WEBVTT - Prison Bae 0:00:00.160 --> 0:00:03.120 Welcome to Camfully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio 0:00:03.240 --> 0:00:21.080 and The Black Effect, And just like that, we're back 0:00:21.160 --> 0:00:24.800 on the air with yet another season of Camfulee Reckless. 0:00:24.840 --> 0:00:26.840 Y'all clap it up for me as I reached my 0:00:26.920 --> 0:00:30.040 second season under the Black Effect with Our Heart Radio. 0:00:30.160 --> 0:00:32.600 Camfully Reckless is doing great. I know y'all thought I 0:00:32.640 --> 0:00:34.319 was gonna be gone for a minute, but now I'm 0:00:34.320 --> 0:00:36.120 back with the jump off. I had to do a 0:00:36.159 --> 0:00:38.800 lot of other things, y'all. I'm busy. I'm busy, and 0:00:39.040 --> 0:00:40.400 I missed you all so much. I had to take 0:00:40.440 --> 0:00:42.640 a couple of weeks off just to refresh myself to 0:00:42.680 --> 0:00:46.720 give y'all some new and in great content. And also 0:00:46.960 --> 0:00:50.880 I launched Reckless Discussions, which you can check out every 0:00:50.920 --> 0:00:53.720 Wednesday seven pm on my YouTube channel. That's me, my 0:00:53.720 --> 0:00:56.920 little baby father, my cousin London, and my brother Prince Yea. 0:00:56.920 --> 0:00:59.080 All were talking about the same type of ship that 0:00:59.120 --> 0:01:02.080 we talked about here, but different topics. It's just reckless, 0:01:02.240 --> 0:01:05.479 all in the same. So for the first episode of 0:01:05.520 --> 0:01:07.800 this season, I bought back a fan favorite, y'all. Let 0:01:07.840 --> 0:01:13.160 us girl my sister say what's up? Shat is dummies, yea, hey, y'all, 0:01:13.240 --> 0:01:17.119 here she go, Hey, y'all, yo, yo, what the hos 0:01:17.240 --> 0:01:18.840 y'all know, y'all know, she always want to know what 0:01:18.959 --> 0:01:21.720 the holes that now Lesson this episode, we're gonna talk 0:01:21.760 --> 0:01:25.319 about jail niggas. We're gonna talk about jail niggas. And 0:01:25.360 --> 0:01:27.759 you felt that, ain't you? So huh so I'm guessing 0:01:27.800 --> 0:01:31.319 you've dealt with a jail nigga too. I never personally 0:01:31.400 --> 0:01:34.400 like dealt dealt with like dated or you don't know, 0:01:34.480 --> 0:01:38.920 the Joie jail nigga, but I am. I try to 0:01:38.920 --> 0:01:42.880 call himself being a good friend sometime, and I really 0:01:42.880 --> 0:01:46.119 feel like these jail niggas feel like they're entitled. Oh yeah, 0:01:46.120 --> 0:01:48.080 that's a lot of them. And the jail nigga I'm 0:01:48.120 --> 0:01:51.280 speaking of. You know of him, your homeboy? You ain't 0:01:51.280 --> 0:01:56.160 my homeboy no more. He's a clown. You didn't started 0:01:56.160 --> 0:01:58.800 making me right? The nigga and ship like he like 0:01:58.960 --> 0:02:02.600 for real, was sending five page letters to everybody. I 0:02:02.640 --> 0:02:04.680 swear when the last time I talked to him my phone, 0:02:04.720 --> 0:02:06.400 he was like, yeah, I'm on the phone with just 0:02:06.640 --> 0:02:09.920 Larious sister. Yeah, yeah, you know the funny girl like boy, 0:02:09.960 --> 0:02:12.960 shut the funk up, oh my god, being a clown, 0:02:13.120 --> 0:02:16.480 being a clown listening. He wrote me a couple of times. Right. 0:02:16.960 --> 0:02:18.679 I never wanted to funk with him, and he knew that. 0:02:18.720 --> 0:02:21.600 He just wanted somebody to talk to, you know, always 0:02:21.639 --> 0:02:23.600 as all of them as all jail niggas. You know 0:02:23.639 --> 0:02:25.079 what I'm saying, You're you and there you see the 0:02:25.080 --> 0:02:27.080 same niggas every day, you mean whatever. So it's just like, 0:02:27.120 --> 0:02:29.600 all right, I saw right. You know this was years ago, 0:02:30.240 --> 0:02:33.519 like three years ago, No, not even it was. It wasn't, No, 0:02:33.639 --> 0:02:35.520 it was longer than that. It was because he'd been 0:02:35.520 --> 0:02:39.440 in there since two thousand nine. Yeah, so you were 0:02:39.440 --> 0:02:42.600 still more of a more so of a kid, right, Okay, 0:02:42.600 --> 0:02:45.480 Well then I wasn't just hilarious that I am today. 0:02:45.560 --> 0:02:48.880 I was. I was growing into that, okay. And it 0:02:48.960 --> 0:02:51.760 went from us just being cool to one of his 0:02:51.840 --> 0:02:56.760 letters was just like, yo, you know when I come home, 0:02:57.120 --> 0:02:58.359 like you know what I'm saying, I want you to 0:02:58.400 --> 0:02:59.520 be with me. I want to be able to be 0:02:59.639 --> 0:03:02.200 a good stepdad to Ash like I love you, like 0:03:02.840 --> 0:03:06.480 what the fun I'm like, Yo, I am a baby 0:03:06.760 --> 0:03:10.119 compared to you, like I like it was on some 0:03:10.440 --> 0:03:12.679 little Sister big brother ship at first, and then it 0:03:12.800 --> 0:03:15.280 was on some y'all, it's some things I want to 0:03:15.280 --> 0:03:17.400 do to you want to come home. I'm like, first 0:03:17.400 --> 0:03:20.160 of all, Kelly, you ain't never coming home girl? How 0:03:20.200 --> 0:03:23.320 about that? But what was the situation with y'all? So 0:03:23.680 --> 0:03:25.240 his name is Chris. His name is Chris. We all 0:03:25.320 --> 0:03:27.440 had one of those it's it's a million Chris is 0:03:27.480 --> 0:03:29.880 out here, so y'all don't know exactly we talked about. Um. 0:03:29.919 --> 0:03:32.040 So his name is Chris, and we met on my 0:03:32.120 --> 0:03:34.840 Space back in the day, like back in the day 0:03:34.880 --> 0:03:37.200 when you was on my Space and then sucking tow 0:03:37.880 --> 0:03:40.920 and I was just like, get that off my Space 0:03:41.040 --> 0:03:43.800 and you block. Oh my god. It was I was 0:03:43.840 --> 0:03:47.640 like my first little semi nude. I was like, get that. 0:03:48.320 --> 0:03:52.960 Oh my god. So y'all mat on my space, bitch, 0:03:53.280 --> 0:03:57.880 what's your little fucking BlackBerry or whatever? The little no kid? 0:03:58.280 --> 0:04:01.600 Like it was a no kid. So anyway, I met 0:04:01.640 --> 0:04:03.080 him on my Space and he was like I've seen 0:04:03.120 --> 0:04:06.120 you before and he's like, you work in security squad 0:04:06.120 --> 0:04:08.080 mall and I was like yeah, he was like I've 0:04:08.120 --> 0:04:10.200 seen you where he working? I was like, I worked 0:04:10.200 --> 0:04:12.440 in Shoe City I'm working in the shoe store, so 0:04:12.480 --> 0:04:14.440 he you know, he stopped coming, you know, to see 0:04:14.480 --> 0:04:16.080 me or whatever. He was. He was kind of cute, 0:04:16.120 --> 0:04:17.960 you know, I'm gonna give him that. He you know, 0:04:18.000 --> 0:04:20.480 he was cures or whatever. I had a thing for 0:04:20.560 --> 0:04:24.600 Dreds back then or whatever. He was cute, So Boom 0:04:24.839 --> 0:04:29.560 met him. We became friends, and I guess we called 0:04:29.560 --> 0:04:33.760 ourselves like trying to like each other, but we never like, 0:04:33.880 --> 0:04:36.039 we never hooked up. We never hooked up, like, we 0:04:36.120 --> 0:04:38.480 never had sex. So we're just like all, you know whatever. 0:04:38.760 --> 0:04:41.320 And then one day I think we were actually going 0:04:41.400 --> 0:04:44.320 to but then it just it just didn't happen. I 0:04:44.400 --> 0:04:46.960 was just like, yeah, this ain't right. I'm gonna just leave. 0:04:47.000 --> 0:04:49.520 So I left out and literally just left out. And 0:04:49.680 --> 0:04:51.560 I guess he had an attitude. He had an attitude 0:04:51.560 --> 0:04:55.880 about that. So he gets locked up. Um January of 0:04:56.120 --> 0:05:01.599 two thousand nine, he committed a murder. Whatever he nigga 0:05:01.680 --> 0:05:05.400 kills somebody, kills somebody. He kills somebody, and he's saying, 0:05:05.440 --> 0:05:09.360 got my address. You never said that was the crump. 0:05:09.680 --> 0:05:12.560 He never said that was the fun No, I ain't know. 0:05:12.640 --> 0:05:17.080 He kills him Mike who he killed his cousin. Mistake. 0:05:18.279 --> 0:05:23.680 Oh how Apparently it was like a situation where it 0:05:23.720 --> 0:05:26.320 was like a a tussle that they got into you 0:05:26.360 --> 0:05:31.479 with some people and he shot his cousin. Bo misteake. Okay, 0:05:31.560 --> 0:05:33.599 all right, so we made a mistake and killed this guy. Yeah, 0:05:33.600 --> 0:05:36.640 and everybody was like under the influence at the club 0:05:36.920 --> 0:05:39.039 party or Lando something. Okay, So I got you, I 0:05:39.080 --> 0:05:40.960 got you. You know, it's it's a fund up situation. 0:05:41.160 --> 0:05:45.440 Definitely is okay. But his aunt was straight like give 0:05:45.480 --> 0:05:48.800 him life. His aunt was just l yeah, it's a child, 0:05:48.800 --> 0:05:51.640 you know. So she was that's my child, and that 0:05:51.760 --> 0:05:54.039 was not coming back. That was one of his favorite cousins. 0:05:54.200 --> 0:05:56.760 And so imagine how it sucks him up. Yeah. So 0:05:56.800 --> 0:05:59.880 he you know, he is, he's miserable as fuck. He's miserable. 0:05:59.880 --> 0:06:05.039 He yeah, he's he's in there. Um. So over the years, 0:06:05.080 --> 0:06:07.520 you know, I've tried to be a good friend, you know, 0:06:07.600 --> 0:06:10.039 just because I know you're in there. I don't mind 0:06:10.080 --> 0:06:12.680 talking to you. I'm putting the mother money on new books. 0:06:12.880 --> 0:06:15.360 So every time he calls me, he's paying for these calls. 0:06:15.720 --> 0:06:18.120 So I'm like, okay, he's paying for the calls. I 0:06:18.160 --> 0:06:19.839 can talk to you I don't mind. You know, I 0:06:19.880 --> 0:06:22.640 love to talk, so you know it's it's nothing to me. 0:06:23.240 --> 0:06:25.520 So you know, I talked to him and over the years, 0:06:25.560 --> 0:06:27.599 every time you turn around he's like, oh, you know, 0:06:27.640 --> 0:06:29.680 how you doing or whatever. You know, I end up 0:06:29.720 --> 0:06:32.360 mentioning something about somebody I'm dating or whatever. He tried 0:06:32.400 --> 0:06:34.320 to act fake happy for me, but then write me 0:06:34.360 --> 0:06:36.440 a letter like, I hope that ship don't work out. 0:06:36.480 --> 0:06:42.320 I hope you catch AIDS like dam like, hey, Yo're 0:06:42.480 --> 0:06:45.320 not laughing at any AIDS victims, Yes, not at all, 0:06:45.400 --> 0:06:50.080 but what the fun yo? Yo? Like you were just 0:06:50.080 --> 0:06:52.320 fake happy for me on the phone. He gonna write 0:06:52.320 --> 0:06:54.279 me a lot of light damn. So and tell me 0:06:54.279 --> 0:06:57.480 how you really feel, like the sadness. I hope you 0:06:57.560 --> 0:07:01.960 catch AIDS because you you with this, like, but this 0:07:02.000 --> 0:07:05.120 is the thing. What the fund can he be for you? Inside? 0:07:05.680 --> 0:07:09.120 Nothing stay talked about. I got money. I got all 0:07:09.160 --> 0:07:11.120 the oodles and noodles. I got Xbox in my cell. 0:07:11.400 --> 0:07:18.400 Xbox sounded like a motherfucking college student like sious. I 0:07:18.440 --> 0:07:20.600 got all the noodles in my dorm. I got the 0:07:20.640 --> 0:07:25.200 hottest game, all the flavors and noodles. We don't eat 0:07:25.240 --> 0:07:29.200 them out head, Well we do. Did you have to 0:07:29.200 --> 0:07:33.560 eat them like that? That's that's a gourmet meal for you, 0:07:33.560 --> 0:07:35.800 you know, not shipping on you. But don't ever fucking 0:07:35.800 --> 0:07:38.400 come at me like that, right like and then like 0:07:38.480 --> 0:07:40.200 so then I actually went to visit him. Remember he 0:07:40.240 --> 0:07:42.720 tried to get you. He's like, oh he like Jesse, Jesse, 0:07:42.880 --> 0:07:44.600 you don't want you to, you know, come out head 0:07:44.600 --> 0:07:47.920 and visit me. He was like, yeah, I cut you know, 0:07:48.160 --> 0:07:53.120 come from all day, Yo, was fall as funk away, 0:07:53.440 --> 0:07:54.840 had the drop two and a half hour to get 0:07:54.840 --> 0:07:56.360 out there. So I finally went out there one day. 0:07:56.360 --> 0:07:58.360 I went out there on family day for him one time, 0:07:58.600 --> 0:08:00.880 you know, just because you know, I felt like family 0:08:01.040 --> 0:08:03.960 or whatever. This nigga like trying to like come at 0:08:03.960 --> 0:08:05.560 me like she trying to kiss me, and don't like 0:08:05.560 --> 0:08:08.120 back then burns them in front of the other jail niggas, Like, 0:08:08.160 --> 0:08:11.120 oh my god, trying to in front of the other 0:08:11.200 --> 0:08:15.920 jail niggas. Why would you ever trying to lean And 0:08:16.200 --> 0:08:19.400 so y'all never talked about that before. You never never Yo, 0:08:19.440 --> 0:08:21.480 when you come up here, I might kiss you know. 0:08:21.600 --> 0:08:23.360 He didn't say none of that because I would have 0:08:23.360 --> 0:08:25.840 been like, y'a I'm gonna just stay home ya you 0:08:25.840 --> 0:08:27.240 would have said it's just gonna stay on. Yeah. And 0:08:27.240 --> 0:08:28.880 I want to cat my ass because I'm trying to 0:08:28.880 --> 0:08:30.440 burst you in from the jail niggas, because then they're 0:08:30.440 --> 0:08:31.760 gonna point at you and laugh. Are you in the 0:08:32.040 --> 0:08:38.760 hall like that bitch? Backed up? Like yo? Yeah, And 0:08:38.800 --> 0:08:41.520 that's how they that's how they be, Like you, Ben, 0:08:41.559 --> 0:08:44.160 you can be fighting and then because they joking you 0:08:44.200 --> 0:08:47.880 because you got backed up on like damn, hold up, 0:08:47.880 --> 0:08:49.800 hold up. I know the ship getting good, but listen 0:08:49.880 --> 0:08:51.880 to just a couple of seconds of a commercial. If 0:08:51.880 --> 0:08:54.880 you love me, you'll listen, all right. So after he 0:08:55.000 --> 0:08:56.400 you know, sat there and was like, oh, you know, 0:08:56.400 --> 0:08:57.959 I hope we catch the age and stuff, I'm like, look, 0:08:58.080 --> 0:09:00.720 don't you ain't no friend because I don't at talking 0:09:00.760 --> 0:09:03.840 to me like that. Don't fucking communicate with me, don't 0:09:03.880 --> 0:09:07.079 write me, don't call me. I actually blocked this jail. Yes, 0:09:07.120 --> 0:09:09.640 I told him I ain't talked to him. Maybe like 0:09:09.679 --> 0:09:12.640 a year or something like that went by, or maybe 0:09:12.640 --> 0:09:15.520 more than that, and then he comes back around sending 0:09:15.559 --> 0:09:18.320 a letter man, Shay, I'm so sorry, you're like one 0:09:18.360 --> 0:09:21.040 of my best friends. Blah blah blah blah blah. Oh worry, 0:09:21.200 --> 0:09:23.880 so he must have pissed everybody else off. And then 0:09:23.960 --> 0:09:25.760 you try to roll back around to me because you 0:09:25.760 --> 0:09:28.400 know that I enjoyed talking and it's usually like that 0:09:28.600 --> 0:09:30.520 in jail. I mean that ship is like that out 0:09:30.520 --> 0:09:33.240 here too, but definitely in jail because they really have 0:09:33.480 --> 0:09:36.400 nobody but the people that they're in their wit, you 0:09:36.440 --> 0:09:38.720 know what I mean. So when and he gets sold, 0:09:38.760 --> 0:09:40.719 that's one thing I didn't notice about him. He has 0:09:40.720 --> 0:09:43.120 a short ferd Like he gets so fucking angry real 0:09:43.200 --> 0:09:45.800 quick and and just switched. Like you just said, have 0:09:45.920 --> 0:09:47.800 you ever known him to be in a relationship with 0:09:47.960 --> 0:09:52.000 somebody like while he was in there, because so apparently 0:09:52.160 --> 0:09:56.400 he's had you know, several women that he's been communicating with, Yeah, 0:09:56.400 --> 0:09:59.200 that he's been communicating with that he's been in relationships 0:09:59.280 --> 0:10:01.920 with where he's like, oh, you know, this girl is 0:10:01.960 --> 0:10:04.160 going to be my home plane. Like I feel like 0:10:04.640 --> 0:10:07.600 and all act you wealthy. I feel like the goal 0:10:07.679 --> 0:10:11.040 of a jail nigga is to find a bit that 0:10:11.120 --> 0:10:13.720 they could come home to, just so they can have 0:10:13.760 --> 0:10:16.760 somewhere to stay because normally when they get out, they 0:10:16.760 --> 0:10:18.240 have to be on like I guess house and rest 0:10:18.280 --> 0:10:21.240 of something like yeah, what house you going house? You 0:10:21.240 --> 0:10:24.480 know when they come in something. But normally, oh yeah, 0:10:24.559 --> 0:10:26.800 I forgot to do have halfway houses. Yeah they don't 0:10:26.840 --> 0:10:30.800 sucking halfway house. You're trying at home. But that's not 0:10:30.840 --> 0:10:32.960 a lot of to everybody. Everybody is not allowed to 0:10:33.000 --> 0:10:34.839 do that, you know what I'm saying, Like, no, it 0:10:35.600 --> 0:10:37.880 is no halfway house for something. It depends on your 0:10:37.960 --> 0:10:40.480 charge or you know what I'm saying, or like like 0:10:40.679 --> 0:10:43.280 does he work in there? Does he ever working in there? 0:10:43.320 --> 0:10:46.960 So he was working, He was working at one point, 0:10:47.559 --> 0:10:49.920 but I feel like he every time you turned around, 0:10:49.920 --> 0:10:51.840 he's sucking up in there. But you have to have 0:10:51.920 --> 0:10:54.760 good behavior in order to have, you know, any kind 0:10:54.760 --> 0:10:57.400 of work in prison, and every time you turned around, 0:10:57.400 --> 0:10:59.760 he sucking up, Like nigga, you're never gonna come home. 0:11:00.480 --> 0:11:03.240 Like I know, you know, I've heard the people getting time, 0:11:04.080 --> 0:11:06.680 like taking away for having good behavior and stuff like that. 0:11:06.920 --> 0:11:10.319 But it's just like if you can't be good, like 0:11:10.360 --> 0:11:13.240 you're grown ass man, Like what somebody gonna tell you, Okay, Chris, 0:11:13.320 --> 0:11:16.920 be good, you might can go home early. Be good? 0:11:17.120 --> 0:11:19.439 Like why do you why does the motherfucker have to 0:11:19.480 --> 0:11:21.679 tell you that he likes to have his ego stroke 0:11:21.760 --> 0:11:23.600 to you know what I'm saying. Like I noticed like 0:11:23.640 --> 0:11:25.240 when even when he will be talking to me on 0:11:25.240 --> 0:11:27.120 the phone, and because he used to always get people 0:11:27.120 --> 0:11:29.240 to call me when I wouldn't right back right away, 0:11:29.760 --> 0:11:36.080 he would get people to call me like and I'm like, yo, 0:11:35.600 --> 0:11:37.960 don't know what it is. I don't give it anybody 0:11:38.040 --> 0:11:40.320 my number, but I'm like, I gave you my number 0:11:40.320 --> 0:11:42.360 so you can put it on the list, and getting 0:11:42.400 --> 0:11:44.360 niggas to call me like what the funk? And these 0:11:44.400 --> 0:11:46.079 people know who I am? You know what I mean? 0:11:46.160 --> 0:11:50.400 So like the fun you think anybody listening? And then 0:11:50.440 --> 0:11:53.320 my voice is very distinctive, my fucker's I am. So 0:11:54.200 --> 0:11:56.440 I would notice that he loves for his ego to 0:11:56.480 --> 0:12:00.680 be stroked, like like he just likes like excessive compliments 0:12:00.679 --> 0:12:02.880 and ship right like oh, yo know you know you 0:12:02.880 --> 0:12:05.280 want to know you're a good nigga or like you 0:12:05.280 --> 0:12:07.280 you this, that and the other, like I know you 0:12:07.280 --> 0:12:08.880 you know. He sent me pictures one time and I'm 0:12:08.920 --> 0:12:10.480 just like, oh he was like yeah, like what you 0:12:10.520 --> 0:12:14.240 see Damn you don't need say nothing like stuff sucking 0:12:14.280 --> 0:12:17.320 Will Smith? Yeah, yeah, like he like usually been just 0:12:17.320 --> 0:12:18.920 to be telling me like I look, you know what 0:12:18.960 --> 0:12:21.160 I mean, Like, you don't need to say ship because 0:12:21.160 --> 0:12:24.319 I don't look at you like that. Don't look at you. 0:12:24.679 --> 0:12:27.720 It's like a big brother or a fake cousin or 0:12:27.720 --> 0:12:29.959 something like that. Like so what got you to the 0:12:30.000 --> 0:12:31.800 point where you don't talk to him at all? Right now? 0:12:31.880 --> 0:12:34.480 So you know, over time, like I said, every time 0:12:34.520 --> 0:12:36.840 you turn around, he you know, he's doing something, doing something, 0:12:36.840 --> 0:12:39.360 doing something. So but you always forgive him. I always 0:12:39.360 --> 0:12:42.320 forget to take your while. But yeah, but I always 0:12:42.320 --> 0:12:43.839 go back because what I sit there and I try 0:12:43.880 --> 0:12:48.120 to realize is I try to realize this nigga is 0:12:48.200 --> 0:12:51.880 he's going through a lot. He's miserable. He's been imprisoned 0:12:51.960 --> 0:12:55.360 since January of two thousand nine. Like, so, you know, 0:12:55.480 --> 0:12:59.320 I try to understand, like, man, probably great, I probably 0:12:59.320 --> 0:13:02.040 be zapping to flipping out on people if I was 0:13:02.080 --> 0:13:04.840 behind a wall for all this time. So I try to, 0:13:04.920 --> 0:13:07.200 you know, be a little understanding. But it's but so 0:13:07.240 --> 0:13:11.000 much I'm gonna because right because you gotta understand, these 0:13:11.000 --> 0:13:12.360 people didn't do this ship to me. I did this 0:13:12.360 --> 0:13:15.720 ship to myself. And so she don't have to you 0:13:15.720 --> 0:13:18.320 have to he gotta understand, like he has to have discernment, 0:13:18.400 --> 0:13:21.440 like she don't have to be talking to me. I 0:13:21.440 --> 0:13:23.679 don't have to answer the phone. And you know, I'm 0:13:23.720 --> 0:13:25.800 doing you a fucking favor, you know what I'm saying. 0:13:25.800 --> 0:13:29.080 So like I'm out here, you're in there living my 0:13:29.200 --> 0:13:31.679 fucking life, and you know, trying to be a friend 0:13:31.880 --> 0:13:34.440 to a nigger to keep blowing up on me in 0:13:34.600 --> 0:13:38.880 jail like you you keep burning bridges. So so the 0:13:38.960 --> 0:13:41.480 last time, which was actually a few weeks ago, he 0:13:41.600 --> 0:13:43.760 called me, and you know how normally answered the phone, 0:13:43.800 --> 0:13:46.199 I greet like, yo, yo, where the holes at whatever? Whatever? 0:13:46.280 --> 0:13:48.600 You know, So he called and I didn't. I didn't 0:13:48.600 --> 0:13:52.079 greet him that way. I'm like, hey, what's going on here? 0:13:52.120 --> 0:13:55.360 Like damn, you're good? And I was like I'm here. 0:13:55.800 --> 0:13:58.200 He's just like what's wrong? And I was just like, um, 0:13:58.240 --> 0:14:03.920 I just saw online that chest Chris missed and committed suicide. 0:14:04.840 --> 0:14:07.920 And I was sad about that. You know, it's sad 0:14:07.920 --> 0:14:13.320 in me because I'm a suicide survivor and yeah, and 0:14:13.320 --> 0:14:15.560 it's just like I'm sitting there, I'm like, damn, you 0:14:15.600 --> 0:14:18.360 know I read that it said that her mother said 0:14:18.400 --> 0:14:20.520 that she had wrote a note or whatever. SICI I 0:14:20.560 --> 0:14:23.440 know the last time I tried that, I did the 0:14:23.440 --> 0:14:25.840 same thing. That's when you was up in comming who 0:14:25.920 --> 0:14:29.920 was on an ambulance with me? You like, after I wrote, 0:14:29.960 --> 0:14:32.760 you know, I wrote, I wrote, I wrote letters. You know, 0:14:32.800 --> 0:14:35.160 I really was. I wasn't trying to be here, so 0:14:35.320 --> 0:14:38.880 you know, but God wasn't ready for me to be 0:14:39.000 --> 0:14:42.160 with Yeah, he wasn't ready for me to be away 0:14:42.200 --> 0:14:46.600 from away from this world, and he allotted me more time. 0:14:47.120 --> 0:14:50.360 So what's sad in me? Was like, Damn, I met her. 0:14:50.400 --> 0:14:51.960 I met her when I was with you with that 0:14:52.240 --> 0:14:59.840 with the cam Newton keeping up, keeping up. Yeah, yeah, 0:14:59.880 --> 0:15:03.880 but yes you did me and she pictures with her 0:15:03.960 --> 0:15:06.040 videos like she was just you were y'all were talking 0:15:06.080 --> 0:15:08.360 for the longest time. Yeah, she she was just so 0:15:08.480 --> 0:15:11.120 she just seems like just a ball of energy. She's 0:15:11.240 --> 0:15:14.680 so sweet. She's just a pretty girl, you know. And 0:15:14.680 --> 0:15:17.560 I was I was joking, was joking talking about so 0:15:17.720 --> 0:15:19.680 how are you going? How are you gonna play kickball? Boots? 0:15:20.280 --> 0:15:23.080 She was just so cute, you know what I mean, 0:15:23.240 --> 0:15:25.960 like not boojee, not stuck up, very down to earth, 0:15:26.280 --> 0:15:28.360 and like my sister said, she loved to talk, so 0:15:28.520 --> 0:15:31.840 she talked to this girl the whole fucking event. I 0:15:31.920 --> 0:15:33.840 think that's the day you got fine, because you wasn't 0:15:36.680 --> 0:15:38.480 the whole damn time. I'm like, yo, you have to 0:15:38.600 --> 0:15:41.600 get me to the car. You're talking to Missnedo girl. No, 0:15:41.720 --> 0:15:46.320 I was talking to Tori Smith when he was talking bad. 0:15:46.480 --> 0:15:50.040 She just loved talking talking people. And sometimes you know, 0:15:50.120 --> 0:15:51.360 you got people that talk to they'd be like, I 0:15:51.400 --> 0:15:53.440 wish this my getaway. People would be really into our 0:15:53.520 --> 0:15:56.440 conversations because I got something to talk about. This the 0:15:56.480 --> 0:15:59.160 fun you got me sitting there when this motherfucker carefully 0:15:59.200 --> 0:16:05.040 pockets got to talk about episode. You're right, so you was. 0:16:05.240 --> 0:16:07.280 You were telling him that you were stressed out about 0:16:07.320 --> 0:16:08.840 that that I was sad. You know. I ain't like 0:16:08.880 --> 0:16:10.640 I was sitting there boo who crying or nothing like that, 0:16:10.760 --> 0:16:13.040 but it's just like I felt, I felt that you 0:16:13.080 --> 0:16:15.080 didn't with it. Yeah, And he was just like, what 0:16:15.200 --> 0:16:17.360 then are you said for? And I'm just like, damn. 0:16:17.400 --> 0:16:19.440 I was just like, well, I'm sad because I've been 0:16:19.480 --> 0:16:22.360 there before, and so many things just went through my mind, 0:16:22.400 --> 0:16:25.040 like is she getting help? You know? Ever since that 0:16:25.160 --> 0:16:27.720 incident with me, I've been getting help. I haven't had 0:16:27.720 --> 0:16:30.120 any thoughts like that anymore. And I'm just like, damn, 0:16:30.160 --> 0:16:32.120 I wish she had more time. I wish she had 0:16:32.200 --> 0:16:34.280 somebody to talk to. And that's all the things that 0:16:34.400 --> 0:16:36.640 was just going through my mind, Like damn, like I 0:16:36.760 --> 0:16:38.880 wish I could have reached out to her or something, 0:16:39.280 --> 0:16:41.400 you know, just just anything, because it's just like you 0:16:41.600 --> 0:16:43.880 never know, you never know what people are going through. 0:16:44.800 --> 0:16:49.600 This bitch ass nigga gonna say, why the funk are 0:16:49.640 --> 0:16:52.640 you said? Because she made that decision, she chose to 0:16:52.720 --> 0:16:56.360 kill herself, you're still here and she's not. That's her fault. 0:16:57.960 --> 0:17:01.160 I'm like why it was just like that is the 0:17:01.200 --> 0:17:04.720 most insensitive ship you could say about somebody who took 0:17:04.760 --> 0:17:09.120 their life, Like, you never know what people are going through. 0:17:09.240 --> 0:17:11.359 You never know what that girl was going through, what 0:17:11.600 --> 0:17:15.359 demon she was fighting, what struggle she like and was encountering, 0:17:15.640 --> 0:17:18.440 nothing like you don't know, and you're the last person. 0:17:18.520 --> 0:17:21.280 Bit you killed your cousin, girl that whether it was 0:17:21.359 --> 0:17:23.560 by mistake or what the funk a nigga, you killed 0:17:23.560 --> 0:17:26.399 your cousin, You can't say ship. You're so miserable that 0:17:26.480 --> 0:17:29.720 you're gonna say some ignorant ship like that. As a friend, 0:17:30.480 --> 0:17:33.040 I feel like he should have been uh sympathetic. He 0:17:33.040 --> 0:17:36.440 should have been like, oh, you know, damn you know that, 0:17:36.600 --> 0:17:38.639 you know that's said, you know, just just keep your 0:17:38.680 --> 0:17:42.159 head and her family. He felt that way. It's the 0:17:42.240 --> 0:17:45.280 certain ways to say it. Yeah, you don't say ship 0:17:45.440 --> 0:17:47.720 like that, my nigga. Now we got a commercial and 0:17:47.760 --> 0:17:49.639 if you click off of this podcast, I swear I'm 0:17:49.640 --> 0:17:53.080 gonna beat your ass. Listen. So then I didn't even 0:17:53.080 --> 0:17:54.720 get off the phone with him right away. I'm like, Chris, 0:17:55.160 --> 0:17:58.040 that's really insensitive, Like, don't say that. That's ignorant, you know, 0:17:58.119 --> 0:18:00.320 Like you know, I'm real sensitive when it comes two 0:18:00.680 --> 0:18:02.960 things like this, like don't do that. You can't tell 0:18:03.000 --> 0:18:04.840 me what the fun to talk about. I'm gonna keep 0:18:04.840 --> 0:18:06.399 talking about this ship and guess somebod I'm gonna hang 0:18:06.520 --> 0:18:08.960 up on your ads booth. And I hung up on 0:18:09.000 --> 0:18:11.359 them and I blocked them, like don't you know, don't 0:18:11.359 --> 0:18:13.280 do that. So then and this is like I was 0:18:13.359 --> 0:18:16.359 like over overly a good friend, Like he had me 0:18:17.000 --> 0:18:19.000 make his fucking cell buddy send me pictures of his 0:18:19.040 --> 0:18:21.520 cell buddy, had me make his cell buddy a Gmail 0:18:21.600 --> 0:18:23.480 in a in a damn Instagram page for what. I 0:18:23.560 --> 0:18:26.159 don't know all these jail niggas want Instagram pages, but 0:18:26.600 --> 0:18:30.520 it is what had me make his cell buddy Instagram page, 0:18:30.560 --> 0:18:32.080 take pictures of the pictures or whatever, and was like, 0:18:32.400 --> 0:18:34.000 you know, just send the pictures back when you get 0:18:34.000 --> 0:18:35.680 a chance. I'm like, all right, so I feel like 0:18:35.760 --> 0:18:37.320 this is the time to send them back. Since I 0:18:37.359 --> 0:18:39.640 didn't cut you to off, I could have just threw 0:18:39.640 --> 0:18:41.639 the pictures away and making ell buddy like brash your 0:18:41.840 --> 0:18:47.360 head up against the metawest toilet, Nigga, where my pictures? Hey, 0:18:47.480 --> 0:18:51.119 y'all you're fighting. You're not over the motherfucking pictures. You 0:18:51.119 --> 0:18:53.040 don't know. You know, I'm niggas like I'm gonna prunt 0:18:53.040 --> 0:18:57.200 them out for you. But you know, so I sent 0:18:57.280 --> 0:18:59.160 it back, and I sent it with a little letter 0:18:59.200 --> 0:19:01.680 and I'm typed yped it because I hate writing, so 0:19:01.760 --> 0:19:04.719 I typed it and I was like, you funked up. 0:19:04.960 --> 0:19:07.720 I told you had one one more chance. That's it. 0:19:08.160 --> 0:19:10.040 Like I can't funk with you no more. You you're 0:19:10.080 --> 0:19:12.840 ignorant as fucking you're insensitive and I just cannot deal 0:19:12.880 --> 0:19:15.119 with that, Like my mental can't can't deal with that. 0:19:15.320 --> 0:19:17.919 Like poofy on, and I put the middle thing emotion 0:19:18.000 --> 0:19:20.360 on that this nigga gonna send me a letter back. 0:19:20.760 --> 0:19:24.639 It was like, you really need fucking help. Yeah, you 0:19:24.720 --> 0:19:28.000 need to seek some mental help. Your kids deserve it. 0:19:28.520 --> 0:19:32.120 Get a fucking life. I got a life out here. Yeah, 0:19:32.240 --> 0:19:38.680 you got life too, motherfucker don't. I just was like, 0:19:39.720 --> 0:19:41.360 look at that lodder, and I was like, rip rip, 0:19:41.440 --> 0:19:45.760 ribbedy rip, Like you what ribbedy rip? You know she's 0:19:45.800 --> 0:19:50.359