure go listen,

445
00:27:01,400 --> 00:27:03,480
Speaker 1: I hear you're anxious, but this is the truth of

446
00:27:03,520 --> 00:27:07,399
Speaker 1: the better and I'm I'm with you. Don't worry and

447
00:27:07,520 --> 00:27:09,600
Speaker 1: avoid that. People cannot do that and won't do that,

448
00:27:09,640 --> 00:27:12,240
Speaker 1: so the anxious attach never gets to feel better and

449
00:27:12,400 --> 00:27:14,280
Speaker 1: is always going to be more anxious and the and

450
00:27:14,320 --> 00:27:17,000
Speaker 1: it's gonna explode and then they break up, and then

451
00:27:17,040 --> 00:27:19,960
Speaker 1: they always come back together because they need each other

452
00:27:20,080 --> 00:27:24,639
Speaker 1: to validate their internalized views of themselves, which is I

453
00:27:24,960 --> 00:27:27,960
Speaker 1: avoid it. People need a needy person to validate that

454
00:27:28,000 --> 00:27:31,800
Speaker 1: the world is against them and wants them to, um

455
00:27:31,920 --> 00:27:34,199
Speaker 1: you know, wants to take from them, wants them to

456
00:27:34,280 --> 00:27:38,120
Speaker 1: be theirs, wants to capture them. And needy people need

457
00:27:38,200 --> 00:27:41,120
Speaker 1: someone who is avoiding them to validate their belief that

458
00:27:41,160 --> 00:27:44,200
Speaker 1: they are unlovable, so they'll always come back together. It's

459
00:27:44,240 --> 00:27:46,919
Speaker 1: such a fucking it's uh. It's also the book I

460
00:27:46,920 --> 00:27:50,040
Speaker 1: was reading called The Human Magnet Syndrome about narcissist and codependence,

461
00:27:50,080 --> 00:27:54,240
Speaker 1: which is, I guess another way of saying avoidant and um,

462
00:27:54,400 --> 00:27:58,560
Speaker 1: you know, anxious. But anyway, UM, my bottom was that

463
00:27:59,080 --> 00:28:01,520
Speaker 1: uh monologue, I just went on mind. No, my bottom

464
00:28:01,520 --> 00:28:06,920
Speaker 1: moment was I got my first U T I over

465
00:28:07,040 --> 00:28:11,560
Speaker 1: the trip, Thank you. I'm a real woman now, Um yeah,

466
00:28:11,640 --> 00:28:15,879
Speaker 1: I got. I was very constipated the whole trip. I

467
00:28:16,000 --> 00:28:19,199
Speaker 1: literally did not poop for like five days, and we

468
00:28:19,200 --> 00:28:22,679
Speaker 1: were eating like these rich, thick gourmet meals and I

469
00:28:22,720 --> 00:28:27,440
Speaker 1: was just like just weighed down by like oil soaked veggies,

470
00:28:28,040 --> 00:28:31,359
Speaker 1: and I was looking at pictures of myself on like

471
00:28:32,880 --> 00:28:37,320
Speaker 1: on the dinner before New Year's on and we Bill

472
00:28:37,680 --> 00:28:42,760
Speaker 1: mar and I and Chris read Kid Kid of Kids

473
00:28:42,800 --> 00:28:46,040
Speaker 1: and play took a picture and I looked pregnant and

474
00:28:46,080 --> 00:28:47,520
Speaker 1: all the photos and I was sucking it as much

475
00:28:47,520 --> 00:28:49,360
Speaker 1: as possible, and I was like, what is going on?

476
00:28:49,440 --> 00:28:51,720
Speaker 1: I was like, Oh my god, I am so constuppated.

477
00:28:51,760 --> 00:28:53,360
Speaker 1: And I don't know if the constipation led to the

478
00:28:53,440 --> 00:28:55,440
Speaker 1: U T I or the ut I caused the consumpation,

479
00:28:55,520 --> 00:28:59,560
Speaker 1: but um, no, have you ever heard of U T I? Yeah?

480
00:28:59,560 --> 00:29:02,120
Speaker 1: I have. Um does it feel like you need to

481
00:29:02,120 --> 00:29:05,880
Speaker 1: ship out of your vagina and you can't? Yes, like

482
00:29:05,920 --> 00:29:08,400
Speaker 1: a constant burning pressure. That's what I and I have

483
00:29:08,640 --> 00:29:16,480
Speaker 1: leading too. Yes. And I was pissing blood clots, Yeah,

484
00:29:16,600 --> 00:29:20,880
Speaker 1: that's what it is, like like I thought. I literally

485
00:29:20,880 --> 00:29:22,600
Speaker 1: was wiping and I saw blood and I'm like, is

486
00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:25,000
Speaker 1: this coming from my asshole? Because I've never blood from

487
00:29:25,000 --> 00:29:27,120
Speaker 1: my like pe Like, it didn't make sense that this

488
00:29:27,120 --> 00:29:28,680
Speaker 1: blood could be coming from anywhere else. Because I was

489
00:29:28,720 --> 00:29:31,040
Speaker 1: like digging up my vage hole to see if it

490
00:29:31,080 --> 00:29:33,520
Speaker 1: was like period blood and it wasn't. And I'm like,

491
00:29:34,160 --> 00:29:36,080
Speaker 1: am I it's from my ass. And then I'm like,

492
00:29:36,200 --> 00:29:39,080
Speaker 1: but nothing's coming out of there. I was pissing out

493
00:29:39,080 --> 00:29:42,640
Speaker 1: of my tiny pea hole tissue, blood tissue. It looked

494
00:29:42,680 --> 00:29:47,800
Speaker 1: like I was like having a miscarriage out of my vagina. Discharge.

495
00:29:48,000 --> 00:29:51,080
Speaker 1: Did you have any discharge? It was just like pa,

496
00:29:51,160 --> 00:29:55,440
Speaker 1: You're like, my PA was bloody and like not like

497
00:29:55,480 --> 00:29:59,080
Speaker 1: I ate beats, but like blood and um. I was

498
00:29:59,160 --> 00:30:01,920
Speaker 1: just so, what did you do? I Well, the thing

499
00:30:01,960 --> 00:30:03,600
Speaker 1: was it would only flare up at night and then

500
00:30:03,640 --> 00:30:06,000
Speaker 1: I would just like cry and like be like oh,

501
00:30:06,040 --> 00:30:07,200
Speaker 1: and then I would wake up in the morning and

502
00:30:07,200 --> 00:30:09,600
Speaker 1: everything would be fine, and then I would still not

503
00:30:09,640 --> 00:30:11,280
Speaker 1: be shipping, but I would be like, oh, it would

504
00:30:11,320 --> 00:30:12,920
Speaker 1: be and then at night I would flare up again,

505
00:30:13,240 --> 00:30:15,280
Speaker 1: and then it I felt like it went away. And

506
00:30:15,320 --> 00:30:17,640
Speaker 1: my friend Corey that I met on the trip was like, bitch,

507
00:30:17,760 --> 00:30:19,920
Speaker 1: it does not go away, Like there's no way, and

508
00:30:19,920 --> 00:30:22,560
Speaker 1: I'm like, yeah, my buddy just healed it out. And

509
00:30:22,600 --> 00:30:25,000
Speaker 1: then I came back to l A and I finally

510
00:30:25,040 --> 00:30:28,240
Speaker 1: got to poop, and I felt so much relief. And

511
00:30:28,280 --> 00:30:31,440
Speaker 1: then I went to six Flags the other day and

512
00:30:31,560 --> 00:30:33,160
Speaker 1: I went with my friend Corey that I met on

513
00:30:33,160 --> 00:30:35,640
Speaker 1: the trip and Chris and Carlisle and her boyfriend Chase,

514
00:30:35,680 --> 00:30:37,880
Speaker 1: and I was like, I don't know what to do.

515
00:30:37,920 --> 00:30:39,800
Speaker 1: And she's like, dude, go to an urgent care or

516
00:30:39,880 --> 00:30:41,920
Speaker 1: just call, like email your doctor. Do you have a doctor.

517
00:30:41,960 --> 00:30:43,600
Speaker 1: I'm like I think so, And so I emailed my

518
00:30:43,640 --> 00:30:45,040
Speaker 1: doctor was like, I have a U t I it's

519
00:30:45,080 --> 00:30:48,160
Speaker 1: my first one. I'm like, there's like bloody tissue coming

520
00:30:48,160 --> 00:30:50,720
Speaker 1: out of my pus and she was like, oh, I'll

521
00:30:50,720 --> 00:30:52,560
Speaker 1: just get you some. So now I'm on anti biox.

522
00:30:52,560 --> 00:30:54,280
Speaker 1: I've been I've taken. I've been on him for two

523
00:30:54,320 --> 00:30:56,720
Speaker 1: days and it's it's it was gone after the first pill,

524
00:30:56,840 --> 00:31:00,000
Speaker 1: like it's it's fine now. But I got to finish them,

525
00:31:00,040 --> 00:31:05,120
Speaker 1: you know. So that's that's the worst. That sounds pretty

526
00:31:05,120 --> 00:31:07,000
Speaker 1: bad because I had been like a swimsuit and I'm

527
00:31:07,040 --> 00:31:12,200
Speaker 1: just like, have so much like being constipated. It sucks

528
00:31:12,240 --> 00:31:16,040
Speaker 1: so much. But thank God for the fact that I

529
00:31:16,800 --> 00:31:19,480
Speaker 1: so on this trip. I was with my lover and

530
00:31:19,720 --> 00:31:23,000
Speaker 1: we enjoy a type of sex that I need to have,

531
00:31:23,560 --> 00:31:28,200
Speaker 1: you know, a douche for and uh, I forgot it.

532
00:31:28,320 --> 00:31:31,160
Speaker 1: I brought all my toys, but I forgot my douche.

533
00:31:31,200 --> 00:31:32,960
Speaker 1: And I'm like fuck, Like, I can't have anal sex

534
00:31:33,040 --> 00:31:35,160
Speaker 1: if I don't have that thing. And so right before

535
00:31:35,160 --> 00:31:36,240
Speaker 1: we left for the trip, we were in l A

536
00:31:36,320 --> 00:31:38,600
Speaker 1: for a couple of days. The morning of we walked

537
00:31:38,600 --> 00:31:41,040
Speaker 1: over to the Hustler store and bought like this, anal

538
00:31:41,080 --> 00:31:44,959
Speaker 1: douche kit, and thank god I fucking had that because

539
00:31:45,480 --> 00:31:48,239
Speaker 1: I was in such pain I couldn't poop. I did.

540
00:31:48,960 --> 00:31:50,960
Speaker 1: We just didn't ever go to the pharmacy or anything.

541
00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:52,680
Speaker 1: And I was like, it's just gonna it's gonna come

542
00:31:52,720 --> 00:31:56,280
Speaker 1: as soon as I get on like you know America,

543
00:31:56,360 --> 00:32:02,200
Speaker 1: like you know, uh, the Contiguous Unit States soil. Yeah,

544
00:32:02,600 --> 00:32:05,320
Speaker 1: and it didn't. And then I was like, in the

545
00:32:05,320 --> 00:32:07,520
Speaker 1: middle of the night one night, I was like, maybe

546
00:32:07,560 --> 00:32:09,640
Speaker 1: if I because I know that when I used that,

547
00:32:09,880 --> 00:32:11,480
Speaker 1: I can get everything out. And I was like, what

548
00:32:11,520 --> 00:32:14,040
Speaker 1: if I did this, And oh my god, it's saved

549
00:32:14,040 --> 00:32:17,560
Speaker 1: my life. If I wasn't so good at it, I

550
00:32:17,560 --> 00:32:19,240
Speaker 1: would have never attempted to do that. I would have

551
00:32:19,280 --> 00:32:21,280
Speaker 1: just been in pain and waited for like a laxative

552
00:32:21,280 --> 00:32:22,960
Speaker 1: to run through my system, which would have been running

553
00:32:22,960 --> 00:32:26,160
Speaker 1: and discussing. Instead, I just squirted water up there for like,

554
00:32:26,280 --> 00:32:28,360
Speaker 1: you know, twenty minutes and got everything out and I

555
00:32:28,400 --> 00:32:31,560
Speaker 1: was like, I'm a new woman. God, it was amazing.

556
00:32:31,720 --> 00:32:35,480
Speaker 1: Being consummated sucks. You feel like a there's like a

557
00:32:35,680 --> 00:32:41,160
Speaker 1: fucking you know, uh, what's it called a compost pile

558
00:32:41,360 --> 00:32:43,960
Speaker 1: in your Like it just feels like thick, like there's

559
00:32:43,960 --> 00:32:48,280
Speaker 1: a corpse of Like yeah, there's like a landfill of

560
00:32:48,280 --> 00:32:50,520
Speaker 1: poop in you. It's so close. I feel like I

561
00:32:50,520 --> 00:32:56,600
Speaker 1: think when Johnny Cash John when John Wayne was dissected

562
00:32:56,680 --> 00:32:58,960
Speaker 1: or like autopsy, they found him like sixty pounds of

563
00:32:59,000 --> 00:33:03,560
Speaker 1: like uh ship in his colon, like sixty pounds of

564
00:33:03,600 --> 00:33:09,640
Speaker 1: compacted And I felt like, john Wayne make my day. Okay.

565
00:33:09,720 --> 00:33:15,880
Speaker 1: So andrew top top break moment um I had. I

566
00:33:15,920 --> 00:33:19,200
Speaker 1: had a good amount of tops. Uh. I would say

567
00:33:19,240 --> 00:33:22,880
Speaker 1: moving in with with Brenna now has been a top.

568
00:33:22,960 --> 00:33:26,600
Speaker 1: But one of the tops that was kind of sad too.

569
00:33:27,280 --> 00:33:30,840
Speaker 1: Um My mom was in the hospital the whole time

570
00:33:30,880 --> 00:33:35,080
Speaker 1: we were in Florida with um a U t I Uh.

571
00:33:35,200 --> 00:33:37,880
Speaker 1: She was fucking a lot. No no, no, she she

572
00:33:38,000 --> 00:33:40,960
Speaker 1: has co op D and she had a flare up

573
00:33:40,960 --> 00:33:45,840
Speaker 1: with her lungs. So she uh went to the emergency

574
00:33:45,920 --> 00:33:48,560
Speaker 1: room the night before we went down to Florida. So

575
00:33:48,680 --> 00:33:53,360
Speaker 1: the whole time she's in the hospital. There's a lot

576
00:33:53,440 --> 00:33:56,320
Speaker 1: of other drama that like went down with my dad whatever,

577
00:33:56,560 --> 00:33:58,080
Speaker 1: but we don't have to get into that. My mom

578
00:33:58,120 --> 00:34:02,280
Speaker 1: eventually gets out of the hospital the day before, two

579
00:34:02,360 --> 00:34:04,800
Speaker 1: nights before we leave, so like five nights into trop

580
00:34:06,880 --> 00:34:10,879
Speaker 1: she got out. She broke out. They were like, ma'am,

581
00:34:10,960 --> 00:34:14,240
Speaker 1: you need your oxygen. She's like, I'm sucking. She starts skipping.

582
00:34:14,280 --> 00:34:17,160
Speaker 1: I don't know. She was excited to see me. Um,

583
00:34:17,239 --> 00:34:19,399
Speaker 1: so did you go visit her or no. I did

584
00:34:19,520 --> 00:34:22,359
Speaker 1: visit her with my little brother, and it was an

585
00:34:22,360 --> 00:34:26,520
Speaker 1: interesting visit because my mom's on steroids, like a preda

586
00:34:26,600 --> 00:34:29,799
Speaker 1: zone or something, so it's like, I don't know, I

587
00:34:29,800 --> 00:34:32,239
Speaker 1: just found it weird that, like steroids is for a

588
00:34:32,239 --> 00:34:34,160
Speaker 1: guy to hit an eight hundred foot home run or

589
00:34:34,200 --> 00:34:36,560
Speaker 1: to have my mom eat a sandwich, Like I just

590
00:34:36,600 --> 00:34:39,000
Speaker 1: find it like those are like the two things. And

591
00:34:39,080 --> 00:34:47,120
Speaker 1: my mom was like sitting there like she's she's amped,

592
00:34:47,280 --> 00:34:49,440
Speaker 1: but she also has no energy, so it's like a

593
00:34:50,239 --> 00:34:54,840
Speaker 1: so she's like talking, but she's also like like barely breathing,

594
00:34:54,920 --> 00:34:57,640
Speaker 1: so it's like but she has energy to talk, so

595
00:34:57,680 --> 00:35:01,319
Speaker 1: she honestly, she sounded like the Godfather her like like

596
00:35:01,640 --> 00:35:04,840
Speaker 1: pay men like that, like that was the vibe and

597
00:35:04,880 --> 00:35:07,160
Speaker 1: she was sitting in a chair like it was it was.

598
00:35:07,800 --> 00:35:11,440
Speaker 1: It was interesting. Whatever. So we go to the hospital,

599
00:35:11,480 --> 00:35:14,359
Speaker 1: me my little brother because of COVID it was hard

600
00:35:14,400 --> 00:35:17,560
Speaker 1: to like get in there. Um. So she eventually gets

601
00:35:17,600 --> 00:35:21,760
Speaker 1: out of the hospital and um, I want to introduce

602
00:35:21,800 --> 00:35:25,400
Speaker 1: her to Brenna, but I have to go to a

603
00:35:25,440 --> 00:35:27,319
Speaker 1: hockey game that night with my dad and I don't

604
00:35:27,320 --> 00:35:31,520
Speaker 1: want Brenna to meet my mom without me for the

605
00:35:31,560 --> 00:35:35,040
Speaker 1: first time. So that was the whole thing about whether

606
00:35:35,160 --> 00:35:36,839
Speaker 1: or not I should go to the hockey game or whatever.

607
00:35:36,880 --> 00:35:39,359
Speaker 1: So any long story short, Sorry, my mom gets out

608
00:35:39,840 --> 00:35:42,920
Speaker 1: the hockey game. I did, but Brenda didn't mean I

609
00:35:42,960 --> 00:35:45,239
Speaker 1: went and saw my mom Brenna. I was like, look,

610
00:35:45,280 --> 00:35:47,680
Speaker 1: she'll meet you tomorrow. We could wait a day. So

611
00:35:47,719 --> 00:35:52,640
Speaker 1: did Brenna just stay in her room? Yeah? Huh. Your

612
00:35:52,640 --> 00:35:55,120
Speaker 1: mom came home and Brenna just didn't come to meet

613
00:35:55,120 --> 00:35:57,479
Speaker 1: her because she just didn't want to, like I would

614
00:35:57,520 --> 00:36:00,839
Speaker 1: have to like leave her there without I don't know.

615
00:36:00,840 --> 00:36:03,400
Speaker 1: It was it's kind of awkward to meet someone's parents without.

616
00:36:03,880 --> 00:36:05,960
Speaker 1: But where was anyone there? Or was your mom just

617
00:36:06,000 --> 00:36:09,680
Speaker 1: there alone? No? My brother, and it was. It was

618
00:36:09,719 --> 00:36:14,440
Speaker 1: a weird thing. It was a weird situation, but so

619
00:36:14,880 --> 00:36:18,160
Speaker 1: which led to a fight about over GPS, which wasn't

620
00:36:18,160 --> 00:36:22,239
Speaker 1: about GPS. That's a whole another thing. I love. Yeah,

621
00:36:22,239 --> 00:36:25,200
Speaker 1: that's another thing, and attached is like couples get in

622
00:36:25,280 --> 00:36:28,359
Speaker 1: fights and it's never about what the thing is. It's

623
00:36:28,520 --> 00:36:31,200
Speaker 1: so funny. I asked her where Walgreens was, and she

624
00:36:31,280 --> 00:36:33,080
Speaker 1: put it in her phone and it was like two

625
00:36:33,080 --> 00:36:35,400
Speaker 1: point eight miles and then I realized, wait, I know

626
00:36:35,440 --> 00:36:38,400
Speaker 1: where a fucking Walgreens is from my brain. But she's like,

627
00:36:38,440 --> 00:36:39,840
Speaker 1: let's just go to that one. And I was like, well,

628
00:36:39,920 --> 00:36:42,319
Speaker 1: let's just use my brain. She's like, well, that's only

629
00:36:42,360 --> 00:36:44,480
Speaker 1: a mile farther, and I was like, well, why does

630
00:36:44,719 --> 00:36:47,319
Speaker 1: can I use my brain? Like that was but the

631
00:36:47,360 --> 00:36:49,040
Speaker 1: fight was over whether or not I should go to

632
00:36:49,040 --> 00:36:52,719
Speaker 1: the hockey game room. And you wanted to use your brain, yeah,

633
00:36:52,800 --> 00:36:54,839
Speaker 1: and you weren't when you went to the hockey game

634
00:36:55,400 --> 00:36:57,839
Speaker 1: not at all. So anyways, we made up. It would

635
00:36:57,880 --> 00:37:00,560
Speaker 1: ended up being great. But my mom gets to hospital.

636
00:37:01,360 --> 00:37:03,760
Speaker 1: I go over there. It's just me and my brother.

637
00:37:04,160 --> 00:37:06,719
Speaker 1: We have to go to the bank to like talk

638
00:37:06,760 --> 00:37:10,319
Speaker 1: about like weird shit about like my mom dying and

639
00:37:10,360 --> 00:37:15,160
Speaker 1: like money being beneficiary like this whole like I don't know,

640
00:37:15,200 --> 00:37:19,480
Speaker 1: it makes things real, you know, like and um, my

641
00:37:19,560 --> 00:37:22,799
Speaker 1: mom wasn't able to shower in the hospital for like

642
00:37:22,840 --> 00:37:25,520
Speaker 1: four days and her hair is like frizzled, and my

643
00:37:25,560 --> 00:37:28,040
Speaker 1: mom loves to look you know, pretty, and you forget

644
00:37:28,120 --> 00:37:30,920
Speaker 1: like a woman just wants to even when she's dying,

645
00:37:31,719 --> 00:37:36,000
Speaker 1: and like and at her lowest point, she's still you

646
00:37:36,040 --> 00:37:39,600
Speaker 1: know you want to Like it's like hard to talk about.

647
00:37:42,000 --> 00:37:51,360
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, Andrew, Oh boy, I promised myself I would cry. No,

648
00:37:51,520 --> 00:37:58,920
Speaker 1: it's all right, it's so hard. I'm sorry. So, yeah,

649
00:37:59,280 --> 00:38:04,600
Speaker 1: that's weird. Yeah, anyhow ended my nails in a while? Yeah,

650
00:38:04,719 --> 00:38:07,919
Speaker 1: like a U T I so I end up uh

651
00:38:08,360 --> 00:38:12,400
Speaker 1: even in sadness call back dripped, So your eyes are

652
00:38:12,440 --> 00:38:19,759
Speaker 1: ham drippings some people call my nipples. Just thinking about

653
00:38:19,800 --> 00:38:25,640
Speaker 1: your mom in the ocean? Do you think about your

654
00:38:25,640 --> 00:38:27,560
Speaker 1: mom will never get to go to a hockey game again,

655
00:38:28,480 --> 00:38:30,680
Speaker 1: something she never went to in the first place. She

656
00:38:30,760 --> 00:38:36,680
Speaker 1: loved the Rangers. No, so my mom goes, um, will

657
00:38:36,760 --> 00:38:39,560
Speaker 1: you help wash my hair? In the scene because she

658
00:38:39,600 --> 00:38:42,319
Speaker 1: can't even shower, And I swear there was just a

659
00:38:42,360 --> 00:38:45,040
Speaker 1: moment where I was like my whole life, me and

660
00:38:45,080 --> 00:38:49,040
Speaker 1: my mom never like you know, because of drinking and

661
00:38:49,080 --> 00:38:52,080
Speaker 1: like whatever, like we never like when she would touch

662
00:38:52,200 --> 00:38:55,000
Speaker 1: me like later in life, like rub my back or anything.

663
00:38:55,760 --> 00:38:57,759
Speaker 1: Like I could never hug her because I felt like,

664
00:38:58,600 --> 00:39:01,080
Speaker 1: I don't know, they're just wasn't a connection because I

665
00:39:01,080 --> 00:39:03,600
Speaker 1: wanted her to be better for herself, and I think

666
00:39:03,640 --> 00:39:07,200
Speaker 1: it caused me to be avoided attached. So yeah, and

667
00:39:07,239 --> 00:39:09,239
Speaker 1: you have a lot of anger about that. It's like

668
00:39:09,360 --> 00:39:11,719
Speaker 1: too late, bitch. I'm not saying that about your mother,

669
00:39:11,800 --> 00:39:13,960
Speaker 1: but like I felt that way too have like don't

670
00:39:14,000 --> 00:39:15,839
Speaker 1: get close to me now, like you should have done

671
00:39:15,840 --> 00:39:18,320
Speaker 1: this when I was little, and it just feels awkward.

672
00:39:18,320 --> 00:39:22,520
Speaker 1: It just doesn't feel like And so my initial reaction

673
00:39:22,560 --> 00:39:24,319
Speaker 1: when my mom's like, can you wash my hair? And

674
00:39:24,360 --> 00:39:27,799
Speaker 1: her hair is like frizzled and like you know, like

675
00:39:27,880 --> 00:39:31,960
Speaker 1: really like I'm like I don't even Yeah, she's completely

676
00:39:31,960 --> 00:39:35,799
Speaker 1: frizzled out, and I'm like she's got the she's on

677
00:39:35,840 --> 00:39:40,759
Speaker 1: the frizze and um, I go. My initial reaction was like,

678
00:39:40,880 --> 00:39:44,000
Speaker 1: oh my god, I gotta touch my Like what is

679
00:39:44,040 --> 00:39:46,839
Speaker 1: she doing asking me this? Like and I'm so selfish,

680
00:39:47,239 --> 00:39:51,560
Speaker 1: so fucking selfish man. So anyways, I fucking start washing

681
00:39:51,560 --> 00:39:54,640
Speaker 1: her hair and I put the shampoo in and I'm

682
00:39:54,640 --> 00:39:56,680
Speaker 1: washing her and I'm knowing that this is making her

683
00:39:56,719 --> 00:40:01,840
Speaker 1: so fucking happy, this little thing. And I put conditioner

684
00:40:01,880 --> 00:40:04,600
Speaker 1: in and I'm combing her hair, and I swear to

685
00:40:04,600 --> 00:40:06,600
Speaker 1: guy like there was like a moment and like it

686
00:40:06,640 --> 00:40:08,640
Speaker 1: could be like in a movie or like whatever where

687
00:40:08,640 --> 00:40:12,560
Speaker 1: it's like, oh, I couldn't help her and like I

688
00:40:12,560 --> 00:40:15,520
Speaker 1: don't have this guard up because mentally I'm okay now

689
00:40:16,080 --> 00:40:20,360
Speaker 1: in a way. It was a lot. It's still a lot,

690
00:40:20,480 --> 00:40:23,399
Speaker 1: and like just combing her hair, and then Brenna cut

691
00:40:23,400 --> 00:40:25,840
Speaker 1: her nails for her, and it was like this moment

692
00:40:26,280 --> 00:40:28,880
Speaker 1: of like where we I'm looking over at Brenna like

693
00:40:28,920 --> 00:40:33,680
Speaker 1: cutting giving my mom a manicure, and it was just like, Okay,

694
00:40:33,719 --> 00:40:38,120
Speaker 1: this is fucking why relationship sh it is fucking amazing. Yeah,

695
00:40:38,160 --> 00:40:42,160
Speaker 1: I'm so happy for you. That's a lot, dude, Thank

696
00:40:42,200 --> 00:40:46,400
Speaker 1: you for sharing that. It's so sweet. Good job, dude,

697
00:40:46,640 --> 00:40:55,400
Speaker 1: this is like all really it's it's it's good closure stuff. Yeah. Um,

698
00:40:55,440 --> 00:40:59,680
Speaker 1: it's really hard though. So and then I went to

699
00:40:59,719 --> 00:41:01,359
Speaker 1: the bay and can I you know, found out how

700
00:41:01,400 --> 00:41:03,120
Speaker 1: much money I was getting. I was like, that's worth

701
00:41:03,160 --> 00:41:08,920
Speaker 1: it for the hair shampoo. You know, Okay, what's your

702
00:41:09,080 --> 00:41:14,279
Speaker 1: top one? Noah, you see a guy die, so a

703
00:41:14,440 --> 00:41:23,200
Speaker 1: top one? My top one is very similar to Andrew. Yeah. So, um,

704
00:41:23,239 --> 00:41:25,600
Speaker 1: you know, I talked about it on the podcast and

705
00:41:25,640 --> 00:41:27,480
Speaker 1: I had a lot of besties reach out, which was

706
00:41:27,560 --> 00:41:30,160
Speaker 1: so nice, and Sweden. I realized a lot of other

707
00:41:30,200 --> 00:41:33,360
Speaker 1: people have a disconnection with a parent. I'm not the

708
00:41:33,400 --> 00:41:36,080
Speaker 1: only one in this world. But um, I had been

709
00:41:36,120 --> 00:41:38,920
Speaker 1: wanting to use the holiday time as a you know,

710
00:41:39,000 --> 00:41:41,480
Speaker 1: just like an impetus to reach out to my mom

711
00:41:41,560 --> 00:41:44,440
Speaker 1: and see how she's doing after not speaking to her

712
00:41:44,600 --> 00:41:49,040
Speaker 1: for a very long time. And um, I did it.

713
00:41:49,960 --> 00:41:52,080
Speaker 1: You know, I wish you're happy New Year. And I said,

714
00:41:52,080 --> 00:41:55,239
Speaker 1: you know, can we chat this weekend? And it was

715
00:41:55,480 --> 00:41:59,840
Speaker 1: really good. It was a very good conversation. And I

716
00:42:00,400 --> 00:42:03,359
Speaker 1: this is crazy, but you know I had been thinking

717
00:42:03,400 --> 00:42:05,760
Speaker 1: about this for a while now, probably over a month,

718
00:42:06,120 --> 00:42:07,839
Speaker 1: you know, like I got to do this, I mean

719
00:42:07,880 --> 00:42:10,840
Speaker 1: since the show. It was just like burning. It was

720
00:42:10,920 --> 00:42:13,640
Speaker 1: just like burning my chest, like I have to do something.

721
00:42:13,800 --> 00:42:16,520
Speaker 1: I don't feel good about this and I had this

722
00:42:16,600 --> 00:42:20,319
Speaker 1: like nerve pain in the back, like it in my back,

723
00:42:20,440 --> 00:42:22,560
Speaker 1: Like I don't know what it is like wing or whatever,

724
00:42:22,600 --> 00:42:24,040
Speaker 1: like if if I would have wings, it's where a

725
00:42:24,040 --> 00:42:26,440
Speaker 1: wing would be just like like a like a just

726
00:42:26,520 --> 00:42:28,759
Speaker 1: a nerve pain. Then my shoulder her and my neck hurt.

727
00:42:29,040 --> 00:42:31,200
Speaker 1: I've just been caring that for the last couple of weeks.

728
00:42:31,600 --> 00:42:36,240
Speaker 1: And after that phone call, it didn't completely go away,

729
00:42:36,239 --> 00:42:42,040
Speaker 1: but it's like already fifty gone, wow wow, And did

730
00:42:42,040 --> 00:42:48,919
Speaker 1: the phone call feel better? Worse? What you expected? Much better?

731
00:42:49,239 --> 00:42:50,840
Speaker 1: I mean, you know, I have to like think a

732
00:42:50,880 --> 00:42:54,680
Speaker 1: lot about going into it. What information am I gonna divulge?

733
00:42:55,560 --> 00:42:57,279
Speaker 1: How am I going to direct the conversation if it

734
00:42:57,280 --> 00:42:59,560
Speaker 1: starts going to a negative place? You have to do

735
00:42:59,600 --> 00:43:03,759
Speaker 1: a lot of mental gymnastics. Um. So, my mom has

736
00:43:03,760 --> 00:43:08,399
Speaker 1: always been very good at being creative and um house decorating.

737
00:43:08,640 --> 00:43:11,720
Speaker 1: She she's just so talented. She has such good taste.

738
00:43:12,480 --> 00:43:15,359
Speaker 1: So I was just like, Okay, I'm gonna ask her

739
00:43:15,440 --> 00:43:18,040
Speaker 1: for help so it'll give her like a little bit

740
00:43:18,080 --> 00:43:20,600
Speaker 1: of a purpose. I'll be receptive to that information because

741
00:43:20,640 --> 00:43:23,440
Speaker 1: I know it's going to be good. And it was.

742
00:43:23,520 --> 00:43:28,440
Speaker 1: It was great. Ah, It's so great when the like

743
00:43:28,520 --> 00:43:31,879
Speaker 1: at what I'm the pattern here is like we can

744
00:43:31,920 --> 00:43:35,040
Speaker 1: do better than our parents, not to like be like

745
00:43:35,360 --> 00:43:38,080
Speaker 1: see mom, fuck you, Like I'm going to be different,

746
00:43:38,160 --> 00:43:41,200
Speaker 1: but like that's why you have kids, is to be

747
00:43:41,200 --> 00:43:43,640
Speaker 1: better than like you and to heal some of the

748
00:43:43,680 --> 00:43:46,920
Speaker 1: stuff that you're not ready to you weren't equipped to do,

749
00:43:47,040 --> 00:43:50,600
Speaker 1: and like it falls on the child to become the

750
00:43:50,640 --> 00:43:54,000
Speaker 1: adults in the situation. And both of you exhibited that,

751
00:43:54,719 --> 00:43:58,400
Speaker 1: um in those stories. So good job to both of you.

752
00:43:58,760 --> 00:44:01,839
Speaker 1: Thank you, thank for sharing those things, because it's not

753
00:44:01,880 --> 00:44:07,799
Speaker 1: easy to share that stuff that like can unexpectedly get

754
00:44:07,840 --> 00:44:11,880
Speaker 1: you into um, like emotions that are uncomfortable on a

755
00:44:11,880 --> 00:44:16,120
Speaker 1: comedy podcast. So um and I know the besties love

756
00:44:16,120 --> 00:44:21,920
Speaker 1: you for it. Um My. Uh, my top moment was

757
00:44:22,560 --> 00:44:27,880
Speaker 1: um seeing a whale, which I posted on my Instagram. UM,

758
00:44:28,000 --> 00:44:33,280
Speaker 1: and it was so Chris, my ex boyfriend who I'm

759
00:44:33,400 --> 00:44:38,600
Speaker 1: dating and um who I honestly like. We almost broke

760
00:44:38,719 --> 00:44:44,920
Speaker 1: up two nights before Christmas. Um. Uh. We literally were

761
00:44:44,960 --> 00:44:47,600
Speaker 1: on the phone breaking up, finally being like we're not

762
00:44:47,640 --> 00:44:51,960
Speaker 1: doing this anymore and it was really just a bad Uh.

763
00:44:52,320 --> 00:44:54,080
Speaker 1: We were going to therapy and we had a really

764
00:44:54,080 --> 00:44:58,560
Speaker 1: bad therapy session and um, we didn't have time in

765
00:44:58,560 --> 00:45:00,600
Speaker 1: that therapy session to like put up bow on it

766
00:45:00,719 --> 00:45:03,120
Speaker 1: or like just kind of put a little like even

767
00:45:03,120 --> 00:45:05,799
Speaker 1: like a cork in it, and we just like were

768
00:45:06,200 --> 00:45:09,800
Speaker 1: open wounds and and for us to like get through

769
00:45:10,400 --> 00:45:12,960
Speaker 1: hard times, we need to like talk for hours and

770
00:45:13,080 --> 00:45:15,479
Speaker 1: feel really understood and we always come out so much better.

771
00:45:15,560 --> 00:45:18,760
Speaker 1: But um, we didn't have time, and so we didn't

772
00:45:18,800 --> 00:45:21,719
Speaker 1: talk for a couple of days and literally broke up

773
00:45:21,719 --> 00:45:23,440
Speaker 1: on the phone, and then we just couldn't get off

774
00:45:23,480 --> 00:45:26,080
Speaker 1: the phone, like because once we said goodbye on the

775
00:45:26,120 --> 00:45:28,040
Speaker 1: phone call, we knew it would be like over over,

776
00:45:28,719 --> 00:45:34,279
Speaker 1: and then we were like, let's just why, like one

777
00:45:34,320 --> 00:45:36,000
Speaker 1: of us gave in and then the other game, you know,

778
00:45:36,280 --> 00:45:38,319
Speaker 1: and um, he ended up going to Hawaii with me

779
00:45:39,400 --> 00:45:42,759
Speaker 1: on this trip with Bill Maher and it was just like,

780
00:45:43,400 --> 00:45:46,239
Speaker 1: I don't know, I think that and maybe I could,

781
00:45:46,760 --> 00:45:49,000
Speaker 1: you know, who knows what I'll say in the future,

782
00:45:49,040 --> 00:45:54,200
Speaker 1: but I think that I have in the past like

783
00:45:54,480 --> 00:45:57,520
Speaker 1: felt because Chris was the only person I've ever dated

784
00:45:57,640 --> 00:46:01,160
Speaker 1: really like seriously in this way and like is actually

785
00:46:01,239 --> 00:46:04,040
Speaker 1: an available person. The only available person that isn't a

786
00:46:04,080 --> 00:46:07,360
Speaker 1: complete alcoholic that I've dated that didn't have a girlfriend,

787
00:46:07,400 --> 00:46:11,160
Speaker 1: didn't live in a different city, like he's that I thought,

788
00:46:12,280 --> 00:46:14,160
Speaker 1: you know, I could have possibly got it right the

789
00:46:14,200 --> 00:46:18,040
Speaker 1: first time, Like there's just no way, and you know,

790
00:46:18,160 --> 00:46:20,600
Speaker 1: we don't we're not perfect and all these things, and

791
00:46:20,960 --> 00:46:22,919
Speaker 1: there's been issues where I'm like, I can't date someone

792
00:46:22,920 --> 00:46:24,600
Speaker 1: who does this. But you know, I have all these

793
00:46:24,600 --> 00:46:28,000
Speaker 1: hard lines, like I think that I uh projected a

794
00:46:28,000 --> 00:46:31,919
Speaker 1: lot of perfection onto other people or like other relationships

795
00:46:31,920 --> 00:46:34,120
Speaker 1: and I'm like, I want a guy like that or man,

796
00:46:34,239 --> 00:46:36,840
Speaker 1: I'm looking at that guy on Instagram and that relationship

797
00:46:36,880 --> 00:46:39,200
Speaker 1: with MC. He wouldn't do the things that Chris does

798
00:46:39,239 --> 00:46:41,600
Speaker 1: in my relationship, like or I have like a friend,

799
00:46:41,640 --> 00:46:44,040
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, the way I get along with her,

800
00:46:44,400 --> 00:46:47,640
Speaker 1: Like if I could just like if if if you know,

801
00:46:48,360 --> 00:46:50,400
Speaker 1: that could be I want a relationship that's like that

802
00:46:50,520 --> 00:46:53,680
Speaker 1: friendship but like also a sex and like the thing

803
00:46:53,760 --> 00:46:57,640
Speaker 1: is like what my relationship may lack in the way

804
00:46:57,640 --> 00:46:58,960
Speaker 1: that I look at some of my friendships. Is that

805
00:46:59,000 --> 00:47:03,040
Speaker 1: my friendships or people's relationships that I look at, I

806
00:47:03,080 --> 00:47:07,480
Speaker 1: don't know what they're like intimately, but I do know

807
00:47:07,520 --> 00:47:11,000
Speaker 1: what that that's not fair to compare that and I

808
00:47:11,160 --> 00:47:13,400
Speaker 1: and I think that I know, but I don't fucking know,

809
00:47:14,040 --> 00:47:16,840
Speaker 1: And What I did realize on this trip is that

810
00:47:16,880 --> 00:47:22,200
Speaker 1: I have someone who, like, although isn't we clash a

811
00:47:22,200 --> 00:47:27,320
Speaker 1: lot on things, like overall, this person is always willing

812
00:47:27,400 --> 00:47:30,120
Speaker 1: to is now I know, and wasn't in the past,

813
00:47:30,160 --> 00:47:33,640
Speaker 1: but it's like willing to work on ever anything and

814
00:47:33,760 --> 00:47:38,960
Speaker 1: is willing to kind of honestly, we I have the

815
00:47:39,000 --> 00:47:40,880
Speaker 1: thing that I always wanted that I heard Will Smith

816
00:47:40,880 --> 00:47:44,239
Speaker 1: has with Jada Pinizsabeth, which is like, uh, you can

817
00:47:44,280 --> 00:47:46,560
Speaker 1: do anything and there are no deal breakers, like I'll

818
00:47:46,560 --> 00:47:48,719
Speaker 1: never leave you, Like we can get through anything, and

819
00:47:48,760 --> 00:47:50,440
Speaker 1: like that doesn't mean he's not gonna get upset with

820
00:47:50,480 --> 00:47:53,560
Speaker 1: me and we're gonna have weird moments, but we found

821
00:47:53,560 --> 00:47:58,879
Speaker 1: we found this new way of communicating that I originally

822
00:47:59,560 --> 00:48:02,360
Speaker 1: came up with with Kirsten when I was in fifth grade.

823
00:48:03,040 --> 00:48:05,960
Speaker 1: We like, we're best friends since fourth grade, inseparable from

824
00:48:06,000 --> 00:48:08,879
Speaker 1: the second we met, and we had this like shorthand

825
00:48:09,440 --> 00:48:11,719
Speaker 1: speak like that we just we just were real. It

826
00:48:11,760 --> 00:48:13,400
Speaker 1: was the first like relationship where I was like, I

827
00:48:13,480 --> 00:48:16,000
Speaker 1: just don't have to be anything but completely myself. I

828
00:48:16,040 --> 00:48:17,520
Speaker 1: never have to act like I'm in a good mood.

829
00:48:17,560 --> 00:48:19,560
Speaker 1: I never have to act like I'm gonna like I'm

830
00:48:19,719 --> 00:48:22,120
Speaker 1: completely real. And one time we got into like a

831
00:48:22,120 --> 00:48:25,080
Speaker 1: little fight about something. It was like our first fight,

832
00:48:25,760 --> 00:48:29,040
Speaker 1: and we went to the limited in West County Mall

833
00:48:29,200 --> 00:48:31,040
Speaker 1: and we were in fifth grade and we were looking

834
00:48:31,080 --> 00:48:33,120
Speaker 1: through shirts and it was after a fight. We had

835
00:48:33,120 --> 00:48:37,480
Speaker 1: patched it up, but we hadn't actually addressed what was

836
00:48:37,520 --> 00:48:39,640
Speaker 1: really going on, and so we were in this weird

837
00:48:39,719 --> 00:48:43,120
Speaker 1: area that I think everyone can relate to, where you

838
00:48:43,160 --> 00:48:48,319
Speaker 1: are just being really like overly like gentle and nice

839
00:48:48,320 --> 00:48:52,279
Speaker 1: with each other, but you're still like laden with resentment,

840
00:48:52,400 --> 00:48:56,920
Speaker 1: but you're just tiptoeing. And Kirsten and I both I

841
00:48:56,960 --> 00:48:58,719
Speaker 1: remember Kurston might have been the first one to call

842
00:48:58,760 --> 00:49:01,200
Speaker 1: me on it. And she's like, because I we were

843
00:49:01,200 --> 00:49:02,880
Speaker 1: looking at some sweatshirts or something and I was like,

844
00:49:03,280 --> 00:49:06,000
Speaker 1: isn't this cute? This is so cute and she's like, yeah,

845
00:49:06,080 --> 00:49:08,759
Speaker 1: oh my gosh, um, well, well I'll try this one on.

846
00:49:08,840 --> 00:49:10,360
Speaker 1: Do you want? Like what size do you want? Like

847
00:49:10,360 --> 00:49:13,319
Speaker 1: we were just being so overly nice and and one

848
00:49:13,320 --> 00:49:15,960
Speaker 1: of us goes, we're acting like new friends and we

849
00:49:16,040 --> 00:49:18,680
Speaker 1: just kept going new friends, and we called out the

850
00:49:18,719 --> 00:49:22,600
Speaker 1: awkwardness by saying new friends because this little like fake

851
00:49:22,760 --> 00:49:25,920
Speaker 1: like oh so like, um, yeah, like do you want

852
00:49:25,920 --> 00:49:27,600
Speaker 1: to go to dinner later? Like that that kind of

853
00:49:27,640 --> 00:49:30,000
Speaker 1: like dumb talk you have with your boyfriend after you're

854
00:49:30,040 --> 00:49:32,920
Speaker 1: like in a fight, and it's helped me so much.

855
00:49:32,920 --> 00:49:34,520
Speaker 1: I told Chris about this, and he's like, wow, you

856
00:49:34,520 --> 00:49:36,600
Speaker 1: guys were like funny even back then, Like that's such

857
00:49:36,600 --> 00:49:40,120
Speaker 1: a astute observation for like fifth graders. And I was

858
00:49:40,160 --> 00:49:42,320
Speaker 1: like we really were. Like new friends was the first

859
00:49:42,360 --> 00:49:45,879
Speaker 1: like kind of bit we ever did. And now Chris

860
00:49:45,920 --> 00:49:47,759
Speaker 1: and I do new friends and that the other night,

861
00:49:47,840 --> 00:49:49,759
Speaker 1: that's where we get into trouble ism when we fight,

862
00:49:50,160 --> 00:49:52,720
Speaker 1: the awkwardness before we go what the funk is this about?

863
00:49:53,320 --> 00:49:55,120
Speaker 1: Or like I'll go, hey, I'm really sorry, I'm late,

864
00:49:55,239 --> 00:49:57,160
Speaker 1: like I was running late, and he's just like it's fine.

865
00:49:57,520 --> 00:49:59,480
Speaker 1: And then we're in this like new friends, like did

866
00:49:59,480 --> 00:50:02,640
Speaker 1: you call the Yeah they're running late? Oh I hate

867
00:50:02,640 --> 00:50:05,640
Speaker 1: this app and like we're just having this fucking elevator

868
00:50:05,760 --> 00:50:08,239
Speaker 1: small talk. And last night we got into like a

869
00:50:08,239 --> 00:50:11,040
Speaker 1: little thing and I was just like new friends, you're

870
00:50:11,080 --> 00:50:13,120
Speaker 1: new friends and me, what's really going on? Like I

871
00:50:13,160 --> 00:50:15,840
Speaker 1: know you're upset, what what happened? And it's just like

872
00:50:15,880 --> 00:50:17,920
Speaker 1: cut through and he like laughed because he knew what

873
00:50:17,960 --> 00:50:19,719
Speaker 1: new friends meant. It was just like a beautiful way

874
00:50:19,760 --> 00:50:22,480
Speaker 1: to like cut through the tension. Anyway, I really like

875
00:50:23,080 --> 00:50:26,439
Speaker 1: fell in love with my ex boyfriend over this trip

876
00:50:26,480 --> 00:50:29,560
Speaker 1: because on the way to why he was like, um,

877
00:50:29,600 --> 00:50:31,440
Speaker 1: I thought maybe we could go whale watching, And I'm like,

878
00:50:31,560 --> 00:50:33,440
Speaker 1: I don't even know we could go whale watching in

879
00:50:33,480 --> 00:50:34,799
Speaker 1: ha wait, Like I don't even I think of that

880
00:50:34,840 --> 00:50:38,360
Speaker 1: as like an Alaska thing. And there's humpback whale watching

881
00:50:38,360 --> 00:50:40,160
Speaker 1: in a white We're in the middle of the season.

882
00:50:40,280 --> 00:50:42,879
Speaker 1: We go on a private charter that he sets up

883
00:50:43,400 --> 00:50:45,880
Speaker 1: and it's just me and him on this boat and

884
00:50:45,920 --> 00:50:49,319
Speaker 1: we see a humpback whale and on either everywhere in

885
00:50:49,320 --> 00:50:51,800
Speaker 1: this bay complete there there's hundreds of them, and we

886
00:50:51,840 --> 00:50:54,600
Speaker 1: see little spouts coming up, but you don't get You

887
00:50:54,640 --> 00:50:57,560
Speaker 1: can't get closer than a football field unless you get

888
00:50:57,600 --> 00:50:59,680
Speaker 1: close enough and then they swim over to you, which

889
00:50:59,719 --> 00:51:03,640
Speaker 1: doesn't happen. Except it did happen. We we got mugged,

890
00:51:03,760 --> 00:51:06,560
Speaker 1: which is the actual term for it. We were mugged

891
00:51:06,600 --> 00:51:09,400
Speaker 1: by a humpback whale. It was circling our boat and

892
00:51:09,440 --> 00:51:12,440
Speaker 1: obsessed with us and I and I said on the

893
00:51:12,480 --> 00:51:13,960
Speaker 1: way out I go, what's like he's been doing this

894
00:51:14,000 --> 00:51:16,360
Speaker 1: twenty five years ago, what's the coolest thing that's happened

895
00:51:16,360 --> 00:51:18,560
Speaker 1: out here? And this guy was like, you know, the

896
00:51:18,560 --> 00:51:22,200
Speaker 1: best thing is when I've had passengers like dunk their

897
00:51:22,200 --> 00:51:25,360
Speaker 1: heads over and put their snorkels in and they're like,

898
00:51:25,400 --> 00:51:27,520
Speaker 1: I can hear them squealing because they see the whale

899
00:51:27,760 --> 00:51:30,840
Speaker 1: like up like they can spot the whale like in

900
00:51:31,000 --> 00:51:33,439
Speaker 1: the water, and not from like far away because the

901
00:51:33,440 --> 00:51:36,279
Speaker 1: water is too murky to see it if you put

902
00:51:36,280 --> 00:51:38,479
Speaker 1: your head in, if it's if we're far away from

903
00:51:38,520 --> 00:51:41,719
Speaker 1: what the normal distances, and fuck you guys, I saw

904
00:51:41,880 --> 00:51:44,319
Speaker 1: I wasn't getting my head in so much. I made

905
00:51:44,360 --> 00:51:47,279
Speaker 1: eye contact with a fucking wild humpback whale, which I've

906
00:51:47,280 --> 00:51:50,400
Speaker 1: been obsessed with whales forever. It was such a majestic,

907
00:51:50,520 --> 00:51:53,600
Speaker 1: magical moment in this whale like I felt connected to it.

908
00:51:53,640 --> 00:51:56,239
Speaker 1: I felt like it saw me. And these whales are

909
00:51:56,239 --> 00:52:01,080
Speaker 1: only there to breed and have of birth. They come

910
00:52:01,120 --> 00:52:04,560
Speaker 1: all the way down from Alaska. There's no food in

911
00:52:04,560 --> 00:52:08,200
Speaker 1: this bay in Hawaii, like in this you know channel,

912
00:52:08,680 --> 00:52:12,719
Speaker 1: there's only fucking fighting over females, which they never fight

913
00:52:12,800 --> 00:52:14,640
Speaker 1: to the death. They always help each other out. They

914
00:52:14,680 --> 00:52:16,359
Speaker 1: like kind of bump each other, but they'll never fight

915
00:52:16,360 --> 00:52:19,080
Speaker 1: to the death. Were very gentle, and there's wing manning.

916
00:52:19,080 --> 00:52:22,239
Speaker 1: They help each other fuck, and there's birthing, and then

917
00:52:22,640 --> 00:52:24,520
Speaker 1: they get pregnant and they go all the way back

918
00:52:24,640 --> 00:52:27,680
Speaker 1: up and then they give birth up there, or they

919
00:52:27,680 --> 00:52:29,040
Speaker 1: give sorry, they get birth down here, and they go

920
00:52:29,080 --> 00:52:30,640
Speaker 1: all the way up with their babies because it's safer

921
00:52:30,680 --> 00:52:32,880
Speaker 1: in these warmer waters and there's not killer whales, and

922
00:52:32,920 --> 00:52:35,400
Speaker 1: there's no predators in these waters, and there's no food.

923
00:52:35,440 --> 00:52:38,279
Speaker 1: They're just starving to death here. And like it was

924
00:52:38,320 --> 00:52:41,080
Speaker 1: just so fucking interesting. And he put a microphone in

925
00:52:41,120 --> 00:52:43,120
Speaker 1: the water and it was just like you could hear

926
00:52:43,200 --> 00:52:46,319
Speaker 1: all the whale activity. It was like you were at

927
00:52:46,360 --> 00:52:49,719
Speaker 1: a fucking stadium of how hundreds of whales, just like

928
00:52:55,000 --> 00:52:59,200
Speaker 1: it was just it was so cool. I was blown away.

929
00:52:59,239 --> 00:53:01,719
Speaker 1: And it was only because like Chris knew I cared

930
00:53:01,719 --> 00:53:04,759
Speaker 1: about whales, and he knows that I don't really like adventures,

931
00:53:05,160 --> 00:53:07,239
Speaker 1: but he picked one that was like perfect for me,

932
00:53:07,880 --> 00:53:10,399
Speaker 1: and I just had the best trip with him ever.

933
00:53:10,640 --> 00:53:13,359
Speaker 1: And um, I had the best trip with Bill Maher

934
00:53:13,440 --> 00:53:15,319
Speaker 1: and all his friends. It was just a great trip.

935
00:53:15,400 --> 00:53:17,759
Speaker 1: Let's take a break and then we'll come back and

936
00:53:17,800 --> 00:53:24,000
Speaker 1: we'll do a little bit of reddit dump. Let's do

937
00:53:25,000 --> 00:53:33,200
Speaker 1: reddit dump karaoke mode. This is your reddit dump, all right,

938
00:53:33,440 --> 00:53:35,960
Speaker 1: I will I have some good stuff. Okay. So this

939
00:53:36,120 --> 00:53:42,080
Speaker 1: was in the subreddit sex and it said my husband.

940
00:53:42,600 --> 00:53:44,640
Speaker 1: I let my husband suck a booby to help with

941
00:53:44,680 --> 00:53:47,080
Speaker 1: his occasional anxiety before bed. I told a friend and

942
00:53:47,120 --> 00:53:50,520
Speaker 1: she shamed me hard. So this woman is said that

943
00:53:50,600 --> 00:53:52,960
Speaker 1: it started with my husband when I was pumping breastmolk

944
00:53:53,000 --> 00:53:55,839
Speaker 1: for our kid. I had a bad clog. I guess

945
00:53:55,840 --> 00:53:59,840
Speaker 1: she was wearing crocs, and he sucked it out of

946
00:54:00,040 --> 00:54:02,279
Speaker 1: me out for me. Over time, it progressed into a

947
00:54:02,400 --> 00:54:04,399
Speaker 1: nightly routine. I had finished my last pump of the day,

948
00:54:04,400 --> 00:54:06,000
Speaker 1: he'd cleaned up, and then we'd go to bed and

949
00:54:06,040 --> 00:54:09,000
Speaker 1: he'd nurse for like ten minutes. This helps soften my

950
00:54:09,000 --> 00:54:11,840
Speaker 1: breast so I could sleep comfortably. Eventually I start producing

951
00:54:11,880 --> 00:54:14,640
Speaker 1: milk and our routine ended. Then something terrible happened. He

952
00:54:14,680 --> 00:54:16,480
Speaker 1: had a loss in the family that devastated him. He

953
00:54:16,520 --> 00:54:18,160
Speaker 1: had a lot of anxiety in the night and would

954
00:54:18,160 --> 00:54:20,040
Speaker 1: be upset. One night, I was cuddling him to help

955
00:54:20,120 --> 00:54:22,240
Speaker 1: calm him down, and he was nestled between my breasts.

956
00:54:22,400 --> 00:54:24,120
Speaker 1: I could feel his breath and lips against me. He

957
00:54:24,160 --> 00:54:27,360
Speaker 1: started to kiss them, and then I kind of instinctively

958
00:54:27,440 --> 00:54:30,520
Speaker 1: lifted myself up and so his you know, his mouth

959
00:54:30,560 --> 00:54:32,840
Speaker 1: was aligned with my nipple. He took the sign and

960
00:54:32,880 --> 00:54:35,239
Speaker 1: started suckling. He almost instantly calmed down and was able

961
00:54:35,239 --> 00:54:37,480
Speaker 1: to get to sleep soon after. So this started another

962
00:54:37,520 --> 00:54:40,480
Speaker 1: trend in our relationship. It often leads into other sexual activities,

963
00:54:40,520 --> 00:54:44,280
Speaker 1: but sometimes it's a it's a quick, a quick suck

964
00:54:44,760 --> 00:54:46,400
Speaker 1: and we go to sleep. I told my friend the

965
00:54:46,400 --> 00:54:48,719
Speaker 1: above and was essentially shamed. To hell, we are being

966
00:54:48,719 --> 00:54:52,439
Speaker 1: weird and juvenile. She said, he shouldn't need to suck

967
00:54:52,480 --> 00:54:54,520
Speaker 1: your breast to go to sleep. It made me feel terrible.

968
00:54:54,560 --> 00:54:56,640
Speaker 1: What do you think to other couples have different opinions

969
00:54:56,719 --> 00:55:01,439
Speaker 1: or practices, m M. I was thinking Andrew probably would

970
00:55:01,560 --> 00:55:06,319
Speaker 1: be into that. I honestly I started salivating. I was like,

971
00:55:06,400 --> 00:55:09,280
Speaker 1: oh my god, this is like I want my binkie

972
00:55:09,520 --> 00:55:12,920
Speaker 1: and it's your tits. I mean, why can't boys? I like,

973
00:55:13,040 --> 00:55:15,200
Speaker 1: would it hate for someone to suck on my tips

974
00:55:15,239 --> 00:55:17,320
Speaker 1: like a baby? Like a man? I know that's so weird,

975
00:55:17,360 --> 00:55:18,759
Speaker 1: but like there's something about it where I was like,

976
00:55:19,160 --> 00:55:23,279
Speaker 1: I I wonder how weird but before and like, what

977
00:55:23,360 --> 00:55:25,960
Speaker 1: if they have another baby and then they're fighting over

978
00:55:26,000 --> 00:55:28,640
Speaker 1: the nipple. It seems like a bedtime thing that like,

979
00:55:29,760 --> 00:55:33,400
Speaker 1: and it leads to sex usually. I love it. I

980
00:55:33,440 --> 00:55:35,920
Speaker 1: think it's like romantic, I really do. I don't think

981
00:55:35,960 --> 00:55:40,480
Speaker 1: it's weird. I really don't. Um. I mean, I think

982
00:55:40,480 --> 00:55:43,120
Speaker 1: it's weird, but I don't think I would judge anyone

983
00:55:43,160 --> 00:55:45,560
Speaker 1: for it. I mean it's weird in the sense that

984
00:55:45,600 --> 00:55:46,759
Speaker 1: I don't think a lot of people do it, but

985
00:55:46,800 --> 00:55:49,399
Speaker 1: I think, um, yeah, more people. I think it could

986
00:55:49,440 --> 00:55:52,440
Speaker 1: be weird if he's like put the diaper on and

987
00:55:52,440 --> 00:55:55,400
Speaker 1: then like she puts fucking baby powder on his asshole

988
00:55:55,840 --> 00:55:59,200
Speaker 1: and then she's like my battle. You know, that would

989
00:55:59,280 --> 00:56:01,000
Speaker 1: be weird. But if it's just a guy who just

990
00:56:01,040 --> 00:56:03,880
Speaker 1: need to suck a little bit to like sucking a thumb,

991
00:56:04,560 --> 00:56:07,239
Speaker 1: and you can provide that, fuck yeah, you could be

992
00:56:07,320 --> 00:56:12,040
Speaker 1: a manly nipple sucker. I think so too. No, uh well,

993
00:56:12,280 --> 00:56:16,279
Speaker 1: I don't approve of sex shaming anyone for whatever weird

994
00:56:16,360 --> 00:56:19,239
Speaker 1: kink they have, even if they're wearing a diaper. But

995
00:56:19,360 --> 00:56:22,239
Speaker 1: I have this nord Yeah exactly same and I know

996
00:56:22,280 --> 00:56:24,680
Speaker 1: that I went too far. I know, I know it

997
00:56:24,760 --> 00:56:29,120
Speaker 1: was a joke, But I have a weird like fantasy

998
00:56:29,239 --> 00:56:32,239
Speaker 1: where I want my nipples like sucked so hard that

999
00:56:32,280 --> 00:56:34,840
Speaker 1: they turned like black and blue, like there's like bruises

1000
00:56:34,880 --> 00:56:38,360
Speaker 1: around them. Weir you gotta do, you gotta get obvis

1001
00:56:38,360 --> 00:56:43,279
Speaker 1: into this. I keep trying. I mean, I haven't explicitly

1002
00:56:43,280 --> 00:56:46,640
Speaker 1: told him this. I'm sharing it with you first, But

1003
00:56:46,960 --> 00:56:50,480
Speaker 1: I've just got to be a normal fetish like because

1004
00:56:50,800 --> 00:56:54,040
Speaker 1: sometimes I get my tits sucked so hard I feel

1005
00:56:54,040 --> 00:56:56,200
Speaker 1: like they're going to have bruises, and so I know

1006
00:56:56,280 --> 00:56:59,680
Speaker 1: that they're guys like to do that, and babies leave

1007
00:56:59,680 --> 00:57:03,080
Speaker 1: bruise it like it's a very Just because a baby

1008
00:57:03,120 --> 00:57:06,919
Speaker 1: does it and we don't sexualize children obviously doesn't mean

1009
00:57:07,160 --> 00:57:12,000
Speaker 1: it's can't also be sexual and that doesn't mean it's wrong.

1010
00:57:12,320 --> 00:57:15,640
Speaker 1: I don't think, Yeah, I think you just gotta ask

1011
00:57:16,000 --> 00:57:18,960
Speaker 1: nipples till they're black and blue. No, well, you've got

1012
00:57:19,040 --> 00:57:22,200
Speaker 1: to get it, okay, I'll keep you posted. Yeah, let

1013
00:57:22,280 --> 00:57:26,040
Speaker 1: him know I think you should, uh you split his

1014
00:57:26,520 --> 00:57:30,400
Speaker 1: ball sack with your nose, yeah, and then say, hey, baby,

1015
00:57:30,400 --> 00:57:32,440
Speaker 1: why don't you rough up my nips? And then I

1016
00:57:32,520 --> 00:57:35,280
Speaker 1: don't think he'll. I think it's that weird. Just be

1017
00:57:35,320 --> 00:57:37,919
Speaker 1: like suck harder, sucking them like, I feel like they'd

1018
00:57:37,960 --> 00:57:40,320
Speaker 1: have to be sucked like really really hard for like

1019
00:57:40,440 --> 00:57:43,840
Speaker 1: a good while. Yeah, so maybe that's what you want,

1020
00:57:43,880 --> 00:57:45,919
Speaker 1: and maybe he would be into that. Like you don't

1021
00:57:45,960 --> 00:57:51,320
Speaker 1: even know, like what's his favorite condiment? Chocolate it there

1022
00:57:51,320 --> 00:57:55,240
Speaker 1: we go throw it on. I was saying that I

1023
00:57:55,280 --> 00:57:57,760
Speaker 1: was so constant because my boobs were huge over the

1024
00:57:58,240 --> 00:58:02,600
Speaker 1: in Hawaii and I was like, I love that. I

1025
00:58:02,640 --> 00:58:05,200
Speaker 1: say it weird, um, And I was saying that I

1026
00:58:05,280 --> 00:58:07,880
Speaker 1: was because Chris was like, poops, Jesus Christ, and I

1027
00:58:07,920 --> 00:58:10,480
Speaker 1: was like, I'm backed up. I was like, I got

1028
00:58:10,520 --> 00:58:14,560
Speaker 1: ship tits. I run a ruined my tits for him.

1029
00:58:14,560 --> 00:58:16,480
Speaker 1: I was like, they're just they're filled with ship It's

1030
00:58:16,480 --> 00:58:20,560
Speaker 1: all the way to you, Like, I got their ship tits,

1031
00:58:21,160 --> 00:58:24,560
Speaker 1: those full ship tits. Oh fuck my bed is here.

1032
00:58:24,840 --> 00:58:28,160
Speaker 1: Fuck your bed is here. Yeah, we can end the

1033
00:58:28,160 --> 00:58:30,560
Speaker 1: show without you piece out here. No, I'm not gonna

1034
00:58:30,600 --> 00:58:36,840
Speaker 1: hang up here. I'll just it's fine a five minutes. Okay,

1035
00:58:36,960 --> 00:58:40,640
Speaker 1: So there's I saw an ask women the subpredit says,

1036
00:58:40,720 --> 00:58:43,480
Speaker 1: what's what's one tiny daily habit? You have that makes

1037
00:58:43,480 --> 00:58:45,480
Speaker 1: your life run a bit smoother. I was just wondering

1038
00:58:45,480 --> 00:58:47,040
Speaker 1: what your guys would say. But I want to read

1039
00:58:47,080 --> 00:58:50,560
Speaker 1: some of these. This is obviously just women. Um. This

1040
00:58:50,720 --> 00:58:52,960
Speaker 1: was actually something that a bestie wrote into me that

1041
00:58:52,960 --> 00:58:56,080
Speaker 1: we talked about on the show that helped them. But um,

1042
00:58:56,120 --> 00:58:58,680
Speaker 1: this person says the two minute rule, originally reading it

1043
00:58:58,720 --> 00:59:02,120
Speaker 1: as getting things only read in it and getting things done,

1044
00:59:02,120 --> 00:59:04,200
Speaker 1: which I guess is a book. The rule is anything

1045
00:59:04,200 --> 00:59:06,080
Speaker 1: that takes less than two minutes to do it straight away,

1046
00:59:06,280 --> 00:59:08,560
Speaker 1: writing it down and then doing it later. We'll take longer.

1047
00:59:09,040 --> 00:59:11,640
Speaker 1: I love that. Someone says my kitchen must be spotless before,

1048
00:59:11,680 --> 00:59:14,360
Speaker 1: but ideally I set the coffee pot too. Um. Someone

1049
00:59:14,360 --> 00:59:18,080
Speaker 1: says I make my bed as soon as I wake up. Um,

1050
00:59:18,240 --> 00:59:21,080
Speaker 1: what about you guys? Anything come to mind that you're like, oh,

1051
00:59:21,280 --> 00:59:27,120
Speaker 1: drinking water in the morning? Yeah? Um yeah, just making

1052
00:59:28,520 --> 00:59:31,920
Speaker 1: a smoothie takes last time. Didn't you think like we

1053
00:59:31,960 --> 00:59:33,880
Speaker 1: always think, oh, we gotta get all the ingredients. I

1054
00:59:33,880 --> 00:59:36,120
Speaker 1: just throw it in there. I started drinking in the

1055
00:59:36,160 --> 00:59:42,479
Speaker 1: last two days. Very simple food prep That ship is easy. Um.

1056
00:59:42,520 --> 00:59:45,240
Speaker 1: Dividing my clothes like that was a big thing from

1057
00:59:45,240 --> 00:59:49,520
Speaker 1: moving to the new place. Of the like what could

1058
00:59:49,520 --> 00:59:52,360
Speaker 1: go to goodwill? And what do I need? And you

1059
00:59:52,480 --> 00:59:54,440
Speaker 1: just like be like, I can't get rid of things.

1060
00:59:54,840 --> 00:59:58,160
Speaker 1: I have so much attachment to it. And then you're like, oh,

1061
00:59:58,200 --> 01:00:00,440
Speaker 1: that took four minutes to be like I don't need

1062
01:00:01,360 --> 01:00:05,800
Speaker 1: my wardrobe anymore. I like that. Yeah, I don't know

1063
01:00:06,000 --> 01:00:09,320
Speaker 1: simple things like that that you build up in your head. Yes,

1064
01:00:09,880 --> 01:00:12,600
Speaker 1: I think that because I think you're so efficient with

1065
01:00:12,680 --> 01:00:16,919
Speaker 1: your like time and stuff. Yeah, I think that, Um,

1066
01:00:17,040 --> 01:00:20,040
Speaker 1: I usually am. I just I think that being reasonable

1067
01:00:20,040 --> 01:00:22,760
Speaker 1: about how long things will take is a helpful thing

1068
01:00:22,840 --> 01:00:26,520
Speaker 1: of like, just always add on more time than you think,

1069
01:00:26,720 --> 01:00:28,919
Speaker 1: or just at least start paying attention to how long

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01:00:28,960 --> 01:00:34,760
Speaker 1: things actually take. Um, I think that. Um. One thing

1071
01:00:34,840 --> 01:00:39,000
Speaker 1: I I do now that I think is great is

1072
01:00:40,400 --> 01:00:42,680
Speaker 1: not doing all or nothing things like and I think

1073
01:00:42,720 --> 01:00:44,520
Speaker 1: that goes into the two minute things like there's so

1074
01:00:44,520 --> 01:00:46,360
Speaker 1: many times that I go, I can't work on that

1075
01:00:46,400 --> 01:00:48,720
Speaker 1: thing because I don't have time to do it all. Well,

1076
01:00:48,720 --> 01:00:51,200
Speaker 1: the whole job is going to be seven hours. Why

1077
01:00:51,240 --> 01:00:53,000
Speaker 1: would I ever think I could do it all in

1078
01:00:53,080 --> 01:00:55,520
Speaker 1: one like, but that's how I work. I do things

1079
01:00:55,560 --> 01:00:57,680
Speaker 1: in seven hour chunks, and then I kill myself and

1080
01:00:57,680 --> 01:01:00,720
Speaker 1: I dread it and cleaning your room, like you can't

1081
01:01:00,800 --> 01:01:02,240
Speaker 1: maybe have time to clean your whole room, but you

1082
01:01:02,240 --> 01:01:06,600
Speaker 1: have time to do one like five minute thing. Put

1083
01:01:06,640 --> 01:01:11,040
Speaker 1: one jacket away, put like one little thing, straightening one

1084
01:01:11,080 --> 01:01:14,080
Speaker 1: little area can give you like a sense of it

1085
01:01:14,160 --> 01:01:18,560
Speaker 1: can spread much easier. And just not doing things in

1086
01:01:18,560 --> 01:01:23,120
Speaker 1: increments and not being so obsessed with perfection and having

1087
01:01:23,200 --> 01:01:25,920
Speaker 1: all or nothing. And I think that's helped me a lot.

1088
01:01:26,000 --> 01:01:33,960
Speaker 1: Being It's that's how I live my life. Okay, um,

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01:01:33,960 --> 01:01:36,640
Speaker 1: this is from today. I learned today. I learned there's

1090
01:01:36,680 --> 01:01:40,080
Speaker 1: an eighteen percent average mortality rate for catch and release fishing,

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01:01:40,120 --> 01:01:44,640
Speaker 1: with the rate varying significantly between species. So on average,

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01:01:44,640 --> 01:01:46,439
Speaker 1: if you're doing catch and release because and you feel

1093
01:01:46,440 --> 01:01:49,840
Speaker 1: like a fucking hero, almost of those fish one and

1094
01:01:49,920 --> 01:01:52,600
Speaker 1: five are gonna die. But just because you caught them

1095
01:01:52,600 --> 01:01:56,160
Speaker 1: in the first place. Good to know, I think, because

1096
01:01:56,200 --> 01:01:58,560
Speaker 1: I think people just go, oh, we're such a good person,

1097
01:01:59,800 --> 01:02:03,000
Speaker 1: you know. I mean, yeah, I agree with that. I

1098
01:02:03,080 --> 01:02:05,680
Speaker 1: just feel like they're probably gonna die pretty soon. Anyways,

1099
01:02:06,400 --> 01:02:11,000
Speaker 1: what get eaten by? No, that's not how it works.

1100
01:02:11,400 --> 01:02:15,920
Speaker 1: How do they fish? Like all fish look almost exactly identical.

1101
01:02:16,280 --> 01:02:23,560
Speaker 1: How do they know which fish because experts and they

1102
01:02:23,600 --> 01:02:28,960
Speaker 1: probably are like, I don't know, but you guys, just

1103
01:02:29,040 --> 01:02:32,640
Speaker 1: it's good enough, don't don't probably just no one should fish.

1104
01:02:32,800 --> 01:02:34,720
Speaker 1: I always feel bad for the fishes that have their

1105
01:02:35,080 --> 01:02:37,480
Speaker 1: Like it's traumatizing to have a fucking hook in your mouth.

1106
01:02:37,520 --> 01:02:38,600
Speaker 1: A lot of times you can't get it out. You

1107
01:02:38,600 --> 01:02:40,800
Speaker 1: have to rip, like fish feel pain. By the way,

1108
01:02:40,840 --> 01:02:44,040
Speaker 1: So anything you're telling yourself about fishing and how it's like, oh,

1109
01:02:44,080 --> 01:02:47,040
Speaker 1: I'm not keeping it like, well, then you're tossing about

1110
01:02:47,040 --> 01:02:49,160
Speaker 1: in it's gonna die. And I know it's gonna die anyway.

1111
01:02:49,160 --> 01:02:50,720
Speaker 1: But so we're all of us, So should we just

1112
01:02:50,800 --> 01:02:55,120
Speaker 1: all hook ourselves in the mouth? Like? No? All right? Um?

1113
01:02:55,160 --> 01:02:57,240
Speaker 1: What is this is? From? Ask credit? What's your? I

1114
01:02:57,360 --> 01:03:05,080
Speaker 1: fucking hate this song? Song? Song? Song? Mine is moves

1115
01:03:05,080 --> 01:03:13,480
Speaker 1: like Jagger? I don't moves like Jager? What is your?

1116
01:03:13,640 --> 01:03:17,800
Speaker 1: I fucking hate this song song? Oh yeah, I hate that.

1117
01:03:18,480 --> 01:03:21,880
Speaker 1: I mean, I uh, that one song somebody I used

1118
01:03:21,920 --> 01:03:25,920
Speaker 1: to know went from good for one day to the

1119
01:03:25,960 --> 01:03:28,800
Speaker 1: worst song I've ever heard in my life, said the

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01:03:29,280 --> 01:03:32,040
Speaker 1: TikTok song. Oh no no no, oh no, no no

1121
01:03:32,040 --> 01:03:35,040
Speaker 1: no no that one. I don't know that one. I

1122
01:03:35,040 --> 01:03:37,360
Speaker 1: don't like that song. Let the Bodies hit the floor.

1123
01:03:38,320 --> 01:03:40,720
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I feel like that. I would describe

1124
01:03:40,720 --> 01:03:42,320
Speaker 1: that as the only kind of music you listen to

1125
01:03:42,880 --> 01:03:48,120
Speaker 1: unless it's your nipples that would really hard. Um, that's

1126
01:03:48,120 --> 01:03:53,200
Speaker 1: so funny. Uh fancy like by Walker Hayes. I don't

1127
01:03:53,200 --> 01:03:55,520
Speaker 1: know that fight song. People are saying fight song a lot.

1128
01:03:56,040 --> 01:04:00,360
Speaker 1: I love fancy likes terrible. It's this new country song. Oh,

1129
01:04:00,560 --> 01:04:04,640
Speaker 1: going to Apple Bays on a Tuesday, on a Waynesday,

1130
01:04:04,880 --> 01:04:08,960
Speaker 1: getting drunk brands on Thay. Got Everyone's saying fancy like

1131
01:04:09,000 --> 01:04:11,919
Speaker 1: on this ask credit. I'm an island boy. People hate

1132
01:04:11,920 --> 01:04:13,920
Speaker 1: that song. That doesn't get These don't kind of songs

1133
01:04:13,960 --> 01:04:16,600
Speaker 1: to me. Um, fight song? Why are people saying fight song?

1134
01:04:16,720 --> 01:04:21,640
Speaker 1: I love that song. This is my fight song. I

1135
01:04:21,720 --> 01:04:26,840
Speaker 1: liked it until that someone said, oh ha ha, that's

1136
01:04:26,840 --> 01:04:31,560
Speaker 1: like oh no no oh no no no no no no, yeah, yes,

1137
01:04:31,640 --> 01:04:35,520
Speaker 1: yes yeah. Shape of You and Baby Shark I love.

1138
01:04:35,560 --> 01:04:39,040
Speaker 1: I'm in love with Shape. People hate that song. I've

1139
01:04:39,040 --> 01:04:42,840
Speaker 1: heard that a lot. Um Wow, people singing fight song

1140
01:04:42,920 --> 01:04:48,280
Speaker 1: because it's the cancer anthem. Oh girls Like You by

1141
01:04:48,320 --> 01:04:53,240
Speaker 1: Marine five. I kind of like that song. Uh all right, God,

1142
01:04:53,320 --> 01:04:57,200
Speaker 1: it's all the same songs. It's so funny. Um, alright,

1143
01:04:57,320 --> 01:05:02,320
Speaker 1: the ones that are played the most final thoughts, Yeah

1144
01:05:02,400 --> 01:05:05,360
Speaker 1: you're right, but no, there's some songs that are played

1145
01:05:05,400 --> 01:05:09,080
Speaker 1: a lot that I don't mind, I guess, but yeah,

1146
01:05:09,200 --> 01:05:13,480
Speaker 1: you're not wrong. Um. This was true off my Chest.

1147
01:05:13,560 --> 01:05:15,080
Speaker 1: This was from the subread at true off my Chest.

1148
01:05:15,080 --> 01:05:16,960
Speaker 1: I threw a Christmas party a week ago, and no

1149
01:05:17,000 --> 01:05:19,720
Speaker 1: one other than my mom showed up. A few of

1150
01:05:19,720 --> 01:05:22,360
Speaker 1: my coworkers offered explanations when I asked it about it

1151
01:05:22,440 --> 01:05:24,000
Speaker 1: the next time I saw them, but no one else

1152
01:05:24,240 --> 01:05:26,520
Speaker 1: even gave me an excuse. It sucks too because I

1153
01:05:26,560 --> 01:05:28,480
Speaker 1: spent more money than I should have on the decorations

1154
01:05:28,480 --> 01:05:30,840
Speaker 1: of food, then spent the night staring out the window

1155
01:05:30,840 --> 01:05:33,080
Speaker 1: waiting for guests, only for no one but my mom

1156
01:05:33,120 --> 01:05:34,880
Speaker 1: to show up after I called her crying about it.

1157
01:05:34,920 --> 01:05:36,680
Speaker 1: The whole thing hurts more than I can ever admit.

1158
01:05:37,160 --> 01:05:42,240
Speaker 1: All that sucks. I mean, what were their excuses? I wonder?

1159
01:05:42,360 --> 01:05:45,200
Speaker 1: I mean, did they say they were going to go? Like? Why?

1160
01:05:45,320 --> 01:05:49,200
Speaker 1: It makes me? That makes me so fucking sad. And

1161
01:05:49,400 --> 01:05:52,720
Speaker 1: we've all been there of like just feeling like no

1162
01:05:52,760 --> 01:05:58,040
Speaker 1: one cares and we're being left out and like trying

1163
01:05:58,080 --> 01:06:02,480
Speaker 1: too hard, like getting dressed up for something that no

1164
01:06:02,480 --> 01:06:04,840
Speaker 1: one else cared about, or like it's just such a

1165
01:06:04,880 --> 01:06:09,600
Speaker 1: lonely feeling sorry for and that the opposite happened. You

1166
01:06:09,600 --> 01:06:11,720
Speaker 1: didn't have a party and everyone showed up. Well, I

1167
01:06:11,760 --> 01:06:15,480
Speaker 1: had a party and too many people showed up, and

1168
01:06:15,520 --> 01:06:17,640
Speaker 1: some of those people like I had spent so much

1169
01:06:17,680 --> 01:06:19,800
Speaker 1: money on like cold cuts, and like this is at

1170
01:06:19,800 --> 01:06:21,680
Speaker 1: a time where I had like no money, but I

1171
01:06:21,720 --> 01:06:24,000
Speaker 1: really like I wanted to make it a nice party

1172
01:06:24,000 --> 01:06:26,880
Speaker 1: for people. And people came in and they put like

1173
01:06:26,960 --> 01:06:29,160
Speaker 1: their cigarettes out on the cold cuts. It just like

1174
01:06:29,200 --> 01:06:31,800
Speaker 1: went totally out of control. My god, and I had

1175
01:06:31,800 --> 01:06:35,120
Speaker 1: a similar feeling at the end. I just I felt

1176
01:06:35,120 --> 01:06:42,080
Speaker 1: so like violated and the silver lining and she didn't

1177
01:06:42,120 --> 01:06:44,720
Speaker 1: have to clean up all the ship that would have happened.

1178
01:06:45,200 --> 01:06:46,960
Speaker 1: She had to clean up their decorations that were not

1179
01:06:47,040 --> 01:06:49,640
Speaker 1: even used, and like all the food. It's it's such

1180
01:06:49,680 --> 01:06:52,480
Speaker 1: a lonely feeling for people who don't have friends. You

1181
01:06:52,520 --> 01:06:54,520
Speaker 1: don't have friends, It is not your fault. It is

1182
01:06:54,560 --> 01:06:57,640
Speaker 1: a lucky thing to have friends. Like it's just you're

1183
01:06:57,640 --> 01:06:59,520
Speaker 1: in the right place at the right time. Some people

1184
01:06:59,600 --> 01:07:01,800
Speaker 1: like live in areas where everyone sucks and you're there

1185
01:07:01,840 --> 01:07:04,720
Speaker 1: because of what, Like, it's not your fault if you

1186
01:07:04,760 --> 01:07:06,920
Speaker 1: don't have friends, especially if you're listening to this podcast,

1187
01:07:06,960 --> 01:07:09,720
Speaker 1: your cool as fuck. Um, And I really mean that, Like,

1188
01:07:09,800 --> 01:07:12,280
Speaker 1: you can't enjoy this podcast if you're not like someone

1189
01:07:12,320 --> 01:07:15,840
Speaker 1: who's emotionally intellectual. And maybe I'm patting myself on the back,

1190
01:07:15,880 --> 01:07:19,160
Speaker 1: but I just believe that to be true. Um, I

1191
01:07:19,200 --> 01:07:22,520
Speaker 1: think like I bring it back so other people couldn't

1192
01:07:22,600 --> 01:07:26,480
Speaker 1: enjoy it. What'd you say, Like, I'm not that emotionally? Like,

1193
01:07:26,960 --> 01:07:33,040
Speaker 1: are you cried on the show today? Buddy? Never happened? Uh?

1194
01:07:33,240 --> 01:07:36,200
Speaker 1: You cried? Also, can we talk about Larry David tomorrow

1195
01:07:36,240 --> 01:07:39,000
Speaker 1: to tease it? Oh? Yeah, I mean I was going

1196
01:07:39,040 --> 01:07:42,160
Speaker 1: to talk about, Um, just how that that party thing

1197
01:07:42,240 --> 01:07:46,040
Speaker 1: reminded me of I'm watching Arrested Development again because on

1198
01:07:46,080 --> 01:07:49,200
Speaker 1: the trip, I was with one of the like the

1199
01:07:51,000 --> 01:07:53,360
Speaker 1: I was I was with one of the writers of

1200
01:07:53,560 --> 01:07:57,520
Speaker 1: Arrested Aliltman, who who wrote the first season and subsequent

1201
01:07:57,560 --> 01:08:01,560
Speaker 1: episodes with Mitch Mitchell Hurwitz and who was the creator,

1202
01:08:01,640 --> 01:08:04,360
Speaker 1: and he was like they met and um, they met

1203
01:08:04,400 --> 01:08:07,840
Speaker 1: on the Golden Girls staff and then they Mitchell started,

1204
01:08:08,120 --> 01:08:12,480
Speaker 1: uh you know, created rest Development and wrote with Jim Valley,

1205
01:08:12,560 --> 01:08:14,200
Speaker 1: like they two wrote it and his name is Jim

1206
01:08:14,240 --> 01:08:17,960
Speaker 1: Valley and he's amazing. He's like the best guy ever.

1207
01:08:18,080 --> 01:08:20,639
Speaker 1: I love him so much. He's so funny, so cool.

1208
01:08:20,880 --> 01:08:23,960
Speaker 1: I got all my rest of development questions answered. Um,

1209
01:08:24,040 --> 01:08:25,560
Speaker 1: and I'm going back and watching the first season with

1210
01:08:25,640 --> 01:08:27,599
Speaker 1: Chris and we're having so much fun. But that party

1211
01:08:27,600 --> 01:08:32,479
Speaker 1: thing reminded me of like just Lucille Bluth. Uh yeah,

1212
01:08:32,520 --> 01:08:35,720
Speaker 1: the mother, the matriarch. They she's having like a they

1213
01:08:35,880 --> 01:08:38,360
Speaker 1: have a surprise party and no one is there constantly

1214
01:08:38,400 --> 01:08:40,719
Speaker 1: because all of her children like hater and like everyone

1215
01:08:40,760 --> 01:08:43,519
Speaker 1: on the show is just detestable and hilarious. But it's

1216
01:08:43,560 --> 01:08:46,400
Speaker 1: such a fucking great show. And I can't believe I

1217
01:08:46,400 --> 01:08:48,240
Speaker 1: know one of the creators now it's just um or,

1218
01:08:48,280 --> 01:08:52,360
Speaker 1: Like you know, one of the main to write that

1219
01:08:52,560 --> 01:08:57,000
Speaker 1: show is like if Succession had more of a sense

1220
01:08:57,040 --> 01:09:01,320
Speaker 1: of humor. Yeah, absolutely, And I even said that Lindsay

1221
01:09:01,360 --> 01:09:08,519
Speaker 1: Bluth Pordossi reminded me of the girl what's her name? Oh? Um?

1222
01:09:09,760 --> 01:09:15,559
Speaker 1: Six ship ship ship ship ship is that right? Shift? God?

1223
01:09:15,560 --> 01:09:17,400
Speaker 1: That reminds me of a joke from Rust of Development

1224
01:09:17,400 --> 01:09:23,320
Speaker 1: where the father is in prison and he says Um,

1225
01:09:23,360 --> 01:09:26,360
Speaker 1: you know, I I'm worried about in the showers, like

1226
01:09:26,360 --> 01:09:29,840
Speaker 1: I could get strangled or or something or something worse

1227
01:09:29,920 --> 01:09:33,880
Speaker 1: and Buster goes or like stabbed and he goes in

1228
01:09:33,920 --> 01:09:38,479
Speaker 1: a way or something like that. It was so good.

1229
01:09:38,920 --> 01:09:41,439
Speaker 1: I just love that show. It's pack shock full of

1230
01:09:41,520 --> 01:09:43,200
Speaker 1: jokes and like you can watch it over and over

1231
01:09:43,240 --> 01:09:46,479
Speaker 1: and like I've seen this season four times and I'm

1232
01:09:46,479 --> 01:09:48,920
Speaker 1: still I don't remember things like it's so nice to

1233
01:09:49,080 --> 01:09:51,800
Speaker 1: have a bad memory for stuff like this. Um, so

1234
01:09:51,920 --> 01:09:54,599
Speaker 1: much more to talk about, including a running with Larry

1235
01:09:54,680 --> 01:09:57,479
Speaker 1: David and more than a run and a hang out

1236
01:09:57,479 --> 01:10:04,160
Speaker 1: with Larry David Private je It's will watching uh Constipation,

1237
01:10:04,320 --> 01:10:07,760
Speaker 1: six Flags, and much more this week on the Nick

1238
01:10:07,760 --> 01:10:11,759
Speaker 1: you Glazer podcast Don't be cut out there and uh yeah,

1239
01:10:16,280 --> 01:10:17,679
Speaker 1: I've been studying over the weeks