WEBVTT - Jamie-Lynn Sigler

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<v Speaker 1>They were looking for a sixteen year old Italian looking

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<v Speaker 1>girl for a show called Sopranos. I figured, oh, I could,

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<v Speaker 1>I could look Italian. And because of the title, I

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<v Speaker 1>assumed it was a musical because I had heard the story.

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<v Speaker 1>I never put that together that it was because Sopranos.

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<v Speaker 1>Did you go in? Did you go in with a

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<v Speaker 1>song prepared? Of Well, I had tons of songs prepared

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<v Speaker 1>all the time, but I my first audition was with

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<v Speaker 1>Georgian Walkin. It was just the sides, and then they

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<v Speaker 1>called me back to come the next day to read

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<v Speaker 1>for David Chase, and I remember at the end of

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<v Speaker 1>the audition I said to him do you need me

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<v Speaker 1>to sing? And he said for what? And they said

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<v Speaker 1>never right. Hi everybody, my name is Jamie Lindseigler. You

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<v Speaker 1>probably know me best as Meato soprano from the Sopranos.

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<v Speaker 1>And you're listening to Off the Beat. Yes, they are

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<v Speaker 1>Jamie listening to Off the Beat. Hello everybody, and welcome

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<v Speaker 1>to the highlight of my Tuesday every week hanging out

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<v Speaker 1>with you guys here on Off the Beat. I am

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<v Speaker 1>your host, Brian Baumgartner. Do I sound excited today? I'm

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<v Speaker 1>sure that I sound excited because, as you just heard

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<v Speaker 1>in studio today, I have Jamie Lynn Siegler. She played

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<v Speaker 1>Meadow soprano on my all time favorite television show, The Sopranos,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm lucky enough to call her a friend. And

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<v Speaker 1>I just did. I called her a friend. Jamie Lynn,

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<v Speaker 1>of course, has done so much more than just being

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<v Speaker 1>in the greatest show of all time. First of all,

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<v Speaker 1>she has been acting almost her entire life since she

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<v Speaker 1>was a little it in musicals and then on Broadway.

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<v Speaker 1>And she was, in fact so entrenched in the musical

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<v Speaker 1>world that, as you just heard, when she auditioned for

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<v Speaker 1>The Sopranos, she thought it was a musical, genuinely thought

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<v Speaker 1>that they were gonna, I don't know, sing about drug

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<v Speaker 1>deals and breaking fingers. How does that go? Fuckget about it,

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<v Speaker 1>forget about it. I don't know anyway we're gonna get

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<v Speaker 1>into that story and of course lots more. All right,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna stop dilly dallying. I feel like someone someone's

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<v Speaker 1>gonna put a hit out on me if I don't

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<v Speaker 1>start the episode soon. So here we go. Here she

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<v Speaker 1>is Jamie Lenn Sigler, Bubble and squeak. I love it.

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<v Speaker 1>Bubble and squeak, Bubble and squeaker cookie every month, left

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<v Speaker 1>over from the nut Pole. What's happening? Hi, Brian, how

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<v Speaker 1>are you? I'm so good. How are you? I'm good?

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you? Oh my god, it's been so long. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>do you remember the last time that I saw you?

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<v Speaker 1>Was it in New York? I mean, that's a good guess.

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<v Speaker 1>I went back to New Year's Eve in Miami. But

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<v Speaker 1>has it been that long that I was trying to

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<v Speaker 1>reconstruct why we were even there, who I was with. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I've spent many a New Year in Miami, so maybe

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<v Speaker 1>that's more of a conundrum for you to figure out.

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<v Speaker 1>I was definitely a frequent er of Miami for New

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<v Speaker 1>Years for a while. Oh my gosh, Well, it's so

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<v Speaker 1>good to see you. Where are you right now? I

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<v Speaker 1>am in a Querque, New Mexico working on a show

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<v Speaker 1>called Big Sky. I'm very We're going to talk about that.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm very show um, but I have to have to

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<v Speaker 1>come clean about something. I'm a COVID cliche. What does

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<v Speaker 1>that mean? I got a dog? Okay, I didn't have

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<v Speaker 1>a baby. I didn't have another baby, but I got

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<v Speaker 1>a dog, right, Like that was the thing. To do

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<v Speaker 1>and my favorite show songs. One my favorite show that

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<v Speaker 1>I've never been involved in is The Sopranos. And I

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<v Speaker 1>got a chocolate lab during COVID three guesses of the

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<v Speaker 1>chocolate labs name. It's female, Okay, Meadow, Meadow, Meadow, Really,

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<v Speaker 1>Meadow is my baby chocolate lab named in honor of

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<v Speaker 1>kind of you, I guess, I mean definitely you. Honestly,

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<v Speaker 1>there's no you know, you could have named or Carmela,

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<v Speaker 1>and it could have been maybe Carmela soprano other thing,

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<v Speaker 1>but I guess Meadow is a name that really it's

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<v Speaker 1>only Meadow Soprano. Right, there's no other real there is

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<v Speaker 1>no and and and in fact, the name, like I

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<v Speaker 1>guess it, it has like a residence of like Hippienus

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<v Speaker 1>or something like if you just ignore the fact that

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<v Speaker 1>Meadow Soprano existed and you were like Meadow, it would

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<v Speaker 1>be like, well, sort of like rains like ray Wills,

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<v Speaker 1>like sort of this hippie ish nature. But no, not anymore,

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<v Speaker 1>not anymore, quite the opposite. No, it's not all right.

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<v Speaker 1>We're going to talk about that. But I kind of

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<v Speaker 1>want to take you back back, like way back to

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<v Speaker 1>where you started. You grew up in New York. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>on Long Island, on Long Island at Jericho, to be specific.

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<v Speaker 1>As I understand, Yes, So at what point did you

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<v Speaker 1>decide that you wanted to be an actor or that

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<v Speaker 1>you wanted to pursue this UM. I was about seven

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<v Speaker 1>or eight when I realized I really enjoyed musical theater.

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<v Speaker 1>I wouldn't say that I thought this is what I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna do with my life. But while some of my

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<v Speaker 1>friends were getting serious about tennis or you know, other

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<v Speaker 1>sports or activities, I just loved performing on stage. I

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<v Speaker 1>loved watching musicals, I loved UM performing in them. So

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<v Speaker 1>I just was on the community theater circuit on Long Island.

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<v Speaker 1>Like anytime there was a show like Sound of Music

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<v Speaker 1>or Fiddler in the Roof that had any kids, I

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<v Speaker 1>was auditioning for it, and UM got to become part

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<v Speaker 1>of a family of this theater that in Bethpage that

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<v Speaker 1>was called Plaza Playhouse and then turned into Cultural Arts

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<v Speaker 1>Playhouse later UM a few years down my change management.

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<v Speaker 1>But I, from the ages of eight years old till

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<v Speaker 1>eighteen performed in that theater multiple times a year, like

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<v Speaker 1>it was my home away from home, and I loved it,

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<v Speaker 1>and I would say probably when I was around thirteen,

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<v Speaker 1>I got my first opportunity to do a professional national

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<v Speaker 1>tour of a music and that's when my parents were like, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>so if this is something you really want to do,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, let's talk about it. Do we need to

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<v Speaker 1>get to an agent, do we need to get you

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<v Speaker 1>a manager. You have to understand the commitment. They were

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<v Speaker 1>very strict in that if my grades dropped at all,

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<v Speaker 1>I couldn't do this anymore, because they didn't know how

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<v Speaker 1>long this would last. I was such a kid, and

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<v Speaker 1>no one in my family was involved in show business

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<v Speaker 1>by any means, so this was new to everybody. So

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<v Speaker 1>I made the commitment. I did the tour. My grades

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<v Speaker 1>didn't dropped. In fact, I even learned my half tora

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<v Speaker 1>for my bot Mitzvah online by sending cassette tapes back

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<v Speaker 1>and forth to my cantor. I was very committed. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>but you booked this national tour without an agent. I

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<v Speaker 1>had like there was like a long island agent that

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<v Speaker 1>would every once in a while get you an audition

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<v Speaker 1>in the city for something. I never got it, but

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<v Speaker 1>you know, it was fun to go. But that was

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<v Speaker 1>the first time where I was like, oh, okay, you

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<v Speaker 1>know I'm going to be actually making money. I have

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<v Speaker 1>to leave town, you know, I have to really commit

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<v Speaker 1>to this. And then after that I got an actual manager,

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<v Speaker 1>an agent, and started auditioning more professionally. Okay, what was

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<v Speaker 1>that show? It was It's a Wonderful Life the musical.

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<v Speaker 1>I haven't seen that? Is that a class? Of course

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<v Speaker 1>you haven't. I think I was the only time. I

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<v Speaker 1>think it came and wet, But I played young Mary,

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<v Speaker 1>and then I played his daughter, not the little one,

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<v Speaker 1>Janey maybe or something like that. It was so I

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't Zuzu. I was too old for Zuzu. Okay. So

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<v Speaker 1>then you started auditioning for theater or for theater? Uh,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I would go for shoals here and there.

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<v Speaker 1>But I remember at the time, you know, this was

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<v Speaker 1>a different time in the business where they were very

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<v Speaker 1>much like is she all American? Is she Latina? And

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<v Speaker 1>I was such a mix of things. You know. My

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<v Speaker 1>dad is from Brooklyn, He's Jewish, Greek, Romanian. My mom's

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<v Speaker 1>Cuban and Spanish, and so I couldn't ever fit in

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<v Speaker 1>a box. So I just really focused on musical theater

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<v Speaker 1>because I just didn't think film or television would ever

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<v Speaker 1>work for me because I never went anywhere for me

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<v Speaker 1>any of the auditions, I never got any traction. And

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<v Speaker 1>so then when Sopranos came along, I was sixteen. I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like you know this story, probably, but all I

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<v Speaker 1>heard was they were looking for a sixteen year old

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<v Speaker 1>Italian looking girl for a show called Sopranos. I figured, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>I could, I could look Italian. And because of the title,

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<v Speaker 1>I assumed it was a musical because I had heard

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<v Speaker 1>the story. I never put that together that it was

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<v Speaker 1>because Sopranos. Yeah, did you go in? The song prepared?

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<v Speaker 1>Of well, I had tons of songs prepared all the time,

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<v Speaker 1>but I my first audition was with Georgian Walkin. It

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<v Speaker 1>was just the sides, and then they called me back

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<v Speaker 1>to come the next day to read for David Chase,

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<v Speaker 1>and I remember at the end of the audition I

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<v Speaker 1>said to him do you need me to sing? And

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<v Speaker 1>he said for what? And they said, never mind because

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<v Speaker 1>that was a lot. But then he did actually have

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<v Speaker 1>metal sing in the show. I think he maybe you

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<v Speaker 1>know or something that well that was for you? Right?

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<v Speaker 1>Was that was that really you singing? That was you

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<v Speaker 1>that's amazing. I just went back and watched it again,

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<v Speaker 1>the whole thing, the whole thing start to finish. So

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<v Speaker 1>I hear you just went and watched it the first time.

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<v Speaker 1>Is this true? You didn't watch it when it was out. No,

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<v Speaker 1>I think for a lot of reasons. You know, I

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<v Speaker 1>was a self critical teenage girl, and also we were

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<v Speaker 1>filming it and it was airing, and I was young,

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<v Speaker 1>and it just I just didn't do it. And then

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<v Speaker 1>as I got a little older, I felt like I

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<v Speaker 1>needed the space. I I just I didn't want to

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<v Speaker 1>watch it and not enjoy it. And whether that was

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<v Speaker 1>the right decision or not, I'm actually glad I did

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<v Speaker 1>it that way because watching it for the first time

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<v Speaker 1>in as a thirty nine year old woman and having

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<v Speaker 1>a more greater understanding of the world and appreciation for

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<v Speaker 1>acting and the people that I was with, I really

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<v Speaker 1>was able to enjoy it as an audience member as

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<v Speaker 1>opposed to somebody that was so close to it. There

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<v Speaker 1>was enough space, right, Yeah, it's interesting. I do you

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<v Speaker 1>watch other things? You do? No? Not a lot. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>so I don't either. I've always felt sort of the

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<v Speaker 1>same way, like I can't change it. Now, what if

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<v Speaker 1>they chose a take I specifically did not want, like

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<v Speaker 1>there's nothing I can do, whereas you know in theater,

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<v Speaker 1>you come from theater. I feel like it's like if

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<v Speaker 1>if I had the opportunity to watch every performance that

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<v Speaker 1>I ever did, even shows I did a hundred times,

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<v Speaker 1>I would watch it right after because the next day

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<v Speaker 1>you have a chance to go back and do it again,

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<v Speaker 1>that's right, and find more and find better. Yeah, so

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<v Speaker 1>I I don't either, because it's and I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>It also sort of feels I don't know, like I

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<v Speaker 1>get it. Yes, I understand, it's just like it feels

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<v Speaker 1>weird to sit back and like, let me let me

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<v Speaker 1>watch what I did you know? Yes, no, totally. I

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<v Speaker 1>will tell you The Office was different for me. We

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<v Speaker 1>watched it as a cast when it was first starting.

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<v Speaker 1>How could you not, though, I feel like you guys

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<v Speaker 1>had to just watch it and enjoy each other and like,

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<v Speaker 1>because I think part of the appeal of Office, I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>obviously it's like a great comedy and all of you

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<v Speaker 1>are just at the top of your game and it's

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<v Speaker 1>so amazing. But what I really enjoyed about it as

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<v Speaker 1>well was it looked like you guys were having the

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<v Speaker 1>best time ever. And maybe that's as an actor just

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<v Speaker 1>knowing like, oh my god, that's just got to be

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<v Speaker 1>the most fun job. Yes, I mean that that may

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<v Speaker 1>be part of it. I mean there were practical things,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, we were we were so sort of slow

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<v Speaker 1>off the gate, you know, it took I just did

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<v Speaker 1>the math recently. It was something like seventeen months where

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<v Speaker 1>we had shot six episodes. Gosh, so by the time

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<v Speaker 1>it came out, we were literally on hold waiting to

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<v Speaker 1>see if we were coming back, and we had nothing

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<v Speaker 1>better to do. So, Yeah, we would go to each

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<v Speaker 1>other's houses every Tuesday or Thursday nights and we would

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<v Speaker 1>watch it together because it was like, well, we'll probably

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<v Speaker 1>never get to do this again. I mean, that may

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<v Speaker 1>have been part of it. And we had so much

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<v Speaker 1>Like you said, we had so much fun and we

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<v Speaker 1>really enjoyed the show. But what a difficult thing for you.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, as one of the only kids on the show,

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<v Speaker 1>especially with so many big and experienced personalities. Was that

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<v Speaker 1>was that a challenge work wise? You know, at the

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<v Speaker 1>time I would have said no, But in hindsight, I

0:14:17.400 --> 0:14:20.360
<v Speaker 1>can look back. I actually just had this conversation with

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<v Speaker 1>Robert Eiler, who played a j on the show. Where

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<v Speaker 1>you're kind of blessed at that age, especially when you're

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<v Speaker 1>a theater kid. You're like used to hanging with adults,

0:14:31.360 --> 0:14:34.400
<v Speaker 1>You're used to doing things that aren't necessarily kid things,

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<v Speaker 1>so you kind of just like fake it till you

0:14:35.920 --> 0:14:38.840
<v Speaker 1>make it. You say you're good, you've got it. I

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<v Speaker 1>think I was really bolstered and supported by Jim and

0:14:42.600 --> 0:14:44.800
<v Speaker 1>Eatye in a lot of our scenes, and they made

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<v Speaker 1>me feel really safe and comfortable and pushed me when

0:14:48.600 --> 0:14:53.280
<v Speaker 1>they needed to gently um. But I was a people pleaser.

0:14:53.360 --> 0:14:54.960
<v Speaker 1>I was like a kid that just wanted to be

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<v Speaker 1>validated that I was doing a good job. And so

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<v Speaker 1>that's why I say, in hindsight, I can look back

0:14:58.680 --> 0:15:01.600
<v Speaker 1>and it was it was probably harder than I even

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<v Speaker 1>realized because of I felt a lot of pressure. But

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<v Speaker 1>I used to marvel at Robert because he never cared.

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<v Speaker 1>He always he never He wasn't that type of actor

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<v Speaker 1>kid where he felt like I probably did a good

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<v Speaker 1>job and he didn't need to hear it, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>For me, I was I was so afraid all the time,

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<v Speaker 1>and I felt my first day of work on the pilot,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean It was really my first time ever on

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<v Speaker 1>a set. They had the stand ins rehearsing with the camera,

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<v Speaker 1>and I got scared. I thought, well, what is this

0:15:36.960 --> 0:15:40.280
<v Speaker 1>not really yet? Like is this girl maybe doing it too? Like?

0:15:40.720 --> 0:15:43.240
<v Speaker 1>I was so green. I was so green. I had

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<v Speaker 1>no idea of anything. But I didn't let on. I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't say a word. I just kind of kept it

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<v Speaker 1>in and panicked myself and until I figured, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>how everything works. So I would say the first year

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<v Speaker 1>or two was really hard for me, But in that moment,

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<v Speaker 1>I wouldn't have said it was right. I mean, in

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<v Speaker 1>thinking back, having just watched it, I guess a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of yours, a lot of your work, especially early on,

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<v Speaker 1>was kind of the quadrant kind of the family, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>It wasn't at least just around those people. I just

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<v Speaker 1>can imagine as a sixteen seventeen year old girl those

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<v Speaker 1>scenes later on with like seventeen twenty seven, you know,

0:16:26.720 --> 0:16:34.080
<v Speaker 1>older experienced men with huge personalities. That had to be

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<v Speaker 1>a challenge, you will. Jim was really careful with me.

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<v Speaker 1>I think one of the things I loved most about

0:16:42.880 --> 0:16:47.200
<v Speaker 1>my relationship with Jim is that contrary to how I

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<v Speaker 1>am now, where I'm very comfortable being vulnerable and open

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<v Speaker 1>with who I am and what I'm feeling and just

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<v Speaker 1>with life in general. I wasn't that way then, but

0:16:56.840 --> 0:17:01.280
<v Speaker 1>he knew, He always knew where I was at without

0:17:01.360 --> 0:17:04.800
<v Speaker 1>me having to say it, and so he could always

0:17:06.040 --> 0:17:09.119
<v Speaker 1>kind of support me in that way. And I remember

0:17:09.119 --> 0:17:11.720
<v Speaker 1>when we were shooting the college episode. You know, it

0:17:11.800 --> 0:17:14.399
<v Speaker 1>was my first really big episode, and it was a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of dialogue and it was a lot of stuff,

0:17:17.640 --> 0:17:21.360
<v Speaker 1>and he really literally and figuratively held my hand through

0:17:21.359 --> 0:17:23.960
<v Speaker 1>all of it. I remember our first scene of that

0:17:24.040 --> 0:17:25.960
<v Speaker 1>episode was when I asked him if he was in

0:17:26.000 --> 0:17:27.760
<v Speaker 1>the Mafia. We did an entire day in the car

0:17:27.840 --> 0:17:30.399
<v Speaker 1>of all the car driving stuff, and he was really

0:17:30.440 --> 0:17:33.159
<v Speaker 1>proud of me, and he was really encouraging, and no

0:17:33.200 --> 0:17:35.040
<v Speaker 1>one was in the car because we were on a trailer,

0:17:35.080 --> 0:17:36.800
<v Speaker 1>so the director, you know, we're talking everybody through a

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<v Speaker 1>walking and I remember he held my hand literally at

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<v Speaker 1>the end of one take because they were like, okay,

0:17:41.040 --> 0:17:42.679
<v Speaker 1>we can move on, and he looked at me, goes, Jamie,

0:17:43.359 --> 0:17:45.439
<v Speaker 1>is there anything else you feel like you want to do?

0:17:45.520 --> 0:17:46.800
<v Speaker 1>And I was like, well, what do you mean. He's like,

0:17:47.000 --> 0:17:49.199
<v Speaker 1>you can ask for another take. You can ask if

0:17:49.200 --> 0:17:51.720
<v Speaker 1>you want to try something else, you're and I was,

0:17:52.000 --> 0:17:54.080
<v Speaker 1>and I didn't know that I was able to do that.

0:17:54.200 --> 0:17:59.119
<v Speaker 1>And through that whole episode, he really taught me my

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<v Speaker 1>worth and how to you know, speak up for myself

0:18:02.840 --> 0:18:05.840
<v Speaker 1>and how to like how film worked really and the

0:18:05.880 --> 0:18:08.199
<v Speaker 1>collaborative experience of it all and not you're not just

0:18:08.240 --> 0:18:09.960
<v Speaker 1>like this puppet that shows up and you're like, oh,

0:18:10.000 --> 0:18:14.040
<v Speaker 1>I did what you wanted, okay, Like he he really, um,

0:18:14.160 --> 0:18:15.760
<v Speaker 1>he really taught me a lot, and I took that

0:18:15.840 --> 0:18:17.679
<v Speaker 1>with me. I think through you know, the whole season,

0:18:17.720 --> 0:18:20.040
<v Speaker 1>and like you said, I mean, most of my stuff

0:18:20.040 --> 0:18:22.240
<v Speaker 1>the first couple of seasons was really with the core

0:18:22.320 --> 0:18:26.280
<v Speaker 1>family and especially with him, and I owe so much

0:18:26.440 --> 0:18:29.720
<v Speaker 1>of everything to him and what he you know, he

0:18:29.800 --> 0:18:31.960
<v Speaker 1>but he wasn't like a preachy guy or he wasn't

0:18:32.000 --> 0:18:33.720
<v Speaker 1>like taking on the role like I gotta teach you

0:18:33.760 --> 0:18:35.680
<v Speaker 1>the ways. He just always did it at the perfect

0:18:35.720 --> 0:18:39.959
<v Speaker 1>moment right by the way, maybe your work is spectacular,

0:18:40.080 --> 0:18:43.240
<v Speaker 1>maybe the greatest episode in the history of sopranos as well,

0:18:43.280 --> 0:18:46.400
<v Speaker 1>So that's that's great to hear. Your relationship with him

0:18:46.760 --> 0:18:50.880
<v Speaker 1>good throughout always. I mean, we all had our stuff

0:18:51.080 --> 0:18:53.520
<v Speaker 1>going on personally, I mean it's ten years. You know,

0:18:53.600 --> 0:18:55.800
<v Speaker 1>we all had a lot of ups and downs and stuff.

0:18:55.800 --> 0:18:58.280
<v Speaker 1>But you know, like I said, he just was the

0:18:58.280 --> 0:19:00.760
<v Speaker 1>guy that like he wasn't overbearing, but like he just

0:19:01.200 --> 0:19:03.399
<v Speaker 1>he just had a pulse on like when to check in,

0:19:03.920 --> 0:19:06.439
<v Speaker 1>when to ask. I was diagnosed with MS in the

0:19:06.440 --> 0:19:08.320
<v Speaker 1>middle of the show, and I didn't tell anyone, and

0:19:08.359 --> 0:19:12.119
<v Speaker 1>he just like knew something was wrong. I remember it

0:19:12.240 --> 0:19:15.040
<v Speaker 1>was during the time when I can't remember what season

0:19:15.080 --> 0:19:17.040
<v Speaker 1>it is, maybe four or five, when Tony's in the

0:19:17.040 --> 0:19:22.280
<v Speaker 1>coma and you know, he's laying down sleeping basically all day.

0:19:22.400 --> 0:19:25.960
<v Speaker 1>It was said, and I had done to seed it.

0:19:26.000 --> 0:19:28.119
<v Speaker 1>I was like sitting out in the hospital hallway and

0:19:28.160 --> 0:19:29.879
<v Speaker 1>he came out behind me and he like put his

0:19:30.000 --> 0:19:32.960
<v Speaker 1>big hand on my shoulder and he's like hey, I'm

0:19:32.960 --> 0:19:36.000
<v Speaker 1>like yeah, He's like are you okay? And I just

0:19:36.040 --> 0:19:39.480
<v Speaker 1>started crying because they just I couldn't lie to him. Remember,

0:19:39.520 --> 0:19:41.919
<v Speaker 1>he just took me over and you know, we had

0:19:41.960 --> 0:19:43.639
<v Speaker 1>a long talk and he was just he was that

0:19:43.680 --> 0:19:46.000
<v Speaker 1>guy to everybody. Though everybody on that show could have

0:19:46.000 --> 0:19:47.920
<v Speaker 1>had that story with him. You know, like I said,

0:19:47.960 --> 0:19:52.720
<v Speaker 1>we all had stuff going on, but he really unnecessarily

0:19:52.800 --> 0:19:55.640
<v Speaker 1>took on the role as like the head of that

0:19:55.680 --> 0:20:17.600
<v Speaker 1>show and really looked out for everybody. So I gotta

0:20:17.640 --> 0:20:22.200
<v Speaker 1>tell you a story. Yes please, my favorite show. He

0:20:22.560 --> 0:20:26.520
<v Speaker 1>I think gave the greatest performance in the history of

0:20:26.520 --> 0:20:29.280
<v Speaker 1>television and a dramatic role. Just I could not be

0:20:29.320 --> 0:20:32.560
<v Speaker 1>a bigger fan. And uh, there was a period of

0:20:32.560 --> 0:20:34.919
<v Speaker 1>time I was playing poker. I played poker quite a

0:20:34.920 --> 0:20:38.080
<v Speaker 1>bit back in the old days. We're going to Miami.

0:20:38.320 --> 0:20:40.879
<v Speaker 1>We're going to Miami, and yeah, exactly for New Year's

0:20:41.240 --> 0:20:45.280
<v Speaker 1>and I gave it up. Basically this is I get

0:20:45.280 --> 0:20:47.400
<v Speaker 1>a note from my publicist said, I know you've given

0:20:47.440 --> 0:20:49.600
<v Speaker 1>up poke. You know there's all these charity poker things

0:20:49.600 --> 0:20:53.639
<v Speaker 1>and these excuses to go play poker. And she said,

0:20:54.000 --> 0:20:58.560
<v Speaker 1>James Gandelfini is hosting a charity poker event for the

0:20:58.760 --> 0:21:02.639
<v Speaker 1>l A Firefighters. And I said, what time do I

0:21:02.680 --> 0:21:07.320
<v Speaker 1>show up? And I come in to this poker thing

0:21:07.359 --> 0:21:10.800
<v Speaker 1>and I get my assignment at a table and he's

0:21:10.800 --> 0:21:14.080
<v Speaker 1>sitting next to me. We're sitting at the table number one.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know how I got the invite to be

0:21:15.760 --> 0:21:17.719
<v Speaker 1>at table number one or sitting next to him, but

0:21:17.800 --> 0:21:20.760
<v Speaker 1>there there I am. So the first thing that strikes

0:21:20.800 --> 0:21:24.879
<v Speaker 1>me because he's so real, was so real, unbelievable to me.

0:21:25.240 --> 0:21:27.800
<v Speaker 1>He doesn't know how to play poker. He doesn't know

0:21:27.840 --> 0:21:31.679
<v Speaker 1>how to play Texas holds him. I'm going, you know,

0:21:32.000 --> 0:21:37.320
<v Speaker 1>my brain is like just swear. My brain is exploding,

0:21:37.560 --> 0:21:39.760
<v Speaker 1>like you guys never played car. I mean I didn't

0:21:39.760 --> 0:21:41.719
<v Speaker 1>say anything out loud. I'm like, oh, yes, here, let

0:21:41.760 --> 0:21:44.520
<v Speaker 1>me help you, sir. And so we go back and forth,

0:21:44.720 --> 0:21:47.760
<v Speaker 1>and he's betting really crazy, you know, I mean, it's

0:21:47.760 --> 0:21:51.800
<v Speaker 1>all fake money. And he gets busted out immediately and

0:21:52.720 --> 0:21:55.800
<v Speaker 1>he just sits there and we continue to chat. Anyway,

0:21:55.840 --> 0:21:58.800
<v Speaker 1>A little bit later, I bust out and I stand

0:21:58.880 --> 0:22:02.480
<v Speaker 1>up to leave, and he stands up with me, and

0:22:03.240 --> 0:22:05.960
<v Speaker 1>he you talked about his his giant pol He puts

0:22:05.960 --> 0:22:09.760
<v Speaker 1>his arm around me, on my shoulder, and we turn

0:22:09.800 --> 0:22:12.880
<v Speaker 1>around and immediately there's like playing playing playing playing playing

0:22:12.920 --> 0:22:15.360
<v Speaker 1>playing people taking picture that you know, guys who are

0:22:15.400 --> 0:22:18.840
<v Speaker 1>hired for the event. And he turns to me and

0:22:19.080 --> 0:22:22.359
<v Speaker 1>very casually, very much you know, in my mind, like

0:22:22.480 --> 0:22:25.840
<v Speaker 1>the show. He says, um, you want to get out

0:22:25.840 --> 0:22:27.760
<v Speaker 1>of here and get a drink, And I was like,

0:22:29.400 --> 0:22:34.200
<v Speaker 1>this is your event, but okay, okay, we go next

0:22:34.200 --> 0:22:40.000
<v Speaker 1>door and we sit there for over two hours while

0:22:40.000 --> 0:22:43.280
<v Speaker 1>this charity event is happening next door, and we talk

0:22:43.400 --> 0:22:47.520
<v Speaker 1>about art, and we talk about the sopranos, and we

0:22:47.600 --> 0:22:50.760
<v Speaker 1>talked about the office. Now he was there was a

0:22:50.800 --> 0:22:53.520
<v Speaker 1>possibility when Steve Carrell left that he was going to

0:22:53.720 --> 0:22:56.040
<v Speaker 1>come on and do the show, and so there was

0:22:56.080 --> 0:22:59.239
<v Speaker 1>some conversation about that, Like he was really asking me

0:22:59.320 --> 0:23:03.000
<v Speaker 1>questions of out, you know, myself and what had become

0:23:03.040 --> 0:23:07.080
<v Speaker 1>my identity and worries about typecasting and what you know.

0:23:07.119 --> 0:23:09.239
<v Speaker 1>This is like right when the show was ending, like

0:23:09.320 --> 0:23:11.280
<v Speaker 1>what I want to do now and how I want

0:23:12.359 --> 0:23:17.960
<v Speaker 1>to define myself? Like basically the most incredible first date

0:23:19.040 --> 0:23:22.399
<v Speaker 1>that could have existed for me. And he is about

0:23:22.440 --> 0:23:25.800
<v Speaker 1>to go on a trip to Europe. We exchange information.

0:23:26.480 --> 0:23:29.480
<v Speaker 1>His car pulls up and I will never ever forget

0:23:29.520 --> 0:23:31.320
<v Speaker 1>he's standing there by the car and he turns around.

0:23:31.320 --> 0:23:33.560
<v Speaker 1>He goes, we're gonna go to Chateau mar Mom, you

0:23:33.600 --> 0:23:38.359
<v Speaker 1>want to come? And honestly, Jamie, where my brain went

0:23:38.640 --> 0:23:43.439
<v Speaker 1>was I felt like a young woman on a first

0:23:43.520 --> 0:23:46.879
<v Speaker 1>date that the date had gone really well and I

0:23:46.920 --> 0:23:49.639
<v Speaker 1>didn't want to screw up the date, and I didn't

0:23:49.640 --> 0:23:52.160
<v Speaker 1>want to I didn't want to. I didn't want the date.

0:23:52.440 --> 0:23:55.399
<v Speaker 1>I didn't want to say, well, I didn't want to

0:23:55.400 --> 0:23:58.200
<v Speaker 1>put out or I didn't want to like screw something

0:23:58.280 --> 0:24:01.359
<v Speaker 1>up or whatever. And you know, he had a young child.

0:24:01.440 --> 0:24:03.680
<v Speaker 1>I had a young child. And I said, no, no,

0:24:04.119 --> 0:24:07.480
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna go home. But you know, i'll see you

0:24:07.480 --> 0:24:11.199
<v Speaker 1>when you're back from Europe. I looked this morning. I

0:24:11.280 --> 0:24:14.560
<v Speaker 1>texted him in about a month later. I didn't know

0:24:14.600 --> 0:24:17.240
<v Speaker 1>how long he was going. I texted him. I still

0:24:17.280 --> 0:24:19.720
<v Speaker 1>have it on my phone. You know how nice it

0:24:19.760 --> 0:24:21.719
<v Speaker 1>was to meet him and when he was back and

0:24:21.800 --> 0:24:23.760
<v Speaker 1>we can either get the kids together or not and

0:24:23.800 --> 0:24:29.880
<v Speaker 1>have a drink, and um he died that week. Yeah,

0:24:30.160 --> 0:24:34.560
<v Speaker 1>it was the greatest thing for me to have that

0:24:34.640 --> 0:24:39.239
<v Speaker 1>experience and also like the most heartbreaking thing because I

0:24:39.240 --> 0:24:43.680
<v Speaker 1>thought this was just the beginning. This was just the beginning,

0:24:44.640 --> 0:24:47.760
<v Speaker 1>and then it just all ended too soon. And I

0:24:47.840 --> 0:24:53.160
<v Speaker 1>can't imagine how that must have been for you during

0:24:53.240 --> 0:24:57.879
<v Speaker 1>that time. Thanks for sharing that story. I loved hearing it.

0:24:57.960 --> 0:25:01.880
<v Speaker 1>And it's like that conversation you're telling me you guys had,

0:25:02.000 --> 0:25:07.720
<v Speaker 1>like I know those though, they're so special because he's

0:25:07.760 --> 0:25:11.359
<v Speaker 1>soap when he talks to you He's so present, you know,

0:25:11.480 --> 0:25:14.159
<v Speaker 1>and he really he really cared about people, and he

0:25:14.240 --> 0:25:16.880
<v Speaker 1>was really interested, and he always asked questions. You never

0:25:16.920 --> 0:25:19.560
<v Speaker 1>felt like he was just doing it for conversation. Somebody

0:25:19.560 --> 0:25:23.080
<v Speaker 1>that like nothing was ever wasted, Everything was really intentional.

0:25:23.240 --> 0:25:26.320
<v Speaker 1>And so what a special moment you got to have

0:25:26.440 --> 0:25:32.640
<v Speaker 1>with him. Yeah, yeah, his loss. I mean, obviously personally

0:25:32.680 --> 0:25:35.399
<v Speaker 1>it was completely devastating, but I think I share in

0:25:35.560 --> 0:25:37.879
<v Speaker 1>just a feeling with so many people, like people that

0:25:37.960 --> 0:25:40.040
<v Speaker 1>knew him briefly like you, or people that didn't know

0:25:40.119 --> 0:25:43.000
<v Speaker 1>him at all. He had such an impact on all

0:25:43.040 --> 0:25:46.159
<v Speaker 1>of us, and we had such admiration for him and

0:25:46.240 --> 0:25:50.080
<v Speaker 1>his talent and his like humanness. It was just I

0:25:50.160 --> 0:25:52.520
<v Speaker 1>was pregnant. I was eight and a half months pregnant

0:25:52.520 --> 0:25:55.720
<v Speaker 1>when he passed, and the last time I saw him,

0:25:55.760 --> 0:25:58.120
<v Speaker 1>I was like four or five months pregnant. I got

0:25:58.119 --> 0:26:01.760
<v Speaker 1>to tell him that I was a baby and all

0:26:01.800 --> 0:26:05.080
<v Speaker 1>that kind of stuff, and I just he was more

0:26:05.160 --> 0:26:07.040
<v Speaker 1>proud of me than if I had told him I

0:26:07.040 --> 0:26:09.520
<v Speaker 1>had gotten like a Spielberg movie like. He was just

0:26:09.680 --> 0:26:15.159
<v Speaker 1>so happy that I was having a family and that

0:26:15.280 --> 0:26:18.480
<v Speaker 1>I was happy. That's all he ever cared about was

0:26:18.520 --> 0:26:22.920
<v Speaker 1>if you're happy, and Um, him passing was also just

0:26:23.040 --> 0:26:27.439
<v Speaker 1>like a finality of so many things, you know, of

0:26:27.520 --> 0:26:31.919
<v Speaker 1>Like the funeral itself was like you would like for

0:26:31.960 --> 0:26:34.639
<v Speaker 1>a king, you know what I mean, Like there was

0:26:35.320 --> 0:26:38.320
<v Speaker 1>in a private room for his family and the Sopranos cast,

0:26:39.480 --> 0:26:42.240
<v Speaker 1>like we were in there with his family before the funeral,

0:26:42.440 --> 0:26:45.560
<v Speaker 1>you know, to say our private goodbyes, and it's just

0:26:45.720 --> 0:26:49.719
<v Speaker 1>I guess, you know, shows the relationship like we all

0:26:49.800 --> 0:26:52.239
<v Speaker 1>had with him. And it was very surreal because if

0:26:52.280 --> 0:26:55.360
<v Speaker 1>you think about the show, I mean, each year you'd

0:26:55.400 --> 0:26:57.320
<v Speaker 1>come in for your wardrobe fitting and you'd have a

0:26:57.400 --> 0:26:59.800
<v Speaker 1>rack of black clothes because there was guaranteed to be

0:26:59.840 --> 0:27:02.120
<v Speaker 1>an number of funerals that everyone had to attend within

0:27:02.160 --> 0:27:05.920
<v Speaker 1>the Sopranos, and so to kind of be there and

0:27:05.960 --> 0:27:09.840
<v Speaker 1>there we all are, you know, dressed in black, standing together,

0:27:10.040 --> 0:27:13.439
<v Speaker 1>hugging each other, it was just yeah. I mean, you know,

0:27:13.480 --> 0:27:17.000
<v Speaker 1>I get to still talk to his son every once

0:27:17.040 --> 0:27:20.119
<v Speaker 1>in a while. And Deborah his wife, and she just

0:27:20.240 --> 0:27:23.879
<v Speaker 1>actually after the commercial air, recently sent Robert and I

0:27:23.960 --> 0:27:26.600
<v Speaker 1>a picture of their daughter, who was only a little

0:27:26.600 --> 0:27:29.800
<v Speaker 1>over a year when he passed. Um, she looks so

0:27:29.880 --> 0:27:34.640
<v Speaker 1>much like him. The Sopranos itself is just like this thing.

0:27:34.640 --> 0:27:36.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm sure you feel that way with The Office too.

0:27:36.600 --> 0:27:40.480
<v Speaker 1>It's like it's never going away. And I love that,

0:27:40.640 --> 0:27:43.600
<v Speaker 1>like it's it's you know, even conversations like this, it's

0:27:43.640 --> 0:27:46.080
<v Speaker 1>just warms my heart because I love talking about him

0:27:46.080 --> 0:27:49.240
<v Speaker 1>and I'll never, never not want to talk about him

0:27:49.320 --> 0:27:51.960
<v Speaker 1>or that time. And it's really rare to get to

0:27:51.960 --> 0:27:54.320
<v Speaker 1>be part of something like that that people still care

0:27:54.359 --> 0:27:59.240
<v Speaker 1>about so much. That is interesting. Idn't really thought to

0:27:59.520 --> 0:28:03.920
<v Speaker 1>discus stet with you, but yeah, these two shows that

0:28:04.000 --> 0:28:07.520
<v Speaker 1>we had the opportunity to be involved with, they are

0:28:07.600 --> 0:28:13.160
<v Speaker 1>not going away. There's almost no parallels in a way

0:28:13.280 --> 0:28:17.760
<v Speaker 1>to other shows. There's there's almost no precedent, right, And

0:28:18.080 --> 0:28:20.160
<v Speaker 1>I don't say that from a place of self importance,

0:28:20.160 --> 0:28:23.720
<v Speaker 1>but in terms of not only you know, what I

0:28:23.720 --> 0:28:25.800
<v Speaker 1>consider to be the quality of these two shows, but

0:28:25.880 --> 0:28:31.000
<v Speaker 1>how groundbreaking they were and how much they change television.

0:28:31.520 --> 0:28:35.640
<v Speaker 1>You can't do that. You can't you can't do that

0:28:36.320 --> 0:28:42.000
<v Speaker 1>very often. Yeah. One of the things I think that

0:28:42.400 --> 0:28:46.640
<v Speaker 1>people don't talk enough about the Sopranos, and I think

0:28:47.560 --> 0:28:52.719
<v Speaker 1>really is so important to it and to the form

0:28:52.880 --> 0:28:57.480
<v Speaker 1>of dramatic television, is how funny the show is Yeah.

0:28:57.520 --> 0:29:01.680
<v Speaker 1>I think that what that does is it really humanizes

0:29:01.840 --> 0:29:06.440
<v Speaker 1>people because people are funny, right like in real life,

0:29:06.920 --> 0:29:09.360
<v Speaker 1>And not that you have to be funny in every show,

0:29:09.960 --> 0:29:14.600
<v Speaker 1>but I mean in the Sopranos, everybody was funny in

0:29:14.640 --> 0:29:17.480
<v Speaker 1>a way, and so you you feel that humanity so

0:29:17.600 --> 0:29:21.760
<v Speaker 1>much more. I think, wow, yes, that's beautiful. Yes, you're

0:29:21.800 --> 0:29:24.719
<v Speaker 1>absolutely right. And I did actually have that when I

0:29:24.760 --> 0:29:28.280
<v Speaker 1>started watching it. I remember saying to some friends of mine, like,

0:29:28.800 --> 0:29:33.280
<v Speaker 1>I didn't realize how funny the show was. I laughed

0:29:33.360 --> 0:29:36.240
<v Speaker 1>a lot, a lot. Yeah, yeah, and not just it

0:29:36.320 --> 0:29:40.000
<v Speaker 1>like Pauli Walnuts or whatever, but there's a I mean

0:29:40.040 --> 0:29:44.520
<v Speaker 1>in a way, oh now I'm really going deep trying

0:29:44.520 --> 0:29:47.240
<v Speaker 1>to make this connection, but like in a way almost

0:29:47.280 --> 0:29:49.320
<v Speaker 1>office asking away, because a lot of times it is

0:29:49.360 --> 0:29:52.640
<v Speaker 1>like a look or like a response to a bad

0:29:52.720 --> 0:29:56.840
<v Speaker 1>joke or a like, but it just gives that, I

0:29:56.880 --> 0:30:00.040
<v Speaker 1>don't know, just that humanity. One time I remem it

0:30:00.200 --> 0:30:03.320
<v Speaker 1>was like the first episode that Michael Imperioli had written,

0:30:04.200 --> 0:30:06.680
<v Speaker 1>and I was doing this scene where there was like

0:30:06.720 --> 0:30:09.320
<v Speaker 1>some family barbecue and I came in I needed like

0:30:09.360 --> 0:30:11.360
<v Speaker 1>a cake pan, and then I have this moment with

0:30:11.440 --> 0:30:14.600
<v Speaker 1>Steamy's character blah blah blah. And Michael was behind the

0:30:14.640 --> 0:30:17.560
<v Speaker 1>monitor because he was the writer of that episode. And

0:30:17.600 --> 0:30:19.440
<v Speaker 1>after we finished a take and they were coming to

0:30:19.760 --> 0:30:21.760
<v Speaker 1>you know, reset the set, and he came up and

0:30:21.760 --> 0:30:24.240
<v Speaker 1>he goes, you're really funny in this scene. And I

0:30:24.320 --> 0:30:27.440
<v Speaker 1>was like, I am. I wasn't trying to be. He's like,

0:30:27.480 --> 0:30:29.720
<v Speaker 1>I know, that's why you really funny and missed you

0:30:30.400 --> 0:30:33.720
<v Speaker 1>and I remember. But there were moments like in Olivia's

0:30:33.800 --> 0:30:38.520
<v Speaker 1>funeral when Janice is giving that ridiculous speech and we're

0:30:38.520 --> 0:30:41.840
<v Speaker 1>all standing there and she plays like the Rogers and

0:30:41.880 --> 0:30:46.959
<v Speaker 1>hammerstony like music and it was hilarious. We always were

0:30:47.040 --> 0:30:49.560
<v Speaker 1>laughing on that set. We were always having a blast.

0:30:49.600 --> 0:30:54.280
<v Speaker 1>So um. But you're right, like Christopher, Olivia, like all

0:30:54.320 --> 0:30:58.080
<v Speaker 1>the characters were funny, Carmela, everyone was funny. Yes, everyone

0:30:58.200 --> 0:31:01.400
<v Speaker 1>was funny. And I think that there is something I mean,

0:31:01.480 --> 0:31:08.000
<v Speaker 1>even just situations right, like a situational comming. Not that

0:31:08.080 --> 0:31:11.040
<v Speaker 1>it's a sitcom place, but like I mean the episode

0:31:11.080 --> 0:31:13.880
<v Speaker 1>we were talking about earlier, where the idea that he's

0:31:13.960 --> 0:31:17.960
<v Speaker 1>taking his daughter on a college tour and then suddenly

0:31:18.000 --> 0:31:21.320
<v Speaker 1>there is someone that he may have to deal with.

0:31:21.680 --> 0:31:26.760
<v Speaker 1>I mean, just even that idea is there is something

0:31:26.960 --> 0:31:31.760
<v Speaker 1>sort of funny, I guess in a way, yeah, yeah, yeah,

0:31:32.120 --> 0:31:38.200
<v Speaker 1>Well that's David. I mean David's mind and way of storytelling.

0:31:38.520 --> 0:31:42.400
<v Speaker 1>He's not afraid to show every side of a character.

0:31:42.680 --> 0:31:45.960
<v Speaker 1>And I think that that, you know, allowing characters to

0:31:46.080 --> 0:31:51.320
<v Speaker 1>be heavily flawed and like make them really full and

0:31:51.720 --> 0:31:55.360
<v Speaker 1>well rounded. And I guess, in turn, then allows them

0:31:55.360 --> 0:31:57.400
<v Speaker 1>to be all of the sides of themselves. You know

0:31:58.160 --> 0:32:01.000
<v Speaker 1>totally when you watched it found it funny. Was there

0:32:01.040 --> 0:32:04.000
<v Speaker 1>any other impressions that you had? Yeah, you know, I

0:32:04.040 --> 0:32:06.360
<v Speaker 1>gave myself a little patter in the back, being like,

0:32:06.440 --> 0:32:08.719
<v Speaker 1>you did a good job, Jamie, Like you know you

0:32:08.760 --> 0:32:11.760
<v Speaker 1>were you had no I you had no clue what

0:32:11.800 --> 0:32:14.000
<v Speaker 1>you were doing. Like I didn't go to acting school,

0:32:14.160 --> 0:32:19.040
<v Speaker 1>Like I literally had no idea what I was doing.

0:32:19.120 --> 0:32:23.400
<v Speaker 1>So I I had a moment of like appreciating myself,

0:32:23.400 --> 0:32:26.080
<v Speaker 1>which is rare as an actor or just as a human,

0:32:26.720 --> 0:32:29.400
<v Speaker 1>and I like allowed, really allowed myself to do that,

0:32:29.480 --> 0:32:32.160
<v Speaker 1>and just you know, then I got it. I knew

0:32:32.520 --> 0:32:34.600
<v Speaker 1>people cared about the show, I knew how big the

0:32:34.640 --> 0:32:37.400
<v Speaker 1>show was. I mean I got to experience everything that

0:32:37.480 --> 0:32:39.960
<v Speaker 1>we did, and I hear the way people speak about it,

0:32:40.040 --> 0:32:43.440
<v Speaker 1>but I got it. I was like, oh, yeah, this

0:32:43.600 --> 0:32:48.040
<v Speaker 1>was an incredible television show and I'm so lucky. I

0:32:48.120 --> 0:32:53.360
<v Speaker 1>always felt lucky, but I just really like embodied that. Yeah. Um,

0:32:53.400 --> 0:32:56.280
<v Speaker 1>when you're filming the end of The Sopranos, did you

0:32:56.360 --> 0:32:59.720
<v Speaker 1>have a sense of what it meant for you filming

0:32:59.760 --> 0:33:03.640
<v Speaker 1>that last scene? Because you didn't, I didn't know you

0:33:03.760 --> 0:33:08.040
<v Speaker 1>play a hugely frustrating well no, but I mean like

0:33:08.200 --> 0:33:11.920
<v Speaker 1>a hugely important role in the dramatic build up of

0:33:12.000 --> 0:33:14.520
<v Speaker 1>that scene. Well, because you're waiting for her to get

0:33:14.560 --> 0:33:17.080
<v Speaker 1>in there because you think nothing, something's going to happen

0:33:17.120 --> 0:33:19.280
<v Speaker 1>before she gets in there. Once she gets in there,

0:33:19.920 --> 0:33:22.000
<v Speaker 1>and then all of that leading up to what's going

0:33:22.040 --> 0:33:26.040
<v Speaker 1>to happen when she gets there, you never know. Yes, Yes,

0:33:26.160 --> 0:33:29.280
<v Speaker 1>the moment I'm referring to is yes, Meadow, I'm sure not.

0:33:29.360 --> 0:33:32.200
<v Speaker 1>Jamie Meadow has a really difficult time parking the car,

0:33:33.960 --> 0:33:38.800
<v Speaker 1>and I will say, it's very difficult to park badly.

0:33:39.760 --> 0:33:43.080
<v Speaker 1>It was hard to He's keep hitting the curb and stuff.

0:33:43.360 --> 0:33:47.120
<v Speaker 1>You know, it was frustrating by the frustration you you

0:33:47.280 --> 0:33:53.440
<v Speaker 1>felt Meadow going through was my genuine frustration. But I

0:33:53.520 --> 0:33:55.680
<v Speaker 1>was there in a completely different day when they were

0:33:55.720 --> 0:34:00.400
<v Speaker 1>inside shooting there on the same day. Really, yeah, they

0:34:00.440 --> 0:34:03.560
<v Speaker 1>shot all of that another day, but you came in. No,

0:34:04.120 --> 0:34:06.480
<v Speaker 1>I just opened the door and you're right there. But

0:34:06.520 --> 0:34:10.719
<v Speaker 1>they weren't in there. They weren't in there. M That

0:34:10.800 --> 0:34:15.720
<v Speaker 1>was actually the very last role, like roll of film

0:34:16.080 --> 0:34:19.480
<v Speaker 1>was me running there and opening the door through like

0:34:19.480 --> 0:34:21.719
<v Speaker 1>they had kegs of beer. Like, yeah, that was the

0:34:21.840 --> 0:34:25.319
<v Speaker 1>very last thing the whole series shot. Well, you heard

0:34:25.440 --> 0:34:27.640
<v Speaker 1>you heard it here first. I'm disappointed they weren't there.

0:34:27.880 --> 0:34:34.240
<v Speaker 1>Damn it. That's all right. That was David Chase's fault.

0:34:52.880 --> 0:34:56.080
<v Speaker 1>When the show ended, you have you haven't seen the show,

0:34:56.280 --> 0:35:00.279
<v Speaker 1>but you must know and feel what a big deal

0:35:00.360 --> 0:35:04.480
<v Speaker 1>that this is for people and yourself. I mean, you

0:35:04.640 --> 0:35:10.800
<v Speaker 1>spent ten years years with these people on the show.

0:35:11.000 --> 0:35:14.960
<v Speaker 1>How was that when it ended? Well, I mean I

0:35:15.000 --> 0:35:19.960
<v Speaker 1>think there was equally levels of like excitement of kind

0:35:19.960 --> 0:35:24.359
<v Speaker 1>of like what's next and deep sadness because we had

0:35:24.400 --> 0:35:26.800
<v Speaker 1>just gotten so used to just knowing we were just

0:35:26.840 --> 0:35:28.640
<v Speaker 1>going to see each other again, and we didn't know

0:35:28.680 --> 0:35:31.759
<v Speaker 1>what this meant for anybody that was twenty six at

0:35:31.760 --> 0:35:33.520
<v Speaker 1>the time. So I think I was also at this

0:35:33.560 --> 0:35:36.200
<v Speaker 1>time in my life where I wanted to kind of

0:35:36.239 --> 0:35:39.920
<v Speaker 1>explore and make mistakes and figure out who I was

0:35:40.080 --> 0:35:43.160
<v Speaker 1>because I was sixteen and on that show, like everything

0:35:43.280 --> 0:35:45.319
<v Speaker 1>was very safe for me, and I just felt like

0:35:45.360 --> 0:35:47.960
<v Speaker 1>I needed to be in my twenties a little bit.

0:35:48.760 --> 0:35:51.160
<v Speaker 1>So right when the show ended, I went on a

0:35:51.200 --> 0:35:54.520
<v Speaker 1>birthright trip to Israel, and then I moved to Los Angeles,

0:35:55.239 --> 0:35:58.640
<v Speaker 1>and then I had a hard time in the beginning auditioning.

0:35:59.239 --> 0:36:02.160
<v Speaker 1>It wasn't see I think. I think it was like

0:36:02.600 --> 0:36:05.640
<v Speaker 1>partially me but partially other people not being able to

0:36:05.640 --> 0:36:07.759
<v Speaker 1>see me as anything but Meadow. Like I was going

0:36:07.760 --> 0:36:09.960
<v Speaker 1>out for a lot of sitcoms and multicams and I

0:36:09.960 --> 0:36:12.719
<v Speaker 1>would always get to test at the network and then

0:36:12.719 --> 0:36:15.120
<v Speaker 1>the feedback would be like, I just can't see her

0:36:15.160 --> 0:36:18.560
<v Speaker 1>as funny. And so I went through a couple of

0:36:18.640 --> 0:36:22.239
<v Speaker 1>years of growing pains of figuring that out. And during

0:36:22.280 --> 0:36:25.200
<v Speaker 1>that time I was very lucky because Entourage had invited

0:36:25.200 --> 0:36:26.920
<v Speaker 1>me on to do a guest spot, and then I

0:36:27.040 --> 0:36:28.840
<v Speaker 1>ended up staying for a season and a half, and

0:36:28.840 --> 0:36:30.719
<v Speaker 1>it was this kind of cool transition for me to

0:36:31.680 --> 0:36:37.000
<v Speaker 1>play myself but on the channel and the medium and

0:36:37.040 --> 0:36:39.440
<v Speaker 1>probably a lot of the same crossover audience of people

0:36:39.440 --> 0:36:41.040
<v Speaker 1>that knew me as Meadow, so we can still talk

0:36:41.040 --> 0:36:42.719
<v Speaker 1>about Meadow, but I could kind of let her go

0:36:42.760 --> 0:36:47.000
<v Speaker 1>a little bit, and it was just really fun job that,

0:36:47.239 --> 0:36:50.279
<v Speaker 1>you know, was I'm very grateful, so grateful to Doug

0:36:50.280 --> 0:36:52.440
<v Speaker 1>Ellen that he gave me that opportunity and kept me

0:36:52.480 --> 0:36:54.720
<v Speaker 1>on as long as he did, because I think otherwise

0:36:54.719 --> 0:36:58.800
<v Speaker 1>it would have been even harder. But then I actually

0:36:58.840 --> 0:37:01.479
<v Speaker 1>took kind of like I worked a little here and there,

0:37:01.520 --> 0:37:04.279
<v Speaker 1>but I kind of took some time off to a

0:37:04.520 --> 0:37:07.440
<v Speaker 1>figure out if I still really love acting, because I

0:37:07.440 --> 0:37:10.680
<v Speaker 1>think when you start as a young kid, sometimes you

0:37:10.760 --> 0:37:13.120
<v Speaker 1>have those moments of like why am I doing this?

0:37:13.120 --> 0:37:15.560
<v Speaker 1>Is this just because I don't want to fail and

0:37:15.600 --> 0:37:18.239
<v Speaker 1>I want to keep proving that i've I can do this,

0:37:18.520 --> 0:37:21.160
<v Speaker 1>or do I really want to? And so I had

0:37:21.200 --> 0:37:24.640
<v Speaker 1>my kids, and then I went into an acting class,

0:37:24.680 --> 0:37:27.040
<v Speaker 1>a brand new acting class with the brand new teacher.

0:37:27.360 --> 0:37:30.400
<v Speaker 1>Everyone was like eighteen or nineteen. I was like the

0:37:30.440 --> 0:37:33.880
<v Speaker 1>old lady in the class. And every week I loved

0:37:33.880 --> 0:37:37.040
<v Speaker 1>it because I would fail. I would like funk up

0:37:37.120 --> 0:37:40.920
<v Speaker 1>so bad and I but I was allowed to because

0:37:40.960 --> 0:37:43.200
<v Speaker 1>I was on sopranos. I felt like I had this

0:37:43.280 --> 0:37:45.520
<v Speaker 1>reputation to hold up to, and I couldn't take any

0:37:45.640 --> 0:37:47.640
<v Speaker 1>chances and I played it safe, but they didn't want

0:37:47.640 --> 0:37:49.880
<v Speaker 1>to be wrong and I was. I was so protected

0:37:49.920 --> 0:37:52.799
<v Speaker 1>on that show and now I was like scared. So

0:37:53.280 --> 0:37:56.560
<v Speaker 1>going into a class for a year really allowed me

0:37:56.600 --> 0:37:58.680
<v Speaker 1>to fall in love with acting again but also kind

0:37:58.680 --> 0:38:01.520
<v Speaker 1>of learned how to act as an adult. And so

0:38:02.480 --> 0:38:05.239
<v Speaker 1>from that that those ten years, it was like a

0:38:05.280 --> 0:38:08.360
<v Speaker 1>lot of ups and downs until I kind of found

0:38:08.400 --> 0:38:10.480
<v Speaker 1>my new love for it, like I said, in kind

0:38:10.480 --> 0:38:13.600
<v Speaker 1>of new stride again. But that's this business, you know.

0:38:13.680 --> 0:38:17.040
<v Speaker 1>I remember my manager has always said to me, like

0:38:17.719 --> 0:38:20.319
<v Speaker 1>everyone gets invited back to the party, like just take

0:38:20.480 --> 0:38:23.960
<v Speaker 1>just keep focused, keep happy with your family, you know,

0:38:24.080 --> 0:38:28.360
<v Speaker 1>under like understand what's important in life. Work hard and

0:38:28.360 --> 0:38:31.120
<v Speaker 1>and it's it's it's hard. My first job was like

0:38:31.160 --> 0:38:34.080
<v Speaker 1>the biggest show in the world, you know, and like

0:38:34.200 --> 0:38:36.920
<v Speaker 1>to start off like that, it's a lot of outcomes

0:38:36.920 --> 0:38:42.719
<v Speaker 1>are possible. Well, that is an amazing manager number one, Like, oh,

0:38:42.800 --> 0:38:46.120
<v Speaker 1>he's the best, like for for real, like to give

0:38:46.160 --> 0:38:49.440
<v Speaker 1>you that and that is that's an amazing lesson that

0:38:49.480 --> 0:38:54.280
<v Speaker 1>you talked about being afraid to fail because of success

0:38:54.320 --> 0:38:58.640
<v Speaker 1>that you have and the idea that potentially a person

0:38:58.760 --> 0:39:01.799
<v Speaker 1>who's had some success us now has to play it

0:39:01.960 --> 0:39:05.400
<v Speaker 1>safe because of the success that they've had, because they

0:39:05.440 --> 0:39:08.239
<v Speaker 1>don't want anything to sort of mar that and not

0:39:08.400 --> 0:39:11.759
<v Speaker 1>be bold. And I see the pressure in that, I

0:39:11.760 --> 0:39:14.759
<v Speaker 1>guess is what I'm saying. And that is so amazing

0:39:14.800 --> 0:39:16.960
<v Speaker 1>that you went back and said I'm gonna take this

0:39:17.000 --> 0:39:20.600
<v Speaker 1>class with eighteen year olds and fuck them. Um yeah,

0:39:20.640 --> 0:39:23.640
<v Speaker 1>that's awesome. Yeah, I mean it wasn't easy, but it was.

0:39:23.680 --> 0:39:25.840
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, I can look back and and have a

0:39:25.880 --> 0:39:28.640
<v Speaker 1>great appreciation for it. And like you said, I have

0:39:28.719 --> 0:39:31.200
<v Speaker 1>a great manager and I've tried to quit so many

0:39:31.280 --> 0:39:34.759
<v Speaker 1>times and he's just like, okay, i'll call you in

0:39:34.800 --> 0:39:36.920
<v Speaker 1>a little And also I think I was testing the

0:39:36.960 --> 0:39:39.920
<v Speaker 1>waters of you know, you kind of don't even realize

0:39:39.960 --> 0:39:42.600
<v Speaker 1>you're doing it. You're like, I'm gonna quit, and you

0:39:42.600 --> 0:39:44.200
<v Speaker 1>want to see if like you're doing them a favor,

0:39:44.239 --> 0:39:46.600
<v Speaker 1>and they'll be like, okay, Like I get it. You know,

0:39:46.840 --> 0:39:50.920
<v Speaker 1>it's really exactly You're great, we love you. I'll call

0:39:50.960 --> 0:39:53.200
<v Speaker 1>you on your birthday. But I think you know it's

0:39:53.200 --> 0:39:55.320
<v Speaker 1>in this business. I mean, as much as we don't

0:39:55.360 --> 0:39:58.759
<v Speaker 1>want to feel like validation is important to us. I mean,

0:39:59.000 --> 0:40:01.200
<v Speaker 1>you need to know people believe in you, because there's

0:40:01.239 --> 0:40:03.719
<v Speaker 1>so many ups and downs and there. It really is

0:40:03.719 --> 0:40:06.920
<v Speaker 1>important to have just a few people that you know

0:40:07.719 --> 0:40:11.880
<v Speaker 1>remind you and keep you going. Well. You mentioned before

0:40:12.480 --> 0:40:15.160
<v Speaker 1>you got diagnosed with MS while you were working on

0:40:15.160 --> 0:40:20.080
<v Speaker 1>the Sopranos and you didn't tell anyone for fifteen years.

0:40:21.160 --> 0:40:26.279
<v Speaker 1>Why did that have to do with the business. Yeah, yeah,

0:40:26.400 --> 0:40:28.719
<v Speaker 1>I had to do with the business. It had to

0:40:28.760 --> 0:40:32.840
<v Speaker 1>do with my own acceptance of it. And I should

0:40:32.880 --> 0:40:35.600
<v Speaker 1>say that everything that we just talked about MS played

0:40:35.600 --> 0:40:39.520
<v Speaker 1>a very heavy role in that as well, because as

0:40:39.920 --> 0:40:44.240
<v Speaker 1>years went by, as the disease progressed, as I became

0:40:44.719 --> 0:40:49.200
<v Speaker 1>more limited, and only until very recently have I been

0:40:49.280 --> 0:40:54.360
<v Speaker 1>able to label myself as disabled, it was very hard

0:40:54.400 --> 0:40:58.279
<v Speaker 1>for me to say that or accept that. Um I

0:40:58.400 --> 0:41:01.319
<v Speaker 1>hit it and I just assumed that no one would

0:41:01.400 --> 0:41:05.960
<v Speaker 1>hire me with MS, and I wouldn't blame them. I

0:41:05.960 --> 0:41:12.200
<v Speaker 1>think I also had to really understand what this disease

0:41:12.280 --> 0:41:15.000
<v Speaker 1>meant for me and my life, like how it manifested,

0:41:15.160 --> 0:41:18.640
<v Speaker 1>how it limited me, because to keep up with the

0:41:18.719 --> 0:41:22.640
<v Speaker 1>lies that I was telling to cover up why I

0:41:22.640 --> 0:41:25.279
<v Speaker 1>couldn't run, and then why I kind of had a

0:41:25.280 --> 0:41:27.720
<v Speaker 1>little bit of a limp, you know why I couldn't

0:41:27.760 --> 0:41:31.520
<v Speaker 1>wear high heels, like I couldn't keep up with with

0:41:31.600 --> 0:41:35.040
<v Speaker 1>it until I figured out what this disease meant for me.

0:41:35.120 --> 0:41:37.440
<v Speaker 1>And I've been knock on wood stable for the last

0:41:37.440 --> 0:41:41.319
<v Speaker 1>ten years, so I've been able to really understand. I've

0:41:41.320 --> 0:41:43.040
<v Speaker 1>been able to kind of get a hold on the

0:41:43.120 --> 0:41:46.719
<v Speaker 1>disease halted. It still limits me in a lot of ways,

0:41:47.320 --> 0:41:51.480
<v Speaker 1>but it's allowed me to feel more confident and concentrate

0:41:51.520 --> 0:41:54.520
<v Speaker 1>more on acting as opposed to my physicality and having

0:41:54.520 --> 0:41:57.920
<v Speaker 1>to cover something up. But I think a lot of

0:41:57.920 --> 0:42:00.880
<v Speaker 1>it came from two of me just always wanting to

0:42:00.920 --> 0:42:04.480
<v Speaker 1>be the good girl, not a burden, not a problem.

0:42:04.480 --> 0:42:06.640
<v Speaker 1>And I had a lot of guilt and shame about

0:42:06.680 --> 0:42:10.480
<v Speaker 1>having a mess because I felt like, I'm sorry I'm

0:42:10.520 --> 0:42:13.360
<v Speaker 1>coming here with this, I'm sorry that this is what

0:42:13.520 --> 0:42:17.319
<v Speaker 1>I have. And after I had my first son, when

0:42:17.320 --> 0:42:20.680
<v Speaker 1>he was about two and a half three, he was

0:42:20.800 --> 0:42:23.960
<v Speaker 1>aware of my limitations. I didn't have to explain I

0:42:24.000 --> 0:42:26.640
<v Speaker 1>had MS. He just knew mommy can't run things like that.

0:42:26.760 --> 0:42:31.080
<v Speaker 1>But I really I had to take a hard look

0:42:31.080 --> 0:42:33.880
<v Speaker 1>at myself and how I was going through life and

0:42:33.920 --> 0:42:37.120
<v Speaker 1>realizing like, am I gonna ask my kid to lie

0:42:37.200 --> 0:42:39.920
<v Speaker 1>for me one day? Or am I gonna lie to

0:42:40.000 --> 0:42:42.880
<v Speaker 1>my kid about what's happening? This isn't this isn't fair,

0:42:43.800 --> 0:42:47.720
<v Speaker 1>and so um that's when I decided to become public

0:42:47.800 --> 0:42:52.440
<v Speaker 1>with it. But only and this isn't anybody else's fault,

0:42:52.480 --> 0:42:55.360
<v Speaker 1>this is me. Only until this job that I'm on

0:42:55.560 --> 0:42:59.799
<v Speaker 1>right now on Big Sky, have I really realized it's

0:43:00.160 --> 0:43:03.320
<v Speaker 1>it's not an issue. And I think it's not because

0:43:03.520 --> 0:43:07.440
<v Speaker 1>people weren't willing to help me. It's I'm willing to

0:43:07.520 --> 0:43:10.400
<v Speaker 1>let people help me now. So on this role I

0:43:10.440 --> 0:43:12.839
<v Speaker 1>have on Big Sky, I was this four episode arc

0:43:13.200 --> 0:43:15.839
<v Speaker 1>supposed to come in and out my characters running through

0:43:15.840 --> 0:43:17.839
<v Speaker 1>the woods. They had a stunt double, but they also

0:43:17.840 --> 0:43:19.879
<v Speaker 1>built me this rig so from here up it looks

0:43:19.920 --> 0:43:22.840
<v Speaker 1>like I'm running like they did all these amazing things

0:43:22.880 --> 0:43:24.799
<v Speaker 1>for me, and then I'm ready to say goodbye, and

0:43:24.840 --> 0:43:28.120
<v Speaker 1>they were like, we really like what you're doing. We

0:43:28.160 --> 0:43:31.160
<v Speaker 1>want to keep you on the show. And here I

0:43:31.200 --> 0:43:36.319
<v Speaker 1>am fifteen episodes later. They know about my body, it

0:43:36.360 --> 0:43:39.719
<v Speaker 1>doesn't matter, it's not even written in the role. And

0:43:39.760 --> 0:43:43.440
<v Speaker 1>it really has been the first opportunity for me to like,

0:43:44.120 --> 0:43:47.680
<v Speaker 1>I feel like it's okay that I have this. It's okay.

0:43:47.760 --> 0:43:50.399
<v Speaker 1>It's not a burden, it's not an issue. And I've

0:43:50.440 --> 0:43:54.400
<v Speaker 1>also realized in my life living with m S, because

0:43:54.480 --> 0:43:57.560
<v Speaker 1>my kind of stuff is on the outside you can

0:43:57.600 --> 0:44:01.440
<v Speaker 1>see it, people feel say to share with me things

0:44:01.440 --> 0:44:04.280
<v Speaker 1>that they're dealing with. And I don't think I deserve

0:44:04.480 --> 0:44:07.880
<v Speaker 1>any extra credit for pursuing a career in the entertainment

0:44:07.880 --> 0:44:10.720
<v Speaker 1>business with m S because what I've come to realize

0:44:10.719 --> 0:44:13.560
<v Speaker 1>is we all have stuff that we're coming to and

0:44:13.560 --> 0:44:16.640
<v Speaker 1>we're showing up every day. You just happen to see mine,

0:44:17.120 --> 0:44:19.959
<v Speaker 1>and it makes me feel less different, but it also

0:44:20.000 --> 0:44:24.160
<v Speaker 1>makes me feel less alone. And um, it's a really

0:44:24.200 --> 0:44:26.759
<v Speaker 1>empowering place to be that I never thought I would be.

0:44:27.200 --> 0:44:29.080
<v Speaker 1>And it's one of those moments where you kind of

0:44:29.080 --> 0:44:36.160
<v Speaker 1>like become grateful for your trauma because I know I

0:44:36.160 --> 0:44:38.160
<v Speaker 1>wouldn't be who I am or have the perspective that

0:44:38.200 --> 0:44:41.520
<v Speaker 1>I have in my life in general without it. So

0:44:41.640 --> 0:44:44.400
<v Speaker 1>it's it's a really a really nice place to be.

0:44:44.920 --> 0:44:52.120
<v Speaker 1>God bless Jamie. It's so incredible, truly, and your perspective

0:44:52.360 --> 0:44:56.960
<v Speaker 1>and what the gift that you talk about people giving

0:44:56.960 --> 0:44:59.120
<v Speaker 1>to you, but Also, what you're giving to other people

0:44:59.480 --> 0:45:04.239
<v Speaker 1>is vitally important, and I'm not going to over dramatize it,

0:45:04.320 --> 0:45:06.080
<v Speaker 1>but I just I respect the hell out of you

0:45:06.120 --> 0:45:10.319
<v Speaker 1>for that, and I cannot, I cannot tell you how

0:45:10.360 --> 0:45:15.000
<v Speaker 1>happy I am that you have found peace on this show.

0:45:15.160 --> 0:45:17.759
<v Speaker 1>And it's my next bene watch. By the way, John

0:45:17.760 --> 0:45:20.160
<v Speaker 1>Carroll Lynch has taken a lot of roles from me

0:45:20.440 --> 0:45:25.920
<v Speaker 1>over the years. And yes, and uh back in uh

0:45:26.120 --> 0:45:32.839
<v Speaker 1>from from Minnesota. But that guy, that guy, Yeah, that's

0:45:32.960 --> 0:45:35.480
<v Speaker 1>it's my neck. I don't know. I just I missed it.

0:45:35.560 --> 0:45:38.560
<v Speaker 1>I've missed the show. I started looking at it. Well,

0:45:38.600 --> 0:45:42.719
<v Speaker 1>there's so many shows. I mean, there's so many. I'm

0:45:42.719 --> 0:45:46.399
<v Speaker 1>not beating myself up, but no, you can't. You can't.

0:45:46.400 --> 0:45:48.799
<v Speaker 1>I'm not beating myself up. But but I look, I

0:45:48.840 --> 0:45:51.080
<v Speaker 1>was like, wait a second, John is on this show.

0:45:51.440 --> 0:45:53.680
<v Speaker 1>Jamie's coming in. It's gonna be on this show like

0:45:54.880 --> 0:45:58.839
<v Speaker 1>murdering mystery and my exact kind of thing. So I'm

0:45:58.880 --> 0:46:01.879
<v Speaker 1>excited about it. I want to ask you one other

0:46:01.920 --> 0:46:05.360
<v Speaker 1>thing about you played a mob wife in mob Town

0:46:05.800 --> 0:46:11.080
<v Speaker 1>later on? Was that fun? Was that funny? That so fun?

0:46:11.160 --> 0:46:13.719
<v Speaker 1>Did you call Edie and ask her advice? About how

0:46:13.760 --> 0:46:16.960
<v Speaker 1>to play a mob wife or no, you just watched him.

0:46:18.320 --> 0:46:20.160
<v Speaker 1>It's like, you know, it's one of those things. We've

0:46:20.200 --> 0:46:23.960
<v Speaker 1>seen all of the score Staysy films and you know,

0:46:24.160 --> 0:46:26.320
<v Speaker 1>and like I lived in the Sopranos, so it's like

0:46:26.360 --> 0:46:28.560
<v Speaker 1>as soon as they gave me the big hair and like,

0:46:28.960 --> 0:46:30.600
<v Speaker 1>and it was took place in the sixties, so it's

0:46:30.600 --> 0:46:32.600
<v Speaker 1>like as soon as they gave me the words of everything,

0:46:32.640 --> 0:46:34.799
<v Speaker 1>and I can I mean, I have a bit of

0:46:34.800 --> 0:46:36.879
<v Speaker 1>a New York accent, but I can slip right back

0:46:36.880 --> 0:46:40.160
<v Speaker 1>into like my real New York accent really easy. So

0:46:41.160 --> 0:46:45.480
<v Speaker 1>it was so much fun. Oh yeah, you and Robert

0:46:45.480 --> 0:46:51.759
<v Speaker 1>Eiler new podcast as well. Pajama pants. Um, yes, I

0:46:51.800 --> 0:46:54.160
<v Speaker 1>was going to tell you that in honor of you,

0:46:54.320 --> 0:47:00.480
<v Speaker 1>I was wearing pajama pants today. Good me too. I'm not,

0:47:00.600 --> 0:47:04.840
<v Speaker 1>are you, but you're not not? Yeah, I'm in sweatpants,

0:47:05.040 --> 0:47:08.239
<v Speaker 1>all right. Well that's that counts. That counts. How is that?

0:47:08.600 --> 0:47:11.640
<v Speaker 1>I know you guys had such a great relationship and

0:47:12.040 --> 0:47:15.719
<v Speaker 1>it must be fun you're working with him again. Oh,

0:47:15.719 --> 0:47:17.839
<v Speaker 1>it's the best. He's my best friend. He has been

0:47:17.840 --> 0:47:22.200
<v Speaker 1>since day one. We have, you know, a bond that

0:47:22.680 --> 0:47:27.040
<v Speaker 1>is so unique. We had a really special experience. I'm

0:47:27.080 --> 0:47:29.600
<v Speaker 1>sure you can feel with so many of your cast

0:47:29.640 --> 0:47:34.520
<v Speaker 1>made a really unique and special experience. And you know,

0:47:35.040 --> 0:47:37.680
<v Speaker 1>we've been so close throughout all of this time, and

0:47:37.719 --> 0:47:40.560
<v Speaker 1>we love doing the podcast together and it's so fun.

0:47:41.120 --> 0:47:43.200
<v Speaker 1>But you know, when we just shot the super Bowl

0:47:43.200 --> 0:47:47.200
<v Speaker 1>commercial together next, it was another thing where we're like,

0:47:48.400 --> 0:47:52.000
<v Speaker 1>how freaking cool that we get to experience this together.

0:47:52.680 --> 0:47:55.120
<v Speaker 1>You know, it's just another thing where like no one

0:47:55.160 --> 0:47:57.920
<v Speaker 1>would under like when we were there filming and we

0:47:58.000 --> 0:48:01.120
<v Speaker 1>have the same David Chase direct did it that you

0:48:01.160 --> 0:48:04.160
<v Speaker 1>know our DP film Phil Abraham who's now this huge

0:48:04.160 --> 0:48:07.040
<v Speaker 1>TV director, came back to DP and the same camera

0:48:07.080 --> 0:48:11.440
<v Speaker 1>operator and we're looking at each other like, this is crazy,

0:48:11.480 --> 0:48:16.120
<v Speaker 1>this is so cool. Is so without a question, you

0:48:16.200 --> 0:48:18.719
<v Speaker 1>won the super Bowl? For me? There is not there

0:48:19.280 --> 0:48:23.880
<v Speaker 1>is not even close. I'm start hearing this music and

0:48:23.920 --> 0:48:28.239
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, what did we did? Did we click back over? It? Was?

0:48:28.320 --> 0:48:30.600
<v Speaker 1>This is what the rewatching is like? How did I?

0:48:31.200 --> 0:48:33.000
<v Speaker 1>And I start seeing it and I see your face

0:48:33.040 --> 0:48:36.320
<v Speaker 1>and I'm like, oh my god, this is so genius

0:48:36.800 --> 0:48:40.560
<v Speaker 1>and that it's Chevy and that this it was the

0:48:40.640 --> 0:48:45.080
<v Speaker 1>Suburban and now it's the new kid and it's the

0:48:45.160 --> 0:48:49.399
<v Speaker 1>electric I mean, it's it's it could not be more perfect. Yeah,

0:48:49.480 --> 0:48:55.080
<v Speaker 1>it was really. When they called to tell us about it,

0:48:55.320 --> 0:49:00.200
<v Speaker 1>I just remember feeling so happy for the Sopranos fans.

0:49:00.239 --> 0:49:03.200
<v Speaker 1>I was like, people, if it's done right, which I

0:49:03.239 --> 0:49:05.520
<v Speaker 1>had no doubt it would be David directing and everything,

0:49:05.560 --> 0:49:08.600
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, this is gonna be so cool because I

0:49:08.640 --> 0:49:11.080
<v Speaker 1>wanted They wanted that. They wanted people's heads to turn,

0:49:12.280 --> 0:49:15.080
<v Speaker 1>because I didn't realize so many commercials get leaked before.

0:49:15.120 --> 0:49:19.000
<v Speaker 1>I never paid attention to super Bowl commercials one I guess,

0:49:19.280 --> 0:49:21.359
<v Speaker 1>and so like I noticed. I was like, oh, all

0:49:21.400 --> 0:49:24.120
<v Speaker 1>these commercials are leaked already before super Bowl. Like I

0:49:24.160 --> 0:49:27.719
<v Speaker 1>didn't realize they did that. And ours we signed n

0:49:27.800 --> 0:49:29.960
<v Speaker 1>d as, we couldn't tell anyone. Only my husband and

0:49:29.960 --> 0:49:33.840
<v Speaker 1>my parents knew. And you know, they wanted it to

0:49:33.880 --> 0:49:36.200
<v Speaker 1>be that surprise where you hear the music, you look like,

0:49:36.239 --> 0:49:38.000
<v Speaker 1>what am I watching? Is this a new show? Was

0:49:38.040 --> 0:49:40.600
<v Speaker 1>that meadow? Oh my god, j oh, it's for a car?

0:49:41.000 --> 0:49:45.120
<v Speaker 1>You know? Did David call you? How did you find

0:49:45.160 --> 0:49:47.560
<v Speaker 1>out about it? No? My manager, but then he said

0:49:47.680 --> 0:49:50.319
<v Speaker 1>David's doing it, and yeah, I mean, I mean I

0:49:50.320 --> 0:49:53.239
<v Speaker 1>didn't need much convincing, but yes, exactly, and then we

0:49:53.320 --> 0:49:56.640
<v Speaker 1>and that was we found out right before Christmas and

0:49:56.719 --> 0:50:00.560
<v Speaker 1>we shot it in mid January in New York. So awesome. Yeah,

0:50:00.600 --> 0:50:05.440
<v Speaker 1>it was cool, so awesome. Um living in Austin, Texas.

0:50:05.520 --> 0:50:09.000
<v Speaker 1>You made the move now, congratulations on that. I hear

0:50:10.000 --> 0:50:15.720
<v Speaker 1>it is spectacular And I have to get there very

0:50:15.840 --> 0:50:18.239
<v Speaker 1>very soon. Yes, you got to let me know when

0:50:18.239 --> 0:50:21.839
<v Speaker 1>you come. I will for sure. I thank you so

0:50:21.960 --> 0:50:26.600
<v Speaker 1>much for talking to me. I appreciate you so much,

0:50:26.640 --> 0:50:30.840
<v Speaker 1>and after hearing truly, after hearing your stories today, I

0:50:30.920 --> 0:50:32.560
<v Speaker 1>respect the hell out of you even more than I

0:50:32.560 --> 0:50:36.480
<v Speaker 1>did before. That's so nice. Well, I've I've had a

0:50:36.560 --> 0:50:39.360
<v Speaker 1>great time talking to you. I'm so glad that you

0:50:39.440 --> 0:50:45.799
<v Speaker 1>still had my number. I know, well because I'm the

0:50:45.840 --> 0:50:47.840
<v Speaker 1>only person in the world that's had the same number

0:50:47.840 --> 0:50:51.480
<v Speaker 1>for over twenty years. But this is why, except me,

0:50:51.719 --> 0:50:53.759
<v Speaker 1>you have the same number two for the song. Yeah,

0:50:53.880 --> 0:50:57.000
<v Speaker 1>the same number, and you have the same number. Thankfully,

0:50:57.200 --> 0:51:02.360
<v Speaker 1>And yeah, j Amy, thank you. It's been a pleasure,

0:51:02.840 --> 0:51:18.440
<v Speaker 1>my pleasure. Thank you. There she is, Ladies and gentlemen,

0:51:18.800 --> 0:51:21.640
<v Speaker 1>Jamie Lynn is so great to have you on, so

0:51:21.760 --> 0:51:24.160
<v Speaker 1>nice to see you and to talk to you. You

0:51:24.200 --> 0:51:30.600
<v Speaker 1>are truly one of my my favorite humans and actors obviously,

0:51:30.680 --> 0:51:33.000
<v Speaker 1>so thank you so much for coming on. Listen to

0:51:33.000 --> 0:51:37.720
<v Speaker 1>her podcast Put Jama Pants, and check her out Big

0:51:37.760 --> 0:51:42.960
<v Speaker 1>Sky on ABC season two. You will not regret it.

0:51:43.080 --> 0:51:47.680
<v Speaker 1>That's all we got today. Remember to like and subscribe

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0:51:57.840 --> 0:52:08.640
<v Speaker 1>I know after this talk, I sure will. Off the

0:52:08.680 --> 0:52:12.360
<v Speaker 1>Beat is hosted an executive produced by me Brian Baumgartner

0:52:12.560 --> 0:52:17.400
<v Speaker 1>alongside our executive producer Langley. Our producers are Diego Tapia,

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