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Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, Hey, Hello, Hi, what is your name?

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Speaker 2: I'm gonna go with Nancy.

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Speaker 1: Nancy like Nancy Drew the famous Uh what does she do?

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Speaker 1: She's like a detective, right?

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Speaker 2: I think? Yeah, I think she's like a detective of

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Speaker 2: a book. Right. I think.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, that's cool. Is that uh where you came up

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Speaker 1: with the name Nancy?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I was. I don't know.

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Speaker 3: I was thinking like a fake name, and I just

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Speaker 3: thought of Nancy because nobody would guess that I am Nancy.

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Speaker 1: I don't know I would be I could be convinced

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Speaker 1: that your real name is Nancy. You sound like a Nancy.

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Speaker 2: Oh cool, I'm fucked.

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Speaker 1: Wow, you know you're not fucked. You're not fucked. You're

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Speaker 1: not fucked. I'm gonna assume your gender real cood? Are

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Speaker 1: you a man?

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Speaker 2: I am a man?

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Speaker 1: I kind of feel like like a really like I

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Speaker 1: don't know why, but I feel like like a really

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Speaker 1: like Nancy could be the name of like a really confident,

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Speaker 1: attractive man. I really feel that way.

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Speaker 2: That's that's a pretty good. Yeah. If I ever get

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Speaker 2: a son on Monday with me Nancy.

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Speaker 1: Well I wouldn't. You shouldn't do that experiment on your son.

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Speaker 1: You should let some other poor motherfucker try that one out.

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Speaker 1: But I think it could work. I think Nancy could

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Speaker 1: work as like as a masculine name, like well, it's

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Speaker 1: like well like like actually, I mean there's there's Clancy,

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Speaker 1: which is like an extremely masculine name. That's like a

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Speaker 1: lumberjack name, Clancy.

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Speaker 2: Oh yeah, there's that guy Tom Clancy.

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Speaker 3: I don't even know who that guy is, but he

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Speaker 3: just shows up on video games.

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Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, he's killed a bunch of people. What's up, Nancy?

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Speaker 1: How you doing? What can I house? What made you

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Speaker 1: want to call this phone?

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Speaker 2: This is crazy.

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Speaker 3: I'd never thought that I would get here, but I

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Speaker 3: when I was eavesdrop, I mean daydreaming while I do

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Speaker 3: quite a lot, I thought about I could tell you

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Speaker 3: a story of how I was a CEO of a

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Speaker 3: small company at an age of nineteen.

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Speaker 1: You were the CEO of a company at the age

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Speaker 1: of nineteen. What kind of company was that? Were you

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Speaker 3: No? So it was actually my dad's company. It was

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Speaker 3: like a physical therapy machine manufacturing company.

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Speaker 2: So like there was like heating paths and.

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Speaker 4: Like massage chairs, I guess.

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Speaker 3: And then yeah, and then he suddenly died. Oh, I

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Speaker 3: had to take over the company for like a week.

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Speaker 1: I'm really sorry to hear about your dad, But also

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Speaker 1: I have to imagine that a lot of the people

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Speaker 1: that the CEO's nineteen year old son was now telling

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Speaker 2: I mean, yeah, I mean what was I was just.

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Speaker 3: Trying to, I don't know, just survive. I mean. The

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Speaker 3: worst thing was my uncle was trying to basically overthrow

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Speaker 3: So basically my aunt knew that and was scheming with

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Speaker 1: This is the plot. I think this is the plot

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Speaker 1: of the Lion King, right, this is the plot. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: this is the plot of the Lion King. Simba's dad,

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Speaker 1: Mufasa dies and so he becomes the king of the

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Speaker 1: of the massage chair company, and his uncle gets like

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Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, that's true.

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Speaker 1: You live, bro, you lived the Lion King, but for

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Speaker 1: massage chairs.

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Speaker 3: I guess, yeah, I guess I am the massage chair king.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, you're the massage chair lion king. So what happened

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Speaker 1: with your uncle? Did he like, did he banish you?

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Speaker 2: No?

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Speaker 3: So actually what happened was I was a CEO and

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Speaker 3: But your dad never thought that he was a good

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Speaker 2: Also, so.

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Speaker 3: We're going to create a water tight contract so that

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Speaker 3: By the way, this I like, I'm an American And

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Speaker 3: this happened in Indonesia because that's where my dad's business was.

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Speaker 2: So I was like jet lagged.

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Speaker 3: Because I just flew like twelve hours out of freaking

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Speaker 1: Your dad, your dad passes away, and then like how

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Speaker 1: soon after you get the news? Are you thrown on

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Speaker 3: Oh?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, like the day after.

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Speaker 1: That's insane because.

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Speaker 3: I got I got the call from my sister like, oh,

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Speaker 3: was basically told me like, by the way, this company

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Speaker 4: So I was like, what the hell.

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Speaker 3: So that's how kind of it became that and then

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Speaker 3: basically I was like the proxy. My mom made most

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Speaker 2: I guess.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Mean that's how most that I think that's how most

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean, yeah, that's true. Yeah, so that's kind

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Speaker 3: of what I told the shareholder to to Like, dude,

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Speaker 3: I am in college, I don't know any things about business,

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Speaker 3: but yeah, so we have to create like a watertight

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Speaker 3: then we were also afraid that when he finds out

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Speaker 3: We had to like basically create like a protection system

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Speaker 2: So yeah, so that's what happened.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I I was curious about that, Like, what happened

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Speaker 3: I mean so, so this was kind of the game plan.

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Speaker 3: The game plan was, we write the contract, we give

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Speaker 2: That I have to go back to school, blah blah blah.

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Speaker 3: And and basically like I flew out to basically get

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Speaker 1: Is your dad Indonesian? Is your family like Indonesian or

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Speaker 1: do you guys just like why is the company in Indonesia?

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 3: So my family, So, my my ethnicity is Korean. I

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Speaker 3: And I guess, like I don't really know the logistics,

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Speaker 2: So he was going through that too. So it was

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Speaker 1: You were you were you close with your dad at

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Speaker 2: So this is kind of the weird thing.

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Speaker 3: I think we kind of did so, like because of

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Speaker 2: And that's it.

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Speaker 1: Bro, hold on, hold on, hold on. So you're telling me, Okay,

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Speaker 1: you're telling me, and you were living with your mom,

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Speaker 3: I mean he did like come to visit like once,

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Speaker 3: I was a child and now I'm more of a

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Speaker 1: But okay, you know, damn man, So you what's do

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Speaker 1: you give? Any Like, Okay, where in America were you even?

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Speaker 1: West Coast okay, And so yeah, I mean, how did

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Speaker 1: I've heard of of, like you know, their dads weren't

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Speaker 1: it was like a phone.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean, it was definitely kind of weird because

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Speaker 3: I don't know, like my my siblings were more attached

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Speaker 3: But I think that's kind of how she survives the

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Speaker 1: How are you doing like like all that, like let

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Speaker 1: your main story. Okay, So you became the CEO of

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Speaker 3: Oh yeah, so that's seventy year old shareholder. So we

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Speaker 3: basically created the contract and said, hey, you're going to

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Speaker 3: I'm like, I'm just doing this to say things because

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Speaker 2: That I don't want to be a part of.

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Speaker 2: Company is no more.

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Speaker 3: So I was like, okay, well good for good for us,

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Speaker 1: How how okay? So this was when you were in nineteen.

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Speaker 1: How old are you now?

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Speaker 3: I am now almost twenty nine, thirty thirty?

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Speaker 1: Oh oh fuck, oh shit, okay, damn all right, so

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Speaker 2: And then so I'm I'm able to talk about it.

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Speaker 1: I Yeah, how you doing now? Man? What's up? Goddamn

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Speaker 1: eleven years? Okay, what's up? How you doing? Oh?

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Speaker 2: I'm doing great now.

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Speaker 3: I just tell this story and people are like, to

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Speaker 3: Now I am in a PhD program and I'm about

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Speaker 1: Cool. Do you still talk to your mom or is

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Speaker 1: it like you know, she's like, only call me when

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Speaker 2: Oh actually yeah?

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Speaker 3: So oh So I actually just got back from a

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Speaker 2: Got back from family reunion with my mom, my.

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Speaker 3: Siblings, and my uncle and cousins who I have not

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Speaker 1: But yeah, and do you still keep up with your

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Speaker 3: Oh yeah yeah those Yeah, my sisters are like I'm

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Speaker 1: So yeah, nice, man, Uh, you gotta you gotta, you

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 3: I actually I recently started dating this girl. I mean,

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Speaker 3: Cool.

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Speaker 2: Yeah she's pretty cool.

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Speaker 1: Cool. Do you do you like get did you, like, say,

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Speaker 1: you like saved it all? Or was that kind of

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Speaker 2: Actually?

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Speaker 3: No, So when we like I remember like when like

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Speaker 3: I don't know how money works, but it's basically the

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Speaker 2: While we were there.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, we just broke even.

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Speaker 1: Huh. This is an interesting, interesting story. This is very interesting.

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Speaker 1: Do you feel like what you said you went through

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Speaker 1: do you think like this untraditional or I guess I don't.

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Speaker 1: do you feel like it's like like like it's still

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Speaker 3: I mean like it's something that I personally like steer

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Speaker 3: kind of believe that. I think that's why they are

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Speaker 3: that is how she is, you know, so just don't

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Speaker 3: like we should not do this, you know. So actually

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Speaker 3: of going off with that ideology, Like my mom actually

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Speaker 3: never told my grandma that my dad is dead. So

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Speaker 3: even during their family reunion, my grandma still thought my

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Speaker 3: And I was like, yeah, he's just really busy.

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Speaker 1: Oh how long how long after he died was this?

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00:26:16,800 --> 00:26:17,920
Speaker 2: I mean, this was like.

448
00:26:19,680 --> 00:26:23,600
Speaker 3: Last week, so I guess it was like Jesus, it's

449
00:26:23,680 --> 00:26:24,920
Speaker 3: been like ten years.

450
00:26:25,200 --> 00:26:26,800
Speaker 1: That's kind of crazy.

451
00:26:28,400 --> 00:26:28,800
Speaker 2: Yeah.

452
00:26:28,880 --> 00:26:31,720
Speaker 3: So yeah, So like I always say, like, there's gonna

453
00:26:31,720 --> 00:26:35,200
Speaker 3: be that, like my Grandma's gonna be that meme of

454
00:26:35,240 --> 00:26:38,600
Speaker 3: like a surprised dude's face, like when she goes up

455
00:26:38,600 --> 00:26:39,960
Speaker 3: to heaven and sees my dad.

456
00:26:39,880 --> 00:26:41,600
Speaker 2: Like why the fuck are you here? You know.

457
00:26:43,520 --> 00:26:48,560
Speaker 1: So, so, yeah, interesting what Nancy?

458
00:26:48,720 --> 00:26:48,880
Speaker 3: Right?

459
00:26:50,320 --> 00:26:53,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, Nancy, I'm gonna go. I'm gonna do this. I

460
00:26:53,560 --> 00:26:56,280
Speaker 1: don't know how many people we got hanging out in

461
00:26:55,560 --> 00:26:59,480
Speaker 1: the live twitch chap, but if anyone in the live

462
00:26:59,560 --> 00:27:04,200
Speaker 1: twitch chat has questions for Nancy, I'm gonna I'm gonna

463
00:27:05,280 --> 00:27:08,720
Speaker 1: let let's let's answer some questions or feed you some

464
00:27:08,840 --> 00:27:13,359
Speaker 1: questions from the live twitch chat if the twitch chat

465
00:27:13,400 --> 00:27:19,479
Speaker 1: wants to ask any questions. Sometimes the twitch chat ask questions,

466
00:27:19,480 --> 00:27:22,040
Speaker 1: other times they just talk to each other about, uh,

467
00:27:22,480 --> 00:27:24,880
Speaker 1: whatever is going on in their life. Okay, here we go.

468
00:27:25,119 --> 00:27:29,000
Speaker 1: All right, someone said, why did you not tell the

469
00:27:29,119 --> 00:27:31,639
Speaker 1: grandma that your dad is dead?

470
00:27:33,320 --> 00:27:33,520
Speaker 2: Oh?

471
00:27:33,880 --> 00:27:39,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, so, like so, my family's reasoning was, like she's

472
00:27:39,400 --> 00:27:41,480
Speaker 3: very old because she was like eighty at that time,

473
00:27:41,680 --> 00:27:45,040
Speaker 3: and they thought that the news of it, like they

474
00:27:45,040 --> 00:27:48,479
Speaker 3: were very close, like he was like she she treated

475
00:27:49,280 --> 00:27:52,639
Speaker 3: him like like her own son. So they thought that

476
00:27:52,960 --> 00:27:56,320
Speaker 3: if she found out that he was dead, then that

477
00:27:56,400 --> 00:27:59,719
Speaker 3: would cost so much like mental stress on him on her,

478
00:27:59,840 --> 00:28:05,480
Speaker 3: that she would also die. But yeah, so that's what

479
00:28:05,640 --> 00:28:06,600
Speaker 3: that was the reasoning.

480
00:28:08,560 --> 00:28:11,840
Speaker 1: Yeah, that makes sense. What's your PhD in?

481
00:28:13,920 --> 00:28:14,280
Speaker 6: Oh?

482
00:28:14,320 --> 00:28:17,959
Speaker 3: So, I'm gonna also be very vague and say, like

483
00:28:18,359 --> 00:28:22,280
Speaker 3: related to some medical science research, is what I'm gonna say.

484
00:28:22,359 --> 00:28:25,359
Speaker 1: That sounds important. That sounds like it's good. It sounds

485
00:28:25,359 --> 00:28:28,679
Speaker 1: like you're doing something important and real. You're not getting

486
00:28:28,720 --> 00:28:31,320
Speaker 1: like if you're not doing like film history or some bullshit.

487
00:28:34,080 --> 00:28:37,280
Speaker 1: Someone people are saying, did the uncle kill the dad?

488
00:28:37,440 --> 00:28:39,200
Speaker 1: Do you think your uncle killed your dad?

489
00:28:40,840 --> 00:28:41,080
Speaker 2: No?

490
00:28:41,480 --> 00:28:44,480
Speaker 3: I know that for sure, that's not what happened. So

491
00:28:45,680 --> 00:28:49,320
Speaker 3: he actually died from like a blain brain bleed. Actually,

492
00:28:49,360 --> 00:28:50,600
Speaker 3: this is a really.

493
00:28:50,360 --> 00:28:51,240
Speaker 2: Crazy story too.

494
00:28:51,280 --> 00:28:54,240
Speaker 3: So my dad had high blood pressure for like the

495
00:28:54,360 --> 00:28:59,480
Speaker 3: longest time, and I guess like he was like out

496
00:28:59,480 --> 00:29:04,040
Speaker 3: in the middle I love nowhere like in Indonesia for

497
00:29:04,120 --> 00:29:09,720
Speaker 3: like a business meeting with that share holder that that

498
00:29:09,800 --> 00:29:13,840
Speaker 3: I talked about, and I guess like an aneurysm in

499
00:29:13,840 --> 00:29:17,760
Speaker 3: his brain like burst in the middle of night, because

500
00:29:17,800 --> 00:29:19,880
Speaker 3: I guess he was just very stressed about that busy

501
00:29:20,240 --> 00:29:26,080
Speaker 3: So like two am, three am, like my shareholder, the

502
00:29:26,160 --> 00:29:28,760
Speaker 3: shareholder guy said, you know, I'm gonna give him a name.

503
00:29:29,040 --> 00:29:30,600
Speaker 2: He's named Brian. So Brian.

504
00:29:30,840 --> 00:29:33,640
Speaker 3: Apparently, like I was sleeping next to him in the

505
00:29:33,720 --> 00:29:38,360
Speaker 3: hotel room and my dad like suddenly like turned on

506
00:29:38,440 --> 00:29:40,920
Speaker 3: the night lamp and was like my meds, my meds,

507
00:29:40,960 --> 00:29:45,959
Speaker 3: and then fell down and then uh he was and

508
00:29:46,000 --> 00:29:50,480
Speaker 3: then like the nearest hospital was like I think they

509
00:29:50,520 --> 00:29:55,280
Speaker 3: said like five hours, and so the ambulance was driving

510
00:29:55,320 --> 00:29:56,400
Speaker 3: for five hours.

511
00:29:56,440 --> 00:29:57,840
Speaker 2: But obviously if you have a.

512
00:29:57,720 --> 00:30:00,840
Speaker 3: Brain bleed, you don't have five hours. So I guess

513
00:30:00,840 --> 00:30:03,480
Speaker 3: he passed away in the ambulance and just arrived dead

514
00:30:03,520 --> 00:30:04,320
Speaker 3: at the hospital.

515
00:30:04,880 --> 00:30:07,640
Speaker 1: Oh man, So yeah, fuck man, he was in the middle.

516
00:30:07,800 --> 00:30:10,080
Speaker 1: He was like in the middle of nowhere, Indonesia, five

517
00:30:10,120 --> 00:30:12,600
Speaker 1: hours away from a hospital and got a brain aneurysm

518
00:30:12,600 --> 00:30:14,480
Speaker 1: because he was stressed out about a meeting.

519
00:30:15,880 --> 00:30:16,480
Speaker 2: Exactly.

520
00:30:16,880 --> 00:30:20,040
Speaker 1: Yes, nuts man. Do you think how old.

521
00:30:19,920 --> 00:30:24,240
Speaker 2: Was he at that time?

522
00:30:25,120 --> 00:30:26,480
Speaker 3: I think he was like.

523
00:30:28,720 --> 00:30:30,880
Speaker 2: Early fifties, mid fifties maybe.

524
00:30:31,200 --> 00:30:34,480
Speaker 1: Shit. Man, does that make you think about like life

525
00:30:34,480 --> 00:30:35,120
Speaker 1: at all? Are you?

526
00:30:35,240 --> 00:30:35,480
Speaker 3: Are you?

527
00:30:35,600 --> 00:30:37,440
Speaker 1: Like, damn, I gotta make sure I'm not working so

528
00:30:37,520 --> 00:30:39,640
Speaker 1: hard I don't get a fucking like brain bleed.

529
00:30:41,200 --> 00:30:41,360
Speaker 2: Oh.

530
00:30:41,640 --> 00:30:45,160
Speaker 3: I mean like for first few years, I was like

531
00:30:46,120 --> 00:30:49,120
Speaker 3: in this constant state, like I could die any moment.

532
00:30:49,480 --> 00:30:49,960
Speaker 1: Yeah.

533
00:30:50,040 --> 00:30:52,200
Speaker 2: So yeah, I was like a.

534
00:30:52,200 --> 00:30:54,920
Speaker 3: Constant like I was like you know, like I remember

535
00:30:54,960 --> 00:30:57,240
Speaker 3: I was like walking down the street and I will

536
00:30:57,280 --> 00:30:59,720
Speaker 3: be like I could like that bus could hit me,

537
00:31:00,160 --> 00:31:04,040
Speaker 3: or you know, like something could follow my head and

538
00:31:04,080 --> 00:31:06,120
Speaker 3: I could die. And I was like in a constant

539
00:31:06,480 --> 00:31:12,280
Speaker 3: stead of panic. But now I kind of like flipped

540
00:31:12,280 --> 00:31:16,360
Speaker 3: the other way of like I can die any moment, like,

541
00:31:16,600 --> 00:31:17,720
Speaker 3: so might as.

542
00:31:17,560 --> 00:31:18,720
Speaker 2: Well enjoy every day.

543
00:31:18,840 --> 00:31:20,840
Speaker 3: Like like you know, other people are like, oh, I

544
00:31:20,840 --> 00:31:23,200
Speaker 3: have this money, and I should save you know, all

545
00:31:23,240 --> 00:31:25,800
Speaker 3: of it. I mean, yeah, I've just obviously be piscally

546
00:31:25,880 --> 00:31:28,960
Speaker 3: responsible and save some of it. But I'm just like,

547
00:31:29,000 --> 00:31:32,280
Speaker 3: you know, like if it'll make you happy, you know,

548
00:31:32,440 --> 00:31:36,680
Speaker 3: go to that place, you know, buy that whatever ridiculous

549
00:31:36,680 --> 00:31:39,280
Speaker 3: thing that you want to buy.

550
00:31:39,320 --> 00:31:39,520
Speaker 2: You know.

551
00:31:40,480 --> 00:31:42,360
Speaker 3: So I kind of flipped the other way now with

552
00:31:42,440 --> 00:31:43,480
Speaker 3: that ideology too.

553
00:31:44,160 --> 00:31:47,520
Speaker 1: It's kind of funny to me that well I don't funny,

554
00:31:47,600 --> 00:31:50,160
Speaker 1: I don't know, but like the just the fact that

555
00:31:50,320 --> 00:31:54,000
Speaker 1: like they're like, hey, so your dad died of stress

556
00:31:54,080 --> 00:31:56,800
Speaker 1: from running this company, so why don't you run it instead?

557
00:31:59,360 --> 00:31:59,560
Speaker 2: Right?

558
00:31:59,680 --> 00:32:01,360
Speaker 3: I mean yeah, I mean they were just like you

559
00:32:01,440 --> 00:32:07,400
Speaker 3: don't know what to do, and he's there just like

560
00:32:07,880 --> 00:32:10,520
Speaker 3: I'm just like standing there, just like waving, and they're

561
00:32:10,560 --> 00:32:14,200
Speaker 3: like that's the guy. We're gonna grab that guy.

562
00:32:14,800 --> 00:32:20,480
Speaker 2: Oh so yeah.

563
00:32:18,960 --> 00:32:21,680
Speaker 1: All right, let me see let me look for one

564
00:32:21,720 --> 00:32:25,760
Speaker 1: more question. Oh okay, people were asking if your dad,

565
00:32:25,920 --> 00:32:29,240
Speaker 1: if your uncle killed your dad because it was ah,

566
00:32:29,400 --> 00:32:34,040
Speaker 1: it's a lion king. Do you still talk to the uncle?

567
00:32:34,080 --> 00:32:36,280
Speaker 1: That's my question, that's not in the chat. I'm just curious,

568
00:32:37,600 --> 00:32:38,880
Speaker 1: Oh hell to the No.

569
00:32:39,240 --> 00:32:42,760
Speaker 3: Yeah, no, I just felt really uncomfortable too.

570
00:32:43,040 --> 00:32:46,240
Speaker 2: I mean one because like I know that like.

571
00:32:46,400 --> 00:32:49,720
Speaker 3: Whole thing, and so that just leaves a.

572
00:32:49,720 --> 00:32:50,880
Speaker 2: Bad taste in the mouth.

573
00:32:51,360 --> 00:32:55,600
Speaker 3: But also, like while we were there, he knew that

574
00:32:55,680 --> 00:32:58,120
Speaker 3: he had a chance of taking over the company, so

575
00:32:58,280 --> 00:33:01,960
Speaker 3: like while we were there, he would basically like quote

576
00:33:02,000 --> 00:33:05,680
Speaker 3: unquote pamper us, like take us to like fancy department stores,

577
00:33:05,720 --> 00:33:09,760
Speaker 3: and like I remember, like he bought this really expensive

578
00:33:09,840 --> 00:33:12,880
Speaker 3: lipstick for my sister, and you know we obviously were like, oh,

579
00:33:12,920 --> 00:33:15,520
Speaker 3: you know, they're politely accept and thank you, and then

580
00:33:15,960 --> 00:33:17,920
Speaker 3: I remember my sister like leaned overs like I don't

581
00:33:17,960 --> 00:33:22,320
Speaker 3: even wear a lisstick, So like all that like pampering

582
00:33:22,480 --> 00:33:27,680
Speaker 3: just like and then you know, leading to him not

583
00:33:27,720 --> 00:33:28,760
Speaker 3: getting what he wanted.

584
00:33:29,160 --> 00:33:37,280
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's wanting. Yeah, but that's that's just want to Yeah,

585
00:33:36,120 --> 00:33:41,120
Speaker 1: that's yeah, because he's like like he he's just acting

586
00:33:41,200 --> 00:33:42,960
Speaker 1: under the assumption that he's about to have a ship

587
00:33:43,000 --> 00:33:44,920
Speaker 1: ton of money and spending it before he can even

588
00:33:45,720 --> 00:33:46,960
Speaker 1: confirm that he will have it.

589
00:33:48,680 --> 00:33:49,240
Speaker 2: Exactly.

590
00:33:49,480 --> 00:33:52,240
Speaker 3: Yeah, So like all in all, because of all of

591
00:33:52,320 --> 00:33:55,800
Speaker 3: the mess, Yeah, I don't talk to the and I

592
00:33:55,840 --> 00:33:59,720
Speaker 3: don't talk to the uncle. I try to, Like, I

593
00:33:59,760 --> 00:34:02,720
Speaker 3: don't think I'll ever go back to Indonesia ever.

594
00:34:04,720 --> 00:34:06,080
Speaker 4: Oh yeah.

595
00:34:06,160 --> 00:34:08,520
Speaker 1: The aunt though, the aunt's interesting to me because the

596
00:34:08,560 --> 00:34:12,440
Speaker 1: aunt was like, yo, my uncle. The aunt was like, Yo,

597
00:34:12,560 --> 00:34:14,719
Speaker 1: my husband's kind of a dumbass, and I don't think

598
00:34:14,719 --> 00:34:17,560
Speaker 1: he should have this company, So you should. I'm gonna

599
00:34:17,560 --> 00:34:18,839
Speaker 1: make sure that it goes to you.

600
00:34:20,600 --> 00:34:23,640
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean my I mean that's like my aunt,

601
00:34:23,800 --> 00:34:26,000
Speaker 3: Like she's such a sweetheart, Like she is one of

602
00:34:26,080 --> 00:34:29,719
Speaker 3: the nicest persons that I've ever met. And I think

603
00:34:29,760 --> 00:34:32,279
Speaker 3: part of it was like she, you know, she was

604
00:34:32,400 --> 00:34:36,040
Speaker 3: my dad's sister, so I think he she had his

605
00:34:36,120 --> 00:34:36,840
Speaker 3: best interest.

606
00:34:37,040 --> 00:34:39,640
Speaker 1: Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh. Okay, well that

607
00:34:39,719 --> 00:34:43,000
Speaker 1: changes everything, Okay, okay, oh that's just completely Okay, this

608
00:34:43,120 --> 00:34:45,920
Speaker 1: was your uncle, this was your uncle. Okay, this is

609
00:34:45,920 --> 00:34:48,239
Speaker 1: not your blood uncle, this is your uncle.

610
00:34:48,680 --> 00:34:48,879
Speaker 3: Yeah.

611
00:34:49,960 --> 00:34:52,279
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's not like, oh okay.

612
00:34:52,040 --> 00:34:55,200
Speaker 1: That changes completely everything. Yeah, that changes complete Yeah. But

613
00:34:55,239 --> 00:34:58,200
Speaker 1: then of course your aunt is gonna have your have

614
00:34:58,320 --> 00:34:59,960
Speaker 1: your back on that or not. Of course, I guess

615
00:35:00,000 --> 00:35:02,520
Speaker 1: it's not a given. But uh, your aunt, your aunt

616
00:35:02,560 --> 00:35:04,920
Speaker 1: could totally I mean, it's in your aunt's best interest

617
00:35:05,000 --> 00:35:07,520
Speaker 1: that you know, she's her I guess she gets the

618
00:35:07,520 --> 00:35:10,279
Speaker 1: money right over the fuck. But that's uh, damn, that's

619
00:35:10,360 --> 00:35:14,160
Speaker 1: that's yeah. Oh that makes your uncle like a triple dumbass. Honestly,

620
00:35:14,360 --> 00:35:16,279
Speaker 1: sorry to keep calling your uncle a dumbass, but I

621
00:35:16,600 --> 00:35:18,839
Speaker 1: get the sense you don't particularly like him, and it's

622
00:35:18,840 --> 00:35:20,920
Speaker 1: fun to call people a dumbass.

623
00:35:21,920 --> 00:35:24,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, I mean it's fine. You know, I don't

624
00:35:24,120 --> 00:35:27,319
Speaker 3: think I mean, he doesn't speak English, so I don't

625
00:35:27,360 --> 00:35:29,680
Speaker 3: think he can even listen to this podcast anyway.

626
00:35:30,000 --> 00:35:36,680
Speaker 1: So well, Nancy again, you know, look, if you're ever

627
00:35:36,719 --> 00:35:39,120
Speaker 1: thinking about really adopting that name, I think it's a

628
00:35:39,120 --> 00:35:43,360
Speaker 1: good name. Is Uh. Thank you for sharing the story

629
00:35:43,360 --> 00:35:45,120
Speaker 1: with us. This was fast. I feel like I just

630
00:35:45,239 --> 00:35:46,960
Speaker 1: watched a movie talking to you.

631
00:35:49,000 --> 00:35:52,239
Speaker 3: Oh well, I'm glad it was entertaining.

632
00:35:52,400 --> 00:35:53,120
Speaker 2: Thanks, Lyle.

633
00:35:54,280 --> 00:35:55,680
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

634
00:35:55,719 --> 00:35:57,239
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go.

635
00:36:00,160 --> 00:36:01,279
Speaker 4: Live your life?

636
00:36:02,120 --> 00:36:07,360
Speaker 2: Indonesia is a great place. They have great food. Visit

637
00:36:07,400 --> 00:36:07,960
Speaker 2: it some time.

638
00:36:08,239 --> 00:36:11,640
Speaker 3: Just get your vaccinations beforehand.

639
00:36:12,520 --> 00:36:15,359
Speaker 1: Beautiful, have a good rest of the night, Nancy. Thank

640
00:36:15,360 --> 00:36:20,120
Speaker 1: you for sharing, and good luck doing medical good luck

641
00:36:21,480 --> 00:36:27,040
Speaker 1: doing medical stuff on the West coast of the United States.

642
00:36:27,880 --> 00:36:30,480
Speaker 2: Thank you, sir. You have a good night, by Lyle.

643
00:36:30,680 --> 00:36:36,120
Speaker 1: Bye bye, Nancy. That was a nice call. That was

644
00:36:36,160 --> 00:36:39,799
Speaker 1: like I've never seen I hate I do this a lot.

645
00:36:40,000 --> 00:36:42,000
Speaker 1: Like I'll be like, oh, that was like the Wire.

646
00:36:42,200 --> 00:36:44,360
Speaker 1: Never seen the wire. I was about to say that

647
00:36:44,400 --> 00:36:47,359
Speaker 1: was like secession. But I've never seen secession. But I

648
00:36:47,400 --> 00:36:51,319
Speaker 1: think I think I know enough about I never seen

649
00:36:51,360 --> 00:36:55,000
Speaker 1: a single episode or I never read the Wikipedia page.

650
00:36:55,320 --> 00:36:57,440
Speaker 1: I don't know a single thing about secession, but I

651
00:36:57,520 --> 00:37:05,520
Speaker 1: know that it's about succeeding succession, you success, and so

652
00:37:06,560 --> 00:37:10,400
Speaker 1: I'm gonna assume this is this guy's life is like secession.

653
00:37:11,440 --> 00:37:15,800
Speaker 1: Lion King vibes. I haven't seen you know, I have

654
00:37:15,920 --> 00:37:17,239
Speaker 1: seen The Lion King, but I saw it a long

655
00:37:17,280 --> 00:37:20,120
Speaker 1: time ago. It's been a while. Maybe I'll'll watch it again,

656
00:37:20,200 --> 00:37:21,439
Speaker 1: Maybe I'll watch it right now.

657
00:37:23,080 --> 00:37:27,520
Speaker 4: Hello, Hey man, I just have like a lot of

658
00:37:27,520 --> 00:37:34,160
Speaker 4: stuff going on recently, and I'm kind of bummed out,

659
00:37:35,280 --> 00:37:40,920
Speaker 4: all right. I mean, I'm good, I just it's just

660
00:37:41,040 --> 00:37:43,280
Speaker 4: like it's kind of lonely out here.

661
00:37:44,080 --> 00:37:44,520
Speaker 2: Where are you?

662
00:37:44,560 --> 00:37:45,239
Speaker 1: Where is that here?

663
00:37:47,160 --> 00:37:49,440
Speaker 4: I mean I'm in my apartment, but like you know,

664
00:37:49,520 --> 00:37:51,359
Speaker 4: there's just no people to talk to, like.

665
00:37:51,320 --> 00:37:57,239
Speaker 1: Even metaphor yeah, what so you have?

666
00:37:59,280 --> 00:38:01,719
Speaker 4: Yeah, but I mean like I can't even ask I

667
00:38:01,719 --> 00:38:03,640
Speaker 4: can't even ask this guy like if they want to

668
00:38:03,640 --> 00:38:06,040
Speaker 4: go work out, you know. And then like I've even

669
00:38:06,040 --> 00:38:08,239
Speaker 4: I've gone to one of your shows in LA and

670
00:38:08,280 --> 00:38:12,480
Speaker 4: I brought somebody, like a significant other, and then like now,

671
00:38:13,400 --> 00:38:17,279
Speaker 4: i mean like I don't think that my lifestyle was

672
00:38:17,280 --> 00:38:20,560
Speaker 4: the problem, but I guess my lifestyle was a problem.

673
00:38:21,080 --> 00:38:23,280
Speaker 4: And now like I don't even talk to that person

674
00:38:23,280 --> 00:38:27,720
Speaker 4: anymore because like because I just I mean New Year's

675
00:38:27,840 --> 00:38:30,319
Speaker 4: came along, and I just is like I'm just I

676
00:38:30,400 --> 00:38:32,680
Speaker 4: just felt like it was a resolute resolution not to

677
00:38:32,719 --> 00:38:35,320
Speaker 4: talk to that person anymore because I just don't have.

678
00:38:37,480 --> 00:38:39,200
Speaker 2: I just I'm not like.

679
00:38:40,680 --> 00:38:43,640
Speaker 4: I just feel like, you know, if you have like

680
00:38:44,960 --> 00:38:47,680
Speaker 4: what do you call that when it's conditional love? And

681
00:38:47,719 --> 00:38:51,160
Speaker 4: then like unconditional love is different, and I'm just like

682
00:38:51,640 --> 00:38:53,799
Speaker 4: it was a conditional love type of thing, and I'm

683
00:38:53,840 --> 00:38:56,040
Speaker 4: just like yeah, like damn, like.

684
00:38:56,440 --> 00:38:59,400
Speaker 1: Guy, yeah, well you know, it's I've been I've actually

685
00:38:59,440 --> 00:39:03,799
Speaker 1: been thinking recently a lot about that concept because like

686
00:39:04,080 --> 00:39:10,000
Speaker 1: I think all love has uh. I think I don't

687
00:39:10,000 --> 00:39:13,600
Speaker 1: think that like truly unconditional love exists. I think there's

688
00:39:13,680 --> 00:39:19,360
Speaker 1: like I ideally you find love with like the minimum

689
00:39:19,440 --> 00:39:22,960
Speaker 1: amount of conditions possible, you know what I mean? Like

690
00:39:23,000 --> 00:39:26,600
Speaker 1: you like like like like if you're like, if you

691
00:39:26,760 --> 00:39:29,040
Speaker 1: hit someone, they're probably not gonna love you. You know, that's

692
00:39:29,080 --> 00:39:31,560
Speaker 1: a good condition to have, Like there's never gonna there's

693
00:39:31,600 --> 00:39:35,080
Speaker 1: never gonna be zero conditions. You know what you said that?

694
00:39:35,120 --> 00:39:37,520
Speaker 1: What was it? What was your lifestyle that that that

695
00:39:37,680 --> 00:39:39,759
Speaker 1: you said was fucking this up?

696
00:39:41,640 --> 00:39:44,040
Speaker 4: Solutly? Like to be honest, I get fired for my

697
00:39:44,120 --> 00:39:46,480
Speaker 4: job because I've smoking weed and I don't think that's

698
00:39:46,480 --> 00:39:49,040
Speaker 4: a big issue, but because you know, people know who

699
00:39:49,080 --> 00:39:53,759
Speaker 4: they hired. But I digress. And it's just kind of like, hey, man,

700
00:39:54,000 --> 00:39:57,960
Speaker 4: like if you wanted somebody to be like that, why

701
00:39:57,960 --> 00:40:00,840
Speaker 4: don't you just take my I would I would be

702
00:40:00,880 --> 00:40:03,640
Speaker 4: okay if you just took my bong and just threw

703
00:40:03,680 --> 00:40:06,040
Speaker 4: it in the trash without me knowing, you know, if

704
00:40:06,080 --> 00:40:09,719
Speaker 4: you really wanted to beat with somebody like so, I

705
00:40:09,800 --> 00:40:11,840
Speaker 4: just feel like the person who I was with didn't

706
00:40:11,920 --> 00:40:16,759
Speaker 4: take the steps to really like appropriate the conditions.

707
00:40:17,239 --> 00:40:19,040
Speaker 1: They didn't like that you were smoking weed.

708
00:40:21,719 --> 00:40:27,840
Speaker 4: Man, No, they didn't, so like now do they they did?

709
00:40:27,880 --> 00:40:30,279
Speaker 1: They tell you? They tell you that you didn't they

710
00:40:30,320 --> 00:40:31,479
Speaker 1: didn't like you smoking weed.

711
00:40:33,080 --> 00:40:33,799
Speaker 7: Yeah, but I was.

712
00:40:33,760 --> 00:40:35,560
Speaker 4: Just like, it's just so fucked up because like, I

713
00:40:35,600 --> 00:40:38,600
Speaker 4: don't I'm no contact with my family too, you know

714
00:40:38,640 --> 00:40:41,520
Speaker 4: how kids are or whatever, And I'm like no contact

715
00:40:41,520 --> 00:40:47,279
Speaker 4: with family, and then like people, I don't talk to

716
00:40:47,280 --> 00:40:49,200
Speaker 4: people either. I just kind of I just kind of

717
00:40:49,200 --> 00:40:52,320
Speaker 4: sit around and I don't I don't feel I don't

718
00:40:52,320 --> 00:40:55,280
Speaker 4: feel like I need to impress anybody.

719
00:40:56,960 --> 00:41:00,000
Speaker 1: All right, hm hmm. What how old are you?

720
00:41:00,160 --> 00:41:07,160
Speaker 4: Yeah, in twenty eight eight. I have what's going on,

721
00:41:08,520 --> 00:41:12,120
Speaker 4: like outside of whatever we're talking about, Like, I have

722
00:41:12,239 --> 00:41:15,799
Speaker 4: other things I'm doing now that are more important. But

723
00:41:16,719 --> 00:41:19,520
Speaker 4: you know, it's kind of like, dang, like I really

724
00:41:19,520 --> 00:41:22,040
Speaker 4: wish that I would have somebody to hang out with

725
00:41:22,160 --> 00:41:25,680
Speaker 4: or at least or at least bring with me, you know,

726
00:41:26,320 --> 00:41:27,440
Speaker 4: to the place I'm going.

727
00:41:27,480 --> 00:41:33,799
Speaker 5: I guess, yeah, yeah, yeah, what you said, you have

728
00:41:33,840 --> 00:41:38,120
Speaker 5: other things going away to the other things.

729
00:41:39,160 --> 00:41:46,800
Speaker 7: A recruiter hit me up for the military Okay, So yeah,

730
00:41:47,200 --> 00:41:50,319
Speaker 7: I have a degree and stuff and whatever. I'm kind

731
00:41:50,360 --> 00:41:54,800
Speaker 7: of like I have a background and corrections. I guess,

732
00:41:55,239 --> 00:42:00,719
Speaker 7: like sort of paramilitary, so you know, all right, I

733
00:42:00,760 --> 00:42:03,880
Speaker 7: guess it's not unexpected. But they called me, and I'm like,

734
00:42:05,440 --> 00:42:07,680
Speaker 7: I wish I had somebody to bring with me. I

735
00:42:07,680 --> 00:42:10,759
Speaker 7: don't know if they're listening, but probably not.

736
00:42:11,440 --> 00:42:13,920
Speaker 1: You wish you had somebody to bring with you on

737
00:42:13,920 --> 00:42:15,719
Speaker 1: on military deployment.

738
00:42:18,920 --> 00:42:24,080
Speaker 7: Essentially, Yeah, let me ask you.

739
00:42:24,320 --> 00:42:30,000
Speaker 1: I am genuinely curious why you know in this particular

740
00:42:30,080 --> 00:42:34,200
Speaker 1: phone call, because I could sit here and like, do

741
00:42:34,239 --> 00:42:36,799
Speaker 1: you I'm guess, like, I guess I want to know

742
00:42:38,160 --> 00:42:44,279
Speaker 1: if there's a particular like preference for this phone call

743
00:42:44,320 --> 00:42:46,640
Speaker 1: because I could we could sit well, I'm only asking

744
00:42:46,760 --> 00:42:48,120
Speaker 1: is like we could I could sit here, we could

745
00:42:48,120 --> 00:42:54,200
Speaker 1: talk and I could we could attempt to uh create

746
00:42:54,360 --> 00:42:56,480
Speaker 1: solutions perhaps.

747
00:42:57,840 --> 00:42:59,520
Speaker 4: I mean, I'm not like, or we could just or

748
00:42:59,520 --> 00:43:00,000
Speaker 4: we could just.

749
00:43:00,040 --> 00:43:02,400
Speaker 1: Suck around, or we could just fuck around, or I

750
00:43:02,440 --> 00:43:06,920
Speaker 1: could or I could I just suck around?

751
00:43:04,880 --> 00:43:10,879
Speaker 4: Well all right, super ugly, I'm like pretty no, hold on.

752
00:43:11,160 --> 00:43:17,120
Speaker 1: Hold on, don't hold on, hold on, Why why are

753
00:43:17,160 --> 00:43:17,960
Speaker 1: you bringing that up?

754
00:43:18,000 --> 00:43:25,080
Speaker 4: Even you know, because like fuck man, I've the reason

755
00:43:25,120 --> 00:43:26,960
Speaker 4: I smoked weeds so much is because I just have

756
00:43:27,200 --> 00:43:32,200
Speaker 4: like the the behavior of other people and stuff in

757
00:43:32,239 --> 00:43:35,680
Speaker 4: the world, and then like my behavior versus that, you know,

758
00:43:36,280 --> 00:43:40,040
Speaker 4: uh okay, weed's legal in California, right, and so I'm

759
00:43:40,080 --> 00:43:43,600
Speaker 4: just like, fuck, yeah, I smoked weed all day, bro.

760
00:43:43,840 --> 00:43:47,360
Speaker 4: And then so like that's how I get around socially.

761
00:43:48,080 --> 00:43:52,080
Speaker 4: But then like now that the like it's not legal subterally,

762
00:43:52,200 --> 00:43:56,799
Speaker 4: so like I'm literally getting getting ripped apart right now.

763
00:43:56,840 --> 00:44:02,759
Speaker 4: I can't find a job, you know, And like I

764
00:44:02,840 --> 00:44:05,640
Speaker 4: thought it was something I was good, Like, I thought

765
00:44:05,640 --> 00:44:08,120
Speaker 4: we were good for it, and I'm like, yeah, dude,

766
00:44:08,200 --> 00:44:12,040
Speaker 4: like everyone's kind of relaxed. I was pretty chill, and

767
00:44:12,080 --> 00:44:16,760
Speaker 4: then now I have no chill, Like I've found myself

768
00:44:17,040 --> 00:44:20,200
Speaker 4: kind of like insulting people online.

769
00:44:20,360 --> 00:44:20,879
Speaker 1: Why are you?

770
00:44:22,000 --> 00:44:23,000
Speaker 2: Why are you?

771
00:44:23,040 --> 00:44:25,520
Speaker 1: No? You know? Please please? I don't look I don't

772
00:44:25,560 --> 00:44:28,320
Speaker 1: know you at all, but as a fellow, I would

773
00:44:28,360 --> 00:44:33,120
Speaker 1: love to one day. I really like a utopia would

774
00:44:33,160 --> 00:44:36,440
Speaker 1: look like one day I go on Reddit and all

775
00:44:36,520 --> 00:44:39,560
Speaker 1: the post there's no posts and there's no comments because

776
00:44:39,600 --> 00:44:42,040
Speaker 1: everyone got a life and went outside. That would make

777
00:44:42,080 --> 00:44:45,239
Speaker 1: me so happy. If I went on Reddit one day

778
00:44:45,400 --> 00:44:47,840
Speaker 1: and there was there was it was just blank. It

779
00:44:48,000 --> 00:44:49,799
Speaker 1: was like nothing to be seen because and then I

780
00:44:49,800 --> 00:44:53,480
Speaker 1: look outside and everyone's like playing catch with each other

781
00:44:53,640 --> 00:44:58,520
Speaker 1: and uh, you know, drinking hot cocoa like every you know,

782
00:44:58,680 --> 00:45:02,200
Speaker 1: that's that's util right there, and so I that we

783
00:45:02,280 --> 00:45:06,640
Speaker 1: could start, you know, with you in that utopia. The

784
00:45:06,719 --> 00:45:08,719
Speaker 1: key why what do you?

785
00:45:08,760 --> 00:45:09,480
Speaker 3: What do you? What do you?

786
00:45:09,640 --> 00:45:11,840
Speaker 1: What are you insulting? What are you insulting people on

787
00:45:11,880 --> 00:45:12,480
Speaker 1: Reddit about?

788
00:45:14,800 --> 00:45:18,040
Speaker 4: You know, people need stimulation, whether it's bad or not.

789
00:45:18,160 --> 00:45:22,520
Speaker 4: But like you know, and it's like sometimes it's not

790
00:45:22,640 --> 00:45:25,520
Speaker 4: that good, but I do give that good stimulation.

791
00:45:25,960 --> 00:45:31,440
Speaker 1: What is your hold on what is your idea of

792
00:45:31,520 --> 00:45:37,000
Speaker 1: good stimulation? Are you call? Are you calling people fat

793
00:45:37,080 --> 00:45:37,760
Speaker 1: on the internet?

794
00:45:39,040 --> 00:45:42,200
Speaker 4: Damn no, I'm just calling all right.

795
00:45:42,840 --> 00:45:43,200
Speaker 2: I don't know.

796
00:45:43,239 --> 00:45:45,399
Speaker 4: I'm kind of losing it now, I'm kind of losing touch.

797
00:45:45,520 --> 00:45:49,000
Speaker 4: But I'll say this is that a lot of people

798
00:45:49,000 --> 00:45:51,880
Speaker 4: don't pay attention to what's going on. And I'm like,

799
00:45:51,960 --> 00:45:53,920
Speaker 4: I'm not I'm not one for it to be like

800
00:45:54,040 --> 00:45:57,160
Speaker 4: supportive of like drugs and stuff, but I will say

801
00:45:59,160 --> 00:46:02,960
Speaker 4: it's a problem. And then like, you know, uh, that's

802
00:46:03,000 --> 00:46:05,839
Speaker 4: I think it's funny when I see homeless people. I

803
00:46:05,840 --> 00:46:07,160
Speaker 4: am sorry. I'm sorry, but.

804
00:46:09,400 --> 00:46:12,279
Speaker 1: Hold on, hold on, Okay, just back up for me

805
00:46:12,320 --> 00:46:15,400
Speaker 1: real quick. Who are you fighting with on the internet.

806
00:46:20,320 --> 00:46:25,120
Speaker 4: I'll be I'll be saying stuff, you know, against like

807
00:46:25,320 --> 00:46:29,680
Speaker 4: whatever people people have, like I need I need this

808
00:46:29,719 --> 00:46:32,600
Speaker 4: to be happy. And it's like, dude, I don't even

809
00:46:32,600 --> 00:46:36,799
Speaker 4: smoke anymore, you know, And then it's like, okay, you

810
00:46:36,880 --> 00:46:38,640
Speaker 4: need you need drugs to be happy. And then all

811
00:46:38,640 --> 00:46:42,120
Speaker 4: of a sudden, I'm like, I will devote my entire

812
00:46:42,200 --> 00:46:45,520
Speaker 4: cause to defeating the illegal drug operations.

813
00:46:46,000 --> 00:46:49,560
Speaker 1: Okay, hold on, hold on, hold on, what's your name again?

814
00:46:51,160 --> 00:46:51,480
Speaker 2: Bob?

815
00:46:51,840 --> 00:46:55,839
Speaker 1: Bob? We have we, we are we. This conversation has

816
00:46:55,960 --> 00:47:00,680
Speaker 1: leapt into a different and to a into Mars right now. Okay,

817
00:47:00,880 --> 00:47:04,840
Speaker 1: I'm gonna reel it. We're gonna reel We're gonna reel

818
00:47:04,840 --> 00:47:08,520
Speaker 1: it back to Earth. Okay, We're gonna reel this conversation

819
00:47:08,680 --> 00:47:14,759
Speaker 1: back to the the planet Earth. So you you know what,

820
00:47:15,000 --> 00:47:17,040
Speaker 1: I don't actually care what you're arguing with people about

821
00:47:17,120 --> 00:47:20,640
Speaker 1: on the internet. To be honest with you, I'm curious, why,

822
00:47:22,160 --> 00:47:27,839
Speaker 1: oh god, why do you like getting high all the time?

823
00:47:27,960 --> 00:47:29,600
Speaker 1: I know, I really I don't want to go on

824
00:47:29,640 --> 00:47:32,759
Speaker 1: a whole stupid because I can't go. I can't in

825
00:47:32,880 --> 00:47:36,799
Speaker 1: any sort of good faith sit here and tell you

826
00:47:36,880 --> 00:47:38,839
Speaker 1: to stop getting high because I get high every day.

827
00:47:38,880 --> 00:47:42,320
Speaker 1: So I can't do that without being a total hypocrite.

828
00:47:42,520 --> 00:47:45,640
Speaker 1: But I do. But I just as a fellow human being.

829
00:47:46,760 --> 00:47:51,080
Speaker 1: And we're on the phone together right now. Just what

830
00:47:51,239 --> 00:47:53,760
Speaker 1: I'm just curious.

831
00:47:53,280 --> 00:47:55,680
Speaker 4: At the end of the day, man, I'm I'm just saying,

832
00:47:56,040 --> 00:47:57,480
Speaker 4: at the end of the day, I want to be

833
00:47:57,520 --> 00:47:59,839
Speaker 4: able to paper parking. Okay, you know what I'm saying.

834
00:48:00,040 --> 00:48:01,560
Speaker 1: That's a good goal. That's a great goal to have

835
00:48:01,640 --> 00:48:04,360
Speaker 1: to be able to pay for parking. I believe you

836
00:48:04,360 --> 00:48:05,000
Speaker 1: can achieve that.

837
00:48:07,520 --> 00:48:08,640
Speaker 6: And it's hard.

838
00:48:08,760 --> 00:48:11,200
Speaker 4: I can't pay for parking, you know, because people steal

839
00:48:11,239 --> 00:48:14,320
Speaker 4: my debit card. What I'm taking them out to dinner,

840
00:48:14,680 --> 00:48:15,840
Speaker 4: you know, and then that.

841
00:48:16,920 --> 00:48:21,560
Speaker 1: Card dude who stole who stole your debit card? When

842
00:48:21,600 --> 00:48:24,040
Speaker 1: you take them out to dinner? What are you talking about?

843
00:48:25,120 --> 00:48:27,800
Speaker 2: I don't fucking know.

844
00:48:28,440 --> 00:48:29,120
Speaker 6: It's gone.

845
00:48:29,480 --> 00:48:32,160
Speaker 4: And I'm like, I'm like, I all, I'm like, hey,

846
00:48:32,160 --> 00:48:33,600
Speaker 4: why just left this place.

847
00:48:33,680 --> 00:48:34,720
Speaker 6: I'm checking my wallet.

848
00:48:35,280 --> 00:48:36,360
Speaker 2: I can't pay for parking.

849
00:48:39,680 --> 00:48:40,439
Speaker 1: Here's the thing.

850
00:48:40,440 --> 00:48:40,879
Speaker 2: I don't know.

851
00:48:41,520 --> 00:48:45,760
Speaker 1: It's okay, do me a favorite when when when I

852
00:48:45,760 --> 00:48:47,600
Speaker 1: I'm gonna I'm gonna this is, I'm gonna put this

853
00:48:47,680 --> 00:48:49,719
Speaker 1: in a podcast and put it on the internet. Don't

854
00:48:49,880 --> 00:48:53,560
Speaker 1: don't go into the comments section and argue with people.

855
00:48:53,760 --> 00:49:00,960
Speaker 1: Just just go just I just bob. Bob. Is your name.

856
00:49:04,320 --> 00:49:06,000
Speaker 2: Coop? You can call me Coop?

857
00:49:06,080 --> 00:49:06,359
Speaker 3: All right?

858
00:49:06,360 --> 00:49:12,080
Speaker 1: I like I like Coop. That's a fun name. Hmmm,

859
00:49:13,520 --> 00:49:15,600
Speaker 1: did you what did you have a time in your

860
00:49:15,640 --> 00:49:17,560
Speaker 1: life where you've like you felt.

861
00:49:17,280 --> 00:49:23,200
Speaker 2: Good, that's sucked up?

862
00:49:23,560 --> 00:49:24,360
Speaker 4: Well did you ask that?

863
00:49:25,040 --> 00:49:25,239
Speaker 6: Yeah?

864
00:49:25,320 --> 00:49:27,320
Speaker 4: I have, I have I have a good time sometimes.

865
00:49:27,320 --> 00:49:28,520
Speaker 2: I have a good time sometimes.

866
00:49:28,560 --> 00:49:31,040
Speaker 1: Man, okay, but you have a good time something? So

867
00:49:31,080 --> 00:49:33,520
Speaker 1: you so you you sometimes have a good time.

868
00:49:35,080 --> 00:49:37,719
Speaker 4: It but I have to pay for it, you know,

869
00:49:38,040 --> 00:49:39,839
Speaker 4: like I have to pay for friends to bring them

870
00:49:39,840 --> 00:49:44,160
Speaker 4: out because they have issues. And then it's like why

871
00:49:44,160 --> 00:49:46,960
Speaker 4: did they have issues? Are you fellon or you know?

872
00:49:47,080 --> 00:49:49,640
Speaker 4: I just wish people were not so terrible?

873
00:49:50,040 --> 00:49:50,680
Speaker 3: What do you? All?

874
00:49:50,760 --> 00:49:51,360
Speaker 1: Right? Hold on?

875
00:49:51,480 --> 00:49:52,080
Speaker 3: What? So? What?

876
00:49:52,160 --> 00:49:56,399
Speaker 1: You two things? And and I this your I can

877
00:49:57,000 --> 00:49:58,759
Speaker 1: sense in your voice that you're about to take this

878
00:49:58,840 --> 00:50:02,319
Speaker 1: conversation back to Mars and we're keeping it. We're going

879
00:50:02,360 --> 00:50:06,759
Speaker 1: to keep it earth. Okay, what why are you who

880
00:50:06,800 --> 00:50:10,000
Speaker 1: are you paying to go out with you.

881
00:50:10,040 --> 00:50:12,560
Speaker 4: No, it's just like I need I need to like

882
00:50:13,400 --> 00:50:17,960
Speaker 4: I needed to go to like you know sometimes essentially

883
00:50:18,000 --> 00:50:20,279
Speaker 4: you know, it's like I was using the restroom right,

884
00:50:20,480 --> 00:50:25,839
Speaker 4: Like sometimes I need to use the restroom mentally, right Yeah.

885
00:50:25,880 --> 00:50:28,520
Speaker 4: And I'm like, okay, let me just hit these people

886
00:50:28,600 --> 00:50:31,879
Speaker 4: up and see you and see like what I can

887
00:50:31,960 --> 00:50:36,440
Speaker 4: do to like get some social interaction. Yeah, you know.

888
00:50:36,640 --> 00:50:39,680
Speaker 4: And then like once you're once you're like I even

889
00:50:39,760 --> 00:50:42,680
Speaker 4: I had friends in high school, dude, I did, and

890
00:50:42,800 --> 00:50:45,200
Speaker 4: like it just I like cut myself off because I

891
00:50:45,280 --> 00:50:48,160
Speaker 4: just had it was a trust issue, like really bad

892
00:50:48,200 --> 00:50:51,160
Speaker 4: trust issue, you know. And then like they're talking about

893
00:50:51,200 --> 00:50:54,120
Speaker 4: I want to share, like bro, like that's my girl,

894
00:50:54,239 --> 00:50:57,040
Speaker 4: Like you're going to share or something, right, and so

895
00:50:57,160 --> 00:50:59,600
Speaker 4: like I just at that point, look yeah, I know.

896
00:51:00,040 --> 00:51:02,600
Speaker 1: Okay, I'm like I'm gonna stop you again.

897
00:51:03,640 --> 00:51:05,480
Speaker 4: I'm not sharing women with other dudes.

898
00:51:06,760 --> 00:51:08,600
Speaker 1: Can I see? Do you have a real therapist that

899
00:51:08,680 --> 00:51:09,120
Speaker 1: you talk to?

900
00:51:12,239 --> 00:51:12,479
Speaker 2: Yeah?

901
00:51:12,680 --> 00:51:15,600
Speaker 4: I went to therapy and this guy just had met

902
00:51:15,600 --> 00:51:21,480
Speaker 4: his iPad and then like he was like really gluttonous,

903
00:51:21,840 --> 00:51:25,719
Speaker 4: kind of like fatty boy, and I was like, all right,

904
00:51:26,320 --> 00:51:26,799
Speaker 4: I'm just.

905
00:51:26,719 --> 00:51:28,920
Speaker 1: Gonna walk out of here, okay, So yeah, so you

906
00:51:28,960 --> 00:51:32,319
Speaker 1: were like, so if you're so, if the therapist is fat,

907
00:51:32,360 --> 00:51:35,520
Speaker 1: You're like, you're up. You're kind of like, oh, why

908
00:51:35,560 --> 00:51:37,960
Speaker 1: am I gonna let you coach my life if you're

909
00:51:38,000 --> 00:51:38,480
Speaker 1: if you're.

910
00:51:38,360 --> 00:51:42,960
Speaker 4: Fat, well, I mean, dude looked like he was taking

911
00:51:43,120 --> 00:51:46,200
Speaker 4: medication for his own self. And I'm like, bro, like,

912
00:51:46,360 --> 00:51:50,080
Speaker 4: I don't go to a therapist, Like, look, it's fair.

913
00:51:50,160 --> 00:51:53,439
Speaker 1: No one has answers no, no, yeah, yeah, I don't know, man.

914
00:51:53,480 --> 00:51:53,839
Speaker 1: I just.

915
00:51:56,560 --> 00:51:57,640
Speaker 4: You're not my therapist either.

916
00:51:57,680 --> 00:51:58,239
Speaker 2: I'm not.

917
00:51:58,600 --> 00:52:00,680
Speaker 1: No, I'm not. I know, I'm not your say, I'm just.

918
00:52:00,800 --> 00:52:06,279
Speaker 1: I'm we're too. We are two complete strangers talking on

919
00:52:06,760 --> 00:52:10,400
Speaker 1: the phone together on a podcast right now. I understand

920
00:52:10,480 --> 00:52:14,239
Speaker 1: that to be the context. But I'm just and I'm

921
00:52:14,360 --> 00:52:21,160
Speaker 1: just but I'm.

922
00:52:18,200 --> 00:52:25,160
Speaker 4: Okay, I'm I'm I just the thing I want the most.

923
00:52:25,480 --> 00:52:27,920
Speaker 4: If I was on this planet for as long as

924
00:52:27,920 --> 00:52:30,719
Speaker 4: I will be right, Yes, it is like I wish

925
00:52:30,760 --> 00:52:34,279
Speaker 4: I could cast a magical fucking spell due and just

926
00:52:35,680 --> 00:52:43,440
Speaker 4: at least have an inkling of my peace of mind

927
00:52:44,400 --> 00:52:51,719
Speaker 4: like just on like at least shown to somebody else, right,

928
00:52:51,840 --> 00:52:54,319
Speaker 4: or at least like a couple like some people right,

929
00:52:54,360 --> 00:52:57,040
Speaker 4: at least at least, like if if I had some

930
00:52:57,360 --> 00:53:01,680
Speaker 4: energy in my pot, in my in my person and

931
00:53:01,719 --> 00:53:09,920
Speaker 4: that energy was like projected, I guess that would be nice.

932
00:53:11,239 --> 00:53:14,520
Speaker 1: Okay, hold on, stare right there, stare right there, stare

933
00:53:14,560 --> 00:53:17,120
Speaker 1: right there. If you okay, you could, if you could

934
00:53:17,160 --> 00:53:20,640
Speaker 1: wave a magic wand you would have peace of mind

935
00:53:21,320 --> 00:53:22,920
Speaker 1: that was shared with another person.

936
00:53:27,120 --> 00:53:31,000
Speaker 4: Said at least at least one person. Okay, I mean

937
00:53:31,040 --> 00:53:31,880
Speaker 4: I don't know here.

938
00:53:31,719 --> 00:53:33,960
Speaker 1: I go, well, yeah, but like I mean, do you

939
00:53:34,040 --> 00:53:39,560
Speaker 1: have like do you do you have peace of mind already?

940
00:53:39,760 --> 00:53:41,360
Speaker 1: Because you can't have peace of mind to share with

941
00:53:41,360 --> 00:53:43,640
Speaker 1: another person if you don't have, like I guess, peace

942
00:53:43,680 --> 00:53:44,360
Speaker 1: of mind.

943
00:53:45,160 --> 00:53:45,360
Speaker 3: You know.

944
00:53:45,719 --> 00:53:49,080
Speaker 4: I mean, I don't want to be weird, but I'm

945
00:53:49,160 --> 00:53:53,600
Speaker 4: drinking this and this meat a lotta is really good. Yeah,

946
00:53:53,920 --> 00:53:54,520
Speaker 4: I've been drinking.

947
00:53:56,080 --> 00:54:00,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, what is a michta.

948
00:54:01,560 --> 00:54:05,279
Speaker 4: Well, you put a beer in a cup and there's

949
00:54:05,400 --> 00:54:09,799
Speaker 4: like a a rim of taking, and then they give

950
00:54:09,840 --> 00:54:14,799
Speaker 4: you some salt like whatever flavor, and you pour that

951
00:54:14,840 --> 00:54:16,799
Speaker 4: in a beer and you have a beer with some

952
00:54:16,840 --> 00:54:18,600
Speaker 4: salt and taking rim.

953
00:54:18,800 --> 00:54:19,439
Speaker 3: It's pretty good.

954
00:54:19,760 --> 00:54:22,560
Speaker 1: Yeah. Alcohol will give you, it will definitely give you

955
00:54:24,680 --> 00:54:28,400
Speaker 1: temporary piece of mind and then you you but you

956
00:54:28,520 --> 00:54:31,719
Speaker 1: kind of borrow the piece of mind. I don't, I don't.

957
00:54:31,960 --> 00:54:34,080
Speaker 1: You don't. I'm getting this. I don't really want to

958
00:54:34,120 --> 00:54:38,480
Speaker 1: go on a motivational fucking whatever thing.

959
00:54:38,920 --> 00:54:42,879
Speaker 4: But Okay, we're trying our hardest out here. Okay, yeah

960
00:54:42,920 --> 00:54:51,600
Speaker 4: I know you are. Mm hmm, but yeah mm hmmm.

961
00:54:52,719 --> 00:54:54,359
Speaker 1: Do give a job or what else do you work?

962
00:54:54,680 --> 00:54:55,160
Speaker 1: Do you work?

963
00:54:55,760 --> 00:54:56,040
Speaker 3: Dude?

964
00:54:56,080 --> 00:54:56,439
Speaker 6: I can't.

965
00:54:56,520 --> 00:55:00,279
Speaker 4: I saw two hundred applications, man, two hundred, and I

966
00:55:00,320 --> 00:55:04,640
Speaker 4: have a degree, and like I'm like, bro, okay, I smoke,

967
00:55:04,680 --> 00:55:07,640
Speaker 4: we I get it, but like who's who's fucking with me?

968
00:55:07,680 --> 00:55:07,839
Speaker 3: Bro?

969
00:55:07,960 --> 00:55:12,160
Speaker 4: Like like why is there? Like is this someone on

970
00:55:12,200 --> 00:55:15,640
Speaker 4: my phone that's like part of like the I T

971
00:55:15,960 --> 00:55:20,399
Speaker 4: Department And they're like, wow, this guy when he's we're weird,

972
00:55:21,000 --> 00:55:24,479
Speaker 4: we're bringing him in. So don't give him a fucking job.

973
00:55:25,520 --> 00:55:27,880
Speaker 4: Let him do this and that and to make some money.

974
00:55:27,880 --> 00:55:30,759
Speaker 1: And then like you know, I'm sorry, I can, I can.

975
00:55:30,840 --> 00:55:34,160
Speaker 1: I fuck. I really don't want to try to go

976
00:55:34,200 --> 00:55:36,440
Speaker 1: on a mote. I like, I just I'm just trying

977
00:55:36,520 --> 00:55:38,000
Speaker 1: so hard. I just want to talk to you, and

978
00:55:38,080 --> 00:55:40,120
Speaker 1: I don't want to go on a motivational rant. But

979
00:55:40,160 --> 00:55:42,000
Speaker 1: I have a little I just have a little thing

980
00:55:42,040 --> 00:55:43,359
Speaker 1: that I want to. Can I go on a little

981
00:55:43,360 --> 00:55:44,960
Speaker 1: motivational rant, like a tiny one.

982
00:55:47,600 --> 00:55:52,839
Speaker 4: I mean, I'm if it makes I mean, all right, you.

983
00:55:52,800 --> 00:55:55,439
Speaker 1: Know what, you know what you know? Fine, all right, fine, fine,

984
00:55:55,440 --> 00:55:57,040
Speaker 1: I want, I want.

985
00:55:58,480 --> 00:56:01,840
Speaker 4: Because I know I special place for me, man, I

986
00:56:02,200 --> 00:56:04,160
Speaker 4: have like a special place in my heart for you.

987
00:56:04,640 --> 00:56:06,680
Speaker 4: Thank you feel free?

988
00:56:08,760 --> 00:56:13,919
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, listen, First of all, just say look,

989
00:56:14,000 --> 00:56:17,640
Speaker 1: and this is a thing across the fucking board. Uh

990
00:56:17,760 --> 00:56:22,040
Speaker 1: the it's just across the fucking board that yes, getting

991
00:56:22,080 --> 00:56:25,360
Speaker 1: a job is like, this is really hard. It's like

992
00:56:25,400 --> 00:56:28,759
Speaker 1: insanely fucking difficult. Even if you feel like two hundred

993
00:56:28,960 --> 00:56:33,919
Speaker 1: motherfucking apple, it's like, annoy, it's really hard. I'm I'm

994
00:56:33,960 --> 00:56:36,480
Speaker 1: the most privileged individual on the planet that I can

995
00:56:36,480 --> 00:56:39,680
Speaker 1: do this stupid podcast and I don't have to do it,

996
00:56:40,160 --> 00:56:46,160
Speaker 1: but I know it's hard. I just if I the

997
00:56:46,200 --> 00:56:49,600
Speaker 1: only the thing that's fucking standing out to me in

998
00:56:49,680 --> 00:56:54,760
Speaker 1: talking to you and is just that when you say

999
00:56:54,880 --> 00:57:00,400
Speaker 1: that like everything is terrible and people are terrible, and

1000
00:57:00,480 --> 00:57:05,360
Speaker 1: that's just what you're what that's just etched in this stone,

1001
00:57:06,360 --> 00:57:13,200
Speaker 1: that's just carved in stone into your brain. It's it's

1002
00:57:13,280 --> 00:57:16,440
Speaker 1: just what, It's just what it's just becomes your fucking reality.

1003
00:57:16,480 --> 00:57:18,919
Speaker 1: It's just what you see. So if you walk around

1004
00:57:19,000 --> 00:57:23,120
Speaker 1: being like everyone is fucking terrible, then of course everyone

1005
00:57:23,280 --> 00:57:27,640
Speaker 1: ends up being terrible, and and there's a lot of

1006
00:57:27,680 --> 00:57:35,120
Speaker 1: like genuine like real life bad stuff, but there's also

1007
00:57:35,240 --> 00:57:37,800
Speaker 1: a good portion of it where it's like if you

1008
00:57:38,000 --> 00:57:42,360
Speaker 1: as long as if you're walking around trying to assume

1009
00:57:42,600 --> 00:57:46,640
Speaker 1: some form of positive attent of other positive intent of

1010
00:57:46,680 --> 00:57:49,760
Speaker 1: other people, you find it more than if you walk

1011
00:57:49,800 --> 00:57:52,160
Speaker 1: around assuming that everyone's terrible. That's it. That's the end

1012
00:57:52,200 --> 00:57:54,640
Speaker 1: of my vovational rant. No more motivational rants.

1013
00:57:54,520 --> 00:57:57,360
Speaker 4: Get and you're just saying positive about it. That's cool,

1014
00:57:57,480 --> 00:57:58,200
Speaker 4: not be not.

1015
00:57:58,200 --> 00:58:01,440
Speaker 1: Like not like fucking hey, everything's amazing, rainbows are awesome,

1016
00:58:01,960 --> 00:58:03,880
Speaker 1: life is good, isn't it good? Not like that, but

1017
00:58:04,000 --> 00:58:06,880
Speaker 1: just like, at least you don't have to do that,

1018
00:58:06,920 --> 00:58:09,040
Speaker 1: You don't have to walk around like a fucking teletubby,

1019
00:58:09,080 --> 00:58:11,920
Speaker 1: but just the opposite. But just don't do the opposite.

1020
00:58:12,480 --> 00:58:15,440
Speaker 1: Don't don't walk around like you're you know, because then

1021
00:58:15,720 --> 00:58:18,240
Speaker 1: then you're just fu you just prematurely fuck yourself.

1022
00:58:21,000 --> 00:58:26,360
Speaker 4: Okay, all right, all right, cool.

1023
00:58:27,160 --> 00:58:29,520
Speaker 1: Well Bob, I'm gonna let you go back I mean,

1024
00:58:30,800 --> 00:58:32,440
Speaker 1: it was a cool talk. It was nice talking to you.

1025
00:58:32,440 --> 00:58:32,560
Speaker 6: Man.

1026
00:58:32,600 --> 00:58:35,240
Speaker 1: I hope you're I hope you're okay. I don't know you.

1027
00:58:35,600 --> 00:58:39,320
Speaker 1: I hope you're okay. I hope you're not going completely

1028
00:58:39,360 --> 00:58:41,320
Speaker 1: and I hope you're going I don't I hope you

1029
00:58:41,360 --> 00:58:45,800
Speaker 1: are not going more insane. I hope you're not going

1030
00:58:45,840 --> 00:58:49,320
Speaker 1: significantly more insane than the average person on the planet

1031
00:58:50,040 --> 00:58:51,760
Speaker 1: is going insane at this current time.

1032
00:58:54,760 --> 00:58:58,640
Speaker 4: I think it's okay to cry. I wanted to say

1033
00:58:58,680 --> 00:59:01,440
Speaker 4: something to the viewers to cry. I mean, just like,

1034
00:59:01,560 --> 00:59:05,360
Speaker 4: calm down, don't cry too much. But if you can't

1035
00:59:05,360 --> 00:59:08,520
Speaker 4: help it, fuck it. Just light it up.

1036
00:59:08,880 --> 00:59:16,040
Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, Well, have a good night, Bob, thanks for calling.

1037
00:59:18,120 --> 00:59:21,760
Speaker 4: Cheers, Yeah, Coop, Yeah, I'm gonna have this all right, cool,

1038
00:59:22,000 --> 00:59:24,560
Speaker 4: all right, take care, Coop, all right later.

1039
00:59:24,600 --> 00:59:32,120
Speaker 1: Up. It's good to cry. It's good to cry. Sometimes

1040
00:59:32,120 --> 00:59:33,920
Speaker 1: you cry. When is the last time I cried? I

1041
00:59:34,000 --> 00:59:37,560
Speaker 1: cried recently? Yeah? No, I cry a lot. I actually

1042
00:59:37,600 --> 00:59:48,640
Speaker 1: cry fairly often. No, cry, Oh my god, cry Yeah, cry, laugh, cry, uh, drink,

1043
00:59:48,840 --> 00:59:54,439
Speaker 1: drink a diet coke, live for eighty years, and then

1044
00:59:55,280 --> 01:00:00,720
Speaker 1: pass away peacefully in your sleep, ideally rounded by at

1045
01:00:00,840 --> 01:00:03,880
Speaker 1: least one other human being if you can hack that.

1046
01:00:05,000 --> 01:00:08,760
Speaker 1: But even if not, this is fine. There's no this. Well,

1047
01:00:08,960 --> 01:00:10,880
Speaker 1: I don't know. It's not a win lose life. Isn't

1048
01:00:10,880 --> 01:00:15,040
Speaker 1: it really a wind lose proposition? I don't think and

1049
01:00:15,120 --> 01:00:16,960
Speaker 1: those if you want it to be, I kind of

1050
01:00:16,960 --> 01:00:18,360
Speaker 1: want I kind of want it to be. I kind

1051
01:00:18,360 --> 01:00:21,000
Speaker 1: of want to do stuff, but I guess you don't

1052
01:00:21,080 --> 01:00:22,680
Speaker 1: have to do stuff. I don't know. I feel like

1053
01:00:22,760 --> 01:00:25,880
Speaker 1: I'm okay now. I feel like I'm on Mars. But

1054
01:00:26,040 --> 01:00:28,080
Speaker 1: it's good. Maybe it's good to leave Earth now and

1055
01:00:28,120 --> 01:00:33,600
Speaker 1: then Hello, Hello, what's up man? How you doing? What's

1056
01:00:33,600 --> 01:00:34,000
Speaker 1: your name?

1057
01:00:35,800 --> 01:00:36,720
Speaker 4: My name is Coal?

1058
01:00:37,520 --> 01:00:37,880
Speaker 1: Coal?

1059
01:00:38,720 --> 01:00:39,080
Speaker 3: What up?

1060
01:00:39,200 --> 01:00:39,480
Speaker 1: Coal?

1061
01:00:39,760 --> 01:00:40,000
Speaker 2: Yeah?

1062
01:00:40,400 --> 01:00:41,040
Speaker 1: What are you doing?

1063
01:00:41,400 --> 01:00:41,600
Speaker 2: Yeah?

1064
01:00:41,640 --> 01:00:43,800
Speaker 6: I saw you. I saw you in l a kind

1065
01:00:43,840 --> 01:00:45,760
Speaker 6: of recently. I guess it was in like November.

1066
01:00:46,240 --> 01:00:48,800
Speaker 1: Oh shit, Yeah that was ah Yeah that was fun.

1067
01:00:49,080 --> 01:00:51,400
Speaker 1: That was a good time. Those are fun shows.

1068
01:00:51,480 --> 01:00:54,600
Speaker 6: Yeah. I drove from I drove from Phoenix, Arizona.

1069
01:00:56,400 --> 01:00:58,360
Speaker 1: Where are you? Which one were you at? Do you

1070
01:00:58,360 --> 01:01:00,000
Speaker 1: remember anything that happened at the show?

1071
01:01:03,320 --> 01:01:04,680
Speaker 6: I think I was at Night two.

1072
01:01:05,640 --> 01:01:07,840
Speaker 1: Was that the one where the lady talked about having

1073
01:01:07,880 --> 01:01:11,560
Speaker 1: sex with Mark Zuckerberg and her dream?

1074
01:01:11,880 --> 01:01:12,120
Speaker 6: Yes?

1075
01:01:12,160 --> 01:01:15,320
Speaker 1: It was okay, Yeah, that was interesting.

1076
01:01:17,480 --> 01:01:20,000
Speaker 6: Yeah, that happened.

1077
01:01:20,240 --> 01:01:21,280
Speaker 1: So what's going on with you?

1078
01:01:25,560 --> 01:01:25,800
Speaker 3: Man?

1079
01:01:26,080 --> 01:01:26,320
Speaker 2: Dude?

1080
01:01:26,440 --> 01:01:31,360
Speaker 6: I mean I've been watching your stream for years now

1081
01:01:33,320 --> 01:01:37,080
Speaker 6: and I finally had the urge to call in because

1082
01:01:38,600 --> 01:01:42,480
Speaker 6: I don't know, life's just like a crazy, crazy journey

1083
01:01:43,360 --> 01:01:47,000
Speaker 6: and recently, recently, I feel like I've made a lot

1084
01:01:47,040 --> 01:01:54,320
Speaker 6: of big changes. That's just been really crazy. The catalyst

1085
01:01:54,320 --> 01:01:56,600
Speaker 6: of it all. The interesting thing is that I was

1086
01:01:56,680 --> 01:02:05,240
Speaker 6: engaged to be married and now I'm not. So that

1087
01:02:05,840 --> 01:02:09,520
Speaker 6: was kind of really tough, but it ended up being

1088
01:02:09,560 --> 01:02:12,320
Speaker 6: like a catalyst for me to really get into like

1089
01:02:12,560 --> 01:02:13,600
Speaker 6: mindfulness and ship.

1090
01:02:17,760 --> 01:02:21,160
Speaker 1: How long how long were you with this person for?

1091
01:02:21,360 --> 01:02:24,000
Speaker 1: Like how long are you like in total like dating

1092
01:02:25,040 --> 01:02:27,760
Speaker 1: and engage?

1093
01:02:28,240 --> 01:02:30,120
Speaker 2: Probably two years?

1094
01:02:30,320 --> 01:02:32,200
Speaker 1: Oh all right? Two years?

1095
01:02:32,960 --> 01:02:33,160
Speaker 3: Yeah?

1096
01:02:33,680 --> 01:02:39,040
Speaker 1: And uh, do you want to talk about what happens?

1097
01:02:39,400 --> 01:02:39,680
Speaker 3: Yeah?

1098
01:02:39,760 --> 01:02:43,320
Speaker 6: It was, I mean, it was an unfortunate situation.

1099
01:02:45,040 --> 01:02:45,240
Speaker 1: You know.

1100
01:02:45,280 --> 01:02:47,600
Speaker 6: It's it's one of those situations where you love the

1101
01:02:47,640 --> 01:02:51,400
Speaker 6: person still, yeah, but you come to realize that you

1102
01:02:51,520 --> 01:02:57,680
Speaker 6: kind of just don't work together unfortunately. Yeah. And the

1103
01:02:57,720 --> 01:03:01,000
Speaker 6: crazy thing is we we separate after like a year

1104
01:03:03,360 --> 01:03:05,680
Speaker 6: and we ended up getting back together, and it's like

1105
01:03:05,720 --> 01:03:08,240
Speaker 6: we didn't learn our lesson, you know, like we tried

1106
01:03:08,280 --> 01:03:12,800
Speaker 6: to just jump back in even though there were so

1107
01:03:12,840 --> 01:03:16,240
Speaker 6: many issues, and we tried to like honeymoon face it

1108
01:03:16,280 --> 01:03:19,760
Speaker 6: out again and like forget about the issues that happened.

1109
01:03:19,840 --> 01:03:22,200
Speaker 1: You know, can I ask if you wanted, if you

1110
01:03:22,280 --> 01:03:24,320
Speaker 1: are cool to talk about them, Like what was the

1111
01:03:24,360 --> 01:03:27,280
Speaker 1: main one or a couple of ones?

1112
01:03:27,440 --> 01:03:34,480
Speaker 6: Yeah? So yeah, what happened is I flirted with a girl.

1113
01:03:34,840 --> 01:03:37,600
Speaker 1: Oh no, I flirted.

1114
01:03:37,280 --> 01:03:41,480
Speaker 6: With a girl, right, And I was like feeling kind

1115
01:03:41,520 --> 01:03:43,120
Speaker 6: of weird about it. I was like, oh, you know,

1116
01:03:43,240 --> 01:03:45,720
Speaker 6: I definitely like flirted with this person while I was

1117
01:03:45,760 --> 01:03:50,600
Speaker 6: in this relationship, and I started journaling, so I journaled

1118
01:03:50,600 --> 01:03:52,720
Speaker 6: about it, you know, like I kind of feel shitty

1119
01:03:52,720 --> 01:03:56,400
Speaker 6: that I did this, you know, like it feels like cheating,

1120
01:03:56,440 --> 01:04:01,960
Speaker 6: even though it wasn't physically doing something with someone. And

1121
01:04:02,000 --> 01:04:09,840
Speaker 6: what happened was my ex read my journal and then

1122
01:04:09,880 --> 01:04:11,439
Speaker 6: I came home and she had moved out.

1123
01:04:13,800 --> 01:04:18,080
Speaker 1: This was, uh, this was a bit like the first

1124
01:04:18,080 --> 01:04:22,760
Speaker 1: time you guys got separated. Yeah, yeah, and then and

1125
01:04:22,800 --> 01:04:27,000
Speaker 1: then what was it? What was it that got you

1126
01:04:27,080 --> 01:04:27,760
Speaker 1: back together?

1127
01:04:30,160 --> 01:04:32,800
Speaker 6: We did this thing you're not supposed to do where

1128
01:04:33,680 --> 01:04:37,080
Speaker 6: even though you're broken up, we kept having sex with

1129
01:04:37,120 --> 01:04:41,520
Speaker 6: each other. And that was not a very good thing

1130
01:04:41,560 --> 01:04:47,960
Speaker 6: to do, but we both participated in it and not

1131
01:04:48,120 --> 01:04:50,760
Speaker 6: very proud of it, but we kind of it was

1132
01:04:50,800 --> 01:04:52,840
Speaker 6: just what was easy. Like we were both two lonely

1133
01:04:52,880 --> 01:04:58,480
Speaker 6: people who like, like I knew the right path for

1134
01:04:58,640 --> 01:05:01,480
Speaker 6: me was to like focus on myself and grow, but

1135
01:05:01,480 --> 01:05:03,200
Speaker 6: it was just like so easy to go back to

1136
01:05:03,240 --> 01:05:04,040
Speaker 6: what was familiar.

1137
01:05:05,560 --> 01:05:10,680
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I mean, uh yeah, I think, well, it's

1138
01:05:10,720 --> 01:05:13,960
Speaker 1: like a human default nature. That's why I mean, that's

1139
01:05:14,000 --> 01:05:17,040
Speaker 1: why people stay in like fucking like that's why people

1140
01:05:17,080 --> 01:05:19,880
Speaker 1: stay in like abusive relationships and shit like that is.

1141
01:05:20,040 --> 01:05:21,680
Speaker 1: I mean, I'm talking about I'm talking, I'm talking about

1142
01:05:21,680 --> 01:05:23,360
Speaker 1: shit that I have, and I'm by the way, just

1143
01:05:23,720 --> 01:05:26,400
Speaker 1: I'm just really want to iterate in this very moment

1144
01:05:26,440 --> 01:05:30,040
Speaker 1: that I am talking publicly on a podcast to thousands

1145
01:05:30,120 --> 01:05:33,280
Speaker 1: of people about shit that I fucking don't know anything about.

1146
01:05:34,640 --> 01:05:37,000
Speaker 1: But why have a podcast if you're not gonna do that?

1147
01:05:37,000 --> 01:05:39,560
Speaker 1: That's I think that's the whole point of having a podcast.

1148
01:05:39,640 --> 01:05:42,960
Speaker 1: So uh but yeah, I think that's why people stay

1149
01:05:42,960 --> 01:05:45,720
Speaker 1: in relationships like that is because it's just like complacency

1150
01:05:45,880 --> 01:05:50,880
Speaker 1: is just a fucking hell of a drug, and complacency

1151
01:05:50,960 --> 01:05:53,200
Speaker 1: is a hell of a drug, and it's always like,

1152
01:05:53,280 --> 01:05:55,120
Speaker 1: you know, I think I think it's like human nature

1153
01:05:55,240 --> 01:05:59,960
Speaker 1: to just kind of do whatever the easiest, safest thing is,

1154
01:06:00,480 --> 01:06:01,800
Speaker 1: you know, I think what most people do.

1155
01:06:01,880 --> 01:06:05,520
Speaker 6: Yeah, yes, m hm.

1156
01:06:07,640 --> 01:06:10,480
Speaker 1: So whether or not that's good, I don't fucking know.

1157
01:06:10,560 --> 01:06:13,960
Speaker 1: I'm not I'm not a I don't know anything.

1158
01:06:14,880 --> 01:06:17,480
Speaker 6: But yeah, at the time it felt good. At the time,

1159
01:06:17,520 --> 01:06:21,640
Speaker 6: it felt good, But like I said, we kind of

1160
01:06:21,680 --> 01:06:25,680
Speaker 6: jumped back into the relationship and that kind of lack

1161
01:06:25,720 --> 01:06:31,560
Speaker 6: of trust remained kind of deep within our foundation. Sure,

1162
01:06:33,360 --> 01:06:36,760
Speaker 6: So you know, the thing that happened recently was I

1163
01:06:36,840 --> 01:06:40,080
Speaker 6: was talking with a coworker, an ex coworker of mine

1164
01:06:40,720 --> 01:06:44,400
Speaker 6: that she wasn't comfortable with me talking to because this

1165
01:06:44,520 --> 01:06:50,200
Speaker 6: was a woman, and you know, in my dumb man brain,

1166
01:06:50,280 --> 01:06:52,240
Speaker 6: I was like, I'm not interested in this person, so

1167
01:06:52,280 --> 01:06:57,800
Speaker 6: therefore it's okay. But it obviously brought up like hints

1168
01:06:57,800 --> 01:07:00,320
Speaker 6: of the past for her, and her trust is with

1169
01:07:00,360 --> 01:07:05,960
Speaker 6: me talking to another girl. So yeah, it's it's so

1170
01:07:06,120 --> 01:07:09,400
Speaker 6: interesting that that kind of thing broke up an engagement.

1171
01:07:09,480 --> 01:07:14,480
Speaker 6: But you know, her finding out I had reached out

1172
01:07:14,520 --> 01:07:16,440
Speaker 6: to this ex coworker to see how they were doing.

1173
01:07:17,520 --> 01:07:23,360
Speaker 6: That's what ended up uh, breaking it all down and.

1174
01:07:24,200 --> 01:07:26,640
Speaker 1: So what uh yeah, So I mean, do you still

1175
01:07:26,680 --> 01:07:31,560
Speaker 1: talk to this lady that you were engaged with? No?

1176
01:07:32,000 --> 01:07:35,400
Speaker 6: She, Uh No, I haven't been able to reach out

1177
01:07:35,440 --> 01:07:40,600
Speaker 6: with her. I called her a month ago. That was

1178
01:07:40,640 --> 01:07:42,640
Speaker 6: the last time I spoke with her. I kind of

1179
01:07:42,640 --> 01:07:46,320
Speaker 6: really I kind of wanted some closure. And you know,

1180
01:07:46,440 --> 01:07:48,160
Speaker 6: my thing was, I wanted to get to a point

1181
01:07:48,200 --> 01:07:51,480
Speaker 6: where I didn't want to call her out of necessity

1182
01:07:51,520 --> 01:07:55,280
Speaker 6: because like, like after we broke up, I struggled with

1183
01:07:55,280 --> 01:07:57,920
Speaker 6: anxiety and my panic attacks came back and I started

1184
01:07:57,920 --> 01:08:00,720
Speaker 6: having these panic attacks and I want it's so badly

1185
01:08:00,760 --> 01:08:04,520
Speaker 6: to like call her to make it go away, and

1186
01:08:04,760 --> 01:08:08,400
Speaker 6: I didn't want to like use her. If that makes sense.

1187
01:08:08,440 --> 01:08:09,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, feel better?

1188
01:08:09,480 --> 01:08:13,280
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah because you yeah, because if

1189
01:08:13,320 --> 01:08:16,760
Speaker 1: you do that, you open up a whole canno that

1190
01:08:17,080 --> 01:08:20,160
Speaker 1: you know, there's no such thing as free. You can't

1191
01:08:20,200 --> 01:08:24,120
Speaker 1: just like you know, she's like, you know, you can't

1192
01:08:24,160 --> 01:08:26,880
Speaker 1: just use it as like a band aid. It opens

1193
01:08:26,920 --> 01:08:28,640
Speaker 1: up a whole can of worms.

1194
01:08:29,680 --> 01:08:33,800
Speaker 6: Yeah right, Yeah, So that was really hard.

1195
01:08:33,560 --> 01:08:37,479
Speaker 1: But go ahead, No, I don't have any go ahead.

1196
01:08:39,680 --> 01:08:43,000
Speaker 6: I was gonna say it was really hard, but what

1197
01:08:43,160 --> 01:08:46,000
Speaker 6: got me through, like that hard time without reaching out

1198
01:08:46,000 --> 01:08:48,680
Speaker 6: to her, which was you know, the crutch I was

1199
01:08:48,720 --> 01:08:52,600
Speaker 6: so used to was like just reaching out to my

1200
01:08:52,640 --> 01:08:56,439
Speaker 6: family and friends. Yeah, which seems like so simple and stupid,

1201
01:08:56,439 --> 01:08:58,639
Speaker 6: but like I never really did.

1202
01:08:58,439 --> 01:09:03,559
Speaker 1: That before that, that's not I don't think that reaching

1203
01:09:03,600 --> 01:09:05,880
Speaker 1: out to your family and friends is stupid. If you

1204
01:09:06,000 --> 01:09:07,600
Speaker 1: told me, yeah, you know what I did is I

1205
01:09:07,960 --> 01:09:13,680
Speaker 1: got I got, I got twelve MIC's hard lemonades, and

1206
01:09:13,720 --> 01:09:17,000
Speaker 1: I rammed them down until I forgot about my life.

1207
01:09:17,439 --> 01:09:19,519
Speaker 1: I'd be like, yeah, that's a little simple and stupid.

1208
01:09:19,680 --> 01:09:23,320
Speaker 1: But no, reaching out to your family and friends is

1209
01:09:24,040 --> 01:09:27,760
Speaker 1: quite smart and good. I would say that is a

1210
01:09:27,840 --> 01:09:31,320
Speaker 1: smart and good method of doing what you are attempting

1211
01:09:31,360 --> 01:09:31,639
Speaker 1: to do.

1212
01:09:33,360 --> 01:09:36,400
Speaker 6: I guess it's stupid stupid how simple it was?

1213
01:09:36,920 --> 01:09:39,679
Speaker 1: Sure? Well, yeah, I guess it is a little stupid. Yeah,

1214
01:09:39,680 --> 01:09:43,240
Speaker 1: I guess it is like kind of funny that, like sure, sure,

1215
01:09:43,320 --> 01:09:44,800
Speaker 1: Like you call your friend and you're like, oh, I

1216
01:09:44,800 --> 01:09:49,360
Speaker 1: should have just called my friend, you know, like, especially

1217
01:09:49,400 --> 01:09:51,280
Speaker 1: if you have some do your friends? Do you have

1218
01:09:51,320 --> 01:09:52,000
Speaker 1: a lot of friends?

1219
01:09:53,800 --> 01:09:57,439
Speaker 6: I have some. Okay, I have a few core friends

1220
01:09:57,439 --> 01:10:02,720
Speaker 6: that I'm very grateful to have in my life. Like

1221
01:10:02,760 --> 01:10:05,880
Speaker 6: I reached out to my cousin and this dude I

1222
01:10:05,880 --> 01:10:08,120
Speaker 6: have known my whole life. He's my my fucking cousin,

1223
01:10:08,160 --> 01:10:11,679
Speaker 6: you know. And it turns out like he's been struggling

1224
01:10:11,680 --> 01:10:14,080
Speaker 6: with panic attacks his whole lives and it's just something

1225
01:10:14,120 --> 01:10:19,479
Speaker 6: we never talked about and just you know, calling him

1226
01:10:19,479 --> 01:10:22,040
Speaker 6: and being like, hey, like, how are you opened up

1227
01:10:22,080 --> 01:10:25,400
Speaker 6: the door to have these like deeper conversations with these

1228
01:10:25,400 --> 01:10:29,040
Speaker 6: people I've been close with but have never really been

1229
01:10:29,120 --> 01:10:29,840
Speaker 6: vulnerable with.

1230
01:10:30,120 --> 01:10:32,760
Speaker 1: Bro do Yeah, that's the most vulnerable that I mean,

1231
01:10:32,800 --> 01:10:35,320
Speaker 1: not vulnerable. That's the most valuable fucking thing that you

1232
01:10:35,360 --> 01:10:38,960
Speaker 1: can do. If you're lucky enough to have people like

1233
01:10:39,080 --> 01:10:41,720
Speaker 1: that in your life. I mean, those people will just

1234
01:10:42,160 --> 01:10:48,160
Speaker 1: save your Assay, those people will save your ass if

1235
01:10:48,280 --> 01:10:52,679
Speaker 1: if if you're lucky enough to have him in your life.

1236
01:10:54,479 --> 01:10:56,280
Speaker 1: I mean, yeah, that's what I typically do when I'm

1237
01:10:56,320 --> 01:10:59,680
Speaker 1: going insane, as I call all of my friends and

1238
01:10:59,760 --> 01:11:05,320
Speaker 1: fans Emily and whatnot. Yes, when it's the most valuable

1239
01:11:05,360 --> 01:11:09,880
Speaker 1: thing you can have. Yeah, sorry, I drank a lot.

1240
01:11:09,960 --> 01:11:13,400
Speaker 1: I drank a lot of coffee before I started recording this,

1241
01:11:14,680 --> 01:11:19,280
Speaker 1: and it's been about an hour something and I think

1242
01:11:19,280 --> 01:11:21,960
Speaker 1: I'm getting to the point, you know, how like like,

1243
01:11:22,360 --> 01:11:26,960
Speaker 1: caffeine is just borrowing. It's really just borrowing energy. It's

1244
01:11:27,080 --> 01:11:29,960
Speaker 1: it's you can that you never can create energy. You

1245
01:11:29,960 --> 01:11:31,680
Speaker 1: can only well, I mean you can if you like

1246
01:11:31,680 --> 01:11:36,000
Speaker 1: eat lettuce and salmon. But you know, caffeine is he's

1247
01:11:36,080 --> 01:11:40,160
Speaker 1: borrowed from the future. And I think I'm starting to

1248
01:11:40,400 --> 01:11:44,519
Speaker 1: arrive at the future. And I'm sorry that's happening in

1249
01:11:44,560 --> 01:11:47,679
Speaker 1: the middle of talking to you. But I just making

1250
01:11:47,720 --> 01:11:52,120
Speaker 1: that clear in case if I start mumbling and stuttering

1251
01:11:52,320 --> 01:12:02,759
Speaker 1: and making no sense, that's what's your again, Man, I'm cool.

1252
01:12:03,439 --> 01:12:03,719
Speaker 4: Cool.

1253
01:12:04,960 --> 01:12:05,880
Speaker 1: How old are you cool?

1254
01:12:07,280 --> 01:12:08,000
Speaker 6: I'm twenty five.

1255
01:12:08,520 --> 01:12:12,720
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, this is cool. I think this is

1256
01:12:12,760 --> 01:12:16,320
Speaker 1: a good life experience. Probably you're learning how to be

1257
01:12:16,439 --> 01:12:20,960
Speaker 1: more vulnerable with the people who are already in your life.

1258
01:12:21,000 --> 01:12:25,320
Speaker 1: It's deepening your connections with them. Sounds like you're learning

1259
01:12:25,400 --> 01:12:28,759
Speaker 1: a lot. Sounds like you're having making good skills. Again,

1260
01:12:28,960 --> 01:12:31,400
Speaker 1: it's if you told me that you were coping by

1261
01:12:33,040 --> 01:12:36,559
Speaker 1: you know, getting fucked up. There's worse ways to do it.

1262
01:12:38,600 --> 01:12:41,599
Speaker 6: Yeah, No, I try to go outside and smell air,

1263
01:12:42,960 --> 01:12:44,920
Speaker 6: look at trees. It's really nice.

1264
01:12:45,600 --> 01:12:52,599
Speaker 1: Yeah. Life is pretty uh pretty, it's pretty crazy. It's

1265
01:12:52,640 --> 01:12:54,599
Speaker 1: pretty coral. I'm gonna say it, and you know what,

1266
01:12:54,720 --> 01:12:57,400
Speaker 1: I don't I say it's I really mean it every

1267
01:12:57,439 --> 01:12:59,840
Speaker 1: time I say it. I've never I've met you know what,

1268
01:13:00,120 --> 01:13:04,760
Speaker 1: fucking Cole. I've never felt more in my fucking life.

1269
01:13:04,760 --> 01:13:08,519
Speaker 1: And I say this with so much confidence, and I

1270
01:13:08,640 --> 01:13:15,439
Speaker 1: mean it. I've never felt more. With every day older

1271
01:13:15,520 --> 01:13:19,439
Speaker 1: I get that life is crazy. If I say that,

1272
01:13:19,640 --> 01:13:21,840
Speaker 1: not it's not even a catchphrase any I just mean

1273
01:13:21,880 --> 01:13:26,720
Speaker 1: it and I feel it, and I I just I

1274
01:13:26,800 --> 01:13:29,400
Speaker 1: just I just think life is crazy and I'm sorry,

1275
01:13:29,840 --> 01:13:32,040
Speaker 1: but I'm also not because it is.

1276
01:13:34,080 --> 01:13:36,479
Speaker 6: Do you think that's part of the human experience that

1277
01:13:36,560 --> 01:13:42,520
Speaker 6: everyone experiences, that gradual increase of craziness.

1278
01:13:42,720 --> 01:13:42,880
Speaker 1: No?

1279
01:13:43,080 --> 01:13:45,400
Speaker 6: Do you think there's a certain path that allowed you

1280
01:13:46,080 --> 01:13:47,120
Speaker 6: to have this clarity?

1281
01:13:47,479 --> 01:13:51,120
Speaker 1: I think, I think, I'm I think, I mean, I

1282
01:13:51,120 --> 01:13:54,320
Speaker 1: think I've been very uh lucky in my life to

1283
01:13:54,479 --> 01:13:59,120
Speaker 1: experience that, to to feel like life is crazy. But

1284
01:13:59,200 --> 01:14:03,599
Speaker 1: I also think think that you don't need a lot

1285
01:14:03,960 --> 01:14:06,559
Speaker 1: to feel like life is. I mean, I like sitting,

1286
01:14:06,640 --> 01:14:11,120
Speaker 1: if you're like having, you know, sitting at a standing

1287
01:14:12,320 --> 01:14:15,240
Speaker 1: like you could go into a convenience store and buy

1288
01:14:15,240 --> 01:14:17,800
Speaker 1: a bottle of water and stand outside and drink it.

1289
01:14:18,640 --> 01:14:22,120
Speaker 1: And and look around and be like, whoa life is crazy?

1290
01:14:22,320 --> 01:14:22,519
Speaker 3: You know?

1291
01:14:23,000 --> 01:14:25,320
Speaker 1: You know it's not a lot.

1292
01:14:25,960 --> 01:14:27,800
Speaker 6: I don't you're talking. I have an experience every time

1293
01:14:27,800 --> 01:14:31,160
Speaker 6: I go to a gas station and I'm like waiting

1294
01:14:31,200 --> 01:14:36,800
Speaker 6: for my gas to finish, and I look around, I'm like,

1295
01:14:37,000 --> 01:14:38,040
Speaker 6: this is a gas station.

1296
01:14:39,479 --> 01:14:41,320
Speaker 1: What is this fucking podcast anymore?

1297
01:14:41,320 --> 01:14:41,400
Speaker 3: What?

1298
01:14:41,560 --> 01:14:46,360
Speaker 1: I don't know what I'm doing anymore? Are you all right?

1299
01:14:46,800 --> 01:14:47,160
Speaker 3: You know what?

1300
01:14:48,320 --> 01:14:52,880
Speaker 1: Cole? I'm glad you know what, Cole. I'm not worried

1301
01:14:52,920 --> 01:14:54,479
Speaker 1: about you. I think you're gonna be all right. I'm

1302
01:14:54,479 --> 01:14:55,280
Speaker 1: not worried about you.

1303
01:14:56,840 --> 01:15:00,599
Speaker 6: I really appreciate that. Can I tak one more thing?

1304
01:15:02,920 --> 01:15:07,120
Speaker 6: When I started listening to the podcast, I was still

1305
01:15:07,439 --> 01:15:11,439
Speaker 6: looking for love, and I had this habit of where,

1306
01:15:11,960 --> 01:15:15,280
Speaker 6: if I had I was lucky enough to meet up

1307
01:15:15,280 --> 01:15:20,080
Speaker 6: with someone off tender or whatever the fuck, I would

1308
01:15:20,120 --> 01:15:24,320
Speaker 6: like leave early because I like my own bed, and

1309
01:15:24,360 --> 01:15:27,280
Speaker 6: I'd hop in my car and I would turn on

1310
01:15:27,400 --> 01:15:30,960
Speaker 6: Therapy Get Go, and I would go buy a large

1311
01:15:31,160 --> 01:15:34,800
Speaker 6: milkshake and a large fry from Wiler Burger, and I

1312
01:15:34,800 --> 01:15:37,519
Speaker 6: would drink my milkshake and my eat my fry, and

1313
01:15:37,560 --> 01:15:40,200
Speaker 6: I'd listen to therapy. Gecko from my draft home.

1314
01:15:41,400 --> 01:15:43,000
Speaker 1: I am I'm happy.

1315
01:15:43,200 --> 01:15:44,759
Speaker 6: I don't know why I'm sharing that with you.

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Speaker 1: No, no, no, I'm I'm I'm happy to I'm happy

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01:15:49,120 --> 01:15:52,680
Speaker 1: to be part of your post sex driving home to

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01:15:52,800 --> 01:15:55,360
Speaker 1: get food. Ah.

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01:15:55,439 --> 01:15:57,120
Speaker 6: Yeah, I don't want to say it that way.

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01:15:56,960 --> 01:15:57,120
Speaker 3: But.

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01:15:58,840 --> 01:16:01,680
Speaker 1: I'm on, I'm on. You know what that's I I'm

1322
01:16:01,760 --> 01:16:05,920
Speaker 1: really happy. I'm really honored to fit right into that

1323
01:16:06,000 --> 01:16:08,200
Speaker 1: little part of your life. That's a nice little place

1324
01:16:08,280 --> 01:16:09,000
Speaker 1: for me to be.

1325
01:16:10,640 --> 01:16:12,519
Speaker 6: I just want you to know there's no particular reason.

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01:16:12,600 --> 01:16:16,960
Speaker 6: It's just it happened and in it and it's stuck.

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01:16:17,280 --> 01:16:19,760
Speaker 1: Every time I come, I gotta listen to therapy, get

1328
01:16:19,760 --> 01:16:21,920
Speaker 1: go and drink a large milkshake. I don't know why,

1329
01:16:22,000 --> 01:16:32,200
Speaker 1: but it's my post coom routine. Yeah all right, Well

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01:16:32,200 --> 01:16:33,400
Speaker 1: you have a good rest of the night, Cole.

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01:16:35,040 --> 01:16:37,320
Speaker 6: You two while thank care bye.

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01:16:39,800 --> 01:16:41,360
Speaker 1: What a burger is good as hell? They have? I

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01:16:41,400 --> 01:16:43,120
Speaker 1: don't shit, I don't know if this is fat burger

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01:16:43,200 --> 01:16:44,639
Speaker 1: or what a burger? I think it's what a burger

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01:16:44,680 --> 01:16:48,360
Speaker 1: that has the Doctor Pepper milkshake. I'm a big fan

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01:16:48,400 --> 01:16:51,480
Speaker 1: of that Doctor Pepper milkshake.

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01:16:53,120 --> 01:16:58,880
Speaker 7: Goes on the line every night everything, And I was

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01:16:58,920 --> 01:17:02,439
Speaker 7: teaching you a loud look like but he's not really

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01:17:02,600 --> 01:17:03,440
Speaker 7: an expert.