WEBVTT - 2001 with Sydnee Washington 0:00:02.160 --> 0:00:08.640 Comedian, whiter actress, podcaster, all around stand up lady and 0:00:08.800 --> 0:00:12.360 woman about town. Ladies and gentlemen, Please welcome to Sydney, 0:00:12.400 --> 0:00:13.400 Washington to the podcast. 0:00:14.520 --> 0:00:18.960 Thank you. You guys are in your professional bag right now. 0:00:19.440 --> 0:00:21.760 I love I am. 0:00:23.880 --> 0:00:24.079 Yeah. 0:00:24.120 --> 0:00:28.720 Yeah, you never really know what type of time we're 0:00:28.720 --> 0:00:30.520 going to be on at the top top, you. 0:00:30.520 --> 0:00:31.080 Know what I'm saying. 0:00:31.200 --> 0:00:33.800 And I like that, but I've never seen it. So, 0:00:34.320 --> 0:00:36.640 I mean, we're in the office right now. We're getting 0:00:36.680 --> 0:00:40.080 it done, getting it done. You take the year two 0:00:40.120 --> 0:00:46.519 thousand and one. Who are you in two thousand and one? 0:00:46.560 --> 0:00:48.600 We like to kind of get the guests to paint 0:00:48.640 --> 0:00:49.839 a little bit of a picture for us. 0:00:50.840 --> 0:00:54.040 Where were you? Who are you? I was in I 0:00:54.080 --> 0:00:56.319 was in high school and I was. 0:00:56.360 --> 0:00:59.440 Just just a young girl. 0:00:59.320 --> 0:01:00.720 Trying to figure herself out. 0:01:00.960 --> 0:01:04.640 I had just moved back to New York from California. 0:01:04.840 --> 0:01:08.759 I lived with senior citizens. I'm reintroduced with living with 0:01:08.800 --> 0:01:09.240 my mom. 0:01:09.360 --> 0:01:10.040 So that was hell. 0:01:11.400 --> 0:01:14.440 I was in a school where people were in Jordan's 0:01:14.520 --> 0:01:16.399 people were cool. They're Pele, you. 0:01:16.360 --> 0:01:20.560 Know, black, and so I too was black, but not 0:01:20.760 --> 0:01:21.520 cool black. 0:01:21.640 --> 0:01:25.800 You know. They were in their Sergio Valente, Yeah, very 0:01:25.880 --> 0:01:28.800 much so we're more so like hand me down, Montgomery 0:01:28.920 --> 0:01:29.679 Ward energy. 0:01:29.840 --> 0:01:39.039 Wow Wow, Okay, yes, freshman sophomore. I think I might 0:01:39.080 --> 0:01:41.120 have been freshman. 0:01:41.319 --> 0:01:44.920 Yeah, I would probably like a freshman freshman, yeah, because 0:01:44.959 --> 0:01:47.720 I graduated in two thousand and one High sand Yeah 0:01:47.800 --> 0:01:51.840 yeah yeah, but I got kept back but a couple 0:01:51.880 --> 0:01:56.520 of times, but I met it out and no one 0:01:56.600 --> 0:01:58.080 I got out. I got out that thing. 0:01:58.240 --> 0:01:59.000 What part of so. 0:01:59.000 --> 0:02:01.200 Were you living like Berkeley Oakland? Oakland? Oakland? I was 0:02:01.200 --> 0:02:03.200 an Oakland open okay, right, all right? 0:02:03.280 --> 0:02:07.920 With your grandparents, my great aunt and uncles, damn great 0:02:07.920 --> 0:02:09.400 aunties and uncles different. 0:02:09.639 --> 0:02:12.960 What was this transition living with like the average age 0:02:12.960 --> 0:02:15.760 of like sixty seven to now like living with your 0:02:15.760 --> 0:02:16.320 mom again. 0:02:17.240 --> 0:02:20.959 I mean, it's just so crazy because you know, senior 0:02:21.000 --> 0:02:24.959 citizens are so dated. They're not saying anything that we 0:02:25.160 --> 0:02:28.040 They're making references to like what like sharp as attack, 0:02:28.160 --> 0:02:28.960 Like I'm like. 0:02:29.120 --> 0:02:31.160 You didn't hear popular music until two thousand and one. 0:02:31.800 --> 0:02:35.000 I knew about the popular music, but I couldn't I 0:02:35.000 --> 0:02:36.960 couldn't get it on my own. I had to like 0:02:37.240 --> 0:02:39.959 be getting cassette tapes from my cousins and whatnot. 0:02:40.040 --> 0:02:42.720 So when I went to New York my brother had CDs. 0:02:42.840 --> 0:02:44.800 He had like a plethora of CD So I was 0:02:44.840 --> 0:02:47.600 this is my first time having a CD, having a 0:02:47.880 --> 0:02:48.200 you know. 0:02:48.240 --> 0:02:52.119 The big, the big like booklet with yeah zipper little 0:02:52.120 --> 0:02:52.760 plastic sheets. 0:02:53.000 --> 0:02:57.200 Yes, real collector of the arts and so yeah. 0:02:57.440 --> 0:02:59.320 I was trying to get in where I fit in, 0:02:59.360 --> 0:03:00.919 and I didn't fit in anywhere very much. 0:03:01.480 --> 0:03:03.840 It sounds kind of like a pivotal year in a 0:03:03.880 --> 0:03:04.720 lot of way street. 0:03:05.000 --> 0:03:06.520 Yes, it also moved. 0:03:06.960 --> 0:03:09.359 Couldn't have moved to New York at the worst time 0:03:09.520 --> 0:03:11.440 for that city, for this city. 0:03:11.560 --> 0:03:14.160 Yeah yeah, no, no, no, okay, wait, hold on, I'm wrong, Okay, 0:03:14.200 --> 0:03:17.000 So I was already in New York because I went 0:03:17.040 --> 0:03:17.720 to middle school. 0:03:17.960 --> 0:03:18.800 I went to middle school. 0:03:18.840 --> 0:03:21.920 I went to an alternative no, not alter. I went 0:03:21.960 --> 0:03:24.880 to a Jewish middle school in Greenwich Village. 0:03:25.120 --> 0:03:29.800 What kind of you curly qu ju or just you know, uh, 0:03:30.240 --> 0:03:31.960 just little yamaka. 0:03:31.680 --> 0:03:34.720 No regular New York City okay, so yamaka. 0:03:34.920 --> 0:03:37.920 Yeah, yeah, I went to bar Mitzvah's. 0:03:38.120 --> 0:03:41.880 I went to bat Mitza's. I knew me and a 0:03:42.040 --> 0:03:46.240 frank like this, ok yeah. 0:03:45.280 --> 0:03:47.560 All right, So why two thousand and one? It was, 0:03:47.880 --> 0:03:51.040 you know, like what drew you to this year? In 0:03:51.280 --> 0:03:54.920 uh what made you, you know, want to happen? In 0:03:55.000 --> 0:03:55.560 nine to eleven? 0:03:56.400 --> 0:03:57.080 It was packed. 0:03:57.200 --> 0:04:00.120 It was just so much was happening that year that 0:04:00.160 --> 0:04:03.200 it was like whoa, whoa, whoa, you're getting You're getting 0:04:03.280 --> 0:04:09.440 like whiplash with everything that's happening, and like music was amazing. 0:04:10.600 --> 0:04:14.440 Well at that time high school, sid I mean, I 0:04:14.520 --> 0:04:19.360 was listening to a lot of Aliyah because her Yes, 0:04:19.560 --> 0:04:22.080 I know, but I was like, because she had a 0:04:22.080 --> 0:04:24.880 new album coming out, I was listening to her first 0:04:24.920 --> 0:04:27.080 album a lot and was like addicted to that. 0:04:27.120 --> 0:04:27.560 And I was. 0:04:27.480 --> 0:04:32.440 Listening to TLC and obviously Biggie because I'm in New 0:04:32.520 --> 0:04:35.800 York City and so yeah, I was listening to all 0:04:35.839 --> 0:04:40.080 the cool stuff. But I just wasn't cool anything white. 0:04:40.520 --> 0:04:42.800 Nah No, not really, I was. I was trying to. 0:04:45.320 --> 0:04:47.000 I mean that was played in my middle school, but 0:04:47.040 --> 0:04:49.120 once I got to once I got to high school, 0:04:49.360 --> 0:04:51.320 I'm doing what the nigga's doing. 0:04:52.040 --> 0:04:59.840 You were trying to ingratiate yourself, That makes sense, she sho. 0:05:00.680 --> 0:05:00.880 Yes. 0:05:01.640 --> 0:05:04.919 Two thousand and one is the year that Aliyah died 0:05:05.200 --> 0:05:09.000 in that plane crash, which I feel like I remember 0:05:09.400 --> 0:05:12.040 being so devastating. 0:05:12.160 --> 0:05:14.320 It was like like you got home from school and 0:05:14.360 --> 0:05:16.640 it was like I remember my mom being like in 0:05:16.680 --> 0:05:19.520 the living room and being like Aliah died, and I'm. 0:05:19.400 --> 0:05:22.040 Like, yeah, no, I don't think it was no, no, no, 0:05:22.080 --> 0:05:23.960 this was late at night. It was it was late 0:05:23.960 --> 0:05:26.039 at night that the was. 0:05:26.080 --> 0:05:28.960 It was it overnight. I remember learning aboudy when I 0:05:28.960 --> 0:05:29.440 got home. 0:05:29.800 --> 0:05:31.479 Yeah, but like I don't I think it was on 0:05:31.520 --> 0:05:33.120 the weekend or something like that, but it was at 0:05:33.160 --> 0:05:36.360 a time that was like whoa. I was watching MTV 0:05:36.640 --> 0:05:38.160 and so the MTV news. 0:05:38.200 --> 0:05:41.720 It was breaking, breaking new. Yeah, it was breaking. It 0:05:41.760 --> 0:05:43.280 was I remember these. 0:05:43.080 --> 0:05:45.240 And we were just like no, no, no, there's no way. 0:05:45.440 --> 0:05:47.320 Because she had just been on one on six in Park, 0:05:47.839 --> 0:05:49.720 so her interview was that. I was like, no, no, no, 0:05:49.880 --> 0:05:51.400 there's there's no way that. 0:05:51.600 --> 0:05:55.520 And also that felt for some reason in this way 0:05:55.600 --> 0:05:57.720 that I didn't expect. 0:05:58.080 --> 0:05:59.200 Aliyah was like. 0:05:59.279 --> 0:06:05.960 A generational talent that I didn't know she was until 0:06:06.000 --> 0:06:09.479 she died. Like it wasn't like Biggy's death. It kind 0:06:09.480 --> 0:06:11.479 of was like that was amongst me and my friends. 0:06:11.720 --> 0:06:13.600 But when a Leah died, it was like my grandma 0:06:13.920 --> 0:06:16.000 was like that pretty girl died, you know what I mean. 0:06:16.040 --> 0:06:19.039 It was like everybody all of a sudden was affected 0:06:19.040 --> 0:06:20.400 and I was like, I didn't know my grandmother who 0:06:20.400 --> 0:06:21.120 Aliah was. 0:06:22.320 --> 0:06:24.880 When she died. It was like, oh, this was like 0:06:24.920 --> 0:06:26.400 a real blow to the black. 0:06:26.640 --> 0:06:28.719 Being beautiful really helpless if you die. 0:06:29.720 --> 0:06:32.599 Oh yeah, people really care when pretty people. 0:06:32.600 --> 0:06:36.280 But you know, I can't really substantiate this with like, 0:06:36.320 --> 0:06:39.720 you know, empirical data, but I feel like when you're beautiful. 0:06:41.600 --> 0:06:43.880 When pretty people die, it hurts them. 0:06:43.800 --> 0:06:47.240 When you ain't really been bringing it. Looks wise people be. 0:06:47.200 --> 0:06:50.960 Like, well, yeah, other people died, but it's like, but 0:06:50.960 --> 0:06:52.320 when pretty people died, it hurts. 0:06:52.320 --> 0:06:53.839 When pretty people die, it's like, damn. 0:06:54.000 --> 0:06:57.360 I don't want to be mean, but like Robin Williams 0:06:57.360 --> 0:07:00.599 wasn't the looker, and we were fucked up when he We're. 0:07:00.480 --> 0:07:04.040 Not saying that we can't be sad. We're not saying 0:07:04.080 --> 0:07:06.000 you can't be sad when an ugly person dies. I 0:07:06.000 --> 0:07:08.240 don't think that's what we're saying that we're saying that 0:07:08.279 --> 0:07:10.200 pretty has an impact on the sad. 0:07:11.640 --> 0:07:13.840 I was gonna say age because she was so young. 0:07:13.880 --> 0:07:15.680 She was young, she was so young, But if she 0:07:15.760 --> 0:07:18.720 was young and ugly, I don't know how heavy the 0:07:18.760 --> 0:07:19.360 morning would have. 0:07:19.320 --> 0:07:21.280 Been if she was like if she was like walking 0:07:21.320 --> 0:07:24.080 around with like two seconds of Ponytail and Ashley Feed 0:07:24.200 --> 0:07:24.640 every day. 0:07:24.760 --> 0:07:27.280 Yeah, that's real specific. Who are you talking about? They 0:07:27.280 --> 0:07:29.880 know who they are, Okay, so yeah. 0:07:30.000 --> 0:07:32.760 But also she was just having a big she was 0:07:32.800 --> 0:07:34.320 having a run because. 0:07:34.040 --> 0:07:41.200 She was in a movie Must Die and having a big. 0:07:41.000 --> 0:07:42.880 Yeah, she had this new album coming out. 0:07:43.040 --> 0:07:44.960 I mean, no, Alex, You're right when fine people die, 0:07:45.920 --> 0:07:48.000 because now I think, like remember when Romeo died from 0:07:48.000 --> 0:07:51.760 the Steve Harvey Show, because he was fine. 0:07:52.280 --> 0:07:54.320 It was fine, but also was just like it was 0:07:54.360 --> 0:07:57.280 just he was he was young too, Yeah, he was fine. 0:07:57.320 --> 0:07:57.480 Though. 0:07:57.480 --> 0:07:58.800 We don't like losing fine folks. 0:07:58.800 --> 0:08:01.360 We don't like Yeah, I think that's like do you 0:08:01.400 --> 0:08:03.600 think that's is they that specific to black people? 0:08:04.200 --> 0:08:05.400 I think it hits us hard. 0:08:05.400 --> 0:08:09.440 It hits us really hard. When like Alia's death was 0:08:09.480 --> 0:08:11.720 aweso on my thing. It was also on my thing. 0:08:14.560 --> 0:08:16.960 Yeah, I'm an impat so I don't care what you 0:08:17.000 --> 0:08:17.280 look like. 0:08:17.320 --> 0:08:19.600 I'm like, if you, if you change my life in 0:08:19.640 --> 0:08:21.040 any kind of way, I'm I'm in. 0:08:21.120 --> 0:08:23.360 All I'm saying is all of these caskets don't need 0:08:23.360 --> 0:08:23.800 to be open. 0:08:25.120 --> 0:08:26.360 Now. That's for everybody, though. 0:08:26.560 --> 0:08:28.920 I don't think that because I haven't seen somebody who 0:08:29.000 --> 0:08:32.240 was stunning in real life open casted like, oh wow, 0:08:32.280 --> 0:08:32.960 they still. 0:08:32.800 --> 0:08:34.599 Look I don't even when they was allowed with a 0:08:34.640 --> 0:08:36.800 little embalment fluid, it turns out. 0:08:38.400 --> 0:08:40.719 Alex what. 0:08:42.520 --> 0:08:44.720 But you know what I'm saying about, Like like like 0:08:45.000 --> 0:08:47.920 celebrity death, I think Alia was also for a lot 0:08:47.960 --> 0:08:48.920 of us, particularly me. 0:08:49.160 --> 0:08:50.679 You know, I was like I was in middle school 0:08:50.679 --> 0:08:54.079 when she died, and I think that, like. 0:08:55.880 --> 0:09:01.840 This was the first time I'd ever experienced like a 0:09:01.880 --> 0:09:08.160 celebrity that I felt a way about get taken away moves, 0:09:08.240 --> 0:09:10.559 you know what I mean. Like you hear about when 0:09:10.559 --> 0:09:12.760 you're and you're a kid, you hear about like famous 0:09:12.840 --> 0:09:15.080 musicians who used to you know who used to live 0:09:15.280 --> 0:09:16.360 and your parents know about that. 0:09:16.520 --> 0:09:18.760 But now it's like there's a whole generation of kids 0:09:18.800 --> 0:09:19.439 now who have no. 0:09:19.480 --> 0:09:23.280 Idea who who who Alijah was or who who's Selena 0:09:23.360 --> 0:09:25.280 another music But they don't Like there's a ton of 0:09:25.320 --> 0:09:27.400 kids out they're wearing Alida t shirts but were not 0:09:27.559 --> 0:09:28.200 around for when. 0:09:28.320 --> 0:09:31.040 Yeah, it was fun fact the lady from the T shirt. 0:09:31.080 --> 0:09:32.240 That's what they call it. They don't even call it 0:09:32.280 --> 0:09:32.760 a thing. 0:09:33.160 --> 0:09:35.600 Fun fact I lived in Harlem. I was on one 0:09:35.600 --> 0:09:37.680 for the th Lynx and the guy in my building 0:09:37.840 --> 0:09:42.880 worked for Rockefeller and I I would babysit his son sometimes, 0:09:43.120 --> 0:09:46.520 and so there was a park across the street where 0:09:46.520 --> 0:09:49.360 they would have basketball games and even like Rutgers and 0:09:49.440 --> 0:09:54.360 so at the time, Aliyah was dating Dame Dash which 0:09:54.640 --> 0:09:57.520 she was in the neighborhood a lot. So I was 0:09:57.559 --> 0:10:00.240 trying to catch her every time because I was like, 0:10:00.280 --> 0:10:04.240 I wanted to see her and yeah in real life, 0:10:04.679 --> 0:10:06.200 but I would go to the corners her and like, 0:10:06.200 --> 0:10:09.440 oh my god, Alea Lea like she was she was 0:10:09.520 --> 0:10:10.160 just here. 0:10:10.160 --> 0:10:10.400 You know. 0:10:10.520 --> 0:10:13.160 And so it was one of those moments where I 0:10:13.240 --> 0:10:16.480 was so close to meeting her. I was in proximity, 0:10:17.000 --> 0:10:20.040 and so it was one of those things where I 0:10:20.080 --> 0:10:21.520 was like, this is somebody. 0:10:21.200 --> 0:10:23.560 Who everybody wants to look like, they want to be like. 0:10:23.600 --> 0:10:25.839 She seemed like she was like dressed like she had 0:10:26.000 --> 0:10:28.160 it seemed like she had a good heart. And so 0:10:28.679 --> 0:10:30.880 that's another thing that we were affected by. 0:10:30.960 --> 0:10:32.480 It's just like you seem like she was just like 0:10:32.520 --> 0:10:37.400 a good gal. She seemed like a sweetheart. Yeah, soft spoken, yes. 0:10:37.640 --> 0:10:37.880 Yeah. 0:10:38.040 --> 0:10:42.480 The MTV Diaries fucked me up because like watching I 0:10:42.480 --> 0:10:45.680 mean this is when another thing for MTV, we really 0:10:45.800 --> 0:10:50.320 saw the perspective of the artists in their curated way, 0:10:50.720 --> 0:10:57.360 but not in such a like reality drama gardens. It 0:10:57.440 --> 0:11:00.600 was just like the sweetest moments of their artistry and 0:11:00.600 --> 0:11:03.080 how connected they were. And so that's another thing that 0:11:03.080 --> 0:11:06.920 made me be like damn, like I appreciate not only 0:11:07.240 --> 0:11:10.199 what she's doing for music, but just her and how 0:11:10.200 --> 0:11:11.000 she treats. 0:11:10.720 --> 0:11:11.840 The people that she works with. 0:11:11.960 --> 0:11:12.120 Yeah. 0:11:12.200 --> 0:11:13.280 Yeah, she just was sweet. 0:11:13.400 --> 0:11:17.240 Yeah, And it was like this is all very genuine yes, yeah, yeah, 0:11:17.280 --> 0:11:20.320 so like we lost like a rare soul. Yeah, like 0:11:20.520 --> 0:11:23.080 this type of person doesn't come along often from outside 0:11:23.120 --> 0:11:24.680 of the music and outside of all. 0:11:26.200 --> 0:11:27.280 Yeah yeah, yeah for sure. 0:11:27.400 --> 0:11:30.200 Only she was not murdered by her by. 0:11:32.200 --> 0:11:37.199 Someone who worked for her yet, well whoa, we don't 0:11:37.440 --> 0:11:38.280 don't let us down. 0:11:38.360 --> 0:11:41.320 There. 0:11:53.360 --> 0:11:56.640 Were you aware of the Star and Buck Wow controversy. 0:11:58.440 --> 0:12:01.480 Yeah, yeah, yeah, that's when radio was Radio Wing. 0:12:03.240 --> 0:12:08.480 Great immediately after they were on a Star while the 0:12:08.480 --> 0:12:12.160 first canceling, I want to think so because it. 0:12:12.240 --> 0:12:13.640 Was like McDonald's. 0:12:14.880 --> 0:12:20.440 Him immediately and so they said I think people always say. 0:12:20.240 --> 0:12:22.960 That there was no cancel. I think they still it's. 0:12:22.880 --> 0:12:25.199 Always been I mean Ellen got canceled when she came 0:12:25.240 --> 0:12:28.560 out to closet. It's always been like this, It's just 0:12:28.640 --> 0:12:30.760 not as hyper fixed as it is now because of 0:12:30.800 --> 0:12:31.280 the Internet. 0:12:31.320 --> 0:12:34.240 When I mean canceled culture, I mean like eleganting canceled 0:12:34.240 --> 0:12:36.280 because people hate gays is one thing. 0:12:36.120 --> 0:12:40.000 But I mean like when yeah, like that was for 0:12:40.080 --> 0:12:40.679 a bad joke. 0:12:40.760 --> 0:12:42.240 That was a bad joke, but also. 0:12:42.000 --> 0:12:44.280 They were tired of them because they were constantly doing 0:12:44.360 --> 0:12:48.480 things that was you know, unhinged and tacky at times. 0:12:48.520 --> 0:12:51.160 And it was different than it wasn't like Wendy was 0:12:52.280 --> 0:12:53.400 very savvy. 0:12:54.240 --> 0:12:56.240 Living in New York and living in New York. When 0:12:56.240 --> 0:12:58.840 Wendy Williams is live on the radio, because. 0:12:58.600 --> 0:13:01.640 We would get it in syndication, she. 0:13:01.679 --> 0:13:04.800 Was on with Whitney and Usher. We were just like 0:13:05.760 --> 0:13:11.319 this New York. It was so amazing energy. Everywhere you go, 0:13:11.679 --> 0:13:14.760 people like so authentic New York. Yes, yeah, it was. 0:13:14.760 --> 0:13:17.000 Like because I remember being in Boston and we were 0:13:17.080 --> 0:13:19.920 like feeding to get New York radio, Like we didn't 0:13:19.920 --> 0:13:21.120 even want to listen to our radio. 0:13:21.200 --> 0:13:23.000 We were like give us the. 0:13:25.320 --> 0:13:27.439 It was like New York was like a real pulse. 0:13:27.679 --> 0:13:30.440 It was in a way that I don't think it 0:13:30.480 --> 0:13:30.880 is now. 0:13:31.080 --> 0:13:35.839 No, culture was pretty much at its highest, especially with 0:13:36.480 --> 0:13:39.280 people who were authentically from New York. There were so 0:13:39.360 --> 0:13:42.080 many people that was representing that. You were like, I 0:13:42.120 --> 0:13:44.840 can see myself now You're like, I don't. 0:13:45.120 --> 0:13:47.120 It could be you could be anybody. You could be New. 0:13:47.080 --> 0:13:50.280 York but Wisconsin New York, or you can be you 0:13:50.320 --> 0:13:52.880 could be from I don't know, Nashville, but now you. 0:13:52.840 --> 0:13:56.040 And I saw somebody say on on Threesday the other 0:13:56.120 --> 0:14:01.360 day that the West Village looks like Michigan. Now I 0:14:01.400 --> 0:14:04.680 was like, damn that there there is certain parts of 0:14:04.679 --> 0:14:06.040 like suburban cities in Michigan. 0:14:06.080 --> 0:14:09.240 Are you are you figuring out you're gay or you're 0:14:09.280 --> 0:14:13.760 not dead. I'm not gay, lady in two thousand and one, 0:14:13.800 --> 0:14:18.679 either that Alex was gay in two thousand I let 0:14:18.880 --> 0:14:19.640 you love to rate. 0:14:20.000 --> 0:14:23.720 We can always hold up your head on sexuality. There 0:14:23.760 --> 0:14:29.960 is never any space. But my time, respect I was, 0:14:30.080 --> 0:14:30.800 I was, I. 0:14:30.720 --> 0:14:31.480 Was super straight. 0:14:31.680 --> 0:14:33.520 Yeah, I was very I was very straight. I mean 0:14:33.680 --> 0:14:35.240 I was sleeping in the bed with my mom. So 0:14:35.320 --> 0:14:36.640 there was no gay. 0:14:36.520 --> 0:14:38.040 Stuff in high school. 0:14:38.200 --> 0:14:43.200 Yes, we had a one bedroom apartment, okay, and yeah, 0:14:43.440 --> 0:14:46.000 but we just had a one bedroom and my my 0:14:46.240 --> 0:14:48.160 niece was living with us, so she's on the It 0:14:48.200 --> 0:14:50.480 was like packs, you know, like New York. 0:14:50.600 --> 0:14:52.600 There was no shame in Hey, we don't have all 0:14:52.640 --> 0:14:53.200 these rooms. 0:14:53.320 --> 0:14:55.640 So we have family and we're all gonna find us 0:14:55.760 --> 0:14:57.200 a spot to sleep in and that's it. 0:14:57.280 --> 0:14:59.760 And so yeah, I was sleeping with my mom. 0:15:00.080 --> 0:15:02.960 And obviously I'm not gay, but you know I would 0:15:03.160 --> 0:15:05.000 this is my time connecting with my mom. I want 0:15:05.040 --> 0:15:08.040 to cuddle, and she would be like, absolutely not. We 0:15:08.080 --> 0:15:10.840 are not in this one bedroom, not not in this bed. 0:15:11.200 --> 0:15:13.280 And so that's where I learned how to deal with 0:15:13.360 --> 0:15:14.200 people who were so. 0:15:15.720 --> 0:15:19.280 Uh like, emotionally unavailable. 0:15:19.920 --> 0:15:23.000 Yeah, just got deep. I'm sorry today it's got deep. 0:15:23.240 --> 0:15:24.560 Yeah I could, I just get. 0:15:26.480 --> 0:15:31.320 I'm like what I was throughout the year. What I. 0:15:34.320 --> 0:15:37.880 Sorry for sharing? First I was cast out and sent open. 0:15:38.640 --> 0:15:40.360 She's got like turn a story. 0:15:42.200 --> 0:15:43.800 The pillows between us, she didn't even want to touch. 0:15:44.320 --> 0:15:53.280 She didn't want to truly, I'm not lying, Precious, skinny, Precious, 0:15:53.320 --> 0:15:54.040 I deserve my. 0:15:56.320 --> 0:15:57.320 Story should be out there. 0:15:59.120 --> 0:16:02.840 Two thousand and one, Aliah, you said that you almost 0:16:02.920 --> 0:16:03.840 went to the funeral. 0:16:04.200 --> 0:16:08.400 Yes, it was at the legendary Frank E. Campbell funeral. 0:16:08.600 --> 0:16:12.920 Anybody who was anybody had their funeral there, and I 0:16:12.960 --> 0:16:17.120 mean because it was so open, like this is a 0:16:17.160 --> 0:16:18.440 public thing that's happening. 0:16:18.640 --> 0:16:19.840 People went to the memorial. 0:16:19.920 --> 0:16:22.640 But also you go to frank E first and they 0:16:22.640 --> 0:16:25.360 would bring the casket out and then they were doing 0:16:25.360 --> 0:16:26.440 a horse and carriage stuff. 0:16:26.520 --> 0:16:31.160 Remember, but I'm not getting all that if you're ugly, 0:16:31.440 --> 0:16:33.880 by the way, you're not getting you're not getting a 0:16:33.960 --> 0:16:36.280 horse and carriage. 0:16:37.640 --> 0:16:39.360 Well you're not getting that if you're poor. So that's 0:16:39.480 --> 0:16:41.760 I mean, that was mainly like she's a young princess. 0:16:41.880 --> 0:16:46.000 She's like baby girl, you know. So uh My mom 0:16:46.080 --> 0:16:48.080 was like it's gonna be too chaotic. You're not You're 0:16:48.120 --> 0:16:50.960 not going down there. This is just you're gonna you're 0:16:50.960 --> 0:16:53.400 staying so okay. 0:16:53.440 --> 0:16:55.520 So we took a point away from mom, and now 0:16:55.560 --> 0:16:57.360 we give mom a point, but she did. 0:16:57.560 --> 0:17:00.200 She wasn't attuction. She was a mother protection. But I 0:17:00.680 --> 0:17:01.360 got all. 0:17:01.200 --> 0:17:06.600 The newspaper clippings from like when the crash happened to 0:17:06.760 --> 0:17:10.159 like more updates about what happened with the plane and 0:17:10.480 --> 0:17:13.159 investigations and stuff, and then the funeral. So I was 0:17:13.200 --> 0:17:15.240 taking up all the clippings because I just was like. 0:17:15.320 --> 0:17:19.359 What you said you were a stand fan. 0:17:19.520 --> 0:17:21.199 I thought I was a fan, Okay, I thought I 0:17:21.200 --> 0:17:25.959 was maybe a stamp, but she was yeah, just like no, no, no, 0:17:26.000 --> 0:17:29.960 but you know, like yeah in that kind of way 0:17:30.680 --> 0:17:33.120 you had the word up magazine cut out. 0:17:33.440 --> 0:17:33.680 Yeah. 0:17:34.040 --> 0:17:37.919 I just was like, oh my god, like she was 0:17:38.600 --> 0:17:43.000 like gorgons. Also one in a million. 0:17:43.000 --> 0:17:45.199 It was when I was in elementary school, and so 0:17:45.320 --> 0:17:48.359 I saw her grow up from this tomboy and Tommy 0:17:48.400 --> 0:17:50.760 Hill figure. So now she's doing we need a resolution. 0:17:51.000 --> 0:17:54.840 She could dance, she's acting. She's just like Queen of 0:17:54.840 --> 0:17:55.200 the Damn. 0:17:55.359 --> 0:17:58.640 I was like spam. It was so explosive to I will. 0:17:58.720 --> 0:18:06.440 I will say though, given the antics that we've been 0:18:06.800 --> 0:18:11.360 exposed to by Dame dash as. 0:18:11.200 --> 0:18:18.040 Of late, it does make me question her taste in me. 0:18:18.880 --> 0:18:19.800 Well, you can't do that. 0:18:20.240 --> 0:18:22.679 I'm not trying to relitigate her. I'm not trying to 0:18:22.680 --> 0:18:25.480 open up any cases. I'm just like, if you think 0:18:25.520 --> 0:18:28.080 about her track record of men, well, this. 0:18:28.040 --> 0:18:34.560 Was the first look back at it, the. 0:18:34.400 --> 0:18:42.520 First one, the first one, isy. 0:18:39.840 --> 0:18:41.400 Right, So that was predatory. 0:18:41.600 --> 0:18:44.520 So if if you start off that way, you're you're 0:18:44.600 --> 0:18:45.800 kind of you're in hell. 0:18:46.320 --> 0:18:50.360 You're already you're already in here waters right. So Dame 0:18:50.440 --> 0:18:52.600 Dash was an attractive man back in the day. 0:18:53.200 --> 0:18:55.600 Never said that nearly. I always thought back in the 0:18:55.640 --> 0:18:57.919 day he was an attractive guy. He always looked like 0:18:58.920 --> 0:18:59.440 so it. 0:18:59.480 --> 0:19:03.960 Just that I would say, make this bleak jay Z. 0:19:04.640 --> 0:19:09.440 We got all of rough riders, Dragon, all those genuine 0:19:09.520 --> 0:19:12.720 all these real attractive men and hip hop and damn d. 0:19:13.080 --> 0:19:17.600 Simmy, what yeah, you do not put Dragon in that category. 0:19:18.600 --> 0:19:21.479 I mean girls, girls were not going up for Dragon. 0:19:22.840 --> 0:19:24.840 And this is how, this is how we know, this 0:19:24.880 --> 0:19:29.359 is how we noticed in these games, not Dragon. 0:19:30.800 --> 0:19:31.120