WEBVTT - “I’M NOT SURE IF MY FRIENDS LIKE ME”

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<v Speaker 1>Oh fuck. These people called me. These people who I'm

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<v Speaker 1>trying to call right now, they called they texted me

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<v Speaker 1>an hour ago. Hey, what's up man, it's the Gecko guy.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not gonna run.

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<v Speaker 1>You didn't say you didn't you didn't say anything just now.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh you're trying to fall asleep.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh I was trying to fall asleep and then the.

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<v Speaker 1>Call I did. Yeah, I woke you up.

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<v Speaker 2>That sounds yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Well you have two options. I'm gonna well, hold on.

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<v Speaker 1>What's your first of one? What's your name?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh? Yeah, my name is should say my name name.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna your name. Your name, your name to me

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<v Speaker 1>is Lewis. I'm gonna call you Lewis Lewis. You have

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<v Speaker 1>two options. You can either I mean, actually you have

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<v Speaker 1>infinite options, but I'm gonna pretend like you have two options.

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<v Speaker 1>You can either go back to sleep and hang up,

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<v Speaker 1>or you could talk to me.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh you know what, I'll yeah, I'll spend some time.

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<v Speaker 1>How close were you? You were really close to falling

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<v Speaker 1>asleep before I called you back?

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<v Speaker 2>I actually was. I didn't even know who was calling me,

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm just like, what the fuck is calling it?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, oh shit, it's the therapy gift.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you sweating right now?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh? Maybe no, not the moment, but I think I

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<v Speaker 2>was on the brink.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you do you normally have trouble falling asleep? Or

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<v Speaker 1>are you a sleepy little guy?

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<v Speaker 2>I guess it depends. There's some things or there's some

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<v Speaker 2>requirements that need to be met met before I can

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<v Speaker 2>go to sleep.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you have fucked up dreams?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh?

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<v Speaker 1>Also depend Lewis. You texted me and you said that

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<v Speaker 1>counter Strike is killing my friendships.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it really is. Here would not be wrong?

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<v Speaker 1>How so.

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<v Speaker 2>Not gonna lie. So basically throughout my whole entire life,

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<v Speaker 2>I've usually they've been videogames. I play a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>video games. Stuff. Sorry for like stuttering and stuff. I

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<v Speaker 2>kind of just woke up and now I'm telling my

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<v Speaker 2>story that I was gonna tell. I played a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of competitive video games with my friends and stuff. And

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<v Speaker 2>then as like I matured and years went by, I

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<v Speaker 2>kind of grew out of that phase and I one

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<v Speaker 2>went on to play other stuff. But now I'm in

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<v Speaker 2>college and all my friends go to different colleges and I

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<v Speaker 2>don't really get to see my friends all that often.

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<v Speaker 2>And usually if I want like any sort of opportunity

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<v Speaker 2>to like hang out with my friends, per se. I

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<v Speaker 2>play Counterstrike, and I straight up like would rather play

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<v Speaker 2>alone than play with my friends sometimes.

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<v Speaker 1>Why would you rather play alone with your friends? Or

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<v Speaker 1>your friends annoying you? Or are they just kind of

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<v Speaker 1>like getting in the way of you focusing on your game?

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<v Speaker 2>It helps me. It helps like playing alone not being

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<v Speaker 2>called a retard every six seconds, and I know that

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<v Speaker 2>usually least up of friend groups. Definitely. I'm not sure

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<v Speaker 2>if I was allowed to say that. Sorry about that?

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<v Speaker 1>What do you feel when your friends call you that?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you feel offended or endeared?

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<v Speaker 2>Explainingdeared? Sorry?

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<v Speaker 1>Indeed? Like is it is it? Is it a friendly

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<v Speaker 1>phrase to you? Or is it? Are you offended by it?

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<v Speaker 2>It's not my first time being called it, but like

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<v Speaker 2>like when just like nags at you gets a little

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<v Speaker 2>offensive sometimes, okay, because I am actually like a little neurodiversent.

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<v Speaker 2>I haven't diagnosis, but I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry to hear that. Man, are your friends? Are

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<v Speaker 1>you friends trying to be mean to you?

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know, man, Like that is what this is

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<v Speaker 2>what I've kind of been like questioning throughout the years

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<v Speaker 2>it's because like I've despite all of these like insults

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<v Speaker 2>that they throw at me and shit, that I've actually

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<v Speaker 2>been pretty tight with them. And then there's just like

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<v Speaker 2>moments to where like they say some of like the

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<v Speaker 2>most fucking like horrendous shit to me, and like I'm

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<v Speaker 2>been pretty stuck. I'm like, man, do these people like

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<v Speaker 2>actually fucking like like me? Or am I just like

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<v Speaker 2>a punching bag for him? And that's kind of like

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<v Speaker 2>They've been the big debate for me for like the

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<v Speaker 2>past years. I've been friends with these guys.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hm.

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<v Speaker 2>Hm hmm. And if if I'm actually not friends with

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<v Speaker 2>these guys, the holy shit, I have been alone for

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<v Speaker 2>a really long time and I'm friends of these guys,

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<v Speaker 2>Like holy like what do I do? You know what

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<v Speaker 2>I'm saying? Mmmm?

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<v Speaker 1>Friends with these guys for.

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<v Speaker 2>M Well, the story is my brother's friends, and uh,

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<v Speaker 2>since they really come over and meet me, I kind

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<v Speaker 2>of transition to their friends. So it's been like I'm

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<v Speaker 2>a college freshman now. I met them in like fifth grade.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you guys in a group chat together?

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<v Speaker 2>I was not anymore?

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<v Speaker 1>You left the group chat?

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<v Speaker 2>I did?

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<v Speaker 1>Did you leave the group chat?

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<v Speaker 2>Lewis I'm gonna be real with him now. Yeah, it

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<v Speaker 2>was just like a bunch of irrelevant ship on there.

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<v Speaker 2>And like I was, it was like a snapchat group chat.

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<v Speaker 1>So do you I mean, I mean, point blank do

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<v Speaker 1>you like these guys?

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<v Speaker 2>You know what part of me does?

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<v Speaker 1>Man?

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<v Speaker 2>I really do like these guys, but I enjoy hanging

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<v Speaker 2>out with them. I'm not sure if I'm taking the

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<v Speaker 2>ship too personally because sometimes I haven't known them for

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<v Speaker 2>doing that. I do take ship like way too personally

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<v Speaker 2>m hm, and I probably should. But and then there

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<v Speaker 2>are some things I'm like, dude, are you guys joking

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<v Speaker 2>or just like you guys being for real?

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<v Speaker 3>You know?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? Dude? Ah? Man, Well, I mean there's a few

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like there's a few things at play here.

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<v Speaker 1>One the most important thing that I'm thinking about that

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<v Speaker 1>to play here is that you or are what are you? Nineteen?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay? And you just and you just went to college.

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<v Speaker 2>Yep, freshman year.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay. You know, Look, your friendship's aside and whether or

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<v Speaker 1>not you want to stay friends with these guys before

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<v Speaker 1>we even talk about that, like, what's going on with

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<v Speaker 1>you in college? Are you making new friends? Are you

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<v Speaker 1>putting yourself out there.

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<v Speaker 2>Ooh, man, Well in college, I mean I'm not like,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, quoting myself off and then everybody obviously like

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<v Speaker 2>talk to other people and stuff, but I wouldn't really

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<v Speaker 2>say those like my friends. I remember talking to some

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<v Speaker 2>like I don't know who it was, but I remember saying, like,

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<v Speaker 2>I talked to these people a lot, but like, at

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<v Speaker 2>the same time, I don't really want to, like, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>open myself up to them because I don't really want

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<v Speaker 2>them to like know me and stuff. And then I

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<v Speaker 2>just get are you are you?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you referring to the counter strike people or are

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<v Speaker 1>these new people at college the new people? Okay, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>why don't you want them to know you?

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know, man Like it feels like invasive, but

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<v Speaker 2>like in that way, I won't like make any friends.

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<v Speaker 1>Is that a general Is that a fear you've always

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<v Speaker 1>had of like being afraid of people like knowing you.

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<v Speaker 2>A little bit? Like my dad, I won't like try

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<v Speaker 2>and leak anything. But I remember, like throughout life, and

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<v Speaker 2>especially like during his wedding because he just got married,

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<v Speaker 2>all these people are coming up to me. He's like, hey, man,

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<v Speaker 2>have you been man Like, I've seen your entire life

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<v Speaker 2>on Facebook, Like, that's great. I've just met you and

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<v Speaker 2>you already know more about me than I do about you.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, okay, what the fuck are you posting on Facebook?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not posting anything.

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<v Speaker 1>My dad is, Oh, okay, yeah, sure, for sure. Yeah, no,

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<v Speaker 1>I get it can be kind of annoying when some

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<v Speaker 1>light when like your second cousin comes up to you

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<v Speaker 1>or something and starts pretending like they know you, and

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<v Speaker 1>You're like, I don't know who you are.

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<v Speaker 2>It's not even my second cousin either. It's literally just

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<v Speaker 2>random people for my dad's work, like thirty year old

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<v Speaker 2>white people. Those comes and he's like, hey man, how's this.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh I've seen your entire life story. I'm like that's great.

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<v Speaker 2>And I've only recently told my dad like, please, can

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<v Speaker 2>you like ask me before you like put me on

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<v Speaker 2>your Facebook and stuff. Yeah, because he's a little infamous.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh go ahead, I was.

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<v Speaker 1>I was just gonna say about your kind of situation

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<v Speaker 1>as a whole. I haven't thought about this in a while,

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<v Speaker 1>but I feel like I used to say this on

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<v Speaker 1>the podcast a lot, Like you know, the friends that

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<v Speaker 1>you have when you're in like high school, they kind

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<v Speaker 1>of or like the early relationships you have. They kind

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<v Speaker 1>of like form your idea of what a relationship should be,

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<v Speaker 1>which can be a little it could be a little

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<v Speaker 1>dangerous because if your friends are always like, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>insulting you and fucking with you, you can, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>develop this thing where it's like, oh, in every friendship

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<v Speaker 1>that I'm ever going to have my whole life, people

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<v Speaker 1>are going to insult me and fuck with me, which

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<v Speaker 1>is not necessarily true. And I don't I'm not gonna

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<v Speaker 1>say from the information that you've given me that your

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<v Speaker 1>friends don't like you or are bad people. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't. I don't know if if I have enough

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know if we have enough information to make

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<v Speaker 1>that you know, assumption. You know, and you can you

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<v Speaker 1>can drive yourself fucking crazy making assumptions as to whether

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<v Speaker 1>or not people like you. But I don't know. But

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<v Speaker 1>then again, I'm like, you should know, right if these

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<v Speaker 1>are your boys, you you should know, Like these are

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<v Speaker 1>my boys, I should but like.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, I actually like they'll sometimes they'll meet up with them,

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<v Speaker 2>like recently because my dad got married and all I

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<v Speaker 2>met up with a few of them. Uh. One about

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<v Speaker 2>his girlfriend one came straight from university and all in it.

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<v Speaker 2>Like it wasn't like terrible having them no excuse me over,

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<v Speaker 2>but at some moments it felt like there was like

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<v Speaker 2>a stranger in my house and shit, and I'm like,

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't I don't know what to fucking do. And

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<v Speaker 2>that's sometimes what it feels like when they come over.

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<v Speaker 2>But like despite that, like I know that I kind

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<v Speaker 2>of get like something positive about it because we're not

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<v Speaker 2>playing like video games together and shit, and like we're

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<v Speaker 2>not they're not like, uh treating everything like their whole

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<v Speaker 2>fucking life on the line.

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<v Speaker 4>Are are you?

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<v Speaker 1>Would you consider yourself an introverted guy?

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<v Speaker 4>Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>Definitely, not like very extroverted. But I'm not like too introverted,

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<v Speaker 2>so I'd say I'm definitely on the introverted spectrip side.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, yeah, h who's your do you have? Of

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<v Speaker 1>all the of the how many people are in this group?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, the ones that I usually see, it's like, uh,

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<v Speaker 2>maybe like two three, maybe like four people, I guess,

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<v Speaker 2>And this.

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<v Speaker 1>Is the counter strike people or the college people.

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<v Speaker 2>Count of striped people. I don't really how many like

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<v Speaker 2>college people. I'm very tight with you. I just have

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<v Speaker 2>people I know and people that help me and my

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<v Speaker 2>college stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hm hm hmm.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you have like a bet do you have a

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<v Speaker 1>best friend out of this gang? Like someone you're like,

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<v Speaker 1>all right, well that guy that's mine, that's my boy.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, man, uh dude. He moved a while ago and

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<v Speaker 2>like around mentioned was video games and stuff, and I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know how the fuck we are still friends and

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<v Speaker 2>but like I know, I'm really tight with this guy.

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<v Speaker 2>But the thing is that I haven't heard from him.

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<v Speaker 2>Well I've only heard from him like slightly, but he's

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<v Speaker 2>like really set up with college and shit, and I understand,

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<v Speaker 2>so he doesn't really like hang out with me that

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<v Speaker 2>much anymore, which I understand it's not. I don't think

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<v Speaker 2>it's anything personal with Yeah, I really hope not. But

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<v Speaker 2>from what I've seen, you just like set up with

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<v Speaker 2>college and like life and shit.

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<v Speaker 1>When you said, god, I really hope not. I just

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<v Speaker 1>I just want you to know, like you, I don't,

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<v Speaker 1>don't drive yourself crazy thinking about whether or not people

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<v Speaker 1>like you. You know, you can really you can really

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<v Speaker 1>make yourself unhappy doing that.

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<v Speaker 2>I think, Yeah, my momoulout. Like remember one time in

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<v Speaker 2>my life, my mom was calling me a crazy like

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<v Speaker 2>people pleaser, and he was like, dude, if you continue

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<v Speaker 2>to like have this people please mentality, you will go

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<v Speaker 2>fucking crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>Right of course. Yeah, one hundred per Let me ask

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<v Speaker 1>you that are do you so back? I mean back

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<v Speaker 1>to away from we're kind of going back and forth here,

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<v Speaker 1>but away from the counter strike guys and into college.

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<v Speaker 1>You want you want to make friends.

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<v Speaker 2>Obviously, yeah, I do, But like Buck man, it's like

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<v Speaker 2>scary the college I go. I'm not going to like

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<v Speaker 2>drop any like word college and stuff and trying to

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<v Speaker 2>like avoid that. It's come a few close a few times.

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<v Speaker 2>The type of college I go too, it's not like

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<v Speaker 2>usually my age group. Obviously you'll find that age group there,

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<v Speaker 2>but like it varies, like there's like my age group

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<v Speaker 2>that jumps up to like people in their like fucking

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<v Speaker 2>thirties or forties.

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<v Speaker 1>M that's funny when I was in college. When I

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<v Speaker 1>was in college, I had some friends in their thirties

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<v Speaker 1>and forties because I was in the comedy scene, and

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<v Speaker 1>that was like, you know, it was like eighteen year

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<v Speaker 1>olds hanging out with like forty five year old twice

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<v Speaker 1>divorced guys doing doing their bits and stuff. It's fun. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you know you're actually now talking to you. I'm thinking

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<v Speaker 1>about when I was You're you said you're freshmen freshman, yes,

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<v Speaker 1>or I'm thinking about when I was a freshman. I

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<v Speaker 1>struggled to make friends a lot. Like the freshman year

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<v Speaker 1>of college was really fucking hellish, dude, because I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>have any friends. And it wasn't until sophomore year that

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<v Speaker 1>I started getting really into comedy and doing that stuff

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<v Speaker 1>that I started to make friends. And I learned that

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<v Speaker 1>the best way to make friends and form a community

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<v Speaker 1>around you. And I don't know if this is your speed.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, you know what you're game for, but

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<v Speaker 1>the best way to do it is to find a

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<v Speaker 1>community of find a community of people that already exists,

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<v Speaker 1>and find the way to add value to that community.

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<v Speaker 1>Or if that community of people doesn't exist, you create it.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, So like, could you theoretically go on the

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<v Speaker 1>you know, let's say you attend toilet Paper University. Could

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<v Speaker 1>you go on the over the Paper University class of

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<v Speaker 1>twenty twenty eight Facebook page. This is what I did,

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<v Speaker 1>And you post like, Hey, I'm doing a land counter

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<v Speaker 1>strike night at the student Center. You know, come on through.

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<v Speaker 1>There'll be enough there'll be you know, at least five

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<v Speaker 1>other dudes to come through and play games. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>like if you really, if you really want to be like,

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<v Speaker 1>fuck it, I'm putting myself out there. I'm gonna like

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<v Speaker 1>be entrepreneurial about this and and really do something you

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<v Speaker 1>could Uh, you can give that a go. I know

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<v Speaker 1>it's hard. I know it's scary to put yourself out

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<v Speaker 1>there like that, but yeah, you know, I mean that's

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<v Speaker 1>on a personal level, that's that's what worked for me.

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<v Speaker 2>M yeah, I mean there are some like groups like

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<v Speaker 2>like especially I'm I don't know video games on my

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<v Speaker 2>whole spield, but they've kind of been definitely a big

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<v Speaker 2>part of my life for ever. Like, but I'm not

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<v Speaker 2>like the whole esports things, Like I said, I don't

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<v Speaker 2>I don't don't like really competitive games anymore.

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<v Speaker 1>And hmm, it doesn't don't. It didn't have to be

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<v Speaker 1>video It didn't have to be you know, the the

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<v Speaker 1>main thing I know about you is video games. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>sure you have other like things that you're interested in.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, but I mean, like, I mean, fuck it,

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<v Speaker 1>like what.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh what you want me to name stuff?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 4>Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>I trained in boxing and I do a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>that stuff. I fuck with that heavy. Oh like comment

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<v Speaker 2>sports in general. I really love dude.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, why didn't you tell me that at the

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<v Speaker 1>beginning you got to do a fight club?

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<v Speaker 2>It's just big like this. My friend he started something

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<v Speaker 2>similar to that at his own university, fight over stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>By the way, when it comes I feel like also

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<v Speaker 1>when it comes to like guys like nothing fuck and

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<v Speaker 1>it brings two people. Nothing brings two guys closer together

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<v Speaker 1>than beating the fucking shit out of each other, because afterwards,

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<v Speaker 1>they really really there's some there's some chemical released in

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<v Speaker 1>the brain after two guys beat the ship out of

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<v Speaker 1>each other that makes them just want to, you know, kiss.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I actually get what you're saying.

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<v Speaker 5>Man.

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<v Speaker 2>I remember getting knocked out and stuff. But like, and

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<v Speaker 2>the guy who knocked me out, he was like, I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know, man. He came up to me and he

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<v Speaker 2>was like, damn, you're crying because he felt really bad,

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<v Speaker 2>and he's saying like, there's nothing personal against you, man,

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<v Speaker 2>you fight really well. I like you and all that stuff,

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<v Speaker 2>and like all the people that are spar with men,

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<v Speaker 2>it's always just like in that moment and then once

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<v Speaker 2>you're out of it, like like you're friends and ship.

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<v Speaker 1>See, that's nothing you can do, is you can you

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<v Speaker 1>can let a bunch of people beat the shit out

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<v Speaker 1>of you and then they'll feel sorry for you and

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<v Speaker 1>be your friend.

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<v Speaker 2>Man, they can't really do that without any form of

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<v Speaker 2>self defense. But you know what, I kind of that's

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<v Speaker 2>definitely a good point.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, look man, all that all that's to say,

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<v Speaker 1>and this is this is from you know, a deep

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<v Speaker 1>sense of personal experience with with this whole thing. Is

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<v Speaker 1>that if if you have the drive to like put

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<v Speaker 1>yourself out there and like create something that that puts

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<v Speaker 1>you around other people, then you know it's it's a lock.

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<v Speaker 1>So I mean, that's just what I that's just something something,

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<v Speaker 1>you know. I mean, you don't have to go out

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<v Speaker 1>and you know, form a thing immediately. You can if

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<v Speaker 1>you want to, you should, but uh, you know, just

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<v Speaker 1>something something something I would chew on as you as

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<v Speaker 1>you fall asleep three hours later because I've interrupted your

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<v Speaker 1>rim cycle.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh god, I really don't hope it's three hours later.

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<v Speaker 2>But I think I can knock myself out pretty fast.

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<v Speaker 1>What's your name again? Lewis Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>It's not lewis Uh, but it's no go ahead, right,

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<v Speaker 2>what is I think Lewis is a good name for me.

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<v Speaker 2>I like it.

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<v Speaker 1>H Lewis Man, I'm glad I got to talk to you.

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<v Speaker 1>I like talking about this subject because again, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>it's it's something I've I've dealt with. Is there anything

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<v Speaker 1>in particular you want to say to the people of

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<v Speaker 1>the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 2>Wow? I remember hearing you say to this other people.

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't know what i'd say. Uh, forgive people, because

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<v Speaker 2>if you don't, then it's going to be a huge

0:19:33.320 --> 0:19:35.800
<v Speaker 2>waste of time in the past just thinking I'm like, well,

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<v Speaker 2>fuck that guy, when you could have just been hanging

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<v Speaker 2>out this whole time. I guess.

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<v Speaker 1>Have beautiful, sweet dreams, Louis.

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<v Speaker 2>All right, thanks, Kak, I appreciate it, man for calling me.

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<v Speaker 1>Take care man, thanks for talking to me instead of sleeping. Bye.

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<v Speaker 2>All right, let's see you.

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<v Speaker 1>I had a dream the other night that I went

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<v Speaker 1>with optim Prime to his house where he was roommates

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<v Speaker 1>with John Lovetts and they were both really religious. I

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<v Speaker 1>said that on the podcast before, but I thought I

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<v Speaker 1>would say that again. Hello, Hey, what's up? Man?

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<v Speaker 2>Is it.

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<v Speaker 1>Is this Bryce?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah? Is this the gek?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? What's that?

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<v Speaker 3>Man?

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<v Speaker 5>How's it going, gek ah.

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<v Speaker 1>Actually it's going pretty good. I'm feeling I'm feeling in

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<v Speaker 1>the zone. Baby, that's good.

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<v Speaker 2>Man.

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<v Speaker 5>So I stumbled across your content maybe like a month ago,

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<v Speaker 5>and I have something that I want to tell your

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<v Speaker 5>viewers that I've never told anybody else. Okay, So, and

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<v Speaker 5>I don't know, I've never came to anybody with this problem.

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<v Speaker 5>But the only person who knows is my girlfriend. And

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<v Speaker 5>sometimes spicy food and sour food is a little too

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<v Speaker 5>hot for me. So I'll have her pre chew it

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<v Speaker 5>and kind of baby bird it into my mouth. And

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<v Speaker 5>is that weird? I love hot food and I love

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<v Speaker 5>spicy food, but all right, sour food and hot food,

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<v Speaker 5>but sometimes, dude, it just fucks me up.

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<v Speaker 1>So you'll have your girlfriend chew it and spit it

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<v Speaker 1>into your mouth just a.

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<v Speaker 5>Little bit, not a lot, just enough to like take

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<v Speaker 5>the coating off of it. And the thing is, dude,

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<v Speaker 5>I'm a huge stone or too. So it's like you

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<v Speaker 5>should like spicy food and sour food and candy, but

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<v Speaker 5>it's rough, mane. And I do like it. I like

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<v Speaker 5>it a lot, but it just fucks me up. Makes

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<v Speaker 5>my face hurt real bad, and hot food just destroys

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<v Speaker 5>my stomach if I don't have her do it, and

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<v Speaker 5>I could rent it all underwater, right, but I feel

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<v Speaker 5>like that's gross putting tap water on. At least her

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<v Speaker 5>mouth has the same thing as my mouth.

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<v Speaker 1>How often is she doing this for you?

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<v Speaker 5>Probably at least once a week. We've been Togerett for

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<v Speaker 5>six years. Probably once a week for the past three years.

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<v Speaker 5>I know, listen, gack. I know it's a lot to

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<v Speaker 5>take in.

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<v Speaker 1>I know, has she has she has she told anyone

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<v Speaker 1>about it?

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<v Speaker 5>No, of course not no, No, she's a great woman.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, why are you so? Why are you so, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>embarrassed about this?

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<v Speaker 5>Well? Have you ever heard of anybody else doing it?

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<v Speaker 1>Well? I you know, Look, do you do you do

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<v Speaker 1>you make out with your girlfriends?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah? Absolutely?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you put your tongue in her mouth?

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<v Speaker 5>Yes? Absolutely?

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<v Speaker 1>Yet yet do you do you lick all around her

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<v Speaker 1>mouth with your tongue?

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<v Speaker 5>I mean I do more than that, but yeah, so, I.

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<v Speaker 1>Mean, look, theoretically, you're licking up all the same stuff

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<v Speaker 1>that you would be eating with her chewed food. So

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<v Speaker 1>is it gross on paper?

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<v Speaker 4>Yes?

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<v Speaker 1>But when you really think about it, you know you're

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<v Speaker 1>not doing anything new.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm so happy that you see this the same way

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<v Speaker 5>I do.

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<v Speaker 2>Get mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you ever do you ever chew food for her?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh?

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<v Speaker 3>No, she doesn't.

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<v Speaker 5>She doesn't really have that problem. That's why she's kind

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<v Speaker 5>of And that's the thing. It was kind of her

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<v Speaker 5>idea to start with, and I was kind of stand

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<v Speaker 5>offish at first, and she's like, let's just try it,

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<v Speaker 5>and so I tried it and it ended up being

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<v Speaker 5>like the key to it. Do you think try the water?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you think?

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<v Speaker 5>She?

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<v Speaker 4>And all that?

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<v Speaker 5>And I just don't like it?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you? Is this something you were her like get

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<v Speaker 1>off to.

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<v Speaker 5>No, No, it's nothing like that. It's just it's just

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<v Speaker 5>she loves me very much, you know what I mean?

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<v Speaker 1>M hmm?

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<v Speaker 5>Is that too much love?

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<v Speaker 1>Does she spit it directly into your mouth?

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<v Speaker 5>I don't like. I don't want her sit on my hands,

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<v Speaker 5>you know what I mean?

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<v Speaker 1>So I mean kind of, well, you don't want her

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<v Speaker 1>to spit on your hands?

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<v Speaker 5>Well, that's the thing about it is, I don't. It's well,

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<v Speaker 5>I mean, I don't want to talk about anything sexual

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<v Speaker 5>or anything like that, but I don't want her to

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<v Speaker 5>regurgitate the food into my hands. You know what? I mean,

0:24:54.359 --> 0:24:56.520
<v Speaker 5>I rareed it just go straight to where my.

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<v Speaker 2>Spit is is.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you with your girlfriend right now? I am cant

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<v Speaker 1>talk to her?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah you can't. Kaylee's pretty cool.

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<v Speaker 2>Here you go get.

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hello, Hey, what's up? Kayley?

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<v Speaker 5>What's up?

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<v Speaker 1>Tell me about baby birding food into your boyfriend's mouth.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, I was just at first it was coming

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<v Speaker 4>into me a joke. I was like, Hey, you want

0:25:31.200 --> 0:25:32.359
<v Speaker 4>me to chew it up and put it in your

0:25:32.400 --> 0:25:33.359
<v Speaker 4>mouth for you?

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<v Speaker 2>You know what I mean?

0:25:34.560 --> 0:25:37.200
<v Speaker 4>And then he was like, do you think it works?

0:25:38.359 --> 0:25:39.880
<v Speaker 2>And I was like.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, I guess I can give it a shot.

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<v Speaker 4>And then I guess it just became like a thing

0:25:47.400 --> 0:25:48.879
<v Speaker 4>that regularly happened to.

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<v Speaker 5>Became an other joke after after a while.

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<v Speaker 1>Huh. Okay, So do you only do it with spicy

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<v Speaker 1>food or do you do it with any other kind

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<v Speaker 1>of food?

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, anything spicy or sour.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you like doing it or do you kind of

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<v Speaker 1>dread doing it?

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<v Speaker 4>I mean it's not that I dread doing it, but

0:26:09.800 --> 0:26:12.760
<v Speaker 4>I mean I mean sometimes do you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm like, when I'm sleeping or something, he'll wake me up,

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<v Speaker 4>you know what I mean? To like snack and like that.

0:26:18.240 --> 0:26:20.960
<v Speaker 4>Shit gets a little annoying, you know what I mean,

0:26:21.080 --> 0:26:22.160
<v Speaker 4>So I get a little.

0:26:24.560 --> 0:26:26.440
<v Speaker 1>He'll wake you up in the middle of the night

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<v Speaker 1>to chew his food for him.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, not necessarily in the middle of the night,

0:26:30.800 --> 0:26:33.560
<v Speaker 4>but it's like I'm sleeping in that morning, you know

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<v Speaker 4>what I mean, and he's up a little bit earlier

0:26:35.800 --> 0:26:39.640
<v Speaker 4>and he's eaten and it happens to be spicy or sour. Yeah,

0:26:39.680 --> 0:26:41.840
<v Speaker 4>there's good times where he's woken me up, like, hey, then,

0:26:42.040 --> 0:26:44.280
<v Speaker 4>will you wake up and help me out o quick?

0:26:46.080 --> 0:26:47.439
<v Speaker 1>And how do you feel when he does that?

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<v Speaker 4>I mean those times, it does get a little irritating,

0:26:52.880 --> 0:26:54.840
<v Speaker 4>But I mean that's I guess it's not any more

0:26:54.880 --> 0:26:58.800
<v Speaker 4>irritating as him asking me to get him a bull

0:26:58.880 --> 0:27:01.360
<v Speaker 4>of cereal or something when he's too lazy to get up.

0:27:03.320 --> 0:27:04.760
<v Speaker 4>I guess I just kind of looked at it as

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<v Speaker 4>one of the downfalls of a committed relationship.

0:27:07.560 --> 0:27:09.520
<v Speaker 5>I can be a lot worse. You've had a lot

0:27:09.640 --> 0:27:12.040
<v Speaker 5>worse relationships.

0:27:12.240 --> 0:27:12.520
<v Speaker 2>Point.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know if I would call that a good point.

0:27:18.400 --> 0:27:25.360
<v Speaker 1>But do you do you also not tell anyone.

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<v Speaker 4>About this, No, I honestly, I'm a little afraid of judgment.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting. Would you be embarrassed if anyone found out?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah? Probably do you?

0:27:48.080 --> 0:27:48.280
<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you ever chew food and spit it into his mouth?

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<v Speaker 3>No?

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<v Speaker 1>Is this like a kink thing? Are you guys?

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<v Speaker 2>At all?

0:28:02.640 --> 0:28:02.960
<v Speaker 3>No?

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<v Speaker 4>At least not for me.

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<v Speaker 1>How often do you do it?

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<v Speaker 4>I mean it's not like an everyday thing, but anytime,

0:28:13.680 --> 0:28:16.480
<v Speaker 4>like we're at the gas station and I mean we're

0:28:16.520 --> 0:28:18.440
<v Speaker 4>looking for snacks and he might be in the mood

0:28:18.520 --> 0:28:21.040
<v Speaker 4>for like a bag of talkies or like some power

0:28:21.119 --> 0:28:22.679
<v Speaker 4>skittles or something like that.

0:28:26.920 --> 0:28:28.920
<v Speaker 1>You chew the entire bag of sower Skittles.

0:28:28.920 --> 0:28:33.640
<v Speaker 4>And I mean not the entire bag, but I mean,

0:28:33.680 --> 0:28:37.919
<v Speaker 4>however much he's in the mood for eating in that time. Yeah?

0:28:38.000 --> 0:28:41.360
<v Speaker 1>Does this make you guys feel closer together?

0:28:43.240 --> 0:28:45.120
<v Speaker 5>Absolutely?

0:28:45.480 --> 0:28:47.040
<v Speaker 1>I was asking her.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm so sorry, Dick, that co dependent.

0:28:51.600 --> 0:28:54.040
<v Speaker 4>I mean, yeah, how how closer can you?

0:28:54.120 --> 0:28:54.280
<v Speaker 1>Good?

0:28:54.360 --> 0:28:56.480
<v Speaker 5>I guess I.

0:28:56.480 --> 0:28:58.400
<v Speaker 4>Guess we are closer than most couples out there?

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<v Speaker 1>All right, is this something you guys would like to

0:29:09.240 --> 0:29:09.920
<v Speaker 1>continue doing?

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, I guess if there was a way around it,

0:29:15.920 --> 0:29:18.920
<v Speaker 4>it would be. It's not like I would.

0:29:18.880 --> 0:29:22.080
<v Speaker 5>Love to do it to do.

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<v Speaker 1>How's everything going in relationship? Otherwise?

0:29:37.360 --> 0:29:37.840
<v Speaker 2>I mean.

0:29:39.640 --> 0:29:40.640
<v Speaker 5>Pretty good.

0:29:41.120 --> 0:29:47.280
<v Speaker 4>We're recovering sentinel addicts. So the last year has been

0:29:47.400 --> 0:29:52.280
<v Speaker 4>a whole new path for us after getting sober and clean,

0:29:52.440 --> 0:29:54.920
<v Speaker 4>because the first four and a half years of our

0:29:54.960 --> 0:29:59.320
<v Speaker 4>relationship we were high and using together. So it's been

0:29:59.400 --> 0:30:02.400
<v Speaker 4>a whole new ball game the past year just figuring

0:30:02.440 --> 0:30:04.200
<v Speaker 4>out what our relationship is sober.

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<v Speaker 1>Mmm, how long have you guys been together?

0:30:07.120 --> 0:30:07.200
<v Speaker 2>For?

0:30:09.240 --> 0:30:09.440
<v Speaker 5>Six?

0:30:09.520 --> 0:30:10.760
<v Speaker 4>Here's this Christmas Eve?

0:30:11.760 --> 0:30:16.760
<v Speaker 1>Nice? And did you? Did you meet through fetanyl and

0:30:16.840 --> 0:30:17.720
<v Speaker 1>drugs and stuff?

0:30:20.480 --> 0:30:25.560
<v Speaker 4>He was in drugs before he met me. I was

0:30:25.680 --> 0:30:28.480
<v Speaker 4>kind of just starting to branch out. I smoked weed

0:30:28.520 --> 0:30:30.120
<v Speaker 4>at a young age that I was just kind of

0:30:30.400 --> 0:30:33.280
<v Speaker 4>starting to branch out into pain pills and things like that.

0:30:33.320 --> 0:30:36.560
<v Speaker 4>And we met through uh, one of his family members

0:30:36.600 --> 0:30:39.560
<v Speaker 4>and not really met through drugs but sort of.

0:30:40.560 --> 0:30:44.960
<v Speaker 1>And you guys were getting high together for four years? Yeah,

0:30:44.960 --> 0:30:50.200
<v Speaker 1>what was the the the impetus or driving force for

0:30:50.320 --> 0:30:50.960
<v Speaker 1>getting sober?

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<v Speaker 4>Well, we got arrested and I had never been in any.

0:30:58.400 --> 0:30:59.600
<v Speaker 2>Legal trouble before.

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<v Speaker 4>And while I was in jail that night, our apartment

0:31:04.640 --> 0:31:08.680
<v Speaker 4>burnt to the ground. It had nothing to do with us.

0:31:08.800 --> 0:31:12.479
<v Speaker 4>They said it was a cigarette butt was thrown out

0:31:13.040 --> 0:31:14.600
<v Speaker 4>and it got up into the lighting of the house

0:31:14.600 --> 0:31:16.280
<v Speaker 4>and caught the house on fire. So when I got

0:31:16.320 --> 0:31:19.000
<v Speaker 4>out to absolutely nothing and no place to live in

0:31:19.040 --> 0:31:22.440
<v Speaker 4>no house, it kind of urged me to get my

0:31:22.520 --> 0:31:25.640
<v Speaker 4>life together. But Bryce was still in jail at the time,

0:31:25.720 --> 0:31:27.960
<v Speaker 4>so instead of getting my life together, I kind of

0:31:28.000 --> 0:31:30.280
<v Speaker 4>lost my shit for a bit. And he got out

0:31:30.320 --> 0:31:31.600
<v Speaker 4>of jail and it was like, we got to get

0:31:31.600 --> 0:31:34.040
<v Speaker 4>our shit together. So we decided to get sober.

0:31:35.640 --> 0:31:36.280
<v Speaker 1>Was it difficult?

0:31:37.920 --> 0:31:38.240
<v Speaker 2>It was.

0:31:39.400 --> 0:31:43.400
<v Speaker 4>It was definitely a leap of staate. We moved from

0:31:43.480 --> 0:31:46.320
<v Speaker 4>our hometown in Indiana all the way across the country

0:31:46.360 --> 0:31:48.960
<v Speaker 4>to California to go to Detox and get sober.

0:31:51.000 --> 0:31:51.920
<v Speaker 1>Are you glad you did it?

0:31:53.320 --> 0:31:55.480
<v Speaker 4>I am very glad.

0:31:55.200 --> 0:31:58.040
<v Speaker 5>We did it. What so many people died.

0:31:59.120 --> 0:32:02.840
<v Speaker 4>I had friends, family dying in my hometown and my

0:32:03.280 --> 0:32:06.320
<v Speaker 4>life is just falling apart. And I finally decided to

0:32:06.320 --> 0:32:09.040
<v Speaker 4>get sober, and in a couple of months we're actually

0:32:09.040 --> 0:32:12.880
<v Speaker 4>being made house manager. So things are actually looking up.

0:32:14.680 --> 0:32:17.920
<v Speaker 1>You know, in light of everything you got, In light

0:32:17.960 --> 0:32:21.560
<v Speaker 1>of everything you guys are telling me, Baby birding spicy

0:32:21.600 --> 0:32:24.480
<v Speaker 1>food into this guy's mouth doesn't seem all that bad.

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<v Speaker 5>I guess you're right.

0:32:31.600 --> 0:32:34.520
<v Speaker 1>What do you guys, do help you. Guys have been

0:32:34.520 --> 0:32:35.280
<v Speaker 1>clean for two years.

0:32:36.920 --> 0:32:38.520
<v Speaker 4>We've been clean for almost a year now.

0:32:39.320 --> 0:32:43.440
<v Speaker 1>Cool. How's everything going in your individual lives?

0:32:44.760 --> 0:32:45.320
<v Speaker 2>Pretty well?

0:32:45.880 --> 0:32:46.440
<v Speaker 3>Pretty well.

0:32:46.560 --> 0:32:50.920
<v Speaker 4>I've been coming out of my show a lot more lately.

0:32:51.040 --> 0:32:55.200
<v Speaker 4>I making friends and I'm trying to get him out

0:32:55.200 --> 0:32:56.959
<v Speaker 4>of the show and starting to make friends.

0:32:57.000 --> 0:33:00.880
<v Speaker 5>But a little bit harder in my into boot. I

0:33:00.920 --> 0:33:03.840
<v Speaker 5>feel like I find myself sitting at home all day

0:33:04.440 --> 0:33:08.400
<v Speaker 5>watching YouTube videos of things that I should be doing

0:33:08.840 --> 0:33:11.840
<v Speaker 5>but I don't do, And I constantly find myself in

0:33:11.880 --> 0:33:14.240
<v Speaker 5>a fit of break for the smallest things.

0:33:15.080 --> 0:33:15.760
<v Speaker 1>Okay, like what.

0:33:17.880 --> 0:33:23.040
<v Speaker 5>Like if you slightly annoy me, my overreaction will be dramatic.

0:33:23.920 --> 0:33:28.120
<v Speaker 5>If something goes wrong in the day, my overreaction could

0:33:28.120 --> 0:33:33.959
<v Speaker 5>be dramatic. It's it's weird. I I've grown up on

0:33:34.120 --> 0:33:37.720
<v Speaker 5>drugs my whole entire life, so coming off them as

0:33:37.720 --> 0:33:40.640
<v Speaker 5>a young I'm twenty three, so coming off them as

0:33:40.680 --> 0:33:44.720
<v Speaker 5>a young adult. I don't know how to deal with emotion.

0:33:48.120 --> 0:33:50.120
<v Speaker 1>When you say you're watching YouTube videos of things you

0:33:50.160 --> 0:33:52.840
<v Speaker 1>should do. What are these YouTube videos?

0:33:54.040 --> 0:33:54.280
<v Speaker 4>You know?

0:33:54.720 --> 0:34:00.600
<v Speaker 5>Like inspirational videos, just things that you that you can

0:34:00.880 --> 0:34:03.720
<v Speaker 5>change your life easily. Whether it's an whether it's an

0:34:03.720 --> 0:34:08.400
<v Speaker 5>Andrew Tate inspirational video or a Sam Hide inspirational video.

0:34:08.920 --> 0:34:11.080
<v Speaker 5>They call out the things that I'm doing that I

0:34:11.080 --> 0:34:13.919
<v Speaker 5>shouldn't beat, but I just continue to do.

0:34:14.560 --> 0:34:15.680
<v Speaker 1>Bryce, Are you fucking with me?

0:34:17.400 --> 0:34:19.000
<v Speaker 5>Absolutely not? What do you need.

0:34:22.120 --> 0:34:25.240
<v Speaker 1>Dude? What kind of Sam Hide inspirational videos are you watching?

0:34:26.440 --> 0:34:30.160
<v Speaker 5>Okay? So like the one where he says don't smoke weed,

0:34:30.280 --> 0:34:32.359
<v Speaker 5>weeds for losers? You know what I mean? But I

0:34:32.400 --> 0:34:35.000
<v Speaker 5>love weed and it's hard not to smoke weed. And

0:34:35.080 --> 0:34:37.719
<v Speaker 5>some people don't like Sam Hide. I understand that. I

0:34:37.800 --> 0:34:38.560
<v Speaker 5>just want them to fight.

0:34:38.600 --> 0:34:49.719
<v Speaker 1>I does Honestly, what do you bryce? What do you like?

0:34:50.280 --> 0:34:52.640
<v Speaker 1>What do you want to do? What are you trying

0:34:52.640 --> 0:34:53.799
<v Speaker 1>to be inspired to do?

0:34:58.239 --> 0:35:03.000
<v Speaker 5>Honestly, it'd be my ultimate dream would be a successful

0:35:03.080 --> 0:35:06.160
<v Speaker 5>YouTube channel with Kaylee me and her kind of want

0:35:06.239 --> 0:35:09.560
<v Speaker 5>to be nomads and live band life and venture out.

0:35:10.480 --> 0:35:12.840
<v Speaker 5>You know what I mean. But I mean, I'll be

0:35:12.880 --> 0:35:15.440
<v Speaker 5>honest with you. Gek. I have something holding me back

0:35:15.560 --> 0:35:19.640
<v Speaker 5>and it's a warrant in my home state. And it's

0:35:19.760 --> 0:35:23.839
<v Speaker 5>like I got that warrant because I came out here

0:35:23.840 --> 0:35:26.799
<v Speaker 5>to California to get sober, and I was supposed to

0:35:26.840 --> 0:35:28.759
<v Speaker 5>go back but I knew if I went back, I

0:35:28.760 --> 0:35:32.840
<v Speaker 5>would just continue getting high and end up in prison.

0:35:32.920 --> 0:35:37.160
<v Speaker 5>So I stayed in California, so if I ever get

0:35:37.200 --> 0:35:40.200
<v Speaker 5>picked up, there's always that hanging over.

0:35:40.120 --> 0:35:51.000
<v Speaker 1>My What about Kaylee? You said your name was yeah here, Yeah,

0:35:51.080 --> 0:35:54.040
<v Speaker 1>what's what's what's your dream, Caylee? Do you want to

0:35:54.080 --> 0:35:57.720
<v Speaker 1>do all that travel and make videos and whatnot?

0:35:59.040 --> 0:35:59.440
<v Speaker 2>See?

0:36:00.480 --> 0:36:04.440
<v Speaker 4>My dream is more of the travel and no mad life.

0:36:04.480 --> 0:36:08.080
<v Speaker 4>And his thing is more of the making videos than YouTube.

0:36:08.600 --> 0:36:10.520
<v Speaker 4>And there's all these people out there are you know,

0:36:10.680 --> 0:36:15.160
<v Speaker 4>doing it together? So we're already in a relationship, So

0:36:15.160 --> 0:36:18.440
<v Speaker 4>why not mix our dreams and make it a reality?

0:36:20.160 --> 0:36:26.600
<v Speaker 1>Okay, I'm all right, I'll bite Bryce. What what kind

0:36:26.640 --> 0:36:28.400
<v Speaker 1>of Andrew tape videos are you watching?

0:36:30.200 --> 0:36:30.279
<v Speaker 3>So?

0:36:31.040 --> 0:36:34.480
<v Speaker 5>Man? I wish I could find the user. It's they're

0:36:34.520 --> 0:36:37.480
<v Speaker 5>always very well edited and it's just his very good

0:36:37.560 --> 0:36:42.680
<v Speaker 5>bulletin points, just those where's my remote? I wish I

0:36:42.760 --> 0:36:44.520
<v Speaker 5>knew that YouTuber's name right now?

0:36:47.480 --> 0:36:50.560
<v Speaker 1>Okay, yeah, go ahead.

0:36:51.120 --> 0:36:54.319
<v Speaker 5>I was just now recently watching the one where his

0:36:54.480 --> 0:36:58.120
<v Speaker 5>workout routine in prison. He said that the guards were

0:36:58.120 --> 0:37:00.719
<v Speaker 5>trying to break his spirit, so he did push ups

0:37:00.800 --> 0:37:04.200
<v Speaker 5>after them. I wish that I could have that drive.

0:37:04.040 --> 0:37:06.320
<v Speaker 1>He said, He said, he did push ups at.

0:37:06.160 --> 0:37:10.480
<v Speaker 5>Them, at them, and I know how fucking alpha of you.

0:37:10.640 --> 0:37:16.040
<v Speaker 5>But it's just that type of drive that sits in

0:37:16.120 --> 0:37:18.400
<v Speaker 5>my body that I wish I could fled up from the.

0:37:18.520 --> 0:37:27.000
<v Speaker 1>Son drive drive for what, uh, just.

0:37:26.960 --> 0:37:29.239
<v Speaker 5>To just to be a better person. Now that I've

0:37:29.280 --> 0:37:32.600
<v Speaker 5>gotten sober, I don't I don't want to just sit

0:37:32.719 --> 0:37:35.799
<v Speaker 5>by and waste my years. I feel like life is

0:37:35.960 --> 0:37:39.680
<v Speaker 5>very important to figure out something that you love to

0:37:39.800 --> 0:37:41.279
<v Speaker 5>do and do that.

0:37:42.560 --> 0:37:45.920
<v Speaker 1>What is is what does being a better person look

0:37:46.040 --> 0:37:46.360
<v Speaker 1>like to you?

0:37:49.000 --> 0:37:52.040
<v Speaker 5>A better boyfriend? Always? I always feel like I can

0:37:52.080 --> 0:37:57.319
<v Speaker 5>improve there, a better role model to people, a better son.

0:37:57.960 --> 0:38:00.279
<v Speaker 5>I did my mom dirty and all kinds of ways

0:38:01.600 --> 0:38:06.520
<v Speaker 5>and some some a laugh. I like to make people laugh.

0:38:07.440 --> 0:38:15.120
<v Speaker 1>Kay hmm, what do you? What do you both do

0:38:15.200 --> 0:38:15.720
<v Speaker 1>for work?

0:38:16.080 --> 0:38:19.279
<v Speaker 5>So right now, since we have been recovering and I'm

0:38:19.320 --> 0:38:23.000
<v Speaker 5>transferring states, I have been working on getting my birth

0:38:23.080 --> 0:38:25.200
<v Speaker 5>certificate and everything like that so I can get a

0:38:25.280 --> 0:38:28.360
<v Speaker 5>job here. But I'm about to get this house manager

0:38:28.440 --> 0:38:31.400
<v Speaker 5>job in my program, and that's awesome. That will keep

0:38:31.440 --> 0:38:33.359
<v Speaker 5>me sober for a long time and I can help

0:38:33.400 --> 0:38:35.960
<v Speaker 5>a lot of people that way. But I don't know

0:38:36.080 --> 0:38:39.000
<v Speaker 5>if I want to settle and do that my whole life.

0:38:40.920 --> 0:38:41.840
<v Speaker 1>What about you? Kayley?

0:38:43.880 --> 0:38:51.240
<v Speaker 5>Hold on, let me get her see I look at classership.

0:38:52.280 --> 0:38:54.600
<v Speaker 1>Oh I was asking, uh watch, I kind of forget

0:38:54.600 --> 0:38:59.799
<v Speaker 1>what the question was. I was asking kind of like what. Well,

0:38:59.840 --> 0:39:02.879
<v Speaker 1>I I'm kind of just trying to get a hold of,

0:39:02.920 --> 0:39:05.640
<v Speaker 1>like what your guys is. Oh, well, I think I

0:39:05.680 --> 0:39:08.560
<v Speaker 1>asked you what I asked Bryce. What being a better

0:39:08.560 --> 0:39:10.759
<v Speaker 1>person looks like? So I'll ask the question to you.

0:39:12.920 --> 0:39:17.840
<v Speaker 4>Being a better person for me looks like right now,

0:39:20.200 --> 0:39:24.879
<v Speaker 4>I guess it for me looks like becoming more motivated

0:39:25.280 --> 0:39:30.440
<v Speaker 4>in my life because I have all of these things

0:39:30.480 --> 0:39:33.319
<v Speaker 4>and it's not like big life changing things that I

0:39:33.360 --> 0:39:35.440
<v Speaker 4>want to do. But let it say, for example, like

0:39:36.000 --> 0:39:38.120
<v Speaker 4>I want to clean my room or do my makeup

0:39:38.160 --> 0:39:40.480
<v Speaker 4>that day, and I really want to get up and

0:39:40.520 --> 0:39:45.200
<v Speaker 4>do it, but I just can't find the motivation to

0:39:45.360 --> 0:39:48.360
<v Speaker 4>get my lady ass up out of bed and do

0:39:48.440 --> 0:39:50.800
<v Speaker 4>the things I want to do. It's like, oh, you

0:39:50.840 --> 0:39:52.279
<v Speaker 4>know what I mean, what's the point of doing my

0:39:52.320 --> 0:39:54.320
<v Speaker 4>makeup to day when I'm not playing on doing anything?

0:39:55.280 --> 0:39:56.719
<v Speaker 4>When really I just wanted to do it to make

0:39:56.760 --> 0:39:59.359
<v Speaker 4>myself feel better. And I know that but I'll kind

0:39:59.360 --> 0:40:01.359
<v Speaker 4>of talk myself off out of it, like yeah, no,

0:40:02.160 --> 0:40:04.640
<v Speaker 4>So I guess being the better person for me is

0:40:04.680 --> 0:40:07.399
<v Speaker 4>finding the motivation to do the little things that make

0:40:07.480 --> 0:40:08.520
<v Speaker 4>me happier in life.

0:40:10.719 --> 0:40:11.040
<v Speaker 3>Do you.

0:40:13.280 --> 0:40:15.200
<v Speaker 1>Do you do? You ask? I know that Bryce said

0:40:15.400 --> 0:40:17.799
<v Speaker 1>he's working on being a house manager. Do you have

0:40:18.840 --> 0:40:20.200
<v Speaker 1>a gig that you do right now?

0:40:22.320 --> 0:40:27.399
<v Speaker 4>Yeah? Not currently really since I've gotten sober. I mean,

0:40:27.520 --> 0:40:31.360
<v Speaker 4>I was sixteen when I started using drugs, so I

0:40:31.360 --> 0:40:34.280
<v Speaker 4>didn't really get a chance to grow up or figure

0:40:34.280 --> 0:40:37.120
<v Speaker 4>out what I really wanted to do in life. So

0:40:37.320 --> 0:40:39.840
<v Speaker 4>I've really just kind of worked at restaurants here and

0:40:39.880 --> 0:40:42.239
<v Speaker 4>there and things like that in my time. So I'm

0:40:42.280 --> 0:40:44.879
<v Speaker 4>still trying to figure out what I really want to do.

0:40:45.040 --> 0:40:48.080
<v Speaker 4>I know that I want to work in treatment at

0:40:48.160 --> 0:40:52.440
<v Speaker 4>least for a short, short term goal and trying to

0:40:52.440 --> 0:40:56.440
<v Speaker 4>help other recovering addicts that, you know what I mean,

0:40:56.480 --> 0:40:59.680
<v Speaker 4>are still in their addiction because I've always had like

0:40:59.680 --> 0:41:01.200
<v Speaker 4>like I said that, I grew up in a small

0:41:01.880 --> 0:41:04.600
<v Speaker 4>town and drugs overtake that little town, and I always

0:41:04.600 --> 0:41:07.680
<v Speaker 4>felt bad for all the friends and acquaintances that I

0:41:07.680 --> 0:41:09.759
<v Speaker 4>have to leave behind in my addiction to gifts over

0:41:09.880 --> 0:41:12.959
<v Speaker 4>and make my life better. So I guess my goal

0:41:12.960 --> 0:41:15.319
<v Speaker 4>would be to work in treatment and try to save

0:41:15.360 --> 0:41:16.600
<v Speaker 4>as many people that I could.

0:41:19.239 --> 0:41:21.799
<v Speaker 1>That's good. I look, it sounds like both of you

0:41:21.840 --> 0:41:27.759
<v Speaker 1>guys have positive goals that you're working towards. I don't

0:41:27.800 --> 0:41:29.680
<v Speaker 1>know if you guys believe that about yourselves.

0:41:32.200 --> 0:41:33.880
<v Speaker 5>I really appreciate that because.

0:41:33.719 --> 0:41:38.200
<v Speaker 4>Being recovery recovering addicts and being so new in our recovery,

0:41:38.680 --> 0:41:42.080
<v Speaker 4>I mean, we like to think that we're doing the

0:41:42.160 --> 0:41:44.080
<v Speaker 4>right thing and we're making all the right decisions, but

0:41:44.760 --> 0:41:47.960
<v Speaker 4>you're never really sure being a recovering addict. You're never

0:41:48.000 --> 0:41:51.120
<v Speaker 4>really sure if you're doing good enough in your life

0:41:51.120 --> 0:41:52.759
<v Speaker 4>now to a tone for all the things you did

0:41:52.760 --> 0:41:53.320
<v Speaker 4>in the past.

0:41:56.120 --> 0:41:59.040
<v Speaker 1>What are you ensure about.

0:42:00.840 --> 0:42:03.080
<v Speaker 4>I don't know. I guess I was just I guess

0:42:03.120 --> 0:42:06.160
<v Speaker 4>I've just been unsure if I'm really trying hard enough

0:42:06.200 --> 0:42:09.040
<v Speaker 4>to make my life better, I guess, or if I'm

0:42:09.080 --> 0:42:11.920
<v Speaker 4>just kind of riding the waves.

0:42:13.600 --> 0:42:17.880
<v Speaker 1>Well, I mean, look, you got sober, which is a

0:42:17.880 --> 0:42:24.960
<v Speaker 1>hard thing to do. You have goals and desires. I mean,

0:42:25.000 --> 0:42:26.800
<v Speaker 1>I don't know you guys that well, but it sounds

0:42:26.880 --> 0:42:36.839
<v Speaker 1>like to me that you're moving forward in a in

0:42:36.880 --> 0:42:38.320
<v Speaker 1>a productive manner.

0:42:41.680 --> 0:42:42.920
<v Speaker 4>I really appreciate that.

0:42:44.360 --> 0:42:49.960
<v Speaker 1>For sure. Is Bryce still there?

0:42:51.440 --> 0:42:51.640
<v Speaker 6>Yeah?

0:42:51.760 --> 0:42:56.000
<v Speaker 5>Serious? Did you want to talk to Bryce or did

0:42:56.040 --> 0:42:57.320
<v Speaker 5>you want to continue with Kayley?

0:42:59.120 --> 0:43:02.840
<v Speaker 1>Uh? I don't know. Well we started this talking about

0:43:03.000 --> 0:43:09.920
<v Speaker 1>fucking uh sour skittles, and uh, this conversation has gotten

0:43:10.000 --> 0:43:12.760
<v Speaker 1>much deeper than I anticipated it would.

0:43:14.160 --> 0:43:19.239
<v Speaker 5>Well, that's the thing. You're you're, You're you asked the

0:43:19.360 --> 0:43:20.239
<v Speaker 5>right questions.

0:43:20.360 --> 0:43:24.520
<v Speaker 1>GEK, I guess is there anything else that you guys

0:43:25.120 --> 0:43:28.400
<v Speaker 1>wanted to talk about?

0:43:28.600 --> 0:43:30.480
<v Speaker 5>When are you going on tour again?

0:43:32.480 --> 0:43:32.719
<v Speaker 2>Uh?

0:43:32.760 --> 0:43:35.680
<v Speaker 1>Probably in twenty twenty four. Listen, Bryce, I'm gonna say

0:43:35.680 --> 0:43:37.399
<v Speaker 1>that I didn't want to get into this whole thing

0:43:37.400 --> 0:43:41.040
<v Speaker 1>because I just don't. I'm not gonna like, no, get

0:43:41.120 --> 0:43:43.640
<v Speaker 1>I'm not gonna I'm not gonna sit here and have

0:43:43.719 --> 0:43:49.760
<v Speaker 1>this whole discussion. But uh, be careful with the Andrew

0:43:49.840 --> 0:43:51.520
<v Speaker 1>Tait Sam Hyde shit. All right?

0:43:53.040 --> 0:43:56.239
<v Speaker 5>Oh well, I mean Andrew Tait's a terrible person, and

0:43:56.280 --> 0:44:00.200
<v Speaker 5>I mean Sam Hide's done more than less save things

0:44:00.239 --> 0:44:02.440
<v Speaker 5>on the internet and said some more or less savory thing.

0:44:03.160 --> 0:44:06.640
<v Speaker 5>I'm saying the success in drive. If I have that

0:44:06.719 --> 0:44:08.640
<v Speaker 5>type of power, I wouldn't use it like that.

0:44:12.440 --> 0:44:14.080
<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you guys want to say to

0:44:14.120 --> 0:44:15.600
<v Speaker 1>the people the computer before we go.

0:44:17.440 --> 0:44:21.680
<v Speaker 5>Hey, I love you twitch, I love my juicers.

0:44:22.040 --> 0:44:23.960
<v Speaker 1>And wait, what's a juicer.

0:44:25.600 --> 0:44:27.360
<v Speaker 5>It's a it's an excuse watcher.

0:44:28.640 --> 0:44:33.160
<v Speaker 1>It's a wet watcher. Excuse I don't I don't really

0:44:33.200 --> 0:44:34.880
<v Speaker 1>know anything about excuse me. I know he plays a

0:44:34.880 --> 0:44:36.319
<v Speaker 1>lot of chess.

0:44:37.360 --> 0:44:40.479
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I mean he's pretty he's pretty good chess.

0:44:42.320 --> 0:44:46.200
<v Speaker 1>Well, good luck to you. You guys seem like nice people,

0:44:46.440 --> 0:44:49.239
<v Speaker 1>and you know, give yourself some credit because I you know,

0:44:49.280 --> 0:44:52.560
<v Speaker 1>it sounds like you both started out in pretty uh,

0:44:52.680 --> 0:44:55.480
<v Speaker 1>you know, fucked up circumstances, and you both seem to

0:44:55.520 --> 0:45:00.399
<v Speaker 1>have pretty positive outlooks on life and desires to change

0:45:00.400 --> 0:45:04.520
<v Speaker 1>for the better. So you know, keep keeping the.

0:45:07.880 --> 0:45:12.760
<v Speaker 5>The They were less than favorable and and we were

0:45:13.200 --> 0:45:15.480
<v Speaker 5>we were really lost, and this conversation has helped us.

0:45:15.400 --> 0:45:16.960
<v Speaker 2>A lot good.

0:45:19.320 --> 0:45:30.520
<v Speaker 1>Of course, take care guys, you two letter gek Okay,

0:45:30.520 --> 0:45:32.760
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0:45:32.840 --> 0:45:37.720
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0:45:38.920 --> 0:45:42.160
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<v Speaker 5>All from Dulton.

0:46:28.239 --> 0:46:30.680
<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hello, Dalton? What's up?

0:46:30.840 --> 0:46:31.319
<v Speaker 4>What up?

0:46:31.400 --> 0:46:32.160
<v Speaker 6>Mester Gecko?

0:46:32.640 --> 0:46:36.520
<v Speaker 1>I am just doing little lizard stuff? What's going on

0:46:36.560 --> 0:46:37.200
<v Speaker 1>with you? Dalton?

0:46:37.680 --> 0:46:38.160
<v Speaker 3>Dude?

0:46:38.640 --> 0:46:43.160
<v Speaker 6>I don't even know where to start? Man, Okay, I

0:46:43.360 --> 0:46:47.680
<v Speaker 6>just moved twenty three hundred miles away from my original hometown.

0:46:49.920 --> 0:46:51.360
<v Speaker 1>Congrats.

0:46:51.960 --> 0:46:54.839
<v Speaker 6>And it's kind of a big step for me. I'm

0:46:54.840 --> 0:46:59.840
<v Speaker 6>only twenty, so it's kind of a big junk for myself.

0:47:00.000 --> 0:47:03.640
<v Speaker 6>Did it all my little car?

0:47:04.440 --> 0:47:07.359
<v Speaker 1>What was the impetus for this twenty three hundred mile move?

0:47:10.280 --> 0:47:18.439
<v Speaker 5>Oh, I'd say just my current living situation wasn't the best.

0:47:18.800 --> 0:47:22.719
<v Speaker 5>My like family and stuff, wasn't all the best either.

0:47:22.760 --> 0:47:25.600
<v Speaker 5>I didn't have like the most support, so I moved

0:47:25.640 --> 0:47:28.480
<v Speaker 5>out here to my brother because.

0:47:28.520 --> 0:47:30.800
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, interesting, how old is your brother?

0:47:32.320 --> 0:47:34.759
<v Speaker 6>He's twenty five, twenty four?

0:47:34.760 --> 0:47:36.560
<v Speaker 1>All right, all right, so he's a little bit older.

0:47:36.600 --> 0:47:40.280
<v Speaker 1>What uh? What's how long has he been out wherever

0:47:40.320 --> 0:47:40.640
<v Speaker 1>you are?

0:47:41.080 --> 0:47:43.120
<v Speaker 6>He's been out here for a couple of years. We

0:47:43.160 --> 0:47:45.759
<v Speaker 6>have a plan on getting our own place here in

0:47:45.880 --> 0:47:47.759
<v Speaker 6>about a year or so. He's staying out here with

0:47:47.880 --> 0:47:50.160
<v Speaker 6>like family friend kind of deal thing.

0:47:50.560 --> 0:47:53.280
<v Speaker 1>Oh, so yours are you staying with him? Who's staying

0:47:53.320 --> 0:47:56.400
<v Speaker 1>with a family friend.

0:47:55.800 --> 0:47:56.319
<v Speaker 6>Kind of thing?

0:47:56.400 --> 0:47:56.640
<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

0:47:57.239 --> 0:48:00.280
<v Speaker 1>All right? Can I ask where you got are?

0:48:01.840 --> 0:48:02.080
<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

0:48:02.120 --> 0:48:04.720
<v Speaker 5>Sure, it's East coast Pennsylvania.

0:48:05.560 --> 0:48:07.400
<v Speaker 1>Cool, so you moved from the west coast, I.

0:48:07.400 --> 0:48:09.920
<v Speaker 6>Assume, yeah, Arizona.

0:48:11.400 --> 0:48:14.279
<v Speaker 1>And what do you do out there?

0:48:14.320 --> 0:48:14.480
<v Speaker 2>Do you?

0:48:14.560 --> 0:48:15.719
<v Speaker 1>Did you line up a job at all?

0:48:17.120 --> 0:48:17.359
<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

0:48:17.520 --> 0:48:18.840
<v Speaker 6>Car? Just car stuff.

0:48:19.840 --> 0:48:21.480
<v Speaker 1>Cool? What's your brother do?

0:48:22.880 --> 0:48:24.399
<v Speaker 6>Same thing? Car stuff as well?

0:48:25.640 --> 0:48:27.120
<v Speaker 1>Did he get you a car job?

0:48:28.600 --> 0:48:28.839
<v Speaker 5>Yeah?

0:48:29.000 --> 0:48:33.600
<v Speaker 6>Basically, very fortunate. Off he works for a pretty cool

0:48:33.920 --> 0:48:34.920
<v Speaker 6>company Portia.

0:48:35.239 --> 0:48:37.239
<v Speaker 1>So I'm going to assume that your brother moved out

0:48:37.239 --> 0:48:39.799
<v Speaker 1>a few years ago for fairly similar reasons that you

0:48:40.040 --> 0:48:41.600
<v Speaker 1>just moved.

0:48:41.360 --> 0:48:44.480
<v Speaker 6>Right on the money, brother, right on it. Yeah, exactly.

0:48:45.600 --> 0:48:47.080
<v Speaker 1>Is he your only sibling or do you guys got

0:48:47.080 --> 0:48:47.640
<v Speaker 1>anyone else?

0:48:48.600 --> 0:48:54.000
<v Speaker 6>We got one other both like mother and father sibling

0:48:54.480 --> 0:48:57.480
<v Speaker 6>and a couple like half are your friends?

0:48:57.520 --> 0:49:00.640
<v Speaker 1>Are you? Are you close with any of the or

0:49:00.680 --> 0:49:01.520
<v Speaker 1>with the other.

0:49:01.400 --> 0:49:08.520
<v Speaker 6>Hole the other whole? Yeah, she's out on the west

0:49:08.560 --> 0:49:12.640
<v Speaker 6>side and still she got her own like stuff going on,

0:49:13.160 --> 0:49:14.839
<v Speaker 6>but the half not so much.

0:49:16.200 --> 0:49:20.399
<v Speaker 1>Are you all sort of united in a commiseration over

0:49:20.480 --> 0:49:21.839
<v Speaker 1>your childhood's?

0:49:22.840 --> 0:49:23.080
<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

0:49:23.200 --> 0:49:27.720
<v Speaker 5>We all? Yeah, we all u reminisce of our fucked

0:49:27.800 --> 0:49:31.799
<v Speaker 5>up childhood now that we're getting back on our own

0:49:31.880 --> 0:49:35.120
<v Speaker 5>paths and stuff getting way better than what we were.

0:49:36.520 --> 0:49:37.200
<v Speaker 6>Brought into.

0:49:39.719 --> 0:49:43.400
<v Speaker 1>That's cool, man. That's good that you had older siblings

0:49:43.440 --> 0:49:46.160
<v Speaker 1>because then you didn't have to well I mean no,

0:49:46.320 --> 0:49:48.560
<v Speaker 1>not not to discredit you. You you made a large

0:49:48.640 --> 0:49:51.279
<v Speaker 1>jump that I'm sure was very difficult, but it must

0:49:51.320 --> 0:49:56.600
<v Speaker 1>have been nice to have older siblings that did it first,

0:49:56.760 --> 0:50:00.279
<v Speaker 1>so there was sort of a path laid o out

0:50:00.400 --> 0:50:02.920
<v Speaker 1>of some kind.

0:50:03.360 --> 0:50:07.360
<v Speaker 6>Without them, Yeah, I would have been lost for sure.

0:50:08.160 --> 0:50:09.000
<v Speaker 1>How are you feeling now?

0:50:09.719 --> 0:50:15.200
<v Speaker 5>It's a little shell shock overwhelming, but uh, overall pretty good.

0:50:15.640 --> 0:50:19.720
<v Speaker 5>I'm excited for my new journey and what it waits

0:50:19.719 --> 0:50:20.040
<v Speaker 5>for me?

0:50:20.800 --> 0:50:25.240
<v Speaker 1>Mhm, what very about? Tell me about this new journey

0:50:25.239 --> 0:50:25.960
<v Speaker 1>what it waits for you?

0:50:27.520 --> 0:50:31.080
<v Speaker 6>Well, also I've loved that like a big details. Well,

0:50:31.120 --> 0:50:33.240
<v Speaker 6>I got out of like a two year.

0:50:33.120 --> 0:50:38.840
<v Speaker 5>Relationship right before I moved, so like, yeah, that's that

0:50:38.960 --> 0:50:42.319
<v Speaker 5>was also a big like hard thing to like leave.

0:50:44.040 --> 0:50:46.040
<v Speaker 5>That was like one of the main things holding me there.

0:50:46.120 --> 0:50:48.360
<v Speaker 1>Still, how long were you with this person?

0:50:48.400 --> 0:50:50.480
<v Speaker 5>For two years?

0:50:51.120 --> 0:50:57.759
<v Speaker 1>Okay? Hmmm? Do you did it end sort of amicably

0:50:58.120 --> 0:50:59.120
<v Speaker 1>or how did it end?

0:51:01.760 --> 0:51:05.680
<v Speaker 6>It was I want to say bad, neither good. I mean,

0:51:05.800 --> 0:51:08.279
<v Speaker 6>it wasn't any It wasn't anything super terrible. It was

0:51:08.360 --> 0:51:14.080
<v Speaker 6>kind of mutual and yeah, we just went the way

0:51:14.239 --> 0:51:17.000
<v Speaker 6>that like the contact went about it and like the

0:51:17.080 --> 0:51:19.880
<v Speaker 6>no contact afterwards went about it was like super weird

0:51:21.160 --> 0:51:24.400
<v Speaker 6>and like found out she also was like fucking with

0:51:24.719 --> 0:51:28.120
<v Speaker 6>like real close homies on mine and everything like super

0:51:29.280 --> 0:51:32.719
<v Speaker 6>right after we broke up and everything, Like yeah, it

0:51:32.800 --> 0:51:33.960
<v Speaker 6>was super weird.

0:51:34.320 --> 0:51:37.239
<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm. What's your what's your friend's situation? Like, are

0:51:37.280 --> 0:51:39.319
<v Speaker 1>you still good friends with any of the folks back

0:51:39.360 --> 0:51:40.799
<v Speaker 1>in you said Arizona?

0:51:41.760 --> 0:51:42.600
<v Speaker 5>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you still good friends with any of the Arizona folks?

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<v Speaker 5>Just a couple not not very many, most of them exactly. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 5>most of them were like mutual friends and ship. So

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<v Speaker 5>like every time I go and talk to him, I'm

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<v Speaker 5>hearing about that bitch, and it's like, Bro, this is

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<v Speaker 5>not why I'm friends with you.

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<v Speaker 1>Now, what about in Pennsylvania? What's your social life look like?

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<v Speaker 2>Now?

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<v Speaker 6>Nothing right now? Bro, Like, not a whole lot of anything.

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<v Speaker 6>Just yeah, not a whole lot of anything. It's getting

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<v Speaker 6>settled here myself and yeah, getting like all my legal

0:52:25.280 --> 0:52:29.080
<v Speaker 6>ship switched over, like driver's license and registration for the

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<v Speaker 6>car and whatnot.

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<v Speaker 1>M hmm. Yeah, it's hard to make that whole transition.

0:52:35.360 --> 0:52:39.400
<v Speaker 1>And then like, cause you gotta you gotta parse it out.

0:52:39.600 --> 0:52:42.840
<v Speaker 1>If you try to do all of your legal ship

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<v Speaker 1>and get a house and get a whole friend group

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<v Speaker 1>and a new girlfriend and a new job and eternal

0:52:50.000 --> 0:52:52.600
<v Speaker 1>happiness all in one week, you're gonna that's too much

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<v Speaker 1>pressure exactly.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 6>So yeah, I'm not too too much of a social life.

0:52:59.800 --> 0:53:04.080
<v Speaker 6>I'm kind of just more focused on me and when

0:53:04.080 --> 0:53:08.920
<v Speaker 6>I got going on, and shit, it's a lot.

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<v Speaker 1>What's your brother's family friends deal?

0:53:13.680 --> 0:53:17.360
<v Speaker 2>That's oh man, it's a whole lot of stuff.

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<v Speaker 6>He met so it's not even like it's their family

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<v Speaker 6>now because how close he's got with them and how

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<v Speaker 6>amazing people they are. And he met these people through

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<v Speaker 6>like when he was in school, in college, when he

0:53:31.000 --> 0:53:34.239
<v Speaker 6>came out here on the jump that he made and

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<v Speaker 6>met this really cool friend with this really cool family,

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<v Speaker 6>and flash forward a few years here.

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<v Speaker 1>We are nice. Nice? Are you have you become close

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<v Speaker 1>with them too?

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<v Speaker 6>Very yeah, they're super super awesome. They're super cool people.

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<v Speaker 1>It's very cool of them to like let your brother

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<v Speaker 1>crash on their couch and then have your brother be like, hey,

0:53:55.239 --> 0:53:57.960
<v Speaker 1>can my brother crash on your couch too? And they're like.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, type shit.

0:53:59.320 --> 0:53:59.520
<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 6>Well they have a really big, beautiful home and they

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<v Speaker 6>had a bunch of kids living here like a few

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<v Speaker 6>years ago, and they all moved on to like colleges

0:54:12.000 --> 0:54:15.000
<v Speaker 6>and stuff. So they were like more than happy to

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<v Speaker 6>have us come.

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<v Speaker 1>How do you guys know these people?

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<v Speaker 6>He met them through when he was in school, when

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<v Speaker 6>he was in college a college friend.

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<v Speaker 1>Word. And so you're twenty, right, did you ever want

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<v Speaker 1>to go to college or do anything like that or

0:54:31.440 --> 0:54:34.760
<v Speaker 1>were you always trying to just go straight into life?

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<v Speaker 6>See I've been I was forced to just be straight

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<v Speaker 6>into life since like fifteen sixteen, probably even younger. So like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 6>I haven't really thought of that. I haven't been in

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<v Speaker 6>that position too, but I'm sure like one day, if

0:54:53.800 --> 0:54:58.280
<v Speaker 6>I get in the financial rim of that, I would

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<v Speaker 6>love to.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, yeah, do you have some kind of like

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<v Speaker 1>ultimate like thing that you want to pursue or do?

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<v Speaker 6>Many things? Many many things. I'm like, I've just watched

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<v Speaker 6>one of your videos of the motorcycle Dude. Yeah, I'm

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<v Speaker 6>a bit like motorcycle Dude.

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<v Speaker 1>Like I hope, I hope you're not too much like

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<v Speaker 1>motorcycle Dude. He's a cool guy.

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<v Speaker 5>But oh yeah, fell backtrack, Oh, backtrack, that's too much

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<v Speaker 5>like motorcycle man.

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<v Speaker 6>Okay, he has some pretty wild attributes going on for himself.

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<v Speaker 6>But no, no, no, no, just in the speed demon sense

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<v Speaker 6>and the riding motorcycles?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you are you? Do you like to ride motorcycles?

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<v Speaker 3>Love too?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>That was the when I said I hope you're not

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<v Speaker 1>too much like motorcycle guy. That was the one thing

0:55:54.160 --> 0:55:57.440
<v Speaker 1>I was referring to. Although that was a dumb thing

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<v Speaker 1>of me to say, because if you say you're like

0:56:00.920 --> 0:56:03.480
<v Speaker 1>motorcycle guy and then I go, well, I hope not

0:56:03.640 --> 0:56:06.480
<v Speaker 1>the part of motorcycle guy that likes motorcycles. But yet

0:56:06.480 --> 0:56:10.040
<v Speaker 1>we're referring to him as motorcycle guy. It's like, what

0:56:10.120 --> 0:56:12.560
<v Speaker 1>other fucking part of him would you be referring to?

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<v Speaker 6>So yeah, true, that true.

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<v Speaker 2>That.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 6>I love motorcycles. I love adrenaline stuff. I go to

0:56:25.520 --> 0:56:28.040
<v Speaker 6>raves and shit, I'm super excited for raves out here.

0:56:28.040 --> 0:56:31.200
<v Speaker 6>I see you do that, like, uh, electric Forest and

0:56:31.320 --> 0:56:33.239
<v Speaker 6>you go to Yeah.

0:56:33.280 --> 0:56:38.160
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I did Electric Forest back in the summer and

0:56:38.160 --> 0:56:39.240
<v Speaker 1>it was it was really awesome.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, so I'm super excited for some East coast raids

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<v Speaker 6>and stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>Where in Pennsylvania are you?

0:56:47.000 --> 0:56:47.680
<v Speaker 6>Westchester?

0:56:48.360 --> 0:56:51.680
<v Speaker 1>West Chester? How far? How I I know people who

0:56:51.680 --> 0:56:54.640
<v Speaker 1>are like from there. How close is that to Philly?

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<v Speaker 6>Like not even an hour? Like right under an hour?

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<v Speaker 1>Have you ever been to Philadelphia?

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<v Speaker 4>Oh?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, I love going to Philly.

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<v Speaker 2>Bro.

0:57:04.280 --> 0:57:05.839
<v Speaker 6>There's nothing like a Philly cheese sick.

0:57:06.600 --> 0:57:06.759
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Philly is a great city, man, I love it. Well, look, dude,

0:57:11.040 --> 0:57:15.480
<v Speaker 1>I think, first of all, big up on you. I'm

0:57:15.480 --> 0:57:18.479
<v Speaker 1>glad that you made the decision to get the fuck

0:57:18.520 --> 0:57:20.600
<v Speaker 1>out right, because you could have just stayed. It would

0:57:20.640 --> 0:57:22.720
<v Speaker 1>have been more comfortable for you to stay, but you

0:57:22.800 --> 0:57:27.320
<v Speaker 1>got out and now you're I mean, even if things

0:57:27.320 --> 0:57:29.520
<v Speaker 1>are in sort of a transitionary period right now, it

0:57:29.560 --> 0:57:33.240
<v Speaker 1>sounds as though they're going to iron out and you'll

0:57:33.240 --> 0:57:35.760
<v Speaker 1>be glad you left. So good on you for that.

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<v Speaker 6>Thank you, sir.

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<v Speaker 1>Is there any other things? It's okay if not, But

0:57:42.480 --> 0:57:44.800
<v Speaker 1>is there anything else like kind of going on or

0:57:44.840 --> 0:57:46.959
<v Speaker 1>anything else that you want to talk about or say

0:57:46.960 --> 0:57:47.960
<v Speaker 1>to the people of the computer.

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<v Speaker 6>Oh really, yeah, not exactly, brother, not exactly. I'm really

0:57:57.600 --> 0:57:59.680
<v Speaker 6>grateful to talk to you. I've tried to call you

0:57:59.720 --> 0:58:03.000
<v Speaker 6>about thousands of times, so I'm glad to reach to

0:58:03.040 --> 0:58:05.680
<v Speaker 6>you once. And it was nice speaking to you.

0:58:06.480 --> 0:58:11.600
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, nice speaking to you too. That's a cool sort

0:58:11.640 --> 0:58:15.600
<v Speaker 1>of recurring theme I think we've talked about on here

0:58:16.320 --> 0:58:23.200
<v Speaker 1>is people trying to reinvent themselves or get away from

0:58:23.200 --> 0:58:27.160
<v Speaker 1>what's comfortable and go out on a limb like you did,

0:58:27.200 --> 0:58:30.120
<v Speaker 1>and you know it's not easy. So again, perhaps Anya.

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<v Speaker 6>Thank you, sir, Thank you, have a good time. Ma'm

0:58:34.080 --> 0:58:34.600
<v Speaker 6>you as well.

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