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Speaker 1: we want. So our topic for today is cognizance versus delusion,
Speaker 1: and cognizance is the act of being cognizant. And in
Speaker 1: the textbook definition, cognizance is knowledge awareness or formal notice.
Speaker 1: And in the urban German definition, cognizance is of the
Speaker 1: fact that it was getting late. This the urban that
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna read the urban definition because that shouldn't
Speaker 1: make no sense. So in the textbook definition of delusion
Speaker 1: is an idiosyncred idiosyncratic belief or impression that is firmly
Speaker 1: maintained despite being contradicted by what is generally accepted as
Speaker 1: a reality or rational argument, typically a symptom of mental disorder.
Speaker 1: The urban definition of delusion is a false belief which
Speaker 1: cannot be explained by cultural norms, and the patient often
Speaker 1: holds strongly. Do that makes sense either, So I'm gonna
Speaker 1: go straight into my example. So at the BT Awards
Speaker 1: that happened recently or whatever, um, there was a lot
Speaker 1: of talk all over social media and all over the
Speaker 1: internet about Diddy's acceptance speech, and people were saying, like, Okay, Karesha,
Speaker 1: you know him and Kareasia have a thing going on.
Speaker 1: Karresia held up a sign that said go poppy. But
Speaker 1: in his in his acceptance speech, he didn't formally acknowledge her,
Speaker 1: but he did acknowledge his ex girlfriend Cassie, and he
Speaker 1: did acknowledge Kemporter, which is the mother of his children
Speaker 1: and another um former love of his life technically, and
Speaker 1: they were making a big deal on the internet about
Speaker 1: you know, she was stupid because she was doing all that.
Speaker 1: She held up a sign, He didn't even even acknowledge her,
Speaker 1: whatever whatever. But in my personal opinion, I feel like
Speaker 1: she's cognizant of their relationship and where they stand as
Speaker 1: far as with each other in the total scheme of things.
Speaker 1: So her holding up a sign is just her supporting
Speaker 1: her friend or her nigger or you know whatever he
Speaker 1: is to her at that time. She doesn't really care
Speaker 1: about other people's opinions. And as far as him not
Speaker 1: acknowledging her technically in the speech, I feel like this
Speaker 1: is a lifetime achievement award about some ship that has
Speaker 1: been going on for twenty or thirty years, and he
Speaker 1: acknowledged the people that helped him throughout that twenty or
Speaker 1: thirty year period. Their situation is fresh and new, so
Speaker 1: I don't think it was a big deal that he
Speaker 1: didn't like give her the same shout out that he
Speaker 1: would give a Kim or a Cassie, because they have
Speaker 1: a way longer history in a way bigger situation than
Speaker 1: him and her have, and I feel like they have
Speaker 1: an understanding with each other, so it's not necessarily about
Speaker 1: the public ship. You know what I'm saying. Whatever they
Speaker 1: do on their own time is what they do on
Speaker 1: their own time. They enjoy it, they like it. We
Speaker 1: should love it and mind our business. I don't know
Speaker 1: what y'all think. He gave her a whole show, right,
Speaker 1: a whole podcast, Give her a whole show. Yeah, he's
Speaker 1: given her a lot of ship, and she's also giving
Speaker 1: him a lot of ship, like maybe not material ship,
Speaker 1: but as far as like rejuvenating and you know, bringing
Speaker 1: a spark back to him or whatever. Like you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, And this a lot of ship that
Speaker 1: we probably don't even know about. But it's not our
Speaker 1: business to know that kind of chick. So it shouldn't
Speaker 1: be a big deal to everybody about what's going on
Speaker 1: in somebody else's personal life. Definitely have been in man,
Speaker 1: everything I'm still don't have to be explained exactly. Shouldn't
Speaker 1: know what's going on, got going on they've been She
Speaker 1: should have hold up five signs you huh. Yeah, if
Speaker 1: that's what she wanted to do, supporting her nigga, Like
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Like who like who doesn't
Speaker 1: do that? Her friend like her nigga whatever, that that's
Speaker 1: her nigga, man, Like in an interviews, that's what's the
Speaker 1: word again, what's the name of the word. Cognizance versus delusion.
Speaker 1: She's not delusional about where they stand. She knows what's
Speaker 1: going on and what's up with them, and she's moving
Speaker 1: accordingly how she wants to move, as she should. But
Speaker 1: she ain't. She ain't the little she knows, yeah, like
Speaker 1: and she don't care. And that's the most beautiful part
Speaker 1: about it, Like the delusion a bit to be that feeling,
Speaker 1: like like you can be in your feeling. Yeah, they
Speaker 1: hold up the sign and then see the internet, and
Speaker 1: then the next morning they got an attitude like I
Speaker 1: don't give a funk. I feel that people are mad
Speaker 1: because she don't care. Like they want her to care
Speaker 1: and they want her to feel some type of way,
Speaker 1: but she don't care. I don't understand she getting accepted.
Speaker 1: She supposed to be here. She here, so how can't
Speaker 1: she care about? And then with everybody else saying they
Speaker 1: ain't right exactly? And if she won an award, but
Speaker 1: she's supposed to go up there and thank him like
Speaker 1: what people feel the same way if she thinks everybody
Speaker 1: but did he like nobody would care? Think. People just
Speaker 1: want to live your life for you. That's what I
Speaker 1: was about, what you should do that that needs to
Speaker 1: be what we talked about, like other people. People be
Speaker 1: better at living other people's lives than live in there.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you one thing you can't do, though,
Speaker 1: and sometimes you're hard to try to make you do
Speaker 1: that leave somebody else life that you live, like, you'll
Speaker 1: try your best to leave some that you know, ain't you?
Speaker 1: How are you gonna do that? Kail? You fail every time?
Speaker 1: Every time. You're gonna fail every time. It's like me
Speaker 1: trying to go be a truck driver. I never drove
Speaker 1: trucks because my daddy drove trucks. Yeah, that ain't gonna
Speaker 1: do that for me? Right, but bring you down exactly.
Speaker 1: You gotta live in a purpose. Man, You can't live,
Speaker 1: can't spit nobody living how you want to live? Well?
Speaker 1: What what sparse that though in the person? Like? What
Speaker 1: is it that makes them want to live somebody else's life? Like?
Speaker 1: What kind of character trait? Like what's the jealousy? Insecurity?
Speaker 1: Not definitely jealous insecurity? Jealousy and insecurity makes you want
Speaker 1: to live someone else's life because you don't feel like
Speaker 1: you can live yours. Now, Yeah, I guess I get
Speaker 1: what you're saying, but that ain't with all the time
Speaker 1: I was saying, like you're trying to up to somebody
Speaker 1: else's standard. Yeah, how you feel about a person like
Speaker 1: in a relationship, I know I may not be a
Speaker 1: thing that come home every night and do all that
Speaker 1: ship you live with somebody else standards, trying to live
Speaker 1: how they the idea of your life. You can never
Speaker 1: do that. You should not do it and trying to
Speaker 1: carry out their vis try, but you can never do. Yeah,
Speaker 1: you fail unless unless not full life, unless certain parts
Speaker 1: of that life, if the main parts don't fit it
Speaker 1: don't fit right, you must You can't if they if
Speaker 1: they are trying to inspire you to do something, If
Speaker 1: they're trying to inspire me to do something, it's different.
Speaker 1: Then if you're trying to inspire me to do something
Speaker 1: that you know I'm capable of. Right, you can't think
Speaker 1: for me. You can't think of something for me because
Speaker 1: you care about me this much. You think of something
Speaker 1: that you want to inspire someone to go on the
Speaker 1: fitness journey, but don't force them to be like you
Speaker 1: gotta if you're gonna. If you love somebody and you're
Speaker 1: trying to do it right, Yeah, if you love somebody
Speaker 1: and you're trying to inspire them, you have to inspire
Speaker 1: them to be the best version of themselves. You can't
Speaker 1: inspire them and try to lean them in the direction
Speaker 1: of what you feel like they should be. Like black
Speaker 1: with saying like because it's never gonna work, and both
Speaker 1: of you all are gonna be miserable because you're gonna
Speaker 1: feel like they're not listening to you and they're not
Speaker 1: heating to your advice. And the other person is gonna
Speaker 1: feel like you don't truly understand them because you're trying
Speaker 1: to make them something that they're not. So be yourself
Speaker 1: is the moral. Be yourself? But what funk with people
Speaker 1: that try to push you to be the best version
Speaker 1: of yourself? Do you like, don't be around the motherfucker
Speaker 1: already knowing I don't ready funk with you, right? Get
Speaker 1: what's because if I already funk you didn't don't trying
Speaker 1: to change it. I mean, if I'm trying to change
Speaker 1: the meaning the fun with you? Know what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: Like I keep on tell you, not like I ain't
Speaker 1: attracted to you or I don't love you. I don't.
Speaker 1: But the type of you gotta ask yourself if this
Speaker 1: wasn't my brother, sister, husband, wife, daughter, son, mother, father,
Speaker 1: but I fought with him as a friend when I
Speaker 1: choose them to be my friends. To look at it,
Speaker 1: but like, what's the difference between trying to inspire someone
Speaker 1: to be better and trying to change them, Like aren't
Speaker 1: they kind of the same thing that change? I think
Speaker 1: if you come with some if you come to me
Speaker 1: and say I can do this, and I see that
Speaker 1: you can do it, Okay, I'm gonna hip you like
Speaker 1: continue because I'm a friend. Like you're slipping on what
Speaker 1: you're saying you want to do. I can't inspire you
Speaker 1: to be a rapper when you're a nurse. I think
Speaker 1: the change thing comes in to the the example that
Speaker 1: Black always uses about the nigger smoking cigarettes and how
Speaker 1: like if you funk with a nigga and you know
Speaker 1: that he smoked cigarettes and you know that you hate cigarettes,
Speaker 1: but you're trying to funk with this nigga because you
Speaker 1: think that you're gonna be able to make him stop
Speaker 1: smoking cigarettes because you do like certain parts. That's what
Speaker 1: people do. Like people are fun with you just cause okay, screen,
Speaker 1: because I do like the way he hounded the business
Speaker 1: when it comes down to our business. You get what
Speaker 1: I'm saying. He prompt but I don't like this. You
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. Okay, No, I can't. I gotta
Speaker 1: either weed that out and set him for my man.
Speaker 1: You get what's in regards to what however, whatever it's
Speaker 1: flaws them, it's flaws right. Unless I see it's detrimental
Speaker 1: to him just because it's an opinion of mine, then
Speaker 1: I ain't got nothing to say about it, right because
Speaker 1: it's opinion. But if it's if it's, if it's affecting us,
Speaker 1: then I gotta say something about dream. I can't. I
Speaker 1: ain't with that part of the game, right, you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. So what about what about somebody saying?
Speaker 1: What if somebody say what if it is a detriment
Speaker 1: for somebody has chosen a detriment, Like, Bro, you really
Speaker 1: should be drinking that much liquor that ship gonna do this.
Speaker 1: That ain't a detriment to that's you. That's your choice.
Speaker 1: You can't be a detriment to the people around you.
Speaker 1: They always funked up or drunk or this, and that's
Speaker 1: what your drunk is. I'm not I'm I got friends
Speaker 1: like that, but I don't go. I don't do certain
Speaker 1: things with those guys, got you, because I know that
Speaker 1: with them put me in a predicament where I'm gonna
Speaker 1: sunk myself up. So I just eliminate my involvement in
Speaker 1: those activities completely see each other, still love we still
Speaker 1: on the phone. I love you. You want to come
Speaker 1: to the spot and get drunk, and get drunk at
Speaker 1: the spot, but going in public and we gotta fight
Speaker 1: and shooting all that ship you al we got every
Speaker 1: time somebody did something you ain't eat. Yeah, you picking
Speaker 1: on your drunk what you drunk too? I ain't drunk, twin.
Speaker 1: So you say you're just gonna let them be on
Speaker 1: their drunk ship. Body, you gotta be on that drun
Speaker 1: told nigger, you already told him. So it's clear, Okay,
Speaker 1: he or she has chosen to be on that drunk ship.
Speaker 1: It ain't nothing bad for you. You don't get on
Speaker 1: the boot. I mean getting some bullshit. That's a big
Speaker 1: that's a big fact and a big part of it.
Speaker 1: Let people be themselves, and you gotta be able to
Speaker 1: remove yourself accordingly, remove yourself. And you gotta be able
Speaker 1: if you if you in it. You gotta be able
Speaker 1: to accept a person for who they is, not just
Speaker 1: saying you accept it like actually, and then once you
Speaker 1: accept who they are, can I deal with this person?
Speaker 1: What if it starts to the way that they want
Speaker 1: me to deal with them? If it starts to affect you.
Speaker 1: You tell you you got to evaluate the whole thing
Speaker 1: though evaluation. Okay, I see that this is who you is, right, Yeah,
Speaker 1: I can't change that. I've tried. I can't change it. Okay, Now,
Speaker 1: let me evaluate who you are, the person that you is.
Speaker 1: Do I funk with that person? I funt with parts?
Speaker 1: If the answer is no, you gotta clip it. Even
Speaker 1: if the answer is I fought with parts, but I
Speaker 1: don't fought with this part. Okay, alright, this part do.
Speaker 1: Now let's put it on the scale. Let's see which
Speaker 1: way this ship like? Do you align with my destiny?
Speaker 1: So if you don't allow my destiny, I can't be
Speaker 1: your friend or your whatever, companion, brother, daughter, father, whatever.
Speaker 1: I can't be none of that ship if it don't
Speaker 1: align the way you want me to be. Not saying
Speaker 1: I'm gonna say fuck you, you're a piece of ship
Speaker 1: or who funk? You don't want to know? I can't.
Speaker 1: I have to do what I need to do for
Speaker 1: me in any other day. So with that being said,
Speaker 1: and this is that everybody in here, are you willing
Speaker 1: to change certain things for a person that you love? Yes,
Speaker 1: but that that person has to also recognize that they
Speaker 1: have to change things too. For I can't stay this
Speaker 1: nigger that I really ain't and you're staying the person
Speaker 1: that you really is. That ain't gonna work like that
Speaker 1: compromise Yeah, like like because okay, no, we are in
Speaker 1: the prize, you're not the prize. No person, I don't
Speaker 1: give jay Z with my friend. If you're saying, fuck
Speaker 1: me jay Z. Compatibility compatibility and relationship and friendship. But
Speaker 1: I think everybody compatible to everybody. Once you starting with
Speaker 1: let's see certain ship, you're gonna find something that you
Speaker 1: like person. You'd be so stuck on that that you
Speaker 1: try to overlook the ship that you don't really like.
Speaker 1: And if this was the person that you wanted love
Speaker 1: or didn't love what you fought with that person, would
Speaker 1: you see them at some bullshit? That's what you gotta
Speaker 1: look at. Like what I'll be saying this some bullshit.
Speaker 1: If I didn't love this person so much, or if
Speaker 1: you didn't love what they were doing for you, especially
Speaker 1: with your what they were doing for you, you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. It is what it is, man. You
Speaker 1: just gotta what's the name is? What's the bird is?
Speaker 1: Cognizance you gotta be about truth and everybody has a
Speaker 1: choice and anything you do, you know you're gonna you're
Speaker 1: gonna how long are you're gonna try to fix the
Speaker 1: motherfucking before you realize, Like day a lot of ship
Speaker 1: we need to be saying, bro, that ship. Do you
Speaker 1: hear me saying anything like I just said, for what
Speaker 1: it is, because this is my man, whatever it is
Speaker 1: in the same way like they ain't called you with
Speaker 1: that ship you basically like you know you want some
Speaker 1: bush because already I told you did some bullshit. But
Speaker 1: I said that because I know you ain't. It ain't
Speaker 1: towards me or it ain't you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: It's just how you is. But it don't affect me
Speaker 1: or us. I just don't affect you. But it don't
Speaker 1: affect you because ain't you know what I'm saying. So
Speaker 1: I got to look at it for what it is,
Speaker 1: like that that man business. I think I do think
Speaker 1: that though personality traits and habits kid shift that a
Speaker 1: little bit like it was a personality trait. That's one thing. Yeah,
Speaker 1: But like no nigga got now cosso but they got
Speaker 1: to the gym with the dad. I would about the
Speaker 1: niggas uh trail boot bad that they came one time.
Speaker 1: That's a couple of times. Don't get drunk like I
Speaker 1: don't know about cool you let me say anything else
Speaker 1: about you know, brown console straight. But another niggas taken
Speaker 1: see could I do it though? Yeah? But another thigga
Speaker 1: take that ship in? Yeah? Yeah, you see you do
Speaker 1: trying to do I can't. That don't fit my life. Bank,
Speaker 1: you poke my phone going you ain't doing You're doing
Speaker 1: big facts and Jack Jack's you know you feel what
Speaker 1: I'm saying. It makes all the sense in the world.
Speaker 1: I don't know what what this cognitie you gotta have
Speaker 1: because you can. You can turn yourself into somebody you
Speaker 1: really not. Yeah, but do you But okay, so let
Speaker 1: me ask all this. You can try to do that
Speaker 1: and turn yourself, but it is the person that you're
Speaker 1: being is the person that you're being the best version
Speaker 1: of yourself. Deep down. He might feel like I really
Speaker 1: should be with Bank on this ship but on bullshit,
Speaker 1: But you're gonna click in click you really donna be like,
Speaker 1: I'll be bullshit And the time time you don't never
Speaker 1: click right, They click right. A couple of times through times. Yeah,
Speaker 1: but a lot of time you don't click. Right, Cob
Speaker 1: went to sleep or something three four in the morning,
Speaker 1: he gonna call me come. Yeah, but I don't take that. No,
Speaker 1: that you can. But the other parts, you know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying, Like if I just felt like so you
Speaker 1: know so much ship, Like I keep telling you certain ship,
Speaker 1: we don't fit. Yeah, you're don'na be nothing. You don't
Speaker 1: be on nothing. I't beyond then. Yeah, okay, so let
Speaker 1: me ask how this in. Do you think that in
Speaker 1: order to be cognizant you have to have foresight into
Speaker 1: certain situations, into every situation. Yeah, every situation. Man, you
Speaker 1: gotta down there. Yeah, I trust you, good bro, everyway.
Speaker 1: If it's just some won't get right, it ain't right.
Speaker 1: I always go by my first force. We need to
Speaker 1: look there was forced. You can't force nothing. I don't forceate,
Speaker 1: go with my first mind whatever. My first mind saways
Speaker 1: be the inside everything. If I do anything other than that,
Speaker 1: that ship don't be right. Want to force nothing. We
Speaker 1: can force out no motherfucking episode. Okay, this is okay.
Speaker 1: This is the textbook definition of force um an influence
Speaker 1: tending to change the motion of a body or produce
Speaker 1: motion or stress in a stationary body, which is the
Speaker 1: magnitude of such an influence that is often calculated by
Speaker 1: multiplying the massive body. Whatever. Whatever, No, no, no coergent
Speaker 1: or compulsion, especially with the use of threat, use or
Speaker 1: threat of violence. Manipulation at its best force. That's a
Speaker 1: textbook would be doing when you forcing somebody to do something, Yeah,
Speaker 1: they don't really want to do it. Yes, pushing what
Speaker 1: it is pushing? Pushing somebody to do something? I don't know,
Speaker 1: I just you know. Delusion, that's when you become to
Speaker 1: your heart would make you delusional, for sure, your heart
Speaker 1: and your emotions can make you delusional. But like, what's
Speaker 1: the difference between like forcing somebody and helping somebody, Because
Speaker 1: you can like help somebody, like you can't save a
Speaker 1: niggative don't want to be saved. That's true. Yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: if you put for effort, then I'm hipping you. But
Speaker 1: if you do but if I'm putting for more effort
Speaker 1: than you are, and then I'm for un forcenate you
Speaker 1: I see something that you don't see. Yeah, forcenate is
Speaker 1: like ultimatum, Like if you don't do this, it ain't
Speaker 1: some trying to be like that, all right, and in
Speaker 1: the beginning of anything, like with somebody, you will force them.
Speaker 1: I might see see this in the person with down.
Speaker 1: See so I pushed them towards it. If they don't
Speaker 1: want to do that, then I just fall back. So
Speaker 1: I'm limit. Before you fall back, you pat run. Then
Speaker 1: you can't keep just keep doing the sathing. You can't
Speaker 1: keep saying the same thing, repeating, repeated. That makes you
Speaker 1: just depends on your patient. Like when your patient run out,
Speaker 1: you ran. Don't try to do something after you know
Speaker 1: your patient aroan, Now that's when you're gonna snap. Yeah,
Speaker 1: you're trying to do some ship when you knowing you
Speaker 1: Like I'm over this ship. Yeah that once you over you,
Speaker 1: you can't even go back. Yeah, you can't force them,
Speaker 1: you can't ship that don't happen like that, don't matter
Speaker 1: what mm hmm, don't force it, be yourself. Let people
Speaker 1: be themselves and then hopefully they'll become the best of
Speaker 1: got always minds. Why do you think so many people again,
Speaker 1: I'll be trying to find the rout of ship? Why
Speaker 1: so many people involving other people's business because they don't
Speaker 1: got no being going on. We're not got big, but
Speaker 1: there's some people with ship going on. Yeah, yeah, that's
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. We see and try to it's a
Speaker 1: lot of selecty about it and here and about it
Speaker 1: being that the way of the fucking world. Now, why
Speaker 1: social media make it too easy? Let's say everybody everybody's
Speaker 1: business that is on a platform and that puts the
Speaker 1: business out there. Some folks bring up they ain't got
Speaker 1: to do what I'm just saying. Like the blogs, the
Speaker 1: new the podcast they're telling everything everything, Everybody telling everything.
Speaker 1: So it's a conversation. Being in the nigga business is
Speaker 1: a conversation, but trying to run a nigga business something different.
Speaker 1: Or getting your feeling about another nigga business is something different.
Speaker 1: Everybody acquiring about everybody. Man, we wouldn't have known the
Speaker 1: business if you didn't put it out there. That's another thing.
Speaker 1: Let out there. We know what we in, right, what's
Speaker 1: going on? In fact, that's the space I've been exercising
Speaker 1: this year. You know, you got the people that call
Speaker 1: you allays, gonna tell you some ship. I don't want
Speaker 1: to know, but hold let me. I don't even want
Speaker 1: to know, bro, all right, But nigga told me I
Speaker 1: tried every goddamn died everything they needed to do. That's
Speaker 1: you start making me game more week, back to back,
Speaker 1: my regular ship. What I do, You can't you can't
Speaker 1: miss you know, no nigga back unless it makes sense
Speaker 1: what you Yeah, you can't wait that. I ain't gonna
Speaker 1: never push it away like a gonna add on already
Speaker 1: got going on, you know what I mean. Just make
Speaker 1: you a stronger add on to your ship. It's such
Speaker 1: a peaceful, spacious mind of your own business. Though it
Speaker 1: just is for me. But some people came. Some people
Speaker 1: gotta have tame it. Bro. Something entertained that we made
Speaker 1: it to be them. So everybody's life is entertained. But
Speaker 1: I'm just saying, at the end of the day, somebody
Speaker 1: gonna like you just called me the morning entertaining. It
Speaker 1: was but media personalities. I'm letting you know, just in
Speaker 1: case you have to speak on the topic. We gotta
Speaker 1: be nigga that the game. Yeah, but I'm talking about like,
Speaker 1: so it's our Next time you're saying, like, think about
Speaker 1: those it didn't like, Oh, they shouldn't have. They should have.
Speaker 1: They should They never got together because I knew they
Speaker 1: weren't gonna somebody's business and then insert your opinion. That's
Speaker 1: when it turns into something else. But ninety nine point
Speaker 1: nine is offering their opinion. That's all I'm saying. I'm
Speaker 1: in that percentage. I want to hold it. Bro, I'm
Speaker 1: not gonna be somewhere in your being as if it's
Speaker 1: some beings that pertained to you. Something can happen to you,
Speaker 1: like can hurt you. You can go to but if
Speaker 1: you if I know you and your girl just got
Speaker 1: a di vorce, but like damn, they got a voice
Speaker 1: that's funked up, or it's problem, the problem, it's just
Speaker 1: what it is. Everybody. I feel like if you put
Speaker 1: your business out there, people gonna have an opinion. Like
Speaker 1: that's how it is. We all had opinions on Lloyd Harvey.
Speaker 1: Huh what I mean? People had their opinions. They had
Speaker 1: their opinions about it was her, it's her fault, She's
Speaker 1: running through different days. These are opinions. We don't know
Speaker 1: for show. He could have just said fuckers. She could
Speaker 1: have just said we don't know for sure. But a
Speaker 1: lot of people just start offering their opinions. Oh I
Speaker 1: knew it wasn't gonna work because like people be creating
Speaker 1: the fate of a relationship before they even see it
Speaker 1: through anything. But yeah, now they're speaking on that ship
Speaker 1: on their face and doing all that ship Like, woudn't
Speaker 1: come on this ship? No, no, myself looking at some
Speaker 1: ship or send a niggle somebody DM me might call,
Speaker 1: you might talk about it, but that's that's gonna go. Yeah,
Speaker 1: like I'm not offering my opinion to you or to
Speaker 1: the world. It's ship. I don't know, we said what
Speaker 1: we said. I don't care about it. No, yeah, you know,
Speaker 1: I don't know. Gossip and ship it's not it's not
Speaker 1: gonna cover your whole day. There are people that would
Speaker 1: take somebody else life wapping with Kim and Kanye and
Speaker 1: the whole day. That's all they can talk about and
Speaker 1: they ain't got no business day. Yeah, that's what we
Speaker 1: all gonna have opinions on everything they go on. They're
Speaker 1: just part of our exactly. It's just like we programmed
Speaker 1: to do they If not, you're gonna have to be
Speaker 1: done there like a monk or some ship. Yeah, I see,
Speaker 1: my boy, my b Kany just inspired me. Man saying
Speaker 1: the next thing up this ship with the whole leather
Speaker 1: jacket and don't want to see a skin, no skin.
Speaker 1: This ain't me to tell a problem. I'm going to
Speaker 1: say what I want to say, y'all, which didn't do
Speaker 1: that anyway. This ain't me. Yeah, or it might be.
Speaker 1: You never know what I'm saying, but that's how you
Speaker 1: stand up like myself right now? Yeah, ain the one
Speaker 1: man I feel. Yeah, that's that Gemini ship. Yeah, I'll
Speaker 1: be there if I sweated out breathe y'all. I don't
Speaker 1: see what I see though he couldn't see ship, saying
Speaker 1: I don't black out here, man, Yeah, here you bank
Speaker 1: what you're saying about my back. Ain't saying I fun
Speaker 1: with you. I'm saying that, ain't nobody in this room
Speaker 1: for the do what he did or where what he wore,
Speaker 1: because that's his business and that's you ain't but that's
Speaker 1: what makes him. Absolutely we were about to do something
Speaker 1: to do I respect that. Ain't nobody fron to do it.
Speaker 1: We are individual and that's a unicorn, right yeah. Yeah,
Speaker 1: Why didn't he gotta be looking at It's weird when
Speaker 1: they when they be on that time, everybody on the
Speaker 1: stage was a unicorn. Understanding. Baby Face ain't really know
Speaker 1: for his time, he legend his time what he did
Speaker 1: different the baby Face ship, I'm saying that's that's that's accolades,
Speaker 1: a lifetime achievement. Once in a lifetime. Nigga. Who else
Speaker 1: was a baby face? Who did face did? He? Ain't
Speaker 1: no baby face? What's due name from Motown on Barry Gordon.
Speaker 1: Oh that's the same blue foot bro all this same
Speaker 1: blue ain't no nigga kan yet. Never seem a nigga
Speaker 1: like that. Can't debate with that at this particular time.
Speaker 1: I prepared to debate. Do what you do? Then let's like,
Speaker 1: no nigga, it's like this nigga did he did? He
Speaker 1: went up there in saluted Bobby Brown for inspiring him,
Speaker 1: but he was for hell of a nigga. That nigga,
Speaker 1: you know, did ship that niggas probably not never do.
Speaker 1: But we have seen a mobile before. Yeah, we've seen
Speaker 1: a mobil in the time. We've seen that. We've seen
Speaker 1: a nigga makeup billions and billions of dollar we've seen that.
Speaker 1: We seen no niggas that do on stage doing this ship.
Speaker 1: This nigo doing man and standing on it. It's somebody
Speaker 1: I can't think somebody. It's definitely somebody that's done things
Speaker 1: like that, not him. They ain't done. Like, there's only
Speaker 1: one there's only one Kanye, Bro. I could go for that.
Speaker 1: There's only one Michael Jackson. And you've never seen hi
Speaker 1: nigga went from black to white and you love me
Speaker 1: the same white. Let's be one. You're the corn niggas man.
Speaker 1: Man just turned to a whole another nigga right in
Speaker 1: front of our face, pressing piece Michael rest in piece Michael.
Speaker 1: But name another nigga like Michael Jacks, Prince Prince one
Speaker 1: like Mike Prince state the same color, Bro, and then
Speaker 1: at the end of the day, Prince was still a nigger.
Speaker 1: Yeah it was too I mean he probably did. But
Speaker 1: some statue beat you with you, bro, So you think
Speaker 1: that that? Yeah, So you think that's what when they
Speaker 1: say star or superstar, like when you take names like
Speaker 1: I've never seen another Mike Tyson, not just about his
Speaker 1: fight and ships the way he ain't no other box
Speaker 1: have been a nigga like Mike type or ain't another
Speaker 1: nigga another nigga like Home? Yeah, okay, so we were
Speaker 1: not going I mean, so there's no comparison between him
Speaker 1: and Mohammad alle boxing wise, being outspoken, was an activist
Speaker 1: on he was an activist, was na from the streets
Speaker 1: that happened to make it boxing that we'll still crash
Speaker 1: out all of it, almost did a couple of months ago. Yeah,
Speaker 1: now boxing, what it's like Jordan's and Kobe basketball wise
Speaker 1: are similar niggas. There is no nigga that acts like
Speaker 1: Michael Jordan's. The kids ain't signing them autographs like unique,
Speaker 1: one of a kind. But you got niggas that act
Speaker 1: like that too, though, that just just arrogant rappers just
Speaker 1: act like that, Like I don't sund autograms, I don't
Speaker 1: fun that I made it him. I don't like my
Speaker 1: talent got me here. Stop. You got niggas like that.
Speaker 1: You ain't got no nigga. They're selling clothes that don't
Speaker 1: even look like you're supposed to. Well for that's happening
Speaker 1: and doing anything. He really is just trash ship Is
Speaker 1: he is it? And it works? Is it? Is he?
Speaker 1: I feel like he there's a Betho to his madness home.
Speaker 1: He went to the war show fully dressed for winter
Speaker 1: in the middle of summer, like, but there's a reason
Speaker 1: for that, Just like them shoes he wore when he performed,
Speaker 1: you know, the biggest space shoes like and then the
Speaker 1: next day everybody wanted them. But even if I'm selling
Speaker 1: that ship is not this me and nobody else is
Speaker 1: liking Nobody even understands people really because coolticize it really everything.
Speaker 1: How am I weird because I'm not afraid to be
Speaker 1: nothing like nobody else being afraid. We're supposed to got them.
Speaker 1: We sped, try to got them get inside the folk man, Like,
Speaker 1: what is you thinking? Because the world need to think
Speaker 1: like this. We just said no, we're just saying be yourself. No,
Speaker 1: I'm just saying you need to get that fun because
Speaker 1: like everybody, we don't need everybody to have that button
Speaker 1: because ain't nobody trying to be like nobody? Then it
Speaker 1: won't be No what I don't want to be. You
Speaker 1: want to feel? That's a great point our bad they leave? Yea,
Speaker 1: it is what it is. We need to get them
Speaker 1: be that shouldn't need to be starting installed in niggas
Speaker 1: that birth man, It is what it is. Yeah, that
Speaker 1: ain't gonna happen though, Ain't no nigga like you, bro? Yeah,
Speaker 1: scared to do ship. Everybody scared to do there, going
Speaker 1: there and tell it, say the truth, Like what's going on?
Speaker 1: Isn't like this is the truth? I don't care. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's down like a superhero. Bro. Ain't no nigga telling
Speaker 1: you the truth. I can't debate with that. Jim and
Speaker 1: I are very outspoken. Everybody's said, nigga real to nigga,
Speaker 1: Actually tell them some real shit about them. Then you
Speaker 1: can clear faith. You know what I'm saying, You really
Speaker 1: need on earth till you got them stand on some
Speaker 1: real ship that you disagree with. Yeah, everything I ever
Speaker 1: said was real. It's fun. Everything I've ever done was
Speaker 1: really as fun until me and you had a difference
Speaker 1: of opinion. Now we're gonna go back and erase all
Speaker 1: that chop Boy erased that. You know what next you
Speaker 1: race it cleaning off. They're gonna say, oh, yeah, that's
Speaker 1: crazy now that nigga. Hell of with a nigga man
Speaker 1: ending in space like he don't even He probably cares,
Speaker 1: But I can't kill because I'm me. I can't even
Speaker 1: give a funk at this point. They are al must
Speaker 1: suposed on my mind, so I can't kill. I don't
Speaker 1: think he knows exactly what you're talking about exactly adding
Speaker 1: up to everything that y'all said, y'all want to be,
Speaker 1: y'll gonna be. I can't hear that will be big
Speaker 1: in that that whatever it is in like the what's
Speaker 1: his name? This is the b that you're reaching for.
Speaker 1: He's that he's becoming for sure, peace wrap model, fashion,
Speaker 1: rap fashion. I don't think he hadn't done his play basketball,
Speaker 1: sports if you want to do it. But he has
Speaker 1: a sports academy. So I guess that I'm being like man,
Speaker 1: so I'm putting us through this ship do whatever they
Speaker 1: need to do. It's like ship. The niggas will trying
Speaker 1: to write the write them, counting niggas. Why do you
Speaker 1: think niggas like that get wrote off? Ain't nobody shouting
Speaker 1: right off? Crazy to try to do? When he then
Speaker 1: up come tell yeah, they ain't trying to write them
Speaker 1: though they tried to say crazy. He don't lost his mind.
Speaker 1: He said he had lost his mind, he admitted at
Speaker 1: one point, and you know he lost his mind and
Speaker 1: good good man. So everybody was flying out the keep
Speaker 1: taking manage though he said he would take a madge.
Speaker 1: That's probably don't but you you point then king Tweak.
Speaker 1: I got a question though, So how come when Kanye
Speaker 1: West to be like wearing weird ship and doing weird ship,
Speaker 1: people think he's a visionary. But then if a regular
Speaker 1: dude do it here weirdo, they think is the weird
Speaker 1: though too. I mean yeah, but people like praise Kanye
Speaker 1: because he has money. I saw a tweak last night.
Speaker 1: You can't. But if somebody a fact, if somebody look
Speaker 1: like want you elevate, you gotta elevate to Now everything
Speaker 1: is promotion. Now. You can't wear that ship like trying
Speaker 1: to wear some weird ship and that ship dirted or
Speaker 1: you stamp. But if somebody wants and you clean jumping
Speaker 1: out the whips the same ship, that's it. You take money.
Speaker 1: I'm saying, you get money, you gotta show that you
Speaker 1: but you clean. I see some little nigga that that
Speaker 1: fucked up, but shout got that he got something. He
Speaker 1: got the it. You gotta think, don't think, don't get
Speaker 1: it fun up. Do you? A lot of these rappers
Speaker 1: still the little nigga sage. Little nigga come in the
Speaker 1: studio first. Little an't even clean the right way. But
Speaker 1: you're gonna see a nigga with some specif ship on
Speaker 1: win it just like that. That's just what they do.
Speaker 1: Niggas like everybody, basketball players, everybody get they sweared just
Speaker 1: for ordinary Joe Niggas man first shore, first shore again,
Speaker 1: Nigga is being expired by the just not getting you
Speaker 1: your props. That's what it is mean. Because you think
Speaker 1: he got it on somewhere. You think you got that
Speaker 1: ship from somewhere. The should be. I think he saw
Speaker 1: some people do this, like the should he be wearing.
Speaker 1: You think he's seen that ship from traveling a lot
Speaker 1: of times on the seas. You see ship know what
Speaker 1: it is was he just want them just you know,
Speaker 1: is making them beat you, making ship restrass. So you
Speaker 1: just like see a visionary You could just see like
Speaker 1: super creative, see what they're trying to like even even
Speaker 1: designers and ship like, I see what the clothes trying
Speaker 1: to go. So I'm going and go there. He now
Speaker 1: on gonna tiptoe with it. Okay, I see big Glow
Speaker 1: come back and make the biggest, biggest, the biggest, the shortest,
Speaker 1: why this ship ever in the world, Like big Man coach,
Speaker 1: She's gonna start looking for it. I only do we
Speaker 1: get a couple of niggas in it. Somebody is sent
Speaker 1: out a tweet when that ship came well saying we yeah,
Speaker 1: we need to get rid of fashion and seasons or
Speaker 1: some ship like that. People already talking that ship basically
Speaker 1: wear that in the winter and where this in the
Speaker 1: something People are already talking about that ship. Man, I
Speaker 1: feel like, whatever you want or whatever. The two jackets over.
Speaker 1: But he was he youve been doing that ship for
Speaker 1: ten years. It was on Alaska time. Oh yeah, he
Speaker 1: would trip it. That's what you ain't seen on the
Speaker 1: a vest a coat and a skull cap with some
Speaker 1: drid in the summer. The only thing is you can
Speaker 1: do that, but you can't pull that ship off in
Speaker 1: the winter. Some some fucking high shorts talking aboforability. Fact,
Speaker 1: it's about a pot nigger that's got to be outside.
Speaker 1: That's all I've been saying. You have money, you gotta
Speaker 1: still pull the weird ship off at the jet step,
Speaker 1: to the wheel, to the hotel. Whatever you want to
Speaker 1: inside the faults is not outside. That's what I'm That's
Speaker 1: what she's been saying. Though. You gotta have money to
Speaker 1: do that, to jump out the whip and go straight
Speaker 1: to because otherwise you have the park walk through the
Speaker 1: parking out, you're gonna get frost bited, and that's my man,
Speaker 1: You're gonna be na. But I just feel like Nick's
Speaker 1: gotta let niggas be their self, and niggas gotta be
Speaker 1: their self and can't be afraid to be yourself behind judgment,
Speaker 1: behind nothing. You can't be afraid to step on into
Speaker 1: that ship because it shoot you set to step into
Speaker 1: might be ship you should have been. Step be yourself,
Speaker 1: unapologetically be yourself. Try to be the best version of yourself,
Speaker 1: but be yourself. I think I think it'd be hard
Speaker 1: for people to make certain choices because comfort to Yeah,
Speaker 1: like I already know what I got or what this is,
Speaker 1: so I'm gonna be cool with this, Like I ain't
Speaker 1: already know Y got. Damn we do it a million,
Speaker 1: half a million a week, so I ain't gonna put
Speaker 1: forth no effort to do five attended, but step out
Speaker 1: there like I'm chasing the cover's owners everybody's detriment. I'm saying,
Speaker 1: yeah either way, even with people like I don't want
Speaker 1: a god damn not call you or tell you how
Speaker 1: I really feel due to the fact of how you
Speaker 1: may take it. You know what I'm saying, But you
Speaker 1: may need to tell you this for you to take
Speaker 1: it and be like, shoot, I feel the same way.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. That is what it is.
Speaker 1: You just gotta step on in them shoes, bro any
Speaker 1: shoe league. Like we's word again, cogn You gotta have cognizance.
Speaker 1: You gotta be connoisance. You gotta be I don't know
Speaker 1: how to use it, see it in the sentence, but
Speaker 1: what I'm saying is whatever it is, because that means
Speaker 1: understanding rights with no resentment, no confusion, no delusion or
Speaker 1: no nothing that just like, okay, this what this is.
Speaker 1: It is right, That's what it is. That's with every situation,
Speaker 1: with everybody everything. I'm not going to get tall It's
Speaker 1: just what it is. I am. But before I know
Speaker 1: became cognizant. Yeah, wait, has made me, you know, get
Speaker 1: a little bit taller. Yeah, but you know what I'm
Speaker 1: saying now that I know the word, that's what I'm
Speaker 1: not going to get any taller. I grew a beard,
Speaker 1: you came in. You came in with a whole one day. No,
Speaker 1: I can grow hair, but that ship just don't my
Speaker 1: Helline ain't right, So I ain't. I don't like that.
Speaker 1: I really I realized that I don't like my hairline copy. Okay,
Speaker 1: So I just skinned that ship off. But I'm not
Speaker 1: about to grow a beer here. No no, man, how
Speaker 1: many um fruits and vegans and no vitam is like,
Speaker 1: it's not gonna grow. It just won't connect. It's not
Speaker 1: gonna grow. It's not like that. Ain't gonna sidbers. It
Speaker 1: don't growing. Okay, So what like was your cognizant of
Speaker 1: the fact that that don't happen? Okay, I can go
Speaker 1: for that. You know what I'm saying. And that's what
Speaker 1: I'm just breaking that down right now and just right
Speaker 1: when things not gonna happen, They're not gonna happen. You
Speaker 1: just got accepted. Yeah, I'm not gonna be twenty five again,
Speaker 1: even though I may look twenty five again, I'm not
Speaker 1: gonna again. Right you're on? Yeah, man, like certain ship
Speaker 1: just you can't get around you can't wings. We can't
Speaker 1: get around these ship. People have problems, People have problems.
Speaker 1: You don't live in the past. Yes I do in
Speaker 1: certain situations. I do. Rescing and wanting certain things back
Speaker 1: is different. Than living in the past. Living in the past,
Speaker 1: because I'm dealing with people that was in my past
Speaker 1: and still trying to love them through the new you. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and they're not understanding that that ain't need me. The
Speaker 1: motherfucker you mad at he don't even isish no more.
Speaker 1: It's real ship. So it's hard for me to get
Speaker 1: you to see that because of the things that I've done,
Speaker 1: you haven't exception my growth. Yeah, not even growth you
Speaker 1: You haven't. You haven't fully forgaven the person because me,
Speaker 1: it's hard for me to forgive the motherfucker. So I
Speaker 1: can say I forgave you because I love you, but
Speaker 1: I'm still looking at you a certain type of way,
Speaker 1: and I have to have cognance in you have to
Speaker 1: be cognizant of I have to be cognizant of the
Speaker 1: fact that the way that I've done you or done
Speaker 1: to you puts me in a position to where I
Speaker 1: can never be fully who I need to be for
Speaker 1: you in our friendship, our relationship. I can never be
Speaker 1: it because I can't erase just like a person can't
Speaker 1: erase what they did to me. If you did something
Speaker 1: to me, you can't erase it, no matter how much
Speaker 1: I want to erase how much it ain't going Nowell,
Speaker 1: I can't. It's always gonna be back here, And and
Speaker 1: I'm having what is it, I'm being cognitant, cognitant like cognitant,
Speaker 1: I'm being or I am cognizant stat I'm an unforgivable person.
Speaker 1: I don't forgive you accepted that. I accepted that fact that,
Speaker 1: no matter what it is, you don't fully forgive. I
Speaker 1: can forgive you, but I don't forget. I forget. I don't.
Speaker 1: That's not forgiven then to me, even forgive a person
Speaker 1: you're given. We've been on this. If you know, you're not.
Speaker 1: If you forget, you're you're you're releasing whatever they did
Speaker 1: for your benefits, so that but you are, you're still cognizant,
Speaker 1: so that you won't get sucked over again. But at
Speaker 1: the end of the day, you're not. You're not holding
Speaker 1: it against them. Right now, to me, I feel like
Speaker 1: I'm holding against you because I could never trust you again.
Speaker 1: I can forgive you, but I can never have forgiven
Speaker 1: the person. But that's what you haven't accepted the new
Speaker 1: circumstances of you haven't accepted the you haven't accepted letting
Speaker 1: go the past. You haven't let it go, That's what
Speaker 1: I'm saying. So to me, I thought that that was
Speaker 1: like I wouldn't forgiven a person. If I don't trust
Speaker 1: you again after you as I told you, I forgive you,
Speaker 1: that mean I don't. I don't an example, never look
Speaker 1: at it, if you never look at it, like right,
Speaker 1: you know if you know if somebody did are if
Speaker 1: somebody did, I don't, I can't. You don't have to trust.
Speaker 1: You can forget somebody and no trust him. I forgive you,
Speaker 1: but then you didn't relieve. That's a difference. That's not
Speaker 1: for forgiven. Like forgiving is just saying this ship ain't
Speaker 1: for to be on my heart all day. I'm thinking
Speaker 1: what if you but whether they are still in your heart,
Speaker 1: That's what I'm saying. Like you say, if you was
Speaker 1: in a relationship right with your wife and you did something,
Speaker 1: she did something that you just could not but you
Speaker 1: can't leave with neither right, And you're trying, you're trying
Speaker 1: to try and try and try, and you're telling her,
Speaker 1: I forgave you for a baby. You're gonna be saying
Speaker 1: that which you tell her you forgave her. She's expecting
Speaker 1: you to love her the same, love her the same,
Speaker 1: trust her the same. That could be a false expectation.
Speaker 1: That's why they always say if I play, though, they
Speaker 1: always say forgive, but don't forget. I can tell you
Speaker 1: that's what you're to deal with again. I have to
Speaker 1: forget it. That's what pop. You're not gonna deal it again.
Speaker 1: If I forgave a lot of niggas that I ain't
Speaker 1: gonna never see no more fun y'all niggas, I forget
Speaker 1: it ain't on my hard of ship. But the motherfucker
Speaker 1: gotta deal with I gotta deal with you, Jake. Yeah,
Speaker 1: so you do some ship and I forgave you. That
Speaker 1: means I mean, if you did some ship, I forgave
Speaker 1: you for it, but I don't trust you in that way.
Speaker 1: You're still for game. You can forgive somebody move on
Speaker 1: and don't funk with them. Don't trust him. Know you
Speaker 1: said you might not be never and see, I ain't
Speaker 1: never think about it like that, like like, I never
Speaker 1: think about it like that. And I'm with Black on
Speaker 1: that I can't. I just definition definition. But if you forget,
Speaker 1: I feel I feel like if you forgive somebody, right, yeah,
Speaker 1: like my mama, my grandmama raised me right because my
Speaker 1: mom was young and my dadd was young and he
Speaker 1: end up on chain. Ain't all this, ohle ship? I
Speaker 1: really forgive them, like they still have my whole heart,
Speaker 1: my trust, everything, that they won't do nothing to me
Speaker 1: to harm me again. And like even though I back
Speaker 1: then I felt the way fully forgiven, I fully forgave them.
Speaker 1: You get what I'm saying, like because I get it
Speaker 1: like shit, I get it as an adult. I get
Speaker 1: it like that y'all were young, y'all didn't know no better.
Speaker 1: I don't need ship to my kids that I hope
Speaker 1: they don't. You know what I'm saying all over my
Speaker 1: head like missing basketball games and all that type. Ship.
Speaker 1: Get what I'm saying so so for me to have
Speaker 1: to understand not forget that. But what I'm saying is
Speaker 1: being in with somebody that you're saying you forgave because
Speaker 1: you just can't accept would come with not forgiving them.
Speaker 1: M You get what I'm saying, How did that work?
Speaker 1: We're not get big? Okay, So let me read the
Speaker 1: definitions real quick. Okay. The textbook definition for a forgive
Speaker 1: is to stop feeling angry or resentful towards someone for
Speaker 1: an offense, flaw or a mistake. Trust Okay, okay, read
Speaker 1: it one more time. Stop to stop feeling angry or
Speaker 1: resentful towards someone for an offense, flaw or a mistake.
Speaker 1: Stop feeling angry or resentful. It's basically so all I'm saying,
Speaker 1: doesn't trust a person, but you're dealing with them, how
Speaker 1: you don't resent them? Yes, let's be real. Yes, good point,
Speaker 1: But it's saying that you can for gives. The trust
Speaker 1: is not involved in forgiving. Hold just asking you a question.
Speaker 1: That's it. If a complete stranger, hold on, if if
Speaker 1: I'm with you, but I'm still tell about relationships, if
Speaker 1: I'm still if you're still my friend, but I'm still
Speaker 1: watching you, How am I not resenting you? How am
Speaker 1: I not really kind of angry? Can you trust somebody
Speaker 1: not resent them? And vice versus what you said? So
Speaker 1: now you're putting it now your way in trust and resentment.
Speaker 1: You could have resentment towards somebody and trust them. But
Speaker 1: if you got a wall up right in a friendship?
Speaker 1: What does walls you can come from? Non trust, resentment, anger?
Speaker 1: Let's put everything getting together now, therapist, What does what
Speaker 1: does a wall come from? A wall comes from emotional wall? Yeah,
Speaker 1: if you yeah, from past trauma. Okay, So if you
Speaker 1: got a wall up with with a person, right or things,
Speaker 1: I don't even gonna say, like just say if you
Speaker 1: was trying, you try to go to school, but I
Speaker 1: ain't gonna go back to school because when I went
Speaker 1: to school that time, I kind of understand it. So
Speaker 1: you got to wall up. So you don't even trust
Speaker 1: yourself to go to school. Trust still trust, trusted the
Speaker 1: key factor, toship, the foundation. Yeah, so if you don't
Speaker 1: trust them, ain't a way you forgave him. Damn, that's
Speaker 1: real ship. I can't even I don't even have an argument.
Speaker 1: I never that it like that. I never looked at
Speaker 1: it like that until today, Like just now, like you
Speaker 1: can't people people, it's people. It's people, it's people. But
Speaker 1: it's people that I don't forgive that I don't trust.
Speaker 1: Don't say that I forgave or day off my heart.
Speaker 1: I don't don't. I'm not angry. You don't deal with them, yes,
Speaker 1: but they're off my heart. Yes, But I can see,
Speaker 1: let's say a relationship or a friendship or a family member,
Speaker 1: you don't be around them right, like, you're not gonna
Speaker 1: be but I'm not angry. I'm going back to the
Speaker 1: definition I'm not angry, but I don't. I say, that's
Speaker 1: not on my mind on my heart, That's all I'm said.
Speaker 1: How's it not on your mind on your heart? Because
Speaker 1: they could do one thing to trigger it and make
Speaker 1: it right. There a very great point they can do.
Speaker 1: They can say something that they said, or they can
Speaker 1: we the perfume feel like facts, the facts, let's be one.
Speaker 1: I got started all over ship. I was just I
Speaker 1: was just saying, like, you can forgive a person and
Speaker 1: put distance in between, that's all. But can't you forgive
Speaker 1: a person and still being understand still have to deal
Speaker 1: with them now because because I'm gonna just I'm gonna
Speaker 1: just be real. Like from like from a female perspective,
Speaker 1: I funked with a nigga and like a nigga did
Speaker 1: some bullshit and I was like, Okay, fucking I ain't
Speaker 1: I'm not thinking about this ship whatever whatever, And then
Speaker 1: I see the nigga again. He had on the same
Speaker 1: outfit from the day that I found out about the
Speaker 1: bullshit that he did, and I like snap, like because
Speaker 1: it was because it was like, don't forget, you can
Speaker 1: never forget what forget? But but they what they would
Speaker 1: what emotional with that? That was angered anger inside of
Speaker 1: that very complex debate, right, very complex debate. I get
Speaker 1: what you're saying, like I forgetting. You know, if you
Speaker 1: can tell you have not forgiven, because you can say
Speaker 1: want the nigga forgive you and don't have the folks,
Speaker 1: you'll be like, yeah, yeah, everything cool, but I ain't cool.
Speaker 1: That's what you're saying. Everything cool, but ween cool. That
Speaker 1: ain't really forgiveness. That's cordial. That's not forgiveness is full
Speaker 1: forgiveness you're talking about full wholehearted you're talking about forgiving
Speaker 1: that there a lot of land with you like erased it.
Speaker 1: But I mean, is there any other type of forgiveness?
Speaker 1: I thought forgiveness is forgiveness that can be full wholehearted.
Speaker 1: Still everybody by partial. Everybody want to have a conversation
Speaker 1: to be cordial. People want to have a conversation to
Speaker 1: be cordial because I don't want I want to let
Speaker 1: you know that I ain't on that need on that
Speaker 1: that's not forgiven. That's just agree to disagree, Like no,
Speaker 1: that's just agree to disagree like I don't folk with you.
Speaker 1: You don't funk with me that whether it is win't
Speaker 1: got no smoke though, Bro, I don't want to see that.
Speaker 1: I don't with me. Why are we trying to hold
Speaker 1: a conversation because coexist places. I don't want to see
Speaker 1: you and exist without conversation, not not not all the
Speaker 1: time and not you're not talking about like you can
Speaker 1: speak or whatever and and say something I'll talk about
Speaker 1: like street ship, nigga, you don't know what it is.
Speaker 1: You need to get an understanding. It ain't then it
Speaker 1: ain't that. But I don't funk with you. That's what
Speaker 1: I'm saying. Like you'll see each other out and then
Speaker 1: you'll try to strike up a conversation after. I'm saying,
Speaker 1: But she could be she could be taking like I
Speaker 1: don't want to feel like if you're a place and
Speaker 1: when I walk in that I need to grab my gun.
Speaker 1: You get what I'm saying? Or I need to be
Speaker 1: who do you? People called already saying you're still saying
Speaker 1: you haven't forgiven. In that case, you ain't forgetting. You
Speaker 1: ain't forgiven. If you ain't forgave a person, bro, If
Speaker 1: you can't trust if you can't be back regular m
Speaker 1: I agree, being back regularly trusting him. If it don't
Speaker 1: go back to regular three, it don't go back to regular.
Speaker 1: You ain't forgave them to me. And I couldn't be
Speaker 1: tripping because once I forgave my mama, my dad, whatever,
Speaker 1: even though it wan'tover ship. But I don't even see
Speaker 1: them in that light, like y'all did nothing wrong as
Speaker 1: a kid, you know what I'm saying, But as a
Speaker 1: grown man, I know, but ship happened. BRO could have
Speaker 1: been rached, right. I think it come down to what
Speaker 1: was done then, the circumstance in the situation for forgiveness
Speaker 1: and situational it can be. I think forgiven, like like
Speaker 1: we say with some words, I mean that it kind
Speaker 1: of has to be. But if you forgave somebody ship,
Speaker 1: go back. Your relationships should go back to what it was.
Speaker 1: I agree with that. I feel like you might forgo.
Speaker 1: You might, you might have forgiven. You might have forgiven them,
Speaker 1: but you, like you said earlier, you know who they are.
Speaker 1: They can't help it. They're going to be who they are,
Speaker 1: and I can't coexist with Okay, see what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: But I know who you are and that's fine. Just
Speaker 1: keep that away from me. Yeah, yeah, you're saying forget,
Speaker 1: forgiving and acceptance to different thing. I forgive you, but
Speaker 1: then I accepting you by far. You said, I forgive you,
Speaker 1: but I'm accepting our situation. But you ain't on my
Speaker 1: heart and on my mind. I ain't thinking about you.
Speaker 1: And if I see you, it ain't gonna like I
Speaker 1: always say, it's not gonna stir my day, no other way,
Speaker 1: because I forgive. I moved past all right, saying you're
Speaker 1: real when y'all doing this right and you found that
Speaker 1: some shady biding happened on ripping, and you'd be like, Bro,
Speaker 1: I ain't s donning that ship. I forgive you, and
Speaker 1: y'all stay in business. Are you gonna watch him differently
Speaker 1: if he did it? Or are you gonna think that's ever?
Speaker 1: I think that if if you ain't for if you
Speaker 1: if you gave you bro Steve Green, so still watching
Speaker 1: your heir, but manage every every time. Yeah, that's that's
Speaker 1: a point. That's the way. Looking definitely like if it
Speaker 1: don't go back to normal, then you ain't forgave me.
Speaker 1: But that's what that's what females gotta recognize to it
Speaker 1: relationship they do what we gotta recognize. They gotta recognize
Speaker 1: that a nigga ain't I mean, you ain't forgave this nigga.
Speaker 1: What I just said that say you ain't forgave him?
Speaker 1: You won't you you want to to spend his life
Speaker 1: proven to you that he should be forgiven for what
Speaker 1: he does and what because I feel like a bitch
Speaker 1: gott to prove to me forever that she not whatever
Speaker 1: she does, I forgave you or something, I really have
Speaker 1: to forget the thing. It's like just like let me
Speaker 1: just like okay, for instance, with me, like if I
Speaker 1: feel like I'm gonna need for you to continuously over
Speaker 1: and over again trying to prove something to me that's
Speaker 1: gonna make me not want to funk with you, not
Speaker 1: prove you're gonna I want you to or sure assure
Speaker 1: me that this is never gonna happen again, but you
Speaker 1: forgave me. You know it's not that, But that reassurance
Speaker 1: really doesn't mean anything because me personally, to me, I
Speaker 1: feel like if a nigga did it once, a nigga
Speaker 1: nine times out of ten is gonna do it. But okay, Okay, Okay,
Speaker 1: that's so I can't if I'm gonna shoose to be
Speaker 1: with you, I can't hold that because I know what
Speaker 1: you're saying. What's your name of the word? What? What
Speaker 1: the word is? Cognizant? Okay, so it's cognant. You're being cognizance.
Speaker 1: If you accept the person for who he is. So
Speaker 1: whatever he done, and you say that you know he
Speaker 1: cameble to doing again, it shoudn't even upset you. That's
Speaker 1: forgetting the niggat. So you don't even nothing to forgive
Speaker 1: me for what I'm not. No, no, no, but listen,
Speaker 1: listen to what I'm saying. If what I don't make
Speaker 1: you upset, if I do it again to make you
Speaker 1: upset again, you're not a sept of me for who
Speaker 1: I am. So what are you doing with me? That's
Speaker 1: for me once? For me twice too. If you already
Speaker 1: know your head, I hate this ship, this nigga did
Speaker 1: or whatever I'm telling him, I forgive him, but I
Speaker 1: know you just type of need to do it again.
Speaker 1: What are you doing? No, listen, that's the thing I'm not.
Speaker 1: I'm not saying that. I'm not gonna consider the question
Speaker 1: you since you want to answer the question questions, Um,
Speaker 1: it's for me once, for me twice things. It's like
Speaker 1: you're kind of trying to give people. But she said, Okay,
Speaker 1: I'll understand what this is. What I'm saying. This is
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I'm not gonna hurt Go ahead, That's
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. Don't switch it up. Go ahead. I'm
Speaker 1: not switching king give me sconds the thing. I'm not
Speaker 1: gonna if it's something that you did that upset me,
Speaker 1: and I know that it's gonna trigger me or upset
Speaker 1: me again, I'm not gonna come out of my mouth
Speaker 1: and tell you that I forgave you. I'm gonna tell you,
Speaker 1: like I don't like this ship, but the love that
Speaker 1: I have for you is greater than this mistake that
Speaker 1: you made. So we're gonna try to work past. We're
Speaker 1: gonna try our hardest to work pass it. So we're
Speaker 1: not gonna put my So what's what's trying to work
Speaker 1: past it? Trying to work past it is? I'm trying
Speaker 1: to do the best that I can to not what
Speaker 1: not letting this ship trigger me? Should you do it again?
Speaker 1: What he needs to do? Though? Since what needs to
Speaker 1: trying not to do this again. But how long is
Speaker 1: he not doing doing this? How long is he not
Speaker 1: doing before he's forgiven? Hold on screen? I can't forgive it,
Speaker 1: hold up screen hold. Look, you know he came with
Speaker 1: doing this. This is basically his character, right, Yeah, okay,
Speaker 1: So what are you What are you doing if this
Speaker 1: hurts your feelings, if it hurts my feelings, and I
Speaker 1: really you open, you're hoping that by your feelings be hurt,
Speaker 1: he see that your feelings hurt, that he's not gonna
Speaker 1: be him. No, I can't do that. I can't do that.
Speaker 1: What you think purpose, No, listen to what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: That's what I'm trying to explain with a question. We're
Speaker 1: saying the same ship, So what are you doing if
Speaker 1: you know the same ship. I'm telling you we saying
Speaker 1: the same ship because you're saying you try, you're saying
Speaker 1: you you hope that y'all can work past it. I said,
Speaker 1: we're gonna try our hardest to work past it. That's
Speaker 1: him being him? What are you gonna work past? Essentially
Speaker 1: that when does that happen? If it doesn't happen within
Speaker 1: a certain amount of time, Like you said, after my
Speaker 1: patience has run out, then it's dead. We overwit so.
Speaker 1: So but what patience? Though? Why do you have a
Speaker 1: patient for something that you already know? No, I wasn't
Speaker 1: how when he did it? You you know where you're from,
Speaker 1: and you know what you know. When the nigga do something,
Speaker 1: he'll do it again. You just said that, Okay, So
Speaker 1: once he did it, why is that not a deal
Speaker 1: break up for your feelings because that's on him because
Speaker 1: you already know he gonna keep on to stay him in. No,
Speaker 1: I just need to build up the strip. That's what
Speaker 1: you said. Basically, That is what I'm saying. All right,
Speaker 1: That's what I'm saying. Say that did so what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: this behavior that I don't agree with, I wasn't aware
Speaker 1: of in the beginning, But once I was made aware
Speaker 1: of it, I made the cognizant decision to try to
Speaker 1: work past it, even though I didn't like it, because
Speaker 1: of the love that I had for this nigga. Because
Speaker 1: I love this nigga so much, I wanted to try
Speaker 1: to see if I could get through it. That you
Speaker 1: the thing about the nigga that you choose and the
Speaker 1: nigga that you deal with. When you're dealing with this person,
Speaker 1: you kind of already have an ideal the type of
Speaker 1: ship he's gonna take you through. Let's you kind of
Speaker 1: have an idea to what you are attracted to. You
Speaker 1: have chosen or accepted, are willing to deal with that ship.
Speaker 1: But you don't want to be what's the word? You
Speaker 1: want to be a delusional You want to be delusional.
Speaker 1: Facts like these are fact before I met how I
Speaker 1: met this nigga. When I met this nigga, how he was.
Speaker 1: When I met this nigga, I knew that he was
Speaker 1: dead kind of nigga. I go for women and men too,
Speaker 1: though j like for women, I can't speaking trying to
Speaker 1: change people. They go back. I said that in the
Speaker 1: beginning open if I know that you are how you are,
Speaker 1: I have to stop being delusional and way and seek
Speaker 1: an ideal with how you are. But niggas be acting
Speaker 1: so who they are. What you be acting who they
Speaker 1: are is not who they really are. Like they're gonna
Speaker 1: be a certain way too. Instead of saying what it is,
Speaker 1: he's being illusion because at the end of the day,
Speaker 1: once I'm sucked up and I care about you, I
Speaker 1: kind of I want to try to goddamn not make
Speaker 1: you feel fucked up. So I'm gonna say little ship
Speaker 1: and try to act you know what I mean. But
Speaker 1: you know that this is an act because I don't
Speaker 1: sucked up, right, because you know what y'all a nigga
Speaker 1: I am. But you know I'm mad. You know I'm
Speaker 1: I'm hurt because you're hurt. So I'm gonna whatever to
Speaker 1: pat your heart up. But in reality of the ship,
Speaker 1: if we been what's the name of the word, if
Speaker 1: we're being cognizant, the reality is I wish he would
Speaker 1: change who he is nothing else. Because you know this
Speaker 1: is why, this is why don't keep it? Really like
Speaker 1: women women be on the eighth ninth timph of have
Speaker 1: a chance, like you've already accepted that ship. You know
Speaker 1: women like that, they'd be on the eleven chance. This
Speaker 1: is the eleven of time you've called about this ship.
Speaker 1: This is who this nigga is. So niggas don't change ever,
Speaker 1: they can't change. I got what you could be so
Speaker 1: much to a woman or so much ship. Let me
Speaker 1: having a relationship. When you do change, it's not gonna
Speaker 1: be perceived a change. Let me perceive that you're acting
Speaker 1: that's the fund up party could be too late because
Speaker 1: I got some partlem I got some partners that have changed. Yeah,
Speaker 1: then you go out there, they could go do a
Speaker 1: whole another you know what I'm saying, Like have a
Speaker 1: whole some most ship going on. This nigga really are different.
Speaker 1: Some bullshit. They're gonna resentment, but we're not seeing it
Speaker 1: for what it is. Yeah, but you but you ride
Speaker 1: no right, you're right. If you're right, you gotta have
Speaker 1: a total forgiveness. That's what I'm saying. You gotta forgive
Speaker 1: a person, even me, I know I have. I am
Speaker 1: cognant connest to of that. It's very rare that I
Speaker 1: forgive somebody, truly forgive if you've done something to me,
Speaker 1: if I've made myself vulnerable to you, Yeah exactly. It's
Speaker 1: like because that was my choice, So THEMN the impossible
Speaker 1: for me to do that again. Yeah, because I don't
Speaker 1: do that for everybody. And the fact that I chose
Speaker 1: to do that for you, you mhm. So once that happens,
Speaker 1: and you know that happened, what are you still doing
Speaker 1: with this guy being loved? I don't know what are
Speaker 1: you still doing? Okay with saying, bro, figure out what
Speaker 1: you're gonna do, fuck me and nothing, and when I
Speaker 1: needed we still locked me in whatever whatever. But I
Speaker 1: can't do the mental side of it because that's what
Speaker 1: those you are. Yeah, that's what's set up depression and
Speaker 1: all that other ship and resentment and all that. Because
Speaker 1: I can forgive you and that you're gone and and
Speaker 1: and forgive you. How do the rest of your folks
Speaker 1: forgive you over there? Yeah? So all the stories A,
Speaker 1: B yourself and B. I think that's going all the
Speaker 1: way back the accountability. You just had to have accountability.
Speaker 1: Just had to note the girl at the beginning of
Speaker 1: My bad screen. The girls in the begin um Kasa
Speaker 1: women are looking at her like she's so stupid? How
Speaker 1: how is she stupid? She's cognizant. How is she stupid?
Speaker 1: Because of the ain't say her name? And that was
Speaker 1: her name? But who the fuck care about that? Nobody
Speaker 1: but other people, but some women do. Some women do
Speaker 1: look at certain ships like that's just wrong with him. No,
Speaker 1: she accept him for who he is exactly. I said you,
Speaker 1: I gotta say my other bitches and we're not doing
Speaker 1: We're not doing that doing that. Did night of Gonna
Speaker 1: say one, who's the dark time with me and my truth?
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, anything anything about that? Man? Hey,
Speaker 1: and mall do all right? Rest of that ship? Man? Hey, man,
Speaker 1: y'all figure that out. We still what we was when
Speaker 1: I could come out this stage right right. But you'll
Speaker 1: you'll you'll get a typical female. We'll get inside they
Speaker 1: mine listening to all these folks and start being what
Speaker 1: delusion on facts because you're being delusion on what you
Speaker 1: got and who you got. Yeah, it's certain things that
Speaker 1: you like about this guy. It's certain thing that you
Speaker 1: love about this guy. Love and like that. We're trying
Speaker 1: to get some more ship out of that. That ain't
Speaker 1: coming out of that. That ain't coming out of that
Speaker 1: is because we started wanting that out of that. He's
Speaker 1: gonna start want somebody of your head, all right, what
Speaker 1: bet you need to be that thing? Right? And that
Speaker 1: ain't gonna work me this. Oh you women like like
Speaker 1: Pinky Cold Man and and and and and candy birds.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, The kind of women have
Speaker 1: any business? So okay, I want you to be that.
Speaker 1: You won't go be that m Yeah, am I tripping.
Speaker 1: You're a lawyer, brom saying, but I'm just saying like tripping,
Speaker 1: like like we can't ask you about to impossible ship. Now, yeah,
Speaker 1: these things are possible, but we gotta you know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying, Let's do this ship and we're gonna do it. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I agree. Agree, ain't trying to be fun and I
Speaker 1: ain't somebody pier situations and then any nigga bitch you
Speaker 1: can't won't so much out of nigga, but god damn
Speaker 1: gonna be super nigga. What the nigga? What's my oh man? Ship?
Speaker 1: Don't go like that, man, especially when you are in
Speaker 1: a hell of a nigga cognits over jogging nuts this
Speaker 1: cut through it that hogga its man Man, y'all get
Speaker 1: us hit that ship. That ship we're doing to know, Yeah,
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