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Speaker 1: Wind Down with Janet Raymer and I'm Heart Radio Podcast.

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Speaker 2: So why do I always laugh? I get uncomfortable. That's

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Speaker 2: like the I laugh when I'm uncomfortable. Same like it's

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Speaker 2: even when I'm I probably have laughed one time when

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Speaker 2: we fought her.

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Speaker 3: I can think of a very specific time.

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Speaker 2: So I just get so uncomfortable.

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Speaker 3: I do the same.

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Speaker 2: Oh man, why are.

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Speaker 3: You so uncomfortable right now?

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Speaker 2: Well, because we have to break another announcement, another announcement,

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Speaker 2: another announcement. So I sold the house.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, thank god.

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Speaker 2: Yes, I thank god. Your husband is about to get

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Speaker 2: nick is my obviously her her husband, and what's excess

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Speaker 2: and her husband is my realtor and it's sold. It's

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Speaker 2: so stressful, by the way, Well, the market's so interesting, yeah,

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Speaker 2: so interesting right now. And from watching Selling Sunset, I've

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Speaker 2: just been you know, like because they've been talking about

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Speaker 2: the market.

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Speaker 3: Oh, I love Selling Sunset.

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Speaker 2: Have you watched it all? Yeah, it's an off air.

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Speaker 2: I have to tell you a funny conversation that I

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Speaker 2: had with one of the cast mates texted me. But

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Speaker 2: sorry that was rude to you guys. But yeah, so

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Speaker 2: because it's like it's just wild right now. It is

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Speaker 2: some things are selling, some things aren't. I'm not really

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Speaker 2: worried about like because I know interest rates will always

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Speaker 2: they're always up and down.

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Speaker 1: But I'm stressing about interest rates and it's like, don't

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Speaker 1: stress so much about that, and just like do do

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Speaker 1: world Also, we get so used to the being so low.

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Speaker 1: Those were not it was like down to like what

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Speaker 1: three yeah, yeah, or even less, which is not what

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Speaker 1: it's you know, traditionally been so right.

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Speaker 2: But yeah, so that piece, I'm like what I was

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Speaker 2: getting worried about. I was like, I can't afford two mortgages,

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Speaker 2: and then he wants to make the worst was we

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Speaker 2: were doing like this walk through at the new house

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Speaker 2: and the builder was like good news. He's like, I know,

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Speaker 2: I told you October November. He's like it's looking like August,

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Speaker 2: and Nick goes fu.

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Speaker 3: He didn't come home and he was like, damn, builder

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Speaker 3: told her August.

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Speaker 2: And so now that I'm like a big Ted Lasso fan,

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Speaker 2: I just my Ry Kenton impersonation. You have to watch it.

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Speaker 2: I need you to watch it. It's going to be

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Speaker 2: over so sad. But yeah, he was just like fuck

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Speaker 2: so yeah. So but so I got a little worried,

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Speaker 2: and I know we priced it high, but at the time,

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Speaker 2: like things were just like time at the time, Yeah,

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Speaker 2: we had just missed that window though when we priced

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Speaker 2: your high and no.

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Speaker 3: One really knew what was going to necessarily happen.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, like someone in my neighborhood, oh did it, Like

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Speaker 2: they're right at the right time. And there's was like

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Speaker 2: sold for more than what my house sold for now

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Speaker 2: and it's like there's this less square footage like not.

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Speaker 2: But I was like, but I'm like, you know, at

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Speaker 2: that time, I didn't know I was building a new house, right,

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Speaker 2: So but anyways, yes, the household we've been it's been

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Speaker 2: crazy because I thought I've had I would have a

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Speaker 2: lot of time to get out of the house, right.

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Speaker 2: So like the new people coming in are just a

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Speaker 2: wonderful couple, Like they're so sweet and they're like, yeah,

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Speaker 2: just stay take your time.

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Speaker 3: We know you're a MoMA.

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Speaker 2: Too, And I was like cool, cool, thank you. And

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Speaker 2: then breaking news, I booked a movie yay, and so

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Speaker 2: I have to leave when does this there? Oh I'm

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Speaker 2: leaving today.

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Speaker 3: I'm leaving today.

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Speaker 2: So I'm leaving today. To go shoot a movie and

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Speaker 2: so yeah, yeah, so I you know, obviously the rewind

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Speaker 2: a week where I'm at present time, present day. I

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Speaker 2: have to pack the entire house and you know me,

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Speaker 2: like I'm like with my money. So I'm like, I'm

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Speaker 2: gonna pack it. I won't hire because I had someone

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Speaker 2: pack it. Never mind. So like, so I've been doing

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Speaker 2: like that and it's been like kind of stressful but

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Speaker 2: also like so great because here's the deal. I went

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Speaker 2: to therapy last week and remember in the beginning of

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Speaker 2: the year, I don't think I spoke about it on

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Speaker 2: I'm like, Amy, i feel like there's this, and there's

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Speaker 2: I can't. It won't come down, you know what I mean.

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Speaker 2: Like I'm like and I just feel like I'm stuck.

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Speaker 2: And this is like the worst beginning of the new year.

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Speaker 2: Like I'm happy, very happy in a relationship that's great,

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Speaker 2: kids are healthy, but I'm like, work wise, just stress

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Speaker 2: wise with the house, I'm just like I don't understand,

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Speaker 2: like nothing's moving. She's like, well, let me talk about

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Speaker 2: seasons and everyone has like different seasons and all those things.

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Speaker 2: This season has been breaking news.

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Speaker 3: This is your.

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Speaker 2: Season, Like all of a sudden, it was like ture

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Speaker 2: your season. And that's but that has like helped me

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Speaker 2: go Okay, truly, it's just like you're never I'm never

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Speaker 2: not gonna work again. Yeah, I'm never the house was

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Speaker 2: never not going to sell, but it was truly like

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Speaker 2: it's never gonna I'm never working again. And I got

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Speaker 2: into this really I was depressed. Yeah, like just like no,

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Speaker 2: it's not gonna work. I'm just well, maybe.

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Speaker 1: That'll help in the next season when it does slow down.

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Speaker 2: Again, so remind me, Yeah, we'll come back.

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Speaker 3: To this podcast.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, because but I think it's like a good reminder

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Speaker 2: that like you're not going to be stuck in that

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Speaker 2: season forever, right because but I truly but when you're

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Speaker 2: Like this is just what it's going to be.

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Speaker 3: Like, and especially with your career. I mean, it's just definitely.

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Speaker 1: Lends itself to that situation and it goes it's you know,

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Speaker 1: at ebbs and flows, it's like, we're not very busy,

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Speaker 1: We're not very busy, We're not very busy to holy crap,

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Speaker 1: now we have so.

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Speaker 2: Much now in a week and the household and I'm

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Speaker 2: booking a movie and I'm going to be gone for

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Speaker 2: a month and now I'm okay, the kids crap.

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Speaker 3: Well, you know what I mean.

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Speaker 2: Like it's like all the moving pieces were like and

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Speaker 2: I thrive in that. Yeah, I don't thrive in the

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Speaker 2: seasons of like, yeah, what's going to happen? Right, But

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Speaker 2: it's a good teaching moment. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: I do think God teaches you in those moments for sure,

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Speaker 2: Yeah, So we did a whole thing in therapy about

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Speaker 2: is a bad season. She's like, I'm keeping this letter

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Speaker 2: when you're in back in the season that we were

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Speaker 2: depressed and whatever for you to read to know that

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Speaker 2: like it's not the end, but yes, yeah, because you

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Speaker 2: just don't know. I'm like, I don't know. I don't

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Speaker 2: know that, wow, Stephen, Like I don't. Yes. So for

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Speaker 2: the people that are in the season right now where

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Speaker 2: like you're going to be okay, your season is going

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Speaker 2: to come. Yeah, So we've announced engagement.

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Speaker 1: Any like progress like a planning a wedding or like

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Speaker 1: any of the.

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Speaker 2: Things, well you know, well they don't.

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Speaker 3: I mean no, I am curious.

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Speaker 1: Well, y'all could have talked about way more. I mean

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Speaker 1: I'm just curious, like, are y'all starting to like it.

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Speaker 2: Will be that date next year?

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Speaker 3: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: Later later next year. We're just still working on the where.

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Speaker 1: I cannot tell you how many emails I've gotten from

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Speaker 1: people like like about wedding stuff already, just random. Really,

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Speaker 1: I'm just kind of stashing them a minute because I

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Speaker 1: think they think that you're like planning it like right now.

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Speaker 2: You know, well, given my history, that would be a

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Speaker 2: very just wise observation. Yes, but no, we're going to

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Speaker 2: wait until next like later next year. How sold. We're

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Speaker 2: July and August and then write like a few miles

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Speaker 2: down the road from you. It's gonna be fun.

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Speaker 3: Friday working summers of you.

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Speaker 2: We yeah boo. Book in a movie, which I'm so

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Speaker 2: excited about. It is the coolest script ever. It's so fun.

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Speaker 2: I'm gonna be riding horses and I can't tell you

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Speaker 3: I wish I could come out there. I love it.

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Speaker 2: Needy movies, you wouldn't be able to find it exactly.

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Speaker 2: It would be so fun in the first week as heck, yep,

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Speaker 2: it's gonna be great. But god, this is like where

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Speaker 2: I get like pitted in my stomach, pitted.

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Speaker 2: I'm the worst with analogies. There is also something else

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Speaker 2: teased out like we have another announcement coming? What what

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Speaker 1: They said it was like half and half with Book

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Speaker 2: So there is going to be another A wine down baby.

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Speaker 3: God, I can breathe look at that.

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Speaker 2: Bumping. So yeah, I am I am, I am, I am?

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Speaker 2: which I would have liked to have kept a little bit.

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Speaker 2: shared as early. I know they say, like it's okay

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Speaker 2: been really hard to hide. Yeah, this pregnancy obviously third baby.

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Speaker 3: People have definitely been picking up on it.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, and they're like obviously, I mean there's you know,

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Speaker 2: the people that's online or whatever, some of the things

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Speaker 2: they're like, are are you pregnant? Like you haven't shown

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Speaker 2: that you're wearing a sweater and it's eighty degrees out,

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Speaker 2: you're wearing really flowy dresses. You usually show your body.

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Speaker 3: Off, wear the workout in the mirror or selfies.

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Speaker 2: I know, I was like, well that shot me in

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Speaker 4: Yep.

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Speaker 2: Because the other day I was like I tried to

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Speaker 2: within the book announces been coming. I'm like, I got

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Speaker 2: to post a photo that doesn't show a bump, so

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Speaker 2: to maybe like get them off the like pregnancy idea, right, right,

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Speaker 2: But then someone's like, oh, you're totally pregnant. You never

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Speaker 2: take a picture with your like workout t shirt on.

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Speaker 2: I was like sports Bro sports Bru. So I was

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Speaker 3: Like these people know you. That's all I know.

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Speaker 2: Well, and it's funny too because I'm like trying to

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Speaker 2: and I kiss, she's like you're getting married and having

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Speaker 2: a baby, and I'm like would you want that? Babe?

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Speaker 2: Like is that something would you really want like a

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Speaker 2: little brother, little sister And she was just like yeah,

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Speaker 2: like you know, I want to I want to be

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Speaker 2: a big sister. I was like, well you are already

437
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Speaker 2: like to Jason, but like mommy like a baby like

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Speaker 2: in her belly, like is that really what you want?

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00:22:41,119 --> 00:22:45,159
Speaker 2: And she was like yeah. I was like, okay, right

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00:22:45,160 --> 00:22:49,399
Speaker 2: about it. You never know, so yeah, I was really sweet.

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00:22:49,440 --> 00:22:51,399
Speaker 2: So we're really excited and yeah, now I don't have

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Speaker 2: to hide it anymore.

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Speaker 3: So oh my gosh.

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00:22:53,840 --> 00:22:58,280
Speaker 2: Wind down, We're having another baby. I got so Kristen too,

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Speaker 2: you know.

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00:23:00,040 --> 00:23:02,760
Speaker 3: So close, so oh I'm done.

447
00:23:03,080 --> 00:23:06,040
Speaker 2: But I just yes, the belly. I don't you know

448
00:23:06,080 --> 00:23:08,280
Speaker 2: what you guys are always giving me a hard time

449
00:23:08,480 --> 00:23:10,080
Speaker 2: my booze being out, and now you're gonna give me

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00:23:10,080 --> 00:23:11,919
Speaker 2: a hard time because my belly's gonna be out and

451
00:23:11,960 --> 00:23:15,000
Speaker 2: I'm gonna show it off like Rihanna. You should because

452
00:23:15,040 --> 00:23:18,880
Speaker 2: it's my fucking time. I can guarantee you.

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Speaker 3: That enjoy it. Yeah, no more hiding.

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Speaker 2: No, but yeah, I'm just I know how grateful. And

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Speaker 2: I know KB said this a lot too. Me used

456
00:23:28,119 --> 00:23:30,440
Speaker 2: to go on wind down like I I'm very aware

457
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Speaker 2: how grateful that I am that I'm able to carry,

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Speaker 2: and I pray that this baby stays healthy. And I again,

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00:23:36,960 --> 00:23:39,560
Speaker 2: I'm very aware that, like there's many women out there

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00:23:39,600 --> 00:23:43,480
Speaker 2: trying and it doesn't make sense when something's happened, and

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00:23:43,520 --> 00:23:46,199
Speaker 2: some things don't. But I just want to acknowledge that.

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Speaker 2: I know it's like tough for other women that go

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Speaker 2: through that, that want a baby and that are struggling.

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Speaker 2: So I don't want to take that away from anybody.

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Speaker 3: So sure, yeah, I'm really really excited. You're about to

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Speaker 3: be really baby.

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00:24:01,560 --> 00:24:03,359
Speaker 2: I know the gender. We'll keep that one too, you know,

468
00:24:03,400 --> 00:24:04,920
Speaker 2: I got to keep you guys cliffing, and so.

469
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Speaker 3: Until next week, I have to tell that one when

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Speaker 3: Kb's back.

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Speaker 2: Oh for sure.

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Speaker 3: Anything else, anything else, I don't know. Do we have

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Speaker 3: any more announcements.

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Speaker 2: Anything I don't think I can handle. I think, well

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Speaker 2: that's what I'll say this and we can touch more

476
00:24:19,080 --> 00:24:21,960
Speaker 2: on this. Like another episode is my last therapy appointment

477
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Speaker 2: I had. I go, I just was like crying, and

478
00:24:24,280 --> 00:24:26,080
Speaker 2: she was crying and she's like you've done. She's like,

479
00:24:26,160 --> 00:24:27,880
Speaker 2: you've just like because I've been with her for three

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00:24:27,880 --> 00:24:29,960
Speaker 2: four years now and we're no longer than that four

481
00:24:30,040 --> 00:24:33,760
Speaker 2: years and She's just like, I'm so happy that you

482
00:24:33,800 --> 00:24:36,479
Speaker 2: get to experience happiness and joy, and I go and

483
00:24:36,560 --> 00:24:39,879
Speaker 2: you know, just like USh just crying and and I go.

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Speaker 2: It's really weird. Amy. I was like, I'm kind of waiting.

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Speaker 2: I'm like, am I dying of something? It can't be

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Speaker 2: all good, Like there has to be a reason. I'm like,

487
00:24:48,640 --> 00:24:51,120
Speaker 2: as I just feel like I've been so blessed with

488
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Speaker 2: Alan and my family and how things are with my

489
00:24:55,240 --> 00:24:57,120
Speaker 2: ex and I and the book and the movie. And

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Speaker 2: I was like, I have so many blessings right now

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Speaker 2: in my life that like I must be I must

492
00:25:01,359 --> 00:25:07,280
Speaker 2: have terminal cancer, like there must be something that's like

493
00:25:07,280 --> 00:25:10,280
Speaker 2: like this isn't like that. I don't know how to

494
00:25:10,280 --> 00:25:12,639
Speaker 2: just I don't know how to like receive, because so

495
00:25:12,720 --> 00:25:15,040
Speaker 2: now my whole thing like is now. She's like, I

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00:25:15,080 --> 00:25:17,320
Speaker 2: need you to like just sit in gratefulness and receive.

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00:25:17,440 --> 00:25:19,119
Speaker 2: She's like, because you're so used to like some like

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00:25:19,200 --> 00:25:22,679
Speaker 2: something like finding something or something coming up or trauma

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00:25:22,760 --> 00:25:25,359
Speaker 2: where you're just like you can't stay on like sciety ground,

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00:25:25,480 --> 00:25:29,560
Speaker 2: like you're not used to like the receiving goodness. I'm like, nope, yep,

501
00:25:29,840 --> 00:25:31,240
Speaker 2: So that's that's what's working on right now.

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Speaker 3: I wonder what it's gonna be like.

503
00:25:32,960 --> 00:25:35,240
Speaker 2: I know, for everything to just speak great and I

504
00:25:35,320 --> 00:25:38,600
Speaker 2: tell you what, I use that so Maria and so

505
00:25:38,800 --> 00:25:42,040
Speaker 2: and everything that I've said has not come to fruition.

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00:25:42,359 --> 00:25:43,920
Speaker 2: I wonder what it's going to be like when when

507
00:25:43,920 --> 00:25:45,560
Speaker 2: I don't miss Carrie. I wonder what it's going to

508
00:25:45,640 --> 00:25:47,199
Speaker 2: be like when I book that movie. I wonder what

509
00:25:47,200 --> 00:25:49,399
Speaker 2: it's gonna be like with my house sells boom.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, it's totally can change.

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Speaker 2: Your out has completely changed. And I wonder if everything

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Speaker 2: I wonder if I'm going to be I wonder if

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Speaker 2: everything will just be okay.

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Speaker 3: I why have they weird?

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Speaker 2: But I love you guys. We're having a baby.

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Speaker 3: We're having a baby.