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Speaker 1: an hour ago. Hey, what's up man, it's the Gecko guy.

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Speaker 2: I'm not gonna run.

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Speaker 1: You didn't say you didn't you didn't say anything just now.

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Speaker 1: Oh you're trying to fall asleep.

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Speaker 2: Oh I was trying to fall asleep and then the.

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Speaker 1: Well you have two options. I'm gonna well, hold on.

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Speaker 1: What's your first of one? What's your name?

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Speaker 2: Oh? Yeah, my name is should say my name name.

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna your name. Your name, your name to me

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Speaker 1: is Lewis. I'm gonna call you Lewis Lewis. You have

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Speaker 1: two options. You can either I mean, actually you have

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Speaker 1: You can either go back to sleep and hang up,

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Speaker 1: or you could talk to me.

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Speaker 2: Uh you know what, I'll yeah, I'll spend some time.

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Speaker 1: How close were you? You were really close to falling

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Speaker 2: I actually was. I didn't even know who was calling me,

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Speaker 2: and I'm just like, what the fuck is calling it?

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Speaker 2: I'm like, oh shit, it's the therapy gift.

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Speaker 2: Uh? Maybe no, not the moment, but I think I

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Speaker 1: Do you do you normally have trouble falling asleep? Or

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Speaker 2: I guess it depends. There's some things or there's some

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Speaker 1: Do you have fucked up dreams?

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Speaker 1: Also depend Lewis. You texted me and you said that

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Speaker 2: Yeah, it really is. Here would not be wrong?

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Speaker 1: Why would you rather play alone with your friends? Or

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Speaker 1: What do you feel when your friends call you that?

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Speaker 2: It's not my first time being called it, but like

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Speaker 1: So do you I mean, I mean, point blank do

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Speaker 2: Ooh, man, Well in college, I mean I'm not like,

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Speaker 2: I don't know, man Like it feels like invasive, but

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Speaker 2: A little bit? Like my dad, I won't like try

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Speaker 4: Are are you?

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Speaker 1: Would you consider yourself an introverted guy?

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Speaker 2: Definitely, not like very extroverted. But I'm not like too introverted,

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Speaker 1: H Lewis Man, I'm glad I got to talk to you.

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Speaker 1: Have beautiful, sweet dreams, Louis.

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Speaker 2: All right, thanks, Kak, I appreciate it, man for calling me.

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Speaker 5: Yeah? Is this the gek?

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Speaker 1: Actually it's going pretty good. I'm feeling I'm feeling in

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Speaker 5: Well? Have you ever heard of anybody else doing it?

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Speaker 1: Well? I you know, Look, do you do you do

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Speaker 5: Yes? Absolutely?

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Speaker 1: Yet yet do you do you lick all around her

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Speaker 1: But when you really think about it, you know you're

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00:23:30,800 --> 00:23:32,640
Speaker 1: not doing anything new.

442
00:23:34,520 --> 00:23:36,760
Speaker 5: I'm so happy that you see this the same way

443
00:23:36,800 --> 00:23:37,040
Speaker 5: I do.

444
00:23:37,119 --> 00:23:39,000
Speaker 2: Get mm hmm.

445
00:23:41,640 --> 00:23:44,399
Speaker 1: Do you ever do you ever chew food for her?

446
00:23:45,240 --> 00:23:45,359
Speaker 2: Uh?

447
00:23:45,520 --> 00:23:46,320
Speaker 3: No, she doesn't.

448
00:23:46,400 --> 00:23:48,920
Speaker 5: She doesn't really have that problem. That's why she's kind

449
00:23:48,920 --> 00:23:51,040
Speaker 5: of And that's the thing. It was kind of her

450
00:23:51,119 --> 00:23:55,280
Speaker 5: idea to start with, and I was kind of stand

451
00:23:55,280 --> 00:23:57,399
Speaker 5: offish at first, and she's like, let's just try it,

452
00:23:57,760 --> 00:23:59,920
Speaker 5: and so I tried it and it ended up being

453
00:24:00,920 --> 00:24:04,439
Speaker 5: like the key to it. Do you think try the water?

454
00:24:04,920 --> 00:24:05,240
Speaker 1: Do you think?

455
00:24:05,280 --> 00:24:05,359
Speaker 5: She?

456
00:24:06,480 --> 00:24:06,960
Speaker 4: And all that?

457
00:24:07,040 --> 00:24:08,080
Speaker 5: And I just don't like it?

458
00:24:08,840 --> 00:24:12,240
Speaker 1: Do you? Is this something you were her like get

459
00:24:12,280 --> 00:24:12,720
Speaker 1: off to.

460
00:24:14,520 --> 00:24:19,159
Speaker 5: No, No, it's nothing like that. It's just it's just

461
00:24:19,440 --> 00:24:21,880
Speaker 5: she loves me very much, you know what I mean?

462
00:24:22,640 --> 00:24:23,080
Speaker 1: M hmm?

463
00:24:23,720 --> 00:24:24,760
Speaker 5: Is that too much love?

464
00:24:25,600 --> 00:24:27,720
Speaker 1: Does she spit it directly into your mouth?

465
00:24:29,760 --> 00:24:33,200
Speaker 5: I don't like. I don't want her sit on my hands,

466
00:24:33,280 --> 00:24:34,000
Speaker 5: you know what I mean?

467
00:24:34,080 --> 00:24:40,399
Speaker 1: So I mean kind of, well, you don't want her

468
00:24:40,400 --> 00:24:42,639
Speaker 1: to spit on your hands?

469
00:24:43,520 --> 00:24:47,320
Speaker 5: Well, that's the thing about it is, I don't. It's well,

470
00:24:47,400 --> 00:24:49,879
Speaker 5: I mean, I don't want to talk about anything sexual

471
00:24:49,960 --> 00:24:51,639
Speaker 5: or anything like that, but I don't want her to

472
00:24:51,680 --> 00:24:54,320
Speaker 5: regurgitate the food into my hands. You know what? I mean,

473
00:24:54,359 --> 00:24:56,520
Speaker 5: I rareed it just go straight to where my.

474
00:24:56,560 --> 00:24:58,159
Speaker 2: Spit is is.

475
00:24:58,440 --> 00:25:02,200
Speaker 1: Are you with your girlfriend right now? I am cant

476
00:25:02,240 --> 00:25:02,639
Speaker 1: talk to her?

477
00:25:04,320 --> 00:25:08,200
Speaker 5: Yeah you can't. Kaylee's pretty cool.

478
00:25:09,359 --> 00:25:10,119
Speaker 2: Here you go get.

479
00:25:11,680 --> 00:25:15,679
Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, Hey, what's up? Kayley?

480
00:25:16,400 --> 00:25:16,880
Speaker 5: What's up?

481
00:25:19,240 --> 00:25:22,359
Speaker 1: Tell me about baby birding food into your boyfriend's mouth.

482
00:25:24,000 --> 00:25:27,679
Speaker 4: I mean, I was just at first it was coming

483
00:25:27,680 --> 00:25:31,200
Speaker 4: into me a joke. I was like, Hey, you want

484
00:25:31,200 --> 00:25:32,359
Speaker 4: me to chew it up and put it in your

485
00:25:32,400 --> 00:25:33,359
Speaker 4: mouth for you?

486
00:25:33,359 --> 00:25:33,880
Speaker 2: You know what I mean?

487
00:25:34,560 --> 00:25:37,200
Speaker 4: And then he was like, do you think it works?

488
00:25:38,359 --> 00:25:39,880
Speaker 2: And I was like.

489
00:25:40,160 --> 00:25:43,639
Speaker 4: I mean, I guess I can give it a shot.

490
00:25:43,880 --> 00:25:47,320
Speaker 4: And then I guess it just became like a thing

491
00:25:47,400 --> 00:25:48,879
Speaker 4: that regularly happened to.

492
00:25:48,920 --> 00:25:51,480
Speaker 5: Became an other joke after after a while.

493
00:25:54,720 --> 00:25:57,200
Speaker 1: Huh. Okay, So do you only do it with spicy

494
00:25:57,240 --> 00:25:58,840
Speaker 1: food or do you do it with any other kind

495
00:25:58,840 --> 00:25:59,280
Speaker 1: of food?

496
00:26:00,320 --> 00:26:02,040
Speaker 4: I mean, anything spicy or sour.

497
00:26:03,880 --> 00:26:05,639
Speaker 1: Do you like doing it or do you kind of

498
00:26:05,720 --> 00:26:06,480
Speaker 1: dread doing it?

499
00:26:07,800 --> 00:26:09,760
Speaker 4: I mean it's not that I dread doing it, but

500
00:26:09,800 --> 00:26:12,760
Speaker 4: I mean I mean sometimes do you know what I mean.

501
00:26:12,800 --> 00:26:15,440
Speaker 4: I'm like, when I'm sleeping or something, he'll wake me up,

502
00:26:15,480 --> 00:26:18,159
Speaker 4: you know what I mean? To like snack and like that.

503
00:26:18,240 --> 00:26:20,960
Speaker 4: Shit gets a little annoying, you know what I mean,

504
00:26:21,080 --> 00:26:22,160
Speaker 4: So I get a little.

505
00:26:24,560 --> 00:26:26,440
Speaker 1: He'll wake you up in the middle of the night

506
00:26:26,520 --> 00:26:27,840
Speaker 1: to chew his food for him.

507
00:26:29,080 --> 00:26:30,720
Speaker 4: I mean, not necessarily in the middle of the night,

508
00:26:30,800 --> 00:26:33,560
Speaker 4: but it's like I'm sleeping in that morning, you know

509
00:26:33,600 --> 00:26:35,760
Speaker 4: what I mean, and he's up a little bit earlier

510
00:26:35,800 --> 00:26:39,640
Speaker 4: and he's eaten and it happens to be spicy or sour. Yeah,

511
00:26:39,680 --> 00:26:41,840
Speaker 4: there's good times where he's woken me up, like, hey, then,

512
00:26:42,040 --> 00:26:44,280
Speaker 4: will you wake up and help me out o quick?

513
00:26:46,080 --> 00:26:47,439
Speaker 1: And how do you feel when he does that?

514
00:26:48,960 --> 00:26:52,240
Speaker 4: I mean those times, it does get a little irritating,

515
00:26:52,880 --> 00:26:54,840
Speaker 4: But I mean that's I guess it's not any more

516
00:26:54,880 --> 00:26:58,800
Speaker 4: irritating as him asking me to get him a bull

517
00:26:58,880 --> 00:27:01,360
Speaker 4: of cereal or something when he's too lazy to get up.

518
00:27:03,320 --> 00:27:04,760
Speaker 4: I guess I just kind of looked at it as

519
00:27:04,800 --> 00:27:07,399
Speaker 4: one of the downfalls of a committed relationship.

520
00:27:07,560 --> 00:27:09,520
Speaker 5: I can be a lot worse. You've had a lot

521
00:27:09,640 --> 00:27:12,040
Speaker 5: worse relationships.

522
00:27:12,240 --> 00:27:12,520
Speaker 2: Point.

523
00:27:15,840 --> 00:27:18,320
Speaker 1: I don't know if I would call that a good point.

524
00:27:18,400 --> 00:27:25,360
Speaker 1: But do you do you also not tell anyone.

525
00:27:25,080 --> 00:27:31,080
Speaker 4: About this, No, I honestly, I'm a little afraid of judgment.

526
00:27:33,840 --> 00:27:40,600
Speaker 1: Interesting. Would you be embarrassed if anyone found out?

527
00:27:44,560 --> 00:27:47,440
Speaker 5: Yeah? Probably do you?

528
00:27:48,080 --> 00:27:48,280
Speaker 4: Yeah?

529
00:27:49,160 --> 00:27:53,119
Speaker 1: Do you ever chew food and spit it into his mouth?

530
00:27:54,480 --> 00:27:54,560
Speaker 3: No?

531
00:27:57,880 --> 00:28:00,520
Speaker 1: Is this like a kink thing? Are you guys?

532
00:28:00,520 --> 00:28:00,840
Speaker 2: At all?

533
00:28:02,640 --> 00:28:02,960
Speaker 3: No?

534
00:28:04,680 --> 00:28:05,520
Speaker 4: At least not for me.

535
00:28:07,160 --> 00:28:08,200
Speaker 1: How often do you do it?

536
00:28:10,520 --> 00:28:13,600
Speaker 4: I mean it's not like an everyday thing, but anytime,

537
00:28:13,680 --> 00:28:16,480
Speaker 4: like we're at the gas station and I mean we're

538
00:28:16,520 --> 00:28:18,440
Speaker 4: looking for snacks and he might be in the mood

539
00:28:18,520 --> 00:28:21,040
Speaker 4: for like a bag of talkies or like some power

540
00:28:21,119 --> 00:28:22,679
Speaker 4: skittles or something like that.

541
00:28:26,920 --> 00:28:28,920
Speaker 1: You chew the entire bag of sower Skittles.

542
00:28:28,920 --> 00:28:33,640
Speaker 4: And I mean not the entire bag, but I mean,

543
00:28:33,680 --> 00:28:37,919
Speaker 4: however much he's in the mood for eating in that time. Yeah?

544
00:28:38,000 --> 00:28:41,360
Speaker 1: Does this make you guys feel closer together?

545
00:28:43,240 --> 00:28:45,120
Speaker 5: Absolutely?

546
00:28:45,480 --> 00:28:47,040
Speaker 1: I was asking her.

547
00:28:47,760 --> 00:28:50,160
Speaker 5: I'm so sorry, Dick, that co dependent.

548
00:28:51,600 --> 00:28:54,040
Speaker 4: I mean, yeah, how how closer can you?

549
00:28:54,120 --> 00:28:54,280
Speaker 1: Good?

550
00:28:54,360 --> 00:28:56,480
Speaker 5: I guess I.

551
00:28:56,480 --> 00:28:58,400
Speaker 4: Guess we are closer than most couples out there?

552
00:29:02,520 --> 00:29:09,200
Speaker 1: All right, is this something you guys would like to

553
00:29:09,240 --> 00:29:09,920
Speaker 1: continue doing?

554
00:29:12,840 --> 00:29:15,920
Speaker 4: I mean, I guess if there was a way around it,

555
00:29:15,920 --> 00:29:18,920
Speaker 4: it would be. It's not like I would.

556
00:29:18,880 --> 00:29:22,080
Speaker 5: Love to do it to do.

557
00:29:32,800 --> 00:29:35,040
Speaker 1: How's everything going in relationship? Otherwise?

558
00:29:37,360 --> 00:29:37,840
Speaker 2: I mean.

559
00:29:39,640 --> 00:29:40,640
Speaker 5: Pretty good.

560
00:29:41,120 --> 00:29:47,280
Speaker 4: We're recovering sentinel addicts. So the last year has been

561
00:29:47,400 --> 00:29:52,280
Speaker 4: a whole new path for us after getting sober and clean,

562
00:29:52,440 --> 00:29:54,920
Speaker 4: because the first four and a half years of our

563
00:29:54,960 --> 00:29:59,320
Speaker 4: relationship we were high and using together. So it's been

564
00:29:59,400 --> 00:30:02,400
Speaker 4: a whole new ball game the past year just figuring

565
00:30:02,440 --> 00:30:04,200
Speaker 4: out what our relationship is sober.

566
00:30:05,200 --> 00:30:07,120
Speaker 1: Mmm, how long have you guys been together?

567
00:30:07,120 --> 00:30:07,200
Speaker 2: For?

568
00:30:09,240 --> 00:30:09,440
Speaker 5: Six?

569
00:30:09,520 --> 00:30:10,760
Speaker 4: Here's this Christmas Eve?

570
00:30:11,760 --> 00:30:16,760
Speaker 1: Nice? And did you? Did you meet through fetanyl and

571
00:30:16,840 --> 00:30:17,720
Speaker 1: drugs and stuff?

572
00:30:20,480 --> 00:30:25,560
Speaker 4: He was in drugs before he met me. I was

573
00:30:25,680 --> 00:30:28,480
Speaker 4: kind of just starting to branch out. I smoked weed

574
00:30:28,520 --> 00:30:30,120
Speaker 4: at a young age that I was just kind of

575
00:30:30,400 --> 00:30:33,280
Speaker 4: starting to branch out into pain pills and things like that.

576
00:30:33,320 --> 00:30:36,560
Speaker 4: And we met through uh, one of his family members

577
00:30:36,600 --> 00:30:39,560
Speaker 4: and not really met through drugs but sort of.

578
00:30:40,560 --> 00:30:44,960
Speaker 1: And you guys were getting high together for four years? Yeah,

579
00:30:44,960 --> 00:30:50,200
Speaker 1: what was the the the impetus or driving force for

580
00:30:50,320 --> 00:30:50,960
Speaker 1: getting sober?

581
00:30:53,760 --> 00:30:58,480
Speaker 4: Well, we got arrested and I had never been in any.

582
00:30:58,400 --> 00:30:59,600
Speaker 2: Legal trouble before.

583
00:31:01,000 --> 00:31:04,480
Speaker 4: And while I was in jail that night, our apartment

584
00:31:04,640 --> 00:31:08,680
Speaker 4: burnt to the ground. It had nothing to do with us.

585
00:31:08,800 --> 00:31:12,479
Speaker 4: They said it was a cigarette butt was thrown out

586
00:31:13,040 --> 00:31:14,600
Speaker 4: and it got up into the lighting of the house

587
00:31:14,600 --> 00:31:16,280
Speaker 4: and caught the house on fire. So when I got

588
00:31:16,320 --> 00:31:19,000
Speaker 4: out to absolutely nothing and no place to live in

589
00:31:19,040 --> 00:31:22,440
Speaker 4: no house, it kind of urged me to get my

590
00:31:22,520 --> 00:31:25,640
Speaker 4: life together. But Bryce was still in jail at the time,

591
00:31:25,720 --> 00:31:27,960
Speaker 4: so instead of getting my life together, I kind of

592
00:31:28,000 --> 00:31:30,280
Speaker 4: lost my shit for a bit. And he got out

593
00:31:30,320 --> 00:31:31,600
Speaker 4: of jail and it was like, we got to get

594
00:31:31,600 --> 00:31:34,040
Speaker 4: our shit together. So we decided to get sober.

595
00:31:35,640 --> 00:31:36,280
Speaker 1: Was it difficult?

596
00:31:37,920 --> 00:31:38,240
Speaker 2: It was.

597
00:31:39,400 --> 00:31:43,400
Speaker 4: It was definitely a leap of staate. We moved from

598
00:31:43,480 --> 00:31:46,320
Speaker 4: our hometown in Indiana all the way across the country

599
00:31:46,360 --> 00:31:48,960
Speaker 4: to California to go to Detox and get sober.

600
00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:51,920
Speaker 1: Are you glad you did it?

601
00:31:53,320 --> 00:31:55,480
Speaker 4: I am very glad.

602
00:31:55,200 --> 00:31:58,040
Speaker 5: We did it. What so many people died.

603
00:31:59,120 --> 00:32:02,840
Speaker 4: I had friends, family dying in my hometown and my

604
00:32:03,280 --> 00:32:06,320
Speaker 4: life is just falling apart. And I finally decided to

605
00:32:06,320 --> 00:32:09,040
Speaker 4: get sober, and in a couple of months we're actually

606
00:32:09,040 --> 00:32:12,880
Speaker 4: being made house manager. So things are actually looking up.

607
00:32:14,680 --> 00:32:17,920
Speaker 1: You know, in light of everything you got, In light

608
00:32:17,960 --> 00:32:21,560
Speaker 1: of everything you guys are telling me, Baby birding spicy

609
00:32:21,600 --> 00:32:24,480
Speaker 1: food into this guy's mouth doesn't seem all that bad.

610
00:32:27,280 --> 00:32:28,080
Speaker 5: I guess you're right.

611
00:32:31,600 --> 00:32:34,520
Speaker 1: What do you guys, do help you. Guys have been

612
00:32:34,520 --> 00:32:35,280
Speaker 1: clean for two years.

613
00:32:36,920 --> 00:32:38,520
Speaker 4: We've been clean for almost a year now.

614
00:32:39,320 --> 00:32:43,440
Speaker 1: Cool. How's everything going in your individual lives?

615
00:32:44,760 --> 00:32:45,320
Speaker 2: Pretty well?

616
00:32:45,880 --> 00:32:46,440
Speaker 3: Pretty well.

617
00:32:46,560 --> 00:32:50,920
Speaker 4: I've been coming out of my show a lot more lately.

618
00:32:51,040 --> 00:32:55,200
Speaker 4: I making friends and I'm trying to get him out

619
00:32:55,200 --> 00:32:56,959
Speaker 4: of the show and starting to make friends.

620
00:32:57,000 --> 00:33:00,880
Speaker 5: But a little bit harder in my into boot. I

621
00:33:00,920 --> 00:33:03,840
Speaker 5: feel like I find myself sitting at home all day

622
00:33:04,440 --> 00:33:08,400
Speaker 5: watching YouTube videos of things that I should be doing

623
00:33:08,840 --> 00:33:11,840
Speaker 5: but I don't do, And I constantly find myself in

624
00:33:11,880 --> 00:33:14,240
Speaker 5: a fit of break for the smallest things.

625
00:33:15,080 --> 00:33:15,760
Speaker 1: Okay, like what.

626
00:33:17,880 --> 00:33:23,040
Speaker 5: Like if you slightly annoy me, my overreaction will be dramatic.

627
00:33:23,920 --> 00:33:28,120
Speaker 5: If something goes wrong in the day, my overreaction could

628
00:33:28,120 --> 00:33:33,959
Speaker 5: be dramatic. It's it's weird. I I've grown up on

629
00:33:34,120 --> 00:33:37,720
Speaker 5: drugs my whole entire life, so coming off them as

630
00:33:37,720 --> 00:33:40,640
Speaker 5: a young I'm twenty three, so coming off them as

631
00:33:40,680 --> 00:33:44,720
Speaker 5: a young adult. I don't know how to deal with emotion.

632
00:33:48,120 --> 00:33:50,120
Speaker 1: When you say you're watching YouTube videos of things you

633
00:33:50,160 --> 00:33:52,840
Speaker 1: should do. What are these YouTube videos?

634
00:33:54,040 --> 00:33:54,280
Speaker 4: You know?

635
00:33:54,720 --> 00:34:00,600
Speaker 5: Like inspirational videos, just things that you that you can

636
00:34:00,880 --> 00:34:03,720
Speaker 5: change your life easily. Whether it's an whether it's an

637
00:34:03,720 --> 00:34:08,400
Speaker 5: Andrew Tate inspirational video or a Sam Hide inspirational video.

638
00:34:08,920 --> 00:34:11,080
Speaker 5: They call out the things that I'm doing that I

639
00:34:11,080 --> 00:34:13,919
Speaker 5: shouldn't beat, but I just continue to do.

640
00:34:14,560 --> 00:34:15,680
Speaker 1: Bryce, Are you fucking with me?

641
00:34:17,400 --> 00:34:19,000
Speaker 5: Absolutely not? What do you need.

642
00:34:22,120 --> 00:34:25,240
Speaker 1: Dude? What kind of Sam Hide inspirational videos are you watching?

643
00:34:26,440 --> 00:34:30,160
Speaker 5: Okay? So like the one where he says don't smoke weed,

644
00:34:30,280 --> 00:34:32,359
Speaker 5: weeds for losers? You know what I mean? But I

645
00:34:32,400 --> 00:34:35,000
Speaker 5: love weed and it's hard not to smoke weed. And

646
00:34:35,080 --> 00:34:37,719
Speaker 5: some people don't like Sam Hide. I understand that. I

647
00:34:37,800 --> 00:34:38,560
Speaker 5: just want them to fight.

648
00:34:38,600 --> 00:34:49,719
Speaker 1: I does Honestly, what do you bryce? What do you like?

649
00:34:50,280 --> 00:34:52,640
Speaker 1: What do you want to do? What are you trying

650
00:34:52,640 --> 00:34:53,799
Speaker 1: to be inspired to do?

651
00:34:58,239 --> 00:35:03,000
Speaker 5: Honestly, it'd be my ultimate dream would be a successful

652
00:35:03,080 --> 00:35:06,160
Speaker 5: YouTube channel with Kaylee me and her kind of want

653
00:35:06,239 --> 00:35:09,560
Speaker 5: to be nomads and live band life and venture out.

654
00:35:10,480 --> 00:35:12,840
Speaker 5: You know what I mean. But I mean, I'll be

655
00:35:12,880 --> 00:35:15,440
Speaker 5: honest with you. Gek. I have something holding me back

656
00:35:15,560 --> 00:35:19,640
Speaker 5: and it's a warrant in my home state. And it's

657
00:35:19,760 --> 00:35:23,839
Speaker 5: like I got that warrant because I came out here

658
00:35:23,840 --> 00:35:26,799
Speaker 5: to California to get sober, and I was supposed to

659
00:35:26,840 --> 00:35:28,759
Speaker 5: go back but I knew if I went back, I

660
00:35:28,760 --> 00:35:32,840
Speaker 5: would just continue getting high and end up in prison.

661
00:35:32,920 --> 00:35:37,160
Speaker 5: So I stayed in California, so if I ever get

662
00:35:37,200 --> 00:35:40,200
Speaker 5: picked up, there's always that hanging over.

663
00:35:40,120 --> 00:35:51,000
Speaker 1: My What about Kaylee? You said your name was yeah here, Yeah,

664
00:35:51,080 --> 00:35:54,040
Speaker 1: what's what's what's your dream, Caylee? Do you want to

665
00:35:54,080 --> 00:35:57,720
Speaker 1: do all that travel and make videos and whatnot?

666
00:35:59,040 --> 00:35:59,440
Speaker 2: See?

667
00:36:00,480 --> 00:36:04,440
Speaker 4: My dream is more of the travel and no mad life.

668
00:36:04,480 --> 00:36:08,080
Speaker 4: And his thing is more of the making videos than YouTube.

669
00:36:08,600 --> 00:36:10,520
Speaker 4: And there's all these people out there are you know,

670
00:36:10,680 --> 00:36:15,160
Speaker 4: doing it together? So we're already in a relationship, So

671
00:36:15,160 --> 00:36:18,440
Speaker 4: why not mix our dreams and make it a reality?

672
00:36:20,160 --> 00:36:26,600
Speaker 1: Okay, I'm all right, I'll bite Bryce. What what kind

673
00:36:26,640 --> 00:36:28,400
Speaker 1: of Andrew tape videos are you watching?

674
00:36:30,200 --> 00:36:30,279
Speaker 3: So?

675
00:36:31,040 --> 00:36:34,480
Speaker 5: Man? I wish I could find the user. It's they're

676
00:36:34,520 --> 00:36:37,480
Speaker 5: always very well edited and it's just his very good

677
00:36:37,560 --> 00:36:42,680
Speaker 5: bulletin points, just those where's my remote? I wish I

678
00:36:42,760 --> 00:36:44,520
Speaker 5: knew that YouTuber's name right now?

679
00:36:47,480 --> 00:36:50,560
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, go ahead.

680
00:36:51,120 --> 00:36:54,319
Speaker 5: I was just now recently watching the one where his

681
00:36:54,480 --> 00:36:58,120
Speaker 5: workout routine in prison. He said that the guards were

682
00:36:58,120 --> 00:37:00,719
Speaker 5: trying to break his spirit, so he did push ups

683
00:37:00,800 --> 00:37:04,200
Speaker 5: after them. I wish that I could have that drive.

684
00:37:04,040 --> 00:37:06,320
Speaker 1: He said, He said, he did push ups at.

685
00:37:06,160 --> 00:37:10,480
Speaker 5: Them, at them, and I know how fucking alpha of you.

686
00:37:10,640 --> 00:37:16,040
Speaker 5: But it's just that type of drive that sits in

687
00:37:16,120 --> 00:37:18,400
Speaker 5: my body that I wish I could fled up from the.

688
00:37:18,520 --> 00:37:27,000
Speaker 1: Son drive drive for what, uh, just.

689
00:37:26,960 --> 00:37:29,239
Speaker 5: To just to be a better person. Now that I've

690
00:37:29,280 --> 00:37:32,600
Speaker 5: gotten sober, I don't I don't want to just sit

691
00:37:32,719 --> 00:37:35,799
Speaker 5: by and waste my years. I feel like life is

692
00:37:35,960 --> 00:37:39,680
Speaker 5: very important to figure out something that you love to

693
00:37:39,800 --> 00:37:41,279
Speaker 5: do and do that.

694
00:37:42,560 --> 00:37:45,920
Speaker 1: What is is what does being a better person look

695
00:37:46,040 --> 00:37:46,360
Speaker 1: like to you?

696
00:37:49,000 --> 00:37:52,040
Speaker 5: A better boyfriend? Always? I always feel like I can

697
00:37:52,080 --> 00:37:57,319
Speaker 5: improve there, a better role model to people, a better son.

698
00:37:57,960 --> 00:38:00,279
Speaker 5: I did my mom dirty and all kinds of ways

699
00:38:01,600 --> 00:38:06,520
Speaker 5: and some some a laugh. I like to make people laugh.

700
00:38:07,440 --> 00:38:15,120
Speaker 1: Kay hmm, what do you? What do you both do

701
00:38:15,200 --> 00:38:15,720
Speaker 1: for work?

702
00:38:16,080 --> 00:38:19,279
Speaker 5: So right now, since we have been recovering and I'm

703
00:38:19,320 --> 00:38:23,000
Speaker 5: transferring states, I have been working on getting my birth

704
00:38:23,080 --> 00:38:25,200
Speaker 5: certificate and everything like that so I can get a

705
00:38:25,280 --> 00:38:28,360
Speaker 5: job here. But I'm about to get this house manager

706
00:38:28,440 --> 00:38:31,400
Speaker 5: job in my program, and that's awesome. That will keep

707
00:38:31,440 --> 00:38:33,359
Speaker 5: me sober for a long time and I can help

708
00:38:33,400 --> 00:38:35,960
Speaker 5: a lot of people that way. But I don't know

709
00:38:36,080 --> 00:38:39,000
Speaker 5: if I want to settle and do that my whole life.

710
00:38:40,920 --> 00:38:41,840
Speaker 1: What about you? Kayley?

711
00:38:43,880 --> 00:38:51,240
Speaker 5: Hold on, let me get her see I look at classership.

712
00:38:52,280 --> 00:38:54,600
Speaker 1: Oh I was asking, uh watch, I kind of forget

713
00:38:54,600 --> 00:38:59,799
Speaker 1: what the question was. I was asking kind of like what. Well,

714
00:38:59,840 --> 00:39:02,879
Speaker 1: I I'm kind of just trying to get a hold of,

715
00:39:02,920 --> 00:39:05,640
Speaker 1: like what your guys is. Oh, well, I think I

716
00:39:05,680 --> 00:39:08,560
Speaker 1: asked you what I asked Bryce. What being a better

717
00:39:08,560 --> 00:39:10,759
Speaker 1: person looks like? So I'll ask the question to you.

718
00:39:12,920 --> 00:39:17,840
Speaker 4: Being a better person for me looks like right now,

719
00:39:20,200 --> 00:39:24,879
Speaker 4: I guess it for me looks like becoming more motivated

720
00:39:25,280 --> 00:39:30,440
Speaker 4: in my life because I have all of these things

721
00:39:30,480 --> 00:39:33,319
Speaker 4: and it's not like big life changing things that I

722
00:39:33,360 --> 00:39:35,440
Speaker 4: want to do. But let it say, for example, like

723
00:39:36,000 --> 00:39:38,120
Speaker 4: I want to clean my room or do my makeup

724
00:39:38,160 --> 00:39:40,480
Speaker 4: that day, and I really want to get up and

725
00:39:40,520 --> 00:39:45,200
Speaker 4: do it, but I just can't find the motivation to

726
00:39:45,360 --> 00:39:48,360
Speaker 4: get my lady ass up out of bed and do

727
00:39:48,440 --> 00:39:50,800
Speaker 4: the things I want to do. It's like, oh, you

728
00:39:50,840 --> 00:39:52,279
Speaker 4: know what I mean, what's the point of doing my

729
00:39:52,320 --> 00:39:54,320
Speaker 4: makeup to day when I'm not playing on doing anything?

730
00:39:55,280 --> 00:39:56,719
Speaker 4: When really I just wanted to do it to make

731
00:39:56,760 --> 00:39:59,359
Speaker 4: myself feel better. And I know that but I'll kind

732
00:39:59,360 --> 00:40:01,359
Speaker 4: of talk myself off out of it, like yeah, no,

733
00:40:02,160 --> 00:40:04,640
Speaker 4: So I guess being the better person for me is

734
00:40:04,680 --> 00:40:07,399
Speaker 4: finding the motivation to do the little things that make

735
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Speaker 4: me happier in life.

736
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Speaker 3: Do you.

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Speaker 1: Do you do? You ask? I know that Bryce said

738
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Speaker 1: he's working on being a house manager. Do you have

739
00:40:18,840 --> 00:40:20,200
Speaker 1: a gig that you do right now?

740
00:40:22,320 --> 00:40:27,399
Speaker 4: Yeah? Not currently really since I've gotten sober. I mean,

741
00:40:27,520 --> 00:40:31,360
Speaker 4: I was sixteen when I started using drugs, so I

742
00:40:31,360 --> 00:40:34,280
Speaker 4: didn't really get a chance to grow up or figure

743
00:40:34,280 --> 00:40:37,120
Speaker 4: out what I really wanted to do in life. So

744
00:40:37,320 --> 00:40:39,840
Speaker 4: I've really just kind of worked at restaurants here and

745
00:40:39,880 --> 00:40:42,239
Speaker 4: there and things like that in my time. So I'm

746
00:40:42,280 --> 00:40:44,879
Speaker 4: still trying to figure out what I really want to do.

747
00:40:45,040 --> 00:40:48,080
Speaker 4: I know that I want to work in treatment at

748
00:40:48,160 --> 00:40:52,440
Speaker 4: least for a short, short term goal and trying to

749
00:40:52,440 --> 00:40:56,440
Speaker 4: help other recovering addicts that, you know what I mean,

750
00:40:56,480 --> 00:40:59,680
Speaker 4: are still in their addiction because I've always had like

751
00:40:59,680 --> 00:41:01,200
Speaker 4: like I said that, I grew up in a small

752
00:41:01,880 --> 00:41:04,600
Speaker 4: town and drugs overtake that little town, and I always

753
00:41:04,600 --> 00:41:07,680
Speaker 4: felt bad for all the friends and acquaintances that I

754
00:41:07,680 --> 00:41:09,759
Speaker 4: have to leave behind in my addiction to gifts over

755
00:41:09,880 --> 00:41:12,959
Speaker 4: and make my life better. So I guess my goal

756
00:41:12,960 --> 00:41:15,319
Speaker 4: would be to work in treatment and try to save

757
00:41:15,360 --> 00:41:16,600
Speaker 4: as many people that I could.

758
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Speaker 1: That's good. I look, it sounds like both of you

759
00:41:21,840 --> 00:41:27,759
Speaker 1: guys have positive goals that you're working towards. I don't

760
00:41:27,800 --> 00:41:29,680
Speaker 1: know if you guys believe that about yourselves.

761
00:41:32,200 --> 00:41:33,880
Speaker 5: I really appreciate that because.

762
00:41:33,719 --> 00:41:38,200
Speaker 4: Being recovery recovering addicts and being so new in our recovery,

763
00:41:38,680 --> 00:41:42,080
Speaker 4: I mean, we like to think that we're doing the

764
00:41:42,160 --> 00:41:44,080
Speaker 4: right thing and we're making all the right decisions, but

765
00:41:44,760 --> 00:41:47,960
Speaker 4: you're never really sure being a recovering addict. You're never

766
00:41:48,000 --> 00:41:51,120
Speaker 4: really sure if you're doing good enough in your life

767
00:41:51,120 --> 00:41:52,759
Speaker 4: now to a tone for all the things you did

768
00:41:52,760 --> 00:41:53,320
Speaker 4: in the past.

769
00:41:56,120 --> 00:41:59,040
Speaker 1: What are you ensure about.

770
00:42:00,840 --> 00:42:03,080
Speaker 4: I don't know. I guess I was just I guess

771
00:42:03,120 --> 00:42:06,160
Speaker 4: I've just been unsure if I'm really trying hard enough

772
00:42:06,200 --> 00:42:09,040
Speaker 4: to make my life better, I guess, or if I'm

773
00:42:09,080 --> 00:42:11,920
Speaker 4: just kind of riding the waves.

774
00:42:13,600 --> 00:42:17,880
Speaker 1: Well, I mean, look, you got sober, which is a

775
00:42:17,880 --> 00:42:24,960
Speaker 1: hard thing to do. You have goals and desires. I mean,

776
00:42:25,000 --> 00:42:26,800
Speaker 1: I don't know you guys that well, but it sounds

777
00:42:26,880 --> 00:42:36,839
Speaker 1: like to me that you're moving forward in a in

778
00:42:36,880 --> 00:42:38,320
Speaker 1: a productive manner.

779
00:42:41,680 --> 00:42:42,920
Speaker 4: I really appreciate that.

780
00:42:44,360 --> 00:42:49,960
Speaker 1: For sure. Is Bryce still there?

781
00:42:51,440 --> 00:42:51,640
Speaker 6: Yeah?

782
00:42:51,760 --> 00:42:56,000
Speaker 5: Serious? Did you want to talk to Bryce or did

783
00:42:56,040 --> 00:42:57,320
Speaker 5: you want to continue with Kayley?

784
00:42:59,120 --> 00:43:02,840
Speaker 1: Uh? I don't know. Well we started this talking about

785
00:43:03,000 --> 00:43:09,920
Speaker 1: fucking uh sour skittles, and uh, this conversation has gotten

786
00:43:10,000 --> 00:43:12,760
Speaker 1: much deeper than I anticipated it would.

787
00:43:14,160 --> 00:43:19,239
Speaker 5: Well, that's the thing. You're you're, You're you asked the

788
00:43:19,360 --> 00:43:20,239
Speaker 5: right questions.

789
00:43:20,360 --> 00:43:24,520
Speaker 1: GEK, I guess is there anything else that you guys

790
00:43:25,120 --> 00:43:28,400
Speaker 1: wanted to talk about?

791
00:43:28,600 --> 00:43:30,480
Speaker 5: When are you going on tour again?

792
00:43:32,480 --> 00:43:32,719
Speaker 2: Uh?

793
00:43:32,760 --> 00:43:35,680
Speaker 1: Probably in twenty twenty four. Listen, Bryce, I'm gonna say

794
00:43:35,680 --> 00:43:37,399
Speaker 1: that I didn't want to get into this whole thing

795
00:43:37,400 --> 00:43:41,040
Speaker 1: because I just don't. I'm not gonna like, no, get

796
00:43:41,120 --> 00:43:43,640
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna I'm not gonna sit here and have

797
00:43:43,719 --> 00:43:49,760
Speaker 1: this whole discussion. But uh, be careful with the Andrew

798
00:43:49,840 --> 00:43:51,520
Speaker 1: Tait Sam Hyde shit. All right?

799
00:43:53,040 --> 00:43:56,239
Speaker 5: Oh well, I mean Andrew Tait's a terrible person, and

800
00:43:56,280 --> 00:44:00,200
Speaker 5: I mean Sam Hide's done more than less save things

801
00:44:00,239 --> 00:44:02,440
Speaker 5: on the internet and said some more or less savory thing.

802
00:44:03,160 --> 00:44:06,640
Speaker 5: I'm saying the success in drive. If I have that

803
00:44:06,719 --> 00:44:08,640
Speaker 5: type of power, I wouldn't use it like that.

804
00:44:12,440 --> 00:44:14,080
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you guys want to say to

805
00:44:14,120 --> 00:44:15,600
Speaker 1: the people the computer before we go.

806
00:44:17,440 --> 00:44:21,680
Speaker 5: Hey, I love you twitch, I love my juicers.

807
00:44:22,040 --> 00:44:23,960
Speaker 1: And wait, what's a juicer.

808
00:44:25,600 --> 00:44:27,360
Speaker 5: It's a it's an excuse watcher.

809
00:44:28,640 --> 00:44:33,160
Speaker 1: It's a wet watcher. Excuse I don't I don't really

810
00:44:33,200 --> 00:44:34,880
Speaker 1: know anything about excuse me. I know he plays a

811
00:44:34,880 --> 00:44:36,319
Speaker 1: lot of chess.

812
00:44:37,360 --> 00:44:40,479
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean he's pretty he's pretty good chess.

813
00:44:42,320 --> 00:44:46,200
Speaker 1: Well, good luck to you. You guys seem like nice people,

814
00:44:46,440 --> 00:44:49,239
Speaker 1: and you know, give yourself some credit because I you know,

815
00:44:49,280 --> 00:44:52,560
Speaker 1: it sounds like you both started out in pretty uh,

816
00:44:52,680 --> 00:44:55,480
Speaker 1: you know, fucked up circumstances, and you both seem to

817
00:44:55,520 --> 00:45:00,399
Speaker 1: have pretty positive outlooks on life and desires to change

818
00:45:00,400 --> 00:45:04,520
Speaker 1: for the better. So you know, keep keeping the.

819
00:45:07,880 --> 00:45:12,760
Speaker 5: The They were less than favorable and and we were

820
00:45:13,200 --> 00:45:15,480
Speaker 5: we were really lost, and this conversation has helped us.

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00:45:15,400 --> 00:45:16,960
Speaker 2: A lot good.

822
00:45:19,320 --> 00:45:30,520
Speaker 1: Of course, take care guys, you two letter gek Okay,

823
00:45:30,520 --> 00:45:32,760
Speaker 1: the idea of trying to do push ups at somebody

824
00:45:32,840 --> 00:45:37,720
Speaker 1: is undeniably funny. Though I liked those guys, they seemed

825
00:45:38,920 --> 00:45:42,160
Speaker 1: they seemed nice. Hey, guys, it's Lyle here. I'm about

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Speaker 5: All from Dulton.

839
00:46:28,239 --> 00:46:30,680
Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, Dalton? What's up?

840
00:46:30,840 --> 00:46:31,319
Speaker 4: What up?

841
00:46:31,400 --> 00:46:32,160
Speaker 6: Mester Gecko?

842
00:46:32,640 --> 00:46:36,520
Speaker 1: I am just doing little lizard stuff? What's going on

843
00:46:36,560 --> 00:46:37,200
Speaker 1: with you? Dalton?

844
00:46:37,680 --> 00:46:38,160
Speaker 3: Dude?

845
00:46:38,640 --> 00:46:43,160
Speaker 6: I don't even know where to start? Man, Okay, I

846
00:46:43,360 --> 00:46:47,680
Speaker 6: just moved twenty three hundred miles away from my original hometown.

847
00:46:49,920 --> 00:46:51,360
Speaker 1: Congrats.

848
00:46:51,960 --> 00:46:54,839
Speaker 6: And it's kind of a big step for me. I'm

849
00:46:54,840 --> 00:46:59,840
Speaker 6: only twenty, so it's kind of a big junk for myself.

850
00:47:00,000 --> 00:47:03,640
Speaker 6: Did it all my little car?

851
00:47:04,440 --> 00:47:07,359
Speaker 1: What was the impetus for this twenty three hundred mile move?

852
00:47:10,280 --> 00:47:18,439
Speaker 5: Oh, I'd say just my current living situation wasn't the best.

853
00:47:18,800 --> 00:47:22,719
Speaker 5: My like family and stuff, wasn't all the best either.

854
00:47:22,760 --> 00:47:25,600
Speaker 5: I didn't have like the most support, so I moved

855
00:47:25,640 --> 00:47:28,480
Speaker 5: out here to my brother because.

856
00:47:28,520 --> 00:47:30,800
Speaker 1: Yeah, interesting, how old is your brother?

857
00:47:32,320 --> 00:47:34,759
Speaker 6: He's twenty five, twenty four?

858
00:47:34,760 --> 00:47:36,560
Speaker 1: All right, all right, so he's a little bit older.

859
00:47:36,600 --> 00:47:40,280
Speaker 1: What uh? What's how long has he been out wherever

860
00:47:40,320 --> 00:47:40,640
Speaker 1: you are?

861
00:47:41,080 --> 00:47:43,120
Speaker 6: He's been out here for a couple of years. We

862
00:47:43,160 --> 00:47:45,759
Speaker 6: have a plan on getting our own place here in

863
00:47:45,880 --> 00:47:47,759
Speaker 6: about a year or so. He's staying out here with

864
00:47:47,880 --> 00:47:50,160
Speaker 6: like family friend kind of deal thing.

865
00:47:50,560 --> 00:47:53,280
Speaker 1: Oh, so yours are you staying with him? Who's staying

866
00:47:53,320 --> 00:47:56,400
Speaker 1: with a family friend.

867
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Speaker 6: Kind of thing?

868
00:47:56,400 --> 00:47:56,640
Speaker 2: Yeah?

869
00:47:57,239 --> 00:48:00,280
Speaker 1: All right? Can I ask where you got are?

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00:48:01,840 --> 00:48:02,080
Speaker 3: Yeah?

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00:48:02,120 --> 00:48:04,720
Speaker 5: Sure, it's East coast Pennsylvania.

872
00:48:05,560 --> 00:48:07,400
Speaker 1: Cool, so you moved from the west coast, I.

873
00:48:07,400 --> 00:48:09,920
Speaker 6: Assume, yeah, Arizona.

874
00:48:11,400 --> 00:48:14,279
Speaker 1: And what do you do out there?

875
00:48:14,320 --> 00:48:14,480
Speaker 2: Do you?

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00:48:14,560 --> 00:48:15,719
Speaker 1: Did you line up a job at all?

877
00:48:17,120 --> 00:48:17,359
Speaker 4: Yeah?

878
00:48:17,520 --> 00:48:18,840
Speaker 6: Car? Just car stuff.

879
00:48:19,840 --> 00:48:21,480
Speaker 1: Cool? What's your brother do?

880
00:48:22,880 --> 00:48:24,399
Speaker 6: Same thing? Car stuff as well?

881
00:48:25,640 --> 00:48:27,120
Speaker 1: Did he get you a car job?

882
00:48:28,600 --> 00:48:28,839
Speaker 5: Yeah?

883
00:48:29,000 --> 00:48:33,600
Speaker 6: Basically, very fortunate. Off he works for a pretty cool

884
00:48:33,920 --> 00:48:34,920
Speaker 6: company Portia.

885
00:48:35,239 --> 00:48:37,239
Speaker 1: So I'm going to assume that your brother moved out

886
00:48:37,239 --> 00:48:39,799
Speaker 1: a few years ago for fairly similar reasons that you

887
00:48:40,040 --> 00:48:41,600
Speaker 1: just moved.

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00:48:41,360 --> 00:48:44,480
Speaker 6: Right on the money, brother, right on it. Yeah, exactly.

889
00:48:45,600 --> 00:48:47,080
Speaker 1: Is he your only sibling or do you guys got

890
00:48:47,080 --> 00:48:47,640
Speaker 1: anyone else?

891
00:48:48,600 --> 00:48:54,000
Speaker 6: We got one other both like mother and father sibling

892
00:48:54,480 --> 00:48:57,480
Speaker 6: and a couple like half are your friends?

893
00:48:57,520 --> 00:49:00,640
Speaker 1: Are you? Are you close with any of the or

894
00:49:00,680 --> 00:49:01,520
Speaker 1: with the other.

895
00:49:01,400 --> 00:49:08,520
Speaker 6: Hole the other whole? Yeah, she's out on the west

896
00:49:08,560 --> 00:49:12,640
Speaker 6: side and still she got her own like stuff going on,

897
00:49:13,160 --> 00:49:14,839
Speaker 6: but the half not so much.

898
00:49:16,200 --> 00:49:20,399
Speaker 1: Are you all sort of united in a commiseration over

899
00:49:20,480 --> 00:49:21,839
Speaker 1: your childhood's?

900
00:49:22,840 --> 00:49:23,080
Speaker 2: Yeah?

901
00:49:23,200 --> 00:49:27,720
Speaker 5: We all? Yeah, we all u reminisce of our fucked

902
00:49:27,800 --> 00:49:31,799
Speaker 5: up childhood now that we're getting back on our own

903
00:49:31,880 --> 00:49:35,120
Speaker 5: paths and stuff getting way better than what we were.

904
00:49:36,520 --> 00:49:37,200
Speaker 6: Brought into.

905
00:49:39,719 --> 00:49:43,400
Speaker 1: That's cool, man. That's good that you had older siblings

906
00:49:43,440 --> 00:49:46,160
Speaker 1: because then you didn't have to well I mean no,

907
00:49:46,320 --> 00:49:48,560
Speaker 1: not not to discredit you. You you made a large

908
00:49:48,640 --> 00:49:51,279
Speaker 1: jump that I'm sure was very difficult, but it must

909
00:49:51,320 --> 00:49:56,600
Speaker 1: have been nice to have older siblings that did it first,

910
00:49:56,760 --> 00:50:00,279
Speaker 1: so there was sort of a path laid o out

911
00:50:00,400 --> 00:50:02,920
Speaker 1: of some kind.

912
00:50:03,360 --> 00:50:07,360
Speaker 6: Without them, Yeah, I would have been lost for sure.

913
00:50:08,160 --> 00:50:09,000
Speaker 1: How are you feeling now?

914
00:50:09,719 --> 00:50:15,200
Speaker 5: It's a little shell shock overwhelming, but uh, overall pretty good.

915
00:50:15,640 --> 00:50:19,720
Speaker 5: I'm excited for my new journey and what it waits

916
00:50:19,719 --> 00:50:20,040
Speaker 5: for me?

917
00:50:20,800 --> 00:50:25,240
Speaker 1: Mhm, what very about? Tell me about this new journey

918
00:50:25,239 --> 00:50:25,960
Speaker 1: what it waits for you?

919
00:50:27,520 --> 00:50:31,080
Speaker 6: Well, also I've loved that like a big details. Well,

920
00:50:31,120 --> 00:50:33,240
Speaker 6: I got out of like a two year.

921
00:50:33,120 --> 00:50:38,840
Speaker 5: Relationship right before I moved, so like, yeah, that's that

922
00:50:38,960 --> 00:50:42,319
Speaker 5: was also a big like hard thing to like leave.

923
00:50:44,040 --> 00:50:46,040
Speaker 5: That was like one of the main things holding me there.

924
00:50:46,120 --> 00:50:48,360
Speaker 1: Still, how long were you with this person?

925
00:50:48,400 --> 00:50:50,480
Speaker 5: For two years?

926
00:50:51,120 --> 00:50:57,759
Speaker 1: Okay? Hmmm? Do you did it end sort of amicably

927
00:50:58,120 --> 00:50:59,120
Speaker 1: or how did it end?

928
00:51:01,760 --> 00:51:05,680
Speaker 6: It was I want to say bad, neither good. I mean,

929
00:51:05,800 --> 00:51:08,279
Speaker 6: it wasn't any It wasn't anything super terrible. It was

930
00:51:08,360 --> 00:51:14,080
Speaker 6: kind of mutual and yeah, we just went the way

931
00:51:14,239 --> 00:51:17,000
Speaker 6: that like the contact went about it and like the

932
00:51:17,080 --> 00:51:19,880
Speaker 6: no contact afterwards went about it was like super weird

933
00:51:21,160 --> 00:51:24,400
Speaker 6: and like found out she also was like fucking with

934
00:51:24,719 --> 00:51:28,120
Speaker 6: like real close homies on mine and everything like super

935
00:51:29,280 --> 00:51:32,719
Speaker 6: right after we broke up and everything, Like yeah, it

936
00:51:32,800 --> 00:51:33,960
Speaker 6: was super weird.

937
00:51:34,320 --> 00:51:37,239
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. What's your what's your friend's situation? Like, are

938
00:51:37,280 --> 00:51:39,319
Speaker 1: you still good friends with any of the folks back

939
00:51:39,360 --> 00:51:40,799
Speaker 1: in you said Arizona?

940
00:51:41,760 --> 00:51:42,600
Speaker 5: Yeah?

941
00:51:42,760 --> 00:51:44,960
Speaker 1: Are you still good friends with any of the Arizona folks?

942
00:51:46,080 --> 00:51:55,120
Speaker 5: Just a couple not not very many, most of them exactly. Yeah,

943
00:51:55,200 --> 00:51:58,440
Speaker 5: most of them were like mutual friends and ship. So

944
00:51:58,560 --> 00:52:00,600
Speaker 5: like every time I go and talk to him, I'm

945
00:52:00,600 --> 00:52:04,680
Speaker 5: hearing about that bitch, and it's like, Bro, this is

946
00:52:04,719 --> 00:52:08,080
Speaker 5: not why I'm friends with you.

947
00:52:08,280 --> 00:52:11,680
Speaker 1: Now, what about in Pennsylvania? What's your social life look like?

948
00:52:11,760 --> 00:52:11,960
Speaker 2: Now?

949
00:52:12,880 --> 00:52:15,920
Speaker 6: Nothing right now? Bro, Like, not a whole lot of anything.

950
00:52:18,520 --> 00:52:20,680
Speaker 6: Just yeah, not a whole lot of anything. It's getting

951
00:52:20,719 --> 00:52:25,240
Speaker 6: settled here myself and yeah, getting like all my legal

952
00:52:25,280 --> 00:52:29,080
Speaker 6: ship switched over, like driver's license and registration for the

953
00:52:29,120 --> 00:52:29,960
Speaker 6: car and whatnot.

954
00:52:31,120 --> 00:52:35,040
Speaker 1: M hmm. Yeah, it's hard to make that whole transition.

955
00:52:35,360 --> 00:52:39,400
Speaker 1: And then like, cause you gotta you gotta parse it out.

956
00:52:39,600 --> 00:52:42,840
Speaker 1: If you try to do all of your legal ship

957
00:52:43,000 --> 00:52:46,560
Speaker 1: and get a house and get a whole friend group

958
00:52:46,600 --> 00:52:49,960
Speaker 1: and a new girlfriend and a new job and eternal

959
00:52:50,000 --> 00:52:52,600
Speaker 1: happiness all in one week, you're gonna that's too much

960
00:52:52,600 --> 00:52:54,640
Speaker 1: pressure exactly.

961
00:52:54,840 --> 00:52:55,040
Speaker 3: Yeah.

962
00:52:55,600 --> 00:52:59,120
Speaker 6: So yeah, I'm not too too much of a social life.

963
00:52:59,800 --> 00:53:04,080
Speaker 6: I'm kind of just more focused on me and when

964
00:53:04,080 --> 00:53:08,920
Speaker 6: I got going on, and shit, it's a lot.

965
00:53:10,000 --> 00:53:13,120
Speaker 1: What's your brother's family friends deal?

966
00:53:13,680 --> 00:53:17,360
Speaker 2: That's oh man, it's a whole lot of stuff.

967
00:53:17,400 --> 00:53:20,240
Speaker 6: He met so it's not even like it's their family

968
00:53:20,360 --> 00:53:23,319
Speaker 6: now because how close he's got with them and how

969
00:53:23,360 --> 00:53:28,080
Speaker 6: amazing people they are. And he met these people through

970
00:53:28,760 --> 00:53:30,960
Speaker 6: like when he was in school, in college, when he

971
00:53:31,000 --> 00:53:34,239
Speaker 6: came out here on the jump that he made and

972
00:53:34,920 --> 00:53:37,600
Speaker 6: met this really cool friend with this really cool family,

973
00:53:38,239 --> 00:53:40,759
Speaker 6: and flash forward a few years here.

974
00:53:40,800 --> 00:53:44,040
Speaker 1: We are nice. Nice? Are you have you become close

975
00:53:44,080 --> 00:53:44,600
Speaker 1: with them too?

976
00:53:45,880 --> 00:53:49,400
Speaker 6: Very yeah, they're super super awesome. They're super cool people.

977
00:53:49,640 --> 00:53:51,920
Speaker 1: It's very cool of them to like let your brother

978
00:53:52,160 --> 00:53:54,759
Speaker 1: crash on their couch and then have your brother be like, hey,

979
00:53:55,239 --> 00:53:57,960
Speaker 1: can my brother crash on your couch too? And they're like.

980
00:53:58,080 --> 00:53:59,200
Speaker 6: Yeah, type shit.

981
00:53:59,320 --> 00:53:59,520
Speaker 4: Yeah.

982
00:53:59,560 --> 00:54:04,279
Speaker 6: Well they have a really big, beautiful home and they

983
00:54:04,360 --> 00:54:08,399
Speaker 6: had a bunch of kids living here like a few

984
00:54:08,440 --> 00:54:11,839
Speaker 6: years ago, and they all moved on to like colleges

985
00:54:12,000 --> 00:54:15,000
Speaker 6: and stuff. So they were like more than happy to

986
00:54:15,040 --> 00:54:15,560
Speaker 6: have us come.

987
00:54:16,080 --> 00:54:17,360
Speaker 1: How do you guys know these people?

988
00:54:17,600 --> 00:54:20,759
Speaker 6: He met them through when he was in school, when

989
00:54:20,800 --> 00:54:22,680
Speaker 6: he was in college a college friend.

990
00:54:23,760 --> 00:54:28,440
Speaker 1: Word. And so you're twenty, right, did you ever want

991
00:54:28,480 --> 00:54:31,160
Speaker 1: to go to college or do anything like that or

992
00:54:31,440 --> 00:54:34,760
Speaker 1: were you always trying to just go straight into life?

993
00:54:35,360 --> 00:54:38,960
Speaker 6: See I've been I was forced to just be straight

994
00:54:39,000 --> 00:54:43,879
Speaker 6: into life since like fifteen sixteen, probably even younger. So like, yeah,

995
00:54:43,960 --> 00:54:48,360
Speaker 6: I haven't really thought of that. I haven't been in

996
00:54:48,360 --> 00:54:53,759
Speaker 6: that position too, but I'm sure like one day, if

997
00:54:53,800 --> 00:54:58,280
Speaker 6: I get in the financial rim of that, I would

998
00:54:58,280 --> 00:54:58,640
Speaker 6: love to.

999
00:54:59,040 --> 00:55:03,799
Speaker 1: But yeah, yeah, do you have some kind of like

1000
00:55:04,040 --> 00:55:08,200
Speaker 1: ultimate like thing that you want to pursue or do?

1001
00:55:08,880 --> 00:55:15,560
Speaker 6: Many things? Many many things. I'm like, I've just watched

1002
00:55:15,560 --> 00:55:20,799
Speaker 6: one of your videos of the motorcycle Dude. Yeah, I'm

1003
00:55:20,840 --> 00:55:23,160
Speaker 6: a bit like motorcycle Dude.

1004
00:55:23,520 --> 00:55:25,880
Speaker 1: Like I hope, I hope you're not too much like

1005
00:55:25,960 --> 00:55:27,959
Speaker 1: motorcycle Dude. He's a cool guy.

1006
00:55:28,080 --> 00:55:32,919
Speaker 5: But oh yeah, fell backtrack, Oh, backtrack, that's too much

1007
00:55:33,000 --> 00:55:34,000
Speaker 5: like motorcycle man.

1008
00:55:34,040 --> 00:55:38,360
Speaker 6: Okay, he has some pretty wild attributes going on for himself.

1009
00:55:38,400 --> 00:55:41,720
Speaker 6: But no, no, no, no, just in the speed demon sense

1010
00:55:41,800 --> 00:55:43,480
Speaker 6: and the riding motorcycles?

1011
00:55:45,560 --> 00:55:48,360
Speaker 1: Are you are you? Do you like to ride motorcycles?

1012
00:55:48,400 --> 00:55:48,879
Speaker 3: Love too?

1013
00:55:49,000 --> 00:55:49,600
Speaker 2: Yeah?

1014
00:55:49,760 --> 00:55:51,440
Speaker 1: That was the when I said I hope you're not

1015
00:55:51,480 --> 00:55:54,120
Speaker 1: too much like motorcycle guy. That was the one thing

1016
00:55:54,160 --> 00:55:57,440
Speaker 1: I was referring to. Although that was a dumb thing

1017
00:55:57,480 --> 00:56:00,840
Speaker 1: of me to say, because if you say you're like

1018
00:56:00,920 --> 00:56:03,480
Speaker 1: motorcycle guy and then I go, well, I hope not

1019
00:56:03,640 --> 00:56:06,480
Speaker 1: the part of motorcycle guy that likes motorcycles. But yet

1020
00:56:06,480 --> 00:56:10,040
Speaker 1: we're referring to him as motorcycle guy. It's like, what

1021
00:56:10,120 --> 00:56:12,560
Speaker 1: other fucking part of him would you be referring to?

1022
00:56:12,760 --> 00:56:15,799
Speaker 6: So yeah, true, that true.

1023
00:56:15,840 --> 00:56:16,040
Speaker 2: That.

1024
00:56:18,239 --> 00:56:18,439
Speaker 5: Yeah.

1025
00:56:18,480 --> 00:56:25,080
Speaker 6: I love motorcycles. I love adrenaline stuff. I go to

1026
00:56:25,520 --> 00:56:28,040
Speaker 6: raves and shit, I'm super excited for raves out here.

1027
00:56:28,040 --> 00:56:31,200
Speaker 6: I see you do that, like, uh, electric Forest and

1028
00:56:31,320 --> 00:56:33,239
Speaker 6: you go to Yeah.

1029
00:56:33,280 --> 00:56:38,160
Speaker 1: Yeah, I did Electric Forest back in the summer and

1030
00:56:38,160 --> 00:56:39,240
Speaker 1: it was it was really awesome.

1031
00:56:40,560 --> 00:56:43,720
Speaker 6: Yeah, so I'm super excited for some East coast raids

1032
00:56:43,800 --> 00:56:44,320
Speaker 6: and stuff.

1033
00:56:45,360 --> 00:56:46,480
Speaker 1: Where in Pennsylvania are you?

1034
00:56:47,000 --> 00:56:47,680
Speaker 6: Westchester?

1035
00:56:48,360 --> 00:56:51,680
Speaker 1: West Chester? How far? How I I know people who

1036
00:56:51,680 --> 00:56:54,640
Speaker 1: are like from there. How close is that to Philly?

1037
00:56:55,440 --> 00:56:59,640
Speaker 6: Like not even an hour? Like right under an hour?

1038
00:57:00,120 --> 00:57:01,359
Speaker 1: Have you ever been to Philadelphia?

1039
00:57:02,239 --> 00:57:02,399
Speaker 4: Oh?

1040
00:57:02,480 --> 00:57:03,920
Speaker 6: Yeah, I love going to Philly.

1041
00:57:03,960 --> 00:57:04,120
Speaker 2: Bro.

1042
00:57:04,280 --> 00:57:05,839
Speaker 6: There's nothing like a Philly cheese sick.

1043
00:57:06,600 --> 00:57:06,759
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1044
00:57:06,760 --> 00:57:11,000
Speaker 1: Philly is a great city, man, I love it. Well, look, dude,

1045
00:57:11,040 --> 00:57:15,480
Speaker 1: I think, first of all, big up on you. I'm

1046
00:57:15,480 --> 00:57:18,479
Speaker 1: glad that you made the decision to get the fuck

1047
00:57:18,520 --> 00:57:20,600
Speaker 1: out right, because you could have just stayed. It would

1048
00:57:20,640 --> 00:57:22,720
Speaker 1: have been more comfortable for you to stay, but you

1049
00:57:22,800 --> 00:57:27,320
Speaker 1: got out and now you're I mean, even if things

1050
00:57:27,320 --> 00:57:29,520
Speaker 1: are in sort of a transitionary period right now, it

1051
00:57:29,560 --> 00:57:33,240
Speaker 1: sounds as though they're going to iron out and you'll

1052
00:57:33,240 --> 00:57:35,760
Speaker 1: be glad you left. So good on you for that.

1053
00:57:37,520 --> 00:57:38,160
Speaker 6: Thank you, sir.

1054
00:57:39,520 --> 00:57:42,400
Speaker 1: Is there any other things? It's okay if not, But

1055
00:57:42,480 --> 00:57:44,800
Speaker 1: is there anything else like kind of going on or

1056
00:57:44,840 --> 00:57:46,959
Speaker 1: anything else that you want to talk about or say

1057
00:57:46,960 --> 00:57:47,960
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer.

1058
00:57:49,400 --> 00:57:57,560
Speaker 6: Oh really, yeah, not exactly, brother, not exactly. I'm really

1059
00:57:57,600 --> 00:57:59,680
Speaker 6: grateful to talk to you. I've tried to call you

1060
00:57:59,720 --> 00:58:03,000
Speaker 6: about thousands of times, so I'm glad to reach to

1061
00:58:03,040 --> 00:58:05,680
Speaker 6: you once. And it was nice speaking to you.

1062
00:58:06,480 --> 00:58:11,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, nice speaking to you too. That's a cool sort

1063
00:58:11,640 --> 00:58:15,600
Speaker 1: of recurring theme I think we've talked about on here

1064
00:58:16,320 --> 00:58:23,200
Speaker 1: is people trying to reinvent themselves or get away from

1065
00:58:23,200 --> 00:58:27,160
Speaker 1: what's comfortable and go out on a limb like you did,

1066
00:58:27,200 --> 00:58:30,120
Speaker 1: and you know it's not easy. So again, perhaps Anya.

1067
00:58:30,880 --> 00:58:33,160
Speaker 6: Thank you, sir, Thank you, have a good time. Ma'm

1068
00:58:34,080 --> 00:58:34,600
Speaker 6: you as well.

1069
00:58:40,680 --> 00:58:44,640
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1070
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Speaker 3: Liza, I've been experienting with dissati disorder.

1080
00:59:28,000 --> 00:59:30,400
Speaker 1: You've been experiencing dissociative disorder.

1081
00:59:30,880 --> 00:59:36,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, after a a bad trip. You know, I've seen

1082
00:59:36,560 --> 00:59:41,080
Speaker 3: a doctor and all, but it's it's a very particular

1083
00:59:41,400 --> 00:59:42,280
Speaker 3: state of mind.

1084
00:59:42,960 --> 00:59:43,840
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1085
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Speaker 3: I'm calling from a Quebec.

1086
00:59:48,000 --> 00:59:50,960
Speaker 1: Oh. Oh you're French. Okay, I thought you were fucking

1087
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1092
01:00:11,760 --> 01:00:14,920
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1093
01:00:14,960 --> 01:00:18,120
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1094
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