WEBVTT - “MY LIFE IS LIKE THE LION KING”

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hello, Hey, Hello, Hi, what is your name?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna go with Nancy.

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<v Speaker 1>Nancy like Nancy Drew the famous Uh what does she do?

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<v Speaker 1>She's like a detective, right?

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<v Speaker 2>I think? Yeah, I think she's like a detective of

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<v Speaker 2>a book. Right. I think.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, that's cool. Is that uh where you came up

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<v Speaker 1>with the name Nancy?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I was. I don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>I was thinking like a fake name, and I just

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<v Speaker 3>thought of Nancy because nobody would guess that I am Nancy.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know I would be I could be convinced

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<v Speaker 1>that your real name is Nancy. You sound like a Nancy.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh cool, I'm fucked.

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<v Speaker 1>Wow, you know you're not fucked. You're not fucked. You're

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<v Speaker 1>not fucked. I'm gonna assume your gender real cood? Are

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<v Speaker 1>you a man?

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<v Speaker 2>I am a man?

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<v Speaker 1>I kind of feel like like a really like I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know why, but I feel like like a really

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<v Speaker 1>like Nancy could be the name of like a really confident,

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<v Speaker 1>attractive man. I really feel that way.

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<v Speaker 2>That's that's a pretty good. Yeah. If I ever get

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<v Speaker 2>a son on Monday with me Nancy.

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<v Speaker 1>Well I wouldn't. You shouldn't do that experiment on your son.

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<v Speaker 1>You should let some other poor motherfucker try that one out.

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<v Speaker 1>But I think it could work. I think Nancy could

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<v Speaker 1>work as like as a masculine name, like well, it's

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<v Speaker 1>like well like like actually, I mean there's there's Clancy,

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<v Speaker 1>which is like an extremely masculine name. That's like a

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<v Speaker 1>lumberjack name, Clancy.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, there's that guy Tom Clancy.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't even know who that guy is, but he

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<v Speaker 3>just shows up on video games.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah. Yeah, he's killed a bunch of people. What's up, Nancy?

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<v Speaker 1>How you doing? What can I house? What made you

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<v Speaker 1>want to call this phone?

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<v Speaker 2>This is crazy.

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<v Speaker 3>I'd never thought that I would get here, but I

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<v Speaker 3>when I was eavesdrop, I mean daydreaming while I do

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<v Speaker 3>quite a lot, I thought about I could tell you

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<v Speaker 3>a story of how I was a CEO of a

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<v Speaker 3>small company at an age of nineteen.

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<v Speaker 1>You were the CEO of a company at the age

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<v Speaker 1>of nineteen. What kind of company was that? Were you

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<v Speaker 1>a drug dealer?

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<v Speaker 3>No? So it was actually my dad's company. It was

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<v Speaker 3>like a physical therapy machine manufacturing company.

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<v Speaker 2>So like there was like heating paths and.

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<v Speaker 4>Like massage chairs, I guess.

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<v Speaker 3>And then yeah, and then he suddenly died. Oh, I

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<v Speaker 3>had to take over the company for like a week.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm really sorry to hear about your dad, But also

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<v Speaker 1>I have to imagine that a lot of the people

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<v Speaker 1>who worked at that company were a little pissed off

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<v Speaker 1>that the CEO's nineteen year old son was now telling

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<v Speaker 1>them what to do.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, yeah, I mean what was I was just.

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<v Speaker 3>Trying to, I don't know, just survive. I mean. The

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<v Speaker 3>worst thing was my uncle was trying to basically overthrow

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<v Speaker 3>me and trying to take over the company and his wife.

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<v Speaker 3>So basically my aunt knew that and was scheming with

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<v Speaker 3>basically rest of the family to prevent him from doing that.

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<v Speaker 1>This is the plot. I think this is the plot

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<v Speaker 1>of the Lion King, right, this is the plot. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>this is the plot of the Lion King. Simba's dad,

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<v Speaker 1>Mufasa dies and so he becomes the king of the

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<v Speaker 1>of the massage chair company, and his uncle gets like

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<v Speaker 1>really pissed off and jealous and tries to dethrone him.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, that's true.

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<v Speaker 1>You live, bro, you lived the Lion King, but for

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<v Speaker 1>massage chairs.

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<v Speaker 3>I guess, yeah, I guess I am the massage chair king.

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<v Speaker 2>Lion King.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you're the massage chair lion king. So what happened

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<v Speaker 1>with your uncle? Did he like, did he banish you?

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<v Speaker 2>No?

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<v Speaker 3>So actually what happened was I was a CEO and

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<v Speaker 3>then my aunt came up to me and was like, listen, dude,

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<v Speaker 3>this is like your uncle's trying to overthrow the company.

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<v Speaker 3>But your dad never thought that he was a good

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<v Speaker 3>like a good fit for the CEO, and I don't agree.

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<v Speaker 2>Also, so.

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<v Speaker 3>We're going to create a water tight contract so that

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<v Speaker 3>he cannot take over the company. So me at nineteen.

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<v Speaker 3>By the way, this I like, I'm an American And

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<v Speaker 3>this happened in Indonesia because that's where my dad's business was.

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<v Speaker 2>So I was like jet lagged.

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<v Speaker 3>Because I just flew like twelve hours out of freaking

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<v Speaker 3>nowhere all into my.

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<v Speaker 1>Your dad, your dad passes away, and then like how

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<v Speaker 1>soon after you get the news? Are you thrown on

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<v Speaker 1>a plane to Indonesia?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, like the day after.

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<v Speaker 1>That's insane because.

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<v Speaker 3>I got I got the call from my sister like, oh,

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<v Speaker 3>by the way, dad died, and the next say, I

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<v Speaker 3>flew and then I went there. I don't I don't

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<v Speaker 3>know how long signed the plane ride was probably like hours,

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<v Speaker 3>and then I got there and then basically his like

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<v Speaker 3>biggest shareholder slashed. His mentor who's like seventy years old,

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<v Speaker 3>was basically told me like, by the way, this company

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<v Speaker 3>is too small, doesn't have a board, and because this

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<v Speaker 3>is a very patriarchal culture, you're the only son, so

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<v Speaker 3>you are in charge.

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<v Speaker 4>So I was like, what the hell.

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<v Speaker 3>So that's how kind of it became that and then

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<v Speaker 3>basically I was like the proxy. My mom made most

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<v Speaker 3>of the decision, but I was kind of like the figurehead.

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<v Speaker 2>I guess.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>So yeah, I.

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<v Speaker 1>Mean that's how most that I think that's how most

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<v Speaker 1>organizations work, is that there's a guy who like is

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<v Speaker 1>you know, he's the quote unquote CEO, president, whatever, but

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<v Speaker 1>it's really you know, his mom or the shareholders that

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<v Speaker 1>actually make the decisions.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I mean, yeah, that's true. Yeah, so that's kind

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<v Speaker 3>of what I told the shareholder to to Like, dude,

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<v Speaker 3>I am in college, I don't know any things about business,

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<v Speaker 3>but yeah, so we have to create like a watertight

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<v Speaker 3>contract so that my uncle could not take over. And

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<v Speaker 3>then we were also afraid that when he finds out

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<v Speaker 3>the news that he was not going to take over

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<v Speaker 3>the company, which I thought he thought it was guaranteed.

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<v Speaker 3>We had to like basically create like a protection system

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<v Speaker 3>for my aunt so he doesn't do anything rational out

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<v Speaker 3>of anger.

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<v Speaker 2>So yeah, so that's what happened.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I I was curious about that, Like, what happened

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<v Speaker 1>with your uncle? Did he did he crash out? Did

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<v Speaker 1>he get pissed?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 3>I mean so, so this was kind of the game plan.

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<v Speaker 3>The game plan was, we write the contract, we give

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<v Speaker 3>it to my aunt with an excuse that the seven

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<v Speaker 3>year old shareholder will basically take my place in an excuse.

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<v Speaker 2>That I have to go back to school, blah blah blah.

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<v Speaker 3>And and basically like I flew out to basically get

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<v Speaker 3>rid of, like to not be in the mess when

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<v Speaker 3>it happened, I just told them to just message me

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<v Speaker 3>if shit hits the fan, and all I heard was

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<v Speaker 3>all good, So I'm assuming shit did not hit the

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<v Speaker 3>fan too much.

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<v Speaker 1>Is your dad Indonesian? Is your family like Indonesian or

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<v Speaker 1>do you guys just like why is the company in Indonesia?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 3>So my family, So, my my ethnicity is Korean. I

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<v Speaker 3>am from here, but my dad's family is from Korea.

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<v Speaker 3>And I guess, like I don't really know the logistics,

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<v Speaker 3>but I just I think just opening a company and

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<v Speaker 3>managing a company was a lot cheaper Indonesia and my

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<v Speaker 3>aunt and uncle who I spoke about before, lived there,

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<v Speaker 3>so I think just because of like connections and yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>just mostly connections and opportunity. I'm assuming he started his

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<v Speaker 3>company in Indonesia and he was going through shit too.

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<v Speaker 3>I did not know this, but then like apparently like

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<v Speaker 3>he had like all the right proper visas and everything,

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<v Speaker 3>but apparently like police will be waiting outside his house

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<v Speaker 3>waiting for a bribe or if you know, if he

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<v Speaker 3>doesn't bribe them, then they can just deport him.

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<v Speaker 2>So he was going through that too. So it was

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<v Speaker 2>a lot were.

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<v Speaker 1>You were you were you close with your dad at

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<v Speaker 1>the time that he passed away? Did you have much

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<v Speaker 1>of a relationship with him?

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<v Speaker 2>So this is kind of the weird thing.

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<v Speaker 3>I think we kind of did so, like because of

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<v Speaker 3>his business and because I was in America. I like

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<v Speaker 3>the last time before he died, Like the last time

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<v Speaker 3>I saw him was like I don't know, like ten

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<v Speaker 3>years ago, and he would WOA like once in a while,

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<v Speaker 3>like but like he we would always like talk.

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<v Speaker 2>On the phone every I.

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<v Speaker 3>Would say, like like three four.

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<v Speaker 2>Times a week we would talk.

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<v Speaker 3>But whoa, yeah, okay, you like everybody, go ahead. Oh,

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<v Speaker 3>I was just gonna say, like everybody thought like my

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<v Speaker 3>mom and dad were divorced because like they're separated for

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<v Speaker 3>so long, But honestly, it was just my dad was

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<v Speaker 3>just financially supporting us.

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<v Speaker 2>And that's it.

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<v Speaker 1>Bro, hold on, hold on, hold on. So you're telling me, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>you're telling me, and you were living with your mom,

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<v Speaker 1>like your mom was the parent in the house with you. Yeah, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>so you're telling me. Do you tell me that your

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<v Speaker 1>dad went to Indonesia and just didn't come back for

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<v Speaker 1>ten years, and so you but you would still but

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<v Speaker 1>you would still talk to him on the phone three

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<v Speaker 1>times a week, but you didn't see him in person

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<v Speaker 1>in ten years. Yeah, and he didn't see your mom

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<v Speaker 1>in person for ten years.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean he did like come to visit like once,

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<v Speaker 3>I think, like in the middle of it to like

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<v Speaker 3>maybe three four, like maybe like five years since we

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<v Speaker 3>were separated because of the whole thing. So I saw

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<v Speaker 3>him once then, but like other than that, yeah, it

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<v Speaker 3>was it was kind of years of not seeing him.

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<v Speaker 3>So yeah, it was kind of like a time machine too,

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<v Speaker 3>because he would remember, like things that I liked five

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<v Speaker 3>years ago, and when I saw him that day, he

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<v Speaker 3>would buy things or give me gifts that I was

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<v Speaker 3>interested in five years ago and bring him and was like, oh,

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<v Speaker 3>I was a child and now I'm more of a

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<v Speaker 3>teenager now, so I'm not really into cartoons on my

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<v Speaker 3>T shirt.

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<v Speaker 1>But okay, you know, damn man, So you what's do

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<v Speaker 1>you give? Any Like, Okay, where in America were you even?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna say very vague and say like.

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<v Speaker 1>West Coast okay, And so yeah, I mean, how did

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<v Speaker 1>it feel when your dad passed away? Because I mean

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<v Speaker 1>that's such a interest, that's such an interesting I've never

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<v Speaker 1>heard I you know, obviously, you know there are people

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I've talked to on the show and that

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<v Speaker 1>I've heard of of, like you know, their dads weren't

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<v Speaker 1>in their lives, and then you know those people whose

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<v Speaker 1>dads are in their lives, but your dad is like

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<v Speaker 1>it was like a phone.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I mean, it was definitely kind of weird because

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know, like my my siblings were more attached

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<v Speaker 3>with my dad for sure.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>I think they just had better memories of him. I have,

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<v Speaker 3>like mental issues that like long term memory is like

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<v Speaker 3>very foggy because of it, so I don't remember much.

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<v Speaker 3>So yeah, so like I would say, like a lot

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<v Speaker 3>of most of my memories just like of his voice,

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<v Speaker 3>I guess. I mean I do still like remember like

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<v Speaker 3>little slivers of seeing him and things like that. But then, yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>I think that was kind of the thing was like

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<v Speaker 3>on the plane, I just remember thinking like, oh, like

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<v Speaker 3>last time I saw him was like five years ago,

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<v Speaker 3>and the next time I'm going to see him as

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<v Speaker 3>like dead, which was true, I did see him dead,

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<v Speaker 3>But then like also it was also like everybody around

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<v Speaker 3>me was like I don't know, It's like was like

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<v Speaker 3>urging me to be sadder than I looked, and I

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<v Speaker 3>felt like I had to be crying and be sad,

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<v Speaker 3>but I don't know, and I kind of felt bad

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<v Speaker 3>about it too. I was like, this is my dad,

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<v Speaker 3>Like yeah, I'm like very sad about it, but like

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<v Speaker 3>I don't look like, you know, like my mom who's

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<v Speaker 3>like on the floor like about to pass out, you know.

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<v Speaker 2>What I mean?

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<v Speaker 1>So your mom is very sad?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, yeah, my mom was very sad.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, And but did she see him very often over

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<v Speaker 1>those ten years?

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<v Speaker 3>No, she was like with us, so it was kind

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<v Speaker 3>of like that too. I mean, she's kind of an

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<v Speaker 3>odd character too. She like she's one person that I

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<v Speaker 3>know who like genuinely is okay without interacting with humans

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<v Speaker 3>as much.

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<v Speaker 2>If that.

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<v Speaker 3>Like, I've never like seen her really lonely, and she

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<v Speaker 3>literally never.

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<v Speaker 2>Really gets out of the house.

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<v Speaker 3>She has like maybe one or two friends, so I

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<v Speaker 3>don't know, And I think like my dad was maybe

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<v Speaker 3>the one anchor she had at that time, so I mean,

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<v Speaker 3>and also, you know, like he's her husband's I guess

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<v Speaker 3>it makes sense that he was.

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<v Speaker 2>She was very devastated.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting. Interesting, why are you the youngest or are you

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<v Speaker 1>are you the oldest?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm the middle.

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<v Speaker 3>Child, so but like, but I have two sisters, so

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<v Speaker 3>I guess I guess like the logistic was like I'm

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<v Speaker 3>the only man of the house. Yeah, and it's like yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>and it's like a traditional Asian household, so I think

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<v Speaker 3>that's kind of how it was. And also my older

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<v Speaker 3>sister could not leave the country at the time because

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<v Speaker 3>of like visa and issues like that.

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<v Speaker 5>So huh.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting. So how's your relationship with your mom?

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<v Speaker 4>Oh?

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<v Speaker 3>Not the greatest, to be honest, I mean we are

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<v Speaker 3>working on it, I.

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<v Speaker 4>Guess, but I like she.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean we still like talking like once in a while.

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<v Speaker 3>But so my mom's kind of a has an odd

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<v Speaker 3>personality in a way that like other moms would like

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<v Speaker 3>really appreciate, like if their son calls them and you know,

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<v Speaker 3>but like she's more of the person like if I call,

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<v Speaker 3>then she's like, only call me if you have like

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<v Speaker 3>an objective, if there's something that we need to talk about. Yeah, yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>she's Yeah, she's very much like that. I mean, she's

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<v Speaker 3>gotten better because I've like told her like, hey, like

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<v Speaker 3>I would just want to catch up and you know,

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<v Speaker 3>like see how you're doing. Because now she travels for work,

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<v Speaker 3>so so you know, like I would love to just

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<v Speaker 3>catch up. So now she's better at just answering my

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<v Speaker 3>phone and but yeah, but she's kind of a NodD ball.

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<v Speaker 3>But I think that's kind of how she survives the

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<v Speaker 3>whole turmoil too, because I think I think that's just

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<v Speaker 3>allowed her to be more resilient.

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<v Speaker 2>I guess, bro.

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<v Speaker 1>How are you doing like like all that, like let

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<v Speaker 1>me let me stop you real quick. All right, so

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<v Speaker 1>you were this had okay, so to go back to

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<v Speaker 1>your main story. Okay, So you became the CEO of

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<v Speaker 1>this company. You were there for like a week, and

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<v Speaker 1>now who's running the company now?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, so that's seventy year old shareholder. So we

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<v Speaker 3>basically created the contract and said, hey, you're going to

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<v Speaker 3>take over the company, and and he was actually very

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<v Speaker 3>nice about it, and he said, you know, like you

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<v Speaker 3>guys are still the family. So what profit like comes

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<v Speaker 3>out of it, Like, we will give like livery percentage

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<v Speaker 3>of it too, And I and I think, and I think,

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know if this is correct, but I just remember,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm like, I'm just doing this to say things because

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<v Speaker 3>Danny Jobs, I generally don't care about profit. I don't

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<v Speaker 3>care about money. This is a whole shit show.

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<v Speaker 2>That I don't want to be a part of.

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<v Speaker 3>Inter So so I remember I just left, and I

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<v Speaker 3>told my mom too. I was like, I don't want

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<v Speaker 3>to be a part of this. If things happened, things happen.

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<v Speaker 3>If you can, you just take care of it, because

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<v Speaker 3>I don't want to be a part of it. And

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<v Speaker 3>I think last thing I heard was that basically like

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<v Speaker 3>that company got liquidated, and I think it got consumed

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<v Speaker 3>by another bigger company, if I remember correctly. So because

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<v Speaker 3>I remember I was like, I was like receiving chats

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<v Speaker 3>from my aunt, just like updates or like, and I

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<v Speaker 3>would just ignore them because because my mom would just

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<v Speaker 3>deal with it, and I just that's the past. I

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<v Speaker 3>just want to leave. But then I stopped hearing them,

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<v Speaker 3>and then I remember my mom was like, oh, yeah, that.

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<v Speaker 2>Company is no more.

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<v Speaker 3>So I was like, okay, well good for good for us,

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<v Speaker 3>I guess. So yeah, so that's what happened to the company.

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<v Speaker 1>How how okay? So this was when you were in nineteen.

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<v Speaker 1>How old are you now?

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<v Speaker 3>I am now almost twenty nine, thirty thirty?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh oh fuck, oh shit, okay, damn all right, so

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<v Speaker 1>this was a long time ago.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, yeah, this was a long time ago. Yeah yeah, yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>in many years of therapy and not like a real one.

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<v Speaker 2>And then so I'm I'm able to talk about it.

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<v Speaker 1>I guess, bro, how you okay? So back to what

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<v Speaker 1>I Yeah, how you doing now? Man? What's up? Goddamn

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<v Speaker 1>eleven years? Okay, what's up? How you doing? Oh?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm doing great now.

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<v Speaker 3>I just tell this story and people are like, to

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<v Speaker 3>my friends, I guess and They're like, dude, this is

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<v Speaker 3>like a drama. And I'm like, uh, yeah, I guess.

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<v Speaker 2>So I'm doing great though.

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<v Speaker 3>Now I am in a PhD program and I'm about

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<v Speaker 3>to graduate and yeah, so everything's going pretty well.

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<v Speaker 1>Cool. Do you still talk to your mom or is

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<v Speaker 1>it like you know, she's like, only call me when

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<v Speaker 1>you need some.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh actually yeah?

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<v Speaker 3>So oh So I actually just got back from a

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<v Speaker 3>family Redian trip because because my mom's mom, so my grandma,

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<v Speaker 3>she's like ninety, so my mom wanted this to be

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<v Speaker 3>like a last little trip before she probably will pass

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<v Speaker 3>away soon. So I actually just.

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<v Speaker 2>Got back from family reunion with my mom, my.

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<v Speaker 3>Siblings, and my uncle and cousins who I have not

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<v Speaker 3>seen for like twenty years. So I saw them for

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<v Speaker 3>the first time in like twenty years, like two three

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<v Speaker 3>days ago, which was pretty wild.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, and do you still keep up with your

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<v Speaker 1>siblings your sisters?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah yeah those Yeah, my sisters are like I'm

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<v Speaker 3>kind of the I guess, like my anchor to the family.

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<v Speaker 3>I like they I still like hang out with them

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<v Speaker 3>and get along with them and text them.

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<v Speaker 1>So yeah, nice, man, Uh, you gotta you gotta, you

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<v Speaker 1>gotta a lady a guy in your life. What's what's

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<v Speaker 1>going on over there?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 3>I actually I recently started dating this girl. I mean,

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<v Speaker 3>like we've been talking for like four.

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<v Speaker 2>Months, but uh like.

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<v Speaker 3>And like recently became serious.

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<v Speaker 6>I guess.

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<v Speaker 3>Cool.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah she's pretty cool.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Cool. Do you do you like get did you, like, say,

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<v Speaker 1>did you get any money from from this company that

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<v Speaker 1>you like saved it all? Or was that kind of

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<v Speaker 1>just like a was that was that lucrative at all?

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<v Speaker 2>Actually?

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<v Speaker 3>No, So when we like I remember like when like

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<v Speaker 3>when we were just processing everything, we I remember just

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<v Speaker 3>like counting the investments, like because a lot of investments

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<v Speaker 3>actually comes with death.

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<v Speaker 2>I guess I just.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know how money works, but it's basically the

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<v Speaker 3>profits that we were making at the time were basically

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<v Speaker 3>split even with like the depth that the company had.

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<v Speaker 3>So I think we Yeah, so I think we basically

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<v Speaker 3>didn't get anything. Or if we did, I think that

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<v Speaker 3>covered form like the funeral and the other stuff that

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<v Speaker 3>we had to do.

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<v Speaker 2>While we were there.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, we just broke even.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Huh. This is an interesting, interesting story. This is very interesting.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you feel like what you said you went through

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<v Speaker 1>like multiple years of therapy or whatever, Like, do you

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<v Speaker 1>do you think like this untraditional or I guess I don't.

0:23:58.359 --> 0:24:01.800
<v Speaker 1>Maybe it's not untraditional, maybe it it is traditional. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't fuck know, But is it like do you think

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<v Speaker 1>this family dynamic had like a long term effect on

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<v Speaker 1>you now that you're like, you know, approaching thirty, Like,

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<v Speaker 1>do you feel like it's like like like it's still

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<v Speaker 1>like lingering somehow.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean like it's something that I personally like steer

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<v Speaker 3>away from it, so like you know, like the whole

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<v Speaker 3>like Asian traditional like ivy idea of like oh, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>like no matter what your parents do, like it could

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<v Speaker 3>it could do like absolutely one hundred percent wrong, Like

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<v Speaker 3>you know, you still need to follow them, and you

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<v Speaker 3>know you need to like basically you know, support them

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<v Speaker 3>until they die, and you know you'd be feel like

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<v Speaker 3>you'd have to be indebted to them, like for the

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<v Speaker 3>rest of your life kind of thing. My sisters still

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<v Speaker 3>kind of believe that. I think that's why they are

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<v Speaker 3>more like family oriented and still like live with my

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<v Speaker 3>like live near my mom and things, and I live

0:25:03.720 --> 0:25:07.800
<v Speaker 3>across the country now. But I think I just kind

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<v Speaker 3>of feared really away from that, you know. I think

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<v Speaker 3>that's also why I clash with my mom a lot,

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<v Speaker 3>because my sisters are always like you know, like it is,

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<v Speaker 3>that is how she is, you know, so just don't

0:25:21.720 --> 0:25:26.719
<v Speaker 3>make her mad, you know, just like move along with

0:25:26.760 --> 0:25:30.440
<v Speaker 3>it while I try to kind of, as they put it,

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<v Speaker 3>like like put more fuel in the fire, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>like if like I try to be like, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>she what she said or what she did was wrong,

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<v Speaker 3>like we should not do this, you know. So actually

0:25:43.680 --> 0:25:46.640
<v Speaker 3>another crazy thing now that you say this, so kind

0:25:46.640 --> 0:25:50.600
<v Speaker 3>of going off with that ideology, Like my mom actually

0:25:50.640 --> 0:25:55.520
<v Speaker 3>never told my grandma that my dad is dead. So

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<v Speaker 3>even during their family reunion, my grandma still thought my

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<v Speaker 3>dad was alive and was asking me like what your

0:26:03.720 --> 0:26:07.600
<v Speaker 3>could your dad not come to the reunion because he's busy?

0:26:07.640 --> 0:26:09.479
<v Speaker 3>And I was like, yeah, he's just really busy.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh how long how long after he died was this?

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, this was like.

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<v Speaker 3>Last week, so I guess it was like Jesus, it's

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<v Speaker 3>been like ten years.

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<v Speaker 1>That's kind of crazy.

0:26:28.400 --> 0:26:28.800
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>So yeah, So like I always say, like, there's gonna

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<v Speaker 3>be that, like my Grandma's gonna be that meme of

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<v Speaker 3>like a surprised dude's face, like when she goes up

0:26:38.600 --> 0:26:39.960
<v Speaker 3>to heaven and sees my dad.

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<v Speaker 2>Like why the fuck are you here? You know.

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<v Speaker 1>So, so, yeah, interesting what Nancy?

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<v Speaker 3>Right?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Nancy, I'm gonna go. I'm gonna do this. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know how many people we got hanging out in

0:26:55.560 --> 0:26:59.480
<v Speaker 1>the live twitch chap, but if anyone in the live

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<v Speaker 1>twitch chat has questions for Nancy, I'm gonna I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 1>let let's let's answer some questions or feed you some

0:27:08.840 --> 0:27:13.359
<v Speaker 1>questions from the live twitch chat if the twitch chat

0:27:13.400 --> 0:27:19.479
<v Speaker 1>wants to ask any questions. Sometimes the twitch chat ask questions,

0:27:19.480 --> 0:27:22.040
<v Speaker 1>other times they just talk to each other about, uh,

0:27:22.480 --> 0:27:24.880
<v Speaker 1>whatever is going on in their life. Okay, here we go.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, someone said, why did you not tell the

0:27:29.119 --> 0:27:31.639
<v Speaker 1>grandma that your dad is dead?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, so, like so, my family's reasoning was, like she's

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<v Speaker 3>very old because she was like eighty at that time,

0:27:41.680 --> 0:27:45.040
<v Speaker 3>and they thought that the news of it, like they

0:27:45.040 --> 0:27:48.479
<v Speaker 3>were very close, like he was like she she treated

0:27:49.280 --> 0:27:52.639
<v Speaker 3>him like like her own son. So they thought that

0:27:52.960 --> 0:27:56.320
<v Speaker 3>if she found out that he was dead, then that

0:27:56.400 --> 0:27:59.719
<v Speaker 3>would cost so much like mental stress on him on her,

0:27:59.840 --> 0:28:05.480
<v Speaker 3>that she would also die. But yeah, so that's what

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<v Speaker 3>that was the reasoning.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, that makes sense. What's your PhD in?

0:28:13.920 --> 0:28:14.280
<v Speaker 6>Oh?

0:28:14.320 --> 0:28:17.959
<v Speaker 3>So, I'm gonna also be very vague and say, like

0:28:18.359 --> 0:28:22.280
<v Speaker 3>related to some medical science research, is what I'm gonna say.

0:28:22.359 --> 0:28:25.359
<v Speaker 1>That sounds important. That sounds like it's good. It sounds

0:28:25.359 --> 0:28:28.679
<v Speaker 1>like you're doing something important and real. You're not getting

0:28:28.720 --> 0:28:31.320
<v Speaker 1>like if you're not doing like film history or some bullshit.

0:28:34.080 --> 0:28:37.280
<v Speaker 1>Someone people are saying, did the uncle kill the dad?

0:28:37.440 --> 0:28:39.200
<v Speaker 1>Do you think your uncle killed your dad?

0:28:40.840 --> 0:28:41.080
<v Speaker 2>No?

0:28:41.480 --> 0:28:44.480
<v Speaker 3>I know that for sure, that's not what happened. So

0:28:45.680 --> 0:28:49.320
<v Speaker 3>he actually died from like a blain brain bleed. Actually,

0:28:49.360 --> 0:28:50.600
<v Speaker 3>this is a really.

0:28:50.360 --> 0:28:51.240
<v Speaker 2>Crazy story too.

0:28:51.280 --> 0:28:54.240
<v Speaker 3>So my dad had high blood pressure for like the

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<v Speaker 3>longest time, and I guess like he was like out

0:28:59.480 --> 0:29:04.040
<v Speaker 3>in the middle I love nowhere like in Indonesia for

0:29:04.120 --> 0:29:09.720
<v Speaker 3>like a business meeting with that share holder that that

0:29:09.800 --> 0:29:13.840
<v Speaker 3>I talked about, and I guess like an aneurysm in

0:29:13.840 --> 0:29:17.760
<v Speaker 3>his brain like burst in the middle of night, because

0:29:17.800 --> 0:29:19.880
<v Speaker 3>I guess he was just very stressed about that busy

0:29:20.240 --> 0:29:26.080
<v Speaker 3>So like two am, three am, like my shareholder, the

0:29:26.160 --> 0:29:28.760
<v Speaker 3>shareholder guy said, you know, I'm gonna give him a name.

0:29:29.040 --> 0:29:30.600
<v Speaker 2>He's named Brian. So Brian.

0:29:30.840 --> 0:29:33.640
<v Speaker 3>Apparently, like I was sleeping next to him in the

0:29:33.720 --> 0:29:38.360
<v Speaker 3>hotel room and my dad like suddenly like turned on

0:29:38.440 --> 0:29:40.920
<v Speaker 3>the night lamp and was like my meds, my meds,

0:29:40.960 --> 0:29:45.959
<v Speaker 3>and then fell down and then uh he was and

0:29:46.000 --> 0:29:50.480
<v Speaker 3>then like the nearest hospital was like I think they

0:29:50.520 --> 0:29:55.280
<v Speaker 3>said like five hours, and so the ambulance was driving

0:29:55.320 --> 0:29:56.400
<v Speaker 3>for five hours.

0:29:56.440 --> 0:29:57.840
<v Speaker 2>But obviously if you have a.

0:29:57.720 --> 0:30:00.840
<v Speaker 3>Brain bleed, you don't have five hours. So I guess

0:30:00.840 --> 0:30:03.480
<v Speaker 3>he passed away in the ambulance and just arrived dead

0:30:03.520 --> 0:30:04.320
<v Speaker 3>at the hospital.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh man, So yeah, fuck man, he was in the middle.

0:30:07.800 --> 0:30:10.080
<v Speaker 1>He was like in the middle of nowhere, Indonesia, five

0:30:10.120 --> 0:30:12.600
<v Speaker 1>hours away from a hospital and got a brain aneurysm

0:30:12.600 --> 0:30:14.480
<v Speaker 1>because he was stressed out about a meeting.

0:30:15.880 --> 0:30:16.480
<v Speaker 2>Exactly.

0:30:16.880 --> 0:30:20.040
<v Speaker 1>Yes, nuts man. Do you think how old.

0:30:19.920 --> 0:30:24.240
<v Speaker 2>Was he at that time?

0:30:25.120 --> 0:30:26.480
<v Speaker 3>I think he was like.

0:30:28.720 --> 0:30:30.880
<v Speaker 2>Early fifties, mid fifties maybe.

0:30:31.200 --> 0:30:34.480
<v Speaker 1>Shit. Man, does that make you think about like life

0:30:34.480 --> 0:30:35.120
<v Speaker 1>at all? Are you?

0:30:35.240 --> 0:30:35.480
<v Speaker 3>Are you?

0:30:35.600 --> 0:30:37.440
<v Speaker 1>Like, damn, I gotta make sure I'm not working so

0:30:37.520 --> 0:30:39.640
<v Speaker 1>hard I don't get a fucking like brain bleed.

0:30:41.200 --> 0:30:41.360
<v Speaker 2>Oh.

0:30:41.640 --> 0:30:45.160
<v Speaker 3>I mean like for first few years, I was like

0:30:46.120 --> 0:30:49.120
<v Speaker 3>in this constant state, like I could die any moment.

0:30:49.480 --> 0:30:49.960
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

0:30:50.040 --> 0:30:52.200
<v Speaker 2>So yeah, I was like a.

0:30:52.200 --> 0:30:54.920
<v Speaker 3>Constant like I was like you know, like I remember

0:30:54.960 --> 0:30:57.240
<v Speaker 3>I was like walking down the street and I will

0:30:57.280 --> 0:30:59.720
<v Speaker 3>be like I could like that bus could hit me,

0:31:00.160 --> 0:31:04.040
<v Speaker 3>or you know, like something could follow my head and

0:31:04.080 --> 0:31:06.120
<v Speaker 3>I could die. And I was like in a constant

0:31:06.480 --> 0:31:12.280
<v Speaker 3>stead of panic. But now I kind of like flipped

0:31:12.280 --> 0:31:16.360
<v Speaker 3>the other way of like I can die any moment, like,

0:31:16.600 --> 0:31:17.720
<v Speaker 3>so might as.

0:31:17.560 --> 0:31:18.720
<v Speaker 2>Well enjoy every day.

0:31:18.840 --> 0:31:20.840
<v Speaker 3>Like like you know, other people are like, oh, I

0:31:20.840 --> 0:31:23.200
<v Speaker 3>have this money, and I should save you know, all

0:31:23.240 --> 0:31:25.800
<v Speaker 3>of it. I mean, yeah, I've just obviously be piscally

0:31:25.880 --> 0:31:28.960
<v Speaker 3>responsible and save some of it. But I'm just like,

0:31:29.000 --> 0:31:32.280
<v Speaker 3>you know, like if it'll make you happy, you know,

0:31:32.440 --> 0:31:36.680
<v Speaker 3>go to that place, you know, buy that whatever ridiculous

0:31:36.680 --> 0:31:39.280
<v Speaker 3>thing that you want to buy.

0:31:39.320 --> 0:31:39.520
<v Speaker 2>You know.

0:31:40.480 --> 0:31:42.360
<v Speaker 3>So I kind of flipped the other way now with

0:31:42.440 --> 0:31:43.480
<v Speaker 3>that ideology too.

0:31:44.160 --> 0:31:47.520
<v Speaker 1>It's kind of funny to me that well I don't funny,

0:31:47.600 --> 0:31:50.160
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, but like the just the fact that

0:31:50.320 --> 0:31:54.000
<v Speaker 1>like they're like, hey, so your dad died of stress

0:31:54.080 --> 0:31:56.800
<v Speaker 1>from running this company, so why don't you run it instead?

0:31:59.360 --> 0:31:59.560
<v Speaker 2>Right?

0:31:59.680 --> 0:32:01.360
<v Speaker 3>I mean yeah, I mean they were just like you

0:32:01.440 --> 0:32:07.400
<v Speaker 3>don't know what to do, and he's there just like

0:32:07.880 --> 0:32:10.520
<v Speaker 3>I'm just like standing there, just like waving, and they're

0:32:10.560 --> 0:32:14.200
<v Speaker 3>like that's the guy. We're gonna grab that guy.

0:32:14.800 --> 0:32:20.480
<v Speaker 2>Oh so yeah.

0:32:18.960 --> 0:32:21.680
<v Speaker 1>All right, let me see let me look for one

0:32:21.720 --> 0:32:25.760
<v Speaker 1>more question. Oh okay, people were asking if your dad,

0:32:25.920 --> 0:32:29.240
<v Speaker 1>if your uncle killed your dad because it was ah,

0:32:29.400 --> 0:32:34.040
<v Speaker 1>it's a lion king. Do you still talk to the uncle?

0:32:34.080 --> 0:32:36.280
<v Speaker 1>That's my question, that's not in the chat. I'm just curious,

0:32:37.600 --> 0:32:38.880
<v Speaker 1>Oh hell to the No.

0:32:39.240 --> 0:32:42.760
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, no, I just felt really uncomfortable too.

0:32:43.040 --> 0:32:46.240
<v Speaker 2>I mean one because like I know that like.

0:32:46.400 --> 0:32:49.720
<v Speaker 3>Whole thing, and so that just leaves a.

0:32:49.720 --> 0:32:50.880
<v Speaker 2>Bad taste in the mouth.

0:32:51.360 --> 0:32:55.600
<v Speaker 3>But also, like while we were there, he knew that

0:32:55.680 --> 0:32:58.120
<v Speaker 3>he had a chance of taking over the company, so

0:32:58.280 --> 0:33:01.960
<v Speaker 3>like while we were there, he would basically like quote

0:33:02.000 --> 0:33:05.680
<v Speaker 3>unquote pamper us, like take us to like fancy department stores,

0:33:05.720 --> 0:33:09.760
<v Speaker 3>and like I remember, like he bought this really expensive

0:33:09.840 --> 0:33:12.880
<v Speaker 3>lipstick for my sister, and you know we obviously were like, oh,

0:33:12.920 --> 0:33:15.520
<v Speaker 3>you know, they're politely accept and thank you, and then

0:33:15.960 --> 0:33:17.920
<v Speaker 3>I remember my sister like leaned overs like I don't

0:33:17.960 --> 0:33:22.320
<v Speaker 3>even wear a lisstick, So like all that like pampering

0:33:22.480 --> 0:33:27.680
<v Speaker 3>just like and then you know, leading to him not

0:33:27.720 --> 0:33:28.760
<v Speaker 3>getting what he wanted.

0:33:29.160 --> 0:33:37.280
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, that's wanting. Yeah, but that's that's just want to Yeah,

0:33:36.120 --> 0:33:41.120
<v Speaker 1>that's yeah, because he's like like he he's just acting

0:33:41.200 --> 0:33:42.960
<v Speaker 1>under the assumption that he's about to have a ship

0:33:43.000 --> 0:33:44.920
<v Speaker 1>ton of money and spending it before he can even

0:33:45.720 --> 0:33:46.960
<v Speaker 1>confirm that he will have it.

0:33:48.680 --> 0:33:49.240
<v Speaker 2>Exactly.

0:33:49.480 --> 0:33:52.240
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, So like all in all, because of all of

0:33:52.320 --> 0:33:55.800
<v Speaker 3>the mess, Yeah, I don't talk to the and I

0:33:55.840 --> 0:33:59.720
<v Speaker 3>don't talk to the uncle. I try to, Like, I

0:33:59.760 --> 0:34:02.720
<v Speaker 3>don't think I'll ever go back to Indonesia ever.

0:34:04.720 --> 0:34:06.080
<v Speaker 4>Oh yeah.

0:34:06.160 --> 0:34:08.520
<v Speaker 1>The aunt though, the aunt's interesting to me because the

0:34:08.560 --> 0:34:12.440
<v Speaker 1>aunt was like, yo, my uncle. The aunt was like, Yo,

0:34:12.560 --> 0:34:14.719
<v Speaker 1>my husband's kind of a dumbass, and I don't think

0:34:14.719 --> 0:34:17.560
<v Speaker 1>he should have this company, So you should. I'm gonna

0:34:17.560 --> 0:34:18.839
<v Speaker 1>make sure that it goes to you.

0:34:20.600 --> 0:34:23.640
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I mean my I mean that's like my aunt,

0:34:23.800 --> 0:34:26.000
<v Speaker 3>Like she's such a sweetheart, Like she is one of

0:34:26.080 --> 0:34:29.719
<v Speaker 3>the nicest persons that I've ever met. And I think

0:34:29.760 --> 0:34:32.279
<v Speaker 3>part of it was like she, you know, she was

0:34:32.400 --> 0:34:36.040
<v Speaker 3>my dad's sister, so I think he she had his

0:34:36.120 --> 0:34:36.840
<v Speaker 3>best interest.

0:34:37.040 --> 0:34:39.640
<v Speaker 1>Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh. Okay, well that

0:34:39.719 --> 0:34:43.000
<v Speaker 1>changes everything, Okay, okay, oh that's just completely Okay, this

0:34:43.120 --> 0:34:45.920
<v Speaker 1>was your uncle, this was your uncle. Okay, this is

0:34:45.920 --> 0:34:48.239
<v Speaker 1>not your blood uncle, this is your uncle.

0:34:48.680 --> 0:34:48.879
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

0:34:49.960 --> 0:34:52.279
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's not like, oh okay.

0:34:52.040 --> 0:34:55.200
<v Speaker 1>That changes completely everything. Yeah, that changes complete Yeah. But

0:34:55.239 --> 0:34:58.200
<v Speaker 1>then of course your aunt is gonna have your have

0:34:58.320 --> 0:34:59.960
<v Speaker 1>your back on that or not. Of course, I guess

0:35:00.000 --> 0:35:02.520
<v Speaker 1>it's not a given. But uh, your aunt, your aunt

0:35:02.560 --> 0:35:04.920
<v Speaker 1>could totally I mean, it's in your aunt's best interest

0:35:05.000 --> 0:35:07.520
<v Speaker 1>that you know, she's her I guess she gets the

0:35:07.520 --> 0:35:10.279
<v Speaker 1>money right over the fuck. But that's uh, damn, that's

0:35:10.360 --> 0:35:14.160
<v Speaker 1>that's yeah. Oh that makes your uncle like a triple dumbass. Honestly,

0:35:14.360 --> 0:35:16.279
<v Speaker 1>sorry to keep calling your uncle a dumbass, but I

0:35:16.600 --> 0:35:18.839
<v Speaker 1>get the sense you don't particularly like him, and it's

0:35:18.840 --> 0:35:20.920
<v Speaker 1>fun to call people a dumbass.

0:35:21.920 --> 0:35:24.120
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, yeah, I mean it's fine. You know, I don't

0:35:24.120 --> 0:35:27.319
<v Speaker 3>think I mean, he doesn't speak English, so I don't

0:35:27.360 --> 0:35:29.680
<v Speaker 3>think he can even listen to this podcast anyway.

0:35:30.000 --> 0:35:36.680
<v Speaker 1>So well, Nancy again, you know, look, if you're ever

0:35:36.719 --> 0:35:39.120
<v Speaker 1>thinking about really adopting that name, I think it's a

0:35:39.120 --> 0:35:43.360
<v Speaker 1>good name. Is Uh. Thank you for sharing the story

0:35:43.360 --> 0:35:45.120
<v Speaker 1>with us. This was fast. I feel like I just

0:35:45.239 --> 0:35:46.960
<v Speaker 1>watched a movie talking to you.

0:35:49.000 --> 0:35:52.239
<v Speaker 3>Oh well, I'm glad it was entertaining.

0:35:52.400 --> 0:35:53.120
<v Speaker 2>Thanks, Lyle.

0:35:54.280 --> 0:35:55.680
<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

0:35:55.719 --> 0:35:57.239
<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go.

0:36:00.160 --> 0:36:01.279
<v Speaker 4>Live your life?

0:36:02.120 --> 0:36:07.360
<v Speaker 2>Indonesia is a great place. They have great food. Visit

0:36:07.400 --> 0:36:07.960
<v Speaker 2>it some time.

0:36:08.239 --> 0:36:11.640
<v Speaker 3>Just get your vaccinations beforehand.

0:36:12.520 --> 0:36:15.359
<v Speaker 1>Beautiful, have a good rest of the night, Nancy. Thank

0:36:15.360 --> 0:36:20.120
<v Speaker 1>you for sharing, and good luck doing medical good luck

0:36:21.480 --> 0:36:27.040
<v Speaker 1>doing medical stuff on the West coast of the United States.

0:36:27.880 --> 0:36:30.480
<v Speaker 2>Thank you, sir. You have a good night, by Lyle.

0:36:30.680 --> 0:36:36.120
<v Speaker 1>Bye bye, Nancy. That was a nice call. That was

0:36:36.160 --> 0:36:39.799
<v Speaker 1>like I've never seen I hate I do this a lot.

0:36:40.000 --> 0:36:42.000
<v Speaker 1>Like I'll be like, oh, that was like the Wire.

0:36:42.200 --> 0:36:44.360
<v Speaker 1>Never seen the wire. I was about to say that

0:36:44.400 --> 0:36:47.359
<v Speaker 1>was like secession. But I've never seen secession. But I

0:36:47.400 --> 0:36:51.319
<v Speaker 1>think I think I know enough about I never seen

0:36:51.360 --> 0:36:55.000
<v Speaker 1>a single episode or I never read the Wikipedia page.

0:36:55.320 --> 0:36:57.440
<v Speaker 1>I don't know a single thing about secession, but I

0:36:57.520 --> 0:37:05.520
<v Speaker 1>know that it's about succeeding succession, you success, and so

0:37:06.560 --> 0:37:10.400
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna assume this is this guy's life is like secession.

0:37:11.440 --> 0:37:15.800
<v Speaker 1>Lion King vibes. I haven't seen you know, I have

0:37:15.920 --> 0:37:17.239
<v Speaker 1>seen The Lion King, but I saw it a long

0:37:17.280 --> 0:37:20.120
<v Speaker 1>time ago. It's been a while. Maybe I'll'll watch it again,

0:37:20.200 --> 0:37:21.439
<v Speaker 1>Maybe I'll watch it right now.

0:37:23.080 --> 0:37:27.520
<v Speaker 4>Hello, Hey man, I just have like a lot of

0:37:27.520 --> 0:37:34.160
<v Speaker 4>stuff going on recently, and I'm kind of bummed out,

0:37:35.280 --> 0:37:40.920
<v Speaker 4>all right. I mean, I'm good, I just it's just

0:37:41.040 --> 0:37:43.280
<v Speaker 4>like it's kind of lonely out here.

0:37:44.080 --> 0:37:44.520
<v Speaker 2>Where are you?

0:37:44.560 --> 0:37:45.239
<v Speaker 1>Where is that here?

0:37:47.160 --> 0:37:49.440
<v Speaker 4>I mean I'm in my apartment, but like you know,

0:37:49.520 --> 0:37:51.359
<v Speaker 4>there's just no people to talk to, like.

0:37:51.320 --> 0:37:57.239
<v Speaker 1>Even metaphor yeah, what so you have?

0:37:59.280 --> 0:38:01.719
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, but I mean like I can't even ask I

0:38:01.719 --> 0:38:03.640
<v Speaker 4>can't even ask this guy like if they want to

0:38:03.640 --> 0:38:06.040
<v Speaker 4>go work out, you know. And then like I've even

0:38:06.040 --> 0:38:08.239
<v Speaker 4>I've gone to one of your shows in LA and

0:38:08.280 --> 0:38:12.480
<v Speaker 4>I brought somebody, like a significant other, and then like now,

0:38:13.400 --> 0:38:17.279
<v Speaker 4>i mean like I don't think that my lifestyle was

0:38:17.280 --> 0:38:20.560
<v Speaker 4>the problem, but I guess my lifestyle was a problem.

0:38:21.080 --> 0:38:23.280
<v Speaker 4>And now like I don't even talk to that person

0:38:23.280 --> 0:38:27.720
<v Speaker 4>anymore because like because I just I mean New Year's

0:38:27.840 --> 0:38:30.319
<v Speaker 4>came along, and I just is like I'm just I

0:38:30.400 --> 0:38:32.680
<v Speaker 4>just felt like it was a resolute resolution not to

0:38:32.719 --> 0:38:35.320
<v Speaker 4>talk to that person anymore because I just don't have.

0:38:37.480 --> 0:38:39.200
<v Speaker 2>I just I'm not like.

0:38:40.680 --> 0:38:43.640
<v Speaker 4>I just feel like, you know, if you have like

0:38:44.960 --> 0:38:47.680
<v Speaker 4>what do you call that when it's conditional love? And

0:38:47.719 --> 0:38:51.160
<v Speaker 4>then like unconditional love is different, and I'm just like

0:38:51.640 --> 0:38:53.799
<v Speaker 4>it was a conditional love type of thing, and I'm

0:38:53.840 --> 0:38:56.040
<v Speaker 4>just like yeah, like damn, like.

0:38:56.440 --> 0:38:59.400
<v Speaker 1>Guy, yeah, well you know, it's I've been I've actually

0:38:59.440 --> 0:39:03.799
<v Speaker 1>been thinking recently a lot about that concept because like

0:39:04.080 --> 0:39:10.000
<v Speaker 1>I think all love has uh. I think I don't

0:39:10.000 --> 0:39:13.600
<v Speaker 1>think that like truly unconditional love exists. I think there's

0:39:13.680 --> 0:39:19.360
<v Speaker 1>like I ideally you find love with like the minimum

0:39:19.440 --> 0:39:22.960
<v Speaker 1>amount of conditions possible, you know what I mean? Like

0:39:23.000 --> 0:39:26.600
<v Speaker 1>you like like like like if you're like, if you

0:39:26.760 --> 0:39:29.040
<v Speaker 1>hit someone, they're probably not gonna love you. You know, that's

0:39:29.080 --> 0:39:31.560
<v Speaker 1>a good condition to have, Like there's never gonna there's

0:39:31.600 --> 0:39:35.080
<v Speaker 1>never gonna be zero conditions. You know what you said that?

0:39:35.120 --> 0:39:37.520
<v Speaker 1>What was it? What was your lifestyle that that that

0:39:37.680 --> 0:39:39.759
<v Speaker 1>you said was fucking this up?

0:39:41.640 --> 0:39:44.040
<v Speaker 4>Solutly? Like to be honest, I get fired for my

0:39:44.120 --> 0:39:46.480
<v Speaker 4>job because I've smoking weed and I don't think that's

0:39:46.480 --> 0:39:49.040
<v Speaker 4>a big issue, but because you know, people know who

0:39:49.080 --> 0:39:53.759
<v Speaker 4>they hired. But I digress. And it's just kind of like, hey, man,

0:39:54.000 --> 0:39:57.960
<v Speaker 4>like if you wanted somebody to be like that, why

0:39:57.960 --> 0:40:00.840
<v Speaker 4>don't you just take my I would I would be

0:40:00.880 --> 0:40:03.640
<v Speaker 4>okay if you just took my bong and just threw

0:40:03.680 --> 0:40:06.040
<v Speaker 4>it in the trash without me knowing, you know, if

0:40:06.080 --> 0:40:09.719
<v Speaker 4>you really wanted to beat with somebody like so, I

0:40:09.800 --> 0:40:11.840
<v Speaker 4>just feel like the person who I was with didn't

0:40:11.920 --> 0:40:16.759
<v Speaker 4>take the steps to really like appropriate the conditions.

0:40:17.239 --> 0:40:19.040
<v Speaker 1>They didn't like that you were smoking weed.

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<v Speaker 4>Man, No, they didn't, so like now do they they did?

0:40:27.880 --> 0:40:30.279
<v Speaker 1>They tell you? They tell you that you didn't they

0:40:30.320 --> 0:40:31.479
<v Speaker 1>didn't like you smoking weed.

0:40:33.080 --> 0:40:33.799
<v Speaker 7>Yeah, but I was.

0:40:33.760 --> 0:40:35.560
<v Speaker 4>Just like, it's just so fucked up because like, I

0:40:35.600 --> 0:40:38.600
<v Speaker 4>don't I'm no contact with my family too, you know

0:40:38.640 --> 0:40:41.520
<v Speaker 4>how kids are or whatever, And I'm like no contact

0:40:41.520 --> 0:40:47.279
<v Speaker 4>with family, and then like people, I don't talk to

0:40:47.280 --> 0:40:49.200
<v Speaker 4>people either. I just kind of I just kind of

0:40:49.200 --> 0:40:52.320
<v Speaker 4>sit around and I don't I don't feel I don't

0:40:52.320 --> 0:40:55.280
<v Speaker 4>feel like I need to impress anybody.

0:40:56.960 --> 0:41:00.000
<v Speaker 1>All right, hm hmm. What how old are you?

0:41:00.160 --> 0:41:07.160
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, in twenty eight eight. I have what's going on,

0:41:08.520 --> 0:41:12.120
<v Speaker 4>like outside of whatever we're talking about, Like, I have

0:41:12.239 --> 0:41:15.799
<v Speaker 4>other things I'm doing now that are more important. But

0:41:16.719 --> 0:41:19.520
<v Speaker 4>you know, it's kind of like, dang, like I really

0:41:19.520 --> 0:41:22.040
<v Speaker 4>wish that I would have somebody to hang out with

0:41:22.160 --> 0:41:25.680
<v Speaker 4>or at least or at least bring with me, you know,

0:41:26.320 --> 0:41:27.440
<v Speaker 4>to the place I'm going.

0:41:27.480 --> 0:41:33.799
<v Speaker 5>I guess, yeah, yeah, yeah, what you said, you have

0:41:33.840 --> 0:41:38.120
<v Speaker 5>other things going away to the other things.

0:41:39.160 --> 0:41:46.800
<v Speaker 7>A recruiter hit me up for the military Okay, So yeah,

0:41:47.200 --> 0:41:50.319
<v Speaker 7>I have a degree and stuff and whatever. I'm kind

0:41:50.360 --> 0:41:54.800
<v Speaker 7>of like I have a background and corrections. I guess,

0:41:55.239 --> 0:42:00.719
<v Speaker 7>like sort of paramilitary, so you know, all right, I

0:42:00.760 --> 0:42:03.880
<v Speaker 7>guess it's not unexpected. But they called me, and I'm like,

0:42:05.440 --> 0:42:07.680
<v Speaker 7>I wish I had somebody to bring with me. I

0:42:07.680 --> 0:42:10.759
<v Speaker 7>don't know if they're listening, but probably not.

0:42:11.440 --> 0:42:13.920
<v Speaker 1>You wish you had somebody to bring with you on

0:42:13.920 --> 0:42:15.719
<v Speaker 1>on military deployment.

0:42:18.920 --> 0:42:24.080
<v Speaker 7>Essentially, Yeah, let me ask you.

0:42:24.320 --> 0:42:30.000
<v Speaker 1>I am genuinely curious why you know in this particular

0:42:30.080 --> 0:42:34.200
<v Speaker 1>phone call, because I could sit here and like, do

0:42:34.239 --> 0:42:36.799
<v Speaker 1>you I'm guess, like, I guess I want to know

0:42:38.160 --> 0:42:44.279
<v Speaker 1>if there's a particular like preference for this phone call

0:42:44.320 --> 0:42:46.640
<v Speaker 1>because I could we could sit well, I'm only asking

0:42:46.760 --> 0:42:48.120
<v Speaker 1>is like we could I could sit here, we could

0:42:48.120 --> 0:42:54.200
<v Speaker 1>talk and I could we could attempt to uh create

0:42:54.360 --> 0:42:56.480
<v Speaker 1>solutions perhaps.

0:42:57.840 --> 0:42:59.520
<v Speaker 4>I mean, I'm not like, or we could just or

0:42:59.520 --> 0:43:00.000
<v Speaker 4>we could just.

0:43:00.040 --> 0:43:02.400
<v Speaker 1>Suck around, or we could just fuck around, or I

0:43:02.440 --> 0:43:06.920
<v Speaker 1>could or I could I just suck around?

0:43:04.880 --> 0:43:10.879
<v Speaker 4>Well all right, super ugly, I'm like pretty no, hold on.

0:43:11.160 --> 0:43:17.120
<v Speaker 1>Hold on, don't hold on, hold on, Why why are

0:43:17.160 --> 0:43:17.960
<v Speaker 1>you bringing that up?

0:43:18.000 --> 0:43:25.080
<v Speaker 4>Even you know, because like fuck man, I've the reason

0:43:25.120 --> 0:43:26.960
<v Speaker 4>I smoked weeds so much is because I just have

0:43:27.200 --> 0:43:32.200
<v Speaker 4>like the the behavior of other people and stuff in

0:43:32.239 --> 0:43:35.680
<v Speaker 4>the world, and then like my behavior versus that, you know,

0:43:36.280 --> 0:43:40.040
<v Speaker 4>uh okay, weed's legal in California, right, and so I'm

0:43:40.080 --> 0:43:43.600
<v Speaker 4>just like, fuck, yeah, I smoked weed all day, bro.

0:43:43.840 --> 0:43:47.360
<v Speaker 4>And then so like that's how I get around socially.

0:43:48.080 --> 0:43:52.080
<v Speaker 4>But then like now that the like it's not legal subterally,

0:43:52.200 --> 0:43:56.799
<v Speaker 4>so like I'm literally getting getting ripped apart right now.

0:43:56.840 --> 0:44:02.759
<v Speaker 4>I can't find a job, you know, And like I

0:44:02.840 --> 0:44:05.640
<v Speaker 4>thought it was something I was good, Like, I thought

0:44:05.640 --> 0:44:08.120
<v Speaker 4>we were good for it, and I'm like, yeah, dude,

0:44:08.200 --> 0:44:12.040
<v Speaker 4>like everyone's kind of relaxed. I was pretty chill, and

0:44:12.080 --> 0:44:16.760
<v Speaker 4>then now I have no chill, Like I've found myself

0:44:17.040 --> 0:44:20.200
<v Speaker 4>kind of like insulting people online.

0:44:20.360 --> 0:44:20.879
<v Speaker 1>Why are you?

0:44:22.000 --> 0:44:23.000
<v Speaker 2>Why are you?

0:44:23.040 --> 0:44:25.520
<v Speaker 1>No? You know? Please please? I don't look I don't

0:44:25.560 --> 0:44:28.320
<v Speaker 1>know you at all, but as a fellow, I would

0:44:28.360 --> 0:44:33.120
<v Speaker 1>love to one day. I really like a utopia would

0:44:33.160 --> 0:44:36.440
<v Speaker 1>look like one day I go on Reddit and all

0:44:36.520 --> 0:44:39.560
<v Speaker 1>the post there's no posts and there's no comments because

0:44:39.600 --> 0:44:42.040
<v Speaker 1>everyone got a life and went outside. That would make

0:44:42.080 --> 0:44:45.239
<v Speaker 1>me so happy. If I went on Reddit one day

0:44:45.400 --> 0:44:47.840
<v Speaker 1>and there was there was it was just blank. It

0:44:48.000 --> 0:44:49.799
<v Speaker 1>was like nothing to be seen because and then I

0:44:49.800 --> 0:44:53.480
<v Speaker 1>look outside and everyone's like playing catch with each other

0:44:53.640 --> 0:44:58.520
<v Speaker 1>and uh, you know, drinking hot cocoa like every you know,

0:44:58.680 --> 0:45:02.200
<v Speaker 1>that's that's util right there, and so I that we

0:45:02.280 --> 0:45:06.640
<v Speaker 1>could start, you know, with you in that utopia. The

0:45:06.719 --> 0:45:08.719
<v Speaker 1>key why what do you?

0:45:08.760 --> 0:45:09.480
<v Speaker 3>What do you? What do you?

0:45:09.640 --> 0:45:11.840
<v Speaker 1>What are you insulting? What are you insulting people on

0:45:11.880 --> 0:45:12.480
<v Speaker 1>Reddit about?

0:45:14.800 --> 0:45:18.040
<v Speaker 4>You know, people need stimulation, whether it's bad or not.

0:45:18.160 --> 0:45:22.520
<v Speaker 4>But like you know, and it's like sometimes it's not

0:45:22.640 --> 0:45:25.520
<v Speaker 4>that good, but I do give that good stimulation.

0:45:25.960 --> 0:45:31.440
<v Speaker 1>What is your hold on what is your idea of

0:45:31.520 --> 0:45:37.000
<v Speaker 1>good stimulation? Are you call? Are you calling people fat

0:45:37.080 --> 0:45:37.760
<v Speaker 1>on the internet?

0:45:39.040 --> 0:45:42.200
<v Speaker 4>Damn no, I'm just calling all right.

0:45:42.840 --> 0:45:43.200
<v Speaker 2>I don't know.

0:45:43.239 --> 0:45:45.399
<v Speaker 4>I'm kind of losing it now, I'm kind of losing touch.

0:45:45.520 --> 0:45:49.000
<v Speaker 4>But I'll say this is that a lot of people

0:45:49.000 --> 0:45:51.880
<v Speaker 4>don't pay attention to what's going on. And I'm like,

0:45:51.960 --> 0:45:53.920
<v Speaker 4>I'm not I'm not one for it to be like

0:45:54.040 --> 0:45:57.160
<v Speaker 4>supportive of like drugs and stuff, but I will say

0:45:59.160 --> 0:46:02.960
<v Speaker 4>it's a problem. And then like, you know, uh, that's

0:46:03.000 --> 0:46:05.839
<v Speaker 4>I think it's funny when I see homeless people. I

0:46:05.840 --> 0:46:07.160
<v Speaker 4>am sorry. I'm sorry, but.

0:46:09.400 --> 0:46:12.279
<v Speaker 1>Hold on, hold on, Okay, just back up for me

0:46:12.320 --> 0:46:15.400
<v Speaker 1>real quick. Who are you fighting with on the internet.

0:46:20.320 --> 0:46:25.120
<v Speaker 4>I'll be I'll be saying stuff, you know, against like

0:46:25.320 --> 0:46:29.680
<v Speaker 4>whatever people people have, like I need I need this

0:46:29.719 --> 0:46:32.600
<v Speaker 4>to be happy. And it's like, dude, I don't even

0:46:32.600 --> 0:46:36.799
<v Speaker 4>smoke anymore, you know, And then it's like, okay, you

0:46:36.880 --> 0:46:38.640
<v Speaker 4>need you need drugs to be happy. And then all

0:46:38.640 --> 0:46:42.120
<v Speaker 4>of a sudden, I'm like, I will devote my entire

0:46:42.200 --> 0:46:45.520
<v Speaker 4>cause to defeating the illegal drug operations.

0:46:46.000 --> 0:46:49.560
<v Speaker 1>Okay, hold on, hold on, hold on, what's your name again?

0:46:51.160 --> 0:46:51.480
<v Speaker 2>Bob?

0:46:51.840 --> 0:46:55.839
<v Speaker 1>Bob? We have we, we are we. This conversation has

0:46:55.960 --> 0:47:00.680
<v Speaker 1>leapt into a different and to a into Mars right now. Okay,

0:47:00.880 --> 0:47:04.840
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna reel it. We're gonna reel We're gonna reel

0:47:04.840 --> 0:47:08.520
<v Speaker 1>it back to Earth. Okay, We're gonna reel this conversation

0:47:08.680 --> 0:47:14.759
<v Speaker 1>back to the the planet Earth. So you you know what,

0:47:15.000 --> 0:47:17.040
<v Speaker 1>I don't actually care what you're arguing with people about

0:47:17.120 --> 0:47:20.640
<v Speaker 1>on the internet. To be honest with you, I'm curious, why,

0:47:22.160 --> 0:47:27.839
<v Speaker 1>oh god, why do you like getting high all the time?

0:47:27.960 --> 0:47:29.600
<v Speaker 1>I know, I really I don't want to go on

0:47:29.640 --> 0:47:32.759
<v Speaker 1>a whole stupid because I can't go. I can't in

0:47:32.880 --> 0:47:36.799
<v Speaker 1>any sort of good faith sit here and tell you

0:47:36.880 --> 0:47:38.839
<v Speaker 1>to stop getting high because I get high every day.

0:47:38.880 --> 0:47:42.320
<v Speaker 1>So I can't do that without being a total hypocrite.

0:47:42.520 --> 0:47:45.640
<v Speaker 1>But I do. But I just as a fellow human being.

0:47:46.760 --> 0:47:51.080
<v Speaker 1>And we're on the phone together right now. Just what

0:47:51.239 --> 0:47:53.760
<v Speaker 1>I'm just curious.

0:47:53.280 --> 0:47:55.680
<v Speaker 4>At the end of the day, man, I'm I'm just saying,

0:47:56.040 --> 0:47:57.480
<v Speaker 4>at the end of the day, I want to be

0:47:57.520 --> 0:47:59.839
<v Speaker 4>able to paper parking. Okay, you know what I'm saying.

0:48:00.040 --> 0:48:01.560
<v Speaker 1>That's a good goal. That's a great goal to have

0:48:01.640 --> 0:48:04.360
<v Speaker 1>to be able to pay for parking. I believe you

0:48:04.360 --> 0:48:05.000
<v Speaker 1>can achieve that.

0:48:07.520 --> 0:48:08.640
<v Speaker 6>And it's hard.

0:48:08.760 --> 0:48:11.200
<v Speaker 4>I can't pay for parking, you know, because people steal

0:48:11.239 --> 0:48:14.320
<v Speaker 4>my debit card. What I'm taking them out to dinner,

0:48:14.680 --> 0:48:15.840
<v Speaker 4>you know, and then that.

0:48:16.920 --> 0:48:21.560
<v Speaker 1>Card dude who stole who stole your debit card? When

0:48:21.600 --> 0:48:24.040
<v Speaker 1>you take them out to dinner? What are you talking about?

0:48:25.120 --> 0:48:27.800
<v Speaker 2>I don't fucking know.

0:48:28.440 --> 0:48:29.120
<v Speaker 6>It's gone.

0:48:29.480 --> 0:48:32.160
<v Speaker 4>And I'm like, I'm like, I all, I'm like, hey,

0:48:32.160 --> 0:48:33.600
<v Speaker 4>why just left this place.

0:48:33.680 --> 0:48:34.720
<v Speaker 6>I'm checking my wallet.

0:48:35.280 --> 0:48:36.360
<v Speaker 2>I can't pay for parking.

0:48:39.680 --> 0:48:40.439
<v Speaker 1>Here's the thing.

0:48:40.440 --> 0:48:40.879
<v Speaker 2>I don't know.

0:48:41.520 --> 0:48:45.760
<v Speaker 1>It's okay, do me a favorite when when when I

0:48:45.760 --> 0:48:47.600
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna I'm gonna this is, I'm gonna put this

0:48:47.680 --> 0:48:49.719
<v Speaker 1>in a podcast and put it on the internet. Don't

0:48:49.880 --> 0:48:53.560
<v Speaker 1>don't go into the comments section and argue with people.

0:48:53.760 --> 0:49:00.960
<v Speaker 1>Just just go just I just bob. Bob. Is your name.

0:49:04.320 --> 0:49:06.000
<v Speaker 2>Coop? You can call me Coop?

0:49:06.080 --> 0:49:06.359
<v Speaker 3>All right?

0:49:06.360 --> 0:49:12.080
<v Speaker 1>I like I like Coop. That's a fun name. Hmmm,

0:49:13.520 --> 0:49:15.600
<v Speaker 1>did you what did you have a time in your

0:49:15.640 --> 0:49:17.560
<v Speaker 1>life where you've like you felt.

0:49:17.280 --> 0:49:23.200
<v Speaker 2>Good, that's sucked up?

0:49:23.560 --> 0:49:24.360
<v Speaker 4>Well did you ask that?

0:49:25.040 --> 0:49:25.239
<v Speaker 6>Yeah?

0:49:25.320 --> 0:49:27.320
<v Speaker 4>I have, I have I have a good time sometimes.

0:49:27.320 --> 0:49:28.520
<v Speaker 2>I have a good time sometimes.

0:49:28.560 --> 0:49:31.040
<v Speaker 1>Man, okay, but you have a good time something? So

0:49:31.080 --> 0:49:33.520
<v Speaker 1>you so you you sometimes have a good time.

0:49:35.080 --> 0:49:37.719
<v Speaker 4>It but I have to pay for it, you know,

0:49:38.040 --> 0:49:39.839
<v Speaker 4>like I have to pay for friends to bring them

0:49:39.840 --> 0:49:44.160
<v Speaker 4>out because they have issues. And then it's like why

0:49:44.160 --> 0:49:46.960
<v Speaker 4>did they have issues? Are you fellon or you know?

0:49:47.080 --> 0:49:49.640
<v Speaker 4>I just wish people were not so terrible?

0:49:50.040 --> 0:49:50.680
<v Speaker 3>What do you? All?

0:49:50.760 --> 0:49:51.360
<v Speaker 1>Right? Hold on?

0:49:51.480 --> 0:49:52.080
<v Speaker 3>What? So? What?

0:49:52.160 --> 0:49:56.399
<v Speaker 1>You two things? And and I this your I can

0:49:57.000 --> 0:49:58.759
<v Speaker 1>sense in your voice that you're about to take this

0:49:58.840 --> 0:50:02.319
<v Speaker 1>conversation back to Mars and we're keeping it. We're going

0:50:02.360 --> 0:50:06.759
<v Speaker 1>to keep it earth. Okay, what why are you who

0:50:06.800 --> 0:50:10.000
<v Speaker 1>are you paying to go out with you.

0:50:10.040 --> 0:50:12.560
<v Speaker 4>No, it's just like I need I need to like

0:50:13.400 --> 0:50:17.960
<v Speaker 4>I needed to go to like you know sometimes essentially

0:50:18.000 --> 0:50:20.279
<v Speaker 4>you know, it's like I was using the restroom right,

0:50:20.480 --> 0:50:25.839
<v Speaker 4>Like sometimes I need to use the restroom mentally, right Yeah.

0:50:25.880 --> 0:50:28.520
<v Speaker 4>And I'm like, okay, let me just hit these people

0:50:28.600 --> 0:50:31.879
<v Speaker 4>up and see you and see like what I can

0:50:31.960 --> 0:50:36.440
<v Speaker 4>do to like get some social interaction. Yeah, you know.

0:50:36.640 --> 0:50:39.680
<v Speaker 4>And then like once you're once you're like I even

0:50:39.760 --> 0:50:42.680
<v Speaker 4>I had friends in high school, dude, I did, and

0:50:42.800 --> 0:50:45.200
<v Speaker 4>like it just I like cut myself off because I

0:50:45.280 --> 0:50:48.160
<v Speaker 4>just had it was a trust issue, like really bad

0:50:48.200 --> 0:50:51.160
<v Speaker 4>trust issue, you know. And then like they're talking about

0:50:51.200 --> 0:50:54.120
<v Speaker 4>I want to share, like bro, like that's my girl,

0:50:54.239 --> 0:50:57.040
<v Speaker 4>Like you're going to share or something, right, and so

0:50:57.160 --> 0:50:59.600
<v Speaker 4>like I just at that point, look yeah, I know.

0:51:00.040 --> 0:51:02.600
<v Speaker 1>Okay, I'm like I'm gonna stop you again.

0:51:03.640 --> 0:51:05.480
<v Speaker 4>I'm not sharing women with other dudes.

0:51:06.760 --> 0:51:08.600
<v Speaker 1>Can I see? Do you have a real therapist that

0:51:08.680 --> 0:51:09.120
<v Speaker 1>you talk to?

0:51:12.239 --> 0:51:12.479
<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

0:51:12.680 --> 0:51:15.600
<v Speaker 4>I went to therapy and this guy just had met

0:51:15.600 --> 0:51:21.480
<v Speaker 4>his iPad and then like he was like really gluttonous,

0:51:21.840 --> 0:51:25.719
<v Speaker 4>kind of like fatty boy, and I was like, all right,

0:51:26.320 --> 0:51:26.799
<v Speaker 4>I'm just.

0:51:26.719 --> 0:51:28.920
<v Speaker 1>Gonna walk out of here, okay, So yeah, so you

0:51:28.960 --> 0:51:32.319
<v Speaker 1>were like, so if you're so, if the therapist is fat,

0:51:32.360 --> 0:51:35.520
<v Speaker 1>You're like, you're up. You're kind of like, oh, why

0:51:35.560 --> 0:51:37.960
<v Speaker 1>am I gonna let you coach my life if you're

0:51:38.000 --> 0:51:38.480
<v Speaker 1>if you're.

0:51:38.360 --> 0:51:42.960
<v Speaker 4>Fat, well, I mean, dude looked like he was taking

0:51:43.120 --> 0:51:46.200
<v Speaker 4>medication for his own self. And I'm like, bro, like,

0:51:46.360 --> 0:51:50.080
<v Speaker 4>I don't go to a therapist, Like, look, it's fair.

0:51:50.160 --> 0:51:53.439
<v Speaker 1>No one has answers no, no, yeah, yeah, I don't know, man.

0:51:53.480 --> 0:51:53.839
<v Speaker 1>I just.

0:51:56.560 --> 0:51:57.640
<v Speaker 4>You're not my therapist either.

0:51:57.680 --> 0:51:58.239
<v Speaker 2>I'm not.

0:51:58.600 --> 0:52:00.680
<v Speaker 1>No, I'm not. I know, I'm not your say, I'm just.

0:52:00.800 --> 0:52:06.279
<v Speaker 1>I'm we're too. We are two complete strangers talking on

0:52:06.760 --> 0:52:10.400
<v Speaker 1>the phone together on a podcast right now. I understand

0:52:10.480 --> 0:52:14.239
<v Speaker 1>that to be the context. But I'm just and I'm

0:52:14.360 --> 0:52:21.160
<v Speaker 1>just but I'm.

0:52:18.200 --> 0:52:25.160
<v Speaker 4>Okay, I'm I'm I just the thing I want the most.

0:52:25.480 --> 0:52:27.920
<v Speaker 4>If I was on this planet for as long as

0:52:27.920 --> 0:52:30.719
<v Speaker 4>I will be right, Yes, it is like I wish

0:52:30.760 --> 0:52:34.279
<v Speaker 4>I could cast a magical fucking spell due and just

0:52:35.680 --> 0:52:43.440
<v Speaker 4>at least have an inkling of my peace of mind

0:52:44.400 --> 0:52:51.719
<v Speaker 4>like just on like at least shown to somebody else, right,

0:52:51.840 --> 0:52:54.319
<v Speaker 4>or at least like a couple like some people right,

0:52:54.360 --> 0:52:57.040
<v Speaker 4>at least at least, like if if I had some

0:52:57.360 --> 0:53:01.680
<v Speaker 4>energy in my pot, in my in my person and

0:53:01.719 --> 0:53:09.920
<v Speaker 4>that energy was like projected, I guess that would be nice.

0:53:11.239 --> 0:53:14.520
<v Speaker 1>Okay, hold on, stare right there, stare right there, stare

0:53:14.560 --> 0:53:17.120
<v Speaker 1>right there. If you okay, you could, if you could

0:53:17.160 --> 0:53:20.640
<v Speaker 1>wave a magic wand you would have peace of mind

0:53:21.320 --> 0:53:22.920
<v Speaker 1>that was shared with another person.

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<v Speaker 4>Said at least at least one person. Okay, I mean

0:53:31.040 --> 0:53:31.880
<v Speaker 4>I don't know here.

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<v Speaker 1>I go, well, yeah, but like I mean, do you

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<v Speaker 1>have like do you do you have peace of mind already?

0:53:39.760 --> 0:53:41.360
<v Speaker 1>Because you can't have peace of mind to share with

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<v Speaker 1>another person if you don't have, like I guess, peace

0:53:43.680 --> 0:53:44.360
<v Speaker 1>of mind.

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<v Speaker 3>You know.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, I don't want to be weird, but I'm

0:53:49.160 --> 0:53:53.600
<v Speaker 4>drinking this and this meat a lotta is really good. Yeah,

0:53:53.920 --> 0:53:54.520
<v Speaker 4>I've been drinking.

0:53:56.080 --> 0:54:00.440
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, what is a michta.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, you put a beer in a cup and there's

0:54:05.400 --> 0:54:09.799
<v Speaker 4>like a a rim of taking, and then they give

0:54:09.840 --> 0:54:14.799
<v Speaker 4>you some salt like whatever flavor, and you pour that

0:54:14.840 --> 0:54:16.799
<v Speaker 4>in a beer and you have a beer with some

0:54:16.840 --> 0:54:18.600
<v Speaker 4>salt and taking rim.

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<v Speaker 3>It's pretty good.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah. Alcohol will give you, it will definitely give you

0:54:24.680 --> 0:54:28.400
<v Speaker 1>temporary piece of mind and then you you but you

0:54:28.520 --> 0:54:31.719
<v Speaker 1>kind of borrow the piece of mind. I don't, I don't.

0:54:31.960 --> 0:54:34.080
<v Speaker 1>You don't. I'm getting this. I don't really want to

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<v Speaker 1>go on a motivational fucking whatever thing.

0:54:38.920 --> 0:54:42.879
<v Speaker 4>But Okay, we're trying our hardest out here. Okay, yeah

0:54:42.920 --> 0:54:51.600
<v Speaker 4>I know you are. Mm hmm, but yeah mm hmmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Do give a job or what else do you work?

0:54:54.680 --> 0:54:55.160
<v Speaker 1>Do you work?

0:54:55.760 --> 0:54:56.040
<v Speaker 3>Dude?

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<v Speaker 6>I can't.

0:54:56.520 --> 0:55:00.279
<v Speaker 4>I saw two hundred applications, man, two hundred, and I

0:55:00.320 --> 0:55:04.640
<v Speaker 4>have a degree, and like I'm like, bro, okay, I smoke,

0:55:04.680 --> 0:55:07.640
<v Speaker 4>we I get it, but like who's who's fucking with me?

0:55:07.680 --> 0:55:07.839
<v Speaker 3>Bro?

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<v Speaker 4>Like like why is there? Like is this someone on

0:55:12.200 --> 0:55:15.640
<v Speaker 4>my phone that's like part of like the I T

0:55:15.960 --> 0:55:20.399
<v Speaker 4>Department And they're like, wow, this guy when he's we're weird,

0:55:21.000 --> 0:55:24.479
<v Speaker 4>we're bringing him in. So don't give him a fucking job.

0:55:25.520 --> 0:55:27.880
<v Speaker 4>Let him do this and that and to make some money.

0:55:27.880 --> 0:55:30.759
<v Speaker 1>And then like you know, I'm sorry, I can, I can.

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<v Speaker 1>I fuck. I really don't want to try to go

0:55:34.200 --> 0:55:36.440
<v Speaker 1>on a mote. I like, I just I'm just trying

0:55:36.520 --> 0:55:38.000
<v Speaker 1>so hard. I just want to talk to you, and

0:55:38.080 --> 0:55:40.120
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to go on a motivational rant. But

0:55:40.160 --> 0:55:42.000
<v Speaker 1>I have a little I just have a little thing

0:55:42.040 --> 0:55:43.359
<v Speaker 1>that I want to. Can I go on a little

0:55:43.360 --> 0:55:44.960
<v Speaker 1>motivational rant, like a tiny one.

0:55:47.600 --> 0:55:52.839
<v Speaker 4>I mean, I'm if it makes I mean, all right, you.

0:55:52.800 --> 0:55:55.439
<v Speaker 1>Know what, you know what you know? Fine, all right, fine, fine,

0:55:55.440 --> 0:55:57.040
<v Speaker 1>I want, I want.

0:55:58.480 --> 0:56:01.840
<v Speaker 4>Because I know I special place for me, man, I

0:56:02.200 --> 0:56:04.160
<v Speaker 4>have like a special place in my heart for you.

0:56:04.640 --> 0:56:06.680
<v Speaker 4>Thank you feel free?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, all right, listen, First of all, just say look,

0:56:14.000 --> 0:56:17.640
<v Speaker 1>and this is a thing across the fucking board. Uh

0:56:17.760 --> 0:56:22.040
<v Speaker 1>the it's just across the fucking board that yes, getting

0:56:22.080 --> 0:56:25.360
<v Speaker 1>a job is like, this is really hard. It's like

0:56:25.400 --> 0:56:28.759
<v Speaker 1>insanely fucking difficult. Even if you feel like two hundred

0:56:28.960 --> 0:56:33.919
<v Speaker 1>motherfucking apple, it's like, annoy, it's really hard. I'm I'm

0:56:33.960 --> 0:56:36.480
<v Speaker 1>the most privileged individual on the planet that I can

0:56:36.480 --> 0:56:39.680
<v Speaker 1>do this stupid podcast and I don't have to do it,

0:56:40.160 --> 0:56:46.160
<v Speaker 1>but I know it's hard. I just if I the

0:56:46.200 --> 0:56:49.600
<v Speaker 1>only the thing that's fucking standing out to me in

0:56:49.680 --> 0:56:54.760
<v Speaker 1>talking to you and is just that when you say

0:56:54.880 --> 0:57:00.400
<v Speaker 1>that like everything is terrible and people are terrible, and

0:57:00.480 --> 0:57:05.360
<v Speaker 1>that's just what you're what that's just etched in this stone,

0:57:06.360 --> 0:57:13.200
<v Speaker 1>that's just carved in stone into your brain. It's it's

0:57:13.280 --> 0:57:16.440
<v Speaker 1>just what, It's just what it's just becomes your fucking reality.

0:57:16.480 --> 0:57:18.919
<v Speaker 1>It's just what you see. So if you walk around

0:57:19.000 --> 0:57:23.120
<v Speaker 1>being like everyone is fucking terrible, then of course everyone

0:57:23.280 --> 0:57:27.640
<v Speaker 1>ends up being terrible, and and there's a lot of

0:57:27.680 --> 0:57:35.120
<v Speaker 1>like genuine like real life bad stuff, but there's also

0:57:35.240 --> 0:57:37.800
<v Speaker 1>a good portion of it where it's like if you

0:57:38.000 --> 0:57:42.360
<v Speaker 1>as long as if you're walking around trying to assume

0:57:42.600 --> 0:57:46.640
<v Speaker 1>some form of positive attent of other positive intent of

0:57:46.680 --> 0:57:49.760
<v Speaker 1>other people, you find it more than if you walk

0:57:49.800 --> 0:57:52.160
<v Speaker 1>around assuming that everyone's terrible. That's it. That's the end

0:57:52.200 --> 0:57:54.640
<v Speaker 1>of my vovational rant. No more motivational rants.

0:57:54.520 --> 0:57:57.360
<v Speaker 4>Get and you're just saying positive about it. That's cool,

0:57:57.480 --> 0:57:58.200
<v Speaker 4>not be not.

0:57:58.200 --> 0:58:01.440
<v Speaker 1>Like not like fucking hey, everything's amazing, rainbows are awesome,

0:58:01.960 --> 0:58:03.880
<v Speaker 1>life is good, isn't it good? Not like that, but

0:58:04.000 --> 0:58:06.880
<v Speaker 1>just like, at least you don't have to do that,

0:58:06.920 --> 0:58:09.040
<v Speaker 1>You don't have to walk around like a fucking teletubby,

0:58:09.080 --> 0:58:11.920
<v Speaker 1>but just the opposite. But just don't do the opposite.

0:58:12.480 --> 0:58:15.440
<v Speaker 1>Don't don't walk around like you're you know, because then

0:58:15.720 --> 0:58:18.240
<v Speaker 1>then you're just fu you just prematurely fuck yourself.

0:58:21.000 --> 0:58:26.360
<v Speaker 4>Okay, all right, all right, cool.

0:58:27.160 --> 0:58:29.520
<v Speaker 1>Well Bob, I'm gonna let you go back I mean,

0:58:30.800 --> 0:58:32.440
<v Speaker 1>it was a cool talk. It was nice talking to you.

0:58:32.440 --> 0:58:32.560
<v Speaker 6>Man.

0:58:32.600 --> 0:58:35.240
<v Speaker 1>I hope you're I hope you're okay. I don't know you.

0:58:35.600 --> 0:58:39.320
<v Speaker 1>I hope you're okay. I hope you're not going completely

0:58:39.360 --> 0:58:41.320
<v Speaker 1>and I hope you're going I don't I hope you

0:58:41.360 --> 0:58:45.800
<v Speaker 1>are not going more insane. I hope you're not going

0:58:45.840 --> 0:58:49.320
<v Speaker 1>significantly more insane than the average person on the planet

0:58:50.040 --> 0:58:51.760
<v Speaker 1>is going insane at this current time.

0:58:54.760 --> 0:58:58.640
<v Speaker 4>I think it's okay to cry. I wanted to say

0:58:58.680 --> 0:59:01.440
<v Speaker 4>something to the viewers to cry. I mean, just like,

0:59:01.560 --> 0:59:05.360
<v Speaker 4>calm down, don't cry too much. But if you can't

0:59:05.360 --> 0:59:08.520
<v Speaker 4>help it, fuck it. Just light it up.

0:59:08.880 --> 0:59:16.040
<v Speaker 1>Yeah. Yeah, Well, have a good night, Bob, thanks for calling.

0:59:18.120 --> 0:59:21.760
<v Speaker 4>Cheers, Yeah, Coop, Yeah, I'm gonna have this all right, cool,

0:59:22.000 --> 0:59:24.560
<v Speaker 4>all right, take care, Coop, all right later.

0:59:24.600 --> 0:59:32.120
<v Speaker 1>Up. It's good to cry. It's good to cry. Sometimes

0:59:32.120 --> 0:59:33.920
<v Speaker 1>you cry. When is the last time I cried? I

0:59:34.000 --> 0:59:37.560
<v Speaker 1>cried recently? Yeah? No, I cry a lot. I actually

0:59:37.600 --> 0:59:48.640
<v Speaker 1>cry fairly often. No, cry, Oh my god, cry Yeah, cry, laugh, cry, uh, drink,

0:59:48.840 --> 0:59:54.439
<v Speaker 1>drink a diet coke, live for eighty years, and then

0:59:55.280 --> 1:00:00.720
<v Speaker 1>pass away peacefully in your sleep, ideally rounded by at

1:00:00.840 --> 1:00:03.880
<v Speaker 1>least one other human being if you can hack that.

1:00:05.000 --> 1:00:08.760
<v Speaker 1>But even if not, this is fine. There's no this. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know. It's not a win lose life. Isn't

1:00:10.880 --> 1:00:15.040
<v Speaker 1>it really a wind lose proposition? I don't think and

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<v Speaker 1>those if you want it to be, I kind of

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<v Speaker 1>want I kind of want it to be. I kind

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<v Speaker 1>of want to do stuff, but I guess you don't

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<v Speaker 1>have to do stuff. I don't know. I feel like

1:00:22.760 --> 1:00:25.880
<v Speaker 1>I'm okay now. I feel like I'm on Mars. But

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<v Speaker 1>it's good. Maybe it's good to leave Earth now and

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<v Speaker 1>then Hello, Hello, what's up man? How you doing? What's

1:00:33.600 --> 1:00:34.000
<v Speaker 1>your name?

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<v Speaker 4>My name is Coal?

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<v Speaker 1>Coal?

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<v Speaker 3>What up?

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<v Speaker 1>Coal?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>What are you doing?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 6>I saw you. I saw you in l a kind

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<v Speaker 6>of recently. I guess it was in like November.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh shit, Yeah that was ah Yeah that was fun.

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<v Speaker 1>That was a good time. Those are fun shows.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah. I drove from I drove from Phoenix, Arizona.

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<v Speaker 1>Where are you? Which one were you at? Do you

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<v Speaker 1>remember anything that happened at the show?

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<v Speaker 6>I think I was at Night two.

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<v Speaker 1>Was that the one where the lady talked about having

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<v Speaker 1>sex with Mark Zuckerberg and her dream?

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<v Speaker 6>Yes?

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<v Speaker 1>It was okay, Yeah, that was interesting.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, that happened.

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<v Speaker 1>So what's going on with you?

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<v Speaker 3>Man?

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<v Speaker 2>Dude?

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<v Speaker 6>I mean I've been watching your stream for years now

1:01:33.320 --> 1:01:37.080
<v Speaker 6>and I finally had the urge to call in because

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<v Speaker 6>I don't know, life's just like a crazy, crazy journey

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<v Speaker 6>and recently, recently, I feel like I've made a lot

1:01:47.040 --> 1:01:54.320
<v Speaker 6>of big changes. That's just been really crazy. The catalyst

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<v Speaker 6>of it all. The interesting thing is that I was

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<v Speaker 6>engaged to be married and now I'm not. So that

1:02:05.840 --> 1:02:09.520
<v Speaker 6>was kind of really tough, but it ended up being

1:02:09.560 --> 1:02:12.320
<v Speaker 6>like a catalyst for me to really get into like

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<v Speaker 6>mindfulness and ship.

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<v Speaker 1>How long how long were you with this person for?

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<v Speaker 1>Like how long are you like in total like dating

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<v Speaker 1>and engage?

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<v Speaker 2>Probably two years?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh all right? Two years?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>And uh, do you want to talk about what happens?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 6>It was, I mean, it was an unfortunate situation.

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<v Speaker 1>You know.

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<v Speaker 6>It's it's one of those situations where you love the

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<v Speaker 6>person still, yeah, but you come to realize that you

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<v Speaker 6>kind of just don't work together unfortunately. Yeah. And the

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<v Speaker 6>crazy thing is we we separate after like a year

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<v Speaker 6>and we ended up getting back together, and it's like

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<v Speaker 6>we didn't learn our lesson, you know, like we tried

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<v Speaker 6>to just jump back in even though there were so

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<v Speaker 6>many issues, and we tried to like honeymoon face it

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<v Speaker 6>out again and like forget about the issues that happened.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, can I ask if you wanted, if you

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<v Speaker 1>are cool to talk about them, Like what was the

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<v Speaker 1>main one or a couple of ones?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah? So yeah, what happened is I flirted with a girl.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh no, I flirted.

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<v Speaker 6>With a girl, right, And I was like feeling kind

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<v Speaker 6>of weird about it. I was like, oh, you know,

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<v Speaker 6>I definitely like flirted with this person while I was

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<v Speaker 6>in this relationship, and I started journaling, so I journaled

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<v Speaker 6>about it, you know, like I kind of feel shitty

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<v Speaker 6>that I did this, you know, like it feels like cheating,

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<v Speaker 6>even though it wasn't physically doing something with someone. And

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<v Speaker 6>what happened was my ex read my journal and then

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<v Speaker 6>I came home and she had moved out.

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<v Speaker 1>This was, uh, this was a bit like the first

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<v Speaker 1>time you guys got separated. Yeah, yeah, and then and

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<v Speaker 1>then what was it? What was it that got you

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<v Speaker 1>back together?

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<v Speaker 6>We did this thing you're not supposed to do where

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<v Speaker 6>even though you're broken up, we kept having sex with

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<v Speaker 6>each other. And that was not a very good thing

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<v Speaker 6>to do, but we both participated in it and not

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<v Speaker 6>very proud of it, but we kind of it was

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<v Speaker 6>just what was easy. Like we were both two lonely

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<v Speaker 6>people who like, like I knew the right path for

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<v Speaker 6>me was to like focus on myself and grow, but

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<v Speaker 6>it was just like so easy to go back to

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<v Speaker 6>what was familiar.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, I mean, uh yeah, I think, well, it's

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<v Speaker 1>like a human default nature. That's why I mean, that's

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<v Speaker 1>why people stay in like fucking like that's why people

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<v Speaker 1>stay in like abusive relationships and shit like that is.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I'm talking about I'm talking, I'm talking about

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<v Speaker 1>shit that I have, and I'm by the way, just

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just really want to iterate in this very moment

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<v Speaker 1>that I am talking publicly on a podcast to thousands

1:05:30.120 --> 1:05:33.280
<v Speaker 1>of people about shit that I fucking don't know anything about.

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<v Speaker 1>But why have a podcast if you're not gonna do that?

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<v Speaker 1>That's I think that's the whole point of having a podcast.

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<v Speaker 1>So uh but yeah, I think that's why people stay

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<v Speaker 1>in relationships like that is because it's just like complacency

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<v Speaker 1>is just a fucking hell of a drug, and complacency

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<v Speaker 1>is a hell of a drug, and it's always like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I think I think it's like human nature

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<v Speaker 1>to just kind of do whatever the easiest, safest thing is,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I think what most people do.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, yes, m hm.

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<v Speaker 1>So whether or not that's good, I don't fucking know.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not I'm not a I don't know anything.

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<v Speaker 6>But yeah, at the time it felt good. At the time,

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<v Speaker 6>it felt good, But like I said, we kind of

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<v Speaker 6>jumped back into the relationship and that kind of lack

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<v Speaker 6>of trust remained kind of deep within our foundation. Sure,

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<v Speaker 6>So you know, the thing that happened recently was I

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<v Speaker 6>was talking with a coworker, an ex coworker of mine

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<v Speaker 6>that she wasn't comfortable with me talking to because this

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<v Speaker 6>was a woman, and you know, in my dumb man brain,

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<v Speaker 6>I was like, I'm not interested in this person, so

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<v Speaker 6>therefore it's okay. But it obviously brought up like hints

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<v Speaker 6>of the past for her, and her trust is with

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<v Speaker 6>me talking to another girl. So yeah, it's it's so

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<v Speaker 6>interesting that that kind of thing broke up an engagement.

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<v Speaker 6>But you know, her finding out I had reached out

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<v Speaker 6>to this ex coworker to see how they were doing.

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<v Speaker 6>That's what ended up uh, breaking it all down and.

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<v Speaker 1>So what uh yeah, So I mean, do you still

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<v Speaker 1>talk to this lady that you were engaged with? No?

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<v Speaker 6>She, Uh No, I haven't been able to reach out

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<v Speaker 6>with her. I called her a month ago. That was

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<v Speaker 6>the last time I spoke with her. I kind of

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<v Speaker 6>really I kind of wanted some closure. And you know,

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<v Speaker 6>my thing was, I wanted to get to a point

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<v Speaker 6>where I didn't want to call her out of necessity

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<v Speaker 6>because like, like after we broke up, I struggled with

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<v Speaker 6>anxiety and my panic attacks came back and I started

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<v Speaker 6>having these panic attacks and I want it's so badly

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<v Speaker 6>to like call her to make it go away, and

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<v Speaker 6>I didn't want to like use her. If that makes sense.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, feel better?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah because you yeah, because if

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<v Speaker 1>you do that, you open up a whole canno that

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<v Speaker 1>you know, there's no such thing as free. You can't

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<v Speaker 1>just like you know, she's like, you know, you can't

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<v Speaker 1>just use it as like a band aid. It opens

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<v Speaker 1>up a whole can of worms.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah right, Yeah, So that was really hard.

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<v Speaker 1>But go ahead, No, I don't have any go ahead.

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<v Speaker 6>I was gonna say it was really hard, but what

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<v Speaker 6>got me through, like that hard time without reaching out

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<v Speaker 6>to her, which was you know, the crutch I was

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<v Speaker 6>so used to was like just reaching out to my

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<v Speaker 6>family and friends. Yeah, which seems like so simple and stupid,

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<v Speaker 6>but like I never really did.

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<v Speaker 1>That before that, that's not I don't think that reaching

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<v Speaker 1>out to your family and friends is stupid. If you

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<v Speaker 1>told me, yeah, you know what I did is I

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<v Speaker 1>got I got, I got twelve MIC's hard lemonades, and

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<v Speaker 1>I rammed them down until I forgot about my life.

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<v Speaker 1>I'd be like, yeah, that's a little simple and stupid.

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<v Speaker 1>But no, reaching out to your family and friends is

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<v Speaker 1>quite smart and good. I would say that is a

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<v Speaker 1>smart and good method of doing what you are attempting

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<v Speaker 1>to do.

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<v Speaker 6>I guess it's stupid stupid how simple it was?

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<v Speaker 1>Sure? Well, yeah, I guess it is a little stupid. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I guess it is like kind of funny that, like sure, sure,

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<v Speaker 1>Like you call your friend and you're like, oh, I

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<v Speaker 1>should have just called my friend, you know, like, especially

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<v Speaker 1>if you have some do your friends? Do you have

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of friends?

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<v Speaker 6>I have some. Okay, I have a few core friends

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<v Speaker 6>that I'm very grateful to have in my life. Like

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<v Speaker 6>I reached out to my cousin and this dude I

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<v Speaker 6>have known my whole life. He's my my fucking cousin,

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<v Speaker 6>you know. And it turns out like he's been struggling

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<v Speaker 6>with panic attacks his whole lives and it's just something

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<v Speaker 6>we never talked about and just you know, calling him

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<v Speaker 6>and being like, hey, like, how are you opened up

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<v Speaker 6>the door to have these like deeper conversations with these

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<v Speaker 6>people I've been close with but have never really been

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<v Speaker 6>vulnerable with.

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<v Speaker 1>Bro do Yeah, that's the most vulnerable that I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>not vulnerable. That's the most valuable fucking thing that you

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<v Speaker 1>can do. If you're lucky enough to have people like

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<v Speaker 1>that in your life. I mean, those people will just

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<v Speaker 1>save your Assay, those people will save your ass if

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<v Speaker 1>if if you're lucky enough to have him in your life.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, yeah, that's what I typically do when I'm

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<v Speaker 1>going insane, as I call all of my friends and

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<v Speaker 1>fans Emily and whatnot. Yes, when it's the most valuable

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<v Speaker 1>thing you can have. Yeah, sorry, I drank a lot.

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<v Speaker 1>I drank a lot of coffee before I started recording this,

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<v Speaker 1>and it's been about an hour something and I think

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<v Speaker 1>I'm getting to the point, you know, how like like,

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<v Speaker 1>caffeine is just borrowing. It's really just borrowing energy. It's

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<v Speaker 1>it's you can that you never can create energy. You

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<v Speaker 1>can only well, I mean you can if you like

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<v Speaker 1>eat lettuce and salmon. But you know, caffeine is he's

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<v Speaker 1>borrowed from the future. And I think I'm starting to

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<v Speaker 1>arrive at the future. And I'm sorry that's happening in

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<v Speaker 1>the middle of talking to you. But I just making

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<v Speaker 1>that clear in case if I start mumbling and stuttering

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<v Speaker 1>and making no sense, that's what's your again, Man, I'm cool.

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<v Speaker 4>Cool.

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<v Speaker 1>How old are you cool?

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<v Speaker 6>I'm twenty five.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, all right, this is cool. I think this is

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<v Speaker 1>a good life experience. Probably you're learning how to be

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<v Speaker 1>more vulnerable with the people who are already in your life.

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<v Speaker 1>It's deepening your connections with them. Sounds like you're learning

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<v Speaker 1>a lot. Sounds like you're having making good skills. Again,

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<v Speaker 1>it's if you told me that you were coping by

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<v Speaker 1>you know, getting fucked up. There's worse ways to do it.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, No, I try to go outside and smell air,

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<v Speaker 6>look at trees. It's really nice.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah. Life is pretty uh pretty, it's pretty crazy. It's

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<v Speaker 1>pretty coral. I'm gonna say it, and you know what,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't I say it's I really mean it every

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<v Speaker 1>time I say it. I've never I've met you know what,

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<v Speaker 1>fucking Cole. I've never felt more in my fucking life.

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<v Speaker 1>And I say this with so much confidence, and I

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<v Speaker 1>mean it. I've never felt more. With every day older

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<v Speaker 1>I get that life is crazy. If I say that,

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<v Speaker 1>not it's not even a catchphrase any I just mean

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<v Speaker 1>it and I feel it, and I I just I

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<v Speaker 1>just I just think life is crazy and I'm sorry,

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<v Speaker 1>but I'm also not because it is.

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<v Speaker 6>Do you think that's part of the human experience that

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<v Speaker 6>everyone experiences, that gradual increase of craziness.

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<v Speaker 1>No?

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<v Speaker 6>Do you think there's a certain path that allowed you

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<v Speaker 6>to have this clarity?

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<v Speaker 1>I think, I think, I'm I think, I mean, I

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<v Speaker 1>think I've been very uh lucky in my life to

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<v Speaker 1>experience that, to to feel like life is crazy. But

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<v Speaker 1>I also think think that you don't need a lot

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<v Speaker 1>to feel like life is. I mean, I like sitting,

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<v Speaker 1>if you're like having, you know, sitting at a standing

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<v Speaker 1>like you could go into a convenience store and buy

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<v Speaker 1>a bottle of water and stand outside and drink it.

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<v Speaker 1>And and look around and be like, whoa life is crazy?

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<v Speaker 3>You know?

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<v Speaker 1>You know it's not a lot.

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<v Speaker 6>I don't you're talking. I have an experience every time

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<v Speaker 6>I go to a gas station and I'm like waiting

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<v Speaker 6>for my gas to finish, and I look around, I'm like,

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<v Speaker 6>this is a gas station.

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<v Speaker 1>What is this fucking podcast anymore?

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<v Speaker 3>What?

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know what I'm doing anymore? Are you all right?

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<v Speaker 3>You know what?

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<v Speaker 1>Cole? I'm glad you know what, Cole. I'm not worried

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<v Speaker 1>about you. I think you're gonna be all right. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not worried about you.

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<v Speaker 6>I really appreciate that. Can I tak one more thing?

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<v Speaker 6>When I started listening to the podcast, I was still

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<v Speaker 6>looking for love, and I had this habit of where,

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<v Speaker 6>if I had I was lucky enough to meet up

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<v Speaker 6>with someone off tender or whatever the fuck, I would

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<v Speaker 6>like leave early because I like my own bed, and

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<v Speaker 6>I'd hop in my car and I would turn on

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<v Speaker 6>Therapy Get Go, and I would go buy a large

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<v Speaker 6>milkshake and a large fry from Wiler Burger, and I

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<v Speaker 6>would drink my milkshake and my eat my fry, and

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<v Speaker 6>I'd listen to therapy. Gecko from my draft home.

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<v Speaker 1>I am I'm happy.

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<v Speaker 6>I don't know why I'm sharing that with you.

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<v Speaker 1>No, no, no, I'm I'm I'm happy to I'm happy

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<v Speaker 1>to be part of your post sex driving home to

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<v Speaker 1>get food. Ah.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, I don't want to say it that way.

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<v Speaker 3>But.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm on, I'm on. You know what that's I I'm

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<v Speaker 1>really happy. I'm really honored to fit right into that

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<v Speaker 1>little part of your life. That's a nice little place

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<v Speaker 1>for me to be.

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<v Speaker 6>I just want you to know there's no particular reason.

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<v Speaker 6>It's just it happened and in it and it's stuck.

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<v Speaker 1>Every time I come, I gotta listen to therapy, get

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<v Speaker 1>go and drink a large milkshake. I don't know why,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's my post coom routine. Yeah all right, Well

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<v Speaker 1>you have a good rest of the night, Cole.

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<v Speaker 6>You two while thank care bye.

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<v Speaker 1>What a burger is good as hell? They have? I

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<v Speaker 1>don't shit, I don't know if this is fat burger

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<v Speaker 1>or what a burger? I think it's what a burger

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<v Speaker 1>that has the Doctor Pepper milkshake. I'm a big fan

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<v Speaker 1>of that Doctor Pepper milkshake.

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<v Speaker 7>Goes on the line every night everything, And I was

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<v Speaker 7>teaching you a loud look like but he's not really

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<v Speaker 7>an expert.