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Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, Hi, what's your name?

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Speaker 2: To get the jez jezz?

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Speaker 3: What's up?

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Speaker 1: Jezz?

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Speaker 4: No?

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Speaker 2: I stood? What are you up to?

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Speaker 1: Not much? Are you calling from Australia?

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Speaker 2: Oh yeah, cool? Yeah, I mean Australia. It's not very

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Speaker 2: sunny and hot out writing.

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Speaker 1: Do you guys have a lot of civil rights in Australia?

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Speaker 2: Civil rights? Yeah?

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Speaker 1: Like, cause I don't know, like I keep all right,

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Speaker 1: So I've been thinking a lot about America, and I'm like,

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Speaker 1: you know, America, we're like, well, like we get like

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Speaker 1: our whole thing is like we have a lot of

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Speaker 1: freedom right, But I'm like, there are a lot of

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Speaker 1: places that kind of have that.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, we did have.

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Speaker 2: Protected I don't know the state. Sorry, h We do

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Speaker 2: have rights, but they're not constitutionally protected like they are

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Speaker 2: in the US. For example, hate speech laws that have

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Speaker 2: just been created, like they sort of take away the

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Speaker 2: right to free speech from certain groups.

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Speaker 1: Interesting, there was a guy getting arrested here. I know, man,

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Speaker 1: I don't know. I know a lot of bad shit's

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Speaker 1: going on in America right now. But I was like,

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Speaker 1: there's this guy. This guy got arrested outside of my

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Speaker 1: apartment like a little bit down the street and Uh,

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Speaker 1: this guy's getting arrested, and this other guy was like

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Speaker 1: went up to the cop and started screaming at him

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Speaker 1: and went like, go, suck a fucking dick, Suck a

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Speaker 1: fucking dick, you, suck a dick, Suck a fucking dick.

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Speaker 1: Fuck you, suck a fucking dick. Fuck you. And I

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Speaker 1: was like there and I was like and I was

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Speaker 1: like I watched that. I was like, that is kind

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Speaker 1: of awesome. I'm like, that is America working as it

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Speaker 1: was intended to, because there's so many places in the

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Speaker 1: world where if you did that to like a police officer,

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Speaker 1: you would die.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 2: In Australia, you get like trying to set really well yeah,

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Speaker 2: like it couldn't. It's so like you're impeding the process

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Speaker 2: of law enforcement. I guess, Well, he wasn't.

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Speaker 1: Okay, he wasn't like getting up in his face about it,

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Speaker 1: but he was like he was standing like he's standing,

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Speaker 1: you know, a respectful enough distance away, but still.

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Speaker 2: Yelling that oh and just tackling in. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Can you guess So if that happened in Australia, would

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Speaker 1: that guy get arrested?

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Speaker 4: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: I would well, dependently context like, but yeah, if they

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Speaker 2: get going for like suit like a super long time,

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Speaker 2: they'll get screwed, Like they will get arrested and like

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Speaker 2: sty'll have some ship thrown at them for no reason.

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Speaker 2: It's like it's a pretty like and in Australia as well,

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Speaker 2: like it's not very well known, but like judges at

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Speaker 2: the courts will try and make examples out of people

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Speaker 2: because of like certain crimes that they're trying to reduce.

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Speaker 2: I'm like a crazy story about that happening to my brother.

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Speaker 2: Oh really yeah, like strapping his nuts. So my brother

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Speaker 2: was in a situation where some people were trying to

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Speaker 2: like murder him, right, Oh my god. And yeah, so

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Speaker 2: they're like they had him like tied up, They're like

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Speaker 2: injected him with some sort of thing that made him

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Speaker 2: pass out, and he like woke up and during like

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Speaker 2: trying to escape, he killed this guy.

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Speaker 1: Right wait, so wait, so this so your brother, someone

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Speaker 1: was trying to murder your brother, and then your brother escaped,

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Speaker 1: and then while escaping he had to like he killed someone.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, because he was in like a car and he

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Speaker 2: was like locked inside it with these guys. Wow, and

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Speaker 2: there was a convenient like yeah a knife in the

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Speaker 2: back and yeah kind of kind of murphed this guy

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Speaker 2: whoa Yeah, but at the time in Australia there was

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Speaker 2: this massive problem with like kids bringing knives to school

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Speaker 2: and just like a massive rising knife crime. So instead

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Speaker 2: of and you have like the self defense aspect coming

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Speaker 2: into play for him, as like his wife was threatened,

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Speaker 2: he's had the whole book thrown out him. You go,

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Speaker 2: I think like thirty years or something like that, considerations

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Speaker 2: your self deferse Wow, yeah, man, yeah, I'll be like

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Speaker 2: fifty five when he gets.

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Speaker 3: Out, I think.

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Speaker 1: Damn. So he's in right now.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, and you'll be in prison for another twenty three years.

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Speaker 1: Jesus Christ, how how old was he when that happened.

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Speaker 2: I think he was like like early twenties, like twenty

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Speaker 1: Dude, jeezus crazy sool that's super fuck. Do you visit him?

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Speaker 2: Oh No, I don't. I kind of set contact with

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Speaker 2: him because I was in a job where I wasn't

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Speaker 2: about to visit prison, and then I just sort of

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Speaker 2: shout out of contact with him.

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Speaker 1: Wait, you were in a job where you weren't allowed

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Speaker 1: to visit prisons.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I was in the military, so and like I

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Speaker 2: wasn't allowed to go visit prisons while I was serving.

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Speaker 1: Interesting.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, and I also have like a like a strange

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Speaker 2: relationship with him, so it's kind of hard too.

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Speaker 1: Why did you have a strange relationship with him?

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Speaker 2: Oh, like like strange, Like it was very difficult.

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Speaker 3: Because he was he wasn't like he wasn't the greatest.

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Speaker 2: Role model, Like he was not not a bad egg,

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Speaker 2: but he was up to no good and made it

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Speaker 2: very hard for like me growing up because it was

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Speaker 2: like a small area. Have we lived there, and yeah,

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Speaker 2: made mama pretty hard.

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Speaker 1: What was the I mean not like like oh okay,

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Speaker 1: so he would go around cars in trouble and making

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Speaker 1: a bad name for the family in a small area

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Speaker 1: and then you're associated with him, so it's putting, it's

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Speaker 1: making your life harder to kind of thing.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, absolutely, like because people would like Carnie was the

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Speaker 2: same brush, I guess.

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Speaker 3: You'd call it. Like they would be like, oh, that's

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Speaker 3: like this guy's.

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Speaker 2: Brother, even though I was like the completely opposite of

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Speaker 2: like a normal dude doing normal things and like I'd

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Speaker 2: get like pulled over and have my car like sirch

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Speaker 2: like once a week and by the police. You're not

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Speaker 2: like I've never been to the police station before. Wow, finally, like, yeah,

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Speaker 2: it was pretty ridiculous. So you know, it's I should

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Speaker 2: visit him, but I it's I don't like to. I

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Speaker 2: guess going in prisons.

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Speaker 4: Do I.

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Speaker 1: Do you have siby other siblings besides him?

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Speaker 2: Uh no, it's just me.

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Speaker 1: And do your parents visit him?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, pretty frequently. And I like, look house sit for

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Speaker 2: them while they're gone. I guess that's my contribution.

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Speaker 1: You guys go visit you guys go visit my brother.

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Speaker 1: I'll water the plants while you're gone.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I watered the points, look after the dogs and all.

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Speaker 2: That's great.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, no, that's that is definitely a better part of

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Speaker 1: the gig for sure. That's a better end of the

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Speaker 2: Yeah, it's sometimes it's annoying, but because it's always on

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Speaker 2: like a Saturday, not i'ld say there because you like,

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Speaker 2: but my friends had to travel, like like it's a

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Speaker 2: ten hour around trip to visit whoa really yeah, and

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Speaker 2: it's like driving to there's no flight to that sort

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Speaker 1: What I mean, I don't want to. I don't want

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Speaker 1: you to doc yourself. But like so he's wait, which

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Speaker 1: city do you live?

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Speaker 3: In.

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Speaker 2: Uh I didn't like Canbra like they.

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Speaker 1: No, I know camera, it's the fucking yeah, it's the capitol.

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Speaker 1: I know Camebra. I'm hip.

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Speaker 2: You got to come to sometime, saga, you got to

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Speaker 2: come to camera sometimes comedy camera, like just come heat

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Speaker 2: for sure.

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Speaker 1: Uh yeah I did. I did an Australia tour fucking

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Speaker 1: almost three years ago. Now I didn't hit Canberra, but

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Speaker 1: uh I had a good time.

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Speaker 4: Man.

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Speaker 1: I like Australia, but yeah, I didn't hit Canberra. What

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Speaker 1: are do you know what prisons are like in Australia,

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Speaker 1: Like you know how okay, like you know how in

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Speaker 1: fucking Denmark and stuff, like the prisons are super nice?

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Speaker 1: Are they nice? There?

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Speaker 4: Have you?

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Speaker 1: Do you have any idea?

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Speaker 4: No?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I say, like I I know from like my

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Speaker 2: brother and I have a couple of like preendid and

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Speaker 2: stuff that have been inside. And it's pretty fucked like

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Speaker 2: there's a lot, like a lot of a lot of

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Speaker 2: like drug use like different often which is like an

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Speaker 2: opio to replacement therapy. Everyone's like on that, and it's

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Speaker 2: it's like getting stuff in there, like it's pretty similar

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Speaker 2: to it's not like people will go in there for

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Speaker 2: like maybe tax fraud for like six months and they'll

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Speaker 2: come out just like ten times worse than the first

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Speaker 2: and they like entered prisondents. WHOA, it's not a it's

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Speaker 2: not something that reforms to people. Since I want to

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Speaker 2: so my docksity.

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Speaker 3: But my brother was in.

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Speaker 2: Prison before he's this now sentence. So he was in,

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Speaker 2: he got out and he went back and people the

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Speaker 2: reoffending rate in Australia is just nuts.

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Speaker 1: Wait, so hold on, so your brother got out like

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Speaker 1: fully out and then he just like committed another crime.

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Speaker 1: What would happen?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, so he was in for like this. I think

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Speaker 2: he was like got a quiet with someone who was

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Speaker 2: an assaulting and he was in for like a like

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Speaker 2: a short spent of time like a team months, and

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Speaker 2: then he was out and then he ended up like

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Speaker 2: reascending and going back in.

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Speaker 1: Oh like okay, so the so he's in right now

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Speaker 1: for the knife thing, but he went to prison before that.

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Speaker 2: Yes, yeah, he went to prison before. For a second.

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Speaker 1: Dude, why was who who the fuck was trying to

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Speaker 2: Junkie say, it's like.

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Speaker 1: Not like some you said, you said some junkie.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, it was some junkies, and it was like they're

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Speaker 2: all just like on my god, I think it is

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Speaker 2: like nassive stuff. I don't know if the problem was

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Speaker 2: that they were, and apparently it was because it was

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Speaker 2: like over a girl. Fuck man, it was like the

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Speaker 2: most crazy situation.

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Speaker 1: You seem like go ahead, sorry, oh no, you you

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Speaker 1: go uh you seem it suck. I don't know if

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Speaker 1: it's just because it's in the past or whatever, but

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Speaker 1: you seem like you're you're at this point fairly like

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Speaker 1: detached from your brother.

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Speaker 2: It was very detached from my life in general. It's

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Speaker 2: the same m hm, like I just you sort of

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Speaker 2: got it. Just you like you can't create it, like

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Speaker 2: you can't make it like always bad ship your identity.

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Speaker 2: Otherwise it would just like each you inside, like each

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Speaker 2: you up. Oh yeah, if you like stay like in

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Speaker 2: like you like you still acknowledge that these things are,

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Speaker 2: like you know, they're terrible things and they have profound

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Speaker 2: impact on your life, but you can't like make that

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Speaker 2: who you are. And it's like people like see you

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Speaker 1: I don't find no, I don't I don't find no,

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Speaker 2: Well name's name like stuff of that Jay as well,

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Speaker 2: I don't know those I like it.

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Speaker 1: No, no, no, I like it.

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Speaker 1: A liquor store, tobacco store, fucking street club, whatever it is.

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Speaker 1: It's fun.

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Speaker 2: Oh gosh, we should start a stream.

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Speaker 1: Start a strip club. It's fun starting just it's fun.

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Speaker 1: The idea. I don't care what's in the building. I

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Speaker 1: people go to euthanize their dogs. Whatever it is. It's like,

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Speaker 1: whatever happens in the building, who cares. I'm saying that

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Speaker 1: ohn name on it is cool. I think it's a

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Speaker 1: good thing to do. That's fun.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, Like I don't know, because he needs a reason

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Speaker 2: I'm can'd be passionate about like someone else's business, and

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Speaker 2: I don't want somebody yell at me on them like

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Speaker 3: That's like the worst thing at all.

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Speaker 2: And so you can be your own boss and it's

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Speaker 2: any like any fuck ups you have on you that

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Speaker 2: any success you have is yours. You should. I find

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Speaker 2: it is really hard to get like being employed by someone.

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Speaker 1: Where When will JJ's liquor be open for business? That's

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Speaker 1: when I'll go to Canberra.

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Speaker 2: Hopefully the next like six months, maybe both sponsor event

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Speaker 2: we'll get sucked up.

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Speaker 1: All right, all right, all right, listeners of this podcast.

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Speaker 1: Six Okay, I'm dude. Six months from now, we're all

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Speaker 1: gonna go to fucking Google Maps and go to Canberra

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Speaker 1: gonna fucking prank call you guys.

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Speaker 2: Fuck. Yeah, No, that's good. Sometimes you need a little

447
00:27:29,600 --> 00:27:31,159
Speaker 2: bit of a push.

448
00:27:32,520 --> 00:27:36,520
Speaker 3: Putting in that. That's what I could get you thirsty.

449
00:27:38,840 --> 00:27:39,760
Speaker 2: I should do something now?

450
00:27:41,400 --> 00:27:42,879
Speaker 1: Yeah wait, were you not gonna do it?

451
00:27:43,000 --> 00:27:43,920
Speaker 2: Were just is?

452
00:27:44,000 --> 00:27:44,320
Speaker 3: It was this?

453
00:27:44,520 --> 00:27:47,160
Speaker 1: Just no? No, I'll do it all right? Yeah you better.

454
00:27:48,520 --> 00:27:52,440
Speaker 1: I want to st oh, I mean do it? What

455
00:27:52,600 --> 00:27:55,919
Speaker 1: don't do it? Whenever you can get it? You know, well,

456
00:27:56,040 --> 00:27:58,119
Speaker 1: all right seven months from now, I'll give you an

457
00:27:58,119 --> 00:27:58,680
Speaker 1: extra month.

458
00:27:59,240 --> 00:28:02,400
Speaker 2: Yeah, it seems just yes, like at the moment we're

459
00:28:02,400 --> 00:28:06,520
Speaker 2: doing planning and stuff. It's just like finance thing like

460
00:28:06,680 --> 00:28:08,080
Speaker 2: payouts to come into stuff like that.

461
00:28:08,640 --> 00:28:10,639
Speaker 1: How much money do you need to open a liquor

462
00:28:10,760 --> 00:28:13,600
Speaker 1: store in a suburb of Canberra?

463
00:28:15,359 --> 00:28:20,840
Speaker 2: Yeah, well be like twenty thousand Astralian It was probably

464
00:28:20,960 --> 00:28:23,200
Speaker 2: like like one hundred and twenty thousand US.

465
00:28:24,840 --> 00:28:28,520
Speaker 1: Oh okay, it's not a crazy amount of money to

466
00:28:28,880 --> 00:28:29,959
Speaker 1: like start a business.

467
00:28:32,320 --> 00:28:35,040
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's not terrible. Like you've got to sort of

468
00:28:35,320 --> 00:28:37,680
Speaker 2: strike gold, like you've got to find a place suitable

469
00:28:38,520 --> 00:28:39,720
Speaker 2: and like all of that stuff.

470
00:28:39,880 --> 00:28:42,120
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's a strike it's like it's a it's a

471
00:28:42,160 --> 00:28:44,680
Speaker 1: heavy investment and a heavy risk, but it's not those

472
00:28:44,720 --> 00:28:50,520
Speaker 1: aren't like they're like worse upstart courses for like starting ship. Yeah,

473
00:28:50,520 --> 00:28:52,760
Speaker 1: you can probably get a lot to do that. Are

474
00:28:52,760 --> 00:28:53,440
Speaker 1: you gonna get a loan?

475
00:28:54,080 --> 00:28:57,440
Speaker 2: Yeah? Oh no, I just paid for it right over.

476
00:28:57,640 --> 00:29:01,520
Speaker 2: Like yeah, when you like broken, say it's something that

477
00:29:01,960 --> 00:29:04,880
Speaker 2: not all out right, there'll be a bit bit of alone,

478
00:29:04,920 --> 00:29:07,280
Speaker 2: but we'll try. Like we've got like fut savings and stuff.

479
00:29:07,320 --> 00:29:07,600
Speaker 4: You do it?

480
00:29:10,640 --> 00:29:12,360
Speaker 3: Yeah, just who likes it?

481
00:29:13,160 --> 00:29:15,920
Speaker 1: I'm happy for you, Jazz. I'm I actually do appreciate you.

482
00:29:16,120 --> 00:29:20,160
Speaker 1: I appreciate that you're continuing to like live your life

483
00:29:20,520 --> 00:29:23,000
Speaker 1: like then like actually do it. It's pretty sweet.

484
00:29:24,960 --> 00:29:28,400
Speaker 2: Thanks, man, appreciate that. Mm hm yeah. I've seen a

485
00:29:28,440 --> 00:29:31,160
Speaker 2: lot of people not do that, and it's just who

486
00:29:31,160 --> 00:29:35,400
Speaker 2: I don't want to be. I know what the hate

487
00:29:35,400 --> 00:29:38,880
Speaker 2: on there, it's just you know, someone en.

488
00:29:38,920 --> 00:29:39,360
Speaker 3: Up like that.

489
00:29:41,160 --> 00:29:46,200
Speaker 1: Jazz, Yo, Is there anything else you want to say

490
00:29:46,240 --> 00:29:50,680
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer about your life or

491
00:29:50,720 --> 00:29:52,240
Speaker 1: about life itself? Before we go?

492
00:29:56,840 --> 00:30:03,240
Speaker 2: Yeah? Just keep going. Yeah, thank yak.

493
00:30:03,360 --> 00:30:05,560
Speaker 1: Bless you, Jazz, thank you for calling.

494
00:30:06,720 --> 00:30:09,000
Speaker 2: Okay, bless you, Tay, take care man.

495
00:30:10,320 --> 00:30:11,120
Speaker 3: You see like fight.

496
00:30:13,720 --> 00:30:15,480
Speaker 1: All right, let me just make sure I'm gonna go

497
00:30:15,560 --> 00:30:26,360
Speaker 1: to Google Maps. Uh can burruh, Australia. All right, what

498
00:30:26,480 --> 00:30:28,760
Speaker 1: a funny looking city. There's a big hole in the

499
00:30:28,800 --> 00:30:31,640
Speaker 1: middle of it. No, it's not a hole, it's a parliament.

500
00:30:32,800 --> 00:30:38,440
Speaker 1: Uh Canberra. Okay, I'm gonna search Jay and Jay. Okay,

501
00:30:38,480 --> 00:30:41,200
Speaker 1: there's a J and J pharmacy, Jane and J hare,

502
00:30:41,400 --> 00:30:45,640
Speaker 1: J and J bagel search JJ liquor store. Oh what

503
00:30:45,760 --> 00:30:49,880
Speaker 1: the fuck? What? Don't show me some shit in Lynnhurst,

504
00:30:49,960 --> 00:30:55,360
Speaker 1: New Jersey. I'm in Canberra. I hate Google Maps. I

505
00:30:55,480 --> 00:31:01,760
Speaker 1: hate my fucking life. Sorry, let's go back to k Nburah. Sorry,

506
00:31:01,760 --> 00:31:04,240
Speaker 1: I don't know. I shouldn't yell. Supposed to be a

507
00:31:04,320 --> 00:31:10,000
Speaker 1: therapeutic show. Okay, how do I search? I want to

508
00:31:10,000 --> 00:31:23,480
Speaker 1: search here. Okay, Jay and Jay liquor can there? Okay,

509
00:31:23,560 --> 00:31:27,720
Speaker 1: there's a liquor Okay, there is no currently existing Jay

510
00:31:27,800 --> 00:31:31,000
Speaker 1: and J liquor. There's a liquor Land warehouse. That's pretty.

511
00:31:31,360 --> 00:31:31,640
Speaker 3: That's some.

512
00:31:32,920 --> 00:31:36,440
Speaker 1: There's the National Museum of Australia. I don't know what

513
00:31:36,960 --> 00:31:43,160
Speaker 1: accent that was. Sorry, there's liquor Land Canberra. All right,

514
00:31:43,240 --> 00:31:45,800
Speaker 1: I don't I I'm here's what I'm realizing is that

515
00:31:45,960 --> 00:31:48,680
Speaker 1: if I don't stop talking right now, I'm just going

516
00:31:48,800 --> 00:31:52,880
Speaker 1: to wait J and J Spirit Shop. It's in New York.

517
00:31:52,920 --> 00:31:53,400
Speaker 1: What the fuck?

518
00:31:53,440 --> 00:31:53,760
Speaker 2: All right?

519
00:31:54,600 --> 00:31:56,440
Speaker 1: All right, I'm gonna stop talking so that we can

520
00:31:56,520 --> 00:31:58,480
Speaker 1: move on with this podcast instead of just listening to

521
00:31:58,560 --> 00:32:08,800
Speaker 1: me use Apple Maps, Google maps, whatever, who cares? Who cares? Hello?

522
00:32:09,560 --> 00:32:09,680
Speaker 4: Hi?

523
00:32:10,960 --> 00:32:12,040
Speaker 1: Hi? What's your name?

524
00:32:12,840 --> 00:32:13,320
Speaker 2: I'm Amy?

525
00:32:14,200 --> 00:32:20,480
Speaker 1: Amy. Amy is the name of a famous fictional hedgehog

526
00:32:21,920 --> 00:32:26,520
Speaker 1: who who is She's not really the love interest of

527
00:32:26,640 --> 00:32:30,120
Speaker 1: Sonic the Hedgehog, because Sonic the Hedgehog is kind of

528
00:32:30,120 --> 00:32:33,000
Speaker 1: an auful male. He's he's more or no, rather, he's

529
00:32:33,040 --> 00:32:35,520
Speaker 1: a Sigma male. He's a little bit more obsessed with

530
00:32:36,280 --> 00:32:42,040
Speaker 1: going fast and kind of achieving the mission. And Amy

531
00:32:42,400 --> 00:32:47,040
Speaker 1: Sonic is Amy's love interest, and Amy is always trying

532
00:32:47,040 --> 00:32:49,640
Speaker 1: to convince Sonic to marry him. But Sonic is just two.

533
00:32:50,360 --> 00:32:54,080
Speaker 1: He's just truly a hedgehog on his Sigma grindset, and

534
00:32:54,200 --> 00:33:00,480
Speaker 1: so Amy is constantly, constantly rebuffed. But she's a nice girl, Amy,

535
00:33:00,640 --> 00:33:03,720
Speaker 1: you know she's I think when Sonic is finally ready

536
00:33:04,320 --> 00:33:08,840
Speaker 1: to settle down and start a family, I mean he's

537
00:33:08,880 --> 00:33:12,080
Speaker 1: only canonically, I think he's sixteen, so he's a little

538
00:33:12,120 --> 00:33:14,720
Speaker 1: young to get married. But he's sixteen in human years,

539
00:33:14,840 --> 00:33:18,080
Speaker 1: so in hedgehog years, he might actually be a ripe old.

540
00:33:17,960 --> 00:33:23,760
Speaker 4: Hedgehog, right, right, but yeah, proceed not really?

541
00:33:24,720 --> 00:33:27,200
Speaker 1: Yes, Okay, so you know Amy. You know Amy Rose the.

542
00:33:27,200 --> 00:33:31,240
Speaker 2: Hedgehog vaguely, but yes, I'm familiar.

543
00:33:32,680 --> 00:33:35,520
Speaker 1: Well, it's okay. You don't need to because you are

544
00:33:35,600 --> 00:33:39,280
Speaker 1: not a fictional character. You're a your own human being.

545
00:33:39,800 --> 00:33:42,600
Speaker 1: You're a real person named Amy or fake named Amy.

546
00:33:42,880 --> 00:33:44,080
Speaker 1: What's up, Amy? How's life?

547
00:33:45,760 --> 00:33:50,320
Speaker 4: It's good? I just got home some more. My husband

548
00:33:50,360 --> 00:33:53,040
Speaker 4: went to go play a one piece tournament. I'm not

549
00:33:53,120 --> 00:33:54,240
Speaker 4: sure if you're familiar with that.

550
00:33:55,000 --> 00:33:57,080
Speaker 1: I know the anime one piece, but I didn't know that.

551
00:33:57,160 --> 00:33:59,560
Speaker 1: It's like, how's is it a game? How's it a tournament?

552
00:34:00,840 --> 00:34:05,040
Speaker 4: Yeah? So they recently started two years ago, I think

553
00:34:05,080 --> 00:34:06,920
Speaker 4: it was two years ago. They started their own like

554
00:34:07,080 --> 00:34:10,400
Speaker 4: trading cards, kind of similar to Pokemon. And at first

555
00:34:10,719 --> 00:34:13,040
Speaker 4: he was just kind of like hoarding cards. It was

556
00:34:13,080 --> 00:34:15,239
Speaker 4: becoming a huge issue because he's getting so much money.

557
00:34:15,560 --> 00:34:18,839
Speaker 4: But now because he has all this bulk, he's like, well,

558
00:34:18,880 --> 00:34:22,239
Speaker 4: maybe I'll start playing it for fun. And now he

559
00:34:22,320 --> 00:34:25,600
Speaker 4: does that, and I just kind of hang out till.

560
00:34:25,480 --> 00:34:26,080
Speaker 2: He gets home.

561
00:34:27,320 --> 00:34:30,120
Speaker 1: Do you have your own version of one piece card

562
00:34:30,160 --> 00:34:32,000
Speaker 1: game tournaments? Like, what do you do when he's there?

563
00:34:32,040 --> 00:34:32,640
Speaker 1: You just hang out?

564
00:34:34,800 --> 00:34:38,560
Speaker 4: Well sometimes not really. I'm not as huge into it

565
00:34:38,760 --> 00:34:42,759
Speaker 4: as he is, just because like mentally, I just don't

566
00:34:42,840 --> 00:34:46,080
Speaker 4: really care for it. But I do love the anime.

567
00:34:46,160 --> 00:34:48,640
Speaker 4: I'm a huge fan of it. I just I don't know,

568
00:34:49,120 --> 00:34:51,160
Speaker 4: I just can't really get my mind around playing a

569
00:34:51,239 --> 00:34:54,400
Speaker 4: card game sometimes. But no shame to that. Like he

570
00:34:55,040 --> 00:34:58,200
Speaker 4: loves it, so I'm just there to support. But I

571
00:34:58,360 --> 00:34:59,920
Speaker 4: just got home while he's doing that.

572
00:35:01,200 --> 00:35:03,520
Speaker 1: It's funny, and I thought I was thinking about this

573
00:35:03,560 --> 00:35:09,400
Speaker 1: today actually is in my own love quest, let's call it.

574
00:35:09,680 --> 00:35:13,200
Speaker 1: I used to think that I needed somebody who was

575
00:35:13,320 --> 00:35:19,279
Speaker 1: like perfectly aligned with me on all my interests, you

576
00:35:19,360 --> 00:35:22,399
Speaker 1: know what I mean, Like like I have a creative job.

577
00:35:22,800 --> 00:35:24,480
Speaker 1: You know, maybe I want someone who also has a

578
00:35:24,560 --> 00:35:27,120
Speaker 1: creative job, Like I like all these things. I want

579
00:35:27,160 --> 00:35:30,400
Speaker 1: someone likes all these things. And I've had the realization

580
00:35:30,480 --> 00:35:33,279
Speaker 1: today that, like, I'd like that, but it's not. It's

581
00:35:33,360 --> 00:35:36,800
Speaker 1: not as much of a necessity to the success of

582
00:35:36,880 --> 00:35:39,840
Speaker 1: a relationship as I think I always thought it would be.

583
00:35:41,320 --> 00:35:44,080
Speaker 4: Right, No, yeah, And I get that because I mean,

584
00:35:44,600 --> 00:35:47,800
Speaker 4: I mean he and I have been together for this

585
00:35:47,960 --> 00:35:50,440
Speaker 4: year will be thirteen years, we've been married for five,

586
00:35:50,719 --> 00:35:53,719
Speaker 4: and I mean, I feel like we do have a

587
00:35:53,800 --> 00:35:56,600
Speaker 4: lot of things in common, but we're also just very different.

588
00:35:56,680 --> 00:35:58,200
Speaker 3: But those are things.

589
00:35:58,040 --> 00:35:59,600
Speaker 4: That I like, things that I appreciate.

590
00:35:59,719 --> 00:36:01,480
Speaker 1: You know, how old are you?

591
00:36:02,960 --> 00:36:05,360
Speaker 4: I am going to be thirty three and he is

592
00:36:05,480 --> 00:36:07,480
Speaker 4: going to be thirty three as well. We're just six

593
00:36:07,600 --> 00:36:08,120
Speaker 4: months apart.

594
00:36:09,000 --> 00:36:12,720
Speaker 1: Twelve years, so you got together you were twenty one.

595
00:36:14,000 --> 00:36:17,680
Speaker 4: Yeah, roughly, if not twenty, like closer to like the

596
00:36:17,840 --> 00:36:19,799
Speaker 4: end of when I was nineteen ish.

597
00:36:20,960 --> 00:36:21,120
Speaker 2: Oh.

598
00:36:21,400 --> 00:36:26,160
Speaker 1: Well, after thirteen years, it's like you almost your individual

599
00:36:26,280 --> 00:36:31,480
Speaker 1: development has been so deeply influenced by one another that

600
00:36:31,600 --> 00:36:32,000
Speaker 1: it's like.

601
00:36:32,680 --> 00:36:38,239
Speaker 4: True, go ahead, No, no, I was just gonna say,

602
00:36:38,280 --> 00:36:41,080
Speaker 4: even though, yes, like we've been together for so long,

603
00:36:41,280 --> 00:36:44,920
Speaker 4: like we're each not like the same person we were

604
00:36:45,000 --> 00:36:47,080
Speaker 4: when we first started dating, or at least I feel

605
00:36:47,160 --> 00:36:50,279
Speaker 4: like I'm not the same person. I used to be

606
00:36:50,400 --> 00:36:53,879
Speaker 4: a lot more like reserved and quiet, and now I'm

607
00:36:53,920 --> 00:36:55,920
Speaker 4: a lot more outspoken. But at the same time, I

608
00:36:55,960 --> 00:36:58,799
Speaker 4: feel like that's also been influencing him, because he's also

609
00:36:58,960 --> 00:37:02,040
Speaker 4: very like out spoken and not afraid to like beak

610
00:37:02,080 --> 00:37:04,920
Speaker 4: his mind. So it slowly made me kind of be

611
00:37:05,040 --> 00:37:07,719
Speaker 4: that way. But it also influenced me to kind of

612
00:37:08,520 --> 00:37:12,879
Speaker 4: reach for things that at first didn't really align with him,

613
00:37:12,960 --> 00:37:15,120
Speaker 4: if that makes sense. But it was just more like

614
00:37:15,280 --> 00:37:18,560
Speaker 4: my own goals his own goals. But we still meet

615
00:37:18,600 --> 00:37:19,959
Speaker 4: in the middle, if that makes sense.

616
00:37:21,440 --> 00:37:26,400
Speaker 1: So, Amy, I must ask you, is there a particular

617
00:37:26,480 --> 00:37:28,560
Speaker 1: reason why you called into the Gecko Show today?

618
00:37:31,800 --> 00:37:32,000
Speaker 5: Over.

619
00:37:32,280 --> 00:37:36,280
Speaker 4: I've been listening to you for about two three years roughly,

620
00:37:36,680 --> 00:37:39,680
Speaker 4: maybe more on the two I was actually listening to

621
00:37:39,800 --> 00:37:42,239
Speaker 4: you on the way home, and when I parked, I

622
00:37:42,360 --> 00:37:47,040
Speaker 4: saw that you were going live. And I've actually emailed

623
00:37:47,080 --> 00:37:50,120
Speaker 4: you before. I don't know if you'll remember, and I

624
00:37:50,200 --> 00:37:52,839
Speaker 4: went by Amy then, so Amy is not my real name,

625
00:37:53,640 --> 00:37:59,080
Speaker 4: but I had emailed you before regarding that I had

626
00:37:59,160 --> 00:38:02,040
Speaker 4: like kind of a friendship breakup. I don't know if

627
00:38:02,080 --> 00:38:04,480
Speaker 4: you remember or if that's ringing any bell.

628
00:38:04,920 --> 00:38:05,799
Speaker 1: Yeah, that rings a bell.

629
00:38:07,120 --> 00:38:07,279
Speaker 2: Yeah.

630
00:38:07,280 --> 00:38:09,880
Speaker 4: I was sitting in a parking lot eating Wendy's and

631
00:38:10,680 --> 00:38:12,600
Speaker 4: you were taking emails, So I had an email do

632
00:38:12,600 --> 00:38:16,480
Speaker 4: you while I was eating Wendy's. But yeah, essentially I

633
00:38:16,680 --> 00:38:21,200
Speaker 4: wanted to talk about my friendship breakup and how it

634
00:38:21,480 --> 00:38:25,280
Speaker 4: happened in October literally a couple days before my birthday,

635
00:38:25,920 --> 00:38:29,880
Speaker 4: and that's what made it really hurt. But we actually

636
00:38:30,280 --> 00:38:35,440
Speaker 4: recently reconnected, but not necessarily to become friends again, if

637
00:38:35,480 --> 00:38:39,759
Speaker 4: anything to kind of I don't know, clear some air,

638
00:38:40,440 --> 00:38:43,320
Speaker 4: which I didn't really could. If anything, it kind of

639
00:38:43,400 --> 00:38:46,680
Speaker 4: still we're still not friends, but we have more of

640
00:38:46,719 --> 00:38:49,600
Speaker 4: an understanding of why we're no longer friends. If that

641
00:38:49,880 --> 00:38:50,680
Speaker 4: makes any sense.

642
00:38:51,520 --> 00:38:54,400
Speaker 1: It does make sense. But can I actually, you know,

643
00:38:55,040 --> 00:38:56,479
Speaker 1: can I get with Can I give you my gut

644
00:38:56,560 --> 00:39:00,960
Speaker 1: reaction about this? And I feel like it's, yeah, this

645
00:39:01,080 --> 00:39:03,279
Speaker 1: my gut reaction is like, man, that's a lot of

646
00:39:04,440 --> 00:39:08,520
Speaker 1: that's a lot of drama and emotion for somebody who's

647
00:39:08,600 --> 00:39:12,359
Speaker 1: not in your life. You know what I'm saying right now.

648
00:39:12,560 --> 00:39:14,240
Speaker 4: And that's totally fair.

649
00:39:16,040 --> 00:39:16,200
Speaker 3: You know.

650
00:39:16,640 --> 00:39:18,440
Speaker 1: I mean, if one thing, if it was like an

651
00:39:18,520 --> 00:39:22,200
Speaker 1: ex that you spent a lot of time with or

652
00:39:22,280 --> 00:39:26,680
Speaker 1: something and whatever. But I don't know, I remember were

653
00:39:26,719 --> 00:39:28,480
Speaker 1: you like, was this like one of your best friends?

654
00:39:28,640 --> 00:39:30,080
Speaker 1: This is like a really close person to you?

655
00:39:31,719 --> 00:39:34,640
Speaker 4: Yeah, we were best friends since I want to say

656
00:39:34,760 --> 00:39:41,239
Speaker 4: roughly twenty twelve, twenty thirteen, and we I feel like

657
00:39:41,320 --> 00:39:43,800
Speaker 4: we had like a lot of things in common, Like

658
00:39:45,160 --> 00:39:47,760
Speaker 4: we both have moms that are kind of our biggest haters,

659
00:39:47,840 --> 00:39:49,839
Speaker 4: so we kind of would bond over that, and then

660
00:39:49,960 --> 00:39:52,960
Speaker 4: we had a lot of music interests. We grew up

661
00:39:53,080 --> 00:39:56,800
Speaker 4: very similarly, and gradually as we were getting older, we

662
00:39:56,920 --> 00:40:00,840
Speaker 4: were just getting closer and closer. And in the last

663
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Speaker 4: like three four years, I don't know, I felt like

664
00:40:06,239 --> 00:40:10,560
Speaker 4: things fully started changing between us and we weren't relating

665
00:40:10,640 --> 00:40:14,600
Speaker 4: to each other as much anymore, and as I recently

666
00:40:14,719 --> 00:40:17,320
Speaker 4: found out after we talked, she was kind of building

667
00:40:18,680 --> 00:40:20,759
Speaker 4: I don't know. She described it as almost like an

668
00:40:20,840 --> 00:40:26,919
Speaker 4: animosity towards me in regards to feeling like I wasn't

669
00:40:27,440 --> 00:40:32,120
Speaker 4: always as supportive of her. But then in turn, she said,

670
00:40:32,160 --> 00:40:34,600
Speaker 4: you were actually very supportive of me and you were

671
00:40:34,680 --> 00:40:37,680
Speaker 4: always there for me, and I just didn't see that

672
00:40:38,080 --> 00:40:42,120
Speaker 4: at the time, which I don't know. It didn't make

673
00:40:42,200 --> 00:40:44,600
Speaker 4: sense to me. I mean, it makes sense as she

674
00:40:44,840 --> 00:40:47,759
Speaker 4: was saying it, but then I think of my own

675
00:40:48,560 --> 00:40:53,240
Speaker 4: experience in our friendship and feeling like I did always

676
00:40:53,440 --> 00:40:56,920
Speaker 4: try to show up and be there, and it speaked

677
00:40:57,080 --> 00:41:01,400
Speaker 4: accommodating because for example, she doesn't drive like because she

678
00:41:01,560 --> 00:41:05,480
Speaker 4: lives in like downtown of my area, so she doesn't

679
00:41:05,480 --> 00:41:08,520
Speaker 4: really need to drive if she really had to. But

680
00:41:09,160 --> 00:41:11,600
Speaker 4: I would live like more in the suburb area, so

681
00:41:11,640 --> 00:41:14,680
Speaker 4: it was I would always be willing and happy to

682
00:41:15,239 --> 00:41:17,360
Speaker 4: go out of my way to go see her and

683
00:41:17,880 --> 00:41:22,040
Speaker 4: hang out do our stuff. And then she wanted to

684
00:41:22,120 --> 00:41:23,759
Speaker 4: be like, oh, well you're always running me. I'm like

685
00:41:24,000 --> 00:41:25,280
Speaker 4: one's coming out from farther.

686
00:41:25,640 --> 00:41:26,880
Speaker 2: I don't know what you want me to do.

687
00:41:27,120 --> 00:41:30,480
Speaker 4: Well, yes, I could plan better, but but this is

688
00:41:30,640 --> 00:41:32,800
Speaker 4: I mean, this is I'm.

689
00:41:32,680 --> 00:41:34,160
Speaker 1: Going to hammer back in what I would saying, but

690
00:41:34,239 --> 00:41:38,200
Speaker 1: there's a lot of emotional energy and stuff for that.

691
00:41:38,360 --> 00:41:40,200
Speaker 1: I mean, do you want to be friends with this person?

692
00:41:42,360 --> 00:41:44,719
Speaker 4: I mean, just because of the fact that I felt

693
00:41:44,760 --> 00:41:49,040
Speaker 4: like we went through so much together, I do like her. However,

694
00:41:49,239 --> 00:41:52,520
Speaker 4: I told you that I don't feel like I could

695
00:41:52,560 --> 00:41:56,879
Speaker 4: be her friend anymore because one, I feel like we're

696
00:41:57,040 --> 00:42:00,400
Speaker 4: just both in different parts of our lives where it

697
00:42:00,480 --> 00:42:03,920
Speaker 4: doesn't align as much or I felt like for her,

698
00:42:04,200 --> 00:42:07,200
Speaker 4: she just has her own things going on, and it

699
00:42:07,360 --> 00:42:09,719
Speaker 4: was just so much of a focus for her, where

700
00:42:10,320 --> 00:42:12,200
Speaker 4: even if I felt I wanted to talk to her

701
00:42:12,239 --> 00:42:16,040
Speaker 4: about things, she didn't really make herself available, So I

702
00:42:16,120 --> 00:42:18,640
Speaker 4: told her, yes, I miss you, I miss what we had,

703
00:42:18,840 --> 00:42:22,840
Speaker 4: but I don't know if we can continue being friends.

704
00:42:23,320 --> 00:42:25,880
Speaker 4: And so I feel like it's just more. It hurts

705
00:42:25,960 --> 00:42:29,759
Speaker 4: more knowing like what I lost or what I had

706
00:42:29,880 --> 00:42:31,200
Speaker 4: lost even from before.

707
00:42:31,280 --> 00:42:36,799
Speaker 1: Then to listen, brother, you're you're thirty three years old, right, yeah,

708
00:42:37,440 --> 00:42:41,560
Speaker 1: at that point. Well it's like, dude, you know at

709
00:42:41,600 --> 00:42:44,759
Speaker 1: this like you're thirty three years old, you're married, Do

710
00:42:44,800 --> 00:42:49,160
Speaker 1: you have a kid? No, are you planning on having

711
00:42:49,160 --> 00:42:49,440
Speaker 1: a kid?

712
00:42:51,560 --> 00:42:55,160
Speaker 4: Hopefully hopefully about year's end, But you never really know.

713
00:42:56,320 --> 00:42:58,160
Speaker 4: I do have a job. I do dog grooming.

714
00:42:58,280 --> 00:42:59,319
Speaker 2: So I love my job.

715
00:42:59,719 --> 00:43:02,279
Speaker 1: Yeah, a job. You have a husband, you gotta. I

716
00:43:02,480 --> 00:43:03,880
Speaker 1: just have a life, you know what I mean. Like

717
00:43:04,000 --> 00:43:06,160
Speaker 1: you're just older now you got a life. It's like,

718
00:43:06,920 --> 00:43:08,520
Speaker 1: you know, it's kind of like, bitch, but what are

719
00:43:08,560 --> 00:43:12,839
Speaker 1: we doing, you know, with the whole Like, uh, it's

720
00:43:12,920 --> 00:43:16,680
Speaker 1: like it's too it's too anymore. No, I mean it's

721
00:43:16,760 --> 00:43:19,279
Speaker 1: too much. It's like, listen, if someone's doing something to

722
00:43:19,440 --> 00:43:22,640
Speaker 1: piss you off, just tell them and it's fine. Also,

723
00:43:22,840 --> 00:43:24,799
Speaker 1: I'm at an age where if someone's doing I'm at

724
00:43:24,840 --> 00:43:27,640
Speaker 1: an age where if someone's doing something to piss me off,

725
00:43:27,880 --> 00:43:32,000
Speaker 1: unless if they're in my immediate life, I don't bring

726
00:43:32,080 --> 00:43:33,840
Speaker 1: it up. I don't care anymore because you know what,

727
00:43:34,200 --> 00:43:37,640
Speaker 1: because you get like, you get older, and you just

728
00:43:37,760 --> 00:43:41,800
Speaker 1: realize the time moves faster than you can hold it.

729
00:43:41,880 --> 00:43:44,560
Speaker 1: And if you don't and if you don't pick the

730
00:43:44,880 --> 00:43:49,160
Speaker 1: people and the things that are important to you, then

731
00:43:49,920 --> 00:43:53,080
Speaker 1: you just get dragged in a bunch of meaningless whatever.

732
00:43:53,160 --> 00:43:54,920
Speaker 1: And then you look at your life and you realize

733
00:43:55,000 --> 00:43:59,000
Speaker 1: that your life is an amalgamation of things and people

734
00:43:59,040 --> 00:44:01,000
Speaker 1: that you don't give a fuck about it. And so

735
00:44:01,400 --> 00:44:03,359
Speaker 1: there's just at thirty, like it's one thing if you're

736
00:44:03,400 --> 00:44:05,960
Speaker 1: like in high school literally or like college, but like

737
00:44:06,080 --> 00:44:10,160
Speaker 1: at this point in your life, it's like homegirl, I

738
00:44:10,200 --> 00:44:12,960
Speaker 1: can't be I can't be sending you break up emails

739
00:44:13,080 --> 00:44:17,680
Speaker 1: back and forth. You know, I got I got a life,

740
00:44:17,920 --> 00:44:20,840
Speaker 1: and so I hopefully so to you. I get the

741
00:44:20,920 --> 00:44:24,800
Speaker 1: morning of it though, I understand, but I don't know.

742
00:44:25,280 --> 00:44:27,320
Speaker 1: It's just like that's a lot some people are a

743
00:44:27,400 --> 00:44:29,759
Speaker 1: lot of emotional edgy. If someone's in your life and

744
00:44:29,840 --> 00:44:31,400
Speaker 1: you want them to stay in your Like I have

745
00:44:31,560 --> 00:44:33,480
Speaker 1: friends who I'm like, I'm gonna be friends with these

746
00:44:33,520 --> 00:44:38,080
Speaker 1: people until I'm like eighty, but those a lot of

747
00:44:38,120 --> 00:44:40,560
Speaker 1: those guys don't even like live where I live, a

748
00:44:40,600 --> 00:44:43,040
Speaker 1: lot of these guys don't even see every day. So

749
00:44:43,200 --> 00:44:47,600
Speaker 1: I those conversation, those conversations of like, oh this is

750
00:44:47,760 --> 00:44:50,840
Speaker 1: my this is those like emotional conversations of like, oh

751
00:44:50,920 --> 00:44:53,120
Speaker 1: these are my feelings and this is how I think

752
00:44:53,200 --> 00:44:55,840
Speaker 1: you treated me, and this is I those are and

753
00:44:55,960 --> 00:44:57,640
Speaker 1: like those are, this is how I want to communicate

754
00:44:57,680 --> 00:45:00,480
Speaker 1: with it. Like that kind of shit is reserved to

755
00:45:00,640 --> 00:45:04,160
Speaker 1: me for like people in my day to day life.

756
00:45:04,200 --> 00:45:06,399
Speaker 1: People I'm working with, people I see every day, people

757
00:45:06,400 --> 00:45:11,560
Speaker 1: I am romantically intertwined with, Like that's because all that

758
00:45:11,680 --> 00:45:14,360
Speaker 1: shit just takes so much emotion, you know, it just

759
00:45:14,440 --> 00:45:17,400
Speaker 1: takes so much emotional energy. So it's like I got

760
00:45:17,520 --> 00:45:19,600
Speaker 1: to reserve that emotional energy for the people who are

761
00:45:19,680 --> 00:45:22,080
Speaker 1: like in my life, not the people, not just like

762
00:45:23,040 --> 00:45:26,399
Speaker 1: someone that I get lunch with once a month. Third

763
00:45:26,600 --> 00:45:30,160
Speaker 1: but you know whatever, and it's okay, it's really not

764
00:45:30,320 --> 00:45:34,840
Speaker 1: selfish to feel that way. Your time and who you

765
00:45:34,920 --> 00:45:40,839
Speaker 1: spend it with are deeply, deeply, deeply precious, you know, right,

766
00:45:40,920 --> 00:45:41,120
Speaker 1: And I.

767
00:45:41,160 --> 00:45:44,960
Speaker 4: Mean I totally agree, because anyone I meet now, I

768
00:45:45,040 --> 00:45:49,919
Speaker 4: guess in adulthood or whatever. Like I feel the same

769
00:45:50,000 --> 00:45:53,160
Speaker 4: as how you explained it, like I don't like something,

770
00:45:53,520 --> 00:45:55,480
Speaker 4: like I don't have to deal with it. And that's

771
00:45:55,520 --> 00:45:57,759
Speaker 4: why I feel like I'm kind of why I was

772
00:45:57,800 --> 00:46:01,080
Speaker 4: holding on to my friendship of hers for so long,

773
00:46:01,200 --> 00:46:03,640
Speaker 4: just because I felt like it's that whole thing I

774
00:46:03,680 --> 00:46:06,880
Speaker 4: had been invested so much or whatever, like I wanted

775
00:46:06,960 --> 00:46:09,319
Speaker 4: to preserve what I could. But then it just came

776
00:46:09,360 --> 00:46:12,200
Speaker 4: to a point that when we stopped being friends, I

777
00:46:12,280 --> 00:46:14,959
Speaker 4: was like, you know what, I don't need. I don't

778
00:46:15,080 --> 00:46:18,040
Speaker 4: need that. But it just was really sad to think

779
00:46:18,080 --> 00:46:21,000
Speaker 4: about sometime because I would miss her or whatever. But

780
00:46:21,800 --> 00:46:25,520
Speaker 4: but like you said, there's other things going on, and

781
00:46:26,600 --> 00:46:30,239
Speaker 4: what is it, Because it's like one thing that I've

782
00:46:30,360 --> 00:46:34,560
Speaker 4: listened to your podcast before that you've mentioned or and

783
00:46:35,200 --> 00:46:39,120
Speaker 4: where you went to a lizard expo or something.

784
00:46:39,960 --> 00:46:41,960
Speaker 1: I went to a lizard I went to a lizard

785
00:46:42,120 --> 00:46:46,279
Speaker 1: zoo shout out the GET Gallery in Brooklyn, New York.

786
00:46:46,400 --> 00:46:51,239
Speaker 4: Yes, so I listened to that, and I mean I've

787
00:46:51,280 --> 00:46:55,680
Speaker 4: always considered like it's always all about perspective.

788
00:46:55,280 --> 00:46:55,680
Speaker 3: And all that.

789
00:46:56,440 --> 00:46:59,680
Speaker 4: And it was funny how you spoke with someone there

790
00:47:00,520 --> 00:47:03,800
Speaker 4: and they said, like, oh, if I was a lizard,

791
00:47:04,280 --> 00:47:06,480
Speaker 4: like I wouldn't have to worry about all these things,

792
00:47:06,640 --> 00:47:09,880
Speaker 4: or because someone would take care of me, or someone

793
00:47:09,920 --> 00:47:12,480
Speaker 4: would watch over me because I'm a lizard. And I

794
00:47:12,560 --> 00:47:15,759
Speaker 4: started to think about it like, well, I mean, yes,

795
00:47:15,880 --> 00:47:18,480
Speaker 4: someone could take care of you, but that's like assuming

796
00:47:18,680 --> 00:47:21,120
Speaker 4: there's someone to take care of you, Like it's all

797
00:47:21,480 --> 00:47:23,960
Speaker 4: a matter of chance, and as a person, it's all

798
00:47:24,000 --> 00:47:27,839
Speaker 4: a matter of choice and perspective, like cause you get

799
00:47:27,920 --> 00:47:30,920
Speaker 4: so many calls of people just going through, you know,

800
00:47:31,040 --> 00:47:33,920
Speaker 4: their own shit and their own problems, and yet they

801
00:47:34,000 --> 00:47:37,720
Speaker 4: overcome it, and I'm like, Okay, maybe my problems aren't

802
00:47:37,920 --> 00:47:40,880
Speaker 4: necessarily that bad, or I can always look at it

803
00:47:40,960 --> 00:47:44,000
Speaker 4: a different way, Like, for example, if I was having

804
00:47:44,040 --> 00:47:46,720
Speaker 4: a bad day at work and I was like angry

805
00:47:46,840 --> 00:47:49,080
Speaker 4: or whatever, like oh my manager gave me all these

806
00:47:49,160 --> 00:47:52,880
Speaker 4: horrible dogs, or oh she like overbooked me or whatever,

807
00:47:52,960 --> 00:47:56,719
Speaker 4: I'd have to slowly shift it to Okay, well, maybe

808
00:47:56,760 --> 00:47:58,520
Speaker 4: I do have a lot on my plate today, but

809
00:47:58,760 --> 00:48:02,919
Speaker 4: it's an opportunity you manage my time better, or maybe

810
00:48:03,040 --> 00:48:06,800
Speaker 4: ask for help when I typically wouldn't, or stuff like that,

811
00:48:07,040 --> 00:48:09,839
Speaker 4: you know, just justting the mentality.

812
00:48:10,520 --> 00:48:15,000
Speaker 1: It's deeply fulfilling It's scary at first, and then when

813
00:48:15,040 --> 00:48:17,480
Speaker 1: you really think about it, deeply fulfilling to realize that

814
00:48:19,320 --> 00:48:25,200
Speaker 1: nobody cares about you or your problems at all, even

815
00:48:25,200 --> 00:48:27,440
Speaker 1: people who like That's like, even people who love you

816
00:48:28,440 --> 00:48:31,040
Speaker 1: don't really care about your problems because they have their

817
00:48:31,080 --> 00:48:34,200
Speaker 1: own problems. They anyone care about what you do. But

818
00:48:35,040 --> 00:48:39,680
Speaker 1: it's good. If everyone cared about everyone's problems, then we

819
00:48:39,760 --> 00:48:43,520
Speaker 1: would all we would all suffocate, we'd all we'd all

820
00:48:43,560 --> 00:48:48,640
Speaker 1: blow ourselves up. Yes, is there anything else you want

821
00:48:48,640 --> 00:48:50,200
Speaker 1: to say to the people of the computer before we go?

822
00:48:52,960 --> 00:48:55,759
Speaker 4: No, not necessarily. I guess it's anything to just keep

823
00:48:55,840 --> 00:49:00,680
Speaker 4: perspective and keep trying and maybe want to night Shaalan

824
00:49:00,800 --> 00:49:03,400
Speaker 4: movie because that's what I've been binging lately. I watched

825
00:49:04,320 --> 00:49:09,279
Speaker 4: Knock on the Cabin Knock at the Cabin yesterday with Bautista,

826
00:49:09,400 --> 00:49:12,320
Speaker 4: and it was actually really good, really sad, but it

827
00:49:12,440 --> 00:49:14,000
Speaker 4: was really good. You should watch it.

828
00:49:14,840 --> 00:49:20,560
Speaker 1: Battista, Bautista, thank you very much for calling Amy.

829
00:49:21,880 --> 00:49:24,680
Speaker 4: Thank you, Lyle, have a great day, Have a good night, Amy.

830
00:49:26,040 --> 00:49:26,239
Speaker 2: Bye.

831
00:49:29,000 --> 00:49:37,640
Speaker 1: Bautista. Let me google it. But Tisteta, Oh Dave Bautista, Okay,

832
00:49:37,680 --> 00:49:42,080
Speaker 1: he's an actor and he was in knock at the Cabin.

833
00:49:43,320 --> 00:49:45,759
Speaker 1: How's it end? I'm gonna read that. This is This

834
00:49:45,840 --> 00:49:47,000
Speaker 1: is what I like to do. Is I like to

835
00:49:47,120 --> 00:49:49,799
Speaker 1: read the very you guys want, I'm going to read

836
00:49:49,840 --> 00:49:52,640
Speaker 1: the very end. Okay, if you haven't seen Knock at

837
00:49:52,680 --> 00:49:55,080
Speaker 1: the Cabin, I don't like. I don't really watch movies.

838
00:49:55,080 --> 00:49:58,240
Speaker 1: I watched one movie every three years, and it's usually

839
00:49:58,280 --> 00:50:02,520
Speaker 1: really good. I watched Marty Supreme awesome. Uh, that's the

840
00:50:02,560 --> 00:50:04,560
Speaker 1: one movie I've seen in the last five years. Okay,

841
00:50:04,560 --> 00:50:10,440
Speaker 1: I'm gonna read the very end of skip ahead fifteen

842
00:50:10,560 --> 00:50:15,000
Speaker 1: seconds in the podcast if you don't want to hear.

843
00:50:17,400 --> 00:50:18,880
Speaker 2: The end of.

844
00:50:20,600 --> 00:50:21,440
Speaker 1: Knock at the Cabin.

845
00:50:22,200 --> 00:50:22,560
Speaker 2: All right.

846
00:50:24,000 --> 00:50:27,880
Speaker 1: They drive off, making a stop at a crowded diner

847
00:50:28,520 --> 00:50:32,680
Speaker 1: where they watch news reports confirming that the disasters have

848
00:50:32,800 --> 00:50:38,120
Speaker 1: abruptly ended. You know what's crazy, I don't that doesn't

849
00:50:38,160 --> 00:50:40,160
Speaker 1: give away I feel like that doesn't give away anything.

850
00:50:40,600 --> 00:50:42,360
Speaker 1: I feel like that movie has not been spoiled for

851
00:50:42,480 --> 00:50:45,759
Speaker 1: me because I don't know who they are. I don't

852
00:50:45,800 --> 00:50:47,360
Speaker 1: know there's a lot of there's a lot of stuff.

853
00:50:48,040 --> 00:50:50,719
Speaker 1: I don't know why I did that, But because I don't,

854
00:50:50,760 --> 00:50:53,280
Speaker 1: I'm never gonna. I'm gonna. Okay, let's I'm gonna spoil

855
00:50:53,360 --> 00:50:55,759
Speaker 1: the end if the Game of Thrones. Sorry, I know

856
00:50:55,800 --> 00:50:58,759
Speaker 1: you guys want to hear phone calls, but how does

857
00:50:58,840 --> 00:51:02,719
Speaker 1: Game of Thrones end? I'm not gonna watch it? How

858
00:51:02,760 --> 00:51:07,680
Speaker 1: long is it? I'm gonna save everyone time by spoiling

859
00:51:07,760 --> 00:51:09,920
Speaker 1: the ending of Game of Thrones right now, if you're

860
00:51:09,960 --> 00:51:15,439
Speaker 1: currently watching it, I'm about to spoil. Skip past where

861
00:51:15,480 --> 00:51:17,480
Speaker 1: the ad break is because I'm gonna spoil the end

862
00:51:17,520 --> 00:51:21,800
Speaker 1: of Game of Thrones. All right? The iron thrown and

863
00:51:21,920 --> 00:51:25,799
Speaker 1: that's the series finale of Game of Thrones. How's it end?

864
00:51:26,280 --> 00:51:27,839
Speaker 1: Fuck this? I don't want to watch this shit? How

865
00:51:27,840 --> 00:51:28,759
Speaker 1: does this fucking shit end?

866
00:51:29,440 --> 00:51:29,759
Speaker 2: All right?

867
00:51:31,440 --> 00:51:34,960
Speaker 1: John leads them to return to the lands beyond the

868
00:51:35,080 --> 00:51:38,680
Speaker 1: Wall as the millennia long winter in that region begins

869
00:51:38,760 --> 00:51:43,920
Speaker 1: to thaw. Who cares? I bet if I see, I

870
00:51:43,960 --> 00:51:46,520
Speaker 1: would care about that if I had watched the whole

871
00:51:47,000 --> 00:51:48,840
Speaker 1: I think that's the point of TV's You're supposed to

872
00:51:49,800 --> 00:51:55,120
Speaker 1: slowly start caring about the characters afterwards. I mean, over time.

873
00:51:55,360 --> 00:51:58,400
Speaker 1: But if you just go to the Wikipedia page of

874
00:51:58,480 --> 00:52:02,960
Speaker 1: a TV show and then you read the last line,

875
00:52:05,320 --> 00:52:07,799
Speaker 1: then you'll be like, I don't give a shit?

876
00:52:08,960 --> 00:52:09,000
Speaker 3: What?

877
00:52:09,160 --> 00:52:13,239
Speaker 1: All right? One more what the Sopranos. Fuck the Sopranos. Wait,

878
00:52:13,239 --> 00:52:15,080
Speaker 1: I've already seen the ending of the Sopranos. He's just

879
00:52:15,160 --> 00:52:18,719
Speaker 1: like he looks up. That's the ending of the Sopranos.

880
00:52:18,960 --> 00:52:20,080
Speaker 1: Is he looks up?

881
00:52:22,239 --> 00:52:22,560
Speaker 2: All right?

882
00:52:22,880 --> 00:52:30,080
Speaker 1: All right? Sorry? Hello, yo, get go? What's up? Brother?

883
00:52:30,160 --> 00:52:30,680
Speaker 1: How you doing?

884
00:52:31,320 --> 00:52:32,839
Speaker 3: No way? Good hour?

885
00:52:34,480 --> 00:52:40,480
Speaker 1: How am I? I'm doing? Not too bad. I'm enjoying life.

886
00:52:42,440 --> 00:52:46,840
Speaker 1: I'm not I'm not satisfied. I'm definitely not satisfied. No,

887
00:52:46,880 --> 00:52:49,759
Speaker 1: I'm not satisfied. There's a lot more that I need

888
00:52:49,840 --> 00:52:54,000
Speaker 1: to refine and do before I'm satisfied. And I'm stressed

889
00:52:54,040 --> 00:52:58,520
Speaker 1: out about it because I don't have good enough systems

890
00:52:58,560 --> 00:53:02,759
Speaker 1: in place for for me to feel truly peaceful and

891
00:53:02,880 --> 00:53:07,920
Speaker 1: satisfied with myself. But I'm on the way there. I

892
00:53:08,239 --> 00:53:10,600
Speaker 1: have full confidence. I'm on the way there. The problem

893
00:53:10,680 --> 00:53:12,279
Speaker 1: is that I'm twenty eight, and.

894
00:53:12,360 --> 00:53:13,400
Speaker 3: I live in.

895
00:53:15,200 --> 00:53:18,759
Speaker 1: A universe that I've created at this point. You know,

896
00:53:19,160 --> 00:53:21,200
Speaker 1: when you're young, when you're like when you're in college

897
00:53:21,239 --> 00:53:22,759
Speaker 1: and high school, it's like, all right, I'll just wait

898
00:53:22,840 --> 00:53:26,160
Speaker 1: until the next grade. But then once you graduate, you're like,

899
00:53:26,560 --> 00:53:29,680
Speaker 1: you can't do that anymore. You just there's no next thing.

900
00:53:29,760 --> 00:53:32,279
Speaker 1: There's no purgatory, there's just this is it.

901
00:53:32,640 --> 00:53:32,800
Speaker 4: You know.

902
00:53:34,000 --> 00:53:37,880
Speaker 1: It's great. I love it. I love I feel the

903
00:53:38,000 --> 00:53:43,240
Speaker 1: most free at this age in my life. I feel

904
00:53:44,360 --> 00:53:50,920
Speaker 1: very free. I feel I've also had at least three

905
00:53:51,320 --> 00:53:58,120
Speaker 1: separate times where I thought there was nothing past this,

906
00:53:59,680 --> 00:54:02,880
Speaker 1: like okay, like three separate times where I was like,

907
00:54:03,160 --> 00:54:07,560
Speaker 1: I think everything's over. And now I'm not even talking

908
00:54:07,560 --> 00:54:10,080
Speaker 1: about like my career whatever. I'm just talking about like life.

909
00:54:10,800 --> 00:54:10,920
Speaker 2: You know.

910
00:54:10,960 --> 00:54:13,200
Speaker 1: I've had three separate times where I'm like, I think

911
00:54:15,040 --> 00:54:17,640
Speaker 1: that it's over, and then there's like a whole new

912
00:54:17,719 --> 00:54:20,000
Speaker 1: life behind it. It's cool, it's interesting, and so I've

913
00:54:20,040 --> 00:54:22,640
Speaker 1: learned that's happened to me enough. And also I see

914
00:54:22,840 --> 00:54:25,600
Speaker 1: forty six year old guys in New York like walking

915
00:54:25,640 --> 00:54:28,440
Speaker 1: around and like eating sandwiches, and I'm like, one day

916
00:54:28,440 --> 00:54:30,560
Speaker 1: I'm going to be that guy, and that's like five

917
00:54:30,719 --> 00:54:34,040
Speaker 1: lifetimes from now. So I feel good. I feel pretty confident.

918
00:54:35,560 --> 00:54:35,799
Speaker 4: That's all.

919
00:54:35,880 --> 00:54:37,800
Speaker 1: That's all I'm doing. How are you doing? What's going on?

920
00:54:38,040 --> 00:54:40,680
Speaker 1: What made you want to call it my Gecko show?

921
00:54:40,760 --> 00:54:41,520
Speaker 1: That's what I want to know.

922
00:54:42,960 --> 00:54:46,399
Speaker 3: Well, we've talked before, and I've been wanting to give

923
00:54:46,400 --> 00:54:49,239
Speaker 3: you an update. So I've been trying to call you

924
00:54:49,400 --> 00:54:50,359
Speaker 3: but I never get through.

925
00:54:51,080 --> 00:54:52,160
Speaker 1: Okay, what do we talk about?

926
00:54:53,320 --> 00:54:56,279
Speaker 3: Uh? The I was on the podcast. The episode is

927
00:54:56,360 --> 00:55:01,239
Speaker 3: OCD and Skateboarding, and we talked about out how I

928
00:55:01,360 --> 00:55:04,880
Speaker 3: thought I had OCD and that I was like traveling

929
00:55:05,160 --> 00:55:07,279
Speaker 3: and like teaching kids how to skate and show like that.

930
00:55:08,600 --> 00:55:11,560
Speaker 1: Cool. Okay, you know it's funny. I'm gonna be so

931
00:55:11,680 --> 00:55:14,080
Speaker 1: honest with you. I know I remember the name of

932
00:55:14,120 --> 00:55:18,759
Speaker 1: that episode, but I can't remember a lot of what

933
00:55:18,920 --> 00:55:20,640
Speaker 1: we talked about. So why don't you go ahead and

934
00:55:20,760 --> 00:55:23,319
Speaker 1: tell me where you're at right now?

935
00:55:24,760 --> 00:55:26,560
Speaker 3: Well, I'm at work, so if I got to.

936
00:55:26,560 --> 00:55:29,719
Speaker 1: Go, I don't mean I don't mean physically figure it out,

937
00:55:29,840 --> 00:55:30,319
Speaker 1: but like.

938
00:55:30,760 --> 00:55:34,279
Speaker 3: Right now in life, yes, Well, I have yet to

939
00:55:34,360 --> 00:55:38,399
Speaker 3: go to a psychiatrist. I've been to therapy again, which

940
00:55:38,440 --> 00:55:44,440
Speaker 3: is great. And I have a girlfriend now and she

941
00:55:44,719 --> 00:55:47,880
Speaker 3: has kind of like opened up my eyes about thinking

942
00:55:48,080 --> 00:55:51,960
Speaker 3: about the world differently, and that has also helped me

943
00:55:52,160 --> 00:55:56,000
Speaker 3: a lot. So we're kind of there. We're doing good

944
00:55:56,080 --> 00:56:00,680
Speaker 3: deck some some bad parts, but you know, life.

945
00:56:02,280 --> 00:56:07,160
Speaker 1: Okay, that's pretty good. What ways has your girlfriend helped

946
00:56:07,200 --> 00:56:08,920
Speaker 1: you see things differently?

947
00:56:11,600 --> 00:56:14,040
Speaker 3: She like one thing that really stuck with me when

948
00:56:14,120 --> 00:56:16,680
Speaker 3: we first met, was like she told me that she

949
00:56:16,840 --> 00:56:22,360
Speaker 3: doesn't think embarrassment is real, which at first I'm like,

950
00:56:22,640 --> 00:56:28,120
Speaker 3: all right, I'm skeptical, but she was like, well, if

951
00:56:28,120 --> 00:56:30,960
Speaker 3: you do like something embarrassing or like what you think

952
00:56:31,080 --> 00:56:33,640
Speaker 3: is embarrassing, but you play it off like it's not,

953
00:56:34,280 --> 00:56:37,640
Speaker 3: then nobody else will think it's embarrassing. And I kind

954
00:56:37,680 --> 00:56:39,520
Speaker 3: of totally understand.

955
00:56:39,120 --> 00:56:45,919
Speaker 1: That one hundred correct, you know, and I never thought

956
00:56:45,960 --> 00:56:48,000
Speaker 1: of it that way. Yeah, well, I mean, how do

957
00:56:48,080 --> 00:56:53,279
Speaker 1: you think, like that's how cool people operate is they

958
00:56:53,560 --> 00:56:57,920
Speaker 1: just play everything off like it was meant like they meant.

959
00:56:57,760 --> 00:57:03,759
Speaker 3: To do it exactly. Also, I've been playing kndoma a

960
00:57:03,840 --> 00:57:08,120
Speaker 3: lot recently, which if I go to one of your shows,

961
00:57:08,160 --> 00:57:09,240
Speaker 3: I'm bringing you a Kandama.

962
00:57:11,280 --> 00:57:15,800
Speaker 1: I'm very excited for It's super sick that I don't know.

963
00:57:15,920 --> 00:57:18,920
Speaker 3: I've just been kind of living. I'm also not satisfied

964
00:57:19,120 --> 00:57:21,440
Speaker 3: with my life right now, and so I've just been

965
00:57:21,560 --> 00:57:25,840
Speaker 3: like running around trying to figure myself out. But I'm

966
00:57:25,880 --> 00:57:31,800
Speaker 3: really young, so I'm still trying to I'm trying not

967
00:57:31,880 --> 00:57:35,040
Speaker 3: to rush things, but at the same time, I feel

968
00:57:35,080 --> 00:57:37,680
Speaker 3: like I'm not where I'm supposed to be if that

969
00:57:37,800 --> 00:57:41,600
Speaker 3: makes sense. Like I look at like I know, comparison

970
00:57:41,760 --> 00:57:45,360
Speaker 3: is the thief of joy. Uh And I look at

971
00:57:45,440 --> 00:57:48,200
Speaker 3: like kids that I went to high school with. I mean,

972
00:57:48,280 --> 00:57:51,080
Speaker 3: some are doing bad, some are doing good, some are

973
00:57:51,080 --> 00:57:53,720
Speaker 3: getting married. Because I'm I'm going to be twenty two

974
00:57:53,760 --> 00:57:58,960
Speaker 3: this year, so I'm pretty young. But I just like,

975
00:57:59,040 --> 00:58:01,160
Speaker 3: I work at a parts store right now, and I've

976
00:58:01,200 --> 00:58:05,800
Speaker 3: been here for three years or so, and I kind

977
00:58:05,800 --> 00:58:09,720
Speaker 3: of I'm kind of like, am I supposed to be here? Like?

978
00:58:09,880 --> 00:58:12,800
Speaker 3: Am I supposed to be somewhere else in life?

979
00:58:12,960 --> 00:58:13,600
Speaker 2: You know what I mean?

980
00:58:14,240 --> 00:58:16,040
Speaker 3: Like I don't feel like you said, like I don't

981
00:58:16,040 --> 00:58:22,520
Speaker 3: feel satisfied like I'm here, but I don't feel like

982
00:58:22,680 --> 00:58:25,800
Speaker 3: I'm happy, don't get me wrong, but I I feel

983
00:58:25,880 --> 00:58:29,720
Speaker 3: like there should be more If that makes sense?

984
00:58:30,320 --> 00:58:36,240
Speaker 1: You feel like there should be more? Well? What like

985
00:58:36,320 --> 00:58:38,560
Speaker 1: I'm not what more? What more do you want there

986
00:58:38,600 --> 00:58:39,120
Speaker 1: to be? Brother?

987
00:58:40,160 --> 00:58:41,800
Speaker 3: See? And that And that's the thing is like I

988
00:58:41,840 --> 00:58:47,080
Speaker 3: don't know, And I guess that's where I'm like, Shit,

989
00:58:47,160 --> 00:58:50,919
Speaker 3: should I go to college? Should I quit my job

990
00:58:51,040 --> 00:58:55,520
Speaker 3: and switch jobs? Should I? Like, I'm going to Colorado

991
00:58:55,640 --> 00:58:59,919
Speaker 3: for my birthday? Uh? Here here soon? And I missed

992
00:59:00,040 --> 00:59:04,280
Speaker 3: Colorado a lot. So I'm like, should I check that out?

993
00:59:04,520 --> 00:59:07,360
Speaker 3: Like where I should go there? Like maybe move there?

994
00:59:07,520 --> 00:59:07,920
Speaker 3: I don't know.

995
00:59:09,720 --> 00:59:13,640
Speaker 1: Just how you're twenty two. Yeah, I will do all

996
00:59:13,680 --> 00:59:17,320
Speaker 1: of it, man, Just do random stuff. Just do all

997
00:59:17,400 --> 00:59:21,800
Speaker 1: of it, don't don't. You're freaking yourself out for no

998
00:59:22,400 --> 00:59:25,200
Speaker 1: for no reason. Man, Just just just I didn't think.

999
00:59:25,520 --> 00:59:29,360
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, I'm sorry, but just just just just do something. Man,

1000
00:59:31,600 --> 00:59:37,800
Speaker 1: I'm putting like anything, you're you're a perfectly You're a

1001
00:59:38,040 --> 00:59:47,360
Speaker 1: you are a perfect human being. Yeah, you're perfect, You're perfect,

1002
00:59:47,960 --> 00:59:53,520
Speaker 1: You're not such anything. Just go do something, man, Okay, Okay, yeah,

1003
00:59:54,000 --> 00:59:54,720
Speaker 1: just because.

1004
00:59:54,520 --> 00:59:58,560
Speaker 3: Okay, So, like I I live in Iowa and all

1005
00:59:58,640 --> 01:00:03,959
Speaker 3: my family and friends are in Iowa and not really

1006
01:00:04,040 --> 01:00:08,000
Speaker 3: realizing that I'm pretty lucky to have like grandparents and

1007
01:00:08,080 --> 01:00:10,760
Speaker 3: a couple of great grandparents still at my age. So

1008
01:00:10,880 --> 01:00:14,000
Speaker 3: I'm very family oriented and I love my family a lot,

1009
01:00:14,560 --> 01:00:18,600
Speaker 3: and it's really hard for me to be like, all right,

1010
01:00:18,720 --> 01:00:22,240
Speaker 3: I'm gonna say fuck it Moose States, or like I

1011
01:00:22,320 --> 01:00:24,720
Speaker 3: can't do anything till September because my lease isn't up

1012
01:00:24,760 --> 01:00:29,880
Speaker 3: until then. But I like I'm scared that I'm gonna

1013
01:00:29,920 --> 01:00:32,480
Speaker 3: like make my mom mad, or like upset that I'm

1014
01:00:32,560 --> 01:00:33,360
Speaker 3: leaving or.

1015
01:00:35,000 --> 01:00:39,880
Speaker 1: Stop stop. I you can't be upset that you're making

1016
01:00:39,920 --> 01:00:52,280
Speaker 1: your mom mad. What's your name again? Sully Sally Sally Sally,

1017
01:00:52,440 --> 01:01:01,640
Speaker 1: I know, Gek, I know Gik Sally Sally. I'm literally yelling,

1018
01:01:01,680 --> 01:01:03,040
Speaker 1: I'm pissing No, I guess I can hear you.

1019
01:01:03,120 --> 01:01:03,600
Speaker 2: Can you hear me?

1020
01:01:03,640 --> 01:01:07,880
Speaker 1: I'm yelling, yeah, I know, pissing off my neighbors. Dude,

1021
01:01:07,920 --> 01:01:11,560
Speaker 1: I watch TV so fucked dude. I'll watch TV like

1022
01:01:11,800 --> 01:01:13,520
Speaker 1: at what I think is a normal volume, and then

1023
01:01:13,520 --> 01:01:16,520
Speaker 1: I'll walk into like the my apartment hallway and I

1024
01:01:16,560 --> 01:01:19,720
Speaker 1: could hear the TV from like the elevator. Nobody has

1025
01:01:19,880 --> 01:01:22,400
Speaker 1: ever said anything to me, so I don't think it's

1026
01:01:22,440 --> 01:01:24,880
Speaker 1: a problem. But like everyone get like, there's at least

1027
01:01:25,520 --> 01:01:29,440
Speaker 1: ten other people that are trying to ignore this conversation

1028
01:01:29,600 --> 01:01:31,040
Speaker 1: right now. They can hear my version of it. They

1029
01:01:31,080 --> 01:01:36,520
Speaker 1: can't hear your They could hear me yell Sully Willson Sully,

1030
01:01:36,800 --> 01:01:38,520
Speaker 1: I'm gonna kill you. No, I'm not going to kill you,

1031
01:01:38,680 --> 01:01:44,120
Speaker 1: but Jesus christ Man, like, by the way, I get it,

1032
01:01:44,240 --> 01:01:46,160
Speaker 1: I know I by the way I have this. I

1033
01:01:46,240 --> 01:01:48,439
Speaker 1: want you to know I have the same thing, dude.

1034
01:01:49,480 --> 01:01:52,000
Speaker 1: Like I go home, Like I have the same thing, dude,

1035
01:01:52,080 --> 01:01:56,240
Speaker 1: Like I I recognize that, Like I've chosen to like

1036
01:01:56,400 --> 01:01:58,600
Speaker 1: leave my hometown and like live a life. I live,

1037
01:01:58,800 --> 01:02:01,320
Speaker 1: live my own life. I would never do it any

1038
01:02:01,360 --> 01:02:05,800
Speaker 1: other way. Like me, my sister, we we like that's

1039
01:02:05,840 --> 01:02:08,640
Speaker 1: what we decided to do with our lives and it

1040
01:02:08,800 --> 01:02:13,360
Speaker 1: was never an option to not do that. But I

1041
01:02:13,440 --> 01:02:16,880
Speaker 1: go home and I'm like, uh, my mom looks like

1042
01:02:17,760 --> 01:02:20,200
Speaker 1: rapidly older every time I see her in person. So

1043
01:02:20,320 --> 01:02:26,560
Speaker 1: does my dad. It's hard, it's a bummer. I call

1044
01:02:26,680 --> 01:02:28,960
Speaker 1: them frequently. I was on the phone with my mom.

1045
01:02:29,400 --> 01:02:30,920
Speaker 1: I was on the phone with my mom today and

1046
01:02:31,000 --> 01:02:32,960
Speaker 1: she told me a story about how I was almost

1047
01:02:33,080 --> 01:02:38,200
Speaker 1: never born. But that's her story. But I call them

1048
01:02:38,240 --> 01:02:40,560
Speaker 1: all the time, and I have like an adults relationship

1049
01:02:40,600 --> 01:02:43,760
Speaker 1: with them, and it's on First of all, it's on

1050
01:02:43,880 --> 01:02:46,840
Speaker 1: your mom to let you go have your own life,

1051
01:02:47,120 --> 01:02:50,560
Speaker 1: but it's on you too. At some point just decide

1052
01:02:51,280 --> 01:02:55,040
Speaker 1: that you need to have your own life. I get.

1053
01:02:55,720 --> 01:02:58,160
Speaker 1: I get it's a very American thing, and it is.

1054
01:02:58,240 --> 01:03:00,680
Speaker 1: It's a very American thing to go and have your

1055
01:03:00,720 --> 01:03:06,480
Speaker 1: own life. But you have it in you to want

1056
01:03:06,520 --> 01:03:08,560
Speaker 1: to have your own. Your mom's not forcing you to

1057
01:03:08,640 --> 01:03:10,760
Speaker 1: want to have your she's doing the opposite you. I

1058
01:03:10,960 --> 01:03:13,040
Speaker 1: feel within you that you want to have your own life,

1059
01:03:13,440 --> 01:03:17,360
Speaker 1: So like, go have your own life. Man Like, don't

1060
01:03:17,440 --> 01:03:19,040
Speaker 1: let your mom tell you to not.

1061
01:03:20,680 --> 01:03:20,920
Speaker 4: Do it.

1062
01:03:21,120 --> 01:03:23,480
Speaker 1: Go have your own life. It's good. You don't want

1063
01:03:23,520 --> 01:03:29,600
Speaker 1: to be like a kid forever. You want to have

1064
01:03:29,720 --> 01:03:33,320
Speaker 1: your own semblance of existence on this own world. And

1065
01:03:33,360 --> 01:03:35,640
Speaker 1: by the way, call your fucking mom once a week.

1066
01:03:35,840 --> 01:03:38,360
Speaker 1: Call your grandparents, call them, visit them.

1067
01:03:38,440 --> 01:03:40,040
Speaker 3: Oh I do all the time. I love them.

1068
01:03:40,640 --> 01:03:42,640
Speaker 1: I'm sure you do. That's great. Like, by the way,

1069
01:03:42,680 --> 01:03:45,240
Speaker 1: your family oriented. You want to meet you want to

1070
01:03:45,240 --> 01:03:47,280
Speaker 1: meet a woman, you want to meet, You want to

1071
01:03:47,280 --> 01:03:49,080
Speaker 1: have a wife, You want to have a girlfriend. You

1072
01:03:49,160 --> 01:03:53,520
Speaker 1: wanna do all that stuff. Yeah, in order to do that,

1073
01:03:53,600 --> 01:03:55,640
Speaker 1: you have to have your own life.

1074
01:03:57,880 --> 01:03:59,480
Speaker 3: You're right, you know.

1075
01:04:00,040 --> 01:04:04,960
Speaker 1: So you you want to You want to look back

1076
01:04:05,040 --> 01:04:07,640
Speaker 1: on your life and be proud of yourself, not even

1077
01:04:07,720 --> 01:04:09,840
Speaker 1: because whatever you made a bunch of money or you

1078
01:04:09,880 --> 01:04:13,680
Speaker 1: were successful or whatever, but because you interfaced with the

1079
01:04:13,800 --> 01:04:18,960
Speaker 1: planet and go, you know what, uh go, Actually, here's

1080
01:04:19,080 --> 01:04:21,280
Speaker 1: here's what you gotta do after this, bro. Go watch

1081
01:04:21,840 --> 01:04:27,240
Speaker 1: the beginning of Hercules. Oh god, dude, go watch the beginning.

1082
01:04:28,360 --> 01:04:31,040
Speaker 1: Oh my god, it's so it makes me cry. I

1083
01:04:31,160 --> 01:04:35,040
Speaker 1: have often dreamed have a far off place. It's a

1084
01:04:35,120 --> 01:04:39,720
Speaker 1: great song. Go search up. Go on YouTube, search up. Fuck,

1085
01:04:39,760 --> 01:04:42,080
Speaker 1: what's the name of the song? What's the name of

1086
01:04:42,120 --> 01:04:44,240
Speaker 1: the song from Hercules where he leaves his parents and

1087
01:04:44,320 --> 01:04:46,360
Speaker 1: goes leaves, goes on adventure.

1088
01:04:47,920 --> 01:04:49,360
Speaker 3: I don't know. I haven't seen him forever.

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Speaker 1: Like, oh, it's I can go the distance. Go search up.

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Speaker 1: I can go the distance on YouTube. You can go

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Speaker 1: to the distance. It's like you're like playing Pokemon and

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Speaker 1: you know you're not leaving fucking Palette town, you know.

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Speaker 3: Can we get can we get deep for a second?

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Speaker 1: Can you want to do you want to spend sally?

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Speaker 1: Do you want to spend this life catching the doofs

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Speaker 1: in Palette Town? Or do you want to get yourself

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Speaker 1: a fucking requaiser?

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Speaker 3: I want to a requiz you.

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Speaker 1: Want to requaiz it? Yes, we can get deep? What's up?

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Speaker 3: Okay? I okay, I want to know your I've been

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Speaker 3: really stuck on this for a while because it's on

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Speaker 3: the topic of life, right, yeah, okay, Recently, I don't

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01:05:38,720 --> 01:05:42,000
Speaker 3: like talking about death and I know it's gonna happen,

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Speaker 3: and when it's my time, it's my time. But like

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Speaker 3: for me, it's really hard for me to fathom like

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Speaker 3: what happens if that makes sense, like in my head,

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Speaker 3: Like my family's not like religious, but like I believe

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01:05:59,800 --> 01:06:03,240
Speaker 3: that like a higher power. And so I'm like, okay,

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01:06:03,400 --> 01:06:06,280
Speaker 3: like we go somewhere when we die. But at the

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01:06:06,320 --> 01:06:11,080
Speaker 3: same time, I'm also, well, there's nothing after, you know.

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01:06:11,440 --> 01:06:14,520
Speaker 3: It's like what people say, like, oh, do you remember

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01:06:14,560 --> 01:06:16,880
Speaker 3: when you were born? No, all right, it's the same shit,

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01:06:17,480 --> 01:06:20,200
Speaker 3: And like scares the fuck out of me. And I

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01:06:20,320 --> 01:06:21,560
Speaker 3: want to know what you think.

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Speaker 1: Here's what I think the other day. Okay, you're twenty

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01:06:25,640 --> 01:06:28,959
Speaker 1: two and you're freaking out about this every day, dude.

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01:06:29,000 --> 01:06:32,160
Speaker 1: The other day I was at a I was a

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01:06:32,280 --> 01:06:38,560
Speaker 1: like a diner and there's a like eighty seven year

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01:06:38,600 --> 01:06:43,120
Speaker 1: old man next to me. He was eating soup, and

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Speaker 1: his soup he didn't like his soup. So you know

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Speaker 1: what he did?

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01:06:48,400 --> 01:06:48,880
Speaker 3: He ate it?

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01:06:49,520 --> 01:06:53,520
Speaker 1: No, no, he he asked the waiter. He was like, hey,

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Speaker 1: I didn't like the soup, could you, like, could you

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01:06:56,560 --> 01:06:59,040
Speaker 1: remake it? He hasked the waiter to remake a soup.

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Speaker 1: Do you know why? Do you know why this is relevant?

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01:07:06,440 --> 01:07:06,640
Speaker 4: Why?

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Speaker 1: Because that guy is eighty seven years old. He's being

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01:07:12,320 --> 01:07:17,640
Speaker 1: he's gonna get sent into oblivion any day now, Sully.

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01:07:18,880 --> 01:07:21,800
Speaker 1: Any day now, that eighty seven year old man is

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01:07:21,880 --> 01:07:27,120
Speaker 1: gonna get sent into ablivion. And he's over here pissed

1132
01:07:27,160 --> 01:07:31,040
Speaker 1: off because his soup is he's not pissed off. He

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01:07:31,160 --> 01:07:33,000
Speaker 1: wasn't pissed off. He wasn't pissed off. I don't want

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01:07:33,000 --> 01:07:35,200
Speaker 1: to characterize him. He's not grumpy old man, but he was.

1135
01:07:35,320 --> 01:07:38,320
Speaker 1: He wanted the soup, you know that way. He was assertive.

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01:07:38,800 --> 01:07:40,959
Speaker 1: He was not a grumpy old but he was nice

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01:07:41,000 --> 01:07:43,800
Speaker 1: to the waiter. But he just wanted to and you know,

1138
01:07:45,640 --> 01:07:49,040
Speaker 1: I saw nothing. But the point about this guy is

1139
01:07:49,120 --> 01:07:51,920
Speaker 1: he's just living his life. And that guy should be

1140
01:07:52,080 --> 01:07:55,000
Speaker 1: way more scared than you. You have a lifetime ahead

1141
01:07:55,000 --> 01:07:56,760
Speaker 1: of you before you need to worry about death. That

1142
01:07:56,880 --> 01:08:01,200
Speaker 1: guy could die that afternoon. That guy could be like,

1143
01:08:01,280 --> 01:08:04,600
Speaker 1: oh I don't like the soup. Aneurysm death. You know,

1144
01:08:05,080 --> 01:08:06,840
Speaker 1: he's not even thinking about it. He's thinking about his

1145
01:08:07,000 --> 01:08:10,840
Speaker 1: dumb ass life. He's thinking about exactly what's going on

1146
01:08:11,040 --> 01:08:15,560
Speaker 1: in his stupid, almost over life. And so that's what

1147
01:08:16,160 --> 01:08:19,000
Speaker 1: I think is the right thing to do until you're dead.

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01:08:19,840 --> 01:08:20,800
Speaker 1: I don't know if it's the right thing to do

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01:08:20,920 --> 01:08:22,840
Speaker 1: until you're dead. I've of course, I've talked about a

1150
01:08:22,880 --> 01:08:25,639
Speaker 1: lot on the podcast about like being afraid of death

1151
01:08:25,720 --> 01:08:28,839
Speaker 1: and asking the major questions of life and all this stuff.

1152
01:08:28,960 --> 01:08:36,200
Speaker 1: But I'm over that, man, I'm over that. I've decided personally,

1153
01:08:37,000 --> 01:08:38,599
Speaker 1: I think it's good to go through that. I think

1154
01:08:38,640 --> 01:08:40,760
Speaker 1: it's good to have your questioning and your thinking and

1155
01:08:40,840 --> 01:08:44,240
Speaker 1: all that stuff. But just at a certain point, man,

1156
01:08:44,280 --> 01:08:46,200
Speaker 1: you got to join the living and you got to

1157
01:08:46,360 --> 01:08:49,879
Speaker 1: just like be in it. You got to have things

1158
01:08:50,000 --> 01:08:56,719
Speaker 1: that pull you into life, whether it's like responsibilities or people,

1159
01:08:56,920 --> 01:09:02,519
Speaker 1: or goals or novelty or drugs and alcohol or you know,

1160
01:09:02,600 --> 01:09:05,280
Speaker 1: whatever it is that is your thing. Just you got

1161
01:09:05,680 --> 01:09:06,559
Speaker 1: go join the living.

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01:09:07,760 --> 01:09:10,639
Speaker 3: Well, I'm just I'm such a go go go person.

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01:09:10,960 --> 01:09:13,160
Speaker 3: So recently I've been trying to like live in the

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01:09:13,280 --> 01:09:16,599
Speaker 3: moment and just be like, all right, I'm here, I'm

1165
01:09:16,680 --> 01:09:19,080
Speaker 3: doing this, Like let's not think about the next thing,

1166
01:09:19,400 --> 01:09:23,040
Speaker 3: and like what my mom says is just be just

1167
01:09:23,160 --> 01:09:26,519
Speaker 3: be here, just be And I've been really trying to

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01:09:27,560 --> 01:09:30,680
Speaker 3: do that recently, especially like in the New Year. That

1169
01:09:30,800 --> 01:09:33,880
Speaker 3: was one of my like whatever New Year's resolutions or

1170
01:09:33,920 --> 01:09:37,599
Speaker 3: whatever is to just be and I'm doing our right,

1171
01:09:37,760 --> 01:09:40,559
Speaker 3: I'm doing decent. But it comes across my mind all

1172
01:09:40,600 --> 01:09:43,240
Speaker 3: the time. And then I try to not freak out.

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01:09:43,760 --> 01:09:45,599
Speaker 1: How old are you? How's your mom?

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01:09:47,439 --> 01:09:49,639
Speaker 3: It's fifty, I'm forty nine. Fifty.

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01:09:50,280 --> 01:09:52,960
Speaker 1: She's living her life, right, She's just being She's existing.

1176
01:09:53,040 --> 01:09:55,160
Speaker 1: She's not freaking out about death. She's not freaking out

1177
01:09:55,200 --> 01:09:58,920
Speaker 1: about being old. She's not grieving her twenties. She's fucking

1178
01:10:00,080 --> 01:10:03,760
Speaker 1: grocery shopping and walking around and watching TV.

1179
01:10:05,400 --> 01:10:08,880
Speaker 3: That's true. Seinfeld, Seinfeld Fire fire Show.

1180
01:10:08,960 --> 01:10:12,120
Speaker 1: Life is good, dude, life, life is good, and it's

1181
01:10:12,160 --> 01:10:16,000
Speaker 1: gonna get better. I really believe that. I'm excited. I'm

1182
01:10:16,040 --> 01:10:18,560
Speaker 1: excited to I was talking to my friends on the

1183
01:10:18,600 --> 01:10:23,000
Speaker 1: phone today and he was getting he was getting lunch

1184
01:10:23,080 --> 01:10:27,000
Speaker 1: with his aunt, and his aunt is like sixty sixty something,

1185
01:10:28,160 --> 01:10:32,879
Speaker 1: and she was like stuffing She's like frantically stuffing lettuce

1186
01:10:33,000 --> 01:10:36,320
Speaker 1: in her face and like kind of she like eating

1187
01:10:36,400 --> 01:10:40,040
Speaker 1: really grossly, like just being like, oh yeah, we're gonna

1188
01:10:40,280 --> 01:10:44,000
Speaker 1: make sure we get off on that and just like

1189
01:10:44,120 --> 01:10:47,519
Speaker 1: eating really gross and and it was like, oh, that's

1190
01:10:47,680 --> 01:10:51,479
Speaker 1: that's good, because it's like one day I'll be one

1191
01:10:51,560 --> 01:10:55,639
Speaker 1: day will be like sixty something, will be much closer

1192
01:10:55,680 --> 01:10:58,280
Speaker 1: to death than we are now, and we're not gonna

1193
01:10:58,280 --> 01:10:59,920
Speaker 1: be worked out. We're not gonna be freaking out about

1194
01:10:59,920 --> 01:11:05,880
Speaker 1: we gonna be like eating food really grossly and talking

1195
01:11:05,920 --> 01:11:08,639
Speaker 1: about some fucking thing that doesn't matter. We're gonna be fine.

1196
01:11:09,240 --> 01:11:11,599
Speaker 1: All those people are gonna be dead that we're talking

1197
01:11:11,600 --> 01:11:13,560
Speaker 1: about right now, and it's gonna be our turn to

1198
01:11:14,640 --> 01:11:16,960
Speaker 1: ignore our own deaths and we'll be fine. It's gonna

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01:11:17,000 --> 01:11:23,080
Speaker 1: be fine. It promise you. It's we're designed to uh

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01:11:23,520 --> 01:11:27,800
Speaker 1: go away. Uh. But in the meantime, and this is

1201
01:11:27,840 --> 01:11:30,479
Speaker 1: why you need to leave your fucking palette town is

1202
01:11:30,560 --> 01:11:33,559
Speaker 1: because in the meantime, you're uh you want to look

1203
01:11:33,600 --> 01:11:36,200
Speaker 1: a live a life that you're proud of, right and

1204
01:11:36,320 --> 01:11:38,840
Speaker 1: you want to have when you're older. If you're gonna

1205
01:11:38,840 --> 01:11:41,120
Speaker 1: have your family oriented, you probably want to have kids

1206
01:11:41,160 --> 01:11:44,920
Speaker 1: one day. When you're older, you're gonna want to uh

1207
01:11:45,520 --> 01:11:47,400
Speaker 1: uh still do all the things that you want to

1208
01:11:47,439 --> 01:11:49,000
Speaker 1: do now, and you'll figure out a way to do them.

1209
01:11:49,240 --> 01:11:50,720
Speaker 1: But when you're older, you're gonna want to have a

1210
01:11:50,800 --> 01:11:52,680
Speaker 1: life that you can talk about to your children. You're

1211
01:11:52,680 --> 01:11:55,479
Speaker 1: gonna want to have life experience so you can help

1212
01:11:55,560 --> 01:11:59,400
Speaker 1: your kids go through their life. And you know you

1213
01:11:59,479 --> 01:12:02,080
Speaker 1: want like, like, just live your life, dude, Like you're

1214
01:12:02,240 --> 01:12:04,920
Speaker 1: you're sitting here, you're freaking out about death when you're

1215
01:12:04,960 --> 01:12:09,760
Speaker 1: not even living your life. You know, so, and I

1216
01:12:10,240 --> 01:12:12,080
Speaker 1: and I know, I know it's hard where I know

1217
01:12:12,280 --> 01:12:14,880
Speaker 1: money is tight in this economy, and and and it's

1218
01:12:14,920 --> 01:12:17,439
Speaker 1: a uh, it's hard. It's not the easy path to

1219
01:12:17,520 --> 01:12:20,080
Speaker 1: go and live your life and try to do a thing.

1220
01:12:20,200 --> 01:12:23,160
Speaker 1: It's easier to just whatever. And again it's a very

1221
01:12:23,160 --> 01:12:25,320
Speaker 1: American thing, I think, to go out on your own.

1222
01:12:25,400 --> 01:12:27,760
Speaker 1: But if it's what you want to try, then at

1223
01:12:27,840 --> 01:12:31,280
Speaker 1: least try it. That's all. That's my rant to you, Sully.

1224
01:12:32,600 --> 01:12:32,880
Speaker 2: Thank you.

1225
01:12:35,080 --> 01:12:36,960
Speaker 1: I'm sick of hearing my own voice, so I'm gonna

1226
01:12:37,040 --> 01:12:37,320
Speaker 1: let you go.

1227
01:12:38,439 --> 01:12:39,040
Speaker 3: No, you're good.

1228
01:12:39,560 --> 01:12:40,720
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

1229
01:12:40,720 --> 01:12:41,880
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?

1230
01:12:43,240 --> 01:12:48,639
Speaker 3: Uh? Love yourself? Uh and be kind, thank you, silly,

1231
01:12:48,880 --> 01:12:50,679
Speaker 3: good luck man, thank you gek.

1232
01:12:52,640 --> 01:12:56,360
Speaker 1: Yeah that Sully. I like Sully.

1233
01:12:57,800 --> 01:12:58,040
Speaker 3: I do.

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01:12:59,560 --> 01:13:01,360
Speaker 1: So good guy. I went on a bit of a rant,

1235
01:13:01,479 --> 01:13:05,759
Speaker 1: but it's okay. I kinda I actually like going on rants?

1236
01:13:05,880 --> 01:13:09,920
Speaker 1: Actually was I lied? No, nobody hosts. Nobody who hosts

1237
01:13:09,960 --> 01:13:12,200
Speaker 1: a podcast doesn't like the sound of their own voice.

1238
01:13:12,240 --> 01:13:15,840
Speaker 1: That's a lie. Hello, folks, it's Lyle here. That's the

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01:13:16,040 --> 01:13:19,519
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Speaker 5: My father had told me that a cousin could do roofe,

1251
01:14:00,160 --> 01:14:01,519
Speaker 5: so he said, hey, you know, just give me the

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01:14:01,600 --> 01:14:05,120
Speaker 5: money and I'll help you out. I gave them about

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Speaker 5: three grand, and week after week, month after month, you know,

1254
01:14:10,000 --> 01:14:12,040
Speaker 5: I'd be like, what's up, where are you? Are you

1255
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Speaker 5: gonna come? And he never came. I asked my father

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01:14:16,240 --> 01:14:22,680
Speaker 5: for the money back and My parents' immediate response was,

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01:14:23,160 --> 01:14:27,000
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Speaker 1: episode description that's therapy Gecko dot supercast dot com. All right,

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Speaker 1: I have nothing else to say. Goes on the line

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Speaker 2: Nice expert