WEBVTT - “THEY THREW MY BROTHER IN JAIL”

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hello, Hi, what's your name?

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<v Speaker 2>To get the jez jezz?

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<v Speaker 3>What's up?

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<v Speaker 1>Jezz?

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<v Speaker 4>No?

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<v Speaker 2>I stood? What are you up to?

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<v Speaker 1>Not much? Are you calling from Australia?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, cool? Yeah, I mean Australia. It's not very

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<v Speaker 2>sunny and hot out writing.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you guys have a lot of civil rights in Australia?

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<v Speaker 2>Civil rights? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Like, cause I don't know, like I keep all right,

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<v Speaker 1>So I've been thinking a lot about America, and I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, America, we're like, well, like we get like

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<v Speaker 1>our whole thing is like we have a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>freedom right, But I'm like, there are a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>places that kind of have that.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, we did have.

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<v Speaker 2>Protected I don't know the state. Sorry, h We do

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<v Speaker 2>have rights, but they're not constitutionally protected like they are

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<v Speaker 2>in the US. For example, hate speech laws that have

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<v Speaker 2>just been created, like they sort of take away the

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<v Speaker 2>right to free speech from certain groups.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting, there was a guy getting arrested here. I know, man,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know. I know a lot of bad shit's

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<v Speaker 1>going on in America right now. But I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>there's this guy. This guy got arrested outside of my

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<v Speaker 1>apartment like a little bit down the street and Uh,

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<v Speaker 1>this guy's getting arrested, and this other guy was like

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<v Speaker 1>went up to the cop and started screaming at him

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<v Speaker 1>and went like, go, suck a fucking dick, Suck a

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<v Speaker 1>fucking dick, you, suck a dick, Suck a fucking dick.

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<v Speaker 1>Fuck you, suck a fucking dick. Fuck you. And I

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<v Speaker 1>was like there and I was like and I was

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<v Speaker 1>like I watched that. I was like, that is kind

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<v Speaker 1>of awesome. I'm like, that is America working as it

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<v Speaker 1>was intended to, because there's so many places in the

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<v Speaker 1>world where if you did that to like a police officer,

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<v Speaker 1>you would die.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>In Australia, you get like trying to set really well yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>like it couldn't. It's so like you're impeding the process

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<v Speaker 2>of law enforcement. I guess, Well, he wasn't.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, he wasn't like getting up in his face about it,

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<v Speaker 1>but he was like he was standing like he's standing,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, a respectful enough distance away, but still.

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<v Speaker 2>Yelling that oh and just tackling in. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Can you guess So if that happened in Australia, would

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<v Speaker 1>that guy get arrested?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>I would well, dependently context like, but yeah, if they

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<v Speaker 2>get going for like suit like a super long time,

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<v Speaker 2>they'll get screwed, Like they will get arrested and like

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<v Speaker 2>sty'll have some ship thrown at them for no reason.

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<v Speaker 2>It's like it's a pretty like and in Australia as well,

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<v Speaker 2>like it's not very well known, but like judges at

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<v Speaker 2>the courts will try and make examples out of people

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<v Speaker 2>because of like certain crimes that they're trying to reduce.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like a crazy story about that happening to my brother.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh really yeah, like strapping his nuts. So my brother

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<v Speaker 2>was in a situation where some people were trying to

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<v Speaker 2>like murder him, right, Oh my god. And yeah, so

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<v Speaker 2>they're like they had him like tied up, They're like

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<v Speaker 2>injected him with some sort of thing that made him

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<v Speaker 2>pass out, and he like woke up and during like

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<v Speaker 2>trying to escape, he killed this guy.

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<v Speaker 1>Right wait, so wait, so this so your brother, someone

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<v Speaker 1>was trying to murder your brother, and then your brother escaped,

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<v Speaker 1>and then while escaping he had to like he killed someone.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, because he was in like a car and he

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<v Speaker 2>was like locked inside it with these guys. Wow, and

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<v Speaker 2>there was a convenient like yeah a knife in the

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<v Speaker 2>back and yeah kind of kind of murphed this guy

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<v Speaker 2>whoa Yeah, but at the time in Australia there was

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<v Speaker 2>this massive problem with like kids bringing knives to school

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<v Speaker 2>and just like a massive rising knife crime. So instead

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<v Speaker 2>of and you have like the self defense aspect coming

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<v Speaker 2>into play for him, as like his wife was threatened,

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<v Speaker 2>he's had the whole book thrown out him. You go,

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<v Speaker 2>I think like thirty years or something like that, considerations

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<v Speaker 2>your self deferse Wow, yeah, man, yeah, I'll be like

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<v Speaker 2>fifty five when he gets.

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<v Speaker 3>Out, I think.

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<v Speaker 1>Damn. So he's in right now.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, and you'll be in prison for another twenty three years.

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<v Speaker 2>I think.

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<v Speaker 1>Jesus Christ, how how old was he when that happened.

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<v Speaker 2>I think he was like like early twenties, like twenty

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<v Speaker 2>to twenty three.

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<v Speaker 1>Dude, jeezus crazy sool that's super fuck. Do you visit him?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh No, I don't. I kind of set contact with

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<v Speaker 2>him because I was in a job where I wasn't

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<v Speaker 2>about to visit prison, and then I just sort of

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<v Speaker 2>shout out of contact with him.

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<v Speaker 1>Wait, you were in a job where you weren't allowed

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<v Speaker 1>to visit prisons.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I was in the military, so and like I

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<v Speaker 2>wasn't allowed to go visit prisons while I was serving.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, and I also have like a like a strange

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<v Speaker 2>relationship with him, so it's kind of hard too.

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<v Speaker 1>Why did you have a strange relationship with him?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, like like strange, Like it was very difficult.

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<v Speaker 3>Because he was he wasn't like he wasn't the greatest.

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<v Speaker 2>Role model, Like he was not not a bad egg,

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<v Speaker 2>but he was up to no good and made it

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<v Speaker 2>very hard for like me growing up because it was

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<v Speaker 2>like a small area. Have we lived there, and yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>made mama pretty hard.

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<v Speaker 1>What was the I mean not like like oh okay,

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<v Speaker 1>so he would go around cars in trouble and making

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<v Speaker 1>a bad name for the family in a small area

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<v Speaker 1>and then you're associated with him, so it's putting, it's

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<v Speaker 1>making your life harder to kind of thing.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, absolutely, like because people would like Carnie was the

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<v Speaker 2>same brush, I guess.

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<v Speaker 3>You'd call it. Like they would be like, oh, that's

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<v Speaker 3>like this guy's.

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<v Speaker 2>Brother, even though I was like the completely opposite of

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<v Speaker 2>like a normal dude doing normal things and like I'd

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<v Speaker 2>get like pulled over and have my car like sirch

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<v Speaker 2>like once a week and by the police. You're not

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<v Speaker 2>like I've never been to the police station before. Wow, finally, like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>it was pretty ridiculous. So you know, it's I should

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<v Speaker 2>visit him, but I it's I don't like to. I

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<v Speaker 2>guess going in prisons.

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<v Speaker 4>Do I.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you have siby other siblings besides him?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh no, it's just me.

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<v Speaker 1>And do your parents visit him?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, pretty frequently. And I like, look house sit for

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<v Speaker 2>them while they're gone. I guess that's my contribution.

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<v Speaker 1>You guys go visit you guys go visit my brother.

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<v Speaker 1>I'll water the plants while you're gone.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I watered the points, look after the dogs and all.

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<v Speaker 2>That's great.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, no, that's that is definitely a better part of

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<v Speaker 1>the gig for sure. That's a better end of the

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<v Speaker 1>deal for you.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's sometimes it's annoying, but because it's always on

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<v Speaker 2>like a Saturday, not i'ld say there because you like,

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<v Speaker 2>but my friends had to travel, like like it's a

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<v Speaker 2>ten hour around trip to visit whoa really yeah, and

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<v Speaker 2>it's like driving to there's no flight to that sort

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<v Speaker 2>of area.

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<v Speaker 1>What I mean, I don't want to. I don't want

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<v Speaker 1>you to doc yourself. But like so he's wait, which

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<v Speaker 1>city do you live?

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<v Speaker 3>In.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh I didn't like Canbra like they.

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<v Speaker 1>No, I know camera, it's the fucking yeah, it's the capitol.

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<v Speaker 1>I know Camebra. I'm hip.

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<v Speaker 2>You got to come to sometime, saga, you got to

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<v Speaker 2>come to camera sometimes comedy camera, like just come heat

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<v Speaker 2>for sure.

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<v Speaker 1>Uh yeah I did. I did an Australia tour fucking

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<v Speaker 1>almost three years ago. Now I didn't hit Canberra, but

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<v Speaker 1>uh I had a good time.

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<v Speaker 4>Man.

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<v Speaker 1>I like Australia, but yeah, I didn't hit Canberra. What

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<v Speaker 1>are do you know what prisons are like in Australia,

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<v Speaker 1>Like you know how okay, like you know how in

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<v Speaker 1>fucking Denmark and stuff, like the prisons are super nice?

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<v Speaker 1>Are they nice? There?

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<v Speaker 4>Have you?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you have any idea?

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<v Speaker 4>No?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I say, like I I know from like my

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<v Speaker 2>brother and I have a couple of like preendid and

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<v Speaker 2>stuff that have been inside. And it's pretty fucked like

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<v Speaker 2>there's a lot, like a lot of a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>like drug use like different often which is like an

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<v Speaker 2>opio to replacement therapy. Everyone's like on that, and it's

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<v Speaker 2>it's like getting stuff in there, like it's pretty similar

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<v Speaker 2>to it's not like people will go in there for

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<v Speaker 2>like maybe tax fraud for like six months and they'll

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<v Speaker 2>come out just like ten times worse than the first

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<v Speaker 2>and they like entered prisondents. WHOA, it's not a it's

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<v Speaker 2>not something that reforms to people. Since I want to

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<v Speaker 2>say the length of I went in a length of time,

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<v Speaker 2>so my docksity.

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<v Speaker 3>But my brother was in.

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<v Speaker 2>Prison before he's this now sentence. So he was in,

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<v Speaker 2>he got out and he went back and people the

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<v Speaker 2>reoffending rate in Australia is just nuts.

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<v Speaker 1>Wait, so hold on, so your brother got out like

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<v Speaker 1>fully out and then he just like committed another crime.

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<v Speaker 1>What would happen?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, so he was in for like this. I think

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<v Speaker 2>he was like got a quiet with someone who was

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<v Speaker 2>an assaulting and he was in for like a like

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<v Speaker 2>a short spent of time like a team months, and

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<v Speaker 2>then he was out and then he ended up like

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<v Speaker 2>reascending and going back in.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh like okay, so the so he's in right now

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<v Speaker 1>for the knife thing, but he went to prison before that.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, yeah, he went to prison before. For a second.

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<v Speaker 1>Dude, why was who who the fuck was trying to

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<v Speaker 1>kill your brother?

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<v Speaker 2>Junkie say, it's like.

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<v Speaker 1>Not like some you said, you said some junkie.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it was some junkies, and it was like they're

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<v Speaker 2>all just like on my god, I think it is

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<v Speaker 2>like nassive stuff. I don't know if the problem was

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<v Speaker 2>that they were, and apparently it was because it was

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<v Speaker 2>like over a girl. Fuck man, it was like the

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<v Speaker 2>most crazy situation.

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<v Speaker 1>You seem like go ahead, sorry, oh no, you you

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<v Speaker 1>go uh you seem it suck. I don't know if

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<v Speaker 1>it's just because it's in the past or whatever, but

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<v Speaker 1>you seem like you're you're at this point fairly like

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<v Speaker 1>detached from your brother.

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<v Speaker 2>It was very detached from my life in general. It's

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<v Speaker 2>the same m hm, like I just you sort of

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<v Speaker 2>got it. Just you like you can't create it, like

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<v Speaker 2>you can't make it like always bad ship your identity.

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<v Speaker 2>Otherwise it would just like each you inside, like each

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<v Speaker 2>you up. Oh yeah, if you like stay like in

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<v Speaker 2>like you like you still acknowledge that these things are,

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<v Speaker 2>like you know, they're terrible things and they have profound

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<v Speaker 2>impact on your life, but you can't like make that

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<v Speaker 2>who you are. And it's like people like see you

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<v Speaker 2>and it's like, oh, this is the person that had

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<v Speaker 2>this thing happened to them and that thing.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, right totally.

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<v Speaker 2>Mm hmm. It can be seen as weakness, and then

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<v Speaker 2>people who could dreap it was weak and then they,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, they could take advantage of yours mm hmmmm

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<v Speaker 2>hmm in that manner which I've experienced before.

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<v Speaker 3>M hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I mean that makes one hundred percent. Uh, that

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<v Speaker 1>makes a hundred sent success. That makes one hundred percent

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<v Speaker 1>sense that like, you don't want to be fucking defined

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<v Speaker 1>by the bad ship that happens to you. But okay,

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<v Speaker 1>they want to ask you this because you said, we

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<v Speaker 1>talked about your brother a little bit. We just got

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<v Speaker 1>on the subject kind of randomly. You said, you're feeling

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<v Speaker 1>detached in general.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, just from like like holding on to the past.

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<v Speaker 1>I'd say, hmm, oh, okay, do you feel detached from

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<v Speaker 1>the present.

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<v Speaker 2>I'll live in the moment, but like the moment leaves

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<v Speaker 2>me quite quickly, like the something bad happens, it won't

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<v Speaker 2>be with me the next day.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmmm.

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<v Speaker 2>How much as like terrible course.

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<v Speaker 3>But it doesn't.

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<v Speaker 2>Don't let it like consume me. I try not to

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<v Speaker 2>the least, but.

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<v Speaker 1>I thought, I guess, uh, okay, so just you're not

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<v Speaker 1>like depressed, You're just like living in the moment.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh oh I am yeah, okay, sorry, definitely I didn't

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<v Speaker 2>diagnose that. I don't take anything for medication wise.

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<v Speaker 3>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>How old are you?

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<v Speaker 2>M twenty five?

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<v Speaker 1>Twenty five five? You're twenty five. Do you live with

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<v Speaker 1>your parents?

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<v Speaker 4>No?

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<v Speaker 2>I live by myself. Pretty pretty chill. I want to

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<v Speaker 2>like a I was in the in the military. I

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<v Speaker 2>broke my back and shit, the more fucked up.

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<v Speaker 3>So its like.

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<v Speaker 2>I have a pension just hang out fucking great, but

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<v Speaker 2>not really it sucks.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>So so.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, you were in the military and you broke your back.

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<v Speaker 1>What happens?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, it was just like just during like doing like

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<v Speaker 2>army ship. Just like I've had like an initial injury

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<v Speaker 2>that it got worse and worse and then there's a

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<v Speaker 2>point was like paralyzed for a little while. That one

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<v Speaker 2>was fun m h And yeah, it gets to a

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<v Speaker 2>point where they do it thing. It's like they medically

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<v Speaker 2>discharging it. So they say you're like you're fucked up man,

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<v Speaker 2>So you're like, how old on you have?

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<v Speaker 1>How long do you have money for? Like do you

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<v Speaker 1>do they just like pay you for for like the

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<v Speaker 1>rest of your life.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's like the VA over there likes it's called

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<v Speaker 2>d VA here like Department of Veterans are Fair and yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>basically like it's not my plan to be like on

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<v Speaker 2>it for the rest of my life because I like

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<v Speaker 2>to study. But like I know people who have been

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<v Speaker 2>on it for like thirty years, and a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>them fucked up. But I think they're they are that

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<v Speaker 2>way because they've like remained in like the mindset of

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<v Speaker 2>what happened to them, of the discredit like what they've done.

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<v Speaker 2>But it, as I was saying, like they never detached

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<v Speaker 2>themselves from that life. So what you're saying, the laways

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<v Speaker 2>have to be this this way because it becomes identity.

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<v Speaker 2>I know a guy and he's fifty five ish, he's

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<v Speaker 2>like fifty five and like he's that's only like twenty

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<v Speaker 2>thirty years ago, like cynically but mentally, like no, he's

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<v Speaker 2>still there.

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<v Speaker 4>He like.

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<v Speaker 2>Still like like he sees himself as above tea people

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<v Speaker 2>due to the rank he had or under some people

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<v Speaker 2>I say, had to hire one. And he acts like

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<v Speaker 2>everything he does is in this sense. But because you

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<v Speaker 2>never let it go, you've got severe PTSD, you're never

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<v Speaker 2>in like an environment that.

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<v Speaker 3>Have fostered growth MM hmmm.

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<v Speaker 2>So I don't really hang out with people in a

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<v Speaker 2>similar situation as me.

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<v Speaker 3>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 2>We're just yeah, we're all like see like I've read

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<v Speaker 2>it it's from time to sign with my friends, but

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<v Speaker 2>I don't talk about how bad it was all the time.

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<v Speaker 1>So I assume is this is this a conditional pension?

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<v Speaker 1>Meaning can you if you start to work again or

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<v Speaker 1>make an income or file anything on your taxes, does

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<v Speaker 1>it go away?

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<v Speaker 2>So yeah, partially, it's so there's like one organization that's

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<v Speaker 2>like for life understood, like until you get a job

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<v Speaker 2>that meets or exceeds the level of the job that

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<v Speaker 2>you're doing, like in the military. So that's like if

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<v Speaker 2>let's say you were like like an accountant in the army,

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<v Speaker 2>for example, if you become an accountant in like the

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<v Speaker 2>normal world, then you'll lose defension. But if you're in

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<v Speaker 2>the infantry, there's like no job that compares to that,

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<v Speaker 2>so you'll have it forever. And then there's another organization

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<v Speaker 2>that like calculates like hours and it basically once you

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<v Speaker 2>start working like over twenty hours a week, they just

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<v Speaker 2>like cut that like h off of your pension.

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<v Speaker 3>So it ends up being like.

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<v Speaker 2>Like twenty five percent less fortunately for your whole pension

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<v Speaker 2>because you've worked. But it's it kind of doesn't work

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<v Speaker 2>out very well. There is like there's little there's very

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<v Speaker 2>little incentive to work at nine to five for people

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<v Speaker 2>in this edition because they earn more money not doing so.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, that bad. So let's talk about you. So you're

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<v Speaker 1>uh you said, I have a pension, so I don't

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<v Speaker 1>really have to do anything, which is awesome but also sucks.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>So yeah, are you are you? Are you?

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<v Speaker 2>Are?

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<v Speaker 3>You?

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<v Speaker 1>Can you walk?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? I can, like like pretty much every moment of

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<v Speaker 2>my life I've since I've been in pain. Mm hmmm.

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<v Speaker 2>And like I went to like I rehab impatient facility.

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<v Speaker 2>It wasn't like a rehabit was a mental health thing.

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<v Speaker 2>But because I was taking this like like a lethal

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<v Speaker 2>amount of pain killers every day, and I got into

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<v Speaker 2>something a bit better. And like the hand off is

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<v Speaker 2>like I'm awakened, present in the day, but I'm in

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<v Speaker 2>like a like an amount of pain, so I have

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<v Speaker 2>to tolerate or I can just be like not it

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<v Speaker 2>out in my mind all day. So I got off

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<v Speaker 2>the painments and it's like a walk. I can't run,

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<v Speaker 2>I can't stand for that long, I walk that far. Yeah,

0:21:54.880 --> 0:21:58.440
<v Speaker 2>I have like lifting problems and ships.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, like it's.

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<v Speaker 2>Crazy like to be it's actually normal. But it's like

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<v Speaker 2>people like twenty five shouldn't be that fucked up. It's like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>it's pretty bad.

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<v Speaker 1>Hmmm. So you said, uh, you said that staying on

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<v Speaker 1>the pension is not your plan because you studied. So

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<v Speaker 1>what's uh what's that future? It seems like you have

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<v Speaker 1>a you have a lot of future aspirations all this notwithstanding,

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<v Speaker 1>what do those look like?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? I just want to like so like me and

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<v Speaker 2>a friend of getting into like business issue, Like he's

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<v Speaker 2>looking at opening back to retail. So it's like building

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<v Speaker 2>up front and doing stuff because it's just like something

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<v Speaker 2>to do.

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<v Speaker 1>Kick ass. Wait, that'd be sick. Where what's the stock?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, like probably likasto, that'd be awesome. It sounds terrible.

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<v Speaker 2>So like we have there's like a like obviously like

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<v Speaker 2>maybe I don't know about in America, but they're kind

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<v Speaker 2>of in like a cost of living crisis here in

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<v Speaker 2>Australia is what they say, but it's really a recession.

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<v Speaker 2>It's probably the same in the States. It's like everything's

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<v Speaker 2>too expensive.

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<v Speaker 1>At the moment, Yes, happening in the States.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, the last things people give up in these trying

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<v Speaker 2>times is tobacco, our whole and drugs and like in

0:23:36.080 --> 0:23:39.040
<v Speaker 2>it's coming. But like I don't know, people could buy

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<v Speaker 2>wherever they go. They're going to buy it from somewhere.

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<v Speaker 2>And if you to prove yourself, because I've watched during COVID,

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<v Speaker 2>like like many people know their own businesses. If their

0:23:49.800 --> 0:23:56.080
<v Speaker 2>businesses product was incompatible with the way like COVID changed

0:23:56.119 --> 0:23:57.840
<v Speaker 2>the world and now we had to live in that time,

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<v Speaker 2>they went under where it was like if it was

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<v Speaker 2>a business that's sold let's say active, where the good

0:24:06.440 --> 0:24:09.000
<v Speaker 2>people were all wearing that and going walking around their neighborhood,

0:24:09.240 --> 0:24:13.159
<v Speaker 2>something they could do, that business would saw. But regardless

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<v Speaker 2>of what happens in the world, everyone's going to keep drinking,

0:24:16.119 --> 0:24:21.320
<v Speaker 2>shoking cigarettes. And it just means that your business doesn't

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<v Speaker 2>have to collapse and you have to fear something coming.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't find no, I don't I don't find no,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't. I don't find that inherently scummy at all.

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<v Speaker 1>There's a billion people who who own liquor stores. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I just I think I like you know, I think

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<v Speaker 1>starting your own. Starting a business is cool. Plus you

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<v Speaker 1>can give it like an old timey what's your what's

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<v Speaker 1>your name? Jazz jazz?

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<v Speaker 2>Well name's name like stuff of that Jay as well,

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<v Speaker 2>so we're gonna call like Jay and Jas. It was like,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know those I like it.

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<v Speaker 1>No, no, no, I like it.

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<v Speaker 2>I like it.

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<v Speaker 1>A liquor store, tobacco store, fucking street club, whatever it is.

0:25:08.600 --> 0:25:09.160
<v Speaker 1>It's fun.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh gosh, we should start a stream.

0:25:13.200 --> 0:25:16.080
<v Speaker 1>Start a strip club. It's fun starting just it's fun.

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<v Speaker 1>The idea. I don't care what's in the building. I

0:25:18.320 --> 0:25:21.399
<v Speaker 1>don't care if you are. It's like, uh, you know,

0:25:22.359 --> 0:25:26.080
<v Speaker 1>you could do a you could do a place where

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<v Speaker 1>people go to euthanize their dogs. Whatever it is. It's like,

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<v Speaker 1>whatever happens in the building, who cares. I'm saying that

0:25:33.359 --> 0:25:37.040
<v Speaker 1>to have a building and then put your your like

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<v Speaker 1>ohn name on it is cool. I think it's a

0:25:39.400 --> 0:25:40.800
<v Speaker 1>good thing to do. That's fun.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, Like I don't know, because he needs a reason

0:25:46.440 --> 0:25:48.320
<v Speaker 2>to just get out of bed and keep going every day,

0:25:48.880 --> 0:25:52.440
<v Speaker 2>and I need something like I don't I don't wait,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm can'd be passionate about like someone else's business, and

0:25:56.440 --> 0:25:59.000
<v Speaker 2>I don't want somebody yell at me on them like

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<v Speaker 2>a boss or something.

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<v Speaker 3>That's like the worst thing at all.

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<v Speaker 2>And so you can be your own boss and it's

0:26:06.400 --> 0:26:09.920
<v Speaker 2>any like any fuck ups you have on you that

0:26:10.040 --> 0:26:14.480
<v Speaker 2>any success you have is yours. You should. I find

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<v Speaker 2>it is really hard to get like being employed by someone.

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<v Speaker 1>Where When will JJ's liquor be open for business? That's

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<v Speaker 1>when I'll go to Canberra.

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<v Speaker 2>Hopefully the next like six months, maybe both sponsor event

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<v Speaker 2>we'll get sucked up.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, all right, all right, listeners of this podcast.

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<v Speaker 1>Six Okay, I'm dude. Six months from now, we're all

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<v Speaker 1>gonna go to fucking Google Maps and go to Canberra

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<v Speaker 1>and search for J J Jay and Jay's Liquors. All right, cool,

0:26:55.160 --> 0:26:57.320
<v Speaker 1>all right, all right. Six months from now, I'm gonna

0:26:57.320 --> 0:26:59.280
<v Speaker 1>go on Google Map. Sixcess from now, I'm gonna go

0:26:59.280 --> 0:27:02.120
<v Speaker 1>on Google Maps. I'm gonna say a reminder of six months.

0:27:02.320 --> 0:27:05.879
<v Speaker 1>Someone reminds me. I'm not gonna remember. Someone reminds me

0:27:06.000 --> 0:27:11.560
<v Speaker 1>if if if anyone cares. Yeah, in six months from

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<v Speaker 1>Saturday February seventh, twenty twenty six, I'm gonna go to

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<v Speaker 1>find Camber on my Google Map and search for J

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<v Speaker 1>and j lickuors and if it's there, Oh fuck, I'm

0:27:22.000 --> 0:27:23.480
<v Speaker 1>gonna fucking prank call you guys.

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<v Speaker 2>Fuck. Yeah, No, that's good. Sometimes you need a little

0:27:29.600 --> 0:27:31.159
<v Speaker 2>bit of a push.

0:27:32.520 --> 0:27:36.520
<v Speaker 3>Putting in that. That's what I could get you thirsty.

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<v Speaker 2>I should do something now?

0:27:41.400 --> 0:27:42.879
<v Speaker 1>Yeah wait, were you not gonna do it?

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<v Speaker 2>Were just is?

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<v Speaker 3>It was this?

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<v Speaker 1>Just no? No, I'll do it all right? Yeah you better.

0:27:48.520 --> 0:27:52.440
<v Speaker 1>I want to st oh, I mean do it? What

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<v Speaker 1>don't do it? Whenever you can get it? You know, well,

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<v Speaker 1>all right seven months from now, I'll give you an

0:27:58.119 --> 0:27:58.680
<v Speaker 1>extra month.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it seems just yes, like at the moment we're

0:28:02.400 --> 0:28:06.520
<v Speaker 2>doing planning and stuff. It's just like finance thing like

0:28:06.680 --> 0:28:08.080
<v Speaker 2>payouts to come into stuff like that.

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<v Speaker 1>How much money do you need to open a liquor

0:28:10.760 --> 0:28:13.600
<v Speaker 1>store in a suburb of Canberra?

0:28:15.359 --> 0:28:20.840
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well be like twenty thousand Astralian It was probably

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<v Speaker 2>like like one hundred and twenty thousand US.

0:28:24.840 --> 0:28:28.520
<v Speaker 1>Oh okay, it's not a crazy amount of money to

0:28:28.880 --> 0:28:29.959
<v Speaker 1>like start a business.

0:28:32.320 --> 0:28:35.040
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's not terrible. Like you've got to sort of

0:28:35.320 --> 0:28:37.680
<v Speaker 2>strike gold, like you've got to find a place suitable

0:28:38.520 --> 0:28:39.720
<v Speaker 2>and like all of that stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it's a strike it's like it's a it's a

0:28:42.160 --> 0:28:44.680
<v Speaker 1>heavy investment and a heavy risk, but it's not those

0:28:44.720 --> 0:28:50.520
<v Speaker 1>aren't like they're like worse upstart courses for like starting ship. Yeah,

0:28:50.520 --> 0:28:52.760
<v Speaker 1>you can probably get a lot to do that. Are

0:28:52.760 --> 0:28:53.440
<v Speaker 1>you gonna get a loan?

0:28:54.080 --> 0:28:57.440
<v Speaker 2>Yeah? Oh no, I just paid for it right over.

0:28:57.640 --> 0:29:01.520
<v Speaker 2>Like yeah, when you like broken, say it's something that

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<v Speaker 2>not all out right, there'll be a bit bit of alone,

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<v Speaker 2>but we'll try. Like we've got like fut savings and stuff.

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<v Speaker 4>You do it?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, just who likes it?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm happy for you, Jazz. I'm I actually do appreciate you.

0:29:16.120 --> 0:29:20.160
<v Speaker 1>I appreciate that you're continuing to like live your life

0:29:20.520 --> 0:29:23.000
<v Speaker 1>like then like actually do it. It's pretty sweet.

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<v Speaker 2>Thanks, man, appreciate that. Mm hm yeah. I've seen a

0:29:28.440 --> 0:29:31.160
<v Speaker 2>lot of people not do that, and it's just who

0:29:31.160 --> 0:29:35.400
<v Speaker 2>I don't want to be. I know what the hate

0:29:35.400 --> 0:29:38.880
<v Speaker 2>on there, it's just you know, someone en.

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<v Speaker 3>Up like that.

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<v Speaker 1>Jazz, Yo, Is there anything else you want to say

0:29:46.240 --> 0:29:50.680
<v Speaker 1>to the people of the computer about your life or

0:29:50.720 --> 0:29:52.240
<v Speaker 1>about life itself? Before we go?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? Just keep going. Yeah, thank yak.

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<v Speaker 1>Bless you, Jazz, thank you for calling.

0:30:06.720 --> 0:30:09.000
<v Speaker 2>Okay, bless you, Tay, take care man.

0:30:10.320 --> 0:30:11.120
<v Speaker 3>You see like fight.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, let me just make sure I'm gonna go

0:30:15.560 --> 0:30:26.360
<v Speaker 1>to Google Maps. Uh can burruh, Australia. All right, what

0:30:26.480 --> 0:30:28.760
<v Speaker 1>a funny looking city. There's a big hole in the

0:30:28.800 --> 0:30:31.640
<v Speaker 1>middle of it. No, it's not a hole, it's a parliament.

0:30:32.800 --> 0:30:38.440
<v Speaker 1>Uh Canberra. Okay, I'm gonna search Jay and Jay. Okay,

0:30:38.480 --> 0:30:41.200
<v Speaker 1>there's a J and J pharmacy, Jane and J hare,

0:30:41.400 --> 0:30:45.640
<v Speaker 1>J and J bagel search JJ liquor store. Oh what

0:30:45.760 --> 0:30:49.880
<v Speaker 1>the fuck? What? Don't show me some shit in Lynnhurst,

0:30:49.960 --> 0:30:55.360
<v Speaker 1>New Jersey. I'm in Canberra. I hate Google Maps. I

0:30:55.480 --> 0:31:01.760
<v Speaker 1>hate my fucking life. Sorry, let's go back to k Nburah. Sorry,

0:31:01.760 --> 0:31:04.240
<v Speaker 1>I don't know. I shouldn't yell. Supposed to be a

0:31:04.320 --> 0:31:10.000
<v Speaker 1>therapeutic show. Okay, how do I search? I want to

0:31:10.000 --> 0:31:23.480
<v Speaker 1>search here. Okay, Jay and Jay liquor can there? Okay,

0:31:23.560 --> 0:31:27.720
<v Speaker 1>there's a liquor Okay, there is no currently existing Jay

0:31:27.800 --> 0:31:31.000
<v Speaker 1>and J liquor. There's a liquor Land warehouse. That's pretty.

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<v Speaker 3>That's some.

0:31:32.920 --> 0:31:36.440
<v Speaker 1>There's the National Museum of Australia. I don't know what

0:31:36.960 --> 0:31:43.160
<v Speaker 1>accent that was. Sorry, there's liquor Land Canberra. All right,

0:31:43.240 --> 0:31:45.800
<v Speaker 1>I don't I I'm here's what I'm realizing is that

0:31:45.960 --> 0:31:48.680
<v Speaker 1>if I don't stop talking right now, I'm just going

0:31:48.800 --> 0:31:52.880
<v Speaker 1>to wait J and J Spirit Shop. It's in New York.

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<v Speaker 1>What the fuck?

0:31:53.440 --> 0:31:53.760
<v Speaker 2>All right?

0:31:54.600 --> 0:31:56.440
<v Speaker 1>All right, I'm gonna stop talking so that we can

0:31:56.520 --> 0:31:58.480
<v Speaker 1>move on with this podcast instead of just listening to

0:31:58.560 --> 0:32:08.800
<v Speaker 1>me use Apple Maps, Google maps, whatever, who cares? Who cares? Hello?

0:32:09.560 --> 0:32:09.680
<v Speaker 4>Hi?

0:32:10.960 --> 0:32:12.040
<v Speaker 1>Hi? What's your name?

0:32:12.840 --> 0:32:13.320
<v Speaker 2>I'm Amy?

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<v Speaker 1>Amy. Amy is the name of a famous fictional hedgehog

0:32:21.920 --> 0:32:26.520
<v Speaker 1>who who is She's not really the love interest of

0:32:26.640 --> 0:32:30.120
<v Speaker 1>Sonic the Hedgehog, because Sonic the Hedgehog is kind of

0:32:30.120 --> 0:32:33.000
<v Speaker 1>an auful male. He's he's more or no, rather, he's

0:32:33.040 --> 0:32:35.520
<v Speaker 1>a Sigma male. He's a little bit more obsessed with

0:32:36.280 --> 0:32:42.040
<v Speaker 1>going fast and kind of achieving the mission. And Amy

0:32:42.400 --> 0:32:47.040
<v Speaker 1>Sonic is Amy's love interest, and Amy is always trying

0:32:47.040 --> 0:32:49.640
<v Speaker 1>to convince Sonic to marry him. But Sonic is just two.

0:32:50.360 --> 0:32:54.080
<v Speaker 1>He's just truly a hedgehog on his Sigma grindset, and

0:32:54.200 --> 0:33:00.480
<v Speaker 1>so Amy is constantly, constantly rebuffed. But she's a nice girl, Amy,

0:33:00.640 --> 0:33:03.720
<v Speaker 1>you know she's I think when Sonic is finally ready

0:33:04.320 --> 0:33:08.840
<v Speaker 1>to settle down and start a family, I mean he's

0:33:08.880 --> 0:33:12.080
<v Speaker 1>only canonically, I think he's sixteen, so he's a little

0:33:12.120 --> 0:33:14.720
<v Speaker 1>young to get married. But he's sixteen in human years,

0:33:14.840 --> 0:33:18.080
<v Speaker 1>so in hedgehog years, he might actually be a ripe old.

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<v Speaker 4>Hedgehog, right, right, but yeah, proceed not really?

0:33:24.720 --> 0:33:27.200
<v Speaker 1>Yes, Okay, so you know Amy. You know Amy Rose the.

0:33:27.200 --> 0:33:31.240
<v Speaker 2>Hedgehog vaguely, but yes, I'm familiar.

0:33:32.680 --> 0:33:35.520
<v Speaker 1>Well, it's okay. You don't need to because you are

0:33:35.600 --> 0:33:39.280
<v Speaker 1>not a fictional character. You're a your own human being.

0:33:39.800 --> 0:33:42.600
<v Speaker 1>You're a real person named Amy or fake named Amy.

0:33:42.880 --> 0:33:44.080
<v Speaker 1>What's up, Amy? How's life?

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<v Speaker 4>It's good? I just got home some more. My husband

0:33:50.360 --> 0:33:53.040
<v Speaker 4>went to go play a one piece tournament. I'm not

0:33:53.120 --> 0:33:54.240
<v Speaker 4>sure if you're familiar with that.

0:33:55.000 --> 0:33:57.080
<v Speaker 1>I know the anime one piece, but I didn't know that.

0:33:57.160 --> 0:33:59.560
<v Speaker 1>It's like, how's is it a game? How's it a tournament?

0:34:00.840 --> 0:34:05.040
<v Speaker 4>Yeah? So they recently started two years ago, I think

0:34:05.080 --> 0:34:06.920
<v Speaker 4>it was two years ago. They started their own like

0:34:07.080 --> 0:34:10.400
<v Speaker 4>trading cards, kind of similar to Pokemon. And at first

0:34:10.719 --> 0:34:13.040
<v Speaker 4>he was just kind of like hoarding cards. It was

0:34:13.080 --> 0:34:15.239
<v Speaker 4>becoming a huge issue because he's getting so much money.

0:34:15.560 --> 0:34:18.839
<v Speaker 4>But now because he has all this bulk, he's like, well,

0:34:18.880 --> 0:34:22.239
<v Speaker 4>maybe I'll start playing it for fun. And now he

0:34:22.320 --> 0:34:25.600
<v Speaker 4>does that, and I just kind of hang out till.

0:34:25.480 --> 0:34:26.080
<v Speaker 2>He gets home.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you have your own version of one piece card

0:34:30.160 --> 0:34:32.000
<v Speaker 1>game tournaments? Like, what do you do when he's there?

0:34:32.040 --> 0:34:32.640
<v Speaker 1>You just hang out?

0:34:34.800 --> 0:34:38.560
<v Speaker 4>Well sometimes not really. I'm not as huge into it

0:34:38.760 --> 0:34:42.759
<v Speaker 4>as he is, just because like mentally, I just don't

0:34:42.840 --> 0:34:46.080
<v Speaker 4>really care for it. But I do love the anime.

0:34:46.160 --> 0:34:48.640
<v Speaker 4>I'm a huge fan of it. I just I don't know,

0:34:49.120 --> 0:34:51.160
<v Speaker 4>I just can't really get my mind around playing a

0:34:51.239 --> 0:34:54.400
<v Speaker 4>card game sometimes. But no shame to that. Like he

0:34:55.040 --> 0:34:58.200
<v Speaker 4>loves it, so I'm just there to support. But I

0:34:58.360 --> 0:34:59.920
<v Speaker 4>just got home while he's doing that.

0:35:01.200 --> 0:35:03.520
<v Speaker 1>It's funny, and I thought I was thinking about this

0:35:03.560 --> 0:35:09.400
<v Speaker 1>today actually is in my own love quest, let's call it.

0:35:09.680 --> 0:35:13.200
<v Speaker 1>I used to think that I needed somebody who was

0:35:13.320 --> 0:35:19.279
<v Speaker 1>like perfectly aligned with me on all my interests, you

0:35:19.360 --> 0:35:22.399
<v Speaker 1>know what I mean, Like like I have a creative job.

0:35:22.800 --> 0:35:24.480
<v Speaker 1>You know, maybe I want someone who also has a

0:35:24.560 --> 0:35:27.120
<v Speaker 1>creative job, Like I like all these things. I want

0:35:27.160 --> 0:35:30.400
<v Speaker 1>someone likes all these things. And I've had the realization

0:35:30.480 --> 0:35:33.279
<v Speaker 1>today that, like, I'd like that, but it's not. It's

0:35:33.360 --> 0:35:36.800
<v Speaker 1>not as much of a necessity to the success of

0:35:36.880 --> 0:35:39.840
<v Speaker 1>a relationship as I think I always thought it would be.

0:35:41.320 --> 0:35:44.080
<v Speaker 4>Right, No, yeah, And I get that because I mean,

0:35:44.600 --> 0:35:47.800
<v Speaker 4>I mean he and I have been together for this

0:35:47.960 --> 0:35:50.440
<v Speaker 4>year will be thirteen years, we've been married for five,

0:35:50.719 --> 0:35:53.719
<v Speaker 4>and I mean, I feel like we do have a

0:35:53.800 --> 0:35:56.600
<v Speaker 4>lot of things in common, but we're also just very different.

0:35:56.680 --> 0:35:58.200
<v Speaker 3>But those are things.

0:35:58.040 --> 0:35:59.600
<v Speaker 4>That I like, things that I appreciate.

0:35:59.719 --> 0:36:01.480
<v Speaker 1>You know, how old are you?

0:36:02.960 --> 0:36:05.360
<v Speaker 4>I am going to be thirty three and he is

0:36:05.480 --> 0:36:07.480
<v Speaker 4>going to be thirty three as well. We're just six

0:36:07.600 --> 0:36:08.120
<v Speaker 4>months apart.

0:36:09.000 --> 0:36:12.720
<v Speaker 1>Twelve years, so you got together you were twenty one.

0:36:14.000 --> 0:36:17.680
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, roughly, if not twenty, like closer to like the

0:36:17.840 --> 0:36:19.799
<v Speaker 4>end of when I was nineteen ish.

0:36:20.960 --> 0:36:21.120
<v Speaker 2>Oh.

0:36:21.400 --> 0:36:26.160
<v Speaker 1>Well, after thirteen years, it's like you almost your individual

0:36:26.280 --> 0:36:31.480
<v Speaker 1>development has been so deeply influenced by one another that

0:36:31.600 --> 0:36:32.000
<v Speaker 1>it's like.

0:36:32.680 --> 0:36:38.239
<v Speaker 4>True, go ahead, No, no, I was just gonna say,

0:36:38.280 --> 0:36:41.080
<v Speaker 4>even though, yes, like we've been together for so long,

0:36:41.280 --> 0:36:44.920
<v Speaker 4>like we're each not like the same person we were

0:36:45.000 --> 0:36:47.080
<v Speaker 4>when we first started dating, or at least I feel

0:36:47.160 --> 0:36:50.279
<v Speaker 4>like I'm not the same person. I used to be

0:36:50.400 --> 0:36:53.879
<v Speaker 4>a lot more like reserved and quiet, and now I'm

0:36:53.920 --> 0:36:55.920
<v Speaker 4>a lot more outspoken. But at the same time, I

0:36:55.960 --> 0:36:58.799
<v Speaker 4>feel like that's also been influencing him, because he's also

0:36:58.960 --> 0:37:02.040
<v Speaker 4>very like out spoken and not afraid to like beak

0:37:02.080 --> 0:37:04.920
<v Speaker 4>his mind. So it slowly made me kind of be

0:37:05.040 --> 0:37:07.719
<v Speaker 4>that way. But it also influenced me to kind of

0:37:08.520 --> 0:37:12.879
<v Speaker 4>reach for things that at first didn't really align with him,

0:37:12.960 --> 0:37:15.120
<v Speaker 4>if that makes sense. But it was just more like

0:37:15.280 --> 0:37:18.560
<v Speaker 4>my own goals his own goals. But we still meet

0:37:18.600 --> 0:37:19.959
<v Speaker 4>in the middle, if that makes sense.

0:37:21.440 --> 0:37:26.400
<v Speaker 1>So, Amy, I must ask you, is there a particular

0:37:26.480 --> 0:37:28.560
<v Speaker 1>reason why you called into the Gecko Show today?

0:37:31.800 --> 0:37:32.000
<v Speaker 5>Over.

0:37:32.280 --> 0:37:36.280
<v Speaker 4>I've been listening to you for about two three years roughly,

0:37:36.680 --> 0:37:39.680
<v Speaker 4>maybe more on the two I was actually listening to

0:37:39.800 --> 0:37:42.239
<v Speaker 4>you on the way home, and when I parked, I

0:37:42.360 --> 0:37:47.040
<v Speaker 4>saw that you were going live. And I've actually emailed

0:37:47.080 --> 0:37:50.120
<v Speaker 4>you before. I don't know if you'll remember, and I

0:37:50.200 --> 0:37:52.839
<v Speaker 4>went by Amy then, so Amy is not my real name,

0:37:53.640 --> 0:37:59.080
<v Speaker 4>but I had emailed you before regarding that I had

0:37:59.160 --> 0:38:02.040
<v Speaker 4>like kind of a friendship breakup. I don't know if

0:38:02.080 --> 0:38:04.480
<v Speaker 4>you remember or if that's ringing any bell.

0:38:04.920 --> 0:38:05.799
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, that rings a bell.

0:38:07.120 --> 0:38:07.279
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

0:38:07.280 --> 0:38:09.880
<v Speaker 4>I was sitting in a parking lot eating Wendy's and

0:38:10.680 --> 0:38:12.600
<v Speaker 4>you were taking emails, So I had an email do

0:38:12.600 --> 0:38:16.480
<v Speaker 4>you while I was eating Wendy's. But yeah, essentially I

0:38:16.680 --> 0:38:21.200
<v Speaker 4>wanted to talk about my friendship breakup and how it

0:38:21.480 --> 0:38:25.280
<v Speaker 4>happened in October literally a couple days before my birthday,

0:38:25.920 --> 0:38:29.880
<v Speaker 4>and that's what made it really hurt. But we actually

0:38:30.280 --> 0:38:35.440
<v Speaker 4>recently reconnected, but not necessarily to become friends again, if

0:38:35.480 --> 0:38:39.759
<v Speaker 4>anything to kind of I don't know, clear some air,

0:38:40.440 --> 0:38:43.320
<v Speaker 4>which I didn't really could. If anything, it kind of

0:38:43.400 --> 0:38:46.680
<v Speaker 4>still we're still not friends, but we have more of

0:38:46.719 --> 0:38:49.600
<v Speaker 4>an understanding of why we're no longer friends. If that

0:38:49.880 --> 0:38:50.680
<v Speaker 4>makes any sense.

0:38:51.520 --> 0:38:54.400
<v Speaker 1>It does make sense. But can I actually, you know,

0:38:55.040 --> 0:38:56.479
<v Speaker 1>can I get with Can I give you my gut

0:38:56.560 --> 0:39:00.960
<v Speaker 1>reaction about this? And I feel like it's, yeah, this

0:39:01.080 --> 0:39:03.279
<v Speaker 1>my gut reaction is like, man, that's a lot of

0:39:04.440 --> 0:39:08.520
<v Speaker 1>that's a lot of drama and emotion for somebody who's

0:39:08.600 --> 0:39:12.359
<v Speaker 1>not in your life. You know what I'm saying right now.

0:39:12.560 --> 0:39:14.240
<v Speaker 4>And that's totally fair.

0:39:16.040 --> 0:39:16.200
<v Speaker 3>You know.

0:39:16.640 --> 0:39:18.440
<v Speaker 1>I mean, if one thing, if it was like an

0:39:18.520 --> 0:39:22.200
<v Speaker 1>ex that you spent a lot of time with or

0:39:22.280 --> 0:39:26.680
<v Speaker 1>something and whatever. But I don't know, I remember were

0:39:26.719 --> 0:39:28.480
<v Speaker 1>you like, was this like one of your best friends?

0:39:28.640 --> 0:39:30.080
<v Speaker 1>This is like a really close person to you?

0:39:31.719 --> 0:39:34.640
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, we were best friends since I want to say

0:39:34.760 --> 0:39:41.239
<v Speaker 4>roughly twenty twelve, twenty thirteen, and we I feel like

0:39:41.320 --> 0:39:43.800
<v Speaker 4>we had like a lot of things in common, Like

0:39:45.160 --> 0:39:47.760
<v Speaker 4>we both have moms that are kind of our biggest haters,

0:39:47.840 --> 0:39:49.839
<v Speaker 4>so we kind of would bond over that, and then

0:39:49.960 --> 0:39:52.960
<v Speaker 4>we had a lot of music interests. We grew up

0:39:53.080 --> 0:39:56.800
<v Speaker 4>very similarly, and gradually as we were getting older, we

0:39:56.920 --> 0:40:00.840
<v Speaker 4>were just getting closer and closer. And in the last

0:40:01.040 --> 0:40:05.480
<v Speaker 4>like three four years, I don't know, I felt like

0:40:06.239 --> 0:40:10.560
<v Speaker 4>things fully started changing between us and we weren't relating

0:40:10.640 --> 0:40:14.600
<v Speaker 4>to each other as much anymore, and as I recently

0:40:14.719 --> 0:40:17.320
<v Speaker 4>found out after we talked, she was kind of building

0:40:18.680 --> 0:40:20.759
<v Speaker 4>I don't know. She described it as almost like an

0:40:20.840 --> 0:40:26.919
<v Speaker 4>animosity towards me in regards to feeling like I wasn't

0:40:27.440 --> 0:40:32.120
<v Speaker 4>always as supportive of her. But then in turn, she said,

0:40:32.160 --> 0:40:34.600
<v Speaker 4>you were actually very supportive of me and you were

0:40:34.680 --> 0:40:37.680
<v Speaker 4>always there for me, and I just didn't see that

0:40:38.080 --> 0:40:42.120
<v Speaker 4>at the time, which I don't know. It didn't make

0:40:42.200 --> 0:40:44.600
<v Speaker 4>sense to me. I mean, it makes sense as she

0:40:44.840 --> 0:40:47.759
<v Speaker 4>was saying it, but then I think of my own

0:40:48.560 --> 0:40:53.240
<v Speaker 4>experience in our friendship and feeling like I did always

0:40:53.440 --> 0:40:56.920
<v Speaker 4>try to show up and be there, and it speaked

0:40:57.080 --> 0:41:01.400
<v Speaker 4>accommodating because for example, she doesn't drive like because she

0:41:01.560 --> 0:41:05.480
<v Speaker 4>lives in like downtown of my area, so she doesn't

0:41:05.480 --> 0:41:08.520
<v Speaker 4>really need to drive if she really had to. But

0:41:09.160 --> 0:41:11.600
<v Speaker 4>I would live like more in the suburb area, so

0:41:11.640 --> 0:41:14.680
<v Speaker 4>it was I would always be willing and happy to

0:41:15.239 --> 0:41:17.360
<v Speaker 4>go out of my way to go see her and

0:41:17.880 --> 0:41:22.040
<v Speaker 4>hang out do our stuff. And then she wanted to

0:41:22.120 --> 0:41:23.759
<v Speaker 4>be like, oh, well you're always running me. I'm like

0:41:24.000 --> 0:41:25.280
<v Speaker 4>one's coming out from farther.

0:41:25.640 --> 0:41:26.880
<v Speaker 2>I don't know what you want me to do.

0:41:27.120 --> 0:41:30.480
<v Speaker 4>Well, yes, I could plan better, but but this is

0:41:30.640 --> 0:41:32.800
<v Speaker 4>I mean, this is I'm.

0:41:32.680 --> 0:41:34.160
<v Speaker 1>Going to hammer back in what I would saying, but

0:41:34.239 --> 0:41:38.200
<v Speaker 1>there's a lot of emotional energy and stuff for that.

0:41:38.360 --> 0:41:40.200
<v Speaker 1>I mean, do you want to be friends with this person?

0:41:42.360 --> 0:41:44.719
<v Speaker 4>I mean, just because of the fact that I felt

0:41:44.760 --> 0:41:49.040
<v Speaker 4>like we went through so much together, I do like her. However,

0:41:49.239 --> 0:41:52.520
<v Speaker 4>I told you that I don't feel like I could

0:41:52.560 --> 0:41:56.879
<v Speaker 4>be her friend anymore because one, I feel like we're

0:41:57.040 --> 0:42:00.400
<v Speaker 4>just both in different parts of our lives where it

0:42:00.480 --> 0:42:03.920
<v Speaker 4>doesn't align as much or I felt like for her,

0:42:04.200 --> 0:42:07.200
<v Speaker 4>she just has her own things going on, and it

0:42:07.360 --> 0:42:09.719
<v Speaker 4>was just so much of a focus for her, where

0:42:10.320 --> 0:42:12.200
<v Speaker 4>even if I felt I wanted to talk to her

0:42:12.239 --> 0:42:16.040
<v Speaker 4>about things, she didn't really make herself available, So I

0:42:16.120 --> 0:42:18.640
<v Speaker 4>told her, yes, I miss you, I miss what we had,

0:42:18.840 --> 0:42:22.840
<v Speaker 4>but I don't know if we can continue being friends.

0:42:23.320 --> 0:42:25.880
<v Speaker 4>And so I feel like it's just more. It hurts

0:42:25.960 --> 0:42:29.759
<v Speaker 4>more knowing like what I lost or what I had

0:42:29.880 --> 0:42:31.200
<v Speaker 4>lost even from before.

0:42:31.280 --> 0:42:36.799
<v Speaker 1>Then to listen, brother, you're you're thirty three years old, right, yeah,

0:42:37.440 --> 0:42:41.560
<v Speaker 1>at that point. Well it's like, dude, you know at

0:42:41.600 --> 0:42:44.759
<v Speaker 1>this like you're thirty three years old, you're married, Do

0:42:44.800 --> 0:42:49.160
<v Speaker 1>you have a kid? No, are you planning on having

0:42:49.160 --> 0:42:49.440
<v Speaker 1>a kid?

0:42:51.560 --> 0:42:55.160
<v Speaker 4>Hopefully hopefully about year's end, But you never really know.

0:42:56.320 --> 0:42:58.160
<v Speaker 4>I do have a job. I do dog grooming.

0:42:58.280 --> 0:42:59.319
<v Speaker 2>So I love my job.

0:42:59.719 --> 0:43:02.279
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, a job. You have a husband, you gotta. I

0:43:02.480 --> 0:43:03.880
<v Speaker 1>just have a life, you know what I mean. Like

0:43:04.000 --> 0:43:06.160
<v Speaker 1>you're just older now you got a life. It's like,

0:43:06.920 --> 0:43:08.520
<v Speaker 1>you know, it's kind of like, bitch, but what are

0:43:08.560 --> 0:43:12.839
<v Speaker 1>we doing, you know, with the whole Like, uh, it's

0:43:12.920 --> 0:43:16.680
<v Speaker 1>like it's too it's too anymore. No, I mean it's

0:43:16.760 --> 0:43:19.279
<v Speaker 1>too much. It's like, listen, if someone's doing something to

0:43:19.440 --> 0:43:22.640
<v Speaker 1>piss you off, just tell them and it's fine. Also,

0:43:22.840 --> 0:43:24.799
<v Speaker 1>I'm at an age where if someone's doing I'm at

0:43:24.840 --> 0:43:27.640
<v Speaker 1>an age where if someone's doing something to piss me off,

0:43:27.880 --> 0:43:32.000
<v Speaker 1>unless if they're in my immediate life, I don't bring

0:43:32.080 --> 0:43:33.840
<v Speaker 1>it up. I don't care anymore because you know what,

0:43:34.200 --> 0:43:37.640
<v Speaker 1>because you get like, you get older, and you just

0:43:37.760 --> 0:43:41.800
<v Speaker 1>realize the time moves faster than you can hold it.

0:43:41.880 --> 0:43:44.560
<v Speaker 1>And if you don't and if you don't pick the

0:43:44.880 --> 0:43:49.160
<v Speaker 1>people and the things that are important to you, then

0:43:49.920 --> 0:43:53.080
<v Speaker 1>you just get dragged in a bunch of meaningless whatever.

0:43:53.160 --> 0:43:54.920
<v Speaker 1>And then you look at your life and you realize

0:43:55.000 --> 0:43:59.000
<v Speaker 1>that your life is an amalgamation of things and people

0:43:59.040 --> 0:44:01.000
<v Speaker 1>that you don't give a fuck about it. And so

0:44:01.400 --> 0:44:03.359
<v Speaker 1>there's just at thirty, like it's one thing if you're

0:44:03.400 --> 0:44:05.960
<v Speaker 1>like in high school literally or like college, but like

0:44:06.080 --> 0:44:10.160
<v Speaker 1>at this point in your life, it's like homegirl, I

0:44:10.200 --> 0:44:12.960
<v Speaker 1>can't be I can't be sending you break up emails

0:44:13.080 --> 0:44:17.680
<v Speaker 1>back and forth. You know, I got I got a life,

0:44:17.920 --> 0:44:20.840
<v Speaker 1>and so I hopefully so to you. I get the

0:44:20.920 --> 0:44:24.800
<v Speaker 1>morning of it though, I understand, but I don't know.

0:44:25.280 --> 0:44:27.320
<v Speaker 1>It's just like that's a lot some people are a

0:44:27.400 --> 0:44:29.759
<v Speaker 1>lot of emotional edgy. If someone's in your life and

0:44:29.840 --> 0:44:31.400
<v Speaker 1>you want them to stay in your Like I have

0:44:31.560 --> 0:44:33.480
<v Speaker 1>friends who I'm like, I'm gonna be friends with these

0:44:33.520 --> 0:44:38.080
<v Speaker 1>people until I'm like eighty, but those a lot of

0:44:38.120 --> 0:44:40.560
<v Speaker 1>those guys don't even like live where I live, a

0:44:40.600 --> 0:44:43.040
<v Speaker 1>lot of these guys don't even see every day. So

0:44:43.200 --> 0:44:47.600
<v Speaker 1>I those conversation, those conversations of like, oh this is

0:44:47.760 --> 0:44:50.840
<v Speaker 1>my this is those like emotional conversations of like, oh

0:44:50.920 --> 0:44:53.120
<v Speaker 1>these are my feelings and this is how I think

0:44:53.200 --> 0:44:55.840
<v Speaker 1>you treated me, and this is I those are and

0:44:55.960 --> 0:44:57.640
<v Speaker 1>like those are, this is how I want to communicate

0:44:57.680 --> 0:45:00.480
<v Speaker 1>with it. Like that kind of shit is reserved to

0:45:00.640 --> 0:45:04.160
<v Speaker 1>me for like people in my day to day life.

0:45:04.200 --> 0:45:06.399
<v Speaker 1>People I'm working with, people I see every day, people

0:45:06.400 --> 0:45:11.560
<v Speaker 1>I am romantically intertwined with, Like that's because all that

0:45:11.680 --> 0:45:14.360
<v Speaker 1>shit just takes so much emotion, you know, it just

0:45:14.440 --> 0:45:17.400
<v Speaker 1>takes so much emotional energy. So it's like I got

0:45:17.520 --> 0:45:19.600
<v Speaker 1>to reserve that emotional energy for the people who are

0:45:19.680 --> 0:45:22.080
<v Speaker 1>like in my life, not the people, not just like

0:45:23.040 --> 0:45:26.399
<v Speaker 1>someone that I get lunch with once a month. Third

0:45:26.600 --> 0:45:30.160
<v Speaker 1>but you know whatever, and it's okay, it's really not

0:45:30.320 --> 0:45:34.840
<v Speaker 1>selfish to feel that way. Your time and who you

0:45:34.920 --> 0:45:40.839
<v Speaker 1>spend it with are deeply, deeply, deeply precious, you know, right,

0:45:40.920 --> 0:45:41.120
<v Speaker 1>And I.

0:45:41.160 --> 0:45:44.960
<v Speaker 4>Mean I totally agree, because anyone I meet now, I

0:45:45.040 --> 0:45:49.919
<v Speaker 4>guess in adulthood or whatever. Like I feel the same

0:45:50.000 --> 0:45:53.160
<v Speaker 4>as how you explained it, like I don't like something,

0:45:53.520 --> 0:45:55.480
<v Speaker 4>like I don't have to deal with it. And that's

0:45:55.520 --> 0:45:57.759
<v Speaker 4>why I feel like I'm kind of why I was

0:45:57.800 --> 0:46:01.080
<v Speaker 4>holding on to my friendship of hers for so long,

0:46:01.200 --> 0:46:03.640
<v Speaker 4>just because I felt like it's that whole thing I

0:46:03.680 --> 0:46:06.880
<v Speaker 4>had been invested so much or whatever, like I wanted

0:46:06.960 --> 0:46:09.319
<v Speaker 4>to preserve what I could. But then it just came

0:46:09.360 --> 0:46:12.200
<v Speaker 4>to a point that when we stopped being friends, I

0:46:12.280 --> 0:46:14.959
<v Speaker 4>was like, you know what, I don't need. I don't

0:46:15.080 --> 0:46:18.040
<v Speaker 4>need that. But it just was really sad to think

0:46:18.080 --> 0:46:21.000
<v Speaker 4>about sometime because I would miss her or whatever. But

0:46:21.800 --> 0:46:25.520
<v Speaker 4>but like you said, there's other things going on, and

0:46:26.600 --> 0:46:30.239
<v Speaker 4>what is it, Because it's like one thing that I've

0:46:30.360 --> 0:46:34.560
<v Speaker 4>listened to your podcast before that you've mentioned or and

0:46:35.200 --> 0:46:39.120
<v Speaker 4>where you went to a lizard expo or something.

0:46:39.960 --> 0:46:41.960
<v Speaker 1>I went to a lizard I went to a lizard

0:46:42.120 --> 0:46:46.279
<v Speaker 1>zoo shout out the GET Gallery in Brooklyn, New York.

0:46:46.400 --> 0:46:51.239
<v Speaker 4>Yes, so I listened to that, and I mean I've

0:46:51.280 --> 0:46:55.680
<v Speaker 4>always considered like it's always all about perspective.

0:46:55.280 --> 0:46:55.680
<v Speaker 3>And all that.

0:46:56.440 --> 0:46:59.680
<v Speaker 4>And it was funny how you spoke with someone there

0:47:00.520 --> 0:47:03.800
<v Speaker 4>and they said, like, oh, if I was a lizard,

0:47:04.280 --> 0:47:06.480
<v Speaker 4>like I wouldn't have to worry about all these things,

0:47:06.640 --> 0:47:09.880
<v Speaker 4>or because someone would take care of me, or someone

0:47:09.920 --> 0:47:12.480
<v Speaker 4>would watch over me because I'm a lizard. And I

0:47:12.560 --> 0:47:15.759
<v Speaker 4>started to think about it like, well, I mean, yes,

0:47:15.880 --> 0:47:18.480
<v Speaker 4>someone could take care of you, but that's like assuming

0:47:18.680 --> 0:47:21.120
<v Speaker 4>there's someone to take care of you, Like it's all

0:47:21.480 --> 0:47:23.960
<v Speaker 4>a matter of chance, and as a person, it's all

0:47:24.000 --> 0:47:27.839
<v Speaker 4>a matter of choice and perspective, like cause you get

0:47:27.920 --> 0:47:30.920
<v Speaker 4>so many calls of people just going through, you know,

0:47:31.040 --> 0:47:33.920
<v Speaker 4>their own shit and their own problems, and yet they

0:47:34.000 --> 0:47:37.720
<v Speaker 4>overcome it, and I'm like, Okay, maybe my problems aren't

0:47:37.920 --> 0:47:40.880
<v Speaker 4>necessarily that bad, or I can always look at it

0:47:40.960 --> 0:47:44.000
<v Speaker 4>a different way, Like, for example, if I was having

0:47:44.040 --> 0:47:46.720
<v Speaker 4>a bad day at work and I was like angry

0:47:46.840 --> 0:47:49.080
<v Speaker 4>or whatever, like oh my manager gave me all these

0:47:49.160 --> 0:47:52.880
<v Speaker 4>horrible dogs, or oh she like overbooked me or whatever,

0:47:52.960 --> 0:47:56.719
<v Speaker 4>I'd have to slowly shift it to Okay, well, maybe

0:47:56.760 --> 0:47:58.520
<v Speaker 4>I do have a lot on my plate today, but

0:47:58.760 --> 0:48:02.919
<v Speaker 4>it's an opportunity you manage my time better, or maybe

0:48:03.040 --> 0:48:06.800
<v Speaker 4>ask for help when I typically wouldn't, or stuff like that,

0:48:07.040 --> 0:48:09.839
<v Speaker 4>you know, just justting the mentality.

0:48:10.520 --> 0:48:15.000
<v Speaker 1>It's deeply fulfilling It's scary at first, and then when

0:48:15.040 --> 0:48:17.480
<v Speaker 1>you really think about it, deeply fulfilling to realize that

0:48:19.320 --> 0:48:25.200
<v Speaker 1>nobody cares about you or your problems at all, even

0:48:25.200 --> 0:48:27.440
<v Speaker 1>people who like That's like, even people who love you

0:48:28.440 --> 0:48:31.040
<v Speaker 1>don't really care about your problems because they have their

0:48:31.080 --> 0:48:34.200
<v Speaker 1>own problems. They anyone care about what you do. But

0:48:35.040 --> 0:48:39.680
<v Speaker 1>it's good. If everyone cared about everyone's problems, then we

0:48:39.760 --> 0:48:43.520
<v Speaker 1>would all we would all suffocate, we'd all we'd all

0:48:43.560 --> 0:48:48.640
<v Speaker 1>blow ourselves up. Yes, is there anything else you want

0:48:48.640 --> 0:48:50.200
<v Speaker 1>to say to the people of the computer before we go?

0:48:52.960 --> 0:48:55.759
<v Speaker 4>No, not necessarily. I guess it's anything to just keep

0:48:55.840 --> 0:49:00.680
<v Speaker 4>perspective and keep trying and maybe want to night Shaalan

0:49:00.800 --> 0:49:03.400
<v Speaker 4>movie because that's what I've been binging lately. I watched

0:49:04.320 --> 0:49:09.279
<v Speaker 4>Knock on the Cabin Knock at the Cabin yesterday with Bautista,

0:49:09.400 --> 0:49:12.320
<v Speaker 4>and it was actually really good, really sad, but it

0:49:12.440 --> 0:49:14.000
<v Speaker 4>was really good. You should watch it.

0:49:14.840 --> 0:49:20.560
<v Speaker 1>Battista, Bautista, thank you very much for calling Amy.

0:49:21.880 --> 0:49:24.680
<v Speaker 4>Thank you, Lyle, have a great day, Have a good night, Amy.

0:49:26.040 --> 0:49:26.239
<v Speaker 2>Bye.

0:49:29.000 --> 0:49:37.640
<v Speaker 1>Bautista. Let me google it. But Tisteta, Oh Dave Bautista, Okay,

0:49:37.680 --> 0:49:42.080
<v Speaker 1>he's an actor and he was in knock at the Cabin.

0:49:43.320 --> 0:49:45.759
<v Speaker 1>How's it end? I'm gonna read that. This is This

0:49:45.840 --> 0:49:47.000
<v Speaker 1>is what I like to do. Is I like to

0:49:47.120 --> 0:49:49.799
<v Speaker 1>read the very you guys want, I'm going to read

0:49:49.840 --> 0:49:52.640
<v Speaker 1>the very end. Okay, if you haven't seen Knock at

0:49:52.680 --> 0:49:55.080
<v Speaker 1>the Cabin, I don't like. I don't really watch movies.

0:49:55.080 --> 0:49:58.240
<v Speaker 1>I watched one movie every three years, and it's usually

0:49:58.280 --> 0:50:02.520
<v Speaker 1>really good. I watched Marty Supreme awesome. Uh, that's the

0:50:02.560 --> 0:50:04.560
<v Speaker 1>one movie I've seen in the last five years. Okay,

0:50:04.560 --> 0:50:10.440
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna read the very end of skip ahead fifteen

0:50:10.560 --> 0:50:15.000
<v Speaker 1>seconds in the podcast if you don't want to hear.

0:50:17.400 --> 0:50:18.880
<v Speaker 2>The end of.

0:50:20.600 --> 0:50:21.440
<v Speaker 1>Knock at the Cabin.

0:50:22.200 --> 0:50:22.560
<v Speaker 2>All right.

0:50:24.000 --> 0:50:27.880
<v Speaker 1>They drive off, making a stop at a crowded diner

0:50:28.520 --> 0:50:32.680
<v Speaker 1>where they watch news reports confirming that the disasters have

0:50:32.800 --> 0:50:38.120
<v Speaker 1>abruptly ended. You know what's crazy, I don't that doesn't

0:50:38.160 --> 0:50:40.160
<v Speaker 1>give away I feel like that doesn't give away anything.

0:50:40.600 --> 0:50:42.360
<v Speaker 1>I feel like that movie has not been spoiled for

0:50:42.480 --> 0:50:45.759
<v Speaker 1>me because I don't know who they are. I don't

0:50:45.800 --> 0:50:47.360
<v Speaker 1>know there's a lot of there's a lot of stuff.

0:50:48.040 --> 0:50:50.719
<v Speaker 1>I don't know why I did that, But because I don't,

0:50:50.760 --> 0:50:53.280
<v Speaker 1>I'm never gonna. I'm gonna. Okay, let's I'm gonna spoil

0:50:53.360 --> 0:50:55.759
<v Speaker 1>the end if the Game of Thrones. Sorry, I know

0:50:55.800 --> 0:50:58.759
<v Speaker 1>you guys want to hear phone calls, but how does

0:50:58.840 --> 0:51:02.719
<v Speaker 1>Game of Thrones end? I'm not gonna watch it? How

0:51:02.760 --> 0:51:07.680
<v Speaker 1>long is it? I'm gonna save everyone time by spoiling

0:51:07.760 --> 0:51:09.920
<v Speaker 1>the ending of Game of Thrones right now, if you're

0:51:09.960 --> 0:51:15.439
<v Speaker 1>currently watching it, I'm about to spoil. Skip past where

0:51:15.480 --> 0:51:17.480
<v Speaker 1>the ad break is because I'm gonna spoil the end

0:51:17.520 --> 0:51:21.800
<v Speaker 1>of Game of Thrones. All right? The iron thrown and

0:51:21.920 --> 0:51:25.799
<v Speaker 1>that's the series finale of Game of Thrones. How's it end?

0:51:26.280 --> 0:51:27.839
<v Speaker 1>Fuck this? I don't want to watch this shit? How

0:51:27.840 --> 0:51:28.759
<v Speaker 1>does this fucking shit end?

0:51:29.440 --> 0:51:29.759
<v Speaker 2>All right?

0:51:31.440 --> 0:51:34.960
<v Speaker 1>John leads them to return to the lands beyond the

0:51:35.080 --> 0:51:38.680
<v Speaker 1>Wall as the millennia long winter in that region begins

0:51:38.760 --> 0:51:43.920
<v Speaker 1>to thaw. Who cares? I bet if I see, I

0:51:43.960 --> 0:51:46.520
<v Speaker 1>would care about that if I had watched the whole

0:51:47.000 --> 0:51:48.840
<v Speaker 1>I think that's the point of TV's You're supposed to

0:51:49.800 --> 0:51:55.120
<v Speaker 1>slowly start caring about the characters afterwards. I mean, over time.

0:51:55.360 --> 0:51:58.400
<v Speaker 1>But if you just go to the Wikipedia page of

0:51:58.480 --> 0:52:02.960
<v Speaker 1>a TV show and then you read the last line,

0:52:05.320 --> 0:52:07.799
<v Speaker 1>then you'll be like, I don't give a shit?

0:52:08.960 --> 0:52:09.000
<v Speaker 3>What?

0:52:09.160 --> 0:52:13.239
<v Speaker 1>All right? One more what the Sopranos. Fuck the Sopranos. Wait,

0:52:13.239 --> 0:52:15.080
<v Speaker 1>I've already seen the ending of the Sopranos. He's just

0:52:15.160 --> 0:52:18.719
<v Speaker 1>like he looks up. That's the ending of the Sopranos.

0:52:18.960 --> 0:52:20.080
<v Speaker 1>Is he looks up?

0:52:22.239 --> 0:52:22.560
<v Speaker 2>All right?

0:52:22.880 --> 0:52:30.080
<v Speaker 1>All right? Sorry? Hello, yo, get go? What's up? Brother?

0:52:30.160 --> 0:52:30.680
<v Speaker 1>How you doing?

0:52:31.320 --> 0:52:32.839
<v Speaker 3>No way? Good hour?

0:52:34.480 --> 0:52:40.480
<v Speaker 1>How am I? I'm doing? Not too bad. I'm enjoying life.

0:52:42.440 --> 0:52:46.840
<v Speaker 1>I'm not I'm not satisfied. I'm definitely not satisfied. No,

0:52:46.880 --> 0:52:49.759
<v Speaker 1>I'm not satisfied. There's a lot more that I need

0:52:49.840 --> 0:52:54.000
<v Speaker 1>to refine and do before I'm satisfied. And I'm stressed

0:52:54.040 --> 0:52:58.520
<v Speaker 1>out about it because I don't have good enough systems

0:52:58.560 --> 0:53:02.759
<v Speaker 1>in place for for me to feel truly peaceful and

0:53:02.880 --> 0:53:07.920
<v Speaker 1>satisfied with myself. But I'm on the way there. I

0:53:08.239 --> 0:53:10.600
<v Speaker 1>have full confidence. I'm on the way there. The problem

0:53:10.680 --> 0:53:12.279
<v Speaker 1>is that I'm twenty eight, and.

0:53:12.360 --> 0:53:13.400
<v Speaker 3>I live in.

0:53:15.200 --> 0:53:18.759
<v Speaker 1>A universe that I've created at this point. You know,

0:53:19.160 --> 0:53:21.200
<v Speaker 1>when you're young, when you're like when you're in college

0:53:21.239 --> 0:53:22.759
<v Speaker 1>and high school, it's like, all right, I'll just wait

0:53:22.840 --> 0:53:26.160
<v Speaker 1>until the next grade. But then once you graduate, you're like,

0:53:26.560 --> 0:53:29.680
<v Speaker 1>you can't do that anymore. You just there's no next thing.

0:53:29.760 --> 0:53:32.279
<v Speaker 1>There's no purgatory, there's just this is it.

0:53:32.640 --> 0:53:32.800
<v Speaker 4>You know.

0:53:34.000 --> 0:53:37.880
<v Speaker 1>It's great. I love it. I love I feel the

0:53:38.000 --> 0:53:43.240
<v Speaker 1>most free at this age in my life. I feel

0:53:44.360 --> 0:53:50.920
<v Speaker 1>very free. I feel I've also had at least three

0:53:51.320 --> 0:53:58.120
<v Speaker 1>separate times where I thought there was nothing past this,

0:53:59.680 --> 0:54:02.880
<v Speaker 1>like okay, like three separate times where I was like,

0:54:03.160 --> 0:54:07.560
<v Speaker 1>I think everything's over. And now I'm not even talking

0:54:07.560 --> 0:54:10.080
<v Speaker 1>about like my career whatever. I'm just talking about like life.

0:54:10.800 --> 0:54:10.920
<v Speaker 2>You know.

0:54:10.960 --> 0:54:13.200
<v Speaker 1>I've had three separate times where I'm like, I think

0:54:15.040 --> 0:54:17.640
<v Speaker 1>that it's over, and then there's like a whole new

0:54:17.719 --> 0:54:20.000
<v Speaker 1>life behind it. It's cool, it's interesting, and so I've

0:54:20.040 --> 0:54:22.640
<v Speaker 1>learned that's happened to me enough. And also I see

0:54:22.840 --> 0:54:25.600
<v Speaker 1>forty six year old guys in New York like walking

0:54:25.640 --> 0:54:28.440
<v Speaker 1>around and like eating sandwiches, and I'm like, one day

0:54:28.440 --> 0:54:30.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm going to be that guy, and that's like five

0:54:30.719 --> 0:54:34.040
<v Speaker 1>lifetimes from now. So I feel good. I feel pretty confident.

0:54:35.560 --> 0:54:35.799
<v Speaker 4>That's all.

0:54:35.880 --> 0:54:37.800
<v Speaker 1>That's all I'm doing. How are you doing? What's going on?

0:54:38.040 --> 0:54:40.680
<v Speaker 1>What made you want to call it my Gecko show?

0:54:40.760 --> 0:54:41.520
<v Speaker 1>That's what I want to know.

0:54:42.960 --> 0:54:46.399
<v Speaker 3>Well, we've talked before, and I've been wanting to give

0:54:46.400 --> 0:54:49.239
<v Speaker 3>you an update. So I've been trying to call you

0:54:49.400 --> 0:54:50.359
<v Speaker 3>but I never get through.

0:54:51.080 --> 0:54:52.160
<v Speaker 1>Okay, what do we talk about?

0:54:53.320 --> 0:54:56.279
<v Speaker 3>Uh? The I was on the podcast. The episode is

0:54:56.360 --> 0:55:01.239
<v Speaker 3>OCD and Skateboarding, and we talked about out how I

0:55:01.360 --> 0:55:04.880
<v Speaker 3>thought I had OCD and that I was like traveling

0:55:05.160 --> 0:55:07.279
<v Speaker 3>and like teaching kids how to skate and show like that.

0:55:08.600 --> 0:55:11.560
<v Speaker 1>Cool. Okay, you know it's funny. I'm gonna be so

0:55:11.680 --> 0:55:14.080
<v Speaker 1>honest with you. I know I remember the name of

0:55:14.120 --> 0:55:18.759
<v Speaker 1>that episode, but I can't remember a lot of what

0:55:18.920 --> 0:55:20.640
<v Speaker 1>we talked about. So why don't you go ahead and

0:55:20.760 --> 0:55:23.319
<v Speaker 1>tell me where you're at right now?

0:55:24.760 --> 0:55:26.560
<v Speaker 3>Well, I'm at work, so if I got to.

0:55:26.560 --> 0:55:29.719
<v Speaker 1>Go, I don't mean I don't mean physically figure it out,

0:55:29.840 --> 0:55:30.319
<v Speaker 1>but like.

0:55:30.760 --> 0:55:34.279
<v Speaker 3>Right now in life, yes, Well, I have yet to

0:55:34.360 --> 0:55:38.399
<v Speaker 3>go to a psychiatrist. I've been to therapy again, which

0:55:38.440 --> 0:55:44.440
<v Speaker 3>is great. And I have a girlfriend now and she

0:55:44.719 --> 0:55:47.880
<v Speaker 3>has kind of like opened up my eyes about thinking

0:55:48.080 --> 0:55:51.960
<v Speaker 3>about the world differently, and that has also helped me

0:55:52.160 --> 0:55:56.000
<v Speaker 3>a lot. So we're kind of there. We're doing good

0:55:56.080 --> 0:56:00.680
<v Speaker 3>deck some some bad parts, but you know, life.

0:56:02.280 --> 0:56:07.160
<v Speaker 1>Okay, that's pretty good. What ways has your girlfriend helped

0:56:07.200 --> 0:56:08.920
<v Speaker 1>you see things differently?

0:56:11.600 --> 0:56:14.040
<v Speaker 3>She like one thing that really stuck with me when

0:56:14.120 --> 0:56:16.680
<v Speaker 3>we first met, was like she told me that she

0:56:16.840 --> 0:56:22.360
<v Speaker 3>doesn't think embarrassment is real, which at first I'm like,

0:56:22.640 --> 0:56:28.120
<v Speaker 3>all right, I'm skeptical, but she was like, well, if

0:56:28.120 --> 0:56:30.960
<v Speaker 3>you do like something embarrassing or like what you think

0:56:31.080 --> 0:56:33.640
<v Speaker 3>is embarrassing, but you play it off like it's not,

0:56:34.280 --> 0:56:37.640
<v Speaker 3>then nobody else will think it's embarrassing. And I kind

0:56:37.680 --> 0:56:39.520
<v Speaker 3>of totally understand.

0:56:39.120 --> 0:56:45.919
<v Speaker 1>That one hundred correct, you know, and I never thought

0:56:45.960 --> 0:56:48.000
<v Speaker 1>of it that way. Yeah, well, I mean, how do

0:56:48.080 --> 0:56:53.279
<v Speaker 1>you think, like that's how cool people operate is they

0:56:53.560 --> 0:56:57.920
<v Speaker 1>just play everything off like it was meant like they meant.

0:56:57.760 --> 0:57:03.759
<v Speaker 3>To do it exactly. Also, I've been playing kndoma a

0:57:03.840 --> 0:57:08.120
<v Speaker 3>lot recently, which if I go to one of your shows,

0:57:08.160 --> 0:57:09.240
<v Speaker 3>I'm bringing you a Kandama.

0:57:11.280 --> 0:57:15.800
<v Speaker 1>I'm very excited for It's super sick that I don't know.

0:57:15.920 --> 0:57:18.920
<v Speaker 3>I've just been kind of living. I'm also not satisfied

0:57:19.120 --> 0:57:21.440
<v Speaker 3>with my life right now, and so I've just been

0:57:21.560 --> 0:57:25.840
<v Speaker 3>like running around trying to figure myself out. But I'm

0:57:25.880 --> 0:57:31.800
<v Speaker 3>really young, so I'm still trying to I'm trying not

0:57:31.880 --> 0:57:35.040
<v Speaker 3>to rush things, but at the same time, I feel

0:57:35.080 --> 0:57:37.680
<v Speaker 3>like I'm not where I'm supposed to be if that

0:57:37.800 --> 0:57:41.600
<v Speaker 3>makes sense. Like I look at like I know, comparison

0:57:41.760 --> 0:57:45.360
<v Speaker 3>is the thief of joy. Uh And I look at

0:57:45.440 --> 0:57:48.200
<v Speaker 3>like kids that I went to high school with. I mean,

0:57:48.280 --> 0:57:51.080
<v Speaker 3>some are doing bad, some are doing good, some are

0:57:51.080 --> 0:57:53.720
<v Speaker 3>getting married. Because I'm I'm going to be twenty two

0:57:53.760 --> 0:57:58.960
<v Speaker 3>this year, so I'm pretty young. But I just like,

0:57:59.040 --> 0:58:01.160
<v Speaker 3>I work at a parts store right now, and I've

0:58:01.200 --> 0:58:05.800
<v Speaker 3>been here for three years or so, and I kind

0:58:05.800 --> 0:58:09.720
<v Speaker 3>of I'm kind of like, am I supposed to be here? Like?

0:58:09.880 --> 0:58:12.800
<v Speaker 3>Am I supposed to be somewhere else in life?

0:58:12.960 --> 0:58:13.600
<v Speaker 2>You know what I mean?

0:58:14.240 --> 0:58:16.040
<v Speaker 3>Like I don't feel like you said, like I don't

0:58:16.040 --> 0:58:22.520
<v Speaker 3>feel satisfied like I'm here, but I don't feel like

0:58:22.680 --> 0:58:25.800
<v Speaker 3>I'm happy, don't get me wrong, but I I feel

0:58:25.880 --> 0:58:29.720
<v Speaker 3>like there should be more If that makes sense?

0:58:30.320 --> 0:58:36.240
<v Speaker 1>You feel like there should be more? Well? What like

0:58:36.320 --> 0:58:38.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm not what more? What more do you want there

0:58:38.600 --> 0:58:39.120
<v Speaker 1>to be? Brother?

0:58:40.160 --> 0:58:41.800
<v Speaker 3>See? And that And that's the thing is like I

0:58:41.840 --> 0:58:47.080
<v Speaker 3>don't know, And I guess that's where I'm like, Shit,

0:58:47.160 --> 0:58:50.919
<v Speaker 3>should I go to college? Should I quit my job

0:58:51.040 --> 0:58:55.520
<v Speaker 3>and switch jobs? Should I? Like, I'm going to Colorado

0:58:55.640 --> 0:58:59.919
<v Speaker 3>for my birthday? Uh? Here here soon? And I missed

0:59:00.040 --> 0:59:04.280
<v Speaker 3>Colorado a lot. So I'm like, should I check that out?

0:59:04.520 --> 0:59:07.360
<v Speaker 3>Like where I should go there? Like maybe move there?

0:59:07.520 --> 0:59:07.920
<v Speaker 3>I don't know.

0:59:09.720 --> 0:59:13.640
<v Speaker 1>Just how you're twenty two. Yeah, I will do all

0:59:13.680 --> 0:59:17.320
<v Speaker 1>of it, man, Just do random stuff. Just do all

0:59:17.400 --> 0:59:21.800
<v Speaker 1>of it, don't don't. You're freaking yourself out for no

0:59:22.400 --> 0:59:25.200
<v Speaker 1>for no reason. Man, Just just just I didn't think.

0:59:25.520 --> 0:59:29.360
<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry, I'm sorry, but just just just just do something. Man,

0:59:31.600 --> 0:59:37.800
<v Speaker 1>I'm putting like anything, you're you're a perfectly You're a

0:59:38.040 --> 0:59:47.360
<v Speaker 1>you are a perfect human being. Yeah, you're perfect, You're perfect,

0:59:47.960 --> 0:59:53.520
<v Speaker 1>You're not such anything. Just go do something, man, Okay, Okay, yeah,

0:59:54.000 --> 0:59:54.720
<v Speaker 1>just because.

0:59:54.520 --> 0:59:58.560
<v Speaker 3>Okay, So, like I I live in Iowa and all

0:59:58.640 --> 1:00:03.959
<v Speaker 3>my family and friends are in Iowa and not really

1:00:04.040 --> 1:00:08.000
<v Speaker 3>realizing that I'm pretty lucky to have like grandparents and

1:00:08.080 --> 1:00:10.760
<v Speaker 3>a couple of great grandparents still at my age. So

1:00:10.880 --> 1:00:14.000
<v Speaker 3>I'm very family oriented and I love my family a lot,

1:00:14.560 --> 1:00:18.600
<v Speaker 3>and it's really hard for me to be like, all right,

1:00:18.720 --> 1:00:22.240
<v Speaker 3>I'm gonna say fuck it Moose States, or like I

1:00:22.320 --> 1:00:24.720
<v Speaker 3>can't do anything till September because my lease isn't up

1:00:24.760 --> 1:00:29.880
<v Speaker 3>until then. But I like I'm scared that I'm gonna

1:00:29.920 --> 1:00:32.480
<v Speaker 3>like make my mom mad, or like upset that I'm

1:00:32.560 --> 1:00:33.360
<v Speaker 3>leaving or.

1:00:35.000 --> 1:00:39.880
<v Speaker 1>Stop stop. I you can't be upset that you're making

1:00:39.920 --> 1:00:52.280
<v Speaker 1>your mom mad. What's your name again? Sully Sally Sally Sally,

1:00:52.440 --> 1:01:01.640
<v Speaker 1>I know, Gek, I know Gik Sally Sally. I'm literally yelling,

1:01:01.680 --> 1:01:03.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm pissing No, I guess I can hear you.

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<v Speaker 2>Can you hear me?

1:01:03.640 --> 1:01:07.880
<v Speaker 1>I'm yelling, yeah, I know, pissing off my neighbors. Dude,

1:01:07.920 --> 1:01:11.560
<v Speaker 1>I watch TV so fucked dude. I'll watch TV like

1:01:11.800 --> 1:01:13.520
<v Speaker 1>at what I think is a normal volume, and then

1:01:13.520 --> 1:01:16.520
<v Speaker 1>I'll walk into like the my apartment hallway and I

1:01:16.560 --> 1:01:19.720
<v Speaker 1>could hear the TV from like the elevator. Nobody has

1:01:19.880 --> 1:01:22.400
<v Speaker 1>ever said anything to me, so I don't think it's

1:01:22.440 --> 1:01:24.880
<v Speaker 1>a problem. But like everyone get like, there's at least

1:01:25.520 --> 1:01:29.440
<v Speaker 1>ten other people that are trying to ignore this conversation

1:01:29.600 --> 1:01:31.040
<v Speaker 1>right now. They can hear my version of it. They

1:01:31.080 --> 1:01:36.520
<v Speaker 1>can't hear your They could hear me yell Sully Willson Sully,

1:01:36.800 --> 1:01:38.520
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna kill you. No, I'm not going to kill you,

1:01:38.680 --> 1:01:44.120
<v Speaker 1>but Jesus christ Man, like, by the way, I get it,

1:01:44.240 --> 1:01:46.160
<v Speaker 1>I know I by the way I have this. I

1:01:46.240 --> 1:01:48.439
<v Speaker 1>want you to know I have the same thing, dude.

1:01:49.480 --> 1:01:52.000
<v Speaker 1>Like I go home, Like I have the same thing, dude,

1:01:52.080 --> 1:01:56.240
<v Speaker 1>Like I I recognize that, Like I've chosen to like

1:01:56.400 --> 1:01:58.600
<v Speaker 1>leave my hometown and like live a life. I live,

1:01:58.800 --> 1:02:01.320
<v Speaker 1>live my own life. I would never do it any

1:02:01.360 --> 1:02:05.800
<v Speaker 1>other way. Like me, my sister, we we like that's

1:02:05.840 --> 1:02:08.640
<v Speaker 1>what we decided to do with our lives and it

1:02:08.800 --> 1:02:13.360
<v Speaker 1>was never an option to not do that. But I

1:02:13.440 --> 1:02:16.880
<v Speaker 1>go home and I'm like, uh, my mom looks like

1:02:17.760 --> 1:02:20.200
<v Speaker 1>rapidly older every time I see her in person. So

1:02:20.320 --> 1:02:26.560
<v Speaker 1>does my dad. It's hard, it's a bummer. I call

1:02:26.680 --> 1:02:28.960
<v Speaker 1>them frequently. I was on the phone with my mom.

1:02:29.400 --> 1:02:30.920
<v Speaker 1>I was on the phone with my mom today and

1:02:31.000 --> 1:02:32.960
<v Speaker 1>she told me a story about how I was almost

1:02:33.080 --> 1:02:38.200
<v Speaker 1>never born. But that's her story. But I call them

1:02:38.240 --> 1:02:40.560
<v Speaker 1>all the time, and I have like an adults relationship

1:02:40.600 --> 1:02:43.760
<v Speaker 1>with them, and it's on First of all, it's on

1:02:43.880 --> 1:02:46.840
<v Speaker 1>your mom to let you go have your own life,

1:02:47.120 --> 1:02:50.560
<v Speaker 1>but it's on you too. At some point just decide

1:02:51.280 --> 1:02:55.040
<v Speaker 1>that you need to have your own life. I get.

1:02:55.720 --> 1:02:58.160
<v Speaker 1>I get it's a very American thing, and it is.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a very American thing to go and have your

1:03:00.720 --> 1:03:06.480
<v Speaker 1>own life. But you have it in you to want

1:03:06.520 --> 1:03:08.560
<v Speaker 1>to have your own. Your mom's not forcing you to

1:03:08.640 --> 1:03:10.760
<v Speaker 1>want to have your she's doing the opposite you. I

1:03:10.960 --> 1:03:13.040
<v Speaker 1>feel within you that you want to have your own life,

1:03:13.440 --> 1:03:17.360
<v Speaker 1>So like, go have your own life. Man Like, don't

1:03:17.440 --> 1:03:19.040
<v Speaker 1>let your mom tell you to not.

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<v Speaker 4>Do it.

1:03:21.120 --> 1:03:23.480
<v Speaker 1>Go have your own life. It's good. You don't want

1:03:23.520 --> 1:03:29.600
<v Speaker 1>to be like a kid forever. You want to have

1:03:29.720 --> 1:03:33.320
<v Speaker 1>your own semblance of existence on this own world. And

1:03:33.360 --> 1:03:35.640
<v Speaker 1>by the way, call your fucking mom once a week.

1:03:35.840 --> 1:03:38.360
<v Speaker 1>Call your grandparents, call them, visit them.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh I do all the time. I love them.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sure you do. That's great. Like, by the way,

1:03:42.680 --> 1:03:45.240
<v Speaker 1>your family oriented. You want to meet you want to

1:03:45.240 --> 1:03:47.280
<v Speaker 1>meet a woman, you want to meet, You want to

1:03:47.280 --> 1:03:49.080
<v Speaker 1>have a wife, You want to have a girlfriend. You

1:03:49.160 --> 1:03:53.520
<v Speaker 1>wanna do all that stuff. Yeah, in order to do that,

1:03:53.600 --> 1:03:55.640
<v Speaker 1>you have to have your own life.

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<v Speaker 3>You're right, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>So you you want to You want to look back

1:04:05.040 --> 1:04:07.640
<v Speaker 1>on your life and be proud of yourself, not even

1:04:07.720 --> 1:04:09.840
<v Speaker 1>because whatever you made a bunch of money or you

1:04:09.880 --> 1:04:13.680
<v Speaker 1>were successful or whatever, but because you interfaced with the

1:04:13.800 --> 1:04:18.960
<v Speaker 1>planet and go, you know what, uh go, Actually, here's

1:04:19.080 --> 1:04:21.280
<v Speaker 1>here's what you gotta do after this, bro. Go watch

1:04:21.840 --> 1:04:27.240
<v Speaker 1>the beginning of Hercules. Oh god, dude, go watch the beginning.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, it's so it makes me cry. I

1:04:31.160 --> 1:04:35.040
<v Speaker 1>have often dreamed have a far off place. It's a

1:04:35.120 --> 1:04:39.720
<v Speaker 1>great song. Go search up. Go on YouTube, search up. Fuck,

1:04:39.760 --> 1:04:42.080
<v Speaker 1>what's the name of the song? What's the name of

1:04:42.120 --> 1:04:44.240
<v Speaker 1>the song from Hercules where he leaves his parents and

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<v Speaker 1>goes leaves, goes on adventure.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know. I haven't seen him forever.

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<v Speaker 1>Like, oh, it's I can go the distance. Go search up.

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<v Speaker 1>I can go the distance on YouTube. You can go

1:04:58.960 --> 1:05:03.400
<v Speaker 1>to the distance. It's like you're like playing Pokemon and

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<v Speaker 1>you know you're not leaving fucking Palette town, you know.

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<v Speaker 3>Can we get can we get deep for a second?

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<v Speaker 1>Can you want to do you want to spend sally?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you want to spend this life catching the doofs

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<v Speaker 1>in Palette Town? Or do you want to get yourself

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<v Speaker 1>a fucking requaiser?

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<v Speaker 3>I want to a requiz you.

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<v Speaker 1>Want to requaiz it? Yes, we can get deep? What's up?

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<v Speaker 3>Okay? I okay, I want to know your I've been

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<v Speaker 3>really stuck on this for a while because it's on

1:05:33.320 --> 1:05:38.600
<v Speaker 3>the topic of life, right, yeah, okay, Recently, I don't

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<v Speaker 3>like talking about death and I know it's gonna happen,

1:05:42.320 --> 1:05:45.680
<v Speaker 3>and when it's my time, it's my time. But like

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<v Speaker 3>for me, it's really hard for me to fathom like

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<v Speaker 3>what happens if that makes sense, like in my head,

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<v Speaker 3>Like my family's not like religious, but like I believe

1:05:59.800 --> 1:06:03.240
<v Speaker 3>that like a higher power. And so I'm like, okay,

1:06:03.400 --> 1:06:06.280
<v Speaker 3>like we go somewhere when we die. But at the

1:06:06.320 --> 1:06:11.080
<v Speaker 3>same time, I'm also, well, there's nothing after, you know.

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<v Speaker 3>It's like what people say, like, oh, do you remember

1:06:14.560 --> 1:06:16.880
<v Speaker 3>when you were born? No, all right, it's the same shit,

1:06:17.480 --> 1:06:20.200
<v Speaker 3>And like scares the fuck out of me. And I

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<v Speaker 3>want to know what you think.

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<v Speaker 1>Here's what I think the other day. Okay, you're twenty

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<v Speaker 1>two and you're freaking out about this every day, dude.

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<v Speaker 1>The other day I was at a I was a

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<v Speaker 1>like a diner and there's a like eighty seven year

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<v Speaker 1>old man next to me. He was eating soup, and

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<v Speaker 1>his soup he didn't like his soup. So you know

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<v Speaker 1>what he did?

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<v Speaker 3>He ate it?

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<v Speaker 1>No, no, he he asked the waiter. He was like, hey,

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't like the soup, could you, like, could you

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<v Speaker 1>remake it? He hasked the waiter to remake a soup.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you know why? Do you know why this is relevant?

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<v Speaker 4>Why?

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<v Speaker 1>Because that guy is eighty seven years old. He's being

1:07:12.320 --> 1:07:17.640
<v Speaker 1>he's gonna get sent into oblivion any day now, Sully.

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<v Speaker 1>Any day now, that eighty seven year old man is

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<v Speaker 1>gonna get sent into ablivion. And he's over here pissed

1:07:27.160 --> 1:07:31.040
<v Speaker 1>off because his soup is he's not pissed off. He

1:07:31.160 --> 1:07:33.000
<v Speaker 1>wasn't pissed off. He wasn't pissed off. I don't want

1:07:33.000 --> 1:07:35.200
<v Speaker 1>to characterize him. He's not grumpy old man, but he was.

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<v Speaker 1>He wanted the soup, you know that way. He was assertive.

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<v Speaker 1>He was not a grumpy old but he was nice

1:07:41.000 --> 1:07:43.800
<v Speaker 1>to the waiter. But he just wanted to and you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I saw nothing. But the point about this guy is

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<v Speaker 1>he's just living his life. And that guy should be

1:07:52.080 --> 1:07:55.000
<v Speaker 1>way more scared than you. You have a lifetime ahead

1:07:55.000 --> 1:07:56.760
<v Speaker 1>of you before you need to worry about death. That

1:07:56.880 --> 1:08:01.200
<v Speaker 1>guy could die that afternoon. That guy could be like,

1:08:01.280 --> 1:08:04.600
<v Speaker 1>oh I don't like the soup. Aneurysm death. You know,

1:08:05.080 --> 1:08:06.840
<v Speaker 1>he's not even thinking about it. He's thinking about his

1:08:07.000 --> 1:08:10.840
<v Speaker 1>dumb ass life. He's thinking about exactly what's going on

1:08:11.040 --> 1:08:15.560
<v Speaker 1>in his stupid, almost over life. And so that's what

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<v Speaker 1>I think is the right thing to do until you're dead.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know if it's the right thing to do

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<v Speaker 1>until you're dead. I've of course, I've talked about a

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<v Speaker 1>lot on the podcast about like being afraid of death

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<v Speaker 1>and asking the major questions of life and all this stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>But I'm over that, man, I'm over that. I've decided personally,

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<v Speaker 1>I think it's good to go through that. I think

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<v Speaker 1>it's good to have your questioning and your thinking and

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<v Speaker 1>all that stuff. But just at a certain point, man,

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<v Speaker 1>you got to join the living and you got to

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<v Speaker 1>just like be in it. You got to have things

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<v Speaker 1>that pull you into life, whether it's like responsibilities or people,

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<v Speaker 1>or goals or novelty or drugs and alcohol or you know,

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<v Speaker 1>whatever it is that is your thing. Just you got

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<v Speaker 1>go join the living.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, I'm just I'm such a go go go person.

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<v Speaker 3>So recently I've been trying to like live in the

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<v Speaker 3>moment and just be like, all right, I'm here, I'm

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<v Speaker 3>doing this, Like let's not think about the next thing,

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<v Speaker 3>and like what my mom says is just be just

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<v Speaker 3>be here, just be And I've been really trying to

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<v Speaker 3>do that recently, especially like in the New Year. That

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<v Speaker 3>was one of my like whatever New Year's resolutions or

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<v Speaker 3>whatever is to just be and I'm doing our right,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm doing decent. But it comes across my mind all

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<v Speaker 3>the time. And then I try to not freak out.

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<v Speaker 1>How old are you? How's your mom?

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<v Speaker 3>It's fifty, I'm forty nine. Fifty.

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<v Speaker 1>She's living her life, right, She's just being She's existing.

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<v Speaker 1>She's not freaking out about death. She's not freaking out

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<v Speaker 1>about being old. She's not grieving her twenties. She's fucking

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<v Speaker 1>grocery shopping and walking around and watching TV.

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<v Speaker 3>That's true. Seinfeld, Seinfeld Fire fire Show.

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<v Speaker 1>Life is good, dude, life, life is good, and it's

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<v Speaker 1>gonna get better. I really believe that. I'm excited. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>excited to I was talking to my friends on the

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<v Speaker 1>phone today and he was getting he was getting lunch

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<v Speaker 1>with his aunt, and his aunt is like sixty sixty something,

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<v Speaker 1>and she was like stuffing She's like frantically stuffing lettuce

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<v Speaker 1>in her face and like kind of she like eating

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<v Speaker 1>really grossly, like just being like, oh yeah, we're gonna

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<v Speaker 1>make sure we get off on that and just like

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<v Speaker 1>eating really gross and and it was like, oh, that's

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<v Speaker 1>that's good, because it's like one day I'll be one

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<v Speaker 1>day will be like sixty something, will be much closer

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<v Speaker 1>to death than we are now, and we're not gonna

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<v Speaker 1>be worked out. We're not gonna be freaking out about

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<v Speaker 1>we gonna be like eating food really grossly and talking

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<v Speaker 1>about some fucking thing that doesn't matter. We're gonna be fine.

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<v Speaker 1>All those people are gonna be dead that we're talking

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<v Speaker 1>about right now, and it's gonna be our turn to

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<v Speaker 1>ignore our own deaths and we'll be fine. It's gonna

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<v Speaker 1>be fine. It promise you. It's we're designed to uh

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<v Speaker 1>go away. Uh. But in the meantime, and this is

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<v Speaker 1>why you need to leave your fucking palette town is

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<v Speaker 1>because in the meantime, you're uh you want to look

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<v Speaker 1>a live a life that you're proud of, right and

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<v Speaker 1>you want to have when you're older. If you're gonna

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<v Speaker 1>have your family oriented, you probably want to have kids

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<v Speaker 1>one day. When you're older, you're gonna want to uh

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<v Speaker 1>uh still do all the things that you want to

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<v Speaker 1>do now, and you'll figure out a way to do them.

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<v Speaker 1>But when you're older, you're gonna want to have a

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<v Speaker 1>life that you can talk about to your children. You're

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<v Speaker 1>gonna want to have life experience so you can help

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<v Speaker 1>your kids go through their life. And you know you

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<v Speaker 1>want like, like, just live your life, dude, Like you're

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<v Speaker 1>you're sitting here, you're freaking out about death when you're

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<v Speaker 1>not even living your life. You know, so, and I

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<v Speaker 1>and I know, I know it's hard where I know

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<v Speaker 1>money is tight in this economy, and and and it's

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<v Speaker 1>a uh, it's hard. It's not the easy path to

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<v Speaker 1>go and live your life and try to do a thing.

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<v Speaker 1>It's easier to just whatever. And again it's a very

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<v Speaker 1>American thing, I think, to go out on your own.

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<v Speaker 1>But if it's what you want to try, then at

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<v Speaker 1>least try it. That's all. That's my rant to you, Sully.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sick of hearing my own voice, so I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 1>let you go.

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<v Speaker 3>No, you're good.

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<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

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<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 3>Uh? Love yourself? Uh and be kind, thank you, silly,

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<v Speaker 3>good luck man, thank you gek.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah that Sully. I like Sully.

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<v Speaker 3>I do.

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<v Speaker 1>So good guy. I went on a bit of a rant,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's okay. I kinda I actually like going on rants?

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<v Speaker 1>Actually was I lied? No, nobody hosts. Nobody who hosts

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<v Speaker 1>a podcast doesn't like the sound of their own voice.

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