WEBVTT - Therapy Isn't Enough Feat. Inayah

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<v Speaker 1>Once upon a time there was a good old traditional housewife.

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<v Speaker 1>She cooked, she cleaned, cared for her children and the

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<v Speaker 1>man of the house, and of course.

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<v Speaker 2>She didn't talk back.

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<v Speaker 1>She was both obedient and soft by nature. She was

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<v Speaker 1>a good woman who always made good choices. That ship,

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<v Speaker 1>we're good Mom's bad choices. Who single mom? Who said

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<v Speaker 1>about the patriarchy? You shared all their bad choices and

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<v Speaker 1>found out they weren't so bad after all. We're experts.

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<v Speaker 2>Over chairs and your new bestie.

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<v Speaker 1>Sit back and the ride. I can do it.

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<v Speaker 2>Welcome back to good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm Mila. Happy hump day, bitches, Happy by the fucking

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<v Speaker 2>hemp day. Hi, Hi, I got humped last night.

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<v Speaker 1>We too, I was so happy.

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<v Speaker 3>Actually no, not last night, two days ago on the

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<v Speaker 3>air mattress. Oh well, we went old school with it.

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<v Speaker 1>I left.

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<v Speaker 3>I was Iris's birthday last weekend and we had an

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<v Speaker 3>air mattress because we had a sleepover, and I said,

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<v Speaker 3>leave it.

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<v Speaker 2>Were you trying to like, were you trying to like

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<v Speaker 2>role play, like like like what like college? I don't

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<v Speaker 2>have any money that the heirs leaving the mattress? No

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<v Speaker 2>role plan, I know you love role playing, But there

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<v Speaker 2>was no plan. It was just an air mattress and

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<v Speaker 2>we had sex. I would not just in my regular

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<v Speaker 2>house and with the mattresses available, I wouldn't opt to

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<v Speaker 2>be like, let's do the mair we were downstairs. Well,

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<v Speaker 2>the couch is not stable. What kind of sex do

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<v Speaker 2>you having?

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<v Speaker 1>Is it slow? What the air mattress is sturdy? Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>maybe they make him different now I haven't guy who

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<v Speaker 1>won a long time? Have you air mattress report years ago?

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<v Speaker 1>When I didn't have a mattress? Why did you have

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<v Speaker 1>a mattress?

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<v Speaker 2>Because I was in college like everybody else that was

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<v Speaker 2>nobody has called the dorms have mattresses.

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<v Speaker 1>This is why I moved an adult with a house.

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<v Speaker 2>And several mattresses, just opting for the air mattress.

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<v Speaker 1>Anyway, it is great. Sorry, I'm not coming for your

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<v Speaker 1>air mattress sex. I just had a question. I have answers. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>thank you, it was satisfied. It's great. Anyway, enough about that.

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<v Speaker 1>We have a guest today. I'm cracking.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah lately, no, because have you ever in life when

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<v Speaker 2>I was younger yet exactly what's a young woman's sport?

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<v Speaker 1>You don't do as an adults. I got problem, but

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<v Speaker 1>she was already asked, hey, yeah, I'm a naya write

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<v Speaker 1>to it very important.

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<v Speaker 3>So we have a special guest today. We have a songwriter,

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<v Speaker 3>an artist, a singer, a mother overall bad bitch. Thank

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<v Speaker 3>you girl, So.

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to the show. Andy, Thank you for having me.

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<v Speaker 1>This is awesome.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you for giggling at all. And we wanted you

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<v Speaker 2>to come on. We were like asking a lot our friends,

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<v Speaker 2>and I want you to know. I don't know if

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<v Speaker 2>you know this. You're huge in the gay community.

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<v Speaker 1>Huge.

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<v Speaker 3>I do know the huge, I do know the wait.

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<v Speaker 3>So yes, I love you, yeah, and I love him.

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<v Speaker 3>Your management reached out and I was like, well, let

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<v Speaker 3>me look her up. And then I saw that, like

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<v Speaker 3>one of my favorite gays followed you. And then she

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<v Speaker 3>must have saw that one of her favorite gays followed my.

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<v Speaker 2>Favorite gay, my cousin Chris, who is my favorite gay.

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<v Speaker 2>He knows all the music, he knows all my wait.

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<v Speaker 2>So so I sent him you and that she sent

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<v Speaker 2>her gay. And then but we didn't know we were

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<v Speaker 2>doing this.

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<v Speaker 1>This is some separate things.

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<v Speaker 3>And then she was like, oh, I'm like yeah, and

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<v Speaker 3>I said so funny because I said it to my

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<v Speaker 3>favorite gay and he said have her on and I

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<v Speaker 3>was like very like.

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<v Speaker 1>Smoking was like, well, when's she coming?

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<v Speaker 2>I said, well two days from now, said yeah, coming

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<v Speaker 2>see me.

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<v Speaker 1>He's in New York. He really wanted me. I just

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<v Speaker 1>lives New York too.

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<v Speaker 2>Well next time, cousin, Chris, this one's for you and

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<v Speaker 2>I she's my friend.

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<v Speaker 1>Now.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I get so much support from the LGBTQ community.

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<v Speaker 3>Uh if any I would like to say, dare I say?

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<v Speaker 3>I feel like they are a nice majority of my

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<v Speaker 3>fan base.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, the one thing's about is it not politically

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<v Speaker 2>correct to say the gays because that's how I refer

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<v Speaker 2>to them in that personal life.

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<v Speaker 1>I love that.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know, I'm a former gay. I just call

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<v Speaker 3>them my annihilators. They don't matter who they are.

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<v Speaker 1>Annihilators. Thank you girl. I'm an annihilator now period.

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<v Speaker 3>I feel like the gays, I'm go ahead and call

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<v Speaker 3>them the gays, the gay the games spend money, the games.

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<v Speaker 1>Doing, I can fight like a mother. We actually might

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<v Speaker 1>need to get were our gays. Yeah, we need to

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<v Speaker 1>up our gay community. We're not doing you know. And

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<v Speaker 1>now that she's on the show, maybe they'll come from

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<v Speaker 1>now that you're here, guys, Just so you know, I actually.

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<v Speaker 2>Am in I'm a part of the family. I used

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<v Speaker 2>to be lesbian. I don't identify anymore because I got

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<v Speaker 2>married to a man. But once you're in the gay community,

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<v Speaker 2>you're owners in the gay community.

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<v Speaker 1>So is it such thing as that we're Are you

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<v Speaker 1>a retired lesbian?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna come out from retirement from here, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>time to time. Just I'm feeling frisky.

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<v Speaker 1>But is that the correct like? Can I cite it

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<v Speaker 1>retired all the time? Okay, but I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm retired, but I still consider myself.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm sure that I'm sure that the true full blooded

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<v Speaker 3>lesbians might take issue with this, but I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>The lesbians still love me.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm I'm just saying, you know, you know, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>may be sensitive, dmn me if you think that I

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<v Speaker 2>should be out, Well, I'm I'm a I'm a I'm

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<v Speaker 2>a buy fun bitch.

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<v Speaker 1>So and I've dipped my tippy on the weekend.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm dipping exactly what trade nine and seven am exactly?

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<v Speaker 1>Now she got by fun. I was a fucking apparation.

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<v Speaker 1>It's my foot.

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<v Speaker 3>I recently rejoined and reopened my Buy Fun app.

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<v Speaker 1>Field, and I need any report that it sucks.

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<v Speaker 2>You're gonna fuck up our endorsement possibility.

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<v Speaker 1>They paid us in three years week.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, well, Field, if you need d I recruit, we

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<v Speaker 2>volunteer as tribute.

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<v Speaker 1>We need we help, we need help do our own.

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<v Speaker 3>Ashley said, I need to expand my my searches more

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<v Speaker 3>because I'm just in LA and I was like, okay,

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<v Speaker 3>I can, but La La searches are going to be

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<v Speaker 3>always on the white side.

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<v Speaker 1>What is the okay?

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<v Speaker 4>So?

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<v Speaker 3>Field is a Field is like a website and an app,

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<v Speaker 3>a dating app for people that are like, not necessarily

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<v Speaker 3>alternative lifestyles, but like people that have.

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<v Speaker 1>Specific kinks or specific things that they're looking.

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<v Speaker 2>Unicorn or if you want to be a unicorn, or

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<v Speaker 2>if you or even if like you are looking for

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<v Speaker 2>love but you are, but you require specific things like

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<v Speaker 2>your suburb. You can find your husband on opening that tell.

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<v Speaker 1>Us girl, I never heard any Is she okay?

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<v Speaker 2>So sorry we just jumped into all this crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>No, No, it's fine.

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<v Speaker 2>So what is so You're not an the LGBTQ plus,

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<v Speaker 2>are you buy fun? How do you identify I'm engaged?

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<v Speaker 1>To a man. You never eate pussy before. I've never

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<v Speaker 1>eaten a vagina before.

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<v Speaker 2>Really, I at least like that just went wow, look

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<v Speaker 2>look at this.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you fucking kidding me? Right now? What is what

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<v Speaker 1>is this? Field? She got a dog on her profile.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't in a turtle, nick, you know what? She

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<v Speaker 1>has her dog?

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<v Speaker 3>This is this is the profile if the people see

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<v Speaker 3>that are interested in her.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, that's why I made that profile. Years ago we

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<v Speaker 2>discovered Oh my gosh, maybe she just.

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<v Speaker 1>Want the people to know, like, hey, I come with it.

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<v Speaker 2>This comes along I mean that's what you know for

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<v Speaker 2>you come straight up as a dog with a sweater

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<v Speaker 2>and a barrett. But that picture gives that How you

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<v Speaker 2>say that la vegghead girl pursuing an MSW?

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<v Speaker 1>What the fuck is ms W? Mutual sexual This is

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<v Speaker 1>a problem. Look at it.

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<v Speaker 2>They have a lot of like acronyms that I don't smation.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm a woman wants.

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<v Speaker 3>But anyway, I think the dog is she just letting

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<v Speaker 3>people know, like, hey, this is a part to me.

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<v Speaker 1>If you want to if you want to get with me,

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<v Speaker 1>this comes with this. Well we have it.

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<v Speaker 2>We actually back in the day when we were single,

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<v Speaker 2>we had an epidemic.

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<v Speaker 1>We were on the dating apps a lot, and what.

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<v Speaker 2>We discovered is people over thirty with no kids adopt.

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<v Speaker 1>Maybe it's white people.

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<v Speaker 2>Maybe it's la adopt puppies and animals as their children

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<v Speaker 2>take them everywhere, including in their profile pictures.

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<v Speaker 1>And it was very annoying.

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<v Speaker 2>And we actually I dated two guys with a dog

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<v Speaker 2>and they wouldn't leave the fucking dog at home.

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<v Speaker 3>Ever, that's definitely a thing out here. Yeah, I got ja.

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<v Speaker 3>Dogs and strolls don't do that. Hell now the dog

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<v Speaker 3>on a damn leash.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh you guys.

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<v Speaker 2>Update MSW has nothing to do with her sexual preference.

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<v Speaker 2>It's actually she's pursuing a Master's of Social Work Sexuality specialize.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh so she's just smart. She's sex in school. She's

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<v Speaker 1>going to school. Okay, god the he she looks smart

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<v Speaker 1>with that barette, but that dog needs take that sweat anyway,

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<v Speaker 1>it's dry.

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<v Speaker 2>You're going back on field. So you are you getting, like,

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<v Speaker 2>what's happening? Butt of meat in fat? I saw them already.

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<v Speaker 2>What what the It's a profile of a couple and

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<v Speaker 2>called meat in fat cute but.

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<v Speaker 1>Saying like.

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<v Speaker 3>I gotta see this, you know what, let me let

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<v Speaker 3>me just put you know for what I'm about to see.

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<v Speaker 3>They're cute.

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<v Speaker 1>They're cute. Is it just people have different names because

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<v Speaker 1>they don't want to put their real names on.

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<v Speaker 2>Why he ain't showing his face though, keeps rolling. He's

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<v Speaker 2>there actually speaking of sex and field, I have an

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<v Speaker 2>announcement to make. It's been a long time coming.

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<v Speaker 1>Get these please.

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<v Speaker 2>I am co hosting a June teenth play party with

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<v Speaker 2>the prints of play Parties the play oh.

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<v Speaker 1>Period June nineteenth in LA.

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<v Speaker 2>Get your tickets and actually this is going to be

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<v Speaker 2>We're coming together for diversity. I'm here to bring the

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<v Speaker 2>d I to the play It's fortune teenth. We're decolonizing pleasure.

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<v Speaker 2>We're getting regulating your nervous system. We're doing rebellious active pleasure.

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<v Speaker 2>Bring your unicorns, bring your niggas, come single, bring your husbands,

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<v Speaker 2>put your kids to bed downtown l A.

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<v Speaker 1>What is there a theme? I'm obviously actually yes, the

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<v Speaker 1>theme is the matrix. Oh that sounds like I have

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<v Speaker 1>a question? Can I what's a unicorn? Really? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, so say you and you're heavy, we're in the

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<v Speaker 2>shopping for a third that would be the unicorn.

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<v Speaker 1>You want a girl too, Okay, yeah, no, I'm cool.

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<v Speaker 1>What's your birthday? I share November eighth, Scorpio. I'm not sure. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm a Scorpia. What day period?

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<v Speaker 3>But you know what, I have to say something about that, Okay,

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<v Speaker 3>I recently do got a conviction on astrology, somebody I'm

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<v Speaker 3>somebody who would live and die, live and live by astrology.

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<v Speaker 3>Recently I was given insight, spiritual insight that astrology is

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<v Speaker 3>opposite of my faith. It's arguable, Yes, I felt those deep,

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<v Speaker 3>I felt them, and that.

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<v Speaker 1>Was my same reaction. But I'm also but how did

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<v Speaker 1>you heard the whole time in church? Not they alway

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<v Speaker 1>talk about they always say this stuff.

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<v Speaker 3>I haven't really this was This was my first time

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<v Speaker 3>in my adult life with this conversation being brought to me.

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<v Speaker 3>And I'm i'm'n talk about. Yeah, I'm Scorpio. Everything they

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<v Speaker 3>say about us, it's true. Woot the wool Alliday?

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<v Speaker 1>Right?

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<v Speaker 3>So I asked, if we are made up of the

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<v Speaker 3>same substances of the earth, the same elements. When we cry,

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<v Speaker 3>our tears are salt water, same as the ocean. When

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<v Speaker 3>we die, we turn back into dust. If we have

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<v Speaker 3>all of these things, and motherfucker's be going crazy when

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<v Speaker 3>it's a full moon, Like we're directly connected right with

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<v Speaker 3>all the elements. Why what's what's the issue with me

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<v Speaker 3>identifying or saying that I'm a scorpio? And what I

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<v Speaker 3>was told was that it's because that's what you're using

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<v Speaker 3>as your identity, that's who you are, versus being a

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<v Speaker 3>believer in Christ. You're believer in astrology. I personally have

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<v Speaker 3>never taken it that deep before. Can you be a

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<v Speaker 3>believer in Christ and still be a scorpio?

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<v Speaker 1>But in Christ? I definitely dot. I didn't make the

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<v Speaker 1>moon and the stars of the earth. This is this

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<v Speaker 1>is ality, This is all the same things I say.

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<v Speaker 4>Y'all.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I'm gonna be honest.

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<v Speaker 2>You're not with the most religious girlies. We're more spiritual.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, I'm serial first, I'm spiritual.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not really I don't even God.

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<v Speaker 2>But you know what, there's so many rules and regulations

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<v Speaker 2>of Bible that I think have been misinterpreted and manwashed,

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<v Speaker 2>and absolutely.

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<v Speaker 1>I agree with that.

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<v Speaker 2>And also I'm not somebody who lives and dies like

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<v Speaker 2>I know, I know what I am. There's things that

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<v Speaker 2>I relate to, there's things that I don't. But I'm

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<v Speaker 2>not gonna be like I'm not going out because they

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<v Speaker 2>said don't go out, and I'm a cancer on Tuesdays.

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<v Speaker 1>Like you know, like you take everything with a grain

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<v Speaker 1>of salt. Yeah, for sure, definitely agree. I think God

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<v Speaker 1>gave us tools for a reason.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, and using your astrology and understanding your astrology and

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<v Speaker 3>the way you're connected to the elements is a.

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<v Speaker 1>Tool given to us by God.

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<v Speaker 3>So I don't see the I don't really understand the

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<v Speaker 3>what you say conviction personally for.

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<v Speaker 2>Me, I don't think it's a conflict of interest, just

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<v Speaker 2>like some people say, like sage or stones or you know,

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<v Speaker 2>like crystals. The Nigga made those two apparently, So I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know why in the Bible if I had one

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<v Speaker 2>of my purse ultras in the Bible.

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<v Speaker 3>The church that I go to talks about this, and

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<v Speaker 3>this is when I start going, Okay, yep.

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<v Speaker 1>Halleloyah Man Jesus.

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<v Speaker 3>I also am very spiritual. I have my own personal

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<v Speaker 3>relationship with Christ. That's my dog.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, thats like when you question him.

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<v Speaker 3>My father loves when I ask him questions because I'd

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<v Speaker 3>be real confused about how ghetto Earth is.

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<v Speaker 1>So I get it. There's much controversy around there.

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<v Speaker 3>But yeah, I was just sharing that that I had

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<v Speaker 3>never heard that before until my adult.

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<v Speaker 2>Wow, I'm surprised you haven't, because I've heard a lot

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<v Speaker 2>in church and through after people.

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<v Speaker 1>Even we had a for guest on a few weeks ago.

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<v Speaker 1>She refused to pick a card. And that's not the

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<v Speaker 1>first time this happened, you know, refuse to pick a card?

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<v Speaker 1>Do it? Arry hard?

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<v Speaker 2>And she was like, Oh, that's what the man is.

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<v Speaker 2>I thought that was your board game. No, that's just

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<v Speaker 2>terror card.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you want to pick one? I don't.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, I will pick it for you. Okay, teach your own.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, there's no peer pressure over here coming. I

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<v Speaker 2>noticed what they were. I listen, like you said, guide me.

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<v Speaker 1>God, believe me along the way.

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<v Speaker 3>Everyone's walked with God truly his personal It is absolutely

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<v Speaker 3>what is working with you that might not work for me.

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<v Speaker 3>You know that's good and the guy and the Bible

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<v Speaker 3>everyone interprets interprets it different. You go to one church

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<v Speaker 3>they're saying this thing, another church they're saying this thing.

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<v Speaker 3>So it's really like, what is your spirit feel called

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<v Speaker 3>to when you hear those words? What rings true genuinely

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<v Speaker 3>to yourself?

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<v Speaker 2>And oh my God could judge men? God, I'm not

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<v Speaker 2>here to hear your rules.

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<v Speaker 1>That me and God. That's got personal. And Jesus best

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<v Speaker 1>friends was dope.

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<v Speaker 2>Dope dealers. He loves collected, This was his dog.

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<v Speaker 1>Jesus loved the hors. She loved me. Jesus loves me.

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<v Speaker 1>We been a singer and all of my fuck the way. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>let's talk about singing. Let's talk about your career and music.

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<v Speaker 2>Wait, have you made any bad choices this week before

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<v Speaker 2>you get into that?

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<v Speaker 5>Okay, oh you have, girl, I had some positive two

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<v Speaker 5>nights in a row, and I'm supposed to be on

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<v Speaker 5>my sixty day journey right now, and this is week

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<v Speaker 5>two of my my my weight loss journey, and I'm

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<v Speaker 5>supposed to be counting.

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<v Speaker 2>Carbs and not at the bullshit. I had bought some

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<v Speaker 2>novel twice and it was delicious. You know, Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 2>feel bad, don't that's gonna make a gain weight. If

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<v Speaker 2>you don't feel bad, it will just keep you skinny.

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<v Speaker 2>I really feel like it's the energy, Like if you

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<v Speaker 2>feel bad, it's gonna stick.

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<v Speaker 1>If you don't feel bad, sink skiny thouts. Okay, no,

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<v Speaker 1>when you like this is good for my body. It's

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<v Speaker 1>nourishing me.

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<v Speaker 2>It's running right through and I'm gonna nourishments and then

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<v Speaker 2>no weight. You gotta just like put your intentions on

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<v Speaker 2>the woman.

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<v Speaker 1>You will not discriminate against. I'm not discriminating. You have

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<v Speaker 1>no idea what it feels like to gain weight. You

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<v Speaker 1>look amazing and not feel good about it. Have you

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<v Speaker 1>ever gained weight and been like, damn I fat when

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<v Speaker 1>I was pregnant?

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<v Speaker 2>Girls?

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<v Speaker 1>Shut up? Girl? Have you ever not been able to

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<v Speaker 1>gain weight and be like, damn, what am I going

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<v Speaker 1>to get some weight? No hurt. Your testimony is different

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<v Speaker 1>than mine. What you see, what you did that?

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<v Speaker 2>I was good.

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<v Speaker 1>You just made snort.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>I can't wait for those days.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, I want just.

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<v Speaker 1>You know it was black because Jamaica did a look,

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<v Speaker 1>oh it's that you see.

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<v Speaker 2>That was to say, yep, maybe I had all the all.

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<v Speaker 1>The festival and death. I said, baby, if I don't

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<v Speaker 1>come back five pounds like I don't.

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<v Speaker 2>Every meal, I just have to say, y'all, we have

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<v Speaker 2>a new engineer in the building and he happens to

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<v Speaker 2>be my stepfather.

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<v Speaker 3>And I'm so sorry, Rory. You're going to know so

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<v Speaker 3>many things you didn't ask to know about me, And

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<v Speaker 3>already apologies, don't mom? Yeah, I already apologize.

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<v Speaker 2>She was like, that's your that's that's a Sugar Daddy.

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, no, that's Erica's stepdad. Sorry, mister Maury.

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<v Speaker 1>I was so.

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<v Speaker 2>You know what I mean, Eric have never been successful

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<v Speaker 2>at Sugar Daddy, and it's not been.

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<v Speaker 3>Our we haven't been successful. I should have wrote a

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<v Speaker 3>book on the sheet. But that's my past life and

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<v Speaker 3>that song just will not die.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, tell us about that, I mean the song, but

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<v Speaker 1>more what about the Sugar Daddy? The song?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, we'll talk about it from the song's perspective. No,

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<v Speaker 3>I mean I was just the young I was the

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<v Speaker 3>younger single mama. Uh, I just needed some of the

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<v Speaker 3>pressure off. And I you know, how.

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<v Speaker 1>Did you acquire one cruity? How we're what I mean?

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<v Speaker 2>We met at a bar actually, and it ain't even

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<v Speaker 2>nothing deep, like you know how bitches be trying to like, okay,

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<v Speaker 2>so where do I go at?

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<v Speaker 1>What time? And what do I need? It's not even

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<v Speaker 1>in deep. I met this nigga ed was he older? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Was it Beverly Hills cause the's certain bars was like

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<v Speaker 2>a high end bar. Was a Mexican bar on Taco Tuesday.

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<v Speaker 2>It wasn't even that deep for real? Was he rich

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<v Speaker 2>rich or?

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<v Speaker 1>Like not? Was that the Taco Tuesday? Was he rich

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<v Speaker 1>rich or? Was he we're tired? We retired NFL player? Yeah? Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>invested his money well past life though past life. She

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<v Speaker 1>just got too She was just getting too thick. You know.

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<v Speaker 3>He started falling in love and that wasn't that. It

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<v Speaker 3>wasn't How long was her sugar daddy? About a year

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<v Speaker 3>and some change.

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<v Speaker 2>Shout out to the girlies who can long term maintain

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<v Speaker 2>a sugar daddy? Now if you Yeah, my mom is

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<v Speaker 2>one of them.

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<v Speaker 1>She's she's really good.

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<v Speaker 2>At it, like I Perry almost some people just have

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<v Speaker 2>it in their DNA.

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<v Speaker 1>My mom didn't give that to me. All right, this

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<v Speaker 1>has skipped over here too. My patience is low. My

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<v Speaker 1>Amie taught me my patience could be high for a

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<v Speaker 1>sugar daddy. I could. I could up my patience all

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<v Speaker 1>you would think, And it's not the same.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean for a little bit of time. It could

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<v Speaker 3>depend on how you know, how many bills need to

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<v Speaker 3>get paid? Okay, if we if we count by the bills,

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<v Speaker 3>then I say I get where you're going with that.

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<v Speaker 3>But the level of tolerance you do have to have

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<v Speaker 3>a lot of patients. Like you, you got a young pussy,

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<v Speaker 3>you know what I'm saying, you beatting it on this

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<v Speaker 3>old nigga. Sorry, mister Rory is he and he's al

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<v Speaker 3>right here right?

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<v Speaker 1>These are a lot of it moments. Huh. You're like

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<v Speaker 1>when you he sent you something that's not sexy and

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<v Speaker 1>you'd be.

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<v Speaker 3>Like, I can say I was one of the I

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<v Speaker 3>was on the lookier side.

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<v Speaker 1>He was attractor, is really good and he was pretty

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<v Speaker 1>attractive that I can handle. That's not even sugar daddy,

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<v Speaker 1>that's just an old nigga. Who's your old nigga? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 3>That was great ideal he was still but I enjoyed,

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<v Speaker 3>but like I wasn't annoyed by Okay, I got to

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<v Speaker 3>this nigga because I need that.

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<v Speaker 1>That was looked up for you. But the plan wasn't

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<v Speaker 1>for him to fall in love. Did you have to

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<v Speaker 1>ask or did he just give? With both?

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<v Speaker 3>It was a mix of It was a mix of both.

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<v Speaker 3>He liked for me to ask because he knew he

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<v Speaker 3>was gonna get splissy.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. Oh God, So I just have a flashback

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<v Speaker 1>I'm scared. Yeah, it was. It was. I could see

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<v Speaker 1>you didn't. I could see the disgust on your face.

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<v Speaker 1>It was fine, No, it actually was.

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<v Speaker 3>It was fine for the time that I needed it

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<v Speaker 3>to be motiv I'm just happy to not have to

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<v Speaker 3>be in that space anymore because I became way too

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<v Speaker 3>dependent on that, too comfortable with, you know, and I

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<v Speaker 3>didn't like the power that he had over me financially.

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<v Speaker 1>So yeah, I had to grow the fuck up. How'd

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<v Speaker 1>you end it? I just did.

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, yeah, my life is going in a

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<v Speaker 3>different direction. You want something that I can't provide. So

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<v Speaker 3>and it didn't end well either, Like he was just like, I.

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<v Speaker 1>Want back all the money I ever gave you. Good luck. Yeah, lord,

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<v Speaker 1>it's gone. Baby. That broke up. That breakup broke his heart.

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<v Speaker 1>Has he moved on?

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<v Speaker 2>I don't fucking know that ship. I'm engaged to a

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<v Speaker 2>motherfucking Jamaican. Did good conversation, good everything. Shout out to

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<v Speaker 2>the Jamaican. This is a commercial for Jamaicans. They cook,

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<v Speaker 2>they clean, they fucked, they fucked, they fixed ship, they

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<v Speaker 2>fixed it. Keep your ass and shake, they do. And

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<v Speaker 2>that's the kind way. And hopefully they have one family.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, did did he be talking to you

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<v Speaker 2>in the accident fucking you with like pat talk? Because

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, I let to do that thing. Oh lord, yes,

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<v Speaker 2>a man, hallelu this o mate, y'all.

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<v Speaker 1>I love howdy'll be at my baby daddy house. What

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<v Speaker 1>I love?

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<v Speaker 3>We're gonna tell that that's your baby daddy's No, no,

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<v Speaker 3>no, no no, there was no.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, now I got to explain, like, what the hell?

0:22:30.280 --> 0:22:32.679
<v Speaker 2>We can't just say that right and not explained. Okay.

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<v Speaker 3>So Austin, my oldest son, was uh, his dad and

0:22:37.440 --> 0:22:39.320
<v Speaker 3>his uncle were roommates.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay.

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<v Speaker 3>I had just did like fourteen hours at the studio, crazy,

0:22:42.640 --> 0:22:45.199
<v Speaker 3>I was tired. I went to go pick Austin up

0:22:45.200 --> 0:22:46.639
<v Speaker 3>from his dad's place. They was in the middle of

0:22:46.680 --> 0:22:49.880
<v Speaker 3>a kickback. Y'all have kickbacks out here? Yeah, okay, they

0:22:49.960 --> 0:22:52.000
<v Speaker 3>was having a kickback and his uncle Chris was like, man,

0:22:52.000 --> 0:22:53.439
<v Speaker 3>now you come in the house, come cheue with us.

0:22:53.480 --> 0:22:55.240
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, mag, I'm just here to pick up my son.

0:22:55.440 --> 0:22:58.040
<v Speaker 3>And I don't like y'all like that, So I'm just

0:22:58.040 --> 0:22:59.480
<v Speaker 3>getting man, come in here and chill.

0:22:59.520 --> 0:23:00.440
<v Speaker 1>We got some more can read.

0:23:00.359 --> 0:23:03.840
<v Speaker 3>This blah blah blah, and yeah, and then Austin to

0:23:03.880 --> 0:23:04.919
<v Speaker 3>put the cherry on top, was.

0:23:04.880 --> 0:23:06.800
<v Speaker 1>Like, Mommy, can I just have a few more minutes

0:23:06.840 --> 0:23:09.240
<v Speaker 1>with my cousins? So that's really what, you know, made

0:23:09.240 --> 0:23:09.960
<v Speaker 1>me say so.

0:23:10.000 --> 0:23:11.439
<v Speaker 3>It was one of those things where a friend of

0:23:11.480 --> 0:23:13.639
<v Speaker 3>a friend of a friend had, you know, all the

0:23:13.760 --> 0:23:17.280
<v Speaker 3>plus ones, and Jay just happened to be somebody else's

0:23:17.280 --> 0:23:17.720
<v Speaker 3>plus one.

0:23:17.760 --> 0:23:20.240
<v Speaker 1>I didn't not believe you met your fance.

0:23:23.080 --> 0:23:27.240
<v Speaker 3>Had to be good for something, thank you, because the

0:23:27.320 --> 0:23:30.560
<v Speaker 3>shaw wasn't him child. And it started to get weird though,

0:23:30.600 --> 0:23:33.159
<v Speaker 3>because I'm there, like playing Domino's and drinking and all

0:23:33.200 --> 0:23:36.120
<v Speaker 3>there knowing that he and the other room baby daddy

0:23:36.160 --> 0:23:38.600
<v Speaker 3>in the other room, and then you know, me and Jay,

0:23:38.800 --> 0:23:41.120
<v Speaker 3>and I know how cliched this sounds y'all right, but

0:23:41.440 --> 0:23:43.840
<v Speaker 3>the minute that we shook hands, bitch.

0:23:44.359 --> 0:23:48.320
<v Speaker 2>I felt like a like a shock wave go through

0:23:48.359 --> 0:23:50.480
<v Speaker 2>my body, you know. And he said it too.

0:23:53.520 --> 0:23:55.760
<v Speaker 3>It just it just was weird that I was really

0:23:55.880 --> 0:23:58.360
<v Speaker 3>into this man the first time I was meeting him,

0:23:58.359 --> 0:24:00.600
<v Speaker 3>you know, and vice versa, and knowing that baby Daddy's

0:24:00.600 --> 0:24:01.040
<v Speaker 3>in the other room.

0:24:01.080 --> 0:24:02.280
<v Speaker 1>So I was like, I got I got to get

0:24:02.280 --> 0:24:04.320
<v Speaker 1>out of here, So I left. I booked it. I

0:24:04.359 --> 0:24:04.960
<v Speaker 1>got out of there.

0:24:05.040 --> 0:24:08.280
<v Speaker 3>Two days later, he ended up asking my nephew's uncle,

0:24:08.480 --> 0:24:09.560
<v Speaker 3>I mean my son's uncle.

0:24:09.600 --> 0:24:11.840
<v Speaker 1>Hey, whatever happened to her? Why she leave like that?

0:24:12.080 --> 0:24:13.920
<v Speaker 1>You know? And he asked for my number.

0:24:13.960 --> 0:24:16.400
<v Speaker 3>I said no because it was just too close for comfort,

0:24:16.440 --> 0:24:19.760
<v Speaker 3>you know, And I was like, just give him my

0:24:19.840 --> 0:24:23.359
<v Speaker 3>Instagram instead, which he gave him my Instagram and then

0:24:23.400 --> 0:24:23.720
<v Speaker 3>he was like.

0:24:23.760 --> 0:24:26.400
<v Speaker 1>Damn, who the fuck are you? What you do? Why

0:24:26.480 --> 0:24:29.000
<v Speaker 1>you got all these followers? You know? So I let

0:24:29.080 --> 0:24:31.320
<v Speaker 1>him taking me on the day. Then, yeah, that was

0:24:31.320 --> 0:24:33.800
<v Speaker 1>that better than me? Because I'm petty. I'd be like.

0:24:38.960 --> 0:24:42.320
<v Speaker 3>It just didn't It felt weird knowing that Austin's daddy

0:24:42.440 --> 0:24:45.840
<v Speaker 3>was like in the house and we over there playing dominoes.

0:24:45.840 --> 0:24:47.520
<v Speaker 1>It was just like, what am I doing? I'm too

0:24:47.520 --> 0:24:48.920
<v Speaker 1>grown for this. Let me give my.

0:24:50.480 --> 0:24:53.480
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, don't let your boyfriend or your baby daddy all

0:24:53.560 --> 0:24:55.880
<v Speaker 3>your hoodsband stop you from finding your hoods man?

0:24:56.240 --> 0:25:00.159
<v Speaker 2>Howe how does he feel about it now that he

0:25:00.320 --> 0:25:00.960
<v Speaker 2>never gave a.

0:25:00.840 --> 0:25:01.560
<v Speaker 1>Fuck that night?

0:25:01.800 --> 0:25:03.840
<v Speaker 3>From that night he was like, we're grown and dad

0:25:03.880 --> 0:25:06.080
<v Speaker 3>ain't my partner, so what we doing?

0:25:06.160 --> 0:25:06.359
<v Speaker 4>You know?

0:25:06.720 --> 0:25:09.040
<v Speaker 3>And I was just like, nah, this is I can't

0:25:09.040 --> 0:25:12.320
<v Speaker 3>physically sit here in his house and give you my number.

0:25:12.400 --> 0:25:15.720
<v Speaker 3>It just didn't feel like it was a little uncomfortable,

0:25:15.800 --> 0:25:18.280
<v Speaker 3>you know. So but you know whatever, that was then

0:25:18.400 --> 0:25:20.560
<v Speaker 3>and this is now and we here now you got

0:25:20.560 --> 0:25:23.760
<v Speaker 3>a baby and the kids and shit, So how.

0:25:23.640 --> 0:25:24.760
<v Speaker 1>Long have you guys been engaged?

0:25:25.720 --> 0:25:29.679
<v Speaker 3>Three years? But we've been together for six. The wedding

0:25:29.720 --> 0:25:30.320
<v Speaker 3>is next year.

0:25:31.000 --> 0:25:33.720
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, a big old, big wedding. So happy to be

0:25:33.800 --> 0:25:35.040
<v Speaker 1>off the market. Big wedding.

0:25:35.440 --> 0:25:37.959
<v Speaker 3>Hell yeah, Jamaica. We're getting married in Jamaica because none

0:25:38.000 --> 0:25:42.320
<v Speaker 3>of his family is here. Dramatic bitch, I'm finna get

0:25:42.320 --> 0:25:46.760
<v Speaker 3>on so many bitches, nerves, my dress, the Bachelor, Red Party,

0:25:46.800 --> 0:25:47.920
<v Speaker 3>I'm posting everything.

0:25:48.040 --> 0:25:51.359
<v Speaker 1>I'm I'm tapping into my wife the era, you know,

0:25:51.480 --> 0:25:52.040
<v Speaker 1>as you should.

0:25:52.160 --> 0:25:55.160
<v Speaker 2>It's like excited, But did you foresee yourself being at

0:25:55.240 --> 0:25:55.880
<v Speaker 2>like a bride?

0:25:56.040 --> 0:25:57.440
<v Speaker 1>Like how this era?

0:25:57.560 --> 0:25:59.640
<v Speaker 2>Because I feel like even for me, I'm like, I'm

0:25:59.680 --> 0:26:00.880
<v Speaker 2>still like my husband.

0:26:01.240 --> 0:26:03.720
<v Speaker 1>My husband. My husband is like a practice still sometimes

0:26:03.720 --> 0:26:05.720
<v Speaker 1>I say it my best sounds weird. How does it feel?

0:26:05.840 --> 0:26:08.280
<v Speaker 1>It feels good? But it feels like I don't know.

0:26:08.760 --> 0:26:11.359
<v Speaker 2>I guess I've always wanted to be married, but I

0:26:11.400 --> 0:26:13.359
<v Speaker 2>don't know if I actually believe that it would happen.

0:26:13.760 --> 0:26:16.399
<v Speaker 1>So now that I'm like my husband, yeah, it was

0:26:16.400 --> 0:26:17.440
<v Speaker 1>hard for me to say boyfriend.

0:26:17.720 --> 0:26:21.320
<v Speaker 2>So it's just it's an interesting transition transition and I'm

0:26:21.359 --> 0:26:25.360
<v Speaker 2>having to like sit in the my wifeyet era softly

0:26:25.520 --> 0:26:26.119
<v Speaker 2>that's softly.

0:26:26.240 --> 0:26:28.320
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I'm just something from all of that and being

0:26:28.400 --> 0:26:32.480
<v Speaker 3>the side beach and being the girlfriend, the fiance and

0:26:32.480 --> 0:26:34.320
<v Speaker 3>now I'm about to be the wife. So being able

0:26:34.359 --> 0:26:37.720
<v Speaker 3>to travel through all of those different transitions is it's

0:26:37.720 --> 0:26:38.280
<v Speaker 3>a gift.

0:26:38.440 --> 0:26:38.639
<v Speaker 2>You know.

0:26:38.840 --> 0:26:41.399
<v Speaker 3>I finally get to let myself be loved and just

0:26:41.440 --> 0:26:44.400
<v Speaker 3>take a like exhale for real. You know, I don't

0:26:44.400 --> 0:26:45.960
<v Speaker 3>got to take care of the house by myself, and

0:26:46.000 --> 0:26:48.800
<v Speaker 3>I'm all the kids. I don't even got to touch

0:26:48.880 --> 0:26:54.040
<v Speaker 3>the yoid. You know, I'm a bitch. I'm here, She's arrived. Finally,

0:26:57.119 --> 0:26:59.560
<v Speaker 3>I deserve that. We all deserve soft lives.

0:26:59.880 --> 0:27:01.720
<v Speaker 2>I think as black women, we talked about you know,

0:27:01.760 --> 0:27:05.160
<v Speaker 2>the soft life fucking word is a thing right now

0:27:05.400 --> 0:27:07.800
<v Speaker 2>or has been. But I'm like, you could say it

0:27:07.800 --> 0:27:11.199
<v Speaker 2>all day long, but like there's a your body has

0:27:11.240 --> 0:27:13.240
<v Speaker 2>to catch up, like your nervous system, you know what

0:27:13.280 --> 0:27:14.919
<v Speaker 2>I mean, Like that part.

0:27:15.040 --> 0:27:17.120
<v Speaker 1>Like you could say it, say it, but being in it.

0:27:17.119 --> 0:27:20.040
<v Speaker 2>It's been so many times where I'm like absolutely, yes,

0:27:20.240 --> 0:27:23.360
<v Speaker 2>untut your body, Yep, nothing's happening, You're good.

0:27:23.640 --> 0:27:26.359
<v Speaker 1>Yes, that's this is a new niggas. Oh my god.

0:27:27.440 --> 0:27:30.800
<v Speaker 2>I'm constantly telling my body that I'm safe and that

0:27:30.960 --> 0:27:33.320
<v Speaker 2>like this, I'm living in the manifestation. And I think

0:27:33.359 --> 0:27:38.680
<v Speaker 2>that a lot of people disregard you could manifest something.

0:27:38.720 --> 0:27:41.399
<v Speaker 2>It could come to fruition, but like your mind and

0:27:41.480 --> 0:27:46.120
<v Speaker 2>body and spirit catching up the line of work.

0:27:46.200 --> 0:27:46.840
<v Speaker 1>Yes it is.

0:27:47.200 --> 0:27:49.240
<v Speaker 3>I'm so glad you say it that out loud, because

0:27:49.280 --> 0:27:51.600
<v Speaker 3>that is a that is a very true thing. Your

0:27:51.600 --> 0:27:56.360
<v Speaker 3>nervous system can still be three niggas behind. Yeah, I'm

0:27:56.400 --> 0:27:57.040
<v Speaker 3>right there with you.

0:27:57.640 --> 0:27:59.480
<v Speaker 1>Wow. I'm just happy you.

0:27:59.440 --> 0:28:02.480
<v Speaker 3>Say it that out because I'd be wondering if I'm

0:28:02.520 --> 0:28:03.400
<v Speaker 3>troopment because.

0:28:03.160 --> 0:28:04.760
<v Speaker 2>Sometimes it's hard to put into words because it kind

0:28:04.760 --> 0:28:05.960
<v Speaker 2>of makes you feel a little ungrateful.

0:28:05.960 --> 0:28:08.040
<v Speaker 1>Are you like? I am happy? But why do I

0:28:08.080 --> 0:28:10.840
<v Speaker 1>feel in my body like anxiety? Yeah? And I'm like

0:28:10.840 --> 0:28:12.560
<v Speaker 1>like I am Wow.

0:28:13.240 --> 0:28:15.480
<v Speaker 2>You have to almost like put your put words to

0:28:15.600 --> 0:28:18.639
<v Speaker 2>it to to start to conceptualize that you are not

0:28:18.920 --> 0:28:20.600
<v Speaker 2>living in your actual reality.

0:28:21.040 --> 0:28:23.360
<v Speaker 1>I was coming from the airport one time, my baby mama,

0:28:23.400 --> 0:28:24.639
<v Speaker 1>baby daddy, a new baby daddy.

0:28:24.680 --> 0:28:27.520
<v Speaker 2>My husband picked me up and we drove past an

0:28:27.520 --> 0:28:29.800
<v Speaker 2>old old place I lived with with my baby daddy,

0:28:29.880 --> 0:28:31.920
<v Speaker 2>and I didn't realize I was tense in the car.

0:28:32.119 --> 0:28:35.640
<v Speaker 2>It took you there, and then I was like, oh,

0:28:35.720 --> 0:28:38.240
<v Speaker 2>I'm passing that place. Oh the whole different nugget. Oh

0:28:38.240 --> 0:28:39.440
<v Speaker 2>I'm with the nice niggad.

0:28:39.240 --> 0:28:42.360
<v Speaker 1>And I was like, that's a real fucking thing.

0:28:42.440 --> 0:28:44.760
<v Speaker 2>It was like, if I hadn't passed that address, I

0:28:44.800 --> 0:28:47.120
<v Speaker 2>would have not have acknowledged that my body was literally

0:28:47.160 --> 0:28:51.280
<v Speaker 2>just living in So wherever you are right now, if

0:28:51.280 --> 0:28:53.080
<v Speaker 2>you're feeling tense for no goddamn reason.

0:28:52.880 --> 0:29:03.200
<v Speaker 3>Breathe, breathe, there you go. And I'm just like, Okay,

0:29:03.240 --> 0:29:04.640
<v Speaker 3>you married bitches, shut the fuck up.

0:29:04.640 --> 0:29:08.800
<v Speaker 1>Can we move on now? No, I'm not I love they.

0:29:10.320 --> 0:29:10.560
<v Speaker 4>Again.

0:29:10.960 --> 0:29:11.760
<v Speaker 1>I want to feel it.

0:29:14.880 --> 0:29:16.320
<v Speaker 5>No, no, no, no.

0:29:17.280 --> 0:29:22.240
<v Speaker 1>I love Jesus. We love Jesus, we love astrology, we

0:29:22.320 --> 0:29:27.120
<v Speaker 1>love everybody. Jesus made bolls, we love music. Everybody exhales,

0:29:27.160 --> 0:29:28.040
<v Speaker 1>soft life, every.

0:29:30.120 --> 0:29:32.680
<v Speaker 2>I'm happy you said that that that comment, ab bitches

0:29:32.680 --> 0:29:34.640
<v Speaker 2>are gonna shut the fuck up, you married bitches. That

0:29:35.840 --> 0:29:38.880
<v Speaker 2>I feel like I've lived partially, like I've only lived

0:29:38.920 --> 0:29:40.760
<v Speaker 2>partially in my soft life because I'm afraid that I'm

0:29:40.760 --> 0:29:43.200
<v Speaker 2>gonna being annoying. But one of those I don't want

0:29:43.240 --> 0:29:43.440
<v Speaker 2>to be that.

0:29:43.960 --> 0:29:45.080
<v Speaker 1>I don't care anymore.

0:29:46.040 --> 0:29:48.520
<v Speaker 2>I don't given because you know what, I'm happy bitches

0:29:48.560 --> 0:29:49.000
<v Speaker 2>are doing it.

0:29:49.040 --> 0:29:50.200
<v Speaker 1>I'm actually happy I'm.

0:29:50.040 --> 0:29:53.080
<v Speaker 2>Gonna live and you know what else, To that point,

0:29:53.640 --> 0:29:56.680
<v Speaker 2>I'll be feeling like, am I allowed to talk about

0:29:56.680 --> 0:30:00.600
<v Speaker 2>how happy I am about boring bitches without bring people

0:30:00.600 --> 0:30:01.000
<v Speaker 2>to death?

0:30:01.080 --> 0:30:04.480
<v Speaker 1>And she'll make it it same like, oh, she thinks

0:30:04.480 --> 0:30:05.280
<v Speaker 1>she you know what I mean?

0:30:06.120 --> 0:30:10.120
<v Speaker 3>Sometimes I'll be having to like, I'm not so open about.

0:30:09.800 --> 0:30:14.040
<v Speaker 1>How exactly how good my love life is. I'm so

0:30:14.120 --> 0:30:16.800
<v Speaker 1>happy you said that. It was like, I haven't said.

0:30:16.640 --> 0:30:19.080
<v Speaker 2>That that out loud because I kind of hate those

0:30:19.080 --> 0:30:21.200
<v Speaker 2>bitches who do that online, and I'm like, are bitches.

0:30:20.960 --> 0:30:23.680
<v Speaker 1>Like space for us?

0:30:23.920 --> 0:30:26.920
<v Speaker 2>But I feel that way genuinely and I have. I've

0:30:27.000 --> 0:30:28.840
<v Speaker 2>kind of like push.

0:30:28.840 --> 0:30:29.520
<v Speaker 1>But why do you guys?

0:30:29.640 --> 0:30:31.080
<v Speaker 3>But why do you guys feel like that someone said

0:30:31.080 --> 0:30:32.640
<v Speaker 3>that to you? Or is this just something like this

0:30:32.720 --> 0:30:34.920
<v Speaker 3>is what you are adopted? I think it's something that

0:30:35.000 --> 0:30:36.760
<v Speaker 3>story though, Is it because maybe you did that to

0:30:36.800 --> 0:30:38.960
<v Speaker 3>other people? Like you felt that way around seeing other

0:30:38.960 --> 0:30:42.920
<v Speaker 3>people happy. NaN's beach Neil, So you're assuming or not.

0:30:43.160 --> 0:30:45.160
<v Speaker 1>Justn't know. For me. Remember that girl that we hated

0:30:45.200 --> 0:30:47.240
<v Speaker 1>on life, I didn't hate her. I just thought she

0:30:47.320 --> 0:30:47.800
<v Speaker 1>was annoying.

0:30:49.240 --> 0:30:52.320
<v Speaker 3>I ain't never been, but I think I think that

0:30:52.480 --> 0:31:01.080
<v Speaker 3>it's there's so many girls that I the girls that

0:31:01.240 --> 0:31:04.800
<v Speaker 3>don't have it definitely outweigh the girls they do, so

0:31:04.920 --> 0:31:08.320
<v Speaker 3>I feel like they don't want to. They just don't

0:31:08.320 --> 0:31:10.360
<v Speaker 3>want to hit a shit because they don't have it yet,

0:31:10.440 --> 0:31:13.800
<v Speaker 3>you know. And it can it can feel or look like,

0:31:14.560 --> 0:31:17.360
<v Speaker 3>oh she thinks she out it, you know, or whatever

0:31:17.440 --> 0:31:23.479
<v Speaker 3>if you got a younger term. But I just I

0:31:23.600 --> 0:31:25.240
<v Speaker 3>don't want to beat that because I've been to the

0:31:25.280 --> 0:31:27.240
<v Speaker 3>girl on the other side that's just like, well, when

0:31:27.280 --> 0:31:27.720
<v Speaker 3>is it going.

0:31:27.680 --> 0:31:29.400
<v Speaker 1>To be my turn? Lord? I see what you're doing

0:31:29.440 --> 0:31:30.320
<v Speaker 1>for others.

0:31:30.120 --> 0:31:30.320
<v Speaker 4>You know.

0:31:30.560 --> 0:31:32.360
<v Speaker 2>But that's why I think it's important that we don't

0:31:32.400 --> 0:31:35.000
<v Speaker 2>take that, because I've recently come out of that because

0:31:35.000 --> 0:31:37.000
<v Speaker 2>I realized it's my own shit too. But I also

0:31:37.080 --> 0:31:41.120
<v Speaker 2>realized it's important that we talk about the happiness and

0:31:41.120 --> 0:31:42.920
<v Speaker 2>the health of the relationship because a lot of people

0:31:42.960 --> 0:31:44.920
<v Speaker 2>don't experience it, and a lot of women are like

0:31:44.960 --> 0:31:47.000
<v Speaker 2>fuck things I've said fucking a lot of times.

0:31:46.840 --> 0:31:50.880
<v Speaker 1>And it's that's a lot of them are. Yeah, I

0:31:50.880 --> 0:31:51.240
<v Speaker 1>don't know.

0:31:51.160 --> 0:31:53.000
<v Speaker 2>What the fuck is going on, but I think it's

0:31:53.040 --> 0:31:54.520
<v Speaker 2>important for women to know that there are.

0:31:54.480 --> 0:31:56.480
<v Speaker 1>Healthy, happy that it exists.

0:31:56.560 --> 0:32:01.120
<v Speaker 2>Yes, it's kind of a responsibility, I mean, and I

0:32:01.120 --> 0:32:03.600
<v Speaker 2>don't think it's our responsibility to think if somebody else

0:32:03.600 --> 0:32:05.520
<v Speaker 2>thinks we're annoying, someone's gonn always think we're annoying. Someone

0:32:05.520 --> 0:32:08.640
<v Speaker 2>thinks I'm annoying right now? Yeah, there was gonna be.

0:32:08.640 --> 0:32:11.560
<v Speaker 1>Like success guilt, like I was struggling before. Now I'm not.

0:32:11.800 --> 0:32:13.800
<v Speaker 2>Someone else is still struggling. Should I not talk about my.

0:32:13.720 --> 0:32:14.880
<v Speaker 1>Success on my journey? Ye?

0:32:15.040 --> 0:32:18.160
<v Speaker 2>Be feeling like that, But that's like living in survival

0:32:18.240 --> 0:32:20.760
<v Speaker 2>and living in a science that you yeah, survivor's guilt,

0:32:21.040 --> 0:32:21.440
<v Speaker 2>and I don't.

0:32:21.520 --> 0:32:22.440
<v Speaker 1>I think that's not healthy.

0:32:22.480 --> 0:32:25.200
<v Speaker 2>And that's a part of the nervous system regulation that

0:32:25.240 --> 0:32:28.440
<v Speaker 2>we're experiencing because we have to talk about it to

0:32:28.480 --> 0:32:30.719
<v Speaker 2>believe it, to know it, so our body knows and

0:32:30.760 --> 0:32:31.640
<v Speaker 2>like other bitches that you.

0:32:31.680 --> 0:32:34.680
<v Speaker 1>Know, like, yeah, marriage is good, it could be good.

0:32:34.800 --> 0:32:36.840
<v Speaker 2>It can be good if you pick the niggas that

0:32:37.040 --> 0:32:39.200
<v Speaker 2>really fucks with you. And then you're not lying to yourself.

0:32:39.400 --> 0:32:43.000
<v Speaker 2>It's the desperation and settling that creates the bullshit.

0:32:43.040 --> 0:32:44.240
<v Speaker 1>There it is right there.

0:32:44.320 --> 0:32:47.680
<v Speaker 3>You got to be motherfucking equally yoke because so many

0:32:47.720 --> 0:32:50.840
<v Speaker 3>bitches and niggas fall in love with the idea of

0:32:50.880 --> 0:32:53.680
<v Speaker 3>a beautiful marriage and a successful relationship, and alla they're

0:32:53.720 --> 0:32:57.240
<v Speaker 3>forgetting that it takes work to have a good relationship.

0:32:57.520 --> 0:32:59.680
<v Speaker 3>You got to actually put the work in. You like

0:32:59.680 --> 0:33:03.240
<v Speaker 3>yourself that too, and you can't depend on another motherfucker

0:33:03.280 --> 0:33:07.200
<v Speaker 3>to make you feel happy and like yourself and make

0:33:07.240 --> 0:33:08.000
<v Speaker 3>you love yourself.

0:33:08.040 --> 0:33:10.120
<v Speaker 1>You know, it's got to come from you first, because.

0:33:09.880 --> 0:33:11.920
<v Speaker 2>A lot of bitches get relationships and then they're like,

0:33:12.200 --> 0:33:14.680
<v Speaker 2>they change and shit for the nigga. Then they don't

0:33:14.680 --> 0:33:15.920
<v Speaker 2>really know who he is, and now you don't know

0:33:15.920 --> 0:33:17.960
<v Speaker 2>who he is. Now everybody confused, and now you're just

0:33:17.960 --> 0:33:20.880
<v Speaker 2>two lost people just dying for companionship, for someone to

0:33:20.880 --> 0:33:22.640
<v Speaker 2>be there, and it's not really the person who's supposed

0:33:22.640 --> 0:33:23.600
<v Speaker 2>to be there, like.

0:33:24.200 --> 0:33:26.400
<v Speaker 1>Freach, So I think I have to also have to

0:33:26.480 --> 0:33:27.280
<v Speaker 1>like the person you're with.

0:33:27.320 --> 0:33:28.800
<v Speaker 3>I think a lot of women think they like the

0:33:28.840 --> 0:33:30.600
<v Speaker 3>person that they're with, but they like what they either

0:33:30.640 --> 0:33:33.080
<v Speaker 3>offer them, they like the way they make them feel,

0:33:33.160 --> 0:33:35.960
<v Speaker 3>but they don't actually like the person, you know. I mean,

0:33:36.040 --> 0:33:37.920
<v Speaker 3>so it's like shit were to fall apart or he

0:33:37.960 --> 0:33:39.680
<v Speaker 3>wasn't able to provide in the way that he.

0:33:39.680 --> 0:33:41.960
<v Speaker 1>Was, would you still like this man? And a lot

0:33:41.960 --> 0:33:44.520
<v Speaker 1>of them are like, actually, I really like the lifestyle

0:33:44.560 --> 0:33:47.200
<v Speaker 1>he provides me. I don't know if I actually liked or.

0:33:47.160 --> 0:33:50.200
<v Speaker 2>The babysitter, or the dinner he made, or like the

0:33:50.600 --> 0:33:52.080
<v Speaker 2>warm body in my bed at night.

0:33:52.640 --> 0:33:55.840
<v Speaker 3>You know what a lot of bitches mess though. They

0:33:55.920 --> 0:34:00.000
<v Speaker 3>forget to They forget to find somebody that can struggle

0:34:00.080 --> 0:34:05.960
<v Speaker 3>well because you know you're gonna have financial struggles, you're

0:34:05.960 --> 0:34:09.879
<v Speaker 3>gonna have deaths in the family, and and you never

0:34:09.960 --> 0:34:13.000
<v Speaker 3>realize how your partner process death until they lost somebody

0:34:13.040 --> 0:34:16.120
<v Speaker 3>close to them, Like, how do you struggle what we

0:34:16.280 --> 0:34:18.600
<v Speaker 3>what we're gonna be looking like when you when you

0:34:18.680 --> 0:34:22.680
<v Speaker 3>functionally depressed? You know, because ship, I'm I think we

0:34:22.719 --> 0:34:25.439
<v Speaker 3>don't all been there. Goddamn it. I ain't too far

0:34:25.480 --> 0:34:27.640
<v Speaker 3>from in my damn SLF. I've been chasing this music

0:34:27.719 --> 0:34:30.359
<v Speaker 3>dream for forever, you know. So you got to find

0:34:30.400 --> 0:34:35.160
<v Speaker 3>somebody who knows how to process disappointment well, because you're

0:34:35.160 --> 0:34:37.719
<v Speaker 3>not gonna unpack your ship on me. I don't deserve it,

0:34:38.120 --> 0:34:38.359
<v Speaker 3>you know.

0:34:38.480 --> 0:34:45.160
<v Speaker 2>It's a life sentence of contagious energy. So yeah, speaking

0:34:45.200 --> 0:34:48.600
<v Speaker 2>of good mom's bad choices, my kids been blowing me

0:34:48.680 --> 0:34:49.880
<v Speaker 2>up since we've been sitting here.

0:34:53.600 --> 0:34:57.840
<v Speaker 3>It's it's emergency, that's my past life. I got for

0:34:57.920 --> 0:35:00.080
<v Speaker 3>working one for home. But my kids don't give a

0:35:00.200 --> 0:35:03.439
<v Speaker 3>damn about any of this. I could answer and tell him, hey, baby,

0:35:03.440 --> 0:35:05.000
<v Speaker 3>I'm in an interview. I'll call you back. Oh you

0:35:05.040 --> 0:35:11.360
<v Speaker 3>in their interview. Okay, I need more Roebucks. Keeps me

0:35:11.440 --> 0:35:13.919
<v Speaker 3>humble though, Yeah, yeah, yeah.

0:35:14.520 --> 0:35:18.000
<v Speaker 1>How was the transition of you guys blending families? What

0:35:18.080 --> 0:35:18.440
<v Speaker 1>was that like?

0:35:19.880 --> 0:35:23.400
<v Speaker 3>I want to say for my oldest, for Austin, I

0:35:23.400 --> 0:35:27.399
<v Speaker 3>think everybody is we all love each other deeply. We're

0:35:27.440 --> 0:35:30.120
<v Speaker 3>super super close, and I'm the only girl in my house.

0:35:30.800 --> 0:35:34.200
<v Speaker 3>But I think for Austin, I had I had a

0:35:34.200 --> 0:35:39.719
<v Speaker 3>guilty feeling of making him become a big brother all

0:35:39.760 --> 0:35:42.440
<v Speaker 3>of a sudden, because it was just me and Austin

0:35:42.520 --> 0:35:46.760
<v Speaker 3>for so long that when Jay came into the picture

0:35:46.800 --> 0:35:50.480
<v Speaker 3>with his son that he already had too, which they

0:35:50.600 --> 0:35:55.320
<v Speaker 3>instantly clicked. By the way, your two sons, my oldest

0:35:55.320 --> 0:35:56.040
<v Speaker 3>and Jay's son.

0:35:56.080 --> 0:35:57.240
<v Speaker 1>They instantly clicked.

0:35:57.840 --> 0:36:03.120
<v Speaker 3>But mind you, because I met Jay at Austin's dad's house,

0:36:03.200 --> 0:36:06.640
<v Speaker 3>they already knew each other the boy was there. They

0:36:06.640 --> 0:36:08.480
<v Speaker 3>already knew each other because he would go to the

0:36:08.520 --> 0:36:12.040
<v Speaker 3>functions as well. But anyhow, I think I, in my

0:36:12.120 --> 0:36:14.319
<v Speaker 3>own head, I put the pressure on it more than

0:36:14.680 --> 0:36:17.319
<v Speaker 3>more than I Austin even cared to think about it,

0:36:18.320 --> 0:36:20.680
<v Speaker 3>because it would be some nice where I'd be like, Okay, Austin,

0:36:20.880 --> 0:36:23.719
<v Speaker 3>you know Adonis is watching you now, so make sure

0:36:23.760 --> 0:36:26.280
<v Speaker 3>you make good choices and make sure you're not cussing

0:36:26.360 --> 0:36:27.880
<v Speaker 3>in front of him, because I know he cuts when

0:36:27.880 --> 0:36:29.920
<v Speaker 3>he with his friends and share, you know. But I

0:36:29.960 --> 0:36:33.000
<v Speaker 3>think I put I thought more on it, and then

0:36:33.200 --> 0:36:35.160
<v Speaker 3>having to think like, Okay, how do I divide my

0:36:35.200 --> 0:36:38.759
<v Speaker 3>love between a child that's mine and a child who

0:36:39.040 --> 0:36:40.359
<v Speaker 3>I'm now his step mom?

0:36:41.000 --> 0:36:43.120
<v Speaker 1>You know, like that ship and you're trying to create

0:36:43.160 --> 0:36:45.719
<v Speaker 1>a relationship with girl.

0:36:46.040 --> 0:36:47.719
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, And I was like, I don't know if I

0:36:47.760 --> 0:36:49.320
<v Speaker 3>don't I don't know if I know how to be

0:36:49.360 --> 0:36:51.839
<v Speaker 3>a step mama. You know what kind of is there

0:36:51.840 --> 0:36:52.879
<v Speaker 3>a different version of love?

0:36:53.000 --> 0:36:53.160
<v Speaker 2>You know?

0:36:53.320 --> 0:36:56.520
<v Speaker 3>Like girl, I'm the captain of the fucking Overthinker's Club.

0:36:57.320 --> 0:37:00.880
<v Speaker 1>Mom's mom's complicated. Complicated, Well, because you know complication.

0:37:01.120 --> 0:37:06.000
<v Speaker 2>I lovemplicated because we're overthinking about we're hyper aware.

0:37:05.719 --> 0:37:07.640
<v Speaker 1>Of the sensitivity. Yeah.

0:37:07.200 --> 0:37:11.879
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, and sometimes they don't even think about Yeah.

0:37:12.440 --> 0:37:13.920
<v Speaker 3>I think I was just thinking about the other the

0:37:13.960 --> 0:37:16.799
<v Speaker 3>other day. My baby daddy, he has multiple children. Now,

0:37:16.880 --> 0:37:18.440
<v Speaker 3>I was the first. I was the first baby.

0:37:18.440 --> 0:37:20.879
<v Speaker 1>Mama, you got the oldest child. I got the oldest child.

0:37:20.880 --> 0:37:22.880
<v Speaker 2>But we were together for a really long time before

0:37:23.520 --> 0:37:26.919
<v Speaker 2>he had started having other children, and we were together.

0:37:26.960 --> 0:37:31.839
<v Speaker 2>He got another woman pregnant and yeah, and I had

0:37:32.000 --> 0:37:34.080
<v Speaker 2>had She went ahead and had the baby, and so

0:37:34.200 --> 0:37:38.279
<v Speaker 2>I was stressing out about how I was going to

0:37:38.320 --> 0:37:40.239
<v Speaker 2>explain this to my three year old, my.

0:37:40.200 --> 0:37:44.200
<v Speaker 1>Three or four year old together, Okay.

0:37:43.920 --> 0:37:46.480
<v Speaker 3>No, girl, this was this was the inception of good

0:37:46.480 --> 0:37:48.279
<v Speaker 3>mom's bad choices. I became a single mom, and I

0:37:48.360 --> 0:37:52.719
<v Speaker 3>was like, you know, oh, it was a blessing. Ultimately,

0:37:53.040 --> 0:37:56.080
<v Speaker 3>this baby was a blessing. I didn't see that with

0:37:56.080 --> 0:38:00.720
<v Speaker 3>the sign bitch. But I could speak, I could speak.

0:38:00.840 --> 0:38:04.480
<v Speaker 3>I could speak from a positive space now. But at

0:38:04.480 --> 0:38:06.400
<v Speaker 3>the time, I was really like, how am I.

0:38:06.600 --> 0:38:08.520
<v Speaker 1>How is she going to take it? She's going to

0:38:08.600 --> 0:38:12.680
<v Speaker 1>be confused, She's going to be share her where we

0:38:12.719 --> 0:38:16.600
<v Speaker 1>can explain where this other baby came from a stork.

0:38:16.719 --> 0:38:19.440
<v Speaker 3>And I just remember, like it was finally the day

0:38:19.520 --> 0:38:21.279
<v Speaker 3>we were going to tell her, and she came over

0:38:21.520 --> 0:38:23.520
<v Speaker 3>and he came over sound the couch and I was

0:38:23.600 --> 0:38:27.239
<v Speaker 3>just like my baby, and he told her and she

0:38:27.320 --> 0:38:33.600
<v Speaker 3>was like cool, she existive, no, none of the question.

0:38:34.600 --> 0:38:35.200
<v Speaker 1>Okay.

0:38:35.480 --> 0:38:41.560
<v Speaker 3>I was like, okay, we're good, everything's fine.

0:38:42.320 --> 0:38:44.399
<v Speaker 2>Sure, Why did you give a little bit more trauma

0:38:44.440 --> 0:38:46.879
<v Speaker 2>than just a little just a little hair, a little hair,

0:38:47.080 --> 0:38:47.319
<v Speaker 2>I know.

0:38:47.400 --> 0:38:50.399
<v Speaker 1>He was like, see, bitch, I told you. And are

0:38:50.440 --> 0:38:54.399
<v Speaker 1>they close? She close with disabling? Yeah. Yeah, they all

0:38:54.400 --> 0:38:57.200
<v Speaker 1>live kind of all over the place. It definitely be

0:38:57.360 --> 0:38:58.960
<v Speaker 1>us well, because a lot of times we.

0:38:58.880 --> 0:39:01.400
<v Speaker 3>Think what we put our own traumas onto our children

0:39:01.480 --> 0:39:04.640
<v Speaker 3>and think like, oh my god, like whatever happened in

0:39:04.680 --> 0:39:08.799
<v Speaker 3>your childhood, and you remember this exact situation and how

0:39:08.800 --> 0:39:11.960
<v Speaker 3>it impacted me, and so it must also impact my

0:39:12.040 --> 0:39:12.560
<v Speaker 3>child and something.

0:39:12.600 --> 0:39:15.160
<v Speaker 1>No, yes it probably won't. Yes, me and m iball

0:39:15.160 --> 0:39:18.399
<v Speaker 1>be something completely different how we want to. You're gonna

0:39:18.400 --> 0:39:19.920
<v Speaker 1>suck up on some other shit. Yeah, some of the

0:39:19.960 --> 0:39:20.839
<v Speaker 1>ship that you had no idea.

0:39:23.520 --> 0:39:26.360
<v Speaker 3>I'm all right, Yeah, this is exactly why therapy was

0:39:26.360 --> 0:39:28.560
<v Speaker 3>one of the best decisions I've ever made.

0:39:28.760 --> 0:39:31.399
<v Speaker 1>Hence the name of my album. What is it? Yeah,

0:39:31.440 --> 0:39:33.920
<v Speaker 1>let's talk about the album. Yes, girl, I'm so excited

0:39:33.960 --> 0:39:34.680
<v Speaker 1>about it, y'all.

0:39:35.120 --> 0:39:37.320
<v Speaker 3>My annihilators, first of all, they know me for giving

0:39:37.360 --> 0:39:41.000
<v Speaker 3>them real raw content. I ain't never sung about nothing.

0:39:41.040 --> 0:39:44.000
<v Speaker 3>I ain't never directly went through myself or had front

0:39:44.080 --> 0:39:46.480
<v Speaker 3>row seats and like a close friend went through it.

0:39:47.160 --> 0:39:50.520
<v Speaker 3>But I've never spoken from this, I've never been this

0:39:50.719 --> 0:39:54.160
<v Speaker 3>in depth about about this particular part of my journey.

0:39:54.160 --> 0:39:58.120
<v Speaker 3>It's called therapy Wasn't Enough. And I leaned into that

0:39:58.160 --> 0:40:00.239
<v Speaker 3>title because with the help of my team, and but

0:40:00.280 --> 0:40:03.400
<v Speaker 3>I leaned into that title because even though therapy is

0:40:03.400 --> 0:40:05.920
<v Speaker 3>one of the best decisions you can ever make for yourself,

0:40:05.960 --> 0:40:08.200
<v Speaker 3>you still got to put the work in. Therapy is

0:40:08.239 --> 0:40:11.080
<v Speaker 3>only a tool, baby, and you still have to actually

0:40:11.440 --> 0:40:13.799
<v Speaker 3>do it when you're not sitting in that chair, you know.

0:40:14.480 --> 0:40:17.960
<v Speaker 3>And for Jay and I, we met during the apocalypse, girl,

0:40:18.040 --> 0:40:20.120
<v Speaker 3>with nothing going on in the whole world was shut down,

0:40:20.760 --> 0:40:24.440
<v Speaker 3>and there was there was a there was a switch,

0:40:25.040 --> 0:40:27.120
<v Speaker 3>you know, when the world opened back up and you

0:40:27.160 --> 0:40:29.480
<v Speaker 3>could prepare somebody all day long and let them, know, like, hey,

0:40:29.480 --> 0:40:31.719
<v Speaker 3>don't get used to this version of me, because when

0:40:31.760 --> 0:40:33.040
<v Speaker 3>the world opened up, I'm outside.

0:40:33.160 --> 0:40:34.279
<v Speaker 1>I gotta go back to work, you know.

0:40:34.880 --> 0:40:39.600
<v Speaker 3>And I I said that, but then having to live it. Whoa,

0:40:40.200 --> 0:40:42.439
<v Speaker 3>this is what you do, this is who you are.

0:40:42.640 --> 0:40:44.360
<v Speaker 3>This is how many people gonna be in your face.

0:40:44.680 --> 0:40:46.440
<v Speaker 3>This is what you're gonna wear on stage, you know.

0:40:46.960 --> 0:40:50.839
<v Speaker 3>And he's Jamaican, so that is.

0:40:50.800 --> 0:40:51.560
<v Speaker 1>It strict over there.

0:40:52.560 --> 0:40:56.120
<v Speaker 3>He won a type program. He won a type program

0:40:56.560 --> 0:41:00.480
<v Speaker 3>because he's I'm his first love, he's ever been in

0:41:00.480 --> 0:41:04.080
<v Speaker 3>love before. He was a gallous so pussy was easy accessible,

0:41:04.680 --> 0:41:07.520
<v Speaker 3>easily accessible to him. And I'm the first person that

0:41:07.560 --> 0:41:08.360
<v Speaker 3>he's ever.

0:41:09.800 --> 0:41:10.000
<v Speaker 1>You know.

0:41:10.040 --> 0:41:12.919
<v Speaker 3>He put his hoe on the shelf for me, so

0:41:12.960 --> 0:41:16.560
<v Speaker 3>it's precious to have to share me with the world.

0:41:16.800 --> 0:41:19.439
<v Speaker 3>It was tough for him and we we we went,

0:41:19.680 --> 0:41:22.919
<v Speaker 3>We went through some ship girl to get to where

0:41:22.960 --> 0:41:25.919
<v Speaker 3>we are now. This motherfucker beautiful. But what it took

0:41:25.960 --> 0:41:29.640
<v Speaker 3>to get to this space it was, it was It

0:41:29.719 --> 0:41:32.439
<v Speaker 3>was tough. Did you guys do a couple therapy?

0:41:33.000 --> 0:41:33.239
<v Speaker 2>Still?

0:41:33.280 --> 0:41:37.720
<v Speaker 3>Actively he was open to that. No, okay, I was curious,

0:41:38.400 --> 0:41:41.399
<v Speaker 3>black man, exactly how'd you get him in there?

0:41:42.719 --> 0:41:47.719
<v Speaker 1>Uh? It took It took a series of unfortunate events

0:41:47.960 --> 0:41:52.440
<v Speaker 1>for us to finally for him to finally say, Okay,

0:41:52.640 --> 0:41:55.640
<v Speaker 1>maybe you're right, maybe we should take that leap and

0:41:55.640 --> 0:41:58.600
<v Speaker 1>go to therapy. Yes, nigga, we should, you know.

0:41:58.800 --> 0:42:02.160
<v Speaker 3>And thankfully I can say that therapy was a big

0:42:02.239 --> 0:42:05.160
<v Speaker 3>part of what saved us because.

0:42:04.920 --> 0:42:08.760
<v Speaker 1>We almost didn't. We almost didn't make it. It's beautiful

0:42:08.760 --> 0:42:11.680
<v Speaker 1>that he was that he was open to it. What

0:42:11.719 --> 0:42:13.200
<v Speaker 1>about now, like, is he enjoy it?

0:42:13.239 --> 0:42:15.040
<v Speaker 2>Because I feel like sometimes once you get into it,

0:42:15.040 --> 0:42:19.560
<v Speaker 2>they'd be like looking forward to it. Now he's like,

0:42:19.719 --> 0:42:27.080
<v Speaker 2>you're gonna be back in town. Like he's like, I

0:42:27.120 --> 0:42:30.600
<v Speaker 2>think now the best And then when I do some

0:42:30.680 --> 0:42:34.680
<v Speaker 2>ship that's like doctor doctor, doctor h said that you're

0:42:34.719 --> 0:42:37.480
<v Speaker 2>supposed to you know, No, Mamma's that's not how you

0:42:37.560 --> 0:42:38.160
<v Speaker 2>do that.

0:42:38.280 --> 0:42:39.719
<v Speaker 1>Doctor said, you know.

0:42:40.000 --> 0:42:44.680
<v Speaker 3>Like he he's like actually applying the tool into our

0:42:44.760 --> 0:42:47.879
<v Speaker 3>everyday relationship now, So kudos to him.

0:42:48.080 --> 0:42:51.359
<v Speaker 1>That is beautiful. What's your favorite song on the album? Ooh,

0:42:51.560 --> 0:42:54.680
<v Speaker 1>that is such an unfair question, girl, what's the first

0:42:54.719 --> 0:42:56.920
<v Speaker 1>thing that popped out? Choose? Choose.

0:42:57.239 --> 0:43:00.799
<v Speaker 3>I'll go with choose because it's it's just that I

0:43:00.880 --> 0:43:04.120
<v Speaker 3>remember him putting me in a space where he made

0:43:04.120 --> 0:43:07.400
<v Speaker 3>me feel like I had to choose between him or

0:43:07.400 --> 0:43:11.960
<v Speaker 3>the music, and the ship broke my heart because I've

0:43:11.960 --> 0:43:13.600
<v Speaker 3>always prayed for a love like this.

0:43:14.480 --> 0:43:16.520
<v Speaker 2>Y'all about to have me crying on camera, and it's

0:43:16.520 --> 0:43:20.360
<v Speaker 2>a safe space to cry safe. Yeah, I've always asked

0:43:20.400 --> 0:43:23.240
<v Speaker 2>God for a love like this, but I've always asked

0:43:23.239 --> 0:43:26.399
<v Speaker 2>God for the realization of my dream too. So when

0:43:26.440 --> 0:43:28.040
<v Speaker 2>I felt like I was in a tug of war

0:43:28.160 --> 0:43:29.719
<v Speaker 2>between the two, I was just like.

0:43:29.640 --> 0:43:32.399
<v Speaker 1>Well, God, what what is this? This is not what

0:43:32.440 --> 0:43:33.759
<v Speaker 1>you showed me, you know.

0:43:35.440 --> 0:43:39.399
<v Speaker 3>And I chose Choose as the single, the first single

0:43:39.440 --> 0:43:42.319
<v Speaker 3>from the project because I compared it to you know

0:43:42.320 --> 0:43:43.879
<v Speaker 3>how when you're in a bookstore you turn a book

0:43:43.960 --> 0:43:45.880
<v Speaker 3>over and you read the summary of the book. I

0:43:45.960 --> 0:43:50.080
<v Speaker 3>feel like Choose is the summary of the album. So yeah,

0:43:50.160 --> 0:43:52.920
<v Speaker 3>how does that how as a songwriter who writes so

0:43:53.000 --> 0:43:58.080
<v Speaker 3>vulnerably and from the heart, how does that work with

0:43:58.160 --> 0:44:00.680
<v Speaker 3>your within your relationship when like Jay, here's a song

0:44:00.760 --> 0:44:03.799
<v Speaker 3>like that, Like, how do you do you give him

0:44:03.840 --> 0:44:07.759
<v Speaker 3>like warning before it comes out, or you show him like, hey, babe,

0:44:07.800 --> 0:44:08.880
<v Speaker 3>look what I did today.

0:44:09.120 --> 0:44:09.839
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

0:44:09.960 --> 0:44:12.719
<v Speaker 3>I chuckled on that because that's exactly what happened with

0:44:12.760 --> 0:44:14.759
<v Speaker 3>this album in particular because ain't, like I said, I

0:44:14.800 --> 0:44:17.280
<v Speaker 3>was nervous because I've never spoke with this in depth

0:44:17.360 --> 0:44:22.799
<v Speaker 3>about my business. So I told him, like he understands

0:44:22.800 --> 0:44:26.200
<v Speaker 3>and knows, anytime something impacts my life, I write it

0:44:26.239 --> 0:44:27.719
<v Speaker 3>down and make a song out of it. He knowed,

0:44:27.960 --> 0:44:33.200
<v Speaker 3>you know, but for him to be the muse, I

0:44:33.280 --> 0:44:36.399
<v Speaker 3>had to, like I had to forewarn him, like, hey,

0:44:36.560 --> 0:44:39.799
<v Speaker 3>you know, I'm gonna write about this shit, you know.

0:44:40.760 --> 0:44:49.080
<v Speaker 1>And he said, Mama's whatever paid the bills period. So

0:44:49.320 --> 0:44:49.520
<v Speaker 1>you know.

0:44:49.719 --> 0:44:52.520
<v Speaker 3>Once I finished and wrapped the album, I came home,

0:44:52.800 --> 0:44:54.640
<v Speaker 3>I set the move for us in the room. I

0:44:54.719 --> 0:44:58.440
<v Speaker 3>lit some candles. We laid in bed together. Not you know,

0:44:58.960 --> 0:45:01.520
<v Speaker 3>we ain't have sex or nothing, but we laid in

0:45:01.520 --> 0:45:03.720
<v Speaker 3>bed together. I played the album. I lit some candles,

0:45:03.760 --> 0:45:04.960
<v Speaker 3>and I was like, I'm going to play this for

0:45:05.000 --> 0:45:07.800
<v Speaker 3>you from start to finish, and let's hold the conversation

0:45:08.000 --> 0:45:10.680
<v Speaker 3>till after, and you let me know how you feel

0:45:10.680 --> 0:45:12.799
<v Speaker 3>about the album. At the end of the album, he

0:45:12.920 --> 0:45:14.960
<v Speaker 3>was like, damn.

0:45:14.760 --> 0:45:19.680
<v Speaker 1>I that's where I took you, Like that's what you know,

0:45:19.760 --> 0:45:21.680
<v Speaker 1>Like he was in hindsight, he was just like, wow,

0:45:21.760 --> 0:45:24.920
<v Speaker 1>I didn't I didn't realize that this was the impact

0:45:25.400 --> 0:45:29.200
<v Speaker 1>that this had on your heart, you know, And he apologized.

0:45:30.600 --> 0:45:31.320
<v Speaker 1>I would have cried.

0:45:32.480 --> 0:45:38.239
<v Speaker 3>He apologized, and he was also very like, he had

0:45:38.239 --> 0:45:41.600
<v Speaker 3>so much admiration for what I was able to do

0:45:41.680 --> 0:45:43.799
<v Speaker 3>with my gift and the story I was able to

0:45:43.840 --> 0:45:46.840
<v Speaker 3>tell of us through using my gift, and I'm super

0:45:47.320 --> 0:45:50.400
<v Speaker 3>very supportive. But he you know, then not fuck up again,

0:45:50.640 --> 0:45:54.439
<v Speaker 3>but he was super He was super supportive and still

0:45:54.600 --> 0:45:58.400
<v Speaker 3>is now because he had to learn how to share

0:45:58.440 --> 0:46:01.440
<v Speaker 3>me with the world. It's not interesting because I'm sure

0:46:01.480 --> 0:46:04.200
<v Speaker 3>you through throughout the process of whatever you guys were

0:46:04.200 --> 0:46:06.480
<v Speaker 3>going through, you expressed yourself. But sometimes it takes a

0:46:06.520 --> 0:46:10.640
<v Speaker 3>different medium for people to really understand and really and

0:46:10.840 --> 0:46:13.640
<v Speaker 3>really to sit with them so they can It's like

0:46:13.680 --> 0:46:16.000
<v Speaker 3>you have to speak a different language and maybe and

0:46:16.080 --> 0:46:17.680
<v Speaker 3>music is that a lot of times for people right

0:46:17.760 --> 0:46:20.480
<v Speaker 3>like this. The language of music really allows people to

0:46:20.520 --> 0:46:21.560
<v Speaker 3>be like, oh, that's what.

0:46:21.480 --> 0:46:25.000
<v Speaker 2>You meant, yeah, or the way you you communicate, the

0:46:25.000 --> 0:46:27.920
<v Speaker 2>way you can what you say a conversation may look

0:46:27.960 --> 0:46:29.759
<v Speaker 2>different than how you expressed it in a song, because

0:46:29.760 --> 0:46:32.640
<v Speaker 2>that's your your your your paintbrush.

0:46:33.000 --> 0:46:35.759
<v Speaker 3>Well, when I was saying it is like he didn't.

0:46:36.440 --> 0:46:39.520
<v Speaker 3>Stevie wanted to say the bas music is a language.

0:46:39.640 --> 0:46:41.920
<v Speaker 3>Music is a world within itself with a language we

0:46:42.000 --> 0:46:46.160
<v Speaker 3>all understand. Music translates through people who don't even speak,

0:46:46.280 --> 0:46:48.480
<v Speaker 3>you know, the same language. I could sell out a

0:46:48.480 --> 0:46:51.400
<v Speaker 3>show in fucking Germany and not understand a word they're saying.

0:46:51.440 --> 0:46:55.880
<v Speaker 1>You know. But I think when he was able.

0:46:55.680 --> 0:46:58.880
<v Speaker 3>To hear it through through the music because he knows

0:47:00.080 --> 0:47:02.680
<v Speaker 3>the connection that that I that I have with my creativity.

0:47:03.320 --> 0:47:05.719
<v Speaker 3>Uh yeah, I feel like damn so all I had

0:47:05.719 --> 0:47:09.359
<v Speaker 3>to do was sing to this motherfucker you nigga. When

0:47:09.360 --> 0:47:11.279
<v Speaker 3>I'm yelling, you don't hear me, and I and I

0:47:11.360 --> 0:47:14.600
<v Speaker 3>and I also like to say an argument is the

0:47:14.719 --> 0:47:17.919
<v Speaker 3>loudest conversation two people can have, but they can't even

0:47:17.960 --> 0:47:20.640
<v Speaker 3>hear each other because you I'm yelling at you, you

0:47:20.760 --> 0:47:23.839
<v Speaker 3>yelling at me. Nothing is being received, you know. So yeah,

0:47:23.880 --> 0:47:26.319
<v Speaker 3>I think I think he got a better perspective when

0:47:26.320 --> 0:47:27.600
<v Speaker 3>he heard it, when he heard the album.

0:47:27.640 --> 0:47:29.840
<v Speaker 1>And you set the scene too, like you set the vibe.

0:47:29.960 --> 0:47:32.839
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, like yeah, you know, like that probably was really

0:47:32.840 --> 0:47:35.719
<v Speaker 2>important for him to feel comfortable, for y'all to be

0:47:36.160 --> 0:47:38.320
<v Speaker 2>laying in bed together feeling connected.

0:47:38.480 --> 0:47:40.319
<v Speaker 1>Yes, And then being able to receive it.

0:47:40.680 --> 0:47:43.440
<v Speaker 3>And I had that idea because I wanted to relax

0:47:43.480 --> 0:47:46.520
<v Speaker 3>his nervous system first, according to how he might have

0:47:46.640 --> 0:47:49.600
<v Speaker 3>felt when he heard, you know, because some of the

0:47:49.640 --> 0:47:52.919
<v Speaker 3>songs is a white woman, you know, like your baby,

0:47:52.920 --> 0:47:57.719
<v Speaker 3>I'm just woke this joint on this next song, this

0:47:57.840 --> 0:47:58.279
<v Speaker 3>next song.

0:47:59.080 --> 0:48:01.360
<v Speaker 1>But no, yeah, it was received very well.

0:48:01.400 --> 0:48:03.640
<v Speaker 3>I'm proud of him. I'm proud of our growth. I'm

0:48:03.680 --> 0:48:07.600
<v Speaker 3>proud of where we are, and I'm happy to say like, yeah,

0:48:07.640 --> 0:48:10.359
<v Speaker 3>sh it wasn't beautiful in the beginning, but we it's

0:48:10.440 --> 0:48:13.520
<v Speaker 3>we good now. We made it through that storm, you know.

0:48:13.800 --> 0:48:15.600
<v Speaker 3>And I say that with my chest. I say that

0:48:15.719 --> 0:48:17.800
<v Speaker 3>was so much with so much pride.

0:48:18.440 --> 0:48:20.120
<v Speaker 1>Thank you for sharing. I think a lot of people

0:48:20.160 --> 0:48:22.600
<v Speaker 1>need to hear that, because yeah, it's important for people

0:48:22.640 --> 0:48:24.920
<v Speaker 1>to know that there's a journey that's involved and it's

0:48:24.960 --> 0:48:28.680
<v Speaker 1>not always perfect, even at the beginning. So I think

0:48:28.719 --> 0:48:31.680
<v Speaker 1>that's beautiful that you guys were able to move forward

0:48:31.719 --> 0:48:34.880
<v Speaker 1>and that I'm curious to know your creative.

0:48:34.480 --> 0:48:37.520
<v Speaker 3>Process, like when do you how do you write songs?

0:48:37.880 --> 0:48:40.640
<v Speaker 3>We had teacher Moses on a few weeks ago and

0:48:40.680 --> 0:48:41.680
<v Speaker 3>she was saying, how with.

0:48:41.680 --> 0:48:46.080
<v Speaker 1>How fine sales o Lord, and she would say her

0:48:46.080 --> 0:48:49.080
<v Speaker 1>creative process was like she need to be the fuck alone.

0:48:49.560 --> 0:48:51.600
<v Speaker 1>Like She's like, I don't like being in studios with

0:48:51.640 --> 0:48:54.640
<v Speaker 1>a bunch of people. I will underperform.

0:48:54.880 --> 0:48:57.360
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, Like I would be in rooms with big people

0:48:57.400 --> 0:49:00.680
<v Speaker 2>looking at me, and I'd be like, yeah, looking.

0:49:00.520 --> 0:49:03.840
<v Speaker 1>At you, look at Yeah. I imagine, like that's a

0:49:03.840 --> 0:49:05.520
<v Speaker 1>lot of pressure for an artist and a writer.

0:49:06.239 --> 0:49:09.120
<v Speaker 3>I've grown now to work well with others, but in

0:49:09.160 --> 0:49:11.160
<v Speaker 3>the in the beginning, I was I was definitely a

0:49:11.200 --> 0:49:13.560
<v Speaker 3>loaner writer for sure, for sure. But I think that's

0:49:13.560 --> 0:49:16.120
<v Speaker 3>because I ain't never again, I ain't never wrote about

0:49:16.160 --> 0:49:19.520
<v Speaker 3>nothing that I ain't never experienced the experience. So it's

0:49:19.600 --> 0:49:22.120
<v Speaker 3>it's difficult for me to get in the studio and

0:49:22.120 --> 0:49:25.680
<v Speaker 3>and just make ship up. I'm not that kind of

0:49:25.760 --> 0:49:29.600
<v Speaker 3>I'm an experienced writer, so growing through this industry, damn

0:49:29.680 --> 0:49:32.960
<v Speaker 3>that ship smell good.

0:49:33.840 --> 0:49:39.000
<v Speaker 1>Not anymore, not anymore. But what was I saying? You

0:49:42.719 --> 0:49:45.640
<v Speaker 1>a loan writer, but you've learned to uh work well

0:49:45.680 --> 0:49:47.040
<v Speaker 1>with others, right, Yeah?

0:49:47.320 --> 0:49:50.680
<v Speaker 3>And uh because you're you write from a lived experience. Yeah,

0:49:50.800 --> 0:49:51.240
<v Speaker 3>I can't.

0:49:51.360 --> 0:49:53.439
<v Speaker 1>I've never been able to get in the lab and.

0:49:53.400 --> 0:49:56.000
<v Speaker 3>Just like make make some ship up that I ain't,

0:49:56.600 --> 0:50:00.279
<v Speaker 3>you know, But now that I have pen pals, shout

0:50:00.280 --> 0:50:02.000
<v Speaker 3>out my girl ro Kad who wrote I see you,

0:50:02.400 --> 0:50:05.680
<v Speaker 3>Cocle Jones and Spike the Designer. I have pin pals

0:50:05.760 --> 0:50:09.080
<v Speaker 3>that they know. They know my get down, they know

0:50:09.120 --> 0:50:11.000
<v Speaker 3>what I want to talk about. They know how I

0:50:11.239 --> 0:50:16.200
<v Speaker 3>how I like my delivery to be. And a lot

0:50:16.200 --> 0:50:19.640
<v Speaker 3>of the times I freestyle things and I have you

0:50:19.680 --> 0:50:23.000
<v Speaker 3>should see my voice notes, girl, I freestyle shit, and

0:50:23.040 --> 0:50:25.520
<v Speaker 3>then when I get in the studio, I just run

0:50:25.560 --> 0:50:27.400
<v Speaker 3>through beats and whichever.

0:50:27.120 --> 0:50:30.560
<v Speaker 1>Which one matches. Yeah, you have to feel at first,

0:50:30.560 --> 0:50:34.319
<v Speaker 1>and then look at this, oh good, oh oh, it

0:50:34.360 --> 0:50:37.720
<v Speaker 1>goes all the way to twenty twenty three. I believe

0:50:38.880 --> 0:50:40.839
<v Speaker 1>those jobs shit that I just come up with.

0:50:41.040 --> 0:50:42.920
<v Speaker 3>And then I'm like, okay, when I get to the studio,

0:50:42.960 --> 0:50:46.400
<v Speaker 3>I'm gonna this is twenty oh, twenty eighteen.

0:50:46.520 --> 0:50:48.120
<v Speaker 1>And spoiled loyal, Yeah.

0:50:48.880 --> 0:50:52.239
<v Speaker 3>And then I name them like you know, but anyhow, Yeah.

0:50:52.400 --> 0:50:55.600
<v Speaker 3>I usually always got some material.

0:50:55.239 --> 0:50:56.960
<v Speaker 1>Up here, though, and then you just apply it to

0:50:57.000 --> 0:50:59.760
<v Speaker 1>the track. I just applied. Has this always been your passion?

0:51:00.000 --> 0:51:01.719
<v Speaker 2>I always don't since you're a little girl, but I

0:51:01.719 --> 0:51:03.480
<v Speaker 2>grew up absolutely absolutely.

0:51:03.480 --> 0:51:05.800
<v Speaker 3>I've been saying since I was two years old. I

0:51:05.840 --> 0:51:07.320
<v Speaker 3>don't know how to do nothing else, y'all.

0:51:07.320 --> 0:51:09.520
<v Speaker 1>This is all I got. You come from a musical family,

0:51:09.600 --> 0:51:09.919
<v Speaker 1>I do.

0:51:10.120 --> 0:51:13.080
<v Speaker 3>My mama was a songstress, a gospel songstress, and my

0:51:13.400 --> 0:51:16.920
<v Speaker 3>grandfather was the lead singer in a gospel cortet group. Nice,

0:51:17.000 --> 0:51:18.920
<v Speaker 3>so I got it from him. Jim Humpfriedo was my

0:51:18.960 --> 0:51:21.840
<v Speaker 3>best friend. He was my favorite toy when I was

0:51:21.840 --> 0:51:25.319
<v Speaker 3>a kid. Me and my papa was very very close.

0:51:25.360 --> 0:51:29.040
<v Speaker 3>He died in my arms, actually, and then the gift

0:51:29.160 --> 0:51:31.000
<v Speaker 3>was passed down from him to my mama, and then

0:51:31.000 --> 0:51:33.360
<v Speaker 3>from my mama to me. My sisters can't here to

0:51:33.440 --> 0:51:35.680
<v Speaker 3>note to say they life really no the only one.

0:51:35.680 --> 0:51:37.360
<v Speaker 1>It's just me. What about your son?

0:51:38.160 --> 0:51:40.160
<v Speaker 3>Austin can't here to know to say his wife either,

0:51:40.160 --> 0:51:42.600
<v Speaker 3>but he can dance. Now you know who I think?

0:51:43.480 --> 0:51:45.680
<v Speaker 3>Can I show y'all this video of my baby singing.

0:51:46.520 --> 0:51:49.800
<v Speaker 3>I think Apollo has the gift. Apollo is the baby.

0:51:50.640 --> 0:51:54.439
<v Speaker 3>I think he's gonna have it because my mama told

0:51:54.480 --> 0:51:56.919
<v Speaker 3>me when I was a little girl, I would walk

0:51:56.960 --> 0:51:59.960
<v Speaker 3>around the house doing that the century twenty one.

0:52:03.360 --> 0:52:06.959
<v Speaker 1>But as a baby though, and Apollo does the same thing.

0:52:07.840 --> 0:52:11.480
<v Speaker 3>Let me show you how this video such a mimyet

0:52:12.360 --> 0:52:14.920
<v Speaker 3>I think he does. And then he'll walk around the

0:52:14.920 --> 0:52:18.560
<v Speaker 3>house and just like just do little throughs.

0:52:18.280 --> 0:52:20.200
<v Speaker 1>Where to go? It went out, girl, and that was

0:52:20.200 --> 0:52:22.920
<v Speaker 1>the last match. I got no lighter. I just gave up, okay,

0:52:27.239 --> 0:52:28.760
<v Speaker 1>and he'll just make up sheet.

0:52:28.800 --> 0:52:30.800
<v Speaker 3>I'm looking for it. So I got so many baby

0:52:30.880 --> 0:52:34.240
<v Speaker 3>videos in his damn phone. He'll just make up stuff,

0:52:34.280 --> 0:52:37.160
<v Speaker 3>you know, like he'll why you look for that?

0:52:37.200 --> 0:52:41.720
<v Speaker 2>I'm wondering how has that been having such an age gap, because,

0:52:41.880 --> 0:52:42.879
<v Speaker 2>oh girl.

0:52:43.160 --> 0:52:45.600
<v Speaker 3>Because I'm scared, because you want to have another baby,

0:52:45.640 --> 0:52:50.319
<v Speaker 3>I'm going to you should I love babies again? It

0:52:50.440 --> 0:52:53.000
<v Speaker 3>was me overthinking it. They love each other, girl. Them

0:52:53.040 --> 0:52:56.319
<v Speaker 3>babies is so them kids are so close. Apollo think

0:52:56.360 --> 0:52:59.000
<v Speaker 3>he a big boy because because of his big brothers.

0:52:59.640 --> 0:53:02.919
<v Speaker 3>He's and his brothers are damn. I can't find it, y'all.

0:53:02.920 --> 0:53:05.280
<v Speaker 3>But he's since video where he was in my office

0:53:05.760 --> 0:53:08.960
<v Speaker 3>playing with my guitar and then once he realized the

0:53:09.000 --> 0:53:15.520
<v Speaker 3>guitar actually made noise, he tried to follow the tone.

0:53:15.280 --> 0:53:18.680
<v Speaker 1>Of the It was the most beautiful thing. I was like, oh, ship,

0:53:18.800 --> 0:53:25.200
<v Speaker 1>and I'm watching him in the corner like and the

0:53:26.960 --> 0:53:29.479
<v Speaker 1>Jay is like, yeah, yeah, I'm gonna manage my boy. Nigga,

0:53:29.520 --> 0:53:32.920
<v Speaker 1>you don't know nothing about music? Do you write for

0:53:32.960 --> 0:53:33.759
<v Speaker 1>other artists?

0:53:34.200 --> 0:53:37.880
<v Speaker 3>I will, like, I haven't yet. I've been to writing

0:53:37.880 --> 0:53:39.560
<v Speaker 3>camps and ship like that, but nothing I like.

0:53:39.600 --> 0:53:39.879
<v Speaker 1>I went.

0:53:39.960 --> 0:53:42.480
<v Speaker 3>I've been to Rihanna's writing camp and it's gotten so

0:53:42.520 --> 0:53:44.719
<v Speaker 3>far to where they actually called back and was like, oh, yeah, yeah,

0:53:44.719 --> 0:53:46.640
<v Speaker 3>we love this song. We're gonna take it. We're gonna

0:53:46.680 --> 0:53:52.160
<v Speaker 3>spend like ten times. But yeah, I do writing camps

0:53:52.200 --> 0:53:54.520
<v Speaker 3>and when if one of the motherfucker's land and hey,

0:53:55.640 --> 0:53:59.320
<v Speaker 3>go me, but yeah, no, it hasn't happened yet. I

0:53:59.320 --> 0:54:02.160
<v Speaker 3>can't find a bit y'all. Fuck, But yeah, I think

0:54:02.160 --> 0:54:04.960
<v Speaker 3>I think Apollo is going to be a singer follows

0:54:05.000 --> 0:54:07.000
<v Speaker 3>for Yeah, I think he's going to be a singer

0:54:08.040 --> 0:54:11.319
<v Speaker 3>that'll be lovely. And Austin is fifteen or about to

0:54:11.360 --> 0:54:13.600
<v Speaker 3>be fifteen, and Adonna's is seventh.

0:54:14.000 --> 0:54:21.040
<v Speaker 2>Austin anas Yeah, I like this and that wasn't played either,

0:54:21.400 --> 0:54:23.479
<v Speaker 2>but obviously that's why I feel like he's my soul

0:54:23.520 --> 0:54:23.959
<v Speaker 2>make girl.

0:54:25.000 --> 0:54:28.560
<v Speaker 1>When you know, you know, you know, you know, we

0:54:28.680 --> 0:54:30.400
<v Speaker 1>know today we made it my baby daddy house. You

0:54:30.480 --> 0:54:31.359
<v Speaker 1>got the little ship up here.

0:54:32.040 --> 0:54:37.640
<v Speaker 2>Ship fine, I mean I think there are magical moments

0:54:37.680 --> 0:54:40.040
<v Speaker 2>that happened that God says, yeah, bitch, this is. I

0:54:40.080 --> 0:54:41.840
<v Speaker 2>know you'd be dreaming about other niggas, but this is

0:54:41.920 --> 0:54:45.200
<v Speaker 2>is the sparkly Yeah, how is your birth?

0:54:46.920 --> 0:54:49.360
<v Speaker 1>Oh? Did that? Was it? But did you have a

0:54:49.400 --> 0:54:51.759
<v Speaker 1>vaginal birth? That's a story. No, I have to have

0:54:51.840 --> 0:54:56.880
<v Speaker 1>cesareans with with my kids because my too tight. I can't.

0:54:58.719 --> 0:55:02.759
<v Speaker 2>I can't push kids today. It's just too smile. But no,

0:55:02.960 --> 0:55:07.400
<v Speaker 2>I really have to have my kids. And I almost I.

0:55:07.160 --> 0:55:11.919
<v Speaker 1>Codd with Oh really, yeah, I had a coded one percent. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>like I died a little bit. I came. I had

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<v Speaker 1>a uterine rupture.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh no, And you know, I didn't realize how dangerous

0:55:24.480 --> 0:55:29.080
<v Speaker 3>it was until my doctor brought me a paper to sign.

0:55:29.280 --> 0:55:32.160
<v Speaker 3>And on this paper you have to acknowledge that there

0:55:32.280 --> 0:55:36.399
<v Speaker 3>is a ninety nine percent chance that you can die

0:55:37.000 --> 0:55:39.000
<v Speaker 3>if you have a uterine rupture during.

0:55:40.400 --> 0:55:41.960
<v Speaker 1>They gave it to you mid labor.

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<v Speaker 3>No prior to because my choice was to do a

0:55:44.880 --> 0:55:47.560
<v Speaker 3>v back. Let me back up, I wanted to opted

0:55:47.600 --> 0:55:49.799
<v Speaker 3>to do a v back. Where a v back, for

0:55:49.880 --> 0:55:51.480
<v Speaker 3>those of you who don't know, is when you have

0:55:51.520 --> 0:55:55.520
<v Speaker 3>a vaginal birth after a C section Okay, there's risks

0:55:55.600 --> 0:55:58.759
<v Speaker 3>with that. I just so happened to fall into that

0:55:58.960 --> 0:56:03.640
<v Speaker 3>one percent of women who have a uterine rupture while

0:56:03.680 --> 0:56:07.480
<v Speaker 3>attempting a v back. So in the middle of pushing,

0:56:07.520 --> 0:56:09.440
<v Speaker 3>I had a balloon. Did you do you know that

0:56:09.640 --> 0:56:12.480
<v Speaker 3>is I had a fucking balloon put up. That's the

0:56:12.520 --> 0:56:13.839
<v Speaker 3>worst they try to.

0:56:13.960 --> 0:56:16.920
<v Speaker 1>They try to make it for you and dilate for you.

0:56:17.280 --> 0:56:20.920
<v Speaker 3>I women, I would advise not to get that ship.

0:56:21.000 --> 0:56:24.480
<v Speaker 1>I hate that. It was so uncomfortable anyway, the balloon

0:56:27.280 --> 0:56:28.719
<v Speaker 1>shook some ship up down there.

0:56:28.880 --> 0:56:33.040
<v Speaker 3>Okay, and uh, as I was attempting to push, I

0:56:33.400 --> 0:56:35.799
<v Speaker 3>started to bleed out. I had to be rushed back

0:56:35.840 --> 0:56:38.960
<v Speaker 3>for an emergency c section. As they were trushing me

0:56:39.040 --> 0:56:45.440
<v Speaker 3>back there, bitch, I'm just I'm just slipping away, Jay, because.

0:56:45.160 --> 0:56:50.040
<v Speaker 1>You're losing so much blood. Jay was like I have

0:56:50.120 --> 0:56:50.800
<v Speaker 1>to come with her, you know.

0:56:50.840 --> 0:56:52.680
<v Speaker 3>They telling him, sir, please stay back because now he's

0:56:52.719 --> 0:56:54.680
<v Speaker 3>at a point where they're trying to, you know, save

0:56:54.760 --> 0:56:58.680
<v Speaker 3>my life. And I remember being I'm probably gonna end

0:56:58.760 --> 0:57:04.560
<v Speaker 3>up crying again, y'all. I remember getting being taken back

0:57:04.600 --> 0:57:08.400
<v Speaker 3>to the o R and I can I started to

0:57:08.600 --> 0:57:15.640
<v Speaker 3>smell my grandpa. I started to smell him in the

0:57:15.719 --> 0:57:19.360
<v Speaker 3>hallway and in the room with me, and.

0:57:19.320 --> 0:57:24.120
<v Speaker 1>I was just feeling like this. I can't even describe it.

0:57:24.160 --> 0:57:27.600
<v Speaker 3>I don't know if I don't even know if I

0:57:27.600 --> 0:57:30.240
<v Speaker 3>went to the I don't know what the other side is,

0:57:30.320 --> 0:57:32.320
<v Speaker 3>you know what I mean. But I just felt like

0:57:32.360 --> 0:57:37.200
<v Speaker 3>I wasn't here. So I remember when they finally let

0:57:37.280 --> 0:57:39.520
<v Speaker 3>Jay in. He was whispering in my ear.

0:57:39.560 --> 0:57:42.320
<v Speaker 1>He was like, Mamas, please don't leave me, Please stay

0:57:42.360 --> 0:57:44.000
<v Speaker 1>here with me. We have a son, we have a

0:57:44.040 --> 0:57:46.080
<v Speaker 1>son coming. Don't leave me. Don't leave me.

0:57:46.520 --> 0:57:48.280
<v Speaker 3>And I hear him on this side. But then I'm

0:57:48.320 --> 0:57:50.960
<v Speaker 3>smelling and experience with my grandfather on one side, and

0:57:51.000 --> 0:57:54.080
<v Speaker 3>I can hear my doctor going in on everybody in

0:57:54.080 --> 0:57:58.040
<v Speaker 3>the room. I had a black black women, if you know,

0:57:58.160 --> 0:58:00.480
<v Speaker 3>you know, get you a black o beach g y n.

0:58:00.640 --> 0:58:03.000
<v Speaker 3>Get you a black woman to bring your black baby

0:58:03.320 --> 0:58:04.520
<v Speaker 3>into this white world.

0:58:04.720 --> 0:58:10.240
<v Speaker 1>Okay. She was on everybody's ass. I heard her saying, like,

0:58:10.680 --> 0:58:13.760
<v Speaker 1>this is my patient. I did not give you permission

0:58:13.800 --> 0:58:16.040
<v Speaker 1>to put the balloon. Nobody called me, nobody asked me for.

0:58:16.120 --> 0:58:17.840
<v Speaker 1>She was getting on everybody's ask girl.

0:58:17.840 --> 0:58:19.480
<v Speaker 3>Come to find out, I could have a whole I

0:58:19.480 --> 0:58:22.480
<v Speaker 3>could have had a whole like lawsuit against the doctor

0:58:22.560 --> 0:58:24.680
<v Speaker 3>that put the balloon in my because he went against

0:58:24.680 --> 0:58:25.520
<v Speaker 3>my doctor's orders.

0:58:25.600 --> 0:58:27.560
<v Speaker 1>Wow, but anyway, Yeah, I had a unil rupture and

0:58:27.560 --> 0:58:29.600
<v Speaker 1>I damn there, I damn it checked up out of here,

0:58:29.640 --> 0:58:32.000
<v Speaker 1>trying to get a follow here and then how did that?

0:58:32.120 --> 0:58:35.840
<v Speaker 2>What is the process after you're in Uterian rupture? Do

0:58:35.920 --> 0:58:37.320
<v Speaker 2>they have to stitch it? You just have to be

0:58:37.320 --> 0:58:38.720
<v Speaker 2>on bedrest and hills.

0:58:38.800 --> 0:58:41.720
<v Speaker 3>Naturally, I can no longer carry a baby full term.

0:58:42.200 --> 0:58:45.120
<v Speaker 3>I have to yes, yes, to answer your question. I

0:58:45.160 --> 0:58:49.480
<v Speaker 3>was stitched. I had stitches. They stitched me up, and

0:58:49.520 --> 0:58:52.080
<v Speaker 3>I had an extra two weeks of recovery after since here,

0:58:52.200 --> 0:58:54.959
<v Speaker 3>you know, it's six weeks, so my recovery time was eight.

0:58:56.440 --> 0:58:58.880
<v Speaker 1>So it was eight, you know, eight very long weeks

0:58:58.880 --> 0:58:59.320
<v Speaker 1>with no.

0:58:59.360 --> 0:59:04.720
<v Speaker 3>Dick and no or no old skill anything, no motor skills,

0:59:04.800 --> 0:59:05.360
<v Speaker 3>no nothing.

0:59:05.360 --> 0:59:07.480
<v Speaker 1>I wore diaper for like, I had to wear a

0:59:07.520 --> 0:59:10.800
<v Speaker 1>diaper the entire time, was the first thing? Like why

0:59:10.840 --> 0:59:13.400
<v Speaker 1>was that the first thing? She said? Oh?

0:59:12.360 --> 0:59:15.919
<v Speaker 3>I wore diaper for like that whole I was still

0:59:15.920 --> 0:59:17.120
<v Speaker 3>bleeding that whole entire time.

0:59:17.480 --> 0:59:19.919
<v Speaker 1>But I can no longer carry a baby full term.

0:59:19.960 --> 0:59:22.360
<v Speaker 1>I have to deliver at thirty four weeks.

0:59:22.440 --> 0:59:24.960
<v Speaker 3>I cannot go past thirty five weeks because literally my

0:59:25.040 --> 0:59:28.520
<v Speaker 3>users just can't hold the weight of a full term baby.

0:59:28.680 --> 0:59:31.720
<v Speaker 3>I will die if I try to carry my baby

0:59:31.720 --> 0:59:34.640
<v Speaker 3>full term. It's it's an indefinite like she made me.

0:59:35.200 --> 0:59:37.760
<v Speaker 3>She made it very clear, and I signed the paperwork.

0:59:37.960 --> 0:59:38.200
<v Speaker 2>You know.

0:59:38.360 --> 0:59:41.840
<v Speaker 1>So it's a scary fucking thing bringing kids into this world.

0:59:42.640 --> 0:59:44.080
<v Speaker 1>But you can do it. I mean you can do it.

0:59:44.120 --> 0:59:44.720
<v Speaker 1>I'm not trying to.

0:59:44.640 --> 0:59:49.160
<v Speaker 3>Scare any mothers that are expecting, sorry, but you know,

0:59:49.600 --> 0:59:51.480
<v Speaker 3>stories like this are important for women to hear. They

0:59:51.520 --> 0:59:55.480
<v Speaker 3>gotta know, they gotta know. And I stand ten toes

0:59:55.520 --> 0:59:58.720
<v Speaker 3>down on this ship. I black mamas should have black

0:59:58.760 --> 1:00:02.920
<v Speaker 3>women that should have black doctors, preferably a black woman

1:00:03.200 --> 1:00:04.120
<v Speaker 3>obg y N.

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<v Speaker 1>But I don't. I ain't without it.

1:00:06.880 --> 1:00:10.760
<v Speaker 3>They don't try to save us the highest birth death

1:00:11.000 --> 1:00:17.280
<v Speaker 3>rate black women. Don't be no donu, bitch, don't be

1:00:17.400 --> 1:00:21.560
<v Speaker 3>no donor. That happens because they're not saving you. I

1:00:22.320 --> 1:00:23.800
<v Speaker 3>want everybody to know that and hear me.

1:00:24.120 --> 1:00:26.640
<v Speaker 2>I took off my license. Yes, as a person, do

1:00:26.720 --> 1:00:28.880
<v Speaker 2>not do not volunteer.

1:00:28.440 --> 1:00:30.320
<v Speaker 1>To donate organs, don't do it.

1:00:32.600 --> 1:00:36.000
<v Speaker 2>Not going to conspiracy and also and also take your

1:00:36.000 --> 1:00:40.120
<v Speaker 2>placenta home. I did to take take your ship, bring

1:00:40.160 --> 1:00:41.560
<v Speaker 2>it container and take your ship home.

1:00:41.680 --> 1:00:43.000
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I took it. I ate it.

1:00:43.080 --> 1:00:45.880
<v Speaker 3>I mean I made it into pills and popped the pills.

1:00:45.960 --> 1:00:48.880
<v Speaker 3>Took the pills just be recovery. But I think because

1:00:48.920 --> 1:00:51.200
<v Speaker 3>my birth experience was so traumatic, it really didn't make

1:00:51.280 --> 1:00:52.320
<v Speaker 3>much of a difference for me.

1:00:52.960 --> 1:00:54.760
<v Speaker 1>But yeah, I did that. I got my pcent to

1:00:54.800 --> 1:00:55.920
<v Speaker 1>turn into pills.

1:00:56.280 --> 1:00:58.160
<v Speaker 2>I planted a tree and I was going, if I

1:00:58.440 --> 1:01:01.880
<v Speaker 2>deliver my freezer for months. You planted a tree, so

1:01:02.080 --> 1:01:02.720
<v Speaker 2>is it has it?

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<v Speaker 1>It's huge? Really? Do you have a picture? I have

1:01:06.560 --> 1:01:08.200
<v Speaker 1>one on her birthday. I'll show you.

1:01:08.240 --> 1:01:10.120
<v Speaker 2>I'll try to take one every every time in front

1:01:10.120 --> 1:01:11.360
<v Speaker 2>of my gay daddy's parents house.

1:01:11.360 --> 1:01:13.040
<v Speaker 1>And I remember it's around birthday. I take you, like,

1:01:13.040 --> 1:01:16.600
<v Speaker 1>look at you. I love to see. That's the dope.

1:01:16.640 --> 1:01:21.880
<v Speaker 3>Ass idea play show, listen to That's cute. That's realde though.

1:01:22.000 --> 1:01:22.600
<v Speaker 1>I love it.

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<v Speaker 3>So we have a little game we like to play

1:01:25.960 --> 1:01:27.120
<v Speaker 3>with our guests. I know we're going to get out

1:01:27.120 --> 1:01:28.560
<v Speaker 3>of here soon. We've been we can chat. I can

1:01:28.640 --> 1:01:29.360
<v Speaker 3>chat with you all day.

1:01:30.000 --> 1:01:33.080
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, so dope, thank you. We'll play this game on

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<v Speaker 1>our show. It's called trigger. Okay and oh.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, And basically I want to say a word and

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<v Speaker 3>then you just say the first thing that comes to mind. Okay,

1:01:45.680 --> 1:01:52.640
<v Speaker 3>don't overthink it, all right? Bad habits me? Religion, God,

1:01:54.320 --> 1:01:55.280
<v Speaker 3>last time you had sex?

1:01:57.280 --> 1:02:02.760
<v Speaker 1>How long I've been in ladys Well? Favorite porn category?

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<v Speaker 1>Not that face. It's to save space. Kind kind of lingos,

1:02:08.640 --> 1:02:10.760
<v Speaker 1>kind of lingis Did I say that? Right?

1:02:12.000 --> 1:02:12.400
<v Speaker 2>Is this this?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>So you like watching other women eat other woman?

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<v Speaker 2>No?

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<v Speaker 1>No, no, means watching women getting ahead? Okay, watching it

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<v Speaker 1>getting it?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>The love language, food, deal breaker, no reciprocity, toxic trait, cussing,

1:02:36.040 --> 1:02:44.200
<v Speaker 2>favorite exposition, I'll get do, turn on my man, turn

1:02:44.280 --> 1:02:45.400
<v Speaker 2>off pickles?

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<v Speaker 1>Turn what pickles? Are you turn off? Okay?

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, right, celebrity crush, I ain't.

1:02:56.760 --> 1:02:59.040
<v Speaker 1>Got I want to do. No, no, no, he's got

1:02:59.040 --> 1:03:00.440
<v Speaker 1>a man. No, No, you don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>I never heard of it, never rush, not in my vocabulary.

1:03:08.760 --> 1:03:14.919
<v Speaker 3>Therapy wasn't enough? Uh, best the device You've ever got

1:03:15.040 --> 1:03:21.320
<v Speaker 3>to trust? My gift, guilty pleasure, chocolate, bad choices.

1:03:21.440 --> 1:03:26.720
<v Speaker 1>Starting arguments on purpect, toxic.

1:03:27.840 --> 1:03:32.280
<v Speaker 3>Sting, arguments on purpose, dilator do this sometimes just to

1:03:32.320 --> 1:03:35.200
<v Speaker 3>be yeah, just to be a break.

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<v Speaker 1>Come spoiled. Jay got me so spoiled, So you know

1:03:38.440 --> 1:03:40.200
<v Speaker 1>you're doing it. You're like, I'm gonna start argument right now.

1:03:40.240 --> 1:03:46.200
<v Speaker 1>Sometimes I sometimes I hope I want. Sometimes sometimes I just.

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<v Speaker 3>Like, yeah, favorite artists, favorite artist Brandy hands down, and

1:03:55.000 --> 1:03:56.560
<v Speaker 3>she knows it too, and.

1:03:56.640 --> 1:03:58.520
<v Speaker 1>You know it too. I love her. You know what,

1:03:58.560 --> 1:04:00.560
<v Speaker 1>I never say never album. I could play that ship

1:04:00.600 --> 1:04:02.480
<v Speaker 1>on repeat for the rest of my mother. Have you

1:04:02.640 --> 1:04:05.760
<v Speaker 1>heard her new? Y'all listen to K's album. I haven't.

1:04:05.880 --> 1:04:07.440
<v Speaker 1>I just came out. I haven't heard it now. She

1:04:07.560 --> 1:04:08.560
<v Speaker 1>got a song with Brandy.

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<v Speaker 3>As I know, Kaylani put All every vocal forward listen

1:04:15.520 --> 1:04:18.720
<v Speaker 3>is an absolute animal like she's she don't play with

1:04:18.760 --> 1:04:22.240
<v Speaker 3>her vocally, but she was. I was just said the Billboard, uh,

1:04:22.600 --> 1:04:25.080
<v Speaker 3>Women in Music Awards Awards with her.

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<v Speaker 1>She was so fucking kind. She was like, y'all, it's

1:04:27.960 --> 1:04:29.520
<v Speaker 1>like two me and teen. She was like two of

1:04:29.520 --> 1:04:30.280
<v Speaker 1>my favorite girls.

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<v Speaker 2>In R and B right now, girl, may I might

1:04:32.120 --> 1:04:38.520
<v Speaker 2>come out of lesbian retirement for in the community. I

1:04:38.560 --> 1:04:39.240
<v Speaker 2>know that's what saying.

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<v Speaker 1>I am. I you know, dabble, but.

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<v Speaker 3>She's she's awesome, man, that song she got with Brandy.

1:04:46.360 --> 1:04:49.960
<v Speaker 3>My god, Brandy gave us old Brandy Beck record. She

1:04:50.040 --> 1:04:52.440
<v Speaker 3>gave us Never Say Never Brandy on that record. Really

1:04:52.760 --> 1:04:55.000
<v Speaker 3>absolutely when you listen to the album, listen to the

1:04:55.040 --> 1:04:58.560
<v Speaker 3>whole album, but listen to that first before you listen

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<v Speaker 3>to any.

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<v Speaker 1>Other song noted. Yeah, Oh my god. I was listening

1:05:01.360 --> 1:05:03.240
<v Speaker 1>to Angel in Disguise the other day. I was like,

1:05:05.040 --> 1:05:12.600
<v Speaker 1>forget about quite strange the way say yes name when

1:05:12.760 --> 1:05:19.560
<v Speaker 1>you're looking. Oh, I see the love Candy nice.

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<v Speaker 2>Comes so many hits, he says, I forget, But yeah,

1:05:27.720 --> 1:05:29.160
<v Speaker 2>it's just so smooth.

1:05:29.160 --> 1:05:33.040
<v Speaker 1>It's like she ain't even really trying, like a throwback Brandy,

1:05:33.680 --> 1:05:36.040
<v Speaker 1>Like just oh my god, cause you go to Vegas.

1:05:36.040 --> 1:05:37.160
<v Speaker 1>Oh god, I love.

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<v Speaker 2>Brandy in the car Brandy, we want, we want Vegas,

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<v Speaker 2>we want.

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<v Speaker 1>So are you guys to see Jesz Hell? Yeah, Jesus

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<v Speaker 1>in Vegas?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh okay, Vegas, Christ and Usher, Christ and Asher you're

1:05:57.320 --> 1:05:57.960
<v Speaker 2>going to do now?

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<v Speaker 1>I've seen Chris who just made out? So I made

1:06:03.840 --> 1:06:06.480
<v Speaker 1>out with Crazy. You went up to this It was

1:06:06.480 --> 1:06:08.160
<v Speaker 1>one of the girls on the stage. No, it's back

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<v Speaker 1>in the day.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm just I was just no, I haven't got super excited.

1:06:15.360 --> 1:06:21.640
<v Speaker 2>She said you can, Chris, I did, Yes, it was

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<v Speaker 2>it was a lot of bitch. I should never tell

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<v Speaker 2>anybody else. That's been a lot time. Every time I

1:06:27.200 --> 1:06:29.280
<v Speaker 2>was like, I know he could have been my dad.

1:06:29.400 --> 1:06:32.120
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, yes, still, I'm sorry. But why why aren't

1:06:32.120 --> 1:06:33.440
<v Speaker 2>you going to the concert? What does that have to

1:06:33.520 --> 1:06:33.920
<v Speaker 2>why not?

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<v Speaker 1>What does do with I saw the prices. They're kind

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<v Speaker 1>of crazy. Also, I saw Usher twice. I get it.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, if someone says here's a ticket to go

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<v Speaker 1>see Usher and Chris.

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<v Speaker 2>Brown, I'm gonna put my shirt on and I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 2>go somewhere, like if it just lines up. But like,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not spending a thousand dollars to see Kristen thousand,

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<v Speaker 2>seven hundred dollars one ticket.

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<v Speaker 1>That's what I saw on line. Oh wait, you gotta wait.

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<v Speaker 1>But I'm cheap. You got to wait.

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<v Speaker 2>You never come by the tickets, right because you know what?

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<v Speaker 2>Also you know what, Yeah, I guess, I guess. I

1:07:03.880 --> 1:07:09.480
<v Speaker 2>guess stopping cheap. I mean, hi, right, that's that's just

1:07:09.520 --> 1:07:11.640
<v Speaker 2>that's high. But I'm spending for art because I also

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<v Speaker 2>wanted to go see Flow Entry, and I know Chris

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<v Speaker 2>Brown is gonna put on a show. I was just

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<v Speaker 2>gonna say, but you know why they don't slack on production, baby,

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<v Speaker 2>they don't.

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<v Speaker 3>And I appreciate production. Yeah, they give you a full

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<v Speaker 3>show and they did ye in the goddamn and she

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<v Speaker 3>and they work on their apps.

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<v Speaker 1>They be greased. I mean yeah. I then like no,

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't mean like like like I'm listening speaking of this.

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<v Speaker 1>I have a question.

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<v Speaker 2>You know they remember that girl went on stage and

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<v Speaker 2>and her boyfriend, her man like dumped her. I think

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<v Speaker 2>it was her fiance or something or her husband. There

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<v Speaker 2>was a controversy because a girl got on stage and

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<v Speaker 2>Chris Chris and.

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<v Speaker 3>I remember that and he was an audience like, and

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<v Speaker 3>I wrote in the comments she should.

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<v Speaker 1>Get a pass. I mean in the.

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<v Speaker 2>Moment, like if you're if you're on stage with the

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<v Speaker 2>air like make out babe, do it for the team,

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<v Speaker 2>open your mouth in.

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<v Speaker 1>Mouth, wait no Monday, and you haven't none of it.

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<v Speaker 2>If there's every time we give you a hat pass,

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<v Speaker 2>it's like, so you could be a star.

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<v Speaker 1>I know, such a bou.

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<v Speaker 3>I know such I would have made up again and

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<v Speaker 3>and I'm sorry you got one of the cool Jamaicans aside.

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<v Speaker 2>I do oh wow, yeah, I can't confirm it tonight,

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<v Speaker 2>if you would be okay with that, I'm pretty sure

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<v Speaker 2>we had this conversation.

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<v Speaker 1>But I'm like, come on stage. But I do have

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<v Speaker 1>a very come on, I do have a stage. No,

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<v Speaker 1>it's a stage stage now, I'm in the performance. Now

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<v Speaker 1>I feel about the stage going for this shop must

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<v Speaker 1>go on. Na, Okay, I mean, but I can't.

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<v Speaker 2>I also come from the valley, you know, I just don't.

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<v Speaker 1>Girl, we make out like, I don't know why. Chris

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<v Speaker 1>is his tongue a mouth.

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<v Speaker 2>I know he was very, hes very, his big dick energy,

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<v Speaker 2>he confident.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just like, you don't know what his mouth's a bit.

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<v Speaker 1>He got money. If he catches something, he can pay. Again,

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<v Speaker 1>I cannot ship. He did is a regular oil. Anyway,

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<v Speaker 1>he was kissing a lot of bitches because speaking which.

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<v Speaker 2>Sing kissing and bitches and penicillin, insurance, planned parenthood.

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<v Speaker 1>Give me horries for us today. Stories. I got fingered

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<v Speaker 1>in church one time. That's so bad. Oh my god,

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<v Speaker 1>I love it. My god, church. Were you an adult

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<v Speaker 1>or are you mean? My kids say that I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>gonna watch it, Okay, good mom's bad choices.

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<v Speaker 3>No, I was, I was. I was I was a teenager.

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<v Speaker 3>I definitely was an adult.

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<v Speaker 2>Like if you were like it was like last week, No,

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<v Speaker 2>I was doing.

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<v Speaker 1>I was at a church I was at a church

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<v Speaker 1>camp thing over the summer time. And church camp doesn't count.

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<v Speaker 3>It's the camp this one time in band camp. Nah,

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<v Speaker 3>I was at a church camp thing.

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<v Speaker 1>I was.

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<v Speaker 3>I was a teenage girl and I had a crush

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<v Speaker 3>on We had crush a crush on each other, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>uh we just yeah, so at.

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<v Speaker 2>Least it was an anointed Jesus approved finger bag.

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<v Speaker 1>Was in the church a holy finger bang. No, it's not.

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<v Speaker 2>But couturis is the only thing on the body that's

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<v Speaker 2>primari primary only thing.

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<v Speaker 1>The thing is just to pleasusure. Yeah, it's because we're

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<v Speaker 1>spposed to experience pleasure. It's hotly we are the holy clit.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I say, what you tried to do. It's God.

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<v Speaker 1>It's science. She's convincing. Yeah, but it's no, she ain't

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<v Speaker 1>true because it's God. I don't know, right, it's holy.

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<v Speaker 2>It's a temple period, but it's a whole lee cold,

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<v Speaker 2>it's a holy hole. We got to move off anyway,

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<v Speaker 2>And I I ain't proud of it, but they made

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<v Speaker 2>me share. I'm proud of it. For you, friend, I

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<v Speaker 2>take away this. I rebuke to guilt and shame. You're

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<v Speaker 2>just a teenager. You're being exploracious. Yeah, okay, I was

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<v Speaker 2>just figuring me out. Yeah, the justice what is this?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? So I just pulled the card for the collective

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<v Speaker 1>of energies. Okay. So it can either be for whoever's

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<v Speaker 1>listening the energy of the show. Maybe this is for you,

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<v Speaker 1>Maybe it's not.

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<v Speaker 2>If it doesn't doesn't and they let it go, the

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<v Speaker 2>justice card, like we haven't pulled this. The justice card

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<v Speaker 2>represents justice, fairness, truth, and the law. You're being called

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<v Speaker 2>to account for the actions and will be judged accordingly.

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<v Speaker 2>If you have acted in alignment with your higher self

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<v Speaker 2>and for the greater good of others, you have nothing

1:12:32.200 --> 1:12:34.479
<v Speaker 2>to worry about. However, if you haven't, you will be

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<v Speaker 2>called out and made to own up to your actions.

1:12:37.080 --> 1:12:39.120
<v Speaker 2>If this has you shaking in your boots, no not,

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<v Speaker 2>that's the justice card isn't as black and white as

1:12:41.600 --> 1:12:44.120
<v Speaker 2>you may think. A level of compassion and understanding a

1:12:44.200 --> 1:12:47.200
<v Speaker 2>company justice, And although you may have done something you regret,

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<v Speaker 2>this card suggests that you will be treated fairly and

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<v Speaker 2>without bias. Be ready to take responsibility for your actions

1:12:52.960 --> 1:12:56.559
<v Speaker 2>and stand accountable for the ensuing consequences. If you seek justice,

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<v Speaker 2>then the justice card is a positive sign that it

1:12:58.640 --> 1:13:01.479
<v Speaker 2>will indeed be served. Sign that it will indeed be

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<v Speaker 2>served for you. Sorry, you may be part of the

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<v Speaker 2>legal case. We're waiting final judgment for the from the

1:13:05.800 --> 1:13:08.519
<v Speaker 2>courts or a governing body or institution. It really will

1:13:08.520 --> 1:13:11.080
<v Speaker 2>be passed down shortly. Once the decision is made, you

1:13:11.160 --> 1:13:13.680
<v Speaker 2>must accept it and move on. There are no retrials,

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<v Speaker 2>second chances with the upright justice card. It appears when

1:13:17.920 --> 1:13:19.880
<v Speaker 2>you need to make an important choice with the potential

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<v Speaker 2>for long term repercussions. Be aware of the impact of

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<v Speaker 2>your decisions will have on your well being and the

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<v Speaker 2>well being of others.

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<v Speaker 1>Good mom's bad choices, Baby, Okay, my dude got a warrant.

1:13:33.880 --> 1:13:38.679
<v Speaker 1>The war is gonna be fine. Didn't a no show?

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<v Speaker 1>A no show that I never want to court?

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<v Speaker 2>Or you can't just pay pay for that? I don't

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<v Speaker 2>fucking know I need to. I guess I should look

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<v Speaker 2>into it now.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, that's important. We're gonna need to look into that.

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<v Speaker 2>When you get all right cool, we don't need to

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<v Speaker 2>be we don't need to see an eye on the news.

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<v Speaker 1>Please. Texas is a weird place, so it surely is,

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<v Speaker 1>are you Houston? From Houston? Texas is so.

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<v Speaker 3>Unfair as far as as far as well, you know

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<v Speaker 3>what we got, we ain't got no uh capital text

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<v Speaker 3>and uh I talk.

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<v Speaker 1>I can talk my ship. But Houston I call it

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<v Speaker 1>a recession proof city because.

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<v Speaker 3>You can no matter where the economic calamity is, you

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<v Speaker 3>can survive in Houston.

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<v Speaker 1>I've heard that. I like Houston. Oh, thank you for

1:14:22.200 --> 1:14:24.639
<v Speaker 1>coming to visit us here. Thank y'all for having me.

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<v Speaker 3>Your business crazy y'all are so funny.

1:14:30.200 --> 1:14:31.760
<v Speaker 1>Y'all are such a good time. Thank you for having me.

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<v Speaker 1>Wait before we get out of here, can you share

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<v Speaker 1>the information? Yes?

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<v Speaker 3>I can hmm. Don't let the pressures of social media

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<v Speaker 3>make you feel like you're not doing enough or make

1:14:49.720 --> 1:14:54.760
<v Speaker 3>you feel like you're not enough. And also don't let

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<v Speaker 3>your birthdays make you feel like you're running out of

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<v Speaker 3>town because I would do that to myself. Okay, I'm

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<v Speaker 3>about to be thirty six. I haven't done this, this,

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<v Speaker 3>and this yet. I think it's truly all in God's time. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>So don't let social media make you feel like you're

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<v Speaker 3>not doing enough. Don't let your birthday, your age, your age.

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<v Speaker 3>I think that you're running out of time. Yep, I

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<v Speaker 3>shay that right.

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<v Speaker 1>I believe every birthday. Yeah, we don't do. We don't do.

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<v Speaker 1>We don't say hapy birtha anymore. We only listen to

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<v Speaker 1>busy signal. Happy birthday, I'm a friend, Happy birthday, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>a friend. I cut out the other song. Oh yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>it's done. It's in an age period. That's good. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>thank you, thank you so much. Thank you for coming on.

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<v Speaker 1>Make sure you will.

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<v Speaker 3>Actually, I would love for you to share where our

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<v Speaker 3>people can find your album, where they can find you

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<v Speaker 3>all the things. Yes, absolutely, On socials it's in Naya

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<v Speaker 3>I n a yah. But on TikTok and Facebook it's

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<v Speaker 3>in Naya underscore lamis l a m I s album

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<v Speaker 3>Therapy wasn't enough on the way, Hey.

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<v Speaker 1>When did it come out? You have to release it yet?

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>To be gg okayg on the album real song though, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>looking forward to it.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you, that's exciting. Congratulations, yes, congratulations exagement on the

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<v Speaker 1>new baby and grandma FuG he follow you up this.

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<v Speaker 2>New ships here four years Thank you girl.

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<v Speaker 1>I appreciate y'all. It's just so dope.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, But I know, as an artist like you put

1:16:30.160 --> 1:16:33.040
<v Speaker 3>a lot of we put a lot of effort into

1:16:33.400 --> 1:16:35.800
<v Speaker 3>your creations and you're not you're not independent, are you?

1:16:35.920 --> 1:16:38.280
<v Speaker 1>Our empires your empire, but.

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<v Speaker 3>Just just putting all of your love and your blood,

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<v Speaker 3>sweat and tears out there for the world to receive.

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<v Speaker 3>So I'm just I'm hoping that you get everything back

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<v Speaker 3>in twenty twofold. Thank you the work that you put in,

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<v Speaker 3>because you're bearing your soul and that's a gift, and

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<v Speaker 3>so thank you for allowing us into your gift. We

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<v Speaker 3>got to cut the camera, missed that mom makeing natives.

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<v Speaker 1>We need, we need that. It's hard, it's hard out here.

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<v Speaker 3>We put our put our blood, swind tears out and

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<v Speaker 3>we just don't know what if people are gonna hear it,

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<v Speaker 3>if they're going to give a fuck, And we need

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<v Speaker 3>we need, we need affirmations creative for y'all, affirmation, same

1:17:15.520 --> 1:17:17.160
<v Speaker 3>for y'all. I love how y'all give the moms a

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<v Speaker 3>safe space. I was just remember I was telling you

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<v Speaker 3>out there sometimes we need to be able to say

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<v Speaker 3>what the fuck is on our minds and and and

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<v Speaker 3>smoke fucking weed and have what is this again, Carol? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, just freedom without the judgment. Just because we're

1:17:33.479 --> 1:17:37.280
<v Speaker 3>responsible for our little, broke ass human beings, we still

1:17:37.320 --> 1:17:40.920
<v Speaker 3>get to be ourselves. So I applied y'all for this

1:17:41.080 --> 1:17:43.160
<v Speaker 3>platform and giving us a safe space like this.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you so much. It's our pleasure's dope.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, thank you for joining us for another episode of

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<v Speaker 3>Good Mom's Bad Choices.

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<v Speaker 3>Come to the retreat. You've heard us talk about it.

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<v Speaker 3>It's time come to retreat. We have the Mommy and

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<v Speaker 3>Me Retreat and that is July fourteenth through the nineteenth,

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<v Speaker 3>and then our Women's Retreat July twenty fourth through the

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<v Speaker 1>I love you, I love you, I love you, I

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<v Speaker 1>love you. Thanks than I'm gonna be so good. Can't

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<v Speaker 1>you tell? I went through a drought. That's until I

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<v Speaker 1>found out well, may might have.

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<v Speaker 5>Been no art.

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<v Speaker 4>That used to be broken tail now got the blues

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<v Speaker 4>dancing like yeah say justll throat.

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<v Speaker 1>Shots on the top and it's got We're in our voices.

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<v Speaker 4>Patriarchy catch it in the box to exploit its women

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<v Speaker 4>put the ping and power, so what's pointing to stay?

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<v Speaker 1>Want me to be good? So I make bad choice.

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<v Speaker 1>This bad mom not a.

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<v Speaker 4>Bad mom, but a bad mom. Peter's seeing put cannapus

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<v Speaker 4>in their bathb On walked in bosses camp and I

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<v Speaker 4>blewis cat ball tive dog.

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<v Speaker 1>Now I'm immune to the cat.

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<v Speaker 4>Calls her being the waisted street to it like a

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<v Speaker 4>dollar sign. Mother, rent the louver when two, it's like

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<v Speaker 4>a water sign where you're rent the winter essential will

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<v Speaker 4>win the summertime. I do