WEBVTT - "High School" w/ Jeremy O. Harris

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<v Speaker 1>Podcast starts now. Podcast starts now. Welcome to Stradio Lab

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<v Speaker 1>of the podcast where two gay guys unpack the multifaceted

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<v Speaker 1>and multicolor tapestry of straight culture while also yeah commenting

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<v Speaker 1>in the medic capacity on the art form of podcasting

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<v Speaker 1>and the idea of being a comedian turn podcaster who

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<v Speaker 1>is or is not gay. Wow, you know that was

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<v Speaker 1>such a full um explanation, and I'm so glad I

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<v Speaker 1>got to hear it through you. You know, I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like not to take credit. I carry this podcast intro

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<v Speaker 1>on my back, and that's why I wanted to immediately

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<v Speaker 1>go in. I I thought, I said, this is my

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<v Speaker 1>this episode is my episode that this episode is my

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<v Speaker 1>fight song, and I'm going to keep all this is

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<v Speaker 1>very this is the part. This is like in Me

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<v Speaker 1>Against the Music where Madonna goes and me, Yeah, this

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<v Speaker 1>episode to me is where I is, where I finally shine.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, forty eight episodes, it's been me going, it's

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<v Speaker 1>just me, and then the forty nine episode you go

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<v Speaker 1>and me yes, And I think that is so so powerful.

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<v Speaker 1>It's powerful. It's also really kind of um, I would say,

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<v Speaker 1>very problematic and put in a post free Brittany world

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<v Speaker 1>that now I think it's my time. It's the time

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<v Speaker 1>for Madonna to shine. I'm like, you know how, there's like, um,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, we're kind of like reconsidering the reputations of

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<v Speaker 1>various women that were treated poorly by the media. I

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<v Speaker 1>want to think of one that like was actually evil

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<v Speaker 1>and be like, um, time to time to apologize to her.

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<v Speaker 1>Like I'm trying to think who that would be, who

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<v Speaker 1>was actually evil? I mean, I kind of like Madeline

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<v Speaker 1>all like, I want to you know what I'm gonna do,

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<v Speaker 1>Like Margaret Matcher, I'm gonna be like, you know what,

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<v Speaker 1>if we're apologizing to Brittany, apologize to Margaret Thatcher, do

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<v Speaker 1>you think m I A deserves an apology? Um? I

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<v Speaker 1>have always lived for m I A, so she certainly

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<v Speaker 1>does not deserve one from me. I have also always

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<v Speaker 1>lived for m I A. But she also was remember

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<v Speaker 1>that like her toxic era and not everyone here. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>sure I guess we'll have a lot to say that this,

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<v Speaker 1>But I truly think sometimes people who are eccentrics are

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<v Speaker 1>there needs to be a certain capacity, there's a certain

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<v Speaker 1>capacity for for um forgiveness, even if they do things

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<v Speaker 1>that are technically unforgivable. Should I actually, you know what,

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<v Speaker 1>I take all that back. Our guests has left the room,

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<v Speaker 1>by the way, Yeah he must really really has. He's

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<v Speaker 1>left the room. He left when he's empty. We're completely

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<v Speaker 1>with a guest right back. Um, okay, wait, so sorry,

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<v Speaker 1>I take what I said back. I don't think people

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<v Speaker 1>should be forgiven for anything, and I think Margaret Thatcher

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<v Speaker 1>is a slate queen. Um, here's what I want to

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<v Speaker 1>talk about while we're talking about slay Queen George, you

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<v Speaker 1>mentioned to me before this episode started it you've been

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<v Speaker 1>rewatching Sex and the City and you've been liking it. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>I've rewatched sexan City many times. I think Sex and

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<v Speaker 1>City is one of those shows that in the past

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<v Speaker 1>I always rewatched thinking it's going to be comforting, and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so blown away with how stupid it is that

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<v Speaker 1>it makes me so viscerally angry that I actually, I

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<v Speaker 1>really that I really struggle with it. And this time

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<v Speaker 1>this was one of the first times I watched it,

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<v Speaker 1>and it had the effect that I wanted to have

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<v Speaker 1>until then. I got to the episode where Samantha literally

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<v Speaker 1>like commits a hate crime and it's played for laughs. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>well that you know, that's a that's a bad app

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<v Speaker 1>What I'm mostly enjoying this time around is carries is

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<v Speaker 1>is realizing how complex of a character Carry is. How

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<v Speaker 1>so because she is the and I know this is

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<v Speaker 1>such a cliche thing to be like, oh, she's the

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<v Speaker 1>original anti hero or like oh, people like to when

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<v Speaker 1>Tony Soprano was an anti hero, but not when a

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<v Speaker 1>woman was. And you do realize she is actually like

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<v Speaker 1>such an unlikable, terrible person with all the wrong priorities,

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<v Speaker 1>who keeps hurting those around her because of her selfishness. Yeah, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>she's bad. No I I just watched the episode where

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<v Speaker 1>she brings Big two Aiden's country home while she's there

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<v Speaker 1>with Aiden and they had previously broken up because she

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<v Speaker 1>cheated on him with Big Yeah, she's a manipulator, she's psychotic,

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<v Speaker 1>she's got a shopping addiction. She's well weird that you

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<v Speaker 1>would include that she loves shoes, George, it's so much

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<v Speaker 1>so that she sometimes cannot pay rent. If that's not

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<v Speaker 1>an addiction, I don't know what it is. Well, you

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<v Speaker 1>know she's labels in love. Do you think that one

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<v Speaker 1>was something where like they tried to do the rule

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<v Speaker 1>of threes and they just couldn't think of a third

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<v Speaker 1>thing that started with an owl, like labels love and

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<v Speaker 1>libel labels love in the botomy. Well, oh that's a

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<v Speaker 1>nice It's actually not that bad. Yeah that works. Okay, Wait,

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<v Speaker 1>George Sexonsity reboot is happening. You would get to play

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<v Speaker 1>a character on it? What is your role? Okay? First

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<v Speaker 1>of all, what if I played Samantha and it was

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<v Speaker 1>just me in a wig? I would say, That's the

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<v Speaker 1>first thing I can think of. The second thing is

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<v Speaker 1>what if I played either Mario Cantone or uh the

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<v Speaker 1>other gay guys like like, oh are they they got together?

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<v Speaker 1>What if I played their younger? Third? I would love that.

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<v Speaker 1>That's genius. So that's my second option. And then I

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<v Speaker 1>also would love to play literally Jennifer Hudson's role in

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<v Speaker 1>the first movie Louise from St. Louis. Yeah, I think

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<v Speaker 1>you would crush that role. Thank you. What do you

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<v Speaker 1>want to would you play? I see myself as like

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<v Speaker 1>Charlotte's nanny, like sort of like, um, yeah, like I'm

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<v Speaker 1>maybe I'm a struggling actor and but and yeah, but

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<v Speaker 1>I'm her nanny during the day. Here's the question, how

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<v Speaker 1>old is Brady. Oh my god, he's okay. So what

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<v Speaker 1>if Brady is gay and I play Brady's boyfriend? That

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<v Speaker 1>actually would be my ideal role. I think that's iconic.

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<v Speaker 1>And Brady, because he's like a redhead, would be played

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<v Speaker 1>by Rupert Grint, Rupert Grant or kJ Appa and then

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<v Speaker 1>and then I would play the boyfriend with a dark secret,

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<v Speaker 1>which I'm fucking Samantha. I love that off screen always. Yeah, God,

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<v Speaker 1>I have to say it really is. It's grim that

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<v Speaker 1>that show is coming back anyway. Should we welcome um

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<v Speaker 1>our guest? Yeah, let's welcome our guest. Um. Well, you

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<v Speaker 1>know him from his role upcoming role as Samantha in

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<v Speaker 1>the Sex City reboot. Please put your paws up for

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<v Speaker 1>Jeremy o' harris. Actually, it's actually funny. I'm about to

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<v Speaker 1>be on a podcast about Sex in the City. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't listen to podcast so I've never listened to yours.

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<v Speaker 1>Feel like I had to say that, UM to be

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<v Speaker 1>completely transparent, um about because I don't know what I'm

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<v Speaker 1>about to get myself into, but I um, I am

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<v Speaker 1>about to be on a podcast it's about what Like,

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<v Speaker 1>it's like rewriting Sex in the City as you would

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<v Speaker 1>write it or whatever. It's like that's the sort of premise.

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<v Speaker 1>My friend Laura came up with it, and um, I

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<v Speaker 1>my pitch is that my my character and Sex in

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<v Speaker 1>the City is Carrie Um because I think that what

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<v Speaker 1>would happened in the reboot of Sex in the City

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<v Speaker 1>is that someone else at like Vogue or the New

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<v Speaker 1>York Day What what what was her bad? Who did

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<v Speaker 1>she write for the New York Daily News or something?

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<v Speaker 1>But my idea is that like New York wits over

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<v Speaker 1>start like then'dn't didn't didn't don't like has like maybe

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<v Speaker 1>like some eight oh weights, and it's like a little

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<v Speaker 1>bit like you know, Secession e. And then like my

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<v Speaker 1>voice comes on and I started talking about my day

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<v Speaker 1>and how like me and my group of gay friends

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<v Speaker 1>like have like run into these like old hags um

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<v Speaker 1>that like that were like the original Sex and City girls.

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<v Speaker 1>And it becomes this whole thing of like Carrie trying

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<v Speaker 1>to reclaim her story from these young gay men who

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<v Speaker 1>like have taken it um, the main game one being

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<v Speaker 1>who originally wrote it. I mean, okay, wait, I have

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<v Speaker 1>to say this is interesting because something I've realized during

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<v Speaker 1>this rewatch is just how much Sex and the City

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<v Speaker 1>is like gay men's view of heterosexuality, where they're like,

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<v Speaker 1>it's literally like it's like gay men looking at straight

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<v Speaker 1>people and being like, what's all this? Then like and

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<v Speaker 1>then trying to like work it out on the page. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>well yeah, I mean early show of mine was that

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<v Speaker 1>Live on broad Gay where it was just gay male

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<v Speaker 1>comedians performing an episode of Sex in the City as

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<v Speaker 1>if it's a piece of traumatic theater, because it was

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<v Speaker 1>like this this show just you just it should be

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<v Speaker 1>gay men's voices saying these words. It's also just like

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<v Speaker 1>the way the cruelty gay men and women being so

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<v Speaker 1>cruel to one another, both behind the scenes and in

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<v Speaker 1>front of the camera. I also find it really curious

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<v Speaker 1>and interesting in my own life to witness the ways

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<v Speaker 1>in which I like. Conversely, i'm most I'm most often

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<v Speaker 1>championed a lot by I've been champion in educational environments

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<v Speaker 1>by a lot of white women. Um. Like, some of

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<v Speaker 1>my favorite professors have been white women. UM. My biggest

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<v Speaker 1>champions in the arena have been white women. Most people

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<v Speaker 1>who work in the theater industry as literary managers or

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<v Speaker 1>white women. Um. But in my professional world, it's been

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<v Speaker 1>white straight men who have been the biggest champion in

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<v Speaker 1>like film and television, right because they they run everything.

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<v Speaker 1>And how that has then set out this weird professional

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<v Speaker 1>dynamic where oftentimes I feel as though I'm on the

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<v Speaker 1>other end in sort of our like fight for identitarian

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<v Speaker 1>like supremacy, um or like minoritarian supremacy. I'm like, my

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<v Speaker 1>black gay maleness is constantly in confrontation with like white womanhood. UM,

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<v Speaker 1>and I feel like I I get hit with the

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<v Speaker 1>most like sort of microaggressions from quote unquote Karen's in

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<v Speaker 1>professional writing environments. UM. So I think that could be

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<v Speaker 1>a really interesting thing to play with in Sex in

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<v Speaker 1>the City, because I feel like there is a thing

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<v Speaker 1>where like Samantha Charlotte and um Samantha Charlotte, Carry and

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<v Speaker 1>Miranda are probably all confronted with some like, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>gay man, possibly a gay man of color in their

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<v Speaker 1>work environment who's gotten some promotion that they felt like

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<v Speaker 1>they should have gotten, um, partially because George Floyd just happened.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. They're like wait a second, like we just

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<v Speaker 1>got we just meto it everyone, and now there's a

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<v Speaker 1>like race me too, Like no, like that's not Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>oh god, someone's gonna take this in camp. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>but I mean it's true. I think there's a real

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<v Speaker 1>no no, no, I mean Sex and the City didn't

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<v Speaker 1>tackle nine eleven. I would love to watch them attempts

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<v Speaker 1>to tackle the post George Floyd. That would be just

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<v Speaker 1>such a stumble for them that that would be heaven

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<v Speaker 1>late to see. And they hired like first of all,

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<v Speaker 1>it's like a pretty much all women writer's room except

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<v Speaker 1>for um, god, what's his name the creator Darren Michael

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<v Speaker 1>Patrick King, Michael Patrick King? Great, but I think it's

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<v Speaker 1>now Michael Patrick King is in the at least in

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<v Speaker 1>the photo that I saw. Um. Anyway, so it is

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<v Speaker 1>actually women writing, which is interesting, women writing women's stories.

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<v Speaker 1>I'll believe it when I say it, um, but but

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<v Speaker 1>I do think it's actually as far as I know,

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<v Speaker 1>because I'm aware of two of them, Like, it is

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<v Speaker 1>women that actually, like are very well versed in politics,

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<v Speaker 1>and in my instinct is that they will try to

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<v Speaker 1>tackle those things. I mean, go off if you can

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<v Speaker 1>do it. I mean, oh sorry, no, go ahead. I

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<v Speaker 1>just I am really interested in more writer's rooms for

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<v Speaker 1>gay series being full of women. Like. So it's Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>so this is something I've been and I actually want

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<v Speaker 1>to talk to you Jeremy about Nomad Land, because you

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<v Speaker 1>made a face when I talked about it. I generally

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<v Speaker 1>am interested in. Okay, you know how there's this dynamic

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<v Speaker 1>that is that has been retroactively kind of and and

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<v Speaker 1>correctly deemed problematic where it's like people that have more

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<v Speaker 1>power in society kind of casting a gaze on people

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<v Speaker 1>with less power. So you have like you know, the

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<v Speaker 1>classic white anthropologists studying tribes and like a male filmmaker

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<v Speaker 1>writing offensive characters to women whatever. And I think now

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<v Speaker 1>with the trend is to essentially write what you know

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<v Speaker 1>to be like oay, we're gonna hire gay people for

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<v Speaker 1>gay stories, women for female stories. I'm really interested in

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<v Speaker 1>basically like reversing that power dynamic. For with Nomad Lad,

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<v Speaker 1>I thought it was interesting that Chloe Jao, who is Chinese,

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<v Speaker 1>cast of a non American gaze on like Americana, and

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<v Speaker 1>I thought that was like an interesting place to start.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean where whether or not I like the end

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<v Speaker 1>product is like a different story, but like I think

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<v Speaker 1>having you know, a reverse sex in the city where

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<v Speaker 1>a group of women right about like offense right a

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<v Speaker 1>series of characters that are literally like all Mario Kanton

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<v Speaker 1>could really be something thing. I thought it was really

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<v Speaker 1>interesting to see how many gay men in this sort

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<v Speaker 1>of like really emotionally stilted way had anger about Hanya

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<v Speaker 1>writing A Little Life and it becoming so popular, becoming

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<v Speaker 1>this thing, and it was so violent to gave men

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<v Speaker 1>like who is this woman? And I'm like, I'm sorry,

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<v Speaker 1>have you missed all of Western cultures major portrayals of

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<v Speaker 1>female characters because faggots wrote all of them? And guess what,

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<v Speaker 1>Blanche Wad does not have a very good time inside

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<v Speaker 1>of like, you know, the queer psycho drama of Tennessee Williams.

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<v Speaker 1>And that's also okay because a lot of actresses I

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<v Speaker 1>know love being inside of that psychodrama. Right And in

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<v Speaker 1>the same way that I mean, the Highest Thing is

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<v Speaker 1>such a great example of it. I think at this

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<v Speaker 1>point it has become completely seen as true that A

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<v Speaker 1>Little Life is bad among like a certain set of

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<v Speaker 1>uh you know, educated and and and so really conscious. Amen,

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<v Speaker 1>and I to this thing. Defy gay men. I think

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<v Speaker 1>they're an angry game. Yes, they're mad that they did

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<v Speaker 1>not have the juice to write that story and I'm sorry,

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<v Speaker 1>but that book is like truly, I mean she talked

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<v Speaker 1>about someone who was like, I'm gonna snap. She like

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<v Speaker 1>she started writing a book and she was like, Oh,

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<v Speaker 1>you faggots are not ready for what's about that? Wow?

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<v Speaker 1>I mean that's a powerful forward. I am the thing

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<v Speaker 1>that this was so uninterested in. My thing is that

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<v Speaker 1>I want every every minoritarian to have the mic right now,

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<v Speaker 1>I also don't know that I want every minoritarian or

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<v Speaker 1>every person who's from a minority group to feel like

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<v Speaker 1>they have to like come out and only tell stories

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<v Speaker 1>about the minority group, because oftentimes one of the powers

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<v Speaker 1>of being in a minority group is being forced into

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<v Speaker 1>a space of witnessing more often than um than engaging,

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<v Speaker 1>right um. You're forced into a supporting role often in

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<v Speaker 1>your real life, Like how many times does the gay

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<v Speaker 1>man have you went to your straight friend and been like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>this is going on in my life, And before you

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<v Speaker 1>can even finish telling telling something about your small relationships thing,

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<v Speaker 1>they've taken the mic and given you a two hour

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<v Speaker 1>soliloquy about all of the intricacies of heterosexuality and their

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<v Speaker 1>own psycho drama. And I feel like now, because I

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<v Speaker 1>haven't been able to process my own ship as well.

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<v Speaker 1>Maybe it's more fun for me to process straight people ship,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what I mean. Think about like a movie

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<v Speaker 1>like American Psycho. Would I prefer to watch American Psycho

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<v Speaker 1>or because it can tell you something a lot about

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<v Speaker 1>like what it means to be a woman inside of

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<v Speaker 1>a business. And think of how few women get to

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<v Speaker 1>speak in that movie and what she's saying in that,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, and which brings it back to my main point.

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<v Speaker 1>Women should generally not speak in films. It's true. That's

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<v Speaker 1>why I was rooting for Chloe. But I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>But you didn't like the movie. I don't know I

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<v Speaker 1>had so I um, well, i'll tell you this. It

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<v Speaker 1>used a lot. So it's about a woman, Francis McDormand,

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<v Speaker 1>who um leaves her life behind and kind of decides

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<v Speaker 1>to become a modern day No, she's about Francis mcdormant,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm happy and thank God and starting and about articulated.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, after George said that he doesn't like movies

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<v Speaker 1>about women, it was game over for Francis mcdormant. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know. I just so she used a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of real life nomads in supporting roles, and I found

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<v Speaker 1>myself actually caring more about them than about the main

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<v Speaker 1>character I was supposed to care about, which is Francis McDormand.

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<v Speaker 1>I saw the movie at Venice Film Festival, and again

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<v Speaker 1>I have to I have to say that, um, my

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<v Speaker 1>opinions are often uh. I'm someone who like does not

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<v Speaker 1>have static opinions, which is why I often am online

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<v Speaker 1>yelling at critics who've seen movies once and then like

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<v Speaker 1>say the most heinous things about them, because I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like that's like an inside thing. Um. I don't think like, um,

0:18:10.520 --> 0:18:14.399
<v Speaker 1>heinous takes need to be an outside thing necessarily, because

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<v Speaker 1>something we know about subjective media is that meeting it

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<v Speaker 1>at different moments at different times changes how we engage

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<v Speaker 1>with it. Um. But I will say that because I

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<v Speaker 1>was at Venice and had seen three movies that were

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<v Speaker 1>like hyper narrative driven before I saw No matt Land,

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<v Speaker 1>and yet was told by everyone, Oh, just wait, No

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<v Speaker 1>matt Land is the greatest movie I've ever seen. I

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<v Speaker 1>was expecting something that would excite my narrative hunger more

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<v Speaker 1>uh deeper than this film did. And I think because

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<v Speaker 1>I had read the long read of this that like

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<v Speaker 1>inspired this movie. I felt less enthralled by the narrative

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<v Speaker 1>thrust of it. And because I also am from a

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<v Speaker 1>wildly working class and like one could say, poor family background,

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<v Speaker 1>I am very protective of stories about poor people. And

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<v Speaker 1>I felt as though I also wanted to see more um,

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<v Speaker 1>more complexities or and know more about the lives of

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<v Speaker 1>some of these real nomads. And I wanted to see

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<v Speaker 1>um inside of the arc of the lead character. Right.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like it's like um, it wallowed in certain

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<v Speaker 1>parts of their life, UM, certain details of their lives

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<v Speaker 1>that I found um like pornographic um in ways that

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<v Speaker 1>other aspects might not have. And again that's no shame

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<v Speaker 1>on any anyone who made this movie or any stories

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<v Speaker 1>they won't tell, or even if you liked it, I

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<v Speaker 1>just think that it didn't work for me at the

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<v Speaker 1>moment I met it. Yeah, no, it's and I have

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<v Speaker 1>to say, I like, for all my complaints about it

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<v Speaker 1>or more about like a politics maybe as a movie,

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<v Speaker 1>I thought it was very well made. I think it's

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<v Speaker 1>very exciting that she's getting attention, and I think I

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<v Speaker 1>mean it's honestly kind of sad that she is now

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<v Speaker 1>going to do a Marvel movie. But you know, God

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<v Speaker 1>bless but um, yeah, I don't. There was literally like

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<v Speaker 1>at one point she works at an Amazon fulfillment center

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<v Speaker 1>and one and she literally is like, well, it's good money.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like no, like actually literally, because I've read the

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<v Speaker 1>what what you're talking about? Too? Literally part of that

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<v Speaker 1>part of the the real story of these people that

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<v Speaker 1>it's not good money. And that was an interesting thing

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<v Speaker 1>in the film that was very frustrating for me because again,

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<v Speaker 1>knowing how films are made, it was like, oh, wow,

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<v Speaker 1>Amazon lets you shoot in their little buildings and with

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<v Speaker 1>Zach so you can't What were you allowed to be

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<v Speaker 1>as critical of that space as you would have been

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<v Speaker 1>if they if you hadn't need that, if you had

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<v Speaker 1>just been working at like flamm was on you know, um,

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<v Speaker 1>they would have taken from fimilitude away from it. But

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<v Speaker 1>what you have been more free to um, you know

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<v Speaker 1>dig in. Yeah, sorry, Sam, I know you have. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>going to change the topic because I know you haven't

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<v Speaker 1>seen the movie and well, you know, it's funny. George.

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<v Speaker 1>We you know, we bonded early on about having both

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<v Speaker 1>listened to Slate's Culture gab Fest a lot, and now

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<v Speaker 1>we are completely doing culture gab Fest. This is uh,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, Stradio Lab. We're sort of post podcast, and

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<v Speaker 1>yet this is sort of just a a sincere discussion

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<v Speaker 1>of a film that is, you know, currently being talked about.

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<v Speaker 1>I how far we've fallen. I'm disappointed. I'm sad, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, for me, a big turning point recently is

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<v Speaker 1>that I now I've turned away from my stand um

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<v Speaker 1>of Stephen metcalf On Clate Unslade culture gap Fest, and

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<v Speaker 1>I find myself more relating to um, to data and

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<v Speaker 1>even at times Julia, I love the idea that like,

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<v Speaker 1>I show up on the show and it becomes culture

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<v Speaker 1>gap Fest, because I do think that it's like my

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<v Speaker 1>main MOUs operandi. It's being like a culture gap fest

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<v Speaker 1>for everyone. Like have you read this new book, it's

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<v Speaker 1>my bron Test Pernell. You should check it out. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I do think, Jeremy, I don't know if you ever

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<v Speaker 1>listen to Culture gap Fest. But like the two women,

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<v Speaker 1>the two white women that co hosted along with Steven

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<v Speaker 1>meccap are exactly the women that you are describing as

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<v Speaker 1>championing you. They are exactly the professors you would have

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<v Speaker 1>that would be like oh my god, what an exciting

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<v Speaker 1>new voice. But also they are exactly the same like

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<v Speaker 1>microaggression thing, because they'll like I remember when they reviewed

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<v Speaker 1>Billy on the Street and they were like, I just

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<v Speaker 1>didn't get it, Like it just seemed kind of aggressive,

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<v Speaker 1>and it was like, yeah, that's the point. Yeah. I

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<v Speaker 1>was like, Oh, you're so used to like people being

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<v Speaker 1>extremely polite. There's like a different style of talking. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Recently Stephen has been doing a lot of I'm listening

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<v Speaker 1>and learning. I'll just be like, well, you know, as

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<v Speaker 1>a ultimately middle age, mostly heteronormative, even white male, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know if ultimately maybe what's more productive for me

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<v Speaker 1>is to not speak. I mean, I wondered that about

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of white people who have been saying that

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<v Speaker 1>a lot and yet haven't quit their jobs. Like I'm

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<v Speaker 1>happy you all haven't said that yet, because if so,

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<v Speaker 1>you should have just given me an io your podcast, right, Like,

0:23:26.200 --> 0:23:28.760
<v Speaker 1>I don't know if io is queer, but they like

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<v Speaker 1>and again I don't know what pronounced io uses. UM,

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<v Speaker 1>so I'm gonna I'm gonna just gonna use neutral ones.

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<v Speaker 1>Um they feel like queer adjacent to me um And

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<v Speaker 1>if you were actually woke, you would have already um

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<v Speaker 1>moved away from your post and given the mix to us,

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<v Speaker 1>but you haven't, um, and I appreciate that because you

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<v Speaker 1>and Io, Yeah, of course, but we're being honest. We've

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<v Speaker 1>we've never lied about what this is. You know, it

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<v Speaker 1>is a white men to be white men. This is

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<v Speaker 1>what you know if you are a white gay man,

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<v Speaker 1>just let your hair down and and and and welcome. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what I think though, just to to kind

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<v Speaker 1>of push back on this a little bit, I actually think,

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<v Speaker 1>um that based on our emails, a lot of our

0:24:17.480 --> 0:24:20.800
<v Speaker 1>listeners are are women and and non binary people. This

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<v Speaker 1>is purely anecdotally based on um the emails we get,

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<v Speaker 1>and so I think what we're doing is performing as

0:24:26.760 --> 0:24:32.240
<v Speaker 1>sort of auto like we are humiliating. We we their

0:24:32.280 --> 0:24:35.120
<v Speaker 1>critique is baked into our existences where we are like,

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<v Speaker 1>look at how fucking stupid white gays are, and then

0:24:38.640 --> 0:24:41.240
<v Speaker 1>people listen to it and they're like, oh wow, there

0:24:41.240 --> 0:24:44.800
<v Speaker 1>are clowns, you know, like they're kind of referential, and

0:24:44.840 --> 0:24:46.800
<v Speaker 1>we're doing it in a way that's not like because

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<v Speaker 1>I also hate the self aggrandizing way that you know,

0:24:50.640 --> 0:24:53.240
<v Speaker 1>white gay men are like white gays it's like, we're

0:24:53.240 --> 0:24:56.800
<v Speaker 1>not doing that. We are. We are living the critique.

0:24:56.840 --> 0:25:00.280
<v Speaker 1>We are we are, we are living the critique. In fact,

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<v Speaker 1>the more we speak, the more space we take up.

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<v Speaker 1>That is space that has been in the in the

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<v Speaker 1>same way that a space can be queer. That space

0:25:07.960 --> 0:25:10.880
<v Speaker 1>has been critiqued. So at that point there's nothing within

0:25:10.960 --> 0:25:13.040
<v Speaker 1>that space that we can do that is problematic because

0:25:13.080 --> 0:25:16.640
<v Speaker 1>by virtue of existing, we have already covered all our bases.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean in many ways, and this is obvious, but

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<v Speaker 1>it's christ like. What we do is christ like, Like.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think it's it's hard to explain, but we

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<v Speaker 1>just are being christ Like figures. Christ was the original

0:25:27.800 --> 0:25:30.119
<v Speaker 1>person that would walk in and be like, yeah, I

0:25:30.200 --> 0:25:33.040
<v Speaker 1>turned this water into wine. But ironically, like it was,

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<v Speaker 1>it was not a big deal. It's more like to

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<v Speaker 1>comment on religion and magic and like and the idea

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<v Speaker 1>of like alcohol and nonalcoholic beverages in sort of our

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<v Speaker 1>value system, And why is this more magical than just

0:25:47.359 --> 0:25:51.520
<v Speaker 1>drinking water if you think about it. Yes, no, it's

0:25:51.560 --> 0:25:53.639
<v Speaker 1>like we are doing the turning water into wine. But

0:25:53.680 --> 0:25:58.320
<v Speaker 1>we turn a podcast into um, a bad podcast. We

0:25:58.400 --> 0:26:00.560
<v Speaker 1>turned a good podcast into bad podcast. Can we take,

0:26:00.600 --> 0:26:03.879
<v Speaker 1>we take beautiful guests, incredible topics, and we turned them

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<v Speaker 1>all into nothing. Say we say, you think this is good,

0:26:08.760 --> 0:26:12.000
<v Speaker 1>Actually it could be bad. I wonder as well, what

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<v Speaker 1>makes a good podcast? Because I have yet to understand

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<v Speaker 1>and now this is the question, and this is exactly

0:26:18.400 --> 0:26:21.720
<v Speaker 1>the key to well two millions of dollars for one.

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<v Speaker 1>But um, jeremy, what we were a dream podcast be

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<v Speaker 1>as a listener, not a podcast. My dream part film? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, interested like a very good film made by

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<v Speaker 1>Claire Denis. Oh my god, it's my best podcast is

0:26:39.720 --> 0:26:42.120
<v Speaker 1>cleared Tony going back to Africa to make a film.

0:26:42.160 --> 0:26:44.840
<v Speaker 1>I was literally going to say, as a joke that

0:26:45.040 --> 0:26:49.280
<v Speaker 1>it would be both travid and are you serious? Yeah,

0:26:49.359 --> 0:26:52.320
<v Speaker 1>I'm dead serious because I was just, Um, I've been

0:26:52.359 --> 0:26:54.000
<v Speaker 1>trying to well, we don't have to go into this.

0:26:54.040 --> 0:26:57.160
<v Speaker 1>I've been trying to kind of get through her films recently.

0:26:57.560 --> 0:27:10.360
<v Speaker 1>Have you seen th bitch Old mccorner has passed. Um,

0:27:10.440 --> 0:27:12.280
<v Speaker 1>So we had to go to the restroom is now.

0:27:13.320 --> 0:27:15.800
<v Speaker 1>Um was because I had to pee, but also because

0:27:16.040 --> 0:27:18.080
<v Speaker 1>I still haven't gotten over the fact that two white

0:27:18.080 --> 0:27:22.200
<v Speaker 1>men decided to discuss the villiny of m I a while,

0:27:22.240 --> 0:27:25.880
<v Speaker 1>I was, you know what, I'm actually really glad, thank

0:27:25.920 --> 0:27:28.200
<v Speaker 1>you forgetting it back there. I just had to bring

0:27:28.280 --> 0:27:30.720
<v Speaker 1>that up. Um, it was sitting heavy on my spirit.

0:27:31.200 --> 0:27:34.000
<v Speaker 1>So so here's my thing. To me, I've I've never

0:27:34.040 --> 0:27:36.159
<v Speaker 1>like looked into white people don't like am I. I

0:27:36.160 --> 0:27:38.440
<v Speaker 1>always liked her music, so so that's kind of where

0:27:38.480 --> 0:27:41.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm coming from. And so I was so when sam As,

0:27:41.080 --> 0:27:43.400
<v Speaker 1>I was like, yeah, I don't know, I always liked

0:27:43.400 --> 0:27:45.199
<v Speaker 1>am I. But then I was like, oh god, what

0:27:45.280 --> 0:27:47.800
<v Speaker 1>if she said something that was like really terrible and

0:27:47.800 --> 0:27:50.119
<v Speaker 1>I just don't know about it, so I should like

0:27:50.160 --> 0:27:53.280
<v Speaker 1>what if she was literally like you know, I don't know,

0:27:53.480 --> 0:27:56.000
<v Speaker 1>I'm a Holocaust denier or something. It's I don't want

0:27:56.040 --> 0:27:58.119
<v Speaker 1>that on my back. So I was just like, you

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<v Speaker 1>know what I'm gonna I'm gonna back to and then

0:28:00.440 --> 0:28:04.119
<v Speaker 1>we never revisited genuinely. And again, hopefully someone will watch

0:28:04.200 --> 0:28:07.040
<v Speaker 1>this and like footnote it in like in some response

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<v Speaker 1>to be like, this is why Jeremy is problematic because

0:28:09.920 --> 0:28:12.520
<v Speaker 1>he didn't remember this, but again, tell me and I'll

0:28:12.560 --> 0:28:15.240
<v Speaker 1>remember it now. But I thought that the whole thing

0:28:15.320 --> 0:28:21.639
<v Speaker 1>that delegitimized her was marrying a billionaire and uh and

0:28:21.640 --> 0:28:24.240
<v Speaker 1>and eating truffle fis in that one interview, which was

0:28:24.280 --> 0:28:29.560
<v Speaker 1>a set up by that wife in New York Time. Yes,

0:28:29.680 --> 0:28:32.440
<v Speaker 1>well one, you know, I think we can all agree

0:28:32.520 --> 0:28:34.760
<v Speaker 1>cancel culture has gone too far when you can't marry

0:28:34.760 --> 0:28:39.120
<v Speaker 1>a billionaire without um having a beautiful career. Still, I

0:28:39.160 --> 0:28:42.560
<v Speaker 1>think the anti billionaire sentiment is just running rampant, and

0:28:42.560 --> 0:28:45.280
<v Speaker 1>it's disgusting, and it's on American frankly the way that

0:28:45.320 --> 0:28:47.680
<v Speaker 1>it affected both am I and Grimes, two of my

0:28:47.960 --> 0:28:53.160
<v Speaker 1>ultimately favorite musicians. I think I actually think, just like

0:28:53.680 --> 0:28:58.880
<v Speaker 1>women like Mia Sir Sharon and women shouldn't be able

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<v Speaker 1>to marry billionaires. Yeah, I mean also am I. The

0:29:06.400 --> 0:29:08.760
<v Speaker 1>trouble devised thing was when she then tweeted out the

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<v Speaker 1>writer's phone number, the sort of um, you know, bringing

0:29:12.760 --> 0:29:16.880
<v Speaker 1>doxing to a whole new level, uh, popularizing it among many.

0:29:17.000 --> 0:29:19.280
<v Speaker 1>I don't think I had heard of doxing until that moment,

0:29:19.600 --> 0:29:21.840
<v Speaker 1>I mean, and ever since then, I've been addicted to

0:29:21.880 --> 0:29:26.200
<v Speaker 1>the stuff. I love it, but I love part of

0:29:27.240 --> 0:29:30.239
<v Speaker 1>and I love people who who really like like, if

0:29:30.240 --> 0:29:33.640
<v Speaker 1>they're like, you've harmed me, I will run you to

0:29:33.760 --> 0:29:36.360
<v Speaker 1>the ground and like, you know, nothing runs you to

0:29:36.400 --> 0:29:42.560
<v Speaker 1>the ground, like getting five billion text messages from random people. Um. Again,

0:29:42.760 --> 0:29:47.000
<v Speaker 1>I indicated about like successful women marrying billionaires because like,

0:29:47.040 --> 0:29:50.680
<v Speaker 1>as we all know, successful women have a hard time, um,

0:29:50.720 --> 0:29:55.080
<v Speaker 1>finding men who don't feel intimidated by them. Um. And

0:29:55.160 --> 0:29:57.560
<v Speaker 1>so you know, you know, you see, like you know,

0:29:57.960 --> 0:30:01.120
<v Speaker 1>masculinity coming to crisis when a woman just like is

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<v Speaker 1>a manager and a footballer. You know, like imagine if

0:30:04.760 --> 0:30:07.440
<v Speaker 1>she also is performing in the super Bowl. You know,

0:30:07.520 --> 0:30:09.800
<v Speaker 1>like it takes a really big guy to do that.

0:30:09.840 --> 0:30:13.080
<v Speaker 1>You have to be a billionaire like Jay z Elon

0:30:13.160 --> 0:30:15.960
<v Speaker 1>Musk or whoever it was that she married at one time.

0:30:16.200 --> 0:30:18.560
<v Speaker 1>And also the one that Adell married. You know, Oh,

0:30:18.760 --> 0:30:20.600
<v Speaker 1>I didn't know that he was like very well, I

0:30:20.640 --> 0:30:23.600
<v Speaker 1>was just gonna say that Serena Williams also married a billionaire.

0:30:26.320 --> 0:30:29.280
<v Speaker 1>But I I don't know, I don't care. I mean,

0:30:29.400 --> 0:30:33.640
<v Speaker 1>I as a successful gay man, I who you know,

0:30:33.720 --> 0:30:36.360
<v Speaker 1>found myself constantly in relationships with men that would be

0:30:36.400 --> 0:30:39.280
<v Speaker 1>going well until they came into some sort of like

0:30:39.400 --> 0:30:42.000
<v Speaker 1>ego crisis. I had to start dating a man who

0:30:42.080 --> 0:30:47.440
<v Speaker 1>had a ROLEXE. You were there when I started dating him? Wow, yes,

0:30:47.520 --> 0:30:50.200
<v Speaker 1>I was. I did not know he wore what I

0:30:50.240 --> 0:30:53.360
<v Speaker 1>do remember, and I was like, he's maintaining his power.

0:30:54.160 --> 0:31:01.520
<v Speaker 1>Huh wow. Interesting Unfortunately that god remember. Yeah, so this

0:31:01.720 --> 0:31:04.240
<v Speaker 1>Jeremy I ran into each other in the Athens airport

0:31:04.400 --> 0:31:09.280
<v Speaker 1>after he was coming back from his wild um sex

0:31:09.320 --> 0:31:15.960
<v Speaker 1>capadea in Athens. Yeah, and at this point it was

0:31:15.960 --> 0:31:18.600
<v Speaker 1>like two years ago. Yes, we have to say that

0:31:18.640 --> 0:31:20.520
<v Speaker 1>because now if we say that, people are like, whoa,

0:31:20.680 --> 0:31:22.600
<v Speaker 1>Jeremy and George went to Athens in the middle of

0:31:22.640 --> 0:31:25.120
<v Speaker 1>a globe, not not amid COVID, as the Daily Mail

0:31:25.160 --> 0:31:28.920
<v Speaker 1>would say. Um, let's do our first. Okay, let's dove

0:31:28.960 --> 0:31:31.760
<v Speaker 1>for a segment. Sam too late. So Jeremy, we're gonna

0:31:31.760 --> 0:31:33.360
<v Speaker 1>ask you a series of rapid fire questions. You have

0:31:33.400 --> 0:31:35.320
<v Speaker 1>to just pick A or B, and if you ask

0:31:35.400 --> 0:31:37.440
<v Speaker 1>us any follow up questions, we'll get furious at you

0:31:38.000 --> 0:31:43.840
<v Speaker 1>got it? Okay, George, you start, okay, Jeremy nomad Land

0:31:44.000 --> 0:31:51.360
<v Speaker 1>or Disneyland neither okay, Jeremy Britney Spears or picking up

0:31:51.400 --> 0:32:00.280
<v Speaker 1>some beers Britney Spears, World War or word press those well,

0:32:00.320 --> 0:32:03.080
<v Speaker 1>how did those are late? I'm sorry, Oh my god,

0:32:03.120 --> 0:32:08.080
<v Speaker 1>you can't. This is more of a data exercise. Um

0:32:08.400 --> 0:32:15.040
<v Speaker 1>word dress okay, Um King Kong or bing Bang Bong

0:32:15.400 --> 0:32:24.760
<v Speaker 1>Sing Sang Song Ding Dang Dong uk Hun Um b Jeremy, Um,

0:32:25.040 --> 0:32:28.760
<v Speaker 1>Lars von Trier or Lars and the Real Girl, Lars

0:32:28.800 --> 0:32:36.000
<v Speaker 1>one Trier, Lars one Jeremy quarterback, snack attack or hit

0:32:36.040 --> 0:32:40.360
<v Speaker 1>it from the back. Um those are three now, right?

0:32:40.520 --> 0:32:43.760
<v Speaker 1>Or is it like, yeah, you have the difficulty because

0:32:43.760 --> 0:32:47.160
<v Speaker 1>you're doing such a good job. I would say, also,

0:32:47.280 --> 0:32:49.600
<v Speaker 1>I want the readership to know that you are dressed

0:32:49.600 --> 0:32:53.160
<v Speaker 1>like Lars and the Real Girl right now, Sam dress

0:32:53.280 --> 0:32:56.760
<v Speaker 1>Sam dressed Lars margin the Real Girl. Yeah, yeah, that's

0:32:56.760 --> 0:32:59.600
<v Speaker 1>a really good point. Sam does have the look of

0:33:00.000 --> 0:33:06.080
<v Speaker 1>someone in a sun Dance comedy if anyone's listening. Okay,

0:33:06.600 --> 0:33:14.080
<v Speaker 1>Jeremy growing pains or chaos rains, Chaos rains, Okay, Jeremy

0:33:14.400 --> 0:33:19.040
<v Speaker 1>writing a Twitter thread or being declared legally dead. Being

0:33:19.040 --> 0:33:23.360
<v Speaker 1>declared legally dead, and that's a wrap up that what

0:33:23.400 --> 0:33:26.680
<v Speaker 1>I wouldn't give me declared legally dead. Wow, what a

0:33:26.720 --> 0:33:31.360
<v Speaker 1>relief one day, I know. Um okay, wait, let's you

0:33:31.360 --> 0:33:34.000
<v Speaker 1>know what. I think we need to just like, uh,

0:33:34.160 --> 0:33:36.880
<v Speaker 1>get into the topic, into the topic. I think we

0:33:36.920 --> 0:33:38.760
<v Speaker 1>need to get into the topic because you know, we

0:33:38.840 --> 0:33:42.840
<v Speaker 1>got really deep into film corner and um and we

0:33:43.080 --> 0:33:44.800
<v Speaker 1>you know, and then we talked about the billionaires and

0:33:44.800 --> 0:33:46.840
<v Speaker 1>that was kind of fun. We were things were really

0:33:46.840 --> 0:33:49.000
<v Speaker 1>starting to heat up here on the podcast. Can I

0:33:49.040 --> 0:33:54.360
<v Speaker 1>ask you something before we continue? Wait one thing? Jeremy

0:33:54.360 --> 0:33:57.000
<v Speaker 1>asked what it makes a good podcast? And my working

0:33:57.040 --> 0:34:01.400
<v Speaker 1>theater theory is, um, oh my god, I want a

0:34:01.440 --> 0:34:04.959
<v Speaker 1>book about the working theater, right, Jeremy, of course, you know,

0:34:05.000 --> 0:34:09.960
<v Speaker 1>Oh my goodness. My um my theory is a podcast

0:34:10.040 --> 0:34:13.919
<v Speaker 1>must be juicy. In order to be good. You gotta

0:34:13.920 --> 0:34:17.480
<v Speaker 1>give the girl something to talk about. Sam. My question

0:34:17.520 --> 0:34:19.600
<v Speaker 1>for you is, I want to get this out in

0:34:19.600 --> 0:34:23.800
<v Speaker 1>the open before we continue. Are you mad that I

0:34:23.840 --> 0:34:30.759
<v Speaker 1>spend too much time talking about movies? I am, I'm mad.

0:34:31.120 --> 0:34:34.640
<v Speaker 1>I think you're mad. You know, I wouldn't say anger

0:34:34.760 --> 0:34:38.200
<v Speaker 1>is the feeling. Um, maybe I feel some sort of

0:34:38.200 --> 0:34:41.799
<v Speaker 1>missed opportunity. Um, you know, I guess I think I've

0:34:41.800 --> 0:34:44.720
<v Speaker 1>dealed with a little fear. I think maybe our listeners

0:34:44.760 --> 0:34:48.640
<v Speaker 1>come to this show, you know, to have a laugh. Um. Yes,

0:34:48.719 --> 0:34:53.279
<v Speaker 1>we're smart, we're thoughtful, but mostly we're funny, and you know,

0:34:53.400 --> 0:34:56.640
<v Speaker 1>to sort of commit fully to just the smart and thoughtful.

0:34:56.760 --> 0:34:59.919
<v Speaker 1>I thought was, it's a dangerous move, it's a risk,

0:35:00.239 --> 0:35:04.319
<v Speaker 1>and it's that's a really bad precedent. Wow, Okay, you're

0:35:04.640 --> 0:35:08.280
<v Speaker 1>mad as much as devastated. I just think the norms

0:35:08.280 --> 0:35:10.560
<v Speaker 1>of this podcast are breaking down at such a rate

0:35:10.640 --> 0:35:15.279
<v Speaker 1>that I'm fearful of the future. Sure, to me, we

0:35:15.320 --> 0:35:18.600
<v Speaker 1>reached our height when we have that kind of riff

0:35:18.719 --> 0:35:23.160
<v Speaker 1>about how we are uh critiquing ourselves as we exist

0:35:23.280 --> 0:35:26.280
<v Speaker 1>or whatever, And in my mind, that made up for

0:35:26.800 --> 0:35:30.920
<v Speaker 1>everything else I've ever done in my life. Well, I

0:35:30.960 --> 0:35:33.960
<v Speaker 1>think we can start on a clean slate. UM podcast

0:35:33.960 --> 0:35:39.440
<v Speaker 1>starts now introduced the topic Now, okay, so the topic UM.

0:35:39.480 --> 0:35:42.520
<v Speaker 1>You know, I thought it would be juicy. UM. So

0:35:42.640 --> 0:35:49.360
<v Speaker 1>Jeremy and I went to high school together in Martinsville, Virginia, UM,

0:35:49.440 --> 0:35:51.200
<v Speaker 1>and so I thought it would be fun to um

0:35:51.400 --> 0:35:54.680
<v Speaker 1>talk both about our high school experience and high school

0:35:55.000 --> 0:35:58.160
<v Speaker 1>in general. If you know, that's not working, But I

0:35:58.200 --> 0:36:03.680
<v Speaker 1>think we have UM some things you see in there

0:36:03.760 --> 0:36:06.120
<v Speaker 1>when I have been assigned the I I have been

0:36:06.160 --> 0:36:09.440
<v Speaker 1>assigned the role of peer mediator. In Sam's words, I said,

0:36:09.800 --> 0:36:11.319
<v Speaker 1>I said, you know, you, there's a lot of heavy

0:36:11.360 --> 0:36:13.400
<v Speaker 1>lifting for you to do in this episode, So you know,

0:36:13.560 --> 0:36:17.759
<v Speaker 1>kind of are you ready emotionally, psychically, and then he said, yes,

0:36:17.800 --> 0:36:19.680
<v Speaker 1>but you expect you know, you have the role of

0:36:19.719 --> 0:36:22.160
<v Speaker 1>peer mediator, so I will jump in whenever I feel

0:36:22.160 --> 0:36:26.560
<v Speaker 1>like someone is being in any way um erased or

0:36:27.000 --> 0:36:32.600
<v Speaker 1>marginalized or um rewritten. Even I also want to articulate

0:36:32.840 --> 0:36:35.759
<v Speaker 1>to the to this podcast. I thought I was going

0:36:35.880 --> 0:36:38.560
<v Speaker 1>on the Red Table today, so all of this other

0:36:38.600 --> 0:36:41.439
<v Speaker 1>stuff feels like a weird It felt like it felt

0:36:41.440 --> 0:36:42.960
<v Speaker 1>like you were leading me into a trap, and I

0:36:43.000 --> 0:36:46.920
<v Speaker 1>was right. The Red Table is here, um, and I'm excited.

0:36:46.960 --> 0:36:49.120
<v Speaker 1>I wish we had started straight away at the Red Table.

0:36:49.840 --> 0:36:52.680
<v Speaker 1>And um, if we are the I feel as though

0:36:52.920 --> 0:36:56.399
<v Speaker 1>you're more You're less pure mediator and more um Jada

0:36:56.400 --> 0:37:02.600
<v Speaker 1>Pinkett Smith's mother, you know that? Or sure? Actually? Um, yes,

0:37:02.640 --> 0:37:07.360
<v Speaker 1>I'm aware they both generally play mediation. Whenever Will and

0:37:07.520 --> 0:37:09.440
<v Speaker 1>Jada are on the show together, it's a sort of

0:37:09.440 --> 0:37:13.239
<v Speaker 1>a Will and Jada meet up, which gives people like,

0:37:13.280 --> 0:37:14.799
<v Speaker 1>this is kind of a Will and Jade to meet up.

0:37:15.200 --> 0:37:17.520
<v Speaker 1>What what what? What kind of things happened to you? Guys?

0:37:17.560 --> 0:37:20.360
<v Speaker 1>Are well and Jeddie so well, I'm ready, I'm in character.

0:37:20.480 --> 0:37:25.120
<v Speaker 1>I will be doing kind of a wildly offensive impression. Um,

0:37:25.160 --> 0:37:31.759
<v Speaker 1>and I'm ready to a kain Okay, So like, where

0:37:31.760 --> 0:37:34.200
<v Speaker 1>do we start, Jeremy? Okay, I feel like okay, I

0:37:34.239 --> 0:37:35.640
<v Speaker 1>feel like I want to just put it all out

0:37:35.680 --> 0:37:40.120
<v Speaker 1>on the table. And I would love to hear your

0:37:40.440 --> 0:37:43.160
<v Speaker 1>experience of the one year we went to high school together.

0:37:44.160 --> 0:37:46.080
<v Speaker 1>So we went to high school for one year. I

0:37:46.200 --> 0:37:51.160
<v Speaker 1>moved there. Uh was that I moved their sophomore year

0:37:51.239 --> 0:37:53.840
<v Speaker 1>the end of sophomore year? Yes? Was it? Was it

0:37:53.920 --> 0:37:56.279
<v Speaker 1>sophomore and junior year? Or was it just because I

0:37:56.600 --> 0:38:01.839
<v Speaker 1>went back to private school junior and senior year? Oh? Okay, wow,

0:38:01.880 --> 0:38:04.000
<v Speaker 1>so we really packed a lot into this year, this

0:38:04.160 --> 0:38:09.120
<v Speaker 1>sophomore year. Yes. So I moved to Martinsville, Virginia from

0:38:09.200 --> 0:38:17.919
<v Speaker 1>Michigan and I meet you and uh, your crew, which

0:38:17.960 --> 0:38:23.200
<v Speaker 1>I would describe as the like smart, weird, nerdy kids. Right,

0:38:24.480 --> 0:38:28.360
<v Speaker 1>they were the popular kids, but also because they were

0:38:29.040 --> 0:38:32.080
<v Speaker 1>wealthy and in the smart like anyone who lived in

0:38:32.200 --> 0:38:36.680
<v Speaker 1>Mulberry or chat Moss, which is like the wealthy suburb, generally,

0:38:36.719 --> 0:38:40.879
<v Speaker 1>those kids ended up in gifted and talented? How did

0:38:40.920 --> 0:38:45.799
<v Speaker 1>how was that possible? Who knows? And somehow the kids

0:38:45.800 --> 0:38:47.560
<v Speaker 1>who would have been at the private school I was

0:38:47.600 --> 0:38:51.680
<v Speaker 1>at before the school. UM ended up at this in

0:38:51.719 --> 0:38:55.240
<v Speaker 1>the gifted and talented program, separated from all of the

0:38:55.280 --> 0:38:58.960
<v Speaker 1>black kids of generally UM and poor white kids from

0:38:59.000 --> 0:39:01.279
<v Speaker 1>the community. So that was the click I was in

0:39:01.600 --> 0:39:04.600
<v Speaker 1>because I was rare black and poor person who was

0:39:04.680 --> 0:39:13.000
<v Speaker 1>in gifted and talented. Yeah. Um, And so I like

0:39:13.120 --> 0:39:17.440
<v Speaker 1>start making friends with kind of your crew, uh, your circle,

0:39:18.320 --> 0:39:27.440
<v Speaker 1>and and then the bullying begins, and then your circle

0:39:27.960 --> 0:39:31.960
<v Speaker 1>was was mean to me. Okay, So now described from

0:39:32.000 --> 0:39:36.160
<v Speaker 1>your end how that happened. My end, I have been

0:39:36.160 --> 0:39:40.360
<v Speaker 1>going to this private school, and then my mother, because

0:39:40.400 --> 0:39:44.080
<v Speaker 1>of like you know, a second divorce, UM, could no

0:39:44.160 --> 0:39:46.680
<v Speaker 1>longer afford to keep me in that school. So I

0:39:46.680 --> 0:39:49.600
<v Speaker 1>had to go to the public school. Where the first

0:39:49.800 --> 0:39:53.120
<v Speaker 1>day of that public school my freshman year, I was

0:39:53.160 --> 0:39:56.919
<v Speaker 1>like heinously beat up for reading Harry Potter at lunch, UM,

0:39:56.960 --> 0:39:59.080
<v Speaker 1>because someone was like, what the funk you doing reading

0:39:59.120 --> 0:40:01.799
<v Speaker 1>a book at lunch and I was like what, like

0:40:02.080 --> 0:40:04.360
<v Speaker 1>slapped the book out of my hand, and then UM,

0:40:04.400 --> 0:40:07.520
<v Speaker 1>I was like beat up or then I slapped him

0:40:07.560 --> 0:40:10.000
<v Speaker 1>like a girl. Um, and then they were like, he

0:40:10.040 --> 0:40:11.960
<v Speaker 1>hits like a girl. And then he talked me up,

0:40:12.239 --> 0:40:13.879
<v Speaker 1>which I'm like, if I hit like a girl, why

0:40:13.880 --> 0:40:16.600
<v Speaker 1>does it take three men to beat me up? Anyway? Whatever? Um.

0:40:17.360 --> 0:40:21.319
<v Speaker 1>I am then sort of adopted by the seniors in

0:40:21.360 --> 0:40:23.960
<v Speaker 1>the Gifted in Talent program, and they were like, why

0:40:23.960 --> 0:40:26.239
<v Speaker 1>don't you gifted in talented? Like you seem smart? And

0:40:26.280 --> 0:40:28.480
<v Speaker 1>I was like, okay, cool, And so then I got

0:40:28.520 --> 0:40:30.760
<v Speaker 1>to be in like I thought to be in Gifted

0:40:30.760 --> 0:40:33.080
<v Speaker 1>in Talented, they put me in there. And then because

0:40:33.080 --> 0:40:35.520
<v Speaker 1>I was already friends with the seniors, the like rich

0:40:35.640 --> 0:40:40.800
<v Speaker 1>cool kids like sort of welcomed me into their click begrudgingly,

0:40:41.200 --> 0:40:43.560
<v Speaker 1>like I wasn't like actually there. The sophomore year was

0:40:43.600 --> 0:40:45.839
<v Speaker 1>like my trial of doing it without the sort of

0:40:45.880 --> 0:40:50.279
<v Speaker 1>shadow or like protection of these rich people or these

0:40:50.280 --> 0:40:53.480
<v Speaker 1>older people, these seniors. And I always felt like my

0:40:53.600 --> 0:40:57.839
<v Speaker 1>position was tenuous inside of that group. Um, but they

0:40:57.840 --> 0:40:59.960
<v Speaker 1>were like my safety and the only sort of social

0:41:00.360 --> 0:41:04.719
<v Speaker 1>dynamic I had. And then this very nice, very sweet,

0:41:05.400 --> 0:41:10.200
<v Speaker 1>very white and fun boy shows up and he's in

0:41:10.400 --> 0:41:13.560
<v Speaker 1>I think we had like biology together that was like

0:41:13.600 --> 0:41:16.879
<v Speaker 1>our main class together, or the class where we sat

0:41:16.960 --> 0:41:19.920
<v Speaker 1>next to each other, um, and like we had like

0:41:19.960 --> 0:41:23.000
<v Speaker 1>a friendliness to each other. We like actually like we're

0:41:23.040 --> 0:41:26.719
<v Speaker 1>congenial and then but then you were getting close to

0:41:26.800 --> 0:41:29.759
<v Speaker 1>a lot of the people in the click um, and

0:41:29.840 --> 0:41:32.680
<v Speaker 1>you would also inspired a crush in one girl in

0:41:32.719 --> 0:41:36.720
<v Speaker 1>the click um, and the girls were my main safety.

0:41:37.200 --> 0:41:39.640
<v Speaker 1>The girls were the ones who like really brought me

0:41:39.680 --> 0:41:44.200
<v Speaker 1>in and um, I'm gonna change her name, but I

0:41:44.200 --> 0:41:46.279
<v Speaker 1>want people to hear the sort of like lilt of

0:41:46.360 --> 0:41:51.720
<v Speaker 1>her name. But it was like, you know, uh, Sarah

0:41:51.840 --> 0:41:56.319
<v Speaker 1>Sarah Catherine um May Hall was like basically this girl's name,

0:41:56.360 --> 0:42:01.160
<v Speaker 1>you know. So Sarah Catherine was telling everyone at one

0:42:01.200 --> 0:42:05.640
<v Speaker 1>party at this one guy's house that she really um

0:42:05.680 --> 0:42:09.920
<v Speaker 1>that she really liked Sam and thought he was really hot,

0:42:10.120 --> 0:42:11.440
<v Speaker 1>and a couple of the other girls started saying he

0:42:11.480 --> 0:42:14.120
<v Speaker 1>was really hot, and and I started I was feeling

0:42:14.200 --> 0:42:16.200
<v Speaker 1>very on the out so this group at the time,

0:42:17.080 --> 0:42:19.040
<v Speaker 1>and I felt really weird about being on the outs

0:42:19.040 --> 0:42:20.759
<v Speaker 1>and not really know what to do. And in my

0:42:20.800 --> 0:42:22.360
<v Speaker 1>mind it was like fight or flight. And I was

0:42:22.400 --> 0:42:24.640
<v Speaker 1>literally like, wow, this white boys about to replace me

0:42:24.800 --> 0:42:27.960
<v Speaker 1>and I will go back to being alone. And so

0:42:28.480 --> 0:42:31.000
<v Speaker 1>I noticed because I, you know, should be on Big

0:42:31.000 --> 0:42:35.680
<v Speaker 1>Brother or Survivor that uh, there was miss the frustration

0:42:35.680 --> 0:42:38.040
<v Speaker 1>of mistrust on the on behalf of one of the

0:42:38.080 --> 0:42:40.560
<v Speaker 1>white straight boys who had a crush on Sarah Sarah

0:42:40.719 --> 0:42:45.400
<v Speaker 1>Catherine Um. And he was like, what the funk? And

0:42:45.440 --> 0:42:49.480
<v Speaker 1>I was like, well, you know, I heard or I

0:42:49.520 --> 0:42:53.480
<v Speaker 1>feel like Sam might be gay, like literally, just like

0:42:53.520 --> 0:42:57.200
<v Speaker 1>a dumb thing a kid says, just like and I

0:42:57.200 --> 0:43:01.759
<v Speaker 1>guess like something inside my spirit told me that that

0:43:01.960 --> 0:43:05.440
<v Speaker 1>this boy was like me, you know um, and no

0:43:05.520 --> 0:43:07.799
<v Speaker 1>one who I was gay than either or that you

0:43:07.840 --> 0:43:10.279
<v Speaker 1>were not out. You were not out. I was not out.

0:43:10.880 --> 0:43:12.600
<v Speaker 1>And they were like what And all the girls are like,

0:43:12.760 --> 0:43:15.200
<v Speaker 1>no way, and all the guys are like do that

0:43:15.239 --> 0:43:17.560
<v Speaker 1>makes so much sense? And I was like, yeah, guys,

0:43:17.800 --> 0:43:19.640
<v Speaker 1>I'm due to you know. This is my way of

0:43:19.640 --> 0:43:21.279
<v Speaker 1>getting him with the dudes. And was like, I think

0:43:21.680 --> 0:43:25.200
<v Speaker 1>he is gay. And then someone was like, oh my god,

0:43:25.200 --> 0:43:26.520
<v Speaker 1>that makes so much sense. And I was like you

0:43:26.520 --> 0:43:31.560
<v Speaker 1>should ask him maybe again, not realizing that this is heinous,

0:43:32.040 --> 0:43:39.480
<v Speaker 1>just thinking self protection and then they called sad and yeah,

0:43:39.920 --> 0:43:42.520
<v Speaker 1>but the bullying began. Yeah, So I keep in mind

0:43:43.400 --> 0:43:46.040
<v Speaker 1>I was new. I was like, had moved here, like

0:43:46.440 --> 0:43:49.359
<v Speaker 1>you know, a month or two at this point, like

0:43:49.520 --> 0:43:52.560
<v Speaker 1>very new, and it was all everyone was pretty unfriendly

0:43:52.560 --> 0:43:55.200
<v Speaker 1>in that school, like it was like like I had

0:43:55.200 --> 0:43:57.040
<v Speaker 1>moved like every two or three years, so I was

0:43:57.120 --> 0:43:58.719
<v Speaker 1>used to it. But it was like, oh, this is

0:43:58.719 --> 0:44:03.120
<v Speaker 1>a different um read of like clicky and like hard

0:44:03.160 --> 0:44:07.919
<v Speaker 1>to break into. And um. So then I this night.

0:44:08.160 --> 0:44:12.239
<v Speaker 1>I had called this house earlier because like we had

0:44:12.239 --> 0:44:15.160
<v Speaker 1>a science project to the next day or something, and

0:44:15.239 --> 0:44:17.080
<v Speaker 1>like I had a question about it. And so then

0:44:17.120 --> 0:44:18.680
<v Speaker 1>I got the call back and I was like, oh,

0:44:18.760 --> 0:44:21.560
<v Speaker 1>they're gonna answer my question about the science project. And

0:44:21.600 --> 0:44:25.040
<v Speaker 1>it was like, um are you gay, and like clearly

0:44:25.080 --> 0:44:28.680
<v Speaker 1>on speakerphone with like everyone around, and I'm just like

0:44:28.880 --> 0:44:31.719
<v Speaker 1>at home doing this fucking science project and I was

0:44:31.760 --> 0:44:34.960
<v Speaker 1>just like um um um, Like I think I just

0:44:35.000 --> 0:44:38.680
<v Speaker 1>said like no and then like hung up or something.

0:44:39.719 --> 0:44:44.600
<v Speaker 1>But it was like very um bad. And then it

0:44:44.640 --> 0:44:49.160
<v Speaker 1>was like like we were in a basement as well,

0:44:49.160 --> 0:44:54.359
<v Speaker 1>Like you know, it was like that type of dark. Yeah,

0:44:54.480 --> 0:44:57.040
<v Speaker 1>and then your sister called us, and then my sister

0:44:57.120 --> 0:45:00.200
<v Speaker 1>called back and was like fuck you guys, like kind

0:45:00.200 --> 0:45:05.840
<v Speaker 1>of went off, and I again me, I was thinking

0:45:05.960 --> 0:45:08.200
<v Speaker 1>that this meant nothing to Sam. It was just like

0:45:08.239 --> 0:45:12.640
<v Speaker 1>a way of like pushing this again in my mind.

0:45:12.719 --> 0:45:15.200
<v Speaker 1>He wasn't actually gay. It was like just a thing

0:45:16.239 --> 0:45:18.120
<v Speaker 1>that was the worst thing you could say about a

0:45:18.160 --> 0:45:21.600
<v Speaker 1>boy exactly in the South that would get everyone away

0:45:21.680 --> 0:45:26.120
<v Speaker 1>from you. Um. Because you also weren't really like straight,

0:45:26.280 --> 0:45:30.280
<v Speaker 1>you were very straight passing. I would say you didn't

0:45:30.320 --> 0:45:33.840
<v Speaker 1>read gay, you know, so it was like an insane

0:45:33.880 --> 0:45:37.120
<v Speaker 1>thing for me to say um or to guess um.

0:45:37.920 --> 0:45:42.600
<v Speaker 1>And uh So then like a month later you left,

0:45:43.480 --> 0:45:46.640
<v Speaker 1>you just like switch schools. But I didn't know what

0:45:46.680 --> 0:45:49.759
<v Speaker 1>had happened. No, No, I stayed there. Over the next year,

0:45:49.880 --> 0:45:51.600
<v Speaker 1>you just went No, I was still at school there.

0:45:52.160 --> 0:45:54.960
<v Speaker 1>Oh I just switched school. No, I'm still there. Wow,

0:45:56.400 --> 0:45:59.439
<v Speaker 1>you know what? I remember it like, yeah, you went

0:45:59.440 --> 0:46:02.560
<v Speaker 1>to Prepriva school again. But it kept kind of happening,

0:46:02.640 --> 0:46:07.320
<v Speaker 1>like it kept like it heightened because it was like

0:46:07.680 --> 0:46:09.520
<v Speaker 1>first there was that call and then it was like

0:46:09.600 --> 0:46:13.960
<v Speaker 1>kind of like spread around and then it was like okay.

0:46:14.040 --> 0:46:18.479
<v Speaker 1>So I remember like one of our girl friends would

0:46:18.480 --> 0:46:21.280
<v Speaker 1>be like like was like, oh, you should date Jeremy.

0:46:21.320 --> 0:46:24.240
<v Speaker 1>You should date Jeremy, And I was like, oh my god,

0:46:24.360 --> 0:46:28.719
<v Speaker 1>like what is going on? And then like I went

0:46:28.800 --> 0:46:31.399
<v Speaker 1>to like sitt like at your table at lunch where

0:46:31.440 --> 0:46:35.200
<v Speaker 1>like that had been my spot, and like somebody like

0:46:35.560 --> 0:46:39.040
<v Speaker 1>one of them was like said something like, oh, you know,

0:46:39.080 --> 0:46:42.000
<v Speaker 1>are you gonna take like a guide of a dance

0:46:42.080 --> 0:46:44.720
<v Speaker 1>or something. There was something like an off rude comment,

0:46:45.040 --> 0:46:47.880
<v Speaker 1>and I literally like I just didn't set my trade

0:46:47.880 --> 0:46:50.160
<v Speaker 1>down and like walked to a table of people I

0:46:50.200 --> 0:46:55.920
<v Speaker 1>didn't know and was like this, like fuck this. Um

0:46:56.120 --> 0:47:00.879
<v Speaker 1>And for most from most of my life after that night,

0:47:01.239 --> 0:47:05.000
<v Speaker 1>literally the thing I remembered was that right, like that

0:47:05.440 --> 0:47:07.960
<v Speaker 1>thing I did that moment because I didn't care enough

0:47:07.960 --> 0:47:11.080
<v Speaker 1>about whatever seed I planted to like water it, you know,

0:47:11.600 --> 0:47:16.120
<v Speaker 1>it was just like a protection seed. Um And I

0:47:16.200 --> 0:47:18.239
<v Speaker 1>was also like really trying to figure out how I

0:47:18.239 --> 0:47:20.439
<v Speaker 1>was going to get back to like my the right

0:47:20.520 --> 0:47:24.440
<v Speaker 1>school for me, which still wasn't any better technically. It

0:47:24.520 --> 0:47:29.400
<v Speaker 1>was just like at least small fewer people, um And

0:47:29.400 --> 0:47:32.359
<v Speaker 1>and I but I always felt fondly of Sam as

0:47:32.400 --> 0:47:34.600
<v Speaker 1>like a nice person, And I felt bad about what

0:47:34.640 --> 0:47:37.680
<v Speaker 1>I had done because like I remembered the anger in

0:47:37.719 --> 0:47:40.920
<v Speaker 1>your sister's voice and recognized that that meant that you

0:47:41.000 --> 0:47:45.280
<v Speaker 1>were really upset, um And so I was really shocked

0:47:45.280 --> 0:47:51.640
<v Speaker 1>when I saw you a couple of years later in Chicago. Yeah,

0:47:52.320 --> 0:47:56.520
<v Speaker 1>so we had fully lost contact mm hmmm. And it

0:47:56.640 --> 0:48:00.879
<v Speaker 1>was like at like three am or something, and I

0:48:00.920 --> 0:48:03.680
<v Speaker 1>was like with my like gay friends. We had just

0:48:03.760 --> 0:48:09.680
<v Speaker 1>kind of like Berlin or whatever. It was like after Pride. Yeah, yeah,

0:48:09.760 --> 0:48:12.040
<v Speaker 1>and it was crazy and then we like chatted it

0:48:12.120 --> 0:48:15.240
<v Speaker 1>and it was very nice, which was weird because we

0:48:15.239 --> 0:48:18.200
<v Speaker 1>were kind of at odds at the end of Well,

0:48:18.360 --> 0:48:21.759
<v Speaker 1>I think he didn't necessarily know that I had done this,

0:48:21.840 --> 0:48:25.560
<v Speaker 1>because at the end of the conversation. Remember I was like, well,

0:48:25.600 --> 0:48:28.160
<v Speaker 1>it was getting along so swimmingly, like it's so great,

0:48:28.239 --> 0:48:30.600
<v Speaker 1>so funny, and I was like, oh my god, you

0:48:30.640 --> 0:48:33.839
<v Speaker 1>want to know the craziest thing. And he was like what,

0:48:33.880 --> 0:48:38.360
<v Speaker 1>It's like, it's so weird that you're gay because I

0:48:39.480 --> 0:48:42.719
<v Speaker 1>one day I randomly said x y Z and then

0:48:42.719 --> 0:48:45.479
<v Speaker 1>they called you and asked you, and he was like, wait,

0:48:45.600 --> 0:48:50.160
<v Speaker 1>that was you. And I saw like battery that had

0:48:50.200 --> 0:48:53.400
<v Speaker 1>been built between us over this hour long diner hang,

0:48:53.960 --> 0:49:00.680
<v Speaker 1>like like explode in a moment. I didn't realized that

0:49:01.360 --> 0:49:07.760
<v Speaker 1>that Sam. You only found out it was Jeremy later on. Yeah,

0:49:08.000 --> 0:49:11.839
<v Speaker 1>I do kind of still thought he was your What

0:49:11.920 --> 0:49:14.760
<v Speaker 1>was your what was it? What was the issue between

0:49:14.800 --> 0:49:17.640
<v Speaker 1>the two of you, Like after this incident, I mean, Jeremy,

0:49:17.680 --> 0:49:20.000
<v Speaker 1>you did not come forward as being the one to

0:49:21.000 --> 0:49:23.799
<v Speaker 1>have initiated it, so you guys kept being friendly with

0:49:23.840 --> 0:49:27.920
<v Speaker 1>each other. I think maybe I was mean to you

0:49:27.960 --> 0:49:30.719
<v Speaker 1>after that, like yacause I knew it was you, but

0:49:30.800 --> 0:49:33.160
<v Speaker 1>I was like, that group is like mean to me,

0:49:33.239 --> 0:49:36.239
<v Speaker 1>so I'm just like icing them all out. Yes, I

0:49:36.280 --> 0:49:39.160
<v Speaker 1>think that, like Sam, probably I had this idea that

0:49:39.200 --> 0:49:41.040
<v Speaker 1>I was closer inside of the group than I was,

0:49:42.200 --> 0:49:46.520
<v Speaker 1>and and I definitely felt like you were like forsona

0:49:46.640 --> 0:49:48.840
<v Speaker 1>on grata as well in some ways, because if I

0:49:48.880 --> 0:49:51.320
<v Speaker 1>became close to you, then that would give the group

0:49:51.320 --> 0:49:54.640
<v Speaker 1>more impetus to invite you back in or even to

0:49:54.760 --> 0:49:56.560
<v Speaker 1>see me in the same way that like I had

0:49:56.600 --> 0:49:59.160
<v Speaker 1>inspired them to see you potentially, which I guess they

0:49:59.160 --> 0:50:01.000
<v Speaker 1>already did since they were saying we should date. So

0:50:01.080 --> 0:50:08.719
<v Speaker 1>I guess I was pretty clock Um, this really is

0:50:08.800 --> 0:50:12.640
<v Speaker 1>just like this is like a microcosm of how gay

0:50:12.640 --> 0:50:16.440
<v Speaker 1>men destroy one another. And to offer a Marxist analysis,

0:50:16.600 --> 0:50:19.319
<v Speaker 1>if if the group of popular kids are literally like

0:50:19.480 --> 0:50:24.680
<v Speaker 1>the heteropatriarchy, it's like basically you are both doing violence

0:50:24.680 --> 0:50:28.040
<v Speaker 1>to each other and to yourselves in order to try

0:50:28.040 --> 0:50:31.800
<v Speaker 1>it in some way fit in or like make yourself

0:50:31.840 --> 0:50:33.520
<v Speaker 1>into a shape that is able to go into the

0:50:33.560 --> 0:50:39.040
<v Speaker 1>hole that is created for you. Yes, yeah, it was. Yeah.

0:50:39.080 --> 0:50:42.360
<v Speaker 1>There's also an interesting thing about, like it was weird

0:50:42.400 --> 0:50:45.799
<v Speaker 1>to see the people that were in that group, like

0:50:45.920 --> 0:50:48.200
<v Speaker 1>a few of them went to college with me, and

0:50:48.239 --> 0:50:51.719
<v Speaker 1>to see like the like they just have, like their

0:50:51.800 --> 0:50:54.480
<v Speaker 1>views change over the four Like you know, one year

0:50:54.480 --> 0:50:56.920
<v Speaker 1>into college and you're like, of course I love gay people,

0:50:57.200 --> 0:50:59.719
<v Speaker 1>and it's like, well, I actually remember you bullying me

0:51:00.120 --> 0:51:06.080
<v Speaker 1>um for being perceived as gay two years ago. Um,

0:51:06.120 --> 0:51:09.799
<v Speaker 1>So it was like extremely It's always weird that some

0:51:09.880 --> 0:51:13.040
<v Speaker 1>of them are now like Republican like partners to like

0:51:13.080 --> 0:51:17.640
<v Speaker 1>Republican candidates and stuff. Have you noticed that on facebooks?

0:51:17.719 --> 0:51:20.560
<v Speaker 1>Or do do you not really see it? I kind

0:51:20.600 --> 0:51:23.640
<v Speaker 1>of I'm out of contact with most of them. I'm

0:51:23.719 --> 0:51:25.600
<v Speaker 1>very much so as well, But sometimes I'll go and

0:51:25.600 --> 0:51:27.680
<v Speaker 1>do like weird name searches. I'm like, oh wait, you're

0:51:27.719 --> 0:51:31.880
<v Speaker 1>married to that kind of person. While yeah, there's a

0:51:31.920 --> 0:51:33.920
<v Speaker 1>few I like to keep up with on Facebook. Like

0:51:34.040 --> 0:51:36.000
<v Speaker 1>I don't ever comment on their things, but I like

0:51:36.080 --> 0:51:39.400
<v Speaker 1>to see what they're up to. I do feel like

0:51:39.560 --> 0:51:41.120
<v Speaker 1>I part of you someone to come on here is

0:51:41.120 --> 0:51:46.799
<v Speaker 1>to like publicly apologize for something that happened privately, UM,

0:51:46.840 --> 0:51:53.000
<v Speaker 1>because I feel I've held since that day, UM, in

0:51:53.760 --> 0:51:57.760
<v Speaker 1>that basement, I've held a lot of guilt around what

0:51:58.080 --> 0:52:01.399
<v Speaker 1>I said and how I said it, UM, and still

0:52:01.440 --> 0:52:04.560
<v Speaker 1>feel very confused about like the actual reason. Like I

0:52:04.560 --> 0:52:07.160
<v Speaker 1>can theorize what made those things come out of my

0:52:07.200 --> 0:52:08.600
<v Speaker 1>mouth and how they came out of my mouth, but

0:52:08.640 --> 0:52:12.959
<v Speaker 1>it doesn't excuse the fact that I, UM did something

0:52:13.000 --> 0:52:17.960
<v Speaker 1>that was really horrible to someone else. UM, And I yeah,

0:52:18.000 --> 0:52:27.080
<v Speaker 1>I'm very very sorry truly UM. Well because it's I'm yeah,

0:52:27.160 --> 0:52:30.200
<v Speaker 1>it's a really UM, it's a fucked up thing. And

0:52:30.200 --> 0:52:32.680
<v Speaker 1>like it's funny to laugh about it sometimes to myself

0:52:32.719 --> 0:52:35.080
<v Speaker 1>to think about the ways in which like I was

0:52:35.160 --> 0:52:39.600
<v Speaker 1>like a manipulative mean girl inside of like a group

0:52:39.680 --> 0:52:42.640
<v Speaker 1>that didn't want me in order to have some semblance

0:52:42.680 --> 0:52:46.719
<v Speaker 1>of like stability in my life, UM and how like.

0:52:47.160 --> 0:52:49.840
<v Speaker 1>But you know, it's it's like my life isn't a narrative,

0:52:49.840 --> 0:52:51.799
<v Speaker 1>it's not a movie. Like there's no reason to like,

0:52:52.600 --> 0:52:55.719
<v Speaker 1>um run away from it. When confronted with like a

0:52:55.760 --> 0:52:58.360
<v Speaker 1>person that I could have been very very good friends

0:52:58.400 --> 0:53:02.160
<v Speaker 1>with and could have been an ally with UM in adulthood,

0:53:02.320 --> 0:53:04.480
<v Speaker 1>just say like it's funked up for me. Got to

0:53:04.520 --> 0:53:10.479
<v Speaker 1>just say I am very sorry on the record, Well

0:53:10.640 --> 0:53:16.600
<v Speaker 1>you know that all has long been forgiven. Yeah, no,

0:53:16.719 --> 0:53:20.439
<v Speaker 1>it's okay, I I'm I'm Also it's a bummer because

0:53:20.480 --> 0:53:22.440
<v Speaker 1>I also remember how I felt then, and I remember

0:53:22.480 --> 0:53:25.840
<v Speaker 1>like feeling similarly like you know, you gotta like I

0:53:25.920 --> 0:53:28.759
<v Speaker 1>understood the social games and it was like, if I

0:53:28.800 --> 0:53:30.439
<v Speaker 1>am too close to Jeremy, that will be a red

0:53:30.440 --> 0:53:33.760
<v Speaker 1>flag to people, because if we're both the gay ones,

0:53:33.880 --> 0:53:37.359
<v Speaker 1>that's like gonna be bad. So I should like keep

0:53:37.400 --> 0:53:40.439
<v Speaker 1>him out in arms length. And uh so I also

0:53:40.560 --> 0:53:43.680
<v Speaker 1>feel bad about how, you know, we could have been

0:53:44.239 --> 0:53:48.919
<v Speaker 1>great friends and good allies to each other and it's

0:53:48.960 --> 0:53:53.960
<v Speaker 1>too bad that we couldn't be. It's, uh, it's the

0:53:54.440 --> 0:53:57.040
<v Speaker 1>that's that's what's growing up. But I don't know, growing

0:53:57.120 --> 0:54:00.280
<v Speaker 1>up in like fucking conservative places make you psych catty,

0:54:00.400 --> 0:54:04.839
<v Speaker 1>but also trauma builds character, you know, It's true. And

0:54:05.719 --> 0:54:14.879
<v Speaker 1>podcast damn drag me. Well they they also they like

0:54:15.000 --> 0:54:20.080
<v Speaker 1>it was they upheld their supremacy by uh preventing any

0:54:20.160 --> 0:54:22.440
<v Speaker 1>kind of solidarity between the two of you. That was

0:54:22.480 --> 0:54:27.960
<v Speaker 1>like a tool of the of the patriarchy. But you know,

0:54:28.040 --> 0:54:31.239
<v Speaker 1>I also it's with my analysis today, but I am.

0:54:31.360 --> 0:54:33.839
<v Speaker 1>I really am sticking to it. I think it's good

0:54:34.480 --> 0:54:37.239
<v Speaker 1>and it's you know, I think now it's it's been

0:54:37.680 --> 0:54:39.920
<v Speaker 1>long buried for the most part. I feel like that

0:54:39.960 --> 0:54:41.920
<v Speaker 1>time we ran into that diner, into each other in

0:54:41.960 --> 0:54:44.600
<v Speaker 1>that diner was like the beginning of like, you know,

0:54:45.000 --> 0:54:47.439
<v Speaker 1>at this point, like a decade long series of like

0:54:47.880 --> 0:54:50.080
<v Speaker 1>bumping into each other a few times a year at

0:54:50.120 --> 0:54:55.080
<v Speaker 1>weird gay cities and like being like, whoa, what have

0:54:55.160 --> 0:54:57.439
<v Speaker 1>you been up to? And our lives are just like

0:54:57.719 --> 0:55:02.919
<v Speaker 1>um constantly um in parallel in a weird way yum,

0:55:02.960 --> 0:55:05.359
<v Speaker 1>and it's it was. The second time I ran into

0:55:05.400 --> 0:55:09.239
<v Speaker 1>you was the night I started dating um, a bisexual

0:55:09.320 --> 0:55:13.840
<v Speaker 1>Russian um at like a weird um. I mean, I

0:55:13.880 --> 0:55:16.760
<v Speaker 1>don't think you had dinner. You really are a carry

0:55:17.880 --> 0:55:19.919
<v Speaker 1>but like it was like, really I am a carry, um.

0:55:20.239 --> 0:55:22.560
<v Speaker 1>But it was like it was really wild because like

0:55:22.600 --> 0:55:24.279
<v Speaker 1>we were on the street and then like I ran

0:55:24.320 --> 0:55:26.239
<v Speaker 1>into you and I was like freaking out because the

0:55:26.320 --> 0:55:28.719
<v Speaker 1>last time I run into you, I saw you like

0:55:28.960 --> 0:55:31.480
<v Speaker 1>any friendship we could have had explode in your eyes.

0:55:31.880 --> 0:55:33.200
<v Speaker 1>And then I run into you again in the middle

0:55:33.200 --> 0:55:35.920
<v Speaker 1>of like porch Wick at like four am, as like

0:55:36.000 --> 0:55:39.200
<v Speaker 1>I'm on Molly and you probably are as well. Um.

0:55:39.800 --> 0:55:41.640
<v Speaker 1>And then as I went back to this guy's house

0:55:41.640 --> 0:55:44.480
<v Speaker 1>who I thought was straight, Um, I was just like like,

0:55:44.520 --> 0:55:45.880
<v Speaker 1>oh my god, you don't believe it, like I did

0:55:45.920 --> 0:55:47.239
<v Speaker 1>this fund up thing and like blah blah blah, and

0:55:47.239 --> 0:55:48.920
<v Speaker 1>he was gay. I do want to step my dick

0:55:48.960 --> 0:55:53.160
<v Speaker 1>And then like that was how like that was like

0:55:53.200 --> 0:55:55.040
<v Speaker 1>I feel like every time I ran into you something

0:55:55.080 --> 0:55:57.000
<v Speaker 1>weird or would happen, if like some new weird thing

0:55:57.040 --> 0:56:01.080
<v Speaker 1>would happen. Um, so yeah, I mean the last time

0:56:01.120 --> 0:56:03.000
<v Speaker 1>we write we saw each other was on set and

0:56:03.000 --> 0:56:08.120
<v Speaker 1>you played my director in the TV show. It's true?

0:56:08.360 --> 0:56:14.880
<v Speaker 1>How fun? Can you believe? It? So weird? That's really

0:56:14.880 --> 0:56:18.880
<v Speaker 1>fucking weird. Wait, so I wonder about this, like have

0:56:19.080 --> 0:56:21.160
<v Speaker 1>you do you because I don't know if you like

0:56:21.239 --> 0:56:25.360
<v Speaker 1>see yourself as like, uh, someone who minds your past

0:56:25.600 --> 0:56:29.480
<v Speaker 1>for narratives, but like bringing it back to movie corner,

0:56:30.280 --> 0:56:35.399
<v Speaker 1>how would you shape that narrative of your childhood trauma? If?

0:56:35.520 --> 0:56:38.400
<v Speaker 1>And would I be an important character in it? Or

0:56:38.480 --> 0:56:41.239
<v Speaker 1>would like how would that? How would high school the

0:56:41.440 --> 0:56:48.120
<v Speaker 1>Sam Taggart movie it work for you? Would Francis McDormand

0:56:48.200 --> 0:56:53.120
<v Speaker 1>play Jeremy, that's a good question. I feel like the

0:56:53.200 --> 0:57:01.000
<v Speaker 1>movie honestly, the Martinsville, my Martinsville era, uh felt like,

0:57:02.280 --> 0:57:04.120
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, it's kind of a good coming of age.

0:57:04.200 --> 0:57:07.400
<v Speaker 1>Like I kind of needed like a bit of a

0:57:07.560 --> 0:57:12.520
<v Speaker 1>wake up call as to like, I don't like people

0:57:13.000 --> 0:57:16.480
<v Speaker 1>not liking you, Like I had kind of like hacked

0:57:16.880 --> 0:57:20.400
<v Speaker 1>like my way through like you know, social circles every

0:57:20.440 --> 0:57:22.400
<v Speaker 1>time we moved, and I was like this is like

0:57:22.480 --> 0:57:24.280
<v Speaker 1>I'm good at this. I'm good at this. And then

0:57:24.280 --> 0:57:27.920
<v Speaker 1>it was like, okay, what how do you respond when

0:57:27.960 --> 0:57:30.880
<v Speaker 1>you're failing? And it was like kind of a nice

0:57:31.240 --> 0:57:34.240
<v Speaker 1>um wake up call and taught me to like look

0:57:34.280 --> 0:57:39.480
<v Speaker 1>inward and like self rely and uh so I I

0:57:39.640 --> 0:57:42.600
<v Speaker 1>definitely like, yeah, I think I I think I grew

0:57:42.680 --> 0:57:46.760
<v Speaker 1>from it, and I think the movie would be about

0:57:46.880 --> 0:57:52.600
<v Speaker 1>that growth. Um. Not to sound um too lame, but

0:57:52.640 --> 0:57:56.320
<v Speaker 1>I remember feeling very proud of myself come like junior

0:57:56.400 --> 0:58:01.040
<v Speaker 1>year for being like well liked again, and I felt

0:58:01.120 --> 0:58:05.840
<v Speaker 1>very in control of myself and uh just like I

0:58:06.200 --> 0:58:09.000
<v Speaker 1>didn't like let those that like get me down really

0:58:09.520 --> 0:58:12.320
<v Speaker 1>were when you were well liked, do you feel like

0:58:12.400 --> 0:58:19.280
<v Speaker 1>you then there was pent up uh negativity and you

0:58:19.320 --> 0:58:24.360
<v Speaker 1>where you were like, now I want to bully someone? Um, No,

0:58:24.720 --> 0:58:28.720
<v Speaker 1>I don't think there was. Yeah, I maybe had like

0:58:30.040 --> 0:58:35.120
<v Speaker 1>maybe keeping everyone in arms length too much, but not

0:58:35.120 --> 0:58:39.680
<v Speaker 1>not wanting to bully people. Wait did you graduate at

0:58:39.680 --> 0:58:43.440
<v Speaker 1>Martinsville High School? I did? That is so crazy to me.

0:58:43.680 --> 0:58:47.120
<v Speaker 1>So it was literally just like deleted a part of me.

0:58:47.160 --> 0:58:50.000
<v Speaker 1>Also like did that act and then repressed it so

0:58:50.080 --> 0:58:52.760
<v Speaker 1>much that I just like changed the narrative and made

0:58:52.760 --> 0:58:55.080
<v Speaker 1>it so that you like fully moved towns when I

0:58:55.240 --> 0:58:59.280
<v Speaker 1>actually that like abscon did and like hit away in

0:58:59.280 --> 0:59:05.280
<v Speaker 1>the private school in the corner. Yeah, yeah, that's wild,

0:59:06.080 --> 0:59:08.320
<v Speaker 1>it really. I mean I have to say as someone

0:59:08.360 --> 0:59:10.120
<v Speaker 1>who you know moved to a different country when I

0:59:10.160 --> 0:59:14.440
<v Speaker 1>was like changes in If you go through any kind

0:59:14.440 --> 0:59:18.640
<v Speaker 1>of life change that coincides with puberty in anyway, you're fucked.

0:59:21.160 --> 0:59:26.320
<v Speaker 1>Even being static is like difficult enough. Did you did

0:59:26.640 --> 0:59:34.000
<v Speaker 1>you ever bully anyone? George? Um, let's see. I mean

0:59:34.720 --> 0:59:38.760
<v Speaker 1>I think I've talked about this before, but I I

0:59:38.800 --> 0:59:41.520
<v Speaker 1>think I was raised in a family were like joking

0:59:42.440 --> 0:59:45.080
<v Speaker 1>in almost a mean spirited way was a sign of affection,

0:59:45.720 --> 0:59:49.240
<v Speaker 1>and I think I did. I do think I unintentionally

0:59:49.320 --> 0:59:54.000
<v Speaker 1>believed people in ways. I didn't realize we're bullying because

0:59:54.080 --> 0:59:57.360
<v Speaker 1>I was like, I distinctly remember this one girl when

0:59:57.400 --> 0:59:59.720
<v Speaker 1>I was in This is when before we moved back

0:59:59.760 --> 1:00:01.560
<v Speaker 1>to so I was living in New Jersey who like

1:00:01.680 --> 1:00:06.000
<v Speaker 1>hated this one picture of herself, and I like, I

1:00:06.040 --> 1:00:07.680
<v Speaker 1>can't remember exactly what I did, but it was like

1:00:07.760 --> 1:00:10.120
<v Speaker 1>something along the lines of like printing out the picture

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<v Speaker 1>and showing it Like it was something where it was like, oh,

1:00:13.080 --> 1:00:15.320
<v Speaker 1>the joke is that she hates the picture and I'm

1:00:15.360 --> 1:00:18.560
<v Speaker 1>gonna like do something funny with it or like send

1:00:18.600 --> 1:00:20.920
<v Speaker 1>it to people or something. And in my mind I

1:00:20.960 --> 1:00:23.600
<v Speaker 1>thought she would feel like she was in on the joke,

1:00:23.760 --> 1:00:26.560
<v Speaker 1>but I was instead doing the most hurtful possible thing

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<v Speaker 1>to a girl, like literally a you know, twelve year

1:00:30.680 --> 1:00:33.400
<v Speaker 1>old girl who was like at the peak of insecurities

1:00:33.400 --> 1:00:36.880
<v Speaker 1>about her appearance. But I just and I'm sure if

1:00:36.880 --> 1:00:38.760
<v Speaker 1>someone did the simil a similar thing to me, I

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<v Speaker 1>would also be hurt. But I there was something about, like,

1:00:41.840 --> 1:00:43.680
<v Speaker 1>for instance, I was very fat growing up, and like

1:00:43.760 --> 1:00:46.800
<v Speaker 1>that was always a source of everyone in my family

1:00:46.800 --> 1:00:48.760
<v Speaker 1>would like joke about that, and I had to like

1:00:49.440 --> 1:00:52.360
<v Speaker 1>decide I am in on the joke. Otherwise because I

1:00:52.400 --> 1:00:54.440
<v Speaker 1>can't let it be a hurtful thing. I can't interpret

1:00:54.440 --> 1:00:57.920
<v Speaker 1>it it as people like being mean to me. It's like,

1:00:57.960 --> 1:01:00.000
<v Speaker 1>oh no, it's funny that I and then I would

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<v Speaker 1>start like joking about my weight in school at school,

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<v Speaker 1>and like I literally remember like at one point we

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<v Speaker 1>were it was some kind of like language exercise and

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<v Speaker 1>we were supposed to think of like three adjectives that

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<v Speaker 1>describe us, and one of mine was fat. And it's like,

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<v Speaker 1>but this was before like fat acceptance, Like it was

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<v Speaker 1>like a derogatory thing. And I was like, yep, this

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<v Speaker 1>is me reclaiming it. I'm reclaiming it. I'm reclaiming it

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<v Speaker 1>like no one else could whatever. And so I thought

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<v Speaker 1>that like that's how everyone thought. So I thought like

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<v Speaker 1>it was okay to make yeah. But so so, yes,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean I'm sure that was bullying, um in a sense.

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<v Speaker 1>And I think I did that a lot. I think

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<v Speaker 1>I like have a way of like seeing what people's

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<v Speaker 1>weaknesses are and thinking it's a form of intimacy to

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<v Speaker 1>point them out. Um. But but yes, I do think

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<v Speaker 1>I acted in ways that we're not good. Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>just think I mean I have to just rely on

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<v Speaker 1>the the you know, the old truism that hurt people,

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<v Speaker 1>hurt people literally about the same and I would, but

1:02:03.200 --> 1:02:05.640
<v Speaker 1>it is true. I mean, and I will just say

1:02:05.800 --> 1:02:10.640
<v Speaker 1>that like Sam had a preter natural like a sense

1:02:10.680 --> 1:02:13.560
<v Speaker 1>of light in his eyes. Um, when he showed up

1:02:13.560 --> 1:02:17.520
<v Speaker 1>at our school, and um, I felt like he had

1:02:17.640 --> 1:02:21.200
<v Speaker 1>so much light that it could it was fine to

1:02:21.200 --> 1:02:25.360
<v Speaker 1>try to dim a little bit, right, which is right.

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<v Speaker 1>But also that was my eye, um, because my eyes

1:02:29.040 --> 1:02:33.000
<v Speaker 1>were pitch black. Um, Sam should read our final segment.

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<v Speaker 1>I do. I mean, yeah, I think we should. This

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<v Speaker 1>has gone on with the second time for people like

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<v Speaker 1>is this how you make a bad podcast? Just like

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<v Speaker 1>this is where we went online and be like, hey,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry I heard you that one time. Should you

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<v Speaker 1>do with sequence of leads with ex boyfriends? We've done

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<v Speaker 1>one with literally someone who Sam hooked up with, who

1:02:54.200 --> 1:02:57.640
<v Speaker 1>is like in his words of Kinsey one married to

1:02:57.680 --> 1:03:00.960
<v Speaker 1>a woman, and we unpacked him hooking up with Sam

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<v Speaker 1>on the pod, which is honestly one of my favorite episodes.

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<v Speaker 1>I agree, And I think this as I mean, he's

1:03:07.600 --> 1:03:12.800
<v Speaker 1>like wild entanglements, it must be unpacked publicly. Yeah, well, George,

1:03:13.240 --> 1:03:15.000
<v Speaker 1>we're going to get someone for joy we need to

1:03:15.040 --> 1:03:17.000
<v Speaker 1>get someone for me because I do a little if

1:03:17.560 --> 1:03:21.720
<v Speaker 1>our intense sexual attraction to each other. So I my

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<v Speaker 1>first well not first memory of view, no, actually yes,

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<v Speaker 1>maybe first memory of you is in Fire Island. I

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<v Speaker 1>was wearing a a women's jumpsuit from Nords, from rack Um,

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<v Speaker 1>and I was I had had like I'm very much

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<v Speaker 1>a lightweight when it comes to anything other than alcohol,

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<v Speaker 1>and I had had like maybe a hit of a

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<v Speaker 1>vpen or something, and I was just like I was

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<v Speaker 1>like acting so mysterious and like sensual, and I was

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<v Speaker 1>just kind of like, oh hey, George, and I was

1:03:57.600 --> 1:04:01.000
<v Speaker 1>kind of like city I was. I was distinctly remember

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<v Speaker 1>thinking to myself, what I'm doing right now is giving

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<v Speaker 1>him of my attention like enough where like obviously I

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<v Speaker 1>we are having an interaction, but also like he knows

1:04:13.000 --> 1:04:15.000
<v Speaker 1>at any given point I could turn around and not

1:04:15.040 --> 1:04:20.000
<v Speaker 1>pay attention. Actually dynamic I need for any man all

1:04:20.040 --> 1:04:22.920
<v Speaker 1>head over heels in love. And to be fair, you

1:04:23.240 --> 1:04:27.200
<v Speaker 1>were like you were your energy was you were not

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<v Speaker 1>saying at our house, but you would like come through

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<v Speaker 1>whenever you would be, like you know, taking a break

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<v Speaker 1>from whatever else you were doing. And it was just

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<v Speaker 1>it was very much like I've been because my sister's doesn't.

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<v Speaker 1>We've been watching one division. It was very much the

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<v Speaker 1>character of Catherine Han, who's the neighbor You're like, you

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<v Speaker 1>just like would knock on the door and me like,

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<v Speaker 1>what's going on here? And I knew, you know, we

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<v Speaker 1>had mutual friends, and I knew who you were, and

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<v Speaker 1>I wanted to come across was cool, and I think

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<v Speaker 1>I almost overdid a twin extent where I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>oh hey, But I do remember very very clearly you

1:05:04.480 --> 1:05:07.320
<v Speaker 1>saying I had Leo energy, which I know I've mentioned

1:05:07.320 --> 1:05:10.520
<v Speaker 1>to you in the past. Yes, yes, yes, yes, you

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<v Speaker 1>also had great eyebrows and are an ethnic white. I

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<v Speaker 1>am an ethnic white, and I do. I have to

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<v Speaker 1>say one of the main parts of my life is

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<v Speaker 1>when I realized I needed to stop tweezing my eyebrows

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<v Speaker 1>because I'm stronger when I have my full eyebrows. And

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<v Speaker 1>I think it on Fire Island, anyone who's not like

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<v Speaker 1>a blonde white person is just like already getting pluses

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<v Speaker 1>in my book, Um, because there are so many people

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<v Speaker 1>who are like ethnic at all. To be an ethnic white,

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<v Speaker 1>it's like WHOA, So you're in the top tier of Fire.

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<v Speaker 1>Um it is. I mean what passes as ethnic on

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<v Speaker 1>Fire Island is depressing slow bar. I mean, I do

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<v Speaker 1>still want you to three in me and tell me

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<v Speaker 1>how much a freak you have in because I think

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<v Speaker 1>you have a little bit. I don't think I think

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<v Speaker 1>I have. You were half white and half black, in

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<v Speaker 1>certain context, I think they would believe you. In fact,

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<v Speaker 1>zo that was one of the things that Zoe asked

1:06:05.800 --> 1:06:08.080
<v Speaker 1>me when I did her show, was like people was

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<v Speaker 1>because people Alex English Ones told me he thought I

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<v Speaker 1>was half that I was mixed in some way, and

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<v Speaker 1>and Chili was sharp. I think I was with the

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<v Speaker 1>two of them, and they both said it. But I

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<v Speaker 1>think I wouldn't be surprised if I had like Middle

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<v Speaker 1>Eastern heritage. I think that's what it is. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>think it's I don't think it's black, but I don't black.

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<v Speaker 1>Would you feel more or less excited about your heritage? Um,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean I would feel more. I would be more

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<v Speaker 1>excited in the sense that like I had. Okay, so,

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<v Speaker 1>growing when I was living in America, I always thought

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<v Speaker 1>yes or no, no, But but I have. So here's

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<v Speaker 1>the context of this. I always thought when I was

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<v Speaker 1>in America that it was so cool in my young

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<v Speaker 1>mind that like people had heritage from all these different

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<v Speaker 1>places and all I could say was that I was

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<v Speaker 1>a Greek. So in that sense, it will be a

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<v Speaker 1>long delayed um what's the word gratification that like, oh

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<v Speaker 1>I have something interesting about me, I'm not just one thing. Um.

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<v Speaker 1>But overall, he would not be excited to be blacked. No,

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<v Speaker 1>I would, I will say, I will, I would. I know?

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<v Speaker 1>You know, what did you, Jeremy? Did you see this

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<v Speaker 1>person on Twitter that was like accused of this, right,

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<v Speaker 1>this like food writer was accused of flying about her

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<v Speaker 1>race and then she she was like, no, I've always

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<v Speaker 1>been open about being white. But then she spent like

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<v Speaker 1>forty eight hours like tweeting about how she was white,

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<v Speaker 1>and everyone's like I was like, we get Like it

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<v Speaker 1>was literally like, okay, I'm sorry this person said this

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<v Speaker 1>about you was uncalled for, but you also don't need

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<v Speaker 1>to spend forty eight hours being like I have always

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<v Speaker 1>been out but about being why. So that's why I hesitated,

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<v Speaker 1>because I was like, yes, it would be exciting, anything

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<v Speaker 1>would be exciting in terms of fighting out something of

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<v Speaker 1>my heritage. But I also can't be one of those

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<v Speaker 1>people that then discovers it and then suddenly it's like

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<v Speaker 1>holding a press conference where he identify his blood. Oh

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<v Speaker 1>my god, that would be so huge free though, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, well, you know, I mean, for me, one

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<v Speaker 1>of the most glamorous people is someone who is half Greek,

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<v Speaker 1>half black. Um Molina Matukas oh Mollina, because it's half

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<v Speaker 1>Greek half flack. I guess that makes sense with mud.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I'm sure there is. I'm sure it's not

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<v Speaker 1>exactly fifty fifty. But in my mind one of her

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<v Speaker 1>parents is mostly black and one of her parents is

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<v Speaker 1>mostly Greek or something, So that's I have the Greek like,

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<v Speaker 1>has Greek society really taking her on, like it's Queen

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<v Speaker 1>and Slin like played in all the movies. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know it's the new because remember how my

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<v Speaker 1>big fat Greek wedding is. Yes, in Greece, it's like

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<v Speaker 1>she is a goddess. Well, I'll see this. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>think Molina is at me of our Dallars level in

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<v Speaker 1>terms of reception from the Greek community. Um, I personally spearhead.

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<v Speaker 1>You should spearheaded with the Greek community. You go back

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<v Speaker 1>often like guys, we are really in the middle of

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<v Speaker 1>the culture right now. No, it's it's mind. New thing

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<v Speaker 1>is yeah, mine, new thing is that Queen and Slim

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<v Speaker 1>is a Greek movie tragedy. Yeah that's true. It's true.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, okay, film corners back. Um, wait, we have

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<v Speaker 1>to do our finals, like, okay, fine, this is by

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<v Speaker 1>far our longest. This is an I love it. Wait

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<v Speaker 1>okay j Our final segment is called Shoutouts, and it

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<v Speaker 1>is a tribute to one of the richest and most

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<v Speaker 1>kind of productive parts of straight culture, which is the

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<v Speaker 1>radio shout out. Imagine you're at TRL giving a shout

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<v Speaker 1>out to your boys and girls back home, um or

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<v Speaker 1>calling it. We'll Sam and I will do them first

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<v Speaker 1>and then and then you can go. So, um, you

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<v Speaker 1>know what, Sam, I'll this is truly UM. I have

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<v Speaker 1>nothing prepared, but I'm I'm going to go for it.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you ready? Yes, I'm ready. What's up, listeners. I

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<v Speaker 1>want to give a quick shout out to my younger self.

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<v Speaker 1>I've been thinking about you a lot during this episode,

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<v Speaker 1>and honey, you really were not working with much, but

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<v Speaker 1>you made it work. And now I'm out of place

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<v Speaker 1>where I'm maybe only six irredeemable and that is iconic

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<v Speaker 1>and not a lot of people can say that. And

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<v Speaker 1>I will keep working to make you proud, Um, and

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<v Speaker 1>I will, in your honor stop bullying people unintentionally. Um.

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<v Speaker 1>That was amazing. And that's also like the end of

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<v Speaker 1>every drag Race season, holding up the image of your

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<v Speaker 1>younger self. That's exactly what that was. Um okay, um,

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<v Speaker 1>what's up listeners. UM. I just want to give a

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<v Speaker 1>huge shout out to my blind optimism. I am, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>in one of the darkest times of my life, and

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<v Speaker 1>you know what, the sun was shining today and I

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<v Speaker 1>was like, whatever's gonna be fine? Like, I can't help

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<v Speaker 1>but think this summer is gonna rule. Spring is gonna

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<v Speaker 1>pop off soon, We're all gonna be vaccinated and making out.

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<v Speaker 1>I simply cannot wait. I think, money, friendship, love, everything

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<v Speaker 1>is gonna be um flowing everything coming about that. So

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<v Speaker 1>I love you, my blind optimism. I've never been wrong before. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I do my shout out. I do have to say

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<v Speaker 1>that last night I cried while watching We Did you Know?

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<v Speaker 1>Like I went down a YouTube hole with my roommate

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<v Speaker 1>and my friend Moses and I we we got on

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<v Speaker 1>Glee and I was like, happy that ever set Roses

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<v Speaker 1>Turn from Glee? Um, and they were like no, and

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<v Speaker 1>I who sings it? Kurt does And it's Kurt's turn

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<v Speaker 1>because it's about him. Actually this is important. Actually I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna give my shout out to this. Um okay, um,

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<v Speaker 1>hey guys, um, this is Jamio Harris here. I really

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<v Speaker 1>want to give a shout out to multiple things today,

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<v Speaker 1>fair stuff. I want to even shout out to Kurt

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<v Speaker 1>from Glue for living free in his subconscious and telling

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<v Speaker 1>his dad through the beauty of Sondheim and the song

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<v Speaker 1>Roses Turn that like maybe there was no way for

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<v Speaker 1>him to hide the fact that he was queer, and

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<v Speaker 1>maybe it was time for Kurt to take center stage

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<v Speaker 1>unlike Rachel Berry and actually seeing from his heart. Um

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<v Speaker 1>that was. And again I watched the last Sunday and

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<v Speaker 1>maybe me cry. Second up, I'm gonna give a shout

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<v Speaker 1>out to my like unerring sense of self preservation. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>I am a Slytherin, and I have to recognize that

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<v Speaker 1>being a Slytherin is the reason why I'm on a

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<v Speaker 1>podcast right now, is the reason I could afford my

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<v Speaker 1>rent right now, and it's the reason I didn't die

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<v Speaker 1>in Martins or Virginia. And although I hurt people along

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<v Speaker 1>the way, I am Gilder. That part of me existed, um,

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<v Speaker 1>because it got me here and able to apologize. I'm wow.

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<v Speaker 1>Um yeah, it's very powerful. And and the gleek you're

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<v Speaker 1>also holding your mic right up to your mouth and

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<v Speaker 1>it was distorting the sound. I mean, death grips found dead.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my goodness, I had to hold the mic. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>Jeremy found it, like and I think this is a

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<v Speaker 1>beautiful episode. It's so good. Thank you guys. So it

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<v Speaker 1>sounds crazy crazy, but it'll be good. It'll be good. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>Jeremy truly what a what an absolute delight. Yeah, thank

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<v Speaker 1>you so much for doing the pod. Thank you guys

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<v Speaker 1>for having me. Okay, I'm gonna go, my friends, how

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<v Speaker 1>do you feel? I feel good.