WEBVTT - 135: Mara Wilson, Acting Cults And Isolation Tanks

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<v Speaker 1>It's two thirty three am at the Kaminsky Method Acting

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<v Speaker 1>Studio and you're listening Tonight Call. Hello, and welcome Tonight Call,

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<v Speaker 1>a call in show for our dystopian reality. I am

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<v Speaker 1>Molly Lambert and with me as always is Tess Lynch

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<v Speaker 1>and joining us today we have a very special guest,

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<v Speaker 1>uh Maura Wilson. MARAA is a writer, a playwright, and

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<v Speaker 1>an actor. She's done a lot of voice acting. She

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<v Speaker 1>has a sub stack called Shan't We Tell the Vicar

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<v Speaker 1>and is the author of the book Where Am I now?

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to Night Call, Mara. Thank you so much. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>so happy to be here. I love this show. Oh

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<v Speaker 1>we're so happy to have you on. Um. We were

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<v Speaker 1>going to talk today about a couple of night callie

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<v Speaker 1>things isolation tanks which you have variances with, and also

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<v Speaker 1>acting classes and how they are like cults with I've

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<v Speaker 1>written I've written articles about this. It's that's a real thing, perfect. Um.

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<v Speaker 1>Why don't we kick it off with a Nightcall? My Nightcall?

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<v Speaker 1>It's Lindsay. Um. I heard the topic this week was

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<v Speaker 1>acting classes that are like cults, and that brought back

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<v Speaker 1>some memories. I was a high school in college, drama

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<v Speaker 1>geek and a drama major in college, and I took

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<v Speaker 1>part of some really questionable activities that seemed normal at

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<v Speaker 1>the time, but that looking back, I'm kind of horrified by. UM.

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<v Speaker 1>Some examples, in high school drama class, we were regularly

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<v Speaker 1>made to do stream of consciousness type exercises that ended

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<v Speaker 1>with all of us screaming or crying as a group. UM.

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<v Speaker 1>And I had a succession of drama teachers who, thankfully,

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<v Speaker 1>as far as I could tell, we're not abusive. Some

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<v Speaker 1>of them were a little creepy, but I was not abused.

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<v Speaker 1>But they were very cult leader like and they often

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<v Speaker 1>had inner circles of students who they spent a crazy

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<v Speaker 1>amount of time with, and people talked about them sort

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<v Speaker 1>of like they were gods, and you were not allowed

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<v Speaker 1>to criticize them in any way. UM. By college, I

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<v Speaker 1>felt like acting classes were more like unlicensed therapy, just

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of exercises again that asked people to draw

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<v Speaker 1>on childhood trauma, and if you didn't really have any

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<v Speaker 1>childhood trauma, you would kind of be pressured to make

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<v Speaker 1>it up. UM. I witnessed quite a few full on

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<v Speaker 1>emotional meltdowns by fellow students and occasionally professors, and of

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<v Speaker 1>course there were no clear rules about confidentiality or anything

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<v Speaker 1>like that. Um, looking back, I can't believe that I

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<v Speaker 1>just thought this was normal or deep. So I wonder

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<v Speaker 1>if mar Wilson or any of you who participated in

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<v Speaker 1>any acting classes or theater classes have any thoughts on this. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>Should we start regulating this stuff? Should we have clearer

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<v Speaker 1>guidelines for acting classes where personal info is shared, or

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<v Speaker 1>teachers seem to think their therapists, or maybe since it's

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<v Speaker 1>been like twenty plus years since I did this, maybe

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<v Speaker 1>now there are clearer rules or guidelines. Just curious. Marl

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<v Speaker 1>Wilson loves your work. Thank you for all You're really

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<v Speaker 1>insightful writing about Hollywood and growing up as a child star.

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<v Speaker 1>And thank you nightcall as always, nice nightcall. This is

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<v Speaker 1>something we've been talking about a lot over the past

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<v Speaker 1>couple of weeks, really starting when we kind of launched

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<v Speaker 1>into maxium um the acting class as cult phenomenon. Mara,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm really eager to hear your thoughts on this. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>none of the things that she said surprised me. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I've been through series like similar things myself, especially the

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<v Speaker 1>thing about people worshiping a teacher and then um and

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<v Speaker 1>and the teacher kind of having an inner circle that

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<v Speaker 1>was very much like that happens at every acting school.

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<v Speaker 1>I would say, like the favoritism is is absurd. And

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<v Speaker 1>I definitely new teachers, Like there was there was a

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<v Speaker 1>teacher I knew who would would take a young boy

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<v Speaker 1>with him to Europe every summer and yes, and uh

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<v Speaker 1>and he would he would there. There would be I

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<v Speaker 1>can't name any names because of lawsuits probably, but yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I knew a teacher who would do that. That this

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<v Speaker 1>the boys were all over eighteen, but that didn't make

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<v Speaker 1>it any less creepy. Yeah, and and really kind of

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<v Speaker 1>nobody commented on it for a while. We were just like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>that's kind of what he does. And then you know

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of times the the the the boy would

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<v Speaker 1>come back like, you know, questioning his sexuality or something

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<v Speaker 1>and um and but at the time it was like, well,

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<v Speaker 1>how can you even question this? You know? So so

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<v Speaker 1>I've definitely seen that happen. I also think a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of the exercises they do, it really does depend on

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<v Speaker 1>the school. There's um, there's a lot that's like like

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<v Speaker 1>Strasburg based, which was like the very early acting school

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<v Speaker 1>has a lot to do with um, the idea of

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<v Speaker 1>of like searching through your personal memories and and drawing

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<v Speaker 1>on your own traumas to do things. And for some

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<v Speaker 1>people that really works, um, you know, and and there's

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<v Speaker 1>their substitution where it's like, all right, you're sad on

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<v Speaker 1>stage because somebody dies, so you imagine that's somebody close

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<v Speaker 1>to you dies. Um. I know that that That kind

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<v Speaker 1>of worked for me when I was a child sometimes,

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<v Speaker 1>but I was a pretty sensitive child to begin with,

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<v Speaker 1>so I kind of withdraw on a lot of different things.

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<v Speaker 1>Now I don't like doing that at all when I'm acting.

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<v Speaker 1>I I feel like I'm much more like sort of

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<v Speaker 1>the Adler school, which is more like, no, build a

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<v Speaker 1>character and become them, because you know, you don't have

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<v Speaker 1>to be a murderer to play a murderer. So I

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<v Speaker 1>do think that there's definitely like, um, there's definitely like

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<v Speaker 1>it definitely depends on the ones that you do. I

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<v Speaker 1>will say that, like, I had a really good acting

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<v Speaker 1>teacher as a child, Like he was intense, but he

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<v Speaker 1>was very respectful, and I think that's probably because he

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<v Speaker 1>worked with children and he had children of his own.

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<v Speaker 1>So he knew he was an intense guy, but he

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<v Speaker 1>was very smart and very sweet and and you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I loved him and I still love him. I saw

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<v Speaker 1>him a few months before the pandemic started and and

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<v Speaker 1>like thanked him for always taking care of me. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, it's such a vulnerable position to be, to

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<v Speaker 1>be a child actor, and you obviously have to hope

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<v Speaker 1>that everybody around you has good intentions and isn't a

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<v Speaker 1>bad person, because it would be so easy to manipulate

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<v Speaker 1>that situation. Yeah. Um, I feel like you always hear

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<v Speaker 1>stories about kid actors being you know what you were saying, like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, hey, think of something really sad. And I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like there's a bunch of stories about like telling

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<v Speaker 1>some kids like, hey, your dog just died, just to

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<v Speaker 1>get them to cry, just kidding. That's that's something that

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<v Speaker 1>they don't do anymore, because they did that a lot

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<v Speaker 1>in the early days. I mean there's stories of you know,

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<v Speaker 1>um of of Judy Garland and Margaret O'Brien and all

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<v Speaker 1>of these people being taught being told like we're going

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<v Speaker 1>to kill your dog, um things. Oh my god. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>there that that happened a lot. And I think because

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<v Speaker 1>of that people have been a lot more careful with it.

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<v Speaker 1>But so so I think that, and I do think that,

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<v Speaker 1>like by the time that like that the seventies and eighties,

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<v Speaker 1>we were fucking terrible for child actors. There was just

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<v Speaker 1>all kinds of unregulated nonsense. And and I can tell

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<v Speaker 1>because when I talked to to child actors who are

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<v Speaker 1>even five or ten years older than me, they have

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<v Speaker 1>stories that I do not. They definitely have stories where

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<v Speaker 1>where they're like, yeah, I was definitely abused, or I

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<v Speaker 1>was left to do really dangerous things, or you know,

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<v Speaker 1>they had me running through a minefield with no protection

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<v Speaker 1>and they had to do these things and they had

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<v Speaker 1>me up late at night and all of this. And

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<v Speaker 1>whereas whereas I was like, my most uncomfortable moments did

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<v Speaker 1>not come on filming on sets. They came from, uh,

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<v Speaker 1>like creepy men writing me messages and and things like that.

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<v Speaker 1>Like that's something that people don't understand. People be like,

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<v Speaker 1>Hollywood is so bad to children, and I'm like, yes,

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<v Speaker 1>it is. But you guys also need to take responsibility

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<v Speaker 1>for the general public too, because the general public does

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of things. Yeah, I mean, I have to

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<v Speaker 1>imagine that after the John Landis Twilight Zone movie where

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<v Speaker 1>he murdered two children and tomorrow because of lack of

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<v Speaker 1>regulation and because of like working them more hours than

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<v Speaker 1>you're supposed to do and that kind of stuff, that

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<v Speaker 1>there had to be some kind of a clamp down of, like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>we actually do have to. Like, well, somebody who was

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<v Speaker 1>who is related to that man was very rude to

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<v Speaker 1>me a couple of years ago. And I remember thinking

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<v Speaker 1>to myself, and I actually met him when I was

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<v Speaker 1>a child, and um and and uh, I think like

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<v Speaker 1>at the time, I thought it was because like a

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<v Speaker 1>director I knew, not Danny DeVito, guys, a director that

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<v Speaker 1>I knew was like friends with him. But I'm pretty

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<v Speaker 1>sure that that director was only friends with him because

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<v Speaker 1>they worried about his children and they wanted to make

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<v Speaker 1>sure that like the children were going to grow up okay,

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<v Speaker 1>and uh, you know, I don't know if that happened,

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<v Speaker 1>but um, but yeah, but somebody who was related to him,

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<v Speaker 1>and I remember thinking to myself, like, if if he

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<v Speaker 1>ever pulls they well now I'm just totally revealing who

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<v Speaker 1>this is, but everybody already knows anyway, if he if

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<v Speaker 1>he pulls the don't you know who my father is.

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<v Speaker 1>Card on me, I can say, yes, he's the reason

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<v Speaker 1>that we had child labor laws. He's the reason I

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<v Speaker 1>was safe on sets. Right. My dad told me some

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<v Speaker 1>story I've never heard recently because um, you know, I

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<v Speaker 1>was like a little ginger kids. So people would sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>be like, hey, you want to like come do some acting,

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<v Speaker 1>and I was not really interested. Um, but there was

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<v Speaker 1>a time when like I saw John Landis at a

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<v Speaker 1>deli and he was like, oh, you know what beautiful

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<v Speaker 1>hair you have. And my dad just like grabbed me,

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<v Speaker 1>pulled me away and was like that's John Landis, Like

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<v Speaker 1>he can't be in your children. Yeah, yeah, it's I mean.

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<v Speaker 1>The thing is that that as you get older, though

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<v Speaker 1>it people don't think about the well being of actors

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<v Speaker 1>as they get older. And I do know definitely several

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<v Speaker 1>people who have taken acting classes that were from sports

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<v Speaker 1>cults or religious groups. Yeah, so let's talk about that,

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<v Speaker 1>because I heard about this from tests a while ago.

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<v Speaker 1>So definitely, acting teachers all have this kind of guru

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<v Speaker 1>for sharing about them, but some of them really are

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<v Speaker 1>gurus and are trying to get people either into cults,

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<v Speaker 1>are sometimes just like an MLM. I know, some people

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<v Speaker 1>who went to an acting class that was run by

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<v Speaker 1>a very shady organization that they knew about, and they

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<v Speaker 1>knew that it was there, and I'm not even sure

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<v Speaker 1>how they got into it in the first place, but

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<v Speaker 1>they I think maybe they assumed that they wouldn't feel

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<v Speaker 1>obligated to join, but by the end of it, they

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<v Speaker 1>were so exhausted and so broken down that they almost said, okay, yes,

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<v Speaker 1>we'll join just again. And that happens in cults more

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<v Speaker 1>often than you think, where people are I don't want

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<v Speaker 1>to do this, and then they do, and then they

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<v Speaker 1>end up justifying their decision later on where they're like, well, actually,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm glad I joined. I mean, I know I joined

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<v Speaker 1>it in a moment of stress, but I'm glad I

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<v Speaker 1>did it. I was so tired and and you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I was so tired, and it was this but but

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<v Speaker 1>it was actually a good thing, because that's the way

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<v Speaker 1>human beings work. And we tried to reduce cognitive dissonance,

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<v Speaker 1>and you know, we try to get rid of anything

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<v Speaker 1>that is isn't in sync with our ego, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>in our self concept, and that's and that's a really

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<v Speaker 1>hard thing to do. So I think there's a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of self justifying. I think there's something also that's interesting

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<v Speaker 1>that happens in acting classes and also kind of the

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<v Speaker 1>improv community and stuff like that, where it just be

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<v Speaker 1>it takes over your social life if you're really dedicating

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of time to it. It becomes such a

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<v Speaker 1>tight community. And you've been so vulnerable in front of

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<v Speaker 1>this community that you kind of believe they're your friends,

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<v Speaker 1>even if they're not actually your friends. And this has

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<v Speaker 1>happened to me like nothing something that shouldn't happen. It's

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<v Speaker 1>a natural kind of occurrence. But then I think that

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<v Speaker 1>makes you extra susceptible to you know, having boundaries be

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<v Speaker 1>crossed or in the instance of UM acting coaches for instance,

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<v Speaker 1>who are affiliated with like religions or organizations. Eventually, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>like you said, you kind of feel like beaten down

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<v Speaker 1>by the fact that everyone around you is normalizing something

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<v Speaker 1>that's that's not normal, and it kind of it's hard

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<v Speaker 1>to resist that after a while, right, And also like

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<v Speaker 1>thosen't it it must be like seductive to be like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>if I were part of the inner circle, like maybe

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<v Speaker 1>I'd book a bunch more work because I'd be you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean they're there are acting schools out there where

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<v Speaker 1>they have people there who work like who work for casting,

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<v Speaker 1>like some of the best acting schools. So so there's

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<v Speaker 1>a reason why. I mean, most of these actors that

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<v Speaker 1>come out of these schools are are wonderful actors, but

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<v Speaker 1>there's a reason that they're getting booked over people who

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<v Speaker 1>went to other schools who are also wonderful actors. I

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<v Speaker 1>think another thing is that acting, for so many people

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<v Speaker 1>is all about truth and it's all about authenticity, and

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<v Speaker 1>you spend so much of your time obsessing about being fake,

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<v Speaker 1>and you spend so much of your time obsessing about

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<v Speaker 1>what is real and what isn't that after a while

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<v Speaker 1>it's kind of like you have no idea what you

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<v Speaker 1>have no idea what real is anymore, and you don't

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<v Speaker 1>know if the things that you're doing in class are

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<v Speaker 1>real or not. And people will always accuse you of

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<v Speaker 1>being fake and phony and phoning it in and uh,

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<v Speaker 1>and that's a really big thing. That's like one of

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<v Speaker 1>an actor's biggest fears is being phony. So there's this

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<v Speaker 1>idea that you kind of need to break yourself down,

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<v Speaker 1>and you need to break yourself down and and try

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<v Speaker 1>all of these things until you're really authentic, until you're

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<v Speaker 1>really real. That's something that you saw a lot with

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<v Speaker 1>Alison Max from Alison Mack in Nexium. Yeah, I think

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<v Speaker 1>that's how we got on this topic. Is definitely just like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>you know a lot of these people are actors that

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<v Speaker 1>are in Nexium, and they're actors who are like not

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<v Speaker 1>fully fulfilled in their careers and want something and this

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<v Speaker 1>guy is like promising it to them. Well, it's uh,

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<v Speaker 1>there's so much talk about being real and being authentic

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<v Speaker 1>and really accessing your emotion and and that is something

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<v Speaker 1>that is incredibly important to an actor, and being being

0:13:57.280 --> 0:13:59.280
<v Speaker 1>an actor is really like it can be a really

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<v Speaker 1>ascetic thing. Like we actually had a class at my

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<v Speaker 1>school and there was a teacher there. I don't I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know if he's still working there, but I was

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<v Speaker 1>not a big fan of his because I did a

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<v Speaker 1>project for his class and a bunch of us did

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<v Speaker 1>projects and at the end of the class he was like,

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<v Speaker 1>I was a little disappointed in the quality of the

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<v Speaker 1>work guys, And we were like, Okay, well, we'll step

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<v Speaker 1>it up next time. And then apparently the next class

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<v Speaker 1>came in and they were like, oh my god, the

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<v Speaker 1>previous class was so shitty. The work they did was

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<v Speaker 1>so bad, and the other teacher was like, I wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to throw myself out of the window, it was so bad.

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<v Speaker 1>And after that, I was like, oh, clearly I can't

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<v Speaker 1>trust you because you're talking shoot about us to your

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<v Speaker 1>other classes. But other people looked him, and he had

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<v Speaker 1>a class that he would teach that he said was

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<v Speaker 1>taught was was based on like Russian and tie and

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<v Speaker 1>like very sort of like Eastern oriented, you know, kind

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<v Speaker 1>of kind of classes. And he um, you had to

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<v Speaker 1>wear all white and you weren't allowed to eat, drink,

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<v Speaker 1>use any drugs, or have sex twenty four hours before

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<v Speaker 1>the class. And he had this class, yes, and you

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<v Speaker 1>had to in the floor beforehand, like like a you know,

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<v Speaker 1>like a Japanese monk. You had to clean the floor beforehand.

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<v Speaker 1>And I was supposed to be put in that class

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<v Speaker 1>my senior year, and I was like, no, funk that,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not saying this. This is my senior year. Put

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<v Speaker 1>me in the classes that I want to be in.

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<v Speaker 1>So I think I took like a I think I

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<v Speaker 1>took like a voice lessons class instead because I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, I'll just get my I'll just sort

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<v Speaker 1>of sing better, like that's gonna be I think that's

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<v Speaker 1>that's a practical skill instead of making making artwork that

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<v Speaker 1>like probably not a lot of people want to see. Anyway,

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<v Speaker 1>you saw everybody wearing all white, and you were like,

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<v Speaker 1>m I don't know if Yeah, actually this does look

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<v Speaker 1>like a call. And then I know so many people

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<v Speaker 1>who were doing his shows and we're not getting paid

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<v Speaker 1>and and we're not We're putting in so much work,

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<v Speaker 1>and I remember thinking to myself, what do you get

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<v Speaker 1>from it? Like I had a teacher there who I

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<v Speaker 1>really loved, but like she had a life that was

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<v Speaker 1>separate than ours, you know, and she she she we

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<v Speaker 1>didn't consider like and I used to jokingly call her

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<v Speaker 1>like the Guru, but she wouldn't have liked that. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't think like she she very much had her own

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<v Speaker 1>life and she lived she didn't live in the city,

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<v Speaker 1>she lived outside of New York. And she was really wonderful.

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<v Speaker 1>And the thing is, like I had a really great

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<v Speaker 1>time at my acting school, and ours was so much

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<v Speaker 1>better compared to so many of the other schools there.

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<v Speaker 1>But there's still are these issues. They're still still are

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<v Speaker 1>these problems. Yeah, really quick. I think we should take

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<v Speaker 1>an excerpt from a night email. This one comes from

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<v Speaker 1>Peter and it's just following up with this topic. He says,

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<v Speaker 1>my question regarding acting classes as cults is if acting

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<v Speaker 1>classes are easily susceptible to cult late practices because of

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<v Speaker 1>the vulnerability of performers. It's hierarchical design and wise leader

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<v Speaker 1>status of acting teachers legitimized by IMDb credits. For example,

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<v Speaker 1>how do you think these types of acting groups can

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<v Speaker 1>avoid such cult like tendencies and be healthy environments to

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<v Speaker 1>grow and learn. I mean, that's a really good question.

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<v Speaker 1>I think that I think that the students need to

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<v Speaker 1>make sure that they're safe. I think that they need

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<v Speaker 1>to agree on rules beforehand. Uh, and that I think

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<v Speaker 1>is very good. Like, I think that sort the the

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<v Speaker 1>the issue of consent is something that comes up a

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<v Speaker 1>lot a lot enacting classes, Like I had. I remember

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<v Speaker 1>in high school and I went to I went to

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<v Speaker 1>an art school. We had we had some kind of

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<v Speaker 1>class and uh, maybe it was a mass class or something,

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<v Speaker 1>and we had to like a sema character. And there

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<v Speaker 1>was one kid in there that was getting like really

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<v Speaker 1>violent and shovy, and and we told like we told

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<v Speaker 1>him afterwards. We were like, dude, you need to stop

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<v Speaker 1>shoving people. You need to like be really careful and

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<v Speaker 1>he and he would just say, well, I can't change

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<v Speaker 1>my character right totally. I've heard about very I've heard

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<v Speaker 1>about similar situations where people are shoving people or getting

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<v Speaker 1>violent or getting kind of like overly sexual somebody and

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<v Speaker 1>then they're like, it wasn't me, it was the character.

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<v Speaker 1>The emotion came over me and like what am I

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<v Speaker 1>to do? And there really is no framework for regulating

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<v Speaker 1>something like that, because uh, yeah, what do you do friends?

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<v Speaker 1>I've had friends, Yeah, I've had friends also say like

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<v Speaker 1>we were doing this scene and then I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>this is kind of hot. Do you want to have sex?

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<v Speaker 1>And the other actor was like no, this is acting, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>And I remember them saying that, me being like what,

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<v Speaker 1>like that's not that's that's not appropriate, right. And you

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<v Speaker 1>you saw that with like the James Franco Acting School, um,

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<v Speaker 1>which was everything bad. We've been talking about sort of

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<v Speaker 1>being used to manipulate people that are going in actually

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<v Speaker 1>like genuinely hopeful that this is going to help their

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<v Speaker 1>acting careers and make them better actors. And then if

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<v Speaker 1>somebody just wants to use it for their own personal

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<v Speaker 1>narcissism to be abusive. It's it's not hard to do.

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<v Speaker 1>Their intimacy coaches now one which I think is really good,

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<v Speaker 1>and I think that there should be something like that

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<v Speaker 1>for for child actors in general. There should be like

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<v Speaker 1>an onset psychologist. There should be something like that. This

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<v Speaker 1>has been something that I've been talking about for years now,

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<v Speaker 1>to to make sure that children are okay. But I

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<v Speaker 1>also think that there probably does need to be some

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<v Speaker 1>kind of regulation involved with with acting classes. Um if

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know if like actors security or SAG wants

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<v Speaker 1>to do this or something, but she's making sure that

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<v Speaker 1>that people are not getting horribly abused. I think that

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<v Speaker 1>there also needs to be rules agreed upon beforehand, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>the guidelines there. I had a teacher in college who

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<v Speaker 1>said that her whole thing was thou shalt not get hurt.

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<v Speaker 1>So if anybody was was physically hurt, like we had

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<v Speaker 1>to stop and and and do the you know, and

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<v Speaker 1>and completely make sure. Like I did one thing where

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<v Speaker 1>I was like where I was like upside down. I

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<v Speaker 1>was trying to to like, uh, I don't know, do

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<v Speaker 1>like a yoga post or something, and um, and I

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<v Speaker 1>and I fell back and I fell onto my head

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<v Speaker 1>and she stopped everything and was like, oh my god,

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<v Speaker 1>let's make sure that everything is is here, like everything

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<v Speaker 1>is safe here, and that's great. But I also think

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<v Speaker 1>that we need to make sure emotionally that everything is okay.

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<v Speaker 1>And I do think that a lot of times actors

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<v Speaker 1>will volunteer personal things about themselves because they feel like

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<v Speaker 1>that's more, you know, like like that's like the better

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<v Speaker 1>thing to do. There's, um, there's a lot of like Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>I need to overshare, I need to be myself, I

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<v Speaker 1>need to do these things. I have to do this,

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<v Speaker 1>And and I think that actors need to know like no,

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<v Speaker 1>you don't. Yeah, there has to be like a boundary

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<v Speaker 1>of like actually, like if somebody's hitting you during a scene,

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<v Speaker 1>like you can stop the scene and say like that's

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<v Speaker 1>not okay. Marra has a good point that it's not

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<v Speaker 1>just about like physical acts of aggression. I think that

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<v Speaker 1>unless there are parameters in place, at least, something that

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<v Speaker 1>I've heard of happening, especially recently, is like you if

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<v Speaker 1>you don't really know what the boundary is, and if

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<v Speaker 1>you just and you could even just say nobody gets hurt.

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<v Speaker 1>There's also like this, if you go off book and

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<v Speaker 1>you're like intimidating someone and you're not really sure of

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<v Speaker 1>where that boundary is. That's like us that can cause

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<v Speaker 1>psychological damage. Like it's especially if it's off book. Also

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<v Speaker 1>that it's also when people are like, oh, we're getting

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<v Speaker 1>to the heart of it, like this starts. I think

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of the time that's really kind of encouraged

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<v Speaker 1>and it and it is to watch, but it's also

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<v Speaker 1>you know, kind of unfair. It's like cheating in a

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<v Speaker 1>way when you when you I mean, yeah, the thing

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<v Speaker 1>is that there there are like I've noticed, like a

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<v Speaker 1>couple of different personality types that seem to be drawn

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<v Speaker 1>to acting. And one is the very over the top type,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, and people say, you see that a lot

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<v Speaker 1>with musical theater and stuff, and these are the people

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<v Speaker 1>who who And I think I get the feeling that

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<v Speaker 1>Alison Mack was one of these people, partly because I

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<v Speaker 1>met her when I was a child really was she

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<v Speaker 1>she was also a child actor originally, right she was

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<v Speaker 1>she was she was very sweet and we were doing

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<v Speaker 1>charity work together and her whole thing was I want

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<v Speaker 1>to help people. But she was very sweet and bubbly

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<v Speaker 1>and and kind and and and it does really it

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<v Speaker 1>just sort of it serves as a reminder for me

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<v Speaker 1>that a lot of people who get into cults think

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<v Speaker 1>that they're helping. They think that they're doing something good

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<v Speaker 1>for the world and themselves. You really saw that in

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<v Speaker 1>maxi Um too, you know, and that she clearly was like,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna I'm here to help people. I'm here to

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<v Speaker 1>like improve everyone. Yeah. That was definitely that, like that

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<v Speaker 1>was something that we, like, I'm pretty sure we met

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<v Speaker 1>at an organization that was helping like abused children and

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<v Speaker 1>like like sexually abused girls, and the irony of that

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<v Speaker 1>now like blows my fucking mind. But but and I

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<v Speaker 1>think in the in the in Seduced, the the the

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<v Speaker 1>better of the two documentaries about Maxium by far, I

0:22:20.080 --> 0:22:22.480
<v Speaker 1>think India Oxenberg actually points out that she was obsessed

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<v Speaker 1>with being authentic because people always told her that she

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<v Speaker 1>was fake. Yeah, And as a child actor, that must

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<v Speaker 1>be a hard line to walk, because it's like your

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<v Speaker 1>authenticity comes from the fact that you're like an actual child. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, like, I don't think that I was a

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<v Speaker 1>particularly great actress as a child. I think that I

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<v Speaker 1>was pretty good different iconic Matilda. I'm hard on myself,

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<v Speaker 1>but I don't think that I was like like I've

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<v Speaker 1>seen I've seen better child actors, and I would say

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<v Speaker 1>that you seemed very authentic and like there was no

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<v Speaker 1>craft to it, which is very hard to do. You

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<v Speaker 1>seem like you they just found a kid and put

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<v Speaker 1>them on screen. I've always been painfully since here, and

0:23:00.960 --> 0:23:03.399
<v Speaker 1>I've always had a good ear for dialogue, so I

0:23:03.440 --> 0:23:05.919
<v Speaker 1>think that those things were good, you know, for me.

0:23:06.080 --> 0:23:09.359
<v Speaker 1>But um, but I mean I look at like quivention

0:23:09.400 --> 0:23:10.920
<v Speaker 1>a Walls or somebody like that, and I'm like, okay,

0:23:10.960 --> 0:23:13.760
<v Speaker 1>she's she's actually a good actress or or you know,

0:23:13.880 --> 0:23:16.879
<v Speaker 1>I look at at a lot of like child actors

0:23:16.880 --> 0:23:18.520
<v Speaker 1>and I'd be like, okay, you're You're better than I was.

0:23:18.600 --> 0:23:21.320
<v Speaker 1>But it was much easier for me to act as

0:23:21.359 --> 0:23:26.360
<v Speaker 1>a child because I could access different emotions very easily,

0:23:26.760 --> 0:23:29.520
<v Speaker 1>because when you're a child, you don't know that you're vulnerable.

0:23:30.000 --> 0:23:32.000
<v Speaker 1>And then I got older, and you know, and my

0:23:32.080 --> 0:23:34.400
<v Speaker 1>mother died, and I went through a lot, and I

0:23:34.440 --> 0:23:36.600
<v Speaker 1>became a teenager, and I and I learned how awful

0:23:36.600 --> 0:23:39.679
<v Speaker 1>the world was and and uh and and you know,

0:23:39.760 --> 0:23:41.440
<v Speaker 1>and I got taken advantage of in many ways the

0:23:41.480 --> 0:23:43.879
<v Speaker 1>way that everybody in the world does, and I became

0:23:44.000 --> 0:23:45.560
<v Speaker 1>very cynical, and it was really hard for me to

0:23:45.600 --> 0:23:49.520
<v Speaker 1>access these emotions. So I often think that, you know,

0:23:49.920 --> 0:23:52.840
<v Speaker 1>and it felt to me kind of like, um, like

0:23:52.840 --> 0:23:55.840
<v Speaker 1>like in his Dark Materials, your your demon stops changing form,

0:23:56.040 --> 0:23:58.040
<v Speaker 1>or in you know, you stop being able to go

0:23:58.119 --> 0:24:00.280
<v Speaker 1>to Narnia or never never Land or something like that.

0:24:00.440 --> 0:24:02.840
<v Speaker 1>Like it very much did feel like something like when

0:24:02.840 --> 0:24:05.440
<v Speaker 1>you grow up, you lose that innocence and that willingness

0:24:05.480 --> 0:24:08.160
<v Speaker 1>to be vulnerable. And I think that that did kind

0:24:08.200 --> 0:24:10.520
<v Speaker 1>of happen to me, and acting is definitely harder for

0:24:10.520 --> 0:24:13.240
<v Speaker 1>me now because I can't access that that ease I

0:24:13.280 --> 0:24:16.440
<v Speaker 1>had with emotions, that ease I had with vulnerability. So

0:24:16.880 --> 0:24:19.320
<v Speaker 1>and that's another personality type used to you see too.

0:24:19.359 --> 0:24:21.879
<v Speaker 1>You see people who are wonderful when they let go,

0:24:22.320 --> 0:24:26.280
<v Speaker 1>but they're also very emotional, and uh, they're they're also

0:24:26.520 --> 0:24:29.400
<v Speaker 1>you know, they're sensitive, most sensitive people or most callous.

0:24:29.520 --> 0:24:32.160
<v Speaker 1>You know, cynical people are are not callous, but most

0:24:32.160 --> 0:24:35.119
<v Speaker 1>cynical people are sensitive. And I feel like that cynicism

0:24:35.200 --> 0:24:37.639
<v Speaker 1>is like a callous right, which is also why in

0:24:37.680 --> 0:24:39.639
<v Speaker 1>the acting class. They're like, you gotta rip off the

0:24:39.680 --> 0:24:43.520
<v Speaker 1>callous and like get back to that sensitive, innocent inside. Well,

0:24:43.520 --> 0:24:47.119
<v Speaker 1>first of all, that's not how skin works. Yeah, no,

0:24:47.280 --> 0:24:50.240
<v Speaker 1>that's that's the thing, and it and and but then

0:24:50.600 --> 0:24:52.720
<v Speaker 1>instead it clearly doesn't work, and it's like, well, maybe

0:24:52.720 --> 0:24:54.639
<v Speaker 1>it's time for a different kind of acting. There's there's

0:24:54.840 --> 0:24:57.760
<v Speaker 1>many different kinds of acting. You know. There's there's Grotowski,

0:24:57.760 --> 0:25:00.000
<v Speaker 1>which is all about physicality, and there's Meisner, which is

0:25:00.000 --> 0:25:01.880
<v Speaker 1>all about being in the moment, and there's Adler, which

0:25:01.880 --> 0:25:05.320
<v Speaker 1>is all about, you know, being a character. And I

0:25:05.359 --> 0:25:07.359
<v Speaker 1>think a lot of the best actors I saw were

0:25:07.400 --> 0:25:10.080
<v Speaker 1>in like an n Yu, were in the experimental theater

0:25:10.160 --> 0:25:13.080
<v Speaker 1>Wing because what they did is they allowed you to

0:25:13.080 --> 0:25:14.919
<v Speaker 1>be very in your body, very in your moment, and

0:25:14.920 --> 0:25:17.399
<v Speaker 1>there wasn't a lot of shame, Like there might have

0:25:17.440 --> 0:25:19.320
<v Speaker 1>been weird stuff that I didn't know about, but for them,

0:25:19.359 --> 0:25:21.320
<v Speaker 1>it was just sort of like, let your free flag fly,

0:25:21.760 --> 0:25:23.960
<v Speaker 1>let's let's have fun, right, and that stuff is all

0:25:24.040 --> 0:25:27.200
<v Speaker 1>super fun when it's consensual. Well, let's take a quick

0:25:27.240 --> 0:25:29.040
<v Speaker 1>break and then when we come back, we will talk

0:25:29.040 --> 0:25:42.040
<v Speaker 1>with Mara about isolation tanks. Okay, Maraa. When you were

0:25:42.040 --> 0:25:46.320
<v Speaker 1>talking about being in your body, is that Meisner use that? Um, well,

0:25:46.320 --> 0:25:49.240
<v Speaker 1>that's that's pretty much any kind of acting I think.

0:25:49.280 --> 0:25:51.000
<v Speaker 1>I mean, I don't know as much about Meisner as

0:25:51.040 --> 0:25:52.399
<v Speaker 1>I thought I did. When I met up with my

0:25:52.400 --> 0:25:55.119
<v Speaker 1>old acting teacher, I started talking to him about Meisner,

0:25:55.160 --> 0:25:56.760
<v Speaker 1>and then I realized that he knew all about it

0:25:56.800 --> 0:26:00.119
<v Speaker 1>and I didn't, so so that he actual of it,

0:26:00.200 --> 0:26:02.080
<v Speaker 1>really trained in Meisner. So what I thought was Meisner

0:26:02.160 --> 0:26:06.040
<v Speaker 1>wasn't actually but U but most people use like a

0:26:06.080 --> 0:26:08.879
<v Speaker 1>different kinds of you know, different kinds of acting. But

0:26:09.320 --> 0:26:12.679
<v Speaker 1>but I'm not somebody who's very much I'm like, I

0:26:12.720 --> 0:26:15.480
<v Speaker 1>can't dance. I'm I'm really bad at it. I never

0:26:15.520 --> 0:26:17.359
<v Speaker 1>know what to do with my hands. You know, I

0:26:17.400 --> 0:26:20.400
<v Speaker 1>have an expressive face, but but I've never felt particularly

0:26:20.480 --> 0:26:23.200
<v Speaker 1>in my body. I think I think that's probably true

0:26:23.240 --> 0:26:25.800
<v Speaker 1>for a lot of smart kids too, though I'm a

0:26:25.840 --> 0:26:29.280
<v Speaker 1>little brain. You know. Well, I was wondering if you'd

0:26:29.280 --> 0:26:31.800
<v Speaker 1>ever tried to get in your body by going in

0:26:31.960 --> 0:26:36.320
<v Speaker 1>an isolation tank. There we go, I have, Yes, I have,

0:26:36.640 --> 0:26:39.959
<v Speaker 1>I did it. So last year I was having a

0:26:40.000 --> 0:26:43.600
<v Speaker 1>really really hard time. Um, I was dealing with a

0:26:43.600 --> 0:26:46.480
<v Speaker 1>lot of physical illness problems and that was causing me

0:26:46.520 --> 0:26:50.200
<v Speaker 1>a lot of mental illness anguish too. I was having

0:26:50.240 --> 0:26:54.399
<v Speaker 1>some confusing situations with relationships. My cat was diagnosed with cancer.

0:26:54.960 --> 0:26:57.679
<v Speaker 1>I was having a lot of like professional struggles. It

0:26:57.760 --> 0:27:01.200
<v Speaker 1>was really it was a really, really hard time. And

0:27:01.440 --> 0:27:03.879
<v Speaker 1>my friend came to visit. And my friend is is

0:27:04.280 --> 0:27:06.800
<v Speaker 1>she's like sort of an expert on on like chronic

0:27:06.840 --> 0:27:09.200
<v Speaker 1>illness and pain and things like that. And she also

0:27:10.119 --> 0:27:12.440
<v Speaker 1>is she's much more like new age and open to

0:27:12.520 --> 0:27:14.600
<v Speaker 1>things than I am. I'm always like the skeptical one.

0:27:15.040 --> 0:27:17.680
<v Speaker 1>But she said, why don't we do an isolation tank?

0:27:18.640 --> 0:27:22.080
<v Speaker 1>And I think I only said yes because I actually

0:27:22.080 --> 0:27:26.400
<v Speaker 1>have a friend um who we call Dr Flux, and

0:27:26.680 --> 0:27:30.600
<v Speaker 1>Dr Flux is a neuroscientist and he does a lot

0:27:30.680 --> 0:27:34.199
<v Speaker 1>about mental illness and such, and he has studied the

0:27:34.240 --> 0:27:39.600
<v Speaker 1>effects of of of isolation tanks on the brain. And

0:27:40.080 --> 0:27:42.359
<v Speaker 1>I told him, I said, I thought that we talked

0:27:42.359 --> 0:27:43.600
<v Speaker 1>about it once and I said, I don't think I

0:27:43.600 --> 0:27:45.560
<v Speaker 1>could ever do that. I would get so claustrophobic. And

0:27:45.560 --> 0:27:47.240
<v Speaker 1>he goes, I'm claustrophobic and it wasn't a big deal.

0:27:47.960 --> 0:27:50.280
<v Speaker 1>He says, you find ways to deal with it. And

0:27:50.720 --> 0:27:53.160
<v Speaker 1>so my friend Alison and my sister and I did

0:27:53.200 --> 0:27:55.600
<v Speaker 1>this and I was like, Okay, Dr Flux says, it's okay.

0:27:57.080 --> 0:28:00.440
<v Speaker 1>I trust him. I trust Allison. We'll see what happens.

0:28:00.520 --> 0:28:04.000
<v Speaker 1>And and so we went to one in in West

0:28:04.119 --> 0:28:05.639
<v Speaker 1>l a And near where my sister was living at

0:28:05.640 --> 0:28:09.760
<v Speaker 1>the time, and uh, and we did it and it

0:28:09.800 --> 0:28:13.800
<v Speaker 1>was an incredibly positive experience. How long were you in there?

0:28:13.840 --> 0:28:18.520
<v Speaker 1>Two hours? Whoa Mara, Yeah, but I mean I kept

0:28:18.520 --> 0:28:21.000
<v Speaker 1>getting out because like I had to pee. Um, so

0:28:21.080 --> 0:28:23.560
<v Speaker 1>you'd get out, you'd you'd use the toilet and you'd

0:28:23.560 --> 0:28:25.639
<v Speaker 1>like wash yourself off and then get back in the isolation.

0:28:25.680 --> 0:28:30.080
<v Speaker 1>Thank Yeah. Two hours. And I think the first hour

0:28:30.200 --> 0:28:31.840
<v Speaker 1>was kind of a struggle because I was getting used

0:28:31.840 --> 0:28:33.320
<v Speaker 1>to it, or it wasn't a struggle, but it was

0:28:33.520 --> 0:28:35.240
<v Speaker 1>I wasn't sure what I was supposed to be feeling.

0:28:35.680 --> 0:28:40.240
<v Speaker 1>But the second hour was amazing, absolutely amazing. I feel like,

0:28:40.400 --> 0:28:42.800
<v Speaker 1>you know, maybe this is just for anyone who is

0:28:42.880 --> 0:28:45.920
<v Speaker 1>sort of an overly in their brain person. It always

0:28:45.960 --> 0:28:47.920
<v Speaker 1>takes me so long to get out of my brain

0:28:48.000 --> 0:28:51.440
<v Speaker 1>into my body, and then when you finally do and it,

0:28:51.440 --> 0:28:54.520
<v Speaker 1>it is like, you know, there's this uncomfortable period where

0:28:54.520 --> 0:28:56.320
<v Speaker 1>you can't stop thinking. This happens to me anytime I

0:28:56.360 --> 0:28:59.680
<v Speaker 1>do yoga. It's like there's half an hour of me

0:28:59.760 --> 0:29:01.520
<v Speaker 1>being like I want to I don't want to do this,

0:29:01.680 --> 0:29:04.000
<v Speaker 1>I have to, you know, I'm thinking about something else,

0:29:04.040 --> 0:29:07.360
<v Speaker 1>and then a certain point you're like in your body

0:29:07.400 --> 0:29:11.000
<v Speaker 1>and it's amazing. Yeah, it takes me forever. I I

0:29:11.160 --> 0:29:14.160
<v Speaker 1>my brain fights it every step of the way. Um,

0:29:14.200 --> 0:29:16.560
<v Speaker 1>but yeah, it was a really interesting experience. I didn't

0:29:16.560 --> 0:29:20.200
<v Speaker 1>hallucinate or anything. And what I did with the it

0:29:20.320 --> 0:29:22.520
<v Speaker 1>wasn't like one of those pod like tanks. It was

0:29:22.560 --> 0:29:25.360
<v Speaker 1>like a small room. And what I did because I

0:29:25.400 --> 0:29:29.480
<v Speaker 1>was afraid of the of like being coming claustrophobic. There

0:29:29.480 --> 0:29:31.000
<v Speaker 1>was also like a button you could press in case

0:29:31.000 --> 0:29:34.080
<v Speaker 1>everything was worried was in case you got in case

0:29:34.120 --> 0:29:38.360
<v Speaker 1>anything was wrong. Um. But I got in and you know,

0:29:38.520 --> 0:29:41.520
<v Speaker 1>your your nude and the water is like completely cleaned

0:29:41.600 --> 0:29:44.880
<v Speaker 1>and you have to put you have to put your

0:29:44.880 --> 0:29:47.680
<v Speaker 1>plugs in and you have to sort of be like

0:29:47.760 --> 0:29:50.120
<v Speaker 1>face up. And I mean I'm pretty short, so there

0:29:50.160 --> 0:29:53.000
<v Speaker 1>was still a lot of space around me. But I

0:29:53.000 --> 0:29:56.200
<v Speaker 1>I left the door open, you know, two inches, and

0:29:56.240 --> 0:29:58.080
<v Speaker 1>then after a while I closed it to an inch,

0:29:58.360 --> 0:30:00.000
<v Speaker 1>and then after a while I closed it to half

0:30:00.000 --> 0:30:01.960
<v Speaker 1>an inch, and then after a while I closed it

0:30:02.000 --> 0:30:05.960
<v Speaker 1>fully and I did that, and that I think made

0:30:05.960 --> 0:30:08.920
<v Speaker 1>it feel much better. And yeah, the first hour, I

0:30:08.960 --> 0:30:10.560
<v Speaker 1>was thinking about a lot of weird things. I was

0:30:10.600 --> 0:30:12.600
<v Speaker 1>sort of trying to find my like buoyancy. I was

0:30:12.640 --> 0:30:14.880
<v Speaker 1>lying on my back. I was trying to make sure that,

0:30:14.920 --> 0:30:17.200
<v Speaker 1>like the water, you know, solution didn't go into my

0:30:17.240 --> 0:30:20.440
<v Speaker 1>mouth or my nose. And I think I like briefly

0:30:20.480 --> 0:30:22.560
<v Speaker 1>fell asleep and then I like clear, I like quickly

0:30:22.560 --> 0:30:24.600
<v Speaker 1>woke up, you know, I like I like dozed off.

0:30:25.000 --> 0:30:29.560
<v Speaker 1>But then something happened in the second the second half,

0:30:29.800 --> 0:30:32.040
<v Speaker 1>Like I can't imagine having hallucinations in there, and I

0:30:32.080 --> 0:30:33.560
<v Speaker 1>really don't think it would be a good place to

0:30:33.640 --> 0:30:38.560
<v Speaker 1>do psychedelics. I really don't think it would. Uh. But

0:30:39.120 --> 0:30:42.640
<v Speaker 1>I was lying there and I heard this sound and

0:30:42.680 --> 0:30:46.680
<v Speaker 1>I was like, that's a really beautiful sound. What is it?

0:30:47.160 --> 0:30:49.920
<v Speaker 1>And then I realized it was my own breathing. Oh

0:30:49.960 --> 0:30:55.320
<v Speaker 1>my god, that's cool. And I felt this like tremendous

0:30:55.360 --> 0:30:59.600
<v Speaker 1>feeling of joy and like clarity and purity, and I

0:30:59.640 --> 0:31:04.160
<v Speaker 1>was like, this is amazing. Everything is so beautiful. Right now.

0:31:04.360 --> 0:31:06.760
<v Speaker 1>I feel weirdly at peace. And it was the most

0:31:06.800 --> 0:31:09.760
<v Speaker 1>piece I had felt in years. And what I ended

0:31:09.840 --> 0:31:12.360
<v Speaker 1>up doing was I would reach for the wall and

0:31:12.360 --> 0:31:14.600
<v Speaker 1>then I would kind of like push myself off it

0:31:14.640 --> 0:31:16.440
<v Speaker 1>and like go find the other wall. And I would

0:31:16.480 --> 0:31:17.920
<v Speaker 1>go found to find the bottom walls, and I was

0:31:17.920 --> 0:31:19.720
<v Speaker 1>like I was playing a game with myself. I felt

0:31:19.720 --> 0:31:22.160
<v Speaker 1>like an otter or something where I was just like

0:31:22.240 --> 0:31:25.160
<v Speaker 1>I can touch the wall and touching things is amazing,

0:31:25.320 --> 0:31:28.160
<v Speaker 1>and I'm swimming around and here like I was. I

0:31:28.200 --> 0:31:30.800
<v Speaker 1>was just full of delight. Yeah, so you it sounds

0:31:30.840 --> 0:31:33.640
<v Speaker 1>like you were having a psychedelic experience just it kind

0:31:33.640 --> 0:31:35.760
<v Speaker 1>of was. Yeah, it was like it was Yeah, I

0:31:35.760 --> 0:31:37.840
<v Speaker 1>mean I've never I've never done them because I'm a

0:31:37.880 --> 0:31:40.560
<v Speaker 1>control freaking I'm scared. But yeah, but actually it does

0:31:40.600 --> 0:31:43.320
<v Speaker 1>sound a lot like like when a lot of my

0:31:43.400 --> 0:31:46.280
<v Speaker 1>friends micro does, that's what and a lot of my

0:31:46.320 --> 0:31:49.600
<v Speaker 1>friends do. Um. One of them met Nfia, well Micro

0:31:49.720 --> 0:31:53.120
<v Speaker 1>does saying Nity Roman and gave her rug and was like,

0:31:53.120 --> 0:31:54.680
<v Speaker 1>thank you for what you're doing for the city in

0:31:54.720 --> 0:31:57.560
<v Speaker 1>the world and my sister and Nithia was like, is

0:31:57.560 --> 0:31:59.320
<v Speaker 1>she okay? Does this affect you in a negative way,

0:31:59.360 --> 0:32:01.000
<v Speaker 1>and I was like, now's signed, she signed. Don't worry

0:32:01.000 --> 0:32:03.280
<v Speaker 1>about it, It's just just micro docing. She's she's happy.

0:32:03.520 --> 0:32:06.080
<v Speaker 1>Some people on this call may have experience with micro

0:32:06.200 --> 0:32:10.160
<v Speaker 1>do sing. I won't say who. Somebody might be a

0:32:10.160 --> 0:32:12.800
<v Speaker 1>big fan of micro dose thing, but could easily see

0:32:12.840 --> 0:32:15.320
<v Speaker 1>how a slightly more macro dose would lead you to

0:32:15.400 --> 0:32:21.040
<v Speaker 1>hug a city official. Um, yeah, it was. But it

0:32:21.120 --> 0:32:24.120
<v Speaker 1>was like it was like the the So it was

0:32:24.240 --> 0:32:26.360
<v Speaker 1>kind of it wasn't probably a bit like micro dosing

0:32:26.440 --> 0:32:29.880
<v Speaker 1>in that like finding everything beautiful, you know, everything becoming

0:32:29.960 --> 0:32:32.520
<v Speaker 1>really lovely kind of way. You know. No, I didn't

0:32:32.560 --> 0:32:34.880
<v Speaker 1>have any visual hallucinations. I didn't have any you know,

0:32:35.320 --> 0:32:37.680
<v Speaker 1>not really any auditory but it was like my my

0:32:37.760 --> 0:32:40.560
<v Speaker 1>senses were amped, and I felt I felt like joy

0:32:40.600 --> 0:32:42.600
<v Speaker 1>and delight in a way that I hadn't felt in

0:32:42.600 --> 0:32:45.080
<v Speaker 1>a long time, because I've been in physical pain and

0:32:45.120 --> 0:32:49.160
<v Speaker 1>I'd been depressed that I was in physical pain and

0:32:49.160 --> 0:32:51.400
<v Speaker 1>and but it was just the coolest thing because it

0:32:51.440 --> 0:32:54.000
<v Speaker 1>did feel it felt very much like a childlike sense

0:32:54.000 --> 0:32:57.240
<v Speaker 1>of wonder. Yeah, And I felt like I could find

0:32:57.240 --> 0:32:58.960
<v Speaker 1>the beauty and things. I could find the beauty in

0:32:59.000 --> 0:33:02.520
<v Speaker 1>my own breathing that's amazing. So when you say it

0:33:02.600 --> 0:33:05.000
<v Speaker 1>wasn't the pod, but it was like a room, how

0:33:05.000 --> 0:33:07.760
<v Speaker 1>big is the room and is the room entirely filled

0:33:07.760 --> 0:33:10.760
<v Speaker 1>with is there like a tank in the room? It was, well,

0:33:10.800 --> 0:33:13.000
<v Speaker 1>there was like it was like there was a bathroom

0:33:13.240 --> 0:33:15.320
<v Speaker 1>and they're like there was I think there was like

0:33:15.320 --> 0:33:19.640
<v Speaker 1>a toilet in a shower and and there was or

0:33:19.640 --> 0:33:21.000
<v Speaker 1>maybe actually the toilets were in the hob and I

0:33:21.040 --> 0:33:22.560
<v Speaker 1>might have had to go down the halliday use them,

0:33:22.560 --> 0:33:25.120
<v Speaker 1>but there were there was a shower there and there

0:33:25.160 --> 0:33:26.320
<v Speaker 1>was like a bench it so it was like a

0:33:26.360 --> 0:33:28.040
<v Speaker 1>little bit like a gym shower. And then there was

0:33:28.080 --> 0:33:30.600
<v Speaker 1>this thing that kind of looked like it looked like

0:33:30.600 --> 0:33:32.400
<v Speaker 1>like a big box or like with like a vault

0:33:32.440 --> 0:33:34.440
<v Speaker 1>door or something. And then you would open the door

0:33:34.560 --> 0:33:39.640
<v Speaker 1>and get in and uh. And that was that was

0:33:39.720 --> 0:33:43.920
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, maybe like maybe like eight ft by

0:33:44.000 --> 0:33:47.880
<v Speaker 1>like like six ft or something like that. And so

0:33:47.960 --> 0:33:50.200
<v Speaker 1>it was too tiny. It wasn't too tiny like I

0:33:50.240 --> 0:33:54.560
<v Speaker 1>could I could comfortably. I could comfortably like like swim around,

0:33:54.560 --> 0:33:56.600
<v Speaker 1>not swim around, but like push myself around a little

0:33:56.600 --> 0:33:59.280
<v Speaker 1>bit and not immediately touch a wall. Um. I'm like

0:33:59.320 --> 0:34:01.280
<v Speaker 1>I said, I'm also very short, but I think that

0:34:01.320 --> 0:34:04.720
<v Speaker 1>they do take like different body sizes into and into consideration,

0:34:04.880 --> 0:34:08.680
<v Speaker 1>and tall people into consideration and everything. Um So, so

0:34:08.719 --> 0:34:10.960
<v Speaker 1>there definitely wasn't enough room and there was water, but

0:34:10.960 --> 0:34:13.480
<v Speaker 1>then there was also like a high ceiling above me,

0:34:13.520 --> 0:34:16.520
<v Speaker 1>so I wouldn't hit my head when I got out. Um.

0:34:16.600 --> 0:34:18.920
<v Speaker 1>I don't remember how high the ceilings were, but like

0:34:18.960 --> 0:34:20.040
<v Speaker 1>I don't know if I would have been able to

0:34:20.080 --> 0:34:23.080
<v Speaker 1>stand up. It's probably like five feet, but you know

0:34:23.840 --> 0:34:25.839
<v Speaker 1>you could. You could are actually probably taller than that.

0:34:26.520 --> 0:34:28.520
<v Speaker 1>Um And so, yeah, it felt weird because at first

0:34:28.520 --> 0:34:31.080
<v Speaker 1>it's like, whoa, am I like putting myself into like

0:34:31.239 --> 0:34:33.160
<v Speaker 1>a little freezer right now or something like that. It

0:34:33.160 --> 0:34:34.799
<v Speaker 1>did look like a little like it looks it looks

0:34:34.840 --> 0:34:36.319
<v Speaker 1>kind of like a freezer, like if you work at

0:34:36.360 --> 0:34:39.719
<v Speaker 1>like a restaurant or something. But yeah, walk in it

0:34:39.760 --> 0:34:42.200
<v Speaker 1>looked like a walk in freezer. And that felt a

0:34:42.239 --> 0:34:44.120
<v Speaker 1>little weird. And there was probably only like a foot

0:34:44.200 --> 0:34:46.080
<v Speaker 1>or two of like I'd say probably a foot or

0:34:46.080 --> 0:34:49.239
<v Speaker 1>so of water, and the water definitely had stuff in

0:34:49.280 --> 0:34:52.280
<v Speaker 1>it that was going to help you float, like extra

0:34:52.600 --> 0:34:56.440
<v Speaker 1>salt or that kind of like like yeah, like like

0:34:56.480 --> 0:34:58.520
<v Speaker 1>the stuff that's in like the Dead Sea. I guess

0:34:58.800 --> 0:35:00.719
<v Speaker 1>like there's there's different kinds of chemicals. I don't know

0:35:00.760 --> 0:35:03.640
<v Speaker 1>what it is exactly, And and and I didn't totally float

0:35:03.680 --> 0:35:05.480
<v Speaker 1>at first, Like I feel like my butt kind of

0:35:05.560 --> 0:35:09.120
<v Speaker 1>dragged me down, you know, like like I had to

0:35:09.200 --> 0:35:11.839
<v Speaker 1>I had to sort of manage manage that. But like

0:35:12.440 --> 0:35:14.360
<v Speaker 1>there was eventually I was like, Okay, I get the

0:35:14.360 --> 0:35:17.480
<v Speaker 1>hang of it. Yeah, yeah, have you gone back since

0:35:17.920 --> 0:35:21.160
<v Speaker 1>I've wanted to. I've wanted to so badly, but but

0:35:21.280 --> 0:35:25.520
<v Speaker 1>COVID happened, So yeah, I really want to go back.

0:35:25.640 --> 0:35:27.680
<v Speaker 1>And I was actually talking like I was talking to

0:35:27.719 --> 0:35:30.560
<v Speaker 1>my friend Chris Fleming and his partner Melissa about it.

0:35:30.920 --> 0:35:33.799
<v Speaker 1>And Chris is Chris is a a he's comedian and

0:35:33.800 --> 0:35:36.680
<v Speaker 1>he's very weird and and so is his partner. And

0:35:36.760 --> 0:35:38.399
<v Speaker 1>I thought, I was like, I was like, you guys

0:35:38.440 --> 0:35:41.560
<v Speaker 1>would really love this. I think like if for for

0:35:41.600 --> 0:35:43.640
<v Speaker 1>nothing else, it would make a great story. And so

0:35:43.719 --> 0:35:45.680
<v Speaker 1>I was looking at like the different places like in

0:35:45.719 --> 0:35:49.000
<v Speaker 1>Pasadena and and places that were like a little closer

0:35:49.080 --> 0:35:52.279
<v Speaker 1>to where I live. Uh, And then COVID happened, and

0:35:52.280 --> 0:35:54.640
<v Speaker 1>I was like, well, probably nobody's going to be able

0:35:54.680 --> 0:35:56.839
<v Speaker 1>to do this for a really long time. Yeah, that's

0:35:56.840 --> 0:36:00.440
<v Speaker 1>like last on the list of things they're gonna exactly exactly.

0:36:00.560 --> 0:36:02.799
<v Speaker 1>And that makes me really sad because I really did

0:36:02.880 --> 0:36:05.759
<v Speaker 1>feel this. I told my friends it was like meditating

0:36:05.760 --> 0:36:08.720
<v Speaker 1>without having to do the work of meditating, right, because

0:36:08.880 --> 0:36:11.160
<v Speaker 1>my my brain does not work well for meditation, like

0:36:11.200 --> 0:36:13.319
<v Speaker 1>my sister and I sometimes do. Uh, we do like

0:36:13.360 --> 0:36:16.000
<v Speaker 1>a chanting thing. She found a thing that was chanting

0:36:16.040 --> 0:36:17.879
<v Speaker 1>in it, and I think I was a little worried

0:36:17.880 --> 0:36:19.200
<v Speaker 1>about that at first because I was like, is this

0:36:19.239 --> 0:36:22.040
<v Speaker 1>a religious thing? But it's not. It's just that saying

0:36:22.080 --> 0:36:25.200
<v Speaker 1>things and imagining things, Like you say certain things and

0:36:25.239 --> 0:36:27.440
<v Speaker 1>you imagine certain things when you say them, and that

0:36:27.640 --> 0:36:30.280
<v Speaker 1>like that helps me I think more than just sitting

0:36:30.280 --> 0:36:33.239
<v Speaker 1>and thinking. Yeah. But being in the tank, Yeah, being

0:36:33.239 --> 0:36:34.759
<v Speaker 1>in the tank, it was like I was meditating, but

0:36:34.760 --> 0:36:37.200
<v Speaker 1>I didn't have to do the hard work of meditating.

0:36:37.440 --> 0:36:49.040
<v Speaker 1>It was like it was meditating for me. Well, now

0:36:49.080 --> 0:36:52.359
<v Speaker 1>we're all in isolation tanks of the mind, it's true. Well,

0:36:52.400 --> 0:36:53.880
<v Speaker 1>I was just thinking. I was like, I wonder if

0:36:53.880 --> 0:36:55.279
<v Speaker 1>there's a way to kind of d I y and

0:36:55.360 --> 0:37:01.240
<v Speaker 1>isolation tank. Yeah, I'm a Y. I was like, wait,

0:37:01.280 --> 0:37:04.680
<v Speaker 1>if you just cover that with a dome and your

0:37:04.800 --> 0:37:09.040
<v Speaker 1>own an outdoor isolation I mean maybe because but it's

0:37:09.120 --> 0:37:11.279
<v Speaker 1>it's like it feels very different than what we're doing

0:37:11.320 --> 0:37:14.200
<v Speaker 1>now because right now we're we're forced into it, and

0:37:14.239 --> 0:37:17.800
<v Speaker 1>this going into an isolation tank is definitely is definitely

0:37:17.840 --> 0:37:22.919
<v Speaker 1>like a a you know, a reprieve from everything. So

0:37:23.040 --> 0:37:25.240
<v Speaker 1>I think that that's, you know, it's it's definitely different

0:37:26.000 --> 0:37:29.719
<v Speaker 1>because because I don't know, it's it's like a it's

0:37:29.719 --> 0:37:33.359
<v Speaker 1>like a weirdly joyous thing. I think something something about

0:37:33.360 --> 0:37:36.120
<v Speaker 1>floating in water too, just like does take you back

0:37:36.239 --> 0:37:39.400
<v Speaker 1>to being in the womb. I definitely just feel that

0:37:39.440 --> 0:37:42.000
<v Speaker 1>way anytime I'm in a pool and floating. It's like, oh,

0:37:42.080 --> 0:37:45.960
<v Speaker 1>I feel so happy and comfortable. I used to fall

0:37:46.000 --> 0:37:48.920
<v Speaker 1>asleep in the car like um, like while you grew

0:37:49.000 --> 0:37:51.600
<v Speaker 1>up in l A right, yeah, so you probably have

0:37:51.719 --> 0:37:53.920
<v Speaker 1>the experience that I did where your parents would drive

0:37:53.960 --> 0:37:55.520
<v Speaker 1>you around and you would sit in the front seat

0:37:55.560 --> 0:37:57.440
<v Speaker 1>and just stare at yourself in the rear view mirror

0:37:57.440 --> 0:37:59.840
<v Speaker 1>all the time while they like listen to their oldies.

0:38:00.239 --> 0:38:02.840
<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, t tu knows what this is. Also, yeh,

0:38:03.080 --> 0:38:06.160
<v Speaker 1>I moved here at that time as well, Yes, exactly,

0:38:06.239 --> 0:38:08.120
<v Speaker 1>so I have that. I have a lot of memories

0:38:08.160 --> 0:38:10.200
<v Speaker 1>of like sitting in the front seat and like staring

0:38:10.200 --> 0:38:12.120
<v Speaker 1>at myself in the rear view window and and thinking

0:38:12.120 --> 0:38:14.360
<v Speaker 1>that I looked prettier in that or the side mirrors

0:38:14.400 --> 0:38:17.360
<v Speaker 1>actually and uh, and thinking that I looked much prettier

0:38:17.400 --> 0:38:19.279
<v Speaker 1>in that light, and like listening to like sitting on

0:38:19.320 --> 0:38:21.759
<v Speaker 1>the dock of the bay or something. But on long

0:38:21.800 --> 0:38:23.200
<v Speaker 1>car trips, like we would have to go to like

0:38:23.719 --> 0:38:25.680
<v Speaker 1>I think we had to go to Calibasses because my

0:38:25.680 --> 0:38:27.719
<v Speaker 1>psychiatrist was out there, which is a very l a

0:38:27.760 --> 0:38:31.200
<v Speaker 1>sentence totally. My psychiatrist was also in the West Valley,

0:38:31.239 --> 0:38:33.600
<v Speaker 1>and it's just like the worst thing about therapy was

0:38:33.640 --> 0:38:35.920
<v Speaker 1>you had to drive to the West Valley exactly. But

0:38:36.000 --> 0:38:38.239
<v Speaker 1>I would, like, I remember, like I would always fall

0:38:38.280 --> 0:38:39.759
<v Speaker 1>asleep in the car on the way there and the

0:38:39.760 --> 0:38:41.960
<v Speaker 1>way back, and I would I would either listen to

0:38:41.960 --> 0:38:44.439
<v Speaker 1>oldies which I secretly loved, or I would like listen

0:38:44.440 --> 0:38:46.920
<v Speaker 1>to like Weezer's Pinkerton or you know, Third Eye Blind

0:38:46.960 --> 0:38:49.480
<v Speaker 1>or some ship and like, and I would always take

0:38:49.520 --> 0:38:52.040
<v Speaker 1>a like take a little nap. And I've heard people

0:38:52.040 --> 0:38:55.120
<v Speaker 1>say later that like sometimes being in a car can

0:38:55.239 --> 0:38:57.320
<v Speaker 1>can kind of be like the womb to some people,

0:38:57.640 --> 0:39:01.600
<v Speaker 1>it puts babies to sleep. To Coliguy babies, you put

0:39:01.640 --> 0:39:06.799
<v Speaker 1>some of them some of them like yeah, yeah, you

0:39:06.840 --> 0:39:08.560
<v Speaker 1>know now that you're saying that. And though I like,

0:39:08.600 --> 0:39:10.760
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, I do have all these road trip memories

0:39:10.800 --> 0:39:12.799
<v Speaker 1>of being in a car, yeah, when somebody else is

0:39:12.880 --> 0:39:16.440
<v Speaker 1>driving and you can just fall asleep in just like

0:39:16.480 --> 0:39:18.800
<v Speaker 1>the sound of the road and the music my parents

0:39:18.800 --> 0:39:21.600
<v Speaker 1>would play like a like a Pat Metheny album always

0:39:21.640 --> 0:39:23.920
<v Speaker 1>and like if I hear it, it just and I

0:39:23.960 --> 0:39:26.840
<v Speaker 1>had a lot of trouble just falling asleep as a kid.

0:39:27.520 --> 0:39:30.040
<v Speaker 1>We had a lot of like albums that my parents

0:39:30.080 --> 0:39:33.160
<v Speaker 1>would put on to try and help me to relax,

0:39:33.280 --> 0:39:36.719
<v Speaker 1>and one of them was Avalon by Roxy Music was

0:39:36.760 --> 0:39:40.000
<v Speaker 1>a big one. So like anytime I hear Avalon, which

0:39:40.040 --> 0:39:42.239
<v Speaker 1>I like love as an album anyway, I just will

0:39:42.320 --> 0:39:46.040
<v Speaker 1>get so relaxed. Yeah, that's that's me. With Paul Simon

0:39:46.080 --> 0:39:48.839
<v Speaker 1>and Paul Simon's Graceland, I think I think I feel

0:39:48.840 --> 0:39:51.240
<v Speaker 1>like Graceland is the one for a lot of people.

0:39:51.640 --> 0:39:54.600
<v Speaker 1>It is. Yeah, And I didn't realize like all the

0:39:54.840 --> 0:39:57.480
<v Speaker 1>issues with it until I was much older. Oh yeah. Oh.

0:39:57.480 --> 0:40:00.680
<v Speaker 1>He recorded this during a part type like, Okay, that's

0:40:00.680 --> 0:40:03.520
<v Speaker 1>the worst. I'm a I'm a strong anti Paul Simon.

0:40:04.040 --> 0:40:07.480
<v Speaker 1>Molly's very allergic, very allergic to Paul Simon. But I

0:40:06.880 --> 0:40:09.799
<v Speaker 1>I understand that it's like a lot of people, a

0:40:09.800 --> 0:40:11.759
<v Speaker 1>lot of a lot of white people, white Jewish people

0:40:11.760 --> 0:40:14.040
<v Speaker 1>in particular, we we have a soft spot for him,

0:40:14.320 --> 0:40:17.440
<v Speaker 1>you know. I can't can't ant apologize for so I

0:40:17.480 --> 0:40:20.600
<v Speaker 1>feel like it's just my my Los Angeles nous overrides

0:40:20.640 --> 0:40:23.440
<v Speaker 1>it because I'm like, he stole music from Los Lobos

0:40:23.440 --> 0:40:26.120
<v Speaker 1>and like, you don't funk with Los Lobos, come to

0:40:26.280 --> 0:40:28.600
<v Speaker 1>l A. But I understand people's affection for it. And

0:40:28.640 --> 0:40:30.600
<v Speaker 1>Tess was listening to River of Dreams the other day

0:40:30.600 --> 0:40:33.640
<v Speaker 1>of the Billy Joel album, which is the Billy Joel

0:40:33.719 --> 0:40:36.360
<v Speaker 1>was another one. Yeah it was Billy, but it was

0:40:36.360 --> 0:40:39.880
<v Speaker 1>early Billy Joel for my childhood drives. If my parents

0:40:39.880 --> 0:40:42.000
<v Speaker 1>had played River of Dreams, I would have been like

0:40:42.080 --> 0:40:46.400
<v Speaker 1>so mortified. I think they probably just played in private.

0:40:46.560 --> 0:40:48.319
<v Speaker 1>One of my favorite songs of the child was for

0:40:48.360 --> 0:40:52.680
<v Speaker 1>the Longest Time, which probably foreshadows like my my teenagerhood

0:40:52.680 --> 0:40:56.920
<v Speaker 1>and like acapella groups, and yeah, yeah it was. It

0:40:57.000 --> 0:40:59.640
<v Speaker 1>was definitely I think thanks for making me into that

0:40:59.719 --> 0:41:03.799
<v Speaker 1>kind a kid, Mom and dad. But no, the worst

0:41:03.840 --> 0:41:06.640
<v Speaker 1>actually is my stepmother's taste in music. It's it's very

0:41:06.800 --> 0:41:12.160
<v Speaker 1>very like overwrought um ballads and very like syrupy ballads

0:41:12.200 --> 0:41:14.600
<v Speaker 1>that she does that she puts on UM a lot

0:41:14.640 --> 0:41:16.920
<v Speaker 1>of like seventies stuff, but like not good seventy stuff

0:41:16.920 --> 0:41:21.279
<v Speaker 1>like bread things like that the carpenters, but not like

0:41:21.280 --> 0:41:24.160
<v Speaker 1>the good carpenters, not like not like Superstar, which you

0:41:24.160 --> 0:41:27.399
<v Speaker 1>know which rules to like, but like they're they're more

0:41:27.480 --> 0:41:29.080
<v Speaker 1>like the stuff that you know that. Karen was like,

0:41:29.080 --> 0:41:32.200
<v Speaker 1>why are we doing this? Can I just drum? Can

0:41:32.280 --> 0:41:35.439
<v Speaker 1>I just drum and be myself? Yeah? So, so riding

0:41:35.440 --> 0:41:38.080
<v Speaker 1>in the car with her, like I remember we went

0:41:38.120 --> 0:41:39.920
<v Speaker 1>to we went to we drove to Las Vegas and

0:41:39.920 --> 0:41:42.080
<v Speaker 1>back with like my best friend from high school and

0:41:42.239 --> 0:41:46.160
<v Speaker 1>uh and we all just spent time like swapping um

0:41:46.320 --> 0:41:49.399
<v Speaker 1>swapping albums back and forth and and yeah, I think

0:41:50.120 --> 0:41:52.600
<v Speaker 1>there was a lot of Bent Folds five and weirdly

0:41:52.719 --> 0:41:57.360
<v Speaker 1>Rick Astley was there too, Yeah the early Yeah, I

0:41:57.360 --> 0:41:59.759
<v Speaker 1>mean I think, you know, in absence of being able

0:41:59.800 --> 0:42:03.280
<v Speaker 1>to go own an isolation tank or even an acting class,

0:42:04.000 --> 0:42:08.320
<v Speaker 1>I think, um it's you know, visualizations of this type

0:42:08.360 --> 0:42:10.799
<v Speaker 1>of thing. If you can just like visualize yourself in

0:42:10.840 --> 0:42:13.960
<v Speaker 1>an isolation tank or like visualize yourself in the back,

0:42:14.080 --> 0:42:16.400
<v Speaker 1>you know, in the car on that road trip. Like

0:42:16.440 --> 0:42:20.120
<v Speaker 1>I find that very comforting. I was doing a visualization

0:42:20.160 --> 0:42:23.520
<v Speaker 1>about being a beaver who lives in a beaver. It's

0:42:23.520 --> 0:42:26.080
<v Speaker 1>really nice then because I watched some nature show and

0:42:26.120 --> 0:42:28.360
<v Speaker 1>I was like, oh, I wish I were a beaver.

0:42:29.200 --> 0:42:32.359
<v Speaker 1>I definitely had some dreams where where you know, and

0:42:32.360 --> 0:42:34.839
<v Speaker 1>and I and like that brought me like joy, which

0:42:34.840 --> 0:42:37.840
<v Speaker 1>is surprising because usually my dreams are just stuff like

0:42:37.840 --> 0:42:40.960
<v Speaker 1>like um, I need to do the dishes, and like

0:42:41.400 --> 0:42:43.560
<v Speaker 1>mine are like yeah, mine are really boring. Mine are

0:42:43.600 --> 0:42:45.399
<v Speaker 1>like I'm in I'm in the shower and I can't

0:42:45.400 --> 0:42:48.880
<v Speaker 1>find I can't find my like scrubs, my like you know,

0:42:48.920 --> 0:42:50.920
<v Speaker 1>I can't find like my mesh lufah, where did it go?

0:42:51.360 --> 0:42:52.960
<v Speaker 1>Is it on the floor of the tub. No, it's

0:42:53.000 --> 0:42:56.480
<v Speaker 1>not so like grocery shopping. It's like exact thing to

0:42:56.600 --> 0:42:59.719
<v Speaker 1>dream about. Yeah, it's just like yeah, it's like like

0:43:00.000 --> 0:43:02.040
<v Speaker 1>a dream that like I threw something out and then

0:43:02.120 --> 0:43:03.960
<v Speaker 1>I was like, oh no, it's not actually empty at

0:43:04.040 --> 0:43:05.960
<v Speaker 1>like a bottle of cleaning fluid or something, and then

0:43:06.000 --> 0:43:07.920
<v Speaker 1>I took it out of the trash and I woke up,

0:43:07.920 --> 0:43:09.759
<v Speaker 1>and I was like, that was my dream. My dream

0:43:09.840 --> 0:43:11.799
<v Speaker 1>was that I threw out like a bottle of legion,

0:43:11.920 --> 0:43:13.600
<v Speaker 1>was like, oh, it's not empty, I should probably use

0:43:13.600 --> 0:43:16.640
<v Speaker 1>this up first. That was my fucking dream. It's horrible

0:43:16.719 --> 0:43:20.680
<v Speaker 1>to be robbed of the opportunity to have a good dream, right, Yeah,

0:43:20.880 --> 0:43:23.480
<v Speaker 1>But lately I have been having like really weird, vivid dreams,

0:43:23.480 --> 0:43:28.600
<v Speaker 1>and I wonder if that's because of like isolation and everyone. Yeah,

0:43:28.640 --> 0:43:31.160
<v Speaker 1>And one thing I have to remind myself is like,

0:43:31.160 --> 0:43:34.560
<v Speaker 1>like that that like that feeling of joy and like

0:43:34.640 --> 0:43:38.520
<v Speaker 1>safety and wonder that I felt in that tank. I

0:43:38.560 --> 0:43:42.160
<v Speaker 1>have that all the time, Like that I can at

0:43:42.200 --> 0:43:44.560
<v Speaker 1>least remember that even if I can't make myself feel that,

0:43:45.000 --> 0:43:47.480
<v Speaker 1>that that came from my mind. And I think like,

0:43:47.560 --> 0:43:49.840
<v Speaker 1>even if you use like hallucinogens or whatever it is,

0:43:49.920 --> 0:43:52.279
<v Speaker 1>you know safely to to get to that point, it

0:43:52.360 --> 0:43:54.600
<v Speaker 1>still comes from your own mind. And you can remind

0:43:54.600 --> 0:43:57.920
<v Speaker 1>yourself that, And even if you can't feel that again

0:43:57.960 --> 0:43:59.680
<v Speaker 1>in the moment, you can at least feel the memory

0:43:59.680 --> 0:44:02.520
<v Speaker 1>of it, which is something. Thank you. So much, Maura,

0:44:03.160 --> 0:44:04.920
<v Speaker 1>this was amazing. You're such a great guess, thank you,

0:44:05.000 --> 0:44:07.160
<v Speaker 1>thank you for joining us. I mean I talk a

0:44:07.200 --> 0:44:10.239
<v Speaker 1>lot and I pontificate a lot, so that's what we love.

0:44:10.640 --> 0:44:14.200
<v Speaker 1>Perfect yeah and so so yeah, so I figured that,

0:44:14.400 --> 0:44:15.800
<v Speaker 1>uh yeah, I figured that we would all have a

0:44:15.840 --> 0:44:18.120
<v Speaker 1>good time. Yeah, we love talking. We've been We've been

0:44:18.160 --> 0:44:19.759
<v Speaker 1>wanting to have you on for a long time. So

0:44:19.920 --> 0:44:22.440
<v Speaker 1>thank you. Yes, I'm so happy I've done this, and

0:44:22.560 --> 0:44:25.680
<v Speaker 1>so everyone can join our new acting class that we're starting.

0:44:25.719 --> 0:44:29.279
<v Speaker 1>Where definitely not a call. Yeah, and I sit in

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<v Speaker 1>the back with my arms folding and if something's not okay,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, that's not okay. Yeah, stop we have flags

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<v Speaker 1>get hurt physically or emotionally. Yes, cool, thanks Mara. Where

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<v Speaker 1>can people find you? They can find me. Let's see,

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<v Speaker 1>they can find me Maura Wilson on Twitter, Mara Wilson

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<v Speaker 1>on Instagram, My substack Mara dot substack dot com. I

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<v Speaker 1>also just started a cameo if anybody wants to watch

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<v Speaker 1>videos of me and my cats for their birthday and

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<v Speaker 1>do shout outs and stuff. So yeah, so I'm on

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<v Speaker 1>there too. Um yeah, I'm pretty much just under my

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<v Speaker 1>real name everywhere these days, so yeah, you can find

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<v Speaker 1>me there. Cool. Well, thank you so much, Thank you

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<v Speaker 1>so much. This has been great. Hey, guys, we have

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<v Speaker 1>an announcement to make that is kind of bitter sweet.

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<v Speaker 1>We are going to be wrapping up this show. We

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<v Speaker 1>started Nightcall almost three years ago and it was a

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<v Speaker 1>reboot of our show Girls and Hoodies, which was when

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<v Speaker 1>we were all at ESPN a long long time ago.

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<v Speaker 1>We've had so much fun doing Nightcall. We're all so

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<v Speaker 1>so proud, and we're all really grateful for the relationships

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<v Speaker 1>that we've formed with our listeners. Um, you guys are

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<v Speaker 1>really cool and that's been an amazing experience for us.

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<v Speaker 1>We decided to wrap the show because we started getting busy.

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<v Speaker 1>Emily in particular, is taking some time off to do

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<v Speaker 1>some cool projects, work stuff, and we just felt like

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<v Speaker 1>it wouldn't be the same without the three of us,

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<v Speaker 1>So we thought the right thing to do would be

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<v Speaker 1>to wrap it up as a team and then hopefully,

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<v Speaker 1>maybe at some point down the line, do a third reboot,

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<v Speaker 1>or would it be a second reboot, because this is

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<v Speaker 1>the first reboot you tell us, we will be doing

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<v Speaker 1>one more episode. It will be our finale, and that

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<v Speaker 1>will be probably at some point in December before the holidays,

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<v Speaker 1>and it will be all three of us. Were really

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<v Speaker 1>looking forward to that. If you would like to call

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<v Speaker 1>in and leave a voicemail for that show, please do

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<v Speaker 1>to four oh four six Night. You can also email

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<v Speaker 1>us at Night Call Podcast at gmail dot com. There

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<v Speaker 1>may also be one more Patreon episode for our subscribers

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<v Speaker 1>at Patreon dot com forwards last Night Call. This was

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<v Speaker 1>a very hard announcement to make and we just wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to let you guys know what was going on because

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<v Speaker 1>we really like you and we're grateful for you. So

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<v Speaker 1>thank you for supporting the show, thank you for listening,

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<v Speaker 1>and we'll talk to you one last time at some point.

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<v Speaker 1>We'll let you know in December. Goodbye.