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Speaker 1: Hey, folks, Before we get into this episode, I wanted

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Speaker 1: do some calls. Hello, well, hi, what's your name?

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Speaker 2: Him?

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Speaker 1: My name sonjo On from Houston, sanchowed. Nice to Nice

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Speaker 1: to meet you, man. What's what's up with you?

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Speaker 2: Not much? I was really curious where do you get

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Speaker 2: your suits?

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Speaker 1: Striklinged Santra It says here that you Okay, I need

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Speaker 1: I saw this and I wanted clarification on it. Okay,

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Speaker 1: because these this is gonna be this is gonna be

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Speaker 1: two different kind of calls potentially. It's just here that

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Speaker 1: you knowingly had sex with someone with an STD. Does

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Speaker 1: that mean that if you had the STD and had

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Speaker 1: sex with them, or they had the SDD and had

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Speaker 2: They had the STD?

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Speaker 1: Interesting? So they did they tell you that they had

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Speaker 1: an STD?

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Speaker 2: Yeah? You know, we we'd met the night before. I

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Speaker 2: really didn't want to spend my Halloween alone and met

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Speaker 2: them on tender okay, and I mean their phone number,

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Speaker 2: and we ended up hitting it off and we were

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Speaker 2: on the phone for like three or four hours until

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Speaker 2: like three or four am, and I was like, this

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Speaker 2: I decided to invite them over and like Carson Pumpkins

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Speaker 2: and watch them Halloween movies and show with them for Halloween.

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Speaker 2: And on their driveover, they were like thirty minutes and

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Speaker 2: they were like, oh, hey, by the way, I'm like

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Speaker 2: responsible to tell you that I am herpiest positive.

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Speaker 1: Okay, how did you react when she told you?

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Speaker 3: That?

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Speaker 2: You know, I really try to keep an open mind.

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Speaker 2: I thought a lot that, like, you know, what if

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Speaker 2: I was in her position, like I would feel like

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Speaker 2: time with him, Like what what? Means that we have

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Speaker 2: this like sexual connotation to us spending time together. Okay,

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Speaker 2: You know, I don't want to make her feel diseased.

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Speaker 2: So now we continue to make LAMB she was awesome.

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Speaker 1: Okay, So I think that that's that's that's that's fair.

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Speaker 1: You you you like this girl, you wanted to spend

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Speaker 1: time with her. You weren't even having sex in the equation,

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Speaker 1: and so you guys continue to make plans and then

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Speaker 1: at what point did things start to become sexual? And

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Speaker 1: at that point did you what what made you overlook

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Speaker 2: I did a little bit of research before, and it

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Speaker 2: said that, like the likelihood of contracting herpes if you're

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Speaker 2: I thought it was fine, And okay, I think I

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Speaker 2: seek out validation and like physical touch and pleasing other

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Speaker 2: I was willing to overlook it.

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Speaker 1: Well, I've I have a couple questions. First, when you

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Speaker 1: say that you seek validation in physical touch and in

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Speaker 2: I really didn't want to spend Halloween that alone. And

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Speaker 2: I've been kind of going through this past couple of

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Speaker 2: so unsatisfied with being alone and I struggle with FINGL.

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Speaker 1: So to you, you were craving physical intimacy to a

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Speaker 1: And by the way, I don't know how herpes works,

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Speaker 2: But yeah, apparently it's fine with protection. You can just

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Speaker 2: it's like a small risk like of the common breaks. Okay,

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Speaker 2: we'll up take that risk for like a lifetime of

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Speaker 1: What were your chances when you looked at up, what

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Speaker 2: Actually like really low, like like a ten five percent

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Speaker 1: Do you have it for? Do you have it for?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, we do.

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Speaker 1: We have to facture that. We have no idea, but

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Speaker 1: do you have it forever if you get it. I

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Speaker 1: guess I don't know that it would also be that

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Speaker 1: Okay, well, all this ship is besides the point. Okay,

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Speaker 1: you're feeling lonely creating validation through physical touch? Did you

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Speaker 1: once you once you got that validation, that physical touch

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Speaker 2: Yeah? I mean I guess temporarily, right.

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Speaker 1: Did it help it in any meaningful long term way?

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Speaker 2: No? No, not at all.

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Speaker 1: What do you think would solve that issue in a

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Speaker 1: long term way?

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Speaker 2: No, I'm gonna start going to therapy tomorrow. Oh yeah,

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Speaker 2: and uh, I really want to find the root of this.

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Speaker 2: I think it's like some childhood you know. What, do

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Speaker 2: you want to hear my elvis impression? I have a

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Speaker 2: really good elvis impression.

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Speaker 1: Is your elvis impression related to what you were about?

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Speaker 1: What you is your impression not in any way, shape

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Speaker 1: or form related to this?

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Speaker 2: No, not at all. But I know I don't want to.

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Speaker 1: I don't want to. I don't want to hear I

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Speaker 1: don't want to hear it right now. And that's if

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Speaker 1: you don't want to talk about this anymore.

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Speaker 2: No, I'm okay with talking about this.

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Speaker 1: Okay, I mean you don't have to. You sound like

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Speaker 1: you don't want to. That's why you brought up doing anl.

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Speaker 2: No no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no no. I just

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Speaker 2: I want to keep talking about it.

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Speaker 1: Why did you bring up are you looking at the

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Speaker 1: chat right now?

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Speaker 2: No? No, not at all.

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Speaker 1: Why did you bring up doing an Elvis impression?

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Speaker 2: A really good Elvis impression?

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Speaker 1: Why did you bring up doing an Elvis impression?

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Speaker 4: You know?

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Speaker 2: I I think there is some roote contribution of my

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Speaker 2: this romantization of he got all the women that he wanted,

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Speaker 2: and I guess I want to be Elvis. Well, baby

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Speaker 2: left me. Well I found a new place to Dwell,

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Speaker 2: we'll let's tell it be a little bit.

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Speaker 1: I hate this, Sacha, please stop, please stop. Okay, So

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Speaker 1: you're gonna you're gonna go to therapy tomorrow?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I'm gonna go to therapy tomorrow.

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Speaker 1: Okay, how many? That's good. It's good that you're you're

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Speaker 1: taking some kind of initiative to to deal with this.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I think so.

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Speaker 3: Uh.

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Speaker 1: What's your name Sancha. Is there any anything? Did you

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Speaker 1: get tested for herpes afterwards?

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Speaker 2: No? No, I haven't.

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Speaker 1: You haven't gotten Sancho. Did you have sex with anyone

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Speaker 1: before getting tested for herpes? Mhm, sa, go get tested

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Speaker 1: for herpes? Man sitting here on the Sancho, Sancho, you're

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Speaker 1: sitting here on the phone trying to do a geo,

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Speaker 1: trying to do an Elvis impression for a gecko right now, right,

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Speaker 1: you should go get tested.

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Speaker 2: It's a really good impression.

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Speaker 1: Okay, I know a Sancho. Is there anything else you

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Speaker 1: want to say to the people of the computer before

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Speaker 2: Yeah? I have a question, GAK. If I started twitch

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Speaker 2: streaming in a fish costume and I labeled myself at

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Speaker 2: the well being fish, would you would you? Would you

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Speaker 2: assume me for stealing your image or maybe that would

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Speaker 2: encourage you to have me on your show?

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Speaker 1: No that I wouldn't. I wouldn't. I don't think I

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Speaker 1: I probably wouldn't do anything in response to that.

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Speaker 2: Really, you don't what would be the first step in

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Speaker 1: Thank you very much for calling, Sancho. I'll talk to you.

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Speaker 1: I'll talk to you soon. It actually wasn't that bad

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Speaker 1: of an Elvis impression. I don't really know. I mean,

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Speaker 1: I've listened to hound Dog and Viva Las Vegas, but

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Speaker 1: I guess in his like I haven't like listened to

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Speaker 1: any interviews with him. I haven't seen that movie, so

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Speaker 1: I don't know exactly what he says. I don't have

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Speaker 1: spontaneously doing elvis impressions just maybe a symptom of herpes.

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Speaker 1: Let's fact check that too, while we're fat we don't.

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Speaker 1: I'm not sure it's true. There's no basis in it,

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Speaker 1: but I'm just saying while we fact check things, let's

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Speaker 1: fact check that as well. Hello, how's it going, Josh.

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Speaker 1: You have been on the line. You've been on hold

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Speaker 1: for three hours?

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Speaker 3: Yeah? Just about What have.

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Speaker 1: You been doing while you've been on hold for three hours?

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Speaker 3: Honestly? Funny enough, while I've been listening to you and

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Speaker 3: playing this game called Vampire Survivors, I just got really

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Speaker 1: Says here that you wanted to call in because you're

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Speaker 1: a vampire rapper and you wanted to talk about that.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, so that's why it was funny. I was playing

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Speaker 1: How does one become a vampire rapper?

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Speaker 3: Well, first I became a vampire and then the rapper

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Speaker 3: thing just kind of followed that.

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Speaker 1: I was I was wondering which one was first, Well,

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Speaker 1: a vampire rap Well, actually, I'm thinking here, it would

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Speaker 1: become a rapper a rapper first, and then become a

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Speaker 1: vampire because you're a rap. You're a vampire rapper, not

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Speaker 1: a rapper vampire. The second thing is like the main thing,

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Speaker 1: right like you are you are a rapper, and vampire

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Speaker 1: is the type of rapper you are, whereas if you

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Speaker 1: were by trade a vampire, but you are a rapping

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Speaker 1: Do you know what I'm saying right now?

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Speaker 3: Yeah? That does make a lot of sense.

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Speaker 1: Well, actually the truth is none of this makes sense,

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Speaker 1: but we're gonna roll with it anyway. What is a

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Speaker 3: I am a rapper. I started making music in like

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Speaker 3: twenty seventeen, and I mostly rapped about vampire shenanigans.

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Speaker 1: How did you get into like, okay, so walk me

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Speaker 1: through this. You are a vampire or you just fuck

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Speaker 1: with vampires?

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Speaker 3: I fuck with vampires heavily. If I could be a vampire,

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Speaker 3: I would be. And as far as it goes, you

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Speaker 3: know what, I'm just gonna say, I am a vampire.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm thinking back. I don't know why I asked

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Speaker 1: you if you're a vampire, because vampires aren't real. But

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Speaker 1: See this is even more interesting to me. You your life,

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Speaker 3: Honestly, just the biggest thing is I feel like I'm

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Speaker 3: Honestly, a lot, a lot has changed. I don't know

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Speaker 1: Well, no, I mean, this is you're a lot more

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Speaker 1: So so tell me these goals that you have you

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Speaker 3: And I've been fucking I closed down like three different

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Speaker 3: Well that's what it turned into. I like got my

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Speaker 3: I always thought that was the irony of my life.

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Speaker 1: So so let's talk about let's talk about this. Let's

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Speaker 3: I'm not doing bad. I I live with my girlfriend

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Speaker 3: So, you know, ideally I'd like to live a life

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00:27:56,040 --> 00:28:01,720
Speaker 3: where I just don't have to work uh retail position anymore,

442
00:28:02,040 --> 00:28:04,960
Speaker 3: or if I did, it wouldn't be like every day

443
00:28:04,960 --> 00:28:06,960
Speaker 3: of the week and be like part time and then

444
00:28:07,640 --> 00:28:10,119
Speaker 3: also focus on like art stuff.

445
00:28:11,119 --> 00:28:15,360
Speaker 1: So Josh, I mean, I'll tell you this, I do believe.

446
00:28:16,640 --> 00:28:19,840
Speaker 1: I mean, you have an extra cog in the machine

447
00:28:19,880 --> 00:28:22,119
Speaker 1: here and the fact that you have a daughter. But

448
00:28:23,200 --> 00:28:29,240
Speaker 1: I do believe that you can find a balance between

449
00:28:29,280 --> 00:28:32,439
Speaker 1: these three pillars of your life. The job that you

450
00:28:32,520 --> 00:28:37,159
Speaker 1: need to work to make money, the child that you

451
00:28:37,240 --> 00:28:41,800
Speaker 1: need to support and spend time with, and the musical

452
00:28:41,840 --> 00:28:45,360
Speaker 1: career that you need to pursue.

453
00:28:48,520 --> 00:28:48,880
Speaker 3: Happy.

454
00:28:50,880 --> 00:28:53,760
Speaker 1: Do you believe if you find harmony between those three

455
00:28:53,800 --> 00:28:55,080
Speaker 1: things that you will be happy?

456
00:28:57,440 --> 00:28:59,760
Speaker 3: Absolutely? I think that's that's.

457
00:28:59,520 --> 00:29:04,600
Speaker 1: My main Now, now, all right, now, let me throw

458
00:29:04,600 --> 00:29:09,160
Speaker 1: you this one. Do you believe that in the mere

459
00:29:09,480 --> 00:29:15,160
Speaker 1: pursuit of harmony between those three things you can be happy?

460
00:29:17,560 --> 00:29:19,480
Speaker 1: Because if you're not happy on the journey, you ain't

461
00:29:19,480 --> 00:29:21,000
Speaker 1: you ain't gonna be happy with the destination.

462
00:29:24,480 --> 00:29:27,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, I can at least I can at least definitely

463
00:29:27,400 --> 00:29:30,800
Speaker 3: have some good days in between. And that's I mean,

464
00:29:30,840 --> 00:29:32,960
Speaker 3: that's what I'm working on, is is waking up happier

465
00:29:33,280 --> 00:29:36,720
Speaker 3: on the pursuit good as well as the destination.

466
00:29:36,840 --> 00:29:40,920
Speaker 1: You know, good, And it's never gonna be perfect. It's

467
00:29:40,960 --> 00:29:44,120
Speaker 1: never gonna be perfect. I'm trying on a bunch of

468
00:29:44,120 --> 00:29:47,720
Speaker 1: shit myself, and you know, it's it's never perfect. You know,

469
00:29:47,800 --> 00:29:50,080
Speaker 1: sometimes you got to ride the roller coaster and you

470
00:29:50,160 --> 00:29:53,560
Speaker 1: might just be wired in some fucking way where, like

471
00:29:54,800 --> 00:29:57,440
Speaker 1: you know, I don't know, Maybe this is a maybe

472
00:29:57,440 --> 00:29:59,560
Speaker 1: this's a dangerous thing to say, but you might be

473
00:29:59,600 --> 00:30:02,000
Speaker 1: wired and some way where your depression is inevitable, but

474
00:30:02,080 --> 00:30:05,520
Speaker 1: also your happiness is inevitable and you just have to

475
00:30:05,880 --> 00:30:09,520
Speaker 1: take the ying and yang of life for whatever way

476
00:30:09,520 --> 00:30:10,800
Speaker 1: it is. You know what I'm saying.

477
00:30:14,160 --> 00:30:17,320
Speaker 3: I do get exactly what you're saying, and that that

478
00:30:17,400 --> 00:30:18,960
Speaker 3: makes a lot of sense. You say you're not a

479
00:30:18,960 --> 00:30:21,400
Speaker 3: real therapist, but some stuff gets through.

480
00:30:25,280 --> 00:30:28,520
Speaker 1: How do I By the way, before we go, do

481
00:30:28,560 --> 00:30:31,000
Speaker 1: you have a connected spirit Halloween that I can start

482
00:30:31,040 --> 00:30:33,800
Speaker 1: doing my Gecko costumes at so I can finally make

483
00:30:33,840 --> 00:30:34,760
Speaker 1: some money off of this shit.

484
00:30:37,040 --> 00:30:39,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'll text my district manager for you.

485
00:30:40,520 --> 00:30:43,080
Speaker 1: Okay, beautiful Josh, is there anything else you want to

486
00:30:43,080 --> 00:30:44,480
Speaker 1: say to the people that computer it before you go?

487
00:30:49,320 --> 00:30:52,560
Speaker 3: I found you on TikTok a couple of months ago.

488
00:30:52,840 --> 00:30:56,200
Speaker 3: I've been watching the YouTube videos listening to the podcast.

489
00:30:56,840 --> 00:31:00,440
Speaker 3: I really like yourself. This is my first time actually

490
00:31:00,560 --> 00:31:04,360
Speaker 3: calling in, so I'm glad I got through. But uh,

491
00:31:04,880 --> 00:31:07,840
Speaker 3: check me out on Spotify or check out my YouTube videos.

492
00:31:07,920 --> 00:31:10,840
Speaker 1: You can all right, not so fast? So fast, not

493
00:31:10,960 --> 00:31:14,840
Speaker 1: so fast, not so fast? You rap for us right now?

494
00:31:15,200 --> 00:31:16,200
Speaker 1: I want to hear a rap?

495
00:31:17,440 --> 00:31:17,840
Speaker 3: All right?

496
00:31:18,720 --> 00:31:19,480
Speaker 2: What's okay?

497
00:31:20,920 --> 00:31:22,160
Speaker 1: Do you free? Hold on? Hold on?

498
00:31:22,200 --> 00:31:22,920
Speaker 2: What do you want to style?

499
00:31:23,000 --> 00:31:24,720
Speaker 1: Or do you do you freestyle? Or do you just

500
00:31:24,720 --> 00:31:25,480
Speaker 1: do songs?

501
00:31:27,240 --> 00:31:30,200
Speaker 3: I used the freestyle. I just write my stuff lately, though.

502
00:31:31,080 --> 00:31:33,040
Speaker 1: Would you freestyle right now? Or is that too much?

503
00:31:36,360 --> 00:31:43,040
Speaker 3: Oh god, uh no, you're gonna have to check me out.

504
00:31:45,280 --> 00:31:45,600
Speaker 2: All right?

505
00:31:45,680 --> 00:31:46,760
Speaker 1: Spin us some bars?

506
00:31:49,960 --> 00:31:54,920
Speaker 3: I just uh yeah, okay, do you want to hear

507
00:31:54,960 --> 00:31:56,600
Speaker 3: my I have a song that has like five hundred

508
00:31:56,640 --> 00:31:58,200
Speaker 3: thousand plays? Do you want to hear that one?

509
00:32:00,080 --> 00:32:03,440
Speaker 1: I'll hear like, let's just hear, let's hear like the

510
00:32:03,440 --> 00:32:04,360
Speaker 1: first verse of it.

511
00:32:06,440 --> 00:32:10,840
Speaker 3: All right, I'm just gonna do something else. My latest,

512
00:32:11,000 --> 00:32:19,960
Speaker 3: my latest vampire bars were something like, you keep squirming,

513
00:32:20,040 --> 00:32:23,680
Speaker 3: it's no wonder when my teeth hurting. I keep slipping,

514
00:32:23,760 --> 00:32:26,719
Speaker 3: so there's nothing left to bleed, bringia, nothing left to see,

515
00:32:26,760 --> 00:32:29,840
Speaker 3: and there's nothing left to me either. I'm peace certain

516
00:32:29,920 --> 00:32:32,160
Speaker 3: that I think it's time to leave with your packing

517
00:32:32,240 --> 00:32:34,360
Speaker 3: up your things, and it's time the best in peace

518
00:32:34,400 --> 00:32:39,000
Speaker 3: with you. But that was the end of the song.

519
00:32:39,640 --> 00:32:42,040
Speaker 1: That was That was pretty spooky.

520
00:32:42,800 --> 00:32:43,720
Speaker 3: You made me too.

521
00:32:43,560 --> 00:32:49,360
Speaker 1: Nervous vampires the number four higher?

522
00:32:51,560 --> 00:32:53,360
Speaker 3: Yes, what, thank you for remembering?

523
00:32:54,360 --> 00:33:03,400
Speaker 1: Thank you for calling Josh, love you get take care brother. Hello? Hello, Hi?

524
00:33:03,600 --> 00:33:07,600
Speaker 1: Who is this car? Carson? It says here that you

525
00:33:07,640 --> 00:33:11,440
Speaker 1: are with Tiffany, your girlfriend.

526
00:33:13,480 --> 00:33:14,880
Speaker 2: That's correct, Yes, sir.

527
00:33:15,560 --> 00:33:16,400
Speaker 1: Tiffany there?

528
00:33:17,000 --> 00:33:17,200
Speaker 4: Hi?

529
00:33:18,240 --> 00:33:20,600
Speaker 1: How are you Tiffany?

530
00:33:21,120 --> 00:33:22,360
Speaker 7: I'm all right? How are you?

531
00:33:23,320 --> 00:33:27,400
Speaker 1: I'm good? Can I can I bring up what it

532
00:33:27,440 --> 00:33:30,480
Speaker 1: says that you guys wanted to talk about? Where do

533
00:33:30,520 --> 00:33:31,360
Speaker 1: you guys want to tell me?

534
00:33:33,800 --> 00:33:35,280
Speaker 7: Yes, sir, you can bring it.

535
00:33:35,280 --> 00:33:40,800
Speaker 1: Up, all right. It says here that you want to

536
00:33:40,880 --> 00:33:47,040
Speaker 1: discuss you guys reconciling after Tiffany cheated on Carson.

537
00:33:50,720 --> 00:33:56,640
Speaker 4: Yes, sir, I got a little drunk, did some stuff

538
00:33:56,680 --> 00:33:59,920
Speaker 4: I shouldn't have done, and cheated on him.

539
00:34:00,040 --> 00:34:01,560
Speaker 7: Yeah, sadly.

540
00:34:03,040 --> 00:34:04,760
Speaker 1: Uh how do you How do you feel about that? Carson?

541
00:34:05,800 --> 00:34:08,319
Speaker 2: I mean, I'm kind of pissed, and uh, you know.

542
00:34:09,960 --> 00:34:10,480
Speaker 3: She wasn't.

543
00:34:10,680 --> 00:34:10,799
Speaker 6: Uh.

544
00:34:11,800 --> 00:34:13,799
Speaker 5: I kind of want to like break up, but we

545
00:34:13,880 --> 00:34:18,760
Speaker 5: have a lease together and you know, responsibilities and bills

546
00:34:18,760 --> 00:34:22,960
Speaker 5: and ship to pay. So uh, I don't know. I

547
00:34:22,960 --> 00:34:25,800
Speaker 5: don't know how to really because I just found out today.

548
00:34:25,920 --> 00:34:27,720
Speaker 5: I'm trying to figure it out myself.

549
00:34:28,800 --> 00:34:30,000
Speaker 1: You just found this out today?

550
00:34:32,400 --> 00:34:34,240
Speaker 8: Yes, yes, today.

551
00:34:34,560 --> 00:34:36,799
Speaker 5: Came up to me and was like, uh, I got

552
00:34:36,840 --> 00:34:38,560
Speaker 5: something to tell you that that happened last night?

553
00:34:40,200 --> 00:34:43,680
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, so.

554
00:34:42,719 --> 00:34:50,800
Speaker 1: So so definitely this happened last night, Yes, sir, it did. Okay.

555
00:34:50,800 --> 00:34:51,840
Speaker 1: How long you guys been together?

556
00:34:51,880 --> 00:34:51,960
Speaker 3: For?

557
00:34:55,480 --> 00:34:56,480
Speaker 5: Three years?

558
00:34:57,280 --> 00:34:57,800
Speaker 1: Mm hmm.

559
00:35:00,520 --> 00:35:00,839
Speaker 3: So long?

560
00:35:01,000 --> 00:35:01,920
Speaker 2: Yeah?

561
00:35:01,960 --> 00:35:04,920
Speaker 1: So, I mean, Tiffany, what what kind of inspired you

562
00:35:04,960 --> 00:35:06,200
Speaker 1: to do what you did?

563
00:35:10,840 --> 00:35:11,680
Speaker 7: I guess I just.

564
00:35:11,719 --> 00:35:15,160
Speaker 4: Get attracted to other people at times when I've been

565
00:35:15,239 --> 00:35:19,360
Speaker 4: drinking and doing some stuff I shouldn't have been doing,

566
00:35:19,520 --> 00:35:27,160
Speaker 4: and sadly a little bit of some powder which's found

567
00:35:27,200 --> 00:35:28,759
Speaker 4: in our lifle bars around here.

568
00:35:31,080 --> 00:35:33,640
Speaker 1: You said power. What is it about power that you said?

569
00:35:34,760 --> 00:35:36,120
Speaker 2: No powder? Powder?

570
00:35:36,320 --> 00:35:41,840
Speaker 1: She's powder? Okay, okay, okay, yes, yes, that's.

571
00:35:44,200 --> 00:35:44,319
Speaker 2: Uh.

572
00:35:45,760 --> 00:35:48,319
Speaker 5: You think I should get to sleep with another girl? Right,

573
00:35:48,680 --> 00:35:49,799
Speaker 5: That's that makes it even?

574
00:35:49,920 --> 00:35:50,080
Speaker 2: Right?

575
00:35:50,200 --> 00:35:52,120
Speaker 5: Then we go about our day.

576
00:35:52,280 --> 00:35:55,279
Speaker 1: Is that is that something that you guys have been discussing?

577
00:35:57,719 --> 00:35:57,959
Speaker 4: No?

578
00:35:57,960 --> 00:35:59,640
Speaker 5: No, no, I just that just came off the top

579
00:35:59,640 --> 00:36:02,400
Speaker 5: of my head yourself, Yeah, that did just come out the.

580
00:36:02,480 --> 00:36:03,279
Speaker 7: Doping his head.

581
00:36:05,520 --> 00:36:07,560
Speaker 1: Okay, I mean, I'm not I don't I don't have

582
00:36:07,600 --> 00:36:15,080
Speaker 1: any What what do you think about that, Tiffany.

583
00:36:13,719 --> 00:36:16,480
Speaker 7: Well, personally, I do not think that to rights or

584
00:36:16,480 --> 00:36:17,680
Speaker 7: too wrong to make it right.

585
00:36:17,760 --> 00:36:21,400
Speaker 1: What's the same you do too wrong s don't make

586
00:36:21,440 --> 00:36:21,719
Speaker 1: it right?

587
00:36:24,719 --> 00:36:28,319
Speaker 7: Yes, I don't really agree with it, but well that

588
00:36:28,320 --> 00:36:30,240
Speaker 7: would make him feel better and stay with.

589
00:36:30,120 --> 00:36:30,600
Speaker 1: Me than.

590
00:36:32,239 --> 00:36:32,279
Speaker 3: H.

591
00:36:35,760 --> 00:36:46,560
Speaker 1: What about money, Tiffany? What about money?

592
00:36:47,760 --> 00:36:48,000
Speaker 3: Yeah?

593
00:36:48,760 --> 00:36:52,360
Speaker 5: I'm not kidding, Tiffany. No, I'm just kidding.

594
00:36:52,560 --> 00:36:57,000
Speaker 1: No, you don't Okay, okay, okay, everyone, everyone, everyone, Everyone

595
00:36:57,080 --> 00:37:02,760
Speaker 1: calmed down. Everyone calmed down, Everyone calm down for a second. Okay, Carson,

596
00:37:02,760 --> 00:37:08,200
Speaker 1: tell me, honestly, tell me honestly, what if if anything?

597
00:37:08,760 --> 00:37:14,680
Speaker 1: The answer could be nothing, What if anything do you

598
00:37:15,200 --> 00:37:21,879
Speaker 1: truly feel Tiffany could do to get back into your

599
00:37:21,960 --> 00:37:23,399
Speaker 1: good graces?

600
00:37:25,360 --> 00:37:31,000
Speaker 5: Uh? I guess give me the mock code to her

601
00:37:31,040 --> 00:37:37,400
Speaker 5: phone and just promise it won't happen again for being honest, Yeah.

602
00:37:36,239 --> 00:37:38,759
Speaker 1: You want the lock code to her phone?

603
00:37:39,400 --> 00:37:40,080
Speaker 3: Maybe not that.

604
00:37:40,239 --> 00:37:42,880
Speaker 5: Okay, we can just look past it and move on. Yeah,

605
00:37:43,000 --> 00:37:44,840
Speaker 5: that's probably the best idea.

606
00:37:45,160 --> 00:37:46,480
Speaker 1: You want to move You want to look past it

607
00:37:46,560 --> 00:37:46,920
Speaker 1: and move on.

608
00:37:48,560 --> 00:37:48,960
Speaker 2: Yeah?

609
00:37:49,040 --> 00:37:55,000
Speaker 5: Yeah, but if it happens again, you know, then she's out.

610
00:37:54,840 --> 00:38:03,440
Speaker 1: Right, Tiffany. Can I ask you a question, sir, Tiffany,

611
00:38:03,560 --> 00:38:05,200
Speaker 1: is this the first time this has happened in the

612
00:38:05,239 --> 00:38:06,200
Speaker 1: three year relationship?

613
00:38:10,520 --> 00:38:14,880
Speaker 4: Yes it is, Okay, I feel terrible about it.

614
00:38:18,440 --> 00:38:23,799
Speaker 1: And you guys share a lease together, Yes we did.

615
00:38:27,960 --> 00:38:29,040
Speaker 1: How long has that been a thing?

616
00:38:32,239 --> 00:38:33,280
Speaker 5: Oh? Not eight months?

617
00:38:33,360 --> 00:38:33,600
Speaker 3: Now?

618
00:38:37,960 --> 00:38:43,200
Speaker 1: Okay, let me ask you something. I'm gonna ask both

619
00:38:43,200 --> 00:38:47,120
Speaker 1: of you guys this question. By the way, you guys

620
00:38:47,120 --> 00:38:50,520
Speaker 1: aren't fucking with me right now, are you?

621
00:38:50,560 --> 00:38:53,880
Speaker 5: No?

622
00:38:54,000 --> 00:38:55,440
Speaker 1: Like you would tell like you? You would tell me

623
00:38:55,440 --> 00:38:56,480
Speaker 1: the truth if you guys.

624
00:38:56,239 --> 00:39:01,080
Speaker 5: Were no, I, well, you are a real counselor. I

625
00:39:01,080 --> 00:39:04,400
Speaker 5: would go to like I'm not, you know, marriage counselor

626
00:39:04,480 --> 00:39:05,800
Speaker 5: or some shit if we had money.

627
00:39:05,840 --> 00:39:08,600
Speaker 1: But yeah, no, wait, so you would go to a

628
00:39:08,640 --> 00:39:11,360
Speaker 1: real marriage counselor if it was if you were fucking

629
00:39:11,400 --> 00:39:11,640
Speaker 1: with me?

630
00:39:13,520 --> 00:39:17,359
Speaker 5: No, wait, I don't understand. No, if I had money, Yeah,

631
00:39:17,360 --> 00:39:19,600
Speaker 5: if I had money, I would be going. I would

632
00:39:19,640 --> 00:39:21,000
Speaker 5: go to like a marriage counselor.

633
00:39:21,760 --> 00:39:24,760
Speaker 1: All right, I'm ask both of you guys the same question. Uh, Carson,

634
00:39:24,960 --> 00:39:31,399
Speaker 1: tell me in these past three years and currently, what

635
00:39:31,480 --> 00:39:35,839
Speaker 1: kinds of thing? What this relationship as a whole, Has

636
00:39:35,840 --> 00:39:40,440
Speaker 1: it been a positive force in your life? And if so,

637
00:39:42,040 --> 00:39:44,120
Speaker 1: in what way has it been a positive force in

638
00:39:44,160 --> 00:39:44,600
Speaker 1: your life.

639
00:39:47,520 --> 00:39:50,360
Speaker 5: You asked, that's the Carson, right, Yeah, I'm probably. I

640
00:39:50,360 --> 00:39:54,840
Speaker 5: mean it's been positive. Yeah, uh, it's been positive in

641
00:39:54,880 --> 00:39:58,319
Speaker 5: my life. I think in our life together, I should say, yeah,

642
00:39:58,400 --> 00:40:01,520
Speaker 5: you know, we've got our own plate. Uh, got a

643
00:40:01,520 --> 00:40:06,360
Speaker 5: little dog, no kids, luckily, but you know that's not

644
00:40:06,440 --> 00:40:09,680
Speaker 5: what she wants, so who knows about that? But yeah, no, no,

645
00:40:09,760 --> 00:40:11,400
Speaker 5: I think overall has been very positive.

646
00:40:11,560 --> 00:40:18,160
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, okay, Tiffany, what how do you feel? Do

647
00:40:18,160 --> 00:40:19,960
Speaker 1: you do you believe that the relationship has been a

648
00:40:20,000 --> 00:40:22,160
Speaker 1: positive force in your life?

649
00:40:25,160 --> 00:40:29,160
Speaker 7: Absolutely? He has made me grow as a person, and

650
00:40:29,520 --> 00:40:33,080
Speaker 7: you need become a better person. I feel very guilty

651
00:40:33,160 --> 00:40:34,520
Speaker 7: from what I did.

652
00:40:35,160 --> 00:40:40,000
Speaker 5: Mhm, why would you be chuckling? And oh that's fucked.

653
00:40:40,040 --> 00:40:42,880
Speaker 5: So she don't here to understand the gravity of it.

654
00:40:43,080 --> 00:40:44,000
Speaker 2: She doesn't.

655
00:40:45,280 --> 00:40:50,520
Speaker 7: Mh, Well what happens whenever you get a little bit

656
00:40:50,520 --> 00:40:55,920
Speaker 7: too drunk. But yeah, I will forever feel guilty and

657
00:40:56,040 --> 00:41:00,920
Speaker 7: just continue to ask for forgiveness from a good dear lord.

658
00:41:03,640 --> 00:41:05,640
Speaker 1: I don't know if the forgiveness is in the hands

659
00:41:05,680 --> 00:41:11,640
Speaker 1: of the Lord here, but.

660
00:41:10,440 --> 00:41:13,960
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, I forgive you though that it's all good.

661
00:41:14,200 --> 00:41:15,000
Speaker 5: I'll forgive you.

662
00:41:16,280 --> 00:41:19,759
Speaker 1: Thank you, Okay. Cool. I guess we settled that.

663
00:41:21,680 --> 00:41:25,040
Speaker 5: Yes, thank you very much. You know, I don't think

664
00:41:25,360 --> 00:41:27,000
Speaker 5: none of my friend's going to help me more than

665
00:41:27,040 --> 00:41:27,520
Speaker 5: you could have.

666
00:41:27,680 --> 00:41:30,840
Speaker 1: So beautiful. So anything you guys want to say to

667
00:41:30,840 --> 00:41:32,120
Speaker 1: the people of the computer before we go.

668
00:41:34,480 --> 00:41:36,800
Speaker 5: On the computer, We love you computer people.

669
00:41:37,360 --> 00:41:42,040
Speaker 7: We love every one of you, and thank you for

670
00:41:42,120 --> 00:41:42,600
Speaker 7: your help.

671
00:41:44,040 --> 00:41:44,480
Speaker 1: Thank you, guys.

672
00:41:44,480 --> 00:41:45,000
Speaker 2: Have a good night.

673
00:41:46,760 --> 00:41:49,520
Speaker 3: I'm getting into divorce, all right.

674
00:41:49,520 --> 00:41:51,840
Speaker 1: That was totally fake, right, that was a fake, stupid

675
00:41:51,840 --> 00:41:55,000
Speaker 1: waste of time. You know, it's fight normally, I don't

676
00:41:55,040 --> 00:41:57,160
Speaker 1: care about the fake calls, but that was that was

677
00:41:57,200 --> 00:42:04,560
Speaker 1: pretty annoying. I don't know, I don't know. I don't

678
00:42:04,560 --> 00:42:07,359
Speaker 1: know that was really I don't I guess. I guess

679
00:42:07,440 --> 00:42:18,040
Speaker 1: hopefully it was fake. Hopefully it was fake. But then again, actually,

680
00:42:18,040 --> 00:42:21,080
Speaker 1: hold on, hold on, hold on. I do have an

681
00:42:21,120 --> 00:42:29,840
Speaker 1: important detail to reveal about that call that might change

682
00:42:29,880 --> 00:42:39,080
Speaker 1: everyone's perspective on it. Both of them are from Florida,

683
00:42:40,760 --> 00:42:41,919
Speaker 1: so maybe it was real.

684
00:42:43,040 --> 00:42:44,839
Speaker 3: Hello is this the get.

685
00:42:46,680 --> 00:42:47,399
Speaker 1: Yeah? Who is this?

686
00:42:47,719 --> 00:42:48,120
Speaker 2: Hello?

687
00:42:50,239 --> 00:42:51,120
Speaker 3: Hi? This is Chase.

688
00:42:52,200 --> 00:42:53,080
Speaker 1: How are you doing, Chase?

689
00:42:55,800 --> 00:42:59,719
Speaker 3: I'm right, how are you Chase?

690
00:42:59,719 --> 00:43:02,960
Speaker 1: It's a hear that you're a triplet and you believe

691
00:43:02,960 --> 00:43:05,560
Speaker 1: that your two brothers do not respect you.

692
00:43:09,320 --> 00:43:09,759
Speaker 3: That's true.

693
00:43:11,680 --> 00:43:13,160
Speaker 1: Why do you feel like they don't respect you?

694
00:43:18,440 --> 00:43:24,600
Speaker 3: I've kind of always felt like that, uh, sort of

695
00:43:24,680 --> 00:43:28,360
Speaker 3: like they were. Yeah, it's hard to I feel like

696
00:43:28,400 --> 00:43:30,319
Speaker 3: it always kind of comes off like I'm like, like,

697
00:43:30,360 --> 00:43:32,719
Speaker 3: there's it's just just you know, it's just how brothers are.

698
00:43:32,760 --> 00:43:36,759
Speaker 3: But I've always felt like they were. They were sort

699
00:43:36,760 --> 00:43:39,680
Speaker 3: of like my brother my my my bullies growing.

700
00:43:39,440 --> 00:43:43,400
Speaker 2: Up and.

701
00:43:45,040 --> 00:43:46,920
Speaker 3: When we got older or not not so much like

702
00:43:47,000 --> 00:43:50,319
Speaker 3: them directly, but more so like their friends. And they

703
00:43:50,400 --> 00:43:57,560
Speaker 3: sort of encouraged it. And anytime I've brought that up, uh,

704
00:43:57,640 --> 00:44:02,000
Speaker 3: they kind of just ignore it and and kind of

705
00:44:02,000 --> 00:44:05,239
Speaker 3: just in general, I just think that they don't respect me,

706
00:44:05,680 --> 00:44:14,919
Speaker 3: you know, they just Yeah.

707
00:44:11,160 --> 00:44:13,480
Speaker 1: Have they always not respected you throughout your life?

708
00:44:16,280 --> 00:44:21,680
Speaker 3: Yeah? Yeah, it's kind of how I feel. Yeah.

709
00:44:21,719 --> 00:44:25,919
Speaker 1: So do they live how? Like often do you really

710
00:44:25,960 --> 00:44:28,760
Speaker 1: even see them?

711
00:44:29,200 --> 00:44:33,879
Speaker 3: So I'm twenty eight, so I haven't. No, I don't.

712
00:44:33,960 --> 00:44:36,960
Speaker 3: They live in different states now. I don't see them

713
00:44:37,000 --> 00:44:43,120
Speaker 3: that often. It's mostly just for holidays. But like, you know, yeah,

714
00:44:43,120 --> 00:44:46,640
Speaker 3: I definitely like I feel like I don't really want

715
00:44:46,920 --> 00:44:49,040
Speaker 3: a relationship with them, and in many ways, I don't

716
00:44:49,080 --> 00:44:52,160
Speaker 3: really like I don't talk to them at all really,

717
00:44:53,680 --> 00:44:56,359
Speaker 3: but I do see them at the holidays. It's kind

718
00:44:56,360 --> 00:44:57,719
Speaker 3: of why I'm calling, is you know, I have to

719
00:44:57,719 --> 00:45:03,080
Speaker 3: see them coming up soon for Thanksgiving. Yeah, I just

720
00:45:03,280 --> 00:45:08,719
Speaker 3: I feel like oftentimes I feel like it should be

721
00:45:08,760 --> 00:45:11,480
Speaker 3: easy to just ignore them and kind of, you know,

722
00:45:11,560 --> 00:45:17,120
Speaker 3: do my own thing. But then if they you know,

723
00:45:17,160 --> 00:45:19,560
Speaker 3: they'll if one of them just kind of tries to

724
00:45:19,600 --> 00:45:22,520
Speaker 3: have even just a casual conversation, like it can it

725
00:45:22,520 --> 00:45:25,040
Speaker 3: can turn into a fight. It's like a really stupid fight.

726
00:45:25,160 --> 00:45:27,040
Speaker 3: And even then, like I just don't really want to

727
00:45:27,040 --> 00:45:29,400
Speaker 3: talk to them in general. But then I kind of

728
00:45:29,400 --> 00:45:33,280
Speaker 3: come off like like the asshole because I'm like brushing

729
00:45:33,320 --> 00:45:37,319
Speaker 3: them off or ignoring them or whatever. And I feel

730
00:45:37,320 --> 00:45:39,640
Speaker 3: like I don't really know the right way to handle it.

731
00:45:41,239 --> 00:45:43,520
Speaker 1: Let me ask you this, do you respect them?

732
00:45:50,640 --> 00:45:51,000
Speaker 2: I don't know.

733
00:45:51,040 --> 00:45:59,200
Speaker 3: That's a good question. I guess probably not, because I

734
00:45:59,320 --> 00:46:02,160
Speaker 3: feel like they bullied me, you know, and like they

735
00:46:02,239 --> 00:46:04,640
Speaker 3: never any like I said, like anytime, like I've brought

736
00:46:04,640 --> 00:46:06,759
Speaker 3: that that up, like they've just kind of brushed that off,

737
00:46:06,800 --> 00:46:12,279
Speaker 3: like they don't they don't even really acknowledge that that like, yeah,

738
00:46:12,440 --> 00:46:14,160
Speaker 3: that like this is the way I feel like they

739
00:46:14,200 --> 00:46:18,279
Speaker 3: just don't really care. So I guess, yeah, I guess

740
00:46:18,280 --> 00:46:20,600
Speaker 3: I certainly. I mean I can't I can't really respect that,

741
00:46:21,120 --> 00:46:21,319
Speaker 3: you know.

742
00:46:21,440 --> 00:46:29,480
Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, So is this an issue for you at

743
00:46:29,520 --> 00:46:32,680
Speaker 1: all outside of just the holidays? Like, is this some

744
00:46:32,760 --> 00:46:36,200
Speaker 1: kind of macro thing that just bothers you or is

745
00:46:36,239 --> 00:46:41,240
Speaker 1: it mainly an issue regarding the holidays?

746
00:46:43,280 --> 00:46:48,800
Speaker 3: I think that it's it's most Uh, I guess I

747
00:46:49,120 --> 00:46:52,399
Speaker 3: have to deal with it most like like mostly yeah,

748
00:46:52,440 --> 00:46:56,359
Speaker 3: like like during the holidays, and yeah, just like any

749
00:46:56,360 --> 00:46:58,840
Speaker 3: other time that I have to like kind of you know,

750
00:46:59,000 --> 00:47:01,960
Speaker 3: be around them, around like family with them.

751
00:47:02,200 --> 00:47:09,160
Speaker 1: So, you know, the relationships are tough because you have

752
00:47:09,239 --> 00:47:12,160
Speaker 1: no control over them. You only have, well you have.

753
00:47:12,200 --> 00:47:13,799
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna say you don't have no control. You

754
00:47:13,840 --> 00:47:16,320
Speaker 1: have the fifty percent of control you have, your half

755
00:47:17,520 --> 00:47:21,839
Speaker 1: you have you There's like, there's no point in us

756
00:47:21,880 --> 00:47:25,919
Speaker 1: talking about what you feel as though your brothers may

757
00:47:26,200 --> 00:47:29,520
Speaker 1: owe you, or how we feel like they should be,

758
00:47:31,160 --> 00:47:33,600
Speaker 1: or how we wish they would be, or any of

759
00:47:33,600 --> 00:47:38,360
Speaker 1: that shit. It's not you know, especially now considering that

760
00:47:38,400 --> 00:47:43,320
Speaker 1: you've told me that you've even expressed to them your issues,

761
00:47:43,360 --> 00:47:46,080
Speaker 1: because that's part of what's in your control, right, is

762
00:47:46,120 --> 00:47:49,400
Speaker 1: to express the issues you have, and you've done that

763
00:47:50,239 --> 00:47:51,560
Speaker 1: and they haven't been receptive.

764
00:47:52,160 --> 00:47:53,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, I've tried.

765
00:47:54,280 --> 00:47:59,880
Speaker 1: So Okay, now I feel like we're looking at all right,

766
00:48:00,040 --> 00:48:03,080
Speaker 1: what are our options? What can we do on our

767
00:48:03,360 --> 00:48:13,640
Speaker 1: end to achieve the objective? Which now maybe well, actually

768
00:48:13,640 --> 00:48:15,200
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't want to assume anything. What

769
00:48:15,320 --> 00:48:19,880
Speaker 1: is the objective? Is the objective to attempt to build

770
00:48:19,880 --> 00:48:22,080
Speaker 1: a better relationship with them? Or is the objective to

771
00:48:23,000 --> 00:48:27,040
Speaker 1: get through the damn holidays without fighting? How would you

772
00:48:27,080 --> 00:48:28,120
Speaker 1: describe the objective?

773
00:48:32,560 --> 00:48:37,600
Speaker 3: I think that I'm not interested in a in yeah,

774
00:48:37,680 --> 00:48:40,640
Speaker 3: building any kind of relationship with them, at least at

775
00:48:40,680 --> 00:48:46,200
Speaker 3: this point. So yeah, probably probably the latter, probably, Yeah,

776
00:48:46,320 --> 00:48:50,680
Speaker 3: just kind of like getting through the holidays without fighting

777
00:48:50,680 --> 00:48:51,680
Speaker 3: with them, all.

778
00:48:51,680 --> 00:48:54,760
Speaker 1: Right, So the objective is to get through the holidays

779
00:48:54,760 --> 00:48:58,400
Speaker 1: without fighting them. You say that sometimes you try to

780
00:48:58,440 --> 00:49:00,560
Speaker 1: talk to them and it ends up in a fight.

781
00:49:01,239 --> 00:49:07,480
Speaker 1: Is that correct? In those situations where you try to

782
00:49:07,480 --> 00:49:09,239
Speaker 1: talk to where you where you talk to them and

783
00:49:09,280 --> 00:49:12,759
Speaker 1: it ends up in a fight. What degree of that

784
00:49:13,000 --> 00:49:18,239
Speaker 1: ending up in a fight can you take responsibility for? Like,

785
00:49:18,400 --> 00:49:22,239
Speaker 1: if they make a comment to you that's unsavory, do

786
00:49:22,280 --> 00:49:24,200
Speaker 1: you fight back with a comment of your own.

787
00:49:27,400 --> 00:49:29,760
Speaker 3: Yeah, I think. I think, if I'm really being fair,

788
00:49:29,880 --> 00:49:31,200
Speaker 3: probably probably fifty.

789
00:49:32,360 --> 00:49:37,319
Speaker 1: Okay. So, like if we took our own ego out

790
00:49:37,360 --> 00:49:40,600
Speaker 1: of it, and we were just like I just want

791
00:49:40,640 --> 00:49:47,799
Speaker 1: to pick the path that leads to the path of

792
00:49:47,880 --> 00:49:51,719
Speaker 1: least resistance, we'll call it what path leads to the

793
00:49:51,760 --> 00:49:55,960
Speaker 1: least amount of conflict. Even if that path involves me

794
00:49:56,880 --> 00:50:02,080
Speaker 1: sitting there and quote taking it when my brother says

795
00:50:02,160 --> 00:50:07,120
Speaker 1: something annoying to me about my life, I will withstand

796
00:50:07,200 --> 00:50:11,040
Speaker 1: that for the sake of the greater good, the sake

797
00:50:11,080 --> 00:50:15,640
Speaker 1: of my greater objective, which is to not engage in conflict,

798
00:50:16,080 --> 00:50:20,520
Speaker 1: and actually to not sit there and take it. To

799
00:50:20,560 --> 00:50:25,680
Speaker 1: throw an insult back, would even if it feels good

800
00:50:25,719 --> 00:50:29,320
Speaker 1: in the moment, be a detriment to my own goals,

801
00:50:30,400 --> 00:50:32,000
Speaker 1: and so it's not the best thing for me to do.

802
00:50:33,000 --> 00:50:37,560
Speaker 1: So think about that next time you are in a

803
00:50:37,560 --> 00:50:44,920
Speaker 1: casual conversation and just be mindful of like, this is

804
00:50:45,239 --> 00:50:50,920
Speaker 1: my personal objective is to get through this without any conflict.

805
00:50:51,000 --> 00:50:56,560
Speaker 1: What is the best way to do that, not what

806
00:50:56,760 --> 00:51:05,239
Speaker 1: is emotionally fueling my choices right now, Because if you're

807
00:51:05,440 --> 00:51:09,040
Speaker 1: based off of what's emotionally fueling your choices right now,

808
00:51:09,520 --> 00:51:13,680
Speaker 1: You're gonna make choices that are going to result in conflict.

809
00:51:15,680 --> 00:51:16,760
Speaker 1: Does that make sense?

810
00:51:19,560 --> 00:51:20,879
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, it does.

811
00:51:22,320 --> 00:51:23,319
Speaker 1: What do you think about that?

812
00:51:27,560 --> 00:51:32,239
Speaker 3: I think you're right. I think that is. I think

813
00:51:32,239 --> 00:51:37,640
Speaker 3: I'm definitely gonna try to to to take that path

814
00:51:37,800 --> 00:51:42,560
Speaker 3: to to think about that throughout the next couple of

815
00:51:42,600 --> 00:51:47,600
Speaker 3: weeks the rest of the year living. You know, in general,

816
00:51:51,080 --> 00:51:55,880
Speaker 3: I think so oftentimes, like you said, I think, uh uh,

817
00:51:56,239 --> 00:51:58,640
Speaker 3: you know, separating taking your ego away from it. I

818
00:51:58,640 --> 00:52:01,560
Speaker 3: think in many ways, I think my ego does kind

819
00:52:01,560 --> 00:52:09,399
Speaker 3: of overtake me, and I think I just can't help

820
00:52:09,440 --> 00:52:11,799
Speaker 3: myself but to kind of say something. And I think

821
00:52:11,840 --> 00:52:14,520
Speaker 3: that like not saying something is going to let them win.

822
00:52:16,239 --> 00:52:22,400
Speaker 1: Well, let me give you a different I have to

823
00:52:22,440 --> 00:52:24,839
Speaker 1: bring up a different perspective on that, this idea of

824
00:52:24,960 --> 00:52:28,719
Speaker 1: letting them win. What if we phrased it like this,

825
00:52:30,760 --> 00:52:35,520
Speaker 1: your you, your is tell me truly tell me honestly

826
00:52:35,840 --> 00:52:42,879
Speaker 1: is your objective honestly to get through this without any conflict. Look,

827
00:52:42,920 --> 00:52:44,480
Speaker 1: if you want to stick it to them and that's

828
00:52:44,480 --> 00:52:46,880
Speaker 1: your objective, you can tell me, like, what really is

829
00:52:46,880 --> 00:52:49,280
Speaker 1: in your heart to want to do over the holidays?

830
00:52:49,320 --> 00:52:52,280
Speaker 1: What do you genuinely desire you? Do you genuinely desire peace?

831
00:52:54,719 --> 00:52:57,880
Speaker 3: I think I think at one point in my life

832
00:52:57,960 --> 00:52:59,759
Speaker 3: I would have told you, yeah, I want to stick

833
00:52:59,800 --> 00:53:03,920
Speaker 3: it to At this point, no, I just I'm done.

834
00:53:04,120 --> 00:53:07,799
Speaker 3: I've you know, I've I've tried sticking it to them.

835
00:53:07,920 --> 00:53:11,799
Speaker 3: I've tried, I've tried everything. I've tried ignoring them, and

836
00:53:12,040 --> 00:53:14,160
Speaker 3: I just I don't know anymore. I don't know what

837
00:53:14,239 --> 00:53:17,399
Speaker 3: to do anymore. I just want to get through it

838
00:53:17,440 --> 00:53:20,440
Speaker 3: without causing any problems.

839
00:53:20,640 --> 00:53:24,600
Speaker 1: All Right, You're twenty eight years old. You've tried as

840
00:53:24,600 --> 00:53:26,919
Speaker 1: hard as you can to make up with them, You've

841
00:53:26,920 --> 00:53:31,920
Speaker 1: stuck it to them. You're tired now. You love your

842
00:53:32,160 --> 00:53:34,440
Speaker 1: mom and your rest of your family. That's why you

843
00:53:34,480 --> 00:53:41,680
Speaker 1: show up for Thanksgiving? Right, Yeah? And so your objective,

844
00:53:42,640 --> 00:53:46,800
Speaker 1: and I'm asking this is a question, your objective is peace? Truly?

845
00:53:49,360 --> 00:53:49,600
Speaker 3: Yeah?

846
00:53:50,680 --> 00:53:55,560
Speaker 1: Okay, so you win if there is peace, that's your

847
00:53:55,600 --> 00:53:56,320
Speaker 1: win condition.

848
00:54:00,600 --> 00:54:03,360
Speaker 3: I guess, I mean, I guess I'm kind of regretting

849
00:54:03,400 --> 00:54:05,960
Speaker 3: that the winning freak, because I don't even really look

850
00:54:05,960 --> 00:54:09,839
Speaker 3: at it as like I'm winning as much as just.

851
00:54:11,680 --> 00:54:14,439
Speaker 2: Well, no, we can, we can.

852
00:54:14,680 --> 00:54:16,360
Speaker 1: We can stay in that. We can. We here's the

853
00:54:16,400 --> 00:54:19,120
Speaker 1: thing we can stay in that idea, you win if

854
00:54:19,120 --> 00:54:19,640
Speaker 1: there's peace.

855
00:54:20,360 --> 00:54:24,120
Speaker 3: M So, because I just I just don't want to

856
00:54:24,400 --> 00:54:26,239
Speaker 3: like I'm not trying to like it's not like I'm

857
00:54:26,320 --> 00:54:28,920
Speaker 3: like I'm like trying to like beat them, you know

858
00:54:28,960 --> 00:54:31,560
Speaker 3: what I mean. Like, it's just like you're not trying.

859
00:54:31,760 --> 00:54:34,239
Speaker 1: You're not trying, You're not trying to be This is

860
00:54:34,280 --> 00:54:37,360
Speaker 1: not a this is not a win. This is not

861
00:54:37,400 --> 00:54:40,120
Speaker 1: a win over any of them. You were not going

862
00:54:40,160 --> 00:54:43,560
Speaker 1: after peace to stick it to them. You were going

863
00:54:43,640 --> 00:54:47,160
Speaker 1: after peace as a win for your own corrector is

864
00:54:47,160 --> 00:54:51,880
Speaker 1: your own victory. And so when you're engaged, and so

865
00:54:52,120 --> 00:54:57,520
Speaker 1: when you're talking to your brother and he says some

866
00:54:57,600 --> 00:55:00,160
Speaker 1: ship that pisces you off, and you want and to

867
00:55:01,640 --> 00:55:05,560
Speaker 1: hurl something back at him because you don't want to

868
00:55:05,640 --> 00:55:11,040
Speaker 1: let him win. What you're actually doing is you don't

869
00:55:11,120 --> 00:55:16,200
Speaker 1: let him win when you take the ultimate step back

870
00:55:16,719 --> 00:55:19,040
Speaker 1: and you go, let me throw my ego out of it,

871
00:55:19,200 --> 00:55:21,440
Speaker 1: let me throw the idea of letting anyone win out

872
00:55:21,440 --> 00:55:26,000
Speaker 1: of it. And I just go, I have my own

873
00:55:26,200 --> 00:55:30,000
Speaker 1: personal objective for nobody else but me of having peace

874
00:55:30,040 --> 00:55:36,439
Speaker 1: this weekend because I love my family and I'm going

875
00:55:36,520 --> 00:55:41,440
Speaker 1: to take the steps and the actions required to achieve

876
00:55:41,480 --> 00:55:45,000
Speaker 1: that objective, because that's what winning looks like for me.

877
00:55:45,960 --> 00:55:49,040
Speaker 1: And so in that moment, you choose to let it

878
00:55:49,120 --> 00:55:57,799
Speaker 1: slide because if this person is this is like some

879
00:55:57,960 --> 00:56:04,480
Speaker 1: I forget, some stoic philosopher said some shit about letting

880
00:56:04,520 --> 00:56:13,680
Speaker 1: people win is actually when you allow them to manipulate

881
00:56:13,680 --> 00:56:19,160
Speaker 1: you emotionally. And so if you allow your brother to

882
00:56:19,280 --> 00:56:22,560
Speaker 1: make you upset to the point where it influences your

883
00:56:22,600 --> 00:56:26,399
Speaker 1: actions and you say something back, that is letting him win.

884
00:56:27,480 --> 00:56:32,279
Speaker 1: When you hold true to your ultimate objective, which is

885
00:56:32,320 --> 00:56:36,200
Speaker 1: to keep the peace. That is when you win. And

886
00:56:36,200 --> 00:56:38,800
Speaker 1: that's not a game you're playing with anyone else but yourself.

887
00:56:41,719 --> 00:56:42,480
Speaker 1: Does that make sense?

888
00:56:45,040 --> 00:56:49,200
Speaker 3: Yeah? Yeah, that does. I like that, Thank you.

889
00:56:55,640 --> 00:56:57,839
Speaker 1: Are they bigger than you? Can? They can they over

890
00:56:58,080 --> 00:56:59,360
Speaker 1: overpower you physically?

891
00:57:01,160 --> 00:57:04,719
Speaker 3: No? I mean like like one, It's like that's not

892
00:57:04,760 --> 00:57:07,560
Speaker 3: really like it's not it's never really been like that,

893
00:57:08,160 --> 00:57:12,600
Speaker 3: you know it has It's never really been like a

894
00:57:12,640 --> 00:57:15,239
Speaker 3: physical like they they beat me up?

895
00:57:16,440 --> 00:57:18,720
Speaker 1: Do you do you have you seen their penises?

896
00:57:23,320 --> 00:57:23,640
Speaker 4: Uh?

897
00:57:23,840 --> 00:57:26,080
Speaker 1: No, what do you mean?

898
00:57:26,160 --> 00:57:26,200
Speaker 3: No?

899
00:57:26,280 --> 00:57:26,960
Speaker 1: They're brothers?

900
00:57:27,040 --> 00:57:29,400
Speaker 3: You I mean, I guess probably when I was very young,

901
00:57:29,760 --> 00:57:32,360
Speaker 3: Like I'm a triplet yeah, so like we re took.

902
00:57:34,120 --> 00:57:37,840
Speaker 1: Yes, you've seen you've seen that, You've seen their penises.

903
00:57:40,280 --> 00:57:41,360
Speaker 3: Okay, yeah, do.

904
00:57:41,320 --> 00:57:43,080
Speaker 1: You have a do you have a bigger penis than

905
00:57:43,120 --> 00:57:43,440
Speaker 1: they do?

906
00:57:47,000 --> 00:57:47,320
Speaker 2: Sure?

907
00:57:47,520 --> 00:57:50,800
Speaker 1: Yeah? Okay, all right, So if all the stoic philosophy

908
00:57:50,800 --> 00:57:54,439
Speaker 1: crap doesn't work for you, then you know there's that too.

909
00:57:57,440 --> 00:58:00,760
Speaker 3: That's true. It's a good point. Thanks Kick, Thanks for

910
00:58:00,760 --> 00:58:02,200
Speaker 3: calling Chase, Thank you Gick.

911
00:58:02,640 --> 00:58:05,040
Speaker 1: Hey, folks, it's the end of the episode and I

912
00:58:05,080 --> 00:58:07,600
Speaker 1: wanted to talk to you about something real quick. It's

913
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Speaker 1: not an ad. Well, I guess it's kind of an ad,

914
00:58:10,760 --> 00:58:13,760
Speaker 1: but just hear me out. Sometimes I put excerpts at

915
00:58:13,800 --> 00:58:16,200
Speaker 1: the end of the podcast from my street interviews that

916
00:58:16,240 --> 00:58:19,520
Speaker 1: I've done on my YouTube channel, And today I just

917
00:58:19,600 --> 00:58:21,880
Speaker 1: uploaded a video on my channel that is probably my

918
00:58:22,080 --> 00:58:26,920
Speaker 1: favorite thing I've ever made. It's a really fun, really weird,

919
00:58:27,280 --> 00:58:30,760
Speaker 1: really wild vlog that I filmed back in June from

920
00:58:30,840 --> 00:58:35,840
Speaker 1: a trip I took to Guatemala completely alone. I went

921
00:58:35,880 --> 00:58:39,480
Speaker 1: there to wander around the streets by myself in full

922
00:58:39,840 --> 00:58:44,280
Speaker 1: gecko attire, just to see what would happen, see who

923
00:58:44,400 --> 00:58:46,840
Speaker 1: I could talk to, and I got into a lot

924
00:58:46,880 --> 00:58:51,680
Speaker 1: of weird situations. I interviewed the workers of a Guatemalan McDonald's.

925
00:58:52,160 --> 00:58:55,160
Speaker 1: A guy invited me into his house to eat bread

926
00:58:55,280 --> 00:58:58,680
Speaker 1: made out of shit. I talked to an expat that

927
00:58:58,920 --> 00:59:02,720
Speaker 1: was running from the FBI, and all of this was

928
00:59:03,240 --> 00:59:07,160
Speaker 1: very spontaneous and not planned and just happened as a

929
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Speaker 1: result of me putting myself out there and walking around

930
00:59:12,560 --> 00:59:15,320
Speaker 1: as a gecko just to see what would happen. So

931
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Speaker 1: I'm gonna play a clip from it real quick, and

932
00:59:18,080 --> 00:59:20,640
Speaker 1: if this video sounds interesting to you, you can watch

933
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Speaker 1: the full thing on my YouTube channel YouTube dot com

934
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Speaker 1: slash Lyle forever. The title of the video is going

935
00:59:28,480 --> 00:59:32,320
Speaker 1: to a foreign country alone as a gecko. All right,

936
00:59:32,360 --> 00:59:35,280
Speaker 1: here's a clip. So is running from the FBI easier

937
00:59:35,280 --> 00:59:36,240
Speaker 1: than you expected it to be?

938
00:59:36,800 --> 00:59:37,040
Speaker 3: Oh?

939
00:59:37,160 --> 00:59:40,080
Speaker 8: Yeah, now they have no jurisdiction And I changed my name,

940
00:59:40,120 --> 00:59:41,240
Speaker 8: I changed like my identity.

941
00:59:41,440 --> 00:59:43,760
Speaker 1: So you are caught with five kilograms of cocaine?

942
00:59:43,760 --> 00:59:45,440
Speaker 8: No, no, no, they com me with way more. But I

943
00:59:45,440 --> 00:59:49,240
Speaker 8: could only grab five kilograms. Okay before I got out

944
00:59:49,240 --> 00:59:49,720
Speaker 8: of the States.

945
00:59:49,760 --> 00:59:52,680
Speaker 1: What was your life like before you came hand?

946
00:59:53,560 --> 00:59:57,600
Speaker 8: Terrible kilograms of go came Yeah, you know, so you

947
00:59:57,680 --> 01:00:00,760
Speaker 8: went wrong somewhere when you're doing that you know, smart,

948
01:00:01,440 --> 01:00:04,440
Speaker 8: you got a thing right off pokers as at that moment,

949
01:00:04,600 --> 01:00:06,880
Speaker 8: had a spiritual experience and I went all the way

950
01:00:06,880 --> 01:00:08,800
Speaker 8: back to when I was a child, and I you know,

951
01:00:08,960 --> 01:00:10,320
Speaker 8: got back in my body and I was staring at

952
01:00:10,320 --> 01:00:12,360
Speaker 8: a butthole. And we found out later there was a

953
01:00:12,360 --> 01:00:13,840
Speaker 8: little LSD in the cocaine.

954
01:00:14,480 --> 01:00:16,040
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

955
01:00:16,080 --> 01:00:17,600
Speaker 1: What is your relationship with drugs?

956
01:00:17,680 --> 01:00:21,280
Speaker 8: Like now a weed, ayahuasca, ceremonialy d MT.

957
01:00:22,320 --> 01:00:25,640
Speaker 1: Casually, I'm probably gonna blur your face with all this stuff.

958
01:00:25,400 --> 01:00:27,880
Speaker 8: With the FBI stuff. Yeah, oh man, I wanted them

959
01:00:27,880 --> 01:00:28,360
Speaker 8: to see it.

960
01:00:28,560 --> 01:00:32,680
Speaker 1: Yeah, that whole interview was pretty interesting. So again, if

961
01:00:32,680 --> 01:00:35,040
Speaker 1: you want to watch the full vlog of my weird

962
01:00:35,320 --> 01:00:39,320
Speaker 1: solo adventure through Guatemala, you can go to YouTube dot

963
01:00:39,360 --> 01:00:43,360
Speaker 1: com slash lyle forever l y l e f O

964
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Speaker 1: R e v e R. The title of the video

965
01:00:46,120 --> 01:00:49,720
Speaker 1: is going to a foreign country alone as a get go.

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Speaker 1: All right, thanks for listening, guys, goes on the line

967
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Speaker 1: taking your phone calls. Nine goes to just teaching you.

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Speaker 8: You're like, but he's not really an expert.