Speaker 1: Hello, Hey, what's your name?
Speaker 2: Cowboy Joe?
Speaker 1: Joe? What's going on? Joe?
Speaker 2: Oh, you know, celebrated my birthday today or yesterday? And
Speaker 2: Mi Missouri right now, it's knowing right now?
Speaker 1: Actually, how old are you turning?
Speaker 2: Twenty seven? Just turned twenty seven.
Speaker 1: Twenty seven rock and roll. Well, I called you, you
Speaker 1: texted me, and you said I'm in the military and
Speaker 1: BRONI for over ten years.
Speaker 3: Now.
Speaker 1: I'm going to assume that when you say bronie, you're
Speaker 1: not talking about a special ops part of the military
Speaker 1: that I'm not aware of. You are talking about the
Speaker 1: the fandom of the My Little Pony universe.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm pretty sure you look like you know, you know,
Speaker 2: you look like you've been on the internet for a while,
Speaker 2: so I'm pretty sure you know what a bronie is.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 1: I thought you were going to say I look like
Speaker 1: I would be a bronie and I and I'm very
Speaker 1: curious to hear what would give you that impression. I mean,
Speaker 1: I do have a fucking neck beard, so I guess Valley.
Speaker 2: No, I I I'm I'm I don't. I don't got
Speaker 2: a neck beard or anything like that. I'm just a
Speaker 2: normal looking dude. But yeah, yeah, I've been in the
Speaker 2: I've been in the military for about a little actually,
Speaker 2: just hit seven years last November, and I've been a
Speaker 2: Bronie for over ten years.
Speaker 1: I feel like, you know, what's interesting is is that, like,
Speaker 1: so okay, it's like the Broni subculture it used to be.
Speaker 1: That used to be and you're well aware of this.
Speaker 1: It used to be like kind of the butt of
Speaker 1: the joke on the Internet. And I think culturally, you
Speaker 1: guys have been replaced by furries because I have not
Speaker 1: heard a word about Bronie's in a long time, and
Speaker 1: like now every now everyone's like shits on furries and
Speaker 1: you got nobody. I like, if you talk to like
Speaker 1: a like a middle schooler or or even like a
Speaker 1: high schooler today, they probably wouldn't even know what a
Speaker 1: bronie is, but they would know what a is.
Speaker 2: Yeah, a lot of a lot of people like to
Speaker 2: say Brony's or diet furries, and uh, I don't know,
Speaker 2: I don't really have any opinion on that. If you
Speaker 2: want to call us that, I don't know. I don't
Speaker 2: really care. But yeah, it's uh, it's been a part
Speaker 2: of my life and I've been hanging on for ten years,
Speaker 2: so not really. I mean, I'm not passionate about it,
Speaker 2: but I'm I'm I'm like, it's been a big part
Speaker 2: of my life and I think it's changed my life.
Speaker 2: So I fun when I say that.
Speaker 1: Well, no, I don't think. I don't think it's corny.
Speaker 1: I think it's I mean, there's my significant fucking super
Speaker 1: Smash Brothers has been a significant part of my life.
Speaker 1: So I mean, I I I totally understand how you
Speaker 1: arrived there, right, I mean, it's a sense of community,
Speaker 1: it's I'm sure you've been to conventions. I'm sure you've
Speaker 1: made friends.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, Yeah, I've been to like a lot of
Speaker 2: conventions last year, and I plan on going to somewhere
Speaker 2: this year. For the first time in my life, I've
Speaker 2: actually had money to go to them, and I've been
Speaker 2: wanting to go to them for a long ass time.
Speaker 2: And it's just, yeah, I'm really happy with where I
Speaker 2: am at right now.
Speaker 1: Who's your pony, I'm.
Speaker 2: A I'm a I'm a Fluttershy fan. I was gonna
Speaker 2: say a different word, but I can't. I can't really
Speaker 2: say that I here so, but I don't.
Speaker 1: I don't know what word you're referring to.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's it's a different word. I can't it's a
Speaker 2: it's a naughty word. I'm not allowed to stay on here.
Speaker 1: But uh yeah, I just so the culture, I mean,
Speaker 1: be real with me. Are they like, are these guys?
Speaker 1: Are these guys do they fantasize about fucking the ponies?
Speaker 4: Uh?
Speaker 2: Uh, there's you know, people like to say that a lot.
Speaker 2: I'm not one of them, but I I I keep
Speaker 2: it more pure. I'm not one of those weirdos that
Speaker 2: you know a lot of people like to say, oh,
Speaker 2: Bronie's jerk off to my while they're watching My Little
Speaker 2: Pony or My Little Pony porn. Yes, there is a
Speaker 2: whole lot of My Little Pony porn, but you know
Speaker 2: the most part of it is just people loving and
Speaker 2: enjoying the community and the show. And you know, there's
Speaker 2: tons and tons of content on the internet. You know,
Speaker 2: it's just it's crazy. But uh yeah, it's it's uh.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I mean, I mean, I you know, you
Speaker 1: can't pin, you can't put Rule thirty four on my
Speaker 1: Little Pony. I mean there's we've been watching ads of
Speaker 1: the Simpsons fucking each other horn Hub forever you know,
Speaker 1: no of thease. No, no, I mean like people, well, well no,
Speaker 1: what I'm what I'm saying is like they're every cartoon
Speaker 1: has swathes of porn of it, so you know, yes, okay, anyway.
Speaker 5: Yeah, but yeah, the main reason why I wanted to
Speaker 5: get in contact with you because next year or this
Speaker 5: year rather, I'm soon going on a deployment and uh,
Speaker 5: my unit that I'm with, uh, probably one person two
Speaker 5: maybe maybe three knows that I'm actually knows that I'm
Speaker 5: a BRONI.
Speaker 2: And uh, I don't know if I should I have obviously,
Speaker 2: like I have merch like with me, like I have
Speaker 2: a few plushes and and uh but I'm I don't
Speaker 2: know if I should bring that stuff and come out
Speaker 2: to my quote unquote come out I'm not gay, But
Speaker 2: I quote unquote.
Speaker 1: I was about to say this sound this sounds like
Speaker 1: uh you know the controverty. This is like the don't
Speaker 1: say pony law.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I mean, uh, just uh, military guys, just
Speaker 2: Dix in general, especially my unit. I'm with the military
Speaker 2: police unit, and they're just they're they're almost like you
Speaker 2: get people get shipped on infantry and military police is
Speaker 2: almost like infantry, which like like eighty five percent of
Speaker 2: them are dicks, And uh, I don't know. If I've
Speaker 2: been with this unit for my entire career, I don't
Speaker 2: know if I should come out or if I should
Speaker 2: just like keep it hidden the entire career.
Speaker 3: I don't know.
Speaker 2: I just wanted to get some advice on that.
Speaker 1: So you've been I mean, but you say you've been
Speaker 1: both a in the My Little Pony fandom and uh
Speaker 1: in the military for ten years. So this is I've
Speaker 1: been new.
Speaker 2: I've been a Bernie for over ten years. I've been
Speaker 2: in the military for I was at Bernie before I became,
Speaker 2: before I enlisted.
Speaker 1: So, yeah, h is there now? Is there still a
Speaker 1: branch of the military that rides horses? And if so,
Speaker 1: can you get transferred there?
Speaker 2: Cavalry?
Speaker 3: Uh?
Speaker 2: You can, but that's that's hardly ever done, Like because.
Speaker 1: I was gonna say, you know that there's several closet
Speaker 1: bronies in the cavalry.
Speaker 2: Straight up? Yeah, I don't know a lot of actually
Speaker 2: a lot of Berni's are in the Air Force believed
Speaker 2: or not.
Speaker 1: Really, what do you what do you think is the
Speaker 1: what's the ven diagram connection there?
Speaker 2: I'm not I'm not one hundred percent sure why. A
Speaker 2: lot of them are like, I don't know, because I
Speaker 2: don't know. I'm not one hundred percent sure why that is.
Speaker 2: But it's it's like a lot if you meet a
Speaker 2: furry or a bronie, there's like i'd say a seventy
Speaker 2: percent chance that they're in the Air Force.
Speaker 1: Well, okay, as far as like whether or not to
Speaker 1: let your people know that you're a brownie, I mean
Speaker 1: really the question is like, like how integral is this
Speaker 1: stuff into your in your life, right, because I mean,
Speaker 1: I don't you know, I mean, what what what feels
Speaker 1: what feels right to you?
Speaker 2: Well, I think part of me saying fuck it and
Speaker 2: not give a about what anybody thinks, and I kind
Speaker 2: of stand by that, but there's another part where I
Speaker 2: don't want to get made fun of and get ship
Speaker 2: on every day during my deployment, and you know, and
Speaker 2: plus you know, the show has it's like, I know
Speaker 2: it sounds weird when I say this in corny, but
Speaker 2: it's been like it's taking a like a big piece
Speaker 2: of my life and I've it's I don't know how
Speaker 2: I should say it, but a lot of the stuff
Speaker 2: that they show in the show like they teach lessons
Speaker 2: and stuff like that, like the plots of the show,
Speaker 2: of the of certain episodes like and premises. I kind
Speaker 2: of implement that into my life, you know. And so
Speaker 2: I want to be able to implement that and be
Speaker 2: a fan and not care with the anybody thinks. But
Speaker 2: right then, I don't want to be you know what
Speaker 2: I'm saying like, it's kind of like it's kind of
Speaker 2: it's I swear to guy, it's kind of like high
Speaker 2: school like or high school or middle school, like if
Speaker 2: you like something that's like, say, like what ten or
Speaker 2: fifteen years ago, if you admitted you're like, oh yeah,
Speaker 2: I love anime and whatnot in middle school, bro, you'd
Speaker 2: get like the ship made out of made fun after you.
Speaker 2: So it's just it's a it's a it's a it's
Speaker 2: a hit and miss the kind of thing, you know.
Speaker 2: And I don't know if I should say fuck it
Speaker 2: and just go see what happens or hide it.
Speaker 1: Well, well, let me ask you this because just like
Speaker 1: like what is what is saying? Fuck it look like
Speaker 1: is like like on it like do you wear like
Speaker 1: do you wear my little Plenty merch on it on
Speaker 1: a daily?
Speaker 3: Like? No?
Speaker 2: No, I I mean my my personal room at home.
Speaker 2: It's decked out with all kinds of uh posters and
Speaker 2: uh and merch that I've collected uh since I've been
Speaker 2: to going to conventions this year, and I have a
Speaker 2: few things that I've gotten in the past. But uh, like,
Speaker 2: I don't know. I feel like if I do, if
Speaker 2: I I swear to God, if I bring like a
Speaker 2: plush or or a blanket, a fan made blanket, I'll
Speaker 2: I'll get like the ship had fun out of me.
Speaker 2: So that's that's what I mean when I say fuck
Speaker 2: it and just bring my ship. And if somebody asks me, like,
Speaker 2: what the hell is that, I'll be like, yo, it's
Speaker 2: a Twilight Sparkle. It's twiggy man, you've got a problem
Speaker 2: with it or something, you know.
Speaker 1: Right right right, right right.
Speaker 2: So but then I don't want getting my fucking my
Speaker 2: my made fun of because I don't know. I like
Speaker 2: my little Tony.
Speaker 1: So how can I ask old you are.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I yeah, I told you earlier just twenty seven
Speaker 2: Say okay, well here's the thing.
Speaker 1: Look I and I don't know because this stuff it's
Speaker 1: certainly certainly and I want to I want to say this,
Speaker 1: it's certainly easier said than done. The idea of ye
Speaker 1: yourself certainly easier said than done. Whether whether me or
Speaker 1: what's the fuck uh pinky Pinky Pie is a pinky pie.
Speaker 2: Yeah it is pinky Pie. Nice job.
Speaker 1: But I said that like I was Look, no, I
Speaker 1: said that, like it's like I'm gonna pretend like I
Speaker 1: don't know this pony's name, but I guess I ultimately
Speaker 1: I did. I did. I did know the name of
Speaker 1: the pony well because I used to. This is a
Speaker 1: total aside, but I'm gonna answer your question. I used
Speaker 1: to watch like all like back when my little pony
Speaker 1: thing was like big, like all these YouTubers made these
Speaker 1: like you've probably seen them, these like like horror parodies
Speaker 1: of my little pony ship.
Speaker 2: I used, Oh yeah, like the creepy pastas.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, the creepy pasta ship. So anyway, so look,
Speaker 1: whether I or Pinky Pie, you know, gets up on
Speaker 1: our soapbox and says, uh, you know, be yourself and
Speaker 1: that's it's the way to be, which I believe to
Speaker 1: my core is is true. Right, Like you'll be like,
Speaker 1: you'll be happier if you be yourself and you don't
Speaker 1: care what anyone thinks I really, I it's gotta it's true, right, yea,
Speaker 1: but it's it's it's easier said than done, for sure. Obviously,
Speaker 1: you know, you have to go through a lot of
Speaker 1: fear and overcome a lot of stuff. But I mean,
Speaker 1: god damn man, at twenty seven, we're you know, similar ages.
Speaker 1: I mean, at twenty seven, it's like, you know, I
Speaker 1: get it, I get the fit. Like when you're sixteen
Speaker 1: and you just you have nothing, right you. All you
Speaker 1: have is the social acceptance of your peers. But at
Speaker 1: twenty seven, you're you're just like, you're endowed as a
Speaker 1: fucking adult to like to own a fucking you paid
Speaker 1: for that goddamn Twilight Sparkle And now I'm revealing that
Speaker 1: I know the names of all the ponies you paid
Speaker 1: for the Twilight Sparkle blanket. All right, you know, you're
Speaker 1: an adult. You make your adult decisions as to what
Speaker 1: you want to do and what you want to be
Speaker 1: into in your life. And so god damn it, what's
Speaker 1: this other what's this fucking other guy gonna tell you
Speaker 1: that that that really, yeah.
Speaker 2: There's a lot of stuff that I haven't that I've
Speaker 2: that that's I've heard before. Like there's probably very little
Speaker 2: that you could say to me that I have not
Speaker 2: heard before, but like I've I've heard it all, you know.
Speaker 2: I you know, I'll get called the the F word,
Speaker 2: and I'll I'll get called all kinds of stuff for
Speaker 2: for for liking it. So it's you know, I'm gonna
Speaker 2: I think I'm just gonna say fuck it and do it.
Speaker 2: But I don't know. Well if you if you were
Speaker 2: in my position and you knew that, I don't know,
Speaker 2: what would you do.
Speaker 1: Oh, here's the thing. I'd like to tell you that
Speaker 1: I'd say fuck it, and I'd be like, I like
Speaker 1: my little pony, and like just be because I don't think.
Speaker 1: I mean, look, I've been talking to you for fifteen minutes.
Speaker 1: I don't think that you liking my little pony, unless
Speaker 1: if you feel this way from from talking to you,
Speaker 1: I don't think that you liking my little pony. Is
Speaker 1: this thing that's like so densely informative of your personality
Speaker 1: and of who you are as a person. Would you
Speaker 1: agree with that?
Speaker 2: Say that again? You kind of cut out, like do
Speaker 2: you like?
Speaker 1: I don't think that you liking my little pony is
Speaker 1: so largely informative of who you are of like your personality, right,
Speaker 1: and you know, like when you like when you like
Speaker 1: when you're in a like when you're like when you're
Speaker 1: in a community, like in the Marines or whatever. The
Speaker 1: I don't I know the military army, Army army. I
Speaker 1: always fucked that up. But like when you're in when
Speaker 1: you're in a community and you're around people, and those
Speaker 1: people are making their decisions in their head of who
Speaker 1: you are and whether or not you're accepted into the
Speaker 1: tribe and all that shit like it. Ideally, those decisions
Speaker 1: are based off of things that are more important than
Speaker 1: whether or not you like my little pony, right, Like,
Speaker 1: if you're a nice fucking guy, if you're easy to
Speaker 1: talk to, if you're helpful, if you're so, just bring
Speaker 1: the fucking blanket and then be a good person, be
Speaker 1: you know, whatever your idea is of a productive, useful
Speaker 1: member of this community, and then go to sleep at
Speaker 1: night being with your fucking blanket and be like, look,
Speaker 1: I like my little pony, but I try it as
Speaker 1: hard as I could to be a good friend to
Speaker 1: those around me. I tried as hard as I could
Speaker 1: to you know, be a good Army man, whatever your
Speaker 1: fucking job. I tried as hard as I could to
Speaker 1: do my job well. And in the universe of the
Speaker 1: things that mattered, I tried, and and and you tuck
Speaker 1: yourself in with with your pinky pie plush and your
Speaker 1: try it sparkle blanket, knowing that in the fields that
Speaker 1: mattered in life you tried your best, you know, and
Speaker 1: and again all easier said than done. But uh, when
Speaker 1: I when I'm thinking about this, that's that's what I
Speaker 1: arrive at.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean, I'm I'm definitely. I mean, I'm a
Speaker 2: good guy. I like to think of myself as a
Speaker 2: good guy. You know. I I'm polite. I'm uh, you know,
Speaker 2: I I follow I follow orders.
Speaker 1: I mean, you don't fuck horses, right, No, Okay, you
Speaker 1: took a little too long to answer that.
Speaker 2: You No, I don't know. I don't Okay, I don't think. Well,
Speaker 2: then what's the I don't think any I don't think any. Well,
Speaker 2: there's probably this few fucking weirdos out there that probably do,
Speaker 2: but you know I don't.
Speaker 1: Okay, Well, I look, I hope you take what I
Speaker 1: said to heart. And if you do it, you know,
Speaker 1: you gotta own it, right, You gotta own it.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm definitely, I'm I'm definitely gonna own it. But
Speaker 2: it's crazy too because in the military, you probably there
Speaker 2: is a hazing and bullying in the military is so rampant.
Speaker 2: It's everybody just blows it off. And that's why there's
Speaker 2: such a bad recruitment rate right now. And it's just
Speaker 2: nobody wants to go back in. I think that's a
Speaker 2: huge part of it. Like everybody just just makes the
Speaker 2: fund the shift on out, like they just make fun
Speaker 2: of everybody, and people that will take that to heart,
Speaker 2: not realizing it's a joke. But when you say that
Speaker 2: joke over and over and over and over and over
Speaker 2: and over, it gets into people's minds and it's just like, bro,
Speaker 2: I can't do this anymore. And so it's just you know,
Speaker 2: I've had that happen to me a couple of times,
Speaker 2: Like I've had that gone through my mind, like sure,
Speaker 2: this one guy will always tell me, will call me
Speaker 2: a bitch every time I walk past him.
Speaker 1: Sure, but look look man, and I know you say
Speaker 1: and and this is this is kind of my my
Speaker 1: wrap up on this is like I know you say
Speaker 1: it's like high school, but you're you're you know, we're
Speaker 1: we're twenty seven now, it's like, yeah, you're you're about
Speaker 1: like you're above, You're above I truly be like like
Speaker 1: making fun of other people and being a bully and
Speaker 1: being well like that's fucking high school. Like just be like,
Speaker 1: just be above it, man, like the best you can. Again,
Speaker 1: I know it's easter something do, but just do your bestly.
Speaker 1: Just be above it, all.
Speaker 2: Right, facts, Yeah, definitely, I'm definitely gonna bring my my
Speaker 2: little twiggy plush and uh and hanger above my uh
Speaker 2: my uh uh Now I'll probably fucking sleep with her.
Speaker 3: Fuck it.
Speaker 1: Tell tell people to just tell people that you're using
Speaker 1: it to smuggle in cocaine, and then they'll be like.
Speaker 3: Hell.
Speaker 2: Yeah, they would be like, dude, that's fucking dope, that's sick.
Speaker 1: That's that is the Twilight Sparkle, And that's that's the
Speaker 1: Sparkle and the Twilight Sparkle. What's your name again, man,
Speaker 1: Joe Joe? Is there anything else you want to say
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer before we go?
Speaker 2: I do, but I can't say that on here.
Speaker 1: But I'll just say, dude, Okay, I just I don't
Speaker 1: know what you're avoiding. You keep making it. I believe
Speaker 1: that you don't, but you keep kind of making it
Speaker 1: sound like you want to fuck horses with the like
Speaker 1: emissions that.
Speaker 2: You're leading to. I like making that joke, but there's
Speaker 2: a lot of sayings that I can't say on here,
Speaker 2: so I don't want to get.
Speaker 1: All right, all right, I'm going to assume that the
Speaker 1: things that you're talking about have nothing to do with
Speaker 1: fucking horses.
Speaker 2: I'm not a horse fucker, but I like to joke
Speaker 2: about it.
Speaker 1: Maybe leave though, maybe don't be strong about those parts.
Speaker 1: But the other parts I.
Speaker 2: Mean, I like to joke about him. I think it's funny.
Speaker 2: I think it's funny. You know, it always gets a
Speaker 2: good laugh out of people.
Speaker 1: Well, all right, Joe, I'll uh, I'll talk to you soon.
Speaker 2: All right, mister Geko. I appreciate you talking with me
Speaker 2: and whatnot, and I hope you have a good day.
Speaker 1: Take care, Joe. Bye bye, you too, byebye. He lost
Speaker 1: me at the end there a little bit with the
Speaker 1: just let you know. I think Joe should be allowed
Speaker 1: to do whatever he wants in the military, but maybe
Speaker 1: maybe we keep him away from the cavalry. Good luck, Joe. Hey, folks,
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Speaker 3: Oh hey, what's up? Hey?
Speaker 1: Who is this?
Speaker 3: I'm Dan from Sweden?
Speaker 1: Dan from Sweden. What's going on in Sweden?
Speaker 3: Ah? Just yeah, just cold? You know, just dark and cold?
Speaker 1: Are you now? Does that make a man sad? Are
Speaker 1: you sad because of the darkness and the coldness or
Speaker 1: do you does that like feed the Swedish body?
Speaker 3: I mean I'm kind of used to it, so you know,
Speaker 3: the darkness is kind of like fifty percent of your
Speaker 3: life here, so you know it feels okay.
Speaker 1: I went to Sweden for the first time this summer.
Speaker 1: I went to uh, what's the Stockholm? Yeah I heard
Speaker 1: about it.
Speaker 3: Oh no, no, other side of Sweden.
Speaker 1: The Seven elevens at Sweden? Have they have Chinese food?
Speaker 3: They have everything here. I don't. I wouldn't eat it myself,
Speaker 3: but you know, to eat his own.
Speaker 1: Well, aren't you a little a little a little boy scout?
Speaker 1: You wouldn't eat any seven eleven? Good for you? Sorry
Speaker 1: that was I was just being defensive. Dan the man.
Speaker 1: What's up?
Speaker 3: Man?
Speaker 1: What'd you want to talk about?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 3: I don't know. I've been having some issues lately, and yeah,
Speaker 3: I just wanted some like feedback or something from someone
Speaker 3: that doesn't know me, you know. So like I've seen
Speaker 3: this girl for a while and like we hit it
Speaker 3: off really good. But I'm having issues with myself. You know.
Speaker 3: It's like because I'm like used to being alone, so
Speaker 3: I don't really know what you know. Yeah, you know
Speaker 3: you kind of like get used to being alone and shit.
Speaker 1: Buddy, I I'm I'm the I'm the expert on this
Speaker 1: particular conundrum that you're going through. How old are you?
Speaker 3: I am thirty seven? Actually?
Speaker 1: Mm? Okay, have you spent most of your life alone?
Speaker 4: Uh?
Speaker 3: Not really like off and on and shit, but like
Speaker 3: the last six years I've been almost completely alone except
Speaker 3: for you know, working shit. So mm hmm.
Speaker 1: Now, have you had a period of time in your
Speaker 1: life that was marked by you know, like a like
Speaker 1: a long term relationship where you weren't alone for you know,
Speaker 1: you had a person in the house with you and
Speaker 1: you were seeing other people on a daily basis. Was
Speaker 1: that your life for a time?
Speaker 3: Yeah, like before this period of like the six years
Speaker 3: that have gone past, I've had a really long term
Speaker 3: relationship and that ended quite badly. So it kind of
Speaker 3: fucked me up and made me like not even try
Speaker 3: it because like the dating scene is so fucking toxic nowadays,
Speaker 3: you know, so, so yeah, I just kind of like
Speaker 3: just didn't even try for six years and then all
Speaker 3: of a sudden this fell in my lap.
Speaker 1: Can you tell me why? You don't have to if
Speaker 1: it's not important or you don't want to, But why
Speaker 1: did the last one end badly?
Speaker 2: Well?
Speaker 3: We had a long we were together maybe like six
Speaker 3: or seven years, and everything went well until we like
Speaker 3: moved in and then all of a sudden, she like
Speaker 3: changed everything in the way she lived, so it kind
Speaker 3: of drove us apart. And yeah, that kind of ended
Speaker 3: it all. And we were like not really planning on anything,
Speaker 3: but we were discussing like maybe children and shit, you know,
Speaker 3: and then all of a sudden, deck get dumb in
Speaker 3: my lap, you know. So after that kind of took
Speaker 3: me for a wild ride, so to speak.
Speaker 1: M hm hm And all right. So, I mean you've
Speaker 1: experienced like living with a romantic partner before, you've experienced
Speaker 1: life having a consistent person around you, and you've experienced
Speaker 1: for the past six years being alone. And I mean,
Speaker 1: what are you finding to be the pros and cons
Speaker 1: of each?
Speaker 3: I mean, yeah, yeah, like being alone, there's not really
Speaker 3: many pros so to speak. I mean, the only product
Speaker 3: can think of being alone is like you can do
Speaker 3: whatever you want when you want, right, And that's kind
Speaker 3: of selfish if you really think about it. But yeah,
Speaker 3: I don't know. It's like, as I said, like a
Speaker 3: program myself now like the six years that's passed that
Speaker 3: this is my life, and now all of a sudden,
Speaker 3: someone great comes up and that kind of messes with
Speaker 3: the whole thing, you know. So I'm really trying to
Speaker 3: think about how to change my mentality. But it's really hard,
Speaker 3: especially especially in this age. But you know, it gets
Speaker 3: hard after like six years of programming yourself to be
Speaker 3: alone so to speak.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah, totally.
Speaker 3: Man.
Speaker 1: So if you're telling me, and you know, if you're
Speaker 1: telling me the truth and that's how you really feel,
Speaker 1: is that there's truly very little prose to being alone.
Speaker 1: If those are your your honest feelings, then what is
Speaker 1: holding you back from inviting this other person into your life.
Speaker 3: To be hones honest? I think that the biggest issue
Speaker 3: is like like repeating what has been, you know, like
Speaker 3: believing what was so to speak. And I don't know
Speaker 3: if I can take that one more time to be honest.
Speaker 1: Like, oh, you're afraid of Oh you're afraid you're afraid
Speaker 1: of this new relationship exploding the way the last one did.
Speaker 3: Yeah basically, and uh yeah yeah basically just that actually
Speaker 3: it's not really something I would like to go down again,
Speaker 3: you know, yeah.
Speaker 1: Yeah, mhmm. That's a valid fear, I get I get it. Well,
Speaker 1: I don't know, man, I mean that's a valid fear.
Speaker 1: But I guess, like, what, what what are your options?
Speaker 3: Right? Like?
Speaker 1: You you can you can kind of either just continue
Speaker 1: going like you're going and be alone for the rest
Speaker 1: of your life, or or take another chance, right, I mean,
Speaker 1: those are really your two options when when you look
Speaker 1: at it.
Speaker 3: I mean both sound like equally valid depending on where
Speaker 3: I'm coming from. Uh, but yeah, of course who wants
Speaker 3: to be alone forever? You know, that's fucking retarded think
Speaker 3: about it that way. Excuse me for saying that way,
Speaker 3: but yeah, it's not like healthy to see them both
Speaker 3: as equally valid.
Speaker 1: This is just on that word. I was watching Charlie,
Speaker 1: you know, the movie Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I was watching No, no, well, yeah, there's the new one.
Speaker 1: But the in in the two thousand and six Charlie
Speaker 1: and the Chocolate Factory, one of the kids says that,
Speaker 1: and I was like, oh, that's a that's kind of
Speaker 1: crazy that was in that movie. Anyway, what the were
Speaker 1: we talking about?
Speaker 3: Actually it is now that you think about it.
Speaker 1: Yeah, so you know, whatever, if if they said it
Speaker 1: in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, that means it's fine. No,
Speaker 1: I'm kidding, Okay, you're alone? Why well, tell me about
Speaker 1: this girl, talk about this this person that you're going
Speaker 1: to move in with.
Speaker 3: It's a strange story. I talked to her like ten
Speaker 3: years ago and or maybe more maybe twelve, and we
Speaker 3: kind of hit it off, and she lived like yeah,
Speaker 3: a long way away from me, so to speak. And
Speaker 3: all of a sudden, she just like drops off the map,
Speaker 3: like she disappears, she removes me from everything. And I
Speaker 3: was thinking like, yeah, okay, that's life. Like I'm young,
Speaker 3: fuck it, you know, I'll just meet someone else as
Speaker 3: you do. Then all of a sudden, she just pops
Speaker 3: up on Facebook like eight to nine months ago, and
Speaker 3: I didn't even realize it was her until I went
Speaker 3: in and checked, and then I was like, what the fuck?
Speaker 3: So I wrote her a message and apparently like she
Speaker 3: got a boyfriend at that time and that's why she
Speaker 3: dropped off, which I respect, of course, But yeah, we
Speaker 3: just hit it off again, like it was ten years
Speaker 3: ago or twelve or something, and we finally meet and yeah, this.
Speaker 1: Is a person that you had, you had a little
Speaker 1: bit of a thing going on with her earlier in
Speaker 1: your life and then she re pops up and you
Speaker 1: guys reconnect.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, exactly, So like ten or twelve years has
Speaker 3: passed before last time I talked to her until now
Speaker 3: we started seeing each other.
Speaker 1: Wow, that's that's that's fascinating. And what's it been like lately?
Speaker 1: Have you guys been Like how often you get seen each.
Speaker 3: Other well becauseideringly, she still lives far away. It's like
Speaker 3: once every month or two months or something like that
Speaker 3: because work and stuff.
Speaker 1: You know, so it's still you're still you're it's you're
Speaker 1: still alone kind of because that they're really not you know,
Speaker 1: you guys aren't seeing each other.
Speaker 3: Every day, Yeah, kind of. I mean we talk like
Speaker 3: all the time, literally, like every second we have spare
Speaker 3: we talk to each other. Other than that, yeah, it's
Speaker 3: like I'm still alone physically, and it all depends, like
Speaker 3: we try to plan out vacations weeks and like makes time,
Speaker 3: she's gonna come an I'm gonna go to work, so
Speaker 3: she's gonna be alone for ten hours a day. But
Speaker 3: she's fine with that. So yeah, we just try to
Speaker 3: see each other as much as possible until maybe she
Speaker 3: moves down here, so to speak.
Speaker 1: Okay, so it sounds I mean, it sounds like you're
Speaker 1: you've you're easing into this a little bit. You're not like, hey,
Speaker 1: let's get married and have kids right now and you know,
Speaker 1: just go full speed. It sounds like you're you're your
Speaker 1: I mean, this is a very slow ease, very you
Speaker 1: you're training. Yes, you've been because your problem is you
Speaker 1: were you were programmed to this life alone, right, and
Speaker 1: I think to go from being fully fully fully alone
Speaker 1: to now there's a person in my uh face one
Speaker 1: hundred percent of the time, I mean you're gonna hate them.
Speaker 1: So like this is this is a good The way
Speaker 1: you're doing it is like it's a gradual reprogramming.
Speaker 3: It sounds oh yeah, definitely because I've been prone to
Speaker 3: like just throwing myself into relationships before, right, and usually
Speaker 3: they explode right because of that. So like this time
Speaker 3: is like we just take it easy, uh, you know,
Speaker 3: just see where it goes, right, try not to rush things,
Speaker 3: you know, because then usually just end up like yeah, really.
Speaker 1: Bad, right, you know. I'm I don't know, man, I've
Speaker 1: spent it's pretty significant period alone myself, and I'm I'm
Speaker 1: personally also struggling with like the you know, how do
Speaker 1: I invite more human beings into my life? Because I
Speaker 1: really do think I think even medically, I think it's
Speaker 1: like if you ask a doctor whether it's better to
Speaker 1: be alone or with people, they'll tell you it's better
Speaker 1: to be with people. So oh yeah, so I don't,
Speaker 1: I don't, I don't know. I mean it sounds like
Speaker 1: you're making the right choice, right and and and you'll
Speaker 1: probably and this is I'm being very hypocritical saying this
Speaker 1: to you, but you will probably feel better. I assume
Speaker 1: if you can get over your programming, right. I mean,
Speaker 1: you would know that better than I would, because you've
Speaker 1: experienced both sides of the coin.
Speaker 3: Yeah, of course, of course. And as you said yourself,
Speaker 3: like it, you do feel better, you know, once you're
Speaker 3: not completely alone, when you have people around you that
Speaker 3: you can trust and rely on, it does make a
Speaker 3: huge difference and how you feel, like I don't have
Speaker 3: problems with like hanging out with people or meeting people
Speaker 3: or talking to people. I'm very social, so it's not
Speaker 3: like I'm alone alone. It's just like I'm not, you know,
Speaker 3: I'm alone from the having someone that loves you in
Speaker 3: that sense, you know.
Speaker 1: And also it's helpful for like not living like shit.
Speaker 1: I mean, because like when you have another part, you
Speaker 1: can't like leave your underwear on the floor and leave
Speaker 1: trash all around and all that shit. I mean, you
Speaker 1: don't have that problem because you're Swedish, and I assume
Speaker 1: that your house looks like Ikea. But for you know,
Speaker 1: if you're in America and it doesn't matter. You could
Speaker 1: just it's helpful. It's helpful to have some accountability on
Speaker 1: that front.
Speaker 3: Well, let me just say that that it doesn't look
Speaker 3: like Ikia for most people here. I mean I do
Speaker 3: see like where it's coming from. But no, like I
Speaker 3: got my summer wheels right here in front of me.
Speaker 3: It's like I put my feet on them.
Speaker 1: You know what are summer wheels?
Speaker 3: Uh? You know, the the rims with the summer tires
Speaker 3: on them.
Speaker 1: What what are you talking about? Summer? What are summer tires?
Speaker 3: Ah? Yeah, there's like you have tires all around, like
Speaker 3: you can drive any any time of the year in
Speaker 3: Sweden since it gets too cold and snowy?
Speaker 1: Are you all that? Are you talking about a table
Speaker 1: or a car? Because those are two very different objects
Speaker 1: that I'm no, I'm.
Speaker 3: Talking about like I got I got the rims for
Speaker 3: my car right on the floor here by my computer.
Speaker 1: Oh oh okay, oh yeah, okay, Yeah that doesn't sound It's.
Speaker 3: Not like I KEI. It's like I got rims here,
Speaker 3: I got you know, I got shipped all over. But yeah,
Speaker 3: it's not like I got fifty days worth the food
Speaker 3: packets on the floor or something at least mm hmm.
Speaker 1: You're yeah, you've got uh a Kia hot dog buns
Speaker 1: all over your room.
Speaker 3: I could have, Yeah, I could have. It's not impossible.
Speaker 1: You should try the seven eleven Chinese food. It actually is.
Speaker 1: I don't know if it's Chinese food. It's like so
Speaker 1: they have like a noodle bar there. It's good.
Speaker 3: Kind of like this is like very decisive and people
Speaker 3: hate me for it, but like I'm gluten not like
Speaker 3: I chose to beat it, you know, but.
Speaker 1: Wait, wait, you're getting you're gluten free, gluten intolerant. Oh
Speaker 1: all right, well then don't go anywhere near the seven
Speaker 1: eleven and you'll combust upon entrance.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'd probably explode just by going in there and
Speaker 3: smelling it.
Speaker 1: M hmm. I was because I was going to say
Speaker 1: that trying the seven eleven Chinese Food is is probably
Speaker 1: the you know, that's a that's a single, lonely man activity,
Speaker 1: and so you know the time is hopefully running out
Speaker 1: on that. But anyway, yeah.
Speaker 3: I know, I know you've talked about like that seven
Speaker 3: eleven experience you had with.
Speaker 1: Yeah, anytime I look at anytime I look at the
Speaker 1: phone ringing, and I see like a plus six, like
Speaker 1: I see it's a foreign area code. I'm like, oh,
Speaker 1: hell yeah, I can talk to this person about four
Speaker 1: and seven elevens like I do anytime I talk to
Speaker 1: anyone for fucking year. But we've talked about that too much.
Speaker 1: We've talked about that too much, Dan the man. Is
Speaker 1: there anything else you want to say about any of
Speaker 1: this shit or any anything at all in general before
Speaker 1: we go?
Speaker 3: Well not really. I mean I kind of already like
Speaker 3: had the same thoughts as before, like I do now,
Speaker 3: like I kind of already understand it. It's just like
Speaker 3: I need someone to reaffirm it because people here it
Speaker 3: are all like fuck women, you know, and like you know,
Speaker 3: the coworkers, I mean they're like, y'ah, meet women, fuck them.
Speaker 3: You know, they didn't really care about this whole love
Speaker 3: shit at least what they're saying. So I just need
Speaker 3: someone from outside of all of that to like just
Speaker 3: reaffirm what I'm already thinking.
Speaker 1: You know, well, I fuck, look, I don't know. I mean,
Speaker 1: there's like I'm sure there's and it's I don't you
Speaker 1: I don't think it's a gender thing like there's I'm
Speaker 1: sure that there's you know single. You know sixty year
Speaker 1: old men and sixty year old women that are are
Speaker 1: happier that way than not. I don't like, I truly
Speaker 1: believe there's no right way to live life. But uh again,
Speaker 1: you've experienced both sides of the corn. So you you
Speaker 1: decide for yourself which which which universe you enjoy living
Speaker 1: in more?
Speaker 3: That's true, man, You gotta just try to remember myself
Speaker 3: about that from time to time. I guess.
Speaker 1: Dann the man. Any final thoughts, feeling sentiments before we go.
Speaker 3: Not really, Man, just keep up what you do. We
Speaker 3: all love you, and uh yeah, I have a great night.
Speaker 1: Man, you too. You truly are the man, Dan.
Speaker 3: Thanks man, bye, take care.
Speaker 1: Seriously, you go back. You go back and watch Charlie
Speaker 1: and the Chocolate Factory from two thousand and six. You'll
Speaker 1: be like, god, damn, they really got away with some
Speaker 1: stuff in this movie.
Speaker 5: All from Josh to accept press one.
Speaker 2: Just send a voice, Hello, Yo, what's up?
Speaker 3: Good?
Speaker 1: How's it going? It's this Josh. This is Josh bro Well, Josh.
Speaker 4: I can't believe I'm talking here we are.
Speaker 1: I can't. I can't believe I'm talking to you.
Speaker 3: Man.
Speaker 1: I my one of my first friends names was Josh.
Speaker 1: He's no he was a dick. But you sound cooler
Speaker 1: than he is. What's up, Josh? What do you want
Speaker 1: to talk about?
Speaker 3: Damn?
Speaker 4: Bro? I don't know, honestly, Yeah, you get this happened, yeah,
Speaker 4: honestly call it like two hundred times and.
Speaker 1: I was like, shut well, you wanted to call and
Speaker 1: see what would happen, and this is what's happening. How
Speaker 1: do you feel about it?
Speaker 3: Pretty cool? Bro?
Speaker 4: Just want to smoke some weed and fucking talk to
Speaker 4: a gecko on the phone. That's pretty sick. Let's kind
Speaker 4: of get better than that.
Speaker 1: I guess that is pretty sick. That is pretty sick.
Speaker 1: It's definitely a bizarre thing to do, smoke weed and
Speaker 1: talk to a gecko on the phone. I forgot I
Speaker 1: was a gecko for a second. I'll forget that I'm
Speaker 1: a lizard. You know, it's weird. I have this like
Speaker 1: alt costume to my Life's.
Speaker 4: Got you sick with it? And that you kind of
Speaker 4: go with it.
Speaker 3: You know.
Speaker 4: It's cool that you just keep on dressing up and
Speaker 4: doing the gek thing. Bro, just keep on gecking it out.
Speaker 4: I don't know, that's that's a lot of commitment. That's
Speaker 4: probably more commitment than I've ever really that was a
Speaker 4: lot of shit that I've done.
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's something that you've done that you feel like
Speaker 1: you couldn't commit to.
Speaker 4: I don't know, bro, I'm like in between a lot
Speaker 4: of shit right now, and it just feels hard to
Speaker 4: commit to something like super concrete and like solid.
Speaker 1: What are your options?
Speaker 4: Well kind of a lot, to be honest, But it's
Speaker 4: just I don't know how to like battle it in
Speaker 4: and like kind of figure out like if it's really
Speaker 4: something that I want to do and like pursue. Like
Speaker 4: I don't know. I'm interested in like a lot of things,
Speaker 4: and I do a lot of shit. Like right now,
Speaker 4: I work at a weed farm and that's pretty cool,
Speaker 4: and I grow weed for a living and I do
Speaker 4: it on my own time too. But I also have
Speaker 4: like a degree in photography and I know how to DJ,
Speaker 4: and like I kind of know how to do like
Speaker 4: a lot of shit, to be honest, it's just I
Speaker 4: don't I don't like hone it down and like kind
Speaker 4: of like focus on one thing. I kind of just
Speaker 4: jump from one thing to another.
Speaker 1: Cold. I'm twenty four, m do you have like a day.
Speaker 4: Jud Yeah, I work, Yeah, I work at a weed farm.
Speaker 1: All right, right, Okay, So all right, but you've so
Speaker 1: you've you're sticking to that's that's your kind of constant.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 4: I've been doing it for about like four months now,
Speaker 4: and it's it's really fucking cool, bro. It's probably like
Speaker 4: one of the best jobs that I've ever had. It's
Speaker 4: definitely something that like makes me happy, and like every
Speaker 4: day I go to work and I'm like super fucking happy.
Speaker 4: I don't get paid that much, which fucking sucks, but
Speaker 4: I mean it is what it is, you know. I
Speaker 4: mean I get paid like fifteen sixty or something like that.
Speaker 4: But it is what it is, you know, Like pay
Speaker 4: is one thing and stuff. But uh fucking yeah, I
Speaker 4: mean that's just the only like problem right now. It
Speaker 4: is just I don't get paid enough. Otherwise I'd really
Speaker 4: be like, you know, honing it down and like kind
Speaker 4: of doing this like in the long term of things.
Speaker 2: But uh.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's just it's a little hard right now.
Speaker 1: Brother. I'll tell you, if you're waking up every day
Speaker 1: and you don't want to shoot yourself in the fucking face,
Speaker 1: you are a winning in this life.
Speaker 4: Yeah. Yeah, that's HONESTLYE, that's that's a good point to make.
Speaker 1: I don't know for I I do mean that though.
Speaker 1: I mean it's uh, I think to wake up every
Speaker 1: day and not be like oh fuck, you know, that's
Speaker 1: that truly is winning in life, right, I mean what else?
Speaker 1: What could be better? I mean, I know it's it's
Speaker 1: a bummer not being able to make any real money,
Speaker 1: but I mean with the weed farm, it's like, couldn't
Speaker 1: you couldn't you go into business for yourself one day
Speaker 1: and then start making some money there?
Speaker 4: Yeah, definitely, Yeah, I definitely could. And I have like
Speaker 4: a certification for like like cannabis business, Like I through
Speaker 4: my university. I took like a course for like a
Speaker 4: couple of months and they certified me to like, you know,
Speaker 4: I guess be knowledgeable in the industry, and I really am.
Speaker 4: Bro Like I've been doing this like on my own
Speaker 4: for about three years and I'm still learning and there's
Speaker 4: like a lot to learn about it, and it just
Speaker 4: takes a lot of time, dude. Like that's the only
Speaker 4: thing that sucks is like it takes a shit ton
Speaker 4: of time. And there's like a lot of opportunity on
Speaker 4: my work to kind of like, uh, I guess grow
Speaker 4: with it. But it's just like I have to really
Speaker 4: stay there for like a long time and and wait
Speaker 4: for them to expand. And I'm just like a super
Speaker 4: impatient person and I wish that, like I had the
Speaker 4: patience to kind of wait, but I have like.
Speaker 1: An can't you go rogue? Why can't you go rogue?
Speaker 4: I am trying to, bro Yeah, I'm trying to, and
Speaker 4: it's just it's fucking hard. It's just you need to
Speaker 4: have a lot of money to do it, you know.
Speaker 4: Like right now, I'm growing out of my garage and
Speaker 4: I got like a really good fucking setup. Like I
Speaker 4: got a huge ass tent. I got like seven plants
Speaker 4: in there, and then I have like another cloning seed LinkedIn,
Speaker 4: and I got a lot of other stuff going in there.
Speaker 4: And I made myself like a personal like little Instagram
Speaker 4: to like start promoting like the stuff that I'm doing
Speaker 4: and all that kind of stuff. But you know, it's
Speaker 4: it's beginning. You know, it's just like at the starting
Speaker 4: stages of where it's up.
Speaker 1: Man, But you're happy every day. You're not like do
Speaker 1: you and you're not going insane every day?
Speaker 2: No?
Speaker 4: Yeah, Honestly, like life is super good for me right now.
Speaker 4: Like I have a girlfriend and she's amazing, and have
Speaker 4: an amazing family and uh, really good life. Honestly, Like
Speaker 4: everything's like really good for me. It's just, you know,
Speaker 4: I just want to get my life, my personal life started.
Speaker 4: Like I still live with my mom and you know,
Speaker 4: it's it's cool, you know, I get to save up money,
Speaker 4: but you know, I live with my mom and it's
Speaker 4: kind of embarrassing just in that in that in that way,
Speaker 4: you know, m hm, just because like a lot of
Speaker 4: people that I know, they're like, you know, starting their
Speaker 4: lives and going about their own business. And I know
Speaker 4: I shouldn't be like comparing my life to theirs, but
Speaker 4: I'm just like, man, I really wish I could.
Speaker 1: Man, do you do you do you feel as though
Speaker 1: your life has has yet to start?
Speaker 4: M What do you mean?
Speaker 1: You said you see your friends starting their lives, as
Speaker 1: if to imply that you have not yet started your life.
Speaker 4: Yeah, well, I mean I guess they just leave their nest,
Speaker 4: you know, like they move out of their parents. I
Speaker 4: don't know. I feel like that's like a huge step
Speaker 4: for people and I just haven't concept step. And it's
Speaker 4: it's a little frustrating, you know.
Speaker 1: Soa man, are you growing a bunch of weed in
Speaker 1: your mom's basement?
Speaker 3: No?
Speaker 4: Well yeah, yeah, I mean in my garage?
Speaker 1: Yeah said you said no, And then you're like, well.
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, well exactly.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 1: Does she know that you're growing weed in the house?
Speaker 4: Oh yeah, definitely, Yeah, she's she's cool with it. I mean,
Speaker 4: my family is like pretty cool like the stuff that
Speaker 4: I'm into, and pretty supportive about it and all that.
Speaker 4: I mean, she doesn't really care, and like she doesn't
Speaker 4: like ask about it.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 4: I'll tell her like, oh, like I'm doing this and
Speaker 4: this is what my parts looking like and stuff like that,
Speaker 4: and she's like, yeah, that's cool and that's it.
Speaker 3: Mm hmmm.
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know.
Speaker 3: Man.
Speaker 1: I'm starting to feel, Oh, there's a cockroach. I gotta
Speaker 1: get rid of this cockroach. Give me hold on, We'll
Speaker 1: cut this, Brandon will cut this part out.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I take your time and get that ship out
Speaker 4: of there. I'm actually dealing with a bug problem right now. Yeah,
Speaker 4: do you got the ship out of there?
Speaker 1: Oh? God? Should I give this fucking Airbnb a betterview?
Speaker 1: This is gross?
Speaker 3: Dude? What am I.
Speaker 4: Gonna like dude. Oh dude, if there's any kind of pest,
Speaker 4: give a bad review.
Speaker 2: It was a big.
Speaker 3: Well.
Speaker 1: Now it's going outs out of my eyesight. Oh I
Speaker 1: know it's in the corner, right, it's it's feeding, crawling up.
Speaker 1: Brandon will cut all this out?
Speaker 3: All right?
Speaker 4: Hold on, step on it, get actually eat it.
Speaker 1: I am a lizard. I wish I had like wizard powers.
Speaker 1: But oh god, I don't even really I don't want
Speaker 1: to kill it. I just want to Oh did it
Speaker 1: just flap? Cockroach? Just have fun? Do cockroach? Just have
Speaker 1: fucking wings?
Speaker 4: Yeah, bro, that will fly at your face.
Speaker 2: Mana cockroach just fly?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 1: Fuck this? Fuck this all right, dude, fuck this all right?
Speaker 1: Hold on, all right, I'm where where is it? It's
Speaker 1: crawling under the blue screen.
Speaker 4: Oh no, bro, all.
Speaker 1: Right, where's my breath? I need the paper cowels? Oh god?
Speaker 1: Oh now it's crawling up. It's like you'll be able
Speaker 1: to see it in a second. How do I I'm afraid?
Speaker 3: All right?
Speaker 1: Should I just.
Speaker 3: You can get it?
Speaker 1: All right? Hold on, let me just I need to
Speaker 1: give me a minute. Maybe I'll use the mic stands.
Speaker 4: Uh, it knows it can toe?
Speaker 1: Oh oh damn it. Hold on, did you hear that?
Speaker 1: All right? Now it's running, it's it's okay, it knows,
Speaker 1: it knows. I'm out for it.
Speaker 4: Yeah, let it suck off, dude, suck that.
Speaker 1: I don't want to damage the MIC's it's hiding now.
Speaker 1: It's in this corner.
Speaker 3: You have, like a book or something, you know, I
Speaker 3: use this.
Speaker 1: I gotta fucking yeah, maybe I will use it. But
Speaker 1: that's a good idea. Let me get a I got
Speaker 1: something you have you and just squash it. Dude, hold on,
Speaker 1: let me get a I don't even know where it
Speaker 1: is now. Now it's all still hiding in the corner.
Speaker 1: Damn it. Now I'm gonna be sleeping and a fucking
Speaker 1: cockroach is gonna jump up. God, that spoked me. That
Speaker 1: spooked me a lot. I'm spooked. I'm down there, man,
Speaker 1: hold on, I gotta I gotta take care of this
Speaker 1: fucking thing. Yeah, take care of Oh crap. Now it's
Speaker 1: under my bed now, Oh god.
Speaker 4: No, dude, no, not your bed.
Speaker 1: What am I gonna do? I don't know. I'm gonna
Speaker 1: sleep it tonight.
Speaker 4: Well, can you trap it in anyway or is ithing
Speaker 4: around you that you can get it with?
Speaker 1: Damn it I'm gonna wake up in the middle of
Speaker 1: the night and there's gonna be a big cockroach on me.
Speaker 4: You have like a cup tapping a cup, just like
Speaker 4: put it put a cup.
Speaker 1: I could. I tried, well, I tried to get it
Speaker 1: with the mic stand but Brandon, we'll cut all this out.
Speaker 1: But well, should I leave it in? Should I just
Speaker 1: leave all this in?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 4: I leave it in, dude. Yeah, it's a good It's
Speaker 4: a good way to I don't know.
Speaker 1: I feel like if I were in my car and
Speaker 1: I was listening to a podcast and the host I
Speaker 1: just started talking about a cockroach that he's trying to kill,
Speaker 1: I'd be like, what the fuck.
Speaker 4: That's the real moment into it, you know. I guess so,
Speaker 4: you know, like real life kind of struggle situation in
Speaker 4: the moment. Yeah, you're handling it pretty well, I'd say.
Speaker 4: I mean, you're trying to get rid of the problem.
Speaker 1: I don't know where if this fucking thing is now
Speaker 1: and I don't want to hold on. Oh this is
Speaker 1: so gross, man.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I do that. That is pretty gross. I bet
Speaker 4: I deal. It was a lot of contro and it sucks.
Speaker 1: Where do you where do you work? That you were
Speaker 1: dealing with cockroaches. I don't even remember. Honestly, I'm gonna
Speaker 1: be sorry. I don't even remember what the hell we
Speaker 1: were talking about before any of this happened.
Speaker 4: We're just talking about growing weed, bro, and.
Speaker 1: All right, hold on state Okay, do try to remember
Speaker 1: what we were talking about, because I'm gonna probably cut
Speaker 1: this out. And fucking yeah, I got you, I got you.
Speaker 1: I wanna. I want to continue our conversation because it
Speaker 1: was a good I found it back now back. Oh
Speaker 1: my god, it's all the ship.
Speaker 4: Get it, get it, get it, get it.
Speaker 1: Holy ship, dude.
Speaker 4: How big is it like the size of your hand
Speaker 4: or like I.
Speaker 1: Just fucking got this ship. Oh my god, let's go
Speaker 1: get that. Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I get it. Whack him, take him back?
Speaker 1: Oh crap, but run away?
Speaker 3: Did you get it?
Speaker 1: Hold it ran away? Fuck dude, No, I stopped the
Speaker 1: fuck out of it and it dude, I got it
Speaker 1: as something funk out of it and then it ran away.
Speaker 4: Hold on, just like, put a lot of pressure on it,
Speaker 4: just like put your body weight on it.
Speaker 1: Oh I see it.
Speaker 3: Hold on.
Speaker 4: Yeah. If you don't, if you stomp on it, it's
Speaker 4: not gonna You're not gonna.
Speaker 3: Kill that shit.
Speaker 4: They're like indestructively. You got to like put weight on it.
Speaker 3: I was.
Speaker 4: I was saying, I try to get a book or
Speaker 4: something and throw it in and all explode or something.
Speaker 4: I don't know. Do you get it, bro, I'm concerned? Now,
Speaker 4: all right?
Speaker 1: I think I all right, I trapped it, trapped it,
Speaker 1: and now I'm just I'm trapped it and now I'm
Speaker 1: just gonna I'm just gonna. Dude, how long were we
Speaker 1: doing that for?
Speaker 4: I don't know, man, but I mean at least you
Speaker 4: got it, That's what I was. Just concerned that you're
Speaker 4: gonna be trapped with a cockroach and an airbnb.
Speaker 3: Dude.
Speaker 4: That would have sucked.
Speaker 1: Should we leave this in? I feel like this was
Speaker 1: this wasn't good. I don't think this is good. But
Speaker 1: this is not a good podcast, right.
Speaker 4: No, dude, No, dude, it's good. It's good. It's good.
Speaker 4: All your podcasts are good.
Speaker 3: Bro.
Speaker 4: I listened to you I work like almost all the time.
Speaker 1: Dude, What the fuck were we talking? It was good?
Speaker 1: That was what the fuck were we talking about?
Speaker 4: We're just talking about weed farming, bro. I was telling
Speaker 4: you how I worked at a weed farm. And yeah,
Speaker 4: I mean how I worked at a weed farm and
Speaker 4: I just got a lot of like kind of like opportunities,
Speaker 4: I guess, and like avenues to go through with it
Speaker 4: in terms of like, you know, going rogue and like
Speaker 4: kind of starting my own business and whatever. I guess.
Speaker 1: All right, fuck it, we'll leave it in. We're gonna
Speaker 1: leave it in. If this makes the podcast, you should
Speaker 1: leave this in and just have the video be looking
Speaker 1: all right, well, all right, you screw it. Well, we're
Speaker 1: gonna leave it in. This is part of you and
Speaker 1: me's connection together as part of this call. I'm so dude,
Speaker 1: I forgot about all of life before this. I don't
Speaker 1: even know what the fuck I was talking to you about.
Speaker 1: Before you were talking Oh, yes, living with your mom
Speaker 1: and I'm uh growing weed and yes, yeah stuff.
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's pretty much on part with what we were
Speaker 4: talking about.
Speaker 1: All right.
Speaker 4: You ask me where I works?
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, where do you work? Where do you work?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 1: You work at a farm.
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 1: You said you had you have commitment issues and you
Speaker 1: were doing too much do many different things. But I
Speaker 1: think that's good. I think you're I think you're on
Speaker 1: a good track here, my friends, I really do believe that.
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, I just feel like sometimes I wish I
Speaker 4: could just I don't know, man, just like sit down
Speaker 4: and like really just like figure out, like what the
Speaker 4: fuck I really want to do it, because, like you know,
Speaker 4: growing weed is like fucking fun and I love it. Man,
Speaker 4: It's it's awesome, you know. It's it's just like I
Speaker 4: like to spend time with plans like to grow and
Speaker 4: then take care of him and bring things to life.
Speaker 1: You know.
Speaker 4: I think that's just it's really cool for me to
Speaker 4: experience that, And you know, I do like a lot
Speaker 4: of like other artsy stuff, but I don't know, I
Speaker 4: get insecure about it and I kind of just like
Speaker 4: put it down and when I get stressed out, I
Speaker 4: kind of just go back to gardening, and it just
Speaker 4: brings me back to like who I really feel like
Speaker 4: I am. I guess if that makes sense.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you know, I think you sound like a very
Speaker 1: multi faceted man.
Speaker 4: Yeah, a bit, I guess. I mean I know how
Speaker 4: to do a good amount of things, like a jack
Speaker 4: of all trades master none kind of deal.
Speaker 1: Right right. I don't think that's a bad I think
Speaker 1: it's good to be a renaissance man. Though I know
Speaker 1: you're you're bringing it in as some kind of new like, uh,
Speaker 1: you're bringing in some kind of like a bad thing,
Speaker 1: but you you can't commit to anything. But I think
Speaker 1: it's good. I mean, you're you, You really only have
Speaker 1: such a finite amount of time to live, you might
Speaker 1: as well do all kinds of different stuff.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I think so too. I mean, I think people
Speaker 4: should just be interested in a lot of different things
Speaker 4: and not really like I don't know, I guess only
Speaker 4: just be settled with one thing and just leave it
Speaker 4: at that. I think people should always try to learn
Speaker 4: and just like be interested in other stuff. Like I mean,
Speaker 4: I just learned how to do like growing weed at
Speaker 4: on a whim bro, Like I just threw a seat
Speaker 4: in a pot and fucking invested like money and a
Speaker 4: lot of time into it. And you know, here I am,
Speaker 4: like three years later with like a pretty pretty good
Speaker 4: like method of like growing weed and shit. And it's
Speaker 4: been fun. Man, It's it's been a really cool journey.
Speaker 4: And I just don't know where it's gonna take me.
Speaker 3: You know.
Speaker 4: It's like I'm spending all this time and money, and
Speaker 4: I spend a lot of money on this, like certification
Speaker 4: and stuff, and I spent a lot of money on
Speaker 4: my own growing supplies, and it's just like, god damn, like,
Speaker 4: what is this really going to do for me besides
Speaker 4: just the fact that it brings me a happiness?
Speaker 1: But dude, dude, you're what are you fucking talking to?
Speaker 1: What do you actually hear the words that just came
Speaker 1: out of your fucking mouth.
Speaker 4: I know that's what I'm saying, Like it's.
Speaker 1: You said, what is this actually gonna do for me?
Speaker 1: Except bring me joy and happiness?
Speaker 4: Well? I guess when I when I say that, like,
Speaker 4: I mean, like, I don't know, bro, people are just
Speaker 4: maybe not people. Maybe it's just me that I'm just
Speaker 4: so focused on like trying to get a career already,
Speaker 4: you know, and like really think down into that and
Speaker 4: just I don't know, be a normal person.
Speaker 1: Yeah. But here's the thing though, right, it's like, uh,
Speaker 1: you know, money, I I don't know, it's helpful for
Speaker 1: a lot of fucking things. I feel like you. I
Speaker 1: feel like you, like you strive for money so that
Speaker 1: you can, you know, relax and be happy. But if
Speaker 1: you can relax and be happy without any money, you're
Speaker 1: kind of fucking golden dude, I don't know. I'm very
Speaker 1: like I'm I'm honestly i'm jealous of you when I
Speaker 1: hear that. You're like, you wake up every day and
Speaker 1: you're you know, you're chilling, and I can hear it
Speaker 1: in your voice. You could, and I could hear it
Speaker 1: when you were when we were talking about the cockroach.
Speaker 1: You you you're in a good mood. You know, you're
Speaker 1: not groveling at the fucking streets every day, right, And
Speaker 1: that's a that's a blessing.
Speaker 4: Yeah, And I guess that's how I used to kind
Speaker 4: of feel when I was in college and like making
Speaker 4: art and ship and it's like I think that kind
Speaker 4: of like way of like going about like making art
Speaker 4: and you know, going to school for it was like
Speaker 4: really fucking paying the ass and just like not really
Speaker 4: all that much fun anymore. I mean, I made a
Speaker 4: lot of cool shit, but there's just like a lot
Speaker 4: of expect behind it. And you know, when I grow weed,
Speaker 4: it's like I already know the expectation and I already
Speaker 4: know what I want.
Speaker 1: Give me what's your weed? Instagram? I want to promote
Speaker 1: you because you helped me. You you talked me through I
Speaker 1: think if you weren't there when I was fighting that roach.
Speaker 1: I think I would have been. I wouldn't have been
Speaker 1: bold enough to trap it. It's still underneath here's the thing,
Speaker 1: my mic stand, right. I tried to hit it. I
Speaker 1: tried to hit it with my fucking mic stand. And
Speaker 1: what I did was I hit I hit it with
Speaker 1: the mike stand, and I thought I got it, but
Speaker 1: I didn't realize that the mic stand it's not. The
Speaker 1: base isn't flat. The base is a flat the bass concave.
Speaker 1: So I didn't hit it. I just trapped it.
Speaker 4: Yeah, you could have just trapped it then, damn.
Speaker 1: But then if it's it's sitting there, it's sitting under
Speaker 1: my mic stand in the other room, it's trapped.
Speaker 4: Wait, so what's the what's the current situation of the road?
Speaker 2: Is it?
Speaker 3: Is it in something?
Speaker 1: Is it like it's trapped? I can't bring the microphone
Speaker 1: all the way over there. It's trapped underneath? I hope
Speaker 1: it is. If I lift up that MIC's stands and
Speaker 1: there's no bug underneath it, I'm going to be freaked out.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be like, where the fuck is this thing?
Speaker 4: Get it though, Yeah, when you're ready to get it.
Speaker 4: You just got to be in Gomo and you really
Speaker 4: got to kill that thing, like get something like super heavy.
Speaker 4: I don't know what you have around you, but the
Speaker 4: heaviest thing that you can find, just get it. And
Speaker 4: once you open that MIC's in, bro, just fucking squash it.
Speaker 1: I'm about to mash up with this TV all right, Well, Josh,
Speaker 1: I really do feel like we got to know each
Speaker 1: other pretty well over the course of these these twenty minutes,
Speaker 1: and I'm rooting for you, man. I think, uh, I
Speaker 1: think you're doing great. I really do. Of all the
Speaker 1: people from from from experience, from my personal experience being
Speaker 1: a human being, and my personal experience talking to several
Speaker 1: different human beings on this show, I think you're doing
Speaker 1: pretty damn good, Josh. So keep your fucking head up.
Speaker 1: And did you already give me the weed Instagram?
Speaker 4: No, Bro, let me check what it is because I
Speaker 4: kind of forgot the name of it, even though I
Speaker 4: go on it like every single day. It's It's the
Speaker 4: Woods z.
Speaker 1: W o O d dot z z Woods.
Speaker 4: Yeah, z Woods z w o o d s dot z.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna check it out.
Speaker 4: It's private right now, but I'll make it. Uh, let
Speaker 4: me make it public so you can see what I'm doing. Sorry,
Speaker 4: that will take me like just two seconds.
Speaker 1: Well, Josh, is there anything else you want to say
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer before we go actually
Speaker 1: fire here? Let me let me look at let me
Speaker 1: look at that. I'm gonna look at the Instagram real quick. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I want, I want to I might have I might
Speaker 1: have silly comments. Z wood would.
Speaker 3: Z z.
Speaker 1: Oh z would that's z okay? All right? Uh yeah,
Speaker 1: so you got a bunch of pictures of weed. This
Speaker 1: is cool, This is nice, this is something. Look at you.
Speaker 1: You're an entrepreneur. My friends, you and you have you
Speaker 1: make it. You have a little journal.
Speaker 3: You know what's funny?
Speaker 1: Our if you look at both of our profile if
Speaker 1: you look at both of our profile pictures on Instagram
Speaker 1: from far away, they look very similar. You look at
Speaker 1: the ship. You have a whole blog here. This is cute.
Speaker 4: I like this, thanks man. Yeah. I like trying to
Speaker 4: keep it pretty well documented and like let people know
Speaker 4: what I'm doing, try to like explain like the methods
Speaker 4: and like techniques that I use and all that kind
Speaker 4: of stuff.
Speaker 3: It's really fun.
Speaker 4: It's a it's it's really it's really cool to kind
Speaker 4: of like document in that way, because I mean, I
Speaker 4: don't I'm not really good at writing and stuff. I
Speaker 4: always fucking forget. So I feel like I'm on social
Speaker 4: media enough that it just kind of correlates to be
Speaker 4: the same thing.
Speaker 1: Well, Josh, I might be hitting you up to borrow
Speaker 1: some pesticides.
Speaker 4: Very soon, dude, I have a bug problem right now.
Speaker 4: So I got some good shit. I just spent like
Speaker 4: one hundred and thirty dollars on like a sung aside
Speaker 4: and insecticide to kill these fucking a fits that I
Speaker 4: got in my tent, which is like really kissing me off,
Speaker 4: but it is what it is.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna throw this cuig at a roach for free
Speaker 1: and hopefully that gets the job done. Oh way to
Speaker 1: have a pan, Okay, I'm gonna use the pan.
Speaker 3: There you go?
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, use a pan.
Speaker 3: Bro.
Speaker 4: I mean, but you just gotta be fat, you know,
Speaker 4: you gotta throw your whole body into it. Really other way.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I was too busy. I was too busy trying
Speaker 1: to I was well, I was distracted because I was
Speaker 1: talking to you while I was doing it. But now
Speaker 1: I think I'm gonna get it.
Speaker 4: Are you gonna take a break real quick and like
Speaker 4: get it like like on stream.
Speaker 2: No.
Speaker 1: I think I'm gonna finish this phone call and then
Speaker 1: I'm gonna go get it.
Speaker 4: Okay, cool, Yeah, yeah, yeah, do that, dude. You gotta
Speaker 4: kill that thing.
Speaker 3: Man.
Speaker 4: It's like, it's not good to have roaches around you.
Speaker 4: I mean, especially if you're sleeping in the area where
Speaker 4: it's at. Man, I mean, that's just that's pretty dangerous.
Speaker 3: Dude.
Speaker 1: Where are you I they I don't know if it's dangerous.
Speaker 1: I don't think that. I mean, it's it's gross, but
Speaker 1: I don't think that the roach can like hurt me.
Speaker 4: They can hurt your feelings with this presence.
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the
Speaker 1: people at the computer before we go? Josh?
Speaker 4: Just always learn stuff, Always learned things, and be excited
Speaker 4: for things that that you're never really sure about. And
Speaker 4: smoking shits in a weed and do some shrooms.
Speaker 1: Beautiful, take care of Josh never man. All right, in
Speaker 1: the show notes of this episode, I will let you
Speaker 1: know whether or not I got the roach. I think,
Speaker 1: all right, I'm all right, I'm looking at it right now,
Speaker 1: and it's underneath. Yeah, it's underneath this fucking Mike stand
Speaker 1: and I don't know. I don't know if it's still
Speaker 1: there or not, but we'll get it. Thanks for calling.
Speaker 1: Josh goes on the line, taking your phone calls every night,
Speaker 1: goes to his i's teaching.
Speaker 2: You every line.
Speaker 1: He's not really an expert.