WEBVTT - Lala Kent 0:00:08.160 --> 0:00:25.120 That's okay, because no one here is. 0:00:27.320 --> 0:00:30.760 Hello, and welcome back to teen Beat with Danielle Fischele, 0:00:30.960 --> 0:00:34.680 a show where I, Danielle Fischele, invite interesting people to 0:00:34.760 --> 0:00:39.120 finally return a favor and share their awkward teenage stories 0:00:39.159 --> 0:00:42.160 with me, a former child actor who already lived out 0:00:42.200 --> 0:00:45.440 her own moments of puberty in front of millions of 0:00:45.479 --> 0:00:48.120 TV viewers. And so I look at it like this. 0:00:48.800 --> 0:00:51.720 I gave you my childhood. It's time we hear yours. 0:00:52.360 --> 0:00:55.720 And this week I'm chatting to a reality television phenomenon, 0:00:56.120 --> 0:01:00.280 an actress, a singer, a podcaster and author, a mother, 0:01:00.560 --> 0:01:04.360 and a former bar hostess who somehow flipped her struggling 0:01:04.400 --> 0:01:07.920 Hollywood dreams into an empire bigger than she ever could 0:01:07.920 --> 0:01:11.040 have imagined. Her time on vander Pump Rules threw her 0:01:11.040 --> 0:01:14.280 into the spotlight, but it's her dedication to turn lemons 0:01:14.319 --> 0:01:17.759 into lemonade that made her a long term fan favorite 0:01:17.959 --> 0:01:21.440 and the star of another show, Bravo's The Valley, which 0:01:21.480 --> 0:01:25.720 she currently calls home alongside best friend and crucial piece 0:01:25.760 --> 0:01:29.080 of the Scanned of All Puzzle, Tom Schwartz. She's as 0:01:29.160 --> 0:01:32.479 open on social media as a Chinese restaurant on Christmas, 0:01:32.880 --> 0:01:36.960 candid about her sobriety, cosmetic upgrades, and the beauty empire 0:01:37.040 --> 0:01:41.640 she's built, evolving from famous party girl into unscripted TV's 0:01:41.840 --> 0:01:45.720 cool older sister. But if you ask me, underneath the hip, 0:01:45.880 --> 0:01:50.240 beautiful exterior must live an awkward teenager just waiting to 0:01:50.320 --> 0:01:53.360 overshare with me. So this week on Teenbeat, I am 0:01:53.440 --> 0:01:55.800 thrilled to sit down with La La Kent. 0:01:56.400 --> 0:01:59.400 Wow, that was like the most spectacular intro I think 0:01:59.440 --> 0:02:01.720 I've ever had had in my life. 0:02:02.320 --> 0:02:06.040 I love it. Thank you, I'm happy to be here. Yes, 0:02:06.200 --> 0:02:07.480 I'm so happy to have you. 0:02:08.639 --> 0:02:12.280 I have to ask, as someone very fresh off the 0:02:12.360 --> 0:02:15.120 Dancing with the Stars Live tour, I have to ask, 0:02:15.639 --> 0:02:19.640 how did you grow up in Utah and avoid ballroom dancing? 0:02:20.520 --> 0:02:21.359 You know that never? 0:02:21.520 --> 0:02:23.200 That is so funny you asked that because that was 0:02:23.280 --> 0:02:28.040 actually like a main credit in junior high and my 0:02:28.480 --> 0:02:33.520 dearest friend, after we graduated, and you know, we were 0:02:33.639 --> 0:02:37.080 done with our school years, she actually went back to 0:02:37.160 --> 0:02:38.040 teach ballroom. 0:02:38.400 --> 0:02:41.840 Yeah, and I just could never get into it. I 0:02:41.840 --> 0:02:45.960 don't know if I'm I'm just I like to. 0:02:45.960 --> 0:02:48.519 Think that I can move, and I like to think 0:02:48.560 --> 0:02:51.320 that I'm athletic until I try and I'm like, oh, 0:02:51.400 --> 0:02:52.440 I am so awkward. 0:02:54.320 --> 0:02:58.919 In my mind's eye, Utah is just filled with ballroom 0:02:59.000 --> 0:03:02.400 dancers everywhere. I mean it just seems like that's a 0:03:02.400 --> 0:03:04.000 breeding ground for ballroom dancers. 0:03:04.160 --> 0:03:07.160 So totally true. Yeah, it's pretty. 0:03:06.919 --> 0:03:08.960 I mean I know that it's supposed to be because 0:03:08.960 --> 0:03:12.680 I think BYU added it as a major and then 0:03:12.720 --> 0:03:15.160 basically it just kind of it took off. 0:03:15.480 --> 0:03:18.640 Yes, I like to be the rebel. Yeah. 0:03:18.720 --> 0:03:21.400 Now, like when everyone's raving about a TV show, I 0:03:21.480 --> 0:03:23.800 wait until no one raves about it and then watch it. 0:03:24.040 --> 0:03:26.760 Yeah, you know what, I'm not that much different than you. 0:03:26.880 --> 0:03:29.440 I also am that way. If everyone's making a big 0:03:29.520 --> 0:03:32.320 fuss about something, I'm like, Okay, everyone's settled down. I'm 0:03:32.320 --> 0:03:35.000 not trying to go against the grain. Like I'm like, look, 0:03:35.200 --> 0:03:36.040 I'm willing. 0:03:35.760 --> 0:03:37.560 To watch it. I just don't want to watch it 0:03:37.600 --> 0:03:40.000 while it's all the rage, exactly. 0:03:40.120 --> 0:03:42.160 I wait for things to kind of calm down. So 0:03:42.160 --> 0:03:43.960 now that I'm out of Utah, maybe I'll get into 0:03:44.000 --> 0:03:44.800 ballroom dancing. 0:03:45.200 --> 0:03:48.000 Well, would you ever do Dancing with the Stars? 0:03:48.440 --> 0:03:51.520 I have always said that that would be the one 0:03:51.600 --> 0:03:54.040 show that I would that I would say no to 0:03:54.320 --> 0:03:57.920 and here's why listen to me dancing with the Stars 0:03:57.960 --> 0:03:59.920 because I'm so intimidated by it. 0:04:00.800 --> 0:04:03.280 Really, Yes, it would take. 0:04:03.120 --> 0:04:05.920 Me out of my comfort zone in such a way 0:04:05.960 --> 0:04:06.880 that I think I'd have. 0:04:06.800 --> 0:04:07.720 A panic attack. 0:04:08.240 --> 0:04:11.640 Yeah, but this new mindset that I have taken on 0:04:11.800 --> 0:04:14.960 where it's like I want to be uncomfortable now, I 0:04:15.000 --> 0:04:19.840 want to say, if that opportunity presented itself, right, I 0:04:19.880 --> 0:04:22.440 think I would be all in for the mere fact 0:04:22.480 --> 0:04:24.640 that I want to feel uncomfortable so badly. 0:04:24.720 --> 0:04:28.080 Yeah, you'll definitely feel uncomfortable. Yeah, it's in a I mean, 0:04:28.279 --> 0:04:32.320 I loved every single second of it, but there's no 0:04:32.520 --> 0:04:36.600 doubt that it is you know, it's it can be uncomfortable. 0:04:36.080 --> 0:04:38.200 And you are working your butt off. 0:04:38.240 --> 0:04:40.039 And if you're like me and have I had never 0:04:40.080 --> 0:04:43.000 even taken a dance class before doing Dancing with the Stars, 0:04:43.040 --> 0:04:48.520 so like I was starting from zero zero, and so yeah, 0:04:48.560 --> 0:04:50.640 you're out of your comfort zone. And then you know, 0:04:50.839 --> 0:04:54.680 I am I'm a perfectionist. And so for me having 0:04:54.720 --> 0:04:58.360 the cameras on all the time and being miked all 0:04:58.400 --> 0:05:01.599 the time, which you are probably used to, I am not. 0:05:02.080 --> 0:05:04.320 I felt like, okay, you know what, I could really 0:05:04.360 --> 0:05:07.200 actually learn this dance if we got the cameras out 0:05:07.240 --> 0:05:08.039 of here and we got. 0:05:07.839 --> 0:05:11.040 This mic off of me. But like, it just feels 0:05:11.080 --> 0:05:13.240 so weird to know you are being. 0:05:13.360 --> 0:05:17.480 Watched while you're learning something that's very vulnerable. 0:05:17.720 --> 0:05:20.120 You know what, though, I even though I am used 0:05:20.120 --> 0:05:25.240 to being miked and just like living and existing, it's 0:05:25.240 --> 0:05:27.640 similar to like if you were to mic me and 0:05:27.680 --> 0:05:30.160 put a camera on if I were going on a date. Yeah, 0:05:30.200 --> 0:05:33.440 I can't do this, even though I think I know 0:05:33.560 --> 0:05:37.160 how if you're watching and listening to everything. 0:05:37.279 --> 0:05:38.960 It would be the same with with dancing. 0:05:39.000 --> 0:05:42.479 And I remember seeing you at the iHeart party and 0:05:42.480 --> 0:05:45.760 this was probably in October, and you said it was 0:05:45.800 --> 0:05:47.680 the most difficult thing you've ever done, but you were 0:05:47.680 --> 0:05:48.839 having the time of your life. 0:05:48.880 --> 0:05:51.640 You had pulled a hamstring or something. You're exactly right. 0:05:51.760 --> 0:05:53.840 Yeah, I remember I had just come off of a 0:05:53.880 --> 0:05:56.359 massive injury, and I was like, don't want to ever 0:05:56.440 --> 0:05:57.880 stop going to do it every day for the rest 0:05:57.920 --> 0:05:58.280 of my life. 0:05:58.400 --> 0:05:59.640 Yes, you were having the best time. 0:05:59.680 --> 0:06:02.560 And you know what, I think if I allowed myself 0:06:02.640 --> 0:06:05.000 to say you're gonna be uncomfortable, but you're going to 0:06:05.080 --> 0:06:07.240 do it, I would feel so accomplished. 0:06:07.720 --> 0:06:09.520 Yeah, yeah, you definitely would. 0:06:09.560 --> 0:06:11.760 Well, I really do think you would be quite an 0:06:11.800 --> 0:06:15.080 asset on the show, and I think, knowing how incredible 0:06:15.160 --> 0:06:17.080 the show was for me, I would love for you 0:06:17.160 --> 0:06:19.960 to have that experience as well. So I'm fingers crossed 0:06:20.000 --> 0:06:21.560 that we are manifesting that for you. 0:06:21.760 --> 0:06:25.560 I love manifesting, and in this time of incredible eclipse. 0:06:25.600 --> 0:06:27.880 You know we're in an eclipse, and so now is 0:06:27.920 --> 0:06:29.920 the time to bring forth all of the things from 0:06:29.960 --> 0:06:32.320 our future selves, so he knows what were manifesting for you. 0:06:32.480 --> 0:06:33.040 I love it. 0:06:33.760 --> 0:06:35.400 I know your dad had been a part of the 0:06:35.440 --> 0:06:38.520 Mormon Church, but he left before you were born. What 0:06:38.600 --> 0:06:42.280 was it like growing up surrounded by the LDS community 0:06:42.279 --> 0:06:44.479 but not actually being a part of it. 0:06:44.520 --> 0:06:46.240 Was it harder for you to make friends? Do you 0:06:46.279 --> 0:06:48.920 think it was strange? 0:06:48.960 --> 0:06:51.120 And it was difficult because even though my dad left 0:06:51.200 --> 0:06:53.240 the Mormon Church when he was twenty two, which was 0:06:53.320 --> 0:06:57.159 well before I came into the world, there were so 0:06:57.240 --> 0:07:01.200 many things that you could tell, to be very respectful, 0:07:02.160 --> 0:07:05.760 that he clearly had been told his entire life that 0:07:05.839 --> 0:07:09.680 were not good and that's evil and don't do that. 0:07:10.000 --> 0:07:11.800 Where it was almost like I had to coach my 0:07:11.880 --> 0:07:14.240 dad through those moments of like it's all good man, like, 0:07:14.360 --> 0:07:14.800 let it go. 0:07:15.160 --> 0:07:16.160 This is not all. 0:07:16.280 --> 0:07:18.760 This is not determining whether you go to the highest 0:07:18.840 --> 0:07:23.600 Kingdom of Heaven or not. But I kind of gravitated 0:07:23.640 --> 0:07:27.800 towards people who also didn't have Mormon families. And you know, 0:07:27.840 --> 0:07:31.240 my mom was raised very Christian and my dad was 0:07:31.320 --> 0:07:34.800 raised very Mormon, and I think they came together and thought, 0:07:34.880 --> 0:07:38.320 let's just raise our kids with spirituality. That was very 0:07:38.360 --> 0:07:41.480 heavy in my household. Is we said our prayers every 0:07:41.520 --> 0:07:43.920 single night. When things got tough, we turned to God. 0:07:43.960 --> 0:07:47.520 But it wasn't in a way that is organized religion, 0:07:47.600 --> 0:07:51.400 if that makes any sense. Yes, And you know my 0:07:51.560 --> 0:07:55.320 mom didn't. My mom didn't try to keep us away 0:07:55.760 --> 0:07:58.720 from the Mormon church. If I had a group of 0:07:58.720 --> 0:08:01.680 friends in elementary school and they went to Young Women's 0:08:01.800 --> 0:08:04.680 and they invited me, my mom would say, go like 0:08:05.120 --> 0:08:07.080 have fun. I didn't even realize that it was like 0:08:07.120 --> 0:08:11.520 a Mormon thing. It wasn't until my grandmother took my 0:08:11.640 --> 0:08:16.000 little brother to church one Sunday and he came home 0:08:16.040 --> 0:08:19.880 with a matching game which was basically the sequence of 0:08:19.920 --> 0:08:24.040 events that happens right, which was like go on a mission, temple, marriage, 0:08:24.040 --> 0:08:26.720 and that's when my mom said, we will no longer 0:08:26.800 --> 0:08:29.840 be sending these kids to anything that has to do 0:08:29.880 --> 0:08:30.520 with this church. 0:08:30.880 --> 0:08:33.439 Okay. Yeah. 0:08:33.480 --> 0:08:36.040 My parents were kind of similar. Both my parents were 0:08:36.120 --> 0:08:42.880 raised pretty strict Catholic okay, and so they had been 0:08:43.000 --> 0:08:47.080 kind of indoctrinated into this idea that to be a 0:08:47.160 --> 0:08:51.680 spiritual or a god believing in family, you also had 0:08:51.720 --> 0:08:53.800 to be a part of the Catholic Church. 0:08:53.880 --> 0:08:56.960 And that meant, you know, school I went to. 0:08:58.040 --> 0:08:59.480 I can't even remember the name of it now, but 0:08:59.480 --> 0:09:01.440 I went to that school where every Wednesday we had 0:09:01.440 --> 0:09:02.760 to learn about Catholicism. 0:09:03.000 --> 0:09:03.559 Catechism. 0:09:03.600 --> 0:09:06.400 We went to that every Wednesday, and we went to 0:09:06.440 --> 0:09:09.400 church every Sunday, and my brother and I complained about 0:09:09.440 --> 0:09:13.520 it every single week, and my parents, to their credit, 0:09:14.160 --> 0:09:18.000 realized they also really did not want to be doing this. 0:09:18.120 --> 0:09:20.800 They were only doing it out of guilt and the 0:09:20.840 --> 0:09:23.560 way they had been raised, and so they realized, like, 0:09:24.080 --> 0:09:26.960 I don't think the organized religion part of this is 0:09:27.000 --> 0:09:30.520 what we're believing in. I think it's just a belief 0:09:30.520 --> 0:09:34.439 in God. And so my parents, we similarly no longer 0:09:34.480 --> 0:09:37.040 went to the Catholic Church. And for us, it was 0:09:37.280 --> 0:09:41.079 a moment when my grandfather realized there. 0:09:40.960 --> 0:09:42.440 Was like some issue with us. 0:09:42.640 --> 0:09:45.640 He was paying for school, and something happened where he 0:09:45.679 --> 0:09:50.120 realized all they care about is money. The Catholic Church 0:09:50.160 --> 0:09:52.559 is a money making enterprise. 0:09:52.800 --> 0:09:54.720 And that was it. He was done. He was done 0:09:54.720 --> 0:09:55.800 with the Catholic Church after that. 0:09:55.960 --> 0:09:59.400 So once you see things for what they are, it 0:09:59.480 --> 0:10:00.720 is very hard to unsee. 0:10:01.240 --> 0:10:05.360 Yes, that is true. Mormons are very visible in pop 0:10:05.400 --> 0:10:07.720 culture right now. Did you ever expect so much of 0:10:07.880 --> 0:10:09.800 Utah to also end up in Hollywood? 0:10:10.559 --> 0:10:11.720 Not at all. 0:10:11.800 --> 0:10:14.880 I remember being at the very first Bravo con in 0:10:14.920 --> 0:10:19.360 New York and then I remember seeing Andy in the 0:10:19.360 --> 0:10:22.240 green room and he was like, you're gonna die. Guess 0:10:22.280 --> 0:10:25.320 who were announcing today as the new city Salt Lake. 0:10:25.480 --> 0:10:29.960 And I was thrilled about it because when if I 0:10:30.000 --> 0:10:32.719 already knew what Housewives was like, and I'm like, yeah, 0:10:32.760 --> 0:10:34.600 now you're going to add. 0:10:34.800 --> 0:10:38.440 That crazy religion to the mix. Oh, this is gonna 0:10:38.480 --> 0:10:38.800 be good. 0:10:39.120 --> 0:10:43.439 And then once the Mormon Wives show came out, it 0:10:43.559 --> 0:10:46.680 was like everyone's talking about the skincare and the hair 0:10:46.800 --> 0:10:51.640 routine and the uh the bleaching for the teeth and 0:10:51.800 --> 0:10:54.400 a swig with the you know coffee mate in it 0:10:54.800 --> 0:11:00.360 I never expected that, and it's crazy to look look 0:11:00.400 --> 0:11:04.079 at it because it's something that I recognize but I'm 0:11:04.120 --> 0:11:07.400 not close to, if that makes sense. It feels very 0:11:07.520 --> 0:11:11.839 very familiar and very triggering because although in my day 0:11:11.880 --> 0:11:14.120 to day with my friend group, none. 0:11:14.000 --> 0:11:16.520 Of us were raised LDS, but. 0:11:16.520 --> 0:11:18.840 When I went to my grandma's house on my dad's side, 0:11:19.440 --> 0:11:22.200 it was very very clear that we were the black 0:11:22.240 --> 0:11:25.720 sheep of the family, you know. And I noticed that 0:11:25.800 --> 0:11:31.280 as I got older, and I remember bringing my boyfriend 0:11:31.320 --> 0:11:35.760 to family dinner and he and I had to leave 0:11:36.840 --> 0:11:41.560 because I had theater practice, like I needed to go 0:11:41.640 --> 0:11:46.240 and to my high school and rehearse something. And my 0:11:46.400 --> 0:11:50.480 grandma was so concerned that I was going to be 0:11:50.600 --> 0:11:54.880 gay because I was in the arts, and it was like, 0:11:55.320 --> 0:11:55.679 isn't that. 0:11:55.640 --> 0:11:56.920 The strangest thing you've ever heard? 0:11:57.840 --> 0:12:01.280 And as I got as I left with my like six' 0:12:01.360 --> 0:12:03.600 four hunk of a, boyfriend by the, Way i'm, like 0:12:03.640 --> 0:12:04.880 what you should be worried about is. 0:12:04.840 --> 0:12:07.040 If i'm going to go with, him because you'd. 0:12:06.880 --> 0:12:09.000 Be worried about that he's taking me to my high 0:12:09.000 --> 0:12:11.480 school rehearsal And i'm going to be alone with him 0:12:11.480 --> 0:12:12.199 in a car. 0:12:12.000 --> 0:12:13.400 That's what we should really be focused. 0:12:13.440 --> 0:12:17.640 On but it's like these little things THAT i THAT 0:12:17.800 --> 0:12:22.360 i do, remember and WHEN i, watch whether It's housewives 0:12:22.400 --> 0:12:25.079 Of Salt lake Or Mormon, Wives i'm, Like, OH i 0:12:25.160 --> 0:12:29.080 remember my, family my dad's. FAMILY i don't have any 0:12:29.080 --> 0:12:33.000 communication with any of them any. LONGER i remember those little. Things, 0:12:33.320 --> 0:12:35.320 yeah that stick with, You And i'm, LIKE i can't 0:12:35.360 --> 0:12:38.640 imagine having that every single, day to where you actually 0:12:38.640 --> 0:12:41.240 believe that certain things are. Wrong. 0:12:41.920 --> 0:12:43.439 Yeah AND i. 0:12:43.360 --> 0:12:46.200 Felt so badly for my dad as, well BECAUSE i 0:12:46.200 --> 0:12:48.040 think he really loved the, arts AND i don't think 0:12:48.040 --> 0:12:51.280 that he was ever able to participate in them because 0:12:51.320 --> 0:12:52.440 of what his parents. 0:12:52.559 --> 0:12:57.640 Thought that, Meant, OH i have never shared that. Before isn't? 0:12:57.640 --> 0:12:59.959 That isn't that a heartbreaking? 0:13:00.080 --> 0:13:03.400 Thing when you get old enough and wise enough to 0:13:03.679 --> 0:13:07.080 really think about your parents' journey as human beings and 0:13:07.120 --> 0:13:09.400 not related to what they who they are to, You 0:13:09.520 --> 0:13:12.959 but just like your dad as a young, man recognizing 0:13:13.000 --> 0:13:16.760 that he loved something that he probably never fully got to. 0:13:16.880 --> 0:13:20.840 Embrace, yeah like, THAT i. SEE i struggle a lot with. 0:13:20.880 --> 0:13:22.720 That now that he's, GONE i look back on a 0:13:22.760 --> 0:13:25.120 lot of, things AND i JUST i think his upbringing 0:13:25.240 --> 0:13:28.640 was really HARD i think he always felt different and 0:13:28.960 --> 0:13:34.320 felt that he just didn't The Mormon church did not 0:13:34.360 --> 0:13:38.040 resonate with, him and that is a struggle for, me 0:13:38.800 --> 0:13:40.600 AND i think that's WHY i babied my dad so, 0:13:40.720 --> 0:13:44.920 much like letting him, know like you're good, enough you, 0:13:44.960 --> 0:13:47.240 know need to beat yourself up over things like, this 0:13:47.800 --> 0:13:48.640 all is, Good you're. 0:13:48.720 --> 0:13:51.040 Human it sounds like you were able to do that 0:13:51.080 --> 0:13:54.839 from a really young. Age do you feel like you've 0:13:54.880 --> 0:13:58.160 always been a little bit of a therapist in your 0:13:58.200 --> 0:13:59.280 family and your friend's. 0:13:59.400 --> 0:14:00.600 Life. 0:14:00.800 --> 0:14:03.280 YEAH i remember at a very young age when my 0:14:03.320 --> 0:14:06.000 mom had lost her, dad laying in bed with her 0:14:06.160 --> 0:14:11.400 and she was obviously beside, herself and, GOSH i was so. 0:14:11.480 --> 0:14:14.720 YOUNG i was still in elementary, school AND i don't 0:14:14.760 --> 0:14:17.280 know exactly WHAT i, said but my mom brings it 0:14:17.400 --> 0:14:19.360 up often where she's, like you got me through that. 0:14:19.440 --> 0:14:24.000 Moment AND i, remember even with my, dad you, know 0:14:24.120 --> 0:14:27.680 talking him through. THINGS i just was very in tune 0:14:27.680 --> 0:14:30.720 with my emotions and seeing, things and you know, what 0:14:31.200 --> 0:14:34.760 it's a blessing and a. Curse looking, back it's, like, oh, 0:14:34.800 --> 0:14:37.520 wow how amazing as a child THAT i could do. 0:14:37.600 --> 0:14:40.800 That but as a, child taking that on felt like 0:14:40.840 --> 0:14:44.200 a huge. BURDEN i felt LIKE i was never able 0:14:44.240 --> 0:14:45.080 to be a, kid. 0:14:44.880 --> 0:14:47.760 And not because of my. Parents my, parents they were 0:14:47.840 --> 0:14:48.840 begging me to be a. 0:14:48.920 --> 0:14:53.240 Kid, yeah but my mind just was always wanting to be. 0:14:53.360 --> 0:14:58.760 Older that resonates with me so. FULLY i can't even 0:14:58.760 --> 0:15:01.680 tell YOU i was exactly the same. WAY i never 0:15:01.880 --> 0:15:05.280 wanted to be in my present age or my present. 0:15:05.400 --> 0:15:09.120 STATE i was always anticipating the needs of. OTHERS i 0:15:09.240 --> 0:15:13.520 was always forward thinking and just couldn't wait to be an. 0:15:13.520 --> 0:15:16.280 Adult and not because of all the fun things you 0:15:16.280 --> 0:15:19.560 think of about being an. Adult even the mundane just 0:15:19.640 --> 0:15:23.560 sounded wonderful to, me AND i you, know sure, enough 0:15:24.000 --> 0:15:27.120 it's pretty freaking awesome to be an. ADULT i do love, 0:15:27.120 --> 0:15:29.360 it even though it's, hard and there's a lot of 0:15:29.400 --> 0:15:31.960 THINGS i think about HOW i felt as a kid 0:15:32.280 --> 0:15:36.000 and felt kind OF i don't, KNOW i just it 0:15:36.080 --> 0:15:38.720 never felt LIKE i was supposed to be. YOUNG i 0:15:38.760 --> 0:15:41.800 was always an old woman in a young person's. 0:15:41.840 --> 0:15:44.360 Body oh my, GOSH i so relate to. 0:15:44.400 --> 0:15:46.320 That. Yeah and by the, way Now i'm thirty five 0:15:46.360 --> 0:15:48.080 AND i feel Like i'm eighty. Five i'm, like oh. 0:15:47.880 --> 0:15:49.720 My, gosh it's seven. O'clock i've got to get to. 0:15:49.760 --> 0:15:51.560 Bed thank you me. 0:15:51.640 --> 0:15:53.840 Too If i'm up and it's past, Nine i'm, like, 0:15:53.920 --> 0:15:57.240 guys mama's got to. SLEEP i don't know what you 0:15:57.960 --> 0:16:01.080 think in this is here that you had a six 0:16:01.160 --> 0:16:03.120 or four super hot boyfriend in high? 0:16:03.160 --> 0:16:04.920 School when did You. 0:16:05.680 --> 0:16:09.880 When did you just, love like realize that you just loved? 0:16:09.920 --> 0:16:13.440 Boys and when did boys start reciprocating that feeling back to? 0:16:13.480 --> 0:16:18.000 You? OH i remember my first boyfriend in the third, Grade. 0:16:18.200 --> 0:16:21.520 TAYLOR i carried his uh school picture and we were long, 0:16:21.520 --> 0:16:23.880 distance which meant he went to a different elementary school than. 0:16:23.920 --> 0:16:25.080 Me oh, man, yeah that's. 0:16:25.120 --> 0:16:26.960 Tough and then he got it he had a crush 0:16:27.040 --> 0:16:29.480 on a different girl at his own. School SO i 0:16:29.560 --> 0:16:31.600 called him and, said you go through girls like you 0:16:31.640 --> 0:16:31.960 go through. 0:16:32.040 --> 0:16:35.600 UNDERWEAR i will never forget. It what in third? Grade 0:16:35.760 --> 0:16:38.120 a third? Grade where did you get this? LINE i 0:16:38.240 --> 0:16:39.160 think my mom. 0:16:40.720 --> 0:16:40.920 My? 0:16:40.960 --> 0:16:44.400 Mom do you think she said it to you about? Him, like, 0:16:44.480 --> 0:16:45.720 oh he goes through girls like. 0:16:45.840 --> 0:16:49.000 Underwears Because i've always had a very close relationship with 0:16:49.040 --> 0:16:51.200 my mom at the very young, AGE i just shared 0:16:51.320 --> 0:16:54.200 everything with her same so you get. 0:16:54.240 --> 0:16:55.640 It it's like that's a safe. 0:16:55.640 --> 0:17:00.040 Space this woman like clothed, me fed, ME i, like 0:17:00.160 --> 0:17:07.240 she's my. Everything, yeah BUT i THINK i GOT i 0:17:07.240 --> 0:17:10.159 THINK i got very boy crazy in the seventh grade 0:17:10.280 --> 0:17:13.280 where it was like my braces came. 0:17:13.320 --> 0:17:15.120 Off oh, yeah he had a glow. 0:17:15.200 --> 0:17:17.560 Up, YES i had a locker WHERE i could keep 0:17:17.600 --> 0:17:20.080 pictures and a mirror and put my lip gloss, on 0:17:20.280 --> 0:17:23.119 AND i just it was like grown. 0:17:22.880 --> 0:17:25.480 Men you, know way different than elementary. 0:17:25.480 --> 0:17:29.879 School and then in high school is WHEN i AND 0:17:29.920 --> 0:17:33.320 i talk about this all the. Time my most productive 0:17:33.320 --> 0:17:37.359 and healthy relationship thus far is my high school sweetheart 0:17:38.080 --> 0:17:41.240 THAT i met at, seventeen which was the sixth four. 0:17:41.320 --> 0:17:44.199 Man. Okay we were together UNTIL i was. 0:17:44.240 --> 0:17:46.720 TWENTY i ended up moving out TO la to give 0:17:46.720 --> 0:17:49.400 it a, shot and he stayed back In, utah and 0:17:49.600 --> 0:17:54.439 things JUST i think had run their. COURSE i have 0:17:54.680 --> 0:17:58.119 nothing but amazing memories of, him and he's the PERSON 0:17:58.160 --> 0:18:01.080 i lost my virginity, Too so That i'm so grateful 0:18:01.080 --> 0:18:04.399 for because as you, know like the first time having, 0:18:04.440 --> 0:18:07.320 sex that is kind of what tees you, up or 0:18:07.440 --> 0:18:09.960 your relationship with sex going, forward, right. 0:18:09.760 --> 0:18:12.040 Yes, yes and there is a before and and after 0:18:12.320 --> 0:18:12.879 in your life. 0:18:13.160 --> 0:18:17.760 Exactly SO i was So i'm so grateful that my 0:18:18.119 --> 0:18:21.240 first time being intimate with somebody was just. 0:18:21.320 --> 0:18:23.320 That it was, intimacy it was. 0:18:23.400 --> 0:18:29.159 Partnership and but after, him, MAN i WAS i was 0:18:29.680 --> 0:18:36.439 ready to the. Races oh, YEAH. 0:18:33.960 --> 0:18:35.520 I, mean at least if you're going to say after 0:18:35.560 --> 0:18:37.719 that you were ready to, go you were seventeen to. 0:18:37.720 --> 0:18:41.280 Twenty you're in your, twenties which is college, age is. 0:18:41.440 --> 0:18:45.000 The perfect time to really that's where you Have that's 0:18:45.000 --> 0:18:49.480 where you, know the biggest opportunity for self discovery comes. 0:18:49.480 --> 0:18:51.200 About it's for a lot of people the first time 0:18:51.200 --> 0:18:53.920 you're out from under your parents' root totally and you're 0:18:53.960 --> 0:18:55.800 making your own decisions about who you're going to hang 0:18:55.840 --> 0:18:57.879 out with and when you're going to come, home and 0:18:57.920 --> 0:18:59.199 who you're going to go on a date with and 0:18:59.240 --> 0:19:03.119 when when and those dates take. Place so, yeah all of, 0:19:03.160 --> 0:19:05.800 that all of that makes. SENSE i was also boy. 0:19:05.880 --> 0:19:10.840 Crazy starting in elementary. SCHOOL i had my first boyfriend 0:19:10.960 --> 0:19:14.840 THAT i remember was not long, distance and he if 0:19:14.880 --> 0:19:16.960 he did end up having a crush on someone, else 0:19:17.040 --> 0:19:20.639 it would have been on a boy because he is. 0:19:20.720 --> 0:19:23.960 Gay and it was pretty obvious he was gay then 0:19:24.000 --> 0:19:27.680 to everyone except. Me but you, know that did pretty 0:19:27.720 --> 0:19:30.040 much just set me up for moving. FORWARD i have 0:19:30.359 --> 0:19:31.960 always loved gay. 0:19:32.000 --> 0:19:37.359 Men oh don't you and me? Both, yeah love love 0:19:38.200 --> 0:19:40.120 a good gay. GUY i just think they're. 0:19:40.160 --> 0:19:44.159 Wonderful there are perfect, people mast people to be, same, 0:19:44.320 --> 0:19:46.159 same great people to be in relationships. 0:19:46.160 --> 0:19:47.119 With, honestly. 0:20:00.400 --> 0:20:04.280 My husband AND i Watched, Love loathing and Vander pump 0:20:04.440 --> 0:20:07.320 the documentary The Randall. Scandal we watched it and our 0:20:07.359 --> 0:20:11.640 main takeaway from it was how do men like him 0:20:12.119 --> 0:20:15.720 still find beautiful women who will date? Them he is 0:20:15.840 --> 0:20:20.240 with someone right? Now how do men so easily fail? 0:20:20.440 --> 0:20:25.119 UPWARDS i think for, him he has really conquered an 0:20:25.240 --> 0:20:31.280 art and that is going for, girls not women who 0:20:31.359 --> 0:20:37.399 are easily, impressionable don't have much life. Experience you say 0:20:37.560 --> 0:20:41.840 the word chanel and you've got. Them you say the 0:20:41.880 --> 0:20:44.480 word movie producer and you've got. Them you don't do much, 0:20:44.520 --> 0:20:48.400 Research you just see the shiny. Object AND i think 0:20:48.440 --> 0:20:51.439 he knows exactly who to prey, on. Right AND i 0:20:51.480 --> 0:20:53.960 think he thought when he met, Me i'm a girl 0:20:53.960 --> 0:20:59.680 from utah m. HMM i don't think he ever anticipated 0:21:00.400 --> 0:21:04.200 the strength THAT i, Have. RIGHT i THINK i really 0:21:04.240 --> 0:21:08.320