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<v Speaker 1>How from Ryan Service?

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<v Speaker 2>Ryan's Service?

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<v Speaker 3>Hello?

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<v Speaker 2>How are you Ryan's Service?

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<v Speaker 4>Well?

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<v Speaker 5>I'm good.

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<v Speaker 2>What is that your is Ryan's Service? Is that your company?

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<v Speaker 2>Or your name?

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<v Speaker 3>That's my name?

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<v Speaker 2>What do you be eating? What are you eating?

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<v Speaker 6>Sake?

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<v Speaker 4>Wow?

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<v Speaker 2>What?

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<v Speaker 1>Uh?

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<v Speaker 5>How?

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<v Speaker 2>How cooked is it?

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<v Speaker 4>Is you?

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<v Speaker 3>Rare?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you like it?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Where did you cook it yourself?

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<v Speaker 3>No?

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<v Speaker 2>Who cooked it for you?

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<v Speaker 7>My friend?

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<v Speaker 2>Who's your friend?

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<v Speaker 5>Noah Parry?

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<v Speaker 2>You said your your friend's name is military or the

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<v Speaker 2>military cooked it for you?

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<v Speaker 6>All right?

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<v Speaker 3>You gotta go?

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<v Speaker 2>All right, I'm hungry, just kidding. I had a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of marshmallows. Before this goes on, the live taking your

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<v Speaker 2>phone calls every nine never goes. I'm just teaching you live. Hello.

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<v Speaker 2>This is Lyle and this is the Therapy Echo podcast.

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<v Speaker 2>It is a podcast about a lizard talking to people

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<v Speaker 2>on the phone. If you have any questions, comments, feedback,

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<v Speaker 2>or concerns, you can email me at Lyle Forever and

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<v Speaker 2>Ever at gmail dot com. That's Lyle forever and Ever

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<v Speaker 2>at gmail dot com. Thank you for listening. I hope

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<v Speaker 2>you enjoy all.

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<v Speaker 4>From Veronica.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, Hi, how are you Veronica?

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<v Speaker 3>I'm done pretty well?

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<v Speaker 1>How are you?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm all right? I'm hanging out in this subway.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh that sounds fun.

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<v Speaker 2>What are you doing? Who's in the background.

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<v Speaker 3>Who is in the background?

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<v Speaker 8>Oh that's my sister.

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<v Speaker 2>Can I talk to your sister?

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<v Speaker 5>No?

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<v Speaker 3>Why not, she's not of age.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh I have a question for you. Yeah, are you interesting?

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<v Speaker 3>I'd like to think so. I have a I have

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<v Speaker 3>a very interesting career.

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<v Speaker 2>What is your career?

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<v Speaker 3>I am a romance ghost writer. I have written, uh,

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<v Speaker 3>just finished my thirtieth book for other people, many of

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<v Speaker 3>them New York Times bestsellers. They haven't written their work.

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<v Speaker 6>It's me.

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<v Speaker 2>Does it bother you that you write the work and

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<v Speaker 2>then the other people get to take the credit?

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<v Speaker 3>You know, at first it did. Because I'm also a

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<v Speaker 3>serious like a serious author. I also have my own career,

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<v Speaker 3>and it is not nearly as lucrative, but I get

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<v Speaker 3>to explore some really interesting things, such as what.

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<v Speaker 1>Well.

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<v Speaker 3>I've written just about every type of romance under the sun,

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<v Speaker 3>with the exception of male pregnancy, but I've done everything else.

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<v Speaker 2>I did not know that there were so many different

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<v Speaker 2>types of romances.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh my god, there's countless. There's fetishes for everything.

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<v Speaker 2>One to write.

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<v Speaker 3>So for as much kink as I write, I'm actually

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<v Speaker 3>pretty ni less, so it's, uh, it's like a stretch

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<v Speaker 3>for me to write base. But it's interesting because when

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<v Speaker 3>you write, you have to get into the head of

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<v Speaker 3>somebody else, right, So I've got to get into a

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<v Speaker 3>headspace for all of these different kinks, these different types

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<v Speaker 3>of people you get involved in the LGBTQ community, all

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<v Speaker 3>of these different things where I don't necessarily fit. I've

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<v Speaker 3>got to find a way in.

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<v Speaker 2>For lots of So let me ask you a question.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm curious. So I hope you don't find this insulting

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<v Speaker 2>or anything. It's not meant to be. But if you've

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<v Speaker 2>written thirty novels, right, and you're writing for all these

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<v Speaker 2>high profile bestseller people, why don't you just write the

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<v Speaker 2>thing yourself instead of writing for all these people.

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<v Speaker 3>Unfortunately, publishing is a lot more than just writing books,

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<v Speaker 3>Like real talk, the actual business side of it is

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<v Speaker 3>really shitty. My own personal books are not selling nearly

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<v Speaker 3>as well. To make the kind of money that I

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<v Speaker 3>do writing for my current clients, it's a total MoneyGram.

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<v Speaker 3>Now it's fuel. It funds my work so I can

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<v Speaker 3>pay for editors, cover designers, marketing. I mean, I didn't

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<v Speaker 3>I don't have a business degree, so it's it's a

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<v Speaker 3>lot of work navigating the business side of writing. But

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<v Speaker 3>if I just write smut for other people, it's fun

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<v Speaker 3>and I get paid to do it. I get paid

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<v Speaker 3>to watch porns. I get paid to write porns.

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<v Speaker 2>That's my own. Ever turn you want? Yes, do you like? Hmmm?

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<v Speaker 4>Do you have it?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you do you ever like? What was I gonna say?

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<v Speaker 6>Oh?

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you have trouble writing for romantic genres that you

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<v Speaker 2>personally don't find a rousing but are doing so just

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<v Speaker 2>for the money?

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, for example, a big one any industry to call

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<v Speaker 3>them alpha holes. It's like the whole alpha male persona.

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<v Speaker 3>It's not a thing for me at all. It's a

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<v Speaker 3>huge turn off. I think you look like a douche

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<v Speaker 3>if so like, it's not an appealing fantasy for me.

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<v Speaker 3>But I have written a lot of them, and while

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<v Speaker 3>it gets easier with time, it's still ah. My most

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<v Speaker 3>recent project was like dragon Nails across my skin, trying

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<v Speaker 3>to finish just because I found the lead male? Is

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<v Speaker 3>that infuriating?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you consider like you being aroused as like indication

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<v Speaker 2>that your writing is good?

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<v Speaker 4>So?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I mean it may be my imagination. But if

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<v Speaker 3>I can get turned on someone else in their imagination,

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<v Speaker 3>surely is I like that.

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<v Speaker 2>That's how I kind of feel about like, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>jokes or something you know, like if you're writing something

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<v Speaker 2>and you're like, I think this is fun If I

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<v Speaker 2>think this is funny, then we'll think it's funny.

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<v Speaker 3>You're not the only one with that sense of humor.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm not the only one who's turned on by certain things.

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<v Speaker 3>Like it's a as long as you connect with somebody, man,

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<v Speaker 3>it's good.

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<v Speaker 2>Well what did you say?

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<v Speaker 3>Your name was Veronica?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, thank you for sharing Veronica. I I you know,

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<v Speaker 2>maybe one day I'll be reading you and not knowing.

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<v Speaker 3>I certainly hope. So thanks Gek, you.

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<v Speaker 4>Have a good night, you too, all From hot Dog.

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<v Speaker 9>Hot Dog, Hello, Gek, how are you?

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<v Speaker 2>Are you interesting? Hot Dog?

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<v Speaker 9>I have been told I'm very interesting. I think that

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<v Speaker 9>might just be based off of how I was raised,

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<v Speaker 9>or poor decision making led to a very interesting event

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<v Speaker 9>in my life.

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<v Speaker 2>Why did poor decision making lead you to believe that

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<v Speaker 2>you are interesting?

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<v Speaker 9>Because it has led to very interesting experiences and has

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<v Speaker 9>shaped how I have grown as a person. I feel

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<v Speaker 9>very desensitized to a lot of things based off of

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<v Speaker 9>these decision making. Yes, I guess that's a good.

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<v Speaker 2>Are you comfortable sharing any of these interesting events?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 9>I can share some.

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<v Speaker 2>Let's see.

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<v Speaker 9>Okay, well lets start when I was younger. That's like

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<v Speaker 9>a good one. So when I was younger, my upstairs neighbor,

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<v Speaker 9>she was my best friend. Her older sister used to

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<v Speaker 9>sell candy, just like to make money for you know whatever.

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<v Speaker 9>She her sister was like.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, normally I asked people to get closer to the mic,

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<v Speaker 2>but can you get a tiny bit farther from the mic?

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<v Speaker 9>How does that sound? Or actually give me one second?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>I gotcha.

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<v Speaker 9>Wait is that better?

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<v Speaker 1>Yes?

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<v Speaker 9>Okay, wonderful. So my friend's older sister used to sell candy,

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<v Speaker 9>and that led to me wanting to buy candy from

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<v Speaker 9>our older sister. So I would hustle around the neighborhood.

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<v Speaker 9>And I was raised in a very low income neighborhood,

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<v Speaker 9>so it was a little bit sketchy. But there was

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<v Speaker 9>a pond behind our neighborhood. And at the same time,

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<v Speaker 9>I had just found my mom's condoms and you know,

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<v Speaker 9>other things around there. But I had stole I had

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<v Speaker 9>stolen a string of condoms from my mom's drawer and

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<v Speaker 9>I put two and two together, and I was like, oh,

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<v Speaker 9>there are guppies and frogs and fish in this pond.

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<v Speaker 9>And I had just gone to a fair recently, we

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<v Speaker 9>around that time, and I thought that they were selling

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<v Speaker 9>goldfish and like little bags and shit like that. So

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<v Speaker 9>I took those condoms.

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<v Speaker 3>I had.

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<v Speaker 9>Basically done the same idea. I had taken the guppies

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<v Speaker 9>from the pond and put them in the condoms, and

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<v Speaker 9>I had been selling them to the kids around the neighborhood.

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<v Speaker 2>And yeah, that was bags of fish, but they were

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<v Speaker 2>in condom bags as opposed to little fish bags.

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<v Speaker 9>Yes, but yeah, that had I had just wanted to

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<v Speaker 9>buy candy from my friend's older sister.

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<v Speaker 7>That was basically what.

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<v Speaker 2>Was the going rate for a condom fish?

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<v Speaker 9>Oh, it was like one dollar a bag, so not

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<v Speaker 9>that much, and I think that was like pretty reasonable.

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<v Speaker 2>The margins are I guess if you stole the condoms,

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<v Speaker 2>the margins are pretty good.

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<v Speaker 9>Yeah, yeah, that's not bad. I didn't know what condoms were.

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<v Speaker 9>I was like eight or nine at this time. They

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<v Speaker 9>were colorful too, so I thought they were like, you know,

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<v Speaker 9>some sort of balloon or something like that. So yeah,

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<v Speaker 9>a little bit but a little bit fucked up. So

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<v Speaker 9>I guess that led to interesting decision making because I

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<v Speaker 9>found that that did work for me. I did get

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<v Speaker 9>candy from my friend's older sister, and uh, I guess

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<v Speaker 9>I played a little bit of a part of my life.

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<v Speaker 9>I think about that incident quite a lot because I

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<v Speaker 9>do find myself doing things like that for stuff I

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<v Speaker 9>would like.

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<v Speaker 2>But yeah, wow, so you've been entrepreneurial for since a

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<v Speaker 2>very young age.

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<v Speaker 9>I have, I have recently, I hadself.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, that's what I was gonna ask, is what's you know,

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<v Speaker 2>an entrepreneurial effort that you've found yourself in recently.

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<v Speaker 9>So I do have a normal job. I work at

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<v Speaker 9>a gas station. You know, that's fun and all what out,

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<v Speaker 9>but it doesn't make that much money. So I have

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<v Speaker 9>found that Craigslist is a very fun place to do

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<v Speaker 9>dumb shit to earn money. Like the other day, I

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<v Speaker 9>had sold this dude. I don't know what his interest

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<v Speaker 9>was in these, but I sold this dude that I

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<v Speaker 9>met on Craigslist just some fucking ear swabs, you know,

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<v Speaker 9>like the little what are they called Q tips? I

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<v Speaker 9>sold them some of us Q tips and I made

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<v Speaker 9>about fifty dollars off of those, So I guess that

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<v Speaker 9>would be a poor decision talking to somebody from Craigslist.

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<v Speaker 9>But at the same time, I did profit from it.

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<v Speaker 2>What do you think he was using bad.

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<v Speaker 9>I don't know. I assume it was some sort of

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<v Speaker 9>fetish thing for him. I don't really know. I haven't

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<v Speaker 9>ventured into that kind of stuff. I have no fucking idea.

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<v Speaker 2>What do you think, well, I mean, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>He could have put them in his own ear. Hot Dog,

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<v Speaker 2>Hot Dog? Are you there? Hot dog? Are you gone?

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<v Speaker 2>As mysteriously as she entered, she.

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<v Speaker 4>Left pull from Dennis.

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<v Speaker 2>Hello, Hello, who is this?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh it's Dennis.

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<v Speaker 2>Are you interesting? Dennis?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah? I wanted to elaborate about the Craigslist selling that

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<v Speaker 5>the person before me was talking about.

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<v Speaker 10>Oh please, that's like a whole back in the day,

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<v Speaker 10>that was like a whole career move.

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<v Speaker 5>That was like the only fans of message boards?

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<v Speaker 2>Did you used to buy slash sell on that message board?

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<v Speaker 7>Oh?

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<v Speaker 3>Hell yeah?

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<v Speaker 5>Selling stuff on Craigslist was the jam back in the day.

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<v Speaker 2>What kinds of items would you sell? I?

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<v Speaker 5>Uh, it depends, well, it depended. It was a lot

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<v Speaker 5>of underwear, socks. Uh, I had some guy friends get

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<v Speaker 5>in on the game, and then we would sell like

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<v Speaker 5>jock straps and stuff. It's pretty amazing what people were

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<v Speaker 5>willing to pay for.

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<v Speaker 2>What did you observe as the highest ticket item?

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<v Speaker 5>Well, so it really depended. It would be more like

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<v Speaker 5>special requests versus like high ticket items. It would be like, uh,

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<v Speaker 5>where a pair of where the same pair of underwear

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<v Speaker 5>and exercise on a treadmill for X amount of time

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<v Speaker 5>and then take the pair of underwear put it into

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<v Speaker 5>one of those like the sealed air zip sealed things,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, like you would do like a salmon or whatever.

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<v Speaker 2>You don't talk about, right, and the vacuum seal it.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, we have vacu' to steal it, and then you

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<v Speaker 5>send it to them.

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<v Speaker 6>But then.

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<v Speaker 5>Where the ahead the special request was where the real

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<v Speaker 5>many came in.

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<v Speaker 2>But how could they verify that you actually completed the request?

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<v Speaker 5>I mean it's pretty easy to tell whether Well, first

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<v Speaker 5>of all, they would get something in the mail, and

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<v Speaker 5>then second of all, I think it's pretty easy to

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<v Speaker 5>tell the difference between like a clean pair of underwear

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<v Speaker 5>versus like exercised in for a week straight underwear.

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<v Speaker 2>I'd like to I think It's funny to imagine that

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<v Speaker 2>these guys like they can smell the difference between underwear

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<v Speaker 2>that was used on a treadmill for ten minutes as

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<v Speaker 2>opposed to twelve minutes.

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<v Speaker 5>There were there were people that used to try and

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<v Speaker 5>run a scam on on us because it was like

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<v Speaker 5>a group of us that would do it. And the

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<v Speaker 5>scam would be like, I want you to send me

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<v Speaker 5>proofs that you actually wore x Y and Z while

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<v Speaker 5>you did X Y and Z, so that in the

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<v Speaker 5>hopes that they could get a picture of somebody like

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<v Speaker 5>wearing the jockstrap or the sox or whatever. Uh, and

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<v Speaker 5>that would be their way of, like, you know, then

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<v Speaker 5>they would never if they if we sent them that

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<v Speaker 5>that they would never call back or they would never

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<v Speaker 5>buy anything. That was their way of trying to like

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<v Speaker 5>scam picks and stuff.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, so, Dennis, before before we move on, uh, you

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<v Speaker 2>know you were calling me in as a follow up,

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<v Speaker 2>Do you have any other idea as to what that earwax?

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<v Speaker 2>I get the like I said, I understand the underwear

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<v Speaker 2>and the jockstrap and the socks, but the Q tip

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<v Speaker 2>doesn't make sense to me.

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<v Speaker 5>I mean, it's again, it's just some weird fetish thing.

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<v Speaker 5>Someone once paid me five hundred dollars to uh take

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<v Speaker 5>a to record a video of me stepping on a

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<v Speaker 5>printer in a high heel shoe and stomping on it

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<v Speaker 5>until it broke, and then I mailed them the DVD

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<v Speaker 5>with that on it a DVD.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah it was.

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<v Speaker 5>It was a long time ago. And not only did

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<v Speaker 5>he replace the printer, but he also paid me five

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<v Speaker 5>hundred bucks.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh so he also replaced the printer because it was

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<v Speaker 2>your printer.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, it was my personal printer.

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<v Speaker 2>Was it a nice printer?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, it was one of the ones that was the

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<v Speaker 5>scanner printer combo.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, thank you for sharing with us, Dennis. I appreciate

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<v Speaker 2>you calling in. Yeah, of course, you have a good

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<v Speaker 2>rest of the night.

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<v Speaker 5>All right, talk to you later.

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<v Speaker 1>All from and Let's go cute?

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<v Speaker 2>Did you say let's go with Q?

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<v Speaker 11>Yeah, that's a letter of like between A and Z,

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<v Speaker 11>just shows a random one.

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<v Speaker 2>You were. You were way more the last two people

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<v Speaker 2>that picked up the phone they had they were like

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<v Speaker 2>blown away that they got on And I like that

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<v Speaker 2>you you you like answered me so immediately that you

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<v Speaker 2>you were. That was a very confident you had like

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<v Speaker 2>the heart of the cards there.

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<v Speaker 11>Sleep So I am a good bluffer?

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<v Speaker 7>You're what a good bluffing?

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<v Speaker 6>Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>Never mind, there's there's no there's no way to be

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<v Speaker 2>good at this. This is not a job. There's no

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<v Speaker 2>job to do, so you can't do a good job.

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<v Speaker 2>But that also means you can't do a bad job.

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<v Speaker 2>Are you interesting? Q? That's that's not a q an

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<v Speaker 2>and thing? Is it?

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<v Speaker 6>No?

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<v Speaker 11>No, I just I completely forgot about that. Actually, I

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<v Speaker 11>probably should have chose between one and twenty five of

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<v Speaker 11>the letters.

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<v Speaker 2>Are you interested in cute?

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<v Speaker 7>I like to think so.

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<v Speaker 11>I mean high school, I did kind of write a

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<v Speaker 11>scooter between classes?

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<v Speaker 2>You wrote a scool How old are you.

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<v Speaker 11>Right now?

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<v Speaker 2>On nineteen you wrote a scooter in between classes? Like

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<v Speaker 2>you crazier scooter down the hallway of your high school

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<v Speaker 2>from Spanish?

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<v Speaker 11>Done that it wasn't in the school. Like my school

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<v Speaker 11>had a very outdoorish campus. It's like it was built

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<v Speaker 11>in the fifties, so instead of you know, making a

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<v Speaker 11>new campus in like twenty twenty, they just kept building

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<v Speaker 11>onto it. So like there's different buildings all outside and

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<v Speaker 11>it's like a half mile wide campus, so it was

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<v Speaker 11>hard to get around. But to like went into together

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<v Speaker 11>within a five minutes.

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<v Speaker 7>I believe it was.

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<v Speaker 11>So I just kind of wrote scooter between classes and

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<v Speaker 11>then got the admessiration on my side?

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<v Speaker 2>Was this a thing? Was this or was it mainly?

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<v Speaker 2>Were you the scooter guy? Or was everyone doing scooters?

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<v Speaker 8>Your boy?

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<v Speaker 2>Wow? So what do you mean by the administration was

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<v Speaker 2>on your side? Was there a big war between scooter

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<v Speaker 2>and no scooter?

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<v Speaker 11>No? No, there might have been ever one against me

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<v Speaker 11>and my friend.

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<v Speaker 2>But what happened? Do you think it upset people that

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<v Speaker 2>you wrote a scooter? Do you think that they thought

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<v Speaker 2>you thought you were better than everyone else and that

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<v Speaker 2>made them resent you.

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<v Speaker 11>I don't think that. I didn't end up on school's

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<v Speaker 11>Instagram mean page a couple of times. Mostly it's just

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<v Speaker 11>people like, Hey, that's kind of cool or that's kind

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<v Speaker 11>of funny.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, there's a thing that happens when you in

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<v Speaker 2>the culture of high school. Some kids become memes. You know,

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<v Speaker 2>I kind of I kind of remember this. You know,

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<v Speaker 2>we had a few kids that would would become memes, uh,

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<v Speaker 2>and they get the there's kids in your school that

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<v Speaker 2>sometimes when when you become memified, Q, I feel like

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<v Speaker 2>it paints you. It turns you into like this two

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<v Speaker 2>dimensional portrait of you are the scooter kid and that

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<v Speaker 2>is all you are. Do you did you ever feel bad?

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<v Speaker 2>Did you ever want people to know you as more

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<v Speaker 2>than just the scooter kid? Q? Did you ever feel

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<v Speaker 2>bad that that you were locked into that?

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<v Speaker 11>I don't think I got locked into that. Well maybe

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<v Speaker 11>me for like the freshmans that came in, but I

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<v Speaker 11>only started doing that the second half high school. That's

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<v Speaker 11>when I became troubled to like get the class on time.

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<v Speaker 11>So I thought, hey, scooter, that could work. But I

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<v Speaker 11>kind of know most of people in my grade because

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<v Speaker 11>I was, like, I think it was like something in

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<v Speaker 11>the top ten, so like I was known through extracurriculation

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<v Speaker 11>other means to that. But I never really I mean,

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<v Speaker 11>I got called the scooter boy everywhere, but I don't

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<v Speaker 11>think I was locked to that per se. I think

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<v Speaker 11>I did a good job doing other stuff to not

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<v Speaker 11>just be the scooter boy.

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<v Speaker 2>By the way, I want you to know, if I

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<v Speaker 2>were on like the board or whatever, I totally would

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<v Speaker 2>have voted against you being allowed to use a scooter

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<v Speaker 2>because and here's why. The thing of I can't get

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<v Speaker 2>the class on time, I need a scooter is just

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<v Speaker 2>it's that's bullshit. Q. That's such bullshit. You realize why

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<v Speaker 2>that you really you realize why that's bullshit, don't you?

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<v Speaker 4>Oh?

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<v Speaker 11>Yeah, no, I completely see.

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<v Speaker 2>Because if you're the only because everyone else can do it,

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<v Speaker 2>why is it that you? I mean, do you? I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>do you have a disability? M Get the fuck out

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<v Speaker 2>of here. No, well, you can't ride a scooter around.

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<v Speaker 2>Everyone else can get to class on time out come,

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<v Speaker 2>you can't come. You need the scooter.

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<v Speaker 1>Against that.

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<v Speaker 11>The original reason was, like you know, I said, my

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<v Speaker 11>school kept building onto itself, okay, and my junior year

0:22:55.440 --> 0:22:57.399
<v Speaker 11>they ran out of like space to build on. But

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<v Speaker 11>there was this elementary school right next door, and thought

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<v Speaker 11>we could just move all the elementary school kids to

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<v Speaker 11>other schools and take over that building. And that's why

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<v Speaker 11>it really became difficulty in the class because you had

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<v Speaker 11>one on the opposite side of campus.

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<v Speaker 2>That doesn't Yeah, but that doesn't address that doesn't address

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<v Speaker 2>what I just said. It doesn't matter if everyone else

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<v Speaker 2>was able to do it without the scooter except for you,

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<v Speaker 2>So why should you get to ride a scooter?

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<v Speaker 11>I think it was more so like the teacher's just

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<v Speaker 11>think character late because they were getting there late like

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<v Speaker 11>I was. It's more so like a point that there

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<v Speaker 11>was no reason I started doing it.

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<v Speaker 12>Was try to get the school to like do block.

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<v Speaker 11>Scheduling instead of like seven periods that once to get

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<v Speaker 11>more for it.

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<v Speaker 2>Would if I would, if I would have fought really hard,

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<v Speaker 2>like if I was like the one person in the

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<v Speaker 2>room who voted against would have thought really hard for

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<v Speaker 2>you to not be allowed to do that.

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<v Speaker 11>But then they just said, you know what, rite the

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<v Speaker 11>scooter and we both kind of want to.

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<v Speaker 2>I would have thought to a point and then I

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<v Speaker 2>would have given up. That's probably what happened.

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<v Speaker 11>Yeah, yeah, well, thank you for sharing with us anytime.

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<v Speaker 13>Then there was there was a.

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<v Speaker 2>Whole who was the one person that was against it.

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<v Speaker 11>There was one teacher that was like, it was this

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<v Speaker 11>is my senior year and I was going over at

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<v Speaker 11>the end of the school day. It was going over

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<v Speaker 11>to like some club, but they apparently had the building

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<v Speaker 11>on lockdown because there was like vandalism or something, and

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<v Speaker 11>the teacher blocked me from going in and said, you

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<v Speaker 11>can't write the scooter. On top of that, instead of

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<v Speaker 11>insurance violation and all that, which I figured all that

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<v Speaker 11>but also I was the kid that uh you know

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<v Speaker 11>those rule books they make you read on the first day.

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<v Speaker 2>Who was the teacher?

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<v Speaker 11>Some Spanish teachers.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, that's all I need to know. Thank you for

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<v Speaker 2>sharing Q. I appreciate you.

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<v Speaker 1>You too all from Tiki.

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<v Speaker 2>Tiki Hello, Hello Teeky.

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<v Speaker 14>Oh my god, I actually got through.

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<v Speaker 2>You don't know that this could be a voicemail. You

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<v Speaker 2>could be in a dream. You don't know that you

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<v Speaker 2>got through.

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<v Speaker 3>A You could be right.

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<v Speaker 14>I never thought of it like that.

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<v Speaker 2>How old.

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<v Speaker 14>I'm nineteen. I actually wanted to talk to you about

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<v Speaker 14>that because all my like I recently graduated, and all

0:25:35.920 --> 0:25:39.760
<v Speaker 14>my friends are like doing stuff with their life. But I'm,

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<v Speaker 14>you know, still living with my grandma on her basement

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<v Speaker 14>watching a deck in one stream.

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<v Speaker 2>What do you want to be doing with your life?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 14>I don't know though. That's that's the actual thing, and

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<v Speaker 14>that question I hated a lot while in high school,

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<v Speaker 14>Like a lot of council counselors were like, what do

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<v Speaker 14>you want to do with your life? And stuff? And

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<v Speaker 14>I don't know. Even now, I don't know why graduated?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh, you graduate from high school?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you?

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<v Speaker 2>Are you in college?

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<v Speaker 4>No?

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<v Speaker 14>I'm not well, some people. What do I do right now?

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<v Speaker 14>I work at Taco Bell?

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<v Speaker 4>I just.

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<v Speaker 14>Yeah, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>Look work it. Look there's pride I'm working at Taco Bell.

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<v Speaker 2>Don't think there's not, because I fucking love Taco Bell

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<v Speaker 2>And if people didn't work there, I couldn't eat there.

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<v Speaker 14>Thank you for actually saying that, because my friends make

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<v Speaker 14>fun of me for working at Taco Bell.

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<v Speaker 2>Fuck your friends. Fuck your friends. Do your fucking do

0:26:34.760 --> 0:26:35.920
<v Speaker 2>your friends eat Taco Bell?

0:26:37.320 --> 0:26:37.639
<v Speaker 15>They do?

0:26:37.880 --> 0:26:41.280
<v Speaker 7>Actually fuck them?

0:26:41.400 --> 0:26:42.560
<v Speaker 6>You know, I'm thinking about that.

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<v Speaker 14>My friends are dickheads.

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<v Speaker 2>That pisses me offten. You can't but to eat a

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<v Speaker 2>Taco Bell. You need people to work there.

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<v Speaker 14>You're right about that. And me working now at you know,

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<v Speaker 14>dead make me appreciate other people who work there. Oh yeah,

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<v Speaker 14>and it hurts me a little bit because I have

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<v Speaker 14>my mom who's very rude to like like that. It's

0:27:10.000 --> 0:27:11.679
<v Speaker 14>like you mess up an order or something like that.

0:27:11.760 --> 0:27:13.920
<v Speaker 14>She's very rude to people like that, and I'll mess

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<v Speaker 14>up in order sometimes when people are rude to me,

0:27:16.160 --> 0:27:17.600
<v Speaker 14>it kind of hurts my feelings.

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<v Speaker 2>Mmm. Have you tried to so it's given you? Yeah,

0:27:22.840 --> 0:27:24.400
<v Speaker 2>I've heard that a lot, you know, from people who

0:27:24.440 --> 0:27:26.199
<v Speaker 2>work in like the service industry, So it's given you

0:27:26.240 --> 0:27:31.720
<v Speaker 2>a better perspective on you know, other people that you

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<v Speaker 2>encounter as a civilian who work in that industry.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, it does.

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<v Speaker 14>Like I have a friend who is a waiter and

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<v Speaker 14>a bus boy, and before you know, actually me talking

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<v Speaker 14>to him, I didn't really tip that often or tip

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<v Speaker 14>that much, But now I make sure I tip you

0:27:46.840 --> 0:27:50.000
<v Speaker 14>know as much as I can because I understand you

0:27:50.040 --> 0:27:52.160
<v Speaker 14>know what you're going through and what you need.

0:27:54.000 --> 0:27:56.080
<v Speaker 2>Don't let don'ian let your friends give you shit for work,

0:27:56.119 --> 0:27:57.520
<v Speaker 2>and I talk about, well, what did they I don't

0:27:57.520 --> 0:27:58.600
<v Speaker 2>even I don't even want to hear what they do,

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<v Speaker 2>because I don't think it's good to compare yourself to

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<v Speaker 2>other people. We're we're talking about you right now, Nah, dude,

0:28:06.800 --> 0:28:09.359
<v Speaker 2>I love talking man. Do you get a disc Do

0:28:09.400 --> 0:28:12.080
<v Speaker 2>you eat the stuff or or after seeing how it's made,

0:28:12.119 --> 0:28:13.399
<v Speaker 2>you're you're You're good.

0:28:14.520 --> 0:28:16.840
<v Speaker 14>I used to like I'd say, for the first week,

0:28:17.040 --> 0:28:20.760
<v Speaker 14>I eat a lot of taco bell, but I gradually

0:28:20.800 --> 0:28:23.399
<v Speaker 14>stopped eating it as it's I think it kind of

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<v Speaker 14>makes me pick a lot of it I eat and

0:28:26.920 --> 0:28:27.880
<v Speaker 14>talk about every day.

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<v Speaker 2>So do you have do you have aspirations. Uh, outside

0:28:34.320 --> 0:28:36.679
<v Speaker 2>of talk about I know you hate this question. But

0:28:36.800 --> 0:28:40.080
<v Speaker 2>when people when people uh put you in the corner

0:28:40.120 --> 0:28:42.240
<v Speaker 2>and ask you to answer, what do you what do

0:28:42.280 --> 0:28:43.200
<v Speaker 2>you usually come out.

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<v Speaker 14>With I normally tell him like, my family kind of

0:28:47.880 --> 0:28:51.640
<v Speaker 14>has this path laid out for me, but I guess

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<v Speaker 14>in my rebellious state where I kind of don't want

0:28:53.560 --> 0:28:54.200
<v Speaker 14>to take that path.

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<v Speaker 6>But the path is.

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<v Speaker 14>Like my uncle is a truck driver and he got

0:28:58.120 --> 0:28:59.760
<v Speaker 14>a CDL and all that, and that's kind of the

0:28:59.760 --> 0:29:02.680
<v Speaker 14>path they want me to take, is get my CDO

0:29:02.760 --> 0:29:05.760
<v Speaker 14>and become a truck driver. But it's like, is that

0:29:05.760 --> 0:29:07.880
<v Speaker 14>that's not my choice, that's the choice they're pushing on

0:29:07.920 --> 0:29:08.080
<v Speaker 14>to me.

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<v Speaker 2>Mhm. Sometimes sometimes uh not to say talk about a

0:29:14.280 --> 0:29:18.280
<v Speaker 2>shitty choice, but like in general, sometimes a shitty choice

0:29:18.760 --> 0:29:22.280
<v Speaker 2>is almost better than a because it's your A shitty

0:29:22.360 --> 0:29:24.520
<v Speaker 2>choice that is yours is almost better than a good

0:29:24.640 --> 0:29:28.120
<v Speaker 2>choice as someone else's.

0:29:28.520 --> 0:29:31.520
<v Speaker 14>Yeah, yeah, you could be right about that because I'm

0:29:31.560 --> 0:29:34.040
<v Speaker 14>I am just you know, like I kind of got

0:29:34.040 --> 0:29:35.800
<v Speaker 14>to say it, like I only work and talk about

0:29:35.840 --> 0:29:37.280
<v Speaker 14>I live with my grandma. I don't got to pay

0:29:37.280 --> 0:29:39.280
<v Speaker 14>rent and all that she provides for me.

0:29:40.400 --> 0:29:43.840
<v Speaker 2>So it's like all, if you're not paying rent, that's

0:29:43.880 --> 0:29:45.960
<v Speaker 2>good because you can say you save up all that money,

0:29:46.040 --> 0:29:49.480
<v Speaker 2>you can use it for you know, lots of difference

0:29:49.560 --> 0:29:52.360
<v Speaker 2>than you know, investments and shiit m h.

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<v Speaker 14>I've been wanting to get in more of the stock market.

0:29:54.840 --> 0:29:55.800
<v Speaker 14>I haven't seen a lot of that.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, well we're gonna get way off topic if

0:29:58.800 --> 0:30:01.440
<v Speaker 2>we start talking about this. But is there do you

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<v Speaker 2>have any do you have any interests outside?

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<v Speaker 4>Like what do you do?

0:30:04.840 --> 0:30:06.720
<v Speaker 2>Like, what do you do when you're not working at

0:30:06.760 --> 0:30:07.280
<v Speaker 2>Taco Bell?

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<v Speaker 14>I'm not working. I'm really in the anime. But like

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<v Speaker 14>I was talking to my friends about like our personalities

0:30:14.960 --> 0:30:17.400
<v Speaker 14>and stuff, and then they kind of mentioned, like, I,

0:30:18.040 --> 0:30:19.880
<v Speaker 14>you know, how I really talk about is anime and

0:30:19.960 --> 0:30:22.080
<v Speaker 14>video games, and I was like, you're right. So I

0:30:22.200 --> 0:30:28.320
<v Speaker 14>wanted to right now, I'm magic or like magic magic

0:30:28.720 --> 0:30:31.440
<v Speaker 14>magic magic magic, like tricks like card tricks and ship

0:30:31.520 --> 0:30:36.720
<v Speaker 14>like that sick. You know, I think it's entertaining and

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<v Speaker 14>I don't know any Like I had this one friend

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<v Speaker 14>back in middle school where he, you know, did a

0:30:41.960 --> 0:30:43.640
<v Speaker 14>lot of card tricks and I thought it was cool.

0:30:43.680 --> 0:30:46.480
<v Speaker 14>But like I realized, as I get older, my friend

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<v Speaker 14>group diminishes. Like drastically, Like, right now I only talk

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<v Speaker 14>to the same four people.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, four people is incredible, by the way, I I

0:31:00.880 --> 0:31:04.040
<v Speaker 2>probably talked to like four people. Four people is good.

0:31:06.640 --> 0:31:09.239
<v Speaker 2>Well wait, are these the same four people? Because your

0:31:09.280 --> 0:31:10.960
<v Speaker 2>friends earlier they were making fun of you for we're

0:31:11.000 --> 0:31:12.560
<v Speaker 2>going to talk about it, sounds like they sucked.

0:31:15.240 --> 0:31:17.840
<v Speaker 14>They Yeah, it is the same four people. But I

0:31:17.920 --> 0:31:20.680
<v Speaker 14>don't see it as that because it's like, that's kind

0:31:20.720 --> 0:31:23.840
<v Speaker 14>of how our friend group operates, with like dickheads to

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<v Speaker 14>each other. You know, sometimes it does hurt me emotionally,

0:31:27.360 --> 0:31:29.080
<v Speaker 14>and I will convey that to them and they do

0:31:29.280 --> 0:31:32.880
<v Speaker 14>understand sometimes, but other times they'll be like, oh, you're

0:31:32.920 --> 0:31:35.880
<v Speaker 14>just being a pussy, You're just emotional and so on

0:31:36.000 --> 0:31:36.640
<v Speaker 14>and so forth.

0:31:37.560 --> 0:31:39.360
<v Speaker 2>Well, I I all right, Initially I didn't want to

0:31:39.360 --> 0:31:41.520
<v Speaker 2>talk about your friends, and I'll talk about them real

0:31:41.600 --> 0:31:42.440
<v Speaker 2>quick before we move on.

0:31:42.560 --> 0:31:42.840
<v Speaker 12>But like.

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<v Speaker 2>Because because like maybe if you like are like jealous

0:31:50.560 --> 0:31:52.800
<v Speaker 2>of certain things that your friends are doing, that could

0:31:52.840 --> 0:31:55.280
<v Speaker 2>indict that will at least queue you in onto what

0:31:55.440 --> 0:31:58.360
<v Speaker 2>you might want. If that may like, what is it

0:31:58.400 --> 0:32:01.960
<v Speaker 2>that your friends are doing that you are like, Oh,

0:32:02.040 --> 0:32:04.840
<v Speaker 2>they're moving on with their lives and doing cool stuff. Like,

0:32:04.920 --> 0:32:07.840
<v Speaker 2>what what is it that they're doing that you you know,

0:32:10.040 --> 0:32:13.360
<v Speaker 2>but one of them, I'm sorry you said that one

0:32:13.360 --> 0:32:15.040
<v Speaker 2>more time, you kind of get cut out a little bit.

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<v Speaker 5>Oh sorry.

0:32:16.440 --> 0:32:20.360
<v Speaker 14>Most of them are going into the army, and you know,

0:32:20.480 --> 0:32:23.760
<v Speaker 14>they offered me to go with them. But that's also

0:32:23.960 --> 0:32:26.080
<v Speaker 14>not something I want to do. That's not something I

0:32:26.160 --> 0:32:26.840
<v Speaker 14>aspired to do.

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<v Speaker 2>So why are you so? I mean, why would you

0:32:33.960 --> 0:32:36.200
<v Speaker 2>be Why would you be jealous of someone doing something

0:32:36.240 --> 0:32:37.120
<v Speaker 2>that you don't want to do.

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<v Speaker 14>I wouldn't say I'm jealous, Like I don't think I

0:32:40.240 --> 0:32:40.760
<v Speaker 14>am jealous.

0:32:40.800 --> 0:32:41.800
<v Speaker 6>The thing is just like.

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<v Speaker 14>They know what they want to do, like they they

0:32:46.240 --> 0:32:48.240
<v Speaker 14>you know, they want to do that. I don't know

0:32:48.280 --> 0:32:50.959
<v Speaker 14>what I want to do. So it's the fact that they,

0:32:51.320 --> 0:32:54.920
<v Speaker 14>you know, they have a purpose kind of I would

0:32:54.920 --> 0:32:56.640
<v Speaker 14>say a purpose in life, and I don't know.

0:32:56.680 --> 0:32:57.240
<v Speaker 1>What mine is.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, I'll say a couple of things. And I'm not

0:33:02.680 --> 0:33:05.440
<v Speaker 2>qualified to give advice because I'm a lizard on the computer.

0:33:06.160 --> 0:33:11.600
<v Speaker 2>But I don't know. You're you're so fucking young too,

0:33:11.760 --> 0:33:15.720
<v Speaker 2>like nineteen dude, honestly, like honest to shit, like you

0:33:15.880 --> 0:33:18.920
<v Speaker 2>living at your grandma's house and like work at a time,

0:33:19.160 --> 0:33:22.760
<v Speaker 2>just like at nineteen, Like, do that as long, honest honestly,

0:33:22.920 --> 0:33:26.000
<v Speaker 2>do that as long as you can. I think so, right,

0:33:26.280 --> 0:33:28.240
<v Speaker 2>because if you let's say you lived at your mom's

0:33:28.280 --> 0:33:30.200
<v Speaker 2>house for like, and people might disagree with me on this,

0:33:30.400 --> 0:33:33.360
<v Speaker 2>but if you just lived at your your grandma's house

0:33:33.480 --> 0:33:35.960
<v Speaker 2>for you know, a couple of years, and you just

0:33:36.480 --> 0:33:39.720
<v Speaker 2>you just eight taco bell and ham sandwiches and ship,

0:33:39.760 --> 0:33:42.960
<v Speaker 2>you just saved up all that money you can, You're

0:33:42.960 --> 0:33:44.960
<v Speaker 2>gonna build a cute You're gonna build a very cute

0:33:45.000 --> 0:33:48.800
<v Speaker 2>little savings account right there, and then you know, and

0:33:48.840 --> 0:33:51.520
<v Speaker 2>then you can use that to invest in stocks and ship.

0:33:51.760 --> 0:33:53.880
<v Speaker 2>Like that's kind of the moves. Like people might shoot

0:33:53.920 --> 0:33:56.960
<v Speaker 2>on you for that, but like, dude, building building up

0:33:57.000 --> 0:33:59.360
<v Speaker 2>a cute little savings account while you know, keeping your

0:33:59.400 --> 0:34:03.200
<v Speaker 2>grandma come and feeding some stoners, that's not a bad gig.

0:34:03.880 --> 0:34:05.200
<v Speaker 2>I wouldn't take any shame in that.

0:34:07.360 --> 0:34:07.400
<v Speaker 4>You.

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<v Speaker 15>Yeah, you're that.

0:34:09.280 --> 0:34:11.919
<v Speaker 14>I do appreciate your input with that, because I don't

0:34:12.360 --> 0:34:12.640
<v Speaker 14>thought of.

0:34:12.680 --> 0:34:13.040
<v Speaker 4>It like that.

0:34:14.040 --> 0:34:16.160
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I keep thinking about it like that. You're you're

0:34:16.200 --> 0:34:19.120
<v Speaker 2>saying you're saving up, you're feeding people, you're taking care

0:34:19.160 --> 0:34:20.600
<v Speaker 2>of you gras, It's it's a you got it for

0:34:20.760 --> 0:34:22.399
<v Speaker 2>nineteen that's a good I think that's a good gig.

0:34:23.440 --> 0:34:26.200
<v Speaker 14>Yeah, you know, like the thing is too, like, uh,

0:34:26.560 --> 0:34:28.440
<v Speaker 14>I have a younger brother. I get compared to a lot,

0:34:28.520 --> 0:34:30.360
<v Speaker 14>and he's kind of like the prodigy of the family.

0:34:30.680 --> 0:34:33.960
<v Speaker 14>Like he's super smart. He does all this coding and

0:34:34.680 --> 0:34:37.080
<v Speaker 14>you know, cyber security stuff like that, and I get

0:34:37.120 --> 0:34:39.640
<v Speaker 14>compared to him, and like they believe he's going places,

0:34:39.719 --> 0:34:42.640
<v Speaker 14>and then I'm just the deadbeat of the family and

0:34:42.760 --> 0:34:43.440
<v Speaker 14>that kind of hurts me.

0:34:45.400 --> 0:34:45.560
<v Speaker 15>I know.

0:34:45.680 --> 0:34:47.279
<v Speaker 2>I like, I liked what you said that you were

0:34:47.320 --> 0:34:51.359
<v Speaker 2>like kind of getting into stocks, right, yeah, yeah, get

0:34:51.400 --> 0:34:53.279
<v Speaker 2>more into get like get into the chick, give us

0:34:53.320 --> 0:34:55.040
<v Speaker 2>like investments and ship. That's what I That's what I

0:34:55.080 --> 0:34:56.640
<v Speaker 2>would do if I was in your situations, I would

0:34:56.680 --> 0:34:59.400
<v Speaker 2>like pocket all that keep loving with your grandma. Pocket

0:34:59.440 --> 0:35:01.319
<v Speaker 2>all that money, and then look at how you can

0:35:01.400 --> 0:35:04.160
<v Speaker 2>invest it. I mean, don't like, you know, go to

0:35:04.280 --> 0:35:07.759
<v Speaker 2>the casinos or put all on fucking game stop or something.

0:35:07.840 --> 0:35:09.600
<v Speaker 2>But I like that's a good I think that's a

0:35:09.640 --> 0:35:13.399
<v Speaker 2>good strategy. Just saving up money to invest, you'll you'll

0:35:13.400 --> 0:35:16.200
<v Speaker 2>be ahead. Especially in nineteen dude, you're actually in I

0:35:16.239 --> 0:35:20.080
<v Speaker 2>know you think you're in a shitty position. But at nineteen,

0:35:20.400 --> 0:35:22.880
<v Speaker 2>you're wealthy in time and you're saving up your money.

0:35:23.440 --> 0:35:25.319
<v Speaker 2>You could you could really do some shit. Don't don't.

0:35:25.360 --> 0:35:27.880
<v Speaker 2>Don't think of yourself as I mean, fucking at nineteen.

0:35:27.880 --> 0:35:32.400
<v Speaker 2>You know what I mean. I think have some have

0:35:32.560 --> 0:35:34.040
<v Speaker 2>some faith that you're doing a good thing.

0:35:36.880 --> 0:35:37.480
<v Speaker 15>Thank you for that.

0:35:38.120 --> 0:35:40.719
<v Speaker 14>Yeah, I actually really need to hear that. I have

0:35:40.800 --> 0:35:44.400
<v Speaker 14>a lot of like, uh, I guess haters, but it's like,

0:35:44.920 --> 0:35:46.479
<v Speaker 14>you know, I want to know if it's haters, because

0:35:46.600 --> 0:35:48.840
<v Speaker 14>like they are looking out for my best interest. But

0:35:49.600 --> 0:35:50.759
<v Speaker 14>the way they're going about it.

0:35:51.480 --> 0:35:53.200
<v Speaker 1>You know, I want to think it is the best way.

0:35:55.239 --> 0:35:55.839
<v Speaker 2>Would you say your.

0:35:55.840 --> 0:35:59.400
<v Speaker 14>Name was Tiky like a teaky torch.

0:36:00.400 --> 0:36:03.359
<v Speaker 2>Well, thank you, thank you for sharing Tiki. And yeah, dude,

0:36:03.520 --> 0:36:05.560
<v Speaker 2>keep keep keep saying. I like that, I like, I like,

0:36:05.760 --> 0:36:08.520
<v Speaker 2>I like I like the gig, saving up the taco

0:36:08.680 --> 0:36:11.719
<v Speaker 2>money with the hopes of investing. That's what That's what

0:36:11.760 --> 0:36:14.160
<v Speaker 2>I fucking do. I like. I don't want to shut

0:36:14.200 --> 0:36:16.759
<v Speaker 2>up about this. But live with your grandma, Be cool

0:36:16.920 --> 0:36:18.840
<v Speaker 2>to her, take care of her, have a good relationship

0:36:18.840 --> 0:36:23.200
<v Speaker 2>with her, because you know, uh, you know, keep working

0:36:23.239 --> 0:36:27.600
<v Speaker 2>at Taco Bell, keep going fucking you. Watch every YouTube

0:36:27.680 --> 0:36:29.840
<v Speaker 2>video about investing in ship. I swear to God it

0:36:29.880 --> 0:36:33.759
<v Speaker 2>in nineteen you'll you'll, you're setting yourself up good, So

0:36:34.120 --> 0:36:36.560
<v Speaker 2>don't don't forget about it, all right?

0:36:36.640 --> 0:36:36.759
<v Speaker 15>Man?

0:36:36.960 --> 0:36:40.239
<v Speaker 2>Thank you, thank you for talking in man uh. Best

0:36:40.280 --> 0:36:47.120
<v Speaker 2>of luck to you, Kiki, thank you. I know that

0:36:47.280 --> 0:36:50.680
<v Speaker 2>was long, but I'm passionate about those things, all.

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<v Speaker 4>From the idea to accept press one.

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<v Speaker 2>Hello, Hello, hi, can you can you? Can you turn

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<v Speaker 2>off your stream?

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<v Speaker 14>Oh?

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<v Speaker 8>Wait, yes I can wait.

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<v Speaker 2>Hi, okay, hello, turn off? Turn off? Are you on

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<v Speaker 2>the computer right now?

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<v Speaker 7>Yes?

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<v Speaker 8>Okay.

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<v Speaker 2>Nothing good happens from being on the computer. Turn off

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<v Speaker 2>the computer.

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<v Speaker 16>There we go.

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<v Speaker 8>That was very confusing for a moment. I'm sorry.

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<v Speaker 2>I forgive you.

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<v Speaker 8>Excellent. How are you tonight? Therap, you gotta go.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm okay, I'm all right. I'm hanging in there. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>doing the best I can.

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<v Speaker 8>Are you okay?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I'm good. I've I've learned, you know what, something

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<v Speaker 2>bad has happened to me. This is a night.

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<v Speaker 8>What happened?

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<v Speaker 2>I've learned that it's a lot more fun to to

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<v Speaker 2>be mean than to be nice. And I think I'm

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<v Speaker 2>gonna sart. I think I'm gonna start getting addicted to that,

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm gonna and I'm gonna take it too far

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<v Speaker 2>at some point and it's going to backfire on me.

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<v Speaker 8>It's okay, you won't hurt my feelings.

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<v Speaker 2>But I don't want to be mean. You haven't given

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<v Speaker 2>me a reason to want to be mean to you.

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<v Speaker 8>Oh okay, excellent, we'll ask me some questions.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't reian it. I'm not trying to actually mad.

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<v Speaker 2>It's this look, this is it's all a bit. It's

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<v Speaker 2>I'm doing a thing here. I'm not actually none of

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<v Speaker 2>these emotions, None of these emotions, they're all for theater.

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<v Speaker 8>We've been new, we've been knew.

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<v Speaker 2>Just just you know.

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<v Speaker 8>I'll try and give you a reason to hate me.

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<v Speaker 2>Don't do I I don't. I'm not, I'm not. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>not looking for it. What's your name?

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<v Speaker 8>My name is Lauren?

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<v Speaker 2>Lauren? Have you Lauren? Are you interesting?

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<v Speaker 8>I'm as interesting as any of these people on here.

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<v Speaker 2>I guess, okay, well, what's what's your what? What? What

0:38:54.680 --> 0:38:57.040
<v Speaker 2>would you say is your qualification in your own terms,

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<v Speaker 2>in your own words.

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<v Speaker 8>For being in I don't know. I sell paint for

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<v Speaker 8>a living.

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<v Speaker 2>You used to or you do?

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<v Speaker 8>No, I currently sell paint for a living.

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<v Speaker 2>Did you say you paint or you sell paint? I

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<v Speaker 2>sell paint, okay, I like it like Sherman Williams or something.

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<v Speaker 8>Actually, I did work at as Sherwin Williams. I don't

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<v Speaker 8>work at a sharm Williams anymore. I currently work at

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<v Speaker 8>the Blue Hardware Store, but I did work at a

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<v Speaker 8>Sherwood Williams for a time.

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<v Speaker 2>You work at the Blue Hardware store? Yeah, the blue

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<v Speaker 2>one and the orange one. Oh, the Lowe's in the

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<v Speaker 2>home depot.

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<v Speaker 8>Yes, there we go.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not supposed I'm not supposed to say that until unless.

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<v Speaker 17>Of they.

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<v Speaker 5>So I don't get fired.

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<v Speaker 2>What do you find interesting about selling paint?

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 8>It's kind of an unusual career choice. I'm a young woman,

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<v Speaker 8>so that's kind of fun. I love striking fear into

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<v Speaker 8>the hearts of old men whenever I left five, because

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<v Speaker 8>they think it's gonna like break me in half or something.

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<v Speaker 8>So that's fun. I'm TikTok videos. A lot of people

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<v Speaker 8>find that fascinating.

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<v Speaker 2>There's a lot of you make you make TikTok videos,

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<v Speaker 2>like I do? I know there's one. I know there's

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<v Speaker 2>one kid who like was sponsored by Sherman William or

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<v Speaker 2>or something like that, for like his like amazing paint.

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<v Speaker 2>I know there's a there's a whole paint niche or

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<v Speaker 2>something like that.

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<v Speaker 8>Oh yeah, no, there's a thing. It's it's it's called

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<v Speaker 8>paint Talk. I participate in that sometimes.

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<v Speaker 2>So you say you like to strike fear in the

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<v Speaker 2>hearts of old men.

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<v Speaker 5>I do.

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<v Speaker 2>And how how do you? How do you strike that fear?

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<v Speaker 8>Honestly just by doing my fucking job and by knowing

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<v Speaker 8>what I'm talking about out because they don't expect me

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<v Speaker 8>to know that because I have a uterus.

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<v Speaker 2>So is that is that? Is that frustrating for you? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 8>I mean it can be. I mean, like, I'm not

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<v Speaker 8>going to sit here and act like I know what

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<v Speaker 8>I'm fucking talking about. I do kind of, but you know,

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<v Speaker 8>not really, So yeah, I don't know. It can be frustrating,

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<v Speaker 8>but I expect it.

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<v Speaker 4>Well.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, you look, you don't need to know everything

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<v Speaker 2>about paint. You just need to know more about paint

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<v Speaker 2>than someone who doesn't know anything about paint.

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<v Speaker 10>Yes, and most people know absolutely nothing, perfect, absolutely nothing,

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<v Speaker 10>And it's very frustrating because they do absolutely no research

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<v Speaker 10>whatsoever and then get very upset.

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<v Speaker 8>Whenever I try to tell them what's going on, they.

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<v Speaker 2>Get well, why do they get upset when you try

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<v Speaker 2>to tell them what's going on? That's what That's what

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<v Speaker 2>I would. I would. If I'm going to talk to

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<v Speaker 2>the paint person, I want them to explain everything to

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<v Speaker 2>me about pint because I don't know anything.

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<v Speaker 8>No, they do, but some people, I don't know, they

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<v Speaker 8>have like an ego about it. And then I go, hey, paint,

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<v Speaker 8>maybe don't paint your bathroom with flat paint, and they're like,

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<v Speaker 8>well why not? And they see, you know, it's it's

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<v Speaker 8>a whole thing.

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<v Speaker 2>See, I would ask you that question genuinely, genuinely, why

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<v Speaker 2>not paint it with flat paint? I didn't know that

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<v Speaker 2>was a thing.

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<v Speaker 8>Genuinely, don't paint your bathroom flat paint. Honestly, don't use

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<v Speaker 8>flat paint for anything but the ceiling. Really, it's not

0:42:36.480 --> 0:42:39.000
<v Speaker 8>very washable. I don't know if you've ever lived, like

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<v Speaker 8>you know, in my shitty apartment, all of the walls

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<v Speaker 8>are flat paint, so if you need to wash them down, impossible.

0:42:47.239 --> 0:42:51.600
<v Speaker 8>It's also not very moisture resistant at all. So for

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<v Speaker 8>a bathroom, i'd recommend a satin or a semi gloss

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<v Speaker 8>to see you.

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<v Speaker 2>You have convinced me that you know everything about paint.

0:43:00.280 --> 0:43:02.640
<v Speaker 2>You know more than you need to know about paint

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<v Speaker 2>or I mean, it sounds like you know exactly as

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<v Speaker 2>much as you need to know about paint.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, it's kind of upsetting because I'm also a twenty

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<v Speaker 8>year old woman.

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<v Speaker 2>What's wrong with that? You have a skill, you have

0:43:14.760 --> 0:43:18.839
<v Speaker 2>specialized paint knowledge, but it doesn't matter that the who

0:43:19.440 --> 0:43:21.600
<v Speaker 2>are old you are or what's going on in your pants?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah it is.

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<v Speaker 8>It's kind of a very niche thing to know a lot.

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<v Speaker 2>About Well, you know enough about it to do it,

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<v Speaker 2>and I do be doing it.

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<v Speaker 8>I just don't all we do be doing it?

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<v Speaker 2>Would you say your name was Lauren? Well, Lauren, look,

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<v Speaker 2>I commend you for your paint knowledge. I wish you

0:43:48.160 --> 0:43:50.440
<v Speaker 2>the best of luck moving forward, and thank you for educating.

0:43:50.440 --> 0:43:53.439
<v Speaker 2>You probably actually saved someone listening to this is gonna

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<v Speaker 2>not paint their bathroom with flat paint because of you,

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<v Speaker 2>So you save that person's life.

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<v Speaker 8>I'm so glad that I did.

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<v Speaker 4>Well.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you, Lauren. You have a good rest to that.

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<v Speaker 5>Thank you so much.

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<v Speaker 8>Have a lovely night as well.

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<v Speaker 2>Paul from Keith with two e's, like one in the

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<v Speaker 2>one as the second letter and then one at the end.

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<v Speaker 15>Uh for my name, it's Keith the K E E

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<v Speaker 15>t H. Yeah, Well thank you for that, like a

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<v Speaker 15>great start? Yeah like teeth? Yeah, I got a guy

0:44:35.120 --> 0:44:36.239
<v Speaker 15>who calls me doctor Keeth?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, how did you how did you expect this to

0:44:39.239 --> 0:44:40.360
<v Speaker 2>how did you want this to go?

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<v Speaker 15>Usually it starts off with somebody saying, oh, I've never

0:44:44.040 --> 0:44:46.319
<v Speaker 15>seen it done like that before, but uh.

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<v Speaker 2>I met this interaction because you were upset that I

0:44:50.920 --> 0:44:54.279
<v Speaker 2>didn't like your name, and then you said, well that's

0:44:54.400 --> 0:44:56.440
<v Speaker 2>you sarcastically said that's a great way for this to

0:44:56.520 --> 0:44:59.480
<v Speaker 2>start off. And I'm asking with all like not as

0:44:59.560 --> 0:45:01.399
<v Speaker 2>like a how did you expect this to go? Back?

0:45:01.400 --> 0:45:03.759
<v Speaker 2>And then you know it's quite seriously, you know, how did.

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<v Speaker 15>You go on a serious note? Honestly, I was still

0:45:07.960 --> 0:45:11.520
<v Speaker 15>I was expecting to hear your voicemail saying that the

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<v Speaker 15>lines were busy. I wasn't expecting to go right into this,

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<v Speaker 15>So for that I apologize on you know, I apologize.

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<v Speaker 2>For that Keith with twee's. You never have to apologize

0:45:20.719 --> 0:45:24.239
<v Speaker 2>to me for anything ever. But that also means I

0:45:24.280 --> 0:45:26.560
<v Speaker 2>don't have to apologize to you for anything ever, including

0:45:26.640 --> 0:45:27.359
<v Speaker 2>making fun of your name.

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<v Speaker 15>That's fair.

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<v Speaker 2>Are you interested?

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<v Speaker 15>I would like to think so, But I would also

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<v Speaker 15>like to ask you a question, if I may.

0:45:38.800 --> 0:45:39.000
<v Speaker 2>Sure.

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<v Speaker 15>Do you think that interesting people are born out of trauma?

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<v Speaker 2>You know? I'm not. I wouldn't. I wouldn't. I'm not

0:45:56.480 --> 0:46:03.120
<v Speaker 2>interested in taking the stance of romanticizing trauma as making

0:46:03.200 --> 0:46:06.920
<v Speaker 2>one into an interesting person. I don't think that anyone

0:46:07.000 --> 0:46:11.200
<v Speaker 2>should feel like they have to experience trauma to become interesting.

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<v Speaker 15>It's kind of like a six to one hand and

0:46:16.520 --> 0:46:18.680
<v Speaker 15>half a dozen of any other, right, because you don't

0:46:18.760 --> 0:46:21.920
<v Speaker 15>have to go through trauma to be interesting. But I

0:46:22.040 --> 0:46:24.839
<v Speaker 15>feel like people who are interesting, I find a lot

0:46:24.880 --> 0:46:26.640
<v Speaker 15>of the time have some sort of trauma.

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<v Speaker 2>What makes you say that?

0:46:32.400 --> 0:46:38.080
<v Speaker 15>Well, possibly because where I grew up from, not everybody

0:46:38.600 --> 0:46:41.839
<v Speaker 15>tend everybody that I used to hang out with tend

0:46:41.920 --> 0:46:46.360
<v Speaker 15>to have some shitty backstory, right, you know, and including myself,

0:46:46.400 --> 0:46:49.520
<v Speaker 15>And this isn't a sob story in myself. Honestly. What

0:46:49.640 --> 0:46:51.239
<v Speaker 15>I'm trying to get at is the reason why I

0:46:51.440 --> 0:46:56.279
<v Speaker 15>think I'm interesting is because I've been able to overcome

0:46:56.680 --> 0:47:00.440
<v Speaker 15>that kind of dark cloud or at least, I like

0:47:00.560 --> 0:47:02.399
<v Speaker 15>to think that at this point in my life, I've

0:47:03.160 --> 0:47:07.080
<v Speaker 15>taken a step out of the cloud and I've acknowledged it.

0:47:08.120 --> 0:47:13.239
<v Speaker 15>I for instance, ever since I left high school, I

0:47:13.400 --> 0:47:16.920
<v Speaker 15>joined a Irish pipe and drum Irish pipe and you know,

0:47:17.120 --> 0:47:21.839
<v Speaker 15>drum band. I moved to the closest city where I'm at,

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<v Speaker 15>and I found myself a job selling cheese.

0:47:26.080 --> 0:47:26.200
<v Speaker 2>Uh.

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<v Speaker 15>And I also, you know, got a degree in information

0:47:29.640 --> 0:47:35.719
<v Speaker 15>science and technology, all of which was stemmed from this

0:47:35.880 --> 0:47:40.719
<v Speaker 15>feeling of not feeling significant and uh, you know, not

0:47:41.080 --> 0:47:43.440
<v Speaker 15>honestly knowing what I was doing with my life until

0:47:44.800 --> 0:47:47.120
<v Speaker 15>my like last year of college, all of a sudden

0:47:47.800 --> 0:47:50.160
<v Speaker 15>I had, you know, I had so many things going

0:47:50.200 --> 0:47:54.320
<v Speaker 15>on at once that I finally like broke in a

0:47:54.360 --> 0:47:59.120
<v Speaker 15>way where I that self, you know, self doubt and

0:47:59.200 --> 0:48:01.960
<v Speaker 15>everything kind of how to be pushed aside, you know.

0:48:02.640 --> 0:48:07.600
<v Speaker 15>And I feel like being reborn in a way through

0:48:07.680 --> 0:48:13.480
<v Speaker 15>that kind of crucible of like of of trauma, finally

0:48:13.520 --> 0:48:16.400
<v Speaker 15>coming to a point where you you overcome it to

0:48:16.600 --> 0:48:19.600
<v Speaker 15>get what you have to get done. I think that

0:48:19.800 --> 0:48:21.680
<v Speaker 15>has made me an interesting person.

0:48:24.280 --> 0:48:26.440
<v Speaker 2>I'm not a real therapist, and I'm not here to

0:48:26.520 --> 0:48:30.040
<v Speaker 2>do armchair therapy, but I do have a thought that

0:48:30.200 --> 0:48:33.040
<v Speaker 2>I might be I'm not. I'm not trying to psychoanalyze

0:48:33.160 --> 0:48:37.160
<v Speaker 2>or anything, but I mean the idea, like you've done

0:48:37.200 --> 0:48:39.120
<v Speaker 2>all these things, like you know, you got your computer

0:48:39.239 --> 0:48:42.080
<v Speaker 2>science degree, you turned your life around. It sounds to me,

0:48:42.800 --> 0:48:46.759
<v Speaker 2>but that's you. Don't You don't have trauma to thank

0:48:47.120 --> 0:48:47.400
<v Speaker 2>for that.

0:48:47.680 --> 0:48:47.920
<v Speaker 3>You have.

0:48:48.440 --> 0:48:52.080
<v Speaker 2>You trauma didn't fucking do that. You did that, you

0:48:52.760 --> 0:48:56.000
<v Speaker 2>made your life interesting. You know. I think I think

0:48:56.040 --> 0:49:00.600
<v Speaker 2>the fact that like again I'm not a real person, uh,

0:49:00.719 --> 0:49:04.040
<v Speaker 2>but I think the fact that, like you know, you

0:49:04.200 --> 0:49:06.960
<v Speaker 2>did all the you you did that fucking your past

0:49:08.000 --> 0:49:13.239
<v Speaker 2>being shitty. Didn't you create your present being good? You

0:49:13.360 --> 0:49:15.320
<v Speaker 2>created your present being good. I think you should you

0:49:15.360 --> 0:49:17.920
<v Speaker 2>should take and I think you should take credit for it.

0:49:18.280 --> 0:49:20.160
<v Speaker 2>Oh you know what I mean. Don't give your credit

0:49:20.239 --> 0:49:22.600
<v Speaker 2>to the shitty things that happened to you. Give the

0:49:22.640 --> 0:49:23.960
<v Speaker 2>credit to you.

0:49:25.120 --> 0:49:27.520
<v Speaker 15>I would say it was more like it was more

0:49:27.600 --> 0:49:31.960
<v Speaker 15>like weighted clothes. They didn't. I'm not saying that the

0:49:32.080 --> 0:49:35.840
<v Speaker 15>trauma put me in the situation. And I have to

0:49:35.920 --> 0:49:37.839
<v Speaker 15>agree with you. And this is like the first time

0:49:38.040 --> 0:49:40.600
<v Speaker 15>in my life where I can take the credit, you know,

0:49:41.200 --> 0:49:44.600
<v Speaker 15>like I finally have stepped away from this being like

0:49:44.680 --> 0:49:46.560
<v Speaker 15>everybody being like, oh, you should be proud of yourself

0:49:46.560 --> 0:49:50.040
<v Speaker 15>from doing that, and me not feeling like I did enough,

0:49:50.719 --> 0:49:53.400
<v Speaker 15>you know, because I was always my problem growing up

0:49:53.600 --> 0:49:57.080
<v Speaker 15>and you know, uh, passing high school and everything like that,

0:49:57.200 --> 0:49:58.960
<v Speaker 15>it was like I didn't feel like an accomplishment, but

0:49:59.120 --> 0:50:02.279
<v Speaker 15>like you know, moving to an entire new city and

0:50:02.400 --> 0:50:07.000
<v Speaker 15>finishing my degree when I was flip flopping majors left

0:50:07.040 --> 0:50:10.880
<v Speaker 15>and right and finally settling in on something and getting

0:50:10.960 --> 0:50:13.480
<v Speaker 15>through it while working full time, going to school full

0:50:13.560 --> 0:50:18.320
<v Speaker 15>time and everything like that, that was the deed that

0:50:18.920 --> 0:50:22.320
<v Speaker 15>really pushed me to become who I am today. Like

0:50:22.960 --> 0:50:27.279
<v Speaker 15>nothing else fucking touched it than that, and that was

0:50:27.360 --> 0:50:32.520
<v Speaker 15>what made me who I am. The trauma and everything.

0:50:33.760 --> 0:50:37.719
<v Speaker 15>I'm sorry you finished, Yeah, the trauma and everything. Sure,

0:50:38.200 --> 0:50:42.800
<v Speaker 15>it's you know, you aren't who you are you know

0:50:43.440 --> 0:50:47.600
<v Speaker 15>because of it, Like the past is the stepping stones

0:50:47.880 --> 0:50:50.640
<v Speaker 15>for the steps that you take, you know, in the future.

0:50:50.800 --> 0:50:56.880
<v Speaker 15>But but they don't you know, obviously they don't define you,

0:50:56.960 --> 0:51:00.360
<v Speaker 15>but they define a core, putent bit of you. And

0:51:00.680 --> 0:51:04.080
<v Speaker 15>it takes, you know, like I said before, going through

0:51:04.200 --> 0:51:05.200
<v Speaker 15>kind of like a crucible.

0:51:06.480 --> 0:51:10.480
<v Speaker 2>I still and for the fifth time, I'm not a

0:51:10.600 --> 0:51:14.000
<v Speaker 2>real anything, but you know, I still I still like

0:51:14.600 --> 0:51:18.840
<v Speaker 2>I I'm still iffy on the idea of like, you know,

0:51:19.320 --> 0:51:25.439
<v Speaker 2>in any way like romanticizing your the you know, your

0:51:25.600 --> 0:51:28.920
<v Speaker 2>your crappy past in any way, shape or form. I mean,

0:51:29.160 --> 0:51:32.440
<v Speaker 2>I get, I guess, I guess I understand you, and

0:51:32.560 --> 0:51:35.879
<v Speaker 2>you should be, you know, proud of yourself for having

0:51:36.000 --> 0:51:44.800
<v Speaker 2>overcame what you overcome. But I don't think it's I

0:51:44.840 --> 0:51:47.040
<v Speaker 2>don't know if it's good to walk around, you know,

0:51:47.680 --> 0:51:50.719
<v Speaker 2>thinking that you are who you like, having, you know,

0:51:50.840 --> 0:51:53.640
<v Speaker 2>being defined by the past. It doesn't sound like you are.

0:51:54.600 --> 0:51:58.160
<v Speaker 2>But you know I wouldn't. I wouldn't walk around being

0:51:58.239 --> 0:52:01.200
<v Speaker 2>like everything that's bad. What's happened to me made me

0:52:01.760 --> 0:52:03.560
<v Speaker 2>who I am. You know, you you made you who

0:52:03.640 --> 0:52:08.040
<v Speaker 2>you are. Just to reiterate, you.

0:52:08.040 --> 0:52:11.200
<v Speaker 15>Know, I will have to probably take that at different

0:52:11.239 --> 0:52:14.120
<v Speaker 15>perspective and in consideration, you know, would.

0:52:14.080 --> 0:52:18.839
<v Speaker 2>Would you say your name was Keith for two years? Well, Keith.

0:52:19.760 --> 0:52:21.439
<v Speaker 2>I'm not going to take back what I said about

0:52:21.440 --> 0:52:22.960
<v Speaker 2>your name, because I still think that's a weird way

0:52:22.960 --> 0:52:26.200
<v Speaker 2>to spell your name. But I appreciate you sharing what

0:52:26.239 --> 0:52:27.320
<v Speaker 2>you shared with us this evening.

0:52:27.400 --> 0:52:29.320
<v Speaker 15>Thank you man, Thank you for having me.

0:52:30.040 --> 0:52:31.240
<v Speaker 2>You have a good rest of the good.

0:52:31.080 --> 0:52:32.120
<v Speaker 15>One as well.

0:52:35.600 --> 0:52:38.120
<v Speaker 4>All from Kayla Martin.

0:52:40.480 --> 0:52:44.800
<v Speaker 2>Hello, Hi, what's what do you say? Your name was?

0:52:45.800 --> 0:52:49.560
<v Speaker 17>Kayla Martin, Cayla?

0:52:49.600 --> 0:52:50.520
<v Speaker 2>What year were you born?

0:52:51.640 --> 0:52:52.719
<v Speaker 6>Nineteen ninety four?

0:52:53.640 --> 0:52:56.600
<v Speaker 2>Nineteen ninety four. That was a great year.

0:52:57.640 --> 0:52:58.359
<v Speaker 6>It was a good year.

0:52:58.400 --> 0:53:00.440
<v Speaker 2>I think. So you didn't say thank you.

0:53:01.280 --> 0:53:05.920
<v Speaker 6>Thank well, thanks, I wasn't expecting you to pick up.

0:53:06.719 --> 0:53:10.080
<v Speaker 2>I have a question for you.

0:53:10.920 --> 0:53:13.720
<v Speaker 1>Okay, why.

0:53:16.000 --> 0:53:24.480
<v Speaker 6>Why did I call? I don't know, just to have

0:53:24.600 --> 0:53:25.560
<v Speaker 6>somebody to listen.

0:53:26.320 --> 0:53:26.880
<v Speaker 3>I guess.

0:53:28.440 --> 0:53:29.560
<v Speaker 2>Somebody to listen.

0:53:30.880 --> 0:53:36.200
<v Speaker 6>Yeah, hm, I don't. I feel like I share with

0:53:36.400 --> 0:53:40.840
<v Speaker 6>people very easy. But I think I called because, like

0:53:41.160 --> 0:53:44.440
<v Speaker 6>I don't know you, so it makes it a little easier.

0:53:44.560 --> 0:53:49.200
<v Speaker 2>Maybe what Well, you know, what is it that you

0:53:49.280 --> 0:53:54.680
<v Speaker 2>wanted to share? If anything? In particular, I'm.

0:53:55.960 --> 0:54:00.880
<v Speaker 6>Having a hard time with a few things. I was

0:54:01.000 --> 0:54:04.439
<v Speaker 6>on your TikTok live and I said I was raised

0:54:04.480 --> 0:54:05.000
<v Speaker 6>in a cult.

0:54:07.200 --> 0:54:10.920
<v Speaker 2>That raised in a cult. Well, I have to tell

0:54:10.960 --> 0:54:13.160
<v Speaker 2>you two things. First of all, I'm not a real therapist.

0:54:14.360 --> 0:54:17.719
<v Speaker 2>I forget what the second thing is. But okay, what

0:54:17.800 --> 0:54:18.960
<v Speaker 2>are you having a hard time with.

0:54:22.600 --> 0:54:26.759
<v Speaker 6>So recently? I mean like it's been seven years since

0:54:26.800 --> 0:54:31.000
<v Speaker 6>I left, so the triggers from that have kind of subsided.

0:54:31.920 --> 0:54:35.200
<v Speaker 6>But I read a book recently that kind of opened

0:54:35.239 --> 0:54:39.880
<v Speaker 6>my eyes to how dysfunctional my family was just in general.

0:54:40.000 --> 0:54:43.919
<v Speaker 6>Like I kind of always blamed the call for how

0:54:44.480 --> 0:54:48.759
<v Speaker 6>crappy they were, but it wasn't just that, Like they

0:54:48.800 --> 0:54:51.279
<v Speaker 6>were just dysfunctional on their own.

0:54:53.719 --> 0:54:55.359
<v Speaker 2>How long have you been out of the cult?

0:54:56.480 --> 0:54:57.040
<v Speaker 3>I left in.

0:54:57.120 --> 0:55:01.720
<v Speaker 6>Twenty fourteen, so about seven years, and I think.

0:55:01.880 --> 0:55:06.399
<v Speaker 2>August and what are you What are you doing now?

0:55:09.480 --> 0:55:14.320
<v Speaker 6>Now? I'm not doing anything any work because of COVID.

0:55:14.760 --> 0:55:18.440
<v Speaker 6>I wasn't a sash therapist. But I'm a housewife right

0:55:18.480 --> 0:55:19.960
<v Speaker 6>now and I like it a lot.

0:55:20.080 --> 0:55:23.960
<v Speaker 2>Actually a housewife. Do you do you have kids too?

0:55:25.560 --> 0:55:25.600
<v Speaker 3>No?

0:55:26.320 --> 0:55:30.680
<v Speaker 2>No, just a housewife to my husband, What do you

0:55:30.760 --> 0:55:31.720
<v Speaker 2>like about being a housewife?

0:55:34.440 --> 0:55:38.560
<v Speaker 6>I like taking care of people because that's what I

0:55:38.640 --> 0:55:41.239
<v Speaker 6>did a lot as a kid, I think, so it

0:55:41.360 --> 0:55:45.239
<v Speaker 6>kind of transferred. So I like like getting the house

0:55:45.320 --> 0:55:48.320
<v Speaker 6>clean and making him dinner. He works really hard and

0:55:49.080 --> 0:55:51.719
<v Speaker 6>I'm really proud of him. He's a manager at a

0:55:51.760 --> 0:55:52.279
<v Speaker 6>car wash.

0:55:54.320 --> 0:55:55.280
<v Speaker 2>How did you to meet.

0:55:57.560 --> 0:56:02.400
<v Speaker 6>Through friends? They were in the religion too, but they

0:56:02.440 --> 0:56:05.120
<v Speaker 6>weren't like super strong in it, and so they had

0:56:05.200 --> 0:56:10.040
<v Speaker 6>a quote worldly friends, and he was one of those

0:56:10.160 --> 0:56:13.279
<v Speaker 6>like worldly boys, and I wasn't supposed to talk to him,

0:56:14.840 --> 0:56:15.960
<v Speaker 6>but I couldn't help myself.

0:56:17.840 --> 0:56:20.960
<v Speaker 2>So okay, so they so so this cult, they referred

0:56:21.000 --> 0:56:23.160
<v Speaker 2>to people outside of the cult as worldly.

0:56:24.160 --> 0:56:24.359
<v Speaker 1>Yes.

0:56:25.320 --> 0:56:28.880
<v Speaker 2>Interesting, so you weren't started talking You started talking to

0:56:29.000 --> 0:56:30.800
<v Speaker 2>this person while you weren't allowed to.

0:56:32.400 --> 0:56:35.800
<v Speaker 7>Yes, And what was that?

0:56:36.160 --> 0:56:36.200
<v Speaker 6>Like?

0:56:36.360 --> 0:56:39.200
<v Speaker 2>How did you we were talking to him online? Were

0:56:39.280 --> 0:56:43.960
<v Speaker 2>you doing the secret little Romeo and Juliet Balcony meetups?

0:56:46.800 --> 0:56:50.279
<v Speaker 6>No, because they were friends of mine and he was

0:56:50.600 --> 0:56:52.920
<v Speaker 6>because I was friends with the daughter and he was

0:56:52.960 --> 0:56:56.800
<v Speaker 6>friends with the son. So we would just like be

0:56:56.920 --> 0:56:59.320
<v Speaker 6>at the house at the same time and for a

0:56:59.560 --> 0:57:00.120
<v Speaker 6>long time.

0:57:00.040 --> 0:57:01.800
<v Speaker 9>And we were just like friends.

0:57:03.160 --> 0:57:05.880
<v Speaker 6>We would just hang out a lot. And then like

0:57:06.040 --> 0:57:07.960
<v Speaker 6>it started to develop a little bit more.

0:57:10.800 --> 0:57:15.279
<v Speaker 2>Hm, were did you did you have a hard time

0:57:15.440 --> 0:57:17.840
<v Speaker 2>hiding this from people who would be upset if you

0:57:17.880 --> 0:57:18.320
<v Speaker 2>found out.

0:57:20.280 --> 0:57:25.560
<v Speaker 6>Yes, it was hard because we're not supposed to have

0:57:25.800 --> 0:57:30.960
<v Speaker 6>sex before marriage in the religion. So when I wanted

0:57:30.960 --> 0:57:33.760
<v Speaker 6>to go on birth control, I had to kind of

0:57:34.880 --> 0:57:37.800
<v Speaker 6>come up with an excuse with my mom of like, oh,

0:57:38.000 --> 0:57:40.720
<v Speaker 6>my cycles just like really irregular, So I need to

0:57:40.760 --> 0:57:43.400
<v Speaker 6>go see a doctor and talk about it. And then obviously,

0:57:43.480 --> 0:57:45.120
<v Speaker 6>once I was with a doctor by myself, I was

0:57:45.200 --> 0:57:50.120
<v Speaker 6>just like, hey, let me get back. So yeah, there

0:57:50.200 --> 0:57:55.040
<v Speaker 6>was definitely times I had to be sneaky, but obviously

0:57:55.160 --> 0:57:55.680
<v Speaker 6>I got caught.

0:57:55.760 --> 0:58:01.400
<v Speaker 2>Eventually you got caught, Yeah, yes, what happened? What was

0:58:01.440 --> 0:58:02.720
<v Speaker 2>the aftermath of getting caught?

0:58:05.440 --> 0:58:10.200
<v Speaker 6>I they have they call them judicial committees where you

0:58:10.360 --> 0:58:16.280
<v Speaker 6>meet with the elders of the congregation, and I kind

0:58:16.360 --> 0:58:20.200
<v Speaker 6>of lied at the first one and was like, oh, yeah,

0:58:20.200 --> 0:58:24.720
<v Speaker 6>we're not talking. And those judicial committee meetings are like

0:58:25.240 --> 0:58:29.080
<v Speaker 6>really they take it too far because they're like, oh,

0:58:29.440 --> 0:58:32.440
<v Speaker 6>I don't know what I'm allowed to say, so like

0:58:32.720 --> 0:58:36.400
<v Speaker 6>any words are off, like like like right now on here?

0:58:37.200 --> 0:58:37.720
<v Speaker 15>Yeah, like.

0:58:39.480 --> 0:58:43.240
<v Speaker 6>Okay, well they would ask two they would get like

0:58:43.320 --> 0:58:45.960
<v Speaker 6>too personal. They would be like, oh did you orgasm?

0:58:46.200 --> 0:58:49.240
<v Speaker 6>Like how many times did you orgasm? Like how often

0:58:49.280 --> 0:58:53.200
<v Speaker 6>would you have sex? And like just they they got

0:58:53.560 --> 0:58:57.240
<v Speaker 6>really into it. So I lied and they believed me,

0:58:57.880 --> 0:59:00.840
<v Speaker 6>and then I got caught a second time, had another

0:59:02.200 --> 0:59:05.640
<v Speaker 6>like judicial committee meeting, and that one I decided I

0:59:05.840 --> 0:59:11.280
<v Speaker 6>was gonna leave and I was moving. I moved in

0:59:11.400 --> 0:59:14.880
<v Speaker 6>with him and not married to him, so it all

0:59:15.240 --> 0:59:16.240
<v Speaker 6>turned out for the better.

0:59:16.840 --> 0:59:18.960
<v Speaker 2>Well, yeah, you must be relieved that you don't have

0:59:19.080 --> 0:59:21.960
<v Speaker 2>to fucking do you know, tell a creepy old guy

0:59:22.040 --> 0:59:23.240
<v Speaker 2>how many orgasms you had?

0:59:23.720 --> 0:59:29.280
<v Speaker 6>Yeah, yeah, that's that's a big release, And it was

0:59:29.920 --> 0:59:32.600
<v Speaker 6>it was really hard because once I because I left

0:59:32.920 --> 0:59:35.560
<v Speaker 6>for him, and I knew when I left that I

0:59:35.600 --> 0:59:40.400
<v Speaker 6>would lose like all my childhood friends. And because I

0:59:40.800 --> 0:59:44.000
<v Speaker 6>got to Fellowship, so I was shunned by everybody. So

0:59:44.680 --> 0:59:46.440
<v Speaker 6>nobody's allowed to talk to me or anything. And I

0:59:46.520 --> 0:59:52.320
<v Speaker 6>knew that, and that was fine, but it was strange

0:59:52.760 --> 0:59:56.560
<v Speaker 6>to slowly come to the realization that the religion I

0:59:57.440 --> 1:00:00.240
<v Speaker 6>was born and raised and believed in like so deeply.

1:00:00.880 --> 1:00:02.240
<v Speaker 7>Is just so wrong.

1:00:03.240 --> 1:00:05.520
<v Speaker 2>Do you know, anyone who won't be friends with you

1:00:05.640 --> 1:00:08.320
<v Speaker 2>because the sky tells them not to is probably not

1:00:08.480 --> 1:00:11.640
<v Speaker 2>even someone that you would really benefit from being friends with.

1:00:11.840 --> 1:00:15.440
<v Speaker 6>Ryan, Yeah, no, yeah, you come to that realization too,

1:00:15.560 --> 1:00:18.880
<v Speaker 6>that like those people were never really your friends.

1:00:20.360 --> 1:00:21.040
<v Speaker 2>Well what'd you say?

1:00:21.040 --> 1:00:22.800
<v Speaker 7>Your name was, Kayla?

1:00:23.640 --> 1:00:25.880
<v Speaker 2>Well, Kayla, thank you for sharing that with us. I'm

1:00:25.920 --> 1:00:28.240
<v Speaker 2>glad that everything turned out pretty well for you.

1:00:29.200 --> 1:00:30.960
<v Speaker 6>Thanks, thank you for listening.

1:00:31.640 --> 1:00:33.040
<v Speaker 2>Of course, you have a good rest of the night.

1:00:33.560 --> 1:00:34.760
<v Speaker 6>You too, Ye.

1:00:39.440 --> 1:00:41.120
<v Speaker 4>All, from Vivian.

1:00:43.760 --> 1:00:48.080
<v Speaker 2>Vivian, Vivian, are you there?

1:00:48.760 --> 1:00:48.880
<v Speaker 4>Hi?

1:00:49.200 --> 1:00:53.600
<v Speaker 2>Yeah there? Have you ever played a game called Paper

1:00:53.720 --> 1:00:55.720
<v Speaker 2>Mario in the thousand Year Door?

1:00:57.760 --> 1:00:57.800
<v Speaker 4>No?

1:00:58.000 --> 1:00:59.080
<v Speaker 16>No, not at all.

1:00:59.160 --> 1:01:01.440
<v Speaker 2>No, Vivian, How old are you?

1:01:02.120 --> 1:01:04.040
<v Speaker 16>I'm twenty one. I'm going to be twenty one two days.

1:01:04.760 --> 1:01:05.760
<v Speaker 2>Oh, happy birthday.

1:01:06.280 --> 1:01:06.560
<v Speaker 4>Thank you.

1:01:07.760 --> 1:01:12.000
<v Speaker 2>There's i'll I want, there's there's a fuck all right,

1:01:12.040 --> 1:01:13.800
<v Speaker 2>there's a character in that video game that has the

1:01:13.920 --> 1:01:16.240
<v Speaker 2>name Vivian, and I thought of it. What are you

1:01:16.320 --> 1:01:17.560
<v Speaker 2>excited to turn twenty one?

1:01:19.160 --> 1:01:23.160
<v Speaker 16>Half and half? I mean, it's kind of it's kind

1:01:23.200 --> 1:01:26.720
<v Speaker 16>of melodramatic in a sense because everyone always makes it

1:01:26.840 --> 1:01:31.080
<v Speaker 16>up to be this big deal, you know, and anytime

1:01:31.600 --> 1:01:35.080
<v Speaker 16>that people want to try to celebrate my birthday, you know,

1:01:35.200 --> 1:01:38.160
<v Speaker 16>before I've turned twenty one, obviously, everyone always tries to

1:01:38.240 --> 1:01:40.720
<v Speaker 16>go out to a bar or whatever, knowing fully well

1:01:40.800 --> 1:01:43.760
<v Speaker 16>that I can't drink. So it's it's, you know, it's

1:01:43.840 --> 1:01:48.080
<v Speaker 16>it's difficult to keep friends in a sense because of that,

1:01:48.480 --> 1:01:50.440
<v Speaker 16>you know what I mean, and social media as well

1:01:50.440 --> 1:01:56.120
<v Speaker 16>as like Facebook and Snapchat mentioning that it's the person's birthday,

1:01:56.240 --> 1:01:58.000
<v Speaker 16>So it's like hard to weed out.

1:01:59.480 --> 1:02:04.920
<v Speaker 2>Who, you know what I mean, do you feel are

1:02:05.000 --> 1:02:07.640
<v Speaker 2>you Are you a birthday person? Do you like your

1:02:07.680 --> 1:02:10.240
<v Speaker 2>birth right? Because because there's I think there's a spectrum

1:02:10.280 --> 1:02:14.400
<v Speaker 2>of like some people are like, it's my goddamn birth week.

1:02:14.560 --> 1:02:16.880
<v Speaker 2>We're doing We're going all out, we're doing this, we're

1:02:16.920 --> 1:02:20.240
<v Speaker 2>doing that. Then some people, I mean, they're almost antie

1:02:20.280 --> 1:02:23.480
<v Speaker 2>their own birthday. They don't want anything, they don't want

1:02:23.520 --> 1:02:26.280
<v Speaker 2>the singing, don't talk to me, don't write on my

1:02:26.360 --> 1:02:29.400
<v Speaker 2>Facebook wall. Where do you fall on that? On that spectrum?

1:02:30.360 --> 1:02:31.680
<v Speaker 5>Well, I don't know.

1:02:31.880 --> 1:02:36.640
<v Speaker 16>I personally it's it's it's I've grown to not really

1:02:37.200 --> 1:02:42.360
<v Speaker 16>celebrate it because you know, people always make it out

1:02:42.440 --> 1:02:44.040
<v Speaker 16>to be a big deal, and I feel it's a

1:02:44.080 --> 1:02:46.240
<v Speaker 16>little bit too egotistical for my liking.

1:02:50.640 --> 1:02:53.240
<v Speaker 2>Oh, on one, can you guys hear Vivian? I'm so sorry.

1:02:53.280 --> 1:02:55.440
<v Speaker 2>I'm always nervous if people.

1:02:55.280 --> 1:02:57.520
<v Speaker 16>Can't hear the all right, If you want me to

1:02:57.560 --> 1:02:59.200
<v Speaker 16>come closer to the mic, I definitely can.

1:02:59.520 --> 1:03:04.680
<v Speaker 2>Oh if you could, that would be hello? Hi? Did

1:03:04.720 --> 1:03:06.240
<v Speaker 2>you know VIVI? And I have a question for you?

1:03:06.880 --> 1:03:08.000
<v Speaker 16>Sure still.

1:03:09.400 --> 1:03:13.000
<v Speaker 15>Why why why?

1:03:14.880 --> 1:03:17.560
<v Speaker 16>Because it's given me enough grief in my lifetime, and

1:03:18.600 --> 1:03:21.120
<v Speaker 16>I say, why not wig while you still have the

1:03:21.200 --> 1:03:28.440
<v Speaker 16>opportunity and free will to why not rather? I know

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<v Speaker 16>that kind of almost bounces back on previous you know,

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<v Speaker 16>conversations had in this stream tonight.

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<v Speaker 2>But you know, what is your why not?

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<v Speaker 15>What is that?

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<v Speaker 2>What is your thing that you're going to do? Because

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<v Speaker 2>why not.

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<v Speaker 16>Pursue this career that I wanted to, you know, acting

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<v Speaker 16>and business and a bunch of different things. I'm having

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<v Speaker 16>difficulty deciding a lot of things right now and pinpointing

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<v Speaker 16>that as well as like my birthday very soon. It's

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<v Speaker 16>it's hard to be able to go out with you know,

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<v Speaker 16>pandemic and everything that's going on right now. You know Panorama.

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<v Speaker 2>All right, so you well hold on real hold, we'll

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<v Speaker 2>stop real quick.

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<v Speaker 6>All right.

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<v Speaker 2>You said a career, yes is it? And you then

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<v Speaker 2>you you said you said a career, and then you

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<v Speaker 2>named like ten things?

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<v Speaker 4>Is there?

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<v Speaker 2>Is it a particular thing that you're going after?

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<v Speaker 16>Acting? But then I also wanted to have a backup.

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<v Speaker 16>I'm currently pursuing my my bachelor's in business, you know,

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<v Speaker 16>for marketing, and then I'm also looking at ux design,

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<v Speaker 16>which is it designs the interface for apps and websites

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<v Speaker 16>for different companies and whatnot. So i'd like to say

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<v Speaker 16>I'm well rounded. I was always brought up to be

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<v Speaker 16>well rounded and well spoken, so.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, just.

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<v Speaker 16>Trying to, you know, find where I belong right now.

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<v Speaker 9>It's difficult, you.

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<v Speaker 2>Know, Uh I talk. I talk about this constantly because

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<v Speaker 2>it's been such a fucking game changer for me. Vivian.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you use TikTok?

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<v Speaker 15>Yes?

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<v Speaker 2>I do. Do you make tiktoks?

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<v Speaker 3>I used to.

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<v Speaker 16>They're kind of funny, but I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>I just because if you're trying to get into that,

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<v Speaker 2>like that's if I if I wanted to go be

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<v Speaker 2>an actor, that's a number one thing I would do

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<v Speaker 2>is just make a bunch of tiktoks. I feel like

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<v Speaker 2>that's how like everyone's getting like famous now is through TikTok,

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<v Speaker 2>And like, you know, there's so much, there's so much

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<v Speaker 2>you can do on there with that endvo business too,

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<v Speaker 2>you know. Oh yeah, what's your what's your dream role, Vivian.

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<v Speaker 16>I'd probably say Alphaba from Wicked on Broadway hopefully, I

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<v Speaker 16>don't know. It also depends on what type of acting

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<v Speaker 16>career I want. Whether I was told that I have

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<v Speaker 16>to be defined as either a theater or a film aster.

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<v Speaker 16>So it's really difficult to pick and choose. But I

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<v Speaker 16>have been told by others from my alma mater that

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<v Speaker 16>I shouldn't be defined by that decision.

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<v Speaker 2>If you have to, if you have to choose, to

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<v Speaker 2>go with a film actor, because it's way easier because

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<v Speaker 2>you do it once and then it's for it because

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<v Speaker 2>you know, look right, Because for a theater actor, every

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<v Speaker 2>time you want someone to see it, you have to

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<v Speaker 2>do it. Yeah yeah, But the film you do it

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<v Speaker 2>once and then you show so, hey, I did it,

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<v Speaker 2>I did it, and you can show it to them.

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<v Speaker 2>The theater you have to fucking do it every time

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<v Speaker 2>someone watches it.

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<v Speaker 16>Oh yeah, listen, I completely understand. Like I've been doing

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<v Speaker 16>theater since I can't. I came out of the room

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<v Speaker 16>tap dancing, so it's I don't know, it's just I'm

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<v Speaker 16>used to doing all this live, so film would be

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<v Speaker 16>a harder, you know, way to adapt, you know, just

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<v Speaker 16>trying to get around that.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, thank you for sharing with this, Vivian. I'm I

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<v Speaker 2>hope you have a good Vivian by the way, good

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<v Speaker 2>act good good actress name.

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<v Speaker 4>Thank you.

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<v Speaker 2>It's not my actual name, but yeah, well now you

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<v Speaker 2>have a you've got a good stage name for yourself. Well,

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<v Speaker 2>thank you for sharing, Vivian. I'll talk to you soon, of.

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<v Speaker 16>Course, definitely. It was great to talk to you too.

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<v Speaker 4>All right, have a good one, you two.

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<v Speaker 2>Good night.

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<v Speaker 1>All from Lyle, Lyle.

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<v Speaker 7>Hello, how are you going?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm good?

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<v Speaker 2>Is that your real name? It actually is?

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<v Speaker 12>And I wanted to ask you really quick if you

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<v Speaker 12>were named after a family member like I was, because

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<v Speaker 12>it's like an older it was a popular name in

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<v Speaker 12>like the forties and shit.

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<v Speaker 2>I think I was named after my like great aunt

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<v Speaker 2>Libby or something. I don't know how they got to

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<v Speaker 2>Libby from Lyle, but I mean, I don't know how

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<v Speaker 2>they got to Lyle from Libby, but that's what happened.

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<v Speaker 2>And now I'm and now I'm talking to you.

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<v Speaker 6>It is so cool.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm so.

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<v Speaker 12>I'm glad I finally got through, good to talk to thank.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean it might not be it might not go well,

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<v Speaker 2>we don't know yet. You might hang out, you might

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<v Speaker 2>leave this feeling disappointed. I don't think If I don't,

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<v Speaker 2>I hope you don't. I don't want to.

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<v Speaker 12>That's not my goal henceforth.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, good, all right, if you have no expectations, well

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<v Speaker 2>you said, this is cool. Yeah, that's it. That's an expectation.

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<v Speaker 7>Well, but I'm okay, that's no, okay, actually.

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<v Speaker 2>No, I think that's more of an observation because you're

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<v Speaker 2>not it's not an anti. You didn't say you're you're observing.

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<v Speaker 2>You feel already this is cool.

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<v Speaker 12>Because I'm trying to you, like I haven't tried that

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<v Speaker 12>many times.

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<v Speaker 15>I will.

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<v Speaker 12>I already told you. I just met my girl. I

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<v Speaker 12>don't know, so what I went in general? Okay, happiness.

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<v Speaker 12>I think most people want happiness. But then that's like

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<v Speaker 12>a loaded answer.

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<v Speaker 2>Right, how do you define happiness?

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<v Speaker 12>I don't know. It's like, well, it's like a I

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<v Speaker 12>guess what I mean by happiness is like a satisfaction

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<v Speaker 12>with with life and a sense of place and.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 12>Uh, fulfillment.

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<v Speaker 2>How old are you, Lyle twenty five?

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<v Speaker 8>Well?

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<v Speaker 2>What what's given you fulfillment in the past?

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<v Speaker 4>M hmm.

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<v Speaker 12>Completing like projects and like setting goals and then you'd

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<v Speaker 12>like actually succeeding in the goal. That's always pretty satisfying.

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<v Speaker 2>Definitely. What kind of projects have you completed?

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<v Speaker 12>Oh god, I don't know. Moved across the country. I

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<v Speaker 12>had like that goal for a while, and then moved

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<v Speaker 12>to another city on this new side of the country

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<v Speaker 12>that I'm on, and h things seem to be going well.

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<v Speaker 12>I was getting a little impatient with it when I

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<v Speaker 12>first moved to this most recent city, because I, like,

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<v Speaker 12>you know, it's just there's a lot of stuff that

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<v Speaker 12>always comes with that, but a lot of hard changes,

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<v Speaker 12>not knowing many people. But you know, I'm starting to

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<v Speaker 12>adjust and adapt, and I think adapting feels really good.

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<v Speaker 2>It's a good Definitely, there is a deep sense of

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<v Speaker 2>accomplishment and being able to move to a brand new

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<v Speaker 2>place and just be like without knowing anyone or with

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<v Speaker 2>only knowing a few people, and just you know, being

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<v Speaker 2>able to just out of fucking nowhere forward your own life.

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<v Speaker 2>What have you what have you done to adapt? Especially?

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know if this was reason, but that's I

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<v Speaker 2>I have no idea how I would do that in

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<v Speaker 2>a coronavirus world.

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<v Speaker 7>Got so like I moved.

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<v Speaker 12>My initial like big move from Missouri to Washington State

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<v Speaker 12>was before COVID.

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<v Speaker 6>That was like.

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<v Speaker 12>January or June, like twenty nineteen, so that was a

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<v Speaker 12>little bit before. That was about the year before old stuff.

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<v Speaker 12>And then the most recent move was in COVID and

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<v Speaker 12>it was definitely a lot harder to find a job. So, yeah,

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<v Speaker 12>working in the kitchen now, I was doing tree work

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<v Speaker 12>before that.

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<v Speaker 2>What is tree the work where.

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<v Speaker 12>You like climb like climbing them, Yeah, climbing them to

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<v Speaker 12>work on them, take out.

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<v Speaker 2>As you can get paid to climb trees.

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<v Speaker 12>Yeah, well yeah, that's it. Sounds like there is like

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<v Speaker 12>research stuff where you do like mostly just climbing and

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<v Speaker 12>like do like sampling of like a dick, like drilling cores.

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<v Speaker 12>But what I was doing was removing dead trees and shit.

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<v Speaker 12>So you like climb with a chainsaw, and like.

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<v Speaker 2>How is your upper body strength? You climb trees with

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<v Speaker 2>a chainsaw? Yeah, that sounds very difficult. It was.

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<v Speaker 12>It was fucking dangerous. I don't do it anymore. I'm

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<v Speaker 12>like kind of glad I'm not doing it anymore, but

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<v Speaker 12>I might get back doing.

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<v Speaker 2>It anymore too. I don't want you to get hurt.

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<v Speaker 2>You sound like a nice guy. I don't want you

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<v Speaker 2>to chop your fucking face off with a chainsaw.

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<v Speaker 12>Yeah, I don't want to do that.

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<v Speaker 2>It can happen, well, Lyle, I said, we do we

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<v Speaker 2>have the same name.

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<v Speaker 12>Yeah, it's pretty cool, right, do you don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>Any other Liles. You don't know that many other Liles,

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<v Speaker 2>do you?

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<v Speaker 5>I don't.

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<v Speaker 12>I don't think I've ever met another Lile in person.

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<v Speaker 10>Either.

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<v Speaker 12>This is the closest I've gotten to meeting another Lile.

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<v Speaker 12>Like most of the connection, we.

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<v Speaker 2>Got to do something, we got to put together, like

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<v Speaker 2>a group or something. I don't know how we can

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<v Speaker 2>fie on. It could be the Lis.

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<v Speaker 13>That would be cool.

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<v Speaker 2>All right, I'll text you Reddit cool, I'll I'll talk

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<v Speaker 2>to you soon.

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<v Speaker 12>Hey, look at you man.

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<v Speaker 2>You have a good night, you too, Oh, Lyle forever baby,

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<v Speaker 2>I said, the name of the thing.

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<v Speaker 15>All from Lyle the Wildcat Cat.

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<v Speaker 2>Lyell the what.

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<v Speaker 12>Lile the wildcat?

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<v Speaker 2>Say this again? Turn your stream off? Lyle the Wildcat,

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<v Speaker 2>Liele the Wildcat.

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<v Speaker 15>Yeah, what Lile the wildcat?

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<v Speaker 2>What makes you a wildcat? Lyle?

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<v Speaker 1>There's a lot of things.

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<v Speaker 15>I'm a little wild.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't like a cat, Lyle the wildcat. You you know,

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<v Speaker 2>for a wild cat, you have a very soft voice,

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<v Speaker 2>and I can't hear you very well.

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<v Speaker 7>I'm sorry you're on that speaker phone on my phone.

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<v Speaker 2>I take off a speakerphone. This is a private conversation

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<v Speaker 2>between you and me. That no one else is allowed

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<v Speaker 2>to listen to.

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<v Speaker 3>This is terrific.

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<v Speaker 16>When I found out your name was Lyle, I was like, hey,

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<v Speaker 16>I got the same name.

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<v Speaker 2>There's there's no there's no way you also have the

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<v Speaker 2>same name Lyle as the other guy.

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<v Speaker 1>What how do you slaw your name?

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<v Speaker 15>Lyle? How do I your name?

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<v Speaker 4>Come on?

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<v Speaker 15>Everybody knows how to spell Lyle?

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<v Speaker 2>Can anyone else hear this man and understand words that

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<v Speaker 2>is coming out of his mouth?

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<v Speaker 12>No one understands what I'm saying?

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<v Speaker 2>Really?

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<v Speaker 12>Really?

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<v Speaker 2>Why? All right, Lyle? Uh, you're having a we're having

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<v Speaker 2>a bit of technical issues here. And I also, I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know, I don't I don't really understand your vie vibes.

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<v Speaker 6>No way, man, I've been calling you so many times.

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<v Speaker 2>All right now I can hear you, you know what?

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<v Speaker 2>You know what I think what happened was you were

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<v Speaker 2>doing a weird thing and I couldn't hear you. And

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<v Speaker 2>now that I see, so I'm going to hang up

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<v Speaker 2>on you. You're you're d You're talking like a normal person.

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<v Speaker 12>Oh man, Lyle, come on, dude.

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<v Speaker 2>Right now, I can hear.

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<v Speaker 13>No, you can hear me.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, keep doing that, Keep talking like a normal person.

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<v Speaker 12>Was I talking like an alien person?

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<v Speaker 6>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 12>I don't know what this is, my man, it's a

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<v Speaker 12>Lyle conversation.

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<v Speaker 2>What do you want, Lyle the Wildcat.

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<v Speaker 8>That's a good question.

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<v Speaker 17>I guess I just want to calm down and I'll

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<v Speaker 17>be so wild.

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<v Speaker 9>Absolutely.

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<v Speaker 12>Yeah, that's pretty much.

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<v Speaker 2>We'll take a breath.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, okay, taking the deep breath.

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<v Speaker 2>You don't have to tell me, just do it.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay.

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<v Speaker 2>How do you feel you were too busy just telling

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<v Speaker 2>me that you were going to do it and then

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<v Speaker 2>laughing when I said, not tell me to do it.

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<v Speaker 2>You didn't even do it. I did it, of course,

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<v Speaker 2>said how do you feel?

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<v Speaker 6>It feels good you did.

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<v Speaker 12>Just now, I've been trying to reach out for you

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<v Speaker 12>for a long time. I like I like your streaming.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you pretty appreciate that. I appreciate that.

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<v Speaker 3>Now you asked how I spell my name, I'll tell you.

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<v Speaker 2>Maybe I did all.

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<v Speaker 3>I was just kind of circling.

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<v Speaker 8>Back to that.

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<v Speaker 2>But no, it's no, I was wrong.

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<v Speaker 6>Just now.

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<v Speaker 12>I apologize, no words, no words, but I'll let you

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<v Speaker 12>leave the conversation.

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<v Speaker 7>This is your show, so go ahead, man, tell me

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<v Speaker 7>what's up.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you for calling Lyle, I'll talk to you soon.

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<v Speaker 1>You're worries all from I think Michael bullshit.

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<v Speaker 2>Michael bullshit, Michael bullshit, Michael bullshit, Michael bullshit. Oh hello,

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<v Speaker 2>can you turn off your stream for me? Please?

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<v Speaker 7>I got you done?

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<v Speaker 2>How are you doing, Michael Bullshit?

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<v Speaker 7>Depends on the day today, I'm okay?

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<v Speaker 2>How were you on Wednesday?

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<v Speaker 7>On Wednesday was a very particular shitty day because I

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<v Speaker 7>had a ice cap. It's a coffee drink from a

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<v Speaker 7>Canadian company called Timmis, and for thirty minutes I was

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<v Speaker 7>looking forward to drinking it in the morning, and I

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<v Speaker 7>was getting pulled side by by different staff at the

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<v Speaker 7>hospital and I couldn't drink it. And then when I

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<v Speaker 7>finally got to the boardroom to go and drink it,

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<v Speaker 7>I dropped it and spilt everywhere.

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<v Speaker 2>So what is an ice cap composed of?

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<v Speaker 7>It's essentially a slushy coffee.

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<v Speaker 2>A slushy coffee like a frappucino.

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<v Speaker 7>Kind of. But if ice cap because it's Canadian?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you live in Canada? I do? Oh, what's it

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<v Speaker 2>like there? What's the hospital like?

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<v Speaker 7>Well, I go all over the province. I work at

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<v Speaker 7>every hospital, but they're pretty quiet. During this time of

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<v Speaker 7>the year, not too many people are there, and Canada

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<v Speaker 7>is not too bad. I would just say that people

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<v Speaker 7>have a misconception about its being nice, and I would

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<v Speaker 7>argue that we are not nice. We are assholes, but

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<v Speaker 7>we are polite assholes.

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<v Speaker 2>How do you what? Is it just an asshole and

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<v Speaker 2>a polite asshole? How can someone be polite about being

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<v Speaker 2>an asshole?

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<v Speaker 7>Let me think about that for a moment, because I

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<v Speaker 7>do have an answer.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, we'll wait, I'm not busy, all.

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<v Speaker 7>Right, fair enough. I would say that an asshole has

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<v Speaker 7>a disregard for their feelings, but a polite asshole at

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<v Speaker 7>least feels bad after say sorry.

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<v Speaker 2>And by the way, I was about to say the

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<v Speaker 2>regretful assholes. But there's a difference between feeling bad about

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<v Speaker 2>what you did and regretting.

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<v Speaker 1>What you did.

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<v Speaker 7>That's a good point. Perhaps the two can go hand

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<v Speaker 7>in hand. I mean sometimes I feel well, no.

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<v Speaker 2>Because if I let's say that I'm an asshole to you, right,

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<v Speaker 2>and I feel bad that I did it, but I

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<v Speaker 2>had to do it. I don't regret it. I would

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<v Speaker 2>do it again, but I feel bad doing it.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, that's fair, I deserved it. But because you felt bad.

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<v Speaker 7>You're a polite asshole. You're not just an asshole.

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<v Speaker 2>I would say, I don't know if that's true. I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know if that's true. That's a little bit of

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<v Speaker 2>a cop out to me. Just because I feel bad

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<v Speaker 2>about doing something doesn't mean it doesn't lessen the impact

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<v Speaker 2>of what I did.

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<v Speaker 7>Did I deserve it? Was I being an asshole to you? First?

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<v Speaker 7>Did you have to be an assle?

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<v Speaker 5>Back to me?

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<v Speaker 2>When's the last time you were an asshole?

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<v Speaker 7>That's a good question. I don't have a specific example,

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<v Speaker 7>but I don't remember off the top of my head.

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<v Speaker 7>But I'm a pretty nice guy, and.

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<v Speaker 2>To anadi, to be honest, I guess yeah.

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<v Speaker 7>I'm nice to a fault times. I'm like a doormat

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<v Speaker 7>and I let people walk all over interesting.

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like you do you secretly wish you were

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<v Speaker 2>more of an asshole? Michael bullshit?

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<v Speaker 7>I do, yes, m M.

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<v Speaker 2>Can you I know you were okay? So you were

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<v Speaker 2>you had trouble coming up with a story or or

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<v Speaker 2>an anecdote, or or or thinking about the last time

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<v Speaker 2>in which you were an asshole? But could you think

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<v Speaker 2>of the last time in which you were walked over

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<v Speaker 2>for being too nice.

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<v Speaker 7>Absolutely, Uh, tell me weeks ago before I left my

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<v Speaker 7>wife twelve months actually, But I'm more free now.

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<v Speaker 2>You said, a few weeks ago when you left your wife, Well,

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<v Speaker 2>a few weeks ago.

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<v Speaker 7>I officially stopped talking. But a few months ago, don't

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<v Speaker 7>we separated?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh well you mean left? You mean like left?

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<v Speaker 1>Yes?

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<v Speaker 2>Was she walking over you?

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<v Speaker 7>Oh yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>What was she doing? Uh?

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<v Speaker 7>She didn't like when I got confident and I was

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<v Speaker 7>doing something with my life and she didn't, so she

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<v Speaker 7>kind of put me down. But as time went on,

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<v Speaker 7>I realized that, you know, it's not me who's the problem.

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<v Speaker 7>What she's saying and doing was really just a projection

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<v Speaker 7>of her own reality and her own dream. And so

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<v Speaker 7>when I realized that, it made me feel immune to

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<v Speaker 7>the opinion of her and the actions of her. And

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<v Speaker 7>I'm not the victim of needless suffering anymore.

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<v Speaker 6>So I like that.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, yes, so yeah. You know, look, a lot of people,

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<v Speaker 2>they fucking try to tell you how to live your life,

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<v Speaker 2>how to do your thing, but it's projection of whatever

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<v Speaker 2>they think of, you know, their life and their thing.

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<v Speaker 7>Well exactly and honestly, in the society today, I feel

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<v Speaker 7>like people make ansumptions too quickly, and they don't have

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<v Speaker 7>the courage to ask questions and express what they really

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<v Speaker 7>want anymore. And we should we should communicate clearly to

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<v Speaker 7>not just avoid misunderstandings, but sadness and drama and and

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<v Speaker 7>and once people realize that, I feel like they can

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<v Speaker 7>transform their life because you're.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm sorry your wife?

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<v Speaker 4>Sure?

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<v Speaker 2>What was like? Can I get? Can I get any

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<v Speaker 2>kind of like concrete example, like like, do you have

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<v Speaker 2>an example of like something you did that she didn't like?

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, let me think about that. Uh, there were both

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<v Speaker 7>legitimate things and non legitimate things. So a legitimate thing

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<v Speaker 7>would be me, not like putting down the toilet seat.

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<v Speaker 3>The rest.

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<v Speaker 7>Honestly, it wasn't things I did. It was again her,

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<v Speaker 7>it was it was her own insecurities, and she'd project

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<v Speaker 7>what she thought was the truth, Like if if I came,

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<v Speaker 7>you know, ten minutes late from work, I must have

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<v Speaker 7>been up to something bad. So I didn't really do anything.

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<v Speaker 7>It was just more of walking on eggshells and not

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<v Speaker 7>leaving when what I did was not leave sooner. That's

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<v Speaker 7>what I did.

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<v Speaker 2>She was she was insecure about you, you know, coming

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<v Speaker 2>home late and stuff.

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<v Speaker 7>I guess and and so I stopped coming home late.

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<v Speaker 7>I really do care about how people feel, and so

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<v Speaker 7>I don't want her to feel that way. And so

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<v Speaker 7>I transformed my whole life around making her happy, and

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<v Speaker 7>I lost who I was and I found myself being

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<v Speaker 7>apologetic to people and you know, over explaining myself and

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<v Speaker 7>not having that confidence anymore.

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<v Speaker 4>And so.

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<v Speaker 7>I just didn't like who I was becoming.

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<v Speaker 2>Mhmm, Yeah, I like that. You know. Look, that's a

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<v Speaker 2>good uh, that's a good lesson to learn, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>not to fucking live your life for other people, even

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<v Speaker 2>if they're you know well. I mean, look, if there's

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<v Speaker 2>someone that's close to you, it's like you shouldn't. They shouldn't.

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<v Speaker 2>They shouldn't expect you to live your life for them.

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<v Speaker 2>They should like you for the life that you live

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<v Speaker 2>for yourself.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I fuck with that. I think that's great, man.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm glad to hear that. You're, you know, uh, living

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<v Speaker 2>by the cut of your own sword these days. Mean

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<v Speaker 2>be mean to more people. Don't feel bad about it.

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<v Speaker 2>It's it's kind of it's fun. Yeah, you mean to everyone.

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<v Speaker 7>Confidence helps with that. And I just want to say

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<v Speaker 7>something to the people in the chat. You guys, don't

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<v Speaker 7>expect your life like some people in the chat seem

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<v Speaker 7>to think my life suddenly figured out, But it isn't.

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<v Speaker 7>You're not going to change overnight and feel happy. Your

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<v Speaker 7>changes are small increments, and stop trying to cut cold

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<v Speaker 7>turkey your old life and start something fresh and new.

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<v Speaker 7>Don't change anything about it.

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<v Speaker 5>Keep doing whatever you're doing, and just add.

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<v Speaker 7>Something small to it that you can maintain. Poleeks on ends,

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<v Speaker 7>add something of value and start there.

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<v Speaker 2>Someone else, someone else in the chat, wants you to

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<v Speaker 2>uh sort of bring you back to earth. They want

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<v Speaker 2>you to know to put the fucking seat down next time.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, I started to do that, and I now put

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<v Speaker 7>on a tiel before I exit the shower. I'm learning

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<v Speaker 7>how to be a big boy, good good.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm glad to hear that you you know, haven't gotten

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<v Speaker 2>to uh you know, into yourself. You got a home

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<v Speaker 2>to yourself. Sometimes I'm trying. Well. Thank you, Thank you

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<v Speaker 2>for sharing that, man. I appreciate that.

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<v Speaker 15>I love.

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<v Speaker 2>I love I love the story, I love the the

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<v Speaker 2>the vibes. No, that was stupid. I don't know why

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<v Speaker 2>I said that. That was a stupid thing to say.

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<v Speaker 2>But I love the resilience, not fucking living your life

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<v Speaker 2>for other people. It's a good it's a good message.

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<v Speaker 7>Thank you, appreciate it.

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<v Speaker 2>What their name was, Michael Bullshit? No, no, don't tell me,

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<v Speaker 2>don't tell me. Whichever the real life is. I know

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<v Speaker 2>it's not bullshit, but it's funnier to think it's bullshit.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you, Michael bullshe I'll talk to you soon.

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<v Speaker 6>I love you.

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<v Speaker 2>I love you too.

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<v Speaker 4>All from Drew.

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<v Speaker 2>Drew.

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<v Speaker 13>Oh hey, uh uh, how are you doing.

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<v Speaker 2>To care? What what? Dodw I have a question for you? Okay, why?

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<v Speaker 13>Yeah, it's all about the little things, the little things

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<v Speaker 13>that provide joy.

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<v Speaker 2>Get tell me about these little things that provide you joy? Drew.

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<v Speaker 13>Well, I've been uh, I've been refurbishing old video game

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<v Speaker 13>consoles the past few weeks. It's been kind of fun.

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<v Speaker 7>I like that.

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<v Speaker 3>That's that.

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<v Speaker 2>That's a cute little side hustle you got there. That's

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<v Speaker 2>a good one.

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<v Speaker 13>Yeah, it's pretty fun.

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<v Speaker 4>What what what? What?

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<v Speaker 2>What makes the most money? What's what? What is the

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<v Speaker 2>highest margins?

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<v Speaker 13>Oh dude, I haven't even been selling them like I

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<v Speaker 13>just had. I've just found a big good will and

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<v Speaker 13>I'm like it was a anys a good will and

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<v Speaker 13>then a PS two and I was like, I'm just

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<v Speaker 13>gonna take.

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<v Speaker 2>This, So do you know how to like you know

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<v Speaker 2>how to like rip shit apart and do the the

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<v Speaker 2>science ship and make it into a real thing, not

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<v Speaker 2>vaguely enough to do enough that it did the thing

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<v Speaker 2>turns on.

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<v Speaker 15>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 13>Yeah, Like, uh the I'm just kind of this PS

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<v Speaker 13>two working today. They just need to be cleaned out.

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<v Speaker 13>It was like stupid dusty in there, and uh it works,

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<v Speaker 13>it works right now. There was even a disc inside

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<v Speaker 13>it when I bought it, and I was like, that

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<v Speaker 13>was what was the disc? Let me check?

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<v Speaker 2>All right, We'll wait.

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<v Speaker 1>Uh oh I didn't like that.

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<v Speaker 2>Wait a little.

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<v Speaker 3>Here we go.

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<v Speaker 13>It's a battle racing ignited, Burnout revengeance.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh that sounds horrible.

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<v Speaker 13>Yeah, racing game.

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<v Speaker 3>I know that much.

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<v Speaker 13>I'm a working controllers, so I can't replay.

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<v Speaker 3>It, but I have it.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, look, I'm glad that this is something you're enthusiastic about.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh but look at you know. I know you're a holder,

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<v Speaker 2>but at some point you got to sell. You got

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<v Speaker 2>to sell these game consoles. You got to make a

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<v Speaker 2>little bit of cash. Because it sounds like, sounds like

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<v Speaker 2>you've got some good skills going on here. I like,

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<v Speaker 2>I like it as a hustle, but but I'm over.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm trying to ruin you. Why why you know what? No,

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<v Speaker 2>don't take my advice. Don't monetize this hobby. Enjoy it

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<v Speaker 2>because you're gonna be dead. Enjoy the process of doing this.

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<v Speaker 2>Don't listen to me. Don't never sell your ne s.

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<v Speaker 2>It's gonna be It's all you. It's worth the little

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<v Speaker 2>happiness jeez that you get when you when you do it.

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<v Speaker 2>Would you say your name was Drew? Well, thank you

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<v Speaker 2>for calling Indre. I hope you have a uh, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>as good of a rest of the evening as you

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<v Speaker 2>possibly can.

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<v Speaker 1>You too, good night.

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<v Speaker 2>It happened now. But yeah, and there's all sorts of

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<v Speaker 2>like general bullshit of like you know, follow well, wow,

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<v Speaker 2>know what are your interests?

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<v Speaker 17>I mean, I like marketing too, I like to be creative.

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<v Speaker 17>I was kind of a low point, like back, I

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<v Speaker 17>like to drink, but now I just I don't drink

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<v Speaker 17>anymore because it gets me nowhere and kind of in trouble.

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<v Speaker 17>So I kind of had to find new interests and

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<v Speaker 17>go back to what they were before. So I guess

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<v Speaker 17>I'm still discovering that about myself now, getting in touch

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<v Speaker 17>with what I liked before, you know, the party years

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<v Speaker 17>and I like hiking nature stuff like that. But yeah,

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<v Speaker 17>just trying to find something that works. But I guess

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<v Speaker 17>that's why I called you, Like you're saying thirty four

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<v Speaker 17>is not too old. Like you know, I'm a single guy.

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<v Speaker 17>You know, I moved back home like with my family,

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<v Speaker 17>so I'm kind of feeling like the stigma there. I

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<v Speaker 17>don't know if that's like the right move. I am

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<v Speaker 17>saving money. I heard a previous call, you know, you

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<v Speaker 17>were talking that kid was nine team who was working

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<v Speaker 17>at tackle Bell like that. That was a good move,

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<v Speaker 17>you know when you're young. But in my like tool

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<v Speaker 17>to be doing that shit, I mean, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, I mean, look, is there a huge difference between

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<v Speaker 2>do you do you consider there'll be a giant difference

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<v Speaker 2>between thirty four and thirty six? No? All right, Well,

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<v Speaker 2>if you saved money for two years, how if you

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<v Speaker 2>didn't spend it. If you lived at home with your

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<v Speaker 2>parents and then save a dime and you didn't spend

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<v Speaker 2>a dime, you know, you'd probably save up a uh,

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<v Speaker 2>you would probably say yes to the question of is

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<v Speaker 2>there a big difference between the amount of money you

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<v Speaker 2>would have now and the amount of money you would

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<v Speaker 2>have then, right, you know, But I don't know. I

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<v Speaker 2>don't have concrete advice because like, definitely, you know, it's

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<v Speaker 2>never been easier before, because I mean, there's all these

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<v Speaker 2>tools on the internet to He'll be markt with shit

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<v Speaker 2>TikTok is incredible and changes people's lives overnight. But I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know. Man. My whole thing is that I would

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<v Speaker 2>just pursue whatever is most pressingly interesting to you right

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<v Speaker 2>now and just give it a shot. Not in the

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<v Speaker 2>sense of like I have to choose one thing forever,

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<v Speaker 2>but you know, I would just try whatever is currently

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<v Speaker 2>the most interesting to you and see.

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<v Speaker 17>If it works. And I apologize if you've talked about

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<v Speaker 17>this before, but I'm just really curious about your background

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<v Speaker 17>and like how you got started? Was was therapy?

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<v Speaker 15>Gecko?

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<v Speaker 17>Was that a lightning idea?

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<v Speaker 15>Did you plan this out?

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<v Speaker 3>Was just like a dream?

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<v Speaker 2>Like how did that?

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<v Speaker 17>How did this all start?

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<v Speaker 2>I don't have an incredible story. I mean it would

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<v Speaker 2>take like it's really it was kind of the intersection

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<v Speaker 2>of like fifty different things, but I I it was

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of it was really our PAN. I don't

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<v Speaker 2>know if you know what our PAN is. I'm out

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<v Speaker 2>there right now, but ARPAN. It's called the Reddit Public

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<v Speaker 2>Access Network. I saw I start. I started the therapy

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<v Speaker 2>get Goo just on Reddit, like eight months ago, just

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<v Speaker 2>because I thought Reddit was Reddit. Streaming was was interesting,

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<v Speaker 2>and I had a Gecko costume for an unrelated reason,

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<v Speaker 2>and I started streaming on there, and and I kept

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<v Speaker 2>doing it, and now I'm here. And I also agree

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<v Speaker 2>with the sentiment of I did. I did not think

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<v Speaker 2>I would get this far. So I'm just keeping it moving,

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<v Speaker 2>keeping it rolling.

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<v Speaker 7>You're doing a great job.

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<v Speaker 17>I mean, I appreciate you sharing that you're sharing the story,

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<v Speaker 17>and that's how I found you on TikTok. It was

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<v Speaker 17>literally you know, I scrolled TikTok a lot these days,

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<v Speaker 17>and you're the most creative thing I stumbled across. And

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<v Speaker 17>I'm just it's really awesome we're talking with you right now,

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<v Speaker 17>and to be part of your show.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, I appreciate that. I know you're lying because you've

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<v Speaker 2>seen all the people doing that. I'm on a sugar crush.

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<v Speaker 2>I got a pocket cash thing song, so I'm not

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<v Speaker 2>as bad as those people.

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<v Speaker 13>But it's different.

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<v Speaker 15>Man.

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<v Speaker 17>It's creative and it's uh, it's cool just events, you know,

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<v Speaker 17>just to chat. And I think a lot of people

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<v Speaker 17>are missing that connection right now and uh, you know,

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<v Speaker 17>just want to talk. So it's it's a great platform

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<v Speaker 17>to do that. So I mean, you're making me feel better.

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<v Speaker 17>I'm not too old, you know. And I think of

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<v Speaker 17>it as like, I guess you know, I don't want

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<v Speaker 17>to be all negative. You're the silver lining is I

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<v Speaker 17>got freedom. You know, there's a lot of opportunity to

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<v Speaker 17>I don't feel trapped into doing any one thing or

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<v Speaker 17>you know, not having like a family, or being stuck

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<v Speaker 17>in a situation.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't want to be in it.

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<v Speaker 17>I definitely don't feel stuck. So I'm happy about that.

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<v Speaker 2>Good. Well, thank thank you for calling in man. I

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<v Speaker 2>appreciate all the kind words, and I hope you have

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<v Speaker 2>a good rest of the evening.

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<v Speaker 17>Thanks Gak you too, love your show.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you Mann, you have a good night.

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<v Speaker 7>Take care.

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<v Speaker 12>Never again goes on the line thanking your phone calls

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<v Speaker 12>every night.

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<v Speaker 2>Never again goes to and teaching you out