Speaker 1: Guess what decision we're about to make. Horrible decisions. Come on,
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Speaker 1: a k A dot Beach And you know I've been
Speaker 1: to Mexico, so um, I want stars. What else do
Speaker 1: I know? We answer nor own questions? Is my favorite
Speaker 1: kind of insulada um not talking about Sally be but
Speaker 1: you don't know, but I like um boguesso. Guys. Welcome
Speaker 1: to the guys. I'm wheezy, welcome back to another episode
Speaker 1: of Horrible Decisions. I want to give a shout out
Speaker 1: to my girl Jasmine who told me it was Hispanic
Speaker 1: carritage month. And we don't you got no Latinos or
Speaker 1: anybody like Latino community, seriously, and that's the first of all, Beach,
Speaker 1: we are a ni podcast. But also okay, you're right,
Speaker 1: and luckily you know Hispanic because you know, ship's normally
Speaker 1: a full month of something. I was like, we don't
Speaker 1: have December, how this September fifteen, October fift I mean
Speaker 1: it's a whole month, but but no, it's but it's
Speaker 1: like a fiscal weird fiscal here. Um, it's thanks for
Speaker 1: us because we it's the black Effect Network. Yeah, we
Speaker 1: have the leeds Chat podcast in the building. We have
Speaker 1: to say your name first. Dirara Dia. Yeah, they used
Speaker 1: to call me that when I was there, I was
Speaker 1: called a man do like, Yeah, I fucking hate children.
Speaker 1: Really the kids, no, unless they're mine. I don't want
Speaker 1: to me that Jojo Jo it's a diarrhean, so it's
Speaker 1: really Joanna. Yeah, but you guys are we've had a
Speaker 1: couple before in the building. We haven't had a lesbian
Speaker 1: couple year. I don't think you're welcome. We had I had,
Speaker 1: I interviewed my she was my excellent episode. Every the
Speaker 1: ones who wanted to see us after that doesn't count
Speaker 1: those scissors Patreon, We're going to get the no. But yeah,
Speaker 1: how long y'all been together? Almost three years? What are
Speaker 1: you gonna do if you break up and you got
Speaker 1: a podcast? God? Bless oh no, get married? So my god,
Speaker 1: is that the card? Chin? Nobody proposed it. I just
Speaker 1: told you I couldn't afford the podcast alone, let alone?
Speaker 1: YEA Like now real quick? So when when I when
Speaker 1: I saw you guys on the schedule, I was like,
Speaker 1: els pod, But let's can you guys tell me why
Speaker 1: you left out? The b n um for the podcast
Speaker 1: name why it's just less pod and clearly y'all if
Speaker 1: you haven't know, now we're talking a lot of carpet munching,
Speaker 1: uh this episode. So why what made you guys choose
Speaker 1: the name and what made you want to be so
Speaker 1: sexuality forward with your relationship? Is it because y'all are
Speaker 1: a couple like I want to get into that the podcast? No? Well,
Speaker 1: first of all, the being, I just what I does,
Speaker 1: like tay at this point, it's given women is good,
Speaker 1: let's be yeah like no women, No, we just it
Speaker 1: was just a drop it because everything's less beian this,
Speaker 1: lessbian that. And I feel like we're getting into a
Speaker 1: generation where it's not about labels anymore. Everyone te of
Speaker 1: binary no, no, no, okay, now everybody else let's know
Speaker 1: she Thank god there was anything else. I was gonna
Speaker 1: have a real quick they happened to me, and as
Speaker 1: somebody that I do respect people's prono do you are
Speaker 1: say they them? I'm gonna probably just try to call
Speaker 1: you your first name in case I forget. So I
Speaker 1: went into this pet store um in Silver Lake, which
Speaker 1: if no one's heard of Silver Lakes, this area in
Speaker 1: Los Angeles. That's giving Williamsburg. So no, nobody's bitches talking
Speaker 1: to me like that, and I could call that they
Speaker 1: them a beach. So I get to the register and um, honestly,
Speaker 1: they didn't look androgynous, which is generally when someone's there them,
Speaker 1: they've got that look. But I get you can be whatever,
Speaker 1: um what whatever. So I'm leaving. They were helping me
Speaker 1: with shift fro Nina. I was like, all right, ladies,
Speaker 1: thank you. On the way out, this girl stops me
Speaker 1: their works there and goes, oh, they're a non binary
Speaker 1: And I was like, okay, girl, because I'm just shopping
Speaker 1: here like you down having on. She's like, no, no,
Speaker 1: I just know you come in a lot. I wanted
Speaker 1: you to know that they are non binary. I said, okay, girl,
Speaker 1: like I said, and I made sure to call her
Speaker 1: girl again and then she like says something else to me,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, bro, I didn't even say ladies on
Speaker 1: purpose to the bitch like and then she was like
Speaker 1: they them and I'm like, so now you're telling me
Speaker 1: I can't call a vy them person a bitch, because
Speaker 1: I'm gonna call a bitch whoever the I want to
Speaker 1: call a bo i didn't say that on the way
Speaker 1: out in the car that first of all, we should
Speaker 1: talk about that, because with pronouns, would you not have
Speaker 1: felt like that, I'm walking out the store sold the
Speaker 1: way they tried to cancel me already with pronouns. I'm
Speaker 1: not just not gonna talk on this matter. So I
Speaker 1: think that you're pronouns, you should say them obviously if
Speaker 1: you are in conversation with someone, but you checking me
Speaker 1: out the door? What just because I said bye ladies?
Speaker 1: Did I say bye bitches? Now? Dog, I'm tired? Yeah,
Speaker 1: she just got a gross h there's someone not Mari
Speaker 1: Binary listening to this and watching this. She's gonna get
Speaker 1: And I'm not trying to be Andrew Sheltz here because
Speaker 1: I would respect your pronouns, but you ain't gonna tell
Speaker 1: me that she did at the Star Dog. I really
Speaker 1: feel like now you only use pronouns in certain settings.
Speaker 1: Get to sick with us. My intent just saying you
Speaker 1: could call it in a workplace but not a store. Wheezy,
Speaker 1: I thought you were supposed to be progressing. I'm progressing.
Speaker 1: What you want me to do? Turn around with my
Speaker 1: receive and be like my bad day, my bad y'all.
Speaker 1: Basically you know what you would say for them and there, yeah,
Speaker 1: you can't. You gotta make it like you do. You
Speaker 1: guys have any non binary friends? Actually we don't. You
Speaker 1: guys Puerto Rican Dominican. I'm Dominican and Puerto Rican. Okay,
Speaker 1: not from dying because I knowed you well real quick,
Speaker 1: I'm about to get talking now. You actually look like
Speaker 1: one of the hookah girls up in Dykeman. I'm only
Speaker 1: gonna say this because you're so beautiful, and y'all trying
Speaker 1: to give me a compliment and it wasn't he Now
Speaker 1: now I'm gonna like stereotype the funk out of you
Speaker 1: because you're beautiful. So I was like, you know, you
Speaker 1: look like you would be a bottle service girl up
Speaker 1: in Dykeman. You know she got a bottle service fresh giving. No,
Speaker 1: so they will come up and be like maybe, I'm
Speaker 1: so sorry because honestly, I taught you did not even
Speaker 1: what strawberry we put the blue berries in there. I'm
Speaker 1: so sorry because I thought you like blueberries. You got
Speaker 1: a blue shirt on one you like that. Well, let's
Speaker 1: you know what, you only got no non binary friends?
Speaker 1: Because I'm done. No, I'm gonna. I don't saying I
Speaker 1: feel like, you know, black people and Latino people just
Speaker 1: don't let you have it. But black people be trying.
Speaker 1: But all of my friends a Dominican in Puerto Rican,
Speaker 1: they be they'd be off. They don't really catch all
Speaker 1: too quick. They'd be like, what are you talking about?
Speaker 1: Like I gotta be like, imagine your dad's I'm trying
Speaker 1: to understand that one of you is non binary? What
Speaker 1: hopping you already? Like the women will hopping body? Why
Speaker 1: not act not like that? You guys started this podcast.
Speaker 1: What are the things that you talked about on the
Speaker 1: show besides so? So we talked about we talked about dating,
Speaker 1: we talk about friendships, we talked about coming out, we
Speaker 1: talked about literally everything. And we now we built like
Speaker 1: this community where people ask us questions. So we started
Speaker 1: this new thing called family Meeting where we answer questions
Speaker 1: and we got crazy asked questions. Like one of them
Speaker 1: that went viral on TikTok was this couple married for
Speaker 1: five years um and her wife got pregnant by a man.
Speaker 1: So she asked us, do you think I should stay
Speaker 1: with her until the baby is born? And we were
Speaker 1: like no, like get out of their asap. Speaking of
Speaker 1: I want to shout out to my friend. There was
Speaker 1: a caller on her show, and I want to know
Speaker 1: y'all thoughts on this. We're not in the homemail portion yet,
Speaker 1: but she brought this up and I was like, bitch, stop.
Speaker 1: So there was a lesbian couple that wanted to have
Speaker 1: a baby the traditional way, so through interstus well through
Speaker 1: intercourse and through somebody. They knew it was their neighbor,
Speaker 1: and the neighbor was fucking both of them because both
Speaker 1: of them could carry, so he was just sucking both
Speaker 1: of them for about six months. So he wrote in
Speaker 1: and was like, I have not told them I'm snipped.
Speaker 1: And so the conversation was the advice on how he
Speaker 1: should let them know that he's been sucking this lesbian
Speaker 1: couple who wants to procreate, but he is not. Look
Speaker 1: at everyone's face. You would allegedly all turn into a
Speaker 1: kill on here, but yeah, like fuck, look everyone's face
Speaker 1: just dropped and I don't even know. I mean, if
Speaker 1: you snipped, he's not not for doing that. Like they
Speaker 1: came to him because there was a relationship and he
Speaker 1: hadn't let them know that he snipped his balls. And
Speaker 1: was just sucking both of them and they had the balls.
Speaker 1: Oh here we go, all right, so let's put it
Speaker 1: out there. I know people say, no, way, you're really gay,
Speaker 1: because we always assume that someone that's more feminine got
Speaker 1: to be by or maybe she's just with you right now.
Speaker 1: Like my ex used to get hello pissed when people
Speaker 1: would do that to us. And I'm curious. But you know,
Speaker 1: so I'm sure someone said it to you, right, How
Speaker 1: does it make you feel when men do that and
Speaker 1: you're around, Like, who when they say they say that
Speaker 1: to me because they're It's crazy because now I feel
Speaker 1: like men are getting to the point where they're not
Speaker 1: even pursuing the feminine women. They pusuing a masculine one
Speaker 1: because I kind of looked like you on a normal day,
Speaker 1: and they still do. They still want to, right, but
Speaker 1: ID but no I say that because like I feel like,
Speaker 1: if you guys are together and they would only do
Speaker 1: it to her, like, what what is your rebuttal when
Speaker 1: someone's trying to like, let me see you kiss her?
Speaker 1: Your guys be scared of her? I swear to god.
Speaker 1: We went to Hawaii and we were at the club
Speaker 1: and some guy was coming up to me, and I
Speaker 1: was I have a girlfriend. She's standing there right there,
Speaker 1: and he was like, oh, my bad, my boy, I
Speaker 1: saw you. He was like like you're my bad bro,
Speaker 1: like y'all y'all beautiful, and I'm like, thank you all right,
Speaker 1: Like I don't I don't take offense to it because
Speaker 1: I don't look good and good too. So what happens
Speaker 1: to you when straight girls are like, oh I can
Speaker 1: with this type, I'd be ready to go to fight bitches.
Speaker 1: I swear to God, this why I don't go to
Speaker 1: lesbian parties. The last one was called copa Cabana and
Speaker 1: bitches be fighting. They do like they really be fighting.
Speaker 1: The X was ready to fight when she came to
Speaker 1: the Miami show. We had do you do you? Are
Speaker 1: you guys open to you guys bring women in? Is
Speaker 1: it just you are y'all monogamous? And what do those
Speaker 1: conversations look like? It's looking like it's just being her
Speaker 1: what you guys came on the show. We don't have sex.
Speaker 1: So I'm not only that you little brought us liquor.
Speaker 1: I'm drinking because I so how it was like it
Speaker 1: depends on money, like shots, I got it that's like, oh,
Speaker 1: we gotta be on vacation and lyddy like with other
Speaker 1: paths or y'all want to go. I have miles, Come on,
Speaker 1: I have miles any more. I mean we're looking for
Speaker 1: a sugar, not that that's this one. Oh yeah, I
Speaker 1: don't even say, because it's true. She's on the nut,
Speaker 1: you know what, that's what we make money for, bro
Speaker 1: not to I'm not tricking it. Ain't trick it if
Speaker 1: you got it. For one, I really don't think spending
Speaker 1: my money on like not even I'm companionship, right because
Speaker 1: like I'm gonna get pussy your dick anyway, you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. But like I do like treating people
Speaker 1: to ship. That would you do that for a man?
Speaker 1: I don't do it for anybody, not more women I've
Speaker 1: dated though, because I kind of like the courting of women,
Speaker 1: even when it's myself, right, like when men courted me.
Speaker 1: But like I like like splurging on men for things,
Speaker 1: but like generally with women. Like so when threesomes, you
Speaker 1: guys have never had one, so you feel like you've
Speaker 1: got to be on vacation. Do you guys have a type?
Speaker 1: Have you guys? I thought about you know. What's funny,
Speaker 1: we don't and we both dated like different type of women,
Speaker 1: like stud she's dated, So it really depends on the person.
Speaker 1: It's interesting that was a issue with my ex, Like
Speaker 1: we didn't seem to have the same type. So when
Speaker 1: we would go to sex clus when we go out,
Speaker 1: the woman that he would look at was never the
Speaker 1: woman I was looking at, and vice versa, and so
Speaker 1: I was just like, you go have your phone on man,
Speaker 1: my fine, and well, um, but you guys clearly are
Speaker 1: into that. So have you guys discussed then what you like,
Speaker 1: what you like and how that could come together? Now?
Speaker 1: Why why why like here? Because that way, I think
Speaker 1: it's mostly because we're still kind of fresh, and I
Speaker 1: think that coming from the situations we came from and
Speaker 1: the experience that we had in the past, that we're
Speaker 1: like trying to move intentionally together in the right ways.
Speaker 1: So we don't like, you know, that's so beautiful violent
Speaker 1: strings in here. That was still beautiful, But it's true though,
Speaker 1: Like Mandy and I, Um, we're talking in the episodes
Speaker 1: next week where we talked about our growth, and one
Speaker 1: of the things I said was that I don't think
Speaker 1: like I can have a threesome again until I'm really
Speaker 1: comfortable with somebody, like and obviously you're comfortable in two years,
Speaker 1: but like really like this is it because that ship
Speaker 1: has so many other dynamics And honestly, women are just
Speaker 1: like a lot, and I've never had a threesome with
Speaker 1: all women. But what I do know is sometimes the
Speaker 1: male energy can help a little bit, Like there's like
Speaker 1: this dominance thing of okay, well like who's like but
Speaker 1: sometimes this is like bites. For example, I one of
Speaker 1: your clips, there's a lot of domestic violence and gay relationships,
Speaker 1: and it's because we look at someone like, oh, you're
Speaker 1: a girl, I'm a guy. Whatever. But I do think
Speaker 1: sometimes it's harder to be more assertive with women. Do
Speaker 1: you find that in your relationship? Absolutely? I'm like, oh, baby,
Speaker 1: what's your last fight? About our last fight? God tell him,
Speaker 1: bab that was giving baby. He's talking about the only
Speaker 1: talked about in the best movie is that when it
Speaker 1: was I don't know, she threw water in my face.
Speaker 1: What's not loving hip hop? We're loving but cho let's
Speaker 1: go that's a um. We went to this poppy tour.
Speaker 1: I don't know if you guys ever heard of it. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's no, no, no, it's basically like a party just
Speaker 1: for girls. Sorry poppy or something like poppy juice. No,
Speaker 1: it's no, no, it's close to that. But it's a
Speaker 1: gay party. No, it was actually just an all them.
Speaker 1: It's not even just a gay women's just all the
Speaker 1: general party. No men. And at the time they were
Speaker 1: doing the tour and it's like a more like Hispanic
Speaker 1: like a bunch of Hispanic females days and ship. But
Speaker 1: they played in Philly. We got tickets, we went, and
Speaker 1: it was a funch your bitches. There a lot of stras,
Speaker 1: but I think that that was like the you know,
Speaker 1: the insecurity right there was like straight bitches because in reality, females,
Speaker 1: I hate to say it, but at least this generation,
Speaker 1: a lot of females don't have respects. I don't know
Speaker 1: if you can't say females, don't you said women, just
Speaker 1: like you said tell them women, females whatever. Okay, you said,
Speaker 1: they don't have respect for who, like, in a sense
Speaker 1: of period of relationship, who you talk to, who you win?
Speaker 1: You don't know. We talked about that dreaming yeah yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: but but but you're cool, someone be respectful and not
Speaker 1: super fled with her, but you I felt both for y'all,
Speaker 1: but like I'm gonna be respectful and not like you know,
Speaker 1: but you got some bitches that would be like I
Speaker 1: don't want to both y'all want to you wait in
Speaker 1: your face. Someone has said that they haven't said it,
Speaker 1: but there were actually this chicken and shea no, no, Jaica.
Speaker 1: There was something in Jamaica. Okay, So in Jamaica we
Speaker 1: actually happened there. It was like all of Jersey there
Speaker 1: for some random reason and they were we met another
Speaker 1: That's right, all of the Jersey was there and this
Speaker 1: this group was with us. We were getting lit and
Speaker 1: I guess they met this girl and this one guy
Speaker 1: who just got there at the end of our week
Speaker 1: and was like, Yeah, there's other people from Jersey here.
Speaker 1: They lit. It's fun. You gotta find them. We're in
Speaker 1: the pool when I hear this girl and the dude
Speaker 1: walking around. Yeah, we got funnies. Other Jersey people did.
Speaker 1: We ended up at the lobby bar and she was
Speaker 1: happy to be behind me talking about something. Yeah, we
Speaker 1: got funnies other Jersey girls. And I turn around, like,
Speaker 1: that's were you looking for us for? Just like oh,
Speaker 1: I heard y'all lit. The entire time we hung out,
Speaker 1: she was like looking at me, giving me the eyes
Speaker 1: like she was not my time? Yeah, what's up? Like?
Speaker 1: And I'm like, you could be fun up on vacation.
Speaker 1: Absolutely not, absolutely not. She didn't give an She was
Speaker 1: literally like she would be right here, her sister was
Speaker 1: right here, me and a girl and the girl's like,
Speaker 1: what's good? Like in front of in front of you,
Speaker 1: in front of her, in front of her. How do
Speaker 1: you how do you check people? Because like my friend
Speaker 1: has told me how she's checked men, how do you
Speaker 1: check women that cross boundaries? Because because they don't think
Speaker 1: they crossed them? Women do not think they boundaries, which
Speaker 1: is actually what we've talked about even going on tour, right,
Speaker 1: Like there's violations that come from men, but like when
Speaker 1: we would be on tour, bitches are grabbing, titties are
Speaker 1: asked and like touching us in ways that men could
Speaker 1: never but women don't feel like it's abountary work where
Speaker 1: they said they think that the women me two eras
Speaker 1: coming and I wanted to know, then, how do you
Speaker 1: check a woman who was violating as a woman. I
Speaker 1: feel like initially it's hard because we automatically assume like
Speaker 1: as women, we have that that right, because it's just like, oh,
Speaker 1: you're a girl, you got what I got, and that's
Speaker 1: kind of like the bond, right, And then I guess
Speaker 1: it's different, especially as a more master then person and
Speaker 1: individual for her being a fan, she's gonna be like, nah,
Speaker 1: that bit's trying you and I'm not working with it.
Speaker 1: And to me, at least, my mentors like, well, I'm
Speaker 1: still I'm still a bit too like im, but I'm
Speaker 1: not thinking about it. And it's as so she trying
Speaker 1: to kick it to me, and that's shawty really trying
Speaker 1: to kick it to me like she bust it moves um,
Speaker 1: which by that time it's already too late. But I
Speaker 1: just but I feel like when you have a girlfriend
Speaker 1: that looks as popping as she does, you gotta be
Speaker 1: okay with people just not feeling as women. Like in
Speaker 1: my relationship with my ex boyfriend, I sometimes would enjoy
Speaker 1: that attention with him. Right for my ex girlfriend, I
Speaker 1: had to do a lot more reassuring also, like maybe
Speaker 1: she was maybe crazier than he was, but it was
Speaker 1: that because she was a woman, Like I don't know,
Speaker 1: but oh yeah, like our first time having sex over years.
Speaker 1: Because if anyone remembers I dated Scissors when I was
Speaker 1: like two, we were sucking all the time. I came back.
Speaker 1: I had horrible decisions by then. For Thanksgiving flirty with
Speaker 1: one bitch in the club. She was like, you're gonna
Speaker 1: do that ship in my face? Bitch, are you crazy?
Speaker 1: And we were in the bathroom when it was over.
Speaker 1: Then then we got back to the other took that
Speaker 1: pussy right back after us City Walk night. But that ship,
Speaker 1: I do think it's something that you have to manage, right,
Speaker 1: Like how do you guys communicate when you're going out
Speaker 1: together to all women events, Like when something's making you uncomfortable,
Speaker 1: but you want to ruin the night. See, that's the thing.
Speaker 1: So when we went to Poppy Tour, right, yeah, I
Speaker 1: was having a lot of drinks, shot strengths whatever. There
Speaker 1: was a lot of straight girls, and girls knew that
Speaker 1: she's gay because you know, you look more more masculine,
Speaker 1: just like right now, you look more gay? Could I
Speaker 1: be a wrong with you? Even when you said masculine?
Speaker 1: We just had on jade? Right, yeah, you actually the
Speaker 1: yeah wait wait wait wait here we go, here we go.
Speaker 1: So Sam is in feminine she dress. That's science. Technology
Speaker 1: is something that and science sience. I know what you're
Speaker 1: talking about, electromagnetics. I don't know, but anyway, math is
Speaker 1: the last so right, So she's saying she gets hit
Speaker 1: on by women more okay because she looks gay. So
Speaker 1: that night I was like, girl, So I was like,
Speaker 1: I feel like you're not communicating with me because she
Speaker 1: kept like leaving. She was like going to the bar.
Speaker 1: She was like going to the bathroom. I was like,
Speaker 1: are you really going to the bar in the bathroom.
Speaker 1: So we got into like this huge argument in the
Speaker 1: bathroom and I threw my water at her because I
Speaker 1: was so pissed. He thought I was out here scoring bitches.
Speaker 1: But that was only because there was some chick actually
Speaker 1: like that. Eventually came up some girls trying to trying
Speaker 1: to get her Jojo and some other girl to make out.
Speaker 1: Oh I don't remember that. I don't somebody else remember somebody? Baby.
Speaker 1: I was working. I was actually more sober than they were,
Speaker 1: and when I was dipping, I wasn't like leaving. I
Speaker 1: was going to get them water. So I'm like, you know,
Speaker 1: it's why you came because it's a gentleman. No, it
Speaker 1: was like that gentleman made me to be like, babe,
Speaker 1: you and your sister me water, I got you stay here,
Speaker 1: hold our spot. I'm gonna get water. And she's like,
Speaker 1: where the funk you at? And I'm like, I'm getting
Speaker 1: y'all water. Y'all live like listen. But you know what
Speaker 1: was the most embarrassing part. We had listeners there and
Speaker 1: they saw it. He was hanging out with Well, y'all
Speaker 1: haven't had threesome. But would y'all be into because we
Speaker 1: loves sucking fans, would you guys love it? Girls like,
Speaker 1: let me click on this bit page rightly? But I
Speaker 1: mean I was surprised when you answered um ur DM.
Speaker 1: I was like, people do, responded, I will tell y'all
Speaker 1: why I responded. I would. I look for guests sometimes many,
Speaker 1: and I are going to requite a few episodes and
Speaker 1: to me, when the clips are good, I do. I
Speaker 1: do like other podcasters. I enjoy other podcasters because they
Speaker 1: know how to talk right, Like I've got a vanilla
Speaker 1: ship to get to but we're flowing, and I think, um,
Speaker 1: other podcasters can bring something out of you. And obviously
Speaker 1: I want to highlight other podcasters, that's what we should
Speaker 1: be doing. But particularly with your clips, I felt like
Speaker 1: you were getting to a point. And sometimes there's a
Speaker 1: lot of mindless podcasting ship. But I was like, Okay,
Speaker 1: we can ask you questions and you'll get to it.
Speaker 1: Because I don't want to hear about a podcast. It's
Speaker 1: like everything I want to hear about everything. I'll listen
Speaker 1: to the Breakfast Club. Anyway, let's get I have another question,
Speaker 1: particularly about stud fem ship. Right, so people don't want
Speaker 1: I feel like to believe that maybe the women they're
Speaker 1: attracted to when they're stud or stud fem semps men
Speaker 1: or has been attracted to men. Do you ever find
Speaker 1: yourself because you said I was being a gentleman when
Speaker 1: you're around men getting more girly or do you turn
Speaker 1: into one of the bros? I feel like it depends
Speaker 1: who I'm around. Most times I'm I'm bromfucker's but they're
Speaker 1: sometimes when I'm like, I'm still a girl. Do you
Speaker 1: want to get her shots? Oh? Yeah, and we out
Speaker 1: I'm getting my free shots. That's what I love about. Yeah,
Speaker 1: that's I see that. Do you guys ever use how
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Speaker 1: me go, let me tell they are. If y'all are
Speaker 1: listening auto audio only, please go over to Horrible. When that,
Speaker 1: I would do that, like we went to the club
Speaker 1: and beaus at a table like that. Last time we
Speaker 1: went to Atlantic City, we met like this big group
Speaker 1: of guys and they had their own section. I was like,
Speaker 1: let's get in there, and we got I was actually surprised,
Speaker 1: as like, let's get in here, like know we're gonna
Speaker 1: get drinks. I know, I'm thinking cute. I know you're
Speaker 1: looking cute. Why did she turned into one of the bros? Yeah?
Speaker 1: I did. I had it that because they were like
Speaker 1: probably saying no, they were trying to go to strip
Speaker 1: up after and I was, but we didn't get to go.
Speaker 1: The crazy part is I didn't even have to do
Speaker 1: that though, because like the fit that I was wearing,
Speaker 1: it was like, oh, once they knew like she was
Speaker 1: my girlfriend, it was like, ye ain't even gonna try you,
Speaker 1: like you fly a lesbian that they would, but also
Speaker 1: you're gonna but also if they get you drunk enough,
Speaker 1: do you feel like men being around you'll have also
Speaker 1: maybe been like, oh, I'm gonna get both of them. No,
Speaker 1: I don't say that I have either of you ever
Speaker 1: stopped with the man? Yes, both of y'all. Y'all don't
Speaker 1: miss the day. Well, I consider myself bisexual, so we
Speaker 1: gotta get it too. That not the side, bitch. Oh,
Speaker 1: we're gonna get into this. Ask that because penetrative sex.
Speaker 1: Is that enough for you? Or do you sometimes? Actually
Speaker 1: see that's the thing. I'm not blessed like Mandy, Like
Speaker 1: I did not penetration, But when you said your bisexual,
Speaker 1: I wondered, like if that was something that men were
Speaker 1: giving you that you enjoyed. So no penetrated sex. No,
Speaker 1: how do you guys normally have sex? Well, damn, I'll
Speaker 1: put my mouth on it. Did take my time and
Speaker 1: slow kiss a little bit, start up the engine and
Speaker 1: use a couple of fingers, startup, so like it's orally
Speaker 1: your main and favorite form of sex. Yeah, we actually
Speaker 1: don't even have a strap m And you know what
Speaker 1: I do. And I didn't want to jump. I hate
Speaker 1: jumping in the outline. But you being bisexual, you being
Speaker 1: a stem, I would say, then I've had a huge
Speaker 1: issue with talking to women because they don't want to
Speaker 1: date someone bisexual. Was that something once you realize I
Speaker 1: like women, I don't want to go back to men.
Speaker 1: You identified you did not identify yourself as bisexual, So
Speaker 1: was it well, was the thought process of being with
Speaker 1: someone bisexual? And do you ever feel inadequate, like you're
Speaker 1: not giving her everything she wants with her specifically, No, Okay,
Speaker 1: maybe because she always guy shaming or whatever. She's like,
Speaker 1: I'm not here from she do. But even that, like
Speaker 1: I think, for me, I don't. I guess in a sense,
Speaker 1: I adn't give a funk because also we're in a
Speaker 1: generation where everybody's bisexual. They were a little bit both.
Speaker 1: That's cool. Everybody's a little fluid nowadays. But I feel like,
Speaker 1: I mean, in our reality, most gate it's just with
Speaker 1: straight girls. So it's like we're accepting the straight girls
Speaker 1: and we always want to hit the turnout, which half
Speaker 1: the time when you turn it out with showty, this
Speaker 1: is showty that was already curious and straight woman they
Speaker 1: do it. One of our we talked about the time
Speaker 1: you guys do the same thing. He loves because he
Speaker 1: knows it takes song, he's like, and he'll call me
Speaker 1: and he's more excited to tell me a story about
Speaker 1: that than fucking dude. Right, he'd be like, and then
Speaker 1: he was wrapping on his dick and then he wanted
Speaker 1: to taste mine and he had to stop when his
Speaker 1: wife was in the room. Man, So do you feel
Speaker 1: like there's a big deal culture with women too? As
Speaker 1: much as we like when we refer to download, it's
Speaker 1: mostly associated to men, right, is there a deal culture
Speaker 1: with women too? Yeah? It's all the best friends, I think, Like,
Speaker 1: you know, friends, they don't get late, and then they
Speaker 1: want to be like, yo, tag me in, Like I
Speaker 1: want to know what that's like. Yeah, when they heart
Speaker 1: sex and straight women, both of you. What did you
Speaker 1: find that The most annoying thing about it is I'm
Speaker 1: not here to teach them same same. But I feel
Speaker 1: like for her, like she's had enough of like dealing
Speaker 1: with guys and having to tell them how it is
Speaker 1: or whatever. Because she's a very assertive individual, very asserted.
Speaker 1: She's giving masking honestly, Like I look more fun, but
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm more masks her personality. She has
Speaker 1: more dominance. But that's always how it is with niggas
Speaker 1: when you're dating your man, they'd be like, all right, babe,
Speaker 1: you know, like so I do want to get back
Speaker 1: real quick to the sex with men. Maybe a threesome
Speaker 1: will happen in your future. Do you think that a
Speaker 1: man would be easier? Because what do you think it
Speaker 1: would be easier? Like you, how would you like? Would
Speaker 1: you want to have sex with the dude? I think
Speaker 1: it would depend he gotta be popping. Okay, what's your
Speaker 1: man's respectful? Why you can be asking? And what a
Speaker 1: man type is while they see like a sex podcast?
Speaker 1: Why did Yeah? I just think that I put on accent.
Speaker 1: You do acting every episode? Okay, go because one of
Speaker 1: my icebreakers was celebrity man. If you guys had to
Speaker 1: pick one for the three cents, well, she said it,
Speaker 1: it probably will be Chris Brown. Really, I mean he's
Speaker 1: gonna smet me. Yeah, you know, look like him, but
Speaker 1: not act like him. No, no, don't do that. Not popping.
Speaker 1: She wants rose a little tiny as I want skeptic
Speaker 1: for real. Really, well, you're not white enough. He was
Speaker 1: just with a dolt. You're not giving a deal. He
Speaker 1: was also a name the Campbell God bless. I don't
Speaker 1: know he doesn't have a type the list. Okay, okay,
Speaker 1: so Chris Brown for the both of you and interesting Okay,
Speaker 1: well I know I am not gonna lie. It's been
Speaker 1: the longest intro of horrible decisions history, right, you know
Speaker 1: the cinnamon love was given the game that we just yeah,
Speaker 1: we didn't. We didn't do that line. So we sorrow.
Speaker 1: This is that, you know when when we does that outline,
Speaker 1: we have no outline. That's for me, flood he is.
Speaker 1: At the same time speaking of you know, I wish
Speaker 1: that was so y'all only get the fun twice a month,
Speaker 1: like two weeks out of a month, because yes, that sucks.
Speaker 1: Do you hear it sucks? No? I know you do.
Speaker 1: Not heard telling you about yourself, what your body, especially
Speaker 1: your bloody You both don't like it or what if
Speaker 1: you want? So we don't. But I'm not scared, which
Speaker 1: I don't know if y'all know, But I'm not scared
Speaker 1: to go grab my little rosie and get to it. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I think a little Roseby. I don't want to see
Speaker 1: the string hanging out. I'm good on all that. I mean,
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna see the string. Listen, I don't see today.
Speaker 1: I think it's different to you just ignore it then,
Speaker 1: But you know what, most of the only little it.
Speaker 1: So it makes complete sense that out of know where
Speaker 1: you don't feel we you fucking when you're horny and
Speaker 1: you're feeling it, you're just gonna let it rip. At
Speaker 1: that point, they already they already pushed the boundary. They're
Speaker 1: already like getting you in that mood you like fuck it?
Speaker 1: Are any of y'all? Um? Are? Are either of y'all
Speaker 1: God's chosen? Like myself? You have a three day period? Actually,
Speaker 1: just found out I have endometriosis. Say, wow, what's your birthday?
Speaker 1: I'm a very good We're both okay. First off, endometriosis
Speaker 1: has nothing to do with what's your birthday? Oh? My
Speaker 1: birthday is tomorrow? Actually, um, but wait, so in finding
Speaker 1: that out, I know that endometriosis can also lead to
Speaker 1: sometimes in fertility, heavy blood flow cramping. What does how
Speaker 1: do you show for her in a moment of say
Speaker 1: a bad month or where it's coming you know where
Speaker 1: it affects literally your behavior, it affects your whole body.
Speaker 1: Have you shown up for her in those moments? And
Speaker 1: are you like not accepting of it? But you know, um, well,
Speaker 1: for her, it's like a hit or miss because I
Speaker 1: know for something that like in the beginning she was
Speaker 1: taking birth control to like kind of yeah, um, so
Speaker 1: I didn't get to see it a lot of the time,
Speaker 1: like I said, was bouncing her at some point. But
Speaker 1: recently it's actually been like really bad. So I've experienced
Speaker 1: it in past relations and I know that's it's not fun.
Speaker 1: It's not so I just when I am home at least,
Speaker 1: I'm like, what you need come home with the yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: the ice packscause she gets that. I mean there's there's
Speaker 1: ice packs, there's hot packs, there's the massaging of just
Speaker 1: your lobe like my friend like would ask just because
Speaker 1: the migraines come. And it's also just the Crimpson. So
Speaker 1: I love that. You're like, what helps cuddling? He is
Speaker 1: there's a cuddle therapist that gets paid hundred dollars and
Speaker 1: be held no sex, no um, basically to sleep over
Speaker 1: and let you cuddle them. So a cuddle therapist is
Speaker 1: speaking out about this unusual occupation. Her name is Missy,
Speaker 1: she's forty three. She looked real good, though, he says.
Speaker 1: Hugging heals the body, mind, and spirit. And she never
Speaker 1: has sex with clients. She doesn't even call herself a
Speaker 1: sex worker. She's never had clients attempt to do anything
Speaker 1: like that. She makes both male and female customers sign
Speaker 1: an agreement before the healing can begin. As part of
Speaker 1: the agreement, genitals and breasts are to be covered at
Speaker 1: all times and there are strict limits for touch there.
Speaker 1: They are often touching. Sorry, So basically, um, she was
Speaker 1: a fashion ballogger who was working at a cuddle therapist
Speaker 1: for a short amount of time, and they have experienced
Speaker 1: erections while there's an embracement because there's an ever an issue,
Speaker 1: and she doesn't believe there's something sexual about it. She said,
Speaker 1: people get aroused and embarrassed, but it's only natural. She
Speaker 1: knows that men are often the ones that need this
Speaker 1: service because they can be overlooked when it comes to
Speaker 1: mental health support, claiming that a lack of touch exacerbates
Speaker 1: loneliness and can cause um over eating, self destructive habits, smoking,
Speaker 1: nail biting, which I thought was funny to say, but
Speaker 1: she said not needs. We're having weird ass fingers. They'd
Speaker 1: be biting in nails. You got nubs all the motherfucker. Yeah,
Speaker 1: maybe putting clear polish on the nubs, especially when I yeah, man,
Speaker 1: hands be not you remember that lady? This said to
Speaker 1: Benny when we were out getting our nails, and she goes,
Speaker 1: you want to do clear color because you man, that's
Speaker 1: okay anyway, Sorry. So she had a female customer that
Speaker 1: needed a mommy cuddle and basically, um, she said, she
Speaker 1: called me after her boyfriend of two years walked out
Speaker 1: on her. She had no friends and family in their Yeah,
Speaker 1: I went straight to her. She said. Her skills are
Speaker 1: that of a masseuse. I worked like a massage therapist,
Speaker 1: where basically the skin is the biggest organ and the
Speaker 1: gateway to our emotional capacity. Some people hate the idea
Speaker 1: of being touched, but we're programmed to need it. So
Speaker 1: for those who can't afford it, she'll offer cheaper packages
Speaker 1: seventy dollars for a cuddle for one hour, two hours
Speaker 1: but overnight. But the one with the mommy issues is
Speaker 1: interesting because I don't think I ever like I think
Speaker 1: that she was like, that's the big spoon. Yeah, but
Speaker 1: I've never even felt the need to be boned or
Speaker 1: cuddled or coddled by my mom, especially when you call
Speaker 1: your mom for advice, But as an adult, that hasn't
Speaker 1: been an intimacy that I've craved. You know what I mean.
Speaker 1: You're telling me you've never called your mom to like
Speaker 1: I call my mom. Having a conversation with my mom
Speaker 1: is different than being cuddled and cuddled by my mother
Speaker 1: figure like, so for someone to coddle or be cuddled
Speaker 1: by a woman in search of a mother thing like
Speaker 1: I understand daddy issues mommy issues in the way of intimacy.
Speaker 1: I've never seeked my mom for intimacy. And maybe maybe
Speaker 1: that you don't have daddy issues for intimacy either, But oh,
Speaker 1: but now I love intimacy. I've never hugged my dad.
Speaker 1: I never had, but now now, and that's probably why
Speaker 1: I was with men the way I was in my twenties.
Speaker 1: But now that's all I want is intimacy with men.
Speaker 1: But I've never wanted to be cuddled or cuddled by
Speaker 1: my mother. I've never want to be cuddled by my
Speaker 1: dad either. But I feel like the mom everyone knows,
Speaker 1: like maybe your mom's are like a grandma thing, like
Speaker 1: I can never love that my grandma never want to
Speaker 1: cuddle one. I never want my grandma wat to be
Speaker 1: a big spoon bitch. I think that the cuddle word
Speaker 1: is like, I think it's just such a nurse like
Speaker 1: nursing from a women's standpoint. No, I'm sorry, We're gonna
Speaker 1: hug and be God, where's physical touch on your lovelan?
Speaker 1: Physical touches? Actually, I've realized super super high. I would
Speaker 1: say maybe number two. Um. Number one for me is
Speaker 1: for short acts of service, active service, physical time, then
Speaker 1: quality time, quality time number three five that you service
Speaker 1: each other's um love languages. I tried my best with her.
Speaker 1: I feel like it's it's a lot more easier for
Speaker 1: me because you like quality time. What is hers that
Speaker 1: you feel like it's a little bit harder for you
Speaker 1: to accommodate her. That's her number one. And I feel
Speaker 1: like for me, when I'm doing my best to try
Speaker 1: and give her those acts of service, it's like never
Speaker 1: enough because she's the type of person who's like on
Speaker 1: go at all times. I got this, I gotta do that.
Speaker 1: Like everything happens within that twenty four hour you know period,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, girl, one day at a but real quick,
Speaker 1: go ahead, something that she does amazing in your relationship.
Speaker 1: Here we go. UM. I would say quality time, I
Speaker 1: feel like we we we we go above and beyond
Speaker 1: when it comes to like going on dates and like
Speaker 1: making sure that we have those date nights. That's good.
Speaker 1: Like right after this we're going on a date, so
Speaker 1: like I feel like we do well with that when
Speaker 1: I'm saying it is, which I guess for me, it
Speaker 1: was never access service until like we got together, just
Speaker 1: like I was never affectionate before I got with her,
Speaker 1: and now I'm like, I feel like I'm overly affectionate.
Speaker 1: Like people used to always have to tell me about myself, like, oh,
Speaker 1: you're not affectionate enough, You're not embraceful enough. Does any
Speaker 1: of that have to do with coming out and ship? Um? Nah? Nah?
Speaker 1: I actually wanted to ask you another question, um, because
Speaker 1: it's been something that recently I've dealt with. You said,
Speaker 1: you you show up in what you believe is access Service,
Speaker 1: but you don't feel like it's enough. Do you think
Speaker 1: that's an internal thing that maybe she will like even
Speaker 1: if she says it's enough. Do you feel like you're
Speaker 1: just innately not doing enough? Or is there are a
Speaker 1: time that you could say exactly what you're doing is enough?
Speaker 1: And I need you to know that it's enough because
Speaker 1: this is a new love language for you to show
Speaker 1: up with her. And this was an issue with my
Speaker 1: with my ex, where I'm like, exactly what you're doing
Speaker 1: is makes me happy, but he never felt like he
Speaker 1: was enough. Is that something at all that you guys
Speaker 1: talk about where you feel like you know what she
Speaker 1: wants and you still don't feel like you're showing up.
Speaker 1: For the most part, yeah, I feel like you know
Speaker 1: she I know she does these things every day. Let
Speaker 1: me pick up the slag so she doesn't have to
Speaker 1: do it. And then sometimes I just think like a right, like,
Speaker 1: even if I do those things, she's about to find
Speaker 1: a whole new thing to get into, and I'm just like,
Speaker 1: can you just really a couple of therapy at all?
Speaker 1: It's her? I do think that because for the most part,
Speaker 1: I feel like, which I told you a man, girl,
Speaker 1: you're my ex bitch, because I told her all the time.
Speaker 1: I'm like, yo, i feel like I'm dating the person
Speaker 1: that I was for everybody else. So again, like I said,
Speaker 1: a lot of people will say you're not embraceful enough,
Speaker 1: you're not present enough, you're not affection off, and I'm like, yo,
Speaker 1: I'm sucking here. What more do you want? Um? And
Speaker 1: now that I'm with her where I'm like actually more
Speaker 1: intentional and I want to be here and I do
Speaker 1: like want this. I feel like now I'm I'm the
Speaker 1: other like people that I dealt with where I'm like
Speaker 1: like I'm here, Hey, I'm here, but you're not. I
Speaker 1: don't Everything that you do is more than Yeah, but
Speaker 1: you know the ship like speaking of more than enough,
Speaker 1: I'm assuming she makes you come tell us a horrid
Speaker 1: Let's go opposite. You talk about something she does, get
Speaker 1: in bed and you tell us the same. So let's
Speaker 1: start with you. Um, I like when she eats me
Speaker 1: out and then fingers me at the same time, what
Speaker 1: do you do with your fingers? Specifically? It's yeah, so
Speaker 1: for they can see you on YouTube, just you can.
Speaker 1: I'm not trying to give you all the juice, how girl.
Speaker 1: But for the most part, it's like it's a little
Speaker 1: bit of in and out. But I get to that
Speaker 1: in and out motion like that come here, come here
Speaker 1: with me, and that ship that works for her. Don't
Speaker 1: get no fucking ideas, but that ship it works so
Speaker 1: and that you know, I like to give a little
Speaker 1: mouth to mouth at the same time, you know, it's
Speaker 1: it's nice the extra the penetration and and a little
Speaker 1: I read of me And recently they said if they kiss,
Speaker 1: kiss the thighs, and kiss the pussy slow, you know
Speaker 1: the head is about to be good. I actually agree
Speaker 1: with that. To me, to the head is even better
Speaker 1: when you come up and kiss me in my actual
Speaker 1: mouth after you kiss my other lips. But then also
Speaker 1: like now we're connecting to where I know how I smell,
Speaker 1: how I taste, and now I just enjoyed that with you,
Speaker 1: Like that's if you're gonna eat my pussy, you gotta
Speaker 1: kiss me right after. And I stuck your dick, I
Speaker 1: gotta kiss you right after. And if you don't want
Speaker 1: me to kiss you after I suck your dick, your
Speaker 1: dick is not it? Right? That's it. That's also weird
Speaker 1: when they do that, but that has ship, like I
Speaker 1: deal with them childish has niggas on. Okay, now you
Speaker 1: tell us all right. I don't want to say surprisingly enough,
Speaker 1: but I guess it's always shade on feminine women is
Speaker 1: that they don't give good head. And by the grace
Speaker 1: of God, this woman gives good head because I feel
Speaker 1: like when you fun with feminine females. Now they're changing,
Speaker 1: they're stepping up. They're like, yo, I want parts too,
Speaker 1: But at least like when I started, it was like
Speaker 1: pillow princesses. You know, especially with straight women. You know,
Speaker 1: you're fucking women who never fucked with women, and they
Speaker 1: don't want to. They just want to receive. Correct A
Speaker 1: friend that recently told me she was a Hello princess
Speaker 1: and I couldn't even believe she admitted it. I was like,
Speaker 1: that's okay. So she was like and she was like,
Speaker 1: I must have good pussy because like they'd be coming back.
Speaker 1: But I don't do ship. You just get wow, like
Speaker 1: but to know that, you know, you're like that. Now
Speaker 1: she got a fat ass and big cities, so like
Speaker 1: maybe that's where it's just like fun, we're gonna anyway,
Speaker 1: but yeah, she just flat out It was like, I
Speaker 1: just I can't say I'm a blazingly But then let
Speaker 1: me ask you, Joejoe, what makes good head? So I
Speaker 1: guess from me, I can't speak for all my STEMI
Speaker 1: steady bitches, but it's definitely you know the clip play.
Speaker 1: A lot of people don't know that, and I feel like,
Speaker 1: in a sense as females, especially more feminine females. We
Speaker 1: like that is because we don't know, like you don't
Speaker 1: do it, but it's like, do how you would want
Speaker 1: it done. That's the only way I feel like you can.
Speaker 1: You can really start if you like it this way.
Speaker 1: It's either gonna work for her or it's not. She's
Speaker 1: gonna tell you it's not, but that's your starting point.
Speaker 1: I don't even know how I fucking did it when
Speaker 1: I started, But you don't know how you started eating.
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't either. I watched a lot
Speaker 1: of L Word at the time, like the original what
Speaker 1: is this? It's it's giving life maybe with two men?
Speaker 1: So life L is in life? Yes, life literally words
Speaker 1: are you serious, man, Stock? There's no way you never
Speaker 1: Johansen and the L Word on Showtime, the show about
Speaker 1: lesbian First off, I just got money. Showtime is a
Speaker 1: prey channel. It was the same channel that Zane was on.
Speaker 1: You know, no, Zane was on Oxygen. That was a
Speaker 1: free cable network channel. It was on Oxygen on pay
Speaker 1: for that channel. Don't know what was literally like as
Speaker 1: a hell of famous show. And what's interesting about that
Speaker 1: is um one of the people I worked with used
Speaker 1: to work on the show, and she was like all
Speaker 1: of the writers like a lot of the experiences were meant.
Speaker 1: So when the new gen L Word came out on
Speaker 1: Amazon recently, it felt more lesbian. Oh yeah, is it
Speaker 1: fictional or documentary? It's giving gay sex in the city
Speaker 1: in a way out of it is l a base
Speaker 1: which there's how gay they're making avocado tills for each other.
Speaker 1: How basically like you learned about Turkey based ship. One
Speaker 1: of my favorite scenes in The L Word was there
Speaker 1: was a couple of black and white couple um where
Speaker 1: they wanted to have a kid and they were trying
Speaker 1: to find a sperm donor and she's like, oh my god, babe.
Speaker 1: The black girl comes home to the white girl. She's
Speaker 1: like I found the perfect guy. Like he's an artist,
Speaker 1: Like I found him. He's amazing, Like he's going to
Speaker 1: come over and drive you to sperm bait. She was
Speaker 1: like yes. She opens the door and he's black and
Speaker 1: she was like what the fuck because she didn't she
Speaker 1: wanted to buy racial baby then, so she was like,
Speaker 1: why don't we talk about this? And the guy was
Speaker 1: like she looks as she was like, I'm hoping Beth
Speaker 1: told you I was black, but no, it was a
Speaker 1: really good scene. And um, in the new show you
Speaker 1: get to see like the kid grown up and she's
Speaker 1: like that. But a lot of that how to do
Speaker 1: with coming out. There was a character that was very
Speaker 1: ashamed of being gay and I but you know, before
Speaker 1: we wrap, I think we've definitely got to do our
Speaker 1: due diligence and knowing your families. Do they like each other,
Speaker 1: hate each other, hate you being gay? What is it? R?
Speaker 1: Let's be inn is actually been very lucky for the
Speaker 1: most part, Like my parents don't have an issue with it. Um,
Speaker 1: I just took a very long time to tell my mom.
Speaker 1: So I told my like I started knowing by like
Speaker 1: eighth grade year, and then by freshman year, I was like,
Speaker 1: all right, let me test this theory. And at that point,
Speaker 1: talking to bitches, I was like, all right, like, y'all
Speaker 1: do this. Like I was on a basketball team at
Speaker 1: that too, so yeah, yeah, I'm around all girls at
Speaker 1: the time, so if you're giving me play, I'm taking it.
Speaker 1: And at the time I was obsessed with this one girl,
Speaker 1: which it didn't work, so that was a waste. But
Speaker 1: I was like, damn that freshman year I told my dad,
Speaker 1: I told my brothers. I didn't give fun because at
Speaker 1: the end of the day, for for my relationship with them,
Speaker 1: it didn't matter, like you either love me or you don't,
Speaker 1: I don't care. My mom was the main person, and
Speaker 1: I honestly didn't officially tell my mom until I started
Speaker 1: dating her. I'm twenty eight. I started dating you when
Speaker 1: I was twenty seventh. That did she tell her? So did?
Speaker 1: She said? I knew, she always knew. And other than
Speaker 1: the fact that like I knew, she had her suspicions,
Speaker 1: not even I had a lot of gay friends too.
Speaker 1: So my brother went out, me to her, my brother,
Speaker 1: her sister's and like, I'm really close to her siblings
Speaker 1: because her siblings are like around our age. So these
Speaker 1: motherucker's already knew. Did you ever consider having like a beard?
Speaker 1: Every thing about bringing home and just be like I did?
Speaker 1: But you had a beard Thanksgiving? Weird? Like Christmas beard?
Speaker 1: What happened? Did they believe you'll talk? This was right
Speaker 1: before actually before I started dating her. Oh so when
Speaker 1: I my mom never knew. Out of high school, I
Speaker 1: dated some some girl. I dated her for like four years.
Speaker 1: We broke up, she broke out me whatever it happened,
Speaker 1: and then I was like fuck it, like I'm about
Speaker 1: to do whatever the funk I want because at the
Speaker 1: time I felt like I was very um like coddled,
Speaker 1: like I wasn't out here yet, I wasn't doing nothing.
Speaker 1: I had no other sexual experiences other than when that relationship.
Speaker 1: So I got tired of the whole like being in
Speaker 1: this box for this person that dubbed me anyway, So
Speaker 1: I was like fuck it, like I'm about to be
Speaker 1: out here. And I ended up fucking with guys. Well
Speaker 1: I only fucked with two, and I was like, in
Speaker 1: a way, I guess for me because they know you
Speaker 1: were gay. Yeah, yeah, that's what I'm saying. Love that ship. No,
Speaker 1: guys love that ship. They like adore that ship. They're like, oh,
Speaker 1: like you you were masking, like like they don't want
Speaker 1: feminine shorty no more. But I would tell him the
Speaker 1: first dude, I was like, yeah, I never sucked with
Speaker 1: a dude, and I don't really care how this go.
Speaker 1: I just think you pop, and that is what it is.
Speaker 1: I did with the first guy for ships and giggles,
Speaker 1: and I think that was out of the idea of
Speaker 1: like I wanted that sexual power because I feel like
Speaker 1: guys think that they're in control and like when it
Speaker 1: comes to sex and it's like, nah, like you funk
Speaker 1: cause I let you fuck? Right. Yeah, I really didn't
Speaker 1: have to let that happen. And I think I was
Speaker 1: in the state in a curious stage too, where it
Speaker 1: was like we talk show these all the time, don't
Speaker 1: knock ittill you try it. So I was like, you know,
Speaker 1: let me try it. And I didn't. I was like,
Speaker 1: all right, I don't hate the second. Um it was better.
Speaker 1: It was better. I hate to say that, But I
Speaker 1: also think that I dealt with him longer was because
Speaker 1: of the connection that we had. He was giving me
Speaker 1: more feminine energy, and I think that I touched to
Speaker 1: that because I'm used to the way, um, just his
Speaker 1: personality is that what he was giving he's being less
Speaker 1: dismissive and more attentive. And he actually happened to be
Speaker 1: the person that was like you're not embraceful enough, Like
Speaker 1: you're not you're not here, And I was like, do
Speaker 1: you want, like I want to smell some I mean
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna like that's even like been my dilemma,
Speaker 1: Like I really like enjoy being with women intimately and sexually,
Speaker 1: But relationship wise, I'm good. It's too much like literally,
Speaker 1: even with dating certain guys, even like I've been talking
Speaker 1: to my hunger like bitch I'm dating a bitch is emotional,
Speaker 1: and like I realized how much like I'm someone that
Speaker 1: can't be there on an empathetic level. And women require
Speaker 1: a lot of emotions. And so even when I deal
Speaker 1: with a man who is emotional, I, as a woman,
Speaker 1: don't how to deal with that because again, where used
Speaker 1: to mend being more dismissive, not eating as much attention,
Speaker 1: And so for how you have to show up for
Speaker 1: a woman, I don't think I even had the capacity
Speaker 1: to do. Like, sexually, we get fun. You could go
Speaker 1: at home girl and I eat you puts in and
Speaker 1: girl going your way up. Fun, But the emotional needs
Speaker 1: of women it's very hard to come by. And literally,
Speaker 1: every time I deal with a woman and it gets
Speaker 1: a little serious, I hit up my homeboys like, oh
Speaker 1: y'all got it hard. That's how New York coming out story.
Speaker 1: So growing up, my mom was not with the ships.
Speaker 1: My mom's Dominican, okay, and I remember she found a
Speaker 1: picture of my older sister kissing her friend and she
Speaker 1: kicked my sister out, not on the on the camera,
Speaker 1: they had to be she saw it. She kicked my
Speaker 1: sister out and then after that I was like, oh yeah,
Speaker 1: she was scared with that. So I didn't come out
Speaker 1: until later in life. So I came out when I
Speaker 1: started dating her. And it's funny because when I came out,
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm gay and I'm actually moving in
Speaker 1: with her, So it was all I wanted. I told her.
Speaker 1: I told them all I want and we're dating for
Speaker 1: like what six months? I think it was eight at
Speaker 1: the time. That's fast, right, Yeah, But that's the great
Speaker 1: part is I never moved that fast until I started
Speaker 1: dating her because she she looked like a Dyakmond bottle server.
Speaker 1: I got my Spanish girl. And you guys are doing
Speaker 1: family functions now, like but now my family is like
Speaker 1: totally cool with it. Y'all hold hands and kiss from
Speaker 1: the family. But remember funeral. My my mom was super chill.
Speaker 1: But like, for some reason at the funeral, my ex
Speaker 1: was showing me a lot of love, right, and I
Speaker 1: remember like she leaned over and do mean my mom
Speaker 1: looked at me like, you don't be gay, right, not here?
Speaker 1: You know my grandma. You know, I always say like
Speaker 1: a reason that it was. I think grieving her was
Speaker 1: easier because when she's old, we celebrate someone who's lived
Speaker 1: a long life. But who she really know? Who I was?
Speaker 1: I remember her watching us. Okay, are you doing? See
Speaker 1: you again? Just this is it before you guys came out.
Speaker 1: And this is just because I want to bring this
Speaker 1: all the way back to really our childhood. Did y'all
Speaker 1: ever play house with your homegirls or or teacher and
Speaker 1: student or anything that was really toxic now that we
Speaker 1: look back at it, but did you ever like dry
Speaker 1: hump your friends early on? I just know that that
Speaker 1: was an experience with me, like anytime I played the house,
Speaker 1: I was dry humping my homegirls early early, early on.
Speaker 1: Was that an experience that y'all had? Did that come
Speaker 1: later in life? It was? And I was always bad
Speaker 1: that she was always that not you, not you day
Speaker 1: I was. I was that's how you know, right like daddy.
Speaker 1: But but now I know that everybody's listening and probably
Speaker 1: like running to see what you look like. But um,
Speaker 1: I want you to tell people where to find you
Speaker 1: and also let them know what they expect in future
Speaker 1: episodes Good Girl. So our podcast it's called Last Chap Podcast. UM,
Speaker 1: it's everywhere on all platforms, and we talk about everything.
Speaker 1: We'll talk about everything gave related, so even when it
Speaker 1: comes to st d s and t D ask about
Speaker 1: literally everything. So, but what is that conversation, especially with
Speaker 1: her being bisexual? But when you guys first met we
Speaker 1: talked about how often lesbians don't go into thinking that
Speaker 1: there's STD because I don't know, for whatever reason, the
Speaker 1: homosexual conversations that we've had on this pod std UM
Speaker 1: testing and questions only arise during heterosexual relationships. It's never
Speaker 1: even a thought as much, especially with women on women interactions.
Speaker 1: What what are those conversations normally like, not only together
Speaker 1: but in your past. So it's funny because when we met, um,
Speaker 1: it was in twenty so right like after the pandemic,
Speaker 1: Like restaurants were still like open but not too many people,
Speaker 1: like limited seating clubs were closed. UM. So I was
Speaker 1: on my whole ship and I started dating this guy
Speaker 1: right girl with my luck. We had sex and the
Speaker 1: guy gave me HPV. Then I met her like two
Speaker 1: weeks later, and I was like so scared to tell her.
Speaker 1: I was like we were. We were already talking for
Speaker 1: like two weeks, and then she came over. She drove
Speaker 1: an hour and a half and I was like, I'm
Speaker 1: gonna make her drive. I don't know how she's wait
Speaker 1: that wait wait, because you couldn't do anything at the time.
Speaker 1: Were you on medication because the thing with HPV is
Speaker 1: that you can't It doesn't go away like it goes
Speaker 1: away like one to one two years um. But I
Speaker 1: didn't have any symptoms. You could either have warts or
Speaker 1: like no symptoms. So I was like, how the funk
Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell this girl that I just met that
Speaker 1: I have HPV. She's gonna be like, what the funk
Speaker 1: is that? And I was a saying to that head
Speaker 1: chap peet viv, I just like that at the end
Speaker 1: of everything. So we were laying in bed and I
Speaker 1: was like, oh my, I gotta tell her. So I was,
Speaker 1: I gonna tell you something, mind you hold on. It
Speaker 1: took us. We didn't have text for like three weeks
Speaker 1: because of being a gentleman. Come on, gentlemen, I don't
Speaker 1: want to be a boy. I actually like her, like
Speaker 1: I don't want pushing on limits. I'm gonna let her
Speaker 1: call the ship all right, cool three weeks and I
Speaker 1: was like I can't wait. Yeah, and she trying to
Speaker 1: make seem like it was me girl, No, yeah, it
Speaker 1: was you. Yeah. So I was not gonna tell you something.
Speaker 1: Um and then I told her. She was like super
Speaker 1: cool with it. I love that. I'm just like I
Speaker 1: enjoyed the HPV pussy too. I think I'm not gonna
Speaker 1: looking at me. No, no, no, But you know what
Speaker 1: it is that it's probably because we know. I think
Speaker 1: it's something like women have it. So it's a scary
Speaker 1: conversation to happen, but it's almost like having it just
Speaker 1: one hvs whatever, like her place, two is on your mount,
Speaker 1: one is in your in your plus. Okay, so I'll
Speaker 1: take one of the other. I'll take the one that
Speaker 1: I'll take the cold. But but no, I mean I
Speaker 1: think that women are also more understanding, right, Like I'm
Speaker 1: sure you didn't be like, oh you dirt. You know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying that, So we we have any when
Speaker 1: it comes to even a smell or b V, Like
Speaker 1: me and my homegirls talk about it all the time,
Speaker 1: like DV is a thing, like and my home girls
Speaker 1: will be like, bitch, what our bork acid. This is
Speaker 1: what you take like, we understand that our body is
Speaker 1: so much more complex than men that we have. We
Speaker 1: just have and in the one understanding of that, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean in terms. So let's shot podcast
Speaker 1: y'all are available everywhere, also YouTube, so they could see
Speaker 1: all episodes on Monday's bitch, don't try to compete with us. Well,
Speaker 1: y'all just took our weekend, so we might not even
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Speaker 1: updated see what happened last night, what happened the other day?
Speaker 1: And um, yeah, thanks for watching. That's right, thank you
Speaker 1: for tuning into Yeah, another episode of horrid blad Decision. Yeah,
Speaker 1: thank you so much. Let's check podcast and check them out.
Speaker 1: Um yeah, so who knows, maybe I'll meet a hot
Speaker 1: Spotify exactly. Now. That's honestly the only reason I kind
Speaker 1: of like go into events, because I'd just be like,
Speaker 1: who am I gonna meet? Because I realized, and I'm
Speaker 1: gonna say this before we get to vanish, because we
Speaker 1: know it's a good one. I'd be fucking with a
Speaker 1: lot of niggas that aren't necessarily well to do. And
Speaker 1: we had this conversation altogether after the link up, huh,
Speaker 1: we all want to eat And I was talking about
Speaker 1: how I feel i'd really be bro niggas and Bent
Speaker 1: was like, I think that's because you just like feel
Speaker 1: like you don't have time for niggas of money because
Speaker 1: they're so used to bitch is working hard for them, right,
Speaker 1: And he didn't. He didn't get Kevin Samuel's on me
Speaker 1: at all. He was like, but it's not like you
Speaker 1: don't want dudes to take care of ship for you.
Speaker 1: He's like, so, why do you think it's attractive on
Speaker 1: the other side, And I said, I think that I'm
Speaker 1: low key attracted to guys that aren't necessarily the castanova
Speaker 1: of the crew because they're not scared to show how
Speaker 1: much they like me. Like sometimes when like rich dudes
Speaker 1: are athletes, you know what I'm saying, Like, I'm not
Speaker 1: saying they don't you trying to haul at me, but
Speaker 1: like we I mean, we had this conversation literally just
Speaker 1: they don't. They really don't. But you said you wanted
Speaker 1: an industry because because you thought it would be easier
Speaker 1: for an industry dude than a regularly so now it's
Speaker 1: the opposite. No, no, no, no, no, I still do.
Speaker 1: But I'm saying He's like, why do you think you've
Speaker 1: been like having these run ins with like you know,
Speaker 1: think about hospital dick or the skater dude or whatever.
Speaker 1: He's like, why do you think this is happening? And
Speaker 1: I said, I don't think industry dudes for rich Nigga's
Speaker 1: necessarily be the ones that give me the same energy.
Speaker 1: Like I like guys that like me. You know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying, Like if I when when someone's giving me
Speaker 1: that energy, I'm like, yeah, I'm waiting, and sometimes they
Speaker 1: got rich. Nick has got too many options to where
Speaker 1: like Brianda said something to me that I really liked.
Speaker 1: She's been dating a lot, and she said, if I
Speaker 1: go on, if I have a date schedule to someone
Speaker 1: and they don't seem excited about the date or text
Speaker 1: me that day or screenshot the reservation, I cancel. She's like,
Speaker 1: I'm not really into someone that's gonna hit me up
Speaker 1: right before, like I want someone that's on it. And
Speaker 1: she was like, because that's the energy that I'm actually
Speaker 1: interested in investing in. And I was like, I feel
Speaker 1: that that's a little dramatic, but I know what she's
Speaker 1: saying with that, because we all want someone that feels
Speaker 1: excited to see us and feels like they're lucky to
Speaker 1: be taking us out somewhere. But I got it. I do,
Speaker 1: especially if I say yes to going out with you.
Speaker 1: It's it's strange, maybe be just because I have, Like
Speaker 1: I actually really hate my phone, so I like when
Speaker 1: it's literally just a hey, where you at I'm gonna
Speaker 1: pull up on you? Or Hey, what you're doing? Do
Speaker 1: you want to pull up on me? I realized that
Speaker 1: I hate texting. I don't want to get a text
Speaker 1: me on it because I don't respond. No, I like,
Speaker 1: I like planned, and you I'm surprised you don't. You
Speaker 1: don't like planned because you're a plan I mean, I
Speaker 1: know I like a plan date. But like, like I've
Speaker 1: literally been like and I've realized it's more like that.
Speaker 1: When I see I have free time, I'd be like, well,
Speaker 1: let's do lunch, like I've done that with like Jesus,
Speaker 1: Like should I just finished recording and I'm stressed, and
Speaker 1: he'll be like, we'll pull up. I'm at Dumbo House,
Speaker 1: We'll eat here. That's that's that's our first date. You're
Speaker 1: talking about something different, But no, I'm just saying I
Speaker 1: don't need the texting. I don't need the Hey, it's
Speaker 1: so excited to see you a reservation, like I know
Speaker 1: what's happening. I'm I realized how much of a non
Speaker 1: responder I am in text messages now because I really
Speaker 1: just hate my phone. I mean, if I'm dating some
Speaker 1: you're dating black jeesus already, so you guys can find
Speaker 1: talking to see each other. You don't like when men
Speaker 1: send you reservations? Seriously, No, No, I didn't say that.
Speaker 1: I'm talking about the texting screenshoting me and like the texting,
Speaker 1: I realized I am not into whatsoever, like all FaceTime
Speaker 1: you or we can link up to talk. I realized
Speaker 1: how minimal I am. Yeah, I don't need it. I
Speaker 1: don't need a lot of threat. I'm talking about someone
Speaker 1: showing that they're like, I don't know. I I agree
Speaker 1: if i'm if I have a date with someone Friday.
Speaker 1: Actually I did have a date last week. I went
Speaker 1: to the Short Stories Hotel or two weeks ago. The
Speaker 1: dude our date was at five around twelve. He's like, hey, Gila,
Speaker 1: looking forward. Um, I'll be there five where You Star?
Speaker 1: Are We Still Good? And I was like, oh, well,
Speaker 1: I like this, Okay, Like I I do appreciate that,
Speaker 1: not on some like corporate worky ship, but I do
Speaker 1: think sometimes it's nice to feel like you know, you're
Speaker 1: you remembered me or I'm I'm not an afterthought. I
Speaker 1: am um Okay. I want to talk about something real
Speaker 1: quick that I didn't put in the outline, but I
Speaker 1: just found this on the Shade Room and I could
Speaker 1: not believe this bitch. Did you see the Erica Banks
Speaker 1: clip of her saying what she wants people to look
Speaker 1: like that go out with her? Now? Erica Bank is
Speaker 1: the girl that's a rapper that you know what I'm
Speaker 1: saying for everybody else, is you look