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Speaker 1: I don't want to make it about race. But that's

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Speaker 1: how the that's what the world showed me. Like, this

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Speaker 1: like if I'm feeding her McDonald's like instead of greens,

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Speaker 1: She asked me certain things, It's like how do I

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Speaker 1: It's always rough. But O D. D asked a lot

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Speaker 1: I believe it. I believe it. But something it's that

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Speaker 1: know and be like, you know, did I do something wrong?

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Speaker 1: Like you know what I'm saying, but it's like I

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Speaker 1: her mental health? It's deep, um see, like, yeah, I

427
00:23:52,640 --> 00:23:57,560
Speaker 1: don't know because I've struggled with it before and it's

428
00:23:57,600 --> 00:24:00,280
Speaker 1: not easy. It's really not even a like one it too,

429
00:24:01,119 --> 00:24:05,200
Speaker 1: you know, just really you gotta really really anything you're

430
00:24:05,200 --> 00:24:07,080
Speaker 1: saying in the sound cliche, but it be so real.

431
00:24:07,200 --> 00:24:10,320
Speaker 1: You could tell yo, protect your piece. It's sound cliche,

432
00:24:10,440 --> 00:24:12,720
Speaker 1: but it's really a real thing. Like you know what

433
00:24:12,760 --> 00:24:16,280
Speaker 1: I'm saying, everything right right, but it just sounds like

434
00:24:16,359 --> 00:24:20,840
Speaker 1: cliche sayings. But no, like you really gotta know yourself.

435
00:24:20,880 --> 00:24:23,879
Speaker 1: That's that's another thing. Be self aware. I feel like

436
00:24:24,680 --> 00:24:27,280
Speaker 1: throughout this whole pandemic, that has been like the number

437
00:24:27,280 --> 00:24:30,439
Speaker 1: one topic, like really knowing yourself right, right, and the

438
00:24:30,520 --> 00:24:32,680
Speaker 1: more self alway you are, I think of better decisions

439
00:24:32,720 --> 00:24:36,480
Speaker 1: you make so and you understand why you might be

440
00:24:36,520 --> 00:24:39,639
Speaker 1: making certain decisions right, And that's I really need her

441
00:24:39,680 --> 00:24:42,880
Speaker 1: to to be that way, Like I don't. I'm big

442
00:24:42,920 --> 00:24:47,760
Speaker 1: on like conversation, so like I'm gonna talk to every

443
00:24:47,800 --> 00:24:50,840
Speaker 1: time she do something, I'm gonna be like yo, right right,

444
00:24:50,840 --> 00:24:54,960
Speaker 1: even even to this day, like she jumped, she jumped

445
00:24:55,000 --> 00:24:56,919
Speaker 1: on top of me and sometimes and be hurting me

446
00:24:57,040 --> 00:24:58,639
Speaker 1: and I tell her like, yo, you're hurting me, and

447
00:24:58,680 --> 00:25:00,800
Speaker 1: she'll just keep doing that and actual, why are you

448
00:25:00,880 --> 00:25:03,720
Speaker 1: doing that? But she two years old, she do care.

449
00:25:04,400 --> 00:25:07,040
Speaker 1: She don't even want to answer, like yeah, like you

450
00:25:07,119 --> 00:25:09,800
Speaker 1: don't care, but these are this is the way I'm

451
00:25:09,800 --> 00:25:11,200
Speaker 1: gonna be well for the rest of your life because

452
00:25:11,200 --> 00:25:13,359
Speaker 1: I don't want to just be yelling at her. I

453
00:25:13,400 --> 00:25:16,480
Speaker 1: want I really want to understand her right and I

454
00:25:16,480 --> 00:25:19,879
Speaker 1: want her to understand herself. So world, that's really the

455
00:25:19,960 --> 00:25:23,800
Speaker 1: best way to talk to somebody, Like I said cliche things,

456
00:25:23,840 --> 00:25:26,960
Speaker 1: but even if it's your best friend and clade, your mom,

457
00:25:27,080 --> 00:25:29,840
Speaker 1: your dad, that's my best way to help with. Like,

458
00:25:30,080 --> 00:25:32,159
Speaker 1: you gotta get your thoughts out, you know how you

459
00:25:32,200 --> 00:25:34,960
Speaker 1: always say you can't hear what you never so Sun

460
00:25:35,119 --> 00:25:37,040
Speaker 1: is bothering you. We're such a big jay Z fast

461
00:25:38,240 --> 00:25:40,000
Speaker 1: to go through. I need jay Z to spons to

462
00:25:40,080 --> 00:25:45,400
Speaker 1: us man, because that's real. It's like, you know when

463
00:25:45,400 --> 00:25:47,520
Speaker 1: you be listening to certain jay Z songs, like one

464
00:25:47,560 --> 00:25:49,119
Speaker 1: of my favorite songs that you put me on was

465
00:25:49,200 --> 00:25:52,159
Speaker 1: Beach Chair, and it's just like yo, like the nigger

466
00:25:52,280 --> 00:25:54,719
Speaker 1: really be talking to you in the exact moment that

467
00:25:54,760 --> 00:25:57,080
Speaker 1: you really be going through. Like close your eyes. She

468
00:25:57,160 --> 00:26:00,280
Speaker 1: could let your heart guide you first, can't define You're

469
00:26:00,320 --> 00:26:04,520
Speaker 1: just like them. Lions is like deep and when you

470
00:26:04,600 --> 00:26:06,960
Speaker 1: first hear it's crazy. When you're young, you don't always

471
00:26:06,960 --> 00:26:09,480
Speaker 1: get you know, but then the older you get, you

472
00:26:09,560 --> 00:26:15,000
Speaker 1: start listening like yeah, deep talking that ship. And what

473
00:26:15,040 --> 00:26:17,760
Speaker 1: I learned too though is so ill. That's probably therapy

474
00:26:17,840 --> 00:26:22,040
Speaker 1: for him too, right, So it's like as much as

475
00:26:22,040 --> 00:26:25,800
Speaker 1: his therapy for us, he probably right right to get

476
00:26:25,840 --> 00:26:29,360
Speaker 1: all these things off his chests, to get these things

477
00:26:29,359 --> 00:26:32,080
Speaker 1: out about himself, because when you listen from beginning to end,

478
00:26:32,119 --> 00:26:36,760
Speaker 1: you see the all the maturation from reasonable doubt. You know,

479
00:26:37,080 --> 00:26:39,280
Speaker 1: volume want money, cash holes to be in a space

480
00:26:39,280 --> 00:26:41,679
Speaker 1: a like four four four and you just did an

481
00:26:41,680 --> 00:26:45,840
Speaker 1: album with your wife. It right, you're the same niggle

482
00:26:45,880 --> 00:26:54,800
Speaker 1: who told me like, um yeah, Like you're the same

483
00:26:54,880 --> 00:26:58,080
Speaker 1: nigga who told me it's never gonna happen was brought up,

484
00:26:58,119 --> 00:27:04,160
Speaker 1: I would act nonchalant, my friend. Yeah, you're the shame

485
00:27:04,200 --> 00:27:08,680
Speaker 1: nickel who told me that. Now you're talking about you know,

486
00:27:08,920 --> 00:27:14,000
Speaker 1: I don't care if the house burned down kids, right,

487
00:27:14,840 --> 00:27:16,600
Speaker 1: But I think that's the beauty of life. Like you

488
00:27:16,680 --> 00:27:19,480
Speaker 1: really be looking at people and I even think about

489
00:27:19,480 --> 00:27:22,760
Speaker 1: our friendship and just like the trajectory of it, and

490
00:27:22,800 --> 00:27:24,480
Speaker 1: you just really see the growthriend and you just be

491
00:27:24,560 --> 00:27:28,160
Speaker 1: like wow, Like life is really beautiful when you think

492
00:27:28,200 --> 00:27:31,960
Speaker 1: about it, Like everything seems so important in a moment.

493
00:27:32,480 --> 00:27:34,600
Speaker 1: But we was kids when we met when you really

494
00:27:34,640 --> 00:27:37,320
Speaker 1: think about it, like I think, I say't understand nothing, bro.

495
00:27:38,119 --> 00:27:40,400
Speaker 1: To get to a point where now like we're too

496
00:27:40,480 --> 00:27:44,240
Speaker 1: muture adults, like we got real intelligent deep conversations. Like

497
00:27:44,960 --> 00:27:46,560
Speaker 1: when we met, all I want to do is do

498
00:27:46,680 --> 00:27:48,920
Speaker 1: drills like you know what I'm saying. I was taking

499
00:27:48,920 --> 00:27:52,400
Speaker 1: care of my grandmother all timers at the time. Yea.

500
00:27:52,600 --> 00:27:56,080
Speaker 1: So it's like life is crazy, bro, But it's supposed

501
00:27:56,080 --> 00:27:58,000
Speaker 1: to be like that, Like it's supposed to be like this.

502
00:27:58,480 --> 00:28:04,640
Speaker 1: Now I need jay Z to sponsor to post word bro.

503
00:28:05,000 --> 00:28:12,520
Speaker 1: Yeah please, it's coming up definitely is um So Being

504
00:28:12,560 --> 00:28:14,080
Speaker 1: that you are close to your mom, what are some

505
00:28:14,160 --> 00:28:15,840
Speaker 1: things that you learned from her that you would pass

506
00:28:15,880 --> 00:28:19,280
Speaker 1: down to your daughter? Did your mom a real one?

507
00:28:19,840 --> 00:28:31,399
Speaker 1: A real one? Like I said, accountability like accountability, um, perseverance,

508
00:28:31,640 --> 00:28:35,400
Speaker 1: that's that's probably my mom's like biggest feet and being

509
00:28:35,440 --> 00:28:38,120
Speaker 1: self aware, Like my mom's just like very self aware,

510
00:28:38,320 --> 00:28:40,600
Speaker 1: like at this point of her like od self aware.

511
00:28:40,800 --> 00:28:44,000
Speaker 1: And that's really I'm telling you. If I could scream

512
00:28:44,040 --> 00:28:49,160
Speaker 1: that to everybody, it's so much, it's so important. It

513
00:28:49,280 --> 00:28:51,280
Speaker 1: make things so much easier to deal with when you

514
00:28:51,400 --> 00:28:54,280
Speaker 1: understand yourself, you know, then you could work on it.

515
00:28:54,560 --> 00:28:57,280
Speaker 1: You ever, like seeing somebody doing something wrong and you're

516
00:28:57,280 --> 00:28:59,600
Speaker 1: asking them why they can't even ask you, you know

517
00:28:59,640 --> 00:29:01,680
Speaker 1: what I'm saying it But if they were self aware,

518
00:29:01,760 --> 00:29:04,080
Speaker 1: they could work on that issue that they happen, you know.

519
00:29:04,160 --> 00:29:06,920
Speaker 1: But yeah, I would definitely pass that down to my daughter.

520
00:29:07,080 --> 00:29:10,080
Speaker 1: And you want one thing I love about my mom's

521
00:29:10,200 --> 00:29:13,720
Speaker 1: like I love loves his mom. You can listen, ladies,

522
00:29:13,720 --> 00:29:15,840
Speaker 1: you can tell a lot about the nigga and how

523
00:29:15,880 --> 00:29:18,840
Speaker 1: he treats his mom. Yeah. In fact fact, my mom's

524
00:29:18,880 --> 00:29:23,600
Speaker 1: just like, um, I don't want to say classy, that

525
00:29:23,680 --> 00:29:27,320
Speaker 1: might be a reach, but she like that's not saying

526
00:29:27,400 --> 00:29:30,360
Speaker 1: she's not classy, but that's not the exact action I'm

527
00:29:30,400 --> 00:29:33,280
Speaker 1: thinking about. It's like she just know how to like move,

528
00:29:33,360 --> 00:29:35,760
Speaker 1: and I feel like I get that so much from

529
00:29:35,760 --> 00:29:39,640
Speaker 1: Like she she's not too loud. She speaks when necessary,

530
00:29:39,720 --> 00:29:42,040
Speaker 1: but she ain't just speaking just to speak, like she

531
00:29:42,120 --> 00:29:44,760
Speaker 1: don't need a whole bunch of attentions on right, And

532
00:29:44,800 --> 00:29:47,120
Speaker 1: I love that about it, Like you know, she don't

533
00:29:47,120 --> 00:29:51,000
Speaker 1: go nowhere causing no scene, Like yeah, I like those

534
00:29:51,080 --> 00:29:54,320
Speaker 1: qualities because she never told me to be that way,

535
00:29:54,400 --> 00:29:58,080
Speaker 1: but I'm that way and maybe if I had rally parents,

536
00:29:58,120 --> 00:30:00,480
Speaker 1: i'd be always act a rally. But like my mom

537
00:30:00,600 --> 00:30:03,560
Speaker 1: is just like she got like even kill kind of personality.

538
00:30:03,680 --> 00:30:06,720
Speaker 1: Something she's like tripping some when she bad to give

539
00:30:07,480 --> 00:30:09,680
Speaker 1: for the most part, she's like, yeah, you even kill

540
00:30:09,520 --> 00:30:11,800
Speaker 1: all the way across the board. But I don't even

541
00:30:11,800 --> 00:30:13,600
Speaker 1: know if I would give that to my daughter, you know,

542
00:30:13,680 --> 00:30:17,840
Speaker 1: because I don't mind my daughter being like super expressive.

543
00:30:17,880 --> 00:30:19,280
Speaker 1: Like I don't look at that as the worst thing

544
00:30:19,280 --> 00:30:21,600
Speaker 1: in the world. Like I think that's wrong with that either, right, Like,

545
00:30:21,680 --> 00:30:23,440
Speaker 1: look at somebody who do shout a lot. Look at

546
00:30:23,520 --> 00:30:32,400
Speaker 1: Kanye Like this is not a pay advertising, but I

547
00:30:32,560 --> 00:30:34,760
Speaker 1: fok with Kanye, Like, even though I don't always agree

548
00:30:34,800 --> 00:30:37,520
Speaker 1: with him, you need people like that in the world

549
00:30:37,560 --> 00:30:40,480
Speaker 1: to just express even when they're wrong. They might be

550
00:30:40,520 --> 00:30:47,360
Speaker 1: wrong a lot, but just express yourself, right right, right? Um,

551
00:30:47,400 --> 00:30:51,120
Speaker 1: So you are an avid supporter of the podcast The

552
00:30:51,320 --> 00:30:58,400
Speaker 1: Greatest Podcast, Bro. That's not a pay advertising. No, he

553
00:30:58,520 --> 00:31:02,560
Speaker 1: really supports me with the podcast. Man. I had many dreams, y'all,

554
00:31:07,360 --> 00:31:10,640
Speaker 1: but I would say, of all my dreams, this is it, y'all.

555
00:31:11,320 --> 00:31:12,840
Speaker 1: I know that this is gonna take me where I

556
00:31:12,840 --> 00:31:14,800
Speaker 1: got to get to. But but this is one of

557
00:31:14,840 --> 00:31:17,200
Speaker 1: my biggest supporters. He always hold me down and just

558
00:31:17,240 --> 00:31:19,160
Speaker 1: like uplift me and he has seen me in my

559
00:31:19,280 --> 00:31:22,280
Speaker 1: worst time. So like we both know that this is

560
00:31:22,280 --> 00:31:25,880
Speaker 1: it for me. So but you aren't having support of

561
00:31:25,920 --> 00:31:27,960
Speaker 1: the podcast. And one of the things that we always

562
00:31:27,960 --> 00:31:30,560
Speaker 1: talked about as conversation as you would have with your

563
00:31:30,600 --> 00:31:37,160
Speaker 1: daughter on dating, Yeah, but what are some things you

564
00:31:37,160 --> 00:31:39,840
Speaker 1: would tell her about dating? Because We've got a long

565
00:31:39,960 --> 00:31:45,360
Speaker 1: conversation about the sexual AsSalt episode, right, And this is

566
00:31:45,400 --> 00:31:47,959
Speaker 1: the thing, Like, this is how no I changed as

567
00:31:47,960 --> 00:31:50,720
Speaker 1: a person because and I just and I love my

568
00:31:50,800 --> 00:31:54,400
Speaker 1: daughters so much because everything I see and hear about women,

569
00:31:54,560 --> 00:31:57,680
Speaker 1: immediately think that could be my daughter one day, you know,

570
00:31:57,720 --> 00:32:05,360
Speaker 1: when she's older. And as far as dating goals, um,

571
00:32:05,520 --> 00:32:07,920
Speaker 1: like I said, I think who I am today, I

572
00:32:07,920 --> 00:32:11,560
Speaker 1: would just give her a leash, you know, to make mistakes,

573
00:32:11,600 --> 00:32:15,320
Speaker 1: maybe date the wrong guy or girl. But like whatever

574
00:32:15,360 --> 00:32:17,800
Speaker 1: she wants to do, Like the way I look at

575
00:32:17,800 --> 00:32:21,000
Speaker 1: it is that I just love her, like and I'm

576
00:32:21,000 --> 00:32:23,880
Speaker 1: gonna love her whatever decision she makes. And I want

577
00:32:23,880 --> 00:32:26,640
Speaker 1: her to know that, like, you know, don't be afraid

578
00:32:26,640 --> 00:32:28,160
Speaker 1: to come to me. I'm just here to guide you.

579
00:32:28,440 --> 00:32:31,720
Speaker 1: If you're doing something wrong or something that's harmful to yourself,

580
00:32:31,760 --> 00:32:34,400
Speaker 1: even if it's dating the wrong guy, I'm gonna let

581
00:32:34,400 --> 00:32:36,400
Speaker 1: you know. But you still might carry that out. You

582
00:32:36,480 --> 00:32:38,440
Speaker 1: might be someone love that you carry it out. But

583
00:32:38,800 --> 00:32:40,200
Speaker 1: I just want her to know that I'm here. I

584
00:32:40,240 --> 00:32:43,280
Speaker 1: don't think I would give her like too much advice.

585
00:32:43,280 --> 00:32:46,240
Speaker 1: He'll probably depend on situations, Like you know, I played

586
00:32:46,280 --> 00:32:48,400
Speaker 1: the game. So if I see a pattern in something

587
00:32:48,760 --> 00:32:51,120
Speaker 1: that somebody young doing that I did, I'm gonna just

588
00:32:51,160 --> 00:32:53,760
Speaker 1: tell her, like, you know, right right, this is part

589
00:32:53,800 --> 00:32:55,680
Speaker 1: of the game, and it's all right if you fall

590
00:32:55,720 --> 00:33:01,200
Speaker 1: for it, because sometimes you like somebody so much, right right,

591
00:33:01,280 --> 00:33:03,280
Speaker 1: and I get it, you know, So I'm not gonna

592
00:33:03,360 --> 00:33:05,880
Speaker 1: hit it like gonna slan the her like oh you're stupid,

593
00:33:06,240 --> 00:33:10,280
Speaker 1: you know this guy's doing like I'm not gonna yeah,

594
00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:12,080
Speaker 1: And I don't think that's the right way. I think

595
00:33:13,160 --> 00:33:15,920
Speaker 1: I didn't like it. Kids usually kind of straight away,

596
00:33:16,080 --> 00:33:19,120
Speaker 1: like when you start acting like that towards them. So yeah,

597
00:33:19,440 --> 00:33:21,200
Speaker 1: and you know what's crazy. I heard jay Z said

598
00:33:21,200 --> 00:33:24,800
Speaker 1: this too, like that his mom that his mom's did

599
00:33:24,800 --> 00:33:28,400
Speaker 1: this for him, like you know, when they asked about him,

600
00:33:28,400 --> 00:33:30,760
Speaker 1: like how like why is he the person he is,

601
00:33:30,960 --> 00:33:33,440
Speaker 1: and he always say, like, my mom gave me a

602
00:33:33,440 --> 00:33:36,640
Speaker 1: long leash to like find myself, to make my mistakes

603
00:33:36,720 --> 00:33:39,080
Speaker 1: and to be this person. And I think that's how

604
00:33:39,080 --> 00:33:40,640
Speaker 1: I want the parent. You know. I don't want to

605
00:33:40,640 --> 00:33:43,240
Speaker 1: be so strict. I don't want to always have to

606
00:33:43,280 --> 00:33:44,959
Speaker 1: discipline you. I don't want you to look at me

607
00:33:45,040 --> 00:33:48,000
Speaker 1: like I'm like some drill sergeant because I'm not. I'm

608
00:33:48,000 --> 00:33:50,040
Speaker 1: really just here to guard you. And I want you

609
00:33:50,120 --> 00:33:53,160
Speaker 1: to understand that I'm still figuring it out too, you

610
00:33:53,160 --> 00:33:55,840
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. So if we got that open relationship,

611
00:33:56,400 --> 00:33:59,360
Speaker 1: I think Daton, you know, that might be the least

612
00:33:59,800 --> 00:34:01,160
Speaker 1: you worries. You know what I'm saying. I don't want

613
00:34:01,200 --> 00:34:02,880
Speaker 1: you to get caught up with the wrong guy, of course,

614
00:34:02,920 --> 00:34:05,360
Speaker 1: but that's something we could talk through a hundred times,

615
00:34:05,440 --> 00:34:08,480
Speaker 1: you know. And I'm gonna be there. No, I'm not

616
00:34:08,520 --> 00:34:19,080
Speaker 1: fighting's something young nigger like what my even tell if

617
00:34:19,120 --> 00:34:20,799
Speaker 1: he if he put his hands on it, then that's

618
00:34:20,800 --> 00:34:25,319
Speaker 1: something different. But yeah, but I'm not just out here

619
00:34:25,360 --> 00:34:27,799
Speaker 1: fighting young niggas for breaking hearts like I did it.

620
00:34:28,239 --> 00:34:31,480
Speaker 1: I get it part of the game. But yeah, no,

621
00:34:31,560 --> 00:34:33,440
Speaker 1: I would hate to like get whooped out by young

622
00:34:33,520 --> 00:34:39,680
Speaker 1: niggas right right now. Imagine you know, as a kid,

623
00:34:39,760 --> 00:34:41,879
Speaker 1: you think your parent is the toughest person in the world.

624
00:34:41,880 --> 00:34:44,640
Speaker 1: Imagine she might stop listening to people. I tell her

625
00:34:44,640 --> 00:34:49,440
Speaker 1: the group out of here, right right right? What is

626
00:34:49,520 --> 00:34:52,160
Speaker 1: she gay? And a dyke sucked me up? She did

627
00:34:52,239 --> 00:34:55,239
Speaker 1: some seven foot day, right, I mean, like, no, I'm

628
00:34:55,239 --> 00:34:59,279
Speaker 1: not just gonna be kick a little nickers asses. Ye know,

629
00:34:59,320 --> 00:35:03,160
Speaker 1: if you get your you see a baby boy you

630
00:35:03,239 --> 00:35:07,439
Speaker 1: got drugs like he don't, little digger that's you're walking

631
00:35:07,520 --> 00:35:09,120
Speaker 1: up with your trip. You see four little niggers on

632
00:35:09,160 --> 00:35:11,800
Speaker 1: the bite, one of them here for your daughter, and

633
00:35:11,880 --> 00:35:13,560
Speaker 1: you're like, now you ain't doing this and they can

634
00:35:13,640 --> 00:35:17,200
Speaker 1: store me out in front of my crim Guy calling

635
00:35:17,239 --> 00:35:27,719
Speaker 1: the cops. I'm calling the cops. Guy, What would you

636
00:35:27,760 --> 00:35:32,560
Speaker 1: teach your daughter about self love? It's everything everything, And

637
00:35:33,000 --> 00:35:34,799
Speaker 1: you know what I had to learn about self love,

638
00:35:35,000 --> 00:35:40,359
Speaker 1: like even the negatives, like like love that ship, work

639
00:35:40,440 --> 00:35:42,200
Speaker 1: on it. But understand this is just a part of

640
00:35:42,239 --> 00:35:44,520
Speaker 1: who you are. Maybe it's just for the time, you know,

641
00:35:44,640 --> 00:35:47,920
Speaker 1: But embrace that ship too, like embrace it, learn it,

642
00:35:48,280 --> 00:35:50,920
Speaker 1: try to be better. And somethings are just who you are.

643
00:35:51,040 --> 00:35:53,080
Speaker 1: But you have to love. You have to have that,

644
00:35:53,280 --> 00:35:56,719
Speaker 1: like you have to especially being black and being a

645
00:35:56,760 --> 00:36:00,480
Speaker 1: black woman. And because I don't know what her profession

646
00:36:00,560 --> 00:36:01,880
Speaker 1: might be, but I know when you get into a

647
00:36:02,000 --> 00:36:04,960
Speaker 1: certain world, a corporate world, it's a lot of things.

648
00:36:05,080 --> 00:36:08,160
Speaker 1: That is a lot of powers that's gonna work against

649
00:36:08,160 --> 00:36:13,080
Speaker 1: you because you're blacking you a woman twice as hard, right, right,

650
00:36:13,160 --> 00:36:14,839
Speaker 1: But imagine if you don't have self love and you're

651
00:36:14,840 --> 00:36:17,439
Speaker 1: working twice that's all you're always gonna doubt it. So yeah,

652
00:36:17,560 --> 00:36:20,920
Speaker 1: that's syndrome kicking. Right. I always gonna feel like you're

653
00:36:20,920 --> 00:36:22,680
Speaker 1: not good enough. Like it's just always gonna be that

654
00:36:22,760 --> 00:36:26,120
Speaker 1: feeling question right right, And that's something I need her

655
00:36:26,120 --> 00:36:28,040
Speaker 1: to know. I need her to feel like you know,

656
00:36:28,080 --> 00:36:29,480
Speaker 1: I tell you, I do it all the time, like

657
00:36:30,360 --> 00:36:32,640
Speaker 1: like you're the greatest in the world and everything you

658
00:36:32,680 --> 00:36:36,000
Speaker 1: were genius. Like she's obsessed with you. I'm obsessed with

659
00:36:36,600 --> 00:36:38,520
Speaker 1: video was speaking food. I was like, this look kind

660
00:36:38,520 --> 00:36:43,120
Speaker 1: of romantic. That's my dog. That's my dog. Where she

661
00:36:43,360 --> 00:36:48,880
Speaker 1: um yeah, yeah, like I want her to like um

662
00:36:49,840 --> 00:36:51,520
Speaker 1: Like I don't even allow people to tell that she's

663
00:36:51,560 --> 00:36:55,560
Speaker 1: bad nothing, like yeah, she's just a little misunderstood that's all.

664
00:36:55,760 --> 00:36:58,200
Speaker 1: Like she ain't bad, Like you know, I don't say

665
00:36:58,320 --> 00:36:59,840
Speaker 1: negative things, but I don't want her to think that

666
00:37:00,040 --> 00:37:02,600
Speaker 1: the things about herself, you know, So I always just

667
00:37:02,680 --> 00:37:04,799
Speaker 1: tell her like like I said, I asked. I really

668
00:37:04,840 --> 00:37:07,560
Speaker 1: try to have conversation. And sometimes I'll be bugged out

669
00:37:07,560 --> 00:37:09,200
Speaker 1: because I'm speaking to a two year old and it's

670
00:37:09,280 --> 00:37:11,719
Speaker 1: like she didn't even cover handed with him. Actually she

671
00:37:11,800 --> 00:37:14,040
Speaker 1: don't care. She want to watch car tools. But I

672
00:37:14,200 --> 00:37:18,000
Speaker 1: just always want to have that open line of communication,

673
00:37:18,200 --> 00:37:20,000
Speaker 1: Like you know, I'm not here to just beat you

674
00:37:20,120 --> 00:37:22,520
Speaker 1: every time you do something wrong, you know. So yeah,

675
00:37:22,600 --> 00:37:25,719
Speaker 1: that's that's a big deal for me. Like self love

676
00:37:25,840 --> 00:37:28,560
Speaker 1: is like I don't know how you really instill that

677
00:37:28,640 --> 00:37:32,799
Speaker 1: in another person, but I know I will try my best. Um,

678
00:37:33,239 --> 00:37:36,439
Speaker 1: did you have any fears raising the daughter? Oh yeah,

679
00:37:36,760 --> 00:37:39,640
Speaker 1: raising the child period, raising the child period, Like you'd

680
00:37:39,640 --> 00:37:43,759
Speaker 1: be scared. Um. I never told nobody this, right, but

681
00:37:43,920 --> 00:37:49,200
Speaker 1: one time I was visiting my mom, like and like you,

682
00:37:51,239 --> 00:37:54,520
Speaker 1: I'm just wild, you know, I'm a little, um irresponsible.

683
00:37:54,800 --> 00:37:59,640
Speaker 1: So yeah, I don't know, And the fan was on.

684
00:38:00,160 --> 00:38:02,319
Speaker 1: She was like three months and I like threw up

685
00:38:02,360 --> 00:38:04,719
Speaker 1: in the airshow was at the fin right, like it

686
00:38:04,760 --> 00:38:06,520
Speaker 1: would be little things like that I think about to

687
00:38:06,640 --> 00:38:09,040
Speaker 1: this day, like, Yo, maybe could have been out of

688
00:38:09,080 --> 00:38:12,120
Speaker 1: here bro already. Like but it's like little things like that,

689
00:38:12,320 --> 00:38:14,600
Speaker 1: Like so just every little fit, like when you get

690
00:38:14,640 --> 00:38:17,080
Speaker 1: a cold, you're hoping the cold is not too strong.

691
00:38:17,160 --> 00:38:19,040
Speaker 1: Where she got to go to the highschool. Just mad

692
00:38:19,160 --> 00:38:24,680
Speaker 1: things that I always think about was my mom and

693
00:38:24,800 --> 00:38:27,120
Speaker 1: my baby. But luckily, like like I said, she didn't

694
00:38:27,160 --> 00:38:29,160
Speaker 1: hit the fan. But if I would have pushed a

695
00:38:29,320 --> 00:38:38,120
Speaker 1: little bit higher, man, imagine seeing it, Yeah, like the mother,

696
00:38:38,239 --> 00:38:41,279
Speaker 1: you're chilling your mom, just black and out. Yeah, I

697
00:38:41,320 --> 00:38:45,280
Speaker 1: wouldn't never heard the end of that ship. I always

698
00:38:45,360 --> 00:38:47,320
Speaker 1: think about that, like, damn, you don't even know. You

699
00:38:47,400 --> 00:38:51,520
Speaker 1: might not even made it this father. I always think

700
00:38:51,560 --> 00:38:55,719
Speaker 1: about that ship. Bro. Oh man, it's a lot of fits. Though.

701
00:38:55,719 --> 00:38:58,560
Speaker 1: It's a lot of fits, like then think about the

702
00:38:58,640 --> 00:39:00,680
Speaker 1: feel like when they get to a point and you

703
00:39:00,760 --> 00:39:02,279
Speaker 1: gotta send them out in the world. I only got

704
00:39:02,360 --> 00:39:05,439
Speaker 1: a tweel. But imagine when she's thirteen and she want

705
00:39:05,480 --> 00:39:08,160
Speaker 1: to walk to school by herself, and let's say she

706
00:39:08,200 --> 00:39:10,560
Speaker 1: don't come back home. It's always especially the way the

707
00:39:10,640 --> 00:39:13,520
Speaker 1: world is today, man, I'd be feeling little things about

708
00:39:13,560 --> 00:39:16,880
Speaker 1: her getting into a fight and somebody recording it and

709
00:39:17,040 --> 00:39:19,439
Speaker 1: she and her asked, like you know what I'm saying,

710
00:39:19,600 --> 00:39:21,440
Speaker 1: even her winning, Like I just don't want her to

711
00:39:21,760 --> 00:39:24,840
Speaker 1: be exposed that way. But just the world we live in,

712
00:39:24,920 --> 00:39:27,520
Speaker 1: so it's it's a lot of fits. But you gotta,

713
00:39:28,080 --> 00:39:30,960
Speaker 1: like I said, trust yourself, trust your parents, and just

714
00:39:31,120 --> 00:39:33,440
Speaker 1: trust that you're doing the right thing. That's it. Have

715
00:39:33,600 --> 00:39:37,279
Speaker 1: the police brutality with the whole Brianna Taylor and say

716
00:39:37,320 --> 00:39:39,680
Speaker 1: her Name movement that has that been bothering you to

717
00:39:41,400 --> 00:39:43,400
Speaker 1: let me keep it Genea, Like, I don't really know

718
00:39:43,480 --> 00:39:46,239
Speaker 1: a lot about the briannest he. I just know they

719
00:39:46,360 --> 00:39:48,200
Speaker 1: ran up in her crib and they killed her. The

720
00:39:48,280 --> 00:39:51,200
Speaker 1: whole like say her Name thing. I don't really I

721
00:39:51,320 --> 00:39:54,279
Speaker 1: feel like they're protesting because I think the officers haven't

722
00:39:54,280 --> 00:39:58,080
Speaker 1: been arrested. They haven't, right, right, So that makes sense.

723
00:39:58,160 --> 00:40:00,840
Speaker 1: But as far as like what it has to do

724
00:40:00,920 --> 00:40:02,920
Speaker 1: with my daughter, I don't really think about things like that,

725
00:40:03,120 --> 00:40:08,440
Speaker 1: Like right, like I said, it's always gonna be um,

726
00:40:10,200 --> 00:40:12,600
Speaker 1: it's always gonna be like some type of fear, like

727
00:40:13,040 --> 00:40:14,840
Speaker 1: you know, like I said, I hear things like that,

728
00:40:14,880 --> 00:40:16,839
Speaker 1: and I just hope that's never my daughter, Like she's

729
00:40:16,840 --> 00:40:20,759
Speaker 1: never in that situation. But think about being black, bro,

730
00:40:20,920 --> 00:40:23,200
Speaker 1: Like you can't even avoid that ship, Like you could

731
00:40:23,200 --> 00:40:29,040
Speaker 1: be a crib just chilling like you right, Like it's crazy. Bro.

732
00:40:29,239 --> 00:40:32,399
Speaker 1: You just hope, you just hope that you never pick

733
00:40:32,520 --> 00:40:34,560
Speaker 1: up your phone and get a story like that about

734
00:40:34,600 --> 00:40:37,839
Speaker 1: somebody you love. Like, but it's hard, Bro, it's hard.

735
00:40:38,320 --> 00:40:42,840
Speaker 1: That's why I need her and any children child to

736
00:40:42,920 --> 00:40:45,400
Speaker 1: have after, to have that pride like you have to

737
00:40:45,920 --> 00:40:48,120
Speaker 1: because know that every day you're risk in your life

738
00:40:48,160 --> 00:40:50,600
Speaker 1: just because of the color of skin, Like you don't

739
00:40:50,640 --> 00:40:55,479
Speaker 1: even control that. Like I like, it's crazy. I didn't

740
00:40:55,480 --> 00:40:57,600
Speaker 1: ask to be black, Like you know what I'm saying,

741
00:40:57,680 --> 00:40:59,400
Speaker 1: Like I just was born this way and I love it.

742
00:40:59,800 --> 00:41:03,720
Speaker 1: But there's a risk every day, every single day. It's crazy.

743
00:41:04,480 --> 00:41:06,080
Speaker 1: What is one thing that you want your daughter to

744
00:41:06,120 --> 00:41:10,080
Speaker 1: know about you as she gets older, Um, that I

745
00:41:10,200 --> 00:41:14,640
Speaker 1: was a word, that I was a g every every time,

746
00:41:14,880 --> 00:41:17,239
Speaker 1: Like now, I just want to know I was a

747
00:41:17,320 --> 00:41:22,279
Speaker 1: real person, like like no faking it, like caring, but

748
00:41:22,719 --> 00:41:25,239
Speaker 1: I funked up. I funked up a lot, and I

749
00:41:25,360 --> 00:41:28,200
Speaker 1: want her to like understand, like because you know, as kids,

750
00:41:28,239 --> 00:41:30,600
Speaker 1: you look at your parents as these figures, you don't think, Oh,

751
00:41:31,080 --> 00:41:33,040
Speaker 1: they really are human and they suck up, like and

752
00:41:33,080 --> 00:41:35,040
Speaker 1: then when they suck up, you'd be so mad at them.

753
00:41:35,080 --> 00:41:37,840
Speaker 1: But it's like you're just a person like and I

754
00:41:37,920 --> 00:41:40,759
Speaker 1: want her to understand that, Like, you know, I love her,

755
00:41:41,239 --> 00:41:43,880
Speaker 1: I care about it, but I have done things that

756
00:41:44,120 --> 00:41:48,640
Speaker 1: haven't always like been the best. Like don't that's one

757
00:41:48,680 --> 00:41:50,399
Speaker 1: thing I want people to start doing to like it's

758
00:41:50,400 --> 00:41:52,400
Speaker 1: the right to make mistakes. Don't think that this is

759
00:41:52,480 --> 00:41:55,480
Speaker 1: your character, you know what I'm saying, Like sometimes you

760
00:41:55,600 --> 00:41:58,480
Speaker 1: do things that's not that don't go with your character,

761
00:41:58,680 --> 00:42:00,799
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Like it I want her

762
00:42:00,840 --> 00:42:02,960
Speaker 1: to know like he was just real, Like he was

763
00:42:03,000 --> 00:42:07,400
Speaker 1: real in his wrongs and he was really in his rights. Ye.

764
00:42:07,640 --> 00:42:10,040
Speaker 1: Now she's gonna listen to this. She's gonna have to.

765
00:42:10,239 --> 00:42:12,040
Speaker 1: She ain't gonna have a choice. I'm gonna make her.

766
00:42:13,560 --> 00:42:15,800
Speaker 1: How do you feel about men not being active in

767
00:42:15,880 --> 00:42:19,719
Speaker 1: their kids lives? My take on that is different from

768
00:42:19,760 --> 00:42:21,239
Speaker 1: what it used to be. I used to hate it, right,

769
00:42:21,400 --> 00:42:25,800
Speaker 1: especially because I grew up without mine, But um, raising

770
00:42:25,840 --> 00:42:28,799
Speaker 1: a kid on a daily basis, I'm not gonna say

771
00:42:29,320 --> 00:42:32,560
Speaker 1: I'm giving it a pass, but I understand, Like it's

772
00:42:32,600 --> 00:42:35,000
Speaker 1: really not easy. And then there's so many other factors

773
00:42:35,080 --> 00:42:37,480
Speaker 1: into it, like maybe you don't get along with the mom,

774
00:42:37,640 --> 00:42:39,640
Speaker 1: maybe the mom don't let you see the kid, or

775
00:42:39,800 --> 00:42:42,080
Speaker 1: maybe the mom will let you see the kid but

776
00:42:42,160 --> 00:42:44,160
Speaker 1: jot him for for so long that you just checked out,

777
00:42:44,360 --> 00:42:46,680
Speaker 1: like you just over it at this point, Like it

778
00:42:46,760 --> 00:42:49,520
Speaker 1: could be so many factors. So I don't like it.

779
00:42:49,920 --> 00:42:52,560
Speaker 1: I wouldn't want that for no kid, but I understand.

780
00:42:52,840 --> 00:42:55,480
Speaker 1: You know, I'm not pacifying it, but I understand. And

781
00:42:55,560 --> 00:42:58,879
Speaker 1: that's all it's about. Like let me before I even

782
00:42:58,920 --> 00:43:01,759
Speaker 1: get big and your kids to me, Like, let me

783
00:43:02,200 --> 00:43:04,880
Speaker 1: reiterate that, like it's just empathy, Like I get it.

784
00:43:05,000 --> 00:43:07,200
Speaker 1: I'm not saying it's right, but I get it, Like

785
00:43:07,800 --> 00:43:10,120
Speaker 1: it's not. This is like one of the hardest things

786
00:43:10,160 --> 00:43:12,080
Speaker 1: I've ever had to do in my life. Like I

787
00:43:12,160 --> 00:43:14,919
Speaker 1: got to raise a whole another person. That's not easy.

788
00:43:15,000 --> 00:43:17,560
Speaker 1: Everybody some people not equipped to take care of hisself.

789
00:43:17,840 --> 00:43:19,880
Speaker 1: So how I'm gonna take care of somebody else? Right?

790
00:43:20,400 --> 00:43:24,640
Speaker 1: And even with that, I wish every parent is in

791
00:43:24,719 --> 00:43:28,800
Speaker 1: their kids lives. But even if you grow without, sometimes

792
00:43:28,840 --> 00:43:31,160
Speaker 1: you got to see the blessing in that too, as

793
00:43:31,239 --> 00:43:33,359
Speaker 1: a as a kid, like, well, as a kid, you're

794
00:43:33,360 --> 00:43:35,839
Speaker 1: not gonna get it, but at right at some point,

795
00:43:36,719 --> 00:43:38,840
Speaker 1: because I remember I used to be like, if I

796
00:43:38,920 --> 00:43:40,840
Speaker 1: had a dad, I'd be like this this, But what

797
00:43:40,920 --> 00:43:43,040
Speaker 1: if my dad is a dickhead? Like what if I

798
00:43:43,160 --> 00:43:45,400
Speaker 1: have a dad and he's like an idiot, like or

799
00:43:45,520 --> 00:43:47,680
Speaker 1: he just don't teach me nothing, like you know, so

800
00:43:48,719 --> 00:43:50,680
Speaker 1: everything in life you got to just find a blessing

801
00:43:50,760 --> 00:43:53,320
Speaker 1: in it, right right. I don't know about that. The

802
00:43:53,320 --> 00:43:55,040
Speaker 1: only day I was talking to my friend and I

803
00:43:55,200 --> 00:43:57,080
Speaker 1: was telling him some stuff about I went through as

804
00:43:57,120 --> 00:43:59,239
Speaker 1: a child, and I was like, you know, if these

805
00:43:59,239 --> 00:44:00,960
Speaker 1: probably would have been doing if I would have had

806
00:44:01,000 --> 00:44:02,520
Speaker 1: my father. But I was like, then again, I would

807
00:44:02,520 --> 00:44:04,160
Speaker 1: have had my father, who's the same, things would have

808
00:44:04,160 --> 00:44:07,160
Speaker 1: been different for the good, right right. You never know

809
00:44:07,280 --> 00:44:11,800
Speaker 1: who these people might be. And even though every single

810
00:44:11,920 --> 00:44:13,759
Speaker 1: person and everybody don't know how to deal with him.

811
00:44:14,680 --> 00:44:17,719
Speaker 1: I remember listening to one of the episodes. I might

812
00:44:17,760 --> 00:44:23,000
Speaker 1: be off with the situation, but I think a girl

813
00:44:23,200 --> 00:44:26,160
Speaker 1: was saying how she was living with her uncle or

814
00:44:26,239 --> 00:44:29,239
Speaker 1: her father, and he came in the room and tried

815
00:44:29,320 --> 00:44:31,719
Speaker 1: to do somewhere you know, you know which one it was.

816
00:44:31,760 --> 00:44:34,560
Speaker 1: Her father, though I think it was uncle, right, But

817
00:44:34,680 --> 00:44:36,920
Speaker 1: just think about these are people who supposed to protect you. Now,

818
00:44:37,120 --> 00:44:39,439
Speaker 1: what if you know it's a kid out there wishing

819
00:44:39,480 --> 00:44:41,799
Speaker 1: you had a father right now? What if your father

820
00:44:41,920 --> 00:44:45,040
Speaker 1: is a sexual Yeah, like you know what I'm saying, Like,

821
00:44:45,280 --> 00:44:48,080
Speaker 1: what if his his demons just can't make him decipher

822
00:44:48,160 --> 00:44:50,279
Speaker 1: that you his kids over you a piece of meat?

823
00:44:50,400 --> 00:44:53,479
Speaker 1: Like you know. So it's like, yeah, like we wish,

824
00:44:53,719 --> 00:44:55,560
Speaker 1: we all want to have our parents, and I really

825
00:44:55,600 --> 00:45:00,160
Speaker 1: do think that we should. But think about God be

826
00:45:00,239 --> 00:45:03,200
Speaker 1: God just don't want that for us, you know what

827
00:45:03,239 --> 00:45:05,440
Speaker 1: I'm saying, Like, maybe God want us to have to

828
00:45:05,480 --> 00:45:08,560
Speaker 1: go through these things, or maybe He's saved us from something.

829
00:45:08,719 --> 00:45:10,680
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Like, because even what you're

830
00:45:10,719 --> 00:45:13,640
Speaker 1: just saying that, think about your pops, imagine really having

831
00:45:15,160 --> 00:45:18,320
Speaker 1: That's what I'm saying. No, I agree. I mean I

832
00:45:18,440 --> 00:45:21,279
Speaker 1: think now I'm at an age that I just made

833
00:45:21,400 --> 00:45:24,080
Speaker 1: peaceful a lot of things, and I always think like, y'all,

834
00:45:24,800 --> 00:45:27,359
Speaker 1: you just don't know where things could have went if

835
00:45:27,360 --> 00:45:28,719
Speaker 1: you would have had the things that you thought you

836
00:45:28,840 --> 00:45:31,320
Speaker 1: needed right right, And the thing is that's something I

837
00:45:31,400 --> 00:45:34,239
Speaker 1: think about. Two, I got everything I really needed you

838
00:45:34,280 --> 00:45:36,640
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, everything else is excess. I didn't

839
00:45:36,680 --> 00:45:39,480
Speaker 1: have a father, but maybe I didn't need it, you

840
00:45:39,560 --> 00:45:43,399
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like that's excess. Um what would

841
00:45:43,440 --> 00:45:46,799
Speaker 1: you like to leave behind as your legacy for your daughter? Um?

842
00:45:48,680 --> 00:45:51,600
Speaker 1: Your real nigga? Yeah, I really want my daughter to

843
00:45:51,680 --> 00:45:53,279
Speaker 1: be like And when I say that, I want her

844
00:45:53,320 --> 00:45:56,200
Speaker 1: to be like I want her to funk with people, bro,

845
00:45:56,400 --> 00:45:58,920
Speaker 1: Like that's really a big deal for me. Like like

846
00:45:59,040 --> 00:46:01,000
Speaker 1: even when were walking down a block, I tell her, like,

847
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Speaker 1: I know it's like scary, so like you don't always

848
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Speaker 1: want your kids to be super friendly, But I can't

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Speaker 1: even help that show. I'd be like, you'll say how

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Speaker 1: to everybody? Anybody would say use yeah, and that's how

851
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Speaker 1: I want to be. Good morning, How how are you? Like,

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Speaker 1: maybe people will take advantage of niceness, but that's gonna

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Speaker 1: happen in life for goals, But that's all about you

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Speaker 1: being set aware, right right, And I want her to

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Speaker 1: be that. I don't want her to like not funk

856
00:46:25,080 --> 00:46:27,640
Speaker 1: with people. You know how people just walk around like attitudes.

857
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Speaker 1: I don't want to like speak to people. I don't

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Speaker 1: ever want her to be that. Like, I want her

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Speaker 1: to be up the people, Like I don't want you

860
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Speaker 1: to feel like like you're not a part of these people,

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Speaker 1: Like don't look at them as like, yeah, you might

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Speaker 1: have differences, but we all human beings before any other

863
00:46:41,880 --> 00:46:43,399
Speaker 1: thing with human beings, and I want you to really

864
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Speaker 1: treat people like that, you know what I'm saying, Love

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Speaker 1: yours first, always like I'm still on milcael next time,

866
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Speaker 1: like love yours before, you love the rest, but still

867
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Speaker 1: like funk with the people. That's the biggest, Like I'm

868
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Speaker 1: not gonna die with a million dollars, you know what

869
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Speaker 1: I'm saying. I'm not gonna die like some rich person.

870
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Speaker 1: But I feel like I'm rich in personality. I'm rich

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Speaker 1: in other ways and the spirit, and that's the that's

872
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Speaker 1: probably the best richness you can have. That's the best

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Speaker 1: riches you can ever be provided in life. And that's

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Speaker 1: what I want her to know. Like you could chase

875
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Speaker 1: all that other ship, but home is really his home

876
00:47:17,600 --> 00:47:21,200
Speaker 1: is really right. Home is really in the wall. Like

877
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Speaker 1: so you can have a lot of money, you can

878
00:47:23,360 --> 00:47:25,279
Speaker 1: have a lot of boyfriends, you can have a lot

879
00:47:25,360 --> 00:47:29,799
Speaker 1: of girlfriends, whatever, whatever it is, but funk with the people.

880
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Speaker 1: Relate to the people. Like you know what I'm saying,

881
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Speaker 1: treat the people well, like be of them, like beyond,

882
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Speaker 1: be a leader like things like that. Like it's it's hard.

883
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Speaker 1: It's hard, like even saying being a leader when I

884
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Speaker 1: think about it, it's hard because influences everywhere, you know,

885
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Speaker 1: But try to stand on your own to be a

886
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Speaker 1: real nigger holding down for real, for real. Well, I

887
00:47:54,840 --> 00:47:57,080
Speaker 1: think this was an amazing episode. What do you think

888
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Speaker 1: with it? I think you did what you're gonna talk about.

889
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Speaker 1: I mean, did he got bad remixes? Well? Now, I

890
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Speaker 1: was just gonna say so because I always stayed throughout

891
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Speaker 1: the podcast, how use my worst boardfriendever because this was

892
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Speaker 1: my first boyfriend when I moved to U New York.

893
00:48:20,719 --> 00:48:23,839
Speaker 1: But all jokes outside, you know, my guests has really

894
00:48:23,880 --> 00:48:26,160
Speaker 1: been there for me through like some of my lowest,

895
00:48:26,600 --> 00:48:32,640
Speaker 1: darkest times, y'all. Like yeah, so you know, it just

896
00:48:32,840 --> 00:48:36,960
Speaker 1: really makes me appreciative of our friendship, our growth. Like

897
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Speaker 1: you know, I think it's very um important to both

898
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Speaker 1: of us that, you know, when we do get into

899
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Speaker 1: like serious relationships and our partners have to like accept

900
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Speaker 1: our friendship and stuff. But you know, this is like

901
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Speaker 1: this is family. That's how I look at ain't even friendship.

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00:48:51,600 --> 00:48:55,360
Speaker 1: It's not friendship like my brother what you know, just

903
00:48:55,440 --> 00:49:01,279
Speaker 1: be like my brother. I know, were not even know that. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I don't even even tell people like we date it

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Speaker 1: like that ship is. Now you're my cousin. We just

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Speaker 1: met leading like, but you my cousin. But you know,

907
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Speaker 1: I have seen my guests, you know, grow from a

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Speaker 1: boy to a man and to a father, and I'm

909
00:49:20,160 --> 00:49:22,680
Speaker 1: just like really proud of your growth. And I think

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Speaker 1: your daughter is like the luckiest girl to have yester

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Speaker 1: a lot, I mean a lot. Thank you, thank so.

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Speaker 1: If y'all have any questions, comments, concerns, Oh, my guests,

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Speaker 1: you're singing right, shout out to the PhD community. I

914
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Speaker 1: love y'all, man, thank you, you know, keep you holding

915
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Speaker 1: me down the hood. Then to listen to the podcast

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Speaker 1: Facts Facts Fact ladies, Ladies, listen to that what Nickels

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Speaker 1: Joints one. That's one of my favorite joints work. But

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Speaker 1: if y'all have any questions, comments are concerns, I want

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Speaker 1: to say, hey girl, hey nigga, stay at my d

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Speaker 1: m U hit me up in hello at the PhD

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Speaker 1: podcast dot home and until next time. Later you can

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Speaker 1: say Bye bye lady,