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Speaker 2: Laundry day is not actually a day, it's a weekend.

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Speaker 1: It takes you like two days.

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Speaker 2: It's like a black woman washing their hair.

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Speaker 1: Sometimes it takes me like a month. And I'm not

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Speaker 1: because I'm just not putting laundry away anymore.

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Speaker 2: Okay, guys, I love you.

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Speaker 3: What's up, Brooklyn?

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Speaker 2: It's adulting and boy, do we have a guest for

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Speaker 2: you today.

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Speaker 1: Oh my god, Jordan, you're not motherfucking wrong. Okay. They

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Speaker 1: are sharp, they're enlightning, they're insightle as fuck, and we

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Speaker 1: share all of this with you, guys, because it's a

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Speaker 1: lab show. Baby. You know what, Listening to a log

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Speaker 2: So let's rip it. We'll see you back here at

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna stay right here, bitch. What's up, Brooklyn? How

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Speaker 3: Are you doing?

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Speaker 1: I love that we got straight up looking like we

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Speaker 2: Really, you're very much giving ninety substitute teacher.

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Speaker 1: Now, yes, I'm giving head of the class and I'll

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Speaker 1: I yeah, fol locks, It's like I always feel like

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Speaker 1: I need sunshine. Everyone loves the sunshine. I feel like

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Speaker 1: Do I look like Raven Simone going on a job interview?

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Speaker 3: I think you look fantastic? Is that too?

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Speaker 1: know it's still a thing. I look like anthropology. Just

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Speaker 3: It's a wonderful spring attire. It looks good on.

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Speaker 3: Fuck New York's like, fuck that noise. I don't give you.

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Speaker 1: Shit, you know what I mean? The fucking weather in

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Speaker 1: New York feels like the fucking US Senate. It's like,

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Speaker 2: It's the Senate is awful. It's tied up and then

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Speaker 1: Can we just a moment of silence for Senator Cruz's

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Speaker 3: I love Corey Booker, but he's opened his mouth.

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Speaker 2: We love him, we love him, we love we love

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Speaker 5: And then in terms of access arising, I was just thinking,

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Speaker 4: Absolutely, That's why wear platform shoes.

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Speaker 5: It feels like we're the latest scapegoat for everyone's self hatred.

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Speaker 5: We can't be weak like we can't. We can't just

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Speaker 5: Who are my friends? I was just in Texas where

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Speaker 4: It was don't mess with trans kids in Texas.

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Speaker 4: Yes, that's just more about you than me and read

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Speaker 1: Book banned in Texas?

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Speaker 5: the fuck else is getting censored? Like let's hang out,

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Speaker 5: let's have a party with cans. We're actually being canceled,

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Speaker 5: College station Texas. We also call it closet station Texas.

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Speaker 3: That sounds like a naggie, right there, a naggy?

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Speaker 1: We do that?

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Speaker 2: Look actually knows what I'm talking? Right, So, wow, you

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Speaker 2: came from college station I did?

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Speaker 1: What is it like? What is that? Not a few

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Speaker 3: Man?

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Speaker 1: What's it like?

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Speaker 3: No, it's not like that.

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Speaker 2: I don't close your eyes and think that it's just desert.

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Speaker 5: Like it's like it's like giving home on the range.

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Speaker 5: It's like, yes, it's giving cowboys and Indians.

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Speaker 5: It's giving like Kimberly Crunchhaw's theory of intersectionality, Like right, how.

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Speaker 3: Did how did you?

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Speaker 5: And The Walking Dead is not a TV show, it's

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Speaker 3: Get that's hated on my fucking back.

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Speaker 4: That was a really great metaphor, like shut me up?

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Speaker 5: So it's just hard because people say that I'm desperate

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Speaker 4: You know.

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Speaker 5: And if you don't like me, then you weren't meant

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Speaker 1: I am here for that. Yeah, how do you sleep

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Speaker 1: Yeah, because I wish some I wish somebody was open

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Speaker 1: But also I just feel like, if more people everything

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Speaker 5: And I think that so much of my life is

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Speaker 2: A look, I love that you said it. I also

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Speaker 2: like that you look through my soul as you said it.

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Speaker 5: Like there's a difference between Brunet and like Bland, Like

442
00:23:10,480 --> 00:23:13,720
Speaker 5: I understand that. Like so it's like deep like ethno

443
00:23:13,840 --> 00:23:16,879
Speaker 5: nationalist historical tensions, Like I want to be an ally,

444
00:23:16,920 --> 00:23:19,359
Speaker 5: I want to get it. I want to anti racist

445
00:23:19,520 --> 00:23:23,520
Speaker 5: education is important. Solidarity is a two way street. But

446
00:23:23,640 --> 00:23:25,879
Speaker 5: you'll be in those countries where you're like, it was

447
00:23:25,880 --> 00:23:29,080
Speaker 5: like you're saying, for Connecticut, Massachusetts, these girls really care. Yeah,

448
00:23:29,160 --> 00:23:32,240
Speaker 5: we don't give a fuck, right, yes, I'm like, where's

449
00:23:32,240 --> 00:23:33,960
Speaker 5: the food. That's what I'm interested in. I don't give

450
00:23:33,960 --> 00:23:36,679
Speaker 5: a shit. You know, I love a hot not. So

451
00:23:36,800 --> 00:23:39,600
Speaker 5: we're in like a train in an ambiguous European country

452
00:23:39,640 --> 00:23:42,840
Speaker 5: and the girls are looking at us because they're seeing

453
00:23:42,880 --> 00:23:45,479
Speaker 5: the cosmos. Right, that's when everyone's staring at me. I

454
00:23:45,520 --> 00:23:48,680
Speaker 5: just imagine, like whoa, Like, what are they seeing right now?

455
00:23:48,760 --> 00:23:52,639
Speaker 5: They're on the trip, not me, and we're on the

456
00:23:52,680 --> 00:23:54,800
Speaker 5: train and they're on the trip. And so we're just

457
00:23:54,840 --> 00:23:59,000
Speaker 5: walking around and people just give us shit, like say

458
00:23:59,080 --> 00:24:03,000
Speaker 5: say weird things, like come up to us and do things.

459
00:24:03,119 --> 00:24:05,479
Speaker 5: But we were in the city called Antwerp. You might

460
00:24:05,480 --> 00:24:10,680
Speaker 5: have heard of it, yeah, Belgium. Yeah, and we got

461
00:24:10,760 --> 00:24:13,320
Speaker 5: kicked out of a club for some reason, which getting

462
00:24:13,359 --> 00:24:15,000
Speaker 5: kicked out of a club for me is a performance

463
00:24:15,080 --> 00:24:16,359
Speaker 5: art act as a transferson.

464
00:24:17,119 --> 00:24:18,040
Speaker 4: It's just really it's like.

465
00:24:18,000 --> 00:24:20,080
Speaker 1: You know, you're putting the napkins up, like you can't

466
00:24:20,080 --> 00:24:21,200
Speaker 1: find me off quit.

467
00:24:21,240 --> 00:24:24,200
Speaker 4: Right, Like when a gay club kicks me out.

468
00:24:25,040 --> 00:24:27,920
Speaker 5: I'm just like, bitch, that's a good one, right, because

469
00:24:28,960 --> 00:24:30,679
Speaker 5: I had to be here in order for you to

470
00:24:30,720 --> 00:24:31,080
Speaker 5: be there.

471
00:24:31,400 --> 00:24:31,600
Speaker 2: Right.

472
00:24:31,920 --> 00:24:34,760
Speaker 5: But anyways, so we're getting kicked out and you know,

473
00:24:34,840 --> 00:24:36,119
Speaker 5: the girls tambourine.

474
00:24:36,119 --> 00:24:37,400
Speaker 1: I didn't know we were going to kick.

475
00:24:39,000 --> 00:24:40,520
Speaker 4: Honey.

476
00:24:41,560 --> 00:24:43,400
Speaker 5: You asked me why I dressed this way, and it's

477
00:24:43,440 --> 00:24:47,439
Speaker 5: because I'm bringing church everywhere I go. You are, So

478
00:24:47,440 --> 00:24:49,080
Speaker 5: we get kicked out of this club, and my friend

479
00:24:49,160 --> 00:24:53,240
Speaker 5: Travis literally videos the people kicking us out and it's

480
00:24:53,280 --> 00:24:56,080
Speaker 5: just going off being like Stonewall was a riot, they're

481
00:24:56,160 --> 00:24:57,600
Speaker 5: kicking out trans people.

482
00:24:57,320 --> 00:24:59,080
Speaker 4: Of color tag this bar.

483
00:24:59,400 --> 00:25:04,639
Speaker 5: And then we got the next morning that that happened.

484
00:25:05,320 --> 00:25:09,560
Speaker 5: So everyone's like, are you okay, like just checking in

485
00:25:10,160 --> 00:25:13,840
Speaker 5: a life of trans lives a matter, and we're literally

486
00:25:13,880 --> 00:25:18,000
Speaker 5: like we were. We don't remember. I don't remember what happened,

487
00:25:18,080 --> 00:25:19,880
Speaker 5: and so then we look at the videos and we're like.

488
00:25:19,840 --> 00:25:20,680
Speaker 3: What the fuck.

489
00:25:21,160 --> 00:25:22,439
Speaker 4: I'm like, Travis, delete that.

490
00:25:22,520 --> 00:25:24,280
Speaker 5: We've got to brand our personalities.

491
00:25:24,440 --> 00:25:27,280
Speaker 1: We love and transform. We don't believe in cancel culture,

492
00:25:28,520 --> 00:25:28,840
Speaker 1: so we.

493
00:25:28,840 --> 00:25:31,160
Speaker 4: Get rid of that shit. So things like that happen.

494
00:25:33,720 --> 00:25:36,119
Speaker 3: That's funny. Oh my god, that's good.

495
00:25:36,480 --> 00:25:42,359
Speaker 1: That's wild. I got kicked out of a club in Bruges, Belgium.

496
00:25:43,200 --> 00:25:45,720
Speaker 4: It's a ride, a passage, you know, I think so.

497
00:25:46,240 --> 00:25:49,480
Speaker 1: I think they just don't understand real power. I was

498
00:25:49,560 --> 00:25:51,720
Speaker 1: also so drunk. The beer has higher.

499
00:25:51,520 --> 00:25:55,280
Speaker 5: Alcohol content, right, I think they also have to get

500
00:25:55,320 --> 00:25:57,719
Speaker 5: drunk to like speak and like have emotion, you know.

501
00:25:57,840 --> 00:25:59,600
Speaker 4: So the threshold isn't yeah.

502
00:25:59,560 --> 00:26:02,080
Speaker 1: Yeah, one hundred percent, and there's no food. It was

503
00:26:02,200 --> 00:26:03,440
Speaker 1: like muscles and fries.

504
00:26:03,480 --> 00:26:05,560
Speaker 4: I'm like with but they didn't even call it fries

505
00:26:05,600 --> 00:26:07,280
Speaker 4: fries chips.

506
00:26:07,119 --> 00:26:08,240
Speaker 1: Right not okay?

507
00:26:08,359 --> 00:26:11,480
Speaker 3: No, I I kicked out Why I.

508
00:26:11,520 --> 00:26:11,840
Speaker 2: Was so.

509
00:26:13,520 --> 00:26:17,359
Speaker 1: Drunk that I was smoking a cigar backwards.

510
00:26:19,840 --> 00:26:21,879
Speaker 3: The hot the hot part was in your mouth. What

511
00:26:21,880 --> 00:26:22,960
Speaker 3: are you talking about?

512
00:26:22,720 --> 00:26:23,639
Speaker 1: I don't know, I don't remember.

513
00:26:24,000 --> 00:26:26,920
Speaker 5: So it's like your cakes are reading like cigarette play

514
00:26:27,080 --> 00:26:29,560
Speaker 5: and dissociation pretty much iconic.

515
00:26:29,920 --> 00:26:32,439
Speaker 1: One husband and I were like dating and I went

516
00:26:32,520 --> 00:26:37,359
Speaker 1: to go visit and yeah, that happened. And then I

517
00:26:37,520 --> 00:26:39,879
Speaker 1: was so fucking drunk, like why won't you fuck me?

518
00:26:41,160 --> 00:26:43,720
Speaker 4: Just like swimming in a seat and he was taking

519
00:26:43,840 --> 00:26:44,480
Speaker 4: pop songs?

520
00:26:45,920 --> 00:26:49,200
Speaker 1: Why won't you fuck give me the beat? No, please,

521
00:26:49,200 --> 00:26:49,960
Speaker 1: don't give me a beat.

522
00:26:50,920 --> 00:26:53,280
Speaker 2: I got kicked out of that restaurant pastie once, but

523
00:26:53,320 --> 00:26:57,920
Speaker 2: it was well. They it was just that they were past,

524
00:26:58,520 --> 00:27:03,919
Speaker 2: they were closing.

525
00:27:04,240 --> 00:27:04,840
Speaker 4: We've been there.

526
00:27:05,000 --> 00:27:06,320
Speaker 3: I did, like same.

527
00:27:06,400 --> 00:27:08,960
Speaker 1: I don't know if that's the same George George Jefferson.

528
00:27:09,000 --> 00:27:12,080
Speaker 1: I did George Jefferson my way, Thomas Jefferson. I did

529
00:27:12,080 --> 00:27:14,720
Speaker 1: George Jefferson my way out of that club, Like you're

530
00:27:14,800 --> 00:27:17,760
Speaker 1: racist as fuck, and they're like, you're not even that black.

531
00:27:17,800 --> 00:27:19,120
Speaker 1: I'm like, that's racist.

532
00:27:19,320 --> 00:27:19,520
Speaker 3: Right.

533
00:27:19,840 --> 00:27:22,240
Speaker 5: Yeah, you know sometimes and people are like, you want

534
00:27:22,240 --> 00:27:22,880
Speaker 5: to turn up tonight?

535
00:27:22,920 --> 00:27:23,480
Speaker 4: What that really is?

536
00:27:23,480 --> 00:27:25,560
Speaker 5: You want to scream at people outside? You know, Like

537
00:27:25,600 --> 00:27:27,919
Speaker 5: that's what I'm into. Sometimes people were like, how do

538
00:27:28,000 --> 00:27:30,160
Speaker 5: you get through it? It's like, sometimes you just need

539
00:27:30,160 --> 00:27:33,479
Speaker 5: to scream outside. That's true. Yeah, that's why I live

540
00:27:33,480 --> 00:27:33,760
Speaker 5: in New.

541
00:27:33,680 --> 00:27:34,440
Speaker 3: York for example.

542
00:27:34,680 --> 00:27:37,960
Speaker 2: For example, Yeah, what's your favorite screaming at someone?

543
00:27:38,400 --> 00:27:40,840
Speaker 5: Well, okay, so I've decided you're you'all gonna love this.

544
00:27:41,560 --> 00:27:44,040
Speaker 5: I decided that the waiter resist street harassment culture is

545
00:27:44,080 --> 00:27:47,919
Speaker 5: street affirmation culture. So I scream things at people I

546
00:27:47,960 --> 00:27:48,840
Speaker 5: don't know on the street.

547
00:27:49,520 --> 00:27:50,680
Speaker 4: I'm like, you're an.

548
00:27:50,640 --> 00:27:53,560
Speaker 5: Amazing person and I'm so proud of you and you've

549
00:27:53,600 --> 00:27:56,159
Speaker 5: got this, and they look at me and they start crying.

550
00:27:57,160 --> 00:27:59,320
Speaker 4: People do I literally run around.

551
00:27:59,320 --> 00:28:04,080
Speaker 5: I complet people like your tasteful tabby boot is everything.

552
00:28:04,240 --> 00:28:06,200
Speaker 4: And they're like, wow, thank you so much.

553
00:28:06,280 --> 00:28:10,280
Speaker 5: And I just really aggressively. Sometimes I roll down windows

554
00:28:10,280 --> 00:28:12,680
Speaker 5: of cars and I'm like, personal.

555
00:28:12,320 --> 00:28:15,240
Speaker 1: Your train, don't set out.

556
00:28:15,720 --> 00:28:18,000
Speaker 4: I really want to preach that to all.

557
00:28:18,680 --> 00:28:20,919
Speaker 3: Look, wait a minute, are you doing this in classic cars?

558
00:28:20,920 --> 00:28:22,280
Speaker 3: Because you're just like fi.

559
00:28:24,960 --> 00:28:27,600
Speaker 5: Okay, so that was a meta comment here and being

560
00:28:27,640 --> 00:28:31,159
Speaker 5: Asian from Texas, we buy used Toyota cameras.

561
00:28:32,359 --> 00:28:35,200
Speaker 4: So yes, in fact, we do do this.

562
00:28:35,440 --> 00:28:40,560
Speaker 1: Don't try it, don't try it, Jordan Asian hate.

563
00:28:40,320 --> 00:28:43,240
Speaker 4: See it was a bit that was meant. I wanted

564
00:28:43,280 --> 00:28:44,000
Speaker 4: to scream that.

565
00:28:44,040 --> 00:28:49,240
Speaker 5: On stage and I just healed ten percent. My SIMS

566
00:28:49,280 --> 00:28:50,760
Speaker 5: meter is popping right now.

567
00:28:51,000 --> 00:28:55,240
Speaker 1: Look. Oh my gosh, I wish I dressed up so good.

568
00:28:55,680 --> 00:28:57,600
Speaker 1: Have you ever been to India.

569
00:28:57,080 --> 00:28:58,080
Speaker 4: All the time I go over here?

570
00:28:58,320 --> 00:29:00,360
Speaker 1: Oh, every year with your family? No?

571
00:29:00,640 --> 00:29:05,560
Speaker 5: Okay, yeah, yes, The thing is like have you gone?

572
00:29:05,600 --> 00:29:06,160
Speaker 3: Where have you gone?

573
00:29:06,200 --> 00:29:08,080
Speaker 5: Growing up with my family, I didn't know that Indian

574
00:29:08,120 --> 00:29:10,600
Speaker 5: people could be queer and trans and say fuck, you know,

575
00:29:10,760 --> 00:29:13,080
Speaker 5: like I thought everyone was like normcore at the temple,

576
00:29:13,160 --> 00:29:16,400
Speaker 5: what's up? And so I needed to go and find myself.

577
00:29:16,440 --> 00:29:18,080
Speaker 5: So I started going to India every year to hang

578
00:29:18,080 --> 00:29:20,040
Speaker 5: out with queer and trans people who like would be

579
00:29:20,080 --> 00:29:23,200
Speaker 5: into cigarette play if you will, you know. And so

580
00:29:23,520 --> 00:29:26,080
Speaker 5: I just now have this boisterous crew of people there

581
00:29:26,200 --> 00:29:29,440
Speaker 5: all over India that I love so much, because when

582
00:29:29,480 --> 00:29:32,880
Speaker 5: you're hanging out with Indian people in India, like hangout

583
00:29:32,920 --> 00:29:34,720
Speaker 5: isn't like let's get dinner for like an hour and

584
00:29:34,760 --> 00:29:39,080
Speaker 5: a half. You're together for like twenty seven hours. You're

585
00:29:39,080 --> 00:29:42,400
Speaker 5: like literally doing your laundry together. You're literally like you're

586
00:29:42,560 --> 00:29:46,080
Speaker 5: taking shit together in the back, like you're just together together,

587
00:29:46,200 --> 00:29:48,920
Speaker 5: together together, And it's a kind of intimacy I don't

588
00:29:48,960 --> 00:29:50,760
Speaker 5: often get in New York, where people are very much

589
00:29:50,800 --> 00:29:54,040
Speaker 5: regimented with their schedule. It's like a sound bath of

590
00:29:54,160 --> 00:29:57,760
Speaker 5: just like all encompassing love. And I think because so

591
00:29:57,800 --> 00:30:00,280
Speaker 5: many of us have had fraught relationships with our FA family,

592
00:30:00,440 --> 00:30:01,720
Speaker 5: we become that for each other.

593
00:30:03,520 --> 00:30:04,719
Speaker 1: Was not ready.

594
00:30:06,080 --> 00:30:07,840
Speaker 5: I mean, when you're bringing me on your podcast, you

595
00:30:07,880 --> 00:30:10,760
Speaker 5: know I'm funny, but I'm like the lass of emoji.

596
00:30:10,840 --> 00:30:14,240
Speaker 5: You know, it's like which one boy or a girl?

597
00:30:14,280 --> 00:30:16,360
Speaker 5: Am I depressed or am I happy? What the fuck

598
00:30:17,480 --> 00:30:18,480
Speaker 5: both at the same time.

599
00:30:19,040 --> 00:30:25,040
Speaker 1: No, I'm just yeah. I mean again, not to take

600
00:30:25,080 --> 00:30:26,720
Speaker 1: it back to my inner child, but here the fuck.

601
00:30:26,600 --> 00:30:27,400
Speaker 4: We are, and here we are.

602
00:30:30,120 --> 00:30:32,040
Speaker 1: Yeah. My mom used to straighten my hair, cover my

603
00:30:32,080 --> 00:30:35,040
Speaker 1: freckles and always put me in a dress. And I

604
00:30:35,080 --> 00:30:38,000
Speaker 1: want to put on my dad's suit because it fit

605
00:30:38,080 --> 00:30:41,240
Speaker 1: better and wear my hair curly and fucking show my freckles.

606
00:30:41,600 --> 00:30:44,320
Speaker 1: And again, please don't tell your kids what to do

607
00:30:44,360 --> 00:30:45,880
Speaker 1: if they want to do it because I'm on stage

608
00:30:45,880 --> 00:30:53,000
Speaker 1: talking about dirty panties. So I mean, we both live

609
00:30:53,000 --> 00:30:54,360
Speaker 1: in America, right, I.

610
00:30:54,320 --> 00:30:56,000
Speaker 4: Think, so we like it here.

611
00:31:03,200 --> 00:31:07,280
Speaker 1: If you could lobby and make it right. Hmm, what

612
00:31:07,320 --> 00:31:11,320
Speaker 1: would be the first five things they need? Like the

613
00:31:11,360 --> 00:31:14,920
Speaker 1: Senate needs to fucking do? I know? I know? Is

614
00:31:14,960 --> 00:31:15,480
Speaker 1: that too much?

615
00:31:16,480 --> 00:31:18,200
Speaker 4: Okay, let's think about this. Hmmm.

616
00:31:19,040 --> 00:31:24,160
Speaker 5: Like one would be free therapy that's like trauma informed,

617
00:31:24,160 --> 00:31:25,720
Speaker 5: like I'm talking about E D M R level on

618
00:31:25,760 --> 00:31:28,280
Speaker 5: these bitches, right, I talk about like eight hundred dollars

619
00:31:28,320 --> 00:31:30,240
Speaker 5: billet insurance. Oh wait, we don't need a billet anymore

620
00:31:30,240 --> 00:31:34,120
Speaker 5: because everything's free, yes, right. I think like two would

621
00:31:34,120 --> 00:31:36,640
Speaker 5: be like people didn't have to work anymore because like

622
00:31:36,840 --> 00:31:39,479
Speaker 5: there's more interesting things to do, you know, yeah, I know,

623
00:31:40,560 --> 00:31:42,720
Speaker 5: and like people could just like, you know, like what

624
00:31:42,760 --> 00:31:45,040
Speaker 5: are you up to today? And then people could be like,

625
00:31:45,040 --> 00:31:46,880
Speaker 5: I'm having a cry in and then people could just

626
00:31:46,880 --> 00:31:48,160
Speaker 5: come over to the cry and then no one would

627
00:31:48,160 --> 00:31:51,120
Speaker 5: be sad anymore, because all grief, like anger is, is

628
00:31:51,120 --> 00:31:53,280
Speaker 5: grief looking for a home, you know, And so people'll

629
00:31:53,280 --> 00:31:55,000
Speaker 5: just find home in one another, and then we'd realize

630
00:31:55,000 --> 00:31:56,640
Speaker 5: that we are already evening that we needed, and we'd

631
00:31:56,720 --> 00:31:59,560
Speaker 5: create a new social ecology and heal the world. And

632
00:31:59,600 --> 00:32:02,640
Speaker 5: then like I think like three would be like we'd

633
00:32:02,680 --> 00:32:07,080
Speaker 5: take four. Oh okay, I can't really count, but I

634
00:32:07,080 --> 00:32:09,960
Speaker 5: can do other things, like great poems. So I think

635
00:32:10,000 --> 00:32:12,160
Speaker 5: four would be like we take all the money from

636
00:32:12,160 --> 00:32:15,200
Speaker 5: like military and war, and we'd invest that in like

637
00:32:15,280 --> 00:32:19,640
Speaker 5: sustainable fashion. Yes, And you know, actually, like a lot

638
00:32:19,640 --> 00:32:22,920
Speaker 5: of the biggest inventions in fashion came from military great technologies,

639
00:32:23,040 --> 00:32:25,400
Speaker 5: Like you know, plastic surgery only could happen post World

640
00:32:25,440 --> 00:32:28,880
Speaker 5: War two because of new developments in plastic technologies. So

641
00:32:28,920 --> 00:32:31,360
Speaker 5: it's like innovation is always the thing about war. But

642
00:32:31,400 --> 00:32:33,400
Speaker 5: I think, like, let's innovate a heel that doesn't fuck

643
00:32:33,480 --> 00:32:36,680
Speaker 5: up my knees. You know, Yeah, these are real things.

644
00:32:36,760 --> 00:32:37,000
Speaker 4: Yeah.

645
00:32:37,760 --> 00:32:42,480
Speaker 5: And then like five, I guess I think like five

646
00:32:42,560 --> 00:32:46,560
Speaker 5: would be like there's just so many things. So it's

647
00:32:46,600 --> 00:32:48,360
Speaker 5: like so many things are swimming in my mind, like

648
00:32:48,400 --> 00:32:52,360
Speaker 5: which one, But I think five would be. This one's

649
00:32:52,880 --> 00:32:54,360
Speaker 5: a personal one for me because I've been feeling this

650
00:32:54,400 --> 00:32:56,040
Speaker 5: with my mom. I gave her that book, The Artist's

651
00:32:56,040 --> 00:32:59,560
Speaker 5: Way any Wonder. Yeah, and and you know her mother,

652
00:32:59,640 --> 00:33:02,720
Speaker 5: my grand mother, started painting in her late seventies when

653
00:33:02,840 --> 00:33:05,600
Speaker 5: she was arthritic and she was bedridden, and so she

654
00:33:05,680 --> 00:33:07,760
Speaker 5: started to paint, and she started to feel like that

655
00:33:07,880 --> 00:33:09,680
Speaker 5: was the first time as a woman that she could

656
00:33:09,720 --> 00:33:12,360
Speaker 5: express her own point of view, not someone else's. And

657
00:33:12,440 --> 00:33:14,000
Speaker 5: then I started to realize as a young person that

658
00:33:14,040 --> 00:33:16,680
Speaker 5: everyone's an artist, and that it's a scam that people

659
00:33:16,720 --> 00:33:18,640
Speaker 5: look at us and say you're artists, because I actually

660
00:33:18,680 --> 00:33:23,360
Speaker 5: think artistry is about healing and everyone deserves it. So actually,

661
00:33:23,400 --> 00:33:25,280
Speaker 5: it would be like an art school that everyone got

662
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Speaker 5: in and like people could paint with your kids or like,

663
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Speaker 5: but paint forever and never have to stop, and everyone

664
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Speaker 5: would keep on saying that it was beautiful even if

665
00:33:33,240 --> 00:33:34,080
Speaker 5: it wasn't right.

666
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Speaker 1: Oh now I feel like a shitty parrot, just kidding.

667
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Speaker 1: I don't I do a lot I would.

668
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Speaker 2: Children are the best artists. They know exactly when to stop.

669
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Speaker 2: They know when it's right and that's done. You know.

670
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Speaker 3: Yeah, it was like that is it right? But I

671
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Speaker 3: don't know.

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Speaker 5: So, like in my art school that's free for everyone.

673
00:33:53,520 --> 00:33:55,560
Speaker 5: There'd be an open mic where everyone in the world

674
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Speaker 5: could come and share their heartbreak.

675
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Speaker 1: Okay, a look for present.

676
00:34:03,000 --> 00:34:05,080
Speaker 5: Let's end the presidency and imagine any other way of

677
00:34:05,120 --> 00:34:07,640
Speaker 5: alternatively real hair harm.

678
00:34:09,120 --> 00:34:10,879
Speaker 3: Thank you God.

679
00:34:10,920 --> 00:34:12,360
Speaker 1: What do we getting questions from the audience.

680
00:34:13,680 --> 00:34:16,120
Speaker 4: Okay, it is raising a family in New York ideal.

681
00:34:18,440 --> 00:34:21,560
Speaker 1: I think New York is the best education, right, I

682
00:34:21,640 --> 00:34:24,080
Speaker 1: mean I learned more in my first year in New

683
00:34:24,160 --> 00:34:28,839
Speaker 1: York City than I did six years at college. So yeah,

684
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Speaker 1: I love it.

685
00:34:31,480 --> 00:34:33,759
Speaker 2: I think it's I think it's a great place to

686
00:34:35,080 --> 00:34:38,440
Speaker 2: raise the family for this reason, Like, my children are

687
00:34:38,560 --> 00:34:41,640
Speaker 2: exposed to so many other cultures, which is wonderful. So

688
00:34:41,719 --> 00:34:43,359
Speaker 2: if I were in the suburbs, I don't think that'd

689
00:34:43,400 --> 00:34:46,879
Speaker 2: be the same. Also, not cultures, not only cultures. Well

690
00:34:47,239 --> 00:34:49,480
Speaker 2: you have that, you have a variation of cultures, but

691
00:34:49,560 --> 00:34:51,480
Speaker 2: you don't have socio economic strata.

692
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Speaker 3: And my children go to a school.

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Speaker 4: I just got turnom when you said socio economic strata.

694
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Speaker 1: What happened? What happened?

695
00:34:58,200 --> 00:35:01,279
Speaker 4: I got tronom when you said socioeconomic extract so much?

696
00:35:01,400 --> 00:35:04,120
Speaker 3: We look we're cool again, all right.

697
00:35:04,239 --> 00:35:07,520
Speaker 4: So so redemptions, possible.

698
00:35:09,880 --> 00:35:12,319
Speaker 3: Redemptions possibly here at adult thing, all right.

699
00:35:12,400 --> 00:35:15,120
Speaker 2: So So anyway, I was just gonna say that what's

700
00:35:15,200 --> 00:35:18,160
Speaker 2: awesome is that not everybody is in the same whatever standing,

701
00:35:18,239 --> 00:35:19,560
Speaker 2: and that is beautiful.

702
00:35:19,640 --> 00:35:20,000
Speaker 3: I love that.

703
00:35:20,040 --> 00:35:23,120
Speaker 2: Intersection and you wouldn't get that in other places. And

704
00:35:23,280 --> 00:35:25,840
Speaker 2: for that, I think that the squeeze is worth the juice.

705
00:35:26,400 --> 00:35:30,040
Speaker 4: In the end, it's a Texas saying yeah I felt you.

706
00:35:30,480 --> 00:35:33,439
Speaker 5: Yeah, you know, I would say I'm raising a cute

707
00:35:33,440 --> 00:35:35,040
Speaker 5: family of cockroaches in my kitchen.

708
00:35:36,960 --> 00:35:40,200
Speaker 4: So it's iconic. Really, it's a.

709
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Speaker 1: Great place for to raise a chosen family, right, Oh yeah,

710
00:35:43,160 --> 00:35:45,399
Speaker 1: I love my chosen family. Everybody else can fuck off.

711
00:35:47,400 --> 00:35:51,840
Speaker 1: What tips have helped you become or work on becoming

712
00:35:51,960 --> 00:35:58,120
Speaker 1: the best version of yourself? Bitch, I check myself. I

713
00:35:58,280 --> 00:36:00,560
Speaker 1: used to check in with myself, but now it's myself

714
00:36:01,840 --> 00:36:05,200
Speaker 1: because it's like, not like, bitch, what you're doing, but

715
00:36:05,239 --> 00:36:08,960
Speaker 1: it's just like, why do you feel this way? And

716
00:36:10,120 --> 00:36:12,520
Speaker 1: as a black woman, it's always not what you say,

717
00:36:12,600 --> 00:36:14,680
Speaker 1: how you say it. But now I don't give a

718
00:36:14,760 --> 00:36:21,400
Speaker 1: fuck point blank. So that's that's me. And you know, plus,

719
00:36:21,560 --> 00:36:25,200
Speaker 1: like these littles, these kids that I have, I want

720
00:36:25,239 --> 00:36:28,480
Speaker 1: to I want them to be proud of me. I

721
00:36:28,600 --> 00:36:31,680
Speaker 1: want to be for them what I never had. So

722
00:36:31,800 --> 00:36:36,160
Speaker 1: I need to like be honest and dope and still

723
00:36:36,320 --> 00:36:37,720
Speaker 1: keep my edges and good knees.

724
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Speaker 4: You have good knees. No, you're a lot of squats

725
00:36:43,880 --> 00:36:44,640
Speaker 4: and fish oil.

726
00:36:44,760 --> 00:36:46,800
Speaker 1: I'm trying to do what I can. I'll do steps,

727
00:36:46,800 --> 00:36:48,960
Speaker 1: though I'll park far away from the target entrance.

728
00:36:52,160 --> 00:36:54,920
Speaker 5: I would say for me, it's about having the compassion

729
00:36:55,040 --> 00:36:58,200
Speaker 5: to break your own heart. You have to realize that

730
00:36:58,320 --> 00:37:01,320
Speaker 5: what you thought kept you safe did it. Who you

731
00:37:01,440 --> 00:37:04,840
Speaker 5: thought you were wasn't And you have to grieve that

732
00:37:05,280 --> 00:37:09,200
Speaker 5: every iteration of yourself. And it's only through that pain

733
00:37:09,440 --> 00:37:12,440
Speaker 5: and that discomfort can you catalyze meaningful transformation.

734
00:37:20,080 --> 00:37:23,680
Speaker 2: I need like a chaise lounge or so good, a

735
00:37:23,800 --> 00:37:26,359
Speaker 2: nice painting couch and a mint julip to just take

736
00:37:26,440 --> 00:37:27,440
Speaker 2: in all these truths.

737
00:37:28,239 --> 00:37:29,719
Speaker 1: Read the questions, all right?

738
00:37:30,400 --> 00:37:33,800
Speaker 2: How many times a week it's too much double underline

739
00:37:33,880 --> 00:37:36,319
Speaker 2: to place orders on Amazon? Oh?

740
00:37:39,719 --> 00:37:44,200
Speaker 1: Never, don't be your order. Don't give the motherfucker any

741
00:37:44,239 --> 00:37:53,279
Speaker 1: more money. Yeah, i'd say once a day. Well, be

742
00:37:53,520 --> 00:37:54,319
Speaker 1: that it's right.

743
00:37:57,040 --> 00:37:58,880
Speaker 3: How many times a week do you order me?

744
00:37:59,320 --> 00:37:59,520
Speaker 2: Yeah?

745
00:37:59,600 --> 00:38:10,160
Speaker 1: Depends what I mean, especially in the pandemic. I don't

746
00:38:10,160 --> 00:38:11,440
Speaker 1: want to see the holes like you face.

747
00:38:11,680 --> 00:38:15,120
Speaker 5: Wow, this is really good and it's really on brand?

748
00:38:16,080 --> 00:38:17,880
Speaker 5: Is it weird to use a friend's bidet?

749
00:38:21,520 --> 00:38:25,080
Speaker 1: The bdet is for everyone? Right, what are you trying

750
00:38:25,120 --> 00:38:27,920
Speaker 1: to do with the budet? Like, what do you think

751
00:38:27,960 --> 00:38:28,719
Speaker 1: the bdet is for?

752
00:38:30,520 --> 00:38:31,399
Speaker 2: Do you need to use?

753
00:38:33,960 --> 00:38:36,080
Speaker 1: You get the hot bots to keep it moving. You

754
00:38:36,120 --> 00:38:40,920
Speaker 1: don't fall asleep with your booty on the water, you

755
00:38:41,000 --> 00:38:44,480
Speaker 1: don't take in the bdet. It's just so you don't

756
00:38:44,520 --> 00:38:45,960
Speaker 1: have to take a whole shower. But at that point,

757
00:38:46,040 --> 00:38:47,640
Speaker 1: like to take a whole shower. It's just relaxing.

758
00:38:48,360 --> 00:38:49,719
Speaker 4: Yeah, two things are coming up for me.

759
00:38:49,800 --> 00:38:51,520
Speaker 5: One, I saw a sticker on the back of your

760
00:38:51,560 --> 00:38:55,120
Speaker 5: phone that said bidet Come like bidet Harris. Your finger

761
00:38:55,280 --> 00:38:58,640
Speaker 5: was covering the last letter, and I said, sign me

762
00:38:58,719 --> 00:39:01,560
Speaker 5: the fuck up. And then two, I feel like there's

763
00:39:01,600 --> 00:39:07,120
Speaker 5: a correlation between I mean, the layers of that are

764
00:39:07,200 --> 00:39:09,160
Speaker 5: just so deep. I'm just gonna say that was a

765
00:39:09,480 --> 00:39:13,040
Speaker 5: dolarly joke. I got it, dimensions. It's a dissertation level joke.

766
00:39:14,280 --> 00:39:16,600
Speaker 5: And then the next was that actually, I think like

767
00:39:16,640 --> 00:39:19,200
Speaker 5: there's a direct correlation between people who have bidets and

768
00:39:19,280 --> 00:39:23,800
Speaker 5: people who believe in like socialism and democratizing resources. So

769
00:39:23,920 --> 00:39:26,839
Speaker 5: I don't want to like racially profile or like demographically

770
00:39:26,880 --> 00:39:30,200
Speaker 5: profile like socioeconomic strata profile bitches with bidets, but I

771
00:39:30,320 --> 00:39:33,239
Speaker 5: do and so if I see a bidet in the bathroom,

772
00:39:33,360 --> 00:39:35,280
Speaker 5: I'm like, girl, you believe in sharing?

773
00:39:37,880 --> 00:39:40,879
Speaker 1: You guys, I came here on time, but I still

774
00:39:41,000 --> 00:39:41,520
Speaker 1: wasn't ready.

775
00:39:41,880 --> 00:39:44,320
Speaker 3: Yeah, how about that?

776
00:39:44,640 --> 00:39:46,040
Speaker 1: How about that? How about that?

777
00:39:47,840 --> 00:39:50,399
Speaker 2: How much is too much money for a dog? Ew

778
00:39:50,920 --> 00:39:53,640
Speaker 2: don't how much money is too much money for a dog?

779
00:39:54,040 --> 00:39:56,040
Speaker 2: Probably like seven thousand. You don't want to play seven

780
00:39:56,120 --> 00:39:57,879
Speaker 2: thousand for a dog that's in listen.

781
00:39:58,120 --> 00:40:00,640
Speaker 1: I don't know who wrote this question, but you can

782
00:40:00,719 --> 00:40:04,440
Speaker 1: find whatever dog you want. You adopt that dogs. These

783
00:40:04,520 --> 00:40:07,720
Speaker 1: dogs listen, but they are beautiful, they need homes.

784
00:40:08,120 --> 00:40:11,280
Speaker 2: You bought your dog, Uh, well it was a rescue

785
00:40:11,320 --> 00:40:13,600
Speaker 2: because it was I bought it in Jersey.

786
00:40:13,760 --> 00:40:19,040
Speaker 3: So oh so technically it counts as the rescue.

787
00:40:19,320 --> 00:40:26,359
Speaker 1: Look, these dogs are being breed, these dogs. People are

788
00:40:26,400 --> 00:40:30,759
Speaker 1: breeding these dogs to sell them. It's disgusting. And these

789
00:40:30,840 --> 00:40:33,880
Speaker 1: female dogs don't have a choice in it. And so

790
00:40:34,560 --> 00:40:37,959
Speaker 1: there are so many dogs that are lovely and don't

791
00:40:37,960 --> 00:40:41,920
Speaker 1: necessarily I think adopt adopted dogs have this. There's a

792
00:40:42,000 --> 00:40:46,200
Speaker 1: rumor going around that they have issues. They don't. If

793
00:40:46,239 --> 00:40:50,359
Speaker 1: you're buying a dog, you got the issue. And there's

794
00:40:50,400 --> 00:40:52,879
Speaker 1: so I only adopt, and I adopt black and brown

795
00:40:52,960 --> 00:40:55,920
Speaker 1: dogs because they go down first. Everybody wants a white

796
00:40:56,040 --> 00:40:57,200
Speaker 1: or beise dog like you have.

797
00:40:57,560 --> 00:41:04,160
Speaker 3: Right, that was the accident of birth. That was the

798
00:41:04,280 --> 00:41:05,000
Speaker 3: accident of birth.

799
00:41:05,200 --> 00:41:07,840
Speaker 2: Also, I said, don't bring in it black dogs to me.

800
00:41:12,080 --> 00:41:16,480
Speaker 2: So that's what two things have to be accomplished.

801
00:41:16,480 --> 00:41:19,160
Speaker 5: The next question, this one is how do you navigate

802
00:41:19,320 --> 00:41:20,839
Speaker 5: finding your place in the world?

803
00:41:24,239 --> 00:41:25,840
Speaker 3: Now, A look, I want to hear it.

804
00:41:28,200 --> 00:41:30,479
Speaker 4: What I would say is you are your own world.

805
00:41:31,520 --> 00:41:35,440
Speaker 5: And what if we could rephrase the question as how

806
00:41:35,560 --> 00:41:41,400
Speaker 5: do you center the fact that your universe deserves to

807
00:41:41,520 --> 00:41:45,160
Speaker 5: be embraced by others, not that you have to contour

808
00:41:45,239 --> 00:41:49,560
Speaker 5: yourself into someone else's fiction? And I think then the

809
00:41:49,640 --> 00:41:52,120
Speaker 5: next question for me is how do you find other

810
00:41:52,320 --> 00:41:58,000
Speaker 5: people who love you for your incongruity, your contradiction, your

811
00:41:58,080 --> 00:42:01,480
Speaker 5: dissonant edges, and don't make you feel like love is

812
00:42:01,600 --> 00:42:03,479
Speaker 5: contingent on your disappearing act.

813
00:42:06,200 --> 00:42:10,560
Speaker 1: Did anyone write that ship down? Because you don't forget

814
00:42:10,600 --> 00:42:12,880
Speaker 1: about it like they forgot about getting kicked out of

815
00:42:12,960 --> 00:42:13,720
Speaker 1: that fucking club.

816
00:42:14,760 --> 00:42:17,400
Speaker 3: There's a person in the back, just like just carving

817
00:42:17,440 --> 00:42:17,880
Speaker 3: it into star.

818
00:42:18,000 --> 00:42:19,640
Speaker 4: I thought you were making I thought you were making

819
00:42:19,719 --> 00:42:23,680
Speaker 4: a motion from absturbation, and I was like, first day.

820
00:42:27,719 --> 00:42:30,360
Speaker 3: Okay, is two weeks? Notice? Go for it.

821
00:42:30,400 --> 00:42:32,919
Speaker 2: It's two weeks notice too short for a job you've

822
00:42:33,040 --> 00:42:34,600
Speaker 2: been at for five years.

823
00:42:35,719 --> 00:42:40,040
Speaker 3: No, that is a very specific question.

824
00:42:41,040 --> 00:42:43,200
Speaker 1: Who wrote that? I think the guy in the khaki's

825
00:42:43,239 --> 00:42:45,960
Speaker 1: over here. Someone is dressed as funny you do not

826
00:42:46,239 --> 00:42:47,960
Speaker 1: like being the manager at enterprise?

827
00:42:48,400 --> 00:42:48,960
Speaker 4: That person.

828
00:42:49,440 --> 00:42:52,680
Speaker 3: Oh, they'll pick you up, I.

829
00:42:52,840 --> 00:42:54,879
Speaker 1: Know, and he'll upgrade me to a van.

830
00:42:57,680 --> 00:42:59,279
Speaker 3: They're so nice, they'll pick you up.

831
00:42:59,760 --> 00:43:04,160
Speaker 1: I said, I know, I don't.

832
00:43:04,239 --> 00:43:05,360
Speaker 3: That's so interesting.

833
00:43:05,440 --> 00:43:09,440
Speaker 2: I think that the person has been whoever's asking this,

834
00:43:09,840 --> 00:43:12,520
Speaker 2: they've been so institutionalized by the job that they're asking

835
00:43:12,680 --> 00:43:15,640
Speaker 2: us approval for it, you know, like if two weeks

836
00:43:15,760 --> 00:43:18,879
Speaker 2: is enough? But the but a corporation doesn't really care,

837
00:43:19,360 --> 00:43:23,680
Speaker 2: you know, unfortunately about about you and that twist.

838
00:43:24,239 --> 00:43:28,359
Speaker 3: Huh, plot twist, plot twist, plot twist. That's that's what's said.

839
00:43:28,600 --> 00:43:32,160
Speaker 1: Okay, what this question is, Michelle? What's your favorite Dutch snack?

840
00:43:32,560 --> 00:43:35,399
Speaker 1: Am I supposed to say my husband's penis? Oh my god,

841
00:43:36,320 --> 00:43:40,640
Speaker 1: I feel I get this setup. I like, whatever Dutch

842
00:43:40,640 --> 00:43:43,279
Speaker 1: snack isn't rooted in racism. They have this thing called

843
00:43:43,360 --> 00:43:48,399
Speaker 1: nagazunin and it translates to negro kisses, bitch. My father

844
00:43:48,440 --> 00:43:50,160
Speaker 1: in law was just like before he was my father

845
00:43:50,200 --> 00:43:53,120
Speaker 1: in law, he was a some dude, and he was like,

846
00:43:53,160 --> 00:43:55,440
Speaker 1: I want you to try these negro kisses. They delicious

847
00:43:56,080 --> 00:43:58,239
Speaker 1: And it was a marshmallow covered in chalk with a

848
00:43:58,280 --> 00:44:00,960
Speaker 1: little gram cracker. I said, they're good. When you come

849
00:44:01,000 --> 00:44:03,360
Speaker 1: to this in Brooklyn, you need to call the shit smores.

850
00:44:10,680 --> 00:44:14,560
Speaker 2: Somebody with a double question mark. Basically like an interra

851
00:44:14,640 --> 00:44:21,600
Speaker 2: bang is like what is a roth? Ira like is

852
00:44:21,680 --> 00:44:23,919
Speaker 2: something wrong? We don't know something wrong.

853
00:44:24,239 --> 00:44:24,920
Speaker 3: We don't know what.

854
00:44:27,160 --> 00:44:29,040
Speaker 1: Block is going a lot? And I give you that question.

855
00:44:30,440 --> 00:44:31,040
Speaker 2: You got okay?

856
00:44:32,360 --> 00:44:34,279
Speaker 1: I wish I did my nails. You look so good.

857
00:44:34,600 --> 00:44:34,800
Speaker 3: I know.

858
00:44:37,920 --> 00:44:40,399
Speaker 5: How do you get into a good headspace to kick

859
00:44:40,520 --> 00:44:42,719
Speaker 5: ass on stage? Slash on Mike?

860
00:44:43,640 --> 00:44:44,560
Speaker 3: Good question, great question.

861
00:44:46,080 --> 00:44:48,800
Speaker 1: I mean sometimes I'm in a really funky mood, but

862
00:44:48,920 --> 00:44:51,360
Speaker 1: the stage helps we get in a good mood. So,

863
00:44:52,520 --> 00:44:54,719
Speaker 1: you know, because it's not about it's not always about

864
00:44:54,760 --> 00:44:56,279
Speaker 1: means about you guys too. I want you guys to

865
00:44:56,320 --> 00:45:00,719
Speaker 1: feel good, you know, so I kind of do whatever

866
00:45:00,760 --> 00:45:04,040
Speaker 1: I gotta do. But I've always been like that, what

867
00:45:04,160 --> 00:45:04,520
Speaker 1: about you?

868
00:45:05,480 --> 00:45:10,080
Speaker 3: I call mom, and uh, then I just do a

869
00:45:10,160 --> 00:45:12,320
Speaker 3: couple affirmations. I honestly do.

870
00:45:12,440 --> 00:45:15,400
Speaker 2: I do affirmations, and i'd like count backwards from one hundred,

871
00:45:15,520 --> 00:45:16,759
Speaker 2: and I'm like.

872
00:45:17,160 --> 00:45:19,960
Speaker 1: We count, but yeah, that's the trick we both do.

873
00:45:20,160 --> 00:45:26,040
Speaker 2: Yeah, just like what, Yeah, thank you for making me

874
00:45:26,120 --> 00:45:30,160
Speaker 2: feel safe and making this feel easy to just tell

875
00:45:30,280 --> 00:45:30,600
Speaker 2: you what.

876
00:45:31,239 --> 00:45:33,160
Speaker 1: Right, you'll go out on this audition and people really

877
00:45:33,200 --> 00:45:35,279
Speaker 1: set it up like it's a life changing job, and

878
00:45:35,440 --> 00:45:37,400
Speaker 1: quite frankly, it is because then you don't have to

879
00:45:37,400 --> 00:45:43,160
Speaker 1: struggle right, right, And so because you are an artist

880
00:45:43,320 --> 00:45:46,200
Speaker 1: and you live in your right brain, it's important to

881
00:45:46,360 --> 00:45:50,440
Speaker 1: like count and sit in your left brain and just

882
00:45:50,520 --> 00:45:53,000
Speaker 1: try to be more logical about shit and it'll like

883
00:45:53,120 --> 00:45:55,040
Speaker 1: kind of take you out of it. And sometimes I

884
00:45:55,160 --> 00:45:57,880
Speaker 1: just look at stuff. I'm just like floor ceiling, you know,

885
00:45:58,080 --> 00:46:01,080
Speaker 1: just like anything else. And that's also a true and

886
00:46:01,080 --> 00:46:03,719
Speaker 1: you can use it for an interview or a day

887
00:46:03,880 --> 00:46:06,799
Speaker 1: anything that is high stakes to you. Whatever the fuck

888
00:46:06,880 --> 00:46:08,920
Speaker 1: that is a toll booth, how fucking up?

889
00:46:09,840 --> 00:46:14,800
Speaker 3: Also a low grade edible, we'll get you, right. I

890
00:46:14,920 --> 00:46:17,759
Speaker 3: am currently just like on.

891
00:46:17,800 --> 00:46:20,719
Speaker 2: A nice I'm on like a nice two MILLI right now,

892
00:46:20,840 --> 00:46:24,920
Speaker 2: and I am feeling it it's like it's nice.

893
00:46:25,160 --> 00:46:27,359
Speaker 3: It's nice. It's it's like sea breeze in the hair.

894
00:46:27,480 --> 00:46:28,440
Speaker 3: It's good. You know what I mean?

895
00:46:28,880 --> 00:46:30,680
Speaker 1: Oh, I love sea breeze in their hair.

896
00:46:32,640 --> 00:46:35,399
Speaker 5: I just have a signal group chat called girls Chat,

897
00:46:36,280 --> 00:46:39,319
Speaker 5: and I just text girls Chat until fifteen seconds when

898
00:46:39,320 --> 00:46:40,920
Speaker 5: I have to be on stage. So it's like I

899
00:46:41,040 --> 00:46:42,759
Speaker 5: have my best friends with me and all the time.

900
00:46:44,239 --> 00:46:44,560
Speaker 3: Smart.

901
00:46:44,640 --> 00:46:48,919
Speaker 1: I love that smart. And how's stand up comedy going?

902
00:46:49,600 --> 00:46:53,160
Speaker 5: You know, it's weird because I've spent my entire life

903
00:46:53,200 --> 00:46:55,320
Speaker 5: being laughed at and I'm getting paid for it.

904
00:46:55,600 --> 00:46:56,040
Speaker 3: I got it.

905
00:46:56,880 --> 00:46:59,440
Speaker 5: It feels like a Joanne the Scammer level scam, Like,

906
00:47:00,600 --> 00:47:02,920
Speaker 5: have a fuck? Did I think of that one? Getting

907
00:47:03,160 --> 00:47:04,560
Speaker 5: paid for people to laugh at me?

908
00:47:05,120 --> 00:47:05,359
Speaker 3: Wow?

909
00:47:05,440 --> 00:47:07,279
Speaker 5: Every time people are asking on the street, I say,

910
00:47:07,320 --> 00:47:11,440
Speaker 5: my venmo is. So it's been fun, it's been amazing.

911
00:47:11,440 --> 00:47:13,719
Speaker 5: I mean it's been annoying because like a lot of

912
00:47:13,760 --> 00:47:16,120
Speaker 5: people just like play dress up with their misogyny and

913
00:47:16,160 --> 00:47:19,279
Speaker 5: call it comedy. You know, It's it's very strange to

914
00:47:19,360 --> 00:47:21,480
Speaker 5: me because it feels like comedy has been a space

915
00:47:21,520 --> 00:47:23,440
Speaker 5: where people can get away with murder and call it

916
00:47:23,480 --> 00:47:27,320
Speaker 5: a comedy special. And so I feel like I've just

917
00:47:27,520 --> 00:47:30,399
Speaker 5: until until this moment. I just I don't believe male

918
00:47:30,480 --> 00:47:33,440
Speaker 5: comedians when they say that they're funny. I only believe

919
00:47:33,480 --> 00:47:37,839
Speaker 5: women comedians. Yeah, so I think it's been really fun

920
00:47:37,880 --> 00:47:41,640
Speaker 5: in that way. Yeah, we're not sorry.

921
00:47:42,160 --> 00:47:42,840
Speaker 1: We're not sorry.

922
00:47:43,320 --> 00:47:45,480
Speaker 3: It's a moment and it will pass and.

923
00:47:47,080 --> 00:47:48,280
Speaker 4: Redemption is possible.

924
00:47:48,840 --> 00:47:49,480
Speaker 1: Is possible?

925
00:47:50,120 --> 00:47:50,640
Speaker 3: Adult?

926
00:47:53,040 --> 00:47:54,560
Speaker 1: How do you make new friends as an adult?

927
00:47:55,680 --> 00:48:01,920
Speaker 2: Oh don't damning believe damn, But it'd be great if

928
00:48:01,960 --> 00:48:02,200
Speaker 2: you did it.

929
00:48:02,280 --> 00:48:04,240
Speaker 3: Like my kids they go, they go like on the swings,

930
00:48:04,280 --> 00:48:07,120
Speaker 3: are like, oh, you want to be my friend? Like that's.

931
00:48:08,560 --> 00:48:11,360
Speaker 2: It's so amazing somebody does that as an adult. You

932
00:48:11,400 --> 00:48:13,520
Speaker 2: want to be a nice friend. Yeah, I would head

933
00:48:13,600 --> 00:48:14,160
Speaker 2: the other way.

934
00:48:17,160 --> 00:48:19,240
Speaker 1: So I think it's so like you are the company

935
00:48:19,320 --> 00:48:22,320
Speaker 1: you keep right, Like everyone sort of is a reflection

936
00:48:22,400 --> 00:48:24,719
Speaker 1: of what you think of yourself. And so I do

937
00:48:24,920 --> 00:48:27,200
Speaker 1: have like a lot of peripher friends, especially in the

938
00:48:27,280 --> 00:48:30,160
Speaker 1: comedy community and stuff, and so like I'll have this

939
00:48:30,360 --> 00:48:32,160
Speaker 1: meat ball party once a year, which is sort of

940
00:48:32,239 --> 00:48:36,560
Speaker 1: like my Thanksgiving, my Christmas, my Kwanza, and don will

941
00:48:36,640 --> 00:48:38,759
Speaker 1: spins to the party. You should like, do you eat meat?

942
00:48:39,000 --> 00:48:43,839
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, we totally eat meat together. You said, don't

943
00:48:43,840 --> 00:48:45,040
Speaker 4: put this on Instagram.

944
00:48:49,200 --> 00:48:53,160
Speaker 1: Anyways. And so that's like when I invite everybody that

945
00:48:53,239 --> 00:48:55,640
Speaker 1: I never have time to see, and it's like so

946
00:48:55,880 --> 00:48:58,120
Speaker 1: fun to see all these like little unicorns from all

947
00:48:58,120 --> 00:49:00,680
Speaker 1: walks of life come together, just like eating meat ball

948
00:49:00,760 --> 00:49:02,160
Speaker 1: and everyone has to make a ball and you bring

949
00:49:02,200 --> 00:49:06,440
Speaker 1: your best ball and then we still waiting on the invite. Okay,

950
00:49:06,560 --> 00:49:09,000
Speaker 1: we should probably wrap this up, but it's so much fun.

951
00:49:09,320 --> 00:49:10,040
Speaker 1: Are you guys having fun?

952
00:49:10,200 --> 00:49:10,640
Speaker 3: Having fun?

953
00:49:11,560 --> 00:49:11,880
Speaker 1: Sorry?

954
00:49:11,920 --> 00:49:12,160
Speaker 4: Fun?

955
00:49:14,400 --> 00:49:16,560
Speaker 3: What is the most adult thing you own?

956
00:49:19,520 --> 00:49:20,000
Speaker 1: My kids?

957
00:49:21,960 --> 00:49:23,160
Speaker 3: You don't own your kids?

958
00:49:23,719 --> 00:49:24,120
Speaker 1: This hair?

959
00:49:26,280 --> 00:49:27,520
Speaker 4: I recently got a credenza.

960
00:49:28,239 --> 00:49:32,520
Speaker 2: Oh that's what's up. That's what's up? Did you put

961
00:49:32,560 --> 00:49:36,680
Speaker 2: it together? No, that's adult.

962
00:49:36,719 --> 00:49:36,879
Speaker 3: Think.

963
00:49:38,960 --> 00:49:40,479
Speaker 4: I just want to say shout out to my daddy,

964
00:49:40,560 --> 00:49:42,080
Speaker 4: Jonathan Adler, whoever that bitch is.

965
00:49:43,960 --> 00:49:47,000
Speaker 5: That's my new porn. I'm scrolling on that, Jonathan. I

966
00:49:47,040 --> 00:49:49,080
Speaker 5: have the website and I'm like, bitch, I didn't even

967
00:49:49,120 --> 00:49:51,360
Speaker 5: know I need vases, but I need them, you do.

968
00:49:51,840 --> 00:49:52,279
Speaker 2: I need them.

969
00:49:52,400 --> 00:49:54,719
Speaker 1: I love the use of color too, Like I never

970
00:49:54,760 --> 00:49:56,840
Speaker 1: thought electric blue and like a bright orange do.

971
00:49:56,920 --> 00:49:57,239
Speaker 2: It for me?

972
00:49:57,360 --> 00:50:00,680
Speaker 4: But it do right. I'm here on two fourth.

973
00:50:00,719 --> 00:50:02,440
Speaker 5: When I say funk white people, it's an asterisk that

974
00:50:02,480 --> 00:50:08,040
Speaker 5: says except Jonathan ever An Abra Levine, what's the most

975
00:50:08,080 --> 00:50:11,320
Speaker 5: adult thing I own? Oh my goodness, I have my husband.

976
00:50:11,800 --> 00:50:15,120
Speaker 2: Hey, mine's a meat thermometer probably, And that's a really

977
00:50:17,200 --> 00:50:20,160
Speaker 2: grown up thing that I oh so love. All that

978
00:50:20,680 --> 00:50:21,720
Speaker 2: is three hundred degrees.

979
00:50:21,760 --> 00:50:22,359
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.

980
00:50:22,440 --> 00:50:25,759
Speaker 1: It's like you check that internal tap. I got it?

981
00:50:25,880 --> 00:50:26,799
Speaker 3: Yeah, absolutely done.

982
00:50:26,880 --> 00:50:27,800
Speaker 1: You want to meet Juicy?

983
00:50:27,960 --> 00:50:31,920
Speaker 3: Yeah? Well, yes, are you talking about sex?

984
00:50:33,320 --> 00:50:33,759
Speaker 1: What about you?

985
00:50:33,840 --> 00:50:36,480
Speaker 6: Don I'm gonna advertise that bedet again. I have got

986
00:50:36,520 --> 00:50:36,920
Speaker 6: a bidet.

987
00:50:37,680 --> 00:50:41,200
Speaker 3: Get done done? You know you have a bidet? Can

988
00:50:41,280 --> 00:50:41,759
Speaker 3: I ask you?

989
00:50:41,960 --> 00:50:43,960
Speaker 2: Is it like the kind of like one where you

990
00:50:44,080 --> 00:50:46,799
Speaker 2: clasp it onto the other? Yes, it's a tishy Okay,

991
00:50:46,840 --> 00:50:48,920
Speaker 2: that's that's fantastic. Good for you and good for all

992
00:50:49,000 --> 00:50:51,680
Speaker 2: of us. And I installed it myself.

993
00:50:51,480 --> 00:50:54,920
Speaker 4: And you get a tushy, and you get a tushy, look.

994
00:50:54,800 --> 00:51:00,640
Speaker 1: On to your suits. We can go on this one.

995
00:51:01,160 --> 00:51:03,200
Speaker 1: This one says what's the best thing about getting older?

996
00:51:03,680 --> 00:51:07,480
Speaker 1: And then also says, it's my birthday today, So happy birthday, bitch.

997
00:51:10,239 --> 00:51:13,719
Speaker 1: Than when I came in, Fiona, come on, you little

998
00:51:13,760 --> 00:51:17,320
Speaker 1: fucking princess with the big titties, here for it. Prairie sleeves,

999
00:51:17,480 --> 00:51:21,120
Speaker 1: little chocolate for dessert. I'll see you. Fucking Fiona, everybody,

1000
00:51:23,200 --> 00:51:26,080
Speaker 1: everybody have a caste, say happy birthday, f Yonda, what's.

1001
00:51:31,280 --> 00:51:31,760
Speaker 4: Fiona?

1002
00:51:31,880 --> 00:51:35,640
Speaker 1: How old is you today? Thirty five? Twenty one from

1003
00:51:35,640 --> 00:51:37,680
Speaker 1: the waist down and thirty five from the waist up.

1004
00:51:37,760 --> 00:51:42,720
Speaker 1: That makes no sense, but I just said it, so Fiona,

1005
00:51:42,760 --> 00:51:44,760
Speaker 1: to answer your question. The best part about old getting

1006
00:51:44,760 --> 00:51:45,600
Speaker 1: older was that the question.

1007
00:51:45,840 --> 00:51:46,799
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's part.

1008
00:51:48,640 --> 00:51:53,319
Speaker 1: I mean for me, when you know better, you do better,

1009
00:51:54,600 --> 00:51:58,040
Speaker 1: like evil for yourself, you know, so like really not

1010
00:51:58,160 --> 00:52:02,960
Speaker 1: giving a fun and just really giving a fuck about

1011
00:52:03,080 --> 00:52:06,400
Speaker 1: like the right things. It is an emotional edit that

1012
00:52:06,480 --> 00:52:09,439
Speaker 1: I am here for all the time. And I will

1013
00:52:09,440 --> 00:52:13,600
Speaker 1: say this. The minute I stopped saying that yes to

1014
00:52:13,719 --> 00:52:17,320
Speaker 1: everything and being everything for everybody and like just actually

1015
00:52:17,320 --> 00:52:20,680
Speaker 1: said what was on my mind, I started making money

1016
00:52:20,719 --> 00:52:21,960
Speaker 1: And now y'all know who I am.

1017
00:52:22,280 --> 00:52:25,480
Speaker 4: Oh, so do you bitch.

1018
00:52:26,960 --> 00:52:27,600
Speaker 1: Anybody else?

1019
00:52:27,640 --> 00:52:27,759
Speaker 2: Oh?

1020
00:52:27,760 --> 00:52:29,840
Speaker 3: Look do you have I think I do?

1021
00:52:30,800 --> 00:52:36,680
Speaker 5: Yeah, reharvesting all of the energy that we put into

1022
00:52:36,840 --> 00:52:41,759
Speaker 5: trying to fix other people into building up ourselves and

1023
00:52:41,920 --> 00:52:45,440
Speaker 5: recognizing that the greatest romance is self intimacy.

1024
00:52:46,239 --> 00:52:50,480
Speaker 2: Okay, I was just gonna say do you remember that

1025
00:52:51,800 --> 00:52:55,879
Speaker 2: You remember that key and Peace, Key and Peace scalt.

1026
00:53:00,160 --> 00:53:09,239
Speaker 1: Home story words where Homeboy was Obama's translator. Yeah, yes,

1027
00:53:11,480 --> 00:53:14,320
Speaker 1: re harvest yourself, bitch. You gotta think about you over you.

1028
00:53:16,600 --> 00:53:19,279
Speaker 1: Oh my god, like a ghetto w ass translator.

1029
00:53:20,280 --> 00:53:22,480
Speaker 2: I just love when a loop goes to the bottom

1030
00:53:22,520 --> 00:53:24,560
Speaker 2: of the ocean deep like Marianna's trench.

1031
00:53:25,040 --> 00:53:26,839
Speaker 3: Because I was gonna say, I was like the older

1032
00:53:26,880 --> 00:53:29,200
Speaker 3: I get. It's just nice having a boyish head of hair.

1033
00:53:32,080 --> 00:53:36,840
Speaker 1: Look ownnut, I mean, why did you?

1034
00:53:37,880 --> 00:53:43,239
Speaker 3: Did you know? My husband's okay? All right, okay, you

1035
00:53:43,360 --> 00:53:43,680
Speaker 3: know why?

1036
00:53:44,400 --> 00:53:44,600
Speaker 4: Yeah.

1037
00:53:45,040 --> 00:53:47,279
Speaker 6: The best part about getting older is honestly just getting there,

1038
00:53:47,320 --> 00:53:50,480
Speaker 6: you know what I'm saying. Yeah, the alternative is to

1039
00:53:51,080 --> 00:53:53,840
Speaker 6: not get older, you know what I'm saying. So for me,

1040
00:53:54,000 --> 00:53:57,280
Speaker 6: the best part, aside from not giving a fuck setting

1041
00:53:57,400 --> 00:53:58,840
Speaker 6: into my ship, you know what I'm saying.

1042
00:53:58,960 --> 00:54:01,399
Speaker 3: Yeah, getting done. Willie.

1043
00:54:01,440 --> 00:54:03,560
Speaker 2: You are one day one day, and I hate to

1044
00:54:03,600 --> 00:54:05,680
Speaker 2: say this, but you might be if you don't watch out,

1045
00:54:05,680 --> 00:54:07,520
Speaker 2: You're gonna be that old black man in the barber shop.

1046
00:54:07,600 --> 00:54:13,680
Speaker 3: It's like it's party getting getting on. You know, you

1047
00:54:13,800 --> 00:54:14,799
Speaker 3: look more more like your dad.

1048
00:54:14,920 --> 00:54:15,239
Speaker 5: Have a day.

1049
00:54:18,120 --> 00:54:19,160
Speaker 3: I do have that energy.

1050
00:54:19,200 --> 00:54:27,600
Speaker 1: I mean, he's our little Billy d Williams. It just

1051
00:54:27,680 --> 00:54:32,120
Speaker 1: looks like malt milk. Anyways, that wasn't very nice. We'll

1052
00:54:32,200 --> 00:54:37,000
Speaker 1: edit that out, okay. And in closing, we ask all

1053
00:54:37,080 --> 00:54:39,759
Speaker 1: our guests, what is the most adult thing that you

1054
00:54:39,920 --> 00:54:41,600
Speaker 1: have done for yourself or that you'd like to do

1055
00:54:41,680 --> 00:54:44,359
Speaker 1: for yourself, but mainly what you've done for yourself this year?

1056
00:54:45,840 --> 00:54:47,400
Speaker 4: I took a pilates class.

1057
00:54:48,960 --> 00:54:49,400
Speaker 3: Plates.

1058
00:54:50,239 --> 00:54:50,759
Speaker 1: How was it?

1059
00:54:51,640 --> 00:54:51,759
Speaker 2: Oh?

1060
00:54:51,840 --> 00:54:54,760
Speaker 4: My god, it's like really kinky.

1061
00:54:55,640 --> 00:54:58,719
Speaker 5: Yeah, because you're like it's like whoa, Like you're on

1062
00:54:58,800 --> 00:55:01,319
Speaker 5: those machines and you're like Edward and Bella could never

1063
00:55:01,719 --> 00:55:06,880
Speaker 5: you know, like it's really speaking of self intimacy, just

1064
00:55:07,120 --> 00:55:08,440
Speaker 5: stretching iconic.

1065
00:55:09,000 --> 00:55:10,320
Speaker 4: Yeah. Yeah.

1066
00:55:10,600 --> 00:55:13,360
Speaker 2: The machine is called there's that machine, right, Yeah. I

1067
00:55:13,400 --> 00:55:14,520
Speaker 2: think it's called the Reformer.

1068
00:55:15,080 --> 00:55:28,840
Speaker 4: Yeah, Reform. It's just like down, I had to.

1069
00:55:30,920 --> 00:55:33,080
Speaker 1: What's the most adult thing that you want to do

1070
00:55:33,239 --> 00:55:33,760
Speaker 1: for yourself?

1071
00:55:34,360 --> 00:55:42,239
Speaker 4: My god, so many things. Hmmmmmm. I think I would

1072
00:55:42,280 --> 00:55:42,600
Speaker 4: have a kid.

1073
00:55:45,400 --> 00:55:48,640
Speaker 5: I mean mostly because like, imagine the outfits, right, we

1074
00:55:48,680 --> 00:55:52,720
Speaker 5: would like coordinate regardless of gender. We'd be wearing platform

1075
00:55:52,760 --> 00:55:55,000
Speaker 5: heels by age three, And there be a lot of

1076
00:55:55,000 --> 00:55:58,880
Speaker 5: courageous conversations had with the preschool, like, do not challenge

1077
00:55:59,000 --> 00:56:01,840
Speaker 5: my child's glamour. It's an integral part of their healing

1078
00:56:01,920 --> 00:56:03,520
Speaker 5: from intergenerational colonial trauma.

1079
00:56:03,719 --> 00:56:03,839
Speaker 1: Right.

1080
00:56:05,040 --> 00:56:07,279
Speaker 5: And I would just be out there giving gifts for

1081
00:56:07,400 --> 00:56:10,160
Speaker 5: people's birthdays that were loaded like here's the miss Scare,

1082
00:56:10,239 --> 00:56:12,040
Speaker 5: you know, I'd just be really trying to spread.

1083
00:56:12,440 --> 00:56:15,520
Speaker 3: Right, you're oden have the miscaa. Yeah, I love that.

1084
00:56:15,680 --> 00:56:16,080
Speaker 3: I love that.

1085
00:56:16,600 --> 00:56:19,800
Speaker 1: I love that too. Everybody please give it up for

1086
00:56:19,880 --> 00:56:33,759
Speaker 1: a low Yeah? Oh my goodness. How do you not

1087
00:56:33,920 --> 00:56:38,200
Speaker 1: feel like at least four IQ points sharper than before

1088
00:56:38,280 --> 00:56:40,280
Speaker 1: we talk to a log that's enough points?

1089
00:56:40,360 --> 00:56:43,520
Speaker 2: Right, I think so well, I don't know how many,

1090
00:56:43,600 --> 00:56:45,439
Speaker 2: but it's at least that many.

1091
00:56:45,760 --> 00:56:46,600
Speaker 1: They're just amazing.

1092
00:56:47,040 --> 00:56:49,799
Speaker 2: I agree. I do feel qualified for MENSA at this point.

1093
00:56:52,320 --> 00:56:54,239
Speaker 1: You know what, this is amazing. I'm so glad that

1094
00:56:54,280 --> 00:56:56,200
Speaker 1: a Loak was available to do the show because they're

1095
00:56:56,200 --> 00:56:59,880
Speaker 1: always just so busy, the book tour, the fashion, the

1096
00:57:00,600 --> 00:57:04,680
Speaker 1: public speaking. It's like, now they're here for all y'all,

1097
00:57:05,080 --> 00:57:06,840
Speaker 1: for all of us, for the world, you know.

1098
00:57:07,080 --> 00:57:09,240
Speaker 2: I mean, I'm gonna put my face in some serums

1099
00:57:09,480 --> 00:57:13,239
Speaker 2: and think about schooling straight schooling that we got today.

1100
00:57:13,360 --> 00:57:16,120
Speaker 1: Good for you, you Betta go get that mandscaping guys,

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Speaker 1: this preventative, you gotta get that. Sometimes I put the

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Speaker 1: I cream on my elbows. I'm won'ta give a fuck?

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Speaker 2: Are you serious to me?

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Speaker 3: Who does that?

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Speaker 1: One hundreds? I cream all over my face? It's not

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Speaker 1: just good for that. If it could do it, Dad,

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Speaker 1: do it everywhere? All right? You know what it's time

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Speaker 1: to go. I need to I need to take my

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Speaker 1: bra off and just look out a corner. This has

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Speaker 1: been so real? Is it best to getting for real?

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Speaker 1: Or bye Jordan, Bye Bud.

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Speaker 2: This has been an exactly right production.

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Speaker 1: Our senior producer is Natalie Wrinn.

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Speaker 2: Senior Managing Producer is Hannah Kyle Kraign.

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Speaker 7: This episode was sound designed and mixed by Andrew Eapen

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Speaker 7: and engineered by Ryobam.

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Speaker 1: Our guest booker is Patrick Cotner.

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Speaker 2: Our theme song in live show DJing is by DJ

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Speaker 2: don Well. This bill House show is produced by Christian Banda.

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Speaker 7: Potography by Chris vander Most, artwork by Jamie Bechtel. Executive

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Speaker 7: produced by Karen Kilgaroff, Georgia Harstark and Danielle Kramer.

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Speaker 2: Follow the show on Instagram at adulting the pot.

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Speaker 7: Email your questions to adulting questions at gmail dot com.

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