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Speaker 1: Tapping a gang. This is Jay Glazier, Welcome into Unbreakable

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Speaker 1: and Mental Wealth podcast. Today's a mental health checkup, and

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Speaker 1: today is a much different checkup than I would have

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Speaker 1: had yesterday or a week ago or a week before that.

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Speaker 1: I've just been in a dark gray hole for a

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Speaker 1: good month. It started, I think I told you guys,

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Speaker 1: but the suicide of a really close friend of mine

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Speaker 1: who had lived with me, and after that just threw

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Speaker 1: me off my game. And where I made the mistake

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Speaker 1: because I stopped getting into all my routines and my rituals,

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Speaker 1: and I threw myself off. So instead of attacking this

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Speaker 1: and leaning into my rituals more, which I knew I

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Speaker 1: needed to do, I fell off it and I just

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Speaker 1: started going down to darker, darker, darker paths. Even canceled

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Speaker 1: my therapy session. And that's what happens a lot of times.

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Speaker 1: Week we start getting these things where we just almost

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Speaker 1: don't want to help, but man, we need to help.

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Speaker 1: The key to tot success is doing things when you

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Speaker 1: don't want to do it, when no one's watching. And

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Speaker 1: I felt do that for this past month. I'm back

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Speaker 1: on getting back on my routines. Today is a much, much,

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Speaker 1: much better day. I am planning to dive into my

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Speaker 1: rituals really strongly. And what I did was I scheduled it.

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Speaker 1: I made times no matter what, that's on my schedule

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Speaker 1: today and it's going to be for the rest of

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Speaker 1: the week. Get myself back going. The great thing is

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Speaker 1: that I have these rituals that I know works. I

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Speaker 1: have them at my disposal. It's whether I decided to

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Speaker 1: use them or not. That's a different question. So I

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Speaker 1: wasn't using them. Now I'm making that choice. Then I'm

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Speaker 1: going to use them and I'm not going to pull

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Speaker 1: away from them. But at the same time, too, I

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Speaker 1: do want to say I did lean into some teammates

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Speaker 1: the other night. I told Michael Strand and Kurt Metafie guys,

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Speaker 1: I am off. I am bipolar right now. I am

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Speaker 1: not good. I realized I should have told them what

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Speaker 1: I needed those moments I didn't. But at least I

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Speaker 1: was able to tell someone at a work event or

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Speaker 1: if I was off, they could pull me away. I

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Speaker 1: told my wife. I told Michael Phelps, let's start leaning

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Speaker 1: into my teammates in the right way and they'll be

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Speaker 1: really get back on track. Rosie O the idea of, hey,

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Speaker 1: i't been doing your rituals. Let's get you doing your rituals.

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Speaker 1: Let's get you back on track. So hopefully this is

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Speaker 1: the start of me getting back on track for in

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Speaker 1: a really painful month. But gang, I'm work in progress.

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Speaker 1: I am perfect, I am beat it fully. I don't

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Speaker 1: think we ever will, and I'm good with that because

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Speaker 1: if I don't beat it fully, that will allow me

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Speaker 1: to continue to learn new ways to help beat this thing,

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Speaker 1: and then I can teach them to you, guys, coach

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Speaker 1: them up. Love you, guys. Let's keep walking this walk together.