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Speaker 1: Lindsay, I am so honored that you're coming on my

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Speaker 1: and the way you've been so innovative in creating new

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Speaker 1: And the way you reimagine things. I just want to

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Speaker 1: start off with, how did you first fall in love

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Speaker 1: with the violin? Well, thank you first of all, thank

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Speaker 1: you for having me, and thanks for your very kind words. Um,

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Speaker 1: I fell in love with the violin when I was

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Speaker 1: always playing, you know, these old classical records in our home,

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Speaker 1: I was exposed to it, it's what I knew, and

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Speaker 1: I really wanted violin lessons when I was six, and

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Speaker 1: so you have those violin lessons. And was there ever

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Speaker 1: a time where you stopped playing violin or has it

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Speaker 1: just always been something that's been an outlet for you.

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Speaker 1: It's always been an outlet. There were times, like in

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Speaker 1: kind of started to fall out of love with it

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Speaker 1: part of my life. I love that. So I have

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Speaker 1: to ask, how many violence do you own? I've got

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Speaker 1: a whole closet full of them. It's bad, um, but

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Speaker 1: I probably have like seventeen at this point. Bad or

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Speaker 1: that's a really good point. They're covered in sparkles and

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Speaker 1: So you're telling me you have bedazzled violence. I do.

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Speaker 1: I have some really pretty ones that I get to

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Speaker 1: tour with, and like, I just got a new one

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Speaker 1: that I'm really excited to decorate and figure out how

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Speaker 1: I want to make it feel Christmas Eve for this

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Speaker 1: tour because I decorate them myself. So I'm like, what

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Speaker 1: We love that, we love it? So do you glue

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Speaker 1: the rhinestones on yourself? When I get them bedazzled. I've

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Speaker 1: actually sent them to like professional bedazzlers, because as we

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Speaker 1: So yeah, I wanted the real people to do the

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Speaker 1: real job. But if it's like something more unique, like

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Speaker 1: I just made one for a music video where there's

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Speaker 1: like little skeleton bones and all this stuff on the

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Speaker 1: violin and I made I made that myself because that

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Speaker 1: was like a fun craft night. I was like, I'm

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Speaker 1: gonna put on a rom com and I'm gonna make

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Speaker 1: my skeleton violin. What rom com? Oh? I think I

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Speaker 1: watched um Maid of Honor? How was it? Oh, it's

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Speaker 1: so cute if you haven't seen it. I'm always for

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Speaker 1: a good rom com and a good crafty project. Yes,

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Speaker 1: your girlf my own heart. We need to get together

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Speaker 1: sometime and just craft and calm it up those nights.

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Speaker 1: A good craft night with a good rom com. It's ideal.

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Speaker 1: It is. I'm in college and I'm like, that's my

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Speaker 1: ideal night. Just be with the friends, do a face

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Speaker 1: mask crafting. Yes, what better way to live life? Love it.

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Speaker 1: I know you were on America's Got Talent, which I

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Speaker 1: think is so in such an interesting part of your

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Speaker 1: story because though you didn't win it and you got eliminated,

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Speaker 1: to the next round. It was so humiliating, Like I

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Speaker 1: got told just the harshest critique I've ever received, like

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Speaker 1: I remember I did think to myself, I don't think

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Speaker 1: I don't think this is for me. Um. But then

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Speaker 1: there was this like a little inner voice that whether

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Speaker 1: so yeah, I think there's that experience taught me so

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Speaker 1: sometimes you know it just isn't the right time or place,

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Speaker 1: and that doesn't mean it that forever is not the

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Speaker 1: right time or place. Absolutely, And I've seen so many

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Speaker 1: of your interviews and I love the way you you

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Speaker 1: view things and the positive spin you take on it,

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Speaker 1: because I feel like the way we talk to ourselves

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Speaker 1: out and it's also the energy that we received, and

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Speaker 1: it's something that I'm definitely I struggle a lot with

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Speaker 1: I'm trying to figure out the whole self love journey.

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Speaker 1: It is a process. And I was wondering, what it's

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Speaker 1: positive talk when you're not feeling so positive. So what

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Speaker 1: advice do you have for you know, continuing with gratitude

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Speaker 1: and just keeping that those good vibes around yourself, you know?

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Speaker 1: I think that, Um, when it comes to like positive

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Speaker 1: about the overall journey than the moment. Like sometimes you're

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Speaker 1: to train your mind for the overall journey. And um,

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Speaker 1: when I was in college, actually I was, I was

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Speaker 1: every moment from there on out. It's really hard to

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Speaker 1: But after you say it enough, it's like you're rewiring

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Speaker 1: Like if you do that every night, you are rewiring

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Speaker 1: more those become, the stronger neural pathways than the negative ones.

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Speaker 1: Just like working out muscles um and your mind will

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Speaker 1: And I know you're you're so active on social media.

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Speaker 1: And I've noticed I turned my notifications off from Instagram

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Speaker 1: We'd love to do it too, So they now go

427
00:21:12,200 --> 00:21:14,720
Speaker 1: up in the air too, Like we've just all been,

428
00:21:15,040 --> 00:21:17,960
Speaker 1: you know, we've been rehearsing and getting stronger, and it's

429
00:21:17,960 --> 00:21:20,200
Speaker 1: there's something very empowering about it too. I've never been

430
00:21:20,480 --> 00:21:23,680
Speaker 1: super strong, like in my upper body, like I could

431
00:21:23,720 --> 00:21:25,919
Speaker 1: never do a pull up, and suddenly I'm I'm getting

432
00:21:25,960 --> 00:21:28,399
Speaker 1: strong And so there's something that's really like exciting and

433
00:21:28,440 --> 00:21:31,320
Speaker 1: empowering about like what your body can do when you

434
00:21:32,000 --> 00:21:34,840
Speaker 1: push it absolutely. And I know you talked about your

435
00:21:34,840 --> 00:21:38,199
Speaker 1: struggle with eating disorders. Isn't that even more empowering with

436
00:21:38,240 --> 00:21:40,560
Speaker 1: how much you've overcome and to be able to feel

437
00:21:40,560 --> 00:21:43,000
Speaker 1: strong in your body, has that just been even more

438
00:21:43,440 --> 00:21:47,360
Speaker 1: of a full circle moment for yourself? A percent? And

439
00:21:47,640 --> 00:21:50,600
Speaker 1: I remember when I was first trying to get through

440
00:21:50,920 --> 00:21:54,360
Speaker 1: my anorexia. Um, one of the things I really focused

441
00:21:54,359 --> 00:21:56,480
Speaker 1: on was thanking my body for what it could do,

442
00:21:56,640 --> 00:21:59,720
Speaker 1: instead of seeing it as this like visual picture that

443
00:21:59,760 --> 00:22:03,119
Speaker 1: I was always trying to shrink and trying to disappear into.

444
00:22:03,320 --> 00:22:06,080
Speaker 1: It was like, my body allows me to walk, it

445
00:22:06,119 --> 00:22:08,959
Speaker 1: allows me to you know, um, you know. And at

446
00:22:08,960 --> 00:22:11,520
Speaker 1: the time, I wasn't much of a dancer. But since

447
00:22:11,560 --> 00:22:14,320
Speaker 1: then and I always try to really think about that,

448
00:22:14,440 --> 00:22:17,679
Speaker 1: like my body is not an object, it's a tool,

449
00:22:18,040 --> 00:22:19,920
Speaker 1: and it allows me too much. And the more I've

450
00:22:20,000 --> 00:22:23,640
Speaker 1: learned to focus on the what I can do and

451
00:22:23,720 --> 00:22:27,879
Speaker 1: train my body to be, the less I have because

452
00:22:27,920 --> 00:22:30,280
Speaker 1: of course I'm like past andrexia, but there's always that

453
00:22:30,320 --> 00:22:32,359
Speaker 1: little part of my brain that there's always the voice

454
00:22:32,920 --> 00:22:34,680
Speaker 1: I had to tell ed to go away. I don't

455
00:22:34,720 --> 00:22:37,880
Speaker 1: believe that anymore. And the more I've worked on my

456
00:22:37,880 --> 00:22:40,480
Speaker 1: my skills with my body, the easier it is to

457
00:22:40,520 --> 00:22:43,800
Speaker 1: tell him to get the heck out of here. I

458
00:22:43,840 --> 00:22:46,800
Speaker 1: love having tools in your tool kit. It's so autome,

459
00:22:48,119 --> 00:22:49,560
Speaker 1: and I'd like to think of my brain as a

460
00:22:49,560 --> 00:22:53,560
Speaker 1: toolbox and I'm just filling it with tools. Love that.

461
00:22:54,080 --> 00:22:57,080
Speaker 1: So something that I think is very inspiring to me

462
00:22:57,359 --> 00:23:00,480
Speaker 1: is I know you're an independent artist and you're constantly

463
00:23:00,520 --> 00:23:03,720
Speaker 1: creating and innovating, And I was wondering, when you're going

464
00:23:03,800 --> 00:23:07,399
Speaker 1: into creating a project, what is the creative process, Like

465
00:23:07,440 --> 00:23:09,520
Speaker 1: do you generally have a theme in mind or a

466
00:23:09,520 --> 00:23:13,320
Speaker 1: general idea or things you want to implement in your

467
00:23:13,320 --> 00:23:15,960
Speaker 1: project or how does it generally go about when you're

468
00:23:15,960 --> 00:23:19,159
Speaker 1: creating something and wanting to innovate a space. You know,

469
00:23:19,240 --> 00:23:22,240
Speaker 1: it all depends. I do love a theme though. That's

470
00:23:22,240 --> 00:23:25,040
Speaker 1: why I like Christmas albums are so fun. Is like

471
00:23:25,080 --> 00:23:27,720
Speaker 1: there's a very understood theme that everyone gets and we

472
00:23:27,760 --> 00:23:30,159
Speaker 1: get to use the from the theme. Um, you know what.

473
00:23:30,160 --> 00:23:32,720
Speaker 1: I've done that on several albums, Like I wrote my

474
00:23:33,160 --> 00:23:36,800
Speaker 1: last original album was called Artemis and I actually decided

475
00:23:36,840 --> 00:23:40,200
Speaker 1: I wanted the theme to be this like fantastical story

476
00:23:40,240 --> 00:23:42,080
Speaker 1: and I wrote a comic book so that like the

477
00:23:42,160 --> 00:23:45,480
Speaker 1: album and the artwork and the music videos and the

478
00:23:45,480 --> 00:23:47,640
Speaker 1: tour could like center around this theme and the red

479
00:23:47,720 --> 00:23:51,840
Speaker 1: hair thank you. I love red hair. Um. It's like

480
00:23:51,960 --> 00:23:55,000
Speaker 1: really fun when you can create like a palette and

481
00:23:55,040 --> 00:23:57,040
Speaker 1: then you get to just bring it to life in

482
00:23:57,119 --> 00:23:59,840
Speaker 1: different mediums, Like making the music videos is so fun,

483
00:24:00,119 --> 00:24:03,679
Speaker 1: you know, for that Artemus album or making the tour flow,

484
00:24:03,800 --> 00:24:05,560
Speaker 1: like feeling like I got to tell a little bit

485
00:24:05,560 --> 00:24:08,879
Speaker 1: of the story. Um so so yeah. To me, I

486
00:24:08,920 --> 00:24:11,800
Speaker 1: think it all comes a lot from like storytelling. I've

487
00:24:11,840 --> 00:24:15,879
Speaker 1: always been a storyteller. My dad like like taught me

488
00:24:15,880 --> 00:24:17,680
Speaker 1: how to tell stories from the time I was little

489
00:24:17,680 --> 00:24:20,000
Speaker 1: because he was a writer and loved storytelling. And so

490
00:24:20,640 --> 00:24:22,720
Speaker 1: I think that's where a lot of my creativity really

491
00:24:22,760 --> 00:24:25,719
Speaker 1: thrives is when I find a way to make it

492
00:24:25,760 --> 00:24:29,040
Speaker 1: feel like the music is a narrative or you know,

493
00:24:29,119 --> 00:24:32,320
Speaker 1: like I'm writing to create a feeling of a story

494
00:24:32,440 --> 00:24:34,960
Speaker 1: or an arc of a story. There's something so magical

495
00:24:35,000 --> 00:24:37,320
Speaker 1: about that to me and always has been. So you've

496
00:24:37,359 --> 00:24:41,280
Speaker 1: done comic books, You've composed what's the next element of

497
00:24:41,840 --> 00:24:44,040
Speaker 1: storytelling that you want to go down? What's the next

498
00:24:44,119 --> 00:24:49,800
Speaker 1: endeavor for you? The next endeavor? Um, you know, I've

499
00:24:51,080 --> 00:24:54,880
Speaker 1: I've always wanted to well, I've always wanted to compose

500
00:24:55,000 --> 00:24:57,679
Speaker 1: music for like a score, like a film. And I

501
00:24:57,720 --> 00:25:00,440
Speaker 1: think you know, John Williams, I think is the greatest

502
00:25:00,640 --> 00:25:04,120
Speaker 1: musical storyteller of our time. He's inspired me so much,

503
00:25:04,160 --> 00:25:07,120
Speaker 1: and so I'd love to write like theme music, manifest

504
00:25:07,480 --> 00:25:11,040
Speaker 1: put it out there. Yes, I'm a big manifesto. I've

505
00:25:11,040 --> 00:25:13,240
Speaker 1: been trying to get into it, and I've noticed when

506
00:25:13,240 --> 00:25:15,480
Speaker 1: I feel like I've been putting out good vibes, good

507
00:25:15,560 --> 00:25:18,159
Speaker 1: vibes come back. So we're seeing how it goes. I

508
00:25:18,320 --> 00:25:20,080
Speaker 1: love it. It's so true though, it's like what you

509
00:25:20,080 --> 00:25:22,879
Speaker 1: put into the world is what comes back. It's also

510
00:25:22,960 --> 00:25:25,320
Speaker 1: what you're going to look for. It's very much what

511
00:25:25,359 --> 00:25:28,320
Speaker 1: you look for, you know, if you're focusing. Yeah, like

512
00:25:28,359 --> 00:25:30,520
Speaker 1: the good and the bad and the positive and the negative.

513
00:25:30,520 --> 00:25:33,280
Speaker 1: They're all around us simultaneously all the time, and it's

514
00:25:33,320 --> 00:25:35,680
Speaker 1: just what have you trained your mind to see? Um,

515
00:25:35,720 --> 00:25:37,040
Speaker 1: are you going to pick out the good? Are you

516
00:25:37,119 --> 00:25:39,480
Speaker 1: going to focus on the bad? And you know, and

517
00:25:39,520 --> 00:25:42,800
Speaker 1: it changes your life depending on which one you're looking for. Yeah,

518
00:25:43,160 --> 00:25:46,240
Speaker 1: So how do you stay creative without getting into a funk?

519
00:25:46,560 --> 00:25:51,400
Speaker 1: Because that is something that I've struggled with quite a bit. Yes, Um,

520
00:25:51,440 --> 00:25:54,480
Speaker 1: and funks are the worst it is, and it's like inevitable,

521
00:25:54,640 --> 00:25:58,640
Speaker 1: It's like, yeah, it happens, and um, so I definitely

522
00:25:58,640 --> 00:26:02,000
Speaker 1: get into funks and sometimes it's just a matter of

523
00:26:02,040 --> 00:26:05,440
Speaker 1: being kind to myself when I'm in it and not,

524
00:26:06,040 --> 00:26:08,560
Speaker 1: you know, just reminding myself that is a part of

525
00:26:08,600 --> 00:26:12,000
Speaker 1: the process. Like when I'm in writing mode and I

526
00:26:12,040 --> 00:26:14,320
Speaker 1: feel like I'm just writing bad song after bad song

527
00:26:14,400 --> 00:26:16,680
Speaker 1: after bad song, I'm like, you know what this happens.

528
00:26:16,800 --> 00:26:19,200
Speaker 1: We've been here before. We know that the good stuff

529
00:26:19,200 --> 00:26:22,400
Speaker 1: will eventually come, you know, So like be kind to myself.

530
00:26:22,440 --> 00:26:25,080
Speaker 1: That's kind of the the mantra of the Funk because

531
00:26:25,080 --> 00:26:26,800
Speaker 1: it's like the harder I am on myself and the

532
00:26:26,800 --> 00:26:29,320
Speaker 1: more I like get angry, you know, my why are

533
00:26:29,400 --> 00:26:31,840
Speaker 1: I being better? Like, it's only going to slow down

534
00:26:31,840 --> 00:26:34,800
Speaker 1: the process. It's like any emotion, you just gotta feel it,

535
00:26:34,880 --> 00:26:38,280
Speaker 1: experience it, and then it will move on. You know.

536
00:26:39,000 --> 00:26:42,120
Speaker 1: Have you noticed that living life has helped get help

537
00:26:42,160 --> 00:26:45,160
Speaker 1: you get out of creative funks because you're pulling more

538
00:26:45,240 --> 00:26:48,840
Speaker 1: from your life experience than just supposed to forcing yourself

539
00:26:48,880 --> 00:26:53,560
Speaker 1: to write. I think so. I think sometimes, Um, like

540
00:26:53,880 --> 00:26:56,840
Speaker 1: I just read this amazing book called The Happiness Advantage,

541
00:26:56,880 --> 00:26:59,399
Speaker 1: and he talks in the book about how, you know,

542
00:27:00,200 --> 00:27:02,280
Speaker 1: we have this mindset so many times that we just

543
00:27:02,320 --> 00:27:05,960
Speaker 1: got to push through and we just gotta like grit

544
00:27:06,000 --> 00:27:08,400
Speaker 1: down and like get through it and keep working. But

545
00:27:08,640 --> 00:27:11,639
Speaker 1: he says that if you do small, tiny things and

546
00:27:11,680 --> 00:27:12,960
Speaker 1: it's not like you even have to go on a

547
00:27:13,040 --> 00:27:15,439
Speaker 1: huge vacation or take a month off work or like

548
00:27:15,520 --> 00:27:18,480
Speaker 1: do anything big like that. Like little tiny things that

549
00:27:18,640 --> 00:27:21,280
Speaker 1: just like give you a burst of happiness, whether it's

550
00:27:21,320 --> 00:27:24,520
Speaker 1: like going to your favorite like restaurant for lunch in

551
00:27:24,560 --> 00:27:26,000
Speaker 1: the middle of the day, like just to kind of

552
00:27:26,040 --> 00:27:28,639
Speaker 1: pull yourself out of something, or um listening to your

553
00:27:28,640 --> 00:27:31,520
Speaker 1: favorite song and taking five minutes to dance around your

554
00:27:31,520 --> 00:27:34,840
Speaker 1: house before you leave to an important meeting. Like what

555
00:27:35,000 --> 00:27:38,199
Speaker 1: that does to your body, um and your mind is

556
00:27:38,280 --> 00:27:41,119
Speaker 1: game changing, and it gives you a huge advantage in

557
00:27:41,720 --> 00:27:44,960
Speaker 1: like the workplace even or in just your mental health.

558
00:27:45,000 --> 00:27:47,680
Speaker 1: Like tiny bursts of happiness. And so I've like kind

559
00:27:47,680 --> 00:27:49,840
Speaker 1: of tried to like implement this into my life, and

560
00:27:49,880 --> 00:27:52,160
Speaker 1: it's been really cool to see how I can work

561
00:27:52,240 --> 00:27:55,600
Speaker 1: longer in sessions, i can be more creatively a tune

562
00:27:55,800 --> 00:27:58,199
Speaker 1: when I'm kind of taking little breaks, which is not

563
00:27:58,280 --> 00:28:00,160
Speaker 1: intuitive to me. I have for a long time time

564
00:28:00,240 --> 00:28:01,880
Speaker 1: was always like, no, you work, you work, you work,

565
00:28:01,880 --> 00:28:03,720
Speaker 1: you go, you go, you go until you figure it out.

566
00:28:04,280 --> 00:28:06,119
Speaker 1: But there's so much more power that comes when you

567
00:28:06,160 --> 00:28:09,760
Speaker 1: take a little break. Yeah, reset yourself, get some sunlight,

568
00:28:10,080 --> 00:28:12,720
Speaker 1: have a snack, then go back in and you're gonna

569
00:28:12,720 --> 00:28:14,280
Speaker 1: be so much more effective than if you just like

570
00:28:14,400 --> 00:28:16,840
Speaker 1: powered through. I agree, And I feel like we're also

571
00:28:16,880 --> 00:28:19,639
Speaker 1: living in a society where hustle and grind culture is

572
00:28:19,800 --> 00:28:22,679
Speaker 1: so like it's good to wake up at three am

573
00:28:22,760 --> 00:28:25,440
Speaker 1: to get your days started and stay up till midnight

574
00:28:25,480 --> 00:28:27,720
Speaker 1: and work so hard and do all that. But it's

575
00:28:27,760 --> 00:28:30,239
Speaker 1: like that's just not how our bodies function, and we

576
00:28:30,280 --> 00:28:33,359
Speaker 1: need sleep and to give ourselves rest. And I feel

577
00:28:33,400 --> 00:28:37,000
Speaker 1: like people don't really talk about it, like sleep is cool, guys,

578
00:28:37,200 --> 00:28:40,720
Speaker 1: you should sleep, Like going to sleep early, sleep is cool.

579
00:28:40,760 --> 00:28:42,800
Speaker 1: I love that. And you know, I just feel like

580
00:28:42,840 --> 00:28:45,440
Speaker 1: there's this need whenever anyone's like what are you up to?

581
00:28:45,520 --> 00:28:47,600
Speaker 1: What's going on? You feel like you have to the

582
00:28:47,600 --> 00:28:51,080
Speaker 1: best answer is like I am so exhausted. Oh my gosh,

583
00:28:51,080 --> 00:28:53,200
Speaker 1: I'm just working so hard and there's so much happening.

584
00:28:53,240 --> 00:28:55,840
Speaker 1: I could bear like, you know, that's like the answer.

585
00:28:55,920 --> 00:28:57,880
Speaker 1: That's like the cool answer. I feel like it has

586
00:28:57,920 --> 00:29:00,440
Speaker 1: been for years. But why not just be like I'm

587
00:29:00,520 --> 00:29:02,400
Speaker 1: up to nothing? And it's kind of great. You know

588
00:29:02,480 --> 00:29:05,360
Speaker 1: what I've loved lately that if I like, if I

589
00:29:05,400 --> 00:29:07,480
Speaker 1: have stuff, I'll tell peop about it. But in those times,

590
00:29:07,480 --> 00:29:10,160
Speaker 1: so maybe I'm in between projects. I've learned to like

591
00:29:10,240 --> 00:29:12,040
Speaker 1: be really okay with being like, you know, I'm kind

592
00:29:12,080 --> 00:29:15,240
Speaker 1: of in between stuff right now, but like I'm happy.

593
00:29:15,480 --> 00:29:17,960
Speaker 1: I'm doing good. That's like my favorite answer to give

594
00:29:18,080 --> 00:29:19,720
Speaker 1: is not even to talk about what I'm doing or

595
00:29:19,720 --> 00:29:21,720
Speaker 1: how tired I am or if I am tired, but

596
00:29:21,840 --> 00:29:24,480
Speaker 1: just saying like I'm actually like in a good place,

597
00:29:24,560 --> 00:29:26,920
Speaker 1: like I'm I'm happy. And it's funny to see people's

598
00:29:26,960 --> 00:29:29,840
Speaker 1: response if you say, like, if your answer is that

599
00:29:29,960 --> 00:29:33,320
Speaker 1: I'm I'm happy, like, oh, you know, it's it's a

600
00:29:33,400 --> 00:29:36,280
Speaker 1: very intriatum. Tell me more, um, you know, or if

601
00:29:36,440 --> 00:29:37,880
Speaker 1: it doesn't have to be that I'm happy, be like,

602
00:29:37,920 --> 00:29:39,720
Speaker 1: oh man, it's you know, it could be whatever it is.

603
00:29:39,760 --> 00:29:41,880
Speaker 1: But talking about how you're actually doing rather than what

604
00:29:41,920 --> 00:29:45,480
Speaker 1: you're doing is like a shift for I think a

605
00:29:45,520 --> 00:29:49,160
Speaker 1: lot of people, especially in the entertainment space, when it's

606
00:29:49,200 --> 00:29:51,000
Speaker 1: so much about like what are you working on next?

607
00:29:51,040 --> 00:29:52,920
Speaker 1: What do you do? Anyway, it's not just like, you know,

608
00:29:52,960 --> 00:29:59,520
Speaker 1: I'm actually pretty content right now, like really, yeah, I'm fulfilled. Yeah,

609
00:30:00,040 --> 00:30:02,320
Speaker 1: and for no reason, I'm just like I'm just happy

610
00:30:02,760 --> 00:30:05,760
Speaker 1: and they're like, oh that's good. Yeah, I wouldn't be

611
00:30:05,880 --> 00:30:10,640
Speaker 1: like that. Yeah, okay, we have to take one more

612
00:30:10,680 --> 00:30:12,560
Speaker 1: quick break. But when we come back, I want to

613
00:30:12,560 --> 00:30:16,000
Speaker 1: talk all about touring, including how it affects your mental health,

614
00:30:16,200 --> 00:30:25,400
Speaker 1: the good and the bad. We'll be right back and

615
00:30:25,600 --> 00:30:29,120
Speaker 1: we're back. So when you're on tour, would you say

616
00:30:29,240 --> 00:30:32,120
Speaker 1: tour has been like good for your mental health and

617
00:30:32,200 --> 00:30:34,000
Speaker 1: the travel or it does it weigh on your mental

618
00:30:34,080 --> 00:30:37,040
Speaker 1: health a bit because I can't imagine like going from

619
00:30:37,040 --> 00:30:40,239
Speaker 1: city to city performing all the time. Or do you

620
00:30:40,280 --> 00:30:42,720
Speaker 1: just like love it and is that how you feed

621
00:30:42,720 --> 00:30:46,880
Speaker 1: off your energy? I kind of love it. Well that's good,

622
00:30:46,880 --> 00:30:49,920
Speaker 1: I do. I thank Heavin's. I would not do it

623
00:30:49,960 --> 00:30:52,560
Speaker 1: nearly as much as I do if I hadn't realized

624
00:30:52,560 --> 00:30:55,320
Speaker 1: early on that like, oh my gosh, I love this. Um,

625
00:30:55,560 --> 00:30:58,400
Speaker 1: you know, I love entertaining. I feel like it's kind

626
00:30:58,440 --> 00:31:00,520
Speaker 1: of what I was born to do, was to get

627
00:31:00,520 --> 00:31:02,280
Speaker 1: out there and put on a show. It's it's just

628
00:31:02,280 --> 00:31:04,920
Speaker 1: who I've always been. But I think the most important

629
00:31:04,920 --> 00:31:07,360
Speaker 1: thing that makes me love it is UM the people

630
00:31:07,360 --> 00:31:10,040
Speaker 1: I tour with, Like I I really have a family

631
00:31:10,520 --> 00:31:13,040
Speaker 1: and UM. And it's funny because I don't have a

632
00:31:13,080 --> 00:31:16,360
Speaker 1: family of my own in my home, Like I have

633
00:31:16,480 --> 00:31:18,280
Speaker 1: friends in l A and I like my people that

634
00:31:18,360 --> 00:31:20,680
Speaker 1: I love, but like I feel almost like when I

635
00:31:20,680 --> 00:31:24,080
Speaker 1: go on tour, I'm going home to a family. Um

636
00:31:24,120 --> 00:31:26,160
Speaker 1: that you know, because some of these guys and these

637
00:31:26,360 --> 00:31:27,840
Speaker 1: you know, some of the guys have been with me

638
00:31:27,920 --> 00:31:31,240
Speaker 1: for ten years, and my dancers have been with me

639
00:31:31,280 --> 00:31:34,680
Speaker 1: from anywhere from eight to four years. Um. So it's

640
00:31:34,680 --> 00:31:37,320
Speaker 1: like we really are a family and we have our

641
00:31:37,320 --> 00:31:39,320
Speaker 1: own we have our own Christmas traditions at this point

642
00:31:39,360 --> 00:31:42,640
Speaker 1: because we've toured so many times through Christmas and so um.

643
00:31:42,680 --> 00:31:44,960
Speaker 1: I think aside from the fact that I love performing,

644
00:31:45,000 --> 00:31:46,959
Speaker 1: I love putting on a show, it's the fact that

645
00:31:47,120 --> 00:31:50,520
Speaker 1: I can go to sleep at night on my tour bus,

646
00:31:50,560 --> 00:31:53,040
Speaker 1: you know, like a sleepover with my friends on the bus,

647
00:31:53,160 --> 00:31:55,360
Speaker 1: And that makes all the difference to me. That's so

648
00:31:55,440 --> 00:31:57,960
Speaker 1: much fun. Are you so excited to go back on tour.

649
00:31:58,720 --> 00:32:02,240
Speaker 1: I'm so excited, lindsay, I need to see the show.

650
00:32:02,280 --> 00:32:04,080
Speaker 1: I'm so excited to see you. I want to see

651
00:32:04,080 --> 00:32:06,560
Speaker 1: you Trappee's in the air. Oh yeah, come back to

652
00:32:06,600 --> 00:32:08,719
Speaker 1: a show. We'll get your tickets. Oh that would be

653
00:32:08,800 --> 00:32:11,520
Speaker 1: so cool. So are you so excited to just trap

654
00:32:11,640 --> 00:32:13,960
Speaker 1: peas in front of so many people or you a

655
00:32:14,000 --> 00:32:17,880
Speaker 1: little well, we did it last Christmas. Um, that was

656
00:32:17,920 --> 00:32:21,600
Speaker 1: like our our little maiden journey to see how it felt.

657
00:32:21,600 --> 00:32:24,560
Speaker 1: And it worked and and it was great. And so

658
00:32:24,680 --> 00:32:26,920
Speaker 1: we're going to all new cities this year's and we've

659
00:32:26,960 --> 00:32:29,280
Speaker 1: also had time to like home the craft a little

660
00:32:29,280 --> 00:32:32,680
Speaker 1: bit more. So I'm I'm very you're an expert. I'm

661
00:32:32,720 --> 00:32:38,920
Speaker 1: a quote unquote sure, I'm expert ish enough to do

662
00:32:39,000 --> 00:32:41,320
Speaker 1: in front of audiences. So um, because like, yeah, I

663
00:32:41,320 --> 00:32:43,120
Speaker 1: wouldn't I wouldn't be able to go up in the

664
00:32:43,120 --> 00:32:45,760
Speaker 1: air in front of a crowd if I was still afraid,

665
00:32:46,120 --> 00:32:47,880
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, if I was like afraid

666
00:32:47,920 --> 00:32:49,680
Speaker 1: of falling, Like I could not do that in front

667
00:32:49,680 --> 00:32:52,400
Speaker 1: of a crowd. But now that I'm like very comfortable,

668
00:32:52,440 --> 00:32:54,479
Speaker 1: and I'm like, I feel strong, I feel confident, like

669
00:32:55,040 --> 00:32:57,280
Speaker 1: I'm ready. I love that. Are you doing any other

670
00:32:57,400 --> 00:33:01,560
Speaker 1: d I wise for this tour? So many? I, um,

671
00:33:01,600 --> 00:33:04,440
Speaker 1: you know, I'll be making a violin something cool. I'm

672
00:33:04,440 --> 00:33:07,360
Speaker 1: not sure what. But I'm also super involved in the costuming,

673
00:33:07,480 --> 00:33:11,240
Speaker 1: so I've like, um, you know, costumes all over my

674
00:33:11,440 --> 00:33:14,320
Speaker 1: house of like bits and pieces that I've been piecing

675
00:33:14,320 --> 00:33:16,600
Speaker 1: together and then I basically, once I pieced them all

676
00:33:16,600 --> 00:33:19,040
Speaker 1: together and pinned things, I like send it to a

677
00:33:19,040 --> 00:33:21,000
Speaker 1: seamstress and then she makes it so that it's not

678
00:33:21,000 --> 00:33:25,120
Speaker 1: going to fall apart. But like, I love costuming. It's

679
00:33:25,160 --> 00:33:27,360
Speaker 1: something that I get a lot of joy in. Again,

680
00:33:27,400 --> 00:33:30,320
Speaker 1: it's like Kraft night. Yeah, I saw you made a

681
00:33:30,440 --> 00:33:34,560
Speaker 1: skirt out of your curtains and I was so impressed.

682
00:33:34,560 --> 00:33:37,960
Speaker 1: I was like, how did you do this? That was

683
00:33:38,200 --> 00:33:41,240
Speaker 1: you know, that was a moment of necessity. Like I

684
00:33:41,280 --> 00:33:44,200
Speaker 1: had ordered a dress for a music video and then

685
00:33:44,200 --> 00:33:46,200
Speaker 1: it just kept not coming and not coming, and it

686
00:33:46,280 --> 00:33:49,160
Speaker 1: kept saying it was coming, and the night before it

687
00:33:49,240 --> 00:33:51,479
Speaker 1: still hadn't arrived. And I got home and it wasn't there,

688
00:33:51,520 --> 00:33:53,440
Speaker 1: and I'm like, oh my gosh, it's nine o'clock at night.

689
00:33:53,480 --> 00:33:55,360
Speaker 1: What am I going to wear tomorrow? And I was

690
00:33:55,400 --> 00:33:57,040
Speaker 1: like laying in bed and I like looked at my

691
00:33:57,080 --> 00:33:59,280
Speaker 1: curtains and it was like the sound of music moment.

692
00:33:59,360 --> 00:34:02,680
Speaker 1: You know, it's like a favorite things. Um So yeah,

693
00:34:02,720 --> 00:34:05,000
Speaker 1: I was like, oh my gosh. I just basically pinned

694
00:34:05,000 --> 00:34:09,000
Speaker 1: it to a skirt and like draped the fabric and anyways,

695
00:34:09,000 --> 00:34:11,160
Speaker 1: it ended up looking really great. It was like the

696
00:34:11,200 --> 00:34:14,359
Speaker 1: perfect ideal situation. I didn't have to ruin the they're

697
00:34:14,400 --> 00:34:16,920
Speaker 1: actually back in my room. They were Anthropology curtains, So

698
00:34:16,960 --> 00:34:19,160
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm not going to ruin my curtains.

699
00:34:19,320 --> 00:34:25,560
Speaker 1: Never not Anthropology curtains. Never not Anthropology. It's like designer

700
00:34:25,600 --> 00:34:29,360
Speaker 1: wear for your window. Literally, So I was like, I

701
00:34:29,400 --> 00:34:31,799
Speaker 1: don't want to ruin them. So I just like unhooked them,

702
00:34:32,080 --> 00:34:34,799
Speaker 1: pinned them up, unpinned it at the video, and like

703
00:34:34,920 --> 00:34:37,760
Speaker 1: carefully placed them back up. Like goodness, I'm so excited

704
00:34:37,800 --> 00:34:40,520
Speaker 1: for the holiday sales that are about to come from Anthropology.

705
00:34:40,719 --> 00:34:45,839
Speaker 1: The candles have some fun stuff, their home to Core,

706
00:34:45,880 --> 00:34:48,759
Speaker 1: their dresses, everything is so magical. They're their home to

707
00:34:48,840 --> 00:34:52,080
Speaker 1: Core is what I hope my future house to be like.

708
00:34:52,360 --> 00:34:55,240
Speaker 1: It will like I'm it's just going to be color.

709
00:34:55,719 --> 00:34:57,759
Speaker 1: It's going to be a pink couch. Like I just know,

710
00:34:57,840 --> 00:35:01,719
Speaker 1: there's just gonna be fun. Yes, so like so feminine,

711
00:35:01,760 --> 00:35:04,880
Speaker 1: I guess is what I think draws me in. It's fun,

712
00:35:04,960 --> 00:35:07,960
Speaker 1: it's whimsical, and I feel like I feel like that

713
00:35:08,000 --> 00:35:11,040
Speaker 1: you can't find it's hard to find nowadays, it is. Yeah,

714
00:35:11,280 --> 00:35:14,040
Speaker 1: everything is so dark and dark colors. I'm like, where's

715
00:35:14,040 --> 00:35:17,160
Speaker 1: the color at Yeah, everybody's into neutrals and like a

716
00:35:17,239 --> 00:35:21,040
Speaker 1: very basic palette. Um basic like patterns. But I'm like, oh,

717
00:35:21,040 --> 00:35:25,480
Speaker 1: well give me some flooras need some color. Yeah, sparkle, oh,

718
00:35:25,880 --> 00:35:28,319
Speaker 1: sparkle anything and it will make it better. That is

719
00:35:28,440 --> 00:35:32,480
Speaker 1: my life motto. You got to absolutely Lindsay, thank you

720
00:35:32,520 --> 00:35:34,719
Speaker 1: so much for taking the time to come on my podcast,

721
00:35:34,800 --> 00:35:38,600
Speaker 1: and everyone go listen to her second Christmas album, snow Walls.

722
00:35:38,719 --> 00:35:41,399
Speaker 1: It is Oh my goodness, I'm so excited and I'm

723
00:35:41,480 --> 00:35:45,040
Speaker 1: excited to see you hopefully live. That will be incredible. Yes,

724
00:35:45,320 --> 00:35:47,080
Speaker 1: oh my gosh. Well, thank you so much for such

725
00:35:47,080 --> 00:35:49,560
Speaker 1: a great conversation. I loved all the things. I'm going

726
00:35:49,600 --> 00:35:52,439
Speaker 1: to try to do something uncomfortable every day. I love that. Yeah,

727
00:35:53,120 --> 00:35:56,319
Speaker 1: thank God for that. Thank you of course, thank you

728
00:35:56,360 --> 00:35:59,320
Speaker 1: so much. Lindsay was so lovely getting to talk to you.

729
00:35:59,320 --> 00:36:01,319
Speaker 1: You too, have a wonderful rest of your day because

730
00:36:01,400 --> 00:36:03,359
Speaker 1: luck with college. Thank you. I will make it through.

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Speaker 1: You are, You're gonna be great. Okay, bye bye